What I Intended to Be—My Aunt’s View—My Parents’
Approval—My Uncle’s Enthusiasm—The
Total Eclipse of the Sun.
Like all ambitious boys, I now began to
dream of my future.
In a daily paper to which we were subscribing,
there was a story appearing in
serial form, which I happened to read, and
in which I became immediately interested.
It was a scientific novel, with a revenge
motive. The title, the author, the plot—all
are now forgotten except the vague idea
that the hero in the end, by his high inventive
ability, built a wonderful machine,
by means of which he poured poisonous
gas into the castle where his enemy lived,
and thereby took his vengeance upon him.
I was simply fascinated, and wanted to be
an engineer.
The first one to whom I confided my intention
was Tomo-chan. Of course I did
not and could not depict an engineer as the
one in the story, wrapped in the glowing
splendor of his intellectual triumph. I
might have tried it if she had given me
a chance to do so. But too soon her peculiar
and perhaps truer view of the profession
came on me like a blow.
“Why, isn’t an engineer a sort of carpenter?”
she asked. Reduced to such a
lowest term, even my hero looked shabby,
and from that very moment I dropped him
entirely.
I was not, however, fortunate enough
to find a substitute worthy of my admiration,
and I had to go without any. But
this time my mind seemed to be able to
present to me a proper object of my
ambition. All my thought gradually
drifted toward the province of science (I
little knew then that it was the same engineer
story which influenced me). Of all
branches of learning, science appeared to
me to be the most substantial, most worthy
of serious study, and most certain of
arriving at the secret of the creation. The
study, however, of a small portion of
God’s work, such as a leaf of a tree or a
nameless insect, did not appeal to me. No,
any section of the earth was not large
enough to lay down my life for. I wanted
to take in the earth, the sun, the moon, the
planets, and the stars—in fact, all the
universe at once! So I fixed upon astronomy
as my special study. The immensity
of the field and the purely theoretical
nature of the subject, coupled with the
transcendency of the pursuit over the
triviality of worldly affairs, had all its
charm over me. It was simply great.
I went again to Tomo-chan to tell her of
my intention. The idea of an astronomer
was apparently beyond her grasp. She
could not think of any occupation such as
carpenter, mason, and so forth, to associate
with an astronomer, and it did not take
her long to admit that it was grand.
This was my first triumph, and now I
approached my aunt to see what she would
think of it. She was one of those women
whose mind never soared above the world
even for the sake of observation. She
could not conceive the idea that this earth—which,
by the way, was flat, according to
her view—revolves every day. I went
into a whole length of explanation by the
help of a lighted lamp and my fist, to show
how the revolution would cause day and
night, but to no purpose. So I changed
my tactics and told her the story of a little
girl, who, in her own way, understood this
fact. She lived at the foot of a high mountain,
on the summit of which there was a
lake. The little girl could not understand
how water could be found in such a high
place till she was told one day about the
diurnal revolution of the earth. “That
must be true,” she said, “and so the
mountain dips into the sea in the night
and carries the water from there!”
But it was not my purpose to convince
her about such a matter, and so I proceeded
to acquaint her with my intention.
I soon found that it was not exactly in the
line of her approval. She presented to me
at once her worldly view of the profession,
how out of ordinary my choice was. The
astronomer was to her a man who sleeps
when all should be up, and is awake when
all should be in bed. He looks always at
the sky, and does not know often that he
is about to tumble into a ditch. He has to
perch on a roof or a tree-top like a sparrow,
to watch the stars while everybody
is enjoying some nice thing in the house.
This, however, had no effect of a wet
blanket upon me. I knew that she was
teasing me for the mere fun of it. Her
humorous eyes were ready to take in any
change in my surprised countenance, which
on my part I partly assumed to please her.
In the end, however, she frankly admitted
that the constantly increasing number
of new studies in these enlightened
days bewildered her greatly, and she
could not tell which profession was sure
to lead one to success. Perhaps I was
right, she said, in choosing a study which
only a few might attempt.
Two days passed, in the course of which
I became surer of my choice and was ready
to face my parents. I had a secret suspicion
that my father might have some
plan already laid out for me. If he had
had anything in mind outside of a scientific
pursuit, I should have been non-plussed.
But, luckily, I found I was ahead
of him; indeed, he and my mother, too,
seemed to trust everything to my natural
inclination, and had only a vague but
bright future for me without any particular
road leading to it. So, when I laid
before them, side by side, my desire or
rather my determination to become an
astronomer and a future college professor,
with an income four times as great
as my father’s,—I reserved the poetic
side of my choice for my own meditation,—I
made such a deep impression on
them that it surprised me altogether. My
mother, bending over her sewing by lamp-light,
silently passed her hand over her
eyes, while my father picked up a paper
which had been read all through, with a
slightly drawn “Um,” in his throat,
which in his case was to be interpreted as
indicating some pleasant feeling. My
mother was the spokesman in such a case
when my father’s silence was meant for
consent. She told me that one must go
heart and soul into any sort of study in
order to excel in it. I simply nodded, and
presently went to bed with a light heart,
after bidding good night to the dear little
stars who would be my constant companions
hereafter.
I could not meet my uncle till Sunday,
but Tomo-chan told me that he heard
everything about me from my aunt, and
was very enthusiastic over my intention.
Indeed, he was always enthusiastic over
new things, though his enthusiasm was
usually rather short-lived. But I was
glad that my news struck him in that
light. That morning I found him reading
a paper, but as I approached he looked up,
and, removing his spectacles, and combing
his beard with his fingers, surveyed
me awhile as if to see if I was capable of
my word. But really he was waiting for
the return of his enthusiastic mood. I felt
that Tomo-chan was smiling over my situation
from the next room, though I could
not remove my eyes from my uncle.
“Astronomer, eh?” he said at last.
“Yes, sir. Going to be one.”
“That’s grand. You will be the fourth
or fifth in that line in our country. I
should take one of those new studies if
I were young enough. But astronomy is
indeed fascinating. Do you know that the
moon never shows her other side?”
Here he rose up and began to pace the
room. His enthusiasm served to bring
back a flood of the shallow but ready
knowledge which he stored up in a corner
of his head. And he did not let me speak a
word till he had finished a lecture on the
solar system.
“Look here,”—he turned to me with
the look of a man who made a sudden discovery,—“do
you know of the solar
eclipse we are going to have on the 20th?”
Of course I did. It was still two weeks
thence, and the moon was as opposite as
could be, but I had already darkened a
piece of glass over a candle and begun to
observe the sun at least once a day.
“This is the total eclipse and its rare
opportunity. You may not see it again in
Japan in your lifetime,” he went on.
In my lifetime was too strong a phrase,
but I was very sorry to miss the chance,
as the zone of the total eclipse passed
some fifty miles north of Tokyo, and I
had—no money.
“Perhaps in your lifetime, too,” I
ventured to suggest.
“Yes, indeed. I did not think of myself,”
he laughingly said. “Well, then,
let’s go!”
“Go?”
“I will take you and Tomo with me.”
In the adjoining room Tomo-chan was
seen just raising both her outstretched
hands, opening her mouth, and rolling her
eyes—all bespeaking her joy and surprise.
I wished very much to answer the
signal but for the presence of my uncle,
who kept staring at anybody or anything
near him, and this time at me, while revolving
some new plan in his mind.
For the intervening days I was busy
making preparations for the expedition.
I had to buy half a dozen pieces of glass,
frame and darken them in a variety of
shade; to adjust my watch to keep time;
to study the constellation where the sun
was, and note the stars of the first magnitude
visible on the day; and to make four
or five copies of a drawing with a graduated
circle in the centre for the sun, and
two other concentric circles for the orbits
of Mercury and Venus. The difficult part
of the business was how to record time
for the beginning of the eclipse. We
needed two, at least, for this. Tomo-chan
was glad to offer her service, but she did
not want to look at the watch but at the
sun. Well, I had no objection to that, as
long as she could tell the right moment.
But as I was a little in doubt on that point,
we spent several nights in drill by means
of a shaded lamp which cast a bright disc
on the wall. No sooner than I moved an
opaque one and touched the other, she had
to press my hand. But too often the
movable disc was a quarter of an inch
inside the other when the belated touch
passed on to me. So I had to train her
eyes first by giving a signal at the time of
contact by means of a pinch. And if she
did not perceive it still, she got pinched
still harder. She was very unteachable
in this respect, but still wanted to look at
the sun rather than the watch!
So the day of the eclipse arrived. It
was a hot, clear day in July, and most
fitted for the observation. We took an
early train, as we had a long way to go,
and then we must settle somewhere to
watch the beginning and the end and the
most precious middle. In the central part
of the zone of the total eclipse there was
a government observatory temporarily
erected, and we wanted to get as near to it
as possible. But we did not take into account
the rather slow service of the train,
and the hour for the eclipse had come
before we got into the zone, and were, of
course, in the train. As nothing could
be done under such circumstances, we gave
up the initial observation, and all the three
just looked at the sun through the soot-covered
pieces of glass. We did not know
that we were a gainer and not a loser by
this till late, except Tomo-chan, who had
already earned enough pinches merely to
be ready for the occasion.
The train was a few miles within the
zone when my uncle thought it wise to
stop at a small village and make an observation
there, as the sun was fast being
overshadowed. We settled in a nice tea-house,
whose front room in the second
floor with an open veranda was just the
sort of place for our purpose. And there,
after a quick lunch, we awaited the hour.
Tomo-chan and I had a board and a sheet
of paper which I had specially prepared,
to note the location of the visible stars
and to draw the shape of the corona.
I never knew that the light of the sun
was so strong, for till the luminous surface
was reduced to a very thin crescent,
no change was observed in the sky. But
all at once, as the shadow of a man passing
on the street became weirdly faint, the
color of the sky turned into warm steel-black
and the purple stars began to
shine! And in no time the crescent was
changed into a mere speck of silver light,
and in a second, as it burned itself off, a
beautifully soft fringe of twilight appeared.
That was the corona!
I now assiduously set about to take down
the exact shape of it. There were only
thirty seconds of this precious moment.
So I just put down important points on the
paper, noting carefully the position and
the distance, and tried to take a clear impression
in my mind to be traced out later.
Tomo-chan was working, too. But her
process was just the opposite of mine.
Evidently she wished to follow my picture,
but as mine was no picture, she
turned to the sun with a sigh, and, though
she finished it in time, she had a picture
of a heavenly corona twisted considerably
by an earthly wind!
The wonderful moment had now passed,
and the corona, with a tail trailing at the
right-hand side of the sun, disappeared
like a dream. It was too brief, but we
were satisfied, and did not know what to
think of our good fortune when, three
minutes later, a dark cloud came and
brushed the sun off. Then we imagined
what the consequence might have been if
the train had been fast and we had gone on
further north. The next day’s paper said
that the government expedition was entirely
spoiled on account of the untimely
shower!