Dr. Oswald was still the teacher of Fulton Academy, and many happy hours
were passed in the interchange of visits during our stay at Uncle
Nathan's; and I suppose I must inform my readers of a sentimental scene
which took place in Mr. Oswald's garden on a delightful evening in
midsummer, when, at my earnest entreaty, lovely Rose Oswald renewed the
promise made to me on that very spot just eight years ago; for my boyish
fancy had ripened into the strong man's love, and I felt that Rose
Oswald, as my wife, was all that was wanting to render me as happy as
one can reasonably expect to be in this world of change and vicissitude.
"If you are willing to resign yourself to my keeping," said I, "there is
no need of a long engagement, and when I leave Fulton I must take you
with me as my wife." "So soon, Walter." "Yes, Rose, just so soon. I
have long looked forward to this day, and now I almost count the minutes
till I can claim you as all my own," and so the matter was settled. When
Aunt Lucinda was informed of this arrangement she opened her eyes wide
in astonishment, and when she learned that the marriage was to take
place within a few days, she was highly delighted, "for", said she, "the
sun never shone on one like Rose Oswald before; in fact, she was far too
good for any one but you Walter, so if you had not chanced to fall in
love with her, she must have died an old maid."
It was a bright morning, early in September, that a small wedding party
was assembled at Mr. Oswald's residence; the few guests invited were all
old friends. I sent an urgent message for good old Dr. Gray and his
wife, and although they seldom left Elmwood, they responded to my call,
and made what, to them, was quite a long journey, that they might be
present at my marriage. That same evening we set out on our wedding
tour, while my mother and Flora, with Charley Gray, returned to Elmwood;
and, after travelling for several weeks, we found ourselves at my
mother's home, where we were to spend a few weeks longer before
returning to the city, which was to be our permanent home. Soon after my
return to Elmwood, I received an urgent message to visit Mr. Judson, who
was said to be fast failing. I felt a degree of reluctance to go, having
never once entered his dwelling since the memorable day on which I left
it years ago, but I felt it my duty to comply with his request. I found
him much weaker than I had expected. He seemed much overcome, when I
softly entered the room, and extending my hand, enquired how he found
himself. "I am very weak," he replied, "and feel that I have but a short
time to live. I have felt very anxious to see you, and I feared you
would not arrive in time to see me alive. I hope you will forgive my
unkindness and harshness to you when a boy. I did not then know that I
was so unkind, but it has come back to me since. At that time my whole
desire and aim was to accumulate riches, and it was that which caused me
to be harsh and unfeeling. I have become rich, but riches will avail
me but little, as I stand upon the brink of eternity, and the way looks
dark before me, but it will afford me some comfort to hear you say you
forgive me, before I die." I took his hand within my own, as I said:
"Any resentment I may once have cherished toward you, Mr. Judson, has
long since passed away. I was but a boy when I resided with you, and
very likely at times taxed your patience severely, and you have my
entire forgiveness for any harshness I may ever have experienced at your
hands. I am sorry to find you so ill, and hope you will soon be better."
"No, Walter;" he replied, "that will never be, and I am now sensible
that in my anxiety for the things of time, I have neglected the
all-important matters of eternity. Since I have lain upon this sick-bed
I have tried to repent, and I trust I do feel sorry for my sins; but,
somehow, I do not find the comfort I seek. Would that you could tell me
what to do Walter." Can this softened and subdued man, thought I, be
the same of whom I once stood in so much fear. As well as I was able
I directed him to the sinner's only hope, the merits of a merciful
Saviour; while, at the same time, I referred him to many comforting
Bible-promises; which, when I had read, he said: "Do you think, Walter,
those promises can be meant for me, who have neglected my Bible and been
careless and worldly all my life long?" For answer, I directed his
attention to the promise which says: "He that cometh unto me I will in
no wise cast out." He requested me to pray with him. I have never before
prayed save in the retirement of my own room, and I felt a degree of
diffidence at the thought of praying in the presence of others, but I
overcame the feeling, and, kneeling down, I forgot the physician as well
as others who listened to me, and lifted up my voice in solemn earnest
prayer. I forgot everything but the God before whom I pleaded. I prayed
that were it the will of Providence, he might be restored to health;
but, if not, that he might, in believing on the Saviour, find a comfort
which would enable him to triumph even over the terrors of death. When I
rose from my knees, he seemed more composed, and, after remaining silent
for a short time, he addressed me with much earnestness, saying: "It
seems to me, Walter, that I must see my two boys, before I die. Send
for them at once. I drove them from me by my harshness, years ago. Send
for them at once, and I hope my life maybe spared to see them once
more." He held my hand long at parting, saying: "You have done me good,
Walter, and I do begin to have a hope that my Heavenly Father will have
mercy upon me and receive me, not for any merit of my own, but through
the merits of that Saviour who died for the salvation of repentant and
believing sinners." Learning the address from Mrs. Judson, I at once
dispatched a telegraph message to the two sons, and four days later they
arrived, to mingle their tears at the death-bed of their father, from
whom they had so long been estranged. It was evident, from day to day,
that Mr. Judson was failing fast; but, as his bodily strength wasted
away, a most happy change came over his mind, during the last few days
of his life.
I was summoned from my pillow at midnight to stand by his death-bed.
His death was calm and full of hope; but, to the last, it was to him
a matter of regret, that he had neglected, through life, those things
which afforded him any hope in death. Among his last words to me, he
warned me against setting my heart upon riches, in a way that would
prove a snare to any soul. "Riches," said he, "are a great blessing when
rightly used, but ought not to be the chief aim and object of life."
Before the morning dawned, his spirit passed away, and it was my hand
that closed his eyes in the dreamless sleep of death. The next day I
called, in company with my mother, and entered the darkened room where
lay his lifeless remains, now habited for the grave. I gazed long and
silently upon those features now stamped with the seal of death. Reader,
if there lives one against whom you cherish angry and bitter feelings,
pause a moment and consider what your feelings would be if called to
stand by their coffin; for, be assured, your anger will then give place
to sorrow that you ever indulged anger toward the poor fellow-mortal now
extended before you in the slumber of death. I attended the funeral of
Mr. Judson, and saw his body consigned to the grave. He sleeps in the
village churchyard at Elmwood, and a marble slab marks his resting-place.
When, after the funeral, his will was read, the large amount of the
property left was a matter of wonder to many. In his will he gave largely
to several benevolent and religious institutions, and to me he left the
sum of one thousand dollars. I could see no reason why he should have
done this, but as his will was drawn up in legal form and properly
attested I thought it right I should accept of the generous gift; and,
indeed, it was but a small sum out of the large property left by Mr.
Judson. Besides his liberal gift to me, he also gave largely to different
benevolent and religious causes. Half the remainder of his large property
was to go to his surviving widow, and the remainder was to be equally
divided between the two sons. Before his death it was settled that
Reuben, the youngest son, was to remain on the home place to care for his
mother in her old age, while the eldest was to return to their former
business; and thus Mrs. Judson's declining years were rendered happy and
contented through the care and love of her favorite son. And so Rose and
I at length bade adieu to our friends, after a protracted visit, and
returned to the city, where, by my direction, a pleasant and tasteful
house already awaited us. Rose liked not to reside in the noisy city, so
our home is in one of the most pleasant suburbs in Montreal. Should any
of my readers be curious enough to enquire if Rose and I are happy, I
would cordially invite them to pay us a visit, and judge for themselves,
the first time they pass our way. The evening before we were to leave
Elmwood, I was seated beneath my favorite tree in my mother's garden,
and leaning backward against its grey trunk, with its thick and
wide-spreading canopy of green branches above my head, I indulged in a
long and deep reverie. Memory ran backward over the careless happy days
of my childhood, the struggles of my youth, and the exertions of mature
manhood; and although bereft, at a very early age, of my earthly father,
I could not fail to observe the guiding hand of a Heavenly Father who had
smiled upon my youthful efforts to assist my widowed mother, and had
prospered my undertakings, and crowned my mature years, by giving me,
as a life-partner, the one who had been my first and only choice, and
almost unconsciously to myself, I repeated aloud the following verse from
what was Grandma Adams' favorite psalm: "Commit thy way unto the Lord,
trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass."
So busily was my mind occupied that I failed to notice the approach of
my sister Flora, till she seated herself close to my side, and leaning
her head upon my shoulder said in a constrained hesitating voice: "There
is one thing I must tell you, Walter, before you go away: Charley Gray
has told me he loves me, and asks me to be his wife." This did not
surprise me much for I had noticed with secret anxiety the growing
intimacy between Charley and my sister. "What shall I tell him, Walter,"
said my sister, "for I must not, dare not act without the counsel of my
only brother?" I looked up in my sister's face with all the affection
which welled up from my heart and said, "you love him then, Flora?" "How
can I help loving him, who is so gifted, so noble," was her reply.
"And," continued she, "on account of his reserved nature, I believe few
give him credit for the real goodness of heart he possesses." As Flora
had said, Charley possessed a kind heart, and was just and honorable in
every respect, but I trembled for the woman who placed her happiness in
his keeping; and how much more so, when that woman was my beloved and
only sister. "You do not answer me," said Flora; "mamma would give me no
reply till I had consulted you." "My dear sister," said I, "Charley is
all that you say, just, honorable and good; but with all this he has
qualities which, if not brought under subjection, will sadly mar his own
happiness and that of all who love him. He is exclusive and jealous even
of a friend, how will it be with a wife? Suspicion and jealousy is
inherent in his very nature, for did not Doctor Gray tell me years ago
that a suspicious, jealous nature was hereditary in the family of
Charley's mother and he therefore begged me not to blame Charley too
severely for a fault which he could not help saying 'he feared the cloud
which hovered over Charley's cradle would follow him to his grave.' I
doubt not Charley's affection for you, Flora; but the very depth of his
affection will, I fear, prove a source of unhappiness to you both, for
you are aware as well as I that Charley's affection, like his anger when
roused, goes beyond the limits of sober reason. From your childhood,
Flora, you have been petted and indulged, and a life of continual
watchfulness and restraint will be something entirely new for you; for
I never knew even a friend of Charley's who could act themselves when he
was present, and unless there has been a wonderful change, as his wife,
you will be forced to guard your every word and look lest you offend
him; you must be pleased only with what pleases him, in short his will
must be yours in all things." "You are my brother," said Flora, "and I
need not blush to tell you I love Charley Gray better than I once
thought it possible for one to love another, and I know from his own
lips that he loves me equally in return, and as his wife the confidence
between us will be so full and entire, there will be no room left for
doubt and suspicion." "Well, little sister" said I, "knowing Charley
as I do, I could not help uttering those warning words, but I shall not
seek to hinder your marriage. I love and respect Charley more than any
other friend I have, but I am very sensible of his faults. A heavy
responsibility will devolve upon you as his wife, but love works
wonders, and all may be well; but remember, Flora, you have a most
peculiar nature to deal with, but it may be your privilege to exorcise
the dark spirit from the breast of Charley Gray." That same evening the
engagement ring glittered upon Flora's finger; and six months later,
amid a small company of friends, they uttered their marriage vows in
the old church at Elmwood; and by many they were called with truth a
beautiful and noble looking couple; and immediately after their marriage
they set out for their new home in one of the large cities of the
Western Provinces, where Charley was to begin the practice of his
profession. They left us under seeming summer sky, and I breathed a
prayer, that no cloud might arise to mar its serenity.