Arthur had passed a restless night. Indeed all his
nights were restless, but this one had been especially
so. Thoughts of Gretchen had troubled him in his
dreams, and two or three times he had started up to listen,
thinking that he heard her calling to him from a distance. He
had dreamed also of the blue hood seen that day of the funereal,
now more than two years ago, and of the child who had
come knocking at his door, first with her hands and then with
her feet, but whom he had refused to admit. He had never
seen her since, and had never inquired for her of his own accord.
Two or three times his brother had spoken of her in a
casual way, telling him once that she was with Mrs. Crawford.
Arthur had then asked how she could afford to keep her, and
Frank had made no reply. But the second time when he spoke
of Jerry, and Arthur, more interested in Mrs. Crawford than
in her, had asked the same question, Frank had said:
'She cannot afford it, I pay her three dollars a week.'
For a moment Arthur looked inquiringly at him; then he
said:
'You are a good fellow after all, even if you did deceive me
about sending John for Gretchen. Tell Colvin, when Christmas
comes, to give Mrs. Crawford a hundred dollars for me.'
After this Mrs. Crawford and her affairs passed completely
out of Arthur's mind. He never went to the cottage, or near
it. He never went anywhere, in fact, but lived the life of a recluse,
growing thinner, and paler, and more reticent every day,
talking now but seldom of Gretchen, though he never arose in
the morning or retired at night without kissing her picture and
murmuring to it some words of tenderness in German.
He had measured the length of his three rooms and dressing-room,
and found them to be nearly one hundred feet, or six
rods do that by passing back and forth twenty-five times he
would walk almost a mile.
Regularly each morning, when it was not too cold or stormy,
he would throw open his windows and take his daily exercise,
which was but a poor substitute for what might be had in the
fresh air outside, but was nevertheless much better than
nothing.
On this particular morning, when Harold and Jerry were at
the park, he was taking his walk as usual, though very slowly,
for he felt weak and sick, and, oh, so inexpressibly lonely and
desolate that it seemed to him he would gladly lie down and
die.
'If I thought Gretchen were dead, nothing would seem so
desirable to me as the grave, for then there would be nothing
to live for,' he was saying to himself, when the sound of voices
outside attracted his attention, and going to the window, he
saw the children, Harold in the top of the tree, and Jerry at
the foot, with her white sun-bonnet shading her face.
Recognizing Harold, he guessed who the little girl was,
and a strange feeling of interest stirred in his heart for her, as
he said:
'Poor little waif! I wonder where she came from, or what
will become of her?'
'Then resuming his walk, he forgot all about the little
waif, until startled by a voice which rang, clear and bell-like,
through the rooms:
'Mr. Crazyman! Mr. Crazyman! don't you want some
cherries?'
It was not so much the words as something in the tone, the
foreign accent, the ring like a voice he never could forget, and
which the previous night had called to him in his dreams. And
now it was calling again—not in his sleep, but in reality, for he
knew he was awake—calling from the adjoining room, which
no one could enter without his knowledge.
Mentally weak as he was, and apt to be superstitious, his
limbs shook, and his heart beat faster than its wont, as he went
toward his sleeping-apartment, from which the voice came again
a little louder and more peremptory:
'Mr. Crazyman! where are you? I've brought you some
cherries!'
He had reached the door by this time, and saw the pail on the
broad window-ledge where Jerry had put it, and to which she
was clinging, with her white sun-bonnet just in view.
'Oh, Gretchen! how did you get here?' he said, bounding
across the floor, with no thought of Jerry in his mind, no
thought of any one but Gretchen, whom he was constantly expecting
to come, though not exactly in this way.
'I climbed the ladder to fetch you some cherries, and I'm
standing on the toppest stick,' Jerry said, craning her neck
until her bonnet fell back, disclosing to view her beautiful face
flushed with excitement, and her bright, wavy hair, which,
moist with perspiration, clung in masses of round curls to her
head and forehead.
'Great Heaven!' Arthur exclaimed, as he stood staring at
the wide-open blue eyes confronting him so steadily. 'Who
are you, and where did you come from?'
'I'm Jerry, and I comed from the carpet-bag in the Tramp
House. Take me in, won't you?' Jerry said; and, mechanically
leaning from the window, Arthur took her in, while Harold
from below looked on, horror-struck with fear as to what
the result might be if Jerry were left any time alone with a
madman who did not like children.
'He may kill her; I must tell the folks,' he said; and, going
round to the side door, he entered, without knocking, and asked
for Mrs. Tracy.
But she was not at home, and so he told the servants of
Jerry's danger, and begged them to go to her rescue.
'Pshaw, he won't hurt her. Charles will come pretty soon,
and I'll send him up. Don't look so scared; he is harmless,'
the cook said to Harold, who, in a wild state of nervous fear,
went back to the cherry trees, where he could listen and hear
the first scream which should proclaim Jerry's danger.
But none came, and could he have looked into the room,
where Jerry sat, or rather stood, he would have been amazed.
As Arthur lifted Jerry through the window, and put her
down upon the floor, he said to her:
'Take off that bonnet and let me look at you.'
She obeyed and stood before him with all her wealth of hair
tumbling about her glowing face, and an eager, questioning expression
in her blue eyes, which looked at him so fearlessly.
Arthur knew perfectly well who she was, but something about
her so dazed and bewildered him that for a moment he could
not speak, but stared at her with the hungry, wistful look of
one longing for something just within his reach, but still unattainable.
'Do you like me?' Jerry asked at last.
'Like you?' he replied. 'Yes. Why did you not come to
me sooner?'
And, stooping, he kissed the cherry-stained mouth as he had
never kissed a child before.
Sitting down upon the lounge, he took her in his lap and said
to her again:
'Who are you, and where did you come from? I know your
name is Jerry, which is a strange one for a girl, and I know you
live with Mrs. Crawford, but before that night where did you
live? Where did you come from?'
'Out of the carpet-bag in the Tramp House. I told you that
once,' Jerry said. 'Harold found me. I am his little girl.
He is out in the cherry tree, and said I must not come up, because
you were crazy and would hurt me. You won't hurt me,
will you? And be you crazy?'
'Hurt you? No,' he answered, as he parted the rings of her
hair from her low brow. 'I don't know whether I am crazy or
not They say so, and perhaps I am, when my head is full of
bumble-bees.'
'Oh—h!' Jerry gasped, drawing back from him. 'Can they
get out? And will they sting?'
Arthur burst into a merry laugh, the first he had known since
he came back to Shannondale. Jerry was doing him good.
There was something very soothing in the touch of the little
warm hands he held in his, and something puzzling and fascinating,
too, in the face of the child. He did not think of a likeness
to any one; he only knew that he felt drawn toward her
in a most unaccountable manner, and found himself wondering
greatly who she was.
'Harold told me there were pictures and marble people up
here with nothing on, and everything, and that's why I comed—that
and to bring you some cherries. I like pictures. Can I
see them?' Jerry said.
'Yes, you shall see them,' Arthur replied; and he led her
into the room where Gretchen's picture looked at them from
the window.
'Oh, my!' Jerry exclaimed, with bated breath, 'Ain't she
lovely! Is she God's sister?' and folding her hands together,
she stood before the picture as reverently as a devout Catholic
stands before a Madonna.
It was some time since Jerry had spoken a word of German,
but as she stood before Gretchen's picture old memories seemed
to revive, and with them the German word for pretty, which
she involuntarily spoke aloud.
Low as was the utterance, it caught Arthur's ear, and grasping
her shoulder, he said:
'What was that? What did you say, and where did you
learn it?'
His manner frightened her; perhaps the bumble-bees were
coming out, and she drew back from him, forgetting entirely
what she had said.
'It was a German word,' he continued, 'and the accent is
German, too; can you speak it.'
Unconsciously as he talked, he dropped into that language,
and Jerry listened intently, with a strained look on her face,
as if trying to recall something which came and went, but went
more than it came, if that could be.
'I talked that once,' she said, 'when I lived with mamma;
but she is dead. Harold found her, and I put flowers on her
grave.'
Half the time she was speaking in German, or trying to,
and Arthur listened in amazement, while his interest in her
deepened every moment, as he took her through the rooms and
showed her 'the marble people with nothing on them,' and
the beautiful pictures which adorned his walls.
'How would you like to come and be my little girl?' he
asked her at last, when, remembering Harold and the cherries,
she told him she must go, and started toward the window as
if she would make her egress as she had come in.
'Can Harold come, too? I can't leave Harold,' she said
Then, as she caught sight of him still standing at a distance,
gazing curiously up at the window through which she had disappeared,
she called out, 'Yes Harold; I'm coming. I have
seen him and everything, and he did not hurt me. Good-bye!'
and she turned toward Arthur with a little nod.
Then, before he could stop her, she sprang out upon the ladder,
and went down faster than she had come up, leaving the pail
of cherries upon the window-sill, and leaving, too, in Arthur's
breast a tumult of emotions which he could not define.
That night, when Frank, who had heard in much alarm of
Jerry's visit to his brother, went up to see him, he found him
more cheerful and natural than he had seen him in weeks. As
Frank expected, his first words were of the little girl who had
come to him through the window and left him the cherries, of
which he said he had eaten so many that he feared they might
make him sick. What did Frank know of the child? What
had he learned of her history? Of course he had made enquiries
everywhere?
It was just in the twilight, before the gas was lighted, and
so Arthur did not see how his brother's face flamed at first and
then grew white as he recapitulated what the reader already
knows, dwelling at length upon the enquiries he had made in
New York, all of which had been fruitless. There was the name
Jerrine on the child's clothing, he said and the initials 'N.B.'
on that of her mother, who was evidently French, although she
must have come from Germany.'
'Yes,' Arthur replied, 'the child is a German, and interests
me greatly. Her face and something in her voice has haunted
me all the afternoon. Was there nothing in that trunk or the
carpet-bag which would be a clue?'
'Nothing,' Frank replied, although it seemed to him it was
the shadow speaking for him, or at least putting the lie into his
mouth. There were articles of clothing, all very plain, and a picture
book printed at Leipsic, I can get that for you if you
like, though it tells nothing unless it he that the mother lived
in Leipsic.'
Frank talked very rapidly, and laid so much stress on Leipsic,
that Arthur got an idea that Jerry had actually come from
there, just as his brother meant he should, and he began to
speak of the town and recall all he knew of it.
'I was never there but once,' he said, 'for although I spent
a great deal of time in Germany, it was mostly in Heidleberg
and Wiesbaden. Oh, that is lovely,—Wiesbaden—and nights
now, when I cannot sleep, I fancy that I am there again, in the
lovely park, and hear the music of the band, and see the
crowds of people strolling through the grounds, and I am there
with them, though apart from the rest, just where a narrow
path turns off from a bridge, and a seat is half hidden from view
behind the thick shrubberies. There I sit again with Gretchen,
and feel her hand in mine and her dear head on my arm. Oh,
Gretchen—'
There was a sob now in his voice, and he seemed to be talking
to himself rather than to his brother, who said to him:
'Gretchen lived in Wiesbaden, then?'
'Yes; but for heaven's sake pronounce it with a V, and not
a W, and in two syllables instead of three,' Arthur answered,
pettishly, his ear offended as it always was with a discordant
sound or mispronounciation.
'Veesbaden, then,' Frank repeated, understanding now why
Jerry had stumbled over the name when he once spoke it to
her.
Clearly she had come from Wiesbaden, where Gretchen had
lived, and where he believed she had died, though he did not
tell Arthur so; he merely said:
'Gretchen was your sweetheart, I suppose?'
But Arthur did not reply; he never replied to direct questions
as to who Gretchen was, but after a moment's silence, he
said:
'You speak of her as something past. Do you believe she is
dead?'
'Yes, I do,' was Frank's decided answer. You have never
told me who she was, though I have my own opinion on the
subject, and I know that you loved her very much, and if she
loved you so much—'
'She did—she did; she loved me more—far more than I
deserved,' was Arthur's vehement interruption.
'Well, then,' Frank continued, 'if she did, and were living,
she would have come to you, or answered your letters, or sent
you some messenger.'
Frank's voice trembled here, and be seemed to see again the
cold, still face of the dead woman, whose lips, could they have
spoken, might have unlocked the mystery and brought a message
from Gretchen'
'True, true,' Arthur replied. 'She would have come or
written. How long is it since I came home?'
'Four years next October,' Frank said.
'Four years;' Arthur went on, 'is it so long as that? And
it, was then more than three years since I had seen her. Everything
was blotted out from my mind from the time that I entered
that accursed maison de santé until I found myself in
Paris. I am afraid she is dead.'
Just then Charles came in with lights and the chocolate his
master always took before retiring, and so Frank said good-night,
and went out upon the broad piazza, hoping the night
air would cool his heated brow, or that the laughter and prattle
of Jack and Maude, who were frolicking on the gravel walk,
would drown the voice of the shadow which said to him:
'But for the number of years he says it is since he saw
Gretchen, there could be no doubt, and you would be the biggest
rascal living. As it is, you need not distress yourself—Jerry
is nothing to him; and if she were, you have gone too
far now to go back. People would never respect you again.
And then there is Maude. You cannot disgrace her.'
No, he could not disgrace his darling Maude, who, as if
guessing that he was thinking of her, came up the steps to his
side, and seating herself upon his lap, pushed the hair from his
forehead with her soft fingers, and kissed him lovingly as she
was wont to do.
'My beautiful Maude,' he thought, for he knew she would
be beautiful, with her black hair, and starry eyes, and brilliant
complexion, and he loved her with all the strength of his
nature. To see her grow into womanhood, admired and sought
after by everyone, was the desire of his heart, and as he believed
that money was necessary to the perfect fulfilment of his
desire, for her sake he would carry his secret to the grave.
'Are you sick, papa?' Maude asked, looking into his pale
face, on which the moon shone brightly.
'No, pet,' he answered, 'only tired. I am thinking of little
Jerry Crawford. She was here this afternoon,'
'Yes, I saw her in the park with Harold. Isn't he handsome,
papa? and such a nice boy! so different from Tom,'
said Maude, and then she went on: 'Jerry is pretty too;
prettier than I am; her hair curls and mine doesn't, but her
dress is so ugly—that old high apron and calico gown. What
makes her so poor and me so rich?'
Mr. Tracy groaned inwardly, as he replied:
'You are not rich, my child.'
'Oh, yes, I am,' Maude said, 'I heard mamma tell Mrs.
Brinsmade so. She said Uncle Arthur was worth a million,
and when he died we should have it all, because he could not
make a will if he wanted to, and he had no children of his
own,'
Although little more than seven years old, Maude Tracy was
very knowing and precocious in some respects, and, like her
brother Tom, had heard so much from her mother and others
of their prospective wealth, that she understood the situation
far better than she ought, and was already counting on the
thousands waiting for her when her uncle died. And yet
Maude Tracy had in her nature qualities which were to ripen
into a noble womanhood. Truthful and generous, her instincts
of right and wrong were very keen, and young as she was she
had no respect for anything like deception or trickery. This
her father knew, and his bitterest pang of remorse came from
this thought, 'What would Maude say if she knew?' And it
was more for her sake he was sinning than for his own or that of
any other. She was so pretty, or would be when grown to
young ladyhood, and the adornments which money could bring
would so well become her.
'Maude,' he said at last, 'how would you like to change
places with Jerry? That is, let her come here and live, while
we go away and be poor; not quite as she is, but like many
people.'
'And not wear a sash, and beads, and buttoned boots every
day?' Maude interrupted him quickly. 'I should not like it
at all. Why, Jerry dresses herself, and wipes the dishes, and
wears those big aprons all the time. No, I don't want to be
poor;' and as if something in her father's mind had communicated
itself to her, she raised her head from his shoulder and
looked beseechingly at him.
'Nor shall you be poor, if I can help it,' he said; 'but you
must be very kind to Jerry, and never let her feel that you
are richer than she. Do you understand?'
'I think I do,' Maude answered, adding as she kissed him
fondly: 'And now I s'pose I must go, for there is Hetty
come for me; so, good-night, you dearest, best papa in the
world.'
He knew that she believed in him fully; that should he
confess his fault she would understand it, and lose faith in him.
He would bear the burden, he said to himself. There should be
no more repining or looking back, Maude must never know;
and so Jerry's chance was lost.
The next morning Arthur awoke with a racking headache.
He was accustomed to it, it is true; but this one was particularly
severe.
'It's the cherries; no wonder; a quart of those sour things
would turn upside down any stomach,' Charles said, as he
glanced at the empty tin pail which was adorning an inlaid
table, and then suggested a dose of ipecac as a means of dislodging
the offending cherries.
But Arthur declined the medicine. His stomach was well
enough, he said. It was his head which ached, and nothing
would help that like the touch of the cool little hands he had
held in his the previous day. Charles must go for Jerry—go
at once, for he wanted her, and as when Arthur wanted a
thing he wanted it immediately, Charles was soon on his way
to the cottage in the lane, where he found the little girl under a
tall lilac bush, busy with the mud pies she was making, and
talking to herself, partly in English and partly in broken
German, which she had resumed since visiting the park.
'Seemed like something I had dreamed, when he talked like
that, and I could almost do it myself,' she said to Harold when
describing the particulars of her interview with Mr. Tracy, and
her tongue fell naturally into the language of her babyhood.
On hearing Charles' errand, her delight was unbounded.
'Iss. You'll let me go,' she cried, as she stood before Mrs.
Crawford, with the mud-spots on her hands and face; 'and
you'll let me wear my best gown now, and my white apron
with the shoulder-straps, and my morocco shoes, because this
visiting.'
As Mrs. Crawford could see no objection to the plan, Jerry
was soon dressed, and on her way to the Park House, which
seemed to her to be a very palace, and until the day before a
place to be looked upon with awe, and admired breathlessly
at a distance. Indeed, she had sometimes, when passing near
the house, walked on tiptoe, as if on sacred ground, and held
back her humble dress lest it should harm a shrub or vine by
contact. But matters now were changed. She had been there,
and was going there again by special invitation from the master,
and she tripped along airily with a sense of dignity and importance
unusual in one so young.
Mrs. Tracy, who seldom troubled herself with her brother-in-law's
affairs, knew nothing of his having sent for Jerry, and
was surprised when she saw her coming up the walk with
Charles, whose manner indicated that he knew perfectly what
he was about. She had heard of Jerry's visit on the previous
day, and had wondered what Arthur could find in that child to
interest him, when he would never allow Maude in his room.
She knew nothing of the shadow which night and day was
nearer to her husband than she was herself, but she did not fancy
Jerry, because of the three dollars a week, which she felt was
so much taken from herself. Why they should be burdened
with the support of the child, just because her mother happened
to be found dead upon their premises, she could not understand.
Had Jerry been older, she might, she said, have taken her
into the kitchen as maid of all work, for Dolly had reached a
point where she liked a great many servants in the household,
and prided herself upon employing more help than either Grace
Atherton or Edith St. Claire. Only that morning she had
spoken to her husband of Jerry, and asked him how long he
proposed to support her.
'Just as long as I have a dollar of my own, and she needs
it,' was his reply, as he left the room, slamming the door behind
him and leaving her to think him almost as crazy as his
brother.
Thus it was not in a very quiet frame of mind that she went
out upon the cool, broad piazza, and, taking one of the large
willow chairs standing there, began to rock back and forth and
wonder what had so changed her husband, making him silent
and absent-minded, and even irritable at times, as he had been
that morning. Was there insanity in his veins as well as in
his brother's, and would her children inherit—her darling
Maude, of whom she was so proud, and who, she hoped, would
some day be the richest heiress in the county and marry Dick
St. Claire, if, indeed, she did not look even higher?
It was at this point in her soliloquy that she saw Jerry coming
up the walk, her face glowing with excitement and her
manner one of freedom and assurance.
Ascending the steps, Jerry nodded and smiled at the lady,
whose expression was not very inviting, and who, to the child's
remark, 'I've comed again,' answered, icily:
'I see you have. Seems to me you come pretty often.' Turning
to Charles, Mrs. Tracy continued:
'Why is she here again so soon? What does she want?'
Quick to detect and interpret the meaning of the tones of a
voice, and hearing disapprobation in Mrs. Tracy's, Jerry's face
was shadowed at once, and she looked up entreatingly at
Charles, who said:
'Mr. Tracy sent me for her. She was with him yesterday,
and he will have her again to-day.'
Then Jerry's face brightened, and she chimed in:
'Iss, I'm visiting, I'm invited, and I'm going to stay to eat.'
Mrs. Tracy dared not interfere with Arthur, even if he took
Jerry to live there altogether, and, with a bend of her head, she
signified to Charles that the conference was ended.
'Come, Jerry,' Charles said; but Jerry held back a moment,
and asked:
'Where's Maude?'
If Mrs. Tracy heard, she did not reply, and Jerry followed
on after Charles through the hall and up the broad staircase to
the darkened room where Arthur lay, suffering intense pain in
the head, and moaning occasionally. But he heard the patter
of the little feet, for he was listening for it, and when Jerry
entered his room he raised himself upon his elbow, and reaching
the other hand toward her, said:
'So you have come again, little Jerry; or, perhaps I should
call you little Cherry, considering how you first came to me.
Would you like that name?'
'Iss,' was Jerry's reply, in the quick, half-lisping way which
made the monosyllable so attractive.
'Well, then, Cherry,' Arthur continued, 'take off that bonnet,
and open the blind behind me so I can see your face.
Then bring that stool and sit where I can look at you while
you rub my head with your hands. It aches enough to split,
and I believe the bumble bees are swarming; but they can't
get out, and if they could, they are the white-faced kind, which
never sting.'
Jerry knew all about white-faced bumble-bees, for Harold
had caught them for her, and with this fear removed, she did
as Arthur bade her, and was soon seated at his side, rubbing
his forehead, where the blue veins were standing out full and
round, and smoothing his hair caressingly with her fingers,
which seemed to have in them a healing power, for the pain
and heat grew less under their touch, and, after a while Arthur
fell into a quiet sleep.
When he awoke, after half an hour or so, it was with a delicious
sense of rest and freedom from pain. Jerry had dropped
the shades to shut out the sunlight, and was walking on tiptoe
round the room, arranging the furniture and talking to herself
in whispers, as she usually did when playing alone.
'Jerry,' Arthur said to her, and she was at his side in a
moment, 'you are an enchantress. The ache is all gone from
my head, charmed away by your hands. Now, come and sit
by me again, and tell me all you know of yourself before Harold
found you. Where did you live? What was your mother's
name? Try and recall all you can.'
Jerry, however, could tell him very little besides the Tramp
House, and the carpet-bag, and Harold letting her fall in the
snow. Of the cold and the suffering she could recall nothing, or
of the journey from New York in the cars. She did remember
something about the ship, and her mother's seasickness, but
where she lived before she went to the ship she could not tell.
It was a big town, she thought, and there was music there, and
a garden, and somebody sick. That was all. Everything else
was gone entirely, except now and then when vague glimpses
of something in the past bewildered and perplexed her. Her
pantomime of the dying woman and the child had not been repeated
for more than a year, for now her acting always took
the form of the tragedy in the Tramp House, with herself in
the carpet-bag and a lay figure dead beside her. But gradually, as
Arthur questioned her, the old memories began to come back
and shape themselves in her mind, and he said at last:
'It was like this—playin' you was a sick lady and I was
your nurse. I can't think of her name, I guess I'll call her
Manny. And there must be a baby; that's me, only I can't
think of my name.'
'Call it Jerry, then,' Arthur suggested, both interested and
amused, though he did not quite understand what she meant.
But he was passive in her hands, and submitted to have a
big handkerchief put over his head for a cap, to hold on his
arm the baby she improvised from a sofa-cushion of costly
plush, around which she arranged as a dress an expensive tablespread,
tied with the rich cord and tassel of his dressing-gown.
'You must cry a great deal,' she said, 'and pray a great deal,
and kiss the baby a great deal, and I must scold you some for
crying so much, and shake the baby some in the kitchen for
making a noise, because, you know, the baby can walk and
talk, and is me, only I can't be both at a time.'
She was not very clear in her explanations, but Arthur began
to have a dim perception of her meaning, and did what she
bade him do, and rather enjoyed having his face and hands
washed with a wet rag, and his hair brushed and turled, as she
called it, even though the fingers which turled it sometimes made
suspicious journeyings to her mouth. He cried when she told
him to cry; he coughed when she told him to cough; he kissed
the baby when she told him to kiss it; he took medicine from
the tin pail in the form of the cherry juice left there, and did
not have to make believe that it sickened him, as she said he
must, for that was a reality. But when she told him he must
die, but pray first, he demurred, and asked what he should
say. Jerry hesitated a little. She knew that her prayers were
'Our Father,' and 'Now I lay me,' but it seemed to her that a
person dying should say something else, and at last she replied:
'I can't think what she did say, only a lot about him. There
was a him somewhere, and I guess he was naughty, so pray for
him, and the baby—that's me—and tell Manny she must take
me to Mecky,'
'To whom?' Arthur asked, and she replied:
'To Mecky, where he was, don't you know?'
Arthur did not know, but he prayed for him, saying what she
bade him say—a mixture half English, half German.
'There now, you are dead,' she said at last, as she closed his
eyes and folded his hand upon his chest, 'You are dead, and
mustn't stir nor breathe, no matter how awful we cry, Man-nee
and I.'
Kneeling down beside him, she began to cry so like that
of two persons that if Arthur had not known to the contrary,
he would have sworn there were two beside him, a woman and
a child, the voice of the one shrill and clear, and young, and
frightened, the other older, and harsher, and stronger, and both
blending together in a most astonishing manner.
'With a little practice she would make a wonderful ventriloquist,'
Arthur thought, as he watched her flitting about the
room, talking to unseen people and giving orders with regard
to himself.
Once Frank had witnessed a pantomine very similar to this,
only then the play had ended with the death, while now there
was the burial, and when Arthur moved a little and asked if he
might get up, she laid her hand quickly on his mouth, with a
peremptory 'hush! you are dead and we must bury you.'
But here Jerry's memory failed her, and the funeral which
followed was an imitation of the one which had left the Park
House three years before, and which Arthur had watched from
his window. Frank was there, and his wife, and Peterkin, and
Jerry imitated the voices of them all, and when someone bade
her kiss her mother she stooped and kissed Arthur's forehead,
and said:
'Good-bye, mamma,' then throwing a thin tidy over his face,
she continued, 'Now, I am going to shut the coffin,' and as
she worked at the corners, as if driving down the screws,
Arthur felt as if he were actually being shut out from life, and
light, and the world.
To one of his superstitious tendencies the whole was terribly
real, and when at last she told him he was buried, and
the folks had come back, and he could get up, the sweat
was standing upon his face and hands in great drops, and
he felt that he had in very truth been present at the obsequies
of some one, whose death had made an impression so
strong upon Jerry's mind that time had not erased it. There
was in his heart no thought of Gretchen, as there had been
in Frank's when he was a spectator at the play. He had no
cause for suspicion, and thought only of the child whose
restlessness and activity were something appalling to him.
'Now, what shall we play next?' she asked, as he sat white
and trembling in his chair.
'Oh, nothing, nothing,' he groaned, 'I cannot stand any
more now.'
'Well, then, you sit still, and I'll clean house; it needs it
badly. Such mud as that boy brings in I never saw, and I'm
so lame, too!' Jerry responded, and Arthur recognized Mrs.
Crawford, whose tidiness and cleanliness were proverbial, and
for the next half hour he watched the little actress as she limped
around the room exactly as Mrs. Crawford limped with her
rheumatism, sweeping, dusting, and scolding a little, both to
Harold and Jerry, the latter of whom once retorted:
'I would not be so cross as that if I had forty rheumatisses
in my laigs, would you, Harold?'
But Harold only answered, softly:
'Hush, Jerry I you should not speak so to grandmamma, and
she so good to us both, when we haven't any mother.'
Arthur would have laughed, so perfect was the imitation of
voice and gesture, but at the mention of Harold's mother there
came into his mind a vision of sweet Amy Crawford, who had
been his first love, and for whose son he had really done so little.
'Jerry,' he said, 'I guess you have cleaned house long enough.
Wash your hands and come to me.'
She obeyed him, and looking into his face, said:
'Now, what? can you play cat's cradle or casino?'
'No; I want to talk to you of Harold. You love him very
much?'
'Oh, a hundred bushels—him and grandma, too.'
'And he is very kind to you?'
'Yes, I guess he is. He never talks back, and I am awful
sometimes, and once I spit at him, and struck him; but I was
so sorry and cried all night, and offered to give him my best
doll 'cause it was the plaything I loved most, and I went without
my piece of pie so he could have two pieces if he wanted,'
Jerry said, her voice trembling as she made this confession,
which gave Arthur a better insight into her real character than
he had had before.
Hasty, impulsive, repentant, generous, and very affectionate,
he felt sure she was, and he continued;
'Does Harold go to school?'
'Yes; and I too—to the district; but I hate it!' Jerry replied.
'Why hate it?' Arthur asked. 'What is the matter with
the district school?'
'Oh, it smells awful there sometimes when it is hot,' Jerry
replied with an upward turn to her nose. 'And the boys
are so mean, some of them. Bill Peterkin goes there and I
can't bear him, he plagues me so. Wants to kiss me. A-a-h,
and says I am to be his wife, and he has got warts on his
thumb!'
Jerry's face was sufficiently indicative of the disgust she felt
for Bill Peterkin with his warts, and leaning back in his chair,
Arthur laughed heartily, as he said:
'And you do not like Bill Peterkin? Well, what boys do
you like?'
'Harold and Dick St. Claire,' was the prompt response, and
Arthur continued:
'What would you have in place of the district school?'
'A governess,' was Jerry's answer. 'Nina St. Claire has
one, and Ann Eliza Peterkin has one, and Maude Tracy has
one.'
Here Jerry stopped suddenly, as if struck with a new idea.
'Why, Maude is your little girl, isn't she? You are her rich
uncle, and she is to have all your money when you die. I wish
I was your little girl.'
She spoke the last very sadly, and something in the expression
of her face brought Gretchen to Arthur's mind, and his
voice was choked as he said to her:
'I'd give half my fortune if you were my little girl.'
Then laying his hand on her bright hair, he questioned her
adroitly of her life at the cottage, finding that it was a very
happy one, and that she had never known want, although Mrs.
Crawford was unable to work as she once had done, and was
largely dependent upon the price for Jerry's board, which
Frank paid regularly. Of this, however, Jerry did not speak.
She only said:
'Harold works in the furnace, and in folks' gardens, and does
lots of things for everybody, and once Bill Peterkin twitted him
because he goes to Mrs. Baker's sometimes after stuff for the
pig, and Harold cried, and I got up early the next morning and
went after it myself and drew the cart home. After that grandma
wouldn't let Harold go for any more, so I s'pose the pig will
not weigh as much, I'm sorry, for I like sausage, don't you?'
Arthur hated it, but he did not tell her so, and she went on.
'Harold studies awful hard, and wants to go to college. He
is trying to learn Latin and recites to Dick St. Claire; but
grandma says it is up-hill business. Oh, if I's only rich I'd give
it all to Harold, and he should get learning like Dick. Maybe
I can work some time and earn some money. I wish I
could.'
Arthur did not speak for a long time, but sat looking at the
child whose face now wore an old and troubled look. In his
mind he was revolving a plan which, with, his usual precipitancy,
he resolved to carry into effect at once. But he said
nothing of it to Jerry, whose attention was diverted by the entrance
of Charles and the preparations for luncheon, which on
the little girl's account, was served with more care than usual.
Jerry, who had a great liking for everything luxurious, had
taken tea once or twice at Grassy Spring with Nina St. Claire,
and had been greatly impressed with the appointments of the
table, prizing them more even than the dainties for her to eat.
But what she had seen there seemed as nothing compared to
this round Swiss table, with its colored glass and rare china, no
two pieces of which were alike.
'Oh, it is just like a dream!' she cried, as she watched
Charles' movement and saw that there were two places laid.
'Am I to sit down with you?' she said in an awe-struck voice,
'and in that lovely chair? I am glad I wore my best gown. It
won't dirty the chair a bit.'
But she took her pocket handkerchief and covered over the
satin cushion before she dared seat herself in the chair, which
had once been brought out for Gretchen, and in which she now
sat down, dropping her head and shutting her eyes a moment
Then, as she heard no sound, she looked up wonderingly, and
asked:
'Ain't you going to say "for Christ's Sake?" grandma does.'
Arthur's face was a study with its mixed expression of surprise,
amusement, and self-reproach. He never prayed except
it were in some ejaculatory sentences wrung from him in his
sore need, and the thought of asking a blessing on his food had
never occurred to him. But Jerry was persistent.
'You must say "for Christ's sake,"' she continued, and, with
his weak brain all in a muddle, Arthur began what he meant to
be a brief thanksgiving, but which stretched itself into a lengthy
prayer, fall of the past and of Gretchen, whom he seemed to be
addressing rather than his Maker.
For a while Jerry listened reverently; then she looked up
and moved uneasily in the chair, and at last when the prayer
had continued for at least five minutes, she burst out impulsively:
'Oh, dear, do say "amen." I am so hungry!'
That broke the spell, and with a start Arthur came to himself,
and said:
'Think you, Jerry, praying is a new business for me, and I
do believe I should have gone on forever if you had not stopped
me. Now, what will you have?'
He helped her to whatever she liked best, but could eat
scarcely anything himself. It was sufficient for him to watch
Jerry sitting there in Gretchen's chair and using Gretchen's
plate, which every day for so many years had been laid for her.
Gretchen had not come. She would never come, he feared, but
with Jerry he did not feel half as desolate as when alone, with
only his morbid fancies for company. And he must have her
there, at least a portion of the time. His mind was made up
on that point, and when about four o'clock, Jerry said to him:
'I want to go now. Grandma said I was to be home by
five,' she replied:
'Yes, I am going with you. I wish to see your grandmother.
I am going to drive you in the phaeton. How would you like
that?'
Her dancing eyes told him how she would like it, and Charles
was sent to the stable with an order to have the little pony
phaeton brought round as soon as possible as he was going
for a drive.