VOL. III. November, 1871. No. 1

I have read with great satisfaction the excellent descriptive
articles on the wonders of the Upper Yellowstone, in the May and June
numbers of your magazine. Having myself been one of the party who
participated in many of the pleasures, and suffered all the perils of
that expedition, I can not only bear testimony to the fidelity of the
narrative, but probably add some facts of experience which will not
detract from the general interest it has excited.
A desire to visit the remarkable region, of which, during several
years' residence in Montana, I had often heard the most marvelous
accounts, led me to unite in the expedition of August last. The
general character of the stupendous scenery of the Rocky Mountains
prepared my mind for giving credit to all the strange stories told of
the Yellowstone, and I felt quite as certain of the existence of the
physical phenomena of that country, on the morning that our company
started from Helena, as when I afterwards beheld it. I engaged in the
enterprise with enthusiasm, feeling that all the hardships and
exposures of a month's horseback travel through an unexplored region
would be more than compensated by the grandeur and novelty of the
natural objects with which it was crowded. Of course, the idea of
being lost in it, without any of the ordinary means of subsistence,
and the wandering for days and weeks, in a famishing condition,
alone, in an unfrequented wilderness, formed no part of my
contemplation. I had dwelt too long amid the mountains not to know
that such a thought, had it occurred, would have been instantly
rejected as improbable; nevertheless, "man proposes and God
disposes," a truism which found a new and ample illustration in my
wanderings through the Upper Yellowstone region.
On the day that I found myself separated from the company, and for
several days previous, our course had been impeded by the dense
growth of the pine forest, and occasional large tracts of fallen
timber, frequently rendering our progress almost impossible. Whenever
we came to one of these immense windfalls, each man engaged in the
pursuit of a passage through it, and it was while thus employed, and
with the idea that I had found one, that I strayed out of sight and
hearing of my comrades. We had a toilsome day. It was quite late in
the afternoon. As separations like this had frequently occurred, it
gave me no alarm, and I rode on, fully confident of soon rejoining
the company, or of finding their camp. I came up with the pack-horse,
which Mr. Langford afterwards recovered, and tried to drive him
along, but failing to do so, and my eyesight being defective, I
spurred forward, intending to return with assistance from the party.
This incident tended to accelerate my speed. I rode on in the
direction which I supposed had been taken, until darkness overtook me
in the dense forest. This was disagreeable enough, but caused me no
alarm. I had no doubt of being with the party at breakfast the next
morning. I selected a spot for comfortable repose, picketed my horse,
built a fire, and went to sleep.
The next morning I rose at early dawn, saddled and mounted my
horse, and took my course in the supposed direction of the camp. Our
ride of the previous day had been up a peninsula jutting into the
lake, for the shore of which I started, with the expectation of
finding my friends camped on the beach. The forest was quite dark,
and the trees so thick, that it was only by a slow process I could
get through them at all. In searching for the trail I became somewhat
confused. The falling foliage of the pines had obliterated every
trace of travel. I was obliged frequently to dismount, and examine
the ground for the faintest indications. Coming to an opening, from
which I could see several vistas, I dismounted for the purpose of
selecting one leading in the direction I had chosen, and leaving my
horse unhitched, as had always been my custom, walked a few rods into
the forest. While surveying the ground my horse took fright, and I
turned around in time to see him disappearing at full speed among the
trees. That was the last I ever saw of him. It was yet quite dark. My
blankets, gun, pistols, fishing tackle, matches—everything,
except the clothing on my person, a couple of knives, and a small
opera-glass were attached to the saddle.

I did not realize the possibility of a permanent separation from
the company. Instead of following up the pursuit of their camp, I
engaged in an effort to recover my horse. Half a day's search
convinced me of its impracticability. I wrote and posted in an open
space several notices, which, if my friends should chance to see,
would inform them of my condition and the route I had taken, and then
struck out into the forest in the supposed direction of their camp.
As the day wore on without any discovery, alarm took the place of
anxiety at the prospect of another night alone in the wilderness, and
this time without food or fire. But even this dismal foreboding was
cheered by the hope that should soon rejoin my companions, who would
laugh at my adventure, and incorporate it as a thrilling episode into
the journal of our trip. The bright side of a misfortune, as I found
by experience, even under the worst possible circumstances, always
presents some features of encouragement. When I began to realize that
my condition was one of actual peril, I banished from my mind all
fear of an unfavorable result. Seating myself on a log, I recalled
every foot of the way I had traveled since the separation from my
friends, and the most probable opinion I could form of their
whereabouts was, that they had, by a course but little different from
mine, passed by the spot where I had posted the notices, learned of
my disaster, and were waiting for me the rejoin them there, or
searching for me in that vicinity. A night must be spent amid the
prostrate trunks before my return could be accomplished. At no time
during my period of exile did I experience so much mental suffering
from the cravings of hunger as when, exhausted with this long clay of
fruitless search, I resigned myself to a couch of pine foliage in the
pitchy darkness of a thicket of small trees. Naturally timid in the
night, I fully realized the exposure of my condition. I peered upward
through the darkness, but all was blackness and gloom. The wind
sighed mournfully through the pines. The forest seemed alive with the
screeching of night birds, the angry barking of coyotes, and the
prolonged, dismal howl of the gray wolf. These sounds, familiar by
their constant occurrence throughout the journey, were now full of
terror, and drove slumber from my eyelids. Above all this, however,
was the hope that I should be restored to my comrades the next
day.
Early the next morning I rose unrefreshed, and pursued my weary
way over the prostrate trunks. It was noon when I reached the spot
where my notices were posted. No one had been there. My
disappointment was almost overwhelming. For the first time, I
realized that I was lost. Then came a crushing sense of destitution.
No food, no fire; no means to procure either; alone in an unexplored
wilderness, one hundred and fifty miles from the nearest human abode,
surrounded by wild beasts, and famishing with hunger. It was no time
for despondency. A moment afterwards I felt how calamity can elevate
the mind, in the formation of the resolution "not to perish in that
wilderness."
The hope of finding the party still controlled my plans. I
thought, by traversing the peninsula centrally, I would be enabled to
strike the shore of the lake in advance of their camp, and near the
point of departure for the Madison. Acting upon this impression, I
rose from a sleepless couch, and pursued my way through the
timber-entangled forest. A feeling of weakness took the place of
hunger. Conscious of the need of food, I felt no cravings.
Occasionally, while scrambling over logs and through thickets, a
sense of faintness and exhaustion would come over me, but I would
suppress it with the audible expression, "This won't do; I must find
my company." Despondency would sometimes strive with resolution for
the mastery of my thoughts. I would think of home—of my
daughter—and of the possible chance of starvation, or death in
some more terrible form; but as often as these gloomy forebodings
came, I would strive to banish them with reflections better adapted
to my immediate necessities. I recollect at this time discussing the
question, whether there was not implanted by Providence in every man
a principle of self-preservation equal to any emergency which did not
destroy his reason. I decided this question affirmatively a thousand
times afterwards in my wanderings, and I record this experience here,
that any person who reads it, should he ever find himself in like
circumstances, may not despair. There is life in the thought. It will
revive hope, allay hunger, renew energy, encourage perseverance, and,
as I have proved in my own case, bring a man out of difficulty, when
nothing else can avail.
It was mid-day when I emerged from the forest into an open space
at the foot of the peninsula. A broad lake of beautiful curvature,
with magnificent surroundings, lay before me, glittering in the
sunbeams. It was full twelve miles in circumference. A wide belt of
sand formed the margin which I was approaching, directly opposite to
which, rising seemingly from the very depths of the water, towered
the loftiest peak of a range of mountains apparently interminable.
The ascending vapor from innumerable hot springs, and the sparkling
jet of a single geyser, added the feature of novelty to one of the
grandest landscapes I ever beheld. Nor was the life of the scene less
noticeable than its other attractions. Large flocks of swans and
other water-fowl were sporting on the quiet surface of the lake;
otters in great numbers performed the most amusing aquatic
evolutions; mink and beaver swam around unscared, in the most
grotesque confusion. Deer, elk, and mountain sheep stared at me,
manifesting more surprise than fear at my presence among them. The
adjacent forest was vocal with the songs of birds, chief of which
were the chattering notes of a species of mockingbird, whose
imitative efforts afforded abundant merriment. Seen under favorable
circumstances, this assemblage of grandeur, beauty, and novelty would
have been transporting; but, jaded with travel, famishing with
hunger, and distressed with anxiety, I was in no humor for ecstacy.
My tastes were subdued and chastened by the perils which environed
me. I longed for food, friends and protection. Associated with my
thoughts, however, was the wish that some of my friends of peculiar
tastes could enjoy this display of secluded magnificence, now,
probably, for the first time beheld by mortal eyes.
The lake was at least one thousand feet lower than the highest
point of the peninsula, and several hundred feet below the level of
Yellowstone Lake. I recognized the mountain which overshadowed it as
the landmark which a few days before, had received from Gen. Washburn
the name of Mount Everts; and as it is associated with some of the
most agreeable and terrible incidents of my exile, I feel that I have
more than a mere discoverer's right to the perpetuity of that
christening. The lake is fed by innumerable small streams from the
mountains, and the countless hot springs surrounding it. A large
river flows from it, through a canon a thousand feet in height, in a
southeasterly direction, to a distant range of mountains, which I
conjectured to be Snake River; and with the belief that I had
discovered the source of the great southern tributary of the
Columbia, I gave it the name of Bessie Lake, after the
"Sole daughter of my house and heart."
During the first two days, the fear of meeting with Indians gave
me considerable anxiety, but, when conscious of being lost, there was
nothing I so much desired as to fall in with a lodge of Bannacks or
Crows. Having nothing to tempt their cupidity, they would do me no
personal harm, and, with the promise of reward, would probably
minister to my wants and aid my deliverance. Imagine my delight,
while gazing upon the animated expanse of water, at seeing sail out
from a distant point a large canoe containing a single oarsman. It
was rapidly approaching the shore where I was seated. With hurried
steps I paced the beach to meet it, all my energies stimulated by the
assurance it gave of food, safety and restoration to friends. As I
drew near to it it turned towards the shore, and oh! bitter
disappointment, the object which my eager fancy had transformed into
an angel of relief stalked from the water, an enormous pelican,
flapped its dragon-wings, as if in mockery of my sorrow, and flew to
a solitary point farther up the lake. This little incident quite
unmanned me. The transition from joy to grief brought with it a
terrible consciousness of the horrors of my condition. But night was
fast approaching, and darkness would come with it. While looking for
a spot where I might repose in safety, my attention was attracted to
a small green plant of so lively a hue as to form a striking contrast
with deep pine foliage. For closer examination I pulled it up by the
root, which was long and tapering, not unlike a radish. It was a
thistle. I tasted it; it was palatable and nutritious. My appetite
craved it, and the first meal in four days was made on thistle-roots.
Eureka! I had found food. No optical illusion deceived me this time;
I could subsist until I rejoined my companions. Glorious counterpoise
to the wretchedness of the preceding half-hour!
Overjoyed at this discovery, with hunger allayed, I stretched
myself under a tree, upon the foliage which had partially filled a
space between contiguous trunks, and fell asleep. How long I slept I
know not; but suddenly I was roused by a loud, shrill scream, like
that of a human being in distress, poured, seemingly, into the very
portals of my ear. There was no mistaking that fearful voice. I had
been deceived by and answered it a dozen times while threading the
forest, with the belief that it was a friendly signal. It was the
screech of a mountain lion, so alarmingly near as to cause every
nerve to thrill with terror. To yell in return, seize with convulsive
grasp the limbs of the friendly tree, and swing myself into it, was
the work of a moment. Scrambling hurriedly from limb to limb, I was
soon as near the top as safety would permit. The savage beast was
snuffing and growling below apparently on the very spot I had just
abandoned. I answered every growl with a responsive scream. Terrified
at the delay and pawing of the beast, I increased my voice to its
utmost volume, broke branches from the limbs, and, in the impotency
of fright, madly hurled them at the spot whence the continued
howlings proceeded.
Failing to alarm the animal, which now began to make a circuit of
the tree, as if to select a spot for springing into it, I shook, with
a strength increased by terror, the slender trunk until every limb
rustled with the motion. All in vain. The terrible creature pursued
his walk around the tree, lashing the ground with his tail, and
prolonging his howlings almost to a roar. It was too dark to see, but
the movements of the lion kept me apprised of its position. Whenever
I heard it on one side of the tree I speedily changed to the
opposite—an exercise which, in my weakened state, I could only
have performed under the impulse of terror. I would alternately sweat
and thrill with horror at the thought of being torn to pieces and
devoured by this formidable monster. All my attempts to frighten it
seemed unavailing. Disheartened at its persistency, and expecting
every moment it would take the deadly leap, I tried to collect my
thoughts, and prepare for the fatal encounter which I knew must
result. Just at this moment it occurred to me that I would try
silence. Clasping the trunk of the tree with both arms, I sat
perfectly still. The lion, at this time ranging around, occasionally
snuffing and pausing, and all the while filling the forest with the
echo of his howlings, suddenly imitated my example. This silence was
more terrible, if possible, than the clatter and crash of his
movements through the brushwood, for now I did not know from what
direction to expect his attack. Moments passed with me like hours.
After a lapse of time which I cannot estimate, the beast gave a
spring into the thicket and ran screaming into the forest. My
deliverance was effected.

Had strength permitted, I should have retained my perch till
daylight, but with the consciousness of escape from the jaws of the
ferocious brute came a sense of overpowering weakness which almost
palsied me, and made my descent from the tree both difficult and
dangerous. Incredible as it may seem, I lay down in my old bed, and
was soon lost in a slumber so profound that I did not awake until
after daylight. The experience of the night seemed like a terrible
dream; but the broken limbs which in the agony of consternation I had
thrown from the tree, and the rifts made in fallen foliage by my
visitant in his circumambulations, were too convincing evidences of
its reality. I could not dwell upon my exposure and escape without
shuddering, and reflecting that probably like perils would often
occur under less fortunate circumstances, and with a more fatal
issue. I wondered what fate was in reserve for me—whether I
should ultimately sink from exhaustion and perish of starvation, or
become the prey of some of the ferocious animals that roamed these
vast fastnesses. My thoughts then turned to the loved ones at home.
They could never know my fate, and would indulge a thousand
conjectures concerning it, not the least distressing of which would
be that I had been captured by a band of hostile Sioux, and tortured
to death at the stake.
I was roused from this train of reflections by a marked change in
the atmosphere. One of those dreary storms of mingled snow and rain,
common to these high latitudes, set in. My clothing, which had been
much torn, exposed my person to its "pitiless peltings." An easterly
wind, rising to a gale, admonished me that it would be furious and of
long duration. None of the discouragements I had met with dissipated
the hope of rejoining my friends; but foreseeing the delay, now
unavoidable, I knew that my escape from the wilderness must be
accomplished, if at all, by my own unaided exertions. This thought
was terribly afflicting, and brought before me, in vivid array, all
the dreadful realities of my condition. I could see no ray of hope.
In this condition of mind I could find no better shelter than the
spreading branches of a spruce tree, under which, covered with earth
and boughs, I lay during the two succeeding days; the storm,
meanwhile, raging with unabated violence. While thus exposed, and
suffering from cold and hunger, a little benumbed bird, not larger
than a snow-bird, hopped within my reach. I instantly seized and
killed it, and, plucking its feathers, ate it raw. It was a delicious
meal for a half-starved man.
Taking advantage of a lull in the elements, on the morning of the
third day I rose early and started in the direction of a large group
of hot springs which were steaming under the shadow of Mount Everts.
The distance I traveled could not have been less than ten miles. Long
before I reached the wonderful cluster of natural caldrons, the storm
had recommenced. Chilled through, with my clothing thoroughly
saturated, I lay down under a tree upon the heated incrustation until
completely warmed. My heels and the sides of my feet were frozen. As
soon as warmth had permeated my system, and I had quieted my appetite
with a few thistle-roots, I took a survey of my surroundings, and
selected a spot between two springs sufficiently asunder to afford
heat at my head and feet, On this spot I built a bower of pine
branches, spread its incrusted surface with fallen foliage and small
boughs, and stowed myself away to await the close of the storm.
Thistles were abundant, and I had fed upon them long enough to
realize that they would, for a while at least, sustain life. In
convenient proximity to my abode was a small, round, boiling spring,
which I called my dinner-pot, in which, from time to time, I cooked
my roots.
This establishment, the best I could improvise with the means at
hand, I occupied seven days—the first three of which were
darkened by one of the most furious storms I ever saw. The vapor
which supplied me with warmth saturated my clothing with its
condensations. I was enveloped in a perpetual steam-bath. At first
this was barely preferable to the storm, but I soon became accustomed
to it, and before I left, though thoroughly parboiled, actually
enjoyed it.
I had little else to do during my imprisonment but cook, think,
and sleep. Of the variety and strangeness of my reflections it is
impossible to give the faintest conception. Much of my time was given
to devising means for escape. I recollected to have read, at the time
of their publication, the narratives of Lieutenant Strain and Doctor
Kane, and derived courage and hope from the reflection that they
struggled with—and survived perils not unlike those which
environed me. The chilling thought would then occur, that they were
not alone. They had companions in suffering and sympathy. Each could
bear his share of the burden of misery which it fell to my lot to
bear alone, and make it lighter from the encouragement of mutual
counsel and aid in a cause of common suffering. Selfish as the
thought may seem, there was nothing I so much desired as a companion
in misfortune. How greatly it would alleviate my distress! What a
relief it would be to compare my wretchedness with that of a brother
sufferer, and with him devise expedients for every exigency as it
occurred! I confess to the weakness, if it be one, of having
squandered much pity upon myself during the time I had little else to
do.
Nothing gave me more concern than the want of fire. I recalled
everything I had ever read or heard of the means by which fire could
be produced; but none of them were within my reach. An escape without
it was simply impossible. It was indispensable as a protection
against night attacks from wild beasts. Exposure to another storm
like the one just over would destroy my life, as this one would have
done, but for the warmth derived from the springs. As I lay in my
bower anxiously awaiting the disappearance of the snow, which had
fallen to the depth of a foot or more, and impressed with the belief
that for want of fire I should be obliged to remain among the
springs, it occurred to me that I would erect some sort of monument,
which might, at some future day, inform a casual visitor of the
circumstances under which I had perished. A gleam of sunshine lit up
the bosom of the lake, and with it the thought flashed upon my mind
that I could, with a lens from my opera-glasses, get fire from
Heaven. Oh happy, life-renewing thought! Instantly subjecting it to
the test of experiment, when I saw the smoke curl from the bit of dry
wood in my fingers, I felt, if the whole world were offered me for
it, I would cast it all aside before parting with that little spark.
I was now the happy possessor of food and fire. These would carry me
through. All thoughts of failure were instantly abandoned. Though the
food was barely adequate to my necessities—a fact too painfully
attested by my attenuated body—I had forgotten the cravings of
hunger, and had the means of producing fire. I said to myself, "I
will not despair."

My stay at the springs was prolonged several days by an accident
that befell me on the third night after my arrival there. An unlucky
movement while asleep broke the crust on which I reposed, and the hot
steam, pouring upon my hip, scalded it severely before I could
escape. This new affliction, added to my frost-bitten feet, already
festering, was the cause of frequent delays and unceasing pain
through all my wanderings. After obtaining fire, I set to work making
preparations for as early departure as my condition would permit. I
had lost both knives since parting from the company, but I now made a
convenient substitute by sharpening the tongue of a buckle which I
cut from my vest. With this I cut the legs and counters from my
boots, making of them a passable pair of slippers, which I fastened
to my feet as firmly as I could with strips of bark. With the
ravelings of a linen handkerchief, aided by the magic buckle-tongue,
I mended my clothing. Of the same material I made a fish-line, which,
on finding a piece of red tape in one of my pockets better suited to
the purpose, I abandoned as a "bad job." I made of a pin that I found
in my coat a fish-hook, and, by sewing up the bottoms of my bootlegs,
constructed a good pair of pouches to carry my food in, fastening
them to my belt by the straps.
Thus accoutered, on the morning of the eighth day after my arrival
at the springs I bade them a final farewell, and started on my course
directly across that portion of the neck of the peninsula between me
and the southeast arm of Yellowstone Lake. It was a beautiful
morning. The sun shone bright and warm, and there was a freshness in
the atmosphere truly exhilarating. As I wandered musingly along, the
consciousness of being alone, and of having surrendered all hope of
finding my friends, returned upon me with crushing power. I felt,
too, that those friends, by the necessities of their condition, had
been compelled to abandon all efforts for my recovery. The thought
was full of bitterness and sorrow. I tried to realize what their
conjectures were concerning my disappearance; but could derive no
consolation from the long and dismal train of circumstances they
suggested. Weakened by a long fast, and the unsatisfying nature of
the only food I could procure, I know that from this time onward to
the day of my rescue, my mind, though unimpaired in those perceptions
needful to self-preservation, was in a condition to receive
impressions akin to insanity. I was constantly traveling in
dream-land, and indulging in strange reveries such as I had never
before known. I seemed to possess a sort of duality of being, which,
while constantly reminding me of the necessities of my condition, fed
my imagination with vagaries of the most extravagant character.
Nevertheless, I was perfectly conscious of the tendency of these
morbid influences, and often tried to shake them off, but they would
ever return with increased force, and I finally reasoned myself into
the belief that their indulgence, as it afforded me pleasure, could
work no harm while it did not interfere with my plans for
deliverance. Thus I lived in a world of ideal happiness, and in a
world of positive suffering at the same time.
A change in the wind and an overcast sky, accompanied by cold,
brought with them a need of warmth. I drew out my lens and touchwood,
but alas! there was no sun. I sat down on a log to await his friendly
appearance. Hours passed; he did not come. Night, cold, freezing
night, set in, and found me exposed to all its terrors. A bleak
hill-side sparsely covered with pines afforded poor accommodations
for a half-clad, famished man. I could only keep from freezing by the
most active exertion in walking, rubbing, and striking my benumbed
feet and hands against the logs. It seemed the longest, most terrible
night of my life, and glad was I when the approaching dawn enabled me
to commence retracing my steps to Bessie Lake. I arrived there at
noon, built my first fire on the beach, and remained by it,
recuperating, for the succeeding two days.
The faint hope that my friends might be delayed by their search
for me until I could rejoin them now foresook me altogether. I made
my arrangements independent of it. Either of three directions I might
take would effect my escape, if life and strength held out. I drew
upon the sand of the beach a map of these several courses with
reference-to my starting-point from the lake, and considered well the
difficulties each would present. All were sufficiently defined to
avoid mistake. One was to follow Snake River a distance of one
hundred miles or more to Eagle Rock bridge; another, to cross the
country between the southern shore of Yellowstone Lake and the
Madison Mountains, by scaling which I could easily reach the
settlements in the Madison valley; and the other, to retrace my
journey over the long and discouraging route by which I had entered
the country. Of these routes the last-mentioned seemed the least
inviting, probably because I had so recently traversed it, and was
familiar with its difficulties. I had heard and read so much
concerning the desolation and elemental upheavals and violent waters
of the upper valley of the Snake, that I dared not attempt to return
in that direction. The route by the Madison Range, encumbered by the
single obstruction of the mountain barrier, was much the shortest,
and so, most unwisely as will hereafter appear, I adopted it.
Filling my pouches with thistle-roots, I took a parting survey of
the little solitude that had afforded me food and fire the preceding
ten days, and with something of that melancholy feeling experienced
by one who leaves his home to grapple with untried adventures,
started for the nearest point on Yellowstone Lake. All that day I
traveled over timber-heaps, amid tree-tops, and through thickets. At
noon I took the precaution to obtain fire. With a brand which I kept
alive by frequent blowing, and constant waving to and fro, at a late
hour in the afternoon, faint and exhausted, I kindled a fire for the
night on the only vacant spot I could find amid a dense wilderness of
pines. The deep gloom of the forest, in the spectral light which
revealed on all sides of me a compact and unending growth of trunks,
and an impervious canopy of somber foliage; the shrieking of
night-birds; the supernaturally human scream of the Mountain lion;
the prolonged howl of the wolf, made me insensible to all other forms
of suffering.

The burn on my hip was so inflamed that I could only sleep in a
sitting posture. Seated with my back against a tree, the smoke from
the fire almost enveloping me in its suffocating folds, I vainly
tried, amid the din and uproar of this horrible serenade, to woo the
drowsy god. My imagination was instinct with terror. At one moment it
seemed as if, in the density of a thicket, I could see the blazing
eyes of a formidable forest monster fixed upon me, preparatory to a
deadly leap; at another I fancied that I heard the swift approach of
a pack of yelping wolves through the distant brushwood, which in a
few minutes would tear me limb from limb. Whenever, by fatigue and
weakness, my terror yielded to drowsiness, the least noise roused me
to a sense of the hideousness of my condition. Once, in a fitful
slumber, I fell forward into the fire, and inflicted a wretched burn
on my hand. Oh! with what agony I longed for day!
A bright and glorious morning succeeded the dismal night, and
brought with it the conviction that I had been the victim of
uncontrollable nervous excitement. I resolved henceforth to banish it
altogether; and, in much better spirits than I anticipated, resumed
my journey towards the lake. Another day of unceasing toil among the
tree-tops and thickets overtook me, near sunset, standing upon a
lofty headland jutting into the lake, and commanding a magnificent
prospect of the mountains and valley over an immense area. In front
of me, at a distance of fifty miles away, in the clear blue of the
horizon, rose the arrowy peaks of the three Tetons. On the right, and
apparently in close proximity to the eminence I occupied, rolled the
picturesque range of the Madison, scarred with clefts, ravines,
gorges and canons, each of which glittered in the sunlight or
deepened in shadow as the fitful rays of the descending luminary
glanced along their varied rocky irregularities. Above where I stood
were the lofty domes of Mounts Langford and Doane, marking the limits
of that wonderful barrier which had so long defied human power in its
efforts to subdue it. Rising seemingly from the promontory which
favored my vision was the familiar summit of Mount Everts, at the
base of which I had dwelt so long, and which still seemed to hold me
within its friendly shadow. All the vast country within this grand
enclosure of mountains and lake, scarred and seamed with the
grotesque ridges, rocky escarpments, undulating hillocks, and
miniature lakes, and steaming with hot springs, produced by the
volcanic forces of a former era, lay spread out before me like a vast
panorama.
I doubt if distress and suffering can ever entirely obliterate all
sense of natural grandeur and magnificence. Lost in the wonder and
admiration inspired by this vast world of beauties, I nearly forgot
to improve the few moments of remaining sunshine to obtain fire. With
a lighted brand in my hand, I effected a most difficult and arduous
descent of the abrupt and stony headland to the beach of the lake.
The sand was soft and yielding. I kindled a fire, and removing the
stiffened slippers from my feet, attached them to my belt and
wandered barefoot along the sandy shore to gather wood for the night.
The dry warm sand was most grateful to my lacerated and festering
feet, and for a long time after my wood-pile was supplied, I sat with
them uncovered. At length, conscious of the need of every possible
protection from the freezing night atmosphere, I sought my belt for
the slippers, and one was missing. In gathering the wood it had
become detached, and was lost. Darkness was closing over the
landscape, when, sorely disheartened with the thought of passing the
night with one foot exposed to freezing temperature, I commenced a
search for the missing slipper. I knew I could not travel a day
without it. Fearful that it had dropped into the lake, and been
carried by some recurrent wave beyond recovery, my search for an hour
among fallen trees and bushes, up the hill-side and along the beach,
in darkness and with naming brands, at one moment crawling on hands
and feet into a brush-heap, another peering among logs and bushes and
stones, was filled with anxiety and dismay. Success at length
rewarded my perseverance, and no language can describe the joy with
which I drew the cause of so much distress from beneath the limb
that, as I passed, had torn it from my belt. With a feeling of great
relief, I now sat down in the sand, my back to a log, and listened to
the dash and roar of the waves. It was a wild lullaby, but had no
terrors for a worn-out man. I never passed a night of more refreshing
sleep. When I awoke my fire was extinguished save a few embers, which
I soon fanned into a cheerful flame. I ate breakfast with some
relish, and started along the beach in pursuit of a camp, believing
that if successful I should find directions what to do, and food to
sustain me. The search which I was making lay in the direction of my
pre-arranged route to the Madison Mountains, which I intended to
approach at their lowest point of altitude.
Buoyed by the hope of finding food and counsel, and another night
of undisturbed repose in the sand, I resumed my journey along the
shore, and at noon found the camp last occupied by my friends on the
lake. A thorough search for food in the ground and trees revealed
nothing, and no notice to apprise me of their movements could be
seen. A dinner-fork, which afterwards proved to be of infinite
service in digging roots, and a yeast-powder can, which would hold
half a pint, and which I converted into a drinking-cup and
dinner-pot, were the only evidences that the spot had ever been
visited by civilized man. "Oh!" thought I, "why did they forget to
leave me food!" it never occurring to me that they might have cached
it, as I have since learned they did, in several spots nearer the
place of my separation from them. I left the camp in deep dejection,
with the purpose of following the trail of the party to the Madison.
Carefully inspecting the faint traces left of their course of travel,
I became satisfied that from some cause they had made a retrograde
movement from this camp, and departed from the lake at a point
further down stream. Taking this as an indication that there were
obstructions above, I commenced retracing my steps along the beach.
An hour of sunshine in the afternoon enabled me to procure fire,
which, in the usual manner, I carried to my camping-place. There I
built a fire, and to protect myself from the wind, which was blowing
violently, lashing the lake into foam, I made a bower of pine boughs,
crept under it, and very soon fell asleep. How long I slept I know
not, but I was aroused by the snapping and cracking of the burning
foliage, to find my shelter and the adjacent forest in a broad sheet
of flame. My left hand was badly burned, and my hair singed closer
than a barber would have trimmed it, while making my escape from the
semi-circle of burning trees. Among the disasters of this fire, there
was none I felt more seriously than the loss of my buckle-tongue
knife, my pin fish-hook, and tape fish-line.

The grandeur of the burning forest surpasses description. An
immense sheet of flame, following to their tops the lofty trees of an
almost impenetrable pine forest, leaping madly from top to top, and
sending thousands of forked tongues a hundred feet or more athwart
the midnight darkness, lighting up with lurid gloom and glare the
surrounding scenery of lake and mountains, fills the beholder with
mingled feelings of awe and astonishment. I never before saw anything
so terribly beautiful. It was marvelous to witness the flash-like
rapidity with which the flames would mount the loftiest trees. The
roaring, cracking, crashing, and snapping of falling limbs and
burning foliage was deafening. On, on, on traveled the destructive
element, until it seemed as if the whole forest was enveloped in
flame. Afar up the wood-crowned hill, the overtopping trees shot
forth pinnacles and walls and streamers of arrowy fire. The entire
hill-side was an ocean of glowing and surging fiery billows. Favored
by the gale, the conflagration spread with lightning swiftness over
an illimitable extent of country, filling the atmosphere with driving
clouds of suffocating fume, and leaving a broad and blackened trail
of spectral trunks shorn of limbs and foliage, smoking and burning,
to mark the immense sweep of its devastation.
Resolved to search for a trail no longer, when daylight came I
selected for a landmark the lowest notch in the Madison Range.
Carefully surveying the jagged and broken surface over which I must
travel to reach it, left the lake and pushed into the midst of its
intricacies. All the day, until nearly sunset, I struggled over
rugged hills, through windfalls, thickets, and matted forests, with
the rock-ribbed beacon constantly in view. As I advanced it receded,
as if in mockery of my toil. Night overtook me with my journey half
accomplished. The precaution of obtaining fire gave me warmth and
sleep, and long before daylight I was on my way. The hope of finding
an easy pass into the valley of the Madison inspired me with fresh
courage and determination, but long before I arrived at the base of
the range, I scanned hopelessly its insurmountable difficulties. It
presented to my eager vision an endless succession of inaccessible
peaks and precipices, rising thousands of feet sheer and bare above
the plain. No friendly gorge or gully or canon invited such an effort
as I could make to scale this rocky barrier. Oh, for the faith that
could remove mountains! How soon should this colossal fabric open at
my approach! What a feeling of helpless despair came over me with the
conviction that the journey of the last two days had been in vain! I
seated myself on a rock, upon the summit of a commanding hill, and
cast my eyes along the only route which now seemed tenable—down
the Yellowstone. How many dreary miles of forest and mountain filled
the terrible panorama! I thought that before accepting this
discouraging alternative I would spend a day in search for a pass.
Twenty miles at most would take me into the Madison Valley, and
thirty more restore me to friends who had abundance. Supposing that I
should find plenty of thistles, I had left the lake with a small
supply, and that was entirely spent. I looked in vain for them where
I then was.
While I was thus considering whether to remain and search for a
passage or return to the Yellowstone, I experienced one of those
strange hallucinations which many of my friends have misnamed
insanity, but which to me was Providence. An old clerical friend, for
whose character and counsel I had always cherished peculiar regard,
in some unaccountable manner seemed to be standing before me, charged
with advice which would relieve my perplexity. I seemed to hear him
say, as if in a voice and with the manner of authority:
"Go back immediately, as rapidly as your strength will permit.
There is no food here, and the idea of scaling these rocks is
madness."
"Doctor," I rejoined, "the distance is too great. I cannot live to
travel it."
"Say not so. Your life depends upon the effort. Return at once.
Start now, lest your resolution falter. Travel as fast and as far as
possible—it is your only chance."
"Doctor, I am rejoiced to meet you in this hour of distress, but
doubt the wisdom of your counsel. I am within seventy miles of
Virginia. Just over these rocks, a few miles away, I shall find
friends. My shoes are nearly worn out, my clothes are in tatters, and
my strength is almost overcome. As a last trial, it seems to me I can
but attempt to scale this mountain or perish in the effort, if God so
wills."
"Don't think of it. Your power of endurance will carry you
through. I will accompany you. Put your trust in Heaven. Help
yourself and God will help you."

Overcome by these and other persuasions, and delighted with the
idea of having a traveling companion, I plodded my way over the route
I had come, intending at a certain point to change it so as to strike
the river at the foot of the lake. Stopping after a few miles of
travel, I had no difficulty in procuring fire, and passed a
comfortable night. When I resumed my journey the next day the sun was
just rising. Whenever I was disposed, as was often the case, to
question the wisdom of the change of routes, my old friend appeared
to be near with words of encouragement, but his reticence on other
subjects both surprised and annoyed me. I was impressed at times,
during the entire journey with the belief that my return was a fatal
error, and if my deliverance had failed should have perished with
that conviction. Early this day I deflected from my old route and
took my course for the foot of the lake, with the hope, by constant
travel, to reach it the next day. The distance was greater than I
anticipated. Nothing is more deceptive than distance in these high
latitudes. At the close of each of the two suceeding days, my point
of destination was seemingly as far from me as at the moment I took
leave of the Madison Range, and when, cold and hungry, on the
afternoon of the fourth day, I gathered the first food I had eaten in
nearly five days, and lay down by my fire near the debouchure of the
river, I had nearly abandoned all hope of escape.
At daybreak I was on the trail down the river. The thought I had
adopted from the first, "I will not perish in this wilderness," often
revived my sinking spirits, when, from faintness and exhaustion, I
felt but little desire for life. Once, while struggling through a
field of tangled trunks which seemed interminable, at one of the
pauses I found myself seriously considering whether it was not
preferable to die there than renew the effort to proceed. I felt that
all attempt to escape was but a bitter prolongation of the agony of
dissolution. A seeming whisper in the air, "While there is life there
is hope; take courage," broke the delusion, and I clambered on. I did
not forget to improve the mid-day sun to procure fire. Sparks from
the lighted brands had burned my hands and crisped the nails of my
fingers, and the smoke from them had tanned my face to the complexion
of an Indian. While passing through an opening in the forest I found
the tip of a gull's wing; it was fresh. I made a fire upon the spot,
mashed the bones with a stone, and consigning them to my camp kettle,
the yeast-powder box, made half a pint of delicious broth. The
remainder of that day and the night ensuing were given to sleep.
I lost all sense of time. Days and nights came and went, and were
numbered only by the growing consciousness that I was gradually
starving. I felt no hunger, did not eat to appease appetite, but to
renew strength. I experienced but little pain. The gaping sores on my
feet, the severe burn on my hip, the festering crevices at the joints
of my fingers, all terrible in appearance, had ceased to give me the
least concern. The roots which supplied my food had suspended the
digestive power of the stomach, and their fibres were packed in it a
matted, compact mass.
Not so with my hours of slumber. They were visited by the most
luxurious dreams. I would apparently visit the most gorgeously
decorated restaurants of New York and Washington; sit down to immense
tables spread with the most appetizing viands; partake of the richest
oyster stews and plumpest pies; engage myself in the labor and
preparation of curious dishes, and with them fill range upon range of
elegantly furnished tables until they fairly groaned beneath the
accumulated dainties prepared by my own hands. Frequently the entire
night would seem to have been spent in getting up a sumptuous dinner.
I would realize the fatigue of roasting, boiling, baking, and
fabricating the choicest dishes known to the modern cuisine, and in
my disturbed slumber's would enjoy with epicurean relish the food
thus furnished even to repletion. Alas! there was more luxury than
life in these somnolent vagaries.
It was a cold, gloomy day when I arrived in the vicinity of the
falls. The sky was overcast and the snow-capped peaks rose chilly and
bleak through the biting atmosphere. The moaning of the wind through
the pines, mingling with the sullen roar of the falls, was strangely
in unison with my own saddened feelings. I had no heart to gaze upon
a scene which a few weeks before had inspired me with rapture and
awe. One moment of sunshine was of more value to me than all the
marvels amid which I was famishing. But the sun had hid his face and
denied me all hope of obtaining fire. The only alternative was to
seek shelter in a thicket. I penetrated the forest a long distance,
before finding one that suited me. Breaking and crowding my way into
its very midst, I cleared a spot large enough to recline upon,
interlaced the surrounding brushwood, gathered the fallen foliage
into a bed, and lay down with a prayer for sleep and forgetfulness.
Alas! neither came. The coldness increased through the night.
Constant friction with my hands and unceasing beating with my legs
and feet saved me from freezing. It was the most terrible night of my
journey, and when, with the early dawn, I pulled myself into a
standing posture, it was to realize that my right arm was partially
paralyzed, and my limbs so stiffened with cold as to be almost
immovable. Fearing lest paralysis should suddenly seize the entire
system, I literally dragged myself through the forest to the river.
Seated near the verge of the great canon below the falls, I anxiously
awaited the appearance of the sun. That great luminary never looked
so beautiful as when, a few moments afterwards, he emerged from the
clouds and exposed his glowing beams to the concentrated powers of my
lens. I kindled a mighty flame, fed it with every dry stick and
broken tree-top I could find, and without motion, and almost without
sense, remained beside it several hours. The great falls of the
Yellowstone were roaring within three hundred yards, and the awful
canon yawned almost at my feet; but they had lost all charm for me.
In fact, I regarded them as enemies which had lured me to
destruction, and felt a sullen satisfaction in morbid
indifference.
My old friend and adviser, whose presence I had felt more than
seen the last few days, now forsook me altogether. But I was not
alone. By some process which I was too weak to solve, my arms, legs,
and stomach were transformed into so many traveling companions. Often
for hours I would plod along conversing with these imaginary friends.
Each had his peculiar wants which he expected me to supply. The
stomach was importunate in his demand for a change of
diet—complained incessantly of the roots I fed him, their
present effect and more remote consequences. I would try to silence
him with promises, beg of him to wait a few days, and when this
failed of the quiet I desired, I would seek to intimidate him by
declaring, as a sure result of negligence, our inability to reach
home alive. All to no purpose—he tormented me with his fretful
humors through the entire journey. The others would generally concur
with him in these fancied altercations. The legs implored me for
rest, and the arms complained that I gave them too much to do.
Troublesome as they were, it was a pleasure to realize their
presence. I worked for them, too, with right good will, doing many
things for their comfort, which, had I felt alone, would have
remained undone. They appeared to be perfectly helpless of
themselves; would do nothing for me or for each other. I often
wondered, while they ate and slept so much that they did not aid in
gathering wood and kindling fires. As a counterpoise to their own
inertia, whenever they discovered languor in me on necessary
occasions, they were not wanting in words of encouragement and cheer.
I recall as I write an instance where by prompt and timely
interposition, the representative of the stomach saved me from a
death of dreadful agony. One day I came to a small stream issuing
from a spring of mild temperature on the hillside, swarming with
minnows. I caught some with my hands and ate them raw. To my taste
they were delicious. But the stomach refused them, accused me of
attempting to poison him, and would not be reconciled until I had
emptied my pouch of the few fish I had put there for future use.
Those that I ate made me very sick. Poisoned by the mineral in the
water, had I glutted my appetite with them as I intended, I should
doubtless have died in the wilderness, in excruciating torment.
A gradual mental introversion grew upon me as physical weakness
increased. The grand and massive scenery which, on the upward
journey, had aroused every enthusiastic impulse of my nature, was now
tame and spiritless. My thoughts were turned in upon
myself—upon the dreadful fate which apparently lay just before
me—and the possible happiness of the existence beyond. All
doubt of immortality fled in the light of present realities. So vivid
were my conceptions of the future that at times I longed for death,
not less as the beginning of happiness than as a release from misery.
Led on by these reflections, I would recall the varied incidents of
my journey—my escape from the lion, from fire, my return from
Madison Range—and in all of them I saw how much I had been
indebted to that mysterious protection which comes only from the
throne of the Eternal. And yet, starving, foot-sore, half blind, worn
to a skeleton, was it surprising that I lacked the faith needful to
buoy me above the dark waters of despair, which I now felt were
closing around me?
In less serious moods, as I struggled along, my thoughts would
revert to the single being on whom my holiest affections
centered—my daughter. What a tie was that to bind me to life!
Oh! could I be restored to her for a single hour, long enough for
parting counsel and blessing, it would be joy unspeakable! Long hours
of painful travel were relieved of physical suffering by this
absorbing agony of the mind which, when from my present standpoint I
contrast it with the personal calamities of my exile, swells into
mountains.
To return from this digression. At many of the streams on my route
I spent hours in endeavoring to catch trout, with a hook fashioned
from the rim of my broken spectacles, but in no instance with
success. The tackle was defective. The country was full of game in
great variety. I saw large herds of deer, elk, antelope, occasionally
a bear, and many smaller animals. Numerous flocks of ducks, geese,
swans, and pelicans inhabited the lakes and rivers. But with no means
of killing them, their presence was a perpetual aggravation. At all
the camps of our company I stopped and recalled many pleasant
incidents associated with them.
One afternoon, when approaching "Tower Falls," I came upon a large
hollow tree, which, from the numerous tracks surrounding it, and the
matted foliage in the cavity, I recognized as the den of a bear. It
was a most inviting couch. Gathering a needful supply of wood and
brush, I lighted a circle of piles around the tree, crawled into the
nest, and passed a night of unbroken slumber. I rose the next morning
to find that during the night the fires had communicated with the
adjacent forest, and burned a large space in all directions,
doubtless intimidating the rightful proprietor of the nest, and
saving me from another midnight adventure.
At "Tower Falls" I spent the first half of a day in capturing a
grasshopper, and the remainder in a fruitless effort to catch a mess
of trout. In the agony of disappointment, I resolved to fish no more.
A spirit of rebellion seized me. I determined that thistles should
thenceforth be my only sustenance. "Why is it," I asked myself, "that
in the midst of abundance, every hour meeting with objects which
would restore strength and vigor and energy, every moment contriving
some device to procure the nourishment my wasting frame requires, I
should meet with these repeated and discouraging failures." Thoughts
of the early teaching of a pious mother suppressed these feelings.
Oh! how often have the recollections of a loved New England home, and
the memories of a happy childhood, cheered my sinking spirits, and
dissipated the gathering gloom of despair! There were thoughts and
feelings and mental anguishes without number, that visited me during
my period of trial, that never can be known to any but my God and
myself. Bitter as was my experience, it was not unrelieved by some of
the most precious moments I have ever known.
Soon after leaving "Tower Falls," I entered the open country. Pine
forests and windfalls were changed for sage brush and desolation,
with occasional tracts of stinted verdure, barren hillsides,
exhibiting here and there an isolated clump of dwarf trees, and
ravines filled with the rocky debris of adjacent mountains. My first
camp on this part of the route, for the convenience of getting wood,
was made near the summit of a range of towering foot-hills. Towards
morning a storm of wind and snow nearly extinguished my fire. I
became very cold; the storm was still raging when I arose, and the
ground white with snow. I was perfectly bewildered and had lost my
course of travel. No visible object, seen through the almost blinding
storm, reassured me, and there was no alternative but to find the
river and take my direction from its current, Fortunately after a few
hours of stumbling and scrambling among rocks and over crests, I came
to the precipitous side of the canyon through which it ran, and with
much labor, both of hands and feet, descended it to the margin. I
drank copiously of its pure waters, and sat beside it for a long
time, waiting for the storm to abate, so that I could procure fire.
The day wore on, without any prospect of a termination to the storm.
Chilled through, my tattered clothing saturated, I saw before me a
night of horrors unless I returned to my fire. The scramble up the
side of the rocky canyon in many places nearly perpendicular, was the
hardest work of my journey. Often while clinging to the jutting rocks
with hands and feet, to reach a shelving projection, my grasp would
unclose and I would slide many feet down the sharp declivity. It was
night when, sore from the bruises I had received, I reached my fire;
the storm, still raging, had nearly extinguished it. I found a few
embers in the ashes, and with much difficulty kindled a flame. Here
on this bleak mountain side, as well as I now remember, I must have
passed two nights beside the fire in the storm. Many times during
each night I crawled to a little clump of trees to gather wood, and
brush, and the broken limbs of fallen tree-tops. All the sleep I
obtained was snatched from the intervals which divided these labors.
It was so harassed with frightful dreams as to afford little rest. I
remember, before I left this camp, stripping up my sleeves to look at
my shrunken arms. Flesh and blood had apparently left them. The skin
clung to the bones like wet parchment. A child's hand could have
clasped them from wrist to shoulder. "Yet" thought I, "It is death to
remain; I cannot perish in this wilderness."

Taking counsel of this early formed resolution, I hobbled on my
course through the snow, which was rapidly disappearing before the
rays of the warm sun. Well knowing that I should find no thistles in
the open country, I had filled my pouches with them before leaving
the forest. My supply was running low, and there was several days of
heavy mountain travel between me and Boteler's ranch. With the most
careful economy, it could last but two or three days longer. I saw
the necessity of placing myself and imaginary companions upon
allowance. The conflict which ensued with the stomach, when I
announced this resolution, required great firmness to carry through.
I tried wheedling and coaxing and promising; failing in these, I
threatened to part company with a comrade so unreasonable, and he
made no further complaint.
Two or three days before I was found, while ascending a steep
hill, I fell from exhaustion into a sage brush, without the power to
rise. Unbuckling my belt, as was my custom, I soon fell asleep. I
have no idea of the time I slept, but upon awakening I fastened my
belt, scrambled to my feet, and pursued my journey. As night drew on
I selected a camping-place, gathered wood into a heap, and felt for
my lens to procure fire. It was gone. If the earth had yawned to
swallow me I would not have been more terrified.
The only chance for life was lost. The last hope had fled. I
seemed to feel the grim messenger who had been long pursuing me
knocking at the portals of my heart as I lay down by the side of the
wood pile and covered myself with limbs and sage brush, with the
dreadful conviction that my struggle of life was over, and I should
rise no more. The flood gates of misery seemed now to be opened, and
it rushed in living tide upon my soul. With the rapidity of
lightning, I ran over every event of my life. Thoughts doubled and
trebled upon me, until I saw, as if in vision, the entire past of my
existence. It was all before me, as if painted with a sunbeam, and
all seemingly faded like the phantoms of a vivid dream.
As calmness returned, reason resumed her empire. Fortunately the
weather was comfortable. I summoned all the powers of my memory,
thought over every foot of the day's travel, and concluded that the
glass must have become detached from my belt while sleeping. Five
long miles over the hills must be retraced to regain it. There was no
alternative, and before daylight I had staggered over half the
distance. I found the lens on the spot where I had slept. No incident
of my journey brought with it more of joy and relief.
Returning to the camp of the previous night, I lighted the pile I
had prepared, and lay down for a night of rest. It was very cold, and
towards morning commenced snowing. With difficulty I kept the fire
alive. Sleep was impossible. When daylight came, I was impressed with
the idea that I must go on despite the storm. A flash—momentary
but vivid—came over me, that I should be saved. Snatching a
lighted brand, I started through the storm. In the afternoon the
storm abated and the sun shone at intervals. Coming to a small clump
of trees, I set to work to prepare a camp. I laid the brand down
which I had preserved with so much care, to pick up a few dry sticks
with which to feed it, until I could collect wood for a camp-fire and
in the few minutes thus employed it expired. I sought to revive it,
but every spark was gone. Clouds obscured the sun, now near the
horizon, and the prospect of another night of exposure without fire
became fearfully imminent. I sat down with my lens and the last
remaining piece of touchwood I possessed to catch a gleam of
sunshine, feeling that my life depended upon it. In a few minutes the
cloud passed, and with trembling hands I presented the little disk to
the face of the glowing luminary. Quivering with excitement lest a
sudden cloud should interpose, a moment passed before I could hold
the lens steadily enough to concentrate a burning focus. At length it
came. The little thread of smoke curled gracefully upwards from the
Heaven-lighted spark, which, a few moments afterwards, diffused with
warmth and comfort my desolate lodgings.
I resumed my journey the next morning, with the belief that I
should make no more fires with my lens. I must save a brand, or
perish. The day was raw and gusty; an east wind, charged with storm,
penetrated my nerves with irritating keenness. After walking a few
miles the storm came on, and a coldness unlike any other I had ever
felt seized me. It entered all my bones. I attempted to build a fire,
but could not make it burn. Seizing a brand, I stumbled blindly on,
stopping within the shadow of every rock and clump to renew energy
for a final conflict for life. A solemn conviction that death was
near, that at each pause I made my limbs would refuse further
service, and that I should sink helpless and dying in my path,
overwhelmed me with terror. Amid all this tumult of the mind, I felt
that I had done all that man could do. I knew that in two or three
days more I could effect my deliverance, and I derived no little
satisfaction from the thought that, as I now was in the broad trail,
my remains would be found, and my friends relieved of doubt as to my
fate. Once only the thought flashed across my mind that I should be
saved, and I seemed to hear a whispered command to "Struggle on."
Groping along the side of a hill, I became suddenly sensible of a
sharp reflection, as of burnished steel. Looking up, through
half-closed eyes, two rough, but kindly faces met my gaze.
"Are you Mr. Everts?"
"Yes. All that is left of him."
"We have come for you."
"Who sent you?"
"Judge Lawrence and other friends."
"God bless him and them and you! I am saved!" and with these
words, powerless of further effort, I fell forward into the arms of
my preservers, in a state of unconsciousness. I was saved. On the
very brink of the river which divides the known from the unknown,
strong arms snatched me from the final plunge, and kind ministrations
wooed me back to life.

Baronet and Prichette, my two preservers, by the usual appliances,
soon restored me to consciousness, made a camp upon the spot, and
while one went to Fort Ellis, a distance of seventy miles, to return
with remedies to restore digestion and an ambulance to convey me to
that post, the other sat by my side, and with all the care, sympathy,
and solicitude of a brother, ministered to my frequent necessities.
In two days I was sufficiently recovered in strength to be moved
twenty miles down the trail to the cabin of some miners who were
prospecting in that vicinity. From these men I received every
possible attention which their humane and generous natures could
devise. A good bed was provided, game was killed to make broth, and
the best stores of their larder placed at my command. For four days,
at a time when every day's labor was invaluable in their pursuit,
they abandoned their work to aid in my restoration. Owing to the
protracted inaction of the system, and the long period which must
transpire before Prichette's return with remedies, my friends had
serious doubts of my recovery.
The night after my arrival at the cabin, while suffering the most
excruciating agony, and thinking that I had only been saved to die
among friends, a loud knock was heard at the cabin door. An old man
in mountain costume entered—a hunter, whose life was spent
among the mountains. He was on his way to find a brother. He,
listened to the story of my sufferings, and tears rapidly coursed
each other down his rough, weather-beaten face. But when he was told
of my present necessity, brightening in a moment, he exclaimed:
"Why, Lord bless you, if that is all, I have the very remedy you
need. In two hours' time all shall be well with you."
He left the cabin, returning in a moment with a sack filled with
the fat of a bear which he had killed a few hours before. From this
he rendered out a pint measure of oil. I drank the whole of it. It
proved to be the needed remedy, and the next day, freed from pain,
with appetite and digestion reestablished, I felt that good food and
plenty of it were only necessary for an early recovery.
In a day or two I took leave of my kind friends, with a feeling of
regret at parting, and gratitude for their kindness as enduring as
life. Meeting the carriage on my way, I proceeded to Bozeman, where I
remained among old friends, who gave me every attention until my
health was sufficiently restored to allow me to return to my home in
Helena.
My heartfelt thanks are due to the members of the Expedition, all
of whom devoted seven, and some of them twelve days to the search for
me before they left Yellowstone Lake; and to Judge Lawrence, of
Helena, and the friends who cooperated with him in the offer of
reward which sent Baronet and Prichette to my rescue.
My narrative is finished. In the course of events the time is not
far distant when the wonders of the Yellowstone will be made
accessible to all lovers of sublimity, grandeur, and novelty in
natural scenery, and its majestic waters become the abode of
civilization and refinement; and when that arrives, I hope, in
happier mood and under more auspicious circumstances, to revisit
scenes fraught for me with such thrilling interest; to ramble along
the glowing beach of Bessie Lake; to sit down amid the hot springs
under the shade of Mount Everts; to thread unscarred the mazy
forests, retrace the dreary journey to the Madison Range, and with
enraptured fancy gaze upon the mingled glories and terrors of the
great falls and marvelous canon, and to enjoy, in happy contrast with
the trials they recall, their power to delight, elevate, and
overwhelm the mind with wondrous and majestic beauty.