"When hope is chidden
That fain of bliss would tell,
And love forbidden
In the breast to dwell,—
When, fettered by a viewless chain,
We turn and gaze and turn again,
Oh! death were mercy to the pain
Of those that bid farewell!"—Heber.
"On India's long expected strand
Their sails were never furled."
James Montgomery.
We turn with pleasure from these dark outlaws to pure
affections in pure bosoms. Johnny Ravensworth was
growing up all that his father could desire; he was full of
the most exhilarant spirits, but had been strictly moral in
his private character, amid all the temptations of a dissipated
military school. He took away such a character
for diligence, good conduct, and steadiness, that the
highest hopes were formed that he would prove an ornament
to the profession he had chosen. His talents, though
not brilliant, were of a high order,—his attainments were
steady and solid. To these he added the gifts of excellent
good temper, and thorough unselfishness, the main-spring
of all real politeness; for though it often happens
a finished gentleman like the Earl of Chesterfield may be
exceedingly selfish, yet we never find an unselfish man
who has not the principles of true politeness, and is not
a thorough gentleman. It was, therefore, with feelings
of pride and delight that John Ravensworth, as we must
now call him, after passing a severe examination, yet
gaining a high place, bade adieu to his masters, with
whom he was a great favourite, owing to his steady progress
and unimpeachable conduct whilst under their discipline;
and to his fellow students, who lost in him their
captain in all manly amusements; for, while Ravensworth
would never join them in any ungentlemanly, or foolish
expedition, in riding, rowing, cricketing, and all the
healthful and useful accomplishments, he took the lead
that his well-knit frame and unimpaired physical strength
entitled him to hold. Assuredly all who saw him as he
walked forward, amid the plaudits of his fellow companions,
and the waving of fair ladies' kerchiefs, to receive
the gold medal for good conduct, and contrasted
his handsome face, glowing with health and conscious
pride, his manly form proportioned like a young Adonis,
could not but contrast health and vigour of mind
and body, arising from subjecting them to their proper
discipline, with the sallow looks and impaired constitutions
of many of his collegiates, which told too plainly
the ravages of youthful intemperance on unperfected
frames. But who could look for a moment on the bright,
healthful, young Ravensworth, and the dull impoverished
devotee of pleasure, and not see how temperance has
the promise of this life as well as the next? And what
young beauty would not rather gaze on him than on those
poor debilitated companions in learning? Thus, at the
youthful age of eighteen, after having won golden
opinions from every one he was connected with, young
Ravensworth, with a light heart, bade farewell to the
south, and started by coach for the Highlands, in order
to spend a couple of months with his father before
sailing for India, as the regiment to which he was
gazetted was on service at Delhi. The third, and last
month of his leave was promised to his sister at the
Towers, and we must say that in the young soldier's
breast an inmate of those towers claimed a large part.
It was now more than two years since he had seen his
sister or Lady Florence, whose fair face and sunny
tresses had made so deep an impression on his youthful
fancy.
The two months passed away swiftly but pleasantly
among the hills, the valleys, and dark rolling burns
of the North. In rambles with Maude, or riding excursions
with his father over the romantic county of
Perth, the days were fleeting away, and he was able
to have a week's slamming at the grouse ere he bade
adieu to his home. The pangs of parting with his father
and his sister, who was now growing into girlhood verging
on her fourteenth year, were alleviated by two
thoughts,—the first that he had high hopes of a future
meeting ere long, when he came back with laurels to be
welcomed by his friends and relations as a hero; the
second, that his parting was only the prelude of his meeting
with Ellen, and one, still dearer, of whom he thought
morn, noon, and even; and it was that uncertainty if he
should find her still the same Florence he had left two
years ago—if he dwelt in her heart as she did in his—that
made his pulses beat higher. That very uncertainty
which like clouds on a sunny day lend their beauty to
the sky, for without the shades of doubt love would often
lose half its charms. It would be difficult to depict his
feelings as his post-chaise entered the gates, and drove up
the park towards the Towers. The past and the dim
future so possessed his mind he could not but lose sight
of the present. The two years seemed but so many
hours; it was but yesterday he had scampered across that
park, but yet how had those years altered him, and all
his ideas. He was then a careless boy, he was now a
young soldier just entering on the campaign of life.
Burning hopes of high renown, lawful ambition that
pointed on to glory, were his now. In one thing he was
unchanged, in one matter his heart was the same as then—in
love to Lady Florence. It was then a boyish flame—time
and absence had deepened it into real attachment.
He had seen much beauty, he had been courted by
fashion, but he had never altered in sentiments to her!
Now he was about to see her again—would she be the
same to him?—had time altered her sentiments? No
letter, no message had passed between them all that
time; it would have been presumption in him, it would
have been unmaidenly in her, to have sent such—that
was nothing. He had hopes; she had often and often,
when he was a boy, declared Johnny only should be her
husband—that she would never forget him. Ah, how
would it be? how would she receive him now? would it
be with the cold politeness of the world, as if they had
never loved, or with the warm affection of those who
meet to love again?
Whilst these and many such thoughts occupied his
mind, the post-chaise whirled on, and ere he hardly woke
from his reverie it stopped before the arched doorway.
He leaped out, and saw old Andrew, who gazed for a
moment as if he hardly recognized him, and then, with
a beaming face, shook hands, exclaiming—"God bless
you, Master Johnny, ye are grown a braw sodger noo,
I wad scarce hae kent you."
Delighted at the warm reception even from the faithful
old servant, young Ravensworth hastened up stairs
to the drawing-room, where he found his sister the Countess,
with her infant son in her arms, and her little Edith
Augusta, such was the child's name, prattling at her feet
on the soft Turkey carpet. Ellen's warm heart swelled
with joy when she saw Johnny, a fine soldierly young
man, and as he clasped her in his arms, her eyes filled
with tears of joy, and a sort of bright sorrow as she recollected
how George had thus come home, and then
parted never to come back.
"My dear soldier brother," she said, "welcome to the
Towers. Why, Johnny, how tall and handsome you are
grown, and so like poor dear George! sit down and tell
me all about yourself, and papa, and dear Maude—and
look, Johnny, at baby; I am so glad he was a boy,—how
Wentworth did rejoice; and my little Edie, isn't
she a darling? Come, love, and kiss your uncle."
The little girl toddled up, and with her outspread arms,
saluted him—his was that open face children like.
The beautiful Countess, whom time had moulded into
a more lovely being still, gazed with a mother's pride on
her fine children, and a sister's joy on her youthful
brother. Certainly if there was a happy mind on the
face of the earth it was hers then—happy in her husband,
who loved her with the most faithful adoration, happy
in her children, pledges of that holy tie; happy in her
brother—her family; and happiest of all in herself—her
own virtues; a mind in unity with God and her fellow-creatures;
a heart full of charity; a love faithful and
true; one in which her husband's heart could safely
trust, above even the breath of suspicion, as the poet
beautifully says—
"And on that cheek, and o'er that brow
So soft, so calm, so eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow;
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!"
Such was Ellen; and if she looked with pride and joy
on her brother, who was growing all she could wish, it is
not too much to say, he gazed on her with a feeling bordering
almost on adoration. She seemed a being almost
too good for earth, and exciting worship as her adequate
homage! So far his most sanguine hopes were realised,—at
least he had a fond sister there, and he had also the
Earl, whom alone he had often seen, and who was the
most delighted at his conduct. Still, there was one
he had not seen, and it was long ere he summoned resolution
to ask even his sister after Lady Florence.
"Oh, Florence is out riding with Wentworth. If I had
not had baby to take care of I should have gone too, and
you would have had a cold welcome, Johnny! How glad
I am I was at home!"
After speaking on many other things, at last the door
opened, and a face too dearly remembered appeared;—Lady
Florence was eighteen,—still in her teens,—that
delightful affix to the numbers that afterwards move less
musically! Her face seemed exactly the same,—as did
her figure, shown off to perfection by her riding habit,
save that the girlish expression was softened into the
more sober air of riper, though still youthful years, and
the light form more rounded, and developed into the contour
of woman's figure. She wore a black velvet hat
with a white feather coquettishly displayed, and in one
of her little hands, covered with white gauntlets, she
balanced a riding-whip, whilst the other held up her
train. John was partly hidden by the white muslin curtains,
and the young lady did not observe him.
"Oh, Ellen,—you in yet? I thought you would have
been out this fine day!" and she was on the point of
shutting the door, when the Countess said—
"Why, Florence, love! where are your eyes? Do you
not see my brother John, who is just arrived?"
A faint blush for a moment crimsoned her face; then,
apologizing for her mistake, she walked gracefully forward,
while young Ravensworth leapt up and hurried to
meet her.
"So you have arrived, Mr. Ravensworth;—I am glad
to renew our old acquaintance."
"Not more than I am, Lady Florence. Why you are
not altered the least; I should have known no difference!"
"You flatter me," answered the lady, giving her hand;
"but I must say, I doubt if I should have known you
again. Why, dear me, Ellen, when last I saw him he
was not so tall as I am, and now he is a head over me!
I must now look up to you, Mr. Ravensworth,—you are
grown out of my recollection almost!"
"I trust not out of your remembrance, Lady Florence?"
"Certainly not out of yours, if I am to judge by your
shakes of hand. You forget you are now so strong;—you
nearly wrung my poor hand off! Excuse me now;
I must go and change my habit,—Addio!"
The light-hearted girl then sailed away, leaving her
admirer in half-hopefulness, half-fearfulness, and scarce
knowing what to think.
The Earl's reception was as warm as he had anticipated;
and he then left in order to dress for dinner.
Several guests besides himself were numbered at the
table, and, of course, Lady Florence fell to the care of a
young peer, and not to him; she sat a few paces from
him on the same side,—just too far for him to address,
and not too far for him to listen to. Her partner seemed
to pay the most assiduous attentions, which were certainly,
as far as he could judge, far from unacceptable, and he was
not altogether sorry when the ladies left. When they
rejoined them in the drawing-room, he was quite monopolized
by his sister, whilst Lady Florence was disengaged;
and when, at last, he got free, the same young
man walked up to her, just before him, and kept up incessant
flirtation. During the whole evening he but once
addressed her, and only received a laughing repartee.
Time wore on; Lady Florence was one of the earliest to
retire, and by-and-by the visitors departed, and he too
went to his room anything but pleased:—it seemed
quite certain she had forgotten him. Next morning, at
breakfast, he sat next her, and she seemed so like herself
again his spirits quite rose; but during the rest of
the day she hardly noticed him; and again he sought
his couch thoroughly discontented. During the days he
was of course carried off to the field by the Earl, who
was a keen sportsman; and as a large shooting party
gradually gathered at the Towers, his chances for a tête-à-tête
with Lady Florence grew more and more hopeless.
He saw her the star of every drawing-room; she
danced and laughed with him, and quite won him,—often
thrice in an evening; and then he saw her treating
some one else exactly the same; and at length came to
the conclusion that she was a heartless flirt! The days
hurried by, and soon he would have to say adieu! and
sail for India. He tried to reason with himself, how he
could be so foolish as to think the reigning belle of
town and country, and daughter of an Earl, could deign
to look on him, save as on any other young man. But
love will not listen to reason,—and he loved! Yet he
soon came to the sad conclusion, he would have to leave
without even speaking to her on the subject; he would
soon hear of her alliance with some noble family, and
then he would throw his life away in the first brush with
the enemy! All his high hopes of coming home a conquering
hero, and receiving as his guerdon the hand of
the lady of his choice seemed to "moulder cold and low!"
When she saw his death, she would perhaps say, "Poor
fellow!—he is gone at last!"—this all from one who had
said she would be his wife:—oh, the thought was maddening!
Those were her girlish vows,—unstable as the
name traced on the sands,—so her vows were washed
away by the stream of years! Oh, woman, thy faith is
written on sand!
The most provoking part was, she would often walk
with him, ride with him, sit with him alone; she would
listen to all his nonsense, and flirt in her turn; and after
these interviews he used to return vexed with himself for
frittering precious time in folly, and vexed with her for
returning it too well.
In this way three weeks passed away. During the next
few days he fancied he saw a change in Florence: she
was less frivolous,—she seemed more quiet; and he
could not but connect it in his own mind with his
approaching departure, and said to himself, "She has a
heart, after all!" Three days only of his tether remained,
when, one afternoon, he found himself walking with
Florence alone in the shrubberies; he nerved himself up,
and determined he would speak his whole mind, and
began by asking her "if she remembered what she had
told him two years ago?"
"Indeed, Mr. Ravensworth, if I remembered all the
foolish things I said, I should have enough to do."
"Then, Lady Florence, those days are gone. I would
I were Johnny Ravensworth again,—could you be the
same you were then to me."
"I scarcely understand you. I have always been
amused at your pleasantries; I have always liked your
company,—but you did not, I hope, imagine more."
"Oh, Lady Florence, do not say so! Have you, indeed,
forgotten all you once said,—how often you promised
and vowed affection to me?"
"Mr. Ravensworth, I was then a girl, and you were
then my playmate. There was no harm, then, in our
being so much together, or in all the foolish things we
said to each other. We are now nearly grown up; and
I hope your good taste will allow, we could not go on as
we did then,—why, the world would never let us hear
the end of it."
"Would God, Lady Florence, I was the same heedless
boy again! Oh! to grow beyond our childish loves is
surely the bitterest part of life! To be brief,—you love
me no more?"
"I am grieved to hurt your feelings, Mr. Ravensworth,—I
really never dreamed of this! You are a
friend,—a near and dear friend,—and shall ever remain
so."
"Then, all my hopes sink,—all my fondest hopes are
crushed! Oh! why did you draw me on only to crush me?
Why did you lead me,—why did you encourage me,—only
to blight my best affections? It cannot be you have
ceased to regard me! Oh, Lady Florence,—dear Lady
Florence, have pity on me!"
"I shall ever regard you as I have done, and still do,
Mr. Ravensworth; no one could feel more sorry than I
do. If I have awakened hopes I never dreamed of raising,
it will read me a lesson to be more careful in future.
I sincerely regret I cannot reciprocate your feelings;—may
you meet some one who can, and who will make
you happier than Florence de Vere!"
The young girl broke away without listening for a
reply, and hurried to her room. When she was alone
she threw herself on her bed and burst into tears, exclaiming,
"God forgive me!—how could I tell him such
a falsehood? I do,—I do love him! What made me
so foolish, so mad, as to refuse him?"
At dinner they met. You could hardly tell anything
was wrong, to listen to those two, speaking so merrily;
but, could you have read their hearts,—what a tale of
wretchedness was there! Young Ravensworth felt
utterly cast down at heart: he had heard from the lips
he best loved to hear the words that spoke his doom!
He had proved her he thought faithful, false! His trust
in womankind was gone; but he felt he must veil his
feelings. "I will show her," thought he, "I can laugh,
and sing, and, with false smiles on my face, throw a
light on sorrow's dark tide. I will not let the cold world
know my misery; but, after once finding the fickleness
of the sex, I will not try it again."
Alas! Ravensworth did not know how often a proud
beautiful girl rejects the love she would accept from a
vanity man knows not—the vanity and pleasure of playing
with hearts! Lady Florence felt grieved that she
should have dallied with deep feelings, all for the silly
pleasure of seeing her powers; but she felt faith in those
powers, and thought her smiles would tempt the moth,
even after singeing its wings, once more to woo the
flame. Alas! Lady Florence knew not there are hearts
which, once refused, are too haughty to ask again. Time
was short—two days only—and early on the morning
of the third John Ravensworth must start. Florence,
by all means in her power, strove to rekindle the
flame her refusal seemed to have quenched. Young
Ravensworth was partly surprised, partly angered at
this, to his idea, heartless trifling. A word would have
set all right; had he asked again she would have become
his betrothed, but he asked not. Had she only
whispered, "I do love you," he would again have asked—she
spoke not. And thus whilst she fancied he was
too proud to ask, and resolved to lower that pride by
appearing everything he wished, all to make him ask
once more, he fancied it was cruelty in her appearing so
affectionate, all to induce him to ask again, that she
might once more have the pleasure of refusing, and he
resolved he would not give her the chance. Thus a
mutual feeling of restraint prevented each of them
from saying the word or making the concession on which
their future joy or sorrow depended! Time, which
stays his course not for mortal man, wore on; the day—the
last day—hurried by! The excitement of packing,
preparing, and looking at the beautiful presents showered
on him from all sides, partly distracted Ravensworth
from gnawing care; yet through all he felt that sinking,
aching void within which only one could fill. He had
no present from her he valued most, not even a flower!
and a flower from her were worth the wealth of Golconda
from others. The evening—though he wooed its
stay as if it were his last below—passed away with the
rapidity happy hours do pass. He sat by her—talked
to her; she played and sang to him, and he was at once
happy and wretched. One song—
"When we two parted
In silence and tears,"
the latest production of Lord Byron's muse then
set to music, she sang with such pathos the tear
sprang to his eyes. But afterwards she laughed, and
his spirits sank again as she bade him good evening
and good bye.
"Good bye; I shall not see you again, Mr. Ravensworth;
you will be gone early, I suppose. When we
meet again you will be a captain perhaps. I hope you
will have a nice voyage. Good bye, I sha'n't forget
you."
Poor Ravensworth could only press her hand as she
was leaving the room, and offer a little packet, probably
containing a costly keepsake, but Lady Florence fathomed
his meaning, and said, "Thank you, but I could
not accept it, it would not be right; I shall require no
souvenir to cause you to be remembered! but if you
want one, there is a flower for you." As she spoke she
took a sprig of blue forget-me-not from the wreath that
bound her hair, and playfully gave it. She then hurried
away with a light step, but a heavy heart. Young
Ravensworth stood mute, with the rejected gift in one
hand and the flower in the other, gazing abstractedly
on his retreating vision of beauty. He thought he heard
her sigh. He then slowly retraced his steps, bade farewell
to the Countess, and retired to his own room, heavy
and discontented. He could not sleep, so fevered grew
his head, and thinking the cool night air might do him
good, he left the castle, crossed the span-bridge, and
sought the Holly Walk. The night was extremely beautiful,
the moon walking on high in brightness, the air
warm and perfumed as it swept o'er the flower-gardens,
and gently whirled the sere leaves from the beech-trees
behind the hedge.
What a different scene had been enacted there a few
years ago! Awful as it was, to him it was brighter
than now, and as he marked the leaves fall, silently but
surely, before the touch of the waning year, so, he
thought, fall my hopes one by one, till old age will
leave me without a leaf to bless the bare branches. He
sat down on a bench, and there taking the little rejected
packet, he broke the seal, tore to fragments a few lines
of poetry he had written and wrapped the little brooch
in, and scattered the fragments amongst the dried holly-leaves
at the root of the hedge. We are, however, able
to state they ran thus:—
When morning is beaming,
And dew-drops are gleaming,
My heart is still dreaming
Of Florence de Vere!
No eye owns such splendour,
No heart is so tender,
All—all I'd surrender
For Florence de Vere!
While this even of sorrow
Bodes darker to-morrow,
Some ray I still borrow
From Florence de Vere;
On my spirit repining
The pole-star is shining,
That knows not declining,—
'Tis Florence de Vere!
When parted our dwelling
By ocean proud-swelling,
Hope will still be foretelling,
My Florence de Vere!
A day of glad meeting,
A voice of kind greeting,
And echo repeating—
"Sweet Florence de Vere!"
Be my cynosure yonder;—
The further I wander
I'll love thee the fonder,
My Florence de Vere!
And vain's fate's endeavour
Our hearts to dissever,
They're mingled for ever,
Loved Florence de Vere!
"It is false! she is no pole-star, and my nonsense isn't
worth burning," exclaimed the unhappy lover. "And
thou, poor rejected souvenir, no eye shall ever see thee!"
dropping it on the ground, he stamped the brooch into
the greensward in his fury. He looked up,—you could
scarce have told that pale livid face to be the same
bright visage that smiled as he received his medal. He
arose and retraced his footsteps towards the Towers.
Once or twice he fancied he heard a rustle among the
branches at the back of the hedge; as he neared the
end of the walk the sound rose so distinctly on his ear
it made him start. He was brave as a lion, but not
untinctured with the superstition of the North. The
idea at once struck him it was the spirit of Musgrave
haunting the walk where he had been murdered. An
involuntary thrill ran through him; he stood as if rooted
to the ground, and he felt his hair somewhat bristle on
his head. Had it been twenty robbers he had not known
a particle of dread, but anything supernatural was
horrid! It was some moments ere he found his voice,
and he was almost ashamed of himself to hear how it
quavered as he asked, "Who goes there?" No answer
came; the rustling came nearer, and through the
branches he saw a dim white figure approaching. His
heart sank within him, and in a voice tremulous and
hollow he asked, "In God's name who are you? avaunt!
away! by all that is sacred go!" The cold drops stood
on his brow like icicles, and his whole frame shook.
"Hist, speak low—follow me," replied a female voice,
and at the same moment the form broke through the
bushes. For an instant he thought it was Lady Florence,
but no, she was an inch taller at least, and it was
not the light beautifully-moulded figure of the lady of
his love. "Are you ill? are you glamoured, that you
will nae speak nor move? You look dumbfoundered as
if a ghaist had speered on you. Quick, follow me, Mr.
John."
"By heaven! I did think it was a ghost! What, in
the name of God, brings you here in such a place, at
such an hour? By my troth I did think it was Sir
Richard's spirit."
"Whisht, for the love of God dinna speak sae.
Dinna ye ken the place is no canny? Follow me. But
you are a brave sodger."
Young Ravensworth felt his blood kindle, and felt
angry at his folly in imagining she was a ghost, and
eager to disabuse her of the idea, said, "No, Jenny,
speak here—it is all trash—what is it?"
"Na, na, not here. Either come, or I maun tell her
ye willna come ava."
"Her, who is her? I will come."
And he hastened to follow Jeanie Forbes, who, when
the rest of the family had left, was promoted to the rank
of lady's-maid to Lady Florence, as a reward for her
uniform kindness to the Countess in her imprisonment.
Following his guide, he entered the castle by a back-door,
and ascended the back-stairs till he reached the door of
Lady Florence's room. "Tap thrice," said his guide,
and disappeared in the darkness. For a minute he stood
irresolute whether he should tap or not. Love overcame
pride, and he gently struck the door thrice. A light
step crossed the room, the door was opened, and he stood
face to face with his lady love.
"Come in; tread lightly," said the lady. "Oh! I
am doing very wrong, Mr. Ravensworth! but I could
not let you leave this without seeing you once more.
It is very wrong—it may be, unmaidenly—I cannot
help it! Sit down—there," pointing to a sofa.
Hardly knowing what he did, he sank down on the
sofa as he was bid.
Lady Florence still kept standing.
"Why have you brought me here, Lady Florence?
For heaven's sake relieve me of my doubts!"
The lady stood speechless.
It was a fine picture: the despairing look of the
lover, with his eyes cast on the ground, as if unable to
lift them to the idol of his affections; the half earthly,
half heavenly look of the lady, as if dying to breathe
a word and kept back by an irresistible chain.
She was still, of course, dressed as he had last seen her,
save that her hair was let down, and in long tresses
almost swept the ground as she bent forward, and with
eyes swelling with tears, and hands clasped together,
exclaimed, "Johnny, I do love you!"
As though he heard not, or understood not, he was
silent as death for some seconds, and contending passions
strove for mastery in his bosom. The pride, that would
rather suffer than bend, fought against the love that
would rather die than cause its object to suffer. For a
few dread moments they fiercely contended, and, alas
for love! pride vanquished, and he replied, "Lady
Florence, you have trifled once with my tenderest feelings;
you shall not again. Once refused, I am too
proud to implore again the love denied me. Would we
had not met! My peace is gone,—perhaps yours also."
"Hear me, Johnny—hear me! I repent,—I bitterly
repent of my folly. Why this false pride? Your peace,
you say, is gone. I can give it back. My peace is
gone. You can give it me again. Let me not ask in
vain!"
"Alas! it is too late now, Florence!" said her lover,
relenting. "I had my resignation penned when I asked
you. I had given up all my dreams of glory for you! I
have sent the letter stating I am ready for service. At
the least, it will be years ere we meet again; but if my
Florence will be true, she need not fear my infidelity."
"My God!" exclaimed the unhappy young lady, "I
am punished indeed! But, oh, Johnny! it is not too
late! it is not! Wentworth has such interest; he will
get your discharge. You can sell your commission. What
is glory? An empty dream! The mere bray of the
trumpet! Oh! stay, stay with your Florence—your
beloved, loving Florence! Do not leave me!" and the
young girl threw her arms round him, as if she would
not let him go.
He felt the embarrassment of his situation; he felt
a softness stealing over his soul, he felt his decision
all melting away; he saw how much she was devoted
to him. He then thought of martial glory; high fame;
and his honour; his duty; and then again of love and
home delights! Half he was inclined to throw over all,
and spend his life in inglorious indolence,—in retired,
blissful, domestic happiness! but again feelings the
young soldier only knows—the sound of the trumpet,
——"whose breath
May lead to death,
But never to retreating,"
spoke in his ear, and again love failed, and glory won
the battle.
"Nay, my gentle Florence, not even love must bring
dishonour. I have pledged myself a soldier of the
King. I am no more my own. My fellow-soldiers are
bleeding, and suffering hunger, vigil, heat, marching;
and shall I in indulgent ease stay at home in beauty's
arms? No; had it been earlier, before that letter
went, it might have been. But regrets are vain.
It is too late now! Honour, and glory, and duty
before even love! But weep not, my own darling,
I will soon come home crowned with laurels; and you
shall welcome me home! And the thought of the girl
I left behind me will steel my sword, nerve my soul;
and in battle I will think both of you and my country,
and fight for each more valiantly! And, should I fall,
I will die happy, knowing that Florence will weep over
her soldier lover!"
"No! no! you shall not, must not go! I should
never see you again! They would kill you! If you
must go, let me go with you. I will share your tent
and your danger, and bind your wounds, and—and—"
The rest was lost in sobs.
The lover disengaged himself tenderly from the weeping
girl's arms, and again and again kissing her velvet
brow, bidding her farewell, and lingering, and again
kissing her, at last left her, with, "God bless you, my
own darling! Adieu! adieu! I shall not see you
again; let this be our parting. Your tears might shake
my purpose; and even Florence would not wish that."
He then sought his own room, first asking Jeanie
Forbes, who watched outside, to wait a few minutes
whilst he penned a note. He sat down and hurriedly
wrote the verses we have already made our readers
acquainted with, from his memory, and, folding them
up, sent them to Lady Florence by Jeanie, to whom he
gave a valuable ring, as a memento.
Early next morning our hero arose, and, unable to eat
more than an apology of a breakfast with Lord Wentworth,
who alone was up, prepared to leave for ever.
He never came back.
"Give my love to Ellen, and to your sister," he said,
as he got into the post-chaise, which was to tear him
from all he prized. He felt a choking sensation from
grief as he said the words.
"I will. God bless you, my boy! win laurels and
then lady-love!" said the Earl, shaking hands.
Just as the carriage was starting Jeanie Forbes
hurried up and pressed a note into his hand. He
could hardly read it, so dizzy grew his brain. On the
outside were the words "Look to my window."
The carriage started. As it crossed the bridge he
looked towards the window of the room in which all that
was dear then was. He saw a white figure, and a
whiter arm that waved a kerchief. He kissed his hand;
and then an envious corner of the castle hid all from his
view. Again the window re-appeared as he drove
smartly down the park road. He looked back, his eye
fixed on that lattice, and the white kerchief and the
arm that waved it! But the horses cruelly trotted on;
it grew fainter and further—further and fainter—dimmer
still—until not even an eye of fondest hero could
detect it any more.
He sank back with a feeling of utter heartbroken
and sickening grief—as if deserted by all he loved.
Had she asked him then, he had thrown honour, glory,
duty to the winds!
As he drove on, the first poignancy passed away, and he
began to break the seal of the note he had not yet read.
As he opened it a long tress of her golden hair fell out
at his feet. He picked it up and pressed it to his lips.
The letter ran thus:—
"Dearest Johnny,
"I am punished for my vanity; but let it pass.
It is vain to lament what is done. You did right.
Had you stayed I would not have loved you half as
much as I now do, though it would have gratified my
wishes. Johnny, I shall ever think of you in my
prayers—when tossed on the restless billow—when on the
battle-field—when on the sultry march. When at even
you see the star we have gazed on so oft, you will think
it is the morning star of my hopes! Farewell, Johnny!
And whether we meet again or not, our vows shall never
be broken. Farewell! If you come back you will find
Florence faithful. Nothing but death shall then part
us. And, if you die a soldier's death, you shall have
it watered with Florence's tears.
"Go where glory waits thee,
But while fame elates thee,
Oh! still remember me!"
Bind my hair in your plume; and, when you fight,
remember your
"Florence de Vere."
We shall no longer spin out this already long chapter,
but merely add, the vessel that bore John Ravensworth,
and many other brave and fine young officers, sailed for
India, but
"On India's long expected strand,
Their sails were never furled."
Whether she ran on a sunken rock, or went "down at
sea, when heaven was all tranquillity," or was overtaken
and shattered in a typhoon, or fell a prey to the pirates
off Madagascar, who even then were not quite smothered,
was long unknown.
John Ravensworth was an expert swimmer, and we
can fancy how he struck manfully out on the wide
waters; and, perhaps, holding high that golden lock,
sank with her name on his lips to whom it belonged!
"There are to whom that ship was dear
For love and kindred's sake,
When these the voice of rumour hear
Their inmost breast shall quake,
Shall doubt and fear, and wish and grieve,
Believe and long to unbelieve,
But never cease to ache.
Still doomed in sad suspense to bear
The hope that keeps alive despair!"