When surveying my congregation one Sabbath evening,
I noticed an interesting stranger in the front gallery,
whose manner indicated that he had never been in the
chapel before. I had selected for my text Isa. lvii. 18:
"I have seen his ways, and will heal him; I will lead him also, and
restore comforts unto him, and to his mourners." As he sat just
opposite the pulpit my eye caught his, when delivering the following
introductory remarks:—
"No one can read the Bible with serious attention, without feeling
that he is brought into contact with God. While intently fixed on
the subject which engages his attention, he feels isolated from others—existing
apart from others, yet existing in immediate connection
with God and the eternal world. The same novel effect is sometimes
produced, and often to a greater degree, when a congregation
is attentively listening to the ministrations of the pulpit. People
are drawn together into a place of worship: the reading, the singing,
and the prayer are gone through; and then the preaching commences.
The preacher is known, but he is soon lost sight of; his subject
absorbs attention, excites emotion; impression succeeds impression;
and though, in some instances, there may be a momentary degree of
astonishment awakened as to the source from whence the preacher
has obtained his knowledge of individual character, yet that astonishment
soon subsides, and nothing is left to engross the attention
of the hearer, but an overwhelming sense of his own guilt, misery,
and danger, which is now discovered, and felt, FOR THE FIRST TIME.
Yes, many a person has entered this chapel to scorn, who has left it
to breathe the prayer of the publican—'God be merciful to me a sinner.'
Yes, many a person has taken his seat with others, and by
being blended with the mass of the congregation, has seemed to lose
the individuality of his existence; but the high and lofty One, that
inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy, speaks—and though his
voice is not heard, it is felt—'I have seen his ways.' Yes, O sinner,
he has seen your ways in the gone-by times of your impenitence,
when you were living without him, and without hope in the world.
Yes, he has seen your ways, when you either neglected the ordinances
of religion, or observed them with careless indifference, as
though they bore no relation to the Holy One, who inhabiteth eternity.
Yes, he has seen the ways you have adopted to obliterate your
religious impressions; to pacify your consciences; and to reconcile
your habits of gaiety and folly, with a sense of your obligations to
him. But he has never yet seen you walking in the narrow way
that leadeth to eternal life. He has never seen you at his footstool
deploring the error of your ways, and praying for mercy. Shall he
abandon you to your irreligious course, and leave you to perish? or
shall he come to heal you, to guide you, and to comfort you?"
His attention was arrested; he looked and listened as though he
had never previously seen a minister in a pulpit, or heard a sermon;
and on his countenance there was impressed an air of expressive
solemnity, indicating profound thought.
I saw him again on the next Sabbath evening, then I missed him
for several Sabbaths; he again re-appeared, became more frequent
in his attendance, and at length I saw him walking up the area of the
chapel accompanied by a lady, whom I presumed to be his wife. On
this occasion he was invited into a pew belonging to one of my elders;
and at the close of the service they left the chapel together. On inquiry
I found that this elder knew him; and from him I obtained
the outlines of his history, which he prefaced by saying, "I was not
at the chapel on the first night of his attendance, and was rather surprised
when he told me of it, because I rather apprehend he is a
sceptic, though he does not avow it. However, though he gave me
no reason to expect that he should repeat his visit, he made one remark
which I was gratified to hear, as it was a proof that he had
listened to the discourse, and was rather pleased than otherwise.
'The sermon,' he said, 'was simple and plain, yet somewhat original.
I have heard more eloquent, and more argumentative discourses,
both in my own country, and in England, but I never heard one
which took such a firm hold of my attention, or one which brought
after it such a train of novel thought; indeed, I cannot escape from
a recollection of it.'"
Mr. Christopher Lobeck, the gentleman in question, was born in
Berlin, in 1794. His parents were Protestants, with whom he lived
till he had finished his literary education; and then he travelled
for two years, visiting Spain, France, and Switzerland, and the principal
manufacturing districts and marts of commerce of his own
country, to qualify himself to engage in mercantile pursuits. Soon
after the termination of the war in 1815, he was introduced to an
English merchant, with whom he made an arrangement to serve
his establishment in the capacity of a corresponding clerk; and this
led to his settlement in London. While in this situation, which he
held for seven years, he married the daughter of a citizen of worth
and distinction; and by his advice, and with the concurrence of the
house in which he had been engaged, he accepted an eligible offer of
partnership in a firm of high respectability in ——, to which
place he removed in 1822. His private residence was situated
about a mile and a half from the centre of the town, a neat snug
cottage, with the usual appurtenances, &c., &c. "He is," the elder
added, "both intelligent and communicative, and has acquired a
large amount of scientific and general information; and notwithstanding
his doubts on the great question of the Christian faith, he
generally attends church on Sabbath morning with his wife and
children. Mrs. Lobeck is a contrast to her husband on religious
matters; he looks with equal indifference on all the external forms of
Christianity—she is one of the most impassioned admirers of Episcopacy
and its clergy I ever knew. She is, in fact, what may be
termed a devotee—excited, as by an electrical shock, if she hear any
remark derogatory to the absolute perfection of her church and its
priestly orders." He concluded by saying, "I think you should now
go and see them; as they have both been to hear you preach, I
think it likely they will be expecting it as an act of courtesy. It is
possible that this may be the opening of a new epoch in their moral
history, which may lead to some grand spiritual result."
I made a call, and was gratified by my reception. Mr. Lobeck
was very cordial, and Mrs. Lobeck very polite; he was free and
easy in chit-chat, but she was rather reserved; yet both seemed to
be pleased by my visit. After looking through his museum, which
contained a choice though not very extensive collection of birds,
reptiles, and fossils, a few coins of different ages and countries, and
a good assortment of autographs, I then strolled round his garden
and shrubbery, and took my leave of them—both equally pressing
for a more lengthened visit. Their attendance at the chapel now
became more regular on a Sabbath evening, and occasionally on a
Sabbath morning; and after the lapse of a few weeks, I met a select
tea-party at their house, and though nearly all were strangers to me,
and most of them high church, yet I spent a very pleasant evening.
No controversial subject was introduced for debate or discussion;
conversation was desultory, without being frivolous, and was sustained
without being prosy, or degenerating into dry common-place.
Having intimated to Mr. Lobeck that it was my usual habit
to conduct family prayer where I spent an evening, the Bible was
presented to me; I read Psalm ciii., offering a few expository
remarks, and then we knelt together at the throne of grace.
At a subsequent interview, when Mr. Lobeck called on me, he
said, "We have decided on attending your chapel if we can be
accommodated with a pew." On expressing some degree of surprise
that Mrs. Lobeck should be willing to leave her church, with all its
long-cherished predilections and associations, he replied—
"She still gives it the preference, but a paramount sense of duty
now compels her to take this step. She was pleased with the extreme
simplicity of your mode of worship the first time she came;
and has on several occasions expressed her approbation of the
momentous truths you have inculcated on the attention of your
audience; but your discourse on Sabbath evening, from Acts xvi. 14,
brought her long-hesitating mind to this decision. As we were
returning home, after alluding to the hymn, and to the singing,
which she very much enjoys, she remarked she now felt no surprise
that I should prefer the preaching at the chapel to the preaching
at the church; because, in her opinion, it is more interesting and
instructive. 'It is,' she added, 'quite a relief to hear no more prosing
about the regular succession question, or about the font and its
mysteries. This clergyman makes one think of one's self, of God, of
another world, and our Saviour Jesus Christ.'"
As they were now become my stated hearers, a close intimacy soon
sprang up between us; and on one occasion, when alluding to the
state of religion on the Continent, he said, with emphatic earnestness,
"My country, Sir, is the land of spiritual barrenness; death reigns
there. Infidelity is awfully dominant, and fatally powerful."
"But I have heard it now assumes an aspect somewhat different
from the infidelity introduced by Voltaire, and which I believe was
aided in its progress by the more fascinating genius of Rousseau."
"Yes, Sir, it is now the infidelity of Goethe, a man of extraordinary
mental power—a most subtle and beguiling writer. Voltaire
was an intellectual sceptic, who denounced Christianity as an imposition
on human credulity, and he advocated its suppression and extermination.
Rousseau was a sentimental sceptic, who contemplated
Christianity with the same class of emotions as he surveyed the beauties
and the deformities of nature; regarding it as a strange compound
of moral grandeur and of meanness, which, in his estimation, might
remain amongst a people without doing any social injury, and might be
got rid of without their sustaining any irreparable loss. Goethe is a
rational sceptic, or what is called in Germany a rationalist. His
disposition is not mocking like that of Voltaire and others, nor does he
ever indulge in burlesque or ridicule, when speaking of the popular
faith. He uniformly evinces a marked respect for the ordinary
doctrines and ethics of Christianity, while the drift of his writings
is to prove that the real religion of a man's heart, and the real end
of his existence, lie in the refined cultivation of his mind and affections,
and in subjecting all irregular impulses and passions to a
course of due restraint."
"The infidelity of these sceptical writers who have done so much
mischief on the Continent, and in England too, is substantially the
same in its origin, in its essence, and in its tendencies, though there
is a slight variation in its phases, its developments, and in its designs."
"Infidelity, Sir, under any phase, or in any form of development,
is a destroying power; and its progress may be traced, like that of
an epidemic, by the scenes of desolation which it leaves in its track.
There would be some difficulty in adjusting the comparative injury
which these distinguished sceptics have entailed on the moral and religious
world; but it is very evident to any one who studies their
writings, that they all tend to the same issue. The primary lessons
which they all teach are these—that man needs no Divine instructor,
which supersedes the necessity of revelation; that his own
reason is sufficient to enable him to discover the safe road to true
happiness and moral greatness, which supersedes the necessity of
priestly instruction and training; and that he need do nothing
more for his present well-being, and his future destiny, if there be a
futurity, than cultivate his own tastes and social virtues."
"But I suppose Goethe has done more moral injury amongst the
theologians of Germany than any other sceptical writer."
"I have no doubt of it; and also amongst all classes of literary men.
I was once one of his devoted disciples; he ruled my mind with despotic
sway. I revered him as an oracle. He stood, in my estimation,
both in intellectual greatness and in the accuracy of his moral
discoveries, far above any of the writers of the Old or New Testaments.
He gave me a distaste for the Bible, and a loathing against
its sublime and momentous doctrines; and I believe that his
writings have tainted to a fearful extent the theology of the pulpits
of Germany. There are a few able and eloquent men, who
preach Christ and him crucified, in close imitation of Paul; but only
a comparatively small number. Human reason is the popular idol
amongst the majority; they keep the cross of Christ in the background;
the atonement is repudiated by them. They maintain from
the press and from the pulpit, and with as much strenuous earnestness
as any of the infidel fraternity, that man has within himself a self-sufficient
power to secure his present and his future happiness, without
being at all dependent on the grace of God or the love of Christ."
"A sad change since the palmy days of Luther, and the other
great Reformers."
"A most melancholy one; I should not like to return to live amidst
such signs of decay and scenes of moral desolation—it is as Eden in
ruins."
"Your removal, Sir, to England has proved a very important event
in your history."
"It has indeed; a local change often leads to many other changes. If
I had tarried in Berlin, I had not known my wife or had my three
dear children; and most likely I should still have remained a disciple
of Goethe, rather than become a disciple of Jesus Christ."
"Will you permit me to ask you one question, What circumstance
induced you to come to the chapel the first time you came?"
"Your question, Sir, revives in my recollection a proposition which
you illustrated by a series of facts, when delivering a discourse on
John iv. 6, 7, and which, if my memory does not fail me,
you stated in the following words:—'When a crisis approaches
in the history of a nation, or even of a private individual, we may
sometimes observe prognostic signs of its coming; and in taking
a review after its occurrence, we may sometimes see a marked
conjunction of determining events naturally leading to it.' The fact
is, on the Sunday of my first visit to your chapel, we had arranged
with a few friends to take a drive into the country; but just as we
were in readiness to start, a tremendous thunderstorm compelled
us to give up our jaunt. After it had cleared off, as it was too late
for our country excursion, I took a walk into the town to see an old
friend; but the rain again came down in torrents, just as I was passing
your chapel; I ran into it for shelter, not for worship. I had no
more thought of being converted to the faith of Christ when I entered
your chapel, than the woman of Samaria expected to see the Messias
when she left home to get some water from Jacob's well."
"The Psalmist, when calling on all the powers of the celestial
and terrestrial creation to praise the Lord (Psal. cxlviii.), speaks of fire
and hail, of snow and vapour, and stormy wind as fulfilling the
Divine purpose; they come and go at his command, doing the
work he assigns to them."
"So I now believe. I recollect, when watching the coming up of
the dark thunderstorm, feeling vexed that it should come just then,
when we were all in such high glee, and in complete readiness to be
off. I did not then know that on that storm my future destiny was
depending. Had it not come when it did come, we should have been
desecrating the Sabbath by recreative indulgence; and had it not
been followed by the second storm, I should have been with my friend
enjoying the convivialities of hospitality and mirth. In either case,
when laying my head on my pillow, on that memorable night,
my bosom would have heaved to other emotions than those which
your discourse had stirred up within it. There and then I felt
what I never expected to feel; and if the strange commotion had
been predicted by an angel of God, I should have ridiculed it as a
mere phantom. Indeed, my philosophy, which led me to believe
that such a moral change as I have experienced was unnecessary,
compelled me also to believe that it was impossible."
"I recollect the text from which I preached on the occasion to
which you refer, but I do not recollect employing any arguments to
expose the fallacy and delusions of scepticism, or any in confirmation
of the Divine origin of the Christian faith."
"Argument, Sir, in favour of Christianity I could have withstood;
but I could not withstand the great moral power by which I felt
awe-struck and subdued."
"Do you think you were renewed in the spirit of your mind during
the first service you attended at the chapel?"
"I know I felt very differently when I came out of the chapel that
evening, from what I felt on entering; but whether I then actually
passed from a state of spiritual death to newness of life, is a question
I cannot decide. But now I can say what Paul said—By the
grace of God I am what I am."
"Do you ever doubt the reality of the spiritual change which
you have undergone?"
"No, Sir, that's impossible. I know that I was once living in a
state of spiritual death, or mental alienation from God, neither
loving nor fearing him—living without him in the world; but it's
the reverse of this now. I now revere him as my sovereign, whose
laws are my delight; and I now love him as my reconciled Father
through Jesus Christ. All through life, up to my first visit to your
chapel, the invisible world flitted before my imagination, more as
a fairy land than a real world of spiritual beings; and the immortality
of man I considered more a thing of speculation than of
positive certainty; but now I am compelled to believe, and by the
force of evidence which sophistry cannot falsify, that it is the habitation
of the high and lofty One whose name is Holy, and before
whom I hope to be presented faultless with exceeding joy when the
crisis comes."
"But, Sir, does your old philosophy never suggest to you the idea
that these new discoveries and emotions, with their consequent anticipations,
may be referable to the mysterious action of a disturbed
imagination, rather than the direct action of a supernatural power—what
scepticism designates the flights of fancy?"
"I must confess that such an idea has more than once obtruded itself
on my mind; but I at once dismiss it as an intangible fiction;
for when I turned my attention to study the Christianity of the
Bible, which I did very closely as soon as I felt the new impulse from
your first sermon, I perceived that it not only offers remission of
sin to the penitent and contrite sinner, but that it is essentially a
restorative scheme of grace, constructed for the very purpose of rescuing
man from the moral ruin in which sin has involved him, and
ultimately to re-produce that spiritual similitude to the Divine likeness
in which man was created, and which would still have adorned
humanity, if the first transgression had not been committed. Hence
the discoveries and emotions I have made and felt, and the conflicts
through which I am now passing, are the initiate of this grand design
of the high and lofty One—the preparatory steps in the progress
of recovery, which is to lead to such a glorious issue."
"Have you, Sir, any distinct recollection of the order of thought
which followed—the unanticipated impressions and emotions which
you felt while listening to the sermon?"
"I recollect saying to myself, when passing home—I have heard
many sermons in my own country, and many in England, more
elaborate, more argumentative, and more brilliant; and yet no one
ever produced such a series of novel and strange convictions and
impressions as this simple and plain appeal to which I have been
listening. Myself, my moral condition and danger, now absorbed
my attention: I felt, and for the first time in my history, that I had
been living without God—living the life of a practical atheist—that
I deserved his anger, and that he might justly leave me to perish."
"Did you entertain any idea that this new moral discovery would
lead to an eventful issue; or did you suppose it would vanish away,
and leave you to live as in former years?"
"Why, Sir, I felt that the discovery I had made was no mental
illusion, but a palpable and awful reality; and though it excited
emotions of alarm and terror which I could scarcely endure, yet I
felt more inclined to cherish than repress them; and at times during
the ensuing week, I did indulge a vague hope that God would have
mercy on me and comfort me."
"Did you tell Mrs. Lobeck where you had been, and what you
felt?"
"No, Sir. I deemed it inexpedient to do that; because I knew it
would distress her to hear that I had been to a Dissenting chapel.
But there were other considerations which imposed silence. I knew
not what opinion to form of the issue of the mental process through
which I was passing. I thought it might bring on some change in
my moral character and history; and I also thought it might end in
nothing. I therefore resolved, while in this state of perplexity and
confusion, not to say anything to any one on the subject, till I actually
knew the result."
"Did you remain long in this state of mental perplexity and distraction?"
"For several months, during which time I accompanied my family
to our church every Sabbath morning, and very generally I was at
your chapel in the evening. I perceived that the religion of the two
places is the same in its broad outlines; yet I soon discovered a
great difference, not only in its impressiveness, but even in the doctrines
of its public ministrations."
"The Rector and his Curate, I believe, dwell principally on the
efficacy of the sacraments, and the absolute necessity of a steady adherence
to the church, as an implied condition of salvation."
"Yes, Sir: they virtually reject what many of our Protestant
ministers in Germany openly repudiate—the inherent depravity of
man, the atonement for sin made by Jesus Christ, and the necessity
of the agency of the Divine Spirit to enlighten and renovate the
soul of man. In fact, they adopt the leading principle of Goethe's
philosophy, and place our hope of future happiness on our doings
and attainments. Goethe and his disciples work the principle without
the alliance of any auxiliary powers or influences; but the clergymen
of our church identify it with ecclesiastic ceremonies and associations.
In either case, it is man doing something for himself
which makes him his own saviour."
"I often wonder how it is that intelligent persons, who admit the
authority of the Bible, can make such egregious mistakes as they
often do on the question which relates to the way of salvation, or
the method of a sinner's reconciliation with God; when it is stated
with so much explicitness and precision by the sacred writers, 'Believe
and be saved.' 'For through him we both have access by one
Spirit unto the Father' (Ephes. ii. 18)."
"The terms are very explicit and simple—believe and be saved:
but judging from my own experience, I should say they are very
difficult of apprehension, and for this reason, we cannot trace a connection
between such an action of the mind and such a glorious
result."
"Nor, Sir, are we required to do so: we are to rest our belief on
Christ and his promise, and then expect the issue."
"The discourse, Sir, which you delivered some time since on John
iii. 14, 15, set my mind at rest on this simple and important question.
You sketched the scene in the camp of Israel—the people dying under
the judicial infliction; and when representing one and another,
on moving out of their tents, feeling an instantaneous cure when
they looked on the elevated brazen serpent, the scales fell from
my mental vision, and I saw clearly, through the medium of this
illustrative fact, that it is by faith in the death of Jesus Christ
that we are to be saved. I shall never forget the effect which
this discovery excited within me. I felt joy and peace in believing.
The cloud of obscurity which had hung so long over the sacred
page, and over the spiritual parts of your ministrations, instantaneously
vanished; and I saw THE truth in its clearness, because
I again felt it in its power. I hastened home under an impulse
of emotion which I know not how to describe; and as soon as I saw
Mrs. Lobeck, I disclosed the long pent-up secrets of my heart. She
listened to my communications with intense interest; and after
offering me her congratulations on my escape from the snares and
delusions of my sceptical philosophy, she then added, what both
surprised and delighted me to hear—'I will very willingly go with
you on a Sabbath evening, where you have received so much spiritual
good, if you will continue to go with us to church on a Sabbath
morning.' I at once consented to this proposal, and we continued
for many months to alternate an attendance at the two churches,
till at length she came to the decision which I have mentioned. We
are now one in spirit, and I hope one in faith; but I regret to say
that at times she feels a mental depression which I know not how
to account for, nor can I remove it."
Mrs. Lobeck was a truly interesting person—as genteel in her
manners, as she was amiable in her disposition; and as our intimacy
increased, she gradually threw off her constitutional reserve, and became
more free and communicative. She was naturally more buoyant
in spirits than her husband, yet there was an expression of grief in
her countenance which excited my sympathy, and I felt desirous of
ascertaining the cause of it. She had been, from her youth up, a
most rigid devotee of ecclesiastical formalism; no Puseyite could be
more scrupulous in observing the times and seasons and ceremonies
of his church. I knew, from many incidental allusions, that she
had idolized her Prayer Book, which led her to neglect her Bible;
and this made me suspect that she was still placing some undue dependence
on ecclesiastic ceremonies. I had preached a sermon on
the eunuch going on his way rejoicing (Acts viii. 39), to which she
made a reference when I was spending an evening with her.
"To be candid, Sir, it is not with me as it was with the eunuch;
for I am not quite so easy in my mind now, as I was before I left the
church; sometimes I think I must return, though I should regret
depriving myself of the benefit I derive from your ministry."
"You do not feel quite so much at ease in your mind now, as you
did when attending to your long established religious customs?"
"I do not. Indeed, I feel at times quite unhappy."
"Were you quite happy when you were attending to your religious
duties. Did you habitually feel that you were prepared for
death; that is, were you assured that your sins were forgiven, and
that you would go to heaven when you died?"
"No, Sir, I was never perfectly happy, because I was not quite
assured that I should go to heaven, but I always thought that if I
continued to the end in the religious course in which I had been
trained, the Almighty would take me to himself. I recollect mentioning
to our Rector the fears which I occasionally had on this subject,
when he quoted a passage from the Bible which gave me much
comfort, 'He that endureth to the end shall be saved.' I now feel that
I am failing in this duty, which makes me unhappy."
"Did you, when practising your religious duties, think much
about Jesus Christ, and much about coming to him by faith, to save
you? Did you ever feel that you loved him?"
"I always thought he was our Saviour, but I have thought more
about him lately than I used to think. Your preaching puts some
new ideas into my mind about Jesus Christ, but they soon pass
away. I cannot retain them, because I do not clearly understand
them."
"If I do not mistake, you cherished a hope that the Almighty
would save you, because you were regular and conscientious in the
observance of your religious duties?"
"Yes, Sir, I did. Was I doing wrong by doing this?"
"You will see presently. In consequence of having left the church,
you cannot now attend, with the uniformity of former times, to the
same order of duties; and therefore you cannot now indulge the
hope that the Almighty will save you. And this depresses your
spirits and makes you feel unhappy."
"It does, and very painfully so. I think I have forfeited the
blessing, because I am not enduring to the end."
"You say you always thought that Jesus Christ was our Saviour;
but do you not perceive, that as long as you indulged the hope of
being saved in consequence of your scrupulous and constant attention
to your religious duties, you were expecting to be saved without
being indebted to him for your salvation? If you had succeeded,
you would have got into heaven without his help; how then could
he be your Saviour?"
"Then, Sir, was I doing wrong by placing my hope of being saved
on my religious life and practice?"
"You were living under the spell of a common, but fatal delusion."
"Indeed, Sir! Such an idea has struck me, more than once, when
I have been listening to your discourses; but it has passed from me;
I could not entertain it, it is too horrifying."
"If, my dear Madam, to live under the spell of a fatal delusion be
horrifying, what must it be to die under one—to pass away from
earth, expecting to go to heaven, and when disembodied and alone,
to be left to sink into hell!"
"But, Sir, if a person be sincere and constant in his religious duties—if
he endure in them to the end of life, do you think the Almighty
will suffer him to die under such a delusive expectation as that?
The thought of it is truly painful. It makes me shudder."
"Allow me to call your attention to the following passage, which
is a quotation from the words of Jesus Christ, the faithful and true
Witness—'Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter
into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father
which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord,
have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast
out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And
then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye
that work iniquity' (Matt. vii. 21-23)."
"How awful! Their doom is the reverse of what they expected.
This passage is conclusive; delusion is possible, and it sometimes
proves fatal. The question is, How can it be detected before the
discovery comes too late for correction? I feel confused."
"Did you often pray to be kept from self-delusion, during the
time you were engaged in your religious duties?"
"I always used my prayers twice a-day, morning and evening;
and on some special days I used them more frequently. When
travelling, or when we had visitors at our house, I sometimes neglected
them, but then I always did double duty the next day, or as
soon after as possible. But I don't recollect that I have any prayer
which refers especially to self-delusion. Such an idea I never entertained.
The idea is quite new to me."
"Then you merely read your prayers; you did not pray?"
"Why, Sir, is not that praying? I am quite sure that I was sincere
when I was doing it, and I always felt a pleasure when I had
done it."
"The apostle Paul, even when he was an enemy to Christ, and
when persecuting the disciples of Christ, even to bonds, imprisonment,
and death, was very devout and zealous in all his religious
duties; as touching the righteousness of the law, that is, the duties
of the ceremonial law, he says he was blameless. He said his
prayers, or he read them; but it was not till after his conversion
that Jesus Christ said of him, 'Behold he prayeth' (Acts ix. 11)."
"The subject of our conversation is somewhat alarming. It
agitates me. It will increase the depression of my spirits. I shall
feel quite unhappy. I see nothing before me now but real danger,
I may say awful danger. What can I do now?"
"The prophet says, 'Then shall we know, if we follow on to
know the Lord' (Hosea vi. 3). In nature there is progression, and
so in grace. The light shines brighter and brighter from the faint
dawn to the clear meridian. This is an emblem. You will find
Scripture truth come out of its obscurity as you advance in your
inquiries and researches; and therefore, my dear Madam, you should
not yield to despondency, but rather give diligence to make your
calling and election sure, and if you do this, you will ultimately
rejoice in hope."
Several weeks elapsed before I visited her again. I had preached
one Sabbath evening from Luke xv. 2, proving that Jesus Christ
takes supreme delight in saving the chief of sinners. I noticed,
when delivering the subjoined passage, the fixedness of her look,
and the varying aspect of her countenance, indicating both astonishment
and delight. "If he saved our men of refined taste and
literary eminence—our great historians and poets—the noble aristocracy
of our country—our active spirits who go about doing good—persons
of artistic and professional skill—the heroes and heroines
of valour and adventure—many would be more gratified than surprised:
this, they would say, is as it ought to be; due respect is
paid to mind, to moral worth, to rank—the dignity of order is preserved.
Well, brethren, he will save any of the various orders to
whom I have referred; but then they must come out of the fascinations
and embellishments of their social position, and get into the
position of sinners, as he did not come to call the intelligent, the
renowned, and the righteous, but he came to call sinners to repentance;
he seeks and saves those and those only who feel that they are lost,
and in danger of perishing for ever. He receiveth sinners—the chief
of sinners—sinners of vulgar habits and atrocious crimes—sinners
who are shunned by the refined and virtuous, and scowled upon by
our sentimental moralists and men of taste; and he saves them—they
constitute a large portion of the population of the celestial world.
He receiveth sinners; but on what terms and conditions? Believe
and be saved; believe now, and be saved. You see, my brethren,
that sinners are not sent to mend their ways, before Jesus Christ
will save them; they are not sent to embellish their character with a
few constitutional virtues, before he will save them; they are not
sent to learn a creed, or become proficients in the art of any ceremonial
observances, before he will save them; the soul-stirring proclamation
is, 'Look unto me, and be ye saved, all the ends of the
earth: for I am God, and there is none else' (Isa. xlv. 22)."
"Your discourse, Sir, on Sunday evening, pleased me, but it has
greatly perplexed me. It is an inversion of my order of thinking. I
always thought that the intelligent and the virtuous were sure to
go to heaven, but I had my doubts about others."
"They may be saved; though their intelligence and attainments
place their salvation in great jeopardy. The virtues of some, like
the vices of others, militate against them, and often decide the
fatal issue."
"You greatly alarm and perplex me. As much danger in superior
intelligence, and superior virtue, as in vulgar ignorance and
offensive vice!"
"Yes, Madam, and sometimes there is more. The Pharisees of
the New Testament were intelligent persons, and they were also
virtuous and very religious; and yet with what fearful solemnity,
and in what terrific forms of expression, did Jesus Christ denounce
and condemn them—'Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites!
for ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear
beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men's bones, and of
all uncleanness. Ye serpents, ye generation of vipers, how can ye
escape the damnation of hell?' (Matt. xxiii. 27, 33)."
"My dear Sir, you stagger and confound me with alarm."
"You overlook, my dear Madam, one great fact, which is a solution
of the perplexity which confounds you."
"And what is that fact?"
"All have sinned against God; and as a palpable proof of it, the
sentence of death has been passed against all. This is a judicial
sentence, which could not be inflicted unless there was delinquency,
and consequent guilt. As the apostle says, 'Wherefore, as by one
man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed
upon all men, for that all have sinned' (Rom. v. 12)."
"Then, Sir, am I to understand that all persons—the intelligent
and the virtuous, and the ignorant and the vicious—are in the same
moral condition—all on the same level?"
"You see that they are all doomed to death; because they have all
sinned. The virtue of the most virtuous is no protection against
death."
"True, Sir, but may it not prove a safe passport to heaven?"
"In that conception lurks the fatal danger of constitutional virtue,
with its fascinating accompaniments of intelligence and mental attainments."
"I don't quite apprehend your meaning."
"Don't you perceive, my dear Madam, that by entertaining the
conception that virtue will prove a safe passport to heaven, you
substitute virtue in the place of Jesus Christ, the Friend of sinners;
virtue is transformed from a mental quality into a saviour, and
man saves himself? Now, we know from the infallible testimony
of the Bible, that none are received from earth into heaven but
redeemed SINNERS; and all when actually saved, ascribe their salvation
to the death and grace of the Lord Jesus Christ. 'Unto
him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood,
and hath made us kings and priests unto God and his Father; to
him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen' (Rev. i.
5, 6)."
"I am now convinced that I have much to renounce, and much
to learn, before I can become a true Christian. I was taught to
believe I was regenerated at the font of baptism. This delusion
was practised on me when I was confirmed by the bishop. Why,
Sir, I have been enveloped in delusion all my life. This is a most
painful discovery. It takes me by surprise."
"Had you died under this delusion, you would have been at this
moment a lost soul, moving about the dark and terrific world of
spirits in absolute despair. You ought, my dear friend, to feel truly
grateful to the God of all grace and consolation, that you have made
the painful discovery before it is too late for rescue and effective
relief."
"But, Sir, what must I do? I am compelled to leave the false
refuge in which I have been dreaming of safety; but where shall I
find the true one?"
"Jesus Christ receiveth sinners, when they feel that they are sinners,
and then he will save them."
"I now feel that I need his help; but I do not know how to obtain
it. My mind, Sir, is distracted—most painfully distracted. I
don't know what to do. I see nothing clearly. I feel confused—painfully
perplexed."
"You can pray, Lord save me, or I perish."
"I can offer that prayer, and offer it from the depth of my heart;
but will Jesus Christ hear it, and will he answer it?"
"He will."
"Then I will try."
A few days after this interview I received a note from her, requesting
me to make an early call; and when I went, she informed
me that she had such a dread of delusion, she had made up her
mind to search the Scriptures, and pursue the investigation till she
thoroughly understood—quoting an expression she heard me use
when in the pulpit—the unity, and harmony, and glory of the wonderful
economy of redemption. To assist her in her studies, in
addition to recommending Dr. Doddridge's Family Expositor, I forwarded
to her a copy of Dr. Bates' Harmony of the Divine Attributes,
giving it as my decided opinion, that she would acquire a larger
amount of profound and accurate theological knowledge from a careful
study of it, than from any other book in the English language.
During the time she was pursuing her spiritual researches, I
deemed it expedient to avoid calling on her; but I had the gratification
of seeing her both punctual and regular in her attendance
at public worship. There was also a perceptible change in the
aspect of her countenance; the pensive, and somewhat gloomy impression
was entirely obliterated; her eye had resumed its native
radiance; she appeared at ease. After the lapse of several weeks, I
renewed my visit, which yielded me an adequate recompense for all
my preceding solicitudes.
"I used, Sir, to read my Prayer Book more than my Bible, which
made me idolize the church; but then I lightly esteemed Jesus
Christ, the Rock of my salvation. I used to be very fond of the
Oxford tracts, but they mystify the truth. They unduly exalt the
sacraments, and cast a dimming shadow around the cross. They perpetuated
the delusions of my early training, and were preparing me,
not for heaven and happiness, but for Popery and its lying wonders.
But, Sir, in what a state of delusion our clergy are living, and they
don't know it; they are deceiving others, and don't know it!"
"That is true, Madam—painfully true. A spirit of delusion has
come forth from the Evil One, and it has alighted on the great majority
both of the clergy and laity of the Church of England; and,
like insane persons, they are pleased and satisfied with the delusions
under which they are living (Mat. xxiii. 13-28)."
"They should be warned of their danger; and warned, Sir, before
it is too late."
"They scorn to heed warning when it is given. They hold fast
deceit, as though it were the pearl of great price."
"What a wonderful and merciful escape I have had! Yes, Dr.
Bates' Harmony is a safe antidote to mental delusions. I can now
understand my Bible. I can now understand your preaching. I
can now understand what is included in a favourite expression of
yours, which for a long time so greatly perplexed me, 'The grand
economy of human redemption.'"
"And I hope, my dear Madam, you have felt the renovating power
of Divine truth and grace in your heart; that you have passed
from a state of spiritual death to newness of life, and are become
a new creature in Christ Jesus; that old things are passed away, and
behold all things are become new."
"I certainly feel conscious of some internal spiritual change, when
I compare the present state of my mind with its state some time
since; though I sometimes doubt whether it is the spiritual regeneration
of the soul of which I read so much in my Bible."
"But why do you doubt it? The change has not been produced
by yourself, but by the grace of God; why, then, do you doubt either
its reality or the divinity of its origin?"
"I do not doubt its reality, but I strongly suspect the divinity of
its origin; because, after the most minute investigation of what
has passed and still passes in my mind, I can discover nothing there
but my own thoughts, emotions, desires, and purposes. These I
find succeed each other in a natural, unforced order, under the
guidance and control of my own will; which is as free to choose or
reject them, as though no superior being were able to control it."
"Accurately to define the exact point where the human will and
a Divine agency meet in the moral renovation of the soul, or to
say when this mysterious junction takes place, requires a knowledge
of the laws of the spiritual world which we can never hope to
attain in this imperfect state. Unquestionably, your thoughts and
emotions, your desires and purposes, appear to rise spontaneously
in your mind, and actually succeed each other in a perfectly logical
order; but who first sprang this new mine of thought and feeling?
and by what power are these desires and purposes cherished
and nurtured in your heart? If you suppose that all originated in
the uninfluenced action of your own understanding and will, you
are reduced to the necessity of denying the scriptural statement
of the entire depravity of the human heart."
"That I cannot do; I admit that we are morally dead in relation
to God, though we may cherish many of the social virtues in
relation to each other; and I admit also that no one knoweth the
things of God, but by the Spirit of God."
"Then you are compelled to admit his immediate agency in imparting
a spiritual discernment; and an inclination also to receive
those truths as the source of your most sacred and elevated joy,
which appear to the natural man either as unnecessary or absurd.
His Spirit acts, but we see only its effects. All is under his guidance
and control, yet all appears to be the result of our own thoughts
and purposes. He leads us in the way in which he would have us go,
but his hand is unseen. He takes of the things of Christ and shows
them to us, while we suppose that we discover them ourselves. He
draws us to Jesus Christ, and enables us to depend on him for
salvation; but we seem to direct our own steps, and put forth the
unaided strength of our own mind. Thus the Holy Spirit effects
our renovation, and makes us willing, in the day of his power, to
come to Jesus Christ; while he sees fit to conceal his agency, and
condescends, when we are examining ourselves to see whether we
are in the faith, to bear witness with our spirits that we are the
children of God."
"I thank you, Sir, for this very satisfactory explanation of a
mental process, of which I have been conscious, while unconscious
of the concurring power of the Divine Spirit, by whom it has been
conducted. It reminds me of what the apostle Paul says in one of
his epistles, which I have often meditated on, but could not clearly
till now apprehend his meaning—'For it is God which worketh in
you both to will and to do of his good pleasure' (Philip. ii. 13). I
now perceive that the volitions and doings are ours, but it is God
who works them within us; we have the blessing, and he claims the
consequent gratitude and love."
"If, my dear friend, we differ from others, as I trust we do, to
ascribe its origination to ourselves would be to arrogate the glory
which belongs exclusively to God; and though we may sometimes
suspect that the difference is not of Divine origin because we are
not already perfect, yet I think we cannot fairly doubt its reality
when we are brought into direct intercourse with the unenlightened
and unrenewed, even though they may profess the same external
forms of the Christian faith with ourselves."
"I can subscribe to the correctness of this remark; for when retiring
from such society, I have often felt very grateful to the
Lord for giving me views of truth, and enkindling in my soul emotions
and desires, of which they appear absolutely destitute."
"The Psalmist says, 'All thy works shall praise thee, O Lord;
and thy saints shall bless thee' (Ps. cxlv. 10). The new creation of
the soul is the most wonderful specimen of the Divine workmanship;
and every one in whom it is effected, will perpetually and for
ever advert to it with mingled emotions of astonishment and gratitude."
No great while after Mrs. Lobeck had acquired this more perfect
knowledge of the theory of Divine truth, and became rooted and
grounded in its belief, she was received, with her husband, into
fellowship with the church. They both distinguished themselves by
their liberality, and by their activity in the various departments of
labour connected with my congregation; and Mr. Lobeck was eventually
elected an elder, by the unanimous choice of his Christian
brethren. There was one praiseworthy habit they formed even before
their membership; and from which no circumstances, except illness
or absence from home, could induce them to deviate; and that was,
neither to receive company, or pay any fraternal visits on the evenings
when public worship was conducted at the chapel. They thus pursued
their onward course with undeviating consistency; walking worthy of
their sacred vocation; an example to their Christian brethren, in faith,
in charity, and in zeal; blending in their character so many lovely
excellencies, as to justify a beautiful remark made by an intelligent
observer, that they had sustained as little injury from the fall, as
any couple he had ever known.
Whom the Lord loveth He chasteneth, is an aphorism which was
first uttered by an inspired writer, and now it has passed into current
circulation amongst the faithful in Christ Jesus; and as all chastisements,
whether light and momentary, or heavy and prolonged, are
designed to yield the peaceable fruits of righteousness, they should
be submitted to with meek submissiveness of spirit, and unwavering
faith in their necessity and utility. In general the Lord is pleased
to give his people some intimations of their coming trials, that they
may look to him for strength and patience to endure them; but
sometimes he departs from this general rule, and, as in the case of
Job, the storm rises out of the dead calm—the affliction is as sudden,
as it is unexpected. The Lobecks had three children, two sons and
a daughter, the living personifications of vigorous health and
sprightliness; but the youngest child, a beautiful little boy about
seven years of age, sickened and died within the space of a few
hours. I hastened to the house of mourning to offer the expressions
of my sympathy; and there I saw the intensity of parental sorrow,
held in subjection to the triumph of heroic faith. There was a dignified
placidity in Mr. Lobeck's countenance, but he could not repress
the falling tear. "Our dear child is taken from us," he said in a
mild but firm tone; "yet we must not forget that the Lord has
done it, who has reasons for what he does; he does all things
well. He never errs."
"This, Sir," said the mother, "is a great trial. I feel it at the
very core of my heart. So sudden! We had no warning of its
coming. Our medical friend did not apprehend any danger. But how
thankful ought I to be to our heavenly Father, who has permitted
me to see the bow in the overhanging cloud; the dear little sufferer
said, just before he died, 'Ma, I am going to Jesus.' Sweet words!"
"The bitter, my dear friend, often yields sweetness. He was
commissioned to announce to you his elevation, even before he had
seen the King in his beauty, and received his appointment."
"The sound of his sweet voice still lingers on my ear, but the
sweeter words of his lips have sunk deep into my heart; and they
soothe and comfort me. He is happy, because a glorified spirit;
and though I cannot help mourning over my loss, yet I dare not
repine. Yes, he is with Jesus, and must be safe and happy."
"You may mourn your loss. This is natural. Jesus wept at the
grave of his friend, even though he knew that he was coming back
to life. Your dear little one will long live in your memory. You
will often recall his form, his looks, his sweet smiles and embraces,
his inquiries and his sayings. These reminiscences will keep in
continuous flow the waters of maternal grief. But turn from his
grave, to heaven his present home. Think of his premature elevation,
his dignity, and his blessedness—the sorrows and the conflicts
he has escaped. Think of the honour which God has conferred
on you; you are now the mother of a glorified spirit."
"I feel it to be an honour, and a great honour. But I shall never
forget my sweet little Harry. He was the miniature of his father. I
watched his rapid growth, and the premature development of his
mind with intense pleasure. His looks, and speech, and manners
were so engaging. I anticipated his coming manhood. Alas! he is
taken from me."
"Taken from the evil to come; and the Lord has done it."
"I bow to his holy and sovereign will. He saw there was a
necessity for this severe stroke, or he would not have permitted it
to fall upon us. Perhaps we were too fond of our children, and
getting too fond of the world; and therefore he has sent this trial
to wean our affections from earth; to purify them; to concentrate
them supremely on himself."
"Many have been heard to say, It hath been good for me that I
have been afflicted. Hence afflictions, even the most severe, are not
positive evils; they are blessings in disguise to the people of God.
They unsettle the affections which were cleaving too closely to earth;
they elicit the hidden meaning of the precious promises of the
Bible, which distil the dew drops of Divine love on the heart; and
by giving palpable demonstrations of the vanity of all human possessions,
they imperceptibly invest the glory to be revealed with a
freshness of reality which is felt to be elevating and sublime."
At a subsequent interview, when adverting to this severe domestic
bereavement, she thus expressed herself:—"I can now say, what I
could not say before this trial came upon us—I know in whom I
believe. My fears and misgivings have all left me. I am happy,
because I know I am safe now; and expect to be more happy, when
heart and flesh faint and fail, because then the Lord will be my portion
for ever."
"Your dependence for safety and happiness, here and hereafter,
is not now placed on your religious ceremonies, or on your virtuous
attainments."
"O no! It was, when I was living under the beguiling delusions
of the Tractarian heresy; but now I can say with the apostle,
'Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of
the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered
the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win
Christ, and be found in him, not having mine own righteousness,
which is of the law, but that which is through the faith of Christ,
the righteousness which is of God by faith' (Philip. iii. 8, 9)."
"I congratulate you, my dear friend, in having lived to see this
day—a day of sorrow, but a day of greater joy and rejoicing. Your
husband has exchanged his long cherished scepticism for the faith of
Christ, and is now safe for eternity. Your dear little one is with
Jesus, in heaven, waiting your entrance. And you are now delivered
from all your perplexities and depressive fears, and can anticipate
the glory to be revealed in you."
"These, Sir, are facts, great facts, astounding facts. No delusions,
grand realities. What an escape has my dear husband had from
the subtle devices of scepticism, and what an escape have I had
from the equally fatal devices of Tractarian superstition; and I cannot
forget the subordinate part you have taken, in effecting these
deliverances; nor can I feel too grateful. I thank you for your wise
counsels, for your faithful warnings, for your sympathy and your
friendship; but my purest and most ardent gratitude is due, and is
often presented to Him, who has produced these wonderful changes
in our character and condition."
"And they are changes, my dear friend, which we may look upon
as preludes and pledges of still more glorious changes, when the end
cometh. 'Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not
yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear,
we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is' (1 John
iii. 2)."