LULU.
"There is many a maiden more lovely by far,
With the step of a fawn and the glance of a star;
But heart there was never more tender and true
Than beats in the bosom of darling Lulu."
—Osgood.
Go with me, my reader, not many squares distant from that
stately Winans' mansion, to an humbler home—a small brick
edifice standing near to the street, and bearing over a side-door
a small sign, with the name of Willard Clendenon, Attorney-at-law,
inscribed thereon in very handsome gilt letters. But we
have no business to transact with the gallant captain, so we will
not even look into his dusty office, but pass on up the stairs,
and without even knocking, enter the guest-chamber of the
house.
It is a large, airy, prettily appointed chamber, but the shutters
are closely akimboed, the lace curtains are drooped over
the windows, and the quiet air of a sick-room pervades the
apartment. On the low, white bed that occupies the center of
the apartment is the recumbent figure of a man, in whose handsome
features, even though his eyes are closed in a death-like
sleep, we recognize Bruce Conway. He looks like marble as he
lies there, his black hair flowing back from his broad, white
brow, his closed eyes encircled with purplish rings, the dark
mustache slightly shading his mouth, only revealing more
plainly the deathly pallor and suffering of the lips.
Standing by the side of the bed, Captain Clendenon looks
down at him with infinite pity and tenderness in his dark-gray
orbs.
And standing by the captain's side is a little figure that looks
fairy-like by contrast with his manly proportions. She clings
to his arm as he stands there, and her brown head leans lightly
against him, her fair girlish face wearing a look of sadness and
pain as she gazes at the sufferer's sleeping face.
"Oh, Brother Willie," she whispers, "I am so sorry for him!
Oh, it is so dreadful!"
And then her red lips quiver like a grieved child's, and two
pearly tears start on her cheeks, and, rolling down, are lost in
the ruffles on the breast of her blue morning-dress.
Captain Clendenon did not answer. He looked down at the
quiet, handsome face that the surgeon thought might never
wake from that death-like sleep, or if it did, it might only be to
take on the deeper sleep of eternity. He had lain like that all
day—it was noon now.
The duel had taken place a few days before, at a little distance
out of Norfolk. The captain had done everything in his
power to prevent the terrible affair, but in vain; had refused
the application of Bruce that he should become his second, in
the hope that he might be enabled to compromise the affair by
prevailing on Bruce to offer Winans an apology for his untimely
serenade.
Bruce had changed his mind about going away, and chose to
feel offended at the view taken by the captain of the whole
affair; so he left him out of his councils, and the duel came off
without the captain's knowledge or consent. A mere accident
had brought the matter to his knowledge at almost the hour
appointed for it, and hurrying off to the scene of action, he had
arrived only in time to see him fall at the first fire.
The appointed place was seven miles from Mrs. Conway's
residence, and after the surgeon had dressed the wound and
declared its serious nature, the captain took the right of an old
friend to convey him to his own home in Norfolk, which was
nearer, more especially as the surgeon thought the last lingering
hope of recovery would be destroyed by jolting him over seven
miles to his home at Ocean View.
That was how he came to be lying there in that pleasant
chamber, with Captain Clendenon's pretty sister crying her
brown eyes out over him.
"Poor boy! poor Bruce!" he murmured. "How the bitter
consequences of his wrong-doing has followed him! And now,
in all probability, he must die; yet, after all," thought this loyal
heart, "it cannot be so very hard to die for her."
The noiseless entrance of his pleasant-faced mother made him
look up. Taking a seat by the bed, she quietly dismissed them
from the room.
"I will watch by him myself," she said, kindly, "and the
fewer in the room the better, you know. Both of you go and
rest yourselves."
They both withdrew with lingering steps, and eyes that
seemed loth to quit that pale sleeper, but quietly obedient to
their mother's wishes, and content in knowing that she would
do for him all that lay in human power.
But down in the quiet little parlor the brother and sister sat
down to talk it all over.
"Oh, brother! what did Mrs. Conway say when you told
her?"
"Went off into strong hysterics. The maid had to put her
to bed. I sent the doctor out there as I rode in town."
"How dreadful! all she had to love, poor, proud old lady;
how I pity her!" and the little maiden's tears flowed afresh
from her sympathizing soul.
"She may thank herself for the most of it," he answered, half
bitterly. "Why did she tempt his weak mind with her wealth
and pride? She knew better than any one else how wavering a
will was his. Why did she continually thwart all his best impulses?"
"But, brother, he ought to have had more manliness. But it
is too late to blame him now. I wonder if Mrs. Winans knows—how
she feels about it? Do you know, brother Willie, I
would give much to see this wonderful woman whose beauty
has only been for bane. You have seen her. Is she so very
beautiful? What is she like?"
"Like nothing you ever saw, little Lulu—like some fair saint,
or angel."
The passion in his heart broke through his words. A faint
red flushed his brown cheek, and his eyes drooped as his sister
looked up with soft, astonished gaze.
"Why, brother, did you love her, too?
"That is the first time you have accused me of loving any
one but yourself, little sister," he answered, lightly, parrying
the question.
"Well, tell me this, brother. Did you ever go to see her at
all? Did you like her—did she like you?"
"I went there sometimes—not often," his glance falling with
unconscious pathos on the empty sleeve that lay between him
and any aspiration toward woman's love. "I liked her very
much indeed. She was very sweet and attractive, very obliging
always. She liked me a little; I suppose, as a mere friend. I
never presumed to ask for a deeper regard. I knew she loved
Bruce. I felt, Lulu, it seemed to me then, in her dark days,
every pang that struck home to that trusting and deceived young
heart. I felt sorry for her, and admired her for the brave yet
womanly strength that carried her through that bitter ordeal.
I rejoiced with her when she married a better man than Bruce
and seemed to have forgotten the past."
The tender brown eyes looked gravely at him as he spoke,
reading his heart with a woman's quick intuition. She put both
arms about his neck and touched her lips to the noble brow over
which the brown curls fell so carelessly. The mute caress told
him that she understood and sympathized in his unspoken grief.
The man's heart in him could not bear it. He rose, putting her
kindly and gently aside.
"Lulu, she has a noble husband; a handsome, generous fellow,
a 'man among men,' but he is marred almost as much by
his unreasoning jealousy as is Bruce by his unstable character.
I pity her. She is worthy of confidence and all respect. It is
an honor to any man to have loved her even though hopelessly."
"And Senator Winans has left her, they say, Brother Willie?"
"So rumor says," he answered, meditatively.
"Why don't you see him, brother, and talk with him, and try
to make him look at things fairly? It seems a pity she should
suffer so, through no fault of hers, too. My heart aches for her
in her loneliness."
He did not answer. He was walking slowly up and down the
floor, pausing now and then to look out of the window which
overlooked the Elizabeth River and the wharves crowded with
the shipping of all nationalities. His sister rose and paced the
floor, also, her young heart full of sympathy for the four people
whose life-paths crossed each other so strangely and sadly. She
shuddered and hoped she would never love. Of the three men
who each loved Grace Winans in his own fashion, she wondered
which was the most unhappy; the husband who had stained his
hands in human blood for his selfish passion; Bruce Conway
who was dying for her, or her brother whose heart was silently
breaking for her. The little maiden who was all unversed in
the lore of life found herself bewildered in the maze of metaphysics
into which she was drifting. She sat herself down with
a sigh, and thought of the handsome face lying so deathly white
up stairs, and half wishing her mother had not banished her
from the room.
"Lulu!"
"Yes, Brother Willie."
He was looking at her as she looked up at him with a flitting
blush on her round, dimpled face. She was wonderfully pretty,
this Lulu Clendenon, with her arch brown eyes, and pink and
white skin, the wavy brown hair that was gathered in a soft,
loosely braided coil at the back of her small head, and her blue
lawn dress, with its frillings, and flutings, and puffings, was
very becoming, setting off the whiteness of her throat and wrists
as no other color ever does for a pretty woman.
"Well," she said, as he did not answer her first reply.
"My little sister, I won't have you tangling your brain up
with useless speculations over things that must happen as long
as the world stands and men and women live, and breathe, and
have their being. Don't let me see that pretty brow all puckered
up again. What would mother and I do if our household fairy
became dull, and dreamy, and philosophical."
"Brother Willie, am I always to be a child?"
"Always, my sweet? Why how old are you—sixteen?"
"I am nineteen, brother, and this Mrs. Winans of whom all
Norfolk is raving, who is a wife and mother—she, it is said, is
barely more than twenty."
"Yes, love; but the loss of parents and friends forced Grace
Grey into premature womanhood and premature responsibilities;
she took up the cross early, but you, dear little one——"
A low tinkle of the door-bell cut short whatever else he meant
to say, and he answered the summons himself. It was a messenger
from Mrs. Conway to inquire concerning her nephew.
He sent back a message that he still lay sleeping quietly. For
the rest of the day the house was besieged with callers and inquirers
from all parts of the city, and Captain Clendenon found
himself kept busy in replying.
In the midst of it all, in his deep grief and anxiety for his
friend's life, in his pity and sympathy for the exiled duelist, a
fair face brooded over all his thoughts, a pang for a woman's
suffering struck coldly to his heart. To know that she was
mourning alone, bowed to earth in her unmerited sorrow and
shame, was the height and depth of bitterness to the man who
loved her tenderly and purely as he did his own little sister.
And the spring day wore to its close, and the silence of the
balmy spring night, with its wandering breeze of violets, its
mysterious stare, fell over all things. The string of inquirers
from among the friends of the wounded man thinned out, the
surgeon came and went, and still Bruce Conway lay locked in
that strange pallid sleep on whose waking so many hearts hung
with anxiety and dread.
At ten o'clock the captain admitted John, who had come to
seek fresh tidings for his mistress. His honest black face
looked up in vague, awe-struck grief at the captain's mournful
features.
"Oh, marse cap'en!" he pleaded, "lemme see him, if you
please, sir, once more before he dies!"
"Be very quiet, then," said the captain, "and it will do no
harm for you to go in."
The black boy went in with footfalls noiseless as the captain's
own. Lulu and her mother were there, one on each side of the
bed, watching the sleeper with anxious eyes. They looked up
at the strange face of the boy as he paused and gazed at the
still, white face on the pillow. His dark skin seemed to grow
ashen white as he looked, his thick, ugly lip quivered convulsively,
and two tears darted from his black eyes and rolled
down upon his breast. He gazed long and mournfully, seeming
to take in every lineament of that beloved face; then, as he
turned reluctantly away, stooped carefully down, and touched
his rough lips tenderly and lightly on the cold, white hand that
lay outside of the coverlid.
"Twas a hand that never struck me, and was always kind
to me," he murmured, mournfully, as he went out, followed by
the injunction from Mrs. Clendenon to report that Mr. Conway
was still in the same condition—sleeping quietly.
Lulu looked down at the hand lying so still and lifeless on the
counterpane. A tear-drop that had fallen from the eyes of the
poor black boy lay on it, shining purely as a pearl in the subdued
light. Lulu would not wipe it away. It was a precious
drop distilled from the fountain of unselfish love and sorrow;
it seemed to plead mutely to the girl for the man who lay there
so still and pale, unable to speak for himself.
"There must have been much good in the poor young man,"
she thought, impulsively, "or his servants would not have loved
him like that."
By and by she stole down to her brother, who was still pacing,
with muffled footfalls, the parlor floor. He turned to her,
inquiringly.
"Well?" he queried.
"No change yet—not the slightest."
"Probably there will not be until midnight. I trust it will
be favorable, though we have no grounds to expect it. The surgeon
fears internal hemorrhage from that great bullet-wound in
the side—it narrowly escaped the heart. He will be here again
to-night before the crisis comes."
Once more comes a low, muffled door-bell. Lulu drops into
an arm-chair, shivering, though the night is warm. Willard
goes to the door.
Presently he comes back, ushering in a stranger. She rises
up, thinking as a matter of course that this is the surgeon.
"My sister, Lulu, Senator Winans," said her brother's quiet
tones.
Lulu nearly dropped to the floor in astonishment and terror.
She was very nervous to-night—so nervous that she actually
trembled when he lightly touched her hand, and she almost
pushed his away, thinking, angrily, that that firm white hand
had done Bruce Conway to death.
He was not so terrible to look at, though, she thought, as
with woman's proverbial curiosity she furtively scanned the
tall, fine figure.
He was very young to fill such a post of honor in his country—he
certainly did not look thirty—and the fine white brow,
crowned by curling, jet-black hair, might have worn a princely
crown and honored it in the wearing. Beautiful, dusk-black
eyes, gloomy now as a starless midnight, looked at her from
under slender, arched, black brows. The nose was perfectly
chiseled, of Grecian shape and profile; the mouth was flexible
and expressive—one that might be sweet or stern at will; the
slight, curling mustache did not hide it, though his firm chin
was concealed by the dark beard that rippled luxuriantly over
his breast.
It was a face that breathed power; whose beauty was thoroughly
masculine; that was mobile always; that might be proud,
or passionate, or jealous—never ignoble. Altogether he was a
splendidly handsome man. Lulu could not help acknowledging
this to herself—the very handsomest man she had ever seen in
her life. But for all that, after she had politely offered him a
chair, she retreated as far as possible from his vicinity. Why
had he come there in his proud, strong manhood and beauty,
and Bruce Conway lying up stairs like that? He did not take
the offered seat, but merely placing one hand on the back of it,
looked from her to her brother.
"I feel that this is an unwelcome intrusion, Captain Clendenon,"
he said, slowly, and in soft, sad tones, that thrilled the
girl's heart, in spite of the anger she felt for him, "but I cannot
help it, though you may not believe me when I tell you that it
was so impossible for me endure the suspense and horror of to-night
that I have come here to beg you for news of the man
whom I have almost murdered."
Black eyes and gray ones met each other without wavering.
Soul met soul, and read each other by the fine touchstone of a
fellow-feeling. Even in his anger for his friend, Willard Clendenon
could not withhold a merited kindly answer.
"I do believe you," he answered, quietly, "and am glad you
came, though I can tell you nothing satisfactory. The patient
has slept all day—still sleeps—— he will awaken to life or death.
We are only waiting."
"Waiting!" That word chilled the fiery, impulsive soul of
Paul Winans into a dumb horror. Waiting!—for what! To see
his work completed. What had he done? Taken in cold blood
a human life that at this moment, in his swift remorse and self-accusation,
he would have freely given his own to save; in the
height of his jealous madness committed a deed from which his
calmer retrospection revolted in horror. He looked from one to
the other in pale, impotent despair. He had gone his length—the
length of human power and passion—now God's hand held
the balance.
"Then, at least, you will let me wait," he said. "If he dies,
I shall surrender myself up to justice. If he lives, I shall all
the sooner know that I am not a murderer."
"You shall stay, certainly, and welcome," Willard said, cordially,
touched by the evident suffering of the other.
"Very well; I will sit here and wait, with thanks. I do not
deserve this kindness."
Lulu stole from the room, leaving them alone together, and
resumed her place up stairs. The patient slept calmly on, her
mother placidly watching him. Once or twice her brother
looked quietly in, and as quietly withdrew. There was something
on his mind that must be spoken. He turned once and
looked at his companion as he sat upright in his chair, still and
pale almost as his victim lay up stairs.
"Winans," he said, slowly, "we have known each other for a
long time, and I knew your wife long before you ever met her,
and knew her but to reverence her as a pearl among women.
Will you pardon me if I confess to an interest in her that lends
me to inquire frankly if you think you are doing her justice?"
"Clendenon, I know that I am not. I know that I am unworthy
of her—pure, injured angel that she is—but what can I
do? I dare not remain near her. I should but make her miserable.
It maddens me, in my jealous bitterness, when I remember
that young, fair, and sweet as she was when I first met
her, the pure page of her heart had already been inscribed with
the burning legend of a first love. Her first love lost to me, her
second only given to me, I cannot bear! When I can overcome
this fiery passion, and if Bruce Conway lives, I will return to
her—not till then."
"You are wrong, my friend—bitterly wrong. Think of what
she suffers, of the scandal, the conjecture that your course will
create. You should be her defender, not leave her defenseless
to meet the barbed arrows of caviling society. Return to your
injured wife, Winans. Take the candid advice of one who
esteems you both. It is so hard on her. She suffers deeply, I
feel."
"Clendenon, hush! You madden me, and cannot shake my
firm resolve—would that I had never met her."
"Possibly she might have been happier," Clendenon says,
with sudden scathing sarcasm, "but I will say no more. It is
not my province to come between man and wife. May God
have more mercy on her than you have!"
The words pierced that proud heart deeply. The erring, passionate
man arose and looked at the other in his calm, truthful
scorn, and burning words leaped to his lips.
"Clendenon, you don't know what you are talking of. You
blame me for what I cannot overcome. Do you know where I
was born? Under the burning skies of Louisiana. The hot
blood of the fiery South leaps through my veins, the burning
love of the Southern clime pours its flood-tide through my
heart, the passionate jealousy of the far South fires my soul. I
cannot help my nature. I cannot entirely control nor transform
it into a colder, calmer one. Blame me if you will, think
me unmanly if you will, but I have told you the truth. It shall
be the study of my life to bring this madness into subjection.
Till then I will not hold my wife in my arms, will not kiss her
dear lips. It is for the best. I will not frighten her from me
forever by showing her how like a madman I can be under the
influence of my master-passion."
Slowly, slowly the hours wore on until midnight. Mrs.
Clendenon fell into a light doze in the sick-room, but Lulu was
still watching that still form. The shaded lamps burned dimly,
the room was full of shadows, the strange silence and awe that
fill a room at an hour like this brooded solemnly over all things.
Poor Lulu looked at her mother. The sweet old face, framed
in its soft lace cap, was locked in such gentle repose the girl had
not the heart to awaken her. It grew so lonely she wished her
brother would return to the room.
Presently she bent forward and looked into Conway's face,
and laid her hand tenderly on his brow; it felt warmer and
more natural; he stirred slightly. Before she could move her
hand his white lids unclosed, the dark eyes looked at her with
the calm light of reason in their depths.
"Gracie, is it you?" he whispered, faintly.
"Not Gracie—Lulu," she answered.
"Not Gracie—Lulu?" he slowly murmured after her, and
wearily closed his eyes.
"I think he will live," said a voice above her.
She looked up. Her brother and the surgeon had come in so
quietly she had not heard them. She rose from her wearisome
vigil and glided softly down stairs, moved by a divine impulse
of pity for the pale watcher below.
"I think it is life," she said, simply.
He sprang up and looked at her, two stars dawning in the
dusk eyes, a glory shining on his darkly handsome face.
"Thank God!" he cried, "I am not a murderer!"
And strangely as he had come he was gone.