Unspeakable, unlikable, worse than all, unsketchable.
A woman has no more formidable rival than
her idea in the head of an imaginative young man, and
Maurice Durant had been rash enough to fall in love
with Miss Tancred before sight.
He was rash in everything. When the Colonel asked
him down to Coton Manor for a fortnight, he accepted
the invitation (with much pleasure) by return, and
lay awake half the night with joyous anticipation. He
was in the train steaming into the Midlands before
he realized that he knew nothing of his host beyond a
vague family tradition. He was his (Durant's) godfather;
he was a retired Colonel of militia; he had
given him (Durant) a hideous silver cup; but this was
the first time he had given him an invitation. There
was something more, too. Durant had spent the last
seven years exploring every country but his own, and
he was out of touch with family tradition; but now
he thought of it he had—he certainly had—a distinct
recollection of hearing his father say that of all his
numerous acquaintance that fellow Tancred was quite
the most intolerable bore.
He had been a little precipitate. Still, he said to
himself, England was England, and if there was any
fishing on the Colonel's land, or a decent mount in
his stables, he thought he could pull through. Mrs.
Tancred was dead; he did not certainly know that
there was a Miss Tancred, but if there were he meant
to flirt with her, and if the worst came to the worst he
could always sketch her (the unsketchable!).
He had had plenty of time for anticipation during
the slow journey on the branch line from the junction.
The train crawled and burrowed into the wooded heart
of the Midlands, passed a village, a hamlet, a few
scattered houses, puffed and panted through endless
lengths of arable and pasture land, drew up exhausted
at the little wayside station of Whithorn-in-Arden,
and left him in that prosaic wilderness a prey to the
intolerable bore.
As ill-luck would have it, he had arrived at Coton
Manor three hours before dinner. At the first sight
of his host he had made up his mind that the Colonel
would have nothing to say that could possibly keep
him going for more than three minutes, yet the Colonel
had talked for two hours. Durant had been counting
the buttons on the Colonel's waistcoat and the
minutes on the drawing-room clock, and wondering
when it would be dinnertime. Once or twice he had
caught himself looking round the room for some sign
or token of Miss Tancred. He believed in her with a
blind, unquestioning belief, but beyond a work-basket,
a grand piano, and some atrocious water-colors, he
could discover no authentic traces of her presence. The
room kept its own dull counsel. It was one of those
curious provincial interiors that seem somehow to be
soulless and sexless in their unfathomable reserve. It
was more than comfortable, it was opulent, luxurious;
but the divine touch was wanting. It made Durant
wonder whether there really was a Miss Tancred, much
as you might doubt the existence of a God from the
lapses in his creation. Still, he believed in her because
there was nothing else to believe in. He had
gathered from the Colonel's conversation that there
was no fishing on his land, and no animal in his stables
but the respectable and passionless pair that brought
him from the station.
Could it be that there was no Miss Tancred?
Durant, already veering toward scepticism, had been
about to plunge into the depths of bottomless negation
when the Colonel rose punctually at the stroke
of seven.
"My daughter," he had said, "my daughter will be
delighted to make your acquaintance."
And Durant had replied that he would be delighted
to make Miss Tancred's.
There was nothing else to be delighted about. He
had divined pretty clearly that Miss Tancred's society
would be the only entertainment offered to him during
his stay, and the most outrageous flirtation would be
justifiable in the circumstances; he had seen himself
driven to it in sheer desperation and self-defense; he
had longed hopelessly, inexpressibly, for the return of
the absconding deity; he had looked on Miss Tancred
as his hope, his angel, his deliverer. That she had not
been at home to receive him seemed a little odd, but
on second thoughts he had been glad of it. He would
have distrusted any advances on her part as arguing
a certain poverty of personal resource. Presumably
Miss Tancred could afford a little indifference, a touch
of divine disdain. And if indeed she had used absence
as an art to stimulate his devotion, she was to be
congratulated on her success. His dream had been
nourished on this ambrosial uncertainty.
Upstairs in his bedroom mere emotional belief in
Miss Tancred had risen to rational conviction. The
first aspect of the guest-chamber had inspired him with
a joyous credulity. It wooed him with its large and
welcoming light, its four walls were golden white and
warm, and in all its details he had found unmistakable
evidences of design. There was an overruling coquetry
in the decorative effects, in the minute little arrangements
for his comfort. A finer hand than any housemaid's
must have heaped that blue china bowl with
roses, laid out that writing-table, and chosen the books
in the shelf beside the bed. A woman is known by
her books as by her acquaintance, and he had judged
of the mind of this maiden, turning over the pages
with a thrill of sensuous curiosity. This charming
Providence had fitted his mood to perfection with these
little classics of the hour, by authors too graceful and
urbane to bore a poor mortal with their immortality.
Adorable Miss Tancred! He was in love with her
before sight, at half-sight.
For at the sound of a punctual gong he had hurried
out on to the stairs, a door had opened on some unseen
landing, he had heard a woman's step on the flight
below; he had listened, he had watched, and as he
caught the turn of her head, the rustle and gleam of
her gown, some divine and cloudy color, silver or
lavender or airy blue, he had been radiantly certain
that his vision had passed before him. Down there
somewhere it was making itself incarnate in the unknown.
He felt already its reviving presence, the mysterious
aura of its womanhood.
Hitherto his imagination had been guided by a profound
sense of the justice that is in things. Destiny
who had brought him to this deceitful place owed
him compensation for the fraud, and an apology in
person was really no more than his due. What if Miss
Tancred were she, the supremely feminine, Destiny
herself?
Under the echoing gallery the drawing-room had
opened and closed upon her, and he had followed, his
nerves tingling with the familiar prophetic thrill.
And this was Miss Tancred?
To begin with, he had never seen a woman more
execrably dressed. No doubt it is the first duty of a
woman's gown to clothe her, but apparently Miss Tancred's
gown had a Puritan conscience, an almost morbid
sense of its duty. It more than clothed her, it
covered her up as if she had been a guilty secret;
there was concealment and disguise in every crease of
the awful garment. In its imperishable prudery it
refused to define her by ever so innocent a curve; all
its folds were implicated in a conspiracy against her
sex. The effect, though striking, was obviously unstudied
and inevitable, and he argued charitably that
Miss Tancred was attired, not after her own mysterious
and perverse fancy, but according to some still
more mysterious and perverse doom. Happily she
seemed unconscious of her appearance, and this unconsciousness
had saved her.
For Miss Tancred was plain; and the irritating thing
about her plainness was that it, at any rate, was not
inevitable. She had had a hair's-breadth escape of being
handsome in a somewhat original and eccentric
way. And so her plainness was insistent; it would not
let you alone, but forced you to look at it, worrying
you with perpetual suggestions of the beauty it might
have been. Her black hair grew low on the center of
her forehead, whence it rose describing a semicircle
above each temple; she had a short and salient Roman
nose, black eyes, and straight black brows laid like an
accent on the jutting eyebones. Her mouth—there
might have been hope for her in her mouth, but for its
singular unreadiness to smile; there was no hope for
her in her sallow skin, the dull droop of her eyelids, her
whole insupportable air of secrecy and reserve. A
woman has no business to look like that.
There could be no hope for any woman whom Maurice
Durant had pronounced unsketchable. He was
tolerant with the tolerance of a clever young modern
painter, trained to look for beauty (and find it, too)
in the most unlikely places. He could find no beauty
in Miss Tancred. She was useless for his purposes.
Those lips had never learned to flirt, to chatter, to sing,
to do anything spontaneous and natural and pleasing.
He shook hands with her in a paralytic manner, battering
his brains for a reply to her polite commonplaces.
Inwardly he was furious. He felt that he had
been duped, tricked, infamously cheated of his legitimate
desire; and he hated the woman as if she, poor
soul, had been personally responsible.
It had bored him to listen to the Colonel, and he was
sure it would bore him still more to talk to Miss Tancred;
but for ten minutes he did his best to sustain a
miraculous flow of sparkling monologue. If Miss Tancred
was going to bore him, at any rate it would not be
by her conversation. Some plain women he had known
who had overcome plainness by vivacity and charm.
Not so Miss Tancred. Being plainer than most she
was bound to make a more than ordinary effort, yet she
had adopted the ways of a consummately pretty woman
who knows that nothing further is required of her. Did
she think that he would go on forever battering his
brains to create conversation out of nothing, when she
clearly intimated that it was not worth her while to
help him? Never in his life had he met a woman who
inspired him with such invincible repugnance. He
found himself talking to her at random like a man in a
dream, and so indifferent to her opinion that he was
not in the least distressed at his own imbecility; and
Miss Tancred, like a lady in a dream, seemed to find
his attitude entirely natural; perhaps she had read a
similar antagonism in the faces of other men. (As it
happened, repugnance was an emotion that Durant
had frequently felt before, and certain emphatic lines
about his nose and mouth had apparently been drawn
there on purpose to express it.) Anyhow, Miss Tancred
made no attempt to engage his attention, but
turned her dull eyes to the Colonel, as if appealing to
him to take the burden of Durant's entertainment on
his own shoulders.
This the Colonel was perfectly prepared to do. It
was evidently an understood thing that Miss Tancred
should sit there, in that depressing attitude, while her
father monopolized their guest. Durant hastily classified
his host and hostess as the bore active and the
bore passive. If Miss Tancred had ever had any interest
or property in life she seemed to have made it over
to the Colonel, together with a considerable portion of
her youth. The Colonel wore his sixty years well out
of sight, like an undergarment; you even felt that there
might be something slightly indecorous in the suggestion
that he wore them at all. He was alive to the
finger-tips, alive in every feature of his aristocratic
little face. He seemed at first rather uncertain how
to take Durant, and looked him up and down as if in
search of a convenient button-hole; he smiled innocently
on the young man (Durant soon learned to know
and dread that smile); nothing could have been more
delicate and tentative than his approach. He had been
silent for the last few minutes, lying low behind a number
of the Nineteenth Century, for if he were a bore he
had the dangerous power of masking his deadly qualities
in an unreal absorption. At the signal that followed
Durant's last desperate remark the Colonel's
tongue leaped as from an ambush.
His first conversational maneuver was a feint. He
inquired, with a certain affected indifference, what sort
of weather Durant had met with on the journey down,
and what sort he had left behind him in London; and
then he seemed inclined to let the weather drop. But
before Durant could get a word in edgeways he had
taken it up again and was handling it like a master.
Now he was playing with it, hovering round it lightly,
with a tantalizing approach and flight; now he had
gripped it tight, there was no more wandering from
the point than may be seen in the vacillations of a
well-behaved barometer; the slender topic seemed to
grow under his touch, to take on the proportions of his
own enormous egotism; he spoke of last autumn and
the next parish as if he were dealing with immensities
of time and space. And now the Colonel was merged
and lost in his theme; he was whirled along with the
stream of things, with moons and meteors, winds and
tides, never for an instant compromising his character
as a well-behaved barometer.
Never for an instant forgetting that he was a Tancred,
with a pedigree dating from the days of feudalism.
And after all he looked such a gentle little fellow that
Durant could almost have forgiven him. He was so
beautifully finished off. You could only say of him
that he was fastidious, he had the prejudices of his
class. He scorned to make conversation a sordid traffic
in ideas. At any rate, Durant felt himself released
from all obligation to contribute his share.
He had given it up, and was wondering how on earth
they were to get through the evening. Various dreadful
possibilities occurred to him; music (Miss Tancred
and Beethoven on the grand piano); family prayers;
cards; in some places they sat up half the night playing
whist, a game that bored him to extinction. Thank
heaven, as there were but three of them, it would not
be whist. Meanwhile it was past eight and no dinner
bell.
As if in answer to his thoughts the Colonel turned
sharply to his daughter.
"Frida, are you sure that you wrote to Mrs. Fazakerly?"
"Quite sure."
"And are you equally certain that she is coming?"
"Quite certain. Unless she has been taken ill."
"What did you say? Taken ill? Taken ill?"
"I did not say she was taken ill, papa; I said nothing
but illness would keep her from coming."
"Ah, a very different thing." He turned to Durant,
blushing and bridling in his stiff collar as if the important
distinction had been a subtlety of his own.
He curled himself up in his chair, and Durant caught
him smiling to himself, a contemplative, almost voluptuous
smile; was it at the prospect of another victim?
Who the devil, he wondered, is Mrs. Fazakerly?
Mrs. Fazakerly did not keep him wondering long.
Already she was tripping into the room with a gleeful
and inquisitive assurance. A small person, with a
round colorless face and snub features finished off with
a certain piquant ugliness. Her eyes seemed to be
screwed up by a habit of laughter, and the same cheerful
tendency probably accounted for the twisting of her
eyebrows. Mrs. Fazakerly must have been forty and
a widow. She was dressed with distinction in the half-mourning
of a very black silk gown and a very white
neck and shoulders. She greeted Miss Tancred affectionately,
glanced at Durant with marked approval,
and swept the Colonel an exaggerated curtsey, playfully
implying that she had met him before that day.
It struck Durant that nature had meant Mrs. Fazakerly
to be vulgar, and that it spoke well for Mrs. Fazakerly
that so far she had frustrated the designs of
nature. He rather thought he was going to like Mrs.
Fazakerly; she looked as if she would not bore him.
If Mrs. Fazakerly was going to like Durant, as yet
her glance merely indicated that she liked the look of
him. Durant, as it happened, was almost as plain for
a man as Miss Tancred was for a woman; but he was
interesting, and he looked it; he was distinguished,
and he looked that, too; he was an artist, and he did
not look it at all; he cultivated no eccentricities of
manner, he indulged in no dreamy fantasies of dress.
Other people besides Mrs. Fazakerly had approved of
Maurice Durant.
Unfortunately the Colonel's instant monopoly of
the lady had the effect of throwing Durant and his
hostess on each other's mercy during dinner, a circumstance
that seemed greatly to entertain Mrs. Fazakerly.
Probably a deep acquaintance with Coton Manor made
her feel a delightful incongruity in Durant's appearance
there, since, as her gaze so frankly intimated, she
found him interesting. He was roused from a fit of
more than usual abstraction to find her little gray eyes
twinkling at him across the soup. Mrs. Fazakerly, for
purposes of humorous observation, used a pince-nez,
which invariably leaped from the bridge of her nose
in her subsequent excitement. It was leaping now.
"Mr. Durant, Miss Tancred is trying to say something
to you."
He turned with a dim, belated courtesy as his hostess
repeated for the third time her innocent query, "I
hope you like your room?"
He murmured some assent, laying stress on his appreciation
of the flowers and the books.
"You must thank Mrs. Fazakerly for those; it was
she who put them there."
"Indeed? That was very pretty of Mrs. Fazakerly."
"Mrs. Fazakerly is always doing pretty things. I
can't say that I am."
In Miss Tancred's eyes there was none of the expectancy
that betrays the fisher of compliments. If she
had followed that gentle craft she must have abandoned
it long ago; no fish had ever risen to wriggling
worm, to phantom minnow or to May-fly, to Miss Tancred's
groveling or flirting or flight; no breath of flattery
could ever have bubbled in men's eyes—those icy
waters where she, poor lady, saw her own face. Durant
would have been highly amused if she had angled; as
it was, he was disgusted with her. It is the height of
bad taste for any woman to run herself down, and the
more sincere the depreciation the worse the offense,
as implying a certain disregard for your valuable opinion.
Apparently it had struck Mrs. Fazakerly in this
light, for she shook her head reproachfully at Miss
Tancred.
"If Mr. Durant had been staying with me, I should
have packed him into the bachelor's bedroom with his
Bible and his Shakespeare."
Miss Tancred, accused of graciousness, explained herself
away. "I put you on the south side because you've
just come from the Mediterranean; I thought you
would like the sun."
Why could he not say that it was pretty of Miss
Tancred?
The Colonel had pricked up his ears at the illuminating
word.
"What sort of weather did you have when you were
in Italy?"
It was the first time that he had shown the faintest
interest in Durant's travels. He seemed to regard him
as a rather limited young man who had come to Coton
Manor to get his mind let out an inch or two.
Durant replied that as far as he could remember it
was fine when he arrived in Rome two years ago, and
it was fine when he left Florence the other day.
The Colonel shrugged his shoulders. "Ah, I don't
call that weather. I like a variable barometer. I cannot
stand monotony." As he spoke he looked at his
daughter. In a less perfect gentleman there would
have been significance in the look. As it was, it remained
unconscious.
"The Colonel," Mrs. Fazakerly explained, "is studying
the meteorology of Wickshire."
It seemed that Mrs. Fazakerly was studying the
Colonel, that it was her business to expound and defend
him. She had implied, if it were only by the motion
of an eyelid, that all they had heard hitherto was
by way of prologue; that the Colonel had not yet put
forth his full powers. Her effervescent remark was, as
it were, the breaking of the champagne bottle, the
signal that launched him.
Meteorology apart, the Colonel, like more than one
great philosopher, held that science was but another
name for ignorance.
"But with meteorology," he maintained, "you are
safe. You've got down to the bed-rock of fact, and it's
observation all along the line. I've got fifteen little
memorandum books packed with observations. Taken
by myself. It's the only way to keep clear of fads and
theories. Look at the nonsense that's talked in other
departments, about microbes, for instance. Fiddlesticks!
A microbe's an abstraction, a fad. But take a
man like myself, take a man of even ordinary intelligence,
who has faced the facts, don't tell me that he
hasn't a better working knowledge of the subject than
a fellow who calls himself a bacteriologist, or some
other absurd name."
Durant remarked meekly that he didn't know, he
was sure. But the Colonel remained implacable; his
shirt-front dilated with his wrath; it was wonderful
how so gentle a voice as the Colonel's contrived to convey
so much passion. Meanwhile Miss Tancred sat
absorbed in her dinner and let the storm pass over her
head. Perhaps she was used to it.
"Fiddlesticks! If you don't know, you ought to
know; you should make it your business to know. If
I've got cholera I want to be told what'll cure me. I
don't care a hang whether I'm killed by a comma
bacillus or——"
"A full-stop bacillus," suggested Mrs. Fazakerly.
"The full-stop bacillus for choice—put you sooner
out of your agony."
"For shame, Mr. Durant; you encourage him."
"I, Mrs. Fazakerly?"
"Yes, you. It was you who brought the Nineteenth
Century into the house, wasn't it? Depend upon it,
he's been reading something that he's disagreed with,
or that's disagreed with him."
Durant remembered. There were things about bacteriology
in that Nineteenth Century, and about hypnotism;
the Colonel had apparently seized on them as
on fuel for a perishing fire.
Heedless of the frivolous interruption, the little gentleman
was working himself into a second intellectual
fury.
"Take hypnotism again—there's another abstraction
for you——"
Here Mrs. Fazakerly threw up her hands. "My dear
Colonel, de grâce! If it's an abstraction, why get into
a passion about it? Life isn't long enough. You're
worrying your brain into fiddlesticks—fiddlestrings I
mean, of course. This child doesn't look after you.
You ought to have something tied over your head to
keep it down; it's like a Jack-in-the-box, a candle blazing
away at both ends, a sword wearing out its what's-his-name;
it's wearing out your friends, too. We can't
live at intellectual high pressure, if you can."
The Colonel softened visibly under the delicious
flattery of her appeal; he smiled at her and at Durant;
he came down from his heights and made a concession
to the popular taste. "Well, then, take influenza——"
"We'd very much rather not take it, if it's all the
same to you."
"Take what?"
"Why, the influenza—the bacilli, or whatever they
are. Or do the bacilli take you?"
"My dear lady, you don't know what you're talking
about. The bacilli theory is—is—is a silly theory."
And Durant actually smiled; for his own brain was
softening under the debilitating influence. He would
not be surprised at anything he might do himself; he
might even sink into that sickly state in which people
see puns in everything and everything in puns; it
would be the effect of the place.
"Well, it made you very ill last winter, that's all I
know."
The wrinkles stopped dancing over the Colonel's
face; his shirt-front sank; he was touched with an infinite
tenderness and pity for himself.
"Yes. But I had a fit of the real thing. It left me
without a particle of muscle—legs mere thread-papers,
and no brain——"
"Cherry-tart, Mr. Durant?"
The voice was Miss Tancred's. It was keen, incisive;
it cut the Colonel's sentence like a knife. But
if she had meant to kill it the unfilial attempt was
foiled.
"No brain at all, Durant." He held up a forefinger,
demonstrating on the empty air. "That, mind you,
is the test, the mark of true influenza—the ut-ter, absolute
collapse of brain power."
"Imbacillity, in short."
Having emitted this feeble spark, Durant's intellect
went out altogether. Trusting to his face not to betray
him, he inquired gravely if it was long since the
Colonel's last attack of influenza.
But he had trusted rather too much to his face. A
painful flush spread over it when he found Miss Tancred
looking at him with a lucid, penetrating gaze. She
had recognized his guilt; it was impossible to tell
whether she had measured the provocation.
He, at any rate, had discovered the secret of her
silence; it was not stupidity, it was shame. The spectacle
of the Colonel's conversational debauches had
weaned her forever from the desire of speech. For the
rest of the meal he, too, sat silent, building a cairn of
cherry-stones at the side of his plate; an appropriate
memorial of a young man bored to death at a dinner-table.
"Well now," said the Colonel, rousing himself from
a brief nirvana of digestion, "I hope that you will not
be dull." He said it with the confidence of a man who
has just laid before you a pretty convincing sample of
his social powers.
Durant started; he was alone with the Colonel and
the wine, and had just made the discovery that when
the Colonel's face was at rest he was very like an owl.
"To-morrow we'll go exploring together. I should
like to take you over my little property."
As a matter of fact, the property was considerable;
but Durant noticed that its owner applied the endearing
diminutive to every object that appealed specially
to his egotism. It was a peculiarity of the Colonel
that he was ready to melt with affection over the
things that belonged to himself, and was roused almost
to ferocity by whatever interested other people.
"I dare say it will be good for you to see some fresh
faces and to be put—in touch—in touch with fresh
ideas."
You would have said that Durant had been sitting
for seven years with his feet on the fender while the
Colonel roamed the world.
Durant agreed. He was being hypnotized by the
hooked nose and the round hazel eyes with their radiating
wrinkles. He had been five hours in Coton
Manor, it felt like five years, and the evening had only
just begun.
His host stared at him, fidgeted nervously for five
minutes, plunged into nirvana again, emerged, and
with a shamefaced smile suggested that the ladies
would be getting impatient. In the drawing-room his
nervousness increased; he went on like a person distracted
with an intolerable desire; he sat down and got
up again; he pirouetted; he played with ornaments;
he wandered uneasily about the room, opening and
shutting windows, setting pictures straight, and lighting
candles; he was a most uncomfortable little Colonel
of militia. And with every movement he revolved
nearer and nearer to a certain table. The table stood
in the background; Durant recognized it as the kind
that opens and discloses the magic circle, the green
land of whist. The table had a sweet and sinful fascination
for the Colonel.
Durant had just pulled himself together, and determined
that he could bear it if they didn't play some
infernal game, if they didn't play whist. And now it
seemed that whist was what they played, that whist of
course was what Mrs. Fazakerly was there for. The
Colonel looked from the table to the group, from the
group to the table; there was calculation in his eye,
an almost sensual anticipation. He seemed to be saying
to himself, "One, two, three, four; the perfect
number." Durant affected abstraction, and turning to
the window gazed out into the dim green landscape.
His host's eye followed him; it marked him down as
the fourth; it hovered round him, dubious, vacillating,
troubled. The Colonel had still some torturing remnants
of a conscience; he had read the deep repugnance
on the young man's face, and hesitated to sacrifice
a guest on his first night. He turned helplessly to
Mrs. Fazakerly, who put an end to his struggle.
She touched Durant lightly on the shoulder. "Come,"
she murmured gently, like a fate that pitied while she
compelled. "Come. He wants his little game."
It was as if she had said, "My poor dear sacrificial
lamb, he wants his little holocaust. There is no help
for it. Let me show you the way to the altar."
"Frida!" It was the Colonel who spoke.
Miss Tancred spread open the table with the air of
a high priestess, hieratic and resigned. The Colonel
approached it, a lighted candle in each hand. For one
moment of time the egotist seemed to be rapt beyond
himself; he was serving the great god Whist. Cards
were the Colonel's passion; he loved them with delight
that was madness, madness that was delight. Cards
for cards' sake, the pure passion, the high, immaculate
abstraction; no gambling, mind you; no playing for
penny points; no pandering to a morbid appetite for
excitement. With cards in his hand the Colonel was
transformed. He might be wedded to matter of fact,
which is the grossest form of materialism; but at the
green table he appeared as a devotee of the transcendent,
the science of sciences, Whist.
Durant curled his long legs under the table and prepared
for a miserable evening, while the Colonel's face
beamed on him from between two candles.
"Durant," he said, "you are an acquisition. If it
wasn't for you we should have to play with a dummy."
Durant replied mournfully that he was not great at
the game, but he thought he was about as good as a
dummy.
"Don't you be too sure of that," said Mrs. Fazakerly.
"There's a great deal to be said for the dummy.
He isn't frivolous, he never revokes, he never loses his
little temper, and he plays the game."
"Yes, I think he can show you some very pretty
science, Durant." The Colonel's mustache and eyebrows
and all the wrinkles on his face were agitated,
but he made no sound. The owl was pluming all his
little feathers, was fluttering with mysterious mirth.
Oh! he took the lady's humor, he could enter into the
thing, he could keep the ball going.
"You see," Mrs. Fazakerly explained, "he has an
intelligence behind him."
"A dummy inspired by Colonel Tancred would be
terrible to encounter," said Durant.
Miss Tancred lifted her eyes from the cards she was
shuffling. Again he felt her gaze resting upon him for
a moment, the same comprehensive, disconcerting
gaze. This time it had something pathetic and appealing
in it, as if she implored him to take no further notice
of her father's fatuity.
"Confound the old fellow," he said to himself; "why
does he make me say these things?"
When they began Durant saw a faint hope of release
in his own stupidity, his obvious unfitness for the
game. By a studied carelessness, an artful exaggeration
of his deficiencies, he courted humiliation, ejection
in favor of the dummy. But, as it happened, either his
evil destiny had endowed him with her own detestable
skill, or else his stupidity was supreme. Trying with
might and main to lose, he kept on winning with horrible
persistency. He was on the winning side; he was
made one with the terrible Miss Tancred; and for the
first half hour he found a certain painful interest in
watching that impenetrable creature.
Miss Tancred played the game; she played, now with
the rhythm and precision of a calculating machine,
now with the blind impetus and swoop of some undeviating
natural force. It was not will, it was not intelligence;
it was something beyond and above them both,
infinitely more detached, more monotonous and cold;
something independent even of her desire. Durant
could see that she had as little love for the game as
he had. She played because she always had played, by
habit, a second nature that had ousted the first. Her
skill was so unerring that for Durant it robbed the
game of its last lingering attraction, the divine element
of chance. One tinge of consciousness, one touch of
fire, and it would have been sheer devilry. As it was
he could have been sorry for her, though in her infinite
apathy she seemed to be placed beyond his pity and
her own. With no movement save in her delicate sallow
fingers, she sat there like an incarnate Ennui, the
terrible genius of the house.
The Colonel, though losing rapidly, was in high good
humor. He displayed a chivalrous forbearance with
the weakness of Mrs. Fazakerly, who committed every
folly and indiscretion possible to a partner. He bowed
when he dealt to her; he bowed when she dealt to him;
he bowed when she revoked.
"'To err is human,'" said the Colonel.
"'To forgive, divine,'" said Mrs. Fazakerly, smiling
at Durant, as much as to say, "You observe his appropriation
of the supreme rôle?"
And indeed the Colonel bore himself with some consciousness
of his metaphysical dignity. He was pleased
with everybody, pleased with Durant, pleased with
Mrs. Fazakerly, most particularly pleased with Colonel
Tancred, late of the Wickshire militia.
And as the game wore on Durant realized the full
horror of his position. The gallant Colonel was not
going to leave that table till he had won, and he could
never win. He frowned on Durant's proposal to change
partners; he would accept no easy victory. They were
in for a night of it. Durant was in torment, but he sat
on, fascinated by the abominable beauty of his own
play; he sat with every nerve on edge, listening to the
intolerable tick of time.
Ten o'clock. He thought it had been midnight. He
passed his hand over his face, as if to feel if it were
stiffening in its expression of agony.
And all the time Mrs. Fazakerly kept on raising and
dropping her eyeglass. Now and then she gave him a
look that plumbed the sources of his suffering. It
seemed to recommend her own courageous attitude, to
say, "My dear young man, we are being bored to death;
you know it, and I know it. But for Goodness' sake,
let us die with pleasant faces, since we can but die."
And Durant felt that she was right. He fell into her
mood, and passed from it into a sort of delirium.
There could be no end to it; his partner's pitiless hands
would never have done shuffling the cards. Black and
red, red and black, they danced before him; they assumed
extravagant attitudes; they became the symbols
of tremendous mysteries. His head seemed to grow
lighter; he was visited with fantastic impulses like the
caprices of an intoxicated person. To turn on the
Colonel and ask him what he meant by inflicting this
torture on an innocent man, whose only crime had
been to trust him too well; to shake the inscrutable
Miss Tancred by the hand and tell her that he knew
all—all, and that she had his sympathy; to fall on Mrs.
Fazakerly's neck and cry like a child, he felt that he
was capable of any or all of these things. As it was,
his behavior must have been sufficiently ridiculous,
since it amused Mrs. Fazakerly so much. The two
had reached that topsy-turvy height of anguish that is
only expressible by laughter. Theirs had a ring of
insanity in it; it sounded monstrous and immoral, like
the mirth of victims under the shadow of condign extinction.
As for his play, he knew it was the play of a
madman. And yet he still won; with Miss Tancred
for his partner it was impossible to lose. She sat there
unmoved by his wildest aberrations. Once, to be sure,
she remarked with a shade of irritation in her voice
(by some queer freak of nature her voice was unusually
sweet), "Oh, there! We've got that trick again!"
Like him, she would have preferred to lose, just to
break the maddening monotony of it.
He pitied her. Once, in a lucid interval, he actually
heard himself paying her a compliment, much as he
would have paid a debt of honor. "Miss Tancred, how
magnificently you play!" She answering, "I ought to.
I've been doing nothing else since I was ten years
old." It was simply horrible. The woman was thirty
if she was a day.
Half past eleven. Midnight gathering in the garden
outside. The room was reflected on the window-pane
from the solid darkness behind it—the candles, the
green table, the players—a fantastic, illusive scene,
shimmering on the ground of night as on some sinister
reality. Mrs. Fazakerly was dashing down her cards
at random, and even the Colonel shuffled uneasily in
his seat. At twelve he observed that none of them
"seemed very happy in whist"; he proposed loo, a game
in which, each person playing for his own hand, he
could not be compromised by the ruinous folly of his
partner.
At loo Miss Tancred, also untrammeled, rose to
dizzying heights of play. She hovered over the green
table, motionless like an eagle victory. Then she
swooped, invincible. One against three she laid about
her, slashed, confounded, and defeated the enemy with
terrific slaughter. As Durant stammered, idiotic in his
desperation, it was "a regular Water-loo."
The Colonel kept it going. He laughed, "Ha-ha!
What do you say to a whiskey-and-water-loo? My
head's as clear as daylight. I think I could stand another
little game if we had some whiskey and water."
A movement of Mrs. Fazakerly's arm swept the pack
on to the floor. "Frida," she cried, "take your father
and put a mustard plaster on the back of his neck."
Miss Tancred rose. She just raised the black accent
of her eyebrows as she surveyed the disenchanted
table, the awful disorder of the cards. She looked at
Durant and Mrs. Fazakerly with a passionless, interrogatory
stare. Then suddenly she seemed to catch
the infection of their dreadful mirth. It wrung from
her a deeper note. She too laughed, and her laughter
was the very voice of Ennui, a cry of bitterness, of unfathomable
pain. It rang harsh upon her silence and
was not nice to hear.
This unlooked-for outburst had the happy effect of
bringing the evening to an end. It seemed to be part
of the program that the Colonel should go home with
Mrs. Fazakerly to take care of her, and that Miss Tancred
should go with them both to take care of the
Colonel. They had not far to walk; only through the
park and across the road to a little house opposite the
lodge gates.
While they were looking for their hats Durant was
left for a moment alone with Mrs. Fazakerly. She
sank into a seat beside him, unstrung, exhausted; she
seemed to be verging on that state of nervous collapse
which disposes to untimely confidence.
"I like whist," said Mrs. Fazakerly; "but it must be
an awful game to play if you don't like it."
He followed her gaze. It was fixed on Miss Tancred's
retreating figure.
"Why on earth does she play if she doesn't like it?"
Mrs. Fazakerly turned on him, suddenly serious.
"She plays because the Colonel likes it—because she
is the best girl in the world, Mr. Durant."
He stood reproved.
Three days passed; they brought nothing new; each
was a repetition of the other; each merged itself in
whist. No relief came from the outside world; the
outside world must have found out long ago that it
was not worth while driving many miles to call on the
Tancreds.
Three days at Coton Manor would have been trying
to anyone; to Durant they were intolerable. For
limbs that had roamed the world to be tucked up under
the Colonel's whist table, for a mind equally vigorous
and vagrant to be tied to the apron-strings of the Colonel's
intellect, was really a refinement of torture.
Thrice Durant had tried to find an exit into the surrounding
landscape, and thrice the Colonel had been
too quick for him. He hovered perpetually round him;
he watched his goings-out and his comings-in; there
was no escaping his devilish ingenuity. While Durant
was looking for a stick or a hat, he would secure him
softly by the arm and lead him out for a stroll. He
would say, "My dear Durant, the women are all very
well in their way, but it is a luxury to have another
man to talk to." He talked to Durant, leaning toward
him lover-like, with the awful passion of the bore for
his victim.
These strolls extended over several miles, without
taking them beyond the bounds of Coton Manor.
Durant began to disbelieve in the existence of a world
beyond. Coton Manor had swallowed up the county;
it seemed to have opened its gates and swallowed him
up, too.
He told himself that he had done nothing to deserve
his doom. He was not more selfish or more exacting
than other men; he was not sensual; he had not made
mere physical pleasure his being's end and aim. He
had been content with a somewhat negative ideal, the
mere avoidance of boredom. He never struggled or
argued with it, but whenever and wherever he met it
he had simply packed his portmanteau and gone away.
This repugnance of his had entailed endless traveling,
but Durant was a born traveler. Hitherto his life had
been free from any care beyond the trouble of avoiding
trouble. But he had been lax in this matter of Coton
Manor; he had had reason enough to suppose that
the visit would bring him face to face with the thing
he feared, and he had rushed into the adventure with
open arms. And now, this horror that he had eluded so
successfully for seven years he was to know more intimately
than his own soul; he was to sound all the
depths beyond depths of boredom. He had stayed in
dull places before, but their dulness struck him now
as naïf and entertaining by comparison. Other people
lapsed helplessly into dulness; at Coton Manor they
cultivated it; they kept it up. What was worse, they
took it for granted in other people. It never seemed
to occur to Miss Tancred or the Colonel that Maurice
Durant could be interesting, that he had done anything
worth mentioning. Not that he was sensitive to
their opinion, it was simply that this attitude of theirs
appealed unpleasantly to his imagination, giving it a
cold foretaste of extinction. It was as if his flaming
intellectual youth, with all its achievements, had been
dropped into the dark, where such things are forgotten.
At Coton Manor his claim to distinction rested on the
fact that he was the Colonel's godson. The Colonel
had appropriated, absorbed him, swallowed him up.
The fact that Durant was lapped in material comfort
only intensified his spiritual pangs. The Tancreds were
rich, and their wealth was not of to-day or yesterday;
they had the dim golden tone, the deep opulence of
centuries. And they were generous, they gave him of
their best; so that, besides being bored, he had the additional
discomfort of feeling himself a bit of a brute.
As he lay awake night after night in his luxurious bed
he wondered how he ever got there, what on earth had
induced him to accept their invitation. He cursed his
infernal rashness, his ungovernable optimism; he had
spent half his life in jumping at conclusions and at
things, and the other half in jumping away from them,
however difficult the backward leap. He had jumped
at the Colonel's invitation.
To tell the truth, he would have jumped at anybody's
at the time.
When he came back from his travels he had found
himself a stranger in his own country. In every place
he touched he had left new friends most agreeably
disconsolate at his departure; he supposed (rashly
again) that the old ones would be overjoyed at his
return. As it happened, his reception in England was
not cold exactly, but temperate, like the climate, and
Durant had found both a little trying after the fervors
and ardors of the South. The poor fellow had spent
his first week at home in hansoms, rushing passionately
from one end of London to the other, looking up his
various acquaintances. He was disappointed, not to say
disgusted, with the result. (Maurice Durant was always
disgusted when other people failed to come up to
his expectations.) His best friends were out of town,
his second best were only too much in it. Many of
them had abjured art and taken to stiff collars and
conventions. He called on these at their offices. They
were all diabolically busy in the morning and insufferably
polite in the afternoon; they had flung him a nod
or a smile or a "Glad to see you back again, old fellow,"
and turned from him with a preoccupied air. He remembered
them as they were seven years ago, when
they were all Bohemians together. They had no manners,
good or bad, in those days, those young men; they
called you by strange names; they posed you in peculiar
attitudes and made abominable caricatures of
your noble profile; but they would lend or borrow a
five-pound note with equal readiness; they would give
you a supper and a shake-down at any time of the
night or morning. Now it seemed they thought twice
about asking you to dinner, if indeed they thought
about it at all. So Durant had been pleasantly surprised
at his godfather's genial letter. Why, bless his
little heart, the old boy had actually pressed him to
stay for a fortnight.
Well, how was he to get through that fortnight?
He decided that he would not get through it at all.
He kept himself awake devising schemes for his liberation;
he would find some business to take him up to
town to-morrow; or, if he could not find it, he would
invent it; he would send himself a telegram. And
then, against his will, his mind began running on Miss
Tancred. As he had been possessed by the ideal, so
now he was haunted by the reality; it had a horrible
fascination for him. He wondered if Miss Tancred had
ever been young; he wondered if Miss Tancred had
ever made a joke; he wondered if Miss Tancred had
ever been in love. This third idea was so incongruous,
so impossible, that at last he found himself dallying
with it for the mere extravagant humor of the thing.
If he had only been able to make himself agreeable
to Miss Tancred—for Miss Tancred, if she had the will,
had certainly the power to help him. The unhappy
young man had made a careful inspection of the stables
to see if there was a lingering chance for him there.
The sleek bays that brought him from the station—impossible;
the Colonel's cob, a creature too safe to
be exciting; and—yes, there was Miss Tancred's mare.
The sight of the fiery little beast dancing in her stall
had affected him with an uncontrollable desire to ride
her. The groom, not without sympathy, had interpreted
his longing glances.
"There's a-many casts sheep's eyes at that there
mare, sir; but it 'ud be as much as my place is worth,
sir, to let you or any other gentleman get atop of her.
Nobody lays a 'and on that annymal but Miss Tancred.
Miss Tancred's orders, sir."
He might have known it. Miss Tancred was good
for nothing, not even for the loan of a mount.
Miss Tancred seemed aware that nothing was expected
from her, and kept conscientiously out of his
way. He saw nothing of her from breakfast till dinnertime
and the evening, when she appeared as his official
partner in the game of whist. What became of her in
the meanwhile he did not know; he could only vaguely
conjecture. She seemed to vanish, to lose herself in
the vast workings of Coton Manor, or in that vaster
entity, the Colonel.
By the fourth day Durant's irritable mood had
changed to resignation. If he could not altogether
adopt Mrs. Fazakerly's attitude and smile pleasantly
into the jaws of dulness, he consented to be bored to
death with a certain melancholy grace.
He had made a dash for freedom; he had actually
started first thing in the morning with his sketching
block and easel, and was congratulating himself on
his benignant chance, when, as he sneaked round a
corner of the house, the Colonel stepped out upon him
from a side window. There was one hope for him.
Rain had fallen over night, and the little gentleman
was as yet in his slippers; he was feeling the damp
gravel like a fastidious cat.
"Ah-ha!" said he, in the tone of joyful encounter.
"And what do you propose to do with yourself this
morning?"
Durant looked at his host with a sad reproachful
gaze from which all bitterness had departed. He had
felt inclined to reply that he proposed to commit suicide;
as it was, he only said he thought of trying to
sketch something.
The Colonel seemed a little offended at the proposal;
it certainly implied that Durant had more confidence
in his own resources than in those of the house.
"So that's your fad, is it? I think we can do better
for you than that."
And as Durant had calculated he skipped back into
the house, and before he could return with his boots on,
Durant, by another miracle of chance or his own cunning,
had contrived his escape.
He made his way up a slight slope, whence he could
see far over the landscape. What he had as yet seen
was not inspiring, the heavy full-blown charm of the
Midlands in July, lonely, without any of the poetry of
loneliness. As he looked about him he realized again
that he was in the heart of the country, the great, slow,
passionless heart whose pulses are interminable hours.
If you love Nature as Durant loved her, for her sex
with its divine caprices, its madness and its mystery,
you will be disappointed with Wickshire. In Wickshire
Mother Nature is no dubious Aphrodite; she is
indissolubly married to man, and behaves like an ordinary
British matron, comely and correct. Durant saw
in the immediate foreground a paddock dotted with
young firs, each in a ring fence, beyond the paddock a
field of buttercups shining with a polished gleam, beyond
the buttercups a horizon of trees. Before him to
the southeast, soaring above the roofs of Whithorn-in-Arden,
a church spire pointed the way to heaven; beyond
that, traveling low above the railway cutting, a
thin line of smoke indicated the way into the world.
Behind him were more trees; the green crescent of the
woods with the white front of Coton Manor shining in
their arms like a heavy, foolish face. He had no patience
with the landscape, with this Nature trimmed
and tamed, these shaven meadows and clean-cut hedges
and little rectangular plantations. It was a typical
English landscape, a landscape most unnecessarily
draped, where the bosom of the hills was always covered,
and the very elms were muffled to their feet. A
landscape destitute of passion and sensual charm, a
landscape like Miss Tancred.
Miss Tancred. He no longer felt any wild resentment
against that poor girl; he had learned to judge
her leniently. If you live with bores you inevitably
become a bore; at the same time, he admitted that she
was doing her best not to bore him. Meanwhile he
transferred his hatred to her surroundings.
This young man had no philosophy beyond the general
impression that the universe was under infinite
obligations to be good to him, a belief that had found
itself rather rudely shaken. He chose his view and
pitched his easel and relieved himself by one deep,
metaphysical, soul-satisfying curse at the devilry of
things. Then he set to work, and with the instinct of
a born painter he tried to find possibilities in the despised
landscape. Before long he had discovered mystery
in the woods that lifted their heavy rounded
contours to the sky, gathered and massed and piled
on one another like clouds; deep mystery in their green,
green drenched with liquid and aerial gray, pierced by
thick black veins and hollowed into caverns of darkness
and blue dusk. And, though he knew that he was
tying himself to the place by taking it seriously, in an
hour's time he was absorbed and happy.
He was startled by a voice behind him. "Do you
think that it's so very beautiful?"
He turned round. Miss Tancred stood looking over
his shoulders, not at him nor at his sketch, but at the
distant prospect.
"It's—nice and open," he answered absently.
"Open? Wait till you've lived in it. To me it's like
living with all the doors shut."
"Too many woods, perhaps. And yet there's always
a charm about a wooded country; it's English."
"Yes, and, like everything English, it's much too
serious, too conventional, too"—she paused for her
epithet—"too disgustingly rich."
He was more startled than ever; she had put his own
feeling about it into words.
"And then it's so painfully proper and respectable.
Look at those ridiculous trees in their petticoats. English
to a degree."
"Ah!—if you've been abroad——"
"I haven't been abroad."
"Proud insular boast!"
"I wasn't boasting. I was stating a fact."
"Well, you've some cause to boast. Not to have
been abroad is distinction nowadays."
"If it comes to that I've never been out of this
county, except to London now and then. You wouldn't
think it."
He smiled, for it happened to be precisely what he
had thought. It explained her somehow; he recognized
in Miss Tancred the incurable provincial. To be sure,
her sentiments were somewhat at variance with her
character, an inconsistency not unusual in woman.
All he said was, "It is a little extraordinary." He was
wondering when she was going to go. She did not go.
"I'm glad you've discovered something to do here.
It must be so deadly dull."
He found relief in ambiguity. "I am never dull";
adding irrelevantly, "it's a glorious view."
She brightened visibly. "If you like I can show you
a better one than this. It's not so very far;"—she hesitated—"we
might go to-morrow, perhaps; though it
wouldn't be very amusing, I'm afraid."
Again he felt a touch of compunction. She had so
clearly grasped the situation; she was so evidently
sorry for him, so conscientious, even if mistaken, in
her efforts to make amends, that he found her positively
pathetic. He answered humbly that he would
be delighted if she would be so good.
Then, conscientiously again, she left him. He
watched her tall figure departing with energetic strides,
and he decided that Miss Tancred was not so bad out
of doors, but that she needed a large background.
The next morning he had the grace to remind her of
her promise. They started at a rapid pace. Durant
left the paraphernalia of his art behind him by way of
intimating delicately that the hour was hers. Miss
Tancred was evidently prepared for vigorous walking.
She was dressed suitably and inoffensively in brown
holland. She took him up a long, gradually rising hill
to where a group of firs stood on an isolated mound.
Here Miss Tancred paused, with tilted profile, sniffing
the ambient air. "This," she said, "is the highest
point in the county; there is always a fresh breeze here;
to-day you can smell the sea."
"Impossible; we must be right in the very center of
England, about a hundred miles from the nearest
coast."
"You can hear it, then. Shut your eyes and listen."
He obeyed. The wind moved and the firs gave out
their voice. He opened his eyes and glanced at Miss
Tancred. She was leaning up against a fir; her eyes
looked straight past him into the distance; the wind
had loosened the hair about her forehead; her lips
were parted, her eyes shone; there was an eagerness in
her face he had not yet seen there. It was as if a dead
woman had been suddenly made alive before him. She
was gazing and listening.
"If you've never been out of Wickshire, where have
you heard the sea?"
She answered curtly, "I don't know where I've heard
it"; then added, as if by way of apology for her manner,
"Do you like it?"
"Immensely."
"Then you must come up whenever you want to.
You can always be alone here."
She spoke as if she were giving him the freedom of
her private sanctuary.
"Have you any sketches of those places you've been
to abroad?"
"Sketches? Any amount."
"Have you brought them with you?"
He blushed. He had brought many sketches in the
hope of showing them to a wealthy godfather and an
admiring god-sister.
"Some—a few."
"I wish you'd show them to me."
"I shall be delighted." He blushed again, this time
for pleasure. With the desire to bestow a little of it,
he asked rashly, "Do you sketch, Miss Tancred? I
saw some water-colors——"
"They were my mother's. I do nothing."
"Oh, I see." (They were going home now.) "I was
wondering what on earth you found to do here."
"I? A great many things. Business chiefly. My
father is secretary to the Primrose League. I write all
his letters for him."
"That's one way of being secretary to the Primrose
League."
"The usual way, I think. Secretaries generally have
under-secretaries, haven't they? My father dictates."
Durant smiled. He could see him doing it. "What
else does Colonel Tancred do?"
"He does no end of things. All the business of the
estate; and he speaks, at meetings, everywhere. He
has lectured——"
It was pathetic, her eagerness to vindicate his intellect,
to record his achievements, to convince Durant
that she was proud of him, not to let him see.
For the rest of the way she was silent, the light died
out of her eyes with every turning, and by the time
they had reached Coton Manor Miss Tancred was
herself again.
At whist that evening nobody was pleased. The
Colonel looked sulky and offended, possibly at Durant's
disaffection; Durant was moodier than ever, and even
Mrs. Fazakerly seemed depressed. Miss Tancred remained
imperturbable and indifferent, she won every
trick without turning a hair, but when it was all over
she left the table abruptly. She was visibly distressed.
Mrs. Fazakerly gazed after her with an affectionate
stare. She turned to Durant.
"For goodness' sake," she whispered, "say something
nice to her."
For the life of him Durant could think of nothing
nice to say, beyond congratulating her on her success
in the accursed game.
Mrs. Fazakerly chimed in, "With or without a partner
Miss Tancred wins!"
"I always win. So, I imagine, does Mr. Durant."
"And why should I always win?"
"You? You win because you care nothing about the
game."
If you had told Durant that the end of his first week
would find him sitting under the firs in lonely conversation
with Miss Tancred, he would have smiled at you
incredulously. Yet so it was. Her fear of him, if fear
it had been, and not indifference, was wearing away.
She seemed anxious to make friends with him if possible
in a less painfully conscientious manner, and he,
on his side, was beginning to tolerate her. In fact, he
went so far as to own that, if it had not been for that
ridiculous idea of his, he would have tolerated her from
the first. It was not her fault if he had been fool
enough to fall in love with her before sight or at half-sight.
She had disappointed him (hence his natural
disgust); but the thing had happened many times before
in his experience. After all, he had had no grounds
for his passionate belief in Miss Tancred beyond the
argument from defect, the vague feeling that Destiny
owed him amends for her intolerable shortcomings.
But Durant's mind was too sane and versatile to be
long concerned with passion yet unborn. He was not
one of those pitiable sentimentalists who imagine that
every petticoat, or at any rate every well-cut skirt,
conceals a probable ideal. Some women of his acquaintance
had defined, not to say denounced, him as
a consummate and dangerous flirt, but these were not
the most discerning of their sex. Durant described
himself more correctly as a sympathetic, though dispassionate,
observer of womankind. In other words,
he was not a vulgar flirt; he flirted with understanding.
An understanding without flirtation was springing
up between him and Miss Tancred. In this God-forsaken
place they were comrades in boredom and isolation.
She had said nothing, but in some impalpable
yet intimate way he knew that she, too, was bored,
that the Colonel bored her. The knowledge lay between
them unnamed, untouched by either of them;
they passed it by, she in her shame and he in his
delicacy, with eyes averted from it and from each other.
It was as if the horror had crept out through some
invisible, intangible doorway of confession; unseen,
unapproached, it remained their secret and the source
of their mutual pity. Meanwhile she no longer avoided
him; on the contrary, she showed an unmistakable
liking for his society. She would come while he was
sketching and sit beside him for five minutes, fifteen
minutes, half an hour, remaining silent, or merely exchanging
a few frank words with him before she went
her way. In these matters she was gifted with an unerring
tact; without a hint on Durant's part she seemed
to know to a nicety how far her presence was agreeable
or otherwise.
This time he had gone up the hill after dinner, and
had found her sitting in the accustomed place. They
had been alone that evening, for the Colonel was dining
intimately with Mrs. Fazakerly. That lady, with
a refined friendliness that did her credit, had refrained
from including Miss Tancred and Durant in the invitation,
thereby insuring them one evening's immunity
from whist. Durant could make no better use of his
freedom than by spending it alone out of doors; it
seemed that Miss Tancred had done the same with
hers.
She was sitting there on the edge of the mound,
clasping her knees and gazing into the distance. He
apologized for his intrusion, and she waked from her
abstraction with a dreamy air, making a visible effort
to take him in and realize him. But, though she said
simply that she was glad he had come, the effect of his
coming was to plunge her into deeper abstraction.
They sat for some time without speaking. Miss Tancred
had a prodigious faculty for silence, and Durant
let her have her way, being indeed indifferent to Miss
Tancred's way.
At last she spoke.
"It's odd how some people take Nature," said she;
"for instance, Mrs. Fazakerly says she loves it because
it's so soothing. She might just as well say she liked
listening to an orchestra because it sends her to sleep.
She can't love it for its own sake."
"You'll think me horribly rude, but I doubt if any
woman can. That is the one thing a woman is incapable
of—a pure passion for Nature, a really disinterested
love of life. It's an essentially masculine
sentiment."
"I don't at all agree with you."
"Don't you? To begin with, it argues more vitality
than most women have got. They take to it as a substitute
for other things; and to be content with it would
mean that they had exhausted, outlived the other
things."
"What other things?"
She was studying every line of his young, repugnant
face, and Durant was a little embarrassed by her steady
gaze.
"Other interests, other feelings—whatever it is that
women do care for most."
"I don't know anything about women."
Her remark might have borne various interpretations,
either that she knew nothing about herself, that
she despised her own sex too much to include herself
in it, or that she had tacitly adopted Durant's attitude,
which seemed to leave her altogether outside of the
discussion. He talked to her unconsciously, without
any desire to please, as if he assumed that she expected
as little from him as he from her. She never reminded
him that she was a woman. It would have been absurd
if she had insisted on it, and whatever she was Miss
Tancred was not absurd.
She went on calmly, "So I can't say what they care
for most; can you?"
"You know my opinion. I wanted yours."
"Mine isn't worth much. But I should say that in
these things no two women were alike. You talk as
if they were all made of the same stuff."
"So they are inside—in their souls, I mean."
"There's more unlikeness in their souls, I imagine,
than there ever is in their bodies; and you wouldn't
say an ugly woman was quite the same as a pretty one,
would you?"
"Yes; in the obvious sense that they are both women.
I admit that there may be an ugliness that cancels
sex, to say nothing of a beauty that transcends it; but
in either case the woman is unique."
"And if the woman, why not her soul?"
"Because—because—because there is a certain psychical
quality that is eternal and unchangeable; because
the soul is the seat of the cosmic difference we
call sex. In man or woman that is the one unalterable
fact—the last reality."
He spoke coldly, brutally almost, as if he, like herself,
was blind to the pathos of her ignored and rejected
womanhood.
She seemed to be thinking that last point over.
"Yes," she said, "I'm glad you came. I believe you
can help me."
"I shall be delighted if I can."
"What do you think of Mrs. Fazakerly?"
Durant was a little taken aback by the suddenness
of the question.
"What should I think?"
"I—I hardly know."
She knitted her black brows till they almost touched,
and propped her chin with her hand, as if she were
oppressed with the weight of her own thoughts. It
struck him that her provincial mind entertained an
unreasonable suspicion of the consummate little widow,
a woman's jealousy of the superior creature compact
of sex; and a sense of justice made him inclined to
defend Mrs. Fazakerly. Besides, he liked Mrs. Fazakerly;
she, at any rate, was not a bore.
"She's a very amusing woman, and I should say she
was an uncommonly good sort, too."
To his surprise her face brightened. "Should you?
Should you say that she had a good heart?"
"Really, Miss Tancred, I can't see into Mrs. Fazakerly's
heart, but I wouldn't mind betting——"
"That she's good? And affectionate? And
straight?"
"Straight as a die."
"And honest?"
"Oh, Lord, yes." He wondered whatever primitive
meaning she attached to the word.
"Well, if you think that——"
"Mind you, my opinion may be utterly worthless."
"No, no. It's just the very sort of opinion I want."
"Why should it be?"
"Because it's the opinion of a man of the world.
Mrs. Fazakerly's a woman of the world, so I thought
you'd understand her. I don't."
"I've known her exactly a week, and you?"
"Two years. But then I don't observe character,
and you do. And yet I have an intuition."
"Then by all means trust your intuition."
"That's it—I daren't. The truth is, I'm afraid of
myself—my motives."
"Your motives are not yourself."
"Aren't they? If it wasn't for them I should be certain.
I see she's a dear little woman, and I know that
I like her."
"Then, for Heaven's sake, go on liking her; it's the
best thing you can do."
"Isn't it rather horrid to like a person just because
they may be of use to you?"
"Not in the least. You were pleased to say I might
be of use to you, and I'm sure I hope you like me."
"Yes, I like you; but I think I like you for yourself.
I'm afraid of liking Mrs. Fazakerly from the wrong
motive."
"You can't like her from the wrong motive. You
can't have a motive at all, if it comes to that. You
might have a motive for killing her, or for cultivating
her acquaintance, but not for liking her. You either
like a person or not, and there's an end of it."
"If your motives are not yourself, what are they?"
"Lord only knows. Forces, tendencies, that determine
your actions, which are the very smallest part of
you. What you call intuitions, your feelings—hate (I
should say you were a good hater), and love——" (her
eyes, which had been fixed on his, dropped suddenly),
"don't wait for motives. They're the only spontaneous
things about you, the only realities you know." (And
of these he had said just now that the last reality was
sex. It was his point of view, a point from which it
appeared that for him Miss Tancred had no existence.)
"Of course there may be some transcendental sense in
which they're not realities at all; but as far as we are
concerned they're not only real, but positively self-existent."
As he thus discoursed, Durant blinked critically at
the sky, while his pencil described an airy curve on the
infinite blue, symbolizing the grace, the fluency, and
the vastness of his thought.
"They, if you like, are you. It's very odd that you
don't seem to trust them more."
She had turned from him till her face was a thin
outline against the sky. She had a fine head, and carried
it well, too; and at the moment the twilight dealt
tenderly with her dress and face; it purified the tragic
pallor of her forehead and all but defined that vague,
haunting suggestion of a possible charm. Durant had
it a moment ago—there—then. Ah! now he had lost it.
"I daren't trust my feelings. I can't. There are too
many of them. They won't work the same way.
They're all fighting against each other."
"Then let them fight it out, and let the strongest
win."
"If I only knew which was the strongest."
"You'll know some day. In the long run, you see,
the strongest is bound to win."
"Not necessarily. There might be a number of little
ones that all together would be stronger still."
"Oh, kill off the little beggars one at a time—go for
them, throttle them, wring their necks, jump on them;
and if they wriggle, stamp!"
"You can't jump on your own shadow. You can't
stamp on them if they're you."
He groaned. Miss Tancred was getting too subtle;
it was like sitting in the desert and playing at metaphysics
with the Sphinx. He had had about enough of
it. He rose, stretching his long limbs, and the action
suggested the hideous tension of his intellect.
"You must let yourself go, Miss Tancred—let yourself
go!" And he laughed at his own vision of Miss
Tancred; Miss Tancred insurgent, Miss Tancred flamboyant,
Miss Tancred voluptuous, volatile, victorious!
And then a thought struck him.
He turned and saw Miss Tancred still sitting motionless,
nursing her knees; her pure inflexible profile glimmered
against the dusk.
Durant had an idea, or rather two ideas, one purely
comic, the other comic or tragic, according to the way
you took it. He first of all discovered that the Colonel
was laying siege to the heart of Mrs. Fazakerly, and
at the same time conducting his campaign with an admirable
discretion. There never was a little Colonel
of militia so anxious to avoid committing himself. Not
that the event could be considered doubtful for a moment.
Measuring all risks, it was in the highest degree
incredible that he would be called upon to suffer the
indignity of repulse.
There was nothing extraordinary in that. To be
sure, on the first face and blush of it, Durant had wondered
how on earth Mrs. Fazakerly could tolerate the
Colonel; but, when he came to think of it, there was no
reason why she should not go a great deal farther than
that. The Colonel's dullness would not depress her, she
having such an eternal spring of gaiety in herself. She
might even find it "soothing," like the neighboring
landscape. And as she loved her laughter, it was not
improbable that she loved its cause. Then she had the
inestimable advantage of knowing the worst of him;
her intelligent little eyes had seen him as he was; she
could lay a soft finger on all his weak spots. There
was this to be said for the Colonel, that he was all on
the surface; there was nothing, positively nothing, behind
him. Besides, Mrs. Fazakerly was not exacting.
She had not lived forty years in the world without
knowing the world, and no doubt she knew it too well
to ask very much from it. Then the fact remained
that the Colonel was an immaculate gentleman, immaculately
dressed, and he was not the only item in the
program. Coton Manor would be thrown in, and there
were other agreeable accessories. Mrs. Fazakerly's
tastes were all of the expensive sort, and her ambition
aimed at something vaster than the mere adornment
of her own person. In her household she displayed a
talent, not to say a genius, for luxurious order. But a
little dinner at the cottage opposite the lodge gates had
convinced Durant that this elegance of hers was of a
fragile and perishable sort. The peculiar genius of
Mrs. Fazakerly clamored for material and for boundless
scope. It could not do itself justice under two
thousand a year at the very least. As things stood its
exuberance was hampered both as to actual space (her
drawing-room was only eighteen feet by twelve) and
as to the more glorious possibilities that depend on
income. At Coton Manor she would have a large field
and a free hand. Heaven only knew what Mrs. Fazakerly's
mind was made up of; but quite evidently it
was made up.
So far so good; but there was less certainty as to the
Colonel's attitude. As yet nothing was to be seen, so
to speak, but his attitudes, which indeed were extremely
entertaining. The little gentleman was balancing
himself very deftly on the edge of matrimony,
and Durant watched with a fearful interest the rash
advance and circumspect retreat, the oscillating hair's-breadth
pause, the perilous swerve, and desperate contortion
of recovery.
Durant felt for him; he had so much to lose. Under
Miss Tancred the working of his household was already
brought to such exquisite perfection that any
change must be for the worse. He had found out what
became of Miss Tancred in her mysterious disappearances.
As far as he could see the business of the estate
was entirely superintended by the lady. He came
across her in earnest conversation with the gardener;
he met her striding across the fields with the farm-bailiff;
he had seen her once on her black mare inspecting
some buildings on the farthest limit of the
property, the obsequious builder taking notes of her
directions. She was obviously a capable woman, a
woman of affairs. He presumed that these matters,
with her household and secretarial work, filled up her
days; he knew too well that whist accounted for her
evenings. He did not know if there was any margin,
any dim intellectual region, out of time, out of space,
where Miss Tancred's soul was permitted to disport
itself in freedom; she seemed to exist merely in order
to supply certain deficiencies in the Colonel's nature.
Mrs. Fazakerly had once remarked that Frida was "her
father's right hand." It would have been truer to have
said that she was right hand and left hand, and legs
and brain to the student of meteorology. There had
evidently been some tacit division of labor, by which
she did all the thinking and all the work while he did
the talking. Thus, to continue Durant's line of argument,
the Colonel's comfort was secured to him without
an effort on his part (otherwise it would not have
been comfort); and when all was said and done Mrs.
Fazakerly was a most indifferent player of whist.
Then there was the Colonel's age. Durant knew a
man who had taught himself the 'cello at fifty-five.
But the Colonel was not that sort of adventurous dilettante.
Neither was Mrs. Fazakerly exactly like a
violoncello, she was more like a piano; while Miss Tancred,
from the Colonel's point of view, was like a hurdy-gurdy.
Not a difficult instrument the hurdy-gurdy;
you have only to keep on turning a handle to make it
go. To be sure, you can get rather more out of a piano;
but pianos are passionate things, ungovernable and
slippery to the touch. The Colonel was fond of the
humbler instrument that gave him the sense of accomplishment
without the effort, the joys of the
maestro without his labor and his pain.
He was in a double dilemma. If he had to choose
between Miss Tancred and Mrs. Fazakerly his choice
would never be made. On the other hand, if he decided
for both, his comfort would be more insecure
than ever. There would be jealousy to a dead certainty;
in all mixed households that was where the
shoe pinched. To pursue that vulgar figure, the Colonel's
daughter was like a pair of old and easy shoes
made by a good maker, a maker on whom he could
rely; a wife would be like new boots ordered rashly
from an unknown firm. They would be his best pair,
no doubt, but your best pair is generally the tightest.
He had some trying years before him; and well, a man
does not put on new boots for a long uphill scramble.
So the Colonel's breast was torn with internecine
warfare, desire battling with habit, and habit with
desire. No wonder if in that awful struggle the fate
of one insignificant individual counted for nothing.
Frida Tancred never had counted.
Durant admitted that his imagination was apt to
work in somewhat violent colors, and that there might
be a point of view from which the Colonel would tone
down into a very harmless and even pathetic figure;
for Mrs. Fazakerly he had no terrors. But there was
the girl. It was hard to say exactly what he had done
to her. Apparently he had taken her soul while it was
young and squeezable, and had crushed it till it fitted
into all his little habits; he had silenced her heart with
commonplaces, and dulled her intellect with his incomprehensible
fatuity. And through it all he had
been the most innocent little gentleman alive. Oh,
yes, he was pathetic enough in his way. He himself
was only an instrument in the hands of irrepressible
Nature who couples wild soul with tame, hot blood
with cold blood, genius with folly, and makes her sport
of their unhappy offspring. And Nature was playing
a glorious game with Frida Tancred now.
That was Durant's second idea; the thought that
had struck him so unpleasantly after his last interview
with her. To put it coarsely, he had a suspicion, a
fear, that Miss Tancred was beginning to fall in love
with him. He might have known that it would happen.
It was just the sort of damnable irony most likely to
pursue that unfortunate woman. There could be no
mistake about it; he knew it; he knew it by many
subtle and infallible signs. Somewhere he had heard
or read that no nice man ever knows these things.
That was all nonsense; or, if it had any meaning at all,
it could only mean that no nice man ever shows that
he knows. The fact remained that if he had loved her
he would not have known.
For the disagreeable circumstance itself he called
Heaven to witness that he had not been to blame. He
had been ready to do his part, to fall down and worship
the unknown Miss Tancred, the Miss Tancred of his
vision. The hour had been ripe, the situation also, and
the mood; the woman alone had failed him. Heaven
knew he had done nothing to make her care for him.
True, he had given her a certain amount of his society;
since she found a pleasure in it he would have been a
brute to deny her that poor diversion, that miserable
consolation for the tedium of her existence. Perhaps
he had tried too much to be sympathetic; but who
again would not have tried? He had given her nothing
to go upon. What had he ever given her beyond some
infinitesimal portion of his valuable time, at the most
some luminous hour of insight, or perhaps a little
superfluous piece of good advice that was of no possible
use to himself? For these things she had given
herself—given herself away. How ludicrously pathetic
some women are! You do them some kindness on an
afternoon when you have nothing better to do and they
reward you with the devotion of eternity; for they have
no sense of proportion. The awkward thing is that it
lays you under an eternal obligation to do something
or other for them, you don't know exactly what; an
intolerable position for a nice man.
So Durant's first feelings were surprise, annoyance,
and a certain shame. Then he began to feel a little
flattered, being perfectly sure that Frida Tancred was
not the woman to give herself away to any ordinary
man. He was the first, the only one, the one in a
thousand, who had broken down her implacable reserve.
He ended by feeling positively proud of his
power to draw out the soul of a creature so reticent and
passionless and strange.
His time was not yet up, and the question was:
Ought he to go or stay? He would have found or invented
some pretext, and left long ago, but that in
him the love of pleasure brought with it an equal fear
of giving pain. It would give pain to the Colonel
(who, after all, had received him kindly) if he went
before his time. By the art of graceful evasion Durant
had escaped many such an old gentleman as the Colonel;
but when it came to doing the really disagreeable
and ungraceful thing it seemed that his courage failed
him.
There was no doubt in Miss Tancred's mind on the
delicate point. She was even capable of making a
sacrifice to keep him.
He met her one morning riding on her black mare.
Miss Tancred looked well on horseback; the habit, the
stiff collar, the hard hat, were positively becoming,
perhaps because they left no room for decorative caprice.
She drew up, and Durant ran his hand lovingly
over the warm shining neck and shoulders of the mare.
Miss Tancred's eyes followed the movements of his
hand, then they traveled up his tall figure and down
again.
"Your legs are rather long," said she, "and you're
heavier than I am; but you can ride her if you like."
"I shouldn't think of it," said Durant, magnificently
mendacious. He had been very early enlightened as to
his chances with the mare; but the temptation to ride
her had never died in him.
"Unless you ride," she continued, "there is nothing
for you to do here. Then you'll be bored to death;
and then, I suppose, you'll go?"
"And bury myself? And then?"
"You won't be buried long. You'll rise again fast
enough, somewhere else."
"And what if I do go and do all these things?"
"Well, I don't want you to go—and do them."
She moved on, and he walked beside her, his hand
on the mare's mane.
"I can't think why you've stopped so long. Every
morning since you came I've been expecting you to go.
I thought you'd say your father was dying, or that
your partner was ill, and you had urgent business in
town. It's what they all do. Do you know, we've
asked no end of people down, and they never stay
more than three days. They always get letters or telegrams,
or something. No, I'm wrong; one man stopped
a week. He sprained his ankle the first day, and left
before he was fit to travel."
(Durant laughed. She really amused him, this ingénue
of thirty, with the face of a Sphinx and the conversation
of a child.)
"And they never come again. There's something
about the place they can not stand."
They were walking leisurely together in full sight of
Coton Manor. She gazed at it anxiously.
"Does it—does it look so very awful?"
"Well—architecturally speaking—no, of course it
doesn't."
"Ah, you're getting used to it. Do you know you'll
have been here a fortnight next Monday?"
About the corners of her mouth and eyes there
played a dawning humor.
"Come, that sounds as if you did want me to go."
"No it doesn't. How could it? If you don't believe
me, here's the proof—you can ride Polly every day if
you'll stop another week."
Another week! Most decidedly she had a sense of
the monstrous humor of the thing. If she could see it
that way she was saved. He had not the heart to kill
that happy mood by a coarse refusal; it would have
been like grinding his heel on some delicate, struggling
thing just lifting its head into life.
Besides, she had really touched him. His legs, as
Miss Tancred had observed, were a little long, otherwise
Durant had the soul and the physique of a tamer of
horses. The sight of Polly filled him with desire that
was agony and rapture; he saw himself controlling the
splendid animal; he could feel her under him, bounding,
quivering, pulsating, he himself made one with
every movement of her nervous, passionate body. It
was too much. Beside that large, full-blooded pleasure,
his scruples showed colorless and light as air.
That happened on a Friday. He had only two clear
days more. He found himself seriously considering the
desirability of staying over Monday.
As ill-luck would have it Saturday was a wet day,
and Durant, instead of riding the mare, was wandering
aimlessly about the house. He had finished all the
books in his bedroom and was badly in want of more.
He knocked up against Frida Tancred in a dark passage,
apologized, and confided in her. As usual she was
sorry for him.
"I'm afraid we haven't many books; but you'll find
some of mine in here." She opened a door as she
spoke, and passed on.
Durant found himself in a room which he had not
yet investigated. It was somewhat bare as to furniture;
it struck strange to his senses as if he had stumbled
into another world; in some occult way it preserved
a tradition of travel and adventure. The bookcase
he came to inspect was flanked by a small cabinet
of coins and curios—Italian, Grecian, Egyptian, and
Japanese; the walls were hung with bad landscapes interspersed
with maps.
One of these, an uncolored map of Europe, attracted
his attention. It was drawn by hand in Indian ink, a
red line and accompanying arrow heads followed the
coast and strung together such inland places as were
marked upon the blank. The line started from Southampton
and reached the Mediterranean by the Bay of
Biscay; it shot inland to the great cities of Italy, returning
always to the sea. It skirted Greece, wound
in and out of the Ionian islands, touched at Constantinople,
ringed the Bosporus and the Black Sea,
wheeled to Moscow and St. Petersburg, and then swept
wildly up the north of Russia to Archangel and the
Arctic Ocean; thence it followed the Scandinavian
coast-line, darted to Iceland, and dipped southward
again to Britain by way of the Hebrides. Off Queenstown
the arrowheads pointed west, winged for the
Atlantic. He found the same red line again on a blank
map of Asia heading for India by China and Japan.
An adventurous, erratic line, whose stages were now
the capitals of the world, and now some unknown
halting-place in the immeasurable waste. And what
on earth did it mean? Was it the record of an actual
journey, or some yet untraveled visionary route?
But it was not these things alone that gave the room
its fantastic and alien air. What dominated the place
was the portrait of a woman, a woman who had Frida's
queer accented eyebrows and Frida's eyes, with some
more fiery and penetrating quality of her own, something
more inimitably fine and foreign. The portrait
(which struck Durant as decidedly clever) was signed
by some unknown Russian artist, and he recognized it
as that of Frida's mother, the lady of the landscapes.
He wondered if it was the demon of ennui that had
driven poor Mrs. Tancred to the practice of her terrible
art, if she had had a spite against Coton Manor,
which she vented by covering its walls with bad pictures.
He turned to the bookcase. Frida's library offered
him an amazing choice of polyglot fiction. It contained
nearly all Balzac and the elder Dumas, Tolstoi and
Turgenieff, Björnsen and Ibsen, besides a great deal
of miscellaneous literature, chiefly Russian and Norwegian.
Here and there he came across some odd volumes
of modern Greek. A whole shelf was devoted to
books of travel; grammars and dictionaries made up
the rest. Miss Tancred's taste in books was a little
outlandish, but it was singularly virile and robust.
He had been prepared to suspect her of a morbid
pedantry, having known more than one lady in her
desperate case who found consolation in the dead languages.
But Miss Tancred betrayed no ghoulish appetites;
if she had a weakness for tongues, she had
also the good taste to prefer them living.
Durant was so much absorbed in these observations
that he did not hear her come into the room.
"Have you found anything you can read?" she
asked.
"I've found a great deal that I can't read. You do
go in strong for languages."
"That's nothing; my mother was a Russian, and
Russians know every language better than their own.
I don't know more than seven besides mine. And I
can only read and write them. They will never be any
use to me."
"How can you tell what may be of use to you? Even
Mrs. Fazakerly, or I?" Durant was anxious to give a
playful turn to that remarkable discussion they once
had; he thus hoped to set the tone for all future conversations
with Miss Tancred. "I admit that you can't
live on languages, they are not exactly safety-valves
for the emotions; nobody can swear in more than three
of them at a time. I think music's better. Instead
of playing whist you ought to play Chopin."
"It's better to play whist well than Chopin badly."
"Better to rule in Hades than fool in the other place,
you think? Miss Tancred, you are as proud as Lucifer."
"I don't see that any good is got by murdering the
masters."
"It saves some women from worse crimes, I believe.
Why didn't you take to sketching, then? That only
kills time."
Miss Tancred was splendid in her scorn. "Kill time
with painting bad pictures? I'd rather time killed me."
Ah, that was what he liked about her. She had not
revenged herself on Nature by making hideous caricatures
of Nature's face; she did not draw in milk-and-water
colors, and she did not strum. She had
none of the exasperating talents, the ludicrous ambitions
of the amateur; she was altogether innocent of
intellectual vanity.
"That reminds me," said she, "that I've seen nothing
of those wonderful sketches you said you'd show me."
He had clean forgotten the things. Well, he could
hardly do better than exhibit them; it would keep her
quiet, and save him from perilous personalities.
At first he thought the exhibition was going to give
her more pain than pleasure. He sat beside her, and
she took the sketches from him gingerly, one by one,
and looked at them without a word. A visible nervousness
possessed her; her pulses clamored, she seemed to
struggle with her own unsteady breathing. Once, when
in the transfer of a drawing her hand brushed against
his, she drew it back again as if it had dashed against
a flame. Durant had noticed once or twice before that
she avoided his touch.
Suddenly she awoke out of the agony of her consciousness.
One picture had held her longer than the
rest.
"It's beautiful—beautiful," she murmured.
"I'm glad you like it," said Durant, pleased at her
first sign of admiration.
"Oh, I don't mean your picture—I mean the place."
"It's not a very good picture perhaps——"
"I don't know whether it's good or bad; it seems to
me rather bad, though I can't say what's wrong with
it. It looks unfinished."
"It is unfinished, but that's not what's wrong with
it. These are better—better painting."
His hand brushed hers in vain this time. She remained
absorbed. "I don't care two straws about the
painting; they may be masterpieces for all I know; it's
that—that stretch of sand licked by the sea, and the
grass trodden down by the wind—the agony and beauty
and desolation of it——" She laid it down unwillingly,
and took the others from his hand.
"Oh, what's this?"
"A wall in Suza."
"I've never seen anything like that. The light seems
to be moving—soaking into it and streaming out again.
It looks as if it would burn if you touched it."
The artist in him laughed for pure pleasure. "It's
all very well, you know, but they must be infernally
good if they make you feel like that."
"They may be. Have you seen all these things, or
have you done any of them out of your head?"
"Seen them, of course. I never paint 'out of my
head'; I haven't enough imagination."
"Show me more places where you've been. Tell me
about them. You might have done that before."
He obeyed, giving her his experience, his richest and
his best; he drew for her scenes and things, not in their
crude and temporary form, but as they lived for him
and for his art, idealized, eternalized by the imagination
that sees them as parts of the immortal whole;
and yet vivid, individual, drenched with the peculiar
color that made them equally and forever one with the
soul of Maurice Durant. She hardly seemed to heed,
hardly seemed to listen or to follow. She looked as
if hearing were already absorbed in sight.
Durant put a small oil painting into her hand. He
had kept his finest to the last. "If you're fond of the
sea that may please you."
Mid-ocean, the slope and trough of a luminous sea;
in the foreground one smooth, high-bosomed, unbroken
wave, the light flung off from its crest like foam, to
slide down its shoulder like oil on rounded glass. On
the sky-line the white peak of a sail; the whole a heaving
waste of wind and water, light and air. It was a
consummate bit of painting, as nobody knew better
than Maurice Durant.
She looked at it as though she would never be tired
of looking. A sudden impulse seized him, a blind
instinct to give pleasure at any cost, to make amends
for pain.
"If you honestly like it, I wish you'd keep it."
"Keep it? Keep it? Do you really mean it?"
"It would give me pleasure if you would."
"But isn't—might it not be valuable?"
It was valuable, as Durant reflected somewhat regretfully,
but he answered well. "Valuable chiefly to me,
I fancy. Which is all the more reason, if you like
it——"
"Like it? I should lo——" She drew back her
breath. "No; I think I'd better not. Thank you very
much, all the same." She laid the canvas down with
a gesture of renunciation.
"Now that's foolish. Why ever won't you?"
"I daren't. I daren't live with it. It would remind
me of all the things I want to forget."
"What things?" He felt that the question was cruel,
it was probing the very heart of pain. But his curiosity
was too strong. The fountains of the deep were
breaking up; he knew that he had only to give the
word to witness an astounding transformation of the
woman. He had given the word. Her face was changing;
it had taken on the likeness of her foreign mother,
intensified in its subtlety and fire.
"What things? The things I want to do and can't;
the things I want to see—the things——" She stopped.
"Do you know, I don't even like to have those sketches
of my mother's hanging about; they haunt me so intolerably,
they tempt me to that degree that sometimes
I can hardly bear to look at them."
He glanced at the drawings. He could hardly bear
to look at them either. Poor wraiths and skeletons of
landscapes, he would have thought them too fleshless
and bloodless to touch even the ghost of longing.
She took up the picture she had just laid down.
"But this—it's not painting, it's real; it's a piece torn
out of the living world. It would bring it so horribly
near me—don't you see?"
He thought he saw. He looked, and she lowered her
eyelids. On to the slope of his wave there splashed a
tear, salt to the salt.
She got up, turned away from him, and leaned
against the window frame, staring out at the gravel
walk, the lawn, the paddock, all the sedate, intolerable
scene. Her breast heaved; she was shaken by a tumult
of vision and desire.
"If only I could get away—get away from this!"
It was not she that cried out, but some other self,
unacknowledged and unappeased, smothered and
crushed and hidden out of sight.
Durant was moved by the revelation, and a little
frightened, too.
"And why not get away?" he asked gently.
"Because I can't do anything like other people, by
bits and halves. If I once go, I shall never come back—never.
There's no use thinking about it. I've
thought about it till I could have gone mad." She
faced him bravely. "Mr. Durant, if you ever want a
thing as badly as I want that, let me tell you that it
will be simpler and easier to give it up altogether, for
always, than to keep on looking at it and touching it
and letting it go."
"Do you apply that principle to everything?"
"Nearly everything."
"H'm. Uncompromising. Yet I doubt if you are
wise."
"Wise? Isn't it wiser to stand a little hunger than
to go back to starvation after luxury?"
"Oh, of course; at that rate you can bring your soul
down to a straw a day. But in the end, you know, it
dies."
"If it comes to that, mine was dead ages ago, and
buried quite decently, too. I think we won't dig it up
again; by this time it might not look pretty."
At any other time she would have alienated his
sympathy by that nasty speech; it was the sort of
thing he hated women to say. But he forgave her because
of her evident sincerity.
She dried her eyes and left him to his own reflections.
So this was Frida Tancred? And he had thought of
her as the Colonel's daughter, a poor creature, subdued
to the tyranny of habit. Habit indeed! She had never
known even that comparative calm. It was not habit
that had bound her to that dreadful old man, who was
the father of her body, but with whom her soul recognized
no kinship. Her life must have been an agony
of self-renunciation, an eternal effort not to be.
He doubted her wisdom; but he was not sure that he
did not admire her courage. That uncompromising
attitude was more dignified than the hesitations of
weaker natures. When women set out with the bold
intention of living resolutely in the Whole, the Good,
and the Beautiful, they sometimes find themselves
brought up sharply midway at the threshold of the
Good; and there they stand vacillating all the time, or
at the most content themselves now and then with a
terrified rush for the Beautiful and the Whole. They
are fascinated by all three and faithful to none. Frida
Tancred scorned their fatuous procedure. Balked of
the best, she would never console herself with half-measures
and the second best; as for all lesser values,
there was something in her which would always mark
her from Mrs. Fazakerly and her kind. With Frida it
was either the whole or nothing; either four bare walls
or the open road where there is no returning.
She would go no way where the Colonel could not
follow.
Durant, on his way to bed that night, saw something
that told him so much. Father and daughter
stood with their backs to him at the end of the long
corridor. The Colonel was putting out the lights.
Frida had just nodded good night to him at her bedroom
door, when she turned impetuously and flung her
arms round the little gentleman. She pressed his head
against her neck and held it there an instant, a passion
of remorse and tenderness in the belated caress. The
Colonel was, as it were, taken off his feet; he was visibly
embarrassed. Durant saw his eyes staring over
her shoulder, in their profound stupidity helpless and
uncomprehending.
It was Sunday afternoon, and they had been taking
tea with Mrs. Fazakerly. This was the second time
that Durant had had the opportunity of studying
Mrs. Fazakerly at home, of filling in the little figure
on its own appropriate background. The first thing
that struck him was that the background was not appropriate,
or rather that it was inadequate. Mrs.
Fazakerly's drawing-room had an air of uneasy elegance,
of appearances painfully supported on the thin
edge of two hundred a year. It was furnished with a
too conspicuous care; the most insignificant details
were arranged so as to lead up to and set off her good
things, which were few and far between. There was
no rest in it for the eye that was perpetually seized
and riveted on some bit of old silver, or Oriental drapery,
some Chippendale cabinet or chair. Such things
were the commonplaces of Coton Manor, and there
they fell unobtrusively into their place. Here they
were touched up and handled, posed out of all simplicity;
they bore themselves accordingly with a shining
consciousness of their own rarity; they made an
unblushing bid for praise. In Mrs. Fazakerly's drawing-room
the note of taste was forced.
The invitation had come as a sort of farewell attention
to Durant. Its valedictory character was further
emphasized by Mrs. Fazakerly's proposing to walk
home with them, and finally falling into the rear with
Durant.
As a turn in the drive brought them within sight
of Coton Manor, Mrs. Fazakerly balanced her pince-nez
on the bridge of her nose. It remained there, and
he judged that Mrs. Fazakerly was in no mood for
mirth.
"That house," said Mrs. Fazakerly, "annoys me."
"Why?"
"Because it hasn't had justice done to it."
"I should have thought that was a ground for pity
rather than resentment."
Mrs. Fazakerly shrugged her shoulders ever so little.
"That drawing-room—did you ever see anything like
it? And such possibilities in it, too. I can't bear to
think of all those beautiful things wasted, just for want
of a little taste, a little arrangement—the right touch."
The widow's white fingers twitched. It was not
vulgar cupidity; it was the passion of the born genius,
of the lover of art for art's sake, who sees his opportunity
given into the hands of an inferior. If only
she had the ordering, the decoration of Coton Manor!
Durant thought of the cottage at the gates, her
cramped and humble sphere; it was not her fault so
much as the defect of her instrument, that forcing of
the note of taste; no wonder that she longed for the
rich harmonies of Coton Manor under "the right
touch," the touch of the master.
She continued, "But poor dear Miss Tancred, you
know, she will have it left just as it was in Mrs.
Tancred's time; she won't change a picture or a chair
in it. That's Frida all over. She's made that house
a monument to her mother's memory. And think
what she might have made it."
"I'm thinking what she might have made of her
life. She seems to be making that a monument to her
father's memory."
"Ah! and the things she could have done with it."
Impossible to say whether Mrs. Fazakerly referred
to Miss Tancred's house or her life. Durant smiled
at her probable conception of Coton Manor, with its
tragedy of splendid possibilities gone to waste; but
Mrs. Fazakerly's idea cut both ways.
She sighed wearily.
"These drives were not made to be walked up.
There's another mile and a half of it, and I'm half-dead
already. I shall sit down."
She led the way to an elm tree fallen in the grass,
examined it critically, sat down, and made a place for
him at her side.
"So you're going to-morrow? Is that so?"
"It is—probably."
"It's a pity—just as you and Miss Tancred have
made friends."
"The best of friends must part," said he lightly.
"Yes. Well, I'm glad you've managed to be nice
to her, after all. She's come out in the most astonishing
manner since you came. What have you been
doing to her?"
"I've done nothing to her, I assure you."
"Ah, you mean you've not been making love to her."
"I don't mean anything of the sort."
Durant was angry. It was borne in upon him that
Mrs. Fazakerly was vulgar, after all. She looked at
him, and her pince-nez balanced itself on the bridge
of her nose, then leapt its suicidal leap. She was
amused with the ambiguity of his reply.
"That's all right. Heaven help the man who does
make love to her, if he means it. That girl's a riddle
to me. I used to think she cared a little for her father;
but it's my belief that Frida Tancred cares for nobody,
not even herself. She simply doesn't know what love
is, and she doesn't want to know. Why am I saying
these alarming things to you? I'm saying them because
I'm old enough to be your mother, and because
I like you. You're clever, and you've got a sense of
humor, too, though I can't say it's been much use
to you since you came here. But, with all your cleverness,
you'll never understand Frida Tancred. She's not
like other women, the sort you've flirted with so much.
Don't tell me you haven't; for you have. She can't
help it. Her mother was a queer fantastic creature,
and Frida's just like her, only stronger, much stronger,
and deeper, which makes it worse. I'm sorry for her,
because you see I'm very fond of her, and I think
there's nothing—positively nothing—I wouldn't do to
help her."
"It's an intolerable existence for her."
"Intolerable? Ah, my dear Mr. Durant, you're delightfully
young; so is Frida, though you mightn't
think it; and you young people are all so tragic.
Frida's absurd about her father; she's always been
going about with that face of hers, playing at being
Antigone, and as the poor, dear Colonel is as blind as
What's-his-name? he naturally doesn't see it. She's
brought it all on herself. She looks on her father as
her fate, and treats him accordingly—in the grand
style—and it doesn't suit him. What a subject like
the Colonel wants is a light touch. With me, for instance,
he's a dear."
"Is he? I thought he rather bored you," said Durant
maliciously.
"When did you think that? Oh, that first night
when we all laughed so much, except poor Frida. I
wasn't bored—not a bit; on the contrary, I was
amused at the expression of your face, and at your
atrocious manners and still more atrocious puns. Nothing
ever bores me. It's only you young people who let
yourselves be bored. Tragedy again. Too much tragedy
for my taste."
Mrs. Fazakerly paused to let her communications
sink in and take root. There was a deep hush on the
landscape, as if in deference to her awful confidences.
A deer stood knee-deep in the grass and gazed at them
inquiringly. And as Mrs. Fazakerly stared unabashed
into the face of Nature, Durant thought of Frida's
remark, and wondered if she found it "soothing."
"Mind you, I don't mean to say that she's cold. On
the contrary, I believe she's capable of a tremendous
passion for something—I don't quite know what. It
might be a person,"—she rose—"but let me tell you it's
much more likely to be a thing."
They were talking quite innocently about art and
literature when they appeared at the house.
Durant vainly tried to unravel the possible motives
for her confidence. They were so many and so mixed.
It was possible that she honestly suspected him of a
dawning passion for Frida and that she meant to
warn him of the hopelessness of such an attachment;
apparently she understood her friend. Or the conversation
may have been designed as an apology for her
own future conduct. Durant knew that she would not
refuse to marry Colonel Tancred if he made the offer;
he knew, or thought he knew, her inmost opinion of
that ridiculous person. She must be aware that her
own dignity was considerably compromised by the situation;
perhaps she hoped by rehabilitating the Colonel's
behavior to justify her own. But why that insistence
on the enigma of Frida Tancred's? Why this
superfluous and elaborate cover for her own very
simple meaning?
Unless, indeed, she was not quite so simple as she
seemed. In courtship the Colonel had shown himself
vacillating, to say the least of it. If Mrs. Fazakerly
wanted to bring him to the point it was obviously her
interest to get Miss Tancred out of her way. In other
words, to throw her in Durant's way. His delicacy
shrank from the baseness of this conjecture, but his
reason, as well as his experience, suggested that the
thing was not impossible. Mrs. Fazakerly had been
studying him, and she was shrewd enough to see that
the surest way to interest him in Miss Tancred was to
set his intellect to work on her. She had doubtless
observed his fin de siècle contempt for the obvious, his
passion for the thing beyond his grasp, his worship of
the far-fetched, the intangible, the obscure. Thus she
thought to inflame his curiosity by hinting that Frida
Tancred was incomprehensible, while she touched the
very soul of desire by representing her as unattainable.
All this was no doubt very clever of Mrs. Fazakerly;
but it was not quite what he had expected of her.
His suspicions were confirmed by Frida's behavior.
Ever since their last interview she had relapsed into
something like her former reticence. To-night, as if
she had an inkling of the atrocious plot, she avoided
him with a sort of terror.
Durant's time was up, but the Colonel had pressed
him to stay another week. He was affectionate; he
was firm; he would take no refusal. He dwelt on the
advantages of a prolonged visit. "A little change,"
said he, "does us all good. You young fellows are apt
to get into a groove. But you seem brighter since you
came. I think we've shaken you up a bit."
Indeed, at no time had there been room for any
doubt as to the sincerity of his welcome. Though he
was so determined to shake Durant up, to get him out
of his groove, and give him fresh ideas, he betrayed a
pitiable dependence on the young fellow. He endeavored
to meet youth on its own ground; he made piteous
experiments in the frivolous. More than once Durant
had suspected that the poor gentleman had asked him
down as a protection from the terrors of his own
society. His intellectual resources were evidently giving
out. The barometer was stationary; a fortnight's
almost persistent sunshine had dried up the source of
ideas. Having gutted the Nineteenth Century, his
mind seemed to be impotently raging for fresh matter
to destroy. He repeated himself eternally; the same
phrases were always in his mouth. "A fad, a theory,
a name for ignorance." "Don't tell me; it's an insult
to my intelligence!" Durant could have been sorry
for him if he had not been so infinitely sorry for
himself.
On Monday morning Frida Tancred was herself
again; not her old self, but the new one that Durant
had learned to know and tolerate. She sought him
out after breakfast and seconded the Colonel's invitation.
"If you could possibly stop, Mr. Durant, I wish you
would. I'm asking a favor. My cousin, Georgie Chatterton,
is coming down on Wednesday to stay. I don't
know how long. I've never seen her before, and she's
a young girl."
Frida's voice expressed a certain horror.
"Well, what of that?"
"If there's one thing on earth that I'm afraid of, it's
a young girl. If you could only stay on just to amuse
her a little, to help her through her first week! You
see, it'll be so desperately dull for her if you don't."
He laughed; there was no other way of responding
to the naïveté of the request.
"It doesn't really seem fair to ask her when she
hasn't an idea—I can't think why father did it. Perhaps
he didn't. It's odd, but I've noticed that, when
anything like this happens, Mrs. Fazakerly is always
at the bottom of it."
Another lurid light on Mrs. Fazakerly!
"Was Mrs. Fazakerly at the bottom of his asking
me?"
She smiled. "To tell you the honest truth, she was.
Not but what he is delighted to have you here. I
don't know when I've seen him so happy, so interested
in anyone. But, you see, he's fearfully conservative;
he can't bear to take the first step in anything."
He saw. The Colonel might be as conservative as
he pleased; but the old order was changing; Coton
Manor was on the eve of a revolution. He saw it all
clearly, that deep-laid plot of Mrs. Fazakerly's. He
had been asked down at her suggestion to keep Frida
Tancred out of the way for the moment, or, better still,
forever. He had not risen to the occasion; his time
was up, so Miss Chatterton was to be invited to take
his place. Yet, when he came to think of it, so simple
a scheme, the mere substitution of one cat's paw for
another, hardly did justice to Mrs. Fazakerly's imagination.
Was she still convinced of his dawning passion
for Miss Tancred? Had she doubts as to Miss
Tancred's willingness or power to return it? and had
she suggested that he should be pressed to prolong his
stay in the hope that the rival presence of the young
girl would act as the spark that fires the mine, kindling
Miss Tancred's emotions and revealing her to herself?
Meanwhile Miss Tancred's one idea was to make use
of him, to hand over the young girl to him and be rid
of her. Her former offer of the black mare on the
condition that he stayed another week appeared now
as a grim jest, a cynical wager. This time she was in
earnest. Whereas, if she had been in love with
him——
Weighing these matters in his sensitive brain, Durant
conceived a violent hatred of Mrs. Fazakerly and
her plot, together with a corresponding determination
to stay on, if only to prove to that ingenious lady that
she was hopelessly mistaken. Any hasty movement on
his part would but confirm her in her absurd suspicions,
while his actual flight would be the most flattering
testimony to the profundity of her insight. He was
not going to behave like the victim to a desperate
infatuation for Miss Tancred. He would stay on,
and Mrs. Fazakerly would see that nothing came of
her psychological intrigue.
How far the Colonel was her accomplice he had no
idea. The old fellow was a gentleman when all was
said and done, and it was more than likely that he
contented himself with a gentlemanly acquiescence.
His dignity might possibly not refuse to draw a profit
either way from the transaction. Durant could reckon
on Miss Tancred, having returned to his original opinion
of her. There was not enough womanhood in her
for ordinary elemental jealousy; as for passion, he had
decided that she was as innocent of understanding as
she was incapable of inspiring it. A sentimental coxcomb
might beat a precipitate retreat because he
thought or fancied that his hostess was in love with
him, and he would probably call his ridiculous conduct
chivalry; it was more becoming in a gentleman to
ignore the painful circumstance. For all these reasons
he determined to stay.
His acceptance of their renewed invitation gave evident
pleasure to the Colonel and Miss Tancred and
very little annoyance to himself. He had grown used
to Coton Manor as a prisoner grows used to his cell.
He had, as he had feared, tied himself to the place by
beginning serious work in it. He was too well pleased
with his landscape studies of the neighborhood to leave
them unfinished; and, as it happened, he had plenty
of time to give to them, for the Colonel was pretty
constantly engaged with Mrs. Fazakerly. (Here again
he traced the delicate hand of that lady. She had
seen that, if any guest was to remain at Coton Manor,
a limit must be put to the Colonel's opportunities for
tormenting him.) Durant had ceased to long for distraction;
he was sufficiently entertained by the situation
itself.
If he had been on the lookout for distraction, he
would have found it in Georgie Chatterton. At Miss
Tancred's request he went with her to the station to
meet the expected guest. It was evidently thought
that his presence would break the shock of her arrival.
It proved an unnecessary precaution. The young
girl presented a smiling face at the carriage window—the
Tancred face, somewhat obscured by a mass of
irrelevant detail, sandy hair, freckles, a sanguine complexion,
and so on. She jumped out on to the platform
with a joyous cry of "Fridah!" She embraced
"Fridah" impetuously, and then kept her a moment at
arm's length, examining her dubiously. "You don't
seem a bit glad to see me," was her verdict. She
smiled gaily at Durant, and held out a friendly hand.
All the way up from the station she conversed with
them in a light-hearted manner. Thus:—
"What do you people do down here?"
"Ask Mr. Durant; he'll tell you that we vegetate
all day and play whist all night."
"Oh, do you? Well, you know, I shan't. My goodness,
Frida! is that your house? Whatever is it like?
A Unitarian chapel, or the Carlton Club, or, stop a bit—you
don't bury people in it, do you?" Then, as it
occurred to her that she might have hurt her cousin's
feelings by her last suggestion, she added, "It's rather
a jolly old mausoleum, though. I wonder what it's like
inside."
If Miss Chatterton had any premonition of her own
approaching death by boredom, and had seen in Coton
Manor more than a mere passing resemblance to a
tomb, she was neither awestruck nor downcast at the
prospect of dissolution. She flung herself into the
vault as she had flung herself onto the platform, all
glowing with pleasurable anticipation. To Durant
there was something infinitely sad in the spectacle of
this young creature precipitating herself into the unknown
with such reckless and passionate curiosity.
The whole long evening through he could discover no
diminution of her mood, her gleeful determination to
enjoy herself among the shades. She behaved to
Colonel Tancred as if he had been a celebrity whose
acquaintance she had long desired to make, a character
replete with interest and romantic charm. She
greeted Mrs. Fazakerly with a joyous lifting of the
eyebrows, as much as to say, "What! another delightful
person?"
And she was observant in her way, too. When Miss
Tancred put a hand on her shoulder and said, "It will
be horribly dull for you, Georgie; you'll have nothing
to do but talk to Mr. Durant," she replied, "H'm! Mr.
Durant looks as if he had been talked to all his life.
I shall talk to you, Frida."
All through dinner she managed to preserve her
spirits, her air of being among the most curious and
interesting people. Durant wondered how on earth
she kept it up. She seemed one of those fortunate
beings whose vivacity is so overpowering that it can
subdue even dulness to itself. She made the Colonel
look strangely old; beside her Mrs. Fazakerly seemed
suddenly to become dull and second-rate, to sink into
the position of an attendant, a fatuous chorus, a giddy
satellite. Her laughter swallowed up Mrs. Fazakerly's
as a river in flood devours its tributaries; her spirits
quenched Mrs. Fazakerly's as a blaze licks up a spasmodic
flicker. It pleased Durant to look at her, the
abandonment of her manners was in such flagrant contradiction
with the Roman regularity of her Tancred
face. Owing, perhaps, to some dash of the Tancred
blood in her, she was neither pretty nor witty; yet she
contrived to get her own way with everybody. Durant
accounted for it by her sheer youth, the obstinacy of
her will to live.
In twenty-four hours she had put a stop to Frida's
disappearances, to Durant's sketching, and to the Colonel's
intellectual conversation; and this she did by
behaving so as to make these things impossible. In
short, she had taken possession of her cousin and her
black mare, of the Colonel and his cigarettes, of Mrs.
Fazakerly and her books, of everybody and everything
except Durant. She was friendly with him, but somehow
her friendliness was infinitely more unflattering
than Miss Tancred's former apathy. It implied that
he was all very well in his way, but that she had seen
too many of his sort to be greatly excited about him;
while in Frida Tancred, now, she had found something
absolutely and uniquely new. She was not going to
be put off with Durant; she fastened herself upon
Frida, and refused to let her go; she did the thing she
had said she would do—without absolutely ignoring
her fellow-guest, she talked to Frida or at Frida or for
Frida alone. And yet, strangely enough, by dint of
much observation she had detected a subtle resemblance
between them, and she proclaimed her discovery
with her natural frankness.
It was the second evening of her stay, and the three
were sitting out on the lawn together. She had been
looking long and earnestly at her mysterious kinswoman.
"Frida, you really are a sort of cousin, aren't you?"
"So I've always been told."
"And Mr. Durant, is he a sort of cousin, too?"
"I never heard that."
"I'm afraid I have not the honor."
"That's odd. I thought he must be."
"Why?" asked Miss Tancred.
"Oh, because there's a likeness somewhere. Not in
the face exactly, but—yes, there! Keep that expression
on your face one minute, Mr. Durant; now don't
you see it?"
"See what?"
"It—the likeness. He looks terribly reserved somehow—a
sort of wild-horses-shan't-draw-it-out-of-me
expression, and yet so fearfully restless; and that's just
like you."
There was an embarrassed silence; and then Miss
Chatterton again raised her cheerful voice.
"I say, Frida! you might tell me exactly what I'm
in for. Are you two going to be horribly intellectual
and clever and that sort of thing?"
"I'm not," said Miss Tancred.
"I'm not," echoed Durant.
"Thank Heaven! Because you both look as if you'd
a tremendous lot in you. I wonder if you'll ever let
it out."
"Not if we can help it," said Durant.
"There you are again! If you're not Frida's first
cousin, you ought to be."
Durant smiled; he wondered whether the idea was
more than the random frolicking of Miss Chatterton's
brain. She was evidently a young woman of perception;
but her perceptions had wings, and she threw
them off from her in a manner altogether spontaneous,
impersonal and free. It was nothing to her if they
brushed against the truth sometimes in their irresponsible
flight.
"You don't mind all these personal remarks, do
you?"
"Not in the least," said Miss Tancred.
"For my part I rather like them," said Durant; but
they both carefully avoided each other's eyes.
Durant had a grievance against Miss Chatterton.
He had been induced to lengthen his visit in order to
entertain her, and Miss Chatterton refused to be entertained.
His position at Coton Manor had thus become
a humiliating sinecure. There was no earthly reason
why he should stay any longer, and yet he stayed.
The fact was, that by this time he was really interested
in other things beside the landscape. He had
wondered how long Miss Chatterton would keep it up.
He watched her, as one haunted guest watches another,
to know if she too has seen the specter of the
house, observing her manner and her appetite at
breakfast, the expression of her face at bedtime, her
voice in saying good-morning and good-night. On the
third day he thought he could detect a slight flagging;
Miss Chatterton was a shade less buoyant, less talkative
than before. By the evening she was positively
serious, and he judged that the iron had entered into
her soul. Her manner to her cousin had changed; it
was more tentative, more tender, more maternal. She
had begun to pity Frida, as he had pitied her.
The two were inseparable; they were always putting
their heads together, always exchanging confidences.
And it was not only confidences but characters
that they exchanged. It was a positive fact that
as Miss Chatterton flagged Miss Tancred revived, she
seemed to be actually growing young while the young
girl grew older. Not that Miss Tancred grew young
without difficulty; the life she had led was against
that. She looked like a woman recovering from a
severe illness, she suffered relapse after relapse, she
went about in a flush and fever of convalescence; it
was a struggle for health under desperate conditions,
the agony of a strong constitution still battling with
the atmosphere that poisoned it, recovery simulating
disease, disease counterfeiting recovery.
A wholesome process, no doubt, but decidedly unpleasant
to watch. Durant, however, had very little
opportunity for watching it, as he was now left completely
to himself. Miss Tancred's manner intimated
that she had done with him,—put him away in some
dark cupboard of the soul, like a once desired and
now dreaded stimulant,—that she was trusting to other
and safer means for building up her strength. If
Durant had ever longed for solitude, he had more than
enough of it now, and he devoted the rest of his time
to finishing the studies and sketches he had begun.
He had made none of Miss Tancred.
One morning he had pitched his umbrella and his
easel below a ridge on the far slope of the fir plantation.
A thorn bush sheltered him from the wind and
made him invisible from the terrace of grass above
him.
He had emerged from a fit of more than usual absorption
when he felt the stir of footsteps in the grass,
and a voice rang out clear from the terrace.
"If it would only make papa happy. I want him
to be happy."
Durant could not help but overhear, his senses
being sharpened by the dread of hearing.
"My poor child" (it was the young girl who spoke),
"you don't know what you want; but you want something
more than that."
Durant rattled his color-box in desperation, but the
women were too much absorbed to heed his warning,
and Frida even raised her voice in answering:
"Yes, I'm afraid I do want something more. I know
what you're thinking, Georgie. When women of my
age go on like this it generally means that they're in
love, or that they want to be married, or both."
Durant was considering the propriety of bursting
out on them noisily from the cover of his umbrella,
but before he could decide the point Miss Tancred had
continued:
"I am not in love."
She spoke in the tone of one stating an extremely
uninteresting fact.
"You are in love, Frida. You're in love with life,
and life won't have anything to do with you; it's
thrown you over, and a beastly shame, too! You're
simply dying for love of it, my sweetheart."
Frida did not deny the accusation. They passed on,
and in the silence Durant could hear their skirts as
they brushed the thorn bush. He could only pray
now that he might remain invisible.
He felt rather than saw that they turned their heads
in passing.
"Do you think he heard?"
This time it was Miss Chatterton who raised her
voice.
"It doesn't matter if he did. He's not a fool, whatever
else he is."
Durant overlooked that flattering tribute to himself
in his admiration of Miss Chatterton's masterly analysis
and comprehension. She had, so to speak, taken
Frida Tancred to pieces and put her together again in
a phrase—"Dying for love of life." Beside her luminous
intuition his own more logical method seemed
clumsy and roundabout, a constructive process riddled
by dangerous fallacies and undermined by monstrous
assumptions. At the same time he persisted in returning
to one of these, the most monstrous, perhaps, of
all. In spite, perhaps because, of her flat denial, he
pictured Frida not only as mysteriously in love with
existence, but with a certain humble spectator of existence.
According to the view he had once expounded
to her the two passions were inseparable.
Before very long he received a new light on the
subject. It was his last day, the two cousins were
together somewhere, the Colonel was in bed with a
bilious attack, and Durant was alone in the drawing-room.
He had not been alone long before Miss Chatterton
appeared. She came into the room with an air of
determination and sat down beside him. She went
straight to her point, a very prickly one; there was
no beating about the thorn bush with Miss Chatterton.
"Mr. Durant," said she, "I want to talk to you—for
once. When you first came here what did you think
of Miss Tancred?"
"I'm afraid I didn't think anything of Miss Tancred."
"Did you dislike her?"
"N-no. I only found her a little difficult to talk to."
"Oh. Well, that's not what I came to consult you
about. I want you to help me. I am going to
elope——"
"You don't mean to say so——"
"To elope with Miss Tancred—run away with her—take
her out of this. It's the only way."
"The only way to what?"
"To save her. But I shall do nothing rash, nothing
that would cause a scandal in the county. I shall
simply take her up to town with me when I go back
on Monday. My week isn't up; but—well—my temper
is. So far it's all open and aboveboard——"
"Yes—yes. And where do I come in?"
"Oh, you—if you wouldn't mind staying where you
are and keeping the Colonel in play till we've got safe
across the Channel——"
"The Channel?"
"The Channel, my friend. Where else should we
be safe?"
"That means that I've got to stick here till——"
"Till Wednesday."
"Good heavens! Another week! Not if I know it."
"Yes; it's awful, I know; but not as bad as it might
have been. You won't have to talk to Miss Tancred.
By the way, she says you are the only man who ever
tried to talk to her—to understand her. What a dreadful
light on her past! Think what her life must have
been."
"Not very amusing, I imagine."
"Amusing! Think of it. Thirty years in this hole,
where you can't breathe, and without a soul to speak
to except the Colonel. Not that the Colonel is a soul—he's
much too dense."
"To be anything but a body?"
"And all the time she has loathed it—loathed it.
You see, she's got cosmopolitan blood in her veins.
Her mother—you know about her mother?"
"I know nothing about her except that she did a
great many bad things—I mean pictures—for which I
hope Heaven may forgive her."
"Don't be brutal. She's dead now and can't do any
more. When she was alive she was a Russian or a
Pole or something funny, and mad on traveling, always
going from one place to another—a regular rolling
stone; till one day she rolled up to the Colonel's feet,
and then——"
"Well?"
"He picked her up and put her in his pocket, and
she never rolled any further. He packed her off to
England and made her sit in this dreadful old family
seat of his till she died of it. That's the sort of
woman Miss Tancred's mother was, and Miss Tancred
takes after her mother. She's a cosmopolitan, too."
"Rubbish! No woman can be a cosmopolitan." He
said it in the same tone in which he had told Frida
that no woman could have a pure passion for Nature.
"And Miss Tancred, though nice, strikes me as peculiarly
provincial. I shouldn't have thought——"
"There are things in her you'd never have thought
of. It's wonderful how she comes out when you know
her."
"She certainly has come out wonderfully since you
came on the scene." (The words he used had a familiar
ring. It was exactly what Mrs. Fazakerly had
said to him.)
"I? I've not had anything to do with it. It was
you; she told me. It wasn't just that you understood
her; you made her understand herself; you made her
feel; you stirred up all the passion in her."
"I don't understand you," he said coldly.
"Well, I think if you can understand Miss Tancred
you might understand me. Compared with Frida I'm
simplicity itself."
"When did I do these things?"
"Why, when you told her to let herself go. When
you showed her your sketches and talked to her about
the places, and the sea, all the things you had seen; the
things she had dreamed of and never seen."
The young girl spoke as if she was indignant with
him for reveling in opportunities that were Frida's by
right.
"But she shall see them. She shall go away from
this, and be herself and nobody else in the world."
"It's too late—it's not as if she were young."
"Young? She's a good deal younger than I am,
though she's thirty and I'm twenty-four—twenty-five
next September. Frida's young because she's got the
body of a woman, the mind of a man, and the soul of
a baby. She'll begin where other women end, will
Frida. Wait till she's been abroad with me, and you'll
see how her soul will come on, in a more congenial
climate."
"Where are you going?"
"We're going everywhere. Venice—Rome—Florence—the
Mediterranean—the regular thing. And to
all sorts of queer outlandish places besides—Scandinavia,
the Hebrides, and Iceland; everywhere that you
can go to by sea. The sea——That's you again."
"The deuce it is! I doubt if I've done the kind
thing, then. I seem to have roused passions which
will never be satisfied. When she comes back——"
Miss Chatterton's voice sank. "She never will come
back."
"Never? How about the Colonel?"
Miss Chatterton smiled. "That's the beauty of it.
It's the neatest, sweetest, completest little plot that
ever was invented, and it's simplicity itself, like its
inventor—that's me. I suppose you know all about
Mrs. Fazakerly?"
"Well, not all. Who could know all about Mrs.
Fazakerly?"
"You know enough, I daresay. By taking her away—I
mean Frida—we force the Colonel's hand."
"You might explain."
"I never saw a man who wanted so many things
explained. Don't you see that, as long as Frida stays
at home, petting and pampering him and doing all his
work for him, he'll never take the trouble to marry;
but as soon as she goes away, and stays away——"
"I see, I see; he marries. You force his hand—and
heart."
"Exactly. And, if he marries, Frida stays away altogether.
She's free."
"Yes; she's free. If she goes; but she'll never go."
"Won't she? She's going next Monday. It's all
arranged. I've told her that she's in her father's way,
that he wants to marry, and keeps single for her sake.
And she believes it."
He walked up and down with his hands in his pockets,
a prey to bewildering emotions.
"It's ingenious and delightful, your plot," said he.
"But I can't say that I grasp all the minutiæ, the practical
details. For instance (it's a brutal question, but),
who's going to provide the—the funds for this expedition
to Scandinavia—or was it Abyssinia?"
"Funds? Oh, that's all right. She's got any amount
of her own, though you wouldn't know it."
"I didn't know it." He champed his upper lip. He
could not in the least account for the feeling, but he
was bitterly, basely disappointed at this last revelation.
Miss Tancred was independent. Up till now he
could not bring himself to believe in her flight; he did
not want to believe in it; it would have been a relief
to him to know that the strange bird's wings were
clipped.
"It was her mother's; what the poor lady traveled
on, I suppose. Frida might have been enjoying it all
the time, only, you see, there was the Colonel. That's
why she wants him to marry Mrs. Fazakerly, though
she'd rather die than own it."
"Why shouldn't she own it?"
"Because she can't trust her motives, trust herself.
I never saw a woman fight so shy of herself."
"Then that's what she was thinking of when she
said she was afraid of her own feelings."
"Oh! So she did say it, did she?"
"She said that or something very like it. You think
that's what she must have meant?" He appealed to
her humbly, as to one who had mastered the difficult
subject of Frida Tancred.
"Why, whatever else could she have meant, stupid?"
There was an awkward silence, broken, or rather
mended, by Miss Chatterton saying, as she stood with
her hand on the door:
"Look here, you're not going to back out of it.
You've promised to stand by and see us through with
it, honor bright."
"I promised nothing of the sort, but I'll stand by
all right."
"You may have a bad time. The Colonel will kick
up an awful fuss; but remember, you're not in the least
responsible. I'm the criminal."
It was as if she had said, "Don't exaggerate your
importance. I, not you, am Miss Tancred's savior and
deliverer."
He stiffened visibly. "I shall not quarrel with you
for the rôle."
Monday was the day of the great deliverance, the
day that was fixed for Frida Tancred's flight. And, as
if it meant to mark an era and a hegira and the beginning
of revolution, it distinguished itself from other
days by suitable signs and portents. It dawned
through a brooding haze that threatened heat, then
changed its mind, thickened and massed itself for
storm. While he was dressing, Durant was made aware
of the meteorological disturbance by an incessant tap-tap
on the barometer as the Colonel consulted his
oracle in the hall. The official announcement was
made at breakfast.
"There is a change in the glass," said the Colonel.
"Mr. Durant brought the fine weather with him and
Miss Chatterton is taking it away."
"I'm taking something else away beside the weather,"
said she.
But the spirit of prophecy was upon him.
"To judge by to-day's forecast, I think we shall see
Frida back again before the fine weather."
Whereupon Durant smiled and Miss Chatterton
laughed, which gave him an agreeable sense of being
witty as well as prophetic.
By ten o'clock the hand of the barometer had crept
far past "Change"; by noon it had swung violently to
"Stormy, with much rain"; by lunchtime a constrained
and awkward dialogue was broken by the rude voice
of the thunder. The Colonel took out his watch, timed
the thunder and lightning, and calculated the approaches
of the storm. "Seven miles away from us at
present," said he.
It hung so low that the growling and groaning
seemed to come from the woods round Coton Manor;
the landscape darkened to a metallic purplish green,
then paled to the livid color of jade under a sallow
sky. There was a swift succession of transformation
scenes, when, between the bursts of thunder, the park,
swathed in sheet lightning, shot up behind the windows,
now blue, now amethyst, now rose, now green.
Then the storm suddenly shifted its quarters and broke
through a rampart of solid darkness piled high in the
southwest.
"Fifteen seconds," said the Colonel, "between that
flash and the thunder."
Among these phenomena the Colonel moved like a
little gentleman enchanted; he darted to and fro, and
in and out, as if the elements were his natural home;
his hurried notes in the little memorandum book outsped
the lightning. For the last thirty years there had
not been such weather in the meteorological history of
Wickshire.
But the storm was only in its playful infancy; the
forked lightning and the rain were yet to come. The
last train up, timed to meet the express at the junction,
left Whithorn-in-Arden at 3.10, and it was a good
hour's drive to the station. As they toyed with the
lightning on their plates Durant and Miss Chatterton
looked at Frida. Fate, the weather, and the Colonel,
a trinity of hostile powers, were arrayed against her,
and the three were one.
At the stroke of two the Colonel remarked blandly,
"There will be no driving to the station to-day, so I
have countermanded the brougham."
They were dressed ready for the journey, and, as the
Colonel spoke Frida got up, drew down her veil and
put on her gloves.
"That was a pity," she said quietly, "seeing that
we've got to go."
The Colonel was blander than ever; he waved his
hand. "Go, by all means," said he, "but not in my
brougham. There I put my foot down."
("Not there, not there, oh, gallant Colonel," said
Durant to himself, "but where you have always put it,
on Frida's lovely neck.")
She started, looked steadily at her father, then, to
Durant's surprise, she shrugged her shoulders; not as
an Englishwoman shrugs them, but in the graceful
Continental manner. The movement suggested that
the foreign strain in her was dominant at the moment;
it further implied that she was shaking her neck free
from the Colonel's foot. She walked to the window
and looked out upon the storm. With the neck
strained slightly forward, her nostrils quivering, her
whole figure eager and lean and tense, she looked like
some fine and nervous animal, say a deerhound ready
to slip from the leash.
As she looked there was a sound as if heaven were
ripped asunder, and the forked lightning hurled itself
from that dark rampart in the southwest and went
zig-zagging against the pane. "Only ten seconds," said
the Colonel; "the storm is bursting right over our
heads."
Frida too had consulted her watch; she turned suddenly,
rang the bell, and gave orders to a trembling
footman. "Tell Randall to put Polly in the dogcart.
He must drive to the station at once."
The answer came back from the stables that Randall
had shut himself into the loose box and covered
himself with straw, "to keep the lightning off of him.
He dursn't go near a steel bit, not if it was to save
his life, m'm, and as for driving to the station——"
It was too true; Randall, horse-breaker, groom and
coachman, excellent, invaluable creature at all other
times, was a brainless coward in a thunderstorm.
"If we don't go to-day, we can't go till to-morrow,"
said Georgie Chatterton, and she nodded at Durant
to remind him that in that case his departure would
be postponed till Thursday.
Frida too turned toward him. "If I don't go to-day,
I shall never go."
He understood. She was afraid, afraid of what
might come between her and her deliverance, afraid
of her fate, afraid of the conscience that was her will,
afraid of her own fear, of the terror that would come
upon her when she realized the full meaning of her
lust for life. To-morrow any or all of those things
might turn her from the way; to-day she was strong;
she held her life in her two hands. At any rate, she
was not afraid of the weather. She would go straight
to her end, through rain and lightning and thunderbolts
and all the blue and yellow demons of the sky.
"Are you afraid, Georgie?"
"Of thunder and lightning?" asked Georgie pointedly.
"No."
"All right, then. We've got forty-five minutes. I
must put Polly into the cart myself. Five for that;
forty to get to the station."
She strode off to the stables, followed by the footman
and Durant. Among them they forced Polly into
the trap, and led her dancing to the porch, where Miss
Chatterton stood, prepared for all weathers.
"I say," cried she, "this is all very well; but who's
going to drive Polly there and back again?"
"I am," said Durant calmly. He had caught a furtive
flash from Frida's eyes that lighted upon, glanced
off him and fell to the ground. The woman in her
had appealed to his chivalry. At the same instant
there was a swish, as if the skirts of heaven were trailing
across the earth, and the rain came down. He
hastily thrust Miss Tancred's arms into the sleeves of
her mackintosh and wriggled into his own. The final
speeches were short and to the point.
"Mr. Durant," said Miss Chatterton, "you are a
hero."
"Frida," said the Colonel, "you are a fool." And
for once Durant was inclined to agree with him. The
more so as Miss Tancred took advantage of his engagement
with his mackintosh to enthrone herself on
the driver's high seat. She said good-by to the Colonel,
and gathered up the reins; Miss Chatterton
climbed up beside her; Polly gave a frantic plunge and
a dash forward; and the hero was obliged to enter the
dogcart after the deft fashion of a footman, with a
run and a flying leap into the back seat.
Miss Chatterton was unkind enough to laugh. "Well
done!" said she. "Sit tight, and try to look as chivalrous
as I'm sure you feel."
But it is hard to look or feel chivalrous sitting on a
back seat in a wet mackintosh with a thunderstorm
pouring down your neck and into your ears, and a
woman, possessed by all the devils, driving furiously to
an express train that she can never catch. In that
lunatic escape from Coton Manor she had not looked
back once; she left Durant to contemplate a certain
absurd little figure that stood under an immense Doris
portico, regarding the face of the sky.
The main thoroughfare of Whithorn-in-Arden was
scored like the bed of a torrent, and fringed with an
ochreish scum tossed up from the churning loam. The
church clock struck three as they dashed through.
"You'll never do it," said Durant; "it's a good twenty
minutes from here."
"In the brougham it is. Polly will do it in ten—with
me driving her."
She did it in seven. Durant had pictured the two
ladies scurrying along the platform, and himself, a dismal
figure, aiding their unlovely efforts to board a
departing train; as it was, the three minutes saved
allowed Frida to achieve her flight with dignity.
For two out of those three minutes he stood outside
their carriage window, beyond the shelter of the
station roof, with the rain from the ornamental woodwork
overflowing on to his innocent head. He was
trying to smile.
"Heroic," murmured Miss Chatterton; and her eyebrows
intimated that she saw pathos in his appearance.
As for Frida, her good-by was so curt and cold
that Durant, who had suffered many things in redeeming
the discourtesy of his former attitude to her,
was startled and not a little hurt. His plain, lean
face, that seemed to have grown still plainer and leaner
under the lashing of the rain, set again in its habitual
expression of repugnance; hers paled suddenly to a
lighter sallow than before; the hand she had given to
him withdrew itself in terror from his touch. He drew
himself up stiffly, raising a hat that was no hat but a
gutter, and the train crawled out of the station.
He stood yet another minute staring at the naked
rails, two shining parallel lines that seemed to touch
and vanish, over the visible verge, into the gray fringe
of the infinite where the rain washed out the world.
And then he saw nothing but Frida Tancred, sitting
on the edge of the fir plantation and gazing into the
distance; he heard his own voice saying to her, "Let
yourself go, Miss Tancred; let yourself go!"
And she was gone.
All that Durant got out of Polly was the privilege
of driving her home, through mud and rain, at a melancholy
trot. True, he was in no hurry to get back;
so he let her take her own pace, in pity for her trembling
limbs and straining heart. Polly had done all she
knew for her mistress in that frantic dash for freedom
and the express; and, when he thought of what Frida
Tancred's life had been, he guessed that the little animal
was used to carrying her through worse storms
than this.
The storm was over now; it had driven the clouds
into the north, where they hung huddled and piled in
a vast amphitheater; other clouds, charged with light
now instead of darkness, were still rolling up from the
south, east and west, their wings closed till the sky
was shut in like Whithorn-in-Arden, ringed with its
clouds as Arden with its woods; above, beneath, there
rose the same immense, impenetrable boundary, green
on the earth and gray in heaven.
And Frida Tancred had escaped from these confines,
would never come back to dwell in them again; she
had said so, and he believed her. To be sure, she had
shown weakness at the last, she had been driven to
juggle with the conscience that would not let her go;
had she not persuaded it that she was leaving the Colonel
for the Colonel's good? But once gone, once there,
away over the border and safe in the promised land,
she would see clearly, she would realize her right to be
happy in the glorious world.
Not that these things could have happened without
Georgie Chatterton. He had nothing but admiration
for that young woman; there had been daring in her
conquest of Frida Tancred, there were ingenuity and
determination in the final elopement. Was it possible
that he was piqued at the insignificance of the part
she had assigned to him? She had left him to settle
up the sordid accounts while she ran away with the
lady. He had got to say to Colonel Tancred, "Colonel
Tancred, I am not your daughter's seducer and abductor;
I am only a miserable accessory after the fact." In
other words, Miss Chatterton had reminded him that
he was too late.
Too late indeed, it seemed. Whether or not Miss
Chatterton's faith in him had failed her at the last
moment, but when he came down to dinner that
evening he found that she had been beforehand with
him; there was nothing left for him to do.
The Colonel looked up smiling from a telegram.
"News from St. Pancras. Miss Chatterton is carrying
my daughter off to the Continent."
"I'm delighted to hear it. It will do her all the good
in the world."
"Yes, yes; I'm glad she should have the opportunity.
I made a little tour on the Continent myself when I
was a young man, and I've felt a brighter fellow for
it ever since."
"Really?"
"Yes. One's apt to get into a groove staying at
home so much. There's nothing like rubbing brains
with foreigners. It stretches you out, clears you of
all your narrow insular prejudices, brings you in touch"—Durant
quivered; he knew it was coming—"in
touch with fresh ideas. I don't know how you feel
about it, but six months of it was enough to convince
me that there's no place like England, and no people
like English people, and no house like my own. As
for Frida, a very little goes a long way with Frida;
she'll be sick of it in six weeks, but she'll settle down
all the better for the change."
"You think so?"
"I do. She may be a little unsettled at first. Her
poor mother was just the same—restless, restless. But
she settled down."
The Colonel made no further allusion to his daughter's
absence. He was presently disturbed about another
matter, bustling about the room, wondering,
questioning, and exclaiming, "I have lost my little
meteorological chronicle? Has anybody seen my little
meteorological chronicle? Now, where did I have it
last? I wonder if I could have left it with my other
papers in Frida's room?"
But Frida's room, the room where she did all her
father's writing, and her own reading and dreaming
when she had time to read and dream, Frida's room
was locked, and nobody could find the key. The Colonel,
more than ever convinced that his meteorological
chronicle was concealed in Frida's room, ordered the
door to be burst open. Durant lent a shoulder to the
work and entered somewhat precipitately, followed by
the Colonel.
The meteorological chronicle, the labor of years, was
found where its author had left it, on his writing-table,
together with his other papers, business letters, household
accounts, Primrose League programs, all carefully
sorted, dated, and docketed. Many of the letters
had been answered; they lay, addressed in Frida's
handwriting, ready for the post. She had left her work
in such perfect order that a new secretary could have
been fitted into her place without a hitch. The fact
was eloquent of finality and the winding up of affairs;
but certain other details were more eloquent still.
Order on the writing-table; in the rest of the room
confusion and disarray, rifled bookcases and dismantled
walls. Fresh squares of wall-paper outlined in cobwebs
marked the places where the great maps had
hung. The soul of the room was gone from it with
the portrait of the late Mrs. Tancred; the watercolor
drawings, sad work of her restless fingers, were no
longer there. The furniture had been pushed aside to
make room for the deed of desecration; the floor was
littered with newspapers and straw; an empty packing-case
lay on its side, abandoned, in a corner.
The Colonel opened round eyes of astonishment, but
his mustache was still. He rang the bell and summoned
the servants. Under severe cross-examination,
Chaplin, the footman, gave evidence that three packing-cases
had left Coton Manor for the station early
in the morning before the bursting of the storm. Frida,
too, had discerned the face of the sky, and—admirable
strategist!—had secured her transports. The Colonel
dismissed his witnesses, and appealed helplessly to
Durant; indeed, the comprehension in the young man's
face gave him an appearance of guilty complicity.
"What does it mean, Durant? what does it mean?"
Durant smiled, not without compassion. When a
young woman arranges her accounts, and makes off
with three packing-cases, containing her library and
her mother's portrait, the meaning obviously is that
she is not coming back again in a hurry. He suggested
that perhaps Miss Tancred proposed to make a
lengthier stay on the Continent than had been surmised.
"The whole thing," said the Colonel, "is incomprehensible
to me."
For the rest of the evening he remained visibly subdued
by the presence of the incomprehensible; after
coffee he pulled himself together and prepared to
face it.
"There will be no whist this evening," he announced.
"You will excuse me, Durant; I have an immensity
of work on hand. Chaplin, put some whiskey and
water in the study, and light the little lamp on my
literary machine."
Tuesday morning's post brought explanation. Two
letters lay on the breakfast table, both from a fresh
hotel, the Hôtel Métropole, both addressed in Frida
Tancred's handwriting, one to the Colonel and the
other to Durant. Durant's ran thus:
"Dear Mr. Durant:—You will explain everything
to my father, won't you? I have done my best, but
he will never see it; it is the sort of thing he never
could see—my reasons for going away and staying
away. They are hard to understand, but, as far as
I have made them out myself, it seems that I went
away for his sake; but I believe, in fact I know, that
I shall stay away for my own. You will understand
it; we thrashed it all out that Saturday afternoon—you
remember?—and you understood then. And so I
trust you.
"Always sincerely yours,
"Frida Tancred.
"P.S.—Write and tell me how he takes it. I can see
it—so clearly!—from his point of view. I hope he
will not be unhappy.
"P.P.S.—We sail to-morrow."
He was still knitting his brows over the opening
sentences when the Colonel flicked his own letter across
the table.
"Read this, Durant, and tell me what you think
of it."
Durant read:
"My Dear Father:—You will see from Georgie's
telegram that we shall be leaving England to-morrow.
I did not tell you this before because it would have
meant so much explanation, and if we once began
explaining things I don't think I should ever have
gone at all. And I had to go. Believe me, I was convinced
that in going I was doing the best thing for
you. I thought you had been making sacrifices for
my sake, and that you would be happier without me,
though you would not say so. Whether I could have
brought myself to leave you without the help of this
conviction, and whether I have the conviction strongly
still, I cannot say; it is hard to be perfectly honest,
even with myself. But now that I have gone I simply
can't come back again. Not yet. Perhaps never, till
I have done the things I want to do.
"Of course you will be angry—it is so unexpected.
But only think—you would not be angry, would you,
if I married? You would have considered that perfectly
legitimate. Yet it would have meant my leaving
you for good. And what marriage and settling
down in it is to other women, seeing the world and
wandering about in it is to me—it's the thing I care
for most. We do not talk about these things, so this
is the first you have heard of it. Think—if I had been
very much in love with anyone I would have said
nothing about it till I was all but engaged to him.
It's the same thing. And it will make less difference
to you than my marriage would have made."
Here Frida's pen had come to a stop; with a sudden
flight from the abstract to the concrete, she had
begun a fresh argument on a fresh page.
"I only mean to use a third of my income. The
other two thousand will still go to keeping up the
property. I have left everything so that my work
could be taken up by anybody to-morrow."
The Colonel's eyes had dogged Durant's down to
the bottom of the sheet, when he made a nervous
attempt to recapture the letter. It was too late; the
swing of Frida's impassioned pleading had carried
Durant over the page, and one terse sentence had
printed itself instantaneously on his brain. He handed
back the letter without a word.
The Colonel drew Durant's arm in his and led him
out through the window on to the gravel drive. Up
and down, up and down, they walked for the space of
one hour, while the Colonel poured out his soul. He
went bareheaded, he lifted up his face to the heavens,
touched to a deeper anguish by the beauty of the
young day.
"Lord, what a perfect morning! Look at this place
she's left; look at it! I've nursed the little property
for her; it was as much hers as if I was in my grave,
Durant. She's lived in it for nearly thirty years, ever
since she was no higher than that flower-pot, and she
thinks nothing of leaving it. She thinks nothing of
leaving me. And I've got more work to do than my
brain's fit for; why I was in the very thick of my
Primrose League correspondence, up to the neck in all
manner of accounts; and she knew it, and chose this
time. I've got to give a lecture next week in Whithorn
parish-room, a lecture on 'Imperialism,' and I've my
little chronicle on hand, too; but it's nothing to her.
The whole thing's a mystery to me. I can't think what
can have made her do it. She never was a girl that
cared for gadding about, and for society and that. As
for trying to make me believe that I should be no
worse off if she married, the question has never risen,
Durant. She hasn't married. She never even wanted
to be married. She never would have been married."
"That makes it all the more natural that she should
want to see something of the world instead."
"No, it's not natural. I could have understood her
wanting to get married, that's natural enough; but
what's a woman got to do with seeing the world? It's
not as if she was my son, Durant."
Durant listened and wondered. As far as he could
make out, the Colonel's attitude to his daughter was
twofold. On the one hand, he seemed to regard her
as part of the little property, and as existing for the
sake of the little property, from which point of view
she had acquired a certain value in his eyes. On the
other hand, he looked upon her as an inferior part of
Himself, and as existing for the sake of Himself; it
was a view old as the hills and the earth they were
made of, being the paternal side of the simple primeval
attitude of the man to the woman. And, seeing that
the little property was a mere drop in the ocean of
the Colonel's egoism, this view might be said to include
the other as the greater includes the less. On either
theory Frida Tancred was not supposed to have any
rights, or, indeed, any substantial existence of her own;
she was an attribute, an adjunct.
"Seeing the world—fiddlesticks! Don't tell me there
isn't something else at the bottom of it—it's an insult
to my intelligence."
As everything the Colonel did not understand was
an insult to his intelligence, his intelligence must have
had to put up with an extraordinary number of affronts.
He leaned heavily on the young man's arm. "It's
shaken me. I shall never be the fellow I was. I can't
understand it. Nobody could have done more for any
girl than I've done for Frida; and she deserts me,
Durant, deserts me in my old age with my strength
failing."
Durant vainly tried to make himself worthy of Frida
Tancred's trust, but he could add nothing to her
reasoning, and she had kept her best argument to the
last,—"It will make less difference to you than my
marriage would have made."
"After all, sir, will it make so very much difference
if—if your daughter does go away for a year or two?"
"I can't say. I can't tell you that till I've tried it,
my boy. It's all too new to me, and I tell you I can't
understand it."
He trailed off with a slow and stricken movement,
like a lesser Lear, and reëntered the house by the window
of Frida's room. The sight of the well-ordered
writing-table subtilized for a moment his sense of her
desertion.
"Look at that. She was my right hand, Maurice,
and I can't realize that she's gone. It's the queerest
sensation; I feel as if she was here and yet wasn't
here."
Durant said he had heard that people felt like that
after the amputation of their right hands. As for the
wound, he hoped that time would heal it.
"Any soldier can tell you that old wounds will still
bleed, Durant. I think that was the luncheon bell."
Lunch, over which the Colonel lingered lovingly and
long, somewhat obscured the freshness of the tragedy,
and made it a thing of the remoter past. An hour
later he was playing with his little rain-gauge on the
lawn. At afternoon teatime he appeared immaculately
attired in the height of the fashion; brown boots, the
palest of pale gray summer suitings, a white piqué
waistcoat, the least little luminous hint of green in
his silk necktie, and he seemed the spirit of youth
incarnate.
At this figure Durant smiled with a pity that was
only two-thirds contempt. He longed to ask him
whether the old wound was bleeding badly. He was
bound to believe that the Colonel had a heart under
his immaculate waistcoat, with pulses and arteries the
same as other people's, his own unconquerable conviction
being that if you pricked the gentlemannikin
he would bleed sawdust.
The Colonel had scarcely swallowed his tea when
Durant saw him trotting off in the direction of the
cottage; there was that about him which, considering
his recent bereavement, suggested an almost indecent
haste. He returned and sat down to dinner, flushed
but uncommunicative. He seemed aware that it was
Durant's last night, and it was after some weak attempts
to give the meal a commemorative and farewell
character, half-festal, half-funereal, that he sank
into silence, and remained brooding over the ice pudding
in his attitude of owl-like inscrutability. But
during the privacy of dessert his mystic mood took
flight; he hopped, as it were, onto a higher perch; he
stretched the wing of victory and gazed at it admiringly;
there was an effect as of the preening of young
plumage, the fluttering of innumerable feathers.
And, with champagne running in his veins like the
sap of spring, he proclaimed his engagement to that
charming lady, Mrs. Fazakerly.
Durant had no sooner congratulated him on the
event than he remembered that he had left the postscript
of Miss Tancred's letter unanswered. She had
said, "Write and tell me how he takes it"; she had
hoped that he would not be unhappy. So he wrote:
"He took it uncommonly well" (that was not strictly
true, but Durant was determined to set Frida Tancred's
conscience at rest, even if he had to tamper a
little with his own). "I should not say that he will be
very unhappy. On the contrary, he has just assured
me that he is the happiest man on earth. He is engaged
to be married to Mrs. Fazakerly."
It was a masterly stroke on Mrs. Fazakerly's part,
and it had followed so closely on the elopement (as
closely, indeed, as consequence on cause) that Durant
had to admit that he had grossly underrated the powers
of this remarkable woman. He had been lost in admiration
of Miss Chatterton's elaborate intrigue and bold
independent action; but now he came to think of it,
though Miss Chatterton's style was more showy, Mrs.
Fazakerly had played by far the better game of the
two. Durant, who had regarded himself as a trump
card up Mrs. Fazakerly's sleeve, perceived with a pang
that he had counted for nothing in the final move.
Mrs. Fazakerly had not, as he idiotically supposed, been
greatly concerned with Frida Tancred's attitude toward
him. She had divined nothing, imagined nothing, she
had been both simpler and subtler than he knew. She
had desired the removal of Frida Tancred from her
path, and at the right moment she had produced
Georgie Chatterton. She had played her deliberately,
staking everything on the move. Georgie's independence
had been purely illusory. She had appeared at
Mrs. Fazakerly's bidding, she had behaved as Mrs.
Fazakerly had foreseen, she had removed Frida Tancred,
and Durant had been nowhere. Mrs. Fazakerly's
little gray eyes could read the characters of men and
women at a glance, and as instantly inferred their fitness
or unfitness for her purpose. She might be a poor
hand at the game of whist, but at the game of matrimony
she was magnificent and supreme.
Frida had said, "We sail to-morrow"; therefore,
Durant walked all the way to Whithorn-in-Arden to
post his letter, so that it might reach her before she
left London. And as he came back across the dewy
path in the dim light, and Coton Manor raised its
forehead from the embrace of the woods and opened
the long line of its dull windows, he realized all that
it had done for Frida. He understood the abnegation
and the tragedy of her life. She had been sacrificed,
not only to her father, but to her father's fetish, the
property; Coton Manor had to be kept up at all costs,
and the cost had been Frida's, it had been her mother's.
The place had crushed and consumed her spirit, as it
swallowed up two-thirds of her material inheritance;
it had made the living woman as the dead. He remembered
how the house had been called her mother's
monument, and how it had become her own grave. Her
soul had never lived there. And now that she was
gone it was as empty as the tomb from which the soul
has lifted the body at resurrection time.
And he, too, was set at liberty.
He left by the slow early train on Wednesday without
waiting for the afternoon express, his object being
not so much to reach town as to get away from Coton
Manor. The Colonel accompanied him to the station;
and, to his infinite surprise and embarrassment, he
found Mrs. Fazakerly on the platform waiting to see
him off.
He could think of nothing nice to say to her about
her engagement, not even when she took possession
of him with a hand on his arm, led him away to the
far end of the platform, and gazed expectantly into
his face.
"You don't congratulate me, Mr. Durant."
"On what?" he asked moodily.
"On having done a good deed."
"A good deed?"
"Didn't I tell you there was nothing I wouldn't do
for Frida Tancred?"
Incomparable cunning! To set herself right in his
eyes and her own, she was trying to persuade him that
she had accepted the Colonel for his daughter's sake.
A good deed! Well, whatever else she had done, and
whatever her motives may have been, the deed remained;
she had set Frida Tancred free. Nevertheless,
he could not be pleasant.
"Self-sacrifice, no doubt, is a virtue," said he; "yet
one draws the line——"
"Does one?"
He felt a delicate pressure on his arm, the right
touch, the light touch. "Mr. Durant, you are dense,
and you are ungrateful."
"I don't see it."
"Don't you see what I have done for you?" There
was a strange light behind the pince-nez as she smiled
up into his face. "I have cleared the way."
"For Miss Tancred, you mean," said Durant; thereby
proving that in her calculations as to his mean density
Mrs. Fazakerly was not altogether wrong.
But Durant was always an imaginative man. And
as he sped on the same journey over the same rails, his
imagination followed Frida Tancred in her flight
toward freedom and the unknown.