Ordinary human reflexes, which respond to tangible, near-at-hand
crises, were woefully inadequate for the dozen or so men and women in
that room. What could anyone do to save Willy Zinder, so far away that
he could only be detected by instruments, and whose future and very
existence depended upon electronic gadgets which went about their task
more cold-bloodedly even than Dr. Spartan?
In fact, Spartan himself seemed to lose his poise for a moment. He
appeared to freeze as he stood directly behind Gail, staring at the
dials that told what was happening to Willy. At last he seemed to see
her hands, fluttering aimlessly from button to switch. He reached out,
swept them away.
"Stop it!" he said hoarsely. "Nothing you can do will stop the
automatic action of the capsule now!"
Gail seemed to wilt. Spartan released her hands and she sat there
helplessly. Behind her Spartan looked like some kind of understudy of
Satan, his black beard, dark eyes and sharp features blending into the
illusion. He was tall and gaunt to begin with—now he looked taller and
more gaunt. Was it a suspicion of a smile that I saw on his face for a
brief, fleeting instant? But surely he didn't want Willy to fail. He
had a greater stake in this operation than any of us. For him it would
mean immortality as the leader of the first manned flight to Mars.
Again the fleeting smile. I tried to tell myself that it was the result
of nervousness. I'd often seen men under stress grinning like fools,
because laughter is an emotional reflex. But I'd never suspected
Spartan of having emotions before. He'd had a wealth of experience and
had seen men die in space.
For ten years he'd been one of the top astronauts of the nation—ever
since he had risen to fame as the genius who had developed a certain
method of converting nuclear energy directly into electricity. In those
days he'd been a poorly paid instructor at some obscure mid-western
college. Now he was famous as a spaceman, and wealthy from his
discoveries.
His apparent nervousness lasted only an instant. Then he became his
cold self again. Not that it served to reassure anybody—we all knew
that northeast of where we stood, far out over the Atlantic, Willy's
capsule was screaming into the atmosphere. It mattered little that
the parachutes were open, since the men who had been watching the
instruments recording Willy's heartbeat said he had been hurt badly.
There was no button to push, no knob to turn, no switch to flip which
would make everything A-okay. And there certainly was no magic wand to
break the evil enchantment of the moment.
The loud-speaker squawked out a report from the Navy carrier. Its
helicopters were airborne, attempting to reach the place where Willy
would come down, but they were hundreds of miles west—at the place
where Willy would have come down after his next lap, not this one.
Then there was an awful silence, broken only by a sob from Gail.
Spartan looked down at her, his lips curling with displeasure. She
clasped her hands to her face and swayed in her chair. Spartan growled
with annoyance, then turned his head and saw me.
"Drake!" he bellowed. He gestured a slim finger toward Gail. "Get that
hysterical woman out of here!"
I didn't like the way he gave the order, but it made sense and I
started forward to obey. Gail jerked her hands away from her face and
turned toward him. She stopped her swaying, turned her eyes on Dr.
Spartan and tilted her chin upward with indignation.
"I'm not hysterical! I've never been hysterical!"
"Take her outside, Drake," said Dr. Spartan, as if she'd never spoken.
It did seem like the best idea. Every dial in front of her was an
instrument of torture. Whatever happened to Willy Zinder, she believed
it to be her fault.
I stepped forward and took Gail by the arm. "Please come," I said.
"There's nothing you can do."
She jerked her arm out of my grip, then got up by herself. "Willy must
have misunderstood me," she said. Suddenly her shoulders sagged. "Yes,
Bill Drake, I'll go. You're right. There's nothing I can do."
Her eyes were moist but her voice was firm. She was not crying like a
hysterical woman. I believe that, at that moment, if there was anything
she could have done, she would have done it as efficiently as anyone in
that room, including Dr. Spartan.
She let me take her arm again as I guided her through the door, out of
the bunker and into the refreshing warmth of the outside air.
"I told him to switch on the automatic controls precisely at zero,"
she said. "Those were my words: 'Precisely at zero!' He must have
misunderstood. He thought I said it was precisely zero at that moment.
He lost track of time."
"Don't think about it," I said. "It wasn't your fault."
"It was my fault. People under tension are in a highly suggestible
state. I should have chosen my words more carefully, so that he could
not possibly misunderstand—"
"If Willy was capable of such confusion, it's best that we know about
it now. In space that kind of a misunderstanding could cost lives."
"Willy may be dying," she said. "Even if he isn't, the Mars project is
down the drain for twenty-six months."
"Maybe," I said, "and maybe not. Spartan says he's gotta have a six-man
crew, but I don't follow him. It's better to try it short-handed than
to get there after the Commies."
"But I've heard him say a dozen times that there must be six men," she
said. "Dr. Spartan doesn't change his plans once he makes up his mind."
Certainly that was true, but Dr. Spartan was too intelligent to insist
on the impossible. Six men could operate the plasma ship efficiently:
two could be on watch, two could rest, two could care for the needs
of the others—prepare the meals, do cleaning, and operate the water
and air regeneration machinery, check the course and so on. But a
system could be worked out for five, four, three—even two or one. The
fewer the number, the greater the risk, but the important thing was
to achieve a successful mission. The risks could never deter him from
trying for a first landing on Mars.
We reached the pad which the big Jupiter rocket had carried Willy
Zinder into space twenty-four hours before. Gail stood there looking at
it, choking back a sob, and then turned around and started back toward
the bunker.
"I could take Willy's place, if he's—he's hurt," she said softly. She
probably had been thinking about this while we stood at the launching
pad.
I tried to smile at her. "That would cause complications."
"Why? I'm as qualified as you, Bill Drake. I made a test flight in the
plasma ship along with Dr. Spartan and Mr. Ludson. I've passed every
test you and the others passed and I've made a flight to the moon."
"You've already been assigned to a project," I told her, hoping it
would end the talk.
"That can wait," she insisted. "Besides, there are others who could be
trained for my job and there's time to train them, whereas Operation
Jehad begins its final phase in five days."
"I wasn't selling your qualifications short," I said. "What I meant
was—you're a woman."
"Good Lord! Would Dr. Spartan discriminate against me because I'm not a
man?"
"Dr. Spartan wouldn't care if you were an ape. But a lot of people
would wonder what one pretty girl was doing up in space with five men."
"Not really! You mean they'd think my honor and virtue would be—lost?"
For an instant there was the faintest trace of a smile on her face.
"Exactly," I said. "This world has some queer standards of
propriety—especially the good old U.S.A. with its puritan traditions.
A lot of people would take the stand that an unmarried young woman
could hardly expect to spend two-and-one-half years in close quarters
with five unmarried men and expect to come back chaste."
She laughed and I joined her.
"Ridiculous."
"Yes, but that's what they'd think," I insisted.
"Do you imagine I give a hoot about what people think?" she asked. "And
what does Victorian decorum have to do with going to Mars?"
"Nothing at all, but there are bureaucrats and politicians who could
spike Project Jehad on moral grounds. These hypocrites wouldn't give
you credit for being a virtuous young woman, nor us credit for being
gentlemen with restraint. No doubt they'd judge us all by their own
past behavior."
"There were no objections when I went on a test flight with two men."
"You weren't gone overnight. At least, it wasn't night on the puritan
side of the earth," I explained. "These people think all sins occur
at night. Besides, you were in communication with the earth the whole
time. You had a radio chaperon."
"Holy cow!" she said. "Can't we make people see that it doesn't matter
if the world thinks I'm a fallen woman? The success of the project is
more important than my reputation, my morals, or even my life. I'm
going to offer to go in Willy's place."
"Good luck," I said, quite certain she wouldn't have any.
Axel Ludson was waiting for us outside the bunker with the bad news.
Although the Navy had been alert and had done everything possible to
reach the scene of the capsule's landing, it had been too far away to
arrive in time. Helicopters had been sent aloft immediately, but they
arrived at the capsule just in time to see it sink into the ocean, a
mile and a half deep at that point.
"How horrible!" said Gail.
"We're not sure he could have survived his injuries," said Axel. "The
medical observers believe his neck was broken and that he was dying as
his capsule floated down to the sea."
Gail shuddered. "It was my fault."
"You mustn't say that, Miss Loring," said Axel. "The only way it could
have been your fault was if you had touched the automatic control
button yourself. Did you? Even by accident?"
"No. No, of course not," she said. "My hands were in my lap. I was
talking into the mike just a moment before. There was no reason to take
over control of the capsule."
Axel nodded. "I was watching you," he said. "That is my recollection.
That leaves only two ways for the accident to have happened. Either
Willy put the ship into automatic himself or there was a malfunctioning
that set it off spontaneously."
Neither theory seemed to fit. In the first place, Willy had
been drilled on what to do before re-entering. One of the first
things—something even a novice would realize—would have been to get
into his harness. Furthermore, Willy had instruments, including a
chronometer, in front of him and he should have known he had to spend
ninety more minutes in space.
Faulty mechanism might have accounted for the accident, but everything
had been tested, checked and double-checked. Dr. Spartan himself had
gone over everything.
"Dr. Spartan would like to talk to you, Miss Loring," Axel went on.
"There will be an inquiry, but he wants to hear your story as soon as
you feel up to it."
Gail moistened her lips. "I'd like to get it over with now," she said.
"Thanks for telling me—everything." She turned back to me. "And
thanks to you, Bill Drake. I feel much better after talking to you."
I remained outside the bunker while Axel took her in.
Later I made a statement, along with everyone else who had had an
official part in the test. Dr. Spartan announced that the fate of the
Martian expedition would be decided within a few days and if it was
decided to go ahead with a short crew, the lift-off would take place on
schedule.
I was not surprised, therefore, when I was called into his office the
next morning. Dr. Joel was there and so were Morrie Grover and Axel.
We sat down in straight-backed chairs opposite his desk to wait. About
five minutes later Dr. Spartan accompanied by Gail, came into the room.
My first thought was that he was extending the investigation of the
accident, and then I recalled Gail's decision to volunteer for the
Mars expedition in Willy's place. Dr. Spartan was as dedicated as Gail
and the idea of flaunting convention and risking a lot of condemnation
wouldn't have bothered him. But there were powers higher than Dr.
Spartan who would step in and halt the project if public pressure were
applied.
We greeted him formally. No one ever became informal with Dr. Spartan
in his office. In fact, I couldn't remember anyone but Axel who had
ever tried to kid Spartan. But Axel was a special case. Even Dr.
Spartan secretly admitted that Axel was the most reliable astronaut on
the project.
"Thanks for being here punctually, gentlemen," said Dr. Spartan,
sitting down behind his desk. Again he looked like the Devil himself,
just as he had yesterday when Willy's capsule went out of control. "As
you know, the fate of the Martian operation is uncertain because of
yesterday's unfortunate accident. But there is an outside chance we can
go ahead with it, if an obstacle or two are removed."
He paused, letting his cold black eyes sweep our group, finally resting
on Gail Loring who was seated facing us in a chair at the end of Dr.
Spartan's desk. She smiled, showing her pretty dimples.
"Miss Loring is willing to fill the vacancy in our crew," Spartan said
quietly.
No one spoke. We all looked at Gail, every last man of us thinking
what a wonderful trip it would be with her aboard. And every last man
realized that with a woman aboard there would be complications.
"She's a fully qualified astronaut," Spartan went on. "No further tests
would be needed to prove that she could step into the vacant spot in
our crew and hold up as well as any of us during the long, tedious trip
through space. However, she is a woman."
"I guess we can all see that," said Dr. Joel, in a feeble attempt to be
funny. No one laughed but Joel. Spartan's hard eyes cut him short.
"I wasn't so sure you could, Warner," said Spartan, his voice full of
sarcasm. "But your half-witted wisecrack brings the big objection into
full focus. A woman, especially an attractive woman—" Spartan bowed
toward Gail and permitted himself to smile with all the graciousness he
could muster. "—well, it complicates matters."
Again we held our silence. Joel choked back whatever comment he'd been
about to make as Spartan glanced at him again.
"A woman, alone with a large group of men, would bring dissension and
emotional factors into the situation which would not arise if all our
crew were men. Besides, there is convention to worry about. Certain
prudish individuals, of which there are far too many on earth, would
accuse us of promoting some sort of Saturnalia in space—free love,
even licentiousness."
"It would be a lie," said Gail. "I have nothing to fear from any of you
in that respect."
"Not here and now, perhaps," Spartan replied, "but two-and-one-half
years in space might have a cumulative effect. None of us are properly
called old men, my dear. Besides, we'll be making history, and we'll
have to appear to be, as well as be, above reproach."
"Oh, come on," said Gail, resenting the trend of the conversation.
"History has never been that pure—"
Spartan scowled. He resented her remark. "I know that, Miss Loring,"
he replied. "But the fact that we are making history will cause
politicians and bureaucrats, who have the power to call off the
project, to fear the loss of public support. Votes are what they want,
more than scientific achievement. All of you know our plans call for
a six-man crew. Fewer than six would require a revision of plans,
redistribution of duties, and a slighting of many important aims. In
order to justify the expenditure of billions of dollars of taxpayer
money we must show results."
"That's the first time I ever heard of a taxpayer being considered in a
space operation," said Joel, once more trying to be funny.
"But it's a point," said Axel, nodding his head and glancing around
first at me and then at Morrie Grover, who had sat through the session
watching Gail as if he were hypnotized.
"Does anyone have a constructive idea?" Spartan asked coldly. He was
trying to keep the discussion from getting out of hand and, from this,
I suspected he had his own plans fully worked out.
"It's your show," I said. "What's your idea?"
Spartan did not like to have anyone reading his mind and he honored me
with one of his stern glances. "In the interest of science," he said,
"I'm proposing marriage to Miss Loring."
I expected almost anything but that. My mouth flew open.
"In the interest of science? Good Lord!" said Morrie Grover.
Gail half rose from her seat, then settled down. "Doctor!" she
exclaimed. "Why didn't you discuss this with me beforehand? That's the
least I would expect—"
"This, as I said, is a proposal made purely in the interest of our
mission," Spartan said.
"Well, I resent it," she said. I rather guessed that she was showing a
natural, female resistance to so cold and unfeeling a proposition.
"You shouldn't," said Spartan. "There's nothing wrong with the idea. I
have much to offer you—or any other woman. I have substantial wealth.
I have a long list of accomplishments. I am famous and will be even
more so at the end of this trip. And certainly I'm not repulsive."
His chin tilted upward slightly as he displayed his profile. I'm
sure he didn't pose intentionally; his conceit was subconscious, but
nevertheless amazing.
Gail pressed her lips tightly together. For an instant I had a terrible
fear that she was going to laugh. Then I was even more frightened at
the thought that she might possibly accept this proposal. It would be
a waste of such a beautiful, attractive young woman.
"Actually, Doctor," she said after some deliberation, "you're
suggesting I prostitute myself for science. If I ever decide to do
that, I'll do it on my own terms."
Spartan seemed to stagger mentally, as if she'd landed an uppercut on
his subconscious conceit. "But, Miss Loring," he said, "if you were
married to me, it would erase whatever objections there'd be to the
idea of a woman going to Mars with five men. The unconventionality
would become respectability. The puritans would have no reason to
object to the space trip and the men in Washington wouldn't need to
fear the loss of votes."
"Couldn't we make the trip with a five-man crew?" I asked.
Spartan glared at me as if I'd suggested we organize a Communist cell.
"I told you I want to get maximum results from our trip," he said.
"I won't be satisfied with less." He turned to the others to amplify
his statement. "There must be a full crew and Miss Loring is the only
qualified astronaut available. And the only way she can go with us is
as a married woman." Now he turned to Miss Loring. "Certainly you'll
not refuse?" he demanded.
"I understand the problem thoroughly, Dr. Spartan," Gail told him. "But
I won't consider marriage in the generally accepted sense. If we must
conform to convention, we can have a ceremony; everything and anything
that may follow a normal wedding will be of my own choosing."
"I'm not sure I understand," said Spartan.
"I mean it will be a marriage in name only. I won't even share quarters
with my husband. I've been aboard the plasma ship. As spaceships go,
it's a palace. There's room for six men, provisions and equipment for
two-and-a-half years. At each end there are observation cabins used in
getting the parallax in astrogation. I'll use one of them for living
quarters. The rest of you will bunk in the main cabin of the ship.
Furthermore, the marriage will end when we return to the earth. A quiet
divorce or, possibly, annulment will be arranged. Do you object to
divorce, Dr. Spartan?"
"No," said Spartan with ill-concealed temper.
"Does anyone else object to divorce on religious or other grounds?"
She paused, awaiting an answer. Axel finally spoke. "I do not object to
divorce," he said. "However, I do not believe in this kind of marriage,
either."
"What about you, Bill Drake?"
"Anything for science," I said. But deep in my heart I knew that if I
was ever fortunate enough to go through a marriage ceremony with Gail,
I'd move heaven and earth, and all the planets between, to make the
union a permanent one.
"And you, Dr. Joel?"
Joel cleared his throat. "I'd take you under any conditions, Miss
Loring."
"Morrie Grover?"
"I have no objections." He looked at her hungrily.
"Am I to understand that you intend to pick one of the others?" asked
Dr. Spartan. "I've already asked you to be my bride. I suppose your
conditions are reasonable. I will accept them."
"That's very generous of you, Doctor," said Gail. "And my reason for
turning you down is not to be taken as a criticism of you as a man or
as a lover-in-name-only. It's simply that as leader of the expedition
you must have disciplinary control over all members of the crew. As
your wife, I'd be tempted to ask for privileges, even though I am not
a believer in favoritism—especially in space where the line between
life and death is as thin as a quarter-inch meteor. It would not be to
the best interests of this expedition for you to have a wife. However,
I have proposals for marriage from Bill Drake, Dr. Joel and Morrie
Grover. Am I right? Any of you is free to back out."
"I won't back out," said Morrie breathlessly.
"I won't either," I said quickly.
Joel cleared his throat. "I said I'd take you under any conditions."
"I feel honored, gentlemen." Gail smiled at us, showing her dimples. I
decided that, under different circumstances, I could have proposed to
her on my own initiative and been as conventional as hell about it. But
this was like a political convention.
"Which?" asked Morrie.
"Not you," she said. "You're younger than I am. And not Dr. Joel—he's
at least ten years older." She paused, stared at me and then went on.
"Because this marriage is one of convenience—a propaganda wedding
to satisfy propriety—we ought to be convincing. Bill Drake is the
pin-up boy to millions of panting secretaries and shopgirls who see his
picture in newspapers and on television. Would this public believe in
a marriage between us? I think so. For no one could possibly imagine I
could resist such a prize."
She paused and waited for comments. None came. Five astronauts,
including Dr. Spartan, sat tensely waiting for her inevitable decision.
"Believe me," Gail went on, "I could resist this handsome young
astronaut very well. He's somewhat conceited, you know, and he is too
much aware that he's the answer to a maiden's prayer. But millions of
man-hungry women wouldn't see it that way. I'm not panting over Bill
Drake, and that's why he's the logical choice. It'll look like a love
match and who'll know the difference?"
She paused once more, then turned to me. "Forgive the insults, Bill.
Will you marry me? Or do you want to back out?"
It was the first time she had ever called me Bill without adding my
last name. I sat there for a moment, somewhat dazed by the outcome.
Should I take her in my arms and kiss her tenderly, passionately?
Hardly. My ears still burned from her statement that I considered
myself the answer to a maiden's prayer, and that I was a conceited
pin-up boy. Considering her attitude, should I back out? Or should
I cold-bloodedly allow her the use of my last name for the sake of
science? My male ego told me she cared a little, secretly, or at the
very least, would learn to care before Operation Jehad ended. I began
to feel happy about the whole deal.
Dr. Spartan's voice came through my thoughts. "You're not acting very
enthusiastic, Drake."
"I was thinking of the conditions," I said.
"I won't sue for breach of promise if you want to back out," said Gail.
That decided me. "When's the wedding?" I asked.
As I spoke, Joel and Morrie looked at me with ill-concealed
disappointment. They'd hoped, down to the wire, that something would
happen which would turn the scales in their favor. Even now, I noticed
that Morrie hadn't quite given up. He turned his eyes toward Gail. You
could practically see him hoping that, in reality, it would turn out to
be a marriage in name only, that he'd have a chance to win her before
we returned.
"Just before the lift-off," said Gail.
"Humph," said Dr. Spartan. "That settles it, I suppose." He didn't like
it, but he couldn't back out now.
He turned his eyes toward me.
They were full of hatred.