IN two months more Frances had fulfilled the time of mourning for her
aunt. One January morning—the first of the new year holidays—I
went in a fiacre, accompanied only by M. Vandenhuten, to the Rue Notre
Dame aux Neiges, and having alighted alone and walked upstairs, I found
Frances apparently waiting for me, dressed in a style scarcely appropriate
to that cold, bright, frosty day. Never till now had I seen her attired in
any other than black or sad-coloured stuff; and there she stood by the
window, clad all in white, and white of a most diaphanous texture; her
array was very simple, to be sure, but it looked imposing and festal
because it was so clear, full, and floating; a veil shadowed her head, and
hung below her knee; a little wreath of pink flowers fastened it to her
thickly tressed Grecian plait, and thence it fell softly on each side of
her face. Singular to state, she was, or had been crying; when I asked her
if she were ready, she said “Yes, monsieur,” with something very like a
checked sob; and when I took a shawl, which lay on the table, and folded
it round her, not only did tear after tear course unbidden down her cheek,
but she shook to my ministration like a reed. I said I was sorry to see
her in such low spirits, and requested to be allowed an insight into the
origin thereof. She only said, “It was impossible to help it,” and then
voluntarily, though hurriedly, putting her hand into mine, accompanied me
out of the room, and ran downstairs with a quick, uncertain step, like one
who was eager to get some formidable piece of business over. I put her
into the fiacre. M. Vandenhuten received her, and seated her beside
himself; we drove all together to the Protestant chapel, went through a
certain service in the Common Prayer Book, and she and I came out married.
M. Vandenhuten had given the bride away.
We took no bridal trip; our modesty, screened by the peaceful obscurity of
our station, and the pleasant isolation of our circumstances, did not
exact that additional precaution. We repaired at once to a small house I
had taken in the faubourg nearest to that part of the city where the scene
of our avocations lay.
Three or four hours after the wedding ceremony, Frances, divested of her
bridal snow, and attired in a pretty lilac gown of warmer materials, a
piquant black silk apron, and a lace collar with some finishing decoration
of lilac ribbon, was kneeling on the carpet of a neatly furnished though
not spacious parlour, arranging on the shelves of a chiffonière some
books, which I handed to her from the table. It was snowing fast out of
doors; the afternoon had turned out wild and cold; the leaden sky seemed
full of drifts, and the street was already ankle-deep in the white
downfall. Our fire burned bright, our new habitation looked brilliantly
clean and fresh, the furniture was all arranged, and there were but some
articles of glass, china, books, &c., to put in order. Frances found
in this business occupation till tea-time, and then, after I had
distinctly instructed her how to make a cup of tea in rational English
style, and after she had got over the dismay occasioned by seeing such an
extravagant amount of material put into the pot, she administered to me a
proper British repast, at which there wanted neither candles nor urn,
firelight nor comfort.
Our week’s holiday glided by, and we readdressed ourselves to labour. Both
my wife and I began in good earnest with the notion that we were working
people, destined to earn our bread by exertion, and that of the most
assiduous kind. Our days were thoroughly occupied; we used to part every
morning at eight o’clock, and not meet again till five P.M.; but into what
sweet rest did the turmoil of each busy day decline! Looking down the
vista of memory, I see the evenings passed in that little parlour like a
long string of rubies circling the dusky brow of the past. Unvaried were
they as each cut gem, and like each gem brilliant and burning.
A year and a half passed. One morning (it was a fête, and
we had the day to ourselves) Frances said to me, with a suddenness
peculiar to her when she had been thinking long on a subject, and at last,
having come to a conclusion, wished to test its soundness by the
touchstone of my judgment:—
“I don’t work enough.”
“What now?” demanded I, looking up from my coffee, which I had been
deliberately stirring while enjoying, in anticipation, a walk I proposed
to take with Frances, that fine summer day (it was June), to a certain
farmhouse in the country, where we were to dine. “What now?” and I saw at
once, in the serious ardour of her face, a project of vital importance.
“I am not satisfied,” returned she; “you are now earning eight thousand
francs a year” (it was true; my efforts, punctuality, the fame of my
pupils’ progress, the publicity of my station, had so far helped me on),
“while I am still at my miserable twelve hundred francs. I can do
better, and I will.”
“You work as long and as diligently as I do, Frances.”
“Yes, monsieur, but I am not working in the right way, and I am convinced
of it.”
“You wish to change—you have a plan for progress in your mind; go
and put on your bonnet; and, while we take our walk, you shall tell me of
it.”
“Yes, monsieur.”
She went—as docile as a well-trained child; she was a curious
mixture of tractability and firmness: I sat thinking about her, and
wondering what her plan could be, when she re-entered.
“Monsieur, I have given Minnie” (our bonne) “leave to go out too, as it is
so very fine; so will you be kind enough to lock the door, and take the
key with you?”
“Kiss me, Mrs. Crimsworth,” was my not very apposite reply; but she looked
so engaging in her light summer dress and little cottage bonnet, and her
manner in speaking to me was then, as always, so unaffectedly and suavely
respectful, that my heart expanded at the sight of her, and a kiss seemed
necessary to content its importunity.
“There, monsieur.”
“Why do you always call me ‘Monsieur’? Say, ‘William.’”
“I cannot pronounce your W; besides, ‘Monsieur’ belongs to you; I like it
best.”
Minnie having departed in clean cap and smart shawl, we, too, set out,
leaving the house solitary and silent—silent, at least, but for the
ticking of the clock. We were soon clear of Brussels; the fields received
us, and then the lanes, remote from carriage-resounding
chaussées. Ere
long we came upon a nook, so rural, green, and secluded, it might have
been a spot in some pastoral English province; a bank of short and mossy
grass, under a hawthorn, offered a seat too tempting to be declined; we
took it, and when we had admired and examined some English-looking
wild-flowers growing at our feet, I recalled Frances’ attention and my own
to the topic touched on at breakfast.
“What was her plan?” A natural one—the next step to be mounted by
us, or, at least, by her, if she wanted to rise in her profession. She
proposed to begin a school. We already had the means for commencing on a
careful scale, having lived greatly within our income. We possessed, too,
by this time, an extensive and eligible connection, in the sense
advantageous to our business; for, though our circle of visiting
acquaintance continued as limited as ever, we were now widely known in
schools and families as teachers. When Frances had developed her plan, she
intimated, in some closing sentences, her hopes for the future. If we only
had good health and tolerable success, me might, she was sure, in time
realize an independency; and that, perhaps, before we were too old to
enjoy it; then both she and I would rest; and what was to hinder us from
going to live in England? England was still her Promised Land.
I put no obstacle in her way; raised no objection; I knew she was not one
who could live quiescent and inactive, or even comparatively inactive.
Duties she must have to fulfil, and important duties; work to do—and
exciting, absorbing, profitable work; strong faculties stirred in her
frame, and they demanded full nourishment, free exercise: mine was not the
hand ever to starve or cramp them; no, I delighted in offering them
sustenance, and in clearing them wider space for action.
“You have conceived a plan, Frances,” said I, “and a good plan; execute
it; you have my free consent, and wherever and whenever my assistance is
wanted, ask and you shall have.”
Frances’ eyes thanked me almost with tears; just a sparkle or two, soon
brushed away; she possessed herself of my hand too, and held it for some
time very close clasped in both her own, but she said no more than “Thank
you, monsieur.”
We passed a divine day, and came home late, lighted by a full summer moon.
Ten years rushed now upon me with dusty, vibrating, unresting wings; years
of bustle, action, unslacked endeavour; years in which I and my wife,
having launched ourselves in the full career of progress, as progress
whirls on in European capitals, scarcely knew repose, were strangers to
amusement, never thought of indulgence, and yet, as our course ran side by
side, as we marched hand in hand, we neither murmured, repented, nor
faltered. Hope indeed cheered us; health kept us up; harmony of thought
and deed smoothed many difficulties, and finally, success bestowed every
now and then encouraging reward on diligence. Our school became one of the
most popular in Brussels, and as by degrees we raised our terms and
elevated our system of education, our choice of pupils grew more select,
and at length included the children of the best families in Belgium. We
had too an excellent connection in England, first opened by the
unsolicited recommendation of Mr. Hunsden, who having been over, and
having abused me for my prosperity in set terms, went back, and soon after
sent a leash of young ——shire heiresses—his cousins; as
he said “to be polished off by Mrs. Crimsworth.”
As to this same Mrs. Crimsworth, in one sense she was become another
woman, though in another she remained unchanged. So different was she
under different circumstances. I seemed to possess two wives. The
faculties of her nature, already disclosed when I married her, remained
fresh and fair; but other faculties shot up strong, branched out broad,
and quite altered the external character of the plant. Firmness, activity,
and enterprise, covered with grave foliage, poetic feeling and fervour;
but these flowers were still there, preserved pure and dewy under the
umbrage of later growth and hardier nature: perhaps I only in the world
knew the secret of their existence, but to me they were ever ready to
yield an exquisite fragrance and present a beauty as chaste as radiant.
In the daytime my house and establishment were conducted by Madame the
directress, a stately and elegant woman, bearing much anxious thought on
her large brow; much calculated dignity in her serious mien: immediately
after breakfast I used to part with this lady; I went to my college, she
to her schoolroom; returning for an hour in the course of the day, I found
her always in class, intently occupied; silence, industry, observance,
attending on her presence. When not actually teaching, she was overlooking
and guiding by eye and gesture; she then appeared vigilant and solicitous.
When communicating instruction, her aspect was more animated; she seemed
to feel a certain enjoyment in the occupation. The language in which she
addressed her pupils, though simple and unpretending, was never trite or
dry; she did not speak from routine formulas—she made her own
phrases as she went on, and very nervous and impressive phrases they
frequently were; often, when elucidating favourite points of history, or
geography, she would wax genuinely eloquent in her earnestness. Her
pupils, or at least the elder and more intelligent amongst them,
recognized well the language of a superior mind; they felt too, and some
of them received the impression of elevated sentiments; there was little
fondling between mistress and girls, but some of Frances’ pupils in time
learnt to love her sincerely, all of them beheld her with respect; her
general demeanour towards them was serious; sometimes benignant when they
pleased her with their progress and attention, always scrupulously refined
and considerate. In cases where reproof or punishment was called for she
was usually forbearing enough; but if any took advantage of that
forbearance, which sometimes happened, a sharp, sudden and lightning-like
severity taught the culprit the extent of the mistake committed. Sometimes
a gleam of tenderness softened her eyes and manner, but this was rare;
only when a pupil was sick, or when it pined after home, or in the case of
some little motherless child, or of one much poorer than its companions,
whose scanty wardrobe and mean appointments brought on it the contempt of
the jewelled young countesses and silk-clad misses. Over such feeble
fledglings the directress spread a wing of kindliest protection: it was to
their bedside she came at night to tuck them warmly in; it was after them
she looked in winter to see that they always had a comfortable seat by the
stove; it was they who by turns were summoned to the salon to receive some
little dole of cake or fruit—to sit on a footstool at the fireside—to
enjoy home comforts, and almost home liberty, for an evening together—to
be spoken to gently and softly, comforted, encouraged, cherished—and
when bedtime came, dismissed with a kiss of true tenderness. As to Julia
and Georgiana G——, daughters of an English baronet, as to
Mdlle. Mathilde de ——, heiress of a Belgian count, and sundry
other children of patrician race, the directress was careful of them as of
the others, anxious for their progress, as for that of the rest—but
it never seemed to enter her head to distinguish them by a mark of
preference; one girl of noble blood she loved dearly—a young Irish
baroness—lady Catherine ——; but it was for her
enthusiastic heart and clever head, for her generosity and her genius, the
title and rank went for nothing.
My afternoons were spent also in college, with the exception of an hour
that my wife daily exacted of me for her establishment, and with which she
would not dispense. She said that I must spend that time amongst her
pupils to learn their characters, to be “au courant”
with everything that
was passing in the house, to become interested in what interested her, to
be able to give her my opinion on knotty points when she required it, and
this she did constantly, never allowing my interest in the pupils to fall
asleep, and never making any change of importance without my cognizance
and consent. She delighted to sit by me when I gave my lessons (lessons in
literature), her hands folded on her knee, the most fixedly attentive of
any present. She rarely addressed me in class; when she did it was with an
air of marked deference; it was her pleasure, her joy to make me still the
master in all things.
At six o’clock P.M. my daily labours ceased. I then came home, for my home
was my heaven; ever at that hour, as I entered our private sitting-room,
the lady-directress vanished from before my eyes, and Frances Henri, my
own little lace-mender, was magically restored to my arms; much
disappointed she would have been if her master had not been as constant to
the tryst as herself, and if his truthfull kiss had not been prompt to
answer her soft, “Bon soir, monsieur.”
Talk French to me she would, and many a punishment she has had for her
wilfulness. I fear the choice of chastisement must have been injudicious,
for instead of correcting the fault, it seemed to encourage its renewal.
Our evenings were our own; that recreation was necessary to refresh our
strength for the due discharge of our duties; sometimes we spent them all
in conversation, and my young Genevese, now that she was thoroughly
accustomed to her English professor, now that she loved him too absolutely
to fear him much, reposed in him a confidence so unlimited that topics of
conversation could no more be wanting with him than subjects for communion
with her own heart. In those moments, happy as a bird with its mate, she
would show me what she had of vivacity, of mirth, of originality in her
well-dowered nature. She would show, too, some stores of raillery, of
“malice,” and would vex, tease, pique me sometimes about what she called
my “bizarreries anglaises,” my “caprices insulaires,” with a wild and
witty wickedness that made a perfect white demon of her while it lasted.
This was rare, however, and the elfish freak was always short: sometimes
when driven a little hard in the war of words—for her tongue did
ample justice to the pith, the point, the delicacy of her native French,
in which language she always attacked me—I used to turn upon her
with my old decision, and arrest bodily the sprite that teased me. Vain
idea! no sooner had I grasped hand or arm than the elf was gone; the
provocative smile quenched in the expressive brown eyes, and a ray of
gentle homage shone under the lids in its place. I had seized a mere
vexing fairy, and found a submissive and supplicating little mortal woman
in my arms. Then I made her get a book, and read English to me for an hour
by way of penance. I frequently dosed her with Wordsworth in this way, and
Wordsworth steadied her soon; she had a difficulty in comprehending his
deep, serene, and sober mind; his language, too, was not facile to her;
she had to ask questions, to sue for explanations, to be like a child and
a novice, and to acknowledge me as her senior and director. Her instinct
instantly penetrated and possessed the meaning of more ardent and
imaginative writers. Byron excited her; Scott she loved; Wordsworth only
she puzzled at, wondered over, and hesitated to pronounce an opinion upon.
But whether she read to me, or talked with me; whether she teased me in
French, or entreated me in English; whether she jested with wit, or
inquired with deference; narrated with interest, or listened with
attention; whether she smiled at me or on me, always
at nine o’clock I was left abandoned.
She would extricate herself from my arms, quit my side,
take her lamp, and be gone. Her mission was upstairs; I have followed her
sometimes and watched her. First she opened the door of the dortoir (the
pupils’ chamber), noiselessly she glided up the long room between the two
rows of white beds, surveyed all the sleepers; if any were wakeful,
especially if any were sad, spoke to them and soothed them; stood some
minutes to ascertain that all was safe and tranquil; trimmed the
watch-light which burned in the apartment all night, then withdrew,
closing the door behind her without sound. Thence she glided to our own
chamber; it had a little cabinet within; this she sought; there, too,
appeared a bed, but one, and that a very small one; her face (the night I
followed and observed her) changed as she approached this tiny couch; from
grave it warmed to earnest; she shaded with one hand the lamp she held in
the other; she bent above the pillow and hung over a child asleep; its
slumber (that evening at least, and usually, I believe) was sound and
calm; no tear wet its dark eyelashes; no fever heated its round cheek; no
ill dream discomposed its budding features. Frances gazed, she did not
smile, and yet the deepest delight filled, flushed her face; feeling
pleasurable, powerful, worked in her whole frame, which still was
motionless. I saw, indeed, her heart heave, her lips were a little apart,
her breathing grew somewhat hurried; the child smiled; then at last the
mother smiled too, and said in low soliloquy, “God bless my little son!”
She stooped closer over him, breathed the softest of kisses on his brow,
covered his minute hand with hers, and at last started up and came away. I
regained the parlour before her. Entering it two minutes later she said
quietly as she put down her extinguished lamp—
“Victor rests well: he smiled in his sleep; he has your smile, monsieur.”
The said Victor was of course her own boy, born in the third year of our
marriage: his Christian name had been given him in honour of M.
Vandenhuten, who continued always our trusty and well-beloved friend.
Frances was then a good and dear wife to me, because I was to her a good,
just, and faithful husband. What she would have been had she married a
harsh, envious, careless man—a profligate, a prodigal, a drunkard,
or a tyrant—is another question, and one which I once propounded to
her. Her answer, given after some reflection, was—
“I should have tried to endure the evil or cure it for awhile; and when I
found it intolerable and incurable, I should have left my torturer
suddenly and silently.”
“And if law or might had forced you back again?”
“What, to a drunkard, a profligate, a selfish spendthrift, an unjust
fool?”
“Yes.”
“I would have gone back; again assured myself whether or not his vice and
my misery were capable of remedy; and if not, have left him again.”
“And if again forced to return, and compelled to abide?”
“I don’t know,” she said, hastily. “Why do you ask me, monsieur?”
I would have an answer, because I saw a strange kind of spirit in her eye,
whose voice I determined to waken.
“Monsieur, if a wife’s nature loathes that of the man she is wedded to,
marriage must be slavery. Against slavery all right thinkers revolt, and
though torture be the price of resistance, torture must be dared: though
the only road to freedom lie through the gates of death, those gates must
be passed; for freedom is indispensable. Then, monsieur, I would resist as
far as my strength permitted; when that strength failed I should be sure
of a refuge. Death would certainly screen me both from bad laws and their
consequences.”
“Voluntary death, Frances?”
“No, monsieur. I’d have courage to live out every throe of anguish fate
assigned me, and principle to contend for justice and liberty to the
last.”
“I see you would have made no patient Grizzle. And now, supposing fate had
merely assigned you the lot of an old maid, what then? How would you have
liked celibacy?”
“Not much, certainly. An old maid’s life must doubtless be void and
vapid—her heart strained and empty. Had I been an old maid I should have
spent existence in efforts to fill the void and ease the aching. I should
have probably failed, and died weary and disappointed, despised and of no
account, like other single women. But I’m not an old maid,” she added
quickly. “I should have been, though, but for my master. I should never
have suited any man but Professor Crimsworth—no other gentleman,
French, English, or Belgian, would have thought me amiable or handsome;
and I doubt whether I should have cared for the approbation of many
others, if I could have obtained it. Now, I have been Professor
Crimsworth’s wife eight years, and what is he in my eyes? Is he
honourable, beloved ——?” She stopped, her voice was cut off,
her eyes suddenly suffused. She and I were standing side by side; she
threw her arms round me, and strained me to her heart with passionate
earnestness: the energy of her whole being glowed in her dark and then
dilated eye, and crimsoned her animated cheek; her look and movement were
like inspiration; in one there was such a flash, in the other such a
power. Half an hour afterwards, when she had become calm, I asked where
all that wild vigour was gone which had transformed her ere-while and made
her glance so thrilling and ardent—her action so rapid and strong.
She looked down, smiling softly and passively:—
“I cannot tell where it is gone, monsieur,” said she, “but I know that,
whenever it is wanted, it will come back again.”
Behold us now at the close of the ten years, and we have realized an
independency. The rapidity with which we attained this end had its origin
in three reasons:— Firstly, we worked so hard for it; secondly, we
had no incumbrances to delay success; thirdly, as soon as we had capital
to invest, two well-skilled counsellors, one in Belgium, one in England,
viz. Vandenhuten and Hunsden, gave us each a word of advice as to the sort
of investment to be chosen. The suggestion made was judicious; and, being
promptly acted on, the result proved gainful—I need not say how
gainful; I communicated details to Messrs. Vandenhuten and Hunsden; nobody
else can be interested in hearing them.
Accounts being wound up, and our professional connection disposed of, we
both agreed that, as mammon was not our master, nor his service that in
which we desired to spend our lives; as our desires were temperate, and
our habits unostentatious, we had now abundance to live on—abundance
to leave our boy; and should besides always have a balance on hand, which,
properly managed by right sympathy and unselfish activity, might help
philanthropy in her enterprises, and put solace into the hand of charity.
To England we now resolved to take wing; we arrived there safely; Frances
realized the dream of her lifetime. We spent a whole summer and autumn in
travelling from end to end of the British islands, and afterwards passed a
winter in London. Then we thought it high time to fix our residence. My
heart yearned towards my native county of ——shire; and it is
in ——shire I now live; it is in the library of my own home I
am now writing. That home lies amid a sequestered and rather hilly region,
thirty miles removed from X——; a region whose verdure the
smoke of mills has not yet sullied, whose waters still run pure, whose
swells of moorland preserve in some ferny glens that lie between them the
very primal wildness of nature, her moss, her bracken, her blue-bells, her
scents of reed and heather, her free and fresh breezes. My house is a
picturesque and not too spacious dwelling, with low and long windows, a
trellised and leaf-veiled porch over the front door, just now, on this
summer evening, looking like an arch of roses and ivy. The garden is
chiefly laid out in lawn, formed of the sod of the hills, with herbage
short and soft as moss, full of its own peculiar flowers, tiny and
starlike, imbedded in the minute embroidery of their fine foliage. At the
bottom of the sloping garden there is a wicket, which opens upon a lane as
green as the lawn, very long, shady, and little frequented; on the turf of
this lane generally appear the first daisies of spring—whence its
name—Daisy Lane; serving also as a distinction to the house.
It terminates (the lane I mean) in a valley full of wood; which
wood—chiefly oak and beech—spreads shadowy about the vicinage of a very
old mansion, one of the Elizabethan structures, much larger, as well as
more antique than Daisy Lane, the property and residence of an individual
familiar both to me and to the reader. Yes, in Hunsden Wood—for so
are those glades and that grey building, with many gables and more
chimneys, named—abides Yorke Hunsden, still unmarried; never, I
suppose, having yet found his ideal, though I know at least a score of
young ladies within a circuit of forty miles, who would be willing to
assist him in the search.
The estate fell to him by the death of his father, five years since; he
has given up trade, after having made by it sufficient to pay off some
incumbrances by which the family heritage was burdened. I say he abides
here, but I do not think he is resident above five months out of the
twelve; he wanders from land to land, and spends some part of each winter
in town: he frequently brings visitors with him when he comes to ——shire,
and these visitors are often foreigners; sometimes he has a German
metaphysician, sometimes a French savant; he had once a dissatisfied and
savage-looking Italian, who neither sang nor played, and of whom Frances
affirmed that he had “tout l’air d’un conspirateur.”
What English guests Hunsden invites, are all either men of Birmingham or
Manchester—hard men, seemingly knit up in one thought, whose talk is
of free trade. The foreign visitors, too, are politicians; they take a
wider theme—European progress—the spread of liberal sentiments
over the Continent; on their mental tablets, the names of Russia, Austria,
and the Pope, are inscribed in red ink. I have heard some of them talk
vigorous sense—yea, I have been present at polyglot discussions in
the old, oak-lined dining-room at Hunsden Wood, where a singular insight
was given of the sentiments entertained by resolute minds respecting old
northern despotisms, and old southern superstitions: also, I have heard
much twaddle, enounced chiefly in French and Deutsch, but let that pass.
Hunsden himself tolerated the drivelling theorists; with the practical men
he seemed leagued hand and heart.
When Hunsden is staying alone at the Wood (which seldom happens) he
generally finds his way two or three times a week to Daisy Lane. He has a
philanthropic motive for coming to smoke his cigar in our porch on summer
evenings; he says he does it to kill the earwigs amongst the roses, with
which insects, but for his benevolent fumigations, he intimates we should
certainly be overrun. On wet days, too, we are almost sure to see him;
according to him, it gets on time to work me into lunacy by treading on my
mental corns, or to force from Mrs. Crimsworth revelations of the dragon
within her, by insulting the memory of Hofer and Tell.
We also go frequently to Hunsden Wood, and both I and Frances relish a
visit there highly. If there are other guests, their characters are an
interesting study; their conversation is exciting and strange; the absence
of all local narrowness both in the host and his chosen society gives a
metropolitan, almost a cosmopolitan freedom and largeness to the talk.
Hunsden himself is a polite man in his own house: he has, when he chooses
to employ it, an inexhaustible power of entertaining guests; his very
mansion too is interesting, the rooms look storied, the passages
legendary, the low-ceiled chambers, with their long rows of diamond-paned
lattices, have an old-world, haunted air: in his travels he has collected
stores of articles of virtu, which are well and
tastefully disposed in his panelled or tapestried rooms: I have seen there
one or two pictures, and one or two pieces of statuary which many an
aristocratic connoisseur might have envied.
When I and Frances have dined and spent an evening with Hunsden, he often
walks home with us. His wood is large, and some of the timber is old and
of huge growth. There are winding ways in it which, pursued through glade
and brake, make the walk back to Daisy Lane a somewhat long one. Many a
time, when we have had the benefit of a full moon, and when the night has
been mild and balmy, when, moreover, a certain nightingale has been
singing, and a certain stream, hid in alders, has lent the song a soft
accompaniment, the remote church-bell of the one hamlet in a district of
ten miles, has tolled midnight ere the lord of the wood left us at our
porch. Free-flowing was his talk at such hours, and far more quiet and
gentle than in the day-time and before numbers. He would then forget
politics and discussion, and would dwell on the past times of his house,
on his family history, on himself and his own feelings—subjects each
and all invested with a peculiar zest, for they were each and all unique.
One glorious night in June, after I had been taunting him about his ideal
bride and asking him when she would come and graft her foreign beauty on
the old Hunsden oak, he answered suddenly—
“You call her ideal; but see, here is her shadow; and there cannot be a
shadow without a substance.”
He had led us from the depth of the “winding way” into a glade from whence
the beeches withdrew, leaving it open to the sky; an unclouded moon poured
her light into this glade, and Hunsden held out under her beam an ivory
miniature.
Frances, with eagerness, examined it first; then she gave it to me—still,
however, pushing her little face close to mine, and seeking in my eyes
what I thought of the portrait. I thought it represented a very handsome
and very individual-looking female face, with, as he had once said,
“straight and harmonious features.” It was dark; the hair, raven-black,
swept not only from the brow, but from the temples—seemed thrust
away carelessly, as if such beauty dispensed with, nay, despised
arrangement. The Italian eye looked straight into you, and an independent,
determined eye it was; the mouth was as firm as fine; the chin ditto. On
the back of the miniature was gilded “Lucia.”
“That is a real head,” was my conclusion.
Hunsden smiled.
“I think so,” he replied. “All was real in Lucia.”
“And she was somebody you would have liked to marry—but could not?”
“I should certainly have liked to marry her, and that I have not
done so is a proof that I could not.”
He repossessed himself of the miniature, now again in Frances’ hand, and
put it away.
“What do you think of it?” he asked of my wife, as he buttoned
his coat over it.
“I am sure Lucia once wore chains and broke them,” was the strange answer.
“I do not mean matrimonial chains,” she added, correcting herself, as if
she feared mis-interpretation, “but social chains of some sort. The face
is that of one who has made an effort, and a successful and triumphant
effort, to wrest some vigorous and valued faculty from insupportable
constraint; and when Lucia’s faculty got free, I am certain it spread wide
pinions and carried her higher than—” she hesitated.
“Than what?” demanded Hunsden.
“Than ‘les convenances’ permitted you to follow.”
“I think you grow spiteful—impertinent.”
“Lucia has trodden the stage,” continued Frances. “You never seriously
thought of marrying her; you admired her originality, her fearlessness,
her energy of body and mind; you delighted in her talent, whatever that
was, whether song, dance, or dramatic representation; you worshipped her
beauty, which was of the sort after your own heart: but I am sure she
filled a sphere from whence you would never have thought of taking a
wife.”
“Ingenious,” remarked Hunsden; “whether true or not is another question.
Meantime, don’t you feel your little lamp of a spirit wax very pale,
beside such a girandole as Lucia’s?”
“Yes.”
“Candid, at least; and the Professor will soon be dissatisfied with the
dim light you give?”
“Will you, monsieur?”
“My sight was always too weak to endure a blaze, Frances,” and we had now
reached the wicket.
I said, a few pages back, that this is a sweet summer evening; it is—there
has been a series of lovely days, and this is the loveliest; the hay is
just carried from my fields, its perfume still lingers in the air. Frances
proposed to me, an hour or two since, to take tea out on the lawn; I see
the round table, loaded with china, placed under a certain beech; Hunsden
is expected—nay, I hear he is come—there is his voice, laying
down the law on some point with authority; that of Frances replies; she
opposes him of course. They are disputing about Victor, of whom Hunsden
affirms that his mother is making a milksop. Mrs. Crimsworth retaliates:—
“Better a thousand times he should be a milksop than what he, Hunsden,
calls ‘a fine lad;’ and moreover she says that if Hunsden were to become a
fixture in the neighbourhood, and were not a mere comet, coming and going,
no one knows how, when, where, or why, she should be quite uneasy till she
had got Victor away to a school at least a hundred miles off; for that
with his mutinous maxims and unpractical dogmas, he would ruin a score of
children.”
I have a word to say of Victor ere I shut this manuscript in my desk—but
it must be a brief one, for I hear the tinkle of silver on porcelain.
Victor is as little of a pretty child as I am of a handsome man, or his
mother of a fine woman; he is pale and spare, with large eyes, as dark as
those of Frances, and as deeply set as mine. His shape is symmetrical
enough, but slight; his health is good. I never saw a child smile less
than he does, nor one who knits such a formidable brow when sitting over a
book that interests him, or while listening to tales of adventure, peril,
or wonder, narrated by his mother, Hunsden, or myself. But though still,
he is not unhappy—though serious, not morose; he has a
susceptibility to pleasurable sensations almost too keen, for it amounts
to enthusiasm. He learned to read in the old-fashioned way out of a
spelling-book at his mother’s knee, and as he got on without driving by
that method, she thought it unnecessary to buy him ivory letters, or to
try any of the other inducements to learning now deemed indispensable.
When he could read, he became a glutton of books, and is so still. His
toys have been few, and he has never wanted more. For those he possesses,
he seems to have contracted a partiality amounting to affection; this
feeling, directed towards one or two living animals of the house,
strengthens almost to a passion.
Mr. Hunsden gave him a mastiff cub, which he called Yorke, after the
donor; it grew to a superb dog, whose fierceness, however, was much
modified by the companionship and caresses of its young master. He would
go nowhere, do nothing without Yorke; Yorke lay at his feet while he
learned his lessons, played with him in the garden, walked with him in the
lane and wood, sat near his chair at meals, was fed always by his own
hand, was the first thing he sought in the morning, the last he left at
night. Yorke accompanied Mr. Hunsden one day to X——, and was
bitten in the street by a dog in a rabid state. As soon as Hunsden had
brought him home, and had informed me of the circumstance, I went into the
yard and shot him where he lay licking his wound: he was dead in an
instant; he had not seen me level the gun; I stood behind him. I had
scarcely been ten minutes in the house, when my ear was struck with sounds
of anguish: I repaired to the yard once more, for they proceeded thence.
Victor was kneeling beside his dead mastiff, bent over it, embracing its
bull-like neck, and lost in a passion of the wildest woe: he saw me.
“Oh, papa, I’ll never forgive you! I’ll never forgive you!” was his
exclamation. “You shot Yorke—I saw it from the window. I never
believed you could be so cruel—I can love you no more!”
I had much ado to explain to him, with a steady voice, the stern necessity
of the deed; he still, with that inconsolable and bitter accent which I
cannot render, but which pierced my heart, repeated—
“He might have been cured—you should have tried—you should
have burnt the wound with a hot iron, or covered it with caustic. You gave
no time; and now it is too late—he is dead!”
He sank fairly down on the senseless carcase; I waited patiently a long
while, till his grief had somewhat exhausted him; and then I lifted him in
my arms and carried him to his mother, sure that she would comfort him
best. She had witnessed the whole scene from a window; she would not come
out for fear of increasing my difficulties by her emotion, but she was
ready now to receive him. She took him to her kind heart, and on to her
gentle lap; consoled him but with her lips, her eyes, her soft embrace,
for some time; and then, when his sobs diminished, told him that Yorke had
felt no pain in dying, and that if he had been left to expire naturally,
his end would have been most horrible; above all, she told him that I was
not cruel (for that idea seemed to give exquisite pain to poor Victor),
that it was my affection for Yorke and him which had made me act so, and
that I was now almost heart-broken to see him weep thus bitterly.
Victor would have been no true son of his father, had these
considerations, these reasons, breathed in so low, so sweet a tone—married
to caresses so benign, so tender—to looks so inspired with pitying
sympathy—produced no effect on him. They did produce an effect: he
grew calmer, rested his face on her shoulder, and lay still in her arms.
Looking up, shortly, he asked his mother to tell him over again what she
had said about Yorke having suffered no pain, and my not being cruel; the
balmy words being repeated, he again pillowed his cheek on her breast, and
was again tranquil.
Some hours after, he came to me in my library, asked if I forgave him, and
desired to be reconciled. I drew the lad to my side, and there I kept him
a good while, and had much talk with him, in the course of which he
disclosed many points of feeling and thought I approved of in my son. I
found, it is true, few elements of the “good fellow” or the “fine fellow”
in him; scant sparkles of the spirit which loves to flash over the wine
cup, or which kindles the passions to a destroying fire; but I saw in the
soil of his heart healthy and swelling germs of compassion, affection,
fidelity. I discovered in the garden of his intellect a rich growth of
wholesome principles—reason, justice, moral courage, promised, if
not blighted, a fertile bearing. So I bestowed on his large forehead, and
on his cheek—still pale with tears—a proud and contented kiss,
and sent him away comforted. Yet I saw him the next day laid on the mound
under which Yorke had been buried, his face covered with his hands; he was
melancholy for some weeks, and more than a year elapsed before he would
listen to any proposal of having another dog.
Victor learns fast. He must soon go to Eton, where, I suspect, his first
year or two will be utter wretchedness: to leave me, his mother, and his
home, will give his heart an agonized wrench; then, the fagging will not
suit him—but emulation, thirst after knowledge, the glory of
success, will stir and reward him in time. Meantime, I feel in myself a
strong repugnance to fix the hour which will uproot my sole olive branch,
and transplant it far from me; and, when I speak to Frances on the
subject, I am heard with a kind of patient pain, as though I alluded to
some fearful operation, at which her nature shudders, but from which her
fortitude will not permit her to recoil. The step must, however, be taken,
and it shall be; for, though Frances will not make a milksop of
her son, she will accustom him to a style of treatment, a forbearance, a
congenial tenderness, he will meet with from none else. She sees, as I
also see, a something in Victor’s temper—a kind of electrical ardour and
power—which emits, now and then, ominous sparks; Hunsden calls it his
spirit, and says it should not be curbed. I call it the leaven of the
offending Adam, and consider that it should be, if not whipped
out of him, at least soundly disciplined; and that he will be cheap of any
amount of either bodily or mental suffering which will ground him
radically in the art of self-control. Frances gives this
something in her son’s marked character
no name; but when it appears in the grinding of his teeth, in the
glittering of his eye, in the fierce revolt of feeling against
disappointment, mischance, sudden sorrow, or supposed injustice, she folds
him to her breast, or takes him to walk with her alone in the wood; then
she reasons with him like any philosopher, and to reason Victor is ever
accessible; then she looks at him with eyes of love, and by love Victor
can be infallibly subjugated; but will reason or love be the weapons with
which in future the world will meet his violence? Oh, no! for that flash
in his black eye—for that cloud on his bony brow—for that
compression of his statuesque lips, the lad will some day get blows
instead of blandishments—kicks instead of kisses; then for the fit
of mute fury which will sicken his body and madden his soul; then for the
ordeal of merited and salutary suffering, out of which he will come (I
trust) a wiser and a better man.
I see him now; he stands by Hunsden, who is seated on the lawn under the
beech; Hunsden’s hand rests on the boy’s collar, and he is instilling God
knows what principles into his ear. Victor looks well just now, for he
listens with a sort of smiling interest; he never looks so like his mother
as when he smiles—pity the sunshine breaks out so rarely! Victor has
a preference for Hunsden, full as strong as I deem desirable, being
considerably more potent, decided, and indiscriminating, than any I ever
entertained for that personage myself. Frances, too, regards it with a
sort of unexpressed anxiety; while her son leans on Hunsden’s knee, or
rests against his shoulder, she roves with restless movement round, like a
dove guarding its young from a hovering hawk; she says she wishes Hunsden
had children of his own, for then he would better know the danger of
inciting their pride and indulging their foibles.
Frances approaches my library window; puts aside the honeysuckle which
half covers it, and tells me tea is ready; seeing that I continue busy she
enters the room, comes near me quietly, and puts her hand on my shoulder.
“Monsieur est trop appliqué.”
“I shall soon have done.”
She draws a chair near, and sits down to wait till I have finished; her
presence is as pleasant to my mind as the perfume of the fresh hay and
spicy flowers, as the glow of the westering sun, as the repose of the
midsummer eve are to my senses.
But Hunsden comes; I hear his step, and there he is, bending through the
lattice, from which he has thrust away the woodbine with unsparing hand,
disturbing two bees and a butterfly.
“Crimsworth! I say, Crimsworth! take that pen out of his hand, mistress,
and make him lift up his head.”
“Well, Hunsden? I hear you—”
“I was at X—— yesterday! your brother Ned is getting richer
than Croesus by railway speculations; they call him in the Piece Hall a
stag of ten; and I have heard from Brown. M. and Madame Vandenhuten and
Jean Baptiste talk of coming to see you next month. He mentions the Pelets
too; he says their domestic harmony is not the finest in the world, but in
business they are doing ‘on ne peut mieux,’ which circumstance he
concludes will be a sufficient consolation to both for any little crosses
in the affections. Why don’t you invite the Pelets to ——shire,
Crimsworth? I should so like to see your first flame, Zoraïde. Mistress,
don’t be jealous, but he loved that lady to distraction; I know it for a
fact. Brown says she weighs twelve stones now; you see what you’ve lost,
Mr. Professor. Now, Monsieur and Madame, if you don’t come to tea, Victor
and I will begin without you.”
“Papa, come!”