My Dearest Father:
With what emotions of grief and amazement
I commence this letter you can form
no just conception. Jesus, the Prophet of
God, is a prisoner to the Roman power!
But I fear not the issue! He cannot be
holden of his foes, save by his own free will.
He can, with a word, turn his chains into
bands of sand, and by a glance render his
guards dead men. He will, therefore, escape
their bonds. They can have no power over
him.
It seems that to-day, after eating the Passover
with his twelve chosen friends, and instituting
a new and peculiar feast with wine
and bread, which he told them impressively
would be his last supper with them, he went
forth towards Olivet, and there, seating himself
beneath the shade of a tree, he talked
with them very sadly, saying that "his
hour was come, that he had ended his work,
and that he was about to be delivered into
the hands of sinful men."
John gave the following narrative: "It
was evening, and the south side of Olivet
lay in deep shadow. We were all sorrowful.
We felt, each one of us, as if some grievous
evil was pending over us. The tones of our
beloved Master's voice moved us to tears,
quite as much as his words, which latter
were full of mystery. We were all present
except Iscariot, who had remained in the
city to discharge the costs—he being our
purse-bearer—of the Passover supper and
pay for the hire of the room. At that supper
Jesus had said very plainly that one of our
number would betray him into the hands of
the priests. At hearing our Lord say these
strange words in accents of touching reproach,
we were all deeply moved, and
Peter and the rest at once questioned him
individually, if it were they. 'Lord, is it
I?' and another, 'Lord, is it I?' I was resting,
at the moment, with my face on the
shoulder of Jesus, and said softly, 'Lord,
who is it that betrayeth thee? I will forthwith
lay hands upon him and prevent his
doing thee harm.' Jesus shook his head and
smiling gently, said:
"'My beloved brother, thou knowest not
what thou would do. The Son of man must
needs be betrayed by his own friends, but
woe unto him who betrayeth me! Mark
which of the twelve dippeth bread with me
into the dish!'
"I looked and saw Judas reach forward
and dip into the dish at the same instant
with Jesus; but in his eagerness, or from
conscious guilt, his hand trembled, he spilled
the salt over the board, and the sop fell
from his grasp into the bowl; upon which
Jesus gave him the piece he held, saying to
him, with a remarkable expression in his
clear, piercing eyes:
"'Judas, that thou doest, do quickly!'
"Instantly Judas rose from the table, and
without a reply or casting a look at any of
us, went out.
"For a few moments after his footsteps
had ceased to be heard, there prevailed a
heavy silence in the chamber, for a strange
fear had fallen upon us; why, we could not
tell; and looking into one another's faces,
and then into our dear Master's, we seemed
to await some dread event. His face was
placid and full of affection as he looked upon
us. The momentary cloud which shaded
the noble profile when he spoke to Judas
had all passed off, and there was the serenity
of a cloudless sky in his face."
"What was the mysterious feast which
he instituted?" asked Mary, interrupting
John here.
"You may properly call it mysterious," he
answered. "As we were eating the Passover,
Jesus took up bread
and, blessing it by a solemn
act of consecration, broke it
with his hands and gave a
portion to each of us, saying
with it, 'Take, eat; this
is my body!'
"Awed and impressed by
his manner and the act, we
all received and ate it as
he commanded us to do, as
reverently as if it were the
holy shew-bread of the
Temple, dedicated to God's
use. When we had eaten
in silence what we perceived
was the inauguration
of a new and most
sacred feast by his own
hand, he took up the cup of
wine, and consecrated it
also by giving thanks and blessing. The
hallowed cup he now offered to each one of
us. We all drank of it with deep devotion,
for he said to us, 'I will drink no more with
you the fruit of the vine until that day that
I drink it new in the kingdom of God!' He
also said of the wine, 'This is my blood!'"
"And how do you understand these words,
that the bread consecrated was his body,
and the wine was his blood?" I asked of the
disciple.
"That is an inquiry I cannot answer,"
said John. "It is a mystery. But the Lord
says it shall be made clear to us by and by.
"We then sang the Passover hymn to God,
and went out at his command to go to Olivet.
As we went he discoursed with us:
"'My children,' he said. 'I am to be with
you but a little while longer. The hour of
my departure is at hand. Remember my last
words—love one another. In this shall all
men know that ye are my disciples.'
"'Lord,' cried Peter, 'we will go with
thee! Thou shalt not leave us nor go without
us!'
"Thus we all, eagerly and tearfully, gathered
around him, alarmed and grieved at the
words he had said. He regarded us lovingly
and said:
"'Little children, I must leave you.
Whither I go you cannot come!'
"'Though thou wentest to the uttermost
parts of the sea, I will follow thee, my Master
and Lord!' exclaimed Peter. 'Whither
goest thou, that we may not follow? I will
lay down my life for thee; and so will all
these!'
"'Wilt thou die for me, Peter?' asked
Jesus, gazing on him with a sad, sweet look.
'Verily, verily, Peter, thou little knowest
thyself. The cock shall not crow twice ere
thou shalt thrice deny that thou knowest
me.'
"'Deny thee, Lord!' repeated Peter, with
amazed grief and horror in his looks.
"'Yes, Peter,' answered Jesus, firmly but
kindly, 'deny that thou ever knewest me;
for the time draweth near when there shall
be safety only in confessing ignorance of
Jesus the Nazarene. And all ye,' he added,
while his voice grew tremulous, and tears
glistened in his eyes, 'all ye shall be
offended because of me this night; ye shall
be ashamed that ye are my disciples, and
ye will think me a deceiver and will be displeased
at me. Yea, every one of you shall
desert me; for thus it is written: "The shepherd
shall be smitten, and the sheep shall be
scattered!"'
"When he saw that our hearts were
troubled and that we were sad, and that the
faithful Philip sobbed aloud at being supposed
capable of abandoning his Master, he
added, 'Let not your hearts be troubled; I
go to prepare a place for you in my Father's
house!'
"'Thy father, Lord, no longer liveth in
Nazareth; and, were he alive, there are but
two small apartments in his humble house,'
said Thomas. 'How sayest thou that we
are all to lodge there?'
"'Thomas, thou canst understand only
what thine eyes see. I speak of my Father
who is in heaven. In his house are many
mansions.'
"Jesus then, as we drew near Cedron, began
plainly to tell us that he was to die, and
that by his death we should be admitted
into a heavenly paradise and live forever.
We could not understand all he said, but we
knew that he was soon to be taken from us
and sorrow filled all our hearts. After discoursing
with us in the most touching
words, he at length said:
"'Come, let us go over Cedron to the side
of Olivet, into the garden we so much love
to walk in.'
"We went with him, inclosing him as a
guard, to conceal his person from the Jewish
spies, as well as to defend him. Peter and
James went before. The full moon shone
brightly, and by its light glancing on the
face of Jesus, by whom I walked, I saw that
it was sadder than its wont, while he spoke
but little.
"We at length crossed the brook and entered
the dark groves of Olivet. Familiar
with all the paths, we advanced to a central
group of venerable olive trees, beneath
which, tradition says, Abraham used to sit;
and there Jesus, turning to us, said in a
voice of the deepest woe:
"'Friends, the hour of my time of trial is
come! My work is ended. I would be
alone. Remain you here and watch, for we
shall be sought for. Come with me, Peter,
and you also, James. I am going to pray
yonder.'
"'Take me, also, dear Lord!' I said, sorrowfully.
"'Yes, thou art always with me, beloved!'
he answered. 'I will not leave thee now.'
"So leaving the eight friends to keep
watch against the intrusion of his enemies,
who were known to be everywhere seeking
him, he walked away to the most secluded
recesses of the garden. He stopped at the
place near the rock where Adam is said to
have hidden from Jehovah, and saying to us
in a sorrowful tone, 'Tarry ye here, while I
go apart and pray to my Father,' he went
from us about a stone's cast and kneeled
down, where a thick olive branch hanging
low to the ground concealed him from our
view. I was so solicitous lest he should
leave us and we should see him no more,
that I soon softly advanced near to the spot
and beheld him prostrate on the ground,
while deep groans broke from his heart. I
heard his voice murmuring, but could not
distinguish the words broken by grief; only
the tones were those of strange horror and
dread.
"As he prayed thus in great agony, I suddenly
beheld a swift light pass by me, as if
from the skies, and lo! an angel stood by
the side of Jesus, bending over him and raising
him up from the ground. A soft, bright
glory shone around the spot, so that Peter,
seeing it, advanced towards me, supposing
some one had entered the garden bearing a
torch. I beckoned to Peter to be motionless,
and he gazed with me in speechless astonishment
and admiration upon the form of
the angel, from whose glorious face was
emitted the radiance which illumined the
place where Jesus was. As the angel raised
Jesus from the ground, we saw that his divine
countenance was convulsed with
anguish, and upon his brow stood great shining
drops of sweat, mingled with blood,
which oozed from his pallid temples and,
rolling down his marble cheeks, dropped to
the ground. Never had we beheld a human
visage so marred by sorrow, so deeply
graven with the lines of agony.
"The angel seemed to utter soothing
words, and pointed with his shining hand
towards heaven, as if to encourage him with
hope and give him strength. The face of
Jesus grew more serene; he raised his eyes
heavenward with a divine expression of holy
love, and cried in a strong voice:
"'Thy will, not mine, O God, be done!'
"The angel then embraced him, as if
strengthening him, and soaring upward, disappeared
like a star returning into the blue
depths of heaven, while Peter and I stood by
wondering and full of awe at what we beheld.
"We remained for some time conversing
together upon the wonderful vision we had
seen, which confirmed us in the certainty
that Jesus came from God, and was in truth
the Messias that should come; but at length,
wearied with our day's excitements, we
must have fallen asleep, for we were suddenly
startled by the voice of our dear Master
saying:
"'Why sleep ye, children? But the hour
is past for watching. Ye may sleep on now,
for though your flesh is weary, your spirit
is willing. I need your aid no longer!'
"While he was speaking, we saw many
torches gleaming through the trees, along
King David's walk, and the tramp of feet
fell on our ears. We soon saw a large party
advancing into the midst of the
garden, who walked rapidly and
spoke only in undertones. We at
once took the alarm and said to
Jesus:
"'Fly, dear Master! Let us
ascend the hill, and escape by the
way of Bethany, for these are enemies!'
"'Nay,' answered our dear Master.
'It must needs be that I deliver
myself into the hands of
these men. How else shall the
Scriptures be fulfilled? Seek safety
in flight for yourselves, but I must
go whither they will lead me.'
"'Not so, Lord,' answered
Peter. 'There is time for thee to
escape; or, if not, we will stand
by thee and defend thee.'
"So said all the disciples. Jesus
shook his head and said, with a
sad smile, 'Ye know not what ye
say or would do. Mine hour is come!'
"While he yet spake the multitude drew
nearer, and those who had the lead, raising
their torches high above their heads, discovered
us, with Jesus in the midst. To my
surprise I beheld Judas acting as their guide,
for he alone knew where his Master was to
be found at that hour. Upon discovering
Jesus this wicked man ran forward, with
expressions of friendship in his face, and
kissed Jesus on the cheek, saying:
"'Hail, Master! I am glad I have found
thee!'
"'Judas,' said Jesus, 'betrayest thou the
Son of man with a kiss?'
"When Judas heard this he turned to the
multitude, at the head of which I recognized
some of the chief priests, and of the most
learned scribes of the Temple, and cried
aloud:
"'This is he! Seize him, and hold him
fast!'
"Thereupon the crowd, to the number of
full ten score men, among whom were the
vilest sort of people, rushed forward to lay
hands upon Jesus, the moon and torches together
shedding almost the bright light of
day into the garden upon the whole group.
"At seeing them advance so furiously,
with spears and clubs and swords, Peter
and James placed themselves before Jesus
to defend him, while I, being unarmed, cast
myself across his breast, to shield his heart
with my body. The more bold men in the
crowd coming too near, Peter smote one of
them with his sword, as he was reaching
out his arm to grasp Jesus by the shoulder,
and clave off his ear. At seeing this the
crowd uttered a fierce shout, and were pressing
upon us, when Jesus raised the palm of
his hand and said quietly:
"'Whom seek ye?'
"Instantly the whole mass rolled backward,
like a receding billow rebounding
from the face of an immovable rock, and
every man thereof fell with his forehead to
the ground, where they all lay for a minute
stunned. We twelve alone stood, for Judas
had not been struck down, and now remained
gazing with amazement and terror
upon the prostrate enemies of Jesus.
"'Lord,' cried Peter, astonished, 'if thou
canst thus repel thy foes, thou needest not
fear them more. Shall I smite Judas also?'
"'Nay, put up thy sword, Peter! Let him
remain to witness my power, that he may
know that he nor his have any power over
me save that I give them.'
"While he was thus speaking the people
and soldiers rose to their feet, and, instead
of flying, they seemed to be infuriated at
their discomfiture; and the chief priests crying
out that it was by sorcery that they had
been thus stricken down, they rushed madly
forward and laid their hands upon Jesus and
upon us all. In vain I contended against
numbers to rescue Jesus; overpowered, we
were defeated and driven from the garden,
leaving Jesus in the hands of his enemies."
When John had gone thus far in his relation,
dear father, our tears and his were
mingled. But we try and comfort ourselves
with the word of his promise:
"Ye know not now, but ye shall know by
and by, and shall believe truly that I came
out from God. What now seems to you mysterious
shall be made clear as light. Wait
and have faith, and all shall be made known
which now you understand not. Let no
trials and degradations ye see me pass
through cause your faith to fail. I am come
into this world to conquer; but if I stoop, it
is to raise up the world with me when I rise
again!"
I have omitted to mention to you what
more John related as wonderful touching the
arrest of the Prophet. "As the chief priests
bound and laid their hands on him, there
was," he said, "heard in the air the sound
of myriads of rushing wings, and notes like
the gathering signal of a trumpet, echoing
and re-echoing in the skies, as if a countless
host of invisible beings were marshaling,
armies by armies, in mid-heaven! At
these fearful and sublime sounds all raised
their heads but could behold nothing. Then
Jesus said, with a majestic and commanding
look, such as I had never before beheld upon
his face:
"'Ye hear that I am not without heavenly
friends! I have only to pray to my Father
which is in heaven, and he will bid twelve
legions of his angels, now hovering in the
air and yearning to defend me from my foes,
descend to my aid! But I desire not to use
my powers for myself.'"
Thus, dear father, was Jesus borne away
by a fierce multitude and dragged into the
city.
John, whose interest in and affection for
Jesus led him to follow them, heard all this;
but Jesus made no answer, only walking
quietly along, patiently enduring all they
said and did.
As they entered the city gate the Roman
guard, seeing the immense crowd and uproar,
stopped them to learn the cause of the
commotion.
"'We have here a traitor and conspirator,
O captain of the guard,' answered Eli, the
chief priest: 'a pestilent fellow, who calls
himself Christ, a king! We have, therefore,
with this band of hired soldiers, taken him,
as he was met secretly with twelve of his
fellow-conspirators, plotting to overthrow
the government of Cæsar and make himself
king of Judea.'
"'Long live Cæsar! Long live the emperor!'
shouted the Roman soldiers. 'We
have no king but Augustus Imperator!'
"Upon this many of the soldiers cried,
'Take him before the Procurator! He will
give him his deserts, who would take his
procuratorship away from him! To Pilate!
To Pilate!'
"'To Annas!' shouted the Jews. 'First to
Annas!'
"Then, with some shouting one thing and
others another thing, he was hurried towards
the house of Annas.
"When Annas knew that the prisoner was
Jesus, he uttered a fearful oath expressive
of his joy and wicked satisfaction, and,
hastily robing and coming down into the
court, he bade them bring the prisoner in.
But the calm majesty of Jesus abashed him,
and checked the course of insulting questions
he began putting to him. At length
finding that the Prophet would make no reply,
he caused him to be bound still more
closely with more cords, lest he should, like
Samson, rend his bonds and escape on the
way, and sent him to Caiaphas, the High
Priest, saying to him:
"'Caiaphas will find voice for thy tongue,
O Prophet! So, thou wouldst destroy the
Temple, and callest thyself the Son of the
Lord Jehovah! Out, blasphemer! Away
with him, or the house will be swallowed up
with the presence of one so impious! Away
with the man! By the crown of David!
Pilate will make thee king in truth, and give
thee a Roman throne, to which, so that thou
mayest not presently fall from it, he will
nail thee foot and hand!'
"At this the cruel crowd shouted their approbation,
and many cried:
"'Ay, to the cross! to the cross with him!'
"But others said, 'Nay, but to Caiaphas!'
"The captain of the Roman soldiers resolved
that he should be taken before Pilate,
and led the way thither, Jesus bound in the
midst."
With renewed uproar they tumultuously
pressed forward, their way lighted by the
red glare of a hundred torches, insulting the
Roman soldiers with seditious cries. John
followed, but being recognized as one of his
disciples by a soldier in Æmilius' legion, he
was seized and only escaped by leaving his
apparel in the grasp of the rude Roman.
Five of the disciples who have escaped arrest,
are now in this house, whither John
fled also, on eluding the grasp of the soldier,
leaving his linen garment in his hand. We
are all so sad and anxious! To move in
favor of Jesus is only to share his fate and
do him no service.
Yet through all, dear father, I do trust in
him and hope! Oh, I cannot doubt his truth
and power! I have seen him bring Lazarus
up from the grave, and I will not believe
but that he can save himself, and will save
himself, from their hands. It is only when
I shall behold him really no more—see him
really dead—that my faith in his divine mission
will waver.
With eyes blinded with tears, I can
scarcely subscribe myself,
Your sad but loving daughter,
Adina.