I now come to the time in which I myself was mixed up with the people that I
have been writing about. And to make you understand how I became connected with
them, I must give you some little account of myself. My father was the younger
son of a Devonshire gentleman of moderate property; my eldest uncle succeeded
to the estate of his forefathers, my second became an eminent attorney in
London, and my father took orders. Like most poor clergymen, he had a large
family; and I have no doubt was glad enough when my London uncle, who was a
bachelor, offered to take charge of me, and bring me up to be his successor in
business.
In this way I came to live in London, in my uncle’s house, not far from
Gray’s Inn, and to be treated and esteemed as his son, and to labour with
him in his office. I was very fond of the old gentleman. He was the
confidential agent of many country squires, and had attained to his present
position as much by knowledge of human nature as by knowledge of law; though he
was learned enough in the latter. He used to say his business was law, his
pleasure heraldry. From his intimate acquaintance with family history, and all
the tragic courses of life therein involved, to hear him talk, at leisure
times, about any coat of arms that came across his path was as good as a play
or a romance. Many cases of disputed property, dependent on a love of
genealogy, were brought to him, as to a great authority on such points. If the
lawyer who came to consult him was young, he would take no fee, only give him a
long lecture on the importance of attending to heraldry; if the lawyer was of
mature age and good standing, he would mulct him pretty well, and abuse him to
me afterwards as negligent of one great branch of the profession. His house was
in a stately new street called Ormond Street, and in it he had a handsome
library; but all the books treated of things that were past; none of them
planned or looked forward into the future. I worked away—partly for the
sake of my family at home, partly because my uncle had really taught me to
enjoy the kind of practice in which he himself took such delight. I suspect I
worked too hard; at any rate, in seventeen hundred and eighteen I was far from
well, and my good uncle was disturbed by my ill looks.
One day, he rang the bell twice into the clerk’s room at the dingy office
in Grey’s Inn Lane. It was the summons for me, and I went into his
private room just as a gentleman—whom I knew well enough by sight as an
Irish lawyer of more reputation than he deserved—was leaving.
My uncle was slowly rubbing his hands together and considering. I was there two
or three minutes before he spoke. Then he told me that I must pack up my
portmanteau that very afternoon, and start that night by post-horse for West
Chester. I should get there, if all went well, at the end of five days’
time, and must then wait for a packet to cross over to Dublin; from thence I
must proceed to a certain town named Kildoon, and in that neighbourhood I was
to remain, making certain inquiries as to the existence of any descendants of
the younger branch of a family to whom some valuable estates had descended in
the female line. The Irish lawyer whom I had seen was weary of the case, and
would willingly have given up the property, without further ado, to a man who
appeared to claim them; but on laying his tables and trees before my uncle, the
latter had foreseen so many possible prior claimants, that the lawyer had
begged him to undertake the management of the whole business. In his youth, my
uncle would have liked nothing better than going over to Ireland himself, and
ferreting out every scrap of paper or parchment, and every word of tradition
respecting the family. As it was, old and gouty, he deputed me.
Accordingly, I went to Kildoon. I suspect I had something of my uncle’s
delight in following up a genealogical scent, for I very soon found out, when
on the spot, that Mr. Rooney, the Irish lawyer, would have got both himself and
the first claimant into a terrible scrape, if he had pronounced his opinion
that the estates ought to be given up to him. There were three poor Irish
fellows, each nearer of kin to the last possessor; but, a generation before,
there was a still nearer relation, who had never been accounted for, nor his
existence ever discovered by the lawyers, I venture to think, till I routed him
out from the memory of some of the old dependants of the family. What had
become of him? I travelled backwards and forwards; I crossed over to France,
and came back again with a slight clue, which ended in my discovering that,
wild and dissipated himself, he had left one child, a son, of yet worse
character than his father; that this same Hugh Fitzgerald had married a very
beautiful serving-woman of the Byrnes—a person below him in hereditary
rank, but above him in character; that he had died soon after his marriage,
leaving one child, whether a boy or a girl I could not learn, and that the
mother had returned to live in the family of the Byrnes. Now, the chief of this
latter family was serving in the Duke of Berwick’s regiment, and it was
long before I could hear from him; it was more than a year before I got a
short, haughty letter—I fancy he had a soldier’s contempt for a
civilian, an Irishman’s hatred for an Englishman, an exiled
Jacobite’s jealousy of one who prospered and lived tranquilly under the
government he looked upon as an usurpation. “Bridget Fitzgerald,”
he said, “had been faithful to the fortunes of his sister—had
followed her abroad, and to England when Mrs. Starkey had thought fit to
return. Both his sister and her husband were dead, he knew nothing of Bridget
Fitzgerald at the present time: probably Sir Philip Tempest, his nephew’s
guardian, might be able to give me some information.” I have not given
the little contemptuous terms; the way in which faithful service was meant to
imply more than it said—all that has nothing to do with my story. Sir
Philip, when applied to, told me that he paid an annuity regularly to an old
woman named Fitzgerald, living at Coldholme (the village near Starkey
Manor-house). Whether she had any descendants he could not say.
One bleak March evening, I came in sight of the places described at the
beginning of my story. I could hardly understand the rude dialect in which the
direction to old Bridget’s house was given.
“Yo’ see yon furleets,” all run together, gave me no idea
that I was to guide myself by the distant lights that shone in the windows of
the Hall, occupied for the time by a farmer who held the post of steward, while
the Squire, now four or five and twenty, was making the grand tour. However, at
last, I reached Bridget’s cottage—a low, moss-grown place: the
palings that had once surrounded it were broken and gone; and the underwood of
the forest came up to the walls, and must have darkened the windows. It was
about seven o’clock—not late to my London notions—but, after
knocking for some time at the door and receiving no reply, I was driven to
conjecture that the occupant of the house was gone to bed. So I betook myself
to the nearest church I had seen, three miles back on the road I had come, sure
that close to that I should find an inn of some kind; and early the next
morning I set off back to Coldholme, by a field-path which my host assured me I
should find a shorter cut than the road I had taken the night before. It was a
cold, sharp morning; my feet left prints in the sprinkling of hoar-frost that
covered the ground; nevertheless, I saw an old woman, whom I instinctively
suspected to be the object of my search, in a sheltered covert on one side of
my path. I lingered and watched her. She must have been considerably above the
middle size in her prime, for when she raised herself from the stooping
position in which I first saw her, there was something fine and commanding in
the erectness of her figure. She drooped again in a minute or two, and seemed
looking for something on the ground, as, with bent head, she turned off from
the spot where I gazed upon her, and was lost to my sight. I fancy I missed my
way, and made a round in spite of the landlord’s directions; for by the
time I had reached Bridget’s cottage she was there, with no semblance of
hurried walk or discomposure of any kind. The door was slightly ajar. I
knocked, and the majestic figure stood before me, silently awaiting the
explanation of my errand. Her teeth were all gone, so the nose and chin were
brought near together; the gray eyebrows were straight, and almost hung over
her deep, cavernous eyes, and the thick white hair lay in silvery masses over
the low, wide, wrinkled forehead. For a moment, I stood uncertain how to shape
my answer to the solemn questioning of her silence.
“Your name is Bridget Fitzgerald, I believe?”
She bowed her head in assent.
“I have something to say to you. May I come in? I am unwilling to keep
you standing.”
“You cannot tire me,” she said, and at first she seemed inclined to
deny me the shelter of her roof. But the next moment—she had searched the
very soul in me with her eyes during that instant—she led me in, and
dropped the shadowing hood of her gray, draping cloak, which had previously hid
part of the character of her countenance. The cottage was rude and bare enough.
But before the picture of the Virgin, of which I have made mention, there stood
a little cup filled with fresh primroses. While she paid her reverence to the
Madonna, I understood why she had been out seeking through the clumps of green
in the sheltered copse. Then she turned round, and bade me be seated. The
expression of her face, which all this time I was studying, was not bad, as the
stories of my last night’s landlord had led me to expect; it was a wild,
stern, fierce, indomitable countenance, seamed and scarred by agonies of
solitary weeping; but it was neither cunning nor malignant.
“My name is Bridget Fitzgerald,” said she, by way of opening our
conversation.
“And your husband was Hugh Fitzgerald, of Knock Mahon, near Kildoon, in
Ireland?”
A faint light came into the dark gloom of her eyes.
“He was.”
“May I ask if you had any children by him?”
The light in her eyes grew quick and red. She tried to speak, I could see; but
something rose in her throat, and choked her, and until she could speak calmly,
she would fain not speak at all before a stranger. In a minute or so she
said—“I had a daughter—one Mary Fitzgerald,”—then
her strong nature mastered her strong will, and she cried out, with a trembling
wailing cry: “Oh, man! what of her?—what of her?”
She rose from her seat, and came and clutched at my arm, and looked in my eyes.
There she read, as I suppose, my utter ignorance of what had become of her
child; for she went blindly back to her chair, and sat rocking herself and
softly moaning, as if I were not there; I not daring to speak to the lone and
awful woman. After a little pause, she knelt down before the picture of Our
Lady of the Holy Heart, and spoke to her by all the fanciful and poetic names
of the Litany.
“O Rose of Sharon! O Tower of David! O Star of the Sea! have ye no
comfort for my sore heart? Am I for ever to hope? Grant me at least
despair!”—and so on she went, heedless of my presence. Her prayers
grew wilder and wilder, till they seemed to me to touch on the borders of
madness and blasphemy. Almost involuntarily, I spoke as if to stop her.
“Have you any reason to think that your daughter is dead?”
She rose from her knees, and came and stood before me.
“Mary Fitzgerald is dead,” said she. “I shall never see her
again in the flesh. No tongue ever told me; but I know she is dead. I have
yearned so to see her, and my heart’s will is fearful and strong: it
would have drawn her to me before now, if she had been a wanderer on the other
side of the world. I wonder often it has not drawn her out of the grave to come
and stand before me, and hear me tell her how I loved her. For, sir, we parted
unfriends.”
I knew nothing but the dry particulars needed for my lawyer’s quest, but
I could not help feeling for the desolate woman; and she must have read the
unusual sympathy with her wistful eyes.
“Yes, sir, we did. She never knew how I loved her; and we parted
unfriends; and I fear me that I wished her voyage might not turn out well, only
meaning,—O, blessed Virgin! you know I only meant that she should come
home to her mother’s arms as to the happiest place on earth; but my
wishes are terrible—their power goes beyond my thought—and there is
no hope for me, if my words brought Mary harm.”
“But,” I said, “you do not know that she is dead. Even now,
you hoped she might be alive. Listen to me,” and I told her the tale I
have already told you, giving it all in the driest manner, for I wanted to
recall the clear sense that I felt almost sure she had possessed in her younger
days, and by keeping up her attention to details, restrain the vague wildness
of her grief.
She listened with deep attention, putting from time to time such questions as
convinced me I had to do with no common intelligence, however dimmed and shorn
by solitude and mysterious sorrow. Then she took up her tale; and in few brief
words, told me of her wanderings abroad in vain search after her daughter;
sometimes in the wake of armies, sometimes in camp, sometimes in city. The
lady, whose waiting-woman Mary had gone to be, had died soon after the date of
her last letter home; her husband, the foreign officer, had been serving in
Hungary, whither Bridget had followed him, but too late to find him. Vague
rumours reached her that Mary had made a great marriage: and this sting of
doubt was added,—whether the mother might not be close to her child under
her new name, and even hearing of her every day; and yet never recognizing the
lost one under the appellation she then bore. At length the thought took
possession of her, that it was possible that all this time Mary might be at
home at Coldholme, in the Trough of Bolland, in Lancashire, in England; and
home came Bridget, in that vain hope, to her desolate hearth, and empty
cottage. Here she had thought it safest to remain; if Mary was in life, it was
here she would seek for her mother.
I noted down one or two particulars out of Bridget’s narrative that I
thought might be of use to me: for I was stimulated to further search in a
strange and extraordinary manner. It seemed as if it were impressed upon me,
that I must take up the quest where Bridget had laid it down; and this for no
reason that had previously influenced me (such as my uncle’s anxiety on
the subject, my own reputation as a lawyer, and so on), but from some strange
power which had taken possession of my will only that very morning, and which
forced it in the direction it chose.
“I will go,” said I. “I will spare nothing in the search.
Trust to me. I will learn all that can be learnt. You shall know all that
money, or pains, or wit can discover. It is true she may be long dead: but she
may have left a child.”
“A child!” she cried, as if for the first time this idea had struck
her mind. “Hear him, Blessed Virgin! he says she may have left a child.
And you have never told me, though I have prayed so for a sign, waking or
sleeping!”
“Nay,” said I, “I know nothing but what you tell me. You say
you heard of her marriage.”
But she caught nothing of what I said. She was praying to the Virgin in a kind
of ecstasy, which seemed to render her unconscious of my very presence.
From Coldholme I went to Sir Philip Tempest’s. The wife of the foreign
officer had been a cousin of his father’s, and from him I thought I might
gain some particulars as to the existence of the Count de la Tour
d’Auvergne, and where I could find him; for I knew questions de vive
voix aid the flagging recollection, and I was determined to lose no chance
for want of trouble. But Sir Philip had gone abroad, and it would be some time
before I could receive an answer. So I followed my uncle’s advice, to
whom I had mentioned how wearied I felt, both in body and mind, by my
will-o’-the-wisp search. He immediately told me to go to Harrogate, there
to await Sir Philip’s reply. I should be near to one of the places
connected with my search, Coldholme; not far from Sir Philip Tempest, in case
he returned, and I wished to ask him any further questions; and, in conclusion,
my uncle bade me try to forget all about my business for a time.
This was far easier said than done. I have seen a child on a common blown along
by a high wind, without power of standing still and resisting the tempestuous
force. I was somewhat in the same predicament as regarded my mental state.
Something resistless seemed to urge my thoughts on, through every possible
course by which there was a chance of attaining to my object. I did not see the
sweeping moors when I walked out: when I held a book in my hand, and read the
words, their sense did not penetrate to my brain. If I slept, I went on with
the same ideas, always flowing in the same direction. This could not last long
without having a bad effect on the body. I had an illness, which, although I
was racked with pain, was a positive relief to me, as it compelled me to live
in the present suffering, and not in the visionary researches I had been
continually making before. My kind uncle came to nurse me; and after the
immediate danger was over, my life seemed to slip away in delicious languor for
two or three months. I did not ask—so much did I dread falling into the
old channel of thought—whether any reply had been received to my letter
to Sir Philip. I turned my whole imagination right away from all that subject.
My uncle remained with me until nigh midsummer, and then returned to his
business in London; leaving me perfectly well, although not completely strong.
I was to follow him in a fortnight; when, as he said, “we would look over
letters, and talk about several things.” I knew what this little speech
alluded to, and shrank from the train of thought it suggested, which was so
intimately connected with my first feelings of illness. However, I had a
fortnight more to roam on those invigorating Yorkshire moors.
In those days, there was one large, rambling inn, at Harrogate, close to the
Medicinal Spring; but it was already becoming too small for the accommodation
of the influx of visitors, and many lodged round about, in the farm-houses of
the district. It was so early in the season, that I had the inn pretty much to
myself; and, indeed, felt rather like a visitor in a private house, so intimate
had the landlord and landlady become with me during my long illness. She would
chide me for being out so late on the moors, or for having been too long
without food, quite in a motherly way; while he consulted me about vintages and
wines, and taught me many a Yorkshire wrinkle about horses. In my walks I met
other strangers from time to time. Even before my uncle had left me, I had
noticed, with half-torpid curiosity, a young lady of very striking appearance,
who went about always accompanied by an elderly companion,—hardly a
gentlewoman, but with something in her look that prepossessed me in her favour.
The younger lady always put her veil down when any one approached; so it had
been only once or twice, when I had come upon her at a sudden turn in the path,
that I had even had a glimpse at her face. I am not sure if it was beautiful,
though in after-life I grew to think it so. But it was at this time
overshadowed by a sadness that never varied: a pale, quiet, resigned look of
intense suffering, that irresistibly attracted me,—not with love, but
with a sense of infinite compassion for one so young yet so hopelessly unhappy.
The companion wore something of the same look: quiet melancholy, hopeless, yet
resigned. I asked my landlord who they were. He said they were called Clarke,
and wished to be considered as mother and daughter; but that, for his part, he
did not believe that to be their right name, or that there was any such
relationship between them. They had been in the neighbourhood of Harrogate for
some time, lodging in a remote farm-house. The people there would tell nothing
about them; saying that they paid handsomely, and never did any harm; so why
should they be speaking of any strange things that might happen? That, as the
landlord shrewdly observed, showed there was something out of the common way he
had heard that the elderly woman was a cousin of the farmer’s where they
lodged, and so the regard existing between relations might help to keep them
quiet.
“What did he think, then, was the reason for their extreme
seclusion?” asked I.
“Nay, he could not tell,—not he. He had heard that the young lady,
for all as quiet as she seemed, played strange pranks at times.” He shook
his head when I asked him for more particulars, and refused to give them, which
made me doubt if he knew any, for he was in general a talkative and
communicative man. In default of other interests, after my uncle left, I set
myself to watch these two people. I hovered about their walks drawn towards
them with a strange fascination, which was not diminished by their evident
annoyance at so frequently meeting me. One day, I had the sudden good fortune
to be at hand when they were alarmed by the attack of a bull, which, in those
unenclosed grazing districts, was a particularly dangerous occurrence. I have
other and more important things to relate, than to tell of the accident which
gave me an opportunity of rescuing them, it is enough to say, that this event
was the beginning of an acquaintance, reluctantly acquiesced in by them, but
eagerly prosecuted by me. I can hardly tell when intense curiosity became
merged in love, but in less than ten days after my uncle’s departure I
was passionately enamoured of Mistress Lucy, as her attendant called her;
carefully—for this I noted well—avoiding any address which appeared
as if there was an equality of station between them. I noticed also that Mrs.
Clarke, the elderly woman, after her first reluctance to allow me to pay them
any attentions had been overcome, was cheered by my evident attachment to the
young girl; it seemed to lighten her heavy burden of care, and she evidently
favoured my visits to the farmhouse where they lodged. It was not so with Lucy.
A more attractive person I never saw, in spite of her depression of manner, and
shrinking avoidance of me. I felt sure at once, that whatever was the source of
her grief, it rose from no fault of her own. It was difficult to draw her into
conversation; but when at times, for a moment or two, I beguiled her into talk,
I could see a rare intelligence in her face, and a grave, trusting look in the
soft, gray eyes that were raised for a minute to mine. I made every excuse I
possibly could for going there. I sought wild flowers for Lucy’s sake; I
planned walks for Lucy’s sake; I watched the heavens by night, in hopes
that some unusual beauty of sky would justify me in tempting Mrs. Clarke and
Lucy forth upon the moors, to gaze at the great purple dome above.
It seemed to me that Lucy was aware of my love; but that, for some motive which
I could not guess, she would fain have repelled me; but then again I saw, or
fancied I saw, that her heart spoke in my favour, and that there was a struggle
going on in her mind, which at times (I loved so dearly) I could have begged
her to spare herself, even though the happiness of my whole life should have
been the sacrifice; for her complexion grew paler, her aspect of sorrow more
hopeless, her delicate frame yet slighter. During this period I had written, I
should say, to my uncle, to beg to be allowed to prolong my stay at Harrogate,
not giving any reason; but such was his tenderness towards me, that in a few
days I heard from him, giving me a willing permission, and only charging me to
take care of myself, and not use too much exertion during the hot weather.
One sultry evening I drew near the farm. The windows of their parlour were
open, and I heard voices when I turned the corner of the house, as I passed the
first window (there were two windows in their little ground-floor room). I saw
Lucy distinctly; but when I had knocked at their door—the house-door
stood always ajar—she was gone, and I saw only Mrs. Clarke, turning over
the work-things lying on the table, in a nervous and purposeless manner. I felt
by instinct that a conversation of some importance was coming on, in which I
should be expected to say what was my object in paying these frequent visits. I
was glad of the opportunity. My uncle had several times alluded to the pleasant
possibility of my bringing home a young wife, to cheer and adorn the old house
in Ormond Street. He was rich, and I was to succeed him, and had, as I knew, a
fair reputation for so young a lawyer. So on my side I saw no obstacle. It was
true that Lucy was shrouded in mystery; her name (I was convinced it was not
Clarke), birth, parentage, and previous life were unknown to me. But I was sure
of her goodness and sweet innocence, and although I knew that there must be
something painful to be told, to account for her mournful sadness, yet I was
willing to bear my share in her grief, whatever it might be.
Mrs. Clarke began, as if it was a relief to her to plunge into the subject.
“We have thought, sir—at least I have thought—that you knew
very little of us, nor we of you, indeed; not enough to warrant the intimate
acquaintance we have fallen into. I beg your pardon, sir,” she went on,
nervously; “I am but a plain kind of woman, and I mean to use no
rudeness; but I must say straight out that I—we—think it would be
better for you not to come so often to see us. She is very unprotected,
and—”
“Why should I not come to see you, dear madam?” asked I, eagerly,
glad of the opportunity of explaining myself. “I come, I own, because I
have learnt to love Mistress Lucy, and wish to teach her to love me.”
Mistress Clarke shook her head, and sighed.
“Don’t, sir—neither love her, nor, for the sake of all you
hold sacred, teach her to love you! If I am too late, and you love her already,
forget her,—forget these last few weeks. O! I should never have allowed
you to come!” she went on passionately; “but what am I to do? We
are forsaken by all, except the great God, and even He permits a strange and
evil power to afflict us—what am I to do! Where is it to end?” She
wrung her hands in her distress; then she turned to me: “Go away, sir! go
away, before you learn to care any more for her. I ask it for your own
sake—I implore! You have been good and kind to us, and we shall always
recollect you with gratitude; but go away now, and never come back to cross our
fatal path!”
“Indeed, madam,” said I, “I shall do no such thing. You urge
it for my own sake. I have no fear, so urged—nor wish, except to hear
more—all. I cannot have seen Mistress Lucy in all the intimacy of this
last fortnight, without acknowledging her goodness and innocence; and without
seeing—pardon me, madam—that for some reason you are two very
lonely women, in some mysterious sorrow and distress. Now, though I am not
powerful myself, yet I have friends who are so wise and kind that they may be
said to possess power. Tell me some particulars. Why are you in
grief—what is your secret—why are you here? I declare solemnly that
nothing you have said has daunted me in my wish to become Lucy’s husband;
nor will I shrink from any difficulty that, as such an aspirant, I may have to
encounter. You say you are friendless—why cast away an honest friend? I
will tell you of people to whom you may write, and who will answer any
questions as to my character and prospects. I do not shun inquiry.”
She shook her head again. “You had better go away, sir. You know nothing
about us.”
“I know your names,” said I, “and I have heard you allude to
the part of the country from which you came, which I happen to know as a wild
and lonely place. There are so few people living in it that, if I chose to go
there, I could easily ascertain all about you; but I would rather hear it from
yourself.” You see I wanted to pique her into telling me something
definite.
“You do not know our true names, sir,” said she, hastily.
“Well, I may have conjectured as much. But tell me, then, I conjure you.
Give me your reasons for distrusting my willingness to stand by what I have
said with regard to Mistress Lucy.”
“Oh, what can I do?” exclaimed she. “If I am turning away a
true friend, as he says?—Stay!” coming to a sudden
decision—“I will tell you something—I cannot tell you
all—you would not believe it. But, perhaps, I can tell you enough to
prevent your going on in your hopeless attachment. I am not Lucy’s
mother.”
“So I conjectured,” I said. “Go on.”
“I do not even know whether she is the legitimate or illegitimate child
of her father. But he is cruelly turned against her; and her mother is long
dead; and for a terrible reason, she has no other creature to keep constant to
her but me. She—only two years ago—such a darling and such a pride
in her father’s house! Why, sir, there is a mystery that might happen in
connection with her any moment; and then you would go away like all the rest;
and, when you next heard her name, you would loathe her. Others, who have loved
her longer, have done so before now. My poor child! whom neither God nor man
has mercy upon—or, surely, she would die!”
The good woman was stopped by her crying. I confess, I was a little stunned by
her last words; but only for a moment. At any rate, till I knew definitely what
was this mysterious stain upon one so simple and pure, as Lucy seemed, I would
not desert her, and so I said; and she made me answer:—
“If you are daring in your heart to think harm of my child, sir, after
knowing her as you have done, you are no good man yourself; but I am so foolish
and helpless in my great sorrow, that I would fain hope to find a friend in
you. I cannot help trusting that, although you may no longer feel toward her as
a lover, you will have pity upon us; and perhaps, by your learning you can tell
us where to go for aid.”
“I implore you to tell me what this mystery is,” I cried, almost
maddened by this suspense.
“I cannot,” said she, solemnly. “I am under a deep vow of
secrecy. If you are to be told, it must be by her.” She left the room,
and I remained to ponder over this strange interview. I mechanically turned
over the few books, and with eyes that saw nothing at the time, examined the
tokens of Lucy’s frequent presence in that room.
When I got home at night, I remembered how all these trifles spoke of a pure
and tender heart and innocent life. Mistress Clarke returned; she had been
crying sadly.
“Yes,” said she, “it is as I feared: she loves you so much
that she is willing to run the fearful risk of telling you all
herself—she acknowledges it is but a poor chance; but your sympathy will
be a balm, if you give it. To-morrow, come here at ten in the morning; and, as
you hope for pity in your hour of agony, repress all show of fear or repugnance
you may feel towards one so grievously afflicted.”
I half smiled. “Have no fear,” I said. It seemed too absurd to
imagine my feeling dislike to Lucy.
“Her father loved her well,” said she, gravely, “yet he drove
her out like some monstrous thing.”
Just at this moment came a peal of ringing laughter from the garden. It was
Lucy’s voice; it sounded as if she were standing just on one side of the
open casement—and as though she were suddenly stirred to
merriment—merriment verging on boisterousness, by the doings or sayings
of some other person. I can scarcely say why, but the sound jarred on me
inexpressibly. She knew the subject of our conversation, and must have been at
least aware of the state of agitation her friend was in; she herself usually so
gentle and quiet. I half rose to go to the window, and satisfy my instinctive
curiosity as to what had provoked this burst of, ill-timed laughter; but Mrs.
Clarke threw her whole weight and power upon the hand with which she pressed
and kept me down.
“For God’s sake!” she said, white and trembling all over,
“sit still; be quiet. Oh! be patient. To-morrow you will know all. Leave
us, for we are all sorely afflicted. Do not seek to know more about us.”
Again that laugh—so musical in sound, yet so discordant to my heart. She
held me tight—tighter; without positive violence I could not have risen.
I was sitting with my back to the window, but I felt a shadow pass between the
sun’s warmth and me, and a strange shudder ran through my frame. In a
minute or two she released me.
“Go,” repeated she. “Be warned, I ask you once more. I do not
think you can stand this knowledge that you seek. If I had had my own way, Lucy
should never have yielded, and promised to tell you all. Who knows what may
come of it?”
“I am firm in my wish to know all. I return at ten to-morrow morning, and
then expect to see Mistress Lucy herself.”
I turned away; having my own suspicions, I confess, as to Mistress
Clarke’s sanity.
Conjectures as to the meaning of her hints, and uncomfortable thoughts
connected with that strange laughter, filled my mind. I could hardly sleep. I
rose early; and long before the hour I had appointed, I was on the path over
the common that led to the old farm-house where they lodged. I suppose that
Lucy had passed no better a night than I; for there she was also, slowly pacing
with her even step, her eyes bent down, her whole look most saintly and pure.
She started when I came close to her, and grew paler as I reminded her of my
appointment, and spoke with something of the impatience of obstacles that,
seeing her once more, had called up afresh in my mind. All strange and terrible
hints, and giddy merriment were forgotten. My heart gave forth words of fire,
and my tongue uttered them. Her colour went and came, as she listened; but,
when I had ended my passionate speeches, she lifted her soft eyes to me, and
said—
“But you know that you have something to learn about me yet. I only want
to say this: I shall not think less of you—less well of you, I
mean—if you, too, fall away from me when you know all. Stop!” said
she, as if fearing another burst of mad words. “Listen to me. My father
is a man of great wealth. I never knew my mother; she must have died when I was
very young. When first I remember anything, I was living in a great, lonely
house, with my dear and faithful Mistress Clarke. My father, even, was not
there; he was—he is—a soldier, and his duties lie aboard. But he
came from time to time, and every time I think he loved me more and more. He
brought me rarities from foreign lands, which prove to me now how much he must
have thought of me during his absences. I can sit down and measure the depth of
his lost love now, by such standards as these. I never thought whether he loved
me or not, then; it was so natural, that it was like the air I breathed. Yet he
was an angry man at times, even then; but never with me. He was very reckless,
too; and, once or twice, I heard a whisper among the servants that a doom was
over him, and that he knew it, and tried to drown his knowledge in wild
activity, and even sometimes, sir, in wine. So I grew up in this grand mansion,
in that lonely place. Everything around me seemed at my disposal, and I think
every one loved me; I am sure I loved them. Till about two years ago—I
remember it well—my father had come to England, to us; and he seemed so
proud and so pleased with me and all I had done. And one day his tongue seemed
loosened with wine, and he told me much that I had not known till
then,—how dearly he had loved my mother, yet how his wilful usage had
caused her death; and then he went on to say how he loved me better than any
creature on earth, and how, some day, he hoped to take me to foreign places,
for that he could hardly bear these long absences from his only child. Then he
seemed to change suddenly, and said, in a strange, wild way, that I was not to
believe what he said; that there was many a thing he loved better—his
horse—his dog—I know not what.
“And ’twas only the next morning that, when I came into his room to
ask his blessing as was my wont, he received me with fierce and angry words.
‘Why had I,’ so he asked, ‘been delighting myself in such
wanton mischief—dancing over the tender plants in the flower-beds, all
set with the famous Dutch bulbs he had brought from Holland?’ I had never
been out of doors that morning, sir, and I could not conceive what he meant,
and so I said; and then he swore at me for a liar, and said I was of no true
blood, for he had seen me doing all that mischief himself—with his own
eyes. What could I say? He would not listen to me, and even my tears seemed
only to irritate him. That day was the beginning of my great sorrows. Not long
after, he reproached me for my undue familiarity—all unbecoming a
gentlewoman—with his grooms. I had been in the stable-yard, laughing and
talking, he said. Now, sir, I am something of a coward by nature, and I had
always dreaded horses; be-sides that, my father’s servants—those
whom he brought with him from foreign parts—were wild fellows, whom I had
always avoided, and to whom I had never spoken, except as a lady must needs
from time to time speak to her father’s people. Yet my father called me
by names of which I hardly know the meaning, but my heart told me they were
such as shame any modest woman; and from that day he turned quite against
me;—nay, sir, not many weeks after that, he came in with a riding-whip in
his hand; and, accusing me harshly of evil doings, of which I knew no more than
you, sir, he was about to strike me, and I, all in bewildering tears, was ready
to take his stripes as great kindness compared to his harder words, when
suddenly he stopped his arm mid-way, gasped and staggered, crying out,
‘The curse—the curse!’ I looked up in terror. In the great
mirror opposite I saw myself, and right behind, another wicked, fearful self,
so like me that my soul seemed to quiver within me, as though not knowing to
which similitude of body it belonged. My father saw my double at the same
moment, either in its dreadful reality, whatever that might be, or in the
scarcely less terrible reflection in the mirror; but what came of it at that
moment I cannot say, for I suddenly swooned away; and when I came to myself I
was lying in my bed, and my faithful Clarke sitting by me. I was in my bed for
days; and even while I lay there my double was seen by all, flitting about the
house and gardens, always about some mischievous or detestable work. What
wonder that every one shrank from me in dread—that my father drove me
forth at length, when the disgrace of which I was the cause was past his
patience to bear. Mistress Clarke came with me; and here we try to live such a
life of piety and prayer as may in time set me free from the curse.”
All the time she had been speaking, I had been weighing her story in my mind. I
had hitherto put cases of witchcraft on one side, as mere superstitions; and my
uncle and I had had many an argument, he supporting himself by the opinion of
his good friend Sir Matthew Hale. Yet this sounded like the tale of one
bewitched; or was it merely the effect of a life of extreme seclusion telling
on the nerves of a sensitive girl? My scepticism inclined me to the latter
belief, and when she paused I said:
“I fancy that some physician could have disabused your father of his
belief in visions—”
Just at that instant, standing as I was opposite to her in the full and perfect
morning light, I saw behind her another figure—a ghastly resemblance,
complete in likeness, so far as form and feature and minutest touch of dress
could go, but with a loathsome demon soul looking out of the gray eyes, that
were in turns mocking and voluptuous. My heart stood still within me; every
hair rose up erect; my flesh crept with horror. I could not see the grave and
tender Lucy—my eyes were fascinated by the creature beyond. I know not
why, but I put out my hand to clutch it; I grasped nothing but empty air, and
my whole blood curdled to ice. For a moment I could not see; then my sight came
back, and I saw Lucy standing before me, alone, deathly pale, and, I could have
fancied, almost, shrunk in size.
“IT has been near me?” she said, as if asking a
question.
The sound seemed taken out of her voice; it was husky as the notes on an old
harpsichord when the strings have ceased to vibrate. She read her answer in my
face, I suppose, for I could not speak. Her look was one of intense fear, but
that died away into an aspect of most humble patience. At length she seemed to
force herself to face behind and around her: she saw the purple moors, the blue
distant hills, quivering in the sunlight, but nothing else.
“Will you take me home?” she said, meekly.
I took her by the hand, and led her silently through the budding
heather—we dared not speak; for we could not tell but that the dread
creature was listening, although unseen,—but that IT might
appear and push us asunder. I never loved her more fondly than now
when—and that was the unspeakable misery—the idea of her was
becoming so inextricably blended with the shuddering thought of
IT. She seemed to understand what I must be feeling. She let go
my hand, which she had kept clasped until then, when we reached the garden
gate, and went forwards to meet her anxious friend, who was standing by the
window looking for her. I could not enter the house: I needed silence, society,
leisure, change—I knew not what—to shake off the sensation of that
creature’s presence. Yet I lingered about the garden—I hardly know
why; I partly suppose, because I feared to encounter the resemblance again on
the solitary common, where it had vanished, and partly from a feeling of
inexpressible compassion for Lucy. In a few minutes Mistress Clarke came forth
and joined me. We walked some paces in silence.
“You know all now,” said she, solemnly.
“I saw IT,” said I, below my breath.
“And you shrink from us, now,” she said, with a hopelessness which
stirred up all that was brave or good in me.
“Not a whit,” said I. “Human flesh shrinks from encounter
with the powers of darkness: and, for some reason unknown to me, the pure and
holy Lucy is their victim.”
“The sins of the fathers shall be visited upon the children,” she
said.
“Who is her father?” asked I. “Knowing as much as I do, I may
surely know more—know all. Tell me, I entreat you, madam, all that you
can conjecture respecting this demoniac persecution of one so good.”
“I will; but not now. I must go to Lucy now. Come this afternoon, I will
see you alone; and oh, sir! I will trust that you may yet find some way to help
us in our sore trouble!”
I was miserably exhausted by the swooning affright which had taken possession
of me. When I reached the inn, I staggered in like one overcome by wine. I went
to my own private room. It was some time before I saw that the weekly post had
come in, and brought me my letters. There was one from my uncle, one from my
home in Devonshire, and one, re-directed over the first address, sealed with a
great coat of arms, It was from Sir Philip Tempest: my letter of inquiry
respecting Mary Fitzgerald had reached him at Liége, where it so
happened that the Count de la Tour d’Auvergne was quartered at the very
time. He remembered his wife’s beautiful attendant; she had had high
words with the deceased countess, respecting her intercourse with an English
gentleman of good standing, who was also in the foreign service. The countess
augured evil of his intentions; while Mary, proud and vehement, asserted that
he would soon marry her, and resented her mistress’s warnings as an
insult. The consequence was, that she had left Madame de la Tour
d’Auvergne’s service, and, as the Count believed, had gone to live
with the Englishman; whether he had married her, or not, he could not say.
“But,” added Sir Philip Tempest, “you may easily hear what
particulars you wish to know respecting Mary Fitzgerald from the Englishman
himself, if, as I suspect, he is no other than my neighbour and former
acquaintance, Mr. Gisborne, of Skipford Hall, in the West Riding. I am led to
the belief that he is no other, by several small particulars, none of which are
in themselves conclusive, but which, taken together, furnish a mass of
presumptive evidence. As far as I could make out from the Count’s foreign
pronunciation, Gisborne was the name of the Englishman: I know that Gisborne of
Skipford was abroad and in the foreign service at that time—he was a
likely fellow enough for such an exploit, and, above all, certain expressions
recur to my mind which he used in reference to old Bridget Fitzgerald, of
Coldholme, whom he once encountered while staying with me at Starkey
Manor-house. I remember that the meeting seemed to have produced some
extraordinary effect upon his mind, as though he had suddenly discovered some
connection which she might have had with his previous life. I beg you to let me
know if I can be of any further service to you. Your uncle once rendered me a
good turn, and I will gladly repay it, so far as in me lies, to his
nephew.”
I was now apparently close on the discovery which I had striven so many months
to attain. But success had lost its zest. I put my letters down, and seemed to
forget them all in thinking of the morning I had passed that very day. Nothing
was real but the unreal presence, which had come like an evil blast across my
bodily eyes, and burnt itself down upon my brain. Dinner came, and went away
untouched. Early in the afternoon I walked to the farm-house. I found Mistress
Clarke alone, and I was glad and relieved. She was evidently prepared to tell
me all I might wish to hear.
“You asked me for Mistress Lucy’s true name; it is Gisborne,”
she began.
“Not Gisborne of Skipford?” I exclaimed, breathless with
anticipation.
“The same,” said she, quietly, not regarding my manner. “Her
father is a man of note; although, being a Roman Catholic, he cannot take that
rank in this country to which his station entitles him. The consequence is that
he lives much abroad—has been a soldier, I am told.”
“And Lucy’s mother?” I asked.
She shook her head. “I never knew her,” said she. “Lucy was
about three years old when I was engaged to take charge of her. Her mother was
dead.”
“But you know her name?—you can tell if it was Mary
Fitzgerald?”
She looked astonished. “That was her name. But, sir, how came you to be
so well acquainted with it? It was a mystery to the whole household at Skipford
Court. She was some beautiful young woman whom he lured away from her
protectors while he was abroad. I have heard said he practised some terrible
deceit upon her, and when she came to know it, she was neither to have nor to
hold, but rushed off from his very arms, and threw herself into a rapid stream
and was drowned. It stung him deep with remorse, but I used to think the
remembrance of the mother’s cruel death made him love the child yet
dearer.”
I told her, as briefly as might be, of my researches after the descendant and
heir of the Fitzgeralds of Kildoon, and added—something of my old lawyer
spirit returning into me for the moment—that I had no doubt but that we
should prove Lucy to be by right possessed of large estates in Ireland.
No flush came over her gray face; no light into her eyes. “And what is
all the wealth in the whole world to that poor girl?” she said. “It
will not free her from the ghastly bewitchment which persecutes her. As for
money, what a pitiful thing it is! it cannot touch her.”
“No more can the Evil Creature harm her,” I said. “Her holy
nature dwells apart, and cannot be defiled or stained by all the devilish arts
in the whole world.”
“True! but it is a cruel fate to know that all shrink from her, sooner or
later, as from one possessed—accursed.”
“How came it to pass?” I asked.
“Nay, I know not. Old rumours there are, that were bruited through the
household at Skipford.”
“Tell me,” I demanded.
“They came from servants, who would fain account for every thing. They
say that, many years ago, Mr. Gisborne killed a dog belonging to an old witch
at Coldholme; that she cursed, with a dreadful and mysterious curse, the
creature, whatever it might be, that he should love best; and that it struck so
deeply into his heart that for years he kept himself aloof from any temptation
to love aught. But who could help loving Lucy?”
“You never heard the witch’s name?” I gasped.
“Yes—they called her Bridget: they said he would never go near the
spot again for terror of her. Yet he was a brave man!”
“Listen,” said I, taking hold of her arm, the better to arrest her
full attention: “if what I suspect holds true, that man stole
Bridget’s only child—the very Mary Fitzgerald who was Lucy’s
mother; if so, Bridget cursed him in ignorance of the deeper wrong he had done
her. To this hour she yearns after her lost child, and questions the saints
whether she be living or not. The roots of that curse lie deeper than she
knows: she unwittingly banned him for a deeper guilt than that of killing a
dumb beast. The sins of the fathers are indeed visited upon the
children.”
“But,” said Mistress Clarke, eagerly, “she would never let
evil rest on her own grandchild? Surely, sir, if what you say be true, there
are hopes for Lucy. Let us go—go at once, and tell this fearful woman all
that you suspect, and beseech her to take off the spell she has put upon her
innocent grandchild.”
It seemed to me, indeed, that something like this was the best course we could
pursue. But first it was necessary to ascertain more than what mere rumour or
careless hearsay could tell. My thoughts turned to my uncle—he could
advise me wisely—he ought to know all. I resolved to go to him without
delay; but I did not choose to tell Mistress Clarke of all the visionary plans
that flitted through my mind. I simply declared my intention of proceeding
straight to London on Lucy’s affairs. I bade her believe that my interest
on the young lady’s behalf was greater than ever, and that my whole time
should be given up to her cause. I saw that Mistress Clarke distrusted me,
because my mind was too full of thoughts for my words to flow freely. She
sighed and shook her head, and said, “Well, it is all right!” in
such a tone that it was an implied reproach. But I was firm and constant in my
heart, and I took confidence from that.
I rode to London. I rode long days drawn out into the lovely summer nights: I
could not rest. I reached London. I told my uncle all, though in the stir of
the great city the horror had faded away, and I could hardly imagine that he
would believe the account I gave him of the fearful double of Lucy which I had
seen on the lonely moor-side. But my uncle had lived many years, and learnt
many things; and, in the deep secrets of family history that had been confided
to him, he had heard of cases of innocent people bewitched and taken possession
of by evil spirits yet more fearful than Lucy’s. For, as he said, to
judge from all I told him, that resemblance had no power over her—she was
too pure and good to be tainted by its evil, haunting presence. It had, in all
probability, so my uncle conceived, tried to suggest wicked thoughts and to
tempt to wicked actions but she, in her saintly maidenhood, had passed on
undefiled by evil thought or deed. It could not touch her soul: but true, it
set her apart from all sweet love or common human intercourse. My uncle threw
himself with an energy more like six-and-twenty than sixty into the
consideration of the whole case. He undertook the proving Lucy’s descent,
and volunteered to go and find out Mr. Gisborne, and obtain, firstly, the legal
proofs of her descent from the Fitzgeralds of Kildoon, and, secondly, to try
and hear all that he could respecting the working of the curse, and whether any
and what means had been taken to exorcise that terrible appearance. For he told
me of instances where, by prayers and long fasting, the evil possessor had been
driven forth with howling and many cries from the body which it had come to
inhabit; he spoke of those strange New England cases which had happened not so
long before; of Mr. Defoe, who had written a book, wherein he had named many
modes of subduing apparitions, and sending them back whence they came; and,
lastly, he spoke low of dreadful ways of compelling witches to undo their
witchcraft. But I could not endure to hear of those tortures and burnings. I
said that Bridget was rather a wild and savage woman than a malignant witch;
and, above all, that Lucy was of her kith and kin; and that, in putting her to
the trial, by water or by fire, we should be torturing—it might be to the
death—the ancestress of her we sought to redeem.
My uncle thought awhile, and then said, that in this last matter I was
right—at any rate, it should not be tried, with his consent, till all
other modes of remedy had failed; and he assented to my proposal that I should
go myself and see Bridget, and tell her all.
In accordance with this, I went down once more to the wayside inn near
Coldholme. It was late at night when I arrived there; and, while I supped, I
inquired of the landlord more particulars as to Bridget’s ways. Solitary
and savage had been her life for many years. Wild and despotic were her words
and manner to those few people who came across her path. The country-folk did
her imperious bidding, because they feared to disobey. If they pleased her,
they prospered; if, on the contrary, they neglected or traversed her behests,
misfortune, small or great, fell on them and theirs. It was not detestation so
much as an indefinable terror that she excited.
In the morning I went to see her. She was standing on the green outside her
cottage, and received me with the sullen grandeur of a throneless queen. I read
in her face that she recognized me, and that I was not unwelcome; but she stood
silent till I had opened my errand.
“I have news of your daughter,” said I, resolved to speak straight
to all that I knew she felt of love, and not to spare her. “She is
dead!”
The stern figure scarcely trembled, but her hand sought the support of the
door-post.
“I knew that she was dead,” said she, deep and low, and then was
silent for an instant. “My tears that should have flowed for her were
burnt up long years ago. Young man, tell me about her.”
“Not yet,” said I, having a strange power given me of confronting
one, whom, nevertheless, in my secret soul I dreaded.
“You had once a little dog,” I continued. The words called out in
her more show of emotion than the intelligence of her daughter’s death.
She broke in upon my speech:—
“I had! It was hers—the last thing I had of hers—and it was
shot for wantonness! It died in my arms. The man who killed that dog rues it to
this day. For that dumb beast’s blood, his best-beloved stands
accursed.”
Her eyes distended, as if she were in a trance and saw the working of her
curse. Again I spoke:—
“O, woman!” I said, “that best-beloved, standing accursed
before men, is your dead daughter’s child.”
The life, the energy, the passion, came back to the eyes with which she pierced
through me, to see if I spoke truth; then, without another question or word,
she threw herself on the ground with fearful vehemence, and clutched at the
innocent daisies with convulsed hands.
“Bone of my bone! flesh of my flesh! have I cursed thee—and art
thou accursed?”
So she moaned, as she lay prostrate in her great agony. I stood aghast at my
own work. She did not hear my broken sentences; she asked no more, but the dumb
confirmation which my sad looks had given that one fact, that her curse rested
on her own daughter’s child. The fear grew on me lest she should die in
her strife of body and soul; and then might not Lucy remain under the spell as
long as she lived?
Even at this moment, I saw Lucy coming through the woodland path that led to
Bridget’s cottage; Mistress Clarke was with her: I felt at my heart that
it was she, by the balmy peace which the look of her sent over me, as she
slowly advanced, a glad surprise shining out of her soft quiet eyes. That was
as her gaze met mine. As her looks fell on the woman lying stiff, convulsed on
the earth, they became full of tender pity; and she came forward to try and
lift her up. Seating herself on the turf, she took Bridget’s head into
her lap; and, with gentle touches, she arranged the dishevelled gray hair
streaming thick and wild from beneath her mutch.
“God help her!” murmured Lucy. “How she suffers!”
At her desire we sought for water; but when we returned, Bridget had recovered
her wandering senses, and was kneeling with clasped hands before Lucy, gazing
at that sweet sad face as though her troubled nature drank in health and peace
from every moment’s contemplation. A faint tinge on Lucy’s pale
cheeks showed me that she was aware of our return; otherwise it appeared as if
she was conscious of her influence for good over the passionate and troubled
woman kneeling before her, and would not willingly avert her grave and loving
eyes from that wrinkled and careworn countenance.
Suddenly—in the twinkling of an eye—the creature appeared, there,
behind Lucy; fearfully the same as to outward semblance, but kneeling exactly
as Bridget knelt, and clasping her hands in jesting mimicry as Bridget clasped
hers in her ecstasy that was deepening into a prayer. Mistress Clarke cried
out—Bridget arose slowly, her gaze fixed on the creature beyond: drawing
her breath with a hissing sound, never moving her terrible eyes, that were
steady as stone, she made a dart at the phantom, and caught, as I had done, a
mere handful of empty air. We saw no more of the creature—it vanished as
suddenly as it came, but Bridget looked slowly on, as if watching some receding
form. Lucy sat still, white, trembling, drooping—I think she would have
swooned if I had not been there to uphold her. While I was attending to her,
Bridget passed us, without a word to any one, and, entering her cottage, she
barred herself in, and left us without.
All our endeavours were now directed to get Lucy back to the house where she
had tarried the night before. Mistress Clarke told me that, not hearing from me
(some letter must have miscarried), she had grown impatient and despairing, and
had urged Lucy to the enterprise of coming to seek her grandmother; not telling
her, indeed, of the dread reputation she possessed, or how we suspected her of
having so fearfully blighted that innocent girl; but, at the same time, hoping
much from the mysterious stirring of blood, which Mistress Clarke trusted in
for the removal of the curse. They had come, by a different route from that
which I had taken, to a village inn not far from Coldholme, only the night
before. This was the first interview between ancestress and descendant.
All through the sultry noon I wandered along the tangled brush-wood of the old
neglected forest, thinking where to turn for remedy in a matter so complicated
and mysterious. Meeting a countryman, I asked my way to the nearest clergyman,
and went, hoping to obtain some counsel from him. But he proved to be a coarse
and common-minded man, giving no time or attention to the intricacies of a
case, but dashing out a strong opinion involving immediate action. For
instance, as soon as I named Bridget Fitzgerald, he exclaimed:—
“The Coldholme witch! the Irish papist! I’d have had her ducked
long since but for that other papist, Sir Philip Tempest. He has had to
threaten honest folk about here over and over again, or they’d have had
her up before the justices for her black doings. And it’s the law of the
land that witches should be burnt! Ay, and of Scripture, too, sir! Yet you see
a papist, if he’s a rich squire, can overrule both law and Scripture.
I’d carry a faggot myself to rid the country of her!”
Such a one could give me no help. I rather drew back what I had already said;
and tried to make the parson forget it, by treating him to several pots of
beer, in the village inn, to which we had adjourned for our conference at his
suggestion. I left him as soon as I could, and returned to Coldholme, shaping
my way past deserted Starkey Manor-house, and coming upon it by the back. At
that side were the oblong remains of the old moat, the waters of which lay
placid and motionless under the crimson rays of the setting sun; with the
forest-trees lying straight along each side, and their deep-green foliage
mirrored to blackness in the burnished surface of the moat below—and the
broken sun-dial at the end nearest the hall—and the heron, standing on
one leg at the water’s edge, lazily looking down for fish—the
lonely and desolate house scarce needed the broken windows, the weeds on the
door-sill, the broken shutter softly flapping to and fro in the twilight
breeze, to fill up the picture of desertion and decay. I lingered about the
place until the growing darkness warned me on. And then I passed along the
path, cut by the orders of the last lady of Starkey Manor-House, that led me to
Bridget’s cottage. I resolved at once to see her; and, in spite of closed
doors—it might be of resolved will—she should see me. So I knocked
at her door, gently, loudly, fiercely. I shook it so vehemently that a length
the old hinges gave way, and with a crash it fell inwards, leaving me suddenly
face to face with Bridget—I, red, heated, agitated with my so long
baffled efforts—she, stiff as any stone, standing right facing me, her
eyes dilated with terror, her ashen lips trembling, but her body motionless. In
her hands she held her crucifix, as if by that holy symbol she sought to oppose
my entrance. At sight of me, her whole frame relaxed, and she sank back upon a
chair. Some mighty tension had given way. Still her eyes looked fearfully into
the gloom of the outer air, made more opaque by the glimmer of the lamp inside,
which she had placed before the picture of the Virgin.
“Is she there?” asked Bridget, hoarsely.
“No! Who? I am alone. You remember me.”
“Yes,” replied she, still terror stricken. “But
she—that creature—has been looking in upon me through that window
all day long. I closed it up with my shawl; and then I saw her feet below the
door, as long as it was light, and I knew she heard my very
breathing—nay, worse, my very prayers; and I could not pray, for her
listening choked the words ere they rose to my lips. Tell me, who is
she?—what means that double girl I saw this morning? One had a look of my
dead Mary; but the other curdled my blood, and yet it was the same!”
She had taken hold of my arm, as if to secure herself some human companionship.
She shook all over with the slight, never-ceasing tremor of intense terror. I
told her my tale as I have told it you, sparing none of the details.
How Mistress Clarke had informed me that the resemblance had driven Lucy forth
from her father’s house—how I had disbelieved, until, with mine own
eyes, I had seen another Lucy standing behind my Lucy, the same in form and
feature, but with the demon-soul looking out of the eyes. I told her all, I
say, believing that she—whose curse was working so upon the life of her
innocent grandchild—was the only person who could find the remedy and the
redemption. When I had done, she sat silent for many minutes.
“You love Mary’s child?” she asked.
“I do, in spite of the fearful working of the curse—I love her. Yet
I shrink from her ever since that day on the moor-side. And men must shrink
from one so accompanied; friends and lovers must stand afar off. Oh, Bridget
Fitzgerald! loosen the curse! Set her free!”
“Where is she?”
I eagerly caught at the idea that her presence was needed, in order that, by
some strange prayer or exorcism, the spell might be reversed.
“I will go and bring her to you,” I exclaimed. Bridget tightened
her hold upon my arm.
“Not so,” said she, in a low, hoarse voice. “It would kill me
to see her again as I saw her this morning. And I must live till I have worked
my work. Leave me!” said she, suddenly, and again taking up the cross.
“I defy the demon I have called up. Leave me to wrestle with it!”
She stood up, as if in an ecstasy of inspiration, from which all fear was
banished. I lingered—why I can hardly tell—until once more she bade
me begone. As I went along the forest way, I looked back, and saw her planting
the cross in the empty threshold, where the door had been.
The next morning Lucy and I went to seek her, to bid her join her prayers with
ours. The cottage stood open and wide to our gaze. No human being was there:
the cross remained on the threshold, but Bridget was gone.