One may suppose that a prematurely aged, oily little
man; a poet in bad circumstances; a decrepit butterfly
chained to a disappointed inkstand, will not put out strenuous
energies to retain his ancient paramour when a
robust young man comes imperatively to demand his
mother of him in her person. The colloquy was short
between Diaper Sandoe and Richard. The question was
referred to the poor spiritless lady, who, seeing that her
son made no question of it, cast herself on his hands.
Small loss to her was Diaper; but he was the loss of
habit, and that is something to a woman who has lived.
The blood of her son had been running so long alien from
her that the sense of her motherhood smote her now with
strangeness, and Richard's stern gentleness seemed like
dreadful justice come upon her. Her heart had almost
forgotten its maternal functions. She called him Sir, till
he bade her remember he was her son. Her voice sounded
to him like that of a broken-throated lamb, so painful
and weak it was, with the plaintive stop in the utterance.
When he kissed her, her skin was cold. Her thin hand
fell out of his when his grasp relaxed. "Can sin hunt
one like this?" he asked, bitterly reproaching himself for
the shame she had caused him to endure, and a deep
compassion filled his breast.
Poetic justice had been dealt to Diaper the poet. He
thought of all he had sacrificed for this woman—the comfortable
quarters, the friend, the happy flights. He could
not but accuse her of unfaithfulness in leaving him in his
old age. Habit had legalized his union with her. He
wrote as pathetically of the break of habit as men feel
at the death of love; and when we are old and have no
fair hope tossing golden locks before us, a wound to this
our second nature is quite as sad. I know not even if it
be not actually sadder.
Day by day Richard visited his mother. Lady Blandish
and Ripton alone were in the secret. Adrian let him do
as he pleased. He thought proper to tell him that the
public recognition he accorded to a particular lady was,
in the present state of the world, scarcely prudent.
"'Tis a proof to me of your moral rectitude, my son, but
the world will not think so. No one character is sufficient
to cover two—in a Protestant country especially. The
divinity that doth hedge a Bishop would have no chance
in contact with your Madam Danaë. Drop the woman,
my son. Or permit me to speak what you would have her
hear."
Richard listened to him with disgust.
"Well, you've had my doctorial warning," said Adrian,
and plunged back into his book.
When Lady Feverel had revived to take part in the consultations
Mrs. Berry perpetually opened on the subject of
Richard's matrimonial duty, another chain was cast about
him. "Do not, oh, do not offend your father!" was her
one repeated supplication. Sir Austin had grown to be a
vindictive phantom in her mind. She never wept but
when she said this.
So Mrs. Berry, to whom Richard had once made mention
of Lady Blandish as the only friend he had among
women, bundled off in her black-satin dress to obtain an
interview with her, and an ally. After coming to an understanding
on the matter of the visit, and reiterating
many of her views concerning young married people, Mrs.
Berry said: "My lady, if I may speak so bold, I'd say
the sin that's bein' done is the sin o' the lookers-on. And
when everybody appear frightened by that young gentleman's
father, I'll say—hopin' your pardon—they no cause
be frighted at all. For though it's nigh twenty year since
I knew him, and I knew him then just sixteen months—no
more—I'll say his heart's as soft as a woman's, which
I've cause for to know. And that's it. That's where
everybody's deceived by him, and I was. It's because he
keeps his face, and makes ye think you're dealin' with a
man of iron, and all the while there's a woman underneath.
And a man that's like a woman he's the puzzle o' life!
We can see through ourselves, my lady, and we can see
through men, but one o' that sort—he's like somethin' out
of nature. Then I say—hopin' be excused—what's to do
is for to treat him like a woman, and not for to let him
'ave his own way—which he don't know himself, and is
why nobody else do. Let that sweet young couple come
together, and be wholesome in spite of him, I say; and
then give him time to come round, just like a woman; and
round he'll come, and give 'em his blessin', and we shall
know we've made him comfortable. He's angry because
matrimony have come between him and his son, and he,
woman-like, he's wantin' to treat what is as if it isn't.
But matrimony's a holier than him. It began long long
before him, and it's be hoped will endoor long's the time
after, if the world's not coming to rack—wishin' him no
harm."
Now Mrs. Berry only put Lady Blandish's thoughts in
bad English. The lady took upon herself seriously to advise
Richard to send for his wife. He wrote, bidding her
come. Lucy, however, had wits, and inexperienced wits
are as a little knowledge. In pursuance of her sage plan
to make the family feel her worth, and to conquer the
members of it one by one, she had got up a correspondence
with Adrian, whom it tickled. Adrian constantly assured
her all was going well: time would heal the wound if both
the offenders had the fortitude to be patient: he fancied
he saw signs of the baronet's relenting: they must do
nothing to arrest those favourable symptoms. Indeed the
wise youth was languidly seeking to produce them. He
wrote, and felt, as Lucy's benefactor. So Lucy replied to
her husband a cheerful rigmarole he could make nothing
of, save that she was happy in hope, and still had fears.
Then Mrs. Berry trained her fist to indite a letter to her
bride. Her bride answered it by saying she trusted to
time. "You poor marter," Mrs. Berry wrote back, "I
know what your sufferin's be. They is the only kind a
wife should never hide from her husband. He thinks all
sorts of things if she can abide being away. And you
trusting to time, why it's like trusting not to catch cold
out of your natural clothes." There was no shaking
Lucy's firmness.
Richard gave it up. He began to think that the life
lying behind him was the life of a fool. What had he
done in it? He had burnt a rick and got married! He
associated the two acts of his existence. Where was the
hero he was to have carved out of Tom Bakewell!—a
wretch he had taught to lie and chicane: and for what?
Great heavens! how ignoble did a flash from the light
of his aspirations make his marriage appear! The young
man sought amusement. He allowed his aunt to drag
him into society, and sick of that he made late evening
calls on Mrs. Mount, oblivious of the purpose he had in
visiting her at all. Her man-like conversation, which he
took for honesty, was a refreshing change on fair lips.
"Call me Bella: I'll call you Dick," said she. And it
came to be Bella and Dick between them. No mention of
Bella occurred in Richard's letters to Lucy.
Mrs. Mount spoke quite openly of herself. "I pretend
to be no better than I am," she said, "and I know I'm
no worse than many a woman who holds her head high."
To back this she told him stories of blooming dames of
good repute, and poured a little social sewerage into his
ears.
Also she understood him. "What you want, my dear
Dick, is something to do. You went and got married like
a—hum!—friends must be respectful. Go into the Army.
Try the turf. I can put you up to a trick or two—friends
should make themselves useful."
She told him what she liked in him. "You're the only
man I was ever alone with who don't talk to me of love
and make me feel sick. I hate men who can't speak to
a woman sensibly.—Just wait a minute." She left him
and presently returned with, "Ah, Dick! old fellow! how
are you?"—arrayed like a cavalier, one arm stuck in her
side, her hat jauntily cocked, and a pretty oath on her lips
to give reality to the costume. "What do you think of me?
Wasn't it a shame to make a woman of me when I was
born to be a man?"
"I don't know that," said Richard, for the contrast in
her attire to those shooting eyes and lips, aired her sex
bewitchingly.
"What! you think I don't do it well?"
"Charming! but I can't forget...."
"Now that is too bad!" she pouted.
Then she proposed that they should go out into the
midnight streets arm-in-arm, and out they went and had
great fits of laughter at her impertinent manner of using
her eye-glass, and outrageous affectation of the supreme
dandy.
"They take up men, Dick, for going about in women's
clothes, and vice versaw, I suppose. You'll bail me, old
fellaa, if I have to make my bow to the beak, won't you?
Say it's becas I'm an honest woman and don't care to hide
the—a—unmentionables when I wear them—as the
t'others do," sprinkled with the dandy's famous invocations.
He began to conceive romance in that sort of fun.
"You're a wopper, my brave Dick! won't let any peeler
take me? by Jove!"
And he with many assurances guaranteed to stand by
her, while she bent her thin fingers trying the muscle of
his arm, and reposed upon it more. There was delicacy
in her dandyism. She was a graceful cavalier.
"Sir Julius," as they named the dandy's attire, was frequently
called for on his evening visits to Mrs. Mount.
When he beheld Sir Julius he thought of the lady, and
"vice versaw," as Sir Julius was fond of exclaiming.
Was ever hero in this fashion wooed?
The woman now and then would peep through Sir
Julius. Or she would sit, and talk, and altogether forget
she was impersonating that worthy fop.
She never uttered an idea or a reflection, but Richard
thought her the cleverest woman he had ever met.
All kinds of problematic notions beset him. She was
cold as ice, she hated talk about love, and she was branded
by the world.
A rumour spread that reached Mrs. Doria's ears. She
rushed to Adrian first. The wise youth believed there was
nothing in it. She sailed down upon Richard. "Is this
true? that you have been seen going publicly about with
an infamous woman, Richard? Tell me! pray, relieve
me!"
Richard knew of no person answering to his aunt's description
in whose company he could have been seen.
"Tell me, I say! Don't quibble. Do you know any
woman of bad character?"
The acquaintance of a lady very much misjudged and
ill-used by the world, Richard admitted to.
Urgent grave advice Mrs. Doria tendered her nephew,
both from the moral and the worldly point of view, mentally
ejaculating all the while: "That ridiculous System!
That disgraceful marriage!" Sir Austin in his mountain
solitude was furnished with serious stuff to brood over.
The rumour came to Lady Blandish. She likewise lectured
Richard, and with her he condescended to argue. But
he found himself obliged to instance something he had
quite neglected. "Instead of her doing me harm, it's I
that will do her good."
Lady Blandish shook her head and held up her finger.
"This person must be very clever to have given you that
delusion, dear."
"She is clever. And the world treats her shamefully."
"She complains of her position to you?"
"Not a word. But I will stand by her. She has no
friend but me."
"My poor boy! has she made you think that?"
"How unjust you all are!" cried Richard.
"How mad and wicked is the man who can let him be
tempted so!" thought Lady Blandish.
He would pronounce no promise not to visit her, not to
address her publicly. The world that condemned her and
cast her out was no better—worse for its miserable hypocrisy.
He knew the world now, the young man said.
"My child! the world may be very bad. I am not going
to defend it. But you have some one else to think of.
Have you forgotten you have a wife, Richard?"
"Ay! you all speak of her now. There's my aunt:
'Remember you have a wife!' Do you think I love any
one but Lucy? poor little thing! Because I am married
am I to give up the society of women?"
"Of women!"
"Isn't she a woman?"
"Too much so!" sighed the defender of her sex.
Adrian became more emphatic in his warnings. Richard
laughed at him. The wise youth sneered at Mrs.
Mount. The hero then favoured him with a warning
equal to his own in emphasis, and surpassing it in sincerity.
"We won't quarrel, my dear boy," said Adrian. "I'm a
man of peace. Besides, we are not fairly proportioned for
a combat. Ride your steed to virtue's goal! All I say
is, that I think he'll upset you, and it's better to go a slow
pace and in companionship with the children of the sun.
You have a very nice little woman for a wife—well, goodbye!"
To have his wife and the world thrown at his face, was
unendurable to Richard; he associated them somewhat
after the manner of the rick and the marriage. Charming
Sir Julius, always gay, always honest, dispersed his black
moods.
"Why, you're taller," Richard made the discovery.
"Of course I am. Don't you remember you said I was
such a little thing when I came out of my woman's shell?"
"And how have you done it?"
"Grown to please you."
"Now, if you can do that, you can do anything."
"And so I would do anything."
"You would?"
"Honour!"
"Then" ... his project recurred to him. But the incongruity
of speaking seriously to Sir Julius struck him
dumb.
"Then what?" asked she.
"Then you're a gallant fellow."
"That all?"
"Isn't it enough?"
"Not quite. You were going to say something. I saw
it in your eyes."
"You saw that I admired you."
"Yes, but a man mustn't admire a man."
"I suppose I had an idea you were a woman."
"What! when I had the heels of my boots raised half
an inch," Sir Julius turned one heel, and volleyed out
silver laughter.
"I don't come much above your shoulder even now,"
she said, and proceeded to measure her height beside him
with arch up-glances.
"You must grow more."
"'Fraid I can't, Dick! Bootmakers can't do it."
"I'll show you how," and he lifted Sir Julius lightly,
and bore the fair gentleman to the looking-glass, holding
him there exactly on a level with his head. "Will that
do?"
"Yes! Oh, but I can't stay here."
"Why can't you?"
"Why can't I?"
He should have known then—it was thundered at a
closed door in him, that he played with fire. But the
door being closed, he thought himself internally secure.
Their eyes met. He put her down instantly.
Sir Julius, charming as he was, lost his vogue. Seeing
that, the wily woman resumed her shell. The memory
of Sir Julius breathing about her still, doubled the feminine
attraction.
"I ought to have been an actress," she said.
Richard told her he found all natural women had a
similar wish.
"Yes! Ah! then! if I had been!" sighed Mrs. Mount,
gazing on the pattern of the carpet.
He took her hand, and pressed it.
"You are not happy as you are?"
"No."
"May I speak to you?"
"Yes."
Her nearest eye, setting a dimple of her cheek in motion,
slid to the corner toward her ear, as she sat with her
head sideways to him, listening. When he had gone, she
said to herself: "Old hypocrites talk in that way; but I
never heard of a young man doing it, and not making
love at the same time."
Their next meeting displayed her quieter: subdued as
one who had been set thinking. He lauded her fair
looks. "Don't make me thrice ashamed," she petitioned.
But it was not only that mood with her. Dauntless
defiance, that splendidly befitted her gallant outline and
gave a wildness to her bright bold eyes, when she would
call out: "Happy? who dares say I'm not happy? D'you
think if the world whips me I'll wince? D'you think I
care for what they say or do? Let them kill me! they
shall never get one cry out of me!" and flashing on the
young man as if he were the congregated enemy, add:
"There! now you know me!"—that was a mood that well
became her, and helped the work. She ought to have
been an actress.
"This must not go on," said Lady Blandish and Mrs.
Doria in unison. A common object brought them together.
They confined their talk to it, and did not disagree.
Mrs. Doria engaged to go down to the baronet.
Both ladies knew it was a dangerous, likely to turn out
a disastrous, expedition. They agreed to it because it
was something to do, and doing anything is better than
doing nothing. "Do it," said the wise youth, when they
made him a third, "do it, if you want him to be a hermit
for life. You will bring back nothing but his dead body,
ladies—a Hellenic, rather than a Roman, triumph. He
will listen to you—he will accompany you to the station—he
will hand you into the carriage—and when you point
to his seat he will bow profoundly, and retire into his
congenial mists."
Adrian spoke their thoughts. They fretted; they relapsed.
"Speak to him, you, Adrian," said Mrs. Doria. "Speak
to the boy solemnly. It would be almost better he should
go back to that little thing he has married."
"Almost?" Lady Blandish opened her eyes. "I have
been advising it for the last month and more."
"A choice of evils," said Mrs. Doria's sour-sweet face
and shake of the head.
Each lady saw a point of dissension, and mutually
agreed, with heroic effort, to avoid it by shutting their
mouths. What was more, they preserved the peace in
spite of Adrian's artifices.
"Well, I'll talk to him again," he said. "I'll try to
get the Engine on the conventional line."
"Command him!" exclaimed Mrs. Doria.
"Gentle means are, I think, the only means with Richard,"
said Lady Blandish.
Throwing banter aside, as much as he could, Adrian
spoke to Richard. "You want to reform this woman.
Her manner is open—fair and free—the traditional characteristic.
We won't stop to canvass how that particular
honesty of deportment that wins your approbation has
been gained. In her college it is not uncommon. Girls,
you know, are not like boys. At a certain age they can't
be quite natural. It's a bad sign if they don't blush,
and fib, and affect this and that. It wears off when
they're women. But a woman who speaks like a man,
and has all those excellent virtues you admire—where has
she learned the trick? She tells you. You don't surely
approve of the school? Well, what is there in it, then?
Reform her, of course. The task is worthy of your
energies. But, if you are appointed to do it, don't do
it publicly, and don't attempt it just now. May I ask
you whether your wife participates in this undertaking?"
Richard walked away from the interrogation. The wise
youth, who hated long unrelieved speeches and had healed
his conscience, said no more.
Dear tender Lucy! Poor darling! Richard's eyes
moistened. Her letters seemed sadder latterly. Yet she
never called to him to come, or he would have gone. His
heart leapt up to her. He announced to Adrian that he
should wait no longer for his father. Adrian placidly
nodded.
The enchantress observed that her knight had a clouded
brow and an absent voice.
"Richard—I can't call you Dick now, I really don't
know why"—she said, "I want to beg a favour of you."
"Name it. I can still call you Bella, I suppose?"
"If you care to. What I want to say is this: when you
meet me out—to cut it short—please not to recognize me."
"And why?"
"Do you ask to be told that?"
"Certainly I do."
"Then look: I won't compromise you."
"I see no harm, Bella."
"No," she caressed his hand, "and there is none. I
know that. But," modest eyelids were drooped, "other
people do," struggling eyes were raised.
"What do we care for other people?"
"Nothing. I don't. Not that!" snapping her finger,
"I care for you, though." A prolonged look followed
the declaration.
"You're foolish, Bella."
"Not quite so giddy—that's all."
He did not combat it with his usual impetuosity.
Adrian's abrupt inquiry had sunk in his mind, as the wise
youth intended it should. He had instinctively refrained
from speaking to Lucy of this lady. But what a noble
creature the woman was!
So they met in the park; Mrs. Mount whipped past
him; and secrecy added a new sense to their intimacy.
Adrian was gratified at the result produced by his
eloquence.
Though this lady never expressed an idea, Richard was
not mistaken in her cleverness. She could make evenings
pass gaily, and one was not the fellow to the other. She
could make you forget she was a woman, and then bring
the fact startlingly home to you. She could read men
with one quiver of her half-closed eye-lashes. She could
catch the coming mood in a man, and fit herself to it.
What does a woman want with ideas, who can do thus
much? Keenness of perception, conformity, delicacy of
handling, these be all the qualities necessary to parasites.
Love would have scared the youth: she banished it from
her tongue. It may also have been true that it sickened
her. She played on his higher nature. She understood
spontaneously what would be most strange and taking to
him in a woman. Various as the Serpent of old Nile,
she acted fallen beauty, humorous indifference, reckless
daring, arrogance in ruin. And acting thus, what think
you?—She did it so well because she was growing half
in earnest.
"Richard! I am not what I was since I knew you.
You will not give me up quite?"
"Never, Bella."
"I am not so bad as I'm painted!"
"You are only unfortunate."
"Now that I know you I think so, and yet I am happier."
She told him her history when this soft horizon of repentance
seemed to throw heaven's twilight across it.
A woman's history, you know: certain chapters expunged.
It was dark enough to Richard.
"Did you love the man?" he asked. "You say you love
no one now."
"Did I love him? He was a nobleman and I a tradesman's
daughter. No. I did not love him. I have lived
to learn it. And now I should hate him, if I did not
despise him."
"Can you be deceived in love?" said Richard, more to
himself than to her.
"Yes. When we're young we can be very easily deceived.
If there is such a thing as love, we discover it
after we have tossed about and roughed it. Then we find
the man, or the woman, that suits us:—and then it's too
late! we can't have him."
"Singular!" murmured Richard, "she says just what
my father said."
He spoke aloud: "I could forgive you if you had loved
him."
"Don't be harsh, grave judge! How is a girl to distinguish?"
"You had some affection for him? He was the first?"
She chose to admit that. "Yes. And the first who talks
of love to a girl must be a fool if he doesn't blind
her."
"That makes what is called first love nonsense."
"Isn't it?"
He repelled the insinuation. "Because I know it is
not, Bella."
Nevertheless she had opened a wider view of the world
to him, and a colder. He thought poorly of girls. A
woman—a sensible, brave, beautiful woman seemed, on
comparison, infinitely nobler than those weak creatures.
She was best in her character of lovely rebel accusing
foul injustice. "What am I to do? You tell me to be
different. How can I? What am I to do? Will virtuous
people let me earn my bread? I could not get a housemaid's
place! They wouldn't have me—I see their noses
smelling! Yes: I can go to the hospital and sing behind
a screen! Do you expect me to bury myself alive? Why,
man, I have blood: I can't become a stone. You say I
am honest, and I will be. Then let me tell you that I
have been used to luxuries, and I can't do without them.
I might have married men—lots would have had me. But
who marries one like me but a fool? and I could not
marry a fool. The man I marry I must respect. He
could not respect me—I should know him to be a fool,
and I should be worse off than I am now. As I am now,
they may look as pious as they like—I laugh at them!"
And so forth: direr things. Imputations upon wives:
horrible exultation at the universal peccancy of husbands.
This lovely outcast almost made him think she had the
right on her side, so keenly her Parthian arrows pierced
the holy centres of society, and exposed its rottenness.
Mrs. Mount's house was discreetly conducted: nothing
ever occurred to shock him there. The young man would
ask himself where the difference was between her and the
women of society? How base, too, was the army of banded
hypocrites! He was ready to declare war against them on
her behalf. His casus belli, accurately worded, would have
read curiously. Because the world refused to lure the
lady to virtue with the offer of a housemaid's place, our
knight threw down his challenge. But the lady had scornfully
rebutted this prospect of a return to chastity. Then
the form of the challenge must be: Because the world
declined to support the lady in luxury for nothing! But
what did that mean? In other words: she was to receive
the devil's wages without rendering him her services.
Such an arrangement appears hardly fair on the world
or on the devil. Heroes will have to conquer both before
they will get them to subscribe to it.
Heroes, however, are not in the habit of wording their
declarations of war at all. Lance in rest they challenge
and they charge. Like women they trust to instinct, and
graft on it the muscle of men. Wide fly the leisurely-remonstrating
hosts: institutions are scattered, they know
not wherefore, heads are broken that have not the balm
of a reason why. 'Tis instinct strikes! Surely there is
something divine in instinct.
Still, war declared, where were these hosts? The hero
could not charge down on the ladies and gentlemen in a
ballroom, and spoil the quadrille. He had sufficient reticence
to avoid sounding his challenge in the Law Courts;
nor could he well go into the Houses of Parliament with
a trumpet, though to come to a tussle with the nation's
direct representatives did seem the likelier method. It
was likewise out of the question that he should enter
every house and shop, and battle with its master in the
cause of Mrs. Mount. Where, then, was his enemy?
Everybody was his enemy, and everybody was nowhere.
Shall he convoke multitudes on Wimbledon Common?
Blue Policemen, and a distant dread of ridicule, bar all
his projects. Alas for the hero in our day!
Nothing teaches a strong arm its impotence so much as
knocking at empty air.
"What can I do for this poor woman?" cried Richard,
after fighting his phantom enemy till he was worn out.
"O Rip! old Rip!" he addressed his friend, "I'm distracted.
I wish I was dead! What good am I for? Miserable!
selfish! What have I done but make every soul
I know wretched about me? I follow my own inclinations—I
make people help me by lying as hard as they
can—and I'm a liar. And when I've got it I'm ashamed
of myself. And now when I do see something unselfish
for me to do, I come upon grins—I don't know where to
turn—how to act—and I laugh at myself like a devil!"
It was only friend Ripton's ear that was required, so
his words went for little: but Ripton did say he thought
there was small matter to be ashamed of in winning and
wearing the Beauty of Earth. Richard added his customary
comment of "Poor little thing!"
He fought his duello with empty air till he was exhausted.
A last letter written to his father procured him
no reply. Then, said he, I have tried my utmost. I have
tried to be dutiful—my father won't listen to me. One
thing I can do—I can go down to my dear girl, and make
her happy, and save her at least from some of the consequences
of my rashness.
"There's nothing better for me!" he groaned. His great
ambition must be covered by a house-top: he and the cat
must warm themselves on the domestic hearth! The hero
was not aware that his heart moved him to this. His
heart was not now in open communion with his mind.
Mrs. Mount heard that her friend was going—would go.
She knew he was going to his wife. Far from discouraging
him, she said nobly: "Go—I believe I have kept you.
Let us have an evening together, and then go: for good,
if you like. If not, then to meet again another time.
Forget me. I shan't forget you. You're the best fellow
I ever knew, Richard. You are, on my honour! I swear
I would not step in between you and your wife to cause
either of you a moment's unhappiness. When I can be
another woman I will, and I shall think of you then."
Lady Blandish heard from Adrian that Richard was
positively going to his wife. The wise youth modestly
veiled his own merit in bringing it about by saying: "I
couldn't see that poor little woman left alone down there
any longer."
"Well! Yes!" said Mrs. Doria, to whom the modest
speech was repeated, "I suppose, poor boy, it's the best
he can do now."
Richard bade them adieu, and went to spend his last
evening with Mrs. Mount.
The enchantress received him in state.
"Do you know this dress? No? It's the dress I wore
when I first met you—not when I first saw you. I think
I remarked you, sir, before you deigned to cast an eye
upon humble me. When we first met we drank champagne
together, and I intend to celebrate our parting in the
same liquor. Will you liquor with me, old boy?"
She was gay. She revived Sir Julius occasionally. He,
dispirited, left the talking all to her.
Mrs. Mount kept a footman. At a late hour the man
of calves dressed the table for supper. It was a point of
honour for Richard to sit down to it and try to eat.
Drinking, thanks to the kindly mother nature, who loves
to see her children made fools of, is always an easier
matter. The footman was diligent; the champagne corks
feebly recalled the file-firing at Richmond.
"We'll drink to what we might have been, Dick," said
the enchantress.
Oh, the glorious wreck she looked.
His heart choked as he gulped the buzzing wine.
"What! down, my boy?" she cried. "They shall never
see me hoist signals of distress. We must all die, and the
secret of the thing is to die game, by Jove! Did you ever
hear of Laura Fenn? a superb girl! handsomer than your
humble servant—if you'll believe it—a 'Miss' in the bargain,
and as a consequence, I suppose, a much greater
rake. She was in the hunting-field. Her horse threw
her, and she fell plump on a stake. It went into her left
breast. All the fellows crowded round her, and one young
man, who was in love with her—he sits in the House of
Peers now—we used to call him 'Duck' because he was
such a dear—he dropped from his horse to his knees:
'Laura! Laura! my darling! speak a word to me!—the
last!' She turned over all white and bloody! 'I—I shan't
be in at the death!' and gave up the ghost! Wasn't that
dying game? Here's to the example of Laura Fenn!
Why, what's the matter? See! it makes a man turn
pale to hear how a woman can die. Fill the glasses,
John. Why, you're as bad!"
"It's give me a turn, my lady," pleaded John, and the
man's hand was unsteady as he poured out the wine.
"You ought not to listen. Go, and drink some brandy."
John footman went from the room.
"My brave Dick! Richard! what a face you've got!"
He showed a deep frown on a colourless face.
"Can't you bear to hear of blood? You know, it was
only one naughty woman out of the world. The clergyman
of the parish didn't refuse to give her decent burial.
We are Christians! Hurrah!"
She cheered, and laughed. A lurid splendour glanced
about her like lights from the pit.
"Pledge me, Dick! Drink, and recover yourself. Who
minds? We must all die—the good and the bad. Ashes
to ashes—dust to dust—and wine for living lips! That's
poetry—almost. Sentiment: 'May we never say die till
we've drunk our fill!' Not bad—eh? A little vulgar,
perhaps, by Jove! Do you think me horrid?"
"Where's the wine?" Richard shouted. He drank a
couple of glasses in succession, and stared about. Was
he in hell, with a lost soul raving to him?
"Nobly spoken! and nobly acted upon, my brave Dick!
Now we'll be companions. 'She wished that heaven had
made her such a man.' Ah, Dick! Dick! too late! too
late!"
Softly fell her voice. Her eyes threw slanting beams.
"Do you see this?"
She pointed to a symbolic golden anchor studded with
gems and coiled with a rope of hair in her bosom. It was
a gift of his.
"Do you know when I stole the lock? Foolish Dick!
you gave me an anchor without a rope. Come and see."
She rose from the table, and threw herself on the sofa.
"Don't you recognize your own hair! I should know
a thread of mine among a million."
Something of the strength of Samson went out of him
as he inspected his hair on the bosom of Delilah.
"And you knew nothing of it! You hardly know it
now you see it! What couldn't a woman steal from you?
But you're not vain, and that's a protection. You're a
miracle, Dick: a man that's not vain! Sit here." She
curled up her feet to give him place on the sofa. "Now
let us talk like friends that part to meet no more. You
found a ship with fever on board, and you weren't afraid
to come alongside and keep her company. The fever isn't
catching, you see. Let us mingle our tears together. Ha!
ha! a man said that once to me. The hypocrite wanted
to catch the fever, but he was too old. How old are you,
Dick?"
Richard pushed a few months forward.
"Twenty-one? You just look it, you blooming boy.
Now tell me my age, Adonis!—Twenty—what?"
Richard had given the lady twenty-five years.
She laughed violently. "You don't pay compliments,
Dick. Best to be honest; guess again. You don't like
to? Not twenty-five, or twenty-four, or twenty-three, or—see
how he begins to start!—twenty-two. Just twenty-one,
my dear. I think, my birthday's somewhere in next month.
Why, look at me, close—closer. Have I a wrinkle?"
"And when, in heaven's name!" ... he stopped short.
"I understand you. When did I commence for to live?
At the ripe age of sixteen I saw a nobleman in despair
because of my beauty. He vowed he'd die. I didn't
want him to do that. So to save the poor man for his
family, I ran away with him, and I dare say they didn't
appreciate the sacrifice, and he soon forgot to, if he
ever did. It's the way of the world!"
Richard seized some dead champagne, emptied the
bottle into a tumbler, and drank it off.
John footman entered to clear the table, and they
were left without further interruption.
"Bella! Bella!" Richard uttered in a deep sad voice,
as he walked the room.
She leaned on her arm, her hair crushed against a
reddened cheek, her eyes half-shut and dreamy.
"Bella!" he dropped beside her. "You are unhappy."
She blinked and yawned, as one who is awakened suddenly.
"I think you spoke," said she.
"You are unhappy, Bella. You can't conceal it. Your
laugh sounds like madness. You must be unhappy. So
young, too! Only twenty-one!"
"What does it matter? Who cares for me?"
The mighty pity falling from his eyes took in her
whole shape. She did not mistake it for tenderness, as
another would have done.
"Who cares for you, Bella? I do. What makes my
misery now, but to see you there, and know of no way
of helping you? Father of mercy! it seems too much to
have to stand by powerless while such ruin is going on!"
Her hand was shaken in his by the passion of torment
with which his frame quaked.
Involuntarily a tear started between her eyelids. She
glanced up at him quickly, then looked down, drew her
hand from his, and smoothed it, eying it.
"Bella! you have a father alive!"
"A linen draper, dear. He wears a white neck-cloth."
This article of apparel instantaneously changed the
tone of the conversation, for he, rising abruptly, nearly
squashed the lady's lap-dog, whose squeaks and howls were
piteous, and demanded the most fervent caresses of its
mistress. It was: "Oh, my poor pet Mumpsy, and he
didn't like a nasty great big ugly heavy foot on his poor
soft silky—mum—mum—back, he didn't, and he soodn't
that he—mum—mum—soodn't; and he cried out and
knew the place to come to, and was oh so sorry for what
had happened to him—mum—mum—mum—and now he
was going to be made happy, his mistress make him
happy—mum—mum—mum—moo-o-o-o."
"Yes!" said Richard, savagely, from the other end of
the room, "you care for the happiness of your dog."
"A course se does," Mumpsy was simperingly assured
in the thick of his silky flanks.
Richard looked for his hat. Mumpsy was deposited
on the sofa in a twinkling.
"Now," said the lady, "you must come and beg Mumpsy's
pardon, whether you meant to do it or no, because little
doggies can't tell that—how should they? And there's
poor Mumpsy thinking you're a great terrible rival that
tries to squash him all flat to nothing, on purpose, pretending
you didn't see; and he's trembling, poor dear
wee pet! And I may love my dog, sir, if I like; and I
do; and I won't have him ill-treated, for he's never been
jealous of you, and he is a darling, ten times truer than
men, and I love him fifty times better. So come to him
with me."
First a smile changed Richard's face; then laughing
a melancholy laugh, he surrendered to her humour, and
went through the form of begging Mumpsy's pardon.
"The dear dog! I do believe he saw we were getting
dull," said she.
"And immolated himself intentionally? Noble animal!"
"Well, we'll act as if we thought so. Let us be gay,
Richard, and not part like ancient fogies. Where's your
fun? You can rattle; why don't you? You haven't seen
me in one of my characters—not Sir Julius: wait a couple
of minutes." She ran out.
A white visage reappeared behind a spring of flame.
Her black hair was scattered over her shoulders and fell
half across her brows. She moved slowly, and came up
to him, fastening weird eyes on him, pointing a finger
at the region of witches. Sepulchral cadences accompanied
the representation. He did not listen, for he
was thinking what a deadly charming and exquisitely
horrid witch she was. Something in the way her underlids
worked seemed to remind him of a forgotten picture;
but a veil hung on the picture. There could be no
analogy, for this was beautiful and devilish, and that,
if he remembered rightly, had the beauty of seraphs.
His reflections and her performance were stayed by a
shriek. The spirits of wine had run over the plate she
held to the floor. She had the coolness to put the plate
down on the table, while he stamped out the flame on
the carpet. Again she shrieked: she thought she was on
fire. He fell on his knees and clasped her skirts all
round, drawing his arms down them several times.
Still kneeling, he looked up, and asked, "Do you feel
safe now?"
She bent her face glaring down till the ends of her hair
touched his cheek.
Said she, "Do you?"
Was she a witch verily? There was sorcery in her
breath; sorcery in her hair: the ends of it stung him like
little snakes.
"How do I do it, Dick?" she flung back, laughing.
"Like you do everything, Bella," he said, and took a
breath.
"There! I won't be a witch; I won't be a witch: they
may burn me to a cinder, but I won't be a witch!"
She sang, throwing her hair about, and stamping her
feet.
"I suppose I look a figure. I must go and tidy myself."
"No, don't change. I like to see you so." He gazed
at her with a mixture of wonder and admiration. "I
can't think you the same person—not even when you
laugh."
"Richard," her tone was serious, "you were going to
speak to me of my parents."
"How wild and awful you looked, Bella!"
"My father, Richard, was a very respectable man."
"Bella, you'll haunt me like a ghost."
"My mother died in my infancy, Richard."
"Don't put up your hair, Bella."
"I was an only child!"
Her head shook sorrowfully at the glistening fire-irons.
He followed the abstracted intentness of her look, and
came upon her words.
"Ah, yes! speak of your father, Bella. Speak of him."
"Shall I haunt you, and come to your bedside, and cry,
''Tis time'?"
"Dear Bella! if you will tell me where he lives, I will
go to him. He shall receive you. He shall not refuse—he
shall forgive you."
"If I haunt you, you can't forget me, Richard."
"Let me go to your father, Bella—let me go to him
to-morrow. I'll give you my time. It's all I can give. O
Bella! let me save you."
"So you like me best dishevelled, do you, you naughty
boy! Ha! ha!" and away she burst from him, and up
flew her hair, as she danced across the room, and fell at
full length on the sofa.
He felt giddy: bewitched.
"We'll talk of everyday things, Dick," she called to him
from the sofa. "It's our last evening. Our last? Heigho!
It makes me sentimental. How's that Mr. Ripson, Pipson,
Nipson?—it's not complimentary, but I can't remember
names of that sort. Why do you have friends of
that sort? He's not a gentleman. Better is he? Well,
he's rather too insignificant for me. Why do you sit
off there? Come to me instantly. There—I'll sit up, and
be proper, and you'll have plenty of room. Talk, Dick!"
He was reflecting on the fact that her eyes were brown.
They had a haughty sparkle when she pleased, and when
she pleased a soft languor circled them. Excitement had
dyed her cheeks deep red. He was a youth, and she an
enchantress. He a hero; she a female will-o'-the-wisp.
The eyes were languid now, set in rosy colour.
"You will not leave me yet, Richard? not yet?"
He had no thought of departing.
"It's our last night—I suppose it's our last hour together
in this world—and I don't want to meet you in
the next, for poor Dick will have to come to such a very,
very disagreeable place to make the visit."
He grasped her hand at this.
"Yes, he will! too true! can't be helped: they say I'm
handsome."
"You're lovely, Bella."
She drank in his homage.
"Well, we'll admit it. His Highness below likes lovely
women, I hear say. A gentleman of taste! You don't
know all my accomplishments yet, Richard."
"I shan't be astonished at anything new, Bella."
"Then hear, and wonder." Her voice trolled out some
lively roulades. "Don't you think he'll make me his
prima donna below? It's nonsense to tell me there's no
singing there. And the atmosphere will be favourable
to the voice. No damp, you know. You saw the piano—why
didn't you ask me to sing before? I can sing
Italian. I had a master—who made love to me. I forgave
him because of the music-stool—men can't help it
on a music-stool, poor dears!"
She went to the piano, struck the notes, and sang—
"'My heart, my heart—I think 'twill break.'
"Because I'm such a rake. I don't know any other
reason. No; I hate sentimental songs. Won't sing that.
Ta-tiddy-tiddy-iddy—a ... e! How ridiculous those
women were, coming home from Richmond!
'Once the sweet romance of story
Clad thy moving form with grace;
Once the world and all its glory
Was but framework to thy face.
Ah, too fair!—what I remember,
Might my soul recall—but no!
To the winds this wretched ember
Of a fire that falls so low!'
"Hum! don't much like that. Tum-te-tum-tum—accanto
al fuoco—heigho! I don't want to show off, Dick—or
to break down—so I won't try that.
'Oh! but for thee, oh! but for thee,
I might have been a happy wife,
And nursed a baby on my knee,
And never blushed to give it life.'
"I used to sing that when I was a girl, sweet Richard,
and didn't know at all, at all, what it meant. Mustn't
sing that sort of song in company. We're oh! so proper—even
we!
'If I had a husband, what think you I'd do?
I'd make it my business to keep him a lover;
For when a young gentleman ceases to woo,
Some other amusement he'll quickly discover.'
"For such are young gentlemen made of—made of:
such are young gentlemen made of!"
After this trifling she sang a Spanish ballad sweetly.
He was in the mood when imagination intensely vivifies
everything. Mere suggestion of music sufficed. The lady
in the ballad had been wronged. Lo! it was the lady
before him; and soft horns blew; he smelt the languid
night-flowers; he saw the stars crowd large and close
above the arid plain: this lady leaning at her window
desolate, pouring out her abandoned heart.
Heroes know little what they owe to champagne.
The lady wandered to Venice. Thither he followed her
at a leap. In Venice she was not happy. He was prepared
for the misery of any woman anywhere. But, oh!
to be with her! To glide with phantom-motion through
throbbing street; past houses muffled in shadow and
gloomy legends; under storied bridges; past palaces
charged with full life in dead quietness; past grand old
towers, colossal squares, gleaming quays, and out, and on
with her, on into the silver infinity shaking over seas!
Was it the champagne? the music? or the poetry?
Something of the two former, perhaps: but most the
enchantress playing upon him. How many instruments
cannot clever women play upon at the same moment!
And this enchantress was not too clever, or he might
have felt her touch. She was no longer absolutely bent
on winning him, or he might have seen a man[oe]uvre.
She liked him—liked none better. She wished him well.
Her pique was satisfied. Still he was handsome, and
he was going. What she liked him for, she rather—very
slightly—wished to do away with, or see if it could be
done away with: just as one wishes to catch a pretty
butterfly, without hurting its patterned wings. No harm
intended to the innocent insect, only one wants to inspect
it thoroughly, and enjoy the marvel of it, in one's tender
possession, and have the felicity of thinking one could
crush it, if one would.
He knew her what she was, this lady. In Seville, or in
Venice, the spot was on her. Sailing the pathways of
the moon it was not celestial light that illumined her
beauty. Her sin was there: but in dreaming to save, he
was soft to her sin—drowned it in deep mournfulness.
Silence, and the rustle of her dress, awoke him from his
musing. She swam wave-like to the sofa. She was at his
feet.
"I have been light and careless to-night, Richard. Of
course I meant it. I must be happy with my best friend
going to leave me."
Those witch underlids were working brightly.
"You will not forget me? and I shall try ... try...."
Her lips twitched. She thought him such a very handsome
fellow.
"If I change—if I can change.... Oh! if you could
know what a net I'm in, Richard!"
Now at those words, as he looked down on her haggard
loveliness, not divine sorrow but a devouring jealousy
sprang like fire to his breast, and set him rocking with
horrid pain. He bent closer to her pale beseeching face.
Her eyes still drew him down.
"Bella! No! no! promise me! swear it!"
"Lost, Richard! lost for ever! give me up!"
He cried: "I never will!" and strained her in his arms,
and kissed her passionately on the lips.
She was not acting now as she sidled and slunk her
half-averted head with a kind of maiden shame under
his arm, sighing heavily, weeping, clinging to him. It
was wicked truth.
Not a word of love between them!
Was ever hero in this fashion won?