The next day Enid Raleigh came home.
Almost the first thing she said to her mother,
who had met her at the station with the carriage,
was:
"Well, and where is Master Vane, please? He
is in town, isn't he? Why didn't he come to meet
me? I shall have to make him do penance for
this."
The words were lightly spoken, spoken in utter
unconsciousness of the deep meaning which Fate
had put into them. So far as Enid herself was
concerned, and as, in fact, she was just thinking
at the moment, all they meant was that at their next
meeting she would refuse Vane his long-accustomed
lover's kiss, and then, after an explanation
occupying some three or four minutes at most, surrender
at discretion, after which would come the
luxury of playing at being offended and standing
on her dignity for a few minutes more, and then
enjoying the further luxury of making it up.
"Yes, dear," said her mother, "Vane is in town
still. I think he doesn't go back to Oxford until
the end of the week, but he hasn't been very well
lately——"
"Not well!" exclaimed Enid, sitting up out of
the corner of the carriage into which she had
leaned back with that easy abandon which comes
so naturally to people accustomed to comfort all
their lives. "Ill! Why, Vane's never been ill in
his life. What's the matter? It isn't anything
serious, is it? You don't mean that he's really ill,
mother, do you?"
There was no mistaking the reality of the anxiety
in her tone. Her mother recognised it instantly,
but she also saw that a brougham rattling over the
streets of London was not exactly the place to enter
upon such explanations as it was her destiny and
her duty to make to this brilliant, beautiful, spoilt
darling of a daughter who was sitting beside her.
So far as she knew, every hope, every prospect
of Enid's life, that bright young life which, in the
fuller acceptation of the term, was only just going
to begin, was connected more or less intimately
with Vane Maxwell.
Ever since they had come home together from
Bombay on that memorable voyage, she and Vane
had been sweethearts. They were very much in
love with each other, and so far their love had been
a striking exception to that old proverb which
comes true only too often. Saving only those
lovers' quarrels which don't count because they end
so much more pleasantly than they begin, there
had never been a cloud in that morning-sky of life
towards which they had so far walked hand in
hand. It seemed as though the Fates themselves
had conspired to make everything pleasant and
easy for them; and of course it had never struck
either of them that when the Fates do this kind
of thing, they always have a more or less heavy
account on the other side—to be presented in due
course.
Lady Raleigh knew this, and her daughter did
not. She knew that the terrible explanation had
to come, but she very naturally shrank from the
inevitable—and so, woman-like, she temporised.
"Really, dear," she said, "I can't talk with all
this jolting and rattle. When we get home I will
tell you all about it. Vane himself is not ill at all.
He is just as well as ever he was. It isn't that."
"Then I suppose," said Miss Enid, looking
round sharply, "my lord has been getting himself
into some scrape or other—something that has to
be explained or talked away before he likes to meet
me. Is that it?"
"No, Enid, that is not it," replied her mother
gravely, "but really, dear, I must ask you to say
nothing more about it just now. When we get
home we'll have a cup of tea, and then I'll tell you
all about it."
"Oh, very well," said Enid, a trifle petulantly.
"I suppose there's some mystery about it. Of
course there must be, or else he'd have come here
himself, so we may as well change the subject.
How do you like the new flat, and what's it like?"
As she said this she threw herself back again
into the corner and stared out of the opposite window
of the brougham with a look in her eyes which
seemed to say that for the time being she had no
further interest in any earthly affairs.
Lady Raleigh, glad of the relief even for the
moment, at once began a voluble and minute description
of the new flat in Addison Gardens into
which they had moved during her daughter's last
sojourn in Paris, and this, with certain interjections
and questions from Enid, lasted until the brougham
turned into the courtyard and drew up in front of
the arched doorway out of which the tall, uniformed
porter came with the fingers of his left hand raised
to the peak of his cap, to open the carriage door.
Sir Godfrey was out, and would not be back
until dinner time; so, as soon as they had taken
their things off, Lady Raleigh ordered tea in her
own room, and there, as briefly as was consistent
with the gravity of the news she had to tell, she
told Enid everything that her husband had heard
from Sir Arthur.
Enid, although she flushed slightly at certain portions
of the narrative, listened to the story with a
calmness which somewhat surprised her mother.
The little damsel for whose kisses those two boys
had fought ten or eleven years ago, had now grown
into a fair and stately maiden of eighteen, very
dainty and desirable to look upon, and withal possessing
a dignity which only comes by birth and
breeding and that larger training and closer contact
with the world which modern girls of her class
enjoy. Young as she was, hers was not the innocence
of ignorance. She had lived too late in the
century, and had already been too far afield in the
world for that.
"It comes to this, then," she said quietly, almost
hardly, "instead of being dead, as we have believed
all along, Vane's mother is alive; an imbecile
who has become so through drink, and who seems
to have misbehaved herself very badly when Vane
was a baby. She is in an asylum, and will probably
remain there till she dies. No one but ourselves
and this interesting young person, Miss
Carol Vane, appears to know anything about it,
and I really don't see why Vane is to be held responsible
for his mother's insanity—for I suppose
that's what it comes to.
"And then there is Miss Carol herself. Of
course she's not a particularly desirable family connection;
but I don't suppose Vane would expect
me to meet her, much less fall upon her neck and
greet her as his long-lost sister. I suppose, too,
that between us we could manage to do something
for her, and put her in a more respectable way of
living and induce her to hold her tongue.
"As for Vane getting drunk that night, of course
it's very improper and all that sort of thing from
the Sunday School point of view; but I don't suppose
he was the only undergraduate who took too
much to drink that night. Probably several hundreds
of them did, and I daresay a good many of
them were either engaged or going to be. Would
they consider that a reason why they should go
and break off their engagements? I'm afraid there
wouldn't be many marriages nowadays if engagements
were broken off on that account.
"Of course, mam, dear, what you've told me is
not exactly pleasant to hear, but still, after all, I
really can't see anything so very dreadful in it.
Most families have a skeleton of some sort, I suppose,
and this is ours, or will be when Vane and I
are married. We must simply keep the cupboard
door shut as closely as possible. It's only what lots
of other people have to do."
"Well, my dear," said her mother, "I must say
I'm very glad to see you take it so reasonably. I'm
afraid I could not have done so at your age, but
then girls are so different now, and, besides, you
always had more of your father's way of looking
at things than mine. Then, I suppose, Vane may
come and see you. I think it was very nice of
him not to come until you had been told everything."
"May come!" said Enid. "I should think so.
If he doesn't I shall be distinctly offended. I shall
expect him to come round and make his explanations
in person before long, and when he does we
will have a few minutes chat à deux—and I don't
think I shall have very much difficulty in convincing
him of the error of his ways, or, at any rate,
of his opinions."
"What an extremely conceited speech to make,
dear!" said her ladyship mildly, and yet with a
glance of motherly pride at the beauty which went
so far towards justifying it. "Well, perhaps you
are right. Certainly, if anyone can, you can, and
I sincerely hope you will. It would be dreadful if
anything were to happen to break it off after all
these years."
The colour went out of Enid's cheeks in an instant,
and she said in quite an altered voice:
"Oh, for goodness sake, mamma, don't say anything
about that! You know how fond I am of
Vane. I simply couldn't give him up, whatever
sort of a mother he had, and if he had a dozen half-sisters
as disreputable as this Miss Carol Vane—the
very idea of her having the impudence to use
his name! No, I shan't think of that—I couldn't.
If Vane did that it would just break my heart—it
really would. It would be like taking half my life
away, and it would simply kill me. I couldn't bear
it."
She honestly meant what she said, not knowing
that she said it in utter ignorance of the self that
said it.
It was in Enid's mind, as it also was in her
mother's, to send a note round to Warwick Gardens
to ask both Vane and his father to come round to
an informal dinner, and to discuss the matter there
and then; but neither of them gave utterance to
the thought. Lady Raleigh, knowing her daughter's
proud and somewhat impetuous temperament,
instinctively shrank from making a suggestion
which she would have had very good grounds for
rejecting, more especially as she had already given
such a very decided opinion as to Vane's scruples.
As for Enid herself, she honestly thought so little
of these same scruples that she felt inclined to accuse
Vane of a Quixotism which, from her point
of view at least, was entirely unwarrantable. It
was, therefore, quite impossible for her to first suggest
that they should meet after a parting during
which they might have unconsciously reached what
was to be the crisis of both their lives.
The result was that the thought remained unspoken,
and Enid, after spending the evening in
vexed and anxious uncertainty, went to bed; and
then, as soon as she felt that she was absolutely
safe in her solitude, discussed the whole matter over
again with herself, and wound the discussion up
with a good hearty cry, after which she fell into
the dreamless slumber of the healthy and innocent.
When she woke very early the next morning,
or, rather, while she was on that borderland between
sleeping and waking where the mind works
with such strange rapidity, she reviewed the whole
of the circumstances, and came to the conclusion
that she was being very badly treated. Vane knew
perfectly well that she was coming back yesterday
afternoon, and therefore he had no right to let
these absurd scruples of his prevent him from performing
the duties of a lover and meeting her at
the station. But, even granted that something else
had made it impossible for him to do so, there was
absolutely no excuse for his remaining away the
whole afternoon and evening when he must have
known how welcome a visit would have been.
Meanwhile Vane had been doing the very last
thing that she would have imagined him doing.
After his fateful conversation with his father he
had left the house in Warwick Gardens to wander
he knew and cared not whither. His thoughts
were more than sufficient companionship for him,
and, heeding neither time nor distance, he walked
as he might have walked in a dream, along the main
road through Hammersmith and Turnham Green
and Kew, and so through Richmond Hill till he
had climbed the hill and stopped for a brief moment
of desperate debate before the door of the
saloon bar of the "Star and Garter." The better
impulse conquered the worse, and he entered the
park, and, seating himself on one of the chairs
under the trees, he made an effort to calmly survey
the question in all its bearings.
It was the most momentous of all human tasks—the
choosing of his own future life-path at the
parting of the ways. One of them, flower-bordered
and green with the new-grown grass of life's
spring-time, and the other dry, rugged and rock-strewn—the
paths of inclination and duty: the one
leading up to the golden gates of the Paradise of
wedded love, and the other slanting down to the
wide wilderness which he must cross alone, until
he passed alone into the shadows which lay beyond
it.
A few days before he had seen himself well on
the way to everything that can make a man's life
full and bright and worthy to be lived. He was,
thanks to his father's industry, relieved from all
care on the score of money, and, better still, he had
that within him which made him independent of
fortune, perfect health and great abilities, already
well-proved, although he had yet to wait nearly a
year for his twenty-first birthday.
He had great ambitions and the high hopes
which go with them. The path to honour and
distinction, even to fame itself, had lain plainly open
before him—and now everything was so different.
The sun which he had thought was only rising was
already setting. He knew now that the fruit which
looked so sweet and luscious had the canker-worm
feeding on the core; that the flesh which seemed
so healthy was really tainted and leprous; and
that, worse than all, the brightest and sweetest
promise of his life, a promise infinitely sweeter and
dearer than even the fulfilment of his highest material
ambition, was now no longer a promise but a
denial, a life-sacrifice demanded, not only by his
honour as a man, but by his love as a lover.
He sat thus thinking until the buzzing of a
motor-car woke him from his day-dream. He
looked at his watch, and found that he had about
time to get across the park to Sheen Gate; but
he fell to dreaming again on the way, and when
he reached the gate it was closed.
He turned back with the idea of asking a keeper
to unlock the gate and let him out, but after a few
strides he halted and sat down again on a seat.
After all, were he to go home, he could not sleep,
and it better suited his mood to keep vigil in the
open air than within the four walls of his room.
And so he passed the night, walking half awake,
and then sitting, half asleep, dimly reviewing this
sudden crisis of his fate again and again from all
possible aspects. And again and again the determination
to adhere to the decision which duty had
marked out so clearly seemed to beat itself deeper
and deeper into his brain.
The taint of alcoholism was in his blood, and
matrimony and parentage were not for him. In
the morning he would go straight to Enid's father
and admit that, although ties reaching back into
her childhood and his had to be broken, yet it was
impossible for the engagement between him and
Enid to be continued.
The night passed, and the park gates were again
opened, but still Vane sat on, until, noticing the suspicious
glances of some of the early pedestrians,
he decided to get home, have a tub, and pay his
fateful visit to Sir Godfrey Raleigh.
As it happened, however, that visit was never
to be paid. Enid had found her waking thoughts
unpleasant, if not almost intolerable, and, being
too perfectly healthy to indulge in anything of the
nature of moping or sulks, she came to the conclusion
that a good sharp spin on her bicycle would
be the best mental tonic she could have; so she
got a cup of coffee and a biscuit, took out her machine,
and started away to work off, as she hoped,
the presentiment of coming trouble which seemed
to have fastened itself upon her.
Thus it happened that she entered Richmond
Park by Sheen Gate just as Vane, physically weary
yet still mentally sleepless, was coming out of it.
During his night's vigil he had nerved himself,
as he thought, to meet every imaginable trial but
this one—this vision of his well-beloved, not waiting
for him, but coming to him fresh and radiant
in her young beauty, delightful and desirable,
tempting almost beyond the powers of human resistance,
and his, too, his own sweetheart, pledged
to him ever since that memorable afternoon when
he had fought for her and won her behind the
wheelhouse in the midst of the Indian Ocean.
When her wonder had given way to complete
recognition Enid dismounted and waited, naturally
expecting that he would greet her; but he stood
silent, looking at her as though he were trying to
find some words of salutation.
"Well, Vane," she said at last, "I suppose we
may shake hands. I did not expect to see you
here. Cannot you look a little more cheerful?
What is the matter? You look as if you hadn't
been home all night."
He took her hand mechanically, and, as he held
it and looked down into the sweet upturned face
with a bright flush on the cheeks and the dawning
of an angry light in the gentle eyes, he felt an
almost irresistible desire to take her in his arms
just as he had done at their last meeting and kiss
into silence the tempting lips which had just shaped
those almost scornfully spoken words.
It dawned upon her in the same moment that he
was looking as she had never seen him look before.
His face was perfectly bloodless. The features
were hard-set and deep-lined. There were furrows
in his forehead and shadows under his eyes. When
she had last seen his face it was that of a boy of
twenty, full of health and strength, and without a
care on his mind. Now it was the face of a man of
thirty, a man who had lived and sinned and sorrowed.
In that instant her mood and her voice changed,
and she said:
"Vane, dear, what is it? Why don't you speak
to me? Are you ill?"
He took her bicycle from her, and, turning,
walked with her back into the park. After a few
moments' silence he replied in a voice which seemed
horribly strange to her:
"Yes, Enid, I am. I am ill, and I am afraid
there is no cure for the disease. I have not been
home. In fact, I have been in the park all night.
I was shut in by accident, and I remained from
choice, trying to think out my duty to you."
"Oh, nonsense!" she replied. "I know what
you mean. It's about you getting drunk the other
night—and—and your unfortunate mother and this
newly-found half-sister of yours. Well, of course,
I suppose it was exceedingly wrong of you to get
so very drunk. And the rest—I mean about your
mother—that is very sad and terrible. But, bad
as it is, I think you are taking it a great deal too
seriously. I've talked it all over with mamma, and
she thinks just as I do about it."
When she had said this Enid felt that she had
gone quite as far as her self-respect and maidenly
pride would permit her to go. As she looked up
at him she saw the pallor of his face change almost
to grey. His hand was resting lightly on her arm,
and she felt it tremble. Then he drew it gently
away and said:
"I know what you mean, Enid, and it is altogether
too good and generous of you; but I don't
think you quite understand—I mean, you don't
seem to realise how serious it all is."
"Really, Vane, I must say that you are acting
very strangely. What is the good of going all over
it again? You can't tell me anything more, I suppose,
than I have heard already from mamma.
Surely you don't mean that you intend that everything
is to be over between us—that we are only
to be friends, as they say, in future?"
"I quite see what you mean," he said, his lips
perceptibly tightening; "and that, too, in a certain
sense, is what I mean also."
"What!" she exclaimed. "Do you really mean
that I am not to be any more what I have been
to you, and that if we meet again it must only be
as ordinary acquaintances, just friends who have
known each other a certain number of years?
Surely, Vane, you don't mean that—dear?"
The last word escaped her lips almost involuntarily.
She tried to keep it back, but it got out
in spite of herself. It was only the fact that they
were walking on the public highway that prevented
her from giving way altogether to the sense of
despair that had come over her. As his face had
changed a few moments before so did hers now,
and as she looked at him he stopped momentarily
in his walk.
But the lessons which he had learnt during the
last few days, and most of all during this last night
of lonely wandering and desperate questioning with
himself, had ground the moral into his soul so
deeply that not even the sight of her so anxiously
longing for just one word from him to bring them
together again, and make them once more as they
had always been—almost since either of them could
remember anything—was strong enough to force
him to speak it.
He involuntarily wheeled the bicycle towards the
middle of the road, as though he was afraid to trust
himself too near her, and said, speaking as a man
might speak when pronouncing his own death sentence:
"Yes, Enid, that is what I do mean. I mean
that there is a great deal more, something infinitely
more serious in what has happened during the last
few days, in what I have learnt and you have been
told, than you seem to have any idea of."
Enid made a gesture as though she would interrupt
him, but he went on almost hotly:
"Listen to me, Enid, and then judge me as you
please—only listen to me. Four days ago, after I
had seen the Boat Race, I did as a good many
other fellows from the 'Varsity do—I went West.
By sheer accident I met a girl so like myself that—well,
I didn't know then that I had a sister. Yesterday
I learnt, then, that I have one—not my
father's daughter, only my mother's—and you know
what that means. We had supper together at the
Trocadero——"
"Really, Vane, I do think you might spare me
these little details," said Enid, with a sort of weary
impatience. "I have heard of this half-sister of
yours already. Suppose we leave her out for the
present?"
"Yes," he said, again stopping momentarily in
his walk. "We will leave her out for the present.
In fact, as far as you are concerned, Enid, she may
be left out for ever."
"Why—what do you mean, Vane?" she exclaimed,
stopping short.
"I mean," he said, beginning quickly and then
halting for a moment. "I mean that, considering
everything that has happened during the last few
days, I have no intention of asking you to become
her half-sister—even in law."
The real meaning of his utterance forced itself
swiftly enough upon her now, and for a minute
rendered her incapable of speech. She, however,
like others of her blood and breed, had learned
how to seem most careless when she cared most,
and so she managed to reply not only steadily but
even stiffly:
"Of course, after that there is very little to be
said, Mr. Maxwell. I'm afraid I have not properly
understood what has happened. Perhaps, though,
it would have been better for you to have seen my
father and talked this over with him first."
The "Mr. Maxwell" cut him to the quick. It
was the first time he had ever heard it from her
lips. Yet it did not affect the decision which was,
as he had for the time being, at least, convinced
himself, inevitable, and so miserable was he that
even her scornful indignation was something like
a help to him.
He was even grateful that this interview, which
he had looked forward to with dread, had taken
place in the open air rather than in the drawing-room
of Sir Godfrey Raleigh's house, for if she
had simply sat down and cried, as, perhaps, nine
out of ten girls in her position would have done, his
task would have been infinitely more difficult, perhaps
even impossible of accomplishment. Her
present attitude, however, seemed to appeal to his
masculine pride and stimulate it. He turned
slightly towards her, and said, with a sudden
change in his voice which she felt almost like a
blow:
"Yes, Miss Raleigh, you are quite right. I will
spare you the details; at least, those which are not
essential. But there are some which are. For instance,"
he went on, with a note of vehemence in
his tone which made it impossible for her to interrupt
him, "four nights ago I was lying on the
floor of the Den at home, blind, dead drunk—drunk,
mind you, after this sister of mine had seen
in my eyes the sign of drunkenness which she had
seen in her mother's—that was my mother, too, an
imbecile dipsomaniac, remember—who had sunk
to unspeakable degradation before she became
what she is. I was as sober as I am now when I
told my father this—I mean what Carol had told
me. I noticed that there was something strange
about him while I was telling him, but I thought
that was just a matter of circumstances, you
know——"
"Yes, I think I know, or at any rate I can guess,"
said Miss Enid, with angry eyes and tightened lips.
"Very well, then," he went on, "and after that—after
my father had asked me to have a glass of
whiskey with him—after I had refused and he had
gone to bed and I was putting the spirit-case away
without any idea of drinking again, one smell of
the whiskey seemed to paralyse my whole mental
force. It turned me from a sane man who had had
a solemn warning into a madman who had only one
feeling—the craving for alcohol in some shape. I
smelt again, and the smell of it went like fire
through my veins. I tasted it, and then I drank.
I drank again and again, until, as I suppose your
mother has told you, I fell on the rug, no longer
a man, but simply a helpless, intoxicated beast. I
was utterly insensible to everything about me, I
didn't care whether I lived or died. When I woke
and thought about it I would a thousand times
rather have been dead.
"It wasn't that I wanted the liquor. I didn't get
drunk because I wanted to. I got drunk, Enid, because
I had to; because there was a lurking devil
in my blood which forced me to drink that whiskey
just because it was alcohol, because it was drink,
because it was the element ready to respond to that
craving which I have inherited from this unhappy
mother of mine.
"Do you know what that means, Enid? I don't
think you do. It means that my blood has been
poisoned from my very birth. Of course, you don't
know this. Your parents don't know it, any more
than they know that it is too late to redeem the
ruin which has fallen upon me. That, at least, I
can say with a clear conscience is no fault or sin of
mine. Since then I have thrashed this miserable
thing out in every way that I can think of. I have
talked it over with my father, and he has talked it
over with yours. I have been wandering about the
park all night trying to find out what I ought to
do—and I think I have found it."
"From which I suppose I am to understand," she
replied, in a voice which was nothing like as firm as
she intended it to be, "you mean, Vane—or perhaps
I ought to say Mr. Maxwell now—that henceforth—I
mean that we are not going to be married
after all."
"What I mean is this, Enid," he replied, "that
dearly as I love you, and just because I love you
so dearly, because I would give all the world if I
had it to have you for my wife, I would not make
you the wife of a man who could become the thing
that was lying on the hearthrug of the Den four
nights ago—a man drunk against his own will, a
slave to one of the vilest of habits—no, something
much worse than a habit, a disease inherited with
tainted, poisoned blood!
"What would you think of your parents and my
father if they allowed you to marry a lunatic? Well,
with that taint in my blood I am worse, a thousand
times worse, than a lunatic, and I should be a
criminal as well if I asked you or any other girl for
whom I had the slightest feeling of love or respect
to marry me.
"Think what the punishment of such a crime
might be!" he went on even more vehemently.
"Every hour of our married life I should be
haunted by this horrible fear. Tempted by a devil
lurking in every glass of wine or spirits that I drank,
or even looked at—the same devil which had me
in its grip the other night. Enid, if you could
have seen me then, I think you would have understood
better; but if, which God forbid, you could
have gone through what I went through after I
swallowed that first drink of whiskey, you would
as soon think of marrying a criminal out of jail or
a madman out of a lunatic asylum as you would
of marrying me. I daresay all this may seem unreasonable,
perhaps even heartless, to you; but,
dear, if you only knew what it costs to say it——"
He broke off abruptly, for as he said this a note
of tenderness stole for the first time into his voice,
and found an instant echo in Enid's heart. So far
she had borne herself bravely through a bitterly
trying ordeal, but as she noticed a change in his
tone a swift conviction came to her that if she remained
many more minutes in his company she
would certainly break down and there would be
"a scene," which, under the circumstances, was not
to be thought of. So she stopped him by holding
out her hand and saying in a voice which cost her
a terrible effort to keep steady:
"No, Vane, we have talked quite enough. I see
your mind is made up, and so there is, of course,
nothing more to be said except 'good-bye.' I
think we had better not meet again until we both
have had more time to think about it all."
This was as far as she could get. They had by
this time reached Sheen Gate again, and Enid took
her bicycle from him. She did not look at him,
and, indeed, could not even trust herself to say
"thank you." She mounted and rode through the
comparatively lonely roads in a sort of dream until
the traffic at Hammersmith Bridge and Broadway
mercifully compelled her to give her whole attention
to the steering of her machine.
When she got home she gave her bicycle to the
porter, went straight to her own room, took off her
hat and gloves and jacket, and then dropped
quietly on the bed and laid there, staring with tearless
eyes up at the ceiling, wondering vaguely what
it all meant, and if it was really true.
Vane stood and watched her until she swept
round a bend in the road, and then walked on with
the one thought echoing and re-echoing in the emptiness
of his soul—the thought of the course which
he was bound to follow by the dictates of both love
and duty. He had reached the Surrey end of
Hammersmith Bridge when the strong smell of alcoholic
liquor coming through the open door of a
public-house caused him to stop for a moment.
Would a drink do him any harm after what had
happened? He had passed a sleepless night in the
open air, and felt almost fainting—surely a drop
of brandy would do him no harm under the circumstances?
Then he remembered the hearthrug in
the Den, and turned towards the bridge with something
between a sneer and a curse on his lips.
Was he always to be beset by temptation in this
way—and would he always have strength to successfully
combat the evil influence? If Fate had
really marked him out for a dipsomaniac, was it
any use his fighting against what must inevitably
be his destiny? His thoughts were interrupted by
the rumbling of a 'bus which was coming towards
him, and, seeing that it was one which went through
Kensington, he jumped on it and went home.
He alighted at Warwick Gardens, and on reaching
the house found that his father had just come
in for lunch.
"It's all right, dad," he said, anticipating his inevitable
question. "I got shut in Richmond Park
by accident, and did a night in the open. But I'll
tell you all about it at lunch. I'm going to have
a tub now."
Lunch was ready by the time Vane came downstairs,
re-clothed and refreshed, and when they
were alone he repeated to his father almost verbatim
the conversation he had had with Enid.
"Well, my boy," he said when he had concluded.
"I cannot but think that as far as you can see now
you have acted rightly. It is terribly hard on you,
but I will help you all I can. And perhaps, after
all, the future may prove brighter than it looks now
for all of us."