The love that is given to ships is profoundly different from
the love men feel for every other work of their hands—the
love they bear to their houses, for instance—because it is
untainted by the pride of possession. The pride of skill,
the pride of responsibility, the pride of endurance there may be,
but otherwise it is a disinterested sentiment. No seaman
ever cherished a ship, even if she belonged to him, merely
because of the profit she put in his pocket. No one, I
think, ever did; for a ship-owner, even of the best, has always
been outside the pale of that sentiment embracing in a feeling of
intimate, equal fellowship the ship and the man, backing each
other against the implacable, if sometimes dissembled, hostility
of their world of waters. The sea—this truth must be
confessed—has no generosity. No display of manly
qualities—courage, hardihood, endurance,
faithfulness—has ever been known to touch its irresponsible
consciousness of power. The ocean has the conscienceless
temper of a savage autocrat spoiled by much adulation. He
cannot brook the slightest appearance of defiance, and has
remained the irreconcilable enemy of ships and men ever since
ships and men had the unheard of audacity to go afloat together
in the face of his frown. From that day he has gone on
swallowing up fleets and men without his resentment being glutted
by the number of victims—by so many wrecked ships and
wrecked lives. To-day, as ever, he is ready to beguile and
betray, to smash and to drown the incorrigible optimism of men
who, backed by the fidelity of ships, are trying to wrest from
him the fortune of their house, the dominion of their world, or
only a dole of food for their hunger. If not always in the
hot mood to smash, he is always stealthily ready for a
drowning. The most amazing wonder of the deep is its
unfathomable cruelty.
I felt its dread for the first time in mid-Atlantic one day,
many years ago, when we took off the crew of a Danish brig
homeward bound from the West Indies. A thin, silvery mist
softened the calm and majestic splendour of light without
shadows—seemed to render the sky less remote and the ocean
less immense. It was one of the days, when the might of the
sea appears indeed lovable, like the nature of a strong man in
moments of quiet intimacy. At sunrise we had made out a
black speck to the westward, apparently suspended high up in the
void behind a stirring, shimmering veil of silvery blue gauze
that seemed at times to stir and float in the breeze which fanned
us slowly along. The peace of that enchanting forenoon was
so profound, so untroubled, that it seemed that every word
pronounced loudly on our deck would penetrate to the very heart
of that infinite mystery born from the conjunction of water and
sky. We did not raise our voices. “A
water-logged derelict, I think, sir,” said the second
officer quietly, coming down from aloft with the binoculars in
their case slung across his shoulders; and our captain, without a
word, signed to the helmsman to steer for the black speck.
Presently we made out a low, jagged stump sticking up
forward—all that remained of her departed masts.
The captain was expatiating in a low conversational tone to
the chief mate upon the danger of these derelicts, and upon his
dread of coming upon them at night, when suddenly a man forward
screamed out, “There’s people on board of her,
sir! I see them!” in a most extraordinary
voice—a voice never heard before in our ship; the amazing
voice of a stranger. It gave the signal for a sudden tumult
of shouts. The watch below ran up the forecastle head in a
body, the cook dashed out of the galley. Everybody saw the
poor fellows now. They were there! And all at once
our ship, which had the well-earned name of being without a rival
for speed in light winds, seemed to us to have lost the power of
motion, as if the sea, becoming viscous, had clung to her
sides. And yet she moved. Immensity, the inseparable
companion of a ship’s life, chose that day to breathe upon
her as gently as a sleeping child. The clamour of our
excitement had died out, and our living ship, famous for never
losing steerage way as long as there was air enough to float a
feather, stole, without a ripple, silent and white as a ghost,
towards her mutilated and wounded sister, come upon at the point
of death in the sunlit haze of a calm day at sea.
With the binoculars glued to his eyes, the captain said in a
quavering tone: “They are waving to us with something aft
there.” He put down the glasses on the skylight
brusquely, and began to walk about the poop. “A shirt
or a flag,” he ejaculated irritably.
“Can’t make it out. . . Some damn rag or
other!” He took a few more turns on the poop,
glancing down over the rail now and then to see how fast we were
moving. His nervous footsteps rang sharply in the quiet of
the ship, where the other men, all looking the same way, had
forgotten themselves in a staring immobility. “This
will never do!” he cried out suddenly. “Lower
the boats at once! Down with them!”
Before I jumped into mine he took me aside, as being an
inexperienced junior, for a word of warning:
“You look out as you come alongside that she
doesn’t take you down with her. You
understand?”
He murmured this confidentially, so that none of the men at
the falls should overhear, and I was shocked.
“Heavens! as if in such an emergency one stopped to think
of danger!” I exclaimed to myself mentally, in scorn of
such cold-blooded caution.
It takes many lessons to make a real seaman, and I got my
rebuke at once. My experienced commander seemed in one
searching glance to read my thoughts on my ingenuous face.
“What you’re going for is to save life, not to
drown your boat’s crew for nothing,” he growled
severely in my ear. But as we shoved off he leaned over and
cried out: “It all rests on the power of your arms,
men. Give way for life!”
We made a race of it, and I would never have believed that a
common boat’s crew of a merchantman could keep up so much
determined fierceness in the regular swing of their stroke.
What our captain had clearly perceived before we left had become
plain to all of us since. The issue of our enterprise hung
on a hair above that abyss of waters which will not give up its
dead till the Day of Judgment. It was a race of two
ship’s boats matched against Death for a prize of nine
men’s lives, and Death had a long start. We saw the
crew of the brig from afar working at the pumps—still
pumping on that wreck, which already had settled so far down that
the gentle, low swell, over which our boats rose and fell easily
without a check to their speed, welling up almost level with her
head-rails, plucked at the ends of broken gear swinging
desolately under her naked bowsprit.
We could not, in all conscience, have picked out a better day
for our regatta had we had the free choice of all the days that
ever dawned upon the lonely struggles and solitary agonies of
ships since the Norse rovers first steered to the westward
against the run of Atlantic waves. It was a very good
race. At the finish there was not an oar’s length
between the first and second boat, with Death coming in a good
third on the top of the very next smooth swell, for all one knew
to the contrary. The scuppers of the brig gurgled softly
all together when the water rising against her sides subsided
sleepily with a low wash, as if playing about an immovable
rock. Her bulwarks were gone fore and aft, and one saw her
bare deck low-lying like a raft and swept clean of boats, spars,
houses—of everything except the ringbolts and the heads of
the pumps. I had one dismal glimpse of it as I braced
myself up to receive upon my breast the last man to leave her,
the captain, who literally let himself fall into my arms.
It had been a weirdly silent rescue—a rescue without a
hail, without a single uttered word, without a gesture or a sign,
without a conscious exchange of glances. Up to the very
last moment those on board stuck to their pumps, which spouted
two clear streams of water upon their bare feet. Their
brown skin showed through the rents of their shirts; and the two
small bunches of half-naked, tattered men went on bowing from the
waist to each other in their back-breaking labour, up and down,
absorbed, with no time for a glance over the shoulder at the help
that was coming to them. As we dashed, unregarded,
alongside a voice let out one, only one hoarse howl of command,
and then, just as they stood, without caps, with the salt drying
gray in the wrinkles and folds of their hairy, haggard faces,
blinking stupidly at us their red eyelids, they made a bolt away
from the handles, tottering and jostling against each other, and
positively flung themselves over upon our very heads. The
clatter they made tumbling into the boats had an extraordinarily
destructive effect upon the illusion of tragic dignity our
self-esteem had thrown over the contests of mankind with the
sea. On that exquisite day of gently breathing peace and
veiled sunshine perished my romantic love to what men’s
imagination had proclaimed the most august aspect of
Nature. The cynical indifference of the sea to the merits
of human suffering and courage, laid bare in this ridiculous,
panic-tainted performance extorted from the dire extremity of
nine good and honourable seamen, revolted me. I saw the
duplicity of the sea’s most tender mood. It was so
because it could not help itself, but the awed respect of the
early days was gone. I felt ready to smile bitterly at its
enchanting charm and glare viciously at its furies. In a
moment, before we shoved off, I had looked coolly at the life of
my choice. Its illusions were gone, but its fascination
remained. I had become a seaman at last.
We pulled hard for a quarter of an hour, then laid on our oars
waiting for our ship. She was coming down on us with
swelling sails, looking delicately tall and exquisitely noble
through the mist. The captain of the brig, who sat in the
stern sheets by my side with his face in his hands, raised his
head and began to speak with a sort of sombre volubility.
They had lost their masts and sprung a leak in a hurricane;
drifted for weeks, always at the pumps, met more bad weather; the
ships they sighted failed to make them out, the leak gained upon
them slowly, and the seas had left them nothing to make a raft
of. It was very hard to see ship after ship pass by at a
distance, “as if everybody had agreed that we must be left
to drown,” he added. But they went on trying to keep
the brig afloat as long as possible, and working the pumps
constantly on insufficient food, mostly raw, till
“yesterday evening,” he continued monotonously,
“just as the sun went down, the men’s hearts
broke.”
He made an almost imperceptible pause here, and went on again
with exactly the same intonation:
“They told me the brig could not be saved, and they
thought they had done enough for themselves. I said nothing
to that. It was true. It was no mutiny. I had
nothing to say to them. They lay about aft all night, as
still as so many dead men. I did not lie down. I kept
a look-out. When the first light came I saw your ship at
once. I waited for more light; the breeze began to fail on
my face. Then I shouted out as loud as I was able,
‘Look at that ship!’ but only two men got up very
slowly and came to me. At first only we three stood alone,
for a long time, watching you coming down to us, and feeling the
breeze drop to a calm almost; but afterwards others, too, rose,
one after another, and by-and-by I had all my crew behind
me. I turned round and said to them that they could see the
ship was coming our way, but in this small breeze she might come
too late after all, unless we turned to and tried to keep the
brig afloat long enough to give you time to save us all. I
spoke like that to them, and then I gave the command to man the
pumps.”
He gave the command, and gave the example, too, by going
himself to the handles, but it seems that these men did actually
hang back for a moment, looking at each other dubiously before
they followed him. “He! he! he!” He broke
out into a most unexpected, imbecile, pathetic, nervous little
giggle. “Their hearts were broken so! They had
been played with too long,” he explained apologetically,
lowering his eyes, and became silent.
Twenty-five years is a long time—a quarter of a century
is a dim and distant past; but to this day I remember the
dark-brown feet, hands, and faces of two of these men whose
hearts had been broken by the sea. They were lying very
still on their sides on the bottom boards between the thwarts,
curled up like dogs. My boat’s crew, leaning over the
looms of their oars, stared and listened as if at the play.
The master of the brig looked up suddenly to ask me what day it
was.
They had lost the date. When I told him it was Sunday,
the 22nd, he frowned, making some mental calculation, then nodded
twice sadly to himself, staring at nothing.
His aspect was miserably unkempt and wildly sorrowful.
Had it not been for the unquenchable candour of his blue eyes,
whose unhappy, tired glance every moment sought his abandoned,
sinking brig, as if it could find rest nowhere else, he would
have appeared mad. But he was too simple to go mad, too
simple with that manly simplicity which alone can bear men
unscathed in mind and body through an encounter with the deadly
playfulness of the sea or with its less abominable fury.
Neither angry, nor playful, nor smiling, it enveloped our
distant ship growing bigger as she neared us, our boats with the
rescued men and the dismantled hull of the brig we were leaving
behind, in the large and placid embrace of its quietness, half
lost in the fair haze, as if in a dream of infinite and tender
clemency. There was no frown, no wrinkle on its face, not a
ripple. And the run of the slight swell was so smooth that
it resembled the graceful undulation of a piece of shimmering
gray silk shot with gleams of green. We pulled an easy
stroke; but when the master of the brig, after a glance over his
shoulder, stood up with a low exclamation, my men feathered their
oars instinctively, without an order, and the boat lost her
way.
He was steadying himself on my shoulder with a strong grip,
while his other arm, flung up rigidly, pointed a denunciatory
finger at the immense tranquillity of the ocean. After his
first exclamation, which stopped the swing of our oars, he made
no sound, but his whole attitude seemed to cry out an indignant
“Behold!” . . . I could not imagine what vision of
evil had come to him. I was startled, and the amazing
energy of his immobilized gesture made my heart beat faster with
the anticipation of something monstrous and unsuspected.
The stillness around us became crushing.
For a moment the succession of silky undulations ran on
innocently. I saw each of them swell up the misty line of
the horizon, far, far away beyond the derelict brig, and the next
moment, with a slight friendly toss of our boat, it had passed
under us and was gone. The lulling cadence of the rise and
fall, the invariable gentleness of this irresistible force, the
great charm of the deep waters, warmed my breast deliciously,
like the subtle poison of a love-potion. But all this
lasted only a few soothing seconds before I jumped up too, making
the boat roll like the veriest landlubber.
Something startling, mysterious, hastily confused, was taking
place. I watched it with incredulous and fascinated awe, as
one watches the confused, swift movements of some deed of
violence done in the dark. As if at a given signal, the run
of the smooth undulations seemed checked suddenly around the
brig. By a strange optical delusion the whole sea appeared
to rise upon her in one overwhelming heave of its silky surface,
where in one spot a smother of foam broke out ferociously.
And then the effort subsided. It was all over, and the
smooth swell ran on as before from the horizon in uninterrupted
cadence of motion, passing under us with a slight friendly toss
of our boat. Far away, where the brig had been, an angry
white stain undulating on the surface of steely-gray waters, shot
with gleams of green, diminished swiftly, without a hiss, like a
patch of pure snow melting in the sun. And the great
stillness after this initiation into the sea’s implacable
hate seemed full of dread thoughts and shadows of disaster.
“Gone!” ejaculated from the depths of his chest my
bowman in a final tone. He spat in his hands, and took a
better grip on his oar. The captain of the brig lowered his
rigid arm slowly, and looked at our faces in a solemnly conscious
silence, which called upon us to share in his simple-minded,
marvelling awe. All at once he sat down by my side, and
leaned forward earnestly at my boat’s crew, who, swinging
together in a long, easy stroke, kept their eyes fixed upon him
faithfully.
“No ship could have done so well,” he addressed
them firmly, after a moment of strained silence, during which he
seemed with trembling lips to seek for words fit to bear such
high testimony. “She was small, but she was
good. I had no anxiety. She was strong. Last
voyage I had my wife and two children in her. No other ship
could have stood so long the weather she had to live through for
days and days before we got dismasted a fortnight ago. She
was fairly worn out, and that’s all. You may believe
me. She lasted under us for days and days, but she could
not last for ever. It was long enough. I am glad it
is over. No better ship was ever left to sink at sea on
such a day as this.”
He was competent to pronounce the funereal oration of a ship,
this son of ancient sea-folk, whose national existence, so little
stained by the excesses of manly virtues, had demanded nothing
but the merest foothold from the earth. By the merits of
his sea-wise forefathers and by the artlessness of his heart, he
was made fit to deliver this excellent discourse. There was
nothing wanting in its orderly arrangement—neither piety
nor faith, nor the tribute of praise due to the worthy dead, with
the edifying recital of their achievement. She had lived,
he had loved her; she had suffered, and he was glad she was at
rest. It was an excellent discourse. And it was
orthodox, too, in its fidelity to the cardinal article of a
seaman’s faith, of which it was a single-minded
confession. “Ships are all right.” They
are. They who live with the sea have got to hold by that
creed first and last; and it came to me, as I glanced at him
sideways, that some men were not altogether unworthy in honour
and conscience to pronounce the funereal eulogium of a
ship’s constancy in life and death.
After this, sitting by my side with his loosely-clasped hands
hanging between his knees, he uttered no word, made no movement
till the shadow of our ship’s sails fell on the boat, when,
at the loud cheer greeting the return of the victors with their
prize, he lifted up his troubled face with a faint smile of
pathetic indulgence. This smile of the worthy descendant of
the most ancient sea-folk whose audacity and hardihood had left
no trace of greatness and glory upon the waters, completed the
cycle of my initiation. There was an infinite depth of
hereditary wisdom in its pitying sadness. It made the
hearty bursts of cheering sound like a childish noise of
triumph. Our crew shouted with immense
confidence—honest souls! As if anybody could ever
make sure of having prevailed against the sea, which has betrayed
so many ships of great “name,” so many proud men, so
many towering ambitions of fame, power, wealth, greatness!
As I brought the boat under the falls my captain, in high
good-humour, leaned over, spreading his red and freckled elbows
on the rail, and called down to me sarcastically, out of the
depths of his cynic philosopher’s beard:
“So you have brought the boat back after all, have
you?”
Sarcasm was “his way,” and the most that can be
said for it is that it was natural. This did not make it
lovable. But it is decorous and expedient to fall in with
one’s commander’s way. “Yes. I
brought the boat back all right, sir,” I answered.
And the good man believed me. It was not for him to discern
upon me the marks of my recent initiation. And yet I was
not exactly the same youngster who had taken the boat
away—all impatience for a race against death, with the
prize of nine men’s lives at the end.
Already I looked with other eyes upon the sea. I knew it
capable of betraying the generous ardour of youth as implacably
as, indifferent to evil and good, it would have betrayed the
basest greed or the noblest heroism. My conception of its
magnanimous greatness was gone. And I looked upon the true
sea—the sea that plays with men till their hearts are
broken, and wears stout ships to death. Nothing can touch
the brooding bitterness of its heart. Open to all and
faithful to none, it exercises its fascination for the undoing of
the best. To love it is not well. It knows no bond of
plighted troth, no fidelity to misfortune, to long companionship,
to long devotion. The promise it holds out perpetually is
very great; but the only secret of its possession is strength,
strength—the jealous, sleepless strength of a man guarding
a coveted treasure within his gates.