Mr. and Mrs. Sidney Houghton
found themselves alone together longer and
more intimately in their Pullman drawing-room,
on their homeward journey from Newport to
White Oak Farm, than they had been at any time in
the past six weeks. Even Georgie was not by to
disturb their tête-à-tête, for his mother had
established him and his nurse in a section of another car;
not, indeed, to insure her uninterrupted isolation
with her husband, but in order to escape any
possibility of annoyance from the child.
This detachment of the young couple, however,
from all the world, during a ten-hours' journey, did
not appear to conduce greatly to their happiness.
They were both looking rather jaded from their
recently overdone social life; their faces bore the
stamp of that discontent and weakness which will so
soon mar the countenances of those who live to no
purpose; who, while giving no sort of service to
society, prey upon those who do serve. They seemed
to have nothing to talk about together; and this
absolute absence of any common interests was a
dreary manifestation of the deadly emptiness of their
pleasure-seeking lives. They read newspapers and
magazines, but did not speak to each other of
what they read. They loafed, ate, yawned, slept.
Once for five minutes they did become a little
animated over a delectable bit of Newport scandal.
But they quickly lapsed again into lassitude and
boredom.
In repose Sidney's face looked more than
discontented. He was evidently nervous and worried.
He made frequent visits to the next car to see
Georgie. But Mrs. Houghton never went near the
little boy during the entire trip, nor was the child
brought by his nurse to see her.
It was toward the end of their journey that
she roused herself to discuss with her husband the
entertainment of the house party which was to
arrive at White Oak Farm the day after their return
home.
"If the wine you ordered from New York doesn't
come in time, what shall we do? You can't give the
Fairfaxes and the Sherwins the sort of stuff you'd
buy in Middleburg," she said.
"Of course not. Let us hope it will come in
time," he replied.
"It's rather absurd, you know, our trying to entertain
such people as the Fairfaxes and the Sherwins at
White Oak Farm; we haven't enough to offer them.
Nothing, indeed, but a rather attractive old
homestead! We ought not to have undertaken it, really.
You were foolish to insist upon it. You know, my
dear, you do have rather vulgar ambitions!"
"As usual, you misunderstand me, Laura. It's
not 'vulgar ambition' that makes me want to return
the very great hospitality we've been accepting from
both those families."
"They will probably be bored to death!"
Mrs. Houghton shrugged. "That's why I asked the
Arnolds, when I found that the Fairfaxes admired
Robert's magazine stories. And Eleanor is always
good company."
"It was a good idea," Sidney agreed, "to ask the
Arnolds. I'm glad you thought of it."
And then suddenly, with a violent mental jolt, he
remembered something—it was Eleanor Arnold who,
at a "frat" dance, nearly three years ago, had
introduced him to Susan Schrekengust! The Arnolds
knew Susan! Why had he not remembered it
before?—in time to stop that invitation!
"Now what the devil's to pay!" he thought in utter
consternation.
"Robert and Eleanor will certainly help to make
things go," said his wife, serenely.
"Help to make things go to hell!" he thought with
an inward frenzy of apprehension.
"It's damned awkward that Joe won't move away,
isn't it?" he appealed, in a shaking voice, to his wife.
Laura glanced at him in surprise. His face was
distorted with anxiety.
"Dear me, you take it tragically, don't you? Why
don't you make him go? Your reasons for tolerating
him have never been very clear to me."
"He can injure us! He has suspicions about
Georgie! He'd be only too glad to have White Oak
Farm go to his boy! I dare not offend him—I——"
"Oh, bother! For the sake of that child you are
letting your whole life be spoiled! I've no patience
with you!"
Sidney shrank away from her into a huddled heap
and did not answer.
"It certainly is to be hoped," she said, presently,
"that our guests won't discover your relationship to
your hired farmer living in the tenant's cottage!"
"It's a beastly situation!" exclaimed Sidney.
"And for the sake of that child you endure it!
You might consider me a little and not subject me to
such embarrassment!"
"I'm as much embarrassed as you are! But,
Laura," he pleaded, "don't try to make me be false
to the decentest thing in me—my love for Georgie!"
"When your love for him makes you sacrifice me,
you can't expect me to get enthusiastic about it!
And now there's that girl your brother has married—it's
to be hoped she won't presume upon family ties
to intrude upon us! However," Laura suddenly
dismissed the whole matter with another shrug of her
shoulders, "let us drop the subject! I simply don't
intend to let people like that prey upon my mind!"
"But you'll have to let them prey upon your mind
if the Arnolds and the rest of them discover Joe!
He'll take good care to let himself be known, I'm
afraid!"
"Then why on earth did you insist upon having
this party?"
"I didn't ask the Arnolds."
"But the others. Why, if you won't make your
brother leave, do you subject yourself and me to the
humiliation of entertaining a house party where he
will be all over the landscape in his shirt sleeves or
overalls, talking that crazy Pennsylvania Dutch lingo
he has and making us ridiculous!"
"I—I thought a crowd of guests would cover the
awkwardness of your not calling on Joe's wife—I——"
Laura laughed with genuine amusement. "Call
on her! I! She'd hardly expect it, Sidney, I
should think!"
"Why not? It seems to me it's just what she
would expect!"
"Does it? Well, you and I never do seem to see
anything under heaven from the same point of view!
But I should think even you would realize the
absurdity of suggesting that I call on your
tenant-farmer's wife!—even if she is your sister-in-law.
Any girl that could marry that half-brother of yours
would be impossible!"
"She isn't!" Sidney broke forth with a hot
impetuosity that amazed himself. But almost
instantly he became cautious again. "She—she does
not look impossible, Laura," he concluded, tamely.
"I didn't know you had met her. Have you?"
"I—I saw her one day in front of the cottage."
"She can't possibly be the girl I saw one day on the
lawn at White Oak, coming from Joe's cottage.
That girl was—well, she was pretty and stylish and
well-bred looking. I thought she was someone who
had come to call on me—no, it's not possible that
Joe could have married a girl like that!"
"But remember, Joe's rich enough to have baited
bigger game than that little school teacher!"
"No amount of riches, with your brother Joe
tacked on, could have been a bait big enough to lure
a really nice girl, Sidney. You know that perfectly
well."
"Have it your own way!" he crossly retorted.
His mind was torn with a dozen conflicting fears.
He was afraid of Joe's resentment if Laura did not
call on Susan; yet feared a betrayal of his guilty
secret if the two women did meet. Association with
or aloofness from his brother's household seemed
equally dangerous and impossible. He feared a
scandal; he feared Laura's indignation and resentment;
he feared the loss to his son of his inheritance.
And he did not in the least know how to meet any
of these dangers that menaced him.
Mingled with his fears were other emotions not so
unworthy: a deep self-abasement, never absent from
his heart, for the injury he had done and was doing
to Susan; a great sense of loss and emptiness because
of the wonderful comradeship as well as of the great
love that had been theirs; a painful humiliation in
the realization of Susan's deep contempt for him.
But presently the quite practical and sordid
difficulty that was causing him, just now, intense
anxiety, overshadowed all the other troubles of his
mind.
"Another devil of a mess," he said to his wife,
"my being obliged to get some ready money right
away! My losses over those damned races have
just exactly wiped out over a year's income!"
"Don't look to me," she warned him. "I shan't
give you another dollar of my income, Sidney!
You already owe me half my year's allowance!
And of course I am perfectly aware, my dear, that
you'll never dream of paying it back to me!"
"I shan't have to—because you'll manage to get
it back!" he retorted.
"I shall do my best to," she blandly answered.
"I don't have to worry about you! I've got
enough of your unpaid bills in my desk to cover
more than all you've loaned me!"
"See that you pay them!"
"I shall have to borrow money from Joe," he said,
hopelessly.
"Why do you get it from him? Why not from
someone else? He demands such awfully tight
security—first thing you know he'll own everything
you inherited from your uncle."
"I borrow from him because he's got it to lend and
money's scarce just now. He read in the papers of
my heavy losses in the races and he wrote and
offered to lend me money. Pretty decent of him,
wasn't it? I guess—I guess," faltered Sidney,
"he's feeling extra good and happy just now—with
his new wife and——"
He rose abruptly.
"I'll run over and see how Georgie's getting along."
But he did not go to Georgie. He went, instead,
to the day-coach smoking car, sat down on the
very last seat, and lit a cigar.
He had found it necessary to escape precipitately
from Laura to conceal from her a threatened flood
of emotion. Ever since he had first learned of
Susan's inexplicable marriage to Joe he had been
astonished and disgusted by his own overwhelming
and unreasonable jealousy, envy, chagrin—all the
more absurd because Susan could not possibly care
for Joe.
He wondered now, for the hundredth time, as he
drearily gazed out of the window upon the
autumn-coloured wooded hills that sped by, what had
made Susan do it. He had been entirely insincere in
suggesting to his wife that Joe's money had been the
bait. Laura had answered truly that the money of a
Crœsus, with Joe attached, could not have tempted
"a nice girl."
Did Susan, perhaps, have a suspicion——
No, that was impossible; quite, quite impossible.
The Schrekengusts had been in dire straits; Susan
had lost her school, Mr. Schrekengust had died, their
property was mortgaged, the elder sisters were
getting on in years; had Joe deliberately driven that
lovely girl into a corner and forced her to bargain
with him for the livelihood of those dear to her?
It would be like him! Oh, it would be like him!
And she—rather than accept help from her
"betrayer"—had preferred this marriage!
"How she must loathe me!" he inwardly groaned.
He sighed profoundly as he thought what delight
he himself would have found in using his wealth to
give comfort and happiness to Susan!
"What a mate she'd have been! My life couldn't
have been so sordid with her at my side!—her zest
for life, her fun, her intelligence, her warm, tender
heart, her loveliness! That Joe should have all
that! Oh, damn!"
However, he could not waste himself upon futile
regrets while this new danger stared him in the
face—those Arnolds were bound to see Susan and
recognize her!
The one mortal dread of his life, these days, was
that Laura should discover Susan's identity.
"My predicament is perfectly ridiculous! And
dangerous! Damned dangerous!"
But though from the very hour of his arrival at
home he found himself, in spite of all his apprehensions,
thrilling at the fact of Susan's nearness, peering
through every window he passed for a possible
glimpse of her about the grounds or near her cottage,
he was nevertheless immensely relieved to find that
she seemed to be assiduously keeping herself out
of sight.
She, meantime, was experiencing almost as many
qualms and emotions as was Sidney himself. The
sudden awakening of her old self which the sight
and sound of her girlhood's friend, Robert Arnold,
had brought to her, gave her a haunting, wistful
longing to meet and greet him and his sister again,
even while it revealed to her more poignantly than
ever the hopeless degradation of her marriage; a
degradation so much more real than that of her tragic
betrayal at Sidney's hands.
"To have to feel ashamed of your husband!"
she would muse over her household drudgery (for
such it was to her because her heart was not in
it). "Ashamed of the one nearest to you in all the
world!—to whom you would naturally want to feel
only loyalty—I am ashamed of being ashamed!"
She reflected that if her own deep and strong
feelings about some things were natural, then
society must have very distorted standards.
"The things usually considered shameful!" she
thought, wonderingly. "And the things that are
considered respectable!"
Life seemed to her an inexplicable muddle; all
her old standards of right and wrong in confusion;
the very foundations of the universe knocked out
from under her.
It was on Saturday afternoon, when the house
party was gathered about a tea table on the lawn,
that one of the guests, Mrs. Fairfax, a comely young
matron, drew attention to the picturesque little
cottage behind the big white house.
"A tenant's cottage, I suppose, Mr. Houghton?"
"The farmer's, yes," Sidney nodded.
"Pretty! So cosy! I can imagine being quite
happy in a dear little home like that, with no servant
worries, no tiresome social obligations, freedom for
doing what I love to do—read and dig a garden and
study music; no fears of a jealous and outraged mob
bringing retribution upon me for having enjoyed
such ease and comfort all my life as they've never
had a chance at, poor things! Oh, I believe I'd love
it!"
"What hinders your having it, Mrs. Fairfax?"
asked Eleanor Arnold, "if you really mean that you'd
love it?"
Miss Arnold was a young girl of an arresting
personality. There was a self-contained calm in her
way of sitting very still, her capable-looking hands
folded in her lap, her clear, direct gaze shining out of
a pale face encircled in thick braids of straight, dark
hair. She was keenly and critically observant, yet
seemed not unsympathetic.
"What hinders me? That!" Mrs. Fairfax
pointed a forefinger across the table at her husband,
a rather foppishly dressed, futile-looking person who
lived in idleness on his "unearned increments".
"Nuff said," nodded Eleanor, who yearned to add,
"Do you think 'that' worth the sacrifice of two
minutes of your short life?"
"It makes me laugh," said Mr. Fairfax, "to hear
Jane talk about yearning for the simple life! If
any one was ever born that was more dependent
than Jane upon all her little comforts and
conveniences—lead me to her! Jane wouldn't have any
trouble meeting that test of royal blood, you wot of,
in the fairy story—a maiden's sensitiveness to a
pea pod under several mattresses—a pile of
mattresses! Jane would feel that pea pod quicker'n
your royal princess, I bet you! Don't you know,
Janie," he appealed to her, "that the farmer's wife
in yonder humble cot, whom you are envying, does
her own washing and baking and scrubbing and
cooking and——"
"Don't spoil the sweet picture I had made for
myself," protested Jane, sentimentally, "of rural
peace and simplicity, with leisure for congenial
occupations, such as we of our class never have! Let
me believe, Will, dear, that some people in this world
do lead satisfying lives!"
"Moles and cows do perhaps," responded her
husband as he rose and strolled over to a rustic bench
under a tree behind the tea table, where pretty
young Mrs. Sherwin made room for him by her side.
"Mr. Arnold!" Mrs. Fairfax turned to the young
author, Robert Arnold, whose thoughtful, earnest
face stood out in marked contrast to the
unintelligent and somewhat coarse countenances of the
other three men of the group, "you have the honour
and distinction of meeting a long-felt want in my
life! I've always yearned to know—really know—a
distinguished novelist whose books I've loved.
But now I find to my dismay that the yearning, like
that for 'strong drink,' as the W.C.T.U's call it,
increases in proportion as it's gratified! So I beg
and implore you, Mr. Arnold, to bring an author or
two to see me every time you come to the city. Will
you?"
"But 'author' is such a very general term!
Please, I beg you, be specific. What special brand
of author are you yearning to meet? I might
grab the wrong kind. There are so many varieties;
there is, for instance, the red-blooded variety; there
is the precious-lavender-and-lace kind; there is the
gosh-ding-it sort; the Close-to-Nature style; the
cabaret brand; the week-end-on-Long-Island-society
sort—and many others. So, please, kind lady, name
your brand."
"The kind I'm yearning to meet is the author
who reads and understands women, Mr. Arnold,"
said Jane with an earnest intensity.
"But Shakspere's been dead some time. Ask me
something easy."
"I'll tell you the brand you don't want to introduce
to our wives!" Mr. Andrew Sherwin, a ruddy,
heavily built banker, warned the author. "The
kind that will put ideas into their heads! Keep 'em
off! Jane, there, and my wife, too," nodding toward
the tree behind the tea table where Mrs. Sherwin
sat with Mr. Fairfax, "laps up ideas as a cat laps
milk! For God's sake keep off authors with ideas!"
"Don't worry! Authors, these days, don't deal
in ideas, only style. We leave ideas to bankers."
"Well, I've met one or two writing chaps that were
just chuck full of stuff—new ideas about human
brotherhood; impracticable rot like that! This is
no time for new ideas! We've got trouble enough
to keep things going smoothly!"
"'No time for new ideas?'" repeated Arnold,
grinning. "I suppose that's what the Romans
and Jews told Jesus; and what the Diet of Worms
told Luther; and what the Roman Catholics told
Galileo when he got hold of the very dangerous new
idea that the world moved; they weren't ready
to have it move; it greatly annoyed them to have it
move! It suited their vested interests to have it
remain as stable as they'd always thought it!"
"That's different," protested Sherwin a little
bewildered. "That's history. I'm talking about the
present."
"Which is history, too."
"Are you a Socialist?" asked Sherwin, suspiciously.
"Of course he's not!" exclaimed Mrs. Fairfax,
indignantly. "Don't be rude and insulting, Andrew!
As if a man who is a gentleman could advocate his
wife's sitting down to visit with the washwoman;
and then those community kitchens Socialists would
have—how absurd to suppose that we could eat
the food that labourers like!"
"Are you under the impression, dear madam, that
you are discussing Socialism?" asked Mr. Arnold.
"Of course I am! Aren't I?"
"Not any brand I ever heard of."
"What is the bloomin' thing then?" she asked,
plaintively.
"It is what we of the privileged class must
inevitably oppose, because fundamentally it means
(as I understand it) giving everyone an equal chance
in the race of life; which would, I fear, find some of
us in very different places from those we now occupy.
Some peasants who are incipient aristocrats
intellectually or spiritually, like Gorky or Robert
Burns, would forge ahead of the line which some of
us hold—while we'd fall far back, perhaps, into the
peasant ranks——"
"We don't propose to submit, in this country,"
exclaimed Sherwin, indignantly, "to the rule of any
one class!"
"But that's what we always have submitted to.
In all nations, in all times, the labouring class has
submitted to the rule of the capitalistic class. The
strong have ever ruled, and the strong have been the
capitalists. In our day it seems to be coming about
that the workers are going to be the strong——"
"This constant menace of changing our fundamental
institutions," interrupted Sherwin, "ought
to be suppressed by law! It can only lead to chaos!"
"Well," returned Arnold, serenely, "out of chaos
came heaven and earth. But I never heard of
anything good coming out of 'suppression' and
autocracy. By the way, Mr. Houghton," Arnold closed
the discussion by turning to Sidney, "you have a
brother, haven't you? Joseph's his name?"
"A half-brother."
"Does he live in this neighbourhood?"
"Ye—yes—ah, excuse me a minute, please, will
you? I'll—I'll be back in a minute," responded
Sidney, leaving the table abruptly and striding
away across the lawn.
But both Eleanor and Robert Arnold saw, as he
left them, that his face had gone white at Robert's
question.
Eleanor turned to Mrs. Houghton. "Robert
and I have just heard, Laura, that your brother-in-law
has married my old school friend, Susan
Schrekengust. How lucky you are to have acquired
anything so delightful in the way of a sister-in-law
as Susan! Don't you think you are?"
"I've never seen her—but——"
"I thought," said Eleanor, as Laura hesitated,
"that I understood Mr. Houghton to say they lived
in this neighbourhood."
"They've just been married—and we've been
away. Will you have some hot tea? You must be
mistaken, Eleanor," Laura added in a lower tone
intended only for Eleanor's ear, as she refilled her
cup; "no friend of yours would have married Joe
Houghton; he's a perfect boor! Some mistake, my
dear."
"There must be," said Eleanor, surprised. "Susan
would never have married a perfect boor!"
"Rather not!" corroborated Robert who had
caught his sister's low-spoken remark.
"The girl Sidney's half-brother married," Laura
explained, "was a country school teacher, I
understand; you couldn't have known her."
"But Susan was a country school teacher!" said
Eleanor.
"And," added Robert, "Susan's own sister told
me she had married Sidney's brother. You must be
mistaken, Laura, about Sidney's brother. He's
evidently a diamond in the rough, for Susan to have
married him. Where do they live?"
"Sidney will give you their address," answered
Laura, turning away to speak to Mrs. Sherwin and
Mr. Fairfax behind her.
"Want some hot tea back there?"
Robert and Eleanor exchanged a swift glance over
the too-palpable fact that the Houghtons had
something to conceal about their brother's marriage.
Their unwilling attention was presently forced
upon the chatter of Mrs. Fairfax who loved nothing
so much as to talk about herself, her "moods,"
her unique characteristics, her "reactions" upon her
environment and its "reactions" upon her; she was
either too self-absorbed as she would talk on and on
interminably, or too lacking in imagination, ever to
sense the boredom of her hearers.
Mrs. Houghton had gone into the house to answer
a telephone call, so the six guests—the Arnolds, the
Sherwins, the Fairfaxes—were left to themselves;
the Arnolds, Mrs. Fairfax, and Mr. Sherwin, the
portly banker, being gathered about the tea table,
while Mrs. Sherwin and Mr. Fairfax sat a few yards
away under the tree.
"It's the very strangest thing about me!" Mrs. Fairfax
was saying, leaning back in her wicker chair
in an utter abandonment to an orgy of self-analysis,
to which her three hearers might or might not listen,
she didn't notice, "The way my moods never seem to
match William's moods. If he happens to be in a
sentimental mood, asking me how much I still care,
and all that sort of thing—you know—then I'm
just likely to be feeling utterly matter-of-fact and
talk about dances or motors or making fudge!
It is so odd! And if I happen to be sentimental and
want to talk of my moods or feelings, or of my
serious thoughts, then he's apt to want to talk about
a baseball game! It is so queer! Isn't it? And
yet, William and I are so perfectly mated! We
understand each other so perfectly; we have no
interests apart from each other; we do everything
together—everything!"
"There's one thing you don't do together," said
Eleanor, wickedly, pointing to the bench under the
tree which she alone faced; and they all turned to
see this sentimental lady's husband kissing rather too
ardently Mrs. Sherwin's white hand.
"We trust each other perfectly, William and I,"
Mrs. Fairfax responded, undaunted. But she rose
to stroll away, and Mr. Sherwin, more alarmed at
the prospect of being left alone with the formidable
and confusing conversation of the Arnolds than at
the continuation of Mrs. Fairfax's monologue, rose
also with as much alacrity as his corpulence
permitted and went with her.
"Isn't it a tragical or comical irony of fate,"
remarked Robert Arnold when he and his sister were left
alone, "that the feminine egotist, the woman who is
most interested in herself, is the very least interesting
to other people."
"It's rather deadly here, isn't it?" sighed Eleanor.
"I'm getting lots of story stuff!"
"Yes! Of such 'stuff' are stories made; some stories."
"It isn't necessary, my dear, for you to try to
counteract that woman's flattery."
"Do you suppose, Robert, that Mr. Andrew Sherwin
ever reads any thing?"
"Well, no one ever caught him at it."
"I had so counted on finding dear old Susan here!
I'm horribly disappointed! How refreshing she'd be!"
"They act as though they had her concealed in a
tower!" said Robert.
"They do conceal their baby! I've not had a
glimpse of him. You'd never know they had a baby,
would you?"
"Go easy, my dear! It might be deformed or
something; don't inquire for it," Robert warned her.
"I'll be discreet."
"Discreet? You? I'm not asking the impossible!
Only don't jump in with both feet."
Meantime, Sidney, to escape Arnold's questions,
and to conceal the betraying embarrassment they
had caused, had walked away to the back of the
house to get himself in hand.
But from the terrace behind the house he saw
something which served greatly to augment his
agitation—Georgie and his nurse going down the path
which-led straight to Joe's little cottage.
With a quick thrill of apprehension Sidney leapt
down the slope to check them.
"I've told that girl to keep him away from there,"
he muttered angrily to himself.
But his interference came too late. With his heart
in his mouth, he saw, as he stopped and stood stock
still to watch, Susan sitting with Josie on the grass
under a tree in front of her house, holding out her
arms to Georgie, who was toddling straight toward
her with his hands outstretched to take hers.
Evidently the two were good friends and this was not
their first meeting!
The very thing he had been dreading! Were his
worst fears to be realized?
With a bound he stood in the midst of them, his
face as white as chalk, his chair dishevelled, his eyes
wild. He seized Georgie almost out of Susan's
arms, casting a glance of angry reproach at the nurse,
as he perched the boy high on his shoulders.
"Why do you bring him here to annoy this lady?"
he harshly demanded of the maid.
But Georgie, who usually welcomed his father
with rapture, now kicked and struggled to free him,
self, to reach the goal for which he had been making
so eagerly.
"Down, Daddy! Me down!" he clamoured,
wriggling like an eel, sliding down his father's arm
to the ground and rushing to Susan.
"You kin see fo' yo'se'f, Mistah Houghton!"
the nurse defended herself. "I tries to keep him
away f'om her like you tells me to, but I cayn't!
The minute he's outdo's he wants to run down heah
to his aunty and his li'l cousin. An' anyhow he don'
git ho harm here, Mistah Houghton!"
Sidney, with throbbing heart, gazed down upon
the picture on the grass at his feet, his little son in
Susan's arms, their faces close, the child's eyes and
hers seeming to melt into each other, himself
disregarded——
Suddenly Josie, his face distorted with jealous
rage, had his fingers in Georgie's curls. Georgie,
howling, retaliated valiantly by pulling at Josie's
hair, and a tug of war followed which was stopped
only by the combined efforts of Sidney and Susan
to separate the combatants.
When peace had been restored by Susan's placing a
boy on either side of her impartially, Sidney abruptly
ordered the nurse to go back to the house. "I'll
bring Georgie home," he said.
As soon as the girl had turned the corner and
disappeared around the cottage he threw himself on
the grass at Susan's feet.
"Look here, Susan," he exclaimed in mingled
indignation and fear, "did you marry Joe Houghton
to avenge yourself on me? Just to keep me in
hot water by your living here at my door! And
is it you that is keeping Joe here on this place
when I want to be rid of him? If my guess is
wrong, then what, in the name of God, made you
marry him?"
"You did!" came Susan's swift, breathless answer.
"I married him to save my mother from being bribed
by you to leave her old home! I thought it would
kill her to go! And then," her voice quivered;
"after all, my sacrifice was for nothing. Mother
died a month after my marriage!"
"You blame me for your marrying him!" exclaimed
Sidney.
"I believe my father died of worry and grief; I
tried to save Mother from the same fate by marrying
Joe, so that she need not yield to your bribe or threat
or whatever it was that you held over her to force her
from her home!"
"Oh, Susan! I've done you even greater wrong
than I realized!"
"It's the wrong that I've done to myself that
matters!" she said, sadly. "If I'd had any sense,
if I'd been worth anything, you couldn't have
wronged me!"
"I'm not happy, Susan! I don't believe I'll ever
be happy again!"
"Gracious! Do you think you deserve to be?"
"But that I should have driven you to marrying a
fellow like Joe—you! He's so utterly unworthy of
you—so——"
"Not more so than you were, God knows! Joe's
at least ruggedly honest. He wouldn't lie and steal
and—oh, your boasted Houghton blood seems to me
very bad blood! If our child had lived I'd have
hoped she'd have none of it; that she'd inherit only
the clean, upright, simple soul of my father!"
"Let us be thankful she didn't live, Susan!" he
said, his eyes shifting from hers—but coming back
surreptitiously to note the effect of his words.
"That I must be thankful for that is, as I told
you, the one thing I can never, never forgive you
for!"
"And you will, then, take your vengeance upon
me," he said, fearfully, "by making trouble for me
with my wife?"
"I think I told you before that 'vengeance' has no
appeal for me. I am not enough interested in your
life, Sidney, to go out of my way either to help or to
harm you."
"I've harmed you so much, it's hard for me to
believe you wouldn't use your present great
opportunities to—to come back!"
"Yes, you would believe that!" she said, listlessly.
Sidney tugged at the grass savagely. "Oh, I
know you think I'm all sorts of a cad!" he said.
"Naturally."
He groaned inwardly; he had meant to lead up
tactfully to a hint or a plea that she keep out of the
way of the Arnolds while they were here; but the tone
of their conversation was certainly not propitious for
such a suggestion! It might have the effect of
making her deliberately and perversely seek them
out! Better trust to luck that she and they would
not discover each other.
"Just remember, Susan," he warned her, his face
flushing, "you have kept rather a dark secret,
yourself, from your husband!"
She regarded him with that look of impersonal
speculation which he found so irritating to his
vanity, as she asked, "You are capable of threatening me?"
"Joe certainly doesn't know your past!" he
answered, sombrely.
"Oh!" she cried, a light coming into her eyes,
"you've given me an idea! That might be my way
of escape!"
"What do you mean?"
"I'm bound by my bargain to stick to Joe; he
gave Mother and my sisters their home. But if he
should divorce me, that would let me out honourably!"
"But," said Sidney, seeing too late his mistake in
having given her this "idea," "it would betray to
Laura who you are!"
"Even you, Sidney, will hardly go so far as to ask
me to live on with Joe just to spare 'Laura' and you!
You've really given me an idea! I'll think it over."
"And if you act on it," he burst out, "you'll ruin
me! You'll ruin Georgie! It will give the whole
damned business away! It will——"
He suddenly closed his lips, as he realized, with
despair, that he himself would in a moment be giving
"the whole damned business away" if he said another
word.
Springing to his feet, he snatched up Georgie, who
kicked rebelliously at being taken from Susan, and
with a hasty "Good-by, Susanna!" he strode away.
"You're takin' it easy; ain't?"
It was Joe's voice just at her back!
Evidently he had come in noiselessly from the
potato patch. He had a way of appearing
unexpectedly, at any hour of the day, with the purpose,
apparently, of catching her unawares in idleness, a
thing he abhorred; because in his Gospel, Time was
Money.
As she wondered how much, if anything, he had
overheard of her talk with Sidney, she found herself
feeling remarkably unconcerned about it. She
certainly had little to lose and perhaps much to gain
if Joe should learn the truth about her.
"Been havin' comp'ny, seems."
He came forward, seating himself in the swing
under the tree and taking Josie on his knee.
"Your brother came down for his boy."
"And stopped to wisit you, heh?"
"Yes."
"He better not come flirtin' and foolin' round my
wife!" growled Joe, jealously.
Susan made no comment.
"It ain't the thing!—him and you loafin' here and
me workin'!"
She silently leafed the pages of the magazine on her
lap.
"Have you got supper made, that you have so
much time to loaf?"
Susan did not answer.
"I ast have you got supper made. Why don't you
answer to me, Susan?"
"I'll answer you, Joe, when you are civil to me."
"Civil! I got to be civil, must I? To my own
wife yet! Huh! I guess I got to be so pernicketty
nice like what Sid is; ain't?"
Susan scarcely heard him; her mind was revolving
that "way of escape" that Sidney had suggested.
"Seems you're got an awful lot of time to set round,
Susan! I bet you wouldn't have, if you done all that's
to be done."
But he could draw no answer from her with this bait.
"You ain't near so pertikkler with the housework
as what my first wife was. You don't hang out the
nice wash she hung out! She hung out the nicest
wash in White Oak Station; all the folks sayed so.
They might say that of yourn if you took more time
to it, instead of hurryin' through so's you can set out
here and enjoy yourself."
But when even these aspersions on her "wash"
did not rouse Susan to resentment, Joe felt discouraged.
"What was Sid gassin' to you about, anyhow?"
he inquired, sullenly.
"We talked about our children," she said after a
perceptible hesitation.
"Huh! I guess he thinks hisn's better'n mine!—the
way him and his mother always thought I wasn't
good enough to 'sociate with 'em! Well, by gosh,
Susan, they'll learn somepin different one of these
here days! Josie ain't a-goin' to have to take no
back seat fur that there bastard of Sid's, you bet you!
It'll be the other way round, you mark my words!"
"Georgie was born in wedlock," Susan protested,
startled.
"I'd like to prove he wasn't!" growled Joe.
"Oh, Joe, if you could only see how much more your
hatred of Sidney hurts you than it does him, your
very selfishness would make you want to get over
it!"
"It'll hurt Sid a-plenty before I do get over it!"
returned Joe. "When I've got Sid where I want
him—and that's under my heel—then mebby I'll
get good over hatin' him. Not till then, though!"
Susan sighed, but protested no further.
"Did Sid explain you why his Missus don't take
no notice to you—you her sister-in-law?" Joe demanded.
Susan shook her head.
"Don't it spite you none, Susan, that she thinks
herself so much?" he asked, puzzled.
"It's her loss, not mine," smiled Susan. "I think
people who don't know me miss a lot. Don't you,
Joe?"
She rose and shook out her skirts.
"Please be ready for supper in half an hour," she
said, as she left him and went into the kitchen.
In spite of the sharp reprimand which Sidney
administered that day, on his return home, to Clara,
Georgie's nurse, for disobeying his orders to keep the
boy as far away as possible from his uncle's cottage,
she, true to her race, rather than exert herself to
struggle with the child's strong will, or to divert and
amuse him, continued to take the line of least
resistance and to follow where he led, when, the
moment he was out of the house, he would make
straight for the little cottage at the foot of the hill;
and Susan, at whose heart strings Georgie's tug was
growing more and more potent, did not discourage
the girl's bringing him daily to see his little cousin and
his "aunty."
Thus it happened that the very next day after
Sidney's stern rebuke and reiterated command to
obey orders on pain of being discharged (those were
the days when servants, not employers, were
discharged), Clara again deliberately let her small
master lead her, after luncheon when everybody was
taking a map, directly down to the spot where Sidney
had found them the day before.
Now as it was Sunday and Joe, who hated Sidney's
boy, was about the house to-day, Susan would have
preferred, for once, to have had Georgie kept away.
But it happened that at the moment of his joyful
arrival, slowly followed by his spineless attendant,
Joe was having a nap after his heavy noon meal;
and so, Susan, deciding that at the first sound of her
husband's awaking she would dispatch her visitors
in haste, settled herself cosily, with a child on either
side of her and her lap full of story books, under the
tree outside her house.
And it was here that, presently, Eleanor Arnold,
wandering about alone, found her.
It came with a great shock to them both, that
first recognizing encounter of their eyes. For an
instant they could only stare at each other,
speechless. But the next moment they had fallen upon
each other with cries of surprise and delight, Eleanor's
self-contained composure entirely broken up, and
Susan's habitual listlessness turned to a burning
excitement.
"But, Susan! I didn't know you at first! You
are so changed! Your golden hair turned brown!
And the look out of your eyes—what is it?"
Susan dared not speak lest a flood of tears overwhelm
her. She bit her lip hard as she silently drew
Eleanor to sit down with her on the grass under the
tree.
But in a moment she had recovered herself, and
putting the two boys to playing with some building
blocks, she gave herself up to her friend. Both she
and Eleanor were feeling amazed, in their hearts, that
their sudden reunion was bringing instantaneously
such a rush of old joy, such a quick renewal of a vital
tie after so long a breach. Their eyes sparkled, their
cheeks were flushed with excitement.
"How have we lived so long without each other,
Susan!" cried Eleanor, breathlessly.
And Susan answered, "What months we've wasted!
I'm only this moment realizing what you've always
been to me!"
"It's been your doing, not mine, that we've been
separated, Susan!"
"Oh, I know——"
"But you are surely not living here in this house?"
Eleanor asked, looking bewildered. "Why, Laura
said she had never met you! Then you can't have
married Sidney's brother?"
"Yes to all your questions. I am living right here
in this house; I am Sidney's sister-in-law; his wife
never met me."
"Family mysteries and skeletons? Well, I won't
pry—though I'm dying to! Why you should have
gone and got married and have had these two
children without ever consulting me——"
"One of them is Sidney Houghton's," Susan
quickly explained.
"One of these two? Which one is yours, Susan?
Oh, you needn't tell me, it's plain enough! What a
darling! Much, much more adorable," she added in
a lowered voice, "than Sidney's."
"I don't think so!" Susan warmly retorted.
"Georgie seems to me a much finer type than Josie—though
of course," she hastily added, "Josie's a dear
and I love him."
Eleanor stared. "You're disparaging your own—— Oh,
but he can't be yours—you were only just
married, weren't you?—so Laura said, anyway.
Then that is not your boy, is he?" asked Eleanor,
indicating Georgie.
Susan's face lit up. "You took him for mine?
Oh, I wish he were! He's Sidney's. The other
one—Josie—is my step-son."
"And you've never had one of your own? You've
not been married long——?"
"I've been married five months."
"I would have sworn that one—Georgie—was
yours. He has a look in the eyes like you—though of
course he looks more like Sidney. This is my first
glimpse of him; they never have him about; Laura
is certainly the most indifferent of mothers! You'd
think she'd be proud to show off such a rare child!
Susan, you are so changed! You are lovelier and
more blooming than ever; yet you are, somehow, so
matured! As if you had lived, Susan! As if," added
Eleanor, gazing thoughtfully into Susan's face, "you
had lived tragically! Have you?"
Susan nodded dumbly.
"Tell me all about it! Begin at Once upon a time,
and don't skip. I know it'll be thrilling!" said
Eleanor, settling herself expectantly to listen; "for
I always said, you remember, that you were born for
romance. Tell me about your husband."
Romance and Joe! Susan almost laughed, though
her heart was heavy. In what a position she was
placed, when all her pride shrank from presenting her
husband to her friend!—and yet loyalty to the
obligations of her bond must close her lips upon
explanations, excuses, apologies.
A sound in the kitchen doorway drew their eyes
from each other. Joe, in his shirt sleeves, a scowl on
his face, came striding across the grass to the tree.
"Here another time I come to use my car and
find the gasoline is all!" he fretfully accused his wife,
not heeding her visitor. "Again you was usin' it
without astin' me for the dare! Ain't? A pretty
thing that whenever I go to use my car the gasoline
is every time all! No matter how often I fill it up
yet! If I got it so filled up at twelve o'clock in the
night, you'd get out of bed to make sure it was all
used up till morning a'ready! Ain't, you would?"
Suddenly he became conscious of Susan's deathly
pallor and of a fire in her eyes that alarmed
him—and at the same time, of her companion's look of
amazement and alarm.
Turning away abruptly, frowning and muttering,
he disappeared again in the house.
"Well!" exclaimed Eleanor, "chauffeurs must be
scarce out here if you stand for—— Susan
Schrekengust!" Eleanor seized Susan's arm convulsively.
"Who is that man?"
"My husband, Eleanor!"—and Susan laid her
head on Eleanor's shoulder and sobbed; long, tearing
sobs that seemed to come from the depths of her soul;
from the pent-up griefs of years; from the anguish of
defeated love, defeated motherhood, death, despair.
Later, when Clara had gone home with Georgie,
Josie had gone indoors to his father, and Susan, now
very quiet, still sat on the grass with her friend,
Eleanor asked her wonderingly, "What the devil did
you do such a thing for, Susan?"
"It's so good," said Susan with a sigh of pleasure,
"to hear you cuss again, Eleanor! Until I met you,
I had never, in my short and simple life, heard a
perfect lady swear!"
"I'm afraid I never did serve up my words on a
napkin. And quite early in life I decided to abandon
the career of a perfect lady. A woman of brains
(you'll not question I'm that?) never is a perfect
lady, the absolutely real thing, you know; because,
you see, it means such a well-ordered mind and soul
and life as to preclude rioting of any sort, whether
of the emotions or the intellect. It involves repose,
conservatism, a nice moderation in all things, an
absence of big enthusiasms, large vision, vigour of
thought and feeling——
"You've simply got to explain to me, Susan, how
you came to marry that man! Is he a diamond in the
rough? Is he Sidney Houghton's brother? Is he a
real Houghton at all?" she demanded, incredulously.
"Why, the Houghtons have always been awfully
snippy about their family blood! Their sense of their
own superiority has been as sublime as it was
inexplicable. Don't expect me to spare your feelings!
I don't intend to! You deserve 'most anything for
throwing yourself away like this! I could beat you
for it!"
"I deserve your scorn; I don't deserve your friendship!"
"You deserve to be shut up in a lunatic asylum!
Why did you do it? Speak up!"
"It's a very sordid story, Eleanor. No romance
about it that I can see! (You said I was born for
romance!) I was engaged to Sidney Houghton. He
jilted me. I was broken-hearted at first; then
reckless and despairing. My father became involved in
money troubles and died suddenly. We would have
had to leave our home, which I thought would kill
Mother. So to save her I married Joe Houghton.
Joe gave Mother and my sisters their old home.
Then, a month later, Mother died. My sacrifice was
for nothing! That's all."
"You were a dreadful little fool, of course! You
know that, don't you?"
"I don't find the knowledge consoling, dear, so
please don't draw my attention to it."
"But you can't go on living out your life with that
man, Susan! You'll have to leave him!"
"Wouldn't it be going back on a bargain? He
practically bought me."
"And you've surely paid him back already a
thousand per cent!"
"It wasn't in the bond that I'd be his wife for a few
months."
"You actually consider yourself bound to him, to a
creature like that, you?"
"I don't know."
"If you do think you're bound, if you're that
fanatical, then make him let you live your own life.
Demand your rights!"
"Make him? Compared to Joe Houghton's obstinacy
Gibraltar is wobbly!"
"If he's in love with you, there's nothing you can't
make him do for you."
"By playing up my sex? How would I be above
the woman of the streets if I did that? The world
thinks it all right, I suppose, for a wife to gain her
ends that way."
"Oh, the world!" shrugged Eleanor. "Of course
its standards are never right. Show me something
that the majority believe and I'll show you something
that's a lie! The persecuted of any age nearly always
turn out to have been the prophets of that age."
"Carrie Nation!" smiled Susan. "And now we've
got national Prohibition! Who'd ever have thought
it!"
"Talking about morals," Eleanor went on, "people
haven't any, really. They have Respectability,
Conformity, Propriety. Those are society's only
values."
"Yes, I often think," said Susan, "if that hypocrite's
cloak, Respectability, could be stripped from
our shrinking souls, what a sight we'd all be!"
"You remind me of a letter Robert saw ages ago,
when he was a college student, written by Howells to
Mark Twain; Mark Twain showed it to Robert. It
was about the autobiography Mark Twain was
writing. Howells wrote, 'You always rather
bewildered me by your veracity, and I fancy you may
tell the truth about yourself. But all of it? The
black truth which we all know of ourselves in our
hearts—even you won't tell the black heart's truth'."
"What a human document it would be if any man
or woman had the courage to do it!" said Susan.
"Of course Rousseau came near it."
"Susan! You've got to leave that man that you've
so absurdly gone and married!"
"I have hurt so many people; I shrink from hurting
any more!"
"What do you mean? Whom have you hurt?"
"My father and mother and sisters! And if I left
Joe, I would hurt not only him; my two sisters would
break their hearts. They believe in the marriage
ceremony, you know—as a sort of fetish—'For
better, for worse'—'Until death'—'Whom God hath
joined'—'These two are no more twain, but one
flesh.' My sisters would for the rest of their days
walk among their neighbours disgraced and stricken."
"Would that be as tragic, as wasteful, as your
spending your whole life with such an outrageous
creature? You've got to leave him! And you will
leave him!"
She rose and Susan stood up at her side.
"When you've made up your mind, Susan, come
to me in Middleburg. Promise!"
"I'll—I'll have to think it over," Susan faltered.
But there was hope in her voice and in her shining
eyes.