The Story of Hildiridur.
Ask yourselves, courteous readers,—all ye
whose beloved parents are numbered with
the dead,—what would be your feelings if a
mother were thus restored to you, even in that
hour when you had most need of consolation,
and if thus all the pleasant dreams of childhood
were brought again smiling around you?
For you, however, who yet enjoy that unspeakable
blessing, to walk in the light of a
mother’s protecting and loving eyes, I would
not awaken the frightful thought, that such
happiness should ever be taken from you.
Without this, you may know well how to sympathize
with and to measure that balmy joy
which was thus so unexpectedly poured into
the bleeding heart of Sir Otto!—In the moon-like
radiance of the Druda’s eyes, it seemed
as if a whole garden of azure flowers, emblems
of hope and confidence, once more
sprung up around him. His mother’s well-known
features now shone upon him as kindly
and mildly as ever; not mournful and disfigured,
as when he thought that she lay dying
in the forest, nor pale and motionless as he
had beheld her during his nightly watch in
the chapel.
It was long before either of them could
again speak calmly. Otto knelt before her,
and could only say, “Oh! dearest—dearest
mother!—how could’st thou remain so long
concealed from one who so dearly loved thee!
Heaven knows how many an hour I have spent
in weeping thy loss and praying for thee!”
Then, in their great joy and affection, they
both continued silent, while Sir Heerdegen
and the sea-monarch stood, one on each side,
with clasped hands,—even as one oftentimes
sees in ancient pictures and monuments the
figures of devout champions, who stand in
respectful meditation beside the divinely-inspired
saints of the olden times.
At last Hildiridur dismissed the three
knights, commanding that her son should come
to her alone on the next day, that he might
hear from his mother’s lips the eventful history
of his parents. Rejoicing, and yet weeping
in his gladness, Sir Otto rode homewards
through the clear moonlight, while his faithful
friends followed him, and in their hearts
partook of all his emotion.
When they had arrived at the camp, there
Swerker came riding towards them, threw
himself from his horse, and would have held
the stirrup while Sir Otto dismounted; but
the latter said,—“Not so; for thou art not
my squire, but my equal in rank, and shalt
be my chosen comrade in the battle-field.”—“Nay,”
answered Swerker, “this cannot be,
for I am yet no Christian; and who knows
whether in my whole life I shall ever become
one?”—“On that score there need be no
doubt,” said Sir Otto; “had we but a learned
priest here among our troops, he would
reveal to you our faith in all its divine beauty;
and certainly you could not hesitate to believe
in what he said.”—“Methinks,” answered
the Swede, “the best of all methods,
if I may venture so to speak, were, that you
should yourself undertake the trouble of my
conversion. It is better that one knight
should always speak with another, and so, by
expressing only the real feelings of our hearts,
we shall at last agree well together. Should
you prove to be in the right, then I am willing
to become a Christian; if, on the other
hand, my doctrines are better maintained,
then you will join with us in our devotions to
the great Odin, and the ancient gods of Valhalla.”
“Agreed!” said Sir Otto; “I shall take
my chance as your instructor, and to-morrow
at sunrise we shall hold our first meeting for
this purpose. Even now, when Heaven, in his
infinite wisdom, has in one and the same day
so wounded and rejoiced my heart, methinks
I shall in this attempt be successful.”
On the following day the two young heroes
met and disputed vehemently together,
whereupon Sir Otto felt strengthened in listening
to the sound of his own voice, and by the
self-consciousness of right which dwelt in his
own heart. He felt assured, that he would
ere long gain the victory; but, when evening
approached, he failed not to remember his appointment,
and set out alone towards the
castle of Hildiridur.
The Druda met him on his arrival at the
gate, and led him kindly and caressingly up
stairs to the chamber with the round banquet-table,
which on this evening was more cheerfully
and pleasantly illuminated than ever.
On the table, moreover, he saw many brilliant
objects; there was a magnificent plume
of feathers fastened together by a brooch
of emerald; a large gold cross with a rich
chain; a green velvet belt beautifully embroidered,
and other accoutrements fit for
a valiant knight of the highest rank.—“These
shall all be thine, dearest son,” said she, while
the tears glittered in her eyes. “Through
so many years it has never been in my power
to make thee a present, by way of kind remembrance,
on thy birth-day, nor at Christmas-tide;
and for this neglect I must now
compensate as well as I can.”—With these
words she began to attire her beloved son
in the gold chain and belt, the plume of
feathers, and other adornments, till at last he
stood glittering like a fairy king before her.
Once more she looked at him with that full
expressive gaze, with which only a mother
regards a dear child of whom she is justly
proud; then invited the youth to take his
place opposite to her at the table, and began
to speak as follows:—
“Thy father, my beloved son, was brave
and valiant indeed as thou art, but in temper
not so mild and submissive. He was indeed
a threatening and stern hero, of whom
all, even those who most loved him, were
afraid; for his character might well be
compared to that of a burning summer’s
day, now bright and beautiful, though
we know not how soon it may change into
a frightful thunder-storm. Thus it happened,
that he overtook me in a bay of the
North Sea, and, half by promises, half by
threats, compelled me to become his wife.
Even to this hour I tremble to think of the
terror that I felt soon after. It was in Holland,
where a grand festival had been given
in honour of Sir Hugur. When he returned
home from the banquet, he found
in my chamber a long staff of oak-wood,
with Runic characters carved thereon; and,
suddenly changing his tone from that of
loving confidence to bitter reproach and
fierce anger, he said,—-‘I have already heard,
that thou art a powerful enchantress. Beware,
however, how thou betrayest any tokens
or symbols of such an art in my presence, for,
should this ever happen again, I swear solemnly,
that moment shall be the last of thy life!’
“Hastily, and without thought, I took up,
in my terror, the Runic enchanting-rod, and
threw it into the fire; whereupon such a terrific
blaze arose, that the very walls of the
chimney were rent asunder, and the fire
spread so rapidly, that Hugur had scarcely
time to snatch me, fainting with affright, in
his arms, and bear me from the room.
Would to Heaven that all my implements
of enchantment had at the time been destroyed;
and, above all, the fatal mirror
which is now placed in the adjoining room,
and which I was wont to carry with me, carefully
packed, wherever I came! But the
mystic spells that ruled therein made it
impossible for the fire to injure the mirror,
and much as I was afraid of Sir Hugur’s
anger, I yet had not resolution to renounce
all the secrets that I had learned
during my abode in the distant snow-covered
Iceland. Alas! my son, where an impulse
and longing like that which I had felt towards
these dark sciences are born with us,
too often are we carried onward, notwithstanding
all our struggles, even though we know
well that it is to our own destruction. Yet I
determined that the mirror, though it remained
in my possession, should never be
looked at or unveiled; for I could not but
expect that Hugur, always incensed by the
sight of such objects, would be more than
ever enraged, if by any means he were reminded
of what had happened with the Runic
divining-rod. He paid a large sum of money
to the proprietor of the house, according to
his usual princely generosity, and thereafter
we removed to the pleasant town of Coblentz,
where the Mosel flows into the Rhine,—where
the blooming fields and vine-covered
mountains may vie in beauty with any which
this world affords, those even of Asia not excepted.
“There, in a baronial fortress, not far from
the town, which mansion was situated on a
hill covered with fruit-trees, and commanding
the loveliest prospects along both rivers, wert
thou, my beloved son, brought into the world.
In the sweet unconsciousness of infancy, thou
wert wont to smile in thy cradle, from the
high balcony of the castle, on the beautiful
world full of light, blossoms and fragrance
which then lay around thee; but young, and
seemingly unconscious as thou wert, I doubt
not that sweet influences, derived from these
early dreams, yet steal upon the both in
thine hours of waking and of sleep.”
“Truly, dearest mother,” replied Sir Otto,
“thy words have recalled to me forms and
feelings that lay deep—deeply implanted,
though but dimly understood, within my
heart. But after I had learned better to perceive
what passed around me, did we not travel
farther?—Did not our way lead over
lofty cliffs covered with vines, full of rich
clusters?—and did we not once stand looking
down fearfully at a great foaming cataract?—Methinks
I yet hear its mighty voice!—or
was this, perchance, a thunder-storm among
the mountains, with its blue and white clouds,
which my wild fantasy had confused with the
notion of falling water?”
“Nay, dear son,” answered Hildiridur,
“that was indeed the magnificent Rhein-fall
at Schaffhausen. I remember well, how joyfully
thou didst clasp thy hands, and tried,
after thine own manner, to shout aloud; and
though thy voice was unheard amid the roaring
of the falling torrents, the pleasure with
which thou wert animated sparkled in thine
eyes; yet all this while the boards on which
we stood shook beneath us; and at length
the stern Sir Hugur was so delighted with
thy courage, that he kissed both his wife and
child, and exclaimed,—‘That is my brave
son,—a true scion of the old northern tree!—Thanks
to thee, far-famed and majestic
Rhine, for the trial which thou hast now afforded
me of his spirit!’—Truly thou art
but little changed since that time, if I might
say so of one who has been transformed from
a blooming boy into a warlike knight; but at
the first glance I could not but recognise thy
features.”
“And yet thou could’st remain so long
concealed from me,” said Sir Otto mournfully,
“and I have been so long denied
that confidence in which I now so much rejoice!”
“My son,” answered Hildiridur, “to one
who is ever led, as I have been, to look over
deeply into the mysteries of nature and the
world of spirits, the knowledge so acquired
often proves a heavy and almost insupportable
burden. Already have I spoken to this effect
with thy cousin Bertha, when she came
to my castle in East Friesland. Thus, while
free-hearted champions, such as thou art, are
pursuing their own path to glory and conquest,
and are guided by their own impulses,
there are deep mysterious signs and admonitions
by which we, who are endowed with supernatural
gifts, are made aware, that we
must submit to the conditions of that destiny
which Providence has decreed for us. The
fitting hour was not yet come.”
“But is it possible,” inquired Sir Otto,
“that you have heretofore looked upon Ottur,
my strange double-goer, whose name
I have now bestowed on my sword, as your
son?”
“Truly there have been moments when I
have thus acknowledged him,” said Hildiridur;
“but at length I perceived only too
well who he really is. Thou also wilt soon
become acquainted with this mystery; for my
story draws near to the fatal hour, when it
was to me clearly revealed, how frightfully
his fate was intwined with thine and with my
own.”
“For three years we had now wandered about
through the blooming mountains and valleys
of Germany, when in your father’s heart there
arose at length the ardent longing after his
native land. In the German districts he no
longer bore his Norwegian name of the stern
Sir Hugur, but was called Sir Hugh von
Trautwangen, and I also was accustomed to
address him by this title, forming at the same
time in my own mind delightful pictures of
Trautwangen in Swabia, where I had never
yet been. It was enough for me that its name
was ever joined with that of my husband,
who was dearer to me than all the world. I
longed, therefore, in joyful anticipation, to
reach the Swabian fortress, and yet have to
this hour never beheld it, except long afterwards
in the frightful mirror. And that
fatal treasure was the cause of my never having
been there in reality.
“For, as we drew nearer and nearer to the
castle, I was every night haunted by strange
and irresistible visions, by which I was constantly
warned and impelled to look into the
magic mirror, and behold there the adventures
past and to come of my husband, Sir
Hugur. On awakening, all was confusion in
my mind, and I could not clearly recall the
phantoms of my sleep, but felt always a vehement
desire to act according to those warnings.
Yet my love towards Sir Hugur,
mingled also with my terror of offending him,
always made me able to resist that inclination,
until one night, which we past encamped
under the shelter of a great forest, my dreams
became more vivid and more frightful than
ever, so that I could also recall them when
awake.
“In my nightly vision, it seemed to me as
if the form of the beautiful Astrid, my sister,
of whose death I had never heard, was always
before me, and that she was zealously employed
in culling flowers under the trees.
Methought also, that it was still night, and
that a gleam of moonlight shone upon her
features, and I said to myself, ‘How strangely
pale she looks in that light! Does she not
appear, even now, more like one of the dead
than of the living?’ Thereupon a deep melancholy,
and even horror, settled on my
heart. The beautiful Astrid continued her
search for flowers; but, when she had made
a rich and variegated wreath, and was adding
to it the last flower, in order to tie it together,
lo! the whole garland changed at once
into dust and ashes, which flew into her eyes,
and disfigured her countenance. Then she
indeed looked like one of the dead, and, moreover,
began to wring her hands and weep
bitterly. Thereafter she renewed her task,
and soon made another wreath, which was
dissolved like the former. I wished to rise
up and assist her, but the leaden bonds of
sleep held me fast; I could not move; and
when Astrid saw my vain endeavours, she
said, ‘Nay, nay, think not of aiding me.
These are but earthly flowers which no one can
fix in my hands, and wherefore should I wish
for them, since I have been long since dead?’
After these words, she came and placed herself
beside me, adding, ‘Wherefore hast thou
the mirror in thy possession? I shall never
grant thee peace, neither by night nor day,
till thou hast looked into it, and inquired after
the past life of the stern Sir Hugur. If thou
wilt not obey my commands, then truly
may’st thou pursue thy way to the castle of
Trautwangen; but, remember, till the warning
be fulfilled, thou shalt never enjoy rest;
till then I shall ever be with thee!’ All this
was uttered in a voice that sounded at once
so eager, and so feebly shrill, that I was struck
with horror, and awoke, screaming, from my
sleep. This time, as I have already said, the
impression of my dream remained clear on
my mind. Meanwhile I heard the owls
shrieking without in the wild forest; my female
attendants were fast asleep, and the
sentinels snored at the entrance of the tent.
At these fearful moments I wished to lose
my sense of the terror by which I was surrounded
in the protecting arms of sleep; but,
scarcely had I closed my eyes and begun to
slumber, when the deadly pale visage of
Astrid was again close to mine; her voice
again shrilled in mine ears, and these fearful
changes from sleep to waking, and from
waking to sleep, were repeated, till, unable to
bear such torment any longer, I started from
my couch, and ran straightway towards the
coffer in which I knew that the mirror was
deposited. All yet slept around me; the
fires were extinguished, the moon sunk, the
night was dark and silent as the grave.
“At the well-known touch of my hands all
the locks and bolts were at once opened; the
mirror was revealed, and shone brightly, with
its own supernatural light. I leaned it against
the stem of an oak-tree, and, according to the
warning voice of my dream, demanded what
had been the crimes of Sir Hugur?
“What I then beheld I need not repeat to
thee; thou know’st it already from the lips of
the wise armourer, Asmandur, who has described
to thee the fate of the beautiful Astrid,
and even repeated the songs in which
she took her last farewell of the stern champion
of the North.”
Hereupon, Sir Otto and Hildiridur both
wept bitterly, and for a long while they remained
silent, and gazing on each other. At
length the lady began to speak as follows:—
“In the mirror I beheld also a beautiful
boy, who is now changed into the wild reckless
Ottur, for he was the son of Sir Hugur and
the beautiful Astrid. That thy half-brother
should resemble thee so nearly is not to be
thought mysterious; for scarcely could his
mother and thine be distinguished from each
other. I was still weeping before the mirror,
because I beheld therein how the boy turned
away in mingled wrath and terror from his
father, who, in the presence of the old knight,
had dipped a spear in my sister’s blood, when,
lo! the stern Sir Hugur himself stood suddenly
behind me. The red light of the
morning, which had just then begun to break,
shone on his visage, distorted by wrath, and
in a thundering voice he exclaimed, ‘Thou
hast then given thyself up again to thy witchcraft
and incantations; but although thou hast
forgotten thine obedience, I shall not forget the
vows that I have sworn. Prepare then for
death!’ With these words, he drew his sword,
that gleamed like a flame in the morning light;
and that sword, dearest son, was the same
which thou wearest at this moment, and to
which, as thou said’st, thou hast given the
name of Ottur.”
Hereupon Sir Otto looked with aversion
and terror on the weapon which he had before
held so dear; it seemed as if he would tear it
from his side, and cast it away; but then
said Hildiridur, “Fear not, dear son; by
that good sword I have never been injured;
although by my disobedience I had deserved
that my life should thereby have been
taken away. For as I kneeled on the ground,
and even bared my bosom as a self-condemned
criminal to receive the blow, suddenly the
heart of the stern Hugur was melted; and he
said, ‘Nay, Heaven forbid that thou should’st
ever be wounded by my hand. But I must
separate myself from thee, for now thou hast
discovered the fearful crimes which I committed
against thy sister, Astrid; nor have I
humility or fortitude enough (whichsoever it
should be called) to beg thy forgiveness. Nor,
to say the truth, could I confide longer in
one who is thus given up to sorcery; therefore
hasten thou from my sight, and never
let us meet again. But as for the boy, I must
detain him with me, and will tell him that
thou art dead.’ To these commands I was
forced to submit; but I desisted not from
entreaties, till I had been permitted to take
leave of thee, dearest Otto. The by-standers
told thee that I was then dying; and,
truly, I must have seemed at last more like
one of the dead than of the living; for, quite
overcome by my affliction at parting with
thee, and my regret at the disobedience of
which I had so rashly been guilty, I sank
back, fainting and insensible, on the grassy
turf.”
Once more the lady heartily embraced her
beloved son; and they felt that their long sufferings
were more than compensated by the
happiness which they now enjoyed.