The private theatre in the palace was a
room of very moderate size, for the audience
was necessarily very small; in fact, the
stage was larger than the auditorium.
The play took place in the afternoon, and
there was no artificial light; many of the
operatic performances in Italy, indeed, took
place in the open air.
Yet, though the time of day and the
natural light deprived the theatre of much
of the strangeness and glamour with which
it is usually associated, and which so much
impress a youth who sees it for the first
time, the effect of the first performance
upon Mark was very remarkable. He
was seated immediately behind the Prince.
Far from being delighted with the play, he
was overpowered as it went on by an intense
melancholy horror. When the violins,
the flutes, and the fifes began the overture,
a new sense seemed given to him, which
was not pleasure but the intensest dread.
If the singing of the Signorina had been a
shock to him, accustomed as he was only to
the solemn singing of his childhood, what
must this elfish, weird, melodious music
have seemed, full of gay and careless life,
and of artless unconscious airs which yet
were miracles of art? He sat, terrified at
these delicious sounds, as though this world
of music without thought or conscience
were a wicked thing. The shrill notes of
the fifes, the long tremulous vibration of
the strings, seemed to draw his heart after
them. Wherever this wizard call might
lead him it seemed he would have to follow
the alluring chords.
But when the acting began his terror
became more intense. The grotesque
figures seemed to him those of devils, or
at the best of fantastic imps or gnomes.
He could understand nothing of the dialogue,
but the gestures, the laughter, the
wild singing, were shocking to him. When
the Signorina appeared, the strange intensity
of her colour, the brilliancy of her eyes,
and what seemed to him the freedom of
her gestures and the boldness of her bewitching
glances, far from delighting, as
they seemed to do all the others, made
him ready to weep with shame and grief.
He sank back in his seat to avoid the
notice of the Prince, who, indeed, was too
much absorbed in the music and the acting
to remember him.
The beauty of the music only added to
his despair; had it been less lovely, had
the acting not forced now and then a glance
of admiring wonder or struck a note of
high-toned touching pathos even, it would
not all have seemed so much the work of
evil. When the comedy was over he crept
silently away to his room; and in the
excitement of congratulation and praise, as
actors and audience mingled together, and
the Signorina was receiving the commendations
of the Prince, he was not missed.
He could not stay in this place—that at
least was clear to him. He must escape.
He must return to nature, to the woods
and birds, to children and to children's
sports. These gibing grimaces, these endless
bowings and scrapings and false compliments,
known of all to be false, would
choke him if he stayed. He must escape
from the house of frivolity into the soft,
gracious outer air of sincerity and truth.
He cried himself to sleep: all through
the night, amid fitful slumber, the crowd
of masques jostled and mocked at him;
the weird strains of unknown instruments
reached his half-conscious bewildered sense.
Early in the morning he awoke. There
had been rain in the night, and the smiling
morning beckoned him out.
He stole down some back stairs, and
found a door which opened on gardens and
walks at the back of the palace. This he
managed to open, and went out.
The path on which the door opened led
him through rows of fruit-trees and young
plantations. A little forest of delicate
boughs and young leaves lifted itself up
against the blue sky, and a myriad drops
sparkled in the morning sun. The fresh
cool air, the blue sky, the singing of the
birds, restored Mark to himself. He
seemed to see again the possibility of
escape from evil, and the hope of righteousness
and peace. His whole spirit went
out in prayer and love to the Almighty,
who had made these lovely things. He
felt as he had been wont to do when, on
a fine Sunday, he had walked home with
his children in order, relating to them the
most beautiful tales of God. He wandered
slowly down the narrow paths. The fresh-turned
earth between the rows of saplings,
the beds of herbs, the moist grass, gave
forth a scent at once delicate and searching.
The boy's cheerfulness began to return.
The past seemed to fade. He almost
thought himself the little schoolmaster
again.
After wandering for some time through
this delicious land of perfume, of light, and
sweet sound, he came to a very long but
narrow avenue of old elm trees that led
down a gradual slope, as it seemed, into
the heart of the forest. Beneath the
avenue a well-kept path seemed to point
with a guiding hand.
He followed the path for some distance,
and had just perceived what seemed to be
an old manor-house, standing in a courtyard
at the farther end, when he was
conscious of a figure advancing along the
path to meet him: as it approached he
saw that it was that of a lady of tall and
commanding appearance, and apparently
of great beauty; she wore the dress of
some sisterhood. When he was near enough
to see her face he found that it was indeed
beautiful, with an expression of the purest
sincerity and benevolence. The lady
stopped and spoke to Mark at once.
"You must be the new tutor to their
Highnesses," she said; "I have heard of
you."
Mark said that he was.
"You do not look well," said the lady,
very kindly; "are you happy at the
palace?"
"Are you the Princess Isoline?" said
Mark, not answering the question; "I
think you must be, you are so beautiful."
"I am the Princess Isoline," said the
lady; "walk a little way with me."
Mark turned with the lady and walked
back towards the palace. After a moment
or two he said: "I am not happy at
Joyeuse, I am very miserable, I want to
run away."
"What makes you so unhappy? Are
they not kind to you? The Prince is very
kind, and the children are good children—I
have always thought."
"They are all very kind, too kind to
me," said the boy. "I cannot make you
understand why I am so miserable, I cannot
tell myself—the Prince is worse than
all——"
"Why is the Prince the worst of all?"
said the lady, in a very gentle voice.
"All the rest I know are wrong,"
replied the boy, passionately—"the actors,
the Signorina, the pages, and all; but when
the Prince looks at me with his quiet
smile—when the look comes into his eyes
as though he could see through time even
into eternity—when he looks at me in
his kindly, pitying way—I begin to
doubt. Oh, Highness, it is terrible to
doubt! Do you think that the Prince is
right?"
The Princess was silent for a moment
or two; it was not that she did not
understand the boy, for she understood
him very well.
"No, I think you are right and not the
Prince," she said at length, in her quiet
voice.
There was a pause: neither seemed to
know what to say next. They had now
nearly reached the end of the avenue next
the palace; the Princess stopped.
"Come back with me," she said, "I
will show you my house."
They walked slowly along the narrow
pathway towards the old house at the
farther end. The Princess was evidently
considering what to say.
"Why do you know that they are all
wrong?" she said at last.
"Highness," said the boy after a pause,
"I have never lived amongst, or seen
anything, since I was born, but what was
natural and real—the forest, the fruit-trees
in blossom, the gardens, and the flowers.
I have never heard anything except of
God—of the wretchedness of sin—of
beautiful stories of good people. My
grandfather, when he was alive, used to
talk to me, as I sat with him at his charcoal-burning
in the forest, of my forefathers
who were all honest and pious people.
There are not many Princes who can say
that."
The Princess did not seem to notice
this last uncourtly speech.
"'I shall then find all my forefathers in
Heaven,' I would say to him," continued
Mark. "'Yes, that thou wilt! we shall
then be of high nobility. Do not lose this
privilege.' If I lose this privilege, how
sad that will be! But here, in the palace,
they think nothing of these things—instead
of hymns they sing the strangest, wildest
songs, so strange and beautiful that I fear
and tremble at them as if the sounds were
wicked sounds."
So talking, the Princess and the boy went
on through the lovely wood; at last they
left the avenue and passed into the courtyard
of a stately but decayed house. The
walls of the courtyard were overgrown
with ivy, and trees were growing up against
the house and shading some of the windows.
The Princess passed on without speaking,
and entered the hall by an open door. As
they entered, Mark could hear the sound of
looms, and inside were several men and
women at different machines employed in
weaving cloth. The Princess spoke to
several, and leading Mark onward she
ascended a wide staircase, and reached at
last a long gallery at the back of the
house. Here were many looms, and girls
and men employed in weaving. The long
range of lofty windows faced the north,
and over the nearer woods could be seen
the vast sweep of the great Thuringian
Forest, where Martin Luther had lived
and walked. The risen sun was gilding
the distant woods. A sense of indescribable
loveliness and peace seemed to Mark
to pervade the place.
"How happy you must be here, gracious
Highness!" he exclaimed.
They were standing apart in one of
the windows towards the end of the long
room, and the noise of the looms made
a continuous murmur that prevented their
voices being heard by the others who were
near.
The Princess looked at Mark for some
moments without reply.
"I must speak the truth always," she
said at last, "but more than ever to such
as thou art. I am not happy."
The boy looked at her as though his
heart would break.
"Not happy," he said in a low voice,
"and you so good."
"The good are not happy," said the
Princess, "and the happy are not good."
There was a pause; then the Princess
went on:
"The people who are with me are
good, but they are not happy. They have
left the world and its pleasures, but they
regret them; they live in the perpetual
consciousness of this self-denial—this fancy
that they are serving God better than
others are; they are in danger of becoming
jealous and hypocritical. I warn
you never to join a particular society which
proposes, as its object, to serve God better
than others. You are safer, more in the
way of serving God in the palace, even
amid the singing and the music which
seems to you so wicked. They are happy;
they are thoughtless, gay, like the birds.
They have at least no dark gloomy
thoughts of God, even if they have no
thoughts of Him at all. They may be
won to Him, nay, they may be nearer to
Him now than some who think themselves
so good. Since I began this way of life
I have heard of many such societies,
which have crumbled into the dust with
derision, and are remembered only with
reproach."
Mark stood gazing at the distant forest
without seeing it. He did not know what
to think.
"I do not know why I have told you
this," said the Princess; "I had no thought
of saying such words when I brought you
here. I seem to have spoken them without
willing it. Perhaps it was the will of
God."
"Why do you go on with this life," said
Mark sadly, "if it be not good? The
Prince would be glad if you would come
back to the palace. He has told me
so."
It seemed to the boy that life grew
more and more sad. It seemed that, baffled
and turned back at every turn, there was
no reality, no sincere walk anywhere possible.
The worse seemed everywhere the
better, the children of this world everywhere
wiser than the children of light.
"I cannot go back now," said the
Princess. "When you are gone I shall forget
this; I shall think otherwise. There
is something in your look that has made
me speak like this."
"Then are these people really not
happy?" said Mark again.
"Why should they be happy?" said the
Princess, with some bitterness in her voice.
"They have given up all that makes life
pleasant—fine clothes, delicate food, cunning
harmonies, love, gay devices, and sports.
Why should they be happy? They
have dull work, none to amuse or enliven
the long days."
"I was very happy in my village outside
the palace gates," said Mark quietly;
"I had none of these things; I only taught
the little peasants, yet I was happy. From
morning to night the path was straight
before me,—a bright and easy path;
and the end was always light. Now all
is difficult and strange. Since I passed
through the gates with the golden scrolls,
which I thought were like the heavenly
Jerusalem, all goes crooked and awry;
nothing seems plain and righteous as in
the pleasant old days. I have come into
an enchanted palace, the air of which I
cannot breathe and live; I must go back."
"No, not so," said the Princess, "you
are wanted here. Where you were you
were of little good. There were at least
others who could do your work. Here
none can do it but you. They never saw
any one like you before. They know it
and speak of it. All are changed somewhat
since you came; you might, it is true,
come to me, but I should not wish it.
The air of this house would be worse for
you even than that of the palace which you
fear so much. Besides, the Prince would
not be pleased with me."
Mark looked sadly before him for some
moments before he said:
"Even if it be true what you say, still I
must go. It is killing me. I wish to do
right and good to all; but what good
shall I do if it takes all my strength and
life? I shall ask the Prince to let me go
back."
"No," said the Princess, "not that—never
that. It is impossible, you cannot
go back!"
"Cannot go back!" cried Mark.
"Why? The Prince is very kind. He
will not keep me here to die."
"Yes, the Prince is very kind, but he
cannot do that; what is passed can never
happen again. It is the children's phrase,
'Do it again.' It can never be done again.
You have passed, as you say, the golden
gates into an enchanted world; you have
known good and evil; you have tasted of
the fruit of the so-called Tree of Life;
you cannot go back to the village. Think."
Mark was silent for a longer space this
time. His eyes were dim, but he seemed
to see afar off.
"No," he said at last, "it is true, I
cannot go back. The village, and the
school, and the children have passed away.
I should not find them there, as they were
before. If I cannot come to you, there is
nothing for me but to die."
"The Pagans," said the Princess, "the
old Pagans, that knew their gods but dimly,
used to say—"The God-beloved die
young." It has been said since by Christian
men.—Do not be afraid to die. Instead
of your form and voice there will be
remembrance and remorse; instead of indifference
and sarcasm there will be contrition;
in place of thoughtless kindliness
a tender love. Do not be afraid to die.
The charm is working now; it will increase
when sight is changed for memory, and the
changeful irritation of time for changeless
recollection and regret. The body
of the sown grain is transfigured into
the flower of a spiritual life, and from
the dust is raised a mystic presence
which can never fade. Do not be afraid
to die."
Mark walked slowly back to the palace.
He could not think; he was stunned and
bewildered. He wished the Princess
Isoline would have let him come to
her. Then he thought all might yet
be well. When he reached the palace
he found everything in confusion. The
Princess and her friend the servente had
suddenly arrived.