The next Sunday at breakfast, Lacy
said, “Will you go to prayers, Susan?”
“Yes,” said Susan, “I think I
will.”
“So will I,” replied Lacy, “but don’t
it look like rain?”
“To be sure the clouds are blackish,” answered
Susan; “but perhaps it may clear up.”
Lacy yawned, stretched himself, lighted his pipe, and fell
into a fit of thinking. An hour after, he said, looking out
at the door, “’Tis too late now.”
“That is your fault,” said Susan, “I was
willing to go.”
Lacy was about making a sharp reply, but recollecting what the
clergyman had said about provoking one another to anger, he held
his tongue; and when Susan went out of the room he felt as proud
as if he had killed a lion; for nothing is so pleasant as
thinking we have been enabled to overcome a bad
inclination. “I think,” said he, “I shall
get very good now, after this, by myself.”
Susan now came back with her gown, and hung it before the
fire, for the weather had been damp.
“Keep your nasty pipe out of the way,” said she to
her husband, “or my gown will be spoiled.”
“What a fuss you make about your gown,” replied
he; “it would be well if you thought as much of washing my
shirt.”
“No matter,” said she, “I say you
shan’t smoke my gown.”
“And I say I’ll do as I like, wife,” replied
he. “Tobacco won’t hurt your gown—look
here,” and he was so mischievous as to let some of the
ashes fall on it.
Susan cried out, snatched his pipe, broke it, and threw the
pieces at him.
This was too much for Lacy’s patience, though he was not
often passionate: he seized the gown, and running to the door,
tossed it into the mud that lay in the front of the house.
Much altercation here ensued—Lacy ran out of the
house. “Ah!” thought he, “if we had gone
to prayers this would not have happened.” He felt
ashamed of having taken such a revenge on his wife, after
provoking her as he did; but he was too stubborn to go back and
be friends with her. He walked on towards Connor’s
cabin, and as he passed the door he plainly heard the sobs of a
woman within.
Such a
sound was very strange in that happy and quiet place—he
stopped at the door, and heard Mary sob out—“I know,
I know, he will protect them:—preserve them—but my
life—my husband!” She could say no more, and
Lacy entered.
There, on his humble bed, lay poor Connor! death was pictured
in his face; his cheeks were pale, his lips blue, his eyes
hollow: he looked now on his wife and children, and seemed full
of grief, but then he looked up to heaven, and was comforted.
Mary sat beside him: her apron was drenched in her tears; she
tried to hide her sorrow and to quiet her sobs, but she could
not: her eyes were searching about every where, as if for some
comfort; but when she saw the altered face of her husband, she
almost went distracted, and could only, like him, look up to God
in humble submission.
William sat on his low stool with his little sister on his
lap, Peter was crying by his mother’s knee, and the baby
was asleep in the cradle.
William was the first who saw Lacy, and trying to speak he
burst into sobs and cries.
His father turned slowly his eyes towards him, and saw Lacy; a
look of satisfaction appeared on his countenance, and then Mary
saw him too.
Her grief broke out again, “Oh, neighbour, neighbour, he
is dying!” she exclaimed. Lacy could not speak a
word, but he shook her by the hand, and then leaned over
Connor. “Lacy,” said the poor man, in a weak
voice, “you wonder to see me thus—you left me well
and hearty lost night, but a carriage was run away with, and the
horses went over me; I am dying.”
“Let me go for a doctor,” cried Lacy.
“He has been here—there is no hope.”
Connor spoke these words calmly, but they seemed to cut Mary to
the heart.
“No hope, no hope,” she repeated; “he must
die.”
“Don’t die, father,” said little Peter, in a
piteous voice. “Oh, father, father, surely you are
not going to leave us!” sobbed William; “who will
teach us the Bible, or show us the way to heaven any
more?”
“I wish I could, O Lord teach me!” exclaimed Lacy,
and he groaned.
“God grant that prayer!” cried the pious
Connor. “I know he hears it, and I trust his Holy Spirit
will lead you to Jesus, my friend, and teach you to lead others
there.”
“He cannot,” said Lacy, in an agony, “I am
too vile, too sinful, too wicked, he cannot.”
“He will,” replied Connor fervently, “if you
are now sensible of sin, and feel the need of a Saviour, you will
find him; and your dying hour will be as peaceful as
mine.”
Lacy was quite overcome: he sat down, covered his face, and
wept. Even Mary spared a look of kindness from her dying
husband to the awakened sinner.
The clergyman had been sent for, and now came in: he looked
with concern on poor Connor, who forgot his own sufferings, and
pointing to Lacy, said, “Comfort him,” then whispered
Mary to send for Susan.
The clergyman touched Lacy’s shoulder, and said,
“My friend, raise yourself, and behold the instructive
scene—the death-bed of a Christian.”
He obeyed, and came near the bed with those who had arrived to
visit their dying neighbour; for Connor was loved, or at least
respected by all who knew him.
“Sir,” said Connor to the clergyman, “I
trust that my sins, which are many and great, are
forgiven.”
“The blood of Christ cleanseth from all sin,”
replied the clergyman, “only believe, and thou shalt see
the glory of God.”
“It is so,” cried Connor, “I feel it, I
leave my wife and children; but my Saviour I cannot leave; to him
I cling.”
“And he will support you,” replied the clergyman,
“through the dark valley of the shadow of death. This
is no late death-bed repentance; you, my brother, sought the Lord
and he was found of you: you came to Jesus for help, when health
and strength were your own, and he will not leave nor forsake you
now in your distress.”
“Yet I cannot help feeling some anxiety,” said
Connor, “when I remember that the years I passed in sinful
blindness of heart, are far more than the days in which I strove
to walk with God.”
“It is the gracious promise of our God,” replied
the Clergyman, “to his believing people, that their sins
and iniquities he will remember no more.”
Susan now came in, but was too much shocked to speak.
“My dear,” said Connor to Mary, “cherish that
poor couple, and with God’s help strive to assist them
in their way to heaven.”
He was now going apace: they all kneeled down and joined the
clergyman in prayers for the dying man.
Connor uttered some faint sounds—Mary bent to hear them;
his words were, “I know that my Redeemer liveth,” and
they were his last.
The poor widow arose: dreadful was the struggle between the
repinings of nature and pious resignation, but the latter
prevailed: she raised her clasped hands and said, “The Lord
gave, and the Lord hath taken away, blessed be the name of the
Lord!”
Susan looked at her: she recollected her own sinful passion
and resentment on her late trifling loss; she condemned herself,
she knew that she could never make her own peace with God, and
for the first time in her life she felt the want of a
Mediator.
The good clergyman pointed to the corpse, and said,
“There is a lesson never to be forgotten: he was of the
world: he was in darkness, until it pleased God by the light of
his Holy Spirit to take away that darkness, and direct him to the
only sure refuge, the Lord Jesus Christ. From that first
dawn it has shone more and more unto the perfect day. He
grew in grace, and prayed to be strengthened and confirmed in
it.
“For him death had no terrors, but appeared the gate of
life: the grave only seemed to him like a dark passage, and he
looked beyond it to everlasting light and glory in heaven.
“Who can behold the mild countenance of our departed
brother, and not exclaim, ‘Let me die the death of the
righteous, and let my last end be like his!’”
Oh, Reader, may you thus live—thus die!!!
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