"God uses us to help each other so,
Lending our lives out."
—Browning.
Before May was out Honor met her unpromising acquaintance several
times, by chance. But nothing beyond formal greetings passed between
them. Twice she happened to be riding alone with Lenox; the third
time, her husband was with them: and on every occasion Quita's
companion was James Garth,—the only one among them all who enjoyed the
situation. Quita herself found a perverse satisfaction, unworthy of
her best moments, in thus emphasising her indifference to her husband's
presence; ignoring, with characteristic heedlessness, the fact that a
two-edged weapon is an ill thing to handle: and Lenox, accepting her
unspoken intimation au pied de la lettre, steeled himself to
half-cynical, half-stoical endurance.
He had returned heartened, and fortified by a week of stirring sport,
and by closer contact with a personality wholesome and invigorating as
a hill wind; a sympathy of the practical order, that found expression
in matter-of-fact service and good fellowship, rather than in speech.
He had given up all thought of leaving the station; had decided to set
his teeth, and go through with his ordeal, sooner than disappoint these
new-found friends, who seemed already to have become a part of his
life. Such rapid intimacies are a distinctive feature of a country
where a guest may come for a night, and stay for a month; where all
white men are brothers, in the widest sense of the word.
And Eldred Lenox did not hold with half measures. Since he stood his
ground in order to please the Desmonds, he held himself ready to fall
in with any joint plans they might choose to make. Thus, he agreed to
share in their arrangements for the June camp, at Kajiar,—a natural
glade hid in the heart of Kalatope Forest: and even accepted, without
demur, Colonel Mayhew's proposal to preface the 'week' with a two days'
house-party at the Chumba Residency;—a picturesque house, whose garden
of lawns, and roses, and English trees falls sheer to the eddying river
below. The two sportsmen had spent a couple of days here on their way
back, the Resident being down in Chumba on State business; and his
suggestion had been the natural outcome of Desmond's keen interest in
the book which was his hobby of the moment.
"I must be down here then," he explained, "for the Minjla Mela, a
superstitious ceremony by which we test the luck of the State for the
coming year. An unfortunate buffalo is flung into the Ravee, just
above the rapids; and if he succumbs, or scrambles out on the far side,
the gods will not fail us. But if he lands on the town bank, they
won't trouble their heads about us till next June. Naturally we do our
best to prevent such a catastrophe, in spite of our conviction that the
matter is settled by the will of the gods! As far as I know, the
ceremony is peculiar to Chumba; and this would be a good chance for you
to see it, if you don't mind a trifle of heat, and if your wife would
care to come too, so much the better."
"She'll come like a shot, thanks," Desmond answered heartily.
"Good!—We'll get up a native dinner at the Palace in honour of the
occasion. My little girl has set her heart on the plan, rather to my
wife's dismay. The Maurices want to come too; and we may have to
include Garth, on her account; though I confess I wanted her for
myself! She's worth talking to, that girl. There's a touch of genius
in her composition, and a touch of the folly that's apt to go along
with it; or she would never give the gossips a chance to couple her
name with Garth's. If he is in earnest, so much the worse for her.—We
may count on you, Lenox, I hope?" he added, turning to the impassive
man at his side, whom he had unwittingly smitten between the joints of
his harness.
Lenox's muttered assent was a trifle indistinct, owing to the thick
pipe-stem between his teeth, and rising deliberately, he passed out of
the smoking-room into the wistaria-shadowed verandah, where the
turbulent voice of the river seemed to echo his own mood. It was well
for himself, and for James Garth also, that he ran no risk of meeting
the man at that moment.
The thought of that first fortnight in June unnerved him. For Colonel
Mayhew's words had done more than turn the knife in an open wound.
Lenox was blest, or curst, with that most pitiless of mentors, a Scotch
conscience. Whatever Quita's failings, or her attitude to himself,
there could be no shelving the fact that he was her husband:—the
guardian of her good name, the one man on earth who could claim the
right to criticise her conduct. Her probable repudiation both of his
criticism, and his right to offer it, did not, in his view, justify him
in standing aloof, if need for speech should arise. Possibly passion,
smouldering at the heart of duty, urged him towards the desperate
experiment. But if so, he would not admit it, even to himself. He
merely decided—with an access of fastidious disgust at the whole
situation—to accept this fate-sent opportunity for judging how far her
behaviour warranted Colonel Mayhew's kindly concern. For he knew
enough of Garth and his methods to feel certain that, in his case, to
covet an invitation was to procure it.
After all, he reflected bitterly, a closer acquaintance with facts
might cure him of an infatuation against which pride and inherited
instinct had rebelled ill vain: and so intricate are the mazes of
self-deception, that he firmly believed in his own desire to be cured.
It was, no doubt, solely in pursuance of this purpose that, a few days
later, he added his initials, with a wry face of resignation, to a
subscription list, proposing that the bachelors of the station should
give a ball on the third of June. He had not seen the inside of a
ballroom for years: but since the season seemed marked for strange
experiences, this one might as well be included with the rest. And in
the meantime, this inconsistent misogynist slept little, smoked
inordinately, and spent the greater part of his leisure at Terah
Cottage. Perhaps this also was part of the cure!
Desmond noted the fact, not without an occasional spark of annoyance.
For all his magnanimity, the man was masculine to the core;
hot-blooded, and still very much a lover at heart. But pride and a
boundless trust in the woman he had won had withheld him as yet from
serious comment.
Lenox dined with them on the night of the dance; and came armed with
programmes, at Honor's request.
"Are you going to give me my share before we start?" he asked, as they
shook hands.
"If I do, will you try to dance?"
He laughed abruptly. "Not I. It would be a sight to make angels weep!
I shall take you right away from the whole thing, and talk to
you—that's all. Is that good enough?"
"Quite good enough!"
He scanned an open programme with perplexed interest, as though it were
an Egyptian hieroglyph.
"How long do each of these things last?" he asked, with evident
amusement.
"About twelve minutes, with the pause."
"What's the good of twelve minutes? Can't I have them in batches,
three at a time. Or would that be going quite out of bounds?"
Honor laughed. . . . "I'm afraid so! Though it would be far nicer.
But I will give you one 'batch,' and two isolated ones; and that's a
generous allowance, I assure you."
"Thanks.—I suppose Desmond takes you in to supper?"
"Yes. It's a standing engagement! Why don't you ask Miss Maurice?"
There was a moment of silence.
"We are not intimate enough for that," he answered, with a bad
imitation of unconcern; and Honor wondered, as she had done before now,
wherein lay the key to a curiosity-provoking situation. But just then
Desmond joined them; and no more was said.
The moment they entered the ballroom Lenox was aware of his wife,—the
focal point in a circle of men, distributing her favours with a smiling
impartiality that was, in itself, a delicate form of coquetry, while
Garth stood sentinel beside her, with an unmistakable suggestion of 'No
Thoroughfare,' which he could assume to a nicety; and which Lenox noted
with a curse at the restrictions imposed upon civilised man.
But a second glance at Quita crowded all else out of his mind. It was
his first sight of her in full evening dress, and he stood spellbound
by the radiant quality of her charm: a charm that triumphed over minor
imperfections of feature and form; a mental and spiritual vitality that
had deepened rather than diminished with the years. Her dress, like
everything about her, was an instinctive expression of herself: though
Lenox, while appreciating its harmony, could not have defined it in set
terms. He knew that it was of velvet; that it sheathed her rounded
slenderness as a rind sheathes its fruit; that the light and shade on
its surface, as she moved, reminded him of willows in a wind; that,
from shoulder to hem, the eye was nowhere checked, the simplicity of
outline nowhere marred by objectless incidents of adornment. He noted
also that its indefinite colour was repeated in a row of aquamarines,
that glistened like drops of sea-water at her throat.
A light touch on his arm recalled him to outward things.
"Captain Lenox, where are your manners?" Honor Desmond remonstrated,
with laughter in her eyes. "The Mayhews have just gone past, and you
looked straight through them! Is that the way you welcome your guests?"
He muttered an incoherent apology, and fervently hoped that she had not
observed the direction of his gaze. A vain hope, seeing that she was a
woman!
"Better get safe into the card-room before I do anything worse!" he
added uneasily. "I'll be back for number five. Trust me not to
forget."
As he crossed the barn of a room,—lavishly draped with bazaar bunting,
and starred with radiating bayonets,—his eyes lighted on Kenneth
Malcolm, the Engineer subaltern, whose current of courtship had been
checked by Maurice's arrival on the scene:—a boy of stalwart build;
his straight features and well-poised head justifying the sobriquet of
Apollo, bestowed upon him by an effusive admirer, whose sole reward had
been a cordial detestation. He leaned against the wall, absently
twirling the cord of his programme; his attention centred on a corner
of the room, where Elsie Mayhew—an incarnate moonbeam of a girl—was
critically examining the pattern on her fan, while Maurice possessed
himself of her programme, and sprinkled it liberally with the letter M.
In the boy's bottled-up resentment Lenox saw a reflection of his own;
and the fact moved him to scorn rather than sympathy.
"Damned idiots, both of us!" he reflected savagely. "A couple of dogs
whose bones have been confiscated, and we haven't even the pluck to
snarl."
The opening valse struck up as he reached the cardroom. Without
looking directly at his wife, he saw Garth's arm encircle her waist,
saw him hold her thus, for an appreciable moment, before starting; and
sat down to the whist table with murder in his heart.
At number five he re-entered the ballroom to claim Honor Desmond for
his 'batch' of dances, and to take her, as he had said, right away from
it all. She found him little inclined for talk; yet none the less
quick to appreciate her understanding of his mood.
"Thank you for bearing with me," he said, as they parted in one of the
many doorways opening on to the long verandah. "I won't come in. I am
in the humour for the profound philosophies of tobacco and the stars."
"Better companions than a mere woman!" she answered, smiling into the
gravity of his eyes. "Don't deny it. I have no taste for lip service."
"Nor I the smallest gift for it. Still, truth is truth; and a good
deal depends on the quality of—the mere woman."
She vouchsafed him the stateliest shadow of a curtsey.
"I believe I shall end in converting you, after all! Number twelve.
Don't forget."
And turning from him she saw that her husband stood a few paces off,
watching them with a thoughtful scrutiny that caught at her heart.
Gliding across the polished floor, she slipped a hand under his elbow,
and leaned close to him.
"Darling," she whispered, "I am so glad this is ours." Without a word,
he put his arm round her, and swept her into the crowd.
For a while Lenox followed them with his eyes, as they circled smoothly
in and out among the dancers, as notable a couple as the room
contained. Then he raked the shifting crowd for Quita's grey-green
figure,—in vain. Neither she nor Garth was to be seen. It needed
small perspicacity to locate them: and grinding his teeth Lenox went
out again into a night jewelled with the unnumbered bonfires of the
universe. Striking a match, he lit his pipe, in defiance of the
knowledge that for the past few weeks he had been persistently
overstepping his self-imposed allowance, and fell to pacing the railed
path outside the building.
Was it altogether his own fault, he wondered bitterly, that he stood
thus, cut off from the core of life, breaking his teeth upon the husks
of it, and making believe that they satisfied his hunger? In the
tragedies resulting from 'the ill-judged execution of the well-judged
plan of things,' that question flung, again and again into the
'derisive silence of eternity,' mocks the soul with echo's answer.
Where lies the blame? Where, indeed? For all his vaunted supremacy
man is not always master of his fate. Circumstance, heredity, the
despicable trifle, the inexpert finger, which a certain type of human
is so zealous to thrust into an alien life, compass him about with a
cloud of witnesses to his own impotence.
With which conclusion, softened by the kindly influence of drugged
tobacco, Lenox knocked the ashes out of his pipe; and decided that
since he was here to observe his wife and Garth, and to cure himself of
an undignified infatuation, it would be well to return to the ballroom
till number twelve.
But as he moved forward a low laugh, near at hand, chained him to the
spot. Then Quita emerged from a patch of shadow, closely followed by
Garth. She tilted her chin, and flung a smiling threat at him over her
shoulder.
"If you can't be more reasonable, I shall cancel your remaining dances
and give them to the Riley boy." Which announcement brought him
swiftly to her side; and Lenox failed to catch his murmured reply.
They passed on without perceiving him; and he followed . . . merely
from a sense of duty!
At one of the open doorways, that flung panels of light across the
verandah, they paused; and he paused also, a few paces off. The
couples within were forming themselves into ordered squares.
"Lancers," she said, in a tone of distaste.
"Are you dancing them?" he asked.
"No."
"Come and sit out again, then; and I'll be as reasonable as you please."
She glanced quickly round the room, as if in search of something.
"Very well," she said: and turning on the threshold, came face to face
with her husband.
With a scarcely perceptible start, she acknowledged his grave bow of
recognition, and drew back to let him pass. But he remained close
enough to catch what followed.
"I'd rather dance than sit out, after all," she announced, with a brisk
change of manner.
"But, dear lady, . . . why?"
She laughed. "What a question! I thought you pretended to know
something about women? I claim the divine right of whim. Voila,
tout! One can't spend the evening in explanation. The spirit moves
me to romp. It's infinitely more wholesome than mooning under the
stars. All we want now is a cheery vis-a-vis. Ah . . . there's
Michel. The very man!"
She signalled across the room with her fan, and Michael came skidding
and slithering towards her, a delighted girl clinging to his arm:—a
girl in the glamour of her first season, a-thrill to her white kid
finger-tips because these rested on the sleeve of a living artist, who
had already paid her one or two chivalry-coated compliments.
"Now why the deuce did she weather-cock round like that?" Lenox
wondered, floundering in the quicksands of masculine ignorance.
But no answer suggested itself; because this woman, who was his, and
yet not his,—this woman, with her many-hued personality, rich in
subtle contradictions—was a sealed book to him, and seemed like to
remain so. And what, after all, are the hearts that beat closest to
our own but sealed books, which we open from time to time, at random;
too often at the wrong page? But a ballroom is no fit place for
abstract meditation. The lust of eye and ear, the pride of life,
challenge the sense at every turn, till mere thought seems a mighty
bloodless affair.
Lenox moved back to the doorway, leaned against the woodwork, and
folding his arms, surveyed the scene before him with the apathetic
interest of the large and mystified. The long room was crowded with
jumbled atoms of colour, like a damaged kaleidoscope; with talk and
laughter; with the whisper of sweeping skirts, and the clink of spurs.
Then the first provocative bars set every foot in motion; and the
kaleidoscope effect was complete.
Lenox,—towering isolated, amid a world of light-hearted couples,—was
aware that beneath his surface indifference there lurked a certain
shamefaced envy of these bewildering mortals who could shuffle off the
years, and revert, unabashed, to the entrancing follies of childhood;
and who could yet, in lucid intervals, grapple undismayed with
intricacies of Indian legislation, lead a forlorn hope, love and suffer
and die, if need be, with a stiff lip, and an obstinate faith in 'the
ultimate decency of things.' For of a truth, the earth holds no more
fantastic farrago of folly and heroism than your average human being;
and musing on these things, Lenox decided that there must have been
some radical flaw in his own education.
Not twenty feet away, the General himself—the host-in-chief of the
evening—condemned, despite increasing years and girth, to the Eton
jacket of boyhood, pranced and glided with elaborate precision, and
took every opportunity of twirling plump little Mrs Mayhew almost off
her feet. Both laughed inordinately at each repetition of the mild
joke: and if the C.B. blazing on the General's mess-jacket, and the
little lady's full-grown daughter contrasted oddly with their passing
display of childishness, both were serenely blind to the fact.
But among a hundred dancers, not one plunged more whole-heartedly into
the folly of the moment than Quita. She had stationed herself opposite
the door where Lenox stood, and the very spirit of devilry seemed to
have entered into her, driving her to italicise every trait in herself
that must needs grate on his fastidiousness where a woman's conduct was
concerned. Her effervescent gaiety dominated the 'set,' which speedily
degenerated into a romp till, in the third figure, an incident occurred
which partially brought her to her senses.
The room reeled and hummed with spinning circles, like living
Katherine-wheels, when Quita,—losing her precarious hold upon her
partner's coat-sleeve, and flying outward, by a natural impetus that
must have sent her crashing against the woodwork of the door,—found
herself caught, and steadied by her husband's hands at her waist. For
a lightning instant he held her thus—breathless and throbbing, like a
bird prisoned in his grasp: then he straightened himself, and let fall
his empty hands.
"I am sorry," he muttered, barely looking at her. "But I was afraid
you might hurt yourself."
"Thank you. It was very stupid of me."
She left him hurriedly, red-hot vexation tingling in her cheeks: and
when next the Katherine-wheels spun about, she remained stationary,
smiling and waving her hand in answer to repeated invitations to "come
on."
Lenox remained stationary also, though the whole scene had suddenly
become hateful to him: for that moment of contact, and the rush of
colour to his wife's face, had roused him to the need for immediate
action. Thus, when a final mad galop scattered the coherent atoms of
the kaleidoscope, he intercepted Quita and her partner, as they hurried
out to secure a favourite nook.
But the polite formula of the ballroom did not spring readily to his
lips.
"Have you a spare dance to give me?" he asked bluntly. "Since you
evidently don't object to sitting out."
His tone had in it more of demand than of request, an effect heightened
by his deliberate omission of her name; and against his will annoyance
lurked in the last words. But some men have a positive talent for
standing in their own light.
For a second or two her eyes challenged his in mute amazement. Each
seemed trying to read the other's thought. But pride darkens insight:
and at the critical moment a slight movement of the arm she held
reminded her of Garth's glimpse behind the scenes. She pulled herself
together, and made an obvious feint of consulting her programme.
"If you really wanted one, you should have spoken earlier," she rebuked
him lightly. "I'm afraid I haven't so much as half an extra to offer
you now."
He accepted his dismissal with a curt bow of acknowledgment.
"Thought I wanted to make love to her, no doubt," he reflected
savagely, as he moved away. And she passed on into the verandah,
wondering . . . wondering why he had wanted that dance, and whether she
would have thrown some one over for him, but for Garth's opportune
reminder at her elbow.
On the opening of the next dance, Lenox sought and found Honor Desmond,
silently offered his arm, and led her through the verandah out into the
starshine,—which is a reality in India, on moonless nights.
"What a thundering relief it is to get away from it all!" he said at
length. "Would it bother you to stroll a little way up the hill? We
shall be crowded out here, in no time; and I must have another pipe."
"Let's stroll then, by all means. I should enjoy it; and you know how
I love tobacco. I saw you looking on at that dance; and I rather
envied you. I often wish I could set aside a few dances just for
looking on, without having to make talk for any one. People interest
me so passionately; always have done, since I can remember."
"Even Button Quails, and black-hearted woman-haters?"
"Yes. Especially the woman-haters; because they need converting!"
"And are unconvertible," Lenox declared with a laugh. "But don't you
ever get sickened with the deadly sameness of the whole tribe of
us,—grinding ourselves to dust in the eternal treadmill of hatred and
love, hope and despair? Every conceivable human complication has been
repeated ad nauseam since Adam made a fool of himself in the garden
of Eden."
"And through all that endless sameness, no two men and women have ever
behaved twice alike! That's where the interest comes in, don't you
see? To-night, for instance, Miss Maurice and that pretty child Elsie
Mayhew are both wasting their sweetness on men quite unworthy of them;
but each is doing the same thing in a fashion so entirely her own, that
it is not like looking on at the same play at all. I am specially
concerned over the Mayhew muddle, for I believe that handsome Engineer
boy is capable of breaking his heart in earnest because Elsie has lost
hers pro tem.,—engaging little goose that she is. Really I
sometimes think that the man and woman puzzle is just an endless game
of cross questions and crooked answers!"
Lenox laughed again, harshly.
"That's a straight shot!" he said. "It's a mad world; and the maddest
creature in it is the man who stakes his happiness on the state of a
woman's heart."
Honor slipped her hand from his arm.
"Really, Captain Lenox," she protested, half-laughing, half in earnest,
"that remark almost amounts to an insult! What do you suppose Theo
would say if he heard you?"
"Wouldn't stop to pick his language," Lenox answered with a twisted
smile. "But his testimony counts for nothing. He has found the one
woman among a thousand, that even Solomon failed to find; and the Lord
knows he didn't judge them from hearsay!"
The sincerity underlying his bluntness brought the blood to Honor's
cheeks. "Theo has simply found—a woman who loves him," she answered
softly. "A discovery most men can make if they choose; even rank
heretics like you! Will you forgive me, I wonder, if I say that I
believe the thing you really need, though you may not guess it,
is . . . a woman in your life?"
Lenox did not answer: and they walked on for a time in silence.
"Have I vexed you?" Honor asked at length.
"No. You touched an exposed nerve. That was all. And I should like
you to know the truth now; or at least part of it.—Five years ago I
did take . . . a woman into my life, as you put it; and I have never
known real peace or comfort since."
Honor started, and turned upon him a face of incredulity.
"Captain Lenox! Do you mean—have you actually—been married?"
"I actually am married, in the eyes of the law, at least. What's more,
my wife is here, in Dalhousie, in that cursed ballroom,—with neither
my name nor my ring to protect her—playing the fool for the amusement
or perdition of another chap. You spoke of her a minute ago. I need
hardly say more, need I?"
"No, no. I understand it all now," she murmured, deeply moved. "Then
that was why you wanted to go away last month?"
"Yes."
"And I stupidly made things harder, in my blind zeal to help you?"
"No, indeed. You simply convinced me, without suspecting it, that it
would be cowardly to bolt at sight. Besides, it would have amounted to
an open confession that—one cared."
"And don't you—care?"
Lenox clenched his teeth upon an inarticulate sound; and his amber
mouthpiece snapped like a stick of sealing-wax. He took the pipe from
his mouth; eyed it ruefully, and slipped it into his breast-pocket.
"A good friend gone," he muttered. "And all on account of a woman who
doesn't care a snap of the fingers whether one is alive or dead."
"In my opinion that remains to be proved."
"Does it? Isn't her conduct with that confounded ladykiller proof
enough to convince you?"
"No."
"Well, then, look here. Ten minutes ago I went so far as to ask her
for a dance. She gave me the snub direct: and she'll not get a chance
to refuse another request of mine—that's certain."
Honor's lips lifted at the corners.
"I wonder what tone of voice you asked her in?" was all she said.
"Quite the wrong one, no doubt. I was in no humour for going on my
knees. But she knew right enough that I wouldn't have risked refusal,
unless I was very keen on the dance."
"All the same, you will give her another chance. You must. No act
of folly on her part can make it right for you to leave her in such a
false position."
"The position was her own choice,—not mine."
"One could guess as much. Yet the fact remains that she is—yours, to
make or mar: and it seems to me no less than your duty to pocket your
pride, and save her from her own foolishness in spite of herself."
Lenox drew an audible breath, like a man in pain.
"You do know how to hit between the eyes," he said very low. "But—I
have suffered enough at her hands."
"And has she suffered nothing—at yours?"
Honor's voice was scarcely louder than his own, and her pulses throbbed
at her own daring. Lenox stood stock-still, and looked at her.
"Upon . . my . . soul," he said slowly, "you are a stunning woman!
I . . ."
"Please don't think I meant you to answer such a question," she broke
in hurriedly, with flaming cheeks.
"Of course not. You meant it as a reminder that there are two sides to
every question."
"Yes. How nice of you to understand! I have no shadow of right to
take you to task. But when the fate of two lives seems hanging on a
thread, one dare not keep silence.—Now, I think we ought to turn back.
And I wonder if you would mind telling me a little about your wife,"
she added, with diplomatic intent to prolong his softened mood. "She
is so charming; so individual. But I haven't been able to get at her
at all. She seems almost to dislike me; and I am just beginning to
guess why."
"Nonsense . . . nonsense," he protested brusquely. "You are entirely
mistaken."
"That also remains to be proved!"
They retraced their steps down the rough path that descends from the
Mall to the Assembly Rooms, walking very slowly, as people do when
absorbed. Honor, with all a woman's skill, imparted a flavour of
reminiscence to their talk; and no man with a spark of love in his
heart can hold out, for long, against the magic suggestiveness of
memory. For all his guarded indifference of manner, she felt the ice
melting under her touch: and the passionate human interest, of which
she had already spoken, held her, to exclusion of such minor
trivialities as possibly distracted partners. For this woman, the
human note,—be it never so untuneful—surpassed the sublimest music
plucked from the heart of wood or wire.
Arrived on the gravel ledge outside the building, they paused in a
shaft of light, still intent on their subject; till the inspiriting
rhythm of a polka shattered the stillness, and Honor, turning hastily,
caught sight of an erect figure in the doorway behind her.
"There's Theo. He seems to be looking for me," she said. "Why, we
must have talked through two dances. Come."
But at the foot of the verandah steps Lenox held out his hand.
"The evening is ended for me. I am going straight home, to think over
all you have said. I'll be round by ten to-morrow. Good-night—and
thank you."
He italicised the last words by a vigorous hand-clasp; and a moment
later she stood in the doorway, confronting her husband. A glance at
his face put her laughing apology to flight.
"I tell you what it is, Honor," he broke out hotly, "you're going too
far altogether. Here has Maurice been letting half Dalhousie know that
he couldn't find you anywhere; and the last dance—was mine. Heaven
knows where you buried yourselves. I didn't attempt to look. Lenox
has no business to monopolise you in this way. Woman-hater, indeed!"
"It was not his fault," she flashed out, in an impulse more generous
than wise: but her blood was as quick to take fire as his own.
"Then it was yours, which is fifty times worse."
Honor lifted her head with a superb dignity of gesture.
"As you please," she said quietly. "It is useless to attempt
explanation here, or anywhere, till you are more . . like yourself."
Returning couples were by now besieging the doorway; and she passed on
into the ballroom, her head still high, her lips compressed, lest
others should note their tendency to quiver. A woman who loves the man
of her choice with every fibre of her being does not readily forget,
though she may forgive, his first rough words to her.
Honor was claimed at once by Kenneth Malcolm, a favourite partner, boy
though he was. But the keen edge of her interest was blunted. She
wanted one thing only to be alone with Theo; to set his mind at rest:
and those 'separated selves,' who drew her like nothing else on earth,
became of a sudden mere voluble obstructions between herself and her
desire.
Half an hour later she came up to him, where he stood, laughing and
talking in a group of men.
"I am tired, Theo," she said in a low tone. "Mr Maurice is getting my
dandy for me. But don't come away if you'd rather stop on."
Their eyes locked for an instant.
"Is that likely?" he asked, a gleam in his own.
"I don't know."
"You do know. Look sharp and get your things on."
Michael Maurice did not hurry himself over the congenial task of
settling his deesse veritable among the cushions of her dandy,—a
hybrid conveyance, half canoe, half cane lounge, slung from the
shoulders of four men, by an ingenious arrangement of straps and cross
poles. Closer acquaintance had deepened his admiration: but a nameless
something in her manner warned him that it must not be expressed in his
usual promiscuous fashion. She had refused, very sweetly but
decisively, the honour of appearing in his great picture. But Desmond
had succumbed to the temptation of procuring a portrait of her and
'little Paul.' "At the worst, I can sell a pony to pay for it," he had
said, in answer to her remonstrance. "And I shall think it cheap at
the price!"
And now, as the dandy-bearers turned to mount the ascent, he came to
his wife's side. She had drawn off her gloves, and one hand rested on
the woodwork of her canoe. He covered it with his own, walking by her
thus, for a few steps, in silence: and it was enough.
"Mount now," she commanded him softly. "And let's hurry home, I've
ever so much to tell you."
He obeyed: and they journeyed upward to familiar music of hoof-beats,
and the murmur of jhampannies, wrapt about by the magic of a night so
still that all the winds seemed to have gone round with the sun to the
other side of the world.
A tray set with glass and silver awaited them in the drawing-room.
Honor, entering first, slipped the long cloak from her shoulders with a
satisfied sigh, a sense of passing from the unreal to the real, which
she often experienced on returning from a dance: and underlying all, a
profound pity for the lone and ill-mated women, in a world of oddments
and misfits, who have never felt the thrill of such home-comings as
this of hers to-night. Then she swept round, and fronted her
husband:—a gleaming figure, like a statue cut in ivory; no colour
anywhere, save the living tints of her face and eyes and hair.
"Well?" she laughed, on a low clear note of happiness. "I hope you are
properly ashamed of yourself!"
But before the words were out, he had her in his arms; and for a
supreme moment the great illusion was theirs that they were not two,
but one, as the Book decrees.
Then she pushed him gently into a chair, and kneeling beside him drew
his arm around her, resting her head against his in a fashion
inexpressibly tender. The natural dignity that was hers set a high
value on such sweet familiarities: and if Desmond submitted to them in
silence, it was because the man in him was too deeply moved for speech.
Then she told him, at some length, all that she had gleaned of the past
and present relations between Lenox and his wife.
"Now, do you see how I came to lose sight of everything for the time
being?" she concluded, smiling up at him. "So far as I can gather,
things seem to be at a deadlock, unless one can persuade him to take
the first step forward."
"And you want to play Providence, as usual? Is that it?"
"Don't laugh at me, Theo! I am in earnest. I would gladly move heaven
and earth to put things straight between them."
"But this seems a case of moving a Scot. A far tougher job, I can tell
you!"
"Well, I think I moved him a little to-night; and he is coming round
to-morrow for a ride." Desmond frowned; and she made haste to add;
"Now that is just where I must have your co-operation, Theo, or I can
do nothing. I want you to trust me, and give me a free hand for these
next few weeks. Will you, . . please?"
"Does that mean I am to let you be about with Lenox as much as you
choose?"
"Probably not more than I have been so far. I only want to be sure
that whatever I do you won't speak to me again as you did to-night."
She felt the muscles of his arm tighten.
"I think you may feel sure of that much," he said. "But you are asking
a very hard thing of me, Honor. Lenox is a thorough good chap; and I
don't want to be driven into disliking him. It isn't as if I were a
saint, like Paul. I'm just a man, and a grasping one at that! What's
more, I am very jealous for you; and I have the right to be. Society
doesn't recognise philanthropic motives. It takes you and your acts at
their face value . . ."
"I know, I know,"—she straightened herself impulsively; her hands
clasped, her bare arms laid across his knees. "And I'll be ever so
circumspect, dearest, I promise you. But oh, Theo, . . . don't you
understand? It is just because we are so blessedly happy, you and I,
that the thought of what those two foolish people are missing troubles
me so sorely."
Such an appeal was irresistible. They had lived deeply enough, these
two, to know the real importance of happiness.
"Bless your big heart," he answered warmly. "I understand right
enough. By all means help 'em if you can. I'll not baulk you. But
it's a delicate task; and I don't quite see how you are going to set
about it."
"Nor do I,—yet. One can only trust to intuition, and the inspiration
of the moment. From the little he said, it seems that the first move
ought to come from her: and possibly my intimacy with him may help to
bring her to her senses. Everything depends, of course, on how much
she cares. That's still an unknown quantity. But she dislikes me
already; which is a promising sign!—Now I am going to fill your pipe,
and pour you out a peg; and we'll enjoy ourselves till it's time for
second supper!"
It is just such quiet hours of heart-to-heart intimacy that constitute
true marriage. For in these uneventful moments links are forged and
soldered strong enough to resist the buffeting of storms, or the
deadlier, corrosive influence of those minor miseries which poison the
very core of life.
A handful of stars—visible through the open glass door into the
verandah—had began to pale, when Desmond lifted his wife to her feet,
and blew out the lamp. In the profound stillness their footsteps and
low laughter sounded up the wooden stairs. Then a door shut somewhere
in the house, and the night absorbed them into herself.