The next day was Sunday.
Werner stood at the church door, looking down the road from Eichhof,
along which Thea's carriage was wont to come at this hour.
To-day it did not appear. The tones of the organ, heard through the
open door, died away at last, and Werner entered.
There were none of his comrades there except a young lieutenant, who
had been absent from the garrison the day before, and who could, of
course, know nothing of the events of the previous evening. Werner
hesitated whether or not to look up Lothar after church, but, seeing
the curtains before his windows still closed, he decided not to disturb
him. As he left the church and walked out into the clear winter
sunshine, his mood was very grave, almost solemn.
"I will ride to Eichhof and take leave of Countess Thea," he thought.
"I can do so calmly now, without betraying myself; and the sooner it is
over the better." A quarter of an hour later he was riding along the
broad Eichhof road.
Thea, sitting in the bow-window, saw him coming. Her cheeks did not
flush, her heart beat no faster, as she recognized him. In her pure
unconsciousness of self she had not a shadow of a suspicion of this
man's sentiments towards her. Her first thought was, "How strange that
he should know that Alma is coming here again at noon!" And then she
took up the letter which she had just received and read before
recognizing Werner riding along the road. Was there really nothing more
in it than the few hasty words she had just read? was this all the
answer from Bernhard to the two long letters, filled with every detail
that could interest him, that she had written to her husband? Of course
he must be very busy, his thoughts entirely occupied with the
proceedings of the Reichstag, and his time with his social duties. But
she had so longed for some heartsome words from him; she missed him so
terribly, and she would so gladly have had some little share in his
present life, even although she were so far away from him. She would so
much have liked to know whom he saw most, and what chiefly occupied
him. She had asked him a hundred questions, but for all he had but a
brief indifferent answer. She had often pressed Bernhard's letters to
her lips, but to-day she could not,--something cold and strange seemed
breathing upon her from these few lines: she was chilled. Yes, she had,
she knew, perceived the same thing in all of Bernhard's letters lately,
but what it was she could not tell, she could not explain.
For a moment she had forgotten the approaching guest, and her sad eyes,
half veiled in tears, saw only the leafless branches outside her
window, now glittering with snow. Not until her glance fell upon the
road did she remember Werner, and she blushed, for she feared that if
he found her sad, and with a letter from her husband in her hand, he
might suspect the cause of her melancholy mood. Therefore she hurriedly
thrust the letter into her work-table. When Lieutenant von Werner
entered, she arose and calmly and kindly offered him her hand.
"I am come to take my leave of you," he said, and there was a slight
tremor in the voice usually so firm and clear. "I am ordered to the
military school at S----; and, as I shall be excessively busy during
the next few days, I thought I would employ my Sunday leisure in paying
a farewell visit to Eichhof."
Thea looked at him surprised, and almost alarmed. "Good heavens, so
suddenly!" she exclaimed. "I had no idea that you expected to be
transferred----"
"I did not expect it, although I had asked for it. A happy combination
of circumstances has favoured me."
"You wish to go away, then?"
"I think this transfer is best for me," he replied, passing his hand
across his brow. Never in his life had he felt the atmosphere so
insufferably sultry and close as at this moment.
"Oh, then I will not be sorry that you are transferred, grieved as I
must be for ourselves and for Lothar. Ah, if Bernhard were only at home
again! When you go Lothar will be left entirely to himself."
The introduction of this subject restored Werner's self-possession. He
told Thea that he had become convinced of the impossibility of his
exercising any influence over Lothar, and that this certainty had added
to his desire to be ordered elsewhere. They were still discussing
Lothar, when the noise of carriage-wheels was heard, and Thea arose
with the words, "Ah, there comes my sister!" Werner, too, arose. His
broad forehead flushed crimson, for the moment had come in which he
must say farewell, and he knew that perhaps--yes, most probably--he was
alone with Thea for the last time in his life. He was not in a
condition to carry on an indifferent conversation with her any longer.
"Let me say farewell to you now, madame," he said. "I have several
other visits to pay, and anything so painful as leave-taking should not
be unnecessarily prolonged."
Thea looked up at him in startled wonder, and there was some
embarrassment in her voice as she asked him if he would not stay and
dine.
But she knew as she spoke that he would not accept her invitation. Yes,
she saw it all; she knew now that he loved Alma, and that he wished to
avoid meeting her, since he saw plainly that his affection was not
returned. Filled with compassion and sympathy for him, she held out to
him both her hands, and said, in the firm conviction that his heart lay
open before her, "Go; you are right to go now. God bless you! and
believe that I shall always think of you with warm, genuine
friendship."
He made no reply, but for one short moment pressed her hand to his
trembling lips, and then left the room. On the stairs he met Alma, and
briefly bade her good-by, leaving her as much astonished at his sudden
departure as Thea had been.
Then he flung himself upon his horse, and gave him the spur. He avoided
the roads leading to the town, and turned towards the forest. The swift
gallop cooled his heart and brain, and when he had reached a low hill
whence there was a last view of the castle and park of Eichhof, he
slackened rein and turned for one more look. Then, with a murmured
"Farewell! farewell!" he plunged into the forest, to reach by a
circuitous route a neighbouring estate, where his leave-taking would be
a far easier matter.
He was fleeing, it is true, but his flight was a victory; he had come
off conqueror in the hardest battle in which the human soul can ever
engage,--the strife between passion and duty.
Meanwhile Lothar had awakened from his prolonged morning slumbers, and
endeavoured in vain to recall how he had got home and to bed on the
previous evening. It cost him a considerable amount of resolution to
get up, and when he did so he felt wretched and depressed. Gradually
certain vague memories of last night occurred to his mind. He put his
hand into one of his coat-pockets, then into the other; both were
empty. He shook his head, and finally recollected that he had worn
another coat yesterday. It was hanging over an arm-chair. He proceeded
to search the pockets, and produced a crumpled roll of paper. He opened
it, and sank upon a lounge with an exclamation of despair.
The paper contained an acknowledgment for the round sum of ten thousand
marks, which he had lost in the course of the night at play, and which
he had pledged his honour should be paid within a week. Lothar stared
at the characters on the crumpled sheet. Ten thousand marks! Payable
within a week! Here was an overwhelming disaster! How had it happened?
He racked his brain to remember; the events of the evening were mere
formless shadows in his dulled remembrance. He had first won, then
lost, and there had been a good deal of champagne drunk; all that was
perfectly simple and commonplace. But this debt! How was it to be paid?
If Bernhard had been at home, he would have gone to him again in spite
of everything that he had said to him. He had always been wont to
rectify in this manner the unjust family traditions that endowed one
son with everything in the way of the goods of this world and left the
others destitute. But Bernhard was away, and must either be sought out
in Berlin or informed by letter of this last terrible debt. And what if
Bernhard refused this time, as he had so often threatened to do, to pay
the debts? Lothar buried his face in his hands, and the moisture stood
in beads upon his forehead. There was but a week before him in which to
adopt any plan of payment; he must decide immediately, and, in common
with all men lacking independence, he was incapable of decision without
consultation with some friend. It is true that he now remembered that
Werner had warned him and that he had rejected his advice; he knew,
too, that of late there had been a certain diminution of the cordial
friendship that had existed between them. But nevertheless it was to
Werner that his thoughts turned in this dire extremity.
"He is the best of fellows, and has proved that he is really my
friend," he thought. "I could not, of course, accept a loan from him
again, aside from the fact that this sum is far beyond his means; but I
will, at all events, ask his advice. One's own perceptions become
clearer when one has talked matters over with a sensible man."
He rose, arranged his dress, and went to Werner's apartments. He found
them closed; but, as the key was hanging up beside the door, Lothar
determined to go in and await the return of his friend or of his
friend's servant, who was also absent. He knew that Werner frequently
went to church, and if he had gone there this morning, and had been
detained, he might come in at any moment. Lothar paced the room to and
fro several times, then went to the window, and finally decided that
this waiting was intolerable. He threw himself upon the small leathern
sofa, and spent some moments lost in gloomy revery; then he sprang
suddenly to his feet again, and as he did so accidentally twitched off
the cover of a small table, so that several books and some papers that
had lain upon it fell upon the ground. With an exclamation of
impatience he stooped to gather them up. A small portfolio had opened
in falling, and several sheets of paper fluttered out of it on to the
floor.
"Cursed scribblings!" muttered Lothar, picking them up. Suddenly his
attention was arrested by one of these, and he looked at it more
closely.
"Why, that is Eichhof," he thought; "there is the fountain, with the
old oaks in the background, the chapel by the pond, and the avenue on
the right. When did he draw this, and what induced him to select
exactly this view?" Suddenly the thought flashed upon him, "This is the
view from Thea's bow-window. How did Werner come by it?"
He stooped for the other sheets, firmly resolved not to look at them.
"Good heavens, 'tis Thea herself!" he exclaimed involuntarily, as he
held the last of them in his hand. "The resemblance is so striking that
it can be seen at a glance. Well, there's surely no reason why I should
not look closely at the picture of my sister-in-law. I did not know
that Werner was such an artist, and still less was I aware that Thea
had been sitting to him. A charming study of a head. I really should
like to know when and where it was drawn. I thought he never went to
Eichhof without me; but he always vexed me with his want of frankness.
Who knows what he has been about while he has been pretending to
study---- Ah!" As he threw the sheet upon the table it turned upon its
face, and upon the other side was written the refrain of a song, "Fair
Marjory," that Thea often sung: "Be still, my heart, be still."
Lothar, who had meant to see and to read nothing, had seen and read
enough to make him stride to and fro in the room like a madman,
muttering in broken sentences, "He loves her,--she has been sitting to
him! Bernhard has neglected her, and Werner has consoled her, while I,
fool, double-dyed fool that I am, suspected nothing! Night and day I
have thought of her, and never dared, not even to myself, to call what
I felt for her by its right name! And now I know that Bernhard is
faithless to her, that Werner is false, and that she, indeed, is no
saint! Was I not half mad for her sake yesterday when Hohenstein went
on telling such fine stories of Bernhard, my worthy brother? Did I not
try to drive away with wine and cards the thoughts that would haunt me?
and at that very time perhaps Werner was with her. Oh, if it were not
so horrible it would be ridiculous,--a silly, ridiculous farce----"
"Has the Herr Lieutenant any orders?" the voice of Werner's servant
suddenly asked just behind him.
"Where is your master?" Lothar asked, roughly.
"The Herr Lieutenant has ridden over to Eichhof. He left word that he
should be gone some time, as he meant to go farther still."
Lothar was gone before the man had finished his sentence.
For a moment he had forgotten his gambling debt: he thought only of
Werner and Thea. His brain seemed on fire; his temples throbbed
violently. Without one distinct idea formed in his mind, he threw
himself upon his horse and rode furiously to Eichhof.
As he dismounted in the court-yard his first question was with regard
to Werner.
"The Herr Lieutenant rode away more than two hours ago," the footman
replied.
Lothar ran up the staircase, and entered Thea's bow-windowed room
almost at the same moment in which the servant announced him. As he did
so an opposite door was hastily closed, and he thought he could hear
the sound of retreating footsteps.
Agitated as he was, no longer master of himself, he took no notice of
Thea, who was sitting at her writing-table and who rose to greet him,
but rushed to the closed door and tore it open, to discover Alma, who
quickened her pace almost to a run as she perceived him. He turned
about, went to Thea, seized her by the wrist, and said, with flashing
eyes, "Has Alma been here all day long?"
Thea tried to free her hand from his grasp.
"What is the matter, Lothar?" she asked, alarmed by his expression and
his strange conduct. "What do you want with Alma?"
"Why did she hurry away as though there was some mystery to conceal?"
"Good heavens! she went to lay aside her wraps. I had detained her here
to read a letter."
"A letter? What letter?"
Thea shook her head and tried to smile.
"It was nothing," she said; "nothing worth mentioning," but her lip
quivered.
Lothar still gazed at her with eyes that were menacing and yet
unutterably sad.
"But that is not what I would ask," he said, retreating a step or two
without turning his eyes from her face. "I pray you tell me,--how long
have you been receiving Werner's visits,--how long have you known that
he loves you?"
"Lothar!" she almost screamed, involuntarily steadying herself by the
table as if she needed a support; every trace of colour faded from her
face, and she muttered beneath her breath, "He is mad!"
Hitherto Lothar had been convinced of the truth of his suspicions. But
now that he had hurled the base inquiry in Thea's face, as it were, now
that she had made him no reply save by an indignant and terrified
exclamation, he suddenly doubted, and as he looked at her the
conviction of her perfect innocence overwhelmed him with irresistible
force.
"Answer me, Thea! for God's sake answer me!" he implored her. "Tell me
it was all a phantom of my disordered fancy. I know that Werner was
here alone to-day,--that he has taken your picture, that he loves you;
but tell me that you are innocent, and I will believe it. Only speak,
speak! I implore you!"
Thea looked fixedly at him; she saw the entreaty in his eyes and the
agony expressed in all his features.
"You are ill, Lothar," she said, "and therefore I will answer your
wild questions. Werner came to Eichhof for the first time without you
to-day. He came to take leave of me, since he is ordered to the
military school of S----. What you say about a picture is as
unintelligible to me as all the rest of your words."
"Werner going away! I knew nothing of it."
"His orders arrived only last evening. You were still sleeping this
morning when he called for you. And now go to your room and lie down:
your eyes show that you have fever. I will send a servant to you."
She put her hand upon the bell, but Lothar stayed her as she was about
to ring.
"Forgive me, Thea," he begged. "I have suffered so much!"
"You are still suffering, for you are ill."
"No, no! I am well enough, only--but I will not speak of myself. Thea,
tell me one thing, are you happy? Does Bernhard write often, and are
his letters what they should be?"
Thea's cheeks flushed and grew pale; her hands trembled as she
collected, with nervous haste, the various letters lying upon her
table, and which Lothar, who watched her narrowly, could see were
postmarked 'Berlin.'
For a moment she could not reply in words, but Lothar, believing that
he read an answer in her face to his words, cried, "Oh, I see,--you
know it all! They have written you all about it from Berlin, have they
not?"
"Hush!" she said, imperatively, her face dyed with a burning blush.
"How dare you touch upon that subject?"
"Oh, it is just that which drove me mad,--which made me dream what I
said of Werner possible," Lothar exclaimed, passionately. "I knew how
unhappy you must be. I hate Bernhard for it, but I hated Werner still
more, because I thought that in your misery you----"
Thea had turned away, and in silent indignation would have left the
room, but Lothar interposed between her and the door, and, throwing
himself at her feet, cried, "Forgive me! forgive me! My sin is my
excuse; for I love you, Thea, I love you! more--far more--than all the
rest!"
Suddenly he sprang to his feet. A servant entered with some commonplace
message.
Lothar stood for a moment as though paralyzed. He heard the man's voice
and then Thea's as though from some vast distance, and when he looked
around Thea had vanished, and the servant was asking whether the Herr
Lieutenant would drive home in the open wagon or the covered carriage.
For an instant Lothar stared at him in bewilderment. Then he passed his
hand across his brow. "No; the Countess's kindness is unnecessary," he
said, when the explanation of the scene dawned upon him. "I am no
longer giddy, and I can ride home."
He left the room, and in the hall he encountered Alma, who had dried
her tears and bathed her eyes.
"Farewell, my dear Alma," he said, with a deliberate gravity, almost a
solemnity of manner, quite foreign to him.
"Are you going away?" the girl asked, all unconsciously, and impressed
by this strange mood of his.
"Going away? No--that is--yes--perhaps so. At all events, I bid you
farewell."
She heard him go down the stairs slowly and heavily. A sudden
inexplicable foreboding weighed upon her like lead. She felt as though
some evil threatened him, and she longed to avert it, to call him back.
She started to do so, when she heard the voices of the servants in the
hall below, and reflected that she did not know what to say to him. She
ran into the bow-windowed room, and looked down the avenue. A flock of
crows hovered above it; they were the only living things in sight. Alma
waited. One of the crows that had alighted in the road flew into the
air, and instantly afterward a lonely horseman rode along between the
snow-clad trees. Alma pressed her forehead against the window-panes,
but the rider never turned to look towards the castle. His head was
bent forward on his breast, and he seemed to pay no heed to his horse.
Like some shadow horse and rider appeared and disappeared at regular
intervals among the poplars lining the avenue. Alma gazed after them
until the last glimpse of Lothar had vanished in the wintry mist that
had begun to veil the landscape.
"Farewell," she whispered, and her heart was as heavy as if she had
parted from him forever.
Suddenly she roused herself from her revery. "How selfish I am!" she
thought. "I stand dreaming here, thinking of all kinds of impossible
misfortunes, while Thea is alone. Ah, we have enough real sorrow to
bear! There is no need to invent fancied woes." She went to look for
her sister, whom she had some difficulty in finding.
Thea had retained sufficient self-possession to tell the servant that
her brother-in-law was ill, and to order a carriage for him; and then,
like some scared bird, she had flown through the castle, and taken
refuge in the conservatory adjoining the drawing-room. Here she sank
upon a seat,--the same seat where she had so often sat with Bernhard
before their marriage. She pressed her hands upon her throbbing heart,
and then upon her eyes, which were dry, hot, and tearless. Could all
that had happened in the last hour be real? The wild, insane words in
which Lothar had told her of Werner's love and of his own still rang in
her ears. Could such things be? Had she in her utter unconsciousness so
deceived herself? Or had Lothar actually spoken in the delirium of
fever? She sighed heavily. These questions, press upon her as they
might, vanished before that other: Was it possible that she had lost
Bernhard's heart,--nay, that perhaps she had never possessed it,--that
he had deceived her from the first? "No," her own heart answered, "that
cannot be! And yet----" She selected a letter from among those she had
gathered up from her table and brought hither with her, and read it
once more. It was from Adela Hohenstein, and addressed to Alma, who had
taken it from the post on her way to Eichhof that morning, and had read
it in the carriage. She had been unable to conceal from her sister the
agitation its contents had produced. Thea had questioned her,
suspecting that she had heard some news of Bernhard, and Alma had
finally been induced to show her the letter. Adela wrote in her usual
thoughtless harum-scarum way all that she had heard and seen of
Bernhard. She had frequently, at the house of one of her relatives, met
Bernhard and Julutta Wronsky together, and her letter was evidently
written in the first flush of her anger after one of these occasions.
"Let me tell Thea that for at least a year she ought never even to
condescend to look at that husband of hers," she wrote upon the last
page, "and then perhaps he may come to learn that she is a thousand
times prettier and better and lovelier than this detestable Frau von
Wronsky. For I have learned thus much of the world, that men like to be
ill-treated; they make all the good women unhappy, but they will lay
down their lives for the worthless ones. Papa is the only exception; it
does not spoil him to be loved and petted. He is kinder and dearer than
words can tell; but all other men are monsters, your Bernhard as well
as the rest." Then there was a postscript:
"Dearest Alma, for heaven's sake don't give Thea my message. I have
reflected that it can only do mischief. She is married to him, and they
must get along together as they best can. It can do no kind of good for
other people to meddle and talk. I would tear up this letter, but it is
well that you at least should know what men are worth, and every word
that I have written is true. So I send my letter just as it is, and
only beg you to say nothing to Thea about it.
"P. S. the second. À propos, yesterday I met Walter in the street,
and I stopped him and asked him to come and see us. Do you know what
his reply was? 'I am very sorry, Fräulein von Hohenstein' (that is what
he called me), 'that my studies leave me no time for visiting.' What do
you think of that? Just like men in general, and the Eichhofs in
particular."
At another time this letter of Adela's might not have made such an
impression upon Thea as it had produced to-day, when her heart was
filled with doubts and fears with regard to Bernhard. Had she not
foreboded all that Adela had written?
Still, after she had re-read the letter, it might perhaps not have
affected her so deeply as at first had not the tidings it contained
been confirmed by Lothar's wild words. Bernhard's conduct was then
striking enough to be a theme for Berlin gossip! Oh, if only his
devotion had been shown towards any other woman! But that he should
turn to this Frau von Wronsky, with whom he had at first denied all
acquaintance, and afterwards confessed to it under such strange
circumstances; that it should be she, the woman with whom Bernhard had
desired that his wife might have as little intercourse as possible!
Thea's thoughts were in a whirl,--an abyss seemed yawning between
Bernhard and herself which all her love could not bridge over. She
raised her eyes. Above her trembled the mysterious fantastic blossom of
the orchid to which Bernhard had once compared the Countess Wronsky.
Ah, whither had they gone, those bright summer days when he had called
Thea his rose of May and had promised to surround her with perpetual
sunshine?
"If this is all true, he does not deserve that I should weep for him,"
she said, aloud. "No, he does not deserve it," she repeated, firmly,
closing her quivering lips. But then she thought of her child, of her
lost happiness, of her lonely youth, and she wept bitterly.
Thus Alma found her at length, and led her back to the bow-windowed
room, where a lamp was now lighted.
"Do not speak," Thea entreated, and Alma only put her arms about her
and held her in a tender embrace. But Thea was restless. She sprang up
and went to her child. Even there she could not stay long, but returned
to the bow-windowed room, and paced it hurriedly to and fro. She could
not talk to her young sister of what was agitating her. Why, she seemed
to herself almost guilty when she remembered Lothar's passionate words.
Lothar,--there was another dark spot in her thoughts! Ah! from all
sides black clouds were gathering above her, and she could do nothing
save wait quietly until the tempest broke. She was condemned to quiet,
and what could be more horrible in her present agitation?
Alma felt that the struggle in Thea's soul must be fought out alone.
She went silently hither and thither, looked after the child, presided
at the tea-table, and only now and then approached her sister to press
her hand or to imprint a kiss upon her forehead. She went to the window
and looked out into the night, now illumined by the rising moon. Her
heart was filled with a yearning melancholy, and, reproach herself for
it as she might at such a time, she could not restrain her thoughts
from deserting Thea and centring about Lothar. He had looked so
strange, so disturbed, when he had spoken that last 'farewell.'
Suddenly her attention was attracted towards the avenue, which lay like
burnished silver beneath the moon. Was there not a shadow stirring
there? And could she not distinguish the sound of horses' hoofs? She
peered eagerly out, but the moonlight was deceptive,--she might be
mistaken. Then she heard doors closing below and steps coming through
the antechamber. Thea had sunk into the arm-chair at her writing-table,
and with pen in hand was pondering upon a letter which she believed it
her duty to write, and for which she could find not only no words but
not even one clear idea. Alma hastened to the door.
"Who is there?" she asked, so quickly that Thea looked up startled.
"Herr Lieutenant von Werner begs----" the entering servant began.
"Lieutenant Werner,--how, so late?" Alma repeated, and her slight
figure trembled as she added, beneath her breath, "That means
misfortune."
Thea had risen. "What, what is coming now?" she thought. "Show Herr von
Werner up!" she said, in a sharp tone of command very unlike her. But
Herr von Werner had followed close upon the footman's heels, and stood
at the door. Alma could not utter a word; she only gazed anxiously into
his pale face, and steadied herself by an arm-chair as though she were
afraid of falling. Thea went firmly to meet him. She had never borne
herself so proudly, her dark eyes had never been so haughty and cold,
as, without seeming to notice Werner's agitation, she asked, calmly,
"What brings you to us so late, Herr von Werner? It must be something
very unusual."
"Yes, madame, it is so, and very sad."
Alma could hardly stand. Thea still looked at Werner with an
unnaturally calm expression, and with not the faintest suspicion of
what was to come.
"Lothar!" came breathed like a sigh from Alma's pale lips.
Thea's thoughts were not of him. "Tell me. I need no preparation; I am
prepared," she said.
"Your brother-in-law met with an accident in riding home from Eichhof,
and is severely injured."
Now Thea too grew pale.
"Was he thrown? Is his life in danger?" she asked, in low, uncertain
tones, while Alma's eyes never for one moment left Werner's face.
"His condition leaves little room for hope. He was not thrown,--an
accident, probably the result of carelessness----"
"He is dead! he has shot himself!" Alma suddenly gasped. Her gloomy
forebodings had at last found distinct expression.
Thea looked at Werner. He was very pale, but he uttered no
contradiction.
Alma sank on her knees and buried her face in her hands. Thea slowly
passed her hand across her forehead. "Dead,--shot," she repeated
softly, as if hardly able to apprehend the meaning of the words. The
erect figure tottered, and before Werner could spring forward to
support her she fell fainting on the floor.
Alma raised her head at Werner's exclamation of terror, and saw her
sister's unconscious form. She called the servants and did all that was
necessary to restore Thea, while she herself felt hardly aware of what
had happened.
She, the younger and weaker of the two sisters, had not fainted, while
to Thea the thought that she might have had some share in Lothar's
death had been like a destroying flash of lightning. Alma did not
succumb, but deep darkness seemed to envelop her, in which she was
aware only of the present moment and its duties; all else was a blank.
She felt a dull pain in her head and heart, and would fain have cast
herself on the earth and have wept passionately. But shame lest she
should betray feelings that only the closest and dearest ties with
Lothar could justify, restrained her, and Thea's helpless condition
gave her a power of self-control of which she never could have believed
herself capable.
"I instantly telegraphed to your brother-in-law," Werner said to Alma,
"and then hurried hither, because I knew that, with the garrison so
near, you must hear the fatal news before to-morrow."
Alma bent her head in silent assent, and in her eyes alone could be
read the entreaty that he would tell her all he knew of this terrible
calamity. He went on, in a low tone: "I only reached home at dusk, and
I saw a light in Eichhof's room. It therefore surprised me to find it
locked, and to receive no answer to my call when I had knocked at the
door in vain. I was about to descend the staircase, when I met
Eichhof's servant, who, in reply to my questions with regard to his
master, told me that the Herr Lieutenant had returned from Eichhof half
an hour previously, and had seemed very unwell; that he had sent him
ten minutes before to the apothecary's for some soothing draught, which
he was just taking to him. Why the door should be locked he could not
possibly comprehend. We tried again to open it, and finally broke it
open. He sat upon the sofa, his head lying on the table before him. As
I raised him up, the revolver fell on the floor. Death must have been
instantaneous."
Alma covered her face with her hands and burst at last into a flood of
tears, weeping so passionately, so uncontrollably, that Werner could
not but comprehend what this death was to this girl. In his agitation
he had said more than he meant to, and he reproached himself for so
doing. Almost in a whisper he began again: "He probably intended to
clean the revolver. I feel convinced the pistol was discharged through
carelessness, for--for--there were materials for cleaning it lying upon
the table." Werner was so unaccustomed to say what was not true that he
succeeded but ill in this attempt.
Suddenly Thea entered the room; her eyes glowed with an unnatural
feverish brilliancy. She hastily approached Werner and held out her
hand as if to clasp his, then instantly withdrew it, and asked,
standing close to him, as if to prevent him from evading her question,
"Do you know why he shot himself?"
"It is not impossible that it was an accident, madame."
Thea shook her head. "That you do not believe," she said. "You know of
no reason for this deed?"
"He was ill, and perhaps a momentary insanity----"
"Yes, a momentary insanity. And you think my husband will come
to-morrow?"
"I am sure of it."
She cast down her eyes and was silent for a moment, while a shudder
seemed to pass through her delicate frame.
"Can anything be done to-night?" she asked.
"Nothing by you, madame."
"Well, then farewell, Herr von Werner. It is best you should return to
town."
"In fact, I still have much to arrange there."
Agitated as Werner was, he could not but observe the strange alteration
in Thea's manner towards him.
"Lothar was really like an own brother to her; the shock and her great
suffering have thus changed her," he thought, without dreaming of the
real state of her mind.
CHAPTER XIX. — THE SHADOWS GATHER.
In a first-class carriage of an express-train from Berlin sat Bernhard
Eichhof. Upon his return quite late from a ball, he had received the
despatch informing him of Lothar's sudden death. He had spent the rest
of the night in writing a letter to Julutta Wronsky and several others
to political associates, and was now hastening to his home by the early
train. He had scarcely found it possible to believe the sad tidings
brought by the despatch. Lothar dead!--Lothar, whom but a few weeks
previously he had left in the pride of youth and strength, a picture of
blooming health. And yet the despatch left no room for doubt. He
thought of every possible accident that could have befallen Lothar. He
saw before him his brother's smiling merry face, and the thought that
he was to look upon it cold and stiff in death seemed to him
inconceivable. In Berlin the hurried preparations for his departure had
scarcely left him time to appreciate his loss.
But now, during his lonely ride, with Lothar's image constantly before
him, now he first comprehended how near this brother had been to him,
and how terribly he should miss him. In the consciousness of his
position as the future head of the family, upon whom the others must
more or less depend, Bernhard had developed, when quite young, a
certain liking for the part of a protector,--a part that became
him excellently well, because he was naturally warm-hearted and
good-natured. And precisely because Lothar had so constantly appealed
to him for aid, and, in his lack of self-dependence, had always turned
to his brother in his troubles, he had grown very, very dear to
Bernhard. Lost in melancholy reflection, he leaned back in a corner of
his coupé, without bestowing the faintest notice upon two ladies who
had entered the coupé just after him. He had closed his eyes in his
revery, and had entirely forgotten his travelling companions.
Suddenly the name of 'Eichhof,' uttered by one of the ladies, aroused
his attention.
"Is the member of the Reichstag your son-in-law's neighbour?" the other
lady asked.
"Yes; Rollin is in the midst of a very aristocratic neighbourhood," was
the reply. "Good heavens, the Barons von Hohenstein have lived upon the
estate for hundreds of years, and all the neighbours are old noble
families,--my daughter's surroundings will be really 'feudal.' It is
well to give one's children an education that fits them for any rank in
life. Only a few days ago Count Dornat said to me, 'Your daughter, the
Baroness von Hohenstein, is a charming woman.' And my son-in-law is
delightful. Indeed, my dear, it is really a model marriage. Between
ourselves, many an aristocratic family might take example by it,--these
Eichhofs, for instance."
Bernhard, who had ceased to pay any heed to the speakers, now listened
again.
"Is it possible, Frau Kohnheim, that the Eichhofs----" Thus the
conversation continued.
Frau Kohnheim said in a low voice a few words that Bernhard could not
understand, and then went on, in a louder tone, "Yes; I was at Rollin a
couple of weeks ago with a Berlin upholsterer to see to the furnishing
there, and the housekeeper from Eichhof was paying a visit to our
housekeeper,--I mean to my son-in-law's housekeeper,--and I learned all
about it from her. The young Countess at the castle was an innocent
young creature at first, but she has grown to be very different,
especially since her husband has been away. Only fancy such a young
woman's giving entertainments to which the young men for miles around
are invited, while a young unmarried brother-in-law of the Countess
plays the part of host! And he is in garrison only half a mile from
Eichhof, and of course is there constantly. So there you have a young
man and a young woman alone together in the country in a big castle,
and you may imagine what it must lead to!"
"Good heavens! how can the Count be so thoughtless as to allow it?"
"How indeed? Of course the young brother-in-law is over head and ears
in love. The housekeeper, who seems to be a very sensible person, has
often watched him. He never takes his eyes off the Countess, and,
naturally enough, she is not blind to the attractions of a handsome
young officer. There they sit in the conservatory talking together, or
they take long walks arm-in-arm, and the housekeeper----" Here the
voice sank to a whisper.
Bernhard could no longer sit quietly in his corner. He stirred and
altered his position, so that the conversation was carried on in still
lower tones.
"Infernal old women's gossip!" he thought, flushing angrily.
"Contemptible lies!--Lothar to----" Anger and pain possessed him. How
dared any one assail his wife's reputation? How could the innocent
relations between Thea and Lothar give rise to such calumnies? Was he
not false to the memory of the dead even to listen to such talk? He
arose and opened the window, only to close it again noisily; then
dragged out his portmanteau, and so bestirred himself that the ladies
involuntarily ceased to speak. But when he leaned back in his corner
again, all the 'old women's gossip,' all the 'contemptible lies,'
recurred to his mind word for word. Thea was young and beautiful, and
Lothar was thoughtless and susceptible, therein lay the justification
of the 'old women's gossip.' But Thea was his wife, and Lothar was his
brother. Nonsense, nonsense! why dwell upon such thoughts for an
instant? And yet they would intrude; they even came between Bernhard
and his sorrow for the loss of his brother; they suggested wild images
that showed some connection between what he had just heard and Lothar's
sudden death; they sent the blood seething through his veins, and kept
him awake, when weariness from sorrow and want of repose would have
bidden him to sleep.
After a while the two ladies left the train, and Bernhard was alone
with his torturing doubts and suggestions.
At the station he was met by Werner, who had meanwhile been informed of
the result of Lothar's gambling on the previous evening. As gently as
possible, but without withholding a single detail, he told Bernhard the
truth: Lothar had contracted gambling-debts, and had, in consequence,
shot himself. Fearful as the calamity was, it was by no means without
parallel,--the same cause had often led to the same desperate resolve.
Still, to Bernhard, it did not seem to explain Lothar's act. The amount
of this last debt did most certainly exceed the amount of Lothar's
usual deficits, but yet it did not seem to Bernhard large enough to
have been paid by a life, unless there had been other motives in
Lothar's mind to prompt him to self-destruction. Why had he not applied
to his brother, as he had so often done before? Had he despaired of
himself and of his capacity for improvement? That was so unlike Lothar
that Bernhard could not believe it to be so. What, then, had prevented
him this time from appealing to his brother for aid?
"He had been to Eichhof just before?" Bernhard, arousing himself from
gloomy reflections, asked of Werner, who was driving from the station
with him. Werner assented.
"And you never spoke with him afterward?"
"No; none of his comrades saw him. His servant was the only one who did
so, and he says that Eichhof was very unwell. The calamity occurred
almost immediately after his return."
"Immediately after his return----" Bernhard bit his lip; he would ask
no more questions. Arrived in garrison, he made all the necessary
arrangements, promised to return in a few hours, for Lothar's body was
to be taken to Eichhof in the evening, and then drove on alone.
He had had some hope that Thea would come to meet him, but she did not
do so; she did not even receive him as usual at the hall door.
"The Frau Countess is not well," the servant said.
Bernhard hurried up the stairs to Thea's room. At the door he met the
family physician.
"Is my wife ill?" he asked, hastily.
"Nothing serious at present," the old man replied. "Countess Eichhof
cannot for the moment sustain the terrible nervous shock. I have
ordered perfect rest,--her best medicine next to your arrival, my dear
Count. A sad time, indeed. Your brother was never ill in his life, and
now----"
Bernhard pressed the good doctor's hand, and, leaving him, entered
Thea's room. In the first moment of reunion he forgot all his doubts.
He clasped his pale, distressed Thea in his arms. At sight of her he
felt something like remorse for having left her alone so long.
"This is a sad meeting, dear heart," he said with emotion, as he laid
her head upon his breast. Thea shook as with a fever-fit, her lips
quivered, but she could not speak.
Bernhard looked in her face in alarm. "My poor, poor Thea!" he
whispered.
She extricated herself from his clasp, and withdrew her hand from his.
"It will pass," she said, turning from him to draw a shawl over her
shoulders. "Never mind me. Have you seen him,--I mean Lothar?"
"Yes; he looks perfectly unchanged. I shall have him brought here
to-day."
Again Thea shuddered, and for a moment her look was fixed and wild.
Bernhard tried again to draw her to him, but she pushed him away.
"Leave me! leave me!" she cried. "Oh, my God!" And she burst into a
passionate fit of sobbing.
Bernhard turned away and walked to the window. He felt that all his
doubts would have vanished like morning mists if Thea had met him as
usual and wept out her pain and grief upon his breast. Now they arose
again before him, and took firmer, clearer shape. For a few moments he
stood motionless at the window, then suddenly he approached Thea again.
"You know why Lothar shot himself?" he asked, in a voice that sounded
hoarse and unlike his own.
She bent her head lower upon her hands and made no reply.
"He lost a large sum at play last night," Bernhard continued. "But----"
Then Thea looked up. For an instant her face looked transfigured with
hope, like that of a criminal reprieved when under sentence of death.
Involuntarily she seized Bernhard's hand, and asked, with a passionate
excitement such as Bernhard had never before known her to express, "Do
you believe that that was why he shot himself? Do you believe it? Can
it be?"
Her eyes as she looked up at him were full of imploring anguish, and
he, in his turn, thrust away her hand, and said, in a cold, hard voice,
"No! I see you do not believe it, and I--neither do I believe it!"
At this moment Alma entered with Herr von Rosen, who had come over
immediately upon hearing the sad news. This put an end to Bernhard's
and Thea's tête-à-tête, and neither of them at this time could have
wished it prolonged.
Nor was there any opportunity for renewing it during the next few days.
The dowager Countess had hastened to Eichhof upon hearing of her son's
sudden death, and her grief and suffering were of so exacting a nature
as to employ the time and energies of at least one member of the
family, and sometimes several of them, all the time. She called herself
the unhappiest, the most sorely tried of women; but when Bernhard
proposed that she should remain at Eichhof with Thea, she thought it
but right to inform him that she had been offered the position of
abbess in the aristocratic institution of B----, and that she intended
to accept it and retire thither as soon as possible, since it seemed to
offer her the advantages to which her birth and rank entitled her.
Thea suffered terribly, but she was cold and repellant towards
Bernhard, who was very much occupied and rather avoided her than
otherwise. The physician shook his head; he was far from satisfied with
his patient's condition, although he still maintained that she was only
suffering from prolonged nervous agitation.
On the day after Lothar's funeral Thea was lying back on her lounge,
not sleeping, but with closed eyes. She could not sleep either by night
or by day, for so soon as she began to dream she saw either Lothar or
Bernhard before her, and the thought of them banished repose. Was she
not guilty of Lothar's death? Ought she not, instead of turning angrily
away, to have tried gently to lead him back to the right path? If
there had been no shadow between Bernhard and herself, this torturing
self-reproach would not have taken shape; her conscience would not have
been so morbidly sensitive, inclining her to the gloomiest reflections.
But the shadow was there, and it was therefore impossible for her to
seek refuge with her husband, and be consoled and soothed in his arms.
Agitated as she was, she saw Bernhard's relations with Frau von Wronsky
in the darkest light. She attributed his altered demeanour entirely to
these, and never for an instant suspected that he too was tormented by
doubts and suspicions with regard to herself. And Bernhard? All through
these days he scarcely thought of Julutta; he never suspected that his
friendship for her could have given rise to remarks and comments which
Thea had overheard, and if he had suspected this he would have been
indignant that Thea should give ear to such scandal. In all that
concerned that 'poor persecuted woman' his conscience felt perfectly
pure, and the struggle between his love for Thea and his dead brother,
and the hate which now threatened to arise within him for both of them,
left no space for thoughts of aught else.
And now the time for his return to Berlin was at hand. He resolved that
certainty should at least be his. Thea, apparently calmly passive, and
yet wretchedly restless, had just adopted a resolve to entreat Bernhard
to tell her frankly of his sentiments for Frau von Wronsky. She would
make no claim upon his affection, since she had never possessed it,
but she would be his true and honest friend, asking nothing from him
save confidence and truth. For their child's sake they must remain
friends,--friends, but nothing more! Yes, she would say all this to him
to-day--this very hour. Suddenly she started: a cold, heavy hand was
laid upon her shoulder. She raised her head. Bernhard had entered
softly, and had only been aware when he stood close beside her that she
was not sleeping. His hand was upon her shoulder, and he said, gazing
at her the while with eyes so changed, so darkly stern, "I must speak
with you, Thea, before I leave for Berlin. I have a question to put to
you."
She looked up at him startled. She had just been thinking of him, but
the face she saw before her in no wise resembled the image of him in
her mind, and there was an unusual imperious tone in his voice that
offended her.
"Go on," she said, looking away from him.
"What occurred between yourself and Lothar?"
Thea started up. All her lately-formed resolutions were forgotten. He,
against whom she believed herself to have such just cause for
complaint, dared to take her to task thus!
She could not and would not lie; it was just as impossible for her at
this moment to answer his question frankly. She stood erect before him.
Her pale cheeks glowed, and her eyes gleamed angrily.
"You certainly have no right to ask that question. You less than all
others."
The words passed her lips quick as thought. The next instant she
repented of them, but they were spoken, and they had their effect. A
terrible alteration took place in Bernhard's face. For an instant he
looked as though about to crush to the earth the woman before him; then
he suddenly turned away, without a word, and left the room.
"Bernhard!" Thea called after him; but the door was shut and he did not
return.
"Past and gone!" echoed in Thea's soul.
"Past and gone!" a voice muttered in Bernhard's heart. Of what avail
was it that she wrung her hands, and that he, in his room, hid his face
and wished himself dead in Lothar's place rather than live through all
this? The doors between the husband and wife were closed, and neither
could overcome self so far as to open them and cry out to the other, "I
love you,--I love you in spite of everything!"
The reconciling words remained unspoken.
Thus they parted. Bernhard returned to Berlin to await the close of the
Reichstag, and Thea was alone again,--really alone now, since she knew
that there was no union between Bernhard and herself even in thought.
Werner had departed immediately after Lothar's funeral, and Thea
shortly afterwards sent Alma home. Their mother was quite ill; there
were fears of her becoming blind, and Alma was much more needed there
than at Eichhof. Thea exacted from her a solemn promise that she would
never mention the contents of Adela's letter. What the future had in
store for her she could not tell, only one thing she was resolved upon,
that the unhappy state of affairs existing between Bernhard and herself
should be concealed from the world as long as possible. While he had
been in Eichhof her illness had made such concealment entirely
feasible, and in future--yes, what was to be done in future she could
ponder upon in her solitude at her leisure.
But upon this Bernhard had also pondered, and a few days after his
departure Thea received a letter from him.
Her heart beat so strongly when this letter arrived that she held it
for a moment in her hand without being able to open it. And when at
last she did so, the characters of the familiar handwriting danced so
before her eyes that at first she could scarcely decipher them.
Bernhard wrote:
"From what you said to me on the day before I left Eichhof, I conclude
that you find it impossible to bestow your confidence and affection
upon me any longer. I do not ask why this is so; you know the reason
for it, and it is better that it should not be discussed between us. To
what is inevitable we must resign ourselves as best we may. After what
has passed you probably desire to return to your parents, as life with
me would be only a constant pain to you. I should not oppose your wish
in this regard were it not for the existence of one for whose sake it
seems to me best that we should maintain at least the appearance of
union before the world,--I mean our child. For his sake we must avoid a
public separation. Therefore it is that I pray you to remain in
Eichhof, even although I should return thither. My sphere of action
must enlarge with time. I shall travel much, and thus the brief
duration of our meetings in Eichhof will seem not unnatural. You can
shorten them still further by visits to watering-places, if it so
pleases you. Before the world due regard must be paid to les
convenances; of course the cause of our separation must never be
mentioned between ourselves. In this wise our relations to each other
may be duly arranged, and I pray you to inform me as soon as possible
if your views in this respect coincide with mine.
"Bernhard Eichhof."
This was the letter which Thea read over and over again amid floods of
tears, the letter the composition of which had cost Bernhard a
sleepless night. What a night it had been! Anger and pain strove within
him for the mastery, and pain at length conquered. He thought of Thea's
youth, of her solitude and inexperience, and he thought of Lothar's
thoughtless gayety, of his susceptible nature, and of all his winning
qualities. And he, Bernhard, had been fool enough to leave these two
children dependent upon each other for society! Through his own fault
his happiness was destroyed, and he had lost the woman whom he
loved,--lost her forever!
He was overcome with compassion for himself, for Lothar, who had sought
by his death to expiate his fault, for Thea! While writing that letter
to her his heart was filled with sympathy for her. He pitied the poor
young creature whom he had delivered over to her destruction; she could
be nothing more to him, but his roof should shelter her at least from
further harm.
These were Bernhard's reflections; but Thea thought she could read
between the lines, and that it was not his insulting suspicions of her
fidelity, but his own sentiments for Julutta Wronsky that made it easy
indeed for him to give up his wife, if only appearances were kept up
before the world. She accepted what he proposed with a dull
resignation. In the tormenting self-accusations in which she so often
indulged in her solitude, she seemed to have a crime to expiate. She
repeatedly recalled every conversation, every interview, she had ever
had with Lothar. She thought now that she had often been too cordial
and friendly to him, she reproached herself for the ease and
carelessness of her manner towards him, and she regarded Bernhard's
estrangement from her as a punishment from heaven, which she must
patiently endure. She grew paler and more silent, so that the old
family physician often shook his head anxiously when he visited her,
although he could not pronounce her really ill. Once he wrote to
Bernhard about her, and Bernhard thought 'of course she cannot recover
from Lothar's loss,' and, in spite of his pity for her, he crushed the
innocent letter in his hand and flung it from him as if it contained
some poison that he feared to touch. And then he carried his gloom, his
pain, and his sore heart to Julutta Wronsky, not for consolation, as he
said to himself,--who could console him?--but for some distraction of
mind, to listen to her glorious contralto as she sang his favorite
songs, and to discuss the events of the day. Meanwhile he could not but
be conscious of the influence that he exerted upon this woman, and of
how entirely she looked at the world through his eyes.
CHAPTER XX. — DR. NORDSTEDT.
Spring had come, and life in Eichhof had developed into just what
Bernhard had foreseen. He had taken an active part in a new railway
enterprise which was to bring his secluded estates more into contact
with the world and to connect a great Russian branch-line with a German
trunk-line. By degrees he had become a prime mover in this scheme, and
when he returned to Eichhof every moment of his time and every thought
of his mind were put under requisition. He had to go to Russia, and
backwards and forwards to and from Berlin; guests of every social rank
came to Eichhof in the interests of the new railway, a prominent
banking-house had to be induced to join in the scheme, and there were
all kinds of foreseen and unforeseen obstacles to be overcome. And
Bernhard was wanted everywhere. A great work was to be undertaken, one
that would be of immense benefit to his section of the country, and the
less satisfaction Bernhard took in his home-life the more did he devote
himself to these outside interests, that were to be, as he thought, so
productive of good. It was natural that Julutta Wronsky should
understand and sympathize with him in these interests more than Thea
possibly could. The time was past when Thea, for love of him, would
interest herself in subjects that else would never have occupied her
thoughts. And, besides, she was so very far from well that she no
longer refused to heed the advice of the physician, who urged her to
try change of air and scene at one of the well-known baths.
So she made ready for the journey, upon which her little son was to be
her only companion and consolation. Yes, her only consolation, for
except in her boy's laughing eyes she could see no brightness anywhere.
At Schönthal, Frau von Rosen had been seriously ill, and when she began
to recover her disease settled in her eyes, so that at the end of a few
weeks her sight was almost entirely gone. It was a sad picture, that of
one who had been so active now so entirely helpless, and Herr von Rosen
and Alma vied with each other in devotion to the invalid. Care for her
mother helped Alma to conceal and to overcome her grief for Lothar far
more easily than would otherwise have been the case. She had no time to
think of it,--the present claimed all her powers of mind and body, and
the past retreated into a dim distance. While Thea was preparing for
her journey, her mother was about to travel also; but while Thea's goal
was a mountain watering-place, Frau von Rosen was going to Berlin to
consult Walter's friend, Dr. Nordstedt. He advised her to place herself
entirely under his care for a while, and accordingly Frau von Rosen and
Alma were soon established in two quiet rooms in a wing of the
Nordstedt mansion, the windows of which looked out upon the blossoming
fruit-trees and green grass-plats of the pleasant garden. Soon this
prospect was shut out from one of the rooms by blue curtains, for Frau
von Rosen was to undergo an operation which would decide whether she
should henceforth dwell in perpetual night or once more look upon the
light of day and the faces of those whom she loved. They were weary
days that Alma now passed beside her mother's couch, hovering between
fear and hope. Herr von Rosen left them immediately after the
operation, for pressing business at home prevented him from awaiting
the final decision, and Walter Eichhof and Adela Hohenstein were the
only friends from home who came now and then to ask after Frau von
Rosen and to chat awhile with Alma. Oddly enough, the two had never met
upon any of their visits; 'fortunately,' Walter said, 'unfortunately,'
Adela thought, although not for worlds would she have uttered the word
aloud. At last after days of prolonged anxiety the bandage could be
removed from the invalid's eyes, and Dr. Nordstedt pronounced the
operation entirely successful. That was the first happy day that Alma
had known since Lothar's death. A smile transfigured for a moment Dr.
Nordstedt's grave face as he announced the glad tidings to Alma, and
tears glittered in the girl's eyes as she held out both hands to him,
and, forgetting all her shyness, cried, "Ah, how I thank you, Dr.
Nordstedt! If I only had some way in which to show you how grateful I
am!"
He held her little white hands in a firm clasp for an instant, and
replied, "Such moments are the bright spots in a physician's life,
Fräulein von Rosen, and they atone for many a gloomy day."
On the evening of that day Alma stood at the open window of her room,
looking out into the starry June night. The leaves of the trees
whispered gently in the evening breeze, and the garden lay silent and
dark below her, while beyond the gardens and court-yard that surrounded
the Nordstedt mansion there was the glimmer of distant gas-lights, and
the street-noises fell upon her ear like a muffled hum. Alma was so
grateful that she longed to be happy and glad, and yet precisely at
this time, when she was relieved from her weight of care and could
breathe freely, she felt doubly lonely in the strange great city. She
seemed to herself to be upon a lonely island in the midst of a roaring
ocean. As she stood thus looking out, she thought of that winter night
in Eichhof when she had stood at the window gazing thus. Lothar's
image, which her recent care had banished to the background of her
thoughts, arose vividly before her, and she was conscious of a painful
yearning for her home. She clasped her hands against the window-frame,
and leaned her head upon them. The air was sultry; she had loosened her
fair hair, and it fell down about her shoulders, as she remained thus
lost in thoughts of the past. Suddenly the door was opened, and a woman
with a lighted candle entered the room. It was the nurse to whose care
Frau von Rosen was specially intrusted.
"Good gracious, Fräulein dear, you are in pitch darkness!" she
exclaimed, putting the candle on the table, "and with the window open
too! Have you closed the door, that your mother may not feel the
draught?"
"Indeed I have, Marianne," Alma replied, half turning round. "My mother
is asleep, and I came here to get a little fresh air."
"Yes, yes, you ought to have more fresh air, Fräulein dear; the Herr
Doctor always says you ought to walk in the garden every day. The Herr
Doctor is not at all pleased to see you grow so pale here. He looks at
you,--yes, just as he always does at people with whom he is not
satisfied, and for whom he would like to prescribe. No offence,
Fräulein, but he does; such a sad look, and yet so kind. Good gracious!
I know the look well enough. And he has, perhaps, a particular reason
for it in your case."
Alma was only lending half an ear to the woman's chatter, and it was
more out of kindness than from interest that she asked, "Indeed? How
so?"
Marianne put on an air of mystery. "Ah, you see, 'tis a long story. You
look like somebody," she replied.
"Indeed?"
"Somebody who is dead; of course it was a woman," Marianne chattered
on. "She had braids just like yours. Now your hair is down, I can see
that she had the very same. And she had blue eyes, too, and was so like
you in some way, I cannot exactly tell how; but as soon as you came you
reminded me of her, and our doctor saw it too,--I knew that in a
moment, for I know him well."
"Well, and who was this other?" Alma asked, with more interest.
Marianne sighed, and then told Alma of the unfortunate young woman whom
her doctor had once intrusted to her care. "And only think, Fräulein
dear, the woman had once been so rich that she did not know what to do
with her money, and--but this is a secret; I only happen to know it
because my husband, who is dead, was once a footman in her house. Only
since you look so like her I'll tell it to you. Well, our doctor loved
this woman dearly when she was a girl. But he was very young, and the
girl's parents, and the girl herself, perhaps, thought he was not rich
enough for her. At all events, she wouldn't marry him, and that's the
only reason why he has never married, although now he might choose a
wife where he would and thank you, too. But he cannot forget his
Hedwig. And when he found her so sick and miserable, and got me to
nurse her, and then at last when she died, any one could see how
fond he was of her. Our doctor is an angel to all sick people, but
then--then he was something more."
Alma listened now with keen interest, and was almost sorry when
Marianne had finished arranging her room for the night and was obliged
to attend to some other patients.
"Yes, yes, Fräulein dear, the best of men must have trials. Well,
good-night."
And the nurse left the room, and Alma was again alone at the window.
And so this calm, grave Dr. Nordstedt had also lived through his
romance. He had lost his love, and lost her so cruelly! "Poor man!"
Alma whispered, thinking of what she had just heard. Then she heard
footsteps on the garden gravel path below her window. She leaned out,
and saw a tall, manly figure slowly walking towards the house. She
hurriedly withdrew, as though fearing that the doctor might suspect
that she was thinking of him and that she knew his secret. Still, she
no longer felt lonely as before; it was a certain consolation to her to
reflect that in the heart of the man walking alone beneath the trees on
this sultry evening there might perhaps be thoughts similar to her own.
From this day it was not gratitude solely that prompted her to observe
the doctor with greater interest than hitherto. There seemed a certain
resemblance between his fate and her own. She thought she could
understand him; and when he paced the garden to and fro alone in the
evening, and she stood alone at her window, she thought that surely
there was some mysterious sympathy between them.
Thus some time passed, and at last Frau von Rosen was allowed to leave
her room. When she spent an hour for the first time in an arbour in the
garden, Herr von Hohenstein and his daughter came to wish their old
friend joy in her restoration to health, and to inform her at the same
time that Herr von Hohenstein had purchased a country-house with a
little land, and that they were to occupy it the ensuing week. The
house was in the vicinity of one of the larger cities of their native
province, and Adela was enthusiastic in her praises of its lovely
situation, while her head was filled with plans for gardens of roses,
asparagus-beds, dove-cotes, and chicken-yards. Herr von Hohenstein, who
had entirely recovered his health, although he was greatly changed and
found his memory often defective, so that he was obliged to turn to
Adela for aid, agreed to everything, and spoke of employing his leisure
in the quiet of the country, if his strength admitted of it, in
collecting his varied experience on the subject of the breeding of
horses, and in publishing it for the use and enlightenment of
posterity. Adela had taken a pencil out of her pocket, and was
just about to draw a ground-plan of her future home on a leaf of
her note-book for Alma, when a shadow fell upon her paper, and a
familiar voice that had not fallen upon her ears for a long time bade
'good-morning' to the little circle in the arbour. Adela started up and
confronted Walter Eichhof. Perhaps each was at first inclined, so
unexpected was this meeting, to run away; but Adela was imprisoned in
the arbour, and Dr. Nordstedt's broad shoulders appeared just behind
Walter. As there was no way of avoiding each other, they each had
recourse to the same line of conduct; Walter devoted himself to the
Rosens, and Adela found inexhaustible matter for conversation with Dr.
Nordstedt in his establishment and his methods of treatment, in which
she expressed the greatest interest. Both Walter and Adela, however,
took occasion to scan each other furtively, and at times replied rather
vaguely to remarks addressed to them, from an anxiety on the part of
each to hear what the other was saying. At last Dr. Nordstedt expressed
a fear lest so much conversation around her might fatigue Frau von
Rosen, and proposed that she should be left for a while with the Baron
von Hohenstein, while he conducted Walter and the young ladies through
the garden, and the establishment in which Fräulein von Hohenstein
expressed such an interest.
Adela immediately declared herself ready to go, and, as Walter was
standing by Alma's side, it fell to Dr. Nordstedt to conduct Fräulein
von Hohenstein. He showed them through various rooms in the house, and
told them how they had been enlarged to their present size from small
beginnings, until he had ended by adding the present spacious wings to
the original mansion. The waiting-rooms were filled with all kinds of
costly objets d'art, mementos from grateful patients from near and
far. Adela, who had chattered fast enough at first, gradually became
silent, and looked up with a kind of awe at the tall, serious man who
had made himself what he was. Then she cast a stolen glance at Walter.
He was right to be proud of this friend, she thought, and then she
wondered whether Walter possessed sufficient energy and industry to be
like him. She could not but observe meanwhile that in the course of the
last year Walter had grown far more manly, and at last she arrived at
the conclusion that she never should suspect either Walter or Dr.
Nordstedt of being doctors if she had not known about them. The image
of a 'doctor' in her mind was inseparably connected with a large pair
of spectacles and a strong odour of ether,--both attributes of the
family physician at Rollin, and of a certain professor who had been
called in at the time of her father's illness. They had hitherto been
the only representatives of the medical profession known to her.
"Fräulein Alma would like to see your study," Walter suddenly said to
Nordstedt, who turned to the girl with a smile, and said,--
"You have seen it already, Fräulein von Rosen. It is the little room I
showed you where I performed my first successful operation. When one
wishes to work, any decoration around one has a disturbing influence, I
think; and then, too, I like old places, and so I stayed there with my
books."
"For the first time I cannot agree with you," cried Adela. "Whoever has
any taste for the beautiful must like to see it around him."
Nordstedt laughed. "You are right," he rejoined; "but beauty incites me
either to enjoyment or to dreamy revery, and neither is any assistance
to hard work."
"But, lest the ladies should think you a scorner of the beautiful, you
must open your music-room for us," said Walter.
This Nordstedt did with pleasure. He certainly was much more talkative
and less reserved than usual to-day. Walter wondered whether Adela's
gay humour had wrought this change. Although he was firmly convinced
that he himself had entirely ceased to think of Adela, he found this
suspicion far from agreeable.
As they entered the music-room both the girls uttered an exclamation of
delight. The furniture, the hangings, the pictures on the walls, all
gave evidence of genuine taste and a fine artistic perception.
"Yes, the requirements of art differ from those of labour," said
Nordstedt. "Art gives beauty and must have beauty."
And everything in this room was beautiful. From the grand piano to the
smallest footstool, all was perfect of its kind. Adela's admiration was
loudly expressed, Alma's was silent. But whenever she lifted her eyes
they were sure to encounter Nordstedt's glance seeking hers. "Do you
love music?" he asked, suddenly stepping to her side.
"Dearly!" she replied.
He went to the piano, and played one of Mendelssohn's Songs without
Words. Walter stood at a window, looking very grave. Nordstedt never
played before strangers. What had come over him to-day? And how
devoutly Adela was listening! Walter wished he had not come here
to-day, and the brighter his friend's face grew the gloomier he felt.
The song that Nordstedt had chosen was one of those brief melancholy
strains that suggest a lament. When he had finished, Alma said, "That
song is one of my favourites. It is so fervent, and yet so sad. It
sounds as if one were thinking of some one loved and lost----"
Nordstedt turned upon her one brief questioning glance of surprise.
Alma blushed, fearing that she had said too much. But Adela, who
generally said whatever came into her head without reflecting,
exclaimed, as she looked admiringly at Nordstedt, "Why, you can do
everything! You give me an entirely different idea of doctors from any
I have ever had before!"
Scarcely had the words left her lips when she, too, blushed crimson to
the roots of her hair, for she remembered that Walter heard what she
said. She was glad that Nordstedt proposed returning to Frau von Rosen,
who ought now to be taken to her room. Without waiting for the escort
of the two gentlemen, she took Alma's arm, and ran, rather than walked,
along the corridor into the garden, while the young men silently
followed them. Nordstedt's face was bright with a smile, but Walter was
annoyed and discontented with himself, with Adela, with everybody. He
was more startled than pleased when Adela offered him her hand at
parting and said, softly, "It has given me great pleasure to see you
again." He replied only by a low, formal bow. He wandered about the
loneliest streets on this evening until ten o'clock, and at last closed
his door behind him and threw himself upon his lounge, saying, "And yet
I wish I had not seen her again!"
CHAPTER XXI. — SUMMER DAYS.
Broad sunlight lay upon the comfortable mansion of Schönthal. Frau von
Rosen was better than she had been for years, but she was still obliged
to spare her eyes, and so Alma had undertaken to advise Dr. Nordstedt
from time to time of the condition of his patient. The less there was
to tell of her, however, the more there always seemed to be to say.
Nordstedt was now looked upon by the whole family more as a friend than
as a physician, and, busy as he might be, he always found time to
answer Alma's letters. As Walter was to spend his summer holidays at
Schönthal, Herr von Rosen invited Dr. Nordstedt to pay them a visit at
the same time.
"But, papa, what are you thinking of? He never will come," said Alma.
Nevertheless he came.
"What a pity it is that Thea has not yet come home!" said Alma. "She
would be so much pleased with Dr. Nordstedt, and he would like her so
much."
Frau von Rosen gazed thoughtfully at her daughter. How did she know so
well whom Dr. Nordstedt would like? She began to shake her head, but
not for long, for Nordstedt had grown dear to her, and she only glanced
shyly now and then at her husband, wondering if the same thoughts that
had occurred to her had been suggested to him also, and what he would
say. But it really was all his fault. Why had he invited the doctor to
the house?
One evening Herr von Rosen said to her, "We are thought to be people of
very advanced ideas, mamma. Do you not think we should justify the
opinion entertained of us if we chanced some day to marry our daughter
to a man of the people?"
"It seems to me," she replied, "that everything would depend upon who
the man was, and what confidence we could repose in him."
"Aha! Then, in principle, you would not be opposed to such a match? Of
course, I am only discussing such things in general."
"In general, then, I have no objection to the bourgeoisie, although I
once thought I could favour none save sons-in-law of rank. But what is
the use of growing older if one grows no wiser?"
Then there was a pause, which was ended by Herr von Rosen's saying,
"Alma certainly never would have been happy with Lothar Eichhof."
Frau von Rosen sighed. She laid her hand on her husband's shoulder, and
said, softly, "Do you think Thea is happy?"
"Ah! her letters have struck you too?"
"Not only that, but she has now been three months away from Eichhof. It
was all very well for her to go to the baths, but to visit my sister
afterward and stay there so long,--I cannot understand it. Mountain air
is good for the child, she says. Possibly; but Eichhof air would be
equally good for him. And we so seldom see anything of Bernhard----"
"Bernhard has a great deal to do at present."
"Ah, my dear, I can easily see that you do not believe that to be the
only reason. I often lie awake thinking of it all. I cannot comprehend
it."
"Wait until Thea comes home. She is a clever woman, and she loves
Bernhard; she will make matters all right again. You remember how she
behaved about his agricultural interests. At all events, we must know
nothing until we are told. Not even a parent should interfere between
man and wife."
Frau von Rosen assented. "But yet it is hard," she rejoined; "and if
anything has estranged them from each other, be sure it is the result
of the grand state in which they are obliged to live. Love is more
likely to nourish amid simple, comfortable surroundings."
The next day the family and their guests were taking their coffee when
the post-bag was brought in. There was a general distribution of
letters and newspapers, and among the former was a thick envelope for
Alma from Adela Hohenstein.
There had been a brisk correspondence carried on of late between the
two girls, and Alma was as familiar with Adela's quiet life in her
country home as was Adela with Alma's walks and rides with her guests,
and even with the conversations carried on among them.
"It is very charming here," Adela wrote. "My plants and my animals
flourish finely. Papa is contented, and we love each other dearly.
But--you see there is a but--it is very quiet. The people about us are
strangers to us, and those whom we know are far away. I go to walk just
when you do, but I am quite alone. Since my Fidèle died I have not even
a dog, for the one I have now is too stupid to care to go with me.
While I walk, papa writes his book, which, however, between ourselves,
will not come to anything, because poor papa has forgotten so much. But
it gives him pleasure, and so I let him believe that it will be good,
and go to walk alone. And sometimes I am quite low in my mind and could
envy you your guests. Not Walter, of course, but Dr. Nordstedt is so
nice; and even Walter is a human being, and an old acquaintance
besides. Papa, too, thinks--but then he had better write you himself
what he thinks. I only want to tell you that I am no longer so
seriously angry with Walter as I told you I was in Berlin. I have been
thinking about it since I have been so much alone, and I have reflected
that it is folly to be angry with any one for as long as I have been
vexed with Walter. To be sure, you do not know the cause I had for
anger, and I certainly had good cause; but nevertheless I am angry with
him no longer, and he need not refuse papa's invitation on my account.
You may tell him so."
Alma read this strange letter twice, and just as she finished it Herr
von Rosen said, "Baron Hohenstein has written to me, Dr. Nordstedt,
asking whether you and Walter will not stop and pay him a little visit
on your way home. He says he has received so much hospitality in your
house that he should like to requite it. You will go directly past his
retreat, and----"
"Don't decide against this plan; I have something to tell you from
Adela," Alma whispered to Walter, who was just opening his lips to
declare that the visit would be impossible.
Dr. Nordstedt read the Freiherr's kind invitation, and then declared,
with a glance at Walter, the state of whose mind he guessed, although
he knew nothing of it positively, that he felt inclined to go. After
breakfast Alma took occasion to deliver Adela's message to Walter. The
young man hesitated at first whether to rejoice or be vexed. Adela was
no longer angry with him! As if she had ever had any cause to be so. He
had laid his heart at her feet, and she had thrust it from her. The
bitterest moments of his life he had experienced upon her account. No
human being had ever so grieved and wounded him as she had done. And
now she sent him word that she was no longer angry with him. What a
confusion of ideas there must be in that fair curly head! But in spite
of his vexation his heart beat faster, and there was a joyous light in
his eyes. Was not a desire to see him again at the bottom of her
message? Did she not say "I am no longer angry with you" only because
pride and mortification kept her from saying, "Do not be angry with me
any longer"? Of what avail was it that he had so often convinced
himself that he would forget her,--nay, that he had forgotten her? Her
image was more vividly distinct than ever in his mind, and in spite of
all his self-remonstrances he was delighted at the thought of this
visit, and counted the days that must elapse before it could begin.
One day Herr von Rosen invited him to drive with him to Rollin, where
he and Alma had long owed a visit. Dr. Nordstedt stayed with Frau von
Rosen, and the three others set out upon a lovely afternoon. How
strange were Walter's sensations upon seeing the fine old pile once
more! The memories connected with it took more vivid shape in his mind.
There were the two old lindens beside the court-yard gate stretching
their leafy arms above the tall old wooden crucifix, and upon the other
side was the ancient oak, in which the storks were wont to build. But
between these unchanged trees two brand-new gothic gate-posts had
lately been erected, and as the carriage rolled along the avenue Walter
saw that the old house had been decorated with all kinds of turrets and
bow-windows. The arbour of clematis had been replaced by a sloping
terrace; the elder-bushes in front of the house had been exchanged for
closely-trimmed acacias, and instead of the climbing roses, which had
been killed by the various renovations, the shield and baronial crest
of the Hohensteins were conspicuous between the windows of the upper
story. A footman in elegant livery received the guests. The hall was
redolent of fresh paint and new carpets, and the doors creaked upon
their hinges, as though discontented with the new order of affairs, but
no footstep could be heard upon the luxurious rugs and carpets. Hugo
Hohenstein received them in the hall in his customary blasé but not
inelegant manner. He conducted Alma to the drawing-room, and presented
the party to his wife, who greeted them with a curtsey that was
needlessly low, but maintained towards them generally an air of cool
reserve, which finally had a paralyzing effect upon them all. The young
hostess had perhaps not received a satisfactory amount of attention
from her husband's acquaintances, and was fearful of compromising
herself; at all events, she was evidently embarrassed, perfectly
courteous but perfectly cold, so that when the gentlemen retired to
smoke a cigar, Alma found it very difficult to carry on a conversation.
She admired several treasures of art that were displayed on shelves and
brackets, as well as the entire arrangement of the drawing-room. Frau
von Hohenstein replied that it was all very simple, and that she was
sure that Fräulein von Rosen was accustomed to a far greater degree of
elegance. But something in her expression gave the lie to her words,
and Alma's heart grew heavy, for she could not but remember, as these
conventional phrases were being exchanged, the many delightful talks
she had had with Adela in this very room.
"Walter's sensations were very similar to Alma's, while Hugo Hohenstein
conducted the gentlemen through the gardens, where stiff flower-beds
but poorly replaced the rose-hedges. The trees in the park, too, were
much thinned, and part of the pond had been drained to give place to
more trim flower-beds.
"When the pond was drained a ring was found," said Hugo,--"a golden
ring, set with a blue or green stone. I have it now; and I should like
to know how it came in the pond."
The blood mounted to Walter's cheeks, but he said nothing, until
shortly afterwards, when he was shown the ring in the smoking-room.
Then he could not refrain from remarking, "I think your sister,
Fräulein Adela, used to wear that ring. If I am not mistaken, there is
a date engraved upon it,--the date of your parents' betrothal----Ah!
there it is: 'August 28, 1830.' Does that coincide with your knowledge
on the subject?"
"To be sure! I never thought of that. Really, it is remarkable how
stupid everything is when one comes to investigate it. Some interest
attached to the ring so long as no one knew how it came in the pond.
But now that we know all about it, it turns out to be perfectly
commonplace."
"Would you like to see my collection of weapons?" he asked, after a
while. "I have some rare pieces." He opened a cabinet and displayed its
contents to his guests. "They really are fine, are they not?" he said.
"I am thinking now of making an Egyptian collection. I intend going to
Egypt; it is a fearful bore to stay at home forever."
"Ah!" said Herr von Rosen. "What does your lady wife say to that?"
Hugo von Hohenstein looked at his neighbour with undisguised
astonishment, then he smiled with an air of superiority. "Mon Dieu!"
he said, "we did not marry to be bored. My wife will probably visit a
French watering-place, or something of the sort." He suppressed a
slight yawn, and thought how impossible it was to be entertained by
these gentilshommes campagnards, who, with their old-fashioned ideas,
were really quite out of place in the modern world.
Herr von Rosen ordered his carriage.
"À propos, since you are shortly to pay my governor a visit, my dear
Eichhof, why not take the ring with you?" said Hugo.
"Walter had already thought of doing so, but had not made up his mind
how to propose it. He took the ring, and his heart beat fast. Fate
willed that the ring he had cast away in anger should now be returned
to him; he would accept the omen,--it was the talisman of his good
fortune that he had thus regained. Therefore on the drive home to
Schönthal he was in the gayest humour, while Herr von Rosen and Alma
could not recover from the impression the visit had made upon them.
They had had a fleeting glimpse of a modern fashionable marriage, and
both were prompted to make a comparison which pained them.
"He is going to Egypt and she to France," Herr von Rosen thought, "and
this they call not being 'bored.' And my daughter and my son-in-law,
too, have put miles between them. Are they afraid of being 'bored'?
Good heavens! have home-life and home-happiness lost all charm for the
young people of the present day?"
Alma on her part thought of the cool courtesy with which Hugo
Hohenstein and his wife treated each other, and then her thoughts
travelled to Thea and Bernhard. Would they at some future day treat
each other thus, or even more coldly and stiffly? She longed to see
Thea again; now when her first sharp pang for Lothar's death was past,
and when her mother was so nearly well, the secret in which she was a
sharer weighed heavily upon her youthful soul. The world was so fair
and sunny, and people were so kind, and Dr. Nordstedt--no, he had
nothing to do with it; but she felt so calmly happy that her heart was
full of gratitude to God for this lovely world. But then, when she
remembered Thea and Lothar, she felt that she was wrong to be happy and
to enjoy. Oh, there was so much sorrow in the world after all!
And to-day, after the visit to Rollin, she felt in a particularly
melancholy mood. Rollin had impressed her as so sadly changed, she
missed Adela everywhere; she thought of how changed too Eichhof would
be when Thea finally returned thither, and she remembered that their
guests were to leave Schönthal on the morrow.
Occupied with these thoughts, she went out alone in the evening into
the park, while the rest were sitting on the veranda. Frau von Rosen
soon reentered the house, and asked her husband to come with her, as
she wished to speak with him. Nordstedt and Walter were left alone.
Nordstedt drummed with his fingers upon the garden-table, near which he
sat, in a nervous way quite unlike him. He arose once or twice, then
seated himself and drummed again, saying, at last, "I will go find
Fräulein Alma; the evening is damp, she may take cold."
"Well, then, come," said Walter, evidently regarding his companionship
as indispensable.
Nordstedt stood one moment in silence, then put both hands upon his
young friend's shoulders, and said, gently, "Let me go alone; I have
something to say to Fräulein Alma."
"Nordstedt, is it possible?" Walter ejaculated, having already during
his visit at Schönthal made up his mind that it was not Adela who had
wrought the change in Nordstedt which had so surprised and annoyed him
in Berlin.
Nordstedt looked abroad into the moonlight. "Much is possible, my dear
fellow; nothing is certain!" he said. And without another word he
descended the steps of the veranda and walked alone: the moonlit path
towards the park.
CHAPTER XXII. — A CRISIS.
It was very lonely at Castle Eichhof. On lovely summer afternoons the
servants would sit in the pleasantest nooks in the garden discussing
old times and new ones, and the windows of the second story were
closely curtained, and looked as if they had all kinds of secrets to
keep. Thea had not yet returned, and Bernhard's visits to his home were
very short, and when he did come he occupied his bachelor apartments.
His railway scheme gave him a great deal to do, and even if this had
not been the case he could not have borne to stay long in his lonely
castle.
It was fortunate that the Wronskys were at home this summer! Although
their estate, Paniênka, was more than two miles distant from Eichhof,
Bernhard was their frequent guest.
Wronsky, who was much too undecided a character to insist upon his own
way when it was not agreeable to his wife, was extremely glad that she
had chosen to spend this summer at home, for he dearly loved his ease
and good eating. He looked up to his wife much as he did to his old
schoolfellow Bernhard, and if he thought it the great blessing of his
life that he had won the hand of his beautiful, clever, and proud
Julutta, none the less did he feel himself greatly honoured by
Bernhard's frequent presence in his house. In his unpretending
bonhommie he thought it but natural that his friend should prefer his
wife's society to his own. Bernhard's influence over his good-natured
friend dated from their school-days; he had always been first in his
classes, while Wronsky had contentedly remained at their foot. And
Julutta? She smiled when she perceived Bernhard approaching, but it was
a strange, contemptuous smile, very different from the one with which
she greeted him when he stood before her. Latterly she had not smiled
when he appeared, but had bidden him welcome with eyes that were large
and serious, and with a certain shy confusion in her manner. The more
embarrassed she seemed, the warmer and the firmer was his clasp of her
hand, the more frank and cordial did he become, until she, too, adopted
his tone, and they talked together like good friends and comrades. At
least so Bernhard would have said, and he forced himself to believe
that so it was. Yes, Julutta's blush when he touched her hand, the
liquid brilliancy of her eyes, the pathetic tone of her voice when she
talked with him, all this was only friendship. True it was, however,
that Julutta could not only talk and blush with a grace all her own,
but could also observe and combine with a cleverness beyond that of
other women.
Bernhard took a certain credit to himself for never mentioning Thea in
his conversations with Julutta, for concealing the ruined sanctuary of
his home from the eyes of his friend.
But Julutta heard and saw what he never told her. Why it was she did
not indeed know, but she did know that he was not happy in his
marriage, and from the moment when she first became aware of this she
smiled no more upon Bernhard as formerly, but her earnest gaze told
him, "I know that you suffer, and I suffer with you." And in spite of
himself he understood this language, and the longer Thea remained away,
and the wider the breach became that separated them, the better did he
learn to comprehend what Frau Julutta's eyes said to him.
When he returned to his lonely home was it any wonder that Julutta's
image pursued him thither? At first he had pitied her, then he had
admired her intellect, and now he could no longer banish from his mind
the expression of her eyes, the strange, bewildering charm of her
beauty. He saw her before him as he rode slowly home on moonlit summer
nights through the fragrant meadows; he saw her still when he entered
his lonely house. He had felt so secure, so superior, with regard to
this woman, and now? Bernhard would not analyze, would not even reflect
upon, his present sentiments towards her. Why should he? Has not many a
one, seeing his every hope in life wrecked, sought forgetfulness in the
intoxicating bowl? And Bernhard sought to forget; and if he suspected
that his senses were bewildered, he never dreamed of throwing aside the
goblet. This bewilderment should never reach the point of intoxication;
Bernhard never could forget that Julutta was the wife of the friend of
his youth; no, beyond a certain point Bernhard was still sure of
himself.
In this sense of security he drove over to Paniênka one sultry
afternoon. The sun was near its setting as he reached the pine forest
bordering on the park, but the air was still oppressively hot, and not
a breath stirred the ferns that grew on the roadside. Not a bird
twittered, not a squirrel was seen climbing the gray trunks, not a
human being encountered the vehicle, and the crunching of its wheels on
the road was the only sound that disturbed the breathless silence. The
air was filled with the strong fragrance of the pines, and across the
blue strips of sky visible among the tree-tops stretched isolated gray
clouds like menacing fingers foreboding a storm. Bernhard did not see
them. He leaned back in the carriage, gazing into the gray-green forest
twilight without really seeing that either. The dreamy quiet of nature
seemed to have infected him. Suddenly he sat upright. There was more
light between the trunks of the trees, a gray wall draped with trailing
hop-vines appeared, and then two red gateposts,--that was the little
side-entrance to the park at Paniênka. The carriage was just about
to turn into a broad avenue of chestnuts, which led to the castle
court-yard, when he told the coachman to stop. He thought he heard
himself called by name. He stood up, and thus could see over the wall.
Across the green lawn stretching between the wall and a little pond
came the slender figure of a woman, who beckoned to him. In her white
trailing dress and her gold-gleaming hair she looked like the nymph of
the cool forest pool whose waters glistened behind her.
"Where are you going, Count Eichhof?" exclaimed Julutta. "My husband is
at R----, and it is so insufferably warm in-doors that I have taken
refuge here by the pond. If you will come and drive away the gnats with
a cigar I shall be grateful to you."
Bernhard sprang from the carriage and approached the little gate.
Julutta leaned upon the wall, which just there was low and crumbling.
"Tell them to bring us some fruit and wine from the castle," she called
out to the coachman. Then she went to the gate and opened it to admit
Bernhard. So soon as she was alone with him her self-possession
vanished. She offered him her hand without looking at him, she spoke of
the heat of the weather, of Bernhard's long drive, excused herself for
thus detaining him, perhaps against his will, and then congratulated
herself upon his visit,--all this so hastily spoken, and in such
bewitching confusion, that Bernhard could not but see that she was
embarrassed, and that she wished to conceal or overcome her
embarrassment by talking quickly. They had reached a charming spot, a
seat half surrounded by low rocks, and looking upon the little forest
lake. A small waterfall plashed close by and diffused a refreshing
coolness, so that Bernhard after his warm drive involuntarily drew a
deep breath.
"It is charming here," he said; "and you come to me like a kind fairy
who lives in an enchanted forest and who conducts weary wanderers into
her fairy home, where it is always cool and delightful."
Julutta laughed. "Only favoured wanderers," she said.
"I thank you, gentle fairy," Bernhard said, earnestly. She blushed and
looked away from him towards the water. For an instant he gazed at her
admiringly, and then, as if forcing himself to look at something
else, he took up a little book lying on a rustic table. He read the
title-page,--"Pages from the Life of a Good-for-Nothing," by
Eichendorff. "Ah, have you been reading this midsummer night's dream of
Eichendorff's on this sultry summer day?" he asked.
With a smile she turned to him. "And why not?" she said, with a gentle
dreamy expression in her eyes. "Do you think, because I have known more
than most women of the stern realities of life, that I must have lost
all sense of its poetry?"
"No, assuredly not; but I thought you too much of a critic to enjoy the
story, which, charming as it is, is so absolutely impossible that you
must admit that it is thoroughly unreal and unnatural."
"But, good heavens! there are moods in which one longs for just that. A
day like this in a lonely forest--for this park is really only a
forest--makes one dream; and why should one not indulge in this
charming midsummer dream, and for an hour believe that, even in this
mortal life, everything may be delightful? Reality will teach us soon
enough that it is not so."
Bernhard turned over the leaves of the book. Julutta seated herself
upon the gnarled roots of a beech beside the waterfall, and gazed
at the green lily-pads floating on the little lake, and at the
dragon-flies hovering on gauzy wings above it.
"You have been dreaming, then, to-day?" Bernhard asked, seating himself
beside her.
"Yes; shall you laugh at me for doing so?"
"On the contrary, I envy you. I have had to write such dreadfully long
and tiresome letters at home."
"Do you never dream?"
"They say a man should never dream."
"Ah, 'they say' so much, 'they' are so wise; but folly is not to be
easily banished from the world. I even maintain that every man of
sensibility and imagination has often found himself dreaming of some
foolish happiness."
"Why of a foolish happiness?"
"Because happiness can hardly ever stand the test of critical reason,
but depends upon imagination, which is often folly. And what is
happiness, after all? A moment, an intoxication, a dream,--and yet we
all long for it."
A year before--a few months before--Bernhard would perhaps have
contradicted her. Now he nodded a mute assent. She was right. Happiness
was an intoxication, a dream.
"I sometimes think," Julutta continued, eagerly, "that mortals would be
better and happier if there were somewhere an island where all could be
happy in their own way for at least three weeks of every year."
Bernhard laughed. "There is method in your dreaming at least," he said.
"Laugh if you will," she said; "but do you not believe that many a one
would bear his burden more easily and willingly if each year brought
him so happy a memory and so glad a hope?"
"Possibly; but many would be miserably unhappy in longing for this
blessed island all through the rest of the year."
"Oh, no. Children at school are not made unhappy by thoughts of their
holidays; they are refreshed and strengthened for their studies by
them."
Bernhard sat drawing hieroglyphics in the gravel with his cane. A clink
of glasses was heard approaching, and Julutta arose.
"Here comes our 'Little table spread thee,'" she said, going to the
rustic table, upon which the servant arranged decanters, wine-glasses,
and fragrant fruit. "Come," said Julutta. "There are those who maintain
that wine can conduct to the Island of the Blest." She handed him a
sparkling glass and laughed. "Which only means that we are too sensible
to be happy; for common sense must be thrown overboard before we can
land upon my Island of the Blest."
Bernhard took the glass. "To the Island of the Blest!" he said,
emptying it at a draught.
Julutta divided a fragrant peach with her snowy fingers, and offered
half of it to Bernhard.
A dragon-fly hovered above the table, and settled for a moment upon the
basket of fruit. "A greeting from the Island of the Blest!" Bernhard
exclaimed.
But Julutta had suddenly grown grave and thoughtful. She brushed the
dragon-fly away with her handkerchief, leaned her head upon her hand,
and gazed at the little lake, that now looked gray and leaden.
"Of what are you thinking?" Bernhard asked.
"What folly I have been talking!" she said, hastily arising. "Come, let
us go to the house. My husband will soon return, and we can receive
him."
"Your husband? Oh, if Wronsky has gone to the circuit court at R----,
he cannot be back again for two or three hours at least. It is so
lovely here, why not stay?"
She looked at him almost angrily. "Why?" she repeated, and her eyes
grew tender and yearning again. "Well, then let us stay," she added, in
a low tone, and walked down to the water's edge.
Bernhard followed her. "You are strangely agitated to-day," he said,
standing close beside her. "May I not, as your friend, know----?"
She seemed scarcely to hear him, but pointed towards the black canopy
of clouds that hung above the forest on the other side of the water,
and through which just then there shone a zigzag flash of flame.
"It is lightning!" she said.
He looked in her face; one might almost see the blood pulsing beneath
the delicate transparent skin, and there was a gleam in her eyes akin
to the lightning-flash in the clouds.
They stood thus silently side by side for some moments, until the
servant had removed the fruit and wine and gone to the house.
"What is the matter?" Bernhard gently asked.
She shook her head, and a forced smile played about her mouth.
"Nothing," she said; "nothing at all." But her eyes suddenly filled
with tears.
"What, tears!" he exclaimed, in alarm. "You have a sorrow that you are
hiding from me! Am I no longer worthy of your confidence? What have I
done?"
"Nothing, nothing!" she said again. "You are the best, the noblest of
men, and I--but I pray you, I entreat you, ask me nothing further!"
Bernhard's eyes fell before her, and he was silent. Every moment it
grew darker around them; the evening shadows made the water show almost
black, except that now and then the lurid glare of the lightning was
reflected in its calm surface. The sultry breath of the storm, heavy
with the fragrance of the pines and the perfume of roses, was wafted
across forest and water. To Bernhard it seemed stifling. He sighed
heavily.
"I wish I had never returned from the ocean that night at Trouville,"
Julutta whispered; "then all suffering would be over, and I should be
at peace!"
"Julutta!"
Again she shook her head sadly. "The waters have closed over our Island
of the Blest forever," she whispered, scarce audibly.
But Bernhard heard and understood. He clasped her white hand in both
his own, and she made no resistance. "Bernhard!" she breathed, as if
carried away by the spell of the moment. And he, too, yielded to the
spell.
"Julutta!" he cried, involuntarily opening his arms to her. But lithe
and swift as some smooth serpent she glided past him. At the same
instant a blast of wind ruffled the surface of the pond, and a few
large drops of rain began to fall.
Through the rising tempest Julutta's laughing voice fell upon his ear:
"The thunder-storm is upon us!" she called, and the next instant had
vanished behind the rocks. At such a moment she could laugh and
remember the storm! To him it seemed a matter of course that the
tempest should come: the wind and storm suited his mood. He did not
think of seeking shelter, but through the increasing hurly-burly the
conviction flashed upon him, vivid as the glare of the lightning, "Your
conduct and your love are alike disgraceful!"
He shuddered. Before him, among the tossing boughs and wind-swept
bushes, fluttered a white robe,--Julutta was fleeing from the tempest.
In an instant the flashing rain hid all around and before him in a gray
twilight. He slowly took his way towards the house. Julutta had reached
it long before he entered the hall, from the walls of which the
portraits of Marzell's parents looked down upon him, strangely endowed
with a ghostly life by the repeated flashes of lightning. The memory of
his childhood was suddenly present as in a vision to Bernhard. He saw
Marzell and himself on the knees of that kindly old man, he seemed to
hear the gentle voice of Marzell's mother, and he passed his hand
across his forehead with a sigh.
"I am a guest in Marzell Wronsky's house, and Julutta is his wife," he
murmured, and again he shuddered. "Julutta is his wife," he repeated,
and with sudden decision he turned and would have gone to order his
carriage. What mattered the wind and storm? He must leave this house,
and the sooner the better.
But at the door he encountered Marzell Wronsky himself, who had but
just arrived, and whom the storm had overtaken at a short distance from
his home. He shook himself like some wet dog, scolded at the weather,
and would not hear of Bernhard's leaving Paniênka. He declared it to be
simply impossible, and Bernhard himself could not now see why he should
refuse to spend an hour with his friend and await the abating of the
wind and rain. With a sigh of resignation, and feeling like some
penitent who suffers patiently a just punishment, he consented to
remain.
"I am delighted to have come just in time to catch you," said Wronsky.
"Now we shall have a charming evening together. But where in the world
is my wife?" Bernhard said that they had been overtaken in the garden
by the rain, and that he supposed Frau von Wronsky had gone to change
her dress.
"Then you must be wet, too!" exclaimed Marzell, feeling the sleeve of
his friend's coat. "Of course, drenched to the skin! And you were going
to drive home in this condition, as if there were no dry things to be
had here! I am, to be sure, rather stouter than you, and not quite so
tall, but that's no matter. Come with me to my dressing-room. What were
you about, to think of driving two miles to Eichhof in your wet
clothes! You ought to have known that my entire wardrobe is at your
service."
Wronsky's self-importance was vastly increased by his belief that he
had surprised his admired friend in a small piece of stupidity, and by
the certainty that he could save him, if not from any great misfortune,
at least from a cold in his head. He was so innocently officious, so
indescribably amiable, that Bernhard endured torments at the
remembrance of the scene at the pond in the park. He felt thoroughly
ashamed of himself, and he hoped and believed that Julutta would find
some pretext for refusing to join the gentlemen. Instead of which she
soon made her appearance in a kind of négligé, which was both elegant
and bewitching, and her air and manner were not at all what Bernhard
had supposed they would be. Her eyes sparkled, her cheeks glowed, and
she was evidently under the influence of a joyous excitement, which
annoyed Bernhard, and which he could not comprehend. She was brilliant
in her conversation, and while talking with her husband frequently
looked towards Bernhard. In much that she said there was a double
meaning which could be perceived by Bernhard alone, and this secret
understanding which she seemed thus to establish between herself and
Bernhard in the presence of her unconscious husband became each moment
more and more painful to Count Eichhof.
At last the storm had passed, and he could order his carriage.
"I am glad you happened to come to-day," said Marzell, "for to-morrow I
must go to my sister's again. You know that since her husband's death
affairs are in terrible confusion over there, and I have my hands full
in settling matters. I shall have to be away for some time; perhaps you
will find time to come over and see my wife. She will be very lonely.
Eh, Julutta?"
"If it would not bore you, Count Eichhof." Her eyes had an arch sparkle
in them, and there was a bewitching smile upon her lips, as, with one
hand on her husband's shoulder, she extended the other to her guest,
and said, with significant emphasis, "Au revoir."
Bernhard turned hurriedly away and got into his carriage. Wronsky had
something to say to his inspector, and Julutta retired to her own room.
Here she walked to and fro for a few minutes in great agitation of
mind. Then she seated herself at her writing-table, and drew forth the
mute confidante of her thoughts and her life,--her diary. Her pen
travelled swiftly over the paper. She wrote: "At last--at last my
haughty Count is as wax in my hands, for I know now that he loves me. I
could have trodden him in the dust at my feet to-day; but no, my
triumph, my revenge, shall be prolonged! I will exult for a while
longer in the consciousness that he loves me and suffers on my account.
My heart throbs fast at the thought. I scarcely know sometimes whether
it is hate or love with which he inspires me. Love? Can I love? No; the
tempest of my life has left me no heart that can love. And yet I find a
strange discord in my mind. There is no need to put a force upon myself
to treat him with gentleness and affection. If this means love, I have
used it to minister to my hatred, for it has helped me to acquire a
mastery over him. Yes, I have gained this mastery, and I shall know how
to use it. I will listen to the confession of his love from his own
proud lips that I may spurn him from me with contempt. And have I not
just cause to hate him thus? Did he not trample beneath his feet the
last remnant of my better self,--my pride? My pride was still mine. It
drove me to leave Herr von Möhâzy when I learned his treachery; it
caused me to accept the hand of a country squire, but a man of honour,
and thus to prove to myself and the world that I was not the outcast I
was inclined to believe myself. And he--he, when I was more unfortunate
than guilty, condemned me as utterly base, without even hearing me! Oh,
I have suffered too deeply from this man's scorn ever to forget it! I
resolved to requite him for this scorn. I would compel him to love
me,--me, upon whom he looked down so proudly from the heights of his
virtue; me, the wife of his friend. It was a bold scheme, but it has
been successful. My meeting Möhâzy and the Count's interference was a
tie established between us. Then, when Möhâzy left Berlin, I told my
husband the story of my youth. I knew I could do it with safety, that
his affection would find excuses for me. He did so, and I thus
destroyed the only weapon which Bernhard Eichhof could turn against me.
But will Wronsky find excuses for this man,--this model of a haughty,
virtuous aristocrat, who, in spite of his virtue, loves the wife of his
friend? All his pride, all his virtue, I now hold like some toy in my
hand. If I choose, I can toss it at his feet; and I will so choose. He
will come and help me to complete my retribution. I know what men are."
Meanwhile Bernhard's thoughts, like restless night-moths, hovered about
the woman whose hatred he never suspected, and whose love had, perhaps
unconsciously to himself, inspired some of his dreams. Now the veil had
dropped from his eyes, and at his feet yawned an abyss that threatened
to bury in its depths honour, self-respect, and friendship. And this
woman's white hand would have beckoned him on!
He thought of her coquettish glances, of the double meaning in her
words, and this after that one supreme moment which had betrayed to
both that they were not indifferent to each other. If she had been a
true woman and wife would she not have recoiled in horror from the
memory of that moment? Instead of which there was an inconceivable
gleam of triumph in her eyes; and even when her husband, in
unsuspecting cordiality, was inviting his friend to his house, she had
known no shame, but had whispered significantly, "Au revoir."
Bernhard's brow contracted, and a cold hand seemed to clutch his heart.
"Oh, women, women!" he thought, and something akin to hatred stirred in
his soul for Thea. Had she so looked, so smiled? He, to be sure, had
made it all easier for her. He had not been by while she was coquetting
with Lothar. His thoughts were unutterably bitter.
"I will not dwell upon the reason for those false smiles and glances
to-day," he said to himself. "I will act the part of an honest man, and
put an end to the whole affair. I did not know myself, and I will be
upon my guard. Never talk to me again of friendship between man and
woman."
Arrived at home, he looked over the letters that were awaiting him.
Among them was one from Thea. He knew that it could bring him nothing
for which his heart longed, but nevertheless he opened it instantly.
She wrote briefly, almost in a business-like way, as was now her wont.
She should be at Eichhof at the end of a week, to arrange some affairs
that needed her presence there. The boy, she wrote, would certainly be
quite well by that time. He had been often ailing of late, but the
physician had assured her that there was nothing serious the matter.
Bernhard tossed the letter impatiently aside. "She writes as if her
coming to Eichhof needed an excuse!" he exclaimed, irritably, and took
up a large letter postmarked 'Berlin.'
He opened it hurriedly, as one opens a business letter, in haste to be
done with a disagreeable task. He first merely glanced at it, but his
attention was soon arrested. He stared at the paper as though he could
not appreciate its contents. But there, plainly to be seen, were the
inexorable characters that announced to him the failure of the great
banking-house upon whose support the railway scheme had chiefly
depended. The prosecution of this scheme was simply an impossibility
without the aid of this house; all the time and money hitherto expended
upon it were of no avail, and Bernhard was personally a considerable
loser by the failure. He saw the work of which he had thought to be so
proud fall to pieces at one blow. Gone--gone; and yet perhaps something
might still be done, some new plan adopted. At all events, his presence
in Berlin was absolutely necessary. He had great influence there. He
might effect something.
His self-respect, his confidence in his own strength of mind, had
suffered a terrible blow with regard to Julutta. Could not something be
done to restore these? If he could succeed in spite of all obstacles in
putting new life into the ruined scheme, in securing the benefits it
had promised to his part of the country, this would indeed be an
achievement worthy of a struggle. And any struggle was welcome to him
at present. He would cast aside all doubts and self-analysis and
concentrate his thoughts upon one point. Yes, he would leave Eichhof by
the earliest train on the morrow, and do his best to reanimate the lost
enterprise.
In a short, courteous note he informed Frau von Wronsky that important
business affairs called him for an indefinite time to Berlin, and that
he must therefore ask her and her husband to excuse him if he did not
appear at Paniênka during the next few weeks. "That is ended and done
with," he said, as he sealed the envelope, before ordering every
arrangement to be made for Thea's reception and his own departure.
CHAPTER XXIII. — A SHORT CHAPTER, WITH A FAR GLANCE INTO THE FUTURE.
The Freiherr von Hohenstein sat on the veranda of his villa, puffing
forth clouds of cigar-smoke, and looking down at his daughter, who
stood at the bottom of the veranda steps surrounded by all sorts of
animals. She had apparently just returned from riding, for a long
dark-blue riding-habit clung closely to her pretty figure, and a high
black hat, with a blue veil, sat jauntily upon her curling hair, which,
loosened by her ride, was tumbling picturesquely over her shoulders.
With one hand she was feeding her horse, that still stood beside her,
with sugar, and with the other she was stroking a tame fawn that
nestled close to her. A young Newfoundland, Fidèle's successor, was
making clumsy efforts to attract her attention, and the sound of a
shrill whistle, hardly permissible from such rosy lips, and yet not
much out of keeping with Adela's general manner, brought the doves
flying to her from all sides. Suddenly they fluttered away in terror:
the dog began to bark angrily. Adela looked towards the garden-gate,
and then, with a deep blush, ran up the veranda steps to say, "Papa,
papa, it is Walter Eichhof!"
Yes, it was he; and as he offered Adela his hand, and she, still
blushing crimson, cast down her eyes, both knew that neither was angry.
The Freiherr bade his guests welcome. He was now so convinced of his
daughter's infallibility that he had not made the least objection when
Adela had proposed to him to invite her old comrade to visit them,
suggesting that Walter might conduct negotiations for the Freiherr with
some Berlin publisher. Herr von Hohenstein was delighted with this
idea, and, besides, he contemplated reading his work aloud to his
guests; for although they knew nothing of the breeding of horses, yet
they were two human beings who could sit still and listen, and more the
author did not desire.
"I have a letter for you," Dr. Nordstedt said to Adela, after the first
greetings were over. As soon as the girl received it she made it a
pretext for slipping into the house, since, to her surprise, she seemed
suddenly to have lost all her self-possession, and to be unable to take
the satisfaction she had looked for in the visit she had so happily
arranged.
She gave orders for the reception and comfort of her guests, and then
retired to her own room, whence she could overlook the terrace in front
of the house, and could hear Walter's voice through the open window.
There she stood, looking out and listening, with her hands clasped over
her beating heart.
"He has come! he has come!" she thought, exultantly. Then she opened
Alma's letter to glance through it, but the first lines arrested her
attention. What was it? These were strange tidings indeed! This grave
Dr. Nordstedt, for whom Adela entertained an immense respect, loved
Alma Rosen, and had asked her to be his wife. Alma wrote, "Can you
believe, dearest Adela, that he loves me? I seem to myself so little
and silly that it is incredible to me; but it must be true, for he says
so, and it makes me so proud and happy that I could shout for joy. But,
when I think of one who is gone, I no longer rejoice. And so I have
begged Friedrich--you know his name is Friedrich--to be only my friend
for the present, and I have told him why I ask this. And he--oh, he is
the best and noblest man living!--he says he loves me the more for it,
and will wait until I summon him. I have told him that you are my
dearest friend, and that I should write all this to you, that you may
not treat him like a stranger."
Adela stared at the sheet before her in absolute bewilderment. She was
entirely unprepared tor its contents, for she had been far too much
occupied with Walter and herself when in Berlin to have had any time
for observation of Dr. Nordstedt and Alma. "Alma Nordstedt, Frau Dr.
Nordstedt," she whispered, shaking her head; "it sounds very odd!" She
looked very thoughtful, but in an instant her face broke into smiles,
and, alone as she was, she covered her face with her hands to hide her
blushes.
When some hours later she was walking with her guests through the
garden, she broke off an opening rosebud and offered it to Nordstedt.
"Imagine it a greeting from Alma," she whispered, with a smile.
"I thank you," he replied, simply, pressing her offered hand.
Walter stood by. Adela looked up at him, half shyly, half archly, but
there was no rose for him.
Later in the evening, while Nordstedt and the Freiherr were playing a
game of chess, the other two were walking along the same garden-path
and by the same rose-bush.
"You gave me no rose to-day," Walter said, pausing in their stroll.
"From whom did you desire a greeting?" she asked him, mockingly.
"No one sends me any, and I expect none. But I have brought you
something that looks like a greeting from the past. Will you not
receive it as such?"
He held out the ring to her, and told her how it had been found.
"My ring! How strange!" exclaimed Adela. But she did not take it. She
dropped the hand she had extended towards it, and said, half turning
away her head, "The ring does not belong to me. I gave it away."
"You know I cannot keep it?"
"But I wish you to keep it."
Walter was silent for a moment, and then said, gently, "Adela, do you
remember all I told you then?"
She silently assented, and he went on: "My plans and views are nowise
altered; on the contrary, I am more than ever devoted to the profession
I have chosen."
She gave him a sidelong glance. "Yes, I know it," she said; "and in two
years you are to pass your examination."
"Adela, can you tell me that and yet wish me to keep this ring?"
He took her hand, but she withdrew it from his clasp.
"Stay, Herr Doctor in spe; if I do refuse to take back the ring,
there is no need for such conduct on your part as we remember on a
former occasion."
"Dearest Adela, I entreat you not to trifle with me. This moment must
decide our future, and if you deceive me now----"
"Good heavens, Walter! I am not deceiving you; I have grown older, and
perhaps a little wiser, but for all that I am only sixteen years old,
and you are still a student, and papa cannot spare me, and you must
work very hard, and--no, stay where you are, please--what I wanted to
say to you was that I thought it terrible that we should both go
through the world so angry with each other, and I could not bear it,
and so I begged papa to ask you here."
Whilst she spoke she had retreated step for step around the rose-bush
as Walter advanced, so that both had now made its entire circuit. Again
he tried to take her hand, but, lithe and swift as a fawn, she placed
the entire bush between herself and her lover, and from her place of
vantage went on: "Stand still there, and I will tell you something.
There was a young officer in Berlin who wanted me to marry him----"
"Adela!"
"Hush! Yes, he wanted me to marry him, and I refused point-blank."
"Adela!"
"Stand still, Walter, or I will leave you. I told him that at present
I would betroth myself to no one, but that when I was eighteen, if any
one should woo me, I never would marry an officer or a lawyer, for that
I had decided if I ever married that it should be a doctor!"
And away she sped to the house, which she was entering just as Walter
reached the foot of the veranda steps.
"Adela! dearest Adela!" he cried.
As he spoke, a fresh dewy rose was tossed into his face, and Adela
vanished, with a laugh, inside the house.
CHAPTER XXIV. — PER CRUCEM AD LUCEM.
Bernhard's exertions in Berlin were fruitless. The failure of the large
banking firm had involved many other business firms. There had been
heavy losses, and those who had not suffered shook their heads and kept
their money safe in their pockets. The word 'railway' provoked a
perfect panic, and confidence everywhere was greatly shaken. Upon a
closer examination Bernhard's losses were found to be much greater than
had been at first supposed. After conscientious consideration he could
not but admit to himself that it was time for him to look after his own
interests and relinquish, for the present at least, his efforts for the
benefit of the country at large. So he returned to his home very much
cast down, his confidence in his own ability greatly shaken,
discontented with himself and with destiny.
At the station, which was about three miles from Eichhof, his carriage
was awaiting him. He got into it with a sigh, and as it rolled through
the monotonous pine forest he sat thinking how refreshing it would be
to him to be affectionately welcomed to his home. He saw before him
Thea as she had been a year before, when she had studied so hard for
his sake, and the past lay before his mental vision like a lost
Paradise. Why was it all so different now? why was there this shadow
between himself and his wife, the shadow of a dead man, and yet
palpable enough to separate them forever?
"She was pure as a lily when she came to me," he said to himself.
"Could I not have shielded her from every possible danger? Did I not
know Lothar? Did I not know that he was as thoughtless as he was
susceptible? Why did I look so far abroad and shut my eyes to what was
nearest me? I built castles in the air for the future, and lost the
ground beneath my feet. But then--Thea was my wife, Lothar was my
brother,--how could I think---- Oh, it is hard, fearfully hard!"
Monotonous as the road along which he was driving, his future life now
lay before him, without one sunny, peaceful spot that promised repose.
Suddenly he thought of his child, his son, of whom he had as yet seen
so little. From his fair rosy boy a light seemed to issue and illumine
the future pathway of the lonely man. He could devote himself to the
care of his child, he could prepare for him a golden future. To be
sure, he was himself still too young not to rebel against his fate, but
nevertheless the thought of his boy consoled him. He roused himself
from his gloomy revery, and asked the coachman whether the Countess
Thea and his child were at Eichhof. The old servant turned towards him,
and his eyes seemed mutely to reproach his master as he replied, "Yes,
Herr Count; Madame the Countess arrived at Eichhof yesterday."
"And the child is well?" Bernhard inquired.
The old man's face grew sad, but his eyes were not so reproachful; his
master had not quite forgotten his wife and child. "Beg pardon, Herr
Count," he said, "but the child is not well. They were both well when
they arrived, but in the night----"
"Not well; what do you mean? The child is not seriously ill?"
"Beg pardon, Herr Count, but the child is very ill. Just before the
despatch came from Berlin ordering the carriage, Madame the Countess
telegraphed to the Herr Count----"
"And you have never told me until now?" Bernhard exclaimed.
The old man began once more with his "Beg pardon, Herr Count;" and
added, "Madame the Countess thought that the Herr Count would have left
Berlin before her despatch could reach him, and she was afraid that the
Herr Count might be anxious, and so she told me to say nothing unless
the Herr Count inquired. And I did just as Madame the Countess
ordered."
"Drive on!" Bernhard cried, wrapping himself in his cloak. He looked at
his watch; they were just crossing the forest near Paniênka; he could
not reach home in less than an hour. And his child, for whom he had
just been planning in his mind, was ill, dangerously ill, or Thea would
not have telegraphed him.
"What are you about, Hadasch?" he suddenly exclaimed to the coachman.
"Drive as fast as you possibly can----"
Instead of which the carriage stood still, and with his usual "Beg
pardon, Herr Count," the coachman pointed to a very dashing and
graceful horsewoman who had just appeared from a side-road, and who was
the cause of the delay.
She reined in her steed beside the carriage, and Bernhard replied to
the enchanting smile of the fair Amazon by a formal lifting of his hat.
"What a delightful encounter!" cried Frau von Wronsky, and her eyes
were more eloquent than any words. "I hope your business matters are
concluded, or rather I know they are, and that you have had much that
was most annoying to endure."
"You know----" He was now standing in his barouche, with his hand upon
the back of the seat, and her brilliant eyes were on a level with his
own.
"Yes; I have heard it all in my letters from Berlin, and naturally I
have sympathized with you from my heart. Your home must indemnify you,
my dear Count, for all that you have suffered abroad." She leaned
forward and looked him full in the face as she spoke. "I trust you will
soon come to Paniênka, that we may discuss it all together."
"You are very kind, but I have just heard that my boy is very ill,
and----"
"Oh, has your wife returned? Happy man! I am still alone; my husband is
away for an indefinite time----"
Bernhard looked not at her, but at his horses pawing the ground
impatiently, as he rejoined, "I am extremely anxious with regard to my
boy; he seems to be dangerously ill."
She struck her glove impatiently with the silver butt of her
riding-whip, and her dark brows lowered, but she controlled herself,
and said, "If the sick-room should be too confining for you, I pray you
to remember the rocks about the lake in the park at Paniênka. My
remembrances to your charming wife. I hope soon to hear from you."
She inclined her head and reined in her horse for an instant longer, as
though awaiting an answer.
"I certainly will send you word with regard to the child's condition,"
Bernhard said, gravely.
She galloped off, and he again ordered the coachman to drive as fast as
possible.
The old man, however, who had listened with an impassive face to the
conversation between his master and the charming Julutta, took the
liberty of begging pardon once more, that he might inform Bernhard that
Madame von Wronsky's groom had met him to-day, and had questioned him
as to the exact hour of the Herr Count's arrival.
Bernhard's brow grew dark. His people then were aware, it seemed, of
his 'friendship,' and watched him. And she, Julutta, had not disdained
to learn what she wished concerning him through her groom. And she
seemed also to have made inquiries about him in Berlin. And yet, in
spite of all this interest, she had no comprehension of his anxiety
concerning his child! The sentiment with which he now regarded this
woman, for whose sake he had for an instant done violence to all that
was best in him, was more like hate than love. When at last he reached
Eichhof he sprang impatiently from the carriage.
"How is the child?" he asked of the footman who instantly appeared. The
man shook his head. "The doctor is up-stairs, Herr Count; I am afraid
he is no better."
Bernhard hurried to the sick-room and entered noiselessly. He saw Thea
leaning back in an armchair, deadly pale, and the physician occupied
with her. Beside the child's cradle two women knelt weeping. One glance
at the little form lying there told Bernhard that he was too late, that
all was over. For an instant he stood as though turned to stone. Then
the doctor perceived him. The old friend of the family could scarcely
speak to the young Count for a moment, but pressed his hand in silence.
"Is it all over?" Bernhard asked in a scarcely audible whisper,
pointing to the child.
The physician assented. "Human means were of no avail. He died of
convulsions."
"And my wife?"
"It is only a fainting-fit; but Countess Thea is terribly distressed."
Just then Thea opened her eyes, and, obeying his first impulse,
Bernhard hurried to her side and clasped her in his arms. For an
instant she allowed her head to rest upon his shoulder. Her whole frame
was shaken by convulsive sobs. Then she gently disengaged herself, and
sank on her knees beside the cradle, laying her head down upon the
pillow.
Bernhard stood beside her, profoundly agitated. Perfect silence reigned
in the room, which was broken at last by the physician's entreaty to
Thea to remember how much she needed care, and how overwrought she was.
She shook her head, and begged to be left alone with the child.
"It is best to let her have her way," the doctor said.
Bernhard once more stooped over her. "Thea!" he whispered. She waved
him off, and he left the room silently with the others. He saw that she
was determined to allow him no share in her grief. "And yet this grief
is the only, the last bond between us," he thought.
Through all these days Thea was so touching and yet so dignified in her
sorrow, that Bernhard knew, as he had never known before, how truly
she, and she alone, was the only woman whom he could ever love. In
spite of her suffering she found time to attend to his lightest wish.
He felt himself surrounded by her love, and yet he met with the same
gentle but firm repulse whenever he sought to approach her. His sorrow
for his child was scarcely more keen than his sorrow for the loss of
his wife. For that he had lost her was now clearer to him than ever;
and yet, strangely enough, he doubted more strongly every day whether
the cause of this loss was what he had hitherto supposed it to be. When
he saw her performing her duties so quietly, bearing her pain so
proudly and yet with such true womanliness, it seemed to him impossible
that she could ever have been other than proud and womanly. He began to
scrutinize himself and his conduct towards her, and to have doubts
whether the fault were not, after all, his own. But then he thought of
Lothar's death, of her refusal to answer his question, and of the total
change in her manner towards him from that time. Would she have agreed
to the letter he had written her then, if she were not guilty? Would
she not have eagerly sought an explanation with him had she been
innocent, instead of mutely avoiding it as she had done?
This was the state of affairs when, a few days after the child's
funeral, Thea entered his room. Since Lothar's death she had never done
so, and Bernhard, therefore, received her with surprise, and almost
with alarm; for he instantly saw by her face that the coming hour would
be decisive for them both. She seated herself in the armchair he placed
for her, and looked down at her hands, which were clasped in her lap.
There was no ring upon them.
It went to Bernhard's heart to observe that she had laid aside her
betrothal-ring, and yet he knew that so it must be.
He had not the courage to begin the conversation, and, after a pause,
she said, in a low tone, "I am come to remind you of that letter,--of
the letter in which you expressed your views of our relation to each
other. Our child is dead----" Her voice was choked for an instant, but
she went on: "There is nothing now to unite us. I propose going to
Schönthal to-morrow."
He sat opposite her, his head leaning on his hand. "Can you not stay,
then?" he asked, gently.
She rose proudly, her self-possession entirely recovered. "No," she
cried, "I will not be endured out of pity!"
Bernhard rose in his turn, and looked her full in the face. "Pity?" he
repeated. "What do you mean, Thea?"
"I mean that you are sorry for me, that you think it will be hard for
me to leave the place where my child lies in his grave, the house in
which he was born. But I have borne heavier griefs, and I can bear that
too; and, although I know that your happiness does not depend alone
upon your freedom, I am too proud to remain where I am only endured!"
He stared at her as if she were some phantom. "For God's sake, Thea,
tell me what you mean," he cried.
The expression of his face bewildered her. She paused again for a
moment.
Then he took her hand, and said, in a voice vibrating with emotion,
"This is perhaps the last time that we shall stand thus face to
face,--our last conversation. Thea, will you not answer truly and
frankly one question?"
"I have always been true," she replied, gazing past him as into space.
"Tell me, then, do you believe the cause that separates us to exist in
me? Do you believe that I desire our separation? and is there no reason
known only to yourself, no memory in your soul, to keep us
asunder?"
She covered her eyes with her hand, as if dazzled by a sudden light. A
slight tremor passed through her frame, and a delicate flush coloured
the pale, resigned face. Bernhard gazed at her in breathless eagerness;
but, even before she spoke, he was overpowered by the conviction that
this woman could not be false; that he had been the victim of an
illusion.
"I have no such memory," said Thea, helplessly dropping her clasped
hands before her. "Nothing in this world except yourself could ever
separate me from you. I thought----"
Before she could utter another word she was clasped in his arms. "Thea!
my own Thea! what useless misery we have caused each other!"
She extricated herself in utter bewilderment from his embrace.
"And do you still love me, then?" she asked.
"More deeply and truly than on our marriage-day," he said, fervently.
"And Julutta Wronsky----"
"Ah, dearest child, let me tell you all. I will confess everything to
you,--all the doubts that have so tortured me."
She looked at him in amazement. "Doubts?" she repeated.
"Yes, my darling; foolish doubts. I know them to be so now, but they
were terrible. Do you remember refusing me any explanation with regard
to Lothar? Then I----"
"Ah, poor Lothar! I, too, have something to tell you, Bernhard."
She nestled close to him, and he told her of his adventures with
Julutta Wronsky. He did not even suppress the account of the fleeting
emotion of that moment when he thought he loved her; he told her all;
and she listened to him, without doubt, without reproach, with the
entire confidence of a woman who loves.
"We have both been blind," she said; "but only when we doubted of each
other's love did we learn how valueless life was to us without it. Oh,
Bernhard, how wretched we have been!"
"And how blest we are once more,--each living in the other's heart!"
"Oh, why is our child not with us?" Thea cried.
He kissed the tears from her eyes. "He has been our guardian angel, my
darling," he said. "He has reunited us; for who can say how long we
should have been estranged from each other without this sorrow?"
Late in the afternoon of this day Thea carried a bunch of white roses
to the little chapel; Bernhard was with her, and as they entered he
took one of the fragrant rosebuds from her hand and laid it on Lothar's
coffin.
"Requiescat in pace," he whispered softly.
Hand in hand they stood before their child's coffin, one in their
sorrow, one in their love. The last rays of the setting sun streamed
through the stained glass of the window and played upon the wreaths and
palm branches, and when Bernhard and Thea left the chapel, forest and
field lay before them bathed in the red gold of sunset, and they walked
hand in hand through the nodding grasses and bright flowers of the
little grave-yard towards a new life in the old home.
CONCLUSION. — THE END. — By Captain Charles King, U.S.A
Years have flown by. A stock company has taken in hand the railway in
which Bernhard was so much interested, and there is a station at R----,
where the express-train from Warschau is just arriving.
A man with a dark sunburned face is leaning out of a coupé window,
looking eagerly across the platform towards the town and the poplar
avenue leading to Eichhof. Then he scans those who are leaving and
those who are entering the train, and a shadow of melancholy clouds his
brow.
"Strangers, all strangers!" he murmurs. "How changed it is! The same
place, and yet so different; and no one here to recognize me."
Just then a gentleman with a full gray beard came hurriedly from the
waiting-room. The signal for departure sounded, and the porter opened
the coupé door in great haste, and the gray-bearded individual took his
seat beside our traveller. The two men scanned each other for an
instant, and then he of the sunburned face said, "If I am not mistaken,
chance has led two old acquaintances into the same railway-carriage.
Are you not Herr Superintendent Bergmann from Eichhof?"
"Most certainly; and I think I call to mind----"
"Ah!" laughed the stranger, "I see you do not know who I am. The sun on
the Bulgarian battlefields has tanned me past recognition. Do you not
remember Lieutenant Werner, Lothar Eichhof's comrade?"
"Ah! Lieutenant Werner, forgive me. But you are Colonel Werner now, I
hear, with a breast covered with orders. The newspapers have kept us
advised with regard to you. How much my Count will be interested to
hear of this meeting! We have all rejoiced in your advancement."
Werner shook his head. "Advancements are for the most part the work of
chance," he said; "but, in spite of some terrible experiences, these
last years have been the most interesting of my life. I could write
books, let me tell you; indeed, I will not promise not to write them.
But let us leave the Turks and Russians, of whom I have latterly seen
quite enough, and let me hear something of my old friends and
acquaintances. First, how goes everything at Eichhof?"
The old man smiled. "Admirably; as it must, I think, where an honest
man does his duty, and Count Bernhard is a fine fellow and does his
duty well,--sometimes, we think, rather exceeds it. I always said, when
people used to shake their heads at him, 'He is young; only wait, and
you'll see he'll come all right.' And now he has come all right. Since
he ceased to look abroad for a sphere of action, and made up his mind
to do what lay nearest to him, he has enjoyed his work. You ought to
pay us a visit and see how well everything goes on. His people would go
through fire and water to serve him."
"And his wife? How is the Countess?"
"Oh, you ought to see her! She grows younger and prettier every year.
One need only look in her eyes to see how happy she is, when she walks
through fields and gardens on her husband's arm, with their two fine
boys playing about them. And our youngest--the little Countess Thea--is
a perfect rosebud. Yes, laugh,--I confess to a weakness for these
children; they are like grandchildren to me. Have I not had Count
Bernhard in my arms when he was no older than they?"
Werner gazed thoughtfully from the window. "Three children, have they?
It is really strange to hear of such a happy household, with the
thunder of trumpets and cannon scarcely out of one's ears. Well,
perhaps I will come to Eichhof in the autumn. I should have liked to
stop there to-day, but I have urgent business in Berlin."
"Why, then, you can hunt up the Count. He is there now."
"Ah! I had forgotten the Reichstag."
"No, he is no longer a member of the Reichstag. He has so much
practical work to attend to that he has no time for theorizing, even
politically; but he is there to attend a family festival,--the
christening of the first boy of Walter Eichhof, our youngest."
"Ah! is he married?"
"Yes; to the love of his boyhood, the daughter of the old Freiherr von
Hohenstein."
"Had he not some idea formerly of becoming a physician?"
"He is a physician, and a fine one, I can tell you. Our Count was in a
terrible way about it at first, but Countess Thea insisted that the boy
was right, and the brothers were reconciled when Walter was betrothed.
He undertook the management of Dr. Nordstedt's large infirmary when
Nordstedt was called to a professor's chair in Strasburg. You know, I
suppose, that Fräulein Alma, our Countess's sister, is married to
Professor Nordstedt?"
"I think I heard of that before I left Germany. I certainly must look
up my old acquaintances. This vagabond life makes one a terrible
stranger in his home."
The locomotive whistles, the next station is reached, and the
superintendent takes his leave of Werner, who leans back in a corner of
the coupé and falls into a revery. The past rises before him like a
dream. He sees Thea in memory the same, and yet so different. He can
think of her now as of some lovely picture, which one admires and
enjoys without coveting, and he can ponder upon the past without
remorse.
"What a wonder life is!" he muses, as the train speeds on. "But it all
amounts to the fact that if you would be happy--and who would not?--you
must do what is right."
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