CIRCUMSTANCES seemed to applaud almost immediately the step that Sylvia
had taken. There was no long delay caused by looking for work in New
York, which might have destroyed romance by its interposition of fretful
hopes and disappointments. A variety company was going to leave in
November for a tour in eastern Canada. At least two months would be
spent in the French provinces, and Sylvia’s bilingual accomplishment was
exactly what the manager wanted.
“I’m getting on,” she laughed. “I began by singing French songs with an
English accent; I advanced from that to acting English words with a
French accent; now I’m going to be employed in doing both. But what does
it matter? The great thing is that we should be together.”
That was where Arthur made the difference to her life; he was securing
her against the loneliness that at twenty-eight was beginning once more
to haunt her imagination. What did art matter? It had never been
anything but a refuge.
Arthur himself was engaged to sing, and though he had not such a good
voice as Claude Raglan, he sang with much better taste and was really
musical. Sylvia was annoyed to find herself making comparisons between
Claude and Arthur. It happened at the moment that Arthur was fussing
about his number on the program, and she could not help being reminded
of Claude’s attitude toward his own artistic importance. She consoled
herself by thinking that it should always be one of her aims to prevent
the likeness growing any closer; then she laughed at herself for this
resolve, which savored of developing Arthur, that process she had always
so much condemned.
They opened at Toronto, and after playing a week Arthur caught a chill
and was out of the program for a fortnight; this gave Sylvia a fresh
opportunity of looking after him; and Toronto in wet, raw weather was so
dreary that, to come back to the invalid after the performance,
notwithstanding the ineffable discomfort of the hotel, was to come back
home. During this time Sylvia gave Arthur a history of the years that
had gone by since they parted, and it puzzled her that he should be so
jealous of the past. She wondered why she could not feel the same
jealousy about his past, and she found herself trying to regret that
red-haired girl and many others on account of the obvious pleasure such
regrets afforded Arthur. She used to wonder, too, why she always left
out certain incidents and obscured certain aspects of her own past,
whether, for instance, she did not tell him about Michael Fane on her
own account or because she was afraid that Arthur would perceive a
superficial resemblance between himself and Claude and a very real one
between herself and Lily, or because she would have resented from Arthur
the least expression, not so much of contempt as even of mild surprise,
at Michael’s behavior. Another subject she could never discuss with
Arthur was her mother’s love for her father, notwithstanding that his
own mother’s elopement with a groom must have prevented the least
criticism on his side. Here again she wondered if her reserve was due to
loyalty or to a vague sense of temperamental repetition that was
condemning her to stand in the same relation to Arthur as her mother to
her father. She positively had to run away from the idea that Arthur had
his prototype; she was shutting him up in a box and scarcely even
looking at him, which was as good as losing him altogether, really. Even
when she did look at him she handled him with such exaggerated
carefulness, for fear of his getting broken, that all the pleasure of
possession was lost. Perhaps she should have had an equal anxiety to
preserve intact anybody else with whom she might have thrown in her lot;
but when she thought over this attitude it was dismaying enough and
seemed to imply an incapacity on her part to enjoy fully anything in
life.
“I’ve grown out of being destructive; at least I think I have. I wonder
if the normal process from Jacobinism to the intense conservatism of
age is due to wisdom, jealousy, or fear.
“Arthur, what are your politics?” she asked, aloud.
He looked up from the game of patience he was playing, a game in which
he was apt to attribute the pettiest personal motives to the court-cards
whenever he failed to get out.
“Politics?” he echoed, vaguely. “I don’t think I ever had any. I suppose
I’m a Conservative. Oh yes, certainly I’m a Conservative. That infernal
knave of hearts is covered now!” he added, in an aggrieved voice.
“Well, I didn’t cover it,” said Sylvia.
“No, dear, of course you didn’t. But it really is a most extraordinary
thing that I always get done by the knaves.”
“You share your misfortune with the rest of humanity, if that’s any
consolation.”
The conversation was interrupted by the entrance of Orlone. He was a
huge Neapolitan with the countenance of a gigantic and swarthy Punch,
who had been trying to get back to Naples for twenty years, but had been
prevented at first by his passion for gambling and afterward by an
unwilling wife and a numerous family. Orlone made even Toronto cheerful,
and before he had come two paces into a room Sylvia always began to
laugh. He never said anything deliberately funny except on the stage,
but laughter emanated from him infectiously, as yawning might. Though he
had spent twenty years in America, he still spoke the most imperfect
English; and when he and Sylvia had done laughing at each other they
used to laugh all over again, she at his English, he at her Italian.
When they had finished laughing at that Orlone used to swear marvelously
for Sylvia’s benefit whenever she should again visit Sirene; and she
would teach him equally tremendous oaths in case he should ever come to
London. When they had finished laughing at this, Orlone would look over
Arthur’s shoulder and, after making the most ridiculous gestures of
caution, would finally burst out into an absolute roar of laughter right
in Arthur’s ear.
“Pazienza,” Sylvia would say, pointing to the outspread cards.
“Brava signora! Come parla bene!”
And of course this was obviously so absurd a statement that it would set
them off laughing again.
“You are a pair of lunatics,” Arthur would protest; he would have liked
to be annoyed at his game’s being interrupted, but he was powerless to
repulse Orlone’s good humor.
When they returned to New York in the spring and Sylvia looked back at
the tour, she divined how much of her pleasure in it had been owed to
Orlone’s all-pervading mirth. He had really provided the robust and
full-blooded contrast to Arthur that had been necessary. It was not
exactly that without him their existence together would have been
insipid—oh no, there was nothing insipid about Arthur, but one
appreciated his delicacy after that rude and massive personality. When
they had traveled over leagues of snow-covered country, Orlone had
always lightened the journey with gay Neapolitan songs, and sometimes
with tender ones like “Torno di Surriento.” It was then that, gazing out
over the white waste, she had been able to take Arthur’s hand and sigh
to be sitting with him on some Sirenian cliff, to smell again the
rosemary and crumble with her fingers the sunburnt earth. But this
capacity of Orlone’s for conjuring up the long Parthenopean shore was
nothing more than might have been achieved by any terra-cotta Silenus in
a provincial museum. After Silenus, what nymph would not turn to Hylas
somewhat gratefully? It had been the greatest fun in the world to drive
in tinkling sledges through Montreal, with Orlone to tease the driver
until he was as sore as the head of the bear that in his fur coat he
resembled; it had been fun to laugh with Orlone in Quebec and Ottawa and
everywhere else; but after so much laughter it had always been
particularly delightful to be alone again with Arthur, and to feel that
he too was particularly enjoying being alone with her.
“I really do think we get on well together,” she said to him.
“Of course we do.”
And was there in the way he agreed with her just the least suggestion
that he should have been surprised if she had not enjoyed his company,
an almost imperceptible hint of complacency, or was it condescension?
“I really must get out of this habit of poking my nose into other
people’s motives,” Sylvia told herself. “I’m like a horrid little boy
with a new penknife. Arthur could fairly say to me that I forced myself
upon him. I did really. I went steaming into the Auburn Hotel like a
salvage-tug. There’s the infernal side of obligations—I can’t really
quite free myself from the notion that Arthur ought to be grateful to
me. He’s in a false position through no fault of his own, and he’s
behaving beautifully. It’s my own cheap cynicism that’s to blame. I wish
I could discover some mental bitter aloes that would cure me of biting
my mind, as I cured myself of biting my nails.”
Sylvia was very glad that Arthur succeeded in getting an engagement that
spring to act, and that she did not; she was really anxious to let him
feel that she should be dependent on him for a while. The result would
have been entirely satisfactory but for one flaw—the increase in
Arthur’s sense of his own artistic importance. Sylvia would not have
minded this so much if he had possessed enough of it to make him
oblivious of the world’s opinion, but it was always more of a vanity
than a pride, chiefly concerned with the personal impression he made. It
gave him much more real pleasure to be recognized by two shop-girls on
their afternoon out than to be praised by a leading critic. Sylvia would
have liked him to be equally contemptuous of either form of flattery,
but that he should revel in both, and actually esteem more valuable the
recognition accorded him by a shop-girl’s backward glance and a nudge
from her companion seemed to be lamentable.
“I don’t see why you should despise me for being pleased,” Arthur said.
“I’m only pleased because it’s a proof that I’m getting known.”
“But they’d pay the same compliment to a man with a wen on his nose.”
“No doubt, but also to any famous man,” Arthur added.
Sylvia could have screamed with irritation at his lack of any sense of
proportion. Why could he not be like Jack Airdale, who had never
suffered from any illusion that what he was doing, so far as art was
concerned, was not essentially insignificant? Yet, after all, was she
not being unreasonable in paying so much attention to a childish piece
of vanity that was inseparable from the true histrionic temperament?
“I’m sorry, Arthur. I think I’m being unfair to you. I only criticize
you because I want you to be always the best of you. I see your point of
view, but I was irritated by the giggles.”
“I wasn’t paying the least attention to the girls.”
“Oh, I wasn’t jealous,” she said, quickly. “Oh no, darling Arthur, even
with the great affection that I have for you, I shall never be able to
be jealous of your making eyes at shop-girls.”
When Arthur’s engagement seemed likely to come to an end in the summer,
they discussed plans and decided to take a holiday in the country,
somewhere in Maine or Vermont. Arthur, as usual, set the scene
beforehand, but as he set it quite in accord with Sylvia’s taste she did
not mind. Indeed, their holiday in Vermont on the borders of Lake
Champlain was as near as she ever got to being perfectly happy with
Arthur—happy, that is, to the point of feeling like a chill the
prospect of separation. Sylvia was inclined to say that all Arthur’s
faults were due to the theater, and that when one had him like this in
simple surroundings the best side of him was uppermost and visible, like
a spun coin that shows a simple head when it falls.
Sylvia found that she had brought with her by chance the manuscript of
the poems given to her by the outcast Englishman in Paris, and Arthur
was very anxious that she should come back to her idea of rendering
these. He had already composed a certain number of unimportant songs in
his career, but now the Muses smiled upon him (or perhaps it might be
truer to speak of her own smiles, Sylvia thought) with such favor that
he set a dozen poems to the very accompaniment they wanted, the kind of
music, moreover, that suited Sylvia’s voice.
“We must get these done in New York,” he said; but that week a letter
came from Olive Airdale, and Sylvia had a sudden longing for England.
She did not think she would make an effort to do anything in America.
The truth was that she had supplemented the Englishman’s poems with an
idea of her own to give impressions gathered from her own life. It was
strange how abruptly the longing to express herself had arrived, but it
had arrived, with a force and fierceness that were undeniable. It had
come, too, with that authentic fever of secrecy that she divined a woman
must feel in the first moment of knowing that she has conceived. She
could not have imparted her sense of creation to any one else; such an
intimacy of revelation was too shocking to be contemplated. Somehow she
was sure that this strange shamefulness was right and that she was
entitled to hug within herself the conception that would soon enough be
turned to the travail of birth.
“By, Jove! Sylvia, this holiday has done you good!” Arthur exclaimed.
She kissed him because, ignorant though he was of the true reason, she
owed him thanks for her looks.
“Sylvia, if we go back to England, do let’s be married first.”
“Why?”
“Why, because it’s not fair on me.”
“On you?”
“Yes, on me. People will always blame me, of course.”
“What has it got to do with anybody else except me?”
“My mother—”
“My dear Arthur,” Sylvia interrupted, sharply, “if your mother ran away
with a groom, she’ll be the first person to sympathize with my point of
view.”
“I suppose you’re trying to be cruel,” said Arthur.
“And succeeding, to judge by your dolorous mouth. No, my dear, let the
suggestion of marriage come from me. I sha’n’t be hurt if you refuse.”
“Well, are we to pretend we’re married?” Arthur asked, hopelessly.
“Certainly not, if by that you mean that I’m to put ‘Mrs. Arthur Madden’
on a visiting-card. Don’t look so frightened. I’m not proposing to march
into drawing-rooms with a big drum to proclaim my emancipation from the
social decencies. Don’t worry me, Arthur. It’s all much too complicated
to explain, but I’ll tell you one thing, I’m not going to marry you
merely to remove the world’s censure of your conduct, and as long as you
feel about marrying me as you might feel about letting me carry a heavy
bag, I’ll never marry you.”
“I don’t feel a bit like that about it,” he protested. “If I could leave
you, I’d leave you now. But the very thought of losing you makes my
heart stop beating. It’s like suddenly coming to the edge of a
precipice. I know perfectly well that you despise me at heart. You think
I’m a wretched actor with no feelings off the stage. You think I don’t
know my own mind, if you even admit that I’ve got a mind at all. But I’m
thirty-one. I’m not a boy. I’ve had a good many women in love with me.
Now don’t begin to laugh. I’m determined to say what I ought to have
said long ago, and should have said if I hadn’t been afraid the whole
time of losing you. If I lose you now it can’t be helped. I’d sooner
lose you than go on being treated like a child. What I want to say is
that, though I know you think it wasn’t worth while being loved by the
women who’ve loved me, I do think it was. I’m not in the least ashamed
of them. Most of them, at any rate, were beautiful, though I admit that
all of them put together wouldn’t have made up for missing you. You’re a
thousand times cleverer than I. You’ve got much more personality. You’ve
every right to consider you’ve thrown yourself away on me. But the fact
remains that you’ve done it. We’ve been together now a year. That proves
that there is something in me. I’m prouder of this year with you than
of all the rest of my life. You’ve developed me in the most
extraordinary way.”
“I have?” Sylvia burst in.
“Of course you have. But I’m not going to be treated like a mantis.”
“Like a what?”
“A mantis. You can read about it in that French book on insects. The
female eats the male. Well, I’m damned well not going to be eaten. I’m
not going back to England with you unless you marry me.”
“Well, I’m not going to marry you,” Sylvia declared.
“Very well, then I shall try to get an engagement on tour and we’ll
separate.”
“So much the better,” she said. “I’ve got a good deal to occupy myself
at present.”
“Of course you can have the music I wrote for those poems,” said Arthur.
“Damn your music,” she replied.
Sylvia was so much obsessed with the conviction of having at last found
a medium for expressing herself in art that, though she was vaguely
aware of having a higher regard for Arthur at this moment than she had
ever had, she could only behold him as a troublesome visitor that was
preventing her from sitting down to work.
Arthur went off on tour. Sylvia took an apartment in New York far away
up-town and settled down to test her inspiration. In six months she
lived her whole life over again, and of every personality that had
touched her own and left its mark she made a separate presentation. Her
great anxiety was to give to each sketch the air of an improvisation,
and in the course of it to make her people reveal their permanent
characters rather than their transient emotions. It was really based on
the art of the impersonator who comes on with a cocked hat, sticks out
his neck, puts his hands behind his back, and his legs apart, leans over
to the audience, and whispers Napoleon. Sylvia thought she could extend
the pleasures of recognition beyond the mere mimicry of externals to a
finer mimicry of essentials. She wanted an audience to clap not because
she could bark sufficiently like a real dog to avoid being mistaken for
a kangaroo, but because she could be sufficiently Mrs. Gainsborough not
to be recognized as Mrs. Beardmore—yet without relying upon their
respective sizes in corsets to mark the difference. She did not intend
to use even make-up; the entertainment was always to be an
improvisation. It was also to be undramatic; that is to say, it was not
to obtain its effect by working to a climax, so that, however well
hidden the mechanism might have been during the course of the
presentation, the machinery would reveal itself at the end. Sylvia
wanted to make each member of the audience feel that he had dreamed her
improvisation, or rather she hoped that he would gain from it that
elusive sensation of having lived it before, and that the effect upon
each person listening to her should be ultimately incommunicable, like
a dream. She was sure now that she could achieve this effect with the
poems, not, as she had originally supposed, through their objective
truthfulness, but through their subjective truth. That outcast
Englishman should be one of her improvisations, and of course the
original idea of letting the poems be accompanied by music would be
ruinous; one might as well illustrate them with a magic lantern. As to
her own inventions, she must avoid giving them a set form, because,
whatever actors might urge to the contrary, a play could never really be
performed twice by the same caste. She would have a scene painted like
those futurist Italian pictures; they were trying to do with color what
she was trying to do with acting; they were striving to escape from the
representation of mere externals, and often succeeding almost too well,
she added, with a smile. She would get hold of Ronald Walker in London,
who doubtless by now would be too prosperous to serve her purpose
himself, but who would probably know of some newly fledged painter
anxious to flap his wings.
At the end of six months Sylvia had evolved enough improvisations to
make a start. She went to bed tired out with the last night’s work, and
woke up in the morning with a sense of blankness at the realization of
there being nothing to do that day. All the time she had been working
she had been content to be alone; she had even looked forward to amusing
herself in New York when her work was finished. Now the happy moment had
come and she could feel nothing but this empty boredom. She wondered
what Arthur was doing, and she reproached herself for the way in which
she had discarded him. She had been so thrilled by the notion that she
was necessary to somebody; it had seemed to her the consummation of so
many heedless years. Yet no sooner had she successfully imposed herself
upon Arthur than she was eager to think of nothing but herself without
caring a bit about his point of view. Now that she could do nothing more
with her work until the test of public performance was applied to it,
she was bored; in fact, she missed Arthur. The truth was that half the
pleasure of being necessary to somebody else had been that he should be
necessary to her. But marriage with Arthur? Marriage with a
curly-headed actor? Marriage with anybody? No, that must wait, at any
rate until she had given the fruit of these six months to the world. She
could not be hampered by belonging to anybody before that.
“I do think I’m justified in taking myself a little seriously for a
while,” said Sylvia, “and in shutting my eyes to my own absurdity.
Self-mockery is dangerous beyond a certain point. I really will give
this idea of mine a fair chance. If I’m a failure, Arthur will love me
all the more through vanity, and if I’m a success—I suppose really
he’ll be vain of that, too.”
Sylvia telegraphed to Arthur, and heard that he expected to be back in
New York at the end of the month. He was in Buffalo this week. Nothing
could keep her a moment longer in New York alone, and she went up to
join him. She had a sudden fear when she arrived that she might find him
occupied with a girl; in fact, really, when she came to think of the
manner in which she had left him, it was most improbable that she should
not. She nearly turned round and went back to New York; but her real
anxiety to see Arthur and talk to him about her work made her decide to
take the risk of what might be the deepest humiliation of her life. It
was strange how much she wanted to talk about what she had done; the
desire to do so now was as overmastering an emotion as had been in the
first moment of conception the urgency of silence.
Sylvia was spared the shock of finding Arthur wrapped up in some one
else.
“Sylvia, how wonderful! What a relief to see you again!” he exclaimed.
“I’ve been longing for you to see me in the part I’m playing now. It’s
certainly the most successful thing I’ve done. I’m so glad you kept me
from wasting myself any longer on that concert work. I really believe
I’ve made a big hit at last.”
Sylvia was almost as much taken aback to find Arthur radiant with the
prospect of success as she would have been to find him head over ears in
love. She derived very little satisfaction from the way in which he
attributed his success to her; she was not at all in the mood for being
a godmother, now that she had a baby of her own.
“I’m so glad, old son. That’s splendid. Now I want to talk about the
work I’ve been doing all these six months.”
Forthwith she plunged into the details of the scheme, to which Arthur
listened attentively enough, though he only became really enthusiastic
when she could introduce analogies with his own successful performance.
“You will go in front to-night?” he begged. “I’m awfully keen to hear
what you think of my show. Half my pleasure in the hit has been spoiled
by your not having seen it. Besides, I think you’ll be interested in
noticing that once or twice I try to get the same effect as you’re
trying for in these impersonations.”
“Damn your eyes, Arthur, they’re not impersonations; they’re
improvisations.”
“Did I say impersonations? I’m sorry,” said Arthur, looking rather
frightened.
“Yes, you’d better placate me,” she threatened. “Or I’ll spend my whole
time looking at Niagara and never go near your show.”
However, Sylvia did go to see the play that night and found that Arthur
really was excellent in his part, which was that of the usual young man
in musical comedy who wanders about in a well-cut flannel suit, followed
by six young women with parasols ready to smother him with affection,
melody, and lace. But how, even in the intoxication of success, he had
managed to establish a single analogy with what she proposed to do was
beyond comprehension.
Arthur came out of the stage door, wreathed in questions.
“You were in such a hurry to get out,” said Sylvia, “that you didn’t
take off your make-up properly. You’ll get arrested if you walk about
like that. I hear the sumptuary laws in Buffalo are very strict.”
“No, don’t rag. Did you like the hydrangea song? Do you remember the one
I mean?”
He hummed the tune.
“I warn you, Arthur, there’s recently been a moral up-lift in Buffalo.
You will be sewn up in a barrel and flung into Niagara if you don’t take
care. No, seriously. I think your show was capital. Which brings me to
the point. We sail for Europe at the end of April.”
“Oh, but do you think it’s wise for me to leave America now that I’ve
really got my foot in?”
“Do you still want to marry me?”
“More than ever,” he assured her.
“Very well, then. Your only chance of marrying me is to leave New York
without a murmur. I’ve thought it all out. As soon as I get back I shall
spend my last shilling on fitting out my show. When I’ve produced it and
when I’ve found out that I’ve not been making a fool of myself for the
last six months, perhaps I’ll marry you. Until then—as friends we met,
as anything more than friends we part. Got me, Steve?”
“But, Sylvia—”
“But me no buts, or you’ll get my goat. Understand my meaning, Mr.
Stevenson?”
“Yes, only—”
“The discussion’s closed.”
“Are we engaged?”
“I don’t know. We’ll have to see our agents about that.”
“Oh, don’t rag. Marriage is not a joke. You are a most extraordinary
girl.”
“Thanks for the discount. I shall be thirty in three months, don’t
forget. Talking of the advantages of rouge, you might get rid of some of
yours before supper, if you don’t mind.”
“Are we engaged?” Arthur repeated, firmly.
“No, the engagement ring and the marriage-bells will be pealed
simultaneously. You’re as free as Boccaccio, old son.”
“You’re in one of those moods when it’s impossible to argue with you.”
“So much the better. We shall enjoy our supper all the more. I’m so
excited at the idea of going back to England. After all, I shall have
been away nearly three years. I shall find godchildren who can talk.
Think of that. Arthur, don’t you want to go back?”
“Yes, if I can get a shop. I think it’s madness for me to leave New
York, but I daren’t let you go alone.”
The anticipation of being in England again and of putting to the test
her achievement could not charm away all Sylvia’s regret at leaving
America, most of all New York. She owed to New York this new stability
that she discovered in her life. She owed to some action of New York
upon herself the delight of inspiration, the sweet purgatory of effort,
the hope of a successful end to her dreams. It was the only city of
which she had ever taken a formal farewell, such as she took from the
top of the Metropolitan Tower upon a lucid morning in April. The city
lay beneath, with no magic of smoke to lend a meretricious romance to
its checkered severity; a city encircled with silver waters and
pavilioned by huge skies, expressing modern humanity, as the great
monuments of ancient architecture express the mighty dead.
“We too can create our Parthenons,” thought Sylvia, as she sank to earth
in the florid elevator.
They crossed the Atlantic on one of the smaller Cunard liners. The
voyage was uneventful. Nearly all the passengers in turn told Sylvia why
they were not traveling by one of the large ships, but nobody suggested
as a reason that the smaller ships were cheaper.
When they reached England Arthur went to stay with his mother at
Dulwich. Sylvia went to the Airdales; she wanted to set her scheme in
motion, but she promised to come and stay at Dulwich later on.
“At last you’ve come back,” Olive said, on the verge of tears. “I’ve
missed you dreadfully.”
“Great Scott! Look at Sylvius and Rose!” Sylvia exclaimed. “They’re like
two pigs made of pink sugar. Pity we never thought of it at the time, or
they could have been christened Scarlet and Crimson.”
“Darlings, isn’t godmamma horrid to you?” said Olive.
“Here! Here! What are you teaching them to call me?”
“Dat’s godmamma,” said Sylvius, in a thick voice.
“Dat’s godmamma,” Rose echoed.
“Not on your life, cullies,” their godmother announced, “unless you want
a thick ear each.”
“Give me one,” said Sylvius, stolidly.
“Give me one,” Rose echoed.
“How can you tease the poor darlings so?” Olive exclaimed.
“Sylvius will have one,” he announced, in the same thick monotone.
“Rose will have one,” echoed his sister.
Sylvia handed her godson a large painted ball.
“Here’s your thick ear, Pork.”
Sylvius laughed fatly; the ball and the new name both pleased him.
“And here’s yours,” she said, offering another to Rose, who waited to
see what her brother did with his and then proceeded to do the same with
the same fat laugh. Suddenly, however, her lips puckered.
“What is it, darling?” her mother asked, anxiously.
“Rose wants to be said Pork.”
“You didn’t call her Pork,” Olive translated, reproachfully, to Sylvia.
“Give me back the ball,” said Sylvia. “Now then, here’s your thick ear,
Porka.”
Rose laughed ecstatically. After two ornaments had been broken Jack came
in, and the children retired with their nurse.
Sylvia found that family life had not spoiled Jack’s interest in that
career of hers; indeed, he was so much excited by her news that he
suggested omitting for once the ceremony of seeing the twins being given
their bath in order not to lose any of the short time available before
he should have to go down to the theater. Sylvia, however, would not
hear of any change in the domestic order, and reminded Jack that she was
proposing to quarter herself on them for some time.
“I know, it’s terrific,” he said.
The excitement of the bath was always considerable, but this evening,
with Sylvia’s assistance, it became acute. Sylvius hit his nurse in the
eye with the soap, and Rose, wrought up to a fever of emulation, managed
to hurl the sponge into the grate.
Jack was enthusiastic about Sylvia’s scheme. She was not quite sure that
he understood exactly at what she was aiming, but he wished her so well
that in any case his criticism would have had slight value; he gave
instead his devoted attention, and that seemed a pledge of success.
Success! Success! it sounded like a cataract in her ears, drowning every
other sound. She wondered if the passion of her life was to be success.
On no thoughts urged so irresistibly had she ever sailed to sleep, nor
had she ever wakened in such a buoyancy, greeting the day as a swimmer
greets the sea.
“Now what about the backing?” Jack asked.
“Backing? I’ll back myself. You’ll be my manager. I’ve enough to hire
the Pierian Hall for a day and a night. I’ve enough to pay for one
scene. Which reminds me I must get hold of Ronald Walker. You’ll sing,
Jack, two songs? Oh, and there’s Arthur Madden. He’ll sing, too.”
“Who’s he?” Olive asked.
“Oh, didn’t I tell you about him?” said Sylvia, almost too nonchalantly,
she feared. “He’s rather good. Quite good, really. I’ll tell you about
him sometime. By the way, I’ve talked so much about myself and my plans
that I’ve never asked about other people. How’s the countess?”
Olive looked grave. “We don’t ever see them, but everybody says that
Clarehaven is going the pace tremendously.”
“Have they retreated to Devonshire?”
“Oh no! Didn’t you hear? I thought I’d told you in one of my letters. He
had to sell the family place. Do you remember a man called Leopold
Hausberg?”
“Do I not?” Sylvia exclaimed. “He took a flat once for a chimpanzee
instead of Lily.”
“Well, he’s become Lionel Houston this year, and he’s talked about with
Dorothy a good deal. Of course he’s very rich, but I do hope there’s
nothing in what people say. Poor Dorothy!”
“She’ll survive even the divorce court,” Sylvia said. “I wish I knew
what had become of Lily. She might have danced in my show. I suppose
it’s too late now, though. Poor Lily! I say, we’re getting very
compassionate, you and I, Olive. Are you and Jack going to have any more
kids?”
“Sylvia darling,” Olive exclaimed, with a blush.
Sylvia had intended to stay a week or two with the Airdales, and, after
having set in motion the preliminaries of her undertaking, to go down to
Dulwich and visit Mrs. Madden, but she thought she would get hold of
Ronnie Walker first, and with this object went to the Café Royal, where
she should be certain of finding either him or a friend who would know
where he was.
Sylvia had scarcely time to look round her in the swirl of gilt and
smoke and chatter before Ronald Walker himself, wearing now a long pale
beard, greeted her.
“My dear Ronald, what’s the matter? Are you tired of women? You look
more like a grate than a great man,” Sylvia exclaimed. “Cut it off and
give it to your landlady to stuff her fireplace this summer.”
“What shall we drink?” he asked, imperturbably.
“I’ve been absinthe for so long that really—”
“It’s a vermouth point,” added Ronald.
“Ronnie, you devil, I can’t go on, it’s too whisky. Well, of course
after that we ought both to drink port and brandy. Don’t you find it
difficult to clean your beard?”
“I’m not a messy feeder,” said Ronnie.
“You don’t paint with it, then?”
“Only Cubist pictures.”
Sylvia launched out into an account of her work, and demanded his help
for the painting of the scene.
“I want the back-cloth to be a city, not to represent a city, mark you,
but to be a city.”
She told him about New York as beheld from the Metropolitan Tower, and
exacted from the chosen painter the ability to make the audience think
that.
“I’m too old-fashioned for you, my dear,” said Ronald.
“Oh, you, my dear man, of course. If I asked you for a city, you’d give
me a view from a Pierrot’s window of a Harlequin who’d stolen the first
five numbers of the Yellow Book from a Pantaloon who kept a second-hand
bookshop in a street-scene by Steinlen, and whose daughter, Columbine,
having died of grief at being deserted by the New English Art Club, had
been turned into a book-plate. No, I want some fierce young genius of
to-day.”
Over their drinks they discussed possible candidates; finally Ronald
said he would invite a certain number of the most representative and
least representational modern painters to his studio, from whom Sylvia
might make her choice. Accordingly, two or three days later Sylvia
visited Ronald in Grosvenor Road. For the moment, when she entered, she
thought that he had been playing a practical joke upon her, for it
seemed impossible that these extraordinary people could be real. The
northerly light of the studio, severe and virginal, was less kind than
the feverish exhalation of the Café Royal.
“They are real?” she whispered to her host.
“Oh yes, they’re quite real, and in deadly earnest. Each of them
represents a school and each of them thinks I’ve been converted to his
point of view. I’ll introduce Morphew.”
He beckoned to a tall young man in black, who looked like a rolled-up
umbrella with a jade handle.
“Morphew, this is Miss Scarlett. She’s nearly as advanced as you are.
Sylvia, this is Morphew, the Azurist.”
Walker maliciously withdrew when he had made the introduction.
“Ought I to know what an Azurist is?” Sylvia asked. She felt that it was
an unhappy opening for the conversation, but she did not want to hurt
his religious feelings if Azurism was a religion, and if it was a trade
she might be excused for not knowing what it was, such a rare trade must
it be.
Mr. Morphew smiled in a superior way. “I think most people have heard
about me by now.”
“Ah, but I’ve been abroad.”
“Several of my affirmations have been translated and published in
France, Germany, Russia, Spain, Italy, Sweden, Hungary, and Holland,”
said Mr. Morphew, in a tone that seemed to imply that if Sylvia had not
grasped who he was by now she never would, in which case it was scarcely
worth his while to go on talking to her.
“Oh dear! What a pity!” she exclaimed. “I was in Montenegro all last
year, so I must have missed them. I don’t think you’re known in
Montenegro yet. It’s such a small country, I should have been sure to
hear about anything like that.
“Like what?” thought Sylvia, turning up her mind’s eyes to heaven.
Mr. Morphew was evidently not sure what sort of language was spoken in
Montenegro, and thought it wiser to instruct Sylvia than to expose his
own ignorance.
“What color is that?” he suddenly demanded, pointing to the orange
coverlet of a settee.
“Orange,” said Sylvia. “Perhaps it’s inclining to some shade of brown.”
“Orange! Brown!” Mr. Morphew scoffed. “It’s blue.”
“Oh, but it’s not!” she contradicted. “There’s nothing blue about it.”
“Blue,” repeated Mr. Morphew. “All is blue. The Azurists deny that there
is anything but blue. Blue,” he continued in a rapt voice. “Blue! I was
a Blanchist at first; but when we quarreled most of the Blanchists
followed me. I shall publish the nineteenth affirmation of the Azurists
next week. If you give me your address I’ll send you a copy. We’re going
to give the Ovists hell in a new magazine that we’re bringing out. We
find that affirmations are not enough.”
“Will it be an ordinary magazine?” Sylvia asked. “Will you have stories,
for instance?”
“We don’t admit that stories exist. Life-rays exist. There will be
life-rays in our magazine.”
“I suppose they’ll be pretty blue,” said Sylvia.
“All life-rays are blue.”
“I suppose you don’t mind wet weather?” she suggested. “Because it must
be rather difficult to know when it’s going to clear up.”
“There are degrees of blue,” Mr. Morphew explained.
“I see. Life isn’t just one vast, reckless blue. Well, thank you very
much for being so patient with my old-fashioned optical ideas. I do hope
you’ll go to America and tell them that their leaves turn blue in
autumn. Anyway, you’ll feel quite at home crossing the ocean, though
some people won’t even admit that’s blue.”
Sylvia left the Azurist and rejoined Ronald.
“Well,” he laughed. “You look quite frightened.”
“My dear, I’ve just done a bolt from the blue. You are a beast to rag
my enthusiasms. Isn’t there anybody here whose serious view of himself I
can indorse?”
“Well, there’s Pattison, the Ovist. He maintains that everything
resolves itself into ovals.”
“I think I should almost prefer Azurism,” said Sylvia. “What about the
Blanchists?”
“Oh, you wouldn’t like them! They maintain that there’s no such thing as
color; their pictures depend on the angle at which they’re hung.”
“But if there’s no such thing as color, how can they paint?”
“They don’t. Their canvases are blank. Then there are the
Combinationists. They don’t repudiate color, but they repudiate paint.
The most famous Combinationist picture exhibited so far consisted of
half a match-box, a piece of orange-peel, and some sealing-wax, all
stuck upon a slip of sugar-paper. The other Combinationists wanted to
commit suicide because they despaired of surpassing it. Roger Cadbury
wrote a superb introduction, pointing out that it must be either liked
or disliked, but that it was impossible to do both or neither. It was
that picture which inspired Hezekiah Penny to write what is considered
one of his finest poems. You know it, perhaps?
“Why do I sing?
There is no reason why I should continue:
This image of the essential bin is better
Than the irritated uvulas of modern poets.
That caused almost as great sensation as the picture, because some of
his fellow-poets maintained that he had no right to speak for anybody
but himself.”
“Who is Hezekiah Penny?” Sylvia asked.
“Hezekiah Penny is a provincial poet who began by writing Provençal
verse.”
“But this is madness,” Sylvia exclaimed, looking round her at the
studio, where the representatives of modernity eyed one another with
surprise and distaste like unusual fish in the tank of an aquarium.
“Behind all this rubbish surely something truly progressive exists.
You’ve deliberately invited all the charlatans and impostors to meet me.
I tell you, Ronnie, I saw lots of pictures in New York that were
eccentric, but they were striving to rediscover life in painting. You’re
prejudiced because you belong to the decade before all this, and you’ve
taken a delight in showing me all the extravagant side of it. You should
emulate Tithonus.”
“Who was he?”
“Now don’t pretend you can’t follow a simple allusion. The gentleman who
fell in love with Aurora.”
“Didn’t he get rather tired of living forever?”
“Oh, well, that was because he grew a beard like you. Don’t nail my
allusions to the counter; they’re not lies.”
“I’ll take pity on you,” said Ronnie. “There is quite a clever youth
whom I intended for you from the beginning. He’s coming in later, when
the rest have gone.”
When she and Ronnie were alone again and before Lucian Hope, the young
painter, arrived, Sylvia, looking through one of his sketch-books, came
across a series of studies of a girl in the practice-dress of dancing;
he told her it was Jenny Pearl.
“Maurice Avery’s Jenny,” she murmured. “What happened to her?”
“Didn’t you hear about it? She was killed by her husband. It was a
horrible business. Maurice went down to see her where she lived in the
country, and this brute shot her. It was last summer. The papers were
full of it.”
“And what happened to Maurice?”
“Oh, he nearly went off his head. He’s wandering about in Morocco
probably.”
“Where I met him,” said Sylvia.
“But didn’t he tell you?”
“Oh, it was before. More than three years ago. We talked about her.”
Sylvia shuddered. One of her improvisations had been Maurice Avery; she
must burn it.
Lucian Hope arrived before Sylvia could ask any more questions about the
horrible event; she was glad to escape from the curiosity that would
have turned it into a tale of the police-court. The new-comer was not
more than twenty-two, perhaps less—too young, at any rate, to have
escaped from the unconventionality of artistic attire that stifles all
personality. But he had squirrel’s eyes, and was not really like an
undertaker. He was shy, too, so shy that Sylvia wondered how he could
tolerate being stared at in the street on account of his odd appearance.
She would have liked to ask him what pleasure he derived from such
mimicry of a sterile and professional distinction, but she feared to
hurt his young vanity; moreover, she was disarmed by those squirrel’s
eyes, so sharp and bright even in the falling dusk. The three of them
talked restlessly for a while, and Sylvia, seeing that Ronald was
preparing to broach the subject for which they were met, anticipated him
with a call for attention, and began one of her improvisations. It was
of Concetta lost in a greater city than Granada. By the silence that
followed she knew that her companions had cared for it, and she changed
to Mrs. Gainsborough. Then she finished up with three of the poems.
“Could you paint me a scene for that?” she asked, quickly, to avoid any
comment.
“Oh, rather!” replied the young man, very eagerly; though it was nearly
dark now, she could see his eyes flashing real assurance.
They all three dined together that evening, and Lucian Hope, ever since
Sylvia had let him know that she stood beside him to conquer the world,
lost his early shyness and talked volubly of what she wanted and what he
wanted to do. Ronald Walker presided in the background of the ardent
conversation, and as they came out of the restaurant he took Sylvia’s
arm for a moment.
“All right?”
“Quite all right, thanks.”
“So’s your show going to be. Not so entirely modern as you gave me to
suppose. But that’s not a great fault.”
Sylvia and Lucian Hope spent a good deal of time together, so much was
there to talk about in connection with the great enterprise. She brought
him to the Airdales’ that he might meet Jack, who was supposed to have
charge of the financial arrangements. The sight of the long-haired young
man made Sylvius cry, and, as a matter of course, Rose, also, which
embarrassed Lucian Hope a good deal, especially when he had to listen to
an explanation of himself by Olive for the children’s consolation.
“He’s a gollywog,” Sylvius howled.
“He’s a gollywog,” Rose echoed.
“He’s tum to gobble us,” Sylvius bellowed.
“To gobble us, to gobble us,” Rose wailed.
“He’s not a gollywog, darlings,” their mother declared. “He makes pretty
pictures, oh, such pretty pictures of—”
“He is a gollywog,” choked Sylvius, in an ecstasy of rage and fear.
“A gollywog, a gollywog,” Rose insisted.
Their mother changed her tactics. “But he’s a kind gollywog. Oh, such a
kind gollywog, the kindest, nicest gollywog that was ever thought of.”
“He is—ent,” both children proclaimed. “He’s bad!”
“Don’t you think I’d better go?” asked the painter. “I think it must be
my hair that’s upsetting them.”
He started toward the door, but, unfortunately, he was on the wrong side
of the children, who, seeing him make a move in their direction, set up
such an appalling yell that the poor young man drew back in despair. In
the middle of this the maid entered, announcing Mr. Arthur Madden, who
followed close upon her heels. Sylvius and Rose were by this time
obsessed with the idea of an invasion by an army of gollywogs, and
Arthur’s pleasant face took on for them the dreaded lineaments of the
foe. Both children clung shrieking to their mother’s skirts. Sylvia and
Jack were leaning back, incapable through laughter. Arthur and Lucian
Hope surveyed miserably the scene they had created. At last the nurse
arrived to rescue the twins, and they were carried away without being
persuaded to change their minds about the inhuman nature of the two
visitors.
Arthur apologized for worrying Sylvia, but his mother was so anxious to
know when she was coming down to Dulwich, and as he had been up in town
seeing about an engagement, he had not been able to resist coming to
visit her.
Sylvia felt penitent for having abandoned Arthur so completely since
they had arrived in England, and she told him she would go back with him
that very afternoon.
“Oh, but Miss Scarlett,” protested Lucian, “don’t you remember? We
arranged to explore Limehouse to-morrow.”
Arthur looked at the painter very much as if he were indeed the gollywog
for which he had just been taken.
“I don’t want to interfere with previous arrangements,” he said, with
such a pathetic haughtiness that Sylvia had not the heart to wound his
dignity, and told Lucian Hope that the expedition to Limehouse must be
postponed. The young painter looked disconsolate and Arthur blossomed
from his fading. However, Lucian had the satisfaction of saying, in a
mysterious voice, to Sylvia before he went:
“Well, then, while you’re away I’ll get on with it.”
It was not until they were half-way to Dulwich in the train that Arthur
asked Sylvia what he was going to get on with.
“My scene,” she said.
“What scene?”
“Arthur, don’t be stupid. The set for my show.”
“You’re not going to let a youth like that paint a set for you? You’re
mad. What experience has he had?”
“None. That’s exactly why I chose him. I’m providing the experience.”
“Have you known him long?” Arthur demanded. “You can’t have known him
very long. He must have been at school when you left England.”
“Don’t be jealous,” said Sylvia.
“Jealous? Of him? Huh!”
Mrs. Madden had changed more than Sylvia expected. Arthur had seemed so
little altered that she was surprised to see his mother with white hair,
for she could scarcely be fifty-five yet. The drawing-room of the little
house in Dulwich recalled vividly the drawing-room of the house in
Hampstead; nor had Mrs. Madden bought herself a new piano with the fifty
pounds that was cabled back to her from Sulphurville. It suddenly
occurred to Sylvia that this was the first time she had seen her since
she ran away with Arthur, fifteen years ago, and she felt that she ought
to apologize for that behavior now; but, after all, Mrs. Madden had run
away herself once upon a time with her father’s groom and could scarcely
have been greatly astonished at Arthur’s elopement.
“You have forgiven me for carrying him off from Hampstead?” she asked,
with a smile.
Mrs. Madden laughed gently. “Yes, I was frightened at the time. But in
the end it did Arthur good, I think. It’s been such a pleasure to me to
hear how successful he’s been lately.” She looked at Sylvia with an
expression of marked sympathy.
After supper Mrs. Madden came up to Sylvia’s room and, taking her hand,
said, in her soft voice, “Arthur has told me all about you two.”
Sylvia flushed and pulled her hand away. “He’s no business to tell you
anything about me,” she said, hotly.
“You mustn’t be angry, Sylvia. He made it quite clear that you hadn’t
quite made up your mind yet. Poor boy,” she added, with a sigh.
Sylvia, when she understood that Arthur had not said anything about
their past, had a strong desire to tell Mrs. Madden that she had lived
with him for a year. She resented the way she had said “poor boy.” She
checked the impulse and assured her that if Arthur had spoken of their
marriage he had had no right to do so. It really was most improbable
that she should marry him; oh, but most improbable.
“You always spoke very severely about love when you were a little girl.
Do you remember? You must forgive a mother, but I must tell you that I
believe Arthur’s happiness depends upon your marrying him. He talks of
nothing else and makes such plans for the future.”
“He makes too many plans,” Sylvia said, severely.
“Ah, there soon comes a time when one ceases to make plans,” Mrs. Madden
sighed. “One is reduced to expedients. But now that you’re a woman, and
I can easily believe that you’re the clever woman Arthur says you are,
for you gave every sign of it when you were young—now that you’re a
woman, I do hope you’ll be a merciful woman. It’s such a temptation—you
must forgive my plain speaking—it’s such a temptation to keep a man
like Arthur hanging on. You must have noticed how young he is still—to
all intents and purposes quite a boy; and believe me he has the same
romantic adoration for you and your wonderfulness as he had when he was
seventeen. Don’t, I beg of you, treat such devotion too lightly.”
Sylvia could not keep silent under this unjustified imputation of
heartlessness, and broke out:
“I’m sure you’ll admit that Arthur has given quite a wrong idea of me
when I tell you that we lived together for a year; and you must remember
that I’ve been married already and know what it means. Arthur has no
right to complain of me.”
“Oh, Sylvia, I’m sorry!” Mrs. Madden almost whispered. “Oh dear! how
could Arthur do such a thing?”
“Because I made him, of course. Now you must forgive me if I say
something that hurts your feelings, but I must say it. When you ran away
with your husband, you must have made him do it. You must have done.”
“Good gracious me!” Mrs. Madden exclaimed. “I suppose I did. I never
looked at it in that light before. You’ve made me feel quite ashamed of
my behavior. Quite embarrassed. And I suppose everybody has always
blamed me entirely; but because my husband was one of my father’s
servants I always used to be defending him. I never thought of defending
myself.”
Sylvia was sorry for stirring up in Mrs. Madden’s placid mind old
storms. It was painful to see this faded gentlewoman in the little
suburban bedroom, blushing nervously at the unlady-like behavior of long
ago. Presently Mrs. Madden pulled herself up and said, with a certain
decision:
“Yes, but I did marry him.”
“Yes, but you hadn’t been married already. You hadn’t knocked round half
the globe for twenty-eight years. It’s no good my pretending to be
shocked at myself. I don’t care a bit what anybody thinks about me, and,
anyway, it’s done now.”
“Surely you’d be happier if you married Arthur after—after that,” Mrs.
Madden suggested.
“But I’m not in the least unhappy. I can’t say whether I shall marry
Arthur until I’ve given my performance. I can’t say what effect either
success or failure will have on me. My whole mind is concentrated in the
Pierian Hall next October.”
“I’m afraid I cant understand this modern way of looking at things.”
“But there’s nothing modern about my point of view, Mrs. Madden.
There’s nothing modern about the egotism of an artist. Arthur is as free
as I am. He has his own career to think about. He does think about it a
great deal. He’s radically much more interested in that than in marrying
me. The main point is that he’s free at present. From the moment I
promise to marry him and he accepts that promise he won’t be free. Nor
shall I. It wouldn’t be fair on either of us to make that promise now,
because I must know what October is going to bring forth.”
“Well, I call it very modern. When I was young we looked at marriage as
the most important event in a girl’s life.”
“But you didn’t, dear Mrs. Madden. You, or rather your contemporaries,
regarded marriage as a path to freedom—social freedom, that is. Your
case was exceptional. You fell passionately in love with a man beneath
you, as the world counts it. You married him, and what was the result?
You were cut off by your relations as utterly as if you had become the
concubine of a Hottentot.”
“Oh, Sylvia dear, what an uncomfortable comparison!”
“Marriage to your contemporaries was a social observance. I’m not
religious, but I regard marriage as so sacred that, because I’ve been
divorced and because, so far as I know, my husband is still alive, I
have something like religious qualms about marrying again. It takes a
cynic to be an idealist; the sentimentalist gets left at the first
fence. It’s just because I’m fond of Arthur in a perfectly normal way
when I’m not immersed in my ambition that I even contemplate the
notion of marrying him. I’ve got a perfectly normal wish to have
children and a funny little house of my own. So far as I know at
present, I should like Arthur to be the father of my children. But it’s
got to be an equal business. Personally I think that the Turks are wiser
about women than we are; I think the majority of women are only fit for
the harem and I’m not sure that the majority wouldn’t be much happier
under such conditions. The incurable vanity of man, however, has removed
us from our seclusion to admire his antics, and it’s too late to start
shutting us up in a box now. Woman never thought of equality with man
until he put the notion into her head.”
“I think perhaps supper may be ready,” Mrs. Madden said. “It all sounds
very convincing as you speak, but I can’t help feeling that you’d be
happier if you wouldn’t take everything to pieces to look at the works.
Things hardly ever go so well again afterward. Oh dear, I wish you
hadn’t lived together first.”
“It breaks the ice of the wedding-cake, doesn’t it?” said Sylvia.
“And I wish you wouldn’t make such bitter remarks. You don’t really mean
what you say. I’m sure supper must be ready.”
“Oh, but I do,” Sylvia insisted, as they passed out into the narrow
little passage and down the narrow stairs into the little dining-room.
Nevertheless, in Sylvia’s mind there was a kindliness toward this little
house, almost a tenderness, and far away at the back of her imagination
was the vision of herself established in just such another little house.
“But even the Albert Memorial would look all right from the wrong end of
a telescope,” she said to herself.
One thing was brought home very vividly during her stay in Dulwich,
which was the difference between what she had deceived herself into
thinking was that first maternal affection she had felt for Arthur and
the true maternal love of his mother. Whenever she had helped Arthur in
any way, she had always been aware of enjoying the sensation of her
indispensableness; it had been an emotion altogether different from this
natural selfishness of the mother; it was really one that had always
reflected a kind of self-conscious credit upon herself. Here in Dulwich,
with this aspect of her affection for Arthur completely overshadowed,
Sylvia was able to ask herself more directly if she loved him in the
immemorial way of love; and though she could not arrive at a finally
positive conclusion, she was strengthened in her resolve not to let him
go. Arthur himself was more in love with her than he had ever been, and
she thought that perhaps this was due to that sudden and disquieting
withdrawal of herself; in the midst of possession he had been
dispossessed, and until he could pierce her secret reasons he would
inevitably remain deeply in love, even to the point of being jealous of
a boy like Lucian Hope. Sylvia understood Arthur’s having refused an
engagement to tour as juvenile lead in a successful musical piece and
his unwillingness to leave her alone in town; he was rewarded, too, for
his action, because shortly afterward he obtained a good engagement in
London to take the place of a singer who had retired from the cast of
the Frivolity Theater. At that rate he would soon find himself at the
Vanity Theater itself.
In June Sylvia went back to the Airdales’, and soon afterward took rooms
near them in West Kensington. It was impossible to continue indefinitely
to pretend that Arthur and herself were mere theatrical acquaintances,
and one day Olive asked Sylvia if she intended to marry him.
“What do you advise?” Sylvia asked. “There’s a triumph, dearest Olive.
Have I ever asked your advice before?”
“I like him; Jack likes him, too, and says that he ought to get on fast
now; but I don’t know. Well, he’s not the sort of man I expected you to
marry.”
“You’ve had an ideal for me all the time,” Sylvia exclaimed. “And you’ve
never told me.”
“Oh no, I’ve never had anybody definite in my mind, but I think I should
be able to say at once if the man you had chosen was the right one.
Don’t ask me to describe him, because I couldn’t do it. You used to
tease me about marrying a curly-headed actor, but Arthur Madden seems to
me much more of a curly-headed actor than Jack is.”
“In fact, you thoroughly disapprove of poor Arthur?” Sylvia pressed.
“Oh dear, no! Oh, not at all! Please don’t think that. I’m only anxious
that you shouldn’t throw yourself away.”
“Remnants always go cheap,” said Sylvia. “However, don’t worry. I’ll be
quite sure of myself before I marry anybody again.”
The summer passed away quickly in a complexity of arrangements for the
opening performance at the Pierian Hall. Sylvia stayed three or four
times at Dulwich and grew very fond of Mrs. Madden, who never referred
again to the subject of marriage. She also went up to Warwickshire with
Olive and the children, much to the pleasure of Mr. Fanshawe, who was
now writing a supplementary volume called More Warwickshire Worthies.
In London she scarcely met any old friends; indeed, she went out of her
way to avoid people like the Clarehavens, because they would not have
been interested in what she was doing. By this time Sylvia had reached
the point of considering everybody either for the interest and belief he
evinced in her success or by the use he could be to her in securing it.
The first rapturous egoism of Arthur’s own success in London had worn
off with time, and he was able to devote himself entirely to running
about for Sylvia, which gradually made her regard him more and more as a
fixture. As for Lucian Hope, he thought of nothing but the great
occasion, and would have fought anybody who had ventured to cast a
breath of doubt upon the triumph at hand. The set that he had painted
was exactly what Sylvia required, and though both Arthur and Jack
thought it would distract the audience’s attention by puzzling them,
they neither of them on Sylvia’s account criticized it at all harshly.
At last in mid-October the very morning of the day arrived, so long
anticipated with every kind of discussion that its superficial
resemblance to other mornings seemed heartless and unnatural. It was
absurd that a milkman’s note should be the same as yesterday, that
servants should shake mats on front-door steps as usual, and that the
maid who knocked at Sylvia’s door should not break down beneath the
weightiness of her summons. Nor, when Sylvia looked out of the window,
were Jack and Arthur and Ronald and Lucian pacing with agitated steps
the pavement below, an absence of enthusiasm, at any rate on the part of
Arthur and Lucian, that hurt her feelings, until she thought for a
moment how foolishly unreasonable she was being.
As soon as Sylvia was dressed she went round to the Airdales’; everybody
she met on the way inspired her with a longing to confide in him the
portentousness of the day, and she found herself speculating whether
several business men, who were hurrying to catch the nine-o’clock
train, had possibly an intention of visiting the Pierian Hall that
afternoon. She was extremely annoyed to find, when she reached the
Airdales’ house, that neither Jack nor Olive was up.
“Do they know the time?” she demanded of the maid, in a scandalized
voice. “Their clock must have stopped.”
“Oh no, miss, I don’t think so. Breakfast is at ten, as usual. There’s
Mr. Airdale’s dressing-room bell going now, miss. That ’ll be for his
shaving-water. Shall I say you’re waiting to see him?”
What a ridiculous time to begin shaving, Sylvia thought.
“Yes, please,” she added, aloud. “Or no, don’t bother him; I’ll come
back at ten o’clock.”
Sylvia saw more of the streets of West Kensington in that hour than she
had ever seen of them before, and decided that the neighborhood was
impossible. Nothing so intolerably monotonous as these rows of stupid
and meaningless houses had ever been designed. One after another of them
blinked at her in the autumnal sunshine with a fatuous complacency that
made her long to ring all the bells in the street. Presently she found
herself by the play-fields of St. James’s School, where the last boys
were hurrying across the grass like belated ants. She looked at the
golden clock in the school-buildings—half past nine. In five hours and
a half she would be waiting for the curtain to go up; in seven hours and
a half the audience would be wondering if it should have tea in Bond
Street or cross Piccadilly and walk down St. James’s Street to
Rumpelmayer’s. This problem of the audience began to worry Sylvia. She
examined the alternatives with a really anxious gravity. If it went to
Rumpelmayer’s it would have to walk back to the Dover Street Tube, which
would mean recrossing Piccadilly; on the other hand, it would be on the
right side for the omnibuses. On the other hand, it would find
Rumpelmayer’s full, because other audiences would have arrived before
it, invading the tea-shop from Pall Mall. Sylvia grew angry at the
thought of these other audiences robbing her audience of its tea—her
audience, some members of which would have read in the paper this
morning:
PIERIAN HALL.
This afternoon at 3 p. m.
SYLVIA SCARLETT
IN
IMPROVISATIONS
and would actually have paid, some of them, as much as seven shillings
and sixpence to see Sylvia Scarlett. Seven hours and a half: seven
shillings and sixpence: 7½ plus 7½ made fifteen. When she was
fifteen she had met Arthur. Sylvia’s mind rambled among the omens of
numbers, and left her audience still undecided between Bond Street and
Rumpelmayer’s, left it upon the steps of the Pierian Hall, the sport of
passing traffic, hungry, thirsty, homesick. In seven and a half hours
she would know the answer to that breathless question asked a year ago
in Vermont. To think that the exact spot on which she had stood when she
asked was existing at this moment in Vermont! In seven and a half hours,
no, in seven hours and twenty-five minutes; the hands were moving on. It
was really terrible how little people regarded the flight of time; the
very world might come to an end in seven hours and twenty-five minutes.
“Have you seen Sylvia Scarlett yet?”
“No, we intended to go yesterday, but there were no seats left. They say
she’s wonderful.”
“Oh, my dear, she’s perfectly amazing! Of course it’s something quite
new. You really must go.”
“Who is she like?”
“Oh, she’s not like anybody else. I’m told she’s half French.”
“Oh, really! How interesting.”
“Good morning! Have you used Pear’s soap?”
“V-vi-vin-vino-vinol-vinoli-vinolia.”
Sylvia pealed the Airdales’ bell, and found Jack in the queer mixed
costume which a person wears on the morning of an afternoon that will be
celebrated by his best tail-coat.
“My dear girl, you really mustn’t get so excited,” he protested, when he
saw Sylvia’s manner.
“Oh, Jack, do you think I shall be a success?”
“Of course you will. Now, do, for goodness’ sake, drink a cup of coffee
or something.”
Sylvia found that she was hungry enough to eat even an egg, which
created a domestic crisis, because Sylvius and Rose quarreled over which
of them was to have the top. Finally it was adjusted by awarding the top
to Sylvius, but by allowing Rose to turn the empty egg upside down for
the exquisite pleasure of watching Sylvia tap it with ostentatious
greed, only to find that there was nothing inside, after all, an
operation that Sylvius watched with critical jealousy and Rose saluted
with ecstatic joy. Sylvia’s disappointment was so beautifully violent
that Sylvius regretted the material choice he had made, and wanted
Sylvia to eat another egg, of which Rose might eat the top and he offer
the empty shell; but it was too late, and Sylvius learned that often the
shadow is better than the substance.
It had been decided in the end that Jack should confine himself to the
cares of general management, and Arthur was left without a rival. Sylvia
had insisted that he should only sing old English folk-songs, a decision
which he had challenged at first on the ground that he required the
advertisement of more modern songs, and that Sylvia’s choice was not
going to help him.
“You’re not singing to help yourself,” she had told him. “You’re singing
to help me.”
In addition to Arthur there was a girl whom Lucian Hope had discovered,
a delicate creature with red hair, whose chief claim to employment was
that she was starving, though incidentally she had a very sweet and pure
soprano voice. Finally there was an Irish pianist whose technique and
good humor were alike unassailable.
Before the curtain went up, Sylvia could think of nothing but the
improvisations that she ought to have invented instead of the ones that
she had. It was a strain upon her common sense to prevent her from
canceling the whole performance and returning its money to the audience.
The more she contemplated what she was going to do the more she viewed
the undertaking as a fraud upon the public. There had never been any
chicane like the chicane she was presently going to commit. What was
that noise? Who had given the signal to O’Hea? What in hell’s name did
he think he was doing at the piano? The sound of the music was like
water running into one’s bath while one was lying in bed—nothing could
stop it from overflowing presently. Nothing could stop the curtain from
rising. At what a pace he was playing that Debussy! He was showing off,
the fool! A ridiculous joke came into her mind that she kept on
repeating while the music flowed: “Many a minim makes a maxim. Many a
minim makes a maxim.” How cold it was in the dressing-room, and the
music was getting quicker and quicker. There was a knock at the door. It
was Arthur. How nice he looked with that red carnation in his
buttonhole.
“How nice you look, Arthur, in that buttonhole.”
The flower became tremendously important; it seemed to Sylvia that, if
she could go on flattering the flower, O’Hea would somehow be kept at
the piano.
“Well, don’t pull it to pieces,” said Arthur, ruthfully. But it was too
late; the petals were scattered on the floor like drops of blood.
“Oh, I’m sorry! Come along back to my dressing-room. I’ll give you
another flower.”
“No, no; there isn’t time now. Wait till you come off after your first
set.”
Now it was seeming the most urgent thing in the world to find another
flower for Arthur’s buttonhole. At all cost the rise of that curtain
must be delayed. But Arthur had brought her on the stage and the notes
were racing toward the death of the piece. It was absurd of O’Hea to
have chosen Debussy; the atmosphere required a ballade of Chopin, or,
better still, Schumann’s Noveletten. He could have played all the
Noveletten. Oh dear, what a pity she had not thought of making that
suggestion. The piano would have been scarcely half-way through by now.
Suddenly there was silence. Then there followed the languid applause of
an afternoon audience for an unimportant part of the program.
“He’s stopped,” Sylvia exclaimed, in horror. “What has happened?”
She turned to Arthur in despair, but he had hurried off the stage.
Lucian Hope’s painted city seemed to press forward and stifle her; she
moved down-stage to escape it. The curtain went up and she recoiled as
from a chasm at her feet. Why on earth was O’Hea sitting in that idiotic
attitude, as if he were going to listen to a sermon, looking down like
that, with his right arm supporting his left elbow and his left hand
propping up his chin? How hot the footlights were! She hoped nothing had
happened, and looked round in alarm; but the fireman was standing quite
calmly in the wings. Just as Sylvia was deciding that her voice could
not possibly escape from her throat, which had closed upon it like a
pair of pincers, the voice tore itself free and went traveling out
toward that darkness in front, that nebulous darkness scattered with
hands and faces and programs. Like Concetta in a great city, Sylvia was
lost in that darkness; she was Concetta. It seemed to her that the
applause at the end was not so much approval of Concetta as a welcome to
Mrs. Gainsborough; when isolated laughs and volleys of laughter came out
of the darkness and were followed sometimes by the darkness itself
laughing everywhere, so that O’Hea looked up very personally and winked
at her, then Sylvia fell in love with her audience. The laughter
increased, and suddenly she recognized at the end of each volley that
Sylvius and Rose were supplementing its echoes with rapturous echoes of
their own. She could not see them, but their gurgles in the darkness
were like a song of nightingales to Sylvia. She ceased to be Mrs.
Gainsborough, and began to say three or four of the poems. Then the
curtain fell, and came up again, and fell, and came up again, and fell,
and came up again.
Jack was standing beside her and saying:
“Splendid, splendid, splendid, splendid!”
“Delighted, delighted, delighted, delighted!”
“Very good audience! Splendid audience! Delighted audience! Success!
Success! Success!”
Really, how wonderfully O’Hea was playing, Sylvia thought, and how good
that Debussy was!
The rest of the performance was as much of a success as the beginning.
Perhaps the audience liked best Mrs. Gowndry and the woman who smuggled
lace from Belgium into France. Sylvius and Rose laughed so much at the
audience’s laughter at Mrs. Gowndry that Sylvius announced in the
ensuing lull that he wanted to go somewhere, a desire which was
naturally indorsed by Rose. The audience was much amused, because it
supposed that Sylvius’s wish was a tribute to the profession of Mrs.
Gowndry’s husband, and whatever faint doubts existed about the propriety
of alluding in the Pierian Hall to a lavatory-attendant were dispersed.
Sylvia forgot altogether about the audience’s tea when the curtain fell
finally. It was difficult to think about anything with so many smiling
people pressing round her on the stage. Several old friends came and
reminded her of their existence, but there was no one who had quite such
a radiant smile as Arthur Lonsdale.
“Lonnie! How nice of you to come!”
“I say, topping, I mean. What? I say, that’s a most extraordinary
back-cloth you’ve got. What on earth is it supposed to be? It reminds me
of what you feel like when you’re driving a car through a strange town
after meeting a man you haven’t seen for some time and who’s just found
out a good brand of fizz at the hotel where he’s staying. I was afraid
you’d get bitten in the back before you’d finished. I say, Mrs. Gowndry
was devilish good. Some of the other lads and lasses were a bit beyond
me.”
“And how’s business?”
“Oh, very good. We’ve just put the neatest little ninety h. p.
torpedo-body two-seater on the market. I’ll tootle you down to Brighton
in it one Sunday morning. Upon my word, you’ll scarcely have time to
wrap yourself up before you’ll have to unwrap yourself to shake hands
with dear old Harry Burnly coming out to welcome you from the
Britannia.”
“Not married yet, Lonnie?”
“No, not yet. Braced myself up to do it the other day, dived in, and was
seized with cramp at the deep end. She offered to be a sister to me and
I sank like a stone. My mother’s making rather a nuisance of herself
about it. She keeps producing girls out of her muff like a conjurer,
whenever she comes to see me. And what girls! Heather mixture most of
them, like Guggenheim’s Twelfth of August. I shall come to it at last, I
suppose. Mr. Arthur Lonsdale and his bride leaving St. Margaret’s,
Westminster, under an arch of spanners formed by grateful chauffeurs
whom the brilliant and handsome young bride-groom has recommended to
many titled readers of this paper. Well, so long, Sylvia; there’s a
delirious crowd of admirers waiting for you. Send me a line where you’re
living and we’ll have a little dinner somewhere—”
Sylvia’s success was not quite so huge as in the first intoxication of
her friends’ enthusiasm she had begun to fancy. However, it was
unmistakably a success, and she was able to give two recitals a week
through the autumn, with certainly the prospect of a good music-hall
engagement for the following spring, if she cared to accept it. Most of
the critics discovered that she was not as good as Yvette Guilbert. In
view of Yvette Guilbert’s genius, of which they were much more firmly
convinced now than they would have been when Yvette Guilbert first
appeared, this struck them as a fairly safe comparison; moreover, it
gave their readers an impression that they understood French, which
enhanced the literary value of their criticism. To strengthen this
belief most of them were inclined to think that the French poems were
the best part of Miss Sylvia Scarlett’s performance. One or two of the
latter definitely recalled some of Yvette Guilbert’s early work, no
doubt by the number of words they had not understood, because somebody
had crackled a program or had shuffled his feet or had coughed. As for
the English character studies, or, as some of them carried away by
reminiscences of Yvette Guilbert into oblivion of their own language
preferred to call them, études, they had a certain distinction, and in
many cases betrayed signs of an almost meticulous observation, though at
the same time, like everybody else doing anything at the present moment
except in France, they did not have as much distinction or
meticulousness as the work of forerunners in England or contemporaries
abroad. Still, that was not to say that the work of Miss Sylvia Scarlett
was not highly promising and of the greatest possible interest. The
timbre of her voice was specially worthy of notice and justified the
italics in which it was printed. Finally, two critics, who were probably
sitting next to each other, found a misprint in the program, no doubt in
searching for a translation of the poems.
If Sylvia fancied a lack of appreciation in the critics, all her friends
were positive that they were wonderful notices for a beginner.
“Why, I think that’s a splendid notice in the Telegraph,” said Olive.
“I found it almost at once. Why, one often has to read right through the
paper before one can find the notice.”
“Do you mean to tell me that the most self-inebriated egotist on earth
ever read right through the Daily Telegraph? I don’t believe it. He’d
have been drowned like Narcissus.”
Arthur pressed for a decision about their marriage, now that Sylvia knew
what she had so long wanted to know; but she was wrapped up in ideas for
improving her performance and forbade Arthur to mention the subject
until she raised it herself; for the present she was on with a new love
twice a week. Indeed, they were fascinating to Sylvia, these audiences
each with a definite personality of its own. She remembered how she had
scoffed in old days at the slavish flattery of them by her fellow-actors
and actresses; equally in the old days she had scoffed at love. She
wished that she could feel toward Arthur as she felt now toward her
audiences, which were as absorbing as children with their little
clevernesses and precocities. The difference between what she was doing
now and what she had done formerly when she sang French songs with an
English accent was the difference between the realism of an old knotted
towel that is a baby and an expensive doll that may be a baby but never
ceases to be a doll. Formerly she had been a mechanical thing and had
never given herself because she had possessed neither art nor truth, but
merely craft and accuracy. She had thought that the personality was
degraded by depending on the favor of an audience. All that old
self-consciousness and false shame were gone. She and her audience
communed through art as spirits may commune after death. In the
absorption of studying the audience as a separate entity, Sylvia forgot
that it was made up of men and women. When she knew that any friends of
hers were in front, they always remained entirely separate in her mind
from the audience. Gradually, however, as the autumn advanced, several
people from long ago re-entered her life and she began to lose that
feeling of seclusion from the world and to realize the gradual setting
up of barriers to her complete liberty of action. The first of these
visitants was Miss Ashley, who in her peacock-blue gown looked much as
she had looked when Sylvia last saw her.
“I could not resist coming round to tell you how greatly I enjoyed your
performance,” she said. “I’ve been so sorry that you never came to see
me all these years.”
Sylvia felt embarrassed, because she dreaded presently an allusion to
her marriage with Philip, but Miss Ashley was too wise.
“How’s Hornton House!” asked Sylvia, rather timidly. It was like
inquiring after the near relation of an old friend who might have died.
“Just the same. Miss Primer is still with me. Miss Hossack now has a
school of her own. Miss Pinck became very ill with gouty rheumatism and
had to retire. I won’t ask you about yourself; you told me so much from
the stage. Now that we’ve been able to meet again, won’t you come and
visit your old school sometime?”
Sylvia hesitated.
“Please,” Miss Ashley insisted. “I’m not inviting you out of politeness.
It would really give me pleasure. I have never ceased to think about you
all these years. Well, I won’t keep you, for I’m sure you must be tired.
Do come. Tell me, Sylvia. I should so like to bring the girls one
afternoon. What would be a good afternoon to come?”
“You mean, when will there be nothing in the program that—”
“We poor schoolmistresses,” said Miss Ashley, with a whimsical look of
deprecation.
“Come on Saturday fortnight, and afterward I’ll go back with you all to
Hornton House. I’d love that.”
So it was arranged.
On Wednesday of the following week it happened that there was a
particularly appreciative audience, and Sylvia became so much enamoured
of the laughter that she excelled herself. It was an afternoon of
perfect accord, and she traced the source of it to a group somewhere in
the middle of the stalls, too far back for her to recognize its
composition. After the performance a pack of visiting-cards was brought
to the door of her dressing-room. She read: “Mrs. Ian Campbell, Mrs.
Ralph Dennison.” Who on earth were they? “Mr. Leonard Worsley”—
Sylvia flung open the door, and there they all were, Mr. and Mrs.
Worsley, Gladys and Enid, two good-looking men in the background, two
children in the foreground.
“Gladys! Enid!”
“Sylvia!”
“Oh, Sylvia, you were priceless! Oh, we enjoyed ourselves no end! You
don’t know my husband. Ian, come and bow nicely to the pretty lady,”
cried Gladys.
“Sylvia, it was simply ripping. We laughed and laughed. Ralph, come and
be introduced, and this is Stumpy, my boy,” Enid cried, simultaneously.
“Fancy, he’s a grandfather,” the daughters exclaimed, dragging Mr.
Worsley forward. He looked younger than ever.
“Hercules is at Oxford, or of course he’d have come, too. This is
Proodles,” said Gladys, pointing to the little girl.
“Sylvia, why did you desert us like that?” Mrs. Worsley reproachfully
asked. “When are you coming down to stay with us at Arbor End? Of course
the children are married....” She broke off with half a sigh.
“Oh, but we can all squash in,” Gladys shouted.
“Oh, rather,” Enid agreed. “The kids can sleep in the coal-scuttles. We
sha’n’t notice any difference.”
“Dears, it’s so wonderful to see you,” Sylvia gasped. “But do tell me
who you all are over again. I’m so muddled.”
“I’m Mrs. Ian Campbell,” Gladys explained. “And this is Ian. And this is
Proodles, and at home there’s Groggles, who’s too small for anything
except pantomimes. And that’s Mrs. Ralph Dennison, and that’s Ralph,
and that’s Stumpy, and at home Enid’s got a girlie called Barbara.
Mother hates being a grandmother four times over, so she’s called Aunt
Victoria, and of course father’s still one of the children. We’ve both
been married seven years.”
Nothing had so much brought home to Sylvia the flight of time as this
meeting with Gladys and Enid, who when she last saw them were only
sixteen. It was incredible. And they had not forgotten her; in what
seemed now a century they had not forgotten her! Sylvia told them about
Miss Ashley’s visit and suggested that they should come and join the
party of girls from Hornton House. It would be fun, would it not? Miss
Primer was still at the school.
Gladys and Enid were delighted with the plan, and on the day fixed about
twenty girls invaded Sylvia’s dressing-room, shepherded by Miss Primer,
who was still melting with tears for Rodrigo’s death in the scene. Miss
Ashley had brought the carriage to drive Sylvia back, but she insisted
upon going in a motor-’bus with the others and was well rewarded by Miss
Primer’s ecstasies of apprehension. Sylvia wandered with Gladys and Enid
down well-remembered corridors, in and out of bedrooms and class-rooms;
she listened to resolutions to send Prudence and Barbara to Hornton
House in a few years. For Sylvia it was almost too poignant, the thought
of these families growing up all round her, while she, after so many
years, was still really as much alone as she had always been. The
company of all these girls with their slim black legs, their pigtails
and fluffy hair tied back with big bows, the absurdly exaggerated speech
and the enlaced loves of girlhood—the accumulation of it all was
scarcely to be borne.
When Sylvia visited Arbor End and talked once again to Mrs. Worsley,
sitting at the foot of her bed, about the wonderful lives of that so
closely self-contained family, the desolation of the future came visibly
nearer; it seemed imperative at whatever cost to drive it back.
Shortly before Christmas a card was brought round to Sylvia—“Mrs.
Prescott-Merivale, Hardingham Hall, Hunts.”
“Who is it?” she asked her maid.
“It’s a lady, miss.”
“Well of course I didn’t suppose a cassowary had sent up his card.
What’s she like?”
The maid strove to think of some phrase that would describe the visitor,
but she fell back hopelessly upon her original statement.
“She’s a lady, miss.” Then, with a sudden radiancy lighting her eyes,
she added, “And there’s a little boy with her.”
“My entertainment seems to be turning into a children’s treat,” Sylvia
muttered to herself. “Sic itur ad astra.”
“I beg your pardon, miss, did you say to show her in?”
Sylvia nodded.
Presently a tall young woman in the late twenties, with large and
brilliant gray eyes, rose-flushed and deep in furs, came in, accompanied
by an extraordinarily handsome boy of seven or eight.
“How awfully good of you to let me waste a few minutes of your time,”
she said, and as she spoke, Sylvia had a fleeting illusion that it was
herself who was speaking, a sensation infinitely rapid, but yet
sufficiently clear to make her ask herself the meaning of it, and to
find in the stranger’s hair the exact replica of her own. The swift
illusion and the equally swift comparison were fled before she had
finished inviting her visitor to sit down.
“I must explain who I am. I’ve heard about you, oh, of course, publicly,
but also from my brother.”
“Your brother?” repeated Sylvia.
“Yes, Michael Fane.”
“He’s not with you?”
“No. I wish he had been. Alas! he’s gone off to look for a friend who,
by the way, I expect you know also. Maurice Avery? All sorts of horrid
rumors about what had happened to him in Morocco were being brought back
to us, so Michael went off last spring, and has been with him ever
since.”
“But I thought he was a monk,” Sylvia said.
Mrs. Merivale laughed with what seemed rather like relief. “No, he’s
neither priest nor monk, thank goodness, though the prospect still hangs
over us.”
“After all these years?” Sylvia asked, in astonishment.
“Oh, my dear Miss Scarlett, don’t forget the narrow way is also long.
But I didn’t come to talk to you about Michael. I simply most
shamelessly availed myself of his having met you a long time ago to give
myself an excuse for talking to you about your performance. Of course
it’s absolutely great. How lucky you are!”
“Lucky?” Sylvia could not help glancing at the handsome boy beside her.
“He’s rather a lamb, isn’t he?” Mrs. Merivale agreed. “But you started
all sorts of old, forgotten, hidden-away, burned-out fancies of mine
this afternoon, and—you see, I intended to be a professional pianist
once, but I got married instead. Much better, really, because,
unless—Oh, I don’t know. Yes, I am jealous of you. You’ve picked me
up and put me down again where I was once. Now the conversation’s backed
into me, and I really do want to talk about you. Your performance is the
kind about which one wonders why nobody ever did it before. That’s the
greatest compliment one can pay an artist, I think. All great art is the
great expression of a great commonplace; that’s why it always looks so
easy. I do hope you’re having the practical success you deserve.”
“Yes, I think I shall be all right,” Sylvia said. “Only, I expect that
after the New-Year I shall have to cut my show considerably and take a
music-hall engagement. I’m not making a fortune at the Pierian.”
“How horrid for you! How I should love to play with you! Oh dear! It’s
heartrending to say it, but it’s much too late. Well, I mustn’t keep
you. You’ve given me such tremendous pleasure and just as much pain with
it as makes the pleasure all the sharper.... I’ll write and tell Michael
about you.”
“I expect he’s forgotten my name by now,” Sylvia said.
“Oh no, he never forgets anybody, even in the throes of theological
speculation. Good-by. I see that this is your last performance for the
present. I shall come and hear you again when you reopen. How odious
about music-halls. You ought to have called yourself Silvia Scarletti,
told your press agent that you were the direct descendant of the
composer, vowed that when you came to England six months ago you could
speak nothing but Polish, and you could have filled the Pierian night
and day for a year. We’re queer people, we English. I think, you know,
it’s a kind of shyness, the way we treat native artists. You get the
same thing in families. It’s not really that the prophet has no honor,
etc.; it really is, I believe, a fear of boasting, which would be such
bad form, wouldn’t it? Of course we’ve ruined ourselves as a nation by
our good manners and our sense of humor. Why, we’ve even insisted that
what native artists we do support shall be gentlemen first and artists
second. In what other country could an actor be knighted for his
trousers or an author for his wife’s dowry? Good-by. I do wish you
great, great success.”
“Anyway, I can’t be knighted,” Sylvia laughed.
“Oh, don’t be too sure. A nation that has managed to turn its artists
into gentlemen will soon insist on turning its women into gentlemen,
too, or at any rate on securing their good manners in some way.”
“Women will never really have good manners,” Sylvia said.
“No, thank God. There you’re right. Well, good-by. It’s been so jolly to
talk to you, and again I’ve loved every moment of this afternoon.
Charles,” she added to the handsome boy, “after bragging about your
country’s good manners, let’s see you make a decent bow.”
He inclined his head with a grave courtesy, opened the door for his
mother, and followed her out.
The visit of Michael’s sister, notwithstanding that she had envied
Sylvia’s luck, left her with very little opinion of it herself. What was
her success, after all? A temporary elation dependent upon good health
and the public taste, financially uncertain, emotionally wearing,
radically unsatisfying and insecure, for, however good her performance
was, it was always mummery, really, as near as mummery could get to
creative work, perhaps, but mortal like its maker.
“Sad to think this is the last performance here,” said her maid.
Sylvia agreed with her. It was a relief to find a peg on which to hang
the unreasonable depression that was weighing her down. She passed out
of her dressing-room. As the stage door swung to behind her a figure
stepped into the lamplight of the narrow court; it was Jimmy Monkley.
The spruceness had left him; all the color, too, had gone from his face,
which was now sickly white—an evil face with its sandy mustache
streaked with gray and its lusterless green eyes. Sylvia was afraid that
from the way she started back from him he would think that she scorned
him for having been in prison, and with an effort she tried to be
cordial.
“You’ve done damned well for yourself,” he said, paying no attention to
what she was saying. She found this meeting overwhelmingly repulsive and
moved toward her taxi. It was seeming to her that Monkley had the power
to snatch her away and plunge her back into that life of theirs. She
would really rather have met Philip than him.
“Damned well for yourself,” he repeated.
“I’m sorry I can’t stay. I’m in a hurry. I’m in a hurry.”
She reached the taxi and slammed the door in his face.
This unexpected meeting convinced Sylvia of the necessity of attaching
herself finally to a life that would make the resurrection of a Monkley
nothing more influential than a nightmare. She knew that she was giving
way to purely nervous fears in being thus affected by what, had she
stopped to think, was the natural result of her name’s becoming known.
But the liability to nervous fears was in itself an argument that
something was wrong. When had she ever been a prey to such hysteria
before? When had she allowed herself to be haunted by a face, as now she
was being haunted by Monkley’s face? Suppose he had seated himself
behind the taxi and that when she reached the Airdales’ house he should
once more be standing on the pavement in the lamplight?
In Brompton Road Sylvia told the driver to stop. She wanted to do some
Christmas shopping. After an hour or more spent among toys she came out
with a porter loaded with packages, and looked round her quickly; but of
course he was not upon the pavement. How absurd she had been! In any
case, what could Monkley do? She would forget all about him. To-morrow
was Christmas Eve. There was going to be such a jolly party at the
Airdales’. The taxi hummed toward West Kensington. Sylvia leaned back,
huddled up with her thoughts, until they reached Lillie Road. She had
passed Mrs. Meares’s house so many times without giving it a second
look. Now she found herself peering out into the thickening fog in case
Monkley should be standing upon the door-step. She was glad when she
reached the Airdales’ house, warm and bright, festooned with holly and
mistletoe. There were pleasant little household noises everywhere,
comfortable little noises, and a rosy glow from the silken shades of the
lamps; the carpet was so quiet and the parlor-maid in a clean cap and
apron so efficient, so quick to get in all the parcels and shut out the
foggy night.
Olive was already in the drawing-room, and because this was to be a
specially unceremonious evening in preparation for the party to-morrow,
Olive was in a pink tea-gown that blended with the prettiness of her
cozy house and made her more essentially a part of it all. How bleak was
her own background in comparison with this, Sylvia thought. Jack was
dining out most unwillingly and had left a great many pleas to be
forgiven by Sylvia on the first night of her Christmas visit. After
dinner they sat in the drawing-room, and Sylvia told Olive about her
meeting with Monkley. She said nothing about Michael Fane’s sister; that
meeting did not seem to have any bearing upon the subject she wanted to
discuss.
“Can you understand,” Sylvia asked, “being almost frightened into
marriage?”
“Yes, I think so,” Olive replied, as judicially as the comfort of her
surroundings would allow. It was impossible to preserve a critical
attitude in this room; in such a suave and genial atmosphere one
accepted anything.
“Well, do you still object to my marrying Arthur?” Sylvia demanded.
“But, my dear, I never objected to your marrying him. I may have
suggested, when I first saw him, that he seemed rather too much the type
of the ordinary actor for you, but that was only because you yourself
had always scoffed at actors so haughtily. Since I’ve known him I’ve
grown to like him. Please don’t think I ever objected to your marrying
him. I never felt more sure about anybody’s knowing her own mind than I
do about you.”
“Well, I am going to marry him,” Sylvia said.
“Darling Sylvia, why do you say it so defiantly? Everybody will be
delighted. Jack was talking only the other day about his perpetual dread
that you’d never give yourself a chance of establishing your position
finally, because you were so restless.”
Sylvia contemplated an admission to Olive of having lived with Arthur
for a year in America, but in this room the fact had an ugly look and
seemed to belong rather to that evil face of the past that had
confronted her with such ill omen this evening, rather than to anything
so homely as marriage.
“Arthur may not be anything more than an actor,” she went on. “But in my
profession what else do I want? He has loved me for a long time; I’m
very fond of him. It’s essential that I should have a background so that
I shall never be shaken out of my self-possession by anything like this
evening’s encounter. I’ve lived a life of feverish energy, and it’s only
since the improvisations that I can begin to believe it wasn’t all
wasted. I made a great mistake when I was seventeen, and when I was
nineteen I tried to repair it with a still greater mistake. Then came
Lily; she was a mistake. Oh, when I look back at it all, it’s nothing
but mistake after mistake. I long for such funny ordinary little
pleasures. Olive darling, I’ve tried, I’ve tried to think I can do
without love, without children, without family, without friends. I
can’t.”
The tears were running swiftly, and all the time more swiftly, down
Sylvia’s cheeks while she was speaking. Olive jumped up from her soft
and quilted chair and knelt beside her friend.
“My darling Sylvia, you have friends, you have, indeed you have.”
“I know,” Sylvia went on. “It’s ungrateful of me. Why, if it hadn’t been
for you and Jack I should have gone mad. But just because you’re so
happy together, and because you have Sylvius and Rose, and because I
flit about on the outskirts of it all like a timid, friendly, solitary
ghost, I must have some one to love me. I’ve really treated Arthur very
badly. I’ve kept him waiting now for a year. I wasn’t brave enough to
let him go, and I wasn’t brave enough to marry him. I’ve never been
undecided in my life. It must be that the gipsy in me has gone forever,
I think. This success of mine has been leading all the time to settling
down properly. Most of the people who came back to me out of the past
were the nice people, like my old mistress and the grown-up twins, and I
want to be like them. Oh, Olive, I’m so tired of being different, of
people thinking that I’m hard and brutal and cynical. I’m not. Indeed
I’m not. I couldn’t have felt that truly appalling horror of Monkley
this evening if I were really bad.”
“Sylvia dear, you’re working yourself up needlessly. How can you say
that you’re bad? How can you say such things about yourself? You’re not
religious, perhaps.”
“Listen, Olive, if I marry Arthur I swear I’ll make it a success. You
know that I have a strong will. I’m not going to criticize him. I’m
simply determined to make him and myself happy. It’s very easy to love
him, really. He’s like a boy—very weak, you know—but with all sorts of
charming qualities, and his mother would be so glad if it were all
settled. Olive, I meant to tell you a whole heap of things about myself,
about what I’ve done, but I won’t. I’m going to forget it all and be
happy. I’m glad it’s Christmas-time. I’ve bought such ripping things for
the kids. When I was buying them to-night there came into my head almost
my first adventure when I was a very little girl and thought I’d found a
ten-franc piece which was really the money I’d been given for the
marketing. I had just such an orgy of buying to-night. Did you know that
a giraffe could make a noise? Well, it can, or at any rate the giraffe I
bought for Sylvius can. You twist its neck and it protests like a
bronchial calf.”
The party on Christmas Eve was a great success. Lucian Hope burnt a hole
in the table-cloth with what was called a drawing-room firework. Jack
split his coat trying to hide inside his bureau. Arthur, sitting on a
bottle with his legs crossed, lit a candle, twice running. The little
red-haired singer found the ring in the pudding. Sylvia found the
sixpence. Nobody found the button, so it must have been swallowed. It
was a splendid party. Sylvius and Rose did not begin to cry steadily
until after ten o’clock.
When the guests were getting ready to leave, about two o’clock on
Christmas morning, and while Lucian Hope was telling everybody in turn
that somebody must have swallowed the button inadvertently, to prove
that he was quite able to pronounce “inadvertently,” Sylvia took Arthur
down the front-door steps and walked with him a little way along the
foggy street.
“Arthur, I’ll marry you when you like,” she said, laying a hand upon his
arm.
“Sylvia, what a wonderful Christmas present!”
“To us both,” she whispered.
Then on an impulse she dragged him back to the house and proclaimed
their engagement, which meant the opening of new bottles of champagne
and the drinking of so many healths that it was three o’clock before the
party broke up. Nor was there any likelihood of anybody’s being able to
say “inadvertently” by the time he had reached the corner of the street.
Arthur had begged Sylvia to come down to Dulwich on Christmas day, and
Mrs. Madden rejoiced over the decision they had reached at last. There
were one or two things to be considered, the most important of which was
the question of money. Sylvia had spent the last penny of what was left
of Morera’s money in launching herself, and she owed nearly two hundred
pounds besides. Arthur had saved nothing. Both of them, however, had
been offered good engagements for the spring, Arthur to tour as lead in
one of the Vanity productions, which might mean an engagement at the
Vanity itself in the autumn; Sylvia to play a twenty minutes’ turn at
all the music-halls of a big circuit. It seemed unsatisfactory to marry
and immediately afterward to separate, and they decided each to take the
work that had been offered, to save all the money possible, and to aim
at both playing in London next autumn, but in any case to be married in
early June when the tours would end. They should then have a couple of
months to themselves. Mrs. Madden wanted them to be married at once; but
the other way seemed more prudent, and Sylvia, having once made up her
mind, was determined to be practical and not to run the risk of spoiling
by financial worries the beginning of their real life together. Her
marriage in its orderliness and forethought and simplicity of intention
was to compensate for everything that had gone before. Mrs. Madden
thought they were both of them being too deliberate, but then she had
run away once with her father’s groom and must have had a fundamentally
impulsive, even a reckless temperament.
The engagement was announced with an eye to the most advantageous
publicity that is the privilege of being servants of the public. One was
able to read everywhere of a theatrical romance or more coldly of a
forthcoming theatrical marriage; nearly all the illustrated weeklies had
two little oval photographs underneath which ran the legend:
INTERESTING ENGAGEMENT
We learn that Miss Sylvia Scarlett, who recently registered such an
emphatic success in her original entertainment at the Pierian Hall,
will shortly wed Mr. Arthur Madden, whom many of our readers will
remember for his rendering of “Somebody is sitting in the sunset”
at the Frivolity Theater.
In one particularly intimate paper was a short interview headed:
ACTRESS’S DELIGHTFUL CANDOR
“No,” said Miss Scarlett to our representative who had called upon
the clever and original young performer to ascertain when her
marriage with Mr. Arthur Madden of “Somebody is sitting in the
sunset” fame would take place. “No, Arthur and I have decided to
wait till June. Frankly, we can’t afford to be married yet....”
and so on, with what was described as a portrait of Miss Sylvia Scarlet
inset, but which without the avowal would probably have been taken for
the thumbprint of a paperboy.
“This is all terribly vulgar,” Sylvia bewailed, but Jack, Arthur, and
Olive were all firm in the need for thorough advertisement, and she
acquiesced woefully. In January she and Arthur parted for their
respective tours. Jack, before she went away, begged Sylvia for the
fiftieth time to take back the money she had settled on her godchildren.
He argued with her until she got angry.
“Jack, if you mention that again I’ll never come to your house any
more. One of the most exquisite joys in all my life was when I was able
to do that, and when you and Olive were sweet enough to let me, for you
really were sweet and simple in those days and not purse-proud
bourgeois, as you are now. Please, Jack!” She had tears in her eyes.
“Don’t be unkind.”
“But supposing you have children of your own?” he urged.
“Jack, don’t go on. It really upsets me. I cannot bear the idea of that
money’s belonging to anybody but the twins.”
“Did you tell Arthur?”
“It’s nothing to do with Arthur. It’s only to do with me. It was my
present. It was made before Arthur came on the scene.”
With great unwillingness Jack obeyed her command not to say anything
more on the subject.
Sylvia earned a good enough salary to pay off nearly all her debts by
May, when her tour brought her to the suburban music-halls and she was
able to amuse herself by house-hunting for herself and Arthur. All her
friends, and not the least old ones like Gladys and Enid, took a
profound interest in her approaching marriage. Wedding-presents even
began to arrive. The most remarkable omen of the gods’ pleasure was a
communication she received in mid-May from Miss Dashwood’s solicitors to
say that Miss Dashwood had died and had left to Sylvia in her will the
freehold of Mulberry Cottage with all it contained. Olive was enraptured
with her good fortune, and wanted to telegraph to Arthur, who was in
Leeds that week; but Sylvia said she would rather write:
DEAREST ARTHUR,—You remember my telling you about Mulberry
Cottage? Well, the most wonderful thing has happened. That old
darling, Miss Dashwood, the sister of Mrs. Gainsborough’s captain,
has left it to me with everything in it. It has of course for me
all sorts of memories, and I want to tell you very seriously that I
regard it as a sign, yes, really a sign of my wanderings and
restlessness being forever finished. It seems to me somehow to
consecrate our marriage. Don’t think I’m turning religious: I shall
never do that. Oh no, never! But I can’t help being moved by what
to you may seem only a coincidence. Arthur, you must forgive me for
the way in which I’ve often treated you. You mustn’t think that
because I’ve always bullied you in the past I’m always going to in
the future. If you want me now, I’m yours really, much more than
I ever was in America, much, much more. You shall be happy with
me. Oh, it’s such a dear house with a big garden, for London a very
big garden, and it held once two such true hearts. Do you see the
foolish tears smudging the ink? They’re my tears for so much. I’m
going to-morrow morning to dust our house. Think of me when you get
this letter as really at last
Your
SYLVIA.
The next morning arrived a letter from Leeds, which had crossed hers:
MY DEAR SYLVIA,—I don’t know how to tell you what I must tell. I
was married this morning to Maimie Vernon. I don’t know how I let
myself fall in love with her. I never looked at her when she sang
at the Pierian with you. But she got an engagement in this company
and—well, you know the way things happen on tour. The only thing
that makes me feel not an absolutely hopeless cad is that I’ve a
feeling somehow that you were going to marry me more out of
kindness and pity than out of love.
Forgive me. ARTHUR.
“That funny little red-haired girl!” Sylvia gasped. Then like a surging
wave the affront to her pride overwhelmed her. With an effort she looked
at her other letters. One was from Michael Fane’s sister:
HARDINGHAM HALL,
HUNTS,
May, 1914.
DEAR MISS SCARLETT,—My brother is back in England and so anxious
to meet you again. I know you’re playing near town at present.
Couldn’t you possibly come down next Sunday morning and stay till
Monday? It would give us the greatest pleasure.
Yours sincerely,
STELLA PRESCOTT-MERIVALE.
“Never,” Sylvia cried, tearing the letter into small pieces. “Ah no!
That, never, never!”
She left her rooms, and went to Mulberry Cottage. The caretaker
fluttered round her to show her sense of Sylvia’s importance as her new
mistress. Was there nothing that she could do? Was there nothing that
she could get?
Sylvia sat on the seat under the mulberry-tree in the still morning
sunlight of May. It was impossible to think, impossible to plan,
impossible, impossible. The ideas in her brain went slowly round and
round. Nothing would stop them. Round and round they went, getting every
moment more mixed up with one another. But gradually from the confusion
one idea emerged, sharp, strong, insistent—she must leave England. The
moment this idea had stated itself, Sylvia could think of nothing but
the swiftness and secrecy of her departure. She felt that if one person
should ever fling a glance of sympathy or condolence or pity or even of
mild affection, she should kill herself to set free her outraged soul.
She made no plans for the future. She had no reproaches for Arthur. She
had nothing but the urgency of flight as from the Furies themselves.
Quickly she went back to her rooms and packed. All her big luggage she
took to Mulberry Cottage and placed with the caretaker. She sent a sum
of money to the solicitors and asked them to pay the woman until she
came back.
At the last moment, in searching through her trunks, she found the
yellow shawl that was wrapped round her few treasures of ancestry. She
was going to leave it behind, but on second thought she packed it in the
only trunk she took with her. She was going back perhaps to the life of
which these treasures were the only solid pledge.
“This time, yes, I’m off with the raggle-taggle gipsies in deadly
earnest. Charing Cross,” she told the taxi-driver.
THE END