“From the home of childhood’s glee,
From the days of laughter free,
From the love of many years,
Thou art gone to cares and fears;
To another path and guide,
To a bosom yet untried!
Bright one, oh! there well may be
Trembling ’midst our joy for thee.”
Mrs. Hemans.
“Mother! is not Rosalia to stay with you?”
asked Gusty May, as he lingered over a late
breakfast with his mother.
“Why, no, Gusty, certainly not! what put
such a thing in your head?”
“Why, mother, it came there naturally
enough, as Rose lived with us many years before
she went to school, and as you always seemed
so fond of her, and she also seemed so necessary
to you, I thought, of course, you would like to
have her again.”
“But you know, my dear, why Rose lived
with us; that reason no longer exists, and Rose
goes with her natural guardians.”
“And, mother, who are her natural guardians?
Two new brides, quite lost in the glory of their
bridehood; have they thought or care for Rosalia?”
“Sophie has.”
“Yes, but Sophie! Sophie is so innocent.
Sophie is going to live—didn’t you know it? on
board the store-ship.”
“Ship!”
“Lord bless you, yes, mother! aboard the
store-ship uncle commands. There is an elegant
cabin, furnished luxuriously as any city drawing-room,
and far beyond anything you see down in
this neighborhood. Well, as I was saying,
Sophie will live there—now is that a desirable
home for a young girl like Rosalia, among all
those gay, young officers, with a chaperone no
wider awake than Sophie is, with a guardian
merry and wild as Uncle Gusty?—and I tell
you, mother, those young officers are devils of
fellows—you know I know them.”
Emily fell into thought a moment, and then
she said,
“Sophie is indeed very abstracted, and my
brother, as you say, is wild; but then there is
Hagar; I think that it were better she resided
with Hagar.”
“What, mother, with Hagar! don’t you know
that Raymond proposes to board the first year?
and with the narrow salary of an under professor,
will Raymond be able to take her? Besides,
a girl dependent, as she is, should be made
to feel that she has quite a choice of homes, that
many hearts and doors are ready to fly open to
her.”
“You know that I should love to have her
with me, Gusty. I will invite her, press her to
come. I do not think, however, that either
Sophie or my brother will be willing to resign
her.”
“Thank you, dear mother! thank you!” exclaimed
Gusty, jumping up and kissing her, “oh!
thank you—‘willing!’ no, I don’t indeed suppose
they will be willing to resign her—who could,
in fact? nevertheless, we must try to overrule
them.”
“You run quite enthusiastic upon the subject,
Master Gusty!” exclaimed Emily, looking at
him attentively.
“Enthusiastic, mother! Gracious Heavens,
mother! one must be cold, dead, yes, a corpse—a
corpse! I mean a statue—one must never
have had life—a statue! I should rather have
said a block of marble—one must never have
had form not to be inspired with enthusiasm by
that girl—that seraph!”
“Hey! Master Gusty! have you fallen in love
with Rosalia?”
“Speak low, mother! Oh! breathe her name
in flute-like tones—for, mother! when I speak
of enthusiasm, I mean the rapt enthusiasm of the
adoring saint for his guardian angel! the silent
enthusiasm with bended knees, clasped hands,
and upraised eyes, mother!”
“Humph! not the enthusiasm for instance that
Hagar inspired some weeks ago—a passion that
was going to compel you to send the planets
whirling against each other!” archly smiled
Emily.
“Mother, no more of that ‘an you love me.’”
“So you have got over your phrensy for
Hagar?”
“Why, mother,—of course,” said Gusty,
assuming a look of shocked propriety, “of course—you
did not suppose I was going to keep on
loving her now, did you?”
“I should hope not, certainly; and I am glad
your lips confirm my hope.”
87“I am a man of honor, mother!” said Gusty,
dilating.
“Certainly you are, my love! I am very sure
of that—nevertheless, Master Gusty, I cannot
really give you credit for the exertion of
any great moral power in this affair. I think
that your passion has been conquered as the
Indians conquer danger when pursued by the
flames of a burning prairie—fire by fire—love
by love.”
“Stop, mother! be just—despair and conscience
did much for me even before I left
her.”
“And yet that was a great infatuation of
yours, and now here is another quite as great—I
am afraid you are fickle, Gusty! Have you
really quite ceased to regret Hagar?”
“Quite, mother.”
“And care nothing at all about her?”
“Oh! stop—yes, I care a great deal about
her in—in a brotherly way, you understand! in
fact, just as I always did, until I had to go mad
about her, you know. Care about Hagar? yes!
I guess I do! Let any fellow crook his finger
at Hagar, and see if he don’t get his neck
twisted, that’s all? It is singular that I should
have got into such a delirium, is it not, though?
and more singular that I should have got out of
it—don’t you think so, mother?”
“No, indeed—it is perfectly natural—the
‘harder it storms the sooner it is over’ is an
acknowledged atmospherical fact, and by all that
ever I have seen, it is as true of passionate as it
is of atmospheric storms. I hope that you will
never marry during the raging of any phrensy
of passion—for, if you do, you will be very apt
to make yourself and another miserable for the
rest of your lives.”
“You may well call it a phrensy—a storm,
mother! Gracious Heavens! yes! That intoxicating
Hagar! I used to reel away from
her whirling, spinning, tipsy! That electric
Hagar! she would flash into my soul blaze after
blaze, like the lightning of a dark, tempestuous
night, dazzling, blinding, stunning me!”
“And this other?”
“And this other—oh! stop, mother; put a
long pause between that and—‘this other,’ and
sink your voice low, like you were whispering
in a church—this other dawns on my soul like a
soft, rosy morn, faintly, gently, sweetly, and
bright and brightening! Hagar broke the silence
of my heart as with a laugh, a shout, a whoop,
a halloa! ‘This other’ steals upon the ear like
a soft note of music, rising and swelling into
harmony and volume!”
“My poet!”
“No, mother, not your poet; I feel more like
your apostle—I feel when I think of her more
like saying my prayers—I feel while sitting by
her as if I were doing a meritorious thing; my
heart is hushed into a holy content and calm,
such as one feels when taking a seat in the
church while the organ is pealing ‘gloria in
excelsis,’ or the preacher is reading ‘The Lord
is in His holy temple—let all the earth keep silence
before Him.’”
“Do not be irreverent, Gusty.”
“Oh, I am not, mother; indeed, so far from
it, that I never thought of the Lord so much,
worshipped the Lord so much, felt the Lord’s
presence in all the beautiful sights and sounds of
nature so much, as during that heavenly journey
with Rosalia. Let me tell you about it, mother—good,
best mother, you know I tell you
everything—always did ever since I was a boy.”
“Everything, Gusty?”
“Well, yes—that is—almost everything.
Well, you know after I set out from here, I tried
not to think of Hagar, but the more I struggled
with the image, the more intensely I thought of
her.”
“Of course; you should have fled from the
subject, fixed your attention on something else—never
let your thoughts struggle with a sinful
subject—fly from it.”
“Yes. Well, I was a little shy of meeting
Rose—she always was delicate, sensitive, and
refined—and I thought two years in a boarding-school
had educated and refined her tastes and
manners up to the highest fine lady standard.
Well, when I got to Boston, and when I reached
the outskirts of the town, and when I passed the
gate in front of Mrs. Tresham’s marble and
stuccoed mansion, I felt embarrassed. I had to
recollect that I was an officer in the United
States Navy, mother! I had to turn all the way
back to my hotel, wait half a day to get a card
engraved, put on my best new uniform, get a
pair of lavender-colored gloves, and a cambric
handkerchief—throw myself into a carriage and
ride there (I had walked before), and all for fear
Miss Aguilar should think me rough, countryfied.
Well, I made coachee get down and ring
the bell, take in my card, ‘Augustus W. May,
U. S. N.’ Come, I thought, that would do—that
was going it en grand seignior. Presently
I alighted, and was shown into the parlor. Magnificent,
mother! precisely like a wealthy merchant’s
drawing-room; and while I was waiting
there—sitting on a fine crimson velvet seat, lolling
back with one arm grandly thrown over the
back of the chair, throwing back my shoulders,
expanding my chest; in fact, enlarging and dilating
generally and sublimely! telling myself
all the time that I was Aug. W. May, U. S. N.,—the
door swung noiselessly open, and a tall
lady, in stiff black satin and a turban, entered,
followed by a lovely girl, with golden ringlets
flashing down upon her light blue silk dress.
While I arose and was flourishing my grandest
bow, and the lady elaborating her profoundest
curtsey, Rosalia, the dear girl! floated towards
me, holding out her dear white arms, and warbling,
‘Gusty, Gusty!’ just as when she was a
baby, and I a lad. I forgot that I was Aug. W.
May, U. S. N. I forgot Madam Tresham—and
Gusty Wilde started—sprang—clasped Rosy in
his arms, to his bosom, and kissed her eyes, and
nose, and mouth, while the room spun round for
joy! and he was just about to whirl Rosy all
around the room in a reel, when he was arrested
by the sight of her Royal Highness, Madam
Tresham, sinking superbly into a chair, elevating
her double chin with slow haughtiness; then he
dropped Rose, and blushed, and bowed and sat
down.
“‘Your brother, of course, I presume, Miss
Aguilar?’ she said, elevating her chin sublimely.
“Now, she knew better, of course she did;
she said that out of an air.”
“In rebuke, Gusty, and she was right; you
behaved indecorously.”
“See here, mother, can I help it? When my
88blood gives one jump from my heart to the top
of my head and the tips of my fingers!”
“Well, what did Rosalia reply?”
“She said, ‘Oh, no, dear madam, he is not
my brother; but we were brought up together,’
and the old lady said ‘Ah!’ and then I handed
my credentials, Sophie’s letter requesting the
presence of Miss Aguilar. I swear madam did
not seem inclined to comply! however, next
day we set off by stage for New York, because
Rose was afraid of water, and we travelled by
coach as far as Baltimore, and then, as no stage
runs this route, we were obliged to take a chaise,
and oh! was not that a delightful journey,—a
glimpse of Heaven, mother! a specimen of life
in Paradise, those three days’ journey in the
chaise! I and Rose alone; the dear girl, how
many times she would get out to rest the horse
and walk by my side while I led him up the
hill! Now, mother, don’t forget; you’ll invite
Rose, won’t you?”
“Of course.”
“You love Rose, don’t you?”
“Yes, as a daughter.”
“And you would take her for a daughter,
wouldn’t you?”
“Most willingly.”
“That’s you, mother.”
Rosalia was in demand. That same morning
Raymond Withers stood by the mantel-piece,
his elbow resting upon the top, his head leaned
upon his hand, his eyes bent down upon the
slight figure of Hagar, whom he held in a half
embrace with the other arm.
“Hagar, love,” he said, in his flute-like tones.
“Well, Raymond!”
“What disposition is to be made of your
cousin?”
“Rosalia?”
“Of course, Rosalia.”
“She is to reside with Captain Wilde and
Sophie.”
“I want you to invite her to accompany us—to
live with us, in fact,—to make one of our
family.”
Hagar was silent.
“Well, Hagar?”
She did not reply.
“Will you invite her to-day, Hagar? we
have but a few days left, and the child should
know where she is going. Invite her to-day,
Hagar—now!”
Hagar’s eyes were rooted to the rug.
“You do not reply, Hagar: perhaps you
would rather I should speak to her myself, and
yet methinks it would beseem you more; shall
I invite Rosalia, or you?”
“Just as you please.”
“Then you speak to her, and let me know her
decision, will you?”
“Yes.”
“When?”
“At the first opportunity.”
“You speak coldly, I had almost said sullenly,
Hagar. Do you not like this plan?”
“No.”
“Why?”
“Do not press me for a reason, Raymond;
why should you be so anxious for Rosalia to become
an inmate of our family?”
“First, because it is only common kindness to
a young relative who is depending upon some of
us to offer her a home; and secondly, because I
am very much pleased with Rosalia, and think
that she will be quite an acquisition to our fireside.”
Her hand was in his as she stood by his side;
but her forehead was bent forward against the
lower part of the chimney-piece, so that her long,
extremely long blue-black ringlets hung down
below her stomacher, like a veil concealing her
face, hiding the corrugating brow, gleaming
eyes, flushed cheek, and quivering lips.
“Miss Aguilar is not dependent for a home—her
father left her a small property.”
“I do not say and did not mean that she was
dependent for a roof to shelter her fair head, or a
board to sit at, but if she has ever such a fortune
she is a young, delicate, sensitive girl, and she is
dependent on some of us for a home, for kindness,
tenderness, affection.”
“She has all that, or will have all that with
Sophie and Captain Wilde.”
“Nevertheless let her feel that she is encompassed
with affection—poor girl, she has no parents,
let her feel that she has friends.”
Hagar was again silent. Then he spoke.
“What is your objection to our plan?”
“We are going to board, as I understand, and
so we have after all no home of our own to offer
her.”
“But we are not going to board—I have
changed my plan.”
“Since when?” inquired Hagar, with a slightly
sarcastic tone.
“Since my tenant moved out of my house on
the Hudson!” replied Raymond, coldly.
“Oh! I did not know you owned a house
anywhere.”
“Probably not! you have no means of knowing—you
have just learned that fact for the first
time, as you will soon learn others, my love!”
“What others?” sneered Hagar.
“No matter now—invite Rosalia to come
with us as I requested you, my dear, will you?”
“Yes, I will—Raymond.”
“Well, love?”
“You seem very much charmed with
Rosalia!”
“I am—I could not tell you how much
charmed with her—she is a seraph!”
“Raymond!” she spoke huskily now, “suppose
you had met Rosalia before our marriage,
even before our engagement?”
“Well!”
“Do you not think that you would have
rather loved and wooed her than me—that you,
even now, were we free, would prefer her?”
“Prefer her!”
“Prefer her to me—could you not love
Rosalia better than Hagar?” said she, speaking
with great rapidity. “She is fair, full formed.
I am small, thin, and dark. She is soft, gentle,
sensitive. I am wild, fierce, and proud, proud to
every one but you, Raymond. She is tender. I
am hard. She is graceful. I am rude. She is
all that is lovely, fascinating in form, features,
temper, and manners. I am all that is repellent
in person, character, and deportment—every
one loves her—all dislike me.”
“Hagar.”
“Tell me, Raymond, have you not followed
89the stream in this general, this inevitable admiration
and love?”
“Hagar!”
“Have you not claimed my hand too hastily?
Do you not now regret it, wishing that you had
waited longer and looked further—lamenting
that you had not seen Rosalia while you were
yet disengaged?”
“Hagar!”
“You do not deny it! You only echo and
re-echo, ‘Hagar!’ ‘Hagar.’ Yes, Hagar! that
is my name, my fit name—what strange prophetic
inspiration was it that made them drop
my proper name of Agatha and call me
‘Hagar?’ Alas! I might have known it, Raymond!
Oh! did I not beg you to defer our
marriage? Alas! what forebodings were mine!
Truly coming events cast their shadows before!
Oh! Raymond, I might have known—Rosalia
has won in succession every heart from me—first
Sophie’s, then Mr. Withers’s, the servants’,
the neighbors’, Mrs. May’s, and lately, think of
it! I was really glad of that, not knowing
what an omen it was! lately, Gusty’s. A
month ago Gusty was perfectly infatuated with
my poor face, raved, talked of blowing his
brains out. Well! two weeks ago he set out
for Rosalia, met her again, brought her home,
and now he raves more about Rosalia’s shoe or
glove than he ever did about my whole being!
And then! and then! oh! God, you, Raymond,
you! If you could have seen yourself when I
first pointed her out to you, as I saw you, drunk
with her beauty!”
Her blood was kindling in her veins, while
her bosom heaved and set with the motion of
the hidden fire that blazed and died and blazed
upon her cheeks, as you have seen a red flame
in the night rise and fall waved by the wind—while
her eyes scintillated sparks.
“I wish,” she said, “that as I am so much
smaller, I were soft and weak like other women!
that I had more lymph, and so could easily
melt! could weep! I can not—I am hard—my
muscles are like tempered steel—they imprison
a strong grief that rages, burns, and rends, finding
no escape, no vent, no expression! I wish
that I could weep! could die! like other women.”
During all this rhapsody, Raymond had been
looking down on her with the greatest calmness
of attitude and expression—his head still supported
by the arm that rested on the mantel-piece—his
eyes quietly observing her. Now he
took her hot and quivering hand and led her to
the window—there were two chairs facing each
other at this open window. He motioned her
into one, dropping into the other himself—he
took both of her hands into his own and gazed
into her agonized countenance a minute, and
then said:
“Hagar! look me in the face, look me
straight in the eyes, come!” and as she raised
her eyes piercing with anguish to his eyes, there
was a sedative influence emanating from his
manner that acted upon her nerves, reducing her
to quiet, she knew not how or wherefore. He
held her hands thus, looking straight into her
fascinated eyes thus for a few moments, and
then his flute-like tones gently stole on the
silence as he said,
“Hagar! I love peace, quietude, repose,
benign repose. I love low tones, soft footsteps,
gentle manners, sweet smiles, and complying
tempers around me, and I must have them—look
straight in my eyes and see if you do not
feel that I will have them? So, Hagar, no
more of this tragic acting, if you please, my
love.”
Her eyes were fixed full on his, in a vague
but painful surprise; she did not attempt yet to
reply.
“It is this harmonious repose that charms me
so in Rosalia.”
“Then why,” she murmured at last, “why
were you ever attracted to one so every way
opposite as myself?”
“Because you can be made every way better;
one don’t want a character all cotton wool; a
good steel spring that rebounds from pressure is
not unpleasant in your organization. I like to
know that there is a strength, force, energy in
you when required, but I like it—latent—under
perfect command—do you mark! and you are
not, because you happen to have a whole magazine
of artillery and ammunition, to fire and flame
and blaze away at such a rate! or in the least
degree; you must grow tame, my wild love.”
“My peculiarities, then, are not altogether
repulsive to you; you love me, despite of them
all!”
“I love you because of them all, my Hagar;
and—but mind!” and here his voice sank to a
lower key and deeper tone than she had ever
heard, and his gaze was steadily fixed on hers,
“You must place confidence in me; that I demand!
without that your love is worthless to
me; mine to you. I love Rosalia, but not in
the way you imagine, foolish girl. I would not
marry her if I could. You spoke of my admiration
of her last evening. I was ‘drunk’ with
gazing on her beauty—a delicate word for a lady,
by the way—never let me hear it from your lips
again, Hagar! I was ‘entranced,’ &c.—now
observe, I will illustrate—last week you and I
rode out together; it was a beautiful evening,
and the sun was sinking like a world in flames,
lighting up into flashing splendor half a hemisphere
of crimson purple and gold sky, of blue
water, and green hills and vales; and you,
drawing rein upon the brink of a lofty cliff, gazed
rapt upon the scene until your face was as a
small mirror reflecting all the glow of the sunset—your
soul seemed pouring from your eyes,
until the sun sank behind a bank of clouds that
lay like a low range of blue mountains immediately
on the horizon, and then the spell that
bound your revery was dissolved.” Oh! how
intensely her eyes burned into his eyes while he
spoke; he continued speaking slowly. “As
you, upon the brow of the cliff gazed, gazed on
the sun-set’s glory; so I gazed upon the young
girl’s beauty!”
“Ah! ah!” said she, with wild energy, “but
I was upon the brow of the cliff! the brink of
destruction, where a single mis-step would have
precipitated me into ruin; and I was pouring my
soul out through my eyes, I was entranced
until the glory was lost in clouds, the light
in darkness. Alas! wail for your illustration,
Raymond!” and suddenly springing from him
she fled up the stairs to her eyrie. He stood
looking after her a moment, and then followed
her leisurely. He found her in an excited stillness,
90gazing “too earnestly for seeing” out upon
the bay. He went up to the window, and leaning
his arm upon the flap of the escritoire, looked
down at her, looked steadily at her—and spoke:
“Hagar.”
She started, turned, impatiently exclaiming,
“Can I not escape your eye and voice anywhere,
anywhere?”
“Why no, love, of course not!”
She was turning away—“Nay, pause. Hagar,
how long have we been married?”
“I do not exactly know, and I do not want
to calculate now; it seems to me much longer
than it really is—a long, long time!”
“Something less than six weeks? Is not this
a promising beginning?” Hagar suppressed a
groan. He drew her away to a lounge, and they
sat down. “Hagar, do you remember the night
of our first meeting? when I was a youth and
you an infant?”
“Do I not?”
“Your first words to me—it was at Sophie’s
wedding party, you recollect—your first words
to me formed a jealous question, and I knew
that you were strong and fierce and jealous,
though so little even for your years; and your
first question was a jealous question.”
“You have a good memory.”
“I have! therefore do not store it with facts
that will be likely to injure you in my estimation.
Well, to go back to that evening—I loved
the little, fierce child—it was piquant to see so
much intense fire concentrated in so small a
space. I felt that it would be interesting to subdue
this fierceness into gentleness. I was called
away from home; but I never forgot the
interest she gave me. I returned, and the
little girl had become a little woman—and
was wilder, fiercer, more piquant than ever;
she interested me, attracted me more than
ever—and I wished to possess her—I do possess
her. I wanted her for interest, amusement,
occupation, use—not for torture! I wish her
esprit malin to stop just when and where it
ceases to be agreeable—do you hear, love? For,
Hagar, I have extremely keen nerves and senses;
as most people of my complexion enjoy a moderate
degree of any sort of pleasure thrillingly,
but do not like to be shocked and stunned;
things that would scarcely act upon a lower
organization put me in pain. And now another
picture, Hagar. Do you remember the monkey
Augustus May brought you from sea, when you
were a little girl? You kept it years until my
return; you had educated it almost up to human
intelligence; and showed it to me with so
much pride and pleasure. I was so amused with
its antics—not so much with what you had taught
it as with its own primal nature, breaking
through all. Yes, look at me, Hagar! keep
your eye so—for I want you to read all in my
soul that you find upon my tongue. You
remember the day we stood upon the point of
rocks between the river and bay, on the other
side; you remember you had your monkey in
your arms; you set it down, and I made it bound
and bound for a chestnut, while we both laughed
at its antics, until the thing, exasperated to anger,
sprang upon my chest and set its teeth and claws
into my flesh, and then! Ah! you grow pale,
proud one! what then, Hagar?”
She answered, and spoke low and slowly, as
though the words were drawn from her involuntarily.
“You tore it from my bosom by the
heels, and dashed its brains out on the rocks.”
“It was an involuntary impulse, Hagar, deplored,
perhaps, the moment after; nevertheless,
Hagar, you monkey!” and here he smiled a
strange smile,—“be as spirited, fiery, and piquant
as you please, but never set your teeth and nails
into my flesh again—and Hagar!”
“Well?”
“I want a mark of confidence from you. Invite
Miss Aguilar to stay with us—do you hear?”
“Yes.”
“‘Yes,’ what is that? Yes you hear, or yes
you will do it?”
“Yes, I hear, and I will do it.”
“This day?”
“Yes.”
He kissed her forehead, arose, and sauntered
out of the room. And Hagar sprang upon her
feet with a snap of her teeth, exclaiming,
“Powers and principalities of darkness! is this
I? is this I? What is this? am I bewitched,
enslaved? I—I—I! pale, and tremble, and
obey—I! Come, Hagar!” said she, to herself,
“let us go to the glass and see if we have
changed as much in person as we have in manner
during the last ten minutes!” and she went
to the glass and glared at herself. “Would I
submit to this, if I did not love him, if I did not
want him to love me? Raymond! oh! you
who looked so gentle, so fair—who could think
that under those golden lashes, in those soft eyes,
lurked such spring lancets! And Rosalia!
Was he sincere? or was he self-deceived? or
perchance am I mistaken?”
The dinner bell rang, and hastily arranging
her dress, she descended the stairs and entered
the dining-room. Raymond came forward to
meet her, and led her to her seat at the table,
whispering as he went,
“Your cheek is flushed, love, and your ringlets
a little dishevelled. I am sorry to see that;
take time in future, love, even though you should
keep people waiting a few minutes; take time to
compose yourself and arrange your toilet.”
That afternoon Rosalia Aguilar had three distinct
invitations to make her home under the
room of three distinct friends. She gratefully
declined two—that is Emily’s and Hagar’s, in
favor of Captain Wilde and Sophie.
The next Sabbath, the whole family from
Heath Hall attended divine service at the parish
Church of the Ascension—Rev. Mr. Buncombe
in the pulpit. It was to be the last Sunday of
their stay. Mrs. Withers’s pew, in which sat
Hagar, Raymond, Rosalia, Sophie, and Captain
Wilde; and Mrs. Buncombe’s pew, occupied by
herself and Gusty, were the two front pews of
the middle aisle, immediately under the pulpit.
After the morning service was over, the benediction
pronounced, and the congregation had
retired, the occupants of these front pews filed
out, and placed themselves before the altar in
the following order: Captain Wilde, with Sophie
on his left hand, and next to her Rosalia; on his
right hand, Gusty, while Emily, Hagar, and Raymond
were grouped near. The preacher opened
his book, and in the holy stillness of the empty
church, commenced the marriage rites that were
to unite for life Sophie and Augustus; he went
on, finished them, the names of bride, bridegroom,
91and attendants and witnesses were affixed
to the register; kisses were given and received;
heartfelt, low-toned congratulations breathed,
and the little party slowly left the church, got
into their saddles, and rode over to Heath Hall,
where a small party were assembled to dinner.
Dear girls, have I given you love, courtship,
and marriage enough in this and the last? Whatever
you may think, there is “more truth than
poetry” in the story I am telling you, and more
sadness than either.
Gusty rode by the side of Rosalia Aguilar—Rosalia
was in one of her softest moods, and
tears and smiles and blushes chased each other
over her cheeks. She was thinking of “dearest
Sophie,” and sympathizing with her happiness.
Gusty was sighing like the wind in the main-sail.
His mother’s invitation, backed by his own eloquence,
had been inefficient in persuading Rosalia
to remain in the neighborhood.
“No, dearest Gusty,” she had said, “I should
love so much to have you all with me; it grieves
me to part with any of you, but you know,
Gusty, that I must mind what Sophie says, and
Sophie says that I must go with her; besides,
as I cannot stay with all, I prefer to stay with
Sophie and with Captain Wilde, who loves me
also.”
“See here, Rosalia, I—I—I—”
“Don’t cry, Gusty, don’t cry—I will write to
you every week, and can’t you come and see
me?”
“Cry! am I crying?—it’s—it’s the wind
blowing in my eyes that makes them water—pshaw!
fiddle-de-dee! me cry, indeed!—but,
Rosalia—stop—don’t ride so fast; let the folks
get along before.”
“Why?”
“Oh! because—because—because it will tire
the horse, you know, poor fellow.”
“Oh, will it?” said Rosalia, reining up, and
falling into a walk.
“Yes, to be sure it will, walk him slow,—there!”
and then he rode up close to the side
of Rosalia, and said, “Rose, stop, little darling,”
and she stopped, and turned her gentle face towards
him. “Rose, look at me, darling,” and
she looked straight in his face, with her large
innocent eyes. “How do you like me, altogether,
Rose?”
“Oh! so much, so dearly, you know I do,
Gusty!”
“Ah, my seraph!—but, Rose, could you love
me?”
“Could I, Gusty? Why, I do love you
dearly.”
Then he sank his voice to a low whisper, and
said,
“But, loving darling! you love everybody!—Raymond
and Augustus included.”
“But I love you better than them, Gusty—oh,
ever so much better. You know I have known
you all my life, and never knew them until last
week; so good as they are, dear Gusty, and
much as I love them, I love you the most!”
“Love! love! love! Ah, my little angel, I
am afraid you do not love me as I would have
you. Do you love me well enough to marry me—now—soon?
My pay is enough to support
us, and mother has consented. Sophie has a
good opinion of me, and—and—well! what do
you say, my Rosalia?”
She was smiling and blushing.
“Well, Rosalia?”
“Why, it would be too curious! too queer!
so funny. Sophie would laugh at us, and all the
girls would make fun of us. You know I am
nothing but a child yet—but oh! I know you
are only joking.”
“As the Lord in heaven hears me speak, I
never was more in earnest in my life.”
“Oh! no, Gusty! not in earnest! I do hope
not in earnest.”
“As the Lord lives I am, Rosalia—come, Rosalia!
I see you will not drive me to despair—you
will give me your hand, and instead of
going North, you will just cosily settle down
here, with mother. Come, put your hand in
mine, and I will take that for yes!”
“Oh, I am sorry to vex you, Gusty; indeed
I am, dear Gusty, but I can’t get married, it is
too funny!”
“Do you not love me, then?”
“Yes, indeed I do, Gusty.”
“You love me, dearest Rose?”
“Yes, indeed I do, Gusty, the angels know I
do!”
“Then why not marry me, my sweet love?”
“So! Gusty, I had just as soon marry you as
any one else, only I do not like to marry one—”
“Good heavens!—oh, gracious Providence,
hear her!—she had as lief have me as anybody
else!” roared Gusty, striking spurs to his horse
and making him bound in the air.
The girl grew pale, and hastily exclaimed,
“Well, well! maybe if I was obliged to
marry, I would rather have you than anybody.
Oh! don’t scare me so, Gusty! you make me
weak all over, and—and—I feel like falling
from my saddle!”
And he saw, indeed, that his violence had
nearly overwhelmed the delicate girl, who was
trembling very much. He rode to her saddlebow,
and said gently,
“Rosalia, I beg your forgiveness; I have
startled you by my rudeness; the fact is, Rosalia,
I have been accustomed to Hagar, who, with
reverence be it said, is as rough as an unripe
persimmon, as sour as a lime, and as bitter as an
aloe, and she has spoiled me for such gentle society
as yours; now compose yourself, Rosalia,
and hear me, and believe me when I say that if
you refuse my hand—if you leave me here and
go to the North—I—well! perhaps I shall not
go mad, or blow my brains out, or break my
heart, and die, but I shall be utterly wretched,
and make every one miserable around me, I
know I shall! I begin to feel it now. So, Rosalia,
I have to propose to you to break this
matter to Sophie, or let me do it, and to beg
you, if she shall see no improper haste in the
project of our marriage, that you will accept
me; Rosalia, you make me talk so much, darling!—now,
Rosalia, what do you say?”
The girl paused, not in reflection, but in hesitation.
“Dearest Rose, you give me so much pain.
Rose! Rose!”
“Do I? I did not mean to.”
“Will you give a reply, Rose?”
“Wait, Gusty, till I talk to Sophie; but, oh!
no, I do not like to, either—it is too queer. You,
Gusty, you may talk to her.”
“Do you, do you say that, Rose! Tell me!
92tell me over again, Rose! I may ask your hand
of Sophie and Wilde?”
“Yes,” whispered Rose, the blood rising to
the edges of her hair.
“Oh, glory, hallelujah! God bless you, Rose!
God Almighty bless you, Rose. Hey! stop,
Lightning!” said he, suddenly jerking the bit,
though in fact it was not the horse but Master
Gusty that was bounding. “There, I am
frightening you again, Rose! Be easy, Lightning!”
“Won’t you ride on? Sophie will be waiting
for us.”
“Yes! yes! my angel Rose,” and they cantered
on through the forest-path. It was the
same forest-path leading from the village to the
church so often mentioned in this story. They
overtook Sophie Wilde and their party. Sophie
was buried in thought; she was in fact just passing
the spot where she had, eight years before,
seen the apparition of the wanderer, and now
passing the road for the last time, and under her
peculiar circumstances, the fact was forcibly recalled
to her mind. Rosalia paced up lovingly
to her side, and kept there during her ride home.
Soon after dinner Gusty May found an opportunity
of taking Sophie aside and making known
his wishes. His embarrassment under all the
circumstances of which we are cognisant, you
know, was very natural and amusing. Sophie
Wilde (I love to call her Sophie Wilde) was not
perhaps the person of all others to consult in
such a case; it did, however, vaguely dawn
upon her mind that a little delay might not be
unadvisable in the proposed marriage of a youth
of nineteen with a girl of fifteen and a half; so
she said dreamily that she would “Talk with
Captain Wilde.”
Up shot Gusty, exclaiming,
“‘Talk with Captain Wilde!’ ‘talk with
Captain Wilde;’ yes! that’s it! that’s the tune!
‘talk with Captain Wilde.’ What’s Captain
Wilde to do with it? I asked you, because she
insisted you should be consulted, and you are
her little mamma. Seems to me that you have
quite unnecessarily elevated him to the throne.
‘Captain Wilde!’ he’s a great fellow, isn’t he?
Captain Fiddlestick’s end! I should just like to
hear him object—I just should. Shouldn’t be
surprised though if he didn’t. ‘Talk to Captain
Wilde!’ oh! de-cidedly. She said ‘Talk to
Sophie,’ you say, ‘Talk to Captain Wilde,’ he’ll
‘talk’ to Parson Buncombe; and while you are
all ‘talk’-ing, my prospect of getting a pair of
white kid gloves grows
“‘Small by degrees and beautifully less!’”
exclaimed Gusty, ranting up and down the piazza,
and flinging his coat-tails about. “I was
born under the lost pleiad! I know I was! to
be always crossed in love! to be hammered into
a poet or something by hard blows! I be hanged
if I will. I’m to be put in the still as roses
are, and the essence of soul, the double extract
of soul distilled from me by fire, while flesh and
muscle, life and health shrivel up like rose leaves
in the heat! No, I be hanged if I will. Cast
me into the furnace and see if I don’t turn out
to be gunpowder, and blow somebody up! or
spirit-gas, and set some one on fire! that’s all!”
and blowing, he sat down.
“Look here, my dear Gusty,” said our bride,
“don’t talk nonsense. You have a long leave
of absence; come! go with us North. You indeed
have the best excuse; you may be said to
be in duty bound to go, as our groomsman, and
in that capacity you must constantly attend
Rosalia, and who knows, you may be appointed
to our ship; the set of officers is not yet complete.”
“So I may! oh, God bless you, Sophie, it
took just you to think of that! though you may
not be as sensible as mother, or as brilliant as
Hagar—yet you are better. I wish the comparative
had been gooder than either of them! anything
that is to make anybody happy, dear
Sophie! I shall not leave it to ‘who knows’
and ‘perhaps,’ I shall beg uncle to get me
appointed to his ship, if he can—where is he?
I am going to him! in the meantime consider
me enlisted for this Northern bridal cruise,” and
off he went to seek Captain Wilde.
I leave it to any gentleman or lady present
whether it was in Captain Wilde’s power just
that day to look rationally, sensibly, coldly,
upon a young lover’s passion.
“Why, Gusty, my boy,” he said, “you know
very well that I have very little influence; however,
I will exert that in procuring your appointment
to my ship, and Gusty, in the meantime
come on with us and remain until you receive
orders somewhere. Rosalia is a treasure, and if
I had the power of bestowing her, I do not
know to whom I could give her with so much
pleasure as yourself. But you must wait,
Gusty, for a year or two—you are both somewhat
too young to think of this marriage yet a
while.”
“Why, uncle, this ‘wait’-ing might be endurable
if the time were passed with you all, and in
daily company of Rosalia, to be sure.”
This arrangement was finally concluded.
And Emily, who loved Rosalia, and preferred
her above all others as a future daughter-in-law,
readily consented to forego the society of her
son for the present, merely saying—
“When you marry, if you ever marry Rosalia,
you must bring her home here and leave her
with me while you are at sea, Gusty, and that is
the only condition upon which I can consent to
part with you, Gusty, for this term.”
Of course Gusty consented and promised.
“And so, my little dove-eyed darling is
scarcely out of school, before she is betrothed—do
you know the meaning of your vows, my
little love?” asked Sophie, very seriously, the
same afternoon as Rosalia nestled on a stool at
her feet. And Rose dropped her blushing face
in the lap of Sophie, and was silent. “Do you?—tell
me, Rose?”
“Dear Sophie, I had rather not get married—only,
you know, poor Gusty, it would be a pity
to hurt his feelings!”
“You child!”
“But, Sophie, I am not—not betrothed, as
you suppose—no indeed, I gave no positive
answer until I could hear what you would have
to say.”
“You did not!” said Sophie, suddenly. “Oh,
then, my dear Rose, I beg—I entreat that you
93will bind yourself by no rash vows now—wait—you
are heart-whole yet—wait—Gusty is going
on with us—you will see more of him—he of
you—and you will both find out whether you
are fitted for each other. Will you promise me
not to engage your hand ever without my consent,
Rose?”
“Dear Sophie, to be sure I will—I never
once thought of doing otherwise.”
This was perfectly easy for Rose, for her
own inclinations were uninterested in the matter.
Breaking up an old home, the home of many
years—I had nearly said centuries, is not like a
modern city May day flitting. A home like old
Heath Hall, with its accumulations, its secretions
of many years and many hearts, with its innumerable
old closets, cupboards, wardrobes, escritoires,
and “old oak chests,” with their inexhaustible
treasures, relics, and curiosities—from
the doublet and hose that the founder of the
American branch of the family wore—with his
point and ruffles and bonnet and plume—to the
cocked hat and rusty sword of great-great-grandfather,
and the hooped petticoat and high
heeled shoes of his wife—from the first baby cap
that the first American Churchill baby wore, to
the lock of grey hair that was cut from his
coffined head just before the lid was screwed
down—from the veil that fell around the maiden
at her bridal to the cap the grandmother died in—from
the bullet extracted from the fiery-hearted
son who had perished in battle, to the clerical
black silk gown his gentle bosomed brother had
worn in his ministry when he married, christened
or blessed. Truly the organ of veneration must
be largely developed in these old Maryland and
Virginian families—all things linked with family
associations are relics it would be little short of
sacrilege to destroy. The cast off bridal wreath
and veil that a northern or a city belle would
generously and properly bestow upon some
young sister or cousin, is gently lifted from her
daughter’s brow by a Maryland mother—reverentially
lifted as you have seen a minister raise
the cloth from a communion table, and laid
away a sacred treasure, a relic to be handled
with awe and love by the children in future ages.
The wardrobe of the dead that many northern
and city families send to the proper destination,
the backs of the ragged living, in Maryland and
Virginia is carefully collected and packed away
in chests and locked, and hermetically sealed as
it were to moulder away to dust in long years.
These old houses—how the very smell of their
musty mysterious old closets and closely shaded
rooms, for dreaming carries us back to the days
when people did not understand that ventilation
was necessary to health, to the days when we
lay across grandmother’s soft lap, watching
through our winking eyes grandmother’s dear
good face, and, vibrating between angel dream
land and her capped and spectacled face, dimly
wondered what we were, and slipped from this
vague feeling into sleep. These old houses
have no antiquities carrying us back to the very
ancient feudal times, it is true; but they have that
which comes more warmly, so warmly! home
to the heart, all the signs of long inhabitedness.
The old windows may creak in the wintry blast,
and the wind whistle up from crevices at the very
foot of the old mantel-pieces beside the blazing
hickory fire, yet the heart is all the warmer for
its old age, because grandfather and grandmother
lived there and their grandparents before them.
These old houses scattered at wide intervals up
and down the shores of the Chesapeake Bay and
its tributaries, and under the Easterly shadow of
the Blue Ridge Mountains, and in and out among
the hills and through the forests between them—these
old houses, spotting the verdure of new
settlements like iron-mould—these old houses,
many of them still inhabited by the old families,
while both decay together, still blossoming out
occasionally with young life, young children, remind
me strongly of old mouldering tombs from
which fresh blooming flowers are springing.
“Let’s leave all things just so, Hagar, love,”
said Sophie, as the two were making a tour of
the old Hall, opening and examining old closets
and chests with a view of determining what
should be taken, what left, what burnt and what
given away. “We will lock up all the rest
without examination. I have not nerves for it,
Hagar. It is like dissecting a heart, to explore
the treasures and memorials and relics of the
long ago dead. Let us leave them so.”
“Let’s make a general bonfire of them,” said
Hagar, “I never like these relics, they come
across me unpleasantly, very—why should
people accumulate them—storing up pangs
against some day of pangs. ‘Let the dead past
bury its dead;’ en avant is my motto.
Sophie looked at her with her brown eyes
dilating in reverie.
“Perhaps you are right after all—these relics
awaken mournful, not to say maudlin feelings
that might sleep but for their sight; nevertheless,
I could not destroy these things, neither can I
consent to their destruction.”
It was finally agreed in consultation that all
things should remain just as they were, that the
Hall should be closed, and left in charge of old
Cumbo and Tarquinius.
“Where are you going, Hagar?” said Raymond,
as she sauntered from the breakfast-room
off into the yard.
“To see Starlight. I have not seen him
since our marriage, and I was accustomed to go
to his stall every morning when Tarquinius carried
his oats.”
“Why did you not ask me to attend you?”
inquired Raymond, as he drew her hand under
his arm.
“Because, Mr. Raymond,” flashed Hagar’s
eyes and teeth, “I love to shake you off some
time! when you set like a trammel—besides you
do not like Starlight.”
Raymond replied by drawing her arm closer
and holding her hand tighter, while her pointers,
Remus and Romulus, seeing her, sprang to her,
bounded around her, and she stopped to caress
them with her free hand. Raymond an instant
looked annoyed, then raising the loaded end of
his riding-whip, struck them away. Hagar
snatched her hand from his arm, and all the fire
of her race and nation was burning in the indignant
gaze she flashed upon his brow that still
remained unfurrowed by a frown in its superb
calmness.
“Well, Hagar, I am not scathed, blasted
by that lightning stroke, am I? Nonsense, Hagar,
94do you suppose I am going to permit a hand
I love to kiss to be licked over by those two
curs?—pooh! go wash it.”
“They are not curs, they are fine splendid
pointers! Look at their shining black coats and
eyes like coals! and their love has more generous
disinterestedness than—” And here she paused,
her expiring flash of spirit died out beneath the
steady inquiring gaze of the soft, deep blue eyes,
striking up through which came a will, a purpose,
the strength of which was dimly guessed
from the depths from which it seemed to come.
“Than what, Hagar?”
“Nothing!” said Hagar, as her high heart-throbbing
subsided. He drew her arm again
within his own, and they proceeded to the
stables. At the sight of his mistress, Starlight
neighed loud for joy, and breaking away, cantered
up to meet her, pawed the ground, stretched
out his head, and couched it in the open palms
she held to receive it. Hagar smiled in his eyes,
full of the earnestness she could not speak, and
stroking his jet black neck, let him lay his chin
upon her shoulders alternately, and rub his
mouth upon her neck and cheek, snorting with
joy between times.
“See, Raymond! see,” she said, with her
momentary anger all conjured away. “See
how the very want of the gift of speech makes
his eyes and motions so eloquent! See how
glad he is to see me! don’t I understand you,
Starlight? and don’t you know every word I am
saying?” said she, caressing him.
But now her eyes fell upon Raymond, who
was standing with folded arms, curling lip, and
scornful eyes, regarding her.
“Why do you look at me in that way, Raymond?”
“You have no refinement, no delicacy. Your
dress pawed over and soiled by your canine pets—your
ringlets snuffed at, and your neck rubbed
by the nose of your pony. I am glad that in a
few days I shall be able to remove you from all
these things.”
“But I wish to take Starlight and Remus and
Romulus with me,” said Hagar, as she turned
away from the stable, and they sauntered on.
“You cannot do so.”
“Why?” she asked, anxiously.
“I do not like dogs and horses myself, and I
very much dislike your attachment to them, and
I utterly disapprove of your use of them; when
you cannot walk there are carriages to be had!”
“You never told me that you disapproved of
my habits before!”
“I had no right to express it before, and yet
you learned it from my silence, and now I say it
explicitly, and expect that my tastes be consulted
in the matter.”
“And you have no right to express it now!
sir,” exclaimed the mad girl, with the fire flaming
in her eyes. “No right to express it now!
what right have you now, more than you ever
had over me? None that I acknowledge!
None that I will bear to have you assume!
None, Raymond! none! All love! all compliance
that I yield you now I would have
yielded you before! and you know it! you
know it! of my own free will! of my own
glorious free will!—not from constraint! God
in Heaven! you exasperate—you madden me—by
attempts at constraint! Raymond! what do
you mean by this? I do not like it. No! I
will turn away, I will not look at your cold,
spirit-killing eyes. I will not let your cold,
damping, implacable will extinguish my life and
soul as the rain puts out the fire. I have a will!
and tastes, and habits, and propensities! and
loves and hates! yes, and conscience! that all
go to make up the sum total of a separate individuality!
a distinct life! for which I alone am
accountable, and only to God! How weak and
worthless would my obedience to God be if it
were fettered through a submission to any lower
will. No, I will not bear to have you assume
any right over my freedom of action, and I shall
take my favorites with me to the North.”
A sarcastic smile fluttered around the beautiful
lips and gleamed under the golden eye-lashes
of Raymond Withers as he slightly raised
his hat from his head with a mock bow, and
sauntered away from her side, quoting for her
benefit the very last clause of Genesis iii. and 16.
It only needed his sarcasm to exasperate the
girl to phrensy. She snapped and ground her
teeth together, and stamped with both little feet,
springing to the ground as though they would
take root there—while anger rocked and flamed
to and fro in her bosom like a sea of fire lashing
its shores. Suddenly—veiling her flashing eyes
and setting her gleaming teeth with a look of
resolution, she went to the stables and calling
Tarquinius, bade him saddle Starlight.
“We will have another day together, my old
friends,” said she, as the horse neighed joyously,
and the dogs bounded around her each in intelligent
anticipation; and in ten minutes from this
Hagar was flying over the heath towards the
forest attended by her favorites.
The sun was setting in golden glory as Hagar
rode into the yard at Heath Hall, sprang from
her horse, and throwing the reins to Tarquinius
walked leisurely towards the house, smiled and
bowed salutation to the company assembled to
enjoy the evening air in the piazza, and passed on
into the Hall—Sophie followed her, and with
the tears welling up to her eyes exclaimed,
“Oh! Hagar, what have you done?”
Hagar threw up her little glittering head of
ringlets and replied with laughing defiance,
“I have been taking one of my old days
among the hills! I wished to feel my freedom
a little, that is all! I have been galled by the
too close pressure of my chains lately, and have
broken them through for once, that’s all.”
“How will you meet Raymond after this
escapade?” said she, sadly.
“Nonsense, Sophie, how will he meet me?”
and she ran up stairs.
“Be quick, dear, trying Hagar, tea is nearly
ready,” said Sophie, gazing earnestly after her—then
with a second thought, inspired by this second
and closer glance, Sophie went up stairs to
her room, found her standing leaning her elbow
on her dressing-table, while her forehead rested
upon the palm of her hand, and her long glittering
ringlets fell half way to her girdle—her little
figure was visibly throbbing with emotion.
Sophie went and took the hand that was hanging
down; it was burning, hot, and dry.
“Hagar!”
“Well?”
“You are wretched, poor child, and indeed I do
not wonder. Hagar, will you take my advice?”
95“What is it?”
“Tell your husband when you meet him that
you are so—you have sinned, Hagar, and you
must atone for your sin; lay your small hand
gently on his arm, and look into his face, catch
his eyes, and ask him to forgive you.”
“What!” snapped the proud girl, bounding
like a little bombshell; “hold out my wrists
humbly for the gyves, and ask my master please
to fasten them on again! No! may I die if I
do!”
“Oh! don’t look at it in that light, Hagar;
you have wronged, outraged, insulted Raymond.”
“Did he tell you so?” sneered Hagar.
“Can I not see it, Hagar? No, he did not tell
me so—do you not know enough of Raymond’s
proud and fastidious nature to see that he could
not tell me so, Hagar? No, poor misguided
child, your day’s absence was enough. Come,
Hagar, seek a reconciliation with him—you
have been wrong—say so to him at once. You
will have not a moment’s peace until you are
reconciled to your husband—seek that reconciliation
at any price of your own sinful pride.”
“I will not! cannot!”
“But, Hagar, you do regret this, you suffer
torture.”
“I can bear torture! but not humiliation!
degradation!”
“Alas! look at you, the very flame of mental
fever flickering through your cheeks and eyes—the
freshness of your lips scorched by the dry
heat of your breath. What a day you have had
to-day, Hagar! how much your defiance has
cost you! Come, come, bathe your eyes; after
tea I will, if I can, talk with you again. You
will be wise.”
The supper bell rang, and Sophie, with a
hasty charge to Hagar to make her toilet
quickly, arose and left the room. And Hagar
sprang to her feet with a determination to look
very regal, happy, and defiant. She bathed her
burning eyes and brow, but without cooling their
fever. She smoothed her long glittering ringlets,
and collected them under a jewelled comb.
She changed her black riding-dress for a crimson
satin, with full and falling sleeves, fastened
a ruby bracelet on her slender but rounded arm,
and descended the stairs, trying to draw her
heart up blithe and high; she entered the drawing-room
with head erect, expanded brow, and
elastic step, and was passing on proudly alone,
behind the company, who were going to the
supper room, when quickly and softly at her side
was Raymond, his graceful head, with its wavy
golden hair, bending forward, smiling up into
her face; his soft eyes radiant under their
golden lashes, and his delicate hand seeking
hers, to draw it through his arm, just as if nothing
had happened. Her own Raymond!—her
pride was disarmed in a moment. Sunbright
was the smile of surprise, joy, love, and
gratitude she flashed up in his gentle face, and
suddenly it softened into tenderness; how could
she have defied a gentle soul like his?—in truth,
she would have given everything she possessed
on earth, except Remus, Romulus, and Starlight,
to have blotted out for ever the offence of the
day. She had not expected this; she had prepared
herself to defy the storm, not the sunshine,
and her defences were all melted off. She was
subdued, and quietly and generously resolved in
her own mind not to shock and wound his fastidious
delicacy again, and so they sat down to
supper. The neighborhood gossip of a tea-table
occupied the company. But Hagar continued
to watch Raymond with a new feeling, new interest;
it seemed his character was now constantly
unfolding itself to her; new leaf after leaf was
turned; she watched him covertly but closely.
His manner was just precisely as usual; and,
though she often caught his full eyes, not the
slightest consciousness of remembering that anything
unpleasant had occurred was to be detected
in their glance. His countenance and manner
wore their usual air of graceful self-possession
and elegant repose, and she would have thought
that, indeed, the occurrence of the day had
dropped from his memory, but that once, quickly,
under his breath, he had said, “Your restlessness
of manner, your anxiety of expression, will
draw attention—be at ease.”
“Be at ease”—these words, though spoken in
the softest key, and with the sweetest smile,
somehow did not set her at ease; and “You
will draw attention,” raised an anxiety that she
had not felt before. Was it the dislike of drawing
attention?—but she would wait. Oh, how
she longed for the stupid evening to be over; it
is so hard to bear calmly, cheerfully, a toothache
or a heart-ache in company. It was long
before they left the tea-table, and then it was
long before they got ready to go home, and after
they were all in their saddles and in their carriages
on the road, it was long before Sophie’s
smiling good night broke up the family circle
for the evening. Sophie left the room with a
congratulatory smile to Hagar, happy in the
thought that their quarrel was made up. Raymond
followed her, smiling, to the door, opened
it, bowed her out, closed it, and returned; then
with a sudden impulse went back, re-opened it,
and passed out.
Hagar awaited his return half an hour, and
then sought her chamber. She expected him
joyously, yet with a little undefinable anxiety.
At last she heard his steps ascending the stairs,
he opened the door, and came in; she turned
quickly, and going to meet him, holding out
both hands, exclaimed,
“Dearest Raymond, I am so glad that we are
alone, together at last, my heart has been ready
to burst all the—” She stopped short, and
gazed in surprise at him. How changed his
aspect! was it the same Raymond that an hour
ago was smiling, bowing, glancing, gliding
through the lighted drawing-rooms? He stood
with folded arms and curling lip; his cold eye
crawling over her from head to foot, yet so fascinating
in his beautiful scorn, that she could
have uttered a death-cry of anguish, as love and
pride tugged at her heart-strings. He passed
her and threw himself upon a lounge. She had
been prepared for this scorn and anger three
hours before, but she was not now—not after
having been subdued by soft smiles, sweet words,
and gentle tones, that she had received in all trust—no,
not now—the touch of the soft fingers
that had sought and pressed her hand in drawing
it through his arm; the touch of those soft fingers
was yet quivering on her fingers; the rays
of those gentle eyes were yet beaming in her
eyes; the tones of that low, love-pitched voice yet
96breathing in her ear—no, she could not believe
in this harshness, at least she could not bear it.
He was now sitting on the lounge, making entries
in a note-book, with his usual air of elegant
ease. She looked at him an instant, and then
going up to him she stood before him; he continued
his writing, without looking up; the flame
flickered in and out upon her dark cheek; soon
she dropped both hands upon his shoulders, and
dropped her proud head until the long glittering
ringlets fell each side of his cheeks, and sitting
down beside him and dropping her face upon his
bosom, she whispered softly,
“Raymond, make friends with me! I will do
anything in the world you wish me to do—come!
I will leave undone all you wish me so to
leave, if you will make friends with me again;”
and a tearless heart-sob breaking from her lips
showed how great had been the pang of her
vanquished pride.
He lifted her head from its resting-place,
smoothed back the ringlets of her hair, and holding
her face between the palms of his hands,
gazed smilingly into her eyes, with a look, half
of love, half triumph, and said,
“You will? but then your ‘separate soul—will—individuality’—what
are you to do with it
all? Answer me—I want a literal reply, in
words—”
“I don’t know!—how do I know?—don’t
seek to humble me, dear Raymond—I am tortured!—tortured!—tortured!”
“Tortured?”
“Yes!—yes!” exclaimed she, wildly,—“tortured!”
“Who tortures you, my piquant little love, my
little vial of sal-volatile?” said he, condescendingly,
caressing her.
“You do, Raymond!—and myself!—myself
tortures me!”
“Why, so it seems.”
“Yes, Raymond, understand me, and help
me to understand myself. I only lately began
to know myself. I am a strange blending of
pride and aspiration!—and of love, and through
love, fear!—the eagle and the dove!—alas,
bear with me!—hold my throbbing temples between
your cool hands, Raymond—your hands
are always cool—so!—now calmly, I do not
know that there is anything to make me wild,
or angry, just now—yet these clashing and conflicting
elements do so war in my nature—listen,
Raymond! when you angered me this
morning, and left me, the aroused passion of
my soul heaved and set like the sea in a storm,
leaping from its bed and lashing the shores! I
could not have believed it possible that you
could have angered me so—or being angered so,
that I could have got over it so; and now that
is gone, and—never wound my poor dove because
my eagle has stuck her beak and claws into
you—”
“No, love, the dove shall never be wounded,
but the claws and wings of the eagle shall be
clipped,” said he, looking steadily in her anguished
eyes. “Don’t reply to me yet, Hagar, you
are about to say something that will make more
trouble between us.”
Then with a dry sob and gasp, Hagar’s heart
shrank into silence, and he smiled to see it, and
all this while he was lightly caressing her—running
his fair fingers through her glossy hair, and
kissing her lips from time to time. At last she
said—
“I have been thinking what to do with my
favorites, Starlight and the pointers.”
“And has your unassisted wisdom arrived at
any conclusion, my love?”
“Yes, I will leave them here, in the care of
Tarquinius, for a while; then, perhaps, after a
while, when we get settled, you will not object
to have them.”
“I am sorry, love, that our thoughts did not
happen to run in the same channel, very sorry.
I made a sale of the horse and dogs to Gardiner
Green, this morning, while you were taking your
last ride with them, and to-night, after you came
home, I sent them over to his farm by Tarquinius.”
“NO!” exclaimed Hagar, starting violently.
He held her tightly, gently compressing his
arm about her waist, and replied, softly,
“Yes, love—nay, do not start and struggle,
I cannot spare you, yet—yes, love, they are
sold.”
“My horse!—mine?—my own!—my dear
Starlight!—and my dogs—and without my
leave!”
“Come, come!—come, come! be still, Hagar,
no phrensy,” said he, smilingly, tauntingly
caressing her, while a gentle, cruel strength
struck out from the pressure of the soft arms
that held her in a fast embrace; “if your
eagle flaps its wings and beats its cage so
violently, I am afraid clipping its pinions and
claws will not be enough—I am afraid I shall
have to crush it altogether,” said he, looking
down into her eyes.
She ceased to struggle, and dropped her hands
clasped upon her lap—dropped her head upon
her chest, while the color all faded from her
cheeks, and the light from her eyes.
“Hagar!”
“Well!”
“What is the matter, love?”
“What you please shall be the matter!” exclaimed
she, laughing bitterly, while light and
color suddenly flashed back into her sparkling
face.
“Come, love, you are a spirited little thing,
but you will be docile by and by, and then—”
“I wish you joy of your automaton!”