Hugh Desmond was more of a hunter
than a libertine. What he desired, he
pursued, but after the capture he was sated, and
would turn to a fresh venture. If he could stop
short before the “kill” he would have been
content. A devil drove him on to the very edge, and
then some instinct less ignoble urged him to
restraint.
For, though he went as Hugh Desmond, which
was his family name, he was in reality the seventh
Lord Reckavile, with a reputation so sinister
that every decent woman shrunk from him till
she knew him, and then fell in love with him.
A soldier of fortune, who had not the patience
to remain in the Army, he had sought death
deliberately instead of glory, in each of the
foreign campaigns in which he had fought, always
driven from country to country by the Curse,
and too poor to take a position in which he might
have earned distinction. He was hounded by a
desire which knew no satisfaction, and a pride
which claimed a high regard for honour.
Such had been the contradiction and the Curse
of his race. It was with a sigh of relief that he
stood on the platform and saw the train bearing
Winnie back to London, and to her husband,
slowly steam away. She had been lacrimose and
vowed that she would never have a day’s
happiness till he saw her again.
He had agreed to her acclamations, but wished
to be quit of her, feeling angry with himself for
a lack of ardour he could not induce.
On the way back to the hotel he made up his
mind for another of those wild expeditions
abroad which had filled most of his life.
Some evil fate led him to pass the Cathedral
Church, where the organ was playing. The artist
in him made him pause in rapture, and he
entered softly. The sensuous odour of incense and
the gorgeous music of the benediction service
greeted him, and the dim lights, the towering
pillars, and the blaze of the high altar, appealed
to his aesthetic fancy, after the gross life of the
last few days. How happily he could have
become a monk, mortifying the flesh and flogging
himself when unholy desires came to taunt him.
To devote his life to the Holy Virgin, and
crush down the base part would be a fight worthy
of his pride.
The organ ceased and the dreams with it. He
looked round, and in the seats opposite to him,
were the girls from the convent school, for this
was a saint’s day.
With a sudden quickening of the pulse he saw
his little wood nymph, her hands clasped and her
face alight with devotion, but now a saint,
transfigured, adorable.
He watched entranced; he could have bent
before her, offering fealty, pleading only for some
token so that he might remain her true knight,
serving only in her cause.
The baser part of him was gone at that
moment, and then she looked round for a brief
moment, and their eyes met.
She turned quickly away, but he could see a
dark flush spread over her lovely face; she had
seen him, and the sight had not affected her as
that of a mere stranger. The blood rushed to his
head. He hastily scribbled a note on a leaf from
his pocket book, and wrapped it in his hand.
The mood of piety had gone, and the hunting
instinct was dominant. As the worshippers left
the building he passed to her side, and as she
turned to bow to Christ on His altar, he slipped
the note into her hand.
The awful impiety of the act almost made her
drop it, but she clutched it to her with a look of
pain, and went out of the sacred building. In
the privacy of her room, she furtively opened the
crumpled piece of paper and read:
Dear little Angel. When I saw you tonight I
adored you. You are far removed from all other
beings. If you wish to save a suffering mortal,
meet me in the woods where we last saw each other.
Otherwise my death may be on your hands. Fear
nothing, I will guard you as my own sister. At
three tomorrow, but I will wait till you come.
Your devoted servant and knight,
Hugh Desmond.
In her maiden breast strange feelings were
stirring. She knew it was wrong, that she ought
to take the note to Sister Ursula at once and tell
her the story which she had even withheld from
the father at confession, but that was not
possible. He had been so kind, he had not tried to
stay her, or to say anything at which she could
take offence. And now he said his life was at
stake; perhaps he had some terrible trouble in
which she could help him. If so surely she was
doing right to give him aid.
So she hid the note under her pillow and
dreamt of the morrow.
Desmond waited in the woods, picturing her as
she had sat there in her girlish sweetness, when
he had seen her, till the dusk of evening was
coming on and the birds had ceased to sing. He rose
stiff and cramped. Well, the gods had decided
against him, so there was no use complaining.
She had probably torn up the note or perhaps
even handed it over to the Mother Superior.
Suddenly she stood before him, panting, and
like a fairy in the twilight. He had not heard
her approach, and stood enraptured with the
sight.
“Oh, I know I ought not to have come,” she
said “but we did not go out this afternoon, and
then I thought that you would be waiting, and
after what you said about being in trouble, I felt
I must come, but I cannot stop or they will miss
me.”
“Little Daphne, you have been very kind. I
have ached to see you. I have been here all the
afternoon, and would have stayed all night if
there had been a chance of meeting you.” He
approached her, and she did not shrink from him,
only crossed her hands over her breast, and stood
expectant.
“What did you want to tell me?” she asked.
“Only that you are the loveliest maid in the
world, and I have longed for you since we met.
You have been with me night and day. Oh
Daphne, I love you dearly, and without you I
shall certainly die.”
She drew back then with a quick movement.
“But you said your death would be on my
hands if I did not come?”
“If you will not love me I shall die,” he said,
but the phrase sounded hollow to him.
The setting sun was on her, and an expression
of bewilderment showed on her face. She could
not understand deliberate deceit, and thought she
must have misunderstood him. They remained
for a moment in silence, and in that pause a fight
was taking place in Desmond’s mind, but the
sight of her proved too much, and with one swift
tiger-like movement he took her in his arms.
Had she resisted, or struggled, his hunting
instinct would have overmastered him, but she
remained, neither consenting nor resisting, just as
a child might lie in the arms of its father.
His hot breath was on her cheek, and in a
whisper he said, “I love you, little Daphne, the night
is round us, come, we will love while we may.”
His lips were close to hers, but some invisible
force restrained him. What had he written; he
would treat her as a sister. The word of a
Reckavile was inviolate, whether for good or evil,
and slowly he released her from his close
embrace.
“I will take you back,” he whispered. “It is
too late for you to be out.”
“Thank you, I ought to go, but it is so lovely
here, and you are so good to me.”
“Come with me,” he said unable to trust
himself further.
He took her to the garden wall where she had
jumped down, and lifted her young warm body
like a feather.
She was again adorable, and his mood was
exalted. She reached down, and he took her hand
to kiss, but she put two soft arms round his neck
and kissed him frankly as a child might kiss.
“I shall be here every night till you come
again,” he said, disarmed completely.
There was a movement above, and she was
gone.
This meeting was the first of many. Desmond
stayed on at the hotel, and the foreign expedition
was postponed.
Each night he would wait beneath the wall,
which bordered the woods, till all hope of seeing
her had gone. Then he would go to the hotel not
angry but hoping for a happier chance on the
morrow.
She would slip out when she could, fearfully
at first, but as discovery seemed remote, with
growing confidence.
A change came over her. She found herself
thinking more of Hugh as he had taught her to
call him, and less of her devotions. Even at
mass his image was before her, and she felt
wicked, but could not alter her feelings.
Longing seized her for something she only dimly
comprehended; she became moody and irritable, and
neglected her work. Sister Ursula was
distressed, she had grown to love the girl. She
misread the symptoms and thought Carlotta was
pining to be free, like a caged bird. When they
met the talk was all of the strange places he had
seen, and she would listen all eyes and ears,
drinking in every word. And so Desmond stayed
on, cursing himself for the vile thing he was
planning, yet persisting in his scheme. At last
he came to the same spot now sacred to both, and
lifted her down. Both were disturbed. The
autumn was coming on, the time Carlotta
dreaded, for she hated the cold and damp, and
the death of the flowers.
“Daphne, my darling,” he said holding her in
his arms, “I have to go away tomorrow to my
own home to see to matters there. I shall be
away for a week at least. When I come back
I will see you again.” He spoke almost coldly,
and she gave a little cry of pain, and realised
perhaps for the first time what his absence would
mean. She held fast to him.
“Oh, must you go?” she asked with a moan.
“I must, I have been here too long as it is, but
I will come back.”
“Don’t be long, I shall miss you. It is so
lonely without you.”
“Would you come with me to Italy for the
winter?” he whispered, “away from all this cold
and wet, into the sunlight. We can see Venice,
you have never been there, and find your
mother,” he added falsely.
Her body quivered in his embrace, but she
stood silent. When it came to leaving the
Convent and its quiet shelter, and the good Sisters,
a gulf seemed to open beneath her feet.
“I could not,” she said, but the vision of all the
beauties he had pictured, actually possible to her
was dazzling her very soul.
“I will come for you,” he said “and you must
decide for yourself. Only if you don’t come with
me, I must go away altogether.”
“Don’t,” she answered, “it would be too cruel.
If you leave me I shall die. I cannot live
without you.” Her fierce passion was something he
had not seen before. He took her in his arms
then, and kissed her on the mouth, the eyes and
hair, holding her close, and she returned his
kisses with utter abandon, her soft arms round
his neck. He was the first to recover, and gently
disengaged himself. He was trembling; he had
never felt like this in any of his affairs.
“You must go, my darling,” he said very
gently, and lifted her to the wall, not daring to
say more.
She was crying now, softly as she always did,
and the tears fell on him like rain.
“Good-bye,” he said hoarsely, and turned
away through the dark woods.
“You scoundrel,” he said to himself. “Now
what are you going to do? She is not like the
others, she will never forget.
“Are you going to leave her, and break her
very soul. She has no mother and no friends
outside the convent. Or are you going to take
her, she is yours for the asking, and ruin her?”
There was another possibility, but he would
not allow his thoughts in that direction—marriage,
but that was horrible. To settle down as
a married man; no that could never be for him.
And so he went irresolute, torn by conflicting
feelings, the sweetness of her kisses an abiding
and tormenting memory.
And Carlotta, for her the old life was done.
It was all biting pain now. She had been
instructed by the Sisters, and she knew right from
wrong. She had been playing with fire, and now
she was burnt.
The days passed in weariness; she tried to
forget in her devotions, but the old fervour would
not come. Perhaps she might have recovered in
time, might even have forgotten, but fate was
playing a part.
He had been gone a week when the Mother
Superior sent for Carlotta.
“Come here, my child,” she said, “I want to
talk to you about your future. We must discuss
what you are to do.”
“I do not understand,” said Carlotta.
“My poor child, it is time you were told the
truth,” and she recounted the story of her
mother, and of her treatment. Carlotta could
have died with shame; her sensitive soul was
deeply wounded. That she had been kept on out
of charity, a foundling; it was awful.
“And so you see, my dear,” the Mother
continued, “we must look out for something for you.
We have places where we train girls, and I think
we can get you into one of those.”
“And I am to leave here?” Carlotta gasped.
“I am afraid so, my dear child, the rules will
not allow you to stay after you are seventeen,
and that will be in a few months.”
She went on talking quietly, but Carlotta
heard nothing. It was as though she were
sinking in deep waters, and a faint sound of a voice
far away was speaking.
She did not cry, but her face was white and
pinched.
“You understand?” asked the Mother and
kissed her.
“Yes, Mother, I will do what you want.”
“That’s a good child, run along now. I will
have another talk when I have heard from the
training college.”
For once her judgment was at fault; she
thought Carlotta had taken it very well, and
would be reconciled to her new life.
No sleep came to Carlotta that night. She
tossed on her bed, and a dry fever tormented her.
“Oh, Holy Mother!” she prayed “take this
shame from me, what can I do?”
When dawn came she was calm; she had made
up her mind once and for all. She was Italian,
and had not the calculating mind of the
northerner; she would go to him, yes, this very
evening, and her courage rose high at the thought.
Desmond was waiting by the wall; the Curse
had driven him back. He must see her, if only
to say good-bye. How often has the Devil tried
this game with success.
She came to the wall, which on the garden side
was low, and leant on the parapet. He noticed
with a start that she was holding a little
hand-bag, so small and dainty that even at the moment
he wondered what on earth she could get into it.
“I am coming with you, if you will take me,”
she said quite calmly.
“My God!” he said, staggering back, “do you
mean it?”
“Of course. You asked me last week, and said
you would come for me.”
He was at a loss. This dainty little girl was
talking like some practiced woman of the world,
or was it sheer innocence?
Then he was swept away, and all moderation
left him. He gathered her from the wall and
seized her roughly in his arms.
“Daphne, my darling, come. We will fly
together, over the blue seas, and love each other
dearly, and no one shall come between us. It
will be all Heaven, and you shall be my angel,
my Love! My Queen!”
The hours sped by in the soft velvet night, and
he took her by the hand, and led her to the town.
His senses came to him, and his quick mind saw
the danger. She would be missed, and a search
made. He went to his hotel, but not to the front
door. He had brought a young fellow from his
estate to look after him, Southgate, son of a
publican, who had some training as a valet. He had
taken him with him before and knew his loyalty
and discretion.
He roused him up from the servants’ quarters.
“Go to the King’s Head down the street, and
hire a trap. Mention no name except a false one,
and say it is an urgent case—an accident. Here
is money. You can return the trap tomorrow
evening. Bring it to the Cross by the London
Road. Hurry, mind, and don’t arouse any
suspicion.”
“Yes, my lord,” said the valet, who was used
to his master’s vagaries.
Desmond led Carlotta down the silent street,
and waited at the Cross. She was quiet, and
filled with pure happiness and trust. She had
yielded herself to this man absolutely, and for
ever. The die was cast, and she was content.
They drove off into the night, and he held her
in his arms where she slept like a tired child.
Mile after mile was covered, and dawn was
breaking when she woke to find herself at the
door of an old inn. Southgate jumped down,
and held the steaming horses, while Desmond
lifted her down, and carried her to the house.
The door was opened by an old woman, who
curtseyed to Desmond.
He said something to her in a low voice, and
passed on up the stairs to a door, which the
woman opened, holding a candle for them.
Very gently Desmond laid her on the bed, and
kissed her.
“This good woman will see to you,” he said.
“You will be quite safe here.”
She was so weary that she could scarcely touch
the hot soup which the woman brought her, and
soon was lost in happy dreams.