“Thou didst refuse the daily round
Of useful, patient love,
And longedst for some great emprise
Thy spirit high to prove.”—C. M. N.
“Che mi sedea con l’antica Rachele.”—DANTE.
“It is very kind in the dear mother.”
“But what, Rachel? Don’t you like it? She so enjoyed choosing it for
you.”
“Oh yes, it is a perfect thing in its way. Don’t say a word to her; but if
you are consulted for my next birthday present, Grace, couldn’t you
suggest that one does cease to be a girl.”
“Only try it on, Rachel dear, she will be pleased to see you in it.”
“Oh yes, I will bedizen myself to oblige her. I do assure you I am not
ungrateful. It is beautiful in itself, and shows how well nature can be
imitated; but it is meant for a mere girl, and this is the very day I had
fixed for hauling down the flag of youth.”
“Oh, Rachel.”
“Ah, ha! If Rachel be an old maid, what is Grace? Come, my dear, resign
yourself! There is nothing more unbecoming than want of perception of the
close of young-ladyhood.”
“Of course I know we are not quite young girls now,” said Grace, half
perplexed, half annoyed.
“Exactly, from this moment we are established as the maiden sisters of
Avonmouth, husband and wife to one another, as maiden pairs always are.”
“Then thus let me crown, our bridal,” quoth Grace, placing on her sister’s
head the wreath of white roses.
“Treacherous child!” cried Rachel, putting up her hands and tossing her
head, but her sister held her still.
“You know brides always take liberties. Please, dear, let it stay till the
mother has been in, and pray don’t talk before her of being so very old.”
“No, I’ll not be a shock to her. We will silently assume our immunities,
and she will acquiesce if they come upon her gradually.”
Grace looked somewhat alarmed, being perhaps in some dread of immunities,
and aware that Rachel’s silence would in any one else have been
talkativeness.
“Ah, mother dear, good morning,” as a pleasant placid-looking lady
entered, dressed in black, with an air of feeble health, but of comely
middle age.
Birthday greetings, congratulations, and thanks followed, and the mother
looked critically at the position of the wreath, and Rachel for the first
time turned to the glass and met a set of features of an irregular,
characteristic cast, brow low and broad, nose retroussé, with large,
singularly sensitive nostrils quivering like those of a high-bred horse at
any emotion, full pouting lips, round cheeks glowing with the freshest
red, eyes widely opened, dark deep grey and decidedly prominent, though
curtained with thick black lashes. The glossy chestnut hair partook of the
redundance and vigour of the whole being, and the roses hung on it
gracefully though not in congruity with the thick winter dress of blue and
black tartan, still looped up over the dark petticoat and hose, and stout
high-heeled boots, that like the grey cloak and felt hat bore witness to
the early walk. Grace’s countenance and figure were in the same style,
though without so much of mark or animation; and her dress was of like
description, but less severely plain.
“Yes, my dear, it looks very well; and now you will oblige me by not
wearing that black lace thing, that looks fit for your grandmother.”
“Poor Lovedy Kelland’s aunt made it, mother, and it was very expensive,
and wouldn’t sell.”
“No wonder, I am sure, and it was very kind in you to take it off their
hands; but now it is paid for, it can’t make much difference whether you
disfigure yourself with it or not.”
“Oh yes, dear mother, I’ll bind my hair when you bid me do it and really
these buds do credit to the makers. I wonder whether they cost them as
dear in health as lace does,” she added, taking off the flowers and
examining them with a grave sad look.
“I chose white roses,” proceeded the well-pleased mother, “because I
thought they would suit either of the silks you have now, though I own I
should like to see you in another white muslin.”
“I have done with white muslin,” said Rachel, rousing from her reverie.
“It is an affectation of girlish simplicity not becoming at our age.”
“Oh Rachel!” thought Grace in despair; but to her great relief in at that
moment filed the five maids, the coachman, and butler, and the mother
began to read prayers.
Breakfast over, Rachel gathered up her various gifts, and betook herself
to a room on the ground floor with all the appliances of an ancient
schoolroom. Rather dreamily she took out a number of copy-books, and began
to write copies in them in large text hand.
“And this is all I am doing for my fellow-creatures,” she muttered half
aloud. “One class of half-grown lads, and those grudged to me! Here is the
world around one mass of misery and evil! Not a paper do I take up but I
see something about wretchedness and crime, and here I sit with health,
strength, and knowledge, and able to do nothing, nothing—at the risk
of breaking my mother’s heart! I have pottered about cottages and taught
at schools in the dilettante way of the young lady who thinks it her duty
to be charitable; and I am told that it is my duty, and that I may be
satisfied. Satisfied, when I see children cramped in soul, destroyed in
body, that fine ladies may wear lace trimmings! Satisfied with the blight
of the most promising buds! Satisfied, when I know that every alley and
lane of town or country reeks with vice and corruption, and that there is
one cry for workers with brains and with purses! And here am I, able and
willing, only longing to task myself to the uttermost, yet tethered down
to the merest mockery of usefulness by conventionalities. I am a young
lady forsooth!—I must not be out late, I must not put forth my
views; I must not choose my acquaintance, I must be a mere helpless,
useless being, growing old in a ridiculous fiction of prolonged childhood,
affecting those graces of so-called sweet seventeen that I never had—because,
because why? Is it for any better reason than because no mother can bear
to believe her daughter no longer on the lists for matrimony? Our dear
mother does not tell herself that this is the reason, but she is
unconsciously actuated by it. And I have hitherto given way to her wish. I
mean to give way still in a measure; but I am five and twenty, and I will
no longer be withheld from some path of usefulness! I will judge for
myself, and when my mission has declared itself, I will not be withheld
from it by any scruple that does not approve itself to my reason and
conscience. If it be only a domestic mission—say the care of Fanny,
poor dear helpless Fanny, I would that I knew she was safe,—I would
not despise it, I would throw myself into it, and regard the training her
and forming her boys as a most sacred office. It would not be too homely
for me. But I had far rather become the founder of some establishment that
might relieve women from the oppressive task-work thrown on them in all
their branches of labour. Oh, what a worthy ambition!”
“Rachel!” called Grace. “Come, there’s a letter, a letter from Fanny
herself for you. Make haste, mamma is so nervous till you read it.”
No exhortation was needed to make Rachel hurry to the drawing-room, and
tear open the black-edged letter with the Australian stamp.
“All is right, mamma. She has been very ill, but is fast recovering, and
was to sail by the Voluta. Why, she may be here any day.”
“Any day! My dear Grace, see that the nurseries are well aired.”
“No, mother, she says her party is too large, and wants us to take a
furnished house for her to come into at once—Myrtlewood if possible.
Is it let, Grace?”
“I think I saw the notice in the window yesterday.”
“Then, I’ll go and see about it at once.”
“But, my dear, you don’t really mean that poor dear Fanny thinks of coming
anywhere but to us?” said her mother, anxiously.
“It is very considerate of her,” said Grace, “with so many little
children. You would find them too much for you, dear mother. It is just
like Fanny to have thought of it. How many are there, Rachel?”
“Oh! I can’t tell. They got past my reckoning long ago. I only know they
are all boys, and that this baby is a girl.”
“Baby! Ah, poor Fanny, I feared that was the reason the did not come
sooner.”
“Yes, and she has been very ill; she always is, I believe, but there is
very little about it. Fanny never could write letters; she only just says:
‘I have not been able to attempt a letter sooner, though my dear little
girl is five weeks old to-day. Think of the daughter coming at last, too
late for her dear father, who had so wished for one. She is very healthy,
I am thankful to say; and I am now so much better, that the doctor says I
may sail next week. Major Keith has taken our cabins, in the Voluta, and
soon after you receive this, I hope to be showing you my dear boys. They
are such good, affectionate fellows; but I am afraid they would be too
much for my dear aunt, and our party is so large, so the Major and I both
think it will be the best way for you to take a house for me for six
months. I should like Myrtlewood best, if it is to be had. I have told
Conrade all about it, and how pretty it is, and it is so near you that I
think there I can be happy as ever I can be again in this world, and have
your advice for the dear children.’”
“Poor darling! she seems but a child herself.”
“My age—five and twenty,” returned Rachel. “Well I shall go and ask
about the house. Remember, mother, this influx is to bring no trouble or
care on you; Fanny Temple is my charge from henceforth. My mission has
come to seek me,” she added as she quitted the room, in eager excitement
of affection, emotion, and importance, for Fanny had been more like a
sister than a cousin.
Grace and Rachel Curtis were the daughters of the squire of the Homestead;
Fanny, of his brother, an officer in the army. Left at home for education,
the little girl had spent her life, from her seventh to her sixteenth
year, as absolutely one with her cousins, until she was summoned to meet
her father at the Cape, under the escort of his old friend, General Sir
Stephen Temple. She found Colonel Curtis sinking under fatal disease, and
while his relations were preparing to receive, almost to maintain, his
widow and daughter, they were electrified by the tidings that the gentle
little Fanny, at sixteen, had become the wife of Sir Stephen Temple, at
sixty.
From that time little had been known about her; her mother had continued
with her, but the two Mrs. Curtises had never been congenial or intimate;
and Fanny was never a full nor willing correspondent, feeling perhaps the
difficulty of writing under changed circumstances. Her husband had been in
various commands in the colonies, without returning to England; and all
that was known of her was a general impression that she had much
ill-health and numerous children, and was tended like an infant by her
bustling mother and doting husband. More than half a year back, tidings
had come of the almost sudden death of her mother; and about three months
subsequently, one of the officers of Sir Stephen’s staff had written to
announce that the good old general had been killed by a fall from his
horse, while on a round of inspection at a distance from home. The widow
was then completely prostrated by the shock, but promised to write as soon
as she was able, and this was the fulfilment of that promise, bringing the
assurance that Fanny was coming back with her little ones to the home of
her childhood.
Of that home, Grace and Rachel were the joint-heiresses, though it was
owned by the mother for her life. It was an estate of farm and moorland,
worth some three or four thousand a year, and the house was perched on a
beautiful promontory, running out into the sea, and inclosing one side of
a bay, where a small fishing-village had recently expanded into a quiet
watering-place, esteemed by some for its remoteness from railways, and for
the calm and simplicity that were yearly diminished by its increasing
popularity. It was the family fashion to look down from their crag at the
new esplanade with pity and contempt for the ruined loneliness of the
pebbly beach; and as Mrs. Curtis had not health to go often into society,
she had been the more careful where she trusted her daughters. They
belonged to the county by birth and tradition, and were not to be mixed up
with the fleeting residents of the watering-place, on whom they never
called, unless by special recommendation from a mutual friend; and the few
permanent inhabitants chanced to be such, that a visit to them was in some
degree a condescension. Perhaps there was more of timidity and caution
than of pride in the mother’s exclusiveness, and Grace had always
acquiesced in it as the natural and established state of affairs, without
any sense of superiority, but rather of being protected. She had a few
alarms as to the results of Rachel’s new immunities of age, and though
never questioning the wisdom of her clever sister’s conclusions, dreaded
the effect on the mother, whom she had been forbidden to call mamma. “At
their age it was affecting an interesting childishness.”
Rachel had had the palm of cleverness conceded to her ever since she could
recollect, when she read better at three years old than her sister at
five, and ever after, through the days of education, had enjoyed, and
excelled in, the studies that were a toil to Grace. Subsequently, while
Grace had contented herself with the ordinary course of unambitious
feminine life, Rachel had thrown herself into the process of
self-education with all her natural energy, and carried on her favourite
studies by every means within her reach, until she considerably surpassed
in acquirements and reflection all the persons with whom she came in
frequent contact. It was a homely neighbourhood, a society well born, but
of circumscribed interests and habits, and little connected with the great
progressive world, where, however, Rachel’s sympathies all lay,
necessarily fed, however, by periodical literature, instead of by
conversation or commerce with living minds.
She began by being stranded on the ignorance of those who surrounded her,
and found herself isolated as a sort of pedant; and as time went on, the
narrowness of interests chafed her, and in like manner left her alone. As
she grew past girlhood, the cui bono question had come to interfere with
her ardour in study for its own sake, and she felt the influence of an age
eminently practical and sifting, but with small powers of acting. The
quiet Lady Bountiful duties that had sufficed her mother and sister were
too small and easy to satisfy a soul burning at the report of the great
cry going up to heaven from a world of sin and woe. The examples of
successful workers stimulated her longings to be up and doing, and yet the
ever difficult question between charitable works and filial deference
necessarily detained her, and perhaps all the more because it was not so
much the fear of her mother’s authority as of her horror and despair, that
withheld her from the decisive and eccentric steps that she was always
feeling impelled to take. Gentle Mrs. Curtis had never been a visible
power in her house, and it was through their desire to avoid paining her
that her government had been exercised over her two daughters ever since
their father’s death, which had taken place in Grace’s seventeenth year.
Both she and Grace implicitly accepted Rachel’s superiority as an
unquestionable fact, and the mother, when traversing any of her clever
daughter’s schemes, never disputed either her opinions or principles, only
entreated that these particular developments might be conceded to her own
weakness; and Rachel generally did concede. She could not act; but she
could talk uncontradicted, and she hated herself for the enforced
submission to a state of things that she despised.
This twenty-fifth birthday had long been anticipated as the turning-point
when this submissive girlhood ought to close, and the privileges of acting
as well as thinking for herself ought to be assumed. Something to do was
her cry, and on this very day that something seemed to be cast in her way.
It was not ameliorating the condition of the masses, but it was educating
those who might ameliorate them; and Rachel gladly hailed the prospect of
a vocation that might be conducted without pain to her mother.
Young children of her own class were not exactly what her dream of
usefulness had devised; but she had already a decided theory of education,
and began to read up with all her might, whilst taking the lead in all the
details of house taking, servant hiring, &c., to which her regular
occupations of night school in the evening and reading to the lacemakers
by day, became almost secondary. In due time the arrival of the ship was
telegraphed, a hurried and affectionate note followed, and, on a bright
east-windy afternoon, Rachel Curtis set forth to take up her mission. A
telegram had announced the arrival of the Voluta, and the train which
would bring the travellers to Avonchester. The Homestead carriage was sent
to meet them, and Rachel in it, to give her helpless cousin assistance in
this beginning of English habits. A roomy fly had been engaged for nurses
and children, and Mrs. Curtis had put under the coachman’s charge a parcel
of sandwiches, and instructed him to offer all the appliances for making
her own into an invalid carriage.
Full of warm tenderness to those who were to be dependent on her
exertions, led by her good sense, Rachel paced the platform till the
engine rushed up, and she looked along the line of windows, suddenly
bewildered. Doors opened, but gentlemen alone met her disappointed eye,
until close to her a soft voice said, “Rachel!” and she saw a figure in
deep black close to her; but her hand had been hardly clasped before the
face was turned eagerly to a tall, bearded man, who was lifting out little
boy after little boy, apparently in an endless stream, till at last a
sleeping baby was brought out in the arms of a nurse.
“Good-bye. Thank you, oh, thank you. You will come soon. Oh, do come on
now.”
“Do come on now,” was echoed by many voices.
“I leave you in good hands. Good-bye.”
“Good-bye. Conrade dear, see what Cyril is doing; never mind, Wilfred, the
Major will come and see us; run on with Coombe.” This last was a
respectable military-looking servant, who picked up a small child in one
hand and a dressing-case in the other, and awaited orders.
There was a clinging to the Major by all the children, only ended by his
finally precipitating himself into the carriage, and being borne off. Then
came a chorus—“Mamma, let me go with you;” “I’ll go with mamma;” “Me
go with mamma;” according to the gradations of age.
While Coombe and mamma decided the question by lifting the lesser ones
into the fly, Rachel counted heads. Her mission exceeded her expectations.
Here was a pair of boys in knickerbockers, a pair in petticoats, a pair in
pelisses, besides the thing in arms. When the fly had been nearly crammed,
the two knickerbockers and one pelisse remained for the carriage, quite
against Rachel’s opinion, but “Little Wilfred can sit on my lap, he has
not been well, poor little man,” was quite conclusive; and when Rachel
suggested lying back to rest, there was a sweet, low laugh, and, “Oh, no
thank you, Wilfred never tires me.”
Rachel’s first satisfaction was in seeing the veil disclose the face of
eight years back, the same soft, clear, olive skin, delicate, oval face,
and pretty deep-brown eyes, with the same imploring, earnest sweetness; no
signs of having grown older, no sign of wear and tear, climate, or
exertion, only the widow’s dress and the presence of the great boys
enhancing her soft youthfulness. The smile was certainly changed; it was
graver, sadder, tenderer, and only conjured up by maternal affection or in
grateful reply, and the blitheness of the young brow had changed to quiet
pensiveness, but more than ever there was an air of dependence almost
beseeching protection, and Rachel’s heart throbbed with Britomart’s
devotion to her Amoret.
“Why wouldn’t the Major come, mamma?”
“He will soon come, I hope, my dear.”
Those few words gave Rachel a strong antipathy to the Major.
Then began a conversation under difficulties, Fanny trying to inquire
after her aunt, and Rachel to detail the arrangements made for her at
Myrtlewood, while the two boys were each accommodated with a window; but
each moment they were claiming their mother’s attention, or rushing across
the ladies’ feet to each other’s window, treating Rachel’s knees as a
pivot, and vouchsafing not the slightest heed to her attempts at
intelligent pointing out of the new scenes.
And Fanny made no apology, but seemed pleased, ready with answers and with
eyes, apparently ignorant that Rachel’s toes were less insensible than her
own, and her heavy three-years-old Wilfred asleep on her lap all the time.
“She’s feeble, helpless, sickly!” thought Rachel, “I should have been less
tired had I walked the twenty miles!”
She gave up talking in despair, and by the time the young gentlemen had
tired themselves into quiescence, and began to eat the provisions, both
ladies were glad to be allowed a little silence.
Coming over the last hill, Conrade roused at his mother’s summons to look
out at “home,” and every word between them showed how fondly Avonmouth had
been remembered far away.
“The sea!” said Fanny, leaning forwards to catch sight of the long grey
line; “it is hard to believe we have been on it so long, this seems so
much more my own.”
“Yes,” cried Rachel, “you are come to your own home, for us to take care
of you.”
“I take care of mamma! Major Keith said so,” indignantly exclaimed
Conrade.
“There’s plenty of care for you both to take,” said Fanny, half-smiling,
half-sobbing. “The Major says I need not be a poor creature, and I will
try. But I am afraid I shall be on all your hands.”
Both boys drummed on her knee in wrath at her presuming to call herself a
poor creature—Conrade glaring at Rachel as if to accuse her of the
calumny.
“See the church,” said Lady Temple, glad to divert the storm, and eagerly
looking at the slender spire surmounting the bell-turret of a small
building in early-decorated style, new, but somewhat stained by sea-wind,
without having as yet acquired the tender tints of time. “How beautiful!”
was her cry. “You were beginning the collection for it when I went away!
How we used to wish for it.”
“Yes, we did,” said Rachel, with a significant sigh; but her cousin had no
time to attend, for they were turning in a pepper-box lodge. The boys were
told that they were arrived, and they were at the door of a sort of
overgrown Swiss cottage, where Mrs. Curtis and Grace stood ready to
receive them.
There was a confusion of embraces, fondlings, and tears, as Fanny clung to
the aunt who had been a mother to her—perhaps a more tender one than
the ruling, managing spirit, whom she had hardly known in her childhood;
but it was only for a moment, for Wilfred shrieked out in an access of
shyness at Grace’s attempt to make acquaintance with him; Francis was
demanding, “Where’s the orderly?” and Conrade looking brimful of wrath at
any one who made his mother cry. Moreover, the fly had arrived, and the
remainder had to be produced, named, and kissed—Conrade and Francis,
Leoline and Hubert, Wilfred and Cyril, and little Stephana the baby.
Really the names were a study in themselves, and the cousins felt as if it
would be hopeless to endeavour to apply them.
Servants had been engaged conditionally, and the house was fully ready,
but the young mother could hardly listen to her aunt’s explanations in her
anxiety that the little ones should be rested and fed, and she responded
with semi-comprehending thanks, while moving on with her youngest in her
arms, and as many hanging to her dress as could get hold of it. Her thanks
grew more emphatic at the sight of cribs in inviting order, and all things
ready for a meal.
“I don’t drink tea with nurse,” was Conrade’s cry, the signal for another
general outcry, untranquillized by soothings and persuasions, till the
door was shut on the younger half of the family, and those who could not
open it remained to be comforted by nurse, a soldier’s widow, who had been
with them from the birth of Conrade.
The Temple form of shyness seemed to consist in ignoring strangers, but
being neither abashed nor silenced, only resenting or avoiding all
attempts at intercourse, and as the boys rushed in and out of the rooms,
exploring, exclaiming, and calling mamma, to the interruption of all that
was going on, only checked for a few minutes by her uplifted hand and
gentle hush, Grace saw her mother so stunned and bewildered that she
rejoiced in the fear of cold that had decided that Rachel alone should
spend the evening there. Fanny made some excuses; she longed to see more
of her aunt, but when they were a little more settled,—and as a
fresh shout broke out, she was afraid they were rather unruly,—she
must come and talk to her at the dear Homestead. So kind of Rachel to stay—not
that the boys seemed to think so, as they went racing in and out,
stretching their ship-bound legs, and taking possession of the minute
shrubbery, which they scorned for the want of gum-trees and parrots.
“You won’t mind, Rachel dear, I must first see about baby;” and Rachel was
left to reflect on her mission, while the boys’ feet cantered up and down
the house, and one or other of them would look in, and burst away in
search of mamma.
Little more satisfactory was the rest of the evening, for the boys took a
great deal of waiting on at tea, and then some of the party would not go
to sleep in strange beds without long persuasions and comfortings, till
Fanny looked so weary that it was plain that no conversation could have
been hoped from her, even if the baby had been less vociferous. All that
could be done for her was to wish her good-night, and promise to come down
early.
Come early! Yes, Rachel might come, but what was the use of that when
Fanny was at the mercy of so many claimants? She looked much better than
the day before, and her sweet, soft welcome was most cordial and clinging.
“Dear Rachel, it is like a dream to have you so near. I felt like the old
life come back again to hear the surge of the sea all night, and know I
should see you all so soon again.”
“Yes, it is a great satisfaction to have you back in your old home, under
our wing. I have a great deal to tell you about the arrangements.”
“Oh yes; thank you—”
“Mamma!” roared two or three voices.
“I wanted to explain to you—” But Fanny’s eye was roaming, and just
then in burst two boys. “Mamma, nurse won’t undo the tin box, and my ship
is in it that the Major gave me.”
“Yes, and my stuffed duck-bill, and I want it, mamma.”
“My dear Con, the Major would not let you shout so loud about it, and you
have not spoken to Aunt Rachel.”
The boys did present their hands, and then returned to the charge. “Please
order nurse to unpack it, mamma, and then Coombe will help us to sail it.”
“Excuse me, dear Rachel,” said Fanny, “I will first see about this.”
And a very long seeing it was, probably meaning that she unpacked the box
herself, whilst Rachel was deciding on the terrible spoiling of the
children, and preparing a remonstrance.
“Dear Rachel, you have been left a long time.”
“Oh, never mind that, but, Fanny, you must not give way to those children
too much; they will be always—Hark! was that the door-bell?”
It was, and the visitor was announced as “Mr. Touchett;” a small, dark,
thin young clergyman he was, of a nervous manner, which, growing more
nervous as he shook hands with Rachel, became abrupt and hesitating.
“My call is—is early, Lady Temple; but I always pay my respects at
once to any new parishioner—resident, I mean—in case I can be
of any service.”
“Thank you, I am very much obliged,” said Fanny, with a sweet, gracious
smile and manner that would have made him more at ease at once, if Rachel
had not added, “My cousin is quite at home here, Mr. Touchett.”
“Oh yes,” he said, “so—so I understood.”
“I know no place in England so well; it is quite a home to me, so
beautiful it is,” continued Fanny.
“And you see great changes here.”
“Changes so much for the better,” said Fanny, smiling her winning smile
again.
“One always expects more from improvements than they effect,” put in
Rachel, severely.
“You have a large young party,” said Mr. Touchett, looking uneasily
towards Lady Temple.
“Yes, I have half a dozen boys and one little girl.”
“Seven!” Mr. Touchett looked up half incredulous at the girlish contour of
the gentle face, then cast down his eyes as if afraid he had been rude.
“Seven! It is—it is a great charge.”
“Yes, indeed it is,” she said earnestly; “and I am sure you will be kind
enough to give your influence to help me with them—poor boys.”
“Oh! oh!” he exclaimed, “anything I can do—” in such a transport of
eager helpfulness that Rachel coldly said, “We are all anxious to assist
in the care of the children.” He coloured up, and with a sort of effort at
self-assertion, blurted out, “As the clergyman of the parish—,” and
there halted, and was beginning to look foolish, when Lady Temple took him
up in her soft, persuasive way. “Of course we shall look to you so much,
and you will be so kind as to let me know if there is any one I can send
any broth to at anytime.”
“Thank you; you are very good;” and he was quite himself again. “I shall
have the pleasure of sending you down a few names.”
“I never did approve the broken victual system,” began Rachel, “it creates
dependence.”
“Come here, Hubert,” said Fanny, beckoning a boy she saw at a distance,
“come and shake hands with Mr. Touchett.” It was from instinct rather than
reason; there was a fencing between Rachel and the curate that made her
uncomfortable, and led her to break it off by any means in her power; and
though Mr. Touchett was not much at his ease with the little boy, this
discussion was staged off. But again Mr. Touchett made bold to say that in
case Lady Temple wished for a daily governess, he knew of a very desirable
young person, a most admirable pair of sisters, who had met with great
reverses, but Rachel snapped him off shorter than ever. “We can decide
nothing yet; I have made up my mind to teach the little boys at present.”
“Oh, indeed!”
“It is very kind,” said the perplexed Lady Temple.
“I beg your pardon, I only thought, in case you were wishing for some one,
that Miss Williams will be at liberty shortly.”
“I do not imagine Miss Williams is the person to deal with little boys,”
said Rachel. “In fact, I think that home teaching is always better than
hired.”
“I am so much obliged,” said Fanny, as Mr. Touchett, after this defeat,
rose up to take leave, and she held out her hand, smiled, thanked, and
sent him away so much sweetened and gratified, that Rachel would have
instantly begun dissecting him, but that a whole rush of boys broke in,
and again engrossed their mother, and in the next lull, the uppermost
necessity was of explaining about the servants who had been hired for the
time, one of whom was a young woman whose health had given way over her
lace pillow, and Rachel was eloquent over the crying evils of the system
(everything was a system with Rachel) that chained girls to an unhealthy
occupation in their early childhood, and made an overstocked market and
underpaid workers—holding Fanny fast to listen by a sort of
fascination in her overpowering earnestness, and great fixed eyes, which,
when once their grasp was taken, would not release the victim; and this
was a matter of daily occurrence on which Rachel felt keenly and spoke
strongly.
“It is very sad. If you want to help the poor things, I will give anything
I can.”
“Oh, yes, thank you, but it is doleful merely to help them to linger out
the remnant of a life consumed upon these cobwebs of vanity. It is the
fountainhead that must be reached—the root of the system!”
Fanny saw, or rather felt, a boy making signs at the window, but durst not
withdraw her eyes from the fascination of those eager ones. “Lace and
lacemakers are facts,” continued Rachel; “but if the middle men were
exploded, and the excess of workers drafted off by some wholesome outlet,
the price would rise, so that the remainder would be at leisure to fulfil
the domestic offices of womanhood.”
There was a great uproar above.
“I beg your pardon, dear Rachel,” and away went Fanny.
“I do declare,” cried Rachel, when Grace, having despatched her
home-cares, entered the room a quarter of an hour after; “poor Fanny’s a
perfect slave. One can’t get in a word edgeways.”
Fanny at last returned, but with her baby; and there was no chance for
even Rachel to assert herself while this small queen was in presence.
Grace was devoted to infants, and there was a whole court of brothers
vying with one another in picking up her constantly dropped toys, and in
performing antics for her amusement. Rachel, desirous to be gracious and
resigned, attempted conversation with one of the eldest pair, but the baby
had but to look towards him, and he was at her feet.
On her departure, Rachel resumed the needful details of the arrangements
respecting the house and servants, and found Lady Temple as grateful and
submissive as ever, except that, when advised to take Myrtlewood for a
term of seven years, she replied, that the Major had advised her not to
bind herself down at once.
“Did you let him think we should quarrel?”
“Oh, no, my dear; but it might not agree with the children.”
“Avonmouth! Grace, do you hear what heresy Fanny has been learning? Why,
the proportion of ozone in the air here has been calculated to be five
times that of even Aveton!”
“Yes, dearest,” said poor Fanny, very humbly, and rather scared, “there is
no place like Avonmouth, and I am sure the Major will think so when he has
seen it.”
“But what has he to do with your movements?”
“Sir Stephen wished—” murmured Fanny.
“The Major is military secretary, and always settles our head-quarters,
and no one interferes with him,” shouted Conrade.
Rachel, suspicious and jealous of her rival, was obliged to let Fanny pass
on to the next item, where her eager acceptance of all that was prescribed
to her was evidently meant as compensation for her refractoriness about
the house.
Grace had meanwhile applied herself to keeping off the boys, and was
making some progress in their good graces, and in distinguishing between
their sallow faces, dark eyes, and crisp, black heads. Conrade was
individualized, not only by superior height, but by soldierly bearing,
bright pride glancing in his eyes, his quick gestures, bold, decided
words, and imperious tone towards all, save his mother—and whatever
he was doing, his keen, black eye was always turning in search of her, he
was ever ready to spring to her side to wait on her, to maintain her cause
in rough championship, or to claim her attention to himself. Francis was
thick-set, round-shouldered, bullet-headed and dull-eyed, in comparison,
not aggressive, but holding his own, and not very approachable; Leoline,
thin, white-cheeked, large-eyed and fretful-lipped, was ready to whine at
Conrade’s tyranny and Francis’s appropriations, but was grateful for
Grace’s protection, and more easy of access than his elders; and Hubert
was a handsome, placid child, the good boy, as well as the beauty of the
family. The pair in the nursery hardly came on the stage, and the two
elders would be quite sufficient for Mrs. Curtis, with whom the afternoon
was to be spent.
The mother, evidently, considered it a very long absence, but she was
anxious to see both her aunt and her own home, and set out, leaning on
Rachel’s arm, and smiling pleased though sad recognition of the esplanade,
the pebbly beach, bathing machines and fishing boats, and pointing them
out to her sons, who, on their side, would only talk of the much greater
extent of Melbourne.
Within the gates of the Homestead, there was a steep, sharp bit of road,
cut out in the red sandstone rock, and after a few paces she paused to
rest with a sigh that brought Conrade to her side, when she put her arm
round his neck, and leant on his shoulder; but even her two supporters
could not prevent her from looking pale and exhausted.
“Never mind,” she said, “this salt wind is delightful. How like old times
it is!” and she stood gazing across the little steep lawn at the grey sea,
the line of houses following the curve of the bay, and straggling up the
valley in the rear, and the purple headlands projecting point beyond
point, showing them to her boys, and telling their names.
“It is all ugly and cold,” said Francis, with an ungracious shiver. “I
shall go home to Melbourne when I’m a man.”
“And you will come, mamma?” added Conrade.
He had no answer, for Fanny was in her aunt’s arms; and, like mother and
daughter, they clung to each other—more able to sympathize, more
truly one together, than the young widow could be with either of the
girls.
As soon as Fanny had rested and enjoyed the home atmosphere downstairs,
she begged to visit the dear old rooms, and carried Conrade through a
course of recognitions through the scarcely altered apartments. Only one
had been much changed, namely, the schoolroom, which had been stripped of
the kindly old shabby furniture that Fanny tenderly recollected, and was
decidedly bare; but a mahogany box stood on a stand on one side; there was
a great accession of books, and writing implements occupied the plain deal
table in the centre.
“What have you done to the dear old room—do you not use it still?”
asked Fanny.
“Yes, I work here,” said Rachel.
Vainly did Lady Temple look for that which women call work.
“I have hitherto ground on at after-education and self-improvement,” said
Rachel; “now I trust to make my preparation available for others. I will
undertake any of your boys if you wish it.”
“Thank you; but what is that box?”—in obedience to a curious push
and pull from Conrade.
“It is her dispensary,” said Grace.
“Yes,” said Rachel, “you are weak and nervous, and I have just the thing
for you.”
“Is it homœopathy?”
“Yes, here is my book. I have done great things in my district, and should
do more but for prejudice. There, this globule is the very thing for your
case; I made it out last night in my book. That is right, and I wanted to
ask you some questions about little Wilfred.”
Fanny had obediently swallowed her own globule, but little Wilfred was a
different matter, and she retreated from the large eyes and open book,
saying that he was better, and that Mr. Frampton should look at him; but
Rachel was not to be eluded, and was in full career of elucidation to the
meanest capacity, when a sharp skirmish between the boys ended the
conversation, and it appeared that Conrade had caught Francis just
commencing an onslaught on the globules, taking them for English
sweetmeats of a minute description.
The afternoon passed with the strange heaviness well known to those who
find it hard to resume broken threads after long parting. There was much
affection, but not full certainty what to talk about, and the presence of
the boys would have hindered confidence, even had they not incessantly
occupied their mother. Conrade, indeed, betook himself to a book, but
Francis was only kept out of mischief by his constantly turning over
pictures with him; however, at dark, Coombe came to convey them home, and
the ladies of the Homestead experienced a sense of relief. Rachel
immediately began to talk of an excellent preparatory school.
“I was thinking of asking you,” said Fanny, “if there is any one here who
would come as a daily governess.”
“Oh!” cried Rachel, “these two would be much better at school, and I would
form the little ones, who are still manageable.”
“Conrade is not eight years old yet,” said his mother in an imploring
tone, “and the Major said I need not part with him till he has grown a
little more used to English ways.”
“He can read, I see,” said Grace, “and he told me he had done some Latin
with the Major.”
“Yes, he has picked up a vast deal of information, and on the voyage the
Major used to teach him out of a little pocket Virgil. The Major said it
would not be of much use at school, as there was no dictionary; but that
the discipline and occupation would be useful, and so they were. Conrade,
will do anything for the Major, and indeed so will they all.”
Three Majors in one speech, thought Rachel; and by way of counteraction
she enunciated, “I could undertake the next pair of boys easily, but these
two are evidently wanting school discipline.”
Lady Temple feathered up like a mother dove over her nest.
“You do not know Conrade. He is so trustworthy and affectionate, dear boy,
and they are both always good with me. The Major said it often hurts boys
to send them too young.”
“They are very young, poor little fellows,” said Mrs. Curtis.
“And if they are forward in some things they are backward in others,” said
Fanny. “What Major Keith recommended was a governess, who would know what
is generally expected of little boys.”
“I don’t like half measures,” muttered Rachel. “I do not approve of
encouraging young women to crowd the overstocked profession of
governesses.”
Fanny opened her brown eyes, and awaited the words of wisdom.
“Is it not a flagrant abuse,” continued Rachel, “that whether she have a
vocation or not, every woman of a certain rank, who wishes to gain her own
livelihood, must needs become a governess? A nursery maid must have a
vocation, but an educated or half-educated woman has no choice; and
educator she must become, to her own detriment, and that of her victims.”
“I always did think governesses often much to be pitied,” said Fanny,
finding something was expected of her.
“What’s the use of pity if one runs on in the old groove? We must prevent
the market from being drugged, by diverting the supply into new lines.”
“Are there any new lines?” asked Fanny, surprised at the progress of
society in her absence.
“Homoeopathic doctresses,” whispered Grace; who, dutiful as she was,
sometimes indulged in a little fun, which Rachel would affably receive
unless she took it in earnest, as in the present instance.
“Why not—I ask why not? Some women have broken through prejudice,
and why should not others? Do you not agree with me, Fanny, that female
medical men—I mean medical women—would be an infinite boon?”
“It would be very nice if they would never be nervous.”
“Nerves are merely a matter of training. Think of the numbers that might
be removed from the responsibility of incompetently educating! I declare
that to tempt a person into the office of governess, instead of opening a
new field to her, is the most short-sighted indolence.”
“I don’t want to tempt any one,” said Fanny. “She ought to have been out
before and be experienced, only she most be kind to the poor boys. I
wanted the Major to inquire in London, but he said perhaps I might hear of
some one here.”
“That was right, my dear,” returned her aunt. “A gentleman, an officer,
could not do much in such a matter.”
“He always does manage whatever one wants.”
At which speech Rachel cast a glance towards her mother, and saw her look
questioning and perplexed.
“I was thinking,” said Grace, “that I believe the people at the Cliff
Cottages are going away, and that Miss Williams might be at liberty.”
“Didn’t I know that Grace would come out with Miss Williams?” exclaimed
Rachel. “A regular eruption of the Touchettomania. We have had him already
advertising her.”
“Miss Williams!” said Mrs. Curtis. “Yes, she might suit you very well. I
believe they are very respectable young women, poor things! I have always
wished that we could do more for them.”
“Who?” asked Fanny.
“Certain pets of Mr. Touchett’s,” said Rachel; “some of the numerous
ladies whose mission is that curatolatry into which Grace would lapse but
for my strenuous efforts.”
“I don’t quite know why you call them his pets,” said Grace, “except that
he knew their antecedents, and told us about them.”
“Exactly, that was enough, for me. I perfectly understand the meaning of
Mr. Touchett’s recommendations, and if what Fanny wants is a commonplace
sort of upper nursemaid, I dare say it would do.” And Rachel leant back,
applied herself to her wood carving, and virtually retired from the
discussion.
“One sister is a great invalid,” said Grace, “quite a cripple, and the
other goes out as a daily governess. They are a clergyman’s daughters, and
once were very well off, but they lost everything through some speculation
of their brother. I believe he fled the country under some terrible
suspicion of dishonesty; and though no one thought they had anything to do
with it, their friends dropped them because they would not give him up,
nor believe him guilty, and a little girl of his lives with them.”
“Poor things!” exclaimed Lady Temple. “I should very much like to employ
this one. How very sad.”
“Mrs. Grey told me that her children had never done so well with any one,”
said Mrs. Curtis. “She wanted to engage Miss Williams permanently, but
could not induce her to leave her sister, or even to remove her to London,
on account of her health.”
“Do you know her, Grace?” asked Fanny.
“I have called once or twice, and have been very much pleased with the
sick sister; but Rachel does not fancy that set, you see. I meet the other
at the Sunday school, I like her looks and manner very much, and she is
always at the early service before her work.”
“Just like a little mauve book!” muttered Rachel.
Fanny absolutely stared. “You go, don’t you, Rachel? How we used to wish
for it!”
“You have wished and we have tried,” said Rachel, with a sigh.
“Yes, Rachel,” said Grace; “but with all drawbacks, all disappointments in
ourselves, it is a great blessing. We would not be without it.”
“I could not be satisfied in relinquishing it voluntarily,” said Rachel,
“but I am necessarily one of the idle. Were I one of the occupied,
laborare est orare would satisfy me, and that poor governess ought to feel
the same. Think of the physical reaction of body on mind, and tell me if
you could have the barbarity of depriving that poor jaded thing of an
hour’s sleep, giving her an additional walk, fasting, in all weathers, and
preparing her to be savage with the children.”
“Perhaps it refreshes her, and hinders her from being cross.”
“Maybe she thinks so; but if she have either sense or ear, nothing would
so predispose her to be cross as the squeaking of Mr. Touchett’s
penny-whistle choir.”
“Poor Mr. Touchett,” sighed Mrs. Curtis; “I wish he would not make such
ambitious attempts.”
“But you like the choral service,” said Fanny, feeling as if everything
had turned round. “When all the men of a regiment chant together you
cannot think how grand it is, almost finer than the cathedral.”
“Yes, where you can do it,” said Rachel, “but not where you can’t.”
“I wish you would not talk about it,” said Grace.
“I must, or Fanny will not understand the state of parties at Avonmouth.”
“Parties! Oh, I hope not.”
“My dear child, party spirit is another word for vitality. So you thought
the church we sighed for had made the place all we sighed to see it, and
ourselves too. Oh! Fanny is this what you have been across the world for?”
“What is wrong?” asked Fanny, alarmed.
“Do you remember our axiom? Build your church, and the rest will take care
of itself. You remember our scraping and begging, and how that good Mr.
Davison helped us out and brought the endowment up to the needful point
for consecration, on condition the incumbency was given to him. He held it
just a year, and was rich, and could help out his bad health with a
curate. But first he went to Madeira, and then he died, and there we are,
a perpetual curacy of £70 a year, no resident gentry but ourselves, a
fluctuating population mostly sick, our poor demoralized by them, and
either crazed by dissent, or heathenized by their former distance from
church. Who would take us? No more Mr. Davisons! There was no more
novelty, and too much smartness to invite self-devotion. So we were driven
from pillar to post till we settled down into this Mr. Touchett, as good a
being as ever lived, working as hard as any two, and sparing neither
himself nor any one else.”
Fanny looked up prepared to admire.
“But he has two misfortunes. He was not born a gentleman, and his mind
does not measure an inch across.”
“Rachel, my dear, it is not fair to prejudice Fanny; I am sure the poor
man is very well-behaved.”
“Mother! would you be calling the ideal Anglican priest, poor man?”
“I thought he was quite gentlemanlike,” added Fanny.
“Gentlemanlike! ay, that’s it,” said Rachel, “just so like as to delight
the born curatolatress, like Grace and Miss Williams.”
“Would it hurt the children?” asked Fanny, hardly comprehending the
tremendous term.
“Yes, if it infected you,” said Rachel, intending some playfullness. “A
mother of contracted mind forfeits the allegiance of her sons.”
“Oh, Rachel, I know I am weak and silly,” said the gentle young widow,
terrified, “but the Major said if I only tried to do my duty by them I
should be helped.”
“And I will help you, Fanny,” said Rachel. “All that is requisite is good
sense and firmness, and a thorough sense of responsibility.”
“That is what is so dreadful. The responsibility of all those dear
fatherless boys, and if—if I should do wrong by them.”
Poor Fanny fell into an uncontrollable fit of weeping at the sense of her
own desolation and helplessness, and Mrs. Curtis came to comfort her, and
tell her affectionately of having gone through the like feelings, and of
the repeated but most comfortable words of promise to the fatherless and
the widow—words that had constantly come before the sufferer, but
which had by no means lost their virtue by repetition, and Fanny was
soothed with hearing instances of the special Providence over orphaned
sons, and their love and deference for their mother. Rachel, shocked and
distressed at the effect of her sense, retired out of the conversation,
till at the announcement of the carriage for Lady Temple, her gentle
cousin cheered up, and feeling herself to blame for having grieved one who
only meant aid and kindness, came to her and fondly kissed her forehead,
saying, “I am not vexed, dear Rachel, I know you are right. I am not
clever enough to bring them up properly, but if I try hard, and pray for
them, it may be made up to them. And you will help me, Rachel dear,” she
added, as her readiest woe-offering for her tears, and it was the most
effectual, for Rachel was perfectly contented as long as Fanny was
dependent on her, and allowed her to assume her mission, provided only
that the counter influence could be averted, and this Major, this
universal referee, be eradicated from her foolish clinging habits of
reliance before her spirits were enough recovered to lay her heart open to
danger.
But the more Rachel saw of her cousin, the more she realized this peril.
When she went down on Monday morning to complete the matters of business
that had been slurred over on the Saturday, she found that Fanny had not
the slightest notion what her own income was to be. All she knew was that
her General had left everything unreservedly to herself, except £100 and
one of his swords to Major Keith, who was executor to the will, and had
gone to London to “see about it,” by which word poor Fanny expressed all
the business that her maintenance depended on. If an old general wished to
put a major in temptation, could he have found a better means of doing so?
Rachel even thought that Fanny’s incapacity to understand business had
made her mistake the terms of the bequest, and that Sir Stephen must have
secured his property to his children; but Fanny was absolutely certain
that this was not the case, for she said the Major had made her at once
sign a will dividing the property among them, and appointing himself and
her Aunt Curtis their guardians. “I did not like putting such a charge on
my dear aunt,” said Fanny, “but the Major said I ought to appoint a
relation, and I had no one else! And I knew you would all be good to them,
if they had lost me too, when baby was born.”
“We would have tried,” said Rachel, a little humbly, “but oh! I am glad
you are here, Fanny!”
Nothing could of course be fixed till the Major had “seen about it.” After
which he was to come to let Lady Temple know the result; but she believed
he would first go to Scotland to see his brother. He and his brother were
the only survivors of a large family, and he had been on foreign service
for twelve years, so that it would be very selfish to wish him not to take
full time at home. “Selfish,” thought Rachel; “if he will only stay away
long enough, you shall learn, my dear, how well you can do without him!”
The boys had interrupted the conversation less than the previous one,
because the lesser ones were asleep, or walking out, and the elder ones
having learnt that a new week was to be begun steadily with lessons,
thought it advisable to bring themselves as little into notice as
possible; but fate was sure to pursue them sooner or later, for Rachel had
come down resolved on testing their acquirements, and deciding on the
method to be pursued with them; and though their mamma, with a curtain
instinctive shrinking both for them and for herself, had put off the
ordeal to the utmost by listening to all the counsel about her affairs, it
was not to be averted.
“Now, Fanny, since it seems that more cannot be done at present, let us
see about the children’s education. Where are their books?”
“We have very few books,” said Fanny, hesitating; “we had not much choice
where we were.”
“You should have written to me for a selection.”
“Why—so we would, but there was always a talk of sending Conrade and
Francis home. I am afraid you will think them very backward, dear Rachel,
especially Francie; but it is not their fault, dear children, and they are
not used to strangers,” added Fanny, nervously.
“I do not mean to be a stranger,” said Rachel.
And while Fanny, in confusion, made loving protestations about not meaning
that, Rachel stepped out upon the lawn, and in her clear voice called
“Conrade, Francis!” No answer. She called “Conrade” again, and louder,
then turned round with “where can they be—not gone down on the
beach?”
“Oh, dear no, I trust not,” said the mother, flurried, and coming to the
window with a call that seemed to Rachel’s ears like the roar of a sucking
dove.
But from behind the bushes forth came the two young gentlemen, their black
garments considerably streaked with the green marks of laurel climbing.
“Oh, my dears, what figures you are! Go to Coombe and get yourselves
brushed, and wash your hands, and then come down, and bring your lesson
books.”
Rachel prognosticated that these preparations would be made the occasion
of much waste of time; but she was answered, and with rather surprised
eyes, that they had never been allowed to come into the drawing-room
without looking like little gentlemen.
“But you are not living in state here,” said Rachel; “I never could enter
into the cult some people, mamma especially, pay to their drawing-room.”
“The Major used to be very particular about their not coming to sit down
untidy,” said Fanny. “He said it was not good for anybody.”
Martinet! thought Rachel, nearly ready to advocate the boys making no
toilette at any time; and the present was made to consume so much time
that, urged by her, Fanny once more was obliged to summon her boys and
their books.
It was not an extensive school library—a Latin grammar, an extremely
dilapidated spelling-book, and the fourth volume of Mrs. Marcet’s “Little
Willie.” The other three—one was unaccounted for, but Cyril had torn
up the second, and Francis had thrown the first overboard in a passion.
Rachel looked in dismay. “I don’t know what can be done with these!” she
said.
“Oh, then we’ll have holidays till we have got books, mamma,” said
Conrade, putting his hands on the sofa, and imitating a kicking horse.
“It is very necessary to see what kind of books you ought to have,”
returned Rachel. “How far have you gone in this?”
“I say, mamma,” reiterated Conrade, “we can’t do lessons without books.”
“Attend to what your Aunt Rachel says, my dear; she wants to find out what
books you should have.”
“Yes, let me examine you.”
Conrade came most inconveniently close to her; she pushed her chair back;
he came after her. His mother uttered a remonstrating, “My dear!”
“I thought she wanted to examine me,” quoth Conrade. “When Dr. M’Vicar
examines a thing, he puts it under a microscope.”
It was said gravely, and whether it were malice or simplicity, Rachel was
perfectly unable to divine, but she thought anyway that Fanny had no
business to laugh, and explaining the species of examination that she
intended, she went to work. In her younger days she had worked much at
schools, and was really an able and spirited teacher, liking the
occupation; and laying hold of the first book in her way, she requested
Conrade to read. He obeyed, but in such a detestable gabble that she
looked up appealingly to Fanny, who suggested, “My dear, you can read
better than that.” He read four lines, not badly, but then broke off,
“Mamma, are not we to have ponies? Coombe heard of a pony this morning; it
is to be seen at the ‘Jolly Mariner,’ and he will take us to look at it.”
“The ‘Jolly Mariner!’ It is a dreadful place, Fanny, you never will let
them go there?”
“My dear, the Major will see about your ponies when he comes.”
“We will send the coachman down to inquire,” added Rachel.
“He is only a civilian, and the Major always chooses our horses,” said
Conrade.
“And I am to have one too, mamma,” added Francis. “You know I have been
out four times with the staff, and the Major said I could ride as well as
Con!”
“Reading is what is wanted now, my dear, go on.”
Five lines more; but Francis and his mother were whispering together, and
of course Conrade stopped to listen. Rachel saw there was no hope but in
getting him alone, and at his mother’s reluctant desire, he followed her
to the dining-room; but there he turned dogged and indifferent, made a
sort of feint of doing what he was told, but whether she tried him in
arithmetic, Latin, or dictation, he made such ludicrous blunders as to
leave her in perplexity whether they arose from ignorance or impertinence.
His spelling was phonetic to the highest degree, and though he owned to
having done sums, he would not, or did not answer the simplest question in
mental arithmetic. “Five apples and eight apples, come, Conrade, what will
they make?”
“A pie.”
That was the hopeful way in which the examination proceeded, and when
Rachel attempted to say that his mother would be much displeased, he
proceeded to tumble head over heels all round the room, as if he knew
better; which performance broke up the séance, with a resolve on her part
that when she had the books she would not be so beaten. She tried Francis,
but he really did know next to nothing, and whenever he came to a word
above five letters long stopped short, and when told to spell it, said,
“Mamma never made him spell;” also muttering something depreciating about
civilians.
Rachel was a woman of perseverance. She went to the bookseller’s, and
obtained a fair amount of books, which she ordered to be sent to Lady
Temple’s. But when she came down the next morning, the parcel was nowhere
to be found. There was a grand interrogation, and at last it turned out to
have been safely deposited in an empty dog-kennel in the back yard. It was
very hard on Rachel that Fanny giggled like a school-girl, and even though
ashamed of herself and her sons, could not find voice to scold them
respectably. No wonder, after such encouragement, that Rachel found her
mission no sinecure, and felt at the end of her morning’s work much as if
she had been driving pigs to market, though the repetition was imposing on
the boys a sort of sense of fate and obedience, and there was less active
resistance, though learning it was not, only letting teaching be thrown at
them. All the rest of the day, except those two hours, they ran wild about
the house, garden, and beach—the latter place under the inspection
of Coombe, whom, since the “Jolly Mariner” proposal, Rachel did not in the
least trust; all the less when she heard that Major Keith, whose
soldier-servant he had originally been, thought very highly of him. A call
at Myrtlewood was formidable from the bear-garden sounds, and delicate as
Lady Temple was considered to be, unable to walk or bear fatigue, she
never appeared to be incommoded by the uproar in which she lived, and had
even been seen careering about the nursery, or running about the garden,
in a way that Grace and Rachel thought would tire a strong woman. As to a
tête-à-tête with her, it was never secured by anything short of Rachel’s
strong will, for the children were always with her, and she went to bed,
or at any rate to her own room, when they did, and she was so perfectly
able to play and laugh with them that her cousins scarcely thought her
sufficiently depressed, and comparing her with what their own mother had
been after ten months’ widowhood, agreed that after all “she had been very
young, and Sir Stephen very old, and perhaps too much must not be expected
of her.”
“The grand passion of her life is yet to come,” said Rachel.
“I hope not,” said Grace.
“You may be certain of that,” said Rachel. “Feminine women always have it
one time or other in their lives; only superior ones are exempt. But I
hope I may have influence enough to carry her past it, and prevent her
taking any step that might be injurious to the children.”
CHAPTER II. RACHEL’S DISCIPLINE
“Thought is free, as sages tells us—
Free to rove, and free to soar;
But affection lives in bondage,
That enthrals her more and more.”
JEAN INGELOW.
An old friend lived in the neighbourhood who remembered Fanny’s father,
and was very anxious to see her again, though not able to leave the house.
So the first day that it was fine enough for Mrs. Curtis to venture out,
she undertook to convey Fanny to call upon her, and was off with a
wonderfully moderate allowance of children, only the two youngest boys
outside with their maid. This drive brought more to light about Fanny’s
past way of life and feelings than had ever yet appeared. Rachel had never
elicited nearly so much as seemed to have come forth spontaneously to the
aunt, who had never in old times been Fanny’s confidante.
Fanny’s life had been almost a prolonged childhood. From the moment of her
marriage with the kind old General, he and her mother had conspired to
make much of her; all the more that she was almost constantly disabled by
her state of health, and was kept additionally languid and helpless by the
effects of climate. Her mother had managed her household, and she had
absolutely had no care, no duty at all but to be affectionate and
grateful, and to be pretty and gracious at the dinner parties. Even in her
mother’s short and sudden illness, the one thought of both the patient and
the General had been to spare Fanny, and she had been scarcely made aware
of the danger, and not allowed to witness the suffering. The chivalrous
old man who had taken on himself the charge of her, still regarded the
young mother of his children as almost as much of a baby herself, and
devoted himself all the more to sparing her trouble, and preventing her
from feeling more thrown upon her by her mother’s death. The notion of
training her to act alone never even occurred to him, and when he was
thrown from his horse, and carried into a wayside-hut to die, his first
orders were that no hurried message might be sent to her, lest she might
be startled and injured by the attempt to come to him. All he could do for
her was to leave her in the charge of his military secretary, who had long
been as a son to him. Fanny told her aunt with loving detail all that she
had heard from Major Keith of the brave old man’s calm and resigned end—too
full of trust even to be distressed with alarms for the helpless young
wife and children, but committing them in full reliance to the care of
their Father in heaven, and to the present kindness of the friend who
stood by his pillow.
The will, which not only Rachel but her mother thought strangely
unguarded, had been drawn up in haste, because Sir Stephen’s family had
outgrown the provisions of a former one, which had besides designated her
mother, and a friend since dead, as guardians. Haste, and the conscious
want of legal knowledge, had led to its being made as simple as possible,
and as it was, Sir Stephen had scarcely had the power to sign it.
It was Major Keith who had borne the tidings to the poor little widow, and
had taken the sole care of the boys during the sad weeks of utter
prostration and illness. Female friends were with her, and tended her
affectionately, but if exertion or thought were required of her, the Major
had to be called to her sofa to awaken her faculties, and she always awoke
to attend to his wishes, as though he were the channel of her husband’s.
This state of things ended with the birth of the little girl, the daughter
that Sir Stephen had so much wished for, coming too late to be welcomed by
him, but awakening her mother to tearful joy and renewed powers of life.
The nine months of little Stephana’s life had been a tone of continual
change and variety, of new interests and occupations, and of the
resumption of a feeling of health which had scarcely been tasted since the
first plunge into warm climates. Perhaps it was unreasonable to expect to
find Fanny broken down; and she talked in her own simple way with abundant
overflowing affection of her husband; but even Mrs. Curtis thought it was
to her more like the loss of her own father than of the father of her
children; and though not in the least afraid of anything unbecoming in her
gentle, retiring Fanny, still felt that it was more the charge of a girl
than of a widow, dreaded the boys, dreaded their fate, and dreaded the
Major more.
During this drive, Grace and Rachel had the care of the elder boys, whom
Rachel thought safer in her keeping than in Coombe’s. A walk along the
cliffs was one resource for their amusement, but it resulted in Conrade’s
climbing into the most break-neck places, by preference selecting those
that Rachel called him out of, and as all the others thought it necessary
to go after him, the jeopardy of Leoline and Hubert became greater than it
was possible to permit; so Grace took them by the hands, and lured them
home with promises of an introduction to certain white rabbits at the
lodge. After their departure, their brothers became infinitely more
obstreperous. Whether it were that Conrade had some slight amount of
consideration for the limbs of his lesser followers, or whether the fact
were—what Rachel did not remotely imagine—that he was less
utterly unmanageable with her sister than with herself, certain it is that
the brothers went into still more intolerable places, and treated their
guardian as ducklings treat an old hen. At last they quite disappeared
from the view round a projecting point of rock, and when she turned it,
she found a battle royal going on over an old lobster-pot—Conrade
hand to hand with a stout fisher-boy, and Francis and sundry amphibious
creatures of both sexes exchanging a hail of stones, water-smoothed
brick-bats, cockle-shells, fishes’ backbones, and other unsavoury
missiles. Abstractedly, Rachel had her theory that young gentlemen had
better scramble their way among their poor neighbours, and become used to
all ranks; but when it came to witnessing an actual skirmish when she was
responsible for Fanny’s sons, it was needful to interfere, and in equal
dismay and indignation she came round the point. The light artillery fled
at her aspect, and she had to catch Francis’s arm in the act of
discharging after them a cuttlefish’s white spine, with a sharp “For
shame; they are running away! Conrade, Zack, have done!” Zack was one of
her own scholars, and held her in respect.
He desisted at once, and with a touch of his rough forelock, looked
sheepish, and said, “Please ma’am, he was meddling with our lobster-pot.”
“I wasn’t doing any harm,” said Conrade. “I was just looking in, and they
all came and shied stones at us.”
“I don’t care how the quarrel began,” said Rachel. “You would not have run
into it if you had been behaving properly. Zack was quite right to protect
his father’s property, but he might have been more civil. Now shake hands,
and have done with it.”
“Not shake hands with a low boy,” growled Francis. But happily Conrade was
of a freer spirit, and in spite of Rachel’s interference, had sense enough
to know himself in the wrong. He held out his hand, and when the ceremony
had been gone through, put his hands in his pockets, produced a shilling,
and said, “There, that’s in case I did the thing any harm.” Rachel would
have preferred Zachary’s being above its acceptance, but he was not, and
she was thankful that a wood path offered itself, leading through the
Homestead plantations away from the temptations and perils of the shore.
That the two boys, instead of listening to her remonstrance, took to
punching and kicking one another, was a mitigated form of evil for which
she willingly compounded, having gone through so much useless interference
already, that she felt as if she had no spirit left to keep the peace, and
that they must settle their little affairs between themselves. It was the
most innocent diversion in which she could hope to see them indulge. She
only desired that it might last them past a thrush’s nest, in the hedge
between the park and plantation, a somewhat treasured discovery of
Grace’s. No such good luck. Either the thrush’s imprudence or Grace’s
visits had made the nest dangerously visible, and it was proclaimed with a
shout. Rachel, in hot haste, warned them against taking birds’-nests in
general, and that in particular.
“Nests are made to be taken,” said Francis.
“I’ve got an egg of all the Australian birds the Major could get me,” said
Conrade, “and I mean to have all the English ones.”
“Oh, one egg; there’s no harm in taking that; but this nest has young
birds.”
The young birds must of course be seen, and Rachel stood by with
despairing frowns, commands, and assurances of their mother’s displeasure,
while they peeped in, tantalized the gaping yellow throats, by holding up
their fingers, and laid hands on the side of the nest, peeping at her with
laughing, mischievous eyes, enjoying her distress. She was glad at last to
find them coming away without the nest, and after crossing the park,
arrived at the house, tired out, but with two hours of the boys still on
her hands. They, however, were a little tired, too; and, further, Grace
had hunted out the old bowls, much to the delight of the younger ones.
This sport lasted a good while, but at last the sisters, who had relaxed
their attention a little, perceived that Conrade and Hubert were both
missing, and on Rachel’s inquiry where they were, she received from
Francis that elegant stock answer, “in their skins.” However, they came to
light in process of time, the two mothers returned home, and Mrs. Curtis
and Grace had the conversation almost in their own hands. Rachel was too
much tired to do anything but read the new number of her favourite
“Traveller’s Magazine,” listening to her mother with one ear, and
gathering additional impressions of Sir Stephen Temple’s imprudence, and
the need of their own vigilance. To make Fanny feel that she could lean
upon some one besides the military secretary, seemed to be the great
object, and she was so confiding and affectionate with her own kin, that
there were great hopes. Those boys were an infliction, no doubt, but,
thought Rachel, “there is always an ordeal at the beginning of one’s
mission. I am mastering them by degrees, and should do so sooner if I had
them in my own hands, and no more worthy task can be done than training
human beings for their work in this world, so I must be willing to go
through a little while I bring them into order, and fit their mother for
managing them.”
She spent the time before breakfast the next morning in a search among the
back numbers of the “Traveller’s Magazine” for a paper upon “Educational
Laws,” which she thought would be very good reading for Fanny. Her search
had been just completed when Grace returned home from church, looking a
good deal distressed. “My poor thrushes have not escaped, Rachel,” she
said; “I came home that way to see how they were going on, and the nest is
torn out, one poor little fellow lying dead below it.”
“Well, that is much worse than I expected!” burst out Rachel. “I did think
that boy Conrade would at least keep his promises.” And she detailed the
adventure of the previous day, whence the conclusion was but too evident.
Grace, however, said in her own sweet manner that she believed boys could
not resist a nest, and thought it mere womanhood to intercede for such
lawful game. She thought it would be best to take no notice, it would only
distress Fanny and make “the mother” more afraid of the boys than she was
already, and she doubted the possibility of bringing it home to the
puerile conscience.
“That is weak!” said Rachel. “I received the boy’s word, and it is my
business to deal with the breach of promise.”
So down went Rachel, and finding the boys rushing about the garden,
according to their practice, before her arrival, she summoned Conrade, and
addressed him with, “Well, Conrade, I knew that you were violent and
disobedient, but I never expected you to fail in your honour as a
gentleman.”
“I’ll thrash any one who says I have,” hotly exclaimed Conrade.
“Then you must thrash me. You gave your word to me not to take your Aunt
Grace’s thrush’s nest.”
“And I didn’t,” said Conrade, boldly.
But Rachel, used to flat denials at the village-school, was not to be thus
set aside. “I am shocked at you, Conrade,” she said. “I know your mamma
will be exceedingly grieved. You must have fallen into very sad ways to be
able to utter such a bold untruth. You had better confess at once, and
then I shall have something to tell her that will comfort he.”
Conrade’s dark face looked set as iron.
“Come; tell me you are sorry you took the nest, and have broken your word,
and told a falsehood.”
Red colour flushed into the brown cheek, and the hands were clenched.
“There is not the smallest use in denying it. I know you took it when you
and Hubert went away together. Your Aunt Grace found it gone this morning,
and one of the poor little birds dead below. What have you done with the
others?”
Not a word.
“Then I grieve to say I must tell all to your mother.”
There was a sort of smile of defiance, and he followed her. For a moment
she thought of preventing this, and preparing Fanny in private, but
recollecting that this would give him the opportunity of preparing Hubert
to support his falsehood, she let him enter with her, and sought Lady
Temple in the nursery.
“Dear Fanny, I am very sorry to bring you so much vexation. I am afraid it
will be a bitter grief to you, but it is only for Conrade’s own sake that
I do it. It was a cruel thing to take a bird’s-nest at all, but worse when
he knew that his Aunt Grace was particularly fond of it; and, besides, he
had promised not to touch it, and now, saddest of all, he denies having
done so.”
“Oh, Conrade, Conrade!” cried Fanny, quite confounded, “You can’t have
done like this!”
“So, I have not,” said Conrade, coming up to her, as she held out her
hand, positively encouraging him, as Rachel thought, to persist in the
untruth.
“Listen, Fanny,” said Rachel. “I do not wonder that you are unwilling to
believe anything so shocking, but I do not come without being only too
certain.” And she gave the facts, to which Fanny listened with pale cheeks
and tearful eyes, then turned to the boy, whose hand she had held all the
time, and said, “Dear Con, do pray tell me if you did it.”
“I did not,” said Conrade, wrenching his hand away, and putting it behind
his back.
“Where’s Hubert?” asked Rachel, looking round, and much vexed when she
perceived that Hubert had been within hearing all the time, though to be
sure there was some little hope to be founded upon the simplicity of five
years old.
“Come here, Hubert dear,” said his mother; “don’t be frightened, only come
and tell me where you and Con went yesterday, when the others were playing
at bowls.” Hubert hung his head, and looked at his brother.
“Tell,” quoth Conrade. “Never mind her, she’s only a civilian.”
“Where did you go, Hubert?”
“Con showed me the little birds in their nest.”
“That is right, Hubert, good little boy. Did you or he touch the nest?”
“Yes.” Then, as Conrade started, and looked fiercely at him, “Yes you did,
Con, you touched the inside to see what it was made of.”
“But what did you do with it?” asked Rachel.
“Left it there, up in the tree,” said the little boy.
“There, Rachel!” said the mother, triumphantly.
“I don’t know what you mean,” said Rachel, angrily, “only that Conrade is
a worse boy than I had thought him, and has been teaching his little
brother falsehood.”
The angry voice set Hubert crying, and little Cyril, who was very
soft-hearted, joined in chorus, followed by the baby, who was conscious of
something very disagreeable going on in her nursery. Thereupon, after the
apparently most important business of comforting Miss Temple had been gone
through, the court of justice adjourned, Rachel opening the door of
Conrade’s little room, and recommending solitary imprisonment there till
he should be brought to confession. She did not at all reckon on his
mother going in with him, and shutting the door after her. It was not the
popular notion of solitary confinement, and Rachel was obliged to retire,
and wait in the drawing-room for a quarter of an hour before Fanny came
down, and then it was to say—
“Do you know, Rachel dear, I am convinced that it must be a mistake.
Conrade assures me he never touched the nest.”
“So he persists in it?”
“And indeed, Rachel dear, I cannot help believing him. If it had been
Francie, now; but I never knew Conrade tell an untruth in his life.”
“You never knew, because you always believe him.”
“And it is not only me, but I have often heard the Major say he could
always depend on Conrade’s word.”
Rachel’s next endeavour was at gentle argument. “It must be dreadful to
make such a discovery, but it was far worse to let deceit go on
undetected; and if only they were firm—” At that moment she beheld
two knickerbocker boys prancing on the lawn.
“Didn’t you lock the door? Has he broken out? How audacious!”
“I let him come out,” said Fanny; “there was nothing to shut him up for. I
beg your pardon, dear Rachel; I am very sony for the poor little birds and
for Grace, but I am sure Conrade did not take it.”
“How can you be so unreasonable, Fanny—the evidence,” and Rachel
went over it all again.
“Don’t you think,” said Fanny, “that some boy may have got into the park?”
“My dear Fanny, I am sorry for you, it is quite out of the question to
think so; the place is not a stone’s-throw from Randall’s lodge. It will
be the most fatal thing in the world to let your weakness be imposed on in
this way. Now that the case is clear, the boy must be forced to
confession, and severely punished.”
Fanny burst into tears.
“I am very sorry for you, Fanny. I know it is very painful; I assure you
it is so to me. Perhaps it would be best if I were to lock him up, and go
from time to time to see if he is come to a better mind.”
She rose up.
“No, no, Rachel!” absolutely screamed Fanny, starting up, “my boy hasn’t
done anything wrong, and I won’t have him locked up! Go away! If anything
is to be done to my boys, I’ll do it myself: they haven’t got any one but
me. Oh, I wish the Major would come!”
“Fanny, how can you be so foolish?—as if I would hurt your boys!”
“But you won’t believe Conrade—my Conrade, that never told a
falsehood in his life!” cried the mother, with a flush in her cheeks and a
bright glance in her soft eyes. “You want me to punish him for what he
hasn’t done.”
“How much alike mothers are in all classes of life,” thought Rachel, and
much in the way in which she would have brought Zack’s mother to reason by
threats of expulsion from the shoe-club, she observed, “Well Fanny, one
thing is clear, while you are so weak as to let that boy go on in his
deceit, unrepentant and unpunished, I can have no more to do with his
education.”
“Indeed,” softly said Fanny, “I am afraid so, Rachel. You have taken a
great deal of trouble, but Conrade declares he will never say a lesson to
you again, and I don’t quite see how to make him after this.”
“Oh, very well; then there’s an end of it. I am sorry for you, Fanny.”
And away walked Rachel, and as she went towards the gate two artificial
jets d’eau, making a considerable curve in the air, alighted, the one just
before her, the other, better aimed, in the back of her neck. She had too
much dignity to charge back upon the offenders, but she went home full of
the story of Fanny’s lamentable weakness, and prognostications of the
misery she was entailing on herself. Her mother and sister were both much
concerned, and thought Fanny extremely foolish; Mrs. Curtis consoling
herself with the hope that the boys would be cured and tamed at school,
and begging that they might never be let loose in the park again. Rachel
could not dwell much longer on the matter, for she had to ride to Upper
Avon Park to hold council on the books to be ordered for the book-club;
for if she did not go herself, whatever she wanted especially was always
set aside as too something or other for the rest of the subscribers.
Mrs. Curtis was tired, and stayed at home; and Grace spent the afternoon
in investigations about the harrying of the thrushes, but, alas! without
coming a bit nearer the truth. Nothing was seen or heard of Lady Temple
till, at half-past nine, one of the midges, or diminutive flies used at
Avonmonth, came to the door, and Fanny came into the drawing-room—wan,
tearful, agitated.
“Dear Rachel, I am so afraid I was hasty; I could not sleep without coming
to tell you how sorry I am.”
“Then you are convinced? I knew you would be.”
“Oh, yes, I have just been sitting by him after he was gone to bed. He
never goes to sleep till I have done that, and he always tells me if
anything is on his mind. I could not ask him again, it would have been
insulting him; but he went over it all of himself, and owned he ought not
to have put a finger on the edge of the nest, but he wanted so to see what
it was lined with; otherwise he never touched it. He says, poor boy, that
it was only your being a civilian that made you not able to believe him, I
am sure you must believe him now.”
Mrs. Curtis began, in her gentle way, about the difficulty of believing
one’s children in fault, but Lady Temple was entirely past accepting the
possibility of Conrade’s being to blame in this particular instance. It
made her bristle up again, so that even Rachel saw the impossibility of
pressing it, and trusted to some signal confutation to cure her of her
infatuation. But she was as affectionate as ever, only wanting to be
forgiven for the morning’s warmth, and to assure dear Aunt Curtis, dear
Grace, and dearest Rachel in particular, that there was no doing without
them, and it was the greatest blessing to be near them.
“Oh! and the squirting, dear Rachel! I was so sorry when I found it out,
it was only Francie and Leo. I was very angry with them for it, and I
should like to make them ask pardon, only I don’t think Francie would. I’m
afraid they are very rude boys. I must write to the Major to find me a
governess that won’t be very strict with them, and if she could be an
officer’s daughter, the boys would respect her so much more.”
CHAPTER III. MACKAREL LANE
“For I would lonely stand
Uplifting my white hand,
On a mission, on a mission,
To declare the coming vision.”
ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING.
“Well, Grace, all things considered, perhaps I had better walk down with
you to Mackarel Lane, and then I can form a judgment on these Williamses
without committing Fanny.”
“Then you do not intend to go on teaching?”
“Not while Conrade continues to brave me, and is backed up by poor Fanny.”
“I might speak to Miss Williams after church, and bring her in to
Myrtlewood for Fanny to see.”
“Yes, that might do in time; but I shall make up my mind first. Poor Fanny
is so easily led that we must take care what influences fall in her way.”
“I always wished you would call.”
“Yes, and I would not by way of patronage to please Mr. Touchett, but this
is for a purpose; and I hope we shall find both sisters at home.”
Mackarel Lane was at right angles to the shore, running up the valley of
the Avon; but it soon ceased to be fishy, and became agricultural, owning
a few cottages of very humble gentility, which were wont to hang out
boards to attract lodgers of small means. At one of these Grace rang, and
obtained admittance to a parlour with crazy French windows opening on a
little strip of garden. In a large wheeled chair, between the fire and the
window, surrounded by numerous little appliances for comfort and
occupation, sat the invalid Miss Williams, holding out her hand in welcome
to the guests.
“A fine countenance! what one calls a fine countenance!” thought Rachel.
“Is it a delusion of insipidity as usual? The brow is good, massive, too
much for the features, but perhaps they were fuller once; eyes bright and
vigorous, hazel, the colour for thought; complexion meant to be brilliant
brunette, a pleasant glow still; hair with threads of grey. I hope she
does not affect youth; she can’t be less than one or two and thirty! Many
people set up for beauties with far less claim. What is the matter with
her? It is not the countenance of deformity—accident, I should say.
Yes, it is all favourable except the dress. What a material; what a
pattern! Did she get it second-hand from a lady’s-maid? Will there be an
incongruity in her conversation to match? Let us see. Grace making
inquiries—Quite at my best—Ah! she is not one of the morbid
sort, never thinking themselves better.”
“I was afraid, I had not seen you out for some time.”
“No; going out is a troublesome business, and sitting in the garden
answers the same purpose.”
“Of air, perhaps, but hardly of change or of view.”
“Oh! I assure you there is a wonderful variety,” she answered, with an
eager and brilliant smile.
“Clouds and sunsets?” asked Rachel, beginning to be interested.
“Yes, differing every day. Then I have the tamarisk and its inhabitants.
There has been a tom-tit’s nest every year since we came, and that
provides us with infinite amusement. Besides the sea-gulls are often so
good as to float high enough for me to see them. There is a wonderful
charm in a circumcribed view, because one is obliged to look well into it
all.”
“Yes; eyes and no eyes apply there,” said Rachel.
“We found a great prize, too, the other day. Rosie!”
At the call a brown-haired, brown-eyed child of seven, looking like a
little fawn, sprang to the window from the outside.
“My dear, will you show the sphynx to Miss Curtis?”
The little girl daintily brought a box covered with net, in which a huge
apple-green caterpillar, with dashes of bright colour on his sides, and a
horny spike on his tail, was feasting upon tamarisk leaves. Grace asked if
she was going to keep it. “Yes, till it buries itself,” said the child.
“Aunt Ermine thinks it is the elephant sphynx.”
“I cannot be sure,” said the aunt, “my sister tried to find a figure of it
at Villars’, but he had no book that gave the caterpillars. Do you care
for those creatures?”
“I like to watch them,” said Grace, “but I know nothing about them
scientifically; Rachel does that.”
“Then can you help us to the history of our sphynx?” asked Miss Williams,
with her pleasant look.
“I will see if I have his portrait,” said Rachel, “but I doubt it. I
prefer general principles to details.”
“Don’t you find working out details the best way of entering into general
principles?”
It was new to Rachel to find the mention of a general principle received
neither with a stare nor a laugh; and she gathered herself up to answer,
“Naming and collecting is not science.”
“And masonry is not architecture, but you can’t have architecture without
it.”
“One can have broad ideas without all the petty work of flower botanists
and butterfly naturalists.”
“Don’t you think the broad ideas would be rather of the hearsay order, at
least to most people, unless their application were worked out in the
trifle that came first to hand?”
“Experimental philosophy,” said Rachel, in rather a considering tone, as
if the notion, when presented to her in plain English, required
translation into the language of her thoughts.
“If you like to call it so,” said Miss Williams, with a look of arch fun.
“For instance, the great art of mud pie taught us the porous nature of
clay, the expansive power of steam, etc. etc.”
“You had some one to improve it to you?”
“Oh dear no. Only afterwards, when we read of such things we remembered
how our clay manufactures always burst in the baking unless they were well
dried first.”
“Then you had the rare power of elucidating a principle?”
“No, not I. My brother had; but I could only perceive the confirmation.”
“This reminds me of an interesting article on the Edgeworth system of
education in the ‘Traveller’s Review.’ I will send it down to you.”
“Thank you, but I have it here.”
“Indeed; and do you not think it excellent, and quite agree with it?”
“Yes, I quite agree with it,” and there was an odd look in her bright
transparent eyes that made Grace speculate whether she could have heard
that agreement with the Invalid in the “Traveller’s Review” was one of the
primary articles of faith acquired by Rachel.
But Grace, though rather proud of Rachel’s falling under the spell of Miss
Williams’ conversation, deemed an examination rather hard on her, and took
the opportunity of asking for her sister.
“She is generally at home by this time; but this is her last day at Cliff
Cottages, and she was to stay late to help in the packing up.”
“Will she be at home for the present?” asked Grace.
“Yes, Rose and I are looking forward to a festival of her.”
Grace was not at all surprised to hear Rachel at once commit herself with
“My cousin, Lady Temple,” and rush into the matter in hand as if secure
that the other Miss Williams would educate on the principles of the
Invalid; but full in the midst there was a sound of wheels and a ring at
the bell. Miss Williams quietly signed to her little attendant to put a
chair in an accessible place, and in walked Lady Temple, Mrs. Curtis, and
the middle brace of boys.
“The room will be too full,” was Grace’s aside to her sister, chiefly
thinking of her mother, but also of their hostess; but Rachel returned for
answer, “I must see about it;” and Grace could only remove herself into
the verandah, and try to attract Leoline and Hubert after her, but failing
in this, she talked to the far more conversible Rose about the bullfinch
that hung at the window, which loved no one but Aunt Ermine, and scolded
and pecked at every one else; and Augustus, the beloved tame toad, that
lived in a hole under a tree in the garden. Mrs. Curtis, considerate and
tender-hearted, startled to find her daughter in the field, and wishing
her niece to begin about her own affairs, talked common-place by way of
filling up the time, and Rachel had her eyes free for a range of the
apartment. The foundation was the dull, third-rate lodging-house, the
superstructure told of other scenes. One end of the room was almost filled
by the frameless portrait of a dignified clergyman, who would have had far
more justice done to him by greater distance; a beautifully-painted
miniature of a lady with short waist and small crisp curls, was the centre
of a system of photographs over the mantel-piece; a large crayon sketch
showed three sisters between the ages of six and sixteen, sentimentalizing
over a flower-basket; a pair of water-colour drawings represented a
handsome church and comfortable parsonage; and the domestic gallery was
completed by two prints—one of a middle-aged county-member, the
other one of Chalon’s ladylike matrons in watered-silk aprons. With some
difficulty Rachel read on the one the autograph, J. T. Beauchamp, and on
the other the inscription, the Lady Alison Beauchamp. The table-cover was
of tasteful silk patchwork, the vase in the centre was of red earthenware,
but was encircled with real ivy leaves gummed on in their freshness, and
was filled with wild flowers; books filled every corner; and Rachel felt
herself out of the much-loathed region of common-place, but she could not
recover from her surprise at the audacity of such an independent measure
on the part of her cousin; and under cover of her mother’s civil talk,
said to Fanny, “I never expected to see you here.”
“My aunt thought of it,” said Fanny, “and as she seems to find the
children too much—”
She broke off, for Mrs. Curtis had paused to let her introduce the
subject, but poor Fanny had never taken the initiative, and Rachel did it
for her by explaining that all had come on the same errand, to ask if Miss
Williams would undertake the lessons of her nephews; Lady Temple softly
murmured under her veil something about hopes and too much trouble; an
appointment was made for the following morning, and Mrs. Curtis, with a
general sensation of an oppressive multitude in a small room, took her
leave, and the company departed, Fanny, all the way home, hoping that the
other Miss Williams would be like her sister, pitying the cripple, wishing
that the sisters were in the remotest degree military, so as to obtain the
respect of the boys, and wondering what would be the Major’s opinion.
“So many ladies!” exclaimed little Rose. “Aunt Ermine, have they made your
head ache?”
“No, my dear, thank you, I am only tired. If you will pull out the rest
for my feet, I will be quiet a little, and be ready for tea when Aunt
Ailie comes.”
The child handily converted the chair into a couch, arranging the dress
and coverings with the familiarity of long use, and by no means shocked by
the contraction and helplessness of the lower limbs, to which she had been
so much accustomed all her life that it never even occurred to her to pity
Aunt Ermine, who never treated herself as an object of compassion. She was
thanked by a tender pressure on her hair, and then saying—
“Now I shall wish Augustus good night; bring Violetta home from her play
in the garden, and let her drink tea, and go to bed.”
Ah, Violetta, purchased with a silver groat, what was not your value in
Mackarel Lane? Were you not one of its most considered inhabitants,
scarcely less a child of Aunt Ermine and Aunt Alison than their Rosebud
herself?
Murmur, murmur, rippled the child’s happy low-toned monologue directed to
her silent but sufficient playmate, and so far from disturbing the aunt,
that more than one smile played on her lips at the quaint fancies, and at
the well of gladness in the young spirit, which made day after day of the
society of a cripple and an old doll, one constant song of bliss, one
dream of bright imaginings. Surely it was an equalization of blessings
that rendered little lonely Rose, motherless and well nigh fatherless,
poor, with no companion but a crippled aunt, a bird and a toad, with
scarcely a toy, and never a party of pleasure, one of the most joyous
beings under the sun, free from occasions of childish troubles, without
collisions of temper, with few contradictions, and with lessons rather
pleasure than toil. Perhaps Ermine did not take into account the sunshiny
content and cheerfulness that made herself a delightful companion and
playfellow, able to accept the child as her solace, not her burthen.
Presently Rose looked up, and meeting the bright pleasant eyes, observed—“Violetta
has been very good, and said all her lessons quite perfect, and she would
like to sit up till her Aunt Ailie comes home. Do you think she may?”
“Will she not be tired to-morrow?”
“Oh, then she will be lazy, and not get up when she is called, till I pull
all the clothes off, and that will be fun.”
“Or she may be fretful now?”
A series of little squeaks ensued, followed by “Now, my love; that is
taking a very unfair advantage of my promise. You will make your poor Aunt
Ermine’s head ache, and I shall have to send you to bed.”
“Would not a story pass away the time?”
“You tell it, Aunt Ermine; your stories are always the best. And let there
be a fairy in it!”
The fairy had nearly performed her part, when the arrival took place, and
Rose darted forward to receive Aunt Ailie’s greeting kiss.
“Yes, Rosie—yes, Violetta; what do you think I have got for you?”
And out came a doll’s chair with a broken leg, condemned by the departing
pupils, and granted with a laugh to the governess’s request to take it to
her little niece; but never in its best days had the chair been so prized.
It was introduced to Violetta as the reward of virtue for having
controlled her fretfulness, and the repair of its infirmity was the first
consideration that occupied all the three. After all, Violetta’s sitting
posture was, as Alison observed, an example of the inclined plane, but
that was nothing to Rose, and the séance would have been indefinitely
prolonged, but for considerations for Violetta’s health.
The sisters were alike, and Alison had, like her elder, what is
emphatically called countenance, but her features were less chiselled, and
her dark straight brows so nearly met that, as Rose had once remarked,
they made a bridge of one arch instead of two. Six years younger, in full
health, and daily battling with the world, Alison had a remarkable look of
concentration and vigour, her upright bearing, clear decided speech, and
glance of kindness won instant respect and reliance, but her face missed
the radiant beamy brightness of her sister’s; her face was sweet and
winning, but it was not habitual with her, and there was about her a look
as if some terrible wave of grief or suffering had swept over her ere yet
the features were fully fixed, and had thus moulded her expression for
life. But playfulness was the tone that reigned around Ermine’s couch at
ordinary moments, and beside her the grave Alison was lively, not with
effort, but by infection.
“There,” she said, holding up a cheque; “now we’ll have a jubilee, and
take you down under the East cliff, and we’ll invest a shilling in
‘Ivanhoe,’ and Rose and Violetta shall open their ears!”
“And you shall have a respectable Sunday mantle.”
“Oh, I dare say Julia will send us a box.”
“Then you will have to put a label on your back, ‘Second-hand!’ or her
velvet will be a scandal. I can’t wear out that at home like this
flagrant, flowery thing, that I saw Miss Curtis looking at as rather a
disreputable article. There’s preferment for you, Ailie! What do you think
of a general’s widow with six boys? She is come after you. We had a great
invasion—three Curtises and this pretty little widow, and various
sons!”
“Will she stay?”
“Most likely, for she is a relation of Mrs. Curtis, and comes to be near
her. You are to call for inspection at eleven o’clock tomorrow, so I fear
your holiday will be short.”
“Well, the less play the less anxiety. How many drives will the six young
gentlemen be worth to you?”
“I am afraid it will be at the cost of tough work to you; she looked to me
too sweet a creature to have broken her sons in, but I should think she
would be pleasant to deal with.”
“If she be like Miss Curtis, I am sure she will.”
“Miss Curtis? My old friend you mean. She was rather suppressed today, and
I began to comprehend the reason of the shudder with which Mr. Touchett
speaks of the dogmatical young lady.”
“I hope she did not overwhelm you!”
“Oh, no! I rather liked her; she was so earnest and spirited, I could
fancy enjoying a good passage at arms with her if these were old times.
But I hope she will not take the direction of your school-room, though she
is an admirer of the educational papers in the ‘Traveller.’”
And here the discussion was ended by the entrance of little Rose with the
preliminaries of the evening meal, after which she went to bed, and the
aunts took out books, work, and writing materials.
Alison’s report the next day was—“Well, she is a very sweet
creature. There is something indescribably touching in her voice and eyes,
so soft and wistful, especially when she implores one not to be hard on
those great scrambling boys of hers.”
“So she is your fate?”
“Oh, yes, if there had been ten more engagements offered, I could not have
helped accepting hers, even if it had not been on the best terms I have
ever had.”
“What?”
“Seventy—for the hours between nine and five. Pretty well for a
journeyman hack, is it not? Indeed, the pretty thing’s only fear seemed to
be that she was requiring too much, and offering too little. No, not her
only fear, for there is some major in the distance to whose approval
everything must be subject—uncle or guardian, I suppose, but he
seemed to be rather an object of jealousy to the younger Miss Curtis, for
every hint of wishing to wait for the Major made her press on the
negotiations.”
“Seventy! I hope you will make it do, Ailie. It would be a great relief.”
“And spare your brains not a little. Yes, I do trust to keeping it, for
Lady Temple is delightful; and as to the boys, I fancy it is only taming
they want. The danger is, as Miss Rachel told me, whether she can bear the
sight of the process. I imagine Miss Rachel herself has tried it, and
failed.”
“Part amateur work,” said Ermine, smiling. “It really is lucky you had to
turn governess, Ailie, or there would have been a talent thrown away.”
“Stay till I have tried,” said Alison, who had, however, had experience
enough not to be much alarmed at the prospect. Order was wont to come with
her presence, and she hardly knew the aspect of tumultuous idleness or
insubordination to unenforced authority; for her eye and voice in
themselves brought cheerful discipline without constraint, and upheld by
few punishments, for the strong influence took away the spirit of
rebellion.
After her first morning’s work she came home full of good auguries; the
boys had been very pleasant with her after the first ten minutes, and
Conrade had gained her heart by his attention to his mother. He had,
however, examined her minutely whether she had any connexion with the
army, and looked grave on her disavowal of any relationship with soldiers;
Hubert adding, “You see, Aunt Rachel is only a civilian, and she hasn’t
any sense at all.” And when Francis had been reduced to the much disliked
process of spelling unknown words, he had muttered under his breath, “She
was only a civilian.” To which she had rejoined that “At least she knew
thus much, that the first military duty was obedience,” and Francis’s
instant submission proved that she had made a good shot. Of the Major she
had heard much more. Everything was referred to him, both by mother and
children, and Alison was the more puzzled as to his exact connexion with
them. “I sometimes suspect,” she said, “that he may have felt the
influence of those winsome brown eyes and caressing manner, as I know I
should if I were a man. I wonder how long the old general has been dead?
No, Ermine, you need not shake your head at me. I don’t mean even to let
Miss Curtis tell me if she would. I know confidences from partisan
relations are the most mischief-making things in the world.”
In pursuance of this principle Alison, or Miss Williams, as she was called
in her vocation, was always reserved and discreet, and though ready to
talk in due measure, Rachel always felt that it was the upper, not the
under current that was proffered. The brow and eyes, the whole spirit of
the face, betokened reflection and acuteness, and Rachel wanted to attain
to her opinions; but beyond a certain depth there was no reaching. Her
ways of thinking, her views of the children’s characters, her estimate of
Mr. Touchett—nay, even her tastes as to the Invalid’s letters in the
“Traveller’s Review,” remained only partially revealed, in spite of
Rachel’s best efforts at fishing, and attempting to set the example.
“It really seemed,” as she observed to Grace, “as if the more I talk, the
less she says.” At which Grace gave way to a small short laugh, though she
owned the force of Rachel’s maxim, that to bestow confidence was the way
to provoke it; and forbore to refer to a certain delightful afternoon that
Rachel, in her childhood, had spent alone with a little girl whom she had
never discovered to be deaf and dumb. Still Rachel had never been able to
make out why Grace, with no theories at all, got so many more confidences
than she did. She was fully aware of her sister’s superior attractiveness
to common-place people, and made her welcome to stand first with the chief
of their kindred, and most of the clergy and young ladies around. But it
was hard that where Rachel really liked and met half-way, the intimate
confidence should always be bestowed upon Grace, or even the mother. She
had yet to learn that the way to draw out a snail is not to grasp its
horns, and that halfway meeting is not to launch one’s self to the
opposite starting point. Either her inquiries were too point blank to
invite detailed replies, or her own communications absorbed her too much
to leave room for a return. Thus she told Miss Williams the whole story of
the thrush’s nest, and all her own reflections upon the characteristics it
betokened; and only afterwards, on thinking over the conversation,
perceived that she had elicited nothing but that it was very difficult to
judge in such cases, not even any decided assent to her own
demonstrations. It was true that riots and breaches of the peace ceased
while Miss Williams was in the house, and learning and good manners were
being fast acquired; but until Conrade’s duplicity should be detected, or
the whole disposition of the family discussed with herself, Rachel doubted
the powers of the instructress. It was true that Fanny was very happy with
her, and only regretted that the uncertainty of the Major’s whereabouts
precluded his being informed of the newly-found treasure; but Fanny was
sure to be satisfied as long as her boys were happy and not very naughty,
and she cared very little about people’s minds.
If any one did “get on” with the governess it was Grace, who had been the
first acquaintance in the family, and met her often in the service of the
parish, as well as in her official character at the Homestead. It so
chanced that one Sunday afternoon they found themselves simultaneously at
the door of the school-house, whence issued not the customary hum, but
loud sounds of singing.
“Ah!” said Grace, “Mr. Touchett was talking of getting the choir master
from Avoncester, and giving up an afternoon to practice for Easter, but he
never told me it was to be to-day.”
On inquiry, it appeared that notice had been given in the morning, but not
till after Miss Williams had gone home to fetch her little niece, and
while Rachel was teaching her boys in the class-room out of hearing. It
was one of the little bits of bad management that were sure to happen
wherever poor Mr. Touchett was concerned; and both ladies feeling it easy
to overlook for themselves, were thankful that it had not befallen Rachel.
Alison Williams, thinking it far to walk either to the Homestead or
Myrtlewood before church, proposed to Grace to come home with her, an
offer that was thankfully accepted, with merely the scruple whether she
should disturb the invalid.
“Oh, no, it would be a great pleasure; I always wish we could get more
change and variety for her on Sunday.”
“She is very self-denying to spare you to the school.”
“I have often wished to give it up, but she never will let me. She says it
is one of the few things we can do, and I see besides that it brings her
fresh interests. She knows about all my class, and works for them, and has
them to see her; and I am sure it is better for her, though it leaves her
more hours alone with Rose.”
“And the Sunday services are too long for her?”
“Not so much that, as that she cannot sit on those narrow benches unless
two are put close together so that she can almost lie, and there is not
room for her chair in the aisle on a Sunday. It is the greatest
deprivation of all.”
“It is so sad, and she is so patient and so energetic,” said Grace, using
her favourite monosyllable in peace, out of Rachel’s hearing.
“You would say so, indeed, if you really knew her, or how she has found
strength and courage for me through all the terrible sutfering.”
“Then does she suffer so much?”
“Oh, no, not now! That was in the first years.”
“It was not always so.”
“No, indeed! You thought it deformity! Oh, no, no! she was so beautiful.”
“That she is still. I never saw my sister so much struck with any one.
There is something so striking in her bright glance out of those clear
eyes.”
“Ah! if you had only seen her bloom before—”
“The accident?”
“I burnt her,” said Alison, almost inaudibly.
“You! you, poor dear! How dreadful for you.”
“Yes, I burnt her,” said Alison, more steadily. “You ought not to be kind
to me without knowing about it. It was an accident of course, but it was a
fit of petulance. I threw a match without looking where it was going.”
“It must have been when you were very young.”
“Fourteen. I was in a naughty fit at her refusing to go to the great
musical meeting with us. We always used to go to stay at one of the
canon’s houses for it, a house where one was dull and shy; and I could not
bear going without her, nor understand the reason.”
“And was there a reason?”
“Yes, poor dear Ermine. She knew he meant to come there to meet her, and
she thought it would not be right; because his father had objected so
strongly, and made him exchange into a regiment on foreign service.”
“And you did not know this?”
“No, I was away all the time it was going on, with my eldest sister,
having masters in London. I did not come home till it was all over, and
then I could not understand what was the matter with the house, or why
Ermine was unlike herself, and papa restless and anxious about her. They
thought me too young to be told, and the atmosphere made me cross and
fretful, and papa was displeased with me, and Ermine tried in vain to make
me good; poor patient Ermine, even then the chief sufferer!”
“I can quite imagine the discomfort and fret of being in ignorance all the
time.”
“Dear Ermine says she longed to tell me, but she had been forbidden, and
she went on blaming herself and trying to make me enjoy my holidays as
usual, till this dreadful day, when I had worried her intolerably about
going to this music meeting, and she found reasoning only made me worse.
She still wrote her note of refusal, and asked me to light the taper; I
dashed down the match in a frenzy of temper and—”
She paused for breath, and Grace squeezed her hand.
“We did not see it at first, and then she threw herself down and ordered
me not to come near. Every one was there directly, I believe, but it burst
out again and again, and was not put out till they all thought she had not
an hour to live. There was no pain, and there she lay, all calmness,
comforting us all, and making papa and Edward promise to forgive me—me,
who only wished they would kill me! And the next day he came; he was just
going to sail, and they thought nothing would hurt her then. I saw him
while he was waiting, and never did I see such a fixed deathly face. But
they said she found words to cheer and soothe him.”
“And what became of him?”
“We do not know. As long as Lady Alison lived (his aunt) she let us hear
about him, and we knew he was recovering from his wound. Then came her
death, and then my father’s, and all the rest, and we lost sight of the
Beauchamps. We saw the name in the Gazette as killed at Lucknow, but not
the right Christian name nor the same rank; but then, though the regiment
is come home, we have heard nothing of him, and though she has never
spoken of him to me, I am sure Ermine believes he is dead, and thinks of
him as part of the sunshine of the old Beauchamp days—the sunshine
whose reflection lasts one’s life.”
“He ought to be dead,” said Grace.
“Yes, it would be better for her than to hear anything else of him! He had
nothing of his own, so there would have been a long waiting, but his
father and brother would not hear of it, and accused us of entrapping him,
and that angered my father. For our family is quite good, and we were very
well off then. My father had a good private fortune besides the Rectory at
Beauchamp; and Lady Alison, who had been like a mother to us ever since
our own died, quite thought that the prospect was good enough, and I
believe got into a great scrape with her family for having promoted the
affair.”
“Your squire’s wife?”
“Yes, and Julia and Ermine had come every day to learn lessons with her
daughters. I was too young; but as long as she lived we were all like one
family. How kind she was! How she helped us through those frightful
weeks!”
“Of your sister’s illness? It must have lasted long?”
“Long? Oh longer than long! No one thought of her living. The doctors said
the injury was too extensive to leave any power of rallying; but she was
young and strong, and did not die in the torture, though people said that
such an existence as remained to her was not worth the anguish of
struggling back to it. I think my father only prayed that she might suffer
less, and Julia stayed on and on, thinking each day would be the last,
till Dr. Long could not spare her any longer; and then Lady Alison nursed
her night after night and day after day, till she had worn herself into an
illness, and when the doctors spoke of improvement, we only perceived
worse agony. It was eight months before she was even lifted up in bed, and
it was years before the burns ceased to be painful or the constitution at
all recovered the shock; and even now weather tells on her, though since
we have lived here she has been far better than I ever dared to hope.”
“Then you consider her still recovering?”
“In general health she is certainly greatly restored, and has strength to
attempt more, but the actual injury, the contraction, can never be better
than now. When we lived at Richmond she had constantly the best advice,
and we were told that nothing more could be hoped for.”
“I wonder more and more at her high spirits. I suppose that was what
chiefly helped to carry her through?”
“I have seen a good many people,” said Alison, pausing, “but I never did
see any one so happy! Others are always wanting something; she never is.
Every enjoyment seems to be tenfold to her what it is to other people; she
sees the hopeful side of every sorrow. No burthen is a burthen when one
has carried it to her.”
As Alison spoke, she pushed open the narrow green door of the little
lodging-house, and there issued a weak, sweet sound of voices: “The strain
upraise of joy and praise.” It was the same that had met their ears at the
school-door, but the want of body in the voices was fully compensated by
the heartfelt ring, as if here indeed was praise, not practice.
“Aunt Ailie! O Aunt Ailie!” cried the child, as the room-door opened and
showed the little choir, consisting of herself, her aunt, and the small
maid of the house, “you should not have come, you were not to hear us till
Trinity Sunday.”
Explanations were given, and Miss Curtis was welcomed, but Alison, still
too much moved for ordinary conversation, slipped into the bedroom
adjoining, followed by her sister’s quick and anxious eye, and
half-uttered inquiry.
“I am afraid it is my fault,” said Grace; “she has been telling me about
your accident.”
“Poor Ailie,” said Ermine, “she never will receive kindness without having
that unlucky story out! It is just one of the things that get so cruelly
exaggerated by consequences. It was one moment’s petulance that might have
caused a fright and been forgotten ever after, but for those chemicals.
Ah! I see, she said nothing about them, because they were Edward’s. They
were some parcels for his experiments, gun cotton and the like, which were
lying in the window till he had time to take them upstairs. We had all
been so long threatened with being blown up by his experiments that we had
grown callous and careless, and it served us right!” she added, stroking
the child’s face as it looked at her, earnest to glean fresh fragments of
the terrible half-known tale of the past. “Yes, Rosie, when you go and
keep house for papa on the top of the Oural Mountains, or wherever it may
be, you are to remember that if Aunt Ermine had not been in a foolish,
inattentive mood, and had taken his dangerous goods out of the way, she
might have been trotting to church now like other people. But poor Ailie
has always helped herself to the whole blame, and if every childish fit of
temper were the root of such qualities, what a world we should have here!”
“Ah! no wonder she is devoted to you.”
“The child was not fifteen, had never known cross or care, but from that
moment she never was out of my room if it was possible to be in; and when
nurse after nurse was fairly worn out, because I could not help being so
distressing, there was always that poor child, always handy and helpful,
growing to be the chief dependence, and looking so piteously imploring
whatever was tried, that it really helped me to go through with it. Poor
Ailie,” she added with an odd turn of playfulness, “I always fancied those
frowns of anxiety made her eyebrows grow together. And ever since we came
here, we know how she has worked away for her old cinder and her small
Rosebud, don’t we?” she added, playfully squeezing the child’s cheeks up
into a more budding look, hiding deeper and more overcoming feelings by
the sportive action. And as her sister came back, she looked up and shook
her head at her, saying,—
“You gossiping Ailie, to go ripping up old grievances. I am going to ask
Miss Curtis not to let the story go any farther, now you have relieved
your mind of it.”
“I did tell Lady Temple,” said Alison; “I never think it right not to let
people know what sort of person they have to teach their children.”
And Grace, on feeling her way, discovered that Lady Temple had been told
the bare fact in Miss Williams’s reserved and business-like manner, but
with nothing of the affair that had led to it. She merely looked on it in
the manner fully expressed by—“Ah, poor thing; how sad for her!” as
a shocking secret, never to be talked of or thought about. And that
voluntary detailed relation from Alison could only be regarded as drawn
forth by Grace’s own individual power of winning confidence, and the
friendliness that had so long subsisted between them. Nor indeed was the
reserve regarding the cause of the present reduced circumstances of the
sisters at all lessened; it was only known that their brother had ruined
them by a fraudulent speculation, and had then fled to the Continent,
leaving them burthened with the maintenance of his child, but that they
refused to believe in his guilt, and had thus incurred the displeasure of
other relatives and friends. Alison was utterly silent about him. Ermine
seemed to have a tender pleasure in bringing in a reference to his ways as
if all were well, and it were a matter of course to speak of “Edward;” but
it was plain that Ermine’s was an outspoken nature. This might, however,
be only because the one had been a guarded, sheltered invalid, while the
other had gone forth among strangers to battle for a livelihood, and
moreover, the elder sister had been fully grown and developed before the
shock which had come on the still unformed Alison.
At any rate, nobody but Grace “got on” with the governess, while the
invalid made friends with all who visited her, and most signally with
Rachel, who, ere long, esteemed her environment a good work, worthy of
herself. The charity of sitting with a twaddling, muffatee-knitting old
lady was indisputable, but it was perfectly within Grace’s capacity; and
Rachel believed herself to be far more capable of entertaining the sick
Miss Williams, nor was she mistaken. When excited or interested, most
people thought her oppressive; but Ermine Williams, except when unwell,
did not find her so, and even then a sharp debate was sometimes a cure for
the nervous ailments induced by the monotony of her life. They seemed to
have a sort of natural desire to rub their minds one against the other,
and Rachel could not rest without Miss Williams’s opinion of all that
interested her—paper, essay, book, or event; but often, when
expecting to confer a favour by the loan, she found that what was new to
her was already well known in that little parlour, and even the authorship
no mystery. Ermine explained this by her correspondence with literary
friends of her brother’s, and country-bred Rachel, to whom literature was
still an oracle unconnected with living agencies, listened, yes,
absolutely listened to her anecdotes of sayings and doings, far more like
clever memoirs than the experiences of the banks of the Avon. Perhaps
there was this immediate disadvantage, that hearing of a more intellectual
tone of society tended to make Rachel less tolerant of that which
surrounded her, and especially of Mr. Touchett. It was droll that, having
so long shunned the two sisters under the impression that they were his
protégées and worshippers, she found that Ermine’s point of view was quite
the rectorial one, and that to venerate the man for his office sake was
nearly as hard to Ermine as to herself, though the office was more
esteemed.
Alison, the reserved, had held her tongue on his antecedents; but Ermine
was drawn into explaining that his father had been a minor canon, who had
eked out his means with a combination of chaplaincies and parts of
curacies, and by teaching at the school where his son was educated.
Indignant at the hack estimation in which his father had been held, the
son, far more justly viewing both the dignity and duty of his office, was
resolved to be respected; but bred up in second rate society, had neither
weight, talent, nor manners to veil his aggressive self-assertion, and he
was at this time especially trying to the Curtises.
Cathedral music had been too natural to him for the endurance of an
unchoral service, and the prime labour of his life was to work up his
choir; but he was musical by education rather than nature, and having
begun his career with such mortal offence to the native fiddlers and
singers as to impel them into the arms of dissent, he could only supply
the loss from the school by his own voice, of which he was not chary,
though using it with better will than taste. The staple of his choir were
Rachel’s scholars. Her turn had always been for boys, and her class on
Sunday mornings and two evenings in the week had long been in operation
before the reign of Mr. Touchett. Then two lads, whose paternal fiddles
had seceded to the Plymouth Brethren, were suspended from all advantages
by the curate, and Rachel was with difficulty withheld from an explosion;
but even this was less annoying than the summons at the class-room door
every Sunday morning, that, in the midst of her lesson, carried off the
chief of her scholars to practise their chants. Moreover, the blame of all
imperfect lessons was laid on the “singing for the parson,” and all faults
in the singing by the tasks for Miss Rachel; and one night, the excellent
Zack excused his failure in geography by saying that Mr. Touchett had
thrown away his book, and said that it was no better than sacrilege,
omitting, however, to mention that he had been caught studying it under
his surplice during the lessons.
At last, with his usual fatality, the curate fixed the grand practice for
the Saturday evenings that were Rachel’s great days for instruction in the
three R’s, and for a sort of popular lecture. Cricket was to succeed the
singing, and novelty carried the day, but only by the desertion of her
scholars did Rachel learn the new arrangement, and she could hardly credit
the assertion that the curate was not aware that it was her day. In fact,
it was the only one when the fisher lads were sure not to be at sea, and
neither party would yield it. Mr. Touchett was determined not to truckle
to dictation from the great house; so when Rachel declared she would have
nothing to do with the boys unless the Saturdays were conceded to her, he
owned that he thought the clergyman had the first right to his lads, and
had only not claimed them before out of deference for the feelings of a
well-meaning parishioner.
Both parties poured out their grievances to the same auditor, for Mr.
Touchett regarded Ermine Williams as partly clerical, and Rachel could
never be easy without her sympathy. To hear was not, however, to make
peace, while each side was so sore, so conscious of the merits of its own
case, so blind to those of the other. One deemed praise in its highest
form the prime object of his ministry; the other found the performance
indevotional, and raved that education should be sacrificed to wretched
music. But that the dissension was sad and mischievous, it would have been
very diverting; they were both so young in their incapacity of making
allowances, their certainty that theirs was the theory to bring in the
golden age, and even in their magnanimity of forgiveness, and all the time
they thought themselves so very old. “I am resigned to disappointments; I
have seen something of life.”—“You forget, Miss Williams, that my
ministerial experience is not very recent.”
There was one who would have smoothed matters far better than any, who,
like Ermine, took her weapons from the armoury of good sense; but that
person was entirely unconscious how the incumbent regarded her soft eyes,
meek pensiveness, motherly sweetness, and, above all, the refined graceful
dignity that remained to her from the leading station she had occupied.
Her gracious respect towards her clergyman was a contrast as much to the
deferential coquetry of his admirers as to the abruptness of his foe, and
her indifference to parish details had even its charm in a world of
fussiness; he did not know himself how far a wish of hers would have led
him, and she was the last person to guess. She viewed him, like all else
outside her nursery, as something out of the focus of her eye; her
instinct regarded her clergyman as necessarily good and worthy, and her
ear heard Rachel railing at him; it sounded hard, but it was a pity Rachel
should be vexed and interfered with. In fact, she never thought of the
matter at all; it was only part of that outer kind of dreamy stage-play at
Avonmouth, in which she let herself be moved about at her cousin’s
bidding. One part of her life had passed away from her, and what remained
to her was among her children; her interests and intelligence seemed
contracted to Conrade’s horizon, and as to everything else, she was
subdued, gentle, obedient, but slow and obtuse.
Yet, little as he knew it, Mr. Touchett might have even asserted his
authority in a still more trying manner. If the gentle little widow had
not cast a halo round her relatives, he could have preached that sermon
upon the home-keeping duties of women, or have been too much offended to
accept any service from the Curtis family; and he could have done without
them, for he had a wide middle-class popularity; his manners with the
second-rate society, in which he had been bred, were just sufficiently
superior and flattering to recommend all his best points, and he obtained
plenty of subscriptions from visitors, and of co-operation from
inhabitants. Many a young lady was in a flutter at the approach of the
spruce little figure in black, and so many volunteers were there for
parish work, that districts and classes were divided and subdivided, till
it sometimes seemed as if the only difficulty was to find poor people
enough who would submit to serve as the corpus vile for their charitable
treatment.
For it was not a really poor population. The men were seafaring, the women
lacemaking, and just well enough off to make dissent doubly attractive as
an escape from some of the interfering almsgiving of the place.
Over-visiting, criticism of dress, and inquisitorial examinations had made
more than one Primitive Methodist, and no severe distress had been so
recent as to render the women tolerant of troublesome weekly inspections.
The Curtis sisters were, however, regarded as an exception; they were
viewed as real gentlefolks, not only by their own tenants, but by all who
were conscious of their hereditary claims to respect; they did not care
whether hair were long or short, and their benefits were more substantial
and reliable than could be looked for from the casual visitors and petty
gentry around, so that sundry houses that were forbidden ground to
district visitors, were ready to grant them a welcome.
One of these belonged to the most able lacemaker in the place, a
hard-working woman, who kept seven little pupils in a sort of cupboard
under the staircase, with a window into the back garden, “because,” said
she, “they did no work if they looked out into the front, there were so
many gapsies;” these gapsies consisting of the very scanty traffic of the
further end of Mackarel Lane. For ten hours a day did these children work
in a space just wide enough for them to sit, with the two least under the
slope of the stairs, permitted no distraction from their bobbins, but
invaded by their mistress on the faintest sound of tongues. Into this
hotbed of sprigs was admitted a child who had been a special favourite at
school, an orphan niece of the head of the establishment. The two brothers
had been lost together at sea; and while the one widow became noted for
her lace, the other, a stranger to the art, had maintained herself by
small millinery, and had not sacrificed her little girl to the Moloch of
lace, but had kept her at school to a later age than usual in the place.
But the mother died, and the orphan was at once adopted by the aunt, with
the resolve to act the truly kind part by her, and break her in to
lacemaking. That determination was a great blow to the school visitors;
the girls were in general so young, or so stupefied with their work, that
an intelligent girl like Lovedy Kelland was no small treasure to them;
there were designs of making her a pupil teacher in a few years, and
offers and remonstrances rained in upon her aunt. But they had no effect;
Mrs. Kelland was persuaded that the child had been spoilt by learning, and
in truth poor Lovedy was a refractory scholar; she was too lively to bear
the confinement patiently; her mind was too much awake not to rebel
against the dulness, and her fingers had not been brought into training
early enough. Her incessant tears spoilt her thread, and Mrs. Kelland
decided that “she’d never get her bread till she was broke of her buke;”
which breaking was attempted by a summary pawning of all poor Lovedy’s
reward books. The poor child confided her loss to her young lady teacher
at the Sunday school; the young lady, being new, young, and inflammable,
reproached Mrs. Kelland with dishonesty and tyranny to the orphan, and in
return was nearly frightened out of her wits by such a scolding as only
such a woman as the lace mistress could deliver. Then Mr. Touchett tried
his hand, and though he did not meet with quite so much violence, all he
heard was that she had “given Lovedy the stick for being such a little töd
as to complain, when she knew the money for the bukes was put safe away in
her money-box. She was not going to the Sunday schule again, not she, to
tell stories against her best friends!” And when the next district visitor
came that way, the door was shut in her face, with the tract thrown out at
the opening, and an intimation in Mrs. Kelland’s shrill voice, that no
more bukes were wanted; she got plenty from Miss Curtis.
These bukes from Miss Curtis were sanatory tracts, which Rachel was
constantly bestowing, and which on Sundays Mrs. Kelland spelt through,
with her finger under the line, in happy ignorance whether the subject
were temporal or spiritual, and feeling herself in the exemplary discharge
of a Sunday duty. Moreover, old feudal feeling made Rachel be unmolested
when she came down twice a week, opened the door of the blackhole under
the stairs, and read aloud something religious, something improving, and a
bit of a story, following it up by mental arithmetic and a lesson on
objects, which seemed to Mrs. Kelland the most arrant nonsense in the
world, and to her well-broken scholars was about as interesting as the
humming of a blue-bottle fly; but it was poor Lovedy’s one enjoyment,
though making such havoc of her work that it was always expiated by extra
hours, not on her pillow, but at it.
These visits of Rachel were considered to encourage the Kelland
refractoriness, and it was officially intimated that it would be wise to
discontinue them, and that “it was thought better” to withdraw from Mrs.
Kelland all that direct patronage of her trade, by which the ladies had
enabled her to be in some degree independent of the middle-men, who
absorbed so much of the profit from the workers. Grace and Rachel,
sufficiently old inhabitants to remember the terrible wreck that had left
her a struggling widow, felt this a hard, not to say a vindictive
decision. They had long been a kind of agent for disposing of her wares
at a distance; and, feeling that the woman had received provocation, Grace
was not disposed to give her up, while Rachel loudly averred that neither
Mr. Touchett nor any of his ladies had any right to interfere, and she
should take no notice.
“But,” said Grace, “can we run counter to our clergyman’s direct wishes?”
“Yes, when he steps out of his province. My dear Grace, you grew up in the
days of curatolatry, but it won’t do; men are fallible even when they
preach in a surplice, and you may be thankful to me that you and Fanny are
not both led along in a string in the train of Mr. Touchett’s devotees!”
“I wish I knew what was right to do,” said Grace, quietly, and she
remained wishing it after Rachel had said a great deal more; but the
upshot of it was, that one day when Grace and Fanny were walking together
on the esplanade, they met Mr. Touchett, and Grace said to him, “We have
been thinking it over, and we thought, perhaps, you would not wish us not
to give any orders to Mrs. Kelland. I know she has behaved very ill; but I
don’t see how she is to get on, and she has this child on her hands.”
“I know,” said Mr. Touchett, “but really it was flagrant.”
“Oh,” said Lady Temple, gently, “I dare say she didn’t mean it, and you
could not be hard on a widow.”
“Well,” said Mr. Touchett, “Miss Brown was very much put out, and—and—it
is a great pity about the child, but I never thought myself that such
strong measures would do any good.”
“Then you will not object to her being employed?”
“No, not at all. From a distance, it is not the same thing as close at
home; it won’t be an example.”
“Thank you,” said Grace; and “I am so glad,” said Lady Temple; and Mr.
Touchett went on his way, lightened of his fear of having let his zealous
coadjutors oppress the hard-working, and far more brightened by the sweet
smile of requital, but all the time doubtful whether he had been weak. As
to the victory, Rachel only laughed, and said, “If it made Grace more
comfortable, it was well, except for that acknowledgment of Mr. Touchett’s
jurisdiction.”
A few days after, Rachel made her appearance in Mackerel Lane, and
announced her intention of consulting Ermine Williams under seal of
secrecy. “I have an essay that I wish you to judge of before I send it to
the ‘Traveller.’”
“Indeed!” said Ermine, her colour rising. “Would it not be better—”
“Oh, I know what you mean, but don’t scruple on that score. At my age,
with a mother like mine, it is simply to avoid teasing and excitement that
I am silent.”
“I was going to say I was hardly a fair—”
“Because of your different opinions? But those go for nothing. You are a
worthy antagonist, and enter into my views as my mother and sister cannot
do, even while you oppose them.”
“But I don’t think I can help you, even if—”
“I don’t want help; I only want you to judge of the composition. In fact,
I read it to you that I may hear it myself.”
Ermine resigned herself.
“‘Curatolatry is a species—‘”
“I beg your pardon.”
“Curatolatry. Ah! I thought that would attract attention.”
“But I am afraid the scholars would fall foul of it.”
“Why, have not they just made Mariolatry?”
“Yes; but they are very severe on hybrids between Latin and Greek.”
“It is not worth while to boggle at trifles when one has an expressive
term,” said Rachel; “if it turns into English, that is all that is
wanted.”
“Would it not be rather a pity if it should turn into English? Might it
not be hard to brand with a contemptuous name what does more good than
harm?”
“That sickly mixture of flirtation and hero worship, with a religious daub
as a salve to the conscience.”
“Laugh it down, and what do you leave? In Miss Austen’s time silly girls
ran to balls after militiamen; now, if they run to schools and charities
more for the curate’s sake than they quite know, is not the alternative
better?”
“It is greater humbug,” said Rachel. “But I knew you would not agree, at
least beforehand, it is appreciation that I want.”
Never did Madame de Genlis make a cleverer hit than in the reading of the
Genius Phanor’s tragedy in the Palace of Truth. Comically absurd as the
inconsistency is of transporting the lecture of a Parisian academician
into an enchanted palace, full of genii and fairies of the remotest
possible connexion with the Arab jinn, the whole is redeemed by the truth
to nature of the sole dupe in the Palace of Truth being the author reading
his own works. Ermine was thinking of him all the time. She was under none
of the constraint of Phanor’s auditors, though she carried a perpetual
palace of truth about with her; she would not have had either fears or
compunctions in criticising, if she could. The paper was in the essay
style, between argument and sarcasm, something after the model of the
Invalid’s Letters; but it was scarcely lightly touched enough, the irony
was wormwood, the gravity heavy and sententious, and where there was a
just thought or happy hit, it seemed to travel in a road-waggon, and be
lost in the rumbling of the wheels. Ermine did not restrain a smile, half
of amusement, half of relief, at the self-antidote the paper contained;
but the smile passed with the authoress as a tribute to her satire.
“In this age,” she said, “we must use those lighter weapons of wit, or no
one will attend.”
“Perhaps,” said Ermine, “if I approve your object, I should tell you you
don’t use them lightly.”
“Ah! but I know you don’t approve it. You are not lay woman enough to be
impartial, and you belong to the age that was trying the experiment of the
hierarchy modified; I to that which has found it will not do. But at least
you understand my view; I have made out my case.”
“Yes, I understand your view; but—”
“You don’t sympathize. Of course not; but when it receives its full weight
from the printer’s bands, you will see that it will tell. That bit about
the weak tea fumes I thought of afterwards, and I am afraid I did not read
it well.”
“I remember it; but forgive me if I say first I think the whole is rather
too—too lengthy to take.”
“Oh, that is only because manuscript takes long to read aloud. I counted
the words, so I can’t be mistaken; at least I counted twenty lines, and
multiplied; and it is not so long as the Invalid’s last letter about
systematic reading.”
“And then comes my question again, Is good to come of it?”
“That I can’t expect you to see at this time; but it is to be the
beginning of a series, exposing the fallacies of woman’s life as at
present conducted; and out of these I mean to point the way to more
consistent, more independent, better combined exertion. If I can make
myself useful with my pen, it will compensate for the being debarred from
so many more obvious outlets. I should like to have as much influence over
people’s minds as that Invalid for instance, and by earnest effort I know
I shall attain it.”
“I—I—” half-laughing and blushing, “I hope you will, for I
know you would wish to use it for good; but, to speak plainly, I doubt
about the success of this effort, or—or if it ought to succeed.”
“Yes, I know you do,” said Rachel. “No one ever can judge of a manuscript.
You have done all I wished you to do, and I value your sincerity. Of
course I did not expect praise, since the more telling it is on the
opposite side, the less you could like it. I saw you appreciated it.”
And Rachel departed, while Rose crept up to her aunt, asking, “Aunt
Ermine, why do you look so very funny? It was very tiresome. Are not you
glad it is over?”
“I was thinking, Rose, what a difficult language plain English is
sometimes.”
“What, Miss Rachel’s? I couldn’t understand one bit of her long story,
except that she did not like weak tea.”
“It was my own that I meant,” said Ermine. “But, Rose, always remember
that a person who stands plain speaking from one like me has something
very noble and generous in her. Were you here all the time, Rosie? I don’t
wonder you were tired.”
“No, Aunt Ermine, I went and told Violetta and Augustus a fairy tale out
of my own head.”
“Indeed; and how did they like it?”
“Violetta looked at me all the time, and Augustus gave three winks, so I
think he liked it.”
“Appreciated it!” said Aunt Ermine.
CHAPTER IV. THE HERO.
“And which is Lucy’s? Can it be
That puny fop, armed cap-a-pie,
Who loves in the saloon to show
The arms that never knew a foe.”—SCOTT.
“My lady’s compliments, ma’am, and she would be much obliged if you would
remain till she comes home,” was Coombe’s reception of Alison. “She is
gone to Avoncester with Master Temple and Master Francis.”
“Gone to Avoncester!” exclaimed Rachel, who had walked from church to
Myrtlewood with Alison.
“Mamma is gone to meet the Major!” cried three of the lesser boys, rushing
upon them in full cry; then Leoline, facing round, “Not the major, he is
lieutenant-colonel now—Colonel Keith, hurrah!”
“What—what do you mean? Speak rationally, Leoline, if you can.”
“My lady sent a note to the Homestead this morning,” explained Coombe.
“She heard this morning that Colonel Keith intended to arrive to-day, and
took the young gentlemen with her to meet him.”
Rachel could hardly refrain from manifesting her displeasure, and bluntly
asked what time Lady Temple was likely to be at home.
“It depended,” Coombe said, “upon the train; it was not certain whether
Colonel Keith would come by the twelve or the two o’clock train.”
And Rachel was going to turn sharply round, and dash home with the
tidings, when Alison arrested her with the question—
“And who is Colonel Keith?”
Rachel was too much wrapped up in her own view to hear the trembling of
the voice, and answered, “Colonel Keith! why, the Major! You have not been
here so long without hearing of the Major?”
“Yes; but I did not know. Who is he?” And a more observant person would
have seen the governess’s gasping effort to veil her eagerness under her
wonted self-control.
“Don’t you know who the Major is?” shouted Leoline. “He is our military
secretary.”
“That’s the sum total of my knowledge,” said Rachel. “I don’t understand
his influence, nor know where he was picked up.”
“Nor his regiment?”
“He is not a regimental officer; he is on our staff,” said Leoline, whose
imagination could not attain to an earlier condition than “on our staff.”
“I shall go home, then,” said Rachel, “and see if there is any explanation
there.”
“I shall ask the Major not to let Aunt Rachel come here,” observed Hubert,
as she departed; it was well it was not before.
“Leoline,” anxiously asked Alison, “can you tell me the Major’s name?”
“Colonel Keith—Lieutenant-Colonel Keith,” was all the answer.
“I meant his Christian name, my dear.”
“Only little boys have Christian names!” they returned, and Alison was
forced to do her best to tame herself and them to the duties of the long
day of anticipation so joyous on their part, so full of confusion and
bewildered anxiety on her own. She looked in vain, half stealthily, as
often before, for a recent Army List or Peerage. Long ago she had lost the
Honourable Colin A. Keith from among the officers of the —th
Highlanders, and though in the last Peerage she had laid hands on he was
still among the surviving sons of the late Lord Keith, of Gowanbrae, the
date had not gone back far enough to establish that he had not died in the
Indian war. It was fear that predominated with her, there were many
moments when she would have given worlds to be secure that the newcomer
was not the man she thought of, who, whether constant or inconstant, could
bring nothing but pain and disturbance to the calm tenour of her sister’s
life. Everything was an oppression to her; the children, in their wild,
joyous spirits and gladsome inattention, tried her patience almost beyond
her powers; the charge of the younger ones in their mother’s absence was
burthensome, and the delay in returning to her sister became well-nigh
intolerable, when she figured to herself Rachel Curtis going down to
Ermine with the tidings of Colonel Keith’s arrival, and her own discontent
at his influence with her cousin. Would that she had spoken a word of
warning; yet that might have been merely mischievous, for the subject was
surely too delicate for Rachel to broach with so recent a friend. But
Rachel had bad taste for anything! That the little boys did not find Miss
Williams very cross that day was an effect of the long habit of
self-control, and she could hardly sit still under the additional fret,
when, just as tea was spread for the school-room party, in walked Miss
Rachel, and sat herself down, in spite of Hubert, who made up a most
coaxing, entreating face, as he said, “Please, Aunt Rachel, doesn’t Aunt
Grace want you very much?”
“Not at all. Why, Hubert?”
“Oh, if you would only go away, and not spoil our fun when the Major
comes.”
For once Rachel did laugh, but she did not take the hint, and Alison
obtained only the satisfaction of hearing that she had at least not been
in Mackarel Lane. The wheels sounded on the gravel, out rushed the boys;
Alison and Rachel sat in strange, absolute silence, each forgetful of the
other, neither guarding her own looks, nor remarking her companion’s.
Alison’s lips were parted by intense listening; Rachel’s teeth were set to
receive her enemy. There was a chorus of voices in the hall, and something
about tea and coming in warned both to gather up their looks before Lady
Temple had opened the door, and brought in upon them not one foe, but two!
Was Rachel seeing double? Hardly that, for one was tall, bald, and
bearded, not dangerously young, but on that very account the more
dangerously good-looking; and the other was almost a boy, slim and light,
just of the empty young officer type. Here, too, was Fanny, flushed,
excited, prettier and brighter than Rachel had seen her at all, waving an
introduction with head and hand; and the boys hanging round the Major with
deafening exclamations of welcome, in which they were speedily joined by
the nursery detachment. Those greetings, those observations on growth and
looks, those glad, eager questions and answers, were like the welcome of
an integral part of the family; it was far more intimate and familiar than
had been possible with the Curtises after the long separation, and it was
enough to have made the two spectators feel out of place, if such a
sensation had been within Rachel’s capacity, or if Alison had not been
engaged with the tea. Lady Temple made a few explanations, sotto voce, to
Alison, whom she always treated as though in dread of not being
sufficiently considerate. “I do hope the children have been good; I knew
you would not mind; I could not wait to see you, or I should have been too
late to meet the train, and then he would have come by the coach; and it
is such a raw east wind. He must be careful in this climate.”
“How warm and sunshiny it has been all day,” said Rachel, by way of
opposition to some distant echo of this whisper.
“Sunshiny, but treacherous,” answered Colonel Keith; “there are cold gusts
round corners. This must be a very sheltered nook of the coast.”
“Quite a different zone from Avoncester,” said the youth.
“Yes, delightful. I told you it was just what would suit you,” added
Fanny, to the colonel.
“Some winds are very cold here,” interposed Rachel. “I always pity people
who are imposed upon to think it a Mentone near home. They are choking our
churchyard.”
“Very inconsiderate of them,” muttered the young man.
“But what made you come home so late, Fanny?” said Rachel.
Alison suspected a slight look of wonder on the part of both the officers
at hearing their general’s wife thus called to account; but Fanny, taking
it as a matter of course, answered, “We found that the-th was at
Avoncester. I had no idea of it, and they did not know I was here; so I
went to call upon Mrs. Hammond, and Colonel Keith went to look for Alick,
and we have brought him home to dine.”
Fanny took it for granted that Rachel must know who Alick was, but she was
far from doing so, though she remembered that the —th had been her
uncle’s regiment, and had been under Sir Stephen Temple’s command in India
at the time of the mutiny. The thought of Fanny’s lapsing into military
society was shocking to her. The boys were vociferating about boats,
ponies, and all that had been deferred till the Major’s arrival, and he
was answering them kindly, but hushing the extra outcry less by word than
sign; and his own lowered voice and polished manner—a manner that
excessively chafed her as a sort of insult to the blunt, rapid ways that
she considered as sincere and unaffected, a silkiness that no doubt had
worked on the honest, simple general, as it was now working on the weak
young widow. Anything was better than leaving her to such influence, and
in pursuance of the intention that Rachel had already announced at home,
she invited herself to stay to dinner; and Fanny eagerly thanked her, for
making it a little less dull for Colonel Keith and Alick. It was so good
to come down and help. Certainly Fanny was an innocent creature, provided
she was not spoilt, and it was a duty to guard her innocence.
Alison Williams escaped to her home, sure of nothing but that her sister
must not be allowed to share her uncertainties; and Lady Temple and her
guests sat down to dinner. Rachel meant to have sat at the bottom and
carved, as belonging to the house; but Fanny motioned the Colonel to the
place, observing, “It is so natural to see you there! One only wants poor
Captain Dent at the other end. Do you know whether he has his leave?”
Wherewith commenced a discussion of military friends—who had been
heard of from Australia, who had been met in England, who was promoted,
who married, who retired, &c., and all the quarters of the-th since
its return from India two years ago; Fanny eagerly asking questions and
making remarks, quite at home and all animation, absolutely a different
being from the subdued, meek little creature that Rachel had hitherto
seen. Attempts were made to include Miss Curtis in the conversation by
addressing anecdotes to her, and asking if she knew the places named; but
she had been to none, and the three old friends quickly fell into the
swing of talk about what interested them. Once, however, she came down on
them with, “What conclusion have you formed upon female emigration?”
“‘His sister she went beyond the seas,
And died an old maid among black savagees.’
“That’s the most remarkable instance of female emigration on record, isn’t
it?” observed Alick.
“What; her dying an old maid?” said Colonel Keith. “I am not sure.
Wholesale exportations of wives are spoiling the market.”
“I did not mean marriage,” said Rachel, stoutly. “I am particularly
anxious to know whether there is a field open to independent female
labour.”
“All the superior young women seemed to turn nurserymaids,” said the
Colonel.
“Oh,” interposed Fanny, “do you remember that nice girl of ours who would
marry that Orderly-Sergeant O’Donoghoe? I have had a letter from her in
such distress.”
“Of course, the natural termination,” said Alick, in his lazy voice.
“And I thought you would tell me how to manage sending her some help,”
proceeded Fanny.
“I could have helped you, Fanny. Won’t an order do it?”
“Not quite,” said Fanny, a shade of a smile playing on her lip. “It is
whether to send it through one of the officers or not. If Captain Lee is
with the regiment, I know he would take care of it for her.”
So they plunged into another regiment, and Rachel decided that nothing was
so wearisome as to hear triflers talk shop.
There was no opportunity of calling Fanny to order after dinner, for she
went off on her progress to all the seven cribs, and was only just
returning from them when the gentlemen came in, and then she made room for
the younger beside her on the sofa, saying, “Now, Alick, I do so want to
hear about poor, dear little Bessie;” and they began so low and
confidentially, that Rachel wondered if her alarms were to be transfered
from the bearded colonel to the dapper boy, or if, in very truth, she must
deem poor Fanny a general coquette. Besides, a man must be contemptible
who wore gloves at so small a party, when she did not.
She had been whiling away the time of Fanny’s absence by looking over the
books on the table, and she did not regard the present company
sufficiently to desist on their account. Colonel Keith began to turn over
some numbers of the “Traveller” that lay near him, and presently looked
up, and said, “Do you know who is the writer of this?”
“What is it? Ah! one of the Invalid’s essays. They strike every one; but I
fancy the authorship is a great secret.”
“You do not know it?”
“No, I wish I did. Which of them are you reading? ‘Country Walks.’ That is
not one that I care about, it is a mere hash of old recollections; but
there are some very sensible and superior ones, so that I have heard it
sometimes doubted whether they are man’s or woman’s writing. For my part,
I think them too earnest to be a man’s; men always play with their
subject.”
“Oh, yes,” said Fanny, “I am sure only a lady could have written anything
so sweet as that about flowers in a sick-room; it so put me in mind of the
lovely flowers you used to bring me one at a time, when I was ill at Cape
Town.”
There was no more sense to be had after those three once fell upon their
reminiscences.
That night, after having betrayed her wakefulness by a movement in her
bed, Alison Williams heard her sister’s voice, low and steady, saying,
“Ailie, dear, be it what it may, guessing is worse than certainty.”
“Oh, Ermine, I hoped—I know nothing—I have nothing to tell.”
“You dread something,” said Ermine; “you have been striving for unconcern
all the evening, my poor dear, but surely you know, Ailie, that nothing is
so bad while we share it.”
“And I have frightened you about nothing.”
“Nothing! nothing about Edward?”
“Oh, no, no!”
“And no one has made you uncomfortable?”
“No.”
“Then there is only one thing that it can be, Ailie, and you need not fear
to tell me that. I always knew that if he lived I must be prepared for it,
and you would not have hesitated to tell me of his death.”
“It is not that, indeed it is not, Ermine, it is only this—that I
found to-day that Lady Temple’s major has the same name.”
“But you said she was come home. You must have seen him.”
“Yes, but I should not know him. I had only seen him once, remember,
twelve years ago, and when I durst not look at him.”
“At least,” said Ermine, quickly, “you can tell me what you saw to-day.”
“A Scotch face, bald head, dark beard, grizzled hair.”
“Yes I am grey, and he was five years older; but he used not to have a
Scotch face. Can you tell me about his eyes?”
“Dark, I think.”
“They were very dark blue, almost black. Time and climate must have left
them alone. You may know him by those eyes, Ailie. And you could not make
out anything about him?”
“No, not even his Christian name nor his regiment. I had only the little
ones and Miss Rachel to ask, and they knew nothing. I wanted to keep this
from you till I was sure, but you always find me out.”
“Do you think I couldn’t see the misery you were in all the evening, poor
child? But now you have had it out, sleep, and don’t be distressed.”
“But, Ermine, if you—”
“My dear, I am thankful that nothing is amiss with you or Edward. For the
rest, there is nothing but patience. Now, not another word; you must not
lose your sleep, nor take away my chance of any.”
How much the sisters slept they did not confide to one another, but when
they rose, Alison shook her head at her sister’s heavy eyelids, and Ermine
retorted with a reproachful smile at certain dark tokens of sleeplessness
under Alison’s eyes.
“No, not the flowered flimsiness, please,” she said, in the course of her
toilette, “let me have the respectable grey silk.” And next she asked for
a drawer, whence she chose a little Nuremberg horn brooch for her neck. “I
know it is very silly,” she said, “but I can’t quite help it. Only one
question, Ailie, that I thought of too late. Did he hear your name?”
“I think not, Lady Temple named nobody. But why did you not ask me last
night?”
“I thought beginning to talk again would destroy your chance of sleep, and
we had resolved to stop.”
“And, Ermine, if it be, what shall I do?”
“Do as you feel right at the moment,” said Ermine, after a moment’s pause.
“I cannot tell how it may be. I have been thinking over what you told me
about the Major and Lady Temple.”
“Oh, Ermine, what a reproof this is for that bit of gossip.”
“Not at all, my dear, the warning may be all the better for me,” said
Ermine, with a voice less steady than her words. “It is not what, under
the circumstances, I could think likely in the Colin whom I knew; but were
it indeed so, then, Ailie, you had better say nothing about me, unless he
found you out. We would get employment elsewhere.”
“And I must leave you to the suspense all day.”
“Much better so. The worst thing we could do would be to go on talking
about it. It is far better for me to be left with my dear little
unconscious companion.”
Alison tried to comfort herself with this belief through the long hours of
the morning, during which she only heard that mamma and Colonel Keith were
gone to the Homestead, and she saw no one till she came forth with her
troop to the midday meal.
And there, at sight of Lady Temple’s content and calm, satisfied look, as
though she were once more in an accustomed atmosphere, and felt herself
and the boys protected, and of the Colonel’s courteous attention to her
and affectionate authority towards her sons, it was an absolute pang to
recognise the hue of eye described by Ermine; but still Alison tried to
think them generic Keith eyes, till at length, amid the merry chatter of
her pupils, came an appeal to “Miss Williams,” and then came a look that
thrilled through her, the same glance that she had met for one terrible
moment twelve years before, and renewing the same longing to shrink from
all sight or sound. How she kept her seat and continued to attend to the
children she never knew, but the voices sounded like a distant Babel; and
she did not know whether she were most relieved, disappointed, or
indignant when she left the dining-room to take the boys for their walk.
Oh, that Ermine could be hid from all knowledge of what would be so much
harder to bear than the death in which she had long believed!
Harder to bear? Yes, Ermine had already been passing through a heart
sickness that made the morning like an age. Her resolute will had
struggled hard for composure, cheerfulness, and occupation; but the little
watchful niece had seen through the endeavour, and had made her own to the
sleepless night and the headache. The usual remedy was a drive in a
wheeled chair, and Rose was so urgent to be allowed to go and order one,
that Ermine at last yielded, partly because she had hardly energy enough
to turn her refusal graciously, partly because she would not feel herself
staying at home for the vague hope and when the child was out of sight,
she had the comfort of clasping her hands, and ceasing to restrain her
countenance, while she murmured, “Oh, Colin, Colin, are you what you were
twelve years back? Is this all dream, all delusion, and waste of feeling,
while you are lying in your Indian grave, more mine than you can ever be
living be as it may,—
“‘Calm me, my God, and keep me calm
While these hot breezes blow;
Be like the night dew’s cooling balm
Upon earth’s fevered brow.
Calm me, my God, and keep me calm,
Soft resting on Thy breast;
Soothe me with holy hymn and psalm,
And bid my spirit rest.’”
CHAPTER V. MILITARY SOCIETY.
“My trust
Like a good parent did beget of him
A falsehood in its contrary as great
As my trust was, which had indeed no limit.”—TEMPEST.
Rose found the wheeled chair, to which her aunt gave the preference, was
engaged, and shaking her little discreet head at “the shakey chair” and
“the stuffy chair,” she turned pensively homeward, and was speeding down
Mackarel Lane, when she was stayed by the words, “My little girl!” and the
grandest and most bearded gentleman she had ever seen, demanded, “Can you
tell me if Miss Williams lives here?”
“My aunt?” exclaimed Rose, gazing up with her pretty, frightened-fawn
look.
“Indeed!” he exclaimed, looking eagerly at her, “then you are the child of
a very old friend of mine! Did you never hear him speak of his old
school-fellow, Colin Keith?”
“Papa is away,” said Rose, turning back her neck to get a full view of his
face from under the brim of her hat.
“Will you run on and ask your aunt if she would like to see me?” he
added.
Thus it was that Ermine heard the quick patter of the child’s steps,
followed by the manly tread, and the words sounded in her ears, “Aunt
Ermine, there’s a gentleman, and he has a great beard, and he says he is
papa’s old friend! And here he is.”
Ermine’s beaming eyes as absolutely met the new comer as though she had
sprung forward. “I thought you would come,” she said, in a voice serene
with exceeding bliss.
“I have found you at last,” as their hands clasped; and they gazed into
each other’s faces in the untroubled repose of the meeting, exclusive of
all else.
Ermine was the first to break silence. “Oh, Colin, you look worn and
altered.”
“You don’t; you have kept your sunbeam face for me with the dear brown
glow I never thought to have seen again. Why did they tell me you were an
invalid, Ermine?”
“Have you not seen Alison?” she asked, supposing he would have known all.
“I saw her, but did not hear her name, till just now at luncheon, when our
looks met, and I saw it was not another disappointment.”
“And she knows you are come to me?”
“It was not in me to speak to her till I had recovered you! One can
forgive, but not forget.”
“You will do more when you know her, and how she has only lived and worked
for me, dear Ailie, and suffered far more than I—”
“While I was suffering from being unable to do anything but live for you,”
he repeated, taking up her words; “but that is ended now—” and as
she made a negative motion of her head, “have you not trusted to me?”
“I have thought you not living,” she said; “the last I know was your
letter to dear Lady Alison, written from the hospital at Cape Town, after
your wound. She was ill even when it came, and she could only give it to
Ailie for me.”
“Dear good aunt, she got into trouble with all the family for our sake;
and when she was gone no one would give me any tidings of you.”
“It was her last disappointment that you were not sent home on sick leave.
Did you get well too fast?”
“Not exactly; but my father, or rather, I believe, my brother, intimated
that I should be welcome only if I had laid aside a certain foolish fancy,
and as lying on my back had not conduced to that end, I could only say I
would stay where I was.”
“And was it worse for you? I am sure, in spite of all that tanned skin,
that your health has suffered. Ought you to have come home?”
“No, I do not know that London surgeons could have got at the ball,” he
said, putting his hand on his chest, “and it gives me no trouble in
general. I was such a spectacle when I returned to duty, that good old Sir
Stephen Temple, always a proverb for making his staff a refuge for the
infirm, made me his aide-de-camp, and was like a father to me.”
“Now I see why I never could find your name in any list of the officers in
the moves of the regiment! I gave you quite up when I saw no Keith among
those that came home from India. I did believe then that you were the
Colonel Alexander Keith whose death I had seen mentioned, though I had
long trusted to his not being honourable, nor having your first name.”
“Ah! he succeeded to the command after Lady Temple’s father. A kind friend
to me he was, and he left me in charge of his son and daughter. A very
good and gallant fellow is that young Alick. I must bring him to see you
some day—”
“Oh! I saw his name; I remember! I gloried in the doings of a Keith; but I
was afraid he had died, as there was no such name with the regiment when
it came home.”
“No, he was almost shattered to pieces; but Sir Stephen sent him up the
hills to be nursed by Lady Temple and her mother, and he was sent home as
soon as he could be moved. I was astonished to see how entirely he had
recovered.”
“Then you went through all that Indian war?”
“Yes; with Sir Stephen.”
“You must show me all your medals! How much you have to tell me! And then—?”
“Just when the regiment was coming home, my dear old chief was appointed
to the command in Australia, and insisted on my coming with him as
military secretary. He had come to depend on me so much that I could not
well leave him; and in five years there was the way to promotion and to
claiming you at once. We were just settled there, when what I heard made
me long to have decided otherwise, but I could not break with him then. I
wrote to Edward, but had my letter returned to me.”
“No wonder; Edward was abroad, all connexion broken.”
“I wrote to Beauchamp, and he knew nothing, and I could only wait till my
chief’s time should be up. You know how it was cut short, and how the care
of the poor little widow detained me till she was fit for the voyage. I
came and sought you in vain in town. I went home, and found my brother
lonely and dispirited. He has lost his son, his daughters are married, and
he and I are all the brothers left out of the six! He was urgent that I
should come and live with him and marry. I told him I would, with all my
heart, when I had found you, and he saw I was too much in earnest to be
opposed. Then I went to Beauchamp, but Harry knew nothing about any one. I
tried to find out your sister and Dr. Long, but heard they were gone to
Belfast.”
“Yes, they lost a good deal in the crash, and did not like retrenching
among their neighbours; so they went to Ireland, and there they have a
flourishing practice.”
“I thought myself on my way there,” he said, smiling; “only I had first to
settle Lady Temple, little guessing who was her treasure of a governess!
Last night I had nearly opened on another false scent; I fell in with a
description that I could have sworn was yours, of the heather behind the
parsonage. I made a note of the publisher in case all else had failed.”
“I’m glad you knew the scent of the thyme!”
“Then it was no false scent?”
“One must live, and I was thankful to do anything to lighten Ailie’s
burthen. I wrote down that description that I might live in the place in
fancy; and one day, when the contribution was wanted and I was hard up for
ideas, I sent it, though I was loth to lay open that bit of home and
heart.”
“Well it might give me the sense of meeting you! And in other papers of
the series I traced your old self more ripened.”
“The editor was a friend of Edward’s, and in our London days he asked me
to write letters on things in general, and when I said I saw the world
through a key-hole, he answered that a circumscribed view gained in
distinctness. Most kind and helpful he has been, and what began between
sport and need to say out one’s mind has come to be a resource for which
we are very thankful. He sends us books for reviewal, and that is pleasant
and improving, not to say profitable.”
“Little did I think you were in such straits!” he said, stroking the
child’s head, and waiting as though her presence were a restraint on
inquiries, but she eagerly availed herself of the pause. “Aunt Ermine,
please what shall I say about the chairs? Will you have the nice one and
Billy when they come home? I was to take the answer, only you did talk so
that I could not ask!”
“Thank you, my dear; I don’t want chairs nor anything else while I can
talk so,” she answered, smiling. “You had better take a run in the garden
when you come back;” and Rose replied with a nod of assent that made the
colonel smile and say, “Good-bye then, my sweet Lady Discretion, some day
we will be better acquainted.”
“Dear child,” said Ermine, “she is our great blessing, and some day I
trust will be the same to her dear father. Oh, Colin! it is too much to
hope that you have not believed what you must have heard! And yet you
wrote to him.”
“Nay, I could not but feel great distrust of what I heard, since I was
also told that his sisters were unconvinced; and besides, I had
continually seen him at school the victim of other people’s faults.”
“This is best of all,” exclaimed Ermine, with glistening eyes, and hand
laid upon his; “it is the most comfortable word I have heard since it
happened. Yes, indeed, many a time before I saw you, had I heard of
‘Keith’ as the friend who saw him righted. Oh, Colin! thanks, thanks for
believing in him more than for all!”
“Not believing, but knowing,” he answered—“knowing both you and
Edward. Besides, is it not almost invariable that the inventor is ruined
by his invention—a Prospero by nature?”
“It was not the invention,” she answered; “that throve as long as my
father lived.”
“Yes, he was an excellent man of business.”
“And he thought the concern so secure that there was no danger in
embarking all the available capital of the family in it, and it did bring
us in a very good income.”
“I remember that it struck me that the people at home would find that they
had made a mistake after all, and missed a fortune for me! It was an
invention for diminishing the fragility of glass under heat; was it not?”
“Yes, and the manufacture was very prosperous, so that my father was quite
at ease about us. After his death we made a home for Edward in London, and
looked after him when he used to be smitten with some new idea and forgot
all sublunary matters. When he married we went to live at Richmond, and
had his dear little wife very much with us, for she was a delicate tender
creature, half killed by London. In process of time he fell in with a man
named Maddox, plausible and clever, who became a sort of manager,
especially while Edward was in his trances of invention; and at all times
knew more about his accounts than he did himself. Nothing but my father’s
authority had ever made him really look into them, and this man took them
all off his hands. There was a matter about the glass that Edward was bent
on ascertaining, and he went to study the manufacture in Bohemia, taking
his wife with him, and leaving Rose with us. Shortly after, Dr. Long and
Harry Beauchamp received letters asking for a considerable advance, to be
laid out on the materials that this improvement would require. Immediately
afterwards came the crash.”
“Exactly what I heard. Of course the letters were written in ignorance of
what was impending.”
“Colin, they were never written at all by Edward! He denied all knowledge
of them. Alison saw Dr. Long’s, most ingeniously managed—foreign
paper and all—but she could swear to the forgery—”
“You suspect this Maddox?”
“Most strongly! He knew the state of the business; Edward did not. And he
had a correspondence that would have enabled so ingenious a person easily
to imitate Edward’s letters. I do not wonder at their having been taken
in; but how Julia—how Harry Beauchamp could believe—what they
do believe. Oh, Colin! it will not do to think about it!”
“Oh, that I had been at home! Were no measures taken?”
“Alas! alas! we urged Edward to come home and clear himself; but that poor
little wife of his was terrified beyond measure, imagined prisons and
trials. She was unable to move, and he could not leave her; she took from
him an unhappy promise not to put himself in what she fancied danger from
the law, and then died, leaving him a baby that did not live a day. He was
too broken-hearted to care for vindicating himself, and no one-no one
would do it for him!”
Colonel Keith frowned and clenched the hand that lay in his grasp till it
was absolute pain, but pain that was a relief to feel. “Madness, madness!”
he said. “Miserable! But how was it at home—? Did this Maddox stand
his ground?”
“Yes, if he had fled, all would have been clear, but he doctored the
accounts his own way, and quite satisfied Dr. Long and Harry. He showed
Edward’s receipt for the £600 that had been advanced, and besides, there
was a large sum not accounted for, which was, of course, supposed to have
been invested abroad by Edward—some said gambled away—as if he
had not had a regular hatred of all sorts of games.”
“Edward with his head in the clouds! One notion is as likely as the other.—Then
absolutely nothing was done!”
“Nothing! The bankruptcy was declared, the whole affair broken up; and
certainly if every one had not known Edward to be the most heedless of
men, the confusion would have justified them in thinking him a dishonest
one. Things had been done in his name by Maddox that might have made a
stranger think him guilty of the rest, but to those who had ever known his
abstraction, and far more his real honour and uprightness, nothing could
have been plainer.”
“It all turned upon his absence.”
“Yes, he must have borne the brunt of what had been done in his name, I
know; that would have been bad enough; but in a court of justice, his
whole character would have been shown, and besides, a prosecution for
forgery of his receipt would have shown what Maddox was, sufficiently to
exculpate him.”
“And you say the losers by the deception would not believe in it?”
“No, they only shook their heads at our weak sisterly affection.”
“I wish I could see one of those letters. Where is Maddox now?”
“I cannot tell. He certainly did not go away immediately after the
settlement of accounts, but it has not been possible to us to keep up a
knowledge of his movements, or something might have turned up to justify
Edward. Oh, what it is to be helpless women! You are the very first
person, Colin, who has not looked at me pityingly, like a creature to be
forborne with an undeniable delusion!”
“They must be very insolent people, then, to look at that brow and eyes,
and think even sisterly love could blind them,” he said. “Yes, Ermine, I
was certain that unless Edward were more changed than I could believe,
there must be some such explanation. You have never seen him since?”
“No; he was too utterly broken by the loss of his wife to feel anything
else. For a long time we heard nothing, and that was the most dreadful
time of all! Then he wrote from a little German town, where he was getting
his bread as a photographer’s assistant. And since that he has cast about
the world, till just now he has some rather interesting employment at the
mines in the Oural Mountains, the first thing he has really seemed to like
or care for.”
“The Oural Mountains! that is out of reach. I wish I could see him. One
might find some means of clearing him. What directed your suspicion to
Maddox?”
“Chiefly that the letters professed to have been sent in a parcel to him
to be posted from the office. If it had been so, Edward and Lucy would
certainly have written to us at the same time. I could have shown, too,
that Maddox had written to me the day before to ascertain where Edward
was, so as to be sure of the date. It was a little country village, and I
made a blunder in copying the spelling from Lucy’s writing. Ailie found
that very blunder repeated in Dr. Long’s letter, and we showed him that
Edward did not write it so. Besides, before going abroad, Edward had lost
the seal-ring with his crest, which you gave him. You remember the Saxon’s
head?”
“I remember! You all took it much to heart that the engraver had made it a
Saracen’s head, and not a long-haired Saxon.”
“Well, Edward had renewed the ring, and taken care to make it a Saxon. Now
Ailie could get no one to believe her, but she is certain that the letter
was sealed with the old Saracen not the new Saxon. But—but—if
you had but been there—”
“Tell me you wished for me, Ermine.”
“I durst not wish anything about you,” she said, looking up through a mist
of tears.
“And you, what fixed you here?”
“An old servant of ours had married and settled here, and had written to
us of her satisfaction in finding that the clergyman was from Hereford. We
thought he would recommend Ailie as daily governess to visitors, and that
Sarah would be a comfortable landlady. It has answered very well; Rose
deserves her name far more than when we brought her here, and it is
wonderful how much better I have been since doctors have become a mere
luxury.”
“Do you, can you really mean that you are supporting yourselves?”
“All but twenty-five pounds a year, from a legacy to us, that Mr.
Beauchamp would not let them touch. But it has been most remarkable,
Colin,” she said, with the dew in her eyes, “how we have never wanted our
daily bread, and how happy we have been! If it had not been for Edward,
this would in many ways have been our happiest time. Since the old days
the little frets have told less, and Ailie has been infinitely happier and
brighter since she has had to work instead of only to watch me. Ah, Colin,
must I not own to having been happy? Indeed it was very much because peace
had come when the suspense had sunk into belief that I might think of you
as—, where you would not be grieved by the sight of what I am now—”
As she spoke, a knock, not at the house, but at the room door, made them
both start, and impel their chairs to a more ordinary distance, just as
Rachel Curtis made her entrance, extremely amazed to find, not Mr.
Touchett, but a much greater foe and rival in that unexpected quarter.
Ermine, the least disconcerted, was the first to speak. “You are surprised
to find a visitor here,” she said, “and indeed only now, did we find out
that ‘our military secretary,’ as your little cousins say, was our dear
old squire’s nephew.”
There was a ring of gladness in the usually patient voice that struck even
Rachel, though she was usually too eager to be observant, but she was
still unready with talk for the occasion, and Ermine continued: “We had
heard so much of the Major before-hand, that we had a sort of Jupiter-like
expectation of the coming man. I am not sure that I shall not go on
expecting a mythic major!”
Rachel, never understanding playfulness, thought this both audacious and
unnecessary, and if it had come from any one else, would have administered
a snub, but she felt the invalid sacred from her weapons.
“Have you ever seen the boys?” asked Colonel Keith. “I am rather proud of
Conrade, my pupil; he is so chivalrous towards his mother.”
“Alison has brought down a division or two to show me. How much alike they
are.”
“Exactly alike, and excessively unruly and unmanageable,” said Rachel. “I
pity your sister.”
“More unmanageable in appearance than in reality,” said the colonel:
“there’s always a little trial of strength against the hand over them, and
they yield when they find it is really a hand. They were wonderfully good
and considerate when it was an object to keep the house quiet.”
Rachel would not encourage him to talk of Lady Temple, so she turned to
Ermine on the business that had brought her, collecting and adapting old
clothes for emigrants.—It was not exactly gentlemen’s pastime, and
Ermine tried to put it aside and converse, but Rachel never permitted any
petty consideration to interfere with a useful design, and as there was a
press of time for the things, she felt herself justified in driving the
intruder off the field and outstaying him. She succeeded; he recollected
the desire of the boys that he should take them to inspect the pony at the
“Jolly Mariner,” and took leave with—“I shall see you to-morrow.”
“You knew him all the time!” exclaimed Rachel, pausing in her unfolding of
the Master Temples’ ship wardrobe. “Why did you not say so?”
“We did not know his name. He was always the ‘Major.’”
“Who, and what is he?” demanded Rachel, as she knelt before her victim,
fixing those great prominent eyes, so like those of Red Riding Hood’s
grandmother, that Ermine involuntarily gave a backward impulse to her
wheeled chair, as she answered the readiest thing that occurred to her,—“He
is brother to Lord Keith of Gowan-brae.”
“Oh,” said Rachel, kneeling on meditatively, “that accounts for it. So
much the worse. The staff is made up of idle honourables.”
“Quoth the ‘Times!’” replied Ermine; “but his appointment began on account
of a wound, and went on because of his usefulness—”
“Wounded! I don’t like wounded heroes,” said Rachel; “people make such a
fuss with them that they always get spoilt.”
“This was nine years ago, so you may forget it if you like,” said Ermine,
diversion suppressing displeasure.
“And what is your opinion of him?” said Rachel, edging forward on her
knees, so as to bring her inquisitorial eyes to bear more fully.
“I had not seen him for twelve years,” said Ermine, rather faintly.
“He must have had a formed character when you saw him last. The twelve
years before five-and-forty don’t alter the nature.”
“Five-and-forty! Illness and climate have told; but I did not think it was
so much. He is only thirty-six—”
“That is not what I care about,” said Rachel; “you are both of you so
cautious that you tell me what amounts to nothing! You should consider how
important it is to me to know something about the person in whose power my
cousin’s affairs are left.”
“Have you not sufficient guarantee in the very fact of her husband’s
confidence?”
“I don’t know. A simple-hearted old soldier always means a very foolish
old man.”
“Witness the Newcomes,” said Ermine, who, besides her usual amusement in
tracing Rachel’s dicta to their source, could only keep in her indignation
by laughing.
“General observation,” said Rachel, not to be turned from her purpose. “I
am not foolishly suspicious, but it is not pleasant to see great influence
and intimacy without some knowledge of the person exercising it.”
“I think,” said Ermine, bringing herself with difficulty to answer
quietly, “that you can hardly understand the terms they are on without
having seen how much a staff officer becomes one of the family.”
“I suppose much must be allowed for the frivolity and narrowness of a
military set in a colony. Imagine my one attempt at rational conversation
last night. Asking his views on female emigration, absolutely he had none
at all; he and Fanny only went off upon a nursemaid married to a
sergeant!”
“Perhaps the bearings of the question would hardly suit mixed company.”
“To be sure there was a conceited young officer there; for as ill luck
will have it, my uncle’s old regiment is quartered at Avoncester, and I
suppose they will all be coming after Fanny. It is well they are no
nearer, and as this colonel says he is going to Belfast in a day or two,
there will not be much provocation to them to come here. Now this great
event of the Major’s coming is over, we will try to put Fanny upon a
definite system, and I look to you and your sister as a great assistance
to me, in counteracting the follies and nonsenses that her situation
naturally exposes her to. I have been writing a little sketch of the
dangers of indecision, that I thought of sending to the ‘Traveller.’ It
would strike Fanny to see there what I so often tell her; but I can’t get
an answer about my paper on ‘Curatocult,’ as you made me call it.”
“Did I!”
“You said the other word was of two languages. I can’t think why they
don’t insert it; but in the meantime I will bring down my ‘Human Reeds,’
and show them to you. I have only an hour’s work on them; so I’ll come
to-morrow afternoon.”
“I think Colonel Keith talked of calling again—thank you,” suggested
Ermine in despair.
“Ah, yes, one does not want to be liable to interruptions in the most
interesting part. When he is gone to Belfast—”
“Yes, when he is gone to Belfast!” repeated Ermine, with an irresistible
gleam of mirth about her lips and eyes, and at that moment Alison made her
appearance. The looks of the sisters met, and read one another so far as
to know that the meeting was over, and for the rest they endured, while
Rachel remained, little imagining the trial her presence had been to
Alison’s burning heart—sick anxiety and doubt. How could it be well?
Let him be loveable, let him be constant, that only rendered Ermine’s
condition the more pitiable, and the shining glance of her eyes was almost
more than Alison could bear. So happy as the sisters had been together, so
absolutely united, it did seem hard to disturb that calm life with hopes
and agitations that must needs be futile; and Alison, whose whole life and
soul were in her sister, could not without a pang see that sister’s heart
belonging to another, and not for hopeful joy, but pain and grief. The
yearning of jealousy was sternly reproved and forced down, and told that
Ermine had long been Colin Keith’s, that the perpetrator of the evil had
the least right of any one to murmur that her own monopoly of her sister
was interfered with; that she was selfish, unkind, envious; that she had
only to hate herself and pray for strength to bear the punishment, without
alloying Ermine’s happiness while it lasted. How it could be so bright
Alison knew not, but so it was she recognised by every tone of the voice,
by every smile on the lip, by even the upright vigour with which Ermine
sat in her chair and undertook Rachel’s tasks of needlework.
And yet, when the visitor rose at last to go, Alison was almost unwilling
to be alone with her sister, and have that power of sympathy put to the
test by those clear eyes that were wont to see her through and through.
She went with Rachel to the door, and stood taking a last instruction,
hearing it not at all, but answering, and relieved by the delay, hardly
knowing whether to be glad or not that when she returned Rose was leaning
on the arm of her aunt’s chair with the most eager face. But Rose was to
be no protection, for what was passing between her and her aunt?
“O auntie, I am so glad he is coming back. He is just like the picture you
drew of Robert Bruce for me. And he is so kind. I never saw any gentleman
speak to you in such: a nice soft voice.”
Alison had no difficulty in smiling as Ermine stroked the child’s hair,
kissed her, and looked up with an arch, blushing, glittering face that
could not have been brighter those long twelve years ago.
And then Rose turned round, impatient to tell her other aunt her story. “O
aunt Ailie, we have had such a gentleman here, with a great brown beard
like a picture. And he is papa’s old friend, and kissed me because I am
papa’s little girl, and I do like him so very much. I went where I could
look at him in the garden, when you sent me out, aunt Ermine.”
“You did, you monkey?” said Ermine, laughing, and blushing again. “What
will you do if I send you out next time? No, I won’t then, my dear, for
all the time, I should like you to see him and know him.”
“Only, if you want to talk of anything very particular,” observed Rose.
“I don’t think I need ask many questions,” said Alison, smiling being
happily made very easy to her. “Dear Ermine, I see you are perfectly
satisfied—”
“O Ailie, that is no word for it! Not only himself, but to find him loving
Rose for her father’s sake, undoubting of him through all. Ailie, the
thankfulness of it is more than one can bear.”
“And he is the same?” said Alison.
“The same—no, not the same. It is more, better, or I am able to feel
it more. It was just like the morrow of the day he walked down the lane
with me and gathered honeysuckles, only the night between has been a very,
very strange time.”
“I hope the interruption did not come very soon.”
“I thought it was directly, but it could not have been so soon, since you
are come home. We had just had time to tell what we most wanted to know,
and I know a little more of what he is. I feel as if it were not only
Colin again, but ten times Colin. O Ailie, it must be a little bit like
the meetings in heaven!”
“I believe it is so with you,” said Alison, scarcely able to keep the
tears from her eyes.
“After sometimes not daring to dwell on him, and then only venturing
because I thought he must be dead, to have him back again with the same
looks, only deeper—to find that he clung to those weeks so long ago,
and, above all, that there was not one cloud, one doubt about the troubles—Oh,
it is too, too much.”
Ermine lent back with clasped hands. She was like one weary with
happiness, and lain to rest in the sense of newly-won peace. She said
little more that evening, and if spoken to, seemed like one wakened out of
a dream, so that more than once she laughed at herself, begged her
sister’s pardon, and said that it seemed to her that she could not hear
anything for the one glad voice that rang in her ear, “Colin is come
home.” That was sufficient for her, no need for any other sympathy, felt
Alison, with another of those pangs crushed down. Then wonder came—whether
Ermine could really contemplate the future, or if it were absolutely lost
in the present?
Colonel Keith went back to be seized by Conrade and Francis, and walked
off to the pony inspection, the two boys, on either side of him,
communicating to him the great grievance of living in a poky place like
this, where nobody had ever been in the army, nor had a bit of sense, and
Aunt Rachel was always bothering, and trying to make mamma think that Con
told stories.
“I don’t mind that,” said Conrade, stoutly; “let her try!”
“Oh, but she wanted mamma to shut you up,” added Francis.
“Well, and mamma knows better,” said Conrade, “and it made her leave off
teaching me, so it was lucky. But I don’t mind that; only don’t you see,
Colonel, they don’t know how to treat mamma! They go and bully her, and
treat her like—like a subaltern, till I hate the very sight of it.”
“My boy,” said the Colonel, who had been giving only half attention; “you
must make up your mind to your mother not being at the head of everything,
as she used to be in your father’s time. She will always be respected, but
you must look to yourself as you grow up to make a position for her!”
“I wish I was grown up!” sighed Conrade; “how I would give it to Aunt
Rachel! But why must we live here to have her plaguing us?”
Questions that the Colonel was glad to turn aside by moans of the ponies,
and by a suggestion that, if a very quiet one were found, and if Conrade
would be very careful, mamma might, perhaps, go out riding with them. The
motion was so transcendant that, no sooner had the ponies been seen, than
the boys raced home, and had communicated it at the top of their voices to
mamma long before their friend made his appearance. Lady Temple was quite
startled at the idea. “Dear papa,” as she always called her husband, “had
wished her to ride, but she had seldom done so, and now—” The tears
came into her eyes.
“I think you might,” said the Colonel, gently; “I could find you a quiet
animal, and to have you with Conrade would be such a protection to him,”
he added, as the boys had rushed out of the room.
“Yes; perhaps, dear boy. But I could not begin alone; it is so long since
I rode. Perhaps when you come back from Ireland.”
“I am not going to Ireland.”
“I thought you said—” said Fanny looking up surprised; “I am very
glad! But if you wished to go, pray don’t think about us! I shall learn to
manage in time, and I cannot bear to detain you.”
“You do not detain me,” he said, sitting down by her; “I have found what I
was going in search of, and through your means.”
“What—what do you mean! You were going to see Miss Williams this
afternoon, I thought!”
“Yes, and it was she whom I was seeking.” He paused, and added slowly, as
if merely for the sake of dwelling on the words, “I have found her!”
“Miss Williams!” said Fanny, with perplexed looks.
“Miss Williams!—my Ermine whom I had not seen since the day after
her accident, when we parted as on her deathbed!”
“That sister! Oh, poor thing, I am so glad! But I am sorry!” cried the
much confused Fanny, in a breath; “were not you very much shocked?”
“I had never hoped to see her face in all its brightness again,” he said.
“Twelve years! It is twelve years that she has suffered, and of late she
has been brought to this grievous state of poverty, and yet the spirit is
as brave and cheerful as ever! It looks out of the beautiful eyes—more
beautiful than when I first saw them,—I could see and think of
nothing else!”
“Twelve years!” repeated Fanny; “is it so long since you saw her?”
“Almost since I heard of her! She was like a daughter to my aunt at
Beauchamp, and her brother was my schoolfellow. For one summer, when I was
quartered at Hertford, I was with her constantly, but my family would not
even hear of the indefinite engagement that was all we could have looked
to, and made me exchange into the —th.”
“Ah! that was the way we came to have you! I must tell you, dear Sir
Stephen always guessed. Once when he had quite vexed poor mamma by
preventing her from joking you in her way about young ladies, he told me
that once, when he was young, he had liked some one who died or was
married, I don’t quite know which, and he thought it was the same with
you, from something that happened when you withdrew your application for
leave after your wound.”
“Yes! it was a letter from home, implying that my return would be accepted
as a sign that I gave her up. So that was an additional instance of the
exceeding kindness that I always received.”
And there was a pause, both much affected by the thought of the good old
man’s ever ready consideration. At last Fanny said, “I am sure it was well
for us! What would he have done without you?—and,” she added, “do
you really mean that you never heard of her all these years?”
“Never after my aunt’s death, except just after we went to Melbourne, when
I heard in general terms of the ruin of the family and the false
imputation on their brother.”
“Ah! I remember that you did say something about going home, and Sir
Stephen was distressed, and mamma and I persuaded you because we saw he
would have missed you so much, and mamma was quite hurt at your thinking
of going. But if you had only told him your reason, he would never have
thought of standing in your way.”
“I know he would not, but I saw he could hardly find any one else just
then who knew his ways so well. Besides, there was little use in going
home till I had my promotion, and could offer her a home; and I had no
notion how utter the ruin was, or that she had lost so much. So little did
I imagine their straits that, but for Alison’s look, I should hardly have
inquired even on hearing her name.”
“How very curious—how strangely things come round!” said Fanny; then
with a start of dismay, “but what shall I do? Pray, tell me what you would
like. If I might only keep her a little while till I can find some one
else, though no one will ever be so nice; but indeed I would not for a
moment, if you had rather not.”
“Why so? Alison is very happy with you, and there can be no reason against
her going on.”
“Oh!” cried Lady Temple, with an odd sound of satisfaction, doubt, and
surprise, “but I thought you would not like it.”
“I should like, of course, to set them all at ease; but as I can do no
more than make a home for Ermine and her niece, I can only rejoice that
Alison is with you.”
“But your brother!”
“If he does not like it, he must take the consequence of the utter
separation he made my father insist on,” said the Colonel sternly. “For my
own part, I only esteem both sisters the more, if that were possible, for
what they have done for themselves.”
“Oh! that is what Rachel would like! She is so fond of the sick—I
mean of your—Miss Williams. I suppose I may not tell her yet.”
“Not yet, if you please. I have scarcely had time as yet to know what
Ermine wishes, but I could not help telling you.”
“Thank you—I am so glad,” she said, with sweet earnestness, holding
out her hand in congratulation. “When may I go to her? I should like for
her to come and stay here. Do you think she would?”
“Thank you, I will see. I know how kind you would be—indeed, have
already been to her.”
“And I am so thankful that I may keep Miss Williams! The dear boys never
were so good. And perhaps she may stay till baby is grown up. Oh! how long
it will be first!”
“She could not have a kinder friend,” said the Colonel, smiling, and
looking at his watch.
“Oh, is it time to dress? It is very kind of my dear aunt; but I do wish
we could have stayed at home to-night. It is so dull for the boys when I
dine out, and I had so much to ask you. One thing was about that poor
little Bessie Keith. Don’t you think I might ask her down here, to be near
her brother?”
“It would be a very kind thing in you, and very good for her, but you must
be prepared for rather a gay young lady.”
“Oh, but she would not mind my not going out. She would have Alick, you
know, and all the boys to amuse her; but, if you think it would be
tiresome for her, and that she would not be happy, I should be very sorry
to have her, poor child.”
“I was not afraid for her,” said Colonel Keith, smiling, “but of her being
rather too much for you.”
“Rachel is not too much for me,” said Fanny, “and she and Grace will
entertain Bessie, and take her out. But I will talk to Alick. He spoke of
coming to-morrow. And don’t you think I might ask Colonel and Mrs. Hammond
to spend a day? They would so like the sea for the children.”
“Certainly.”
“Then perhaps you would write—oh, I forgot,” colouring up, “I never
can forget the old days; it seems as if you were on the staff still.”
“I always am on yours, and always hope to be,” he said, smiling, “though I
am afraid I can’t write your note to the Hammonds for you.”
“But you won’t go away,” she said. “I know your time will be taken up, and
you must not let me or the boys be troublesome; but to have you here makes
me so much less lost and lonely. And I shall have such a friend in your
Erminia. Is that her name?”
“Ermine, an old Welsh name, the softest I ever heard. Indeed it is
dressing time,” added Colonel Keith, and both moved away with the startled
precision of members of a punctual military household, still feeling
themselves accountable to somebody.
CHAPTER VI. ERMINE’S RESOLUTION
“For as his hand the weather steers,
So thrive I best ‘twixt joys and tears,
And all the year have some green ears.”—H. VAUGHAN.
Alison had not been wrong in her presentiment that the second interview
would be more trying than the first. The exceeding brightness and
animation of Ermine’s countenance, her speaking eyes, unchanged
complexion, and lively manner—above all, the restoration of her real
substantial self—had so sufficed and engrossed Colin Keith in the
gladness of their first meeting that he had failed to comprehend her
helpless state; and already knowing her to be an invalid, not entirely
recovered from her accident, he was only agreeably surprised to see the
beauty of face he had loved so long, retaining all its vivacity of
expression. And when he met Alison the next morning with a cordial
brotherly greeting and inquiry for her sister, her “Very well,” and “not
at all the worse for the excitement,” were so hearty and ready that he
could not have guessed that “well” with Ermine meant something rather
relative than positive. Alison brought him a playful message from her,
that since he was not going to Belfast, she should meet him with a freer
conscience if he would first give her time for Rose’s lessons, and, as he
said, he had lived long enough with Messrs. Conrade and Co. to acknowledge
the wisdom of the message. But Rose had not long been at leisure to look
out for him before he made his appearance, and walked in by right, as one
at home; and sitting down in his yesterday’s place, took the little maiden
on his knee, and began to talk to her about the lessons he had been told
to wait for. What would she have done without them? He knew some people
who never could leave the house quiet enough to hear one’s-self speak if
they were deprived of lessons. Was that the way with her? Rose laughed
like a creature, her aunt said, “to whom the notion of noise at play was
something strange and ridiculous; necessity has reduced her to Jacqueline
Pascal’s system with her pensionnaires, who were allowed to play one by
one without any noise.”
“But I don’t play all alone,” said Rose; “I play with you, Aunt Ermine,
and with Violetta.”
And Violetta speedily had the honour of an introduction, very solemnly
gone through, in due form; Ermine, in the languid sportiveness of
enjoyment of his presence and his kindness to the child, inciting Rose to
present Miss Violetta Williams to Colonel Keith, an introduction that he
returned with a grand military salute, at the same time as he shook the
doll’s inseparable fingers. “Well, Miss Violetta, and Miss Rose, when you
come to live with me, I shall hope for the pleasure of teaching you to
make a noise.”
“What does he mean?” said Rose, turning round amazed upon her aunt.
“I am afraid he does not quite know,” said Ermine, sadly.
“Nay, Ermine,” said he, turning from the child, and bending over her, “you
are the last who should say that. Have I not told you that there is
nothing now in our way—no one with a right to object, and means
enough for all we should wish, including her—? What is the matter?”
he added, startled by her look.
“Ah, Colin! I thought you knew—”
“Knew what, Ermine?” with his brows drawn together.
“Knew—what I am,” she said; “knew the impossibility. What, they have
not told you? I thought I was the invalid, the cripple, with every one.”
“I knew you had suffered cruelly; I knew you were lame,” he said,
breathlessly; “but—what—”
“It is more than lame,” she said. “I should be better off if the fiction
of the Queens of Spain were truth with me. I could not move from this
chair without help. Oh, Colin! poor Colin! it was very cruel not to have
prepared you for this!” she added, as he gazed at her in grief and dismay,
and made a vain attempt to find the voice that would not come. “Yes,
indeed it is so,” she said; “the explosion, rather than the fire, did
mischief below the knee that poor nature could not repair, and I can but
just stand, and cannot walk at all.”
“Has anything been done—advice?” he managed to utter.
“Advice upon advice, so that I felt at the last almost a compensation to
be out of the way of the doctors. No, nothing more can be done; and now
that one is used to it, the snail is very comfortable in its shell. But I
wish you could have known it sooner!” she added, seeing him shade his brow
with his hand, overwhelmed.
“What you must have suffered!” he murmured.
“That is all over long ago; every year has left that further behind, and
made me more content. Dear Colin, for me there is nothing to grieve.”
He could not control himself, rose up, made a long stride, and passed
through the open window into the garden.
“Oh, if I could only follow him,” gasped Ermine, joining her hands and
looking up.
“Is it because you can’t walk?” said Rose, somewhat frightened, and for
the first time beginning to comprehend that her joyous-tempered aunt could
be a subject for pity.
“Oh! this was what I feared!” sighed Ermine. “Oh, give us strength to go
through with it.” Then becoming awake to the child’s presence—“A
little water, if you please, my dear.” Then, more composedly, “Don’t be
frightened, my Rose; you did not know it was such a shock to find me so
laid by—”
“He is in the garden walking up and down,” said Rose. “May I go and tell
him how much merrier you always are than Aunt Ailie?”
Poor Ermine felt anything but merry just then, but she had some experience
of Rose’s powers of soothing, and signed assent. So in another second
Colonel Keith was met in the hasty, agonized walk by which he was
endeavouring to work off his agitation, and the slender child looked
wistfully up at him from dark depths of half understanding eyes—“Please,
please don’t be so very sorry,” she said. “Aunt Ermine does not like it.
She never is sorry for herself—”
“Have I shaken her—distressed her?” he asked, anxiously.
“She doesn’t like you to be sorry,” said Rose, looking up. “And, indeed,
she does not mind it; she is such a merry aunt! Please, come in again, and
see how happy we always are—”
The last words were spoken so near the window that Ermine caught them, and
said, “Yes, come in, Colin, and learn not to grieve for me, or you will
make me repent of my selfish gladness yesterday.”
“Not grieve!” he exclaimed, “when I think of the beautiful vigorous being
that used to be the life of the place—” and he would have said more
but for a deprecating sign of the hand.
“Well,” she said, half smiling, “it is a pity to think even of a crushed
butterfly; but indeed, Colin, if you can bear to listen to me, I think I
can show you that it all has been a blessing even by sight, as well as, of
course, by faith. Only remember the unsatisfactoriness of our condition—the
never seeing or hearing from one another after that day when Mr. Beauchamp
came down on us. Did not the accident win for us a parting that was much
better to remember than that state of things? Oh, the pining, weary feel
as if all the world had closed on me! I do assure you it was much worse
than anything that came after the burn. Yes, if I had been well and doing
like others, I know I should have fretted and wearied, pined myself ill
perhaps, whereas I could always tell myself that every year of your
absence might be a step towards your finding me well; and when I was
forced to give up that hope for myself, why then, Colin, the never seeing
your name made me think you would never be disappointed and grieved as you
are now. It is very merciful the way that physical trials help one through
those of the mind.”
“I never knew,” said the Colonel; “all my aunt’s latter letters spoke of
your slow improvement beyond hope.”
“True, in her time, I had not reached the point where I stopped. The last
time I saw her I was still upstairs; and, indeed, I did not half know what
I could do till I tried.”
“Yes,” said he, brightened by that buoyant look so remarkable in her face;
“and you will yet do more, Ermine. You have convinced me that we shall be
all the happier together—”
“But that was not what I meant to convince you of—” she said,
faintly.
“Not what you meant, perhaps; but what it did convince me was, that you—as
you are, my Ermine—are ten thousand times more to me than even as
the beautiful girl, and that there never can be a happier pair than we
shall be when I am your hands and feet.”
Ermine sat up, and rallied all her forces, choked back the swelling of her
throat, and said, “Dear Colin, it cannot be! I trusted you were
understanding that when I told you how it was with me.”
He could not speak from consternation.
“No,” she said; “it would be wrong in me to think of it for an instant.
That you should have done so, shows—O Colin, I cannot talk of it;
but it would be as ungenerous in me to consent, as it is noble of you to
propose it.”
“It is no such thing,” he answered; “it has been the one object and
thought of my life, the only hope I have had all these years.”
“Exactly so,” she said, struggling again to speak firmly; “and that is the
very thing. You kept your allegiance to the bright, tall, walking, active
girl, and it would be a shame in the scorched cripple to claim it.”
“Don’t call yourself names. Have I not told you that you are more than the
same?”
“You do not know. You are pleased because my face is not burnt, nor grown
much older, and because I can talk and laugh in the same voice still.”
(Oh, how it quivered!) “But it would be a wicked mockery in me to pretend
to be the wife you want. Yes, I know you think you do, but that is just
because my looks are so deceitful, and you have kept on thinking about me;
but you must make a fresh beginning.”
“You can tell me that,” he said, indignantly.
“Because it is not new to me,” she said; “the quarter of an hour you stood
by me, with that deadly calm in your white face, was the real farewell to
the young hopeful dream of that bright summer. I wish it was as calm now.”
“I believed you dying then,” answered he.
“Do not make me think it would have been better for you if I had been,”
she said, imploringly. “It was as much the end, and I knew it from the
time my recovery stopped short. I would have let you know if I could, and
then you would not have been so much shocked.”
“So as to cut me off from you entirely?”
“No, indeed. The thought of seeing you again was too—too
overwhelming to be indulged in; knowing, as I did, that if you were the
same to me, it must be at this sad cost to you,” and her eyes filled with
tears.
“It is you who make it so, Ermine.”
“No; it is the providence that has set me aside from the active work of
life. Pray do not go on, Colin, it is only giving us both useless pain.
You do not know what it costs me to deny you, and I feel that I must. I
know you are only acting on the impulse of generosity. Yes, I will say so,
though you think it is to please yourself,” she added, with one of those
smiles that nothing could drive far from her lips, and which made it
infinitely harder to acquiesce in her denial.
“I will make you think so in time,” he said. “Then I might tell you, you
had no right to please yourself,” she answered, still with the same air of
playfulness; “you have got a brother, you know—and—yes, I hear
you growl; but if he is a poor old broken man out of health, it is the
more reason you should not vex him, nor hamper yourself with a helpless
commodity.”
“You are not taking the way to make me forget what my brother has done for
us.”
“How do you know that he did not save me from being a strong-minded
military lady! After all, it was absurd to expect people to look
favourably on our liking for one another, and you know they could not be
expected to know that there was real stuff in the affair. If there had not
been, we should have thought so all the same, you know, and been quite as
furious.”
He could not help smiling, recollecting fury that, in the course of these
twelve years, he had seen evinced under similar circumstances by persons
who had consoled themselves before he had done pitying them. “Still,” he
said gravely, “I think there was harshness.”
“So do I, but not so much as I thought at that time, and—oh, surely
that is not Rachel Curtis! I told her I thought you would call.”
“Intolerable!” he muttered between his teeth. “Is she always coming to
bore you?”
“She has been very kind, and my great enlivenment,” said Ermine, “and she
can’t be expected to know how little we want her. Oh, there, the danger is
averted! She must have asked if you were here.”
“I was just thinking that she was the chief objection to Lady Temple’s
kind wish of having you at Myrtlewood.”
“Does Lady Temple know?” asked Ermine, blushing.
“I could not keep it from one who has been so uniformly kind to me; but I
desired her not to let it go further till I should hear your wishes.”
“Yes, she has a right to know,” said Ermine; “but please, not a word
elsewhere.”
“And will you not come to stay with her?”
“I? Oh, no; I am fit for no place but this. You don’t half know how bad I
am. When you have seen a little more of us, you will be quite convinced.”
“Well, at least, you give me leave to come here.”
“Leave? When it is a greater pleasure than I ever thought to have again;
that is, while you understand that you said good-bye to the Ermine of
Beauchamp Parsonage twelve years ago, and that the thing here is only a
sort of ghost, most glad and grateful to be a friend—a sister.”
“So,” he said, “those are to be the terms of my admission.”
“The only possible ones.”
“I will consider them. I have not accepted them.”
“You will,” she said.
But she met a smile in return, implying that there might be a will as
steadfast as her own, although the question might be waived for a time.
Meantime, Rachel was as nearly hating Colonel Keith as principle would
allow, with “Human Reeds,” newly finished, burning in her pocket,
“Military Society” fermenting in her brain, and “Curatocult” still
unacknowledged. Had he not had quite time for any rational visit? Was he
to devour Mackarel Lane as well as Myrtlewood? She was on her way to the
latter house, meeting Grace as she went, and congratulating herself that
he could not be in two places at once, whilst Grace secretly wondered how
far she might venture to build on Alison Williams’s half confidence, and
regretted the anxiety wasted by Rachel and the mother; though, to be sure,
that of Mrs. Curtis was less uncalled for than her daughter’s, since it
was only the fear of Fanny’s not being sufficiently guarded against
misconstructions.
Rachel held up her hands in despair in the hall. “Six officers’ cards!”
she exclaimed.
“No, only six cards,” said Grace; “there are two of each.”
“That’s enough,” sighed Rachel; “and look there,” gazing through the
garden-door. “She is walking with the young puppy that dined here on
Thursday, and they called Alick.”
“Do you remember,” said Grace, “how she used to chatter about Alick, when
she first came to us, at six years old. He was the child of one of the
officers. Can this be the same?”
“That’s one of your ideas, Grace. Look, this youth could have been hardly
born when Fanny came to us. No; he is only one of the idlers that military
life has accustomed her to.”
Rather against Grace’s feeling, Rachel drew her on, so as to come up with
Lady Temple and her friend in the midst of their conversation, and they
heard the last words—
“Then you will give me dear Bessie’s direction?”
“Thank you, it will be the greatest kindness—”
“Oh, Grace, Rachel, is it you?” exclaimed Fanny. “You have not met before,
I think. Mr. Keith—Miss Curtis.”
Very young indeed were both face and figure, fair and pale, and though
there was a moustache, it was so light and silky as to be scarcely
visible; the hair, too, was almost flaxen, and the whole complexion had a
washed-out appearance. The eyes, indeed, were of the same peculiar deep
blue as the Colonel’s, but even these were little seen under their heavy
sleepy lids, and the long limbs had in every movement something of weight
and slowness, the very sight of which fretted Rachel, and made her long to
shake him. It appeared that he was come to spend the Sunday at Avonmouth,
and Grace tried to extract the comfort for her mother that two gentlemen
were better than one, and Fanny need not be on their minds for chaperonage
for that day.
A party of garden-chairs on the lawn invited repose, and there the ladies
seated themselves; Fanny laying down her heavy crape bonnet, and showing
her pretty little delicate face, now much fresher and more roseate than
when she arrived, though her wide-spreading black draperies gave a certain
dignity to her slight figure, contrasting with the summer muslins of her
two cousins; as did her hot-house plant fairness, with their firm, healthy
glow of complexion; her tender shrinking grace, with their upright vigour.
The gentleman of the party leant back in a languid, easy posture, as
though only half awake, and the whole was so quiet that Grace, missing the
usual tumult of children, asked after them.
“The boys have gone to their favourite cove under the plantation. They
have a fort there, and Hubert told me he was to be a hero, and Miss
Williams a she-ro.”
“I would not encourage that description of sport,” said Rachel, willing to
fight a battle in order to avert maternal anecdotes of boyish sayings.
“They like it so much,” said Fanny, “and they learn so much now that they
act all the battles they read about.”
“That is what I object to,” said Rachel; “it is accustoming them to
confound heroism with pugnacity.”
“No, but Rachel dear, they do quarrel and fight among themselves much less
now that this is all in play and good humour,” pleaded Fanny.
“Yes, that may be, but you are cultivating the dangerous instinct,
although for a moment giving it a better direction.”
“Dangerous? Oh, Alick! do you think it can be?” said Fanny, less easily
borne down with a supporter beside her.
“According to the Peace Society,” he answered, with a quiet air of
courteous deference; “perhaps you belong to it?”
“No, indeed,” answered Rachel, rather indignantly, “I think war the great
purifier and ennobler of nations, when it is for a good and great cause;
but I think education ought to protest against confounding mere love of
combat with heroism.”
“Query, the true meaning of the word?” he said, leaning back.
“Heros, yes from the same root as the German herr,” readily responded
Rachel, “meaning no more than lord and master; but there can be no doubt
that the progress of ideas has linked with it a much nobler association.”
“Progress! What, since the heroes were half divine!”
“Half divine in the esteem of a people who thought brute courage godlike.
To us the word maintains its semi-divinity, and it should be our effort to
associate it only with that which veritably has the god-like stamp.”
“And that is—?”
“Doing more than one’s duty,” exclaimed Rachel, with a glistening eye.
“Very uncomfortable and superfluous, and not at all easy,” he said, half
shutting his already heavy eyes.
“Easy, no, that’s the beauty and the glory—”
“Major Sherborne and Captain Lester in the drawing room, my lady,”
announced Coombe, who had looked infinitely cheered since this military
influx.
“You will come with me, Grace,” said Fanny, rising. “I dare say you had
rather not, Rachel, and it would be a pity to disturb you, Alick.”
“Thank you; it would be decidedly more than my duty.”
“I am quite sorry to go, you are so amusing,” said Fanny, “but I suppose
you will have settled about heroism by the time we come out again, and
will tell me what the boys ought to play at.”
Rachel’s age was quite past the need of troubling herself at being left
tête-à-tête with a mere lad like this; and, besides, it was an opportunity
not to be neglected of giving a young carpet knight a lesson in true
heroism. There was a pause after the other two had moved off. Rachel
reflected for a few moments, and then, precipitated by the fear of her
audience falling asleep, she exclaimed—
“No words have been more basely misused than hero and heroine. The one is
the mere fighting animal whose strength or fortune have borne him through
some more than ordinary danger, the other is only the subject of an
adventure, perfectly irrespective of her conduct in it.”
“Bathos attends all high words,” he said, as she paused, chiefly to see
whether he was awake, and not like her dumb playfellow of old.
“This is not their natural bathos but their misuse. They ought to be
reserved for those who in any department have passed the limits to which
the necessity of their position constrained them, and done acts of
self-devotion for the good of others. I will give you an instance, and
from your own profession, that you may see I am not prejudiced; besides,
the hero of it is past praise or blame.”
Encouraged by seeing a little more of his eyes, she went on. “It was in
the course of the siege of Delhi, a shell came into a tent where some sick
and wounded were lying. There was one young officer among them who could
move enough to have had a chance of escaping the explosion, but instead of
that he took the shell up, its fuse burning as it was, and ran with it out
of the tent, then hurled it to a distance. It exploded, and of course was
his death, but the rest were saved, and I call that a deed of heroism far
greater than mounting a breach or leading a forlorn hope.”
“Killed, you say?” inquired Mr. Keith, still in the same lethargic manner.
“Oh yes, mortally wounded: carried back to die among the men he had
saved.”
“Jessie Cameron singing his dirge,” mumbled this provoking individual,
with something about the form of his cheek that being taken by Rachel for
a derisive smile, made her exclaim vehemently, “You do not mean to
undervalue an action like that in comparison with mere animal pugnacity in
an advance.”
“More than one’s duty was your test,” he said.
“And was not this more than duty? Ah! I see yours is a spirit of
depreciation, and I can only say I pity you.”
He took the trouble to lift himself up and make a little bow of
acknowledgment. Certainly he was worse than the Colonel; but Rachel, while
mustering her powers for annihilating him, was annoyed by all the party in
the drawing-room coming forth to join them, the other officers rallying
young Keith upon his luxurious station, and making it evident that he was
a proverb in the regiment for taking his ease. Chairs were brought out,
and afternoon tea, and the callers sat down to wait for Colonel Keith to
come in; Grace feeling obliged to stay to help Fanny entertain her
visitors, and Rachel to protect her from their follies. One thing Grace
began to perceive, that Lady Temple had in her former world been a person
of much more consideration than she was made here, and seeing the polite
and deferential manner of these officers to her, could only wonder at her
gentle content and submission in meeting with no particular attention from
anybody, and meekly allowing herself to be browbeaten by Rachel and
lectured by her aunt.
A lecture was brewing up for her indeed. Poor Mrs. Curtis was very much
concerned at the necessity, and only spurred up by a strong sense of duty
to give a hint—the study of which hint cost her a whole sleepless
night and a very weary Sunday morning. She decided that her best course
would be to drive to Myrtlewood rather early on her way to church, and
take up Fanny, gaining a previous conference with her alone, if possible.
“Yes, my dear,” she said to Grace, “I must get it over before church, or
it will make me so nervous all through the service.” And Grace, loving her
mother best, durst not suggest what it might do to Fanny, hoping that the
service might help her to digest the hint.
Mrs. Curtis’s regular habits were a good deal shocked to find Fanny still
at the breakfast table. The children had indeed long finished, and were
scattered about the room, one of them standing between Colonel Keith’s
knees, repeating a hymn; but the younger guest was still in the midst of
his meal, and owned in his usual cool manner that he was to blame for the
lateness, there was no resisting the charms of no morning parade.
Her aunt’s appearance made Fanny imagine it much later than it really was,
and she hurried off the children to be dressed, and proceeded herself to
her room, Mrs. Curtis following, and by way of preliminary, asking when
Colonel Keith was going to Ireland.
“Oh!” said Fanny, blushing most suspiciously under her secret, “he is not
going to Ireland now.”
“Indeed! I quite understood he intended it.”
“Yes,” faltered Fanny, “but he found that he need not.”
“Indeed!” again ejaculated poor perplexed Mrs. Curtis; “but then, at
least, he is going away soon.”
“He must go to Scotland by-and-by, but for the present he is going into
lodgings. Do you know of any nice ones, dear aunt?”
“Well, I suppose you can’t help that; you know, my dear, it would never do
for him to stay in this house.”
“I never thought of that,” said Fanny simply, the colour coming in a fresh
glow.
“No, my dear, but you see you are very young and inexperienced. I do not
say you have done anything the least amiss, or that you ever would mean
it, only you will forgive your old aunt for putting you on your guard.”
Fanny kissed her, but with eyes full of tears, and cheeks burning, then
her candour drew from her—“It was he that thought of getting a
lodging. I am glad I did not persuade him not; but you know he always did
live with us.”
“With us. Yes, my poor dear, that is the difference, and you see he feels
it. But, indeed, my dear child, though he is a very good man, I dare say,
and quite a gentleman all but his beard, you had better not encourage—You
know people are so apt to make remarks.”
“I have no fear,” said Fanny, turning away her head, conscious of the
impossibility of showing her aunt her mistake.
“Ah! my dear, you don’t guess how ready people are to talk; and you would
not like—for your children’s sake, for your husband’s sake—that—that—”
“Pray, pray aunt,” cried Fanny, much pained; “indeed you don’t know. My
husband had confidence in him more than in any one. He told him to take
care of me and look after the boys. I couldn’t hold aloof from him without
transgressing those wishes”—and the words were lost in a sob.
“My dear, indeed I did not mean to distress you. You know, I dare say—I
mean—” hesitated poor Mrs. Curtis. “I know you must see a great deal
of him. I only want you to take care—appearances are appearances,
and if it was said you had all these young officers always coming about—”
“I don’t think they will come. It was only just to call, and they have
known me so long. It is all out of respect to my father and Sir Stephen,”
said Fanny, meekly as ever. “Indeed, I would not for the world do anything
you did not like, dear aunt; but there can’t be any objection to my having
Mrs. Hammond and the children to spend the day to-morrow.”
Mrs. Curtis did not like it; she had an idea that all military ladies were
dashing and vulgar, but she could not say there was any objection, so she
went on to the head of poor Fanny’s offending. “This young man, my dear,
he seems to make himself very intimate.”
“Alick Keith? Oh aunt!” said Fanny, more surprised than by all the rest;
“don’t you know about him? His father and mother were our greatest friends
always; I used to play with him every day till I came to you. And then
just as I married, poor Mrs. Keith died, and we had dear little Bessie
with us till her father could send her home. And when poor Alick was so
dreadfully wounded before Delhi, Sir Stephen sent him up in a litter to
the hills for mamma and me to nurse. Mamma was so fond of him, she used to
call him her son.”
“Yes, my dear, I dare say you have been very intimate; but you see you are
very young; and his staying here—”
“I thought he would be so glad to come and be with the Colonel, who was
his guardian and Bessie’s,” said Fanny; “and I have promised to have
Bessie to stay with me, she was such a dear little thing—”
“Well, my dear, it may be a good thing for you to have a young lady with
you, and if he is to come over, her presence will explain it. Understand
me, my dear, I am not at all afraid of your—your doing anything
foolish, only to get talked of is so dreadful in your situation, that you
can’t be too careful.”
“Yes, yes, thank you, dear aunt,” murmured the drooping and subdued Fanny,
aware how much the remonstrance must cost her aunt, and sure that she must
be in fault in some way, if she could only see how. “Please, dear aunt,
help me, for indeed I don’t know how to manage—tell me how to be
civil and kind to my dear husband’s friends without—without—”
Her voice broke down, though she kept from tears as an unkindness to her
aunt.
In very fact, little as she knew it, she could not have defended herself
better than by this humble question, throwing the whole guidance of her
conduct upon her aunt. If she had been affronted, Mrs. Curtis could have
been displeased; but to be thus set to prescribe the right conduct, was at
once mollifying and perplexing.
“Well, well, my dear child, we all know you wish to do right; you can
judge best. I would not have you ungrateful or uncivil, only you know you
are living very quietly, and intimacy—oh! my dear, I know your own
feeling will direct you. Dear child! you have taken what I said so kindly.
And now let me see that dear little girl.”
Rachel had not anticipated that the upshot of a remonstrance, even from
her mother, would be that Fanny was to be directed by her own feeling!
That same feeling took Lady Temple to Mackarel Lane later in the day. She
had told the Colonel her intention, and obtained Alison’s assurance that
Ermine’s stay at Myrtlewood need not be impracticable, and armed with
their consent, she made her timid tap at Miss Williams’ door, and showed
her sweet face within it.
“May I come in? Your sister and your little niece are gone for a walk. I
told them I would come! I did want to see you!”
“Thank you,” said Ermine, with a sweet smile, colouring cheek, yet grave
eyes, and much taken by surprise at being seized by both hands, and kissed
on each cheek.
“Yes, you must let me,” said her visitor, looking up with her pretty
imploring gesture; “you know I have known him so long, and he has been so
good to me!”
“Indeed it is very kind in you,” said Ermine, fully feeling the force of
the plea expressed in the winning young face and gentle eyes full of
tears.
“Oh, no, I could not help it. I am only so sorry we kept him away from you
when you wanted him so much; but we did not know, and he was Sir Stephen’s
right hand, and we none of us knew what to do without him; but if he had
only told—”
“Thank you, oh, thank you!” said Ermine, “but indeed it was better for him
to be away.”
Even her wish to console that pleading little widow could not make her say
that his coming would not have been good for her. “It has been such a
pleasure to hear he had so kind and happy a home all these years.”
“Oh, you cannot think how Sir Stephen loved and valued him. The one thing
I always did wish was, that Conrade should grow up to be as much help and
comfort to his father, and now he never can! But,” driving back a tear,
“it was so hard that you should not have known how distinguished and
useful and good he was all those years. Only now I shall have the pleasure
of telling you,” and she smiled. She was quite a different being when free
from the unsympathizing influence which, without her understanding it, had
kept her from dwelling on her dearest associations.
“It will be a pleasure of pleasures,” said Ermine, eagerly.
“Then you will do me a favour, a very great favour,” said Lady Temple,
laying hold of her hand again, “if you and your sister and niece will come
and stay with me.” And as Ermine commenced her refusal, she went on in the
same coaxing way, with a description of her plans for Ermine’s comfort,
giving her two rooms on the ground floor, and assuring her of the absence
of steps, the immunity from all teasing by the children, of the full
consent of her sister, and the wishes of the Colonel; nay, when Ermine was
still unpersuaded of the exceeding kindness it would be to herself. “You
see I am terribly young, really,” she said, “though I have so many boys,
and my aunt thinks it awkward for me to have so many officers calling, and
I can’t keep them away because they are my father’s and Sir Stephen’s old
friends; so please do come and make it all right!”
Ermine was driven so hard, and so entirely deprived of all excuse, that
she had no alternative left but to come to the real motive.
“I ought not,” she said, “it is not good for him, so you must not press
me, dear Lady Temple. You see it is best for him that nobody should ever
know of what has been between us.”
“What! don’t you mean—?” exclaimed Fanny, breaking short off.
“I cannot!” said Ermine.
“But he would like it. He wishes it as much as ever.”
“I know he does,” said Ermine, with a troubled voice; “but you see that is
because he did not know what a wretched remnant I am, and he never has had
time to think about any one else.”
“Oh no, no.”
“And it would be very unfair of me to take advantage of that, and give him
such a thing as I am.”
“Oh dear, but that is very sad!” cried Fanny, looking much startled.
“But I am sure you must see that it is right.”
“It may be right,” and out burst Fanny’s ready tears; “but it is very,
very hard and disagreeable, if you don’t mind my saying so, when I know it
is so good of you. And don’t you mean to let him even see you, when he has
been constant so long?”
“No; I see no reason for denying myself that; indeed I believe it is
better for him to grow used to me as I am, and be convinced of the
impossibility.”
“Well then, why will you not come to me?”
“Do you not see, in all your kindness, that my coming to you would make
every one know the terms between us, while no one remarks his just coming
to me here as an old friend? And if he were ever to turn his mind to any
one else—”
“He will never do that, I am sure.”
“There is no knowing. He has never been, in his own estimation, disengaged
from me,” said Ermine; “his brother is bent on his marrying, and he ought
to be perfectly free to do so, and not under the disadvantage that any
report of this affair would be to him.”
“Well, I am sure he never will,” said Fanny, almost petulantly; “I know I
shall hate her, that’s all.”
Ermine thought her own charity towards Mrs. Colin Keith much more dubious
than Lady Temple’s, but she continued—
“At any rate you will be so very kind as not to let any one know of it. I
am glad you do. I should not feel it right that you should not, but it is
different with others.”
“Thank you. And if you will not come to me, you will let me come to you,
won’t you? It will be so nice to come and talk him over with you. Perhaps
I shall persuade you some of these days after all. Only I must go now, for
I always give the children their tea on Sunday. But please let your dear
little niece come up to-morrow and play with them; the little Hammonds
will be there, she is just their age.”
Ermine felt obliged to grant this at least, though she was as doubtful of
her shy Rose’s happiness as of the expedience of the intimacy; but there
was no being ungracious to the gentle visitor, and no doubt Ermine felt
rejoiced and elevated. She did not need fresh assurances of Colin’s
constancy, but the affectionate sister-like congratulations of this
loving, winning creature, showed how real and in earnest his intentions
were. And then Lady Temple’s grateful esteem for him being, as it was, the
reflection of her husband’s, was no small testimony to his merits.
“Pretty creature!” said Ermine to herself, “really if it did come to that,
I could spare him to her better than to any one else. She has some notion
how to value him.”
Alison and Rose had, in the meantime, been joined by Colonel Keith and the
boys, whom Alick had early deserted in favour of a sunny sandy nook. The
Colonel’s purpose was hard on poor Alison; it was to obtain her opinion of
her sister’s decision, and the likelihood of persistence in it. It was
not, perhaps, bad for either that they conversed under difficulties, the
boys continually coming back to them from excursions on the rocks, and
Rose holding her aunt’s hand all the time; but to be sure Rose had heard
nearly all the Colonel’s affairs, and somehow mixed him up with Henry of
Cranstoun.
Very tenderly towards Alison herself did Colin Keith speak. It was the
first time they had ever been brought into close contact, and she had
quite to learn to know him. She had regarded his return as probably a
misfortune, but it was no longer possible to do so when she heard his warm
and considerate way of speaking of her sister, and saw him only desirous
of learning what was most for her real happiness. Nay, he even made a
convert of Alison herself! She did believe that would Ermine but think it
right to consent, she would be happy and safe in the care of one who knew
so well how to love her. Terrible as the wrench would be to Alison
herself, she thought he deserved her sister, and that she would be as
happy with him as earth could make her. But she did not believe Ermine
would ever accept him. She knew the strong, unvarying resolution by which
her sister had always held to what she thought right, and did not conceive
that it would waver. The acquiescence in his visits, and the undisguised
exultant pleasure in his society, were evidences to Alison not of wavering
or relenting, but of confidence in Ermine’s own sense of impossibility.
She durst not give him any hope, though she owned that he merited success.
“Did she think his visits bad for her sister?” he then asked in the
unselfishness that pleaded so strongly for him.
“No, certainly not,” she answered eagerly, then made a little hesitation
that made him ask further.
“My only fear,” she said candidly, “is, that if this is pressed much on
her, and she has to struggle with you and herself too, it may hurt her
health. Trouble tells not on her cheerfulness, but on her nerves.”
“Thank you,” he said, “I will refrain.”
Alison was much happier than she had been since the first apprehension of
his return. The first pang at seeing Ermine’s heart another’s property had
been subdued; the present state of affairs was indefinitely-prolonged, and
she not only felt trust in Colin Keith’s consideration for her sister, but
she knew that an act of oblivion was past on her perpetration of the
injury. She was right. His original pitying repugnance to a mere unknown
child could not be carried on to the grave, saddened woman devoted to her
sister; and in the friendly brotherly tone of that interview, each
understood the other. And when Alison came home and said, “I have been
walking with Colin,” her look made Ermine very happy.
“And learning to know him.”
“Learning to sympathize with him, Ermine,” with steady eyes and voice.
“You are hard on him.”
“Now, Ailie,” said Ermine, “once for all, he is not to set you on me, as
he has done with Lady Temple. The more he persuades me, the better I know
that to listen would be an abuse of his constancy. It would set him wrong
with his brother, and, as dear Edward’s affairs stand, we have no right to
carry the supposed disgrace into a family that would believe it, though he
does not. If I were ever so well, I should not think it right to marry. I
shall not shun the sight of him; it is delightful to me, and a less
painful cure to him than sending him away would be. It is in the nature of
things that he should cool into a friendly kindly feeling, and I shall try
to bear it. Or if he does marry, it will be all right I suppose—”
but her voice faltered, and she gave a sort of broken laugh.
“There,” she said, with a recovered flash of liveliness, “there’s my
resolution, to do what I like more than anything in the world as long as I
can; and when it is over I shall be helped to do without it!”
“I can’t believe—” broke out Alison.
“Not in your heart, but in your reason,” said Ermine, endeavouring to
smile. “He will hover about here, and always be kind, loving, considerate;
but a time will come that he will want the home happiness I cannot give.
Then he will not wear out his affection on the impossible literary
cripple, but begin over again, and be happy. And, Alison, if your love for
me is of the sound, strong sort I know it is, you will help me through
with it, and never say one word to make all this less easy and obvious to
him.”
CHAPTER VII. WAITNG FOR ROSE
“Not envy, sure! for if you gave me
Leave to take or to refuse
In earnest, do you think I’d choose
That sort of new love to enslave me?”—R. BROWNING.
So, instead of going to Belfast, here was Colonel Keith actually taking a
lodging and settling himself into it; nay, even going over to Avoncester
on a horse-buying expedition, not merely for the Temples, but for himself.
This time Rachel did think herself sure of Miss Williams’ ear in peace,
and came down on her with two fat manuscripts upon Human Reeds and
Military Society, preluding, however, by bitter complaints of the
“Traveller” for never having vouchsafed her an answer, nor having even
restored “Curatocult,” though she had written three times, and sent a
directed envelope and stamps for the purpose. The paper must be ruined by
so discourteous an editor, indeed she had not been nearly so much
interested as usual by the last few numbers. If only she could get her
paper back, she should try the “Englishwoman’s Hobby-horse,” or some other
paper of more progress than that “Traveller.” “Is it not very hard to feel
one’s self shut out from the main stream of the work of the world when
one’s heart is burning?”
“I think you overrate the satisfaction.”
“You can’t tell! You are contented with that sort of home peaceful
sunshine that I know suffices many. Even intellectual as you are, you
can’t tell what it is to feel power within, to strain at the leash, and
see others in the race.”
“I was thinking whether you could not make an acceptable paper on the lace
system, which you really know so thoroughly.”
“The fact is,” said Rachel, “it is much more difficult to describe from
one’s own observation than from other sources.”
“But rather more original,” said Ermine, quite overcome by the naivete of
the confession.
“I don’t see that,” said Rachel. “It is abstract reasoning from given
facts that I aim at, as you will understand when you have heard my ‘Human
Reeds,’ and my other—dear me, there’s your door bell. I thought that
Colonel was gone for the day.”
“There are other people in the world besides the Colonel,” Ermine began to
say, though she hardly felt as if there were, and at any rate a sense of
rescue crossed her. The persons admitted took them equally by surprise,
being Conrade Temple and Mr. Keith.
“I thought,” said Rachel, as she gave her unwilling hand to the latter,
“that you would have been at Avoncester to-day.”
“I always get out of the way of horse-dealing. I know no greater bore,” he
answered.
“Mamma sent me down,” Conrade was explaining; “Mr. Keith’s uncle found out
that he knew Miss Williams—no, that’s not it, Miss Williams’ uncle
found out that Mr. Keith preached a sermon, or something of that sort, so
mamma sent me down to show him the way to call upon her; but I need not
stay now, need I?”
“After that elegant introduction, and lucid explanation, I think you may
be excused,” returned Alick Keith.
The boy shook Ermine’s hand with his soldierly grace, but rather spoilt
the effect thereof by his aside, “I wanted to see the toad and the
pictures our Miss Williams told me about, but I’ll come another time;” and
the wink of his black eyes, and significant shrug of his shoulders at
Rachel, were irresistible. They all laughed, even Rachel herself, as
Ermine, seeing it would be worse to ignore the demonstration, said, “The
elements of aunt and boy do not always work together.”
“No,” said Rachel; “I have never been forgiven for being the first person
who tried to keep those boys in order.”
“And now,” said Ermine, turning to her other visitor, “perhaps I may
discover which of us, or of our uncles, preached a sermon.”
“Mine, I suspect,” returned Mr. Keith. “Your sister and I made out at
luncheon that you had known my uncle, Mr. Clare, of Bishopsworthy.”
“Mr. Clare! Oh yes,” cried Ermine eagerly; “he took the duty for one of
our curates once for a long vacation. Did you ever hear him speak of
Beauchamp?”
“Yes, often; and of Dr. Williams. He will be very much interested to hear
of you.”
“It was a time I well remember,” said Ermine. “He was an Oxford tutor
then, and I was about fourteen, just old enough to be delighted to hear
clever talk. And his sermons were memorable; they were the first I ever
listened to.”
“There are few sermons that it is not an infliction to listen to,” began
Rachel, but she was not heard or noticed.
“I assure you they are even more striking now in his blindness.”
“Blindness! Indeed, I had not heard of that.”
Even Rachel listened with interest as the young officer explained that his
uncle, whom both he and Miss Williams talked of as a man of note, of whom
every one must have heard, had for the last four years been totally blind,
but continued to be an active parish priest, visiting regularly,
preaching, and taking a share in the service, which he knew by heart. He
had, of course, a curate, who lived with him, and took very good care of
him.
“No one else?” said Rachel. “I thought your sister lived at
Bishopsworthy.”
“No, my sister lives, or has lived, at Little Worthy, the next parish, and
as unlike it as possible. It has a railroad in it, and the cockneys have
come down on it and ‘villafied’ it. My aunt, Mrs. Lacy Clare, has lived
there ever since my sister has been with her; but now her last daughter is
to be married, she wishes to give up housekeeping.”
“And your sister is coming to Lady Temple,” said Rachel, in her peculiar
affirmative way of asking questions. “She will find it very dull here.”
“With all the advantages of Avoncester at hand?” inquired Alick, with a
certain gleam under his flaxen eyelashes that convinced Ermine that he
said it in mischief. But Rachel drew herself up gravely, and answered—
“In Lady Temple’s situation any such thing would be most inconsistent with
good feeling.”
“Such as the cathedral?” calmly, not to say sleepily, inquired Alick, to
the excessive diversion of Ermine, who saw that Rachel had never been
laughed at in her life, and was utterly at a loss what to make of it.
“If you meant the cathedral,” she said, a little uncertainly, recollecting
the tone in which Mr. Clare had just been spoken of, and thinking that
perhaps Miss Keith might be a curatolatress, “I am afraid it is not of
much benefit to people living at this distance, and there is not much to
be said for the imitation here.”
“You will see what my sister says to it. She only wants training to be the
main strength of the Bishopsworthy choir, and perhaps she may find it
here.”
Rachel was evidently undecided whether chants or marches were Miss Keith’s
passion, and, perhaps, which propensity would render the young lady the
most distasteful to herself. Ermine thought it merciful to divert the
attack by mentioning Mr. Clare’s love of music, and hoping his curate
could gratify it. “No,” Mr. Keith said, “it was very unlucky that Mr.
Lifford did not know one note from another; so that his vicar could not
delude himself into hoping that his playing on his violin was anything but
a nuisance to his companion, and in spite of all the curate’s persuasions,
he only indulged himself therewith on rare occasions.” But as Ermine
showed surprise at the retention of a companion devoid of this sixth
sense, so valuable to the blind, he added—“No one would suit him so
well. Mr. Lifford has been with him ever since his sight began to fail,
and understands all his ways.”
“Yes, that makes a great difference.”
“And,” pursued the young man, coming to something like life as he talked
of his uncle, “though he is not quite all that a companion might be, my
uncle says there would be no keeping the living without him, and I do not
believe there would, unless my uncle would have me instead.”
Ermine laughed and looked interested, not quite knowing what other answer
to make. Rachel lifted up her eyebrows in amazement.
“Another advantage,” added Alick, who somehow seemed to accept Ermine as
one of the family, “is, that he is no impediment to Bessie’s living there,
for, poor man, he has a wife, but insane.”
“Then your sister will live there?” said Rachel. “What an enviable
position, to have the control of means of doing good that always falls to
the women of a clerical family.”
“Tell her so,” said the brother, with his odd, suppressed smile.
“What, she does not think so?”
“Now,” said Mr. Keith, leaning back, “on my answer depends whether Bessie
enters this place with a character for chanting, croquet, or crochet.
Which should you like worst, Miss Curtis?”
“I like evasions worst of all,” said Rachel, with a flash of something
like playful spirit, though there was too much asperity in it.
“But you see, unfortunately, I don’t know,” said Alick Keith, slowly. “I
have never been able to find out, nor she either. I don’t know what may be
the effect of example,” he added. Ermine wondered whether he were in
mischief or earnest, and suspected a little of both.
“I shall be very happy to show Miss Keith any of my ways,” said Rachel,
with no doubts at all; “but she will find me terribly impeded here. When
does she come?”
“Not for a month or six weeks, when the wedding will be over. It is high
time she saw something of her respected guardian.”
“The Colonel?”
“Yes;” then to Ermine, “Every one turns to him with reliance and
confidence. I believe no one in the army received so many last charges as
he has done, or executes them more fully.”
“And,” said Ermine, feeling pleasure colour her cheek more deeply than was
convenient, “you are relations.”
“So far away that only a Scotsman would acknowledge the cousinship.”
“But do not you call yourself Scotch?” said Ermine, who had for years
thought it glorious to do so.
“My great grandfather came from Gowan-brae,” said Alick; “but our branch
of the family has lived and died in the —th Highlanders for so many
generations that we don’t know what a home is out of it. Our birthplaces—yes,
and our graves—are in all parts of the world.”
“Were you ever in Scotland?”
“Never; and I dread nothing so much as being quartered there. Just imagine
the trouble it would be to go over the pedigree of every Keith I met, and
to dine with them all upon haggis and sheeps’ head!”
“There’s no place I want to see as much as Scotland,” said Rachel.
“Oh, yes! young ladies always do.”
“It is not for a young lady reason,” said Rachel, bluntly. “I want to
understand the principle of diffused education, as there practised. The
only other places I should really care to see are the Grand Reformatory
for the Destitute in Holland, and the Hospital for Cretins in
Switzerland.”
“Scotch pedants, Dutch thieves, Swiss goîtres—I will bear your
tastes in mind,” said Mr. Keith, rising to take leave.
“Really,” said Rachel, when he was gone, “if he had not that silly
military tone of joking, there might be something tolerable about him if
he got into good hands. He seems to have some good notions about his
sister. She must be just out of the school-room, at the very turn of life,
and I will try to get her into my training and show her a little of the
real beauty and usefulness of the career she has before her. How late he
has stayed! I am afraid there is no time for the manuscripts.”
And though Ermine was too honest to say she was sorry, Rachel did not miss
the regret.
Colonel Keith came the next day, and under his arm was a parcel, which was
laid in little Rose’s arms, and, when unrolled, proved to contain a
magnificent wax doll, no doubt long the object of unrequited attachment to
many a little Avoncestrian, a creature of beauteous and unmeaning face,
limpid eyes, hair that could be brushed, and all her members waxen, as far
as could be seen below the provisional habiliment of pink paper that
enveloped her. Little Rose’s complexion became crimson, and she did not
utter a word, while her aunt, colouring almost as much, laughed and asked
where were her thanks.
“Oh!” with a long gasp, “it can’t be for me!”
“Do you think it is for your aunt?” said the Colonel.
“Oh, thank you! But such a beautiful creature for me!” said Rose, with
another gasp, quite oppressed. “Aunt Ermine, how shall I ever make her
clothes nice enough?”
“We will see about that, my dear. Now take her into the verandah and
introduce her to Violetta.”
“Yes;” then pausing and looking into the fixed eyes, “Aunt Ermine, I never
saw such a beauty, except that one the little girl left behind on the
bench on the esplanade, when Aunt Ailie said I should be coveting if I
went on wishing Violetta was like her.”
“I remember,” said Ermine, “I have heard enough of that ‘ne plus ultra’ of
doll! Indeed, Colin, you have given a great deal of pleasure, where the
materials of pleasure are few. No one can guess the delight a doll is to a
solitary imaginative child.”
“Thank you,” he said, smiling.
“I believe I shall enjoy it as much as Rose,” added Ermine, “both for play
and as a study. Please turn my chair a little this way, I want to see the
introduction to Violetta. Here comes the beauty, in Rose’s own cloak.”
Colonel Keith leant over the back of her chair and silently watched, but
the scene was not quite what they expected. Violetta was sitting in her
“slantingdicular” position on her chair placed on a bench, and her little
mistress knelt down before her, took her in her arms, and began to hug
her.
“Violetta, darling, you need not be afraid! There is a new beautiful
creature come, and I shall call her Colinette, and we must be very kind to
her, because Colonel Keith is so good, and knows your grandpapa; and to
tell you a great secret, Violetta, that you must not tell Colinette or
anybody, I think he is Aunt Ermine’s own true knight.”
“Hush!” whispered the Colonel, over Ermine’s head, as he perceived her
about to speak.
“So you must be very good to her, Violetta, and you shall help me make her
clothes; but you need not be afraid I ever could love any one half or one
quarter as much as you, my own dear child, not if she were ten times as
beautiful, and so come and show her to Augustus. She’ll never be like you,
dear old darling.”
“It is a study,” said the Colonel, as Rose moved off with a doll in either
hand; “a moral that you should take home.”
Ermine shook her head, but smiled, saying, “Tell me, does your young
cousin know—”
“Alick Keith! Not from me, and Lady Temple is perfectly to be trusted; but
I believe his father knew it was for no worse reason that I was made to
exchange. But never mind, Ermine, he is a very good fellow, and what is
the use of making a secret of what even Violetta knows?”
There was no debating the point, for her desire of secrecy was prompted by
the resolution to leave him unbound, whereas his wish for publicity was
with the purpose of binding himself, and Ermine was determined that
discussion was above all to be avoided, and that she would, after the
first explanation, keep the conversation upon other subjects. So she only
answered with another reproving look and smile, and said, “And now I am
going to make you useful. The editor of the ‘Traveller’ is travelling, and
has left his work to me. I have been keeping some letters for him to
answer in his own hand, because mine betrays womanhood; but I have just
heard that he is to stay about six weeks more, and people must be put out
of their misery before that. Will you copy a few for me? Here is some
paper with the office stamp.”
“What an important woman you are, Ermine.”
“If you had been in England all this time, you would see how easy the step
is into literary work; but you must not betray this for the ‘Traveller’s’
sake or Ailie’s.”
“Your writing is not very womanish,” said the colonel, as she gave him his
task. “Or is this yours? It is not like that of those verses on Malvern
hills that you copied out for me, the only thing you ever gave me.”
“I hope it is more to the purpose than it was then, and it has had to
learn to write in all sorts of attitudes.”
“What’s this?” as he went on with the paper; “your manuscript entitled
‘Curatocult.’ Is that the word? I had taken it for the produce of Miss
Curtis’s unassisted genius.”
“Have you heard her use it!” said Ermine, disconcerted, having by no means
intended to betray Rachel.
“Oh yes! I heard her declaiming on Sunday about what she knows no more
about than Conrade! A detestable, pragmatical, domineering girl! I am
thankful that I advised Lady Temple only to take the house for a year. It
was right she should see her relations, but she must not be tyrannized
over.”
“I don’t believe she dislikes it.”
“She dislikes no one! She used to profess a liking for a huge Irishwoman,
whose husband had risen from the ranks; the most tremendous woman I ever
saw, except Miss Curtis.”
“You know they were brought up together like sisters.”
“All the worse, for she has the habit of passive submission. If it were
the mother it would be all right, and I should be thankful to see her in
good keeping, but the mother and sister go for nothing, and down comes
this girl to battle every suggestion with principles picked up from every
catchpenny periodical, things she does not half understand, and enunciates
as if no one had even heard of them before.”
“I believe she seldom meets any one who has. I mean to whom they are
matters of thought. I really do like her vigour and earnestness.”
“Don’t say so, Ermine! One reason why she is so intolerable to me is that
she is a grotesque caricature of what you used to be.”
“You have hit it! I see why I always liked her, besides that it is
pleasant to have any sort of visit, and a good scrimmage is refreshing;
she is just what I should have been without papa and Edward to keep me
down, and without the civilizing atmosphere at the park.”
“Never.”
“No, I was not her equal in energy and beneficence; and I was younger when
you came. But I feel for her longing to be up and doing, and her puzzled
chafing against constraint and conventionality, though it breaks out in
very odd effervescences.”
“Extremely generous of you when you must be bored to death with her
interminable talk.”
“You don’t appreciate the pleasure of variety! Besides, she really
interests me, she is so full of vigorous crudities. I believe all that is
unpleasing in her arises from her being considered as the clever woman of
the family; having no man nearly connected enough to keep her in check,
and living in society that does not fairly meet her. I want you to talk to
her, and take her in hand.”
“Me! Thank you, Ermine! Why, I could not even stand her talking about you,
though she has the one grace of valuing you.”
“Then you ought, in common gratitude, for there is no little greatness of
soul in patiently coming down to Mackarel Lane to be snubbed by one’s
cousin’s governess’s sister.”
“If you will come up to Myrtlewood, you don’t know what you may do.”
“No, you are to set no more people upon me, though Lady Temple’s eyes are
very wistful.”
“I did not think you would have held out against her.”
“Not when I had against you? No, indeed, though I never did see anybody
more winning than she is in that meek, submissive gentleness! Alison says
she has cheered up and grown like another creature since your arrival.”
“And Alexander Keith’s. Yes, poor thing, we have brought something of her
own old world, where she was a sort of little queen in her way. It is too
much to ask me to have patience with these relations, Ermine. If you could
see the change from the petted creature she was with her mother and
husband, almost always the first lady in the place, and latterly with a
colonial court of her own, and now, ordered about, advised, domineered
over, made nobody of, and taking it as meekly and sweetly as if she were
grateful for it! I verily believe she is! But she certainly ought to come
away.”
“I am not so sure of that. It seems to me rather a dangerous
responsibility to take her away from her own relations, unless there were
any with equal claims.”
“They are her only relations, and her husband had none. Still to be under
the constant yoke of an overpowering woman with unfixed opinions seems to
be an unmitigated evil for her and her boys; and no one’s feelings need be
hurt by her fixing herself near some public school for her sons’
education. However, she is settled for this year, and at the end we may
decide.”
With which words he again applied himself to Ermine’s correspondence, and
presently completed the letter, offering to direct the envelope, which she
refused, as having one already directed by the author. He rather
mischievously begged to see it that he might judge of the character of the
writing, but this she resisted.
However, in four days’ time there was a very comical twinkle in his eye,
as he informed her that the new number of the “Traveller” was in no favour
at the Homestead, “there was such a want of original thought in it.”
Ermine felt her imprudence in having risked the betrayal, but all she did
was to look at him with her full, steady eyes, and a little twist in each
corner of her mouth, as she said, “Indeed! Then we had better enliven it
with the recollections of a military secretary,” and he was both convinced
of what he guessed, and also that she did not think it right to tell him;
“But,” he said, “there is something in that girl, I perceive, Ermine; she
does think for herself, and if she were not so dreadfully earnest that she
can’t smile, she would be the best company of any of the party.”
“I am so glad you think so! I shall be delighted if you will really talk
to her, and help her to argue out some of her crudities. Indeed she is
worth it. But I suppose you will hardly stay here long enough to do her
any good.”
“What, are you going to order me away?”
“I thought your brother wanted you at home.”
“It is all very well to talk of an ancestral home, but when it consists of
a tall, slim house, with blank walls and pepper-box turrets, set down on a
bleak hill side, and every one gone that made it once a happy place, it is
not attractive. Moreover, my only use there would be to be kept as a tame
heir, the person whose interference would be most resented, and I don’t
recognise that duty.”
“You are a gentleman at large, with no obvious duty,” said Ermine,
meditatively.
“What, none?” bending his head, and looking earnestly at her.
“Oh, if you come here out of duty—” she said archly, and with her
merry laugh. “There, is not that a nice occasion for picking a quarrel?
And seriously,” she continued, “perhaps it might be good for you if we
did. I am beginning to fear that I ought not to keep you lingering here
without purpose or occupation.”
“Fulfil my purpose, and I will find occupation.”
“Don’t say that.”
“This once, Ermine. For one year I shall wait in the hope of convincing
you. If you do not change your mind in that time, I shall look for
another staff appointment, to last till Rose is ready for me.”
The gravity of this conclusion made Ermine laugh. “That’s what you learnt
of your chief,” she said.
“There would be less difference in age,” he said. “Though I own I should
like my widow to be less helpless than poor little Lady Temple. So,” he
added, with the same face of ridiculous earnest, “if you continue to
reject me yourself, you will at least rear her with an especial view to
her efficiency in that capacity.”
And as Rose at that critical moment looked in at the window, eager to be
encouraged to come and show Colinette’s successful toilette, he drew her
to him with the smile that had won her whole heart, and listening to every
little bit of honesty about “my work” and “Aunt Ermine’s work,” he told
her that he knew she was a very managing domestic character, perfectly
equal to the charge of both young ladies.
“Aunt Ermine says I must learn to manage, because some day I shall have to
take care of papa.”
“Yes,” with his eyes on Ermine all the while, “learn to be a useful woman;
who knows if we shan’t all depend on you by-and-by?”
“Oh do let me be useful to you,” cried Rose; “I could hem all your
handkerchiefs, and make you a kettle-holder.”
Ermine had never esteemed him more highly than when he refrained from all
but a droll look, and uttered not one word of the sportive courtship that
is so peculiarly unwholesome and undesirable with children. Perhaps she
thought her colonel more a gentleman than she had done before, if that
were possible; and she took an odd, quaint pleasure in the idea of this
match, often when talking to Alison of her views of life and education,
putting them in the form of what would become of Rose as Lady Keith; and
Colin kept his promise of making no more references to the future. On
moving into his lodgings, the hour for his visits was changed, and unless
he went out to dinner, he usually came in the evening, thus attracting
less notice, and moreover rendering it less easy to lapse into the tender
subject, as Alison was then at home, and the conversation was necessarily
more general.
The afternoons were spent in Lady Temple’s service. Instead of the
orthodox dowager britchska and pair, ruled over by a tyrannical coachman,
he had provided her with a herd of little animals for harness or saddle,
and a young groom, for whom Coombe was answerable. Mrs. Curtis groaned and
feared the establishment would look flighty; but for the first time Rachel
became the colonel’s ally. “The worst despotism practised in England,” she
said, “is that of coachmen, and it is well that Fanny should be spared!
The coachman who lived here when mamma was married, answered her request
to go a little faster, ‘I shall drive my horses as I plazes,’ and I really
think the present one is rather worse in deed, though not in word.”
Moreover, Rachel smoothed down a little of Mrs. Curtis’s uneasiness at
Fanny’s change of costume at the end of her first year of widowhood, on
the ground that Colonel Keith advised her to ride with her sons, and that
this was incompatible with weeds. “And dear Sir Stephen did so dislike the
sight of them,” she added, in her simple, innocent way, as if she were
still dressing to please him.
“On the whole, mother,” said Rachel, “unless there is more heart-break
than Fanny professes, there’s more coquetry in a pretty young thing
wearing a cap that says, ‘come pity me,’ than in going about like other
people.”
“I only wish she could help looking like a girl of seventeen,” sighed Mrs.
Curtis. “If that colonel were but married; or the other young man! I’m
sure she will fall into some scrape; she does not know how, out of sheer
innocence.”
“Well, mother, you know I always mean to ride with her, and that will be a
protection.”
“But, my dear, I am not sure about your riding with these gay officers;
you never used to do such things.”
“At my age, mother, and to take care of Fanny.”
And Mrs. Curtis, in her uncertainty whether to sanction the proceedings
and qualify them, or to make a protest—dreadful to herself, and more
dreadful to Fanny,—yielded the point when she found herself not
backed up by her energetic daughter, and the cavalcade almost daily set
forth from Myrtlewood, and was watched with eyes of the greatest vexation,
if not by kind Mrs. Curtis, by poor Mr. Touchett, to whom Lady Temple’s
change of dress had been a grievous shock. He thought her so lovely, so
interesting, at first; and now, though it was sacrilege to believe it of
so gentle and pensive a face, was not this a return to the world? What had
she to do with these officers? How could her aunt permit it? No doubt it
was all the work of his great foe, Miss Rachel.
It was true that Rachel heartily enjoyed these rides. Hitherto she had
been only allowed to go out under the escort of her tyrant the coachman,
who kept her in very strict discipline. She had not anticipated anything
much more lively with Fanny, her boys, and ponies; but Colonel Keith had
impressed on Conrade and Francis that they were their mother’s prime
protectors, and they regarded her bridle-rein as their post, keeping watch
over her as if her safety depended on them, and ready to quarrel with each
other if the roads were too narrow for all three to go abreast. And as
soon as the colonel had ascertained that she and they were quite
sufficient to themselves, and well guarded by Coombe in the rear, he
ceased to regard himself as bound to their company, but he and Rachel
extended their rides in search of objects of interest. She liked doing the
honours of the county, and achieved expeditions which her coachman had
hitherto never permitted to her, in search of ruins, camps, churches, and
towers. The colonel had a turn for geology, though a wandering life even
with an Indian baggage-train had saved him from incurring her contempt for
collectors; but he knew by sight the character of the conformations of
rocks, and when they had mounted one of the hills that surrounded
Avonmouth, discerned by the outline whether granite, gneiss, limestone, or
slate formed the grander height beyond, thus leading to schemes of more
distant rides to verify the conjectures, which Rachel accepted with the
less argument, because sententious dogmatism was not always possible on
the back of a skittish black mare.
There was no concealing from herself that she was more interested by this
frivolous military society than by any she had ever previously met. The
want of comprehension of her pursuits in her mother’s limited range of
acquaintance had greatly conduced both to her over-weening manner and to
her general dissatisfaction with the world, and for the first time she was
neither succumbed to, giggled at, avoided, nor put down with a grave,
prosy reproof. Certainly Alick Keith, as every one called him, nettled her
extremely by his murmured irony, but the acuteness of it was diverting in
such a mere lad, and showed that if he could only once be roused, he might
be capable of better things. There was an excitement in his unexpected
manner of seeing things that was engaging as well as provoking; and Rachel
never felt content if he were at Myrtlewood without her seeing him, if
only because she began to consider him as more dangerous than his elder
namesake, and so assured of his position that he did not take any pains to
assert it, or to cultivate Lady Temple’s good graces; he was simply at
home and perfectly at ease with her.
Colonel Keith’s tone was different. He was argumentative where his young
cousin was sarcastic. He was reading some of the books over which Rachel
had strained her capacities without finding any one with whom to discuss
them, since all her friends regarded them as poisonous; and even Ermine
Williams, without being shaken in her steadfast trust, was so haunted and
distressed in her lonely and unvaried life by the echo of these shocks to
the faith of others, that absolutely as a medical precaution she abstained
from dwelling on them. On the other hand Colin Keith liked to talk and
argue out his impressions, and found in Rachel the only person with whom
the subject could be safely broached, and thus she for the first time
heard the subjects fairly handled. Hitherto she had never thought that
justice was done to the argument except by a portion of the press, that
drew conclusions which terrified while they allured her, whereas she
appreciated the candour that weighed each argument, distinguishing
principle from prejudice, and religious faith from conventional
construction, and in this measurement of minds she felt the strength, and
acuteness of powers superior to her own. He was not one of the men who
prefer unintellectual women. Perhaps clever men, of a profession not
necessarily requiring constant brain work, are not so much inclined to
rest the mind with feminine empty chatter, as are those whose intellect is
more on the strain. At any rate, though Colonel Keith was attentive and
courteous to every one, and always treated Lady Temple as a prime minister
might treat a queen, his tendency to conversation with Rachel was becoming
marked, and she grew increasingly prone to consult him. The interest of
this new intercourse quite took out the sting of disappointment, when
again Curatocult came back, “declined with thanks.” Nay, before making a
third attempt she hazarded a question on his opinion of female authorship,
and much to her gratification, and somewhat to her surprise, heard that he
thought it often highly useful and valuable.
“That is great candour. Men generally grudge whatever they think their own
privilege.”
“Many things can often be felt and expressed by an able woman better than
by a man, and there is no reason that the utterance of anything worthy to
be said should be denied, provided it is worthy to be said.”
“Ah! there comes the hit. I wondered if you would get through without it.”
“It was not meant as a hit. Men are as apt to publish what is not worth
saying as women can be, and some women are so conscientious as only to put
forth what is of weight and value.”
“And you are above wanting to silence them by palaver about unfeminine
publicity?”
“There is no need of publicity. Much of the best and most wide-spread
writing emanates from the most quiet, unsuspected quarters.”
“That is the benefit of an anonymous press.”
“Yes. The withholding of the name prevents well-mannered people from
treating a woman as an authoress, if she does not proclaim herself one;
and the difference is great between being known to write, and setting up
for an authoress.”
“Between fact and pretension. But write or not write, there is an
instinctive avoidance of an intellectual woman.”
“Not always, for the simple manner that goes with real superiority is
generally very attractive. The larger and deeper the mind, the more there
would be of the genuine humbleness and gentleness that a shallow nature is
incapable of. The very word humility presupposes depth.”
“I see what you mean,” said Rachel. “Gentleness is not feebleness, nor
lowness lowliness. There must be something held back.”
“I see it daily,” said Colonel Keith; and for a moment he seemed about to
add something, but checked himself, and took advantage of an interruption
to change the conversation.
“Superior natures lowly and gentle!” said Rachel to herself. “Am I so to
him, then, or is he deceiving himself? What is to be done? At my age! Such
a contravention of my principles! A soldier, an honourable, a title in
prospect, Fanny’s major! Intolerable! No, no! My property absorbed by a
Scotch peerage, when I want it for so many things! Never. I am sorry for
him though. It is hard that a man who can forgive a woman for intellect,
should be thrown back on poor little Fanny; and it is gratifying—.
But I am untouched yet, and I will take care of myself. At my age a woman
who loves at all, loves with all the gathered force of her nature, and I
certainly feel no such passion. No, certainly not; and I am resolved not
to be swept along till I have made up my mind to yield to the force of the
torrent. Let us see.”
“Grace, my dear,” said Mrs. Curtis, in one of her most confidential
moments, “is not dear Rachel looking very well? I never saw her dress so
well put on.”
“Yes, she is looking very handsome,” said Grace. “I am glad she has
consented to have her hair in that new way, it is very becoming to her.”
“I—I don’t know that it is all the hair,” said the mother,
faltering, as if half ashamed of herself; “but it seemed to me that we
need not have been so uneasy about dear Fanny. I think, don’t you? that
there may be another attraction. To be sure, it would be at a terrible
distance from us; but so good and kind as he is, it would be such a thing
for you and Fanny as well—” Grace gave a great start.
“Yes, my dear,” Mrs. Curtis gently prosed on with her speculation, “she
would be a dreadful loss to us; but you see, so clever and odd as she is,
and with such peculiar ideas, I should be so thankful to see her in the
hands of some good, sensible man that would guide her.”
“But do you really think it is so, mother?”
“Mind, my dear, it is nothing to build on, but I cannot help being struck,
and just thinking to myself. I know you’ll not say anything.”
Grace felt much distressed after this communication had opened her eyes to
certain little touches of softening and consciousness that sat oddly
enough on her sister. From the first avowal of Colonel Keith’s
acquaintance with the Williamses, she had concluded him to be the nameless
lover, and had been disappointed that Alison, so far from completing the
confidence, had become more reserved than ever, leaving her to wonder
whether he were indeed the same, or whether his constancy had survived the
change of circumstances. There were no grounds on which to found a
caution, yet Grace felt full of discomfort and distrust; a feeling shared
by Alison, who had never forgiven herself for her half confidence, and
felt that it would be wiser to tell the rest, but was withheld by knowing
that her motive would actuate her sister to a contrary course. That Colin
should detach himself from her, love again, and marry, was what Ermine
schooled herself to think fitting; but Alison alternated between indignant
jealousy for her sister, and the desire to warn Rachel that she might at
best win only the reversion of his heart. Ermine was happy and content
with his evening visits, and would not take umbrage at the daily rides,
nor the reports of drawing-room warfare, and Alison often wavered between
the desire of preparing her, and the doubt whether it were not cruel to
inflict the present pain of want of confidence. If that were a happy
summer to some at Avonmouth, it was a very trying one to those two
anxious, yet apparently uninterested sisters, who were but lookers-on at
the game that affected their other selves.
At length, however, came a new feature into the quiet summer life at
Avonmouth. Colin looked in on Ermine one morning to announce, with
shrugged shoulders, and a face almost making game of himself, that his
brother was coming! Lord Keith had been called to London on business, and
would extend his journey to come and see what his brother was doing.
“This comes of being the youngest of the family,” observed Colin,
meditatively. “One is never supposed capable of taking care of one’s self.
With Keith I shall be the gay extravagant young officer to the end of my
days.”
“You are not forgiving to your brother,” said Ermine.
“You have it in your power to make me so,” he said eagerly.
“Then you would have nothing to forgive,” she replied, smiling.
Lady Temple’s first thought was a renewal of her ardent wish that Ermine
should be at Myrtlewood; and that Mackarel Lane, and the governesship
should be as much as possible kept out of sight. Even Alison was on her
side; not that she was ashamed of either, but she wished that Ermine
should see and judge with her own eyes of Colin’s conduct, and also
eagerly hailed all that showed him still committed to her sister. She was
proportionably vexed that he did not think it expedient to harass Ermine
with further invitations.
“My brother knows the whole,” he said, “and I do not wish to attempt to
conceal anything.”
“I do not mean to conceal,” faltered Fanny, “only I thought it might save
a shock—appearances—he might think better of it, if—”
“You thought only what was kind,” answered the colonel, “and I thank you
for it most warmly; but this matter does not depend on my brother’s
consent, and even if it did, Ermine’s own true position is that which is
most honourable to her.”
Having said this, he was forced to console Fanny in her shame at her own
kind attempt at this gentle little feminine subterfuge. He gratified her,
however, by not interfering with her hospitable instincts of doing honour
to and entertaining his brother, for whose sake her first approach to a
dinner party was given; a very small one, but treated by her and her
household as a far more natural occurrence than was any sort of
entertainment at the Homestead. She even looked surprised, in her quiet
way, at Mrs. Curtis’s proffers of assistance in the et ceteras, and
gratefully answered for Coombe’s doing the right thing, without troubling
herself further. Mrs. Curtis was less easy in her mind, her housewifely
soul questioned the efficiency of her niece’s establishment, and she was
moreover persuaded that Lord Keith must be bent on inspecting his
brother’s choice, while even Rachel felt as if the toils of fate were
being drawn round her, and let Grace embellish her for the dinner party,
in an odd sort of mood, sometimes rejecting her attempts at decoration,
sometimes vouchsafing a glance at the glass, chiefly to judge whether her
looks were really as repellently practical and intellectual as she had
been in the habit of supposing. The wreath of white roses, which she wore
for the first time, certainly had a pleasing and softening effect, and she
was conscious that she had never looked so well; then was vexed at the
solicitude with which her mother looked her over, and fairly blushed with
annoyance at the good lady’s evident satisfaction.
But, after all, Rachel, at her best, could not have competed with the
grace of the quiet little figure that received them, the rich black silk
giving dignity to the slender form, and a sort of compromise between veil
and cap sheltering the delicate fair face; and with a son on each side,
Fanny looked so touchingly proud and well supported, and the boys were so
exultant and admiring at seeing her thus dressed, that it was a very
pretty sight, and struck the first arrived of her guests, Mr. Touchett,
quite dumb with admiration. Colonel Hammond, the two Keiths, and their
young kinsman, completed the party. Lord Keith of Gowanbrae was best
described by the said young kinsman’s words “a long-backed Scotchman.” He
was so intensely Scottish that he made his brother look and sound the
same, whereas ordinarily neither air nor accent would have shown the
colonel’s nation, and there was no definable likeness between them,
except, perhaps, the baldness of the forehead; but the remains of Lord
Keith’s hair were silvered red, whereas Colin’s thick beard and scanty
locks were dark brown, and with a far larger admixture of hoar-frost,
though he was the younger by twenty years, and his brother’s appearance
gave the impression of a far greater age than fifty-eight; there was the
stoop of rheumatism, and a worn, thin look on the face, with its high
cheek bones, narrow lips, and cold eyes, by no means winning. On the other
hand, he was the most finished gentleman that Grace and Rachel had ever
encountered; he had all the gallant polish of manner that the old Scottish
nobility have inherited from the French of the old régime—a manner
that, though Colin possessed all its essentials, had been in some degree
rubbed off in the frankness of his military life, but which the old
nobleman retained in its full perfection. Mrs. Curtis admired it extremely
as a specimen of the “old school,” for which she had never ceased to
mourn; and Rachel felt as if it took her breath away by the likeness to
Louis XIV.; but, strange to say, Lady Temple acted as if she were quite in
her element. It might be that the old man’s courtesy brought back to her
something of the tender chivalry of her soldier husband, and that a sort
of filial friendliness had become natural to her towards an elderly man,
for she responded at once, and devoted herself to pleasing and
entertaining him. Their civilities were something quite amusing to watch,
and in the evening, with a complete perception of his tastes, she got up a
rubber for him.
“Can you bear it? You will not like to play?” murmured the colonel to her,
as he rung for the cards, recollecting the many evenings of whist with her
mother and Sir Stephen.
“Oh! I don’t mind. I like anything like old times, and my aunt does not
like playing—”
No, for Mrs. Curtis had grown up in a family where cards were disapproved,
and she felt it a sad fall in Fanny to be playing with all the skill of
her long training, and receiving grand compliments from Lord Keith on
joint victories over the two colonels. It was a distasteful game to all
but the players, for Rachel felt slightly hurt at the colonel’s defection,
and Mr. Touchett, with somewhat of Mrs. Curtis’s feeling that it was a
backsliding in Lady Temple, suddenly grew absent in a conversation that he
was holding with young Mr. Keith upon—of all subjects in the world—lending
library books, and finally repaired to the piano, where Grace was playing
her mother’s favourite music, in hopes of distracting her mind from
Fanny’s enormity; and there he stood, mechanically thanking Miss Curtis,
but all the time turning a melancholy eye upon the game. Alick Keith,
meanwhile, sat himself down near Rachel and her mother, close to an open
window, for it was so warm that even Mrs. Curtis enjoyed the air; and
perhaps because that watching the colonel had made Rachel’s discourses
somewhat less ready than usual, he actually obtained an interval in which
to speak! He was going the next day to Bishops Worthy, there to attend his
cousin’s wedding, and at the end of a fortnight to bring his sister for
her visit to Lady Temple. This sister was evidently his great care, and it
needed but little leading to make him tell a good deal about her. She had,
it seemed, been sent home from the Cape at about ten years old, when the
regiment went to India, and her brother who had been at school, then was
with her for a short time before going out to join the regiment.
“Why,” said Rachel, recovering her usual manner, “you have not been ten
years in the army!”
“I had my commission at sixteen,” he answered.
“You are not six-and-twenty!” she exclaimed.
“You are as right as usual,” was the reply, with his odd little smile; “at
least till the 1st of August.”
“My dear!” said her mother, more alive than Rachel to his amusement at her
daughter’s knowing his age better than he did himself, but adding,
politely, “you are hardly come to the time of life for liking to hear that
your looks deceived us.”
“Boys are tolerated,” he said, with a quick glance at Rachel; but at that
moment something many-legged and tickling flitted into the light, and
dashed over her face. Mrs. Curtis was by no means a strong-minded woman in
the matter of moths and crane-flies, disliking almost equally their sudden
personal attentions and their suicidal propensities, and Rachel dutifully
started up at once to give chase to the father-long-legs, and put it out
of window before it had succeeded in deranging her mother’s equanimity
either by bouncing into her face, or suspending itself by two or three
legs in the wax of the candle. Mr. Keith seconded her efforts, but the
insect was both lively and cunning, eluding them with a dexterity
wonderful in such an apparently over-limbed creature, until at last it
kindly rested for a moment with its wooden peg of a body sloping, and most
of its thread-like members prone upon a newspaper, where Rachel descended
on it with her pocket-handkerchief, and Mr. Keith tried to inclose it with
his hands at the same moment. To have crushed the fly would have been
melancholy; to have come down on the young soldier’s fingers, awkward; but
Rachel did what was even more shocking—her hands did descend on,
what should have been fingers, but they gave way under her—she felt
only the leather of the glove between her and the newspaper. She jumped
and very nearly cried out, looking up with an astonishment and horror only
half reassured by his extremely amused smile. “I beg your pardon; I’m so
sorry—” she gasped confused.
“Inferior animals can dispense with a member more or less,” he replied,
giving her the other corner of the paper, on which they bore their capture
to the window, and shook it till it took wing, with various legs streaming
behind it. “That venerable animal is apparently indifferent to having left
a third of two legs behind him,” and as he spoke he removed the already
half drawn-off left-hand glove, and let Rachel see for a moment that it
had only covered the thumb, forefinger, two joints of the middle, and one
of the third; the little finger was gone, and the whole hand much scarred.
She was still so much dismayed that she gasped out the first question she
had ever asked him—
“Where—?”
“Not under the handkerchief,” he answered, picking it up as if he thought
she wanted convincing. “At Delhi, I imagine.”
At that moment, Grace, as an act of general beneficence certainly pleasing
to her mother, began to sing. It was a stop to all conversation, for Mrs.
Curtis particularly disliked talking during singing, and Rachel had to
digest her discoveries at her leisure, as soon as she could collect
herself after the unnatural and strangely lasting sensation of the solid
giving way. So Grace was right, he was no boy, but really older than
Fanny, the companion of her childhood, and who probably would have married
her had not the general come in the way! Here was, no doubt, the real
enemy, while they had all been thinking of Colonel Keith. A man only now
expecting his company! It would sound more absurd. Yet Rachel was not wont
to think how things would sound! And this fresh intense dislike provoked
her. Was it the unsuitability of the young widow remarrying? “Surely,
surely, it must not be that womanhood in its contemptible side is still so
strong that I want to keep all for myself! Shame! And this may be the true
life love, suppressed, now able to revive! I have no right to be
disgusted, I will watch minutely, and judge if he will be a good guide and
father to the boys, though it may save the colonel trouble. Pish! what
have I to do with either? Why should I think about them? Yet I must care
for Fanny, I must dislike to see her lower herself even in the eyes of the
world. Would it really be lowering herself? I cannot tell, I must think it
out. I wish that game was over, or that Grace would let one speak.”
But songs and whist both lasted till the evening was ended by Lady Temple
coming up to the curate with her winnings and her pretty smile, “Please,
Mr. Touchett, let this go towards some treat for the school children. I
should not like to give it in any serious way, you know, but just for some
little pleasure for them.”
If she had done it on purpose, she could not have better freshly riveted
his chains. That pensive simplicity, with the smile of heartfelt
satisfaction at giving pleasure to anybody, were more and more engaging as
her spirits recovered their tone, and the most unsatisfactory
consideration which Rachel carried away that evening was that Alexander
Keith being really somewhat the senior, if the improvement in Fanny’s
spirits were really owing to his presence, the objection on the score of
age would not hold. But, thought Rachel, Colonel Keith being her own, what
united power they should have over Fanny. Pooh! she had by no means
resigned herself to have him, though for Fanny’s sake it might be well,
and was there not a foolish prejudice in favour of married women, that
impeded the usefulness of single ones? However, if the stiff, dry old man
approved of her for her fortune’s sake, that would be quite reason enough
for repugnance.
The stiff old man was the pink of courtesy, and paid his respects in due
order to his brother’s friends the next day, Colin attending in his old
aide-de-camp fashion. It was curious to see them together. The old peer
was not at all ungracious to his brother; indeed, Colin had been agreeably
surprised by an amount of warmth and brotherliness that he had never
experienced from him before, as if old age had brought a disposition to
cling to the remnant of the once inconveniently large family, and make
much of the last survivor, formerly an undesirable youngest favourite,
looked on with jealous eyes and thwarted and retaliated on for former
petting, as soon as the reins of government fell from the hands of the
aged father. Now, the elder brother was kind almost to patronizing, though
evidently persuaded that Colin was a gay careless youth, with no harm in
him, but needing to be looked after; and as to the Cape, India, and
Australia being a larger portion of the world than Gowanbrae, Edinburgh,
and London, his lordship would be incredulous to the day of his death.
He paid his formal and gracious visits at Myrtlewood and the Homestead,
and then supposed that his brother would wish him to call upon “these
unfortunate ladies.” Colin certainly would have been vexed if he had
openly slighted them; but Alison, whom the brothers overtook on their way
into Mackarel Lane, did not think the colonel looked in the most
felicitous frame of mind, and thought the most charitable construction
might be that he shared her wishes that she could be a few minutes in
advance; to secure that neither Rose’s sports nor Colinette’s toilette
were very prominent.
All was right, however; Ermine’s taste for the fitness of things had
trained Rose into keeping the little parlour never in stiff array, but
also never in a state to be ashamed of, and she herself was sitting in the
shade in the garden, whither, after the first introduction, Colin and Rose
brought seats; and the call, on the whole, went off extremely well. Ermine
never let any one be condescending to her, and conducted the conversation
with her usual graceful good breeding, while the colonel, with Rose on his
knee, half talked to the child, half listened and watched.
As soon as he had deposited his brother at the hotel, he came back again,
and in answer to Ermine’s “Well,” he demanded, “What she thought of his
brother, and if he were what she expected?”
“Very much, only older and feebler. And did he communicate his views of
Mackarel Lane? I saw him regarding me as a species of mermaid or syren,
evidently thinking it a great shame that I have not a burnt face. If he
had only known about Rose!”
“The worst of it is that he wants me to go home with him, and I am afraid
I must do so, for now that he and I are the last in the entail, there is
an opportunity of making an arrangement about the property, for which he
is very anxious.”
“Well, you know, I have long thought it would be very good for you.”
“And when I am there I shall have to visit every one in the family;” and
he looked into her eyes to see if she would let them show concern, but she
kept up their brave sparkle as she still said, “You know you ought.”
“Then you deliver me up to Keith’s tender mercies till—”
“Till you have done your duty—and forgiven him.”
“Remember, Ermine, I can’t spend a winter in Scotland. A cold always makes
the ball remind me of its presence in my chest, and I was told that if I
spent a winter at home, it must be on the Devonshire coast.”
“That ball is sufficient justification for ourselves, I allow,” she said,
that one little word our making up for all that had gone before.
“And meantime you will write to me—about Rose’s education.”
“To be sure, or what would be the use of growing old?”
Alison felt savage all through this interview. That perfect understanding
and the playful fiction about waiting for Rose left him a great deal too
free. Ermine might almost be supposed to want to get rid of him, and even
when he took leave she only remained for a few minutes leaning her cheek
on her hand, and scarcely indulged in a sigh before asking to be wheeled
into the house again, nor would she make any remark, save “It has been too
bright a summer to last for ever. It would be very wrong to wish him to
stay dangling here. Let what will happen, he is himself.”
It sounded far too like a deliberate resignation of him, and persuasion
that if he went he would not return to be all he had been. However, the
departure was not immediate, Lord Keith had taken a fancy to the place and
scenery, and wished to see all the lions of the neighbourhood, so that
there were various expeditions in the carriages or on horseback, in which
he displayed his grand courtesy to Lady Temple, and Rachel enjoyed the
colonel’s conversation, and would have enjoyed it still more if she had
not been tracing a meaning in every attention that he paid her, and
considering whether she was committing herself by receiving it. She was
glad he was going away that she might have time to face the subject, and
make up her mind, for she was convinced that the object of his journey was
to make himself certain of his prospects. When he said that he should
return for the winter, and that he had too much to leave at Avonmouth to
stay long away from it, there must be a meaning in his words.
Ermine had one more visit from Lord Keith, and this time he came alone. He
was in his most gracious and courteous mood, and sat talking of
indifferent things for some time, of his aunt Lady Alison, and of
Beauchamp in the old time, so that Ermine enjoyed the renewal of old
associations and names belonging to a world unlike her present one. Then
he came to Colin, his looks and his health, and his own desire to see him
quit the army.
Ermine assented to his health being hardly fit for the army, and
restrained the rising indignation as she recollected what a difference the
best surgical advice might have made ten years ago.
And then, Lord Keith said, a man could hardly be expected to settle down
without marrying. He wished earnestly to see his brother married, but,
unfortunately, charges on his estate would prevent him from doing anything
for him; and, in fact, he did not see any possibility of his—of his
marrying, except a person with some means.
“I understand,” said Ermine, looking straight before her, and her colour
mounting.
“I was sure that a person of your great good sense would do so,” said Lord
Keith. “I assure you no one can be more sensible than myself of the
extreme forbearance, discretion, and regard for my brother’s true welfare
that has been shown here.”
Ermine bowed. He did not know that the vivid carmine that made her look so
handsome was not caused by gratification at his praise, but by the
struggle to brook it patiently.
“And now, knowing the influence over him that, most deservedly, you must
always possess, I am induced to hope that, as his sincere friend, you will
exert it in favour of the more prudent counsels.”
“I have no influence over his judgment,” said Ermine, a little proudly.
“I mean,” said Lord Keith, forced to much closer quarters, “you will
excuse me for speaking thus openly—that in the state of the case,
with so much depending on his making a satisfactory choice, I feel
convinced, with every regret, that you will feel it to be for his true
welfare—as indeed I infer that you have already endeavoured to show
him—to make a new beginning, and to look on the past as past.”
There was something in the insinuating tone of this speech, increased as
it was by the modulation of his Scottish voice, that irritated his hearer
unspeakably, all the more because it was the very thing she had been
doing.
“Colonel Keith must judge for himself,” she said, with a cold manner, but
a burning heart.
“I—I understand,” said Lord Keith, “that you had most honourably,
most consistently, made him aware that—that what once might have
been desirable has unhappily become impossible.”
“Well,” said Ermine.
“And thus,” he proceeded, “that the sincere friendship with which you
still regard him would prevent any encouragement to continue an
attachment, unhappily now hopeless and obstructive to his prospects.”
Ermine’s eyes flashed at the dictation. “Lord Keith,” she said, “I have
never sought your brother’s visits nor striven to prolong them; but if he
finds pleasure in them after a life of disappointment and trouble, I
cannot refuse nor discourage them.”
“I am aware,” said Lord Keith, rising as if to go, “that I have trespassed
long on your time, and made a suggestion only warranted by the generosity
with which you have hitherto acted.”
“One may be generous of one’s own, not of other people’s,” said Ermine.
He looked at her puzzled, then said, “Perhaps it will be best to speak
categorically, Miss Williams. Let it be distinctly understood that my
brother Colin, in paying his addresses to you, is necessarily without my
sanction or future assistance.”
“It might not be necessary, my lord. Good morning;” and her courteous bow
was an absolute dismissal.
But when Alison came home she found her more depressed than she had
allowed herself to be for years, and on asking what was the matter was
answered—
“Pride and perverseness, Ailie!” then, in reply to the eager exclamation,
“I believe he was justified in all he said. But, Ailie, I have preached to
Colin more than I had a right to do about forgiving his brother. I did not
know how provoking he can be. I did not think it was still in me to fly
out as I did!”
“He had no business to come here interfering and tormenting you,” said
Alison, hotly.
“I dare say he thought he had! But one could not think of that when it
came to threatening me with his giving no help to Colin if—There was
no resisting telling him how little we cared!”
“You have not offended him so that he will keep Colin away!”
“The more he tried, the more Colin would come! No, I am not sorry for
having offended him. I don’t mind him; but Ailie, how little one knows!
All the angry and bitter feelings that I thought burnt out for ever when I
lay waiting for death, are stirred up as hotly as they were long ago. The
old self is here as strong as ever! Ailie, don’t tell Colin about this;
but to-morrow is a saint’s day, and would you see Mr. Touchett, and try to
arrange for me to go to the early service? I think then I might better be
helped to conquer this.”
“But, Ermine, how can you? Eight o’clock, you know.”
“Yes, dearest, it will give you a great deal of trouble, but you never
mind that, you know; and I am so much stronger than I used to be, that you
need not fear. Besides, I want help so much! And it is the day Colin goes
away!”
Alison obeyed, as she always obeyed her sister; and Lord Keith, taking his
constitutional turn before breakfast on the esplanade, was met by what he
so little expected to encounter that he had not time to get out of the way—a
Bath chair with Alison walking on one side, his brother on the other. He
bowed coldly, but Ermine held out her hand, and he was obliged to come
near.
“I am glad to have met you,” she said.
“I am glad to see you out so early,” he answered, confused.
“This is an exception,” she said, smiling and really looking beautiful.
“Good-bye, I have thought over what passed yesterday, and I believe we are
more agreed than perhaps I gave you reason to think.”
There was a queenly air of dignified exchange of pardon in her manner of
giving her hand and bending her head as she again said “Good-bye,” and
signed to her driver to move on.
Lord Keith could only say “Good-bye;” then, looking after her, muttered,
“After all, that is a remarkable woman.”
CHAPTER VIII. WOMAN’S MISSION DISCOVERED.
“But O unseen for three long years,
Dear was the garb of mountaineers
To the fair maid of Lorn.”—LORD OF THE ISLES.
“Only nerves,” said Alison Williams, whenever she was pushed hard as to
why her sister continued unwell, and her own looks betrayed an anxiety
that her words would not confess. Rachel, after a visit on the first day,
was of the same opinion, and prescribed globules and enlivenment; but
after a personal administration of the latter in the shape of a discussion
of Lord Keith, she never called in the morning without hearing that Miss
Williams was not up, nor in the afternoon without Alison’s meeting her,
and being very sorry, but really she thought it better for her sister to
be quite quiet.
In fact, Alison was not seriously uneasy about Ermine’s health, for these
nervous attacks were not without precedent, as the revenge for all
excitement of the sensitive mind upon the much-tried constitution. The
reaction must pass off in time, and calm and patience would assist in
restoring her; but the interview with Lord Keith had been a revelation to
her that her affection was not the calm, chastened, mortified, almost dead
thing of the past that she had tried to believe it; but a young, living,
active feeling, as vivid, and as little able to brook interference as when
the first harsh letter from Gowanbrae had fallen like a thunderbolt on the
bright hopes of youth. She looked back at some verses that she had
written, when first perceiving that life was to be her portion, where her
own intended feelings were ascribed to a maiden who had taken the veil,
believing her crusader slain, but who saw him return and lead a recluse
life, with the light in her cell for his guiding star. She smiled sadly to
find how far the imaginings of four and twenty transcended the powers of
four and thirty; and how the heart that had deemed itself able to resign
was chafed at the appearance of compulsion. She felt that the right was
the same as ever; but it was an increased struggle to maintain the
resolute abstinence from all that could bind Colin to her, at the moment
when he was most likely to be detached, and it was a struggle rendered the
more trying by the monotony of a life, scarcely varied except by the
brainwork, which she was often obliged to relinquish.
Nothing, however, here assisted her so much as Lady Temple’s new pony
carriage which, by Fanny’s desire, had been built low enough to permit of
her being easily lifted into it. Inert, and almost afraid of change,
Ermine was hard to persuade, but Alison, guessing at the benefit, was
against her, and Fanny’s wistful eyes and caressing voice were not to be
gainsaid; so she suffered herself to be placed on the broad easy seat, and
driven about the lanes, enjoying most intensely the new scenes, the peeps
of sea, the distant moors, the cottages with their glowing orchards, the
sloping harvest fields, the variety that was an absolute healing to the
worn spirits, and moreover, that quiet conversation with Lady Temple,
often about the boys, but more often about Colonel Keith.
Not only Ermine, but other inhabitants of Avonmouth found the world more
flat in his absence. Rachel’s interest was lessened in her readings after
she had lost the pleasure of discussion, and she asked herself many times
whether the tedium were indeed from love, or if it were simply from the
absence of an agreeable companion. “I will try myself,” she said to
herself; “if I am heartily interested in my occupations by the end of the
next week, then I shall believe myself my own woman!”
But in going back to her occupations, she was more than ordinarily
sensible of their unsatisfactoriness. One change had come over her in the
last few months. She did not so much long for a wider field, as for power
to do the few things within her reach more thoroughly. Her late
discussions had, as it were, opened a second eye, that saw two sides of
questions that she had hitherto thought had only one, and she was restless
and undecided between them, longing for some impulse from within or
without, and hoping, for her own dignity and consistency’s sake, that it
was not only Colonel Keith’s presence which had rendered this summer the
richest in her life.
A test was coming for her, she thought, in the person of Miss Keith.
Judging by the brother, Rachel expected a tall fair dreamy blonde,
requiring to be taught a true appreciation of life and its duties, and
whether the training of this young girl would again afford her food for
eagerness and energy, would, as she said to herself, show whether her
affections were still her own. Moreover, there was the great duty of
deciding whether the brother were worthy of Fanny!
It chanced to be convenient that Rachel should go to Avoncester on the day
of the arrival, and call at the station for the traveller. She recollected
how, five months previously, she had there greeted Fanny, and had seen the
bearded apparition since regarded, with so much jealousy, and now with
such a strangely mixed feeling. This being a far more indifferent errand,
she did not go on the platform, but sat in the carriage reading the report
of the Social Science Congress, until the travellers began to emerge, and
Captain Keith (for he had had his promotion) came up to her with a young
lady who looked by no means like his sister. She was somewhat tall, and in
that matter alone realized Rachel’s anticipations, for she was black-eyed,
and her dark hair was crêpé and turned back from a face of the plump
contour, and slightly rosy complexion that suggested the patches of the
last century; as indeed Nature herself seemed to have thought when
planting near the corner of the mouth a little brown mole, that added
somehow to the piquancy of the face, not exactly pretty, but decidedly
attractive under the little round hat, and in the point device, though
simple and plainly coloured travelling dress.
“Will you allow me a seat?” asked Captain Keith, when he had disposed of
his sister’s goods; and on Rachel’s assent, he placed himself on the back
seat in his lazy manner.
“If you were good for anything, you would sit outside and smoke,” said his
sister.
“If privacy is required for swearing an eternal friendship, I can go to
sleep instead,” he returned, closing his eyes.
“Quite the reverse,” quoth Bessie Keith; “he has prepared me to hate you
all, Miss Curtis.”
“On the mutual aversion principle,” murmured the brother.
“Don’t you flatter yourself! Have you found out, Miss Curtis, that it is
the property of this species always to go by contraries?”
“To Miss Curtis I always appear in the meekest state of assent,” said
Alick.
“Then I would not be Miss Curtis. How horribly you must differ!”
Rachel was absolutely silenced by this cross fire; something so unlike the
small talk of her experience, that her mind could hardly propel itself
into velocity enough to follow the rapid encounter of wits. However,
having stirred up her lightest troops into marching order, she said, in a
puzzled, doubtful way, “How has he prepared you to hate us?—By
praising us?”
“Oh, no; that would have been too much on the surface. He knew the effect
of that,” looking in his sleepy eyes for a twinkle of response. “No; his
very reserve said, I am going to take her to ground too transcendent for
her to walk on, but if I say one word, I shall never get her there at all.
It was a deep refinement, you see, and he really meant it, but I was
deeper,” and she shook her head at him.
“You are always trying which can go deepest?” said Rachel.
“It is a sweet fraternal sport,” returned Alick.
“Have you no brother?” asked Bessie.
“No.”
“Then you don’t know what detestable creatures they are;” but she looked
so lovingly and saucily at her big brother, that Rachel, spite of herself,
was absolutely fascinated by this novel form of endearment. An answer was
spared her by Miss Keith’s rapture at the sight of some soldiers in the
uniform of her father’s old regiment.
“Have a care, Bessie; Miss Curtis will despise you,” said her brother.
“Why should you think so?” exclaimed Rachel, not desirous of putting on a
forbidding aspect to this bright creature.
“Have I not been withered by your scorn?”
“I—I—” Rachel was going to say something of her change of
opinion with regard to military society, but a sudden consciousness set
her cheeks in a flame and checked her tongue; while Bessie Keith, with
ease and readiness, filled up the blank.
“What, Alick, you have brought the service into disrepute! I am ashamed of
you!”
“Oh, no!” said Rachel, in spite of her intolerable blushes, feeling the
necessity of delivering her confession, like a cannon-ball among
skirmishers; “only we had been used to regard officers as necessarily
empty and frivolous, and our recent experience has—has been
otherwise.” Her period altogether failed her.
“There, Alick, is that the effect of your weight of wisdom? I shall be
more impressed with it than ever. It has redeemed the character of your
profession. Captain Keith and the army.”
“I am afraid I cannot flatter myself,” said Alick; and a sort of
reflection of Rachel’s burning colour seemed to have lighted on his cheek;
“its reputation has been in better hands.”
“O Colonel Colin! Depend upon it, he is not half as sage as you, Alick.
Why, he is a dozen years older!—What, don’t you know, Miss Curtis,
that the older people grow the less sage they get?”
“I hope not,” said Rachel.
“Do you! A contrary persuasion sustains me when I see people obnoxiously
sage to their fellow-creatures.”
“Obnoxious sageness in youth is the token that there is stuff behind,”
said Alick, with eagerness that set his sister laughing at him for fitting
on the cap; but Rachel had a sort of odd dreamy perception that Bessie
Keith had unconsciously described her (Rachel’s) own aspect, and that
Alick was defending her, and she was silent and confused, and rather
surprised at the assumption of the character by one who she thought could
never even exert himself to be obnoxious. He evidently did not wish to
dwell on the subject, but began to inquire after Avonmouth matters, and
Rachel in return asked for Mr. Clare.
“Very well,” was the answer; “unfailing in spirits, every one agreed that
he was the youngest man at the wedding.”
“Having outgrown his obnoxious sageness,” said Bessie.
“There is nothing he is so adroit at as guessing the fate of a
croquet-ball by its sound.”
“Now Bessie,” exclaimed Alick.
“I have not transgressed, have I?” asked Bessie; and in the exclamations
that followed, she said, “You see what want of confidence is. This brother
of mine no sooner saw you in the carriage than he laid his commands on me
not to ask after your croquet-ground all the way home, and the poor word
cannot come out of my mouth without—”
“I only told you not to bore Miss Curtis with the eternal subject, as she
would think you had no more brains than one of your mallets,” he said,
somewhat energetically.
“And if we had begun to talk croquet, we should soon have driven him
outside.”
“But suppose I could not talk it,” said Rachel, “and that we have no
ground for it.”
“Why, then,”—and she affected to turn up her eyes,—“I can only
aver that the coincidence of sentiments is no doubt the work of destiny.”
“Bessie!” exclaimed her brother.
“Poor old fellow! you had excuse enough, lying on the sofa to the tune of
tap and click; but for a young lady in the advanced ranks of civilization
to abstain is a mere marvel.”
“Surely it is a great waste of time,” said Rachel.
“Ah! when I have converted you, you will wonder what people did with
themselves before the invention.”
“Woman’s mission discovered,” quoth her brother.
“Also man’s, unless he neglects it,” returned Miss Elizabeth; “I wonder,
now, if you would play if Miss Curtis did.”
“Wisdom never pledges itself how it will act in hypothetical
circumstances,” was the reply.
“Hypothetical,” syllabically repeated Bessie Keith; “did you teach him
that word, Miss Curtis? Well, if I don’t bring about the hypothetical
circumstances, you may call me hyperbolical.”
So they talked, Rachel in a state of bewilderment, whether she were teased
or enchanted, and Alexander Keith’s quiet nonchalance not concealing that
he was in some anxiety at his sister’s reckless talk; but, perhaps, he
hardly estimated the effect of the gay, quaint manner that took all hearts
by storm, and gave a frank careless grace to her nonsense. She grew graver
and softer as she came nearer Avonmouth, and spoke tenderly of the
kindness she had received at the time of her mother’s death at the Cape,
when she had been brought to the general’s, and had there remained like a
child of the house, till she had been sent home on the removal of the
regiment to India.
“I remember,” she said, “Mrs. Curtis kept great order. In fact, between
ourselves, she was rather a dragon; and Lady Temple, though she had one
child then, seemed like my companion and playfellow. Dear little Lady
Temple, I wonder if she is altered!”
“Not in the least,” returned both her companions at once, and she was
quite ready to agree with them when the slender form and fair young face
met her in the hall amid a cloud of eager boys. The meeting was a full
renewal of the parting, warm and fond, and Bessie so comported herself on
her introduction to the children, that they all became enamoured of her on
the spot, and even Stephana relaxed her shyness on her behalf. That sunny
gay good-nature could not be withstood, and Rachel, again sharing Fanny’s
first dinner after an arrival, no longer sat apart despising the military
atmosphere, but listening, not without amusement, to the account of the
humours of the wedding, mingled with Alick Keith’s touches of satire.
“It was very stupid,” said Bessie, “of none of those girls to have Uncle
George to marry them. My aunt fancied he would be nervous, but I know he
did marry a couple when Mr. Lifford was away; I mean him to marry me, as I
told them all.”
“You had better wait till you know whether he will,” observed Alick.
“Will? Oh, he is always pleased to feel he can do like other people,”
returned Bessie; “and I’ll undertake to see that he puts the ring on the
right—I mean the left finger. Because you’ll have to give me away,
you know, Alick, so you can look after him.”
“You seem to have arranged the programme pretty thoroughly,” said Rachel.
“After four weddings at home, one can’t but lay by a little experience for
the future,” returned Bessie; “and after all, Alick need not look as if it
must be for oneself. He is quite welcome to profit by it, if he has the
good taste to want my uncle to marry him.”
“Not unless I were very clear that he liked my choice,” said Alick,
gravely.
“Oh, dear! Have you any doubts, or is that meant for a cut at poor
innocent me, as if I could help people’s folly, or as if he was not gone
to Rio Janeiro,” exclaimed Bessie, with a sort of meek simplicity and
unconsciousness that totally removed all the unsatisfactoriness of the
speech, and made even her brother smile while he looked annoyed; and Lady
Temple quietly changed the conversation. Alick Keith was obliged to go
away early, and the three ladies sat long in the garden outside the
window, in the summer twilight, much relishing the frank-hearted way in
which this engaging girl talked of herself and her difficulties to Fanny
as to an old friend, and to Rachel as belonging to Fanny.
“I am afraid that I was very naughty,” she said, with a hand laid on Lady
Temple’s, as if to win pardon; “but I never can resist plaguing that dear
anxious brother of mine, and he did so dreadfully take to heart the
absurdities of that little Charlie Carleton, as if any one with brains
could think him good for anything but a croquet partner, that I could not
help giving a little gentle titillation. I saw you did not like it, dear
Lady Temple, and I am sorry for it.”
“I hope I did not vex you,” said Fanny, afraid of having been severe.
“Oh, no, indeed; a little check just makes one feel one is cared for,” and
they kissed affectionately: “you see when one has a very wise brother,
plaguing him is irresistible. How little Stephana will plague hers, in
self-defence, with so many to keep her in order.”
“They all spoil her.”
“Ah, this is the golden age. See what it will be when they think
themselves responsible for her! Dear Lady Temple, how could you send him
home so old and so grave?”
“I am afraid we sent him home very ill. I never expected to see him so
perfectly recovered. I could hardly believe my eyes when Colonel Keith
brought him to the carriage not in the least lame.”
“Yes; and it was half against his will. He would have been almost glad to
be a lay curate to Uncle George, only he knew if he was fit for service my
father would have been vexed at his giving up his profession.”
“Then it was not his choice!” said Rachel.
“Oh, he was born a soldier, like all the rest of us, couldn’t help it. The
—th is our home, and if he would only take my hint and marry, I
could be with him there, now! Lady Temple, do pray send for all the
eligible officers—I don’t know any of them now, except the two
majors, and Alick suspects my designs, I believe, for he won’t tell me
anything about them.”
“My dear!” said Fanny, bewildered, “how you talk; you know we are living a
very quiet life here.”
“Oh, yes, so Alick has told me,” she said, with a pretty compunction in
her tone; “you must be patient with me,” and she kissed Fanny’s fingers
again and spoke in a gentler way. “I am used to be a great chatter-box,
and nobody protested but Alick.”
“I wish you would tell me about his return, my dear; he seemed so unfit to
travel when your poor father came to the hills and took him away by dak.
It seemed so impossible he could bear the journey; he could not stand or
help himself at all, and had constant returns of fever; but they said the
long sea voyage was the only chance, and that in India he could not get
vigour enough to begin to recover. I was very unhappy about him,” said
Fanny, innocently, whilst Rachel felt very vigilant, wondering if Fanny
were the cause of the change his sister spoke of.
“Yes, the voyage did him good, but the tidings of papa’s death came two
months before him, and Uncle George’s eyes were in such a state that he
had to be kept in the dark, so that no one could go and meet the poor dear
boy at Southampton but Mr. Lifford, and the shock of the news he heard
brought the fever back, and it went on intermitting for weeks and weeks.
We had him at Littleworthy at first, thinking he could be better nursed
and more cheerful there, but there was no keeping the house quiet enough.”
“Croquet!” said Rachel.
“Everything!” returned Bessie. “Four courtships in more or less progress,
besides a few flirtations, and a house where all the neighbours were
running in and out in a sociable way. Our loss was not as recent there as
it was to him, and they were only nieces, so we could not have interfered
with them; besides, my aunt was afraid he would be dull, and wanted to
make the most of her conquering hero, and everybody came and complimented
him, and catechised him whether he believed in the Indian mutilations,
when, poor fellow, he had seen horrors enough never to bear to think of
them, except when the fever brought them all over again. I am sure there
was excuse enough for his being a little irritable.”
“My dear,” exclaimed Fanny, quite hurt, “he was patience itself while he
was with us.”
“That’s the difference between illness and recovery, dear Lady Temple! I
don’t blame him. Any one might be irritable with fresh undetected
splinters of bone always working themselves out, all down one side; and
doubts which were worse, the fingers on, or the fingers off, and no escape
from folly or politeness, for he could not even use a crutch. Oh, no, I
don’t blame him; I quite excuse the general dislike he took to everything
at poor dear Littleworthy. He viewed it all like that child in Mrs.
Browning’s poem, ‘seeing through tears the jugglers leap,’ and we have
partaken of the juggler aspect to him ever since!”
“I don’t think he could ever be very irritable,” said Fanny, taking the
accusation much to heart.
“Sister and recovery!” lightly said Bessie; “they encounter what no one
else does! He only pined for Bishopsworthy, and when we let him move
there, after the first month, he and my uncle were happy. I stayed there
for a little while, but I was only in the way, the dear good folks were
always putting themselves out on my account; and as to Alick, you can’t
think how the absence of his poor “souffre-douleur,” invigorated him.
Every day I found him able to put more point into his cutting compliments,
and reading to my uncle with more energy; till at last by the time the
—th came home, he had not so much as a stiff leg to retire upon.
Luckily, he and my uncle both cared too much for my poor father’s wishes
for him to do so without, though if any unlucky chance should take Mr.
Lifford away from my uncle, he threatens coming to supply the vacancy,
unless I should, and that is past hope.”
“Your home is with your uncle,” affirmed Rachel.
“Yes,” she said, mournfully, “dear Littleworthy was too happy to last. It
broke itself up by its own charms—all married and gone, and the last
rose of summer in my poor person must float away. Jane wants her mother
and not me, and my uncle will submit to me as cheerfully as to other
necessary evils. It is not myself that I fear for; I shall be very happy
with the dear uncle, but it will be a dreadful overthrow to his habits.”
“I do not see why it need be,” said Rachel.
“What! two old bachelors with a young lady turned in on them! And the
housekeeper—think of her feelings!”
“I do not think you need be uneasy, my dear,” said Fanny. “Your brother is
convinced that it will be the greatest pleasure and comfort to Mr. Clare
to have you; and though there may be difficulties at first, I am sure
anybody must be the happier for having you,” and she caressed the upturned
face, which responded warmly, but with a sigh.
“Alick is no judge! He is the child of the house, and my uncle and Mr.
Lifford don’t feel complete without him. My uncle is as fond of me as can
be, and he and I could get on beautifully; but then Mr. Lifford is
impracticable.”
“Impracticable?” said Rachel, taking up the long word. “He objects to your
exerting yourself in the parish. I know what that is.”
“Pray, Rachel,” said Fanny, imploringly, “pray don’t say anything against
him! I am very sorry he has annoyed you, but I do like him.”
“Oh, does he play croquet!” cried Bessie.
“I gather,” said Rachel, in her impressive tone, a little disappointed,
“that by impracticable you mean one who will not play croquet.”
“You have hit it!” laughed Bessie. “Who will neither play at croquet, nor
let one work except in his way. Well, there are hopes for you. I cure the
curates of every cure I come near, except, of course, the cure that
touches me most nearly. The shoemaker’s wife goes the worst shod! I’ll
tame yours.”
“My dear, I can’t have poor Mr. Touchett made game of.”
“I won’t make game of him, dear Lady Temple, only make him play a game.”
“But you said Alick did not approve,” said Fanny, with the dimmest
possible ideas of what croquet was, and believing it a wicked flirtation
trap that figured in “Punch.”
“Oh, that’s fudge on Master Alick’s part! Just the remains of his old
miseries, poor fellow. What he wants is love! Now he’ll meet his fate some
of these days; and as he can’t meet three Englishwomen without a mallet in
hand, love and croquet will come together.”
“Alick is very good,” went on Lady Temple, not answering, but arguing with
herself whether this opposition could be right. “Colonel Hammond gave me
such an account of him, so valuable and excellent among the men, and doing
all that is possible for their welfare, interesting himself about their
library, and the regimental school and all. The colonel said he wished
only that he was a little more easy and popular among the young officers;
but so many of his own standing were gone by the time he joined again,
that he lives almost too much to himself, reads a good deal, and is most
exemplary, but does not quite make his influence as available as it might
be.”
“That’s just it,” cried Bessie, eagerly; “the boy is a lazy boy, and wants
shaking up, or he’ll get savage and no good. Can’t you see, by the way he
uses his poor little sister, what an awful don Captain Keith must be to a
schoolboy of an ensign? He must be taught toleration and hunted into
amiability, or he’ll be the most terrible Turk by the time he is a
colonel; and you are the only person that can do it, dear Lady Temple.”
Rachel did not much like this, but it was so prettily and playfully said
that the pleasing impression was quite predominant; and when Rachel took
leave, it was with a sense of vexation that a person whom she had begun to
esteem should be hard upon this bright engaging sister. Yet it might be
well if Fanny took note of the admission that he could be irritable as
well as stern, and sometimes mistaken in his judgments. What would the
Colonel say to all this? The Colonel—here he was coming back again
into her imagination. Another symptom!
The brother left the field entirely to his sister for the present; he was
a good deal occupied after his leave, and other officers being away, he
was detained at Avoncester, and meantime Bessie Keith took all hearts by
storm with her gay good humour and eager sympathy. By the end of the first
morning she had been to the stable with a swarm of boys, patted, and
learnt the names of all the ponies; she was on the warmest terms with the
young spaniel, that, to the Curtises’ vexation, one of the officers had
given Conrade, and which was always getting into the way; she had won
Alison by telling her of Mr. Clare’s recollections of Ermine’s remarkable
beauty and intelligence, and charmed Ermine herself by his kind messages
and her own sunshiny brightness; she had delighted Mrs. Curtis and Grace
by appreciating their views and their flowers; she had discussed hymnals
and chants with Mr. Touchett, and promised her services; she had given a
brilliant object lesson at Mrs. Kelland’s, and received one herself in
lace-making; and had proved herself, to Rachel’s satisfaction, equally
practical and well-read. All the outer world was asking, “Have you seen
the young lady with Lady Temple?”
Nothing came amiss to her, from the antiquity of man to Stephana’s first
words; and whether she taught Grace new stitches, played cricket with
Conrade, made boats for Cyril, prattled with Lady Temple, or studied with
Rachel, all was done with grace, zest, and sympathy peculiarly her own.
Two practisings at the school removed the leaden drawl, and lessened the
twang of the choir; and Mr. Touchett looked quite exalted, while even
Rachel owned that she had hardly believed her ears.
Rachel and she constituted themselves particular friends, and Grace kept
almost aloof in the fear of disturbing them. She had many friends, and
this was the first, except Ermine Williams, to whom Rachel had taken,
since a favourite companion of her youth had disappointed her by a foolish
marriage. Bessie’s confidences had a vigour in them that even Rachel’s
half-way meetings could not check, and then the sharp, clever things she
would say, in accordance with Rachel’s views, were more sympathetic than
anything she had met with. It was another new charm to life.
One great pleasure they enjoyed together was bathing. The Homestead
possessed a little cove of its own under the rocks, where there was a
bathing-house, and full perfection of arrangement for young ladies’
aquatic enjoyment, in safety and absolute privacy. Rachel’s vigorous
strength and health had been greatly promoted by her familiarity with salt
water, and Bessie was in ecstasies at the naiad performances they shared
together on the smooth bit of sandy shore, where they dabbled and floated
fearlessly. One morning, when they had been down very early to be
beforehand with the tide, which put a stop to their enjoyment long before
the breakfast hour, Bessie asked if they could not profit by their leisure
to climb round the edge of the cliff’s instead of returning by the direct
path, and Rachel agreed, with the greater pleasure, that it was an
enterprise she had seldom performed.
Very beautiful, though adventurous, was the walk—now on the brow of
the steep cliff, looking down on the water or on little bays of shingle;
now through bits of thicket that held out brambles to entangle the long
tresses streaming on their shoulders; always in the brisk morning air,
that filled them with strength and spirit, laughing, joking, calling to
one another and to Conrade’s little dog, that, like every other creature,
had attached itself to Bessie, and had followed her from Myrtlewood that
morning, to the vexation of Rachel, who had no love for dogs in their
early youth.
They were beyond the grounds of the Homestead, but had to go a little
further to get into the path, when they paused above a sort of dip or
amphitheatre of rock around a little bay, whilst Rachel began telling of
the smugglers’ traditions that haunted the place—how much brandy and
silk had there been landed in the time of the great French war, and how
once, when hard pressed, a party of smugglers, taking a short cut in the
moonlight midnight across the Homestead gardens, had encountered an
escaped Guinea-pig, and no doubt taking it for the very rat without a
tail, in whose person Macbeth’s witch was to do, and to do, and to do, had
been nearly scared out of their wits.
Her story was cut short by a cry of distress from the dog, and looking
down, they perceived that the poor fellow had been creeping about the
rocks, and had descended to the little cove, whence he was incapable of
climbing up again. They called encouragingly, and pretended to move away,
but he only moaned more despairingly, and leapt in vain.
“He has hurt his foot!” exclaimed Rachel; “I must go down after him. Yes,
Don, yes, poor fellow, I’m coming.”
“My dear Curtia, don’t leap into the gulf!”
“Oh, it’s no great height, and the tide will soon fill up this place.”
“Don’t! don’t! You’ll never be able to get up again.”
But Rachel was already scrambling down, and, in effect, she was
sure-footed and used to her own crags, nor was the distance much above
thirty feet, so that she was soon safe on the shingle, to the extreme
relief of poor Don, shown by grateful whines; but he was still evidently
in pain, and Rachel thought his leg was broken. And how to get up the
rock, with a spaniel that when she tried to lift it became apparently
twice the size she had always believed it to be, and where both hands as
well as feet were required, with the sea fast advancing too?
“My dear Rachel, you will only break your neck, too; it is quite vain to
try!”
“If you could just come to that first rock, perhaps I could push him up to
you!”
Bessie came to it, but screamed. “Oh, I’m not steady; I couldn’t do it!
Besides, it would hurt him so, and I know you would fall. Poor fellow, it
is very sad; but indeed, Rachel, your life is more precious than a dog’s!”
“I can’t leave him to drown,” said Rachel, making a desperate scramble,
and almost overbalancing herself. “Here, if you could only get him by the
scrough of his neck, it would not hurt him so much; poor Don, yes, poor
fellow!” as he whined, but still showed his confidence in the touching
manner of a sensible dog, knowing he is hurt for his good. Bessie made
another attempt, but, unused to rocks, she was uneasy about her footing,
and merely frightened herself. “Indeed,” she said, “I had better run and
call some one; I won’t be long, and you are really quite safe.”
“Yes, quite safe. If you were down here and I above I am sure he could do
it easily.”
“Ah! but I’m no cragswoman; I’ll be back instantly.”
“That way, that’s the shortest; call to Zack or his father,” tried Rachel,
as the light figure quickly disappeared, leaving her a little annoyed at
her predicament. She was not at all alarmed for herself, there was no real
danger of drowning, she could at any moment get up the rock herself if she
chose to leave the dog to its fate; but that she could not bear to think
of, and she even thought the stimulus of necessity might prove the mother
of invention, if succour should not come before that lapping flux and
reflux of water should have crept up the shingly beach, on which she
stood; but she was anxious, and felt more and more drawn to the poor dog,
so suffering, yet so patient and confiding. Nor did she like the
awkwardness of being helped in what ought to be no difficulty at all to a
native, and would not have been had her companion been Grace or even
Conrade. Her hope was that her ally Zack would come, as she had directed
Bessie towards the cottage; but, behold, after a wearily long interval, it
was no blue jacket that appeared, but a round black sea-hide hat, and a
sort of easy clerical-looking dress, that Bessie was fluttering before!
Few words were required, the stranger’s height and length of arms did all
that was needful, and Don was placed in safety with less pain and outcry
than could have been hoped, Rachel ascending before the polite stranger
had time to offer his assistance. The dog’s hurt was, he agreed with
Rachel, a broken leg, and his offer of carrying it home could not be
refused, especially as he touched it with remarkable tenderness and
dexterity, adding that with a splint or two, he thought he had surgery
enough to set the limb.
They were much nearer the Homestead than to Myrtle-wood, and as it had
been already agreed that Bessie should breakfast there, the three bent
their steps up the hill as fast as might be, in consideration of Mrs.
Curtis’s anxieties. Bessie in a state of great exultation and amusement at
the romantic adventure, Rachel somewhat put out at the untoward mishap
that obliged her to be beholden to one of the casual visitors, against
whom her mother had such a prejudice.
Still, the gentleman himself was far from objectionable, in appearance or
manner; his air was that of an educated man, his dress that of a clergyman
at large, his face keen. Rachel remembered to have met him once or twice
in the town within the last few days, and wondered if he could be a person
who had called in at the lace school and asked so many questions that Mrs.
Kelland had decided that he could be after no good; he must be one of the
Parliament folks that they sent down to take the bread out of children’s
mouths by not letting them work as many hours as was good for them. Not
quite believing in a Government commission on lace-making grievances,
Rachel was still prepared to greet a kindred spirit of philanthropy, and
as she reflected more, thought that perhaps it was well that an
introduction had been procured on any terms.
So she thawed a little, and did not leave all the civility to Miss Keith,
but graciously responded to the stranger’s admiration of the views, the
exquisite framings of the summer sea and sky made by tree, rock, and
rising ground, and the walks so well laid out on the little headland, now
on smooth turf, now bordering slopes wild with fern and mountain ash, now
amid luxuriant exotic shrubs that attested the mildness of Avonmouth
winters.
When they came near the front of the house, Rachel took man and dog in
through the open window of her own sitting-room, and hastened to provide
him with bandages and splints, leaving Bessie to reassure Mrs. Curtis that
no human limbs were broken, and that no one was even wet to the skin; nay,
Bessie had even the tact to spare Mrs. Curtis the romantic colouring that
delighted herself. Grace had followed Rachel to assist at the operation,
and was equally delighted with its neatness and tenderness, as well as
equally convinced of the necessity of asking the performer first to wash
his hands and then to eat his breakfast, both which kind proposals he
accepted with diffident gratitude, first casting a glance around the
apartment, which, though he said nothing, conveyed that he was profoundly
struck with the tokens of occupation that it contained. The breakfast was,
in the first place, a very hungry one; indeed, Bessie had been too
ravenous to wait till the surgery was over, and was already arrived at her
second egg when the others appeared, and the story had again to be told to
the mother, and her warm thanks given. Mrs. Curtis did not like strangers
when they were only names, but let her be brought in contact, and her good
nature made her friendly at once, above all in her own house. The stranger
was so grave and quiet too, not at all presuming, and making light of his
services, but only afraid he had been trespassing on the Homestead
grounds. These incursions of the season visitors were so great a grievance
at the Homestead that Mrs. Curtis highly approved his forbearance, whilst
she was pleased with his tribute to her scenery, which he evidently
admired with an artistic eye. Love of sketching had brought him to
Avonmouth; and before he took leave, Mrs. Curtis had accorded him that
permission to draw in her little peninsula for which many a young lady
below was sighing and murmuring. He thanked her with a melancholy look,
confessing that in his circumstances his pencil was his toy and his
solace.
“Once again, that landscape painter!” exclaimed Bessie, with uplifted
hands, as soon as both he and Mrs. Curtis were out of earshot, “an
adventure at last.”
“Not at all,” said Rachel, gravely; “there was neither alarm nor danger.”
“Precisely; the romance minus the disagreeables. Only the sea monster
wanting. Young Alcides, and rock—you stood there for sacrifice, I
was the weeping Dardanian dames.”
Even Grace could not help laughing at the mischief of the one, and the
earnest seriousness of the other.
“Now, Bessie, I entreat that you will not make a ridiculous story of a
most simple affair,” implored Rachel.
“I promise not to make one, but don’t blame me if it makes itself.”
“It cannot, unless some of us tell the story.”
“What, do you expect the young Alcides to hold his tongue? That is more
than can be hoped of mortal landscape painter.”
“I wish you would not call him so. I am sure he is a clergyman.”
“Landscape painter, I would lay you anything you please.”
“Nay,” said Grace, “according to you, that is just what he ought not to
be.”
“I do not understand what diverts you so much,” said Rachel, growing lofty
in her displeasure. “What matters it what the man may be?”
“That is exactly what we want to see,” returned Bessie.
Poor Rachel, a grave and earnest person like her, had little chance with
one so full of playful wit and fun as Bessie Keith, to whom her very
dignity and susceptibility of annoyance made her the better game. To have
involved the grave Rachel in such a parody of an adventure was perfectly
irresistible to her, and to expect absolute indifference to it would, as
Grace felt, have been requiring mere stupidity. Indeed, there was
forbearance in not pushing Rachel further at the moment; but proceeding to
tell the tale at Myrtlewood, whither Grace accompanied Bessie, as a guard
against possible madcap versions capable of misconstruction.
“Yes,” said Rachel to herself, “I see now what Captain Keith regrets. His
sister, with all her fine powers and abilities, has had her tone lowered
to the hateful conventional style of wit that would put me to the blush
for the smallest mishap. I hope he will not come over till it is
forgotten, for the very sight of his disapproval would incite her further.
I am glad the Colonel is not here. Here, of course, he is in my
imagination. Why should I be referring everything to him; I, who used to
be so independent? Suppose this nonsense gave him umbrage? Let it. I might
then have light thrown on his feelings and my own. At any rate, I will not
be conscious. If this stranger be really worth notice, as I think he is, I
will trample on her ridicule, and show how little I esteem it.”
CHAPTER IX. THE NEW SPORT
“‘Sire,’ I replied, ‘joys prove cloudlets,
Men are the merest Ixions.’
Here the King whistled aloud, ‘Let’s,
Heigho, go look at our lions!’
Such are the sorrowful chances
If you talk fine to King Francis.”—R. BROWNING.
The day after Rachel’s adventure with Don a card came into the
drawing-room, and therewith a message that the gentleman had availed
himself of Mrs. Curtis’s kind permission, and was sketching the Spinster’s
Needles, two sharp points of red rock that stood out in the sea at the end
of the peninsula, and were specially appropriated by Rachel and Grace.
The card was written, not engraved, the name “Rd. R. H. C. L. Mauleverer;”
and a discussion ensued whether the first letters stood for Richard or for
Reverend, and if he could be unconscionable enough to have five initials.
The sisters had some business to transact at Villars’s, the Avonmouth
deposit of literature and stationery, which was in the hands of a somewhat
aspiring genius, who edited the weekly paper, and respected Miss Rachel
Curtis in proportion to the number of periodicals she took in, and the
abstruseness of the publications she inquired after. The paper in its
Saturday’s dampness lay fresh on the counter, and glancing at the new
arrivals, Grace had the desired opportunity of pointing to Mr.
Mauleverer’s name, and asking when he had come. About a week since, said
the obliging Mr. Villars, he appeared to be a gentleman of highly literary
and artistic tastes, a philanthropist; indeed, Mr. Villars understood him
to be a clerical gentlemen who had opinions—
“Oh, Rachel, I am very sorry,” said Grace.
“Sorry, what for?”
“Why, you and mamma seemed quite inclined to like him.”
“Well, and what have we heard?”
“Not much that is rational, certainly,” said Grace, smiling; “but we know
what was meant.”
“Granting that we do, what is proved against him? No, I will not say
proved, but alleged. He is one of the many who have thought for themselves
upon the perplexing problems of faith and practice, and has been sincere,
uncompromising, self-sacrificing, in avowing that his mind is still in
that state of solution in which all earnest and original minds must be ere
the crystallizing process sets in. Observe, Grace, I am not saying for an
instant that he is in the right. All I do say is, that when depth of
thought and candour have brought misfortune upon a man, it is ungenerous,
therefore, to treat him as if he had the leprosy.”
“Indeed, Rachel, I think you have made more out of his opinions than I
did.”
“I was only arguing on your construction of his opinions.”
“Take care—!” For they were at this moment reaching a gate of
Myrtlewood, and the sound of hoofs came close behind them. They were those
of the very handsome chestnut, ridden by Alexander Keith, who jumped off
his horse with more alacrity than usual as they were opening the gate for
him, and holding out his hand, eagerly said—
“Then I conclude there is nothing the matter?”
“Nothing at all,” said Grace. “What did you hear?”
“Only a little drowning, and a compound fracture or two,” said he,
relapsing into his languid ease as he gave his bridle to a groom, and
walked with them towards the house.
“There, how very annoying!” exclaimed Rachel, “though, of course, the
smallest adventure does travel.”
“I may venture to hope that neither are you drowned, nor my sister’s leg
broken, nor a celebrated professor and essayist ‘in a high fever wi’
pulling any of you out of the sea.’”
“There, Grace,” exclaimed Rachel; “I told you he was something
distinguished.”
“My dear Rachel, if his celebrity be in proportion to the rest of the
story.”
“Then there really was a rescue!” exclaimed Captain Keith, now with much
more genuine anxiety; and Rachel recollecting her desire that the right
version should have the precedence, quickly answered, “There was no
danger, only Don slipped down into that curved cove where we walked one
day with the boys. I went down after him, but he had broken his leg. I
could not get up with him in my arms, and Bessie called some one to help
me.”
“And why could not Bessie help you herself?”
“Oh! strangers can never climb on our slippery rocks as we can.”
“Moreover, it would have spoilt the predicament,” muttered the brother to
himself; then turning round with a smile, “And is the child behaving
herself?”
Grace and Rachel answered in a eager duet how she was charming every one,
so helpful, so kind, so everything.
“Ah!” he said with real satisfaction, apparent in the eyes that were so
pleasant when open wide enough to be visible; “I knew she always did
better when I was not there.”
They were by this time entering the hall, which, in the confident fashion
of the sea-side, stood open; and at the moment Fanny came tripping
downstairs with her dress looped up, and a shady hat on her head, looking
fearfully girlish, thought her cousins, though her attire was still
rigidly black.
“Oh, I am so glad to see you; Don is so much better, Rachel, and Conrade
wants to thank you. He went up yesterday, and was so sorry you were out.
Might it not have been dreadful, Alick? I have been so wanting to tell you
how very delightful that dear sister of yours is. All the boys are
distracted about her. Come out please. She has been teaching the boys such
a delightful game; so much nicer than cricket, for I can play with them.”
Alick and Rachel could not but exchange a glance, and at the same moment,
emerging through the screen of shrubs on the lawn, Bessie Keith, Conrade,
Francis, and Leoline, were seen each with a mallet in hand and a gay ball
in readiness to be impelled through the hoops that beset the lawn.
“And you really are learning croquet!” exclaimed innocent Grace; “well, it
makes a beautiful ground.”
“Croquet!” exclaimed poor Lady Temple, with startled eyes; “you don’t
really mean that it is croquet! O Bessie, Bessie!”
“Ah! I didn’t mean you to have come so soon,” said the much amused Bessie,
as she gave her hand in greeting. “I meant the prejudice to be first
conquered. See, dear Lady Temple, I’m not ashamed; this whitey brown
moustache is going to kiss me nevertheless and notwithstanding.”
And so it certainly did, and smiled into the bargain, while the boys came
clamouring up, and after thanks for Don’s preservation, began loudly to
beg mamma would come, they could not make up their sides without her, but
mamma was distressed and unhappy.
“Not now, my dears—I must—I must. Indeed I did not know.”
“Now, Alick, I trust to your generosity,” said Bessie, finding that they
must be pacified. “Coming, Con—Come, Grace, come and convince Lady
Temple that the pastime is not too wicked for you.”
“Indeed, Alick,” Lady Temple was saying. “I am very sorry, I won’t allow
it one moment if you think it is objectionable.”
“But I don’t,” said Alick, smiling. “Far from it. It is a capital game for
you and your boys.”
“I thought—I thought you disapproved and could not bear it,” said
Lady Temple, wondering and wistful.
“Can’t bear is not disapprove. Indeed,” seeing that gentle earnest alone
could console her, “there is no harm in the game itself. It is a wholly
personal distaste, arising from my having been bored with it when I was
ill and out of spirits.”
“But is not there something about it in ‘Punch?’” she still asked, so
anxiously, that it was impossible not to smile; but there was not a
particle of that subdued mockery that was often so perplexing in him, as
he replied, “Certainly there is about its abuse as an engine for
flirtation, which, to tell you the truth, was what sickened me with the
sight at Littleworthy; but that is not the line Con and Francie will take
just yet. Why, my uncle is specially addicted to listening to croquet, and
knows by the step and sound how each player is getting on, till he is
quite an oracle in disputed hits.”
“So Bessie told me,” said Fanny, still feeling that she had been taken in
and the brother unkindly used; “but I can’t think how she could, when you
don’t like it.”
“Nobody is bound to respect foolish prejudices,” said Alick, still quite
in earnest. “It would have been very absurd not to introduce it.”
“Come, Alick,” said Bessie, advancing, “have you absolved her, and may we
begin? Would it not be a generous act of amnesty if all the present
company united in a match?”
“Too many,” said Alick, “odd numbers. I shall go down and call on Miss
Williams. May I come back, Lady Temple, and have a holiday from the mess?”
“I shall be very glad; only I am afraid there is no dinner.”
“So much the better. Only let me see you begin, or I shall never dare to
express an opinion for the future.”
“Mamma, do pray, pray begin; the afternoon is wasting like nothing!” cried
Conrade of the much-tried patience. “And Aunt Rachel,” he added, in his
magnanimity, “you shall be my partner, and I’ll teach you.”
“Thank you, Conrade, but I can’t; I promised to be at home at four,” said
Rachel, who had all this time been watching with curious interest which
influence would prevail—whether Alick would play for Fanny’s sake,
or Fanny abstain for Alick’s sake. She was best satisfied as it was, but
she had still to parry Bessie Keith’s persuasive determination. Why would
she go home? it certainly was to inspect the sketches of the
landscape-painter. “You heard, Alick, of the interesting individual who
acted the part of Rachel’s preserver,” she added.
The very force of Rachel’s resolution not to be put out of countenance
served to cover her with the most uncomfortable blushes, all the more at
the thought of her own unlucky exclamation. “I came here,” said Alick,
coolly, “to assist in recovering the beloved remains from a watery grave;”
and then, as Bessie insisted on hearing the Avoncester version, he gave
it; while Grace added the intelligence that the hero was a clergyman,
sinking the opinions, as too vague to be mentioned, even had not the
company been too flighty for a subject she thought serious and painful.
“And he is at this moment sketching the Spinster’s Needles!” said Bessie.
“Well, I am consoled. With all your resolve to flatten down an adventure,
fate is too strong for you. Something will come of it. Is not the very
resolve that it shall not be an adventure a token?”
“If any one should wish to forget it, it is you, I think, Bessie,” said
Alick. “Your admirable sagacity seems to have been at fault. I thought you
prided yourself on your climbing.”
“Up a slippery perpendicular—”
“I know the place,” he gravely answered.
“Well,” exclaimed Bessie, recovering herself, “I am not a mermaid nor even
a dear gazelle, and, in my humble opinion, there was far more grace in
preventing heroism from being ‘unwept, unnoticed, and unsung,’ than in
perilling my own neck, craning down and strangling the miserable beast, by
pulling him up by the scrough of his neck! What an introduction would have
been lost!”
“If you are going to play, Bessie,” said her brother, “it would be kind to
take pity upon those boys.”
“One achievement is mine,” she said, dancing away backwards, her bright
eyes beaming with saucy merriment, “the great Alexander has bidden me to
croquet.”
“I am afraid,” said her brother, turning to Rachel as she departed, “that
it was all her fault. Pray be patient with her, she has had many
disadvantages.”
His incomprehensible irony had so often perplexed Rachel, that she did not
know whether his serious apologetic tone were making game of her
annoyance, and she answered not very graciously, “Oh, never mind, it did
not signify.” And at the same time came another urgent entreaty from the
boys that the two “aunts” would join the game, Conrade evidently
considering that partnership with him would seal the forgiveness Aunt
Rachel had won by the rescue of Don.
Grace readily yielded, but Rachel pleaded her engagement, and when the
incorrigible Bessie declared that they perfectly understood that nothing
could compete with the sketch of the Spinster’s Needles, she answered, “I
promised to write a letter for my mother on business before post time. The
Burnaby bargain,” she explained, to add further conviction.
“A business-like transaction indeed!” exclaimed Bessie, much diverted with
the name.
“Only a bit of land in trust for apprenticing poor children,” said Rachel.
“It was left by a Curtis many generations ago, in trust to the rector of
the parish and the lord of the manor; and poor Mr. Linton is so entirely
effete, that it is virtually in our hands. It is one of the vexations of
my life that more good cannot be done with it, for the fees are too small
for superior tradespeople, and we can only bind them to the misery of
lacemaking. The system belongs to a worn-out state of things.”
The word system in Rachel’s mouth was quite sufficient to send Bessie to
her croquet, and the poor boys were at length rewarded for their unusual
patience. Their mother had been enduring almost as much as they did in her
dislike to see them tantalised, and she now threw herself into the game
with a relish that proved that as yet, at least, Conrade’s approbation was
more to her than Captain Keith’s. It was very pretty to see her so pleased
with her instructions, so eager about her own game, and yet so delighted
with every hit of her boys; while Bessie was an admirable general, playing
everybody’s game as well as her own, and with such life and spirit, such
readiness and good nature, that a far duller sport would have been
delicious under her management.
“Poor Alick,” said she, meeting him when he again strolled into the
garden, while the boys were collecting the mallets and balls; “he did
think he had one lawn in the world undefiled by those horrible hoops!”
then as she met his smile of amusement and pardon, “but it was so exactly
what they wanted here. It is so good for Lady Temple and her boys to have
something they can do together.”
The pleased affectionate smile was gone.
“I object to nothing but its being for her good,” he said gravely.
“But now, does not it make her very happy, and suit her excellently?”
“May be so, but that is not the reason you introduced it.”
“You have a shocking habit of driving one up into corners, Alick, but it
shall be purely, purely for my own selfish delight,” and she clasped her
hands in so droll an affectation of remorse, that the muscles round his
eyes quivered with diversion, though the hair on his lip veiled what the
corners of his mouth were about; “if only,” she proceeded, “you won’t let
it banish you. You must come over to take care of this wicked little
sister, or who knows what may be the consequences.”
“I kept away partly because I was busy, and partly because I believe you
are such a little ape as always to behave worse when you have the
semblance of a keeper;” he said, with his arm fondly on her shoulder as
they walked.
“And in the mean time fell out the adventure of the distinguished
essayist.”
“I am afraid,” he returned, “that was a gratuitous piece of mischief,
particularly annoying to so serious and thoughtful a person as Miss Rachel
Curtis.”
“Jealousy?” exclaimed Bessie in an ecstatic tone. “You see what you lost
by not trusting me, to behave myself under the provocation of your
presence.”
“What! the pleasure of boxing your ears for a coward?”
“Of seizing the happy opening! I am very much afraid for you now, Alick,”
she proceeded with mock gravity. “What hope can a poor Captain of
Highlanders, even if he does happen to be a wounded hero or two, have
against a distinguished essayist and landscape painter; if it were a
common case indeed, but where Wisdom herself is concerned—”
“Military frivolity cannot hope,” returned Alick, with a shake of his
head, and a calm matter-of-fact acquiescent tone.
“Ah, poor Alick,” pursued his sister, “you always were a discreet youth;
but to be connected with such a union of learning, social science, and
homœopathy, soared beyond my utmost ambition. I suppose the wedding tour—supposing
the happy event to take place—will be through a series of model
schools and hospitals, ending in Hanwell.”
“No,” said Alick, equally coolly, “to the Dutch reformatory, and the Swiss
cretin asylum.”
She was exceedingly tickled at his readiness, and proceeded in a pretended
sentimental tone, “I am glad you have revealed the secrets of your breast.
I saw there was a powerful attraction and that you were no longer your
own, but my views were humbler. I thought the profound respect with which
you breathed the name of Avonmouth, was due to the revival of the old
predilection for our sweet little—”
“Hush, Bessie,” said her brother, roused for the first time into
sternness, “this is more than nonsense. One word more of this, and you
will cut me off from my greatest rest and pleasure.”
“From the lawn where croquet waits his approbation,” was on Bessie’s
tongue, but she did not say it. There were moments when she stood in fear
of her brother. He paused, and as if perceiving that his vehemence was in
itself suspicious, added, “Remember, I never met her from seven years old
till after her marriage. She has been the kindest of friends in right of
our fathers’ old friendship. You know how her mother nursed me, and the
sister she was to me. And Bessie, if your selfishness—I wish I could
call it thoughtlessness—involves her innocent simplicity in any
scrape, derogatory to what is becoming her situation, I shall find it very
hard to forgive you, and harder still to forgive myself for letting you
come here.”
Bessie pouted for a moment, but her sweetness and good humour were never
away. “There, you have given your wicked little sister a screed,” she
said, looking insinuatingly up at him. “Just as if I did not think her a
darling, and would not for the world do anything to spoil her. Have not I
been leading the most exemplary life, talking systems and visiting
cottages with Rachel and playing with the boys, and singing with the
clergyman; and here am I pounced on, as if I were come to be the serpent
in this anti-croquet paradise.”
“Only a warning, Bessie.”
“You’ll be better now you have had it out. I’ve seen you suppressing it
all this time, for fear of frightening me away.”
Every one knows how the afternoon croquet match on the Myrtlewood Lawn
became an institution, though with some variation in the observers
thereof, owing to the exigencies of calls, rides, and Ermine Williams’s
drive, which Lady Temple took care should happen at least twice a week.
The most constant votaries of the mallet and hoop were, of course, the two
elder boys, the next pair being distant worshippers only now and then
admitted by special favour, but the ardour of their mother even exceeded
that of Bessie Keith, and it was always a disappointment to her if she
were prevented from playing. Grace and Alison Williams frequently took
their share with enjoyment, though not with the same devotion, and
visitors, civil and military, also often did their part, but the most
fervent of all these was Mr. Touchett. Ever since that call of his, when,
after long impatience of his shy jerks of conversation and incapacity of
taking leave, Miss Keith had exclaimed, “Did you ever play at croquet? do
come, and we will teach you,” he had been its most assiduous student. The
first instructions led to an appointment for more, one contest to another,
and the curate was becoming almost as regular a croquet player as Conrade
himself, not conversing much but sure to be in his place; and showing a
dexterity and precision that always made Lady Temple pleased to have him
on her side, and exclaim with delight at his hits as a public benefit to
the cause, or thank him with real gratitude when he croqued her or one of
her sons out of a difficulty.
Indeed that little lawn at Myrtlewood was a battle-field, of which Alison
used to carry her sister amusing and characteristic sketches. The two
leading players were Miss Keith and Mr. Touchett, who alone had any idea
of tactics; but what she did by intuition, sleight of hand or experience,
he effected by calculation and generalship, and even when Conrade claimed
the command of his own side, the suggestions of the curate really guided
the party. Conrade was a sort of Murat on the croquet field, bold,
dashing, often making wonderful hits, but uncertain, and only gradually
learning to act in combination. Alison was a sure-handed, skilful hitter,
but did not aspire to leadership. Mamma tried to do whatever her boys
commanded, and often did it by a sort of dainty dexterity, when her
exultation was a very pretty sight; nor was Grace’s lady-like skill
contemptible, but having Francis as an ally was like giving a castle; and
he was always placed on the other side from Conrade, as it was quite
certain that he would do the very reverse of whatever his brother advised.
Now and then invitations were given for Rose Williams to join the game,
but her aunts never accepted them. Ermine had long ago made up her mind
against intimacies between her niece and any pupils of Alison’s, sure that
though starts of pleasure might result, they would be at the cost of
ruffling, and, perhaps, perturbing the child’s even stream of happiness—even
girl-friendships might have been of doubtful effect where circumstances
were so unequal; but Lady Temple’s household of boys appeared to Ermine by
no means a desirable sphere for her child to be either teased or courted
in. Violetta, Colinette, and Augustus were safer comrades, and Rose
continued to find them sufficient, varied with the rare delight of now and
then sharing her aunt’s drive, and brightened by many a kind message in
Colonel Keith’s letters to her aunt, nay, occasionally a small letter to
herself, or an enclosure of some pretty photograph for her much-loved
scrap book, or some article for Colinette’s use, sometimes even a new
book! She was never forgotten in his letters, and Ermine smiled her
strange pensive smile of amusement at his wooing of the unconscious Rose.
CHAPTER X. THE PHILANTHROPIST.
“Scorn not the smallness of daily endeavour,
Let the great meaning ennoble it ever,
Droop not o’er efforts expended in vain,
Work, as believing, that labour is gain.”
Queen Isabel, &c. by S. M.
The sturdy recusant against Myrtlewood croquet continued to be Rachel
Curtis, and yet it was not a testimony against the game so much as real
want of time for it. She was always full of occupation, even while her
active mind craved for more definite and extended labour; and when she
came upon the field of strategy, it was always either with some business
before her, or else so late that the champions were only assisting their
several lags to bring the battle to an end.
If there had been a will there would have been a way, but, as she said,
she saw enough to perceive that proficiency could only be attained at the
cost of much time and study, and she did not choose to be inferior and
mediocre. Also, she found occupations open to her elsewhere that had long
been closed or rendered unpleasant. Mr. Touchett had become wonderfully
pacific and obliging of late; as if the lawn tactics absorbed his
propensities for offence and defence, he really seemed obliged for one or
two bits of parish work that she attended to; finding that between him and
his staff of young ladies they were getting omitted. Somehow, too, an
unaccountable blight was passing over the activity of those
curatolatresses, as Rachel had been wont to call them; they were less
frequently to be met with popping out of the schools and cottages, and
Rachel, who knew well all the real poor, though refusing the bonds of a
district, was continually detecting omissions which she more often
supplied than reported. There was even a smaller sprinkling at the weekly
services, and the odd thing was that the curate never seemed to remark or
be distressed by the change, or if any one spoke of the thin congregation
he would say, winter was the Avonmouth season, which was true enough, but
the defaulters were mostly his own peculiar followers, the female youth of
the professional and mercantile population.
Rachel did not trouble herself about the cause of all this, indeed she was
too much occupied with the gradual gliding into somewhat of her original
activity and importance in the field thus left open to her. None the less,
however, did she feel the burden of life’s problems; the intercourse she
had enjoyed with Colonel Keith had excited her for a time, but in the
reaction, the old feelings returned painfully that the times were out of
joint; the heavens above became obscure and misty as before, the dark
places of the earth looked darker than ever, and those who lived at ease
seemed to be employed either in sport upon the outside of the dungeon
where the captives groaned, or in obstructing the way of those who would
fain have plunged in to the rescue.
Her new acquaintance, Mr. Mauleverer, was an example of such prevention,
which weighed much on her mind. He had been perfectly unobtrusive, but
Mrs. Curtis meeting him on the second day of his sketching, had naturally
looked at his drawing, and admired it so much that she brought her
daughters to see it when in course of completion the next day. He had then
asked whether there would be any objection to his making use of the
sketches in the way of remunerative sale. Mrs. Curtis looked rather taken
aback, it hardly agreed with her exclusive notions of privacy, and he at
once apologized with such humility that she was touched, and felt herself
doing him a wrong, whilst Rachel was angry at her scruple, yet
uncomfortably thought of “that landscape painter,” then said in her
decided way, “you did not mean to object, mother?”
“Oh, not for a moment, pray don’t think of it,” returned Mr. Mauleverer,
in haste. “I would not think of the intrusion. It is only that these poor
trifles are steps to one of the few means by which I can still hope to do
even a little for my fellow creatures; the greatest solace that remains to
me.”
“My mother did not mean to prevent anything,” said Rachel eagerly; “least
of all any means of doing good.”
“Indeed, I cannot but be aware that Miss Curtis is the last individual who
would do so, except indeed by the good works she herself absorbs.”
“You are too good, sir,” returned Mrs. Curtis; “I am sure I did not mean
to object to anything for good. If it is for a charity, I am sure some of
our friends would be very glad to take some sketches of our scenery; they
have been begging me this long time to have it photographed. I should like
to have that drawing myself, it would please your aunt so much, my dear,
if we sent it to her.”
Mr. Mauleverer bowed, but Rachel was not sure whether he had not been
insulted.
Next day he left at the door the drawing handsomely mounted, and looking
so grand and meritorious that poor Mrs. Curtis became much troubled in
mind whether its proper price might not be five or even ten guineas,
instead of the one for which she had mentally bargained, or if this might
not be the beginning of a series; “which would be quite another thing, you
know, my dear.”
Rachel offered to go and talk to the artist, who was sketching in full
view from the windows, and find out what value he set upon it.
“Perhaps, but I don’t know, my dear. Won’t it be odd? Had you not better
wait till Grace comes in, or till I can come down with you?”
“No need at all, mother, I can do it much better alone, and at my age—”
So Rachel took a parasol and stepped out, looked at the outline newly
produced, thanked and praised the drawing that had been received, adding
that her mother would be glad to know what price Mr. Mauleverer set upon
it. She was met by a profession of ignorance of its value, and of
readiness to be contented with whatever might be conferred upon his
project; the one way in which he still hoped to be of service to his
fellow creatures, the one longing of his life.
“Ah!” said Rachel, greatly delighted with this congenial spirit, and as
usual preferring the affirmative to the interrogative. “I heard you had
been interesting yourself about Mrs Kelland’s lace school. What a
miserable system it is!”
“My inquiries have betrayed me then? It is indeed a trying spectacle.”
“And to be helpless to alleviate it,” continued Rachel. “Over work, low
prices and middle-men perfectly batten on the lives of our poor girls
here. I have thought it over again and again, and it is a constant burden
on my mind.”
“Yes, indeed. The effects of modern civilization are a constant burden on
the compassion of every highly constituted nature.”
“The only means that seems to me likely to mitigate the evil,” continued
Rachel, charmed at having the most patient listener who had ever fallen to
her lot, “would be to commence an establishment where some fresh trades
might be taught, so as to lessen the glut of the market, and to remove the
workers that are forced to undersell one another, and thus oblige the
buyers to give a fairly remunerative price.”
“Precisely my own views. To commence an establishment that would drain off
the superfluous labour, and relieve the oppressed, raising the whole tone
of female employment.”
“And this is the project you meant?”
“And in which, for the first time, I begin to hope for success, if it can
only receive the patronage of some person of influence.”
“Oh, anything I can do!” exclaimed Rachel, infinitely rejoiced. “It is the
very thing I have been longing for for years. What, you would form a sort
of industrial school, where the children could be taught some remunerative
labour, and it might soon be almost self-supporting?”
“Exactly; the first establishment is the difficulty, for which I have been
endeavouring to put a few mites together.”
“Every one would subscribe for such a purpose!” exclaimed Rachel.
“You speak from your own generous nature, Miss Curtis; but the world would
require patronesses to recommend.”
“There could be no difficulty about that!” exclaimed Rachel; but at this
moment she saw the Myrtlewood pony carriage coming to the door, and
remembering that she had undertaken to drive out Ermine Williams in it,
she was obliged to break off the conversation, with an eager entreaty that
Mr. Mauleverer would draw up an account of his plan, and bring it to her
the next day, when she would give her opinion on it, and consider of the
means.
“My dear,” said her mother, on her return, “how long you have been; and
what am I to give for the water-colour?”
“Oh, I forgot all about the water-colour; but never mind what we give,
mamma, it is all to go to an asylum for educating poor girls, and giving
them some resource beyond that weary lace-making—the very thing I
have always longed for. He is coming to settle it all with me to-morrow,
and then we will arrange what to give.”
“Indeed, my dear, I hope it will be something well managed. I think if it
were not for those middle-men, lace-making would not be so bad. But you
must not keep poor Miss Williams waiting.”
Ermine had never seen Rachael in such high spirits as when they set out
through the network of lanes, describing her own exceeding delight in the
door thus opening for the relief of the suffering over which she had long
grieved, and launching out into the details of the future good that was to
be achieved. At last Ermine asked what Rachel knew of the proposer.
“Captain Keith heard he was a distinguished professor and essayist.”
“Then I wonder we have not heard his name,” said Ermine. “It is a
remarkable one; one might look in the ‘Clergy List’ at Villars’s.”
“Villars called him a clerical gentleman,” mused Rachel.
“Then you would be sure to be able to find out something about him before
committing yourself.”
“I can see what he is,” said Rachel, “a very sensible, accomplished man,
and a great deal more; not exactly a finished gentleman. But that is no
objection to his doing a great work.”
“None at all,” said Ermine, smiling; “but please forgive me. We have
suffered so much from trusting too implicitly, that I never can think it
safe to be satisfied without thorough knowledge of a person’s
antecedents.”
“Of course,” said Rachel, “I shall do nothing without inquiry. I will find
out all about him, but I cannot see any opening for distrust. Schemes of
charity are not compatible with self-seeking and dishonesty.”
“But did I not hear something about opinions?”
“Oh, as to that, it was only Villars. Besides, you are a clergyman’s
daughter, and your views have a different colouring from mine. Modern
research has introduced so many variations of thought, that no good work
would be done at all if we required of our fellow-labourers perfect
similarity of speculative belief.”
“Yet suppose he undertook to teach others?”
“The simple outlines of universal doctrine and morality which are required
by poor children are not affected by the variations to which investigation
conducts minds of more scope.”
“I am afraid such variations may often reach the foundation.”
“Now, Miss Williams, I am sure you must often have heard it observed how
when it comes to real practical simple teaching of uninstructed people,
villagers or may be heathens, the details of party difference melt away,
and people find themselves in accordance.”
“True, but there I think party differences in the Church, and even the
variations between Christian sects are concerned, both being different
ways of viewing the same truth. These may, like the knights in the old
fable, find that both were right about the shield, both have the same
foundation. But where the foundation is not the same, the results of the
teaching will not agree.”
“Every one agrees as to morality.”
“Yes, but do all give a motive sufficient to enforce the self-denial that
morality entails? Nay, do they show the way to the spiritual strength
needful to the very power of being moral?”
“That is begging the question. The full argument is whether the full
church, say Christian system, exactly as you, as we hold it, is needful to
the perfection of moral observance. I don’t say whether I assent, but the
present question is whether the child’s present belief and practice need
be affected by its teacher’s dogmatic or undogmatic system.”
“The system for life is generally formed in childhood. Harvest depends on
seed time.”
“And after all,” added Rachel, “we have no notion whether this poor man be
not precisely of your own opinions, and from their fruits I am sure you
ought to claim them.”
“Their blossoms if you please,” laughed Ermine. “We have not seen their
fruits yet.”
“And I shall take care the fruits are not nipped with the blight of
suspicion,” said Rachel, good-humouredly.
However, after driving Ermine home, and seeing her lifted out and carried
into the house by her sister, Rachel did send the carriage back by the
groom and betake herself to Villars’s shop, where she asked for a sight of
the “Clergy List.” The name of Mauleverer caught her eye, but only one
instance of it appeared, and he was a cathedral canon, his presentation
dated in 1832, the time at which, judging from appearances, the object of
her search might have been born; besides, he rejoiced in the simple name
of Thomas. But Rachel’s search was brought to an abrupt conclusion by the
issue of Mr. Mauleverer himself from the reading-room within the shop. He
bowed and passed by, but Rachel for the life of her could not hinder a
burning colour from spreading to the very tips of her ears; so certain did
she feel that she was insulting him by her researches, and that he
perceived them. She felt absolutely ashamed to see him the next day, and
even in her dreams was revolving speeches that might prove that though
cautious and clear-sighted, she was neither suspicious nor narrow-minded.
He came when some morning visitors were at the Homestead, prosy neighbours
whose calls were always a penance to Rachel, and the butler, either from
the manner of the inquiry or not regarding him as drawing-room company,
put him into the dining-room and announced, “Mr. Mauleverer to see Miss
Rachel.” Up jumped Miss Rachel, with “You’ll excuse me, it is on
business;” and went off highly satisfied that “the mother” was hindered by
politeness from making any attempt at chaperonage either personally or
through Grace, so unnecessary at her age, for since Colonel Keith’s
departure, Rachel’s age had begun to grow on her again. She held out her
hand as if to atone for her search, but she found at once that it had been
remarked.
“You were doing me the honour to look for my name in the ‘Clergy List,’
Miss Curtis,” he said.
“Yes, one is apt—,” faltered Rachel, decidedly out of countenance.
“I quite appreciate the motive. It is exactly in accord with Miss Curtis’s
prudence and good sense. I should wish to be fully explicit before any
arrangements are made. I am unhappily not in orders, Miss Curtis. I know
your liberality will regard the cause with leniency.”
“Indeed,” said Rachel, sufficiently restored to recall one of her
premeditated reassurances. “I can fully appreciate any reluctance to
become stringently bound to dogmatic enunciations, before the full powers
of the intellect have examined into them.”
“You have expressed it exactly, Miss Curtis. Without denying an iota of
them, I may be allowed to regret that our formularies are too technical
for a thoughtful mind in the present age.”
“Many have found it so,” returned Rachel, thoughtfully, “who only needed
patience to permit their convictions to ripen. Then I understand you, it
was a rejection on negative not positive grounds?”
“Precisely; I do not murmur, but it has been the blight of my life.”
“And yet,” said Rachel, consolingly, “it may enable you to work with more
freedom.”
“Since you encourage me to believe so, Miss Curtis, I will hope it, but I
have met with much suspicion.”
“I can well believe it,” said Rachel; “even some of the most superior
persons refuse to lay their hands to any task unless they are certified of
the religious opinions of their coadjutors, which seems to me like a
mason’s refusing to work at a wall with a man who liked Greek architecture
when he preferred Gothic!”
If Rachel had been talking to Ermine she might have been asked whether the
dissimilarity might not be in the foundations, or in the tempering of the
mortar, but Mr. Mauleverer only commended her liberal spirit, and she
thought it high time to turn from this subject to the immediate one in
hand. He had wished to discuss the plan with her, he said, before drawing
it up, and in effect she had cogitated so much upon it that her ideas came
forth with more than her usual fluency and sententiousness. The scheme was
that an asylum should be opened under the superintendence of Mr.
Mauleverer himself, in which young girls might be placed to learn
handicrafts that might secure their livelihood, in especial, perhaps, wood
engraving and printing. It might even be possible, in time, to render the
whole self-supporting, suppose by the publication of a little illustrated
periodical, the materials for which might be supplied by those interested
in the institution.
If anything could add to Rachel’s delight it was this last proposition. In
all truth and candour, the relief to the victims to lace-making was her
primary object, far before all besides, and the longing desire of her
heart for years seemed about to be fulfilled; but a domestic magazine, an
outlet to all the essays on Curatocult, on Helplessness, on Female Folly,
and Female Rights, was a development of the plan beyond her wildest hopes!
No dull editor to hamper, reject or curtail! She should be as happy, and
as well able to expand as the Invalid herself.
Mr. Mauleverer had brought a large packet of letters with him, in all
manner of hands. There were some testimonials from a German university,
and letters from German professors in a compromise between English and
German hand, looking impossible to read, also the neat writing and thin
wavy water-marked paper of American professors and philanthropists in high
commendation of his ability and his scheme, and a few others that he said
were of too private a nature to do more than show Miss Curtis in
confidence, but on which she recognised some distinguished names of
persons interested in Social Science. She would not wound his feelings by
too close an inquiry, but she felt armed at all points against cavillers.
Really, she began to think, it was a great pity Colonel Keith should cross
her path again, she had so much on her hands that it would be a public
misfortune if any one man’s private domestic love should monopolize her;
and yet, such was this foolish world, the Honourable Mrs. Colin Keith
would be a more esteemed lady patroness than Miss Rachel Curtis, though
the Curtises had been lords of the soil for many generations, and Colonel
Keith was a mere soldier of fortune.
One disappointment Rachel had, namely, that Mr. Mauleverer announced that
he was about to return to St. Herbert’s, the very large and fashionable
watering-place in the next indentation of the coast. He had duties there,
he said, and he had only come to Avonmouth for a brief holiday, a holiday
that was to result in such happy effects. He lived in an exceedingly
retired way, he said, being desirous of saving his small private means for
his great object, and he gave Rachel his address at the chief
printseller’s of the place, where his letters were left for him, while he
made excursions from time to time to study the picturesque, and to give
lectures on behalf of philanthropical subjects. He offered such a lecture
at Avonmouth, but Mr. Touchett would not lend either school-room, and
space was nowhere else available. In the meantime a prospectus was drawn
up, which Rachel undertook to get printed at Villars’s, and to send about
to all her friends, since a subscription in hand was the first
desideratum.
Never since she had grown up to be a thinking woman had Rachel been so
happy as with this outlet to her activity and powers of managing, “the
good time coming at last.” Eagerly she claimed sympathy, names and
subscriptions. Her own immediate circle was always easily under her
influence, and Lady Temple and Mrs. Curtis supplied the dignity of lady
patronesses; Bessie Keith was immensely diverted at the development of
“that landscape painter,” and took every opportunity of impressing on
Rachel that all was the result of her summons to the rescue. Ermine wished
Rachel had found out who was the bishop’s chaplain who rejected him, but
allowed that it would have been an awkward question to ask, and also she
wondered if he were a university man; but Mr. Touchett had been at a Hall,
and never knew anybody, besides being so firmly convinced that Mr.
Mauleverer was a pestiferous heretic, that no one, except Lady Temple,
could have obtained a patient answer from him on that head—and even
with her he went the length of a regret that she had given the sanction of
her name to an undertaking by a person of whose history and principles
nothing satisfactory was known. “Oh!” said Fanny, with her sweet look of
asking pardon, “I am so sorry you think so; Rachel wished it so much, and
it seems such a nice thing for the poor children.”
“Indeed,” said Mr. Touchett, well nigh disarmed by the look, “I am quite
sensible of the kindness of all you do, I only ventured to wish there had
been a little more delay, that we were more certain about this person.”
“When Colonel Keith comes back he will find out all about him, I am sure,”
said Fanny, and Mr. Touchett, to whom seemed to have been transferred
Rachel’s dislike to the constant quoting of Colonel Keith, said no more.
The immediate neighbourhood did not very readily respond to the appeal to
it in behalf of the lace-makers. People who did not look into the
circumstances of their neighbours thought lace furnished a good trade, and
by no means wished to enhance its price; people who did care for the poor
had charities of their own, nor was Rachel Curtis popular enough to obtain
support for her own sake; a few five-pound notes, and a scanty supply of
guineas and half-guineas from people who were ready at any cost to buy off
her vehement eyes and voice was all she could obtain, and with a
subscription of twenty pounds each from her mother, Lady Temple, and
Grace, and all that she could scrape together of her own, hardly seemed
sufficient to meet the first expenses, and how would the future be
provided for? She calculated how much she could spare out of her yearly
income, and actually, to the great horror of her mother and the coachman,
sold her horse.
Bessie Keith was the purchaser. It was an expense that she could quite
afford, for she and her brother had been left very well off by their
father—a prudent man, who, having been a widower during his Indian
service, had been able to live inexpensively, besides having had a large
amount of prize money. She had always had her own horse at Littleworthy,
and now when Rachel was one day lamenting to her the difficulty of raising
money for the Industrial Asylum, and declaring that she would part with
her horse if she was sure of its falling into good hands, Bessie
volunteered to buy it, it was exactly what would suit her, and she should
delight in it as a reminder of dear Avonmouth. It was a pang, Rachel loved
the pretty spirited creature, and thought of her rides with the Colonel;
but how weigh the pleasure of riding against the welfare of one of those
hard-worked, half-stifled little girls, and besides, it might be best to
have done with Colonel Keith now that her mission had come to find her. So
the coachman set a purposely unreasonable value upon poor Meg, and Rachel
reduced the sum to what had been given for it three years before; but
Bessie begged her brother to look at the animal and give his opinion.
“Is that what you are after?” he exclaimed.
“Indeed, Alick, I thought it was the greatest kindness I could do her; she
is so very eager about this plan, and so anxious to find poor Meg a good
home.”
“Purely to oblige her?”
“Of course, Alick, it was much more convenient to her than if she had had
to send about to horse-dealers or to advertise. I doubt if she could have
done it at all; and it is for her asylum, you know.”
“Then give the coachman’s sixty guineas at once.”
“Ah, Alick, that’s your infatuation!” and she put on a droll gesture of
pity. “But excuse me, where would be the fine edge of delicacy in giving a
manifestly fancy price? Come and look at her.”
“I never meddle with horse-dealing.”
“Stuff, as if you weren’t the best-mounted man in the regiment. I shall
send a note to Captain Sykes if you won’t; he knows how to drive a
bargain.”
“And give a fancy price the other way. Well, Bessie, on one condition I’ll
go, and that is, that Meg goes to Bishopsworthy the day she is yours. I
won’t have her eating Lady Temple’s corn, and giving her servants
trouble.”
“As if I should think of such a thing.”
Captain Keith’s estimate of the value of the steed precisely agreed with
Rachel’s demand of the original price. Bessie laughed, and said there was
collusion.
“Now seriously, Alick, do you think her worth so much? Isn’t it a pity,
when you know what a humbug poor Rachel is going to give it to?” and she
looked half comical, half saucy.
“If she were going to throw it into the sea, I don’t see what difference
that would make.”
“Ah! you are far too much interested. Nothing belonging to her can bear a
vulgar price.”
“Nothing belonging to me is to gain profit by her self-denial,” said
Alick, gravely. “You cannot do less than give her what she gave for it, if
you enter on the transaction at all.”
“You mean that it would look shabby. You see we womankind never quite know
the code of the world on such matters,” she said, candidly.
“There is something that makes codes unnecessary, Bessie,” he said.
“Ah! I can make allowances. It is a cruel stroke. I don’t wonder you can’t
bear to see any one else on her palfrey; above all as a sacrifice to the
landscape painter.”
“Then spare my feelings, and send the mare to Bishopsworthy,” said Alick,
as usual too careless of the imputation to take the trouble to rebut it or
to be disconcerted.
Bessie was much tickled at his acceptance, and laughed heartily.
“To be sure,” she said, “it is past concealment now. You must have been
very far gone, indeed, to have been taken in to suppose me to be making
capital of her ‘charitable purposes.’”
“Your acting is too like life,” he said, not yet induced to laugh, and she
rattled on with her droll, sham sentimental air. “Is it the long words,
Alick, or is it ‘the great eyes, my dear;’ or is it—oh, yes, I know
what is the great attraction—that the Homestead doesn’t possess a
single spot where one could play at croquet!”
“Quite irresistible!” replied Alick, and Bessie retreated from the
colloquy still not laughing at but with him; that is, if the odd, quaint,
inward mirth which only visibly lengthened his sleepy eyes, could be
called a laugh.
Next time Captain Keith rode to Avonmouth he met the riding party on the
road, Bessie upon Rachel’s mare, and it appeared that Lady Temple had
considered it so dreadful that Meg should not share her hospitality, that
it had been quite impossible to send her away. “So, Alick, your feelings
must endure the dreadful spectacle.”
Meanwhile Rachel was hard at work with the subscribers to the “Christian
Knowledge Society.” Beginning with the A’s, and working down a page a day,
she sent every member a statement of the wrongs of the lacemakers, and the
plans of the industrial establishment, at a vast expense of stamps; but
then, as she calculated, one pound thus gained paid for two hundred and
forty fruitless letters.
“And pray,” said Alick, who had ridden on to call at the Homestead, “how
do you reconcile yourself to the temptation to the postmen?”
“They don’t see what my letters are about?”
“They must be dull postmen if they don’t remark on the shower of envelopes
that pass through their hands—ominous money-letters, all with the
same address, and no detection remember. You don’t know who will answer
and who will not.”
“I never thought of that,” said Rachel; “but risks must be run when any
great purpose is in hand.”
“The corruption of one postman versus the rescue of—how many
children make a postman?” asked Captain Keith, with his grave, considering
look.
“The postman would be corrupt already,” said Grace, as Rachel thought the
last speech too mocking to be worthy of reply, and went on picking up her
letters.
“There is another objection,” added Captain Keith, as he watched her busy
fingers. “Have you considered how you are frightening people out of the
society? It is enough to make one only subscribe as Michael Miserly or as
Simon Skinflint, or something equally uninviting to applications.”
“I shall ask you to subscribe by both names!” said Rachel, readily. “How
much for Simon Skinflint?”
“Ten pounds. Stop—when Mr. Mauleverer gives him a reference.”
“That’s ungenerous. Will Michael Miserly make up for it?”
“Yes, when the first year’s accounts have been audited.”
“Ah! those who have no faith to make a venture can never effect any good.”
“You evidently build on a great amount of faith from the public. How do
you induce them to believe—do you write in your own name?”
“No, it makes mamma unhappy. I was going to put R. C., but Grace said
people would think it meant Roman Catholic. Your sister thought I had
better put the initials of Female Union for Lacemaker’s Employment.”
“You don’t mean that Bessie persuaded you to put that?” exclaimed Alick
Keith, more nearly starting up than Rachel had ever seen him.
“Yes. There is no objection, is there?”
“Oh, Rachel, Rachel, how could we have helped thinking of it?” cried
Grace, nearly in a state of suffocation.
Rachel held up her printed appeal, where subscriptions were invited to the
address of F. U. L. E., the Homestead, Avonmouth.
“Miss Curtis, though you are not Scottish, you ought to be well read in
Walter Scott.”
“I have thought it waste of time to read incorrect pictures of
pseudo-chivalry since I have been grown up,” said Rachel. “But that has
nothing to do with it.”
“Ah, Rachel, if we had been more up in our Scotch, we should have known
what F. U. L. E. spells,” sighed Grace.
A light broke in upon Rachel. “I am sure Bessie never could have
recollected it,” was her first exclamation. “But there,” she continued,
too earnest to see or stumble at straws, “never mind. It cannot be helped,
and I dare say not one person in ten will be struck by it.”
“Stay,” said Grace, “let it be Englishwoman’s Employment. See, I can very
easily alter the L into an E.”
Rachel would hardly have consented, but was forced to yield to her
mother’s entreaties. However, the diligent transformation at L’s did not
last long, for three days after a parcel was left at the Homestead
containing five thousand printed copies of the appeal, with the E rightly
inserted. Bessie laughed, and did not disavow the half reluctant thanks
for this compensation for her inadvertence or mischief, whichever it might
be, laughing the more at Rachel’s somewhat ungrateful confession that she
had rather the cost had gone into a subscription for the F. U. E. E. As
Bessie said to herself, it was much better and more agreeable for all
parties that it should so stand, and she would consider herself in debt to
Alick for the amount. Indeed, she fully expected him to send her in the
bill, but in the meantime not one word was uttered between the brother and
sister on the subject. They understood one another too well to spend
useless words.
Contrary to most expectation, there was result enough from Rachel’s
solicitations to serve as justification for the outlay in stamps. The very
number of such missives that fly about the world proves that there must be
a great amount of uninquiring benevolence to render the speculation
anything but desperate, and Rachel met with very tolerable success. Mr.
Mauleverer called about once a week to report progress on his side, and,
in his character of treasurer, to take charge of the sums that began to
accumulate. But Rachel had heard so much on all sides of the need of
caution in dealing with one so entirely a stranger, that she resolved that
no one should blame her for imprudence, and therefore retained in her own
name, in the Avoncester Bank, all the sums that she received. Mr.
Mauleverer declared himself quite contented with this arrangement, and
eagerly anticipated the apologies that Rachel was ashamed even to make to
him.
Enough was collected to justify a beginning on a small scale. A house was
to be taken where Mr. Mauleverer and a matron would receive the first
pupils, teach them wood engraving, and prepare the earlier numbers of the
magazine. When a little more progress had been made, the purchase of a
printing-press might be afforded, and it might be struck off by the girls
themselves, but in the meantime they must be dependent on the regular
printer. On this account Mr. Mauleverer thought it best to open the
establishment, not at Avonmouth, but at St. Herbert’s, where he had
acquaintance that would facilitate the undertaking.
Rachel was much disappointed. To be in and out constantly, daily teaching
and watching the girls, and encouraging them by learning the employment
herself, had been an essential portion of her vision. She had even in one
of her most generous moods proposed to share the delight with the
Williamses, and asked Ermine if she would not, if all things suited,
become the resident matron. However, Mr. Mauleverer said that there was an
individual of humbler rank, the widow of a National Schoolmaster, so
anxious to devote herself to the work, that he had promised she should
share it whenever he was in a condition to set the asylum on foot; and he
assured Rachel that she would find this person perfectly amenable to all
her views, and ready to work under her. He brought letters in high praise
of the late school master, and recommendations of his widow from the
clergyman of the parish where they had lived; and place and name being
both in the “Clergy List,” even Ermine and Alison began to feel ashamed of
their incredulity, whilst as to Grace, she had surrendered herself
completely to the eager delight of finding a happy home for the little
children in whom she was interested. Grace might laugh a little at Rachel,
but in the main her trust in her sister’s superiority always led her
judgment, and in the absence of Colonel Keith, Fanny was equally willing
to let Rachel think for her when her own children were not concerned.
Rachel did not give up her hopes of fixing the asylum near her till after
a considerable effort to get a house for it at Avonmouth, but this was far
from easy. The Curtises’ unwillingness to part with land for building
purposes enhanced the price of houses, and in autumn and winter the place
was at its fullest, so that she could not even rent a house but at a
ruinous price. It would be the best way to build on Homestead land, but
this would be impracticable until spring, even if means were forthcoming,
as Rachel resolved they should be, and in the meantime she was obliged to
acquiesce in Mr. Mauleverer’s assurance that a small house in an overbuilt
portion of St. Norbert’s would be more eligible than one in some inland
parish. Anything was better than delay. Mr. Mauleverer was to superintend
from his lodgings.
Rachel went with Grace and her mother to St. Norbert’s, and inspected the
house, an ordinary cheap one, built to supply lodgings for the more
economical class of visitors. It was not altogether what Rachel wished,
but must serve till she could build, and perhaps it would be best to form
her experience before her plans. Mr. Mauleverer’s own lodgings were near
at hand, and he could inspect progress. The furniture was determined upon—neat
little iron beds for the dormitories, and all that could serve for comfort
and even pleasure, for both Mr. Mauleverer and Rachel were strong against
making the place bare and workhouse-like, insulting poverty and dulling
the spirit.
Grace suggested communication with the clergyman of the parish; but the
North Hill turned out not to belong to St. Norbert’s proper, being a part
of a great moorland parish, whose focus was twelve miles off. A district
was in course of formation, and a church was to be built; but in the
meantime the new houses were practically almost pastorless, and the
children and their matron must take their chance on the free seats of one
of the churches of St. Norbert’s. The staff of clergy there were so busy
that no one liked to add extra parochial work to their necessary duties,
and there was not sufficient acquaintance with them to judge how they
would view Mr. Mauleverer’s peculiarities. Clerical interference was just
what Rachel said she did not want; it was an escape that she did not call
it meddling.
One bit of patronage at least she could exercise; a married pair of former
Homestead servants had set up a fuel store at St. Norbert’s, receiving
coal from the ships, and retailing it. They were to supply the F. U. E. E.
with wood, coal, and potatoes; and this was a great ingredient in Mrs.
Curtis’s toleration. The mother liked anything that brought custom to
Rossitur and Susan.
The establishment was at present to consist of three children: the funds
were not sufficient for more. One was the child of the matron, and the
other two were Lovedy Kelland and the daughter of a widow in ill health,
whose family were looking very lean and ill cared for. Mrs. Kelland was
very unwilling to give Lovedy up, she had always looked to receiving the
apprentice fee from the Burnaby bargain for her as soon as the child was
fourteen, and she had a strong prejudice against any possible disturbance
to the lace trade; but winter would soon come and her sale was uncertain;
her best profit was so dependent on Homestead agency that it was impolitic
to offend Miss Curtis; and, moreover, Lovedy was so excited by the idea of
learning to make pictures to books that she forgot all the lace dexterity
she had ever learnt, and spoilt more than she made, so that Mrs. Kelland
was reduced to accept the kind proposal that Lovedy should be Lady
Temple’s nominee, and be maintained by her at the F. U. E. E. at seven
shillings a week.
Fanny, however, asked the clergyman’s consent first, telling him, with her
sweet, earnest smile, how sorry she was for the little girl, and showing
him the high testimonials to Mrs. Rawlins. He owned that they were all
that could be wished, and even said at her request that he would talk to
Mr. Mauleverer. What the talk amounted to they never knew; but when Fanny
said “she hoped he had found nothing unsatisfactory, the poor man must be
so glad to be of use;” Mr. Touchett replied with, “Indeed, it is an
unfortunate situation;” and his opposition might therefore be considered
as suspended.
“Of course,” cried Bessie, “we know by what witchery!” But Alison
Williams, her listener, turned on her such great eyes of wilful want of
comprehension, that she held her peace.
Rachel and Grace united in sending Mary Morris, the other child; they
really could do nothing more, so heavily had their means been drawn upon
for the first expenses; but Rachel trusted to do more for the future, and
resolved that her dress should henceforth cost no more than Alison
Williams’s; indeed, she went through a series of assertions by way of
examining Alison on the expenses of her wardrobe.
The house was taken from Michaelmas, and a few days after, the two little
victims, as Bessie laughingly called them, were taken over to St.
Norbert’s in the Homestead carriage, Lady Temple chaperoning the three
young ladies to see the inauguration, and the height of Rachel’s glory.
They were received by Mr. Mauleverer at the door, and slightly in the rear
saw the matron, Mrs. Rawlins, a handsome pale woman, younger than they
expected, but whose weeds made Fanny warm to her directly; but she was shy
and retiring, and could not be drawn into conversation; and her little
Alice was only three years old, much younger than Rachel had expected as a
pupil, but a very pretty creature with great black eyes.
Tea and cake were provided by way of an inauguration feast, and the three
little girls sat up in an atmosphere of good cheer, strongly suggestive of
school feasts, and were left in the midst, with many promises of being
good, a matter that Lovedy seemed to think would be very easy in this
happy place, with no lace to make.
Mrs. Rawlins, whose husband had been a trained schoolmaster, was to take
the children to church, and attend to their religious instruction; indeed,
Mr. Mauleverer was most anxious on this head, and as Rachel already knew
the scruples that withheld him from ordination were only upon the absolute
binding himself to positive belief in minor technical points, that would
never come in the way of young children.
Altogether, the neat freshness of the room, the urbanity of Mr.
Mauleverer, the shy grief of the matron, all left a most pleasant
impression. Rachel was full of delight and triumph, and Grace and Fanny
quite enthusiastic; the latter even to the being sure that the Colonel
would be delighted, for the Colonel was already beginning to dawn on the
horizon, and not alone. He had written, in the name of his brother, to
secure a cottage of gentility of about the same calibre as Myrtlewood,
newly completed by a speculator on one of the few bits of ground available
for building purposes. A name was yet wanting to it; but the day after the
negotiation was concluded, the landlord paid the delicate compliment to
his first tenant by painting “Gowanbrae” upon the gate-posts in letters of
green. “Go and bray,” read Bessie Keith as she passed by; “for the sake of
the chief of my name, I hope that it is not an omen of his occupations
here.”
The two elder boys were with her; and while Francis, slowly apprehending
her meaning in part, began to bristle up with the assurance that “Colonel
Keith never brayed in his life,” Conrade caught the point with dangerous
relish, and dwelt with colonial disrespect, that alarmed his mother, on
the opinion expressed by some unguarded person in his hearing, that Lord
Keith was little better than an old donkey. “He is worse than Aunt
Rachel,” said Conrade, meditatively, “now she has saved Don, and keeps
away from the croquet.”
Meantime Rachel studied her own feelings. A few weeks ago her heart would
have leapt at the announcement; but now her mission had found her out, and
she did not want to be drawn aside from it. Colonel Keith might have many
perfections, but alike as Scotsman, soldier, and High-Churchman, he was
likely to be critical of the head of the F. U. E. E., and matters had gone
too far now for her to afford to doubt, or to receive a doubting master.
Moreover, it would be despicable to be diverted from a great purpose by a
courtship like any ordinary woman; nor must marriage settlements come to
interfere with her building and endowment of the asylum, and ultimate
devotion of her property thereunto. No, she would school herself into a
system of quiet discouragement, and reserve herself and her means as the
nucleus of the great future establishment for maintaining female rights of
labour.
CHAPTER XI. LADY TEMPLE’S TROUBLES.
“The pheasant in the falcon’s claw,
He scarce will yield, to please a daw.”—SCOTT.
Early in the afternoon of a warm October day, the brothers arrived at
Avonmouth, and ten minutes after both were upon the lawn at Myrtlewood,
where croquet was still in progress. Shouts of delight greeted the
Colonel, and very gracefully did Bessie Keith come to meet him, with the
frank confiding sweetness befitting his recent ward, the daughter of his
friend. A reassuring smile and monosyllable had scarcely time to pass
between him and the governess before a flood of tidings was poured on him
by the four elder boys, while their mother was obliged to be mannerly, and
to pace leisurely along with the elder guest, and poor Mr. Touchett waited
a little aloof, hammering his own boot with his mallet, as if he found the
enchanted ground failing him. But the boys had no notion of losing their
game, and vociferated an inquiry whether the Colonel knew croquet. Yes, he
had several times played with his cousins in Scotland. “Then,” insisted
Conrade, “he must take mamma’s place, whilst she was being devoured, and
how surprised she would be at being so helped on!”
“Not now, not to-day,” he answered. “I may go to your sister, Ailie? Yes,
boys, you must close up your ranks without me.”
“Then please,” entreated Hubert, “take him away,” pointing to the
engrosser of their mother.
“Do you find elder brothers so easily disposed of, Hubert?” said the
Colonel. “Do you take Conrade away when you please?”
“I should punch him,” returned Francis.
“He knows better,” quoth Conrade in the same breath, both with infinite
contempt for Hubert.
“And I know better,” returned Colonel Keith; “never mind, boys, I’ll come
back in—in reasonable time to carry him off,” and he waved a gay
farewell.
“Surely you wish to go too,” said Bessie to Alison, “if only to relieve
them of the little girl! I’ll take care of the boys. Pray go.”
“Thank you,” said Alison, surprised at her knowledge of the state of
things, “but they are quite hardened to Rose’s presence, and I think would
rather miss her.”
And in fact Alison did not feel at all sure that, when stimulated by
Bessie’s appreciation of their mischief, her flock might not in her
absence do something that might put their mother in despair, and make
their character for naughtiness irretrievable; so Leoline and Hubert were
summoned, the one from speculations whether Lord Keith would have punched
his brother, the other from amaze that there was anything our military
secretary could not do, and Conrade and Francis were arrested in the midst
of a significant contraction of the nostrils and opening of the mouth,
which would have exploded in an “eehaw” but for Bessie’s valiant
undertaking to be herself and Lady Temple both at once.
Soon Colonel Keith was knocking at Ermine’s door, and Rose was clinging to
him, glowing and sparkling with shy ecstasy; while, without sitting down
again after her greeting, Rachel resolutely took leave, and walked away
with firm steps, ruminating on her determination not to encourage meetings
in Mackarel Lane.
“Better than I expected!” exclaimed Colonel Keith, after having ushered
her to the door in the fulness of his gratitude. “I knew it was inevitable
that she should be here, but that she should depart so fast was beyond
hope!”
“Yes,” said Ermine, laughing, “I woke with such a certainty that she would
be here and spend the first half hour in the F. U. E. E. that I wasted a
great deal of resignation. But how are you, Colin? You are much thinner! I
am sure by Mrs. Tibbie’s account you were much more ill than you told me.”
“Only ill enough to convince me that the need of avoiding a northern
winter was not a fallacy, and likewise to make Tibbie insist on coming
here for fear Maister Colin should not be looked after. It is rather a
responsibility to have let her come, for she has never been farther south
than Edinburgh, but she would not be denied. So she has been to see you? I
told her you would help her to find her underlings. I thought it might be
an opening for that nice little girl who was so oppressed with
lace-making.”
“Ah! she has gone to learn wood-cutting at the F. U. E. E.; but I hope we
have comfortably provided Tibbie with a damsel. She made us a long visit,
and told us all about Master Colin’s nursery days. Only I am afraid we did
not understand half.”
“Good old body,” said the Colonel, in tones almost as national as Tibbie’s
own. “She was nursery girl when I was the spoilt child of the house, and
hers was the most homelike face that met me. I wish she may be happy here.
And you are well, Ermine?”
“Very well, those drives are so pleasant, and Lady Temple so kind! It is
wonderful to think how many unlooked-for delights have come to us; how
good every one is;” and her eyes shone with happy tears as she looked up
at him, and felt that he was as much her own as ever. “And you have
brought your brother,” she said; “you have been too useful to him to be
spared. Is he come to look after you or to be looked after?”
“A little of both I fancy,” said the Colonel, “but I suspect he is giving
me up as a bad job. Ermine, there are ominous revivifications going on at
home, and he has got himself rigged out in London, and had his hair cut,
so that he looks ten years younger.”
“Do you think he has any special views?”
“He took such pains to show me the charms of the Benorchie property that I
should have thought it would have been Jessie Douglas, the heiress
thereof, only coming here does not seem the way to set about it, unless he
regards this place as a bath of youth and fashion. I fancy he has learnt
enough about my health to make him think me a precarious kind of heir, and
that his views are general. I hope he may not be made a fool of, otherwise
it is the best thing that could happen to us.”
“It has been a dreary uncomfortable visit, I much fear,” said Ermine.
“Less so than you think. I am glad to have been able to be of use to him,
and to have lived on something like brotherly terms. We know and like each
other much better than we had a chance of doing before, and we made some
pleasant visits together, but at home there are many things on which we
can never be of one mind, and I never was well enough at Gowanbrae to
think of living there permanently.”
“I was sure you had been very unwell! You are better though?”
“Well, since I came into Avonmouth air,” said he, “I fear nothing but
cold. I am glad to have brought him with me, since he could not stay
there, for it is very lonely for him.”
“Yet you said his daughter was settled close by.”
“Yes; but that makes it the worse. In fact, Ermine, I did not know before
what a wretched affair he had made of his daughters’ marriages. Isabel he
married when she was almost a child to this Comyn Menteith, very young too
at the time, and who has turned out a good-natured, reckless, dissipated
fellow, who is making away with his property as fast as he can, and to
whom Keith’s advice is like water on a duck’s back. It is all rack and
ruin and extravagance, a set of ill-regulated children, and Isabel smiling
and looking pretty in the midst of them, and perfectly impervious to
remonstrance. He is better out of sight of them, for it is only pain and
vexation, an example of the sort of match he likes to make. Mary, the
other daughter, was the favourite, and used to her own way, and she took
it. Keith was obliged to consent so as to prevent an absolute runaway
wedding, but he has by no means forgiven her husband, and they are living
on very small means on a Government appointment in Trinidad. I believe it
would be the bitterest pill to him that either son-in-law should come in
for any part of the estate.”
“I thought it was entailed.”
“Gowanbrae is, but as things stand at present that ends with me, and the
other estates are at his disposal.”
“Then it would be very hard on the daughters not to have them.”
“So hard that the death of young Alexander may have been one of the
greatest disasters of my life, as well as of poor Keith’s. However, this
is riding out to meet perplexities. He is most likely to outlive me; and,
moreover, may marry and put an end to the difficulty. Meantime, till my
charge is relieved, I must go and see after him, and try if I can fulfil
Hubert’s polite request that I would take him away. Rosie, my woman, I
have hardly spoken to you. I have some hyacinth roots to bring you
to-morrow.”
In spite of these suspicions, Colonel Keith was not prepared for what met
him on his return to Myrtlewood. On opening the drawing-room door, he
found Lady Temple in a low arm-chair in an agony of crying, so that she
did not hear his approach till he stood before her in consternation. Often
had he comforted her before, and now, convinced that something dreadful
must have befallen one of the children, he hastily, though tenderly,
entreated her to tell him which, and what he could do.
“Oh, no, no!” she exclaimed, starting up, and removing her handkerchief,
so that he saw her usually pale cheeks were crimson—“Oh, no,” she
cried, with panting breath and heaving chest. “It is all well with them as
yet. But—but—it’s your brother.”
He was at no loss now as to what his brother could have done, but he stood
confounded, with a sense of personal share in the offence, and his first
words were—“I am very sorry. I never thought of this.”
“No, indeed,” she exclaimed, “who could? It was too preposterous to be
dreamt of by any one. At his age, too, one would have thought he might
have known better.”
A secret sense of amusement crossed the Colonel, as he recollected that
the disparity between Fanny Curtis and Sir Stephen Temple had been far
greater than that between Lady Temple and Lord Keith, but the little
gentle lady was just at present more like a fury than he had thought
possible, evidently regarding what had just passed as an insult to her
husband and an attack on the freedom of all her sons. In answer to a few
sympathising words on the haste of his brother’s proceeding, she burst out
again with indignation almost amusing in one so soft—“Haste! Yes! I
did think that people would have had some respect for dear, dear Sir
Stephen,” and her gush of tears came with more of grief and less of
violence, as if she for the first time felt herself unprotected by her
husband’s name.
“I am very much concerned,” he repeated, feeling sympathy safer than
reasoning. “If I could have guessed his intentions, I would have tried to
spare you this; at least the suddenness of it. I could not have guessed at
such presumptuous expectations on so short an acquaintance.”
“He did not expect me to answer at once,” said Fanny. “He said he only
meant to let me know his hopes in coming here. And, oh, that’s the worst
of it! He won’t believe me, though I said more to him than I thought I
could have said to anybody! I told him,” said Fanny, with her hands
clasped over her knee to still her trembling, “that I cared for my dear,
dear husband, and always shall—always—and then he talked about
waiting, just as if anybody could leave off loving one’s husband! And then
when he wanted me to consider about my children, why then I told him”—and
her voice grew passionate again—“the more I considered, the worse it
would be for him, as if I would have my boys know me without their
father’s name; and, besides, he had not been so kind to you that I should
wish to let him have anything to do with them! I am afraid I ought not to
have said that,” she added, returning to something of her meek softness;
“but indeed I was so angry, I did not know what I was about. I hope it
will not make him angry with you.”
“Never mind me,” said Colonel Keith, kindly. “Indeed, Lady Temple, it is a
wonderful compliment to you that he should have been ready to undertake
such a family.”
“I don’t want such compliments! And, oh!” and here her eyes widened with
fright, “what shall I do? He only said my feelings did me honour, and he
would be patient and convince me. Oh, Colonel Keith, what shall I do?” and
she looked almost afraid that fate and perseverance would master her after
all, and that she should be married against her will.
“You need do nothing but go on your own way, and persist in your refusal,”
he said in the calm voice that always reassured her.
“Oh, but pray, pray never let him speak to me about it again!”
“Not if I can help it, and I will do my best. You are quite right, Lady
Temple. I do not think it would be at all advisable for yourself or the
children, and hardly for himself,” he added, smiling. “I think the
mischief must all have been done by that game at whist.”
“Then I’ll never play again in my life! I only thought he was an old man
that wanted amusing—.” Then as one of the children peeped in at the
window, and was called back—“O dear! how shall I ever look at
Conrade again, now any one has thought I could forget his father?”
“If Conrade knew it, which I trust he never will, he ought to esteem it a
testimony to his mother.”
“Oh, no, for it must have been my fault! I always was so childish, and
when I’ve got my boys with me, I can’t help being happy,” and the tears
swelled again in her eyes. “I know I have not been as sad and serious as
my aunt thought I ought to be, and now this comes of it.”
“You have been true, have acted nothing,” said Colonel Keith, “and that is
best of all. No one who really knew you could mistake your feelings. No
doubt that your conduct agrees better with what would please our dear Sir
Stephen than if you drooped and depressed the children.”
“Oh, I am glad you say that,” she said, looking up, flushed with pleasure
now, and her sweet eyes brimming over. “I have tried to think what he
would like in all I have done, and you know I can’t help being proud and
glad of belonging to him still; and he always told me not to be shy and
creeping into the nursery out of every one’s way.”
The tears were so happy now that he felt that the wound was healed, and
that he might venture to leave her, only asking first, “And now what would
you like me to do? Shall I try to persuade my brother to come away from
this place?”
“Oh, but then every one would find out why, and that would be dreadful!
Besides, you are only just come. And Miss Williams—”
“Do not let that stand in your way.”
“No, no. You will be here to take care of me. And his going now would make
people guess; and that would be worse than anything.”
“It would. The less disturbance the better; and if you upset his plans
now, he might plead a sort of right to renew the attempt later. Quiet
indifference will be more dignified and discouraging. Indeed, I little
thought to what I was exposing you. Now I hope you are going to rest, I am
sure your head is aching terribly.”
She faintly smiled, and let him give her his arm to the foot of the
stairs.
At first he was too indignant for any relief save walking up and down the
esplanade, endeavouring to digest the unfairness towards himself of his
brother’s silence upon views that would have put their joint residence at
Avonmouth on so different a footing; above all, when the Temple family
were his own peculiar charge, and when he remembered how unsuspiciously he
had answered all questions on the money matters, and told how all was left
in the widow’s own power. It was the more irritating, as he knew that his
displeasure would be ascribed to interested motives, and regarded somewhat
as he had seen Hubert’s resentment treated when Francis teased his
favourite rabbit. Yet not only on principle, but to avoid a quarrel, and
to reserve to himself such influence as might best shield Lady Temple from
further annoyance, he must school himself to meet his brother with
coolness and patience. It was not, however, without strong effort that he
was able to perceive that, from the outer point of view, one who, when a
mere child, had become the wife of an aged general, might, in her early
widowhood, be supposed open to the addresses of a man of higher rank and
fewer years, and the more as it was not in her nature to look crushed and
pathetic. He, who had known her intimately throughout her married life and
in her sorrow, was aware of the quiet force of the love that had grown up
with her, so entirely a thread in her being as to crave little expression,
and too reverent to be violent even in her grief. The nature, always
gentle, had recovered its balance, and the difference in years had no
doubt told in the readiness with which her spirits had recovered their
cheerfulness, though her heart remained unchanged. Still, retired as her
habits were, and becoming as was her whole conduct, Colin began to see
that there had been enough of liveliness about her to lead to Lord Keith’s
mistake, though not to justify his want of delicacy in the precipitation
of his suit.
These reflections enabled him at length to encounter his brother with
temper, and to find that, after all, it had been more like the declaration
of an intended siege than an actual summons to surrender. Lord Keith was a
less foolish and more courteous man than might have been gathered from
poor Fanny’s terrified account; and all he had done was to intimate his
intention of recommending himself to her, and the view with which he had
placed himself at Avonmouth; nor was he in the slightest degree
disconcerted by her vehemence, but rather entertained by it, accepting her
faithfulness to her first husband’s memory as the best augury of her
affection for a second. He did not even own that he had been precipitate.
“Let her get accustomed to the idea,” he said with a shrewd smile. “The
very outcry she makes against it will be all in my favour when the turn
comes.”
“I doubt whether you will find it so.”
“All the world does not live on romance like you, man. Look on, and you
will see that a pretty young widow like her cannot fail to get into
scrapes; have offers made to her, or at least the credit of them. I’d lay
you ten pounds that you are said to be engaged to her yourself by this
time, and it is no one’s fault but your own that you are not. It is in the
very nature of things that she will be driven to shelter herself from the
persecution, with whoever has bided his time.”
“Oh, if you prefer being accepted on such terms—”
He smiled, as if the romance of the exclamation were beneath contempt, and
proceeded—“A pretty, gracious, ladylike woman, who has seen enough
of the world to know how to take her place, and yet will be content with a
quiet home. It is an introduction I thank you for, Colin.”
“And pray,” said Colin, the more inwardly nettled because he knew that his
elder brother enjoyed his annoyance, “what do you think of those seven
slight encumbrances?”
“Oh, they are your charge,” returned Lord Keith, with a twinkle in his
eye. “Besides, most of them are lads, and what with school, sea, and
India, they will be easily disposed of.”
“Certainly it has been so in our family,” said Colin, rather hoarsely, as
he thought of the four goodly brothers who had once risen in steps between
him and the Master.
“And,” added Lord Keith, still without direct answer, “she is so
handsomely provided for, that you see, Colin, I could afford to give you
up the Auchinvar property, that should have been poor Archie’s, and what
with the farms and the moor, it would bring you in towards three hundred a
year for your housekeeping.”
Colin restrained himself with difficulty, but made quiet answer. “I had
rather see it settled as a provision on Mary and her children.”
Lord Keith growled something about minding his own concerns.
“That is all I desire,” responded the Colonel, and therewith the
conference ended. Nor was the subject recurred to. It was observable,
however, that Lord Keith was polite and even attentive to Ermine. He
called on her, sent her grouse, and though saying nothing, seemed to wish
to make it evident that his opposition was withdrawn, perhaps as no longer
considering his brother’s affairs as his own, or else wishing to
conciliate him. Lady Temple was not molested by any alarming attentions
from him. But for the proclamation, the state of siege might have been
unsuspected. He settled himself at the southern Gowanbrae as if he had no
conquest to achieve but that of the rheumatism, and fell rapidly into
sea-side habits—his morning stroll to see the fishing-boats come in,
his afternoon ride, and evening’s dinner party, or whist-club, which
latter institution disposed of him, greatly to Colin’s relief. The
brothers lived together very amicably, and the younger often made himself
helpful and useful to the elder, but evidently did not feel bound to be
exclusively devoted to his service and companionship. All the winter
residents and most of the neighbouring gentry quickly called at Gowanbrae,
and Lord Keith, in the leisure of his present life, liked society where he
was the man of most consequence, and readily accepted and gave
invitations. Colin, whose chest would not permit him to venture out after
sunset, was a most courteous assistant host, but necessarily made fewer
acquaintances, and often went his own way, sometimes riding with his
brother, but more frequently scarcely seeing him between breakfast and
twilight, and then often spending a solitary evening, which he much
preferred either to écarté or to making talk.
The summer life had been very different from the winter one. There was
much less intercourse with the Homestead, partly from Rachel being much
engrossed with the F. U. E. E., driving over whenever the coachman would
let her, to inspect progress, and spending much of her time in sending out
circulars, answering letters, and writing a tale on the distresses of
Woman, and how to help them, entitled “Am I not a Sister?” Tales were not
much in Rachel’s line; she despised reading them, and did not love writing
them, but she knew that she must sugar the cup for the world, and so she
diligently applied herself to the pièce de résistance for the destined
magazine, heavily weighting her slender thread of story with disquisitions
on economy and charity, and meaning to land her heroines upon various
industrial asylums where their lot should be far more beatific than
marriage, which was reserved for the naughty one to live unhappy in ever
after. In fact, Rachel, in her stern consistency, had made up her mind to
avoid and discourage the Colonel, and to prevent her own heart from
relenting in his favour, or him from having any opportunity of asking an
explanation, and with this determination she absented herself both from
Ermine’s parlour and Lady Temple’s croquet ground; and if they met on the
esplanade or in a morning call, took care never to give the chance of a
tête-à-tête, which he was evidently seeking.
The croquet practice still survived. In truth, Fanny was afraid to ride
lest Lord Keith should join her, and was glad to surround herself with
companions. She could not see the enemy without a nervous trepidation, and
was eager to engross herself with anybody or thing that came to hand so as
to avoid the necessity of attending to him. More than once did she linger
among her boys “to speak to Mr. Touchett,” that she might avoid a ten
minutes’ walk with his lordship; and for nothing was she more grateful
than for the quiet and ever ready tact with which Bessie Keith threw
herself into the breach. That bright damsel was claimed by Lord Keith as a
kinswoman, and, accepting the relationship, treated him with the pretty
playfulness and coquetry that elderly men enjoy from lively young girls,
and thus often effected a diversion in her friend’s favour, to the
admiration both of the Colonel and of Lady Temple herself; all, however,
by intuition, for not a word had been hinted to her of what had passed
during that game at croquet. She certainly was a most winning creature;
the Colonel was charmed with her conversation in its shades between
archness and good sense, and there was no one who did not look forward
with dread to the end of her visit, when after a short stay with one of
her married cousins, she must begin her residence with the blind uncle to
whose establishment she, in her humility, declared she should be such a
nuisance. It was the stranger that she should think so, as she had
evidently served her apprenticeship to parish work at Bishopsworthy; she
knew exactly how to talk to poor people, and was not only at home in
clerical details herself, but infused them into Lady Temple; so that, to
the extreme satisfaction of Mr. Touchett, the latter organized a treat for
the school-children, offered prizes for needlework, and once or twice even
came to listen to the singing practice when anything memorable was going
forward. She was much pleased at being helped to do what she felt to be
right and kind, though hitherto she had hardly known how to set about it,
and had been puzzled and perplexed by Rachel’s disapproval, and
semi-contempt of “scratching the surface” by the commonplace Sunday-school
system.
CHAPTER XII. A CHANGE AT THE PARSONAGE.
“What could presumptuous hope inspire.”—Rokeby.
There had been the usual foretaste of winter, rather sharp for Avonmouth,
and though a trifle to what it was in less sheltered places, quite enough
to make the heliotropes sorrowful, strip the fig-trees, and shut Colonel
Keith up in the library. Then came the rain, and the result was that the
lawn of Myrtlewood became too sloppy for the most ardent devotees of
croquet; indeed, as Bessie said, the great charm of the sport was that one
could not play it above eight months in the year.
The sun came back again, and re-asserted the claim of Avonmouth to be a
sort of English Mentone; but drying the lawn was past its power, and
Conrade and Francis were obliged to console themselves by the glory of
taking Bessie Keith for a long ride. They could not persuade their mother
to go with them, perhaps because she had from her nursery-window
sympathized with Cyril’s admiration of the great white horse that was
being led round to the door of Gowanbrae.
She said she must stay at home, and make the morning calls that the charms
of croquet had led her to neglect, and in about half an hour from that
time she was announced in Miss Williams’ little parlour, and entered with
a hurried, panting, almost pursued look, a frightened glance in her eyes,
and a flush on her cheek, such as to startle both Ermine and the Colonel.
“Oh!” she exclaimed, as if still too much perturbed to know quite what she
was saying, “I—I did not mean to interrupt you.”
“I’m only helping Rose to change the water of her hyacinths,” said Colonel
Keith, withdrawing his eyes and attention to the accommodation of the
forest of white roots within the purple glass.
“I did not know you were out to-day,” said Lady Temple, recovering herself
a little.
“Yes, I came to claim my walking companion. Where’s your hat, Rosie?”
And as the child, who was already equipped all but the little brown hat,
stood by her aunt for the few last touches to the throat of her jacket, he
leant down and murmured, “I thought he was safe out riding.”
“Oh no, no, it is not that,” hastily answered Lady Temple, a fresh
suffusion of crimson colour rustling over her face, and inspiring an
amount of curiosity that rendered a considerable effort of attention
necessary to be as supremely charming a companion as Rose generally found
him in the walks that he made it his business to take with her.
He turned about long before Rose thought they had gone far enough, and
when he re-entered the parlour there was such an expectant look on his
face that Ermine’s bright eyes glittered with merry mischief, when she
sent Rose to take off her walking dress. “Well!” he said.
“Well? Colin, have you so low an opinion of the dignity of your charge as
to expect her to pour out her secrets to the first ear in her way?”
“Oh, if she has told you in confidence.”
“No, she has not told me in confidence; she knew better.”
“She has told you nothing?”
“Nothing!” and Ermine indulged in a fit of laughter at his discomfiture,
so comical that he could not but laugh himself, as he said, “Ah! the
pleasure of disappointing me quite consoles you.”
“No; the proof of the discretion of womanhood does that! You thought,
because she tells all her troubles to you, that she must needs do so to
the rest of the world.”
“There is little difference between telling you and me.”
“That’s the fault of your discretion, not of hers.”
“I should like to know who has been annoying her. I suspect—”
“So do I. And when you get the confidence at first hand, you will receive
it with a better grace than if you had had a contraband foretaste.”
He smiled. “I thought yours a more confidence-winning face, Ermine.”
“That depends on my respect for the individual. Now I thought Lady Temple
would much prefer my looking another way, and talking about Conrade’s
Latin grammar, to my holding out my arms and inviting her to pour into my
tender breast what another time she had rather not know that I knew.”
“That is being an honourable woman,” he said, and Rose’s return ended the
exchange of speculations; but it must be confessed that at their next
meeting Ermine’s look of suppressed inquiry quite compensated for her
previous banter, more especially as neither had he any confidence to
reveal or conceal, only the tidings that the riders, whose coalition had
justified Lady Temple’s prudence, had met Mr. Touchett wandering in the
lanes in the twilight, apparently without a clear idea of what he was
doing there. And on the next evening there was quite an excitement, the
curate looked so ill, and had broken quite down when he was practising
with the choir boys before church; he had, indeed, gone safely through the
services, but at school he had been entirely at a loss as to what Sunday
it was, and had still more unfortunately forgotten that to be extra civil
to Miss Villars was the only hope of retaining her services, for he had
walked by her with less attention than if she had been the meanest
scholar. Nay, when his most faithful curatolatress had offered to submit
to him a design for an illumination for Christmas, he had escaped from her
with a desperate and mysterious answer that he had nothing to do with
illumination, he hoped it would be as sombre as possible.
No wonder Avonmouth was astonished, and that guesses were not confined to
Mackarel Lane.
“Well, Colin,” said Ermine, on the Tuesday, “I have had a first-hand
confidence, though from a different quarter. Poor Mr. Touchett came to
announce his going away.”
“Going!”
“Yes. In the very nick of time, it seems, Alick Keith has had a letter
from his uncle’s curate, asking him to see if he could meet with a
southern clergyman to exchange duties for the winter with a London
incumbent who has a delicate wife, and of course. Mr. Touchett jumped at
it.”
“A very good thing—a great relief.”
“Yes. He said he was very anxious for work, but he had lost ground in this
place within the last few months, and he thought that he should do better
in a fresh place, and that a fresh person would answer better here, at
least for a time. I am very sorry for him, I have a great regard for him.”
“Yes; but he is quite right to make a fresh beginning. Poor man! he has
been quite lifted off his feet, and entranced all this time, and his
recovery will be much easier elsewhere. It was all that unlucky croquet.”
“I believe it was. I think there was at first a reverential sort of
distant admiration, too hopeless to do any one any harm, and that really
might have refined him, and given him a little of the gentleman-like tone
he has always wanted. But then came the croquet, and when it grew to be a
passion it was an excuse for intimacy that it would have taken a stronger
head than his to resist.”
“Under the infection of croquet fever.”
“It is what my father used to say of amusements—the instant they
become passions they grow unclerical and do mischief. Now he used, though
not getting on with the Curtises, to be most successful with the
second-rate people; but he has managed to offend half of them during this
unhappy mania, which, of course, they all resent as mercenary, and how he
is ever to win them back I don’t know. After all, curatocult is a shallow
motive—Rachel Curtis might triumph!”
“The higher style of clergyman does not govern by curatocult. I hope this
one may be of that description, as he comes through Mr. Clare. I wonder if
this poor man will return?”
“Perhaps,” said Ermine, with a shade of mimicry in her voice, “when Lady
Temple is married to the Colonel. There now, I have gone and told you! I
did try to resolve I would not.”
“And what did you say?”
“I thought it due to Lady Temple to tell him exactly how she regarded
you.”
“Yes, Ermine, and it is due to tell others also. I cannot go on on these
terms, either here or at Myrtlewood, unless the true state of the case is
known. If you will not let me be a married man, I must be an engaged one,
either to you or to the little Banksia.”
This periphrasis was needful, because Rose was curled up in a corner with
a book, and her accessibility to outward impressions was dubious. It might
be partly for that reason, partly from the tone of fixed resolve in his
voice, that Ermine made answer, “As you please.”
It was calmly said, with the sweet, grave, confiding smile that told how
she trusted to his judgment, and accepted his will. The look and tone
brought his hand at once to press hers in eager gratitude, but still she
would not pursue this branch of the subject; she looked up to him and said
gently, but firmly, “Yes, it may be better that the true state of the case
should be known;” and he felt that she thus conveyed that he must not
press her further, so he let her continue, “At first I thought it would do
him good, he began pitying us so vehemently; but when he found I did not
pity myself, he was as ready to forget our troubles as—you are to
forget his,” she added, catching Colin’s fixed eye, more intent on herself
than on her narrative.
“I beg his pardon, but there are things that come more home.”
“So thought he,” said Ermine.
“Did you find out,” said Colin, now quite recalled, “what made him take
courage?”
“When he had once come to the subject, it seemed to be a relief to tell it
all out, but he was so faltering and agitated that I did not always follow
what he said. I gather, though, that Lady Temple has used him a little as
a defence from other perils.”
“Yes, I have seen that.”
“And Miss Keith’s fun has been more encouragement than she knew;
constantly summoning him to the croquet-ground, and giving him to
understand that Lady Temple liked to have him there. Then came that
unlucky day, it seems, when he found Bessie mounting her horse at the
door, and she called out that it was too wet for croquet, but Lady Temple
was in the garden, and would be glad to see him. She was going to make
visits, and he walked down with her, and somehow, in regretting the end of
the croquet season, he was surprised into saying how much it had been to
him. He says she was exceedingly kind, and regretted extremely that
anything should have inspired the hope, said she should never marry again,
and entreated him to forget it, then I imagine she fled in here to put an
end to it.”
“She must have been much more gentle this time than she was with Keith. I
had never conceived her capable of being so furious as she was then. I am
very sorry, I wish we could spare her these things.”
“I am afraid that can only be done in one way, which you are not likely at
present to take,” said Ermine with a serious mouth, but with light dancing
in her eyes.
“I know no one less likely to marry again,” he continued, “yet no one of
whom the world is so unlikely to believe it. Her very gentle simplicity
and tenderness tell against her! Well, the only hope now is that the poor
man has not made his disappointment conspicuous enough for her to know
that it is attributed to her. It is the beginning of the fulfilment of
Keith’s prediction that offers and reports will harass her into the deed!”
“There is nothing so fallacious as prophecies against second marriages,
but I don’t believe they will. She is too quietly dignified for the full
brunt of reports to reach her, and too much concentrated on her children
to care about them.”
“Well, I have to see her to-morrow to make her sign some papers about her
pension, so I shall perhaps find out how she takes it.”
He found Fanny quite her gentle composed self, as usual uncomprehending
and helpless about her business affairs, and throwing the whole burthen on
him of deciding on her investments; but in such a gracious, dependent,
grateful way that he could not but take pleasure in the office, and had no
heart for the lesson he had been meditating on the need of learning to act
for herself, if she wished to do without a protector. It was not till she
had obediently written her “Frances Grace Temple” wherever her prime
minister directed, that she said with a crimson blush, “Is it true that
poor Mr. Touchett is going away for the winter?”
“I believe he is even going before Sunday.”
“I am very glad—I mean I am very sorry. Do you think any one knows
why it is?”
“Very few are intimate enough to guess, and those who are, know you too
well to think it was otherwise than very foolish on his part.”
“I don’t know,” said Fanny, “I think I must have been foolish too, or he
never could have thought of it. And I was so sorry for him, he seemed so
much distressed.”
“I do not wonder at that, when he had once allowed himself to admit the
thought.”
“Yes, that is the thing. I am afraid I can’t be what I ought to be, or
people would never think of such nonsense,” said Fanny, with large tears
welling into her eyes. “I can’t be guarding that dear memory as I ought,
to have two such things happening so soon.”
“Perhaps they have made you cherish it all the more.”
“As if I wanted that! Please will you tell me how I could have been more
guarded. I don’t mind your knowing about this; indeed you ought, for Sir
Stephen trusted me to you, but I can’t ask my aunt or any one else. I
can’t talk about it, and I would not have them know that Sir Stephen’s
wife can’t get his memory more respected.”
She did not speak with anger as the first time, but with most touching
sadness.
“I don’t think any one could answer,” he said.
“I did take my aunt’s advice about the officers being here. I have not had
them nearly as much as Bessie would have liked, not even Alick. I have
been sorry it was so dull for her, but I thought it could not be wrong to
be intimate with one’s clergyman, and Rachel was always so hard upon him.”
“You did nothing but what was kind and right. The only possible thing that
could have been wished otherwise was the making a regular habit of his
playing croquet here.”
“Ah! but the boys and Bessie liked it so much. However, I dare say it was
wrong. Alick never did like it.”
“Not wrong, only a little overdone. You ladies want sometimes to be put in
mind that, because a clergyman has to manage his own time, he is not a
whit more really at liberty than a soldier or a lawyer, whose hours are
fixed for him. You do not do him or his parish any kindness by engrossing
him constantly in pastimes that are all very well once in a way, but which
he cannot make habitual without detriment to his higher duties.”
“But I thought he would have known when he had time.”
“I am afraid curates are but bits of human nature after all.”
“And what ought I to have done?”
“If you had been an exceedingly prudent woman who knew the world, you
would have done just as you did about the officers, been friendly, and
fairly intimate, but instead of ratifying the daily appointments for
croquet, have given a special invitation now and then, and so shown that
you did not expect him without one.”
“I see. Oh, if I had only thought in time, I need not have driven him away
from his parish! I hope he won’t go on being unhappy long! Oh, I wish
there may be some very nice young lady where he is going. If he only would
come back married!”
“We would give him a vote of thanks.”
“What a wedding present I would make her,” proceeded Fanny, brightening
perceptibly; “I would give her my best Indian table, only I always meant
that for Ermine. I think she must have the emu’s egg set in Australian
gold.”
“If she were to be induced by the bribe,” said Colonel Keith, laughing, “I
think Ermine would be sufficiently provided for by the emu’s egg. Do you
know,” he added, after a pause, “I think I have made a great step in that
direction.”
She clasped her hands with delighted sympathy. “She has given me leave to
mention the matter,” he continued, “and I take that as a sign that her
resistance will give way.”
“Oh, I am very glad,” said Fanny, “I have so wished them to know at the
Homestead,” and her deepened colour revealed, against her will, that she
had not been insensible to the awkwardness of the secrecy.
“I should rather like to tell your cousin Rachel myself,” said the
Colonel; “she has always been very kind to Ermine, and appreciated her
more than I should have expected. But she is not easily to be seen now.”
“Her whole heart is in her orphan asylum,” said Fanny. “I hope you will
soon go with us and see it; the little girls look so nice.”
The brightening of his prospects seemed to have quite consoled her for her
own perplexities.
That Avonmouth should have no suspicion of the cause of the sudden change
of pastor could hardly be hoped; but at least Lady Temple did not know how
much talk was expended upon her, how quietly Lord Keith hugged himself,
how many comical stories Bessie detailed in her letters to her Clare
cousins, nor how Mrs. Curtis resented the presumption; and while she
shrank from a lecture, more especially as she did not see how dear Fanny
was to blame, flattered herself and Grace that, for the future, Colonel
Keith and Rachel would take better care of her.
Rachel did not dwell much on the subject, it was only the climax of
conceit, croquet, and mere womanhood; and she was chiefly anxious to know
whether Mr. Mitchell, the temporary clergyman, would support the F. U. E.
E., and be liberal enough to tolerate Mr. Mauleverer. She had great hopes
from a London incumbent, and, besides, Bessie Keith knew him, and spoke of
him as a very sensible, agreeable, earnest man.
“Earnest enough for you, Rachel,” she said, laughing.
“Is he a party man?”
“Oh, parties are getting obsolete! He works too hard for fighting battles
outside.”
The Sunday showed a spare, vigorous face, and a voice and pronunciation
far more refined than poor Mr. Touchett’s; also the sermons were far more
interesting, and even Rachel granted that there were ideas in it. The
change was effected with unusual celerity, for it was as needful to Mrs.
Mitchell to be speedily established in a warm climate, as it was desirable
to Mr. Touchett to throw himself into other scenes; and the little
parsonage soon had the unusual ornaments of tiny children with small
spades and wheelbarrows.
The father and mother were evidently very shy people, with a great deal
beneath their timidity, and were much delighted to have an old
acquaintance like Miss Keith to help them through their introductions, an
office which she managed with all her usual bright tact. The discovery
that Stephana Temple and Lucy Mitchell had been born within two days of
one another, was the first link of a warm friendship between the two
mammas; and Mr. Mitchell fell at once into friendly intercourse with
Ermine Williams, to whom Bessie herself conducted him for his first visit,
when they at once discovered all manner of mutual acquaintance among his
college friends; and his next step was to make the very arrangement for
Ermine’s church-going, for which she had long been wishing in secret, but
which never having occurred to poor Mr. Touchett, she had not dared to
propose, lest there should be some great inconvenience in the way.
Colonel Keith was the person, however, with whom the new comers chiefly
fraternized, and he was amused with their sense of the space for breathing
compared with the lanes and alleys of their own district. The schools and
cottages seemed to them so wonderfully large, the children so clean, even
their fishiness a form of poetical purity, the people ridiculously well
off, and even Mrs. Kelland’s lace-school a palace of the free maids that
weave their thread with bones. Mr. Mitchell seemed almost to grudge the
elbow room, as he talked of the number of cubic feet that held a dozen of
his own parishioners; and needful as the change had been for the health of
both husband and wife, they almost reproached themselves for having fled
and left so many pining for want of pure air, dwelling upon impossible
castles for the importation of favourite patients to enjoy the balmy
breezes of Avonmouth.
Rachel talked to them about the F. U. E. E., and was delighted by the
flush of eager interest on Mrs. Mitchell’s thin face. “Objects” swarmed in
their parish, but where were the seven shillings per week to come from? At
any rate Mr. Mitchell would, the first leisure day, come over to St.
Herbert’s with her, and inspect. He did not fly off at the first hint of
Mr. Mauleverer’s “opinions,” but said he would talk to him, and thereby
rose steps untold in Rachel’s estimation. The fact of change is
dangerously pleasant to the human mind; Mr. Mitchell walked at once into
popularity, and Lady Temple had almost conferred a public benefit by what
she so little liked to remember. At any rate she had secured an
unexceptionable companion, and many a time resorted to his wing, leaving
Bessie to amuse Lord Keith, who seemed to be reduced to carry on his
courtship to the widow by attentions to her guest.
CHAPTER XIII. THE FOX AND THE CROW.
“She just gave one squall,
When the cheese she let fall,
And the fox ran away with his prize.”
JANE TAYLOR.
“My dear,” said Mrs. Curtis, one Monday morning, “I offered Colonel Keith
a seat in the carriage to go to the annual book-club meeting with us. Mr.
Spicer is going to propose him as a member of the club, you know, and I
thought the close carriage would be better for him. I suppose you will be
ready by eleven; we ought to set out by that time, not to hurry the
horses.”
“I am not going,” returned Rachel, an announcement that electrified her
auditors, for the family quota of books being quite insufficient for her
insatiable appetite, she was a subscriber on her own account, and besides,
this was the grand annual gathering for disposing of old books, when she
was relied on for purchasing all the nuts that nobody else would crack.
The whole affair was one of the few social gatherings that she really
tolerated and enjoyed, and her mother gazed at her in amazement.
“I wrote to Mrs. Spicer a month ago to take my name off. I have no
superfluous money to spend on my selfish amusement.”
“But Rachel,” said Grace, “did you not particularly want—oh! that
fat red book which came to us uncut?”
“I did, but I must do without it.”
“Poor Mr. Spicer, he reckoned on you to take it; indeed, he thought you
had promised him.”
“If there is anything like a promise, I suppose it must be done, but I do
not believe there is. I trust to you, Grace, you know I have nothing to
waste.”
“You had better go yourself, my dear, and then you would be able to judge.
It would be more civil by the society, too.”
“No matter, indeed I cannot; in fact, Mr. Mauleverer is coming this
morning to give his report and arrange our building plans. I want to
introduce him to Mr. Mitchell, and fix a day for going over.”
Mrs. Curtis gave up in despair, and consulted her eldest daughter in
private whether there could have been any misunderstanding with Colonel
Keith to lead Rachel to avoid him in a manner that was becoming pointed.
Grace deemed it nothing but absorption into the F. U. E. E., and poor Mrs.
Curtis sighed over this fleeting away of her sole chance of seeing Rachel
like other people. Of Mr. Mauleverer personally she had no fears, he was
in her eyes like a drawing or music-master, and had never pretended to be
on equal terms in society with her daughters, and she had no doubts or
scruples in leaving Rachel to her business interview with him, though she
much regretted this further lapse from the ordinary paths of sociability.
Rachel, on the other hand, felt calmly magnanimous in the completion of a
veritable sacrifice, for those books had afforded her much enjoyment, and
she would much like to have possessed many of those that would be tossed
aside at a cheap rate. But the constant small expenses entailed by the
first setting on foot such an establishment as the F. U. E. E. were a
heavy drain on her private purse, as she insisted on all accounts being
brought to her, and then could not bear that these small nondescript
matters should be charged upon the general fund, which having already paid
the first half-year’s rent in advance, and furnished the house, must be
recruited by some extraordinary supply before she could build. The thing
could not be done at all but by rigid economy, and she was ready to
exercise it, and happy in so doing. And the Colonel? She thought the pain
of her resolution was passing. After all, it was not so dreadful as people
would have one believe, it was no such wrench as novels described to make
up one’s mind to prefer a systematically useful life to an agreeable man.
Mr. Mauleverer came, with a good report of the children’s progress, and
talking quite enthusiastically of Lovedy’s sweetness and intelligence.
Perhaps she would turn out a superior artist, now that chill penury no
longer repressed her noble rage, and he further brought a small demand for
drawing materials and blocks for engraving, to the amount of five pounds,
which Rachel defrayed from the general fund, but sighed over its
diminution.
“If I could only make the Barnaby bargain available,” she said; “it is
cruel to have it tied up to mere apprenticeships, which in the present
state of things are absolutely useless, or worse.”
“Can nothing be done?”
“You shall hear. Dame Rachel Curtis, in 1605, just when this place was
taking up lace-making, an art learnt, I believe, from some poor nuns that
were turned out of St. Mary’s, at Avoncester, thought she did an immense
benefit to the place by buying the bit of land known as Burnaby’s Bargain,
and making the rents go yearly to apprentice two poor girls born of honest
parents. The rent is fourteen pounds, and so the fees are so small that
only the small lace-makers here will accept them. I cannot get the girls
apprenticed to anything better in the towns except for a much larger
premium.”
“Do I understand you that such a premium is at present to be bestowed?”
“No, not till next June. The two victims for this year have been
sacrificed. But perhaps another time it might be possible to bind them to
you as a wood engraver or printer!” cried Rachel, joyfully.
“I should be most happy. But who would be the persons concerned?”
“The trustees are the representative of our family and the rector of the
parish—not Mr. Touchett (this is only a district), but poor old Mr.
Linton at Avonbridge, who is barely able to sign the papers, so that
practically it all comes to me.”
“Extremely fortunate for the objects of the charity.”
“I wish it were so; but if it could only be made available in such a cause
as ours, I am sure my good namesake’s intentions would be much better
carried out than by binding these poor girls down to their cushions. I did
once ask about it, but I was told it could only be altered by Act of
Parliament.”
“Great facilities have of late been given,” said Mr. Mauleverer, “many old
endowments have most beneficially extended their scope. May I ask where
the land in question is?”
“It is the level bit of meadow just by the river, and all the slope down
to the mouth; it has always been in our hands, and paid rent as part of
the farm. You know how well it looks from the garden-seat, but it always
grieves me when people admire it, for I feel as if it were thrown away.”
“Ah! I understand. Perhaps if I could see the papers I could judge of the
feasibility of some change.”
Rachel gladly assented, and knowing where to find the keys of the strong
box, she returned in a short space with a parcel tied up with red tape,
and labelled “Barnaby’s Bargain.”
“I have been thinking,” she exclaimed, as she came in, “that that piece of
land must have grown much more valuable since this rent was set on it!
Fourteen pounds a year, why we never thought of it; but surely in such a
situation, it would be worth very much more for building purposes.”
“There can be no doubt. But your approach, Miss Curtis?”
“If it is a matter of justice to the charity, of course that could not be
weighed a moment. But we must consider what is to be done. Get the land
valued, and pay rent for it accordingly? I would give it up to its fate,
and let it for what it would bring, but it would break my mother’s heart
to see it built on.”
“Perhaps I had better take the papers and look over them. I see they will
need much consideration.”
“Very well, that will be the best way, but we will say nothing about it
till we have come to some conclusion, or we shall only startle and
distress my mother. After all, then, I do believe we have the real income
of the F. U. E. E. within our very hands! It might be ten times what it is
now.”
Rachel was in higher spirits than ever. To oblige the estate to pay £140 a
year to the F. U. E. E. was beyond measure delightful, and though it would
be in fact only taking out of the family pocket, yet that was a pocket she
could not otherwise get at. The only thing for which she was sorry was
that Mr. Mauleverer had an appointment, and could not come with her to
call on Mr. Mitchell; but instead of this introduction, as she had sworn
herself to secrecy rather than worry her mother till the ways and means
were matured, she resolved, by way of compensation, upon going down to
impart to Ermine Williams this grave reformation of abuses, since this was
an afternoon when there was no chance of meeting the Colonel.
Very happy did she feel in the hope that had come to crown her efforts at
the very moment when she had actually and tangibly given up a pleasure,
and closed a door opening into worldly life, and she was walking along
with a sense of almost consecrated usefulness, to seek her companion in
the path of maiden devotion, when in passing the gates of Myrtlewood, she
was greeted by Captain Keith and his bright-eyed sister, just coming forth
together.
A few words told that they were all bound for Mackarel Lane, actuated by
the same probability of finding Miss Williams alone, the Colonel being
absent.
“Wonderfully kind to her he is,” said Rachel, glad to praise him to
convince herself that she did not feel bitter; “he takes that little girl
out walking with him every morning.”
“I wonder if his constancy will ever be rewarded?” said Bessie, lightly;
then, as Rachel looked at her in wonder and almost rebuke for so direct
and impertinent a jest, she exclaimed, “Surely you are not in ignorance!
What have I done? I thought all the world knew—all the inner world,
that is, that revels in a secret.”
“Knew what?” said Rachel, unavoidable intolerable colour rushing into her
face.
“Why the romance of Colin and Ermine! To live on the verge of such a—a
tragi-comedy, is it? and not be aware of it, I do pity you.”
“The only wonder is how you knew it,” said her brother, in a tone of
repression.
“I! Oh, it is a fine thing to be a long-eared little pitcher when one’s
elders imagine one hears nothing but what is addressed to oneself. There I
sat, supposed to be at my lessons, when the English letters came in, and I
heard papa communicating to mamma how he had a letter from old Lord Keith—not
this one but one older still—the father of him—about his son’s
exchange—wanted papa to know that he was exemplary and all that, and
hoped he would be kind to him, but just insinuated that leave was not
desirable—in fact it was to break off an affair at home. And then,
while I was all on fire to see what a lover looked like, comes another
letter, this time to mamma, from Lady Alison something, who could not help
recommending to her kindness her dear nephew Colin, going out
broken-hearted at what was feared would prove a fatal accident, to the
dearest, noblest girl in the world, for so she must call Ermine Williams.
Ermine was a name to stick in one’s memory if Williams was not, and so I
assumed sufficient certainty to draw it all out of dear Lady Temple.”
“She knows then?” said Rachel, breathlessly, but on her guard.
“Know? Yes, or she could hardly make such a brother of the Colonel. In
fact, I think it is a bit of treachery to us all to keep such an affair
concealed, don’t you?” with a vivid flash out of the corner of her eyes.
“Treachery not to post up a list of all one’s—”
“One’s conquests?” said Bessie, snatching the word out of her brother’s
mouth. “Did you ever hear a more ingenious intimation of the number one
has to boast?”
“Only in character,” calmly returned Alick.
“But do not laugh,” said Rachel, who had by this time collected herself;
“if this is so, it must be far too sad and melancholy to be laughed
about.”
“So it is,” said Alick, with a tone of feeling. “It has been a mournful
business from the first, and I do not see how it is to end.”
“Why, I suppose Colonel Colin is his own master now,” said Bessie; “and if
he has no objection I do not see who else can make any.”
“There are people in the world who are what Tennyson calls ‘selfless,’”
returned Alick.
“Then the objection comes from her?” said Rachel, anxiously.
“So saith Lady Temple,” returned Bessie.
They were by this time in Mackarel Lane. Rachel would have given much to
have been able to turn back and look this strange news in the face, but
consciousness and fear of the construction that might be put on her change
of purpose forced her on, and in a few moments the three were in the
little parlour, where Ermine’s station was now by the fire. There could be
no doubt, as Rachel owned to herself instantly, that there was a change
since she first had studied that face. The bright colouring, and far more,
the active intellect and lively spirit, had always obviated any expression
of pining or invalidism; but to the air of cheerfulness was added a look
of freshened health and thorough happiness, that rendered the always
striking features absolutely beautiful; more so, perhaps, than in their
earliest bloom; and the hair and dress, though always neat, and still as
simply arranged as possible, had an indescribable air of care and taste
that added to the effect of grace and pleasantness, and made Rachel feel
convinced in a moment that the wonder would have been not in constancy to
such a creature but in inconstancy. The notion that any one could turn
from that brilliant, beaming, refined face to her own, struck her with a
sudden humiliation. There was plenty of conversation, and her voice was
not immediately wanted; indeed, she hardly attended to what was passing,
and really dreaded outstaying the brother and sister. When Ermine turned
to her, and asked after Lovedy Kelland in her new home, she replied like
one in a dream, then gathered herself up and answered to the point, but
feeling the restraint intolerable, soon rose to take leave.
“So soon?” said Ermine; “I have not seen you for a long time.”
“I—I was afraid of being in the way,” said Rachel, the first time
probably that such a fear had ever suggested itself to her, and blushing
as Ermine did not blush.
“We are sure to be alone after twilight,” said Ermine, “if that is not too
late for you, but I know you are much occupied now.”
Somehow that invalid in her chair had the dignity of a queen appointing
her levee, and Rachel followed the impulse of thanking and promising, but
then quickly made her escape to her own thoughts.
“Her whole soul is in that asylum,” said Ermine, smiling as she went. “I
should like to hear that it is going on satisfactorily, but she does not
seem to have time even to talk.”
“The most wonderful consummation of all,” observed Bessie.
“No,” said Ermine, “the previous talk was not chatter, but real
effervescence from the unsatisfied craving for something to do.”
“And has she anything to do now?” said Bessie.
“That is exactly what I want to know. It would be a great pity if all this
real self-devotion were thrown away.”
“It cannot be thrown away,” said Alick.
“Not on herself,” said Ermine, “but one would not see it misdirected, both
for the waste of good energy and the bitter disappointment.”
“Well,” said Bessie, “I can’t bear people to be so dreadfully in earnest!”
“You are accountable for the introduction, are not you?” said Ermine.
“I’m quite willing! I think a good downfall plump would be the most
wholesome thing that could happen to her; and besides, I never told her to
take the man for her almoner and counsellor! I may have pointed to the
gulf, but I never bade Curtia leap into it.”
“I wish there were any one to make inquiries about this person,” said
Ermine; “but when Colonel Keith came it was too late. I hoped she might
consult him, but she has been so much absorbed that she really has never
come in his way.”
“She would never consult any one,” said Bessie.
“I am not sure of that,” replied Ermine. “I think that her real simplicity
is what makes her appear so opinionated. I verily believe that there is a
great capability of humility at the bottom.”
“Of the gulf,” laughed Bessie; but her brother said, “Quite true. She has
always been told she is the clever woman of the family, and what can she
do but accept the position?”
“Exactly,” said Ermine; “every one has given way to her, and, of course,
she walks over their bodies, but there is something so noble about her
that I cannot but believe that she will one day shake herself clear of her
little absurdities.”
“That is contrary to the usual destiny of strong-minded women,” said
Bessie.
“She is not a strong-minded woman, she only has been made to believe
herself one,” said Ermine, warmly.
With this last encounter, Bessie and her brother took leave, and the last
at once exclaimed, in sentimental tones, “Generous rivals! I never saw so
good a comedy in all my days! To disclose the fatal truth, and then bring
the rival fair ones face to face!”
“If that were your belief, Bessie, the demon of teasing has fuller
possession of you than I knew.”
“Ah! I forgot,” exclaimed Bessie, “it is tender ground with you likewise.
Alas! Alick, sisterly affection cannot blind me to the fact of that
unrequited admiration for your honourable rival.”
“What, from the strong-minded Curtia?”
“Ah! but have we not just heard that this is not the genuine article, only
a country-made imitation? No wonder it was not proof against an honourable
colonel in a brown beard.”
“So much the better; only unluckily there has been a marked avoidance of
him.”
“Yes; the Colonel was sacrificed with all other trivial incidents at the
shrine of the F. U. L. E.—E. E., I mean. And only think of finding
out that one has been sacrificing empty air after all—and to empty
air!”
“Better than to sacrifice everything to oneself,” said Alick.
“Not at all. The latter practice is the only way to be agreeable!
By-the-bye, Alick, I wonder if she will deign to come to the ball?”
“What ball?”
“Your ball at Avoncester. It is what I am staying on for! Major McDonald
all but promised me one; and you know you must give one before you leave
this place.”
“Don’t you know that poor Fraser has just been sent for home on his
sister’s death?”
“But I conclude the whole regiment does not go into mourning?”
“No, but Fraser is the one fellow to whom this would be real enjoyment.
Indeed, I particularly wish no hints may be given about it. Don’t deny, I
know you have ways of bringing about what you wish, and I will not have
them used here. I know something of the kind must be done before we leave
Avoncester, but to give one this autumn would be much sooner than needful.
I believe there is hardly an officer but myself and Fraser to whom the
expense would not be a serious consideration, and when I tell you my
father had strong opinions about overdoing reciprocities of gaiety, and
drawing heavily on the officers’ purses for them, I do not think you will
allow their regard for him to take that manifestation towards you.”
“Of course not,” said Bessie, warmly; “I will not think of it again. Only
when the fate does overtake you, you will have me here for it, Alick?”
He readily promised, feeling gratified at the effect of having spoken to
his sister with full recognition of her good sense.
Meantime Rachel was feeling something of what Bessie ascribed to her, as
if her sacrifice had been snatched away, and a cloud placed in its stead.
Mortification was certainly present, and a pained feeling of having been
made a fool of, whether by the Colonel or herself, her candid mind could
hardly decide; but she was afraid it was by herself. She knew she had
never felt sure enough of his attentions to do more than speculate on what
she would do if they should become more pointed, and yet she felt angry
and sore at having been exposed to so absurd a blunder by the silence of
the parties concerned. “After all,” she said to herself, “there can be no
great harm done, I have not been weak enough to commit my heart to the
error. I am unscathed, and I will show it by sympathy for Ermine. Only—only,
why could not she have told me?”
An ordeal was coming for which Rachel was thus in some degree prepared. On
the return of the party from the book club, Mrs. Curtis came into Rachel’s
sitting-room, and hung lingering over the fire as if she had something to
say, but did not know how to begin. At last, however, she said, “I do
really think it is very unfair, but it was not his fault, he says.”
“Who?” said Rachel, dreamily.
“Why, Colonel Keith, my dear,” said good Mrs. Curtis, conceiving that her
pronominal speech had “broken” her intelligence; “it seems we were
mistaken in him all this time.”
“What, about Miss Williams?” said Rachel, perceiving how the land lay;
“how did you hear it?”
“You knew it, my dear child,” cried her mother in accents of extreme
relief.
“Only this afternoon, from Bessie Keith.”
“And Fanny knew it all this time,” continued Mrs. Curtis. “I cannot
imagine how she could keep it from me, but it seems Miss Williams was
resolved it should not be known. Colonel Keith said he felt it was wrong
to go on longer without mentioning it, and I could not but say that it
would have been a great relief to have known it earlier.”
“As far as Fanny was concerned it would,” said Rachel, looking into the
fire, but not without a sense of rehabilitating satisfaction, as the
wistful looks and tone of her mother convinced her that this semi-delusion
had not been confined to herself.
“I could not help being extremely sorry for him when he was telling me,”
continued Mrs. Curtis, as much resolved against uttering the idea as
Rachel herself could be. “It has been such a very long attachment, and now
he says he has not yet been able to overcome her scruples about accepting
him in her state. It is quite right of her, I can’t say but it is; but it
is a very awkward situation.”
“I do not see that,” said Rachel, feeling the need of decision in order to
reassure her mother; “it is very sad and distressing in some ways, but no
one can look at Miss Williams without seeing that his return has done her
a great deal of good; and whether they marry or not, one can only be full
of admiration and respect for them.”
“Yes, yes,” faltered Mrs. Curtis; “only I must say I think it was due to
us to have mentioned it sooner.”
“Not at all, mother. Fanny knew it, and it was nobody’s concern but hers.
Pray am I to have Owen’s ‘Palaeontology’?”
“No, Colonel Keith bought that, and some more of the solid books. My dear,
he is going to settle here; he tells me he has actually bought that house
he and his brother are in.”
“Bought it!”
“Yes; he says, any way, his object is to be near Miss Williams. Well, I
cannot think how it is to end, so near the title as he is, and her sister
a governess, and then that dreadful business about her brother, and the
little girl upon her hands. Dear me, I wish Fanny had any one else for a
governess.”
“So do not I,” said Rachel. “I have the greatest possible admiration for
Ermine Williams, and I do not know which I esteem most, her for her brave,
cheerful, unrepining unselfishness, or him for his constancy and
superiority to all those trumpery considerations. I am glad to have the
watching of them. I honour them both.”
Yes, and Rachel honoured herself still more for being able to speak all
this freely and truly out of the innermost depths of her candid heart.
CHAPTER XIV. THE GOWANBRAE BALL.
“Your honour’s pardon,
I’d rather have my wounds to heal again,
Than hear say how I got them.”—Coriolanus.
“Yes, I go the week after next.”
“So soon? I thought you were to stay for our ball.”
“Till this time next year? No, no, I can’t quite do that, thank you.”
“This very winter.”
“Oh, no—no such thing! Why, half the beauty and fashion of the
neighbourhood is not come into winter quarters yet. Besides, the very
essence of a military ball is that it should be a parting—the
brightest and the last. Good morning.”
And Meg’s head, nothing loth, was turned away from the wide view of the
broad vale of the Avon, with the Avoncester Cathedral towers in the midst,
and the moors rising beyond in purple distance. The two young lieutenants
could only wave their farewells, as Bessie cantered merrily over the soft
smooth turf of the racecourse, in company with Lord Keith, the Colonel,
and Conrade.
“Do you not like dancing?” inquired Lord Keith, when the canter was over,
and they were splashing through a lane with high hedges.
“I’m not so unnatural,” returned Bessie, with a merry smile, “but it would
never do to let the Highlanders give one now. Alick has been telling me
that the expense would fall seriously on a good many of them.”
“True,” said Colonel Keith, “too many fêtes come to be a heavy tax.”
“That is more consideration than is common in so young a lad,” added Lord
Keith.
“Yes, but dear Alick is so full of consideration,” said the sister,
eagerly. “He does not get half the credit for it that he deserves,
because, you know, he is so quiet and reserved, and has that unlucky
ironical way with him that people don’t like; especially rattlepates like
those,” pointing with her whip in the direction of the two young officers.
“It is a pity,” said the Colonel, “it lessens his influence. And it is
strange I never perceived it before his return to England.”
“Oh! there’s much owing to the habitual languor of that long illness. That
satirical mumble is the only trouble he will take to lift up his
testimony, except when a thing is most decidedly his duty, and then he
does it as England expects.”
“And he considered it his duty to make you decline this ball?” said Lord
Keith.
“Oh, not his more than mine,” said Bessie. “I don’t forget that I am the
Colonel’s daughter.”
No more was said on that occasion, but three days after cards were going
about the county with invitations from Lord Keith to an evening party,
with “Dancing.” Lord Keith averred, with the full concurrence of his
brother, that he owed many civilities to the ladies of the neighbourhood,
and it was a good time to return them when he could gratify the young
kinswoman who had showed such generous forbearance about the regimental
ball. It was no unfavourable moment either, when he had his brother to
help him, for the ordering of balls had been so much a part of Colin’s
staff duties, that it came quite naturally to him, especially with Coombe
within reach to assist. There was some question whether the place should
be the public rooms or Gowanbrae, but Bessie’s vote decided on the latter,
in consideration of the Colonel’s chest. She was rather shocked, while
very grateful, at the consequences of the little conversation on the hill
top, but she threw herself into all the counsels with bright, ardent
pleasure, though carefully refraining from any presumption that she was
queen of the evening.
Lady Temple received an invitation, but never for one moment thought of
going, or even supposed that any one could imagine she could. Indeed, if
she had accepted it, it would have been a decisive encouragement to her
ancient suitor, and Colin saw that he regarded her refusal, in its broad
black edges, as a further clenching of the reply to his addresses.
Bessie was to be chaperoned by Mrs. Curtis. As to Rachel, she had resolved
against youthful gaieties for this winter and all others, but she felt
that to show any reluctance to accept the Keith invitation might be a
contradiction to her indifference to the Colonel, and so construed by her
mother, Grace, and Bessie. So all she held out for was, that as she had no
money to spend upon adornments, her blue silk dinner dress, and her
birthday wreath, should and must do duty; and as to her mother’s giving
her finery, she was far too impressive and decided for Mrs. Curtis to
venture upon such presumption. She was willing to walk through her part
for an evening, and indeed the county was pretty well accustomed to Miss
Rachel Curtis’s ball-room ways, and took them as a matter of course.
Gowanbrae had two drawing-rooms with folding doors between, quite
practicable for dancing, and the further one ending in a conservatory,
that likewise extended along the end of the entrance hall and dining-room.
The small library, where Colonel Keith usually sat, became the cloak-room,
and contained, when Mrs. Curtis and her daughters arrived, so large a
number of bright cashmere cloaklets, scarlet, white, and blue, that they
began to sigh prospectively at the crowd which Mrs. Curtis would have
encountered with such joyful valour save for that confidence on the way
home from the book club.
They were little prepared for the resources of a practised staff-officer.
Never had a ball even to them looked so well arranged, or in such thorough
style, as a little dexterous arrangement of flowers, lights, and sofas,
and rendered those two rooms. The two hosts worked extremely well. Lord
Keith had shaken off much of his careless stoop and air of age, and there
was something in his old-world polish and his Scotch accent that gave a
sort of romance to the manner of his reception. His brother, with his fine
brow, and thoughtful eyes, certainly appeared to Rachel rather thrown away
as master of the ceremonies, but whatever he did, he always did in the
quietest and best way, and receptions had been a part of his vocation, so
that he infused a wonderful sense of ease, and supplied a certain oil of
good breeding that made everything move suavely. Young ladies in white,
and mothers in all the colours of the rainbow, were there in plenty, and,
by Bessie’s special command, the scene was enlivened by the Highland
uniform, with the graceful tartan scarf fastened across the shoulder with
the Bruce brooch.
Rachel had not been long in the room before she was seized on by Emily
Grey, an enthusiastic young lady of the St. Norbert’s neighbourhood, whom
she met seldom, but was supposed to know intimately.
“And they say you have the hero here—the Victoria Cross man—and
that you know him. You must show him to me, and get me introduced.”
“There is no Victoria Cross man here,” said Rachel, coldly. “Colonel Keith
did not have one.”
“Oh, no, I don’t mean Colonel Keith, but Captain Alexander Keith, quite a
young man. Oh, I am sure you remember the story—you were quite wild
about it—of his carrying the lighted shell out of the hospital tent;
and they told me he was always over here, and his sister staying with Lady
Temple.”
“I know Captain Alexander Keith,” said Rachel, slowly; “but you must be
mistaken, I am certain I should know if he had a Victoria Cross.”
“It is very odd; Charlie told me it was the same,” said Miss Grey, who,
like all others, was forced to bend to Rachel’s decisive manner.
“Scottish names are very common,” said Rachel, and at that moment a
partner came and carried Emily off.
But as Rachel stood still, an odd misgiving seized her, a certain doubt
whether upon the tall lazy figure that was leaning against a wall nearly
opposite to her, talking to another officer, she did not see something
suspiciously bronze and eight-pointed that all did not wear. There was
clearly a medal, though with fewer clasps than some owned; but what else
was there? She thought of the lecture on heroism she had given to him, and
felt hot all over. Behold, he was skirting the line of chaperons, and
making his way towards their party. The thing grew more visible, and she
felt more disconcerted than ever had been her lot before; but escape there
was none, here he was shaking hands.
“You don’t polk?” he said to her. “In fact, you regard all this as a
delusion of weak minds. Then, will you come and have some tea?”
Rachel took his arm, still bewildered, and when standing before him with
the tea-cup in her hand, she interrupted something he was saying, she knew
not what, with, “That is not the Victoria Cross?”
“Then it is, like all the rest, a delusion,” he answered, in his usual
impassive manner.
“And gained,” she continued, “by saving the lives of all those officers,
the very thing I told you about!”
“You told me that man was killed.”
“Then it was not you!”
“Perhaps they picked up the pieces of the wrong one.”
“But if you would only tell me how you gained it.”
“By the pursuit of conchology.”
“Then it was yourself?” again said Rachel, in her confusion.
“If I be I as I suppose I be,” he replied, giving her his arm again, and
as they turned towards the conservatory, adding, “Many such things have
happened, and I did not know whether you meant this.”
“That was the reason you made so light of it.”
“What, because I thought it was somebody else?”
“No, the contrary reason; but I cannot understand why you let me go on
without telling me.”
“I never interfere when a story is so perfect in itself.”
“But is my story perfect in itself?” said Rachel, “or is it the contrary?”
“No one knows less of the particulars than I do,” he answered. “I think
your version was that it was an hospital tent that the shell came into. It
was not that, but a bungalow, which was supposed to be out of range. It
stood on a bit of a slope, and I thought I should have been able to kick
the shell down before it had time to do mischief.”
“But you picked it up, and took it to the door—I mean, did you?”
said Rachel, who was beginning to discover that she must ask Alick Keith a
direct question, if she wished to get an answer, and she received a
gesture of assent.
“I was very blind,” she said, humbly, “and now I have gone and insisted to
poor Emily Grey that you never did any such thing.”
“Thank you,” he said; “it was the greatest kindness you could do me.”
“Ah! your sister said you had the greatest dislike to hero worship.”
“A natural sense of humbug,” he said. “I don’t know why they gave me
this,” he added, touching his cross, “unless it was that one of the party
in the bungalow had a turn for glorifying whatever happened to himself.
Plenty of more really gallant things happened every day, and were never
heard of, and I, who absolutely saw next to nothing of the campaign, have
little right to be decorated.”
“Ah!” said Rachel, thoughtfully, “I have always wondered whether one would
be happier for having accomplished an act of heroism.”
“I do not know,” said Alick, thoughtfully; then, as Rachel looked up with
a smile of amazement, “Oh, you mean this; but it was mere
self-preservation. I could hardly even have bolted, for I was laid up with
fever, and was very shaky on my legs.”
“I suppose, however,” said Rachel, “that the vision of one’s life in
entering the army would be to win that sort of distinction, and so young.”
“Win it as some have done,” said Alick, “and deserve what is far better
worth than distinction. That may be the dream, but, after all, it is the
discipline and constant duty that make the soldier, and are far more
really valuable than exceptional doings.”
“People must always be ready for them, though,” said Rachel.
“And they are,” said Alick, with grave exultation in his tone.
Then, after a pause, she led back the conversation to its personal
character, by saying. “Do you mean that the reception of this cross was no
gratification to you?”
“No, I am not so absurd,” he replied; but he added sadly, “That was damped
quite otherwise. The news that I was named for it came almost in the same
breath with that of my father’s death, and he had not heard I was to
receive it.”
“Ah! I can understand.”
“And you can see how intolerable was the fuss my good relations made with
me just when the loss was fresh on me, and with that of my two chief
friends, among my brother officers, fellows beside whom I was nobody, and
there was my uncle’s blindness getting confirmed. Was not that enough to
sicken one with being stuck up for a lion, and constantly poked up by the
showwoman, under pretext of keeping up one’s spirits!”
“And you were—I mean were you—too ill to escape?”
“I was less able to help myself than Miss Williams is. There had been a
general smash of all the locomotive machinery on this side, and the
wretched monster could do nothing but growl at his visitors.”
“Should you growl very much if I introduced you to Emily Grey? You see it
is a matter of justice and truth to tell her now, after having
contradicted her so flatly. I will wait to let you get out of the way
first if you like, but I think that would be unkind to her; and if you
ever do dance, I wish you would dance with her.”
“With all my heart,” he answered.
“Oh, thank you,” said Rachel, warmly.
He observed with some amusement Rachel’s utter absence of small
dexterities, and of even the effort to avoid the humiliation of a
confession of her error. Miss Grey and a boy partner had wandered into the
conservatory, and were rather dismally trying to seem occupied with the
camellias when Rachel made her way to them, and though he could not
actually hear the words, he knew pretty well what they were. “Emily, you
were right after all, and I was mistaken,” and then as he drew near, “Miss
Grey, Captain Keith wishes to be introduced to you.”
It had been a great shock to Rachel’s infallibility, and as she slowly
began working her way in search of her mother, after observing the
felicity of Emily’s bright eyes, she fell into a musing on the advantages
of early youth in its indiscriminating powers of enthusiasm for anything
distinguished for anything, and that sense of self-exaltation in any sort
of contact with a person who had been publicly spoken of. “There is
genuine heroism in him,” thought Rachel, “but it is just in what Emily
would never appreciate—it is in the feeling that he could not help
doing as he did; the half-grudging his reward to himself because other
deeds have passed unspoken. I wonder whether his ironical humour would
allow him to see that Mr. Mauleverer is as veritable a hero in yielding
hopes of consideration, prospects, honours, to his sense of truth and
uprightness. If he would only look with an unprejudiced eye, I know he
would be candid.”
“Are you looking for Mrs. Curtis?” said Colonel Keith. “I think she is in
the other room.”
“Not particularly, thank you,” said Rachel, and she was surprised to find
how glad she was to look up freely at him.
“Would it be contrary to your principles or practice to dance with me?”
“To my practice,” she said smilingly, “so let us find my mother. Is Miss
Alison Williams here? I never heard whether it was settled that she should
come,” she added, resolved both to show him her knowledge of his
situation, and to let her mother see her at her ease with him.
“No, she was obstinate, though her sister and I did our utmost to persuade
her, and the boys were crazy to make her go.”
“I can’t understand your wishing it.”
“Not as an experience of life? Alison never went to anything in her
girlhood, but devoted herself solely to her sister, and it would be
pleasant to see her begin her youth.”
“Not as a mere young lady!” exclaimed Rachel.
“That is happily not possible.”
An answer that somewhat puzzled Rachel, whose regard for him was likely to
be a good deal dependent upon his contentment with Alison’s station in
life.
“I must say young ladyhood looks to the greatest advantage there,” Rachel
could not help exclaiming, as at that moment Elizabeth Keith smiled at
them, as she floated past, her airy white draperies looped with scarlet
ribbons; her dark hair turned back and fastened by a snood of the same, an
eagle’s feather clasped in it by a large emerald, a memory of her father’s
last siege—that of Lucknow.
“She is a very pretty creature,” said the Colonel, under the sparkle of
her bright eyes.
“I never saw any one make the pursuits of young ladyhood have so much
spirit and meaning,” added Rachel. “Here you see she has managed to make
herself sufficiently like other people, yet full of individual character
and meaning.”
“That is the theory of dress, I suppose,” said the Colonel.
“If one chooses to cultivate it.”
“Did you ever see Lady Temple in full dress?”
“No; we were not out when we parted as girls.”
“Then you have had a loss. I think it was at our last Melbourne ball, that
when she went to the nursery to wish the children good night, one of them—Hubert,
I believe—told her to wear that dress when she went to heaven, and
dear old Sir Stephen was so delighted that he went straight upstairs to
kiss the boy for it.”
“Was that Lady Temple?” said Alick Keith, who having found Miss Grey
engaged many deep, joined them again, and at his words came back a thrill
of Rachel’s old fear and doubt as to the possible future.
“Yes,” said the Colonel; “I was recollecting the gracious vision she used
to be at all our chief’s parties.”
“Vision, you call her, who lived in the house with her? What do you think
she was to us—poor wretches—coming up from barracks where Mrs.
O’Shaughnessy was our cynosure? There was not one of us to whom she was
not Queen of the East, and more, with that innocent, soft, helpless
dignity of hers!”
“And Sir Stephen for the first of her vassals,” said the Colonel.
“What a change it has been!” said Alick.
“Yes; but a change that has shown her to have been unspoilable. We were
just agreeing on the ball-room perfections of her and your sister in their
several lines.”
“Very different lines,” said Alick, smiling.
“I can’t judge of Fanny’s,” said Rachel, “but your sister is almost enough
to make one believe there can be some soul in young lady life.”
“I did not bring Bessie here to convert you,” was the somewhat perplexing
answer.
“Nor has she,” said Rachel, “except so far as I see that she can follow
ordinary girls’ pursuits without being frivolous in them.” Alick bowed at
the compliment.
“And she has been a sunbeam,” added Rachel, “we shall all feel graver and
cloudier without her.”
“Yes,” said Colonel Keith, “and I am glad Mr. Clare has such a sunbeam for
his parsonage. What a blessing she will be there!” he added, as he watched
Bessie’s graceful way of explaining to his brother some little matter in
behalf of the shy mother of a shy girl. Thinking he might be wanted,
Colonel Keith went forward to assist, and Rachel continued, “I do envy
that power of saying the right thing to everybody!”
“Don’t—it is the greatest snare,” was his answer, much amazing her,
for she had her mind full of the two direct personal blunders she had made
towards him.
“It prevents many difficulties and embarrassments.”
“Very desirable things.”
“Yes; for those that like to laugh, but not for those that are laughed
at,” said Rachel.
“More so; the worst of all misfortunes is to wriggle too smoothly through
life.”
This was to Rachel the most remarkable part of the evening; as to the
rest, it was like all other balls, a weariness: Grace enjoying herself and
her universal popularity, always either talking or dancing, and her mother
comfortable and dutiful among other mothers; the brilliant figure and
ready grace of Bessie Keith being the one vision that perpetually flitted
in her dreams, and the one ever-recurring recollection that Captain Keith,
the veritable hero of the shell, had been lectured by her on his own deed!
In effect Rachel had never felt so beaten down and ashamed of herself; so
doubtful of her own most positive convictions, and yet not utterly
dissatisfied, and the worst of it was that Emily Grey was after all
carried off without dancing with the hero; and Rachel felt as if her own
opinionativeness had defrauded the poor girl.
Other balls sent her home in a state of weariness, disgust, and contempt
towards every one, but this one had resulted in displeasure with herself,
yet in much interest and excitement; and, oh, passing strange! through
that same frivolous military society.
Indeed the military society was soon in better odour with her than the
clerical. She had been making strenuous efforts to get to St. Herbert’s,
with Mr. Mitchell, for some time past, but the road was in a state of
being repaired, and the coachman was determined against taking his horses
there. As to going by train, that was equally impossible, since he would
still less have driven her to the station, finally, Rachel took the
resolute stop of borrowing Fanny’s pony carriage, and driving herself and
the clergyman to the station, where she was met by Mrs. Morris, the mother
of one of the girls, to whom she had promised such a visit, as it had been
agreed that it would be wisest not to unsettle the scholars by Christmas
holidays.
The F. U. E. E. was in perfect order; the little girls sat upon a bench
with their copies before them, Mrs. Rawlins in the whitest of caps
presided over them, and Mr. Mauleverer was very urbane, conducting the
visitors over the house himself, and expatiating on his views of
cleanliness, ventilation, refinement, and equality of cultivation, while
Mrs. Rawlins remained to entertain Mrs. Morris. Nothing could be more
practical and satisfactory; some admirable drawings of the children’s were
exhibited, and their conduct was said to be excellent; except, Mr.
Mauleverer remarked unwillingly, that there was a tendency about little
Mary to fancy herself injured, and he feared that she was not always
truthful; but these were childish faults, that he hoped would pass away
with further refinement, and removal from the lower influences of her
home.
After this, Rachel was not surprised that poor, ignorant, and always
deplorable Mrs. Morris did not seem in raptures with the state of her
child, but more inclined to lament not having seen more of her, and not
having her at home. That was quite in accordance with peasant
shortsightedness and ingratitude, but it was much more disappointing that
Mr. Mitchell said little or nothing of approbation; asked her a few
questions about her previous knowledge of Mr. Mauleverer and Mrs. Rawlins,
and when she began to talk of arranging for some one or two of his London
orphans, thanked her rather shortly, but said there was no way of managing
it. It was evident that he was quite as prejudiced as others of his
clerical brethren, and the more Rachel read of current literature, the
more she became convinced of their bondage to views into which they durst
not examine, for fear honesty should compel them to assert their
conclusions.
She had hoped better things from the stranger, but she began to be
persuaded that all her former concessions to the principles infused in her
early days were vain entanglements, and that it was merely weakness and
unwillingness to pain her mother that prevented her from breaking through
them.
She could not talk this out with anybody, except now and then an utterance
to the consenting Mr. Mauleverer, but in general she would have been
shocked to put these surging thoughts into words, and Bessie was her only
intimate who would avow that there could be anything to be found fault
with in a clergyman. When alone together, Bessie would sometimes
regretfully, sometimes in a tone of amusement, go over bits of
narrow-minded folly that had struck her in the clergy, and more especially
in her uncle’s curate, Mr. Lifford, whose dryness was, she owned, very
repulsive to her.
“He is a good creature,” she said, “and most necessary to my uncle, but
how he and I are to get through life together, I cannot tell. It must soon
be tried, though! After my visit at Bath will come my home at
Bishopsworthy!” And then she confided to Rachel all the parish ways, and
took counsel on the means of usefulness that would not clash with the
curate and pain her uncle. She even talked of a possible orphan for the F.
U. E. E., only that unlucky prejudice against Mr. Mauleverer was sure to
stand in the way.
So acceptable had Bessie Keith made herself everywhere, that all Avonmouth
was grieved at her engagement to spend the winter at Bath with her married
cousin, to whom she was imperatively necessary in the getting up of a
musical party.
“And I must go some time or other,” she said to Colonel Keith, “so it had
better be when you are all here to make Myrtlewood cheerful, and I can be
of most use to poor Jane! I do think dear Lady Temple is much more full of
life and brightness now!”
Everybody seemed to consider Bessie’s departure as their own personal
loss: the boys were in despair for their playfellow; Ermine would miss
those sunny visits; Colonel Keith many a pleasant discussion, replete with
delicate compliments to Ermine, veiled by tact; and Lord Keith the pretty
young clanswoman who had kept up a graceful little coquetry with him, and
even to the last evening, went on walking on the esplanade with him in the
sunset, so as to set his brother free to avoid the evening chill.
And, above all, Lady Temple regretted the loss of the cheery companion of
her evenings. True, Bessie had lately had a good many small evening
gaieties, but she always came back from them so fresh and bright, and so
full of entertaining description and anecdote, that Fanny felt as if she
had been there herself, and, said Bessie, “it was much better for her than
staying at home with her, and bringing in no novelty.”
“Pray come to me again, dearest! Your stay has been the greatest treat. It
is very kind in you to be so good to me.”
“It is you who are good to me, dearest Lady Temple.”
“I am afraid I shall hardly get you again. Your poor uncle will never be
able to part with you, so I won’t ask you to promise, but if ever you can—”
“If ever I can! This has been a very happy time, dear Lady Temple,” a
confidence seemed trembling on her lips, but she suppressed it. “I shall
always think of you as the kindest friend a motherless girl ever had! I
will write to you from Bath. Good-bye—”
And there were all the boys in a row, little affectionate Hubert
absolutely tearful, and Conrade holding up a bouquet, on which he had
spent all his money, having persuaded Coombe to ride with him to the
nursery garden at Avoncester to procure it. He looked absolutely shy and
blushing, when Bessie kissed him and promised to dry the leaves and keep
them for ever.
CHAPTER XV. GO AND BRAY
“Come, come, elder brother, you are too young in this!”—
As You Like It
“Alick, I have something to say to you.”
Captain Keith did not choose to let his sister travel alone, when he could
help it, and therefore was going to Bath with her, intending to return to
Avoncester by the next down train. He made no secret that he thought it a
great deal of trouble, and had been for some time asleep, when, at about
two stations from Bath, Bessie having shut the little door in the middle
of the carriage, thus addressed him, “Alick, I have something to say to
you, and I suppose I may as well say it now.”
She pressed upon his knee, and with an affected laziness, he drew his eyes
wide open.
“Ah, well, I’ve been a sore plague to you, but I shall be off your hands
now.”
“Eh! whose head have you been turning?”
“Alick, what do you think of Lord Keith?”
Alick was awake enough now! “The old ass!” he exclaimed. “But at least you
are out of his way now.”
“Not at all. He is coming to Bath to-morrow to see my aunt.”
“And you want me to go out to-morrow and stop him?”
“No, Alick, not exactly. I have been cast about the world too long not to
be thankful.”
“Elizabeth!”
“Do not look so very much surprised,” she said, in her sweet pleading way.
“May I not be supposed able to feel that noble kindness and gracious
manner, and be glad to have some one to look up to?”
“And how about Charlie Carleton?” demanded Alick, turning round full on
her.
“For shame, Alick!” she exclaimed hotly; “you who were the one to
persecute me about him, and tell me all sorts of things about his being
shallow and unprincipled, and not to be thought of, you to bring him up
against me now.”
“I might think all you allege,” returned Alick, gravely, “and yet be much
amazed at the new project.”
Bessie laughed. “In fact you made a little romance, in which you acted the
part of sapient brother, and the poor little sister broke her heart ever
after! You wanted such an entertainment when you were lying on the sofa,
so you created a heroine and a villain, and thundered down to the rescue.”
“Very pretty, Bessie, but it will not do. It was long after I was well
again, and had joined.”
“Then it was the well-considered effect of the musings of your
convalescence! When you have a sister to take care of, it is as well to
feel that you are doing it.”
“Now, Elizabeth,” said her brother, with seriousness not to be laughed
aside, and laying his hand on hers, “before I hear another word on this
matter, look me in the face and tell me deliberately that you never cared
for Carleton.”
“I never thought for one moment of marrying him,” said Bessie, haughtily.
“If I ever had any sort of mercy on him, it was all to tease you. There,
are you satisfied?”
“I must be, I suppose,” he replied, and he sighed heavily. “When was this
settled?”
“Yesterday, walking up and down the esplanade. He will tell his brother
to-day, and I shall write to Lady Temple. Oh, Alick, he is so kind, he
spoke so highly of you.”
“I must say,” returned Alick, in the same grave tone, “that if you wished
for the care of an old man, I should have thought my uncle the more
agreeable of the two.”
“He is little past fifty. You are very hard on him.”
“On the contrary, I am sorry for him. You will always find it good for him
to do whatever suits yourself.”
“Alick?” said his sister mournfully, “you have never forgotten or forgiven
my girlish bits of neglect after your wound.”
“No, Bessie,” he said, holding her hand kindly, “it is not the neglect or
the girlishness, but the excuses to me, still more to my uncle, and most
of all to yourself. They are what make me afraid for you in what you are
going to take upon yourself.”
She did not answer immediately, and he pursued—“Are you driven to
this by dislike to living at Bishopsworthy? If so, do not be afraid to
tell me. I will make any arrangement, if you would prefer living with
Jane. We agreed once that it would be too expensive, but now I could let
you have another hundred a year.”
“As if I would allow that, Alick! No, indeed! Lord Keith means you to have
all my share.”
“Does he? There are more words than one to that question. And pray is he
going to provide properly for his poor daughter in the West Indies?”
“I hope to induce him to take her into favour.”
“Eh? and to make him give up to Colin Keith that Auchinvar estate that he
ought to have had when Archie Keith died?”
“You may be sure I shall do my best for the Colonel. Indeed, I do think
Lord Keith will consent to the marriage now.”
“You have sacrificed yourself on that account?” he said, with irony in his
tone, that he could have repented the next moment, so good-humoured was
her reply, “That is understood, so give me the merit.”
“The merit of, for his sake, becoming a grandmother. You have thought of
the daughters? Mrs. Comyn Menteith must be older than yourself.”
“Three years,” said Bessie, in his own tone of acceptance of startling
facts, “and I shall have seven grandchildren in all, so you see you must
respect me.”
“Do you know her sentiments?”
“I know what they will be when we have met. Never fear, Alick. If she were
not married it might be serious, being so, I have no fears.”
Then came a silence, till a halt at the last station before Bath roused
Alick again.
“Bessie,” he said, in the low voice the stoppage permitted, “don’t think
me unkind. I believe you have waited on purpose to leave me no time for
expostulation, and what I have said has sounded the more harsh in
consequence.”
“No, Alick,” she said, “you are a kind brother in all but the
constructions you put upon my doings. I think it would be better if there
were more difference between our ages. You are a young guardian, over
anxious, and often morbidly fanciful about me during your illness. I think
we shall be happier together when you no longer feel yourself
responsible.”
“The tables turned,” muttered Alick.
“I am prepared for misconstruction,” added Bessie. “I know it will be
supposed to be the title; the estate it cannot be, for you know how poor a
property it is; but I do not mean to care for the world. Your opinion is a
different thing, and I thought you would have seen that I could not be
insensible to such dignified kindness, and the warmth of a nature that
many people think cold.”
“I don’t like set speeches, Bessie.”
“Then believe me, Alick. May I not love the fine old man that has been so
kind to me?”
“I hope you do,” said Alick, slowly.
“And you can’t believe it? Not with Lady Temple before you and hers was
really an old man.”
“Do not talk of her or Sir Stephen either. No, Bessie,” he added more
calmly after a time, “I may be doing great injustice to you both, but I
must speak what it is my duty to say. Lord Keith is a hard, self-seeking
man, who has been harsh and grasping towards his family, and I verily
believe came here bent on marriage, only because his brother was no longer
under his tyranny. He may not be harsh to you, because he is past his
vigour, and if he really loves you, you have a power of governing; but
from what I know of you, I cannot believe in your loving him enough to
make such management much better than selfish manoeuvring. Therefore I
cannot think this marriage for your real welfare, or be other than
bitterly grieved at it. Do not answer, Bessie, but think this over, and if
at any time this evening you feel the least doubt of your happiness in
this matter, telegraph to me, and I will stop him.”
“Indeed, Alick,” she answered, without anger, “I believe you are very
anxious for my good.”
It will readily be believed that Captain Keith received no telegram.
Nevertheless, as soon as his time was his own the next morning, he rode to
Avonmouth and sought out the Colonel, not perhaps with very defined hopes
of making any change in his sister’s intentions, but feeling that some
attempt on his own part must be made, if only to free himself from
acquiescence, and thinking that Colin, as late guardian to the one party,
and brother to the other, was the most proper medium.
Colonel Keith was taken by surprise at the manner in which his cordial
greeting was met. He himself had been far from displeased at his brother’s
communication; it was a great relief to him personally, as well as on Lady
Temple’s account, and he had been much charmed at Bessie’s good sense and
engaging graces. As to disparity of years, Lord Keith had really made
himself much younger of late, and there was much to excite a girl’s
romance in the courtesy of an elderly man, the chief of her clan;
moreover, the perfect affection and happiness Colin had been used to
witness in his general’s family disposed him to make light of that
objection; and he perceived that his brother was sufficiently bewitched to
be likely to be kind and indulgent to his bride.
He had not expected Alexander Keith to be as well pleased as he was
himself, but he was not prepared for his strong disapprobation, and
earnest desire to find some means of prevention, and he began to reassure
him upon the placability of Mrs. Comyn Menteith, the daughter, as well as
upon his brother’s kindness to the objects of his real affection.
“Oh, I am not afraid of that. She will manage him fast enough.”
“Very likely, and for his good. Nor need you question his being a safe
guide for her in higher matters. Perhaps you are prejudiced against him
because his relations with me have not been happy, but candidly, in them
you know the worst of him; and no doubt he thought himself purely acting
for my welfare. I know much more of him now that I have been at home with
him, and I was greatly struck with his real consideration for the good of
all concerned with him.”
“No, I am not thinking of Lord Keith. To speak it out, I cannot believe
that my sister has heart enough in this to justify her.”
“Young girls often are more attracted by elderly men than by lads.”
“You do not know Bessie as, I am sorry to say, I do,” said Alick, speaking
slowly and sadly, and with a flush of shame on his cheek. “I do not say
that she says anything untrue, but the truth is not in her. She is one of
those selfish people who are infinitely better liked than those five
hundred times their worth, because they take care to be always pleased.”
“They give as much pleasure as they take.”
“Yes, they take every one in. I wish to my heart I could be taken in too,
but I have seen too much of her avoidance of every service to my uncle
that she did not like. I verily believe, at this moment, that one great
inducement with her is to elude the care of him.”
“Stern judgments, Alick. I know you would not speak thus without warrant;
but take it into account that marriage makes many a girl’s selfishness
dual, and at last drowns the self.”
“Yes, when it is a marriage of affection. But the truth must be told,
Colonel. There was a trumpery idle fellow always loitering at
Littleworthy, and playing croquet. I set my face against it with all my
might, and she always laughed to scorn the notion that there was anything
in it, nor do I believe that she has heart enough to wish to marry him. I
could almost say I wish she had, but I never saw her show the same
pleasure in any one’s attentions, and I believe he is gone out to Rio in
hopes of earning means to justify his addresses.”
Colonel Keith sat gravely considering what he knew would not be spoken
lightly. “Do you mean that there was attachment enough to make it
desirable that you should tell my brother?”
“No, I could say nothing that she could not instantly contradict with
perfect truth, though not with perfect sincerity.”
“Let me ask you one question, Alick—not a flattering one. May not
some of these private impressions of yours have been coloured by your long
illness?”
“That is what Bessie gives every one to understand,” said Alick, calmly.
“She is right, to a certain degree, that suffering sharpened my
perceptions, and helplessness gave me time to draw conclusions. If I had
been well, I might have been as much enchanted as other people; and if my
uncle had not needed her care, and been neglected, I could have thought
that I was rendered exacting by illness. But I imagine all I have said is
not of the slightest use; only, if you think it right to tell your brother
to talk to me, I would rather stand all the vituperation that would fall
on me than allow this to take place.”
Colonel Keith walked up and down the room considering, whilst Alick sat in
a dejected attitude, shading his face, and not uttering how very bitter it
had been to him to make the accusation, nor how dear the sister really
was.
“I see no purpose that would be answered,” said Colonel Keith, coming to a
pause at last; “you have nothing tangible to mention, even as to the
former affair that you suspect. I see a great deal in your view of her to
make you uneasy, but nothing that would not be capable of explanation,
above all to such a man as my brother. It would appear like mere
malevolence.”
“Never mind what it would appear,” said Alick, who was evidently in such a
ferment as his usually passive demeanour would have seemed incapable of.
“If the appearance would entirely baffle the purpose, it must be
considered,” said the Colonel; “and in this case it could only lead to
estrangement, which would be a lasting evil. I conclude that you have
remonstrated with your sister.”
“As much as she gave me time for; but of course that is breath spent in
vain.”
“Your uncle had the same means of judging as yourself.”
“No, Colonel, he could do nothing! In the first place, there can be no
correspondence with him; and next, he is so devotedly fond of Bessie, that
he would no more believe anything against her than Lady Temple would. I
have tried that more than once.”
“Then, Alick, there is nothing for it but to let it take its course; and
even upon your own view, your sister will be much safer married than
single.”
“I had very little expectation of your saying anything else, but in common
honesty I felt bound to let you know.”
“And now the best thing to be done is to forget all you have said.”
“Which you will do the more easily as you think it an amiable delusion of
mine. Well, so much the better. I dare say you will never think otherwise,
and I would willingly believe that my senses went after my fingers’ ends.”
The Colonel almost believed so himself. He was aware of the miserably
sensitive condition of shattered nerve in which Alick had been sent home,
and of the depression of spirits that had ensued on the news of his
father’s death; and he thought it extremely probable that his weary hours
and solicitude for his gay young sister might have made molehills into
mountains, and that these now weighed on his memory and conscience. At
least, this seemed the only way of accounting for an impression so
contrary to that which Bessie Keith made on every one else, and, by his
own avowal, on the uncle whom he so much revered. Every other voice
proclaimed her winning, amiable, obliging, considerate, and devoted to the
service of her friends, with much drollery and shrewdness of perception,
tempered by kindness of heart and unwillingness to give pain; and on that
sore point of residence with the blind uncle, it was quite possibly a bit
of Alick’s exaggerated feeling to imagine the arrangement so desirable—the
young lady might be the better judge.
On the whole, the expostulation left Colonel Keith more uncomfortable on
Alick’s account than on that of his brother.
CHAPTER XVI. AN APPARITION.
“And there will be auld Geordie Tanner,
Who coft a young wife wi’ his gowd.”
JOANNA BAILLIE.
“Mamma,” quoth Leoline, “I thought a woman must not marry her grandfather.
And she called him the patriarch of her clan.”
“He is a cross old man,” added Hubert. “He said children ought not to be
allowed on the esplanade, because he got into the way as I was pushing the
perambulator.”
“This was the reason,” said Francis, gravely, “that she stopped me from
braying at him. I shall know what people are at, when they talk of
disrespect another time.”
“Don’t talk of her,” cried Conrade, flinging himself round; “women have no
truth in them.”
“Except the dear, darling, delightful mammy!” And the larger proportion of
boys precipitated themselves headlong upon her, so that any one but a
mother would have been buffeted out of breath in their struggles for
embracing ground; and even Lady Temple found it a relief when Hubert,
having been squeezed out, bethought himself of extending the honourable
exception to Miss Williams, and thus effected a diversion. What would have
been the young gentlemen’s reception of his lordship’s previous proposal!
Yet in the fulness of her gladness the inconsistent widow, who had thought
Lord Keith so much too old for herself, gave her younger friend heartfelt
congratulations upon the blessing of being under fatherly direction and
guidance. She was entrusted with the announcement to Rachel, who received
it with a simple “Indeed!” and left her cousin unmolested in her
satisfaction, having long relegated Fanny to the class of women who think
having a friend about to be married the next best thing to being married
themselves, no matter to whom.
“Aspirations in women are mere delusions,” was her compensating sigh to
Grace. “There is no truer saying, than that a woman will receive every
man.”
“I have always been glad that is aprocryphal,” said Grace, “and Eastern
women have no choice.”
“Nor are Western women better than Eastern,” said Rachel. “It is all
circumstances. No mental power or acuteness has in any instance that I
have yet seen, been able to balance the propensity to bondage. The utmost
flight is, that the attachment should not be unworthy.”
“I own that I am very much surprised,” said Grace.
“I am not at all,” said Rachel. “I have given up hoping better things. I
was beginning to have a high opinion of Bessie Keith’s capabilities, but
womanhood was at the root all the time; and, as her brother says, she has
had great disadvantages, and I can make excuses for her. She had not her
heart filled with one definite scheme of work and usefulness, such as
deters the trifling and designing.”
“Like the F. U. E. E.?”
“Yes, the more I see of the fate of other women, the more thankful I am
that my vocation has taken a formed and developed shape.”
And thus Rachel could afford to speak without severity of the match,
though she abstained from congratulation. She did not see Captain Keith
for the next few days, but at last the two sisters met him at the
Cathedral door as they were getting into the carriage after a day’s
shopping at Avoncester; and Grace offered her congratulations, in
accordance with her mother’s old fashioned code.
“Thank you,” he said; then turning to Rachel, “Did she write to you?”
“No.”
“I thought not.”
There was something marked in his tone, but his sister’s silence was not
of long duration, for a letter arrived containing orders for lace,
entreating that a high pressure might be put on Mrs. Kelland, and
containing beauteous devices for the veil, which was to be completed in a
fearfully short time, since the wedding was to be immediate, in order that
Lord Keith might spend Christmas and the ensuing cold months abroad. It
was to take place at Bath, and was to be as quiet as possible; “or else,”
wrote Miss Keith, “I should have been enchanted to have overcome your
reluctance to witness the base surrender of female rights. I am afraid you
are only too glad to be let off, only don’t thank me, but circumstances.”
Rachel’s principles revolted at the quantity of work demanded of the
victims to lace, and Grace could hardly obtain leave to consult Mrs.
Kelland. But she snapped at the order, for the honour and glory of the
thing, and undertook through the ramifications of her connexion to obtain
the whole bridal array complete. “For such a pleasant-spoken lady as Miss
Keith, she would sit up all night rather than disappoint her.”
The most implacable person of all was the old housekeeper, Tibbie. She had
been warmly attached to Lady Keith, and resented her having a successor,
and one younger than her daughters; and above all, ever since the son and
heir had died, she had reckoned on her own Master Colin coming to the
honours of the family, and regarded this new marriage as a crossing of
Providence. She vainly endeavoured to stir up Master Colin to remonstrate
on his brother’s “makin’ siccan a fule’s bargain wi’ yon glaikit lass. My
certie, but he’ll hae the warst o’t, honest man; rinnin’ after her, wi’ a’
her whigmaleries an’ cantrips. He’ll rue the day that e’er he bowed his
noble head to the likes o’ her, I’m jalousin.”
It was to no purpose to remind her that the bride was a Keith in blood;
her great grandfather a son of the house of Gowanbrae; all the subsequent
descendants brave soldiers.
“A Keith ca’ ye her! It’s a queer kin’ o’ Keiths she’s comed o’, nae
better nor Englishers that haena sae muckle’s set fit in our bonny
Scotland; an’ sic scriechin’, skirlin’ tongues as they hae, a body wad
need to be gleg i’ the uptak to understan’ a word they say. Tak’ my word
for’t, Maister Colin, it’s no a’thegither luve for his lordship’s grey
hairs that gars yon gilpy lassock seek to become my Leddy Keith.”
“Nay, Tibbie, if you find fault with such a sweet, winning young creature,
I shall think it is all because you will not endure a mistress at
Gowanbrae over you.”
“His lordship’ll please himsel’ wi’ a leddy to be mistress o’ Gowanbrae,
but auld Tibbie’ll never cross the doorstane mair.”
“Indeed you will, Tibbie; here are my brother’s orders that you should go
down, as soon as you can conveniently make ready, and see about the new
plenishing.”
“They may see to the plenishing that’s to guide it after han, an’ that’ll
no be me. My lord’ll behove to tak’ his orders aff his young leddy ance
he’s married on her, may be a whilie afore, but that’s no to bind ither
folk, an’ it’s no to be thought that at my years I’m to be puttin’ up wi’
a’ ther new fangled English fykes an’ nonsense maggots. Na, na, Maister
Colin, his lordship’ll fend weel aneugh wantin’ Tibbie; an’ what for suld
I leave yerself, an’ you settin’ up wi’ a house o’ yer ain? Deed an’ my
mind’s made up, I’ll e’en bide wi’ ye, an’ nae mair about it.”
“Stay, stay,” cried Colin, a glow coming into his cheeks, “don’t reckon
without your host, Tibbie. Do you think Gowanbrae the second is never to
have any mistress but yourself?”
“Haud awa’ wi’ ye, laddie, I ken fine what ye’ra ettlin’ at, but yon’s a
braw leddy, no like thae English folk, but a woman o’ understandin’, an’
mair by token I’m thinkin’ she’ll be gleg aneugh to ken a body that’ll
serve her weel, an’ see to the guidin’ o’ thae feckless queens o’ servant
lasses, for bad’s the best o’ them ye’ll fin’ hereawa’. Nae fear but her
an’ me’ll put it up weel thegither, an’ a’ gude be wi’ ye baith.”
After this Colin resigned himself and his household to Tibbie’s somewhat
despotic government, at least for the present. To Ermine’s suggestion that
her appellation hardly suited the dignity of her station, he replied that
Isabel was too romantic for southern ears, and that her surname being the
same as his own, he was hardly prepared to have the title of Mrs. Keith
pre-occupied. So after Mrs. Curtis’s example, the world for the most part
knew the colonel’s housekeeper as Mrs. Tibbs.
She might be a tyrant, but liberties were taken with her territory; for
almost the first use that the colonel made of his house was to ask a
rheumatic sergeant, who had lately been invalided, to come and benefit by
the Avonmouth climate. Scottish hospitality softened Tibbie’s heart, and
when she learnt that Sergeant O’Brien had helped to carry Master Colin
into camp after his wound, she thought nothing too good for him. The
Colonel then ventured to add to the party an exemplary consumptive tailor
from Mr. Mitchell’s parish, who might yet be saved by good living and good
air. Some growls were elicited, but he proved to be so deplorably the
ninetieth rather than the ninth part of a man, that Tibbie made it her
point of honour to fatten him; and the sergeant found him such an
intelligent auditor of the Indian exploits of the —th Highlanders
that mutual respect was fully established, and high politeness reigned
supreme, even though the tailor could never be induced to delight in the
porridge, on which the sergeant daily complimented the housekeeper in
original and magnificent metaphors.
Nor had the Colonel any anxieties in leaving the representatives of the
three nations together while he went to attend his brother’s wedding. He
proposed that Tibbie should conduct Rose for the daily walk of which he
had made a great point, thinking that the child did not get exercise
enough, since she was so averse to going alone upon the esplanade that her
aunt forbore to press it. She manifested the same reluctance to going out
with Tibbie, and this the Colonel ascribed to her fancying herself too old
to be under the charge of a nurse. It was trying to laugh her out of her
dignity, but without eliciting an answer, when, one afternoon just as they
were entering together upon the esplanade, he felt her hand tighten upon
his own with a nervous frightened clutch, as she pressed tremulously to
his side.
“What is it, my dear? That dog is not barking at you. He only wants to
have a stick thrown into the sea for him.”
“Oh not the dog! It was—”
“Was, what?”
“Him!” gasped Rose.
“Who?” inquired the Colonel, far from prepared for the reply, in a
terrified whisper,—
“Mr. Maddox.”
“My dear child! Which, where?”
“He is gone! he is past. Oh, don’t turn back! Don’t let me see him again.”
“You don’t suppose he could hurt you, my dear.”
“No,” hesitated Rose, “not with you.”
“Nor with any one.”
“I suppose not,” said Rose, common sense reviving, though her grasp was
not relaxed.
“Would it distress you very much to try to point him out to me?” said the
Colonel, in his irresistibly sweet tone.
“I will. Only keep hold of my hand, pray,” and the little hand trembled so
much that he felt himself committing a cruel action in leading her along
the esplanade, but there was no fresh start of recognition, and when they
had gone the whole length, she breathed more freely, and said, “No, he was
not there.”
Recollecting how young she had been at the time of Maddox’s treason, the
Colonel began to doubt if her imagination had not raised a bugbear, and he
questioned her, “My dear, why are you so much afraid, of this person? What
do you know about him?”
“He told wicked stories of my papa,” said Rose, very low.
“True, but he could not hurt you. You don’t think he goes about like Red
Ridinghood’s wolf?”
“No, I am not so silly now.”
“Are you sure you know him? Did you often see him in your papa’s house?”
“No, he was always in the laboratory, and I might not go there.”
“Then you see, Rose, it must be mere fancy that you saw him, for you could
not even know him by sight.”
“It was not fancy,” said Rose, gentle and timid as ever, but still
obviously injured at the tone of reproof.
“My dear child,” said Colonel Keith, with some exertion of patience, “you
must try to be reasonable. How can you possibly recognise a man that you
tell me you never saw?”
“I said I never saw him in the house,” said Rose with a shudder; “but they
said if ever I told they would give me to the lions in the Zoological
Gardens.”
“Who said so?”
“He, Mr. Maddox and Maria,” she answered, in such trepidation that he
could scarcely hear her.
“But you are old and wise enough now to know what a foolish and wicked
threat that was, my dear.”
“Yes, I was a little girl then, and knew no better, and once I did tell a
lie when mamma asked me, and now she is dead, and I can never tell her the
truth.”
Colin dreaded a public outbreak of the sobs that heaved in the poor
child’s throat, but she had self-control enough to restrain them till he
had led her into his own library, where he let her weep out her repentance
for the untruth, which, wrested from her by terror, had weighed so long on
her conscience. He felt that he was sparing Ermine something by receiving
the first tempest of tears, in the absolute terror and anguish of
revealing the secret that had preyed on her with mysterious horror.
“Now tell me all about it, my dear little girl. Who was this Maria?”
“Maria was my nurse when I lived at home. She used to take me out
walking,” said Rose, pressing closer to his protecting breast, and pausing
as though still afraid of her own words.
“Well,” he said, beginning to perceive, “and was it then that you saw this
Maddox?”
“Yes, he used to come and walk with us, and sit under the trees in
Kensington Gardens with her. And sometimes he gave me lemon-drops, but
they said if ever I told, the lions should have me. I used to think I
might be saved like Daniel; but after I told the lie, I knew I should not.
Mamma asked me why my fingers were sticky, and I did say it was from a
lemon-drop, but there were Maria’s eyes looking at me; oh, so dreadful,
and when mamma asked who gave it to me, and Maria said, ‘I did, did not I,
Miss Rose?’ Oh, I did not seem able to help saying ‘yes.’”
“Poor child! And you never dared to speak of it again?”
“Oh, no! I did long to tell; but, oh, one night it was written up in
letters of fire, ‘Beware of the Lions.’”
“Terror must have set you dreaming, my dear.”
“No,” said Rose, earnestly. “I was quite awake. Papa and mamma were gone
out to dine and sleep, and Maria would put me to bed half an hour too
soon. She read me to sleep, but by-and-by I woke up, as I always did at
mamma’s bed time, and the candle was gone, and there were those dreadful
letters in light over the door.”
She spoke with such conviction that he became persuaded that all was not
delusion, and asked what she did.
“I jumped up, and screamed, and opened the door; but there they were
growling in papa’s dressing-room.”
“They, the lions? Oh, Rose, you must know that was impossible.”
“No, I did not see any lions, but I heard the growl, and Mr. Maddox
coughed, and said, ‘Here they come,’ and growled again.”
“And you—?”
“I tumbled into bed again, and rolled up my head in the clothes, and
prayed that it might be day, and it was at last!”
“Poor child! Indeed, Rose, I do not wonder at your terror, I never heard
of a more barbarous trick.”
“Was it a trick?” said Rose, raising a wonderfully relieved and hopeful
face.
“Did you never hear of writing in phosphorus, a substance that shines at
night as the sea sometimes does?”
“Aunt Ailie has a book with a story about writing in fiery letters, but it
frightened me so much that I never read to the end.”
“Bring it to me, and we will read it together, and then you will see that
such a cruel use can be made of phosphorus.”
“It was unkind of them,” said Rose, sadly, “I wonder if they did it for
fun!”
“Where did you sleep?”
“I had a little room that opened into mamma’s.”
“And where was all this growling?”
“In papa’s room. The door was just opposite to mine, and was open. All the
light was there, you know. Mamma’s room was dark, but there was a candle
in the dressing-room.”
“Did you see anything?”
“Only the light. It was such a moment. I don’t think I saw Mr. Maddox, but
I am quite certain I heard him, for he had an odd little cough.”
“Then, Rose, I have little doubt that all this cruelty to you, poor
inoffensive little being, was to hide some plots against your father.”
She caught his meaning with the quickness of a mind precocious on some
points though childish on others. “Then if I had been brave and told the
truth, he might never have hurt papa.”
“Mind, I do not know, and I never thought of blaming you, the chief
sufferer! No, don’t begin to cry again.”
“Ah! but I did tell a lie. And I never can confess it to mamma,” she said,
recurring to the sad lament so long suppressed.
She found a kind comforter, who led her to the higher sources of
consolation, feeling all the time the deep self-accusation with which the
sight of sweet childish penitence must always inspire a grown person.
“And now you will not fear to tell your aunt,” he added, “only it should
be when you can mention it without such sad crying.”
“Telling you is almost as good as telling her,” said Rose, “and I feel
safe with you,” she added, caressingly drawing his arm round her. “Please
tell Aunt Ermine, for my crying does give her such a headache.”
“I will, then, and I think when we all know it, the terrors will leave
you.”
“Not when I see Mr. Maddox. Oh, please now you know why, don’t make me
walk without you. I do know now that he could not do anything to me, but I
can’t help feeling the fright. And, oh! if he was to speak to me!”
“You have not seen him here before?”
“Yes I have, at least I think so. Once when Aunt Ermine sent me to the
post-office, and another time on the esplanade. That is why I can’t bear
going out without you or Aunt Ailie. Indeed, it is not disliking Tibbie.”
“I see it is not, my dear, and we will say no more about it till you have
conquered your alarm; but remember, that he is not likely to know you
again. You must be more changed in these three years than he is.”
This consideration seemed to reassure Rose greatly, and her next inquiry
was, “Please, are my eyes very red for going home?”
“Somewhat mottled—something of the York and Lancaster rose. Shall I
leave you under Tibbie’s care till the maiden blush complexion returns,
and come back and fetch you when you have had a grand exhibition of my
Indian curiosities?”
“Have you Indian curiosities? I thought they were only for ladies?”
“Perhaps they are. Is Tibbie guard enough? You know there’s an Irish
sergeant in the house taller than I am, if you want a garrison?”
“Oh, I am not afraid, only these eyes.”
“I will tell her you have been frightened, and she shall take no notice.”
Tibbie was an admirer of Rose and gladly made her welcome, while the
Colonel repaired to Ermine, and greatly startled her by the disclosure of
the miseries that had been inflicted on the sensitive child.
It had indeed been known that there had been tyranny in the nursery, and
to this cause the aunts imputed the startled wistful expression in Rose’s
eyes; but they had never questioned her, thinking that silence would best
wear out the recollection. The only wonder was that her senses had not
been permanently injured by that night of terror, which accounted for her
unconquerable dread of sleeping in the dark; and a still more inexplicable
horror of the Zoological Gardens, together with many a nervous misery that
Ermine had found it vain to combat. The Colonel asked if the nurse’s
cruelty had been the cause of her dismissal?
“No, it was not discovered till after her departure. Her fate has always
been a great grief to us, though we little thought her capable of using
Rose in this way. She was one of the Hathertons. You must remember the
name, and the pretty picturesque hovel on the Heath.”
“The squatters that were such a grievance to my uncle. Always suspected of
poaching, and never caught.”
“Exactly. Most of the girls turned out ill, but this one, the youngest,
was remarkably intelligent and attractive at school. I remember making an
excuse for calling her into the garden for you to see and confess that
English beauty exceeded Scottish, and you called her a gipsy and said we
had no right to her.”
“So it was those big black eyes that had that fiendish malice in them!”
“Ah! if she fell into Maddox’s hands, I wonder the less. She showed an
amount of feeling about my illness that won Ailie’s heart, and we had her
for a little handmaid to help my nurse. Then, when we broke up from home,
we still kept her, and every one used to be struck with her looks and
manner. She went on as well as possible, and Lucy set her heart on having
her in the nursery. And when the upper nurse went away, she had the whole
care of Rose. We heard only of her praises till, to our horror, we found
she had been sent away in disgrace at a moment’s warning. Poor Lucy was
young, and so much shocked as only to think of getting her out of the
house, not of what was to become of her, and all we could learn was that
she never went home.”
“How long was this before the crash?”
“It was only a few weeks before the going abroad, but they had been absent
nearly a year. No doubt Maddox must have made her aid in his schemes. You
say Rose saw him?”
“So she declares, and there is an accuracy of memory about her that I
should trust to. Should you or Alison know him?”
“No, we used to think it a bad sign that Edward never showed him to us. I
remember Alison being disappointed that he was not at the factory the only
time she saw it.”
“I do not like going away while he may be lurking about. I could send a
note to-night, explaining my absence.”
“No, no,” exclaimed Ermine, “that would be making me as bad as poor little
Rose. If he be here ever so much he has done his worst, and Edward is out
of his reach. What could he do to us? The affairs were wound up long ago,
and we have literally nothing to be bullied out of. No, I don’t think he
could make me believe in lions in any shape.”
“You strong-minded woman! You want to emulate the Rachel.”
“You have brought her,” laughed Ermine at the sound of the well-known
knock, and Rachel entered bag in hand.
“I was in hopes of meeting you,” she said to the Colonel. “I wanted to ask
you to take charge of some of these;” and she produced a packet of
prospectuses of a “Journal of Female Industry,” an illustrated monthly
magazine, destined to contain essays, correspondence, reviews, history,
tales, etc., to be printed and illustrated in the F. U. E. E.
“I hoped,” said Rachel, “to have begun with the year, but we are not
forward enough, and indeed some of the expenses require a subscription in
advance. A subscriber in advance will have the year’s numbers for ten
shillings, instead of twelve; and I should be much obliged if you would
distribute a few of these at Bath, and ask Bessie to do the same. I shall
set her name down at the head of the list, as soon as she has qualified it
for a decoy.”
“Are these printed at the F. U. E. E.?”
“No, we have not funds as yet. Mr. Mauleverer had them done at Bristol,
where he has a large connexion as a lecturer, and expects to get many
subscribers. I brought these down as soon as he had left them with me, in
hopes that you would kindly distribute them at the wedding. And I wished,”
added she to Ermine, “to ask you to contribute to our first number.”
“Thank you,” and the doubtful tone induced Rachel to encourage her
diffidence.
“I know you write a great deal, and I am sure you must produce something
worthy to see the light. I have no scruple in making the request, as I
know Colonel Keith agrees with me that womanhood need not be an
extinguisher for talent.”
“I am not afraid of him,” Ermine managed to say without more smile than
Rachel took for gratification.
“Then if you would only entrust me with some of your fugitive reflections,
I have no doubt that something might be made of them. A practised hand,”
she added with a certain editorial dignity, “can always polish away any
little roughnesses from inexperience.”
Ermine was choking with laughter at the savage pulls that Colin was
inflicting on his moustache, and feeling silence no longer honest, she
answered in an odd under tone, “I can’t plead inexperience.”
“No!” cried Rachel. “You have written; you have not published!”
“I was forced to do whatever brought grist to the mill,” said Ermine.
“Indeed,” she added, with a look as if to ask pardon; “our secrets have
been hardly fair towards you, but we made it a rule not to spoil our
breadwinner’s trade by confessing my enormities.”
“I assure you,” said the Colonel, touched by Rachel’s appalled look, “I
don’t know how long this cautious person would have kept me in the dark if
she had not betrayed herself in the paper we discussed the first day I met
you.”
“The ‘Traveller,’” said Rachel, her eyes widening like those of a child.
“She is the ‘Invalid’!”
“There, I am glad to have made a clean breast of it,” said Ermine.
“The ‘Invalid’!” repeated Rachel. “It is as bad as the Victoria Cross.”
“There is a compliment, Ermine, for which you should make your bow,” said
Colin.
“Oh, I did not mean that,” said Rachel; “but that it was as great a
mistake as I made about Captain Keith, when I told him his own story, and
denied his being the hero, till I actually saw his cross,” and she spoke
with a genuine simplicity that almost looked like humour, ending with, “I
wonder why I am fated to make such mistakes!”
“Preconceived notions,” said Ermine, smiling; “your theory suffices you,
and you don’t see small indications.”
“There may be something in that,” said Rachel, thoughtfully, “it accounts
for Grace always seeing things faster than I did.”
“Did Mr.—, your philanthropist, bring you this today?” said the
Colonel, taking up the paper again, as if to point a practical moral to
her confession of misjudgments.
“Mr. Mauleverer? Yes; I came down as soon as he had left me, only calling
first upon Fanny. I am very anxious for contributions. If you would only
give me a paper signed by the ‘Invalid,’ it would be a fortune to the
institution.”
Ermine made a vague answer that she doubted whether the ‘Invalid’ was
separable from the ‘Traveller,’ and Rachel presently departed with her
prospectus, but without having elicited a promise.
“Intolerable!” exclaimed the Colonel. “She was improving under Bessie’s
influence, but she has broken out worse than ever. ‘Journal of Female
Industry!’ ‘Journal of a Knight of Industry,’ might be a better title. You
will have nothing to do with it, Ermine?”
“Certainly not as the ‘Invalid,’ but I owe her something for having let
her run into this scrape before you.”
“As if you could have hindered her! Come, don’t waste time and brains on a
companion for Curatocult.”
“You make me so idle and frivolous that I shall be expelled from the
‘Traveller,’ and obliged to take refuge in the ‘Female Industry Journal.’
Shall you distribute the prospectuses?”
“I shall give one to Bessie! That is if I go at all.”
“No, no, there is no valid reason for staying away. Even if we were sure
that Rose was right, nothing could well come of it, and your absence would
be most invidious.”
“I believe I am wanted to keep Master Alick in order, but if you have the
least feeling that you would be more at ease with me at home—”
“That is not a fair question,” said Ermine, smiling. “You know very well
that you ought to go.”
“And I shall try to bring back Harry Beauchamp,” added the Colonel. “He
would be able to identify the fellow.”
“I do not know what would be gained by that.”
“I should know whom to watch.”
Ermine had seen so much of Rose’s nervous timidity, and had known so many
phantoms raised by it, that she attached little importance to the
recognition, and when she went over the matter with her little niece, it
was with far more thought of the effect of the terror, and of the long
suppressed secret, upon the child’s moral and physical nature, than with
any curiosity as to the subject of her last alarm. She was surprised to
observe that Alison was evidently in a state of much more restlessness and
suspense than she was conscious of in herself, during Colin’s absence, and
attributed this to her sister’s fear of Maddox’s making some inroad upon
her in her long solitary hours, in which case she tried to reassure her by
promises to send at once for Mr. Mitchell or for Coombe.
Alison let these assurances be given to her, and felt hypocritical for
receiving them in silence. Her grave set features had tutored themselves
to conceal for ever one page in the life that Ermine thought was entirely
revealed to her. Never had Ermine known that brotherly companionship had
once suddenly assumed the unwelcome aspect of an affection against which
Alison’s heart had been steeled by devotion to the sister whose life she
had blighted. Her resolution had been unswerving, but its full cost had
been unknown to her, till her adherence to it had slackened the old tie of
hereditary friendship towards others of her family; and even when marriage
should have obliterated the past, she still traced resentment in the hard
judgment of her brother’s conduct, and even in the one act of
consideration that it galled her to accept.
There had been no meeting since the one decisive interview just before she
had left her original home, and there were many more bitter feelings than
could be easily assuaged in looking forward to a renewal of intercourse,
when all too late, she knew that she should soon be no longer needed by
her sister. She tried to feel it all just retribution, she tried to
rejoice in Ermine’s coming happiness; she tried to believe that the sight
of Harry Beauchamp, as a married man, would be the best cure for her; she
blamed and struggled with herself: and after all, her distress was wasted,
Harry Beauchamp had not chosen to come home with his cousin, who took his
unwillingness to miss a hunting-day rather angrily and scornfully. Alison
put her private interpretation on the refusal, and held aloof, while Colin
owned to Ermine his vexation and surprise at the displeasure that Harry
Beauchamp maintained against his old schoolfellow, and his absolute
refusal to listen to any arguments as to his innocence.
This seemed to have been Colin’s prominent interest in his expedition to
Bath; the particulars of the wedding were less easily drawn from him. The
bride had indeed been perfection, all was charming wherever she brought
her ready grace and sweetness, and she had gratified the Colonel by her
affectionate messages to Ermine, and her evident intention to make all
straight between Lord Keith and his daughter Mary. But the Clare relations
had not made a favourable impression; the favourite blind uncle had not
been present, in spite of Bessie’s boast, and it was suspected that Alick
had not chosen to forward his coming. Alick had devolved the office of
giving his sister away upon the Colonel, as her guardian, and had
altogether comported himself with more than his usual lazy irony,
especially towards the Clare cousinhood, who constantly buzzed round him,
and received his rebuffs as delightful jests and compliments, making the
Colonel wonder all the more at the perfect good taste and good breeding of
his new sister-in-law, who had spent among them all the most critical
years of her life.
She had been much amused with the prospectus of the “Journal of Female
Industry,” but she sent word to Rachel that she advised her not to publish
any list of subscribers—the vague was far more impressive than the
certain. The first number must be sent to her at Paris, and trust her for
spreading its fame!
The Colonel did not add to his message her recommendation that the
frontispiece should represent the Spinster’s Needles, with the rescue of
Don as the type of female heroism. Nor did he tell how carefully he had
questioned both her and Rachel as to the date of that interesting
adventure.
CHAPTER XVII. THE SIEGE.
“The counterfeit presentment.”—Hamlet.
Christmas came, and Rachel agreed with Mr. Mauleverer that it was better
not to unsettle the children at the F. U. E. E. by permitting them to come
home for holidays, a decision which produced much discontent in their
respective families. Alison, going to Mrs. Morris with her pupils, to take
her a share of Christmas good cheer, was made the receptacle of a great
lamentation over the child’s absence; and, moreover, that the mother had
not been allowed to see her alone, when taken by Miss Rachel to the F. U.
E. E.
“Some one ought to take it up,” said Alison, as she came home, in her
indignation. “Who knows what may be done to those poor children? Can’t Mr.
Mitchell do something?”
But Mr. Mitchell was not sufficiently at home to interfere. He was indeed
negotiating an exchange with Mr. Touchett, but until this was effected he
could hardly meddle in the matter, and he was besides a reserved, prudent
man, slow to commit himself, so that his own impression of the asylum
could not be extracted from him. Here, however, Colonel Keith put himself
forward. He had often been asked by Rachel to visit the F. U. E. E., and
he surprised and relieved Alison by announcing his intention of going over
to St. Norbert’s alone and without notice, so as to satisfy himself as far
as might be as to the treatment of the inmates, and the genuineness of
Mauleverer’s pretensions. He had, however, to wait for weather that would
not make the adventure one of danger to him, and he regarded the cold and
rain with unusual impatience, until, near the end of January, he was able
to undertake his expedition.
After much knocking and ringing the door was opened to him by a rude,
slatternly, half-witted looking charwoman, or rather girl, who said
“Master was not in,” and nearly shut the door in his face. However, he
succeeded in sending in his card, backed by the mention of Lady Temple and
Miss Curtis; and this brought out Mrs. Rawlins, her white streamers
floating stiff behind her, full of curtsies and regrets at having to
refuse any friend of Miss Curtis, but Mr. Mauleverer’s orders were precise
and could not be infringed. He was gone to lecture at Bristol, but if the
gentleman would call at any hour he would fix to morrow or next day, Mr.
Mauleverer would be proud to wait on him.
When he came at the appointed time, all was in the normal state of the
institution. The two little girls in white pinafores sat upon their bench
with their books before them, and their matron presiding over them; Mr.
Mauleverer stood near, benignantly attentive to the children and
obligingly so to the visitor, volunteering information and answering all
questions. Colonel Keith tried to talk to the children, but when he asked
one of them whether she liked drawing better than lace-making her lips
quivered, and Mrs. Rawlins replied for her, that she was never happy
except with a pencil in her hand. “Show the gentleman, my dear,” and out
came a book of studies of cubes, globes, posts, etc., while Mr. Mauleverer
talked artistically of drawing from models. Next, he observed on a certain
suspicious blackness of little Mary’s eye, and asked her what she had done
to herself. But the child hung her head, and Mrs. Rawlins answered for
her, “Ah! Mary is ashamed to tell: but the gentleman will think nothing of
it, my dear. He knows that children will be children, and I cannot bear to
check them, the dears.”
More briefly Mr. Mauleverer explained that Mary had fallen while playing
on the stairs; and with this superficial inspection he must needs content
himself, though on making inquiry at the principal shops, he convinced
himself that neither Mr. Mauleverer nor the F. U. E. E. were as well known
at St. Norbert’s as at Avonmouth. He told Rachel of his expedition, and
his interest in her work gratified her, though she would have preferred
being his cicerone. She assured him that he must have been very much
pleased, especially with the matron.
“She is a handsome woman, and reminds me strongly of a face I saw in
India.”
“There are some classes of beauty and character that have a remarkable
sameness of feature,” began Rachel.
“Don’t push that theory, for your matron’s likeness was a very handsome
Sepoy havildar whom we took at Lucknow, a capital soldier before the
mutiny, and then an ineffable ruffian.”
“The mutiny was an infectious frenzy; so that you establish nothing
against that cast of countenance.”
Never, indeed, was there more occasion for perseverance in Rachel’s
championship. Hitherto Mrs. Kelland had been nailed to her pillow by the
exigencies of Lady Keith’s outfit, and she and her minions had toiled
unremittingly, without a thought beyond their bobbins, but as soon as the
postponed orders were in train, and the cash for the wedding veil and
flounces had been transmitted, the good woman treated herself and her
daughters to a holiday at St. Norbert’s, without intimating her intention
to her patronesses; and the consequence was a formal complaint of her
ungrateful and violent language to Mrs. Rawlins on being refused admission
to the asylum without authority from Mr. Mauleverer or Miss Curtis.
Rachel, much displeased, went down charged with reproof and
representation, but failed to produce the desired effect upon the aunt.
“It was not right,” Mrs. Kelland reiterated, “that the poor lone orphan
should not see her that was as good as a mother, when she had no one else
to look to. They that kept her from her didn’t do it for no good end.”
“But, Mrs. Kelland, rules are rules.”
“Don’t tell me of no rules, Miss Rachel, as would cut a poor child off
from her friends as her mother gave her to on her death-bed. ‘Sally,’ says
she, ‘I know you will do a mother’s part by that poor little maid;’ and so
I did till I was over persuaded to let her go to that there place.”
“Indeed you have nothing to regret there, Mrs. Kelland; you know, that
with the kindest intentions, you could not make the child happy.”
“And why was that, ma’am, but because her mother was a poor creature from
town, that had never broke her to her work. I never had the trouble with a
girl of my own I had with her. ‘It’s all for your good, Lovedy,’ I says to
her, and poor child, maybe she wishes herself back again.”
“I assure you, I always find the children well and happy, and it is very
unfair on the matron to be angry with her for being bound by rules, to
which she must submit, or she would transgress the regulations under which
we have laid her! It is not her choice to exclude you, but her duty.”
“Please, ma’am, was it her duty to be coming out of the house in a ’genta
coloured silk dress, and a drab bonnet with a pink feather in it?” said
Mrs. Kelland, with a certain air of simplicity, that provoked Rachel to
answer sharply—
“You don’t know what you are talking about, Mrs. Kelland.”
“Well, ma’am, it was a very decent woman as told me, an old lady of the
name of Drinkwater, as keeps a baker’s shop on the other side of the way,
and she never sees bread enough go in for a cat to make use of, let alone
three poor hungry children. She says all is not right there, ma’am.”
“Oh, that must be mere gossip and spite at not having the custom. It quite
accounts for what she may say, and indeed you brought it all on yourself
by not having asked me for a note. You must restrain yourself. What you
may say to me is of no importance, but you must not go and attack those
who are doing the very best for your niece.”
Rachel made a dignified exit, but before she had gone many steps, she was
assailed by tearful Mrs. Morris: “Oh, Miss Rachel, if it would not be
displeasing to you, would you give me an order for my child to come home.
Ours is a poor place, but I would rather make any shift for us to live
than that she should be sent away to some place beyond sea.”
“Some place beyond sea!”
“Yes, ma’am. I beg your pardon, ma’am, but they do say that Mr.
Maw-and-liver is a kidnapper, ma’am, and that he gets them poor children
to send out to Botany Bay to be wives to the convicts as are transported,
Miss Rachel, if you’ll excuse it. They say there’s a whole shipload of
them at Plymouth, and I’d rather my poor Mary came to the Union at home
than to the like of that, Miss Rachel.”
This alarm, being less reasonable, was even more difficult to talk down
than Mrs. Kelland’s, and Rachel felt as if there were a general conspiracy
to drive her distracted, when on going home she found the drawing-room
occupied by a pair of plump, paddy-looking old friends, who had evidently
talked her mother into a state of nervous alarm. On her entrance, Mrs.
Curtis begged the gentleman to tell dear Rachel what he had been saying,
but this he contrived to avoid, and only on his departure was Rachel made
aware that he and his wife had come, fraught with tidings that she was
fostering a Jesuit in disguise, that Mrs. Rawlins was a lady abbess of a
new order, Rachel herself in danger of being entrapped, and the whole
family likely to be entangled in the mysterious meshes, which, as good
Mrs. Curtis more than once repeated, would be “such a dreadful thing for
poor Fanny and the boys.”
Her daughters, by soothing and argument, allayed the alarm, though the
impression was not easily done away with, and they feared that it might
yet cost her a night’s rest. These attacks—absurd as they were—induced
Rachel to take measures for their confutation, by writing to Mr.
Mauleverer, that she thought it would be well to allow the pupils to pay a
short visit to their homes, so as to satisfy their friends.
She did not receive an immediate answer, and was beginning to feel vexed
and anxious, though not doubtful, when Mr. Mauleverer arrived, bringing
two beautiful little woodcuts, as illustrations for the “Journal of Female
Industry.” They were entitled “The free maids that weave their thread with
bones,” and one called “the Ideal,” represented a latticed cottage window,
with roses, honeysuckles, cat, beehives, and all conventional rural
delights, around a pretty maiden singing at her lace-pillow; while the
other yclept the “Real,” showed a den of thin, wizened, half-starved
girls, cramped over their cushions in a lace-school. The design was Mr.
Mauleverer’s, the execution the children’s; and neatly mounted on cards,
the performance did them great credit, and there was great justice in Mr.
Manleverer’s view that while they were making such progress, it would be a
great pity to interrupt the preparation of the first number by sending the
children home even for a few hours. Rachel consented the more readily to
the postponement of the holiday, as she had now something to show in
evidence of the reality of their doings, and she laid hands upon the cuts,
in spite of Mr. Mauleverer’s unwillingness that such mere essays should be
displayed as specimens of the art of the F. U. E. E. When the twenty
pounds which she advanced should have been laid out in blocks, ink, and
paper, there was little doubt that the illustrations of the journal would
be a triumphant instance of female energy well directed.
Meantime she repaired to Ermine Williams to persuade her to write an
article upon the two pictures, a paper in the lively style in which Rachel
herself could not excel, pointing out the selfishness of wilfully
sentimental illusions. She found Ermine alone, but her usual fate pursued
her in the shape of, first, Lady Temple, then both Colonel and Captain
Keith, and little Rose, who all came in before she had had time to do more
than explain her intentions. Rose had had another fright, and again the
Colonel had been vainly trying to distinguish the bugbear of her fancy,
and she was clinging all the more closely to him because he was the only
person of her aquaintance who did not treat her alarms as absolutely
imaginary.
Rachel held her ground, well pleased to have so many spectators of this
triumphant specimen of the skill of her asylum, and Lady Temple gave much
admiration, declaring that no one ought to wear lace again without being
sure that no one was tortured in making it, and that when she ordered her
new black lace shawl of Mrs. Kelland, it should be on condition that the
poor girls were not kept so very hard at work.
“You will think me looking for another Sepoy likeness,” said the Colonel,
“but I am sure I have met this young lady or her twin sister somewhere in
my travels.”
“It is a satire on conventional pictures,” said Rachel.
“Now, I remember,” he continued. “It was when I was laid up with my wound
at a Dutch boer’s till I could get to Cape Town. My sole reading was one
number of the ‘Illustrated News,’ and I made too good acquaintance with
that lady’s head, to forget her easily.”
“Of course,” said Rachel, “it is a reminiscence of the painting there
represented.”
“What was the date?” asked Alick Keith.
The Colonel was able to give it with some precision.
“You are all against me,” said Rachel; “I see you are perfectly determined
that there shall be something wrong about every performance of the F. U.
E. E.”
“No, don’t say so,” began Fanny, with gentle argument, but Alick Keith put
in with a smile, “It is a satisfaction to Miss Curtis.”
“Athanasius against the world,” she answered.
“Athanasius should take care that his own foot is firm, his position
incontrovertible,” said Ermine.
“Well!”
“Then,” said Ermine, “will you allow these little pictures to be examined
into?”
“I don’t know what you mean.”
“Look here,” and the Colonel lifted on the table a scrap-book that Rose
had been quietly opening on his knee, and which contained an etching of a
child playing with a dog, much resembling the style of the drawing.
“Who did that, my dear?” he asked.
“Mamma had it,” was Rose’s reply; “it was always in my old nursery
scrap-book.”
“Every one knows,” said Rachel, “that a woodcut is often like an etching,
and an etching like a woodcut. I do not know what you are driving at.”
“The little dogs and all,” muttered Alick, as Rachel glanced rather
indignantly at Rose and her book so attentively examined by the Colonel.
“I know,” repeated Rachel, “that there is a strong prejudice against Mr.
Mauleverer, and that it is entertained by many whom I should have hoped to
see above such weakness but when I brought these tangible productions of
his system, as evidence of his success, I did not expect to see them
received with a covert distrust, which I own I do not understand. I
perceive now why good works find so much difficulty in prospering.”
“I believe,” said Alick Keith, “that I am to have the honour of dining at
the Homestead on Monday?”
“Yes. The Greys spend the day with us, and it is Emily’s due to have a
good sight of you.”
“Then will you let me in the meantime take my own measures with regard to
these designs. I will not hurt or injure them in any way; they shall be
deposited here in Miss William’s hands, and I promise you that if I have
been able to satisfy myself as to the means of their production, Simon
Skinflint shall become a subscriber to the F. U. E. E. Is it a bargain?”
“I never made such a bargain,” said Rachel, puzzled.
“Is that a reason for not doing so?”
“I don’t know what you mean to do. Not to molest that poor Mrs. Rawlins. I
will not have that done.”
“Certainly not. All I ask of you is that these works of art should remain
here with Miss Williams, as a safe neutral, and that you should meet me
here on Monday, when I will undertake to convince myself.”
“Not me?” cried Rachel.
“Who would make it part of his terms to convince a lady?”
“You mean to say,” exclaimed Rachel, considerably nettled, “that as a
woman, I am incapable of being rationally convinced!”
“The proverb does not only apply to women,” said Ermine, coming to her
rescue; but Rachel, stung by the arch smile and slight bow of Captain
Keith, continued—“Let the proof be convincing, and I will meet it as
candidly as it is the duty of all reasonable beings to do. Only let me
first know what you mean to prove.”
“The terms are these then, are they not, Miss Williams? I am to come on
Monday, February the 5th, prepared to test whether these designs are what
they profess to be, and Miss Curtis undertakes to be convinced by that
proof, provided it be one that should carry conviction to a clear,
unbiassed mind. I undertake, on the other hand, that if the said proof
should be effectual, a mythical personage called Simon Skinflint shall
become a supporter of the Female Union for Englishwomen’s Employment.”
He spoke with his own peculiar slowness and gravity, and Rachel, uncertain
whether he were making game of her or not, looked perplexed, half on the
defence, half gratified. The others were greatly amused, and a great deal
surprised at Alick’s unwonted willingness to take trouble in the matter.
After a few moment’s deliberation, Rachel said, “Well, I consent, provided
that my candour be met by equal candour on the other side, and you will
promise that if this ordeal succeeds, you will lay aside all prejudice
against Mauleverer.”
A little demur as to the reasonableness of this stipulation followed, but
the terms finally were established. Mr. and Mrs. Grey, old family friends,
had long been engaged to spend the ensuing Monday at the Homestead. The
elder daughter, an old intimate of Grace’s, had married an Indian civil
servant, whom Colonel Keith was invited to meet at luncheon, and Captain
Keith at dinner, and Alick was further to sleep at Gowanbrae. Lady Temple,
who was to have been of the party, was called away, much to her own
regret, by an appointment with the dentist of St. Norbert’s, who was very
popular, and proportionately despotic, being only visible at his own
times, after long appointment. She would therefore be obliged to miss
Alick’s ordeal, though as she said, when Rachel—finding it vain to
try to outstay so many—had taken her leave, “I should much like to
see how it will turn out. I do believe that there is some difference in
the colour of the ink in the middle and at the edge, and if those people
are deceiving Rachel, who knows what they may be doing to the poor
children?”
It was exactly what every one was thinking, but it seemed to have fresh
force when it struck the milder and slower imagination, and Lady Temple,
seeing that her observation told upon those around her, became more
impressed with its weight.
“It really is dreadful to have sent those little girls there without any
one knowing what anybody does to them,” she repeated.
“It makes even Alick come out in a new character,” said the Colonel,
turning round on him.
“Why,” returned Alick, “my sister had so much to do with letting the young
lady in for the scrape, that it is just as well to try to get her out of
it. In fact, I think we have all sat with our hands before us in a
shamefully cool manner, till we are all accountable for the humbuggery.”
“When it comes to your reproaching us with coolness, Captain Keith, the
matter becomes serious,” returned Colin.
“It does become serious,” was the answer; “it is hard that a person
without any natural adviser should have been allowed to run headlong, by
force of her own best qualities, into the hands of a sharper. I do not see
how a man of any proper feeling, can stand by without doing something to
prevent the predicament from becoming any worse.”
“If you can,” said Colonel Keith.
“I verily believe,” said Alick, turning round upon him, “that the worse it
is for her, the more you enjoy it!”
“Quite true,” said Ermine in her mischievous way; “it is a true case of
man’s detestation of clever women! Look here, Alick, we will not have him
here at the great ordeal of the woodcuts. You and I are much more candid
and unprejudiced people, and shall manage her much better.”
“I have no desire to be present,” returned the Colonel; “I have no
satisfaction in seeing my friend Alick baffled. I shall see how they both
appear at luncheon afterwards.”
“How will that be?” asked Fanny, anxiously.
“The lady will be sententious and glorious, and will recommend the F. U.
E. E. more than ever, and Alick will cover the downfall of his crest by
double-edged assents to all her propositions.”
“You will not have that pleasure,” said Alick. “I only go to dinner
there.”
“At any rate,” said the Colonel, “supposing your test takes effect by some
extraordinary chance, don’t take any further steps without letting me
know.”
The inference was drawn that he expected great results, but he continued
to laugh at Alick’s expectations of producing any effect on the Clever
Woman, and the debate of the woodcuts was adjourned to the Monday.
In good time, Rachel made her appearance in Miss Williams’s little
sitting-room. “I am ready to submit to any test that Captain Keith may
require to confute himself,” she said to Ermine; “and I do so the more
readily that with all his mocking language, there is a genuine candour and
honesty beneath that would be quite worth convincing. I believe that if
once persuaded of the injustice of his suspicions he would in the reaction
become a fervent supporter of Mr. Mauleverer and of the institution; and
though I should prefer carrying on our work entirely through women, yet
this interest would be so good a thing for him, that I should by no means
reject his assistance.”
Rachel had, however, long to wait. As she said, Captain Keith was one of
those inborn loiterers who, made punctual by military duty, revenge
themselves by double tardiness in the common affairs of life. Impatience
had nearly made her revoke her good opinion of him, and augur that,
knowing himself vanquished, he had left the field to her, when at last a
sound of wheels was heard, a dog-cart stopped at the door, and Captain
Keith entered with an enormous blue and gold volume under his arm.
“I am sorry to be so late,” he said, “but I have only now succeeded in
procuring my ally.”
“An ally!”
“Yes, in this book. I had to make interest at the Avoncester Library,
before I could take it away with me.” As he spoke he placed the book
desk-fashion on a chair, and turned it so that Ermine might see it; and
she perceived that it was a bound-up volume of the “Illustrated London
News.” Two marks were in it, and he silently parted the leaves at the
first.
It revealed the lace-making beauty in all her rural charms.
“I see,” said Rachel; “it is the same figure, but not the same shaped
picture.”
Without another word, Alick Keith opened the pages at the lace-school; and
here again the figures were identical, though the margin had been
differently finished off.
“I perceive a great resemblance,” again said Rachel, “but none that is not
fully explained by Mr. Mauleverer’s accurate resemblance and desire to
satirize foolish sentiment.”
Alick Keith took up the woodcut. “I should say,” he observed, holding it
up to the light, “that it was unusual to mount a proof engraving so
elaborately on a card.”
“Oh, I see what your distrust is driving at; you suspect the designs of
being pasted on.”
“There is such a test as water,” suggested Alick.
“I should be ashamed to return the proof to its master, bearing traces of
unjust suspicion.”
“If the suspicion you impute to me be unjust, the water will produce no
effect at all.”
“And you engage to retract all your distrust and contempt, if you are
convinced that this engraving is genuine?”
“I do,” he answered steadily.
With irritated magnanimity Rachel dipped her finger into the vase of
flowers on the table, and let a heavy drop of water fall upon the cottage
scene. The centre remained unaltered, and she looked round in exultation,
saying, “There, now I suppose I may wipe it off.”
Neither spoke, and she applied her pocket handkerchief. What came peeling
away under her pressure? It was the soft paper, and as she was passing the
edge of the figure of the girl, she found a large smear following her
finger. The peculiar brown of Indian ink was seen upon her handkerchief,
and when she took it up a narrow hem of white had become apparent between
the girl’s head and its surroundings. Neither spectator spoke, they
scarcely looked at her, when she took another drop from the vase, and
using it more boldly found the pasted figure curling up and rending under
her hand, lines of newspaper type becoming apparent, and the dark cloud
spreading around.
“What does it mean?” was her first exclamation; then suddenly turning on
Ermine, “Well, do you triumph?”
“I am very, very sorry,” said Ermine.
“I do not know that it is come to that yet,” said Rachel, trying to
collect herself. “I may have been pressing too hard for results.” Then
looking at the mangled picture again as they wisely left her to herself,
“But it is a deception! A deception! Oh! he need not have done it! Or,”
with a lightened look and tone of relief, “suppose he did it to see
whether I should find it out?”
“He is hardly on terms with you for that,” said Ermine; while Alick could
not refrain from saying, “Then he would be a more insolent scoundrel than
he has shown himself yet.”
“I know he is not quite a gentleman,” said Rachel, “and nothing else gives
the instinct of the becoming. You have conquered, Captain Keith, if it be
any pleasure to you to have given my trust and hope a cruel shock.”
“With little satisfaction to myself,” he began to say; but she continued,
“A shock, a shock I say, no more; I do not know what conclusion I ought to
draw. I do not expect you to believe in this person till he has cleared up
the deceit. If it be only a joke in bad taste, he deserves the distrust
that is the penalty for it. If you have been opening my eyes to a
deception, perhaps I shall thank you for it some day. I must think it
over.”
She rose, gathered her papers together, and took her leave gravely, while
Alick, much to Ermine’s satisfaction, showed no elation in his victory.
All he said was, “There is a great deal of dignity in the strict justice
of a mind slow to condemn, or to withdraw the trust once given.”
“There is,” said Ermine, much pleased with his whole part in the affair;
“there has been full and real candour, not flying into the other extreme.
I am afraid she has a great deal to suffer.”
“It was very wrong to have stood so still when the rascal began his
machinations,” repeated Alick, “Bessie absolutely helping it on! But for
her, the fellow would have had no chance even of acquaintance with her.”
“Your sister hardly deserves blame for that.”
“Not exactly blame; but the responsibility remains,” he replied gravely,
and indeed he was altogether much graver than his wont, entirely free from
irony, and evidently too sorry for Rachel, and feeling himself, through
his sister, too guilty of her entanglement, to have any of that amused
satisfaction that even Colin evidently felt in her discomfiture. In fact
Ermine did not fully enter into Colin’s present tactics; she saw that he
was more than usually excited and interested about the F. U. E. E., but he
had not explained his views to her, and she could only attribute his
desire, to defer the investigation, to a wish that Mr. Mitchell should
have time to return from London, whither he had gone to conclude his
arrangements with Mr. Touchett, leaving the duty in commission between
three delicate winter visitors.
Rachel walked home in a kind of dreamy bewilderment. The first stone in
her castle had been loosened, and her heart was beginning to fail her,
though the tenacity of her will produced a certain incapacity of believing
that she had been absolutely deceived. Her whole fabric was so compact,
and had been so much solidified by her own intensity of purpose, that any
hollowness of foundation was utterly beyond present credence. She was
ready to be affronted with Mauleverer for perilling all for a bad joke,
but wildly impossible as this explanation would have seemed to others, she
preferred taking refuge in it to accepting the full brunt of the blow upon
her cherished hopes.
She had just re-entered the house on her return, when Grace met her,
saying, “Oh, Rachel dear, Mrs. Rossitur is here.”
“I think old servants have a peculiar propensity for turning up when the
house is in a state of turmoil,” returned Rachel.
“I have been walking round the garden with her, and doing my best to
suffice for her entertainment,” said Grace, good-naturedly, “but she
really wants to see you on business. She has a bill for the F. U. E. E.
which she wants you to pay.”
“A bill for the F. U. E. E.?”
“Yes; she makes many apologies for troubling you, but Tom is to be
apprenticed to a grocer, and they want this fifteen pounds to make up the
fee.”
“But I tell you, Grace, there can’t have been fifteen pounds’ worth of
things had in this month, and they were paid on the 1st.”
“She says they have never been paid at all since the 1st of December.”
“I assure you, Grace, it is in the books. I made a point of having all the
accounts brought to me on the 1st of every month, and giving out the
money. I gave out £3. 10s. for the Rossiturs last Friday, the 1st of
February, when Mr. Mauleverer was over here. He said coals were dearer,
and they had to keep more fires.”
“There must be some mistake,” said Grace. “I’ll show you the books. Mr.
Mauleverer keeps one himself, and leaves one with me. Oh, botheration,
there’s the Grey carriage! Well, you go and receive them, and I’ll try to
pacify Mrs. Rossitur, and then come down.”
Neatly kept were these account books of the F. U. E. E., and sure enough
for every month were entered the sums for coals, wood, and potatoes,
tallying exactly with Mrs. Rossitur’s account, and each month Mr.
Mauleverer’s signature attested the receipt of the sum paid over to him by
Rachel for household expenses. Rachel carried them down to Mrs. Rossitur,
but this evidence utterly failed to convince that worthy personage that
she had ever received a farthing after the 1st of December. She was
profuse in her apologies for troubling Miss Rachel, and had only been led
to do so by the exigencies of her son’s apprentice fee, and she reposed
full confidence in Rachel’s eager assurance that she should not be a
loser, and that in another day the matter should be investigated.
“And, Miss Rachel,” added the old servant, “you’ll excuse me, but they do
say very odd things of the matron at that place, and I doubt you are
deceived in her. Our lads went to the the-a-ter the other night, and I
checked them well for it; but mother, says they, we had more call to be
there than the governess up to Miss Rachel’s schule in Nichol Street,
dressed out in pink feathers.”
“Well, Mrs. Rossitur, I will make every inquiry, and I do not think you
will find anything wrong. There must be some one about very like Mrs.
Rawlins. I have heard of those pink feathers before, but I know who the
matron is, and all about her! Good-bye. I’ll see you again before you go,
I suppose it won’t be till the seven o’clock train.”
Mrs. Rossitur remained expressing her opinion to the butler that dear Miss
Rachel was too innocent, and then proceeded to lose all past cares in a
happy return to “melting day,” in the regions of her past glories as cook
and housekeeper.
Rachel repaired to her room to cool her glowing cheeks, and repeat to
herself, “A mistake, an error. It must be a blunder! That boy that went to
the theatre may have cheated them! Mrs. Rawlins may have deceived Mr.
Mauleverer. Anything must be true rather than—No, no! such a tissue
of deception is impossible in a man of such sentiments! Persecuted as he
has been, shall appearances make me—me, his only friend—turn
against him? Oh, me! here come the whole posse purring upstairs to take
off their things! I shall be invaded in a moment.”
And in came Grace and the two younger ladies, and Rachel was no more her
own from that moment.
CHAPTER XVIII. THE FORLORN HOPE.
“She whipped two female ’prentices to death,
And hid them in the coal-hole. For her mind
Shaped strictest plans of discipline, sage schemes,
Such as Lycurgus taught.”—Canning and Frere.
The favourite dentist of the neighbourhood dwelt in a grand mansion at St.
Norbert’s, and thither were conducted Conrade and Francis, as victims to
the symmetry of their mouths. Their mother accompanied them to supply the
element of tenderness, Alison that of firmness; and, in fact, Lady Temple
was in a state of much greater trepidation than either of her sons, who
had been promised five shillings each as the reward of fortitude, and did
nothing but discuss what they should buy with it.
They escaped with a reprieve to Conrade, and the loss of one tooth of
Francis’s, and when the rewards had been laid out, and presents chosen for
all the stay-at-home children, including Rose, Lady Temple became able to
think about other matters. The whole party were in a little den at the
pastrycook’s; the boys consuming mutton pies, and the ladies ox-tail soup,
while waiting to be taken up by the waggonette which had of late been
added to the Myrtlewood establishment, when the little lady thus spoke—
“If you don’t object, Miss Williams, we will go to Rachel’s asylum on our
way home.”
Miss Williams asked if she had made the appointment.
“No,” said Lady Temple, “but you see I can’t be satisfied about those
woodcuts; and that poor woman, Mrs. Kelland, came to me yesterday about my
lace shawl, and she is sadly distressed about the little girl. She was not
allowed to see her, you know, and she heard such odd things about the
place that I told her that I did not wonder she was in trouble, and that I
would try to bring the child home, or at any rate see and talk to her.”
“I hope we may be able to see her, but you know Colonel Keith could not
get in without making an appointment.”
“I pay for her,” said Lady Temple, “and I cannot bear its going on in this
way without some one seeing about it. The Colonel was quite sure those
woodcuts were mere fabrications to deceive Rachel; and there must be
something very wrong about those people.”
“Did she know that you were going?”
“No; I did not see her before we went. I do not think she will mind it
much; and I promised.” Lady Temple faltered a little, but gathered courage
the next moment. “And indeed, after what Mrs. Kelland said, I could not
sleep while I thought I had been the means of putting any poor child into
such hands.”
“Yes,” said Alison, “it is very shocking to leave them there without
inquiry, and it is an excellent thing to make the attempt.”
And so the order was given to drive to the asylum, Alison marvelling at
the courage which prompted this most unexpected assault upon the fortress
that had repulsed two such warriors as Colonel Keith and Mrs. Kelland. But
timid and tender as she might be, it was not for nothing that Fanny Temple
had been a vice-queen, so much accustomed to be welcomed wherever she
penetrated, that the notion of a rebuff never suggested itself.
Coombe rang, and his lady made him let herself and Miss Williams out, so
that she was on the step when the rough charwoman opened the door, and
made the usual reply that Mr. Mauleverer was not within. Lady Temple
answered that it was Mrs. Rawlins, the matron, that she wished to see, and
with more audacity than Alison thought her capable of, inserted herself
within the doorway, so as to prevent herself from being shut out as the
girl took her message. The next moment the girl came back saying, “This
way, ma’am,” opened the door of a small dreary, dusty, cold parlour, where
she shut them in, and disappeared before a word could be said.
There they remained so long, that in spite of such encouragement as could
be derived from peeping over the blinds at Coombe standing sentinel over
his two young masters at the carriage window, Lady Temple began to feel
some dismay, though no repentance, and with anxious iteration conjured
Miss Williams to guess what could be the cause of delay.
“Making ready for our reception,” was Alison’s answer in various forms;
and Lady Temple repeated by turns, “I do not like it,” and “it is very
unsatisfactory. No, I don’t like it at all,” the at all always growing
more emphatic.
The climax was, “Things must be very sad, or they would never take so much
preparation. I’ll tell you, Miss Williams,” she added in a low
confidential tone; “there are two of us, and the woman cannot be in two
places at once. Now, if you go up and see the rooms and all, which I saw
long ago, I could stay and talk to the poor children.”
Alison was the more surprised at the simple statecraft of the General’s
widow, but it was prompted by the pitiful heart yearning over the
mysterious wrongs of the poor little ones.
At last Mrs. Rawlins sailed in, crape, streamers, and all, with the lowest
of curtsies and fullest of apologies for having detained her Ladyship, but
she had been sending out in pursuit of Mr. Mauleverer, he would be so
disappointed! Lady Temple begged to see the children, and especially
Lovedy, whom she said she should like to take home for a holiday.
“Why, my lady, you see Mr. Mauleverer is very particular. I hardly know
that I could answer it to him to have one of his little darlings out of
his sight. It unsettles a child so to be going home, and Lovedy has a bad
cold, my lady, and I am afraid it will run through the house. My little
Alice is beginning of it.”
However, Lady Temple kept to her desire of seeing Lovedy, and of letting
her companion see the rest of the establishment, and they were at last
ushered into the room already known to the visitors of the F. U. E. E.,
where the two children sat as usual in white pinafores, but it struck the
ladies that all looked ill, and Lovedy was wrapped in a shawl, and sat
cowering in a dull, stupified way, unlike the bright responsive manner for
which she had been noted even in her lace-school days. Mary Morris gazed
for a moment at Alison with a wistful appealing glance, then, with a start
as of fright, put on a sullen stolid look, and kept her eyes on her book.
The little Alice, looking very heavy and feverish, leant against her, and
Mrs. Rawlins went on talking of the colds, the gruel she had made, and her
care for her pupils’ ailments, and Lady Temple listened so graciously that
Alison feared she was succumbing to the palaver; and by way of reminder,
asked to see the dormitory.
“Oh, yes, ma’am, certainly, though we are rather in confusion,” and she
tried to make both ladies precede her, but Lady Temple, for once assuming
the uncomprehending nonchalance of a fine lady, seated herself languidly
and motioned Alison on. The matron was evidently perplexed, she looked
daggers at the children, or Ailie fancied so, but she was forced to follow
the governess. Lady Temple breathed more freely, and rose. “My poor
child,” she said to Lovedy, “you seem very poorly. Have you any message to
your aunt?”
“Please, please!” began Lovedy, with a hoarse sob.
“Lovedy, don’t, don’t be a bad girl, or you know—” interposed the
little one, in a warning whisper.
“She is not naughty,” said Lady Temple gently, “only not well.”
“Please, my lady, look,” eagerly, though with a fugitive action of terror,
Lovedy cried, unpinning the thin coarse shawl on her neck, and revealing
the terrible stripes and weals of recent beating, such as nearly sickened
Lady Temple.
“Oh, Lovedy,” entreated Alice, “she’ll take the big stick.”
“She could not do her work,” interposed Mary with furtive eagerness, “she
is so poorly, and Missus said she would have the twenty sprigs if she sat
up all night.”
“Sprigs!”
“Yes, ma’am, we makes lace more than ever we did to home, day and night;
and if we don’t she takes the stick.”
“Oh, Mary,” implored the child, “she said if you said one word.”
“Mary,” said Lady Temple, trembling all over, “where are your bonnets?”
“We haven’t none, ma’am,” returned Mary, “she pawned them. But, oh, ma’am,
please take us away. We are used dreadful bad, and no one knows it.”
Lady Temple took Lovedy in one hand, and Mary in the other; then looked at
the other little girl, who stood as if petrified. She handed the pair to
the astonished Coombe, bidding him put them into the carriage, and let
Master Temple go outside, and then faced about to defend the rear, her
rustling black silk and velvet filling up the passage, just as Alison and
the matron were coming down stairs.
“Mrs. Rawlins,” she said, in her gentle dignity, “I think Lovedy is so
poorly that she ought to go home to her aunt to be nursed, and I have
taken little Mary that she may not be left behind alone. Please to tell
Mr. Mauleverer that I take it all upon myself. The other little girl is
not at all to blame, and I hope you will take care of her, for she looks
very ill.”
So much for being a Governor’s widow! A woman of thrice Fanny’s energy and
capacity would not have effected her purpose so simply, and made the
virago in the matron so entirely quail. She swept forth with such a
consciousness of power and ease that few could have had assurance enough
to gainsay her, but no sooner was she in the carriage than she seized
Mary’s hand, exclaiming, “My poor, poor little dear! Francis, dear boy,
the wicked people have been beating her! Oh, Miss Williams, look at her
poor neck!”
Alison lifting Lovedy on her knee, glanced under the shawl, and saw indeed
a sad spectacle, and she felt such a sharpness of bone as proved that
there was far from being the proper amount of clothing or of flesh to
protect them. Lady Temple looked at Mary’s attenuated hand, and fairly
sobbed, “Oh, you have been cruelly treated!”
“Please don’t let her get us,” cried the frightened Mary.
“Never, never, my dear. We are taking you home to your mother.”
Mary Morris was the spokeswoman, and volunteered the exhibition of bruises
rather older, but no less severe than those of her companion. All had been
inflicted by the woman; Mr. Mauleverer had seldom or never been seen by
the children, except Alice, who used often to be called into Mrs.
Rawlins’s parlour when he was there, to be played with and petted. A
charwoman was occasionally called in, but otherwise the entire work of the
house was exacted from the two girls, and they had been besides kept
perpetually to their lace pillows, and severely beaten if they failed in
the required amount of work; the ample wardrobe with which their
patronesses had provided them had been gradually taken from them, and
their fare had latterly become exceedingly coarse, and very scanty. It was
a sad story, and this last clause evoked from Francis’s pocket a large
currant bun, which Mary devoured with a famished appetite, but Lovedy held
her portion untasted in her hand, and presently gave it to Mary, saying
that her throat was so bad that she could not make use of anything. She
had already been wrapped in Lady Temple’s cloak, and Francis was desired
to watch for a chemist’s shop that something might be done for her relief,
but the region of shops was already left behind, and even the villas were
becoming scantier, so that nothing was to be done but to drive on,
obtaining from time to time further doleful narratives from Mary, and
perceiving more and more how ill and suffering was the other poor child.
Moreover, Lady Temple’s mind became extremely uneasy as to the manner in
which Rachel might accept her exploit. All her valour departed as she
figured to herself that young lady discrediting the alarm, and resenting
her interference. She did not repent, she knew she could not have helped
it, and she had rather have been tortured by Rachel than have left the
victims another hour to the F. U. E. E., but she was full of nervous
anxiety, little as she yet guessed at the full price of her courage; and
she uttered more than once the fervent wish that the Colonel had been
there, for he would have known what to do. And Alison each time replied,
“I wish it with all my heart!”
Wrought up at last to the pitch of nervousness that must rush on the
crisis at once, and take the bull by the horns, this valiant piece of
cowardice declared that she could not even return the girls to their homes
till Rachel knew all about it, and gave the word to drive to the
Homestead, further cheered by the recollection that Colonel Keith would
probably be there, having been asked to luncheon, as he could not dine
out, to meet Mr. Grey. Moreover, Mr. Grey was a magistrate and would know
what was to be done.
Thus the whole party at the Homestead were assembled near the door, when,
discerning them too late to avoid them, Lady Temple’s equipage drew up in
the peculiarly ungraceful fashion of waggonettes, when they prepare to
shoot their passengers out behind.
Conrade, the only person who had the advantage of a previous view, stood
up on the box, and before making his descent, shouted out, “Oh, Aunt
Rachel, your F. U. thing is as bad as the Sepoys. But we have saved the
two little girls that they were whipping to death, and have got them in
the carriage.”
While this announcement was being delivered, Alison Williams, the nearest
to the door, had emerged. She lifted out the little muffled figure of
Lovedy, set her on her feet, and then looking neither to the right nor
left, as if she saw and thought of no one else, made but one bound towards
Colonel Keith, clasped both hands round his arm, turned him away from the
rest, and with her black brows drawn close together, gasped under her
breath, “O, Colin, Colin, it is Maria Hatherton.”
“What! the matron?”
“Yes, the woman that has used these poor children like a savage. O, Colin,
it is frightful.”
“You should sit down, you are almost ready to faint.”
“Nothing! nothing! But the poor girls are in such a state. And that Maria
whom we taught, and—” Alison stopped.
“Did she know you?”
“I can’t tell. Perhaps; but I did not know her till the last moment.”
“I have long believed that the man that Rose recognised was Mauleverer,
but I thought the uncertainty would be bad for Ermine. What is all this?”
“You will hear. There! Listen, I can’t tell you; Lady Temple did it all,”
said Alison, trying to draw away her arm from him, and to assume the staid
governess. But he felt her trembling, and did not release her from his
support as they fanned back to the astonished group, to which, while these
few words were passing, Francis, the little bareheaded white-aproned Mary
Morris, and lastly Lady Temple, had by this time been added; and Fanny,
with quick but courteous acknowledgment of all, was singling out her
cousin.
“Oh, Rachel, dear, I did not mean it to have been so sudden or before them
all, but indeed I could not help it,” she said in her gentle, imploring
voice, “if you only saw that poor dear child’s neck.”
Rachel had little choice what she should say or do. What Fanny was saying
tenderly and privately, the two boys were communicating open-mouthed, and
Mrs. Curtis came at once with her nervous, “What is it, my dear; is it
something very sad? Those poor children look very cold, and half starved.”
“Indeed,” said Fanny, “they have been starved, and beaten, and cruelly
used. I am very sorry, Rachel, but indeed that was a dreadful woman, and I
thought Colonel Keith and Mr. Grey would tell us what ought to be done.”
“Mr. Grey!” and Mrs. Curtis turned round eagerly, with the comfort of
having some one to support her, “will you tell us what is to be done? Here
has poor dear Rachel been taken in by this wicked scheme, and these poor—”
“Mother, mother,” muttered Rachel, lashed up to desperation; “please not
out here, before the servants and every one.”
This appeal and Grace’s opening of the door had the effect of directing
every one into the hall, Mr. Grey asking Mrs. Curtis by the way, “Eh? Then
this is Rachel’s new female asylum, is it?”
“Yes, I always feared there was something odd about it. I never liked that
man, and now—Fanny, my love, what is the matter?”
In a few simple words Fanny answered that she had contrived to be left
alone with the children, and had then found signs of such shocking
ill-treatment of them, that she had thought it right to bring them away at
once.
“And you will commit those wretches. You will send them to prison at once,
Mr. Grey. They have been deceiving my poor Rachel ever so long, and
getting sums upon sums of money out of her,” said Mrs. Curtis, becoming
quite blood-thirsty.
“If there is sufficient occasion I will summon the persons concerned to
the Bench on Wednesday,” said Mr. Grey, a practical, active squire.
“Not till Wednesday!” said Mrs. Curtis, as if she thought the course of
justice very tardy. But the remembrance of Mr. Curtis’s magisterial days
came to her aid, and she continued, “but you can take all the examinations
here at once, you know; and Grace can find you a summons paper, if you
will just go into the study.”
“It might save the having the children over to-morrow, certainly,” said
Mr. Grey, and he was inducted almost passively into the leathern chair
before the library table, where Mr. Curtis had been wont to administer
justice, and Grace was diving deep into a bureau for the printed forms
long treasured there, her mother directing her, though Mr. Grey vainly
protested that any foolscap would do as well. It was a curious scene. Mrs.
Grey with her daughters had the discretion to remove themselves, but every
one else was in a state of excitement, and pressed into the room, the two
boys disputing under their breath whether the civilians called it a court
martial, and, with some confusion between mutineers and Englishwomen,
hoping the woman would be blown from the mouth of a cannon, for hadn’t she
gone and worn a cap like mamma’s? They would have referred the question to
Miss Williams, but she had been deposited by the Colonel on one of the
chairs in the furthest corner of the room, and he stood sheltering her
agitation and watching the proceedings. Lady Temple still held a hand of
each of her rescued victims, as if she feared they were still in danger,
and all the time Rachel stood and looked like a statue, unable to collect
her convictions in the hubbub, and the trust, that would have enabled her
to defy all this, swept away from her by the morning’s transactions. Yet
still there was a hope that appearances might be delusive, and an habitual
low estimate of Mr. Grey’s powers that made her set on looking with her
own eyes, not with his.
His first question was about the children’s names and their friends, and
this led to the despatching of a message to the mother and aunt. He then
inquired about the terms on which they had been placed at St. Norbert’s,
and Rachel, who was obliged to reply, felt under his clear, stringent
questions, keeping close to the point, a good deal more respect for his
powers than she had hitherto entertained. That dry way of his was rather
overwhelming. When it came to the children themselves, Rachel watched, not
without a hope that the clear masculine intellect would detect Fanny in a
more frightened woman’s fancy, and bring the F. U. E. E. off with flying
colours.
Little Mary Morris stood forth valiant and excited. She was eleven years
old, and intelligent enough to make it evident that she knew what she was
about. The replies were full. The blows were described, with terrible
detail of the occasions and implements. Still Rachel remembered the
accusation of Mary’s truth. She tried to doubt.
“I saw her with a bruised eye,” said the Colonel’s unexpected voice in a
pause. “How was that?”
“Please, sir, Mrs. Rawlins hit me with her fist because I had only done
seven sprigs. She knocked me down, and I did not come to for ever so
long.”
And not only this, and the like sad narratives, but each child bore the
marks in corroboration of the words, which were more reluctant and more
hoarse from Lovedy, but even more effective. Rachel doubted no more after
the piteous sight of those scarred shoulders, and the pinched feeble face;
but one thing was plain, namely, that Mr. Mauleverer had no share in the
cruelties. Even such severities as had been perpetrated while he was in
the house, had, Mary thought, been protested against by him, but she had
seldom seen him, he paid all his visits in the little parlour, and took no
notice of the children except to prepare the tableau for public
inspection. Mr. Grey, looking at his notes, said that there was full
evidence to justify issuing a summons against the woman for assaulting the
children, and proceeded to ask her name. Then while there was a question
whether her Christian name was known, the Colonel again said, “I believe
her name to be Maria Hatherton. Miss Williams has recognised her as a
servant who once lived in her family, and who came from her father’s
parish at Beauchamp.”
Alison on inquiry corroborated the statement, and the charge was made
against Maria Rawlins, alias Hatherton. The depositions were read over to
the children, and signed by them; with very trembling fingers by poor
little Lovedy, and Mr. Grey said he would send a policeman with the
summons early next day.
“But, Mr. Grey,” burst out Mrs. Curtis, “you don’t mean that you are not
going to do anything to that man! Why he has been worse than the woman! It
was he that entrapped the poor children, and my poor Rachel here, with his
stories of magazines and illustrations, and I don’t know what all!”
“Very true, Mrs. Curtis,” said the magistrate, “but where’s the charge
against him?”
It may be conceived how pleasant it was to the clever woman of the family
to hear her mother declaiming on the arts by which she had been duped by
this adventurer, appealing continually to Grace and Fanny, and sometimes
to herself, and all before Mr. Grey, on whose old-world prejudices she had
bestowed much more antagonism than he had thought it worth while to bestow
on her new lights. Yet, at the moment, this operation of being written
down an ass, was less acutely painful to her than the perception that was
simultaneously growing on her of the miserable condition of poor little
Lovedy, whose burning hand she held, and whose gasping breath she heard,
as the child rested feebly in the chair in which she had been placed.
Rachel had nothing vindictive or selfish in her mood, and her longing was,
above all, to get away, and minister to the poor child’s present
sufferings; but she found herself hemmed in, and pinned down by the
investigation pushed on by her mother, involving answers and explanations
that she alone could make.
Mr. Grey rubbed his forehead, and looked freshly annoyed at each
revelation of the state of things. It had not been Mauleverer, but Rachel,
who had asked subscriptions for the education of the children, he had but
acted as her servant, the counterfeit of the woodcuts, which Lady Temple
suggested, could not be construed into an offence; and it looked very much
as if, thanks to his cleverness, and Rachel’s incaution, there was really
no case to be made out against him, as if the fox had carried off the bait
without even leaving his brush behind him. Sooth to say, the failure was a
relief to Rachel, she had thrown so much of her will and entire self into
the upholding him, that she could not yet detach herself or sympathize
with those gentle souls, the mother and Fanny, in keenly hunting him down.
Might he not have been as much deceived in Mrs. Rawlins as herself? At any
rate she hoped for time to face the subject, and kneeling on the ground so
as to support little Lovedy’s sinking head on her shoulder, made the
briefest replies in her power when referred to. At last, Grace recollected
the morning’s affair of Mrs. Rossitur’s bills. Mr. Grey looked as if he
saw daylight, Grace volunteered to fetch both the account-book and Mrs.
Rossitur, and Rachel found the statement being extracted from her of the
monthly production of the bills, with the entries in the book, and of her
having given the money for their payment. Mr. Grey began to write, and she
perceived that he was taking down her deposition. She beckoned Mary to
support her poor little companion, and rising to her feet, said, to the
horror and consternation of her mother, “Mr. Grey, pray let me speak to
you!”
He rose at once, and followed her to the hall, where he looked prepared to
be kind but firm.
“Must this be done to-day?” she said.
“Why not?” he answered.
“I want time to think about it. The woman has acted like a fiend, and I
have not a word to say for her; but I cannot feel that it is fair, after
such long and entire trust of this man, to turn on him suddenly without
notice.”
“Do you mean that you will not prosecute?” said Mr. Grey, with a dozen
notes of interjection in his voice.
“I have not said so. I want time to make up my mind, and to hear what he
has to say for himself.”
“You will hear that at the Bench on Wednesday.”
“It will not be the same thing.”
“I should hope not!”
“You see,” said Rachel, perplexed and grievously wanting time to rally her
forces, “I cannot but feel that I have trusted too easily, and perhaps
been to blame myself for my implicit confidence, and after that it revolts
me to throw the whole blame on another.”
“If you have been a simpleton, does that make him an honest man?” said Mr.
Grey, impatiently.
“No,” said Rachel, “but—”
“What?”
“My credulity may have caused his dishonesty,” she said, bringing, at
last, the words to serve the idea.
“Look you here, Rachel,” said Mr. Grey, constraining himself to argue
patiently with his old friend’s daughter; “it does not simply lie between
you and him—a silly girl who has let herself be taken in by a
sharper. That would be no more than giving a sixpence to a fellow that
tells me he lost his arm at Sebastopol when he has got it sewn up in a
bag. But you have been getting subscriptions from all the world, making
yourself answerable to them for having these children educated, and then,
for want of proper superintendence, or the merest rational precaution,
leaving them to this barbarous usage. I don’t want to be hard upon you,
but you are accountable for all this; you have made yourself so, and
unless you wish to be regarded as a sharer in the iniquity, the least you
can do by way of compensation, is not to make yourself an obstruction to
the course of justice.”
“I don’t much care how I am regarded,” said Rachel, with subdued tone and
sunken head; “I only want to do right, and not act spitefully and
vindictively before he has had warning to defend himself.”
“Or to set off to delude as many equal foo—mistaken people as he can
find elsewhere! Eh, Rachel? Don’t you see, if this friend of yours be
innocent, a summons will not hurt him, it will only give him the
opportunity of clearing himself.”
“Yes, I see,” owned Rachel, and overpowered, though far from satisfied,
she allowed herself to be brought back, and did what was required of her,
to the intense relief of her mother. During her three minute conference no
one in the study had ventured on speaking or stirring, and Mrs. Curtis
would not thank her biographer for recording the wild alarms that careered
through her brain, as to the object of her daughter’s tête-à-tête with the
magistrate.
It was over at last, and the hall of justice broke up. Mary Morris was at
once in her mother’s arms, and in a few minutes more making up for all
past privations by a substantial meal in the kitchen. But Mrs. Kelland had
gone to Avoncester to purchase thread, and only her daughter Susan had
come up, the girl who was supposed to be a sort of spider, with no
capacities beyond her web. Nor did Rachel think Lovedy capable of walking
down to Mackarel Lane, nor well enough for the comfortless chairs and the
third part of a bed. No, Mr. Grey’s words that Rachel was accountable for
the children’s sufferings had gone to her heart. Pity was there and
indignation, but these had brought such an anguish of self-accusation as
she could only appease by lavishing personal care upon the chief sufferer.
She carried the child to her own sitting-room and made a couch for her
before the fire, sending Susan away with the assurance that Lovedy should
stay at the Homestead, and be nursed and fed till she was well and strong
again. Fanny, who had accompanied her, thought the child very ill, and was
urgent that the doctor should be sent for; but between Rachel and the
faculty of Avonmouth there was a deadly feud, and the proposal was
scouted. Hunger and a bad cold were easily treated, and maybe there was a
spark of consolation in having a patient all to herself and her
homœopathic book.
So Fanny and her two boys walked down the hill together in the dark.
Colonel Keith and Alison Williams had already taken the same road,
anxiously discussing the future. Alison asked why Colin had not given
Mauleverer’s alias. “I had no proof,” he said. “You were sure of the
woman, but so far it is only guess work with him; though each time Rose
spoke of seeing Maddox coincided with one of Mauleverer’s visits. Besides,
Alison, on the back of that etching in Rose’s book is written, ‘Mrs.
Williams, from her humble and obliged servant, R. Maddox.’”
“And you said nothing about it?”
“No, I wished to make myself secure, and to see my way before speaking
out.”
“What shall you do? Can you trust to Rose’s identifying him?”
“I shall ride in to-morrow to see what is going on, and judge if it will
be well to let her see this man, if he have not gone off, as I should fear
was only too likely. Poor little Lady Temple, her exploit has precipitated
matters.”
“And you will let every one, Dr. Long and all, know what a wretch they
have believed. And then—”
“Stay, Alison, I am afraid they will not take Maddox’s subsequent guilt as
a proof of Edward’s innocence.”
“It is a proof that his stories were not worth credit.”
“To you and me it is, who do not need such proof. It is possible that
among his papers something may be found that may implicate him and clear
Edward, but we can only hold off and watch. And I greatly fear both man
and woman will have slipped through our fingers, especially if she knew
you.”
“Poor Maria, who could have thought of such frightful barbarity?” sighed
Alison. “I knew she was a passionate girl, but this is worse than one can
bear to believe.”
She ceased, for she had been inexpressibly shocked, and her heart still
yearned towards every Beauchamp school child.
“I suppose we must tell Ermine,” she added; “indeed, I know I could not
help it.”
“Nor I,” he said, smiling, “though there is only too much fear that
nothing will come of it but disappointment. At least, she will tell us how
to meet that.”
CHAPTER XIX. THE BREWST SHE BREWED.
“Unwisely, not ignobly, have I given.”
Timon of Athens.
Under the circumstances of the Curtis family, no greater penance could
have been devised than the solemn dinner party which had to take place
only an hour after the investigation was closed. Grace in especial was
nearly distracted between her desire to calm her mother and to comfort her
sister, and the necessity of attending to the Grey family, who repaid
themselves for their absence from the scene of action by a torrent of
condolences and questions, whence poor Grace gathered to her horror and
consternation that the neighbourhood already believed that a tenderer
sentiment than philanthropy had begun to mingle in Rachel’s relations with
the secretary of the F. U. E. E. Feeling it incumbent on the whole family
to be as lively and indifferent as possible, Grace, having shut her
friends into their rooms to perform their toilette, hurried to her sister,
to find her so entirely engrossed with her patient as absolutely to have
forgotten the dinner party. No wonder! She had had to hunt up a housemaid
to make up a bed for Lovedy in a little room within her own, and the
undressing and bathing of the poor child had revealed injuries even in a
more painful state than those which had been shown to Mr. Grey, shocking
emaciation, and most scanty garments. The child was almost torpid, and
spoke very little. She was most unwilling to attempt to swallow; however,
Rachel thought that some of her globules had gone down, and put much faith
in them, and in warmth and sleep; but incessantly occupied, and absolutely
sickened by the sight of the child’s hurts, she looked up with loathing at
Grace’s entreaty that she would dress for the dinner.
“Impossible,” she said.
“You must, Rachel dear; indeed, you must.”
“As if I could leave her.”
“Nay, Rachel, but if you would only send—”
“Nonsense, Grace; if I can stay with her I can restore her far better than
could an allopathist, who would not leave nature to herself. O Grace, why
can’t you leave me in peace? Is it not bad enough without this?”
“Dear Rachel, I am very sorry; but if you did not come down to dinner,
think of the talk it would make.”
“Let them talk.”
“Ah, Rachel, but the mother! Think how dreadful the day’s work has been to
her; and how can she ever get through the evening if she is in a fright at
your not coming down?”
“Dinner parties are one of the most barbarous institutions of past
stupidity,” said Rachel, and Grace was reassured. She hovered over Rachel
while Rachel hovered over the sick child, and between her own exertions
and those of two maids, had put her sister into an evening dress by the
time the first carriage arrived. She then rushed to her own room, made her
own toilette, and returned to find Rachel in conference with Mrs. Kelland,
who had come home at last, and was to sit with her niece during the
dinner. Perhaps it was as well for all parties that this first interview
was cut very short, but Rachel’s burning cheeks did not promise much for
the impression of ease and indifference she was to make, as Grace’s
whispered reminders of “the mother’s” distress dragged her down stairs
among the all too curious glances of the assembled party.
All had been bustle. Not one moment for recollection had yet been
Rachel’s. Mr. Grey’s words, “Accountable for all,” throbbed in her ears
and echoed in her brain—the purple bruises, the red stripes, verging
upon sores, were before her eyes, and the lights, the flowers, the people
and their greetings, were like a dizzy mist. The space before dinner was
happily but brief, and then, as last lady, she came in as a supernumerary
on the other arm of Grace’s cavalier, and taking the only vacant chair,
found herself between a squire and Captain Keith, who had duly been
bestowed on Emily Grey.
Here there was a moment’s interval of quiet, for the squire was slightly
deaf, and, moreover, regarded her as a little pert girl, not to be
encouraged, while Captain Keith was resigned to the implied homage of the
adorer of his cross; so that, though the buzz of talk and the clatter of
knives and forks roared louder than it had ever seemed to do since she had
been a child, listening from the outside, the immediate sense of hurry and
confusion, and the impossibility of seeing or hearing anything plainly,
began to diminish. She could not think, but she began to wonder whether
any one knew what had happened; and, above all, she perfectly dreaded the
quiet sting of her neighbour’s word and eye, in this consummation of his
victory. If he glanced at her, she knew she could not bear it; and if he
never spoke to her at all, it would be marked reprehension, which would be
far better than sarcasm. He was evidently conscious of her presence; for
when, in her insatiable thirst, she had drained her own supply of water,
she found the little bottle quietly exchanged for that before him. It was
far on in the dinner before Emily’s attention was claimed by the gentleman
on her other hand, and then there was a space of silence before Captain
Keith almost made Rachel start, by saying—
“This has come about far more painfully than could have been expected.”
“I thought you would have triumphed,” she said.
“No, indeed. I feel accountable for the introduction that my sister
brought upon you.”
“It was no fault of hers,” said Rachel, sadly.
“I wish I could feel it so.”
“That was a mere chance. The rest was my own doing.”
“Aided and abetted by more than one looker-on.”
“No. It is I who am accountable,” she said, repeating Mr. Grey’s words.
“You accept the whole?”
It was his usual, cool, dry tone; but as she replied, “I must,” she
involuntarily looked up, with a glance of entreaty to be spared, and she
met those dark, grey, heavy-lidded eyes fixed on her with so much concern
as almost to unnerve her.
“You cannot,” he answered; “every bystander must rue the apathy that let
you be so cruelly deceived, for want of exertion on their part.”
“Nay,” she said; “you tried to open my eyes. I think this would have come
worse, but for this morning’s stroke.”
“Thank you,” he said, earnestly.
“I daresay you know more than I have been able to understand,” she
presently added; “it is like being in the middle of an explosion, without
knowing what stands or falls.”
“And lobster salad as an aggravation!” said he, as the dish successively
persecuted them. “This dinner is hard on you.”
“Very; but my mother would have been unhappy if I had stayed away. It is
the leaving the poor child that grieves me. She is in a fearful state,
between sore throat, starvation, and blows.”
The picture of the effect of the blows coming before Rachel at that
moment, perilled her ability even to sit through the dinner; but her
companion saw the suddening whitening of her cheek, and by a dexterous
signal at once caused her glass to be filled. Habit was framing her lips
to say something about never drinking wine; but somehow she felt a certain
compulsion in his look, and her compliance restored her. She returned to
the subject, saying, “But it was only the woman that was cruel.”
“She had not her Sepoy face for nothing.”
“Did I hear that Miss Williams knew her?”
“Yes, it seems she was a maid who had once been very cruel to little Rose
Williams. The Colonel seems to think the discovery may have important
consequences. I hardly know how.”
This conversation sent Rachel out of the dining-room more like herself
than she had entered it; but she ran upstairs at once to Lovedy, and
remained with her till disinterred by the desperate Grace, who could not
see three people talking together without blushing with indignation at the
construction they were certainly putting on her sister’s scarlet cheeks
and absence from the drawing-room. With all Grace’s efforts, however, she
could not bring her truant back before the gentlemen had come in. Captain
Keith had seen their entrance, and soon came up to Rachel.
“How is your patient?” he asked.
“She is very ill; and the worst of it is, that it seems such agony to her
to attempt to swallow.”
“Have you had advice for her?”
“No; I have often treated colds, and I thought this a case, aggravated by
that wicked treatment.”
“Have you looked into her mouth?”
“Yes; the skin is frightfully brown and dry.”
He leant towards her, and asked, in an under tone—
“Did you ever see diphtheria?”
“No!”—her brow contracting—“did you?”
“Yes; we had it through all the children of the regiment at Woolwich.”
“You think this is it?”
He asked a few more questions, and his impression was evidently confirmed.
“I must send for Mr. Frampton,” said Rachel, homeopathy succumbing to her
terror; but then, with a despairing glance, she beheld all the male part
of the establishment handing tea.
“Where does he live? I’ll send him up.”
“Thank you, oh! thank you. The house with the rails, under the east
cliff.”
He was gone, and Rachel endured the reeling of the lights, and the surges
of talk, and the musical performances that seemed to burst the drum of her
ear; and, after all, people went away, saying to each other that there was
something very much amiss, and that poor dear Mrs. Curtis was very much to
blame for not having controlled her daughters.
They departed at last, and Grace, without uttering the terrible word, was
explaining to the worn-out mother that little Lovedy was more unwell, and
that Captain Keith had kindly offered to fetch the doctor, when the
Captain himself returned.
“I am sorry to say that Mr. Frampton is out, not likely to be at home till
morning, and his partner is with a bad accident at Avonford. The best plan
will be for me to ride back to Avoncester, and send out Macvicar, our
doctor. He is a kind-hearted man, of much experience in this kind of
thing.”
“But you are not going back,” said polite Mrs. Curtis, far from taking in
the urgency of the case. “You were to sleep at Colonel Keith’s. I could
not think of your taking the trouble.”
“I have settled that with the Colonel, thank you. My dog-cart will be here
directly.”
“I can only say, thank you,” said Rachel, earnestly. “But is there nothing
to be done in the meantime? Do you know the treatment?”
He knew enough to give a few directions, which revealed to poor Mrs.
Curtis the character of the disease.
“That horrible new sore throat! Oh, Rachel, and you have been hanging over
her all this time!”
“Indeed,” said Alick Keith, coming to her. “I think you need not be
alarmed. The complaint seems to me to depend on the air and locality. I
have been often with people who had it.”
“And not caught it?”
“No; though one poor little fellow, our piper’s son, would not try to take
food from any one else, and died at last on my knee. I do not believe it
is infectious in that way.”
And hearing his carriage at the door, he shook hands, and hurried off,
Mrs. Curtis observing—
“He really is a very good young man. But oh, Rachel, my dear, how could
you bring her here?”
“I did not know, mother. Any way it is better than her being in Mrs.
Kelland’s hive of children.”
“You are not going back to her, Rachel, I entreat!”
“Mother, I must. You heard what Captain Keith said. Let that comfort you.
It would be brutal cruelty and cowardice to stay away from her to night.
Good night, Grace, make mother see that it must be so.”
She went, for poor Mrs. Curtis could not withstand her; and only turned
with tearful eyes to her elder daughter to say, “You do not go into the
room again, Grace, I insist.”
Grace could not bear to leave Rachel to the misery of such a vigil, and
greatly reproached herself for the hurry that had prevented her from
paying any heed to the condition of the child in her anxiety to make her
sister presentable; but Mrs. Curtis was in a state of agitation that
demanded all the care and tenderness of this “mother’s child,” and the
sharing her room and bed made it impossible to elude the watchfulness that
nervously guarded the remaining daughter.
It was eleven o’clock when Alexander Keith drove from the door. It was a
moonlight night, and he was sure to spare no speed, but he could hardly be
at Avoncester within an hour and a half, and the doctor would take at
least two in coming out. Mrs. Kelland was the companion of Rachel’s watch.
The woman was a good deal subdued. The strangeness of the great house
tamed her, and she was shocked and frightened by the little girl’s state
as well as by the young lady’s grave, awe-struck, and silent manner.
They tried all that Captain Keith had suggested, but the child was too
weak and spent to inhale the steam of vinegar, and the attempts to make
her swallow produced fruitless anguish. They could not discover how long
it was since she had taken any nourishment, and they already knew what a
miserable pittance hers had been at the best. Mrs. Kelland gave her up at
once, and protested that she was following her mother, and that there was
death in her face. Rachel made an imperious gesture of silence, and was
obeyed so far as voice went, but long-drawn sighs and shakes of the head
continued to impress on her the aunt’s hopelessness, throughout the
endeavours to change the position, the moistening of the lips, the
attempts at relief in answer to the choked effort to cough, the weary,
faint moan, the increasing faintness and exhaustion.
One o’clock struck, and Mrs. Kelland said, in a low, ominous voice, “It is
the turn of the night, Miss Rachel. You had best leave her to me.”
“I will never leave her,” said Rachel impatiently.
“You are a young lady, Miss Rachel, you ain’t used to the like of this.”
“Hark!” Rachel held up her finger.
Wheels were crashing up the hill. The horrible responsibility was over,
the immediate terror gone, help seemed to be coming at the utmost speed,
and tears of relief rushed into Rachel’s eyes, tears that Lovedy must have
perceived, for she spoke the first articulate words she had uttered since
the night-watch had begun, “Please, ma’am, don’t fret, I’m going to poor
mother.”
“You will be better now, Lovedy, here is the doctor,” said Rachel, though
conscious that this was not the right thing, and then she hastened out on
the stairs to meet the gaunt old Scotsman and bring him in. He made Mrs.
Kelland raise the child, examined her mouth, felt her feet and hands,
which were fast becoming chill, and desired the warm flannels still to be
applied to them.
“Cannot her throat be operated on?” said Rachel, a tremor within her
heart. “I think we could both be depended on if you wanted us.”
“She is too far gone, poor lassie,” was the answer; “it would be mere
cruelty to torment her. You had better go and lie down, Miss Curtis; her
mother and I can do all she is like to need.”
“Is she dying?”
“I doubt if she can last an hour longer. The disease is in an advanced
state, and she was in too reduced a state to have battled with it, even
had it been met earlier.”
“As it should have been! Twice her destroyer!” sighed Rachel, with a
bursting heart, and again the kind doctor would have persuaded her to
leave the room, but she turned from him and came back to Lovedy, who had
been roused by what had been passing, and had been murmuring something
which had set her aunt off into sobs.
“She’s saying she’ve been a bad girl to me, poor lamb, and I tell her not
to think of it! She knows it was for her good, if she had not been set
against her work.”
Dr. Macvicar authoritatively hushed the woman, but Lovedy looked up with
flushed cheeks, and the blue eyes that had been so often noticed for their
beauty. The last flush of fever had come to finish the work.
“Don’t fret,” she said, “there’s no one to beat me up there! Please, the
verse about the tears.”
Dr. Macvicar and the child both looked towards Rachel, but her whole
memory seemed scared away, and it was the old Scotch army surgeon that
repeated—
“‘The Lord God shall wipe off tears from all eyes.’ Ah! poor little one,
you are going from a world that has been full of woe to you.”
“Oh, forgive me, forgive me, my poor child,” said Rachel, kneeling by her,
the tears streaming down silently.
“Please, ma’am, don’t cry,” said the little girl feebly; “you were very
good to me. Please tell me of my Saviour,” she added to Rachel. It sounded
like set phraseology, and she knew not how to begin; but Dr. Macvicar’s
answer made the lightened look come back, and the child was again heard to
whisper—“Ah! I knew they scourged Him—for me.”
This was the last they did hear, except the sobbing breaths, ever more
convulsive. Rachel had never before been present with death, and awe and
dismay seemed to paralyse her whole frame. Even the words of hope and
prayer for which the child’s eyes craved from both her fellow-watchers
seemed to her a strange tongue, inefficient to reach the misery of this
untimely mortal agony, this work of neglect and cruelty—and she the
cause.
Three o’clock had struck before the last painful gasp had been drawn, and
Mrs. Kelland’s sobbing cry broke forth. Dr. Macvicar told Rachel that the
child was at rest. She shivered from head to foot, her teeth chattered,
and she murmured, “Accountable for all.”
Dr. Macvicar at once made her swallow some of the cordial brought for the
poor child, and then summoning the maid whom Grace had stationed in the
outer room, he desired her to put her young mistress to bed without loss
of time. The sole remaining desire of which she was conscious was to be
alone and in the dark, and she passively submitted.
CHAPTER XX. THE SARACEN’S HEAD.
“Alas, he thought, how changed that mien,
How changed those timid looks have been,
Since years of guilt and of disguise
Have steeled her brow and armed her eyes.”
Marmion.
“Are you sleepy, Rose? What a yawn!”
“Not sleepy, Aunt Ailie; only it is such a tiresome long day when the
Colonel does not come in.”
“Take care, Rosie; I don’t know what we shall be good for at this rate.”
“We? O Aunt Ermine, then you think it tiresome too. I know you do—”
“What’s that, Rose?”
“It is! it is! I’ll open the door for him.”
The next moment Rose led her Colonel in triumph into the lamp-light. There
was a bright light in his eye, and yet he looked pale, grave, and worn;
and Ermine’s first observation was—
“How came Tibbie to let you out at this time of night?”
“I have not ventured to encounter Tibbie at all. I drove up to your door.”
“You have been at St. Norbert’s all this time,” exclaimed Alison.
“Do you think no one can carry on a campaign at St. Norbert’s but yourself
and your generalissima, Miss Ailie?” he said, stroking down Rose’s brown
hair.
“Then, if you have not gone home, you have had nothing to eat, and that is
the reason you look so tired,” said Ermine.
“Yes; I had some luncheon at the Abbey.”
“Then, at any rate, you shall have some tea. Rosie, run and fetch the
little kettle.”
“And the Beauchamp cup and saucer,” added Rose, proudly producing the
single relic of a well-remembered set of olden times. “And please, please,
Aunt Ermine, let me sit up to make it for him. I have not seen him all
day, you know; and it is the first time he ever drank tea in our house,
except make-believe with Violetta and Colinette.”
“No, Rose. Your aunt says I spoil that child, and I am going to have my
revenge upon you. You must see the wild beast at his meals another time;
for it just happens that I have a good deal to say to your aunts, and it
is not intended for your ears.”
Rose showed no signs of being spoilt, for she only entreated to be allowed
“just to put the tea-things in order,” and then, winking very hard, she
said she would go.
“Here, Rose, if you please,” said Ermine, clearing the space of table
before her.
“Why, Aunt Ermine, I did not know you could make tea!”
“There are such things as extraordinary occasions, Rose. Now, good night,
my sweet one.”
“Good night, my Lady Discretion. We will make up for it one of these days.
Don’t stay away, pray, Ailie,” as Alison was following the child. “I have
nothing to say till you come back.”
“I know it is good news,” said Ermine; “but it has cost you something,
Colin.”
Instead of answering, he received his cup from her, filled up her tea-pot,
and said—
“How long is it since you poured out tea for me, Ermine?”
“Thirteen years next June, when you and Harry used to come in from the
cricket field, so late and hot that you were ashamed to present yourself
in civilized society at the Great House.”
“As if nobody from the Parsonage ever came down to look on at the
cricket.”
“Yes; being summoned by all the boys to see that nothing would teach a
Scotchman cricket.”
“Ah! you have got the last word, for here comes Ailie.”
“Of course,” said Alison, coming in; “Ermine has had the pith of the
story, so I had better ask at once what it is.”
“That the Beauchamp Eleven beat Her Majesty’s —th Foot on Midsummer
Day, 1846, is the pith of what I have as yet heard,” said Ermine.
“And that Beauchamp ladies are every whit as full of mischief as they used
to be in those days, is the sum of what I have told,” added Colin.
“Yes,” said Ermine, “he has most loyally kept his word of reserving all
for you. He has not even said whether Mauleverer is taken.”
“My story is grave and sad enough,” said Colin, laying aside all his
playfulness, and a serious expression coming over his features; but, at
the same time, the landlady’s sandy cat, which, like all other animals,
was very fond of him, and had established herself on his knee as soon as
Rose had left it vacant, was receiving a certain firm, hard, caressing
stroking, which resulted in vehement purrs on her part, and was evidently
an outlet of suppressed exaltation.
“Is he the same?” asked Alison.
“All in due time; unless, like Miss Rachel, you wish to tell me my story
yourselves. By-the-bye, how is that poor girl to-day?”
“Thoroughly knocked down. There is a sort of feverish lassitude about her
that makes them very anxious. They were hoping to persuade her to see Mr.
Frampton when Lady Temple heard last.”
“Poor thing! it has been a sad affair for her. Well, I told you I should
go over this morning and see Mr. Grey, and judge if anything could be
done. I got to the Abbey at about eleven o’clock, and found the policeman
had just come back after serving the summons, with the news that
Mauleverer was gone.”
“Gone!”
“Clean gone! Absconded from his lodgings, and left no traces behind him.
But, as to the poor woman, the policeman reported that she had been left
in terrible distress, with the child extremely ill, and not a penny, not a
thing to eat in the house. He came back to ask Mr. Grey what was to be
done; and as the suspicion of diphtheria made every one inclined to fight
shy of the house, I thought I had better go down and see what was to be
done. I knocked a good while in vain; but at last she looked out of
window, and I told her I only wanted to know what could be done for her
child, and would send a doctor. Then she told me how to open the door.
Poor thing! I found her the picture of desolation, in the midst of the
dreary kitchen, with the child gasping on her lap; all the pretence of
widowhood gone, and her hair hanging loose about her face, which was quite
white with hunger, and her great eyes looked wild, like the glare of a
wild beast’s in a den. I spoke to her by her own name, and she started and
trembled, and said, ‘Did Miss Alison tell you?’ I said, ‘Yes,’ and
explained who I was, and she caught me up half way: ‘O yes, yes, my lady’s
nephew, that was engaged to Miss Ermine!’ And she looked me full and
searchingly in the face, Ermine, when I answered ‘Yes.’ Then she almost
sobbed, ‘And you are true to her;’ and put her hands over her face in an
agony. It was a very strange examination on one’s constancy, and I put an
end to it by asking if she had any friends at home that I could write to
for her; but she cast that notion from her fiercely, and said she had no
friend, no one. He had left her to her fate, because the child was too ill
to be moved. And indeed the poor child was in such a state that there was
no thinking of anything else, and I went at once to find a doctor and a
nurse.”
“Diphtheria again?”
“Yes; and she, poor thing, was in no state to give it the resolute care
that is the only chance. Doctors could be easily found, but I was at my
wit’s end for a nurse, till I remembered that Mr. Mitchell had told me of
a Sisterhood that have a Home at St. Norbert’s, with a nursing
establishment attached to it. So, in despair, I went there, and begged to
see the Superior, and a most kind and sensible lady I found her, ready to
do anything helpful. She lent me a nice little Sister, rather young, I
thought; but who turned out thoroughly efficient, nearly as good as a
doctor. Still, whether the child lives is very doubtful, though the mother
was full of hope when I went in last. She insisted that I had saved it,
when both she and it had been deserted by Maddox, for whom she had given
up everything.”
“Then she owned that he was Maddox?”
“She called him so, without my even putting the question to her. She had
played his game long enough; and now his desertion has evidently put an
end to all her regard for him. It was confusedly and shortly told; the
child was in a state that prevented attention being given to anything
else; but she knows that she had been made a tool of to ruin her master
and you, and the sight of you, Ailie, had evidently stirred up much old
affection, and remembrance of better days.”
“Is she his wife?”
“No, or the evidence she promises could not be used against him. Do you
know this, Ermine?” as he gave her a cover, with a seal upon it.
“The Saracen! the Saracen’s head, Colin; it was made with the lost
seal-ring!”
“The ring was taken from Edward’s dressing-room the night when Rose was
frightened with the phosphorus. Maria declares that she did not suspect
the theft, or Maddox’s purpose, till long after she had left her place. He
effected his practices under pretence of attachment to her, and then could
not shake her off. She went abroad with him after the settlement of
affairs; but he could not keep out of gambling speculation, and lost
everything. Then he seems to have larked about, obtaining means she knew
not how—as artist, lecturer, and what not—till the notable F.
U. E. E. was started. Most likely he would have collected the
subscriptions and made off with them, if Rachel Curtis had not had just
sense enough to trust him with nothing without seeing some result, so that
he was forced to set the affair going with Maria at its head, as the only
person who could co-operate with him. They kept themselves ready for a
start whenever there should be symptoms of a discovery, but, in the
meantime, he gambled away all that he got into his hands, and never gave
her enough to feed the children. Thus she was absolutely driven to force
work from them for subsistence; and she is a passionate creature, whom
jealousy embittered more and more, so that she became more savage than she
knew. Poor thing! She has her punishment. Maddox only came home,
yesterday, too late for any train before the mail, and by that time the
child was too ill to be moved. He must have thought it all up with him,
and wished to be rid of both, for they quarrelled, and he left her to her
misery.”
“What, gone?”
“Yes, but she told us of his haunts—haunts that he thought she did
not know—a fancy shop, kept by a Mrs. Dench at Bristol, where it
seems that he plays the philanthropical lecturer, and probably has been
trying to secure a snug berth for himself unknown, as he thought, to
Maria; but she pried into his letters, and kept a keen watch upon him. He
was to be inquired for there by his Mauleverer name, and, I have little
doubt, will be captured.”
“And then?”
“He will be committed for trial at the sessions; and, in the meantime, I
must see Beauchamp and Dr. Long, and arrange that he should be prosecuted
for the forgery, even though he should slip through our fingers at the
sessions.”
“Oh, could that be?”
“This Clever Woman has managed matters so sweetly, that they might just as
well try her as him for obtaining money on false pretences; and the man
seems to have been wonderfully sharp in avoiding committing himself. Mrs.
Curtis’s man of business has been trying all day to get up the case, but
he has made out nothing but a few more debts such as that which turned up
yesterday; and it is very doubtful how far a case can be made out against
him.”
“And then we should lose him.”
“That is exactly what I wish to avoid. I want to bring up my forces at
once, and have him laid hold of at once for the forgery of those letters
of Edward’s. How long would it take to hear from Ekaterinburg? I suppose
Edward could travel as fast as a letter.”
Alison fairly sprang to her feet.
“O, Colin, Colin! you do not think that Edward would be here by the next
sessions.”
“He ought,” said Colin. “I hope to induce Dr. Long and Harry to write him
such letters as to bring him home at once.”
Self-restrained Alison was fairly overcome. She stretched out both hands,
pressed Colin’s convulsively, then turned away her face, and, bursting
into tears, ran out of the room.
“Poor dear Ailie,” said Ermine; “she has suffered terribly. Her heart is
full of Edward. Oh, I hope he will come.”
“He must. He cannot be so senseless as to stay away.”
“There is that unfortunate promise to his wife; and I fear that he is
become so much estranged from English ways that he will hardly care to set
himself straight here, after the pain that the universal suspicion gave
him.”
“He cannot but care. For the sake of all he must care,” vehemently
repeated Colin, with the punctilious honour of the nobly-born soldier.
“For his child’s sake, this would be enough to bring him from his grave.
If he refused to return to the investigation, it would be almost enough to
make me doubt him.”
“I am glad you said almost,” said Ermine, trying to smile; but he had
absolutely brought tears into her eyes.
“Dear Ermine,” he said, gently, “you need not fear my not trusting him to
the utmost. I know that he has been too much crushed to revive easily, and
that it may not be easy to make him appreciate our hopes from such a
distance; but I think such a summons as this must bring him.”
“I hope it will,” said Ermine. “Otherwise we should not deserve that you
should have any more to do with us.”
“Ermine, Ermine, do you not know that nothing can make any difference
between us?”
Ermine had collected herself while he spoke.
“I know,” she said, “that all you are doing makes me thank and bless you—oh!
more than I can speak.”
He looked wistfully at her, but, tearful as were her eyes, there was a
resolution, about her face that impressed upon him that she trusted to his
promise of recurring no more within the year to the subject so near his
heart; and he could say no more than, “You forgive me, Ermine; you know I
trust him as you do.”
“I look to your setting him above being only trusted,” said Ermine, trying
to smile. “Oh! if you knew what this ray of hope is in the dreary darkness
that has lasted so long!”
Therewith he was obliged to leave her, and she only saw him for a few
minutes in the morning, when he hurried in to take leave, since, if
matters went right at the magistrates’ bench, he intended to proceed at
once to make such representations in person to Mr. Beauchamp and Dr. Long,
as might induce them to send an urgent recall to Edward in time for the
spring sessions, and for this no time must be lost. Ermine remained then
alone with Rose, feeling the day strangely long and lonely, and that,
perhaps, its flatness might be a preparation for the extinction of all the
brightness that had of late come into her life. Colin had said he would
trust as she did, but those words had made her aware that she must trust
as he did. If he, with his clear sense and kindly insight into Edward’s
character, became convinced that his absence proceeded from anything worse
than the mere fainthearted indifference that would not wipe off a blot,
then Ermine felt that his judgment would carry her own along with it, and
that she should lose her undoubting faith in her brother’s perfect
innocence, and in that case her mind was made up; Colin might say and do
what he would, but she would never connect him through herself with
deserved disgrace. The parting, after these months of intercourse and
increased knowlege of one another, would be infinitely more wretched than
the first; but, cost her what it would—her life perhaps—the
break should be made rather than let his untainted name be linked with one
where dishonour justly rested. But with her constant principle of
abstinence from dwelling on contingencies, she strove to turn away her
mind, and to exert herself; though this was no easy task, especially on so
solitary a day as this, while Alison was in charge at Myrtlewood in Lady
Temple’s absence, and Rachel Curtis was reported far too ill to leave her
room, so that Ermine saw no one all day except her constant little
companion; nor was it till towards evening that Alison at length made her
appearance, bringing a note which Colin had sent home by Lady Temple.
All had so far gone well. Maria Hatherton had been committed to take her
trial at the quarter sessions for the assault upon the children; but, as
her own little girl was still living, though in extreme danger, and the
Sisters promised to take charge of both for the present, Colonel Keith had
thought it only common humanity to offer bail, and this had been accepted.
Later in the day Mauleverer himself had been brought down, having been
taken up at a grand meeting of his Bristol friends, who had all rallied
round him, expressing strong indignation at the accusation, and offering
evidence as to character. He denied any knowledge of the name of Maddox,
and declared that he was able to prove that his own account of himself as
a popular, philanthropical lecturer was perfectly correct; and he
professed to be much amazed at the charges brought against him, which
could only have arisen from some sudden alarm in the young lady’s mind,
excited by her friends, whom he had always observed to be prejudiced
against him. He appealed strongly against the hardship of being imprisoned
on so slight a charge; but, as he could find no one to take his part, he
reserved his defence for the quarter sessions, for which he was fully
committed. Colin thought, however, that it was so doubtful whether the
charges against him could be substantiated, that it was highly necessary
to be fully prepared to press the former forgery against him, and had
therefore decided upon sleeping at St. Norbert’s and going on by an early
train to obtain legal advice in London, and then to see Harry Beauchamp.
Meantime, Ermine must write to her brother as urgently as possible,
backing up Colin’s own representations of the necessity of his return.
Ermine read eagerly, but Alison seemed hardly able to command her
attention to listen, and scarcely waited for the end of the letter before
her own disclosure was made. Francis was sickening with diphtheria; he had
been left behind in the morning on account of some outbreak of
peevishness, and Alison, soon becoming convinced that temper was not
solely in fault, had kept him apart from his brothers, and at last had
sent for the doctor, who had at once pronounced it to be the same deadly
complaint which had already declared itself in Rachel Curtis. Alison had
of course devoted herself to the little boy till his mother’s return from
St. Norbert’s, when she had been obliged to give the first intimation of
what the price of the loving little widow’s exploit might be. “I don’t
think she realizes the extent of the illness,” said Alison; “say what I
would, she would keep on thanking me breathlessly, and only wanting to
escape to him. I asked if we should send to let Colin know, and she
answered in her dear, unselfish way, ‘By no means, it would be safer for
him to be out of the way;’ and, besides, she knew how much depended on his
going.”
“She is right,” said Ermine; “I am thankful that he is out of reach of
trying to take a share in the nursing, it is bad enough to have one in the
midst!”
“Yes,” said Alison. “Lady Temple cannot be left to bear this grievous
trouble alone, and when the Homestead cannot help her. Yet, Ermine, what
can be done? Is it safe for you and Rose?”
“Certainly not safe that you should come backwards and forwards,” said
Ermine. “Rose must not be put in danger; so, dear, dear Ailie, you had
better take your things up, and only look in on us now and then at the
window.”
Alison entirely broke down. “Oh, Ermine, Ermine, since you began to mend,
not one night have we been apart!”
“Silly child,” said Ermine, straining her quivering voice to be cheerful,
“I am strong, and Rose is my best little handmaid.”
“I know it is right,” said Alison, “I could not keep from my boys, and,
indeed, now Colin is gone, I do not think any one at Myrtlewood will have
the heart to carry out the treatment. It will almost kill that dear young
mother to see it. No, they cannot be left; but oh, Ermine, it is like
choosing between you and them.”
“Not at all, it is choosing between right and wrong.”
“And Ermine, if—if I should be ill, you must not think of coming
near me. Rose must not be left alone.”
“There is no use in talking of such things,” said Ermine, resolutely, “let
us think of what must be thought of, not of what is in the only Wise
Hands. What has been done about the other children?”
“I have kept them away from the first; I am afraid for none of them but
Conrade.”
“It would be the wisest way to send them, nurses and all, to Gowanbrae.”
“Wise, but cool,” said Alison.
“I will settle that,” returned Ermine. “Tibbie shall come and invite them,
and you must make Lady Temple consent.”
The sisters durst not embrace, but gazed at one another, feeling that it
might be their last look, their hearts swelling with unspoken prayer, but
their features so restrained that neither might unnerve the other. Then it
was that Alison, for the first time, felt absolute relief in the
knowledge, once so bitter, that she had ceased to be the whole world to
her sister. And Ermine, for one moment, felt as if it would be a way out
of all troubles and perplexities if the two sisters could die together,
and leave little Rose to be moulded by Colin to be all he wished; but she
resolutely put aside the future, and roused herself to send a few words in
pencil, requesting Tibbie to step in and speak to her.
That worthy personage had fully adopted her, and entering, tall and
stately, in her evening black silk and white apron, began by professing
her anxiety to be any assistance in her power, saying, “she’d be won’erfu’
proud to serve Miss Williams, while her sister was sae thrang waitin’ on
her young scholar in his sair trouble.”
Emmie thanked her, and rejoiced that the Colonel was out of harm’s way.
“Deed, aye, ma’am, he’s weel awa’. He has sic a wark wi’ thae laddies an’
their bit bairn o’ a mither, I’ll no say he’d been easy keepit out o’ the
thick o’ the distress, an’ it’s may be no surprisin’, after a’ that’s come
and gane, that he seeks to take siccan a lift of the concern. I’ve mony a
time heard tell that the auld General, Sir Stephen, was as good as a
faither to him, when he was sick an’ lonesome, puir lad, in yon far awa’
land o’ wild beasts an’ savages.”
“Would it not be what he might like, to take in the children out of the
way of infection?”
“’Deed, Miss Ermine,” with a significant curtsey, “I’m thinkin’ ye ken my
maister Colin amaist as weel as I do. He’s the true son of his forbears,
an’ Gowanbrae used to be always open in the auld lord’s time, that’s his
grandfather Foreby, that he owes so much kindness to the General.”
Ermine further suggested that it was a pity to wait for a letter from the
Colonel, and Tibbie quite agreed. She “liked the nurse as an extraordinar’
douce woman, not like the fine English madams that Miss Isabel—that’s
Mrs. Comyn Menteith—put about her bairns; and as to room, the
sergeant and the tailor bodie did not need much, and the masons were only
busy in the front parlour.”
“Masons?” asked Ermine.
“On, aye? didna ye ken it’s for the new room, that is to be built out frae
the further parlour, and what they ca’ the bay to the drawin’-room, just
to mak’ the house more conformable like wi’ his name and forbears. I never
thocht but that ye’d surely seen the plans and a’, Miss Ermine, an’ if so
be it was Maister Colin’s pleasure the thing suld be private, I’m real
vext to hae said a word; but ye’ll may be no let on to him, ma’am, that ye
ken onything about it.”
“Those down-stairs rooms so silently begun,” thought Ermine. “How fixed
his intention must be? Oh, how will it end? What would be best for him?
And how can I think of myseif, while all, even my Ailie, are in distress
and danger?”
Ermine had, however, a good deal to think of, for not only had she Colin’s
daily letter to answer, but she had Conrade, Leoline, and Hubert with her
for several hours every day, and could not help being amused by Rose’s
ways with them, little grown-up lady as she was compared to them. Luckily
girls were such uncommon beings with them as to be rather courted than
despised, and Rose, having nothing of the tom-boy, did not forfeit the
privileges of her sex. She did not think they compensated for her
Colonel’s absence, and never durst introduce Violetta to them; but she
enjoyed and profited by the contact with childhood, and was a very nice
little comforter to Conrade when he was taken with a fit of anxiety for
the brother whom he missed every moment.
Quarantine weighed, however, most heavily upon poor Grace Curtis. Rachel
had from the first insisted that she should be kept out of her room; and
the mother’s piteous entreaty always implied that saddest argument, “Why
should I be deprived of you both in one day?” So Grace found herself
condemned to uselessness almost as complete as Ermine’s. She could only
answer notes, respond to inquiries, without even venturing far enough from
the house to see Ermine, or take out the Temple children for a walk. For
indeed, Rachel’s state was extremely critical.
The feverish misery that succeeded Lovedy’s death had been utterly
crushing, the one load of self-accusation had prostrated her, but with a
restlessness of agony, that kept her writhing as it were in her
wretchedness; and then came the gradual increase of physical suffering,
bearing in upon her that she had caught the fatal disorder. To her sense
of justice, and her desire to wreak vengeance on herself, the notion might
be grateful; but the instinct of self-preservation was far stronger. She
could not die. The world here, the world to come, were all too dark, too
confused, to enable her to bear such a doom. She saw her peril in her
mother’s face; in the reiterated visits of the medical man, whom she no
longer spurned; in the calling in of the Avoncester physician; in the
introduction of a professional nurse, and the strong and agonizing
measures to which she had to submit, every time with the sensation that
the suffering could not possibly be greater without exceeding the powers
of endurance.
Then arose the thought that with weakness she should lose all chance of
expressing a wish, and, obtaining pencil and paper, she began to write a
charge to her mother and sister to provide for Mary Morris; but in the
midst there came over her the remembrance of the papers that she had
placed in Mauleverer’s hands—the title-deeds of the Burnaby Bargain;
an estate that perhaps ought to be bringing in as much as half the rental
of the property. It must be made good to the poor. If the title-deeds had
been sold to any one who could claim the property, what would be the
consequence? She felt herself in a mist of ignorance and perplexity;
dreading the consequences, yet feeling as if her own removal might leave
her fortune free to make up for them. She tried to scrawl an explanation;
but mind and fingers were alike unequal to the task, and she desisted just
as fresh torture began at the doctor’s hands—torture from which they
sent her mother away, and that left her exhausted, and despairing of
holding out through a repetition.
And then—and then! “Tell me of my Saviour,” the dying child had
said; and the drawn face had lightened at the words to which Rachel’s
oracles declared that people attached crude or arbitrary meanings; and now
she hardly knew what they conveyed to her, and longed, as for something
far away, for the reality of those simple teachings—once realities,
now all by rote! Saved by faith! What was faith? Could all depend on a
last sensation? And as to her life. Failure, failure through headstrong
blindness and self-will, resulting in the agony of the innocent. Was this
ground of hope? She tried to think of progress and purification beyond the
grave; but this was the most speculative, insecure fabric of all. There
was no habit of trust to it—no inward conviction, no outward
testimony. And even when the extreme danger subsided, and Francis Temple
was known to be better, Rachel found that her sorrow was not yet ended:
for Conrade had been brought home with the symptoms of the complaint—Conrade,
the most beloved and loving of Fanny’s little ones, the only one who
really remembered his father, was in exceeding, almost hopeless peril,
watched day and night by his mother and Miss Williams.
The little Alice, Maria Hatherton’s own child, had lingered and struggled
long, but all the care and kindness of the good Sisters at St. Norbert’s
had been unavailing, she had sunk at last, and the mother remained in a
dull, silent, tearless misery, quietly doing all that was required of her,
but never speaking nor giving the ladies any opening to try to make an
impression upon her.
Rachel gleaned more intelligence than her mother meant her to obtain, and
brooded over it in her weakness and her silence.
Recovery is often more trying than illness, and Rachel suffered greatly.
Indeed, she was not sure that she ought to have recovered at all, and
perhaps the shock to her nerves and spirits was more serious than the
effect of the sharp passing disorder, which had, however, so much weakened
her that she succumbed entirely to the blow. “Accountable for all,” the
words still rang in her ears, and the all for which she was accountable
continually magnified itself. She had tied a dreadful knot, which Fanny,
meek contemned Fanny had cut, but at the cost of grievous suffering and
danger to her boys, and too late to prevent that death which continually
haunted Rachel; those looks of convulsive agony came before her in all her
waking and sleeping intervals. Nothing put them aside, occupation in her
weakness only bewildered and distracted her, and even though she was
advancing daily towards convalescence, leaving her room, and being again
restored to her sister, she still continued listless, dejected, cast down,
and unable to turn her mind from this one dreary contemplation. Of Fanny
and her sons it was hardly possible to think, and one of the strange
perturbations of the mind in illness caused her to dwell far less on them
than on the minor misery of the fate of the title-deeds of the Burnaby
Bargain, which she had put into Mauleverer’s hand. She fancied their
falling into the hands of some speculator, who, if he did not break the
mother’s heart by putting up a gasometer, would certainly wring it by
building hideous cottages, or desirable marine residences. The value would
be enhanced so as to be equal to more than half that of the Homestead, the
poor would have been cheated of it, and what compensation could be made?
Give up all her own share? Nay, she had nothing absolutely her own while
her mother lived, only £5,000 was settled on her if she married, and she
tortured herself with devising plans that she knew to be impracticable, of
stripping herself, and going forth to suffer the poverty she merited. Yes,
but how would she have lived? Not like the Williamses! She had tried
teaching like the one, and writing like the other, but had failed in both.
The Clever Woman had no marketable or available talent. She knew very well
that nothing would induce her mother and sister to let her despoil
herself, but to have injured them would be even more intolerable; and more
than all was the sickening uncertainty, whether any harm had been done, or
what would be its extent.
Ignorant of such subjects at the best, her brain was devoid of force even
to reason out her own conjectures, or to decide what must be impossible.
She felt compelled to keep all to herself; to alarm her mother was out of
the question, when Mrs. Curtis was distressed and shaken enough already,
and to have told Grace would only have brought her soothing promises of
sharing the burthen—exactly what she did not want—and would
have led to the fact being known to the family man of business, Mr. Cox,
the very last person to whom Rachel wished to confess the proceeding. It
was not so much the humiliation of owning to him such a fatal act of
piracy upon his province, as because she believed him to have been the
cause that the poor had all this time been cheated of the full value of
the estate. He had complacently consulted the welfare of the Curtis
family, by charging them with the rent of the fields as ordinary grass
land, and it had never dawned on him that it would be only just to
increase the rent. Rachel had found him an antagonist to every scheme she
had hatched, ever since she was fifteen years old, her mother obeyed him
with implicit faith, and it was certain that if the question were once in
his hands, he would regard it as his duty to save the Curtis funds, and
let the charity sink or swim. And he was the only person out of the house
whom Rachel had seen.
As soon as—or rather before—she could bear it, the first day
that her presence was supposed not to be perilous to others, she was
obliged to have an interview with him, to enable him to prepare the case
for the quarter sessions. Nothing could be much worse for her nerves and
spirits, but even the mother was absolutely convinced of the necessity,
and Rachel was forced to tax her enfeebled powers to enable her to give
accurate details of her relations with Mauleverer, and enable him to judge
of the form of the indictment. Once or twice she almost sunk back from the
exceeding distastefulness of the task, but she found herself urged on, and
when she even asked what would happen if she were not well enough to
appear, she was gravely told that she must be—it would be very
serious if she did not make a great effort, and even her mother shook her
head, looked unhappy, but confirmed the admonition. A little revenge or
hatred would have been a great help to her, but she could not feel them as
impulses. If it had been the woman, she could have gladly aided in
visiting such cruelty upon her, but this had not been directly chargeable
upon Mauleverer; and though Rachel felt acutely that he had bitterly
abused her confidence, she drooped too much to feel the spirit of retort.
The notion of being confronted with him before all the world at
Avoncester, and being made to bring about his punishment, was simply
dreadful to her, but when she murmured some word of this to her mother,
Mrs. Curtis fairly started, and said quite fiercely, “My dear, don’t let
me hear you say any such thing. He is a very wicked man, and you ought to
be glad to have him punished!”
She really spoke as if she had been rebuking some infringement of decorum,
and Rachel was quite startled. She asked Grace why the mother was so bent
on making her vindictive, but Grace only answered that every one must be
very much shocked, and turned away the subject.
Prudent Grace! Her whole soul was in a tumult of wrath and shame at what
she knew to be the county gossip, but she was aware that Rachel’s total
ignorance of it was the only chance of her so comporting herself in court
as to silence the rumour, and she and her mother were resolutely discreet.
Mrs. Curtis, between nursing, anxiety, and worry, looked lamentably
knocked up, and at last Grace and Rachel prevailed on her to take a drive,
leaving Rachel on a sofa in her sitting-room, to what was no small luxury
to her just at present—that of being miserable alone—without
meeting any one’s anxious eyes, or knowing that her listlessness was
wounding the mother’s heart. Yet the privilege only resulted in a fresh
perturbation about the title-deeds, and longing to consult some one who
could advise and sympathize. Ermine Williams would have understood and
made her Colonel give help, but Ermine seemed as unattainable as Nova
Zembla, and she only heard that the Colonel was absent. Her head as aching
with the weary load of doubt, and she tried to cheat her woe by a restless
movement to the windows. She saw Captain Keith riding to the door. It
suddenly darted into her mind that here was one who could and would help
her. He could see Mauleverer and ascertain what had become of the deeds;
he could guess at the amount of danger! She could not forget his kindness
on the night of Lovedy’s illness, or the gentleness of his manner about
the woodcuts, and with a sudden impulse she rang the bell and desired that
Captain Keith might be shown in. She was still standing leaning on the
table when he entered.
“This is very good in you,” he said; “I met your mother and sister on my
way up, and they asked me to leave word of Conrade being better, but they
did not tell me I should see you.”
“Conrade is better?” said Rachel, sitting down, unable to stand longer.
“Yes, his throat is better. Miss Williams’s firmness saved him. They think
him quite out of danger.”
“Thank Heaven! Oh, I could never have seen his mother again! Oh, she has
been the heroine!”
“In the truest sense of the word,” he answered. And Rachel looked up with
one moment’s brightening at the old allusion, but her oppression was too
great for cheerfulness, and she answered—
“Dear Fanny, yes, she will be a rebuke to me for ever! But,” she added,
before he had time to inquire for her health, “I wanted—I wanted to
beg you to do me a service. You were so kind the other night.”
His reply was to lean earnestly forward, awaiting her words, and she told
him briefly of her grievous perplexity about the title-deeds.
“Then,” he said, “you would wish for me to see the man and ascertain how
he has disposed of them.”
“I should be most grateful!”
“I will do my utmost. Perhaps I may not succeed immediately, as I believe
visitors are not admitted every day, and he is said to be busy preparing
his defence, but I will try, and let you know.”
“Thanks, thanks! The doubt is terrible, for I know worry about it would
distract my mother.”
“I do not imagine,” he said, “that much worse consequences than worry
could ensue. But there are none more trying.”
“Oh not none!”
“Do not let worry about this increase other ills,” he said, kindly; “do
not think about this again till you hear from me.”
“Is that possible?”
“I should not have thought so, if I had not watched my uncle cast off
troubles about his eye-sight and the keeping his living.”
“Ah! but those were not of his own making.”
“‘There is a sparkle even in the darkest water.’ That was a saying of
his,” said Alick, looking anxiously at her pale cheek and down-cast eye.
“Not when they are turbid.”
“They will clear,” he said, and smiled with a look of encouraging hope
that again cheered her in spite of herself. “Meantime remember that in any
way I can help you, it will be the greatest favour—” he checked
himself as he observed the exceeding languor and lassitude apparent in her
whole person, and only said, “My sister is too much at the bottom of it
for me not to feel it the greatest kindness to me to let me try to be of
the slightest use. I believe I had better go now,” as he rose and looked
at her wistfully; “you are too much tired to talk.”
“I believe I am,” she said, almost reluctantly; “but thank you, this has
done me good.”
“And you are really getting better?”
“Yes, I believe so. Perhaps I may feel it when this terrible day is over.”
What a comfort it would be, she said to herself, when he was gone, if we
had but a near relation like him, who would act for the mother, instead of
our being delivered up, bound hand and foot, to Mr. Cox. It would have
been refreshing to have kept him now, if I could have done it without
talking; it really seemed to keep the horrible thoughts in abeyance, to
hear that wonderfully gentle tone! And how kind and soft the look was! I
do feel stronger for it! Will it really be better after next week? Alas!
that will have undone nothing.
Yet even this perception of a possibility of hope that there would be
relief after the ordeal, was new to Rachel; and it soon gave way to that
trying feature of illness, the insurmountable dread of the mere physical
fatigue. The Dean of Avoncester, a kind old friend of Mrs. Curtis, had
insisted on the mother and daughters coming to sleep at the Deanery, on
the Tuesday night, and remaining till the day after the trial; but
Rachel’s imagination was not even as yet equal to the endurance of the
long drive, far less of the formality of a visit. Lady Temple was likewise
asked to the Deanery, but Conrade was still too ill for her to think of
leaving him for more than the few needful hours of the trial; nor had
Alison been able to do more than pay an occasional visit at her sister’s
window to exchange reports, and so absorbed was she in her boys and their
mother, that it was quite an effort of recollection to keep up to Ermine’s
accounts of Colonel Keith’s doings.
It was on the Monday afternoon, the first time she had ventured into the
room, taking advantage of Rose having condescended to go out with the
Temple nursery establishment, when she found Ermine’s transparent face all
alive with expectation. “He may come any time now,” she said; “his coming
to-day or to-morrow was to depend on his getting his business done on
Saturday or not.”
And in a few minutes’ time the well-known knock was heard, and Ermine,
with a look half arch half gay, surprised her sister by rising with the
aid of the arm of her chair, and adjusting a crutch that had been leaning
against it.
“Why Ermine! you could not bear the jarring of that crutch—”
“Five or six years ago, Ailie, when I was a much poorer creature,” then as
the door opened, “I would make you a curtsey, Colonel Keith, but I am
afraid I can’t quite do that,” though still she moved nearer to meet him,
but perhaps there was a look of helplessness which made her exultation
piteous, for he responded with an exclamation of alarm, put out his arm to
support her, and did not relax a frown of anxiety till he had placed her
safe in her chair again, while she laughed perhaps a little less freely,
and said, “See what it is to have had to shift for oneself!”
“You met me with your eyes the first time, Ermine, and I never missed
anything.”
“Well, I think it is hard not to have been more congratulated on my great
achievement! I thought I should have had at least as much credit as
Widdrington, my favourite hero and model.”
“When you have an arm to support you it may be all very well, and I shall
never stand it without.” Then, as Ermine subsided, unprepared with a
reply, “Well, Ailie, how are your boys?”
“Both much better, Francis nearly well.”
“You have had a terrible time! And their mother?”
“Dearer and sweeter than ever,” said Alison, with her voice trembling; “no
one who has not seen her now can guess half what she is!”
“I hope she has not missed me. If this matter had not been so pressing, I
could not have stayed away.”
“The one message she always gave me was, that you were not to think of
coming home; and, indeed, those dear boys were so good, that we managed
very well without you.”
“Yes, I had faith in your discipline, and I think that matters are in
train against Edward comes. Of course there is no letter, or you would
have told me.”
“He will be coming himself,” said Ermine, resolved against again
expressing a doubt; while Alison added that he hated letter-writing.
“Nothing could be more satisfactory than Beauchamp’s letter,” added Colin.
“He was so thoroughly convinced, that he immediately began to believe that
he had trusted Edward all along, and had only been overruled.”
“I dare say,” said Ermine, laughing; “I can quite fancy honest Harry
completely persuaded that he was Edward’s champion, while Maddox was
turning him round his finger.”
“And such is his good faith, that I hope he will make Edward believe the
same! I told you of his sending his love to you, and of his hopes that you
would some day come and see the old place. He made his wife quite
cordial.”
Alison did not feel herself obliged to accept the message, and Ermine
could freely say, “Poor Harry! I should like to see him again! He would be
exactly the same, I dare say. And how does the old place look?”
“Just what I do not want you to see. They have found out that the Rectory
is unhealthy, and stuck up a new bald house on the top of the hill; and
the Hall is new furnished in colours that set one’s teeth on edge. Nothing
is like itself but Harry, and he only when you get him off duty—without
his wife! I was glad to get away to Belfast.”
“And there, judging from Julia’s letter, they must have nearly devoured
you.”
“They were very hospitable. Your sister is not so very unlike you,
Ermine?”
“Oh, Colin!” exclaimed Alison, with an indignation of which she became
ashamed, and added, by way of making it better, “Perhaps not so very.”
“She was very gracious to me,” said Colin, smiling, “and we had much
pleasant talk of you.”
“Yes,” said Ermine, “it will be a great pleasure to poor Julia to be
allowed to take us up again, and you thought the doctor sufficiently
convinced.”
“More satisfactorily so than Harry, for he reasoned out the matter, and
seems to me to have gone more by his impression that a man could not be so
imprudent as Edward in good faith than by Maddox’s representation.”
“That is true,” said Alison, “he held out till Edward refused to come
home, and then nothing would make him listen to a word on his behalf.”
“And it will be so again,” thought Ermine, with a throb at her heart. Then
she asked, “Did you see whether there was a letter for you at home?”
“Yes, I looked in, and found only this, which I have only glanced at, from
Bessie.”
“From Paris?”
“Yes, they come home immediately after Easter. ‘Your brother is resolved I
should be presented, and submit to the whole season in style; after which
he says I may judge for myself.’ What people will do for pretty young
wives! Poor Mary’s most brilliant season was a winter at Edinburgh; and it
must be his doing more than hers, for she goes on: ‘Is it not very hard to
be precluded all this time from playing the chieftainess in the halls of
my forefathers? I shall have to run down to your Gowanbrae to refresh
myself, and see what you are all about, for I cannot get the fragment of a
letter from Alick; and I met an Avoncestrian the other day, who told me
that the whole county was in a state of excitement about the F. U. etc.;
that every one believed that the fascinating landscape-painter was on the
high road to winning one of the joint-heiresses; but that Lady Temple—the
most incredible part of the story—had blown up the whole affair,
made her way into the penetralia of the asylum, and rescued two female
’prentices, so nearly whipped to death that it took an infinitesimal
quantity of Rachel’s homœopathy to demolish one entirely, and that the
virtuous public was highly indignant that there was no inquest nor trial
for manslaughter; but that it was certain that Rachel had been extremely
ill ever since. Poor Rachel, there must be some grain of truth in all
this, but one would like to be able to contradict it. I wrote to ask Alick
the rights of the story, but he has not vouchsafed me a line of reply; and
I should take it as very kind in you to let me know whether he is in the
land of the living or gone to Edinburgh—as I hear is to be the lot
of the Highlanders—or pining for the uncroquetable lawn, to which I
always told him he had an eye.’”
“She may think herself lucky he has not answered,” said Ermine; “he has
always been rather unreasonably angry with her for making the
introduction.”
“That is the reason he has not,” added Alison, “for he is certainly not
far off. He has been over almost every day to inquire, and played German
tactics all Saturday afternoon with Francis to our great relief. But I
have stayed away long enough.”
“I will walk back with you, Ailie. I must see the good little heroine of
the most incredible part of the story.”
Lady Temple looked a good deal paler than when he had last seen her, and
her eyelids still showed that they had long arrears of sleep to make up;
but she came down with outstretched hands and a sunny smile. “They are so
much better, and I am so glad you were not at home in the worst of it.”
“And I am sorry to have deserted you.”
“Oh, no, no, it was much better that you should be away. We should all
have wanted you, and that would have been dangerous, and dear, dear Miss
Williams did all that could be done. Do you know, it taught me that you
were right when you told me I ought never to rest till the boys learnt to
obey, for obedience’ sake, at a word. It showed what a bad mother I am,
for I am sure if dear Conrade had been like what he was last year, even
she could not have saved him,” said Fanny, her eyes full of tears.
Then came her details, to which he listened, as ever, like the brotherly
friend he was, and there was a good deal said about restoring the little
ones, who were still at Gowanbrae, to which he would by no means as yet
consent, though Fanny owned herself to have time now to pine for her
Stephana, and to “hear how dismal it is to have a silent nursery.”
“Yes, it has been a fearful time. We little guessed how much risk you ran
when you went to the rescue.”
“Dear Con, when he thought—when we thought he could not get better,
said I was not to mind that, and I don’t,” said Fanny. “I thought it was
right, and though I did not know this would come of it, yet you see God
has been very merciful, and brought both of my boys out of this dreadful
illness, and I dare say it will do them good all their lives now it is
over. I am sure it will to me, for I shall always be more thankful.”
“Everything does you good,” he said.
“And another thing,” she added, eagerly, “it has made me know that dear
Miss Williams so much better. She was so good, so wonderfully good, to
come away from her sister to us. I thought she was quite gone the first
day, and that I was alone with my poor Francie, and presently there she
was by my side, giving me strength and hope by her very look. I want to
have her for good, I want to make her my sister! She would teach the boys
still, for nobody else could make them good, but if ever her sister could
spare her, she must never go away again.”
“You had better see what she says,” replied the Colonel, with suppressed
emotion.
That night, when Conrade and Francis were both fast asleep, their mother
and their governess sat over the fire together, languid but happy, and
told out their hearts to one another—told out more than Alison had
ever put into words even to Ermine, for her heart was softer and more
unreserved now than ever it had been since her sister’s accident had
crushed her youth. There was thenceforth a bond between her and Lady
Temple that gave the young widow the strong-hearted, sympathizing,
sisterly friend she had looked for in Rachel, and that filled up those
yearnings of the affection that had at first made Alison feel that Colin’s
return made the world dreary to her. Her life had a purpose, though that
purpose was not Ermine! But where were Edward and his letter?
CHAPTER XXI. THE QUARTER SESSIONS.
“Is it so nominated in the bond?”—Merchant of Venice.
Malgre her disinclination, Rachel had reached the point of recovery in
which the fresh air and change of scene of the drive to Avoncester could
not fail to act as restoratives, and the first evening with the Dean and
his gentle old sister was refreshing and comfortable to her spirits.
It was in the afternoon of the ensuing day that Mr. Grey came to tell her
that her presence would soon be required, and both her mother and sister
drove to the court with her. Poor Mrs. Curtis, too anxious to go away, yet
too nervous to go into court, chose, in spite of all Mr. Grey’s advice, to
remain in the carriage with the blinds closed, far too miserable for Grace
to leave her.
Rachel, though very white, called up a heroic smile, and declared that she
should get on very well. Her spirit had risen to the occasion, so as to
brace her nerves to go becomingly through what was inevitable; and she
replied with a ready “yes,” to Mr. Grey’s repetition of the advice for
ever dinned into her ears, not to say a word more than needful, feeling
indeed little disposed to utter anything that she could avoid.
She emerged from the dark passage into full view of faces which were far
more familiar than she could have wished. She would have greatly preferred
appearing before a judge, robed, wigged, and a stranger, to coming thus
before a country gentleman, slightly known to herself, but an old friend
of her father, and looking only like his ordinary self.
All the world indeed was curious to see the encounter between Rachel
Curtis and her impostor, and every one who had contributed so much as a
dozen stamps to the F. U. E. E. felt as if under a personal wrong and
grievance, while many hoped to detect other elements of excitement, so
that though all did not overtly stare at the witness, not even the most
considerate could resist the impulse to glance at her reception of the bow
with which he greeted her entrance.
She bent her head instinctively, but there was no change of colour on her
cheek. Her faculties were concentrated, and her resolute will had closed
all avenues to sensations that might impair her powers; she would not give
way either to shame and remorse for herself, or to pity or indignation
against the prisoner; she would attend only to the accuracy of the
testimony that was required of her as an expiation of her credulous
incaution; but such was the tension of her nerves, that, impassive as she
looked, she heard every cough, every rustle of paper; each voice that
addressed her seemed to cut her ears like a knife; and the chair that was
given to her after the administration of the oath was indeed much needed.
She was examined upon her arrangement that the prisoner should provide for
the asylum at St. Herbert’s, and on her monthly payment to him of the sums
entered in the account-book. In some cases she knew he had shown her the
bills unreceipted; in others, he had simply made the charge in the book,
and she had given to him the amount that he estimated as requisite for the
materials for wood-engraving. So far she felt satisfied that she was
making herself distinctly understood, but the prisoner, acting as his own
counsel, now turned to her and asked the question she had expected and was
prepared for, whether she could refer to any written agreement.
“No; it was a vivá voce agreement.”
Could she mention what passed at the time of making the arrangement that
she had stated as existing between himself and her?
“I described my plans, and you consented.”
An answer at which some of the audience could have smiled, so well did it
accord with her habits. The prisoner again insisted on her defining the
mode of his becoming bound to the agreement. Rachel took time for
consideration, and Alison Williams, sitting between Lady Temple and
Colonel Keith, felt dizzy with anxiety for the answer. It came at last.
“I do not remember the exact words; but you acquiesced in the appearance
of your name as secretary and treasurer.”
The prospectus was here brought forward, and Mauleverer asked her to
define the duties he had been supposed to undertake in the character in
which he had there figured. It of course came out that she had been her
own treasurer, only entrusting the nominal one with the amount required
for current expenses, and again, in reply to his deferential questions,
she was obliged to acknowledge that he had never in so many words declared
the sums entered in the book to have been actually paid, and not merely
estimates for monthly expenditure to be paid to the tradesmen at the usual
seasons.
“I understood that they were paid,” said Rachel, with some resentment.
“Will you oblige me by mentioning on what that understanding was founded?”
said the prisoner, blandly.
There was a pause. Rachel knew she must say something; but memory utterly
failed to recall any definite assurance that these debts had been
discharged. Time passed, all eyes were upon her, there was a dire
necessity of reply, and though perfectly conscious of the weakness and
folly of her utterance, she could only falter forth, “I thought so.” The
being the Clever Woman of the family, only rendered her the more sensible
both of the utter futility of her answer, and of the effect it must be
producing.
Alison hung her head, and frowned in absolute shame and despair, already
perceiving how matters must go, and feeling as if the hope of her
brother’s vindication were slipping away—reft from her by Rachel’s
folly. Colin gave an indignant sigh, and whispering to her, “Come out when
Lady Temple does, I will meet you,” he made his way out of court.
There had been a moment’s pause after Rachel’s “I thought so,” and then
the chairman spoke to the counsel for the prosecution. “Mr. Murray, can
you carry the case any further by other witnesses? At present I see no
case to go to the jury. You will see that the witness not only does not
set up any case of embezzlement, but rather loads to an inference in the
contrary direction.”
“No, sir,” was the answer; “I am afraid that I can add nothing to the case
already presented to you.”
Upon this, the chairman said,
“Gentlemen of the Jury,—The case for the prosecution does not
sustain the indictment or require me to call on the prisoner for his
defence, and it is your duty to find him not guilty. You will observe that
we are not trying a civil action, in respect of the large sum which he has
received from the young lady, and for which he is still accountable to
her; nor by acquitting him are you pronouncing that he has not shown
himself a man of very questionable honesty, but only that the evidence
will not bring him within the grasp of the criminal law, as guilty of
embezzlement under the statute, and this because of the looseness of the
arrange ments, that had been implied instead of expressed. It is
exceedingly to be regretted that with the best intentions and kindest
purposes, want of caution and experience on her part should have enabled
the prisoner thus to secure himself from the possibility of a conviction;
but there can be no doubt that the evidence before us is such as to leave
no alternative but a verdict of not guilty.”
The very tenderness and consideration of the grey-haired Sir Edward
Morden’s tone were more crushing to Rachel than severe animadversions on
her folly would have been from a stranger. Here was she, the Clever Woman
of the family, shown in open court to have been so egregious a dupe that
the deceiver could not even be punished, but must go scot-free, leaving
all her wrongs unredressed! To her excited, morbid apprehension, magnified
by past self-sufficiency, it was as though all eyes were looking in
triumph at that object of general scorn and aversion, a woman who had
stepped out of her place. She turned with a longing to rush into darkness
and retirement when she was called to return to her mother, and even had
she still been present, little would she have recked that when the jury
had, without many moments’ delay, returned a verdict of “Not Guilty,” the
prisoner received a strong, stern reprimand from Sir Edward, to whom he
replied with a bow that had in it more of triumph than of acceptance.
Burning tears of disappointment were upon Alison’s cheek, the old hopeless
blank was returning, and her brother might come back in vain, to find his
enemy beyond his reach. Here was an end alike of his restoration and of
Ermine’s happiness!
“Oh!” whispered Lady Temple, “is it not horrid? Is nothing to be done to
that dreadful man? I always thought people came here to do justice. I
shall never like Sir Edward Morden again! But, oh! what can that be? Where
is the Colonel?”
It was a loud, frightful roar and yell, a sound of concentrated fury that,
once heard, could never be forgotten. It was from the crowd outside, many
of them from Avonmouth, and all frantic with indignation at the cruelty
that had been perpetrated upon the helpless children. Their groans and
execrations were pursuing the prison van, from which Maria Hatherton was
at that moment making her exit, and so fearful was the outcry that
penetrated the court, that Fanny trembled with recollections of Indian
horrors, looked wistfully for her protector the Colonel, and murmured
fears that her aunt must have been very much terrified.
At that moment, however, a summons came for Lady Temple, as this was the
case in which she was to bear witness. Alison followed, and was no sooner
past the spectators, who gladly made way, than she found her arm drawn
into Colonel Keith’s. “Is he come?” she asked. “No,” was rather signed
than spoken. “Oh, Colin!” she sighed, but still there was no reply, only
she was dragged on, downstairs and along dark passages, into a room
furnished with a table, chairs, pens, ink, and paper, and lighted with
gas, which revealed to her not only Mr. Grey, but one who, though eight
years had made him stouter, redder, and rougher, had one of the most
familiar faces of her youthful days. Her senses almost reeled with her as
he held out his hand, saying heartily, “Well, Ailie, how are you? and how
is Ermine? Where can this brother of yours be?”
“Harry! Mr. Beauchamp! You here!” she exclaimed, in the extremity of
amazement.
“Here is Colin seeming to think that something may be done towards nailing
this scoundrel for the present, so I am come at his call. We shall have
the fellow in a moment.” And then, by way of getting rid of embarrassment,
he began talking to Mr. Grey about the County Hall, and the room, which
Mr. Grey explained to be that of the clerk of the peace, lent for this
occasion while the usual justice room was occupied, Alison heard all as in
a dream, and presently Mauleverer entered, as usual spruce, artist-like,
and self-possessed, and was accosted by Harry Beauchamp, “Good evening,
Mr. Maddox, I am sorry to trouble you.”
“I hope there is no misunderstanding, sir,” was the reply. “I have not the
pleasure of knowing for whom you take me.”
Without regarding this reply, however, Mr. Beauchamp requested Mr. Grey to
take his deposition, stating his own belief in the identity of the person
before him with Richard Maddox, whom he charged with having delivered to
him a letter falsely purporting to come from Edward Williams, demanding
three hundred pounds, which upon this he had delivered to the accused, to
be forwarded to the said Mr. Williams.
Alison’s heart beat violently at the ordeal before her of speaking to the
genuineness of the letter. She had seen and suspected that to her
brother-in-law, but she could not guess whether the flaws in that to Mr.
Beauchamp would be equally palpable, and doubt and anxiety made her
scarcely able to look at it steadily. To her great relief, however, she
was able to detect sufficient variations to justify her assertion that it
was not authentic, and she was able to confirm her statement by comparison
of the writing with that of a short, indignant denial of all knowledge of
the transaction, which Harry Beauchamp had happily preserved, though
little regarding it at the time. She also showed the wrong direction, with
the name of the place misspelt, according to her own copy of her
sister-in-law’s address, at the request of Maddox himself, and pointed out
that a letter to Ermine from her brother bore the right form. The seal
upon that to Mr. Beauchamp she likewise asserted to be the impression of
one which her brother had lost more than a year before the date of the
letter.
“Indeed, sir,” said the accused, fuming to Mr. Grey, “this is an
exceedingly hard case. Here am I, newly acquitted, after nearly six weeks’
imprisonment, on so frivolous a charge that it has been dismissed without
my even having occasion to defend myself, or to call my own most
respectable witnesses as to character, when another charge is brought
forward against me in a name that there has been an unaccountable desire
to impose on me. Even if I were the person that this gentleman supposes,
there is nothing proved. He may very possibly have received a forged
letter, but I perceive nothing to fix the charge upon the party he calls
Maddox. Let me call in my own witnesses, who had volunteered to come down
from Bristol, and you will be convinced how completely mistaken the
gentleman is.”
To this Mr. Grey replied that the case against him was not yet closed, and
cautioning him to keep his own witnesses back; but he was urgent to be
allowed to call them at once, as it was already late, and they were to go
by the six o’clock train. Mr. Grey consented, and a messenger was sent in
search of them. Mr. Beauchamp looked disturbed. “What say you to this,
Colin?” he asked, uneasily. “That man’s audacity is enough to stagger one,
and I only saw him three times at the utmost.”
“Never fear,” said Colin, “delay is all in our favour.” At the same time
Colin left them, and with him went some hope and confidence, leaving all
to feel awkward and distressed during the delay that ensued, the accused
expatiating all the time on the unreasonableness of bringing up an offence
committed so many years ago, in the absence of the only witness who could
prove the whole story, insisting, moreover, on his entire ignorance of the
names of either Maddox or Williams.
The sight of his witnesses was almost welcome. They were a dissenting
minister, and a neat, portly, respectable widow, the owner of a fancy
shop, and both knew Mr. Mauleverer as a popular lecturer upon
philanthropical subjects, who came periodically to Bristol, and made
himself very acceptable. Their faith in him was genuine, and he had even
interested them in the F. U. E. E. and the ladies that patronized it. The
widow was tearfully indignant about the persecution that had been got up
against him, and evidently intended to return with him in triumph, and
endow him with the fancy shop if he would condescend so far. The minister
too, spoke highly of his gifts and graces, but neither of them could carry
back their testimony to his character for more than three years.
Mr. Grey looked at his watch, Harry Beauchamp was restless, and Alison
felt almost faint with suspense; but at last the tramp of feet was heard
in the passage. Colonel Keith came first, and leaning over Alison’s chair,
said, “Lady Temple will wait for me at the inn. It will soon be all
right.”
At that moment a tall figure in mourning entered, attended by a policeman.
For the first time, Mauleverer’s coolness gave way, though not his
readiness, and, turning to Mr. Grey, he exclaimed, “Sir, you do not intend
to be misled by the malignity of a person of this description.”
“Worse than a murderess!” gasped the scandalized widow Dench. “Well, I
never!”
Mr. Grey was obliged to be peremptory, in order to obtain silence, and
enforce that, let the new witness be what she might, her evidence must be
heard.
She had come in with the habitual village curtsey to Mr. Beauchamp, and
putting back her veil, disclosed to Alison the piteous sight of the
well-remembered features, once so bright with intelligence and innocence,
and now sunk and haggard with the worst sorrows of womanhood. Her large
glittering eyes did not seem to recognise Alison, but they glared upon
Mauleverer with a strange terrible fixedness, as if unable to see any one
else. To Alison the sight was inexpressibly painful, and she shrank back,
as it were, in dread of meeting the eyes once so responsive to her own.
Mr. Grey asked the woman the name of the person before her, and looking at
him with the same fearful steadiness, she pronounced it to be Richard
Maddox, though he had of late called himself Mauleverer.
The man quailed for a moment, then collecting himself, said, “I now
understand the incredible ingratitude and malignity that have pointed out
against me these hitherto unaccountable slanders. It is a punishment for
insufficient inquiry into character. But you, sir, in common justice, will
protect me from the aspersions of one who wishes to drag me down in her
justly merited fall.”
“Sentenced for three years! To take her examination!” muttered Mrs. Dench,
and with some difficulty these exclamations were silenced, and Maria
Hatherton called on for her evidence.
Concise, but terrible in its clear brevity, was the story of the agent
tampering with her, the nursemaid, until she had given him access to the
private rooms, where he had turned over the papers. On the following day,
Mr. Williams had been inquiring for his seal-ring, but she herself had not
seen it again till some months after, when she had left her place, and was
living in lodgings provided for her by Maddox, when she had found the ring
in the drawer of his desk; her suspicion had then been first excited by
his displeasure at her proposing to him to return it, thinking it merely
there by accident, and she had afterwards observed him endeavouring to
copy fragments of Mr. Williams’s writing. These he had crushed up and
thrown aside, but she had preserved them, owning that she did not know
what might come of them, and the family had been very kind to her.
The seal and the scraps of paper were here produced by the policeman who
had them in charge. The seal perfectly coincided with that which had
closed the letter to Harry Beauchamp, and was, moreover, identified by
both Alison and Colonel Keith. It was noticeable, too, that one of these
fragments was the beginning of a note to Mr. Beauchamp, as “Dear H.” and
this, though not Edward’s most usual style of addressing his friend, was
repeated in the demand for the £300.
“Sir,” said the accused, “of course I have no intention of intimating that
a gentleman like the Honourable Colonel Keith has been in any collusion
with this unhappy woman, but it must be obvious to you that his wish to
exonerate his friend has induced him to give too easy credence to this
person’s malignant attempts to fasten upon one whom she might have had
reason to regard as a benefactor the odium of the transactions that she
acknowledges to have taken place between herself and this Maddox, thereto
incited, no doubt, by some resemblance which must be strong, since it has
likewise deceived Mr. Beauchamp.”
Mr. Grey looked perplexed and vexed, and asked Mr. Beauchamp if he could
suggest any other person able to identify Maddox. He frowned, said there
must have been workmen at the factory, but knew not where they were,
looked at Colin Keith, asked Alison if she or her sister had ever seen
Maddox, then declared he could lay his hands on no one but Dr. Long at
Belfast.
Mauleverer vehemently exclaimed against the injustice of detaining him
till a witness could be summoned from that distance. Mr. Grey evidently
had his doubts, and began to think of calling in some fresh opinion
whether he had sufficient grounds for committal, and Alison’s hopes were
only unstained by Colin’s undaunted looks, when there came a knock at the
door, and, as much to the surprise of Alison as of every one else, there
entered an elderly maid-servant, leading a little girl by the hand, and
Colonel Keith going to meet the latter, said, “Do not be frightened, my
dear, you have only to answer a few questions as plainly and clearly as
you can.”
Awed, silent, and dazzled by the sudden gas-light, she clung to his hand,
but evidently distinguished no one else; and he placed her close to the
magistrate saying, “This is Mr. Grey, Rose, tell him your name.”
And Mr. Grey taking her hand and repeating the question, the clear little
silvery voice answered,
“I am Rose Ermine Williams.”
“And how old are you, my dear?”
“I was eight on the last of June.”
“She knows the nature of an oath?” asked Mr. Grey of the Colonel.
“Certainly, you can soon satisfy yourself of that.”
“My dear,” then said Mr. Grey, taking her by the hand again, and looking
into the brown intelligent eyes, “I am sure you have been well taught. Can
you tell me what is meant by taking an oath before a magistrate?”
“Yes,” said Rose, colour flushing into her face, “it is calling upon
Almighty God to hear one speak the truth.” She spoke so low that she could
hardly be heard, and she looked full of startled fear and distress,
turning her face up to Colonel Keith with a terrified exclamation,
“Oh please, why am I here, what am I to say?”
He was sorry for her; but her manifest want of preparation was all in
favour of the cause, and he soothed her by saying, “Only answer just what
you are asked as clearly as you can, and Mr. Grey will soon let you go. He
knows you would try any way to speak the truth, but as he is going to
examine you as a magistrate, he must ask you to take the oath first.”
Rose repeated the oath in her innocent tones, and perhaps their solemnity
or the fatherly gentleness of Mr. Grey reassured her, for her voice
trembled much less when she answered his next inquiry, who her parents
were.
“My mother is dead,” she said; “my father is Mr Williams, he is away at
Ekaterinburg.”
“Do you remember any time before he was at Ekaterinburg?”
“Oh yes; when we lived at Kensington, and he had the patent glass works.”
“Now, turn round and say if there is any one here whom you know?”
Rose, who had hitherto stood facing Mr. Grey, with her back to the rest of
the room, obeyed, and at once exclaimed, “Aunt Alison,” then suddenly
recoiled, and grasped at the Colonel.
“What is it, my dear?”
“It is—it is Mr. Maddox,” and with another gasp of fright, “and
Maria! Oh, let me go.”
But Mr. Grey put his arm round her, and assured her that no one could harm
her, Colonel Keith let his fingers be very hard pinched, and her aunt came
nearer, all telling her that she had only to make her answers distinctly;
and though still shrinking, she could reply to Mr. Grey’s question whom
she meant by Mr. Maddox.
“The agent for the glass—my father’s agent.”
“And who is Maria?”
“She was my nurse.”
“When did you last see the person you call Mr. Maddox?”
“Last time, I was sure of it, was when I was walking on the esplanade at
Avoncester with Colonel Keith,” said Rose, very anxious to turn aside and
render her words inaudible.
“I suppose you can hardly tell when that was?”
“Yes, it was the day before you went away to Lord Keith’s wedding,” said
Rose, looking to the Colonel.
“Had you seen him before?”
“Twice when I was out by myself, but it frightened me so that I never
looked again.”
“Can you give me any guide to the time?”
She was clear that it had been after Colonel Keith’s first stay at
Avonmouth, but that was all, and being asked if she had ever mentioned
these meetings, “Only when Colonel Keith saw how frightened I was, and
asked me.”
“Why were you frightened?” asked Mr. Grey, on a hint from the Colonel.
“Because I could not quite leave off believing the dreadful things Mr.
Maddox and Maria said they would do to me if I told.”
“Told what?”
“About Mr. Maddox coming and walking with Maria when she was out with me,”
gasped Rose, trying to avert her head, and not comforted by hearing Mr.
Grey repeat her words to those tormentors of her infancy.
A little encouragement, however, brought out the story of the phosphoric
letters, the lions, and the vision of Maddox growling in the
dressing-room. The date of the apparition could hardly be hoped for, but
fortunately Rose remembered that it was two days before her mamma’s
birthday; because she had felt it so hard to be eaten up before the fete,
and this date tallied with that given by Maria of her admitting her
treacherous admirer into the private rooms.
“The young lady may be precocious, no doubt, sir,” here said the accused,
“but I hardly see why she has been brought here. You can attach no weight
to the confused recollections of so young a child, of matters that took
place so long ago.”
“The question will be what weight the jury will attach to them at the
assizes,” said Mr. Grey.
“You will permit me to make one inquiry of the young lady, sir. Who told
her whom she might expect to see here?”
Mr. Grey repeated the query, and Rose answered, “Nobody; I knew my aunt
and the Colonel and Lady Temple were gone in to Avoncester, and Aunt
Ermine got a note from the Colonel to say that I was to come in to him
with Tibbie in a fly.”
“Did you know what you were wanted for?”
“No, I could not think. I only knew they came to get the woman punished
for being so cruel to the poor little girls.”
“Do you know who that person was?”
“Mrs. Rawlins,” was the ready answer.
“I think,” said Mr. Grey to the accused, “that you must perceive that,
with such coincidence of testimony as I have here, I have no alternative
but to commit you for the summer assizes.”
Mauleverer murmured something about an action for false imprisonment, but
he did not make it clear, and he was evidently greatly crestfallen. He had
no doubt hoped to brazen out his assumed character sufficiently to
disconcert Mr. Beauchamp’s faith in his own memory, and though he had
carried on the same game after being confronted with Maria, it was already
becoming desperate. He had not reckoned upon her deserting his cause even
for her own sake, and the last chance of employing her antecedents to
discredit her testimony, had been overthrown by Rose’s innocent witness to
their mutual relations, a remembrance which had been burnt in on her
childish memory by the very means taken to secure her silence. When the
depositions were read over, their remarkable and independent accordance
was most striking; Mrs. Dench had already been led away by the minister,
in time to catch her train, just when her sobs of indignation at the
deception were growing too demonstrative, and the policeman resumed the
charge of Maria Hatherton.
Little Rose looked up to her, saying, “Please, Aunt Ailie, may I speak to
her?”
Alison had been sitting restless and perplexed between impulses of pity
and repulsion, and doubts about the etiquette of the justice room; but her
heart yearned over the girl she had cherished, and she signed permission
to Rose, whose timidity had given way amid excitement and encouragement.
“Please, Maria,” she said, “don’t be angry with me for telling; I never
did till Colonel Keith asked me, and I could not help it. Will you kiss me
and forgive me as you used?”
The hard fierce eyes, that had not wept over the child’s coffin, filled
with tears.
“Oh, Miss Rose, Miss Rose, do not come near me. Oh, if I had minded you—and
your aunts—” And the pent-up misery of the life that had fallen
lower and lower since the first step in evil, found its course in a
convulsive sob and shriek, so grievous that Alison was thankful for
Colin’s promptitude in laying hold of Rose, and leading her out of the
room before him. Alison felt obliged to follow, yet could not bear to
leave Maria to policemen and prison warders.
“Maria, poor Maria, I am so sorry for you, I will try to come and see you—”
But her hand was seized with an imperative, “Ailie, you must come, they
are all waiting for you.”
How little had she thought her arm would ever be drawn into that arm, so
unheeded by both.
“So that is Edward’s little girl! Why, she is the sweetest little
clear-headed thing I have seen a long time. She was the saving of us.”
“It was well thought of by Colin.”
“Colin is a lawyer spoilt—that’s a fact. A first-rate get-up of a
case!”
“And you think it safe now?”
“Nothing safer, so Edward turns up. How he can keep away from such a child
as that, I can’t imagine. Where is she? Oh, here—” as they came into
the porch in fuller light, where the Colonel and Rose waited for them.
“Ha, my little Ailie, I must make better friends with you.”
“My name is Rose, not Ailie,” replied the little girl.
“Oh, aye! Well, it ought to have been, what d’ye call her—that was a
Daniel come to judgment?”
“Portia,” returned Rose; “but I don’t think that is pretty at all.”
“And where is Lady Temple?” anxiously asked Alison. “She must be grieved
to be detained so long.”
“Oh! Lady Temple is well provided for,” said the Colonel, “all the
magistrates and half the bar are at her feet. They say the grace and
simplicity of her manner of giving her evidence were the greatest contrast
to poor Rachel’s.”
“But where is she?” still persisted Alison.
“At the hotel; Maria’s was the last case of the day, and she went away
directly after it, with such a choice of escorts that I only just spoke to
her.”
And at the hotel they found the waggonette at the gateway, and Lady Temple
in the parlour with Sir Edward Morden, who, late as it was, would not
leave her till he had seen her with the rest of the party. She sprang up
to meet them, and was much relieved to hear that Mauleverer was again
secured. “Otherwise,” she said, “it would have been all my fault for
having acted without asking advice. I hope I shall never do so again.”
She insisted that all should go home together in the waggonette, and Rose
found herself upon Mr. Beauchamp’s knee, serving as usual as a safety
valve for the feelings of her aunt’s admirers. There was no inconstancy on
her part, she would much have preferred falling to the lot of her own
Colonel, but the open carriage drive was rather a risk for him in the
night air, and though he had undertaken it in the excitement, he soon
found it requisite to muffle himself up, and speak as little as possible.
Harry Beauchamp talked enough for both. He was in high spirits, partly, as
Colin suspected, with the escape from a dull formal home, and partly with
the undoing of a wrong that had rankled in his conscience more than he had
allowed to himself. Lady Temple, her heart light at the convalescence of
her sons, was pleased with everything, liked him extremely, and answered
gaily; and Alison enjoyed the resumption of pleasant habits of days gone
by. Yet, delightful as it all was, there was a sense of disenchantment:
she was marvelling all the time how she could have suffered so much on
Harry Beauchamp’s account. The rejection of him had weighed like a stone
upon her heart, but now it seemed like freedom to have escaped his
companionship for a lifetime.
Presently a horse’s feet were heard on the road before them; there was a
meeting and a halt, and Alick Keith’s voice called out—“How has it
gone?”
“Why, were you not in court?”
“What! I go to hear my friends baited?”
“Where were you then?”
“At Avonmouth.”
“Oh, then you have seen the boys,” cried Lady Temple. “How is Conrade?”
“Quite himself. Up to a prodigious amount of indoor croquet. But how has
it gone?”
“Such a shame!” returned Lady Temple. “They acquitted the dreadful man,
and the poor woman, whom he drove to it, has a year’s imprisonment and
hard labour!”
“Acquitted! What, is he off?”
“Oh, no, no! he is safe, and waiting for the Assizes, all owing to the
Colonel and little Rose.”
“He is committed for the former offence,” said Colonel Keith; “the
important one.”
“That’s right! Good night! And how,” he added, reining back his horse,
“did your cousin get through it?”
“Oh, they were so hard on her!” cried Lady Temple. “I could hardly bring
myself to speak to Sir Edward after it! It was as if he thought it all her
fault!”
“Her evidence broke down completely,” said Colonel Keith. “Sir Edward
spared her as much as he could; but the absurdity of her whole conduct was
palpable. I hope she has had a lesson.”
Alick’s impatient horse flew on with him, and Colin muttered to Alison
under his mufflers,—“I never could make out whether that is the
coolest or the most sensitive fellow living!”
CHAPTER XXII. THE AFTER CLAP
“I have read in the marvellous heart of man,
That strange and mystic scroll,
That an army of phantoms vast and wan
Beleaguer the human soul.
“Encamped beside life’s rushing stream,
In Fancy’s misty light,
Gigantic shapes and shadows gleam
Portentous through the night.”
The Beleaguered City, LONGFELLOW.
A dinner party at the Deanery in the sessions week was an institution, but
Rachel, lying on the sofa in a cool room, had thought herself exempt from
it, and was conscious for the time of but one wish, namely, to be let
alone, and to be able to shut her eyes, without finding the lids, as it
were, lined with tiers of gazing faces, and curious looks turned on her,
and her ears from the echo of the roar of fury that had dreadfully
terrified both her and her mother, and she felt herself to have merited!
The crush of public censure was not at the moment so overwhelming as the
strange morbid effect of having been the focus of those many, many
glances, and if she reflected at all, it was with a weary speculating
wonder whether one pair of dark grey eyes had been among those levelled at
her. She thought that if they had, she could not have missed either their
ironical sting, or perchance some kindly gleam of sympathy, such as had
sometimes surprised her from under the flaxen lashes.
There she had lain, unmolested and conscious of a certain relief in the
exceeding calm; the grey pinnacle of the cathedral, and a few branches of
an elm-tree alone meeting her eye through the open window, and the sole
sound the cawing of the rooks, whose sailing flight amused and attracted
her glance from time to time with dreamy interest. Grace had gone into
court to hear Maria Hatherton’s trial, and all was still.
The first break was when her mother and Miss Wellwood came in, after
having wandered gently together round the warm, walled Deanery garden,
comparing notes about their myrtles and geraniums. Then it was that amid
all their tender inquiries after her headache, and their administration of
afternoon tea, it first broke upon Rachel that they expected her to go
down to dinner.
“Pray excuse me,” she said imploringly, looking at her mother for support,
“indeed, I don’t know that I could sit out a dinner! A number of people
together make me so dizzy and confused.”
“Poor child!” said Miss Wellwood, kindly, but looking to Mrs. Curtis in
her turn. “Perhaps, as she has been so ill, the evening might be enough.”
“Oh,” exclaimed Rachel, “I hope to be in bed before you have finished
dinner. Indeed I am not good company for any one.”
“Don’t say that, my dear,” and Miss Wellwood looked puzzled.
“Indeed, my dear,” said Mrs. Curtis, evidently distressed, “I think the
exertion would be good for you, if you could only think so.”
“Yes, indeed,” said Miss Wellwood, catching at the notion; “it is your
mind that needs the distraction, my dear.”
“I am distracted enough already,” poor Rachel said, putting her hand up.
“Indeed, I do not want to be disobliging,” she said, interpreting her
mother’s anxious gestures to mean that she was wanting in civility; “it is
very kind in you, Miss Wellwood, but this has been a very trying day, and
I am sure I can give no pleasure to anybody, so if I might only be let
off.”
“It is not so much—” began Miss Wellwood, getting into a puzzle, and
starting afresh. “Indeed, my dear, my brother and I could not bear that
you should do anything you did not like, only you see it would never do
for you to seem to want to shut yourself up.”
“I should think all the world must feel as if I ought to be shut up for
life,” said Rachel, dejectedly.
“Ah! but that is the very thing. If you do not show yourself it will make
such a talk.”
Rachel had nearly said, “Let them talk;” but though she felt tormented to
death, habitual respect to these two gentle, nervous, elderly women made
her try to be courteous, and she said, “Indeed, I cannot much care,
provided I don’t hear them.”
“Ah! but you don’t know, my dear,” said Mrs. Curtis, seeing her friend
looked dismayed at this indifference. “Indeed, dear Miss Wellwood, she
does not know; we thought it would be so awkward for her in court.”
“Know what?” exclaimed Rachel, sitting upright, and putting down her feet.
“What have you been keeping from me?”
“Only—only, my dear, people will say such things, and nobody could
think it that knew you.”
“What?” demanded Rachel.
“Yes,” said Mrs. Curtis, perhaps, since her daughter was to have the
shock, rather glad to have a witness to the surprise it caused her: “you
know people will gossip, and some one has put it about that—that
this horrid man was—”
Mrs. Curtis paused, Miss Wellwood was as pink as her cap strings. Rachel
grasped the meaning at last. “Oh!” she said, with less reticence than her
elders, “there must needs be a spice of flirtation to give piquancy to the
mess of gossip! I don’t wonder, there are plenty of people who judge
others by themselves, and think that motive must underlie everything! I
wonder who imagines that I am fallen so low?”
“There, I knew she would take it in that way,” said Mrs. Curtis. “And so
you understand us, my dear, we could not bear to ask you to do anything so
distressing except for your own sake.”
“I am far past caring for my own sake,” said Rachel, “but for yours and
Grace’s, mother, I will give as much ocular demonstration as I can, that I
am not pining for this hero with a Norman name. I own I should have
thought none of the Dean’s friends would have needed to be convinced.”
“Oh, no! no! but—” Miss Wellwood made a great confusion of noes,
buts, and my dears, and Mrs. Curtis came to the rescue. “After all, my
love, one can’t so much wonder! You have always been very peculiar, you
know, and so clever, and you took up this so eagerly. And then the Greys
saw you so unwilling to prosecute. And—and I have always allowed you
too much liberty—ever since your poor dear papa was taken—and
now it has come upon you, my poor child! Oh, I hope dear Fanny will take
warning by me,” and off went poor Mrs. Curtis into a fit of sobs.
“Mother—mother! this is worse than anything,” exclaimed Rachel in an
agony, springing to her feet, and flying after sal volatile, but feeling
frightfully helpless without Grace, the manager of all Mrs. Curtis’s
ailments and troubles. Grace would have let her quietly cry it out.
Rachel’s remedies and incoherent protestations of all being her own fault
only made things worse, and perhaps those ten minutes were the most
overwhelming of all the griefs that Rachel had brought on herself.
However, what with Miss Wellwood’s soothing, and her own sense of the
becoming, Mrs. Curtis struggled herself into composure again by the time
the maid came to dress them for dinner; Rachel all the while longing for
Grace’s return, not so much for the sake of hearing the verdict, as of
knowing whether the mother ought to be allowed to go down to dinner, so
shaken did she look; for indeed, besides her distress for her daughter, no
small ingredient in her agitation was this recurrence to a stated custom
of her husband’s magisterial days.
Persuasion was unavailing. At any cost the Curtis family must present an
unassailable front to the public eye, and if Mrs. Curtis had forced
forward her much tried and suffering daughter, far more would she persist
in devoting herself to gaiety and indifference, but her nervousness was
exceeding, and betrayed itself in a continual wearying for Grace, without
whom neither her own dress nor Rachel’s could be arranged to her
satisfaction, and she was absolutely incapable of not worrying Rachel
about every fold, every plait, every bow, in a manner that from any one
else would have been unbearable; but those tears had frightened Rachel
into a penitent submission that endured with an absolute semblance of
cheerfulness each of these torments. The languor and exhaustion had been
driven away, and feverish excitement had set in, not so much from the
spirit of defiance that the two elder ladies had expected to excite, as
from the having been goaded into a reckless determination to sustain her
part. No matter for the rest.
It often happened in these parties that the ladies would come in from the
country in reasonable time, while their lords would be detained much later
in court, so when the cathedral clock had given notice of the half-hour,
Mrs. Curtis began to pick up fan and handkerchief, and prepare to descend.
Rachel suggested there would be no occasion so to do till Grace’s return,
since it was plain that no one could yet be released.
“Yes, my dear, but perhaps—don’t you think it might be remarked as
if you chose to keep out of sight?”
“Oh, very well.”
Rachel followed her mother down, sustained by one hope, that Captain Keith
would be there. No; the Deanery did not greatly patronize the barracks;
there was not much chance of any gentleman under forty, except, perhaps,
in the evening. And at present the dean himself and one canon were the
entire gentleman element among some dozen ladies. Everybody knew that the
cause of delay was the trial of the cruel matron, and added to the account
of Rachel’s iniquities their famished and weary state of expectation, the
good Dean gyrating among the groups, trying to make conversation, which
every one felt too fretful and too hungry to sustain with spirit. Rachel
sat it out, trying to talk whenever she saw her mother’s anxious eyes upon
her, but failing in finding anything to say, and much doubting whether her
neighbours liked talking to her.
At last gentlemen began to appear in twos and threes, and each made some
confidence to the womankind that first absorbed him, but no one came in
Rachel’s way, and the girl beside her became too unfeignedly curious to
support even the semblance of conversation, but listened for scraps of
intelligence. Something was flying about respecting “a gentleman who came
down by the train,” and something about “Lady Temple” and “admirable,” and
the young lady seized the first opportunity of deserting Rachel, and
plunging into the mêlée. Rachel sat on, sick with suspense, feeling
utterly unable to quit her seat. Still they waited, the whole of the party
were not arrived, and here was the curfew ringing, and that at the
Deanery, which always felt injured if it were seven o’clock before people
were in the dining-room! Grace must be upstairs dressing, but to reach her
was impossible!
At last Mr. Grey was announced, and he had mercy upon Rachel; he came up
to her as soon as he could without making her remarkable, and told her the
cause of his delay had been the necessity of committing Mauleverer upon an
accusation by a relation of Colonel Keith, of very extensive frauds upon
Miss Williams’s brother. Rachel’s illness and the caution of the
Williamses had prevented her from being fully aware of the complication of
their affairs with her own, and she became paler and paler, as she
listened to the partial explanation, though she was hardly able as yet to
understand it.
“The woman?” she asked.
“Sentenced to a year’s imprisonment with hard labour, and let me tell you,
Rachel, you had a most narrow escape there! If that army doctor had not
come in time to see the child alive, they could not have chosen but have
an inquest, and no mortal can tell what might have been the decision about
your homœopathy. You might have been looking forward to a worse business
than this at the next assizes.”
Mr. Grey had done his work at last! The long waiting, the weary
constraint, and at last the recurrence of Lovedy’s sufferings and her own
share in them, entirely overcame her. Mists danced before her eyes, and
the very sensation that had been so studiously avoided was produced by her
fainting helplessly away in her chair, while Mr. Grey was talking to her.
To be sure it brought deliverance from the multitude, and she awoke in the
quiet of her room, upon her bed, in the midst of the despairing
compunction of the mother, and the tender cares of Grace, but she was too
utterly overdone for even this to be much relief to her; and downstairs
poor Miss Wellwood’s one desire was to hinder the spread of the report
that her swoon had been caused by the tidings of Mauleverer’s
apprehension. It seemed as if nothing else had been wanting to make the
humiliation and exposure complete. Rachel had despised fainting ladies,
and had really hitherto been so superabundant in strength that she had no
experience of the symptoms, or she might have escaped in time. But there
she lay, publicly censured before the dignitaries of her county for moral
folly, and entirely conquered before the rest of the world by the physical
weakness she had most contemned.
Then the mother was so terrified and distressed that all sorts of
comforting reassurances were required, and the chief object soon became to
persuade her to go downstairs and leave Rachel to her bed. And at last the
thought of civility and of the many Mrs. Grundys prevailed, and sent her
downstairs, but there was little more comfort for Rachel even in being
left to herself—that for which she had a few minutes before most
ardently longed.
That night was perhaps the most painful one of her whole life. The earnest
desire to keep her mother from uneasiness, and the longing to be
unmolested, made her play her part well when the mother and Grace came up
to see her before going to bed, and they thought she would sleep off her
over-fatigue and excitement, and yielded to her desire that they should
bid her good night, and leave her to rest.
But what sort of rest was it? Sometimes even her own personal identity was
gone, and she would live over again in the poor children, the hunger and
the blows, or she would become Mrs. Rawlins, and hear herself sentenced
for the savage cruelty, or she would actually stand in court under
sentence for manslaughter. Her pulses throbbed up to fever pitch, head and
cheeks burnt, the very power to lie still was gone, and whether she
commanded her thoughts or lapsed into the land of dreams, they worked her
equal woe.
Now it was the world of gazing faces, feverishly magnified, multiplied,
and pressing closer and closer on her, till she could have screamed to
dispel them; now it was her mother weeping over the reports to which she
had given occasion, and accusing herself of her daughter’s errors; and now
it was Lovedy Kelland’s mortal agony, now the mob, thirsting for
vengeance, were shouting for justice on her, as the child’s murderer, and
she was shrieking to Alick Keith to leave her to her fate, and only save
her mother.
It would hardly be too much to say that the positive wretchedness of
actually witnessing the child’s death was doubled in these its imaginary
repetitions on that still more suffering night of waking dreams, when
every solemn note of the cathedral clock, every resolute proclamation from
its fellow in the town hall, every sharp reply from the domestic timepiece
in the Deanery fell on her ears, generally recalling her at least to full
consciousness of her identity and whereabouts, and dispelling the
delusion.
But, then, what comfort was there? Veritably she had caused suffering and
death; she had led to the peril of Fanny’s children; she had covered her
mother with shame and grief! Nay, in her exaggerated tone of feeling, she
imagined that distress and poverty might have been entailed on that
beloved mother. Those title deeds—no intelligence. Captain Keith had
taken no notice. Perhaps he heard and believed those degrading reports! He
had soul enough to pity and sympathize with the failure of extended views
of beneficence; he despised the hypocrisy that had made charity a cloak
for a credulous debasing attachment, and to such an object! He might well
avoid her! His sister had always bantered her on what had seemed too
absurd to be rebutted, and, at any rate, this fainting fit would clench
his belief. No doubt he believed it. And if he did, why should not every
one else whose opinion she cared for: Ermine, her Colonel, even gentle
Fanny—no, she would never believe any harm, she had suffered too
much in her cause.
Oh, for simple genuine charity like Fanny’s, with eyes clear with
innocence and humility! And now what was before her? should she ever be
allowed to hide her head, or should she be forced again to brave that
many-eyed world? Perhaps the title-deed business would prove utter ruin.
It would have been acceptable to herself, but her mother and sister!
Chastisement! Yes, it was just chastisement for headstrong folly and
conceit. She had heard of bending to the rod and finding it a cross, but
here came the dreadful confusion of unreality, and of the broken habit of
religious meditation except as matter of debate. She did not know till her
time of need how deeply sneers had eaten into her heart. The only text
that would come to her mind was, “And in that day they shall roar against
them like the roaring of the sea; and if one look unto the land, behold
darkness and sorrow, and the light is darkened in the heavens thereof.”
Every effort at prayer or at calm recall of old thoughts still ended in
that desolate verse. The first relief to these miserable dreams was the
cool clear morning light, and by-and-by the early cathedral bells, then
Grace’s kind greeting made her quite herself; no longer feverish, but full
of lassitude and depression. She would not listen to Grace’s entreaties
that she would remain in bed. No place was so hateful to her, she said,
and she came down apparently not more unwell than had been the case for
many days past, so that after breakfast her mother saw no reason against
leaving her on the sofa, while going out to perform some commissions in
the town, attended, of course, by Grace. Miss Wellwood promised that she
should not be disturbed, and she found that she must have been asleep, for
she was taken by surprise by the opening of the door, and the apologetic
face of the butler, who told her that a gentleman had asked if she would
see him, and presented the card of “Captain Alexander Keith.”
Eagerly she desired that he should be admitted, tremulously she awaited
his sentence upon her mother’s peace, and, as she thought of all he must
have heard, all he must believe, she felt as if she must flee; or, if that
were impossible, cower in shrinking dread of the glance of his satirical
eye!
Here he was, and she could not look or speak, nor did he; she only felt
that his clasp of greeting was kind, was anxious, and he put forward the
easy-chair, into which she sank, unable to stand. He said, “I saw your
mother and sister going into the town. I thought you would like to hear of
this business at once.”
“Oh yes, thank you.”
“I could not see the man till the day before yesterday,” he said, “and I
could get nothing satisfactory from him. He said he had taken the papers
to a legal friend, but was not authorized to give his name. Perhaps his
views may be changed by his present condition. I will try him again if you
like.”
“Thank you, thank you! Do you think this is true?”
“He is too cunning a scoundrel to tell unnecessary lies, and very likely
he may have disposed of them to some Jew attorney; but I think nothing is
to be feared but some annoyance.”
“And annoyance to my mother is the one thing I most fear,” sighed Rachel,
helplessly.
“There might be a mode of much lessening it to her,” he said.
“Oh, what? Tell me, and I would do it at any cost.”
“Will you?” and he came nearer. “At the cost of yourself?”
She thrilled all over, and convulsively grasped the arm of her chair.
“Would not a son be the best person to shield her from annoyance,” he
added, trying for his usual tone, but failing, he exclaimed, “Rachel,
Rachel, let me!”
She put her hands over her face, and cried, “Oh! oh! I never thought of
this.”
“No,” he said, “and I know what you do think of it, but indeed you need
not be wasted. Our women and children want so much done for them, and none
of our ladies are able or willing. Will you not come and help me?”
“Don’t talk to me of helping! I do nothing but spoil and ruin.”
“Not now! That is all gone and past. Come and begin afresh.”
“No, no, I am too disagreeable.”
“May not I judge for myself?” he said, drawing nearer, and his voice
falling into tremulous tenderness.
“Headstrong—overbearing.”
“Try,” and his smile overbore her.
“Oh no, no, nobody can bear me! This is more than you—you ought to
do—than any one should,” she faltered, not knowing what she said.
“Than any one to whom you were not most dear!” was the answer, and he was
now standing over her, with the dew upon his eyelashes.
“Oh, that can’t be. Bessie said you always took up whatever other people
hated, and I know it is only that—”
“Don’t let Bessie’s sayings come between us now, Rachel. This goes too
deep,” and he had almost taken her hand, when with a start she drew it
back, saying, “But you know what they say!”
“Have they been stupid enough to tell you?” he exclaimed. “Confute them
then, Rachel—dolts that can’t believe in self-devotion! Laugh at
their beards. This is the way to put an end to it!”
“Oh no, they would only detest you for my sake. I can’t,” she said again,
bowed down again with shame and dejection.
“I’ll take care of that!” he said with the dry tone that perhaps was above
all reassurance, and conquered her far enough to enable him to take
possession of the thin and still listless hand.
“Then,” he said, “you will let me take this whole matter in hand; and if
the worst comes to the worst, we will make up to the charity out of the
Indian money, without vexing the mother.”
“I can’t let you suffer for my miserable folly.”
“Too late to say that!” he answered; and as her eyes were raised to him in
startled inquiry, he said gravely, “These last weeks have shown me that
your troubles must be mine.”
A hand was on the door, and Rachel fled, in time to screen her flight from
Miss Wellwood, whom Alick met with his usual undisturbed front, and
inquiries for Mrs. Curtis.
That good lady was in the town more worried than flattered by the numerous
inquiries after Rachel’s health, and conscious of having gone rather near
the wind in making the best of it. She had begun to dread being accosted
by any acquaintance, and Captain Keith, sauntering near the archway of the
close, was no welcome spectacle. She would have passed him with a curt
salutation, but he grasped her hand, saying, “May I have a few words with
you?”
“Not Fanny—not the children!” cried Mrs. Curtis in dismay.
“No indeed. Only myself,” and a gleam of intelligence under his eyelashes
and judicious pressure of his hand conveyed volumes to Grace, who had seen
him often during Rachel’s illness, and was not unprepared. She merely said
that she would see how her sister was, substituted Captain Keith’s arm for
her own as her mother’s support, and hurried away, to encounter Miss
Wellwood’s regrets that, in spite of all her precautions, dear Rachel had
been disturbed by “a young officer, I believe. We see him often at the
cathedral, and somebody said it was his sister whom Lord Keith married.”
“Yes, we know him well, and he is a Victoria Cross man,” said Grace,
beginning to assume his reflected glory.
“So some one said, but the Dean never calls on the officers unless there
is some introduction, or there would be no end to it. It was a mistake
letting him in to disturb Rachel. Is your mother gone up to her, my dear?”
“No, I think she is in the cathedral yard. I just came in to see about
Rachel,” said Grace, escaping.
Miss Wellwood intended going out to join her old friend; but, on going to
put on her bonnet, she saw from the window Mrs. Curtis, leaning on the
intruder’s arm, conversing so confidentially that the Dean’s sister
flushed with amazement, and only hoped she had mentioned him with due
respect. And under that southern cathedral wall good Mrs. Curtis took the
longest walk she had indulged in for the last twenty years, so that Grace,
and even Rachel, beholding from the window, began to fear that the mother
would be walked to death.
But then she had that supporting arm, and the moral support, that was
infinitely more! That daughter, the spoilt pet of her husband, the subject
of her pride, even when an enigma and an anxiety, whom she had lately been
forced to think of as
“A maid whom there were few to praise
And very few to love,”
she now found loved by one at least, and praised in terms that thrilled
through and through the mother’s heart in their truth and simplicity, for
that sincerity, generosity, and unselfishness. It was her own daughter,
her real Rachel, no illusion, that she heard described in those grave
earnest words, only while the whole world saw the errors and exaggerated
them, here was one who sank them all in the sterling worth that so few
would recognise. The dear old lady forgot all her prudence, and would
hardly let him speak of his means; but she soon saw that Rachel’s present
portion would be more than met on his side, and that no one could find
fault with her on the score of inequality of fortune. He would have been
quite able to retire, and live at ease, but this he said at once and with
decision he did not intend. His regiment was his hereditary home, and his
father had expressed such strong wishes that he should not lightly desert
his profession, that he felt bound to it by filial duty as well as by
other motives. Moreover, he thought the change of life and occupation
would be the best thing for Rachel, and Mrs. Curtis could not but
acquiesce, little as she had even dreamt that a daughter of hers would
marry into a marching regiment! Her surrender of judgment was curiously
complete. “Dear Alexinder,” as thenceforth she called him had assumed the
mastery over her from the first turn they took under the cathedral, and
when at length he reminded her that the clock was on the stroke of one,
she accepted it on his infallible judgment, for her own sensations would
have made her believe it not a quarter of an hour since the interview had
begun.
Not a word had been granted on either side to the conventional vows of
secrecy, always made to be broken, and perhaps each tacitly felt that the
less secrecy the better for Rachel. Certain it is that Mrs. Curtis went
into the Deanery with her head considerably higher, kissed Rachel
vehemently, and, assuring her she knew all about it, and was happier than
she had ever thought to be again, excused her from appearing at luncheon,
and hurried down thereto, without giving any attention to a feeble
entreaty that she would not go so fast. And when at three o’clock Rachel
crept downstairs to get into the carriage for her return home, the good
old Dean lay in wait for her, told her she must allow him an old friend’s
privilege, kissed her, congratulated her, and said he would beg to perform
the ceremony.
“Oh, Mr. Dean, it is nothing like that.”
He laughed, and handed her in.
“Mother, mother, how could you?” sighed Rachel, as they drove on.
“My dear, they were so kind; they could not help knowing!”
“But it can’t be.”
“Rachel, my child, you like him!”
“He does not know half about me yet. Mother, don’t tell Fanny or any one
till I have seen him again.”
And the voice was so imperious with the wayward vehemence of illness that
Mrs. Curtis durst not gainsay it. She did not know how Alick Keith was
already silencing those who asked if he had heard of the great event at
the Dean’s party. Still less did she guess at the letter at that moment in
writing:—
“My Dear Bessie,—Wish me joy. I have gone in for the uncroquetable
lawn, and won it.—Your affectionate brother,
“A. C. Keith.”
CHAPTER XXIII. DEAR ALEXANDER.
“I pray thee now tell me, for which of my bad parts didst thou first fall
in love with me?”—Much Ado about Nothing.
“Alick, is this all chivalry?” inquired Colonel Keith, sitting by his
fire, suffering considerably from his late drive, and hearing reports that
troubled him.
“Very chivalrous, indeed! when there’s an old county property to the
fore.”
“For that matter, you have all been canny enough to have means enough to
balance all that barren moorland. You are a richer man than I shall ever
be.”
“Without heiress-hunting?” said Alick, as though weighing his words.
“Come, Alick, you need not put on a mask that does not fit you! If it is
not too late, take the risk into consideration, for I own I think the
price of your championship somewhat severe.”
“Ask Miss Williams.”
“Ermine is grateful for much kindness, and is—yes—really fond
of her.”
“Then, Colonel, you ought to know that a sensible woman’s favourable
estimate of one of her own sex outweighs the opinion men can form of her.”
“I grant that there are fine qualities; but, Alick, regarding you, as I
must necessarily do, from our former relations, you must let me speak if
there is still time to warn you, lest your pity and sense of injustice
should be entangling you in a connexion that would hardly conduce to make
you happy or popular.”
“Popularity is not my line,” said Alick, looking composedly into the fire.
“Tell me first,” said the puzzled Colonel, “are you committed?”
“No one can be more so.”
“Engaged!!!”
“I thought you would have known it from themselves; but I find she has
forbidden her mother to mention it till she has seen me again. And they
talk of quiet, and shut me out!” gloomily added Alick.
The Colonel conceived a hope that the lady would abjure matrimony, and
release this devoted knight, but in a few moments Alick burst out—
“Absurd! She cannot mend with anything on her mind! If I could have seen
Mrs. Curtis or Grace alone, they might have heard reason, but that old
woman of a doctor was prosing about quiet and strain on the nerves. I know
that sort of quiet, the best receipt for distraction!”
“Well, Alick,” said his friend, smiling, “you have at least convinced me
that your heart is in the matter.”
“How should it not be?” returned Alick.
“I was afraid it was only with the object of unjust vituperation.”
“No such thing. Let me tell you, Colonel, my heart has been in it ever
since I felt the relief of meeting real truth and unselfishness! I liked
her that first evening, when she was manfully chasing us off for frivolous
danglers round her cousin! I liked her for having no conventionalities,
fast or slow, and especially for hating heroes! And when my sister had
helped to let her get into this intolerable web, how could I look on
without feeling the nobleness that has never shifted blame from herself,
but bowed, owned all, suffered—suffered—oh, how grievously!”
The Colonel was moved. “With such genuine affection you should surely lead
her and work upon her! I trust you will be able.”
“It is less that,” said Alick, rather resentfully, “than sympathy that she
wants. Nobody ever gave her that except your Ermine! By-the-bye, is there
any news of the brother?”
Colonel Keith shook his head. “I believe I shall have to go to Russia,” he
said with some dejection.
“After that, reproach one with chivalry,” said Alick, lightly. “Nay, I beg
your pardon. Shall I take any message down to Mackarel Lane?”
“Are you going?”
“Well, yes, though I hardly ought to venture there till this embargo is
taken off; for she is the one person there will be some pleasure in
talking to. Perhaps I may reckon you as the same in effect.”
The Colonel responded with a less cheerful look than usual, adding, “I
don’t know whether to congratulate you, Alick, on having to ask no one’s
consent but your own at your age.”
“Especially not my guardian’s!” said Alick, with the desired effect of
making him laugh.
“No, if you were my son, I would not interfere,” he added gravely. “I only
feared your not knowing what you were about. I see you do know it, and it
merely becomes a question of every man to his taste—except for one
point, Alick. I am afraid there may have been much disturbance of her
opinions.”
“Surface work,” said Alick, “some of the effects of the literature that
paints contradiction as truth. It is only skin deep, and makes me wish all
the more to have her with my uncle for a time. I wonder whether Grace
would let me in if I went back again!”
No, Grace was obdurate. Mr. Frampton had spoken of a nervous fever, and
commanded perfect quiescence; and Grace was the less tempted to transgress
the order, because she really thought her mother was more in love with
“dear Alexander” than Rachel was. Rachel was exceedingly depressed,
restless, and feverish, and shrank from her mother’s rejoicing, declaring
that she was mistaken, and that nothing more must be said. She had never
consented, and he must not make such a sacrifice; he would not when he
knew better. Nay, in some moods, Rachel seemed to think even the undefined
result of the interview an additional humiliation, and to feel herself
falling, if not fallen, from her supreme contempt of love and marriage.
The hurry, and the consent taken for granted, had certainly been no small
elements in her present disturbed and overwhelmed state; and Grace, though
understanding the motive, was disposed to resent the over-haste. Calm and
time to think were promised to Rachel, but the more she had of both the
more they hurt her. She tossed restlessly all night, and was depressed to
the lowest ebb by day; but on the second day, ill as she evidently was,
she insisted on seeing Captain Keith, declaring that she should never be
better till she had made him understand her. Her nurses saw that she was
right; and, besides, Mrs. Curtis’s pity was greatly touched by dear
Alexander’s entreaties. So, as a desperate experiment, he was at last
allowed to go into the dressing-room, where she was lying on the sofa. He
begged to enter alone, only announced by a soft knock, to which she
replied with a listless “Come in,” and did not look up till she suddenly
became conscious of a footfall firmer though softer than those she was
used to. She turned, and saw who it was who stood at a window opposite to
her feet, drawing up the Venetian blind, from whose teasing divisions of
glare and shade she had been hiding her eyes from the time she had come
in, fretted by the low continuous tap of its laths upon the shutters. Her
first involuntary exclamation was a sigh of relief.
“Oh, thank you. I did not know what it was that was such a nuisance.”
“This is too much glare. Let me turn your sofa a little way round from
it.”
And as he did so, and she raised herself, he shook out her cushions, and
substituted a cool chintz covered one for the hot crimson damask on which
her head had been resting. “Thank you! How do you know so well?” she said
with a long breath of satisfaction.
“By long trial,” he said, very quietly seating himself beside her couch,
with a stillness of manner that strangely hushed all her throbbings; and
the very pleasure of lying really still was such that she did not at once
break it. The lull of these few moments was inexpressibly sweet, but the
pang that had crossed her so many times in the last two days and nights
could not but return. She moved restlessly, and he leant towards her with
a soft-toned inquiry what it was she wanted.
“Don’t,” she said, raising herself. “No, don’t! I have thought more over
what you said,” she continued, as if repeating the sentence she had conned
over to herself. “You have been most generous, most noble; but—but,”
with an effort of memory, “it would be wrong in me to accept such—oh!
such a sacrifice; and when I tell you all, you will think it a duty to
turn from me,” she added, pressing her hands to her temples. “And mind,
you are not committed—you are free.”
“Tell me,” he said, bending towards her.
“I know you cannot overlook it! My faith—it is all confusion,” she
said in a low awe-struck voice. “I do believe—I do wish to believe;
but my grasp seems gone. I cannot rest or trust for thinking of the
questions that have been raised! There,” she added in a strange
interrogative tone.
“It is a cruel thing to represent doubt as the sign of intellect,” Alick
said sadly; “but you will shake off the tormentors when the power of
thinking and reasoning is come back.”
“Oh, if I could think so! The misery of darkness here—there—everywhere—the
old implicit reliance gone, and all observance seeming like hypocrisy and
unreality. There is no thinking, no enduring the intolerable maze.”
“Do not try to think now. You cannot bear it. We will try to face what
difficulties remain when you are stronger.”
She turned her eyes full on him. “You do not turn away! You know you are
free.”
“Turn from the sincerity that I prize?”
“You don’t? I thought your views were exactly what would make you hate and
loathe such bewilderment, and call it wilful;” there was something piteous
in the way her eye sought his face.
“It was not wilful,” he said; “it came of honest truth-seeking. And,
Rachel, I think the one thing is now gone that kept that honesty from
finding its way.”
“Self-sufficiency!” she said with a groan; but with a sudden turn she
exclaimed, “You don’t trust to my surrendering my judgment. I don’t think
I am that kind of woman.”
“Nor I that kind of man,” he answered in his natural tone; then
affectionately, “No, indeed I want you to aid mine.”
She lay back, wearied with the effort, and disinclined to break the
stillness. There was a move at the door; Mrs. Curtis, in an agony of
restless anxiety, could not help coming to see that the interview was
doing no harm.
“Don’t go!” exclaimed Rachel, holding out her hand as he turned at the
opening of the door. “Oh, mother!” and there was an evident sound of
disappointment.
Mrs. Curtis was infinitely rejoiced to find her entrance thus inopportune.
“I only wished just to be sure it was not too much,” she said.
“Oh, mother, it is the first peace I have known for weeks! Can’t you
stay?” looking up to him, as her mother retreated to tell Grace that it
was indeed all right.
This brought him to a footstool close beside her. “Thank you,” he
murmured. “I was wondering just then if it would hurt you or agitate you
to give me some little satisfaction in going on with this. I know you are
too true not to have told me at once if your objections were more personal
than those you have made; but, Rachel, it is true, as you say, that you
have never consented!”
The tone of these words made Rachel raise herself, turn towards him, and
hold out both her hands. “Oh,” she said, as he took them into his own, “it
was—it could be only that I cannot bear so much more than I
deserve.”
“What! such an infliction?” in his own dry way.
“Such rest, such kindness, such generosity!”
“No, Rachel, there is something that makes it neither kindness nor
generosity. You know what I mean.”
“And that is what overpowers me more than all,” she sighed, in the full
surrender of herself. “I ought not to be so very happy.”
“That is all I want to hear,” he said, as he replaced her on her cushions,
and sat by her, holding her hand, but not speaking till the next
interruption, by one of the numerous convalescent meals, brought in by
Grace, who looked doubtful whether she would be allowed to come in, and
then was edified by the little arrangements he made, quietly taking all
into his own hands, and wonderfully lessening a sort of fidget that Mrs.
Curtis’s anxiety had attached to all that was done for Rachel. It was not
for nothing that he had spent a year upon the sofa in the irritably
sensitive state of nerves that Bessie had described; and when he could
speak to Grace alone, he gave her a lecture on those little refinements of
unobtrusive care, that more demonstrative ailments had not availed to
inculcate, and which Mrs. Curtis’s present restless anxiety rendered
almost impossible. To hinder her from constantly aggravating the fever on
the nerves by her fidgeting solicitude was beyond all power save his own,
and that when he was actually in the house.
Morning after morning he rode to the Homestead to hear that Rachel had had
a very bad night, and was very low, then was admitted to find Mrs.
Curtis’s fluttering, flurried attentions exasperating every wearied fibre
with the very effort to force down fretfulness and impatience, till, when
she was left to him, a long space of the lull impressed on her by his
presence was needful before he could attempt any of the quiet talk, or
brief readings of poetry, by which he tried further to soothe and rest her
spirits. He would leave her so calm and full of repose as to make him
augur well for the next day; but the moment his back was turned, something
would always happen that set all the pulses in agitation again, and
consigned her to a fresh night of feverish phantoms of the past. He even
grew distracted enough to scold Grace fraternally as the only person he
could scold.
“You seem to nurse her on the principle of old Morris, the biggest officer
among us, who kindly insisted on sitting up with me, and began by taking
his seat upon my hand as it was lying spread out upon a pillow.”
“Indeed, Alick,” said Grace, with tears in her eyes, “I hardly know what
to do. When you are not in the house the mother is almost as much in a
nervous fever as Rachel, and it is hardly in her power to keep from
fretting her. It is all well when you are here.”
“Then, Grace, there is only one thing to be done. The sooner I take Rachel
away the better for both her and the mother.”
“Oh, Alick, you will drive them both wild if you hurry it on.”
“Look here. I believe I can get leave from Saturday till Tuesday. If I can
get a hearing in those two days, I shall try; and depend upon it, Grace,
this place is the worst that Rachel can be in.”
“Can you come out here for three whole days? Oh, what a comfort!”
And ‘what a comfort’ was re-echoed by Mrs. Curtis, who had erected dear
Alexander to a pedestal of infallibility, and was always treated by him
with a considerate kindness that made her pity Fanny for the number of
years that must pass before Stephana could give her the supreme blessing
of a son-in-law. Fanny, on her side, had sufficient present blessing in
collecting her brood around her, after the long famine she had suffered,
and regretted only that this month had rendered Stephana’s babyhood more
perceptibly a matter of the past; and that, in the distance, school days
were advancing towards Conrade, though it was at least a comfort that his
diphtheria had secured him at home for another half year, and the Colonel
had so much to think about that he had not begun his promised researches
into schools.
The long-looked-for letters came after a weary interval of expectation,
the more trying to Ermine because the weather had been so bitter that
Colin could not shake off his cold, nor venture beyond his own fireside,
where Rose daily visited him, and brought home accounts that did not cheer
her aunt.
Edward wrote shortly to his sister, as if almost annoyed at the shower of
letters that had by every post begun to recall his attention from some new
invention on the means of assaying metals:—
“I am sorry you have stirred up Keith to the renewal of this painful
subject. You know I considered that page in my life as closed for ever,
and I see nothing that would compensate for what it costs me even to think
of it. To redeem my name before the world would be of no avail to me now,
for all my English habits are broken, and all that made life valuable to
me is gone. If Long and Beauchamp could reject my solemn affirmation three
years ago, what would a retractation slowly wrung from them be worth to me
now? It might once have been, but that is all over now. Even the desire to
take care of you would no longer actuate me since you have Keith again;
and in a few years I hope to make my child independent in money matters—independent
of your love and care you would not wish her to be. Forget the troubles of
your life, Ermine, and be happy with your faithful Keith, without further
efforts on behalf of one whom they only harass and grieve.”
Ermine shed some bitter tears over this letter, the more sorrowful because
the refusal was a shock to her own reliance on his honour, and she felt
like a traitress to his cause. And Colin would give him up after this
ungrateful indifference, if nothing worse. Surely it betrayed a
consciousness that the whole of his conduct would not bear inquiry, and
she thought of the representations that she had so indignantly rejected,
that the accounts, even without the last fatal demand, were in a state
that it required an excess of charity to ascribe to mere carelessness on
the part of the principal.
She was glad that Alison was absent, and Rose in the garden. She laid her
head on her little table, and drew long sobs of keen suffering, the
reaction from the enjoyment and hope of the last few months. And so little
knew she what she ought to ask, that she could only strive to say, “Thy
will be done.”
“Ermine! my Ermine, this is not a thing to be so much taken to heart. This
foolish philosopher has not even read his letters. I never saw any one
more consistently like himself.”
Ermine looked up, and Colin was standing over her, muffled up to the eyes,
and a letter of his own in his hand. Her first impulse was to cry out
against his imprudence, glad as she was to see him. “My cough is nearly
gone,” he said, unwinding his wrappings, “and I could not stay at home
after this wonderful letter—three pages about chemical analysis,
which he does me the honour to think I can understand, two of commissions
for villainous compounds, and one of protestations that ‘I will be
drowned; nobody shall help me.’”
Ermine’s laugh had come, even amid her tears, his tone was so great a
relief to her. She did not know that he had spent some minutes in cooling
down his vexation, lest he should speak ungently of her brother’s
indifference. “Poor Edward,” she said, “you don’t mean that this is all
the reply you have?”
“See for yourself,” and he pointed to the divisions of the letter he had
described. “There is all he vouchsafes to his own proper affairs. You see
he misapprehends the whole; indeed, I don’t believe he has even read our
letters.”
“We often thought he did not attend to all we wrote,” said Ermine. “It is
very disheartening!”
“Nay, Ermine, you disheartened with the end in view!”
“There are certainly the letters about Maddox’s committal still to reach
him, but who knows if they will have more effect! Oh, Colin, this was such
a hope that—perhaps I have dwelt too much upon it!”
“It is such a hope,” he repeated. “There is no reason for laying it aside,
because Edward is his old self.”
“Colin! you still think so?”
“I think so more than ever. If he will not read reason, he must hear it,
and if he takes no notice of the letters we sent after the sessions, I
shall go and bring him back in time for the assizes.”
“Oh, Colin! it cannot be. Think of the risk! You who are still looking so
thin and ill. I cannot let you.”
“It will be warm enough by the time I get there.”
“The distance! You are doing too much for us.”
“No, Ermine,” with a smile, “that I will never do.”
She tried to answer his smile, but leant back and shed tears, not like the
first, full of pain, but of affectionate gratitude, and yet of reluctance
at his going. She had ever been the strength and stay of the family, but
there seemed to be a source of weakness in his nearness, and this period
of his indisposition and of suspense had been a strain on her spirits that
told in this gentle weeping. “This is a poor welcome after you have been
laid up so long,” she said when she could speak again. “If I behave so
ill, you will only want to run from the sight of me.”
“It will be July when I come back.”
“I do not think you ought to go.”
“Nor I, if Edward deigns to read the account of Rose’s examination.”
In that calm smiling resolution Ermine read the needlessness of present
argument, and spoke again of his health and his solitary hours.
“Mitchel has been very kind in coming to sit with me, and we have indulged
in two or three castles in the air—hospitals in the air, perhaps, I
should say. I told him he might bring me down another guest instead of the
tailor, and he has brought a poor young pupil teacher, whom Tibbie calls a
winsome gallant, but I am afraid she won’t save him. Did you ever read the
‘Lady of La Garaye’?”
“Not the poem, but I know her story.”
“As soon as that parcel comes in, which Villars is always expecting, I
propose to myself to read that poem with you. What’s that? It can’t be
Rachel as usual.”
If it was not Rachel, it was the next thing to her, namely, Alick Keith.
This was the last day of those that he had spent at the Homestead, and he
was leaving Rachel certainly better. She had not fallen back on any
evening that he had been there, but to his great regret he would not be
able to come out the next day. Regimental duty would take him up nearly
all the day, and then he was invited to a party at the Deanery, “which the
mother would never have forgiven me for refusing,” he said; just as if the
mother’s desires had the very same power over him as over her daughters.
“I came to make a desperate request, Miss Williams,” he said. “Would it be
any way possible for you to be so kind as to go up and see Rachel? She
comes downstairs now, and there are no steps if you go in by the glass
doors. Do you think you could manage it?”
“She wishes it?” said Ermine.
“Very much. There are thorns in her mind that no one knows how to deal
with so well as you do, and she told me yesterday how she longed to get to
you.”
“It is very good in her. I have sometimes feared she might think we had
dealt unfairly by her if she did not know how very late in the business we
suspected that our impostors were the same,” said Ermine.
“It is not her way to blame any one but herself,” said Alick, “and, in
fact, our showing her the woodcut deception was a preparation for the rest
of it. But I have said very little to her about all that matter. She
required to be led away rather than back to it. Brooding over it is fatal
work, and yet her spirits are too much weakened and shattered to bear
over-amusement. That is the reason that I thought you would be so very
welcome to-morrow. She has seen no one yet but Lady Temple, and shrinks
from the very idea.”
“I do not see why I should not manage it very well,” said Ermine,
cheerfully, “if Miss Curtis will let me know in time whether she is equal
to seeing me. You know I can walk into the house now.”
Alick thanked her earnestly. His listless manner was greatly enlivened by
his anxiety, and Colonel Keith was obliged to own that marriage would be a
good thing for him; but such a marriage! If from sheer indolence he should
leave the government to his wife, then—Colin could only shrug his
shoulders in dismay.
Nevertheless, when Ermine’s wheeled chair came to the door the next
afternoon, he came with it, and walked by her side up the hill, talking of
what had been absolutely the last call she had made—a visit when
they had both been riding with the young Beauchamps.
“Suppose any one had told me then I should make my next visit with you to
take care of me, how pleased I should have been,” said Ermine, laughing,
and taking as usual an invalid’s pleasure in all the little novelties only
remarked after long seclusion. That steep, winding, pebbly road, with the
ferns and creeping plants on its rocky sides, was a wonderful panorama to
her, and she entreated for a stop at the summit to look down on the sea
and the town; but here Grace came out to them full of thanks and hopes,
little knowing that to them the event was a very great one. When at the
glass doors of the garden entrance, Ermine trusted herself to the
Colonel’s arm, and between him and her crutch crossed the short space to
the morning room, where Rachel rose from her sofa, but wisely did not come
forward till her guest was safely placed in a large easy chair.
Rachel then held out her hand to the Colonel, and quietly said, “Thank
you,” in a subdued manner that really touched him, as he retreated quickly
and left them together. Then Rachel sat down on a footstool close to
Ermine, and looked up to her. “Oh, it is so good of you to come to me! I
would not have dared to think of it, but I just said I wished to get out
for nothing but to go to you; and then he—Captain Keith-would go and
fetch you.”
“As the nearest approach to fetching the moon, I suppose,” said Ermine,
brightly. “It was very kind to me, for I was longing to see you, and I am
glad to find you looking better than I expected.”
For in truth Rachel’s complexion had been little altered by her illness;
and the subdued dejected expression was the chief change visible, except
in the feebleness and tremulousness of all her movements. “Yes, I am
better,” she said. “I ought to be, for he is so good to me.”
“Dear Rachel, I was so very glad to hear of this,” said Ermine, bending
down to kiss her.
“Were you? I thought no one could be that cared for him,” said Rachel.
“I cared more for him the week that you were ill than ever I had done
before.”
“Grace tells me of that,” said Rachel, “and when he is here I believe it.
But, Miss Williams, please look full at me, and tell me whether everybody
would not think—I don’t say that I could do it—but if every
one would not think it a great escape for him if I gave him up.”
“No one that could really judge.”
“Because, listen,” said Rachel, quickly, “the regiment is going to
Scotland, and he and the mother have taken it into their heads that I
shall get well faster somewhere away from home. And—and they want to
have the wedding as soon as I am better; and they are going to write about
settlements and all that. I have never said I would, and I don’t feel as
if—as if I ought to let him do it; and if ever the thing is to be
stopped at all, this is the only time.”
“But why? You do not wish—”
“Don’t talk of what I wish,” said Rachel. “Talk of what is good for him.”
Ermine was struck with the still resolute determination of judging for
herself—the self-sufficiency, almost redeemed by the unselfishness,
and the face was most piteously in earnest.
“My dear, surely he can be trusted to judge. He is no boy, in spite of his
looks. The Colonel always says that he is as much older than his age in
character as he is younger in appearance.”
“I know that,” said Rachel, “but I don’t think he ought to be trusted
here; for you see,” and she looked down, “all the blindness of—of
his affection is enhanced by his nobleness and generosity, and he has
nobody to check or stop him; and it does seem to me a shame for us all to
catch at such compassion, and encumber him with me, just because I am
marked for scorn and dislike. I can’t get any one to help me look at it
so. My own people would fancy it was only that I did not care for him; and
he—I can’t even think about it when he is here, but I get quite
distracted with doubts if it can be right whenever he goes away. And you
are the only person who can help me! Bessie wrote very kindly to me, and I
asked to see what she said to him. I thought I might guess her feeling
from it. And he said he knew I should fancy it worse than it was if he did
not let me see. It was droll, and just like her—not unkind, but I
could see it is the property that makes her like it. And his uncle is
blind, you know, and could only send a blessing, and kind hopes, and all
that. Oh, if I could guess whether that uncle thinks he ought! What does
Colonel Keith think? I know you will tell me truly.”
“He thinks,” said Ermine, with a shaken voice, “that real trustworthy
affection outweighs all the world could say.”
“But he thinks it is a strange, misplaced liking, exaggerated by pity for
one sunk so low?” said Rachel, in an excited manner.
“Rachel,” said Ermine, “you must take my beginning as a pledge of my
speaking the whole truth. Colonel Keith is certainly not fond of you
personally, and rather wonders at Alick, but he has never doubted that
this is the genuine feeling that is for life, and that it is capable of
making you both better and happier. Indeed, Rachel, we do both feel that
you suit Alick much more than many people who have been far better liked.”
Rachel looked cheered. “Yet you,” she faltered, “you have been an instance
of resolute withstanding.”
“I don’t think I shall be long,” murmured Ermine, a vivid colour flashing
forth upon her cheek, and leading the question from herself. “Just suppose
you did carry out this fierce act of self-abnegation, what do you think
could come next?”
“I don’t know! I would not break down or die if I could help it,” added
Rachel, faintly after her brave beginning.
“And for him? Do you think being cast off would be so very pleasant to
him?”
Rachel hung her head, and her lips made a half murmur of, “Would not it be
good for him?”
“No, Rachel, it is the very sorest trial there can be when, even in the
course of providence, kind intentions are coldly requited; and it would be
incalculably harder when therewith there would be rejection of love.”
“Ah! I never said I could do it. I could not tell him I did not care for
him, and short of that nothing would stop it,” sobbed Rachel, “only I
wished to feel it was not very mean—very wrong.” She laid her weary
head on Ermine’s lap, and Ermine bent down and kissed her.
“So happy, so bright and free, and capable, his life seems now,” proceeded
Rachel. “I can’t understand his joining it to mine; and if people shunned
and disliked him for my sake!”
“Surely that will depend on yourself. I have never seen you in society,
but if you have the fear of making him unpopular or remarkable before your
eyes, you will avoid it.”
“Oh, yes, I know,” said Rachel, impatiently. “I did think I should not
have been a commonplace woman,” and she shed a few tears.
Ermine was provoked with her, and began to think that she had been arguing
on a wrong tack, and that it would be better after all for Alick to be
free. Rachel looked up presently. “It must be very odd to you to hear me
say so, but I can’t help feeling the difference. I used to think it so
poor and weak to be in love, or to want any one to take care of one. I
thought marriage such ordinary drudgery, and ordinary opinions so
contemptible, and had such schemes for myself. And this—and this is
such a break down, my blunders and their consequences have been so
unspeakably dreadful, and now instead of suffering, dying—as I felt
I ought—it has only made me just like other women, for I know I
could not live without him, and then all the rest of it must come for his
sake.”
“And will make you much more really useful and effective than ever you
could have been alone,” said Ermine.
“He does talk of doing things together, but, oh! I feel as if I could
never dare put out my hand again!”
“Not alone perhaps.”
“I like to hear him tell me about the soldiers’ children, and what he
wants to have done for them.”
“You and I little thought what Lady Temple was to bring us,” said Ermine,
cheerfully, “but you see we are not the strongest creatures in the world,
so we must resign ourselves to our fate, and make the best of it. They
must judge how many imperfections they choose to endure, and we can only
make the said drawbacks as little troublesome as may be. Now, I think I
see Miss Curtis watching in fear that I am over-talking you.”
“Oh, must you go? You have really comforted me! I wanted an external
opinion very much, and I do trust yours! Only tell me,” she added, holding
Ermine’s hand, “is this indeed so with you?”
“Not yet,” said Ermine, softly, “do not speak about it, but I think you
will be comforted to hear that this matter of yours, by leading to the
matron’s confession, may have removed an obstacle that was far more
serious in my eyes than even my own helplessness, willing as Colin was to
cast both aside. Oh, Rachel, there is a great deal to be thankful for.”
Rachel lay down on her sofa, and fell asleep, nor did Alick find any
occasion for blaming Grace when he returned the next day. The effect of
the conversation had been to bring Rachel to a meek submission, very
touching in its passiveness and weary peacefulness. She was growing
stronger, walked out leaning on Alick’s arm, and was even taken out by him
in a boat, a wonderful innovation, for a dangerous accident to Mr. Curtis
had given the mother such a horror of the sea that no boating excursions
had ever taken place during her solitary reign, and the present were only
achieved by a wonderful stretch of dear Alexander’s influence. Perhaps she
trusted him the more, because his maimed hand prevented him from being
himself an oarsman, though he had once been devoted to rowing. At any
rate, with an old fisherman at the oar, many hours were spent upon the
waters of the bay, in a tranquillity that was balm to the harassed spirit,
with very little talking, now and then some reading aloud, but often
nothing but a dreamy repose. The novelty and absence of old association
was one secret of the benefit that Rachel thus derived. Any bustle or
resumption of former habits was a trial to her shattered nerves, and
brought back the dreadful haunted nights. The first sight of Conrade,
still looking thin and delicate, quite overset her; a drive on the
Avoncester road renewed all she had felt on the way thither; three or four
morning visitors coming in on her unexpectedly, made the whole morbid
sense of eyes staring at her recur all night, and when the London
solicitor came down about the settlements, she shrank in such a painful
though still submissive way, from the sight of a stranger, far more from
the semblance of a dinner party, that the mother yielded, and let her
remain in her sitting-room.
“May I come in?” said Alick, knocking at the door. “I have something to
tell you.”
“What, Alick! Not Mr. Williams come?”
“Nothing so good. In fact I doubt if you will think it good at all. I have
been consulting this same solicitor about the title-deeds; that cheese you
let fall, you know,” he added, stroking her hand, and speaking so gently
that the very irony was rather pleasant.
“Oh, it is very bad.”
“Now wouldn’t you like to hear it was so bad that I should have to sell
out, and go to the diggings to make it up?”
“Now, Alick, if it were not for your sake, you know I should like—”
“I know you would; but you see, unfortunately, it was not a cheese at all,
only a wooden block that the fox ran away with. Lawyers don’t put people’s
title-deeds into such dangerous keeping; the true cheese is safe locked up
in a tin-box in Mr. Martin’s chambers in London.”
“Then what did I give Mauleverer?”
“A copy kept for reference down here.” Rachel hid her face.
“There, I knew you would think it no good news, and it is just a
thunder-clap to me. All you wanted me for was to defend the mother and
make up to the charity, and now there’s no use in me,” he said in a
disconsolate tone.
“Oh, Alick, Alick, why am I so foolish?”
“Never mind; I took care Martin should not know it. Nobody is aware of the
little affair but our two selves; and I will take care the fox learns the
worth of his prize. Only now, Rachel, answer me, is there any use left for
me still?”
“You should not ask me such things, Alick, you know it all too well.”
“Not so well that I don’t want to hear it. But I had more to say. This
Martin is a man of very different calibre from old Cox, with a head and
heart in London charities and churches, and it had struck him as it did
you, that the Homestead had an easier bargain of it than that good
namesake of yours had ever contemplated. If it paid treble or quadruple
rent, the dear mother would never find it out, nor grow a geranium the
less.”
“No, she would not! But after all, the lace apprenticeships are poor
work.”
“So they are, but Martin says there would be very little difficulty in
getting a private bill to enable the trustees to apply the sum otherwise
for the benefit of the Avonmouth girls.”
“Then if I had written to him, it would have been all right! Oh, my
perverseness!”
“And, Rachel, now that money has been once so intended; suppose it kept
its destination. About £500 would put up a tidy little industrial school,
and you might not object to have a scholarship or two for some of our
little —th Highlander lassies whose fathers won’t make orphans of
them for the regular military charities. What, crying, Rachel! Don’t you
like it?”
“It is my dream. The very thing I wished and managed so vilely. If Lovedy
were alive! Though perhaps that is not the thing to wish. But I can’t bear
taking your—”
“Hush! You can’t do worse than separate your own from mine. This is no
part of the means I laid before Mr. Martin by way of proving myself a
responsible individual. I took care of that. Part of this is prize-money,
and the rest was a legacy that a rich old merchant put me down for in a
transport of gratitude because his son was one of the sick in the bungalow
where the shell came. I have had it these three or four months, and
wondered what to do with it.”
“This will be very beautiful, very excellent. And we can give the ground.”
“I have thought of another thing. I never heard of an industrial school
where the great want was not food for industry. Now I know the Colonel and
Mr. Mitchell have some notion floating in their minds about getting a
house for convalescents down here, and it strikes me that this might
supply the work in cooking, washing, and so on. I think I might try what
they thought of it.”
Rachel could only weep out her shame and thankfulness, and when Alick
reverently added that it was a scheme that would require much thought and
much prayer, the pang struck her to the heart—how little she had
prayed over the F. U. E. E. The prayer of her life had been for action and
usefulness, but when she had seen the shadow in the stream, her hot and
eager haste, her unconscious detachment from all that was not visible and
material had made her adhere too literally to that misinterpreted motto,
laborare est orare. How should then her eyes be clear to discern between
substance and shadow?
CHAPTER XXIV. THE HONEYMOON.
“Around the very place doth brood
A calm and holy quietude.”—REV. ISAAC WILLIAMS.
The level beams of a summer sun, ending one of his longest careers, were
tipping a mountain peak with an ineffable rosy purple, contrasting with
the deep shades of narrow ravines that cleft the rugged sides, and
gradually expanded into valleys, sloping with green pasture, or clothed
with wood. The whole picture, with its clear, soft sky, was retraced on
the waters of the little lake set in emerald meadows, which lay before the
eyes of Rachel Keith, as she reclined in a garden chair before the windows
of a pretty rustic-looking hotel, but there was no admiration, no peaceful
contemplation on her countenance, only the same weary air of depression,
too wistful and startled even to be melancholy repose, and the same
bewildered distressed look that had been as it were stamped on her by the
gaze of the many unfriendly eyes at the Quarter Sessions, and by her two
unfortunate dinner parties.
The wedding was to have been quietness itself, but though the bridegroom
had refused to contribute sister, brother-in-law, or even uncle to the
numbers, conventionalities had been too strong for Mrs. Curtis, and “just
one more” had been added to the guests till a sufficient multitude had
been collected to renew all Rachel’s morbid sensations of distress and
bewilderment with their accompanying feverish symptoms, and she had been
only able to proceed on her journey by very short stages, taken late in
the day.
Alick had not forgotten her original views as to travelling, and as they
were eventually to go to Scotland, had proposed beginning with Dutch
reformatories and Swiss cretins; but she was so plainly unfit for extra
fatigue and bustle, that the first few weeks were to be spent in Wales,
where the enjoyment of fine scenery might, it was hoped, be beneficial to
the jaded spirits, and they had been going through a course of passes and
glens as thoroughly as Rachel’s powers would permit, for any over-fatigue
renewed feverishness and its delusive miseries, and the slightest alarm
told upon the shattered nerves.
She did not easily give way at the moment, but the shock always took
revenge in subsequent suffering, which all Alick’s care could not prevent,
though the exceeding charm of his tenderness rendered even the
indisposition almost precious to her.
“What a lovely sunset!” he said, coming to lean over the back of her
chair. “Have you been watching it?”
“I don’t know.”
“Are you very much tired?”
“No, it is very quiet here.”
“Very; but I must take you in before that curling mist mounts into your
throat.”
“This is a very nice place, Alick, the only really quiet one we have
found.”
“I am afraid that it will be so no longer. The landlord tells me he has
letters from three parties to order rooms.”
“Oh, then, pray let us go on,” said Rachel, looking alarmed.
“To-morrow afternoon then, for I find there’s another waterfall.”
“Very well,” said Rachel, resignedly.
“Or shall we cut the waterfall, and get on to Llan—something?”
“If you don’t think we ought to see it.”
“Ought?” he said, smiling. “What is the ought in the case? Why are we
going through all this? Is it a duty to society or to ourselves?”
“A little of both, I suppose,” said Rachel.
“And, Rachel, from the bottom of your heart, is it not a trying duty?”
“I want to like what you are showing me,” said Rachel.
“And you are more worried than delighted, eh?”
“I—I don’t know! I see it is grand and beautiful! I did love my own
moors, and the Spinsters’ Needles, but—Don’t think me very
ungrateful, but I can’t enter into all this! All I really do care for is
your kindness, and helping me about,” and she was really crying like a
child unable to learn a lesson.
“Well,” he said, with his own languor of acquiescence, “we are perfectly
agreed. Waterfalls are an uncommon bore, if one is not in a concatenation
accordingly.”
Rachel was beguiled into a smile.
“Come,” he said, “let us be strong minded! If life should ever become
painful to us because of our neglect of the waterfalls, we will set out
and fulfil our tale of them. Meantime, let me take you where you shall be
really quiet, home to Bishopsworthy.”
“But your uncle does not expect you so soon.”
“My uncle is always ready for me, and a week or two of real rest there
would make you ready for the further journey.”
Rachel made no opposition. She was glad to have her mind relieved from the
waterfalls, but she had rather have been quite alone with her husband. She
knew that Lord and Lady Keith had taken a house at Littleworthy, while
Gowanbrae was under repair, and she dreaded the return to the bewildering
world, before even the first month was over; but Alick made the proposal
so eagerly that she could not help assenting with all the cordiality she
could muster, thinking that it must be a wretched, disappointing wedding
tour for him, and she would at least not prevent his being happy with his
uncle; as happy as he could be with a person tied to him, of whom all his
kindred must disapprove, and especially that paragon of an uncle, whom she
heard of like an intensification of all that class of clergy who had of
late been most alien to her.
Alick did not press for her real wishes, but wrote his letter, and
followed it as fast as she could bear to travel. So when the train, a
succession of ovens for living bodies disguised in dust, drew up at the
Littleworthy Station, there was a ready response to the smart footman’s
inquiry, “Captain and Mrs. Keith?” This personage by no means accorded
with Rachel’s preconceived notions of the Rectory establishment, but she
next heard the peculiar clatter by which a grand equipage announces its
importance, and saw the coronetted blinkers tossing on the other side of
the railing. A kind little note of welcome was put into Rachel’s hand as
she was seated in the luxurious open carriage, and Alick had never felt
better pleased with his sister than when he found his wife thus spared the
closeness of the cramping fly, or the dusty old rectory phaeton.
Hospitality is never more welcome than at the station, and Bessie’s letter
was complacently accepted. Rachel would, she knew, be too much tired to
see her on that day, and on the next she much regretted having an
engagement in London, but on the Sunday they would not fail to meet, and
she begged that Rachel would send word by the servant what time Meg should
be sent to the Rectory for her to ride; it would be a kindness to exercise
her, for it was long since she had been used.
Rachel could not help colouring with pleasure at the notion of riding her
own Meg again, and Alick freely owned that it was well thought of. He
already had a horse at his uncle’s, and was delighted to see Rachel at
last looking forward to something. But as she lay back in the carriage,
revelling in the fresh wind, she became dismayed at the succession of
cottages of gentility, with lawns and hedges of various pretensions.
“There must be a terrible number of people here!”
“This is only Littleworthy.”
“Not very little.”
“No; I told you it was villafied and cockneyfied. There,” as the horses
tried to stop at a lodge leading to a prettily built house, “that’s Timber
End, the crack place here, where Bessie has always said it was her
ambition to live.”
“How far is it from the Parsonage?”
“Four miles.”
Which was a comfort to Rachel, not that she wished to be distant from
Bessie, but the population appalled her imagination.
“Bishopsworthy is happily defended by a Dukery,” explained Alick, as
coming to the end of the villas they passed woods and fields, a bit of
heathy common, and a scattering of cottages. Labourers going home from
work looked up, and as their eyes met Alick’s there was a mutual smile and
touch of the hat. He evidently felt himself coming home. The trees of a
park were beginning to rise in front, when the carriage turned suddenly
down a sharp steep hill; the right side of the road bounded by a park
paling; the left, by cottages, reached by picturesque flights of brick
stairs, then came a garden wall, and a halt. Alick called out, “Thanks,”
and “we will get out here,” adding, “They will take in the goods the back
way. I don’t like careering into the churchyard.”
Rachel, alighting, saw that the lane proceeded downwards to a river
crossed by a wooden bridge, with an expanse of meadows beyond. To her left
was a stable-yard, and below it a white gate and white railings enclosing
a graveyard, with a very beautiful church standing behind a mushroom
yew-tree. The upper boundary of the churchyard was the clipped yew hedge
of the rectory garden, whose front entrance was through the churchyard.
There was a lovely cool tranquillity of aspect as the shadows lay sleeping
on the grass; and Rachel could have stood and gazed, but Alick opened the
gate, and there was a movement at the seat that enclosed the gnarled trunk
of the yew tree. A couple of village lads touched their caps and departed
the opposite way, a white setter dog bounded forward, and, closely
attended by a still snowier cat, a gentleman came to meet them, so
fearlessly treading the pathway between the graves, and so youthful in
figure, that it was only the “Well, uncle, here she is,” and, “Alick, my
dear boy,” that convinced her that this was indeed Mr. Clare. The next
moment he had taken her hand, kissed her brow, and spoken a few words of
fatherly blessing, then, while Alick exchanged greetings with the cat and
dog, he led her to the arched yew-tree entrance to his garden, up two
stone steps, along a flagged path across the narrow grass-plat in front of
the old two-storied house, with a tiled verandah like an eyebrow to the
lower front windows.
Instead of entering by the door in the centre, he turned the corner of the
house, where the eastern gable disclosed a window opening on a sloping
lawn full of bright flower-beds. The room within was lined with books and
stored with signs of parish work, but with a refined orderliness reigning
over the various little ornaments, and almost betokening feminine
habitation; and Alick exclaimed with admiration of a large bowl of fresh
roses, beautifully arranged.
“Traces of Bessie,” said Mr. Clare; “she brought them this morning, and
spent nearly an hour in arranging them and entertaining me with her bright
talk. I have hardly been able to keep out of the room since, they make it
so delicious.”
“Do you often see her?” asked Alick.
“Yes, dear child, she is most good-natured and attentive, and I take it
most kindly of her, so courted as she is.”
“How do you get on with his lordship?”
“I don’t come much in his way, he has been a good deal laid up with
sciatica, but he seems very fond of her; and it was all her doing that
they have been all this time at Littleworthy, instead of being in town for
the season. She thought it better for him.”
“And where is Mr. Lifford?” asked Alick.
“Gone to M—— till Saturday.”
“Unable to face the bride.”
“I fear Ranger is not equally shy,” said Mr. Clare, understanding a
certain rustle and snort to import that the dog was pressing his chin hard
upon Rachel’s knee, while she declared her content with the handsome
creature’s black depth of eye; and the cat executed a promenade of
tenderness upon Alick.
“How are the peacocks, Alick?” added Mr. Clare; “they, at least, are
inoffensive pets. I dreaded the shears without your superintendence, but
Joe insisted that they were getting lop-sided.”
Alick put his head out at the window. “All right, sir; Joe has been a
little hard on the crest of the left-hand one, but it is recovering.”
Whereupon, Rachel discovered that the peacocks were creatures of yew-tree,
perched at either end of the garden fence. Mr. Clare had found them there,
and preserved them with solicitous fidelity.
Nothing could be less like than he was to the grave, thin, stooping
ascetic in a long coat, that she had expected. He was a tall, well-made
man, of the same youthful cast of figure as his nephew, and a far lighter
and more springy step, with features and colouring recalling those of his
niece, as did the bright sunny playful sweetness of his manner; his dark
handsome eyes only betraying their want of sight by a certain glassy
immobility that contrasted with the play of the expressive mouth. It was
hard to guess why Bessie should have shunned such an uncle. Alick took
Rachel to the bedroom above the library, and, like it, with two windows—one
overlooking churchyard, river, and hay-fields, the other commanding, over
the peacock hedge, a view of the playground, where Mr. Clare was seen
surrounded by boys, appealing to him on some disputed matter of cricket.
There was a wonderful sense of serenity, freshness, and fragrance,
inexpressibly grateful to Rachel’s wearied feelings, and far more
comfortable than the fine scenery through which she had been carried,
because no effort to look and admire was incumbent on her—nay, not
even an effort to talk all the evening. Mr. Clare seemed to have perfectly
imbibed the idea that rest was what she wanted, and did not try to make
small talk with her, though she sat listening with pleased interest to the
conversation between him and his nephew—so home like, so full of
perfect understanding of one another.
“Is there anything to be read aloud?” presently asked Alick.
“You have not by chance got ‘Framley Parsonage?’”
“I wish I had. I did pick up ‘Silas Marner,’ at a station, thinking you
might like it,” and he glanced at Rachel, who had, he suspected, thought
his purchase an act of weakness. “Have you met with it?”
“I have met with nothing of the sort since you were here last;” then
turning to Rachel, “Alick indulges me with novels, for my good curate had
rather read the catalogue of a sale any day than meddle with one, and I
can’t set on my pupil teacher in a book where I don’t know what is
coming.”
“We will get ‘Framley,’” said Alick.
“Bessie has it. She read me a very clever scene about a weak young parson
bent on pleasing himself; and offered to lend me the book, but I thought
it would not edify Will Walker. But, no doubt, you have read it long ago.”
“No,” said Rachel; and something withheld her from disclaiming such empty
employments. Indeed, she was presently much interested in the admirable
portraiture of “Silas Marner,” and still more by the keen, vivid
enjoyment, critical, droll, and moralizing, displayed by a man who heard
works of fiction so rarely that they were always fresh to him, and who
looked on them as studies of life. His hands were busy all the time
carving a boss for the roof of one of the side aisles of his church—the
last step in its gradual restoration.
That night there was no excitement of nerve, no morbid fancy to trouble
Rachel’s slumbers; she only awoke as the eight o’clock bell sounded
through the open window, and for the first time for months rose less weary
than she had gone to rest. Week-day though it were, the description “sweet
day, so calm, so cool, so bright,” constantly recurred to her mind as she
watched the quiet course of occupation. Alick, after escorting his uncle
to a cottage, found her searching among the stores in the music stand.
“You unmusical female,” he said, “what is that for?”
“Your uncle spoke of music last night, and I thought he would like it.”
“I thought you had no such propensity.”
“I learnt like other people, but it was the only thing I could not do as
well as Grace, and I thought it wasted time, and was a young ladyism; but
if can recover music enough to please him, I should be glad.”
“Thank you,” said Alick, earnestly. “He is very much pleased with your
voice in speaking. Indeed, I believe I first heard it with his ears.”
“This is a thorough lady’s collection of music,” said Rachel, looking
through it to hide her blush of pleasure. “Altogether the house has not a
bachelor look.”
“Did you not know that he had been married? It was when he first had the
living twelve years ago. She was a very lovely young thing, half Irish,
and this was the happiest place in the world for two years, till her
little brother was sent home here from school without proper warning of a
fever that had begun there. We all had it, but she and her baby were the
only ones that did not recover! There they lie, under the yew-tree, where
my uncle likes to teach the children. He was terribly struck down for
years, though he went manfully to his work, and it has been remarkable how
his spirits and sociability have returned since he lost his sight; indeed,
he is more consistently bright than ever he was.”
“I never saw any one like him,” said Rachel. “I have fallen in with clergy
that some call holy, and with some that others call pious, but he is not a
bit like either. He is not even grave, yet there is a calming, refreshing
sense of reverence towards him that would be awe, only it is so happy.”
Alick’s response was to bend over her, and kiss her brow. She had never
seen him so much gratified.
“What a comfort your long stay with him must have been,” she said
presently, “in the beginning of his blindness!”
“I hope so. It was an ineffable comfort to me to come here out of
Littleworthy croquet, and I think cheering me did him good. Rachel, you
may do and say what you please,” he added, earnestly, “since you have
taken to him.”
“I could not help it,” said Rachel, though a slight embarrassment came
over her at the recollection of Bessie, and at the thought of the narrow
views on which she expected to differ. Then, as Alick continued to search
among the music, she asked, “Will he like the piano to be used?”
“Of all things. Bessie’s singing is his delight. Look, could we get this
up?”
“You don’t sing, Alick! I mean, do you?”
“We need not betray our talents to worldlings base.”
Rachel found her accompaniment the least satisfactory part of the affair,
and resolved on an hour’s practice every day in Mr. Clare’s absence, a
wholesome purpose even as regarded her health and spirits. She had just
sat down to write letters, feeling for the first time as if they would not
be a toil, when Mr. Clare looked in to ask Alick to refer to a verse in
the Psalms, quoting it in Greek as well as English, and after the research
had been carried to the Hebrew, he told Rachel that he was going to write
his sermon, and repaired to the peacock path, where he paced along with
Ranger and the cat, in faithful, unobtrusive attendance.
“What, you can read Hebrew, Alick?”
“So can you.”
“Enough to appreciate the disputed passages. When did you study it?”
“I learnt enough, when I was laid up, to look out my uncle’s texts for
him.”
She felt a little abashed by the tone, but a message called him away, and
before his return Mr. Clare came back to ask for a reference to St.
Augustine. On her offer of her services, she was thanked, and directed
with great precision to the right volume of the Library of the Fathers,
but spying a real St. Augustine, she could not be satisfied without a
flight at the original. It was not, however, easy to find the place; she
was forced to account for her delay by confessing her attempt, and then to
profit by Mr. Clare’s directions, and, after all, her false quantities,
though most tenderly and apologetically corrected, must have been dreadful
to the scholarly ear, for she was obliged to get Alick to read the passage
over to him before he arrived at the sense, and Rachel felt her flight of
clever womanhood had fallen short. It was quite new to her to be living
with people who knew more of, and went deeper into, everything than she
did, and her husband’s powers especially amazed her.
The afternoon was chiefly spent in the hay-field under a willow-tree; Mr.
Clare tried to leave the young people to themselves, but they would not
consent; and, after a good deal of desultory talk and description of the
minnows and water-spiders, in whom Mr. Clare seemed to take a deep
interest, they went on with their book till the horses came, and Alick
took Rachel for a ride in Earlsworthy Park, a private gate of which, just
opposite to the Rectory, was free to its inhabitants. The Duke was an old
college friend of Mr. Clare, and though much out of health, and hardly
ever able to reside at the Park, all its advantages were at the Rector’s
service, and they were much appreciated when, on this sultry summer’s day,
Rachel found shade and coolness in the deep arcades of the beech woods,
and freshness on the upland lawns, as she rode happily on the dear old
mare, by whom she really thought herself fondly recognised. There was
something in the stillness of the whole, even in the absence of the roll
and plash of the sea waves beside which she had grown up, that seemed to
give her repose from the hurry and throb of sensations and thoughts that
had so long preyed upon her; and when the ride was over she was refreshed,
not tired, and the evening bell drew her to the conclusion most befitting
a day spent in that atmosphere of quietude. She felt grateful to her
husband for making no remark, though the only time she had been within a
church since her illness had been at their wedding, he only gave her his
arm, and said she should sit in the nook that used to be his in the time
of his lameness; and a most sheltered nook it was, between a pillar and
the open chancel screen, where no eyes could haunt her, even if the
congregation had been more than a Saturday summer evening one.
She only saw the pure, clear, delicately-toned hues of the east window,
and the reverent richness of the chancel, and she heard the blind pastor’s
deep musical voice, full of that expressive power always enhanced by the
absence of a book. He led the Psalms with perfect security and a calm
fervour that rendered the whole familiar service like something new and
touching; the Lessons were read by Alick, and Rachel, though under any
other circumstances she would have been startled to see him standing
behind the Eagle, could not but feel all appropriate, and went along with
each word as he read it in a tone well worthy of his uncle’s scholar.
Whether few or many were present, Rachel knew not, thought not; she was
only sensible of the fulness of calm joy that made the Thanksgiving touch
her heart and fill her eyes with unbidden tears, that came far more
readily than of old.
“Yet this can’t be all,” she said to herself, as she wandered among the
tall white lilies in the twilight; “is it a trance, or am I myself? I have
not unthought or unfelt, yet I seem falling into a very sweet hypocrisy!
Alick says thought will come back with strength. I don’t think I wish it!”
The curate did not return till after she had gone to bed, and in the
morning he proved to be indeed a very dry and serious middle-aged man,
extremely silent, and so grave that there was no knowing how much to allow
for shyness. He looked much worn and had a wearied voice, and Mr. Clare
and Alick were contriving all they could to give him the rest which he
refused, Mr. Clare insisting on taking all the service that could be
performed without eyes, and Alick volunteering school-work. This Rachel
was not yet able to undertake, nor would Alick even let her go to church
in the morning; but the shady garden, and the echoes of the Amens, and
sweet, clear tones of singing, seemed to lull her on in this same gentle,
unthinking state of dreamy rest; and thence, too, in the after part of the
day, she could watch the rector, with his Sunday class, on his favourite
seat under the yew-tree, close to the cross that marked the resting-place
of his wife and child.
She went to church in the evening, sheltered from curious eyes in her
nook, and there for a moment she heard the peculiar brush and sweep of
rich silk upon pavement, and wondered at so sophisticated a sound in the
little homely congregation, but forgot it again in the exulting, joyous
beauty of the chants and hymns, led by the rector himself, and, oh, how
different from poor Mr. Touchett’s best efforts! and forgot it still more
in the unfettered eloquence of the preaching of a man of great natural
power, and entirely accustomed to trust to his own inward stores. Like
Ermine Williams, she could have said that this preaching was the first
that won her attention. It certainly was the first that swept away all her
spirit of criticising, and left her touched and impressed, not judging. On
what north country folk call the loosing of the kirk, she, moving outwards
after the throng, found herself close behind a gauzy white cloak over a
lilac silk, that filled the whole breadth of the central aisle, and by the
dark curl descending beneath the tiny white bonnet, as well as by the turn
of the graceful head, she knew her sister-in-law, Lady Keith, of
Gowanbrae. In the porch she was met with outstretched hands and eager
greetings—
“At last! Where did you hide yourself? I had begun to imagine dire
mischances.”
“Only in the corner by the chancel.”
“Alick’s old nook! Keeping up honeymoon privileges! I have kept your
secret faithfully. No one knows you are not on the top of Snowdon, or you
would have had all the world to call on you.”
“There are always the Earlsworthy woods,” said Alick.
“Or better still, come to Timber End. No one penetrates to my morning
room,” laughed Bessie.
“Now, Uncle George,” she said, as the rector appeared, “you have had a
full allowance of them for three days, you must spare them to me to-morrow
morning.”
“So it is you, my lady,” he answered, with a pleased smile; “I heard a
sort of hail-storm of dignity sailing in! How is Lord Keith?”
“Very stiff. I want him to have advice, but he hates doctors. What is the
last Avonmouth news? Is Ermine in good heart, and the boys well again?”
She was the same Bessie as ever—full of exulting animation, joined
to a caressing manner that her uncle evidently delighted in; and to Rachel
she was most kind and sisterly, welcoming her so as amply to please and
gratify Alick. An arrangement was made that Rachel should be sent for
early to spend the day at Timber End, and that Mr. Clare and Alick should
walk over later. Then the two pretty ponies came with her little low
carriage to the yew-tree gate, were felt and admired by Mr. Clare, and
approved by Alick, and she drove off gaily, leaving all pleased and
amused, but still there was a sense that the perfect serenity had been
ruffled.
“Rachel,” said Alick, as they wandered in the twilight garden, “I wonder
if you would be greatly disappointed if our travels ended here.”
“I am only too glad of the quiet.”
“Because Lifford is in great need of thorough rest. He has not been away
for more than a year, and now he is getting quite knocked up. All he does
care to do, is to take lodgings near his wife’s asylum, poor man, and see
her occasionally: sad work, but it is rest, and winds him up again; and
there is no one but myself to whom he likes to leave my uncle. Strangers
always do too little or too much; and there is a young man at Littleworthy
for the long vacation who can help on a Sunday.”
“Oh, pray let us stay as long as we can!”
“Giving up the Crétins?”
“It is no sacrifice. I am thankful not to be hunted about; and if anything
could make me better pleased to be here, it would be feeling that I was
not hindering you.”
“Then I will hunt him away for six weeks or two months at least. It will
be a great relief to my uncle’s mind.”
It was so great a relief that Mr. Clare could hardly bring himself to
accept the sacrifice of the honeymoon, and though there could be little
doubt which way the discussion would end, he had not yielded when the
ponies bore off Rachel on Monday morning.
Timber End was certainly a delightful place. Alick had railed it a cockney
villa, but it was in good taste, and very fair and sweet with flowers and
shade. Bessie’s own rooms, where she made Rachel charmingly at home, were
wonderful in choiceness and elegance, exciting Rachel’s surprise how it
could be possible to be so sumptuously lodged in such a temporary abode,
for the house was only hired for a few months, while Gowanbrae was under
repair. It was within such easy reach of London that Bessie had been able
from thence to go through the more needful season gaieties; and she had
thought it wise, both for herself and Lord Keith, not to enter on their
full course. It sounded very moderate and prudent, and Rachel felt vexed
with herself and Alick for recollecting a certain hint of his, that Lady
Keith felt herself more of a star in her own old neighbourhood than she
could be in London, and wisely abstained from a full flight till she had
tried her wings. It was much pleasanter to go along with Bessie’s many far
better and more affectionate reasons for prudence, and her minutely
personal confidences about her habits, hopes, and fears, given with a
strong sense of her own importance and consideration, yet with a warm
sisterly tone that made them tokens of adoption, and with an arch drollery
that invested them with a sort of grace. The number of engagements that
she mentioned in town and country did indeed seem inconsistent with the
prudence she spoke of with regard to her own health, or with her attention
to that of her husband; but it appeared that all were quite necessary and
according to his wishes, and the London ones were usually for the sake of
trying to detach his daughter, Mrs. Comyn Menteith, from the extravagant
set among whom she had fallen. Bessie was excessively diverting in her
accounts of her relations with this scatter-brained step-daughter of hers,
and altogether showed in the most flattering manner how much more
thoroughly she felt herself belonging to her brother’s wife. If she had
ever been amazed or annoyed at Alick’s choice, she had long ago surmounted
the feeling, or put it out of sight, and she judiciously managed to leap
over all that had passed since the beginning of the intimacy that had
arisen at the station door at Avoncester. It was very flattering, and
would have been perfectly delightful, if Rachel had not found herself
wearying for Alick, and wondering whether at the end of seven months she
should be as contented as Bessie seemed, to know her husband to be in the
sitting-room without one sight of him.
At luncheon, however, when Lord Keith appeared, nothing could be prettier
than his wife’s manner to him—bright, sweet, and with a touch of
graceful deference, at which he always smiled and showed himself pleased,
but Rachel thought him looking much older than in the autumn—he had
little appetite, stooped a good deal, and evidently moved with pain. He
would not go out of doors, and Bessie, after following him to the library,
and spending a quarter of an hour in ministering to his comfort, took
Rachel to sit by a cool dancing fountain in the garden, and began with
some solicitude to consult her whether he could be really suffering from
sciatica, or, as she had lately begun to suspect, from the effects of a
blow from the end of a scaffold-pole that had been run against him when
taking her through a crowded street. Rachel spoke of advice.
“What you, Rachel! you who despised allopathy!”
“I have learnt not to despise advice.”
And Bessie would not trench on Rachel’s experiences.
“There’s some old Scotch doctor to whom his faith is given, and that I
don’t half believe in. If he would see our own Mr. Harvey here it would be
quite another thing; but it is of no use telling him that Alick would
never have had an available knee but for Mr. Harvey’s management. He
persists in leaving me to my personal trust in him, but for himself he
won’t see him at any price! Have you seen Mr. Harvey?”
“I have seen no one.”
“Oh, I forgot, you are not arrived yet; but—”
“There’s some one,” exclaimed Rachel, nervously; and in fact a young man
was sauntering towards them. Bessie rose with a sort of annoyance, and
“Never mind, my dear, he is quite inoffensive, we’ll soon get rid of him.”
Then, as he greeted her with “Good morning, Lady Keith, I thought I should
find you here,” she quickly replied,
“If you had been proper behaved and gone to the door, you would have known
that I am not at home.”
He smiled, and came nearer.
“No, I am not at home, and, what is more, I do not mean to be. My uncle
will be here directly,” she added, in a fee-faw-fum tone.
“Then it is not true that your brother and his bride are arrived?”
“True in the same sense as that I am at home. There she is, you see—only
you are not to see her on any account,” as a bow necessarily passed
between him and Rachel. “Now mind you have not been introduced to Mrs.
Keith, and if you utter a breath that will bring the profane crowd in
shoals upon the Rectory, I shall never forgive you.”
“Then I am afraid we must not hope to see you at the bazaar for the
idiots.”
“No, indeed,” Bessie answered, respecting Rachel’s gesture of refusal; “no
one is to infringe her incog. under penalty of never coming here again.”
“You are going?” he added to Bessie; “indeed, that was what brought me
here. My sisters sent me to ask whether they may shelter themselves under
your matronly protection, for my mother dreads the crush.”
“I suppose, as they put my name down, that I must go, but you know I had
much rather give the money outright. It is a farce to call a bazaar
charity.”
“Call it what you will, it is one device for a little sensation.”
Rachel’s only sensation at that moment was satisfaction at the sudden
appearance of Ranger’s white head, the sure harbinger of his master and
Alick, and she sprang up to meet them in the shrubbery path—all her
morbid shyness at the sight of a fresh face passing away when her hand was
within Alick’s arm. When they came forth upon the lawn, Alick’s brow
darkened for a moment, and there was a formal exchange of greetings as the
guest retreated.
“I am so sorry,” began Bessie at once; “I had taken precautions against
invasion, but he did not go to the front door. I do so hope Rachel has not
been fluttered.”
“I thought he was at Rio,” said Alick.
“He could not stand the climate, and was sent home about a month ago—a
regular case of bad shilling, I am afraid, poor fellow! I am so sorry he
came to startle Rachel, but I swore him over to secrecy. He is not to
mention to any living creature that she is nearer than Plinlimmon till the
incog. is laid aside! I know how to stand up for bridal privileges, and
not to abuse the confidence placed in me.”
Any one who was up to the game might have perceived that the sister was
trying to attribute all the brother’s tone of disapprobation to his
anxiety lest his wife should have been startled, while both knew as well
as possible that there was a deeper ground of annoyance which was implied
in Alick’s answer.
“He seems extremely tame about the garden.”
“Or he would not have fallen on Rachel. It was only a chance; he just
brought over a message about that tiresome bazaar that has been dinned
into our ears for the last three months. A bazaar for idiots they may well
call it! They wanted a carving of yours, Uncle George!”
“I am afraid I gave little Alice Bertie one in a weak moment, Bessie,”
said Mr. Clare, “but I hardly durst show my face to Lifford afterwards.”
“After all, it is better than some bazaars,” said Bessie; “it is only for
the idiot asylum, and I could not well refuse my name and countenance to
my old neighbours, though I stood out against taking a stall. Lord Keith
would not have liked it.”
“Will he be able to go with you?” asked Alick.
“Oh, no; it would be an intolerable bore, and his Scottish thrift would
never stand the sight of people making such very bad bargains! No, I am
going to take the Carleton girls in, they are very accommodating, and I
can get away whenever I please. I am much too forbearing to ask any of you
to go with me, though I believe Uncle George is pining to go and see after
his carving.”
“No, thank you; after what I heard of the last bazaar I made up my mind
that they are no places for an old parson, nor for his carvings either, so
you are quite welcome to fall on me for my inconsistency.”
“Not now, when you have a holiday from Mr. Lifford,” returned Bessie. “Now
come and smell the roses.”
All the rest of the day Alick relapsed into the lazy frivolous young
officer with whom Rachel had first been acquainted.
As he was driving home in the cool fresh summer night, he began—
“I think I must go to this idiotical bazaar!”
“You!” exclaimed Rachel.
“Yes; I don’t think Bessie ought to go by herself with all this Carleton
crew.”
“You don’t wish me to go,” said Rachel, gulping down the effort.
“You? My dear Rachel, I would not take you for fifty pounds, nor could I
go myself without leaving you as vice deputy curate.”
“No need for that,” said Mr. Clare, from the seat behind; “young people
must not talk secrets with a blind man’s ears behind them.”
“I make no secret,” said Alick. “I could not go without leaving my wife to
take care of my uncle, or my uncle to take care of my wife.”
“And you think you ought to go?” said Mr. Clare. “It is certainly better
that Bessie should have a gentleman with her in the crowd; but you know
this is a gossiping neighbourhood, and you must be prepared for amazement
at your coming into public alone not three weeks after your wedding.”
“I can’t help it; she can’t go, and I must.”
“And you will bring down all the morning visitors that you talk of
dreading.”
“We will leave you to amuse them, sir. Much better that,” he added between
his teeth, “than to leave the very semblance of a secret trusted by her to
that intolerable puppy—”
Rachel said no more, but when she was gone upstairs Mr. Clare detained his
nephew to say, “I beg your pardon, Alick, but you should be quite sure
that your wife likes this proposal.”
“That’s the value of a strong-minded wife, sir,” returned Alick; “she is
not given to making a fuss about small matters.”
“Most ladies might not think this a small matter.”
“That is because they have no perspective in their brains. Rachel
understands me a great deal too well to make me explain what is better
unspoken.”
“You know what I think, Alick, that you are the strictest judge that ever
a merry girl had.”
“I had rather you continued to think so, uncle; I should like to think so
myself. Good night.”
Alick was right, but whether or not Rachel entered into his motives, she
made no objection to his going to the bazaar with his sister, being
absolutely certain that he would not have done so if he could have helped
it.
Nor was her day at all dreary; Mr. Clare was most kind and attentive to
her, without being oppressive, and she knew she was useful to him. She was
indeed so full of admiration and reverence for him, that once or twice it
crossed her whether she were not belying another of her principles by
lapsing into Curatocult, but the idea passed away with scorn at the notion
of comparing Mr. Clare with the objects of such devotion. He belonged to
that generation which gave its choicest in intellectual, as well as in
religious gifts to the ministry, when a fresh tide of enthusiasm was
impelling men forward to build up, instead of breaking down, before
disappointment and suspicion had thinned the ranks, and hurled back many a
recruit, or doctrinal carpings had taught men to dread a search into their
own tenets. He was a highly cultivated, large-minded man, and the
conversation between him and his nephew was a constant novelty to her, who
had always yearned after depth and thought, and seldom met with them.
Still here she was constantly feeling how shallow were her acquirements,
how inaccurate her knowledge, how devoid of force and solidity her
reasonings compared with what here seemed to be old, well-beaten ground.
Nay, the very sparkle of fun and merriment surprised and puzzled her; and
all the courtesy of the one gentleman, and the affection of the other,
could not prevent her sometimes feeling herself the dullest and most
ignorant person present. And yet the sense was never mortifying except
when here and there a spark of the old conceit had lighted itself, and
lured her into pretensions where she thought herself proficient. She was
becoming more and more helpful to Mr. Clare, and his gratitude for her
services made them most agreeable, nor did that atmosphere of peace and
sincerity that reigned round the Rectory lose its charm. She was really
happy all through the solitary Wednesday, and much more contented with the
results than was Alick. “A sickening place,” he said, “I am glad I went.”
“How glad Bessie must have been to have you!”
“I believe she was. She has too much good taste for much of what went on
there.”
“I doubt,” said Mr. Clare, laughing, “if you could have been an agreeable
acquisition.”
“I don’t know. Bessie fools one into thinking oneself always doing her a
favour. Oh, Rachel, I am thankful you have never taken to being
agreeable.”
CHAPTER XXV. THE HUNTSFORD CROQUET.
“Une femme egoiste, non seulement de coeur, mais d’esprit, ne pent
pas sortir d’elle-meme. Le moi est indelible chez elle. Une veritable
egoiste ne sait meme pas etre fausse.”
—MME. E. DE GIRARDIN.
“I am come to prepare you,” said Lady Keith, putting her arm into her
brother’s, and leading him into the peacock path. “Mrs. Huntsford is on
her way to call and make a dead set to get you all to a garden party.”
“Then we are off to the Earlsworthy Woods.”
“Nay, listen, Alick. I have let you alone and defended you for a whole
month, but if you persist in shutting up you wife, people won’t stand it.”
“Which of us is the Mahometan?”
“You are pitied! But you see it was a strong thing our appearing without
our several incumbrances, and though an old married woman like me may do
as she pleases, yet for a bridegroom of not three weeks’ standing to
resort to bazaars solus argues some weighty cause.”
“And argues rightly.”
“Then you are content to be supposed to have an unproduceably eccentric
melancholy bride?”
“Better they should think so than that she should be so. She has been
victimized enough already to her mother’s desire to save appearances.”
“You do not half believe me, Alick, and this is really a very kind,
thoughtful arrangement of Mrs. Huntsford’s. She consulted me, saying there
were such odd stories about you two that she was most anxious that Rachel
should appear and confute them; and she thought that an out-of-door party
like this would suit best, because it would be early, and Rachel could get
away if she found it too much for her.”
“After being walked out to satisfy a curious neighbourhood.”
“Now Alick, do consider it. This sort of thing could remind her of nothing
painful; Uncle George would enjoy it.”
“And fall over the croquet traps.”
“No; if you wanted to attend to him, I could take care of Rachel.”
“I cannot tell, Bessie; I believe it is pure goodnature on Mrs.
Huntsford’s part, but if we go, it must be from Rachel’s spontaneous
movement. I will not press her on any account. I had rather the world said
she was crazy at once than expose her to the risk of one of the dreadful
nights that haunted us till we came here to perfect quiet.”
“But she is well now. She looks better and nicer than I ever saw her.
Really, Alick, now her face is softer, and her eyes more veiled, and her
chin not cocked up, I am quite proud of her. Every one will be struck with
her good looks.”
“Flattery, Bessie,” he said, not ill pleased. “Yes, she is much better,
and more like herself; but I dread all this being overthrown. If she
herself wishes to go, it may be a good beginning, but she must not be
persuaded.”
“Then I must not even tell her that she won’t be required to croquet, and
that I’ll guard her from all civil speeches.”
“No, for indeed, Bessie, on your own account and Lord Keith’s, you should
hardly spend a long afternoon from home.”
“Here’s the war in the enemy’s quarters! As to fatigue, dawdling about
Mrs. Huntsford’s garden, is much the same as dawdling about my own, and
makes me far more entertaining.”
“I cannot help thinking, Bessie, that Lord Keith is more ill than you
suppose. I am sure he is in constant pain.”
“So I fear,” said Bessie, gravely; “but what can be done? He will see no
one but his old surgeon in Edinburgh.”
“Then take him there.”
“Take him? You must know what it is to be in the hands of a clever woman
before you make such a proposal.”
“You are a cleverer woman than my wife in bringing about what you really
wish.”
“Just consider, Alick, our own house is uninhabitable, and this one on our
hands—my aunt coming to me in a month’s time. You don’t ask me to do
what is reasonable.”
“I cannot tell, Bessie. You can be the only judge of what is regard of the
right kind for your husband’s health or for yourself; and see, there is
Mrs. Huntsford actually arrived, and talking to my uncle.”
“One moment, Alick: I am not going to insult myself so far as to suppose
that poor Charlie Carleton’s being at home has anything to do with your
desire to deport me, but I want you to know that he did not come home till
after we were settled here.”
“I do not wish to enter into details, Bessie,” and he crossed the lawn
towards the window where Mr. Clare and Rachel had just received Mrs.
Huntsford, a goodnatured joyous-looking lady, a favourite with every one.
Her invitation was dexterously given to meet a few friends at luncheon,
and in the garden, where the guests would be free to come and go; there
might perhaps be a little dancing later, she had secured some good music
which would, she knew, attract Mr. Clare, and she hoped he would bring
Captain and Mrs. Keith. She knew Mrs. Keith had not been well, but she
promised her a quiet room to rest in, and she wanted to show her a view of
the Devon coast done by a notable artist in water-colours. Rachel readily
accepted—in fact, this quiet month had been so full of restoration
that she had almost forgotten her morbid shrinking from visitors; and
Bessie infused into her praise and congratulations a hint that a refusal
would have been much against Alick’s reputation, so that she resolved to
keep up to the mark, even though he took care that she should know that
she might yet retract.
“You did not wish me to refuse, Alick,” said she, struck by his grave
countenance, when she found him lying on the slope of the lawn shortly
after, in deep thought.
“No, not at all,” he replied; “it is likely to be a pleasant affair, and
my uncle will be delighted to have us with him. No,” he added, seeing that
she still looked at him inquisitively, “it is the old story. My sister!
Poor little thing! I always feel as though I were more unkind and unjust
to her than any one else, and yet we are never together without my feeling
as if she was deceiving herself and me; and yet it is all so fair and well
reasoned that one is always left in the wrong. I regretted this marriage
extremely at first, and I am not the less disposed to regret it now.”
“Indeed! Every one says how attentive she is to him, and how nicely they
go on together.”
“Pshaw, Rachel! that is just the way. A few words and pretty ways pass
with her and all the world for attention, when she is wherever her fancy
calls her, all for his good. It is just the attention she showed my uncle.
And now it is her will and pleasure to queen it here among her old
friends, and she will not open her eyes to see the poor old man’s
precarious state.”
“Do you think him so very ill, Alick?”
“I was shocked when I saw him yesterday. As to sciatica, that is all
nonsense; the blow in his side has done some serious damage, and if it is
not well looked-to, who knows what will be the end of it! And then, a gay
young widow with no control over her—I hate to think of it.”
“Indeed,” said Rachel, “she is so warm and bright, and really earnest in
her kindness, that she will be sure to see her own way right at home. I
don’t think we can guess how obstinate Lord Keith may be in refusing to
take advice.”
“He cut me off pretty short,” said Alick. “I am afraid he will see no one
here; and, as Bessie says, the move to Scotland would not be easy just
now. As I said, she leaves one in the wrong, and I don’t like the future.
But it is of no use to talk of it; so let us come and see if my uncle
wants to go anywhere.”
It was Alick’s fate never to meet with sympathy in his feeling of his
sister’s double-mindedness. Whether it were that he was mistaken, or that
she really had the gift of sincerity for the moment in whatever she was
saying, the most candid and transparent people in the world—his
uncle and his wife—never even succeeded in understanding his
dissatisfaction with Bessie’s doings, but always received them at her own
valuation. Even while he had been looking forward, with hope deferred, to
her residence with him as the greatest solace the world could yet afford
him, Mr. Clare had always been convinced that her constant absence from
his Rectory, except when his grand neighbours were at home, had been
unavoidable, and had always credited the outward tokens of zealous
devotion to his church and parish, and to all that was useful or good
elsewhere. In effect there was a charm about her which no one but her
brother ever resisted, and even he held out by an exertion that made him
often appear ungracious.
However, for the present the uneasiness was set aside, in the daily
avocations of the Rectory, where Alick was always a very different person
from what he appeared in Lady Temple’s drawing-room, constantly engaged as
he was by unobtrusive watchfulness over his uncle, and active and alert in
this service in a manner that was a curious contrast to his ordinary
sauntering ways. As to Rachel, the whole state of existence was still a
happy dream. She floated on from day to day in the tranquil activity of
the Rectory, without daring to look back on the past or to think out her
present frame of mind; it was only the languor and rest of recovery after
suffering, and her husband was heedfully watching her, fearing the
experiment of the croquet party, though on many accounts feeling the
necessity of its being made.
Ermine’s hint, that with Rachel it rested to prevent her unpopularity from
injuring her husband, had not been thrown away, and she never manifested
any shrinking from the party, and even took some interest in arraying
herself for it.
“That is what I call well turned out,” exclaimed Alick, when she came
down.
“Describe her dress, if you please,” said Mr. Clare, “I like to hear how
my nieces look.”
Alick guided his hand. “There, stroke it down, a long white feather in a
shady hat trimmed with dark green, velvet; she is fresh and rosy, you
know, sir, and looks well in green, and then, is it Grace’s taste, Rachel?
for it is the prettiest thing you have worn—a pale buff sort of
silky thing, embroidered all over in the same colour,” and he put a fold
of the dress into his uncle’s hand.
“Indian, surely,” said Mr. Clare, feeling the pattern, “it is too
intricate and graceful for the West.”
“Yes,” said Alick, “I remember now, Grace showed it to me. It was one that
Lady Temple brought from India, and never had made up. Poor Grace could
get no sympathy from Rachel about the wedding clothes, so she was obliged
to come to me.”
“And I thought you did not know one of my things from another,” said
Rachel. “Do you really mean that you care?”
“Depend upon it, he does, my dear,” said Mr. Clare. “I have heard him
severely critical on his cousins.”
“He has been very good in not tormenting me,” said Rachel, nestling nearer
to him.
“I apprehended the consequences,” said Alick, “and besides, you never
mounted that black lace pall, or curtain, or whatever you call it, upon
your head, after your first attempt at frightening me away with it.”
“A cap set against, instead of at,” said Mr. Clare, laughing; and
therewith his old horse was heard clattering in the yard, and Alick
proceeded to drive the well-used phaeton about three miles through
Earlsworthy Park, to a pleasant-looking demesne in the village beyond. As
they were turning in at the gate, up came Lady Keith with her two brisk
little Shetlands. She was one mass of pretty, fresh, fluttering blue and
white muslin, ribbon, and lace, and looked particularly well and
brilliant.
“Well met,” she said, “I called at the Rectory to take up Rachel, but you
were flown before me.”
“Yes, we went through the Park.”
“I wish the Duke would come home. I can’t go that way now till I have
called. I have no end of things to say to you,” she added, and her little
lively ponies shot ahead of the old rectorial steed. However, she waited
at the entrance. “Who do you think is come? Colin Keith made his
appearance this morning. He has safely captured his Ouralian bear, though
not without plenty of trouble, and he could not get him on to Avonmouth
till he had been to some chemical institution about an invention. Colin
thought him safe there, and rushed down by the train to see us. They go on
to-morrow.”
“What did he think of Lord Keith?” said Alick, in the more haste because
he feared something being said to remind Rachel that this was the assize
week at Avoncester.
“He has settled the matter about advice,” said Bessie, seriously; “you
cannot think what a relief it is. I mean, as soon as I get home, to write
and ask Mr. Harvey to come and talk to me to-morrow, and see if the
journey to Edinburgh is practicable. I almost thought of sending an
apology, and driving over to consult him this afternoon, but I did not
like to disappoint Mrs. Huntsford, and I thought Rachel would feel herself
lost.”
“Thank you,” said Rachel, “but could we not go away early, and go round by
Mr. Harvey’s?”
“Unluckily I have sent the ponies home, and told the close carriage to
come for me at nine. It was all settled, and I don’t want to alarm Lord
Keith by coming home too soon.”
Alick, who had hitherto listened with interest, here gave his arm to
Rachel, as if recollecting that it was time to make their entrée. Bessie
took her uncle’s, and they were soon warmly welcomed by their kind
hostess, who placed them so favourably at luncheon that Rachel was too
much entertained to feel any recurrence of the old associations with
“company.” Afterwards, Bessie took her into the cool drawing-room, where
were a few ladies, who preferred the sofa to croquet or archery, and Lady
Keith accomplished a fraternization between Rachel and a plainly dressed
lady, who knew all about the social science heroines of whom Rachel had
longed to hear. After a time, however, a little girl darted in to call
“Aunt Mary” to the aid of some playfellow, who had met with a mishap, and
Rachel then perceived herself to have been deserted by her sister-in-law.
She knew none of the other ladies, and they made no approaches to her; an
access of self-consciousness came on, and feeling forlorn and
uncomfortable, she wandered out to look for a friend.
It was not long before she saw Alick walking along the terrace above the
croquet players, evidently in quest of her. “How is it with you?” he
anxiously asked; “you know you can go home in a moment if you have had
enough of this.”
“No, I want nothing, now I have found you. Where is your uncle?”
“Fallen upon one of his oldest friends, who will take care of him, and
well out of the way of the croquet traps. Where’s my Lady? I thought you
were with her.”
“She disappeared while I was talking to that good Miss Penwell! You must
be pleased now, Alick, you see she is really going to see about going to
Scotland.”
“I should be better pleased if she had not left that poor old man alone
till nine o’clock.”
“She says that when he has his man Saunders to read to him—”
“Don’t tell me what she says; I have enough of that at first hand.”
He broke off with a start. The terrace was prolonged into a walk beyond
the screen of evergreens that shut in the main lawn, and, becoming a
shrubbery path, led to a smooth glade, on whose turf preparations had been
made for a second field of croquet, in case there should have been too
many players for the principal arena. This, however, had not been wanted,
and no one was visible except a lady and gentleman on a seat under a tree
about half-way down on the opposite side of the glade. The lady was in
blue and white; the gentleman would hardly have been recognised by Rachel
but for the start and thrill of her husband’s arm, and the flush of colour
on his usually pale cheek, but, ere he could speak or move, the lady
sprang up, and came hastening towards them diagonally across the grass.
Rachel saw the danger, and made a warning outcry, “Bessie, the hoop!” but
it was too late, she had tripped over it, and fell prone, and entirely
unable to save herself. She was much nearer to them than to her late
companion, and was struggling to disengage herself when Alick reached her,
lifted her up, and placed her on her feet, supporting her as she clung
fast to him, while he asked if she were hurt.
“No, no,” she cried. “Don’t let him come; don’t let him call any one,
don’t,” she reiterated, as Mr. Carleton hovered near, evidently much
terrified, but not venturing to approach.
Alick helped her to another garden chair that stood near. She had been
entangled in her dress, which had been much torn by her attempt to rise,
and hung in a festoon, impeding her, and she moved with difficulty,
breathing heavily when she was first seated.
“I don’t know if I have not twisted myself a little,” she said, in answer
to their anxious questions, “but it will go off. Rachel, how scared you
look!”
“Don’t laugh,” exclaimed Rachel, in dread of hysterics, and she plunged
her hand into Alick’s pocket for a scent-bottle, which he had put there by
way of precaution for her, and, while applying it, said, in her full,
sedate voice, keeping it as steady as she could, “Shall I drive you home?
Alick can walk home with his uncle when he is ready.”
“Home! Thank you, Rachel, pray do. Not that I am hurt,” she added in her
natural voice, “only these rags would tell tales, and there would be an
intolerable fuss.”
“Then I will bring the carriage round to the road there,” said Alick. “I
told Joe to be in readiness, and you need not go back to the house.”
“Thank you. But, oh, send him away!” she added, with a gasping shudder.
“Only don’t let him tell any one. Tell him I desire he will not.”
After a few words with Mr. Carleton, Alick strode off to the stables, and
Rachel asked anxiously after the twist.
“I don’t feel it; I don’t believe in it. My dear, your strong mind is all
humbug, or you would not look so frightened,” and again she was on the
verge of hysterical laughing; “it is only that I can’t stand a chorus of
old ladies in commotion. How happy Alick must be to have his prediction
verified by some one tumbling over a hoop!” Just then, however, seeing Mr.
Carleton still lingering near, she caught hold of Rachel with a little
cry, “Don’t let him come, dear Rachel; go to him, tell him I am well, but
keep him away, and mind he tells no one!”
Rachel’s cold, repellent manner was in full force, and she went towards
the poor little man, whose girlish face was blanched with fright.
She told him that Lady Keith did not seem to be hurt, and only wished to
be alone, and to go home without attracting notice. He stammered out
something about quite understanding, and retreated, while Rachel returned
to find Bessie sitting upright, anxiously watching, and she was at once
drawn down to sit beside her on the bench, to listen to the excited
whisper. “The miserable simpleton! Rachel, Alick was right. I thought, I
little thought he would forget how things stand now, but he got back to
the old strain, as if—I shall make Lord Keith go to Scotland any way
now. I was so thankful to see you and Alick.” She proceeded with the
agitated vehemence of one who, under a great shock, was saying more than
she would have betrayed in a cooler and more guarded mood, “What could
possess him? For years he had followed me about like a little dog, and
never said more than I let him; and now what folly was in his head, just
because I could not walk as far as the ruin with the others. When I said I
was going to Scotland, what business had he to—Oh! the others will
be coming back, Rachel, could we not go to meet the carriage?”
The attempt to move, however, brought back the feeling of the strain of
which she had complained, but she would not give way, and by the help of
Rachel’s arm, proceeded across the grass to the carriage-drive, where
Alick was to meet them. It seemed very far and very hot, and her
alternately excited and shame-stricken manner, and sobbing breath, much
alarmed Rachel; but when Alick met them, all this seemed to pass away—she
controlled herself entirely, declaring herself unhurt, and giving him
cheerful messages and excuses for her hostess. Alick put the reins into
Rachel’s hands, and, after watching her drive off, returned to the party,
and delivered the apologies of the ladies; then went in search of his
uncle. He did not, however, find him quickly, and then he was so happy
with his old friend among a cluster of merry young people, that Alick
would not say a word to hasten him home, especially as Rachel would have
driven Bessie to Timber End, so that it would only be returning to an
empty house. And such was Mr. Clare’s sociableness and disability of
detaching himself from pleasant conversation, that the uncle and nephew
scarcely started for their walk across the park in time for the seven
o’clock service. Mr. Clare had never been so completely belated, and, as
Alick’s assistance was necessary, he could only augur from his wife’s
absence that she was still at Timber End with his sister.
CHAPTER XXVI. THE END OF CLEVERNESS.
“Where am I?
O vanity,
We are not what we deem,
The sins that hold my heart in thrall,
They are more real than all.”—Rev. I. WILLIAMS.
As the uncle and nephew came out of church, and approached the yew-tree
gate, Rachel came swiftly to meet them. “Oh, Alick! oh, uncle!” she said
breathlessly. “Bessie says she is shocked to have turned your house upside
down, but we could not go any further. And her baby is born!” Then in
answer to exclamations, half-dismayed, half-wondering, “Yes, it is all
right, so Nurse Jones says. I could not send to you, for we had to send
everywhere at once. Mr. Harvey was not at home, and we telegraphed to
London, but no one has come yet, and now I have just written a note to
Lord Keith with the news of his son and heir. And, uncle, she has set her
heart on your baptizing him directly.”
There was some demur, for though the child had made so sudden a rush into
the world, there seemed to be no ground for immediate alarm; and Mr. Clare
being always at hand, did not think it expedient to give the name without
knowing the father’s wishes with regard to that hereditary Alexander which
had been borne by the dead son of the first marriage. A message, however,
came down to hasten him, and when—as he had often before done in
cottages—he demanded of Nurse Jones whether private baptism were
immediately necessary, she allowed that she saw no pressing danger, but
added, “that the lady was in a way about it,” and this both Rachel and her
maid strongly corroborated. Rachel’s maid was an experienced person, whom
Mrs. Curtis had selected with a view to Rachel’s weak state at the time of
her marriage, and she showed herself anxious for anything that might abate
Lady Keith’s excitement, to which they at length yielded, feeling that
resistance might be dangerous to her. She further insisted that the rite
should be performed in her presence; nor was she satisfied when Rachel had
brought in her uncle, but insisted on likewise calling in her brother, who
vaguely anxious, and fully conscious of the small size of the room, had
remained down-stairs.
Mr. Clare always baptized his infant parishioners, and no one was anxious
about his manner of handling the little one, the touch of whose garments
might be familiar, as being no other than his own parish baby linen. He
could do no otherwise than give the child the name reiterated by the
mother, in weak but impatient accents, “Alexander Clare,” her brother’s
own name, and when the short service was concluded, she called out
triumphantly, “Make Alick kiss him, Rachel, and do homage to his young
chieftain.”
They obeyed her, as she lay watching them, and a very pretty sight she was
with her dark hair lying round her, a rosy colour on her cheeks, and light
in her eyes; but Mr. Clare thought both her touch and voice feverish, and
entreated Rachel not to let her talk. Indeed Alick longed to take Rachel
away, but this was not at present feasible, since her maid was occupied
with the infant, and Nurse Jones was so entirely a cottage practitioner
that she was scarcely an available attendant elsewhere. Bessie herself
would by no means have parted with her sister-in-law, nor was it possible
to reduce her to silence. “Alexander!” she said joyfully, “I always
promised my child that he should not have a stupid second son’s name. I
had a right to my own father’s and brother’s name, and now it can’t be
altered,” then catching a shade of disapproval upon Rachel’s face, “not
that I would have hurried it on if I had not thought it right, poor little
fellow, but now I trust he will do nicely, and I do think we have managed
it all with less trouble than might have been expected.”
Sure by this time that she was talking too much, Rachel was glad to hear
that Mr. Harvey was come. He was a friendly, elderly man, who knew them
all intimately, having attended Alick through his tedious recovery, and
his first measure was to clear the room. Rachel thought that “at her age”
he might have accepted her services, rather than her maid’s, but she
suspected Alick of instigating her exclusion, so eagerly did he pounce on
her to make her eat, drink, and lie on the sofa, and so supremely scornful
was he of her views of sitting up, a measure which might be the more
needful for want of a bed.
On the whole, however, he was satisfied about her; alarm and excitement
had restrung her powers, and she knew herself to have done her part, so
that she was ready to be both cheerful and important over the evening
meal. Mr. Clare was by no means annoyed at this vicissitude, but rather
amused at it, and specially diverted at the thought of what would be Mr.
Lifford’s consternation. Lord Keith’s servant had come over, reporting his
master to be a good deal worn out by the afternoon’s anxiety, and
recommending that he should not be again disturbed that night, so he was
off their minds, and the only drawback to the pleasantness of the evening
was surprise at seeing and hearing nothing from Mr. Harvey. The London
doctor arrived, he met him and took him up-stairs at once; and then ensued
a long stillness, all attempts at conversation died away, and Alick only
now and then made attempts to send his companions to bed. Mr. Clare went
out to the hall to listen, or Rachel stole up to the extemporary nursery
to consult Nurse Jones, whom she found very gruff at having been turned
out in favour of the stranger maid.
It was a strange time of suspense. Alick made Rachel lie on the sofa, and
she almost heard the beating of her own heart; he sat by her, trying to
seem to read, and his uncle stood by the open window, where the tinkle of
a sheep bell came softly in from the meadows, and now and then the hoot of
the owl round the church tower made the watchers start. To watch that calm
and earnest face was their great help in that hour of alarm; those
sightless eyes, and broad, upraised spiritual brow seemed so replete with
steadfast trust and peace, that the very sight was soothing and supporting
to the young husband and wife, and when the long strokes of twelve
resounded from the church tower, Mr. Clare, turning towards them, began in
his full, musical voice to repeat Bishop Ken’s noble midnight hymn—
“My God, now I from sleep awake,
The sole possession of me take;
From midnight terrors me secure,
And guard my soul from thoughts impure.”
To Rachel, who had so often heard that hour strike amid a tumult of
midnight miseries, there was something in these words inexpressibly gentle
and soothing; the tears sprang into her eyes, as if she had found the
spell to chase the grisly phantoms, and she clasped her husband’s hand, as
though to communicate her comfort.
“Oh may I always ready stand,
With my lamp burning in my hand;
May I in sight of Heaven rejoice,
Whene’er I hear the Bridegroom’s voice.”
Mr. Clare had just repeated this verse, when he paused, saying, “They are
coming down,” and moved quickly to meet them in the hall. Alick followed
him to the door, but as they entered the dining-room, after a moment’s
hesitation, returned to Rachel, as she sat upright and eager. “After all,
this may mean nothing,” he said.
“Oh, we don’t make it better by fancying it nothing,” said Rachel. “Let us
try to meet it like your uncle. Oh, Alick, it seemed all this time as if I
could pray again, as I never could since those sad times. He seemed so
sure, such a rock to help and lean on.”
He drew her close to him. “You are praying for her!” he murmured, his soul
so much absorbed in his sister that he could not admit other thoughts, and
still they waited and watched till other sounds were heard. The London
doctor was going away. Alick sprang to the door, and opened it as his
uncle’s hand was on the lock. There was a mournful, solemn expression on
his face, as they gazed mutely up in expectation.
“Children,” he said, “it is as we feared. This great sorrow is coming on
us.”
“Then there is danger,” said Alick with stunned calmness.
“More than danger,” said his uncle, “they have tried all that skill can
do.”
“Was it the fall?” said Alick.
“It was my bad management, it always is,” said Rachel, ever affirmative.
“No, dear child,” said Mr. Clare, “there was fatal injury in the fall, and
even absolute stillness for the last few hours could hardly have saved
her. You have nothing to reproach yourself with.”
“And now!” asked Alick, hoarsely.
“Much more exhausted than when we were with her; sometimes faint, but
still feverish. They think it may last many hours yet, poor dear child,
she has so much youth and strength.”
“Does she know?”
“Harvey thought some of their measures alarmed her, but they soothed and
encouraged her while they saw hope, and he thinks she has no real fears.”
“And how is it to be—” said Alick. “She ought—”
“Yes; Harvey thinks she ought, she is fully herself, and it can make no
difference now. He is gone to judge about coming up at once; but Alick, my
poor boy, you must speak to her. I have found that without seeing the face
I cannot judge what my words may be doing.”
Rachel asked about poor Lord Keith, and was told that he was to be left in
quiet that night, unless his wife should be very anxious for him at once.
Mr. Harvey came down, bringing word that his patient was asking urgently
for Mrs. Keith.
“You had better let me go in first,” said Alick, his face changed by the
firm but tender awe-struck look.
“Not if she is asking for me,” said Rachel, moving on, her heart feeling
as if it would rend asunder, but her looks composed.
Bessie’s face was in shade, but her voice had the old ring of coaxing
archness. “I thought you would stay to see the doctors off. They had their
revenge for our stealing a march on them, and have prowled about me till I
was quite faint; and now I don’t feel a bit like sleep, though I am so
tired. Would Alick think me very wicked if I kept you a little while?
Don’t I see Alick’s shadow? Dear old fellow, are you come to wish me
good-night? That is good of you. I am not going to plague you any more,
Alick, I shall be so good now! But what?” as he held back the curtain, and
the light fell on his face, “Oh! there is nothing wrong with the baby?”
“No, dear Bessie, not with the baby,” said Alick, with strong emphasis.
“What, myself?” she said quickly, turning her eyes from one face to the
other.
Alick told her the state of the case. Hers was a resolute character, or
perhaps the double nature that had perplexed and chafed her brother was so
integral that nothing could put it off. She fully comprehended, but as if
she and herself were two separate persons. She asked how much time might
be left to her, and hearing the doctor’s opinion, said, “Then I think my
poor old Lord Keith had better have his night’s rest in peace. But, oh! I
should like to speak to Colin. Send for him, Alick; telegraph, Alick; he
is at the Paddington Hotel. Send directly.”
She was only tranquillised by her brother beginning to write a telegraphic
message.
“Rachel,” she said, presently, “Ermine must marry him now, and see to Lord
Keith, and the little one—tell her so, please,” then with her
unfailing courtesy, “he will seem like your own child, dear Rachel, and
you should have him; but you’ll have a wandering home with the dear old
Highlanders. Oh! I wonder if he will ever go into them, there must always
be a Keith there, and they say he is sure of the Victoria Cross, though
papa will not send up his name because of being his own son.” Then passing
her hand over her face, she exclaimed—“Wasn’t I talking great
nonsense, Rachel? I don’t seem able to say what I mean.”
“It is weakness, dearest,” said Rachel, “perhaps you might gain a little
strength if you were quite still and listened to my uncle.”
“Presently. O Rachel! I like the sound of your voice; I am glad Alick has
got you. You suit him better than his wicked little sister ever did. You
have been so kind to me to-night, Rachel; I never thought I should have
loved you so well, when I quizzed you. I did use you ill then, Rachel, but
I think you won Alick by it just by force of contrast,”—she was
verging into the dreamy voice, and Rachel requested her to rest and be
silent.
“It can’t make any difference,” said Bessie, “and I’ll try to be quiet and
do all right, if you’ll just let me have my child again. I do want to know
who he is like. I am so glad it is not he that was hurt. Oh! I did so want
to have brought him up to be like Alick.”
The infant was brought, and she insisted on being lifted to see its face,
which she declared to resemble her brother; but here her real self seemed
to gain the mastery, and calling it a poor little motherless thing, she
fell into a fit of violent convulsive weeping, which ended in a fainting
fit, and this was a fearfully perceptible stage on her way to the dark
valley.
She was, however, conscious when she revived, and sent for her uncle, whom
she begged to let her be laid in his churchyard, “near the willow-tree;
not next to my aunt, I’m not good enough,” she said, “but I could not bear
that old ruined abbey, where all the Keiths go, and Alick always wanted me
to be here—Alick was right!”
The dreamy mist was coming on, nor was it ever wholly dispelled again. She
listened, or seemed to listen, to her uncle’s prayers, but whenever he
ceased, she began to talk—perhaps sensibly at first, but soon losing
the thread—sometimes about her child or husband, sometimes going
back to those expressions of Charles Carleton that had been so dire a
shock to her. “He ought not! I thought he knew better! Alick was right!
Come away, Rachel, I’ll never see him again. I have done nothing that he
should insult me. Alick was right!”
Then would come the sobs, terrible in themselves, and ending in fainting,
and the whole scene was especially grievous to Alick, even more than to
either of the others, for as her perception failed her, association
carried her back to old arguments with him, and sometimes it was, “Alick,
indeed you do like to attribute motives,” sometimes, “Indeed it is not all
self-deception,” or the recurring wail, “Alick is right, only don’t let
him be so angry!” If he told her how far he was from anger, she would make
him kiss her, or return to some playful rejoinder, more piteous to hear
than all, or in the midst would come on the deadly swoon.
Morning light was streaming into the room when one of these swoons had
fallen on her, and no means of restoration availed to bring her back to
anything but a gasping condition, in which she lay supported in Rachel’s
arms. The doctor had his hand on her pulse, the only sounds outside were
the twittering of the birds, and within, the ticking of the clock, Alick’s
deep-drawn breaths, and his uncle’s prayer. Rachel felt a thrill pass
through the form she was supporting, she looked at Mr. Harvey, and
understood his glance, but neither moved till Mr. Clare’s voice finished,
when the doctor said, “I feared she would have suffered much more. Thank
God!”
He gently relieved Rachel from the now lifeless weight, and they knelt on
for some moments in complete stillness, except that Alick’s breath became
more laboured, and his shuddering and shivering could no longer be
repressed. Rachel was excessively terrified to perceive that his whole
frame was trembling like an aspen leaf. He rose, however, bent to kiss his
sister’s brow, and steadying himself by the furniture, made for the door.
The others followed him, and in a few rapid words Rachel was assured that
her fears were ungrounded, it was only an attack of his old Indian fever,
which was apt to recur on any shock, but was by no means alarming, though
for the present it must be given way to. Indeed, his teeth were chattering
too much for him to speak intelligibly, when he tried to tell Rachel to
rest and not think of him.
This of course was impossible, and the sun had scarcely risen, before he
was placed in his old quarters, the bed in the little inner study, and
Rachel watched over him while Mr. Clare had driven off with the doctor to
await the awakening of Lord Keith.
Rachel had never so much needed strength. It was hard to believe the
assurances of Alick, the doctor, and the whole house, that his condition
was not critical, for he was exceedingly ill for some hours, the ailment
having been coming on all night, though it was forced back by the resolute
will, and it was aggravated by the intensity of his grief, which on the
other hand broke forth the more violently from the failure of the physical
powers. The brother and sister had been so long alone in the world
together, and with all her faults she had been so winning, that it was a
grievous loss to him, coming too in the full bloom of her beauty and
prosperity, when he was conscious of having dealt severely with her
foibles. All was at an end—that double thread of brilliant
good-nature and worldly selfishness, with the one strand of sound
principle sometimes coming into sight. The life was gone from the earth in
its incompleteness, without an unravelling of its complicated texture, and
the wandering utterances that revealed how entirely the brother stood
first with her, added poignancy to his regret for having been harsh with
her. It could hardly be otherwise than that his censures, however just,
should now recoil upon him, and in vain did Rachel try to point out that
every word of his sister’s had proved that her better sense had all along
acquiesced—he only felt what it might have been if he had been more
indulgent and less ironical, and gave himself infinitely harder measure
than he ever could have shown to her. It was long before the suffering,
either mental or bodily, by any means abated, and Rachel felt extremely
lonely, deserted, and doubtful whether she were in any way ministering to
his relief, but at last a gleam of satisfaction came upon her. He
evidently did like her attendance on him, and he began to say something
about Bessie’s real love and esteem for her—softer grief was setting
in, and the ailment was lessening.
The summer morning was advancing, and the knell rung out its two deep
notes from the church tower. Rachel had been dreading the effect on him,
but he lay still, as if he had been waiting for it, and was evidently
counting the twenty-three strokes that told the age of the deceased. Then
he said he was mending, and that he should fall asleep if Rachel would
leave him, see after the poor child, and if his uncle should not come home
within the next quarter of an hour take measures to silence the bell for
the morning service; after which, he laid his injunctions on her to rest,
or what should he say to her mother? And the approach to a smile with
which these last words were spoken, enabled Rachel to obey in some
comfort.
After satisfying herself that the child was doing well, Rachel was obliged
to go into her former room, and there to stand face to face with the
white, still countenance so lately beaming with life. She was glad to be
alone. The marble calm above all counteracted and drove aside the painful
phantom left by Lovedy’s agony, and yet the words of that poor,
persecuted, suffering child came surging into her mind full of peace and
hope. Perhaps it was the first time she had entered into what it is for
weak things to confound the wise, or how things hidden from the
intellectual can be revealed to babes; and she hid her face in her hands,
and was thankful for the familiar words of old, “That we may embrace and
ever hold fast the blessed hope of everlasting life.”
The continued clang of the bell warned her. She looked round at the still
uncleared room, poor Bessie’s rings and bracelets lying mingled with her
own on the toilet table, and her little clock, Bessie’s own gift, standing
ticking on as it had done at her peaceful rising only yesterday morning.
She took out her hat, and was on her way to silence the bell-ringer, when
Mr. Clare was driven up to the churchyard gate.
Lord Keith had been greatly shocked, but not overpowered, he had spoken
calmly, and made minute inquiries, and Mr. Clare was evidently a little
disappointed, repeating that age and health made a difference, and that
people showed their feelings in various ways. Colonel Keith had been met
at the station, and was with his brother, but would come to make
arrangements in the course of the day. Rachel begged to stop the bell,
representing that the assembled congregation included no male person
capable of reading the lessons; but Mr. Clare answered, “No, my dear, this
is not a day to do without such a beginning. We must do what we can. Or
stay, it is the last chapter of St. John. I could hardly fail in that. Sit
near me, and give me the word if I do, unless you want to be with Alick.”
As Rachel knelt that day, the scales of self-conceit seemed to have gone.
She had her childhood’s heart again. Her bitter remorse, her afterthoughts
of perplexity had been lulled in the long calm of the respite, and when
roused again, even by this sudden sorrow, she woke to her old trust and
hope. And when she listened to the expressive though calm rehearsal of
that solemn sunrise-greeting to the weary darkling fishers on the shore of
the mountain lake, it was to her as if the form so long hidden from her by
mists of her own raising, once more shone forth, smoothing the vexed
waters of her soul, and she could say with a new thrill of recognition,
“It is the Lord.”
Once Mr. Clare missed a word, and paused for aid. She was crying too much
to be ready, and, through her tears, could not recover the passage so as
to prompt him before he had himself recalled the verse. Perhaps a sense of
failure was always good for Rachel, but she was much concerned, and her
apologies quite distressed Mr. Clare.
“Dear child, no one could be expected to keep the place when there was so
much to dwell on in the very comfort of the chapter. And now if you are
not in haste, would you take me to the place that dear Bessie spoke of, by
the willow-tree. I am almost afraid little Mary Lawrence’s grave may have
left too little space.”
Rachel guided him to a lovely spot, almost overhanging the stream, with
the dark calm pools beneath the high bank, and the willow casting a long
morning shadow over it. Her mind went back to the merry drive from
Avoncester, when she had first seen Elizabeth Keith, and had little dreamt
that in one short year she should be choosing the spot for her grave. Mr.
Clare paced the green nook and was satisfied, asking if it were not a very
pretty place.
“Yes,” said Rachel, “there is such a quiet freshness, and the willow-tree
seems to guard it.”
“Is there not a white foxglove on the bank?”
“Yes, but with only a bell or two left at the top of the side spikes.”
“Your aunt sowed the seed. It is strange that I was very near choosing
this place nine years ago, but it could not be seen from my window, which
was an object with me then.”
Just then his quick ear detected that some one was at the parsonage door,
and Rachel, turning round, exclaimed with horror, “It is that unhappy Mr.
Carleton.”
“Poor young fellow,” said Mr. Clare, with more of pity than of anger, “I
had better speak to him.”
But they were far from the path, and it was not possible to guide the
blind steps rapidly between the graves and head stones, so that before the
pathway was reached young Carleton must have received the sad reply to his
inquiries, for hurrying from the door he threw himself on his horse, and
rode off at full speed.
By the afternoon, when Colonel Keith came to Bishopsworthy, Alick was
lying on the sofa with such a headache that he could neither see nor
spell, and Rachel was writing letters for him, both in the frame of mind
in which the Colonel’s genuine warm affection and admiration for Bessie
was very comforting, assisting them in putting all past misgivings out of
sight. He had induced his brother to see Mr. Harvey, and the result had
been that Lord Keith had consented to a consultation the next day with an
eminent London surgeon, since it was clear that the blow, not the
sciatica, was answerable for the suffering which was evidently becoming
severe. The Colonel of course intended to remain with his brother, at
least till after the funeral.
“Can you?” exclaimed Alick. “Ought you not to be at Avoncester?”
“I am not a witness, and the case is in excellent hands.”
“Could you not run down? I shall be available tomorrow, and I could be
with Lord Keith.”
“Thank you, Alick, it is impossible for me to leave him,” said Colin, so
quietly that no one could have guessed how keenly he felt the being
deprived of bringing her brother to Ermine, and being present at the
crisis to which all his thoughts and endeavours had so long been directed.
That assize day had long been a dream of dread to Rachel, and perhaps even
more so to her husband. Yet how remote its interest actually seemed! They
scarcely thought of it for the chief part of the day. Alick looking very
pale, though calling himself well, went early to Timber End, and he had
not long been gone before a card was brought in, with an urgent entreaty
that Mrs. Keith would see Mrs. Carleton. Rachel longed to consult Mr.
Clare, but he had gone out to a sick person, and she was obliged to decide
that Alick could scarcely wish her to refuse, reluctant and indignant as
she felt. But her wrath lessened as she saw the lady’s tears and
agitation, so great that for a moment no words were possible, and the
first were broken apologies for intruding, “Nothing should have induced
her, but her poor son was in such a dreadful state.”
Rachel again became cold and stern, and did not relent at the description
of Charlie’s horror and agony; for she was wondering at the audacity of
mentioning his grief to the wife of Lady Keith’s brother, and thinking
that this weak, indulgent mother was the very person to make a foolish,
mischievous son, and it was on her tongue’s end that she did not see to
what she was indebted for the favour of such a visit. Perhaps Mrs.
Carleton perceived her resentment, for she broke off, and urgently asked
if poor dear Lady Keith had alluded to anything that had passed. “Yes,”
Rachel was forced to say; and when again pressed as to the manner of
alluding, replied, that “she was exceedingly distressed and displeased,”
with difficulty refraining from saying who had done all the mischief. Mrs.
Carleton was in no need of hearing it. “Ah!” she said, “it was right,
quite right. It was very wrong of my poor boy. Indeed I am not excusing
him, but if you only knew how he blames himself.”
“I am sure he ought,” Rachel could not help saying. Mrs. Carleton here
entreated her to listen, and seized her hand, so that there was no escape.
The tale was broken and confused, but there could be little doubt of its
correctness. Poor Bessie had been the bane of young Carleton’s life. She
had never either decidedly accepted or repelled his affection, but, as she
had truly said, let him follow her like a little dog, and amused herself
with him in the absence of better game. He was in his father’s office, but
her charms disturbed his application to business and kept him trifling
among the croquet lawns of Littleworthy, whence his mother never had the
resolution to banish her spoilt child. At last Miss Keith’s refusal of him
softened by a half-implied hope, sent him forth to his uncle at Rio, on
the promise that if he did his utmost there, he should in three years be
enabled to offer Miss Keith more than a competence. With this hope he had
for the first time applied himself to business in earnest, when he
received the tidings of her marriage, and like a true spoilt child broke
down at once in resolution, capacity, and health, so that his uncle was
only too glad to ship him off for England. And when Lady Keith made her
temporary home in her old neighbourhood, the companionship began again,
permitted by her in good nature, and almost contempt, and allowed by his
family in confidence of the rectitude of both parties; and indeed nothing
could be more true than that no harm had been intended. But it was
perilous ground; ladies, however highly principled, cannot leave off
self-pleasing habits all at once, and the old terms returned sufficiently
to render the barrier but slightly felt. When Lady Keith had spoken of her
intention of leaving Timber End, the reply had been the old complaint of
her brother’s harshness and jealousy of his ardent and lasting affection,
and reproof had not at once silenced him. This it was that had so startled
her as to make her hurry to her brother’s side, unheeding of her steps.
As far as Rachel could make out, the poor young man’s grief and despair
had been poured out to his mother, and she, unable to soothe, had come to
try to extract some assurance that the catastrophe had been unconnected
with his folly. A very slight foundation would have served her, but this
Rachel would not give, honestly believing him the cause of the accident,
and also that the shock to the sense of duty higher than he could
understand had occasioned the excitement which had destroyed the slender
possibility of recovery. She pitied the unhappy man more than she had done
at first, and she was much pained by his mother’s endeavours to obtain a
palliative for him, but she could not be untrue. “Indeed,” she said, “I
fear no one can say it was not so; I don’t think anything is made better
by blinking the reality.”
“Oh, Mrs. Keith, it is so dreadful. I cannot tell my poor son. I don’t
know what might be the consequence.”
Tears came into Rachel’s eyes. “Indeed,” she said, “I am very sorry for
you. I believe every one knows that I have felt what it is to be guilty of
fatal mischief, but, indeed, indeed I am sure that to realize it all is
the only way to endure it, so as to be the better for it. Believe me, I am
very sorry, but I don’t think it would be any real comfort to your son to
hear that poor Bessie had never been careful, or that I was inexperienced,
or the nurse ignorant. It is better to look at it fairly. I hear Mr. Clare
coming in. Will you see him?” she added suddenly, much relieved.
But Mrs. Carleton did not wish to see him, and departed, thinking Alick
Keith’s wife as bad as had ever been reported, and preparing an account of
her mismanagement wherewith to remove her son’s remorse.
She was scarcely gone, and Rachel had not had time to speak to Mr. Clare,
before another visitor was upon her, no other than Lord Keith’s daughter,
Mrs. Comyn Menteith; or, as she introduced herself, “I’m Isabel. I came
down from London to-day because it was so very shocking and deplorable,
and I am dying to see my poor little brother and uncle Colin. I must keep
away from poor papa till the doctors are gone, so I came here.”
She was a little woman in the delicately featured style of sandy
prettiness, and exceedingly talkative and good-natured. The rapid tongue,
though low and modulated, jarred painfully on Rachel’s feelings in the
shaded staircase, and she was glad to shut the door of the temporary
nursery, when Mrs. Menteith pounced upon the poor little baby, pitying him
with all her might, comparing him with her own children, and asking
authoritative questions, coupled with demonstrations of her intention of
carrying him off to her own nursery establishment, which had been left in
Scotland with a head nurse, whose name came in with every fourth word—that
is, if he lived at all, which she seemed to think a hopeless matter.
She spoke of “poor dear Bessie,” with such affection as was implied in
“Oh, she was such a darling! I got on with her immensely. Why didn’t you
send to me, though I don’t know that Donald would have let me come,” and
she insisted on learning the whole history, illustrating it profusely with
personal experiences. Rachel was constantly hoping to be released from a
subject so intensely painful; but curiosity prevailed through the chatter,
and kept hold of the thread of the story. Mrs. Menteith decidedly thought
herself defrauded of a summons. “It was very odd of them all not to
telegraph for me. Those telegrams are such a dreadful shock. There came
one just as I set out from Timber End, and I made sure little Sandie was
ill at home, for you know the child is very delicate, and there are so
many things going about, and what with all this dreadful business, I was
ready to faint, and after all it was only a stupid thing for Uncle Colin
from those people at Avoncester.”
“You do not know what it was?”
“Somebody was convicted or acquitted, I forget which, but I know it had
something to do with Uncle Colin’s journey to Russia; so ridiculous of him
at his age, when he ought to know better, and so unlucky for all the
family, his engagement to that swindler’s sister. By-the-bye, did he not
cheat you out of ever so much money?”
“Oh, that had nothing to do with it—it was not Miss Williams’s
brother—it was not he that was tried.”
“Wasn’t he? I thought he was found guilty or something; but it is very
unfortunate for the family, for Uncle Colin won’t give her up, though she
is a terrible cripple, too. And to tell you a secret, it was his obstinacy
that made papa marry again; and now it is of no use, this poor little
fellow will never live, and this sharper’s sister will be Lady Keith after
all! So unlucky! Papa says she is very handsome, and poor Bessie declares
she is quite ladylike.”
“The most superior person I ever knew,” said Rachel, indignantly.
“Ah, yes, of course she must be very clever and artful if her brother is a
swindler.”
“But indeed he is not, he was cheated; the swindler was Maddox.”
“Oh, but he was a glass-blower, or something, I know, and her sister is a
governess. I am sure it is no fault of mine! The parties I gave to get him
and Jessie Douglas together! Donald was quite savage about the bills. And
after all Uncle Colin went and caught cold, and would not come! I would
not have minded half so much if it had been Jessie Douglas; but to have
her at Gowanbrae—a glass-blower’s daughter—isn’t it too bad?”
“Her father was a clergyman of a good Welsh family.”
“Was he? Then her brother or somebody had something to do with glass.”
Attempts at explanation were vain, the good lady had an incapacity of
attention, and was resolved on her grievance. She went away at last
because “those horrid doctors will be gone now, and I will be able to see
poor papa, and tell him when I will take home the baby, though I don’t
believe he will live to be taken anywhere, poor dear little man.”
She handled him so much more scientifically than Rachel could do, that it
was quite humiliating, and yet to listen to her talk, and think of
committing any child to her charge was sickening, and Rachel already felt
a love and pity for her little charge that made her wretched at the
thoughts of the prognostic about him.
“You are tired with your visitors my dear,” said Mr. Clare, holding out
his hand towards her, when she returned to him.
“How do you know?” she asked.
“By the sound of your move across the room, and the stream of talk I heard
above must be enough to exhaust any one.”
“She thinks badly of that poor child,” said Rachel, her voice trembling.
“My dear, it would take a good deal to make me uneasy about anything I
heard in that voice.”
“And if he lives, she is to have the charge of him,” added Rachel.
“That is another matter on which I would suspend my fears,” said Mr.
Clare. “Come out, and take a turn in the peacock path. You want air more
than rest. So you have been talked to death.”
“And I am afraid she is gone to talk Alick to death! I wonder when Alick
will come home,” she proceeded, as they entered on the path. “She says
Colonel Keith had a telegram about the result of the trial, but she does
not know what it was, nor indeed who was tried.”
“Alick will not keep you in doubt longer than he can help,” said Mr.
Clare.
“You know all about it;” said Rachel. “The facts every one must know, but
I mean that which led to them.”
“Alick told me you had suffered very much.”
“I don’t know whether it is a right question, but if it is, I should much
like to know what Alick did say. I begged him to tell you all, or it would
not have been fair towards you to bring me here.”
“He told me that he knew you had been blind and wilful, but that your
confidence had been cruelly abused, and you had been most unselfish
throughout.”
“I did not mean so much what I had done as what I am—what I was.”
“The first time he mentioned you, it was as one of the reasons that he
wished to take our dear Bessie to Avonmouth. He said there was a girl
there of a strong spirit, independent and thorough-going, and thinking for
herself. He said, ‘to be sure, she generally thinks wrong, but there’s a
candour and simplicity about her that make her wildest blunders better
than parrot commonplace,’ and he thought your reality might impress his
sister. Even then I gathered what was coming.”
“And how wrong and foolish you must have thought it.”
“I hoped I might trust my boy’s judgment.”
“Indeed, you could not think it worse for him than I did; but I was ill
and weak, and could not help letting Alick do what he would; but I have
never understood it. I told him how unsettled my views were, and he did
not seem to mind—”
“My dear, may I ask if this sense of being unsettled is with you still?”
“I don’t know! I had no power to read or think for a long time, and now,
since I have been here, I hope it has not been hypocrisy, for going on in
your way and his has been very sweet to me, and made me feel as I used
when I was a young girl, with only an ugly dream between. I don’t like to
look at it, and yet that dream was my real life that I made for myself.”
“Dear child, I have little doubt that Alick knew it would come to this.”
Rachel paused. “What, you and he think a woman’s doubts so vague and
shallow as to be always mastered by a husband’s influence?”
Mr. Clare was embarrassed. If he had thought so he had not expected her to
make the inference. He asked her if she could venture to look back on her
dream so as to mention what had chiefly distressed her. He could not see
her frowning effort at recollection, but after a pause, she said, “Things
will seem to you like trifles, indeed, individual criticisms appear so to
me; but the difficulty to my mind is that I don’t see these objections
fairly grappled with. There is either denunciation or weak argument; but I
can better recollect the impression on my own mind than what made it.”
“Yes, I know that feeling; but are you sure you have seen all the
arguments?”
“I cannot tell—perhaps not. Whenever I get a book with anything in
it, somebody says it is not sound.”
“And you therefore conclude that a sound book can have nothing in it?” he
asked, smiling.
“Well, most of the new ‘sound’ books that I have met are just what my
mother and sister like—either dull, or sentimental and trashy.”
“Perhaps those that get into popular circulation do deserve some of your
terms for them. Illogical replies break down and carry off some who have
pinned their faith to them; but are you sure that though you have read
much, you have read deep?”
“I have read more deeply than any one I know—women, I mean—or
than any man ever showed me he had read. Indeed, I am trying not to say it
in conceit, but Ermine Williams does not read argumentative books, and
gentlemen almost always make as if they knew nothing about them.”
“I think you may be of great use to me, my dear, if you will help me. The
bishop has desired me to preach the next visitation sermon, and he wishes
it to be on some of these subjects. Now, if you will help me with the book
work, it will be very kind in you, and might serve to clear your mind
about some of the details, though you must be prepared for some questions
being unanswered.”
“Best so,” replied Rachel, “I don’t like small answers to great
questions.”
“Nor I. Only let us take care not to get absorbed in admiring the boldness
that picks out stones to be stumbled over.”
“Do you object to my having read, and thought, and tried?”
“Certainly not. Those who have the capability should, if they feel
disturbed, work out the argument. Nothing is gained while it is felt that
both sides have not been heard. I do not myself believe that a humble,
patient, earnest spirit can go far wrong, though it may for a time be
tried, and people often cry out at the first stumbling block, and then
feel committed to the exclamations they have made.”
The conversation was here ended by the sight of Alick coming slowly and
wearily in from the churchyard, looking as if some fresh weight were upon
him, and he soon told them that the doctors had pronounced that Lord Keith
was in a critical state, and would probably have much to suffer from the
formation that had begun where he had received the neglected bruise in the
side. No word of censure of poor Bessie had been breathed, nor did Alick
mention her name, but he deeply suffered under the fulfilment of his own
predictions, and his subdued, dejected manner expressed far more than did
his words. Rachel asked how Lord Keith seemed.
“Oh, there’s no getting at his feelings. He was very civil to me—asked
after you, Rachel—told me to give you his thanks, but not a single
word about anything nearer. Then I had to read the paper to him—all
that dinner at Liverpool, and he made remarks, and expected me to know
what it was about. I suppose he does feel; the Colonel says he is
exceedingly cut up, and he looks like a man of eighty, infinitely worse
than last time I saw him, but I don’t know what to make of him.”
“And, Alick, did you hear the verdict?”
“What verdict?”
“That man at Avoncester. Mrs. Menteith said there had been a telegram.”
Alick looked startled. “This has put everything out of my head!” he said.
“What was the verdict?”
“That was just what she could not tell. She did not quite know who was
tried.”
“And she came here and harassed you with it,” he said, looking at her
anxiously. “As if you had not gone through enough already.”
“Never mind that now. It seems so long ago now that I can hardly think
much about it; and I have had another visitor,” she added, as Mr. Clare
left them to themselves, “Mrs. Carleton—that poor son of hers is in
such distress.”
“She has been palavering you over,” he said, in a tone more like
displeasure than he had ever used towards her.
“Indeed, Alick, if you would listen, you would find him very much to be
pitied.”
“I only wish never to hear of any of them again.” He did not speak like
himself, and Rachel was aghast.
“I thought you would not object to my letting her in,” she began.
“I never said I did,” he answered; “I can never think of him but as having
caused her death, and it was no thanks to him that there was nothing
worse.”
The sternness of his manner would have silenced Rachel but for her strong
sense of truth and justice, which made her persevere in saying, “There may
have been more excuse than you believe.”
“Do you suppose that is any satisfaction to me?” He walked decidedly away,
and entered by the library window, and she stood grieved and wondering
whether she had been wrong in pitying, or whether he were too harsh in his
indignation. It was a sign that her tone and spirit had recovered, that
she did not succumb in judgment, though she felt utterly puzzled and
miserable till she recollected how unwell, weary, and unhappy he was, and
that every fresh perception of his sister’s errors was like a poisoned
arrow to him; and then she felt shocked at having obtruded the subject on
him at all, and when she found him leaning back in his chair, spent and
worn out, she waited on him in the quietest, gentlest way she could
accomplish, and tried to show that she had put the subject entirely aside.
However, when they were next alone together, he turned his face away and
muttered, “What did that woman say to you?”
“Oh, Alick, I am sorry I began! It only gives you pain.”
“Go on—”
She did go on till she had told all, and he uttered no word of comment.
She longed to ask whether he disapproved of her having permitted the
interview; but as he did not again recur to the topic, it was making a
real and legitimate use of strength of mind to abstain from tearing him on
the matter. Yet when she recollected what worldly honour would once have
exacted of a military man, and the conflicts between religion and public
opinion, she felt thankful indeed that half a century lay between her and
that terrible code, and even as it was, perceiving the strong hold that
just resentment had taken on her husband’s silently determined nature, she
could not think of the neighbourhood of the Carleton family without dread.
CHAPTER XXVII. THE POST BAG.
“Thefts, like ivy on a ruin, make the rifts they seem to shade.”—
C. G. DUFFY.
“August 3d, 7 A. M.
“My Dear Colonel Keith,—Papa is come, and I have got up so early in
the morning that I have nothing to do but to write to you before we go in
to Avoncester. Papa and Mr. Beechum came by the six o’clock train, and
Lady Temple sent me in the waggonette to meet them. Aunt Ailie would not
go, because she was afraid Aunt Ermine would get anxious whilst she was
waiting. I saw papa directly, and yet I did not think it could be papa,
because you were not there, and he looked quite past me, and I do not
think he would have found me or the carriage at all if Mr. Beechum had not
known me. And then, I am afraid I was very naughty, but I could not help
crying just a little when I found you had not come; but perhaps Lady Keith
may be better, and you may come before I go into court to-day, and then I
shall tear up this letter. I am afraid papa thought I was unkind to cry
when he was just come home, for he did not talk to me near so much as Mr.
Beechum did, and his eyes kept looking out as if he did not see anything
near, only quite far away. And I suppose Russian coats must be made of
some sort of sheep that eats tobacco.”
“August 3d, 10 A. M.
“Dearest Colin,—I have just lighted on poor little Rosie’s
before-breakfast composition, and I can’t refrain from sending you her
first impressions, poor child, though no doubt they will alter, as she
sees more of her father. All are gone to Avoncester now, though with some
doubts whether this be indeed the critical day; I hope it may be, the
sooner this is over the better, but I am full of hope. I cannot believe
but that the Providence that has done so much to discover Edward’s
innocence to the world, will finish the work! I have little expectation
though of your coming down in time to see it, the copy of the telegraphic
message, which you sent by Harry, looks as bad as possible, and even
allowing something for inexperience and fright, things must be in a state
in which you could hardly leave your brother, so unwell as he seems.
“2 p.m. I was interrupted by Lady Temple, who was soon followed by Mrs.
Curtis, burning to know whether I had any more intelligence than had
floated to them. Pray, if you can say anything to exonerate poor Rachel
from mismanagement, say it strongly; her best friends are so engaged in
wishing themselves there, and pitying poor Bessie for being in her charge,
that I long to confute them, for I fully believe in her sense and spirit
in any real emergency that she had not ridden out to encounter.
“And I have written so far without a word on the great subject of all, the
joy untold for which our hearts had ached so long, and which we owe
entirely to you, for Edward owns that nothing but your personal
representations would have brought him, and, as I suppose you already know—he
so much hated the whole subject of Maddox’s treachery that he had flung
aside, unread, all that he saw related to it. Dear Colin, whatever else
you have done, you have filled a famished heart. Could you but have seen
Ailie’s face all last evening as she sat by his side, you would have felt
your reward—it was as if the worn, anxious, almost stern mask had
been taken away, and our Ailie’s face was beaming out as of old when she
was the family pet, before Julia took her away to be finished. She sees no
change; she is in an ecstasy of glamour that makes her constantly repeat
her rejoicings that Edward is so much himself, so unchanged, till I almost
feel unsisterly for seeing in him the traces that these sad years have
left, and that poor little Rose herself has detected. No, he is not so
much changed as exaggerated. The living to himself, and with so cruel a
past, has greatly increased the old dreaminess that we always tried to
combat, and he seems less able than before to turn his mind into any
channel but the one immediately before him. He is most loving when roused,
but infinitely more inclined to fall off into a muse. I am afraid you must
have had a troublesome charge in him, judging by the uproar Harry makes
about the difficulty of getting him safe from Paddington. It is good to
see him and Harry together—the old schoolboy ways are so renewed,
all bitterness so entirely forgotten, only Harry rages a little that he is
not more wrapped up in Rose. To say the truth, so do I; but if it were not
for Harry’s feeling the same, I should believe that you had taught me to
be exacting about my rosebud. Partly, it is that he is disappointed that
she is not like her mother; he had made up his mind to another Lucy, and
her Williams face took him by surprise, and, partly, he is not a man to
adapt himself to a child. She must be trained to help unobtrusively in his
occupations; the unknowing little plaything her mother was, she never can
be. I am afraid he will never adapt himself to English life again—his
soul seems to be in his mines, and if as you say he is happy and valued
there—though it is folly to look forward to the wrench again,
instead of rejoicing in the present gladness; but often as I had
fashioned that arrival in my fancy, it was never that Harry’s voice, not
yours, should say the ‘Here he is.’
“They all went this morning in the waggonette, and the two boys with Miss
Curtis in the carriage. Lady Temple is very kind in coming in and out to
enliven me. I am afraid I must close and send this before their return.
What a day it is! And how are you passing it? I fear, even at the best, in
much anxiety. Lady Temple asks to put in a line.—Yours ever, E. W.”
“August 3d, 5 P. M.
“My Dear Colonel,—This is just to tell you that dear Ermine is very
well, and bearing the excitement and suspense wonderfully. We were all
dreadfully shocked to hear about poor dear Bessie; it is so sad her having
no mother nor any one but Rachel to take care of her, though Rachel would
do her best, I know. If she would like to have me, or if you think I could
do any good, pray telegraph for me the instant you get this letter. I
would have come this morning, only I thought, perhaps, she had her aunt.
That stupid telegram never said whether her baby was alive, or what it
was; I do hope it is all right. I should like to send nurse up at once—I
always thought she saved little Cyril when he was so ill. Pray send for
nurse or me, or anything I can send: anyway, I know nobody can be such a
comfort as you; but the only thing there is to wish about you is, that you
could be in two places at once.
“The two boys are gone in to the trial, they were very eager about it; and
dear Grace promises to take care of Conrade’s throat. Poor boys! they had
got up a triumphal arch for your return, but I am afraid I am telling
secrets. Dear Ermine is so good and resolutely composed—quite an
example.—Yours affectionately,
“F. G. Temple.”
“Avoncester,
August 3d, 2 P. M.
“My Dear Colonel Keith,—I am just come out of court, and I am to
wait at the inn, for Aunt Ailie does not like for me to hear the trial,
but she says I may write to you to pass away the time. I am sorry I left
my letter out to go this morning, for Aunt Ailie says it is very undutiful
to say anything about the sheep’s wool in Russia smelling of tobacco.
Conrade says it is all smoking, and that every one does it who has seen
the world. Papa never stops smoking but when he is with Aunt Ermine, he
sat on the box and did it all the way to Avoncester, and Mr. Beechum said
it was to compose his mind. After we got to Avoncester we had a long, long
time to wait, and first one was called, and then another, and then they
wanted me. I was not nearly so frightened as I was that time when you sent
for me, though there were so many more people; but it was daylight, and
the judge looked so kind, and the lawyer spoke so gently to me, and Mr.
Maddox did not look horrid like that first time. I think he must be sorry
now he has seen how much he has hurt papa. The lawyer asked me all about
the noises, and the lions, and the letters of light, just as Mr. Grey did;
and they showed me papa’s old seal ring, and asked if I knew it, and a
seal that was made with the new one that he got when the other was lost!
and I knew them because I used to make impressions on my arms with them
when I was a little girl. There was another lawyer that asked how old I
was, and why I had not told before; and I thought he was going to laugh at
me for a silly little girl, but the judge would not let him, and said I
was a clear-headed little maiden; and Mr. Beechum came with Aunt Ailie,
and took me out of court, and told me to choose anything in the whole
world he should give me, so I chose the little writing case I am writing
with now, and ‘The Heroes’ besides, so I shall be able to read till the
others come back, and we go home.—Your affectionate little friend,
“Rose Ermine Williams.”
“The Homestead,
August 3d, 9 P. M.
“My Dear Alexander,—You made me promise to send you the full account
of this day’s proceedings, or I do not think I should attempt it, when you
may be so sadly engaged. Indeed, I should hardly have gone to Avoncester
had the sad intelligence reached me before I had set out, when I thought
my sudden return would be a greater alarm to my mother, and I knew that
dear Fanny would do all she could for her. Still she has had a very
nervous day, thinking constantly of your dear sister, and of Rachel’s
alarm and inexperience; but her unlimited confidence in your care of
Rachel is some comfort, and I am hoping that the alarm may have subsided,
and you may be all rejoicing. I have always thought that, with dear
Rachel, some new event or sensation would most efface the terrible
memories of last spring. My mother is now taking her evening nap, and I am
using the time for telling you of the day’s doings. I took with me Fanny’s
two eldest, who were very good and manageable, and we met Mr. Grey, who
put us in very good places, and told us the case was just coming on. You
will see the report in detail in the paper, so I will only try to give you
what you would not find there. I should tell you that Maddox has entirely
dropped his alias. Mr. Grey is convinced that was only a bold stroke to
gain time and prevent the committal, so as to be able to escape, and that
he ‘reckoned upon bullying a dense old country magistrate;’ but that he
knew it was quite untenable before a body of unexceptionable witnesses.
Altogether the man looked greatly altered and crest-fallen, and there was
a meanness and vulgarity in his appearance that made me wonder at our ever
having credited his account of himself. He had an abject look, very unlike
his confident manner at the sessions, nor did he attempt his own defence.
Mr. Grey kept on saying he must know that he had not a leg to stand upon.
“The counsel for the prosecution told the whole story, and it was very
touching. I had never known the whole before; the sisters are so resolute
and uncomplaining: but how they must have suffered when every one thought
them ruined by their brother’s fraud! I grieve to think how we neglected
them, and only noticed them when it suited our convenience. Then he called
Mr. Beechum, and you will understand better than I can all about the
concern in which they were embarked, and Maddox coming to him for an
advance of £300, giving him a note from Mr. Williams, asking for it to
carry out an invention. The order for the sum was put into Maddox’s hands,
and the banker proved the paying it to him by an order on a German bank.
“Then came Mr. Williams. I had seen him for a moment in setting out, and
was struck with his strange, lost, dreamy look. There is something very
haggard and mournful in his countenance; and, though he has naturally the
same fine features as his eldest sister, his cheeks are hollow, his eyes
almost glassy, and his beard, which is longer than the Colonel’s, very
grey. He gave me the notion of the wreck of a man, stunned and crushed,
and never thoroughly alive again; but when he stood in the witness-box,
face to face with the traitor, he was very different; he lifted up his
head, his eyes brightened, his voice became clear, and his language terse
and concentrated, so that I could believe in his having been the very able
man he was described to be. I am sure Maddox must have quailed under his
glance, there was something so loftily innocent in it, yet so wistful, as
much as to say, ‘how could you abuse my perfect confidence?’ Mr. Williams
denied having received the money, written the letter, or even thought of
making the request. They showed him the impression of two seals. He said
one was made with a seal-ring given him by Colonel Keith, and lost some
time before he went abroad; the other, with one with which he had replaced
it, and which he produced,—he had always worn it on his finger. They
matched exactly with the impressions; and there was a little difference in
the hair of the head upon the seal that was evident to every one. It
amused the boys extremely to see some of the old jurymen peering at them
with their glasses. He was asked where he was on the 7th of September (the
date of the letter), and he referred to some notes of his own, which
enabled him to state that on the 6th he had come back to Prague from a
village with a horrible Bohemian name—all cs and zs—which I
will not attempt to write, though much depended on the number of the said
letters.
“The rest of the examination must have been very distressing, for Maddox’s
counsel pushed him hard about his reasons for not returning to defend
himself, and he was obliged to tell how ill his wife was, and how
terrified; and they endeavoured to make that into an admission that he
thought himself liable. They tried him with bits of the handwriting, and
he could not always tell which were his own;—but I think every one
must have been struck with his honourable scrupulosity in explaining every
doubt he had.
“Other people were called in about the writing, but Alison Williams was
the clearest of all. She was never puzzled by any scrap they showed her,
and, moreover, she told of Maddox having sent for her brother’s address,
and her having copied it from a letter of Mrs. Williams’s, which she
produced, with the wrong spelling, just as it was in the forgery. The next
day had come a letter from the brother, which she showed, saying that they
were going to leave the place sooner than they had intended, and spelling
it right. She gave the same account of the seals, and nothing ever seemed
to disconcert her. My boys were so much excited about their ‘own Miss
Williams,’ that I was quite afraid they would explode into a cheer.
“That poor woman whom we used to call Mrs. Rawlins told her sad story
next. She is much worn and subdued, and Mr. Grey was struck with the
change from the fierce excitement she showed when she was first confronted
with Maddox, after her own trial; but she held fast to the same evidence,
giving it not resentfully, but sadly and firmly, as if she felt it to be
her duty. She, as you know, explained how Maddox had obtained access to
Mr. Williams’s private papers, and how she had, afterwards, found in his
possession the seal ring, and the scraps of paper in his patron’s writing.
A policeman produced them, and the seal perfectly filled the wax upon the
forged letter. The bits of paper showed that Maddox had been practising
imitating Mr. Williams’s writing. It all seemed most distinct, but still
there was some sharp cross-examination of her on her own part in the
matter, and Mr. Grey said it was well that little Rose could so exactly
confirm the facts she mentioned.
“Poor, dear little Rose looked very sweet and innocent, and not so much
frightened as at her first examination. She told her story of the savage
way in which she had been frightened into silence. Half the people in the
court were crying, and I am sure it was a mercy that she was not driven
out of her senses, or even murdered that night. It seems that she was sent
to bed early, but the wretches knowing that she always woke and talked
while her mother was going to bed, the phosphoric letters were prepared to
frighten her, and detain her in her room, and then Maddox growled at her
when she tried to pass the door. She was asked how she knew the growl to
be Maddox’s, and she answered that she heard him cough. Rachel will, I am
sure, remember the sound of that little dry cough. Nothing could make it
clearer than that the woman had spoken the truth. The child identified the
two seals with great readiness, and then was sent back to the inn that she
might not be perplexed with hearing the defence. This, of course, was very
trying to us all, since the best the counsel could do for his client was
to try to pick holes in the evidence, and make the most of the general
acquiescence in Mr. Williams’s guilt for all these years. He brought
forward letters that showed that Mr. Williams had been very sanguine about
the project, and had written about the possibility that an advance might
be needed. Some of the letters, which both Mr. Williams and his sister
owned to be in his own writing, spoke in most flourishing terms of his
plans; and it was proved by documents and witnesses that the affairs were
in such a state that bankruptcy was inevitable, so that there was every
motive for securing a sum to live upon. It was very miserable all the time
this was going on; the whole interpretation, of Mr. Williams’s conduct
seemed to be so cruelly twisted aside, and it was what every one had all
along believed, his absence was made so much of, and all these little
circumstances that had seemed so important were held so cheap—one
knew it was only the counsel’s representation, and yet Alison grew whiter
and whiter under it. I wish you could have heard the reply: drawing the
picture of the student’s absorption and generous confidence, and his
agent’s treachery, creeping into his household, and brutally playing on
the terrors of his child.
“Well, I cannot tell you all, but the judge summed up strongly for a
conviction, though he said a good deal about culpable negligence almost
inviting fraud, and I fear it must have been very distressing to the
Williamses; but the end was that Maddox was found guilty, and sentenced to
fourteen years’ penal servitude, though I am afraid they will not follow
Conrade’s suggestion, and chain up a lion by his bed every night of his
life.
“We were very happy when we met at the inn, and all shook hands. Dr. Long
was, I think, the least at ease. He had come in case this indictment had
in any way failed, to bring his own matter forward, so that Maddox should
not get off. I do not like him very much, he seemed unable to be really
hearty, and I think he must have once been harsh and now ashamed of it.
Then he was displeased at Colonel Keith’s absence, and could hardly
conceal how much he was put out by the cause, as if he thought the Colonel
had imposed himself on the family as next heir. I hardly know how to send
all this in the present state of things, but I believe you will wish to
have it, and will judge how much Rachel will bear to hear. Good night.—Your
affectionate Sister,
“Grace Curtis.”
“Gowanbrae,
Avonmouth,
August 3d, 11 P. M.
“Dear Keith,—Before this day has ended you must have a few lines
from the man whom your exertions have relieved from a stigma, the full
misery of which I only know by the comfort of its removal. I told you
there was much that could never be restored. I feel this all the more in
the presence of all that now remains to me, but I did not know how much
could still be given back. The oppression of the load of suspicion under
which I laboured now seems to me to have been intolerable since I have
been freed from it. I cannot describe how changed a man I have felt, since
Beechum shook hands with me. The full blackness of Maddox’s treachery I
had not known, far less his cruelty to my child. Had I been aware of all I
could not have refrained from trying to bring him to justice; but there is
no need to enter into the past. It is enough that I owe to you a freed
spirit, and new life, and that my gratitude is not lessened by the
knowledge that something besides friendship urged you. Ermine is indeed as
attractive as ever, and has improved in health far more than I durst
expect. I suppose it is your all-powerful influence. You are first with
all here, as you well deserve, even my child, who is as lovely and
intelligent as you told me, has every thought pervaded with ‘the Colonel.’
She is a sweet creature; but there was one who will never be retraced, and
forgive me, Keith, without her, even triumph must be bitterness.—Still
ever most gratefully yours,
“Edward Williams.”
“August 3d, 11 P. M.
“Dearest Colin,—The one sound in my ears, the one song in my heart
is, ‘Let them give thanks.’ It is as if we had passed from a dungeon into
sunshine. I suppose it would be too much if you were here to share it.
They sent Rose in first to tell me, but I knew in the sound of their
wheels that all was well. What an evening we have had, but I must not
write more. Ailie is watching me like a dragon, and will not rest till I
am in bed; but I can’t tell how to lose one minute of gladness in sleep.
Oh, Colin, Colin, truest of all true knights, what an achievement yours
has been!”
“August 4th.
“That was a crazy bit that I wrote last night, but I will not make away
with it. I don’t care how crazy you think me. It would have been a pity
not to have slept to wake to the knowledge that all was not a dream, but
then came the contrast with the sorrow you are watching. And I have just
had your letter. What a sudden close to that joyous life! She was one of
the most winning beings, as you truly say, that ever flashed across one’s
course, and if she had faults, they were those of her day and her
training. I suppose, by what you say, that she was too girlish to be all
the companion your brother required, and that this may account for his
being more shocked than sorrow-stricken, and his child, since he can dwell
on the thought, is such a new beginning of hope, that I wonder less than
you do at his bearing up so well. Besides, pain dulls the feelings, and is
a great occupation. I wish you could have seen that dear Bessie, but I
gather that the end came on much more rapidly than had been expected. It
seemed as if she were one of those to whom even suffering was strangely
lightened and shortened, as if she had met only the flowers of life, and
even the thorns and stings were almost lost in their bright blossoms. And
she could hardly have lived on without much either of temptation or
sorrow. I am glad of your testimony to Rachel’s effectiveness, I wrote it
out and sent it up to the Homestead. There was a note this morning
requesting Edward to come in to see Maddox, and Ailie is gone with him,
thinking she may get leave to see poor Maria. Think of writing ‘Edward and
Ailie’ again! Dr. Long and Harry are gone with them. The broken thread is
better pieced by Harry than by the Doctor; but he wants Ailie and me to go
and stay at Belfast. Now I must hear Rose read, in order to bring both her
and myself to our reasonable senses.”
“5 P. M.
“They have been returned about an hour, and I must try to give you
Edward’s account of his interview. Maddox has quite dropped his mask, and
seems to have been really touched by being brought into contact with
Edward again, and, now it is all up with him, seemed to take a kind of
pleasure in explaining the whole web, almost, Edward said, with vanity at
his own ingenuity. His earlier history was as he used to represent it to
Edward. He was a respectable ironmonger’s son, with a taste for art; he
was not allowed to indulge it, and then came rebellion, and breaking away
from home. He studied at the Academy for a few years, but wanted
application, and fancied he had begun too late, tried many things and
spent a shifty life, but never was consciously dishonest till after he had
fallen in with Edward; and the large sums left uninquired for in his hands
became a temptation to one already inclined to gambling. His own
difficulties drove him on, and before he ventured on the grand stroke, he
had been in a course of using the sums in his hands for his own purposes.
The finding poor Maria open to the admiration he gave her beauty, put it
into his head to make a tool of her; and this was not the first time he
had used Edward’s seal, or imitated his writing. No wonder there was such
a confusion in the accounts as told so much against Edward. He told the
particulars, Edward says, with the strangest mixture of remorse and
exultation. At last came the journey to Bohemia, and his frauds became the
more easy, until he saw there must be a bankruptcy, and made the last bold
stroke, investing the money abroad in his own name, so that he would have
been ready to escape if Edward had come home again. He never expected but
that Edward would have returned, and finding the affairs hopeless, did
this deed in order to have a resource. As to regret, he seemed to feel
some when he said the effects had gone farther than he anticipated; but ‘I
could not let him get into that subject,’ Edward said, and he soon came
back to his amused complacency in his complete hoodwinking of all
concerned at home, almost thanking Edward for the facilities his absence
had given him. After this, he went abroad, taking Maria lest she should
betray him on being cast off; and they lived in such style at German
gambling places that destitution brought them back again to England, where
he could better play the lecturer, and the artist in search of
subscriptions. Edward could not help smiling over some of his good
stories, rather as ‘the lord’ may have ‘commended the wisdom of his unjust
steward.’ Well, here he came, and, as he said, he really could hardly have
helped himself; he had only to stand still and let poor Rachel deceive
herself, and the whole concern was in a manner thrust upon him. He was
always expecting to be able to get the main sum into his hands, as he
obtained more confidence from Rachel, and the woodcuts were an over-bold
stroke for the purpose; he had not intended her to keep or show them, but
her ready credulity tempted him too far; and I cannot help laughing now at
poor Edward’s reproofs to us for having been all so easily cheated, now
that he has been admitted behind the scenes. Maddox never suspected our
neighbourhood, he had imagined us to be still in London, and though he
heard Alison’s name, he did not connect it with us. After all, what you
thought would have been fatal to your hopes of tracing him, was really
what gave him into our hands—Lady Temple’s sudden descent upon their
F. U. E. E. If he had not been so hurried and distressed as to be forced
to leave Maria and the poor child to her fate, Maria would have held by
him to the last and without her testimony where should we have been? But
with a summons out against him, and hearing that Maria had been
recognised, he could only fly to the place at Bristol that he thought
unknown to Maria. Even when seized by the police, he did not know it was
she who directed them, and had not expected her evidence till he actually
saw and heard her on the night of the sessions. It was all Colonel Keith’s
doing, he said, every other adversary he would have despised, but your
array of forces met him at every corner where he hoped to escape, and the
dear little Rosie gave him check-mate, like a gallant little knight’s pawn
as she is. ‘Who could have guessed that child would have such a confounded
memory?’ he said, for Edward had listened with a sort of interest that had
made him quite forget that he was Rose’s father, and that this wicked
cunning Colonel was working in his cause. So off he goes to penal
servitude, and Edward is so much impressed and touched with his sharpness
as to predict that he will be the model prisoner before long, if he do not
make his escape. As to poor Maria, that was a much more sad meeting,
though perhaps less really melancholy, for there can be no doubt that she
repents entirely, she speaks of every one as being very good to her, and
indeed the old influences only needed revival, they had never quite died
out. Even that poor child’s name was given for love of Ailie, and the
perception of having been used to bring about her master’s ruin had always
preyed upon her, and further embittered her temper. The barbarity seemed
like a dream in connexion with her, but, as she told Ailie, when she once
began something came over her, and she could not help striking harder. It
reminded me of horrible stories of the Hathertons’ usage of animals.
Enough of this. I believe the Sisterhood will find a safe shelter for her
when her imprisonment is over, and that temptation will not again be put
in her way. We should never have trusted her in poor dear Lucy’s
household. Rose calls for the letters. Good bye, dearest Colin and
conqueror. I know all this will cheer you, for it is your own doing. I
can’t stop saying so, it is such a pleasant sound—Your own,
“E. W.”
CHAPTER XXVIII. VANITY OF VANITIES.
“Unfaith in aught is want of faith in all.”
TENNYSON.
The funeral was very quiet. By Colonel Keith’s considerate arrangement the
attendants met at Timber End, so that the stillness of the Parsonage was
not invaded, a measure the more expedient, as Alick was suffering from a
return of his old enemy, intermitting fever, and only was able to leave
his room in time to join the procession.
Many were present, for poor Bessie had been a general favourite, and her
untimely fate had stirred up feelings that had created her into a saint
upon earth; but there was no one whose token of respect she would have
more esteemed than Colonel Hammond’s, who in all the bustle of the remove
to Edinburgh had found time to come to Bishopsworthy to do honour to the
daughter of his old commanding officer. A flush of gratitude came over
Alick’s pale face when he became aware of his colonel’s presence, and when
the choristers’ hymn had pealed low and sweetly over the tranquil meadows,
and the mourners had turned away, Alick paused at the Parsonage gate to
hold out his hand, and bring in this one guest to hear how near to
Bessie’s heart the father’s Highland regiment had been in all the
wanderings of her last moments.
The visit was prolonged for nearly an hour, while recollections of Alick’s
parents were talked over, and Rachel thought him more cheered and
gratified than by any other tribute that had been paid to his sister. He
was promised an extension of leave, if it were required on account of Lord
Keith’s state, though under protest that he would have the aguish fever as
long as he remained overlooking the water meadows, and did not put himself
under Dr. M’Vicar. Through these meadows Colonel Hammond meant to walk
back to the station, and Alick and Rachel conducted him far enough to put
him into the right path, and in going back again, they could not but go
towards the stile leading to that corner of the churchyard where the
sexton had finished his work, and smoothed the sods over that new grave.
Some one was standing at the foot—not the sexton—but a young
man bending as with an intolerable load of grief. Rachel saw him first,
when Alick was helping her down the step, and her start of dismay made him
turn and look round. His brow contracted, and she clutched his arm with an
involuntary cry of, “Oh, don’t,” but he, with a gesture that at once awed
and tranquillized her, unclasped her hold and put her back, while he
stepped forward.
She could hear every word, though his voice was low and deep with emotion.
“Carleton, if I have ever been harsh or unjust in my dealings towards you,
I am sorry for it. We have both had the saddest of all lessons. May we
both take it as we ought.”
He wrung the surprised and unwilling hand, and before the youth, startled
and overcome, had recovered enough to attempt a reply, he had come back to
Rachel, resumed her arm, and crossed the churchyard, still shivering and
trembling with the agitation, and the force he had put on himself. Rachel
neither could nor durst speak; she only squeezed his hand, and when he had
shut himself up in his own room, she could not help repairing to his
uncle, and telling him the whole. Mr. Clare’s “God bless you, my boy,” had
double meaning in it that night.
Not long after, Alick told Rachel of his having met poor young Carleton in
the meadows, pretending to occupy himself with his fishing-rod, but too
wretched to do anything. And in a short time Mrs. Carleton again called to
pour out to Mrs. Keith her warm thanks to the Captain, for having roused
her son from his moody, unmanageable despair, and made him consent to
accept a situation in a new field of labour, in a spirit of manful duty
that he had never evinced before.
This was a grave and subdued, but not wholly mournful, period at
Bishopsworthy—a time very precious to Rachel in the retrospect—though
there was much to render it anxious. Alick continued to suffer from
recurrences of the fever, not very severe in themselves after the first
two or three, but laying him prostrate with shivering and headache every
third day, and telling heavily on his strength and looks when he called
himself well. On these good days he was always at Timber End, where his
services were much needed. Lord Keith liked and esteemed him as a sensible
prudent young man, and his qualities as a first-rate nurse were of great
assistance to the Colonel. Lord Keith’s illness was tedious and painful,
the necessity of a dangerous operation became increasingly manifest, but
the progress towards such a crisis was slow and the pain and discomfort
great; the patient never moved beyond his dressing-room, and needed
incessant attention to support his spirits and assist his endeavours to
occupy himself. It was impossible to leave him for long together, and
Colonel Keith was never set at liberty for exercise or rest except when
Alick came to his assistance, and fortunately this young brother-in-law
was an especial favourite, partly from Lord Keith’s esteem for his
prudence partly from his experience in this especial species of suffering.
At any rate the days of Alick’s enforced absence were always times of
greater restlessness and uneasiness at Timber End.
Meantime Rachel was constantly thrown with Mr. Clare, supplying Alick’s
place to him, and living in a round of duties that suited her well,
details of parish work, walking with, writing for, and reading to Mr
Clare, and reaping much benefit from intercourse with such a mind. Many of
her errors had chiefly arisen from the want of some one whose superiority
she could feel, and her old presumptions withered up to nothing when she
measured her own powers with those of a highly educated man, while all the
time he gave her thanks and credit for all she had effected, but such as
taught her humility by very force of infection.
Working in earnest at his visitation sermon, she was drawn up into the
real principles and bearings of the controversy, and Mr. Clare failed not
to give full time and patience to pick out all her difficulties, removing
scruples at troubling him, by declaring that it was good for his own
purpose to unwind every tangle even if he did not use every thread. It was
wonderful how many puzzles were absolutely intangible, not even tangled
threads, but a sort of nebulous matter that dispersed itself on
investigation. And after all, unwilling as she would have been to own it,
a woman’s tone of thought is commonly moulded by the masculine intellect,
which, under one form or another, becomes the master of her soul. Those
opinions, once made her own, may be acted and improved upon, often carried
to lengths never thought of by their inspirer, or held with noble
constancy and perseverance even when he himself may have fallen from them,
but from some living medium they are almost always adopted, and thus,
happily for herself, a woman’s efforts at scepticism are but blind faith
in her chosen leader, or, at the utmost, in the spirit of the age. And
Rachel having been more than usually removed from the immediate influence
of superior man, had been affected by the more feeble and distant power, a
leading that appeared to her the light of her independent mind; but it was
not in the nature of things that, from her husband and his uncle, her
character should not receive that tincture for which it had so long
waited, strong and thorough in proportion to her nature, not rapid in
receiving impressions, but steadfast and uncompromising in retaining and
working on them when once accepted, a nature that Alick Keith had
discerned and valued amid its worst errors far more than mere
attractiveness, of which his sister had perhaps made him weary and
distrustful. Nor, indeed, under the force of the present influences, was
attractiveness wanting, and she suited Alick’s peculiarities far better
than many a more charming person would have done, and his uncle, knowing
her only by her clear mellow voice, her consideration, helpfulness, and
desire to think and do rightly, never understood the doubtful amazement
now and then expressed in talking of Alick’s choice. One great bond
between Rachel and Mr. Clare was affection for the little babe, who
continued to be Rachel’s special charge, and was a great deal dearer to
her already than all the seven Temples put together. She studied all the
books on infant management that she could obtain, constantly listened for
his voice, and filled her letters to her mother with questions and details
on his health, and descriptions of his small person. Alick was amused
whenever he glanced at his strong-minded woman’s correspondence, and now
and then used to divert himself with rousing her into emphatic
declarations of her preference of this delicate little being to “great,
stout, coarse creatures that people call fine children.” In fact, Alick’s
sensitive tenderness towards his sister’s motherless child took the form
of avoiding the sight of it, and being ironical when it was discussed; but
with Mr. Clare, Rachel was sure of sympathy, ever since the afternoon when
he had said how the sounds upstairs reminded him of his own little
daughter; and sitting under the yew-tree, he had told Rachel all the long
stored-up memories of the little life that had been closed a few days
after he had first heard himself called papa by the baby lips. He had
described all these events calmly, and not without smiles, and had said
how his own blindness had made him feel thankful that he had safely laid
his little Una on her mother’s bosom under the church’s shade; but when
Rachel spoke of this conversation to her husband, she learnt that it was
the first time that he had ever talked of those buried hopes. He had often
spoken of his wife, but though always fond of children, few who had not
read little Una’s name beneath her mother’s cross, knew that he was a
childless father. And yet it was beautiful to see the pleasure he took in
the touch of Bessie’s infant, and how skilfully and tenderly he would hold
it, so that Rachel in full faith averred that the little Alexander was
never so happy as with him. The chief alarms came from Mrs Comyn Menteith,
who used to descend on the Rectory like a whirlwind, when the Colonel had
politely expelled her from her father’s room at Timber End. Possessed with
the idea of Rachel’s being very dull at Bishopsworthy, she sedulously
enlivened her with melancholy prognostics as to the life, limbs, and
senses of the young heir, who would never live, poor little darling, even
with the utmost care of herself and her nurse, and it was very perverse of
papa and the doctors still to keep him from her—poor little darling—not
that it mattered, for he was certain not to thrive, wherever he was, and
the Gowanbrae family would end with Uncle Colin and the glassblower’s
daughter; a disaster on which she met with such condolence from Alick (N.
B. the next heir) that Rachel was once reduced to the depths of genuine
despair by the conviction that his opinion of his nephew’s life was
equally desponding; and another time was very angry with him for not
defending Ermine’s gentility. She had not entirely learnt what Alick’s
assent might mean.
Once, when Mrs. Menteith had been besetting her father with entreaties for
the keys of Lady Keith’s private possessions, she was decisively silenced,
and the next day these same keys were given to Alick, with a request that
his wife would as soon as possible look over and take to herself all that
had belonged to his sister, except a few heirloom jewels that must return
to Scotland. Alick demurred greatly, but the old man would not brook
contradiction, and Rachel was very unwillingly despatched upon the mission
on one of Alick’s days of prostration at home. His absence was the most
consoling part of this sad day’s work. Any way it could not be otherwise
than piteous to dismantle what had been lately so bright and luxurious,
and the contrast of the present state of things with that in which these
dainty new wedding presents had been brought together, could not but give
many a pang; but beside this, there was a more than ordinary impression of
“vanity of vanities, all is vanity,” very painful to affection that was
striving to lose the conviction that it had been a self-indulgent,
plausible life. The accumulation of expensive trinkets and small luxuries,
was as surprising as perplexing to a person of Rachel’s severely simple
and practical tastes. It was not only since the marriage; for Bessie had
always had at her disposal means rather ample, and had used them not
exactly foolishly, but evidently for her own gratification. Everything had
some intrinsic worth, and was tasteful or useful, but the multitude was
perfectly amazing, and the constant echo in Rachel’s ears was, “he heapeth
up riches and cannot tell who shall gather them.” Lord Keith could hardly
have found an executrix for his poor young wife, to whom her properties
would have done so little harm. Rachel set many aside for the cousins, and
for Mrs. Menteith, others she tried to persuade the Colonel to call
Gowanbrae belongings, and failing in this, she hoped through Grace, to
smuggle some of them into his Gowanbrae; but when all was done, there was
a mass of things that Lord Keith never wished to see again, and that
seemed to Rachel to consist of more ornaments than she could ever wear,
and more knick-knacks than a captain’s wife could ever carry about with
her.
She was putting aside the various packets of letters and papers to be
looked over more at leisure, when the Colonel knocked at the morning-room
door, and told her that his brother would like to see her, when her work
was done. “But first,” he said, “I must ask you to be kind enough to look
over some of these papers, and try to find receipts for some of those
bills.”
“Here they are,” said Rachel, “I was going to look them over at home.”
“If you have time to examine them here with me,” said Colonel Keith,
gently, “I think it might save Alick some pain and vexation.”
Rachel was entirely unaware of his meaning, and supposed he only thought
of the mere thrilling of the recent wound; but when he sat down and took a
long account out of a tradesman’s envelope, a chill of dismay came over
her, followed by a glow of hope as she recollected a possible explanation:
“Have these wretched tradesmen been sending in bills over again at such a
time as this?” she exclaimed.
“I should be very glad to find their receipts,” returned the Colonel.
They opened the most business-like looking bundles, all of them, though
neatly kept, really in hopeless confusion. In vain was the search, and
notes came forth which rendered it but too plain that there had been a
considerable amount of debt even before the marriage, and that she had
made partial payments and promises of clearing all off gradually, but that
her new expenses were still growing upon her, and the few payments “on
account,” since she had been Lady Keith, by no means tallied with the
amount of new purchases and orders. No one had suspected her money matters
of being in disorder, and Rachel was very slow to comprehend; her simple,
country life had made her utterly unaware of the difficulties and ways and
means of a young lady of fashion. Even the direct evidence before her eyes
would not at first persuade her that it was not “all those wicked
tradesmen;” she had always heard that fashionable shops were not to be
trusted.
“I am afraid,” said Colonel Keith, “that the whole can scarcely be shifted
on the tradesmen. I fear poor Bessie was scarcely free from blame in this
matter.”
“Not paying! Going on in debt! Oh she could not have meant it;” said
Rachel, still too much astonished to understand. “Of course one hears of
gay, thoughtless people doing such things, but Bessie—who had so
much thought and sense. It must be a mistake! Can’t you go and speak to
the people?”
“It is very sad and painful to make such discoveries,” said Colonel Keith;
“but I am afraid such things are not uncommon in the set she was too much
thrown amongst.”
“But she knew so well—she was so superior; and with Alick and her
uncle to keep her above them,” said Rachel; “I cannot think she could have
done such things.”
“I could not think, but I see it was so,” said Colonel Keith, gravely. “As
I am obliged to understand these things, she must have greatly exceeded
her means, and have used much cleverness and ingenuity in keeping the
tradesmen quiet, and preventing all from coming to light.”
“How miserable! I can’t fancy living in such a predicament.”
“I am much afraid,” added the Colonel, looking over the papers, “that it
explains the marriage—and then Keith did not allow her as much as
she expected.”
“Oh, Colonel Keith, don’t!” cried Rachel; “it is just the one thing where
I could not bear to believe Alick. She was so dear and beautiful, and
spoke so rightly.”
“To believe Alick!” repeated the Colonel, as Rachel’s voice broke down.
“I thought—I ought not to have thought—he was hard upon her—but
he knew better,” said Rachel, “of course he did not know of all this
dreadful business!”
“Assuredly not,” said the Colonel, “that is self-evident, but as you say,
I am afraid he did know his poor sister’s character better than we did,
when he came to warn me against the marriage.”
“Did he? Oh how much it must have cost him.”
“I am afraid I did not make it cost him less. I thought he judged her
harshly, and that his illness had made him magnify trifles, but though our
interference would have been perfectly useless, he was quite right in his
warning. Now that, poor thing, she is no longer here to enchant us with
her witcheries, I see that my brother greatly suffered from being kept
away from home, and detained in this place, and that she left him far more
alone than she ought to have done.”
“Yes, Alick thought so, but she had such good reasons, I am sure she
believed them herself.”
“If she had not believed them, she could not have had such perfect
sincerity of manner,” said the Colonel; “she must have persuaded at least
one half of herself that she was acting for every one’s good except her
own.”
“And Mr. Clare, whom Alick always thought she neglected, never felt it.
Alick says he was too unselfish to claim attention.”
“I never doubted her for one moment till I came home, on that unhappy day,
and found how ill Keith was. I did think then, that considering how much
she had seen of Alick while the splinters were working out, she ought to
have known better than to talk of sciatica; but she made me quite believe
in her extreme anxiety, and that she was only going out because it was
necessary for her to take care of you on your first appearance. How bright
she looked, and how little I thought I should never see her again!”
“Oh, she meant what she said! She always was kind to me! Most kind!”
repeated Rachel; “so considerate about all the dreadful spring—not
one word did she say to vex me about the past! I am sure she did go out on
that day as much to shelter me as for anything else. I can’t bear to think
all this—here in this pretty room that she had such pleasure in;
where she made me so welcome, after all my disagreeableness and
foolishness.”
The Colonel could almost have said, “Better such foolishness than such
wisdom, such repulsion than such attraction.” He was much struck by
Rachel’s distress, and the absence of all female spite and triumph, made
him understand Ermine’s defence of her as really large-minded and
generous.
“It is a very sad moment to be undeceived,” he said; “one would rather
have one’s faults come to light in one’s life than afterwards.”
They were simple words, so simple that the terrible truth with which they
were connected, did not come upon Rachel at the first moment; but as if to
veil her agitation, she drew towards her a book, an ivory-bound
Prayer-book, full of illuminations, of Bessie’s own doing, and her eye
fell upon the awful verse, “So long as thou doest well unto thyself, men
will speak good of thee.” It was almost more than Rachel could bear,
sitting in the midst of the hoards, for which poor Bessie had sold
herself. She rose up, with a sob of oppressive grief, and broke out, “Oh!
at least it is a comfort that Alick was really the kindest and rightest!
Only too right! but you can settle all this without him,” she added
imploringly; “need he know of this? I can’t bear that he should.”
“Nor I,” said Colonel Keith, “it was the reason that I am glad you are
here alone.”
“Oh, thank you! No one need ever know,” added Rachel.
“I fear my brother must see the accounts, as they have to be paid, but
that need not be immediately.”
“Is there anything else that is dreadful?” said Rachel, looking at the
remaining papers, as if they were a nest of adders. “I don’t like to take
them home now, if they will grieve Alick.”
“You need not be afraid of that packet,” said the Colonel; “I see his
father’s handwriting. They look like his letters from India.”
Rachel looked into one or two, and her face lighted up. “Oh!” she
exclaimed, “this is enough to make up for all. This is his letter to tell
about Alick’s wound. Oh how beautifully he speaks of him,” and Rachel,
with no voice to read, handed the thin paper to her companion, that he
might see the full commendation, that had been wrung from the reserved
father’s heart by his son’s extremity.
“You must be prepared to hear that all is over,” wrote the father to his
daughter; “in fact, I doubt whether he can live till morning, though
M’Vicar declares that nothing vital has been touched. Be it as it may, the
boy has been in all respects, even more than I dared to wish, and the
comfort he has been ever since he came out to me has been unspeakable. We
must not grudge him such a soldier’s death after his joyous life. But for
you, my poor girl, I could only wish the same for myself to-morrow. You
will, at least, if you lose a brother’s care, have a memory of him, to
which to live up. The thought of such a dead brother will be more to you
than many a living one can ever be to a sister.”
Rachel’s heart beat high, and her eyes were full of tears of exultation.
And the Colonel was well pleased to compensate for all the pain he had
inflicted by giving her all the details he could recollect of her
husband’s short campaign. They had become excellent friends over their
mournful work, and were sorry to have their tête-à-tête interrupted when a
message was brought that his Lordship was ready, if Mrs. Keith would be so
good as to come into his sitting-room.
She wiped away the tears, and awe-struck and grave, followed the Colonel;
a great contrast to Lord Keith’s more frequent lady-visitor, as she
silently received the polished greeting, its peculiar stateliness of
courtesy, enhanced by the feeble state of the shattered old man, unable to
rise from his pillowed chair, and his face deeply lined by suffering. He
would not let her give him any account of her labours, nor refer any
question to him, he only entreated that everything might be taken away,
and that he might hear nothing about it. He spoke warmly of Alick’s
kindness and attention, and showed much solicitude about his
indisposition, and at last he inquired for Rachel’s “little charge,”
hoping he was not clamorous or obnoxious to her, or to Mr. Clare’s
household. Her eager description of his charms provoked a look of interest
and a sad smile, followed by a request, that weather and doctor
permitting, she would bring the child to be seen for a few minutes. The
next day there was an appointment, at which both the Colonel and Alick
were wanted, but on the following one, the carriage should be sent to
bring her and the little one to Timber End.
The effect of this invitation amused Alick. The first thing he heard in
the morning was a decided announcement from Rachel that she must go up to
London to procure equipments for the baby to be presented in!
“You know I can’t go with you to-day.”
“Of course, but I must make him fit to be seen. You know he has been
wearing little Una’s things all this time, and that will not do out of the
nursery.”
“A superior woman ought to know that his Lordship will never find out what
his son has on.”
“Then it is all the more reason that I should not let the poor dear little
fellow go about wrapped up in somebody’s old shawl!”
“What will you do then—take your maid?”
“Certainly not. I can’t have him left.”
“Then take him with you?”
“What, Alick, a little unvaccinated baby! Where have you ever lived? I
don’t see the least reason why I should not go alone.”
“You need not begin beating about the world yet, Rachel. How many times
did you say you had been in London?”
“Three; once with my father when I was a child, once in the time of the
Great Exhibition, and passing through it now with you. But any one of
common sense can manage.”
“If you will wait till five o’clock I will come with you,” said Alick,
wearily.
“No, indeed, I had rather not go, than that you should, you are quite
tired out enough at the end of the day.”
“Then do not go.”
“Alick, why will you have no proper feeling for that poor dear child!”
said Rachel with tears in her eyes.
If he winced he did not show it. “My proper feeling takes the direction of
my wife,” he said.
“You don’t really mean to forbid me to go,” she exclaimed.
“I don’t mean it, for I do so, unless you find some one to go with you.”
It was the first real collision that had taken place, but Alick’s quiet,
almost languid tone had an absolute determination in it from the very
absence of argument, and Rachel, though extremely annoyed, felt the
uselessness of battling the point. She paused for a few moments, then said
with an effort, “May I take the housekeeper?”
“Yes, certainly,” and then he added some advice about taking a brougham,
and thus lightened her heart; so that she presently said humbly,
“Have I been self-willed and overbearing, Alick?”
He laughed. “Not at all; you have persevered just where you ought. I dare
say this is all more essential than shows on the surface. And,” he added,
with a shaken voice, “if you were not myself, Rachel, you know how I
should thank you for caring for my poor Bessie’s child.” He was gone
almost as he spoke the words, but Rachel still felt the kiss and the hot
tears that had fallen on her face.
Mr. Clare readily consented to spare his housekeeper, but the housekeeper
was untoward, she was “busied in her housewife skep,” and would not stir.
Alick was gone to Timber End, and Rachel was just talking of getting the
schoolmaster’s wife as an escort, when Mr. Clare said—
“Pray are you above accepting my services?”
“You! Oh, uncle; thank you, but—”
“What were your orders? Anybody with you, was it not? I flatter myself
that I have some body, at least.”
“If Alick will not think I ought not!”
“The boy will not presume to object to what I do with you.”
“I do wish it very much,” said candid Rachel.
“Of course you do, my dear. Alick is not cured of a young man’s notion
that babies are a sort of puppies. He is quite right not to let you run
about London by yourself, but he will be quite satisfied if you find eyes
and I find discretion.”
“But is it not very troublesome to you?”
“It is a capital lark!” said Mr. Clare, with a zest that only the slang
word could imply, removing all Rachel’s scruples, and in effect Mr. Clare
did enjoy the spice of adventure in a most amusing way. He knew perfectly
well how to manage, laid out the plan of operations, gave orders to the
driver, went into all the shops, and was an effective assistant in the
choice of material and even of embroidery. His touch and ear seemed to do
more for him than many men’s eyes do for them; he heard odd scraps of
conversation and retailed them with so much character; he had such
pleasant colloquies with all in whose way he fell, and so thoroughly
enjoyed the flow and babble of the full stream of life, that Rachel
marvelled that the seclusion of his parsonage was bearable to him. He took
her to lunch with an old friend, a lady who had devoted herself to the
care of poor girls to be trained as servants, and Rachel had the first
real sight of one of the many great and good works set on foot by personal
and direct labour.
“If I had been sensible, I might have come to something like this!” she
said.
“Do you wish to undo these last three months?”
“No; I am not fit to be anything but an ordinary married woman, with an
Alick to take care of me; but I am glad some people can be what I meant to
be.”
“And you need not regret not being useful now,” said Mr. Clare. “Where
should any of us be without you?”
It had not occurred to Rachel, but she was certainly of far more positive
use in the world at the present moment than ever she had been in her most
assuming maiden days.
Little Alexander was arrayed in all that could enhance his baby dignity,
and Rachel was more than ever resolved to assert his superiority over
“great frightful fine children,” resenting vehemently an innocent
observation from Alick, that the small features and white skin promised
sandiness of hair. Perhaps Alick delighted in saying such things for the
sake of proving the “very womanhood” of his Clever Woman. Rachel hung
back, afraid of the presentation, and would have sent her maid into the
room with the child if Colonel Keith had not taken her in himself. Even
yet she was not dexterous in handling the baby, her hands were both
occupied, and her attention absorbed, and she could not speak, she felt it
so mournful to show this frail motherless creature to a father more like
its grandfather, and already almost on the verge of the grave. She came up
to Lord Keith, and held the child to him in silence. He said, “Thank you,”
and kissed not only the little one, but her own brow, and she kept the
tears back with difficulty.
Colonel Keith gave her a chair and footstool, and she sat with the baby on
her lap, while very few words were spoken. It was the Colonel who asked
her to take off the hood that hid the head and brow, and who chiefly
hazarded opinions as to likeness and colour of eyes. Lord Keith looked
earnestly and sadly, but hardly made any observation, except that it
looked healthier than he had been led to expect. He was sure it owed much
to Mrs. Keith’s great care and kindness.
Rachel feared he would not be able to part with his little son, and began
to mention the arrangements she had contemplated in case he wished to keep
the child at Timber End. On this, Lord Keith asked with some anxiety, if
its presence were inconvenient to Mr. Clare; and being assured of the
contrary, said, “Then while you are so kind as to watch over him, I much
prefer that things should remain in their present state, than to bring him
to a house like this. You do not object?”
“Oh, no; I am so glad. I was only dreading the losing him. I thought Mrs.
Menteith wished for him when he is old enough to travel.”
“Colin!” said Lord Keith, looking up sharply, “will nothing make the
Menteiths understand that I would rather put out the child to nurse in a
Highland hut than in that Babel of a nursery of theirs?”
Colin smiled and said, “Isabel does not easily accept an answer she
dislikes.”
“But remember, both of you,” continued Lord Keith, “that happen what may,
this poor child is not to be in her charge. I’ve seen enough of her
children left alone in perambulators in the sun. You will be in
Edinburgh?” he added, turning to Rachel.
“Yes, when Alick’s leave ends.”
“I shall return thither when this matter is over, I know I shall be better
at home in Scotland, and if I winter in Edinburgh, may be we could make
some arrangement for his being still under your eye.”
Rachel went home more elevated than she had been for months past.
CHAPTER XXIX. AT LAST.
“I bid thee hail, not as in former days,
Not as my chosen only, but my bride,
My very bride, coming to make my house
A glorious temple.” A. H. HALLAM.
“Timber End,
Littleworthy,
September 10th.
“Dear Miss Williams,—I must begin by entreating your forgiveness for
addressing you in a manner for which perhaps you may be unprepared; but I
trust you have always been aware, that any objections that I may have
offered to my brother Colin’s attachment to yourself have never been
personal, or owing to anything but an unfortunate complication of
circumstances. These difficulties are, as no doubt he will explain to you,
in great measure removed by the present condition of my family, which will
enable me to make such settlements as I could wish in the ease of one so
nearly connected with me; so that I am enabled to entreat of you at length
to reward the persevering constancy so well deserved. I have a further,
and a personal cause for wishing that the event should not be deferred, as
regard for my feelings might have led you to propose. You are aware of the
present state of my health, and that it has become expedient to make
immediate arrangements for the future guardianship of my little boy. His
uncles are of course his natural guardians, and I have unbounded
confidence in both; but Alexander Keith’s profession renders it probable
that he may not always be at hand, and I am therefore desirous of being
able to nominate yourself, together with my brother, among the personal
guardians. Indeed, I understand from Alexander Keith, that such was the
express wish of his sister. I mention this as an additional motive to
induce you to consent. For my own part, even without so stringent a cause,
all that I have ever seen or known of yourself would inspire me with the
desire that you should take a mother’s place towards my son. But you must
be aware that such an appointment could only be made when you are already
one of the family, and this it is that leads me to entreat you to overlook
any appearance of precipitancy on my brother’s part, and return a
favourable reply to the request, which with my complete sanction, he is
about to address to you.
“Yes, Ermine Williams, forgive all that is past, and feel for an old, it
may be, a dying man, and for a motherless infant. There is much to forget,
but I trust to your overcoming any scruples, and giving me all the comfort
in your power, in thinking of the poor child who has come into the world
under such melancholy circumstances.
“Yours most truly,
“Keith of Gowanbrae”
“Poor Keith, he has given me his letter open, his real anxiety has been
too much at last for his dignity; and now, my Ermine, what do you say to
his entreaty? The state of the case is this. How soon this abscess may be
ready for the operation is still uncertain, the surgeons think it will be
in about three weeks, and in this interval he wishes to complete all his
arrangements. In plain English, his strongest desire is to secure the poor
little boy from falling into Menteith’s hands. Now, mine is a precarious
life, and Alick and Rachel may of course be at the ends of the earth, so
the point is that you shall be ‘one of the family,’ before the will is
signed. Alick’s leave has been extended to the 1st of October, no more is
possible, and he undertakes to nurse poor Keith for a fortnight from
to-morrow, if you will consent to fulfil this same request within that
time. After the 1st, I should have to leave you, but as soon as Keith is
well enough to bear the journey, he wishes to return to Edinburgh, where
he would be kindly attended to by Alick and Rachel all the winter. There,
Ermine, your victory is come, your consent has been entreated at last by
my brother, not for my sake, but as a personal favour to himself, because
there is no woman in the world of whom he thinks so highly. For myself I
say little. I grieve that you should be thus hurried and fluttered, and if
Ailie thinks it would harm you, she must telegraph back to me not to come
down, and I will try to teach myself patience by preaching it to Keith,
but otherwise you will see me by four o’clock to-morrow. Every time I hear
Rachel’s name, I think it ought to have been yours, and surely in this
fourteenth year, lesser objections may give way. But persuasions are out
of the question, you must be entirely led by your own feeling. If I could
have seen you in July, this should not have come so suddenly at last.
“Yours, more than ever, decide as you may,
“Colin A. Keith.
“P. S.—I am afraid Rose would hardly answer this purpose equally
well.”
Colonel Keith followed his letter at four o’clock, and entering his own
study, found it in a cloud of smoke, in the midst of which he dimly
discerned a long beard and thin visage absorbed in calculation.
“Edward! How is Ermine?”
“Oh?” (inquiringly) “Keith!” (as taken by surprise) “ah! you were to come
home to-day. How are you?”
“How is she? Has she had my letter?”
“What letter? You write every day, I thought.”
“The letter of yesterday. Have you heard nothing of it?”
“Not that I know of. Look here, Keith, I told you I was sure the platinum—”
“Your brain is becoming platinum. I must go,” and the chemist remained
with merely a general impression of having been interrupted.
Next the Colonel met Rose, watching at his own gate, and this time his
answer was more explicit.
“Yes, Aunt Ermine said you were coming, and that I might meet you, but
that I must let you come in alone, for she had not seen you so long, that
she wanted you all to herself.”
“And how is she; how has she been?”
“She is well now,” said Rose, in the grave, grown-up way she always
assumed when speaking of her aunt’s health; “but she has been having a
good deal of her nervous headache this summer, and Lady Temple wanted her
to see Mr. Frampton, but Aunt Ailie said it was only excitement and wear
of spirits. Oh, I am glad you have come back! We have so wearied after
you.”
Nevertheless Rose duteously loosed the hand to which she had been clinging
till they came to the door; and as Colin Keith opened it, again he was met
by the welcoming glances of the bright eyes. This time he did not pause
till he was close to her, and kneeling on one knee beside her, he put his
arm round her, and held her hands in his.
The first words that passed were, “You had the letters?”
“Colin, Colin, my one prayer has been, ‘Make Thy way plain before my
face.’”
“And now it is?”
“The suspicion is gone; the displeasure is gone; the doubts are gone; and
now there is nothing—nothing but the lameness and the poverty; and
if you like the old cinder, Colin, that is your concern;” and she hid her
face, with a sort of sobbing laugh.
“And even the haste; you consent to that?”
“I don’t feel it like haste,” she said, looking up with a smile, and then
crimsoning.
“And Ailie gives leave, and thinks the hurry will not harm you?”
“Ailie! O Colin, did you think I could tell any one of your letter, before
you had had your answer?”
“Then Edward is not so moonstruck as I thought him! And when shall it be,
dearest? Give me as much time as you can. I must go back this day
fortnight.”
“I suppose your expectations are not high in the matter of finery,” said
Ermine, with a certain archness of voice.
“Those eyes are all the finery I ever see.”
“Then if you will not be scandalized at my natural Sunday dress, I don’t
see why this day week should not do as well as any other time.”
“Ermine, you are the only woman I ever met totally free from nonsense.”
“Take care, it is very unfeminine and disagreeable to be devoid of
nonsense.”
“Very, and therefore you are talking it now! Ermine, how shall I thank
you? Not only for the sake of the ease of mind to my poor brother; but in
the scenes we are going through, a drop of happiness is wanted as a
stimulant. When I looked at the young couple at Bishopsworthy, I often
felt as if another half-year of suspense was more than I could bear, and
that I must ask you to help me through with at least a definite hope.”
“Ah! you have gone through a great deal. I am sure it has been a time of
great trouble.”
“Indeed it has. The suffering has become unceasing and often most severe,
and there is grievous depression of spirits; I could not have left him
even for a day, if he had not been so fervently bent on this.”
“Is he feeling his loss more acutely than at first?”
“Not so much that, as for the poor little boy, who is a heavy burthen on
his mind. He has lived in such a state of shrewd distrust that he has no
power of confidence, and his complications for making all the boy’s
guardians check one another till we come to a dead lock, and to make
provision for Isabel out of Menteith’s reach, are enough to distract the
brain of a man in health.”
“Is he fond of the child?”
“It is an oppressive care to him, and he only once has made up his mind to
see it, though it is never off his mind, and it is very curious how from
the first he has been resolved on your taking charge of it. It is the most
real testimony he could give you.”
“It is very comfortable not to be brought in like an enemy in spite of
him, as even a year ago I could have been proud to do.”
“And I to have brought you,” he answered, “but it is far better as it is.
He is very cordial, and wants to give up the Auchinvar estate to me;
indeed, he told me that he always meant me to have it as soon as I had
washed my hands of you—you wicked syren—but I think you will
agree with me that he had better leave it to his daughter Mary, who has
nothing. We never reckoned on it.”
“Nor on anything else,” said Ermine, smiling.
“You have never heard my ways and means,” he said, “and as a prudent woman
you ought, you know. See,” taking out his tablets, “here is my
calculation.”
“All that!”
“On the staff in India there were good opportunities of saving; then out
of that sum I bought the house, and with my half-pay, our income will be
very fair, and there would be a pension afterwards for you. This seems to
me all we can reasonably want.”
“Unless I became like die Ilsebill in the German tale. After four years
of living from hand to mouth, this will be like untold gold. To wish to be
above strict economy in wheeled chairs has seemed like perilous discontent
in Rose and me.”
“I have ventured on the extravagance of taking the ponies and little
carriage off my brother’s hands, it is low enough for you, and I shall
teach Rose to ride one of the ponies with me.”
“The dear little Rose! But, Colin, there is a dreadful whisper about her
going with her father, and Ailie too! You see now his character is
cleared, he has been offered a really lucrative post, so that he could
have them with him.”
“Does he wish it?”
“I dare not ask. I must be passive or I shall be selfish. You are all my
world, and Edward has no one. Make them settle it without me. Talk of
something else! Tell me how your brother is to be taken care of.”
“There cannot be a better nurse than Alick Keith; and Ferguson, the agent,
is there, getting directions from Keith whenever he can bear it. I am best
out of the way of all that. I have said once for all that I will do
anything for them except live at Gowanbrae, and I am sick of demonstrating
that the poor child’s existence is the greatest possible relief to me; and
I hope now not to go back till the whole is settled and done with.”
“You look regularly worn out with the discussions!”
“It was an endless business! The only refreshment was in now and then
getting over to Bishopsworthy.”
“What? to Rachel?” said Ermine archly.
“Rachel is showing to great advantage. I did not think it was in her to be
so devoted to the child, and it is beautiful to see her and Mr. Clare
together.”
“There’s a triumph,” said Ermine, smiling. “Do you grant that the happy
medium is reached, that Alick should learn to open his eyes and Rachel to
shut hers?”
“Well! Her eyes are better, but he, poor lad, has been in no spirits to
open his very wide. The loss of his sister went very deep, and those
aguish attacks, though they become much slighter, make him look wretchedly
ill. I should have doubted about leaving him in charge in his present
state, but that he was urgent on me, and he is spared all the night
nursing. Any way, I must not leave him longer than I can help. I may have
one week with you at home—at our home, Ermine.”
“And let us make the most of that,” said Ermine, quickly.
Meanwhile Alison, sore and sick at heart, wandered on the esplanade,
foreboding that the blow was coming that she ought to rejoice at, if her
love could only be more unselfish. At last the Colonel joined her, and, as
usual, his tone of consideration cheered and supported her when in actual
conference with him, and as he explained his plans, he added that he hoped
there would be scarcely any interruption to her intercourse with her
sister.
“You know,” she said abruptly, “that we could go to Ekaterinburg.”
“And what is your feeling about it? Remember, Ailie, that I am your
brother too.” And as she hesitated, “your feelings—no doubt you are
in many minds!”
“Ah, yes; I never settled anything without Ermine, and she will not help
me now. And she has been so worn with the excitement and anxiety of all
this long detention of yours, that I don’t dare to say a word that could
prey on her.”
“In fact, you would chiefly be decided by Edward’s own wishes.”
“If I were sure of them,” sighed poor Alison; “but he lives on
experiments, and can hardly detach himself from them even to attend to
Ermine herself. I don’t know whether we should be a comfort or a burthen,
and he would be afraid to hurt our feelings by telling the truth. I have
been longing to consult you who have seen him at that place in Russia.”
“And indeed, Ailie, he is so wedded to smoke and calculations, and so
averse to this sublunary world, that though your being with him might be
beneficial, still I greatly question whether the risk of carrying poor
little Rose to so remote a place in such a climate, would be desirable. If
he were pining to have a home made for him, it would be worth doing; as it
is, the sacrifice would be disproportioned.”
“It would be no sacrifice if he only wanted us.”
“Where you are wanted is here. Ermine wants you. I want you. The Temples
want you.”
“Now, Colin, tell me truly. Edward feels as I do, and Dr. Long spoke
seriously of it. Will not my present position do you and Ermine harm among
your friends?”
“With no friend we wish to make or keep!”
“If I do remain,” continued Alison, “it must be as I am. I would not live
upon you, even if you asked me, which you have too much sense to do; and
though dear Lady Temple is everything to me, and wants me to forget that I
am her governess, that would be a mere shuffle, but if it is best for you
that I should give it up, and go out, say so at once.”
“Best for me to have eight Temples thrown on my hands, all in despair! To
have you at Myrtlewood is an infinite relief to me, both on their account
and Ermine’s. You should not suspect a penniless Scotsman of such airs,
Ailie.”
“Not you, Colin, but your family.”
“Isabel Menteith thinks a glass-blower was your father, and Mauleverer
your brother, so yours is by far the most respectable profession. No,
indeed, my family might be thankful to have any one in it who could do as
you have done.”
Alison’s scruples were thus disposed of, and when Edward’s brain cleared
itself from platinum, he showed himself satisfied with the decision,
though he insisted on henceforth sending home a sum sufficient for his
daughter’s expenses, and once said something that could be construed into
a hope of spending a quiet old age with her and his sister; but at present
he was manifestly out of his element, and was bent on returning to
Ekaterinburg immediately after the marriage.
His presence was but a qualified pleasure. Naturally shy and absent, his
broken spirits and removal from domestic life, and from society, had
exaggerated his peculiarities; and under the pressure of misfortune,
caused in a great measure by his own negligence, he had completely given
way, without a particle of his sister’s patience or buoyancy, and had
merely striven to drown his troubles in engrossing problems of his
favourite pursuit, till the habit of abstraction had become too confirmed
to be shaken off. When the blot on his name was removed, he was indeed
sensible that he was no longer an exile, but he could not resume his old
standing; friendships rudely severed could not be re-united; his
absorption had grown by indulgence; old interests had passed away; needful
conformity to social habits was irksome, and even his foreign manner and
appearance testified to his entire unfitness for English life.
Tibbie was in constant dread of his burning the house down, so
incalculable and preposterous were his hours, and the Colonel, longing to
render the house a perfect shrine for his bride, found it hard to tolerate
the fumes with which her brother saturated it. If he had been sure that
opium formed no portion of Edward’s solace, his counsel to Alison would
have been less decisive. To poor little Rose, her father was an abiding
perplexity and distress; she wanted to love him, and felt it absolute
naughtiness to be constantly disappointed by his insensibility to her
approaches, or else repelled and disgusted by that vice of the Russian
sheep. And a vague hint of being transported to the Ural mountains, away
from Aunt Ermine, had haunted her of late more dreadfully than even the
lions of old; so that the relief was ineffable when her dear Colonel
confided to her that she was to be his niece and Aunt Ermine’s handmaid,
sent her to consult with Tibbie on her new apartment, and invited Augustus
to the most eligible hole in the garden. The grotto that Rose, Conrade,
and Francis proceeded to erect with pebbles and shells, was likely to
prove as alarming to that respectable reptile as a model cottage to an
Irish peasant.
Ermine had dropped all scruples about Rose’s intercourse with other
children, and the feeling that she might associate with them on equal
terms, perhaps, was the most complete assurance of Edward’s restoration.
She was glad that companionship should render the little maiden more
active and childlike, for Edward’s abstraction had made her believe that
there might be danger in indulging the dreaminess of the imaginative
child.
No one welcomed the removal of these restraints more warmly than Lady
Temple. She was perhaps the happiest of the happy, for with her there was
no drawback, no sorrow, no parting to fear. Her first impulse, when
Colonel Keith came to tell her his plans, was to seize on hat and shawl,
and rush down to Mackarel Lane to kiss Ermine with all her heart, and tell
her that “it was the most delightful thing of her to have consented at
last, for nobody deserved so well to be happy as that dear Colonel;” and
then she clung to Alison, declaring that now she should have her all to
herself, and if she would only come to Myrtlewood, she would do her very
best to make her comfortable there, and it should be her home—her
home always.
“In fact,” said Ermine, afterwards to the Colonel, “when you go to
Avoncester, I think you may as well get a licence for the wedding of
Alison Williams and Fanny Temple at the same time. There has been quite a
courtship on the lady’s part.”
The courtship had been the more ardent from Fanny’s alarm lest the brother
should deprive her of Alison; and when she found her fears groundless, she
thanked him with such fervour, and talked so eagerly of his sister’s
excellences that she roused him into a lucid interval, in which he told
Colonel Keith that Lady Temple might give him an idea of the style of
woman that Lucy had been. Indeed, Colin began to think that it was as well
that he was so well wrapped up in smoke and chemistry, otherwise another
might have been added to the list of Lady Temple’s hopeless adorers. The
person least satisfied was Tibbie, who could not get over the speediness
of the marriage, nor forgive the injury to Miss Williams, “of bringing her
hame like any pleughman’s wife, wantin’ a honeymoon trip, forbye providin’
hersel’ with weddin’ braws conformable. Gin folk tak’ sic daft notions aff
the English, they’d be mair wise like to bide at hame, an’ that’s my way
o’ thinkin’.”
Crusty as she was, there was no danger of her not giving her warmest
welcome, and thus the morning came. Tibbie had donned her cap, with white
satin ribbons, and made of lace once belonging to the only heiress who had
ever brought wealth to the Keiths. Edward Williams, all his goods packed
up, had gone to join his sisters, and the Colonel, only perceptibly
differing from his daily aspect in having a hat free from crape, was
opening all the windows in hopes that a thorough draft would remove the
last of the tobacco, when the letters were brought in, and among them one
of the black bordered bulletins from Littleworthy, which ordinarily
arrived by the second post. It was a hurried note, evidently dashed off to
catch the morning mail.
My Dear Colonel,—Alick tells me to write in haste to catch the morning
post, and beg you to telegraph the instant your wedding is over. The
doctors see cause to hasten their measures, but your brother will have
nothing done till the will is signed. He and Alick both desire you will
not come, but it is getting to be far too much for Alick. I would tell
you more if there were time before the post goes. Love to dear Ermine.
Very sincerely yours,
R. KEITH.
There was so shocked and startled a look on Colin’s face, that Tibbie
believed that his brother must be dead, and when in a few almost inaudible
words he told her that he must start for Bishopsworthy by the afternoon
train, she fairly began to scold, partly by way of working off the
irritation left by her alarm. “The lad’s clean demented! Heard ye ever the
like, to rin awa’ frae his new-made wife afore the blessin’s been weel
spoke; an’ a’ for the whimsie of that daft English lassie that made siccan
a piece of work wi’ her cantrips.”
“I am afraid she is right now,” said the Colonel, “and my brother must not
be left any longer.”
“Hout awa, Maister Colin, his lordship has come between you and your luve
oft enough already, without partin’ ye at the very church door. Ye would
na have the English cast up to us, that one of your name did na ken better
what was fittin by his bride!”
“My bride must be the judge, Tibbie. You shall see whether she bids me
stay,” said Colin, a little restored by his amusement at her anxiety for
his honour among the English. “Now desire Smith to meet me at the church
door, and ride at once from thence to Avoncester; and get your face ready
to give a cheerful welcome, Tibbie. Let her have that, at least, whatever
may come after.”
Tibbie looked after him, and shook her head, understanding from her ain
laddie’s pallid check, and resolute lip, nay, in the very sound of his
footfall, how sore was his trial, and with one-sided compassion she
muttered, “Telegrafted awa on his vera weddin’ day. His Lordship’ll be the
death o’ them baith before he’s done.”
As it was in every way desirable that the wedding should be unexpected by
Avonmonth in general, it was to take place at the close of the ordinary
morning service, and Ermine in her usual seat within the vestry, was
screened from knowing how late was Colin’s entrance, or seeing the
determined composure that would to her eyes have betrayed how much shaken
he was. He was completely himself again by the time the congregation
dispersed, leaving only Grace Curtis, Lady Temple, and the little best
man, Conrade, a goodly sight in his grey suit and scarlet hose. Then came
the slow movement from the vestry, the only really bridal-looking figure
being Rose in white muslin and white ribbons; walking timidly and somewhat
in awe beside her younger aunt; while her father upheld and guided the
elder. Both were in quiet, soft, dark dresses, and straw bonnets, but over
hers Ermine wore the small though exquisite Brussels lace veil that had
first appeared at her mother’s wedding; and thankful joy and peaceful awe
looked so lovely on her noble brow, deep, soft dark eyes, and the more
finely moulded, because somewhat worn, features; and so beauteously
deepened was the carnation on her cheek, that Mr. Mitchell ever after
maintained that he had never married any one to compare with that
thirty-three years’ old bride upon crutches, and, as he reported to his
wife, in no dress at all.
Her brother, who supported her all the time she stood, was infinitely more
nervous than she was. Her native grace and dignity, and absence of all
false shame entirely covered her helplessness, and in her earnestness, she
had no room for confusion; her only quivering of voice was caught for one
moment from the tremulous intensity of feeling that Colin Keith could not
wholly keep from thrilling in his tones, as he at last proclaimed his
right to love and to cherish her for whom he had so long persevered.
Unobserved, he filled up the half-written despatch with the same pen with
which he signed the register, and sent Conrade to the door with it to his
already mounted messenger. Then assuming Edward’s place as Ermine’s
supporter, he led her to the door, seated her in her wheeled chair, and
silently handing Rachel’s note as his explanation to Alison, he turned
away, and walked alone by Ermine’s side to his own house. Still silent, he
took her into the bright drawing-room he had so long planned for her, and
seated her in her own peculiar chair. Then his first words were, “Thank
God for this!”
She knew his face. “Colin, your brother is worse?” He bent his head, he
could not speak.
“And you have to go to him! This very day?”
“Ermine, you must decide. You are at last my first duty!”
“That means that you know you ought to go. Tell me what it is.”
He told the substance of the note, ending with, “If you could come with
me!”
“I would if I should not be a tie and hindrance. No, I must not do that;
but here I am, Colin, here I am. And it is all true—it has all come
right at last! All we waited for. Nothing has ever been like this.”
She was the stronger. Tears, as much of loving thankfulness as of
overflowing disappointment, rushed into his eyes at such a fulfilment of
the purpose that he had carried with him by sea and land, in battle and
sickness, through all the years of his manhood. And withal her one thought
was to infuse in its strongest measure the drop of happiness that was to
sustain him through the scenes that awaited him, to make him feel her
indeed his wife, and to brighten him with the sunbeam face that she knew
had power to cheer him. Rallying her playfulness, she took off her bonnet,
and said as she settled her hair, “There, that is being at home! Take my
shawl, yes, and these white gloves, and put them out of sight, that I may
not feel like a visitor, and that you may see how I shall look when you
come back. Do you know, I think your being out of the way will be rather a
gain, for there will be a tremendous feminine bustle with the fitting of
our possessions.”
Her smile awoke a responsive look, and she began to gaze round and admire,
feeling it safest to skim on the surface; and he could not but be
gratified by her appreciation of the pains spent upon this, her especial
home. He had recovered himself again by the time these few sentences had
passed; they discussed the few needful arrangements required by his
departure, and Tibbie presently found them so cheerful that she was quite
scandalized, and when Ermine held out her hands, saying, “What Tibbie,
won’t you come and kiss me, and wish me joy?” she exclaimed—
“Wish ye joy! It’s like me to wish ye joy an yer lad hurled awa frae yer
side i’ the blink o’ an ee, by thae wild telegrams. I dinna see what joy’s
to come o’t; it’s clean again the Scripture!”
“I told you I had left it to her to decide, Tibbie,” said the Colonel.
“Weel, an what wad ye hae the puir leddy say? She kens what sorts ye, when
the head of yer name is sick an lyin’ among thae English loons that hae
brocht him to siccan a pass.”
“Right, Tibbie,” exclaimed Ermine, greatly amused at the unexpected turn,
purely for the sake of putting Maister Colin in the wrong. “If a gentleman
won’t be content without a bride who can’t walk, he must take the
consequence, and take his wedding trip by himself! It is my belief,
Tibbie, as I have just been telling him, that you and I shall get the
house in all the better order for having him off our hands, just at
first,” she added, with a look of intelligence.
“Deed, an maybe we shall,” responded Tibbie, with profound satisfaction.
“He was aye a camsteary child when there was any wark on hand.”
Colin could not help laughing, and when once this had been effected,
Ermine felt that his depression had been sufficiently met, and that she
might venture on deeper, and more serious sympathy, befitting the
chastened, thankful feelings with which they hailed the crowning of their
youthful love, the fulfilment of the hopes and prayers that the one had
persisted in through doubt and change, the other had striven to resign
into the All-wise Hands.
They had an early meal together, chiefly for the sake of his wheeling her
to the head of his table, and “seeing how she looked there,” and then the
inexorable hour was come, and he left her, with the echo of her last words
in his ear, “Goodbye, Colin, stay as long as you ought. It will make the
meeting all the sweeter, and you have your wife to some back to now. Give
a sister’s love to your brother, and thanks for having spared you,” and
his last look at the door was answered with her sunshiny smile.
But when, a few minutes after, Edward came up with Alison for his
farewell, they found her lying back in her chair, half fainting, and her
startled look told almost too plainly that she had not thought of her
brother. “Never mind,” said Edward, affectionately, as much to console
Alison as Ermine for this oblivion; “of course it must be so, and I don’t
deserve otherwise. Nothing brought me home but Colin Keith’s telling me
that he saw you would not have him till my character was cleared up; and
now he has repaired so much of the evil I did you, all I can do is to work
to make it up to you in other ways. Goodbye, Ermine, I leave you all in
much better hands than mine ever were, you are right enough in feeling
that a week of his absence outweighs a year of mine. Bless you for all
that you and he have done for my child. She, at least, is a comfort to
you.”
Ermine’s powers were absolutely exhausted; she could only answer him by
embraces and tears; and all the rest of the day she was, to use her own
expression, “good for nothing but to be let alone.” Nor, though she
exerted herself that she might with truth write that she was well and
happy, was she good for much more on the next, and her jealous guardians
allowed her to see no one but soft, fondling Lady Temple, who insisted on
a relationship (through Rachel), and whose tender pensive quietness could
not fail to be refreshment to the strained spirits, and wearied physical
powers, and who better than anybody could talk of the Colonel; nay, who
could understand, and even help Ermine herself to understand, that these
ever-welling tears came from a source by no means akin to grief or
repining.
The whole aspect of the rooms was full of tokens of his love and thought
for her. The ground-floor had been altered for her accommodation, the
furniture chosen in accordance with her known tastes or with old memories,
all undemonstratively prepared while yet she had not decided on her
consent. And what touched her above all, was the collection of treasures
that he had year by year gathered together for her throughout the weary
waiting, purchases at which Lady Temple remembered her mother’s banter,
with his quiet evasions of explanation. No wonder Ermine laid her head on
her hand, and could not retain her tears, as she recalled the white,
dismayed face of the youth, who had printed that one sad earliest kiss on
her brow, as she lay fire-scathed and apparently dying; and who had
cherished the dream unbroken and unwaveringly, had denied himself
consistently, had garnered up those choice tokens when ignorant over
whether she still lived; had relied on her trust, and come back,
heart-whole, to claim and win her, undaunted by her crippled state, her
poverty, and her brother’s blotted name. “How can such love ever be met?
Why am I favoured beyond all I could have dared to image to myself?” she
thought, and wept again; because, as she murmured to Fanny, “I do thank
God for it with all my heart, and I do long to tell him all. I don’t think
my married life ought to begin by being sillier than ever I was before,
but I can’t help it.”
“And I do love you so much the better for it,” said Fanny; a better
companion to-day than the grave, strong Alison, who would have been kind,
but would have had to suppress some marvel at the break-down, and some
resentment that Edward had no greater share in it.
The morning’s post brought her the first letter from her husband, and in
the midst of all her anxiety as to the contents, she could not but linger
a moment on the aspect of the Honourable Mrs. Colin Keith in his
handwriting; there was a carefulness in the penmanship that assured her
that, let him have to tell her what he would, the very inditing of that
address had been enjoyment to him. That the border was black told nothing,
but the intelligence was such as she had been fully prepared for. Colin
had arrived to find the surgeon’s work over, but the patient fast sinking.
Even his recognition of his brother had been uncertain, and within
twenty-four hours of the morning that had given Colin a home of his own,
the last remnant of the home circle of his childhood had passed from him.
Still Ermine had to continue a widowed bride for full a fortnight, whilst
the funeral and subsequent arrangements necessitated Colin’s presence in
Scotland. It was on a crisp, beautiful October evening that Rose, her
chestnut hair flying about her brow, stood, lighted up by the sunbeams in
the porch, with upraised face and outstretched hands, and as the Colonel
bent down to receive her joyous embrace, said, “Aunt Ermine gave me leave
to bring you to the door. Then I am going to Myrtlewood till bed-time. And
after that I shall always have you.”
The open door showed Ermine, too tremulous to trust to her crutch, but
leaning forward, her eyes liquid with tears of thankfulness. The patient
spirits had reached their home and haven, the earthly haven of loving
hearts, the likeness of the heavenly haven, and as her head leant, at
last, upon his shoulder, and his guardian arm encircled her, there was
such a sense of rest and calm that even the utterance of their inward
thanksgiving, or of a word of tenderness would have jarred upon them. It
was not till a knock and message at the door interrupted them, that they
could break the blessed stillness.
“And there you are, my Ermine!” said Colin, standing on the hearth-rug,
and surveying her with satisfied eyes. “You are a queenly looking dame in
your black draperies, and you look really well, much better than Rachel
led me to expect.”
“Ah! when she was here I had no fixed day to look forward to. And
receiving our poor little orphan baby was not exactly like receiving his
uncle, though Rachel seemed to think it ought to make up for anything.”
“She was thoroughly softened by that child! It was a spirited thing her
bringing him down here on the Monday when we started for Scotland, and
then coming all the way alone with her maid. I did not think Alick would
have consented, but he said she would always be the happier for having
deposited her charge in your hands.”
“It was a great wrench to her. I felt it like robbery when she put the
little fellow down on my lap and knelt over him, not able to get herself
away, but saying that she was not fit to have him; she could not bear it
if she made him hate her as Conrade did! I am glad she has had his first
smile, she deserves it.”
“Is Tibbie in charity with him?”
“Oh, more than in charity! She did not take the first announcement of his
coming very amiably; but when I told her she was to reign in the nursery,
and take care the poor little chief know the sound of a Scots’ tongue, she
began to thaw; and when he came into the house, pity or loyalty, or both,
flamed up hotly, and have quite relieved me; for at first she made a baby
of me, and was a perfect dragon of jealousy at poor Ailie’s doing anything
for me. It was a rich scene when Rachel began giving her directions out of
‘Hints for the Management of Infants,’ just in the old voice, and Tibbie
swept round indignantly, ‘His Lordship, Lord Keith of Gowanbrae, suld hae
the best tendance she could gie him. She did na lippen to thae English
buiks, as though she couldna rear a wean without bulk learning.’ Poor
Rachel nearly cried, and was not half comforted by my promising to study
the book as much as she pleased.”
“It will never do to interfere with Tibbie, and I own I am much of her
opinion, I had rather trust to her than to Rachel, or the book!”
“Well, the more Rachel talked book, the more amiable surprise passed
between her mother and Lady Temple that the poor little follow should have
lived at all, and I believe they were very angry with me for thinking her
views very sensible. Lady Temple is so happy with him. She says it is so
melancholy to have a house without a baby, that she comes in twice or
three times a day to console herself with this one.”
“Did you not tell me that she and the Curtises spent the evening with
you?”
“Yes, it was rather shocking to receive them without you, but it was the
only way of being altogether on Rachel’s one evening here; and it was very
amusing, Mrs. Curtis so happy with her daughter looking well and bright,
and Rachel with so much to tell about Bishopsworthy, till at last Grace,
in her sly odd way, said she thought dear Alexander had even taught Rachel
curatolatry; whereupon Rachel fired up at such an idea being named in
connexion with Mr. Clare, then came suddenly, and very prettily, down, and
added, ‘Living with Alick and Mr. Clare has taught me what nonsense I
talked in those days.’”
“Well done, Rachel! It proves what Alick always said, that her great
characteristic is candour!”
“I hope she was not knocked up by the long night journey all at one
stretch. Mrs. Curtis was very uneasy about it, but nothing would move her;
she owned that Alick did not expect her, for she had taken care he should
not object, by saying nothing of her intention, but she was sure he would
be ill on Wednesday morning, and then Mrs. Curtis not only gave in
directly, but all we married women turned upon poor Grace for hinting that
Alick might prefer a day’s solitary illness to her being over-tired.”
“She was extremely welcome! Alick was quite done for by all he had gone
through; he was miserably ill, and I hardly knew what to do with him, and
he mended from the moment his face lightened up at the sight of her.”
“There’s the use of strength of mind! How is Alick?”
“Getting better under M’Vicar and Edinburgh winds. It was hard on him to
have borne the brunt of all the nursing that terrible last week, and in
fact I never knew how much he was going through rather than summon me. His
sauntering manner always conceals how much he is doing, and poor Keith was
so fond of him, and liked his care so much that almost the whole fell upon
him at last. And I believe he said more that was good for Keith, and
brought in Mr. Clare more than perhaps I should ever have been able to do.
So though I must regret having been away, it may have been the best
thing.”
“And it was by your brother’s earnest wish,” said Ermine; “it was not as
if you had stayed away for your own pleasure.”
“No! Poor Keith repeatedly said he could not die in peace till he had
secured our having the sole charge of his son. It was a strong instinct
that conquered inveterate prejudice! Did I tell you about the will?”
“You said I should hear particulars when you came.”
“The personal guardianship is left to us first, then to Alick and Rachel,
with £300 a year for the expenses. Then we have Auchinvar. The estate is
charged with an equivalent settlement upon Mary, a better plan, which I
durst not propose, but with so long a minority the estate will bear it.
Alick has his sister’s fortune back again, and the Menteith children a few
hundreds; but Menteith is rabid about the guardianship, and would hardly
speak to Alick.”
“And you?”
“They always keep the peace with me. Isabel even made us a wedding present—a
pair of miniatures of my father and mother, that I am very glad to rescue,
though, as she politely told me, I was welcome to them, for they were
hideously dressed, and she wanted the frames for two sweet photographs of
Garibaldi and the Queen of Naples.”
Then looking up as if to find a place for them—
“Why, Ermine, what have you done to the room? It is the old parsonage
drawing-room!”
“Did not you mean it, when you took the very proportions of the bay
window, and chose just such a carpet?”
“But what have you done to it?”
“Ailie and Rose, and Lady Temple and her boys, have done it. I have sat
looking on, and suggesting. Old things that we kept packed up have seen
the light, and your beautiful Indian curiosities have found their
corners.”
“And the room has exactly the old geranium scent!”
“I think the Curtises must have brought half their greenhouse down. Do you
remember the old oak-leaf geranium that you used to gather a leaf of
whenever you passed our old conservatory?”
“I have been wondering where the fragrance came from that made the
likeness complete. I have smelt nothing like it since!”
“I said that I wished for one, and Grace got off without a word, and
searched everywhere at Avoncester till she found one in a corner of the
Dean’s greenhouse. There, now you have a leaf in your fingers, I think you
do feel at home.”
“Not quite, Ermine. It still has the dizziness of a dream. I have so often
conjured up all this as a vision, that now there is nothing to take me
away from it, I can hardly feel it a reality.”
“Then I shall ring. Tibbie and the poor little Lord upstairs are
substantial witnesses to the cares and troubles of real life.”
CHAPTER XXX. WHO IS THE CLEVER WOMAN?
“Half-grown as yet, a child and vain,
She cannot fight the fight of death.
What is she cut from love and faith?”
Knowledge and Wisdom, TENNYSON.
It was long before the two Mrs. Keiths met again. Mrs. Curtis and Grace
were persuaded to spend the spring and summer in Scotland, and Alick’s
leave of absence was felt to be due to Mr. Clare, and thus it was that the
first real family gathering took place on occasion of the opening of the
institution that had grown out of the Burnaby Bargain. This work had cost
Colonel Keith and Mr. Mitchell an infinity of labour and perseverance
before even the preliminaries could be arranged, but they contrived at
length to carry it out, and by the fourth spring after the downfall of the
F. U. E. E. a house had been erected for the convalescents, whose wants
were to be attended to by a matron, assisted by a dozen young girls in
training for service.
The male convalescents were under the discipline of Sergeant O’Brien and
the whole was to be superintended by Colonel and Mrs. Keith. Ermine
undertook to hear a class of the girls two or three times a week, and
lower rooms had been constructed with a special view to her being wheeled
into them, so as to visit the convalescents, and give them her attention
and sympathy. Mary Morris was head girl, most of the others were from
Avonmouth, but two pale Londoners came from Mr. Touchett’s district, and a
little motherless lassie from the —th Highlanders was brought down
with the nursery establishment, on which Mrs. Alexander Keith now
practised the “Hints on the management of Infants.”
May was unusually propitious, and after an orthodox tea-drinking, the new
pupils and all the Sunday-schools were turned out to play on the Homestead
slopes, with all the world to look on at them. It was a warm, brilliant
day, of joyous blossom and lively green, and long laughing streaks of
sunlight on the sea, and no one enjoyed it more than did Ermine, as she
sat in her chair delighting in the fresh sweetness of the old thorns,
laughing at the freaks of the scampering groups of children, gaily
exchanging pleasant talk with one friend after another, and most of all
with Rachel, who seemed to gravitate back to her whenever any summons had
for a time interrupted their affluence of conversation.
And all the time Ermine’s footstool was serving as a table for the various
flowers that two children were constantly gathering in the grass and
presenting to her, to Rachel, or to each other, with a constant stream of
not very comprehensible prattle, full of pretty gesticulation that seemed
to make up for the want of distinctness. The yellow-haired,
slenderly-made, delicately-featured boy, whose personal pronouns were just
developing, and his consonants very scanty, though the elder of the two,
dutifully and admiringly obeyed the more distinct, though less connected,
utterances of the little dark-eyed girl, eked out by pretty imperious
gestures, that seemed already to enchain the little white-frocked cavalier
to her service. All the time it was droll to see how the two ladies could
pay full attention to the children, while going on with their own unbroken
stream of talk.
“I am not overwhelming you,” suddenly exclaimed Rachel, checking herself
in mid-career about the mothers’ meetings for the soldiers’ wives.
“Far from it. Was I inattentive—?”
“Oh no—(Yes, Una dear, very pretty)—but I found myself talking
in the voice that always makes Alick shut his eyes.”
“I should not think he often had to do so,” said Ermine,
much amused by this gentle remedy—(“Mind, Keith, that
is a nettle. It will sting—”)
“Less often than before,” said Rachel—(“Never mind the butterfly,
Una)—I don’t think I have had more than one thorough fit of what he
calls leaping into the gulf. It was about the soldiers’ wives married
without leave, who, poor things, are the most miserable creatures in the
world; and when I first found out about them I was in the sort of mood I
was in about the lace, and raved about the system, and was resolved to
employ one poor woman, and Alick looked meeker and meeker, and assented to
all I said, as if he was half asleep, and at last he quietly took up a
sheet of paper, and said he must write and sell out, since I was bent on
my gulf, and an officer’s wife must be bound by the regulations of the
service. I was nearly as bad as ever, I could have written an article on
the injustice of the army regulations, indeed I did begin, but what do you
think the end was? I got a letter from a good lady, who is always looking
after the poor, to thank Mrs. Alexander Keith for the help that had been
sent for this poor woman, to be given as if from the general fund. After
that I could not help listening to him, and then I found it was so
impossible to know about character, or to be sure that one was not doing
more harm than—What is it, boys?” as three or four Temples rushed
up.
“Aunt Rachel, Mr. Clare is going to teach us a new game, and he says you
know it. Pray come.”
“Come, Una. What, Keith, will you come too? I’ll take care of him,
Ermine.”
And with a child in each hand, Rachel followed the deputation, and had
scarcely disappeared before the light gracious figure of Rose glanced
through the thorn trees. “Aunt Ermine, you must come nearer; it is so
wonderful to see Mr. Clare teaching this game.”
“Don’t push my chair, my dear; it is much too heavy for you uphill.”
“As if I could not drive you anywhere, and here is Conrade coming.”
Conrade was in search of the deserter, but he applied himself heartily to
the propulsion of aunt Ermine, informing Rose that Mr. Clare was no end of
a man, much better than if he could see, and aunt Rachel was grown quite
jolly.
“I think she has left off her long words,” said Rose.
“She is not a civilian now,” said Conrade, quite unconscious of Ermine’s
amusement at his confidences as he pushed behind her. “I did think it a
most benighted thing to marry her, but that’s what it is. Military
discipline has made her conformable.” Having placed the chair on a spot
which commanded the scene, the boy and girl rushed off to take their part
in the sport, leaving Ermine looking down a steep bank at the huge ring of
performers, with linked hands, advancing and receding to the measure of a
chanted verse round a figure in the centre, who made gesticulations,
pursued and caught different individuals in the ring, and put them through
a formula which provoked shouts of mirth. Ermine much enjoyed the sight;
it was pretty to watch the prononcé dresses of the parish children,
interspersed with the more graceful forms of the little gentry, and here
and there a taller lady. Then Ermine smiled to recognise Alison as usual
among her boys, and Lady Temple’s soft greys and whites, and gentle
floating movements, as she advanced and receded with Stephana in one hand,
and a shy infant-school child in the other. But Ermine’s eye roamed
anxiously, for though Rachel’s animated, characteristic gestures were
fully discernible, and her little Una’s arch toss of the head marked her
out, yet the companion whom she had beguiled away, and who had become more
to Ermine than any other of the frisking little ones of the flock, was
neither with her not with his chief protector, Rose. In a second or two,
however, the step that to her had most “music in’t” of all footfalls that
ever were trodden, was sounding on the path that led circuitously up the
path, and the Colonel appeared with the little runaway holding his hand.
“Why, baby, you are soon come away!”
“I did not like it,—sit on mamma’s knee,” said the little fellow,
scrambling to his place then as one who felt it his own nest and throne.
“He was very soon frightened,” said the Colonel; “it was only that little
witch Una who could have deluded him into such a crowd, and, as soon as
she saw a bigger boy to beguile, she instantly deserted Keith, so I
relieved Rachel of him.”
“See Rachel now; Mr. Clare is interrogating her. How she is making them
laugh! I did not think she could ever have so entered into fun.”
“Alick must have made it a part of her education. When the Invalid has
time for another essay, Ermine, it should be on the Benefits of Ridicule.”
“Against Clever Womanhood? But then the subject must have Rachel’s perfect
good humour.”
“And the weapon must be in the most delicately skilful hands,” added the
Colonel. “Properly wielded, it saves blunting the superior weapon by
over-frequent use. Here the success is complete.”
“It has been irony rather than ridicule,” said Ermine, “though, when he
taught her to laugh, he won half the battle. It is beautiful to see her
holding herself back, and most forbearing where she feels most positive. I
am glad to see him looking so much stronger and more substantial. Where is
he?”
“On the further bank, supposed by Mrs. Curtis to be asleep, but watching
uncle, wife, and child through his eyelashes. Did you ever see any one so
like his sister as that child?”
“Much more so than this one. I am glad he may one day see such a shadow of
his bright-faced mother.”
“You are mother!” said the little orphan, looking up into Ermine’s
face with a startled, wistful look, as having caught more of her meaning
than she had intended, and she met his look with a kiss, the time was not
yet come for gainsaying the belief more than in the words, “Yes, always a
mother to you, my precious little man.”
“Nor could you have had a bonnier face to look into,” added the Colonel.
“There, the game breaks up. We should collect our flock, and get them them
back to Les Invalides, as Alick calls it.”
“Take care no one else does so,” said Ermine, laughing. “It has been a
most happy day, and chief of all the pleasures has been the sight of
Rachel just what I hoped, a thorough wife and mother, all the more so for
her being awake to larger interests, and doing common things better for
being the Clever Woman of the family. Where is she? I don’t see her now.”
Where is she? was asked by more than one of the party, but the next to see
her was Alick, who found her standing at the window of her own room, with
her long-robed, two-months’ old baby in her arms. “Tired?” he asked.
“No; I only sent down nurse to drink tea with the other grandees. What a
delightful day it has been! I never hoped that such good fruit would rise
out of my unhappy blunders.”
“The blunders that brought so much good to me.”
“Ah! the old places bring them back again. I have been recollecting how it
used to seem to me the depth of my fall that you were marrying me out of
pure pity, without my having the spirit to resent or prevent it, and now I
just like to think how kind and noble it was in you.”
“I am glad to hear it! I thought I was so foolishly in love, that I was
very glad of any excuse for pressing it on.”
“Are the people dispersing? Where is your uncle?”
“He went home with the Colonel and his wife; he has quite lost his heart
to Ermine.”
“And Una—did you leave her with Grace?”
“No, she trotted down hand in hand with his little lordship: promising to
lead her uncle back.”
“My dear Alick, you don’t mean that you trust to that?”
“Why, hardly implicitly.”
“Is that the way you say so? They may be both over the cliffs. If you will
just stay in the room with baby, I will go down and fetch them up.”
Alick very obediently held out his arms for his son, but when Rachel
proceeded to take up her hat, he added, “You have run miles enough to-day.
I am going down as soon as my uncle has had time to pay his visit in
peace, without being hunted.”
“Does he know that?”
“The Colonel does, which comes to the same thing. Is not this boy just of
the age that little Keith was when you gave him up?”
“Yes; and is it not delightful to see how much larger and heavier he is!”
“Hardly, considering your objections to fine children.”
“Oh, that was only to coarse, over-grown ones. Una is really quite as tall
as little Keith, and much more active. You saw he could not play at the
game at all, and she was all life and enjoyment, with no notion of
shyness.”
“It does not enter into her composition.”
“And she speaks much plainer. I never miss a word she says, and I don’t
understand Keith a bit, though he tells such long stories.”
“How backward!”
“Then she knows all her letters by sight—almost all, and Ermine can
never get him to tell b from d; and you know how she can repeat so many
little verses, while he could not even say, ‘Thank you, pretty cow,’ this
morning, when I wanted to hear him.”
“Vast interval!”
“It is only eight months; but then Una is such a bright, forward child.”
“Highly-developed precocity!”
“Now, Alick, what am I about? Why are you agreeing with me?”
“I am between the horns of a dilemma. Either our young chieftain must be a
dunce, or we are rearing the Clever Woman of the family.”
“I hope not!” exclaimed Rachel.
“Indeed? I would not grudge her a superior implement, even if I had
sometimes cut my own fingers.”
“But, Alick, I really do not think I ever was such a Clever Woman.”
“I never thought you one,” he quietly returned.
She smiled. This faculty had much changed her countenance. “I see,” she
said, thoughtfully, “I had a few intellectual tastes, and liked to think
and read, which was supposed to be cleverness; and my wilfulness made me
fancy myself superior in force of character, in a way I could never have
imagined if I had lived more in the world. Contact with really clever
people has shown me that I am slow and unready.”
“It was a rusty implement, and you tried weight instead of edge. Now it is
infinitely brighter.”
“But, Alick,” she said, leaving the thought of herself for that of her
child, “I believe you may be right about Una, for,” she added in low
voice, “she is like the most practically clever person I ever saw.”
“True,” he answered gravely, “I see it every day, in every saucy gesture
and coaxing smile, when she tries to turn away displeasure in her naughty
fits. I hardly knew how to look on at her airs with Keith, it was so
exactly like the little sister I first knew. Rachel, such cleverness as
that is a far more perilous gift to woman than your plodding
intellectuality could ever be. God grant,” he added, with one of the
effusions which sometimes broke through his phlegmatic temperament, “that
this little fellow may be a kinder, wiser brother than ever I was, and
that we may bring her up to your own truth and unselfishness. Then such
power would be a happy endowment.”
“Yes,” said Rachel, “may she never be out of your influence, or be left to
untrustworthy hands. I should have been much better if I had had either
father or brother to keep me in order. Poor child, she has a wonderful
charm, not all my fancy, Alick. And yet there is one whose real working
talent has been more than that of any of us, who has made it effective for
herself and others, and has let it do her only good, not harm.”
“You are right. If we are to show Una how intellect and brilliant power
can be no snares, but only blessings helping the spirits in infirmity and
trouble, serving as a real engine for independence and usefulness, winning
love and influence for good, genuine talents in the highest sense of the
word, then commend me to such a Clever Woman of the family as Ermine
Keith.”