Mordryn spent a most unrestful day; he found
it very difficult to settle to anything. He felt
it wiser whenever his thoughts turned to Katherine
Bush, immediately to picture Bindon's Green and
the auctioneer father and butcher grandfather!—they
acted as a kind of antidote to the very powerful intoxicant
which was flooding his veins.
And Katherine sat typing mechanically her morning's
work, but some third sense beyond eye and hand
was busy with agitating thoughts. No, she could play
no further game with the Duke, fate had beaten her.
It would be no acting. She knew that she was just a
woman, after all, and he was a man, and the Dukedom
had gone into shadowland.
He possessed everything that Algy had lacked, there
would be no blank half-hours when passion was lulled,
with him. His perfectly cultivated intellect could enchant
her always. She adored his point of view, as
unconsciously arrogant as Lady Garribardine's, and
yet as free and expanded. How she could soar with
him to guide her! What happiness to take refuge from
everything in his arms.
He did not seem old to her; indeed, except for his
thick, iron-grey hair and the expression of having
greatly suffered, which now and then showed in his
proud eyes, there were no unlovely signs of age about
him. He could still call forth for many years the
passionate love of women. And what was age? A ridiculous
phantasy—the soul was the thing.
Katherine was beginning to believe that she herself
had a soul, and that Otto Weininger was altogether
wrong about individuals, even if his deductions were
correct concerning the majority of women.
Several guardsmen from Windsor came over to
luncheon, which was so crowded that there was no necessity
for Katherine to go down, and tea came before
she again saw the Duke. He deliberately allowed himself
to be entrapped by one of the trio of Graces, and
did not come near her; and when Katherine got into
the drawing-room after dinner, he was nowhere in sight.
A Cabinet Minister, one of the few Her Ladyship considered
sufficiently worthy to be allowed to visit
Blissington, had arrived in the afternoon, and the Duke
and the hostess, and another man and woman, made
a group in the small, red drawing-room in earnest converse;
while most of the rest of the company danced
in the hall. And Katherine went among these, and
presently she slipped up to her old schoolroom.
His Grace was carrying out her request, it appeared,
but therein she found no joy.
And later, Mordryn drank his final hock and seltzer
in his old friend's boudoir, where they had a little talk
together alone.
"It has been dear of you to stay so long, Mordryn,"
she told him. "Especially as the diversions which I
hoped I had provided for you turned out of no more
use than a plague of gnats. I hope you have not been
too bored?"
"I am never bored with you, dear friend."
"No, I know that; but in a big party, I cannot give
you as much time as I should like. You will come again
when we are quiet, though, just as you always used
to, and I will really find you a suitable bride."
The Duke was in a cynical mood, it seemed, for he
treated this proposal not at all in the light fashion he
had done at the beginning of the visit.
He replied gloomily that he had decided to select
something steady and plain, if he must marry—he
knew he could never care for a woman again, and a
healthy, quiet, well-bred creature with tact, who would
leave him alone, was all he asked. Life was a hideous
disappointment and very difficult to understand, and
to try to do one's duty to one's state, and get through
with it, was all that anyone could hope to accomplish.
But to this Her Ladyship said a vigorous, "Tut—tut!
You speak like a boy crossed in love, Mordryn!
If you were five-and-twenty, you could not have a
more delightful vista opening out in front of you, 'Si
jeunesse savait. Si vieillesse pouvait'—that was cried
from a wise and envious heart! Well, you both know
and can, so what more could a man ask of fate! I
have no patience with you! I don't want you now only
to do your duty, to fulfil the obligations of your station.
You have always done so. Your life has been one
long carrying out of noblesse oblige. I want you to
kick over the traces and be happy, Mordryn! Ridiculously,
boyishly happy!—do you hear, conscientious
martyr!"
Mordryn heard, but his smile was still bitter, as he
answered:
"We are not so made, Seraphim, neither you nor I—we
could not do as you say, even when we were young,
and tradition and obligation to our order will still dominate
us to the end of time, dear friend."
Then he said good-night and good-bye—for he was
leaving at cock-crow for a place of his in the North.
When Lady Garribardine was alone, she did not look
at all disturbed at the passage of events, as she reviewed
her Easter party. She smiled happily, in fact,
and decided that she would take her secretary to Valfreyne
for Whitsuntide, after all!
Man "proposed," but, she reflected sagely, God often
"disposed" in favour of intelligent women!
In the following week, the establishment from Blissington
moved up to Berkeley Square for the season,
and Katherine's duties became heavy again.
Her first meeting with Gerard Strobridge happened
quite soon; he came into the secretary's room from the
library after luncheon.
"Now tell me all about everything," he said. "I
have gathered from Gwendoline that you came down
every night and had your usual success at the Easter
party, and that Mordryn evidently liked you, for he
told Gwen that you were the most intelligent girl that
he had ever met."
Katherine half smiled, a little sadly.
"Yes, he may have thought so, but eventually the
secretary swallowed up the guest. I do not know if
he will ever speak to me again."
"He felt as badly as that, did he! Poor Mordryn!
No doubt you tormented him; but Mordryn is no weak
creature like me. If he feels very much about you, he
will either defy convention, or break away from all
temptation"—then his voice changed, and he asked
a little anxiously:
"Katherine, do you begin to care for him?"
"Yes."
"How much?"
"I do not know—I could care a great deal—he
pleases me in every way—I love his looks and his mind—and
he—he makes me feel something which I have
never felt before—is it the capability for devotion?—I
do not know."
For the first time in their acquaintance, Mr. Strobridge
saw her undecided, gentle, a little helpless even—it
touched him deeply. He loved her so very dearly.
He would rather see her happy if he could aid her to become
so. He came over to her and leaned upon the
table.
"Dearest girl—everything is a sickening jumble in
this world, it seems. I have a kind of premonition,
though, that you will emerge triumphant, however it
goes; but after to-day, Katherine, I shall not see you
until late in the autumn. I am going away—to Russia
this time—and I am going to try once more not to
care."
So even her one friend would be far from her. Well,
she must not lose her nerve. She gave him her blessing
for his journey, and they said good-bye. And the days
went on apace.
Matilda was engaged to be married to Charlie Prodgers,
and was full of importance and glee, and had
drifted further and further away from her sister ever
since the engagement was announced. Some instinctive
feminine jealousy made her feel that she would prefer
Katherine to be as far as possible from her fiancé.
"After all, Kitten," she said, when they met in the
park to discuss the news, "you aren't one of us and we
aren't one of you. I shall be moving up now into
Mabel's set, and there is no use in hiding it, Mabel don't
seem to dote on you."
"Yes, I feel that," agreed Katherine, meekly lowering
her eyes, so that her sister might not see their
twinkle. "I expect we shall not meet often in the future,
Tild."
"Well, of course, Kitten, I'd always be very pleased
to have tea with you up here now and then," and Matilda
gave an uncomfortable laugh; "but it is always
best to avoid awkwardness, isn't it, dearie, and you are
only a paid servant, aren't you—living in—not like
you were at Liv and Dev's, out on your own, and everyone
starts better in considering her husband's position,
don't they—and Charlie is manager in his department
now, and very particular as to who I know."
"You are perfectly right, Tild," Katherine's voice
was ominously soft, "and so is Charlie. You go ahead,
and very soon you will have got above Mabel, and, of
course, I would not be a drag on you for the world. I
think, after to-day, we will just write to one another
now and then, and you must not bother to come up to
see me. We do not think alike on any point—but I
shall always remember how good you were to me when I
was a tiresome little girl."
"Oh, Kitten!" and Matilda felt almost tearful; for
apart from her fear of reawakening her fiancé's interest
in her sister, she still had a secret affection for her.
"Yes, you were very good to me, then, Tild, but now
we have come to a final parting of the ways, and we are
all satisfied—I shall fulfil my ideas, and you will fulfil
yours."
And afterwards, when she walked back to Berkeley
Square, she pondered deeply. There was no such thing
as family affection really in the abstract—it only held
when the individuals were in sympathy and had a community
of interests. They—her family—were as glad
at the thought that they had risen above her, and need
not communicate in the future, as she was that she
would not have to bring her mind down to their point
of view. Matilda was the last link—and Matilda had
shown that she desired also to break away. Katherine
felt that but for Lady Garribardine's real affection for
her, she was virtually alone in the world.
If only there were no backward thoughts in her mind,
she would have looked upon her fair future as a certainty;
sooner or later, with the visit to Valfreyne in
front of her, and the frequent occasions upon which she
must see the Duke at her mistress' house, she knew she
could continue to attract him if she so desired, and
make him love her with a great love. There was that
subtle, indescribable sympathy of ideas between them.
And as Algy had called forth physical passion, and
Gerard the awakening of the spirit, this man seemed to
arouse the essence of all three things, the body, the
spirit and the soul.
But there lay this ugly shadow between them, and
she began to realise the meaning of the old saw from
Horace, "Black care sits behind the horseman," and
she had not yet made up her mind to dislodge him and
defy fate.
The three days in Paris began to haunt her until she
severely took herself to task, and analysed everything.
She must not look back upon them in that fashion. She
must remember them gratefully, she told herself, since
they had opened her eyes for the first time in a way
that nothing else could have done, and she indeed felt
that it was very doubtful if she could ever have obtained
Lady Garribardine's situation, and so her education
from Gerard Strobridge, without the experience that
that episode in her life had given her to start upon.
It was contrary to all her principles to allow any
past action to influence with its shadow present events.
She would banish the whole subject from her mind, and
leave the future in the hand of destiny—neither assisting
fate by personal initiative, nor resisting its march
by deliberate renunciation.
But she seemed very quiet, Her Ladyship thought,
and wondered to herself at the cause. The Duke was
in the North paying other visits for some weeks, and
when he did come to Berkeley Square in between times
he did not see Katherine.
So April passed and May came, and with it the prospect
of Whitsuntide, early that year. Whitsunday
fell upon the eleventh of May.
"You must have some decent clothes," Lady Garribardine
had said, a week or two beforehand, "another
evening dress and an afternoon frock. I think I should
like the first to be white and the other black, and in
your own excellent taste. You will dine down every
night as a guest, and we shall stay from Saturday until
Tuesday."
"It is extremely exciting for me," Katherine admitted.
"I wonder so much what the house will be
like."
"It is a huge Palladian Monument, very splendid and
ducal, everything is on an immense scale, and the Duke
keeps it up with great state. It is more like some royal
residence than a house, but there are some cosy rooms
to be found in odd corners. It will interest and educate
you, child. You had better read up all about it in one
of the old volumes of Country Life—some three years
ago, I think, it was described."
Katherine lost no time in doing this, and read of its
building in 1680, and of its wonderful gardens "in the
French style"—and of its superb collections of pictures
and art treasures, and of its avenues and lake and
waterways and fountains. Yes, it must be a very noble
place.
They were to arrive early in time for luncheon, since
Her Ladyship was to act hostess to the party who
would come in the afternoon. And when they approached
the gates, Katherine felt that one of the supreme
moments in her life had come.
The park was vast, larger even than Blissington, and
with more open spaces, and the house could be viewed
from a distance—a symmetrical, magnificent pile. And
it seemed that they walked through an endless succession
of halls and great salons, until they were ushered
into the Duke's presence in his own particular panelled
room.
It was very lofty and partly filled with bookcases
arranged in rather an unusual way, sunk into the wall
itself, with very beautiful decorations by Grinling Gibbons
surrounding them and also the intervening panels
wherein fine pictures hung. The curtains and chair
coverings were of the most superb old blue silk, faded
now to a wonderful greenish tone, and harmonizing
with the beautiful Savonnerie carpet with its soft tints
of citron and puce and green.
Katherine was frankly awed. Blissington was a very
fine gentleman's house—but this was a palace. And
suddenly, the Duke seemed a million miles away from
her, and she wondered how she had ever dared to be
familiar with him, and rebuke him for coming to her
schoolroom to talk!
She was meek as a mouse, and never opened her lips
after the first words of greeting.
The host had come forward with cordial graciousness
and bidden them welcome, and he had looked a very
magnificent person somehow in his morning country
riding clothes. And all the glamour of high rank and
power and fastidiousness enhanced his natural charms,
so that Katherine felt a little cold and sick with the
emotion which she was experiencing. He was courtly
and aloof in his manner with all his kindness, and in a
moment or two he accompanied them along to the Venetian
suite himself.
"I must come, dear friend," he had said to Lady
Garribardine, "to be sure that you have everything
you can possibly want."
The Venetian suite was on a par in splendour with
the rest of the house. It was on the same floor as His
Grace's own sitting-room which they had left, and it
was reached by a passage place which led to the same
terrace, which the windows looked upon; this was
marble paved, with a splendid balustrade. The ante-chamber
had been arranged with a writing table near
the great window, and every convenience for Miss Bush
to do any writing her mistress might require. For the
rest, the Venetian suite was always reserved for the
most honoured guest. Here were a sitting-room, a
great bedroom and dressing-room for Her Ladyship—all
with the same lofty ceilings and fine windows as the
room they had left, and behind it came that charming
green damask-hung chamber designed for Miss
Bush.
"Here in this apartment you will find yourselves
completely quiet and shut off from the world," the Duke
said. "Once you have passed the great door, as you
know, Seraphim, your suite makes the end of this wing,
and only I can approach you from my sitting-room!"
Lady Garribardine, who knew every nook in the
house, smiled as she expressed herself as content, and
he left them alone.
Katherine examined her room; it would have struck
her as very large if it had been in any other house.
It looked on to an inner courtyard with a fountain
playing, and statuary and hundred-year-old lilac
bushes in huge tubs. The room was hung with pale
green silk, and had beautiful painted Italian, eighteenth
century furniture, and on the dressing-table were bowls
of lilies of the valley.
She thrilled a little; was this accidental or deliberate?
She was very well acquainted with the workings of
a great house, and the duties of the housekeeper and
groom of the chambers. She saw from a technical point
of view that these retainers of Valfreyne must be of a
very high order of merit because of the result of their
work; but even their intelligence could hardly have selected
the volumes of her favourite authors, which she
had discussed with the Duke, and which were placed in
bookstands, with the "Letters of Abelard and Héloise"
and a beautiful edition of "Eothen" out on the top!
These silent testimonies of someone's personal
thought gave her unbounded pleasure; they restored
her submerged self-confidence, and made her eyes
glow. It was divine to feel that he cared enough to
have troubled to do this. The subtle flattery was exquisite.
A burning wave of colour overspread Katherine's
face, and her nostrils quivered. If the Duke could
have seen her—he would have known that that quality
he appreciated—the quality of real, natural passion—was
abundantly present in her nature. Strong passion
controlled by an iron will—a mixture which he thought
quite ideal in the woman whom a man would choose to
be the companion of his life.
It was this particular suggestion about Katherine
which had alike intoxicated the imaginations of these
three far different men, Lord Algy, Gerard Strobridge
and the Duke. The human, adorable warmth of emotion
of which her white, smooth-skinned face and red,
full mouth looked capable.
Lady Garribardine had told her secretary to take off
her hat, as she might be required to do a little work
after lunch.
"I shall settle with His Grace how I think the party
had better sit, and then you can type anything we
want."
So Katherine was particularly careful to arrange
her silvery hair becomingly, and looked the perfection
of refined neatness as she followed her mistress back
into the Duke's sitting-room, and then on in to luncheon
in a smaller dining-room in another wing.
They were only three at the meal, and the host
talked of politics, and the party who were coming, and
was gracious. He did not treat Katherine with the
slightest condescension, nor with any special solicitude.
If she had been an unknown niece of Lady Garribardine,
his manner would have been the same.
Katherine felt chilled again for the moment, and had
never appeared more subdued.
She slipped off back to her room when they went to
have coffee in a small drawing-room, known as "The
Gamester's Parlour," for in it was hung a world-known
picture of the famous thoroughbred of that name, the
riding of whom in a match against His Grace of Chandos'
colt, Starlight, had been the cause of the third
Duke's breaking his neck.
There was no immediate work to be done, so Katherine
stood and looked from the window of her green
chamber and took in the view. Surely, she thought, if
people even with the intelligence of Matilda could see
such men as the Duke and such splendid homes as this,
with every evidence in it of fine tastes and fine living and
fine achievement, stamped upon it by hundreds of years
of noble owners, they could not go on being so blind to
the force of heredity and environment as factors in
determining the actions of the human race.
She stood for a long time quite still, with trouble in
her heart, which every fresh realisation of the beauties
around her augmented.
No—the Duke could never overlook the three days
even if he could forget that she had come from Bindon's
Green—and she could not banish their memory
either, and so would never be able to rely upon her own
power to carry on the great undertaking untrammelled
by inward apprehension and self-contempt at the deception
of so great a man—her serenity would be gone
and with it her power.
Lady Garribardine opened the door presently, and
saw her still standing there.
"Run out for a little walk, child," she said, kindly.
"You can reach the terrace from the passage ante-chamber
which has been arranged for you to write in,
and there are steps at the side into the garden. I
shall not want you until just before tea. The Duke has
the menus and cards and door names printed by his own
private press. Then come back with your eyes bright,
and put on your new black frock."
Katherine thanked her; there never could be anyone
kinder or more thoughtful for others than was this arrogant
great lady.
The girl walked in the fresh May sunshine, but nothing
lifted the weight which had fallen upon her heart,
and her cheeks were paler than usual, and her air had
an added delicacy and refinement when she followed
her mistress into the great tapestry salon, wherein tea
was laid, and which was adjacent to the hall where
guests were already beginning to arrive.
She was not introduced to anyone else, but several
she already knew; they were selected from the crême de
la crême of Her Ladyship's set of the rather less modern
sort.
Mordryn looked at her constantly unobserved.
What was the meaning of this new expression in her
face? Why would she never meet his eyes? And hers,
when he did see them, turned upon ordinary things,
had a haunting melancholy in them very different from
the sphinxlike smile of old.
He found himself more disturbed than he cared to
own. He wished Seraphim had not brought her, after
all—He wished—but he did not even in his thoughts
form words. Had her changed air anything to do with
that last abrupt request on the March morning's walk,
that he should remember who she was and who he was,
and leave her alone? Was it possible that she felt
something for him? How wrong he had been in that
case to put the "Eothen" and the "Abelard and Héloise"
and the lilies of the valley in her room—cruel and
wrong. He knew now that he saw her again that he had
thought of her very constantly ever since Easter time,
and had chafed at getting no sight of her when he had
twice been in London and had gone to Berkeley Square,
though his determination had held at that time,
and he had made no attempt to see her, or even
to mention her name. But he knew that he had
looked forward more eagerly each day to Whitsuntide,
and that he had taken peculiar delight in the surreptitious
supervision of the details of her lodgment,
and the choice of volumes wherewith to refresh her
mind.
But was this chivalrous on his part? Was he not
playing upon the feelings of one defenceless and in a
dependent position—one who could not even flee?
He grew uncomfortable. He was painfully conscious
of her presence, and a sudden mad longing came to him
to take her in his arms, and kiss away the trouble from
her eyes! And then the cynical and humorous side of
his character made him smile at the idea of such feelings
in a room full of guests! Guests of his own world,
and for the humble secretary of his old love! He
fretted under the restraint of his unease. And she was
here in his house and he must suffer the temptation of
her presence for three more days. He must not look
at her—must not talk to her! He must not have any
subtle understanding with her about the books—must
not, in short, do anything he desired.
Lady Garribardine watched the passage of events
with an understanding eye. Something further must be
done, she felt.
So just before dressing time, when the company had
dispersed, she went with her host into his own sitting-room.
The evening post had come in.
"Mordryn, I wanted to ask you, can I send a wire
over to Hornwell. I have just heard Sir John Townly
is staying there, and I want to suggest that he motor
over to-morrow to tea. It will be a splendid chance for
him to have a quiet hour with my Katherine Bush. I
would like him to see her here as a guest; he is very
much in love with her in his heavy way, and I believe
I could get the matter settled all right if you would only
help me, like a dear."
The Duke experienced a most unpleasant twinge.
This was rather more than he had bargained for! Why
should Sir John Townly be given this opportunity in his
house!
"The match is quite unsuitable, Seraphim. I can't
think how you can countenance it."
Her Ladyship appeared deliberately to misunderstand
him.
"But I assure you, Mordryn, Sir John is not in the
least upset by her origin or her suburban relations; he
realises the magnificent qualities of the creature herself,
and he knows very well that she will make the finest
hostess, and the most dignified figurehead for Dullinglea
that he could find; besides, with her health and
youth, he can look forward to a strong little son by
this time next year."
Mordryn found himself absolutely revolted—Katherine—(so
her name was Katherine?) Katherine—this
delicious creature to be the mother of that shocking
bore John Townly's son!
The red flush mounted to his broad forehead.
"It is not their relative worldly positions I alluded
to, Seraphim—but their ages and appearances—and,
oh! tastes! I think it is perfectly inhuman of you,
and I cannot countenance such a thing."
"Mordryn! I am really surprised!—how can it possibly
matter to you? You must have seen for yourself
that night at Gerard's what a charming companion
she can make, and how utterly she is wasted in the position
of secretary—and yet you won't help me to do
the poor child this good turn!"
"If you put it in that way—ask whom you like, but
I cannot think how any woman, to escape any position,
could sell herself to such a man as John Townly!"
His tone was heated and his blue eyes flashed.
"That is just the tiresome part of it," and Her
Ladyship looked concerned. "I believe she has your
same foolish and romantic ideas, and so I thought if
she could see him here among this fine company, perhaps
the desire to remain in it, and the glamour of the
thing might bring her up to the scratch. Mordryn,
do help me like a kind friend. Just think, if she were
to leave me, whom else would she ever see? She has
quite separated from her own family; she has nothing
but a life of drudgery in front of her, and she is fitted
in every way to be a queen. She is so extremely self-controlled,
she would never make any slips afterwards,
and her ambitions could be gratified and make up for
lack of love."
"I think the idea is disgusting," His Grace snapped
impatiently; "but send your wire, by all means."
Then he abruptly turned the conversation, and presently
Her Ladyship left him alone, very well pleased
with her work! And the groom of the chambers was
handed a warmly worded invitation to telegraph to
Hornwell, as she passed to her room.