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BY
FLORENCE McLANDBURGH.
CHICAGO:
JANSEN, McCLURG & CO.
1876.
COPYRIGHT,
By FLORENCE McLANDBURGH,
A. D. 1876.
Dedicated
TO
JOHN McLANDBURGH.
Note.—Some of the sketches and tales in this volume
were contributed to “Scribner’s Monthly,” “Appleton’s
Journal,” and the “Lakeside Magazine,” and are used
here, in a revised form, by the kind permission of the
editors. Others appear now for the first time.
The day was hardly different from many
another day, though I will likely recall
it even when the mist of years has
shrouded the past in an undefined hueless cloud.
The sunshine came in at my open window.
Out of doors it flooded all the land in its warm
summer light—the spires of the town and the
bare college campus; farther, the tall bearded
barley and rustling oats; farther still, the wild
grass and the forest, where the river ran and
the blue haze dipped from the sky.
The temptation was greater than I could
stand, and taking my book I shut up the
“study,” as the students called my small apartment,
leaving it for one bounded by no walls or
ceiling.
The woods rang with the hum and chirp of
8insects and birds. I threw myself down beneath
a tall, broad-spreading tree. Against its
moss-covered trunk I could hear the loud tap
of the woodpecker secreted high up among its
leaves, and off at the end of a tender young
twig a robin trilled, swinging himself to and fro
through the checkered sunlight. I never grew
weary listening to the changeful voice of the
forest and the river, and was hardly conscious
of reading until I came upon this paragraph:—
“As a particle of the atmosphere is never lost, so sound
is never lost. A strain of music or a simple tone will
vibrate in the air forever and ever, decreasing according to
a fixed ratio. The diffusion of the agitation extends in all
directions, like the waves in a pool, but the ear is unable to
detect it beyond a certain point. It is well known that some
individuals can distinguish sounds which to others under
precisely similar circumstances are wholly lost. Thus the
fault is not in the sound itself, but in our organ of hearing,
and a tone once in existence is always in existence.”
This was nothing new to me. I had read it
before, though I had never thought of it particularly;
but while I listened to the robin, it
seemed singular to know that all the sounds
ever uttered, ever born, were floating in the air
now—all music, every tone, every bird-song—and
we, alas! could not hear them.
Suddenly a strange idea shot through my
brain—Why not? Ay, why not hear? Men
had constructed instruments which could magnify
9to the eye and—was it possible?—Why
not?
I looked up and down the river, but saw
neither it, nor the sky, nor the moss that I
touched. Did the woodpecker still tap secreted
among the leaves, and the robin sing, and the
hum of insects run along the bank as before?
I can not recollect, I can not recollect anything,
only Mother Flinse, the deaf and dumb old
crone that occasionally came to beg, and sell
nuts to the students, was standing in the gateway.
I nodded to her as I passed, and walked
up her long, slim shadow that lay on the path.
It was a strange idea that had come so suddenly
into my head and startled me. I hardly dared
to think of it, but I could think of nothing else.
It could not be possible, and yet—why not?
Over and over in the restless hours of the
night I asked myself, I said aloud, Why not?
Then I laughed at my folly, and wondered what
I was thinking of and tried to sleep—but if it
could be done?
The idea clung to me. It forced itself up in
class hours and made confusion in the lessons.
Some said the professor was ill those two or
three days before the vacation; perhaps I was.
I scarcely slept; only the one thought grew
stronger—Men had done more wonderful
things; it certainly was possible, and I would
10accomplish this grand invention. I would construct
the king of all instruments—I would
construct an instrument which could catch
these faint tones vibrating in the air and render
them audible. Yes, and I would labor quietly
until it was perfected, or the world might laugh.
The session closed and the college was deserted,
save by the few musty students whom,
even in imagination, one could hardly separate
or distinguish from the old books on the library
shelves. I could wish for no better opportunity
to begin my great work. The first thing
would be to prepare for it by a careful study of
acoustics, and I buried myself among volumes
on the philosophy of sound.
I went down to London and purchased a
common ear-trumpet. My own ear was exceedingly
acute, and to my great delight I found
that, with the aid of the trumpet just as it was,
I could distinguish sounds at a much greater
distance, and those nearer were magnified in
power. I had only to improve upon this instrument;
careful study, careful work, careful
experiment, and my hopes would undoubtedly
be realized.
Back to my old room in the college I went
with a complete set of tools. So days and weeks
I shut myself in, and every day and every week
brought nothing but disappointment. The instrument
11seemed only to diminish sound rather
than increase it, yet still I worked on and
vowed I would not grow discouraged.
Hour after hour I sat, looking out of my
narrow window. The fields of barley and
waving oats had been reaped, the wheat too
had ripened and gone, but I did not notice. I
sprang up with a joyful exclamation—Strange
never to have thought of it before! Perhaps
I had not spent my time in vain, after all. How
could I expect to test my instrument in this
close room with only that little window? It
should be removed from immediate noises, high
up in the open air, where there would be no
obstructions. I would never succeed here—but
where should I go? It must be some place
in which I would never be liable to interruption,
for my first object was to be shielded and
work in secret.
I scoured the neighborhood for an appropriate
spot without success, when it occurred to
me that I had heard some one say the old gray
church was shut up. This church was situated
just beyond the suburbs of the town. It was
built of rough stone, mottled and stained by
unknown years. The high, square tower,
covered by thick vines that clung and crept
round its base, was the most venerable monument
among all the slabs and tombs where it
12stood sentinel. Only graves deserted and uncared
for by the living kept it company. People
said the place was too damp for use, and
talked of rebuilding, but it had never been done.
Now if I could gain access to the tower, that
was the very place for my purpose.
I found the door securely fastened, and
walked round and round without discovering
any way of entrance; but I made up my mind, if
it were possible to get inside of that church I
would do it, and without the help of keys.
The high windows were not to be thought of;
but in the rear of the building, lower down,
where the fuel had probably been kept, there
was a narrow opening which was boarded across.
With very little difficulty I knocked out the
planks and crept through. It was a cellar, and,
as I had anticipated, the coal receptacle. After
feeling about, I found a few rough steps which
led to a door that was unlocked and communicated
with the passage back of the vestry-room.
The tower I wished to explore was situated
in the remote corner of the building. I passed
on to the church. Its walls were discolored
by green mould, and blackened where the
water had dripped through. The sun, low
down in the sky, lit the tall arched windows
on the west, and made yellow strips across
13the long aisles, over the faded pews with their
stiff, straight backs, over the chancel rail, over
the altar with its somber wood-work; but
there was no warmth; only the cheerless glare
seemed to penetrate the cold, dead atmosphere,—only
the cheerless glare without sparkle,
without life, came into that voiceless sanctuary
where the organ slept. At the right of the
vestibule a staircase led to the tower; it ascended
to a platform laid on a level with the
four windows and a little above the point of the
church roof. These four windows were situated
one on each side of the tower, running
high up, and the lower casement folding inward.
Here was my place. Above the tree-tops, in
the free open air, with no obstacle to obstruct
the wind, I could work unmolested by people
or noise. The fresh breeze that fanned my face
was cool and pleasant. An hour ago I had been
tired, disappointed, and depressed; but now,
buoyant with hope, I was ready to begin work
again—work that I was determined to accomplish.
The sun had gone. I did not see the broken
slabs and urns in the shadow down below; I
did not see the sunken graves and the rank
grass and the briers. I looked over them and
saw the gorgeous fringes along the horizon,
scarlet and gold and pearl; saw them quiver
14and brighten to flame, and the white wings of
pigeons whirl and circle in the deepening glow.
I closed the windows, and when I had crawled
out of the narrow hole, carefully reset the
boards just as I had found them. In another
day all the tools and books that I considered
necessary were safely deposited in the tower. I
only intended to make this my workshop, still,
of course, occupying my old room in the college.
Here I matured plan after plan. I studied,
read, worked, knowing, feeling that at last I
must succeed; but failure followed failure, and I
sank into despondency only to begin again with
a kind of desperation. When I went down to
London and wandered about, hunting up different
metals and hard woods, I never entered a
concert-room or an opera-house. Was there
not music in store for me, such as no mortal ear
had ever heard? All the music, every strain
that had sounded in the past ages? Ah, I
could wait; I would work patiently and wait.
I was laboring now upon a theory that I had
not tried heretofore. It was my last resource;
if this failed, then—but it would not fail! I
resolved not to make any test, not to put it
near my ear until it was completed. I discarded
all woods and used only the metals which
best transmitted sound. Finally it was finished,
even to the ivory ear-piece. I held the instrument
15all ready—I held it and looked eastward
and westward and back again. Suddenly all
control over the muscles of my hand was gone,
it felt like stone; then the strange sensation
passed away. I stood up and lifted the trumpet
to my ear—What! Silence? No, no—I was
faint, my brain was confused, whirling. I
would not believe it; I would wait a moment
until this dizziness was gone, and then—then
I would be able to hear. I was deaf now. I
still held the instrument; in my agitation the
ivory tip shook off and rolled down rattling on
the floor. I gazed at it mechanically, as if it
had been a pebble; I never thought of replacing
it, and, mechanically, I raised the trumpet a
second time to my ear. A crash of discordant
sounds, a confused jarring noise broke upon me
and I drew back trembling, dismayed.
Fool! O fool of fools never to have thought
of this, which a child, a dunce would not have
overlooked! My great invention was nothing,
was worse than nothing, was worse than a failure.
I might have known that my instrument would
magnify present sounds in the air to such a
degree as to make them utterly drown all others,
and, clashing together, produce this noise like
the heavy rumble of thunder.
The college reopened, and I took up my old
line of duties, or at least attempted them, for
16the school had grown distasteful to me. I was
restless, moody, and discontented. I tried to
forget my disappointment, but the effort was
vain.
The spires of the town and the college campus
glittered white, the fields of barley and
oats were fields of snow, the forest leaves had
withered and fallen, and the river slumbered,
wrapped in a sheeting of ice. Still I brooded
over my failure, and when again the wild grass
turned green I no longer cared. I was not the
same man that had looked out at the waving
grain and the blue haze only a year before. A
gloomy despondency had settled upon me, and
I grew to hate the students, to hate the college,
to hate society. In the first shock of discovered
failure I had given up all hope, and the
Winter passed I knew not how. I never wondered
if the trouble could be remedied. Now
it suddenly occurred to me, perhaps it was
no failure after all. The instrument might be
made adjustable, so as to be sensible to faint or
severe vibrations at pleasure of the operator,
and thus separate the sounds. I remembered
how but for the accidental removal of the ivory
my instrument perhaps would not have reflected
any sound. I would work again and persevere.
I would have resigned my professorship, only
17it might create suspicion. I knew not that
already they viewed me with curious eyes and
sober faces. When the session finally closed,
they tried to persuade me to leave the college
during vacation and travel on the continent. I
would feel much fresher, they told me, in the
Autumn. In the Autumn? Ay, perhaps I
might, perhaps I might, and I would not go
abroad.
Once more the reapers came unnoticed. My
work progressed slowly. Day by day I toiled
up in the old church tower, and night by night
I dreamed. In my sleep it often seemed that
the instrument was suddenly completed, but
before I could raise it to my ear I would always
waken with a nervous start. So the feverish
time went by, and at last I held it ready for a
second trial. Now the instrument was adjustable,
and I had also improved it so far as to be
able to set it very accurately for any particular
period, thus rendering it sensible only to sounds
of that time, all heavier and fainter vibrations
being excluded.
I drew it out almost to its limits.
All the maddening doubts that had haunted
me like grinning specters died. I felt no tremor,
my hand was steady, my pulse-beat regular.
The soft breeze had fallen away. No leaf
18stirred in the quiet that seemed to await my
triumph. Again the crimson splendor of sun-set
illumined the western sky and made a glory
overhead—and the dusk was thickening down
below among the mouldering slabs. But that
mattered not.
I raised the trumpet to my ear.
Hark!—The hum of mighty hosts! It rose
and fell, fainter and more faint; then the murmur
of water was heard and lost again, as it
swelled and gathered and burst in one grand
volume of sound like a hallelujah from myriad
lips. Out of the resounding echo, out of the
dying cadence a single female voice arose.
Clear, pure, rich, it soared above the tumult
of the host that hushed itself, a living thing.
Higher, sweeter, it seemed to break the fetters
of mortality and tremble in sublime adoration
before the Infinite. My breath stilled with
awe. Was it a spirit-voice—one of the glittering
host in the jasper city “that had no
need of the sun, neither of the moon to shine
in it?” And the water, was it the river
clear as crystal flowing from the great white
throne? But no! The tone now floated out
soft, sad, human. There was no sorrowful
strain in that nightless land where the leaves
of the trees were for the healing of the nations.
The beautiful voice was of the earth and sin-stricken.
19From the sobbing that mingled with
the faint ripple of water it went up once more,
ringing gladly, joyfully; it went up inspired
with praise to the sky, and—hark! the
Hebrew tongue:—
“The horse and his rider hath he thrown
into the sea.”
Then the noise of the multitude swelled
again, and a crash of music broke forth from
innumerable timbrels. I raised my head quickly—it
was the song of Miriam after the passage
of the Red Sea.
I knew not whether I lived.
I bent my ear eagerly to the instrument again
and heard—the soft rustle, the breathing as of
a sleeping forest. A plaintive note stole gently
out, more solemn and quiet than the chant of
the leaves. The mournful lay, forlorn, frightened,
trembled on the air like the piteous wail
of some wounded creature. Then it grew
stronger. Clear, brilliant, it burst in a shower
of silver sounds like a whole choir of birds in
the glitter of the tropical sunlight. But the
mournful wail crept back, and the lonely heartbroken
strain was lost, while the leaves still
whispered to one another in the midnight.
Like the light of a distant star came to me
this song of some nightingale, thousands of
years after the bird had mouldered to nothing.
20At last my labor had been rewarded. As
sound travels in waves, and these waves are continually
advancing as they go round and round
the world, therefore I would never hear the
same sound over again at the same time, but it
passed beyond and another came in its stead.
All night I listened with my ear pressed to
the instrument. I heard the polished, well-studied
compliments, the rustle of silks, and
the quick music of the dance at some banquet.
I could almost see the brilliant robes and glittering
jewels of the waltzers, and the sheen of
light, and the mirrors. But hush! a cry, a
stifled moan. Was that at the——No, the
music and the rustle of silk were gone.
“Mother, put your hand here,—I am tired,
and my head feels hot and strange. Is it night,
already, that it has grown so dark? I am resting
now, for my book is almost done, and then,
mother, we can go back to the dear old home
where the sun shines so bright and the honeysuckles
are heavy with perfume. And, mother,
we will never be poor any more. I know you
are weary, for your cheeks are pale and your
fingers are thin; but they shall not touch a
needle then, and you will grow better, mother,
and we will forget these long, long, bitter years.
I will not write in the evenings then, but sit
with you and watch the twilight fade as we
21used to do, and listen to the murmur of the
frogs. I described the little stream, our little
stream, mother, in my book.—Hark! I hear
the splash of its waves now. Hold me by the
hand tight, mother. I am tired, but we are
almost there. See! the house glimmers white
through the trees, and the red bird has built its
nest again in the cedar. Put your arm around
me, mother, mother—”
Then single, echoless, the mother’s piercing
cry went up—“O my God!”
Great Heaven! It would not always be
music that I should hear. Into this ear, where
all the world poured its tales, sorrow and suffering
and death would come in turn with mirth
and gladness.
I listened again. The long-drawn ahoy!—ahoy!—of
the sailor rang out in slumbrous
musical monotone, now free, now muffled—gone.
The gleeful laugh of children at play,
then the drunken boisterous shout of the midnight
reveler—What was that? A chime of
bells, strange, sublime, swimming in the air they
made a cold, solemn harmony. But even over
them dashed the storm-blast of passion that
sweeps continually up and down the earth, and
the harmony that bound them in peace broke
up in a wild, angry clamor, that set loose shrill
screams which were swallowed up in a savage
22tumult of discord, like a mad carnival of yelling
demons. Then, as if terrified by their own
fiendish rage, they retreated shivering, remorseful,
and hushed themselves in hoarse whispers
about the gray belfry. It was the Carillonneur,
Matthias Vander Gheyn, playing at Louvain on
the first of July, 1745.
Yes, my invention had proved a grand success.
I had worked and worked in order to
give this instrument to the world; but now
when it was finished, strange to say, all my
ambition, all my desire for fame left me, and
I was anxious only to guard it from discovery,
to keep it secret, to keep it more jealously than
a miser hoards his gold. An undefinable delight
filled my soul that I alone out of all
humanity possessed this treasure, this great Ear
of the World, for which kings might have given
up their thrones. Ah! they dreamed not of
the wonders I could relate. It was a keen, intense
pleasure to see the public for which I had
toiled live on, deaf forever save to the few
transient sounds of the moment, while I, their
slave, reveled in another world above, beyond
their’s. But they should never have this instrument;
no, not for kingdoms would I give it
up, not for life itself.
It exerted a strange fascination over me, and
in my eager desire to preserve my secret a tormenting
23fear suddenly took possession of me
that some one might track me to the tower and
discover all. It seemed as if the people looked
after me with curious faces as I passed. I went
no longer on the main road that led to the
church, but, when I left my room, took an
opposite direction until out of sight, and then
made a circuit across the fields. I lived in a
continual fear of betraying myself, so that at
night I closed my window and door lest I might
talk aloud in my sleep. I could never again
bear the irksome duties of my office, and when
the college reopened I gave up my situation
and took lodgings in town. Still the dread of
detection haunted me. Every day I varied my
route to the church, and every day the people
seemed to stare at me with a more curious gaze.
Occasionally some of my old pupils came to
visit me, but they appeared constrained in my
presence and were soon gone. However, no
one seemed to suspect my secret; perhaps all
this was merely the work of my imagination,
for I had grown watchful and reticent.
I hardly ate or slept. I lived perpetually in
the past listening to the echoing song of the
Alpine shepherd; the rich, uncultivated soprano
of the Southern slave making strange
wild melody. I heard grand organ fugues rolling,
sweeping over multitudes that kneeled in
24awe, while a choir of voices broke into a gloria
that seemed to sway the great cathedral. The
thrilling artistic voices of the far past rang
again, making my listening soul tremble in their
magnificent harmony. It was music of which
we could not dream.
Then suddenly I determined to try the opera
once more; perhaps I was prejudiced: I had
not been inside of a concert-room for more
than a year.
I went down to London. It was just at
the opening of the season. I could hardly
wait that evening until the curtain rose; the
orchestra was harsh and discordant, the house
hot and disagreeable, the gas painfully bright.
My restlessness had acquired a feverish pitch
before the prima donna made her appearance.
Surely that voice was not the one before which
the world bowed! Malibran’s song stood out
in my memory clearly defined and complete, like
a magnificent cathedral of pure marble, with
faultless arches and skillfully chiseled carvings,
where the minarets rose from wreaths of lilies
and vine-leaves cut in bas-relief, and the slender
spire shot high, glittering yellow in the
upper sunlight, its golden arrow, burning like
flame, pointing towards the East. But this
prima donna built only a flat, clumsy structure
of wood ornamented by gaudily painted lattice.
25I left the opera amid the deafening applause of
the audience with a smile of scorn upon my
lips. Poor deluded creatures! they knew nothing
of music, they knew not what they were
doing.
I went to St. Paul’s on the Sabbath. There
was no worship in the operatic voluntary sung
by hired voices; it did not stir my soul, and
their cold hymns did not warm with praise to
the Divine Creator, or sway the vast pulseless
congregation that came and went without one
quickened breath.
All this time I felt a singular, inexpressible
pleasure in the consciousness of my great secret,
and I hurried back with eager haste. In London
I had accidentally met two or three of my
old acquaintances. I was not over glad to see
them myself: as I have said, I had grown
utterly indifferent to society; but I almost felt
ashamed when they offered me every attention
within their power, for I had not anticipated it,
nor was it deserved on my part. Now, when I
returned, every body in the street stopped to
shake hands with me and inquire for my health.
At first, although I was surprised at the interest
they manifested, I took it merely as the
common civility on meeting, but when the
question was repeated so particularly by each
one, I thought it appeared strange, and asked
26if they had ever heard to the contrary; no, oh
no, they said, but still I was astonished at the
unusual care with which they all made the
same inquiry.
I went up to my room and walked directly to
the glass. It was the first time I had consciously
looked into a mirror for many weeks.
Good Heavens! The mystery was explained
now. I could hardly recognize myself. At first
the shock was so great that I stood gazing,
almost petrified. The demon of typhus fever
could not have wrought a more terrific change
in my face if he had held it in his clutches for
months. My hair hung in long straggling locks
around my neck. I was thin and fearfully haggard.
My eyes sunken far back in my head,
looked out from dark, deep hollows; my heavy
black eyebrows were knit together by wrinkles
that made seams over my forehead; my fleshless
cheeks clung tight to the bone, and a bright
red spot on either one was half covered by thick
beard. I had thought so little about my personal
appearance lately that I had utterly neglected
my hair, and I wondered now that it had
given me no annoyance. I smiled while I still
looked at myself. This was the effect of the
severe study and loss of sleep, and the excitement
under which I had labored for months, yes,
for more than a year. I had not been conscious
27of fatigue, but my work was done now and I
would soon regain my usual weight. I submitted
myself immediately to the hands of a
barber, dressed with considerable care, and
took another look in the glass. My face appeared
pinched and small since it had been
freed from beard. The caverns around my eyes
seemed even larger, and the bright color in my
cheeks contrasted strangely with the extremely
sallow tint of my complexion. I turned away
with an uncomfortable feeling, and started on
a circuitous route to the church, for I never
trusted my instrument in any other place.
It was a sober autumn day. Every thing
looked dreary with that cold, gray, sunless sky
stretched overhead. The half-naked trees
shivered a little in their seared garments of
ragged leaves. Occasionally a cat walked
along the fence-top, or stood trembling on
three legs. Sometimes a depressed bird suddenly
tried to cheer its drooping spirits and
uttered a few sharp, discontented chirps. Just
in front of me two boys were playing ball on
the roadside. As I passed I accidentally
caught this sentence:
“They say the professor ain’t just right in
his head.”
For a moment I stood rooted to the ground;
then wheeled round and cried out fiercely,
28“What did you say?”
“Sir?”
“What was that you said just now?” I repeated
still more fiercely.
The terrified boys looked at me an instant,
then without answering turned and ran as fast
as fright could carry them.
So the mystery now was really explained!
It was not sick the people thought me, but
crazy. I walked on with a queer feeling and
began vaguely to wonder why I had been so
savage to those boys. The fact which I had
learned so suddenly certainly gave me a shock,
but it was nothing to me. What did I care,
even if the people did think me crazy? Ah!
perhaps if I told my secret they would consider
it a desperate case of insanity. But the child’s
words kept ringing in my ears until an idea
flashed upon me more terrifying than death
itself. How did I know that I was not insane?
How did I know that my great invention might
be only an hallucination of my brain?
Instantly a whole army of thoughts crowded
up like ghostly witnesses to affright me. I had
studied myself to a shadow; my pallid face,
with the red spots on the cheeks and the blue
hollows around the eyes, came before my mental
vision afresh. The fever in my veins told
me I was unnaturally excited. I had not slept
29a sound, dreamless sleep for weeks. Perhaps
in the long, long days and nights my brain, like
my body, had been overwrought; perhaps in
my eager desire to succeed, in my desperate
determination, the power of my will had disordered
my mind, and it was all deception: the
sounds, the music I had heard, merely the creation
of my diseased fancy, and the instrument
I had handled useless metal. The very idea
was inexpressible torture to me. I could not
bear that a single doubt of its reality should
exist; but, after once entering my head, how
would I ever be able to free myself from distrust?
I could not do it; I would be obliged
to live always in uncertainty. It was maddening:
now I felt as if I might have struck the
child in my rage if I could have found him.
Then suddenly it occurred to me, for the first
time, that my invention could easily be tested by
some other person. Almost instantly I rejected
the thought, for it would compel me to
betray my secret, and in my strange infatuation
I would rather have destroyed the instrument.
But the doubts of my sanity on this subject
returned upon me with tenfold strength,
and again I thought in despair of the only
method left me by which they could ever be
settled.
In the first shock, when the unlucky sentence
30fell upon my ear, I had turned after the boys,
and then walked on mechanically towards the
town. Now, when I looked up I found myself
almost at the college gate. No one was to be
seen, only Mother Flinse with her basket on her
arm was just raising the latch. Half bewildered
I turned hastily round and bent my steps in the
direction of my lodgings, while I absently
wondered whether that old woman had stood
there ever since, since—when? I did not recollect,
but her shadow was long and slim—no,
there were no shadows this afternoon; it was
sunless.
As I reached the stairs leading to my room,
my trouble, which I had forgotten for the
moment, broke upon me anew. I dragged myself
up and sat down utterly overwhelmed.
As I have said, I would sooner destroy the instrument
than give it to a thankless world; but
to endure the torturing doubt of its reality was
impossible. Suddenly it occurred to me that
Mother Flinse was mute. I might get her to
test my invention without fear of betrayal, for
she could neither speak nor write, and her
signs on this subject, if she attempted to explain,
would be altogether unintelligible to
others. I sprang up in wild delight, then immediately
fell back in my chair with a hoarse
laugh—Mother Flinse was deaf as well as
31dumb. I had not remembered that. I sat
quietly a moment trying to calm myself and
think. Why need this make any difference?
The instrument ought to, at least it was possible
that it might, remedy loss of hearing. I
too was deaf to these sounds in the air that it
made audible. They would have to be magnified
to a greater degree for her. I might set it
for the present and use the full power of the
instrument: there certainly would be no harm
in trying, at any rate, and if it failed it would
prove nothing, if it did not fail it would prove
every thing. Then a new difficulty presented
itself. How could I entice the old woman into
the church?
I went back towards the college expecting to
find her, but she was nowhere to be seen, and I
smiled that only a few moments ago I had
wondered if she did not always stand in the
gateway. Once, I could not exactly recall the
time, I had passed her hut. I remembered distinctly
that there was a line full of old ragged
clothes stretched across from the fence to a decayed
tree, and a bright red flannel petticoat
blew and flapped among the blackened branches.
It was a miserable frame cabin, set back from
the Spring road, about half a mile out of town.
There I went in search of her.
The blasted tree stood out in bold relief
32against the drab sky. There appeared no living
thing about the dirty, besmoked hovel except
one lean rat, that squatted with quivering nose
and stared a moment, then retreated under the
loose plank before the door, leaving its smellers
visible until I stepped upon the board. I
knocked loudly without receiving any reply;
then, smiling at the useless ceremony I had performed,
pushed it open. The old woman, dressed
in her red petticoat and a torn calico frock,
with a faded shawl drawn over her head, was
standing with her back towards me, picking
over a pile of rags. She did not move. I hesitated
an instant, then walked in. The moment
I put my foot upon the floor she sprang quickly
round. At first she remained motionless, with
her small, piercing gray eyes fixed upon me,
holding a piece of orange-and-black spotted
muslin; evidently she recognized me, for, suddenly
dropping it, she began a series of wild
gestures, grinning until all the wrinkles of her
skinny face converged in the region of her
mouth, where a few scattered teeth, long and
sharp, gleamed strangely white. A rim of grizzled
hair stood out round the edge of the
turbaned shawl and set off the withered and
watchful countenance of the speechless old
crone. The yellow, shriveled skin hung loosely
about her slim neck like leather, and her
33knotted hands were brown and dry as the claws
of an eagle.
I went through the motion of sweeping and
pointed over my shoulder, making her understand
that I wished her to do some cleaning.
She drew the seams of her face into a new
grimace by way of assent, and, putting the piece
of orange-and-black spotted muslin around her
shoulders in lieu of a cloak, preceded me out of
the door. She started immediately in the direction
of the college, and I was obliged to take
hold of her before I could attract her attention;
then, when I shook my head, she regarded me
in surprise, and fell once more into a series
of frantic gesticulations. With considerable
trouble I made her comprehend that she was
merely to follow me. The old woman was by
no means dull, and her small, steel-gray eyes
had a singular sharpness about them that is only
found in the deaf-mute, where they perform the
part of the ear and tongue. As soon as we
came in sight of the church she was perfectly
satisfied. I walked up to the main entrance,
turned the knob and shook it, then suddenly
felt in all my pockets, shook the door over, and
felt through all my pockets again. This hypocritical
pantomime had the desired effect. The
old beldam slapped her hands together and
poked her lean finger at the hole of the lock,
34apparently amused that I had forgotten the key.
Then of her own accord she went round and
tried the other doors, but without success. As
we passed the narrow window in the rear I
made a violent effort in knocking out the loose
boards. The old woman seemed greatly delighted,
and when I crawled through willingly
followed. I gave her a brush, which fortunately
one day I had discovered lying in the vestibule,
and left her in the church to dust, while I went
up in the tower to prepare and remove from
sight all the tools which were scattered about.
I put them in a recess and screened it from view
by a map of the Holy Land. Then I took my
instrument and carefully adjusted it, putting on
its utmost power.
In about an hour I went down and motioned
to Mother Flinse that I wanted her up stairs.
She came directly after me without hesitation,
and I felt greatly relieved, for I saw that I would
likely have no trouble with the old woman.
When we got into the tower she pointed down
to the trees and then upward, meaning, I presume,
that it was high. I nodded, and taking
the instrument placed my ear to it for a moment.
A loud blast of music, like a dozen
bands playing in concert, almost stunned me.
She watched me very attentively, but when I
made signs for her to come and try she drew
35back. I held up the instrument and went
through all manner of motions indicating that
it would not hurt her, but she only shook her
head. I persevered in my endeavor to coax
her until she seemed to gain courage and walked
up within a few feet of me, then suddenly
stopped and stretched out her hands for the instrument.
As she did not seem afraid, provided
she had it herself, I saw that she took firm hold.
In my impatience to know the result of this
experiment, I was obliged to repeat my signs
again and again before I could prevail upon her
to raise it to her ear. Then breathlessly I
watched her face, a face I thought which looked
as if it might belong to some mummy that had
been withering for a thousand years. Suddenly
it was convulsed as if by a galvanic shock, then
the shriveled features seemed to dilate, and a
great light flashed through them, transforming
them almost into the radiance of youth; a
strange light as of some seraph had taken possession
of the wrinkled old frame and looked
out at the gray eyes, making them shine with
unnatural beauty. No wonder the dumb countenance
reflected a brightness inexpressible, for
the Spirit of Sound had just alighted with
silvery wings upon a silence of seventy years.
A heavy weight fell unconsciously from my
breast while I stood almost awed before this
36face, which was transfigured, as if it might
have caught a glimmer of that mystical morn
when, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye,
we shall all be changed.
My instrument had stood the test; it was
proved forever. I could no longer cherish any
doubts of its reality, and an indescribable peace
came into my soul, like a sudden awakening
from some frightful dream. I had not noticed
the flight of time. A pale shadow hung already
over the trees—yes, and under them on the
slime-covered stones. Ay! and a heavier
shadow than the coming night was even then
gathering unseen its rayless folds. The drab
sky had blanched and broken, and the sinking
sun poured a fading light through its ragged
fissures.
The old woman, as if wrapped in an enchantment,
had hardly moved. I tried vainly to
catch her attention; she did not even appear
conscious of my presence. I walked up and
shook her gently by the shoulder, and, pointing
to the setting sun, held out my hand for the instrument.
She looked at me a moment, with
the singular unearthly beauty shining through
every feature; then suddenly clutching the
trumpet tight between her skinny claws, sprang
backward towards the stairs, uttering a sound
that was neither human nor animal, that was
37not a wail or a scream, but it fell upon my ears
like some palpable horror. Merciful Heaven!
Was that thing yonder a woman? The shriveled,
fleshless lips gaped apart, and a small pointed
tongue lurked behind five glittering, fang-like
teeth. The wild beast had suddenly been developed
in the hag. Like a hungry tigress
defending its prey, she stood hugging the
trumpet to her, glaring at me with stretched
neck and green eyes.
A savage fierceness roused within me when
I found she would not give up the instrument,
and I rushed at her with hands ready to snatch
back the prize I valued more than my life—or
hers; but, quicker than a hunted animal, she
turned and fled with it down the stairs, making
the tower ring with the hideous cries of her
wordless voice. Swiftly—it seemed as if the
danger of losing the trumpet gave me wings to
fly in pursuit—I crossed the vestibule. She
was not there. Every thing was silent, and I
darted with fleet steps down the dusky aisle of
the church, when suddenly the jarring idiotic
sounds broke loose again, echoing up in the
organ-pipes and rattling along the galleries.
The fiend sprang from behind the altar, faced
about an instant with flashing eyes and gleaming
teeth, then fled through the vestry-room
into the passage. The sight of her was fresh
38fuel to my rage, and it flamed into a frenzy that
seemed to burn the human element out of my
soul. When I gained the steps leading into the
coal-room she was already in the window, but
I cleared the distance at a single bound and
caught hold of her clothes as she leaped down.
I crawled through, but she clutched the instrument
tighter. I could not prize it out of her
grasp; and in her ineffectual efforts to free herself
from my hold she made loud, grating cries,
that seemed to me to ring and reverberate all
through the forest; but presently they grew
smothered, gurgled, then ceased. Her clasp
relaxed in a convulsive struggle, and the trumpet
was in my possession. It was easily done,
for her neck was small and lean, and my hands
made a circle strong as a steel band.
The tremor died out of her frame and left it
perfectly still. Through the silence I could
hear the hiss of a snake in the nettle-weeds,
and the flapping wings of some night bird
fanned my face as it rushed swiftly through the
air in its low flight. The gray twilight had
deepened to gloom and the graves seemed to
have given up their tenants. The pale monuments
stood out like shrouded specters. But
all the dead in that church-yard were not under
ground, for on the wet grass at my feet there
was something stark and stiff, more frightful
39than any phantom of imagination—something
that the daylight would not rob of its ghastly
features. It must be put out of sight, yes, it
must be hid, to save my invention from discovery.
The old hag might be missed, and if
she was found here it would ruin me and expose
my secret. I placed the trumpet on the
window-ledge, and, carrying the grim burden
in my arms, plunged into the damp tangle of
weeds and grass.
In a lonesome corner far back from the
church, in the dense shade of thorn-trees,
among the wild brambles where poisonous vines
grew, slippery with the mould of forgotten
years, unsought, uncared for by any human
hand, was a tomb. Its sides were half buried
in the tall underbrush, and the long slab had
been broken once, for a black fissure ran zigzag
across the middle. In my muscles that night
there was the strength of two men. I lifted
off one-half of the stone and heard the lizards
dart startled from their haunt, and felt the spiders
crawl. When the stone was replaced it
covered more than the lizards or the spiders in
the dark space between the narrow walls.
As I have said, the instrument possessed a
singular fascination over me. I had grown to
love it, not alone as a piece of mechanism for
the transmission of sound, but like a living40thing, and I replaced it in the tower with the
same pleasure one feels who has rescued a
friend from death. My listening ear never
grew weary, but now I drew quickly away. It
was not music I heard, or the ripple of water,
or the prattle of merry tongues, but the harsh
grating cries that had echoed in the church,
that had rattled and died out in the forest—that
voice which was not a voice. I shivered
while I readjusted the instrument; perhaps it
was the night wind which chilled me, but the
rasping sounds were louder than before. I
could not exclude them. There was no element
of superstition in my nature, and I tried it over
again: still I heard them—sometimes sharp,
sometimes only a faint rumbling. Had the soul
of the deaf-mute come in retribution to haunt
me and cry eternally in my instrument? Perhaps
on the morrow it would not disturb me,
but there was no difference. I could hear only
it, though I drew out the trumpet for vibrations
hundreds of years old. I had rid myself of the
withered hag who would have stolen my treasure,
but now I could not rid myself of her invisible
ghost. She had conquered, even through
death, and come from the spirit world to gain
possession of the prize for which she had given
up her life. The instrument was no longer of
any value to me, though cherishing a vague
41hope I compelled myself to listen, even with
chattering teeth; for it was a terrible thing to
hear these hoarse, haunting cries of the dumb
soul—of the soul I had strangled from its body,
a soul which I would have killed itself if it
were possible. But my hope was vain, and the
trumpet had become not only worthless to me,
but an absolute horror.
Suddenly I determined to destroy it. I
turned it over ready to dash it in pieces, but it
cost me a struggle to crush this work of my life,
and while I stood irresolute a small green-and-gold
beetle crawled out of it and dropped like
a stone to the floor. The insect was an electric
flash to me, that dispelled the black gloom
through which I had been battling. It had
likely fallen into the instrument down in the
church-yard, or when I laid it upon the window-sill,
and the rasping of its wings, magnified,
had produced the sounds which resembled
the strange grating noise uttered by the deaf-mute.
Instantly I put the trumpet to my ear. Once
more the music of the past surged in. Voices,
leaves, water, all murmured to me their changeful
melody; every zephyr wafting by was filled
with broken but melodious whispers.
Relieved from doubts, relieved from fears
and threatening dangers, I slept peacefully,
42dreamlessly as a child. With a feeling of rest
to which I had long been unused, I walked out
in the soft clear morning. Every thing seemed
to have put on new life, for the sky was not
gray or sober, and the leaves, if they were
brown, trimmed their edges in scarlet, and if
many had fallen, the squirrels played among
them on the ground. But suddenly the sky
and the leaves and the squirrels might have been
blotted from existence. I did not see them,
but I saw—I saw Mother Flinse come through
the college gateway and walk slowly down the
road!
The large faded shawl pinned across her
shoulders nearly covered the red flannel petticoat,
and the orange-and-black spotted muslin
was wrapped into a turban on her head. Without
breathing, almost without feeling, I watched
the figure until at the corner it turned out of
sight, and a long dark outline on the grass behind
it ran into the fence. The shadow! Then
it was not a ghost. Had the grave given up
its dead? I would see.
At the church-yard the briers tore my face
and clothes, but I plunged deeper where the
shade thickened under the thorn-trees. There
in the corner I stooped to lift the broken slab
of a tomb, but all my strength would not avail
to move it. As I leaned over, bruising my hands
43in a vain endeavor to raise it, my eyes fell for an
instant on the stone, and with a start I turned
quickly and ran to the church; then I stopped—the
narrow fissure that cut zigzag across the
slab on the tomb was filled with green moss,
and this window was nailed up, and hung full
of heavy cobwebs.
And my instrument?
Suddenly, while I stood there, some substance
in my brain seemed to break up—it was
the fetters of monomania which had bound me
since that evening long ago, when, by the river
in the oak-forest, I had heard the robin trill.
No murder stained my soul: and there, beside
the black waves of insanity through which
I had passed unharmed, I gave praise to the
great Creator—praise silent, but intense as
Miriam’s song by the sea.
44
THE PATHS OF THE SEA.
Around the porch there hung that day
a crimson glory. It was the climbing
rose about the door displaying its
gorgeous bloom in a thousand crowns. Green,
grass-green were the hills, but in front of the
house the cliff fell abruptly, with a precipitous
drop, to the sea. On either side the waving
coast-line stretched away, a shining belt of
yellow sand. There the breakers with unfurled
banners of fleece followed each other in a never
ending procession to the shore. But at the
foot the billows, by day and night running in
forever, dashed against the rock and chopped
to a seething foam that threw up in one continual
briny shower its white and glittering
spray.
The surf at this point, even in pleasant
45weather, sounded a constant roar, and in times
of storm it increased to a deafening thunder
that appalled the ear and made the heart tremble
before the sea in its savage ferocity. Looking
off to the right, perhaps the greater part of
a mile distant, the harbor discovered itself, blue,
bluer than the sky. A few vessels that had
grown mysteriously upon the empty horizon,
and come in over the vast waste of waters, were
idly lying at anchor, each one biding her time
to spread her sails in the breeze and recede upon
her lonely course, going, as she had come, like
some spirit of solitude, dropping down silently
beyond the remote sea-reaches. There the
Nereid swung herself gently over the long
ground-swell, patiently awaiting the coming
night when again to take up her watery track
that would carry her over the great Atlantic
to other lands and far-off harbors. Not a trimmer
ship sailed the high seas.
The sun had traveled almost down the western
slope, and it lit up the mighty ocean with
a splendor that burned in lances of flame along
the waves, and floated in myriad rainbows over
the surf. The pomp of the departing day
passed across the boundless waters, a magnificent
pageantry. As the sun went down, the sky
became a scarlet canopy. The flying spray
took up the color and spread out a thousand
46streamers to the wind. Long, gold-green lanes
of sea ran out to where the distant mists let
down their gorgeous drapery. The tireless
gulls, shaking the red light from their wings,
sailed and sailed and dipped and sailed again.
A few fishing smacks loitered in the orange
haze, and, leagues away, a single sloop in the
humid north stood, like some wan water-wraith,
with a garland of foam about its feet. Eastward,
above the hills, the waiting moon hung
her helmet, paler than pearl, and the land, transfigured
by the evening light, looked on while
the sea in its play flashed up a hundred hues.
The widow Aber had lived there on the
cliff and seen the tides ebb and flow for more
now than the quarter of a century. She was
not a young girl when, twenty-six years back,
poor Jacob Aber had married her. It was a
sudden fancy on his part and a great surprise to
the place, for Jacob was well on towards fifty,
and many a girl had set her cap to catch the
handsome sailor in vain. But he never rued
his bargain. He was not a rich man, because
he had always been a generous man, and he was
content with enough merely to bring him in a
modest living. When he married he took what
little he had and built this cottage, built it of
brick good and strong, where he could feel the
salt wind blow, right in the face of the sea—the
47sea that, until he met Miriam Drew with
her soft gray eyes, he had loved better than
every thing else in all the wide world.
They were happy and prosperous for four
long years. First a son, then a daughter had
come to brighten their home, and it was on just
such an evening as this that Miriam, holding
her infant child in her arms, told Jacob good-bye
two-and-twenty years ago.
It would be his last cruise, he said. The
vessel was his own, and in twelve months, or
less, he would come back rich enough to stay
always, and if the tears were in his voice he
choked them down bravely, saying again it was
but for a little while he should be gone, and she
must cheer up for the long and happy years
that would come after.
Then she suddenly laid down her child and
with a smothered sob put up her arms about his
neck. It was the first time she had fairly given
way, and she clung to him trembling violently,
but uttering not one word. He smoothed her
brow gently, with a caressing touch, for her
sake keeping his own grief crushed within his
heart, and said,—
“Miriam don’t you remember once saying
you could always tell a sailor by the dreamy
far-off look in his eyes, an expression that came
only to those that lived upon the sea and
48watched its wide, wide fields? And don’t you
remember sometimes when I was sitting quietly
at home you would come up suddenly and ask
me what it was I saw miles and miles away, over
the summer water, in that distant sunny land?
Well, do not cry so, for even when my ship has
vanished from your sight, when on every side
there is no trace of shore, I can stand upon her
deck and look beyond the far horizon at our
peaceful, happy home. And when at evening,
with your eyes upon the sea, you sit and hold
the children in your lap, remember I will be
watching you from across its glittering line.
There, that is right! You are a good, brave girl!
It is but for a little while. I can look beyond
this parting—I can see your waiting face turn
radiant as my boat sails safely back!”
Then, when he had kissed her and the little
ones, and turned and kissed them again, there
was a faint smile struggling through her tears.
So, striving to keep down her grief, she parted
without saying one word of the terrible dread
that lay upon her heart.
And two-and-twenty years ago he had sailed
away.
Many days, many nights, many weeks, many
months, Miriam had watched the sea with wistful
eyes. For his sake she had very nearly
grown to love it, and the color came again to
49her cheeks as the time went by and the year
was almost up, when it would give back forever
the one she valued more than life. In those
days she scanned the water-line, and waited
patiently, and went about the house singing.
She chattered to her baby-daughter all how its
father was sailing home, until it laughed and
cooed in wild delight. Every morning she
dressed little Tommy in his best, and tied about
his waist the beautiful sea-green sash that Jacob
had brought her from the distant Indies; and
in the queer frosted vases on the mantel, that
had come from some foreign port, she kept a
fresh bouquet of sweet wild flowers.
But poor Jacob never came back.
Homeward bound, his vessel was wrecked
off the treacherous Newfoundland shore. A
storm drove her helpless, enshrouded in fog,
against the rocks where she foundered, and
captain and crew went down together. Only
two men escaped from the terrible disaster.
When the dreadful news came and they told
Miriam as they met her on the porch, she made
no reply. She did not moan or scream. She
only looked out for a moment at the deceitful
sea, smiling in its sheen of a thousand tints, then
turned and went into the house and shut the
door.
She had always been a strange woman, and
50they left her to bear her grief alone. She
asked nobody’s sympathy, she did not complain,
she never spoke of Jacob. She did not,
as the people had expected, sell her house. She
made no change so far as the world could see,
only that she held herself, if possible, more
aloof from society than ever. But before three
months had gone by they noticed that her
brown and shining hair had turned white, and
her gray eyes showed half concealed within
their depths an unfathomed trouble. Then
too, her figure, once erect and straight as a
dart, grew bent and stooped across the shoulders,
and nothing ever brought the color to her
face any more that was always pale and thin.
Otherwise, however, there appeared no difference.
She lived economically, and sometimes
took in a small amount of fine sewing, as,
beside the house, she had little else, for the sea
when it buried her husband had buried his
earnings also in the same watery grave.
She staid at home and watched the children
in whom her life was now wholly bound up.
They were her world, her all. She seemed to
find in them her very existence, and after the
queer frosted vases on the mantel had stood
empty for years, their young hands filled them
again with sweet wild flowers. So the house
once more was bright and sunny, and, though
51Miriam herself never sang, Hannah’s voice was
clear and happy.
Hannah had grown up the very picture of
her mother when in her early girlhood, but
young Tom was like his father. He was like
his father in more respects than one, and while
still a boy the people said he too will prove a
sailor. They were right; though Miriam had
struggled against it and watched over him with
an absorbing care. She saw again developed
in him the same wild fascination for the sea.
She knew its strength and that it must prevail,
and when he came and begged so hard, with
the well remembered far-off look in his eyes,
she felt all opposition would be vain.
She did not reproach herself that she had
lived upon the coast and played with him upon
the beach, for something in her heart told her
that it could have been no different, even had
she raised him up in another place where the
sound of the sea would not have been always
in his ears. She recognized in this fatal love
the heritage he had received from his father.
The thought that it could be eradicated, that
he would ever be satisfied with any thing else
she knew to be hopeless, and so the widow had
given up, and he had gone at fourteen to seek
his fortune, like his father before him, a sailor
on the high seas.
52Now, ten years later, and two-and-twenty
years since poor Jacob had started on his fateful
cruise, young Tom was ready for his fourth
voyage. He had climbed unaided several steps
up the ladder in his calling, and the Nereid,
waiting down in the harbor would carry him in
a few hours, her first mate, out upon her long two
years’ absence. It was a great lift to him, for,
besides his promotion, Luke Denin, who this time
commanded the ship, had been his early friend.
There was but little difference in their age. They
had been boys together, and together they had
explored the shore for miles and fished for days,
and they had rambled the hills and the woods
over; so, as young Tom said, it would be just
as good for him as if he commanded the
Nereid himself.
When he told his mother this she had only
patted him on the head, and said in a choked
voice,—“My little sailor boy!”
The widow Aber, ever since her son took to
following the sea, had been gradually breaking.
From that time her health, heretofore always
strong and robust, began perceptibly to decline.
The people noticed it, but then she told them
that she was getting old—how could they expect
a woman well up into the sixties to be as
active as a girl, and besides this she had the
rheumatism. So she was constantly excusing
53her feebleness with anxious care, as if she feared
they might attribute it to some other cause
than age.
This evening she was even weaker than
usual, though she did not acknowledge it, but
sitting at the supper table her hands trembled
so badly that the cups and saucers rattled a
little as she served the tea. Miriam, whose life
had been one constant struggle, was struggling
still. No wonder the widow was proud of her
son, her only son. Her gray eyes, beautiful as
in her youth, would wander to him again and
again, and rest upon his face with a strange,
yearning expression, but whenever he turned
to her she would drop them quickly and move
a little nervously in her chair, striving to conceal,
as she had done so many years ago, the
burden of grief that lay at her heart.
It was a pleasant party to look at, for Luke
Denin too was there, and the young people
carefully avoided any allusion to the separation
before them. Tom, always gay and happy, was
more than handsome in his sailor’s dress, with
the bronze of the tropical sun upon his face.
And Luke, if he was not so tall by half a head,
and if his hair, instead of being black and crisp
with waves, was light and straight, had at least
as honest and frank a pair of deep blue eyes as
Hannah cared to see—not that Hannah looked
54at them, for she looked only at her plate, and
once in a while anxiously at her mother. Young
Tom was evidently determined that this last
meal at home should not be a sorrowful one, as
he kept up the conversation in his liveliest
mood. He told wonderful tales in such an
absurd vein of exaggeration, that sometimes it
even called up a smile on the widow’s face;
and when the meal was over he picked her up
playfully in his strong arms and carried her out
upon the porch. There together they all watched
the moonlight gradually show itself out of
the dissolving day, in long paths across the
water. Then the hour came to say good-bye.
It was a desperate battle for Miriam, as she
clung to her son in that parting moment. Then
it was, for the first time, that something in her
face went to the man’s inmost heart like a chill.
She was old and frail, and his absence would be
long, perhaps he might never look upon her
again. In his wild fascination for the sea, was
he not sacrificing her? The anguish of the
thought overcame him. Had it been possible
then he would have given up this voyage and
staid at home, but it was too late now, and
when he had turned for a moment, and with a
strong effort fought his grief under control, he
said gently,—
“No, no! Do not be so distressed, mother!
55It is all for the best; and when I come back
this time, mother, I will never leave you any
more.”
But Miriam, thinking of that other parting
so long ago, remembered that Jacob, too, had
said when he came back he would never leave
her any more, and with a half suppressed cry
she clasped her hands tighter about his neck.
“O, my son, you will come back! Only
promise me you will come back, and I can wait
patiently and long!”
There was a wild energy in her voice that
frightened him, as she went on hurriedly with
an accent he had never heard till then,—
“Once before, with this same dread at my
heart, I parted two-and-twenty years ago, but
I let him go without saying a word. I waited
patiently. I even sang and tried to be happy.
As the time went by I laughed as I thought
how pleased he would be when he saw how his
children had grown. I tied about your waist a
sash of his favorite color, that he had brought
me from the distant Indies, and I kept
every thing in readiness for—what? They
came and told me that he had gone down at
sea—No, no; do not interrupt me. I let him
go without saying a word. I must speak this
time!”
She paused for a moment as if waiting until
56her excitement had calmed, and with her trembling
hand put back the hair from his forehead,
then went on unsteadily in a tone but little
louder than a whisper,—
“You have the same dreamy far-off look in
your eyes. I know you must go my child, I
know you can not resist—but when your
father left he said it would be only for a little
while, and I—I have waited two-and-twenty
years.”
There was another moment of silence, as
though her thoughts had gone back over that
long, long watch, then, in a wavering voice,
she went on once more, calling him again unconsciously
by the name she had used when he
was a little child,—
“Tommy, Tommy! my boy, my only boy! if
you—if the cruel sea—O, I can not say it, I
can not bear it! You will come back, you must
come back to me!”
A wild terror had crept into her face, then
she broke down completely.
“There, forgive me, Tommy, forgive me! I
did not used to be so foolish. Do not mind me.
I am getting old and feeble, Tommy—I am not
strong any more, but—I can wait again—”
“Why, mother, there is no danger. Look,”
he said, drawing his arm close about her, “how
peaceful is the sea! After you, mother, I love
57it better than any thing else in the whole world.
It has always been gentle to me—you need not
fear, I will surely come back, surely—if—if
you can only wait.”
Tom’s voice had grown thick and choked, as
he added the last words, and when Miriam,
anxious to atone for her past weakness, said
quickly,—
“Yes, yes, Tommy, I can wait—” he made
her repeat it. Then rallying himself he went
on gaily,—
“Why, I will come back, mother, I will come
back so grand and rich that you shall be three
times as proud of me, you shall, indeed! And
I will take care of you always then. But,
mother,” he said, the choking sensation coming
again in his throat,—“promise that you will not
worry about me while I am gone, or I shall
never be happy, not even in any of the beautiful
lands I will see—won’t you promise me,
mother? Promise me that you will wait
patiently, promise me that—that you will not
give up—”
“Yes, yes, Tommy, if you will only come
back, I can wait again—I can even wait a long
while.”
“It will not be so very long! why the time
will slip by, and almost before you know it you
will find me standing beside you here again,
58when I mean you to be so proud of me that it
will well nigh turn my head.”
“Ah, Tommy, you know I am proud of you
now, so proud of you, that sometimes it fairly
frightens me, and I dare not think of it.”
“Heaven knows,” he said, all the gay sound
dying from his voice, as, stricken with remorse,
he remembered the many times he had left her
with no thought beyond the parting moment,
“I’m not much to be proud of, but, mother—”
taking up her thin hand and passing it over his
face, once more driven to the last extremity to
command his voice—“you and Nan are all I
have on earth to care for me, and out in midocean,
or in the far-off foreign ports, your love,
like a constant prayer to keep me from harm, will
be with me always. When I am at home once
more I am going to be a good boy to you,
mother. Nothing, not even the sea, shall ever
part us again.”
“You have always been a good boy to me,
Tommy—I only thought—I was afraid that—O
never mind, I can wait for you, Tommy. I
do not feel so nervous now.”
“There, that is right! We will meet again,
mother, and then we will be very, very happy.”
He kissed her yearningly, reverentially. It
seemed as if he stood awed before the heart
that for a moment had disclosed itself in its
59most silent depths, and in that moment there
had been revealed to him, with all its overwhelming
strength, that divine love which is
mightier than life. It seemed as if now, for the
first time, and almost blinded by the revelation,
he saw—his mother.
After a little silence, taking her face between
his hands, he said, gently,—
“Mother, I want to see you smile once more
before I go.”
“I will wait for you, Tommy,” she said
again.
“And I will surely come back.”
When Miriam looked up there was a faint
smile struggling through her tears, as there had
been once before, two-and-twenty years in the
past. Then he was gone.
Down by the gate Hannah stood, trying to
hide in the shadow of the great honeysuckle
the new shy beauty on her face that had been
called there by the kiss of warmer lips than the
gentle sea-breeze.
“Good-bye, Nan,” said Tom, unsuspiciously,
throwing his arms about her in his rough brotherly
embrace,—“why how you are trembling!
You are not going to cry? Don’t, I can’t
stand it!”
“No, no,” came uncertainly in a helpless
voice, evidently, in her wild conflict of emotion,
60not knowing exactly what she was going
to do.
“There, that’s right! Don’t cry, or I’ll—I’ll
break down too!” said Tom, hoarsely, fairly
strangling in his throat, and almost worn out by
the strain he had undergone.
Hannah, surprised, raised her face, but Tom
had already got the better of himself. “How
your eyes shine to-night, Nan; I did not know
how pretty you were before!” Down went her
head again immediately, and changing his voice
he said, with a sigh,—“Nannie, there ain’t many
fellows that have as good a mother and sister
as mine; you won’t forget me while I’m gone,
or get tired waiting? I’ve been a worthless,
roving chap; I’ve never been of much comfort
to you or mother, but when I come back next
time, I’m going to stay at home a while. Look
up now and tell me you are glad.”
“O, Tom, I am! You don’t know how glad
I am, if it was only for mother’s sake.”
Then, turning his head away to hide the
anguish that had come over his face, he asked,
slowly, trying rather ineffectually to keep his
voice natural,—“You don’t think, Nan, any
thing will happen to her while I am gone?”
“What do you mean?” said Hannah, struck
by the awe in his tone.
“I mean,” he said, unwilling to trouble his
61sister by the thought that had so oppressed
him, and speaking gaily again: “I mean that
you must be a good girl, and keep up mother’s
spirits, but don’t get so used to my absence,
that neither of you will care when I come
back.”
“O, Tom!”
“Come out into the moonlight where I can
see you. I’m dreadfully proud of you, Nan,
because you don’t take on like other girls.
You see I couldn’t have stood it!” said Tom,
in a frightfully uncertain state of mind, as to
whether it was possible to swallow the lump
in his throat. “I’m going now. Be good to
mother, you know she’s—she’s not very
strong—Have you told Captain Denin good-bye?”
“No, she hasn’t. Not yet. I thought I’d
let you do it first; but you’ll tell me good-bye
now, until I come back never to say it again,
won’t you, Nanine?” said Luke, coming up in
his most masterly way, right under Tom’s very
nose, and almost hiding his sister from view in
an embrace that this time was neither rough
nor brotherly.
“Whew!” gasped Tom, as Hannah came in
sight again, with no friendly honeysuckle near
to conceal the carnation bloom upon her cheeks.
“Is that the way the wind blows! I’ve been
62as blind as a bat. Kiss me, quick, both of you,
or I’m a gone case!”
“I’ll do nothing of the sort. Sit down on
the stone there, and recover yourself. You’ve
said your good-bye, now just wait for me!” said
the superior officer triumphantly. And Tom,
spent, exhausted, sank down; but the next instant
Hannah had her arms tight about his
neck, and was hiding her face against the crisp
waves of his black hair.
“Tom, dear, you ain’t sorry?”
“No, Nan, I couldn’t have wished for any
thing better; but it was so sudden, it just kind
of knocked the wind out of my sails for a minute.”
Then, after a pause,—“I say, there’ll
be a grand glorification when the Nereid comes
back, won’t there?”
“Yes.”
“I—I wish it was back now! I don’t
know what’s upset me so—There, kiss her,
Luke, and let’s be off, quick, or I’ll disgrace
myself outright, before I know it!” and Tom,
gulping down great quantities of air with all
his might, got up from the stone hurriedly, as
if he meditated making a sudden bolt.
But he did not. He stood there quietly looking
out at sea; and when, a moment after, the
young captain, taking his arm, said, “Come,
now I am ready,” he started as from a dream.
63Turning to his sister, with every trace of his
rollicking manner lost, he said, as though he
had not spoken of her before,—
“You must take good care of mother—poor
mother. Do not let her grieve while I am gone.
Oh, Hannah, you will be very careful of her,
and not allow any thing—not allow her to get
tired, and tell her always, while she waits, that
when I am with her again, I will never leave
her.”
Then they had passed through the gate and
were going rapidly down the narrow foot-path
to the bottom of the hill. Hannah strained her
eyes after them, and when at the turn of the
road both brother and lover were lost to view,
still she lingered at the spot pondering over
Tom’s unwonted emotion. It was not like him.
Never before had she seen him so singularly
affected, and now that he was gone, it came
back to her with redoubled intensity. The
unusual sorrow that had almost choked him,
the strange tone in his voice that he had tried
vainly to conceal, the sudden wish that the
Nereid was back even now, his repeated charges
about their mother, all troubled her.
An uneasy feeling of dread oppressed her,
she knew not why. The heavy perfume of the
honeysuckle suddenly make her sick and faint.
The tall and prickly cedar stood up straight
64and still, covered on one side with a fret-work
of silver, on the other clothed with the very
gloom of darkness, and somewhere from among
its shadowy branches a dove, as if half wakened
out of a dream, stirred, uttered its brooding
note, then sank again to silence. Hannah had
heard the same dove a hundred times before,
she even knew that there were purple ripples
on its neck, but this time she started violently
and shivered. It seemed as if the summer
night had suddenly grown cold and chilled her
to the heart, and with hurried steps she ran
back to the house.
The porch was deserted and strangely lonesome
when she passed across. Even the crimson
bloom, with its thousand crowns, looked
black through the shade, as if it had withered
in the hour, and she heard its leaves make a
weird rustle, like a complaint, as she closed the
door. The sense of desolation was so strong
upon her that she could hardly keep from crying
out in the solitude, but she went on swiftly
to her mother’s room, and entered with noiseless
feet. A great sigh of relief came to her
lips when she saw the peaceful face upon the
pillow, for Miriam, overcome by the reaction,
already slept calmly as a child. Hannah sat
down beside the bed. There was a smile upon
her mother’s lips. How long she sat there,
65whether one hour, or two hours, she did not
know, but when she got up all the tumult in
her heart had subsided.
She kissed the sleeping face gently and went
quietly up stairs to her own room. She threw
the shutters open wide, and lo! out upon
the sea with her wings spread, white as the
plumage of a gull, the Nereid! Lonely, spirit-like,
beyond the reach of voice, she stood upon
the mighty desert of the ocean. Before her
prow the waves held out their wreath of down,
and above, solitary in the vast moonlit sky,
hung the royal planet Jupiter. Steady, radiant,
it burned like the magic Star in the East.
Hannah, watching, saw the ship fade away in
the far-off endless isles of silver mist. A great
peace had come to her soul, and when she lay
down to sleep there was no trouble on her face.
Gone, the Nereid was gone, but still, even in
her dreams, she knew that the star in the sky
was shining.
Slowly the days came and went. Miriam, yet
a little feebler, was bright and happy. Never,
since that night when she said good-bye, had
she murmured or uttered a word of complaint.
Every thing at the cottage glided smoothly on;
for Hannah attended to the house, and waited
upon her mother with an untiring care, but
even while she went about performing her different
66duties her eyes, unconsciously, would
wander off to sea. Often in the afternoon,
when the widow nodded in the great rocking
chair by the window, she would slip away
down to the beach, and sit there by the hour.
Those were pleasant days to Hannah. Then
the sea, clear and calm, rounded out, a great
circle of splendor, to the horizon; or on its
surface the giant mists reared themselves,
triumphant, in towering arches. Perhaps her
thoughts went out beyond these mighty phantom
aisles, seeking always the two loved ones
across their portals, over the vast and solemn
ocean. Sometimes when the sky was warm
and the wind blew shoreward it seemed to
bring faintly the scent of foreign flowers; for
nearer now to her were those mystical lands
where Summer, almighty Summer, sat upon an
everlasting throne.
Hannah knew every vessel that sailed into
port; and sometimes a boat, returning, had
spoken the Nereid at sea, sometimes at
long intervals a letter came. Then when for
weeks, for months it might be, there was no
word, no sign, the royal planet, moving in its
eternal orbit, hung again in the sky, a star of
promise. To Hannah, as she watched it night
after night above the sea, it came as a messenger
bearing glad tidings of great joy.
67So the time waned. The peaceful days
passed by and fierce storms broke with a savage
roar upon the coast. The green upon the hill-sides
faded out, and the freezing spray encrusted
the cliff with ice where the wintry sea threw
up its bitter brine—and sometimes, farther off
upon the shelving beach, it threw up more than
brine, or stiffened weed. Broken spars, dreary
fragments of wrecks drifted in, told of the wild
desolation out upon the hoarse wilderness of
beaten waves.
But even those days too passed, and the
Spring clothed the land again with emerald.
More than a year had worn away since the
Nereid had faded out of the horizon, and presently
another Fall set in.
For five months no word had come from the
absent wanderers. Still Miriam made not the
least complaint. Even when the storms lashed
the sea, until it sent up a roar that made the
young girl shiver, the widow evinced no anxiety.
Had she not promised that she would wait
patiently? She talked very little, and generally
sat quietly by the window from morning till
evening. But Hannah, saying nothing, had
grown heavy-hearted with the long silence.
It was November, a dull, dreary day in November.
Heavy clouds stretched themselves in
a somber, leaden sky, that near the water
68gathered dark and frowning. The gray sea,
cold and hoarse, uttered eternally its hollow
roar. But for this it seemed as if a mighty
silence would have brooded over earth and
ocean, a silence vast and dreadful as the grave.
Dead white, the hungry surf crawled sullenly
up the sand. Leagues away the fishing smacks
all headed to shore, and the gulls were flying
landward, when Hannah looking out, counted a
new sail in the harbor.
Any word to break this long heart-sick
watch?
Quick she had her hat, and glancing at her
mother sleeping tranquilly in the great chair,
she ran out, without shawl or wrapping, and
started down the hill. Once at the bottom she
slackened her pace a little to gain breath. A
fine drizzle already blew through the air, and
the waters running in upon the smooth beach
did not rumble with a great noise as at the foot
of the cliff, but washed, washed, keeping up
endlessly a weary lamentation. The damp
settled on her hair in minute globules, and enveloped
all her clothing in its clammy embrace,
but she did not heed the weather. She never
looked out once at the desolate, rainy sea, she
hardly heard its solemn moan. Hurrying, hurrying,
she went on swiftly with the one idea
absorbing every power. Rapidly, half-running,
69half-walking, she never paused until she reached
the slippery wharf.
A group of sailors parted to let her pass. So
eager was she that she did not hear the sudden
exclamations, or see the look of pity that had
come upon more than one rough sunburnt face
when she made her appearance; for living all
her life in the same quiet village many of the
sailors knew Hannah by sight, many by her
gentle manner and kind words, and many a
sailor’s wife had to thank her as a guardian
angel when sickness and poverty had come upon
them unawares. She, flurried, her heart throbbing
with expectation, saw only it was the good
ship Bonibird that had come to port. Stephen,
old Steve, belonged to it now! She remembered
him well. Often when she was a child
had he given her curious shells, and once he
had brought her, in a little bowl filled with seawater,
a tiny, live fish that glittered all over
with beautiful colors. Oh yes, she remembered
him well! Surprised and pleased she turned to
look for him among the groups of sailors, but
the old man was already at her side.
Stained and weather-beaten old Steve stood
there with his cap off, shifting uneasily from one
foot to the other, and when with an exclamation
of joy Hannah held out her hand, he took it
eagerly between his rough palms.
70“God bless you! God bless you!” broke from
his lips in a thick utterance; then he dropped
her hand nervously, and drawing his breath
hard passed his sleeve hurriedly across his face.
“I’m glad to see you back, Stephen,” she
said. “You’ve been gone a long time.”
“Yes, you beant so tall then.”
“Is there any news from the Nereid?” she
asked eagerly, hardly noticing his last reply.
The old man seemed fairly to break out in a
violent perspiration. He moved again uneasily
on his feet and, turning his head from her, mopped
his face once more hurriedly with his sleeve.
“I’m——I’m feared thar be a storm comin’
up, Miss. Those clouds over the water do look
ugly, and the gulls be all flyin’ land’ard.”
“Never mind, I’m not afraid of the storm!”
she said, impatiently.
“Why you be all wet now, standin’ out in
this nasty drizzle.”
“No, no, I don’t care! I want to know if
you heard any thing from the Nereid. Why
don’t you tell me?” an alarm gathering quickly
in her voice as the first sickening suspicion
came over her. “O Stephen,” she said, with a
terrified cry that fairly frightened the man,
“you have, and there is something wrong! O
the Nereid—the Nereid is not lost! Say it is
not lost!”
71She had caught the man’s arm in her wild
excitement, and clung to him trembling like a
leaf from head to foot.
“Why, no, no!” he said, scared by the girl’s
dreadful agitation; “the Nereid be all right,
she be all right! I didn’t think of sich an idee
comin’ to you, or I’d a said afore she be all
right. Thar beant nothin’ the matter with her,
nothin’, I was aboard o’ her myself—I’m
afeard it’ll make you sick, Miss, a standin’ here
in the drizzle like this, an’ with nothin’ to keep
off the wet,”—trying to appear as if he had
settled the trouble, but all the time keeping his
face turned carefully from her.
In the first instant of relief Hannah had let
go of his arm and put her hands to her head
without one word, so intense had been the
strain; then, looking up suddenly, and drawing
a quick breath, she faced round to him.
“Stephen, is this the truth that you have told
me? You are not deceiving me? Is there
nothing the matter?”
“Lord, no, Miss, it beant no lie,” but the old
sailor hesitated painfully while she looked at
him, worked his hands nervously about his neck,
put them irresolutely to his pockets once or
twice, till unable to stand it any longer, he suddenly
made an end to his indecision by jerking
out a letter, at the same time muttering some
72half-coherent sentence about how it had been
given to him for her on board the Nereid.
“O, a letter!” she cried, joyfully, breaking
the seal, while her face that had been so
clouded lighted up radiantly.
As she looked up for a second, with a smile
upon her lips, the old sailor became more distressed
in his manner than ever; and when she
unfolded the paper he even put out his hand
once or twice, as if he would have taken it back.
Evidently he could not bear to see her read it
then; he had not thought she would open it
there. Troubled, he looked about, shuffling
again with that uneasy movement on his feet.
If only he could find some means to prevail upon
her first to take it home, and driven to desperation
he turned once more to her, and said in an
appealing voice,—
“I’m feared thar be a bad storm comin’ up,
Miss; the sea it really do look ugly, and may
hap you’d better run home first; thar beant
much time to lose noways.”
But alas! it was too late. Hannah, utterly
oblivious to the old man’s entreaty, was already
eagerly reading down the sheet. Suddenly the
color fled from her face. She appeared dazed
and confused. For an instant she held the
paper in a convulsive grasp, staring at it with a
stony glare. Then she uttered a long, shivering
73sound, and her fingers gradually relaxed their
hold.
In a second the letter was gone. A savage
wind broke loose with a tiger roar from the sea.
The billows, in swift rage and with frightful
tumult, piled up their fierce scrolls in a chaos of
towering surge. Mist and spray and foam
whirled in a blinding froth to the sky.
Old Steve, half-carrying, half-dragging—for
the girl seemed hardly able to take a step unassisted—drew
Hannah back into the one long
low building by the wharf, where most of the
people that were standing about a few moments
before had taken shelter from the storm. Quickly
half a dozen rough hands drew out a small
packing-box and placed it for a seat, and some
one threw a woolen shawl around her shoulders.
She kept her lips closed tight. She looked
at no one, she shivered constantly. The howling
blast swept its brine up the wharf—“Washed
overboard at sea.” The cruel breakers
lifted and struck with thunder-crash—“Washed
overboard at sea.” Bitter cold, the
salt surf leaped and writhed and reached out
with demoniac fury—“Washed overboard at
sea.” Giant waves opened and shut with a
grinding wrath their hungry jaws. Relentless,
appalling, the mighty waters filled earth and
sky with the terror of their strength.
74And Tom, poor Tom, had been washed overboard
at sea!
It was horrible. The awful words rang constantly
in her ears. They repeated themselves
over and over. Where, how—she knew naught,
only the one sentence, with its dreadful import.
After that she had read nothing, and before it
she forgot all. Rocking a little back and forth
on her seat, she sat there pale and dumb. Like
her mother, two-and-twenty years in the past,
she asked no sympathy, she heeded no comment.
The ashen clouds, racing before the wind
like the scud of the sea, drove swiftly down
behind the hills, and the blinding fury of the
storm had spent itself. Drearily the gray sky
let down again its endless drizzle, when Stephen,
his honest voice painfully choked by
emotion, prevailed upon her to go home. At
first looking at him blankly, she seemed hardly
to comprehend what he said, and it was only
when he spoke of her mother that she gave any
heed to his entreaty. Her mother! how could
she tell her the terrible news, her patient, waiting
mother! Old Stephen, many times after,
used to say how in that moment, when she
looked at him, he wished he had been dead
before ever he brought her such a letter.
Shivering, always shivering, she drew the
75shawl tight about her shoulders, and slipped
down off the fishy box without a word. The
old sailor in his anxious care would have followed
too, but she only shook her head, and
without having opened her lips, he saw her go
alone.
The sullen mist hung its reeking folds along
the shore, and the tide, running out, left a wide
dank stretch of yellow slime. Above it, where,
in Summer, the green swords of the sea-wrack
grew, the storm had washed up clammy
masses, heavy with ooze, of the pale and sticky
tangle. Fiercely the treacherous waters had
swept over the shore and covered it with their
bitter dregs; but more fiercely had they surged,
a dreary desolation, over the girl’s young heart.
Upon the bloated girdles, on the wet sand,
in the chilly damp, with the salt spray clinging
to her clothes, she went, and the wild sea,
calming down, mourned again at her feet, like
a sinister mockery of grief, in loud lamentation.
When she went up the narrow foot-path on the
hill, and came to the garden gate, she stopped
a moment, she hardly knew why. It was a
mechanical action with her. She scarcely felt
or thought. Her heart was heavy as a stone.
The branches of the great honeysuckle were
black and bare. She looked at the old rock by
the path now slippery with rain. She looked
76at the tall and prickly cedar drenched with
mist and spray. She looked out at the storm-beaten
sea, then she looked back once more at
the dripping evergreen. The dove in its thorny
spire was gone—the dove with the purple ripples
on its neck. It had never built another
nest. Shivering, shivering, she went on, crossed
the porch, where the arms of the bloomless
rose, weird and gaunt, flung down great heavy
tears at her feet, and, still shivering, she went
into the house and shut the door.
Miriam, used to the tumult of the sea, sat
patiently in the chair by the window, as she
had done so many, many times in the past.
When Hannah came in she looked up with
surprise. The girl would have avoided her,
but Miriam, seeing her so wet became alarmed,
and, rising from her seat, had met Hannah in
the hall before she could escape.
“I thought you were up stairs! What took
you out in such stormy weather? You’re all
wet and shivering with the cold, and—why,
child, your face is as white as a sheet! What
is the matter?”
“Nothing, I—I—was caught in the rain,
and—and got a little damp.” The words came
uncertainly in a deep voice, for Hannah could
hardly trust herself to speak, lest some unguarded
tone should abruptly betray the terrible
77truth. The girl felt as if it was written all over
her, or that she might disclose it in every movement;
but she had turned her back to her
mother, and with trembling hands was hurriedly
shaking out the wet shawl. “I’ll go and
change my clothes. It will not hurt me.”
“Well, do it quickly, and come down to the
fire right away. I’m afraid it will make you
cough.”
Hannah, eager to escape, gathered the shawl
on her arm; but at the foot of the stairs she
stopped and looked back.
“You—you’ve had a nice sleep, mother?”
“Yes, dear, so very sound that I only heard
the wind like a gentle zephyr.”
“And you feel well?”
“Oh yes, better to-day than I have for a
long, long time. I’m going to get stronger
now steadily,” she said, with a smile that, for
a moment, brought into the wan face a strange
beauty, like a gleam of the same radiance that
so far in the past poor Jacob had placed upon
the shrine of his heart.
Hannah, turning her head quickly, almost
overpowered by sudden faintness, went up
stairs, staggered across the room, and sank
down by the window in a silent agony of grief.
She did not sob or cry audibly, her whole being
was one mental wail of despair—her mother!
78her gentle, waiting mother! Fierce unspoken
rebellion had taken possession of the girl’s soul.
To one that had been always as a ministering
spirit to those about her, why had Providence
allotted so cruel a destiny? She, whose life
had been but a long heart-struggle; she, that
had done no evil, that had suffered without a
murmur; she, feeble and bent with years,
marked with the silver brand of sorrow and age;
she, far down the avenue of her days, almost
where the mighty mists of eternity close up
their impenetrable curtains, she must yet be
compelled to go on, to the last, through the
darkness of new trouble! Was there no
mercy, no justice?
Bitterly Hannah looked out, dry-eyed, at the
relentless sea. There was no distant line
against the sky; above, below, drear and empty,
the gray stretched to infinity—not a sail on all
the waters, and the tides were out—aye, the
tides were out for her.
She had never shed a tear. Forgetful of her
wet clothing, she leaned a long time upon the
window-sill, motionless, and the lines in her
young face were hard and strained. Perhaps
the memory of that night came back to her with
its vision of the royal planet that had seemed
a star of promise—a star of promise? A
mockery it had been, a cruel mockery!
79Then Miriam’s voice calling from the foot of
the stairs roused her, and hurriedly she changed
her damp dress, but she could not yet meet
her mother. She lingered about the room.
She fell upon her knees; she tried to pray, but
her heart refused to utter a single petition, and
Miriam had called again and yet again before
Hannah went down.
“Come close to the fire. You were so long
I am afraid it will make you sick.”
“No, mother, I am cold a little, that is all.”
Miriam did not ask again what had taken her
out, and Hannah, shading her eyes with her
hand, sat by the grate trying to prepare herself
for the dreadful duty that awaited her. She
knew her mother must be told, lest it should
come upon her abruptly from the lips of a
stranger with a shock greater than she could
bear. It was a hard struggle for Hannah; the
girl would gladly have borne all the trouble herself,
but that could not be.
Just how she said it she never remembered,
only suddenly she felt calm and strong for the
duty, and with a strange desperation on her
face, slowly, gently as human means could do,
she told the terrible news.
And Miriam?
Sitting in her chair she did not scream, or
moan, or faint. She leaned a little forward with
80her elbow on her knee, and looked at Hannah,
looked at her long and steadily, with a strange
wavering light in her eyes.
“Mother, mother, speak to me!” the girl
cried, frightened at this light in her eyes, terrified
that she said nothing, did nothing.
“Yes, dear, I am better to-day, yesterday I
walked to the garden gate. I will even be
strong enough to go down to the wharf when
the Nereid comes in, and it will be such a glad
surprise for him, such a glad surprise!”
She had leaned back in her chair again, and
her face, like a revelation, was radiant once
more almost with the lost beauty of her girlhood.
Hannah, dropping her head in her hands,
could scarcely speak for the awful beating of
her heart.
“No, no, Mother, you do not understand.
He is—dead. He will—never come—home—”
The same wavering light flickered a second
time in Miriam’s eyes as the girl spoke. She
put up her thin hands for a moment and wearily
stroked the silver hair back from her forehead.
She looked slowly, with a bewildered expression
about the room, then, smiling again, she
said,—
“Home? Yes, the time is nearly up. In
81the Spring, in the early Spring, he shall be
home, home to stay always. I know he will
not disappoint me. I promised to wait patiently,
and I have not complained, have I
Hannah?”
“No, no——”
“And I shall be stronger then, and we must
make the house pleasant for him. It will never
be lonely any more when he is here. Why do
you cry so, Hannah? It is not long to wait for
him now.”
Hannah, trying to smother her choking sobs,
slipped down on the floor with her face covered,
and Miriam talked on and on of the happy
times they would have when “Tommy” came
back in the Spring.
She could be made to comprehend nothing
of the dreadful tidings. He had promised her
he would come back, and her faith never
faltered. But there was a distinct change in
her from that day. The quiet, reserved manner
that had been with her always a marked characteristic,
seldom volunteering a sentence to a
stranger, was gone. She talked incessantly of
her son. She would tell every person she met
how much stronger she was getting, and how
she meant to go and meet him at the wharf
when the Nereid came in.
So months went by, and Miriam did get
82stronger every day. She had not been so well
in years, not since long ago when poor Tom
had first taken to following the sea. Bright
and happy she seemed from morning till night,
only Hannah noticed that sometimes when
speaking most earnestly she would stop suddenly
for a moment, and look at her in a bewildered
way, with that same wavering light
flickering up in her eyes.
All the villagers knew the sorrowful story of
the Widow Aber’s waiting so trustfully for
“Tommy,” her sailor son that could never come
back, and they were good to Hannah that
Winter. The girl had not cast her bread upon
the waters in vain. When she found herself
weak and faint a dozen hands were ready with
some kind office, and there was little left for
her to do about the house. Those bitter
months as they waxed and waned were one
long, mute agony, but the girl did not break
down under the terrible strain. Trouble does
not kill the young; thin and pale she grew, but
strong in her youth, stronger in her love, for
Miriam’s sake, and with something of Miriam’s
early nature, she kept her grief crushed within
her heart. She seldom went out of the house
now. She staid always with her mother, as if
fearful to leave her for an hour; and those who
went to the house from the village, told how
83dreadful it was to see her sitting quietly, even
sometimes forcing a smile to her trembling lips
when the widow would say,—
“Do not look so sad, Hannah. I am strong and
well, are you not glad? He said he liked to
see me smile, and he must find us bright and
cheerful when he comes in the Spring.”
The Spring! Hannah hardly dared to think
what might happen then. Every day, as she
watched her mother, the dread upon her grew
stronger. She would have held back the coming
of the Nereid, the beautiful Nereid, that
now, with its white wings, might return only
as the angel of death to Miriam. She would
understand it all then, and the shock, the dreadful
shock! It was the terror of this that haunted
Hannah day and night.
The last winter month had gone by, and the
chilly winds of March were whistling along the
coast, when, one morning, old Steve came hurriedly
up the hill to the house. He brought
the news that Hannah had so long dreaded.
The Nereid was even then heading round the
cliff. She had asked him to let her know in
time, that she might keep it from her mother, at
least till after the boat had landed. But while
he was in the very act of telling, he stopped
suddenly, and a look of fright came over his
face. Hannah turned to find the cause, and
84saw her mother standing in the open doorway.
She had overheard it all. The girl’s heart sank
in her breast like a stone.
Vainly she endeavored to dissuade her from
going to the wharf, but Miriam, radiant as a
child in her joy, nervous in her pitiful haste,
paid no heed to her remonstrances, that it was
cold, that it was too far, that she would go in
her place, until Hannah, driven to desperation,
told her mother again of the dreadful disaster,
and how poor Tom could not be there to meet
her. Then the widow stayed her trembling
hands for a moment in their flurried effort to
tie her bonnet, and looked at Hannah, looked
at her long and steadily, as she had done before,
with the same strange gaze in her eyes. It always
seemed as if she was dimly conscious, for the
instant, that something was wrong, but even as
the shadow flitted over her face, it was gone.
“Come,” she said, her countenance all brilliant
with eager excitement, “hurry, we must
not be late. I feel young and strong, and it
will be such a glad surprise for him!”
Hannah, powerless to keep Miriam back,
gave up the endeavor, and went on, with a
mortal agony in her heart, beside the frail
woman who, in all faith, was going to welcome
home her son—her son out upon the silent sea
of eternity, where even a mother’s voice could
85never reach. No wonder the girl’s grief made
her dumb. Was there no escape? She heard
the waters running in, it seemed to her for a
thousand leagues, sounding their dreadful dirge.
At that moment gladly would she have lain
down forever in the same boundless grave with
father and brother, where the waves, slow and
sad, were playing for them this requiem on
every shore of every land. But Miriam, in the
extremity of her haste, never stopping, went on
steadily over the wet ground, bending, sometimes
almost staggering, before the raw March
wind that swept in fierce gusts from the still
frozen north.
A sudden hush fell upon all the people at the
wharf as they came down. With her gray hair
blown about in strands, her eyes fever-bright,
and her breath coming quick and short, paying
no heed to any one, the widow Aber glided
silently among them, like an apparition. Unconscious
of every thing but the ship, even then in
the mouth of the harbor, she stood, her face so
thin and worn, all quivering with excitement,
and her pale lips moving constantly with some
inarticulate sound. Once or twice she stretched
out her trembling hands toward the vessel,
then, gathering her shawl, held them tight
against her breast, as if she would keep down
the throbbing of her heart. Frail and shadowy,
86she seemed hardly human, as she waited, with
her garments fluttering in the bitter wind, with
her very soul reaching, struggling, looking
out eagerly in her gray eyes.
Slowly the ship sailed up the harbor, slowly
it reached the dock, and after almost two years’
wandering, the Nereid rested once more in her
native waters. As the boat touched the wharf,
Hannah had taken her mother’s arm, perhaps
that she might hold her back, but Miriam made
no effort to move. The girl could feel her
trembling, trembling, but she only put up her
hand unsteadily and brushed the hair away
from her face.
Too well Hannah knew poor Tom would not
be there, and, as through a mist, she saw the
sailors swing themselves down. In the dreadful
trouble that had come upon her, she had
almost forgotten Luke. During all these weeks
of anguish she had thought only of her mother,
but this morning the strain had been too severe.
She had given up the battle, and now waited
stonily; she would have waited on all day,
when Miriam, suddenly breaking loose from
her, in a voice half stifled by a wild delight,
cried,—
“O, Tommy, my boy, my only boy!”
It was Luke that stood beside her, whom she
had strangely mistaken for her son. She would
87have fallen to the ground had he not caught her
in his arms. Unable to speak for a moment, she
clung to him trembling violently. Clasping
her hands tight about his neck, she closed her
eyes, and, with a quivering sigh, laid her head
against his shoulder. Hannah, looking at Luke
quickly, made a gesture that kept him silent,
then Miriam, without moving, said, brokenly,—
“I have waited for you, Tommy. It was
such a long, long time, but I knew you would
come—”
She paused, while a slight struggle in her
breath escaped, like a sob, from her lips, then
went on once more still in an unsteady tone,—
“I am so glad, so glad! I am well and strong,
Tommy. I feel a little tired now, but I am
well and strong. You will never leave me,
never leave me any more—”
There was another feeble struggle in her
throat; then when she spoke again, her voice,
growing fainter at every effort, seemed to come
from some far-off distance, drifting in to them
as from the desert spaces of an illimitable sea.
“Do not let me go. It is cold, and the wind—Hark!
Listen, oh listen how sweet and
soft the waters wash! Hold me close, Tommy.
I am weary. Why, it is Summer! Look! see
the land, the foreign land! Stay, Tommy, I
am tired—so tired—”
88Her head had drooped back heavily on the
man’s arm, but her lips still moved, and suddenly
her face lighted up with a radiant smile.
“Nearer,—come nearer—How bright the
sunlight shines upon your face! Tommy, my
boy—my sailor boy—”
So, on that bleak March morning when the
Nereid came in, Miriam had indeed gone to
meet her son, her sailor son, on that far, far off
foreign shore that is girdled by the mightier
ocean of eternity.
89
REINHART, THE GERMAN.
Poor Reinhart! He certainly was a
brilliant fellow. Even the German
Professors overlooked his English
origin, and felt proud of him. Probably they
argued that if he was born in Yorkshire, it was
not his fault. And, besides, as the name showed,
his family, no matter where they had since
strayed, must have been, at some period of the
past, true children of the Fatherland.
As far as he was concerned, he seemed to
have very little attachment for his native
country. Indeed, he never evinced very much
of an attachment for any place or any body.
We had been together the greater part of ten
years. He possessed a singular influence over
me. I hardly know what I would not have
done for Reinhart. But he was in disposition
90not the least demonstrative; and whether he
ever saw any attraction in me, I can not tell.
I simply imagined so, because time wore away
without drifting us apart.
A profound interest in metaphysics absorbed
his whole being; and through this channel he
had crept into the good graces of the college
authorities. During his long study upon this
subject, he had woven about himself all the
labyrinthine meshes of the subtile German
philosophy. Though only a tutor of twenty-five,
the doctors of metaphysics touched their
hats to him; all the students bowed before
him; and I—I felt sorry for him.
Why? I can hardly tell. But he had grown
thin and pale and nervous within the last year;
and I could not help wishing that all Germany
was as ignorant of psychology as in the days
when the Suabians danced their dryad dances
upon the very spot where now the great University
lifted up its towers—this great University
whose walls were built not of stone from
the quarry, but of the labors of many lives,
some of whose proudest pinnacles, reaching
into a light of dazzling splendor, had been
reared only by the everlasting sacrifice of reason.
A vague idea had floated into my mind, but
so very terrible it was that I had never dared
acknowledge its existence even to myself;
91nevertheless, it oppressed me constantly. Finally,
it grew into such a burden that I could
bear it no longer, and so made up my mind to
do what little I could to relieve myself at any
rate. A plan occurred to me whereby I might
accomplish my chief design, which was to draw
him away from this study that was consuming
him; to draw him away from his myriad theories
into life. But before I had said a word, while
I was still meditating how it could best be done,
Reinhart settled the trouble himself.
I never was more astonished or more pleased
than when he proposed the very thing I had
been trying to broach, that the two of us should
spend the next six months in traveling. What
had suggested it to him, or what his reasons
were, I never asked. Had he any suspicions
of this strange fancy that I would not admit to
myself, and yet had been vainly striving to drive
from my mind? Since then I have sometimes
thought so, and sometimes thought not. To
the proposition I consented eagerly, and did my
best in hastening all the arrangements; therefore
no time was lost before we found ourselves
en route for the south of Europe.
As I have said, Reinhart was not in the least
demonstrative. Very likely his natural reserve
had been greatly increased by his sedentary
life. But I noticed, early in our trip, that he
92seemed laboring to throw off his abstracted
manner. I felt encouraged, notwithstanding I
knew it was an effort to him, and determined,
not only that he should see something of the
world, but, what would be of much more
benefit, that he should see something of society.
In the beautiful Italian scenery my own
spirits rose perceptibly. The great load which
had been burdening me lessened and finally
raised itself altogether, as I saw this shadow of
the German University that had been resting
on my companion break. But I know now I
was mistaken. It was only the battalion preparing
for action; the marshalling of the forces
before the conflict.
It had been almost a month since we left
Germany. Many of the English and American
gentlemen residing in Florence had shown us
not only attention but hospitality. One thing
I noticed quickly that Reinhart cared almost
nothing for the society of ladies. He endured
it; never sought it. The most beautiful faces
he would pass without any notice, or with
merely an indifferent glance. I was sorry for
this, because here was a channel, I had thought,
wherein might be turned the current of his
existence.
With this subject still uppermost in my mind,
I determined one morning I would bring my
93sounding-line into play, if it were only on account
of my own satisfaction. We were sitting
upon the deep sill of the open window, smoking
our cigars and enjoying the utter tranquillity
of the southern day, when I asked, indifferently,
as if the question had been wholly unpremeditated,—
“Reinhart, were you ever in love?”
He looked up quickly, waited a moment, as
though at first he had not exactly understood,
then answered,—
“No.”
Now, I knew very well he never had been;
for, as I have said, the last ten years we had
spent together; but at present I was bent upon
the intent of discovering what probability there
was that such a catastrophe could ever be
brought about; so I said again,—
“Reinhart, do you think you ever will be in
love?”
I expected a repetition of my former answer,
but, to my surprise, without any hesitation, he
replied,—
“Yes.”
“Indeed!” I gasped, with my breath almost
gone,—“and when may it come to pass?”
Looking up, I dropped the tone of raillery
I had been using immediately, for I saw it
was a serious matter to him; and overcome
94by astonishment, I subsided into complete
silence.
The perfume of roses came in on the breeze,
and a scarlet-cloaked flower-girl carrying her
wares, the only person on the street, turned
out of sight. A small bird, with red plumes in
its wings, lighted nearly within reach, upon the
tree, and broke into song, but, checking the
strain almost in the first note, it flew away, settling,
a mere speck, upon the northern spire of
the Cathedral. Then Reinhart said, as though
there had been no pause in the conversation,—
“I do not know; it may never come in this
life.”
I looked at him, thoroughly puzzled, almost
frightened. Then, thinking perhaps I had not
heard aright, said,—“What?” But, without
heeding my interrogation, he continued,—
“Perhaps it never will come in this life.”
Yes, I had heard aright. Possibly we were
each talking of different things; and as a last
resource, I said,—
“Perhaps what will never come in this
life?”
“Why, love,” he replied, making a slight
gesture of impatience, as though I had been
unpardonably dull.
“But,” I persisted, determined to understand,
“then it will never be at all, for they
95neither marry nor are given in marriage in the
next world.”
“No,” he repeated, “they ‘neither marry nor
are given in marriage.’” He said the words over
slowly but mechanically, exactly as if he might
have said, or thought, the same words over a
hundred times before.
That he believed in the immortality of the
soul, I quite well knew, for it was the one
shoot of his English education, which, springing
in early boyhood, had survived, like a foreign
plant, amid all the German sophisms. I did
not like the strange aspect of his face, and,
somewhat ill at ease, I said,—
“Then, what do you mean?” I waited a
moment for the answer.
“I can hardly tell you. I have always had
a theory of my own—no, not a theory, a belief.
I have never undertaken to express it in
language, and do not know whether I can
render myself intelligible. I think every soul
has somewhere in the universe an affinity—I
am obliged to use the word for lack of a better
one—and I believe that before complete happiness
can be attained the two are merged into
one. It is not marriage: that is purely earthly.
These affinities may possibly meet in this life,
though it is hardly probable; but in the ages
to come it will occur just as certainly as there
96is an eternity. Mind, I do not call it marriage.
It is the fusing together of two souls, a masculine
and feminine, just as they combine chemicals,
producing a new substance. I believe, as
I said, these two souls may sometimes meet in
this life; but it is a destiny that comes to few
in centuries, and those few should kneel in
everlasting gratitude before their Creator.”
When Reinhart ceased speaking, I could see
that he had worked himself almost into a fever,
for his eyes were bright and restless, and the
blood surged in waves across his usually colorless
face. With a rough hand, I had struck the
chord whose undecided vibrations had, a month
ago, appalled me. The great burden which
had so oppressed me settled down again heavier
than before. It was not so much what he had
said as the expression of his face that filled me
anew with anxiety. And struggling under this
burden, I made a poor attempt to laugh the
matter off.
“Reinhart, this is some of your German
metaphysics.”
“No; though you are at liberty to call it
what you please; but I have never read such a
theory in any place.”
“Well, it is an absurd idea,” I retorted,
“and sounds exactly like some of your humbug
philosophers, who never believe in any thing
97but fantasies; and I would advise you to let
them alone.”
This was hardly wise on my part. I should
not have allowed myself to express any impatience
when I saw it excited him, and only
augmented what I was striving to allay. The
blood rushed again over his face, but he said
nothing; only, rising from his seat, he walked
several times across the room.
In the silence that followed, a strain of joyful
music broke suddenly upon us. It was the
swell of the Cathedral organ, sounding a prelude
for some wedding. But if the strain was
ever finished, we did not hear it, for the next
moment a crash of terrific discord drowned the
music, shaking the very ground. Some object
flew swiftly past my face, struck the wall and
fell upon the floor. I sprang up and shut the
window quickly. Half the sky was covered
with a black cloud, and from the carpet at my
feet I picked up a dead bird, a small bird with
red plumes in its wings.
The storm passed over in less than half an
hour, leaving the sky perfectly clear again;
but for the remainder of the day I could not
recover my spirits. Whether Reinhart suffered
from a like oppression, I know not; but he
seemed possessed by the very demon of unrest.
He was not still a moment. He had little to
98say; and quite late in the evening proposed a
walk. Without any remark upon the unusual
hour, I acquiesced.
The night was quiet and beautiful, beautiful
even for that southern clime. There was no
moon, and still the sky was filled with a soft
light, brighter than the trembling rays of the
stars alone. I remember it because it was a
peculiar luminous haze, that I had seen only in
Italy, and because, though no clouds swept
over the sky, and the haze never paled until
lost in the crimson glow of morning, that night,
to me, was the blackest night of my life, whose
vision sometimes yet rises before me, even at
noon-day, with appalling reality. Ah! why
were the sky and stars beautiful? O, cruel
sky! O, cruel stars! Was the sorrow on
earth nothing to you, that you gave no warning?
We had walked perhaps two squares, when
Reinhart stopped just as suddenly as if he
might have come in contact with a stone wall,
invisible to me. Alarmed, I said, quickly,
“What is the matter? Are you ill?”
“No,” he replied, still standing motionless.
Then, in a moment, without another word, he
turned and began retracing his steps.
“Are you going home already?” I inquired,
puzzled by his strange conduct.
99“No; I am going to the Cathedral.”
We had just passed the Cathedral, when he
had made no motion to enter; but now I tried
in vain to dissuade him from it. I told him
that there was no service at this hour; that we
might as well not have left home as to go inside
of any house. All to no purpose; he was just
as determined as at first, until finally he turned
fiercely upon me and said, with a strange emphasis
in his tone,—
“I will go; I must go; I feel something
within me that compels me to go!”
Was this again the vibration of that terrible
chord in his nature—that terrible chord that
threatened to destroy forever the harmony of
his life?
Powerless to turn him from his intent,
together we crossed the northern portal and
entered the nave. It was so dim that the
heavy shadows clustered in a rayless cloud
among the arches, and at the end, far off—they
looked like stars in the gloom—flickered
a few tapers at the altar, while higher up
swung the sacred but sickly flame that had
been burning for centuries. There was not a
stir, not a sound. I trembled all over with a
singular sensation of weakness that came upon
me as I followed Reinhart, who went steadily
down the long aisle to where the transepts met,
100then stopped as abruptly as he had stopped a
few moments before in the street.
It was, as I have said, just where the transepts
met. There, upon a low platform or dais,
stood a bier covered by a velvet pall, whose
heavy border fell in waveless folds. And upon
it rested a casket with silver mountings. Beside
it two tapers burned, one at the head and one
at the foot; and two monks kneeled, motionless.
Beyond the choir I saw the gleam of the
organ-pipes, wavering, come and go. The altar
lights circled about each other, and they, too,
receded in infinite space; they grew dim; they
vanished; they sprang again; they fled again.
The great tombs loomed out and faded; the
figure on an ebon crucifix, inspired with life,
writhed in fearful agony, then once more
became transfixed, and the weak, trembling
sensation under which I had been laboring
was gone.
I saw that we were standing by the dead of
some noble family, for the repose of whose soul
the monks were offering up their prayers. I
drew a little nearer. Upon the snow-like cushions
within the casket a young girl lay sleeping
the last deep and solemn sleep. Or was it a
vision?—one of that mystical land, whose
white portals are beyond the sun; that land
where there is no shadow, no stain; where
101there is beauty celestial, peace everlasting?
No, it was all the future we ever see; it was
still this side the gates of eternity; it was death.
A chaplet of flowers crowned her brow, all
colorless as marble, and garlands of flowers
wreathed her robe, that was purer than fleece;
but her hands held no lilies, no jasmine; more
sacred than these, they held a small golden
crucifix, an emblem imperishable, holy. The
burning tapers threw not over the face, turned
slightly toward the altar, that beautiful dream-light;
it was the last inscription written by the
spirit, even after it had seen down the radiant
vista of immortal happiness.
Ah! why offer prayers for a soul beyond the
troubled sea, beyond the dread valley? O,
frail humanity! Even then beside the pall,
where rested the solemn silence no voice could
break, stood one for whom the kneeling monks
might have told a thousand aves.
Reinhart raised his face suddenly. Straightening
himself, he extended his arm with a wild
gesture, uttering a laugh that grated clear up
to the dome.
“Did I not tell you?” he cried. “Did I not
feel the mysterious summons that brought me
to this spot? Do you see her? It is she! It
is her soul and mine that will abide together
through all eternity.”
102The startled monks rose to their feet. The
great arches of the Cathedral threw back his
voice in terrible groans. Quick as thought I
sprang toward him, but was hurled off with the
ease of a giant. He stooped for a moment and
put one hand to his head, as if a sudden faintness
might have swept over him; but he did
not touch the casket. Then, dropping on one
knee beside it, he raised his face and said softly,
so softly that the last word seemed to come to
us from a great distance,—
“O, beautiful soul, part of my spirit, I will
not keep you waiting!”
We gathered around and raised him up. It
needed no force now; and when they laid him
down again, with a great throbbing in my breast,
I folded his hands. He had taken his life.
O, Germany! like this fair day you lured a
bird high up into your sunshine, a bird with
brilliant plumes in its wings; then, before it
had sung one song from the pinnacle where it
rested, blackening suddenly into a storm, you
killed it. Reinhart, poor Reinhart! you lured
high up into the fantastic light of psychology;
then before he had reared one minaret upon the
temple where he climbed, you darkened suddenly
into a gigantic gloom that, rising up like
a storm, overwhelmed him.
Yes, better had it been for Reinhart were the
Suabians still dancing their dryad dances.
103
SILVER ISLET.
In Lake Superior, near its northern shore,
a mere speck of land, scarcely two
hundred feet square, barely shows
itself above the water. This is Silver Islet,
and on it sinks the shaft of the richest silver
mine in the world. Covering almost its entire
dimensions, stand two buildings. One, a low
frame house, encloses the mouth of the mine,
and the other, immediately adjacent, a small
wooden structure, forms the watch-tower.
Through this tower, every evening, the miners,
when dismissed for the day, are compelled
to pass out one by one, and submit themselves
to an examination, where their clothes
are thoroughly searched, that none of the precious
metal may be carried away secreted upon
the person. So extreme is the vigilance employed
104that visitors are never allowed, except
by special permit, and though isolated upon the
waters, the place is kept by day and night under
this strict martial surveillance.
To the north, about a quarter of a mile distant,
is another island, perhaps six or eight
acres in extent. It is high and rocky, and in
one place reaches up more than a hundred feet.
Here, built upon its sloping side, is the little
settlement that could count up altogether, it
might be, thirty houses. Here the miners live
with their families. Here, too, every thing that
pertains to the business of the place carries
itself on; and here it was that father had
brought me to stay.
I was about eighteen years old then. I do
not know how father happened to receive the
position of assistant overseer at the mine. I
never knew very much about father. Indeed I
had hardly seen him more than half a dozen
times in my life, until that day he came to take
me from the farm. I could not remember my
mother, who died in my infancy, and brother or
sister I had none. Father was a morose, unsociable
man by nature, and I think he cared but
very little for me. I had been left at my
uncle’s to grow up, and so, as I said, about him
I knew almost nothing.
Uncle George lived on a poverty-stricken
105farm upon the flattest of prairies. I hardly
know how I did grow up there, it was such a
wretched, miserable place. Although I had
never experienced any thing different, it was so
forlorn an existence, that I chafed inwardly
against it every hour. I possessed a kind of
dumb consciousness that surely, surely I must
be made for something better than this. I saw
nothing of the world, nothing of humanity outside
of my uncle’s family, and the two or three
rough farm hands that he occasionally employed.
I would rather have had the cattle, the
poor half-starved cattle, for companions than
these. They were none of them kind to me.
I know not whether father ever paid any thing
for my board; but I know I worked far harder
than any hired servant. I did not rebel outwardly,
but I was constantly unhappy. Was I
to live on all my days in this hopeless, miserable
way? Was there never to be any thing better?
Looking out of the window, I thought of the
great, busy world, and the far-off, unknown
cities; but before my eyes there was only a
dead level of the hateful yellow prairie, and
above, the colorless sky stretched itself out in a
gigantic, measureless blank.
From this life it was that father came, without
word or warning, and took me. I know now
that he only wanted me with him as a convenience,
106but then I was wild with delight. In
my great craving for human sympathy I would
have loved father with all my heart, had he
given me any encouragement. I did love him
for this one good deed. I knew not where he
was taking me, but I was sure it could be no
worse place. With an intense joy I went up
and surveyed, for the last time, the miserable
little room where I had vainly cried so many
hot tears over my weary existence. I stayed
my steps a moment beside the one window, a
little window facing westward. From here I
had seen the only beauty that ever came before
my passionate eyes flame up with a splendor, as
of gold, along the sky when the sun went down.
A thousand times my yearning heart had
watched the short-lived glory fade, like a mockery,
into the dreary blank. From here, too,
year by year, with a rank rebellion in my soul,
I had looked out at the shadowless prairie that
lay over all the earth, a great, glaring, uncovered,
yellow blister.
So it was with nothing but glad emotion that
I stood upon the spot consciously for the last
time. I had a keen, absorbing love of the
beautiful, a hunger insatiable, that unfed was
sapping my life. This wretched existence had
almost killed me; but for the change I believe
that my longing spirit, like my mother’s in the
107far past, would have broken its wings. Now
there was an avenue of escape suddenly opened
up before me—of escape from the dreadful monotony,
from the intolerable agony of everlasting
sameness that, by day and night, recurring
forever, had made up the tiresome years as they
passed. My whole being was turned to my
father with one inspiration of gratitude.
Had I known any thing of Pythagoras then,
almost I could have believed in the transmigration
of souls, or that my spirit had passed
into some different body, so utterly strange and
new I felt at Silver Islet. Here father had
rented a little house that stood apart from the
rest, upon the very highest point. The whole
settlement was grouped within the least possible
compass, and considerable of the island,
small as it was, still remained in its original
condition. There were no trees immediately
about our house, but to the right, and running
thinly all the way down on the other side to the
water, a few straggling pines clung, with their
rope-like roots, to the rocks. It was no trouble
to me to keep house for only one. I got the
breakfast and supper, and every morning put
up a dinner for father, which he took with him
to the mine. So all day I was left wholly to
myself.
As I said, so strange and new I felt it seemed
108to me for a while as if I had lost my own
identity. Here, for the first time in my life,
there lay before my eyes a vast expanse of
glittering waves—the mighty mystery of
far-reaching waters! Rolling, moving, changing,
remaining for endless ages, attracting, terrifying—only
the mightier mystery of eternity
can fathom the hidden secret of this unceasing
problem. A hush fell upon my fluttering spirits,
a hush of profound awe before this symbol, this
vision of the unknown infinite. At last the cry
of my soul for food was silenced, the dreadful
hunger of my heart, that through all my life I
could not allay, was pacified.
At dawn I saw the timid light creep up along
the east and wait and brighten, until it set an
emblazoned standard in the sky, and below, far
out, covered with the pomp of the rising sun,
the distant billows clashed their blood-red
shields. At noon, I saw the mid-day radiance,
falling through the air in torrents of splendor,
float far and near, changing into gorgeous
mosaics upon the sea. At night I saw the long
line of mighty cliffs upon the silent Canadian
shore reach out their giant shadow through the
dusk of evening that, slowly, softly, gathered
into a twilight sweeter than the luminous haze
of a dream.
I had no one to care for me, no friend, no
109lover, but I needed none now. I was happy,
happy as in a new and glorious world. I forgot
the dreadful prairie, dry and parched—the
vast, staring, level of land that for so many
years had oppressed me by its terrible, never
ending monotony. I even forgot the thousand
times I had longed and longed to see a great
city, to live among its busy throng.
It was November, and presently the wind,
keen and cold, swept down, like the wind from
the Arctic zone. Mad, pitiless, the boundless
waters piled themselves in towering billows.
They leaped and menaced. They broke over
Silver Islet with a frightful roar and drenched
it with their freezing spray. They danced about
it in savage fury. They beat against it continually,
and the howling gale, swift and strong,
dashed the foam in blinding sheets. Already
the long, fierce winter of the North was rapidly
setting in.
Great layers of ice formed and broke, and
ground up and formed again, until December,
still and frigid, locked us within the impenetrable
barriers of a vast, frozen sea. To the east,
to the west, to the south, an illimitable wilderness
of snow, the mighty Superior for miles lay
wrapped in a silence profound as the grave.
To the north, shrouded in their eternal solitude,
cold, white and spectral, the cliffs upon the long
110Canadian shore held up their stony battlement,
sheeted in ice, as in a pall. Utterly devoid of
warmth, the sunlight blazed with a brilliance
indescribable through an atmosphere that,
clearer than crystal, glittered as with the scintillations
of feldspar. But the nights—the nights
swinging in their long winter arc, were illuminated
by a glory more gorgeous than the
unreal splendor wrought in the loom of dreams.
The stars, myriads upon myriads, studded the
whole heaven with drops of intense light, and
the planets, magnified through the vast laboratory
of the air, showed great balls of molten
silver against a vault of jet. Sometimes when
the night was at its blackest, suddenly there
shot up, flaming from the white battlements of
the Canadian shore, a thousand lances. Like
the parade of an army, like the marshalling of
far-reaching cohorts, the mighty processions
swept the semicircle of the sky. They rose and
fell. They wavered like the spears of troops in
battle. Then the vast battalions, closing together,
ran up in a towering shaft to the zenith.
A river of ice-cold fire, it divided the heaven.
It overflowed and spread out in a sea of gorgeous
color that receded, wave upon wave,
until it burned, a deep blue flame upon the
frozen crown of the Canadian cliffs. I have
watched this aurora in its changeful mood a
111hundred times. I have watched the illimitable
fields of snow beneath, while the reflected light
played upon them in weird rays, far out to the
remote horizon.
During the Winter, unused to the severe climate,
I rarely left the house. So far as was
possible, I held myself aloof from the people,
the people, that, as I said, were only the rough
families of miners. Ignorant and uneducated,
painfully ignorant and uneducated I was myself,
still I could not associate with such as
these. I did not grow tired, but yet I was glad
when the long, frozen months had passed by.
As the late Spring opened, Winter even then
did not yield its supremacy without a fierce
contest, but in the contest—the savage storms
from the north—the ice broke. The huge cakes,
drifting about, slowly, gradually, wore themselves
away, and the wind dropped its javelins
of frost.
Late it was in June before the last vestige
was gone of the bitter cold that had held us in
its frigid clasp for more than two-thirds of a
year. Then there opened for me an unfailing
source of enjoyment. I learned to row, and
father allowed me to buy a small boat. It was
almost the only favor I ever asked of him, and
how much have I to be thankful for that he did
not deny me! Though slight of figure, my
112muscles were strong, and after awhile, with constant
practice, I could row twenty miles in a
day without exhaustion, and every day now, and
all the day, I spent my time upon the water.
The Summer, beautiful to me beyond description,
was like a perpetual Spring. In my little
boat, alone, I explored the shore far and near.
I rowed to the very ledges of those cliffs that I
had watched all Winter long lifting themselves,
like a huge, jagged spine, against the sky. A
thousand, sometimes twelve hundred feet, they
reached up, gray and naked, a sheer, barren
wall of rock from the water. With the cold
waves forever at their feet, gloomy, silent, they
stood in their drear majesty, and the chilly fog
wrapped them round with the folds of its
clammy garb. Only in the most beautiful
weather did this fog lift from about them its
clinging skirts, and slowly the damp mists trailed
themselves off in long white plumes of down.
At such times, floating idly in my skiff, I felt
oppressed by the vast burden of their dreadful
silence. I believe there is no greater solitude
than that which sometimes at noon, when sea
and sky are unwrinkled by wave or cloud, sits
upon this mighty shore of desolate, desert rock.
Yet here, where this profound silence broods,
upon these tawny bastions of stone, occasionally
fierce thunder storms play, and the waters
113in wild tumult dash against their base with a
noise like the roar of heavy artillery.
So the weeks slipped by, and it was in the
early part of October that first I saw a change
had come over father. As I have said, he was
by nature a reserved, unsociable, even morose
man. He was never communicative, and to
me sometimes spoke hardly two dozen words in
a day. I had grown used to this, and felt that
I had nothing to complain about, as he laid no
restrictions upon me in any respect. But now
I could not help noticing a decided alteration,
both in his looks and manner. Constitutionally
a thin man, his face appeared thinner to
me than ever. So exceedingly pale and worn
was he, that I do not know that I had ever
seen a more haggard countenance. His eyes,
which were very light in color and deep-set in
his head, had an unnatural brightness, a strange
expression I can hardly describe, a peculiar,
watching wakefulness. His manner was restless
and uneasy in the extreme, and he spoke
even less frequently than usual. He staid out
much later than had been his ordinary habit,
often not coming home until early in the morning;
and several times I heard him with a slow step
walk back and forth, back and forth, over the
floor of his room all night.
As I have said, I knew nothing of his duties,
114nor did I know any thing of the miners. When
first I noticed the change upon father, I thought
he was over fatigued perhaps, then I became
alarmed lest he was ill. Little as he cared for
me, he was the only human being on earth upon
whom I had the slightest claim, and I would
have done any thing for him. I could not bear
to see him look so badly. He had never manifested
any thing towards me but utter indifference,
and so strangely reserved was he that I,
in my great dread that he might be harsh some
time, had hardly ever volunteered a single
sentence to him. I was troubled, and did not
know what to do. That night at supper I said,
gently,—
“Father, do you feel well?”
At first he did not appear to hear, and I repeated
my question, then he turned his pale
eyes upon me suddenly with a quick, startled
look in them that frightened me,—
“What?”
“I asked if you felt well,” I said again,
embarrassed by his strange manner. “You look
so badly lately I thought maybe there was
something the matter.”
He did not speak at all for a moment, but sat
there staring at me wildly. Catching his
breath slightly, he looked all round the room
and brought his eyes, his pale eyes, with an
115angry gleam in them now, back to my face,
then said, fiercely,—
“See here, don’t you meddle in my matters!
I am able to take care of myself.”
“Oh, father, I only thought—”
“Do you hear me?” he said, savagely.
“Mind your own business. There is nothing the
matter with me. If you can’t do any thing
better than interfere in my affairs, you can go
back. See that you don’t do it again, or—”
He broke off abruptly, and I, my heart throbbing
as if it might break, got up and went into
my own room. I had not interfered in his
affairs. I had done nothing wrong, said nothing
to call up such an outburst of passion, and
his dreadful anger had terrified me. I went
to the window to try and calm myself. I put
up the sash and leaned out.
The twilight had almost dissolved itself in
night, a night so soft and gentle that the very
waters, wooed from their troubled toil, ceased
their long complaint and slept. The pine trees,
slim and black, whispered to each other in their
mysterious language with peaceful cadence,
telling, perhaps, of the time when they would
shed their countless needles. In the west, shining
like a harvest sickle, hung the yellow crescent
of the new October moon. Trying to still
the throbbing in my veins, I watched it grow
116and change and deepen as it sank, until above
the water it poised, a great Moorish sword of
blood-red fire, and a long line of vermilion light
ran out upon the quiet sea. Then suddenly it
was blotted in darkness.
The figure of a man obstructed my range of
vision.
Instantly the dreadful throbbing in my heart
leaped up again. I drew back noiselessly from
the window. The man, only a few feet distant—I
could almost have put out my hand
and touched him—stopped, hesitated irresolutely
for a moment, turned about as if to see
that no one watched him, then with stealthy
step went across the open space and began to
climb, catching from tree to tree, down the
precipitous rocks towards the lake. Once or
twice I heard a stone loosen from beneath his
feet, and presently I heard the plash of oars in
the water, then it died out, and straining my
ears I could detect no sound but the quiet,
mysterious whisperings of the pines. I laid my
head upon the window-sill sick and faint. The
figure of the man I had seen was father.
Too well I knew now that he was neither
tired, nor ill. Why should he have crept down
so stealthily over these wild, almost perpendicular
rocks to the lake? Why not have gone
by the ordinary path through the settlement?
117Ah, why? Something was wrong—but what?
I turned cold and dizzy. I would not, I dared
not think.
I tried vainly to sleep that night. Haunted
by a thousand forebodings, I could not even
close my eyes, and it was almost day-break
when I heard father come in quietly and go to
his room.
I never referred again to his ill looks, nor did
he, but somehow I could not help thinking
that from this time he watched me a little suspiciously.
I felt hurt that he imagined I would
play the spy upon his actions. Whatever he
might do, whatever he might say, he was still
my father, and I could not give him up. It was
dreadful, those days that followed. It seemed
like living upon the verge of a precipice, or
that some unseen calamity hung above my head
ready to fall at any moment and crush me.
One evening, just after I had lighted the lamp
and put it on the supper table, I went, as was
my usual habit, to draw down the blinds.
Father had not yet come home. As I crossed
his room I saw through the window a man
standing close beside it on the outside, so close
that I could not have seen him more distinctly
had he been within reach of my touch. His
arms were folded across his chest, and his head
dropped a little in the attitude of one waiting.
118His figure was large and thick-set, almost that
of a giant. As I looked he took off his cap and
passed his hand over his short-cut, bristly hair,
and in the action I saw his face,—a coarse,
heavy, brutish face, that made me shudder. I
noticed that the window sash was down and
bolted, and I did not go near to touch the blind.
I went back with an uneasy feeling into the
dining-room.
A few moments afterward father came in.
He took up the light hurriedly, saying some
thing about wanting it for a moment, and carried
it into his room and shut the door. I
heard him walking about in there, opening and
closing drawers, and after a little I thought I
heard a sound as if he were raising the window-sash
gently. Then he came out. He looked at
me sharply for a moment, and remarked that he
had been hunting for a key. Strange! He was
not in the habit of accounting for his actions.
After he got up from the table he did not leave
the house again, but went to bed almost immediately.
In the morning when I put up his dinner and
handed it to him as usual, he said,—
“You need not get any supper for me to-night.
I have office work to do at the mine and
will not be back.”
I was surprised. He had frequently not
119come home to the evening meal, but never before
had he thought it worth his while to give
me notice. I stood looking after him as he
went out of the gate, when suddenly an idea
flashed into my head that made my heart sink
in my breast like a stone. I do not know why
it should have come to me then so suddenly,
with such strong conviction. Quickly I turned
and ran into father’s room. I looked about. I
opened the drawers. Yes—the most of his
clothing was gone! It was as I thought. He
did not mean to come back at all—Deserted!
The dreadful word choked up my throat. I
knew nothing of father’s actions, I knew
not what he had done, but I would gladly have
gone with him, have stood disgrace with him
even, if that were necessary. I am sure I can
not tell why I clung to him with such desperation.
Though I was ignorant and inexperienced,
I was also young and strong, and I was not
afraid I would fail to make my living alone in
the world. But kneeling upon the floor I laid
my head upon the foot of the bedstead, and
heavy, suffocating sobs came to my lips. Probably
I would never see him again, and if he did
not love me, at least, except that one time, he
had not been harsh to me, and he was my
father.
At first I thought I would follow him; I
120would go to the mine and see if he might not
still be there. Then I knew that to make inquiries
about him would probably only increase
the danger that threatened, whatever that
danger might be, and though it was justice pursuing
him for some crime, I would have shielded
him still. I was powerless. I could do nothing
to recall him; I could do nothing but wait.
Wandering about with only the one thought in
my mind, after awhile the house became positively
intolerable. I must do something at
least to keep myself employed, or I should
absolutely go wild. My head ached unbearably,
and I had a compressed feeling across my
chest.
I took my heavy, scarlet cloak and threw it
over my arm. I do not know why I should
have taken this one, for I wore it generally only
in the bitter cold of midwinter. With a strange
feeling of dread when any one looked at me, I
went down hurriedly through the settlement to
the wharf. I got into my boat and pushed off.
On the water I could breathe better.
I rowed, rowed, rowed, steadily, steadily,
taking note of nothing. My only relief lay in
violent exercise. How many miles up the
shore I went I do not know, but it was farther
than I had ever reached before, and when I
drew in my oars to rest, like a mighty conflagration,
121the red embers of the sun-set’s fire
were dying down along the sky.
In this region of the lake, from a quarter to
two miles from shore, at wide intervals isolated
rocks rise up out of the water, or mere points of
land covered with a thick growth of underbrush
show themselves, so small they look
from a distance like a floating fleck of green
that the waves could drift about at pleasure.
The gulls rest upon them undisturbed by man
or beast. Lonely, a thousand times more lonely,
these islands make it seem than a clear, open
stretch of water. A few of them, perhaps, are
fifteen or twenty feet in extent. On a dark
night it would have been dangerous to row here.
I felt weak and tired. The lake stretched
itself out, quiet and peaceful as a painted ocean.
Not a ripple disturbed the tranquil surface that
mirrored the sky like a glass. I drew my cloak
over me and lay down in my boat. I cared not
when I got back, the later the better, for I still
clung to a forlorn hope, that perhaps in the
morning father would return. I was not afraid,
for the moon had reached its full and would be
up even as the last halo of the departing day
was fading from the west. Out of the water I
saw it come. An enormous globe of maroon
fire, it sat upon the horizon and stained the lake
with its magenta rays. Fatigued and exhausted,
122I think I must have slept, for when next I
looked, bright and yellow, it was swung high up
in the sky, shedding through the air a splendor
like pearl.
I felt glad I had brought my cloak, for it was
cold, very cold, and I would have been almost
numb without it. I knew by the position of
the moon that it must be somewhere near
eleven o’clock. I sat up, shivered a little, drew
my wrap closer about me and reached out one
hand for the oars—when suddenly, midway in
the action, I held it suspended, motionless!
Sometimes there is nothing so startling as the
sound of a human voice. I heard two men
talking. For an instant I was paralyzed. My
boat lay close beside one of these little knolls
of land I have described. I could have put out
my arm and touched the rank sword-grass that
grew along its border. I did catch hold of it and
noiselessly drew my skiff nearer, into a kind of
curve, so that, though I was on the bright side,
the overhanging brambles threw me into shadow,
and another skiff, passing by, would hardly have
detected me, when instantly I found that the
men were not on the water. A cold terror
crept over me. They were distant scarcely
three yards. I could not see them, but I could
almost feel the underbrush crackling beneath
their feet. They evidently, though, had no
123knowledge of my presence, and I, not daring to
stir, fairly held my breath. They seemed to be
removing something from the ground and transferring
it to their boat which, as I supposed, lay
upon the other side. I could hear them lift and
carry, what, I did not know. It sounded sometimes
like stones falling with a partially muffled
thud when they put them down. One of the
men in a rough voice said, with a loud, harsh
laugh, evidently resting for a moment,—
“This repays for lots o’ trouble! That was
a neat slip we gave ’em all to-night. By ——
I’m glad to be quit o’ the place! Its ——”
“Be quiet can’t you!”
My heart, at a single bound, leaped into my
mouth. In these few words, spoken low and
stern, I instantly recognized the voice. It was
father’s. The other man did not reply, but
muttered a half intelligible curse. They were
both in the boat now, for I heard the plash of
their oars. Presently father said, in a sharp,
quick tone,—
“Take care! Sit down, sit down I tell you!”
Again the man muttered something between
his shut teeth. The next moment they came
round into the light and passed me, pulling hard.
Then I recognized the thick-set, burly figure
that I had seen last night. He was in the stern
of the boat, and I saw his face again, the same
124repulsive face, but with a sullen scowl upon the
brutish features.
They were heavily loaded and rowed slowly.
They had got well past me when I heard father
say something; what, I did not understand; but
the man, dropping his oars, turned his head and
replied, savagely,—
“Look’e yer! You’ve did nothin’ but boss,
an’ boss, an’ I’m tired o’ it! This yer’s as
much mine as yourn, and by —— I’d jes as lief
make it all mine!”
Quick as the movement of a cat he changed
his position, facing round to father. Quicker
still, he stooped and caught up something in his
hand that by the glint of the moonlight explained
their heavy load, and all the mystery
which had been hanging over father’s actions.
It was a rough, jagged piece of silver ore. He
raised his powerful arm and struck father with
it on the head. He struck him two or three
times. I screamed. There was a dreadful
struggle, and at the same second that I saw the
gleam of father’s pistol I heard its report. The
man raised up his huge figure for an instant,
wavered, and fell back heavily with a cry like a
wounded tiger. The boat, without capsizing,
tilted beneath the shock, filled with water, and
went down like a stone.
I absolutely do not know how I pushed out
125from my hiding-place, but with two or three
swift strokes I was on the spot. For an instant
there was most frightful silence. I can see the
waves widening their circle yet. Then, right at
my boat’s head, father came to the surface. I
was made strong by the energy of desperation.
With a wild, straining reach I leaned over and
caught him by the arm, and with the other
hand I rowed backward towards the knoll. I
would have capsized and gone down rather than
have let go my grasp. I was within a skiff’s
length of the little island when just at my side
I saw the huge form of the miner come up.
He struggled and made one mighty effort to
catch hold of my boat. No more terrible can
the faces of the damned look than this face that
glared up at me from the water. It has haunted
me waking and sleeping. God forgive me, I
could do nothing else! I struck him with the
flat side of my oar. Evidently weakened by
loss of blood, exhausted and nearly gone, he fell
back and sank almost instantly from sight.
I worked round to a place where there was
only grass growing, and catching by it drew
close to its border. I could never have lifted
father up but that he was sensible and could
help himself somewhat. I got him on the
ground, and from the ground into my boat.
Then he fainted.
126His head was terribly wounded. I knew I
had no time to waste. I was afraid he would
die in the coming hours before I could reach assistance.
I rubbed his hands. I loosened and
took off some of his wet clothing. I folded my
cloak over him carefully and seized the oars.
Inspired by my strange burden with a strength
superhuman, my boat shot swiftly almost as if it
had been propelled by steam. But the east
was already brightening again with Indian
colors when I reached the wharf at last, at last!
They raised him softly and carried him up to
the house. I paid no attention to their thousand
questions. I do not know what I said—I said
it was an accident.
In the weeks of his long fever and delirium,
I watched over him day and night. He did not
die. He came back to life. How many times
I had wondered would he be kind, would he be
gentle to me now? Ah, poor father! He was
never harsh to any one after that.
When the people came and spoke to him, he
would laugh a gentle, meaningless laugh, and
sometimes, holding to me tight, he would point
to a button or color on their dress and say,—
“Pretty, pretty!”
He grew well and strong again, but it had
shattered his mind forever.
How he had avoided the officers at the tower
127in carrying away the precious metal which he
had secreted from time to time, I do not know,
but they suspected nothing. I held utter
silence about the incident, and if the people did
connect the missing miner with his mysterious
“accident,” what was there to do? They
pitied me that he was simple. Shall I say it?
Perhaps it was better so. A strange, new joy
came to me, as every day I saw the pale eyes,
innocent now as those of a child, follow me
about with a grateful look. He was easily
managed, and he seemed to cling to me with
an affection that would atone for the long blank
in the past.
I waited until the bitter Winter had gone by,
and the first steamer came in the Summer.
What would become of us in the big, untried
city? I had my youth, I had my health.
I stood upon the deck of the great vessel and
saw this mere speck of land recede in the distance.
Father, standing by my side, touched
my arm, and holding out his open hand, said,—
“Pretty, pretty!”
There was a shell in it clean and white, and
he looked up at me and smiled.
Yes, better so, it was better so!
He had gone there a man, strong and wicked.
By the strange mysteries of Providence, he
came from it a child, weak and innocent, with
128a soul white as the shell which for the moment
he cherished in his simple delight.
When next I raised my eyes, only the cold
waters of Lake Superior washed the horizon,
and Silver Islet had vanished from my sight
forever.
129
BOYDELL, THE STROLLER.
He was a strolling player. During the
month of February, 1868, I was at
Chicago, gathering up a theatrical
troupe to do the provinces. I found no difficulty
in getting my general utility people,
but still lacked a “first old man.” Every person
wanted leading business—that was exactly
the trouble. When I was in the midst of my
perplexity, I stumbled across Carey, whom I
knew to be out of a job, and offered him the
position.
Now I felt that this act was a real charity,
for I knew poor Carey had never received such
a chance in all his theatrical days—years, I
should say; for he was well on the shady side
of forty. I was amazed, dumb-founded, when
Carey refused it, absolutely, positively refused
130it,—Carey? What could explain this astounding
fact? There was an odd twinkle in his
eye, and presently the truth leaked out. He
had just married a pretty, young girl, and—and—well,
he had promised to quit the stage;
that was the whole of it. But Carey suited
me exactly, and I did not give up. I told
him it was all nonsense; his wife would be glad
enough for him to accept the position. Carey
evidently began to waver; the old love for his
profession threatened to out-weigh that other
love which had crept into his heart. However,
it was finally determined that I should call
upon his wife and submit the matter to her
decision.
I found her really young and really pretty,
but, also, really in earnest. Carey could not
go, that was certain; at the very first mention
of the subject, she burst into tears. There was
nothing left for me except to retreat, which I
did with many apologies.
Then, to soften my despair, Carey told me
he knew of a person, one Boydell, whom he
thought would be glad to fill the position. A
few days after, Carey brought him up and gave
me an introduction. A tall man he was, six
feet-one or two, with a fine presence, heightened
by a peculiar dignity of manner and voice.
There was dramatic power stamped upon his
131English face, with its square, massive jaw, firm
mouth, and deep-set eyes. I had no idea of
Boydell’s age. I could not have guessed it by
fifteen years one way or the other. He was one
of those singular individuals who might be
twenty-five, thirty-five, or fifty. There were a
few wrinkles about his bronzed features, but
they were surely not the wrinkles of time. His
thick, brown hair was combed straight back,
and hung down behind his ears. His dress
was what might be called the shabby-genteel.
Black from head to foot, nothing in it was new,
and one would almost think nothing ever had
been new. The garments had apparently existed
in just their present condition of wear
from time immemorial. The coat was shiny
across the back, and a trifle small too, as though
it had originally been cut for a man of less
length both in body and arms. On his feet he
wore queer, English shoes, with broad spreading
soles, and the extra space at the toes turned
up after the fashion of a rocker. A silk hat,
bell-crowned, with curved rim, such as we see in
pictures of Beau Brummel, was set well back
upon his head.
But, notwithstanding these peculiarities,
there was something in his bearing that gave
Boydell the appearance of a finished gentleman,
and his fine address added to the impression he
132created of eminent respectability. He accepted
the position, and our business was speedily accomplished.
I requested him to call on the
following day, when I would be able to make
the final arrangements for our departure, and
he left with a dignified bow.
Gathering together a company of actors and
actresses from nowhere in particular, and attempting
to form them into something like an
organized troupe, is not by any means the most
encouraging work with which one might employ
himself. Again and again my patience was
exhausted, and again and again I resolved to
persevere. Several times we had almost been
ready for action, when somebody would “back
out,” and throw us once more into confusion.
Now, however, I determined to surmount every
difficulty, no matter what, so that the next train
might bear us en route for the West.
In the midst of the morning’s turmoil, Boydell
made his appearance. I informed him of
our arrangements, inquired where he kept his
baggage, and told him I would send for it immediately.
“That will be unnecessary, as I have it with
me. This, Sir, is my baggage.”
While Boydell spoke, he put his hand back
into his coat-tail pocket and quietly drew out a
scratch wig. I looked at his face to find something
133which might belie the dignified voice, but
there was not even the shadow of a smile breaking
up its gravity. His countenance was as
composed when he returned the wig to his
pocket as though he had just shown to my
admiring gaze a complete wardrobe of great
magnificence. Indeed, I was so impressed by
his aristocratic manner, that the ludicrous aspect
of the interview hardly presented itself to
me until it was over.
But I had no time to be amused, and, with
the annoying trials that would turn up where I
least expected them, no inclination. When I
sent round for the luggage I found that two of
the boys had “shoved up their trunks at their
uncle’s,” and, as it was the last moment, I was
compelled to redeem them. Then I hired a
carriage, and went to conduct the soubrette, to
the depot. When I arrived in front of the
house, Madame, la mere, came out and informed
me that her daughter could not go, would not
go, unless I gave them fifteen dollars to get her
front teeth away from the dentist’s! What
could we do without a soubrette? With a groan
I handed over the fifteen dollars.
Playing in the smaller towns along our route,
we cleared our traveling expenses, and got into
pretty good working order.
When we arrived at St. Joseph we gathered
134up all our strength, and came out in full glory
as “The New York Star Company.” There we
played for three weeks to crowded audiences.
On “salary days” the money was forthcoming,
a rare occurrence with strolling actors, and of
course we were all greatly delighted.
Under such circumstances our spirits ran high,
and each one began to tell of the particular
rôles in which he or she had, in days gone by,
electrified an audience and won applause. Boydell
caught the infection. It happened that we
had been running plays in which the “first old
man” was, at best, only a “stick” part, and
Boydell fretted considerably at his ill-luck.
One night he came into the green-room, and
to his inexpressible joy found himself cast for
the part of “Colonel Damas” in Bulwer’s
comedy of the “Lady of Lyons.” Now this
was his pet rôle, and at the intelligence he
felt all his dramatic genius kindle into a fresh
flame.
“Boys,” he said, straightening up his dignified
form, “Boys, you will see me make a great
hit to-night. The passage commencing, ‘The
man who sets his heart upon a woman is a chameleon,
and doth feed on air,’ has never been to
my mind rightly given.”
Many of us had seen him do pretty well
before, but now we looked forward to such an
135effort as the stage in St. Joseph had never
witnessed.
The next evening I repaired to the theater
half an hour earlier than usual, but found Boydell
already dressed for the play. His shabby
black coat looked more eminently respectable
than ever, and was buttoned over smooth white
linen, or what he made answer the purpose of
linen,—half a yard of paper muslin folded into
tucks, and pinned to his paper collar. In his
hand ready for use he held his one valuable—the
scratch wig. It still lacked a few minutes
before he would be called, and he disappeared,
as he said, to “steady his nerves.” Various
winks and knowing looks passed among the
boys; such disappearances on his part at this
time of the evening were by no means rare or
unaccountable.
Boydell came back and went directly on the
stage. The excitement behind the scenes grew,
for, although few of us would admit it, we all
knew Boydell was a born actor, and we clustered
eagerly around the wings in breathless
expectation.
He started out with dramatic gesture,—
“‘The man who sets his heart upon a woman
Is a chameleon, and doth feed on air—
On air—air—’”
Suddenly his voice grew fainter, and his
136sentences incoherent. Those few moments he
had spent in “steadying his nerves” had taken
every line of the text from his memory. He
could barely keep upon his feet and blunder
through his part with thick voice and uncertain
step. He was fully aware of his powerless condition,
and came off with a moody, crestfallen
countenance.
When the curtain finally dropped, as it was
Monday night, they all assembled to receive
their salary. Boydell stood a little apart from
the others, leaning against a flat. One of the
boys came forward and delivering a long, elaborate
speech in the name of all the members,
presented Boydell with a tin snuff-box to hold
his wardrobe—“As a token of their appreciation
of the great ‘hit’ he had made, and the
glory it would reflect upon the troupe.”
That night Boydell, from some unknown
source, had scraped up two shillings.
He could take twice the quantity of liquor
that would intoxicate any other man, and
beyond a redness of the nose and a flushed
glistening appearance about the “gills,” he
manifested no symptom of intemperance. He
had a trick of using his hand as a shield around
the glass and pouring in whisky to the very
brim, so he always got a double drink for one
price. When the boys asked him why he held
137the tumbler in that peculiar manner, “It was
habit,” he said, “merely habit.” I remember
at Lawrence, Kansas, they had unusually small
glasses, and he went into a logical discussion
with the bar-keeper to show the evil of the
thing. It was wrong; it looked mean; it
would ruin his custom. Not that he (Boydell)
cared; it was nothing to him, it was only the
principle he objected to; it appeared penurious.
Boxing, I found, was the one thing—aside
from his acting—upon which Boydell prided
himself. If he heard of a person about the
neighborhood who made any pretentions in this
respect, he would walk miles through rain or
mud to vanquish the “presumptuous fool.” I
could not keep from feeling interested in this
singular man. Reared in the English colleges,
with the polish of the classics upon him, destined
and trained for the British army, he had
given it all up for this worthless, roving, vagabond
life. And yet—although degraded, intemperate,
and often profane—there was still
a natural reserve about Boydell that commanded
respect.
Our expenses had been steadily increasing,
and our finances did not prove equal to the
demand; at least they would not justify a
longer run. We played two weeks at Leavenworth
138City, and disbanded, scattering in all
directions.
I went home to M—— with a feeling of unutterable
relief. My theatrical experience had
brought me to the determination of letting the
stage alone for the present, or trying it in a
different capacity. Devoting my whole time
to a more lucrative business, I heard nothing
about any of the old troupe, and I did not care
to see one of them again, unless it was Boydell.
I had little hope of ever meeting him;
it would be mere chance if I did, and I knew
he might just as likely now be in Europe or
Australia as in this country. But we were
destined once more to come in contact.
M—— was a flat, muddy, thriving little town
in Western Illinois. It had built a theater, and
was a focus for strolling actors and adventurers—a
kind of center, where the remnant of
theatrical troupes that had come to grief straggled
in to recruit. The citizens did not consider
this a very distinguishing characteristic
to boast of, but in reality it was what raised
the place out of oblivion; otherwise its few
thousand inhabitants might, like their neighbors,
have lived for ever in obscurity.
Early last Summer a business engagement
took me to the suburbs of this town. The
atmosphere was clear as crystal and glittering
139with sunshine. The cherries hung dead-ripe
upon the trees; the blackbirds chattered about
them to each other with red-stained bills, and
the cats, stretched lazily in the sunshine, watched
the winged robbers with no charitable feelings.
The leaves, if they were thirsty, complained
but gently, and in the dry and pleasant
fields the grasshoppers, without flagging, held
a jubilee, and from the level pastures farther
off came the sound of distant bells, and sometimes,
close by the roadside, the farmers whetted
their scythes.
Coming towards me a man upon the turnpike
was approaching the town on foot. As we
neared each other, old recollections came back
upon me. Yes, that tall erect figure seemed
familiar—it was Boydell coming into M—— from
parts unknown.
The same coat I had seen do such good
service, only a little shinier now, was buttoned
over the same—no, it was likely another piece
of paper muslin. On his feet were a pair of
shoes, a present undoubtedly, which lacked a
size or more in length; but this trouble had
been remedied by cutting out the counters, and
strapping down his pantaloons to cover his
naked heels. The fact that I knew his high
silk hat, the one of olden times, had lost its
crown, was owing entirely to the elevation I
140gained by being on horseback. Under other
circumstances it would never have been discovered,
for the edges were trimmed smoothly
round, and Boydell, as I said, was tall.
And so I met him again, the same courtly
vagabond, the same Boydell of former days.
His bearing was majestic, almost regal; his
dress was—a respectable shell. But there
seemed to be a change, too. He did not look
any older, although I noticed a little silver had
sprinkled itself through his thick waving hair
since we had parted, but there was something
about his eyes that did not appear natural,
and a tired, a weary expression sat upon his
face—an expression I had never seen there
before. Perhaps he had walked many miles.
I looked after him as he went on towards the
town, thinking what an unsettled, wild, worthless
life he led, this man with the divine gift of
genius, this vagrant with the clinging air of
gentility. Maybe fate was against him; maybe
he really had higher aspirations; but without
friends, without home, the cold, unsympathetic
world had crushed them; and still watching,
it suddenly entered my head how easily I could
guess the contents of his coat-tail pocket!
Some little time after this meeting, when
Boydell had almost passed out of my mind, a
gentleman called at my office, and during our
141conversation told me about a case of destitution
that had accidentally come to his knowledge.
At first I listened with well-bred indifference,
for the experience I had acquired thoroughly
cured all my philanthropic symptoms with
which I had once been afflicted, but when he
related the circumstances my interest awakened.
A man, a stranger, had stopped at the tavern
on the suburbs of the town and fallen sick. He
had no money, no friends, indeed he had not
even a shirt to his back, and the landlord
threatened to turn him out, utterly helpless as
he was. I suddenly thought of Boydell, and
inquired the man’s name. My friend could not
recall it, but said he represented himself as an
actor; though the landlord did not place much
reliance on this statement, for the fellow had no
wardrobe of any description, and the only thing
in his possession was a scratch wig, which a
black-leg would be as likely to own as an actor.
This dispelled what little doubt had remained in
my mind. It was Boydell, and something must
be done at once for his relief.
Generosity does not prevail in any profession
to a greater extent, especially among the lower
members, than it does in the dramatic. As it
was the hour for rehearsal, we went up to the
theater. We told of Boydell’s condition, and I
related what I knew of his history. One appeal
142was sufficient; the contribution they made up
would at least relieve his present wants.
There, at the tavern, we found him in a
stupor. Neglected, without the barest necessities,
he had had no medical attendance of any
kind. In a room high up under the roof he was
lying across a broken bedstead, on a worn-out
husk mattress, with nothing to shade him from
the fierce, blazing sun or the crawling flies that
kept up a loud, incessant buzz. And he had
been sick eight days. On the floor old Mounse
had crammed himself into the one shady corner.
Old Mounse was a besotted beggar round town
who had arrived at the state where the rims of
his eyelids appeared to be turned inside out and
resembled raw beefsteak. The landlady, who
was somewhat more compassionate than her
worser half, fearing that Boydell might die on
her hands, had sent up old Mounse, an hour ago,
with a little gruel which he had swallowed himself,
and was then peacefully snoring in the
corner.
We sent immediately for a physician, and
employed ourselves in having Boydell removed
to another apartment, where, at least, he might
escape being broiled to death by the sun, or devoured
by flies. When the doctor arrived, we
had him fixed in quite comfortable quarters.
Boydell’s disease, as we feared, was a severe
143form of the typhoid fever. From the lifeless
stupor, he suddenly broke into the wild ravings
of delirium, so that our combined strength could
hardly avail to keep him upon the bed.
We reinstated old Mounse on his watch, only
with strict orders that the granulated eyelids
were to be kept wide open. Old Mounse was
one of those rare persons with the delirium
tremens, who had hovered on the verge of dissolution
for thirty years, and still lived along.
Palsied and feeble, and crippled and unshaven,
and dirty and whiny, he just managed to keep
himself on this side of the grave. The adjective
“old,” which had become a prefix to his name,
could not have been better applied, for his
clothes, too, were ready at any moment to keep
him company and return to their original
element. Old Mounse’s one merit was, he had
become so aged that he could just do what he
was told and nothing more. The case had assumed
altogether a new aspect to him, now that
Boydell seemed to have friends.
Every day the doctor reported the condition
of his patient, which grew more and more unfavorable,
until one morning he came and told
us he thought Boydell had not over twenty-four
hours to live. We went immediately to the
tavern with him. Boydell, for the first time
since his illness, was perfectly conscious. Here,
144in the silence of this barren room, unhallowed
by the presence of sorrowing ones, the wild,
reckless life was drawing to a close. It seemed
as if the specter hands of death were already
stretched out to snap the last binding thread.
The face on the pillow, haggard and ghastly
with its hollow cheeks, very little resembled
the one over which that weary, indefinable
expression, the shadow, the forerunner of the
fever, had crept but three weeks ago. Boydell
recognized me, and motioned to a chair beside
the bed. He made two or three efforts before
he spoke.
“I am going to die—”
We could only answer by silence. It was
something terrible to see this strong man, now
weaker than an infant, lie calmly on the brink
of eternity; even old Mounse dropped his beefy
lids, and drew back with a subdued sniffle of
awe. We asked if there was any thing that he
wished done. After a little he turned his head
that his voice might the better reach us.
“I have relatives—it will not matter to them
that I am gone; they hold themselves up in the
world; it will only be a disgrace wiped out;
but—I would like them to know, and when I am
dead, why—I wish you would please write to—to
my brother. I have not heard from him for
nearly fifteen years.”
145He closed his eyes, and seemed to dream, but
presently roused himself, and looked anxiously
about the room.
“There was something else—oh, yes. Tell
him that—I am gone. He is rector of St.
Paul’s Church, S——, Lower Canada.” He
paused and then said slowly, as though repeating
his words for the first time, “It is no
matter—but tell him I am—dead.”
He felt up and down the seam of the quilt
feebly with his fingers, then closed his eyes
again in unconsciousness.
All day the dread phantom hands seemed to
hover closer to that quivering thread of life,
until sometimes we almost thought it broken;
but at nightfall they receded, and the shred
strengthened. There was a change for the
better, and Boydell fell into soft, natural
slumber.
Several days after this it occurred to me that
if Boydell had relatives in Canada who were
well off, they ought to help him in his time of
need. Without making him or any one else acquainted
with my intention, I wrote a letter
setting forth Boydell’s illness and utterly destitute
condition among strangers. As they held
no communication with Boydell, they would
hardly be willing to send him the money. I
was unknown, and to assure them it was no imposition,
146I wrote if they wished to send any
assistance, direct “To the Pastor of the First
Presbyterian Church, M——, Illinois.”
About a week later that minister came to me
and showed a letter post-marked S——, which
contained a check for three hundred dollars.
It specified that the money was to be given to
Boydell only on condition that he would promise
to renounce the stage forever, and so soon as
he was able to travel, come home to his relatives.
I felt delighted at the success of my
plan, for of course he would accept the money,
and whether he fulfilled his promise afterwards
by renouncing the stage and going home to
Canada, which would be extremely doubtful, I
considered was no business of mine.
When we entered his room, Boydell was
propped up almost in a sitting posture by pillows.
The window-shutter had been thrown
partly open to admit the air, and a narrow
streak of sunlight fell across the bed. We told
him of the good news, and after we had made
him understand how it had all come about, read
the letter aloud. He listened in perfect silence,
without changing position, and when it was
finished, took the check and said,—
“Three hundred dollars?”
“Yes,” we said, “it is three hundred dollars.”
He held the slip of paper in his emaciated
147hands, that trembled with weakness, and
repeated,—
“Three hundred dollars—”
He seemed trying to convince himself of its
reality; but suddenly a bewildered expression
broke over his face, and he looked from the
check to the letter, which still laid open. We
asked Boydell if he wished to hear it again, but
at the second reading his bewilderment only
seemed to increase. He looked at us with an
inquiring gaze that wandered round the bare,
desolate room, and settled on the strip of blue
sky in the window. Then he said, as if asking
himself the question,—
“Give up the stage? Renounce the stage?”
His eyes came back to the money in his hand.
Presently he folded it up, pressing the creases
with his thin fingers, and slowly holding it out,
shook his head saying,—
“Send it back.”
The ribbon of sunlight had crept further and
further round until it stretched itself across the
broad, white forehead, and we stood in greater
awe than when the angel of death had hovered
there. Suddenly before us a dazzling ray had
flashed out from the black waste of that sinful
life. The unbroken check went back to Canada.
A month later I was riding in the country.
A purple light overhung the shadowy prairie,
148which stretched away, broad, level and without
bound. Occasionally a wild bird rose up and
darted with swift wings, seeking a resting place,
for already the September moon waited the
coming night. Nearer, the tall weeds raised
themselves from the great, soundless ocean of
grass, like the masts of receding vessels. A
single wagon, the only object on all the void
prairie, stood out bold and sharp against the
bright line of the horizon, and clearly defined
above the driver, high up on top of the hay, the
figure of a man cut the sky. Even at that distance
I knew it was Boydell.
Some one had given him a little money, and
with renewed health and spirits he was going
out of M——. Whither?
149
THE DEATH-WATCH.
“Didn’t you hear it?”
“When?”
“Just now.”
“No.”
“They say it foretells death. Hush!”
The two men sat motionless. Not a sound
broke the silence, not even a creak of the old
boards in the floor, or a sigh of the wind, or a
flapping shutter.
“They say it foretells death. I heard it last
night and the night before. What’s that?”
“Nothing. It’s stiller than a graveyard.”
“I heard it last night, and the night before
about this time, near one. ’Taint a very pleasant
sound, and this old garret’s dismal enough
any way.”
“Monk, you’re afeard. It’s nothing. Don’t
150waste no more time. I’m dead-tired and sleepy.
You wouldn’t have been in this old hole now
if it hadn’t been for Peters.”
“No, if it hadn’t been for Peters, the strike,
like enough, would have took. But he won’t
stand in nobody’s way again.”
While Monk spoke, he drew out a sharp,
slender knife, and ran his finger along the
blade.
“I tell you, Shiflet, we must do it the night
after this blast’s done, and the men in the shed
say the coal will run out on the 6th, that’s to-morrow.
When Peters is fixed, the managers
will have to give in or quit runnin’ the
furnace.”
Both men sat with their arms leaning on the
table, and the flickering light of the tallow candle
between them showed two faces, rough,
begrimed by smoke and soot, and disfigured by
evil passions, that grew fiercer as they calmly
plotted against the life of a fellow-being.
“We’ll meet at one, where the roads cross.
It’ll be quiet then, and Peters’s house is alone.”
“I’ll be all right,” said Shiflet, with a grin
that rendered his brute-like countenance doubly
repulsive. “I’m confounded tired. Bring
your candle and light me down them infernal
stairs.”
The men stood up. Monk, small and slim,
151was dwarfed by the almost giant stature of his
companion. With a few parting words as to
secrecy and silence, they separated.
Monk stood on the upper step until Shiflet
disappeared, then closed the door and replaced
the candle on the table.
The room, neither large nor small, was a mere
hole, smoked, dirty, and unplastered, high up
in a frame tenement-house. Two or three
chairs, an old chest of drawers, a rickety bedstead,
and pine table, composed its furniture.
Some old boots and broken pieces of pig-iron
lay scattered about. The small, box-shaped
window was set just below where the ceiling or
roof sloped to the wall. The only door led directly
to the stairs that went down two, three
flights to the ground. There were many such
places in Agatha, where the furnace-hands
lived.
Monk walked rapidly up and down the room,
as if making an effort to wear off the excitement
that the last few moments had brought
upon him. His features had lost much of the
malignant expression, which was by no means
habitual. His countenance was not hardened
or stamped with the impress of crime like Shiflet’s,
who had just parted from him at the door—a
countenance in which every trace of conscience
had long ago been erased. Monk’s face
152was neither good nor bad, neither bright nor
dull; but he was a man easily wrought into a
passion, governed by impulse.
Crossing to the table, he slung his coat over
a chair, and stretched out his hand to extinguish
the light. Midway in the action he suddenly
checked himself, looked hurriedly around
the room for an instant, and stood motionless,
with inclined head, listening intently. Not a
sound disturbed the stillness. Pinching out
the light, he threw himself on the bed, and in
the darkness there soon came the heavy, regular
respiration of sleep.
The house at Agatha nestled under the north
cliff. A hundred feet above them the railroad
lost itself in the black mouth of a tunnel and
reappeared beyond, a high wall of trestlework
stretching southward down the valley to Ely’s
Mines. Hours ago, the toiling men and cattle
had lain down to rest, and now the wild, rocky
hills around slept in the moonlight. No sound
broke upon the stillness but the muffled puff,
puff, of the furnace, and a murmur of frogs that
rose and fell interruptedly along the shrunken
water-course. The cabins under the cliff shone
white and sharp; the iron on the metal-switch
flashed with a million gems; the rails upon the
trestle, receding, turned to silver, and the
foliage of early Summer glittered on the trees.
153A few passionless stars blinked feebly in the
yellow light, where the hill-tops cut against
the sky, and sank below the verge. Calmly,
peacefully waned the night—calmly and peacefully,
as though the spirit of evil had not stalked
abroad plotting the death and ruin of men’s
bodies and souls.
That narrow spot of ground, with the houses
down in the valley, formed the world for four
hundred people. The furnace-hands and their
families saw nothing beyond the hills and rocks
that hemmed in their village; knew nothing of
the mad tumults outside. An untaught, sturdy
race of men, they differed little one from another.
Every day, when the sun rose, they
went forth to toil, and every night, when the
great furnace over the creek glimmered red,
they lay down to sleep. But ignorance and
superstition filled their hearts, and anger, and
hate, and jealousy, were as rife among them as
in the crowded cities.
Another day passed, and the night which
followed it was dark and cloudy. Near midnight,
the great bell signalled for the last run
of iron. Occasionally blue flames leaped up
from the furnace, lurid as the fiery tongues of
a volcano. The long and narrow roof brooded
over the sand-bed like the black wings of some
monster bird hovering in the air. Under its
154shadow groups of men were but wavering,
dusky figures. Suddenly, as an electric flash,
a dazzling yellow glare broke out, and a fierce,
scorching, withering blast swept from an opening
that seemed the mouth of hell itself.
Slowly out of the burning cavern a hissing
stream of molten iron came creeping down. It
crawled, and turned and crawled, rib after rib,
until it lay like some huge skeleton stretched
upon the ground. A thin vapor floated up in
the sulphurous air and quivered with reflected
splendor. The scarlet-shirted men looked
weird in the unearthly brightness. The yellow
glow faded to red, that deepened to a blood-colored
spot in the night. The bell rang to
discharge the hands, and squads of men broke
up, scattering in the dark.
Monk went to his garret-room, hesitated a
moment at the door, then passed in and shut it
so violently that the floor shook. He struck a
match. In the brimstone light a horrible demon
countenance wavered, blue and ghastly; but,
when the candle flamed, it grew into Monk’s
face, covered by the black scowl of rage that
had disfigured it once before—a rage that was
freshly roused.
“If I’d had my knife, I’d have done it just
now, when I stumbled against him. But he
dies to-morrow night at—”
155The words froze on his lips, and his black
scowling face was suddenly overspread by a
strange pallor. He stood motionless, as if
chained to the floor, his eyes darted quickly
about, and he seemed to suspend his very breath.
A clear, distinct, ticking sound occurred at
regular intervals for a minute, and left profound
silence.
Monk raised his head.
“It’s a sign of coming death. That’s for
Peters. There it is again!”
The strange sound, like a faint metallic click,
repeated itself several times.
“D—n it! I don’t like to hear the thing.
But there will be a sudden death.”
Time after time Monk heard at intervals the
same faint sound, like the ticking of a watch for
a minute, and it made his blood run cold. He
found himself listening to it with terror, and
in the long silence, always straining his ears to
catch it, always expecting, dreading its repetition,
until the thing grew more horrible to him
than a nightmare. Sometimes he would fall
into a doze, and, wakening with a start, hear it,
while cold perspiration broke in drops on his
forehead.
It grew intolerable. He swore he would find
the thing and kill it, but it mocked him in his
search. The sound seemed to come from the
156table, but when he stood beside the table it
ticked so distinctly at the window that he
thought he could put his finger on the spot;
but when he tried to, it had changed again, and
sounded at the head of his bed. Sometimes it
seemed close at his right, and he turned only to
hear it on the other side, then in front, then behind.
Again and again he searched, and swore
in his exasperation and disappointment.
The sound became exaggerated by his distempered
imagination, till he trembled lest some
one else should hear this omen which so plainly
foretold his anticipated crime. Once an hour
dragged by, and his unseen tormentor was silent.
His eyes, that had glittered with deathly hatred,
now wore a startled look, and wandered restlessly
about the room.
An owl, that perched on the topmost branch
of a high tree near by, screamed loud and long.
A bat flew in at the open window, banged
against the ceiling, and darted out.
Monk shivered. Leaning his head between
his arms, he drummed nervously on the table
with his fingers. Instantly the clear metallic
click sounded again. He looked up, and a
strange light broke into his face, a mixed expression
of amazement and fright. For a moment
he seemed stupefied, then raising his hand
he tapped lightly against the wood with his
157finger-nail. The last tap had not died until it
was answered by what seemed like a fainter
repetition of itself.
Uttering a fearful oath, Monk recoiled from
the table, but, as if drawn back and held by a
weird fascination, he sat an hour striking the
hard surface with his nails, and pausing for the
response that each time came clear and distinct.
Gray streaks crept along the east, and
quivered like a faded fringe bordering the black
canopy. Still he sat tapping, but no answer
came. He waited, listened vainly; no echo, no
sound, and the dull, hueless light of the cloudy
morning glimmered at his window. Then he
threw himself on his bed, and fell into restless
slumbers.
A damp thick fog enveloped the houses in its
slimy embrace. At nightfall its reeking folds
gathered themselves from the ground, and a
noiseless drizzle came sullenly down.
Monk had not stirred from his room all day.
The feverish sleep into which he had fallen fled
from him before noon, and now he stood at his
window looking out into the blackness. A
clammy air blew against his face. He stretched
out his hand and drew it back suddenly, as if
he had touched the dead. It was cold and
moist. He rubbed it violently against his clothes,
as though he could not wipe off the dampness.
158A tremor seized upon him. Hark! was that the
dripping of water? No. A sickly smile played
over his countenance. He went to the table
and tapped lightly with his fingers, as he had
done before. In another moment the taps were
answered, and he involuntarily counted as they
came, one—two—three—four—five—six—seven—then
all was silent. He made the call
a second time, he tried it over and over, and at
each response it ticked seven times, never more,
never less, but seven times clearly, distinctly.
Suddenly he sprang up, and through shut teeth
hissed,—
“The seventh day, by Heaven! But I’ll
cheat you—I’ll not kill him!”
He darted noiselessly down the stairs, and
struck out through the woods. In half an hour
he emerged on the edge of a clearing, a dozen
yards from a chopper’s cabin. Creeping stealthily
to the door he shook it, then after a moment’s
irresolution cried out,—
“Peters! Peters! look out for Shiflet. He
has sworn to murder you to-night.”
Without waiting for a reply he sprang away,
and was quickly lost among the trees.
A moment afterward a tall form arose out of
the shadow of a stump near the cabin, and
passed rapidly in an opposite direction.
At the summit of the hill east of Agatha, a
159steep precipice is formed by a great, bare, projecting
rock. From the valley, its outline resembles
an enormous face in profile, and they
call it “The Devil’s Head.” The full moon
rendered the unbroken mass of cloud translucent,
producing a peculiar sinister effect. The
mist still blew through the air, but in the zenith
there was a dull ashen hue, and the surrounding
cloud was the color of earth. The far-off
hills loomed up majestic, terrible, against the
gloom; nearer objects were strangely magnified
in the tawny light. At the foot of this phantom
crag, on a terrace, is the ore-bank and blackened
coal-shed. Below rose the metal-stack,
from whose stone hearth a waste of sand sloped
gently to the creek. The furnace squatted grim
and black. Its blood-shot eye was shut; its
gaping throat uttered no sigh, no groan; its
throbbing pulse was stilled—the fierce, struggling
monster was dead. The only bright spot
in all the valley was the yellow circle made by
the watchman’s lantern in the coal-shed.
After leaving the “choppings,” Monk threaded
his way through the forest, coming out at last
on the open road. This road led directly over
the “Devil’s Head,” and entered the valley by
a steep descent half a mile to the south. At
the precipice Monk paused. The wind eddied
with a mournful wail, and the constant motion
160of tall trees gave the scene almost the wavering,
unsubstantial appearance of a vision.
There was something oppressive in this strange
midnight twilight, but Monk did not feel it.
He only felt relief, inexpressible relief; he only
stopped there to breathe, to breathe freely once
more with the heavy weight thrown from him.
After a moment he ran carelessly down the
hill, passed under the ore-cars and into the coal-shed.
He hailed Patterson, the watchman, and
the lantern threw gigantic shadows of the two
men over the ground. Then he walked along
the narrow cinder-road leading to the bridge
over the creek. Sometimes the willows, that
grew on either side, swept their damp hair
against his face. An hour ago he would have
started convulsively, now he heeded not, for he
was free and light of heart.
Monk reached the stairs, and ascended to his
room. As he passed in, the powerful figure of
Shiflet sprang upon him from behind. There
was a scuffle, some muttered oaths, then a heavy
fall. Monk lay stretched upon the floor motionless,
lifeless, and the echo of fleeing steps died
away, leaving the place still as the now silent
death-watch.
161
THE MAN AT THE CRIB. [1]
One morning in the Spring of 1867—whether
in April or May I am now
unable certainly to determine, but
think it was in the latter month—I was sitting
at the breakfast-table, leisurely reading the
morning paper, and enjoying my last cup of
coffee, when my eye accidentally fell upon the
following advertisement:—
“WANTED—A reliable man to take charge of the Crib.
An unmarried German preferred. One who can come well
recommended, and give bond for faithful performance of
duty, will receive a liberal salary. Apply immediately to
the Board of Public Works, Pumping Department, Nos. 15
and 17 South Wells Street.”
1. The Crib is the name given to the isolated structure at
the opening of the Chicago Water Works tunnel, in the
lake, two miles from the shore.
My attention was arrested by the thought of
so strange an occupation, and whether any one
162would be found willing to accept the situation
and live alone in the crib two miles from the
shore. There all companionship would be cut
off, and I wondered what effect the utter solitude
and confinement in the small round building
rising out of the water, with little in the
scenery to relieve the eye, and nothing to rest
the ear from the continual dashing of the waves
against the frame sides—I wondered what
effect it would have upon the occupant.
It happened I had been lecturing before a
class of medical students in one of our colleges
upon the relation of mind to body, and it occurred
to me that this crib-tender might prove
an illustration of my theory. His mind would
have afforded it an opportunity to prey upon itself,
and might become perverted. Under certain
circumstances the mental exerts an influence
over the physical system, aside from the voluntary
volition of the will, and it frequently
transpires that what is mere illusion in the
spiritual nature appears a reality to the material,
so closely are the two linked together.
My interest being awakened, I secretly determined
that I would try to discover who
accepted this situation, and notice, if possible,
what effect it would produce upon the keeper.
Some time later I learned that the above advertisement
had been answered the same day
163(the exact date I can not remember) by a German,
one Gustav Stahlmann, who presented
himself at the address indicated, and applied for
the situation. After a slight examination he
proved satisfactory in every respect. His recommendations
were of the highest kind and bore
testimony to his strict integrity and upright
character.
The position was accordingly offered to him,
provided he would be willing to comply with
certain conditions. First, that in accepting it
he would bind himself to remain in the situation
at least two years; and, secondly, that during
that period, he would upon no occasion or
pretense whatever, leave the crib. He manifested
little hesitation in assenting to these
requirements, as the salary was good, and an
opportunity afforded for resting from the severe
labor to which he had been accustomed.
All necessary arrangements were completed,
and upon the following day, with his dog for
the sole companion of his future home, he had
been taken out and instructed in the duties of
his office. These were few and light, consisting
mainly of attention to the water-gates of the
tunnel, opening and closing them as required,
and removing any obstructions which might
clog their action. At night he was to trim and
light the lamp which had been placed on the
164apex of the roof as a warning to passing vessels.
This was all; the remainder of the time lay at
his own disposal. A boy might readily have
accomplished this labor, and he congratulated
himself upon his good luck in securing so easy
a berth—one, too, which yielded a good income.
The first time I saw Stahlmann myself was
soon after he had accepted the situation. If I
recollect rightly, he told me he had been a
month on the Crib. I had rowed myself out
from the foot of Twelfth Street in a small boat.
At this early period in its history the Crib
was not so well finished and comfortable as now,
but was bare and barn-like, being in fact nothing
more than a round unplastered house, rising out
of the lake. The wooden floor, which was some
fifteen feet above the water, contained in its
center a well about six feet in diameter, around
which arose the iron rods of the water-gates.
A small room, the only apartment, had been
partitioned off by three plank walls from the
southeastern part of the circular interior, and
furnished for the abode of the keeper. If it
were rough, there was all present that he could
reasonably desire for his comfort. A sufficient
supply of provisions were delivered to him
once a month by a tug-boat from the city.
I found Stahlmann to be a man rather above
165the medium height, with a broad muscular
frame, but there were no evidences of sluggishness
in his movements; on the contrary, his
elasticity and gracefulness betokened great
powers of endurance, and indicated to me
activity both of body and mind. He was perhaps
thirty-five years of age, and his frank, open
countenance was marked by regular features
of a somewhat intellectual cast; honesty and
principle were plainly visible in his face, and a
ready command of language betrayed considerable
education. He impressed me as superior
to the majority of men in his rank of life, and
from this conclusion I was none the less driven
by the appearance of his coarse and soiled
clothing. I engaged him in conversation, into
which he was easily drawn, and I was surprised
by the native love of the beautiful which he
evidently possessed. He seemed to take great
pleasure in pointing out the beauties in the
scene that laid before our view.
The sun was scarcely an hour high, and we
could hardly turn our eyes eastward for the
splendor of his rays reflected on the water. To
the north the sea-like horizon was flecked by
the white sails of retreating vessels, some hull-down
in the distance, others uncertain specks
vanishing from our range of vision. Stretching
along the shore to the westward, Chicago shot
166a hundred spires, glistening and glorified, into
the morning sunlight, while just opposite us
stood the grim lighthouse, a motionless sentinel
keeping watch over the harbor.
I admitted the attraction of the scene, and
made an effort to turn the conversation to his
private life. He was easily led to talk of himself,
although he did it in a natural and unaffected
manner. I gathered that he was born
in Bavaria, and that when he had attained his
sixteenth year, some difficulty had driven his
parents to this country. They were well educated,
but misfortune compelled them, on their
arrival, to put their son to labor. The instruction
he had received in the Fatherland had
evidently strengthened his powers of observation
and quickened his understanding.
I asked him if he did not find his life at the
Crib very tiresome, and what he did to pass
away the time. I remarked that I believed, if
I were in his place, I would be smitten most
fearfully with the blues. He laughed good
humoredly, and said he had never been troubled
in that manner, that there were daily a
great number of visitors, curiosity-seekers,
which the Crib attracted, as it was altogether
novel, and had but just been completed. Then
he said he had his dog for companionship, and
that they lived very pleasantly together. He
167was evidently much attached to this animal,
whom he called Caspar, for he frequently interrupted
the conversation to stroke it on the
head. I was astonished to find him well acquainted
with the current news of the day, but
he readily explained this, for usually some one
who came out carried a paper, which was willingly
given to him, and having nothing else to
occupy his time he read it much more carefully
than we do who are in the turmoil of the city.
Towards the middle of the day I left him,
almost envying his peaceful life and happy contentment,
yet doubting if this would last long,
for, after the novelty wore away, I could not
help thinking that he might find his solitary
existence less pleasing. I had become wonderfully
interested in this man, and determined to
pay him another visit when I could again find
half a day to devote to pleasure.
It was not, however, until the following September
that I could spare time for another trip
to the Crib. This visit, as I said, had been
prompted out of curiosity to watch the effects
of this solitary life upon Stahlmann. Although
four months had elapsed, I found him situated
just as I had left him, and by the appearance
of the surroundings, I might have almost believed
it was but yesterday I had looked upon
him. When I remarked this to him, I noticed
168a peculiar smile play across his features, and it
struck me that his face had not the same happy
expression which had so pleased me before. I
observed, too, that he carried himself in a
listless manner, very unlike his former erect
bearing. I found him, however, just as readily
drawn into conversation, although some
of his old enthusiasm was gone, and he manifested
an evident disinclination to speak of himself,
for when I made an effort to bring up the
subject, he displayed considerable skill in evading
it. This was repeated again and again
until I found that he would not be forced to it,
but I saw full well by his actions that he had
already grown tired of his monotonous life. All
my jokes about the solitude, which he had
laughed at before, were now received in silence
and with furtive glances. Evidently it had
become a serious matter, and I dropped the
disagreeable subject.
He inquired most eagerly for any news, and
said he had not seen a paper for almost a week,
as the wet weather had interfered with visitors,
preventing any one from coming out. When I
left he repeatedly invited me to come again,
which I promised to do, as in our slight intercourse
we had struck up a mutual friendship.
My interest, too, had been increased, as I
plainly saw that his life had become distasteful
169to him, and I had considerable curiosity to
ascertain whether he would, according to his
promise, remain the two full years upon the
Crib; at any rate, I concluded that I would
not lose sight of him.
Directly after this visit, business arrangements
called me away from home, and detained
me in New York City without interruption
until last May. During this period, of course,
I had no means of learning any thing whatever
concerning Gustav Stahlmann. On my return,
the first glimpse I caught of the familiar lake
recalled him to my memory, and revived the
old interest. I determined to renew our former
acquaintance, but found, to my great disappointment,
that all visitors to the Crib had
been prohibited by the authorities soon after I
was called from home; yet I did not give up in
my attempt to find out if he still remained in
his situation. After many fruitless inquiries,
I finally learned that he was dead. This was
the only knowledge I could gain, and, disappointed
by the sad intelligence, I dismissed the
subject from my mind.
A week ago I made the startling discovery
that the Crib at the eastern terminus of the
lake tunnel, within the year following its completion,
had been the scene of a tragedy, the
particulars of which, when I learned them,
170thrilled me with horror, and called forth my
profoundest sympathy for the poor victim.
The whole circumstance had been so carefully
kept secret by an enforced reticence on the part
of the authorities, that beyond two or three
individuals no one in Chicago had the slightest
suspicion of the sickening drama which was
enacted but two miles from her shores.
I was walking through the Court House
looking at the arrangement of the newly erected
portion of the building, and while in the
rooms occupied by the Water Board, I accidentally
stumbled upon an old memorandum
book which had evidently been misplaced during
the recent removal of this department from
their old quarters on Wells Street to the first
floor of the west wing. Upon examination it
proved to be a kind of diary, and was written
with pencil in the German character. On the
inside of the front cover, near the upper right
hand corner, was inscribed the name Gustav
Stahlmann, and underneath a date—1865. A
small portion of the book, the first part, was
filled with accounts, some of them of expenditures,
others memoranda of days’ work in different
parts of the city, and under various foremen.
But it was to the body of the book that
my attention was particularly called. This was
in the journal form, being a record of successive
171occurrences with the attending thoughts. The
entries were made at irregular intervals and
without any regard to system. Sometimes it
had been written in daily for a considerable
period, then dropped, and taken up again apparently
at the whim of the owner. In places
there appeared no connection between the parts
separated by a break of even short duration;
at others the sense was obscure, and could only
be attained by implication. The earliest records
in the second part were in June, 1867,
and I found dates regularly inserted as late as
the November following. In December they
ceased entirely; afterward the diary, if such it
might then be called, was either by the day or
the week, or without any direct evidence as to
the time when the circumstances therein narrated
had occurred. In fact, throughout the
whole of the concluding portion there was nothing
to indicate that the matter had not been
written on a single occasion, except the variations
which almost every person’s hand-writing
exhibits when produced under different degrees
of nervous excitement.
From this black morocco memorandum book;
from the hand-writing of Gustav Stahlmann
himself, I learned the incidents of his career
after I parted from him. They constitute the
history of a fate so horrible in every respect, that
172I shudder at the thought that any human being
was doomed to experience it.
The main facts in this narrative I have translated,
sometimes literally, at others using my
own language, where the thoughts in the
original were so carelessly or obscurely expressed
as to render any other course simply impossible.
It seems, as I supposed, that when Stahlmann
was first settled in the Crib, he was greatly
pleased with his situation. The weather was
mild and beautiful; the fresh air blowing across
the water was a grateful change from the close
and dusty atmosphere of Chicago. Many of
his old friends came out to take a look at his
new quarters, and almost surveyed them with
envy while listening to an account of his easy,
untroubled life. At dusk, after he had lighted
his lamp, and it threw out its rays, he would
watch to see how suddenly in the distance, as
if to keep it company, the great white beacon
in the lighthouse would flash out, burning
bright and clear. Then along the western shore
the city lights, one by one, would kindle up,
multiplying into a thousand twinkling stars that
threw a halo against the sky. Afterwards the
soughing of the waves as they washed up the
sides of his abode, fell pleasantly on his ear, and
lulled him to sleep with Caspar lying at his feet.
But it seemed as if the same day came again
173and again, for still the waters broke around
him, and still night after night the same lights
flashed and burned. Then the time appeared
to become longer, and he watched more eagerly
for the arrival of some visitors, but, if his watching
had been in vain, he went wearily to sleep
at night with a feeling of disappointment, only
to waken and go through the same cheerless
routine. Sometimes for a whole week he would
not see a single human being nor hear the sound
of a human voice, save his own when he spoke
to the dog, who seemed by sagacious instinct to
sympathize in his master’s lonesome position,
and capered about until he would attract his attention,
and be rewarded by an approving word
and caress upon the head.
Visitors had become less and less frequent
until the last of September, when they ceased
altogether. Stahlmann in trying to explain
this to himself correctly concluded that the
authorities must have prohibited them, as he
had heard some time previously they entertained
such an intention, although he had been reluctant
to believe it, and still vainly hoped that it might
not be true. But time only confirmed the suspicion
which he had been so unwilling to accept,
and although within two miles of a crowded
city, he found himself completely isolated, cut
off, as it were, from the human race.
174Then he searched for something that might
amuse him and help wear away the interminable
days, but he found nothing. He would have
been glad even if only the old newspapers had
been preserved that he might re-read them, but
they were destroyed, and he owned no books.
His former severe labor, performed in company
with his fellow men, was now far preferable in
his eyes to this complete solitude, with nothing
to occupy his hands or mind. He saw the
vessels pass until they seemed to become companions
for him in his loneliness; he had watched
them all the Summer, but the winds grew
chill and rough, sweeping out of sullen clouds,
and boisterously drove home the ships.
Stahlmann found himself utterly alone on the
wide lake, and the fierce blasts howled around
his frame house, covering it with spray from
the lashing billows that seemed ready to engulf
it. Crusts of ice formed and snapped, rattling
down to the waves. Heavy snow fell, but did
not whiten the unchanging scenery, for it was
drowned in the waste of waters. Night after
night he lit the beacon and looked yearningly
westward to the starred city. Then the solitude
grew intolerable. It was like the vision of
heaven to the lost spirits shut out in darkness
forever. He was alone, all alone, craving even
for the sound of a kindred voice, so that he cried
175out in his anguish. The flickering lights he
was watching threw their rays over thousands
of human beings, yet there was not one to
answer his despairing call.
Sleep would no longer allow him to forget
that he was shut out from all human society,
for he lost consciousness of his lonesome position
only to find himself struggling in some nightmare
ocean, where there was no eye to see his
distress. Then he would be awakened by the
dog rubbing his nose against his face, and knew
he had groaned aloud in his troubled slumber,
and Caspar had crawled closer, as if to comfort
his unhappy master. Sometimes the tempter
whispered escape—escape from this Crib, which
had been so correctly named, for it had, indeed,
become a dismal cage. He felt himself strong
to combat the waves in flying from the horrible
solitude; he could swim twice the distance in
his eagerness to be once again among his fellow
beings; but his high principles shrank in horror
from the thought of violating a promise. He
had solemnly given his word that he would remain
upon the place, and it bound him stronger
than chains of iron. He cast the thought, which
had dared to arise in his mind, from him with a
sense of shame that it had been a moment entertained.
Early on one bitter cold night, when his
176house was thick-ribbed with ice, Stahlmann
noticed a great light, which increased until it
illumined all the western sky. He saw the city
spires as plainly as though bathed in the rays
of the setting sun, and the lurid glare lit up the
waters, making the surrounding blackness along
the lake shore appear more terrible. The fire
brightened and waned, brightened and waned
again. He watched it far into the night, and
thought of the thousands of anxious faces that
were turned toward the same light, until he fell
into a troubled sleep, yearning for the sight of
a single countenance. This fire which he
witnessed must have been the great conflagration
on Lake Street that occurred in February,
1868.
He was sitting one dull, cloudy afternoon,
looking out over the dreary waves, when his
attention was attracted by the strange behavior
of Caspar. The dog was greatly excited; it
would jump about him, whining and howling,
then run to the door, which stood partly open,
and look down into the water, at the same time
giving a short, quick yelp. This was repeated
so frequently that Stahlmann was aroused from
his gloomy reverie. He followed it to the
threshold, and saw for an instant some black
object that the waves threw up against the Crib.
A second time it arose, and Stahlmann plunged
177into the water with the quick instinct that
prompts a brave man to peril his own life in
attempting to save another from drowning. In
one moment more he had grasped the body,
and fastened it to the rope ladder that hung
down the western side of the Crib. Then
mounting it himself, he drew it up after him
on to the floor.
It was the form of a young man, and Stahlmann
eagerly kneeled over it, hoping yet to
find a faint spark of vitality. A glance showed
him that the body must have been in the water
several hours, for it was already somewhat
bloated; but even then, in his mad desire to
restore life, he rubbed the stiffened limbs; but
the rigid muscles did not relax. He wrung the
water from the black hair, which in places was
short and crisp, looking as if it might have been
singed by fire. The features were not irregular,
but the open eyes had a stony, death-glaze
on them, and the broad forehead was cut across
in gashes which had evidently been made by
the waves beating it against the walls of the
Crib. The hands were clenched and slightly
blistered.
Stahlmann’s frenzied exertions could not call
back the departed spirit, and he sat gazing
wildly upon it in his bitter disappointment.
Then a startling thought broke suddenly into
178his mind—What, out in his desolate and watery
home, could he do with the dead? Where
could he put the stiffened corpse? But as the
night came on, he arose to light the beacon;
then descended again immediately, taking up
his former position by the lifeless form, for it
appeared to exert a peculiar fascination over
him; he felt a strange kind of pleasure in the
presence of the form of a human being, even
though it were dead. He seemed to have found
a companion, and the thought, which had
startled him at first died from his memory.
Hour after hour as he sat beside the corpse;
its strange influence increased, until it gradually
filled up in his troubled heart the aching
void which had so yearned for society. He left
it only as necessity called him away to attend
to his duties, each time returning with increasing
haste. Day by day the spell continued,
and he grew to regard the dead body with all
the tenderness he would have manifested toward
a living brother. He did not shrink from
the cold, clammy skin when he raised the head
to place it on a stool, but sat and talked to
it. He asked why it looked at him with that
stony glare, and why its face had turned that
dark and ugly color; but when no answer came,
he said he realized that it was dead and could
not speak. Then the terrible truth flashed
179upon him. With a groan he saw that he could
keep the corpse no longer, and the thought
which had startled him once before crept in
again with increased significance. Where could
he bury it? In the bottom of the lake, where
nothing would disturb its peace. He gently
let it down into the water, and, as he saw it
disappear, he awoke to wild grief at losing it,
and would have plunged in to rescue it the
second time, but it was gone from sight forever.
Might not this body have been one of the
lost from the ill-fated Sea Bird, which burned
in the beginning of April, 1868, a few miles
north of the city? Stahlmann must have found
it about this time.
His grief for the loss of his dead companion
grew upon him each day, and rendered the
solitude more unendurable. Solitude? It was
no longer solitude, for the place was peopled
by the phantom creations of his inflamed imagination.
Here a part of the diary is altogether
incoherent, showing into what utter
confusion his intellect had been thrown.
The waves roared at him in anger, and the
winds joined them in their rage. Fiendish
spirits seemed to rise up before him that were
fierce to clutch him and gloat over his terror.
The lights in the west danced together and
glared at him in mockery, and his own beacon
180threw its cold white rays over the familiar
aperture where the iron rods of the water-gates
rose; but that opening had suddenly become
an undefined horror to him. The very terror
with which he regarded it drew him to its verge.
He cast his eyes into its depths, down upon the
troubled but black and silent water, and glared
at the vision which met his strained sight, for
the ghostly face of the man who had been murdered
in the tunnel peered at him through the
uncertain light.
There was only the dog that he could fly to in
his agony, but it, too, had a strange appearance
and answered his call by low plaintive howls
that sent a shiver through his frame. He repeated
its name aloud, and Caspar crawled
closer to his master, still at times making moans
that sounded sorrowful—almost like the pleading
of a human voice in distress, and he thought
its eyes had a strange reproachful gaze. While
he spoke to it, the dog uttered a prolonged wail.
Stahlmann shivered, and a cold chill crept
through his blood; all his superstition was
roused afresh. The wind lost its rage and died
down to funeral-sobs. The sound of the waves
fell into a dirge-like cadence, and that melancholy
wail which had chilled his blood rang in
his ears—it rang with the awful significance
of an evil omen long after it had died upon the
181air. The dog lay perfectly motionless; he
stooped to stroke it, but it did not move. He
stared at it with a bewildered gaze, when suddenly
the horrible reality with the fearful explanation,
broke upon his half-crazed brain, and
he staggered back with a wild shriek. In the
utter misery of his solitude, in his strange grief
for the loss of the drowned corpse, and his
terror from the hallucinations of a disordered
intellect, he had neglected to feed his faithful
dog, and had starved to death the only living
creature that existed for him in the world.
Caspar was dead.
Stahlmann in his agony seemed to hear once
more the piteous cry which the dog had uttered
with its expiring breath, and to him the wail
sounded in its pathetic mournfulness like the
mysterious herald of another death.
The diary is so blurred at this point that it is
hardly legible. What can be read is incomprehensible
from broken, incoherent sentences—the
empty language of a lunatic. Save one
remaining passage, I could make out nothing further.
This entry must have been written in a
lucid interval when he realized to what a fearful
condition he had been reduced by unbroken
solitude. Because it is the last record, I translate
it literally, as follows:
“That cry again—what have I come through? Hell
182with its host of furies can not be worse than this awful
Crib—I kill myself.
G. Stahlmann.”
What remains is soon told. A few inquiries
in the proper direction revealed that on the
morning of the first of May, 1868, when the tug
boat from Chicago made its usual trip to the
Crib to supply provisions, the dog was discovered
dead upon the floor, and near by—just to
the right of the entrance, and about ten feet
distant from it—hung the dead body of
Gustav Stahlmann, suspended by the neck
from one of the rafters. It was at once cut
down and the Coroner quietly notified. Among
his few effects was found the memorandum book
which so curiously came into my possession.
The authorities were in no way to blame for
this unfortunate occurrence. On that day they
placed several persons in charge of this lonely
structure and have changed them at regular
intervals ever since. Because if the circumstance
were known, they were fearful they could
get no one to fill the situation, either on account
of the solitude or from the fact that many persons
are afraid to live in a house that has been
the scene of a suicide—they wisely concluded
to say nothing whatever about the melancholy
event, and, as I said before, few persons in the
city are acquainted with its details.
183
PROF. KELLERMANN’S FUNERAL.
It had snowed persistently all day, and
now, at night, the wind had risen and
blew in furious gusts against the
windows, a bleak December gale.
The Professor tramped steadily up and down
his floor, up and down his floor, from wall to
wall and back again. It was not a cheerful
room; with but one strip of carpet, a chair or
two, a table and bedstead, and one dim tallow
candle, flickering in a vain struggle to give any
thing better than a sickly light, which was
afflicted, at uncertain intervals, with violent
convulsions. No, it was not a pleasant place,
for the Professor was poor, and lived a lonely,
hermit-like life in the heart of the great German
city.
He had no relations—no friends. He was
184not a popular man, though he had once been
well known, and the public had all applauded
his great scholarship. His books, one after
another, as they came out, if they brought him
no money, had brought him some fame then;
but the last one had appeared years ago, and
been commented upon, and conscientiously put
aside, and the public, never very much interested
in the author personally, had about forgotten
him.
During these long years he had been living
secluded, waging a perpetual war with himself.
Entangled in the meshes of the subtile German
infidelity, which was at variance with his earlier
training, he found himself encompassed about
by unbelief—unbelief in the orthodox theology
of his youth, unbelief, also, in the philosophy
of this metaphysical land. A man of vast learning,
and a close student, he discovered his
knowledge to be always conflicting; and thus
the long debate within him was no nearer a
termination than at the moment when the first
doubt had asserted itself.
Preyed upon by this harassing mental anxiety,
and by encroaching poverty, he was seized by a
nervous fever, which had gradually undermined
his health, and almost disordered his mind.
And now, this night, in a condition of exhaustion,
weary of life and its ceaseless struggle—without
185friends, without money, without
hope—his black despair, like the evil tempter,
rose before him and suggested a thought from
which he had at first drawn back appalled.
But it was only for a moment. Why not put
an end forever to all these troubles? Had he
not worked for years, and had he ever done the
world any good, or had the world ever done
him any good? No! The world was retrograding
daily. The selfishness of humanity,
instead of lessening, was constantly growing
worse. How had they repaid him for his long
studies? He had shut himself up and labored
over heavy questions in metaphysics—sifting,
searching, reading, thinking—only for a few
thankless ones, who had glanced at his works,
smiled a faint smile of praise, and straightway
left them and him to be lost again in obscurity!
The future was dark, the present a labyrinth
of care and suffering, from which there was but
the one escape. Then why not accept it? So
he had been arguing with himself all the evening,
and, in his growing excitement, pacing the
floor of his garret to and fro with a quick,
nervous tread. But there had another cause
risen in his mind which he, at first, would
hardly acknowledge to himself.
A faint, undefined shadow, as it were, of his
early faith stirred within him, and before him
186the “oblivion” of death was peopled with a
thousand appalling fancies, illumined by the
red flame of an eternal torment. In vain he
strove to dispel it by remembering the more
rational doctrine of reason, that death is but a
dreamless sleep, lasting forever.
Suddenly, feeling conscious of the heinousness
of the crime he was meditating, and
knowing that he was in an unnatural feverish
condition, he paused abruptly in his hurried
tramp, stood a few moments utterly motionless,
then, dropping on his knees, he made a vow
that he would take twenty-four hours to
consider the deed, and, if it were done, it should
not be done rashly. “Hear me, O Heaven!”
Springing up, he cried; “Heaven! Heaven!—There
is no Heaven! Vow!—to whom did I
vow? There is no God!” Muttering a faint
laugh, he said, after a moment: “I vowed to
myself; and the vow shall be kept. Not all
the theories and philosophies of Germany shall
cheat me out of it.”
It seemed like the last struggle of his soul to
assert itself. Almost staggering with exhaustion,
he fell upon the bed and slept.
A gentle breeze from the far past blew around
him in his native land. He saw the white cliff
at whose base the sea-foam threw up its glittering
spray with a ceaseless strain of music. He
187saw the green meadows, where the quiet, meek-eyed
cattle found a pasture, stretching away to
the green hills, where flocks of sheep browsed
in the pleasant shade beneath the tall oak trees.
He saw, far off on the highest summit of the
wavy ridge, the turrets of the great castle rear
themselves above the foliage like a crown—the
royal diadem upon all these sun-bathed hills
and valleys. He stood within the cottage, the
happy cottage under the sheltering sycamores;
and, brighter, clearer, more beautiful than all
these, he saw a face look down upon him with
a calm and earnest smile. It was the home of
his childhood, it was the face of his mother, all
raised in the mirage of sleep—a radiant vision
lifted from the heavy gloom of forty years,
years upon which Immanuel Kant, years upon
which the Transcendental school had crept with
their baleful influence, poisonous as the deadly
nightshade.
He struggled to speak, and wakened. A
dream, yes, all a dream! He pressed his hands
against his brow—A dream? Yes, childhood
had been but a dream. Life itself is but an
unhappy dream!
The wild December wind still blew with a
rattling noise against the windows, and sometimes
swept round the corner with a dreary,
half-smothered cry. The candle had burned
188down almost to the socket, and was seized
more frequently than before with its painful
spasms, making each gaunt shadow of the few
pieces of furniture writhe in a weird, silent
dance on the wall. As the Professor sat on the
bed, they appeared to him like voiceless demons,
performing some diabolical ceremony, luring his
soul to destruction. Then they seemed moving
in fantastic measure to a soundless dirge, which
he strained his ears to hear, when the candle
burned steadily, and they paused in their dumb
incantation.
A loud knock, which shook the door, made
the Professor start up amazed, and the shadows
re-begin their uncanny pantomime. For a
moment he stood stupefied with surprise. It
was far in the small hours of the night, and
visitors at any time were unknown. He had
lived there for months an utter stranger, and no
footsteps but his own had ever crossed the floor.
An uncontrollable fit of trembling came upon
him, and he lay down once more, thinking it
all the creation of his overwrought fancy. But
the knock was repeated louder than before, and
the gaunt shadows again made violent signals to
each other in their speechless dialect, as though
their grim desires were just then upon the eve
of accomplishment.
With an effort the Professor got up and said
189“Come!” but the word died away in his throat,
a faint whisper. He tried it a second time;
then, partially overruling the weakness that had
seized upon him, crossed the room and opened
the door.
“Good gracious! What’s the matter with
you?” said a voice from out of the dark on the
landing.
It was the son of the undertaker, who lived
down stairs. They were not acquainted, and
had never spoken, but they had often passed
each other in the street—though, until that
moment, the Professor was not aware that he
had ever even noticed him; but now he recognized
him and drew back. The young man,
however, entered uninvited.
“I say, what the deuce is the matter with
you?”
“Nothing! What do you want, sir?”
“Want? Why your face is as white as a
sheet, and your eyes, your eyes are—confound
me if I want any thing!” he said, backing to the
door in alarm.
Indeed, the expression which rested on the
features of the Professor was hardly pleasant to
look at alone, and in the night. But, having
followed his instinct, so far as to his bodily
preservation, and having backed into the hall so
that the Professor could hardly distinguish the
190outline of his figure, the young man’s courage
got the better of his fright. He came to a
standstill, passed his hand nervously round his
neck, cleared his throat several times, and then,
in a husky voice—caused, evidently, by his
recent alarm, and not by the message, singular
as it was, that he came to deliver—said,—
“We want you. It is Christmas—we want
you for a corpse.”
It may have been a very ordinary thing to
them, considering their profession, to want
people for corpses, either at Christmas or any
other time; but it was hardly an ordinary thing
to the Professor to be wanted for one; and the
announcement was certainly somewhat startling,
made in a sepulchral tone from out the
gloom. It was still stranger that the young
man himself appeared rather faint-hearted for
one who entertained so malevolent a desire, and
had the boldness to make the assertion outright.
The Professor for a moment fairly thought him
in league with the shadows, for they were
at work once more, beckoning and pointing
fiercely, as the wind swept up the staircase, to
the indistinct figure out in the dusk, that was
the son of the undertaker, and who said again,—
“We want you, sir, for a corpse—”
Here he paused abruptly, to clear his throat
anew, as though he found himself disagreeably
191embarrassed by the unfriendly appearance of
his host, whose face, if it had been pale at first,
was of a gray, ashen color now. He evidently
could not see why his request should have been
taken in such ill part, and he stammered and
stuttered, and was about ready to begin again,
when the Professor said,—
“You will likely get me.”
The peculiar expression that rested upon the
Professor’s mouth as he uttered these words,
was hardly encouraging; but the young man—as
though every body would recognize that it
was absolutely essential to them, in order that
they might celebrate the great gala-day with
their family, to have a corpse, just as other
people have a tree—immediately brightened
up, and, advancing a step or two, said gratefully,—
“I am very glad, sir; I am very glad. It is
Christmas, you know, and I told them as how
I thought you’d do, for you are spare, sir,
and—”
Here he found another blockade in his throat,
which, after a slight struggle, he swallowed,
and went on,—
“I told them as how I thought you’d do, sir,
for you see we want somebody that is small and
thin, and will be light to carry after he is all
fixed up. Hans Blauroch did for us last time;
192but this year, instead of parading Santa Claus
up and down the street, we’ve concluded to
bury him. It will be something new this
Christmas; and Hans is too heavy to carry; and
when I thought of you, sir, I just took the
liberty of coming right up; because it’s near
daylight, and there ain’t no great while left to
get the funeral ready.”
So the blockhead had finally jerked out what
he came for, which was not so malevolent after
all as he had at first made it appear. He
deserved, rather, to be praised for his persistency
than censured for his awkwardness, considering
the difficulties under which he had labored.
The Professor did not show whether he felt
relieved by this denouement. He had listened
without moving; and when the young man
finished speaking he hesitated a moment, then,
with the same peculiar expression visible about
his mouth, said he would be glad to place himself
at their service; he would be with them
directly; that he had not been feeling well;
indeed, he only an hour ago almost fainted, and
had not yet recovered when he heard the knock
upon his door; but he was feeling better, and
would come down immediately.
The young man laughed good-naturedly as he
replied,—
“I am obliged to say I did not like the looks
193of you at first. You must have been out of
your head.”
The Professor waited until the last echo of
the retreating footsteps died away down at the
bottom of the stairs, then shut his door.
“A strange thing,” he muttered; “what have
I to do with Christmas? I, who have studied,
studied! I had forgotten there was any time
called Christmas. What is it to a scholar?
Philosophy says nothing about it; and reason
would teach that—ah, yes, it too is a dream,
a dream within the dream called life. Then
what have I to do with it? Why did I promise?
I will not go. Yet my vow—twenty-four hours.
I dare not trust myself alone. A funeral, did
he say? I will see how it feels; yes, for I will
probably need one in another day. They
wanted me ‘for a corpse,’ and I said they would
likely get me, and I would be glad to ‘place
myself at their service.’ Ha, ha! They can
bury me twice. But my vow, my vow! I will
not trust myself alone. It is nothing to me; I
will go.”
He had been tramping again rapidly up and
down the room, when he suddenly turned, took
up his hat, looked around for a moment at the
shadows that were still making unintelligible
signs to each other, then extinguished them in
darkness and slowly went down stairs.
194The lodgings were directly over the undertaker’s
establishment. Living so secluded,
speaking to none, it had never occurred to the
Professor before what a grim place he had
chosen for his home. But now the silver-barred
coffins in the show-case were ghastly as he
passed.
Night had not yet yielded up her supremacy.
A heavy covering of snow, that clung to every
roof, tower, and spire, made the place look
unreal through the gloom, like some colorless
apparition of a great specter city. Close-blinded,
silent and cold, without one glimmer of
life, the houses faced each other down the long
street. Far off, the ghostly dome and pinnacles
of the cathedral reached into the sky—the
empty, soundless sky—for the wind had fallen
away, leaving a gray expanse that seemed to
stretch through infinitude. But, though the
Professor did not notice, there was a rift that
divided the dreary cloud down near the horizon,
and disclosed, brighter than the pale light of
the coming day, a star shining in the East.
And it was Christmas morning.
The Professor walked block after block, feeling
unconsciously refreshed by the crisp air upon
his heated brow. Then he turned back, and
when he had reached the building went down
an alley-way and entered by a door in the rear.
195A great confusion and general dimness, not
lessened any by two or three candles that were
burning, pervaded the room, which was long
and ran almost across the house. Half a dozen
men were standing or moving about, and some
were sitting or leaning upon coffins and biers,
that covered all the floor, except where they
occasionally left narrow passages between, like
irregular aisles.
At the Professor’s entrance, the young man
who had paid him so friendly a visit came up
instantly, took hold of him by the arm, and
turned him round, with the exclamation,—
“Here he is father! He is thin enough to be
easily carried.”
The man denominated “father” by the young
off-shoot of the establishment surveyed the Professor
with a critical eye from head to foot, and,
as there could be no better sample of physical
spareness than he presented, said, laconically,—
“He’ll do.”
Then there was new confusion and bustling
about, and two or three persons immediately
seized the Professor, one by his hair, one by his
feet, one by his arms. With a grim smile, he
submitted, in perfect silence, to the operations
of this dressing committee.
He saw himself—him, Gustav Kellermann,
the philosopher!—blossom into brilliant colors,
196scarlet and blue and orange. He saw them
clasp a girdle round his waist, to which they
hung gilded toys and bells in all directions, until
he was fairly covered over with trinkets of
every device. He felt them encase his head—his
learned, metaphysical head—in a cap that
was adorned at the point and round the sides
with innumerable swinging-dolls.
It had been daylight three or four hours when
all the mysterious preparations, which had been
done almost without speaking a single word,
were finally completed, and every thing waited
in readiness.
There, strangely conspicuous in that dismal
room, with its dismal paraphernalia of death,
was a brilliant, half-human, half-monkey-like
creature, standing up on its hind legs, and flaming
all over in gaudy colors. To this grotesque
figure, the important actor, evidently the chief
agent in the contract, a man of brief speech,
came up and said, brusquely,—
“Now, you are dead, you know, and have
nothing to do but be dead. You are not to be
fidgeting, or stirring round, or peeping. When
you are dead, you are dead, you know, and that
is all.”
O, Immanuel Kant! O, transcendental school!
Good reasoning! When you are dead, you are
dead.
197Then they picked up this half-human, half-monkey-like
object, which had uttered not one
word, placed it in a coffin, and put upon it a
mask-face. Carrying it out by the rear door,
they raised it and set it down on a catafalque,
draped in a black velvet pall, and ornamented
with tall black funeral plumes.
O vain pomp and grandeur of death! When
you are dead, you are dead.
A confused hurry and tramp of many feet
was succeeded by a pause, and some one said,—“Ready.”
The procession reached the open avenue and
moved slowly down the street to the sound of
a funeral march. Solemnly, with measured
tread, they advanced, and the people flocked to
the doors on every side. There was a cry of
surprise and alarm. “What is it?” “Who is
it?” ran from lip to lip. The crowd gathered.
The procession, with its sable plumes and ribbons
of crepe, still continued on its way. There
was the sound of lamentation, and at every
moment the throng and confusion increased,
the multitude thickened, and men, women and
children were held off by the guard. Do they
go to the great cemetery? No, they turned
eastward, and at the Rosenthal halted. There
the wondering spectators saw, in its center, a
pure white tomb. Before it the catafalque was
198brought to a stand, and the coffin solemnly
lowered.
Immediately a broken shout ran through the
crowd, that was taken up and repeated until it
grew into a laugh, and men and women, catching
up the children, cried,—
“It is Kriss Kringle! Ha! ha! See, child,
it is Kriss Kringle! He is dead. Kriss Kringle
is dead!”
It was a great relief to the people, so suddenly
alarmed, and they good humoredly held
up the little ones, saying,—
“See! Kriss Kringle is dead. He will never
come any more. He is dead!”
There was a silence; and many little faces,
awe-stricken, looked sorrowfully down, and
many little arms were stretched out, and many
little voices, quivering, sobbed,—
“No, no, no! He will come back. He
brought us pretty things. He will come back
to us.”
O, Immanuel Kant! O, transcendental
school! Is your strength still greater than
this?
There was a stir under the heavy pall, and a
voice—hark! a voice!—
“Yes, children, I will come back to you. I
have come back to you!” And from beneath
the sable funeral drapery, Kriss Kringle sprang,
199all jingling with silver bells, and flashing with
a thousand toys.
Then again there was great confusion, but
this time no sound of lamentation; and the
solemn funeral march swept into a strain of
joyful music. And the children! Oh, the
children, in wild delight, played in circles about
the queer, grotesque being, who set to work
destroying the snow-tomb. He threw it at
them in small crystal showers that called up,
each time as they fell, a burst of gleeful
laughter. He detached the bright toys from
his girdle, from his cap, from his elbows, from
his knees, and rained them down upon the little
ones who raced round him in their mad frolic.
Then he took off the false face and threw it far
away, and the people, in surprise, cried, “It is
the Professor!” and drew back awe-struck, to
think they had taken such liberties with so
renowned a scholar. But the children never
paused in their romp; and he said, while they
scrambled about him in merry laughter,—
“I have come back to you, children. I have
come back to you!”
And in his heart he cried, “I knew not what
life was; then how should I know of death?”
O, Immanuel Kant! O, transcendental school!
Here are those who teach a philosophy of
which you know nothing—a philosophy higher
200than the critics; a philosophy of life; a philosophy
of love; a philosophy of death that is no
sleep!
The sun came out and spread a jeweled
splendor on the snow, over which, hand-in-hand,
the happy children danced.
The Professor is an old man now, and the
fame of his learning has become great in the
land. And all the people tell about his funeral;
and how, every Christmas since, in his scarlet
clothes and furs, laden with “pretty things,”
he leads the children in their play, and scatters
on them a thousand toys, while they, in gleeful
groups, join their hands and dance.
201
THE FEVERFEW.
During my youth I suffered from a
naturally delicate constitution. I was
pale, feeble and sickly, but from no
decided disease. A dreamy, quiet cast of temperament
caused me to shrink from the rough
sports of my brothers; the contact of strangers
was equally disagreeable, and I seldom strayed
from home. Indeed, I lived almost entirely
within myself, although by no means devoid of
natural affection; on the contrary, my emotions
were strong, and my sympathy easily aroused.
How it happened that I acquired a love of
learning I do not know, all the outward circumstances
by which I was surrounded tending to
foster any thing rather than intellectual habits,
for our family, although each member possessed
a common education, were strictly practical;
but this difference in my disposition cut me off
202from their pursuits, and I found my chief enjoyment
in the volumes of a library to which I
obtained access.
Perhaps it was the sedentary life I led, the
close confinement, and lack of exercise, that
brought on a violent attack of sickness when I
was in my nineteenth year, so that I lay for several
weeks completely prostrated. During two
or three days my life hung as in a balance,
which a breath might have turned and launched
me beyond the confines of time. However, the
disease succumbed to the persevering attention
of experienced nurses. I arose from my weary
bed and found my physical health slowly improving,
but from that period I was subject at
irregular intervals to what the physician pronounced
temporary delirium, which I knew he
used as a milder term for insanity.
But it was not insanity. I never lost control
of my mind, but I lost control of my body. It
obeyed a will that was not my own. A mighty
antagonistic power seemed to creep over my
brain, which impelled my movements and held
my struggling soul in subjection. I presented
the singular phenomenon of one person governed
by two separate and distinct wills, for my
mind was not disordered, but only mastered by
superior strength. In this strange condition I
would see familiar objects magnified, exaggerated,
203and contorted, in an atmosphere varying
with all colors, at the same time being perfectly
conscious of their real appearance. I would
hear sounds sweet and musical grow into wails
of heart-rending despair. I could recognize my
friends when they were present, but was forced
to regard them with the cold eye of a stranger.
I would commit acts that no human agency
could have compelled me to do when my faculties
were untrammelled. I never submitted
without a struggle, and always felt conscious
that, if I could but once resist this seemingly
invincible power, if I could but once disregard
its promptings, I should be free.
The attacks were never of long duration.
They always left me utterly exhausted, and it
would sometimes require a week to recruit my
expended strength. I could afterward recall
every incident with the most distinct minuteness,
for they were branded in characters of fire on
my memory. Vainly I asserted again and again
that it was not delirium, that I was forced into
subjection to some mysterious power I could
not withstand; my statements made no impression
upon the physician, who evidently considered
mine but a common case of one suffering
from attacks of temporary insanity, and, when I
persisted in my statement, he forbade any further
reference to the subject.
204However, I could not prevent my mind from
continually dwelling upon it in secret. What
was this so foreign, so antagonistic to myself
that mastered my will, that controlled my
actions, that made me literally another being?
Why did I not shake off this evil influence and
be free? I felt perfectly conscious of possessing
the power, but was not able to arouse it
from a latent condition.
As I have said before, I was naturally of a
studious disposition, and I now turned my attention
to metaphysics. I read works, ancient and
modern, on its different branches; I studied
medical treatises on insanity, and, the more I
learned, the more thoroughly convinced I
became that I was not suffering from mental
aberration. Constant brooding over my disease
greatly wore upon my physical strength; traveling
was recommended, in hopes that change of
climate and scene might benefit my health. My
old aversion to strangers clung to me, and,
although possessed by a restlessness to which I
was wholly unaccustomed, I persistently refused
to leave home; no arguments could gain my
consent, so that my friends were forced to give
up the project in despair.
One morning, when more than the usual
gloom oppressed my spirits, I made an effort to
arouse myself and throw off the melancholy
205that was settling upon me, which each day I
felt to be growing more confirmed. I was
sitting by a window, which stood wide open,
and, just outside, a caged canary was singing
and fluttering its feathers in the warm spring
sunshine. The little bird was my particular
property, and I regarded it with an affection
which is rarely bestowed upon pets. With the
exception of my young sister, a child about four
years of age, this was the only living thing that
I had taken any interest in since my sickness.
I had trained the canary from the shell, and the
little creature seemed to repay all my care, for
from no other member of the family would it
receive caresses. I was so much afraid of its
being accidentally injured that I never allowed
it to be freed from the cage, except in my presence.
At my call it would fly about me, resting
on my head, shoulders, or hands, and chirping
in a perfect ecstasy of enjoyment.
I arose and opened the door of its prison,
then, reseating myself, softly whistled while it
darted into the air, wheeled once or twice, and
descended upon my hand. Stroking its spotless
yellow plumage, I regarded the little thing with
a degree of pleasure I had not experienced for
several weeks. But sudden horror almost
caused my heart to cease its beatings, and the
perspiration started from my forehead in great
206drops, for I felt my fingers slowly closing over
the delicate bird. Although I made an attempt
greater than the racking effort we sometimes
exert in the nightmare, I had no power to restrain
them. The canary fluttered in my clasp.
I would have dropped it, I would have shrieked
for help, but my muscles, my voice, my body,
obeyed me not, and my fingers, like the steady
working of machinery, gradually tightened their
relentless grasp. In my agony the veins of my
face protruded like lines of cordage. I heard
the frail bones breaking beneath the crushing
pressure, then my involuntary grip suddenly
relaxed, and the bird fell upon my knee, dead
and mangled!
At the same moment, I saw, through the open
door, my little sister playing upon the grass-plat;
and, almost before I was aware of moving, or
of any volition, I found myself walking rapidly
toward her, while my fingers twitched with a
convulsive, clutching movement. Good Heavens!
I already saw her face turn purple, and
heard her gasping breath smothered by gurgling
blood. With this terrible picture before my
mental vision, my brain felt as if it would burst
its bounds in the desperate, but unavailing effort
I made to turn back, to fly from the spot. But
I could not command myself. In that moment
I endured suffering more intense than language
207can describe. Perhaps my strange and wild
appearance frightened the child; for, in place
of holding out her arms to me, her favorite
brother, she fled crying to the nurse, who did
not observe my approach, and carried her into
the house. Saved! unconsciously saved—saved
from a fate too terrible to contemplate.
I sank insensible upon the ground, and, when
I recovered, found myself surrounded by the
family, each one applying some restorative, for
I had been in a long and death-like swoon.
Slowly, but distinctly, the recollections of the
events which had reduced me to this condition
presented themselves to my memory with all
their appalling horror, nearly depriving me again
of consciousness.
I did not refer in any manner to the subject,
which was also carefully avoided by all others
in my presence, for fear that it might produce
renewed excitement, and my friends had no
suspicion of the circumstances which brought it
about. The bird was found dead upon the floor,
and the family imagined that it had met with
some accident. They were evidently surprised,
when the fact was communicated to me, that I
made no remarks, for they had anticipated an
outburst of grief.
Grief! I did not suffer from grief; grief was
overpowered by the horror that racked my brain—horror
208for the act I had committed, and the
more fearful one which had been so mercifully
prevented. I had committed? No, it was not
my mind or will which had prompted my hand
to do the deed. I was innocent, even though
my fingers had dripped with the blood of a
sister; but the frightful thought filled me with
a terror that wrung my soul. I pondered continually
upon it. When might not this mysterious
demon again assert its evil control over me?
Strange as it may seem, I felt certain that it was
some foreign agency—I knew not what—that
mastered my will, and not the result of my own
intellect, in a disordered condition.
This overpowering dread of the future, of
what might happen, which took possession of
me, drove me to the decision of leaving home,
as the best way of avoiding danger to my
friends. Perhaps, too, if my physical health
became better, I might gain strength enough to
defy this infernal power; for, as I have said before,
I possessed a singular consciousness that,
if I could once successfully resist its promptings,
my soul would be liberated from thraldom. I
announced my determination of making a
journey, without any explanation of my sudden
change, and it was greeted with delight by my
friends and relatives, who were anxious to
hasten my departure while the humor was upon
209me; but they need not have feared any change
of purpose on my part, for I was haunted by this
terrible dread of the future, and I gladly said
farewell for a time to my home and birthplace.
The incidents of travel and of new scenes
broke the monotony, and dispelled to some degree
the gloom that had taken fast hold upon
me. In a short period I found myself rapidly
improving. Every week brought me an increase
of strength, and I suffered less frequently from
these frightful attacks. Although they occurred
at longer intervals than formerly, they seemed
to grow more severe in character; the conflict
was fiercer, and my mind made a more desperate
effort to gain the supremacy. My whole frame
would be racked by the intense struggle which
I constantly maintained, though I was constantly
vanquished.
The increasing delight I took in the scenery,
the continued exercise and excitement, almost
drove despair from me, and hope once more
brightened my countenance. I began to look
forward to the time when my health would be
entirely restored, and my body and mind be in
unison. I did not hope vainly, for the final
conflict came, and with it a strange termination
of my long sufferings.
I stood upon the side of an Eastern mountain.
Above my head vast rocks arose in solemn
210grandeur, their summits lost in canopied mists
which, gray and clinging, wrapped them in
obscurity. Below, a great chasm rent the
mountain; a yawning, bottomless gulf. While
I gazed, awed by the thought of its mysterious
depths, where no human eye had seen, where no
human foot had trod, a ray of light struggled
in and rested on gaunt trees, on snake-like
ferns, damp and cold, that clung to its slimy
sides, and on one pale flower which nodded in
the chill draught that came up, a palpable
horror, from the blackness of darkness. I turned
away. Near the western horizon dead clouds
were piled one above another, and their heavy
shadow lay brown and dark upon the sullen
earth. No wind stirred the forests, or rustled
their motionless leaves, and the awe of the unbroken
silence fell, with a dread oppression,
upon my heart.
Suddenly I was seized by an ungovernable
desire to possess the flower—the colorless flower
that hung far down in the death-damp of the
chasm. A freezing terror crept through my
blood as I recognized this decree of a will I had
never been able to disobey. I felt myself crawling
closer to the verge of the precipice; nearer,
yet nearer, until I sat within the very jaw of
the savage gulf. The dead clouds heaved their
shroud-like forms and wavered overhead. I
211heard the rush of subterranean waters sounding
a muffled requiem. The sickly flower with its
long stem writhed and twisted, as a serpent
stretches his folds into the air. Slowly back and
forth it swayed, glaring at me like a lustreless
eye.
My brain reeled, and all the forces of my
nature gathered up their increased strength for
one fierce and final conflict. I felt the blood
rage through my veins with the headlong fury
of cataracts. The very spring of life within me
was stirred and troubled, when, with one mighty
strain, I drew myself up and fell backward on
the grass.
The whole world went out in utter darkness.
Before my eyes stretched a vast, illimitable
gloom, when suddenly out of its impenetrable
depths above my head there grew and glimmered
faintly a thin and wavering mist. Folding
upon itself, it hung down, white and luminous,
a cloud of palpitating nebulæ. Pricked with a
thousand points of fire it gathered slowly to a
nucleus in the center—a flickering speck, a disc,
it flamed, blazed into a star, and lo! poised
midway in the air, an aureole of light, it rested
upon the brow of a female figure.
Her scornful eyes looked down upon me with
a lurid gleam that seemed to burn my soul. A
smile of derision sat upon her lips that were
212more vivid in hue than the vermilion dye. Her
locks were yellow as the sun at noontide; her
skin was white as the leper’s; her breath hot
as the desert air, and the light of the star upon
her forehead burned red with the frightful redness
of fresh blood. Suddenly I saw that the
murky clouds on either side her form swarmed
with a thousand dwarfed and warted shapes.
Black and hideous, they knotted, flitted to and
fro, in and out, with their formless claws and
tumultuous motion. She spread her wings.
Immediately there gathered all the dusky shapes—the
legion demons of delirium with their
needle eyes—and settled down upon her sable
plumes. A shrill phantom laugh rang out,
mocked itself by echoes that ran up in thin
shafts of sound to the skies, and the SPIRIT OF
FEVER had fled from me forever!
The rays of the sun as it sank to rest, slanting
through rose-colored avenues, fell upon the
gray mists, and crowned the mountain’s summit
in a rainbow of glory. The rising breeze swept
through the forests with a soothing sound, and,
eastward, the eye was lost in mellow lines of
golden haze, which to my soul freed from captivity,
seemed cathedral aisles of peace.
213
OLD SIMLIN, THE MOULDER.
“You’re right! I ain’t got no relatives
an’ nobody to look after, so thar
isn’t any sense in workin’ too much.
That’s just what I say.”
And that is just what he always did say, poor
Simlin, but he never ceased, notwithstanding.
Nearly every body that knew him and spoke to
him about it always found him quick to acquiesce:
“Thar was nothin’ plainer than what
they said, and it was just what he said, too.”
But it did not make the slightest difference, for
he continued to work away all the same; so
what else could be done but merely to give up
the question?
Now, if he had only expressed himself in
decided opposition, there might have been something
to hope for in the matter—at least, it
would have opened the way for an argument
214upon the subject; and, then, there was always
the possibility that he might be induced to
change his mind. However, his provoking approval
put the case wholly beyond reach. And
so old Simlin, toiling early and late, quietly
followed his vocation.
There was not a better moulder in the whole
foundry, or one that drew much higher wages.
But, then, he was getting old. To be sure, he
never had been young, so far as they knew any
thing about him, even ten years ago, when,
altogether unknown and friendless, he had first
made his appearance in the village. But these
ten years combined had not worn upon him like
the last one. His head now, if once the soot
had been removed, would not have shown a
single black hair; and his voice was weak and
cracked, and there was a visible trembling about
the old man’s legs. Perhaps he did imbibe
liquor; but nobody had any right to say so, for
nobody could prove that it was true. Only of
late he had a strangely confused manner when
anyone addressed him, and, raising his unsteady
hand nervously to his head, would repeat the
sentence that had been on his lips a hundred,
yes, a thousand times, until it had long ago
grown into a stereotyped form—“I ain’t got no
relatives an’ nobody to look after, so thar isn’t
any sense in workin’ too much.”
215Perhaps he really thought that the people
would never see that he was straining every
effort, using every moment of his time, though,
before the sun was up, and often after it was
gone, the old man was at his place. And Simlin
was always the first on hand if there was an
extra job that would bring an extra cent.
But, other than making the assertion that he
had no relatives, and nobody depending upon
him, and that he did not think it worth while
to work over-much, he never carried on a conversation.
That there was no one to look after
him was a self-evident fact. He lived utterly
alone, in a small cabin on the brow of the hill.
Rarely a soul but himself ever crossed its threshold.
Under the step the gray gophers made
their burrow, and, beneath the tall beech trees,
that threw down their prickly nuts, the brown
weasels played in peaceful groups. The shy
quail, sounding their whistle, fled among the
ferns; and above, from the myriad branches,
the beautiful wild doves mourned out their
perpetual sadness. At evening, when the sun
went down, and the long line of the Scioto
Hills flushed crimson with serene glory; when,
by slow degrees, the pageant of departing day
withdrew its gorgeous colors; even when the
valley below was black with the gloom of night,
the western radiance lingered, like the transforming
216light of some other land, upon the rude
cabin, standing on its high and solitary perch.
Empty and bare, it afforded but little protection
from the weather, for through it the
winds blew in Winter, and the rains dripped in
Summer. Simlin’s wants, however, appeared to
be few and simple. He seldom had a fire, even
at the coldest season. What he subsisted upon,
nobody knew. Once, perhaps, in two or three
days, he would buy a loaf of coarse bread from
the baker in the village, and his table evidently
was supplied in the most frugal manner.
The people put down his besetting sin to be
avarice; and the hut, if it contained no furniture,
was reported to contain wealth enough,
hidden away in its obscure cracks and corners,
to have draped its dreary boards in the most
costly velvet and lace, and encased its walls
with marble. Of course, he was a miser. More
than ten years now he had been at the foundry,
and not a cent of the wages which he drew
regularly had he spent, or put so much as a
farthing into the savings bank, where many of
the hands had laid up quite a pile. But, unlike
the majority of misers, the old man never complained
of being poor; indeed, he never complained
at all, or spoke of money in any way.
If the subject was brought up in his presence,
he either preserved utter silence or quietly got
217up and left; and, if driven to the last extremity,
and made to say something, he would remark,
running into the same old channel, that “It
didn’t much matter—he hadn’t any relatives
nor any body dependin’ upon him.”
So lonely and forlorn did he seem, and so
harmless withal—for the old man never was
known to do a mean action, or resent an angry
word—that many uncouth kindnesses had been
shown him on the part of the hands, with whom
he was by no means unpopular. Especially had
this been the case latterly; for, though he himself
was apparently unconscious of it, so terribly
broken had he become that the change was
sorrowful to behold; and, rude as were the
foundry-workmen, what there was pathetic in
the patient manner in which the feeble old
man silently worked on told upon them by
instinct.
There had even been an interest taken in him
up at the great house. Every season, “the
colonel,” as the owner and sole proprietor of
the Rocky Ford Foundry was called by all the
employes, brought his family down from the
city to spend a few months rusticating in the
beautiful Scioto Valley, where he had built a
summer residence for that purpose, and that he
might be near his great iron-works at the same
time. There was always gay company up at
218the house—visitors from town, who needed no
second invitation to entice them from the dust
of the city to this peaceful retreat among the
lovely hills of Ohio. Besides, the colonel had a
beautiful daughter, and every body liked the
“young misses.” Seldom, though, did she ever
go down to the foundry; never, indeed unless
some special object took her there.
Coming from her home a mile distant—this
home for her embowered in perpetual Summer
and wrapped in the peace that broods upon the
everlasting hills, where she could see, far off,
the golden meadow-lands and the more distant
Paint Ridge, with its transparent veil of mist;
this home from which she had often looked out
and listened to the blue Scioto, unflecked with
sail or skiff, struggling by day and night to tell
its mysterious story, as it flowed forever on its
lonely course—coming from this home, over
the narrow path that led down the slope to the
river’s edge, where the green rushes grew and
the wild columbine hung its bells above the
water—coming on, past the great rocks, where
the scarlet lichens flamed in the sun and the
blossoming alder displayed its drifted clusters;
coming still with active feet over the velvet
moss—coming from the lovely valley, coming
from the tranquil hills, when she entered the
foundry it seemed like stepping suddenly from
219the beautiful world into some haunt of evil
spirits.
Within the great dingy walls no shining sunlight
brightened the air. Dim and cheerless, it
hung laden with smoke and vapor, that floated
in clouds to the rafters. The harsh clang of
heavy machinery, together with the roar of the
furnaces, seemed to shake the very building.
Among the enormous wheels that whirled with
frightful velocity, and the immense belts that
whizzed above their heads, the workmen, black
and begrimed, looked small, weird and unearthly,
moving about upon the damp ground, with its
jet-like covering of charred cinders. The place
seemed an apparition of demons, performing in
some cavern of the lower regions their evil incantations.
No wonder the young lady seldom
went there. Its gloom fell upon her with a
heavy oppression, and her breath only came
freely when once more she found herself out in
the clear and open sunlight.
It happened in this manner that she first came
to take any notice of old Simlin: There were
gathered quite a party of young folks; and the
colonel, who had been in Cincinnati upon business,
had returned the previous evening, bringing
with him another gentleman, apparently a
stranger to the family.
It was at the breakfast-table that the company
220were discussing the “sights” of the neighborhood,
and debating whether they would take
him first over to Paint Creek upon a fishing-excursion,
or across the river to Mount Logan,
famous for having been the rendezvous of the
great Indian chief, when the colonel spoke up,—
“Why not begin at home?” he said. “Do
not fatigue him to death the first day, and I
am proud enough of my foundry to think it
might be of interest even to Mr. Safford; at
least I mean to have him shown over it before
he leaves.”
The young man, of course, immediately stated
that it would give him great pleasure, and the
whole company, to the most of whom it would
prove a novelty, gladly acquiesced in the proposition.
So it was decided, and two hours
later they all started on their way.
When they entered the foundry it seemed
more gloomy than ever, the atmosphere more
stifling, and the jar of the machinery more painfully
loud and discordant. Even the gay young
people who had chatted and laughed all the
morning felt the sudden change that involuntarily
subdued their merriment. They broke
up and scattered in twos and threes over the
place, following the lead of simple curiosity,
but the stranger-gentleman staid beside Helen,
the “young misses.”
221“What a queer, unreal place!” he said.
“One would never expect to find any thing
like it in this beautiful valley. Does it not
make you think, coming upon it suddenly out
of the sunlight, of the evil genii you have read
about in some fairy-tale long ago? And the
workmen, at whose bidding all this gigantic
power is brought into action, how small and
weird they look!”
The two had been slowly approaching the
great furnace, and, just as the gentleman ceased
speaking, the immense door was thrown open,
discovering, like a glimpse of the infernal regions,
the seething flame within. Though they
were not near enough to experience any inconvenience
from the heat, Helen uttered a frightened
exclamation and drew back; but the
gentleman stood as if spellbound, for immediately
in front of him from this opening streamed
a broad but sharply defined streak of blood-red
light, that fell full upon old Simlin, and transformed
the blackened cinders on the ground
beneath his feet into a mass of living embers.
As the old man straightened up, and was in
the act of raising his hand to shield his eyes
from the sudden illumination, they encountered
the stranger, and a mingled expression of
surprise and fright instantly struggled up
through their weak color. For a moment, like
222an apparition, he stood transfixed. The red
glare showed the old man’s shrunken figure;
it showed his attenuated arms and death-like
mouth, his tattered clothes and the few wisps
of his scant hair.
Mr. Safford had stopped simply at the startling
effect which the glow of the furnace had
produced, falling by accident upon a single
workman. But, when the man rose up, he
gazed at him, utterly taken aback by his strange
behavior.
For an instant, the old man stared without
moving a muscle, then his lips began to work
convulsively, and, raising his hand before his
face, as if to screen it from view, he half uttered
an unintelligible sentence and sank down. At
the same time, the door of the furnace had been
closed, shutting off the brilliant light that for a
moment had so strangely thrown him into
violent relief.
For a second, Safford almost thought the
whole thing had been an optical illusion, or
some hallucination of his own brain; then,
stepping forward, he saw the old man lying in
a heap upon the ground.
The young lady, recovering immediately from
her sudden fright at the unexpected blaze, had
seen the workman fall, and, coming up, asked,
in a terrified voice,—
223“What is the matter? Oh, he is dead!” she
exclaimed, kneeling down beside him.
“No, he is not dead. Run for some brandy—quick!”
Mr. Safford called to the nearest hand.
Then, assisted by one of the men, he raised the
prostrate figure, not a heavy burden, and carried
it out into the open air.
“I allus thought old Simlin’d come to this,”
said the man who had helped in carrying him.
“We all knowd he was over-workin’ himself.”
“Why? Was he so feeble?” asked Mr.
Safford, while he bathed the grimy forehead
with his wet handkerchief.
“Feebil? He’s that feebil he’s just been
of a trembil all over; and he’s getting pretty
much used up here, too,” said the man, dropping
his voice, and significantly touching his
forehead. “It’s my idee he’s not booked for
this world much longer.”
“Poor man!” said Miss Helen, leaning tenderly
over the pale face that still showed no
symptoms of returning consciousness; “how
very thin and emaciated he is! Has he no wife
or family to take care of him?”
“That’s just it, ma’am! That’s just what
he’s allus harpin’ on! He says he ain’t got no
relatives, and nobody to look after, and—”
The young lady suddenly raised her hand
224with a warning gesture; and, before the workman
had ceased speaking, old Simlin opened his
eyes. He looked around for a moment in a
bewildered way; then his uncertain glance,
falling upon the gentleman kneeling by his
side, immediately became fixed, and grew into
a wild stare. Raising himself unsteadily upon
his elbow, still with his eyes fixed upon him,
the old man threw out his trembling arm with
a gesture as if addressing the whole company,—
“It’s a lie! Who said I had any relatives,
or any body to look after? I hain’t! It’s a
lie—a lie, I say! I never seen you before.
He’s a stranger!”—still keeping his arm extended,
and appealing excitedly to those around
him—“you all know he is a stranger. I ain’t
got no relatives, nor any body to look after!”
It was evident enough that what the workman
had told them about his intellect was too
true, they all thought, as they looked at each
other with a quick glance.
“I tell you I don’t know you, sir! It’s all
a lie. I never seen you before! I—”
“No, you never saw me before.”
Mr. Safford had spoken, hoping to soothe
him; but, instead, the sentence appeared to
act upon the old man like an electric battery,
for he raised himself into a sitting posture, and,
with his head bobbing violently about, fairly
225screamed, his cracked voice running into high
treble,—
“That’s right!—that’s right! Do you all
hear it? He says I never seen him before. It’s
all a lie about my havin’ got any relatives. I
hain’t! I never seen him before—You heerd
him say so—you all heerd him?” he inquired,
for the first time, taking his pale, watery eyes
from the gentleman, and looking, in a frightened,
appealing way, round the group.
Then his strength seemed to fail suddenly,
and he fell back upon the grass, panting for
breath.
At this moment the colonel came up, and
knelt down by his side. He uttered his name
several times, and even put his hand upon the
wrinkled forehead; but the old man, with
vacant eyes fixed on the sky, paid no heed,
though his lips trembled.
“I have ordered a wagon. It will be here
directly. He must be taken to the house, where
he can receive every attention. Poor man! I
am afraid this will be about the last. I have
expected it for a long time. Here, Safford, help
me to lift him,” he added, as Hendricks came
back with the wagon.
“Safford! Safford! Who called me Safford?”
said the old man, suddenly looking round in a
terrified manner. “I—I’ve been a dreamin’,”
226uttering a weak laugh. “It’s not my—I mean
nobody said it. I never heerd that name before.
It’s darned funny, ain’t it? but I never even
heerd that name before in my life! You know
I didn’t”—growing wild and excited again—“you
know it’s a lie! I ain’t got no relatives,
nor nobody to look after.”
The gentlemen, without speaking, stooped
to raise him; but he struggled violently, and,
keeping his eyes still fixed on the younger one,
he cried, with such an extreme distress upon his
face, that they involuntarily drew back,—
“No, no! I’m not fit to be near you. Stand
off! You’re a fine gentleman; it’s not for the
likes of you to touch me!”
Then turning toward the colonel, he muttered
some inarticulate apology, and actually
staggered, unaided, to his feet,—
“I’m ’bliged to ye all,” he said, nodding his
head up and down, and backing, with uncertain
steps, toward the foundry, as if afraid to
take his eyes from the party as long as he was
within their sight. “Thar ain’t nothin’ the
matter with me! I jest felt faint a spell from
the heat—the heat. It ain’t nothin’, an’ it’s
gone now! I’ll go back to my work agin—I’m
all right—I’m ’bliged to ye! It was jest
the heat as overcum me—jest the heat—” and,
with a painful smile upon his thin lips, still
227muttering unintelligible excuses, he tottered
into the building.
For a moment, taken by surprise, the group
remained motionless. Then Helen said; “Poor
old man! I declare, it almost made me cry
only to look at him!—Father, you will have
him cared for; you will not allow him to work
any more?”
“No. He is dreadfully broken down, and
I have heard the hands say that, latterly, he
was breaking in his mind, too; but I did not
know it was so bad. I will see that he does as
little as possible; but he will never quit until
he gives out utterly, and he can not hold on
long in this condition. Strange, Safford,
how the sight of you seemed to excite him!
Did you notice with what a wild, terrified gaze
he stared at you, as if he had been hunted down?
and, when you stooped to raise him up, he
almost drew himself into a knot. I did not
suppose, when I saw him on the ground, that
he had strength enough left to stand on his feet
without help; and it seemed as if it was this
fear of you that inspired him with the power.”
The younger man stood leaning against the
tree from which he had not moved.
“Yes,” he replied, “it was strange; I noticed
it. How long have you had him in your
employ?”
228“More than ten years, and he has been
about the most valuable hand in the foundry.”
“Then I’m sure, father, you will take care
of him, and not let him work any more?” said
Helen, again.
“Yes—yes, child! don’t bother yourself so—of
course I will;” but the younger gentleman
turned toward her quickly, while his face
lighted up, then checked himself abruptly in
what would have been an eager gesture of
gratitude, and looked away without saying a
word.
They remained a few moments to hear that
the old man had recovered, and when the messenger
reported him working at his place quietly
as usual, without re-entering the foundry, or
waiting for their companions, the two started
homeward. Helen’s reluctance to go back into
the building again had been so manifest that the
gentleman could hardly do otherwise. Not
until the straggling little village and the
smoke of the great foundry were left in the
distance did she fairly draw a breath of relief,
and even then they still walked on almost in
silence.
The day had reached its noon. On the river
flowing past the lances of the sun broke into a
thousand flakes of fire that followed each other
over its surface in myriad ranks; and on either
229side, where the twisted birch reached out its
branches, the waves with a grateful murmur
turned up their cool white crests.
There was no loud hum of grasshoppers.
Hardly a leaf stirred upon the trees, hardly a
bird fluttered its wings. Even the far-off mists
had disappeared, and a hush was on the hills—a
hush as of awe before the splendor of the sky.
No wonder they spoke but little. Almost
solemn was the glory of the day in its noon.
Yet perhaps neither one felt this influence which
rested upon the land, and subdued alike to
silence the peewee and the bobolink. It may
be that the girl was not wholly unconscious of
the scene, but it was certainly some other influence
that wrapped her companion in abstraction.
He saw not even the checkered shade
that fell in arch and groin upon their path.
They were half-way home. Rousing himself
suddenly with an effort, as if but just aware of
this long abstraction, he said, for lack of any
thing better,—
“Miss Helen, do you like the country?”
“Dearly. I love these hills and the river.
The time I spend here is the happiest part of
my life.”
“And are you not always happy?” he inquired.
“You should be.”
A strange gentleness in his tone as he uttered
230the last words made Helen look up quickly as
she answered him with a smile,—
“I am. I never had a trouble in my life.”
They had reached the turn where the path
led up the slope from the foot of the hill.
“Do not go back to the house,” he said; “let
us sit down here a little while in the shade. I
feel strangely oppressed, and the four walls of
a room would suffocate me.”
Apparently, he had uttered the last sentence
involuntarily, as he took off his hat, and passed
his hand several times across his forehead, for,
catching his breath quickly, he added, as if by
way of an apology,—
“It is so much pleasanter in the open air, and
I am less fortunate than you. I seldom have a
chance to enjoy the country.”
He had evidently spoken truly, however,
when he said he felt strangely oppressed, for
his eyes wandered up the valley, far off to the
remote Paint Ridge, yet he did not see the glittering
Scioto, or how Summer sat enthroned in
royal pomp upon the hills.
There was a thoughtful, almost anxious expression
on his face. Presently he added, in a
tone of voice as if they might have been discussing
the subject at the moment, and which
showed his mind was still occupied wholly by
the incident at the foundry,—
231“Miss Helen, had you ever seen that man
before?”
“What man?” she inquired. “The workman,
you mean?”
“Yes, the old moulder.”
“No. I have often heard them speak of him. I
rarely go to the foundry; it is gloomy, and
the hands are so rough father does not like to
have me come in contact with them in any way,
so I do not know one from another. I did not
recollect at first, but I remember now hearing
him say that old Simlin was queer, that he was
a miser, and that he lived all alone on the Spring
Hill. But I am sure father did not know he
was so feeble, or how he was losing his mind.
I can’t help feeling sorry for him. It must be
dreadfully sad, ignorant though he is, to grow
old and have not a soul on the earth to care for
him.”
Again the gentleman turned to her, as she
spoke, with a sudden emotion in his eyes that
would have called the color to her cheeks had
she seen it, but in another instant he had looked
away, and the troubled cloud settled back once
more upon his features.
“The river is beautiful,” he said, after a
pause; “see how the fire dances down its
surface.”
He had dismissed the subject from their conversation,
232if not from his own thoughts. More
than an hour later Helen sprang up with a conscious
blush upon her face as the sound of
approaching voices told her how the time had
fled. Ah, for her at least it had been wafted
by on silver wings! They both joined the
party, and all went together to the house.
There, almost immediately, Mr. Safford excused
himself and went to his room.
Shut in alone, the same anxious, troubled
expression he had worn when he looked unconsciously
up the river came back upon him as he
walked thoughtfully to and fro across the floor.
The incident at the foundry had affected him
singularly. He could not throw off its depressing
influence. Why, he asked himself—why
did the face of the old man haunt him perpetually—the
thin, wrinkled face, as it had looked
at him with sudden surprise and terror struggling
up through its watery eyes? Why did the
cracked voice, with its accent of fright, ring
constantly in his ears? If it were but the wild
vagary of an unsettled mind, why should he
give it any heed? “I am nervous,” he muttered
to himself. “They said the man was crazy,
and surely I never saw him before—no, I
never saw him before. Then why should the
sight of me have so excited him? Probably
another stranger would have done the same.
233I am foolish—and they said the man was
crazy—”
He still paced the floor of his room up and
down, while he tried to argue himself out of the
unreasonable hold which the circumstance had
taken on his mind. “I wish I could forget it!”
he exclaimed. Then walking to the window,
and looking out mechanically, he said slowly to
himself, as if weighing well his words,—
“It is not possible; no, it is not possible that
here I am going to find any clew. The man was
crazy, that is all.”
He returned again, however, not the least
relieved, to his track over the carpet, and,
before he went down stairs, he had determined
that he would “wait and see.” He would not,
as he had previously intended, leave the place
within a day or two. He could not go away
until he had satisfied himself about the matter
wholly, and in the mean time he would find
out what he could in regard to the old man.
He did not make any inquiries of the family,
and the only information he could gain was
simply what he had been already told.
His sleep that night was strangely disturbed.
Over and over in his troubled slumber a thin,
shrunken figure stood with its trembling arm
stretched out toward him. It was always before
him, even when sometimes there flitted through
234his dreams the form of one whose face was fair
as the morning, whose hair was yellow as the
reaper’s wheat. He rose feeling little refreshed.
The night, instead of lessening, had but
strengthened the hold which the incident of
the previous day had taken upon him, and
against which he struggled without avail.
The colonel’s prophecy did not prove incorrect
when he said Simlin could not last long,
for, just as the family were rising from the
breakfast-table, a messenger arrived, saying the
old man was lying insensible in his cabin. It
seemed he did not make his appearance at the
foundry at his usual time, and, after waiting an
hour in vain, Hendricks, who suspected something
might be wrong, sent one of the hands to
the hut, where he was found in this condition.
“Tell Hendricks I will see to him immediately,”
the colonel said to the messenger, as he
retired; then turning to young Safford, who
stood with his hat in his hand, inquired, “Are
you going out?”
“I will go with you, if you have no objection.
I may be of some service, and I am in need of
exercise at any rate.”
He hesitated as he spoke, endeavoring to
cover the unusual interest which he took in the
matter, and the excitement he felt that the
news had brought upon him.
235“Why, my dear fellow, you are absolutely
pale this morning! Our country air ought to
do better for you than this. Yes, I wish you
would go with me. I don’t know exactly what
is to be done. If old Simlin is very ill, he can
not be moved, and anyhow there is no road
leading up that side of the Spring Hill, nothing
but a narrow foot-path, which I guess he has
worn himself, for nobody else ever goes in that
direction. The cabin must have been originally
put up by hunters. The place is so lonely and
inaccessible, I have often tried in vain to prevail
upon him to come down into the village. He is
a strange man, almost a hermit in his habits.”
“Father, can not I go along with you? Maybe
I can do something for him, too, if he is sick.”
“You, Helen?” said her father, smiling.
“What can you do for such a person? No, no,
child, it is no place for you. I do not like to
have you go among any of these wretched
people.”
He stooped and kissed the fair countenance
raised so entreatingly to his. A swift expression
of pain had come across the younger
gentleman’s face as the colonel spoke, but the
girl persisted, and her father reluctantly gave
his consent.
“Well, well, as you will! Tell Margaret to
put a few things into a basket with some wine
236and brandy, and tell Jake to follow us with it
immediately. We may need him anyhow, and
he has no work to do about the house this
morning. I can not spare Hendricks from
the foundry, and very likely, if we can not
move Simlin, the hut will have to be fixed up a
little.”
Losing no time, they started on their errand
of mercy. The walk was long, but well shaded.
Down the hill, along the valley, up the hill, all
Nature seemed reveling in an excess of joy.
The little song-sparrows, wild with delight,
united in a jubilant choir; the blackbirds called,
and called, and called; the orioles, in myriad
numbers, fluttered their golden wings; and
sometimes a chaffinch loitered for a moment in
her flight to the far-off wheat fields.
It seemed strange that there should be any
misery, any suffering. The girl could not realize
it until they came out on top of the Spring
Hill to the little clearing where the cabin stood,
which, in its utter desolation, appeared to overwhelm
her. There was no sign of a human
presence any where. A silent robin sat idly on
the chimney-top, while its mate flitted wistfully
over the sunburnt grass. The place was so
lonely that the gentle wind seemed to smother
a sob. Below, the wide valley stretched away
to the remote sky. And in this wretched hovel,
237on this solitary site, old Simlin lived, like one
ostracized from society.
“Wait here a moment,” said the colonel,
“while I go in first, and I will come and tell
you.”
He left them in the shade of the tall beech
trees, and they saw him go into the cabin.
Though neither had spoken, they knew that
upon each heart rested the same burden of
dread. In the moment that followed there
came over the young man an almost sickening
anxiety, but the girl stood, awed only by the
thought that perhaps even then the black wings
of Death might be settling unknown within
their very presence. Then she saw her father
come to the door and beckon—the old man at
least was not dead—and they went in together.
The place was far more bare and desolate than
even its exterior had appeared. The rough boards
of the floor were shrunken apart. Through
the windows, unshielded by even a plank, the
glaring light poured in a pitiless flood. A
broken chair or two were propped against the
wall, and in the corner an old pine table stood
in a precarious condition upon its uneven legs.
There, stretched across the wretched bed
dressed in his grimy clothes, just as they had
seen him at the foundry twenty-four hours ago,
the old man lay insensible. All their restoratives
238were powerless to rouse him from this
heavy stupor. Not even a muscle responded to
their efforts. The half-closed eyes were glazed.
There was no quiver now about the bloodless
lips. The thin, emaciated face seemed thinner,
more emaciated, for over all the features rested
that sunk expression which those who look upon
it behold with despair at their hearts. But for
the slow rise and fall of his chest, they might
have thought the last glimmer of life had died
out of that frail form forever.
It was plain that they could not dare to move
him, and the colonel carefully shaded the
window with a few pieces of plank, still leaving
free access to the air. Helen had quietly taken
all the things from the basket, and set them
ready for use, though there was little chance
now that they could be of any avail. Safford
stood at the foot of the bed, utterly unconscious
of every thing at the moment but the prostrate
figure before him. Since he entered the
room he had hardly changed his position, only
that he folded his arms across his breast, and
drooped his head a little, as if in that attitude
he might the more intently watch the sleeper.
When the colonel came and spoke to him he
started up as if frightened, like one out of a
dream, so that the elder man looked at him in
surprise; but Safford, with a strong effort controlling
239himself, said quickly, in a husky voice,—
“I beg your pardon. You startled me!”
“I only wanted to know how long you thought
he could last?”
“I can not tell. It may be until evening,
hardly longer.”
He was right. The day wore on without any
apparent change until about the going down
of the sun, when the old man moved a little.
They had once or twice dropped a few drops of
wine between his lips, but this was the first
symptom of any break in the heavy stupor
which had held him so long in its death-like
embrace. His respiration quickened, and became
audible. He muttered one or two incoherent
sentences, then a tremor passed over
his features, and he opened his eyes.
Helen, whom her father had vainly endeavored
during the afternoon to persuade into going
home, stood with her head turned away; and
the colonel, too intent upon watching the dying
man, did not notice Safford, from whose face, at
the first struggle in the inanimate form, every
particle of color fled, and who, trembling
violently all over, clutched the bed for support.
The old man for a moment looked about the
room blankly, as if a haze obscured his vision.
Raising himself slowly on his elbow, his face
lighted up, and he opened his lips to speak, but
240as suddenly the light faded out, his features
quivered pitiably, and he sank down, saying,
brokenly, in an accent of despair,—
“Dead—she is dead! She is dead!”
Then, starting up wildly, he cried out,—
“Do not look at me like that, Hetty; you
will kill me! It was not for the likes o’ me to
have married you. Now you are so white an’
thin, an’, Hetty, when I took ye to the church,
yer cheeks were redder nor the summer rose.
Oh, forgive me, Hetty—forgive me!”
A terrible struggle in his throat compelled
him to pause for a moment, then he went on with
rapid utterance, and an entreaty whose distress
could hardly find expression in words:—
“No, no, Hetty, do not ye call the little one
that; I can not bar it!—not that, not my name!
I swear to ye, he shall not take after the likes
of his father—he must not be like me! Hetty,
I swear to ye, if I live, he shall never hear a low
word, nor touch a drop o’ whisky! He shall
have learnin’, an’ be a gentleman—a fine gentleman.
Hetty, I’ve been a worthless dog—a
brute, a beast! I can’t hardly look at ye now—I
darn’t, thar’ is sich a shinin’ light about yer
face—but hear me, Hetty, I swear to ye, the
little one, even if ye will call him George Safford,
shall grow up to be a hon—Hetty, you are so
still! O Hetty!—dead! she is dead—dead!”
241Both the colonel and Helen turned with
astonishment to young Safford when the old
man, in his delirium, had spoken his name;
but the latter, unconscious of their surprise,
with a single cry, sprang forward, and supported
the exhausted figure in his arms as it
sank back.
“Father—my father!” The words broke
from his lips in a voice painfully choked by
emotion.
There was another severe struggle for breath,
then, with renewed strength, the old man raised
himself into a sitting posture, and, looking
round quickly, began in a hurried manner,
fumbling about with his hands,—
“I’ll go some place else; he mustn’t see me
agin! He mustn’t never know as I’m alivin’.
He mustn’t never be disgraced by the likes o’
me.” He paused a moment, and the expression
of his face changed. “It’s a lie!” he cried,
fiercely; “I ain’t got no relatives, nor any body
to look after! It’s all a lie!” Then, shivering
suddenly, he said, lowering his voice, and speaking
softly to himself: “It’s cold, but I’ll not
have no fire. Work—I must work! He’s a
gentleman. I said he should be a gentleman—and
he’s got learnin’—lots o’ learnin’——No,
no! I never seen you before—I never seen you
before!”
242The wild, terrified voice died with a rattling
sound in his throat.
“Father, father, speak to me! It is I,
George!”
Safford, in his agony, fell upon his knees.
During the moment that followed there was
profound silence; then Simlin opened his eyes,
and said, gently,—
“George! the little George!” A radiant
light rested upon his thin face. He raised his
trembling hands, and passed them unsteadily
over the man’s head. “Yer hair is soft an’
black as hern, George. Hist! Don’t ye hear
her singin’?—Why, Hetty, I’m a-comin’,
Hetty!—I’m a-comin’——”
243
THE ANTHEM OF JUDEA. — I. — II.
At the foot of the hill stood a low, old-fashioned
frame house, with a picket-fence
round the yard, which ran down
to a small stream that sometimes flowed along
slowly, and sometimes with a great rush, and
sometimes slept tranquilly beneath a sheeting
of ice. Nearly a mile off, smooth and level,
with pleasant streets, and a church whose spire
shone in the sunlight long after the evening
shade had crept over the ground, was the village
of Pickaway, the gem of Paint Valley.
From there, two days in every week, to the
quaint old-fashioned house at the foot of the
hill, the children wended their way with music
folios, coming loiteringly in Summer over the
narrow foot-path where the wild columbine
244grew by the creek, but in Winter walking hurriedly
over the frozen turnpike, swinging their
arms, blowing their fingers, and sometimes doing
battle bravely with the snow.
Here Franz Erckman lived in the plainest
manner, with only his piano and his cottage-organ
for companions. Wife and children he
had none, nor any relative, nor any domestic
pet. There was never a dog, or cat, or even so
much as a chicken, to be seen about the premises.
One servant he kept, to be sure, but she,
a cross old woman, never opened her mouth for
the purpose of speech more than a dozen times in
a year, and then it was only upon some unusual
provocation, as when the scholars broke a
pitcher, or muddied her floor, when she would
give utterance to some incoherent but disagreeable
ejaculation.
Franz Erckman had lived in this way for
nearly twenty years, and was just as bluff in
manner, and just as reserved in disposition, as
when he had first come there, an unknown
young foreigner, without friends, or acquaintances,
or money, and commenced in a modest
way giving music-lessons to a few pupils at first,
to many after a time.
When the new church was built, and a new
organ with great gilded pipes put in, his services
were engaged, as well they might, for no other
245person in the whole village could have made
any thing whatever out of all those stops, and
pedals, and keys.
Now that Pickaway had grown to be quite a
town, with a very respectable hotel, many tourists
came down in the summer season from the
city to rusticate for a week or two, and they
always heard the organist with astonishment.
Inquiries about him were so often repeated by
these cultivated strangers, that Pickaway had
finally grown to feel proud of its musician, and it
became as natural to them to show off Franz
Erckman as it did to call attention to the beautiful
scenery. It would have been hard to have
overlooked either, for a more picturesque landscape
could rarely have been found.
However, all this praise and adulation had
apparently made little effect upon the village
music-master, who had been again and again
invited to come up for one season to the city by
these friendly tourists. They held out to him
the allurements of the orchestras and operas,
and told wonderful tales of the superb voices of
the great prime donne. It was all in vain. He
always thanked them for their proffered hospitality,
but never accepted it, and lived along,
seemingly content enough to teach the village
children, and play the church-organ. Only his
one servant knew how at night, and sometimes
246all night through, he tried ineffectually to satisfy
his great craving for music, and how, not until
the pale light of morning was visible in the east,
would he shut his cottage-organ. And when
he turned from it there was always a strange
expression of despair upon his features.
The people of the town said he was penurious,
for he invariably exacted the tuition of each
scholar in advance, and if at the appointed time
it was not forthcoming, he quietly dismissed the
pupil without a word, and there were no more
lessons given until the quarter had been paid.
However, they grew to know him so well that
every body fell into the habit, in his case at
least, of being punctual.
So, working steadily year after year, as he had
done, with almost no expenses of living, Pickaway
thought he must have laid by quite a
fortune, and when the Widow Massey, poverty-stricken
though she was, made up her mind to
send her little daughter—her only child—the
poor, weak, crippled little Alice, who went
every Sunday to the church, and listened with
such deep delight to the strains of the great
organ—when the Widow Massey made up her
mind to send her daughter to the music-master,
and give her this one pleasure, that it might
brighten somewhat the life so early blighted,
all the people thought he would surely take the
247child for nothing. But he did not—he took
the money, the full amount; and, if the people
made sarcastic remarks about his penuriousness,
they never offered to pay for the little girl.
And the mother never thought of asking a favor
from any one. Though she earned by hard
labor scarcely enough to keep them, still for the
last year she had had this thought at heart, and
quietly saved a little at a time, until finally the
long-coveted sum was in her possession; and
gladly she went and gave it to the music-master,
who put it down at the bottom of his vest-pocket,
and told her to send the little girl
twice a week. And twice a week the little girl
went.
That was in the Summer. She was pale,
and thin, and delicate, and the scholars all wondered
how she would get there through the snow
in the Winter. But before the bleak winds
had blown one rude blast, the little Alice had
a worse trouble. The Widow Massey suddenly
fell ill and died, commending her beloved child
to the care only of the great Guardian above.
It was a terrible stroke, and the people all
wondered what would become of the helpless
daughter, who was too feeble to do any kind of
work for a means of subsistence, and every
person thought it strange that somebody else
did not come to her relief.
248It was very sad. The poor little creature
seemed fairly racked with grief, and had sat by
the side of her dead mother day and night.
On the afternoon of the funeral they tried in
vain to take her away, until Franz Erckman
came, and the people in surprise saw him lift
her up in his arms without a struggle, and
quietly carry her out of the house. They saw
him, still with her arms clasped tight about
his neck, crossing the green pastures, strike the
narrow foot-path by the creek, and disappear
as the path turned behind the heavy foliage
that was brilliant in the scarlet dyes of October.
It was not one of the days upon which he
gave lessons. There was only the ripple of
water over the stones and the rustle of leaves
that occasionally blew down from the trees, to
break the profound quiet of the place as he passed
through his gate. Not one word had been
spoken, and still in perfect silence he carried
the frail little being, that he could feel trembling
from head to foot—he carried her across
the broad veranda and into the pleasant parlor—not
the room that the scholars used, but where
his cottage-organ stood. Then he drew the
sofa up beside the instrument and laid her
down upon it.
Her fingers unclasped with a convulsive
movement, and Franz turned his face away, for
249the child had not uttered a sound. Her eyes,
dry and unnaturally bright, wore a startled
look, a mute, beseeching expression, like the
eyes of a wounded animal, and the pallor of
her countenance, that had a wild grief branded
upon it, was almost as ghastly in hue as death.
It was suffering terrible to behold, and the
hands of the strong man trembled as he opened
the mahogany case of his organ.
There was a moment’s silence; then music,
soft and sorrowful, floated out on the air gently,
almost timidly; so very mournful, that the
strain, beautiful though it was, seemed to have
in it a human cry of pain. It was a language
that could appeal to the heart when word or
lip failed.
The child’s whole frame shook beneath the
heavy sobs that swelled up in her throat, and
the great grief had opened its flood-gates. Hour
after hour he played untiringly, while the violence
of the storm spent itself. The music, at
first sorrowful, hurt, had cried out in its pain;
then it grew into a measure so yearning, it
seemed the very genius of sympathy. Making
an intense appeal, it swelled into a great passion,
which gradually became exhausted by
its own intense vehemence, until about the
going down of the sun it died. And the child
slept.
250The wild storm of anguish was over. Upon
the face, the thin, pale face of the little girl in
her slumber, there shone an expression of such
absolute rest that Franz, with a sudden movement,
bent down his head and listened. Had
she passed with the music to the land where
there are strains that swell into a gloria never
ending? He held his breath. Was this the
reflection of that peace eternal, that rest which
endureth forever? A sob quivered for a moment
on her features, and escaped from the lips
of the sleeper. No, no, for sorrow showed its
painful presence. She was not dead, and, at
the sigh, sad though it was to see, the man
arose with a smothered exclamation of relief.
The quiet day was drawing to its close.
Within the room the shadows were already thickening;
without, long lines of mist festooned the
hills in plumes of royal purple, and the red haze
of Indian-summer had gathered into broad
streamers that unfurled their splendor across
the tranquil sky. The floating twilight hung
over the wide and level pastures. Down by
the creek the scarlet sage still showed its coral
fringe, and sometimes the woodbine, close by
the house, waved its painted leaves. Far off in
the filmy vale the group of maples that had
stood crowned with a golden glory now shrouded
themselves in black; and beyond, like a long
251stretch of desolate shore, the great gloom lifted
up its chilly banks.
Many times from the window in his parlor
Franz Erckman had watched the divine pageant
of night ascend the valley in all the pomp and
grandeur of its magnificence, in all the solemn
majesty of its silence, in all the ineffable depths
of its sadness. Many times in his loneliness he
had seen it pass, when a vision of the fair Rhineland
would come back to his heart. Many times
through its profound solitude he had looked out
with yearning eyes, with listening ears, striving
to comprehend its sublime mystery. Many
times he had turned to it with a soul oppressed
by despair reaching toward the Infinite. For,
though the people did not know it, beneath the
rough exterior of this reserved German dwelt a
love of the beautiful—a love so passionate
sometimes, it seemed crushing his very spirit
that he could not give it utterance in his music.
Then it was that often he would rise from his
organ in bitter disappointment, and go out with
his trouble to seek consolation from the night—the
night forever wan with her own unspoken
sorrow.
But he stood watching the face of the sleeper,
paying no heed to the gathering shade. He
stooped and arranged the cushions about the
fragile form with the gentle touch of a woman,
252while upon his features there rested an expression
more beautiful than they could ever borrow
from the softened light of the evening.
“She would have died,” he said to himself.
“But for the music, I believe she would have
died! The chords of the organ spoke to her
when all earthly words failed. She, at least,
can understand the language I have been striving
to learn.”
Frail little creature! She appeared, indeed,
like a spirit of some other world. Her every
nerve had vibrated in sympathy, and Franz
could hardly help thinking, as he looked at her,
that, soundless to human ears, there played
about her ceaseless strains of melody. Music
seemed to be the vitality that gave her life, the
only nourishment that fed her soul.
When she first came to him for instruction,
he quickly discovered that she possessed not the
least power of execution, and then had taken
no special notice of her further. Wrapped up
in his art, teaching the children had never been
a pleasure to him. He compelled himself to
endure it as a means of subsistence.
The great object for which he worked was
once to secure means enough to keep penury
always from his door, and then give himself up
unreservedly to this art which he loved better
than his life. So he took no particular interest
253in any of his scholars, and it was only when
he saw how eagerly the little Alice drank in
every sound, that gradually he began to observe
the child more narrowly. As he had at first
seen, she possessed no power of execution
whatever. She could not even learn to read
the notes, and she would probably never be
able to play a single bar correctly. But he had
noticed how keenly alive she was to harmony,
how peculiarly sensitive to discord. It seemed
as though her lessons were a constant pain. Yet
she came eagerly, and often lingered when they
were finished.
He had found her once, late in the day, when
he had been playing dreamily to himself, sitting
on the veranda near the window of his parlor,
listening with a rapt attention, wholly unconscious
of any thing but his music. Since that,
when she came to take her lesson, he had always
played for her, carelessly at first, but after a
time with greater interest, until gradually he
had given up altogether any effort to instruct
her, and in its place each day played for her the
oratorios and symphonies of the great composers.
Then he had changed from the piano to
his organ, and he had grown to wait nearly as
anxiously for the hour to come round as the
little girl herself.
By degrees the visits of the child became to
254him almost indispensable. He seemed to feel
always a strange inspiration come upon him in
her presence. Why, he did not know; but it
was then that sometimes the wild tumult, the
infinite longings of his soul struggled into expression.
But, when the child went, he would
find himself again dejected, and wholly unable
even to recall the strains which seemed to have
died at the very moment of their birth.
Franz stood, still watching her motionless
form. The sobs, quivering through her sleep,
had one by one exhausted themselves, and left
her face strangely peaceful to look upon.
“She is mine,” he muttered. “I will never
part with her. She is my spirit of sound!”
Suddenly he heard the grating noise of footsteps
on the graveled walk. Turning quickly,
he drew the curtain over the window to shield
the sleeper from the damp night-air. Then he
went softly out and closed the door after him,
wrapped once more in his severe reserve, and
with the old stern expression upon his features.
His brows knit themselves into a frown, and
his lips curled for a moment with a smile of
contempt when he recognized the figure coming
into the hall.
“Ha! Erckman, good-evening,” said the man,
in a loud and boisterous tone, which seemed to
dissipate all the serenity of the night in its
pompous swell.
255“Good-evening.”
If it had been the first time they had ever
met, Franz could not have spoken with colder
formality as he showed his guest into the piano-room.
Mr. Cory claimed to be the richest man in
Pickaway, and very likely it was true. He
owned hundreds of green and fertile acres, with
cattle sleek and fat. He was ruling elder in
the church, and his wife bought all her bonnets
and flounces in the city, and they had built the
finest house in the whole of Paint Valley. Indeed,
nothing was done without his presence,
and every one, from the minister to the sexton,
received his advice, which he distributed far
more liberally than he did his money. So it was
that Franz had mentally guessed the object of his
visit the instant he recognized him in the hall.
“Fine weather, this.”
The organist made no more audible reply to
the remark than a half-uttered grunt, as he
struck a match down the corner of the mantelpiece,
and lighted the lamp. Mr. Cory sat
uneasily on the hard, hair-cloth chair, dimly
conscious of some obstruction in the usually
smooth channel of his discourse.
“Sad affair of the Widow Massey.”
“Yes.”
He looked about the room for a moment, as
256though expecting to discover the presence of
some third person, then repeated,—
“Sad affair! sad affair! We are all liable to
sudden death, and she ought to have been saving
up, in case of such an event. She left
nothing to provide for the child at all. Nothing
at all. The furniture will barely bring enough
to pay for her funeral expenses.”
Franz had sat down mechanically on the
music-stool, and rested one hand on the keyboard
of the piano. Just as the conversation
had reached this point, he suddenly took his
hand away, with a nervous movement that
sounded three or four discordant bass-notes of
the instrument as he did so, and Mr. Cory for
the second time found himself laboring under
an ill-defined sense of discomfort, something
wholly unusual. But, seeing his host showed
no symptoms of breaking the silence, after a
slight cough, he went on,—
“We have been talking this afternoon as to
what is going to be done with the child. You’ve
got her here, haven’t you?”
“Yes.”
“Well, one can’t do a great deal in this way,
but you know it is such a sad case, and the child
can’t do any work about a house, and my wife
is so interested in her she thinks she’ll take the
little girl—What did you say?”
257“Nothing.”
“I beg your pardon, I thought you spoke.
My wife is so interested in her she thinks she’ll
take the little girl and send her for a year to
the industrial school in the city, where she can
learn to do fine sewing and embroidery. That
will give her a chance to earn her living, and
we can take up a collection in church to defray
the expense.”
“‘Fine sewing and embroidery’—fine suffering
and death!” said Franz, suddenly letting
loose his pent-up wrath. “Mr. Cory, would
you kill the child? She is frailer than a flower,
a sickly little thing, and crippled. One month’s
stooping over a needle would put her in the
grave. I thought for a moment, but an hour
ago, that she was dead.” As he spoke the last
word he left his seat, and, taking up the lamp,
said,—“Come with me, and step lightly.”
Utterly taken aback at the sudden outburst
of the music-master, Mr. Cory followed him
across the hall, saw him open the door of the
opposite room, and motion him to enter. Then
he said, in a quiet voice, while he shaded the
lamp carefully with his hand, so that its rays
did not fall directly upon the face of the
child,—
“Look at her.”
The man stepped forward, but almost immediately
258drew back, with a shiver, from the
sleeper, whose repose so strangely resembled
death. She lay upon the sofa, with her hands
folded across her breast, as when she had at first
fallen into slumber.
Franz stood intently regarding her, when
suddenly his guest, coming up close to him, said,
with his rough voice dropped into a frightened
whisper, and his eyes looking quickly about the
room,—
“Where does it come from?”
“What?” asked Franz, startled by his singular
manner.
“Do you hear it?”
“Hear what?”
“The music.”
“Music!” exclaimed Franz, dropping his
voice also to a whisper, and involuntarily suspending
his breath for a moment—“no, I hear
no music.”
“It did not seem like the piano or organ. It
must have been the wind in the trees outside,
but it sounded just like a strain of music. We
had better go, or we may waken her,” said Mr.
Cory, as he turned to the door, and drew one
hand across his forehead, where the perspiration
had collected in drops, although the evening
was cold and the air chilly.
Franz followed him out, springing the latch
259gently with his hand as it caught, and they
both went back to the piano-room. Here Mr.
Cory seemed to recover somewhat of his usual
composure.
“Well, Erckman, she does look thin and delicate-like,
but sewing won’t hurt her, not a bit.
She’ll be better when she’s got something to
do. She can’t exist on air, and she can’t live
in idleness. She has got nothing, and it’s the
only way I know of she can make her living.
She must do work of some kind for support.”
Before Franz’s eyes there floated visions of
broad and fertile acres, of fine cattle, of fine
clothes, of fine houses, but “she must do work
of some kind for support,” so he said nothing,
while the church-elder continued,—
“There is James Maxwell going to the city
to-morrow, and my wife said we had better send
her to the school by him.”
“Send her—, Mr. Cory,” said the organist,
with a suppressed fierceness in his voice, “You
saw how frail she is, how she looks as if, even
now, the shadow of death might be upon her.
You know how, from her birth, she has been
crippled. I tell you one month in that school
among strangers would kill her. Are there not
strong arms enough in the world, is there not
wealth enough already, that this unfortunate
one, this perpetually enfeebled child, must wear
260out her brief span of life in a painful struggle
to gain a little food?”
“We are not, sir, expected to keep the ‘unfortunate
one,’ as you call her,” blustered Mr.
Cory, fairly purple with indignant astonishment.
“What do you mean, sir? We are not under
obligations to do any thing whatever for the
girl. She should be thankful we interested ourselves
in her behalf,” he said, partially choking
with rage. “We will do this for her, but that
is all. She is nothing to us.”
“I had no intention of dictating,” said the
organist, politely, who had quieted down as
quickly as he had roused up. “You are right,
sir, she is nothing to you, and you need not
trouble yourself about the matter further. I
will see that the child is provided for.”
Then Mr. Cory looked at Franz as if he
thought he had not heard aright, or that the
music-master might be departing from his
senses.
“I repeat, I will see that the child is provided
for, and you need not trouble yourself in
regard to her further.”
“Very well, sir, very well!” exclaimed the
elder, rising, almost speechless with surprise.
But when he reached the piazza he said,—“Then
it is understood that I am not responsible in the
case?”
261“It is understood.”
Franz had had no intention of parting with
the child. He would not have given her up had
Mr. Cory offered all his grassy meadows. He
watched him as he walked down the graveled
path and disappeared in the darkness. “Charity!”
he muttered. “Shut him out, O Night—hide
him from view! Wrap your impenetrable
mantle about him, that it may shield him
from the eye of God and man!”
The German stood for a moment looking out
into the limitless gloom, which screened alike
the evil and the good, then he turned again into
the house.
He went back, through the dining-room where
his supper was spread untouched upon the
table, to the kitchen, where Margery sat warming
herself by the dying embers in the stove.
The old servant was used to his irregular ways,
and often saw his meals go untasted without a
remark. But it was rarely the master ever
intruded upon her premises, and she rose up as
he came in, with an expression of surprise upon
her quiet face.
“Margery,” he said, “fix up the bedroom
next to yours, then come down to me in the
parlor.”
The old woman heard him without a question,
though never before could she remember when
262the guest-chamber had been used, or a visitor
staid overnight at the house.
When she had obeyed his instructions she
presented herself at the parlor-door. There
was no lamp in the room, only a narrow strip of
light fell upon the floor from across the hall, but
it did not penetrate the heavy shadow, and
Margery, with a half-uttered apology upon her
lips, drew back. At the sound of the woman’s
steps, Franz came out of the gloom.
“I beg your pardon, sir.”
“What is the matter?”
“I did not know you was playin’, or I would
have waited,” said the servant, respectfully,
who had learned long ago never under any
circumstances to interrupt her master at his
practice.
“I was not playing.”
“Warn’t it you, sir? It was so dark I could
not see.”
“Me? no; nor any body else. No one was
playing.”
“Why, I thought I heard—but it must have
been the wind,” said Margery, glancing across
her shoulder to the vacant piano-stool. “I
thought I heard music just as I opened the door.—The
room is ready, sir.” Franz bent over
the sofa and raised the sleeping form in his
arms. Turning to Margery, he said,—
263“She is light. Here, carry her up and put
her to bed. Don’t waken her if you can help
it, and go to her once or twice in the night to
see that she sleeps, for she is not well.”
Then he added, as an abrupt explanation,—
“She will occupy that room always. This is
to be her home, and I want you to see that she
has every thing necessary.”
“Yes, sir.”
If the old servant was surprised at the announcement,
she made no remark. She took
her up, arranged every thing for the night, and
the child never awakened.
It was not an unpleasant expression that
spread itself upon the face of the woman as she
stooped over the bed, and laid with a careful
hand every fold about the sleeper. With noiseless
feet she came again and again to look once
more at the unconscious form that seemed to
possess for her a singular attraction. Taking
up the lamp, she turned to go into her own (the
adjoining) room, but, with an abrupt start, she
checked herself midway in the action, held the
light suspended, and stood with every muscle
arrested, as if some unexpected sound had
fallen suddenly on her ears. Then she bent her
head for a moment over the sleeper, glanced
quickly about the room, and hurriedly crossed
to the hall.
264She ran down the flight of stairs, looked first
into the piano-room, then into the parlor opposite.
Both places were deserted, and the
instruments closed. The front door was bolted,
and the master had evidently retired. She
went back to the guest-chamber. The child
still slept, and Margery held every nerve in
suspense, but there was not the least sound.
She stepped to the window, pushed up the sash,
then leaned out and listened. The night was
perfectly calm. What gentle breeze there had
been two hours before had died away and left
a profound silence unbroken even by the chirp
of an insect. She closed the shutter, went back
to the bedside again for an instant; then, saying
quietly to herself, “It must have been mere
fancy,” passed out to her own room, and left
the door partially open between the two apartments.
265
So the little Alice had found a home. All the
people in Pickaway expressed their utter surprise
at this unexpected generosity of the
penurious music-master. He certainly was
about the last person in the town from whom
such an act might have been anticipated. Indeed,
it was little short of an enigma to the
place. But their astonishment knew no bounds
when, within a few days after he had taken the
little girl, he quietly dismissed all his pupils,
and steadily refused to give any more lessons to
a single soul. Nothing could prevail upon him,
no entreaties whatever could persuade him, and
he could never be induced to offer the least
explanation.
Some of the wealthier ones, unwilling to give
him up, had voluntarily proposed to pay double
the former price, but even money, which all the
village had thought the god of his life, failed to
move him from his determination. He was inexorable.
Every body wondered what might be
the reason. No person could discover any apparent
cause why he should so suddenly give
up teaching. They inquired about his health.
It was very good, he said. Did he expect to
266leave home? No. He would continue to play
the church-organ? Yes, oh, yes; he had no
intention of stopping that. So they conjectured
until tired of the task, while Franz Erckman
paid no attention.
However, as the days grew into weeks, and
the weeks into months, all the village saw that
a change had come over the organist. He was
less communicative than formerly, and more
severely reserved.
From the borders of the creek the fringe of
scarlet flowers had vanished. The myriad
leaves had lost their rainbowed glory, and
dropped, one after another, in russet tatters to
the ground. The woodbine had thrown off its
vermilion raiment, and now stretched up unclothed
its weird and snake-like arms. The
group of maples had laid down its golden crown;
the hills, too, had cast aside their tiara of brilliant
emerald. The Summer and Fall, in all their
emblazoned splendor, had passed by, and the
gorgeous livery of Autumn faded to the grizzled
hues of Winter.
Up the tawny valley a bleak December wind
swept, making a cheerless rattle among the
naked trees, and the creek slumbered quietly
beneath its covering of ice; but this time no
children came over the frozen turnpike to the
house at the foot of the hill. More secluded
267than ever it seemed. Before the bitter winds
had risen, in the pleasant November days, Franz
had often rambled through the woods, carrying
the little Alice, when she felt tired, in his arms.
But, as the air grew chill, they staid almost
wholly within the house. After that Franz
rarely left it except when his duties as organist
called him to the church, and then he invariably
took the little girl with him, wrapped carefully
in a heavy cloak.
The people noticed that he was never seen
any where without the child. If the weather
proved bad on the Sabbath, or on the days when
he went sometimes during the week to play, he
still carried her with him, but an additional fur
mantle was thrown around her for protection.
She had never grown stronger; but, since that
first night, when the organist had broken down
the great barrier of grief that was closing up like
a strong wall about her heart, they were seldom
separated in her waking hours.
During all this time Franz had changed so
strangely that the village gossips said one would
hardly have known him for the same person.
To be sure, he had always been silent and reserved,
but now he had become absolutely
inapproachable. His manner, which was naturally
abrupt, was often now wild and feverish.
His face, too, had grown thin, his cheeks hollow,
268his whole figure gaunt. His eyes, brilliant but
sunken, had assumed a singular expression of
unrest, a perpetually searching look, as if forever
striving to see the invisible, and it began
finally to be whispered about among the people
that the church-organist was not quite right in
his head. They noticed, besides, that he would
never allow the child to be enticed out of his
sight. The ladies often tried to pet her, but she
shrank invariably from every one except Franz,
to whom she clung as if he were the one prop
that sustained her life.
So the time had worn away at the musician’s
home. Margery, respectful as ever in her manner,
assiduously waited upon the little girl, who
received all her attentions gratefully, and never
voluntarily made a single demand. But there
had passed a change over the old servant also.
From her usually quiet ways she had become
restless, as if there might be something upon her
mind that rendered her constantly uneasy, or
from which she was ineffectually trying to free
herself. If she were sour or cross in disposition,
as all the scholars used to tell, she had never
shown it to the little orphan. She watched the
child with a strange devotion. She would follow
her about the house at a distance, and, if the
little girl for a time sat down upon the veranda,
Margery, too, farther off, would sit there with
269her sewing, or embrace that opportunity to trim
the woodbine, and once or twice she had even
found an excuse to intrude herself for a moment
in the parlor.
Every evening, when she put the little girl to
bed, Margery, with a strange, expectant look
upon her face, would linger about the room long
after her charge had fallen into a peaceful sleep.
Then, when she had retired, often in the very
middle of the night, she would suddenly waken
from a sound slumber, spring out of bed, and,
before she was thoroughly conscious, discover
herself standing beside the child, with her head
bent down in a listening position, and every
nerve strained to catch the slightest sound.
Immediately she would rundown stairs into the
music-rooms, only to find them both deserted
and the instruments closed. With a white
countenance she would return, pause once more
in the child’s room, and then lie down again,
saying to herself, for the hundredth time,—
“It must be mere fancy. I have been dreaming.”
There was no element of superstition in Margery,
but this incident would recur over and
over, night after night, until she began to ask
herself if, before she had reached sixty years,
she was already losing her mind, and this the
first fancy of a disordered imagination. It was
270strange, she told herself, that she should dream
the same thing so often, and every time it should
be so vivid, for she heard a strain of music as
distinctly as she ever heard a sound in her life,
though it was not like the piano, organ, or,
indeed, any instrument. And, though vivid,
it was so evanescent it made her doubt the veracity
of her senses. Then, too, it never came
from down stairs, or out-of-doors, but always
seemed apparently to emanate from the bedside
of the little child, though, as soon as she had
stooped to listen, it was gone, and the reign of
silence again left supreme. Once or twice,
even during the day, when standing beside the
little Alice, Margery had heard, or thought she
heard, a sudden waft of this soft melody sweep
by her, but so fleeting that it was gone before
she could catch her breath to listen, or be sure
it was not simply all her own imagination.
So, with this constantly upon her mind, Margery
had grown restless, and found herself
continually watching the little girl. She was
not insensible either of the great change that
had, by some means or other, been wrought in
her master since the child had come into the
house. She, as well as the people, had noticed
that he would never, if possible, allow her out
of his sight. He never played a night now by
himself as he had been used to doing for years.
271After the child went to bed the instruments
were always closed, for he never put his hand
upon the keyboard unless she were present.
And, even when he had her beside him, he did
not seem happy.
The people at church said, as he had changed,
his music, too, had changed; but, as he had
grown more wild and feverish in manner, his
music had grown more softened and beautiful in
style. And once, after he had played a dreamy
harmony that held them all entranced, he had
come down from the organ-gallery with a
fierce fire burning in his eyes, and hands that
trembled violently, though they were clasped
tight over the little girl in his arms. When
they had complimented him he looked bewildered,
and spoke in a confused way, as though he
could not remember what he had been playing.
Now, more convinced than ever were the people
that something was evidently wrong with the
music-master, and, notwithstanding he had lost
nothing in his art, many shook their heads, and
whispered that poor Erckman was, beyond a
doubt, going crazy.
December had worn almost into Christmas.
In every house of the village there were preparations
for the approaching holiday. The church,
too, was undergoing some mysterious process
at the hands of the young people, who went in
272and out at all hours by the back way, and
steadily refused admittance to any one. They
had even closed the doors against the organist
when he went there one morning to play, but
he was easily persuaded to withdraw, as he
cared far more for solitude than society.
Franz sat moodily by the fire in his parlor,
with the little girl upon a cushion at his feet.
They were both naturally silent, and would
often sit quietly together for hours. But now,
though the musician gazed absently into the
grate, and seemed to take no heed of the child,
she looked up once or twice into his face, then
said, in a timid voice,—
“Father, to-morrow is Christmas.”
Franz had long ago taught her to call him
father, and he merely answered mechanically,
without taking his eyes from the illuminated
coals,—
“Yes.”
“How dark the night is out, and how shrill
and bleak the wind blows!” She had risen
from her seat and gone to the window. “But
to-morrow is Christmas-day, and I know it
will be bright then; oh, I am sure it will be
bright!”
She stood a moment longer by the casement
without speaking, then came back and sat down
again, looking almost as ethereal as some spirit,
273that might vanish any moment forever into the
glow of the red firelight.
“You will play something very beautiful to-morrow,
will you not, father? You will make
the voluntary better than all the service besides?
Oh, for such a celebration, it ought to be the
most magnificent music in the world, for, think,
father, it will be Christmas, the grandest day in
all the year! It seems to me I can hardly wait
to hear you, I have been looking forward to it
so long. But, father, you have not practised
any for it, have you?” said the child, looking
up suddenly with quick dismay upon her features.
Franz, still without glancing at the little girl,
or taking his eyes from the fire, said,—
“No,” but he clasped his hands nervously
together.
“Oh, father, you did not forget about it, did
you?” she asked eagerly. “I have so often
and often thought of it, though I did not say
any thing, but it is strange I never once thought
about the practising. Oh, you could not have
forgotten it, father?”
She was so intensely earnest, it seemed as if
her whole soul was in the question, trembling
while it awaited the reply.
“No, I have not forgotten it,” said Franz,
“It has hardly been out of my mind one moment
274for many weeks; but I have nothing to
play.”
At first, her face had been perfectly radiant;
but, when he added the last clause, she got up,
put her arms about his neck, and said, with a
kind of terror in her voice,—
“Oh, no, no! You will play, father—tell
me you will play!”
Franz moved uneasily in his seat.
“And it will be something grand, father. Oh,
you will please everybody—I am not afraid of
that. Quick, tell me you will play. Father,
if you did not—I can not bear to think of it—oh,
you will—say you will!”
Her entreaty had fairly grown into wild
desperation. Every fiber of her frame quivered
as she clung to him. Alarmed at her singular
agitation, he took her up on his knee, and said,
hurriedly,—
“Yes, yes; I will play. Do not be troubled
about it; I will play.”
“Oh, I am so glad! I knew you would, and
it will be grand, I am sure, for to-morrow is
Christmas!”
Her face was radiant with pleasure; but so
extreme had been her excitement that nearly an
hour later, when Margery came to take her upstairs,
she still trembled.
Franz, left alone, paced the floor of his room
275up and down, sometimes stopping to look
moodily into the fire. He had had this thing
long upon his mind. Feeling the divine power
of genius within him, he was not willing to play
over again what generations had played over a
hundred times before him. Yet he tried unavailingly
to improvise. Once or twice, when
playing, with the little Alice beside him, he had
suddenly entranced even himself; but as soon
as he undertook to reproduce the notes, either
upon paper or upon the organ, he discovered
them gone from his memory, and himself utterly
powerless. It had only been latterly that he
felt hampered in this way; yet he was conscious,
notwithstanding, that his music at the same
time had undergone a vast improvement. But
he struggled against this one fault vainly. He
had been determined to work out a new composition
for this great occasion; and now, upon
the very verge of Christmas-day, after all his
unceasing anxiety, he found himself without a
single idea—wholly unprepared. In his disappointment,
he had almost been ready to
absent himself altogether from the church; but
the sudden appeal of the little girl had compelled
him to give up this cowardly refuge, of
which in a better mood he would have been
ashamed.
The child had not prophesied incorrectly.
276Under cover of night, the clouds marshaled
themselves into gray battalions, which fled precipitately
before the lances of the morning, that
in resplendent array, column upon column,
mounted the eastern sky; and Christmas—this
day forever sacred to the world in its grand
memories—dawned with the blaze of victorious
colors.
Bathed in sunlight, the crystal valley wreathed
itself with brilliant jewels; the sparkling
trees held up their embossed arches of frosted
silver; and from the glittering hill-sides cold
flakes of fire burned in diamond hues almost
blinding to the eye—for a slight fall of snow
during the night had spread itself over the land,
and covered it as with a mantle of transfiguration.
The bell in the tower had long been ringing
out its invitation to worship, before Franz,
carrying the little Alice on his arm, left the
house. A singular eagerness rested on the face
of the child, whose usually pale cheeks were
now colored with a crimson flush that deepened
almost to scarlet in the center. She held
quietly to Franz, sometimes looking at him for
a moment, then turning her eyes again toward
the village.
Though she said no word, it seemed as if she
could hardly wait until they reached the church,
277but that her impatient spirit would break its
bounds and fly. But Franz walked with a slow,
unwilling step. A fierce despair appeared to be
consuming him. His disappointment was made
keener when he saw the wild expectation with
which the little Alice looked forward to his
music, and her confident belief that it would be
far grander than any thing he had ever done
before.
The villagers, by groups, in twos, in threes,
with happy faces, coming from far and near,
poured into the church. Paying no heed to
any one as he passed, Franz entered by the side
door, and went immediately up into the organ-gallery.
With glad eyes, the little Alice saw
the church in its festival decorations. Beautiful
wreaths of cedar coiled themselves around the
great pillars, and crept in waving lines over
altar, arch, and casement, their unfading green
sometimes flecked with amber, sometimes dyed
in violet light, as the rays of the sun caught the
tints from the windows of stained glass. Resting
against the center of the chancel rail, a
magnificent cross of hot house flowers loaded
the air with the perfumes of summer—an incense
more pure and holy than the incense of
myrrh; and on either side sprays of English
ivy, in long and twining branches, displayed
their wax-like leaves.
278The last vibrations of the bell died away.
The congregation chanted its anthem; the
minister read the Christmas service; and the
first strains of the organ-voluntary, after the
close of the litany, sounded through the church.
The little Alice, with a throbbing pulse, crept
close to Franz as he played; but it was only the
familiar music, that the world already knew by
heart, and had heard a thousand times before.
Poor Franz, warring against himself, had been
driven back to the composition of others, though
he knew he possessed within him a power that
should have created, that should have raised
him above all written measure. But now even
his execution was a dead, mechanical labor.
A swift expression of keen disappointment
fell upon the child’s face. She looked up at
him, with a gesture, slight but strangely appealing,
and with eyes filled by a sorrowful
reproach—such a look as one might wear in the
last moment, whose most cherished friend had
suddenly turned and dealt him a death-blow.
But Franz played on mechanically, with the
pang of despair at his heart. Suddenly, half-way
in a bar, in the very midst of a single note
almost, a sensation of fear came upon him—an
overwhelming awe that seemed to lock his
muscles and turn his hands into stone. The
organ ceased abruptly; he sat motionless as a
279statue; and a death-like silence reigned throughout
the church. Had the same unaccountable
awe fallen upon the congregation, too? The
whole universe waited.
Out of the profound silence a sound was
born, a sound more beautiful than the music
of a dream. Soft as a whisper, clear and distinct,
it grew, wave upon wave, into a grand
volume of harmony, that was not loud, though
it seemed as if it reached beyond the church-walls
and floated on through endless space.
Was it, then, music from that land where the
crystal air breathes a perpetual melody? The
people by one impulse sprang to their feet, and
turned with awe-stricken faces toward the
gallery. Grander, more majestic, it swelled
into a glad chorus, whose gloria, inspired with
praise, rose up into heaven. It was an adoration
of sublime joy that seemed too intense to be
ascribed to mortal spirit; and the people fell
upon their knees while they listened. Over
plains, over hills, in the sky, it seemed to reverberate
and answer back, sweeter than the
sound of silver, vaster than the roll of ocean—the
hallelujah of myriad voices, the song as of
an innumerable multitude,—
“Glory be to God in the highest, and on
earth peace, good-will toward men—”
Again and again the refrain gathered into a
280measure more triumphant than the strains of a
victorious army. Then, ascending higher and
higher, it fainted through infinite distance, and
was gone as if it had passed beyond the very
portals of eternity.
The spellbound audience hardly moved for a
moment, even after the music had died; but
when the first stir broke the silence they collected
about the organist with eager questions.
Franz, still sitting at his instrument, had never
turned. Anxious to testify their wild admiration,
they were ready almost to bow down
before him; but they were obliged to speak
several times before he gave the slightest heed.
Then he looked up abruptly and said with a
strange impatience,—
“Did not you see?”
There was a confused expression in his eyes,
as if they might have been blinded by a great
light, and their vision not yet wholly recovered.
The people looked at him, then at each other in
bewilderment, but, as if he had suddenly comprehended
their meaning, he went on quickly,—
“It was not I. I did not play a note. It
was the music of another world, the music of
the first Christmas. Did not you see the host
of angels in the sky, and the shepherds that
watched their flocks by night upon the plains
of Judea? It was the gloria sung at the
281nativity of Christ by the angels centuries ago,
beside the village of Bethlehem!”
Then the people, regarding him with doubtful
faces, drew back, and he said, with fierce
excitement,—
“If you do not believe, ask the little Alice
there. She will tell you.”
The little girl sat close to his bench, but when
they turned to her she made no reply. They
raised her up. Their question never received
an answer, and Franz with a wild cry fell upon
his knees by her side. The child was dead.
For many years afterward the musician lived
on in the old place at the foot of the hill, but
he never again could be prevailed upon to strike
a note of any instrument or listen to a strain of
any music. More rarely than ever did he speak
to a soul, and then it was only at the Christmas
time, to tell again of the little Alice, his spirit
of sound, to tell of that wonderful gloria of immortal
praise sung by a multitude of the heavenly
hosts, whose splendor, almost blinding to his
eyes, had lighted up earth and sky over the
far-off plains of Palestine, where the shepherds,
centuries ago, were watching their flocks by
night.
Strangers heard his tale with a scarcely concealed
smile, and shook their heads sorrowfully
as the old man, feeble and palsied, with a
282singular brilliance in his sunken eyes, turned
away. But all the villagers spoke of him with
respect, almost with awe, and the children
learned to hush their mirth in reverence as he
passed by. Margery, with a face quieter than
ever, said little, but served her master with an
untiring devotion, and after she had closed his
eyes in death, when she was an old, old woman,
sometimes in the evening she would suddenly
break her long silence to tell a wondering group
of Franz and the little Alice, and of the mysterious
melody that played about the child.
And so the people of Paint Valley relate the
story yet, and show the graves in the long grass
of the village church-yard, where, side by side,
they wait to join at the last day the throng
whose immortal gloria shall surpass even that
grand Christmas anthem—the song of the
angels heard by the shepherds upon the plains
of Judea.
THE END.
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