It is difficult to prevent the discussion of Psychic
questions from assuming more or less a religious
aspect. The reason for this is that all systems of religion
are based on Spiritual existence, and from
views of that life, true or false, draw their vital sustenance.
The moment it dawns upon the mind of
an investigator, that in the facts and laws which
come under his observation there are expressed forces
unknown to the physicist; that beyond, dimly seen,
there is an intimation of intelligent, yet impalpable
beings, he is conscious of his own high destiny, and
the necessity of conforming mortal life to it.
The inquiry of the student becomes the seed-bed
for the propagation of religious thought. Herein this
domain is unlike all others, for the outcome of research
within its limits, is the last fruitage of Ethical
Systems.
Imperfect understanding, as that of the savage,
blindly feeling without comprehending, yields the
rank growth of superstition; while scientific and
philosophic investigation yield the most refined
morality.
The preceding pages show the important part the
sensitive holds in the manifestations and study of
psychic phenomena. The true position of the psychic
individual is not appreciated, even by those who
have given the subject much attention.
While in the preceding discussions I have spoken in
the impersonal mode, I wish to add my testimony
from years of experience, as a sensitive. I do this
because it forms a somewhat necessary preface to
the narrative which follows.
The mass of mankind understand the delicacy of
the conditions which go to make up the sensitive
subject; of the acuteness with which the nervous
system is strung; its keen susceptibility to pain and
pleasure, about as well as the illiterate boor comprehends
the chemical tension of the plate in the camera
or the subtile ways of electricity. To be a sensitive
is to have at times the light of heaven in the heart,
and at others the darkness of despair. A thousand
influences are always acting, and the brain of the
sensitive receives them all, trembles to their vibrations,
and finds resistance to them an effort most
exhaustive of vitality.
In this state of tension, disagreeable objects, opposing
words, or antagonisms which ordinarily would
pass unfelt and unnoticed, strike with rude hand, and
give excruciating torture. The presence of an object
or person may be sufficient to antagonize or
destroy all ethereal influences. I know of nothing
that may be compared with the acute depression
of the mind after such experiences, which corresponds
to the preceding exaltation. While the sensitive
is receiving a flood of inspiration he breaths
an atmosphere of delight, and lives in an ideal world.
Earth and its cares sink out of memory, and the
mind is ennobled and purified. When the inspiration
departs, the rosy light fades out of the spiritual
vision, and the mortal eyes open to the cold, gray
rays of earth-life. How drear and sordidly selfish,
poor and unprofitable existence seems to him then.
After the flood of inspiration comes its ebb; the
valley of despond, after the heights of Alpine splendor.
Melancholy and depression of spiritual energy
may produce physical disturbance, which runs its
swift course to death. Recognizing these facts, the
position of the sensitive can not be regarded as desirable,
unless the laws of the sensitive state are well
known, and the subject learns to protect himself
against injurious and painful conditions; even if he
does this unexpectedly, conditions will arise and confront
him, for those who are his nearest and dearest
friends know nothing about the acuteness of his
feelings, and may unconsciously produce the very
effects they seek to avoid.
The sensitive becomes painfully conscious of a
double life, for the psychic is so different from
the common state, that the mind receives impressions
as from two distinct conditions of existence.
One is physical, held in common with the
brutes, with physical enjoyments and desires for eating,
drinking, and the passions; the other is the
psychical, which lives above and beyond the cares of
life, and dwells in an ideal realm of purity. One is
the night and the other the day. In order to dwell
on earth these two lives must be united. The physical
body has its imperative needs, which must be
satisfied, as the just condition of spiritual growth.
There is less imperative demand for spiritual sustenance.
So soon as the body has been supplied, mental
lethargy supervenes, and desires to tyrannize;
physical life overlaps and conceals the spiritual,
and men live the life of beasts. At other times the
spiritual gains such complete ascendency that this
world is forgotten in a blaze of ideality. An equilibrium
between these states is the most desirable,
but difficult to maintain.
Sensitiveness is a faculty common to mankind
and capable of cultivation. Now that we have just
entered the vestibule of the temple of Psychic
Science, and are beginning to learn its principles we
may hope for brilliant results. Nor will the duties of
this life be neglected because of the approach to another.
To the belief that mortal life is all that can
be attended to here, and “that the earth is wanted
here, and not in the clouds,” the celestial sense would
reply: “We too want the earth here, and not in the
clouds, but we want the clouds also.” We want the
clouds to distill the soft dew, and bear on their broad
shoulders the life-giving rain for the grass and grain,
to slake the thirst of the herds and flocks; we
want the clouds to spread their protecting mantle
over the fields against the scorching sun of summer;
and we want them to bring the crystal snows to protect
the fields in winter. We want the clouds to
beautify the sky, and reflect in loveliness the rays of
the rising and setting sun. Half the beauty of the
world would be gone without the clouds, which lift
the soul on wings of aspiration. We rejoice that
there are clouds, and while the earth is good enough
for the mortal man, in the clouds there is a grander
reality. If it were otherwise, if the human heart
were given its intense longings, its exquisite sensibility,
its delicate cords responsive to every touch of
feeling only to be torn and lacerated at the grave of
the loved, we would scorn the pitiable earth, despise
the sham called life, hate the force called love, and
believe that there is neither benevolence, wisdom, nor
intelligence in the Universe. It is the clouds that
give value to the earth; without them it would only
be a parched and thirsty desert. There are clouds,
and by them the spirit is exalted to the contemplation
of infinite realities.
Without the ever-present consciousness of eternal
being, religion would be impossible, and there could
be no ideal of excellence superior to the gratifications
of the hour. But man feels the aspirations for a
superior life, a soaring out of and above the physical
senses; he feels the promptings of duty, of right, of
justice and truth, outwrought from his innermost
being. The pleasures of the time are cast away;
selfishness yields to unselfishness; and the spirit,
amid pain, apparent loss, and the scorn of its fellows,
proves its kinship to the immutable and ideal.
Such is the true spiritual life: The outgrowth of
spiritual science, which makes morality a birthright,
and its expression in character a consequence of
obedience to the laws of its being.
Spiritual life is universal and infinite. It is the
answer to our hopes, desires and abiding faith.
Whence come they? They are the mutual expression
of our inner natures. As the flower expands, its
petals bending to the rays of the sun, so we turn to
the spiritual sun, and only in the warmth of its invigorating
rays expand into completeness. As the
foulest slime of the sewer, when exposed to the light,
casts down all stains, and sparkles in the crystal
waves, so humanity in the light of spiritual truth is
purified and freed from stains. Hope, faith, desire,
the poetry of the present, are the prophecy of the
future! Their voice proclaims the esoteric wisdom
which is wiser than all books; for are not all books
children of the mind? Has any thing ever been written
that no one knew? As the mind is the receiver,
so is it the radiator. It cannot receive what it has not
the ability to throw out. It understands because it
is the sum of all the elements and forces of the universe.
It is akin to the titanic energies which hold
the revolving suns and worlds in the hollow of their
hands, and can read the ritual of the flashing stars.
Infinity it has never exhausted, it can never exhaust
itself. Books are imperfect stutterings of its
eternal consciousness. It is as superior to them as
the master to his sketch, the sculptor to his clay, the
builder to the engine that feebly embodies in brass
and steel his ideas, which alone are perfect. We
are immortal, and hope and desire tell us the wondrous
tale of an unending future. We cannot cast
aside its awful responsibilities, escape its duties, or
be deprived of its grand possibilities. The very
name, Immortality, carries with it the ideas of endless
progress, justice, liberty, love, purity, holiness,
power and beauty.
Those who have followed the line of thought in
these pages will have no difficulty in admitting the
possibility, at least on special occasions, of spirit
communication. They, in fact, will recognize it as
a necessity. If those who have passed through
death’s portals should return, they might find
even the most sensitive unable to transmit their
thoughts, except in a most rudimentary manner.
The following narrative is an attempt of a celestial
being to convey by words a conception of
its glorious life. While, in part, the sketch must
be taken allegorically, mainly it is a true picture.
The communication came from our mother, Jane A.
Rood, and the remarkable facts connected with her
death are correctly stated. I more minutely describe
the entrance into that state wherein the message
was received, because it illustrates the preceding
discussions, and the communication emphasizes and
makes plain many points which have remained unapproachable.
The first stages were like sinking into peaceful
slumber, and I felt the scenes of earth melt out of
consciousness, while a strange exhilaration, peaceful
and delightful, came over me. There were changing
flashes of color, rivaling the rainbow, coming
and going in receding circles, and then a misty
brightness, out of which slowly came, as though
the cloudiness were material in the hands of an
artist, a form which I recognized as our mother’s.
A score or more of years had passed since the fateful
hour when we were gathered around her couch,
too distressed to weep, and awed by the presence of
the silent messenger. Wasted by serious sickness,
she was at last free from pain, and a smile of joy
came over her pale face when she knew it was soon
to be over. We thought her dead, for her eyes
closed and her breath ceased, when she repeated
with a voice sweet as music:
“Bright spirits await to welcome me home,
To that blissful region where you, too, may come;
Weep not, for our parting is only to sight,
Our spirits may still the more closely unite.
“Perform well each day the task which to you
Is allotted, and murmur not if you must do
What now seemeth hardship, for soon you will prove
’Tis labor of kindness, an action of love.”
Then her eyes closed again, and her features
changed into a glad smile. There was now no mistaking
the signs, and we went to our appointed tasks,
feeling that it would be sacrilege to weep in the
presence of such a triumph over death. We felt
that we had been permitted to catch a glimpse of an
unseen reality. As travelers in mountain regions
are delighted after the valley is wrapped in twilight
by glimpses of the crest of some tall mountain catching
the rays of the sun, and reflecting its glory, so
to us it seemed that the departing spirit had caught
a glimpse of the light of its new life, and reflected
a smile on the face of the body it was leaving.
How beautiful she was with the graces of youth,
and the complete and perfected charms of maturity.
No wrinkles were on her brow, no marks of care,
anxiety or pain; she was ideal in excellence.
What has happened to you, mother? How are
you the same and yet not the same?
The response: I have returned to my youth, and
have brought my experience with me. I scarcely
realize how many years have passed. Twenty-five, do
you say? It seems to me not as many days; and
yet, let me recount. There has been a flood of
events, and my recollection of the last time you saw
me has grown dim. We count not time by years,
but by accomplishments; by what we do and gain
in thought. I am pained by the memory of the
olden time. You say it was twenty-five years or more
ago! As I come again in contact with earth, my
sickness and sufferings are recalled. How weary and
worn I became! How I longed for the end! The
love you all bore me and my love for you was the
only cord which bound me to life, and as I approached
the end I forgot even that. How much I
suffered that day I cannot tell, but at last I was
at peace. The terrible struggle between flesh and
spirit was done, and the latter rested. I thought I
would sleep, and yet it was not sleep. It was a
repose of all living functions, and yet my mind was
in full activity. For a time I heard all that was said
by those who were in the room; but soon I became so
absorbed in the thoughts which flowed on my mind
that I lost consciousness of everything else. Oh!
it was such a delicious sense of comfort and of rest!
I was so very weary; I had been so tortured by pain
that to be free was indescribable happiness. I had
heard them say I was dying, and I expected the
dread moment with foreboding. It surely must soon
come, yet I thought I had not reached it. The
darkness began to lighten, and I thought the morn
was breaking. An intense thrill of delight filled
my being, and the light grew stronger. I continued
to rest, and a new strength came to me. I
am getting well again, I thought, and, perhaps,
when the morning comes I shall surprise my friends
and children by at once arising from my couch.
The light streamed in with a soft and a refreshing
warmth. There were no walls to prevent its passage.
I was floating in a cloud of light, borne
gently and softly as a weary child on its mother’s
breast. Then out of the light, as though it had
formed into shape and substance, I saw three friends,
long since dead, and my own blessed mother. To
meet them did not appear strange to me, yet I
knew they were not of earth. When they came
around me, taking my hands in theirs, and caressing
my forehead, I was surprised at their beauty,
and the sweetness of their expression. They read
my thoughts, and answered:
“Yes, truly we are of the dead; and you will find
that dying means to live.”
“I thought I was dying; they told me so,” I said,
laughing at the absurdity. “But I have become
well, never so well since a child. It is a joy to
breathe and feel the fresh life come coursing through
my veins. But why do you smile?” I asked. They
replied: “Do you not know that your new life means
death? How much you have to learn, dear sister.”
“Yes, I have everything to learn; my life has
been full of cares.”
“They have been for others,” was replied. “And
such are treasures in heaven. For us to learn is not
labor. If we bring ourselves into the proper condition
of receptivity, knowledge flows into our minds.
There is no effort, no wearisome study. We may
know all that the highest intelligence knows if we
are in the right condition.”
“I must bring myself at once into that condition,”
I replied, “for there is need.”
“Be not in haste, our sister,” said they gently;
“there is time, and you must have repose. The pain
you have endured reflects on your spirit, and you
have not yet recovered.”
“I infer from your words that I have met the
change I so feared,” I said again, smiling at the absurdity
of the idea. “When did I pass the limits of
earth life, and why do I lose sight of my friends?”
“You need have no more dread,” replied my darling
mother. “You do not see them because we are
far away from them. It would not be well for you
to remain and witness their sorrow. We have taken
you away, that you may first recover and grow
strong.”
As I felt the swift motion, which I had not before
observed, for it had been to me the gentle rock of
sustaining arms, I asked: “Am I to be taken away
so far I can not return?”
“Fear not, child,” she replied in her old way,
“fear not, for whatever we justly demand is granted
to us. The craving of the heart is not left unanswered.
Presently it will all be made plain to
you.”
We were drawn onward as by the tide of a great
river, and I saw countless others coming and going,
as though on swift errands. Then we paused on an
eminence, overlooking a sea of amethyst on our
right, and a vast plain on our left. The sky was
softest purple, and the light fell with indescribable
mellowness over all—there was happiness in the air,
and those we greeted were radiant. No words can
describe what I saw, or my rapidly changing emotions.
There is nothing on earth with which to compare
the landscape. The softest earthly colors are
opaque in comparison, and the clearest sky a murky
cloud. Overcome, I wept for joy, and my companions
wept with me.
“Oh!” exclaimed one, “how sweet to know that
this is the reality; no more doubts, nor forebodings;
no more fears, nor distress; a life that of itself is the
highest pleasure, and yields us heaven.”
I started at the word, for it recalled a tide of beliefs:
“Heaven! When are we to go there? Where
is it and what must we do to go there?”
“Be not impatient, dear sister; we are in heaven
already. Where happiness is, there is heaven.
Heaven is activity. It is the deed of kindness, the
pure loving thought that makes heavens.”
“What is its first principle?” I queried, “for I
am weak and undeserving.”
“Doing for others is the full measure of its law.
This is the angel code from which every trace of selfishness
has been weeded out. To do for others brings
gain. The pure and noble angels bending from their
spheres of light, labor for others in self-forgetfulness.
When man so far forgets his selfishness as to
sacrifice himself for others, he exalts himself in angel-life.
To work for self is no better nor worse than the
brute world, from worm to elephant, and is devoid
of immortal gain.”
How delighted I was at these words. The dross of
the world was rapidly disappearing. The sphere of
my earthly labor, which to me seemed so narrow,
widened. I had been sympathetic with those who
suffered, and to those weaker than myself I had
given a helping hand. Little things of no account
at the time, so humble and narrow had been my life,
now had a new meaning.
My companions smiled as they read my thoughts,
and one responded: “Dear sister, your weakness
was your strength. It will be no effort for you to
do as you have always done. They who can be
unselfish under the coarse influences of earthly life,
how grand must be their career under the purer
conditions which here prevail.”
As we conversed there came one from another
group, tall, beautiful and radiant with light, and
with his companion more exquisitely beautiful than
himself. They invited us, and we went to their
abode. “How beautiful you are,” I exclaimed involuntarily
to her.
“I am glad;” she replied, “for to be truly beautiful
means that the thoughts are right and true,
for they mold the features and through them gain
expression; but it requires time, a great length of
time.”
“How long have you been here?” I ventured
to ask.
“Many hundred years. I scarcely know how
long.”
“And you grow not old here?”
“We grow not old. The spirit knows not age.
It is not limited by duration. It is an eternal now,
concentrating the past and awaiting the future.”
I had not seen myself since the change. I put
my hand to my face; it was smooth and unwrinkled.
A happy ripple of laughter came from my companions.
He who had come for us said: “Dear
sister, you left those with your body. The pure
spirit has not the wrinkles of care or of age.”
I looked at him as he spoke and my attention
was called to his robe. I had not thought of
this subject before. I had been so eagerly watching
the faces of my companions, I had not thought
of their garments, or of my own. What a change!
What was this raiment? I can not describe it.
It was a drapery as of a cloud, and its color depended
on the spiritual condition of the wearer.
I was glad that mine was azure, for that was the
color of my companion’s, and thus I knew I was
like them. What was it? A cloud or woven light?
It fell around me soft and warm, and with a luxurious
coolness contrasting with the burning of
the fever I had so recently escaped. How different
from the roughness of the old garments was this
fleecy robe, glinting and reflecting the light.
As we conversed, there came a spirit, who paused
in front of us, dark and sullen. His raiment was
sombre and grim, like his thoughts. “Can you tell
me where heaven is?” he grumbled, “I paid a
preacher to gain it for me, and now having lost all
else, I want that.”
“Poor brother,” replied the elder, “you search for
what you can never find outside of yourself.”
“You are a deceiver!” he muttered as he fled
away.
The elder brother gazed after him sadly, and turning
said: “On earth he was a miser, and who can
count the years before his regeneration? He sought
wealth, trusting to others his religious and moral
culture. The recording angel has written against
his name not one charity, not one unselfish deed. He
now must wander in self-torment, seeking and finding
not.”
“Was he of consequence on earth?” I asked, for
he was proud and haughty in his degradation.
“Thousands trembled at his beck, for he had made
them dependents and slaves. He had vast riches,
houses and lands, mortgages and deeds. He was
wise in getting wealth; but here mortgages and
deeds are unknown, and he becomes the least in the
kingdom; morally idiotic, mentally dwarfed, and a
pitiable object of our compassion.”
“How long before he will gain the light?”
“Ah! who but God can tell!” sighed my instructor.
“Who can tell? Centuries may go by. He
must first learn to ask; first learn humility and his
mistakes. Then some kind angels will attempt his
education. They will lead him out of his mental
selfishness, and he will begin as a child in the old life.
His task will be difficult because he can not enter
the sphere of receptivity, as we are able to do, and
thus absorb knowledge from others. His nature
must first change, and complete regeneration be
accomplished.”
The coming of this pitiable one brought a wave
of sadness over us, but it passed, and the sun was
more gladsome after breaking from the clouds. I
had rested in delightful sleep; I do not know how
often, and the old life was like a dream. It was not
possible I had been sick, for I was so strong, so gladsome
in my strength, and activity was a delight. My
mind broadened. Contact with my companions gave
me enlarged ideas. To think was to learn; to wish
was to know. I was able to look beyond the effect
to the cause. I could read the law in the result.
Every day brought grander views, and my mental
horizon expanded. Even in this larger growth I
found rest. The faculties, dwarfed and starved in
the old time, called for activity. The weariness of
the body I was leaving behind me. How lovingly
my companions would surround me with conditions
of repose. How they gave me fullness of life, and
drew to me those who would reveal the knowledge
it was my desire to learn!
Then suddenly one evening I felt an earthward
impulse. What power drew me thitherward?
“Is our sister disturbed?” asked my gentle companion.
“Oh! so disturbed! I have been selfish in my new
joy, and how could I have been so forgetful; so unnatural?
My husband and babe; my son and
daughter weeping; and I have not thought of
them!”
I wept, and my companion folded her arm around
me and gently said: “You have been under our control,
and are not responsible. To have been subject to
the griefs of those you left, would have been painful
and useless. You are now able to bear a full knowledge,
you feel that of your family and friends. I
will go with you, and you will find what I tell you is
true, and you will bless us for our thoughtfulness.”
We were poised, as it were, over a promontory beyond
which the earth hung in space, as the full moon
in a summer sky. Beyond were the stars. I was
aghast at the journey, and fearful of the abyss which
seemed deep as infinitude. While I trembled it was
passed. I was in my old home. A great flood of
human memories came over me. How I loved the
dear familiar walls, the chairs, the glowing fire and,
more than all, the family group. My husband sitting
with his head bowed in his hand, my daughter
performing the tasks that had been mine; my little
boy and girl at play; the babe asleep. There were
tears in my eyes as I turned to my companion for
strength to bear: Did I not leave my body? Was
there not a funeral? Why is it so quiet if I have not
truly passed the ordeal?
“Listen,” said my companion, supporting me.
“Listen. It was in October when you passed away.
The bright foliage of the trees, then burning in scarlet
and gold, had been blown away by the blasts of
winter, and the snow covered the earth with its icy
shroud. All you think of has been done. It is finished.
Were you to go to the churchyard you would
find a mound by the side of relatives gone before.”
It was so unreal and absurd that I was bewildered,
and laughed at my misunderstanding, and wept the
next moment when I saw my family. I went to
my husband and placed my hand on his head and
called him by name. I called with all my strength to
learn that my lips gave no sound to his ear, and that
my touch was imperceptible. Then I turned to my
daughter and threw my arms despairingly around
her. She was singing a song we had sung together,
and continued not heeding my embrace. Oh! how
keen my grief when I found I was not known in my
own old home. I, who had come from such a distance,
my heart beating with love, found no response! My
daughter finished her song, and her eyes filled with
tears. I read her thoughts for they were of me.
“Mother! Mother!” she was saying, and I responded.
It was the call I had heard beyond the bars of heaven!
I could not bear it, and my companion said as she
again placed her arm around me:
“Come, my sister, you can do no good here. There
is your child sleeping in its crib. It is cared for as
by yourself. Kiss it, and we will go. Be assured
whenever you are wanted here you will feel the
desire.”
I kissed my child. “Let me stay,” I pleaded; “I
want to sit in my old place, in that vacant chair.
Then I will go.”
“As you will; and I will endeavor to impress your
daughter with some ray of sunshine.”
She bent over my daughter, and by means I did
not understand, her mind responded to the spirit’s
thoughts: “Your mother is with you, and retains
the same affection for you she had in earth-life.”
With the influx of that thought a smile lit up her
face, and turning to the organ, she sang, “Annie
Laurie,” a song we had often sung together. How
thankful I was that one ray of sunlight gladdened
her heart, and the memory of me was yet dear. I
was grateful to the kind spirit who had assisted me,
and then she said we must go, for the trial was too
great for my strength.
“You must calm yourself,” said my companion,
“for this sorrow is without the least benefit. Believe
it is for the best, and though the hour is dark,
it will bring a perfect day.”
“I can not prevent myself thinking of my children
and my husband. My love for them is stronger
than ever, and I could not have been persuaded to
have left them for a day. Can I not, oh, good angel,
remain with them? The fairest scene of your home
is desolate compared to the earth!”
With tenderest compassion she said: “You are
now in the earth-sphere and take on its conditions.
You are seeing through earthly eyes, and affected
by earthly ways. When we once leave this scene
you will be no longer distressed. Willingly would I
leave you. I have no right to force you away. I
influence you as I think for your highest good.
Here you are unrecognized, and are constantly
troubled because you can not make yourself known,
and by a reflection of the sorrow of your family.
Whenever you can be of use to them you will receive
the knowledge and can return. Now we had
better go.”
She placed her arm around me, and whether the
earth sank away from us, or we flow from the earth,
I was unable to tell. I have since learned how to
traverse space by the force of will; but then I was
ignorant of the method, and dependent on others.
Now, when I desire to visit a place, or be with certain
friends, the desire creates an attraction, which
in spirit is the equivalent of magnetic attraction in
the physical world.
When we again reached our spirit home our companions
gathered around us, and I was soothed by
the kind words of my mother. I felt condemned for
my loss of interest in the earth-life which had so
recently absorbed my mind, but it became like a
dim dream, and ceased to trouble me. What if I
should forget it entirely? I was appalled at the
idea, and cried at the pang it gave.
“Do not fear, you will not forget, but after a time
your affections will strengthen. Our sister has much
to learn, and needlessly distresses herself.”
The years passed, and I became accustomed to my
new life, when a message came for me. The palpitating
waves repeated, “Mother! mother! mother!”
It was my youngest daughter, who had grown almost
to womanhood. I knew by her cry that she
was in mortal pain, and yielding to the attractions
I was soon with her. She was motionless on a
couch, surrounded by her relatives, and her cousin
held her cold hand. “It is all over,” they said, in tears.
“Can it be?” I eagerly asked. “Oh! can it be
that the time has already come when I am to have
one of my children with me? To have one of them who
will know me, and converse with me? Oh! heavenly
Father, I thank thee for this answer to my incessant
prayer.”
Then I looked closely and saw the great transition
was approaching. I could not assist; I could
only stand by her side and receive her. She seemed
asleep, which I fully understood from my own experience.
Slowly the spirit left the insensible body,
and as I saw my spirit-daughter recovering her
senses, I drew near and whispered, “Claribel.” She
opened wide her blue eyes, and I knew she saw me.
I threw my arms around her, and wept for gladness.
“Darling Claribel, do you not know me, your
mother?”
“Dearest mama,” she said with her old smile,
“know you? Why, you are younger, but the same.
Where have you been so long? We thought you
dead?”
“Do you not know?” I asked, apprehensively.
“Know? What mean you?”
“Yes, I am what they call dead; and were you
not likewise, you could not see me!”
“I dead?” she replied, with a laugh which recalled
her childhood, throwing her arms gracefully
over her head. “Look you, mama, how far from it
I am. I have been wretchedly sick, and in such
fiery pain; but it is over, and I am perfectly well.”
We drew to one side, and she then turning saw
the friends, weeping, and her body on the couch.
“Why do they weep?” she asked, “and who is
that on the couch? I am confused, for it is like
another self.”
“They are weeping for your loss, and that form
on the couch is yours.”
“Am I to return to it? What am I to do, dear
mother?”
“No, you will need it no more. Your life is hereafter
with me and the angels.”
“What mean you, mother, by saying you and I
are dead?”
“That we are, my child. That is what people
call dead.”
“I do not understand,” she replied musingly. Then
going to her cousin’s side, who was still holding her
physical hand, she said, “Cousin Frank, what are
you weeping for? Do you not see how well I am?”
He did not hear her words, and she spoke again,
playfully patting his face. Then she saw that she
was no longer able to be heard or felt, and threw
herself into my arms, weeping violently. I soothed
her as best I could, upbraiding myself with foolishly
teaching her the ways of our life before she was
able to receive. “My child,” I said, “how glad I am
to have you again with me. They will all come to
us sooner or later. Now we will go to my home, for
it is not well for you to remain. After a time you
will be instructed in these mysteries.”
I attempted to go, but found that although I could
depart alone, I could not bear Claribel with me. I
had not perfected myself sufficiently in the method,
and her attraction was toward that spot alone. I
prayed for the coming of a companion, and soon
there came one to my aid. On either side we threw
our arms around her, and then our wills bore her
onward with us.
When we reached our home, and the loving companions
came with welcome to Claribel, and she saw
beauty and perfection everywhere, and felt how
happy her coming had made me, tears trembled in
her eyes as she said: “It is wonderful, mother, and
I ought not to regret, but you know earth-life was
sweet to me, and I had plans for the future.”
“Yes, my child,” I replied, “the days were too
short, and your friends were devoted, but your plans
are thwarted, yet you must know that all is well.”
Her towering air-castles had vanished; but soon she
had far greater sources of happiness in the group
of beautiful children she instructed.
I said I would not visit earth unless called, for the
pain was greater than the pleasure. Even when called,
I refused. “My husband,” they said, “was about to
wed again.”
“It is well,” I replied; “his is the rough, earth-life,
hard to walk alone. If he so desires, I ought to be
willing.”
Yet I was not willing or I should have gone. It
would have seemed strange, indeed, to have visited
my old home, and found another in my place. It
would have emphasized my death to me. Thinking
the matter over, I said:
“No! I will not go. Let them be happy. I will not
enter their sphere.”
When, years after, the message came that he was
soon to join me, I hastened to his side. When I
reached him he had already nearly passed through the
transition, and had regained his spiritual perceptions.
As I came to him he at once knew me, and opened
wide his arms to receive me. The years were blotted
out. We were again to each other all that we had ever
been. By intuition he knew that he had met the
change, and the first words he said to me were:
“I am so glad the weary watch is over. I knew
heaven was not so large I could not find you, but I did
not expect so soon to meet you. It was like you to
come, and I ought to have expected it.”
“I heard your call,” I replied, “and heaven is not
so wide that I could not come. Now we must go,
and I will take you to the most beautiful place you
ever saw in dreams. You must not remain to witness
the proceedings further.”
He smiled at my words: “Why, you talk as if
there was something terrible about death. It has
been the most pleasant passage in my life. I have
suffered a great deal in its approach, but when it
came it brought only joy. When I saw you, I was
so pleased, my clay-lips uttered my thoughts, the last
words they ever gave. Now it is done, I must stay
till it is over. I want to see how the relatives and
friends act, and hear what they say. You know it
will be strange to hear one’s own funeral sermon.”
As he would not go, I remained with him, and
entering again into the earth-sphere, suffered from
the contact. My husband was greatly interested in
the ceremonies, and when they were over, he said:
“I am glad the old aching body has at last gone to
its final rest. The children were grieved, and ought
to know how they misunderstand. Perhaps I can tell
them some time. Hearts do not break with grief,
else mine would have broken. Come, now, my new-found
wife, I will go where you wish.”
I need not repeat the story of the journey or describe
the meeting with our Claribel. Her father
was of so happy a disposition, that he at once assimilated
his surroundings, and became one with his
companions.
“I have worked and struggled along,” he said,
“having little time to think, and I am as ignorant as
a savage. I desire at once to commence gaining
knowledge. How am I to proceed?”
We all laughed at his eagerness, and one said:
“There is time enough; you must first rest and
recover strength.”
“Rest! I was never stronger, and I am anxious
for exertion. I feel mentally starved and crave
thought food.”
“You will find no difficult task. To desire is to
have, and you will soon become in sympathy with
the thought-atmosphere of our home.”
Then one of our number, who was a poet, superior
to us all, said he had had a singular and painful
experience, and we demanded to hear it.
The Poet’s Story.—I had been enthroned, and as
I came up the pathway leading to this eminence, I
met a boisterous throng of people. Strange faces
they had, and yet they were familiar. I looked
closely, and imagine my surprise when I found they
belonged to me. They were the thoughts I had expressed
in my earth-life. Some were dark, repulsive
and inexpressibly ugly, while others were exquisitely
beautiful. What a horde they were, and though
some were pleasing, the greater proportion caused
my cheeks to blush with shame.
“Father! father!” they called, rushing toward
me.
“Away!” I cried. “I know you not!”
“Then we will follow you. We belong to you,
and wherever you go we will go. We will not
desert you.”
“If this be so,” I cried in despair, “then I am
burdened beyond endurance, and immortality becomes
a curse. If I must remain with this throng of
tormentors, reminding me continually of early follies,
then extinction is preferable.”
What shall I do with this miscreant crowd, deformed
and rude? I can not take them home to my
companions. If these are embodiments of my earthly
thoughts, how they would scorn me. If this is to be
my retinue, then I must seek a new home where I
am unknown. I must cast aside the companionship
of this company. My punishment is terrible. I
threw myself down in a paroxysm of grief and remorse.
An angel came by, and pausing said:
“Would you escape from your thraldom?”
“Escape!” I cried. “Can I escape?”
“Do you not see that the most repulsive of these
spectres are fashioned of the thoughts which are of
yourself, recording your former vanity, pride, uncharity,
selfishness and forgetfulness of others? See
you that lovely being representing a deed of self-sacrifice?”
“Oh! that they were all like her!” I cried.
“Then listen. You must act in such a manner
that the good will eclipse these shadows, when they
will disappear.”
Saying this he vanished, and I, reflecting, said
that I would at once free myself from the dreadful
following. Opportunely there came a spirit moaning
past me. Her brother on earth was contemplating a
horrible crime. He had determined to take the life
of his mother in order to become possessed of her
estate. The sister had vainly attempted to give
a warning or to influence him, and in despair at her
failure she had left them to their fate. I said to her:
“Come. I will go with you, and perhaps together
we can prevent this crime.”
She fervently expressed her gratitude as she conducted
me to her mother’s house. It was midnight
when we arrived, as I saw in the dim lamplight by
the tall clock, and the mother was sleeping.
“We can only watch,” said my companion, “and
if he should come, we can do nothing to save her.”
“Do you not know that sometimes sleep unlocks
the avenues of the spirit, and we can approach
much nearer than in waking hours? When we thus
come, people say they have dreamed.”
I bent over the mother, her white locks fell from
beneath her cap over the pillow, and there was
something in the expression of her lips and cheeks
reminding me of my own. I tested her sensitiveness
and found that her mind responded. Then I
willed these words:
“Edward intends to kill you with a knife. He
will come into your room, and you must awake and
charge him with the crime, and say to him that his
sister came from heaven to tell you!”
She started as if by a blow, and with a horrified
expression, she sprang upright.
“Who is here?” she cried. “Who spoke to me?
I have had a fearful dream, so vivid that I thought it
reality.”
She sank again on the pillow, and there were light
footsteps at the door, which slowly swung open, and
the brother entered. The mother waited only a moment
when she arose and addressed him in the words
of her dream. It came so suddenly that he admitted
his intentions, and pleaded for forgiveness.
He had been made the victim of bad men, and if he
could escape from them he might be saved. By
nature he was not so bad, but he was weak.
Leaving them to each other, I started again for
our home, my heart full of gladness, for I had followed
the advice of the angel, and expected to thereby
escape my companions. Judge of my surprise
when on looking back, I saw a new form, more ugly
than any of the others, the result of this act from
which I had expected so much. As I gazed in despair,
the angel came again, and with a smile said to me:
“It was a selfish act!”
“Selfish?” I asked.
“Aye; you had not the good of the woman or the
salvation of the son or the happiness of the daughter
at heart. You had only your own pleasure and gain.
You would thereby relieve yourself of a burden.
The world is ruined by such benevolence. You will
have a long and weary road if you travel in that
direction.”
“I am a fool,” I said, overwhelmed by my imbecility
and want of spiritual understanding. “What can
I do?” I implored.
“If I direct you, there will be no merit. You must
determine for yourself.”
As he spoke he vanished, and I sat down, resting
like a weary pilgrim, overburdened. Then I saw a
spirit coming rapidly toward me, and on approaching
she hurriedly said:
“I am told you can influence mortals. My son is
captain of a steamer, and having lost his course, is
sailing directly on a rocky coast. Come and save
not only him, but the hundreds of his slumbering
passengers.”
Without a moment’s delay, I followed her, and
came to the steamer. The gray of morning was
flushing the sky, and the crests of heavily rolling
seas gleamed in the cold light. Everything was
quiet on deck, for the passengers were asleep, and
nothing was heard but the steady pulsations of the
engine. I looked beyond the bow, and saw the shore
some distance away. It was a high promontory of
black rocks, against which the surf was violently
beating, and the ship was headed directly on the point
where it was most violent. Whatever was to be done,
must be done quickly. We went into the cabin where
the captain sat with his head resting on his hands, between
sleeping and waking. Could I impress him
with his danger? I made the attempt and failed. I
repeated several times with no better success. I became
anxious, as the danger increased, for every pulsation
of the engine brought the ship nearer to the
rocks. The sleeping passengers, strong men, helpless
women and children, how soon they would be
called to face certain destruction. What agony the
now quiet decks would witness! What waiting and
hoping against hope there would be in hundreds of
desolate homes! The contemplation unnerved me,
and I was unfitted to exercise my skill in impressing
thoughts on mortal brain. I was recalled by the
voice of the mother:
“Can you not save my son?”
I confess that when the picture of agony I have
sketched came to my mind, in my wish to prevent
the catastrophe, all selfish considerations were forgotten,
and I would unhesitatingly have given my
existence for the safety of the ship, were it possible
to have done so.
“I can do nothing unless I have aid,” I replied,
and with my whole strength I invoked our elder
brother. Instantly he came. He understands the
methods of impressing thought so perfectly that, as
you know, he rarely fails. He placed his hand on
the captain’s head, and the thought he gave was:
“Ship ahoy, breakers ahead!”
The captain sprang to his feet, and rubbing his
eyes in a bewildered manner, rushed on deck.
“Who hailed us?” he demanded of the drowsy
watch.
“No one, sir; all is quiet.”
“We were hailed,” he said firmly, and gaining the
bridge he sought to penetrate the darkness. He listened,
and his face paled, for distinctly came the
boom of the surf.
Swift were the commands, and the ship by a sharp
curve doubled on her course, the rocky ledge being so
near that a few revolutions more and there would
have been no escape.
A great many of the passengers came up on deck,
aroused by the unusual motion of the ship and the
shouting of orders, and when they understood the
peril they had so narrowly escaped, they embraced
each other and cried for joy.
As I again sought our home, forgetful of everything
but the benefit I had conferred by my journey,
I glanced behind me, and saw a shining light, and
afar off, in dim outline, the group of beings I so
strongly desired to escape. Unconsciously I had
performed an act that had placed a light between
me and them. Rejoice with me, dear friends, I am
enabled to be unselfish.
Then the elder said: “Our brother adds to his other
good qualities, that of humility.”
“The angel-life became more complete and perfect
as year by year the loved ones came up from the
shadows of earth, until our family circle was almost
restored. After a time its old members will take
their new places, and when my earth-friends are
all here, there will be little attraction for me in the
old life.
“It is yet new and strange, and cannot be described
to mortal comprehension. Language itself must be
spiritualized, and words given a new meaning.
“I have mingled tears of pity with those who have
been bereft, at the same time knowing that their
loss was gain to the departed ones.
“Activity is our happiness, and thinking right and
doing our very best are the gateways to heaven.
Earth-life is a joy only when the end is known. Here
its infinite possibilities are realized. Not in a year or a
century, but in the fullness of time can all this come.
Weep, for it is human, when your loved ones pass the
shadowy portals, remembering, however, that the
spiritual sun on the other side will, by comparison,
make your brightest day on earth a rayless night.”
The mists are falling on the purple sea,
The sun is sinking in the clouds aflame;
For many a day the far receding sea
And melting sky have seemed almost the same.
At first we met the bitter storm and cloud,
With little sunshine on the darkling mere,
The waves were high, the icy winds were loud;
The days were dark, the nights were full of fear.
By every trial having gathered strength,
And hopeful conquered every adverse gale,
We now have reached a calmer sea at length,
And with full hearts unbend the flowing sail.
Behind, the sinking sun reveals no shore
Illumed with glory of his purple light;
The land we left has passed forever more
Beyond the reach of longing mortal sight.
A boundless sea on every side expands;
We’re drifting slowly toward the glowing east;
In faith expecting yet more welcome lands,
When toiling care, and mortal life have ceased.
Behold, it comes in robes of azure light!
As sinks the sun behind the sullen waves,
And on the pearly shore, enchanting sight,
Are all the friends we thought within the grave.
And now, oh ship, your weary pinions fold,
And rock to sleep upon the harbor’s breast;
This is the home, by faith our hearts foretold,
Where we shall find activity and rest.