Medora’s mother found increasing matter for agitation in
the attitude of Ned Dingle. She had seen him twice and
urged the need of action. She had even offered to give
him all her small savings towards the legal cost of the
operation. And then he had startled and shocked her a
good deal by two statements, neither of which Lydia had
expected.
“All in good time,” he had said. “I don’t feel any
particular call to hurry myself on their account. Plenty
of time when I’ve settled my new job. As to the cost, it
would be particular hard if you, of all people, was called
to part on such a subject, and I wouldn’t allow it for a
moment. But when I do start on to it, my lawyer thinks
I can bring a pretty hot case against Kellock for damages;
so I dare say I shall knock expenses out of him, and a bit
over. And the harder his savings are hit, the better every
right thinking person will be pleased.”
So he had spoken, and two days later had disappeared
from Ashprington, and left no direction behind him.
Where he was gone and whether he would return, none
knew. Kellock deplored the delay and Medora bitterly
resented it. She was very unhappy and her troubles now
occupied her mother’s mind. Mrs. Trivett felt chiefly concerned
to approach Ned Dingle again.
“If he’s down Ivybridge way, at the paper mills there,
I might go and see him,” she said to Philander Knox in the
luncheon hour; but Mr. Knox either could not or would not
assist Lydia to find her son-in-law.
“I don’t know where he’s gone,” he answered, “and I
shouldn’t worry in that matter, because you can’t alter it,
or turn Ned Dingle from his plans, whatever they may be.
On the whole, I should back him to do the fair thing in his
own time. You can’t expect him to go out of his way for
them.”
“He wants to punish them seemingly,” said Lydia.
“He told me the harder Kellock was hit, the better people
would be pleased. In fact he’s getting a bit of his own
back, I suppose, or thinks he is.”
“In this case, it’s all or none,” answered Mr. Knox.
“He can’t get a bit of his own back, and he can’t call it
his own if it’s ceased to be his own. The subject’s wrapped
in mystery, Lydia Trivett, and only time will hatch what’s
really in Ned’s mind.”
“He oughtn’t to keep them on tenterhooks like this,”
she said; but Philander felt no call to criticise Mr. Dingle.
“He’ll suit himself, and why not? I’ve given him a bit
of useful advice. Whether he’ll take it or not I can’t of
course, say; but don’t you fret, that’s all. Medora’s broke
up a bit, I fancy. She’s just beginning to see in a dim
sort of way she’s not everybody. Being your daughter,
I’m willing to offer friendship; but if she’s going to thrust
me out of your thoughts, then she’ll have one more enemy
than she’s got at present, I warn you of that.”
“You mustn’t talk so, my dear man, if you please,” said
Mrs. Trivett. “My daughter’s affairs and your affairs
are two different things, and you needn’t fear I’m forgetting
all you’ve told me. You must let me have the full
fortnight I bargained for last week. But you’re on my
mind too—working underground like a mole—and
though I may not exactly see you at it, there’s the marks
of you. In fact I do think of you a lot, and if it’s any
comfort to you, I’ve dreamed of you once or twice.”
“In a friendly way, I hope?”
“Quite friendly. We was shopping in a great shop,
and I was carrying a lot of parcels.”
“I don’t believe in dreams,” he said. “Give me reality,
and make up your mind. Above all things don’t be
influenced against me by—well, you know. That’s where
the danger lies, in my opinion, and you’ll be going under
your character if you let sentiment and silliness and a
barrow-load of other people’s children come between you
and your duty to yourself—not to mention me. Because
I warn you, Lydia, that the grand mistake you make is
that you forget your duty to yourself. A lot of good
Christians do that; though your duty to yourself is quite
as much a part of righteousness as your duty to your
neighbour. We’re told to love our neighbour as ourselves,
I believe, not better. And there’s another side; by doing
that woman’s work, and coming between her and the lawful
consequences of that litter of children, you’re not doing
her any good, but harm. You’re ruining her character,
and helping her to live a lazy life. You’ve taught her and
your brother to take you as an every-day creature, and all
as much in the course of nature as their daily bread,
whereas the truth is that you are that rare thing, an angel
in the house, and your qualities are clean hidden from their
stupid eyes. It’s making a couple naturally selfish, ten
times more so; and that’s what you unselfish people bring
about so often as not. You toil and moil and work your
fingers to the bone doing your duty, as you think, when
half the time you’re only doing somebody else’s duty.
And what’s the result? You’re not even respected for it.
You’re taken for granted—that’s all the reward you get—you’re
taken for granted—never a nice thing at best.
And I tell you that you’re up against justice to me and
yourself, Lydia. For though we’ve not known each other
a year yet, there’s that in our natures that belongs to each
other. It would be a very proper thing to happen, and
we should be teaching your brother’s family a very simple
but valuable lesson, which is that to have anything for
nothing in this world is robbery.”
“All as true as true,” she answered. “I never find myself
questioning your sense, and I quite admit there’s often
nobody so properly selfish as your unselfish sort. I’ve
seen them play the mischief with other people’s lives, and
create a very mistaken state of security in other people’s
houses.”
“Once grasp that, and I shall live in hope,” said Philander.
“Let each man do his own work is a very good
rule, because if you’re always helping others, there’s a tidy
chance your own job’s not being properly done; and
though you might argue that your own work here isn’t
hurt by what you do at Priory Farm, it’s quite possible
that other work is hurt. I mean the time for thought and
self-improvement, and—in fact, me. For I’ve a fair call
upon your time under the present conditions, and though
it’s all right for Mrs. Dolbear to know you’re putting
years on to your life before you’ve lived them, it isn’t all
right for your true friends to hear about; and it isn’t all
right for your Maker, Who certainly never intended you
for a nurse-maid at fifty odd years of age—or for a rag-sorter,
either. You’re ripe for higher things, and there’s
independence and peace waiting for you.”
“I’m going to think of it,” said Lydia. “For many
reasons I’d like it, Philander Knox. You suit me very
well, because you’ve got sense and character, and we seem
to think alike in a lot that matters. You’ve made me fond
of you, and I trust you. In fact, there’s such a lot that
looks promising about it, that, for that reason, one can’t
help mistrusting it. Life teaches anybody to doubt the
bright side of a thing till you’ve weighed it fairly against
the dark side.”
“This hasn’t got no dark side,” he declared; “and if
you’re honest, the longer you look at it, the brighter it
will shine. So be fair to us both. Trust your own brain-power;
I can’t give you better advice than that.”
She promised, and that evening, though she had hardly
meant to be so prompt, Lydia raised the question among
her relations. Accident led to this, and threw so forcible
a commentary on the conversation with Mr. Knox, that the
matter sprang to her lips unsummoned, and surprised herself.
Yet voiced in the kitchen of Priory Farm, from behind
a pile of the children’s mending, Lydia’s tremendous
statement struck even herself as almost impossibly shocking
and heartless.
Jenny had just suffered from an attack of croup and
Lydia, of course, took the sick child into her own room,
as Tom Dolbear would not let Mary do so.
“I must have my night’s rest, or else I can’t do my day’s
work,” he said, and his wife agreed with him.
“I know Lydia will take Jenny, won’t you, dear Lydia?
Jenny’s that fond of you, too. And there’s no peace for
me and Tom like the peace when the childer are along with
you. Because then we know they’re put first.”
This evening Jenny would not go to sleep and Lydia had
run up and down stairs once or twice. Then she went into
a room where Milly and Clara slept—to find them also
awake and clamouring for biscuits. Having fed and silenced
them, she returned to the pile of mending.
It was a rough, wet night and Mr. Dolbear sat and
smoked by the fire, while his wife drowsed on the other side
of the hearth. The last baby was asleep in its cradle near
her.
Tom told of a successful stroke at Totnes market and
was pleased with himself.
“The year’s begun well,” he said. “I ain’t one to count
my chickens before they’re hatched, but I never had such
lambs in my life and the quality’s as high as the numbers.”
“And no more than you deserve,” said his wife; “rewards
come where they are due, and such a man as you did
ought to be looked after. Oh, dear—there’s Jenny again,
I’m afraid, Lydia.”
Mrs. Trivett departed a third time and presently returned.
“A little bit of temper, I’m afraid. She’s crying out
for an orange to suck, and that’s the last thing she can
have.”
“I wouldn’t call it temper,” argued Jenny’s mother.
“No child of mine have got what you’d call temper,
Lydia.”
“That’s where we don’t agree then,” answered her
sister-in-law. “I’m fond of Jenny, as you well know; but
what she’s got to fight against is temper, in my opinion.
We mustn’t spoil her.”
“If that happens, it won’t be me, nor yet her father
that does the harm,” declared Mary placidly. “Where
children come, you’ll generally find that wisdom is sent to
manage them, and I do think that Tom and me know something
about how to manage our own.”
“It’s so long ago since you had your daughter to bring
up, that very like you’ve forgotten the early stages,
Lydia,” suggested Tom.
“And in any case, though God knows I’d never have
whispered it to you if you hadn’t said Jenny suffered from
temper—in any case, when you look at Medora, you can’t
be none too sure your way of upbringing was the best,”
murmured Mrs. Dolbear.
Mrs. Trivett smiled to herself and threaded another
needle. She knew Mary very well and was not in the least
concerned for this little flash. It meant nothing whatever.
Mary was a worm who only wriggled if one of her progeny
was trodden on. There was another shout from Jenny
and Lydia took no notice, while both Tom and Mary looked
at her inquiringly.
Then she spoke.
“I never like to trouble you people about my own
affairs, because, naturally, you’ve got no time to think
about a humble person like me.”
“Don’t say that, Lydia,” said her brother. “Ain’t you
one of us and ain’t our good your good?”
“Yes; but it’s borne in on me, Tom, we can’t live for
other people. I’ve got my own life to live too. I’ve got
my work, and I earn my living just as much as you
do.”
“Meanwhile that sick child’s yowling her head off,” said
Mary sadly.
“She said she hated me last time I went up, so I can’t
go up again,” declared Mrs. Trivett, “not till she’s
asleep.”
“A child’s a child,” replied the mother, “and if you’re
going to take that line about ’em—”
She rose ponderously and lumbered from the room.
“You’ve hurt her feelings,” grumbled Tom. “What’s
the matter with you this evening, Lydia? If anybody’s
vexed you, best to have it out and not sulk over it.”
“Funny I should be in hot water with you and Polly to-night,”
answered Mrs. Trivett. “But you ought to
choose your words cleverer, Tom. I don’t sulk, my dear,
whatever my faults.”
“I stand corrected,” answered Mr. Dolbear instantly.
“God knows I’ve no wish to quarrel with you, Lydia—no,
nor would Polly. We’ve got a great respect for you. As
for our children—but you know what you are to them.
And we feel that nothing’s too good for you; and if I
could afford to let you live here without paying your
seven and six-pence a week, I’d thankfully let you—thankfully.
But with such a family as mine—”
“For some things, however, if you had a paid woman to
look after the children, it might suit their mother better.
She’d feel freer to speak her mind.”
“Certainly not,” he answered. “We don’t want no
hirelings about the children—not while we’ve got you.
We couldn’t trust anybody like we trust you; and Polly
would never be the same woman, or get her needful share
of rest and peace with a lesser than you. And some day,
I hope to make you free of everything, and not let any
money question arise between us.”
“I’m not worrying about my keep, Tom. Whatever
else he may be, Jordan Kellock has got a very good respect
of me, and though I shall never like him as well as Ned,
yet he’s an honourable, upright man according to his lights
and I can trust him. Indeed he’s gone so far as to say
he’d like me to lead a different life; for he’s the same as
Dingle there: he doesn’t think it’s a very wise thing for an
elderly woman to be quite so busy as I am.”
“Like his damned impertinence! And what does he
mean by that, Priory Farm, or the Mill?”
Mrs. Dolbear returned at this moment; she was fretful.
“I don’t know whatever you’ve done to Jenny. A
proper tantarra the poor maid’s in.”
“I told her she couldn’t have another orange to-night,
that’s all.”
“Listen to this!” burst out Tom. “That blasted Kellock
has been saying Lydia’s over-worked!”
“Who by?” asked his wife.
“That’s just what I want to know.”
“If he means the Mill, he’s right, I believe,” continued
Mary. “I’ve often wished she’d see her way to give up
that troublesome work in the rag house and stop here with
us, in comfort and ease, with our little ones to play with
her.”
“Or I might marry again and have a home of my own,”
suggested Lydia. “I’m the independent sort, Mary, and
I often think it would be wiser to do that than stop along
with you as a lodger.”
There was a moment of silence, then Mr. Dolbear flung
his clay pipe upon the hearth with such fury that it splintered
into a thousand fragments.
“What in hell’s happened to-day?” he almost shouted.
“Here I come home with good news—great news, you
may say—and instead of sharing our pleasure and being
glad, for the children’s sake if not for ours, that I’ve had
a stroke of luck, you do every damned thing you can think
of to pour cold water on it!”
“My dear Tom, don’t be a fool,” answered Lydia
calmly. “You and Polly are getting so wrapped up in
number one, that you can’t imagine anybody having any
interest or thought outside this house and the welfare of
you and your children. But the world goes on outside
Priory Farm, and I say again, it’s come to be a question
with me whether I’m doing the best I can do in the world
by stopping here. A question of duty, mind. I may tell
you both that some very straight things have been spoke
to me of late, and I can’t pretend they haven’t got a lot of
truth in ’em—perhaps more than the man who spoke them
thought. For looking back, as I have a good bit since this
business of Medora, I see only too bitter clear that it’s
possible to be too unselfish and to spoil young folk and
unfit them for the battle of life by coming between them
and their duty. That’s what I did with Medora, as you
reminded me just now, Polly, and that’s my inclination
with your little ones; and I’m growing very doubtful if I’m
not thinking of my own inclinations, or personal desires,
more than what’s right.”
“Either you’re mad, Lydia, or you’ve been talking to
somebody that’s mad,” declared Tom furiously. “This
is about the most shattering speech I’ve ever heard from
you, and for cruelty and unreason I never heard the like.
Look at my wife—ain’t that enough? If she’d seen a
spectrum, she couldn’t have gone whiter in the gills—and
her chin’s dropped and all her teeth showing. And if
such a shock ain’t enough to turn her milk sour and poison
that baby, then I’m a fool.”
Indeed Mrs. Dolbear had changed colour and did look
extremely frightened.
“I know what you’re hinting at, Lydia,” she said, “and
I can only tell you if you was to do such a thing as to leave
your brother at a time like this, after you’d practically
promised to help me with his family—if you were to go
on some selfish pretext and marry some creature and lose
your comfortable home and your fame for sense—if you
did that, you’d never have another peaceful moment from
your conscience.”
“And you’d never deserve to have one,” added Tom.
“Looked at on high grounds, Lydia, it don’t bear thinking
on for a second, and well you know it. Bring your
religion to bear on it, woman, and you’ll feel a good pinch
of shame, I shouldn’t wonder.”
“That’s what I’m doing, if you could see it,” answered
Lydia. “It’s only a matter for religion, so far, and the
welfare of the young folk. I’m thinking for them and
their characters. It would be a poor come-along-of-it,
Tom, if years hence you and Polly was to turn round and
say that I had marred your children’s natures.”
“We’re the best judge of that,” he answered. “And if
we’re satisfied with your way of handling the children,
whose business is it to put all these wicked ideas in your
head? God’s truth! I never heard of such impudence.
And you, at your age—as if you didn’t know what was
duty and what was not. Perhaps ’tis thought you spoil us
as well as our children, and give everything and get nothing
in exchange?”
He snorted with indignation when Lydia admitted that
this was actually the case.
“Some do think so for that matter,” she confessed.
Her brother honestly felt this to be an undeserved blow.
He had built up a very different picture of Lydia’s existence
and believed that her privileges at Priory Farm at
least balanced any advantages that accrued from her presence.
This, however, was what Mary understood very
much better than Tom. She dwelt under no delusion on
the subject and fully appreciated the significance of her
sister-in-law in the cosmic scheme.
“If that’s the sort of thing outsiders say and you believe,
then the sooner you’re gone from my roof, the better
pleased I shall be,” shouted Mr. Dolbear. “I was under
the impression that after your husband died, Lydia, you
turned to me for comfort and put me first henceforth, and
felt that this was a blessed haven for your middle age.
But, of course, if I’m wrong and you’re only a slave and
I’m only a slave-driver, then—”
He stopped, for Mary did an uncommon thing and suddenly
burst into an explosion of noisy tears.
“There!” said Mr. Dolbear tragically, “look at your
work!”
“It ain’t Lydia,” wept the other, “it’s you. I never
was so cut to the heart in all my life, and I can’t stand
much more of it. Lydia’s as much a part of this house as
the door handles, and dearer to me, next to my children and
you, than anything on God’s earth; and when you talk of
her going away from us, you might as well talk of cutting
off my leg. We’re three in one and one in three, you and
Lydia and me, and the man or woman who came between
us would be doing the devil’s work and ought to be treated
according.”
“There’s a heart!” said Mr. Dolbear. “If that ain’t
offering the other cheek, Lydia—”
“No,” continued Mary, drying her eyes, “there’s some
sorrows I could face, if it was the will of God, but the
sorrow of living my life without Lydia’s wisdom and help,
and the light of her countenance—I couldn’t do it. I
wouldn’t be responsible. I know all she is in this house,
and though you in your manly way—which is to be
annoyed when you get a surprise you don’t like—though
you, Tom, may foolishly think Priory Farm could go on
without Lydia, that only shows the gulf there’s fixed between
the male and female mind. I know Lydia’s the lynch
pin to our cart, and so do my girls, down to that innocent
infant in the cradle, if she could talk; and so do Lydia
herself, for though modest as a violet, she’s far too witty
to misunderstand a thing like that. And if I thought
any evil influence was upon Lydia to make her restless, I’d
go on my knees to God to touch her heart and keep it in
the old pattern; and I’d stop on ’em till He had.”
Here Mary wept again and Tom, impressed by so much
emotion, moderated his warmth.
“If I said anything over and above, I’m sorry,” he
declared. “But when I get a shock, it nearly always
loosens my tongue; and to think that evil disposed persons
have been poisoning Lydia’s mind against her own is a bit
beyond reason and justice.”
“If we’re falling short in our duty and undervaluing
you, Lydia, you must tell us,” added Mary, “for we’re not
the sort to fail in gratitude I should hope. We may not
voice our thanks; but God knows if they’re in our prayers
or not.”
Then Lydia spoke.
“It’s nothing like that. It’s only a natural difference
of opinion. There’s a man wants to marry me, and he
can’t be blamed, looking at me from his romantical point
of view, for thinking he’d like to see me in my own home.”
Heavy silence followed, and only a cricket behind the
oven broke it.
Mrs. Dolbear’s heart sank. She was prepared to go to
any possible extremes of conduct rather than lose Lydia.
Without Mrs. Trivett, her own life must inevitably become
a far more complicated and strenuous matter than she
desired.
“It’s not for us to advise you,” she said, “but I hope
the Almighty will help you out of temptation, Lydia, for
anything more dreadful and unbecoming than that couldn’t
happen to you.”
“I dare say you’re right, Mary.”
“I don’t tell you this for selfishness, nor yet because
you’d leave a house of mourners and break a lot of young,
innocent hearts, if you was to go. I tell you this, because
I do believe your high nature wouldn’t brook another man,
or return into the wedded state with comfort after all
these widowed years of freedom. I can’t see you happy
so; and I can’t see any nice man wishing to take you out
of this house.”
Lydia rose to retire.
“As to that, Polly, it’s all the point of view. Nobody
can fairly quarrel with the man. He’s all right.”
“I’m sure I hope you don’t think of it all the same,
after hearing my wife, Lydia,” murmured Tom, now subdued.
“I must think of it. I owe it to him. I’m sorry you
can’t trust a woman of my age to behave sensibly; but I
dare say that’s natural. Only be sure I’ve no wish to give
either of you a pang. You know what I think of you and
the children, and how happy I’ve been to see them come
into the world so full of promise and hope. And if you
look back, Polly, you’ll see I’ve always tried to be on the
side of discipline and sense, and never lost a chance to
strengthen your hand and win all proper obedience for
you and Tom.”
“We know all that,” answered her brother. “You
mustn’t think because I’m a man of slow speech that my
heart’s slow likewise. Far from it. I like for everything
to go smooth and peaceful; I hate change; and if changes
are coming, all I can say is I haven’t deserved ’em and
more’s my poor wife.”
“Good night, Lydia. God bless you,” said Mary, mopping
her eyes. Then Mrs. Trivett left them and retired
to the peace of her own sanctum. It was true that Jenny
at present shared this ark, but Jenny had at last gone to
sleep and Lydia meditated without interruption about her
future.
She came to a preliminary conclusion that, for once,
duty was not directly involved. It seemed at a first glance
that her own inclination might reasonably be considered,
and that no choice between right and wrong awaited her.
To marry was a very reasonable step, whatever Mary
might say, for she was not old, and Mr. Knox could be
trusted to make a worthy spouse and treat her with all
due respect and consideration. She liked him and felt it
quite possible to share his life and devote herself to his
comfort and welfare. But to refuse him would be no more
difficult than to accept him. Her present life, that looked
so grey seen from the outside, was agreeable enough to her.
She loved work and she loved children, especially her
brother’s children. She had been largely responsible for
their up-bringing and they owed much to her. Moreover
they loved her quite as much as their mother. Indeed she
was the sun to their mother’s moon, and she very well
knew what a disaster her departure must be in the eyes of
Milly and Bobby, Jenny and Clara.
Nor could she well see her own life separated from theirs.
She had not decided when she went to sleep, but there was
little doubt in her subconscious mind as to how she would
decide. Mary’s attitude had also influenced her. The
real terror in Mary’s eyes, when the threat of departure
broke upon her, Lydia could not easily forget. She dwelt
on these things and did not allow her sister-in-law’s craft,
or her brother’s anger and selfishness to influence her.
As for Mr. and Mrs. Dolbear, they lay awake till dawn,
racking their brains to devise means by which Lydia might
be preserved alive to them.
“One thing’s certain in my mind,” said Tom. “We
know the man; and that ought to be a tower of strength.
There’s no doubt it’s Philander Knox, and all his sucking
up to us and pretended friendship is now explained.”
“We must get at him—for Lydia’s sake,” declared
Mary. “She shan’t be trapped to her doom by an unknown
creature like that if I can prevent it.”
“There’s surely something beastly to the man,” asserted
Tom, “otherwise, after he’d once seen what my sister was
in this house, he’d have understood it was a vain and selfish
plot to try and get her out of it.”
“She’s always talking about the greatest good to the
greatest number,” added Mary, “and now ’tis for her to
practise what she preaches. Here there’s ten want her;
and is one doubtful male, come from Lord knows where, to
count against all her nearest and dearest? God forbid!”
“Well, I hope she’ll see it like that; and if she don’t, we
must make it our business to queer that man’s pitch. If
you and me, working heart and soul for our children and
the family in general, can’t get this foreigner on the run,
we’re not what I think we are.”
Next morning Mary was far too indisposed to rise, and
before she went to work, Lydia took her up a cup of tea
and three slices of toast and butter.
“I’ve decided, Mary,” she said, “and if it’s any comfort
to you to know it, I may tell you that I shall stop here.”
Whereupon Mary wept again, held Mrs. Trivett’s hand
and kissed it.
“Blessed be your name,” she gurgled, “and may God’s
reward meet the case, Lydia. I’d give you all the kingdoms
of earth if they was mine.”