John Cotley closed his
account-book—blotting the last entry carefully, for he was
an orderly man—and laid it in its accustomed place in the
drawer of his high desk. Then, rising from the tall stool
on which he had been seated for an hour and more, he passed his
hands across his brow, and looked through the mullioned window at
the fast darkening landscape.
“It grows late,” quoth he. “Molly will
be in a taking at my keeping supper waiting so long, but I must
stretch my legs first, after all this sitting.”
As he stood in the wainscotted hall without, in the act of
taking down his hat, he was startled by loud rapping at the great
wooden gates of the yard, which had been closed and bolted for
the night, together with the sound of several voices raised in
unison. He threw open the hall-door and stood for a moment
on the threshold, listening; and the rapping was repeated, and
the voices called—some gruffly and some shrilly:—
“Let us in—you there! Let us in! What,
is everyone in the place dead or deaf?”
John went slowly down the flagged path between the lavender
hedges, and began with a grating, grinding sound to draw back the
heavy bolts, the voices on the other side of the stout oak
portals keeping up, meanwhile, a running commentary of impatient
ejaculations, intermingled with little bursts of laughter.
“Now, good fellow, who ever you may be, put a little
goodwill into your efforts.”
“Fie! what a disagreeable noise! Sir, ’tis
to be wished that your master would expend a pennyworth of oil on
this screeching ironwork.”
“La! what a time the rascal takes! Pray, Hodge, or
Giles, or whatever thy name may be, tell us who lives here.
We had thought you deaf; and now, faith, it would seem as if you
were dumb.”
“Nay, Tufty, do not distract the poor yokel. These
rustics have not wit enough to attend to more than one thing at a
time. Tug away at thy bolt, good man, and let us in; it
grows chilly here.”
At length, with a final shriek, the last bolt was withdrawn
from its rusty hasp, and the doors parted in the middle under
John’s hand; then, removing his round hat, he was
preparing, with his usual gravity, to enquire the reason of this
unexpected visit, when, with many expressions of relief and
satisfaction, a party of what seemed to be very grand folk
brushed past him into the enclosure. There was a rustling
of silken skirts, a waving of long feathers—a diffusion of
sweet strange odours—such odours as had never yet greeted
the honest country nostrils of John Cotley, though they would
have been familiar enough to any frequenter of high company in
town; odours of powder and pomatum, and the scented bags that
women of fashion lay among their tuckers. Thus the ladies
filed past, one, two, and three; and then the gentlemen came—very fine gentlemen, indeed. John
could see, even in the dim light, the glitter of gold lace and
sparkling buckles, the pale gleam of silk-stockinged legs and
powdered heads.
“La, how sweet it smells,” cried one of the
ladies. “What is it? Roses, think
you—gilly-flowers? Nay, ’tis lavender!
See these ghostly hedges are all of lavender.”
“Madam,” cried one of the gallants,
“’twould please me better could I smell some savoury
stew. Ghostly, did you say? I vow the whole place
looks ghostly. Not a light in all those ancient
windows.”
“Pray, you there, you, fellow; leave the gate and try
and find thy tongue. Does anybody live here, and is it
possible to obtain refreshment and a night’s
lodging?”
“I live here,” said John, somewhat ruffled by the
tone. “As to your second question, before answering
it I will first ask one or two of my own. What may this
company be, and why do they seek admittance into my house at such
an hour?”
“Why, what a churl is this!”
“By gad, ’tis his house, Harry. We’ve
been discussing the place in the presence of its owner; but we
must needs be civil, it seems, if we would dine and sleep under
cover. Sir, you behold a noble company of travellers, or,
if you prefer it, a travelling company of noblemen and ladies,
journeying from Bristol Hotwells, where they have been sojourning
for the good of their health. Their coach, having taken a
wrong turn, has inconveniently broken down on that abominable
mixture of marsh and stones which you are pleased in these parts to term
a road. As it is late and the ladies are hungry and tired,
the gentlemen athirst, the best horse lame, the front wheel
damaged, and the postboy drunk, we deem it better to push no
further to-night. Therefore, finding no inn within a radius
of ten miles, and descrying your house—which seemed to us a
building of some importance—we have come to throw ourselves
upon your hospitality for the night.”
“Sir,” returned John simply, “I am sorry for
your misfortune, and will do my best to entertain you, though,
being a plain man and a bachelor, I fear the accommodation I can
offer you is not such as these ladies are accustomed
to.”
“Well said, man! you can but do your best,” cried
the gentleman called Harry, clapping John on his brawny
shoulder. “Come, lead the way, and we’ll all
promise not to be over fastidious. Something to
drink.”
John led the way into the house, baring his head as he passed
the ladies, and the party trooped after him into a panelled
parlour, where the dim outlines of cumbrous articles of furniture
might be discerned in the dusk. Drawing a tinder-box from
his pocket, he struck a light, and having ignited the candles on
the mantelshelf, turned to face his visitors.
The flickering light revealed to them the sunburnt face and
well-knit figure of a man of about five-and-twenty, with brown
hair and brown eyes, and an expression of shy kindliness.
As he looked in bewilderment from one to the other of
his guests, dazzled by the medley of fine clothes and trinkets,
here marking the gleam of white teeth, there a pair of dancing
eyes, yonder the flutter of powdered locks, out of the confusion
there seemed to detach itself—one face. A small face,
round which the hair fell in natural curls untouched by powder;
laughing eyes, a mouth at once sweet and roguish; a bloom that
even John’s unsophisticated eyes instantly recognised as
being wholly natural, yet such as he had never beheld on the
solid cheeks of the rustic damsels of the neighbourhood.
Forgetful of his good manners, Cotley stared mutely at this
lovely face, until recalled to himself by a murmur of amusement
from the rest of the party.
“When you have recovered your tongue, mine host, we
shall be glad if you will introduce yourself,” remarked one
of the gentlemen. “I myself must own to no little
curiosity about you. Pray, man, are you a hermit, that you
live thus in what seems to be absolute solitude? Split me,
if I’ve seen a living soul about the place except
yourself!”
“Sir,” returned the other, with a start and a
blush, “my name is John Cotley, at your service. I
am, as I think is easily seen, a gentleman of somewhat limited
means. Had you come before sundown you might have observed
a few of my labourers busy on the premises—when they leave,
I own, with the exception of my old housekeeper, I am alone in
the house.” Looking round on the curious and
surprised faces he added, stiffly, with a certain boyish pride:
“My family met with reverses before I succeeded
to this small estate, and, if I am to live here at all, I must
perforce practise great economy and see but little
company.”
“Poor fellow!” said a soft voice, which was not
meant to reach his ears; but John heard nevertheless, and marked
that the bright eyes of the youthful beauty were fixed on him
with an expression at once of interest and compassion.
But the others were not so considerate—
“Economy!” quoth Tufty, with a grimace.
“Sir,” cried Harry earnestly, “you have my
sympathy, but I trust for all our sakes that there is at least
some drinkable beer to be had on your premises.”
“Or at any rate a dish of tea,” put in one of the
elder ladies. “Pray, sir, let the matter have your
attention, for I assure you we are positively faint.”
“A roast fowl would not come amiss,” added the
other matron, whose appearance was indeed suggestive of
good-living, for her large person seemed to be bursting out of
her silk sacque, and her face was as plump as it was
good-humoured. “Such a thing should easy be come by
in the country—a platter of ham and eggs with
it.”
She paused, looking almost beseechingly at her bewildered
entertainer.
“Speed, sir,” chimed in Tufty,
“speed—despatch for heaven’s sake!”
“Sirs,—ladies, I go at once,” cried John,
starting towards the door. “Meanwhile be seated, I
beg. I regret with all my heart I have no good
entertainment to offer you, but I will do my best.”
He hastened from the room, shouting lustily for “Molly,” and, after what seemed to the
impatient guests an interminable delay, the heavy door was thrown
open, and an old woman entered, carrying a tablecloth. The
master of the house followed, bearing a tray, on which, in the
midst of a shining array of plates and glasses, knives and forks,
a toby jug of goodly proportions occupied the place of
honour. They proceeded, awkwardly enough, to lay the table,
and the housekeeper, having retired, presently returned,
staggering under the weight of another huge tray, on which were
set forth such homely viands as the house could provide: a round
of cold salt beef, a crusty loaf, a dish of ham and eggs.
When all was set upon the table John stood hesitating a moment,
and then going straight up to the owner of the unpowdered curls
begged leave to hand her to a chair.
“’Fore George, the manners of these country
bumpkins want mending as well as their gates!” cried
Tufty. “Sir, do you not see that Her Grace is yet
standing?” and he waved his hand in the direction of the
stout lady already alluded to.
“Her Grace!” stammered John, somewhat taken aback,
and then he added bluntly—
“Madam, I will come back for you so soon as I have
conducted this lady to the table.”
“Why, sir,” returned she, with a jolly laugh,
“I protest I like your unceremoniousness. ’Tis
a refreshing change. And after all you could not be
expected to divine my quality. ’Tis not often, I
wager, that you entertain a Duchess in this solitary
place.”
“Madam,” responded John gravely, “I must own
that I have never before been privileged to offer hospitality to persons
of such consequence; but I can truthfully say that my desire to
serve you is not more ardent than before my knowledge of your
station. I would fain do all in my power to succour and
entertain any lady in distress.”
“Very prettily said,” returned she.
“There, my good sir, we will dispense with ceremony for
to-night. Pray sit by Lady Lucy since your unbiassed choice
has fallen on her. My friend, Lord Tuftington, will escort
me; and you, Lady Olivia, will no doubt allow Sir Harry to be
your companion.”
“Faith, madam, so that we may at once attack that round
of beef, I have no objection to make,” responded Lady
Olivia, hurrying towards the board.
Meanwhile Molly stood gaping, and John himself was a little
taken aback on hearing of the exalted rank of all his
self-invited guests. Yet, with a certain natural dignity,
he took his place as master of the house, and proceeded to
dispense hospitality.
He soon found, indeed, that these noble folks were as affable
in manner as gay in humour. Sir Harry proceeded to pour out
foaming beakers of ale for as many of the company as desired to
partake of it; and, somewhat to John’s surprise, everyone
with the exception of Lady Lucy accepted this homely beverage;
even Her Grace the Duchess quaffed her tumbler with unfeigned
approval. Lord Tuftington served the ham and eggs, and Lady
Olivia, with great good-humour and a firm hand, cut slices from
the crusty loaf which she laughingly tossed across the table to
each member of the party.
Meanwhile Lady Lucy sat toying with an egg, speaking little,
though every now and then her face lit up with smiles over some
ridiculous sally from Tufty or Sir Harry. Once or twice
John caught a curious glance shot at him from beneath her long
curling dark lashes, and with each of them he felt as though that
manly heart of his, hitherto untouched by love for woman, were
being drawn from out his bosom. Fain would he have sat by
her side in mute ecstacy, but his guests plied him incessantly
with questions, and appeared to be excessively diverted by the
simplicity of his answers.
All at once the Duchess threw down her knife and fork with a
little scream—
“Lord!” she cried, “we have left that booby
of a postboy to his own devices. What if he should have
made off with all our property! Quick, somebody, see to
him!”
“Nay, Duchess,” returned Tufty, with his mouth
full, “the fellow was dead drunk, and the best horse dead
lame—they will stick in the mud safe enough till
morning.”
“But surely our valises should be brought in?”
cried Lady Olivia. “If by any accident the fellow
should abscond, we shall arrive in town without so much as a
change of linen.”
“Madam, we are all in the like plight,” observed
Sir Harry; “and in any case, if the lad had given us the
slip he would be miles away by now, and it would be useless to
pursue him.”
“You cannot, I am sure, be serious,” said Lady
Lucy, looking from one to the other with large, startled
eyes. “You would not be so inhuman as to leave the
poor man exposed to the weather all night. And the
horses—think of the horses. Surely they too need food
and shelter.”
Neither of the gentlemen seemed in the least touched by her
appeal, and, though the Duchess and Lady Olivia continued loud
protestations and entreaties, both Sir Harry and Lord Tuftington
continued their repast without offering to move.
John looked from one to the other of these worthies with
astonished disapproval. Indeed, from the first, both
gentlemen had impressed him unfavourably. Their voices were
loud, their laughter excessive: Lord Tuftington interlarded his
conversations with strange expletives, while Sir Harry helped
himself perpetually from the beer-jug. He was surprised to
observe on nearer view that the latter’s dress was at once
tawdry and slovenly; his gold lace was tarnished, his ruffles
soiled; as he held the jug aloft on one occasion, John actually
detected a rent in his fine peach-coloured coat.
After a pause, broken only by the lamentations of the elder
ladies, Lucy turned hesitatingly to her host—
“Do you not think, sir,” she said pathetically,
“that it is cruel to leave the poor horses standing in the
road all night?”
“Ma’am,” cried John, starting up,
“with your leave I will at once go and see after
them.”
“And bring my valise, good sir,” besought Lady
Olivia—“the smallest valise in the boot.”
“Pray, Mr Cotley, try to bring all our
property—all at least that is portable.”
“Certainly, ladies,” returned John, “I shall
be happy to carry some of the baggage myself, and to direct
your servant to bring the remainder hither.”
“I am obliged to you, sir,” replied the Duchess,
with a somewhat embarrassed air, “but you must know that
with the exception of the postboy we are unattended at
present.”
“’Tis a pity, indeed, my dear,” put in Lady
Olivia, “that we should have left all our servants
behind.”
“But, ladies, remember,” put in Sir Harry, with
half-tipsy gravity, “that we are travelling
incog.”
“Perhaps the postboy may help me,” said John.
When he reached the scene of the catastrophe, however, he
found the fellow so hopelessly intoxicated, that it was clear no
help was to be expected from him, and he was forced to seek
assistance from some of his own work-people who lived in a little
hamlet about a mile from his house. It was more than an
hour, therefore, before he returned home, himself leading the
horses, while a couple of stout lads staggered in his wake laden
with the ladies’ luggage, the post-boy having by his
directions been lifted inside the empty vehicle, which had been
drawn up under the hedge for the night.
He found the parlour empty, save for Sir Harry, who lay
stretched half across the table, while upstairs all was merry
bustle. Old Molly was distractedly hastening from one room
to another with her warming-pan, while Lord Tuftington stalked
behind her, laden with warm blankets and piles of lavender
scented sheets. The ladies had volunteered to make the
beds, and with much chatter and laughter the work proceeded.
They often changed their minds with regard to the apartment which
each intended to occupy, and the trunks were in consequence
dragged from room to room; some half unpacked disgorging their
finery in the passage—in fact such a scene of confusion had
never before been witnessed within the quiet walls of Cotley
Grange.
But at last some measure of order was restored: the babel of
voices and laughter ceased; the last door banged for the last
time: the last light was extinguished, and by-and-by all the
house was still.
John, too, retired to bed, but only to toss feverishly from
side to side, with throbbing head and leaping pulses. Now
he would thrill with delight as he recalled the kind look which
Lady Lucy had cast upon him when he bade her good night: now a
pang of despair would pierce his very soul as he thought of how
she would leave on the morrow, and of how, in all probability, he
would never set eyes on her again.
He rose with dawn and went out of doors; his men would soon
arrive, but, before allotting them their daily tasks, he sought
to regain some measure of his usual composure. Pacing up
and down the garden at the rear of the house—if in truth
the sweet wilderness of tangled greenery and lush grass, and
borders where flowers and weed embraced each other might be
dignified with such a name—he inhaled the pure chill air of
the September morning, throwing open coat and waistcoat as though
the fresh blast could allay the fever in his breast. The swallows
were already on the wing, now circling aloft against the pearly
sky, now dipping until they appeared to brush the dewy grass; a
robin was piping on a lichened apple-bough, and to poor John
Cotley the sweet shrill notes seemed to carry a message at once
poignant and delightful.
“Why did she come here!” he groaned; and in
another moment he was asking himself distractedly how he had
contrived to exist before seeing her.
The sun had not yet risen high in the heavens, and the dew
still lay in silver sheets upon the meads, when Lady Lucy, having
left her chamber, was minded to take to take a walk abroad.
She had protected her head with a scarf which was lifted by the
strong autumn breeze, so that its fringes and her clustering
curls were alike set dancing; and she had thrust her little feet
into thin slippers with very high heels, most unfit for the
wanderings on which she was bent; but nevertheless, having first
tripped down the flagged path between the lavender hedges, and
found the gates still closed, she had stolen up the weed-grown
track that led round the house, and made her way through the
shrubberies, laughing as the wet leaves flapped in her face, and
peering round her with curious delighted eyes. And
suddenly, pushing through an overgrown arch of yew and holly that
had once been clipped into fantastic shapes, she came face to
face with John Cotley, standing stock-still in the middle of the
alley, with one hand pressed to his brow and the other clutching
at his bosom. Then what must Lady Lucy do on her perceiving
the young man’s violent start and blush, but
burst into the sweetest, gayest little trill of laughter, while
poor John first reddened to the roots of his disordered hair, and
then grew pale as death, and drew his coat and waistcoat together
hastily, and stammered at last as she laughed on—
“Madam, I crave your pardon—I—I humbly crave
your pardon.”
“For what, my good sir?” cried she.
“For taking a morning stroll in your own grounds, or for
being discovered in such a profound reverie? Nay, sir, it
is rather I who should ask pardon for breaking in so suddenly on
what seemed to be very serious reflections, and for laughing so
rudely. But I vow it was droll and unexpected to find you
could assume so tragic an air—and then your
start—your look of surprise! Pray, sir, did you think
I had fallen from the clouds?”
John blushed again, and, finding that she continued to look
upon him smilingly and very kindly, took courage, and said
gently—
“’Twas folly in me to appear surprised, madam, for
I believe that angels do sometimes descend from the
clouds.”
“Vastly well, sir,” said she. “Pray
where did you learn to pay compliments? I had thought they
were not easily come by in the country.”
“Nay, madam,” sighed poor John, ruefully.
“I fear I should prove a poor scholar were I to attempt to
learn the art of flattery. In saying that you appear to me
to be an angel I did but speak the truth.”
Lady Lucy stopped laughing, and hung down her head in
a manner quite inexplicable to John Cotley.
“An angel!” she said. “Ah, sir, what
do you know of me.”
“Only what my eyes have shown me, madam,” said
John, and then emboldened by a certain timid protest in her
downcast face, he added warmly, “only what my heart has
told me.”
And in some unaccountable fashion John Cotley’s tongue
was loosed, and he found himself telling Lady Lucy all manner of
strange things. About his loneliness, and of how during his
somewhat melancholy life he had never hitherto met with a woman
whom he could love; of how at first sight of her he had fallen a
victim to one of those sudden passions of which he had sometimes
heard, but in which he had never hitherto believed; of how
absolutely hopeless he knew it to be, what misery, and yet what
joy. His face glowed as he spoke, and his eyes were bright
with a kind of fierce triumph: she should hear, she should
know—at least she should know.
Her colour came and went as she listened; now her eyes were
drawn to John’s, as though fascinated, now they sought the
ground; once or twice she caught her breath with a little
gasp.
“But a few moments ago,” said John, “I was
telling myself that I wished I had never seen you; and now,
though I may never see you again, I thank Heaven that this hour
at least is mine. One hour, madam, out of a lifetime; it is
not much, but at least it is something to look back
on.”
“To look back on,” she repeated, with an odd expression,
and an attempt at lightness. “Surely, sir, it is
better to look forward. I, for one, care not for giving way
to gloomy thoughts. The whole world lies before us.
I, you must know, am about to be introduced to it for the first
time: why should not you, too, seek to make a figure in it?
Why bury yourself for ever in this solitude?”
“Why, madam,” cried John excitedly, “would
you have me seek my fortune in London? Oh, if I thought
there were the slightest hope—”
“Nay, good friend, I spoke not of hope,” returned
she; “our ways, as you very truly say, lie apart, and
perhaps it is better so; were you to meet me in town, you might
think more lowly of me than you do at present.”
“How could that be?” he exclaimed eagerly, adding,
however, despondently, “but it is folly for me even to talk
of such a thing. How could I, plain John Cotley, the
unpretending country gentleman, with threadbare clothes and light
purse, hope to make my way into the circles which you will
adorn. You, who will be courted by the highest in the land,
admired by all the fashionable world. Dukes, I
suppose,” cried the poor fellow, gloomily, “Dukes and
Marquises will be fighting for the privilege of kissing your
hand.”
“Oh yes,” she rejoined, with a careless shrug,
“there will be plenty of that, I dare say.”
Then, seeing his melancholy face, she added with an arch
smile. “But London is a large place, so large that
even besides the fashionable folk of whom you speak there might
be room for honest John Cotley. And what though there be a
whole horde of noble admirers coming to Court and applaud
me! Is a worthy country gentleman for that obliged to hold
aloof? Sir, I tell you in the great world of London there
are many places where a man may see the object of his
admiration. There are, to begin with, places of
entertainment, such as Vauxhall, Ranelagh, and the like, and then
there are the playhouses. Now, as a matter of fact, did you
chance to be at Sadler’s Wells Theatre on this day
se’en-night you would see me there.”
“At a playhouse!” cried simple John, all in a
turmoil of emotion. “Madam, I have never been at such
a place in my life. My parents held that play-going was
folly, if not worse, and indeed even were I so minded I have had
no opportunities of frequenting such resorts. But to see
you—if I thought there were a hope of seeing
you— But no, you are mocking me. Even if I were
to go there, how should I venture to intrude my company upon
you?”
“You are faint-hearted, in fact,” said she, while
a wicked little dimple came and went about her lips, “and
you remember the adage, ‘Faint
heart’—”
John looked at her bewildered, enraptured, and
mystified. Her words appeared to encourage what had seemed
to him a perfectly wild and preposterous hope, but her manner was
at once gay and repellent. As he stood earnestly
considering her in the endeavour to fathom her meaning, she
ceased laughing, and fixed her eyes upon him with a gaze that was
serious and almost sad.
“Nay,” she said, “I speak foolishly.
Do not come to town, Mr Cotley; better remain here in your
tranquil and solitary home, and think upon me sometimes kindly. Think of this hour, an hour that is all
peace and innocence and brightness. Come, shall we
walk? I have a mind to explore these alleys.”
She drew her scarf more closely round her, and looked about
her, her face bright with a child’s curiosity and pleasure,
her momentary gravity forgotten. “Oh, the
roses,” she cried, and clapped her hands. “And
those sober old gilly-flowers, how sweet they are. And what
a forest of Michaelmas daisies! Pray, Mr Cotley, will you
gather me a posy?”
It is needless to say how eagerly John fulfilled her behest,
and with what a distracting mixture of pleasure and longing he
saw her fasten the flowers at her waist.
Slowly they paced about the moss-grown paths. Once she
stumbled, and he enquired breathlessly if she would take his
arm. What wondering bliss when she agreed; how that strong
arm of his thrilled under the light pressure! What a sweet,
sweet, brief dream it was! All too brief, indeed, for while
they yet wandered side by side among the sunlit green a shrill
voice was heard calling from the house, and Lucy, withdrawing her
hand from his arm, gave a little impatient sigh.
“They are calling me; I must go in.”
“Wait a moment,” cried John peremptorily; his
voice was hoarse, his eyes seemed to burn in his pale face,
“let us part here, since we must part.”
She, too, had grown pale; but, after a moment’s pause,
seemed to struggle against the contagion of his emotion.
“Pooh,” she said, with a little jarring note in
her voice, “who knows? After all we may meet
yet. Some folks say the world is a small place.”
“No, no,” he cried fiercely, “’tis
you, yourself, who have said it, madam. You go out of my
life this day; my one hour is wellnigh over, but a moment of it
remains. Let it at least be full; give me something to
remember it by.”
Trembling in spite of herself, she looked at him, as much in
earnest now as he:
“What would you have?” she said almost in a
whisper. “This?”
She detached one of the roses from her nosegay and held it out
to him with shaking fingers.
“I would have more, madam,” he cried, and,
bending, took both her hands in his and kissed them many times
with a vehemence which startled her.
“Good-bye,” she said, and her slight form wavered
like a reed, “good-bye, poor John, dear John, try to think
well of me always. And now, let me go.”
But John had fallen on his knees in the green bower, and his
face, as he uplifted it, seemed bright with a kind of white
radiance.
“Oh, love,” he cried in a broken whisper,
“love, stoop to me!”
He drew her gently towards him, and she did not resist, and
they kissed each other shyly, tenderly, wonderingly, as the first
man and woman may have kissed beneath the blossoming trees of
Eden.
Then the shrill cry came nearer, and there was a sound of
pattering feet, and in a moment she was gone, and John Cotley was
left alone to awake from his dream.
*
* *
One
week after the events which had so disturbed the placid current
of John Cotley’s life, that unwise young gentleman might
have been discerned making his way into Sadler’s Wells
Play-house amid a crowd of more seasoned play-goers.
He had struggled fruitlessly against the overpowering desire
to see Lady Lucy again; everything indeed had seemed to point out
the folly of his enterprise; the prejudices of a lifetime, the
oft-repeated axioms of those whom he had loved and lost, his own
diffidence, the absolute hopelessness of his passion, but none of
these considerations had been strong enough to outweigh the
memory of the girl’s tantalising words: “Did you
chance to be at Sadler’s Wells Playhouse on this day
se’en-night you would see me there!” And then
again, “You remember the adage, ‘Faint
heart’—.”
Surely no one could say that John Cotley’s heart was
faint this evening; on the contrary, it beat so loud and strong
that he wondered his neighbours did not turn to look at
him. When he entered the building and took his seat the
whole place seemed to swim round him, and the play-bill fluttered
in his hand. But by-and-by he began to regain his
self-possession; the lights which had danced before his gaze
settled steadily in their places, and he took courage to rise and
cast a searching glance round the house; but strain his eyes as
he might he could not discover Lady Lucy. The house,
indeed, seemed packed from pit to topmost gallery, but amidst all
the rows and rows of faces hers was missing. After
concluding his futile search for the twentieth time he sat down
disconsolately, and, to hide his confusion on perceiving the
amused and curious stare of his neighbours, he fell to examining
his play-bill. At first the words floated meaninglessly
before his eyes, but by-and-by one of them took shape and
assumed, indeed, an odd familiarity.
“Lord Tuftington”—Lord
Tuftington! Why, surely that was the name of one of the
invaders of Cotley Grange on that never-to-be-forgotten
evening. Lord Tuftington! How did his name come to be
there? But stop! Here was another that he knew,
“Sir Harry Highflyer.” And here again,
“The Duchess of Flummery,” and again,
“Lady Olivia Pouncebox,” and here—here
actually was the name of all others sacred to him, “Lady
Lucy Mayflower!” Lady Lucy!
He sat staring at the paper for a moment, and then, scarce
knowing what he did, turned to one of his neighbours—
“Pray, sir, is it not a strange thing for such a noble
company to give a performance in a public place?”
The man stared, and laughed.
“Sir, I fail to understand you. Where, in
heaven’s name, would you have them perform if not in a
public place? How else should we see them play?”
“’Tis for charity, no doubt,” cried John,
scarcely heeding him, and speaking in a white heat of passionate
indignation. “But to me it seems degrading that they
should thus expose themselves, so that all who pay a certain
price are free to gape at them.”
The
man gazed at him blankly for a moment, and then burst out
laughing.
“I presume, sir, this is your first visit to a
playhouse, and truly, I think, with these sentiments, you would
have done better to keep away. But as for the performance
being given for charity— Faith, if you were to make
such a suggestion to the manager he would tell you that charity
began at home, I fancy. By the time he has paid his
company, and defrayed the cost of the scenery—”
“Paid the company,” interrupted John, “why,
sir, do you mean to tell me that persons of such quality would
condescend to play for hire? High-born ladies
like—like the Duchess—”
His neighbour positively gaped, and then bending forward gazed
at him narrowly—
“Sir,” he said, “I believe you are purposely
acting the buffoon; you seek to impose on me by affecting an
impossible ignorance—”
“Upon my soul, sir,” cried simple John, who was
now quite pale and could hardly speak for agitation,
“’tis my first visit to such a place, and I—I
happen to know some of these ladies and—”
“So?” said the other with a grin.
“Well, good country cousin, I will take pity on your
innocence. These titles here are wholly fictitious, as
indeed I think is easily seen; these names to the right are those
which either belong properly to the actors and actresses, or are
assumed by them for their greater convenience. Mrs Scully,
for instance, who plays Lady Olivia, chooses rather to call
herself Mrs Swynnerton, because the name has a better sound,
while as for Miss Fitzroy, who is set down for the part of
Lady Lucy, that I am sure must be an assumed name, but as it is
the lady’s first appearance upon the boards, my information
concerning her is scanty. I am informed that she is a
pretty little creature, and likely to prove attractive.
Now, sir, let me request that you will sit still. I assure
you it is quite unnerving to see you bouncing about in your
seat. Sit down; the curtain will rise in a moment; and let
me inform you, since the business is novel to you, that the first
duty of the playgoer is to refrain from disturbing the rest of
the audience.”
John sat still; indeed, once the curtain had risen, he
remained so absolutely motionless that he might have been turned
to stone.
The play, which at the time of its production enjoyed an
ephemeral popularity, but has since passed into oblivion like its
author, abounded in strained situations. The sentiment was
superabundant, the humour forced and occasionally verging upon
coarseness, but Lady Lucy, who sustained one of the principal
parts, won tumultuous applause from first to last. John saw
her smiling upon her fictitious lover as she had smiled upon him,
he heard her voice, her light laugh, he marked certain little
tricks of manner, which, though he had known her for so brief a
space, seemed engraven upon his memory—and his jealous
heart seemed like to burst within him. He felt ashamed,
nay, personally degraded by the publicity into which she had
thrust herself. Good God! That her beauty, her charm,
her pretty ways should be thus pilloried! That any coarse
brute who sate aloft in the gallery was free to make his comment
because he had paid his sixpence! That nothing
should be sacred; that she should prattle of love, and weep mock
tears, there in the glare of the footlights before all these
curious, insolent eyes, as though he and she had never clasped
hands and stammered secrets in the sanctity of the solitary
dawn. Oh! Heavens, it was too much!
The intensity of his gaze drew hers towards him before she had
been very long upon the scene, and she appeared to falter for a
moment, but speedily recovered her self-possession.
At the end of the first act, while he was still staring
blankly at the lowered curtain, someone touched him on the
shoulder, and, as he turned round, thrust a note into his
hand. He tore it open quickly, and found it contained but a
line:—“Come to the stage door when the play is
over.” Turning to speak to the messenger, he found
that he had already gone.
When Lady Lucy next came on the stage she played with even
greater spirit and vivacity than before, but by-and-by stole a
questioning glance at John; and John gravely nodded. A
thousand times, indeed, he had a mind to leave the place and to
set eyes on her no more; and still he lingered. With each
succeeding act Miss Fitzroy further captivated the house, and the
curtain descended at last amid tumultuous applause.
Slowly and gloomily John rose, and after many enquiries found
his way to the stage door, standing there motionless while
streams of gay folk passed and repassed before his eyes.
All at once he felt a hand upon his arm. A slender,
cloaked figure was beside him, and two bright eyes
were gazing at him eagerly from the depths of a quilted silk
hood.
“John,” whispered Lady Lucy’s voice,
“here I am, John. I have given them all the slip that
I might talk to you for a moment. You must know that I have
had quite an ovation—they say that my fortune is made and
that all London will be ringing with my name to-morrow; and now
tell me, what did you think of it—how did you like
me?”
“What did I think of it?” groaned John.
“My dear, it nearly broke my heart!”
He saw the eager eyes flash, and felt the hand upon his arm
tremble with anger.
“What!” she was beginning wrathfully, but broke
off and continued in a softer tone: “You are vexed, I
suppose, because I deceived you?”
“Nay, madam, ’tis not that. I had liefer you
had told me the truth, yet that is a small matter. But that
you should thus exhibit yourself—”
She snatched away her hand.
“You would have kept me all to yourself, I
suppose?”
“God knows I would!” said he.
“And you have the face to tell me so. You would
have me stifle my ambition—make nothing of my
talent—throw away the fame and fortune which are now
actually within my grasp? And pray, John Cotley, what would
you leave me?”
“Peace of mind,” said Cotley.
“Honour—”
“Sir, do you mean to insult me? Surely these
things must be mine in any walk of life.”
“Madam, they are endangered by the course you would
pursue. Give it up, I beg of you—I entreat it of
you. You cannot already have forgotten what has passed
between us—does it give me no right over you?”
“You are in truth a strange man,” said she
petulantly, “though I believe you love me well in your own
odd fashion,” and here the little hand stole back again to
his arm. “But it is a selfish fashion, John.
You would take everything from me—what would you give me in
return?”
“All that I am,” said John. “All that
I have. My love, my home, myself. I came round to
this place to offer them to you once and for all.”
The very intensity of his passion made his voice sound stern,
and Lady Lucy once more jerked away her hand, and tossed her
head.
“Upon my word, sir, you are mighty cool. Pray do
you expect me to jump at this proposal? I believe you
do. I believe you would have me on my knees with gratitude
for your condescension. Really it is laughable. Here
am I with the world at my feet, and you—you would have me
give up my whole career at your command and follow you like some
meek patient Grizzel to that dreary home of yours. And you
make this noble offer once for all, do you? You are not
disposed to renew it, should I venture to hesitate?”
“No,” said John Cotley: “I am not to be
trifled with. It must be now or never.”
“Then it shall be never!” said Lady Lucy.
*
* *
Seven years passed by, and John Cotley tilled his fields, and
sowed, and reaped, and rode abroad in summer heat and wintry
frosts. He was a hard man, his labourers said, and the
neighbours gibed at him for being morose; and John Cotley went on
his way without heeding them, though day by day the lines about
mouth and eyes deepened, and silver threads, which had no
business there, increased among his brown locks.
One March afternoon he was driven indoors by a heavy fall of
snow—one of those late storms which are all the more severe
because so untimely. He was standing, drumming impatiently
on the windowpane, and thinking with vexation of the
fruit-blossom which would be blighted, and the young growth of
root and blade which must be checked, when of a sudden, through
the muffled stillness there came a sound of imperative knocking
at the double gate. The men were at work in the woodshed at
the rear of the house, old Molly, who had grown deaf of late, was
busy in the kitchen: only the master was aware of the summons,
and he paused a moment as though in doubt before responding to
it.
The knocking came again, hurried and urgent. John Cotley
threw open the window and called aloud—
“The gate is not locked: you can come in.”
He saw the latch partly lifted and then fall back again, and
the knocking was resumed, a woman’s voice crying out at the
same time—
“Sir, it is too heavy for my strength. I pray you,
let me in.”
John started and caught his breath; then hastened from the
room, with long swinging strides, and down the
snow-covered path. The gate creaked upon its hinges, and
the figure of a lady, cloaked and hooded, stood revealed; her
hooped skirt almost filled the half-opened door, and as she
stepped past John and hurried up the sloping path that lay
between the lavender hedges—ghostly now beneath their
weight of snow—she left behind her a little track of
narrow-soled high-heeled shoes—each print of that light
foot marking on the snow what seemed to be the impression of a
flower and a leaf. Not a word said she, but pressed on till
she reached the house, and indeed the snow was piled upon her
shoulders and filled the creases in her hood.
Once safe in the hall she turned and curtsied to John, who had
followed close upon her heels, and then, throwing back her hood,
revealed to him an unforgettable face in which he nevertheless
saw much that was strange and new. There was new beauty to
begin with, but beauty of a different order to that young
delicate bloom which he remembered; there was a roll in the
bright eyes which had not used to be there; a somewhat
languishing smile wreathed the lovely lips. As she loosed
her mantle and let it drop from her shoulders, she revealed a
form in which full womanly symmetry had replaced the almost
fragile grace of early girlhood.
“John Cotley,” she said, “I have come once
more to throw myself upon your hospitality. ’Tis true
my coach has not broken down, but the storm is unpleasant, and
progress is slow, and I am not ill-pleased at the prospect of
warming and refreshing myself before proceeding further.
Therefore, recognising the aspect of the country, and
calling to mind that you lived in these parts, I desired my
servants to halt for an hour, and bethought me that I would come
and take you by surprise.”
“Madam,” said John, “you do indeed take me
by surprise.”
She stole at him a curious, somewhat anxious glance—but
soon laughed, and raised her eyebrows and shoulders with an
affected gesture—
“Fie, sir! is that all you can find to say to me?
I vow your manners have grown rusty during these seven
years. I protest when I visited you last you had more
politeness. Do you wish, sir, to forbid me
entrance?”
“By no means, madam. Pray come in. Such
entertainment as this poor house can afford shall be
yours.”
He led the way into the parlour, and soon was on his knees by
the hearth kindling a fire. Outside, the snow drifted past
the window, and within all was silence, save for the rustling of
Lady Lucy’s silken garments as she breathed quickly, and
the click of flint and steel. The tinder caught at last,
and by-and-by the flame leaped in the chimney. Then John
Cotley rose from his knees, and found Lady Lucy earnestly
considering him.
“You have not changed much, John, these seven
years.”
“Have I not, madam?” said he.
“The place,” she went on, “the place is so
oddly familiar I could almost fancy that I had been here
yesterday.”
“Could you indeed, madam?” said John.
Leaning forward in the flickering light, and with that
earnest expression she looked wonderfully, perilously like the
other Lady Lucy whom he had once known. He averted his
eyes, and began to move slowly towards the door. She
followed him with a curious intent gaze.
“’Tis a pity that it should be snowing,
John,” she said, and the soft voice sounded almost
caressing. “I have a mind to see the garden. If
by chance it clears up by-and-by, I shall ask you to conduct me
there.”
“Nay, madam,” said John, pausing in the doorway,
and turning upon her a very resolute face, “the garden
would scarcely be worth your notice.”
“Do you suppose I have forgotten it?” whispered
she. “Shall I ever forget that sunny morning, and the
roses, and—”
“Nay, forget it, madam,” said John, sternly.
“I assure you the roses are dead.”
And then he went away and left her, and presently old Molly
came, all in a flutter of wonder and delight.
“’Tis herself, sure,” she cried, peering
into the beautiful pensive face of the visitor; “’tis
Lady Lucy. Master come to me and says, says he, ‘Get
tea ready, and everything of the best,’ he says, ‘A
lady has come who must be well attended to’; but he
didn’t never say it was your ladyship. Dear, my lady,
what a merry company you was, to be sure. Do you mind how
you all made your own beds. I’ll wager your ladyship
has never made your bed since.”
“Yes, yes,” said Lady Lucy, “I have
made my own bed, Molly, and I must lie on it.”
She sate very silent and thoughtful after this; but when
refreshments were served, and John Cotley came to do the honours
of his table, she became once more all smiles and gaiety,
prattling very prettily about the great world and the folk who
dwelt there, and running on from one topic to another without
appearing to notice her host’s gravity and silence.
All at once, turning to him with a challenging air, she said:
“In this solitary retreat of yours, Mr Cotley, I presume
the news of my doings and successes have not reached
you?”
“Madam,” he returned, with an added shade of
coldness in his tone, “I must own that I have failed to
keep count of your triumphs.”
“Why, that is the less surprising since, according to my
flatterers, my triumphs are past reckoning. Do you
remember, sir;” and here, leaning her elbows on the table
and resting her chin upon her hands, she darted a penetrating
glance towards him—“do you remember, sir, a
conversation which we once had at early dawn? I, at least,
recollect it very well. Though you were unaware at the time
of the career I had chosen, you made several curiously apt
forecasts.”
“Madam,” returned John, “I regret to say
that my memory is not as good as yours.”
She bit her lip, but soon recovered herself. Tilting
back her head slightly, and looking at him through her narrowed
lids, she continued—
“You prophesied, as I recollect, that I should be
courted by the highest in the land; admired by all the rank
and fashion of London. ‘Dukes;’ said
you—and I vow you would have laughed had you but known the
gloomy despair of your face—‘dukes and marquises will
be fighting for the privilege of kissing your hand.’
Well, your words have come true; many grandees have come
a-courting me; this hand of mine has been kissed by
royalty. And yet, John Cotley, ’tis a weary
life. Empty flattery, tiresome praise—a
feather-headed crew that flutter round me with unmeaning smiles
and foolish compliments. Not one true man among
them.”
As she paused, he bowed stiffly.
“Amid all my success I am sick at heart,” she went
on, excitedly. “I long for a home; I long to find a
loyal heart, a hand that I could rely on.”
“I regret to hear, madam,” said Cotley, as she
paused again, “that events have not justified your
expectations.”
She looked at him fixedly for a moment, and then smiling
archly, went on—
“And you tell me you have forgotten this conversation of
ours? Now, I can recall it word for word. When I
first emerged from under the leafy archway
yonder”—with a wave of the hand—“you were
standing thus”—
She rose to her feet and struck an attitude, head bent, one
hand pressed to her brow, the other clutching at the ruffles at
her breast. “And I was so rude as to laugh; do you
remember?”
“You have the advantage of me, madam,” said John
Cotley, sternly.
She continued as though she had not heard him, and with a
little tremor in her voice. “You said some pretty
things about my being an angel, and I asked you what you knew of
me; and you said that you knew only what your eyes had shown you,
and what your heart had told you. Oh, John, does your heart
tell you nothing now?”
“I do not understand you,” said John,
steadily.
“To be sure you have forgotten all that passed. I
suppose, too, that you have forgotten about those wanderings of
ours in the alleys yonder, when the leaves were green, and the
roses were blowing. I stumbled once, and you made me take
your arm, and I felt it trembling beneath my hand. Think of
that, Mr Cotley! Were you not a foolish youth in those
days? And so we walked together, and told each other
wonderful things, and I asked you to think kindly of me
always. Ah, John, I fear you have not kept your
word.”
He, too, had risen and stood before her, rigid, with hands
dropping by his side, and a grey face.
“Then they called me,” she went on, with a thrill
in her musical voice, her face earnest now and glowing,
“they called me—there was but one moment left: I gave
you a flower, but you said it was not enough—you took my
hands and—”
Bending forward suddenly she seized his; they were limp and
cold as ice; “You took my hands,” she repeated, her
voice still vibrating, her eyes fixed passionately on his,
“you fell on your knees at my feet as I kneel to you now,
you said, you said—oh, let me say it!—“Love,
love, stoop to me!”
John
Cotley gave one glance at the pleading, upturned face, at the
beautiful eyes swimming in tears, and then he withdrew his
hands.
“You have surpassed yourself, madam,” he
said. “You are certainly a marvellous actress.
Your rendering of the scene was absolutely perfect.”
She was on her feet in a moment, dashing the tears from her
eyes and laughing unsteadily.
“I was determined to convince you of my powers,”
cried she, in a voice which feigned lightness though it was husky
and ill-assured. “There, you should feel proud, Mr
Cotley, that so famed a personage should give you a performance
all to yourself. . . . The storm shows no signs of abating,
I fear, so I will not trespass further on your hospitality.
I am much obliged to you, Mr Cotley, for your entertainment, and
now I think I will take my leave. My cloak and hood lie
yonder—I thank you”—as he assisted her to put
them on. “Now, sir, if you will have the kindness to
open the gate I will pursue my way.”
They were out of the house by this time, and she passed in
front of him towards the gate. When she reached it she
paused, and curtsied with averted eyes.
“Farewell, sir, I have to thank you for your generosity
and kindness. I need trouble you to come no
further.”
He watched the figure move away with stately undulating grace,
and when it was lost in the white mist he closed the gate with a
heavy sigh. There lay the tracks in front of him, flower
and leaf, flower and leaf, those just made showing sharp and
clear, the others already half-obliterated; by nightfall all
alike would have vanished. The light feet would intrude no
more upon his path.
Going indoors he stood for a moment by the hearth, and then
drawing a note-book from his bosom, took from the little leather
pocket beneath the cover a small paper packet which he proceeded
to unfold. Within lay the crumbling and discoloured
remnants of what once had been a rose.
“Let it go with the rest!” said John Cotley, and
stooping he dropped it among the embers.
A little flame caught it, leaped up, flickered, and died
away.