Litvinov went quickly up the staircase of the
Hôtel de l’Europe; a little girl of thirteen, with a
sly little face of Kalmuck cast, who had apparently
been on the look-out for him, stopped him,
saying in Russian: ‘Come this way, please;
Irina Pavlovna will be here directly.’ He looked
at her in perplexity. She smiled, repeated:
‘Come along, come along,’ and led him to a
small room, facing Irina’s bedroom, and filled
with travelling trunks and portmanteaus, then at
once disappeared, closing the door very softly.
Litvinov had not time to look about him, before
the door was quickly opened, and before him in
a pink ball-dress, with pearls in her hair and
on her neck, stood Irina. She simply rushed at
him, clutched him by both hands, and for a few
instants was speechless; her eyes were shining,
and her bosom heaving as though she had run
up to a height.
‘I could not receive ... you there,’ she began
in a hurried whisper: ‘we are just going to a
dinner party, but I wanted above everything to
see you.... That is your betrothed, I suppose,
with whom I met you to-day?’
‘Yes, that was my betrothed,’ said Litvinov,
with emphasis on the word ‘was.’
‘And so I wanted to see you for one
minute, to tell you that you must consider
yourself absolutely free, that everything that
happened yesterday ought not to affect your
plans....’
‘Irina!’ cried Litvinov, ‘why are you saying
this?’ He uttered these words in a loud voice.
There was the note in them of unbounded
passion. Irina involuntarily closed her eyes for
a minute.
‘Oh, my sweet one!’ she went on in a
whisper still more subdued, but with unrestrained
emotion, ‘you don’t know how I love
you, but yesterday I only paid my debt, I made
up for the past.... Ah! I could not give you
back my youth, as I would, but I have laid no
obligations on you, I have exacted no promise
of any sort of you, my sweet! Do what you
will, you are free as air, you are bound in no
way, understand that, understand that!’
‘But I can’t live without you, Irina,’ Litvinov
interrupted, in a whisper now; ‘I am yours for
ever and always, since yesterday.... I can only
breathe at your feet....’
He stooped down all in a tremble to kiss her
hands. Irina gazed at his bent head.
‘Then let me say,’ she said, ‘that I too am
ready for anything, that I too will consider no
one, and nothing. As you decide, so it shall
be. I, too, am for ever yours ... yours.’
Some one tapped warily at the door. Irina
stooped, whispered once more, ‘Yours ...
good-bye!’ Litvinov felt her breath on his
hair, the touch of her lips. When he stood
up, she was no longer in the room, but her
dress was rustling in the corridor, and from the
distance came the voice of Ratmirov: ‘Eh
bien? Vous ne venez pas?’
Litvinov sat down on a high chest, and hid
his face. A feminine fragrance, fresh and delicate,
clung about him.... Irina had held his
hand in her hands. ‘It’s too much, too much,’
was his thought. The little girl came into the
room, and smiling again in response to his
agitated glance, said:
‘Kindly come, now——’
He got up, and went out of the hotel. It
was no good even to think of returning home:
he had to regain his balance first. His heart
was beating heavily and unevenly; the earth
seemed faintly reeling under his feet. Litvinov
turned again along the Lichtenthaler Allee. He
realised that the decisive moment had come,
that to put it off longer, to dissemble, to turn
away, had become impossible, that an explanation
with Tatyana had become inevitable; he
could imagine how she was sitting there, never
stirring, waiting for him ... he could foresee
what he would say to her; but how was he to act,
how was he to begin? He had turned his back
on his upright, well-organised, orderly future;
he knew that he was flinging himself headlong
into a gulf ... but that did not confound him.
The thing was done, but how was he to face
his judge? And if only his judge would come
to meet him—an angel with a flaming sword;
that would be easier for a sinning heart ...
instead of which he had himself to plunge the
knife in.... Infamous! But to turn back, to
abandon that other, to take advantage of the
freedom offered him, recognised as his....
No! better to die! No, he would have none of
such loathsome freedom ... but would humble
himself in the dust, and might those eyes look
down on him with love....
‘Grigory Mihalitch,’ said a melancholy voice,
and some one’s hand was laid heavily upon
Litvinov.
He looked round in some alarm and recognised
Potugin.
‘I beg your pardon, Grigory Mihalitch,’ began
the latter with his customary humility, ‘I am
disturbing you perhaps, but, seeing you in the
distance, I thought.... However if you’re not
in the humour....’
‘On the contrary I’m delighted,’ Litvinov
muttered between his teeth.
Potugin walked beside him.
‘What a lovely evening!’ he began, ‘so
warm! Have you been walking long?’
‘No, not long.’
‘Why do I ask though; I’ve just seen you
come out of the Hôtel de l’Europe.’
‘Then you’ve been following me?’
‘Yes.’
‘You have something to say to me?’
‘Yes,’ Potugin repeated, hardly audibly.
Litvinov stopped and looked at his uninvited
companion. His face was pale, his eyes moved
restlessly; his contorted features seemed overshadowed
by old, long-standing grief.
‘What do you specially want to say to me?’
Litvinov said slowly, and he moved forward.
‘Ah, with your permission ... directly. If
it’s all the same to you, let us sit down here
on this seat. It will be most convenient.’
‘Why, this is something mysterious,’ Litvinov
declared, seating himself near him. ‘You don’t
seem quite yourself, Sozont Ivanitch.’
‘No; I’m all right; and it’s nothing
mysterious either. I specially wanted to tell
you ... the impression made on me by your
betrothed ... she is betrothed to you, I think?...
well, anyway, by the girl to whom you introduced
me to-day. I must say that in the
course of my whole existence I have never met
a more attractive creature. A heart of gold, a
really angelic nature.’
Potugin uttered all these words with the same
bitter and mournful air, so that even Litvinov
could not help noticing the incongruity between
his expression of face and his speech.
‘You have formed a perfectly correct estimate
of Tatyana Petrovna,’ Litvinov began, ‘though
I can’t help being surprised, first that you should
be aware of the relation in which I stand to
her; and secondly, that you should have understood
her so quickly. She really has an angelic
nature; but allow me to ask, did you want to
talk to me about this?’
‘It’s impossible not to understand her at
once,’ Potugin replied quickly, as though evading
the last question. ‘One need only take one
look into her eyes. She deserves every possible
happiness on earth, and enviable is the fate of
the man whose lot it is to give her that happiness!
One must hope he may prove worthy
of such a fate.’
Litvinov frowned slightly.
‘Excuse me, Sozont Ivanitch,’ he said, ‘I
must confess our conversation strikes me as
altogether rather original.... I should like to
know, does the hint contained in your words
refer to me?’
Potugin did not at once answer Litvinov; he
was visibly struggling with himself.
‘Grigory Mihalitch,’ he began at last, ‘either
I am completely mistaken in you, or you are
capable of hearing the truth, from whomsoever
it may come, and in however unattractive a
form it may present itself. I told you just now,
that I saw where you came from.’
‘Why, from the Hôtel de l’Europe. What of
that?’
‘I know, of course, whom you have been to
see there.’
‘What?’
‘You have been to see Madame Ratmirov.’
‘Well, I have been to see her. What next?’
‘What next?... You, betrothed to Tatyana
Petrovna, have been to see Madame Ratmirov,
whom you love ... and who loves you.’
Litvinov instantly got up from the seat; the
blood rushed to his head.
‘What’s this?’ he cried at last, in a voice
of concentrated exasperation: ‘stupid jesting,
spying? Kindly explain yourself.’
Potugin turned a weary look upon him.
‘Ah! don’t be offended at my words. Grigory
Mihalitch, me you cannot offend. I did not
begin to talk to you for that, and I’m in no
joking humour now.’
‘Perhaps, perhaps. I’m ready to believe in
the excellence of your intentions; but still I
may be allowed to ask you by what right you
meddle in the private affairs, in the inner life, of
another man, a man who is nothing to you;
and what grounds you have for so confidently
giving out your own ... invention for the
truth?’
‘My invention! If I had imagined it, it
should not have made you angry; and as for
my right, well I never heard before that a man
ought to ask himself whether he had the right
to hold out a hand to a drowning man.’
‘I am humbly grateful for your tender solicitude,’
cried Litvinov passionately, ‘but I am not
in the least in need of it, and all the phrases
about the ruin of inexperienced young men
wrought by society women, about the immorality
of fashionable society, and so on, I look upon
merely as stock phrases, and indeed in a sense I
positively despise them; and so I beg you to
spare your rescuing arm, and to let me drown
in peace.’
Potugin again raised his eyes to Litvinov.
He was breathing hard, his lips were twitching.
‘But look at me, young man,’ broke from him
at last, and he clapped himself on the breast:
‘can you suppose I have anything in common
with the ordinary, self-satisfied moralist, a
preacher? Don’t you understand that simply
from interest in you, however strong it might
be, I would never have let fall a word, I would
never have given you grounds for reproaching
me with what I hate above all things—indiscretion,
intrusiveness? Don’t you see that this
is something of a different kind altogether, that
before you is a man crushed, utterly obliterated
by the very passion, from the results of
which he would save you, and ... and for the
same woman!’
Litvinov stepped back a pace.
‘Is it possible? What did you say?... You
... you ... Sozont Ivanitch? But Madame
Byelsky ... that child?’
‘Ah, don’t cross-examine me.... Believe
me! That is a dark terrible story, and I’m
not going to tell you it. Madame Byelsky I
hardly knew, that child is not mine, but I took
it all upon myself ... because ... she wished
it, because it was necessary for her. Why am I
here in your hateful Baden? And, in fact,
could you suppose, could you for one instant
imagine, that I’d have brought myself to caution
you out of sympathy for you? I’m sorry for
that sweet, good girl, your fiancée, but what have
I to do with your future, with you both?...
But I am afraid for her ... for her.’
‘You do me great honour, Mr. Potugin,’
began Litvinov, ‘but since, according to you,
we are both in the same position, why is it you
don’t apply such exhortations to yourself, and
ought I not to ascribe your apprehensions to
another feeling?’
‘That is to jealousy, you mean? Ah, young
man, young man, it’s shameful of you to shuffle
and make pretences, it’s shameful of you not
to realise what a bitter sorrow is speaking to
you now by my lips! No, I am not in the
same position as you! I, I am old, ridiculous,
an utterly harmless old fool—but you! But
there’s no need to talk about it! You would
not for one second agree to accept the position
I fill, and fill with gratitude! Jealousy? A
man is not jealous who has never had even a
drop of hope, and this is not the first time
it has been my lot to endure this feeling. I am
only afraid ... afraid for her, understand that.
And could I have guessed when she sent me to
you that the feeling of having wronged you—she
owned to feeling that—would carry her so far?’
‘But excuse me, Sozont Ivanitch, you seem
to know....’
‘I know nothing, and I know everything! I
know,’ he added, turning away, ‘I know where
she was yesterday. But there’s no holding her
back now; like a stone set rolling, she must
roll on to the bottom. I should be a great
idiot indeed, if I imagined my words could hold
you back at once ... you, when a woman like
that.... But that’s enough of this. I couldn’t
restrain myself, that’s my whole excuse. And
after all how can one know, and why not try?
Perhaps, you will think again; perhaps, some
word of mine will go to your heart, you will
not care to ruin her and yourself, and that
innocent sweet creature.... Ah! don’t be
angry, don’t stamp about! What have I to
fear? Why should I mince matters? It’s not
jealousy speaking in me, not anger.... I’m
ready to fall at your feet, to beseech you....
Good-bye, though. You needn’t be afraid, all
this will be kept secret. I wished for your
good.’
Potugin strode off along the avenue and
quickly vanished in the now falling darkness.
Litvinov did not detain him.
‘A terrible dark story....’ Potugin had said
to Litvinov, and would not tell it.... Let us
pass it over with a few words only.
Eight years before, it had happened to him to
be sent by his department to Count Reisenbach
as a temporary clerk. It was in the summer.
Potugin used to drive to his country villa with
papers, and be whole days there at a time.
Irina was then living at the count’s. She was
never haughty with people in a humbler station,
at least she never treated them superciliously,
and the countess more than once reproved her
for her excessive Moscow familiarity. Irina
soon detected a man of intelligence in the
humble clerk, attired in the stiffly buttoned
frockcoat that was his uniform. She used often
and eagerly to talk to him ... while he ...
he fell in love with her passionately, profoundly,
secretly.... Secretly! So he thought. The
summer passed; the count no longer needed
any outside assistance. Potugin lost sight of
Irina but could not forget her. Three years
after, he utterly unexpectedly received an invitation,
through a third person, to go to see a
lady slightly known to him. This lady at first
was reluctant to speak out, but after exacting
an oath from him to keep everything he was
going to hear absolutely secret, she proposed to
him ... to marry a girl, who occupied a conspicuous
position in society, and for whom
marriage had become a necessity. The lady
scarcely ventured to hint at the principal personage,
and then promised Potugin money ...
a large sum of money. Potugin was not
offended, astonishment stifled all feeling of
anger in him; but, of course, he point-blank
declined. Then the lady handed him a note—from
Irina. ‘You are a generous, noble man,’
she wrote, ‘and I know you would do anything
for me; I beg of you this sacrifice. You will
save one who is very dear to me. In saving
her, you will save me too.... Do not ask me
how. I could never have brought myself to
any one with such an entreaty, but to you I
hold out my hands and say to you, do it for
my sake.’ Potugin pondered, and said that for
Irina Pavlovna, certainly he was ready to do a
great deal; but he should like to hear her wishes
from her own lips. The interview took place
the same evening; it did not last long, and no
one knew of it, except the same lady. Irina
was no longer living at Count Reisenbach’s.
‘What made you think of me, of all people?’
Potugin asked her.
She was beginning to expatiate on his noble
qualities, but suddenly she stopped....
‘No,’ she said, ‘you must be told the truth.
I know, I know that you love me; so that was
why I made up my mind ...’ and then she
told him everything.
Eliza Byelsky was an orphan; her relations
did not like her, and reckoned on her inheritance
... ruin was facing her. In saving her,
Irina was really doing a service to him who was
responsible for it all, and who was himself now
standing in a very close relation to Irina....
Potugin, without speaking, looked long at Irina,
and consented. She wept, and flung herself all
in tears on his neck. And he too wept ...
but very different were their tears. Everything
had already been made ready for the secret
marriage, a powerful hand removed all obstacles....
But illness came ... and then a daughter
was born, and then the mother ... poisoned
herself. What was to be done with the child?
Potugin received it into his charge, received it
from the same hands, from the hands of Irina.
A terrible dark story.... Let us pass on,
readers, pass on!
Over an hour more passed before Litvinov
could bring himself to go back to his hotel.
He had almost reached it when he suddenly
heard steps behind him. It seemed as though
they were following him persistently, and walking
faster when he quickened his pace. When
he moved under a lamp-post Litvinov turned
round and recognised General Ratmirov. In
a white tie, in a fashionable overcoat, flung
open, with a row of stars and crosses on a
golden chain in the buttonhole of his dresscoat,
the general was returning from dinner, alone.
His eyes, fastened with insolent persistence on
Litvinov, expressed such contempt and such
hatred, his whole deportment was suggestive of
such intense defiance, that Litvinov thought it
his duty, stifling his wrath, to go to meet
him, to face a ‘scandal.’ But when he was on a
level with Litvinov, the general’s face suddenly
changed, his habitual playful refinement reappeared
upon it, and his hand in its pale
lavender glove flourished his glossy hat high
in the air. Litvinov took off his in silence, and
each went on his way.
‘He has noticed something, for certain!’
thought Litvinov.
‘If only it were ... any one else!’ thought
the general.
Tatyana was playing picquet with her aunt
when Litvinov entered their room.
‘Well, I must say, you’re a pretty fellow!’
cried Kapitolina Markovna, and she threw down
her cards. ‘Our first day, and he’s lost for the
whole evening! Here we’ve been waiting and
waiting, and scolding and scolding....’
‘I said nothing, aunt,’ observed Tatyana.
‘Well, you’re meekness itself, we all know!
You ought to be ashamed, sir! and you betrothed
too!’
Litvinov made some sort of excuse and sat
down to the table.
‘Why have you left off your game?’ he
asked after a brief silence.
‘Well, that’s a nice question! We’ve been
playing cards from sheer dulness, not knowing
what to do with ourselves ... but now you’ve
come.’
‘If you would care to hear the evening
music,’ observed Litvinov, ‘I should be delighted
to take you.’
Kapitolina Markovna looked at her niece.
‘Let us go, aunt, I am ready,’ she said, ‘but
wouldn’t it be better to stay at home?’
‘To be sure! Let us have tea in our own old
Moscow way, with the samovar, and have a
good chat. We’ve not had a proper gossip
yet.’
Litvinov ordered tea to be sent up, but the
good chat did not come off. He felt a continual
gnawing of conscience; whatever he
said, it always seemed to him that he was telling
lies and Tatyana was seeing through it. Meanwhile
there was no change to be observed in
her; she behaved just as unconstrainedly ...
only her look never once rested upon Litvinov,
but with a kind of indulgent timorousness
glided over him, and she was paler than
usual.
Kapitolina Markovna asked her whether she
had not a headache.
Tatyana was at first about to say no, but
after a moment’s thought, she said, ‘Yes, a
little.’
‘It’s the journey,’ suggested Litvinov, and he
positively blushed with shame.
‘Yes, the journey,’ repeated Tatyana, and her
eyes again glided over him.
‘You ought to rest, Tanya darling.’
‘Yes, I will go to bed soon, aunt.’
On the table lay a Guide des Voyageurs; Litvinov
fell to reading aloud the description of
the environs of Baden.
‘Quite so,’ Kapitolina Markovna interrupted,
‘but there’s something we mustn’t forget. I’m
told linen is very cheap here, so we must be
sure to buy some for the trousseau.’
Tatyana dropped her eyes.
‘We have plenty of time, aunt. You never
think of yourself, but you really ought to get
yourself some clothes. You see how smart
every one is here.’
‘Eh, my love! what would be the good of
that? I’m not a fine lady! It would be another
thing if I were such a beauty as your friend,
Grigory Mihalitch, what was her name?’
‘What friend?’
‘Why, that we met to-day.’
‘Oh, she!’ said Litvinov, with feigned indifference,
and again he felt disgust and shame.
‘No!’ he thought, ‘to go on like this is impossible.’
He was sitting by his betrothed, while a few
inches from her in his side pocket, was Irina’s
handkerchief.
Kapitolina Markovna went for a minute into
the other room.
‘Tanya ...’ said Litvinov, with an effort.
It was the first time that day he had called her
by that name.
She turned towards him.
‘I ... I have something very important to
say to you.’
‘Oh! really? when? directly?’
‘No, to-morrow.’
‘Oh! to-morrow. Very well.’
Litvinov’s soul was suddenly filled with
boundless pity. He took Tatyana’s hand and
kissed it humbly, like a sinner; her heart
throbbed faintly and she felt no happiness.
In the night, at two o’clock, Kapitolina
Markovna, who was sleeping in the same room
with her niece, suddenly lifted up her head and
listened.
‘Tanya,’ she said, ‘you are crying?’
Tatyana did not at once answer.
‘No, aunt,’ sounded her gentle voice, ‘I’ve
caught a cold.’