I have ever endeavoured to nourish the merciful disposition and humane
inclination I borrowed from my parents, and regulate it to the written
and prescribed laws of charity; and if I hold the true anatomy of myself,
I am delineated and naturally framed to such a piece of virtue.
For I am of a constitution so general that it comports and sympathiseth
with all things; I have no antipathy, or rather idiosyncrasy, in diet,
humour, air, anything. I wonder not at the French for their dishes
of frogs, snails, and toadstools; nor at the Jews for locusts and grasshoppers;
but being amongst them, make them my common viands; and I find them
agree with my stomach as well as theirs. I could digest a salad
gathered in a churchyard as well as in a garden. I cannot start
at the presence of a serpent, scorpion, lizard, or salamander: at the
sight of a toad or viper I find in me no desire to take up a
stone to destroy them. I feel not in myself those common antipathies
that I can discover in others. Those national repugnances do not
touch me, nor do I behold with prejudice the French, Italian, Spaniard,
and Dutch: but where I find their actions in balance with my countrymen’s,
I honour, love, and embrace them in the same degree. I was born
in the eighth climate, but seem to be framed and constellated unto all.
I am no plant that will not prosper out of a garden: all places, all
airs make unto me one country—I am in England everywhere, and
under any meridian. I have been shipwrecked, yet am not enemy
with the sea or winds. I can study, play, or sleep in a tempest.
In brief, I am averse from nothing: my conscience would give me the
lie if I should absolutely detest or hate any essence but the devil;
or so at least abhor anything, but that we might come to composition.
I am, I confess, naturally inclined to that which misguided zeal
terms superstition: my common conversation I do acknowledge austere,
my behaviour full of rigour, sometimes not without morosity; yet at
my devotion I love to use the civility of my knee, my hat, and hand,
with all those outward and sensible
motions which may express or promote my invisible devotion. I
should violate my own arm rather than a church, nor willingly deface
the name of saint or martyr. At the sight of a cross or crucifix
I can dispense with my hat, but scarce with the thought or memory of
my Saviour: I cannot laugh at, but rather pity the fruitless journeys
of pilgrims, or contemn the miserable condition of friars; for though
misplaced in circumstances, there is something in it of devotion.
I could never hear the Ave Maria bell without an elevation, or think
it a sufficient warrant, because they erred in one circumstance, for
me to err in all, that is, in silence and dumb contempt; whilst therefore
they direct their devotions to her, I offer mine to God, and rectify
the errors of their prayers, by rightly ordering mine own. At
a solemn procession I have wept abundantly, while my consorts, blind
with opposition and prejudice, have fallen into an excess of scorn and
laughter. There are, questionless, both in Greek, Roman, and African
churches, solemnities and ceremonies, whereof the wiser zeals do make
a Christian use, and stand condemned by us, not as evil in themselves,
but as allurements and baits of superstition to those vulgar heads that
look asquint on the face of truth,
and those unstable judgments that cannot consist in the narrow point
and centre of virtue without a reel or stagger to the circumference.
As for those wingy mysteries in divinity, and airy subtleties in
religion, which have unhinged the brains of better heads, they never
stretched the pia mater of mine. Methinks there be not
impossibilities enough in religion for an active faith; the deepest
mysteries ours contains, have not only been illustrated, but maintained
by syllogism, and the rule of reason. I love to lose myself in
a mystery, to pursue my reason to an O altitudo! It is
my solitary recreation to pose my apprehension with those involved enigmas
and riddles of the Trinity, with incarnation and resurrection.
I can answer all the objections of Satan and my rebellious reason, with
that odd resolution I learned of Tertullian, Certum est quia impossible
est. I desire to exercise my faith in the difficultest point;
for to credit ordinary and visible objects, is not faith, but persuasion.
Some believe the better for seeing Christ’s sepulchre; and when
they have seen the Red Sea, doubt not of the miracle. Now, contrarily,
I bless myself, and am thankful that I lived not in the days of miracles;
that I never saw Christ nor
His disciples. I would not have been one of those Israelites that
passed the Red Sea, nor one of Christ’s patients on whom He wrought
His wonders; then had my faith been thrust upon me, nor should I enjoy
that greater blessing pronounced to all that believe and saw not.
It is an easy and necessary belief, to credit what our eye and sense
hath examined: I believe He was dead and buried, and rose again; and
desire to see Him in His glory, rather than to contemplate Him in His
cenotaph or sepulchre. Nor is this much to believe; as we have
reason, we owe this faith unto history. They only had the advantage
of a bold and noble faith, who lived before His coming, who upon obscure
prophecies and mystical types could raise a belief and expect apparent
impossibilities.
Now for my life, it is a miracle of thirty years, which to relate
were not a history but a piece of poetry, and would sound to common
ears like a fable; for the world, I count it not an inn but an hospital;
and a place not to live, but to die in. The world that I regard
is myself; it is the microcosm of my own frame that I cast mine eye
on; for the other, I use it but like my globe, and turn it round sometimes
for my recreation. Men that look upon my outside,
perusing only my condition and fortunes, do err in my altitude, for
I am above Atlas’s shoulders. The earth is a point, not
only in respect of the heavens above us, but of that heavenly and celestial
part within us; that mass of flesh that circumscribes me limits not
my mind; that surface that tells the heaven it hath an end cannot persuade
me I have any. I take my circle to be above three hundred and
sixty. Though the number of the arc do measure my body it comprehendeth
not my mind. Whilst I study to find how I am a microcosm, or little
world, I find myself something more than the great. There is surely
a piece of divinity in us, something that was before the elements, and
owes no homage unto the sun. Nature tells me I am the image of
God, as well as Scripture. He that understands not thus much hath
not his introduction, or first lesson, and is yet to begin the alphabet
of man.
In my solitary and retired imagination, I remember I am not alone,
and therefore forget not to contemplate Him and His attributes who is
ever with me, especially those two mighty
ones, His wisdom and eternity; with the one I recreate, with the other
I confound my understanding: for who can speak of eternity without a
solecism, or think thereof without an ecstasy? Time we may comprehend.
It is but five days older than ourselves, and hath the same horoscope
with the world; but to retire so far back as to apprehend a beginning,
to give such an infinite start forwards as to conceive an end in an
essence that we affirm hath neither the one nor the other, it puts my
reason to St. Paul’s sanctuary. My philosophy dares not
say the angels can do it; God hath not made a creature that can comprehend
Him; it is a privilege of His own nature. ‘I am that I am,’
was His own definition unto Moses; and it was a short one, to confound
mortality, that durst question God, or ask Him what He was; indeed He
only is; all others have been and shall be. But in eternity there
is no distinction of tenses; and therefore that terrible term, predestination,
which hath troubled so many weak heads to conceive, and the wisest to
explain, is in respect to God no prescious determination of our estates
to come, but a definitive blast of His will already fulfilled, and at
the instant that He first decreed it; for to His eternity which is indivisible,
and altogether, the last trump is already sounded, the reprobates in
the flame, and the blessed in Abraham’s bosom.
That other attribute wherewith I recreate my devotion is His wisdom,
in which I am happy; and for the contemplation of this only, do not
repent me that I was bred in the way of study: the advantage I have
of the vulgar, with the content and happiness I conceive therein, is
an ample recompense for all my endeavours, in what part of knowledge
soever, Wisdom is His most beauteous attribute; no man can attain unto
it: yet Solomon pleased God when he desired it. He is wise, because
He knows all things; and He knoweth all things, because He made them
all: but His greatest knowledge is in comprehending that He made not,
that is, Himself. And this is also the greatest knowledge in man.
For this do I honour my own profession, and embrace the counsel even
of the devil himself: had he read such a lecture in paradise, as he
did at Delphos, we had better known ourselves; nor had we stood in fear
to know him. I know God is wise in all, wonderful in what we conceive,
but far more in what we comprehend not; for we behold Him but asquint
upon reflex or shadow; our understanding is dimmer than
Moses’ eye; we are ignorant of the back parts or lower side of
His divinity; therefore to pry into the maze of His counsels, is not
only folly in man, but presumption even in angels; like us, they are
His servants, not His senators; He holds no counsel, but that mystical
one of the Trinity, wherein though there be three persons, there is
but one mind that decrees without contradiction: nor needs He any; His
actions are not begot with deliberation, His wisdom naturally knows
what is best; His intellect stands ready fraught with the superlative
and purest ideas of goodness; consultation and election, which are two
motions in us, make but one in Him; His action springing from His power,
at the first touch of His will. These are contemplations metaphysical:
my humble speculations have another method, and are content to trace
and discover those expressions he hath left in His creatures, and the
obvious effects of nature; there is no danger to profound these mysteries,
no sanctum sanctorum in philosophy: the world was made to be
inhabited by beasts; but studied and contemplated by man: it is the
debt of our reason we owe unto God, and the homage we pay for not being
beasts; without this, the world is still as though it had not been,
or as it was before
the sixth day, when as yet there was not a creature that could conceive,
or say there was a world. The wisdom of God receives small honour
from those vulgar heads that rudely stare about, and with a gross rusticity
admire His works; those highly magnify Him, whose judicious inquiry
into His acts, and deliberate research into His creatures, return the
duty of a devout and learned admiration. Therefore
Search where thou wilt, and let thy reason go
To ransom truth even to th’ abyss below;
Rally the scattered causes: and that line
Which nature twists, be able to untwine;
It is thy Maker’s will, for unto none,
But unto reason can He e’er be known.
However, I am sure there is a common spirit that plays within us,
yet makes no part in us; and that is the Spirit of God, the fire and
scintillation of that noble and mighty essence, which is the life and
radical heat of spirits, and those essences that know not the virtue
of the sun, a fire quite contrary to the fire of hell. This is
that gentle heat that brooded on the waters, and in six days hatched
the world; this is
that irradiation that dispels the mists of hell, the clouds of horror,
fear, sorrow, despair; and preserves the region of the mind in serenity.
Whatsoever feels not the warm gale and gentle ventilation of this spirit
(though I feel his pulse), I dare not say he lives; for truly without
this, to me there is no heat under the tropic; nor any light, though
I dwelt in the body of the sun.
As when the labouring sun hath wrought his track
Up to the top of lofty Cancer’s back,
The icy ocean cracks, the frozen pole
Thaws with the heat of the celestial coal;
So when Thy absent beams begin t’impart
Again a solstice on my frozen heart,
My winter’s o’er, my drooping spirits sing,
And every part revives into a spring.
But if Thy quick’ning beams awhile decline,
And with their light bless not this orb of mine,
A chilly frost surpriseth every member,
And in the midst of June I feel December.
O how this earthly temper doth debase
The noble soul, in this her humble place!
Whose wingy nature ever doth aspire
To reach that place whence first it took its fire.
These flames I feel, which in my heart do dwell,
Are not Thy beams, but take their fire from hell.
O quench them all, and let Thy light divine,
Be as the sun to this poor orb of mine:
And to Thy sacred spirit convert those fires,
Whose earthly fumes choke my devout aspires.
The great attribute of God—His mercy; and, to be true, and
speak my soul, when I survey the occurrences of my life, and call into
account the finger of God, I can perceive nothing but an abyss and mass
of mercies, either in general to mankind, or in particular to myself:
and whether out of the prejudice of my affection, or an inverting and
partial conceit of His mercies, I know not; but those which others term
crosses, afflictions, judgments, misfortunes, to me, who inquire further
into them than their visible effects, they both appear, and in event
have ever proved, the secret and dissembled favours of His affection.
It is a singular piece of wisdom to apprehend truly, and without passion,
the works of God; and so well to distinguish His justice from His mercy,
as not to miscall those noble attributes; yet it is likewise an honest
piece of logic, so to dispute and argue the proceedings of God, as to
distinguish even His judgments into mercies. For God is merciful
unto all, because better to the worst than the best deserve; and to
say He punisheth none in this world, though it be a paradox, is no absurdity.
To one that hath committed murder, if the judge should only ordain
a fine, it were a madness to call this a punishment, and to repine at
the sentence rather than admire the clemency of the judge. Thus
our offences being mortal, and deserving not only death, but damnation;
if the goodness of God be content to traverse and pass them over with
a loss, misfortune, or disease, what frenzy were it to term this a punishment,
rather than an extremity of mercy; and to groan under the rod of His
judgments, rather than admire the sceptre of His mercies!
Such I do believe the holy Scriptures; yet were it of man, I could
not choose but say, it was the singularest, and superlative piece that
hath been extant since the creation; were I a Pagan, I should not refrain
the lecture of it, and cannot but commend the judgment of Ptolemy, that
thought not his library complete without it. The Alcoran of the
Turks (I speak without prejudice) is an ill-composed piece, containing
in it vain and ridiculous errors in philosophy, impossibilities, fictions,
and vanities beyond laughter, maintained by evident and open sophisms,
the policy of ignorance, deposition of universities, and banishment
of learning, that hath
gotten foot by arms and violence; this, without a blow, hath disseminated
itself through the whole earth. It is not unremarkable what Philo
first observed, that the law of Moses continued two thousand years without
the least alteration; whereas, we see the laws of other commonwealths
do alter with occasions; and even those that pretend their original
from some divinity, to have vanished without trace or memory.
I believe, besides Zoroaster, there were divers that wrote before Moses,
who, notwithstanding, have suffered the common fate of time. Men’s
works have an age like themselves, and though they outlive their authors,
yet have they a stint and period to their duration. This only
is a work too hard for the teeth of time, and cannot perish but in the
general flames, when all things shall confess their ashes.
Rest not in the high-strained paradoxes of old philosophy, supported
by naked reason, and the reward of mortal felicity; but labour in the
ethics of faith, built upon heavenly assistance, and the happiness of
both beings. Understand the rules, but swear not unto the doctrines
of Zeno or Epicurus. Look beyond Antonius, and terminate not thy
morals in Seneca or Epictetus. Let not the twelve but the
two tables be thy law: let Pythagoras be thy remembrancer, not thy textuary
and final instructor: and learn the vanity of the world, rather from
Solomon than Phocylydes. Sleep not in the dogmas of the Peripatus,
Academy, or Porticus. Be a moralist of the mount, an Epictetus
in the faith, and christianise thy notions.
And truly there goes a great deal of providence to produce a man’s
life unto threescore; there is more required than an able temper for
those years; though the radical humour contain in it sufficient oil
for seventy, yet I perceive in some it gives no light past thirty: men
assign not all the causes of long life, that write whole books thereof.
They that found themselves on the radical balsam, or vital sulphur of
the parts, determine not why Abel lived not so long as Adam. There
is therefore a secret glome or bottom of our days; it was his wisdom
to determine them, but his perpetual and waking providence that fulfils
and accomplishes them; wherein the spirits, ourselves, and all the creatures
of God in a secret and disputed way do execute His will. Let them
not, therefore, complain of immaturity that die about
thirty: they fall but like the whole world, whose solid and well-composed
substance must not expect the duration and period of its constitution;
when all things are completed in it, its age is accomplished; and the
last and general fever may as naturally destroy it before six thousand,
as me before forty. There is therefore some other hand that twines
the thread of life than that of nature; we are not only ignorant in
antipathies and occult qualities; our ends are as obscure as our beginnings;
the line of our days is drawn by night, and the various effects therein
by a pencil that is invisible; wherein, though we confess our ignorance,
I am sure we do not err if we say it is the hand of God.
Therefore for spirits, I am so far from denying their existence,
that I could easily believe, that not only whole countries, but particular
persons have their tutelary and guardian angels; it is not a new opinion
of the Church of Rome, but an old one of Pythagoras and Plato: there
is no heresy in it, and if not manifestly defined in Scripture, yet
is an opinion of a good and wholesome use in the course
and actions of a man’s life, and would serve as an hypothesis
to solve many doubts, whereof common philosophy affordeth no solution.
Now, if you demand my opinion and metaphysics of their natures, I confess
them very shallow, most of them in a negative way, like that of God;
or in a comparative, between ourselves and fellow-creatures; for there
is in this universe a stair, or manifest scale of creatures, rising
not disorderly or in confusion, but with a comely method and proportion.
Between creatures of mere existence and things of life, there is a large
disproportion of nature; between plants and animals and creatures of
sense, a wider difference; between them and man, a far greater: and
if the proportion hold on, between man and angels there should be yet
a greater. We do not comprehend their natures, who retain the
first definition of Porphyry, and distinguish them from ourselves by
immortality; for before his fall, it is thought man also was immortal;
yet must we needs affirm that he had a different essence from the angels;
having, therefore, no certain knowledge of their natures, it is no bad
method of the schools, whatsoever perfection we find obscurely in ourselves,
in a more complete and absolute way to ascribe unto them. I believe
they have an extemporary
knowledge, and upon the first motion of their reason do what we cannot
without study or deliberation; that they know things by their forms,
and define by specifical difference what we describe by accidents and
properties; and therefore probabilities to us may be demonstrations
unto them: that they have knowledge not only of the specifical, but
numerical forms of individuals, and understand by what reserved difference
each single hypostasis (besides the relation to its species) becomes
its numerical self. That as the soul hath power to move the body
it informs, so there is a faculty to move any, though inform none; ours
upon restraint of time, place, and distance; but that invisible hand
that conveyed Habakkuk to the lions’ den, or Philip to Azotos,
infringeth this rule, and hath a secret conveyance, wherewith mortality
is not acquainted. If they have that intuitive knowledge, whereby,
as in reflection, they behold the thoughts of one another, I cannot
peremptorily deny but they know a great part of ours. They that
to refute the invocation of saints have denied that they have any knowledge
of our affairs below, have proceeded too far, and must pardon my opinion,
till I can thoroughly answer that piece of Scripture, ‘At the
conversion of a sinner the angels in heaven rejoice.’ I
cannot with those in that great Father securely interpret the work of
the first day, fiat lux, to the creation of angels, though I
confess there is not any creature that hath so near a glimpse of their
nature, as light in the sun and elements. We style it a bare accident,
but where it subsists alone it is a spiritual substance, and may be
an angel: in brief, conceive light invisible, and that is a spirit.
I could never pass that sentence of Paracelsus, without an asterisk,
or annotation; Ascendens constellatum multa revelat, quærentibus
magnalia naturæ, i.e. opera Dei. I do think that
many mysteries ascribed to our own inventions have been the courteous
revelations of spirits; for those noble essences in heaven bear a friendly
regard unto their fellow-nature on earth; and therefore believe that
those many prodigies and ominous prognostics which forerun the ruins
of states, princes, and private persons are the charitable premonitions
of good angels, which more careless inquiries term but the effects of
chance and nature.
These are certainly the magisterial and masterpieces of the Creator,
the flower, or (as we
may say) the best part of nothing, actually existing, what we are but
in hopes, and probability; we are only that amphibious piece between
a corporeal and spiritual essence, that middle form that links those
two together, and makes good the method of God and nature, that jumps
not from extremes, but unites the incompatible distances by some middle
and participating natures. That we are the breath and similitude
of God, it is indisputable, and upon record of holy Scripture; but to
call ourselves a microcosm, or little world, I thought it only a pleasant
trope of rhetoric, till my near judgment and second thoughts told me
there was a real truth therein: for first we are a rude mass, and in
the rank of creatures, which only are, and have a dull kind of being
not yet privileged with life, or preferred to sense or reason; next
we live the life of plants, the life of animals, the life of men, and
at last the life of spirits, running in one mysterious nature those
five kinds of existences, which comprehend the creatures not only of
the world but of the universe; thus is man that great and true amphibium,
whose nature is disposed to live not only like other creatures in divers
elements, but in divided and distinguished worlds: for though there
be but one to sense, there are two to reason; the one visible, the other
invisible, whereof Moses seems to have left description, and of the
other so obscurely, that some parts thereof are yet in controversy.
And truly for the first chapters of Genesis, I must confess a great
deal of obscurity; though divines have to the power of human reason
endeavoured to make all go in a literal meaning, yet those allegorical
interpretations are also probable, and perhaps the mystical method of
Moses, bred up in the hieroglyphical schools of the Egyptians.
The whole creation is a mystery, and particularly that of man.
At the blast of His mouth were the rest of the creatures made, and at
His bare word they started out of nothing: but in the frame of man (as
the text describes it) he played the sensible operator, and seemed not
so much to create, as make him. When he had separated the materials
of other creatures, there consequently resulted a form and soul; but
having raised the walls of man, he was driven to a second and harder
creation of a substance like himself, an incorruptible and immortal
soul. . . . In our study of anatomy there is a mass of mysterious
philosophy, and such as reduced the very heathens
to divinity; yet amongst all those rare discoveries, and curious pieces
I find in the fabric of man, I do not so much content myself, as in
that I find not—that is, no organ or instrument for the rational
soul: for in the brain, which we term the seat of reason, there is not
anything of moment more than I can discover in the cranium of a beast:
and this is a sensible and no inconsiderable argument of the inorganity
of the soul, at least in that sense we usually so conceive it.
Thus we are men, and we know not how; there is something in us that
can be without us, and will be after us, though it is strange that it
hath no history what it was before us, nor cannot tell how it entered
in us.
Thus there are two books from whence I collect my divinity—besides
that written one of God, another of His servant nature; that universal
and public manuscript, that lies expanded unto the eyes of all—those
that never saw Him in the one, have discovered Him in the other.
This was the scripture and theology of the heathens; the natural motion
of the sun made them more admire Him, than its supernatural station
did the children of Israel; the ordinary effects of nature wrought more
admiration in them than in the other all His miracles: surely the heathens
knew better how to join and read these mystical letters, than we Christians,
who cast a more careless eye on these common hieroglyphics, and disdain
to suck divinity from the flowers of nature. Nor do I so forget
God as to adore the name of nature; which I define not with the schools,
to be the principle of motion and rest, but that straight and regular
line, that settled and constant course the wisdom of God hath ordained
the actions of His creatures, according to their several kinds.
To make a revolution every day, is the nature of the sun, because of
that necessary course which God hath ordained it, from which it cannot
swerve, by a faculty from that voice which first did give it motion.
Now this course of nature God seldom alters or perverts, but like an
excellent artist hath so contrived His work, that with the selfsame
instrument, without a new creation, He may effect His obscurest designs.
Thus He sweeteneth the water with a wood, preserveth the creatures in
the ark, which the blast of His mouth might have as easily created;
for God is like a skilful geometrician, who when more easily, and with
one stroke of his compass,
he might describe or divide a right line, had yet rather to do this
in a circle or longer way, according to the constituted and fore-laid
principles of his art: yet this rule of His He doth sometimes pervert,
to acquaint the world with His prerogative, lest the arrogancy of our
reason should question His power, and conclude He could not. And
thus I call the effects of nature the works of God, whose hand and instrument
she only is; and therefore to ascribe His actions unto her, is to devolve
the honour of the principal agent upon the instrument; which, if with
reason we may do, then let our hammers rise up and boast they have built
our houses, and our pens receive the honour of our writing. . . .
Now nature is not at variance with art, nor art with nature: they being
both servants of His providence. Art is the perfection of nature:
were the world now as it was the sixth day, there were yet a chaos.
Nature hath made one world, and art another. In brief, all things
are artificial; for nature is the art of God.
Beware of philosophy, is a precept not to be received in too large
a sense; for in this mass of
nature there is a set of things that carry in their front, though not
in capital letters, yet in stenography, and short characters, something
of divinity, which to wiser reasons serve as luminaries in the abyss
of knowledge, and to judicious beliefs, as scales and rundles to mount
the pinnacles and highest pieces of divinity. The severe schools
shall never laugh me out of the philosophy of Hermes, that this visible
world is but a picture of the invisible, wherein, as in a portrait,
things are not truly, but in equivocal shapes, and as they counterfeit
some real substance in that invisible fabric.
There is but one first cause, and four second causes of all things;
some are without efficient, as God; others without matter, as angels;
some without form, as the first matter: but every essence, created or
uncreated, hath its final cause, and some positive end both of its essence
and operation; this is the cause I grope after in the works of nature;
on this hangs the providence of God. To raise so beauteous a structure,
as the world and the creatures thereof, was but His art; but their sundry
and divided operations, with their predestinated ends,
are from the treasure of His wisdom. In the causes, nature, and
affections of the eclipses of the sun and moon, there is most excellent
speculation; but to profound farther, and to contemplate a reason why
His providence hath so disposed and ordered their motions in that vast
circle, as to conjoin and obscure each other, is a sweeter piece of
reason, and a diviner point of philosophy; therefore sometimes, and
in some things, there appears to me as much divinity in Galen’s
books De Usu Partium, as in Suarez’s Metaphysics: had Aristotle
been as curious in the inquiry of this cause as he was of the other,
he had not left behind him an imperfect piece of philosophy, but an
absolute tract of divinity.
This is that dismal conquest we all deplore, that makes us so often
cry, O Adam, quid fecisti? I thank God I have not those
straight ligaments or narrow obligations to the world as to dote on
life, or be convulsed and tremble at the name of death. Not that
I am insensible of the dread and horror thereof, or by raking into the
bowels of the deceased, continual sight of anatomies, skeletons, or
cadaverous relics, like
vespilloes, or grave-makers, I am become stupid, or have forgot the
apprehension of mortality; but that marshalling all the horrors, and
contemplating the extremities thereof, I find not anything therein able
to daunt the courage of a man, much less a well-resolved Christian.
And therefore am not angry at the error of our first parents, or unwilling
to bear a part of this common fate, and like the best of them to die,
that is, to cease to breathe, to take a farewell of the elements, to
be a kind of nothing for a moment, to be within one instant of a spirit.
When I take a full view and circle of myself, without this reasonable
moderator and equal piece of justice, death, I do conceive myself the
miserablest person extant. Were there not another life that I
hope for, all the vanities of this world should not entreat a moment’s
breath for me; could the devil work my belief to imagine I could never
die, I would not outlive that very thought; I have so abject a conceit
of this common way of existence, this retaining to the sun and elements,
I cannot think this is to be a man, or to live according to the dignity
of humanity. In expectation of a better, I can with patience embrace
this life, yet in my best meditations do often desire death. I
honour any man that contemns it, nor
can I highly love any that is afraid of it: this makes me naturally
love a soldier, and honour those tattered and contemptible regiments
that will die at the command of a sergeant. For a pagan there
may be some motives to be in love with life; but for a Christian to
be amazed at death, I see not how he can escape this dilemma, that he
is too sensible of this life or hopeless of the life to come.
I am naturally bashful, nor hath conversation, age, or travel, been
able to effront or enharden me; yet I have one part of modesty which
I have seldom discovered in another, that is, (to speak truly), I am
not so much afraid of death, as ashamed thereof. It is the very
disgrace and ignominy of our natures, that in a moment can so disfigure
us, that our nearest friends, wife and children stand afraid and start
at us. The birds and beasts of the field, that before in a natural
fear obeyed us, forgetting all allegiance, begin to prey upon us.
This very conceit hath in a tempest disposed and left me willing to
be swallowed up in the abyss of waters; wherein I had perished unseen,
unpitied, without wondering eyes, tears of pity, lectures of mortality,
and none had said, Quantum mutatus ab illo! Not that I
am ashamed of the anatomy
of my parts, or can accuse nature for playing the bungler in any part
of me, or my own vicious life for contracting any shameful disease upon
me, whereby I might not call myself as wholesome a morsel for the worms
as any.
Now, the necessary mansions of our restored selves are those two
contrary and incompatible places we call heaven and hell; to define
them, or strictly to determine what and where these are, surpasseth
my divinity. That elegant apostle which seemed to have a glimpse
of heaven hath left but a negative description thereof: ‘which
neither eye hath seen, nor ear hath heard, nor can enter into the heart
of man’: he was translated out of himself to behold it; but being
returned into himself could not express it. St. John’s description
by emeralds, chrysolites, and precious stones is too weak to express
the material heaven we behold. Briefly, therefore, where the soul
hath the full measure and complement of happiness, where the boundless
appetite of that spirit remains completely satisfied that it can neither
desire addition nor alteration, that
I think is truly heaven: and this can only be in the enjoyment of that
essence whose infinite goodness is able to terminate the desires of
itself, and the insatiable wishes of ours; wherever God will thus manifest
Himself, there is heaven, though within the circle of this sensible
world. Thus the soul of man may be in heaven anywhere, even within
the limits of his own proper body; and when it ceaseth to live in the
body it may remain in its own soul, that is, its Creator. And
thus we may say that St. Paul, whether in the body, or out of the body,
was yet in heaven. . . . Moses, that was bred up in all the learning
of the Egyptians, committed a gross absurdity in philosophy when with
these eyes of flesh he desired to see God, and petitioned his Maker,
that is truth itself, to a contradiction.
Men commonly set forth the torments of hell by fire, and the extremity
of corporeal afflictions, and describe hell in the same method that
Mahomet doth heaven. This indeed makes a noise, and drums in popular
ears; but if this be the terrible piece thereof, it is not worthy to
stand in diameter with heaven, whose
happiness consists in that part that is best able to comprehend it,
that immortal essence, that translated divinity and colony of God, the
soul. Surely, though we place hell under earth, the devil’s
walk and purlieu is about it: men speak too popularly who place it in
those flaming mountains, which to grosser apprehensions represent hell.
The heart of man is the place the devils dwell in. I feel sometimes
a hell within myself; Lucifer keeps his court in my breast; Legion is
revived in me. There are as many hells as Anaxagoras conceited
worlds. There was more than one hell in Magdalene, when there
were seven devils; for every devil is a hell unto himself. He
holds enough of torture in his own ubi, and needs not the misery
of circumference to afflict him. And thus, a distracted conscience
here, is a shadow or introduction unto hell hereafter. Who can
but pity the merciful intention of those hands that do destroy themselves?
The devil, were it in his power, would do the like; which being impossible,
his miseries are endless, and he suffers most in that attribute wherein
he is impassible—his immortality.
I thank God that (with joy I mention it) I was never afraid of hell,
nor never grew pale at the description of that place. I have so
fixed my contemplations
on heaven, that I have almost forgot the idea of hell, and am afraid
rather to lose the joys of the one, than endure the misery of the other—to
be deprived of them is a perfect hell, and needs, methinks, no addition
to complete our afflictions. That terrible term hath never detained
me from sin, nor do I owe any good action to the name thereof.
I fear God, yet am not afraid of Him; His mercies make me ashamed of
my sins, before His judgments afraid thereof. These are the forced
and secondary methods of His wisdom, which He useth but as the last
remedy, and upon provocation; a course rather to deter the wicked, than
incite the virtuous to His worship. I can hardly think there was
ever any scared into heaven: they go the fairest way to heaven that
would serve God without a hell. Other mercenaries that crouch
unto Him, in fear of hell, though they term themselves the servants,
are indeed but the slaves of the Almighty.
I cannot contentedly frame a prayer for myself in particular, without
a catalogue for my friends; nor request a happiness wherein my
sociable disposition doth not desire the fellowship of my neighbour.
I never heard the toll of a passing-bell, though in my mirth, without
my prayers and best wishes for the departing spirit. I cannot
go to cure the body of my patient, but I forget my profession, and call
unto God for his soul. I cannot see one say his prayers, but instead
of imitating him, I fall into a supplication for him, who, perhaps,
is no more to me than a common nature; and if God hath vouchsafed an
ear to my supplications, there are surely many happy that never saw
me, and enjoy the blessing of my unknown devotions. To pray for
enemies, that is, for their salvation, is no harsh precept, but the
practice of our daily and ordinary devotions.
The vulgarity of those judgments that wrap the Church of God in Strabo’s
cloak, and restrain it unto Europe, seem to me as bad geographers as
Alexander, who thought he had conquered all the world, when he had not
subdued the half of any part thereof. For we cannot deny the Church
of God both in Asia and Africa, if we do not forget the peregrinations
of the apostles, the deaths of the martyrs, the
sessions of many, and, even in our reformed judgment, lawful councils,
held in those parts in the minority and nonage of ours. Nor must
a few differences, more remarkable in the eyes of man than perhaps in
the judgment of God, excommunicate from heaven one another, much less
those Christians who are in a manner all martyrs, maintaining their
faith in the noble way of persecution, and serving God in the fire,
whereas we honour Him in the sunshine. It is true we all hold
there is a number of elect, and many to be saved; yet take our opinions
together, and from the confusion thereof there will be no such thing
as salvation, nor shall any one be saved. For first, the Church
of Rome condemneth us, we likewise them; the sub-reformists and sectaries
sentence the doctrine of our Church as damnable; the atomist, or familist,
reprobates all these; and all these them again. Thus, whilst the
mercies of God do promise us heaven, our conceits and opinions exclude
us from that place. There must be therefore more than one St.
Peter. Particular churches and sects usurp the gates of heaven,
and turn the key against each other: and thus we go to heaven against
each other’s wills, conceits, and opinions, and, with as much
uncharity as ignorance, do err, I fear, in points not
only of our own, but one another’s salvation.
I believe many are saved, who to man seem reprobated; and many are
reprobated who in the opinion and sentence of man stand elected.
There will appear at the last day strange and unexpected examples, both
of His justice and His mercy; and therefore to define either is folly
in man, and insolency even in the devils. Those acute and subtle
spirits, in all their sagacity, can hardly divine who shall be saved;
which if they could prognosticate, their labour were at an end; nor
need they compass the earth, seeking whom they may devour. Those
who, upon a rigid application of the law, sentence Solomon unto damnation,
condemn not only him but themselves, and the whole world; for by the
letter, and written word of God, we are, without exception, in the state
of death; but there is a prerogative of God, and an arbitrary pleasure
above the letter of His own law, by which alone we can pretend unto
salvation, and through which Solomon might be as easily saved as those
who condemn him.
The number of those who pretend unto salvation, and those infinite
swarms who think to pass through the eye of this needle, have much amazed
me. That name and compellation of
‘little flock’ doth not comfort but deject my devotion,
especially when I reflect upon mine own unworthiness, wherein, according
to my humble apprehensions, I am below them all. I believe there
shall never be an anarchy in heaven; but as there are hierarchies amongst
the angels, so shall there be degrees of priority amongst the saints.
Yet it is, I protest, beyond my ambition to aspire unto the first ranks;
my desires only are, and I shall be happy therein, to be but the last
man, and bring up the rear in heaven.
As there were many reformers, so likewise many reformations; every
country proceeding in a particular way and method, according as their
national interest, together with their constitution and clime inclined
them; some angrily, and with extremity; others calmly, and with mediocrity,
not rending, but easily dividing the community, and leaving an honest
possibility of a reconciliation; which, though peaceable spirits do
desire, and may conceive that revolution of time and the mercies of
God may effect, yet that judgment that shall consider the present antipathies
between the two extremes, their
contrarieties in condition, affection, and opinion, may with the same
hopes expect a union in the poles of heaven.
It is the promise of Christ to make us all one flock; but how, and
when this union shall be, is as obscure to me as the last day.
Upon my first visit I was bold to tell them who had not let fall
all hopes of his recovery, that in my sad opinion he was not like to
behold a grasshopper, much less to pluck another fig; and in no long
time after seemed to discover that odd mortal symptom in him not mentioned
by Hippocrates, that is, to lose his own face, and look like some of
his near relations; for he maintained not his proper countenance, but
looked like his uncle, the lines of whose face lay deep and invisible
in his healthful visage before: for as from our beginning we run through
variety of looks, before we come to consistent and settled faces; so
before our end, by sick and languishing alterations, we put on new visages:
and in our retreat to earth, may fall upon such looks which from community
of seminal originals were before latent in us.
Not to fear death, nor desire it, was short of his resolution: to
be dissolved, and be with Christ, was his dying ditty. He conceived
his thread long, in no long course of years, and when he had scarce
outlived the second life of Lazarus; esteeming it enough to approach
the years of his Saviour, who so ordered His own human state as not
to be old upon earth.
Though age had set no seal upon his face, yet a dim eye might clearly
discover fifty in his actions; and therefore, since wisdom is the grey
hair, and an unspotted life old age; although his years came short,
he might have been said to have held up with longer livers, and to have
been Solomon’s old man. And surely if we deduct all those
days of our life which we might wish unlived, and which abate the comfort
of those we now live; if we reckon up only those days which God hath
accepted of our lives, a life of good years will hardly be a span long:
the son in this sense may outlive the father, and none be climacterically
old. He that early arriveth unto the parts and prudence of age,
is happily old without the uncomfortable attendants of it; and ’tis
superfluous to live unto grey hairs, when in a precocious temper we
anticipate the virtues of them. In brief, he cannot be accounted
young who outliveth the
old man. He that hath early arrived unto the measure of a perfect
stature in Christ, hath already fulfilled the prime and longest intention
of his being: and one day lived after the perfect rule of piety, is
to be preferred before sinning immortality.
Lastly; if length of days be thy portion, make it not thy expectation.
Reckon not upon long life: think every day the last, and live always
beyond thy account. He that so often surviveth his expectation
lives many lives, and will scarce complain of the shortness of his days.
Time past is gone like a shadow; make time to come present. Approximate
thy latter times by present apprehensions of them: be like a neighbour
unto the grave, and think there is but little to come. And since
there is something of us that will still live on, join both lives together,
and live in one but for the other. He who thus ordereth the purposes
of this life, will never be far from the next; and is in some manner
already in it, by a happy conformity and close apprehension of it.
And if, as we have elsewhere declared, any
have been so happy, as personally to understand Christian annihilation,
ecstasy, exolution, transformation, the kiss of the spouse, and ingression
into the divine shadow, according to mystical theology, they have already
had an handsome anticipation of heaven; the world is in a manner over,
and the earth in ashes unto them.
This I confess, about seven years past, with some others of affinity
thereto, for my private exercise and satisfaction I had at leisurable
hours composed; which being communicated unto one, it became common
unto many, and was by transcription successively corrupted, until it
arrived in a most depraved copy at the press. He that shall peruse
that work, and shall take notice of sundry particulars and personal
expressions therein, will easily discern the intention was not public:
and being a private exercise directed to myself, what is delivered therein,
was rather a memorial unto me, than an example or rule unto any other:
and therefore if there be any singularity therein correspondent unto
the private conceptions of any man, it doth not advantage them: or if
dissentaneous thereunto,
it no way overthrows them. It was penned in such a place, and
with such disadvantage, that (I protest) from the first setting of pen
unto paper, I had not the assistance of any good book, whereby to promote
my invention, or relieve my memory, and therefore there might be many
real lapses therein, which others might take notice of, and more than
I suspected myself. It was set down many years past, and was the
sense of my conception at that time, not an immutable law unto my advancing
judgment at all times; and therefore there might be many things therein
plausible unto my past apprehension, which are not agreeable unto my
present self. There are many things delivered rhetorically, many
expressions therein merely tropical, and as they best illustrate my
intention, and therefore also there are many things to be taken in a
soft and flexible sense and not to be called unto the rigid test of
reason. Lastly, all that is contained therein, is in submission
unto maturer discernments; and as I have declared, shall no further
father them than the best and learned judgments shall authorise them;
under favour of which considerations I have made its secrecy public,
and committed the truth thereof to every ingenuous reader.
Bless me in this life with but peace of my conscience, command of
my affections, the love of Thyself and my dearest friends, and I shall
be happy enough to pity Cæsar. These are, O Lord, the humble
desires of my most reasonable ambition, and all I dare call happiness
on earth; wherein I set no rule or limit to Thy hand of Providence;
dispose of me according to the wisdom of Thy pleasure. Thy will
be done, though in my own undoing.