1
Carwithiel, October 25, 18—.
My dear Taffy:
Your letter was full of
news, and I read it over
twice—once to myself, and
again after dinner to
George and Sir Harry. We
pictured you dining in the college hall.
Thanks to your description, it was not
very difficult: the long tables, the silver
tankards, the dark panels and the dark
pictures above, and the dons on the dais,
aloof and very sedate. It reminded me
of Ivanhoe—I don't know why; and no
doubt if ever I see Magdalen, it will not
be like my fancy in the least. But that's
how I see it; and you at a table near the
bottom of the hall, like the youthful squire
in the story-books—the one, you know,
who sits at the feast below the salt until
he is recognized and forced to step up and
take his seat with honor at the high table.
I began to explain all this to George, but
found that he had dropped asleep in his
chair. He was tired out after a long day
with the pheasants.
I shall stay here for a week or two
yet, perhaps. You know how I hate Tredinnis.
On my way over, I called at the
Parsonage and saw your mother. She
was writing that very day, she said, and
promised to send my remembrances, which
I hope duly reached you. The Vicar was
away at the church, of course. There is
great talk of the Bishop coming in February,
when all will be ready. George
sends his love; I saw him for a few minutes
at breakfast this morning, before he
started for another day with the pheasants.
Your friend,
Honoria.
2
Carwithiel, November 19, 18—.
My dear Taffy:
Still here, you see! I am slipping this
into a parcel containing a fire-screen which
I have worked with my very own hands;
and I trust you will be able to recognize
the shield upon it and the Magdalen lilies.
I send it, first, as a birthday present; and
I chose a shield—well, I daresay that
going in for a demy-ship is a matter-of-fact
affair to you, who have grown so exceedingly
matter-of-fact; but to me it seems a
tremendous adventure; and so I chose a
shield—for I suppose the dons would frown
if you wore a cockade in your college cap.
I return to Tredinnis to-morrow; so your
news, whatever it is, must be addressed to
me there. But it is safe to be good news.
Your friend,
Honoria.
3
Tredinnis, November 27, 18—.
Most Honored Scholar:
Behold me, an hour ago, a great lady,
seated in lonely grandeur at the head of
my own ancestral table. This is the first
time I have used the dining-room; usually
I take all my meals in the morning-room, at
a small table beside the fire. But to-night
I had the great table spread, and the plate
set out, and wore my best gown, and solemnly
took my grandfather's chair and
glowered at the ghost of a small girl shivering
at the far end of the long white
cloth. When I had enough of this (which
was pretty soon) I ordered up some champagne
and drank the health of Theophilus
John Raymond, Demy of Magdalen College,
Oxford. I graciously poured out a
second glass for the small ghost at the other
end of the table; and it gave her the courage
to confess that she, too, in a timid
way, had taken an interest in you for years,
and hoped you were going to be a great
man. Having thus discovered a bond between
us, we grew very friendly; and we
talked a great deal about you afterward,
in the drawing-room, where I lost her for
a few minutes and found her hiding in the
great mirror over the fire-place—a habit
of hers.
It is time for me to practise ceremony,
for it seems that George and I are to be
married some time in the spring. For my
part, I think my lord would be content to
wait longer; for so long as he is happy
and sees others cheerful, he is not one to
hurry or worry. But Sir Harry is the impatient
one, and has begun to talk of his
decease. He doesn't believe in it a bit,
and at times when he composes his features
and attempts to be lugubrious I have
to take up a book and hide my smiles.
But he is clever enough to see that it
bothers George.
I saw both your father and mother this
morning. Mr. Raymond has been kept
to the house by a chill; nothing serious;
but he is fretting to be out again and at
work in that draughty church. He will
accept no help; and the mistress of Tredinnis
has no right to press it on him. I
shall never understand men and how they
fight. I supposed that the war lay between
him and my grandfather. But it seems he
was fighting an idea all the while; for here
is my grandfather beaten and dead and
gone; and still the Vicar will give no
quarter. If you had not assured me that
your demy-ship means eighty pounds a
year, I could believe that men fight for
shadows only. Your mother and grandmother
are both well....
It was a raw December afternoon—within
a week of the end of term—and
Taffy had returned from skating in Christ
Church meadow, when he found a telegram
lying on his table. There was just
time to see the Dean, to pack, and to
snatch a meal in hall, before rattling off
to his train. At Didcot he had the best
part of an hour to wait for the night-mail
westward.
"Your father dangerously ill. Come at
once."
There was no signature. Yet Taffy
knew who had ridden to the office with
that telegram. The flying darkness held
visions of her, and the express throbbed
westward to the beat of Aide-de-camp's
gallop. Nor was he surprised at all to
find her on the platform at Truro station.
The Tredinnis phaeton was waiting outside.
He seemed to her but a boy after all,
as he stepped out of the train in the chill
dawn; a wan-faced boy and sorely in need
of comfort.
"You must be brave," said she, gathering
up the reins as he climbed to the seat
beside her.
Surely yes; he had been telling himself
this very thing all night. The groom
hoisted in his portmanteau, and with a
slam of the door they were off. The cold
air sang past Taffy's ears. It put vigor
into him, and his courage rose as he faced
his shattered prospects, shattered dreams.
He must be strong now, for his mother's
sake; a man to work and be leant upon.
And so it was that whereas Honoria
had found him a boy, Humility found him
a man. As her arms went about him in
her grief, she felt his body, that it was
taller, broader; and knew, in the midst of
her tears, that this was not the child she
had parted from seven short weeks ago,
but a man to act and give orders and be
relied upon.
"He called for you ... many
times," was all she could say.
For Taffy had come too late. Mr.
Raymond was dead. He had aggravated
a slight chill by going back to his work
too soon, and the bitter draughts of the
church had cut him down within sight of
his goal. A year before, he might have
been less impatient. The chill struck into
his lungs. On December 1st he had
taken to his bed, and he never rallied.
"He called for me?"
"Many times."
They went up the stairs together and
stood beside the bed. The thought uppermost
in Taffy's mind was—"He called
for me. He wanted me. He was my
father, and I never knew him."
But Humility in her sorrow groped
amid such questions as these: "What has
happened? Who am I? Am I she who
yesterday had a husband, and a child?
To-day my husband is gone, and my child
is no longer the same child."
In her room old Mrs. Venning remembered
the first days of her own widowhood;
and life seemed to her a very short
affair, after all.
Honoria saw Taffy beside the grave.
It was no season for out-of-door flowers
and she had rifled her hot-houses for a
wreath. The exotics shivered in the northwesterly
wind; they looked meaningless,
impertinent, in the gusty churchyard.
Humility, before the coffin left the house,
had brought the dead man's old blue working-blouse
and spread it for a pall. No
flowers grew in the parsonage garden; but
pressed in her Bible lay a very little bunch
gathered, years ago, in the meadows by
Honiton. This she divided and, unseen
by anyone, pinned the half upon the breast
of the patched garment.
On the evening after the funeral and for
the next day or two she was strangely
quiet, and seemed to be waiting for Taffy
to make some sign. Dearly as mother
and son loved one another, they had to
find their new positions, each toward each.
Now Taffy had known nothing of his parents'
income. He assumed that it was
little enough, and that he must now leave
Oxford and work to support the household.
He knew some Latin and Greek;
but without a degree he had little chance
of teaching what he knew. He was a fair
carpenter, and a more than passable smith....
He revolved many schemes, but
chiefly found himself wondering what it
would cost to enter an architect's office.
"I suppose," said he, "father left no
will?"
"Oh, yes, he did," said Humility, and
produced it—a single sheet of foolscap
signed on her wedding-day. It gave her
all her husband's property absolutely—whatever
it might be.
"Well," said Taffy, "I'm glad. I
suppose there's enough for you to rent
a small cottage, while I look about for
work?"
"Who talks about your finding work?
You will go back to Oxford, of course."
"Oh, shall I?" said Taffy, taken aback.
"Certainly; it was your father's wish."
"But the money?"
"With your scholarship there's enough
to keep you there for the four years. After
that, no doubt, you will be earning a good
income."
"But—" He remembered what
had been said about the lace-money, and
could not help wondering.
"Taffy," said his mother, touching his
hand, "leave all this to me until your degree
is taken. You have a race to run
and must not start unprepared. If you
could have seen his joy when the news
came of the demy-ship!"
Taffy kissed her and went up to his
room. He found his books laid out on
the little table there.
4
Tredinnis, February 13, 18—.
My dear Taffy:
I have a valentine for you, if you care
to accept it; but I don't suppose you will,
and indeed I hope in my heart that you
will not. But I must offer it. Your
father's living is vacant, and my trustees
(that is to say, Sir Harry; for the other,
a second cousin of mine, who lives in
London, never interferes) can put in someone
as a stop-gap, thus allowing me to
present you to it, when the time comes,
if you have any thought of Holy Orders.
You will understand exactly why I offer
it; and also, I hope, you will know that
I think it wholly unworthy of you. But
turn it over in your mind and give me
your answer.
George and I are to be married at the
end of April. May is an unlucky month.
It shall be a week—even a fortnight—earlier,
if that fits in with your vacation, and
you care to come. See how obliging I am!
I yield to you what I have refused to Sir
Harry. We shall try to persuade the
Bishop to come and open the church on
the same day.
Always your friend,
Honoria.
5
Tredinnis, February 21st.
My dear Taffy:
No, I am not offended in the least;
but very glad. I do not think you are
fitted for the priesthood; but my doubts
have nothing to do with your doubts, which
I don't understand, though you tried to
explain them so carefully. You will come
through them, I expect. I don't know
that I have any reasons that could be put
on paper; only, somehow, I cannot see
you in a black coat and clerical hat.
You complain that I never write about
George. You don't deserve to hear, since
you refuse to come to our wedding. But
would you talk, if you happened to be in
love? There, I have told you more than
ever I've told George, whose quiet conceit
has to be kept down. Let this console
you.
Our new Parson, when he comes, is to
lodge down in Innis Village. Your mother—but
no doubt she has told you—stays
in the Parsonage while she pleases. She
and your grandmother are both well. I
see her every day. I have so much to
learn and she is so wise. Her beautiful
eyes—but oh, Taffy, it must be terrible to
be a widow! She smiles and is always
cheerful; but the look in them! How can
I describe it? When I find her alone,
with her lace-work, or sometimes (but it
is not often) with her hands in her lap,
she seems to come out of her silence with
an effort, as others withdraw themselves
from talk. I wonder if she does talk, in
those silences of hers. Another thing—it
is only a few weeks now since she put on
a widow's cap, and yet I cannot remember
her—can scarcely picture her—without
it. I am sure that if I happened to
call one day when she had laid it aside, I
should begin to talk quite as if we were
strangers.
Believe me, yours sincerely,
Honoria.
But the wedding, after all, did not take
place until the beginning of October, a
week before the close of the Long Vacation;
and Taffy, after all, was present.
The postponement had been enforced
by many delays in building and furnishing
the new wing at Carwithiel; for Sir
Harry insisted that the young couple must
live under one roof with him, and Honoria
(as we know) hated the very stones
of Tredinnis.
The Bishop came to spend a week in
the neighborhood, the first three days as
Honoria's guest. On the Saturday he
consecrated the work of restoration in the
Church and, in the afternoon, held a confirmation
service. Taffy and Honoria
knelt together to receive his blessing. It
was the girl's wish. The shadow of her
responsibility to God and man lay heavy
on her during the few months before her
marriage, and Taffy, already weary and
dispirited with his early doubtings, suffered
her mood of exaltation to overcome
him like a wave and sweep him back to
rest for a while on the still waters of faith.
Together they listened while the Bishop
discoursed on the dead Vicar's labors with
fluency and feeling; with so much feeling,
indeed, that Taffy could not help
wondering why his father had been left
to fight the battle alone.
On the Sunday and Monday two near
parishes claimed the Bishop. On the
Tuesday he sent his luggage over to Carwithiel,
whither he was to follow after the
wedding service, to spend a day or two
with Sir Harry. It had been Honoria's
wish that George should choose Taffy for
his best man; but George had already invited
one of his sporting friends, a young
Squire Philpotts from the eastern side of
the Duchy; and as the date fell at the
beginning of the hunting season, he insisted
on a "pink" wedding. Honoria consulted
the Bishop by letter. "Did he
approve of a 'pink' wedding so soon
after the bride's confirmation?" The
Bishop saw no harm in it.
So a "pink" wedding it was, and the
scarlet coats made a lively patch of color
in the gray churchyard; but it gave Taffy
a feeling that he was left out in the cold.
He escorted his mother to the church,
and left her for a few minutes in the Vicarage
pew. The bridegroom and his
friends were gathered in a showy cluster
by the chancel step, but the bride had
not arrived, and he stepped out to help in
marshalling the crowd of miners and mine-girls,
fishermen, and mothers with unruly
children—a hundred or so in all, lining
the path or straggling among the graves.
Close by the gate he came on a girl
who stood alone.
"Hullo, Lizzie—you here?"
"Why not?" she asked, looking at
him sullenly.
"Oh, no reason at all."
"There might ha' been a reason,"
said she, speaking low and hurriedly.
"You might ha' saved me from this, Mr.
Raymond; and her too; one time, you
might."
"Why, what on earth is the matter?"
He looked up. The Tredinnis carriage
and pair of grays came over the knoll at a
smart trot and drew up before the gate.
"Matter?" Lizzie echoed with a short
laugh. "Oh, nuthin'. I'm goin' to lay
the curse on her, that's all."
"You shall not!" There was no time
to lose. Honoria's trustee—the second
cousin from London—a tall, clean-shaven
man with a shiny, bald head, and a shiny
hat in his hand—had stepped out and was
helping the bride to alight. What Lizzie
meant Taffy could not tell; but there
must be no scene. He caught her hand.
"Mind—I say you shall not!" he whispered.
"Lemme go—you're creamin' my fingers."
"Be quiet, then."
At that moment Honoria passed up the
path. Her wedding gown almost brushed
him as he stood wringing Lizzie's hand.
She did not appear to see him; but he saw
her face beneath the bridal veil, and it was
hard and white.
"The proud toad!" said Lizzie. "I'm
no better'n dirt, I suppose, though from
the start she wasn' above robbin' me.
Aw, she's sly.... Mr. Raymond, I'll
curse her as she comes out, see if I don't!"
"And I swear you shall not," said Taffy.
The scent of Honoria's orange-blossom
seemed to cling about them as they stood.
Lizzie looked at him vindictively. "You
wanted her yourself, I know. You weren't
good enough, neither. Let go my fingers!"
"Go home, now. See, the people have
all gone in."
"Go'st way in, too, then, and leave me
here to wait for her."
Taffy shut his teeth, let go her hand, and
taking her by the shoulders swung her
round, face toward the gate.
"March!" he commanded, and she
moved off whimpering. Once she looked
back. "March!" he repeated, and followed
her down the road as one follows
and threatens a mutinous dog.
The scene by the church gate had puzzled
Honoria, and in her first letter (written
from Italy) she came straight to the point,
as her custom was. "I hope there is nothing
between you and that girl who used to
be at Joll's. I say nothing about our hopes
for you, but you have your own career to
look to; and as I know you are too honorable
to flatter an ignorant girl when you
mean nothing, so I trust you are too wise
to be caught by a foolish fancy. Forgive
a staid matron (of one week's standing)
for writing so plainly; but what I saw
made me uneasy; without cause, no doubt.
Your future, remember, is not yours only.
And now I shall trust you, and never come
back to this subject.
"We are like children abroad," she went
on. "George's French is wonderful, but
not so wonderful as his Italian. When he
goes to take a ticket, he first of all shouts
the name of the station he wishes to arrive
at (for some reason he believes all foreigners
to be deaf); then he begins counting
down francs one by one, very slowly,
watching the clerk's face. When the
clerk's face tells him he has doled out
enough, he shouts 'Hold hard!' and
clutches the ticket. It takes time; but all
the people here are friends with him at
once—especially the children, whom he
punches in the ribs and tells to 'buck up.'
Their mothers nod and smile and openly
admire him; and I—well, I am happy,
and want everyone else to be happy!"
It was May morning, and
Taffy made one of the
group gathered on the roof
of Magdalen Tower. In the
groves below and across the
river-meadows all the birds
were singing together. Beyond the glimmering
suburbs, St. Clement's and Cowley
St. John, over the dark rise by Bullingdon
Green, the waning moon seemed to stand
still and wait poised on her nether horn.
Below her the morning sky waited, clean
and virginal, letting her veil of mist slip
lower and lower until it rested in folds
upon the high woodlands and pastures.
While it dropped, a shaft of light tore
through it and smote flashing on the vane
high above Taffy's head, turning the dark
side of the turrets to purple and casting
lilac shadows on the surplices of the choir.
For a moment the whole dewy shadow of
the tower trembled on the western sky,
and melted and was gone as a flood of
gold broke on the eastward-turned faces.
The clock below struck five, and ceased.
There was a sudden baring of heads; a
hush; and gently, borne aloft on boys'
voices, clear and strong, rose the first notes
of the hymn—
Te Deum Patrem colimus,
Te laudibus prosequimur,
Qui corpus cibo reficis,
Coelesti mentem gratia.
In the pauses Taffy heard, faint and far
below, the noise of cowhorns blown by the
street boys gathered at the foot of the
tower and beyond the bridge. Close beside
him a small urchin of a chorister was
singing away with the face of an ecstatic
seraph; whence that ecstasy arose the
urchin would have been puzzled to tell.
There flashed into Taffy's brain the vision
of the whole earth lauding and adoring—sun-worshippers
and Christians, priests and
small children; nation after nation prostrating
itself and arising to join the chant—"the
differing world's agreeing sacrifice."
Yes; it was Praise that made men
brothers; praise, the creature's first and
last act of homage to his Creator; praise
that made him kin with the angels. Praise
had lifted this tower; had expressed itself
in its soaring pinnacles; and he for the
moment was incorporate with the tower
and part of its builder's purpose. "Lord,
make men as towers!"—he remembered
his father's prayer in the field by Tewkesbury;
and at last he understood. "All
towers carry a lamp of some kind"—why,
of course they did. He looked about
him. The small chorister's face was
glowing—
Triune Deus, hominum
Salutis auctor optime,
Immensum hoc mysterium
Ovante lingua canimus!
Silence—and then with a shout the tunable
bells broke forth, rocking the tower.
Someone seized Taffy's college-cap and
sent it spinning over the battlements.
Caps? For a second or two they darkened
the sky like a flock of birds. A few gowns
followed, expanding as they dropped, like
clumsy parachutes. The company—all
but a few severe dons and their friends—tumbled
laughing down the ladder, down
the winding stair, and out into sunshine.
The world was pagan after all.
At breakfast Taffy found a letter on his
table, addressed in his mother's hand. As
a rule she wrote twice a week, and this
was not one of the usual days for hearing
from her. But nothing was too good to
happen that morning. He snatched up
the letter and broke the seal.
"My dearest boy," it ran, "I want
you home at once to consult with me.
Something has happened (forgive me, dear,
for not preparing you; but the blow fell
on me yesterday so suddenly)—something
which makes it doubtful, and more than
doubtful, that you can continue at Oxford.
And something else they say has happened
which I will never believe in unless I hear
it from my boy's lips. I have this comfort,
at any rate, that he will never tell me
a falsehood. This is a matter which cannot
be explained by letter, and cannot
wait until the end of term. Come home
quickly, dear; for until you are here I can
have no peace of mind."
So once again Taffy travelled homeward
by the night mail.
"Mother, it's a lie!"
Taffy's face was hot, but he looked
straight into his mother's eyes. She, too,
was rosy-red, being ever a shamefast
woman. And to speak of these things to
her own boy—
"Thank God!" she murmured, and
her fingers gripped the arms of her chair.
"It's a lie! Where is the girl?"
"She is in the workhouse. I don't
know who spread it, or how many have
heard. But Honoria believes it."
"Honoria! She cannot—" He came
to a sudden halt. "But, mother, even
supposing Honoria believes it, I don't
see—"
He was looking straight at her. Her
eyes sank. Light began to break in on
him.
"Mother!"
Humility did not look up.
"Mother! Don't tell me that she—that
Honoria—"
"She made us promise—your father
and me.... God knows it did no
more than repay what your father had
suffered.... Your future was everything
to us...."
"And I have been maintained at Oxford
by her money," he said, pausing in
his bitterness on every word.
"Not by that only, Taffy! There
was your scholarship ... and it was
true about my savings on the lace-work...."
But he brushed her feeble explanations
away with a little gesture of impatience.
"Oh, why, mother? Oh, why?"
She heard him groan and stretched out
her arms.
"Taffy, forgive me—forgive us! We
did wrongly, I see—I see it as plain now
as you. But we did it for your sake."
"You should have told me. I was not
a child. Yes, yes, you should have told
me."
Yes; there lay the truth. They had treated
him as a child when he was no longer
a child. They had swathed him round
with love, forgetting that boys grow and
demand to see with their own eyes and
walk on their own feet. To every mother
of sons there comes sooner or later the
sharp lesson which came to Humility that
morning; and few can find any defence
but that which Humility stammered, sitting
in her chair and gazing piteously up at the
tall youth confronting her: "I did it for
your sake." Be pitiful, O accusing sons,
in that hour! For, terrible as your case
may be against them, your mothers are
speaking the simple truth.
Taffy took her hand "The money
must be paid back, every penny of it."
"Yes, dear."
"How much?"
Humility kept a small account-book in
the work-box beside her. She opened the
pages, but, seeing his outstretched hand,
gave it obediently to Taffy, who took it to
the window.
"Almost two hundred pounds." He
knit his brows and began to drum with
his fingers on the window-pane. "And
we must put the interest at five per cent....
With my first in moderations I
might find some post as an usher in a
small school.... There's an agency
which puts you in the way of such things;
I must look up the address.... We
will leave this house, of course."
"Must we?"
"Why, of course, we must. We are living
here by her favor. A cottage will
do—only it must have four rooms, because
of grandmother.... I will
step over and talk with Mendarva. He
may be able to give me a job. It will
keep me going, at any rate, until I hear
from the agency."
"You forget that I have over forty
pounds a year—or, rather, mother has.
The capital came from the sale of her farm,
years ago."
"Did it?" said Taffy, grimly. "You
forget that I have never been told. Well,
that's good, so far as it goes. But now
I'll step over and see Mendarva. If only
I could catch this cowardly lie somewhere,
on my way!"
He kissed his mother, caught up his
cap, and flung out of the house. The sea-breeze
came humming across the sandhills.
He opened his lungs to it, and it
was wine to his blood; he felt fit and
strong enough to slay dragons. "But
who could the liar be? Not Lizzie herself,
surely? Not—"
He pulled up short, in a hollow of the
towans.
"Not—George?"
Treachery is a hideous thing, and to
youth so incomprehensibly hideous that it
darkens the sun. Yet every trusting man
must be betrayed. That was one of the
lessons of Christ's life on earth. It is the
last and severest test; it kills many, morally,
and no man who has once met and
looked it in the face departs the same man,
though he may be a stronger one.
"Not George?"
Taffy stood there so still that the rabbits
crept out and, catching sight of him,
paused in the mouths of their burrows.
When at length he moved on, it was to
take, not the path which wound inland to
Mendarva's, but the one which led straight
over the higher moors to Carwithiel.
It was between one and two o'clock
when he reached the house and asked to
see Mr. or Mrs. George Vyell. They
were not at home, the footman said; had
left for Falmouth, the evening before, to
join some friends on a yachting cruise.
Sir Harry was at home; was, indeed,
lunching at that moment; but would no
doubt be pleased to see Mr. Raymond.
Sir Harry had finished his lunch and sat
sipping his claret and tossing scraps of biscuit
to the dogs.
"Hullo, Raymond!—thought you were
in Oxford. Sit down, my boy; delighted
to see you. Thomas, a knife and fork for
Mr. Raymond. The cutlets are cold, I'm
afraid, but I can recommend the cold
saddle, and the ham—it's a York ham.
Go to the sideboard and forage for yourself.
I wanted company. My boy and
Honoria are at Falmouth, yachting, and
have left me alone. What, you won't
eat? A glass of claret then, at any
rate."
"To tell the truth, Sir Harry," Taffy
began, awkwardly, "I've come on a disagreeable
business."
Sir Harry's face fell. He hated disagreeable
business. He flipped a piece of
biscuit at his spaniel's nose and sat back,
crossing his legs.
"Won't it keep?"
"To me it's important."
"Oh, fire away then; only help yourself
to the claret first."
"A girl—Lizzie Pezzack, living over at
Langona—has had a child born—"
"Stop a moment. Do I know her?—Ah,
to be sure—daughter of old Pezzack,
the light-keeper—a brown-colored girl
with her hair over her eyes. Well, I'm not
surprised. Wants money, I suppose?
Who's the father?"
"I don't know."
"Well, but—damn it all!—somebody
knows." Sir Harry reached for the bottle
and refilled his glass.
"The one thing I know is that Honoria—Mrs.
George, I mean—has heard about it,
and suspects me."
Sir Harry lifted his glass and glanced
at him over the rim. "That's the devil.
Does she, now?" He sipped. "She hasn't
been herself for a day or two—this explains
it. I thought it was change of air
she wanted. She's in the deuce of a rage,
you bet."
"She is," said Taffy, grimly.
"There's no prude like your young married
woman. But it'll blow over, my boy.
My advice to you is to keep out of the way
for a while."
"But—but it's a lie!" broke in the indignant
Taffy. "As far as I am concerned
there's not a grain of truth in it!"
"Oh—I beg your pardon, I'm sure."
Here Honoria's terrier (the one which
George had bought for her at Plymouth)
interrupted by begging for a biscuit, and
Sir Harry balanced one carefully on its
nose. "On trust—good dog! What
does the girl say herself?"
"I don't know. I've not seen her."
"Then, my dear fellow—it's awkward,
I admit—but I'm dashed if I see what
you expect me to do." The baronet
pulled out a handkerchief and began flicking
the crumbs off his knees.
Taffy watched him for a minute in
silence. He was asking himself why he
had come. Well, he had come in a hot
fit of indignation, meaning to face Honoria
and force her to take back the insult of
her suspicion. But after all—suppose
George were at the bottom of it? Clearly
Sir Harry knew nothing, and in any case
could not be asked to expose his own son.
And Honoria? Let be that she would
never believe—that he had no proof, no
evidence even—this were a pretty way of
beginning to discharge his debt to her!
The terrier thrust a cold muzzle against
his hand. The room was very still. Sir
Harry poured out another glassful and
held out the decanter. "Come, you must
drink; I insist!"
Taffy looked up. "Thank you, I will."
He could now and with a clear conscience.
In those quiet moments he had
taken the great resolution. The debt
should be paid back, and with interest;
not at five per cent., but at a rate beyond
the creditor's power of reckoning. For the
interest to be guarded for her should be
her continued belief in the man she loved.
Yes, but if George were innocent? Why,
then, the sacrifice would be idle; that was
all.
He swallowed the wine, and stood up.
"Must you be going? I wanted a chat
with you about Oxford," grumbled Sir
Harry; but noting the lad's face, how
white and drawn it was, he relented and
put a hand on his shoulder. "Don't take
it too seriously, my boy. It'll blow over—it'll
blow over. Honoria likes you, I
know. We'll see what the trollop says;
and if I get a chance of putting in a good
word, you may depend on me."
He walked with Taffy to the door—good,
easy man—and waved a hand from
the porch. On the whole he was rather
glad than not to see his young friend's
back.
From his smithy window Mendarva
spied Taffy coming along the road, and
stepped out on the green to shake hands
with him.
"Pleased to see your face, my son!
You'll excuse my not askin' 'ee inside;
but the fact is"—he jerked his thumb toward
the smithy—"we've a-got our
troubles in there."
It came on our youth with something of
a shock, that the world had room for any
trouble beside his own.
"'Tis the Dane. He went over to
Truro yesterday to the wrastlin', an' got
thrawed. I tell'n there's no need to be
shamed. 'Twas Luke the Wendron fella
did it—in the treble play—inside lock
backward, and as pretty a chip as ever
I see." Mendarva began to illustrate it
with foot and ankle, but checked himself
and glanced nervously over his shoulder.
"Isn' lookin', I hope? He's in a terrible
pore about it. Won't trust hissel' to spake
and don't want to see nobody. But, as
I tell'n, there's no need to be shamed; the
fella took the belt in the las' round and
turned his man over like a tab. He's a
proper angletwitch, that Wendron fella.
Stank 'pon en both ends, and he'll rise up
in the middle and look at 'ee. There was
no one a patch on en but the Dane; and
I'll back the Dane next time they clinch.
'Tis a nuisance, though, to have'n like
this—with a big job coming on, too, over
to the light-house."
Taffy looked steadily at the smith.
"What's doing at the light-house?"
"Ha'n't 'ee heerd?" Mendarva began
a long tale, the sum of which was that the
light-house had begun of late to show
signs of age, to rock at times in an ominous
manner. The Trinity House surveyor
had been down, and reported, and Mendarva
had the contract for some immediate
repairs. "But 'tis patching an old kettle,
my son. The foundations be clamped
down to the rock, and the clamps have
worked loose. The whole thing'll have
to come down in the end; you mark my
words."
"But, these repairs?" Taffy interrupted.
"You'll be wanting hands."
"Why, o' course."
"And a foreman—a clerk of the
works—"
While Mendarva was telling his tale,
over a hill two miles to the westward a
small donkey-cart crawled for a minute
against the skyline and disappeared beyond
the ridge which hid the towans. An
old man trudged at the donkey's head;
and a young woman sat in the cart with a
bundle in her arms.
The old man trudged along so deep in
thought that when the donkey without
rhyme or reason came to a halt, half-way
down the hill, he, too, halted, and stood
pulling a wisp of gray side-whiskers.
"Look here," he said. "You ent goin'
to tell? That's your las' word, is it?"
The young woman looked down on the
bundle and nodded her head.
"There, that'll do. If you weant, you
weant; I've tek'n 'ee back, an' us must fit
and make the best o't. The cheeld'll never
be fit for much—born lame like that. But
'twas to be, I s'pose."
Lizzie sat dumb, but hugged the bundle
closer.
"'Tis like a judgment. If your mother'd
been spared, 'twudn' have happened. But
'twas to be, I s'pose. The Lord's ways
be past findin' out."
He woke up and struck the donkey
across the rump.
"Gwan you! Gee up! What d'ee mean
by stoppin' like that?"
The Chief Engineer of the
Trinity House was a man
of few words. He and
Taffy had spent the afternoon
clambering about the
rocks below the light-house,
peering into its foundations. Here and
there, where weed coated the rocks and
made foothold slippery, he took the hand
which Taffy held out. Now and then he
paused for a pinch of snuff. The round
of inspection finished, he took an extraordinarily
long pinch.
"What's your opinion?" he asked,
cocking his head on one side and examining
the young man much as he had examined
the light-house. "You have one,
I suppose."
"Yes, sir; but of course it doesn't
count for much."
"I asked for it."
"Well, then, I think, sir, we have wasted
a year's work; and if we go on tinkering,
we shall waste more."
"Pull it down and rebuild, you say?"
"Yes, sir; but not on the same rock."
"Why?"
"This rock was ill-chosen. You see,
sir, just here a ridge of elvan crops up
through the slate; the rock, out yonder,
is good elvan, and that is why the sea has
made an island of it, wearing away the
softer stuff inshore. The mischief here lies
in the rock, not in the light-house."
"The sea has weakened our base?"
"Partly; but the light-house has done
more. In a strong gale the foundations
begin to work, and in the chafing the bed
of rock gets the worst of it."
"What about concrete?"
"You might fill up the sockets with
concrete; but I doubt, sir, if the case
would hold for any time. The rock is a
mere shell in places, especially on the
northwestern side."
"H'm. You were at Oxford for a time,
were you not?"
"Yes, sir," Taffy answered, wondering.
"I've heard about you. Where do
you live?"
Taffy pointed to the last of a line of
three whitewashed cottages behind the
light-house.
"Alone?"
"No, sir; with my mother and my
grandmother. She is an invalid."
"I wonder if your mother would be
kind enough to offer me a cup of tea?"
In the small kitchen, on the walls of
which, and even on the dresser, Taffy's
books fought for room with Humility's
plates and tin-ware, the Chief Engineer
proved to be a most courteous old gentleman.
Toward Humility he bore himself
with an antique politeness which flattered
her considerably. And when he praised
her tea, she almost forgave him for his detestable
habit of snuff-taking.
He had heard something (it appeared)
from the President of Taffy's college, and
also from — (he named Taffy's old
friend in the velvet college-cap). In later
days Taffy maintained not only that every
man must try to stand alone, but that he
ought to try the harder because of its impossibility;
for in fact it was impossible
to escape from men's helpfulness. And
though his work lay in lonely places where
in the end fame came out to seek him, he
remained the same boy who, waking in
the dark, had heard the bugles speaking
comfort.
As a matter of fact his college had generously
offered him a chance, which would
have cost him nothing or next to nothing,
of continuing to read for his degree. But
he had chosen his line, and against Humility's
entreaties he stuck to it. The Chief
Engineer took a ceremonious leave. He
had to drive back to his hotel, and Taffy
escorted him to his carriage.
"I shall run over again to-morrow," he
said at parting; "and we'll have a look
at that island rock." He was driven off,
secretly a little puzzled.
Well, it puzzled Taffy at times why he
should be working here with Mendarva's
men for twenty shillings a week (it had
been eighteen to begin with) when he
might be reading for his degree and a fellowship.
Yet in his heart he knew the
reason. That would be building, after all,
on the foundations which Honoria had
laid.
Pride had helped chance to bring him
here, to the very spot where Lizzie Pezzack
lived. He met her daily, and several times
a day. She, and his mother and grandmother,
were all the womanfolk in the hamlet—if
three cottages deserve that name.
In the first cottage Lizzie lived with her
father, who was chief lighthouse-man, and
her crippled child; two under-keepers,
unmarried men, managed together in the
second; and this accident allowed Taffy
to rent the third from the Brethren of the
Trinity House and live close to his daily
work. Unless brought by business, no
one visited that windy peninsula; no one
passed within sight of it; no tree grew
upon it or could be seen from it. At daybreak
Taffy's workmen came trudging
along the track where the short turf and
gentians grew between the wheel-ruts; and
in the evening went trudging back, the
level sun flashing on their empty dinner-cans.
The eight souls left behind had one
common gospel—Cleanliness. Very little
dust found its way thither; but the salt,
spray-laden air kept them constantly polishing
window-panes and brass-work. To
wash, to scour, to polish, grew into the
one absorbing business of life. They had
no gossip; even in their own dwellings
they spoke but little; their speech shrank
and dwindled away in the continuous roar
of the sea. But from morning to night,
mechanically, they washed and scoured
and polished. Paper was not whiter than
the deal table and dresser which Humility
scrubbed daily with soap and water, and
once a week with lemon-juice as well.
Never was cleaner linen to sight and smell
than that which she pegged out by the
furze-brake on the ridge. All the life of
the small colony, though lonely, grew
wholesome as it was simple of purpose in
cottages thus sweetened and kept sweet
by lime-wash and the salt wind.
And through it moved the forlorn figure
of Lizzie Pezzack's child. Somehow
Lizzie had taught the boy to walk, with
the help of a crutch, as early as most children;
but the wind made cruel sport with
his first efforts in the open, knocking the
crutch from under him at every third step,
and laying him flat. The child had pluck,
however, and when autumn came round
again, could face a fairly stiff breeze.
It was about this time that word came
of the Trinity Board's intention to replace
the old light-house with one upon the
outer rock. For the Chief Engineer had
visited it and decided that Taffy was right.
To be sure no mention was made of Taffy
in his report; but the great man took
the first opportunity to offer him the post
of foreman of the works, so there was
certainly nothing to be grumbled at. The
work did not actually start until the
following spring; for the rock, to receive
the foundations, had to be bored some
feet below high-water level, and this could
only be attempted on calm days or when
a southerly wind blew from the high land
well over the workmen's heads, leaving
the inshore water smooth. On such days
Taffy, looking up from his work, would
catch sight of a small figure on the cliff-top
leaning aslant to the wind and watching.
For the child was adventurous and
took no account of his lameness. Perhaps
if he thought of it at all, having no
chance to compare himself with other
children, he accepted his lameness as a
condition of childhood—something he
would grow out of. His mother could
not keep him indoors; he fidgetted continually.
But he would sit or stand quiet
by the hour on the cliff-top, watching the
men as they drilled and fixed the dynamite,
and waiting for the bang of it. Best
of all, however, were the days when his
grandfather allowed him inside the lighthouse,
to clamber about the staircase and
ladders, to watch the oiling and trimming
of the great lantern and the ships moving
slowly on the horizon. He asked a thousand
questions about them.
"I think," said he, one day before he
was three years old, "that my father is in
one of those ships."
"Bless the child!" exclaimed old Pezzack.
"Who says you have a father?"
"Everybody has a father. Dicky Tregenza
has one; they both work down at
the rock. I asked Dicky and he told
me."
"Told 'ee what?"
"That everybody has a father. I
asked him if mine was out in one of those
ships, and he said very likely. I asked
mother, too, but she was washing-up and
wouldn't listen."
Old Pezzack regarded the child grimly.
"'Twas to be, I s'pose," he muttered.
Lizzie Pezzack had never set foot inside
the Raymonds' cottage. Humility,
gentle soul as she was, could on some
points be as unchristian as other women.
As time went on, it seemed that not a soul
beside herself and Taffy knew of Honoria's
suspicion. She even doubted, and Taffy
doubted, too, if Lizzie herself knew such
an accusation had been made. Certainly
never by word or look had Lizzie hinted
at it. Yet Humility could not find it in
her heart to forgive her. "She may be
innocent," was the thought; "but through
her came the injury to my son." Taffy
by this time had no doubt at all. It was
George who poisoned Honoria's ear;
George's shame and Honoria's pride
would explain why the whisper had never
gone further; and nothing else would explain.
Did his mother guess this? He believed
so at times; but they never spoke
of it.
The lame child was often in the Raymonds'
kitchen. Lizzie did not forbid or
resent this. And he liked Humility and
would talk to her at length while he nibbled
one of her dripping-cakes. "People
don't tell the truth," he observed,
sagely, on one of these occasions. (He
pronounced it "troof," by the way.)
"I know why we live here. It's because
we're near the sea. My father's on the
sea somewhere, looking for us; and grandfather
lights the lamp every night to tell
him where we are. One night he'll see it
and bring his ship in and take us all off
together."
"Who told you all this?"
"Nobody. People won't tell me nothing
(nofing). I has to make it out in my
head."
At times, when his small limbs grew
weary (though he never acknowledged
this), he would stretch himself on the short
turf of the headland and lie staring up at
the white gulls. No one ever came near
enough to surprise the look which then
crept over the child's face. But Taffy,
passing him at a distance, remembered
another small boy, and shivered to remember
and compare—
A boy's will is the wind's will
And the thoughts of youth are long, long thoughts.
—but how, when the boy is a cripple?
One afternoon he was stooping to inspect
an obstinate piece of boring when
the man at his elbow said:
"Hullo! edn' that young Joey Pezzack
in difficulties up there? Blest if the cheeld
won't break his neck wan of these days!"
Taffy caught up a coil of rope, sprang
into a boat, and pushed across to land.
"Don't move!" he shouted. At the foot of
the cliff he picked up Joey's crutch, and ran
at full speed up the path worn by the workmen.
This led him round to the verge,
ten feet above the ledge where the child
clung white and silent. He looped the
rope in a running noose and lowered it.
"Slip this under your arms. Can you
manage, or shall I come down? I'll come
if you're hurt."
"I've twisted my foot. It's all right,
now you're come," said the little man,
bravely; and slid the rope round himself
in the most businesslike way.
"The grass was slipper—" he began,
as soon as his feet touched firm earth; and
with that he broke down and fell to sobbing
in Taffy's arms.
Taffy carried him—a featherweight—to
the cottage where Lizzie stood by her
table washing up. She saw them at the
gate and came running out.
"It's all right. He slipped—out on the
cliff. Nothing more than a scratch or two
and perhaps a sprained ankle."
He watched while she set Joey in a
chair and began to pull off his stockings.
He had never seen the child's foot naked.
She turned suddenly, caught him looking,
and pulled the stocking back over the deformity.
"Have you heard?" she asked.
"What?"
"She has a boy! Ah!" she laughed,
harshly, "I thought that would hurt you.
Well, you have been a silly!"
"I don't think I understand."
"You don't think you understand!"
she mimicked. "And you're not fond of
her, eh? Never were fond of her, eh?
You silly—to let him take her, and never
tell!"
"Tell?"
She faced him, hardening her gaze.
"Yes, tell—" She nodded slowly; while
Joey, unobserved by either, looked up with
wide, round eyes.
"Men don't fight like that." The words
were out before it struck him that one
man had, almost certainly, fought like that.
Her face, however, told him nothing. She
could not know. "You have never told,"
he added.
"Because—" she began, but could not
tell him the whole truth. And yet what
she said was true. "Because you would
not let me," she muttered.
"In the churchyard, you mean—on her
wedding-day?"
"Before that."
"But before that I never guessed."
"All the same, I knew what you were.
You wouldn't have let me. It came to
the same thing. And if I had told—Oh,
you make it hard for me!" she wailed.
He stared at her, understanding this
only—that somehow he could control her
will.
"I will never let you tell," he said,
gravely.
"I hate her!"
"You shall not tell."
"Listen"—she drew close and touched
his arm. "He never cared for her; it's
not his way to care. She cares for him
now, I dessay—not as she might have
cared for you—but she's his wife, and
some women are like that. There's her
pride, anyway. Suppose—suppose he
came back to me?"
"If I caught him—" Taffy began;
but the poor child, who for two minutes
had been twisting his face heroically, interrupted
with a wail:
"Oh, mother! my foot—it hurts
so!"
(To be continued.)