The only way to keep a thing is to throw it away.
The only way to hold your money is to invest it.
The only way to ensure remembering a poem is to
keep repeating it to others. If you hear a good
story and attempt to keep it for your own delectation,
you will forget it in a week. Laugh over it
with every man you meet and it will ripple in
your soul for years.
It sometimes happens, when I have finished one
of these screeds of mine, that I feel a fatherly
solicitude concerning it. You sometimes grow fond
of a thing, not because you cherish an inflated conception
of its value, but because through sheer
familiarity, it has become a part of you. So I look
at these white sheets over which I have been bending
for days and into which I have poured all my
soul. I feel anxious about them. Yet it is absurd
to keep them. If I store them away I shall soon forget
their contents and my labor will all be lost.
But the printer is six hundred miles away. I think
of all the hands through which they must pass on
their way from me to him. I register them at the
Post Office, but still I think of all the risks. These
white sheets of mine are such frail and flimsy
things; an accident, a fire, and where then would
they be? But one happy morning I see my screed in
print! I feel that I have it at last! It is beyond the
reach of fire or accident. If this house is burned
down, I can obtain a copy in that one! I feel that
nothing now can rob me of the child I brought into
being. It is scattered broadcast, and, having been
scattered broadcast, is at last my very, very own!
The only way to keep a thing is to throw it away.
Achmed Ali knows that. He looks fondly at the
grain in the basket but he knows that he cannot
keep it in the barn. 'Seeds which mildew in the
garner, scattered, fill with gold the plain.' And so
he casts some of it on the land—his gilt-edged
security—and gets it back with interest; and he casts
the rest upon the water—his risky speculation—and
gets it back many times multiplied.
Saturday is the name, not so much of a day, as
of a specific phase of human experience. And it
is a great phase. We all catch ourselves at odd
moments living over again some of the unforgettable
Saturdays of long ago. In actual fact, a man may
be lounging in an armchair beside his winter fire or
sprawling on the lawn on a drowsy summer afternoon.
But, under such conditions, the actual fact
is soon relegated to oblivion. A far-away look
comes into his eyes, a wayward smile flits over his
face, and, giving rein to his fancy, he sees landscapes
on which his gaze has not rested for many a
long year. He roams at will among the golden
Saturdays of auld lang syne. He feels afresh the
mighty thrill that swept his soul when, after a long
heroic struggle, his side won that famous match
upon a certain village green; he lives again through
the fierce excitement of a paper-chase that led the
hare and hounds over the great green hills and
down through the dark pine forest in the valley;
he enjoys once more the birds'-nesting expedition in
the winding lane; and he sees, as vividly as he saw
them at the time, the shining trophies that rewarded
his fishing excursions to the millponds and
trout-streams of the outlying countryside. In those far-off
days, Saturday was the wild romance of the
week.
I remember being told by my first schoolmaster
that Saturday was named after Saturn, and that
Saturn was the planet that had rings all round it.
From that hour, by a singular confusion of ideas,
I always thought of Saturday as the day that had
the rings round it. I somehow associated the day
with the lady of the nursery rhyme who has rings
on her fingers and bells on her toes, and who, therefore,
has music wherever she goes. I liked to think
that Saturday moved among the other days of the
week in such melodious pomp and splendor. The
notion intensified the zest with which I welcomed
the great day. For Saturday was great; it was great
in its coming and great in its going. It began
gloriously and it ended gloriously. I do not mean
that it ended as it began. By no means. There is
one glory of the sun and another glory of the moon.
The glory of Saturday's dawn was one glory; the
glory of Saturday's dusk was another glory. Saturday
began like a Red Indian shouting his war-whoop
as he takes to the trail; it ended like a monk who, in
the stillness of his cloister, chants his evening hymn.
It takes a boy a minute or two, on waking, to
assure himself that it is really Saturday. He is not
quite sure of himself; the notion seems too good to
be true. He sits bolt upright; rubs his eyes; and
stares about him for some confirmation of the
joyous suspicion that is bringing the blood to his
cheeks in excitement. Is it really Saturday? He
distrusts—and not without cause—the confused
sensations of those waking moments. He made a
mistake once before; he fancied that it was Saturday;
made all his plans accordingly; and discovered
to his disgust a few minutes later that it was only
Friday after all. That Friday, at any rate, was a
most unlucky day! But Saturday! With what
tingling exhilaration and boisterous delight the conviction
that it was Saturday fastened upon us!
Saturday was our day! We raced out after breakfast
like so many colts turned loose upon the heath.
We tossed up our caps for the sheer joy of it.
Whatever the ordeals of the week had been, we forgave
all our tyrants and tormentors on Saturday
morning. And in that gracious and benignant absolution
we experienced a foretaste of the saintliness
with which the great day wore to its close.
For Saturday, however spent, reached its climax
in a consciousness of virtue so complete and so
serene and so beatific as to be almost unearthly.
Such a delicious content seldom falls within the
experience of mortals. Saturday night was bath-night;
and few sensations in life are more delectable
than the angelic self-satisfaction that overtakes the
average boy after having been subjected to the
magic discipline of hot water and clean sheets. The
outward change is wonderful; but the inward transformation
exceeds it by far. He feels good; looks
good; smells good; is good. A boy after a bath is
at peace with all the world. The week may have
gone hardly with him. Parents and teachers may
have shown a vexatious incapacity to see things
from a boy's standpoint; the proprietors of orchards
and gardens may have exhibited—perhaps even on
Saturday afternoon—a singular inflexibility in their
interpretation of the laws relating to property; the
world as a whole may have behaved in a manner
wofully inconsiderate and unjust. But on Saturday
night, under the softening influence of a hot bath
and a clean bed, a boy finds it in his heart to forgive
everything and everybody. A vast charity wells up
in his soul. As he lays his damp head on his snowy
pillow, he revokes all his harsh judgements and
cancels all his stern resolves. He will not run away
from home after all! Instead of abandoning his unfeeling
seniors to their hatred, malice and uncharitableness,
he will treat them with magnanimity
and tolerance; he will give them another chance.
It is possible—appearances to the contrary notwithstanding—that
they do not mean to be unsympathetic.
They simply do not understand. Thinking
thus the young saint falls asleep in the odor of
sanctity—and soap! The more wayward and
troublesome he has been in the daytime, the more
angelic will he appear under these new conditions.
Watching him as he slumbers, one of the Saturnian
rings seems to encompass his brow like a halo.
Saturday has come to an end!
Now, this saintly young savage of ours will learn,
as the years go by, that life itself has its Saturday
phase. Dr. Chalmers used to say that our allotted
span of three score years and ten divides itself into
seven decades corresponding with the seven days
of the week. The seventh—the stretch of life that
opens out before a man on his sixtieth birthday—is,
the doctor used to say, a Sabbatic period. In
it, he should shake himself free, as far as possible,
from the toil and moil of life, and give himself to the
cultivation of a quiet and restful spirit. That being
so, it follows that the sixth period—the period that
opens out before a man on his fiftieth birthday—is
the Saturday of life. It is a great time, every
way. Like the Saturday of the old days, and like
the Saturday of riper years, it has characteristics
peculiarly its own. On his fiftieth birthday, if
Mr. J. W. Robertson Scott is to be believed, a man
enters the gates of a new world. It is not of necessity
a better world or a worse one; it is simply a
different one. We seldom enter upon a new experience
without finding that the change has involved
us in a few drawbacks and deprivations, as well as
in some distinct benefits and advantages. The step
that a man takes on his fiftieth birthday is no exception
to this rule. Mr. Robertson Scott caught sight
of the gates of the new era some time before he
actually reached them. 'In the tram, one evening,
about six months ago, a schoolboy rose and offered
me his seat,' he tells us. The incident startled him.
A man who is still in the forties does not expect to
receive such courtesies. He consoled himself, however,
with the assumption that the attentive schoolboy
was probably a boy scout who had suddenly
realized that the day was closing in without his
having done the good deed prescribed for each
twenty-four hours of the life of the perfect Baden-Powellite.
Four months later, however, the same
thing happened again; and then, shortly after,
came the fiftieth birthday! Clearly it was Saturday
morning!
Now, the striking thing about Mr. Robertson
Scott's experience is the fact that his attainment
of his jubilee appealed to him, not as an end, but
as a beginning. It was not so much a premonition
of senility and decay as the entrance upon a fresh
phase of life. When Horace Walpole wrote to
Thomas Gray in 1766, urging him to write more
poetry, Gray replied that when a man has turned
fifty—as he had just done—there is nothing for
it but to think of finishing. He voiced the feeling
of the period. In the eighteenth century, a man
of fifty was classified among the veterans. A
hundred years later, a very different conviction
held the field. Tolstoy tells us that his fiftieth year
was the year of his greatest awakening and enlightenment;
and, in The Poet at the Breakfast
Table, Dr. Oliver Wendell Holmes makes the old
master witness to something of a similar kind. His
friends are anxious to know how and when he
acquired his wealth of wisdom; and he is able to reply
with remarkable precision: 'It was on the morning
of my fiftieth birthday that the solution of life's
great problem came to me. It took me just fifty
years to find my place in the Eternal Order of
Things.' Such testimonies go a long way towards
vindicating Mr. Robertson Scott's assumption that
the fiftieth birthday marks rather a new beginning
than a sad, regretful close. The fiftieth birthday is
Saturday morning; and who, on Saturday morning,
feels that the week is over?
On the contrary, Saturday morning is, to most
people, more insistent than any other morning
in its demands upon their energies. Walk up the
street on a Saturday afternoon, and you will see
your neighbors garbed and employed as they are
never garbed or employed on any other day. On
Saturday we weed the garden, mow the lawn and
effect the week's repairs. On Saturday we attend
to a multitude of minor matters for which we have
had no time during the week. On Saturday we
clear up. And on Saturday night we are tired.
It by no means follows, therefore, that, because a
man's fiftieth birthday is his Saturday morning,
his week's work is done. It is indisputable, of
course, that a man of fifty has left the greater part
of life behind him; he may be pardoned if he pauses
at times to take long and wistful glances along the
road that he has trodden; it will not be considered
strange if, on very slight provocation, he drops into
a rapture of reminiscence. There is a subtle stage
in the development of fruit at which, having attained
its full size, it ripens rapidly. A man enters upon
that stage on his fiftieth birthday. A shrewd
observer has said that, like peaches and pears, we
grow sweet for awhile before we begin to decay.
The Saturday of life is sweetening time. We become
less harsh in our criticisms, less overbearing in
our opinions, more considerate towards our contemporaries
and more sympathetic towards our juniors.
The week's work is by no means finished. Much
remains to be done. But it will be done in a new
spirit—a Saturday spirit. And if the man of fifty
be spared to enjoy octogenarian honors, he will
smile as he recalls the immaturity and unripeness
of life's first five decades. It is a poor week that
has no Saturday and no Sunday in it. To have
finished at fifty, an old man will tell you, would
have meant missing the best.
It has often struck me as an impressive coincidence
that it was when Dr. Johnson was approaching
his fiftieth birthday—life's Saturday morning—that
he discovered a significance in Saturday that,
until then, had eluded him. He felt, as we all feel
on Saturdays, that the time had come to clear up,
to put things in their places and to overtake
neglected tasks. And this is the entry he makes in
his Journal:
'Having lived, not without an habitual reverence
for the Sabbath, yet without that attention to its
religious duties which Christianity requires: I
resolve henceforth—First, to rise early on Sabbath
morning, and, in order to that, to go to sleep early
on Saturday night. Second, to use some more than
ordinary devotion as soon as I rise. Third, to
examine into the tenor of my life, and particularly
the last week, and to mark my advances in religion,
or my recessions from it. Fourth, to read the
Scriptures methodically, with such helps as are at
hand. Fifth, to go to church twice. Sixth, to
read books of divinity, either speculative or practical.
Seventh, to instruct my family. Eighth, to
wear off by meditation any worldly soil contracted
in the week.'
The significance of this heroic record lies in the
resolve that Saturday, so far from unfitting him
for Sunday, shall lead up to it as a stately avenue
leads up to a noble entrance-hall. 'I resolve to go
to sleep early on Saturday night.' Exactly a
hundred years after the great doctor had inscribed
this famous entry on the pages of his Journal,
Charlotte Elliott wrote her well-known hymn in
praise of Saturday:
Before the Majesty of heaven
To-morrow we appear;
No honor half so great is given
Throughout man's sojourn here.
The altar must be cleansed to-day,
Meet for the offered lamb;
The wood in order we must lay,
And wait to-morrow's flame.
I have heard scores of sermons on The Proper
Observance of Sunday; and, somehow, I have never
been impressed by their utility. One of these days
some pulpit genius will preach on The Proper
Observance of Saturday, and then, quite conceivably,
the new day will dawn.
As I lay down my pen, a pair of experiences rush
back upon my mind. The one befell me at sea,
the other on land.
1. In the course of a voyage from New Zealand
to England it became necessary—in order to
harmonize the clocks and calendars on board
with the clocks and calendars ashore—to take
in an extra day. We awoke one morning
and it was Saturday; we awoke next morning
and it was Saturday again! That second Saturday
was the strangest day that I have ever
spent. I never realized the extent to which
Saturday leads up to Sunday as I realized it
that day.
2. I once numbered among my intimate friends
a Jewish rabbi. I found his society extremely
delightful and wonderfully instructive. He often
took me to his synagogue, showed me its treasures,
and initiated me into its mysteries. It was all very
beautiful and very suggestive. But I invariably
came away feeling dissatisfied and disappointed.
I had been gazing upon the emblems and symbols
of a Saturday faith. Like that weird Saturday on
board the Tongariro, it was a Saturday that led to
a Saturday, a Saturday that ushered in nothing
holier or sweeter than itself.
Saturn with all his rings is grand; but the Sun
is grander still! It is from the Sun that Saturn
derives his brightness and his glory. Ask Saturn
the secret of his splendor, and it is to the Sun that
he unhesitatingly points. As it is with these mighty
orbs themselves, so is it with the days that bear
their names. As Samuel Johnson and Charlotte
Elliott knew so well, it is the glory of Saturday to
prepare the way for Sunday. Saturday belongs to
the Order of St. John the Baptist. John was the
greatest of all the sons of men, yet it was his mission
to clear the path for the coming of a greater. The
old world's Saturday-Sabbath, commemorating a
completed Creation, led up to the new world's
Sunday-Sabbath, commemorating a completed
Redemption. The oracles and mysteries that I
saw in the synagogue, the emblems and expressions
of a Saturday faith, were sublime. But their
sublimity lay in the fact that they pointed men to,
and prepared men for, a Sunday faith, a faith that
gathers about a wondrous Cross and an empty tomb,
a faith from which that Saturday faith, like Saturn
bathed in sunlight, derives alike its lustre and its
fame.
It was Christmas Eve—an Australian Christmas
Eve. To an Englishman it must always seem a
weird, uncanny hotch-potch. He never grows
accustomed to the scorching Christmases that come
to him beneath the Southern Cross. Southey once
declared that, however long a man lives, the first
twenty years of his life will always represent the
biggest half of it. That is indisputably so. The
thoughts of youth are long, long thoughts. The
first twenty years of life fasten upon our hearts
sentiments and traditions that will dominate all
our days. I spent my first twenty Christmases
in the old land. I have spent far more than twenty
in the new. Yet, whenever I find old Father
Christmas wiping the perspiration from his brow as
he wanders among the roses and strawberries of our
fierce Australian mid-summer, I feel secretly sorry
for him. He looks as jolly as ever, yet he gives
you the impression of having lost his way. He
seems to be casting about him for snowflakes and
icicles.
But, as I was saying, it was Christmas Eve—an
Australian Christmas Eve. The day had been
sultry and trying. After tea I sauntered off across
the fields to a spot among the fir-trees, at which I
can always rely upon meeting a few grey squirrels,
an old brown 'possum, and some other friends of
mine. I had scarcely taken my seat on a grassy
knoll, overlooking a belt of bush, when the laughing-jackasses
broke into a wild, unearthly chorus
in the wooded valley below. And then, a few
minutes later, the cool evening air was flooded with
a torrent of harmony that transported me across
the years and across the seas. The squirrels, the
'possum, and the kookaburras were left leagues
and leagues behind. From a lofty steeple that
crowned a distant crest there floated over hill and
hollow the pealing and the chiming of the bells.
The magic that slept in the lute of the Pied Piper
was as nothing compared with the magic of the bells.
Beneath the witchery of their music, time and space
shrivel into nothingness and are no more. We are
wafted to old familiar places; we see the old familiar
faces; we enter into fellowship with lands far off
and ages long departed. Frank Bullen heard our
Australian bells. He was only a sailor-boy at the
time. 'Often,' he says, 'I would stand on deck
when my ship was anchored in Sydney Harbor on
Sunday morning, and listen to the church bells
playing "Sicilian Mariners" with a dull ache at
my heart, a deep longing for something, I knew not
what.' The bells, according to their wont, were
annihilating time and space. Beneath the enchantment
of their minstrelsy he sped, as on angels'
wings, away from the realities of his rough and
roving sea-life, into the quiet haven of a tender past.
He was back in his old seat in a little chapel in
Harrow Road. Every Englishman overseas will
understand.
The bells throw bridges across the yawning
chasms of space, and link up hearts that stand
severed by the tyrannies of time. In his Golden
Legend, Longfellow describes Prince Henry and
Elsie standing in the twilight on the terrace of the
old castle of Vautsberg on the Rhine. Suddenly
they catch the strains of distant bells. Elsie asks
what bells they are. The Prince replies:
They are the bells of Geisenheim,
That, with their melancholy chime,
Ring out the curfew of the sun.
And then he adds:
Dear Elsie, many years ago
Those same soft bells at eventide
Rang in the ears of Charlemagne,
As, seated at Fastrada's side,
At Ingelheim, in all his pride,
He heard their sound with secret pain.
And so, through the melodious medium of the bells,
the royal lovers on the terrace cross the long centuries
that intervene and enter into fellowship with
those other royal lovers of an earlier time.
I remember, many years ago, spending a few days
at a beautiful country home in Hampshire. My
hostess was a little old lady—very little and very
old. I can see her now with her prim little cap, her
golden earrings, and her silver ringlets. It was
summer-time, and one evening she invited me to
accompany her on a walk across the deer-park.
She was a happy little body, and that evening she
was specially vivacious. Her conversation was
punctuated with pretty ripples of silvery laughter.
She was too proud to confess to feeling tired; but
when we reached a stile with a step to it on the brow
of a hill, she took a seat upon the step—to drink in,
as she was careful to explain, the beauty of the view.
I perched myself upon the stile itself and watched
with interest the antics of a fine stag among some
oak-trees not far away. Then, all at once, the bells
from the village behind us rang out blithely. For
a while I listened in silence, and then turned to my
companion to ask a question. On glancing down
at her face, however, I was astonished to notice
tears upon her cheek. What could be the matter
with my gay little friend? I immediately transferred
my attention to the stag, who was by this
time ambling away across the park, but she knew
that I had seen the tear-drops. On our way back to
the house she explained.
'My mother died,' she said, 'while I was on my
honeymoon in Italy. I was only a girl, and she was
not much more. She was only twenty when I was
born, and I was only eighteen on my wedding day.
I never dreamed, when I left England, that I should
never see her again. On the eve of my wedding
she came up to me, put her arm round me, and led
me away to spend one more hour alone with her.
We sauntered off to the stile on which you and I
rested this evening; and as we sat there, hand in
hand, the bells pealed out just as they did to-night.
And, as I listened to them just now, her face, her
form, her voice, her words—the very feeling of that
other evening more than sixty years ago—came
back upon me more vividly than they have ever
done before. I could almost fancy that I was a girl
again. My marriage, my children, my travels, and
my long widowhood seemed all a dream. It was
the bells that took me back again!'
I wonder if it was! I wonder if the great iron
bells that hung in the dusty old belfry of that
English hamlet knew anything of the sweet and
sacred secrets that my little old friend kept locked
up in that gentle heart of hers! I wonder if the
bells of Geisenheim knew anything of the loves of
Charlemagne and Fastrada, of Elsie and Prince
Henry! I wonder if the bells that drove the
squirrels from my mind that summer evening knew
anything of the Christmas thoughts and Christmas
memories with which they flooded my soul! I
wonder!
And, in my wonderment, I find myself in excellent
company. For here is little Paul Dombey! He
has only a few days to live, although, to-day, he is
slightly better and able to get about the house a
little. And, in moving about the house, he finds
a workman mending the great clock in the hall, and
Paul sees an opportunity of asking a few questions.
Indeed, Dickens says that he asked, not a few, but
a long string of them. 'He asked the man a multitude
of questions about chimes and clocks; as,
whether people watched up in the lonely church
steeples by night to make them strike, and how the
bells were rung when people died, and whether those
were different bells from wedding bells, or only
sounded different in the fancies of the living.' In
this last question, Paul gets very near to our own.
Do the bells say the things they seem to say, or
do they only seem to say those things? Did the
bells of Geisenheim speak of love to the lovers on
the castle terrace? Did the bells of that Hampshire
village speak to the little old lady in the deer-park
concerning the days of auld lang syne—her
happy girlhood and her mother's face? Did the
bells of that Australian steeple speak of the old-fashioned
English Christmases as their delicious
music fell on my delighted ears that summer night?
Of course not! The bells take us as they find
us and set us to music; that is all! Paul Dombey,
who died young, half suspected it; and Trotty
Veck of The Chimes, who lived to be old, proved it
from experience, and proved it up to the hilt. When
things were going badly with Trotty and Richard
and Meg, and the magistrate said that people like
them should be 'put down' with the utmost rigor of
the law, the chimes, when they suddenly pealed out,
made the air ring with the refrain 'Put 'em down;
Put 'em down; Facts and Figures; Facts and
Figures! Put 'em down! Put 'em down!!' 'If,'
says Dickens, 'the chimes said anything, they said
this; and they said it until Trotty's brain fairly
reeled.' Later on in the story, we have the same
chimes, and the same people listening to them. But
this time all is going well: Meg and Richard are
to be married on the morrow: and Trotty is at the
height of his felicity. 'Just then the bells, the old
familiar bells, his own dear constant, steady friends—the
chimes—began to ring. When had they ever
rung like that before? They chimed out so lustily,
so merrily, so happily, so gaily, that he leapt to his
feet and broke the spell that bound him.' And, a
few minutes later, Trotty and Richard and Meg
were dancing with delight to the gay, glad music
of the bells!
When they themselves were sad, the chimes
seemed mournful; when they were glad, the chimes
seemed blithe. 'Are they different bells?' asked
little Paul Dombey, 'or do they only sound
different?' Paul was getting very near to the heart
of a great truth; and, if only Trotty Veck and he
could have talked things over together, they might
have given us a philosophy of bells that would have
immeasurably enriched our thought.
The chimes are among the things to which
distance lends enchantment. The bells, as my little
old lady and I heard them from the deer-park, were
sweeter than the same bells heard in the churchyard
under the belfry. In his Cheapside to Arcady, Mr.
Arthur Scammell suggests that the music of the
bells awakens the echoes of all the infinites and all
the eternities. He finds himself up in the belltower.
'After the last stroke of the bell ceases to
be heard down in the church,' he says, 'the sound
is continued up here in a long diminuendo; and how
long will it be before that vibrant hum is completely
extinguished? All through the night, the air about
the bells may still be throbbing with faint echoes
and reverberations; and, if an hour or a night,
why not a year or a century? May not even the
sound of the first ringing of these old bells yet lisp
against the walls and roof in infinitesimal vibrations?
The tower may be alive with the thin ghosts
of all the joyous and mournful notes that have endeared
and embittered the sound of bells to hundreds
of human hearts.' And if, following the same line
of argument, the music of the bells falls so sweetly
on my ear as I sit upon my grassy knoll two miles
away from the steeple, who is to say that twenty
miles away, a thousand miles away, the air is not
trilling and trembling with their delicious melodies?
It may be only because my perceptive faculties are
so gross, my ears so heavy, that I do not, in this
Australian pleasance of mine, catch the chimes of
Big Ben and the echoes of Bow Bells. And if Mr.
Scammell's philosophy be true of bells, why not of
other sounds? As I ponder his striking suggestion,
I find it more easy to understand that great saying
that whatsoever ye have spoken in darkness shall be
heard in the light, and that which ye have whispered
in the ear shall be shouted from the housetops.
The deeds we do, the words we say,
Into still air they seem to fleet;
We count them past,
But they shall last
To the Great Judgment Day,
And we shall meet!
The bells are not only heard at a distance, they
are better heard at a distance. It is possible to get
so near to them as to miss the music. In his autobiography,
James Nasmyth tells us of a visit he
paid to the tower of St. Giles, Edinburgh. He had
often been charmed by the chimes, and longed to
get nearer to them. But the experience brought
a rude disillusionment. 'The frantic movements
of the musician as he rushed wildly from one key
to another, often widely apart, gave me the idea
that the man was mad, while the banging of his
mallets completely drowned the music of the chimes.'
It is possible to get too near to things. You do
not see the grandeur of a mountain as you recline
upon its slopes. The disciples were too near to
Jesus; that explains some of the most poignant
tragedies of the New Testament. A minister,
through constant association with the sublimities
of divine truth, may lose the vision of their eternal
grandeur. And, unless things in the manse are
very carefully managed, the members of a minister's
family may easily suffer through being too near to
things. They do not see the mountain in its grand
perspective. The banging of the mallets drowns
the music of the bells.
One beautiful June evening, years ago, I was
walking along the banks of the Thames. It was
Saturday night; I had undertaken to preach at
Twickenham on the Sunday. All at once I was
arrested by the pealing of the bells. Strangers
stopped each other to inquire why the belfries had
become vocal at that strange hour. We learned
later that the bells were proclaiming the birth of
an heir to the British throne. A prince had been
born at White Lodge, just across the river! Well
might the bells peal that night!
Well, too, may the bells peal on Christmas Eve!
I like to think that, over the birth of that babe,
born in Bethlehem, and cradled in a manger, more
bells have been rung than over all the princes since
the world began. The Chinese cherish a lovely
legend concerning the great bell at Pekin. The
Emperor, they say, sent for Kuan-Yin, the caster
of the bells, and described the bell that he desired.
It was to be larger than any bell ever made, and
its tone more beautiful. Its music was to be heard
a hundred miles away. Great honors were to be
heaped upon the bell-maker if he succeeded; a
cruel death was to follow his failure. Kuan-Yin
set to work; he mixed the costliest metals; he
labored night and day; and at last he finished
the bell. He tested it, and was disappointed. He
tried again, and was again mortified. He was at
his wits' end. Then Ko-ai, his beautiful daughter,
consulted an astrologer. The oracle assured her
that, if the blood of a fair virgin mingled with the
molten metals, the music would ravish the ears of
every listener. Ko-ai returned to the foundry;
and, when the glowing metal poured white-hot
from the furnace, she plunged into the shining bath
before her. The music of the great bell, the
Easterns say, is the music of her sacrifice. It is
only an Oriental myth; but it strangely helps me
to interpret to my heart the solemn sweetness that
I recognize in all these Christmas chimes.
Is there anything fresh to be said by way of a charge
to a young minister? I confess that, until this
morning, I thought not. But this morning, to
my inexpressible delight, I struck a vein that, so
far as I know, has never yet been exploited. On
these solemn and impressive occasions, we have
talked about the minister's scholarship and the
minister's spirituality until we have come to feel
that we have completely exhausted that line of
things. And in the process we have given the
awkward impression that the minister, so far from
being made of pretty much the same stuff as the
butcher, the baker, and the candlestick-maker,
is a kind of biological monstrosity consisting of a
very big head and a very big heart—and of nothing
else!
But this morning I made a discovery. Before
delivering a charge to a young minister, I took the
precaution to have a good look at him. And I
found to my surprise that, in addition to the head
and the heart upon which we have always laid such
inordinate emphasis, he also possesses a fine pair
of legs with a substantial pair of feet at the end of
them! Nobody could have supposed from the
most careful perusal of all the ministerial charges
in our literature, that any minister was ever before
known to possess these useful appendages; but
there they are! I saw them with my own eyes!
Perhaps those who delivered the great classical
charges only saw the young minister in the pulpit,
in which case the limbs which I this morning discovered
would naturally be invisible. Like the feet
of the seraphim in the prophet's vision, they would
be modestly concealed. But, though hidden, they
exist; and it occurred to me that a few very useful
things could be said concerning them. Why should
it be considered infra dig., I should like to know, to
talk about people's feet, and especially about a minister's
feet? The Bible has no hesitation in talking
about them. 'How beautiful upon the mountains,'
said the prophet, 'are the feet of him that
bringeth good tidings, that publisheth peace; that
bringeth good tidings of good, that publisheth salvation;
that saith unto Zion, Thy God reigneth.' And
did not the Master Himself, when He ordained His
first disciples, deliver to them this striking charge?
'Take no shoes,' He said, 'but be shod with sandals!'
The African natives thought of Livingstone's boots
as a contrivance for carpeting all the slave-tracks of
Africa with leather, so that he might walk harmlessly
and painlessly along them; and when the
Saviour tells His first disciples to be shod with
sandals I fancy I see miles and miles of meaning in
those arresting words.
'Be shod with sandals!' It is an appeal for
ministerial simplicity. There were three classes of
people in Palestine. The slaves went barefoot; the
grandees wore elaborate shoes; the working classes
wore sandals. The sandals were simple, serviceable,
and strong. Therefore, said the Master to His men,
'be shod with sandals!' The line of simplicity is invariably
the line of strength. Gibbon has shown
us that it is the simplest architecture that has defied
both the vandalism of the barbarians and the teeth
of time. Macaulay has proved that it is the simplest
language that lasts longest. John Bunyan's books
threaten to survive all later literature. Why? 'The
style of Bunyan,' Macaulay says, 'is delightful to
every reader, and is invaluable as a study to every
person who wishes to obtain a wide command over
the English language. The vocabulary is the
vocabulary of the common people. There is not an
expression which would puzzle the rudest peasant.
Several pages do not contain a single word of more
than two syllables. Yet no writer has said more
exactly what he meant to say. For magnificence;
for pathos; for vehement exhortation; for subtle
disquisition; for every purpose of the poet, the
orator and the divine; this homely dialect, the
dialect of plain working men, was perfectly sufficient.
There is no book in our literature on which
we would so readily stake the fame of the old unpolluted
English language, no book which shows so
well how rich that language is in its own proper
wealth, and how little it has been improved by all
that it has borrowed.' It is ever so. The simplest
language is the strongest language, and the simplest
lives are the strongest lives. In his 'Ode on the
Death of the Duke of Wellington,' Tennyson says
that the illustrious Duke was rich in saving commonsense.
And as the greatest only are
In his simplicity sublime.
Wherefore, said the Master, avoid the vulgarities
of the slave market on the one hand, and the stilted
affectations of the schools on the other. Let simplicity
ally itself with strength. 'Be shod with
sandals!'
It is a great thing for Christ's minister to eschew
this vice of extremes. All through the ages the
pendulum of ecclesiastical fashion has been swinging
between bare feet and golden slippers. From the
excessive worship of unholy revelries, to which
the Roman world was abandoned, the Christians of
the first century went to the opposite extremity, and
courted persecution by their rigid abstinence from,
and their severe condemnation of, the most legitimate
and necessary pleasures. Back again swung
the pendulum, until the churches became the scenes
of voluptuous luxury and extravagance. We read
on, and the next chapters of our ecclesiastical histories
bring us to the story of the monks and the
hermits. We no sooner discover an age of
unexampled self-indulgence, than we straightway
come upon the Puritanism that banned Pilgrim's
Progress as a wanton frivolity, and that denounced
the Fairy Queen as a wicked and devilish invention!
And so we go on. One day Christ's minister would
go bare-footed like a slave; the next he must needs
affect a pair of golden slippers. There was a time
when the Church gloried in her poverty; her emissaries
wore no shoes on their feet; they dressed in
rags and tatters; they ate the berries of the hedgerow;
they drank the waters of the wayside spring.
And then, hey presto, the scene is changed. The
Church gloried in her wealth. All the world paid
tribute to the Popes. Rome rolled in riches; and her
proud bishop, Innocent the Fourth, laughed as he
looked upon his countless hoards and boasted that
never again need the Church lament that of silver
and gold she had none! Here is the Church going
barefooted like a slave; and here is the Church
mincing in golden slippers; and neither spectacle is
an edifying one. The Master urges His men to
avoid both the bare feet and the golden slippers.
Let your moderation be known unto all men. Be
shod with sandals!
It is the solemn and imperative duty of a Christian
minister to conserve both the dignity and the
modesty of holy things. A certain offence in the
ancient law was to be punished by the deprivation
of dignity. 'Thou shalt loose his shoe from off
his foot, and his name shall be called in Israel, the
house of him that hath his shoe loosed.' Those
who have carefully read that graceful and dramatic
story unfolded in the Book of Ruth know the
bitterness of that reproach. The man whose shoes
were publicly removed was like an officer whose
stripes are taken from his arm in the sight of the
whole regiment. He became an object of derision
and contempt. Anyone, Dr. Samuel Cox points
out, might laugh at him and call him 'Old Baresole,'
and his family would be stigmatized as the family
of a barefooted vagabond. Be shod with sandals!
says the Master. Do not expose the Church to the
contempt of the multitude! Conserve her dignity!
Cast not her pearls before swine! Nor is such
dignity inconsistent with simplicity. Dr. Johnson
penning from his modest room at Gough Square,
that famous letter in which he proudly declined
the patronage of the Earl of Chesterfield, makes
a much more dignified picture than the gilded
aristocrat who tardily fawned to the great man's
fame. And George Gissing has shown that the
solitaries of Port Royal, reading and praying in
their poor apartments, cut a much more stately
figure in history than his refulgent Majesty, King
Louis the Fourteenth, strutting among the palatial
chambers and the spacious gardens of Versailles.
When I see the ministers of Christ organizing nail-driving
competitions for women, and hat-trimming
competitions for men, in order to replenish a depleted
treasury, I remember what Jesus said about
the sandals. He pleaded with His men not to expose
His Church to contempt. It is better to do things
modestly and preserve the Church's dignity than
to swell her funds and make her an object of derision.
It is better to wear sandals and be respected
than to wear golden slippers and provoke disgust.
Modesty and dignity invariably go together.
Every man who aspires to the Christian ministry
should read every word that Charles Dickens ever
wrote. In the course of that humanizing process
he will then come upon that terrible fourth chapter
of The Uncommercial Traveller. It is the most
powerful appeal for ministerial modesty in our
literature. Can any man read without a shudder
that revolting description of evangelistic bluster?
And who is he that can read without tenderness
that closing appeal of the novelist to preachers?
He entreats us to remember the twelve poor men
whom Jesus chose, and to model our behavior, our
language, our style, and our choice of illustration
on the exquisite simplicity and charming grace of
the New Testament records.
But we must sound yet a deeper depth. 'Be
shod with sandals!' said the Master. Now sandals
are easily slipped off and easily slipped on. And
why should the minister be ready, at a moment's
notice, to bare his feet? The man who has read
his Bible knows. There came to Moses the Vision
of the Burning Bush. 'And the Lord said unto
Moses, I am the God of thy father, the God of
Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob.
Draw not nigh hither; put off thy shoes from off
thy feet, for the place whereon thou standest is
holy ground.' And when Moses the servant of the
Lord died, the Vision of the Captain of the Lord's
Host came to Joshua. 'And Joshua fell on his
face to the earth, and did worship, and said unto
him, What saith my Lord unto his servant? And
the captain of the Lord's host said unto Joshua,
Loose thy shoe from off thy foot; for the place
whereon thou standest is holy. And Joshua did
so.' 'Be shod with sandals,' said the Master, so
that, the moment the vision comes, you may be
ready adoringly to welcome it. Nothing in the
ministry is more important than that the minister
should keep in touch with his dreams, with his
visions, with his revelations. The tragedy of the
ministry is reached when we lace up our elaborate
shoes and say good-bye to the place of open vision.
We never expect again to behold the glory. The
ashes are black on the altar of the soul, the altar
on which the sacred fires once blazed. The light
has gone out of the eye and the ring of passion has
forsaken the voice. 'Be shod with sandals!' said
the Master to His men. 'Take no shoes, but be
shod with sandals.' The vision that led you into
the ministry may come again and again and again.
Be shod with sandals that you may be ready for
the revelation!
Yes, ready for the Revelation and ready, also,
for the Road! For sandals are easily slipped on.
And the minister must expect the call of the road
at any moment. He must be at home in the silence;
he must be ready for the revelation, but he must
not become a recluse. That was what Longfellow
meant by his Legend Beautiful. The vision appeared
to the monk in his cell, and he worshipped in
its wondrous presence. Then he remembered the
hungry at the convent gate.
Should he slight his radiant guest,
Slight his visitant celestial,
For a crowd of ragged, bestial
Beggars at the convent gate?
Would the Vision there remain?
Would the Vision come again?
A voice within bade him go and feed the hungry
in the road outside,
Do thy duty; that is best
Leave unto thy Lord the rest.
He went; and when he returned he found to his
delight that the Vision was still there.
Through the long hours intervening,
It had waited his return,
And he felt his bosom burn,
Comprehending all the meaning,
When the blessed Vision said:
'Hads't thou stayed, I must have fled!'
'Be shod with sandals!' said the Master; so that
at a moment's notice, you may slip them off to
welcome the vision or slip them on to take to the
road. The crest of the Baptist Missionary Society
is a picture of an ox between a plough and an altar,
while, underneath the symbols, are the words
'Ready for Either!' The ox is ready for service
in the field or for sacrifice in the temple. Christ's
minister stands between the glory and the majesty
of things divine on the one hand and all the paths
and the prose of human life on the other. He
must be ready at any moment to enter into fellowship
with the skies; and he must be ready at any
moment to hurry forth to see a sick child, to comfort
a broken-hearted woman or to share the burden
of a man whose load is greater than he can bear.
'Be shod with sandals'; so that, whether the Revelation
or the Road shall call, you are ready for either.
The ministry is neither mundane nor monastic;
the minister wears sandals that he may keep in
touch with two worlds.
Let me live in my house by the side of the road,
Where the race of men go by;
They are good, they are bad, they are weak, they are strong,
Wise, foolish. So am I.
Let me turn not away from their smiles nor their tears,—
Both parts of an infinite plan,—
Let me live in my house by the side of the road,
And be a friend to man!
And there, in his house by the side of the road,
the minister will welcome his wondrous visions, and
will take good care to be shod with sandals. Gurnall
concludes the first volume of his great work in
The Christian Armour with 'Six Directions for the
Helping On of this Spiritual Shoe'; but the man
who is wise enough to wear sandals stands in no
need of any such elaborate instructions.
PART III
Tall, bronzed and bearded, Bruce Sinclair was a
typical New Zealand farmer. He was born in
Fifeshire, it is true, but his parents had emigrated
when he was so young that he seemed to belong
to the land of his adoption. They had come out
on the John Macintyre—one of the first ships to
bring settlers to these shores. I never saw the
old people. By the time I reached New Zealand,
Bruce had laid them to rest in the little God's-acre
on the crest, and was himself farming the lands
on which they had originally settled. The homestead
was up among the foothills near Otokia—about
nine miles south of Mosgiel—and Bruce
usually rode over on Sundays. One felt that something
was missing, if, on going round to the vestry
door, 'Oscar,' Bruce's chestnut pony, was not to be
seen in the yard. Bruce was quiet and reserved:
he seldom spoke unless he was spoken to: but he
gave an impression of depth and stability. In his
light blue eyes—eyes that seemed paler than they
really were by contrast with his sunburned and
weatherbeaten countenance—there was a subtle
suggestion of secret struggle and secret suffering.
You somehow felt that the calm of his sturdy
personality was the peace that comes when mighty
forces have been vanquished, and fierce storms
stilled. I had heard it whispered that in the early
colonial days—the days of his youth—Bruce had
chafed under the restraints of home and had for
some years gone his own way; but except that I
fancied that I saw a look of pain in his face when
he first directed my attention to the framed portraits
of his parents as they hung on either side of the
fireplace at Otokia, he had given me no hint of anything
of the kind.
One Sunday morning I missed the chestnut pony.
During the week Mrs. Sinclair called at the manse
to tell me that Bruce was ill.
'But don't trouble to come,' she said. 'He
couldn't see you even if you did; and it's a long
way to come for nothing. I'll let you know when
he's able to see you.'
True to her word, she at length gave me permission.
But, as it happened, I was just setting
out for a distant part of the colony—a journey
of a thousand miles—and it was nearly a month
before I was able to turn my face towards the farm
at Otokia. But the day to which I had so long
looked forward dawned at last. The dwelling that
served Bruce as a homestead was a plain, white
box-like little cottage, nestling among the hills about
a quarter of a mile back from the road. Seated
at the open window, he had seen me enter the big
gate at the farm-entrance and drive up the track
from the road to the door. Bowed, and leaning
heavily upon two sticks, he came to the doorway
to greet me, a wan smile lighting up a countenance
that seemed strangely pale. I saw at a glance that
he had been very ill.
'But there, I'm better now,' he said, cheerfully,
'and shall soon be all right again. Sit down!'
and he pointed to a lounge-chair on the verandah.
We sat there chatting for awhile, and then Mrs.
Sinclair brought out the afternoon tea. As soon
as the cups had been removed, I rose as if to go.
'Oh, don't be in a hurry!' he said. 'Sit down!
I want to tell you of a strange experience I've had.'
I resumed my seat.
'You see,' he went on, 'I had a birthday—my
fiftieth—just as my illness was at its worst. I had
intended having a few very old friends here to
celebrate the occasion; but that, of course, was out
of the question. The idea had, however, fastened
itself so firmly upon my mind that, in my delirium,
I thought I was sending out the invitations.' He
laughed; but I could see that there was a good deal
of seriousness behind it.
'You know how at such times, things get mixed
up in your brain,' he went on, 'well, my birthday
invitations and the other thoughts that had come
to me in the earlier stages of my sickness got hopelessly
confused. I was in great distress because
I could only think of three people whom I wanted
to invite. I wrote out invitations to The Man I
Used to Be, The Man I Might Have Been, and The
Man I Shall Be. I remember thinking that these
were strange people to ask; and I was surprised
that the number was so small. But the odd part
is to come. For, in the same dream or in another—I
cannot be sure—I thought that I was welcoming
my guests. I had set the table for the four of us—my
three visitors and myself—but, to my amazement,
twice as many people came as I had invited!
I had invited The Man I Used to Be; but two men
arrived, each of them claiming to be the personage
indicated by that description. Exactly the same
thing happened in the case of The Man I Might
Have Been, and again in the case of The Man I
Shall Be. I was at first very bewildered and confused
by the arrival of so many guests; but, excusing
myself, I added three chairs to the number at the
table, making seven in all. Then, when all was
ready, I ushered them in and showed them to their
places. And there we sat—the seven of us.
1. The Man I Am—at the head of the table.
2. The Man I Used To Be, No. 1 }
3. The Man I Used To Be, No. 2 } facing me.
4. The Man I Might Have Been, No. 1 }
5. The Man I Might Have Been, No. 2 } on my left.
6. The Man I Shall Be, No. 1 }
7. The Man I Shall Be, No. 2 } on my right.
'The first thing that struck me as I surveyed
the six faces about me was that, although they
seemed arranged in pairs, no two of the same name
bore much resemblance to each other. The
couples were contrasts rather than duplicates.' Mrs.
Sinclair appeared, bringing her husband's medicine;
he drank it quickly and continued his story.
'I can't help laughing as I think of it now,' he
went on, 'it seems so very fantastic and absurd;
but it was a grimly serious business at the time;
and I am afraid that, considered as a birthday
frolic, it was scarcely a success. There I sat at the
head of the table, my six selves around me. In each
of them I could see something of the features that
I regularly behold in the mirror; but in each case
the general impression was either disfigured or
idealized. Let me describe them two by two.
'To begin with, there was The Man I Used To
Be—the first of that name. He was my guest,
and I tried to be civil, but in my heart I could not
welcome him. I sat there wondering—you know
how such things happen in dreams—by what strange
impulse I had invited him to my table. For, truth
to tell, I have always dreaded his return. Have
you read Grant Allen's story, The Reverend John
Creedy? I have it inside there: I will ask Mrs.
Sinclair to bring it out before you go, and you shall
take it with you. I read it a few weeks before my
illness, and it made a great impression upon me.
It is the story of an African boy, taken from the
hold of a slaver on the Gold Coast and carried away
to England. He is committed to a Christian home;
is most carefully trained and educated; and is
denied nothing that can add to his culture and
refinement. He goes to Oxford; becomes a
Bachelor of Arts; is ordained, and is designated to
return as a missionary to his native land. Before
leaving, he marries Miss Ethel Berry, a gently
nurtured English lady; and, amidst the good wishes
of a great host of admiring friends, the two sail
from Southampton for Central Africa. For awhile
all goes well; they are very happy and very useful.
But, amidst the old environment, the old feelings
are stirred. His blood leaps to the sound of the
toms-toms; the native feasts and dances have a
singular fascination for him; he learns to love once
more the native foods and drinks. It is too much
for him; his old self masters his new self. He
abandons the work; leaves his wife to die; tears up
his English clothes; and goes back to savagery.
And to-day—so Grant Allen concludes the story—to-day,
the old half-caste Portuguese rum-dealer
at Butabue, can point out to any English pioneer
who comes up the river, which one, among a crowd
of dilapidated negroes who lie basking in the soft
dust outside his hut, was once the Rev. John Creedy,
B.A., of Magdalen College, Oxford. This story,
so recently read, may have helped to shape my
dream. At any rate, I remember sitting at the
head of the table looking into the face of The Man
I Used To Be. "It is bad enough," I thought to
myself, "when the old life comes rushing resistlessly
back upon one as it rushed back upon John Creedy,
no bolts or bars being strong enough to keep it out;
but by what folly had I invited my old self back and
seated him at my table?" I felt, as I gazed into
his face, as though I had committed the unpardonable
sin.
'And there, sitting beside him, was his namesake!
You can imagine no more striking contrast.
For this second edition of The Man I Used to Be
appeared to be not only a better man than the other,
but a better man than The Man I Am. I have
never told you much about the past—one does not
make a song of such things—but I can tell you that
it was a wonderful experience when, nearly thirty
years ago, I renounced the old life, entered the
kingdom of heaven, and joined a Christian church.
As I have said, I would not go back to the old life
for anything on earth. And yet, looking back, I
can see that, in those early days, I had a few fine
qualities that are not mine to-day. I love money
more now than I did then. I love comfort more
now than I did then. In those days, wayward as
I was, I would gladly have given the last coin that
I possessed to help a chum. I remember once
drawing every penny of my balance at the savings
bank to get a comrade out of trouble. I would
have faced any discomfort, privation, or even death
itself, in an enterprise in which we fellows were
engaged together. I am afraid that I am now too
smug to be heroic and too self-centred to be really
generous. And, strange as it may seem, as I looked
across the table at The Man I Used To Be—the
second one—I felt heartily ashamed of The Man I
Am. I was reading in a book of George Eliot's that
there are only two kinds of religious people—the
people who are the better for their religion and
the people who are the worse for it. I am not sure,
I know that, on the whole, I am the better for my
faith; but I know, too, that before my conversion
I had some good points that I have since lost.
'I need not describe my other guests in such
detail. If the contrast between the two who answered
to the name of The Man I Used To Be was
great, the contrast between the two who described
themselves as The Man I Might Have Been was
greater still. I was ashamed to admit the first of
them to the house, and I could see that several of
my guests felt extremely uncomfortable in his presence.
This is the man that I should have been to-day
had that radiant experience of nearly thirty
years ago never visited me. I saw, as I gazed into
the repulsive face of this guest, that, had I continued
the career in which, until then, I had delighted,
the heroic qualities of my waywardness
would soon have vanished, and the sordid elements
of that lawless life would have become dominant
and supreme. The chivalry of those early days
would, in time, have died out of my soul, just as it
died out of King Arthur's Court, and the shame
and the squalor would have become more
pronounced with the years.' Even sitting on the
verandah, Bruce Sinclair shuddered as he recalled
this aspect of his dream.
'The companion picture—the other edition of
The Man I Might Have Been—was,' he continued,
'as different as different could be. It seemed
ridiculous that they bore the same name. As I
looked upon the first of this pair I felt thankful that
I am as I am; but, when I turned to the second, that
feeling completely forsook me. For I saw, as I
gazed into that face—the face on my immediate
left—what I should have been if, jealously retaining
all the magnanimous and open-hearted qualities
of my early days, I had added to them all the graces
and excellences which Christian experience and the
membership of the church have made possible to
me. But I have done neither the one nor the other.
I have lost the high-spirited virtues of my youth,
and, like a man who has been walking among diamonds,
but has been too indolent to pick them up,
I have failed to acquire the ripe devoutness which
these later years should have brought. It seems
strange now, but on the very last Sunday morning
on which I came to church, you were preaching on
The Additions of Grace: "Add to your faith, virtue:
and to virtue, knowledge." Do you remember?
You were saying that the art of life lies in adding
virtue to virtue as a mason adds tier to tier or as a
tree adds ring to ring. I thought a good deal about
it afterwards, and it may have woven itself into
my dream. At any rate, I looked into the face
beside me; I saw the man that I should have been
if only I had added to the generous sentiments of
youth the nobler attainments that Christian experience
and service offered me; and it was like
turning from a masterpiece to a daub when I once
more contemplated The Man I Am.
'The third pair did not present so strong a contrast.
They might easily have passed for brothers,
one of whom had enjoyed greater advantages, and
moved in better society than the other. The first
of those who presented himself as The Man I
Shall Be strongly resembled, except that he was
older, The Man I Am. The fact is, I suppose, that,
of late years, I have been content to take life, at
least on its religious side, pretty much as I found
it. I have become complacent, easy-going, readily-satisfied,
willing to follow the drift. There was a
time, twenty years ago or more, when I used to
submit myself to periodical examinations. I tested
myself; tried to ascertain whether or not I was
growing in grace; felt anxious as to whether the
spirit was gaining upon the flesh or the flesh upon
the spirit. But of late years I have taken things
less seriously, and, now that I have time to think
about such matters, I can see that I have settled
down to a condition that is perilously like stagnation.
Going on at the same sluggish rate for a few more
years, I cannot expect that I shall at last differ
essentially—except in age—from The Man I Am;
and that, I suppose, is why the first of these two
seems in some respects to resemble so closely the
man that I see each day in the mirror.
'The second—the guest on my immediate right—was
a much finer man. He, too, was old; but
there was a grace and a sweetness and a charm
about his age that was quite absent from the person
of his companion. Indeed, but for the association
of ideas suggested by the circumstances under which
we met, I should never have recognized myself
in him. But he has taught me—and I feel that life
has been inestimably enriched by the lesson—that,
if I set myself to recapture the better qualities that
I have lost, and begin diligently to cultivate the
graces that I have neglected, I may yet make something
of life, and stand, not altogether confused and
ashamed, before my Lord at the last.
'I am not sure,' my old friend concluded, 'I am
not sure that all this occurred to me in the course
of my dream. Much of it has probably suggested
itself in my subsequent reflections. In time of
sickness and of convalescence a man sees life from
a new angle. He is able to do a little stocktaking.
And I feel that, in my case, the operation—perhaps
because it was particularly necessary—has been
particularly profitable.'
Mrs. Sinclair came out to ask if he was feeling
chilly. The afternoon sun was certainly sinking;
and I am afraid that I had allowed my friend to
tire himself in telling me his tale. He made an
excellent recovery, however, and, in the years that
followed, was at church more frequently than ever.
And it may have been a fond illusion of my own,
but somehow I fancied that, as time went on, he
became more and more like that nobler, lovelier,
kindlier self that he had so graphically described
to me.
I was holiday-making at Lake King. As a matter
of fact, Lake King is no lake at all. It used to be;
and, like the Church at Sardis, and like so many of
us, it bears the name that it once earned but no
longer deserves. In former days, a picturesque
rampart of sand hummocks, richly draped in native
verdure, intervened between the fresh waters of the
land-locked lake and the heaving tides of the
Southern Ocean. Then the engineers arrived;
and when the engineers take off their coats no man
can tell what is likely to happen next. At Panama
they split a continent in two. At Lake King they
wedded the lake to the ocean. Through the range
of sand-dunes they cut a broad, deep channel by
which the big ships could pass in and out, and, as
an inevitable consequence, Lake King is a lake no
longer. But it was not the big ships that interested
me. It was the trawlers. I liked to see the fishing-boats
come in from the ocean and liberate their
shining spoil at the pens. On the shores of the lake
the fishermen have fenced off a sheet of water, a
quarter of an acre or so in area; and into this
sheltered reserve they discharge their daily catch.
I never tired of visiting the fish-pens. As I looked
down into their clear waters they seemed to be
one moving mass of beautiful fish. Never in my
life had I seen so congested an aquarium. There
were thousands upon thousands, tons upon tons, of
them.
'You should row across in the early morning,'
one of the fishermen was good enough to say. 'You
would see us dragging the pens and filling the boats
with the fish that we were about to pack for the
market.'
I took the hint, and shall never forget the animated
spectacle that I then witnessed. The waters
that had previously seemed so tranquil were a
seething tumult of commotion. The men were
wading up to their thighs dragging the nets through
the crowded pens. Thousands upon thousands of
splendid fish were fighting for dear life, excitedly
darting and flapping and leaping and diving and
splashing in a hopeless attempt to escape the enmeshment
of the enfolding toils. Netful after netful
was emptied into the boats. In half an hour the
boats themselves were filled to the brim with the
poor stiffened creatures from which all life and
beauty had departed.
'And do the fish keep good in the pens for an
indefinite period?' I asked my fisherman friend—the
man who had invited me across.
'Oh, dear, no,' he replied, 'that's the trouble.
If we could keep them here until the market suited
us, we should quickly make our fortunes. But
they soon get slack and soft and flabby. The life
in the pens isn't a natural one. They haven't to
work for their living and they are in no danger of
attack. The palings and wire-netting that keep
them in keep their natural enemies out. In the
ocean they have to be active and vigilant and spry.
But here they lie at their ease; they move to and fro
sluggishly for the mere fun of the thing; and they
soon go to pieces in consequence.'
Away on the Dogger Bank the fishermen cherish
a tradition which, on suitable occasions, they recite
with infinite relish. It belongs to the heroic age
that enfolded land and sea before the day of the
steam-trawler had dawned. In those unhurried
times, the fishing-boats spread their tawny sails,
and, to the accompaniment of chanties and choruses
such as sailors love, crept slowly out to sea. In
sleepy little fishing-villages along the English
coast, you may still see craft of this romantic—and
historic—build. One little hamlet of the sort I
often visit in my dreams. Years ago I knew every
pebble on its beach. Winds and waves have
scooped out a kind of alcove in the massive cliffs.
High up, pressing closely against the rugged wall
of chalk, stands a cluster of weather-beaten cottages.
In front of them the fishing-boats are drawn up.
Nets are spread out on the beach to dry, coils of
rope lie about, and piles of tackle are everywhere.
If you are as fortunate as I should like you to be,
you will see, moving to and fro between his cottage
and his boat, a tall bronzed figure in a blue jersey
and a sou'wester. He is the most popular fisherman
in the place. He was born here; and, save for two
years of which he does not like to think, has spent
all his days on this beach. Just once he wandered.
He joined the fleet on the Dogger Bank. He worked
on the trawler that raced out and raced round and
raced back. He saw the cutters darting to and fro
between the fleet and the market. And, the more
he saw of this side of life, the less he liked it. He
returned to the quiet little cove among the cliffs.
If, some day, you can catch him in one of his leisure
hours, and in one of his garrulous moods, he may be
beguiled into telling you of the tales he heard told
on the Dogger. For, out there where they fish by
machinery, and use tackle of which the little hamlet
never dreams, the men like to poke fun at the old-fashioned
craft on the beach. And, when they
speak of the old days and the old ways, they remind
each other that, years ago, each fishing-boat was
fitted with a tank or well, constructed with
perforated sides so that the water it contained was
part and parcel of the sea through which the boat
was sailing. Into these wells the fish were transferred
from the nets immediately upon their arrival
from the deep. In this new environment the
graceful creatures gave no evidence of discontent
or resentment. They would live indefinitely in
their floating homes. But the fishermen found that,
like the fish in these Australian pens, the fish in the
wells waxed limp and listless. They lost their
flavor and sweetness. This, according to the
tradition, happened to all the fishing-boats save one.
One fisherman, and one only, brought his fish
to market in excellent condition. He landed them
at Billingsgate as healthy and brisk and firm as
though he had caught them ten minutes earlier
under London Bridge. The dealers soon learned to
distinguish between the fish from his boat and the
fish from all the others. His fish brought the
highest prices on the market, and the happy fisherman
rejoiced in his abounding prosperity. His
comrades marvelled at his success and vainly
endeavored to cajole his secret from him. He was
not to be drawn. The matter remained an inscrutable
mystery until the day of the old fisherman's
death. Then, acting upon her father's instructions,
his daughter unfolded the secret. Her
father, she said, made it a rule to keep a catfish in
the well of his boat. The catfish kept the other fish
in a ferment of agitation and alarm. They were
never at rest. And, because a catfish compelled
them to live in the well under conditions that were
approximately normal, they came to market in as
wholesome a state as though they had just been
dragged from the deep.
I often take myself into a quiet corner and remind
myself of my visit to the fish-pens or repeat to
myself the famous tradition of the catfish. I find
myself at times in a rebellious mood. Why is life
so troubled, so agitated, so disturbed? If only I
could be left alone! Why may I not fold my hands
and be quiet? I am hunted up hill and down dale;
I am driven from pillar to post. I have to work
for my living—an irksome necessity. I often have
to go out when I would rather stay in, and have to
stay in when I would rather go out. I am the prey
of antagonisms of many kinds. Life is full of
irritations, annoyances, mortifications, and disappointments.
I am not my own master. Like Paul,
I find a law that, when I would do good, evil is
present with me; the good that I would I do not and
the evil which I would not that I do. Paul found it
extremely exasperating, and so do I. If only I
could live without work and without worry and
without any of my present vexations! Why, oh
why, must there always be a catfish in my well?
A catfish is an animated compliment. I do not
suppose that a Dictionary of Oceanography or a
Cyclopædia of Pisciculture would define a catfish
precisely in that way. But I prefer my own definition
to that of the encyclopædia; it is more brief
and it is quite as accurate. A catfish, I repeat,
is an animated compliment. It is because the
fisherman values his fish that he puts the catfish
into the well to annoy them. 'I remember,' says
Dr. James Stalker, 'I remember hearing a celebrated
naturalist describe a species of jellyfish, which, he
said, lives fixed to a rock from which it never stirs.
It does not require to go in search of food, because
in the decayed tissues of its own organism there
grows a kind of seaweed on which it subsists. I
thought I had never heard of any creature so comfortable.
But the eminent naturalist who was describing
it went on to say that it is one of the very
lowest forms of animal life, and the extreme comfort
which it enjoys is the badge of its degraded
position.' Now this seems to throw a little light on
my own discontent. No fisherman would take
any pains to preserve such worthless things. When
the fisherman drops the hideous catfish into the
well, it is his way of telling the shiny creatures that
are already there of the high esteem in which he
holds them.
This leads me to Robinson Crusoe. Robinson
Crusoe caught a glimpse of this doctrine of the
catfish, and it dispelled some of his most acute
perplexities. The pity of it is that, later on, when
he found himself confronted by the gravest and
most baffling bewilderment of all, he failed to apply
to it the same vital principle. He saw the law at
work among his minor difficulties; it did not occur
to him that it might also operate among the major
ones.
A day came on which Crusoe discovered that
he was not, as he had fancied, the monarch of
all he surveyed. His sovereignty was disputed.
Everybody remembers the haunting passage about
the footprint on the sand. 'It happened one day,
about noon, going towards my boat, I was exceedingly
surprised with the print of a man's foot on
the shore. How it came thither I knew not, nor
could I in the least imagine; but after innumerable
fluttering thoughts, like a man perfectly confused
and out of myself, I came home to my fortification,
not feeling, as we say, the ground I trod upon, but
terrified to the last degree, looking behind me at
every two or three steps, mistaking every bush
and tree, and fancying every stump to be a man.
Nor is it possible to describe how many various
shapes my affrighted imagination represented things
to me in, how many wild ideas were found every
moment in my fancy, and what strange, unaccountable
whimseys came into my thoughts by the
way.' Now this story of Crusoe and the cannibals
is simply the story of the cod and the catfish in
another form. The cod would have liked the well
all to itself: it is horrified at discovering that it
must share it with a catfish!
Yet, as we have seen, the cod were the better
for the catfish; and, as Crusoe afterwards recognized,
the island was enriched by the coming of
the cannibals. Robinson Crusoe is essentially a
story with a moral; and Crusoe leaves you in no
doubt as to the moral. He is most explicit in that
regard. 'For,' he tells us, 'I began to be very
well contented with the life that I was leading, if
only I could have been secured from the dread of
the savages.' How little he thought that, so far
from hurting a single hair of his head, the savages
would provide him, in the person of his man Friday,
with the most devoted servant and most constant
friend that any man could possibly possess!
'Wherefore,' he says, in formulating the moral to
be deduced from his sensational experience, 'wherefore
it may not be amiss for all people who shall read
this story of mine to learn from it that very frequently
the evil which we seek most to shun, and
which, when we are fallen into, is the most dreadful
to us, is oftentimes the very means or door of our
deliverance, by which alone we can be raised again
from the affliction into which we have fallen.'
Now this was the minor perplexity; the major
one came later. And the extraordinary thing is
that, confronted by that larger perplexity, Crusoe's
own maxim does not seem to have recurred to him.
Crusoe has met the cannibals; they have come and
gone; and they have left Friday behind them.
Crusoe has taught Friday to speak English, and is
doing his best to store his mind with the highest
knowledge of all. 'One day,' so runs his narrative,
'I had been teaching him that the devil was God's
enemy in the hearts of men, and used all his malice
and skill to defeat the good designs of Providence,
and to ruin the kingdom of Christ in the world.
"Well," replies Friday, in broken English, "but
you say God is so strong, so great; is he not much
strong, much mighty as the devil?" "Yes, yes,
Friday," I replied, "God is stronger than the devil;
God is above the devil, and therefore we pray to
God to tread him down under our feet and enable
us to resist his temptations and quench his fiery
darts." "But," says he again, "if God much
stronger, much mighty as the wicked devil, why
God no kill the devil, so make him no more do
wicked?" I was strangely surprised at this question;
and, after all, though I was now an old man,
yet I could not tell what to say, so I pretended not
to hear him. But Friday kept repeating his question
in the same broken words: "Why God no kill
the devil?" I therefore diverted the discourse by
rising up hastily and sending him for something a
long way off.' It was the greatest humiliation that
Robinson Crusoe sustained during his long sojourn
on the island.
'Why God no kill the devil?' asked Friday. It
sometimes happens that the best way of answering
one question is to ask a few more. Let us try.
'Why God no kill the devil?' Why did the shrewd
old fisherman not kill the catfish in the well of his
boat? Why did the fish in the pens grow slack
and soft and flabby as soon as the palings and wire-netting
cut them off from the assaults of their
natural enemies? 'In the Louvre,' says Professor
William James, in his Varieties of Religious Experience,
'in the Louvre there is a picture by Guido Reni
of St. Michael with his foot on Satan's neck. The
richness of the picture is in large part due to the
fiend's figure being there. The richness of its
allegorical meaning also is due to his being there.
The world, that is to say, is all the richer for having
a devil in it, so long as we keep our foot upon
his neck.'
It is an old story. It is the tree that is buffeted
by the wind that develops the strongest roots and
the sturdiest fibre. It is in the carcase of the lion
with which he fought for his life that Samson finds
the honey. 'I did not learn to preach all at once,'
says Martin Luther, in a delightful burst of confidence.
'It was my temptations and my corruptions
that best prepared me for my pulpit. The
devil has been my best professor of exegetical and
experimental divinity. Before that great schoolmaster
took me in hand, I was a sucking child
and not a grown man. It was my combats with
sin and with Satan that made me a true minister
of the New Testament. It is always a great grace
to me, and to my people, for me to be able to say
to them, "I know this text to be true! I know it
for certain!" Without incessant combat and pain
and sweat and blood, no ignorant stripling of a
student ever yet became a powerful preacher.'
That is the lesson that I learned at the fish-pens.
That is the secret that the wise old fisherman, of
catfish fame, bequeathed to his mystified companions.
That is what Robinson Crusoe learned
in the course of his long and lonely exile. And,
in the rough and tumble of common life, there is
scarcely any lesson of greater value to be learned.
I was motoring among the semi-tropical landscapes
of Queensland. We swept past gardens that were
gay with scarlet flame trees, brilliant creepers,
bright-red corals, and bougainvilleas of many
gorgeous hues. Spread out in endless panorama
about us were orange groves, vineyards, sugar
plantations, and fields in which the pineapple, the
banana, the paw-paw, the mango, and the breadfruit
luxuriated. And then we burst into the bush,
which only differed from the bush to which I was
more accustomed in that it was sprinkled with
enormous anthills and dotted with green clumps of
prickly pear.
After several hours spent in this delightful way,
the car unexpectedly stopped, and my host and
hostess prepared to alight. I peered about me for
some explanation of their behavior, but could nowhere
discover one. There was no house to be
seen nor any sign of civilization or of settlement.
My first impulse was to remain in the car with the
driver.
'We are going a little way into the bush,' my
host explained, addressing me; 'if you care to come
with us, we shall be very pleased.'
I joined them instantly, and we were soon out
of sight of the car. We picked our way through
the thick undergrowth for about a quarter of a mile,
then emerged upon a little plot carefully fenced off
from the surrounding wilderness. It was a cemetery
only a few feet square; and it contained three
graves! It was evidently to the central one that
our pilgrimage had been made. My companions
stood in silence for a moment beside it, and then
seated themselves on the grass near by.
'In our early days,' my host explained, 'we
used to live not very far from here. It was a lonely
place and a hard life; and it had joys and sorrows
of its own. The greatest of its joys was the birth
of Don, our firstborn; and the greatest of our sorrows
was his death. He was only five when we
buried him.'
'Yes,' added his wife, brushing a tear from her
eye, 'and we buried him with a broken penknife
in his hand. A swagman who had sheltered for
the night in one of the out-buildings had given it
to him before leaving in the morning, and Don
thought it the most wonderful thing he had ever
possessed. He was working away with it from
morning to night. He would not trust it out of
his sight. He had it in his hand when, a few days
afterwards, he was taken ill. He clung to it all
through his sickness. If he dropped it in his sleep,
he asked for it as soon as he woke. He raved about
it in his delirium. And it was firmly clasped in
his hand when he died. We had not the heart
to take it from him, and so he went down to his
grave still holding it.'
Often since I have thought of that burial in the
bush, not merely because the incident was so touching,
but because it was so intensely characteristic.
A boy's infatuation for his first pocket knife! It
may have a rusty handle and a broken blade; the
edge may be as jagged as the edge of a saw and the
spring may have vanished with the days of long ago;
it makes no difference. With a knife in his hand
a boy feels that he is monarch of all he surveys.
With a knife in his hand he feels himself every
inch a man. A boy's first consciousness of power,
of dominion, of authority comes to him on the day
on which he grasps his first knife. It is by means of
a knife that he carves his way to destiny.
Civilization may be said to have dawned on the
day on which the first man in the world held in his
hand the first knife in the world. It was made of
stone, like the knives of all savage and primitive
peoples. It came into his possession almost by
chance. He was gathering together some huge
stones, and building for himself a wall. Presently
one heavy stone slipped from his hands, fell with
a crash upon another, and broke. But it was not
a clean break. There lay at that first man's feet
two large fragments of stone and a multitude of
splinters. He picked up the largest of the splinters
and found that it had a keen, sharp edge. He cut
his finger as he stroked it, and the blood crimsoned
the stone. He dropped it as he would have dropped
a snake that had bitten him. But, as he nursed
his smarting hand, he saw the possibilities that the
sharp-edged splinter opened to him. He remembered
the toil with which he had torn down branches
of trees and shaped them to his use. The splinter
would simplify his task. He forgot his lacerated
finger. He seized another stone, dashed it against
its neighbor, and, by repeating the process, soon
secured for himself a more shapely splinter—a
splinter with which he could cut down the branches
less laboriously. He tried it. He laughed as he
found that, armed with the splinter, he could hack
the yielding timber to his will. He was more
excited than he had ever been before. Here was
the first man with his first knife—the pioneer man
with the pioneer knife! For that first man was the
father of men of many colors, and that first knife
was the father of blades of many kinds. From it
sprang the sickle and the scythe, the chisel and the
saw, the spade and the tomahawk, the rapier and
the dagger, the scalpel and the poniard, the razor
and the sword.
The joy that the boy feels as he looks lovingly
on his first knife is the joy of shaping things. The
world about him has suddenly become plastic.
It is a block of marble and he is the sculptor.
He may make of it what he will. Until he possessed
a knife, the hard inanimate substances about him
defied him. He was the bird and they were the
bars. But now he defies them. The knife makes
all the difference. The knife is his sceptre. He is
a king and all things are subject to him.
He may, of course, abuse his power. He probably
will. A boy with a knife is very liable to carve
his name in the polished walnut of the piano or to
cut notches out of the neatly-turned legs of the
dining-room table. From all parts of the world
people go on pilgrimage to Westminster Abbey.
And, at the Abbey, they are shown the Coronation
Chair. Seated in it, all our English sovereigns have
been crowned, and it is encrusted with traditions
that go back to the days of the patriarchs. But a
boy with a knife feels no reverence for antiquity.
On the night of July 5, 1800, a Westminster schoolboy
got locked in the Abbey. He curled himself
up in the Coronation Chair and made it his resting-place
until morning. And, in the morning, he
thought of his pocket-knife. And, as the dawn
came streaming through the storied eastern windows,
he carved deeply into the solid oak of the
seat of the chair, the notable inscription: P. Abbot
slept in this chair, July 5, 1800. Thus he buried his
blade in one of the noblest of our great historic
treasures. It was enough to make the illustrious
dead, by whom he was everywhere surrounded, turn
in their ancient graves. George the Fourth and all
his successors have since been crowned in a Chair
that bears that impertinent record! Yet, as the chips
flew, the boy felt no compunction. And, in his
stolid calm, he is the type and representative of all
who abuse the authority with which they are invested.
He feels, as he wields the knife, that all
things are at his mercy; he can shape them to his
liking. He forgets that power carries its attendant
obligations, and that, foremost among those obligations,
is the obligation to restraint. A boy with
a knife in his hand is merely a miniature edition
of a man with a sword in his hand. And a man
with a sword in his hand is often tempted to bury
his blade in that which is even more precious than
the oak of a Coronation Chair. Piano-frames and
table-legs are not the only things that cry aloud
for protection. The greatest lesson that the world
has learned in our time is that the power of the
sword involves its possessor in a responsibility that
is simply frightful. The blood of brave men, the
tears of good women, and the hard-earned wealth of
nations must never be frivolously or lightheartedly
outpoured.
From the moment at which, with sparkling eyes,
that first man seized that first sharp splinter, the
knife has steadily grown upon the imaginations
of men. It took a thousand generations to discover
its potentialities. Indeed, our own generation
is only just beginning to realize the possibilities that
it unfolds. Think of the marvels—I had almost
said the miracles—of modern surgery.
'Let nothing share your heart with your knife!'
said Dr. Ferguson to Barney Boyle, in The Doctor
of Crow's Nest. The old doctor had just fallen in
love with Barney. He liked his looks, he liked his
temperament, and he liked his hands.
'You must be a surgeon, Barney! You've got
the fingers and the nerves! A surgeon, sir! That's
the only thing worth while. The physician can't
see further below the skin than any one else. He
guesses and experiments, treats symptoms; tries
one drug and then another. But the knife, my
boy!' The doctor rose and paced the floor in his
enthusiasm. 'The knife, boy! There's no guess
in the knifepoint. The knife lays bare the evil,
fights it, eradicates it! The knife at the proper
moment saves a man's life. A slight incision an
inch or two long, the removal of the diseased part,
a few stitches, and, in a couple of weeks, the
patient's well! Ah, boy, God knows I'd give my
life to be a great surgeon. But he didn't give me
the fingers. Look at these!' and he held up a coarse,
heavy hand. 'I haven't the touch. But you have!
You have the nerve and the fingers and the mechanical
ingenuity; you can be a great surgeon. You
shall have all my time and all my books and all
my money; I'll put you through! You must think,
dream, sleep, eat, drink bones and muscles and
sinews and nerves! Push everything else aside!' he
cried, waving his great hands excitedly. 'And remember!'—here
his voice took a solemn tone—'let
nothing share your heart with your knife!'
Let nothing share your heart with your knife!
That is always the knife's appeal. It is a plea for
concentration. I was talking to an old gardener the
other day. He was pruning his trees. The gleaming
blade was in his hand and the path was littered
with the wreckage of the branches. He seemed to
be working a shocking havoc, and I told him so.
He laughed.
'Oh, they're well-meaning things, are trees!' he
exclaimed. 'They are anxious to do their best for
you, but they attempt too much, far too much. Just
look at this one!' and he laughed again. 'It thought
it could cover all these branches with roses; and, if
we left it alone, it would try. But what sort of
roses would they be, I should like to know? No,
no, no; it is better for them to produce fewer blossoms
but to produce good ones. We mustn't let
them attempt too much!'
'Let nothing share your heart with your knife!'
said old Dr. Ferguson, as he urged Barney to do
just one thing and to do that one thing well.
'We mustn't let the rose-trees attempt too much,'
said the old gardener, as he lopped off the branches
with his pruning-knife.
That seems to be the lesson that the knife is
always teaching. I remember going one bright
afternoon to see Gregor Fawcett of Mosgiel.
Gregor was passing through a troublous and trying
time. Hard on top of heavy business losses had
come the collapse of his health. To my delight,
however, I found him in a particularly cheerful
mood.
'I've been reading aboot the knife, d'ye ken?' he
explained. 'It's a bonny passage!' He took the
open Bible from the table beside the bed and pointed
me to the fifteenth of John. 'Every branch in Me
that beareth not fruit, he cutteth away; and every
branch that beareth fruit, he pruneth it that it may
bring forth more fruit.'
'It brought me a power o' comfort,' Gregor explained.
'For it says, ye ken, that there are only
two sorts o' wood on the tree—the dead wood and
the live wood. He cuts away the dead wood for
the sake of the live wood that he leaves; and he
cuts the live wood that bears fruit so that it may
bear still more and still better fruit. Well, I thocht
o' all the losses I've had lately. I dinna ken whether
the things that have been taken were dead things
or live things, but it doesna matter. If they were
dead things, I'm better without them. And, if they
were live things, they were only cut away because
my life is like a tree that bears fruit and that may
yet bear more. And, in either case, the best
remains. The tree is the richer and not the poorer
for the pruning. The pruning only shows that the
gardener cares. Ay, it's a bonny passage that!'
and Gregor laid the open Bible lovingly on the
pillow beside him. 'After you've gone,' he said, 'I
shall go over it again!'
And, from the frequency with which he quoted
the words to buffeted spirits in the days that followed,
I could see that, on that further inspection,
Gregor had kissed the husbandman's knife even
more reverently and rapturously than before.
We badly need an Asylum for Antiquated Portraiture—a
pleasant and hospitable refuge in which
all our old photographs could be carefully preserved
and reverently handled. For lack of such an
institution we are all in difficulties. People come
into our lives; we become attached to them and
value their friendship; we exchange photographs;
and, as soon as we have done so, the inevitable
happens. The photographs get hopelessly out of
date. Friends come and go; we come and go; but
the photographs remain. Or, if the friends themselves
abide, they change; fashions change; and, in
a few years, the photographs look singularly archaic
if not positively ridiculous. They go away into a
drawer or a box. Once or twice a year a spring-cleaning
or other volcanic upheaval reminds us of
their existence. 'We must really sort these out and
destroy a lot of them!' we say; but we never do it.
Everybody knows why. It seems a betrayal of old
confidences, an outrage upon sentiment, a heartless
sacrilege. There should be an asylum for obsolete
portraiture, or, if that is out of the question, we
should do with the photographs what Nansen and
Johansen, the Polar explorers, did with their dogs.
Neither had the heart to shoot his own; so, amid
the ice and snow of the far north, they exchanged
their canine companions, and each went sadly and
silently away and shot the other's!
Such a course must, however, be regarded as a
makeshift and a subterfuge. The asylum is the
thing. I am opposed, tooth and nail, to the
destruction of old photographs under any conditions.
I spent an hour yesterday afternoon down by
the lake reading some of the love-letters that Mozart
wrote to his wife nearly two centuries ago. Poor
Johann and poor Stanzerl! They were so pitifully
penniless that when, one bitter winter's morning,
a kindly neighbor fought his way through the deep
snow to see how the young couple were getting
on, he found them dancing a waltz on the bare
boards of their narrow room. They could not
afford a fire, and this was their device for keeping
warm. And now Johann is away on a business
trip. In our time a husband so situated would
send his wife a telegram to say that he had arrived
safely, or, perhaps, buy her a picture-postcard of
the view from his hotel window. But Mozart
wrote the prettiest love-letters. 'Dear little wife,'
he says, 'if I only had a letter from you! If I
were to tell you all that I do with your dear likeness,
how you would laugh! For instance, when I take
it out of its case, I say "God greet thee, Stanzerl,
God greet thee, thou rascal, shuttlecock, pointy-nose,
nicknack, bit and sup!" And, when I put it back,
I let it slip in very slowly, saying, with each little
push, "Now—now—now!" and at the last, quickly—"Good-night,
little mouse, sleep well!"' Where
is that portrait now? I dread to hazard a conjecture!
There was, alas, no asylum to which it
could be fondly and reverently entrusted. Photographs,
like fashions, are capable of strange revivals.
One never knows when crinolines or hobble skirts
will reappear; and in the same way, one never
knows the moment at which some quaint old faded
photograph will acquire new and absorbing interest.
'Why, bless me,' you exclaim, as you lay down
the newspaper, 'here's Charlie Brown become
famous! You remember Charlie; he was the second
son of the Browns who lived opposite us at Kensington!
Why, I have a photograph of him, taken when
he was a little boy; I'll run and get it!' But alas,
it has been destroyed. Or the regret may be even
more poignant.
'Dear me,' you say, 'poor old Mary Smith is
dead!' The announcement brings with it, as such
announcements have a way of doing, a rush of
reminiscence. A simple old soul was Mary Smith.
She was very good to us, five and twenty years ago,
when the children were all small and sicknesses
were frequent. Mary always knew exactly what to
do. But we moved away, and the years went by.
Letter-writing was not in Mary's line. With the
obituary notice still before us, we talk of Mary and
the old days for awhile, and then we suddenly
remember that, when we came away, Mary gave
us her photograph. It was a quaint, old-fashioned
picture; it had been taken some years earlier; but
we were glad to have it, and we put it with the
others. We must slip up and get it! But it, too,
has vanished! Somehow, Mary living did not seem
quite so pathetic and lovable a figure as Mary dead.
At some spring-cleaning we must have glanced at
the creased and faded portrait, and, without pausing
to allow memory to do such vivid work as she has
done to-day, we must have tossed it out. We feel
horribly ashamed. If only we could recover the
old photograph we would stand it on the mantelpiece
and do it signal honor. And to think that, in
the confusion of cleaning-up, we threw it out, perhaps
tore it up, perhaps even burned it. We
shudder at the thought, and half hope that, in her
new and larger life, Mary—who seems nearer to us
now than she did before we read of her passing—does
not know that we were guilty of treachery so
base.
Thus there come into our lives moments when
photographs assert their worth and insist on being
appraised at their true value. In the stirring chapter
in which Sir Ernest Shackleton tells of the loss
of his ship among the ice-floes, he describes an
incident that must have set all his readers thinking.
In the grip of the ice, the Endurance had been
smashed to splinters; and the entire party were out
on a frozen sea at the mercy of the pitiless elements.
Shackleton came to the conclusion that their best
chance of eventually sighting land lay in marching
to the opposite extremity of the floe; at any rate,
it would give them something to do, and there is
always solace in activity. He thereupon ordered
his men to reduce their personal baggage to two
pounds weight each. For the next few hours every
man was busy in sorting out his belongings—the
treasures that he had saved from the ship. It was
a heart-breaking business. Men stole gloomily and
silently away and dug little graves in the snow, to
which they committed books, letters, and various
nicknacks of sentimental value. And, when the
final decisions had to be made, they threw
away their little hoards of golden sovereigns and
kept the photographs of their sweethearts and
wives!
The same perplexity arises, sooner or later, in
relation to the portraits and pictures on our walls.
They become obsolete; but we find it difficult to
order their removal. I had intended, long before
this, devoting an essay to the whole subject of
Pictures. Why must we smother our walls with
pictures? To begin with, the pattern of the paper
is often a series of pictures in itself, while the dado
and the border simply add to the collection. Then,
over these, we carefully arrange a multitude of
others. Paintings, engravings, and photographs
hang everywhere. Why do we cover the walls in
this way? The answer is that we cover the walls in
order to cover the walls. The walls represent an
imprisonment; the pictures represent an escape. On
the wall in front of me, for example, there hangs a
water-color sketch of Piripiki Gorge, our New
Zealand holiday resort. On a winter's night, when
the rain is lashing against the windows and the wind
shrieking round the house, I glance up at it, and,
by some magic transition, I am roaming on a summer's
evening over the old familiar hills with my
gun in my hand and John Broadbanks by my side.
Through the medium of those landscapes, how
many tireless excursions have I taken, by copse
and beach and riverbank, without so much as rising
from my chair? The photographs hanging here
and there around the room transport my mind to
other days and other places. The apartment in
which I sit may be extremely small, just as the
space that I occupy on the summit of a mountain
may be extremely small. But, occupying that small
space upon that lofty eminence, I command a view
that loses itself in infinity; and, lounging in my
comfortable chair in this little snuggery of mine,
the pictures transform it into an observatory, and
I am able to survey the entire universe. You do not
hang pictures in the cells of a jail; the reason is
obvious; you do not wish the prisoners to escape;
you think it good that they should feel the stern
tyranny of those four uncompromising walls. Conversely,
you deck the dining-room with pictures because,
there, you do not desire to feel imprisoned;
you do not wish the walls to seem tyrannical. As
Mr. Stirling Bowen sings:
Four walls enclose men, yet how calm they are!
They hang up pictures that they may forget
What walls are for in part, forget how far
They may not run and riotously let
Their laughter taunt the never-changing stars.
In circus cages wolves and tigers pace
For ever to and fro. They do not rest,
But seek so nervously the longed-for place.
Our picture-jungles would not end their quest,
Or pictures of another tiger's face.
On four square walls men have their world, their strife,
Their painted, framed endeavors, joys and pain;
And two curators known as man and wife
Hang up the sunrise, wipe the dust from rain,
And gaze excitedly on painted life.
A picture on the wall is like a window—only
more so! A window looks out on the garden or the
street; a picture is an opening into infinity. The
view from my window is controlled by circumstances.
I cannot, for example, live in this Australian
home of mine and command, from my window,
a view of York Minster, the Bridge of Sighs,
or the Rocky Mountains. And, even if I could,
the darkness of each night would enfold the pleasing
prospect in its sombre and impenetrable veil. But
the pictures do for me what windows could never
do. By means of the pictures I cut holes in the walls
and look out upon any landscape that takes my
fancy. And, when evening comes, I draw the blinds,
illumine the room from within, and the panorama
that has so delighted me in the day-time
reveals fresh charms in the softer radiance of the
lamps.
We all owe more to pictures than we have ever
yet begun to suspect. Here is a merry young romp
of a schoolboy, of tousle-head and swarthy face;
loving the open-air and hating books like poison.
A lady gives him a ponderous volume, and he turns
away with a sneer. But one day he casually opens
it. There is a colored picture. It represents
Robinson Crusoe and his man Friday in the midst
of one of their most exciting adventures. The boy—George
Borrow—seized the book, carried it off,
and never rested until he had read it from cover to
cover. It opened his eyes to the possibilities of
literature; and, to his dying day, he declared that,
but for that colored print, the world would never
have heard his name or read a line from his pen.
Nor is this all. For it is probable that, in infancy,
our minds receive their first bias towards—or away
from—sacred things from the pictures of biblical
subjects and biblical characters that are then,
wisely or unwisely, exposed to our gaze. The Face
that, in the secret chambers of our hearts, we think
of as the Face of Jesus is, in all likelihood, the Face
that we saw in the first picture-book that mother
showed us.
But I fear that I have wandered. I set out to
talk, not so much about pictures, as about photographs—photographs
in general and old photographs
in particular. Have photographs—and
especially old photographs—no ethical or spiritual
value? Is there a man living who has not, at some
time, felt himself rebuked by eyes that looked down
at him from a frame on the wall? I often feel, in
relation to the photographs around the room, as
Tennyson felt in relation to the spirits of those
whom he had loved long since and lost awhile. It
is lovely to think that those who have passed from
our sight are not, in reality, far from us. And yet—
Do we indeed desire the dead
Should still be near us at our side?
Is there no baseness we would hide?
No inner vileness that we dread?
Shall he for whose applause I strove,
I had such reverence for his blame,
See with clear eye some hidden shame
And I be lessen'd in his love?
Who has not been conscious of a similar feeling
under the searching glances of the eyes upon the
wall? They seem at times to pierce our very souls.
Tennyson came at last to the comfortable assurance
that the shrinking fear with which he thought of
his dead friends was not justified. For, he reflected,
those who have gone out of the dusk into the daylight
have acquired, not only a loftier purity, but a
larger charity.
I wrong the grave with fears untrue:
Shall love be blamed for want of faith?
There must be wisdom with great Death:
The dead shall look me thro' and thro'.
Be near us when we climb or fall:
Ye watch, like God, the rolling hours
With larger other eyes than ours,
To make allowance for us all.
It is pleasant to transfer that thought to the
photographs around the room. They hang there all
day and every day; they hear all that we say and
see all that we do; those quiet eyes seem to read
us narrowly. Yet if, on the one hand, they see more
in these secret souls of ours to blame, it is possible
that, on the other, they see more to pity. The judgements
that we most dread are the judgements of
those who only partly understand. The drunkard
shrinks from the eyes of those who see his
debauchery but know nothing of his temptation.
There is something wonderfully comforting and
strengthening in the clear eyes of those who see,
not a part merely, but the whole.
Charles Simeon, of Cambridge, adorned his study
wall with a fine picture of Henry Martyn. It is
very difficult to say which of the two owed most to
the other. In the days when he was groping after
the light, Henry Martyn—then a student—fell
under the influence of Mr. Simeon, and no other
minister helped him so much. But, later on, when
Henry Martyn was illumining the Orient with the
light of the gospel, his magnetic personality and
heroic example exerted a remarkable authority over
the ardent mind of the eminent Cambridge scholar.
Mr. Simeon began to feel that, in some subtle and
inexplicable way, the portrait on the wall was
influencing his whole life. The picture was more
than a picture. A wave of reverential admiration
swept over him whenever he glanced up at it. He
caught himself talking to it, and it seemed to speak
to him. His biographer says that 'Mr. Simeon
used to observe of Martyn's picture, while looking
up at it with affectionate earnestness, as it hung
over his fireplace: "There! see that blessed man!
What an expression of countenance! No one
looks at me as he does! He never takes his eyes
off me, and seems always to be saying: Be serious!
Be in earnest! Don't trifle! don't trifle!" Then
smiling at the picture and gently bowing, he added:
"And I won't trifle; I won't trifle!"' His friends
always felt that the photograph over the fireplace
was one of the most profound and effective influences
in the life and work of Charles Simeon; and
nobody who treasures a few reproving and inspiring
pictures of the kind will have the slightest difficulty
in believing it.
The photographs upon my wall are never tyrannical;
else why should I prefer them to the cold,
imprisoning walls? But, though never tyrannical,
they are always authoritative. They speak, not
harshly, but firmly. In the nature of the case, these
are the faces I revere—the faces of those whom
I have enthroned within my heart. Being enthroned,
they command. They sometimes say Thou
shalt: they sometimes say Thou shalt not. They
sometimes suggest; they sometimes prohibit.
And now, before I lay down my pen, shall I
reveal the circumstance that led me to this train
of thought? I am writing at Easter-time. On
Good Friday a lady presented me with an exquisitely
sad but unspeakably beautiful picture—a picture
of the Thorn-crowned Face. Where am I to hang
it? It will insist, tenderly but firmly, on a suitable
and harmonious environment. Henry Drummond
used to tell of a Cambridge undergraduate whose
sweetheart visited his room. She found its walls
covered with pictures of actresses and racehorses.
She said nothing, but, on his birthday, presented
him with a picture like this. A year later she again
called on him at Cambridge. The Thorn-crowned
Face hung over the fireplace; and the other walls
were adorned with charming landscapes and reproductions
of famous paintings. He caught her
glancing at her gift.
'It's made a great difference to the room,' he said;
'what's more, it's made a great difference in me!'
That is a way our pictures have. They insist on
ruling everything and everybody. I have no right
to enthrone a despot in my home; nor to exalt a
Thorn-crowned King unless I am prepared to make
Him Lord of all.