How Brian, having instituted inquiries, condemns his Uncle secretly—How
Terry throws light upon a dark subject, and how, for the third
time, Love "finds out his way."
It is the evening of the next day, and dinner at Coole has
just come to an end. Mr. Kelly, who has been Brian's guest
for the last fortnight, and who is to remain as long as suits him
or as long after the grouse-shooting in August as he wills,
has taken himself into the garden to smoke a cigar. This he
does at a hint from Brian.
Now, finding himself alone with his uncle, Brian says, in the
casual tone of one making an indifferent remark,—
"By the bye, I can see you are not on good terms with
those old ladies at Moyne."
As he speaks he helps himself leisurely to some strawberries,
and so refrains from looking at his uncle.
"No," says The Desmond, shortly.
"Some old quarrel I have been given to understand."
"I should prefer not speaking about it," says the squire.
"Twinges of conscience even at this remote period," thinks
Brian, and is rather tickled at the idea, as he lifts his head to
regard his uncle in a new light,—that is, as a regular Don
Juan.
"Well, of course, I dare say I should not have mentioned
the subject," he says, apologetically; "but I had no idea it
was a sore point. It was not so much bad taste on my part as
ignorance. I beg your pardon!"
"It was a very unhappy affair altogether," says Don Juan.
"Very unfortunate indeed, from what I have heard."
"More than unfortunate!—right down disgraceful!" says
the squire, with such unlooked-for energy as raises astonishment
in the breast of his nephew. ("By Jove, one would
think the old chap had only now awakened to a sense of his
misconduct," he thinks, irreverently.)
"Oh, well," he says, leniently, "hardly that, you know."
"Quite that," emphatically.
"It has been often done before: yours is not a solitary
case."
"Solitary or not, there were elements about it inexcusable,"
says the old squire, beating his hand upon the table as though
to emphasize his words.
"I wouldn't take it so much to heart if I were you," says
Brian, who is really beginning to pity him.
"It has lain on my heart for twenty years. I can't take it
off now," says the squire.
"You have evidently suffered," returns Brian, who is getting
more and more amazed at the volcano he has roused.
"Of course I can quite understand that if you were once more
to find yourself in similar circumstances you would act very
differently."
"I should indeed!—very differently. A man seldom makes
a fool of himself twice in a lifetime."
("He's regretting her now," thinks Brian.)
But out loud he says,—
"You didn't show much wisdom, I daresay."
"No, none; and as for her,—to fling away such a love as
that——" Here he pauses, and looks dreamily at the silver
tankard before him.
This last speech rather annoys Brian; to gloat over the
remembrance of a love that had been callously cast aside to
suit the exigences of the moment, seems to the younger man a
caddish sort of thing not to be endured.
("Though what the mischief any pretty girl of nineteen
could have seen in him," he muses, gazing with ill-concealed
amazement at his uncle's ugly countenance, "is more than I
can fathom.")
"Perhaps it wasn't so deep a love as you imagine," he cannot
refrain from saying a propos to his uncle's last remark, with
a view to taking him down a peg.
"It was, sir," says the Squire, sternly. "It was the love
of a lifetime. People may doubt as they will, but I know no
love has superseded it."
"Oh, he is in his dotage!" thinks Brian, disgustedly; and,
rising from the table, he makes a few more trivial remarks, and
then walks from the dining-room on to the balcony and so to
the garden beneath.
Finding his friend Kelly in an ivied bower, lost in a cigar,
and possibly, though improbably, in improving meditation, he
is careful not to disturb him, but, making a successful detour,
escapes his notice, and turns his face towards that part of
Coole that is connected with Moyne by means of the river.
At Moyne, too, dinner has come to an end, and, tempted
by the beauty of the quiet evening, the two old ladies and the
children have strolled into the twilit garden.
There is a strange and sweet hush in the air—a stillness
full of life—but slumberous life. The music of streams can
be heard, and a distant murmur from the ocean; but the birds
have got their heads beneath their wings, and the rising night-wind
wooes them all in vain.
Shadows numberless are lying in misty corners; the daylight
lingers yet, as though loath to quit us and sink into
eternal night. It is an eve of "holiest mood," full of tranquillity
and absolute calm.
"It is that hour of quiet ecstasy,
When every rustling wind that passes by
The sleeping leaf makes busiest minstrelsy."
"You are silent, Priscilla," says Miss Penelope, glancing
at her.
"I am thinking. Such an eve as this always recalls Katherine;
and yesterday that meeting,—all has helped to bring the
past most vividly before me."
"Ah, dear, yes," says Miss Penelope, regarding her with a
furtive but tender glance. "How must he have felt, when he
thought what grief he brought to her young life!"
"You are talking of mother?" asks Kit, suddenly, letting
her large dark eyes rest on Miss Penelope's face, as though
searching for latent madness there.
"Yes, my dear, of course."
"He would not have dared so to treat her had her father
been alive or had we been blessed with a brother," says Miss
Priscilla, sternly. "He proved himself a dastard and a coward."
"Perhaps there was some mistake," says Monica, timidly,
plucking a pale blossom and pretending to admire it.
"No, no. We believe he contracted an affection for some
other girl, and for her sake jilted your mother. If so, retribution
fit and proper followed on his perfidy, because he
brought no wife later on to grace his home. Doubtless he was
betrayed in his turn. That was only just."
"There seems to be reason in that conjecture," says Miss
Penelope, "because he went abroad almost immediately. I
saw him shortly before he left the country, and he was then
quite a broken-down man. He must have taken his own misfortune
greatly to heart."
"Served him right!" says Miss Priscilla, uncompromisingly.
"He deserved no greater luck. Your mother suffered
so much at his hands that she almost lost her health. I don't
believe she ever got over it."
"Oh, yes, she did," says Terry, suddenly; "she got over
it uncommonly well. We didn't know who Mr. Desmond was
then, of course; but I know she used to make quite a joke of
him."
"A joke!" says Miss Priscilla, in an awful tone.
"Yes, regular fun, you know," goes on Terence, undaunted.
"One day she was telling father some old story about Mr.
Desmond, a 'good thing' she called it, and she was laughing
heartily; but he wasn't, and when she had finished, I remember,
he said something to her about want of 'delicacy of feeling,'
or something like that."
"I was there," says Kit, in her high treble. "He said, too,
she ought to be ashamed of herself."
"Oh, that was nothing," says Mr. Beresford, airily. "Father
and mother never agreed for a moment; they were always
squabbling from the time they got up till they went to bed
again."
The Misses Blake have turned quite pale.
"Terence how can you speak so of your sainted mother?"
says Miss Penelope. "I'm sure, from her letters to us, she
was a most devoted mother and wife, and, indeed, sacrificed
her every wish and pleasure to yours."
"I never knew it cost her so much to keep away from us,"
says Terence. "If she was dying for our society, she must indeed
have sacrificed herself, because she made it the business
of her life to avoid us from morn to dewy eve."
"Doubtless she had her duties," says Miss Penelope, in a
voice of suppressed fear. What is she going to hear next?
what are these dreadful children going to say?
"Perhaps she had," said Terence. "If so, they didn't
agree with her, as she was always in a bad temper. She used
to give it to papa right and left, until he didn't dare to call his
soul his own. When I marry, I shall take very good care my
wife doesn't lead me the life my mother led my father."
"Your wife! who'd marry you?" says Kit, scornfully, which
interlude gives the discussion a rest for a little time. But soon
they return to the charge.
"Your mother when here had an angelic temper," says Miss
Penelope. Miss Priscilla all this time seems incapable of
speech.
"Well, she hadn't when there," says Terence; and then he
says a dreadful thing, as vulgar as it is dreadful, that fills his
aunt's heart with dismay. "She and my father fought like cat
and dog," he says; and the Misses Blake feel their cup is indeed
full.
"And she never would take Monica anywhere," says Kit;
"so selfish!"
It is growing too terrible. Is their idol to be shattered thus
before their eyes?
"Monica, was your mother unkind to you?" says Miss Penelope,
in a voice full of anguish. After all these years, is the
Katherine of their affections to be dragged in the dust?
Monica hesitates. She can see the grief in her aunt's face,
and cannot bear to add to it. The truth is that the late Mrs.
Beresford had not been beloved by her children, for reasons
which it will be possible to conceive, but which would be tiresome
to enumerate here. Perhaps there seldom had been a
more careless or disagreeable mother.
So Monica pauses, flushes, glances nervously from right to
left, and then back again, and finally rests her loving, regretful
eyes full upon Miss Penelope's agitated face.
Something she sees there decides her. Sinking to her
knees, she flings her arms around the old lady's neck, and lays
her cheek to hers.
"I will say nothing, but that I am happy here," she says, in
a low whisper.
Miss Penelope's arms close round her. The worst has come
to her; yet there is solace in this clinging embrace, and in the
dewy lips that seek hers. If she has lost one idol, who can
say she has not gained another, and perhaps a worthier one?
Yet beyond doubt the two old ladies have sustained a
severe shock: they hold down their heads, and for a long time
avoid each other's eyes, as though fearing what may there be
seen.
"Let us walk round the garden, Aunt Priscilla," says Monica,
feeling very sorry for them. "The evening is lovely, and
the roses so sweet."
"Come then," says Miss Priscilla, who is perhaps glad to
escape from her own thoughts. And so they all wander to and
fro in the pretty garden, bending over this flower and lingering
over that in a soft, idle sort of enjoyment that belongs alone to
the country.
Terence had disappeared, but, as he is not great on flowers,
his presence is not indispensable, and no one takes any notice
of his defection.
Presently they come upon the old gardener, who is also the
old coachman, upon his bended knees beside a bed. The
whole garden is scrupulously raked and scrupulously weeded
till not a fault can be found. But Miss Priscilla is one of those
who deem it necessary always to keep a servant up to his
trumps.
Stooping over the bed, therefore, she carefully adjusts her
glasses upon her nose, and proceeds to examine with much
minuteness the earth beneath her. A tiny green leaf attracts
her notice.
"Corney, is that a weed?" she asks, severely. "I certainly
remember sowing some seeds in this place; but that has a
weedy look."
"It's seeds, miss," says Corney, "Ye'd know it by the
curl of it."
"I hope so, I hope so," says Miss Priscilla, doubtfully, "but
there's a common cast about it. It reminds me of groundsel.
Corney, whatever you do, don't grow careless."
"Faix, I'm too ould a hand for that, miss," says Corney.
"But, to tell the truth, I think myself, now, not to desaive ye,
that the leaf ye mentioned is uncommon like the groundsel.
You ought to be proud of yer eyes, Miss Priscilla; they're as
clear as they were twinty years ago."
Greatly mollified by this compliment, Miss Priscilla declines
to scold any more, and, the groundsel forgotten, moves onward
to a smooth piece of sward on which a cartload of large white
stones from the seashore has been ruthlessly thrown.
"What is this?" she says, indignantly, eying the stones
with much disfavor. "Corney, come here! Who flung those
stones down on my green grass?"
"The rector, miss. He sent his man wid a load of 'em,
and 'tis there they left 'em."
"A most unwarrantable proceeding!" says Miss Priscilla,
who is in her managing mood. "What did Mr. Warren mean
by that?"
"Don't you think it was kind of him to draw them for our
rookery, my dear Priscilla?" says Miss Penelope, suggestively.
"No, I don't," says Miss Priscilla. "To bring cartloads of
nasty large stones and fling them down upon my velvet grass
on which I pride myself (though you may think nothing of it,
Penelope) is not kind. I must say it was anything but nice,—anything
but gentlemanly."
"My dear, he is quite a gentleman, and a very good man."
"That may be. I suppose I am not so uncharitable as to be
rebuked for every little word; but to go about the country destroying
people's good grass, for which I paid a shilling a pound,
is not gentlemanly. Katherine, what are you laughing at?"
"At the stones," says Kit.
"There is nothing to laugh at in a stone. Don't be silly,
Katherine. I wonder, Monica, you don't make it the business
of your life to instil some sense into that child. The idea of
standing still to laugh at a stone."
"Better do that than stand still to cry at it," says the
younger Miss Beresford, rebelliously. Providentially, the remark
is unheard; and Monica, scenting battle in the breeze, says,
hastily,—
"Do you remember the roses at Aghyohillbeg, auntie?
Well, I don't think any of them were as fine as this," pointing
to a magnificent blossom near her. It is the truth, and it
pleases Miss Priscilla mightily, she having a passion for her
roses. And so peace is once more restored.
"It grows chilly," says Miss Penelope, presently.
"Yes; let us all go in," says Miss Priscilla.
"Oh, not yet, auntie; it is quite lovely yet," says Monica,
earnestly. She cannot go in yet, not yet; the evening is still
young, and—and she would like so much to go down to the
river, if only for a moment. All this she says guiltily to herself.
"Well we old women will go in at least," says Miss Penelope.
"You two children can coquet with the dew for a little
while; but don't stay too long, or sore throats will be the result."
"Yes, yes," says Miss Priscilla, following her sister. As
she passes Monica, she looks anxiously at the girl's little slight
fragile figure and her slender throat and half-bared arms.
"That dress is thin. Do not stay out too long. Take care
of yourself, my darling." She kisses her pretty niece, and then
hurries on, as though ashamed of this show of affection.
A little troubled by the caress, Monica moves mechanically
down the path that leads towards the meadows and the river,
followed by Kit. By this time the latter is in full possession
of all that happened yesterday,—at least so much of it as relates
to Monica's acquaintance with Mr. Desmond (minus the
tender passages), his uncle's encounter with her aunts, and
Brian's subsequent dismissal. Indeed, so much has transpired
in the telling of all this that Kit, who is a shrewd child, has come
to the just conclusion that the young Mr. Desmond is in love
with her Monica!
Strange to say, she is not annoyed at his presumption, but
rather pleased at it,—he being the first live lover she has ever
come in contact with, and therefore interesting in no small degree.
Now, as she follows her sister down the flowery pathway,
her mind is full of romance, pure and sweet and great with
chivalry, as a child's would be. But Monica is sad and taciturn.
Her mind misgives her, conscience pricks her, her soul
is disquieted within her.
What was it she had promised Aunt Priscilla yesterday?
Aunt Priscilla had said, "For the future you will remember
this?" and she had answered, "Yes."
But how can she forget? It was a foolish promise, for who
has got a memory under control?
Of course, Aunt Priscilla had meant her to understand that
she was never to speak to Mr. Desmond again, and she had
given her promise in the spirit. And of course she would be
obedient; she would at least so far obey that she would not be
the first to speak to him, nor would she seek him—nor——But
why, then, is she going to the river? Is it because the evening
is so fine, or is there no lurking hope of——
And, after all, what certainty is there that—that—any one
will be at the river at this hour? And even if they should be,
why need she speak to him? she can be silent; but if he
speaks to her, what then? Can she refuse to answer?
Her mind is as a boat upon a troubled sea, tossed here and
there; but by and by the wind goes down, and the staunch boat
is righted, and turns its bow toward home.
"Kit, do not let us go to the river to-night," she says, turning
to face her sister in the narrow path.
"But why? It is so warm and light, and such a little
way!"
"You have been often there. Let us turn down this side
of the meadow, and see where it will lead to."
That it leads directly away from Coole there cannot be the
least doubt; and the little martyr treading the ground she
would not, feels with an additional pang of disappointment that
the fulfilment of her duty does not carry with it the thrill of
rapture that ought to suffuse her soul. No, not the faintest
touch of satisfaction at her own heroism comes to lighten the
bitter regret she is enduring as she turns her back deliberately
on the river and its chances. She feels only sorrow, and the
fear that some one will think her hard-hearted, and she could
cry a little, but for Kit and shame's sake.
"Monica, who is that?" exclaims Kit, suddenly, staring
over the high bank, beside which they are walking, into the
field beyond. Following her glance, Monica sees a crouching
figure on the other side of this bank, but lower down, stealing
cautiously, noiselessly, towards them, as though bent on secret
murder. A second glance betrays the fact that it is Terence,
with—yes, most positively with a gun!
"Where on earth did he get it?" says Kit; and, unable
to contain her curiosity any longer, she scrambles up the bank,
and calls out, "Terry, here we are! Come here! Where did
you get it?" at the top of her fresh young lungs.
As she does so, a little gray object, hitherto unseen by her,
springs from among some green stuffs, and, scudding across
the field into the woods of Coole beyond, is in a moment lost
to view.
"Oh, bother!" cries Terry, literally dancing with rage; "I
wouldn't doubt you to make that row just when I was going to
fire. I wish to goodness you girls would stay at home, and
not come interfering with a fellow's sport. You are always
turning up at the wrong moment, and just when you're not
wanted!—indeed you ever are!"
These elegant and complimentary remarks he hurls at their
heads, as though with the wish to annihilate them. But they
haven't the faintest effect: the Misses Beresford are too well
accustomed to his eloquence to be dismayed by it. They
treat it, indeed, as a matter of course, and so continue their
inquiries uncrushed.
"Terry, where did you get this gun?" asks Monica, as
breathless with surprise as Kit. "Is it"—fearfully—"loaded?
Oh! don't!—don't point it this way! It will surely go off and
kill somebody."
Here she misses her footing and slips off the high bank,
disappearing entirely from view, only to reappear again
presently, flushed but uninjured.
"What a lovely gun!" says Kit, admiringly.
"Isn't it?" says Terence, forgetting his bad temper in his
anxiety to exhibit his treasure. "It's a breech-loader, too;
none of your old-fashioned things, mind you, but a reg'lar
good one. I'll tell you who lent it to me, if you'll promise not
to peach."
"We won't," says Kit, who is burning with curiosity.
"Guess, then."
"Bob Warren?" says Monica. Bob Warren is the rector's
son, and is much at Moyne.
"Not likely! Pegs above him. Well, I'll tell you. It's
that fellow that's spoons on you,"—with all a brother's perspicacity,—"the
fellow who saw us on the hay-cart,"—Monica
writhes inwardly,—"Desmond, you know!"
"The enemy's nephew?" asks Kit, in a thrilling tone,
that bespeaks delight and a malicious expectation of breakers
ahead.
"Yes. I was talking to him yesterday, early in the day,
at Madam O'Connor's; and he asked me was I your brother,
Monica, to which I pleaded guilty, though," with a grin, "I'd
have got out of it if I could; and then he began to talk about
shooting, and said I might knock over any rabbits I liked in
Coole. I told him I had no gun, so he offered to lend me one.
I thought it was awfully jolly of him, considering I was an
utter stranger, and that; but he looks a real good sort. He
sent over the gun this morning by a boy, and I have had it
hidden in the stable until now. I thought I'd never get out of
that beastly garden this evening."
"Oh, Terence, you shouldn't have taken the gun from him,"
says Monica, flushing. "Just think what Aunt Priscilla would
say if she heard of it. You know how determined she is that
we shall have no intercourse with the Desmonds."
"Stuff and nonsense!" says Mr. Beresford. "I never
heard such a row as they are forever making about simply
nothing. Why, it's quite a common thing to jilt a girl, nowadays.
I'd do it myself in a minute."
"You won't have time," says Kit, contemptuously. "She—whoever
she may be—will be sure to jilt you first."
"Look here," says Terence, eyeing his younger sister with
much disfavor; "you're getting so precious sharp, you know,
that I should think there'll be a conflagration on the Liffey before
long; and I should think, too, that an outraged nation
would be sure to fling the cause of it into the flames. So take
care."
"Terence, you ought to send that gun back at once," says
Monica.
"Perhaps I ought, but certainly I shan't," says Terence,
genially. "And if I were you," politely, "I wouldn't make
an ass of myself. There is quite enough of that sort of thing
going on up there," indicating, by a wave of his hand, the
drawing-room at Moyne, where the Misses Blake are at present
dozing.
"You shouldn't speak of them like that," says Monica;
"it is very ungrateful of you, when you know how kind they
are, and how fond of you."
"Well, I'm fond of them, too," says Terence, remorsefully
but gloomily; "and I'd be even fonder if they would only
leave me alone. But they keep such a look-out on a fellow
that sometimes I feel like cutting the whole thing and making
a clean bolt of it."
"If you ran away you would soon be wishing yourself back
again," says Monica, scornfully. "You know you will have no
money until you are twenty-one. People pretend to be discontented,
at times, with their lives; but in the long run they
generally acknowledge 'there is no place like home.'"
"No, thank goodness, there isn't," says Terence, with
moody fervor. "I'll acknowledge it at once, without the run.
To have frequent repetitions of it would be more than human
nature could endure. I have known two homes already; I
should think a third would be my death."
So saying, he shoulders the forbidden gun and marches
off.
Monica and Kit, getting down from their elevated
position, also pursue their path, which leads in a contrary
direction.
"Monica," says Kit, presently, slipping her slender brown
fingers through her sister's arm, "what did Terry mean just now,
when he spoke about some one being 'spoons' on you? Does
that mean being in love with you?"
No answer.
"Is Mr. Desmond, then, in love with you?"
No answer.
"Is he?"
"Oh, Kit, how can I answer such a question as that?"
"In words, I suppose. Is he in love with you?"
"I don't know," says Monica, in a troubled tone. "If I
ever had a lover before, I should know; but——"
"That means he is," says the astute Kit. "And I'm
sure," with a little loving squeeze of her arm, "I don't wonder
at it."
"You must not say that," says Monica, earnestly. "Indeed,
he said a few things to me, but that is nothing; and——"
"You think he likes you?"
"Yes," reluctantly.
"I believe he adores the very ground you walk on."
"Oh, no, indeed."
"If you say that, he isn't a real lover. A real one, to my
mind, ought to be ready and willing to kiss the impressions
your heels may make in the earth."
"That would be the act of a fool; and Mr. Desmond is not
a fool."
"Ergo, not a lover. And yet I think he is yours. Monica,"
coaxingly, "did he say any pretty things to you?"
"What should he say? I only met him twice."
"You are prevaricating," gazing at her severely. "Why
don't you answer me honestly?"
"I don't know what you call 'pretty things.'"
"Yes, you do. Did he tell you your eyes were deep, deep
wells of love, and that your face was full of soul?"
"No, he did not," says Monica, somewhat indignantly;
"certainly not. The idea!"
"Well, that is what Percival said to the girl he loved
in the book I was reading yesterday," says Kit, rather cast
down.
"Then I'm very glad Mr. Desmond isn't like Percival."
"I daresay he is nicer," says Kit, artfully. Then she
tucks her arm into her sister's, and looks fondly in her face.
"He must have said something to you," she says. "Darling
love, why won't you tell your own Kitten all about it?"
A little smile quivers round Monica's lips.
"Well, I will, then," she says. In her heart I believe she
is glad to confide in somebody, and why not in Kit the sympathetic?
"First, he made me feel he was delighted to meet
me again. Then he asked me to go for a walk alone with him;
then he said he was—my lover!"
"Oh!" says Kit, screwing up her small face with delight.
"And then he asked me to meet him again to-day with
you."
"With me! I think that was very delicate of him." She is
evidently flattered by this notice of her existence. Plainly, if
not the rose in his estimation, she is to be treated with the
respect due to the rose's sister. It is all charming! she feels
wafted upwards, and incorporated, as it were, in a real love
affair. Yes, she will be the guardian angel of these thwarted
lovers.
"And what did you say?" she asks, with a gravity that
befits the occasion.
"I refused," in a low tone.
"To meet him?"
"Yes."
"With me?" says this dragon of propriety.
"Yes."
"But why?"
"Because of Aunt Priscilla." And then she tells her all
about Aunt Priscilla's speech in the carriage, and her reply
to it.
"I never heard such a rubbishy request in my life!" says
the younger Miss Beresford, disdainfully. "It is really beneath
notice. And when all is told it means nothing. As I read it,
it seems you have only promised to forget you ever spoke to
Mr. Desmond: you haven't promised never to speak to him
again." Thus the little Jesuit.
"That was not what Aunt Priscilla meant."
"If she meant anything, it was folly. And, after all, what
is this dreadful quarrel between us and the Desmonds all
about? It lives in Aunt Priscilla's brain. I'll tell you what I
think, Monica. I think Aunt Priscilla was once in love with
old Mr. Desmond, and mother cut her out; and now, just
because she has been disappointed in her own love-affair, she
wants to thwart you in yours."
"She doesn't, indeed. Any one but Mr. Desmond might
show me attention, and she would be pleased. She was quite
glad when Mr. Ryde—well—when he made himself agreeable
to me."
"From all you told me of him, he must have made himself
dis-agreeable. I'm perfectly certain I should hate Mr. Ryde,
and I'm equally sure I should like Mr. Desmond. What did
he say to you, darling, when you refused to meet him even with
me?" She lays great stress on this allusion to herself.
"He said I might do as I chose, but that he would meet me
again, whether I liked it or not, and soon!"
"Now, that's the lover for me!" says Kit, enthusiastically.
"No giving in, no shilly-shallying, but downright determination.
He's an honest man, and we all know what an honest man is,—'the
noblest work of God.' I'm certain he will keep his
word, and I do hope I shall be with you when next you meet
him, as I should like to make friends with him."
At this moment it occurs to Monica that she never before
knew how very, very fond she is of Kit.
"Oh, well, I don't suppose I can see him again for ever so
long," she says. But even as the words pass her lips she
knows she does not mean them, and remembers with a little
throb of pleasure that he had said he would see her again
soon. Soon! why, that might mean this evening,—now,—any
moment! Instinctively she lifts her head and looks around
her, and there, just a little way off, is a young man coming
quickly towards her, bareheaded and in evening dress.
"I told you how it would be," says Kit, in a nervous
whisper, taking almost a bit out of poor Monica's arm in her
excitement. "Oh, when I have a lover I hope he will be like
he."
Her grammar has gone after her nerve.
Monica is silent: some color has gone from her cheeks, and
her heart is beating faster. It is her very first affaire, so we
must forgive her: a little frightened shadow has fallen into
her eyes, and altogether she looks a shade younger than usual:
she is troubled in spirit, and inclined to find fault with the
general management of things.
After all, she might as well have gone to the river this
evening for what good her abstinence has done her: the
poverty of our strength to conquer faith and the immutability
of its decrees fills her with consternation and a fretful desire
for freedom. Yet above and beyond all these vain imaginings
is a gladness and a pride that her power is strong enough to
draw her lover to her side in spite of all difficulties.
The bareheaded young man has come up to her by this
time, and is holding out his hand: silently she lays her own in
it, and colors treacherously as his fingers close on hers in a
close, tender, and possessive fashion.
"I found the river too chilly," he says, smiling, "so I came
on here. Having been unsuccessful all the afternoon and
morning, I knew I should find you now."
This might be hieroglyphics to others, but is certainly English
to her, however she may pretend otherwise; she doesn't
pretend much, to do her justice.
"This is your sister?" goes on Desmond, looking at Kit,
who is regarding him with an eye that is quite a "piercer."
"Yes," says Monica. "Kit, this is Mr. Desmond."
"I know that," says this enfant terrible, still fixing him with
a glance of calm and searching scrutiny that is well calculated
to disconcert even a bolder man. Then all at once her mind
seems made up, and, coming forward, she holds out her hand,
and says, "How d'ye do?" to him, with a sudden, rare sweet
smile that convinces him at once of her sisterhood to Monica.
"We are friends?" he says, being attracted to the child for
her own grace alone, as well as for the charm of her relationship
to the pale snowdrop of a girl beside her.
"Yes. If you prove true to my Monica."
"Oh, Kit!" says Monica, deeply shocked; but Kit pays no
heed, her eyes being fastened gravely upon the man before her.
He is quite as grave as she is.
"If our friendship depends upon that, it will be a lasting
one," he says, quietly. "My whole life is at your sister's service."
Something in his tones touches Monica: slowly she lifts
her eyes until they reach his.
"I wish, I wish you would not persist in this," she says,
sadly.
"But why? To think of you is my chiefest joy. Do you
forbid me to be happy?"
"No—but—"
"In the morning and the afternoon I went to the river, to
look for you—in vain; after dinner I went too, still hoping
against hope; and now at last that I have found you, you are
unkind to me!" He speaks lightly, but his eyes are earnest.
"Miss Katherine," he says appealingly to Kit, "of your grace,
I pray you to befriend me."
"Monica would not go to the river this evening because
she remembered an absurd promise she made to Aunt Priscilla,
and because she feared to meet you there. It is the most
absurd promise in the world: wait till you hear it." Whereupon
Kit, who is in her element, proceeds to tell him all about
Miss Priscilla's words to Monica, and Monica's answer, and
her (Kit's) interpretation thereof. "She certainly didn't
promise never to speak to you again," concludes she, with a
nod Solomon might have envied.
Need it be said that Mr. Desmond agrees with her on all
points?
"There is no use in continuing the discussion," says
Monica, turning aside a little coldly. "I should not have gone
to the river, anyway."
This chilling remark produces a blank indescribable, and
conversation languishes: Monica betrays an interest in the
horizon never before developed; Mr. Desmond regards with a
moody glance the ripening harvest; and Kit, looking inward,
surveys her mental resources and wonders what it is her duty
to do next.
"For aught that ever I could read,
Could ever hear by tale or history,
The course of true love never did run smooth."
This much she knows; and to any one blessed with a vision
sharp as hers it is very apparent now that there is a roughness
somewhere. She knows too, through many works of fiction,
that those in attendance on loving couples should at certain
seasons see cause to absent themselves from their duty, and
search for a supposititious handkerchief or sprain an unoffending
ankle, or hunt diligently in hedgerows for undiscoverable
flowers. Three paths therefore lie open to her; which to
adopt is the question. To return to the house for a handkerchief
would be a decidedly risky affair, calculated to lead up
to stiff and damning cross-examination from the aunts, which
might prove painful; to sprain an ankle might prove even
painfuller; but to dive into the innocent hedgerow for the
extraction of summer flowers, what can be more effectual and
reasonable? she will do it at once.
"Oh, what lovely dog-roses!" she says, effusively, in a
tone that wouldn't have deceived a baby; "I really must get
some."
"Let me get them for you," says Desmond, gloomily, which
she at once decides is excessively stupid of him, and she doing
all she can for him too! She tries to wither him with a
glance, but he is too miserable to be lightly crushed.
"No, thank you," she says; "I prefer getting them myself.
Flowers are like fruit, much more enjoyable when you
pick them with your own hands."
So saying, this accomplished gooseberry skips round the
corner, leaving Monica and Mr. Desmond tete-a-tete.
That they enjoy their sudden isolation just at first is
questionable: Monica discovers blots on the perfect horizon;
and Mr. Desmond, after a full minute's pause, says, reproachfully,—
"You didn't really mean that, did you?"
"Mean what?" uncompromisingly, and without changing
position.
"That even if matters had been quite—quite comfortable
with us, you would not have gone to meet me at the river?"
"I don't know," in a low tone.
"Say you didn't mean it."
"I—suppose I didn't," even lower.
"Look at me, then," says Mr. Desmond.
Kit, in her high, sweet voice, is warbling that little, pretty
thing about a "lover and his lass," in the next field. The
words of her song, and its silly refrain of
"A hey, and a ho, and a hey nonino,"
come to them across the corn and scented meadow. Monica,
with her hand in his, smiles faintly.
"You hear what she sings,—'that life is but a flower:' is
it wise, then, to set your heart upon——"
"You?"
"I meant, an impossibility."
"Which you are not. You shall not be. I don't believe
in impossibilities, to begin with; and, even if it were so, I
should still prefer to be unwise."
"You are defiant," she says, lightly; but her smile is
still very sad.
"I have hope. 'Affection's ground is beyond time,
place, and all mortality,' as we read. I shall conquer yet;
yes, even your prejudices. In the mean time, give me fair
play; do not harden your heart against me."
"I wish mine was the only hard heart you had to contend
against," returns she, with a faint sigh. But this remark
seems to drop so carelessly from her lips that, though elated
by it, he is afraid to take any open notice of it.
"I hope your aunts were not cross to you last evening on
my account?" he says, anxiously.
"No. Nothing was said, more than Kit told you, except
that Aunt Priscilla touched upon the point of introduction.
Oh, what a fright I got then! If she had persisted in her inquiries,
what would have become of me?"
"Couldn't you have——" began Mr. Desmond, and then
stops abruptly. A glance at the face uplifted to his checks his
half-uttered speech effectually, and renders him, besides,
thoroughly ashamed of himself.
"If I had to confess there had been no introduction,"
goes on Monica, laughingly, "I don't know what would have
been the result."
"The deluge, I suppose," returns her companion thoughtfully.
"What a pity you have an uncle at all!" says Monica, presently.
"It would be all right only for him." She omits to
say what would be all right, but the translation is simple.
"Oh, don't say that," entreats Desmond, who has a wholesome
affection for the old gentleman above at Coole. "He is
the kindest old fellow in the world. I think, if you knew him,
you would be very fond of him; and I know he would adore you.
In fact, he is so kind-hearted that I cannot think how all that
unfortunate story about your mother ever came about. He
looks to me as if he couldn't say 'Bo to a goose' where a woman
was concerned and yet his manner to-night confirmed everything
I heard."
"He confessed?" in a deeply interested tone.
"Well just the same thing. He seemed distressed about
his own conduct in the affair, too. But his manner was odd, I
thought: and he seems as much at daggers drawn with your
aunts as they with him."
"That is because he is ashamed of himself. One is always
hardest on those one has injured."
"But that is just it," says Mr. Desmond, in a puzzled tone.
"I don't believe, honestly, he is a bit ashamed of himself.
He said a good deal about his regret, but I could see he quite
gloried in his crime. And, in fact, I couldn't discover the
smallest trace of remorse about him."
"He must really be a very bad old man," says Monica,
severely. "I am perfectly certain if he were my uncle I should
not love him at all."
"Don't say that. When he is your uncle you will see that
I am right, and that he is a very lovable old man, in spite of
all his faults."
At this Monica blushes a little, and twirls her rings round her
slender fingers in an excess of shyness, and finally, in spite of
a stern pressure laid upon herself, gives way to mirth.
"What are you laughing at now?" asks he laughing too.
"At you," casting a swift but charming glance at him from
under her long lashes. "You do say such funny things!"
"Did you hear there is to be an afternoon dance at the
Barracks next week?" asks he presently. "I was at Clonbree
on Thursday, and Cobbett told me about it."
"Who is Cobbett?"
"The captain there, you know. He was at Aghyohillbeg
yesterday. Didn't you see him,—a little, half-starved looking
man, with a skin the color of his hair, and both gray?"
"Oh, of course—now I remember him," says Monica, this
fetching description having cleared her memory. "I thought
to myself how odd he and the other man, Mr. Ryde, looked together,
one as big as the other was little."
"I think there is more matter than brains about Ryde,"
says Desmond, contemptuously. "Do you think your aunt will
let you go to this dance at Clonbree?"
"Oh, no; I am sure not. My aunts would be certain to
look upon a dance in the Barracks as something too awfully
dissipated."
"For one reason I should be glad you didn't go."
"Glad?" opening her eyes.
"Yes. That fellow Ryde never took his eyes off you yesterday."
"Is that a crime?"
"In my eyes, yes."
"And you would wish me to be kept a prisoner at home just
because one man looked at me?"
"I don't want any one to look at you but me!" Then he
comes a little closer to her and compels her, by the very strength
of his regard, to let her eyes meet his. "Do you like Ryde?"
he asks, somewhat imperiously. "Monica, answer me."
It is the second time he has called her by her Christian
name, and a startled expression passes over her face.
"Well, he was nice to me," she says, with a studied hesitation
that belongs to the first bit of coquetry she has ever practised
in her life. She has tasted the sweetness of power, and,
fresh as her knowledge is she estimates the advantage of it to
a nicety.
"I believe a man has only to be six feet one to have every
woman in the world in love with him," says Desmond, wrathfully,
who is only five feet eleven.
"I am not exactly in love with Mr. Ryde," says Monica,
sweetly, with averted face and a coy air, assumed for her companion's
discomfiture; "but——"
"But what?"
"But, I was going to say, there is nothing remarkable in
that, as I am not in love with any one, and hope I never shall
be. I wonder where Kit can have gone to: will you get up
there, Mr. Desmond, and look?" Breaking off a tiny blade of
grass from the bank near her, she puts it between her pretty
teeth, and slowly nibbles it with an air of utter indifference to
all the world that drives Mr. Desmond nearly out of his
wits.
Disdaining to take any heed of her "notice to quit," and
quite determined to know the worst, he says, defiantly,—
"If you do go to this dance, may I consider myself engaged
to you for the first waltz?" There is quite a frown upon his face
as he says this; but it hasn't the faintest effect upon Monica.
She is not at all impressed, and is, in fact enjoying herself immensely.
"If I go, which is more than improbable, I shall certainly
not dance with you at all," she says, calmly, "because Aunt
Priscilla will be there too, and she would not hear of my doing
even a mild quadrille with a Desmond."
"I see," with a melancholy assumption of composure. "All
your dances, then, are to be reserved for Ryde."
"If Mr. Ryde asks me to dance, of course I shall not refuse."
"You mean to tell me"—even the poor assumption is now
gone—"that you are going to give him all and me none?"
"I shall not give any one all: how can you talk like that?
But I cannot defy Aunt Priscilla. It is very unkind of you to
desire it. I suppose you think I should enjoy being tormented
from morning till night all about you?"
"Certainly not. I don't want you to be tormented on any
account, and, above all on mine," very stiffly. "To prevent
anything of the kind, I shall not go to Cobbett's dance."
"If you choose to get into a bad temper I can't help you."
"I am not in a bad temper, and even if I were I have cause.
But it is not temper will prevent my going to the Barracks."
"What then?"
"Why should I go there to be made miserable? You can go
and dance with Ryde to your heart's content, but I shall spare
myself the pain of seeing you. Did you say you wanted your
sister? Shall I call her now? I am sure you must want to go
home."
"I don't," she says, unexpectedly; and then a little smile of
conscious triumph wreathes her lips as she looks at him, standing
moody and dejected before her. A word from her will
transform him; and now, the day being all her own, she can
afford to be generous. Even the very best of women can be
cruel to their lovers.
"I don't," she says, "not yet. There is something I want to
ask you first," she pauses in a tantalizing fashion, and glances
from the grass she is still holding to him, and from him
back to the grass again, before she speaks. "It is a question,"
she says then, as though reluctantly, "but you look so
angry with me that I am afraid to ask it." This is the rankest
hypocrisy, as he is as wax in her hands at this moment; but,
though he knows it, he gives in to the sweetness of her manner,
and lets his face clear.
"Ask me anything you like," he says, turning upon her
now a countenance "more in sorrow than in anger."
"It isn't much," said Miss Beresford, sweetly, "only—what
is your Christian name? I have been so longing to know. It
is very unpleasant to be obliged to think of people by their
surnames, is it not? so unfriendly!"
He is quite staggered by the excess of her geniality.
"My name is Brian," he says, devoutly hoping she will
not think it hideous and so see cause to pass judgment upon it.
"Brian!" going nearer to him with half-shy eyes, and a
little riante mouth that with difficulty suppresses its laughter.
"How pretty! Brian," purposely lingering over it, "with an
'i' of course?"
"Yes."
"I'm so glad I know yours now!" says this disgraceful
little coquette, with a sigh of pretended relief. "You knew
mine, and that wasn't fair, you know. Besides,"—with a rapid
glance that might have melted an anchorite and delivered him
from the error of his ways,—"besides, I may want to call you
by it some day, and then I should be at a loss."
Though by no means proof against so much friendliness,
Mr. Desmond still continues to maintain an injured demeanor.
Monica lays one little hand lightly on his arm.
"Won't you ask me to call you by it?" she says, with the
prettiest reproach.
"Oh, Monica," says the young man, seizing her hand and
pressing it against his heart, "you know your power; be merciful.
Darling," drawing her still nearer to him, "I don't think
you quite understand how it is with me; but, indeed, I love
you with all my heart and soul."
"But in such a little time, how can it be true?" says
Monica, all her gayety turning into serious wonderment.
"'Love is a thing as any spirit free,'" quotes he, tenderly.
"How shall one know when the god may come? It has
nothing to do with time. I have seen you,—it little matters
how often,—and now I love you. Dear heart, try to love me."
There is something in his manner both gentle and earnest.
Impressed by it, she whispers softly,—
"I will try."
"And you will call me Brian?"
"Oh, no!—no, indeed!—not yet," entreats she, stepping
back from him as far as he will allow her.
"Very well, not yet."
"And you will go to the Barracks for this dance?"
"I will do anything on earth you ask me. You know that
too well, I fear, for my peace of mind."
"And you won't be angry with me if I don't dance with
you there?"
"No. I promise that, too. Ah! here is Miss Kit coming,—and
without the roses,—after all."
It is true she has no roses; she has, indeed, forgotten she
even pretended to want them, and has been happy while away
with her song and her own thoughts.
"I think, Monica, we ought, perhaps, to be thinking of
coming home," she says, apologetically, yet with quite a
motherly air. Has she not been mounting guard over and
humoring these two giddy young people before her?
"Yes, I think so too;" and the goodness of Kit, and something
else, strike her.
"If we are asked to this dance at Clonbree, and if we go,
I should like Kit to go too," she says in a soft aside to Desmond,
who says, "That is all right: I settled it with Cobbett
yesterday," in the same tone; and then a little more energetically,
as he sees the moments flying, he goes on, "Before you
go, say one thing after me. It will be a small consolation
until I see you again. Say, 'Brian, good-by.'"
"Good-by, Brian," she whispers, shyly, and then she draws
her hand out of his, and, turning to the studiously inattentive
Kit, passes her arm through hers.
"Good-by, Mr. Desmond! I trust we may soon meet
again," says the younger Miss Beresford, with rather a grand
air, smiling upon him patronizingly.
"I hope so too," says Desmond, gravely, "and that next
time you will graciously accord me a little more of your
society."
Quite pleased with this delicate protest against her
lengthened absence, Kit bows politely, and she and Monica
take their homeward way.
Once Monica turns, to wave him a friendly adieu, and he
can see again her soft, bare arms, her pretty baby-neck in her
white dinner-gown, and her lovely, earnest eyes. Then she is
gone, and her passing seems to him "like the ceasing of exquisite
music," and nothing is left to him but the wailing of
the rising night-wind, and the memory of a perfect girl-face
that he knows will haunt him till he dies.