IT was Christmas Eve. The snow
was whirling in dense masses outside,
and the wind was so strong that
it swept one side of the street quite clean, and
piled up whole mountains of snow across the
way. Through all the windows there gleamed
the bright light of the merry Christmas trees,
and the voices of hundreds of happy children
were heard. Alone and softly Sorrow crept
along in the snowstorm. She turned her eyes
neither to right nor left, that she might throw
no shadow over these Christmas gayeties; she
was making for a house where there was no joy
to destroy. She passed two children—a girl in
thin outgrown clothes, and a little boy who
wanted to see all the lovely things that were inside
the houses. His sister raised him up with
all her strength, so that he could grapple hold
of the window-sill, and with enchantment he
looked at all the wonders within. But lifting
her arms had made her poor old dress
crack, and a sleeve came out of its seam.
A tear ran down her face; it froze on her
cheek. Sorrow stroked her head with her
hand.
"I was coming to you," she said; "how go
things at home?"
The girl shrugged her shoulders.
The little one coughs and can barely breathe,
and the older sister says the pains in her legs
are so bad with this wind.
"Won't you come home with me?"
"Oh no," said the boy, "it is so beautiful in
there, so bright. Do you hear how they laugh?"
Sorrow did not look up but went further, and
did not notice that Envy was creeping behind
her, with his thin lips and sharp nose and
squinting eyes. He came up to the children
and whispered to them—
"Yes, it is beautiful in the homes of the rich,
is it not? What have you got, you poor things?
Is it not Christmas too for you?"
"Hu, how cold it is!" the boy said suddenly.
"Come, it is no longer pretty here."
And they ran home.
As they opened the door a haggard woman
called out sharp and impatiently—
"Quick, shut the door, or all the snow will
come in."
They cowered into a corner behind the
hearth; the woman walked up and down, carrying
a child in her arms that coughed and
choked and gasped for air. In the only bed
lay a feverish girl, emaciated, with unkempt
hair and large restless eyes. Sorrow sat on the
edge of the couch and held her hand; the girl
talked incessantly, softly and quickly—
"You see it is Christmas, once that was so
beautiful, when things still went well with us.
Then we always had a tree and apples and gingerbread,
and I had a doll that had clothes like
a princess. I liked sewing them for my dolly;
I don't like it now for other people."
She smiled.
"What a pity you can't see the little dress I
made for this evening, white and red, with
cords and pink bows."
Then the crack of the door opened and Envy
pushed himself in softly, invisibly. It grew
markedly colder in the room. The mother's
face became gloomy, the feverish girl more restless.
"Oh," she cried, impatiently, "always sewing,
always sewing. Why do the others, who
were poor, drive about in fine carriages, and
wear soft clothes and laugh so merrily! If they
are wicked, well, then it must be nice to be
wicked. What does my labor bring me?—hunger
and pain!"
The mother did not hear her daughter's rapid
words, for the child in her arms was wrestling
with death. Outside the wind howled. The
two other children had fallen asleep in their
corner, hungry and exhausted, and in their
dreams Envy had no more power over them,
and they only saw the beautiful Christmas tree
shimmering. It was a long night in which the
lamp of life flickered up and down in that
little house, and a young soul fought at the
hand of Sorrow the fight for life and
death.
Towards morning the wrestling of both was
ended. The child lay dead in its mother's lap,
the young girl slumbered restlessly. The storm
was over. The glittering snow lay piled up
high, looking blue in the shadows of the houses,
and softly tinted with red where the rising sun
met it. Then the bells began to peal for merry
Christmas. That woke the two children, who
stared aghast at the little corpse. The young
girl raised herself, and saw that her mother
wept, but from her eyes there came no tears—she
envied the dead child its rest.
A merry sound of sledge bells sounded, and
like a lovely dream two beautiful young girls
flew past in a sledge, wrapped snugly in rich
furs. Their cheeks and eyes sparkled with joy
in the beautiful sunshine. It passed like lightning,
this vision, but all in the little house were
dazzled by it. The sick girl drew her thin
hands through her black hair, the poor woman
bit her teeth together, and the two children
said—
"Mother, were those angels?"
"No," she uttered harshly; "they were
human beings like ourselves, only rich and happy,
who are not hungry, and have warm
clothes."
Sorrow touched her arm—
"If you desire it, I will bring them here, into
your home; but at one price—they will suffer
pain and misery, and their joy will vanish. Do
you want that?"
"Yes," said the woman, "I do. Why should
not they watch and weep as we do?"
Sorrow sighed.
"Shall I fetch them?" she asked once again.
"Go, go; do you not see that my children
starve? What do other people's children concern
me?"
Sorrow neared the young girl's bed.
"Farewell for the present," she said; "be
brave and reasonable, and take care of yourself,
that I may not have to come to you again to
punish."
She kissed the children. "I send you the
angels and a good Christmas, have patience."
Then she softly lifted the door latch and was
gone. Envy slid after her; and in her place,
on the first sunbeam that smote the rows of
houses, Hope floated into the room and made
it light. Mother and children looked out expectantly.
The girl pushed back her hair from
her brow, and the bad thoughts retreated.
Sorrow paced so lightly across the snow that
she scarcely left a trace, as though she were
borne by the sharp east wind, whose pungent
tongue mocked the fine winter morning. She
went through the most aristocratic streets, and
vanished into one of the stateliest houses; entering
so softly that no one noticed her, not even
the servants, who were stretching themselves
on red cushioned divans in the entrance hall;
not even the parrot that always cried, "Canaille!
Canaille!" and made a wise face. She went up
the broad stairs, where everything was perfumed
of fir-trees, straight towards a high door, whence
the laughter of youthful voices resounded. Unnoticed
she stood in the high large room
through whose many windows the sun streamed,
touching the white-covered, long tables, on
which still lay all the presents given the night
before. At one end of the room stood three
tall fir-trees, their branches bent under a gay
weight, and round about the room some thirty
smaller ones. The six huge chandeliers were
encircled with garlands of fir and chains of glass
balls, and from one to the other hung rows of
colored paper lamps. It must have looked
quite fairy-like in the evening with all the candles
alight. Amidst this glory two tall slim,
supple figures, in dark, close-fitting, cloth
dresses, were playing battledore and shuttlecock.
Every movement was of rare grace, and the delicate
profiles with the dark arched eyebrows,
stood out well against the somber firs. The
gold brown hair of the one hung in voluptuous
waves over her shoulders, only held together by
a ribbon; a weight of fair plaits hung down the
neck of the other. Their heads thrown backwards
revealed faultlessly set necks and laughing
rows of pearly teeth. It was a sight for
gods, and the young man who looked on
thought so, as he sat in Olympian calm carelessly
reading in an armchair, dressed in an
elegant morning suit, a cigarette in his ring-covered
hand. From time to time, in a powerful
baritone, he hummed some rather frivolous
songs that each time drew down on him a storm
of laughing reproaches.
"I beg my stern cousins to remark," he said,
"that the ball has now fallen fourteen times to
the ground, and that I consequently regret that
my proposal was negatived that each such miss
should be punished with a kiss."
The girls laughed, but suddenly they noticed
Sorrow, who looked on seriously at their merriment,
like a distant hail-cloud at a harvest
home.
"Who are you?" both girls asked at once,
approaching their strange guest.
Sorrow would fain have cast down her eyes
that she might not look at the three young
heads in that room; but she saw them, and felt
herself spell-bound. She looked at all three,
and then said in her soft, deep tones—
"I have just come from a house where since
yesterday no one has eaten, where this night a
child has died, and a girl lies sick in bed; two
other children I found out in the snowstorm as
they were admiring a Christmas tree. Can you
not help?"
"Yes, yes, at once," cried the one with the gold
brown locks. "Albert, be so good as to order
the sledge. Cara, do you run to mother and
ask her for money. I will get food and
clothes."
With all imaginable speed every thing was
got ready. After a brief half-hour the sledge
stood before the door laden with wood and
baskets, and one of the Christmas trees. There
was barely room for the three young people to
squeeze in. The mother, a stately, elegant
woman, with wise eyes, restrained the eldest girl,
Doris, for a second, to say something to her very
earnestly, upon which she kissed both her
hands. Then she, too, flew downstairs after the
others, and as fast as the wind they trotted to
the house of the poor people.
"Mother, the angels have come," cried the
children.
They got out and brought in the tree. Cara
knelt down by the hearth and made a fire, and
Doris placed the tree by the bedside of the sufferer,
darkened the room and lighted it. She
gave the children bread and cake, and then the
two lovely girls stood by the sick girl's bedside
and sang a Christmas carol. The little boy, with
folded hands, looked now at the lights, now at
the angels, and large tears rolled over his pale
face. Albert did not quite know what to do
with himself; but now that the two girls helped
the mother to warm some soup and cut up meat
for the children, he neared the bed, and looked
with scrutiny into the black eyes that glowed
and reflected with uncanny fire the lights of the
Christmas tree.
"What is your name?" he asked kindly with
his pleasant voice.
The girl looked at him long and earnestly; she
felt the gaze of his beautiful blue eyes burn into
her heart. Then she grew red, cast down her
eyes, and said: "Lotty."
Soon an animated conversation sprang up
between the two. Albert took out his pocket-book,
wrote a few lines, and sent off the servant
with orders to bring the doctor back in the
sledge. They would wait till he came. Doris's
eyes rested for an instant on her cousin, who had
seated himself on the edge of the bed and talked
eagerly to Lotty. Scarcely was the sledge gone
than she said—
"There, that will do for to-day; I will walk
home. We will come again in a few days, till
then you have provision."
And so speaking she walked out of the house,
regardless of her cousin's remonstrances.
Next day all looked bright and cheerful in
the little room, but grief and pain had entered
the palace. Cara had fallen on the ice while
skating, and lay in bed maimed in all her limbs,
and suffering keenly. Her snow-white hands
lay quiescent beside her plaits upon the coverlet.
Her father patted them, and the tears ran down
his cheeks. Then Cara smiled, but her eyes
looked out dim and deep from their hollows, and
round her lips there quivered a suppressed sigh.
Wearily she dragged on her life for weeks and
weeks; but if any one asked Cara how she was,
she would always answer kindly—
"I think I am much better."
But pain had pinched her face and emaciated
her body, and her hands and feet remained
paralyzed. Her only recreation were Albert's
visits. He told her all manner of things, and
sang her merry songs. Doris grew pale and thin
with continued nursing, so that at last her
mother had to force her to go out. She bethought
her of Lotty, and went to call on her.
How amazed was she to find the little house
transformed, and Lotty changed more than all!
Graceful, rounded in all her limbs, she stepped
towards her, and the slight limp that remained
from her illness only gave her an added grace.
Her eyes had learned to laugh, and her whole
being had gained something attractive and
bright.
"But, Lotty, how well you look! I was afraid
you would think we had forgotten you."
"How could I think that," said Lotty, "when
your brother always came to see us!"
"He is not my brother," Doris said shortly,
and grew scarlet.
Then ensued an awkward silence, interrupted
by Doris, who asked to see the children's school-books,
which, superintended by Lotty, bore
inspection well. They had gained good instruction
in the time that had passed.
A few days after Albert went away on a
journey. It was a hard parting for the two girls.
At the last he kissed Doris's hand, and looked at
her earnestly, deep down into her eyes. They
filled with large tears. She wanted to say
something more, but could not bring forth
a sound.
"I shall come back in the summer," he said,
and was gone.
Lotty was soon so well that she could walk
and call on Cara, who was so pleased to see her
that she did not want to let her go. So she was
engaged as companion and nurse for Cara, and
soon grew indispensable to her.
In the spring the family moved to their castle
in the country, where the poor invalid could
lie all day under tall trees. Albert soon came
there too, and Doris took long rides with him
through the park, or they sat for hours chatting
with Cara. Yet he always found time and
opportunity to see Lotty alone. At first she
was distant with him, but with his heart-winning
ways he soon recovered the empire he had had in
the little house in the town; and she was happy
when he said that the parents insisted on marrying
Doris to him, but that he did not think of
it for she did not please him at all. Cara
noticed that there was something amiss with her
Lotty, but she never dreamed what a fight the
girl was fighting with her heart, that impetuously
demanded love and happiness, and her conscience
that recalled to her her duties and strove
to calm her.
Doris guessed nothing. She was entirely absorbed
in the joy of having her adored Albert
beside her.
Albert really loved Lotty, but he did not want
to lose the rich marriage with Doris; so he was
full of little delicate attentions to her, which in
quiet hours were counted up and talked over
with Cara. Lotty knew herself to be beloved,
therefore her jealousy of Doris knew no bounds.
Every kind look, every unconscious little joke of
Doris's was gall and wormwood to her. She had
to help Doris adorn herself, and see how she
looked into the glass with beaming eyes, certain
of victory, full of hope. She had to suffer that
her adored Cara did all to make her sister appear
in the best light to Albert. Many an evening in
the park there ensued angry scenes in which
Lotty broke forth into wild reproaches, and
Albert made passionate love protestations.
Lotty was proud; she would be his wife, and at
last he promised her that he would marry her
as soon as he had found a post that insured
enough for them both. He was soon to go
abroad to join an embassy.
Lotty demanded that he should say openly
at the house that he meant to marry her, but
this she could not attain.
Once more Lotty thought—
"If only I were rich, like the others."
Many a long night she tossed about her black
locks on the pillow, and next day her eyes
glowed like coals, so that Albert grew almost
afraid, and feared she might make things uncomfortable
for him. He hurried forward his
parting preparations. On the last evening he
was in the park with Doris, and began to speak
to her of his future, and that he should come
back a made man. Then he would woo her,
and he hoped he should not be refused. At the
last he put a bracelet round her wrist, encircled
her with his arm and pressed a kiss on her lips.
Doris flushed all over, ran off to Cara, fell on
her knees beside the bed, kissed her hands, her
hair, her eyes, and was so wildly happy that
it grew almost too much for the poor invalid.
When Albert wanted to leave the park Lotty
stood before him and looked at him so sphinx-like
that he grew afraid. He hoped she had
heard nothing, and took a step forward. But
she struck him in the face with her fist. Then
she vanished. She ran as fast as she could into
her room, and raved all night long, bit her
pillow, and thought to die of rage and despair.
Albert, who slept little, could not see Lotty
again and extort from her a promise of silence.
Twice he knocked at her door, but she kept quiet
till he had gone and then she muttered curses
after him. Next morning he departed without
having seen her. Doris waved her hand after
him long, long after he was out of sight, and
wept blissful tears. But Cara was alarmed when
she saw Lotty. A complete alteration had
come to her face; it was as though something
had snapped. She had to endure hearing Albert
talked of incessantly. Towards Doris she felt a
veritable hatred.
At first there came letters from Albert, but
they grew rarer and briefer. After a year there
came none. Doris had been radiantly happy
some time and developed to rare beauty. At her
side Hope stood shimmering, rosy, like peach
blossoms. By Cara's bed sat Mother Patience,
invisible to all, and transfigured the pale face
with her calm presence. Beside Lotty strode
Envy and Hate, and tugged at her with all their
might night and day. In the second year Hope
vanished from beside Doris; in the third, the
girl crept wearily through the house as though
each step were leaden. Lotty revived; yes,
Doris even noted that when Lotty combed her
hair she could see in the glass how her black
eyes sparkled maliciously, and seemed to search
her weary face. Doris's parents grew old and
gray during these years of waiting. Albert's
name was never breathed, it was as though he
was blotted out of all their memories, and yet
all thought only of him.
One morning Doris was sitting at breakfast
with her parents. Cara was still in bed, she was
never carried down till later in the day. The
father read out of his paper, his wife rested her
chin on her slender fingers. Countless fine
lines had become graven into her face, Care was
her daily guest; yet she looked kindly from under
her gray hairs and her elegant cap. Secretly
her glance sought the face of her daughter, who
had leaned back wearily in her chair, toying
with a flower and gazing out vacantly into
space.
Sometimes she would look out of the window,
and watch with heavy eyelids the falling of the
faded autumn leaves, which sank to earth
in the thick mist. A fire burnt in the chimney;
it was the only lively thing in the room. Then
a letter was brought in and given to Doris's
father. He twirled it between his fingers and
looked at the address and seal. Doris had
glanced up indifferently. Suddenly every muscle
of her face trembled, and she rested large,
flashing eyes upon her father, her nostrils quivered,
and her breath came short and fast.
"Oh, father, read, read quickly!"
He read long, long, without speaking one
word. At last he folded up the letter. Doris's
torture was at an end, she was near to faint.
"Albert is coming," he said gravely, and
would have gone on speaking, but from Doris's
breast there came a cry of mingled joy and sobbing.
She sprang up, embraced her mother and
rushed out of the room and up the stairs to Cara.
"Cara, he is coming, is coming," she cried,
and covered her sister with kisses.
Lotty rushed to the bedside; it was as though
a fallen angel looked at the happy girl. At
last harshly and roughly she muttered—
"Who knows what he has become."
Doris felt the poisoned dart, but before she
could answer her mother called her down. As
she entered the room she saw her father pacing
up and down restlessly. He did not notice her.
Her mother sat in a little armchair beside the
fire, staring into the embers. Doris noticed
every thing at a glance. It was as though something
heavy and cold fell upon her heart.
"Come here, dear child," said her mother;
"kneel down here, I have something to say to
you. You have always trusted us, have you not,
my child? You always believed that we have
felt your sufferings too, and have felt them the
more that we could not help you?"
Doris could not speak, she kissed her mother's
hand and looked at her again with large, glowing
eyes.
"If, then, I tell you that Albert is not worthy
of you, my child will believe it, will she not?
He has not kept good; it is said he has gambled
away his fortune, and we should not like
him to ask the hand of our daughter merely in
order to pay his debts. I know you will be
proud and meet him as it becomes your maidenly
dignity. You will let him see nothing of
your soul's combat and woe, but meet him as
he deserves."
"When will he come?" said Doris, curtly.
Her voice was hard.
"In a few days; we cannot forbid him the
house for his mother's sake. I count on you,
my child."
Doris's eyes flashed. She raised herself and
stood her full height; she seemed to have
grown, and looked defiant, ready for fight.
Without a word she went outside into the mist.
She paced the park for hours, heedless of the
paths and ways; she painted to her mind that
meeting, how cold and proud she would be.
She snapped off the twigs as she passed, and
crunched them with her white teeth. It seemed
to her as though she never could go home,
as though she must thus rove the wood
for ever. When she came back to the house
at last, her hair, dress, and eyebrows were
covered with glistening drops. She looked
into the glass that reflected her hard-drawn
face.
"The wood," she said, "has had pity on me;
those are its tears."
She could not make up her mind to go in to
Cara; she felt as though she could not bear her
affection. Cara wept in her father's arms. He
dried the tears she was shedding for her sister, and
spoke to her tenderly. Lotty clenched her fists.
"She shall not have him as long as I live."
Henceforward Doris went often into the wood,
especially along the path beside the old willow-trees.
The sun still shone warmly there, and
that did good to Doris, who could not get rid
of a feeling of cold. Once she leaned exhausted
against a mighty trunk; she had laid her
hand upon her aching heart, and closed her
eyes. Suddenly she heard a voice close by her,
whose tone made her shrink together as a flower
does in spring rain—
"Doris."
And there stood Albert, with the same lovely
eyes, the same charm of movement, and yet
how changed. He held out his hand towards
her. She laid her icy fingertips into his; but
when she wanted to draw back her hand he retained
it.
"Am I to be condemned unheard?" he
asked gently, and smiled so sweetly that Doris
could not be as distant and cold as she had resolved.
He did not wait for an answer, but spoke
eagerly and earnestly, accused and defended
himself at the same time, reminded her of their
sweet love that could not possibly be vanished
and fled; ay, he read it in her face that she had
thought of him, while poor Doris, now red, now
pale, could merely look at him. When he
turned to go to the house and greet his aunt,
she remained outside, for an awkward friend,
Conscience, told her that she had not been all
that her parents expected.
They did not repeat their injunction, and
the meetings in the park grew more and more
frequent; a correspondence even ensued that
was intrusted to a hollow willow. Doris's
mother noticed a strange, wild look in the girl's
eyes, but she put this down to the struggle her
child was undergoing.
Often Doris would have opened her lips to
confess, but always closed them again. Daily
she grew more irritable, spoke in hollow tones,
and laughed at every thing. Lotty knew exactly
all that went on. She bided her time,
ready to spring like a cat whenever the hour
should be ripe. One day Doris could not get
out, and so begged Lotty, in a seemingly indifferent
tone, to carry a letter to the tree.
Lotty held the letter between her fingers and
looked now at it, now at Doris.
"Well," said Doris, sharply, but without
looking up, "is it inconvenient to you?"
"No," said Lotty, carelessly, went towards
the door, and then came back beside Doris.
"I shall only carry that letter," she said,
"after I have told you what manner of man
your lover is."
Lotty looked so fierce that Doris shuddered.
"He loved me, me, long before he loved you:
me he has kissed many hundred times in this
very park ere ever he gave you the one that
made you so happy; me he promised to wed.
It is me he called his dear heart, his love, all
the soft names he has called you; and on the
evening you were betrothed to him, I hit him
in his face, and now he is so vile that no decent
girl would wish to have him; and you, you
carry on a secret love affair with him."
Doris grew giddy; but before she had taken
in the full sense of these words, Lotty had left
the room and did not re-appear.
The following evening, when Lotty had just
got into bed, Doris stood before her like a
ghost. She shook her arms and said—
"Come!"
She followed Doris into her room. The girl
shut and locked the door, and pocketed the key.
"Now tell it me all again," she said, speaking
with effort.
Lotty no longer felt the satisfaction she had
experienced that first moment. She was
ashamed of her weakness, and told her tale
with hesitation and with reserve. While she
did so she had ever to look at Doris, who grew
momentarily more haggard, and who bent herself
twice, thrice; whether in physical or mental
pain Lotty did not know. Suppressing a
low moan, she drew a small roll of paper from
her pocket, and smiled with trembling lips.
"You have avenged yourself on me; now is
your turn with him; you owe me this, for you
should have spared me this agony. To-morrow
morning you go to town and give him this; you
yourself must give it to him; I demand it."
Scarcely had Doris uttered these words than
she began to moan piteously, and now followed
a night during which Lotty was terrified by the
sufferings of her young mistress. Constantly
she tried to get the key and call the family;
Doris would not let her.
"No," she said; "we two must pass this night
alone together."
Only when consciousness began to leave her,
Lotty succeeded in wrenching the key from her
clenched hands. She called up the parents,
who arrived but in time to receive their daughter's
last breath. She opened her eyes once
again, knew her mother, kissed each of her fingertips
and whispered—
"Farewell, mother; farewell, forgive me."
Then a last terrible spasm shook her, and
when the sun rose she was a corpse. While
the parents were with Cara, trying to break the
news gently to the poor invalid, Lotty slipped
away into her own room. There she unrolled
the paper and read—
"Could I have believed in you, I should
have lived.—Doris."
Then she set out for the town and sought
out Albert, who was still in bed sleeping restlessly.
Lotty looked at him long and severely.
Her gaze was so savage that a feeling of fear
shot through him and woke him. He started
up.
"What is it?" he cried aghast.
Lotty handed him the paper without speaking
a word, and before he had unfolded it she had
gone.
He threw on his clothes and hurried after
her, but he could not find her. He ran about
all day: he hovered round the castle, he chased
through the park. He looked as though the
Furies pursued him. At last he went home,
sat down to his desk, and began to turn over a
pile of dirty papers. Great drops stood on his
brow. In the evening he went to see a friend,
and gambled the whole night. In a short time
he had won large sums, but then a few days
after he lost them all again, those and much
more besides. One morning he tottered into
his room, loaded a pistol and shot himself.
Lotty got home unnoticed as she had gone
out; but as she entered Sorrow stood in front
of her, and her eyes were so terrible that Lotty
fell down before her on the earth and covered
her face with her hands. But when Sorrow
began to speak, Lotty was seized with trembling
at the stern words that fell upon her like
hammer blows; she writhed on the ground like
a worm, but Sorrow was inexorable.
"You have done your work well," she said;
"you have avenged yourself. But on whom?
On those who have done you kindness from the
first hour when they raised you out of misery
and wretchedness, those to whom you owe all—your
life, your health—who have treated you
as a child and a sister. They were happy before
I brought them to your house, and what
are they now? I know you want to throw
yourself into the water, but I will not suffer it,
for you need a whole long life to make good
the thoughts that have poisoned your youth.
You must give up your whole strength to poor
Cara, beside whose bed you will yet often see
me, and take care that you need not tremble
before my face, as you must to-day. Cara
needs you, for her parents are broken down,
and only through boundless self-sacrifice may
you dare to hope for forgiveness. As yet I
cannot accord it."
Once more it was Christmas Eve. A beautiful
tree was alight in the little house. Lotty
had brought it there in Cara's name. The
children had red cheeks and shouted joyously.
The mother too had grown to look younger
and smiled often. Only Lotty was pale as
death and dark as remorse.
"Here my mother looks at me," she thought;
"and thinks Lotty has grown bad; and there
Doris's mother looks at me and thinks, 'Had
you but called me we could have saved the
child.' Oh that I had starved to death!"
In the castle a shaded lamp burnt beside
Cara's bed. Her father was reading to her with
weary voice, the mother sat by, stroked the
girl's hands, and dried the heavy, slow-falling
tears that rolled down her child's face with a
soft handkerchief. Cara had not spoken all the
evening. Only once she asked—
"Is not this Christmas Eve?"