I am not about to harrow the feelings of my readers by a terrific
representation of the untold horrors of that fearful system of
oppression, which for thirty-three long years entwined its snaky folds
about my soul, as the serpent of South America coils itself around the
form of its unfortunate victim. It is not my purpose to descend deeply
into the dark and noisome caverns of the hell of slavery, and drag from
their frightful abode those lost spirits who haunt the souls of the poor
slaves, daily and nightly with their frightful presence, and with the
fearful sound of their terrific instruments of torture; for other pens
far abler than mine have effectually performed that portion of the labor
of an exposer of the enormities of slavery. Slavery, like the shield
discovered by the knights of olden time, has two diverse sides to it;
the one, on which is fearfully written in letters of blood, the
character of the mass who carry on that dreadful system of unhallowed
bondage; the other, touched with the pencil of a gentler delineator, and
telling the looker on, a tale of comparative freedom, from the terrible
deprivations so vividly portrayed on its opposite side.
My book will present, if possible, the beautiful side of the picture of
slavery; will entertain you with stories of partial kindness on the part
of my master, and of comparative enjoyment on my own part, as I grew up
under the benign influence of the blessed system so closely connected
with our “republican institutions,” as Southern politicians tell us.
From the time I first breathed the air of human existence, until the
hour of my escape from bondage, I did not receive but one whipping. I
never suffered from lack of food, or on account of too extreme labor;
nor for want of sufficient clothing to cover my person. My tale is not,
therefore, one of horrid inflictions of the lash upon my naked body; of
cruel starvings and of insolent treatment; but is the very best
representation of slavery which can be given; therefore, reader, allow
me to inform you, as you, for aught I know, may be one of those degraded
mortals who fancy that if no blows are inflicted upon the slave’s body,
and a plenty of “bread and bacon” is dealed out to him, he is therefore
no sufferer, and slavery is not a cruel institution; allow me to inform
you, that I did not escape from such deprivations. It was not for fear
of the lash’s dreaded infliction, that I endured that fearful
imprisonment, which you are waiting to read concerning; nor because of
destitution of the necessaries of life, did I enclose myself in my
travelling prison, and traverse your boasted land of freedom, a portion
of the time with my head in an inverted position, as if it were a
terrible crime for me to endeavor to escape from slavery.
Far beyond, in terrible suffering, all outward cruelties of the foul
system, are those inner pangs which rend the heart of fond affection,
when the “bone of your bone, and the flesh of your flesh” is separated
from your embrace, by the ruthless hand of the merciless tyrant, as he
plucks from your heart of love, the one whom God hath given you for a
“help-meet” through the journey of life; and more fearful by far than
all the blows of the bloody lash, or the pangs of cruel hunger are those
lashings of the heart, which the best of slaveholders inflict upon
their happy and “well off” slaves, as they tear from their grasp the
pledges of love, smiling at the side of devoted attachment. Tell me not
of kind masters under slavery’s hateful rule! There is no such thing as
a person of that description; for, as you will see, my master, one of
the most distinguished of this uncommon class of slaveholders, hesitated
not to allow the wife of my love to be torn from my fond embrace, and
the darling idols of my heart, my little children, to be snatched from
my arms, and thus to doom them to a separation from me, more dreadful to
all of us than a large number of lashes, inflicted on us daily. And yet
to this fate I was continually subject, during a large portion of the
time, when heaven seemed to smile propitiously above me; and no black
clouds of fearful character lowered over my head. Heaven save me from
kind masters, as well as from those called more cruel; for even their
“tender mercies are cruel,” and what no freeman could endure for a
moment. My tale necessarily lacks that thrilling interest which is
attached to the more than romantic, although perfectly true descriptions
of a life in slavery, given by my numerous forerunners in the work of
sketching a slave’s personal experience; but I shall endeavor to
intermingle with it other scenes which came under my own observation,
which will serve to convince you, that if I was spared a worse fate
than actually fell to my lot, yet my comrades around me were not so
fortunate; but were the victims of the ungovernable rage of those men,
of whose characters one cannot be informed, without experiencing within
his soul, a rushing of overflowing emotions of pity, indignation and
horror.
I first drew the breath of life in Louisa County, Va., forty-five miles
from the city of Richmond, in the year 1816. I was born a slave. Not
because at the moment of my birth an angel stood by, and declared that
such was the will of God concerning me; although in a country whose most
honored writings declare that all men have a right to liberty, given
them by their Creator, it seems strange that I, or any of my brethren,
could have been born without this inalienable right, unless God had thus
signified his departure from his usual rule, as described by our
fathers. Not, I say, on account of God’s willing it to be so, was I born
a slave, but for the reason that nearly all the people of this country
are united in legislating against heaven, and have contrived to vote
down our heavenly father’s rules, and to substitute for them, that cruel
law which binds the chains of slavery upon one sixth part of the
inhabitants of this land. I was born a slave! and wherefore? Tyrants,
remorseless, destitute of religion and principle, stood by the couch of
my mother, as heaven placed a pure soul, in the infantile form, there
lying in her arms—a new being, never having breathed earth’s atmosphere
before; and fearlessly, with no compunctions of remorse, stretched forth
their bloody arms and pressed the life of God from me, baptizing my soul
and body as their own property; goods and chattels in their hands! Yes,
they robbed me of myself, before I could know the nature of their wicked
acts; and for ever afterwards, until I took possession of my own soul
and body, did they retain their stolen property. This was why I was born
a slave. Reader, can you understand the horrors of that fearful name?
Listen, and I will assist you in this difficult work. My father, and my
mother of course, were slaves before me; but both of them are now
enjoying the invaluable boon of liberty, having purchased themselves, in
this land of freedom! At an early age, my mother would take me on her
knee, and pointing to the forest trees adjacent, now being stripped of
their thick foliage by autumnal winds, would say to me, “my son, as
yonder leaves are stripped from off the trees of the forest, so are the
children of slaves swept away from them by the hands of cruel tyrants;”
and her voice would tremble, and she would seem almost choked with her
deep emotions, while the big tears would find their way down her
saddened cheeks, as she fondly pressed me to her heaving bosom, as if to
save me from so dreaded a calamity. I was young then, but I well
recollect the sadness of her countenance, and the mournfulness of her
words, and they made a deep impression upon my youthful mind. Mothers of
the North, as you gaze upon the free forms of your idolized little ones,
as they playfully and confidently move around you, O if you knew that
the lapse of a few years would infallibly remove them from your
affectionate care, not to be laid in the silent grave, “where the wicked
cease from troubling,” but to be the sport of cruel men, and the victims
of barbarous tyrants, who would snatch them from your side, as the
robber seizes upon the bag of gold in the traveller’s hand; O, would
not your life then be rendered a miserable one indeed? Who can trace the
workings of a slave mother’s soul, as she counts over the hours, the
departure of which, she almost knows, will rob her of her darling
children, and consign them to a fate more horrible than death’s cold
embrace! O, who can hear of these cruel deprivations, and not be aroused
to action in the slave’s behalf?
My mother used to instruct me in the principles of morality, as much as
she was able; but I was deplorably ignorant on religious subjects, for
what ideas can a slave have of religion, when those who profess it
around him, are demons in human shape oftentimes, as you will presently
see was the case with my master’s overseer? My mother used to tell me
not to steal, and not to lie, and to behave myself properly in other
respects. She took a great deal of pains with me and my brother; which
resulted in our endeavors to conduct ourselves with propriety. As a
specimen of the religious knowledge of the slaves, I will state here my
ideas in regard to my master; assuring the reader that I am not joking,
but stating what was the opinion of all the slave children on my
master’s plantation; and I have often talked it over with my early
associates, and my mother, and enjoyed hearty laughs at the absurdity of
our youthful ideas.
I really believed my old master was Almighty God, and that his son, my
young master, was Jesus Christ.[2]
One reason I had for this belief
was, that when it was about to thunder, my old master would approach us,
if we were in the yard, and say, “All you children run into the house
now, for it is going to thunder,” and after the shower was over, we
would go out again, and he would approach us smilingly, and say, “What a
fine shower we have had,” and bidding us look at the flowers in the
garden, would say, “how pretty the flowers look now.” We thought that
he thundered, and caused the rain to fall; and not until I was eight
years of age, did I get rid of this childish superstition. Our master
was uncommonly kind, and as he moved about in his dignity, he seemed
like a god to us, and probably he did not dislike our reverential
feelings towards him. All the slaves called his son, our Saviour, and
the way I was enlightened on this point was as follows. One day after
returning from church, my mother told father of a woman who wished to
join the church. She told the preacher she had been baptized by one of
the slaves, who was called from his office, “John the Baptist;” and on
being asked by the minister if she believed “that our Saviour came into
the world, and had died for the sins of man,” she replied, that she
“knew he had come into the world,” but she “had not heard he was dead,
as she lived so far from the road, she did not learn much that was going
on in the world.” I then asked mother, if young master was dead. She
said it was not him they were talking about; it was “our Saviour in
heaven.” I then asked her if there were two Saviours, when she told me
that young master was not “our Saviour,” which filled me with
astonishment, and I could not understand it at first. Not long after
this, my sister became anxious to have her soul converted, and shaved
the hair from her head, as many of the slaves thought they could not be
converted without doing this. My mother reproved her, and began to tell
her of God who dwelt in heaven, and that she must pray to him to convert
her. This surprised me still more, and I asked her if old master was not
God; to which she replied that he was not, and began to instruct me a
little in reference to the God of heaven. After this, I believed there
was a God who ruled the world, but I did not previously, have the least
idea of any such being. And why should not my childish fancy be correct,
according to the blasphemous teachings of the heathen system of slavery?
Does not every slaveholder assume exclusive control over all the actions
of his unfortunate victims? Most assuredly he does, as this extract from
the laws of a slaveholding State will show you. “A slave is one who is
in the power of his master, to whom he belongs. A slave owes to his
master and all his family, respect without bounds and absolute
obedience.” How tallies this with the unalterable law of Jehovah, “Thou
shalt have no other gods before me?” Does not the system of slavery
effectually shut out from the slave’s heart, all true knowledge of the
eternal God, and doom him to grope his perilous way, amid the thick
darkness of unenlightened heathenism, although he dwells in a land
professing much religion, and an entire freedom from the superstitions
of paganism?
Let me tell you my opinion of the slaveholding religion of this land. I
believe in a hell, where the wicked will forever dwell, and knowing the
character of slaveholders and slavery, it is my settled belief, as it
was while I was a slave, even though I was treated kindly, that every
slaveholder will infallibly go to that hell, unless he repents. I do not
believe in the religion of the Southern churches, nor do I perceive any
great difference between them, and those at the North, which uphold
them.
While a young lad, my principal employment was waiting upon my master
and mistress, and at intervals taking lessons in what is the destiny of
most of the slaves, the cultivation of the plantation. O how often as
the hot sun sent forth its scorching rays upon my tender head, did I
look forward with dismay, to the time, when I, like my fellow slaves,
should be driven by the task-master’s cruel lash, to the performance of
unrequited toil upon the plantation of my master. To this expectation is
the slave trained. Like the criminal under sentence of death, he notches
upon his wooden stick, as Sterne’s captive did, the days, after the
lapse of which he must be introduced to his dreaded fate; in the case of
the criminal, merely death—a cessation from the pains and toils of
life; but in our cases, the commencement of a living death; a death
never ending, second in horror only to the eternal torment of the wicked
in a future state. Yea, even worse than that, for there, a God of love
and mercy holds the rod of punishment in his own hand; but in our case,
it is held by men from whom almost the last vestige of goodness has
departed, and in whose hearts there dwells hardly a spark of humanity,
certainly not enough to keep them from the practice of the most inhuman
crimes. Imagine, reader, a fearful cloud, gathering blackness as it
advances towards you, and increasing in size constantly; hovering in the
deep blue vault of the firmament above you, which cloud seems loaded
with the elements of destruction, and from the contents of which you are
certain you cannot escape. You are sailing upon the now calm waters of
the broad and placid deep, spreading its “unadorned bosom” before you,
as far as your eye can reach,
“Calm as a slumbering babe,
Tremendous Ocean lays;”
and on its “burnished waves,” gracefully rides your little vessel,
without fear or dismay troubling your heart. But this fearful cloud is
pointed out to you, and as it gathers darkness, and rushes to the point
of the firmament overhanging your fated vessel, O what terror then
seizes upon your soul, as hourly you expect your little bark to be
deluged by the contents of the cloud, and riven by the fierce lightnings
enclosed in that mass of angry elements. So with the slave, only that he
knows his chances of escape are exceedingly small, while you may very
likely outlive the storm.
To this terrible apprehension we are all constantly subject. To-day,
master may smile lovingly upon us, and the sound of the cracking whip
may be hushed, but the dread uncertainty of our future fate still hangs
over us, and to-morrow may witness a return of all the elements of
fearful strife, as we emphatically “know not what a day may bring
forth.” The sweet songsters of the air, as it were, may warble their
musical notes ever so melodiously, harmonizing with the soft-blowing of
the western winds which invigorates our frames, and the genial warmth of
the early sun may fill us with pleasurable emotions; but we know that
ere long, this sweet singing must be silenced by the fierce cracking of
the bloody lash, falling on our own shoulders, and that the cool
breezes and the gentle heat of early morn, must be succeeded by the hot
winds and fiery rays of Slavery’s meridian day. The slave has no
certainty of the enjoyment of any privilege whatever! All his fancied
blessings, without a moment’s warning being granted to him, may be swept
forever from his trembling grasp. Who will then say that “disguise
itself” as Slavery will, it is not “a bitter cup,” the mixture whereof
is gall and wormwood?
My brother and myself, were in the practice of carrying grain to mill, a
few times a year, which was the means of furnishing us with some
information respecting other slaves. We often went twenty miles, to a
mill owned by a Col. Ambler, in Yansinville county, and used to improve
our opportunities for gaining information. Especially desirous were we,
of learning the condition of slaves around us, for we knew not how long
we should remain in as favorable hands as we were then. On one occasion,
while waiting for our grain, we entered a house in the neighborhood, and
while resting ourselves there, we saw a number of forlorn-looking beings
pass the door, and as they passed, we noticed that they turned and gazed
earnestly upon us. Afterwards, about fifty performed the same act, which
excited our minds somewhat, as we overheard some of them say, “Look
there, and see those two colored men with shoes, vests and hats on,” and
we determined to obtain an interview with them. Accordingly, after
receiving some bread and meat from our hosts, we followed these abject
beings to their quarters;—and such a sight we had never witnessed
before, as we had always lived on our master’s plantation, and this was
about the first of our journeys to the mill. They were dressed with
shirts made of coarse bagging, such as coffee-sacks are made from, and
some kind of light substance for pantaloons, and no other clothing
whatever. They had on no shoes, hats, vests, or coats, and when my
brother asked them why they spoke of our being dressed with those
articles of clothing, they said they had “never seen negroes dressed in
that way before.” They looked very hungry, and we divided our bread and
meat among them, which furnished them only a mouthful each. They never
had any meat, they said, given them by their masters. My brother put
various questions to them, such as, “if they had wives?” “did they go to
church?” “had they any sisters?” &c. The one who gave us the
information, said they had wives, but were obliged to marry on their own
plantation. Master would not allow them to go away from home to marry,
consequently he said they were all related to each other, and master
made them marry, whether related or not. My brother asked this man to
show him his sisters; he said he could not tell them from the rest,
they were all his sisters; and here let me state, what is well known
by many people, that no such thing as real marriage is allowed to exist
among the slaves. Talk of marriage under such a system! Why, the owner
of a Turkish harem, or the keeper of a house of ill-fame, might as well
allow the inmates of their establishments to marry as for a Southern
slaveholder to do the same. Marriage, as is well known, is the voluntary
and perfect union of one man with one woman, without depending upon the
will of a third party. This never can take place under slavery, for the
moment a slave is allowed to form such a connection as he chooses, the
spell of slavery is dissolved. The slave’s wife is his, only at the
will of her master, who may violate her chastity with impunity. It is my
candid opinion that one of the strongest motives which operate upon the
slaveholders, and induce them to retain their iron grasp upon the
unfortunate slave, is because it gives them such unlimited control in
this respect over the female slaves. The greater part of slaveholders
are licentious men, and the most respectable and the kindest of masters,
keep some of their slaves as mistresses. It is for their pecuniary
interest to do so in several respects. Their progeny is so many dollars
and cents in their pockets, instead of being a bill of expense to them,
as would be the case if their slaves were free; and mulatto slaves
command a higher price than dark colored ones; but it is too horrid a
subject to describe. Suffice it to say, that no slave has the least
certainty of being able to retain his wife or her husband a single hour;
so that the slave is placed under strong inducements not to form a union
of love, for he knows not how soon the chords wound around his heart
would be snapped asunder, by the hand of the brutal slave-dealer.
Northern people sustain slavery, knowing that it is a system of perfect
licentiousness, and yet go to church and boast of their purity and
holiness!
On this plantation, the slaves were never allowed to attend church, but
managed their religious affairs in their own way. An old slave, whom
they called Uncle John, decided upon their piety, and would baptize them
during the silent watches of the night, while their master was “taking
his rest in sleep.” Thus is the slave under the necessity of even
“saving his soul” in the hours when the eye of his master, who usurps
the place of God over him, is turned from him. Think of it, ye who
contend for the necessity of these rites, to constitute a man a
Christian! By night must the poor slave steal away from his bed of
straw, and leaving his miserable hovel, must drag his weary limbs to
some adjacent stream of water, where a fellow slave, as ignorant as
himself, proceeds to administer the ordinance of baptism; and as he
plunges his comrades into the water, in imitation of the Baptist of old,
how he trembles, lest the footsteps of his master should be heard,
advancing to their Bethesda,—knowing that if such should be the case,
the severe punishment that awaits them all. Baptists, are ye striking
hands with Southern churches, which thus exclude so many slaves from the
“waters of salvation?”
But we were obliged to cut short our conversation with these slaves, by
beholding the approach of the overseer, who was directing his steps
towards us, like a bear seeking its prey. We had only time to ask this
man, “if they were often whipped?” to which he replied, “that not a day
passed over their heads, without some of their number being brutally
punished; and,” said he, “we shall have to suffer for this talk with
you.” He then told us, that many of them had been severely whipped that
very morning, for having been baptized the night before. After we left
them, we looked back, and heard the screams of these poor creatures,
suffering under the blows of the hard-hearted overseer, for the crime of
talking with us;—which screams sounded in our ears for some time. We
felt thankful that we were exempted from such terrible treatment; but
still, we knew not how soon we should be subject to the same cruel fate.
By this time we had returned to the mill, where we met a young man, (a
relation of the owner of this plantation,) who for some time appeared to
be eyeing us quite attentively. At length he asked me if I had “ever
been whipped,” and when I told him I had not, he replied, “Well, you
will neither of you ever be of any value, then;” so true is it that
whipping is considered a necessary part of slavery. Without this
practice, it could not stand a single day. He expressed a good deal of
surprise that we were allowed to wear hats and shoes,—supposing that a
slave had no business to wear such clothing as his master wore. We had
brought our fishing-lines with us, and requested the privilege to fish
in his stream, which he roughly denied us, saying, “we do not allow
niggers to fish.” Nothing daunted, however, by this rebuff, my brother
went to another place, and was quite successful in his undertaking,
obtaining a plentiful supply of the finny tribe; but as soon as this
youngster perceived his good luck, he ordered him to throw them back
into the stream, which he was obliged to do, and we returned home
without them.
We finally abandoned visiting this mill, and carried our grain to
another, a Mr. Bullock’s, only ten miles distant from our plantation.
This man was very kind to us, took us into his house and put us to bed,
took charge of our horses, and carried the grain himself into the mill,
and in the morning furnished us with a good breakfast. I asked my
brother why this man treated us so differently from our old miller.
“Oh,” said he, “this man is not a slaveholder!” Ah, that explained the
difference; for there is nothing in the southern character averse to
gentleness. On the contrary, if it were not for slavery’s withering
touch, the Southerners would be the kindest people in the land. Slavery
possesses the power attributed to one of old, of changing the nature of
all who drink of its vicious cup.
“—— —— —— Which, as they taste,
Soon as the potion works, their human countenance,
The express resemblance of the gods, is changed
Into some brutish form of wolf, or bear,
Or ounce, or tiger, hog, or bearded goat;
And they, so perfect is their misery,
Not once perceive their foul disfigurement,
But boast themselves more comely than before.”
Under the influence of slavery’s polluting power, the most gentle women
become the fiercest viragos, and the most benevolent men are changed
into inhuman monsters. It is true of the northern man who goes South
also.
“Whoever tastes, loses his upright shape,
And downward falls, into a grovelling swine.”
This non-slaveholder also allowed us to catch as many fish as we
pleased, and even furnished us with fishing implements. While at this
mill, we became acquainted with a colored man from another part of the
country; and as our desire was strong to learn how our brethren fared in
other places, we questioned him respecting his treatment. He complained
much of his hard fate,—said he had a wife and one child, and begged for
some of our fish to carry to his wife; which my brother gladly gave him.
He said he was expecting to have some money in a few days, which would
be “the first he ever had in his life!” He had sent a thousand
hickory-nuts to market, for which he afterwards informed us he had
received thirty-six cents, which he gave to his wife, to furnish her
with some little article of comfort. This was the sum total of all the
money he had ever been the possessor of! Ye northern pro-slavery men, do
you regard this as robbery, or not? The whole of this man’s earnings had
been robbed from him during his entire life, except simply his coarse
food and miserable clothing, the whole expense of which, for a
plantation slave, does not exceed twenty dollars a year. This is one
reason why I think every slaveholder will go to hell; for my Bible
teaches me that no thief shall enter heaven; and I know every
slaveholder is a thief; and I rather think you would all be of my
opinion if you had ever been a slave. But now, assisting these thieves,
and being made rich by them, you say they are not robbers; just as
wicked men generally shield their abettors.
On our return from this place, we met a colored man and woman, who were
very cross to each other. We inquired as to the cause of their trouble,
and the man told us, that “women had such tongues!” that some of them
had stolen a sheep, and this woman, after eating of it, went and told
their master, and they all had to receive a severe whipping. And here
follows a specimen of slaveholding morality, which will show you how
much many of the masters care for their slaves’ stealing. This man
enjoined upon his slaves never to steal from him again, but to steal
from his neighbors, and he would keep them from punishment, if they
would furnish him with a portion of the meat! And why not? For is it any
worse for the slaveholders to steal from one another, than it is to
steal from their helpless slaves? Not long after, these slaves availed
themselves of their master’s assistance, and stole an animal from a
neighboring plantation, and according to agreement, furnished their
master with his share. Soon the owner of the missing animal came rushing
into the man’s house, who had just eaten of the stolen food, and, in a
very excited manner, demanded reparation from him, for the beast stolen,
as he said, by this man’s slaves. The villain, hardly able to stand
after eating so bountifully of his neighbor’s pork, exclaimed loudly,
“my servants know no more about your hogs than I do!” which was strictly
true; and the loser of the swine went away satisfied. This man told his
slaves that it was a sin to steal from him, but none to steal from his
neighbors! My brother told the slave we were conversing with, that it
was as much of a sin in God’s sight, for him to steal from one, as from
the other. “Oh,” said the slave, “master says negroes have nothing to
do with God!” He further informed us that his master and mistress lived
very unhappily together, on account of the maid who waited upon them.
She had no husband, but had several yellow children. After we left them,
they went to a fodder-stack, and took out a jug, and drank of its
contents. My brother’s curiosity was excited to learn the nature of
their drink; and watching his opportunity, unobserved by them, he
slipped up to the stack, and ascertained that the jug was nearly full of
Irish whiskey. He carried it home with him, and the next time we visited
the mill, he returned the jug to its former place, filled with molasses,
purchased with his own money, instead of the fiery drink which it
formerly contained. Some time after this, the master of this man
discovered a great falling off in the supply of stolen meat furnished
him by the slaves, and questioned this man in reference to the cause of
such a lamentable diminution in the supply of hog-meat in particular.
The slave told him the story of the jug, and that he had ceased
drinking, which was sad news for the pork-loving gentleman.
I will now return to my master’s affairs. My young master’s brother was
a very benevolent man, and soon became convinced that it was wrong to
hold men in bondage; which belief he carried into practice by
emancipating forty slaves at one time, and paying the expenses of their
transportation to a free state. But old master, although naturally more
kind-hearted than his neighbors, could not always remain as impervious
to the assaults of the pro-slavery demon; and as stated previously, that
all who drank of this hateful cup were transformed into some vile
animal, so he became a perfect brute in his treatment of his slaves. I
cannot account for this change, only on the supposition, that experience
had convinced him that kind treatment was not as well adapted to the
production of crops, as a severer kind of discipline. Under the elating
influence of freedom’s inspiring sound, men will labor much harder, than
when forced to perform unpleasant tasks, the accomplishment of which
will be of no value to themselves; but while the slave is held as such,
it is difficult for him to feel as he would feel, if he was a free man,
however light may be his tasks, and however kind may be his master. The
lash is still held above his head, and may fall upon him, even if its
blows are for a long time withheld. This the slave realizes; and hence
no kind treatment can destroy the depressing influence of a
consciousness of his being a slave,—no matter how lightly the yoke of
slavery may rest upon his shoulders. He knows the yoke is there; and
that at any time its weight may be made heavier, and his form almost
sink under its weary burden; but give him his liberty, and new life
enters into him immediately. The iron yoke falls from his chafed
shoulders; the collar, even if it was a silken one, is removed from his
enslaved person; and the chains, although made of gold, fall from his
bound limbs, and he walks forth with an elastic step, to enjoy the
realities of his new existence. Now he is ready to perform irksome
tasks; for the avails of his labor will be of value to himself, and with
them he can administer comfort to those near and dear to him, and to the
world at large, as well as provide for his own intellectual welfare;
whereas before, however kind his treatment, all his earnings more than
his expenses went to enrich his master. It is on this account, probably,
that those who have undertaken to carry out some principles of humanity
in their treatment of their slaves, have been generally frowned upon by
their neighbors; and they have been forced either to emancipate their
slaves, or to return to the cruel practices of those around them. My
young master preferred the former alternative; my old master adopted the
latter. We now began to taste a little of the horrors of slavery; so
that many of the slaves ran away, which had not been the case before. My
master employed an overseer also, about this time, which he always
refused to do previously, preferring to take charge of us himself; but
the clamor of the neighbors was so great at his mild treatment of his
slaves, that he at length yielded to the popular will around him, and
went “with the multitude to do evil,” and hired an overseer. This was an
end of our favorable treatment; and there is no telling what would have
been the result of this new method among slaves so unused to the whip as
we were, if in the midst of this experiment, old master had not been
called upon to pay “the debt of nature,” and to “go the way of all the
earth.” As he was about to expire, he sent for me and my brother, to
come to his bedside. We ran with beating hearts, and highly elated
feelings, not doubting that he was about to confer upon us the boon of
freedom, as we expected to be set free when he died; but imagine my deep
disappointment, when the old man called me to his side and said to me,
“Henry, you will make a good plough-boy, or a good gardener; now you
must be an honest boy, and never tell an untruth. I have given you to my
son William, and you must obey him.” Thus did this old gentleman deceive
us by his former kind treatment, and raise expectations in our youthful
minds, which were thus doomed to be fatally overthrown. Poor man! he has
gone to a higher tribunal than man’s, and doubtless ere this, earnestly
laments that he did not give us all our liberty at this favorable
moment; but sad as was our disappointment, we were constrained to submit
to it, as we best were able. One old negro openly expressed his wish
that master would die, because he had not released him from his bondage.
If there is any one thing which operates as an impetus to the slave in
his toilsome labors and buoys him up, under all the hardships of his
severe lot, it is this hope of future freedom, which lights up his soul
and cheers his desolate heart in the midst of all the fearful agonies of
the varied scenes of his slave life, as the soul of the tempest-tossed
mariner is stayed from complete despair, by the faint glimmering of the
far-distant light which the kindness of man has placed in a lighthouse,
so as to be perceived by him at a long distance. Old ocean’s tempestuous
waves beat and roar against his frail bark, and the briny deep seems
ready to enclose him in its wide open mouth, but “ever and anon” he
perceives the glimmering of this feeble light in the distance, which
keeps alive the spark of hope in his bosom, which kind heaven has placed
within every man’s breast. So with the slave. Freedom’s fires are dimly
burning in the far distant future, and ever and anon a fresh flame
appears to arise in the direction of this sacred altar, until at times
it seems to approach so near, that he can feel its melting power
dissolving his chains, and causing him to emerge from his darkened
prison, into the full light of freedom’s glorious liberty. O the fond
anticipations of the slave in this respect! I cannot correctly describe
them to you, but I can recollect the thrills of exulting joy which the
name of freedom caused to flow through my soul.
Freedom, the dear and joyful sound,
’Tis music in the sad slave’s ear.
How often this hope is destined to fade away, as the early dew before
the rising sun! Not unseldom, does the slave labor intensely to obtain
the means to purchase his freedom, and after having paid the required
sum, is still held a slave, while the master retains the money! This
very often transpires under the slave system. A good many slaves have
in this way paid for themselves several times, and not received their
freedom then! And masters often hold out this inducement to their
slaves, to labor more than they otherwise would, when they have no
intention of fulfilling their promise. O the ineffable meanness of the
slave system! Instead of our being set free, a far different fate
awaited us; and here you behold, reader, the closing scene of the
kindest treatment which a man can bestow upon his slaves.
It mattered not how benign might have been our master’s conduct to us,
it was to be succeeded by a harrowing scene, the inevitable consequence
of our being left slaves. We must now be separated and divided into
different lots, as we were inherited by the four sons of my master. It
is no easy matter to amicably divide even the old furniture and worn-out
implements of husbandry, and sometimes the very clothing of a deceased
person, and oftentimes a scene of shame ensues at the opening of the
will of a departed parent, which is enough to cause humanity to blush at
the meanness of man. What then must be the sufferings of those persons,
who are to be the objects of this division and strife? See the heirs of
a departed slaveholder, disputing as to the rightful possession of human
beings, many of them their old nurses, and their playmates in their
younger days! The scene which took place at the division of my master’s
human property, baffles all description. I was then only thirteen years
of age, but it is as fresh in my mind as if but yesterday’s sun had
shone upon the dreadful exhibition. My mother was separated from her
youngest child, and not until she had begged and pleaded most piteously
for its restoration to her, was it again placed in her hands. Turning
her eyes fondly upon me, who was now to be carried from her presence,
she said, “You now see, my son, the fulfilment of what I told you a
great while ago, when I used to take you on my knee, and show you the
leaves blown from the trees by the fearful winds.” Yes, I now saw that
one after another were the slave mother’s children torn from her
embrace, and John was given to one brother, Sarah to another, and Jane
to a third, while Samuel fell into the hands of the fourth. It is a
difficult matter to satisfactorily divide the slaves on a plantation,
for no person wishes for all children, or for all old people; while
both old, young, and middle aged ones are to be divided. There is no
equitable way of dividing them, but by allowing each one to take his
portion of both children, middle aged and old people; which necessarily
causes heart-rending separations; but “slaves have no feelings,” I am
sometimes told. “You get used to these things; it would not do for us to
experience them, but you are not constituted as we are;” to which I
reply, that a slave’s friends are all he possesses that is of value to
him. He cannot read, he has no property, he cannot be a teacher of
truth, or a politician; he cannot be very religious, and all that
remains to him, aside from the hope of freedom, that ever present deity,
forever inspiring him in his most terrible hours of despair, is the
society of his friends. We love our friends more than white people love
theirs, for we risk more to save them from suffering. Many of our number
who have escaped from bondage ourselves, have jeopardized our own
liberty, in order to release our friends, and sometimes we have been
retaken and made slaves of again, while endeavoring to rescue our
friends from slavery’s iron jaws.
But does not the slave love his friends! What mean then those frantic
screams, which every slave-auction witnesses, where the scalding tears
rush in agonizing torrents down the sorrow-stricken cheeks of the
bereaved slave mother; and where clubs are sometimes used to drive apart
two fond friends who cling to each other, as the merciless slave-trader
is to separate them forever. O, to talk of our not having feelings for
our friends, is to mock that Being who has created us in his own image,
and implanted deep in every human bosom, a gushing fount of tender
sensibilities, which no life of sin can ever fully erase. Talk of our
not having feelings, and then calmly look on the scene described as
taking place when my master died! Have you any feeling? Does this
recital arouse those sympathetic feelings in your bosom which you make
your boast of? How can white people have hearts of tenderness, and
allow such scenes to daily transpire at the South? All over the
blackened and marred surface of the whole slave territory do these
heart-rending transactions continually occur. Not a day inscribes its
departing hours upon the dial of human existence, but it marks the
overthrow of more than one family altar, and the sundering of numerous
family ties; and yet the hot blood of Southern oppression is allowed to
find its way into the hearts of the Northern people, who politically and
religiously are doing their utmost to sustain the dreadful system; yea,
competing with the South in their devotion to the evil genius of their
country’s choice. Slavery reigns and rules the councils of this nation,
as Satan presides over Pandemonium, and the loud and clear cry of the
anti-slavery host, calling upon the people of the land to cease their
connection with the tyrannical system, is universally unheeded. It falls
upon the closed ears of the people of this nation like the noise of the
random shots of a vessel at sea, upon the ears of the captain of the
opposing squadron, but to arouse them to action in opposition to the
utterance of the voice of warning.
What though the plaintive cries of three millions of heart-broken and
dejected captives, are wafted on every Southern gale to the ears of our
Northern brethren, and the hot winds of the South reach our fastnesses
amid the mountains and hills of our rugged land, loaded with the stifled
cries and choking sobs of poor desolate woman, as her babes are torn one
by one from her embrace; yet no Northern voice is heard to sound loudly
enough among our hills and dales, to startle from their sleep of
indifference, those who have it in their power to break the chains of
the suffering bondmen to-day, saying to all who hear its clear
sounding voice, “Come out from all connection with this terrible system
of cruelty and blood, and form a government and a union free from this
hateful curse.” The Northern people have it in their power to-day, to
cause all this suffering of which I have been speaking to cease, and to
cause one loud and triumphant anthem of praise to ascend from the
millions of panting, bleeding slaves, now stretched upon the plains of
Southern oppression; and yet they talk of our being destitute of
feeling. “O shame, where is thy blush!”
My father and mother were left on the plantation, and I was taken to the
city of Richmond, to work in a tobacco manufactory, owned by my master’s
son William, who now became my only master. Old master, although he did
not give me my freedom, yet left an especial charge with his son to take
good care of me, and not to whip me, which charge my master endeavored
to act in accordance with. He told me if I would behave well he would
take good care of me, and would give me money to spend, &c. He talked so
kindly to me that I determined I would exert myself to the utmost to
please him, and would endeavor to do just what he wished me to, in every
respect. He furnished me with a new suit of clothes, and gave me money
to buy things with, to send to my mother. One day I overheard him
telling the overseer that his father had raised me, and that I was a
smart boy, and he must never whip me. I tried extremely hard to perform
what I thought was my duty, and escaped the lash almost entirely;
although the overseer would oftentimes have liked to have given me a
severe whipping; but fear of both me and my master deterred him from so
doing. It is true, my lot was still comparatively easy; but reader,
imagine not that others were so fortunate as myself, as I will presently
describe to you the character of our overseer; and you can judge what
kind of treatment, persons wholly in his power might expect from such a
man. But it was some time before I became reconciled to my fate, for
after being so constantly with my mother, to be torn from her side, and
she on a distant plantation, where I could not see or but seldom hear
from her, was exceedingly trying to my youthful feelings, slave though I
was. I missed her smiling look when her eye rested upon my form; and
when I returned from my daily toil, weary and dejected, no fond mother’s
arms were extended to meet me, no one appeared to sympathize with me,
and I felt I was indeed alone in the world. After the lapse of about a
year and a half from the time I commenced living in Richmond, a strange
series of events transpired. I did not then know precisely what was the
cause of these scenes, for I could not get any very satisfactory
information concerning the matter from my master, only that some of the
slaves had undertaken to kill their owners; but I have since learned
that it was the famous Nat Turner’s insurrection that caused all the
excitement I witnessed. Slaves were whipped, hung, and cut down with
swords in the streets, if found away from their quarters after dark. The
whole city was in the utmost confusion and dismay; and a dark cloud of
terrific blackness, seemed to hang over the heads of the whites. So true
is it, that “the wicked flee when no man pursueth.” Great numbers of the
slaves were locked in the prison, and many were “half hung,” as it was
termed; that is, they were suspended to some limb of a tree, with a rope
about their necks, so adjusted as not to quite strangle them, and then
they were pelted by the men and boys with rotten eggs. This half-hanging
is a refined species of cruelty, peculiar to slavery, I believe.
Among the cruelties occasioned by this insurrection, which was however
some distance from Richmond, was the forbidding of as many as five
slaves to meet together, except they were at work, and the silencing of
all colored preachers. One of that class in our city, refused to obey
the imperial mandate, and was severely whipped; but his religion was too
deeply rooted to be thus driven from him, and no promise could be
extorted from his resolute soul, that he would not proclaim what he
considered the glad tidings of the gospel. (Query. How many white
preachers would continue their employment, if they were served in the
same way?) It is strange that more insurrections do not take place
among the slaves; but their masters have impressed upon their minds so
forcibly the fact, that the United States Government is pledged to put
them down, in case they should attempt any such movement, that they have
no heart to contend against such fearful odds; and yet the slaveholder
lives in constant dread of such an event.[3]
The rustling of
“—— —— —— the lightest leaf,
That quivers to the passing breeze,”
fills his timid soul with visions of flowing blood and burning
dwellings; and as the loud thunder of heaven rolls over his head, and
the vivid lightning flashes across his pale face, straightway his
imagination conjures up terrible scenes of the loud roaring of an
enemy’s cannon, and the fierce yells of an infuriated slave population,
rushing to vengeance.[4] There is no doubt but this would be the case,
if it were not for the Northern people, who are ready, as I have been
often told, to shoot us down, if we attempt to rise and obtain our
freedom. I believe that if the slaves could do as they wish, they would
throw off their heavy yoke immediately, by rising against their masters;
but ten millions of Northern people stand with their feet on their
necks, and how can they arise? How was Nat Turner’s insurrection
suppressed, but by a company of United States troops, furnished the
governor of Virginia at his request, according to your Constitution?
About this time, I began to grow alarmed respecting my future welfare,
as a great eclipse of the sun had recently taken place; and the cholera
reaching the country not long after, I thought that perhaps the day of
judgment was not far distant, and I must prepare for that dreaded event.
After praying for about three months, it pleased Almighty God, as I
believe, to pardon my sins, and I was received into the Baptist Church,
by a minister who thought it was wicked to hold slaves. I was obliged to
obtain permission from my master, however, before I could join. He gave
me a note to carry to the preacher, saying that I had his permission
to join the church!
I shall now make you acquainted with the manner in which affairs were
conducted in my master’s tobacco manufactory, after which I shall
introduce you to the heart-rending scenes which give the principal
interest to my narrative.
My master carried on a large tobacco manufacturing establishment in
Richmond, which was almost wholly under the supervision of one of those
low, miserable, cruel, barbarous, and sometimes religious beings, known
under the name of overseers, with which the South abounds. These men
hardly deserve the name of men, for they are lost to all regard for
decency, truth, justice and humanity, and are so far gone in human
depravity, that before they can be saved, Jesus Christ, or some other
Saviour, will have to die a second time. I pity them sincerely, but as
my mind recurs to the wicked conduct I so often witnessed on the part
of this one, I cannot prevent these indignant feelings from arising in
my soul. O reader, if you had seen the perfect recklessness of conduct
so often exhibited by this man, as I witnessed it, you would not blame
me for expressing myself so strongly. I know that even this man is my
brother, but he is a very wicked brother, whose soul I commend to
Almighty God, hoping that his sovereign grace may find its way, if it is
a possible thing, to his sin-hardened soul; and yet he was a pious
man. His name was John F. Allen, and I suppose he still lives in
Richmond. After reading about his character, I apprehend your judgment
of him will coincide with mine. The other overseers, however, were very
different men, for hell could hardly spare more than one such man, for
one tobacco manufactory; as it is not overstocked with such vile
reprobates.
But before proceeding to speak farther of him, I will inform you a
little respecting our business—as not many of you have ever seen the
inside of a tobacco manufactory. The building I worked in was about 300
feet in length, and three stories high, and afforded room for 200 people
to work in, but only 150 persons were employed, 120 of whom were slaves,
and the remainder free colored people. We were obliged to work
fourteen hours a day, in the summer, and sixteen in the winter.
This work consisted in removing the stems from the leaves of tobacco,
which was performed by women and boys, after which the tobacco was
moistened with a liquor made from liquorice and sugar, which gives the
tobacco that sweetish taste which renders it not perfectly abhorrent to
those who chew it. After being thus moistened, the tobacco was taken by
the men and twisted into hands, and pressed into lumps, when it was sent
to the machine-house, and pressed into boxes and casks. After remaining
in what was called the “sweat-house” about thirty days, it was shipped
for the market.
Mr. Allen was a thorough going Yankee in his mode of doing business. He
was by no means one of your indolent, do-nothing Southerners, so
effeminate as to be hardly able to wield his hands to administer to his
own necessities, but he was a savage-looking, dare-devil sort of a man,
ready apparently for any emergency to which Beelzebub might call him, a
real servant of the bottomless pit. He understood how to turn a penny as
well as any Yankee pedlar who ever visited our city. Whether he derived
his skill from associating with that class of individuals, or whether it
was the natural production of his own cunning mind, I know not. He used
often to boast, that by his shrewdness in managing the negroes, he made
enough to support his family, which cost him $1000, without touching a
farthing of his salary, which was $1500 per annum. Of the probability of
this assertion, I can bear witness; for I know he was very skilful in
another department of cunning and cheatery. Like many other servants of
the evil one, he was an early riser; not for the purpose of improving
his health, or that he might enjoy sweet communion with his heavenly
Father, at his morning orisons, but that “while the master slept” he
might more easily transact his nefarious business. At whatever hour of
the morning I might arrive at the factory, I seldom anticipated the
seemingly industrious steps of Mr. Allen, who by his punctuality in
this respect, obtained a good reputation as a faithful and devoted
overseer. But mark the conduct of the pious gentleman, for he was a
member of an Episcopalian church. One would have supposed from observing
the transactions around him, that Mr. Allen took time by the forelock,
emphatically, for long before the early rays of the rising sun had
gilded the eastern horizon, was this man busily engaged in loading a
wagon with coal, oil, sugar, wood, &c., &c., which always found a place
of deposit at his own door, entirely unknown to my master. This
practice Mr. Allen carried on during my stay there, and yet he was a
very pious man.
This man enjoyed the unlimited confidence of my master, so that he would
never listen to a word of complaint on the part of any of the workmen.
No matter how cruel or how unjust might be the punishment inflicted
upon any of the hands, master would never listen to their complaints; so
that this barbarous man was our master in reality. At one time a colored
man, who had been in the habit of singing religious songs quite often,
was taken sick and did not make his appearance at the factory. For two
or three days no notice whatever was taken of him, no medicine provided
for him, and no physician sent to heal him. At the end of that time, Mr.
Allen ordered three strong men to go to the man’s house, and bring him
to the factory. This order being obeyed, the man, pale and hardly able
to stand, was stripped to his waist, his hands tied together, and the
rope fastened to a large post. The overseer then questioned him about
his singing, told him that it consumed too much time, and that he was
going to give him some medicine which would cure him. The poor trembling
man made no reply, when the pious Mr. Allen, for no crime except that of
sickness, inflicted 200 lashes upon the quivering flesh of the invalid,
and he would have continued his “apostolic blows,” if the emaciated form
of the languishing man, had not sunken under their heavy weight, and Mr.
Allen was obliged to desist.[5] I witnessed this transaction with my own
eyes; but what could I do, for I was a slave, and any interference on my
part would only have brought the same punishment upon me. This man was
sick a month afterwards, during which time the weekly allowance of
seventy-five cents for the hands to board themselves with, was withheld
from him, and his wife was obliged to support him by washing for others;
and yet Northern people tell me that a slave is better off than a free
man, because when he is sick his master provides for him! Master knew
all the circumstances of this case, but never uttered one word of
reproof to the overseer, that I could learn; at any rate, he did not
interfere at all with this cruel treatment of him, as his motto was,
“Mr. Allen is always right.”
Mr. Allen, although a church member, was much addicted to the habit of
profane swearing, a vice which church members there, indulged in as
frequently as non-professors did. He used particularly to expend his
swearing breath, in denunciation of the whole race of negroes, calling
us “d——d hogs, dogs, pigs,” &c. At one time, he was busily engaged in
reading in the Bible, when a slave came in who had absented himself
from work the enormous length of ten minutes! The overseer had been
cheated out of ten minutes’ precious time; and as he depended upon the
punctuality of the slave to support his family in the manner mentioned
previously, his desire perhaps not to violate that precept, “he that
provideth not for his family is worse than an infidel,” led him to
indulge in quite an outbreak of boisterous anger. “What are you so late
for, you black scamp?” said he to the delinquent. “I am only ten minutes
behind the time, sir,” quietly responded the slave, when Mr. Allen
exclaimed, “You are a d——d liar,” and remembering, for aught that I
can say to the contrary, that “he that converteth a sinner from the
error of his ways, shall save a soul from death,” he proceeded to try
the effect of the Bible upon the body of the “liar,” striking him a
heavy blow in the face, with the sacred book. But that not answering his
purpose, and the man remaining incorrigible, he caught up a stick and
beat him with that. The slave complained to master, but he would take no
notice of him, and directed him back to the overseer.
Mr. Allen, although a superintendent of the Sabbath school, and very
fervid in his exhortations to the slave children, whom he endeavored to
instruct in reference to their duties to their masters, that they must
never disobey them, or lie, or steal, and if they did they would
assuredly “go to hell,” yet was not wholly destitute of “that fear which
hath torment,” for always when a heavy thunder storm came up, would he
shut himself up in a little room where he supposed the lightning would
not harm him; and I frequently overheard him praying earnestly to God to
spare his life. He evidently had not that “perfect love which casteth
out fear.” The same day on which he had beaten the poor sick man, did
such a scene transpire; but generally after the storm had abated he
would laugh at his own conduct, and say he did not believe the Lord had
any thing to do with the thunder and lightning.
As I have stated, Mr. A. was a devout attendant upon public worship, and
prayed much with the pupils in the Sabbath school, and was indefatigable
in teaching them to repeat the catechism after him, although he was very
particular never to allow them to hold the book in their hands. But let
not my readers suppose on this account, that he desired the salvation of
these slaves. No, far from that; for very soon after thus exhorting
them, he would tell his visiters, that it was “a d——d lie that
colored people were ever converted,” and that they could “not go to
heaven,” for they had no souls; but that it was his duty to talk to them
as he did. The reader can learn from this account of how much value the
religious teaching of the slaves is, when such men are its
administerers; and also for what purpose this instruction is given them.
This man’s liberality to white people, was coextensive with his
denunciation of the colored race. A white man, he said, could not be
lost, let him do what he pleased—rob the slaves, which he said was not
wrong, lie, swear, or any thing else, provided he read the Bible and
joined the Church.[6]
One word concerning the religion of the South. I regard it as all
delusion, and that there is not a particle of religion in their
slaveholding churches. The great end to which religion is there made to
minister, is to keep the slaves in a docile and submissive frame of
mind, by instilling into them the idea that if they do not obey their
masters, they will infallibly “go to hell;” and yet some of the
miserable wretches who teach this doctrine, do not themselves believe
it. Of course the slave prefers obedience to his master, to an abode in
the “lake of fire and brimstone.” It is true in more senses than one,
that slavery rests upon hell! I once heard a minister declare in public,
that he had preached six years before he was converted; and that he was
then in the habit of taking a glass of “mint julep” directly after
prayers, which wonderfully refreshed him, soul and body. This dram he
would repeat three or four times during the day; but at length an old
slave persuaded him to abstain a while from his potations, the following
of which advice, resulted in his conversion. I believe his second
conversion, was nearer a true one, than his first, because he said his
conscience reproved him for having sold slaves; and he finally left that
part of the country, on account of slavery, and went to the North.
But as time passed along, I began to think seriously of entering into
the matrimonial state, as much as a person can, who can “make no
contract whatever,” and whose wife is not his, only so far as her master
allows her to be. I formed an acquaintance with a young woman by the
name of Nancy—belonging to a Mr. Lee, a clerk in the bank, and a pious
man; and our friendship having ripened into mutual love, we concluded
to make application to the powers that ruled us, for permission to be
married, as I had previously applied for permission to join the church.
I went to Mr. Lee, and made known to him my wishes, when he told me, he
never meant to sell Nancy, and if my master would agree never to sell
me, then I might marry her. This man was a member of a Presbyterian
church in Richmond, and pretended to me, to believe it wrong to separate
families; but after I had been married to my wife one year, his
conscientious scruples vanished, and she was sold to a saddler living in
Richmond, who was one of Dr. Plummer’s church members. Mr. Lee gave me a
note to my master, and they afterwards discussed the matter over, and I
was allowed to marry the chosen one of my heart. Mr. Lee, as I have
said, soon sold my wife, contrary to his promise, and she fell into the
hands of a very cruel mistress, the wife of the saddler above mentioned,
by whom she was much abused. This woman used to wish for some great
calamity to happen to my wife, because she stayed so long when she went
to nurse her child; which calamity came very near happening afterwards
to herself. My wife was finally sold, on account of the solicitations of
this woman; but four months had hardly elapsed, before she insisted upon
her being purchased back again.
During all this time, my mind was in a continual agitation, for I knew
not one day, who would be the owner of my wife the next. O reader, have
you no heart to sympathize with the injured slave, as he thus lives in a
state of perpetual torment, the dread uncertainty of his wife’s fate,
continually hanging over his head, and poisoning all his joys, as the
naked sword hung by a hair, over the head of an ancient king’s guest,
as he was seated at a table loaded with all the luxuries of an epicure’s
devising? This sword, unlike the one alluded to, did often pierce my
breast, and when I had recovered from the wound, it was again hung up,
to torture me. This is slavery, a natural and concomitant part of the
accursed system!
The saddler who owned my wife, whose name I suppress for particular
reasons, was at one time taken sick, but when his minister, the Rev.
(so called) Dr. Plummer came to pray with him, he would not allow him to
perform that rite, which strengthened me in the opinion I entertained of
Dr. Plummer, that he was as wicked a man as this saddler, and you will
presently see, how bad a man he was. The saddler sent for his slaves to
pray for him, and afterwards for me, and when I repaired to his
bed-side, he beseeched me to pray for him, saying that he would live a
much better life than he had done, if the Lord would only spare him. I
and the other slaves prayed three nights for him, after our work was
over, and we needed rest in sleep; but the earnest desire of this man,
induced us to forego our necessary rest; and yet one of the first things
he did after his recovery, was to sell my wife. When he was reminded
of my praying for his restoration to health, he angrily exclaimed, that
it was “all d——d lies” about the Lord restoring him to health in
consequence of the negroes praying for him,—and that if any of them
mentioned that they had prayed for him, he “would whip them for it.”
The last purchaser of my wife, was Mr. Samuel S. Cartrell, also a member
of Dr. Plummer’s church.[7]
He induced me to pay him $50,00 in order to
assist him in purchasing my companion, so as to prevent her being sold
away from me. I also paid him $50 a year, for her time, although she
would have been of but little value to him, for she had young children
and could not earn much for him,—and rented a house for which I paid
$72, and she took in washing, which with the remainder of my earnings,
after deducting master’s “lion’s share,” supported our family. Our
bliss, as far as the term bliss applies to a slave’s situation, was now
complete in this respect, for a season; for never had we been so
pleasantly situated before; but, reader, behold its cruel termination. O
the harrowing remembrance of those terrible, terrible scenes! May God
spare you from ever enduring what I then endured.
It was on a pleasant morning, in the month of August, 1848, that I left
my wife and three children safely at our little home, and proceeded to
my allotted labor. The sun shone brightly as he commenced his daily
task, and as I gazed upon his early rays, emitting their golden light
upon the rich fields adjacent to the city, and glancing across the abode
of my wife and family, and as I beheld the numerous companies of slaves,
hieing their way to their daily labors, and reflected upon the
difference between their lot and mine, I felt that, although I was a
slave, there were many alleviations to my cup of sorrow. It was true,
that the greater portion of my earnings was taken from me, by the
unscrupulous hands of my dishonest master,—that I was entirely at his
mercy, and might at any hour be snatched from what sources of joy were
open to me—that he might, if he chose, extend his robber hand, and
demand a still larger portion of my earnings,—and above all, that
intellectual privileges were entirely denied me; but as I imprinted a
parting kiss upon the lips of my faithful wife, and pressed to my bosom
the little darling cherubs, who followed me saying, in their childish
accents, “Father, come back soon,” I felt that life was not all a blank
to me; that there were some pure joys yet my portion. O, how my heart
would have been riven with unutterable anguish, if I had then realized
the awful calamity which was about to burst upon my unprotected head!
Reader, are you a husband, and can you listen to my sad story, without
being moved to cease all your connection with that stern power, which
stretched out its piratical arm, and basely robbed me of all dear to me
on earth!
The sun had traced his way to mid-heaven, and the hour for the laborers
to turn from their tasks, and to seek refreshment for their toil-worn
frames,—and when I should take my prattling children on my knee,—was
fast approaching; but there burst upon me a sound so dreadful, and so
sudden, that the shock well nigh overwhelmed me. It was as if the
heavens themselves had fallen upon me, and the everlasting hills of
God’s erecting, like an avalanche, had come rolling over my head! And
what was it? “Your wife and smiling babes are gone; in prison they are
locked, and to-morrow’s sun will see them far away from you, on their
way to the distant South!” Pardon the utterance of my feelings here,
reader, for surely a man may feel, when all that he prizes on earth is,
at one fell stroke, swept from his reach! O God, if there is a moment
when vengeance from thy righteous throne should be hurled upon guilty
man, and hot thunderbolts of wrath, should burst upon his wicked head,
it surely is at such a time as this! And this is Slavery; its certain,
necessary and constituent part. Without this terrific pillar to its
demon walls, it falls to the ground, as a bridge sinks, when its
buttresses are swept from under it by the rushing floods. This is
Slavery. No kind master’s indulgent care can guard his chosen slave, his
petted chattel, however fond he may profess to be of such a piece of
property, from so fearful a calamity. My master treated me as kindly as
he could, and retain me in slavery; but did that keep me from
experiencing this terrible deprivation? The sequel will show you even
his care for me. What could I do? I had left my fond wife and prattling
children, as happy as slaves could expect to be; as I was not
anticipating their loss, for the pious man who bought them last, had, as
you recollect, received a sum of money from me, under the promise of not
selling them. My first impulse, of course, was to rush to the jail, and
behold my family once more, before our final separation. I started for
this infernal place, but had not proceeded a great distance, before I
met a gentleman, who stopped me, and beholding my anguish of heart, as
depicted on my countenance, inquired of me what the trouble was with me.
I told him as I best could, when he advised me not to go to the jail,
for the man who had sold my wife, had told my master some falsehoods
about me, and had induced him to give orders to the jailor to seize me,
and confine me in prison, if I should appear there. He said I would
undoubtedly be sold separate from my wife, and he thought I had better
not go there. I then persuaded a young man of my acquaintance to go to
the prison, and sent by him, to my wife, some money and a message in
reference to the cause of my failure to visit her. It seems that it
would have been useless for me to have ventured there, for as soon as
this young man arrived, and inquired for my wife, he was seized and put
in prison,—the jailor mistaking him for me; but when he discovered his
mistake, he was very angry, and vented his rage upon the innocent youth,
by kicking him out of prison. I then repaired to my Christian master,
and there several times, during the ensuing twenty-four hours, did I
beseech and entreat him to purchase my wife; but no tears of mine made
the least impression upon his obdurate heart. I laid my case before him,
and reminded him of the faithfulness with which I had served him, and of
my utmost endeavors to please him, but this kind master—recollect
reader—utterly refused to advance a small portion of the $5,000 I had
paid him, in order to relieve my sufferings; and he was a member, in
good and regular standing, of an Episcopal church in Richmond! His reply
to me was worthy of the morality of Slavery, and shows just how much
religion, the kindest and most pious of Southern slaveholders have.
“You can get another wife,” said he; but I told him the Bible said,
“What God has joined together, let not man put asunder,” and that I did
not want any other wife but my own lawful one, whom I loved so much. At
the mention of this passage of Scripture, he drove me from his house,
saying, he did not wish to hear that!
I now endeavored to persuade two gentlemen of my acquaintance, to buy my
wife; but they told me they did not think it was right to hold slaves,
or else they would gladly assist me, for they sincerely pitied me, and
advised me to go to my master again; but I knew this would be useless.
My agony was now complete. She with whom I had travelled the journey of
life, for the space of twelve years, with three little pledges of
domestic affection, must now be forever separated from me—I must remain
alone and desolate. O God, shall my wife and children never more greet
my sight, with their cheerful looks and happy smiles? Far, far away, in
Carolina’s swamps are they now, toiling beneath the scorching rays of
the hot sun, with no husband’s voice to soothe the hardships of my
wife’s lot, and no father’s kind look to gladden the heart of my
disconsolate little ones.[8]
I call upon you, Sons of the North, if your blood has not lost its
bright color of liberty, and is not turned to the blackened gore which
surrounds the slaveholder’s polluted hearts, to arise in your might, and
demand the liberation of the slaves. If you do not, at the day of final
account, I shall bear witness against you, as well as against the
slaveholders themselves, as the cause of my and my brethren’s
bereavement. Think you, at that dread hour, you can escape the
scrutinizing look of the Judge of all the earth, as he “maketh
inquisition for the blood of the innocents?” Oh, no; but equally with
the Southern slaveholders, will your character be condemned by the Ruler
of the universe.
The next day, I stationed myself by the side of the road, along which
the slaves, amounting to three hundred and fifty, were to pass. The
purchaser of my wife was a Methodist minister, who was about starting
for North Carolina. Pretty soon five waggonloads of little children
passed, and looking at the foremost one, what should I see but a little
child, pointing its tiny hand towards me, exclaiming, “There’s my
father; I knew he would come and bid me good-bye.” It was my eldest
child! Soon the gang approached in which my wife was chained. I looked,
and beheld her familiar face; but O, reader, that glance of agony! may
God spare me ever again enduring the excruciating horror of that moment!
She passed, and came near to where I stood. I seized hold of her hand,
intending to bid her farewell; but words failed me; the gift of
utterance had fled, and I remained speechless. I followed her for some
distance, with her hand grasped in mine, as if to save her from her
fate, but I could not speak, and I was obliged to turn away in silence.
This is not an imaginary scene, reader; it is not a fiction, but an
every-day reality at the South; and all I can say more to you, in
reference to it is, that if you will not, after being made acquainted
with these facts, consecrate your all to the slaves’ release from
bondage, you are utterly unworthy the name of a man, and should go and
hide yourself, in some impenetrable cave, where no eye can behold your
demon form.
One more scene occurs in the tragical history of my life, before the
curtain drops, and I retire from the stage of observation, as far as
past events are concerned; not, however, to shrink from public gaze, as
if ashamed of my perilous adventures, or to retire into private life,
lest the bloodhounds of the South should scent my steps, and start in
pursuit of their missing property. No, reader, for as long as three
millions of my countrymen pine in cruel bondage, on Virginia’s exhausted
soil, and in Carolina’s pestilential rice swamps; in the cane-breaks of
Georgia, and on the cotton fields of Louisiana and Mississippi, and in
the insalubrious climate of Texas; as well as suffer under the
slave-driver’s cruel lash, all over the almost God-forsaken South; I
shall never refuse to advocate their claims to your sympathy, whenever a
fitting occasion occurs to speak in their behalf.
But you are eager to learn the particulars of my journey from freedom to
liberty. The first thing that occurred to me, after the cruel separation
of my wife and children from me, and I had recovered my senses, so as to
know how to act, was, thoughts of freeing myself from slavery’s iron
yoke. I had suffered enough under its heavy weight, and I determined I
would endure it no longer; and those reasons which often deter the slave
from attempting to escape, no longer existed in reference to me, for my
family were gone, and slavery now had no mitigating circumstances, to
lessen the bitterness of its cup of woe. It is true, as my master had
told me, that I could “get another wife;” but no man, excepting a brute
below the human species, would have proposed such a step to a person in
my circumstances; and as I was not such a degraded being, I did not
dream of so conducting. Marriage was not a thing of personal convenience
with me, to be cast aside as a worthless garment, whenever the
slaveholder’s will required it; but it was a sacred institution binding
upon me, as long as the God who had “joined us together,” refrained from
untying the nuptial knot. What! leave the wife of my bosom for another!
and while my heart was leaping from its abode, to pour its strong
affections upon the kindred soul of my devoted partner, could I receive
a stranger, another person to my embrace, as if the ties of love existed
only in the presence of the object loved! Then, indeed, should I have
been a traitor to that God, who had linked our hearts together in fond
affection, and cemented our union, by so many additional cords, twining
around our hearts; as a tree and an arbor are held together by the
clinging of the tendrils of the adhering vine, which winds itself about
them so closely. Slavery, and slavery abettors, seize hold of these
tender scions, and cut and prune them away from both tree and arbor, as
remorselessly as a gardener cuts down the briars and thorns which
disturb the growth of his fair plants; but all humane, and every
virtuous man, must instinctively recoil from such transactions, as they
would from soul murder, or from the commission of some enormous deed of
villany.
Reader, in the light of these scenes you may behold, as in a glass, your
true character. Refined and delicate you may pretend to be, and may pass
yourself off as a pure and virtuous person; but if you refuse to exert
yourself for the overthrow of a system, which thus tramples human
affection under its bloody feet, and demands of its crushed victims, the
sacrifice of all that is noble, virtuous and pure, upon its smoking
altars; you may rest assured, that if the balances of purity were
extended before you, He who “searcheth the hearts, and trieth the
reins,” would say to you, as your character underwent his searching
scrutiny, “Thou art weighed in the balance and found wanting.”
I went to Mr. Allen, and requested of him permission to refrain from
labor for a short time, in consequence of a disabled finger; but he
refused to grant me this permission, on the ground that my hand was not
lame enough to justify him in so doing. Nothing daunted by this rebuff,
I took some oil of vitriol, intending to pour a few drops upon my
finger, to make it sufficiently sore, to disable me from work, which I
succeeded in, beyond my wishes; for in my hurry, a larger quantity than
it was my purpose to apply to my finger, found its way there, and my
finger was soon eaten through to the bone. The overseer then was obliged
to allow me to absent myself from business, for it was impossible for me
to work in that situation. But I did not waste my precious furlough in
idle mourning over my fate. I armed myself with determined energy, for
action, and in the words of one of old, in the name of God, “I leaped
over a wall, and run through a troop” of difficulties. After searching
for assistance for some time, I at length was so fortunate as to find a
friend, who promised to assist me, for one half the money I had about
me, which was one hundred and sixty-six dollars. I gave him eighty-six,
and he was to do his best in forwarding my scheme. Long did we remain
together, attempting to devise ways and means to carry me away from the
land of separation of families, of whips and thumbscrews, and auction
blocks; but as often as a plan was suggested by my friend, there would
appear some difficulty in the way of its accomplishment. Perhaps it may
not be best to mention what these plans were, as some unfortunate slaves
may thereby be prevented from availing themselves of these methods of
escape.
At length, after praying earnestly to Him, who seeth afar off, for
assistance, in my difficulty, suddenly, as if from above, there darted
into my mind these words, “Go and get a box, and put yourself in it.” I
pondered the words over in my mind. “Get a box?” thought I; “what can
this mean?” But I was “not disobedient unto the heavenly vision,” and I
determined to put into practice this direction, as I considered it, from
my heavenly Father.[9] I went to the depot, and there noticed the size
of the largest boxes, which commonly were sent by the cars, and returned
with their dimensions. I then repaired to a carpenter, and induced him
to make me a box of such a description as I wished, informing him of the
use I intended to make of it. He assured me I could not live in it; but
as it was dear liberty I was in pursuit of, I thought it best to make
the trial.
When the box was finished, I carried it, and placed it before my friend,
who had promised to assist me, who asked me if that was to “put my
clothes in?” I replied that it was not, but to “put Henry Brown in!”
He was astonished at my temerity; but I insisted upon his placing me in
it, and nailing me up, and he finally consented.
After corresponding with a friend in Philadelphia, arrangements were
made for my departure, and I took my place in this narrow prison, with a
mind full of uncertainty as to the result. It was a critical period of
my life, I can assure you, reader; but if you have never been deprived
of your liberty, as I was, you cannot realize the power of that hope of
freedom, which was to me indeed, “an anchor to the soul, both sure and
steadfast.”
I laid me down in my darkened home of three feet by two, and like one
about to be guillotined, resigned myself to my fate. My friend was to
accompany me, but he failed to do so; and contented himself with sending
a telegraph message to his correspondent in Philadelphia, that such a
box was on its way to his care.
I took with me a bladder filled with water to bathe my neck with, in
case of too great heat; and with no access to the fresh air, excepting
three small gimblet holes, I started on my perilous cruise. I was first
carried to the express office, the box being placed on its end, so that
I started with my head downwards, although the box was directed, “this
side up with care.” From the express office, I was carried to the depot,
and from thence tumbled roughly into the baggage car, where I happened
to fall “right side up,” but no thanks to my transporters. But after a
while the cars stopped, and I was put aboard a steamboat, and placed on
my head. In this dreadful position, I remained the space of an hour and
a half, it seemed to me, when I began to feel of my eyes and head, and
found to my dismay, that my eyes were almost swollen out of their
sockets, and the veins on my temple seemed ready to burst. I made no
noise however, determining to obtain “victory or death,” but endured
the terrible pain, as well as I could, sustained under the whole by the
thoughts of sweet liberty. About half an hour afterwards, I attempted
again to lift my hands to my face, but I found I was not able to move
them. A cold sweat now covered me from head to foot. Death seemed my
inevitable fate, and every moment I expected to feel the blood flowing
over me, which had burst from my veins. One half hour longer and my
sufferings would have ended in that fate, which I preferred to slavery;
but I lifted up my heart to God in prayer, believing that he would yet
deliver me, when to my joy, I overheard two men say, “We have been here
two hours and have travelled twenty miles, now let us sit down, and
rest ourselves.” They suited the action to the word, and turned the box
over, containing my soul and body, thus delivering me from the power of
the grim messenger of death, who a few moments previously, had aimed his
fatal shaft at my head, and had placed his icy hands on my throbbing
heart. One of these men inquired of the other, what he supposed that box
contained, to which his comrade replied, that he guessed it was the
mail. “Yes,” thought I, “it is a male, indeed, although not the mail
of the United States.”
Soon after this fortunate event, we arrived at Washington, where I was
thrown from the wagon, and again as my luck would have it, fell on my
head. I was then rolled down a declivity, until I reached the platform
from which the cars were to start. During this short but rapid journey,
my neck came very near being dislocated, as I felt it crack, as if it
had snapped asunder. Pretty soon, I heard some one say, “there is no
room for this box, it will have to remain behind.” I then again applied
to the Lord, my help in all my difficulties, and in a few minutes I
heard a gentleman direct the hands to place it aboard, as “it came with
the mail and must go on with it.” I was then tumbled into the car, my
head downwards again, as I seemed to be destined to escape on my head; a
sign probably, of the opinion of American people respecting such bold
adventurers as myself; that our heads should be held downwards, whenever
we attempt to benefit ourselves. Not the only instance of this
propensity, on the part of the American people, towards the colored
race. We had not proceeded far, however, before more baggage was placed
in the car, at a stopping place, and I was again turned to my proper
position. No farther difficulty occurred until my arrival at
Philadelphia. I reached this place at three o’clock in the morning, and
remained in the depot until six o’clock, A. M., at which time, a waggon
drove up, and a person inquired for a box directed to such a place,
“right side up.” I was soon placed on this waggon, and carried to the
house of my friend’s correspondent, where quite a number of persons were
waiting to receive me. They appeared to be some afraid to open the box
at first, but at length one of them rapped upon it, and with a trembling
voice, asked, “Is all right within?” to which I replied, “All right.”
The joy of these friends was excessive, and like the ancient Jews, who
repaired to the rebuilding of Jerusalem, each one seized hold of some
tool, and commenced opening my grave. At length the cover was removed,
and I arose, and shook myself from the lethargy into which I had fallen;
but exhausted nature proved too much for my frame, and I swooned away.
After my recovery from this fainting fit, the first impulse of my soul,
as I looked around, and beheld my friends, and was told that I was safe,
was to break out in a song of deliverance, and praise to the most high
God, whose arm had been so signally manifest in my escape. Great God,
was I a freeman! Had I indeed succeeded in effecting my escape from the
human wolves of Slavery? O what extastic joy thrilled through every
nerve and fibre of my system! My labor was accomplished, my warfare was
ended, and I stood erect before my equal fellow men;[10] no longer a
crouching slave, forever at the look and nod of a whimsical and
tyrannical slave-owner. Long had seemed my journey, and terribly
hazardous had been my attempt to gain my birth-right; but it all seemed
a comparatively light price to pay for the precious boon of Liberty. O
ye, who know not the value of this “pearl of great price,” by having
been all your life shut out from its life-giving presence; learn of how
much importance its possession is regarded, by the panting fugitive, as
he traces his way through the labyrinths of snares, placed between him
and the object of his fond desires! Sympathize with the three millions
of crushed and mangled ones who this day pine in cruel bondage, and
arouse yourself to action in their behalf! This you will do, if you are
not traitors to your God and to humanity. Aid not in placing in high
offices, baby-stealers and women-whippers; and if these wicked men,
all covered with the clotted gore of their mangled victims, come among
you, scorn the idea of bowing in homage to them, whatever may be the
character of their claims to your regard. No matter, if they are called
presidents of your nation, still utterly refuse to honor them; which
you will most certainly do, if you are true to the Slave!
After remaining a short time in Philadelphia, it was thought expedient
that I should proceed to Massachusetts, and accordingly funds sufficient
to carry me there, were raised by some anti-slavery friends, and I
proceeded to Boston. After remaining a short time in that city, I
concluded to go to New Bedford, in which place I remained a few weeks,
under the care of Mr. Joseph Rickerston of that place, who treated me
very kindly. At length hearing of a large anti-slavery meeting to be
held in Boston, I left New Bedford, and found myself again in that city,
so famous for its devotion to liberty in the days of the American
revolution; and here, in the presence of several thousand people, did I
first relate in public, the story of my sufferings, since which time I
have repeated my simple tale in different parts of Massachusetts, and in
the State of Maine.
I now stand before you as a free man, but since my arrival among you, I
have been informed that your laws require that I should still be held as
a slave; and that if my master should espy me in any nook or corner of
the free states, according to the constitution of the United States, he
could secure me and carry me back into Slavery; so that I am confident I
am not safe, even here, if what I have heard concerning your laws is
true. I cannot imagine why you should uphold such strange laws. I have
been told that every time a man goes to the polls and votes, he
virtually swears to sustain them, frightful as they are. It seems to me
to be a hard case, for a man to endure what I have endured in effecting
my escape, and then to be continually exposed to be seized by my master,
and carried back into that horrid pit from which I have escaped. I have
been told, however, that the people here would not allow me to be thus
returned, that they would break their own laws in my behalf, which seems
quite curious to me; for why should you make laws, and swear to uphold
them, and then break them? I do not understand much about laws, to be
sure, as the law of my master is the one I have been subject to all my
life, but some how, it looks a little singular to me, that wise people
should be obliged to break their own laws, or else do a very wicked act.
I have been told that there are twice as many voters at the North as
there are at the South, and much more wealth, as well as other things of
importance, which makes me study much, why the Northern people live
under such laws. If I was one of them, and had any influence among them,
it appears to me, I should advocate the overthrow of such laws, and the
establishment of better ones in their room. Many people tell me besides,
that if the slaves should rise up, and do as they did in Nat Turner’s
time, endeavor to fight their way to freedom, that the Northern people
are pledged to shoot them down, and keep them in subjection to their
masters. Now I cannot understand this, for almost all the people tell
me, that they “are opposed to Slavery,” and yet they swear to prevent
the slaves from obtaining their liberty! If these things could be made
clear to my mind, I should be glad; but a fog hangs over my eyes at
present in reference to this matter.
I now wish to introduce to your hearing, a friend of mine, who will
tell you more about these things than I can, until I have had more time
to examine this curious subject. What he shall have to say to you, may
not be as interesting as the account of my sufferings, but if you really
wish to help my brethren in bondage, you will not be unwilling to hear
what he may say to you, in reference to the way to abolish slavery, as
you cannot be opposed to my sufferings, unless you are willing to exert
yourselves for the overthrow of the cruel system which caused them.