The ballroom was crowded but very quiet.
The belle of the ball was the night nurse, deftly
accomplishing the many duties that fall to
the share of a night nurse. A letter must be
written for a poor Gascon who had lost his right
arm; a Bedouin chief must be watered every five
minutes; a little red-headed Irishman begging
for morphine to ease his pain, and a sad Cockney
lad sobbing because he was “’omesick for ’Ammersmith,”
must be comforted.
The beautiful old château had been converted
into a hospital early in the war and the salle de
bal was given over to the convalescents. The
convalescent male is a very difficult proposition,
and the little nurse sometimes felt her burden was
greater than she could bear. There was so much
to do for these sick soldiers besides nurse them.
One thing, she must good-naturedly submit to
being made love to in many different languages.
She could stand all but the Bedouin chief.
“He seems so like our darkeys at home,” she
had whispered to the one American who was getting
well rather faster than he liked to admit.
This American wanted to get well and be back
in the trenches, but who was to make love to the
pretty night nurse in good old American when he
left the convalescent ward?
“You promised to do something for me to-night.
Don’t forget! You must be almost
through with all of these fellows.”
“Ready in a minute!” She flitted down between
the rows of cots, tucking in the covers here,
plumping up a pillow there. The Bedouin was
watered for the last time that night and finally
closed his rolling black eyes.
“Now, what is it?” she asked, sinking down
on a stool by the American’s bed, which was
placed in an alcove at one end of the great salon.
“If it is writing a letter, thank goodness, it won’t
have to be in the second person singular in
French. Why do you suppose they teach us
such formal French at school? I can’t tutoyer
for the life of me.”
“Same here! Je t’aime’s all I know. But I
don’t want you to write a letter for me. I want
you to read some. But first I must know your
really truly name. I—I—like you too much
just to have to call you nurse.”
“Mary Grubb!”
“No! Not really?”
“Yes! I’d like to know what is the matter
with my name. It is a perfectly good name, I
reckon.”
“Yes, Mary is beautiful—but—the other!
Never mind, you can change it.”
“I have no desire to do so, at least not for
many a day. I think Grubb is especially nice.
It suggests Sally Lunn and batter bread.”
“There now, I would know you are from the
South even if your dear little ‘reckons’ didn’t
come popping out every now and then. Do you
know, I have a friend who lives in Kentucky, and
when the war is over I have been planning to go
see her, but now—but now—I am afraid she
won’t want to see me.”
“You mean the scars?” and she looked pityingly
at the young man and put her firm little
hand on his head. “Why, they will not amount
to much. They will just make you look interesting.
Your eyes will be well, I just know they
will. Look at this long scar that has given the
most trouble! It has turned to a pleasing pink
and will be almost gone in a few months. You
see you are so healthy.”
“It isn’t altogether the scars. If you think
they are pretty, maybe she will, too. There is
something else. I want to read over all this
packet of letters before I decide something. You
had better begin or that big, black, bounding beggar
over there will begin to whine for water
again. After you read the letters, maybe I will
tell you the other reason why my friend in Kentucky
might not want to see me.”
He took from under his pillow a packet of little
blue letters, tightly tied with a piece of twine.
“Here they are! These letters have meant a
lot to me while I was in the trenches. They still
mean a lot to me. They were written by my
Fairy Godmother.”
“Oh! Are they love letters?”
“No, indeed! I wouldn’t ask a woman to
read another woman’s love letters. I wouldn’t
let anyone but you read these letters, but my eyes
are too punk to read them myself and I have to—to
hear them to decide something, something very
important.”
“All right! A nurse is a kind of father confessor
and what one hears professionally is sacred.”
“But, my dear, I am not thinking of you as a
nurse.”
“But I am thinking of you as a patient.”
She slipped the top letter from the packet and
turned it over. “So your name is Stephen
Scott!”
“Didn’t you know my name, either? How
funny!”
“I only know the names of the patients who
have charts, and you are too well to waste a chart
on. We nurses call you the convalescent American.
Sure these are not love letters?”
“Of course!” impatiently. “But if you don’t
want to read them to me, just say so. Maybe
you are tired. Of course you are. You look
pale and your little hand is trembling.”
“No, no! I am not tired! Let me begin.”
The salle de bal of the old château was very
quiet. The wounded soldiers were dropping off
to sleep one by one. Even the Bedouin chief had
stopped rolling his eyes and was softly snoring.
In a low clear voice she read the letters.
My dear Godson:
It is so wonderful to be a Godmother that I
can hardly contain myself for joy. It is through
an advertisement I saw in a New York paper,
headed Fairy Godmothers Wanted, that I happen
to have you and you happen to have me. I consider
our introduction quite regular as it came through
the wife of a great general.
I wonder how you like belonging to me? I wonder
if you are as alone in the world and homeless
as I am. I wonder if you are big or little, dark or
fair, old or young. I wonder all kinds of things
about you,—after all, it makes no difference, any of
these things. You are my Godson and every day I
am going to pray for you and think about you. I
am going to send you presents and write you long
letters and send you newspapers. The only trouble
about it is by the time I get hold of English papers
they will be weeks and weeks old. I wonder if
American magazines and papers would appeal to
you. I wonder what kind of presents you would
like,—not beaded antimacassars and not mouchoir
cases surely. I will knit you a sweater maybe, but
I am not very fond of knitting.
This business of being a Fairy Godmother is a
very serious one, more serious than being a real
mother, I believe. A real mother can at least do
something towards forming the character of her
child, but a Fairy Godmother has her child presented
to her and takes it as the husband used to
take his bride in the old English prayer book:
“With all her debts and scandals upon her.” The
worst of it is that she is ignorant what those debts
and scandals are. I don’t even know what kind of
smoke to send you. Are you middle-aged and sedate
and do you smoke a corn-cob pipe? Are you
young and giddy and do you live on cigarettes? A
terrible possibility has entered into my mind! Are
you one of those awful persons that uses what our
darkeys call “eatin’ tobacco”? If so, I shall begin
to train you immediately.
Perhaps you want to know something about me.
There is not much to know. I am an orphan of
independent means and character. Being the first,
enables me to be the second, which sounds like a
riddle but isn’t. You see I have rafts and oodlums
of kin, and if I did not have an income of my own
they would step in and coerce me even more than
they do. I said in the beginning that I was homeless.
I am not really that, but the trouble is I have
too many homes. I must spend the winter with
Aunt Sally and the spring with Cousin Kate.
Cousin Maria and Uncle Bruce want me to take
White Sulphur by storm with them as chaperones;
and so it is from one year’s end to the other, kind
relations planning for me. I am bored to death
with it all and am even now preparing a bomb to
throw in this camp of overzealous kin. But I’ll tell
you about that later,—that is, if you want to hear
about it. I may be boring you stiff. If I am, it
is an easy matter for you to repudiate me and tell
Mrs. Johnson to get you a more agreeable Godmother.
My numerous family does not at all approve of
my being a Godmother. They think I am too young
for the responsibility and have entered upon it too
lightly. I even heard Aunt Sally whisper to
Cousin Maria: “Just like her mother!” That
means in their minds that I am headstrong and difficult.
You see my mother was also of independent
means and character. Also (I whisper this) she
was not a Southerner. That is as serious in a
Southerner’s eyes as not being British is in yours.
They think it is very forward of me to be writing
to a man what has not been properly introduced.
Uncle Bruce suggests that you may not even be
born. I tell him soldiers don’t have to be born and
that the bravest soldiers that were ever known
sprang up from dragon’s teeth.
I am sending you as my first present all kinds of
tobacco, even plug. I must not let my prejudices
get away with me. If my dear Godson likes “eatin’
tobacco,” he shall have it. If you don’t indulge in
it, give it to some soldier less dainty. For my part,
I should think the trenches would be dirty enough
without adding to them.
I want to tell you that I like your name. I think
Stephen Scott sounds very manly and upstanding,
somehow. I am hoping for a letter from you just to
give me an inkling of your tastes. Of course I
know one of the duties of a Fairy Godmother is
not to worry her charge, and I don’t want to worry
you but to help you. I think of you in those damp,
nasty ditches eating all kinds of food, served in all
kinds of ways. (I am sure what should be hot is
cold, and what should be cold is hot.) And when
I sit down to batter-bread and fried chicken I can
hardly force it down, I do so want you to have it
instead of me.
Your affectionate Godmother,
Polly Nelson.
The night nurse quietly folded up the first
letter and slipped it back in its blue envelope.
She had a whimsical, amused expression on her
face.
“What are you smiling over? Don’t you
think that is a nice letter?”
“I didn’t say it wasn’t.”
“But you didn’t say it was. I think that is a
sweet letter. I tell you it meant a lot to me. Of
course, I am not the homeless Tommy she
thought I was. I fancy I have as many Aunt
Sallies and Cousin Marias as she has, but they
happen to be in New England.”
“You are not an orphan, then!”
“Oh, yes! I’m an orphan all right enough,
but I am related to half of Massachusetts and all
of Boston.”
“Did you tell your Fairy Godmother that?”
“No,—that’s what makes me feel so bad. I
was afraid she would stop being my Godmother
if she found out I was—well, not exactly poor, so
I—I didn’t exactly lie——”
“You didn’t exactly tell the truth, either,” and
the night nurse curled her pretty lip and looked
disgusted.
“Oh, please don’t be angry with me, too. I
know she will be. I have simply got to tell her
the truth about myself. I did let her know I am
an American. I am going to write her a letter
just as soon as I can see to do it. But go on with
the next, please. You are sure it is not tiring
you too much?”
“Sure,” and the night nurse slipped out another.
My dear Godson:
It was very nice of you to answer my letter
so promptly. I am so glad you are an American
and do not chew tobacco. You must not feel compelled
to answer all my letters because you must
be very busy and I have very little to do, so little
that I am becoming very restless. I have thrown
the bomb in the camp of the enemy, my kin. They
are shattered into smithereens. I am going to enter
a hospital, take training, and just as soon as I am
capable go to France with the Red Cross nurses.
I should like to go immediately but I want to be a
help not a hindrance, and they say all the untrained
persons who butt in on the war zone are a nuisance.
Six months of training should make me fit, don’t
you think? But how should you know?
I am very happy at the thought of being of some
use. I owe it all to you, my dear Godson. If I had
not been presented with you I should never have
thought of such a thing. Just as soon as I realized
that over in the trenches was a human being who
wanted to hear from me and whom I could help, I
began to take a new interest in the war and all the
soldiers, and then I began to feel that maybe I, insignificant
little I, might be of some use to those
poor soldiers, some use besides just knitting foolish
caps and mittens and sending the Saturday Evening
Post and cigarettes. I only wish I could go
immediately. My training begins to-morrow. Aunt
Sally and Cousin Maria feel that it is a terrible
blot on the family name. They are sure someone
will say that I am doing this because I am not a
success in society, although they say over and over
that I am. I don’t know whether I am or not, all
I know is that society is not a success with me.
Uncle Bruce is rather nice about it all.
There are so many I’s in this letter I am mortified.
I believe writing to a Godson in the trenches
is almost like keeping a diary. I am sending you
some cards and poker chips (but you mustn’t play
for money). I’d hate to think that my presents
exerted a poor moral influence on my dear Godson.
Would you mind just dropping a hint as to what
kind of presents would be most acceptable? I have
never been in the habit of giving presents to men
and the kinds of presents some of my friends give
would not be very appropriate, it seems to me.
Silver match boxes and cigarette holders would not
be very useful, nor would silk socks with initials
embroidered on them be much better. Do you like
chocolate drops and poetry?
Your affectionate Fairy Godmother,
Polly Nelson.
The night nurse laughed outright at the close
of the letter and Stephen Scott reached out for
the packet from which she was extracting a third
blue envelope.
“If you are going to make fun of them, you
can stop.”
“I wasn’t making fun. I was just thinking
what funny presents girls do give men.”
“Well, so they do, but my little Godmother
gave me bully presents,—cigarettes to burn,
home-made molasses candy and beaten biscuit.
She had lots of imagination in the presents she
sent and the blessed child never did burden me
with a work-box but sent me a gross of safety-pins
that beat all the sewing kits on earth.
I don’t believe you like my Godmother
much.”
“Don’t you? Well, I do.”
“You should like her because somehow you
remind me of her.”
“Oh! Have you seen her?”
“Only in my mind’s eye. I begged her for a
picture of herself but she has never sent it. She
has promised it, though. You see I got to answering
her letters in the same spirit in which she
wrote to me, only I was not quite so frank, I am
afraid. She told me everything about herself
while I told her only my thoughts. I never did
tell her I was not a homeless soldier of fortune.
She thinks I am absolutely friendless and dependent
on my pay as a private for my living.
Sometimes I wish I didn’t have a sou—at least I
have felt that way—but now——”
“But now what?”
“But now I don’t think it is so bad to have a
little tin,” and he held one of the little stained
hands in his for a moment.
She gently withdrew it and opened a third letter.
This was full of hospital experiences and
so were all that followed. The tone of them became
more intimate and friendly. The desire to
serve was ever uppermost—just to get in the
War Zone and help.
“I got awfully stuck on her, somehow,” confessed
the man. “She was so sweet and so girlish—I
did not say so for fear of scaring her off,
but I used to write her pretty warm ones, I am
afraid.”
“Why afraid?”
“Don’t you know?”
“How should I know?”
“Why, honey, you must see that I am head
over heels in love with you. I oughtn’t to be telling
it to you when I have written my little Godmother
that as soon as the war is over I am going
to find her and tell her the same thing. But,
somehow, I was loving her only on paper and in
my mind; but you—you—I love you with every
bit of my heart, soul and body.” He caught her
hand and all of the poor little slim blue letters
slipped from the twine and scattered over the
floor.
“Oh, the poor little letters!” she cried. “Is
that all they mean to you?”
“Oh, honey, they meant a lot to me and still
do, but they are just letters and you are—you.”
“But how about the letters you wrote Miss
Polly Nelson? Are they just letters to her and
nothing more? Don’t you think it is possible
that she may have treasured your letters, especially
the pretty warm ones, and be looking forward
to the end of the war with the same eagerness
that you have felt up to—say——”
“The minute I laid eyes on you. At first I
used to dream maybe you were she, but I began
to feel that she must be much—younger—somehow,
than you. You are so capable, so mature in
a way. She is little more than a child and you
are a grown woman.”
“I am twenty-one—but the war ages one.”
“I don’t mean you look old—I just mean you
seem so sensible.”
“And Miss Nelson didn’t?”
“I don’t mean that, I just mean she seemed
immature. But suppose you read the last letter.
And couldn’t you do it with one hand and let me
hold the other?”
“Certainly not!” and the night nurse stooped
and gathered the scattered letters. Leaning over
may have accounted for the rosy hue that overspread
her countenance.
“You certainly read her writing mighty easily.
I had a hard time at first. I think she writes a
rotten fist, although there is plenty of character
in it, dear little Godmother!”
“Humph! Do you think so? I wouldn’t tell
her that if I were you—I mean that you think her
fist is rotten.”
“Of course not, but begin, please, and say—couldn’t
you manage with one hand?”
But the night nurse was adamant and drew
herself up very primly and began to read:
My dear Godson:
I am afraid gratitude has got the better of
you. You must not feel that because a girl in
America has written you a pile of foolish letters
and sent you a few little paltry presents, you must
send her such very loverlike letters in return. I
am disappointed in you, Godson. I had an idea
that you were steadier. Just suppose I were a designing
female who was going to hold you up and
drag you through the wounded-affections court?
There is quite enough in your last two letters to
justify such a proceeding. It may be only your
poverty that will restrain me. In the first place,
you don’t know me from Adam or rather Eve. I
may be a Fairy Godmother with a crooked back
and a black cat, who prefers a broom-stick to a
limousine; I may have a hare-lip and a mean disposition;
I may write vers libre and believe in dress
reform. In fact I am a pig in a poke and you are a
very foolish person to think you want to carry me
off without ever looking at me. I won’t say that I
don’t want to see you and know you, because I do.
I have been very honest with you in my letters because,
as I told you once, it has seemed almost like
keeping a diary to write to you, and I think a person
who is not honest in a diary is as bad as the
person who cheats at solitaire. When the war is
over if you want to look me up you will find me in
Louisville, Kentucky. When you do find me, I
want you to be nothing but my Godson. You may
not like me a bit and I may find you unbearable,—somehow,
I don’t believe I shall, though. I do hope
you will like me, too. One thing I promise—that
is, not to fall in love with anyone else until I have
looked you over. And you—I fancy you see no females
to fall in love with.
I never let myself think about your getting
killed. As Fairy Godmother I cast a spell about
you to protect you. There are times when I almost
wish you could be safely wounded. Those
are the times when I doubt the efficacy of my
prayers and the powers of my fairy gifts.
And now for the news: I am going to the front!
I have worked it by strategy. A girl I know has
had all her papers made out ready to join the Red
Cross nurses, and now at the last minute her young
man has stepped in and persuaded her to marry
him instead. I have cajoled the papers from her
and am leaving in a few hours. Aunt Sally and
Cousin Kate, Uncle Bruce and Cousin Maria are
half demented. They don’t know how I worked it
or I am sure they would have the law on me for
perjury. I am free, white, and twenty-one now, and
they could control me in no other way. Good-by,
Godson! I wonder if we will meet somewhere in
France. I will write you when I can, but I am
afraid I shall not be able to send any more presents
for a while.
Your affectionate Godmother.
“Now don’t you hate and despise me for telling
you what I did just now? You see she says
she will at least not fall in love with anyone else
until she looks me over, and think what I have
done! What must I do? I am going to try not
to tell you I love you any more until that other
girl knows what a blackguard I am, but you must
understand all the time that I do.”
“I understand nothing, Mr. Stephen Scott.
I am simply the night nurse in the convalescent
ward and you have asked me to read some letters
to you, and I have read them; and now it is my
duty to forget what is in them, and I am going to
do it,—I have done it. All I can say is that you
might give Miss Polly Nelson the chance to find
someone else she likes better than she does you
before you are so quick to take for granted she
will stick to her bargain, too. If there is any
jilting going on, we Southern girls rather prefer
to be the jilters than the jiltees.”
“Don’t say jilting! It isn’t fair. Please be
good to me! I am so miserable.”
The night nurse smiled in spite of herself and
felt his pulse.
“There now! Just as I thought! You have
worked yourself up into an abnormal pulse and I
shall have to start a chart on you.”
“Abnormal nothing! How is a fellow’s pulse
to remain normal when you put your dear little
fingers on his wrist? But I forgot! I am not
going to make love to you until I can let my Godmother
know. Maybe she has met some grand
English Tommy by this time——” And then
he groaned aloud and cried: “But I don’t want
her to do that, either!”
“Blessed if I’m not in love with two girls,” he
thought.
The night nurse sat quietly down to her charts
after having gone the rounds of her ward. All
was quiet. The convalescent soldiers were sleeping
peacefully, dreaming of home, she hoped.
Scott stirred restlessly now and then. He could
not sleep but watched the busy little stained hand
of the night nurse as it glided rapidly over the
charts. She had no light but that of a guttering
candle, carefully shaded from her patients’ eyes,
but Scott could see her well-poised head and fine
profile as she bent over her writing. How lovely
she was! Would she ever listen to him? How
she stood up for her sex,—and still she did not
exactly repulse him. What a strange name for
a girl like that to have! Grubb! It was preposterous.
Indeed, he felt it his duty to make
her change that name as soon as possible. Polly
Nelson is a pretty name—dear little Godmother!
Would she despise him, too, like this other girl?
But did this other one despise him?
The night nurse made her rounds again and
then left the ward for a moment. When she returned,
she came to the American’s bedside.
“A letter has just come for you, Mr. Scott.”
“For me? Splendid! Will you read it to
me?”
“Yes, if you cannot possibly see to do it yourself.”
“I might, but I’d rather not.”
“It is in the same rotten fist of those I read
you to-night.”
“My Fairy Godmother! I—I—believe I can
see to read that myself.”
She handed him the letter. Her hand was
trembling a little and so was his. She brought
the guttering candle and he opened his letter.
Somewhere in France.
My dear Godson:
I have always been so frank with you that I
feel I must make a confession. I promised you in
my last letter, the one I wrote just before I left
home, that I would not fall in love with anyone
until after the war, when you were to present yourself
in Louisville and we were to view each other
for the first time. Dear Godson—— I have not
kept my word. They say a man falls in love with
his nurse often because of the feeling he has for
his mother. She makes it seem as though he were
a little child again. I reckon a nurse falls in love
with her patient because he seems so like a little
boy. She loves him first because of the maternal
instinct. Be that as it may, I am in love with one
of my patients. I tell you this fearing you may
be wounded and you may fall in the hands of a
cap and apron, and from a feeling of noblesse
oblige you may not grasp the happiness within your
reach.
God bless you, my dear Godson!
Always,
Your Fairy Godmother.
P. S.—He is an American.
A great tear rolled down the scarred cheek of
the young soldier and splashed on the signature.
Then something happened that made him sit up
very straight in his cot and stretch out a shaking
hand for the night nurse. She was by his side in
a moment.
“Look! Look! The ink is not dry yet. See
where that tear dropped! Dry ink would not
float off like that!” He turned the sheet over.
It was a chart.
“But you—you—little Fairy Godmother!
Who is he?”
“There is only one American in my ward.”
“But you said your name was Grubb!”
“That’s my official name. Mary Grubb was
the girl whose place I got with the Red Cross.
Do you know, you hurt my feelings terribly when
you said my fist was rotten?”
And Stephen Scott, holding the little stained
and roughened hand in his, wondered that he ever
could have made such a break.
“Thank God, you are just one girl, after all!”
he cried.
But the night nurse wished that there were two
of her for a while at least: one to stay by the bedside
of the convalescent American and one to
make out the charts that must be got ready for
the morning rounds of the surgeon in charge.