I went on board the Black Swan on taking
leave of the captain and my other friends on
the schooner, and after an uneventful passage
arrived in Brisbane. Times had altered greatly in
Queensland, for the worse I thought, since I was
there last. The rich people had grown richer, and
the poor poorer. It is sad at the present day to
walk about the town and look at all the semi-destitute
people whom one sees on every side, and
then think of the "booms" which used to be a
few years ago. My objects in coming to Brisbane
were many. I had now, as I thought, sufficient
capital to establish myself in a small way at my
trade, and I intended to look out for a suitable
place near town where I might begin. I was also
on the look-out for a wife; but that was only in a
general sense, and when all is said, I believe that
what I considered most important was to enjoy
myself. In any case, with over three hundred
pounds in the bank I felt pretty independent and
considered myself entitled to spend all I could
earn so long as I could keep this nest-egg safe.
The town was busy, work was plentiful, but
although I went about every night and spent all I
earned, yet I by no means liked Brisbane. I do
not propose to criticise the inhabitants thereof in
a general way, but so far as it concerns my narrative
at this point I must say a few words. I was
very unsuccessful in finding any girl whom I
thought might suit me for a wife, and who, at the
same time, herself approved of me for a husband.
The reason, as I understood it, was this: Brisbane
was, and is, crammed full of young women who are
glad to stand in a shop from morning to night for
half-a-crown a week and find themselves. Whether
such girls can or cannot make a cup of tea I do
not know, but my general impression of them was
that they would rather not, if they could avoid it.
Then as for servant-girls, it is a common delusion
to believe that they are well off in Brisbane; the
fact is that the majority of people who keep a
servant both overwork her and use her as a coat-of-arms
wherewith to set themselves off, and one
never by any chance reads a book either in Australia
or elsewhere in which a servant is spoken of
as possessed of even common sense. Of course, the
better class of girls will revolt at contemptuous treatment,
and they are, therefore, scarce in Brisbane,
and have always been. In the bush of course it is
different: there the servant is not spoken of as the
"slavey" and thought of as a fool, and as a consequence
they are neither the one nor the other. But
a tradesman in Brisbane has no opportunity whatever
of meeting any young woman outside these
circles, because the greatest possible social distinction
exists between such people as, say a bank clerk,
or even a grocer's clerk, and a tradesman or a
labourer; so is it between a music-teacher, shop-girl,
dressmaker, or a servant. I found it so, and
that had a great deal to do with my dislike to
Brisbane; but, apart from that, I had been so used
to the free life of the bush, and more lately then
to the changing scenes among the South Sea
Islands, that I could not endure for long the
everyday life of the shop and the boarding-house,
and the boarding-house and the shop. I therefore
engaged myself as carpenter to a squatter who
had a large station on the Darling Downs, and
right glad was I when I shook the dust of Brisbane
off my feet again. But before leaving this
city I should like to speak about the last piece of
work I did there, because it is in such striking
contrast to the state of the carpenter's trade at the
present time. One Saturday morning when I
came to work, my employer asked me to put a few
tools in my basket and go out to his private house
to perform certain work there. As I crossed
Queen Street a man came running after me and
asked me if I wanted a job of carpenter's work. I
said "No." When I came a little further up, along
George Street, a publican came running out of his
door, smiling all over his face, saying I was the
very man he wanted, as he could see by the
basket I carried that I was a carpenter. I told
him I was not open to engagement; but he
would not take "no" for an answer. After a long
conversation in the street, in which he implored
me to do just this little job for him that he wanted,
while I explained that I was on my road to work
for which I already was engaged. I was on the
point of cutting it short by going away, when he
asked me in any case to come into his hotel and
have a glass of beer. When I came in he renewed
the attack in this way—he asked me just to
oblige him by looking at the work and telling him
what it was worth. He then showed me a large
shutter which stood under a rough window opening
in the yard, and told me that all he wanted
was for a man to fit this shutter to the opening and
put hinges on it; he had the hinges. Now, what
was it worth? I saw that he intended me to do it
if he could get me, but I by no means wanted to.
I said it was worth thirty shillings at the least:
"All right," cried he, "do it, and I will give you
thirty shillings."
I was caught now, so I gave in. I took my saw
out and fitted the shutter, screwed the hinges, and
took my thirty shillings, all in less than an hour.
This is eleven or twelve years ago. I have not
worked in Brisbane since, but I know a friend of
mine who two years ago put a shilling advertisement
in the papers for a carpenter to do a few
days' work, and in less than half an hour after the
paper was out he had thirty-two applicants! I
was now working on one of the largest stations on
the Darling Downs. I had only come there in a
roving sort of way, under a six months' agreement
which was made in Brisbane, and I had no intention
whatever of staying longer, but although the wages
were less than what I could earn in Brisbane, or in
any other town, I thought I should like to see a
large sheep station, and I was told by the agent in
town that I should be sure to like it. The property
itself covered I do not know how many square
miles, divided into paddocks, and in each or most
of these paddocks stood a house in which the
boundary rider and his family lived. The duty of
this man is not fatiguing; he has to look out
that the fences are in good repair and report to
the head station when anything is out of order.
Therefore his day's work is generally done when
after breakfast he has been jogging round the
boundary fence. For this work the wages are
about thirty-five pounds sterling a year with
double rations, a free house, use of cow, &c. These
boundary riders are by no means the only
employees on the station. There were general
labourers, carriers, blacksmiths, wheelwrights,
storekeepers, carpenters, and a host of people who
came and went without my knowing they did so,
but the whole formed quite a little township at the
head station. Once a year, when the wool was
clipped off the two hundred thousand sheep there,
it was an extra busy time. Then the shearers would
arrive, sixty in number, and with all their assistants
they would make nearly a hundred persons. Besides
these there were the washers, who washed the
sheep by elaborate machinery. There would be
so many people that I do not know how the
"boss" knew them all. Every one of them earned
good money, although in various degrees. The
shearers earned three shillings and sixpence for
every score of sheep they could shear. An
average day's work is from fifty to a hundred
sheep. Then the wool-packers, who pressed the
wool into bales, had also piecework, and this was
a favourite job reserved as a reward for old hands.
They earned at it a pound or more a day. This
was of course for a short time only out of the year,
but when one station is done shearing another
generally begins, and the men can, therefore, keep
on for at least six months at a stretch with very
little lost time. The tradesmen on the station
seemed all part and parcel of the station, old identities,
who had made their homes there years before
and did not intend to shift. I heard it whispered
that the squatter meant to try and break through
the monopoly that some of the old hands had
created, and that some new blood might be
infused, and I believe that I had been engaged to
hang as the sword of Damocles over the other
carpenters' heads, but I refused the rôle. The
head carpenter was an old, worn-out man with a
large family. He had been there seventeen years.
He had one hundred pounds a year and double
rations, with a free house, wood, water, and many
little perquisites. I daresay he had saved a little
money, but any one may easily understand that a
man over fifty years of age, with a large family
and a settled home where he has been for seventeen
years, does not like the prospect of change
and to have to make a new start in life. Such
a billet as that of tradesman on a station is
much sought after, and in many respects is incomparably
better than the position occupied in town
by a married man who works for wages. But
neither the one nor the other suited my ambition.
If I had been doomed to choose between the two,
I think I should, after all, have taken the lot of
the man in town, for he is more independent if he
is poorer. It is all very well to work for a master
when one is young, but as one gets on for thirty
years of age he likes to be his own master. At
least that was my opinion. There seemed to me
something so forbidding in the ringing of the large
bell on the station. It would ring at a quarter to
six on a morning for all hands to get out of bed
and dress. Then it rang at six o'clock for starting
work. It rang for dinner, and it rang when we
were to start again. It was all correct enough;
I have no fault to find with it, I cannot suggest
anything better, but all the same I did not like
it.
My work on the station was otherwise both
pleasant and independent enough. A great deal
of it consisted in making and hanging gates for the
various paddocks. These would be made at home
in the shop and afterwards carted out to their
places. Then I would get a labourer with me and
we would drive off in a spring-cart from one gate
to the other, and hang them. It was a regular
journey across the paddocks, and involved about a
fortnight's trip every time.
The man who earned the most money of all the
employees on the station was the shearers' cook.
The shearers had a large house to themselves and
managed their own housekeeping, inasmuch as
they engaged and paid their own cook and bought
and paid for anything they liked to eat, so that
they should not grumble over the provisions. But
that object has never yet been attained with
shearers, either with the lot on this station or any
other set of shearers I have ever seen. They are
the most frightful grumblers, and who is so fit
an object for their displeasure as their servant—their
own servant, the cook? One thing, they pay
him well. The wages of a shearers' cook is the
shearing price of a score of sheep per week, or
three-and-sixpence a week for every shearer. You
will therefore see that in a large shearing shed like
this, with sixty shearers, the cook earned ten
guineas per week besides his food. But for this
money he had to do more than an ordinary man
can do, and take more insults than an ordinary dog
would tolerate. First of all, the shearers always
insist on having their table spread with good
things, puddings and cake every day. He had also
to bake bread, chop wood, fetch water, keep the
hut clean, and in short everything else that was
wanted. Nobody but the very smartest men can
do it. But his work is not everything. When the
bell rings for meal-time, I have seen shearers come
out of the shed, making for the hut, howling at the
same time: "I wonder if that —— of a cook
has got that —— breakfast ready!" Everything
has to stand ready for them to "rush;" and even
if it does, yet one seldom hears other conversation
than such as: "I say, cook, do you call them —— peas
boiled? D—— you! If I had my way you
should be kicked out!"
But as the majority only can dismiss their cook,
he is not sent away notwithstanding, and it is
quite understood that it is part of his duty to
assume a respectful demeanour towards his
employers. Yet, unless a cook is a good fighting
man, it is not a billet that I would recommend
any friend of mine to come all the way from Denmark
to fill.
When I had been on the station for six months
I took a trip in the train to the surrounding towns
of Dalby, Toowoomba, Warwick, and Stanthorpe,
with a view to seeing if there was an opening for
permanent business in my line. It did not seem
to me that the prospect was good enough for more
than a bare living, because bad times seemed
suddenly to have set in, and competition for work
and contracts requiring small capital was very
keen. I therefore went back to the station again
and bought two horses, intending to go out west.
I had my three hundred pounds safe in a Brisbane
bank, and I did not mean now to work for any
employer, but to keep my eyes open as I came
along and to take any opportunities for contracts
that might come in my way and for which I could
obtain a reasonable price.
I started from Roma, which is a town lying
about 350 miles west of Brisbane and 200 miles
from the station on which I then was located. It
was fearfully dry weather when I started and there
was not a blade of grass anywhere for the horses.
I made long stages of thirty to forty miles a day,
but how the horses endured it I do not know.
When I camped out at night I would have to tie
the horses to a tree alongside of me, as there was
nothing for them in the bush to eat, and they
would have rambled away never to be found again
if I had let them go. All the food it was possible
for me to provide for them was a little bread
which I bought at the inns on the road at intervals
of seventy or eighty miles, and in the mornings
when I got up I would take a pillow-case I had
and a knife and walk about in places where the
ground was inaccessible to horses, such as the
brinks of a gully or between large stones; there
I would manage to find some dry, withered stuff,
wherewith I filled the pillow-case and shared it
between them. It was all I could do, and when I
arrived in Roma they were both very far gone for
hunger, and there, in town even, there was nothing
for them either—the last bushel of corn had been
sold for two pounds sterling. I fed them on bread,
but even that seemed like a forbidden thing. People
appeared to regard the proceeding with evil eyes.
Flour was scarce and getting more scarce. There
was no prospect of rain, and soon all would have to
starve! In St. George, which is another town 150
miles south of Roma, I was told a perfect famine
was raging. For fear of being misunderstood by
people who do not know much about Queensland,
I would say that want of money had nothing to do
with this state of things, it was only the want of
rain which prevented teams from travelling and
supplies from coming forward.
I left Roma again. There was nothing to do
there, scarcely a prospect of getting enough to eat.
I rambled away with my two horses out west, and
I am now anxious, for obvious reasons, not to
particularize too closely where I went.
It had now become of more importance to me
to save the lives of my horses than to find
anything to do for myself. I travelled for a
month or more at slow stages, and was now right
away in the "Never Never" country. Occasionally
I would find a little for the horses to eat, but very
often it was scanty fare they had. I arrived at a
station where shearing was in full swing, and as
both grass and water seemed more plentiful there
than I had seen it for hundreds of miles, I turned
the horses out for a month's spell, while I made
myself comfortable in my tent and occupied
myself by reading such literature as I could
borrow from the shearers on the station.
Among the shearers was a man with whom I
grew to be on very friendly terms. He was a big,
strong, good-looking young fellow, about thirty
years of age, and seemed to me at all times so
polite and well-informed that I was always seeking
his company. What interested me most in him was
a peculiarly sad expression in his face, and I often
wondered at the cause of it. When the shearing
was over all the shearers went in a body to the
nearest hotel, as is customary, to have a jollification.
It happened to be located the way I had
come, so, though they did not actually pass me, I
saw them ride away, and thought it rather shabby
of my acquaintance not to come and say good-bye
to me. I was mistaken, however, as I shortly
afterwards saw him coming up to the tent on a
really good horse and leading another.
"Well," said I, "are you off? I thought you
had left with the others; how is it you did not?"
"No," said he, "I know my weakness. If I had
gone with them I should probably have got on
the spree and drunk all I possess. But I am now
already pretty well-to-do, because I have a cheque
for over thirty pounds and these two horses
besides. All I want is just another shed, and then
I will make tracks for Ipswich where my people
live."
"But," said I, "there is a public-house this
way too."
"Ah, yes," cried he, and winked, "but they do
not catch me this time. I have worked for the
publicans for seven years, but I will never enter
such a place again."
With that we parted, and two or three days
after I got my horses up and followed along the
same road that he had taken. About noon I came
to the hotel. I did not intend to go in because the
money I had with me was getting scarce and I
did not wish to draw on what I had in the bank.
I carried, too, all sorts of necessaries on my horses
and wanted for nothing. But when the publican
saw me passing the door, he came running out.
"Good-morning, young fellow; good-morning.
By Jove, that is a splendid horse you have there.
Are you travelling far? Surely you don't mean to
take your horses along in this weather. Why it
is too hot for a white man, too hot entirely.
Come in and have a bit of dinner; it is all ready.
I won't charge you; I never charged a b—— man
for a feed yet. I do not think it right, do
you?"
Pressed in this way, I went inside; but my suspicions
that was a robbers' den in disguise were
aroused, and if I had not felt sure of myself I
should probably have preferred to dash the spurs
into the horses and tear away; but although I
thanked him for his hospitality and agreed with
him that it was very wrong to charge a man for
food, yet I made up my mind that he would have
to be clever to outwit me. On the verandah sat a
forbidding-looking man on his swag, and I saw at
once that he was a poor swagsman who need have
no fear of being robbed. In the bar were three
men standing drinking, but yet moderately sober.
The publican began to bustle about behind the
bar. I kept one eye on him and one on the
horses. Scarcely five minutes had elapsed before
a blackfellow made his appearance outside, and
began to lead my horses away. I went outside
and took them from him.
"Are you taking my horses away?" cried I;
"don't do it again." I used a little more persuasion,
but it does not look well in print.
"Master said I take him Yarraman along-a-paddock,"
whined the blackfellow.
Now the publican came out again.
"What is the matter?" cried he. "I told him
to take and give the horses a feed; they look as if
they needed it."
"Not at all," said I; "they have had a month's
spell, and I can scarcely hold them."
"All right, you know best. Are you going to
have a drink?"
"Yes," I said, "I don't mind."
"What is it going to be?"
"Rum," said I.
"Right you are. I almost thought you were a
teetotaler."
I watched him closely, and saw he picked out a
particular glass, and before I let him fill it I took
my handkerchief up and wiped it carefully all
around the inside. I looked at him and he at me
while I did it. I also noticed that he tapped the
compound from the ordinary cask, and I was therefore
not afraid to swallow it, nor did it do me any
harm. The reason I was so careful to wipe the
glass was that I knew it to be a common trick of
dishonest publicans, when they see a man coming
along the road whom they wish to catch, to take
a dirty pipe and blow some of the thick, foul-smelling
stuff that it contains into an empty glass,
and then have it ready for the customer. A very
little dose will make the strongest man intoxicated
for the whole day, and if it is not nicely adjusted,
but just a speck too much, it will knock a man
down in a dead swoon for many hours. I had
been told this on the gold diggings by more than
one person at the time I kept shanty there myself,
and I knew that there were people who travelled
about the country selling to publicans the secrets
of tricking and falsifying spirits. I, therefore,
knew pretty well where to look for danger, and
where I might take the risk; but now dinner was
announced, and we all went into the dining-room.
On the floor of the room I saw a man who was lying
there smeared all over with blood and filth. Still I
recognized him at once as my friend the shearer.
I went up and shook him until I got a little life
into him, and he sat up and recognized me.
"Hullo," bawled he, "is that you? Ain't I a fool?
Publican, give me my horses, I want to go with
this young fellow. I am going away this afternoon.
Don't go away without me."
"All right," said the publican; "I will see to
get the black boy to find your horses for you, but
he says one has got out of the paddock."
Then we had dinner—that is, I had a good meal;
but the drunken shearer could not touch food, and
presented a terrible picture of sickness and misery.
By this time I was not on good terms with the
publican; but I did not care. I only studied how I
could get the other poor fellow away, and I could not
as yet see any way. As soon as we came from the
table he staggered into the bar and called for
drinks for all hands. The publican then called his
wife, four or five children, a seamstress, the servant-girl,
myself, the man in the yard, the black
boy, the bushman I had seen, the traveller on the
verandah, who had had no dinner, and himself, and
they all had their drinks! It was a shilling a
glass. Then the shearer asked him to be kind and
let him have the balance of his cheque, which, it
appeared, he had given the publican to change for
him when he came; but that good Samaritan
simply told him that he would not do such a
thing, as he was too drunk to take care of money.
When he went away he should have it. The
shearer, who was getting more intoxicated again
after this last glass, hung over the counter, and, in
a plaintive sort of way, cried, "I am a —— fool!
Never mind, let's have another. Here, fill 'em up
again."
I could do no good, so I went away without
paying for my dinner. I met the shearer two
years after, when he told me all about it. It
appeared that he had tried to pass the place in the
same manner as I, and that the publican had persuaded
him to come in. He had not liked to take
his dinner for nothing, and had given the publican
the cheque he had for changing. He had been
promised the money in half an hour, but was
shortly after intoxicated, and had never been able
to get either the horses or the money again.
After having been in the state I saw him for
about three weeks, the publican presented him
with a bill, from which it appeared that he owed him
for "refreshments" more than the amount of the
cheque added to the value of horses, saddles, and
bridles. The publican had, therefore, kept the
horses, but had kindly given him a bottle of grog
to take with him on the road when he went away!
This process is called in bush parlance, "lambing
down," and is going on every day, year after year!
I had not gone far from the hotel before I saw
a man coming after me. He called me to stop,
which I did, and when he came closer I perceived
that it was the man who had been sitting on his
swag in the verandah at the hotel. He said he
had come after me because he had neither rations
nor money, and did not know how to get along
the road unless I would be good enough to let
him travel with me. He wanted to go to —— station,
and try to get some shearing to do. It
happened that I intended to turn off the road
about half a mile further on, and that according
to the place to which he said he was going we
should travel in almost opposite directions, and I
told him so. I said also that if he was pushed I
would help him with a few rations, but that I had
not time to accommodate the pace of the horses to
his walk, as I had already been travelling for a
much longer time than I liked. Of course he said
he would be glad of anything, and so I got off the
horse and had a fire lighted, by which we made
some tea, and he had his dinner out of my
provisions. After the meal he suddenly made up
his mind that he might as well go the same road
as I, and try to get a job at a station which we
should pass some forty miles from where we then
stood. I did not like this much, because he
seemed to me a man whose company I should not
appreciate, but, as the loneliness of the bush
always appeared to me to engender a sort of
fellowship towards whoever is there, I did not
find it easy nor did I deem it right to say I would
have nothing to do with him. On the contrary, I
said that we would push on together then for the
day, and that I would walk while he put his swag
on my saddle-horse. In this way we now went
several miles, and my travelling companion had
very little to say. He seemed to know the road
to perfection, and about four o'clock in the afternoon
he suggested that we should camp at a
certain spot at which we had arrived, but about a
hundred yards off the road. I objected. I said
he was free himself to camp or not as he chose,
but if he wanted to travel with me he would have
to walk a good deal further, as I had by no means
come as far yet as I considered a day's journey
required. After that we started again, but my
new friend seemed frightfully morose, and had not
a word to say. As the horse he held was a better
leader than mine he gradually forged ahead of me,
and try as I would I could not keep up with him.
I was just wishing myself well rid of him when I
saw him suddenly turn off the road, leading the
horse after him, and although I called again and
again, he neither turned round nor answered me
until he came to a deep water-hole about a mile
off the road. Here he took the load off the horse,
and hobbled it out. I was not only angry, but I
was also to a certain extent afraid. I had already
agreed with myself that I could not lie down to
sleep alongside of him; but what, of all things, did
he mean by leading me to this place? As soon as
I came up I asked him what he meant, and how
he dared to take my horse off the road. I had
taken the bridle belonging to the saddle-horse to
go and catch it again, for I intended now at all
hazards to get rid of him. At this juncture he
came towards me.
"Here is grass, and here is water," cried he,
"and out of this spot shall neither I nor any —— German
or —— Dutchman come to-night. Let
go that bridle!"
Then he grasped the bridle. You know the old
proverb that "There is a time when patience
ceases to be a virtue," and in my opinion that
time had now arrived. I had not been so long in
Queensland without learning to defend myself, so
I closed with him. What a fearful struggle we
had! As far as I was concerned, I felt as if it was
a struggle for life, and I fought accordingly. Now
we were up, now down. Sometimes I was on the
top of him and sometimes I was under, but whatever
happened I must not give in, because I felt
sure I should receive small mercy if I did. At
last I had him. My hands were round his throat,
and my knees on his chest, while I felt his hands
slide powerless off me. It was not victory yet. If
I let him go he might renew the attack, so I
pressed his throat until he was nearly black in the
face, and I sat on him as heavily as I could,
because I was angry, and when at last I let him
go, it was not before I thought I had taken all his
fighting humour out of him. While I loaded my
horse again I called him all the names I thought
it probable would insult him most, in case he might
have any honour and shame in him, and at last I
threw his swag at his head and cried, "There, you
old loafer!"
Then I got on the horse and rode away; nor did I
stop that night before I had put fully twenty miles
between him and me.
I was now following down the —— River,
towards the town of ——, which I was anxious to
reach as soon as possible. The weather had so far
continued fearfully dry, and the heat was every
day intense, but when I was within ninety miles
of the township it began to rain. It rained as if it
intended to make up for a two years' drought.
The river I followed was nothing but a dry sand-bed
when the rain began, but in three or four
days it became a roaring torrent. I saw that we
were in for a first-class flood and became anxious,
as the country on which I was camped seemed to
me very flat. Just as I had made up my mind
that such was the case I met a party of stockmen,
or, more correctly, they came to my tent. They
had been out helping to shift some shepherds and
their sheep to rising ground, and they assured me
that the place I was in would be flooded. As
they directed me to what they thought a safe spot,
I shifted my tent at once to that place. It was a
low, narrow ridge about a mile from the river.
Here I prepared myself to weather it out. Next
morning when I got up, I saw the river much nearer
than the evening before. During the day it rose on
all sides, and before evening again I was a complete
prisoner on about ten acres of land, while the
water roared and hissed on all sides of me as far as
the eye could reach. This state of affairs lasted
about three weeks. Anything more appallingly
lonely than to sit there in the tent, and look out
on the awe-inspiring sight of the flood with its
swiftly running, destructive water cannot be conceived.
As I had but little room for exercise in
my prison I could not sleep at night, and so I
would sit and sing or play on the flute, and think
of all sorts of things. The waters did not go down
at the same time as the rain ceased, and I had it
all to myself some beautiful moonlight nights. I
had heard the stockmen speak about an old shepherd
who, with his sheep, was camped on a sort of
island, which was formed by the river opposite the
place I was in, and about a mile and a half distant.
He was, therefore, my nearest neighbour. I could
hear him at night sometimes felling trees for
exercise, and occasionally he would answer me
when I cooeed. Little did it matter to him
whether the flood was on or not. At ordinary
times he would probably never see any one for
weeks or months, as no one could have any business
there excepting the ration-carrier once a week,
and the shepherd, as a rule, did not see him, as he
was away with his sheep when the carrier arrived
in his hut. I used to speculate as to who he was—an
old man, with wife and family dead, perhaps.
What a sad existence! Or, worse still, an old
bachelor, crusty and tired. Surely he would
have some one he longed to see, and who longed
for him! How many years, thought I, had he
been there, or in places like that? What did he
do with his money when he got it once a year?
Would he go with it to the nearest hotel, and as
he saw other men wonder why they were not as
glad to see him as he to see them? Would he purchase
their good-will with grog? What else could
he do, or was he likely to do? Anyhow, when it
was all spent, and he would get angry when
people would have no more to do with him, would
he be kicked out? Would he then come back here
for another year? What else could he do? I
have, among shepherds, seen many men who
must have been what is called well educated.
They count in their ranks both lawyers and parsons,
but disappointed and embittered silence is
generally the stamp of them all. Sometimes the
reverse is the case; then they will talk as if they
could never stop. I like solitude myself to a certain
extent, but it must surely be an unnatural life
for any man to lead quite alone in the bush.
When at last the floods subsided I had the
greatest trouble in making my way, because there
would be the most treacherous boggy holes where
one least expected them. I had also fared hard on
very short rations, so as to make what I had last
until I could purchase more, and when I started
away from my camping-place I had only one more
loaf of bread; all the rest was gone. I was, therefore,
very sorry to hear at the nearest station that
they would sell me nothing whatever, and when I
came to the next one again it was just as bad.
I travelled for some days in this way, and had had
scarcely what would make half a meal for each
day, when at last I arrived at a place only twenty-four
miles from town where I should have to cross
the river—if I could—so as to get on the main road
leading into the settlement. It was about ten
o'clock in the morning when I neared this place.
It was only a small cattle station, but I thought
that whatever happened I must try to get some
rations here. I came along at a pretty brisk
gallop, but when I was about twenty chains from
the houses which formed the place my horses shied
violently at a man who was lying in the middle of
the road. I was, on the spur of the moment, put
out of temper, and began to rate the fellow for
choosing his camping-place there.
"Oh, let me lie!" he cried. "Accursed be the
day I came to Queensland! I have laid myself
down to die here. Shall I not be allowed to lie?
Leave me alone. O God, O God!"
I looked closer at him. It seemed that he was
in earnest, and the wonder was that he was not
dead already, as he was lying there in the terrible
sun without the least attempt to get into the
shade. He was a short, slightly built man and had
a terribly emaciated, woe-begone face. It took a
long time and much persuasion before I could get
him to tell me what was the matter. Then he
said he was dying from hunger. "Pshaw," I
said, "right here in front of the station! I am
hungry too, but in half an hour I shall be back to
you with something to eat."
He laughed bitterly. "Have you got it with
you?" said he. "No; but I have money, and I
will buy some up here." "You might save yourself
the trouble to ask for it," said he; "you will
get nothing." "Why," cried I, "I will tell them
that a man is dying with hunger outside the door."
"They know it. The squatter hunted me yesterday
when I told him that I could not cross the
river or get further without food. Oh, accursed
Queensland, and the day I saw it first! Let me
lie; I only want to die."
I could not understand it, and I came to the
conclusion that it must be the man's own fault,
and that the people on the station had no idea
about the despairing state he was in. I looked at
the river. It was swollen yet, and not fordable on
foot, but I had no fear but that I could get over
with the horses, and I was, therefore, in a position
to promise him that he should be with me in
town that same evening. On hearing that he
brightened up a little, but I was myself so hungry
that I thought I would go up to the station and
get some food for both of us. I therefore hobbled
out the pack-horse after the swag was off him, and
rode up to the place, promising my despairing
friend to be back to him with all possible speed.
When I came into the yard my horse made a
dead stop outside an old stable. I got off, and
looking into the stable saw another man lying on
his face in one of the stalls. "Halloa," thought I,
"it appears that all the people here are off their
legs!" and I sang out to him, asking him whether
he was dying of hunger too. "No; but I am
blind," said he. "Who is that?" I told him I
was a traveller, and that I just wanted to buy a few
rations. "It is not you who were here yesterday?"
inquired he. "No," said I, "that poor fellow is
lying out in the road, and says he is dying for
hunger. Surely it has not come to that!" "I
was awfully sorry for that man yesterday," cried
he, "and only that I cannot see at all, for I got
the sand-blight a fortnight ago, I should have
given him something." Then, as with a sudden
inspiration, he said, "Are you his mate?"
No, I was not his mate, I was only sorry for
him and very hungry myself. "Will you swear
you will give him the half of what I will give you?"
Yes, I would swear. "All right! Then look
in that other stall there under the bags and you
will find a piece of bread, but remember he is to
have the half." "Yes, yes," cried I, while I
looked under the bags and found about half a
pound of stale bread. "But are you really so
very hard up here? Surely you must have plenty
of beef." "So we have," said he, "but I have
been blind for two weeks and cannot kill a beast if
we run out, and the super himself is a bad hand.
We are nearly out of flour and everything else, and
there is a party of fencers cut off by the flood
that we expect in now every day. We must keep
something for them; still, that super is a skunk, or
he would have given the man a piece of beef, but
he won't give anything or sell either, so there is
an end to it. You might save yourself the trouble
of asking him. Are you gone?" "No," said I,
"I am here yet. I am only looking at an old
grey-bearded man who is coming out of the house
and putting a saddle on a horse." "That is
he." "Is he the only one at the place besides
yourself?" "Yes, unless you reckon the old
woman in the kitchen." "Could I not get round
her after he is away?" "Not you; you will get
nothing out of either of them."
I then went up to the squatter and saluted him.
Would he kindly sell a few rations? "No, I
will do nothing of the sort," cried he. "You do
not know how short we are here. I have got no
rations." "But," said I, "you surely do not
know that there is a man lying out there on the
road who says that he is dying of hunger. Just
sell me a piece of beef." "Dying of hunger.
Ha! ha! ha! that is too good. Why, he is a
regular loafer. He was here for rations a fortnight
ago, and he was here yesterday. Let him go into
town. I cannot keep him."
"That is all very well," said I, "and I cannot
pretend to say what the man is. But how can
you get to town, when you cannot cross the
river? He told me he has been lying about in
all this rain and flood, and the wonder to me is
that he is not dead already." "Is that your
horse?" inquired he, pointing to where I left it
standing. "Yes." "Well, then, just take my
advice and get into town yourself." "And won't
you sell me a piece of meat?" "No." "Not if
a man were dying of hunger?" "Don't talk to me
about dying of hunger. It is too rich, it is
indeed! Good-morning." With that he rode
away, and left me standing there meditating upon
what he had said and at free liberty to decide in
my own mind whether, after all, I had any right to
expect people in a place like that to provide the
necessaries of life for travellers.
But one cannot argue with the stomach, and,
ravenously hungry as I was, my sympathy was
with myself and with the man whom I left out on
the road, and I therefore thought I would make
one more attack, this time on the old woman in
the kitchen, who, during my conversation with the
super, had twice come round the corner to empty
slops, and who, I suppose, as a mark of the respect
in which she held me, had thrown them so close to
me that it had sprinkled me all over. She did
not look very hospitable, but I had at that time
great faith in my power to charm the fair sex, or,
as Englishmen less gallantly call them, the weaker
sex. I, therefore, wreathed my face in smiles
and put myself into the most graceful position I
could assume, while I knocked at the kitchen door.
No one answered my knock, so I went inside, still
retaining my charming appearance. On the other
side of the kitchen stood a row of saucepans with
something cooking in them, which emitted an
odour that did not go far to prove the theory of
want raging in the place. Here is my luck again,
thought I, I will get a good meal at last. The old
lady now came running in from one of the rooms—a
most forbidding object to make love to!
"You can't get no rations here," cried she.
"Clear out of the kitchen!" Then she took up a
piece of firewood and struck at me with it. How
could any one expect me to look happy under the
circumstances? I knew I was getting to look
ugly. Then I pulled out my large knife and rolled
my eyes in my head. That seemed to please her.
She now only mildly protested, while I took the
lid off one of the saucepans and lifted out five or
six pounds of meat, with which I made my escape.
When I came out with this to the traveller on the
road his joy was a pleasure to look at. He could
not understand how I had got it. So weak was he
that he cried like a baby.
The tea, of which I had yet a supply, was made,
and then the feast began. I counselled him not
to eat too much, but between the two of us there
was scarcely anything left when we were both
satisfied. Then he began to tell me his story, of
which I can only give the general outlines as I
have forgotten the details; but a more terrible tale
of misery I had never heard, and any one who
will fill in the picture for himself might easily
understand that he must have suffered almost
enough to justify him in lying down to die at last,
when all hope seemed gone.
He said that travelling along he had been overtaken
by the flood, and had camped by himself
in a similar place to the one where I had been a
prisoner, only with this difference—that he had had
no tent. He had managed to keep a log on fire all
the time, and had hung his blanket over a pole to
form a fly, but of course he had been as wet all the
time as if he had been hauled out of the sea. By
the time the water went down he had eaten every
scrap of provision he had, but had nevertheless
reached this station about a fortnight since.
Here, as already stated, they would neither sell
nor give him anything. He could not cross the
river to get into town, so, in a terrible condition
from hunger, he had turned back in another direction,
some twenty miles or more to where there
was another small station. The country was all
flooded on his way, and for five miles in one
stretch he had waded through water to his
shoulders, only being able to know the direction
in which he wanted to go by following along a
fence, the top of the posts of which were out of
water. I forget how long it took him to reach
this place, but when he did arrive there it was only
to be told that he could get nothing. Being apparently
the sort of man who would bend his neck
to any stroke of misfortune, he had meekly turned
away, he did not know himself whither, when by
good luck as the issue proved, he had fainted when
close to the house. A man had then come out
and given him something to eat, besides a little to
take with him, and had told him that twenty-five
miles in another direction was a place where he
could procure supplies. He had gone thither, but
as the people there had proved but one degree more
merciful than their neighbours, they had only kept
him alive a couple of days, and then started him
back here to where I found him. All his money
was seven shillings. The squatter here, as already
stated, would neither sell nor give him anything,
and as he saw he could not cross the river for
several days on foot, not being able to swim, he
had laid himself down to die when I arrived on the
scene. While he told me all this, he was gradually
getting very sick. The sweat hung in large drops on
his pale face, and he threw himself about writhing
in agony. I need scarcely say, perhaps, that he
had eaten with less moderation than he ought. I
bustled about him, trying or wishing to do him
good, but I did not know how. I was also very
anxious for us both to be off, because I heard the
squatter fire a gun in the yard, and I concluded
that he had come back and that the old woman
had told him what had happened perhaps, or most
likely drawn on her imagination at the same time.
As the bishop said when he saw a criminal on
the road to the scaffold: "But for the grace of
God, there go I." The reader of this truthful
narrative may decide for himself who deserved
hanging most—the squatter or I; but whatever
the opinion may be, I had undoubtedly committed
robbery under arms, and, in my opinion, the man
who would see another die outside his door if he
had it in his power to save him, might also add
such small particulars to the tale as would make
his case strong and interesting—especially as
there was a lady in the case. I had doubtless
committed a crime which, according both to the
spirit and the letter of Queensland law as among
the greatest for which a criminal is punished.
Just imagine how the case might have appeared
in court. There the old grey-bearded super, the
worthy pioneer, and the interesting, inoffensive
old lady, who in a fainting condition, would tell
her horrible tales; here a fat, bouncing Crown
Prosecutor; and lastly the two loafers in the dock,
whom nobody knew or would have believed. As
after events proved, the super was either too much
of a gentleman or too much of a coward, as he
neither came out and remonstrated with me nor
prosecuted me afterwards.
Six weeks after this event happened I was an
employer of over a dozen men, and as time went
on I was looked upon as a rising man in that
town toward which I was now going, and no one
thought themselves too good to know me. Among
my acquaintances was this same super. He did
not at all recollect me from this adventure; but
one day I reminded him, and told him what I
thought about him.
Begging the reader's pardon for this digression,
I will return to where we still sat in the road.
While I, for the above-named reasons, perhaps not
clearly defined in my mind, was anxious to be off,
and my travelling companion was writhing with
pain before me, an accident happened which I at
the time thought one of the greatest possible misfortunes.
My best horse—my saddle-horse—got
drowned in the river. It came about in this way:
ever since the flood the air had been thick with
countless millions of sand-flies; it was so bad that
one could scarcely exist unless when sitting with
the head over a fire enveloped in smoke. The
horses suffered fearfully from their attacks, and
just then they both became as it were quite
maddened, and galloped straight for the river. I
managed to catch the one, but the other, as if it
premeditated suicide, jumped right in, and being
hobbled could not well drown just then, but was
swept down the current and away. Next morning
we had eaten all our provisions and were as
hungry as ever. The river, however, was falling
fast. I got on the one horse and tried the river in
several places, but nowhere was it so low that the
horse could walk across. I could get across myself
on the horse, but it reared and bucked when
the other man tried to climb on it too; as he could
not ride he began his lamentations again, imploring
me not to leave him behind. I had no idea of
doing that, but it cost me not a little trouble to
think out what was best to do. Unfortunately
neither of us could swim, and as he was of very
short stature, the river would have to fall until he
could walk over almost dry-footed before he would
dare to attempt it. I was a head taller than he, and
as the day went on I kept walking in the river and
trying it with a long pole to find the shallowest
place. The current was very strong, but the
water was falling fast, and tired out by my companion's
lamentations and the whole misery of the
situation, I told him that we would a couple of
hours before sundown try to cross the river or die.
It was a dangerous undertaking, because not only
was the water still very deep, and I had only a
general idea of it being fordable, but the current
was so strong that I did not know whether I should
be able to keep on my feet when I came to the
deepest part. First of all I wrote a few words in
pencil to the manager of the bank in which I had
my money, telling him what to do with my account
in case I should not claim it. After having
put it into an envelope, because I always carried
these things, I gave it to my fellow-traveller, and
without letting him know what it contained,
exacted from him a promise that he should post
it in case I got drowned. It was the least he
could do certainly, because as a reward I said he
might have all the rest of my belongings, always
supposing, of course, that I should have no further
use for them. Then I helped him on to the horse,
and told him just to sit still until he saw me safe
on the other side, and that the horse would come
to me when I called it as long as he did not pull it
about. Having done all this, I took off all my
clothes and strapped them on to the pack-saddle,
and lifted the whole burden on to my head so as
to give me extra weight. I also got a pole about
fifteen feet in length to stand against, and then I
faced the river. The river was not very broad—I
should say about three chains. From the side
where I was it gradually sloped towards its
deepest part which was near the other side, and
there was at least one chain in width where I did
not exactly know the depth more than that the
horse so far had had to swim across earlier in the
day when I had tried it. The river was still falling
every hour, and I was determined for both of us to
get across then. I waded into the water, and it
all went well until I came to the middle. Somehow
I thought I must have got to shallower
ground than where I had tried it before. The
water rushed round my sides, and every time I
had to lift the pole and put it forward it took me all
my strength to do it. The last step forward had
brought me into still deeper water, and my
strength seemed exhausted—perhaps it would be
more correct to say that to hold the pole in position
and keep myself on my feet demanded as
much force as I ever had. I seemed to stand
dancing on the top of the big toe while I could
feel with the other foot that it was still deeper
in front of me. I pressed on the pole to keep me
down, but I felt that I had neither strength nor
pluck enough to shift it either forwards or backwards,
nor even to keep standing where I was very
long. Yet how tantalizing; in front of me, just
another step, and I might grasp the boughs of a
large tree hanging out over the water. And must
I die there?
As in a panorama my whole life seemed to pass
before me in review: At home—my schoolmates, I
saw them all—then Hamburg—the emigrant ship—Thorkill—the
gold-diggings—the South Seas—Brisbane—all
along this miserable journey and
back where I stood. I turned my head and looked
behind me to where the Englishman sat on my
horse. He laughed loud an unpleasant ha! ha!
ha! ha! It was his way to cheer me on, but it
jarred on my ear. My heart began to beat as if it
would burst. Have you travelled so far, I thought,
and have you seen and suffered so many things on
purpose only to drown in this muggy stream?
Never! I gathered myself together for a supreme
effort. I threw the pole from me, rushed forward,
rolled, lost the saddle, but grasped a bough, and
the next moment I climbed up the other side,
when I fainted for the first and only time in all my
life. When I recovered the other man had come
over and stood alongside of me with my horse.
We intended to travel all night, so as to be in
town as soon as possible, and my friend seemed
quite gay at the prospect before us. Where we
stood, however, was only on a sort of by-road, and
I understood that the main road to —— was a
couple of miles distant. I, therefore, suggested to
my companion that he should walk off as fast as
he could, while I was pulling myself a little
together, and that I would overtake him on the
horse before it got dark. But—I had not got a
stitch of clothes to put on! and I had to ask him
to let me have some of his. Then he began to
talk while he pulled his swag open. He had only
two shirts and two pairs of breeches that he had
paid fourteen shillings for in Liverpool, but of
course I should have them. Were they worth ten
shillings? Was the shirt worth five shillings? I
would not get the like under eight shillings. If I
thought it was too much, I might have the
breeches he had on for five shillings.
I was completely amazed. Was this the man
for whom I had risked my life, and as nearly as
possible lost it? For whom—call it what you like—I
had begged and taken by force at the station
what I thought necessary to save his life? For
whom I had lost my horse which had carried me
so many hundred miles, and the saddle and all my
clothes? Here I sat as naked as the day I was
born, all to save his life, and my reward was to see
him in front of me; but he had not perception
enough to know that he owed me anything. The
money I had—three or four pounds—I had on
purpose taken out of the swag before I crossed the
river, and given to him so that it might not be
unnecessarily lost. I had, therefore, that, but I
wondered whether he would give me any clothes
without money if I had none, or whether, if so, I
would have to force them from him. I asked him,
and said, "What if I have no money?" "Oh,
but you have," said he; "I saw in your purse
you have plenty of money." Then I bought the
clothes and paid him what he asked for his
breeches, for which he had given fourteen shillings
in Liverpool. I bought his shirt also for
five shillings, and a dirty, nasty towel he had was
thrown in as a present for me to wind round my
head instead of a hat.
Then he went away quite happy, asking me not to
be long behind, as he was to ride half-way on my
horse, and I dressed myself in my new clothes. I
did look a terrible picture. The breeches were six
inches too short, the shirt would not button round
my throat, I had neither socks nor boots—and then
the towel as a turban round the head! The horse
fairly snorted at me with terror. I sat where I was
till it was nearly dark. I had no wish to see the
other fellow any more. But I made a vow, never, if
it was possible to avoid it, would I travel like this
again. But I was in dejected spirits—not, I believe,
so much for what money value I had lost, or for
any fear that I could not put a stop to this sort of
travelling about almost whenever I liked, but for
the conduct of that man. As I rode along I kept
saying to myself, "It shall be a valuable lesson."
Still, I fear that that sort of lessons are generally
more sad than valuable.
It was now all but dark, and when I had ridden
so far as to make me wonder that there was no
sign of the main road yet, I got off the horse
and began to look closely at the track along
which I had come. I then found that it was
only a cattle track, and that the horse must have
left the right road without my noticing it. Then
I began to run the tracks of the horse back again.
But the tracks were confusing, crossing and recrossing
each other so much that I lost my cue,
and by the time it was quite dark I stood in dense
brigalow scrub and had to acknowledge myself
lost. I tied the horse to a tree and sat down
alongside. It was no use to walk about further
before daylight. I had a general idea where the
town was lying, but I knew there were no houses
or people living between where I was and there.
I was also afraid that if I did not strike the road
I might pass the town within half a mile and not
know it. As for making back for the river and
station, that would be out of the question, because
it would have made me no better off. But on the
whole I was not afraid that I should be unable to
find my way somewhere, the question was really—how
long could I keep up without food? The idea
occurred to me that I could at all events eat the
horse as a last extremity, but I drove the thought
away as soon as it came. To be there, and look
up at the horse—my only friend—and to think
that I intended to kill it, seemed to me both
criminal and impossible. I sat the whole night
smoking my pipe and waiting for the sun to rise
so that I might take the bearings of the country,
and make up my mind in which direction I would
look for the road and town.
At sunrise I started, leading the horse after me,
because it was no use now to follow the cattle
tracks, and where I had to go was through the
brigalow, where I had quite work enough to do in
twining in and out among the trees and the
brambles. As the day wore on I came into
country a little more open, but yet I could not
ride among the trees. The sun shone with terrible
force, and the sand-flies followed us in clouds.
There was a ringing sound in my ears. I kept
arranging and rearranging the towel on my head;
still, I feared that I had sunstroke, or that something
serious was the matter with me. The air
seemed full of phantoms—vicious-looking creatures.
Then I saw a whole army of ladies and gentlemen
riding past, jeering me and lolling out their tongues
at me. I knew it was delusions, and I kept walking
as fast and, as it proved, as straight as possible,
but still I felt myself laughing, crying, and yelling
at all these phantoms or at the unoffending
horse.
"Shoeskin," cried I to the horse, "you old
dog, do you know that it was to save you from
hunger's dread that I went on this journey? And
now you have enough to eat, while I must die of
hunger! but to-night I will kill you—do you know
that? Oh, Peter, Peter! is it not strange, so
vicious as you have got to be? Holloa, is that a
frying-pan over there on that log? So it is; and
full of fried eggs and potatoes. Good luck. Look
at him eating it all. Stop, you rascal! No, it is a
woman. Do you call yourself a lady? You are
no woman at all; only a devil. It is all devilry.
Peter, take no notice." About noon I had a bath
in a water-hole I came to, and ate some snails I
found in the water. After that I felt somewhat
better, and shortly after I came on to the road. I
became quite collected in my mind at once, and
jumping on to the horse tore away at full gallop
for the town, which proved to be only five or six
miles distant. As I came riding up the street at
a sharp trot I knew myself to be quite sane, but I
had a suspicion that I looked very much the other
way with the towel round my head and the short
tartan plaid breeches.