BOOK I. LOVE. — CHAPTER I. KARL METZEROTT ATTENDS A KAFFEE KLATSCH. — CHAPTER II. THE PASTOR’S BLUE APRON. — CHAPTER III. A PESSIMIST. — CHAPTER IV. DREAMS AND DREAMERS. — CHAPTER V. “WHEN SORROWS COME.” — CHAPTER VI. IN BATTALIONS. — CHAPTER VII. “’VIDING.” — CHAPTER VIII. MULTIPLICATION. — CHAPTER IX. FORS FORTUNA. — CHAPTER X. HOMINIBUS BONÆ VOLUNTATIS. — CHAPTER XI. YGDRASIL. — CHAPTER XII. “O YE ICE AND SNOW, BLESS YE THE LORD!” — CHAPTER XIII. PROSIT NEUJAHR. — CHAPTER XIV. LEARNING AND TEACHING.
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Karl Metzerott, shoemaker, counted himself reasonably
well-to-do in the world. It was a favorite saying of his
(though he was not greatly given to sayings at any time,
his days being so full of doings), that his Socialist opinions
were not based upon his own peculiar needs; and that,
when the Commune should supervene, as he fervently believed
it must some day, he, Karl Metzerott, would be
numbered rather among its givers than its receivers.
In truth, he had some reason for self-gratulation. He
was young, strong, and able to earn a fair living at his
trade; and his wife,—but stop! We have not come to
her quite yet.
The shop where he bent over his lapstone for ten hours
a day, excluding meal times, was an odd-looking structure,
in a poor quarter of a city which we shall call Micklegard;
and which, if any one should strive to locate, we warn
him that the effort will bring him only confusion of face
and dire bewilderment. For its features may be recognized,
now here, now there, like those mocking faces that peered
at Ritter Huldbrand through the mists of the Enchanted
Forest.
The shoemaker’s dwelling contained but three rooms.
The front, a shingled frame building of one story, presented
10its pointed gable at the street like a huge caret,
denoting that all the sky and stars, perhaps something
further, were wanted by those beneath. This was the
shop; behind it were the kitchen, looking out upon a small
square yard, opening on a not over-clean alley; and a bedroom
above, whose front window peered over the gable
roof, between the high blank walls of the adjoining houses,
while the opposite one kept watch from the rear: and each,
in its curtainless bareness, looked equally desolate and
unsatisfied.
It was on a cold, dreary November evening that the
shoemaker put aside his work somewhat earlier than usual,
and, after carefully closing his shutters, stepped through
the ever-open door into his little kitchen, which was almost
as red-hot as the huge cooking-stove, filled with bituminous
coal, that occupied nearly half the tiny apartment. The
other half was over-filled by a gigantic four-post bedstead,
on which two corpulent feather-beds swelled nearly to the
tester, and were overspread by a patchwork quilt, gaudy of
hue and startling in design. Fringed dimity curtains hung
from the tester, until their snow-white balls caught the
reflection from the glowing counterpane, when they were
snatched away, as if from the possible soil of contact, and
fastened in the middle of each side by an immense yellow
rosette. Upon one side of the stove stood an oil-cloth-covered
table, which served equally for the preparation and
consumption of food; above it, a steep, narrow stair wound
upward to the room above; and on the other side of the
kitchen, basking in heat which would have consumed a
salamander, were a small old-fashioned candle-stand, half
hidden by a linen cover, wrought in the old Levitical colors
of red and blue, and sustaining a cheap kerosene lamp; a
slat rocking-chair, with patchwork cushions, and a tiny old
woman bowed over a huge German Bible, bound in parchment,
11with a tarnished steel clasp and corners, and heavy
smooth yellow leaves.
As her son entered, Frau Metzerott lifted her brown,
withered face, and fixed her dark eyes and steel-rimmed
spectacles upon him.
“You have quitted early this evening,” she said, in the
Platt-Deutsch dialect, which, with the High German of the
book on her knee, was her only mode of speech, though she
had lived in America for nearly forty years.
He nodded briefly, and then, as if by an afterthought,
added, “It is the evening of the Kaffee Klatsch at the
Hall, and I will go there for my supper. There is a little
concert to-night, and dancing.”
“And a few pretty girls, Karlchen?”
He smiled, not ill-pleased, but vouchsafed no further
remark as he sprang up the difficult, crooked stairway to
his bedroom.
The old woman looked after him with a slow shake of
her head. “I wish he would marry one of them,” she
thought. “There is room for a wife, up yonder, and it is
hard doing the work alone. Besides, one cannot live forever,
and, when I am gone, who will make his coffee and
his apple cakes as he likes them?”
With a sigh, she fell to reading again.
It is quite possible that, on the sailing-vessel where her
husband met and won her, and which, to afford him ample
time for the operation, was obligingly blown out of her
course so as to lengthen the voyage to America some
three months or so, Frau Metzerott had her fair share of
youthful attractiveness; but this had been swept from her
by the scythe of Father Time, and the storm and stress of
life had left her no leisure to cultivate the graces of old
age. Of actual years she numbered barely sixty, and the
dark hair under her quaint black cap showed scarcely a
12touch of gray; but the skin was as brown and wrinkled as
a frost-nipped russet apple; and rheumatism and the wash-tub
together had so bowed her once strong, erect figure,
that, like the woman in Scripture, she could in no wise lift
up herself. She was dressed in a dark blue calico, marked
with small, white, crooked lines, a brown gingham apron,
and a small gay-colored plaid shawl over her rheumatic
shoulders. Her feet were incased in knitted woollen stockings,
and black cloth shoes; and her knotted brown fingers
showed beneath black cloth mittens.
She did not trouble herself greatly with the preparations
for her lonely supper, when her son, in his Sunday coat,
had left her for the Hall; a fresh brew of coffee, a slice or
two from the rye loaf, and a few potatoes dressed with oil
and vinegar, which had stood in her corner cupboard since
noon, supplied all her needs.
The dishes were washed, the kitchen tidied, after this
frugal meal, and the mother had settled to her knitting,
when there came a knock at the shop door. A pleased
smile shone upon the old woman’s face as she recognized
the tap, and hastened to admit the person who had formerly
embodied her dreams of a daughter-in-law, who should be
the instrument of rest and ease to her old age. But the
Anna Rolf who now passed through the dark shop into the
glowing kitchen, had been for two years a comely young
matron; Leppel Rolf, the stalwart young carpenter, having
wooed and won her, while Shoemaker Metzerott sat passively
under his lapstone. Rumor asserted that the fair
Anna had been somewhat piqued by this same passivity;
but, however that may be, it was certainly no love-lorn
personage who now added the radiance of youth, health,
and beauty to the glow of the fire and the yellow light of
the kerosene lamp.
Yet Anna was not strictly a beauty, though her vivid
13coloring, sparkling eyes, and overflowing vitality had gained
her that reputation. She was simply a tall, well-made
woman, with an abundance of silky black hair, a rich,
dark complexion, and features which, like her figure,
seemed likely to be sharpened, rather than filled out, by
advancing years. She was dressed with a good deal of
taste, in a new, black silk, with a bunch of crimson roses
in her bosom; and her greeting was interfused by the
consciousness of such array.
“So you are not at the Kaffee-Visite, Frau Metzerott?”
she asked, laughing a good deal. Laughing was very
becoming to Anna; she had such charming dimples, and
strong, white, even teeth.
“Kaffee-Visite, indeed!” grumbled the old woman, taking,
with her withered hand to her wrinkled brow, a
leisurely survey of her radiant visitant. “What should
an old woman like me do there? I drink my coffee at
home, and am thankful. But, Du lieber Himmel! how fine
you are, Anna! A new silk dress?”
“Of course,” said Anna proudly, “and all my own doing,
too. Not a penny of Leppel’s money in it, from the neck to
the hem. My earning and my making, Frau Metzerott.”
“Ach, Herr Gott!” sighed the old woman, smoothing
down the rich folds, half enviously, not for herself, but for
her son, whose wife might have worn them; “but what a
clever child you are, Aenchen.”
“You see,” said Anna, “it was this way. You remember
when I was first married we lived at his home, and
when I had swept and dusted a bit, there was no more to
be done, for Frau Rolf lets no one help with the cooking.
I don’t believe she would trust an angel from heaven to
work down a loaf of Pumpernickel for her.” She laughed
again, and Frau Metzerott added a shrill cackle as her own
contribution.
14“So, as twirling my thumbs never agreed with me,”
continued Anna, “I just apprenticed myself to a dressmaker;
for it is well to have two strings to one’s bow,
and Leppel’s life is no surer than any other man’s.”
“But, Anna—?”
“Yes, I know, Mütterchen. It was a special arrangement,
of course, not a regular apprenticeship. I was to
give so many hours a day to work I already knew how
to do, such as running up seams and working buttonholes;
and she was to teach me to cut and fit. She knew me, you
see, and wasn’t afraid of losing by the bargain.”
“I should think not!” said Frau Metzerott admiringly.
She had heard the story at least a dozen times, and never
failed to adorn the right point with the proper ejaculation.
“Well, then,” continued Anna, “what should happen
but little Fritz came to town, and any one but me would
have had enough to do at home; but I never give up!”—she
drew herself up proudly—“and so, since I finished my
course, I have earned enough money to buy this dress.”
“And yet you do so much besides,” said Frau Metzerott.
“Since his father and mother went to live with their son
in the West,” said Anna, “I do all my own work, make my
own clothes and Fritz’s, and take in sewing besides.”
“What a girl you are!” sighed the old woman. “But
why are you home so early from the Hall to-night?”
“Leppel is gone to New York on business. There is
some new machine he wants to look at. I wish he would
let them all alone, and attend to his day’s work. I did not
bargain to marry an inventor,” said Anna discontentedly.
“It is expensive going to New York,” said the old
woman, shaking her head.
“It is expensive inventing,” said the young one, her
brilliant face darkened by a shadow of real anxiety. “But,
however, he must have his own way, and the money is his.
15So he was off from the Hall, when he had had his supper,
and of course,” with a conscious laugh—“he would not
leave me there without him.”
“No, no,” said the Frau, her withered lips expanding
into a toothless smile, “you are much too pretty for that,
Aenchen.”
“The new pastor was there,” said Anna, when she had
playfully shaken the old woman by her bowed shoulders,
in acknowledgment of this remark, “and, I think, the Frau
Pastorin that will be.”
“So?” exclaimed the old woman eagerly; “who is she,
Anna?”
“She came over on the same steamer as the Herr Pastor,
and her name is Dorothea Weglein. It seems she had a
sweetheart here in Micklegard, and came over to be married
to him; but when she arrived he had died in the mean
time, of something or other, very sudden, I don’t know
what.”
“Poor child! And the Herr Pastor is courting her?”
Anna shrugged her shoulders. “It looks like it,” she
said. “It seems she got a service place after her Schatz
died. The Herr Pastor could do better than that. But
some one else was taken with her baby face and frightened
ways, Frau Metzerott. Your son was eating her up
with his eyes when I came away.”
“Did her Schatz leave any money behind him?” asked
the Frau.
Anna laughed a little shrilly, as she moved towards the
door. “You know they weren’t married, Mütterchen; so,
if he did, it probably went to his relations. Well, it is two
years since it happened; she will be easily consoled.
Good-night, Fritz will be wanting me. I only ran over to
tell you the news,” and she was gone, leaving the shop and
kitchen darker and stiller than ever, by contrast.
16Karl Metzerott, meanwhile, had walked briskly enough
to meet his fate, but with small thought of new Herr Pastors
or possible Frau Pastorins. He was his mother’s own
son in appearance, every one had said, when both were
younger; at present, the resemblance was less striking.
Karl was a man of nearly thirty, who looked older than his
years; of average height, strongly and squarely made, the
shoulders slightly rounded by his occupation, the head a
little large, with a fine, square brow, and a thick covering
of coarse black hair. The eyes were keen and clear, the
features strong and rugged. The skin was dark, not particularly
fine, but clear and healthful; he wore neither
beard nor mustache, and his manner showed no slightest
consciousness of himself or his Sunday clothes.
But it is best that we should precede him, rapid as are
his steps, and gain some knowledge of the scene whither
he is bound. The Maennerchor of Micklegard held its collective
head rather higher than any similar association in
the city. In its own opinion, its members, or the majority
of them, were more aristocratic, its club-house better fitted
up, its auditorium larger, and its inventive genius greater,
than those of any contemporary. Nor shall I attempt to
disprove this innocently vain assumption on the part of
the Maennerchor, though vanity, whether innocent or the
reverse, is said by some to be a part of the German national
character. Others doubt whether such a thing exists as a
national type of character. My own individual opinion is
that, so far as it does exist, the Germans are no vainer, au
fond, than any other people; but that what vanity they
possess is of a surface, childlike type, more quickly recognized,
but rather less offensive, than the vanity of, say, an
Englishman.
But to return to the Maennerchor.
The managers had, of late, at the instigation of the
17Ladies’ Chorus, issued invitations to a Kaffee-Visite, as it
was officially termed; familiarly known as a “Kaffee
Klatsch,” or Coffee Scandal. The ladies were to meet at
three o’clock, said the program (and we assure our readers
that we translate from a veritable document), in the club-house
parlor; from three to five was to be theirs alone.
“Needle-work, Gossip, Stocking-knitting,” said the program,
with a shriek of triumph. At five was to be served
the “Ladies’ Coffee;” from 6.30 to 8.30, “Supper for
Gentlemen;” and this exceedingly unsociable arrangement
having been carried to its lame and impotent conclusion,
the concert, or Abendunterhaltung, would begin at nine,
under the auspices of the Ladies’ Chorus.
In its primary aspect, the Kaffee-Visite was emphatically
what is jocularly known as a “Dutch treat.” The refreshments
were in charge of two or more ladies, in rotation,
called the Committee, who undertook all the expense and
took charge of the modest receipts, fifteen cents being the
charge for each person’s supper. The receipts and expenses
usually balanced with tolerable evenness, the gains of the
Committee never amounting to a sum which compensated
for their trouble, while anxiety of mind lest the incomings
should not equal the outlay was written on their foreheads
during the early part of the evening.
When Karl Metzerott arrived on the occasion we have
selected for description, the “Ladies’ Coffee” was over, and
the little parlor was full of uproarious Herren, the ladies
having repaired to the Hall upstairs. All parties were full
of true German enjoyment, heightened by the independence
and freedom from sense of obligation only possible at a
real “Dutch treat.” Everybody was host, everybody was
guest; the Committee waited on the tables, and passed
small jokes, with the coffee and cold tongue, and the convives
roared with laughter as they disposed of the viands
18with a business-like rapidity, which, in part, accounted for
the smallness of the profits.
Strains of music had already begun to resound from the
Hall, as Metzerott finished his repast.
“The girls are enjoying themselves,” he said, smiling, to
his neighbor, who happened to be Leppel Rolf; but an
obese little man opposite called out,—
“Enjoying? But how can they, with no partners to
whirl them around? When I was your age, Karl, would I
have been so lazy? No, my arm would have been round
the prettiest waist in the lot long ago. Hurry, lazy
fellow!”
There was a roar from the tableful at this sally, for the
speaker was well known as the shyest of men where
“ladies” were in question. It was even asserted that he
had never found courage to ask the decisive question of his
wife, but that the marriage had been arranged by his
mother.
“If there are no partners at all up yonder,” replied
Metzerott, “there is no need to hurry. They’ll wait till I
come.”
His voice was a deep bass, rich and mellow; his enunciation
slow but distinct, his pronunciation and accent those
of the public schools, aided by care and thought at home.
A shrill falsetto voice followed his reply with:—
“Vanitas vanitatum. If you have so much vanity,
Herr Metzerott, I must make you a pastoral visit.”
Karl turned, and leisurely surveyed the speaker. The
remark struck him as in a degree personal, from one whom
he had met for the first time half an hour before. The
Rev. Otto Schaefer, however, as he stood under the full
light of the parlor chandelier, seemed rather to court than
to avoid scrutiny. He was a man who could be best
described by the one word, insignificant. His height was
19five feet one, his proportions thin to meagreness, his hair
and beard of scant quantity, and not even so red as they
might have been; his voice thin and unmusical. He had
been in America only two years, in Micklegard not a fortnight;
had recently lost his wife, and was said to be looking
out for another, in which search, though the possessor
of six small children and a limited income, there was no
doubt he would very soon be successful.
“But you know I’m a free-thinker,” said Metzerott.
The Rev. Otto laughed. “I’ll soon cure you of that,”
he said. “I have studied nothing else but the Bible all
my life, and I believe in it, so why can’t you?”
“Because I have studied other things,” replied Karl
dryly, whereupon he was dragged away by Rolf and the
obese little man, both crying, “No theology, no religion
to-night; let us dance.”
Their progress towards the Hall being somewhat retarded
by Karl’s playful resistance, they found, upon reaching
it, that the Herr Pastor had preceded them, and was
making a sort of triumphal progress up through its very
fair proportions; shaking hands right and left with the
lambs of his flock. At the end of the Hall, close by the
stage, stood the piano, where the wife of the obese little
man was rattling off a waltz with considerable spirit. The
floor was full of whirling Tänzerinen, here and there
embraced by a Tänzer. Metzerott, who was really, like all
Germans, fond of dancing, made his way to a group near
the piano, among whom Anna Rolf’s tall form was conspicuous.
“Dance!” she cried, in answer to his request, “why, of
course I will; I’d dance with the Wild Huntsman if he
were here to ask me.”
“I’ve heard of him,” said Karl. “My mother believes
in him as she does in”—
20He hesitated, and Anna playfully held up her finger.
“No wicked speeches,” she said; “your mother is a good
woman, much better than you.”
“Oh! she’s good enough,” the man said carelessly. “I
don’t see what that has to do with it, though; any one can
be good who tries.”
“Then I’m not any one,” said Anna; “for I never was
good in my life, and I’m sure I’ve tried.”
“Leppel thinks you are good,—the best of wives,” said
Karl, with an indulgent smile.
“Oh! I’m good to him,” replied Anna, “and so I ought,
for he is the best of husbands; then I am clever, industrious,
economical, and good-tempered, I know very well;
but I’m not religious, though I should like to be.”
“Religion is all nonsense, and the religious man”—and
here he was suddenly struck dumb.
“Ah! you dare not speak slanders against religion, so
near the Herr Pastor,” said Anna, looking up into his
face with amused curiosity, as they whirled away again,
Karl waltzing on mechanically, because in his confused
state of mind it was easier to do so than to stop. “That
girl in gray is the one they say he will marry. Eh?
you are dancing horribly, Karl;” as they collided violently
with another couple. “Suppose we stop.”
She dropped into the nearest chair, and fanned herself
briskly with her handkerchief, while her partner stood
aside, and mentally regained his feet, after the shock that
had overthrown him. Yet what was it after all? Had
he lived to his present age without seriously loving;
pleased here or there, it might be, by a voice or a face,
which he forgot the next moment, to be thus vanquished
in the twinkling of an eye? It was impossible! Why,
he could not even recall, now that she was beyond his
immediate vision, a single feature; only a cloud of golden
21curls on a low, childlike brow, and a soft gray tint surrounding
her that might have been an angel’s robe, he thought,
if there were angels.
Poor Karl! and above all poor Dora! For the gray
frock had been pinched and saved for as a wedding dress, if
the young man whom she had crossed the ocean to find
had but lived to welcome her. Anna had guessed aright,
that his savings had gone to his relations; and Dora, in
the midst of her grief and bewilderment, had been forced
to look out for some way of supporting herself. For two
years she had been nursery governess to two riotous boys,
who adored and tyrannized over her; and under whose
vigorous kicks and caresses her nature had slowly recovered
from the shock it had received. Yet she had with
difficulty persuaded herself to accept an invitation to accompany
the wife of the obese little man to the Kaffee Klatsch
this afternoon; but, that difficulty having been
surmounted, wearing her wedding dress followed as a thing
of course. It cost her a pang, no doubt, but she had
nothing else.
Just how the rest of the evening passed, Karl Metzerott
could never after give a coherent account, even to himself.
Somehow, somewhere, he was introduced to Dora;
he sat near her during the concert, silent, and apparently
not looking at her, yet he knew her features well by that
time, and could almost have specified the number of her
eyelashes.
Then he took her home, actually superseding the Herr
Pastor in so doing. They talked but little on the way;
when they had nearly reached her home, Karl said,—
“You are not betrothed to the Herr Pastor, Fräulein
Dora?”
“No, indeed, he has never asked me,” she replied, laughing
and blushing a little, but looking up into his face with
22childlike, innocent directness. Perhaps little Dora was
scarcely the beauty that Karl fancied her; Anna’s description,
“a baby face, and frightened ways,” was much more
accurate than any he could have given. But her large,
blue eyes, with their long, golden lashes, were really beautiful;
and nothing could have so moved the man beside her
as the sight of that shy timidity, changed into calm reliance
on his strength.
“But you would not marry him, nicht wahr? He is
poor, he is a fool, and he has six children.”
“And he is very ugly,” said naughty Dora, deserting,
without a pang, her oldest friend in America.
“He is very ugly indeed,” said Karl Metzerott, in a tone
of deep conviction; “God be thanked therefor.”
And Dora, though she laughed and blushed still deeper,
found it most convenient not to inquire his exact meaning.
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Pastor Schaefer was in serious trouble. It was the
22d of December, and his Christmas sermon was still unprepared:
worse still, it stood every possible chance of
remaining so; for how on earth was a man to consider
texts, headings, arguments, or perorations, who had a house
and six small children to care for, and a housekeeper whose
brother had just been inconsiderate enough to die? In
truth, however, it was rather the housekeeper who should
be blamed for want of consideration, since the brother
would very likely have remained alive if he had been consulted
about the matter; whereas Mary, the housekeeper,
could certainly have restrained her grief sufficiently to take
the sausages off the fire!
It was early that same morning that it had all happened,
though the brother had been in a dying condition for several
weeks, ever since he had fallen from a ladder during
the operation of hod-carrying, and fractured his skull.
Therefore Mary’s mind had certainly had time to prepare
itself for the shock; indeed the pastor’s children had
become so accustomed to hearing her shriek wildly every
time there came a knock at the door, under the supposition
that the knocker brought news of her brother’s death, that,
when this event really happened, little Bruno, the third
from youngest, said solemnly, “Poor Mary’s brother is dead
again;” but nobody supposed it was actually so.
“You had better hold still, and have your hair brushed,”
24said Christina a little sharply. Poor Tina was only nine
years old, yet felt herself, as the eldest, responsible for the
family; and the responsibility was apt to re-act on her
temper. So they all hurried to finish dressing (for the
odors of breakfast were unusually strong), and descended
in procession to the kitchen, Tina first, leading Heinz, who
was two and a half, and apt, when left to himself, to make
only one step, and that head first, from bedroom to kitchen.
He had fallen downstairs and landed on his head so often,
that Tina said she did not believe he minded it at all.
Next to him came Bruno, with Gretchen, who was six, and
a person to whom nothing, good or bad, ever happened;
then Franz, who was eight, and very useful in splitting
wood, clearing away snow, and running errands; and then
the father, carrying Lena, the six-months-old baby, at
whose birth their mother had died.
“Poor Mary!” said Heinz.
The procession abruptly halted.
The children’s tongues had been running so fast about
the nearness of Christmas, and what gifts the Christ-child
might be expected to deposit in their shoes, that no one
heard a sound from the kitchen until they had almost
reached the lowest step.
“Tina, but why do you stop there?” cried the pastor,
who at the turn, with the baby in his arms, could see nothing
of what was happening below. “Go ahead!” he added
in English, being very anxious that his children should
acquire the language of their adopted country.
They were good children, and did their best to obey.
Heinz made a flying leap down two steps, and, being withheld
by Tina’s grasp upon his petticoats from landing on
his head, brought some other portion of his anatomy, less
toughened by hard knocks, in contact with the steps,
whereupon he howled like the last of the Wampanoags.
25Tina, from the violence of the exertion, fell back upon
Bruno and Gretchen, and Franz made two long steps over
everybody’s head, and landed first of all in the kitchen.
“Donnerwetter!” said the pastor under his breath, but
from the bottom of his heart.
There sat Mary on the floor, her apron over her head,
howling like a legion of wolves; Heinz was singing the
tenor of the same song, the baby added a soprano, Tina
rubbed her back, and Bruno, with doubled fists, attacked
Franz, who, he averred, had kicked him on the head in
passing. Gretchen alone retained sufficient equanimity to
realize the full situation.
“Oh, Tina!” she cried, “the coffee is all boiled over,
and the sausages burnt to nothing at all.”
“When your mother died,” said the pastor solemnly,
after they had eaten such breakfast as was possible under
the circumstances, “when your dear mother died, children,
I had no time to sit and weep. And I was able to do all
that I had to do; but Mary, it seems, was not able even to
move back the sausages. Come, let us wash the dishes.”
Matters did not improve as the day went on. There
never were better children than Heinz and Bruno; but
when one had upset the dishwater, and the other fallen
against the stove, in their eagerness to be of use, and they
had consequently been turned adrift on the wide world,
pray, could they be expected to be as quiet as mice? It
was quite natural they should find their way to the pastor’s
study, where there was an excellent fire; natural, too, that
the thought of tidying the room, as an atonement for their
presence there and previous misadventures, should occur to
them; and most natural of all that they should upset the
lamp over a valuable book, which had been a college prize
of their father’s.
Then it was certainly not the baby’s fault if she had a
26tooth nearly through, and was cross about it; nor Tina’s if
she was too small to handle the tea-kettle dexterously, and
so poured the boiling water over her foot, instead of into
the basin; but when the kitchen door was opened by Frau
Kellar, the wife of the obese little man, and her niece, this
was the situation. Heinz and Bruno were seated in different
corners of the room, with orders not to move hand or
foot until permitted; Christina, in a third, was contemplating
her injured member, bandaged, and supported on a pillow;
Gretchen, to whom nothing ever happened, rocked
the baby in the middle of the floor; and the pastor, with
his coat off, and a blue check apron tied around his waist,
was bending over the stove, frying cabbage.
“You poor fellow!” said Frau Kellar, “though begging
your pardon for the word, Herr Pastor. Gott! but you
must have the patience of Job!”
“Oh, no,” said the pastor. “They are good children, all.
It is not their fault if they are young and little; but of
course it is hard for a man,” he added wearily.
“I should say so!” cried Frau Kellar; “but now here is
my niece Lottie, who will stay to-day, and to-morrow for
that matter, and help you.”
“She is very good,” said the pastor, looking up admiringly
at Lottie, a tall, florid, good-natured-looking girl, who
had already caught up the baby, and hushed its wailing
on her substantial shoulder.
“Let Gretchen and the boys go and play with my children,”
said Frau Kellar. “Lottie can look after these two,
and see to your dinner, and you come into your study with
me. There is something I must say to you.”
The pastor meekly obeyed. He was tired out, poor man,
mind and body, and disinclined to assert himself; yet he
was scarcely prepared for the decided tone of Frau Kellar’s
first remark.
27“You need a wife, Herr Pastor; you must marry. This
state of affairs cannot go on.”
“But I wish to marry,” said the pastor seriously.
Frau Kellar hesitated a moment; there are limits to
every woman’s frankness, thank Heaven! especially when
she is talking to her pastor. Then she said,—
“Of course you know that Karl Metzerott and Dora
Weglein are betrothed?”
The pastor, still in his blue apron, sat somewhat uneasily
upon a chair much too high for his short legs. A sufficiently
grotesque figure, one would have said, even if his
hair had not been so very rumpled, and the hands upon his
thin, aproned knees so very grimy; yet, as he straightened
his meagre figure and looked Frau Kellar full in the face,
there was an unselfish distress upon his ugly little face that
dignified his whole personality.
“That man!” he said, “that infidel, that free-thinker!”
“Well, one knew it was sure to happen,” replied Frau
Kellar, with a shrug of her ample shoulders; “he has been
her shadow ever since the Kaffee-Visite.”
“I tried to hinder it,” said the pastor boldly. “Fräulein
Dora is good and pious, and she has no right to marry an
atheist. But she only grew angry with me,” he added
sadly.
“Of course,” answered Frau Kellar with a laugh, “folks
who meddle with mating birds must expect a peck or two.
Well, I have no fault to find with Karl, for my part. He
is as steady as a rock, and if he chooses to think for himself,
it’s no more than every one does nowadays. After
all, too little religion is better than too much beer,” she
added sagely.
The pastor shook his head. “That may follow,” he
said.
“Hardly,” she replied; then, with an access of boldness,
28“but if she had listened to my advice, Herr Pastor, she
would have taken you.”
The pastor did not resent her freedom of speech. “She
is very beautiful,” he said sadly, “and who would marry a
man with six children, if she could do better?”
Frau Kellar regarded the figure before her with some inward
amusement, as she mentally contrasted Dora’s two
suitors. “I wonder,” she thought, “if he really considers
the six children his only drawback.” Then she said aloud,
“If you really wish to know, Herr Pastor, I will tell you.
My niece Lottie in there would marry you to-morrow if you
asked her.”
“Your niece Lottie?” he said slowly.
“Yes, indeed. And Lottie is a good girl, a very good
girl, Herr Pastor; not so young as she has been, perhaps,
but you were not born yesterday yourself.”
“No,” he said, “certainly I was not born yesterday.”
“And she would be all the better wife and mother for
her thirty years,” continued the match-maker, recklessly
subtracting several units from Lottie’s actual attainments.
“She is a good worker, too, an excellent cook, and the temper
of an angel. And, best of all, Herr Pastor, she has a
nice little sum in bank, saved out of her wages. No one
knows it, or she’d have offers enough; but Lottie is sharp;
she won’t waste her money on any idle good-for-naught.
No; but she is tired of living out, and wants a home of her
own, and she’d like well enough to be a pastor’s lady. That,
you know, gives one a good position.”
“So it does,” said the pastor absently.
“Well, think it over,” said Frau Kellar, rising, “and if
it suits you, mention it to Lottie. She’ll stay with you
to-day, and you can see what she is for yourself.”
The pastor sat still for a long while after Frau Kellar
had left him with his hands upon his knees, gazing into
29the fire. Presently a tear trickled down his cheek, then
another and another. The pastor was weeping the death
of his first and only love: for his first marriage had been
as business-like a contract as the present proposed arrangement;
and his feeling for Dora had been his one romance.
But, after all, one cannot live on romance; especially one
plus six children, and minus either a wife or a housekeeper.
Romance will not mend the broken head or heal the
scalded foot: it will not light the kitchen fire or keep
the sausages from burning. The pastor might shed a tear
or so over his lost golden-haired darling; but business is
business, and when the door at last was gently opened, he
knew quite well that the buxom figure and smiling face in
the doorway were the face and form of his future wife.
“Dinner is ready, Herr Pastor.”
The pastor rose and untied his blue apron.
“Fräulein Lottie,” he said, “this apron belonged to my
former wife. I shall not need it, if you are good enough
to stay with me: could you, perhaps, make use of it?”
It was the freedom of the city, the investiture with the
best robe, the sending of the pallium, the throwing of the
handkerchief; and, as she promptly and proudly tied it on,
Lottie took seizin of the pastor, his house and children, and
all that he had.
30
That same afternoon the Reverend Otto paid a pastoral
visit to Dorothea Weglein, the lamb who was about to give
herself over to the jaws of an infidel and socialistic wolf.
His own fate was sealed, as he knew very well; the stalwart
Lottie already comported herself with the dignity of
a Frau Pastorin; but a certain latent chivalry in the heart
of the little man had been developed by his love for Dora,
certainly the purest and most unselfish feeling he had ever
known; and he would have perilled his dearest possession,
his children or his vanity, to avert the fate that was coming
upon her.
His way lay from the German quarter of the city,
through its business centre, to the region where dwelt the
privileged few, where clustered the stately homes of the
wealthy manufacturers, for whose sake Micklegard and the
world are permitted to exist by an all-wise Providence.
Nevertheless, this German quarter deserves more than a
passing mention.
It had been originally a distinct settlement, and had only
lately been incorporated in the city. There were, as we
already know, old people living there who were as ignorant
of English as on the day they first trod the shore of America.
Indeed they had no especial use for English, since around
them were German shopkeepers of all descriptions, as well
as German doctors and apothecaries. Over the shop doors
stood German signs, German tones resounded on all sides;
31even the houses, though the ear-marks of America were
upon them, had evidently been erected by Germans, and
were, for the most part, surrounded by tiny gardens, whose
overwhelming luxuriance betokened German thrift upon
American soil.
The residence of Mrs. Randolph, Dora’s employer, was
at quite the opposite end of the town; the North End,
where are the seats of the gods and the horn of plenty. It
was a large, square mansion, built of brownstone, and surrounded
by a spacious lawn, that sloped down to the river,
blackly and barely enough at this Christmas season, but no
more uselessly than in summer, when its closely mown
turf, too precious to be walked on, might, perhaps, have
soothed a tired eye, but otherwise benefited neither man
nor beast.
The pastor rang at the side door, and was admitted into
a small square hall, luxuriously furnished. A divan ran
along two sides, gorgeous tiger-skins lay upon the tiled
floor; here and there stood ottomans and lounging-chairs;
the walls were decorated with Japanese pottery, pipes of
all nations, and swords of not a few; opposite the door a
wood fire burned under an elaborately carved mantel-shelf,
upon which leaned negligently a tall, finely proportioned
man of about thirty, his fair, composed, and slightly sarcastic
face distinctly reflected in the mirror above, as he
gazed down into the fire.
As he saw the pastor standing, somewhat aimlessly,
where he had been left by the servant, this young man
took his elbow off the mantel, and advanced a step.
“I have really no right to ask you to sit down in this
house,” he said, with a smile that he could not make unkindly,
“but if you will do so, I do not suppose any one
will object.”
“Perhaps,” said the pastor, slightly bewildered by this
32mode of address, and not quite sure that he had fully understood
his interlocutor. He sank vaguely into the nearest
chair, and gazed around him so helplessly that his companion,
partly from pity and partly from a certain nervousness
which he would by no means have acknowledged, was impelled
to continue the conversation.
“You are a German, and a minister, nicht wahr?” he
said, in the other’s native language.
“Ja, gewiss!” said the pastor delightedly. “I am the
Pastor of St. Peter’s Lutheran Church.”
“So? And you find the sheep of your pasture obey
your words? or is the crook sometimes needful to coerce
them into the right way?”
“They are as good as other people,” returned the pastor,
relapsing into bewilderment. His questioner shrugged
slightly his shapely shoulders, as he turned away to his
old position. “You are happy if they are no worse,” he
said.
At the same moment, he started into sudden vigor and
alertness, with a gleam in his eye that told of eagerness for
the fray. A heavy silk curtain that hung beside the fireplace
was suddenly swept aside, with an angry rattle of
rings upon a brass rod, and in the opening appeared a
handsome, stately, well-dressed woman, of something more
than his own age.
“Dr. Richards, I will speak with you in a moment; I
wish I could say that I am glad to see you. Herr Schaefer,
you wish to see Fräulein Dora?” Her tone was sharply
military rather than rude; but contrasted a little absurdly
with the meek obsequiousness of the pastor’s reply.
“If you permit me, gracious lady,” he said, executing
his fifth bow.
“I shall be delighted if you can make her see the error
of her present course,” said Mrs. Randolph. “You have
33heard of her betrothal, I suppose? Betrothal, indeed!
Upon my word, I think all the girls have gone crazy
together!”
The corners of Dr. Richards’s mouth twitched amusedly.
“So?” he said, under his breath; but perhaps the lady
caught the sound, or saw the movement of his lips in the
mirror, for she grew suddenly very red as she motioned
the pastor towards the doorway.
“You will find a servant just beyond, who will direct
you,” she said, “and I hope you will succeed in convincing
Fräulein Dora that marriage to one of Karl Metzerott’s
opinions can bring her nothing but misery. And now, Dr.
Richards”—
“If you will pardon the interruption,” said that young
man easily, “I wish to say that, although quite unacquainted
with the peculiar tenets of the person referred to,
I am entirely at one with you in believing marriage to
one of any opinions so exceedingly likely to lead to misery
that an opposite result can only be considered a happy
accident.”
Mrs. Randolph stared into his calm face with angry
amazement.
“And you ask my sister to expose herself to such a future?”
she said. “I am at a loss to understand you,
sir.”
“My dear madam, misery is, unfortunately, peculiar to
no state of life. I love your sister, and she is good enough
to love me. Such being the case, if she prefer misery with
me to misery without me, I can only say that I share her
taste, and will do my best to make her as little miserable
as fate may permit.”
“If your efforts prove as weak as your arguments, Dr.
Richards, that ‘best’ will be a very poor one. ‘Misery
without you!’ Why, I will give Alice one year, just one,
34in America, or six months in Paris, to forget you, and be
as happy as a queen.”
“I have always heard,” said Dr. Richards, coolly,
“that good Americans go to Paris when they die, so perhaps
you may be right.”
“You mean she will never forget you while she lives?”
asked the lady scornfully.
“I mean that if you can make her forget me, you are
quite welcome to try.”
“Ah! this is coming to the point, indeed. I am glad to
find you so sensible. So you will not oppose her going
abroad with us?”
“I shall not oppose anything that Miss Randolph wishes.”
The lady frowned, knowing well in what direction those
wishes tended; but, before she could answer, the silken
curtain was gently moved by the hand of a young girl,
whose appearance filled Frederick Richards’s blue eyes
with the light of anything but misery.
She was about eighteen, of medium height, and slender,
with the unconscious grace of a gazelle. Gazelle-like, too,
were the large, brown, trustful eyes, her only really beautiful
feature, though the brown abundance of her hair, the
delicately roseate cheeks and scarlet lips, made her very
charming, at least in one pair of eyes. But to us who are
present in the spirit, dear reader, at this interview, the
most noticeable thing about Alice Randolph is that, despite
the shy grace of every movement, and the childlike innocence
of the face, we read at once that she will not quail
before any pain the future may hold in store for her.
Suffer she will; blench or falter, she will not.
She did not speak as she entered the room, but went
quietly to Dr. Richards’s side, looked for one instant into
his face, and laid her hand in his.
Certainly they seemed well matched, for he also was
35silent as he held fast the hand she had given him. Then
his firm lips curved into a triumphant smile. “Well, Mrs.
Randolph?” he said.
The lady’s face flushed again, rather unbecomingly.
“There is only this to be said,” she cried angrily, “Alice,
by her father’s will, cannot marry without my husband’s
consent, or she forfeits every penny she has in the world.
If you marry a beggar”—
“You forget, my dear madam; at twenty-five she becomes
her own mistress.”
“Ah? you have read the will? That accounts for your
prophecies of misery.”
“Wrong, Mrs. Randolph. I have not read your father-in-law’s
will, though I shall make it a point to do so as soon
as possible. I know only what Alice has told me, and
hence am well aware that she will lose her fortune in the
event of becoming my wife.”
“Yet you urge her to do so!”
“You mistake. I leave her to decide for herself.”
“Harry would not refuse his consent if it were not for
you,” interposed Alice. “It is really you who oppose us,
Jennie.”
“And have I not good cause?” cried Mrs. Randolph.
“Would your father himself have consented to your marriage
with an infidel, an atheist?”
Alice Randolph grew pale, then flushed deeply as she
hesitated to reply, while her sister looked on, in her turn
triumphantly.
A sparkle came into the blue eyes of her lover as they
searched hers. “That,” he said, “is a strong argument,
Alice. Weigh it well, and dispose of it once for all. If
you marry me, I don’t want that to contend with. I am
an atheist, for I cannot believe in a God who leaves nine-tenths
of his creatures to hopeless suffering.”
36She gave the other hand to his clasp, and looked up trustfully
into his face.
“It is a great mystery,” she said, “but I don’t think my
giving you up would help you to solve it.”
“If it can be solved,” he answered.
“I have never tried,” she said; “my life has been so
sheltered, I know almost nothing of the pain that is in the
world. But you will tell me, and perhaps we may solve
the mystery together.”
For all answer he stooped and kissed her.
Mrs. Randolph was furious,—and slightly undignified.
“Very well,” she cried, “go to perdition your own way,
Alice Randolph. I have tried to be a mother to you, and
this is my reward. You will lose not only your money but
your soul, by marrying that man.”
“Be consoled, my dear madam,” returned the young man,
sarcastically, “the first will be very useful to you and your
children; the second can be of no benefit to any one but
the owner. For my part, though I should find it hard to
justify myself in holding property under the present régime,
I am not exactly a beggar. My practice is a good
one, and I can maintain my wife in comfort, if not in
luxury.”
“And if your health should fail, or you should die?”
sneered Mrs. Randolph.
“And if Mr. Randolph’s calculations should fail, his
workmen strike, and his mill burn down?” he answered
coolly. “In the present state of things, Mrs. Randolph, a
shade more or less of uncertainty as to the future is of
very little moment. It is settled, then, Alice?”
“Yes,” she said softly; then her eyes suddenly flashed,
her cheeks grew crimson; she turned upon her sister with
the air of a lioness defending her young.
“Do you suppose I have not seen,” she cried, “how you
37wish me to marry him while pretending to oppose it? I
am ashamed for you, Jennie, ashamed to put your motive
into words, because you are my brother’s wife. But don’t
delude yourself with the idea that it is your work; I would
have given up the money in any case rather than force him
to act against what he believes to be right; and I love him
so dearly that I had rather endure misery, cold, and hunger
with him than to be a queen without him.”
Here, woman-like, her vehemence resolved itself into a
burst of tears, and, turning, she threw herself into the arms
that were open to receive her.
38
Dora Weglein belonged to that large class of women in
whom the heart is far stronger than the head. Such women
feel strongly, but reason weakly; if the feeling be pure
and right, their actions are the same; but if selfishness clog
the action of the heart, there is no head to appeal to.
These are the women who never theorize, or else theorize
wide of the mark, and whose husbands often are the happiest,
whose children are the best-behaved in the world.
Alice Randolph, on the contrary, was a woman of theory.
It was to her impossible to act without a clear knowledge
of all the laws that ought to govern such action; hence, as
time and tide wait for no man, the opportunity for action
often passed while she was weighing pros and cons; and
hence, also, she frequently came to doubt the correctness
of her own conclusions, when their resulting action had
lapsed into the past.
That two women so different, when placed in circumstances
almost exactly similar, should choose the same
course, is at least noteworthy; indeed Alice found it rather
too much noted. She was not aware of any sort of reprehensible
pride. It certainly would have mattered little to
her if Frederick Richards had been the son of a hangman,
to put it as strongly as possible, and she had proved herself
not purse-proud; but it was—yes, it was—very galling to
be always likened and compared to Dorothea Weglein, her
sister’s German nursery governess. But in truth a woman
39of theory and one of feeling (or shall I say instinct? It
is a good old word, and, while perhaps not strictly scientific,
expresses my meaning fairly well)—women of theory and
women of instinct, then, are only too apt mutually to look
down upon and scorn one another. Dora, however, loved
and admired Miss Alice, and was strengthened in allegiance
to her lover by the knowledge of her young lady’s course.
“It is beautiful that she gives up all her money,” she
said to Karl, as they walked towards his home on the Sunday
afternoon when, as his betrothed, she was in all solemnity
to take tea with his mother.
“She may be glad of it some day,” he answered grimly.
“When the people get their rights, they will have a heavy
score to settle with Henry Randolph. He has a heart as
hard as his own nails.”
“Ach, how terrible!” sighed little Dora. “But the money
is good all the same, Karl.”
“It is stained with blood,” he said. “I am glad you are
to touch little more of it.”
Whereupon Dora began to cry, as she told him of the
check Mr. Randolph had slipped into her hand that morning,
and which would be so convenient in buying her
wedding outfit.
“And he called me a good girl, Karl, and said you should
be a happy man. I think his heart cannot be so very hard.
Rich people are sometimes so kind, they cannot be all bad.
Must I give him back the money?”
“Keep it, keep it,” said Karl gloomily. “You have a
right to more than that, you who have slaved for him so
long. And, for Heaven’s sake, don’t cry and spoil your
pretty eyes,” he added tenderly.
Dora and Alice were married on the same day, though
not by design, or even with the knowledge of the latter,
who had, to the grief and dismay of the little governess,
40lately turned a deaf ear to all confidences, and even frowned
coldly upon proffered sympathy. Unamiable, very; but
Alice had never been particularly amiable. It was a necessity
that both, if they married at all, should do so before
the departure of Mr. and Mrs. Randolph for New York,
whence they were to sail for Europe; and so, one morning,
Alice Randolph, quite alone, stepped into the carriage her
lover had brought, entered St. Mark’s Church a rich woman,
and left it without a penny in the world, except what she
had in her purse.
“And you are sure you will never repent, Alice, my
darling?” asked her husband, when they stood together in
the little parlor of the home he had prepared for her. “It
was hard for you, dear, with not a sister or a friend to look
on at your marriage. Are you quite sure you do not
regret?”
“What, already?” she answered, laughing. “You might
at least give me time. No, sir, I’m not sorry yet, and
never expect to be, in spite of your pessimism.”
“I hope your optimism may be right, my darling.”
“I will make it right,” she cried defiantly, not of him
but fate; “and as for friends, whom do I want but you?
Don’t you suppose I could have had scores of bridemaids?—girls
who would have called you ‘too sweet for anything,’
and considered it ‘so romantic’ to have one’s only brother”—her
eyes filled, but she shook off the tears and went on
merrily. “No, sir, I don’t repent as yet, and don’t mean
to; but, if ever I should, I am very much afraid that you
will be certain to find it out.”
Dora’s wedding took place that same afternoon, but with
scarcely more pomp or circumstance. She had been staying
for some days with Frau Kellar, and in the immediate
neighborhood of the Herr Pastor, to whom, long ere this,
41the buxom Lottie had gained a legal title. The pastor’s
experience in haling into the narrow path this wandering
lamb had not been such as to encourage any further effort
on her behalf; in fact, the lamb had shown, if not the teeth
of a wolf, at least the claws of a cat, and had given her
spiritual guide to understand that she was perfectly competent
to direct her own goings in the way.
“We love each other, Herr Pastor,” she had said, “and
the good God would not have put that into our hearts if He
had wished us not to marry.”
“But the man is an infidel, Fräulein Dora; he does not
believe in God.”
“That is nothing,” answered Dora, smiling. If she had
been able to put into words what she meant, it would have
been something like this, perhaps,—
“Love is of God, and God is love: Karl loves, therefore
he partakes of the being of God; and whether he
professes to believe in Him or not is of very little consequence.”
But carefully remember, dear reader, I am not justifying
little Dora in this conclusion, only stating the argument
as she would have done, had her mental powers been
cultivated up to syllogisms.
The pastor, however, understood her to mean that belief
or unbelief were equally Nichts, and went away sorrowful.
But Karl Metzerott, when he heard of the conversation,
was exceeding wroth, and expressed himself with great
force, in a string of German nouns and adjectives, some of
which began with “ver,” while others referred to well-known
atmospheric phenomena. No such person, he said,
should marry a dog or cat that belonged to him, Karl
Metzerott; if Dora objected to a justice of the peace, there
was the Calvinist minister, and plenty of Americans in the
same business, more was the pity. All ministers were
42thieves and rogues, anyhow, said Karl Metzerott, living on
the charity of their parishioners under pretence of saving
their souls. Souls, indeed!
It was not often that Karl found words for his thoughts
to such an extent as this; but gentle little Dora was unmoved
by the torrent of eloquence. She would not be
married by any one but a minister of God, she said; but
that minister need be by no means the Rev. Otto Schaefer.
“Though, for her part, and though she had been angry at
the time, Dora would always believe that the Herr Pastor
was a good little man, and meant well.”
“He meant to marry you himself, if you call that meaning
well,” growled Karl.
And so they were married by the Episcopal clergyman,
who in the morning of the same day had united Frederick
and Alice; selected by Dora, indeed, for that very reason;
a clergyman of the old, indolent sort, now happily almost
unknown, who married all that were set before him,
pocketed his fee, and asked no questions for conscience
sake. He shall not trouble the reader again, and is of
importance here only because, having been Alice’s pastor
all her life, she was not likely to have been aroused by his
walk or conversation to any consciousness of the deep
things of the spiritual life.
After the ceremony, the happy pair and their friends,
who had witnessed the marriage, partook of a social tea,
for which Frau Kellar provided house-room, and the bridegroom
paid; then, husband and wife went home to their
little three-roomed dwelling, and the new life began.
And then—for a while—how Karl would have laughed
at any pessimistic theories. As for Dora, she would not
have known a theory of any description, if she had stumbled
across one. But she was very, very happy, our little
Dora! Life had not been easy to her,—an orphan, maintained
43and educated by grudging fraternal care, and with
her early hope nipped, in its first flower, by the frost
of death. Now, surrounded by love, her nature blossomed
into a wonderful luxuriance; the wistful blue eyes grew
full of laughter, the sad lips smiled, and the cheeks grew
rosy. She was as merrily busy all day long as a child at
play; and Frau Metzerott the elder found her a daughter
beyond her dreams.
Shoemaker Karl said little; but no king upon his throne
ever more intensely believed his wife a queen among
women. All day he could hear her blithe, sweet voice,
singing over her work, or chatting and laughing with his
mother, who had suddenly failed, now that she had some
one to rest her cares upon. It mattered little, she said;
Dora was eyes, hands, and feet to her; she had worked
hard enough in her time, now she could rest. And so she
lay and rested under her gay, patchwork quilt, upon her
testered bed, while Dora bustled cheerfully about the tiny
kitchen. In the evening, when work was over, she would
often draw the old candle-stand to the bedside, and, with
the yellow lamplight shining on her golden hair, read
aloud from the heavy yellowed pages of the old German
Bible, while Karl sat near with his pipe. Not that he
listened, except to the soft murmur of his wife’s sweet
voice; yet the unheeded words returned to him in after
years, stirring always a new throb of misery.
But at the time the Bible-reading served as a not unpleasant
accompaniment to his pipe, which he would not
for worlds have disturbed or interfered with. “Religion
was an excellent thing for women,” said Karl Metzerott.
During the following summer occurred the great Sängerfest,
the first held by the Sängerbund to which belonged
the Micklegard Männerchor. Karl had been married nearly
six months at the time, and when we say that in all probability
44he would not have gone if he could not have taken
Dora, we have sufficiently indicated that he was still very
much in love with his wife. Fortunately, Laketon, where
the Fest was held, is only a short journey by rail from
Micklegard, so that travelling expenses were light; and he
had cousins in Laketon with whom they could board very
reasonably; nevertheless, the sum expended made a hole
in Karl’s savings-bank account, at which he would have
shaken his head dismally a year before.
With the Sängerfest itself we have nothing to do. Of
course there were processions, concerts, balls, and all the
rest of the routine with which Americans have since become
so familiar; but the only noticeable incident for us is that
when, as their contribution to the prize singing, the Micklegard
Männerchor gave that sweetest of German Volkslieder,
“Bei’m Liebchen zu Haus,” the audience arose as
one man and applauded to the very echo. The prize was
theirs; a result to which, in Dora’s opinion, Karl’s rich
bass had not a little contributed.
She was thinking blissfully of this and other matters,
in the train that bore her homewards, when her attention
was attracted to a conversation going on between two
young men who occupied the seat before her. They were
students of the Laketon University, though this Dora
could not be expected to know; and as one was Irish and
the other a German, even more prone than is the case with
students in general to discuss all things in heaven above,
the earth beneath, and the waters under the earth. They
spoke in English or German as suited their subject-matter
or the impulse of the moment, and the first words that
caught Dora’s attention were these:—
“Have I ever objected to Socialism in itself?”
“What do you call its Self? You seem to object to its
most necessary elements.”
45“By no means. I only say that you Socialists are short-sighted,
and seem to adopt the very measures best calculated
to defeat your own ends.”
“Specify, specify!” growled the German.
“With pleasure. The end at which you profess to aim
is a universal brotherhood among men, a sort of lion and
lamb lying down together all over the world; yet you go
to work, with your secret plots and your assassinations, as
if you were preparing for another Reign of Terror.”
“The Reign of Terror may be necessary beforehand.”
“Very long beforehand, then. You know the story of
the tiger who has once tasted blood. Teaching men to
murder makes them murderers; no less. You can’t build
your social republic out of unsocial Republicans, dear
boy.”
“Oh! get along with your Irish sophistry! A social
republic, as you call it, seems to be, in your eyes, another
Donnybrook Fair!”
“Take your time,” said the Irishman. “When a fellow
falls back on old Donnybrook, I know he’s hard pressed for
an argument.”
“I could prove to you in five minutes that tyrannicide
is not murder, any more than tiger-hunting; and”—warned
by a twinkle in the blue Irish eye,—“far more
righteous than ordinary capital punishment. But, passing
that over for the time, I should like to know what means
you would employ to build a social republic, supposing
you wanted one?”
“Do you suppose I should not hail the advent of true
Socialism as the dawn of new light and life for the
world?”
“Eh? a new convert! But stop! there was a qualifying
word. True Socialism; that is, with all its distinctive
features omitted.”
46“Not at all. Socialism with all its vital organs strengthened
and purified; in short—Christianity.”
“I thought so! Christianity! Why, Christianity has
had her fling for eighteen centuries, and what has she
done?”
“The first thing she did was to establish a commune,”
replied the Irishman. “You can read a full account of it
in the Book of Acts, including the history of some weak
disciples, who, having perhaps been trained in tiger-hunting,
were not fully equal to the occasion during a reign of
peace. As the first recorded experiment in Socialism, it
ought to interest you.”
“But the experiment failed.”
“Failed? In the reign of Tiberius, with Nero and Caligula
and all those fellows to come after? Well, rather!
The world wasn’t quite ready for it, not by some eighteen
centuries, so Christianity fell back on her intrenchments, as
you might say, and, while she reserved the spirit of Socialism,
let go the letter.”
“She did, did she? why, Christians.”
“I’m not talking about Christians. We’re a bad lot,
most of us, but it’s because we don’t live up to our principles.
You read over your Gospels, old boy, and tell me
whether, if they really and vitally influenced the lives of
the majority of Americans, Socialism in its essence—that
is, Liberty, Equality, and Fraternity—would not follow
as a matter of course.”
“Oh! perhaps, yes. I don’t quarrel with your religion
as a system of morality, Clare. It is”—
“I know; miracles. But how a fellow who, not content
with making bricks without straw, tries to build a house
by tearing up the foundations, can quarrel with miracles,
passes my comprehension. Look here. Do you not know
that it is a waste of time to reform society from the outside,
47and especially by main force? The worm at the root
of the social tree, my dear fellow, is sin. How do you
propose to get rid of it?”
“Ah, there indeed,” sighed the German, his metaphysical
soul rising to the bait, “you start the great religious problem,
my friend, with which Zoroaster, Buddha, and other
religious teachers have grappled.”
“And which only Christ has solved,” said Ernest Clare.
Whereupon they rushed into a discussion which, taking
by and by another turn, led them into transcendental mathematics,
and the possible existence of worlds or universes
where a fourth dimension forms part of the usual
order of things; with many wild fancies as to the type of
inhabitants such universes may possess. When Karl hurried
back from the other end of the car to fetch his wife
and change cars for Micklegard, they were still hard
at it.
That night Dora had a singular dream. She stood in a
world which formed part of one of those universes of which
Clare and his companion had spoken; a universe which
admits a fourth, even perhaps a fifth, dimension, and which
must therefore differ so widely from our earth even in the
primary elements that compose what here we call land and
water, that any attempt to describe it were but as the
meaningless babble of an infant.
In the world whereon she stood or floated—for our
commonplace to them would be miraculous, while what we
call miracle is there a daily happening—there was a stir
and moving to and fro, as of leaves swayed by a sudden
breeze. One of their number had willed to leave them, and
seeking our earth—known to him as the theatre of the
wondrous drama of redemption—to don our uniform of
flesh and strike one good blow against sin. And this, by
a law of his world, was possible to him.
48He stood, a tall, radiant figure, before One appointed to
hear such requests and decide upon them.
“Have you thought well upon the matter?” it was asked
him. “It is nothing that, though you may choose to go or
stay, you may by no means choose your post in the battle.
No good soldier would grumble at that; nor, to say truth,
is the difference between what there they call riches and
poverty, high and low, happiness and misery, at all worth
considering. But have you thought upon the horribleness,
the awful, slimy infectiousness, of the foe you must close
with in a death grapple? Have you considered the sinfulness
of sin?”
“I have looked upward to the midnight sky,” he made
answer, “and have beheld the universe that contains earth
floating there, a pale, translucent disk. And when the
thought of sin had stained its purity with the hue of
blood, I have been as one who, bound and helpless, beholds
a fiery serpent approaching, to devour before his eyes a
sleeping, innocent babe.”
“But what,” it was urged, “if you should be overcome
in the struggle? For the serpent is very strong, and his
poison is death.”
“The Life of our King,” he replied, “is stronger than
the death of the serpent.”
“But the choice is forever,” he was told. “Victor or
vanquished, hither you can never return, save as others
have done, in passing from world to world. Man you will
be, and man you must remain forever. Also, you will forget
your world, your friends; and, though broken visions
may float about your infancy, like rainbow hues above the
dewdrops of morning, they will vanish all too soon before
the coming of that sun of earth.”
“Morning and evening are alike His handiwork,” he
replied. “Everywhere and always I shall have Him.”
49Then He who had questioned him arose solemnly. “Thou
bearest with thee the sign of victory,” He said. “Go in
peace.”
And it seemed to Dora as if the tall, radiant form turned
upon her, her alone in all that illimitable throng, a face of
wondrous and eternal beauty. Close it came, and closer
still; now they two were alone in all that measureless universe,
and his lips smiled, and the eyes were the eyes of a
little child.
“Mother!” he said, and kissed her on the lips; wherewith
a strange shuddering thrill of utter bliss shot through
every member. She woke to find the daylight streaming in
at the curtainless window. Her heart was throbbing heavily,
her limbs trembled, and her eyes were full of tears.
50
Do you know, dear reader, how slowly and heavily fall
the first drops of a thunder shower? After a little, when
the storm is fully upon us, when the wind crashes in the
branches of the trees, and sheets of rain beat against the
windows, there is but small account made of a single drop;
but at first, after a day of sunshine, ah! how large and
ominous they seem; and even so is the first coming of
trouble.
It was but a few weeks after the end of the Sängerfest
that a change in Leppel Rolf which had long been silently
operative, began to manifest itself in his outward man.
He grew morose in speech and manner, shabby in his clothing,
negligent of his daily task, more and more absorbed in
his invention, which now neared completion, and as he fondly
hoped, success. Meanwhile, the hope brought something
far from happiness, whatever might be the case with realization.
Anna’s color grew hard, her features sharp, her
eyes anxious, under the pressure of dread for the future,
and the knowledge that Leppel’s savings and her own had
been exhausted to the last penny, and that all which now
stood between them and dire want were her husband’s daily
wages. And Leppel had been of late more than once
sharply reproved by the foreman of the great building firm
for which he worked.
Indeed, Anna could not justly blame the foreman. She
would have scolded, too, if an employé of hers had been
51found dreaming over his work, and drawing plans on the
smooth pine boards, instead of making them into doors.
“If he had looked at the plans, he would have admired,
instead of cursing,” growled Leppel.
“Not if they delayed work he had contracted to finish
by a certain time,” returned Anna shrewdly. “Everything
in its own time and place, Leppel; should I get through
the work I do, if I did not remember that?”
Anna’s practical, clear-seeing spirit did not know the
power of an idea stronger than itself; it was no wonder
she lacked patience. Meanwhile troubles dropped faster
and faster both upon herself and her neighbors.
The old Frau did not wait to receive the little grandson
who came when the June roses bloomed over the land, as
beautiful and sweet as they. Life and death lay together
under the shoemaker’s roof; the old life passively drifting
out of the world, as the young life struggled into being.
It was terrible for Dora, said all the gossips; but, fortunately,
Dora was one of those happy persons who take
everything quietly, so it seemed to do her no harm. Anna
Rolf was at the house day and night, and managed everything,
in spite of the fact that her own domestic anxieties
were daily on the increase. It was owing to her, she
always said afterwards, that little Louis had such splendid
health. She “started him right,” and the start is just
everything to a baby!
There never was such a baby! Of course not. Others
might be as pretty, perhaps as bright and knowing, but what
baby ever was so good and loving since the world began,
or cooed in such varied tones, as sweet as the notes of an
angel’s harp? There was no doubt about it, he was certainly
a remarkable child; and as the young mother lay
upon her bed in the hot, close room, or by and by went
about her work again in the kitchen beneath, many an old
52tale returned to her mind that she had heard in her German
home, of beings from the upper air, higher intelligences
who had come down to teach and bless our sinful
earth. Her wonderful dream also returned to her many
times, and, bending over the little form, she strove to trace
in the unconscious baby features some resemblance to that
strange and beautiful face that had looked so lovingly into
hers. And at times she quite believed she could; when
little Louis’ eyes were suddenly opened, and he looked into
her face with that strange, grave look, the resemblance was
wonderful, thought Dora.
These thoughts she kept to herself; they were sweet and
beautiful, but Karl would only have laughed at her for
them, willing as he was to agree that such a baby as their
boy had seldom, if ever, been seen before.
The grandmother’s testered bed was very convenient for
Louis to lie upon while Dora was busy. They remembered
the old Frau tenderly. “She was a good woman and a hard
worker,” Karl had said gravely. But she was now reaping
the reward of her goodness. Was it possible to wish her
back into such a world as this, especially as her funeral expenses
and Dora’s illness had brought their savings very
low indeed?
And trade began to fall off.
Karl Metzerott had a certain reputation in his own quarter
of Micklegard for the excellence of his work. His
shoes were not fancy shoes, he was wont to say, but he
used only the best leather, and they were every stitch
hand-made. One pair of them would outlast two pairs of
machine-made shoes, he said, and then be half-soled to look
as good as new. But there was no denying that the
machine-made shoes were cheaper to begin with, whatever
they might be in the end; and when business is bad all
over the country, money as tight as wax, and the air filled
53with rumors of a general financial crisis, and complaints of
over-production,—whatever that may be,—why, people
will wear the cheapest things they can find. Perhaps they
reason that the sooner the things wear out the sooner will
the demand catch up with the supply, and the evil of over-production
be remedied; or perhaps it is simply that if a
man have five dollars to buy shoes for his entire family, he
must make it go as far as it will, rather than spend it all
on one member (or pair of members), letting the rest go
barefoot. As to what he shall do when the cheap shoes
are gone, why, he must just resort to the expedient of
which the rest of us avail ourselves when everything else
has proved unsuccessful,—he must trust in Providence.
Whatever the cause, Metzerott saw his best customers
pass his door in machine-made shoes; but he did derive a
sort of cynical pleasure from noticing how soon the shoes
were brought to him to be mended and patched.
“I must work over hours, and lower my prices,” he said
to Dora; and, though the latter could not quite understand
why he must overwork, when rows of unsold shoes stood
upon his shelves, she made no objection, as the idea seemed
to comfort him.
Lowering the prices, however, had an excellent effect;
and though the shoes were sold at little more than cost, it
was certainly less depressing than to see them hanging
there so helplessly, or staring from the shelves with their
toes turned out in the first position, in such an exasperating
manner.
Anna Rolf also felt the hard times, even more than the
Metzerotts, since “every woman her own dressmaker” is
an easier problem to solve than how to make one’s own
shoes. Leppel had been discharged at last,—got the sack,
as he expressed it; not before he had richly earned, as one
might candidly admit, all that the sack might contain.
54But oh! for the innocent who suffer with the guilty, in
this world of ours! There is never a jewelled cup of gold
in the mouth of any sack for them.
Leppel’s family bade fair to have very little in their own
mouths for a while, with the father out of work, and Anna
expecting to be again laid aside from hers for a season.
“But you have no rent to pay, that is one thing,” said
Dora comfortingly, “and we will take care of the children,
Karl and Louis and I. Do you suppose I can forget how
good you were to me?”
Leppel himself could have lived on air, in his present
tension of mind and body. His model was at last completed;
more, it actually worked. It was indeed a beauteous
little machine, and the admiration of the whole
quarter; so that, in spite of the hard times, he had been
able to borrow five dollars here and ten there, until he had
raised enough to pay the necessary fees at the patent-office.
“But if you take my advice,” said one of the lenders
(the loans were all to be secured by shares in the patent),
“you’ll get a man I know in Washington to look into it for
you. I believe he has that patent-office at his finger-ends,
and it’s a regular picnic to hear him tell why this model
was a failure, and that, not half so good, perhaps, took like
hot cakes. Just send your machine to him. It looks to
me like a pretty good thing, but”—
“I’ll take it to him,” answered Leppel sharply.
He did take it to him.
The man of knowledge inspected it closely, and carefully
studied every motion. Then he thoughtfully stroked
his beard, which was long and luxuriant (perhaps from
excess of knowledge) to the point of aggressiveness.
“Yes,” he said slowly. “Yes, yes. Seems pretty clever:
ingenious, too; works all right; labor-saving, no doubt of
55that. Might be a very good thing; but I’m afraid, Mr.
Rolf, I’m afraid there’s no money in it. In fact,” for you
see the man of knowledge had had other interviews with
inventors, and he knew that things must be broken to them
gently, “in fact, there’s a what-you-call-‘em already in the
office, enough like yours to be its own brother.”
“Impossible! I never heard of it!” stammered the
inventor.
“Oh! I don’t suppose you did; case of great minds
thinking alike, you know. Bless your soul, it happens
every day! Not the same machine, you know,” with an
emphasis as if it might possibly have been the same something
else; “but like it; just enough like it for yours to
be an infringement on the patent, if the patent was worth
anything, which it ain’t.”
“Then my invention is surely not the same,” said poor
Leppel, in his labored English; for, though he had twice
helped to elect a President, he had lived in America only
ten years. “Have you not already said it was good and
labor-saving?”
“Oh, it’s all that,” said the man of knowledge easily;
“but the fact is, it didn’t pay. It was tried, you know.
The man who owned it,—not the inventor, who sold it for a
song and was happy ever after, as the story-books say,—but
the man who bought it—well, he was pretty warm
about the pockets, so he did some extensive advertising,
and started up his works in fine style; but the machines
cost like fun to make, especially at first; if they had taken,
you know, he could have run things on a bigger scale, and
so made ‘em cheaper; but they didn’t take. They save
muscle, of course; but you see most of us have muscle, and
very few of us money. That’s about the English of it, I
guess. If they’d saved time, now, or money, ’twould have
been different.”
56“What became of him?” asked Leppel gloomily.
“The inventor? don’t know; clever fellow, though,
ought to succeed at something; maybe not the first thing
he tried, but something. Oh! you mean the holder of the
patent? Failed, and blew his brains out afterwards; can’t
say but it served him right, either.”
“It served him quite right,” cried the inventor fiercely;
“he took advantage of the other man’s necessities”—
“But we all do that, you know, Mr. Rolf,” said the man
of knowledge. “I never came across a patent yet that
was run on Gospel principles. What I blame this fellow
for is for letting himself go before he examined into
things. Pen and ink are cheap, and arithmetic taught for
nothing; and he ought to have known human nature well
enough to see that he hadn’t struck a paying job. Well,
don’t be discouraged; go home and invent something that
is cheap to make, and knocks Father Time into the middle
of next week—some improvement in the telegraph, for
instance, so a man can hear yesterday how stocks stood
day after to-morrow—and you’ll make a fortune yet.
Good-night. Oh, don’t mention it! I’ve really enjoyed
our little talk; took me back twenty years.”
Twenty years! So his fixed idea, his Moloch, to whom
he had sacrificed work, wife, and children, his machine
that was to have enabled them to live like princes, had been
tried and failed, while he was still a happy schoolboy in
Germany! He took the night train for home, and sat gazing
into the blank darkness outside the window, his beloved
model still carefully cherished upon his knees,—why,
he scarcely knew. The conductor shook him twice
before he heard the demand for his ticket, and then he
only turned his head and stared stupidly, so that the other
took the bit of pasteboard himself from the hat-band,
where Leppel had mechanically placed it.
57“He ain’t drunk,” the conductor said to the brakeman,
afterwards, as they stood together on the front platform;
“so he must be either crazy or a blank fool.”
The brakeman inspected Leppel through the glass of the
door, and concerted measures with the conductor, to be
taken if the supposed maniac should become violent. But
there was no danger of violence from poor Leppel. He
had not yet begun to realize what had happened to him;
only he felt queer, and very numb and stupid.
The numbness and stupidity had not worn off when he
stepped upon the platform, at Micklegard, of the station
nearest his home. The model was heavy, and he was just
alive enough to resolve to leave it at the ticket-office. The
clerk was known to him, and recognized immediately the
package of which he was asked to take charge.
“What?” he said with cheerful consternation, “fetched
it back, after all? No go, eh?”
“No,” said Leppel, slowly and stupidly, “it was no go.”
He walked away bent and draggingly. The clerk looked
after him, then stowed the model carefully away on a high
shelf. “Well, I’m blest!” he said. “I certainly am!”
It was barely daylight of a January morning, and in the
upper windows of his home, when he reached it, shone a
faint light. A feeble baby wail came down the staircase
as he opened the door. Leppel was not too stupid to
understand that. Another mouth to be fed; that was what
the cry meant to the house-father who had thrown away
his children’s daily bread in pursuit of a shadow. He
climbed the steep stairs that led up directly from the little
parlor to his bedroom door, where Dora met him, smiling
kindly.
“She is doing well,” she said, “and it is another fine boy.
But, oh!” as she noticed the look upon his face, “don’t
tell her any bad news if you can help it.”
58“If I can help it,” he said assentingly. His brain
seemed only equal to repeating what was said to him. He
went into the room, and sat upon a chair by Anna’s bedside.
They had been bad friends for some time, but he was
scarcely awake enough to dread her tongue now.
“Well,” she said angrily, “have you nothing to say?
You might tell me you are glad I am safe through with it.”
“I am glad,” he said obediently, “that you are safe
through with it.”
“And you had better be,” she cried. “I don’t know
what your children would have done without me,—such a
father as they have! Here! don’t you care to see your
baby?”
She pulled the cover from its face, and he inspected it
with the same dull obedience, but beginning now to be unpleasantly
conscious of Anna’s angry eyes. Yet all the
while the old love was tugging at her heartstrings, as she
read in his face and bearing the story of his failure. But
she would not spare him; Anna had not learned to spare
either herself or others.
“And your invention? Of course that was a failure, as
I always told you!”
“Yes,” he said in English, recalling the words of the
ticket-clerk, “yes, it was no go.”
“And the money all wasted, and your place thrown away,
and my children starving!” she cried, her voice growing
louder and shriller with each particular; “and now the
great stupid fool tells me it was no go. No go!” She
broke into wild, hysterical laughter, and beat upon her head
with her work-worn hands.
They must have turned him out of the room, Leppel
supposed, for he found himself in the open air without very
well knowing how he came there. There was a heavy fog;
and, well though he knew the streets, he was again surprised
59to find himself suddenly standing upon the bridge across the
Mickle River, which at this season of the year, especially
after such mild weather as had lately prevailed, was apt
to be very high, and, with the melting of the snow in the
mountains, to overflow its banks, and work mischief to all
in its way.
Leppel stood for some moments stupidly and fixedly regarding
the swift, turbid current. Did he lose his balance?
Was he seized with sudden giddiness? Or was it a deliberate
plunge? No one ever knew.
The policeman who saw him fall had help upon the spot
as quickly as it was possible to do so; but it was only the
earthly frame of Leopold Rolf that was rescued from the
angry waters. The soul of the man whose invention would
not pay had gone to carry its cause before the Great
Inventor, the Maker of heaven and earth.
60
Anna Rolf arose from her bed with her beauty wasted,
her youth gone. Instead of the brilliant, joyous girl, there
remained the sharp-featured, sharp-tongued woman, whose
sound health, clear head, and practical abilities were now,
instead of a source of self-satisfaction, viewed by herself
merely as a stock in trade, her only capital for the business
of taking care of her children. For Leppel’s life insurance
had been forfeited by the doubt cast upon the
manner of his death, and their tiny home was mortgaged
to its full value. Even the money designed to purchase
his patent had to be returned to those from whom it had
been borrowed, some of whom, bad as were the times, declined
to receive it, and others would receive only a part;
so that fifty dollars in all were left to help the fatherless
and widow begin the world for themselves. It was a very
good thing, as every one agreed, that Leppel had left his
wallet in the pocket of his overcoat, which he had not
remembered to put on before he wandered out to his death
through that January fog.
The house was sold to satisfy the mortgage, and Anna
rented two rooms on the third floor of the tall building that
overshadowed the shoemaker’s dwelling to the left. Here
she established herself as a dressmaker, but for a while
found little custom. Karl and Dora had been her true
friends throughout, with that sort of friendship which resides
not only in the heart but the pocket. Indeed, but for
61them it is doubtful whether she could have weathered the
first six months of her widowhood; for Leppel’s relations,
who were all in the Far West, had, it is true, helped with
his funeral expenses, but declined to be troubled further.
He had always been a sort of ugly duckling among those
shrewd, close-fisted people—that quiet, silent, unpractical
dreamer; but they were very sorry, notwithstanding, that,
in spite of his excellent wife, he had come to such a bad
end.
“Under the Commune,” said Karl Metzerott, with an
added bitterness derived from his own personal aggrievement,
“Leppel would be alive and an honored citizen.”
“I don’t know,” said Dora doubtfully. “That man in
Washington, you know, says that the machine would not
pay. Would the Commune adopt a machine that would
not pay?”
“It would pay, under the Commune,” replied Karl; but
as this point belonged to the domain of the unprovable,
Dora did not argue upon it.
“Well,” she said, “at least the Commune would not have
been kinder to him than his own wife and his own relations.”
“Any woman might be unkind who saw her children
threatened with starvation,” he answered gloomily.
“Yes,” she answered hesitatingly, loath to condemn
Anna, yet feeling in her own soul, that she, Dora, would
have acted very differently. Then, with a sudden brightness,
“Anyway, Karl, the Commune wouldn’t make much
difference to us. We shouldn’t be much better off, and we
should not act any differently.”
“We’re pretty good Communists, you and I,” he said
with a grim smile, “but what have we got by it? I tell
you, Dora, we’ve got to live very close for the next year or
so, if we mean to catch up.”
“I know it,” she answered, smiling; “and, Karl, I’ve
62thought of a way to save quite a lot of money. If Anna
and her three children can live in two rooms, why can’t
we? Then we could rent our bedroom, and, when winter
comes, that would save coal. For you know we should be
obliged to have a fire there on account of Louis,” she
added apologetically.
“If you don’t mind, I don’t,” he said carelessly. “It
won’t rent for much, though; but it will give you less to
do,” with a rather anxious glance at the form and face of
his wife. Indeed, Dora was not looking well; she had
grown very thin, and her eyes looked pathetically large and
blue in her white face. But she laughed off all anxiety;
she might be a little pulled down by the warm weather,
she said, but that was all.
The next day, a placard appeared in the shop window
bearing, in the large, beautiful Italian hand Dora had
learned in her German school, the words, “Room for Rent.”
But a day or two passed before it attracted any attention.
On Sunday afternoon Dora and Louis were sitting in the
shop door, enjoying the cool evening air after a heavy
thunder storm, when two passers-by stopped to consider the
announcement, with an air that evidently meant business.
For a moment Dora’s heart failed her, then it swelled
with sympathy, while baby Louis opened his blue eyes and
stared with all his might. Anything quite so tall, and
painfully, terribly thin as the elder of these two women,
he had never seen in all his little life. When she turned
to address Dora, a moment later, she showed a face with
large, strongly marked features, whereupon an expression
of hopeless patience sat but ill. Her companion was
shorter, and of a thinness less painfully apparent; with
a face from which all expression, even that of patience,
seemed to have been crushed out. It was dull, blank, and
hopeless; that was all. They were dressed in thin, shabby
63calico, bonnets, of which shabby would be too flattering a
description, and faded plaid shawls, which they kept so
closely drawn over their wasted bosoms that, considering
the warmth of the evening, they must have served to
cover further defects in their costume. Their voices, when
they spoke, were low and weak, not so much from physical
weakness—for there was no sign of any actual disease
upon either—as with a weary consciousness that speaking
louder would not better their condition.
“What rent do you ask for this room, ma’am?”
“We did wish to get one dollar a month,” replied Dora,
in her pretty German-English.
The woman shook her head.
“I guess it’s worth it too,” she said; “but we ain’t got it
to pay. Come, Susan.”
“Stop one minute,” cried Dora as they were about to
move on; “how much do you wish to pay?”
“‘Taint wishin’, ma’am; it’s what we can do. We’ve
been paying seventy-five cents a month, ever sence we
come to town, Susan and me; but times is hard, and yesterday
our landlady raised the rent on us, so we’ve got
to quit.”
“I might let you have it for seventy-five,” said the
young mother softly. Louis seemed to agree with her, for
he had already struggled down from her lap, and was
clinging triumphantly to Susan’s thin hand, which she had
involuntarily put out to help him. Louis was not fond
of sitting in laps, much preferring his own two sturdy legs
as a means of support.
“He’s a pretty child,” said the elder woman with a dull
glance at him. “I used to be fond of children, but, law!
it’s no use trying to be fond of nothin’ in this world.
There ain’t time.”
“Won’t you sit down?” said Dora. “I will bring chairs,
64and you can tell me about yourselves. Or will you come
and see the room?”
“’Most any room will suit us if the rent does,” replied
the woman. “We ain’t particular, and looking at rooms
takes time.”
Dora, with Louis clinging to her skirts, brought seats,
and the elder woman continued speaking just where she
had left off. Indeed, it seemed as though she had at one
time been a voluble talker; but that also had been crushed
out of her.
“But, of course, you want to know about us, ma’am.
Our name is Price,—Susan and Sally Price, and we’ve kep’
respectable, ma’am, though it’s been hard work. We are
sewing women; work for Grind and Crushem,—that large
shirt factory at the end of Blank Street.”
“It must be hard work,” said Dora pitifully.
“Well, it ain’t easy,” said Sally Price; “not even as
easy as it might be. Some of the factories are running
machines by steam, and having all the work done on the
premises; but our bosses are too stingy for that. I should
think it would pay ‘em, though, in the end.”
“I will let you have the room,” said Dora. “When do
you want to come?”
Decidedly, Dora was a very bad business woman; a
short-sighted, easily gulled, and far from sharp business
woman.
“We’d like to come to-night, so’s to be ready to go to
work early to-morrow morning,” answered Miss Price with
some show of animation. “But won’t your husband swear
at you, for lettin’ it go so cheap?”
“He never swears at me,” said Dora, smiling, blushing,
and shaking her head at the same time, until she looked
so pretty that even the blank face of Susan Price gained a
little life and almost smiled. She held out her hand to
65Louis, who was again struggling towards her, and volunteered
her first contribution to the conversation.
“Your only one?” she asked.
“Yes, my only one, and so good. He is no trouble at
all,” answered Dora proudly.
“Some folks are happy in this world and some ain’t,”
said Susan Price. “I s’pose it’s all right, or it wouldn’t be
so.”
“You’d better have some tea with me,” returned pitiful
Dora, moved almost to tears by the sad patience of this
speech. “Then I can show you the room. I’d like you to
see it. It has been our own bedroom, but we have spent
so much money lately that we must try to save a little. Is
there anything to be brought from your other room?”
“Our machine and some clo’es; not many. Susan and
me can bring ‘em. It’s just around the corner. You see,
we generally sew Sundays as well as other days. You
won’t mind if you hear the machine on Sunday, ma’am?”
“If you must, you must,” said Dora. “I knit on Sunday,
often; I am German. But it is pity; you should rest.”
“Oh! we never rest,” said Sally quietly. “But maybe
it’s Sabbath-breakin’ that brings us such bad luck. I don’t
know; but I don’t see how to help it.”
Metzerott, coming home to his tea, just at this moment,
and learning the state of affairs, pooh-poohed the idea of any
one but himself fetching the machine and “clo’es” of his new
lodgers. Perhaps he wanted an opportunity to make those
inquiries, for which Dora’s inexperience had not seen the necessity.
Their former landlady, however, gave the Prices
a high character for quietness, respectability, and prompt
pay, “reg’lar as Sat’day evenin’ come.” They were poor
and half starved, she said, but the Lord knew that wasn’t
their fault; they had lodged with her ever since they came
from the country, two years ago, and she thought they
66would have done better to go out to service; but, at first,
they were too proud, she supposed, and now they looked so
sick and down-trodden, no respectable person would hire
either one of them. Well, Lord knew what this world was
coming to, anyway. She would not have raised the rent if
she could have helped it; but her husband—and here
came an apprehensive glance over her shoulder, which
fully accounted for Miss Price’s ideas as to swearing.
So the Prices came to be an institution in the Metzerott
household; but it was very doubtful whether Dora’s savings
were greatly increased thereby, even in the matter of steps.
For she was always running up those steep, narrow stairs,
with Baby Louis on one arm and a plate of raisin bread in
the other hand, or perhaps the coffee-pot, if she had “made
more than Karl and she could drink, and it never is good
warmed over.”
Karl had drank warmed-over coffee many a time, and
said so smilingly. His wife’s efforts at economy were a
constant amusement to him; but he never interfered but
once. That was on a day in the late fall, when a sudden
cold snap seemed doubly disagreeable, because nobody’s
system had had time to adjust itself to winter requirements.
The Prices were not supposed to need adjustment,
or, perhaps, by any but Dora, to possess systems; their
room was heated by whatever superfluity of hot air might
escape from the kitchen. On cold days, this was too little;
in moderate weather, too much; only on one or two halcyon
days of all the three hundred and sixty-five was that small,
poor chamber of a comfortable temperature; but the Prices
were used to discomfort, and, especially now that they
could warm their fingers at Dora’s fire, when they grew
numb and useless from cold, would have scorned to complain.
So, on this particular cold morning, Karl heard a
sudden crash in the kitchen, and, hurrying to the spot,
67leathern apron and all, found Dora, very white and trembling,
looking into his face with eyes like those of a frightened
deer.
She had only been going to make a little fire for the
Prices, she said; poor souls, she felt so sorry for them;
and the hod had slipped from her hand, some way or
other.
Poor little frail hand, and fluttering, feeble pulse! such
deeds of charity as this are beyond your power henceforth.
Karl took in the situation in all its bearings: the thinness
of the once rounded form, the panting breath, the varying
cheek, the hand unconsciously pressed to the side, the
dark, pathetic hollowing of the beautiful eyes. Then he
said something beginning with “tausend,” which would
have been totally inadequate had it begun with a million,
picked up from the floor the scattered lumps of coal, carried
up the hod, and made the fire himself, all in stern, dead
silence. But the Prices might make the most of that
cheerful blaze; it was the last that glowed upon their
hearth for many a long, long day.
Karl had not been blind to the change that had come
over Dora, and he would have joyfully given his life—this
mortal life, which he held to be all—if he could have
lightened the slow, feeble step that smote so heavily upon
his heart, or planted anew the delicate roses in her cheek.
But what could he do?
His work, which now was chiefly mending, paid poorly,
and took up all his time; yet what should they do without
it, if he gave his days to helping and nursing Dora? He
would willingly have hired some one to do the work for
her; but where was the money to come from? Besides,
except carrying coal, which he could do at odd times, there
was nothing, Dora said, in the work itself to tire any one,
if she had not been just a little run down and under the
68weather to begin with. Karl must not worry, she would
soon pick up when the spring came again.
Especially, it was not the care of little Louis that tired
her; never was there a child that gave so little trouble.
He seemed to know by instinct that she was not well, she
said, and was as good and quiet as possible, playing as contentedly
with a few scraps of leather from his father’s
bench, and a string of spools given him by Frau Anna, as
if they had been toys of ivory and gold. So far from being
a trouble, he was even a help, and certainly a comfort to
her. It was only to Louis that Dora confided how her head
ached and throbbed, and the incessant cough racked her
feeble body; and Louis listened with serious blue eyes and
rapt attention. It was a very interesting story indeed, he
thought; almost equal to that of the dead canary they
found one December morning on the window-sill; as to
which he never tired of hearing how it had strayed from its
home, and perished in the bitter night. And, though of
either tale he could have understood but little, his sympathy
was always ready, and he stroked the bird’s cold
feathers and his mother’s aching forehead with soft baby
fingers, saying pityingly, “Oh! my, my, my.” These were
the only words at his command, but they satisfied Dora.
Dr. Richards, for whose skill she had a respect amounting
to veneration, had prescribed for the cough, and for
a while it had seemed better; but it grew worse after one
bitter morning when she had run over to the butcher’s
with a shawl pinned over her head, and blown back from
her chest by the icy wind.
And then came a time when help came in unhired and
unsought, when Dora lay powerless upon the grandmother’s
testered bed, with Baby Louis beside her, happy in her
society and his string of spools. It was a great treat to
have his mamma so close beside him all day long; and he
69was by no means pleased when their tête-à-tête was broken
by a visit from Dr. Richards, though the latter did his best
to look cheerful. Metzerott stood also by the bed, but
would by no means smile or play “Peep-bo” with Louis, so
absorbed was he in listening to the doctor. But “acute
pleuro-pneumonia” had no meaning whatever to a baby
mind; so the child shook his plump little hand, and said
“Bye-bye” very politely to the doctor, as a signal that the
visit might as well be brought to a close. Dr. Richards,
however, whose heart was very tender towards children,
and who had a little maiden babe about Louis’ age, remembered
to bring him a little harmless candy the next day,
and they became quite good friends during the few days of
Dora’s illness.
For there came a day when he was carried up to Frau
Anna’s narrow quarters, and played all day very happily
with Fritz, Annie, and little George. This was nice indeed,
if his mamma had but been there to share his pleasure.
Very often he paused in his fun to call her, “Mamma!
Mamma!” in his sweet bird-like voice. Frau Anna cried
when he did so, and called him “poor motherless lamb,”
which he considered a new kind of game, and laughed at
delightedly.
The next day was Christmas itself; but if Louis had had
a longer experience in Christmases, he would surely have
considered that he celebrated that blessed feast in a most
singular manner. For he was taken to his own home,
where, in the shop, several neighbors were assembled, all
with solemn faces, and some shedding tears. Louis sat on
his father’s knee, and surveyed them all, until his attention
was caught by a long black box in the middle of the room,
near which stood Pastor Schaefer. The box had shining
handles, which took his baby fancy immensely; so he
slid suddenly from his father’s hold, and, before any one
70could stop him, rushed across the room, and seized the
bright handle with a joyous shout.
The women present broke into loud sobs, but no one interfered
with him; and he played with his new toy all
through the pastor’s prayer and exhortation. Then some
one lifted him up, and there in the box lay his mamma,
white and still, with closed eyes. But this also was part
of the game, thought Louis; and his baby laugh rang out
strangely in the silent room. Then, as she took no notice,
he pulled at her dress, saying impatiently, “Up! Up!”
and when, for the first time in all his little life, she was
deaf to his voice, his rosy lip quivered, and he burst into
tears of helpless, hopeless, baby grief.
There followed a long drive in a close carriage,—quite a
new experience, which he would have better enjoyed had
the curtains been up, and his companions not quite so
silent. He sat very still on his father’s knee, one dimpled
hand clasped in that of Frau Anna, who sat beside him.
The Price sisters were opposite, grieving sincerely for poor
Dora, it is true; but they had been surprised that morning
by a box from their old country home, containing such a
store of eatables as would last them a long while, and
grief and surprise together had so lightened the usual
blank monotony of their faces that they looked almost
happy.
This air of relief Karl Metzerott saw and resented, as
he resented the garlanded shop windows, the bright faces
of the passers-by, even the crisp air and sparkling sunshine.
What right had the world to rejoice and be glad, when his
young wife lay dead in her coffin, murdered by those very
rich men whose gay carriages rattled past the hearse that
bore her to her grave, in whose coffers lay buried the
wealth that would have saved her?
From this day the shoemaker grew more silent and
71gloomy, less fond of the society of his fellows, more given
to sullen brooding over the wrongs of the poor and the
cruelty, oppression, and self-indulgence of the rich. It
was well that to this temper Baby Louis served as a safety
valve; for Karl kept stern silence when social questions
were debated at Männerchor Hall or other places of friendly
meeting. What did they know about it, he said scornfully,
not one of whom had ever lost a Dora? Besides, until the
time for action came, why waste one’s strength in words?
But he grew eloquent when Louis sat upon his knee in
the late twilight, while he smoked his pipe; and the child,
with grave blue eyes upraised to his father’s face, listened
to tales of wrong and oppression as other children hearken
to the woes of Cinderella or the terrible fate of Rothkäppchen.
They were always together. Metzerott rose very early,
dressed Louis, prepared breakfast, and tidied the kitchen,
all much more handily than could have been expected.
Then father and son departed hand in hand to the shop,
where all day long the child played happily with his few
poor toys, or sat by his father’s side, watching, entranced,
the movements of his skilful hands.
Metzerott asserted that the boy brought him good luck,
and certainly his trade had greatly improved; but prosperity
had rather a hardening than a softening effect, since it
had come too late to save his wife.
And still he poured out all his anger, grief, and hardness
of heart to little Louis, and felt, perhaps, gentler and more
forgiving for the telling, like King David when he had
cried to God in the Psalms for vengeance on his enemies.
72
“Papa!” said Louis, one autumn evening. The child,
just five years old, was perched, as usual, upon his father’s
knee, his golden head nestled against his father’s breast.
They were an oddly contrasted pair; Metzerott, with his
powerful, yet apparently clumsy frame, brown, rugged face,
and hair just beginning—though he was not yet forty
years old—to be touched with gray, while Louis had his
mother’s face, refined and spiritualized into absolute loveliness.
His grave blue eyes could be merry enough at
times; but as he lifted them now to his father’s face, there
was a solemn purity in their gaze, at sight of which Metzerott
drew the boy closer to his breast, in a sudden, irrational
terror of losing him.
“Well,” he said.
“Papa, why did my mamma die?” He spoke a baby
patois, half English, half German, which we should vainly
attempt to reproduce.
“Because we are poor, my son, and were even poorer
then. If your mother could have been nursed and done
for, like a rich lady with plenty of money and crowds of
servants, she would have been alive now. Money, my boy,
was the medicine she needed.”
“If I were President,” said Louis after a thoughtful
pause, “I would make more money, so that every one
might have enough.”
Metzerott smiled, even while he shook his head. “There’s
73money enough, or so people say, and making more would
only lower the value of what there is. That was tried
during the war, Louis. The trouble is that all the money
is in too few hands. Some have more than enough, and
others have nothing. As if I should eat all the dinner,
you know, and leave none for you.”
“You wouldn’t do that,” said Louis confidently.
“Nor the millionnaires sha’n’t much longer,” said Metzerott.
“When we get the Commune, Louis, every man
who has more than he needs—yes, and we’ll cut his
‘needs’ down pretty close, too—will have to divide with
his poor neighbors.”
“What is ‘’vide’?” asked Louis, who had often heard
of the Commune.
Metzerott showed him practically, by means of a box of
lead soldiers that had been given to the child that day, and
which was cherished fondly in one chubby arm.
“Now,” said the shoemaker, arranging these in two files
upon his mother’s old candle-stand, which stood at his
elbow, “now, if you were to give half of these to George
Rolf, and keep this row for yourself, that would be dividing
with him.”
“I fink,” said Louis, “I don’t like ’viding.”
“No more will the millionnaires,” said Metzerott, laughing;
“but if you were George, my boy, with no lead
soldiers at all to play with, maybe you’d like it better.
Why, Louis, there is money enough in the country to buy
every poor man in it all that he needs; and there is food
enough grown every year to fill every hungry mouth from
Maine to Florida; yet people die by hundreds, like your
poor mother, of want and toil, just because those who have
won’t divide with those who have not.”
“I will,” said Louis, “I’ll ’vide my soldiers with George,
right away.”
74“George is abed long ago,” said Metzerott, surprised,
amused, and a little touched, at this unexpected result of
his lecture; “and high time you were there, too. Put off
your ’viding until to-morrow.”
He was still more astonished, and almost remorseful,
next morning, to see the child march off, with a very sober
face, and his box of soldiers under his arm. Frau Anna’s
rooms were still in the topmost story of the house next
door; and Louis climbed the stairs patiently, and arrived
panting, but resolute, at the familiar door.
“George,” he said, “I’ve come to ’vide my soldiers with
you.”
“Du Engelchen!” cried Frau Anna, dropping her sewing
to clasp her hands. “Who put that into your head,
my lamb?”
“Papa,” said Louis. “It’s so every one will have enough
to eat and to wear,” he added explanatorily.
“Du lieber Himmel!” said Frau Anna, “much good your
’viding will do, you poor baby. Folks as poor as us must
keep all we get for ourselves.”
Louis was happily far too busy to hear this speech, with
which, as we know, Frau Anna’s practice did not exactly
correspond. The question of dividing offered sufficient
practical difficulty to absorb his whole attention; but by
following his father’s example and marshalling his army
into two columns, he at last succeeded, to the mutual satisfaction
of himself and his playmate.
Time passed very happily until noon, when Louis trotted
home, to announce to his father that it was “nice to ’vide.
When we bofe play togevver, it’s as good as if they was all
mine,” he said.
For all reply, Metzerott produced a brown paper package
of a charmingly mysterious shape, and watched with a lurking
smile the eager little fingers struggle with the string.
75“Oh! what is it?” cried little Louis.
It was of tin, painted in gay colors, and it spun upon the
floor, upon being wound, with a loud humming noise.
“Now,” said Metzerott, when the first edge of delight
had worn off, “how about George? you can’t divide a top
with him.”
“No,” returned Louis with a mournful shake of his
head, “you can’t ’vide one top.”
He leaned his chin upon his two plump hands, as he
sat tailor fashion on the floor, and delivered himself up to
contemplation of the top, which lay just where it had
toppled over from its last spin, as if there were inspiration
in its gaudy hues. Presently he looked up brightly.
“I know,” he said, “we can spin it togevver, and it can
be bofe of ours. That’s the only way to ’vide a top!”
“You’re your mother’s own son,” said Metzerott. “Come,
dinner is ready, let’s see how you ’vide that. There’s a
splendid pot of soup, enough for a dozen; so never say
your father can’t cook.”
But scarcely had they seated themselves at the table
when a heavy fall in the room above was followed by two
shrill, feeble, feminine shrieks. Metzerott ran hastily up
the stairs, which he had not ascended since the death of
his wife, followed more slowly by Louis, to whom they
were more familiar, though the silent pre-occupation of the
sisters had not tended to encourage his visits.
The Prices had recently taken a young niece to share
their room, and earn her own bread if she could; and she
it was who now lay upon the floor with her head upon
Sally’s thin bosom, while Susan chafed the unconscious
hand, and wept. She was evidently quite young, and the
battle with want and toil, while it had wasted her form
and paled her cheek, had not lasted long enough to destroy
her youth and beauty.
76“She ain’t used to it yet, Mr. Metzerott,” said Sally Price
half apologetically. “I’m sorry to disturb you at your
dinner, sir, specially if it’s as good as it smells. Them that
has ought to enjoy,” she added without a trace of bitterness.
“I’m not caring for my dinner,” answered Metzerott
roughly. “I’ll get her some whiskey; that’s what she
wants.”
There was silence in the room until he returned, except
that, when Louis, not seeing any other way of being useful,
wiped the eyes of the weeping Susan with his blue-checked
gingham apron, she asked Sally if it wasn’t
beautiful to see how that child favored his mother, to
which Sally replied that the Lord knew it was indeed.
The whiskey, which Metzerott procured at the nearest
saloon, was vile stuff perhaps, but it brought back the
color to Polly’s white lips.
“She’ll do now, Mr. Metzerott, and thank you kindly,”
said Miss Price. “We’ve got a little bread here we can
give her; and this is Saturday, bless the Lord, so we’ll be
able to buy more.”
“More bread?” asked Metzerott, who, man-like, had
never attained to a realizing sense of his lodgers’ domestic
affairs, “is that all you’ve got to give her?”
“It’s all we ever have,” replied Sally calmly. “Bless
you, sir, what can you expect, with shirts five cents a
dozen? But Polly, she was raised in the country, till her
father and mother both died in one week with the typhoid,
and her brother got married; and she come to the city to
better herself, the Lord help her! So, what with not being
used to sewing so constant, and nothing to eat, so to speak,
and the smell of your dinner, Mr. Metzerott,—though I’m
the last to begrutch it to you, sir, as works as hard as any,
and has had your own troubles,—why, her head turned
giddy, and she fainted clean away. That’s all, sir.”
77“And quite enough, too,” said Metzerott, watching how,
as she spoke, Sally fed her niece with fragments of bread,
dipped in the whiskey and water,—not a very palatable refreshment,
one would suppose, yet Polly swallowed it eagerly.
“Now, that’s enough liquor for the present, Polly Price,”
said her aunt; “you can eat the rest of your bread dry,
and be thankful you’ve got it. She’s a good girl, Mr. Metzerott,
and a pretty girl, though I say so; and there’s them
that has eyes to see it, and would keep her like a queen if
she would listen to their wicked words.”
Polly groaned, and hid her face upon her aunt’s thin
shoulder.
“It’s young Crushem, the contractor’s son,” continued
Sally. “And when he spoke to her as I tell you, sir, Polly
she comes home, and she says, says she, ‘It’s hard to put
the bread from your mouth when you’re starving,’ she says.
And then Susan there, she says, ‘It’s only putting off the
starving a bit, Polly,’ says she. ‘Money made that way
don’t never last long, and you’ll come to the garret and the
crust at last,’ says she. ‘But he’s promised to settle money
on me, so as I could take care of you both,’ says Polly.
‘Bless you, Polly Price,’ says I, ‘we’re used to it,’ says I;
‘we can stand it if you can,’ says I. And Polly, she says,
kinder cryin’, ‘I thought I couldn’t, Aunt Sally,’ she says.
‘I told him I’d think over it, and I’d about made up my
mind to say yes; but when that child downstairs looked
at me with his solemn blue eyes, I knew I’d better starve
than be a wicked girl,’ says Polly.”
Metzerott had listened to this long story with a frown of
sympathy contracting his rugged features. But at this
point a hand pulled at his short working-jacket, and a sweet
voice said, “Papa, don’t you think we’d better ’vide our
dinner? There’s soup enough for a dozen, and don’t ever
say my father can’t cook!”
78Metzerott caught the boy in his arms. “Do you hear
the emperor?” he cried. “Louis Napoleon must be
obeyed. Come down to dinner, all of you!”
It was good to see the starving women eat, and Louis’
face bright with the joy of ’viding. Metzerott, as he
watched them, knew not whether to be glad or sorrowful.
That there should be no more starving under his roof he
was quite determined, yet how to take upon himself the
support of three full-grown women? At last a happy
thought came to him.
“I have been thinking,” he said, when the meal was
over, and his guests were regretfully wiping their mouths,
“I have been thinking, Miss Sally, what a convenience it
would be to me if one of you ladies would do my cooking,
and housekeep for me regular. You might take it in turn,
if you liked; a little exercise don’t hurt nobody, and I
shouldn’t care. Then we could all eat together sociable,
and you could do your sewing just the same, unless you
could find other work.”
He said nothing of the rent, which indeed had not been
demanded or paid since Dora’s death.
The sisters looked at each other in silence for a moment,
while Polly burst at once into tears; then Susan’s
head went down on the table, and Sally, with clasped
hands and eyes uplifted, cried fervently, “Bless the
Lord!”
“Don’t cry,” said Metzerott hastily; “it’ll be cheaper to
me in the end, now that trade’s so brisk, than knocking off
to go to market and cook every five minutes or so. I’ve
been knowing for quite a while that I should have to hire
somebody; but I didn’t want no strange women around,
and I’m ashamed to say I never thought of you.”
“And you know,” said Louis, who had scrambled down
from the table, and was hugging Polly Price, “you know
79we’ve got to ’vide some day, and I’m glad of it because it’s
so awful jolly.”
“The boy is a good Communist,” said Metzerott, laughing;
“and now, if you ladies feel able to wash the dishes, I’ll
go back to my work.”
“There’s pretty near enough soup for to-morrow,” said
Sally Price, peeping into the big iron pot. “My laws!
wasteful ain’t the name for a man!”
80
“There’s just this about it,” said Sally Price, “Mr.
Metzerott ain’t goin’ to be no loser by us, and that settles
it.”
“He’ll get paid for his kindness in heaven, anyhow,”
returned Susan tearfully.
“Heaven!” the scorn in Miss Price’s voice was for
Susan, not the country she had named. “He’s goin’ to get
paid right here on earth, and you can just take hold and
help me, Susan Price, instead of settin’ there a-snivellin’.
Some folks thinks a deal too much of heaven, anyway.”
“Why, Aunt Sally!”
“It’s as true as the Gospel, child. I don’t say but it’s a
nice place, heaven, after you get there; and when you’re
real tired and hungry and sick, and not a minute to take a
long breath, it’s a solid satisfaction to think as there’s a
time comin’ when you won’t need to eat nor breathe nor
work no more; but I don’t believe in settin’ on your
haunches, when a man’s feedin’ you out of his own pocket,
and talk about his havin’ his reward in heaven. If folks
that talk so much about heaven hereafter would quit right
off, and set to work to make things a little more like
heaven here, ’twould be lots better. We, includin’ Polly,
wouldn’t ‘a’ been so near the other place, Susan Price, if
things was run on that plan here below.”
“That’s so,” answered Susan meekly.
“I went once to see a preacher, and ask him to get us
81somethin’ to do,” said Sally. “It wasn’t long after we
come to town, and before we’d begun sewin’ on Sunday, so
I went Sunday afternoon. He was a real nice man, always
shook hands with both hands, and had an awful affectionate
manner, and I thought he’d be the very one to help us.
Well, he said he was sorry we were so bad off, though he
guessed there was others worse off than us; for that was
before our good clo’es wore out, and I looked pretty nice.
Then he told me how many people in his congregation
were in want of somethin’ to do; and said we ought to be
thankful for any kind of a job, no matter how little it
paid.”
“Well, I don’t know about that,” said Susan.
“I do,” cried Polly impetuously. “A job that takes all
your time to earn enough to keep from starving is just robbery
and slavery, that’s all.”
Aunt Sally assented gravely. “If you leave your work
to look for another job, you are sure to starve before you
find one,” she said, “and you might as well be chained to a
oar, like those people in the ancient history. Fact is, we
was worse off than galley-slaves, Sue; for ’twas the captain’s
interest to keep them alive.”
“But it’s nobody’s interest to keep sewing women alive,”
said Polly bitterly; “there’s plenty to take our places, if
we drop. The labor market is overstocked, they say.”
“That’s what my preacher said,” replied Sally; “and all
the comfort he had for me was that, if I did my duty, and
came to church reg’lar, I’d git to heaven finally. I
thanked him for his good advice, but I ain’t been to his
church since.”
“Mr. Metzerott don’t believe in heaven,” said Polly,
“maybe that’s why he’s so kind to us here on earth.”
“I believe in heaven,” said Susan slowly.
“You ain’t quite a born fool, Susan Price, that’s why.
82Of course the good Lord is goin’ to fix things so the poor
will have a fair show somewhere. But we ain’t the good
Lord, so far’s I know; and it’s our place to keep things
fair and right on this earth, so far’s we can.”
“And that ain’t far,” said Susan.
“It’s as far as Mr. Metzerott, anyhow,” returned Sally
rather sharply, “and we ain’t got no call to go no further,
yit. And what I’m thinking about is his baker’s bill.”
The Prices were alive and awake again, no doubt about
it; as for Polly, she had never been asleep. Her strong,
vivid, ardent nature, craving happiness with every fibre,
could never, I think, have sunk into that tired and hopeless
acquiescence in things as they ought not to be, that inanition
of mind, heart, and soul, which had long ago devoured
the youth and vitality of the sisters. And yet the vitality,
after all, had not utterly departed, and the feeble currents
in their veins stirred in sympathy with the young life
beating its wings against the bars of poverty, and tugging
so vainly at the chain of starvation wages. Then came
rescue and hope, and the awakening was complete.
Sally Price possessed, without being at all conscious of
it, a rare organizing faculty. Perhaps no other sewing-woman
in Micklegard could have accomplished as much
with four hands and only one machine as she had done; but
the very impossibility of doing much with such slight materials,
the consciousness of wasted power, and sense of the
injustice which for such grinding work gave such ground-down
wages, had helped to crush out from her heart
everything but hopeless patience. That she had not grown
hard and bitter was a strange and beautiful thing; perhaps,
even before the advent of Polly, there were three at
work in that poor upper room, even as four walked in the
Holy Children’s burning, fiery furnace.
But now, Sally had something to organize, and a purpose
83in the organization; she was quite resolved, as she said,
that Mr. Metzerott “shouldn’t lose nothin’” by his kindness
to her and hers. Whether his expenses were exactly
the same as when he himself had constituted his whole
domestic staff, with the exception of an old woman who
came three times a week to do “chores” and washing, is
doubtful; but they were certainly not materially increased;
and, taking into account the shoemaker’s additional time
for work, the arrangement might be considered one of
great economy. First of all, there was the baker, who had
swallowed all the Prices’ earnings in the past, in return for
a very moderate portion of the staff of life, strongly flavored
with alum. Miss Price made up her mind at once
that the baker must go. At her suggestion, Karl bought a
bag of flour, and Polly, who was said to be a “master
hand” at the process, was appointed bread-maker in chief;
while Sally and Susan took their turn of exercise at the
wash-tub and ironing-board.
Sally managed it all. They did fully as much work for
Grind and Crushem; for, after all, only a certain amount
can be done with one machine, and there was always one of
them with her foot on the treadle; while the little house
was nearly scrubbed into holes, and everything about it
cleaned until it shone again. The old woman vanished;
chores became a thing of the past; and Polly’s delicate
cooking gave Karl, as he declared, a new pleasure in eating.
Then began the old story of the loaves and fishes, inevitable
multiplication. One day Louis brought home the
tidings that Frau Anna had a bad headache, so bad that
she could not lift her head from her pillow, and the children
had no dinner but bread.
“I guess I’ll go in and see to ‘em,” said Sally thoughtfully.
“Now I’ve got to eatin’ reg’lar meals again, it seems
pretty bad to have nothin’ but bread for dinner.”
84She went accordingly. There was in the cupboard a
piece of cold, cooked beef about four inches square, an
onion, and three raw Irish potatoes; for, as Frau Anna explained,
she had not been able to go out to buy anything
that day.
“Buy!” said Sally, “why should you? There’s dinner
enough here for these children, with bread, and that you’ve
got plenty of. But I know you don’t want no smell of
cookin’ under your nose, so the children can come and
play with Louis; and by and by I’ll send you over some
tea and toast.”
The beef, potatoes, and onion, chopped up into an iron
skillet, covered with water, and re-enforced by a spoonful
of turnips and the remains of a can of tomatoes, which
Sally had been keeping for some occasion when they would
“come in handy,” produced, at the end of twenty minutes,
a very savory stew, to which the children did ample justice.
But the tea and toast which after a while Sally carried in
to her neighbor became the occasion of such sighs over the
days when Frau Anna had made her own bread, and her
children had had wholesome food to eat, that it resulted, a
day or two later, in an offer from Polly to bake for Frau
Anna along with themselves.
“And I don’t see why I shouldn’t do your cooking, all of
it,” said Polly. “Sally keeps such a strict account of all
we spend that she could tell in a minute what you ought to
pay.”
“The cost of the things in market, and maybe a little
extra to Mr. Metzerott for the fire,” said Sally. “I used
to be quick at figures, Mis’ Rolf; and if I ain’t forgot how,
I’ll cipher it out, and let you know. You needn’t be afraid
we’ll cheat you, or make anything out of you; we’ve been
made too much out of ourselves.”
But when it was also arranged that they should do Frau
85Anna’s washing, Sally concluded that they might give up
their work at Grind and Crushem’s.
“And how it feels to be free again, you won’t never
know, Mr. Metzerott,” she said, when the deed had been
done.
“Now I want to know,” said Karl, looking up from his
work with a quizzical smile, “what’s the difference between
the way you’re living now and domestic service. Wouldn’t
it have been better to live out with some rich person, who
would have paid good wages, than to work for Grind and
Crushem?”
“Maybe it would,” said Sally thoughtfully. “Hired
girls do get good wages, that’s so.”
“It’s your American independence,” said Metzerott.
“You don’t find German girls willing to starve rather than
live out.”
“There wasn’t much independence at our shop,” answered
Sally dryly. “I don’t know why it is, Mr. Metzerott, but
American girls won’t live out ef they can do anything else;
or ef they do, they feel kinder degraded, and it makes ‘em
so uppish and contrary there’s no livin’ in the house with
‘em. I’ve seen ‘em real sassy, just because they felt lowered
in their own eyes.”
“They were fools!” said Metzerott briefly. “What is
there in honest work to degrade any one?”
“’Tain’t the work,” said Sally; “they’d do that at home,
and not feel a mite degraded; and ’tain’t the wages, for
’twouldn’t degrade ‘em to earn that behind a counter. Nor
’tain’t sass, though there’s many a lady as talks to her help
like I wouldn’t to a dog. Only way I can explain it, Mr.
Metzerott, it must be the Constitution of the United States.
You see that makes every man as good as anybody else;
but it ain’t lived up to, and the girls feel it, and that’s what
riles ‘em. Worse than that, they feel they ain’t as good as
86the young ladies they wait on, not so pretty, nor so educated,
nor so refined; but they might have been if they’d
had the same advantages; they might have had just such
little white hands and soft voices and pretty ways, that keep
the young men a-bendin’ over their chairs all the evenin’.
Don’t you s’pose many a girl sees the difference between
her farmer beau and the young city doctor or lawyer that
comes to the country for his holiday?” (Poor Sally! perhaps
she spoke from some past bitter experience of her
own!) “And so I think it’s that, Mr. Metzerott, that keeps
girls from hirin’ out. They won’t take a menial position
where they feel, if they had their rights, they’d be equals,—real
equals, I mean, not constitutional or sassy ones.
Now, your German girls ain’t taught about equality; they
are used to counts and barons and dukes, and all of them
people, from their cradles; they ain’t got freedom in the
blood, like us Americans.”
“But we breathe it in,” said Metzerott, with gleaming
eyes; “and then the remembrance of past wrongs, and the
sight of present ones, makes us desperate. We shall teach
you Americans, some day, to live up to your own principles.”
“But you won’t get us to fire a gun,” said Sally tersely.
“till we can see the whites of their eyes.”
87
The very next day, Louis, by what his father and Dr.
Richards would have agreed to call “blind chance,” found
a silver quarter lying in the gutter before his own door.
Yet it was certainly not blind chance, but sheer hard work,
that had worn a hole in Frau Anna’s thimble.
Louis had been wishing very much that he could buy
her another, for she had said that it was almost impossible
to use the old one. Once the needle had slipped in through
the hole, and run up under her nail, which had hurt her
very much indeed; and the necessity of keeping it away
from the worn place hindered her work. Louis and George
had talked the matter over very seriously, with many
wishes that they were as big as Franz and Bruno, the
pastor’s sons, and could earn money by chopping wood and
shovelling snow. And now here was a whole silver quarter,
which would surely buy many things beside a thimble.
He started at once in search of George, whom he found
sitting on a box outside the grocery, consuming an apple
which had been given him by the grocer’s wife. Now, if
the apple had been Louis’, a part of it would as surely
have found its way to George as the early worm finds out
the nest where the mother bird’s brood wait to welcome it;
but this view of the case did not occur to any one but the
good-natured grocery woman, who showed her appreciation
of the situation by bestowing another apple on Louis.
But before the child would bite even once into its red
88and tempting cheeks, he related to George all the circumstances
concerning the finding of the quarter, and the
marvellous purchasing power thereto appertaining.
“Where does the thimble-man live?” asked George,
when they had planned to buy everything in town,—from
a live pony to a penny trumpet.
“I don’t know,” said Louis gravely; but the grocery
woman, who had been standing in the doorway listening to
the conversation, with her hands on her hips, probably to
keep her fat sides steady, they shook so with laughter,
interrupted them.
“Do you know where Martin, the jeweller, lives?”
“Yes,” said Louis brightly. “’Tisn’t far; he mended
our clock.”
“Well,” said the grocery woman, “you go to him, and
tell him you want a thimble. Mind you say who it’s for.
Himmel! There was a day when he’d have given a thousand
thimbles to call your mother Anna Martin.”
“That ain’t her name,” said George slowly, “her name
is Anna Rolf.”
The fat sides shook again. “You do as I tell you,” she
said; “and see here, Louis Metzerott, you eat that apple
up, do you hear, and don’t give none of it to nobody.
Apples is good for boys, they fall in their legs, and make
‘em grow. Verstanden?”
“Yes, ma’am,” said Louis, obediently taking such a very
large bite that he had some difficulty in disposing of it.
“And if I was you,” continued the grocery woman, “I’d
buy the thimble first, and see how much you have left
towards a pony. Fact is, ponies are expensive to feed,
anyhow; and I wouldn’t advise you to invest in ‘em just
yet. Won’t it do just as well if I buy you each a gingerbread
horse, next time I go to market?”
“No, ma’am, not quite as well, because a pony is alive,
89and we could ride on it,” said Louis gravely. “But a
gingerbread horse is very good to eat,” he added politely.
“Herr Martin,” said Louis, as the two children trotted,
hand in hand, into the shop, “we want to buy a thimble.”
“Presently, my boy,” said the jeweller, setting upon the
counter a tray full of small, dainty-looking pins. “Now,
ma’am,” he said; but his customer’s attention had been
drawn from his wares to the purer gold that curled under
Louis’ woollen cap.
“What a dear little boy,” she said, “and so straight and
strong!” Her red lip was caught for one moment between
her teeth, a mist came over the brown eyes, she turned
away, and busied herself in selecting a pin.
Her husband, who had been leaning idly against the
window frame, looking into the street,—for jewelry did
not particularly interest Dr. Richards,—now came and
stood at her elbow. He said nothing, but his mere presence
and the consciousness of his sympathy strengthened
her nobler self, so that in a little while she turned to Louis
again, with a smile that was sad but very sweet.
“Attend to the children, Mr. Martin,” she said; “they
don’t like to wait. Are you buying a thimble for your
mother, my little man?”
“My mother’s dead,” said Louis, “because we are poor,
and the millionnaires wont ’vide. This thimble is for
George’s mother.”
“You don’t remember the boy, Alice,” said Dr. Richards;
“indeed I don’t know that you ever saw him; he is Dora
Metzerott’s child.”
“He is very like her,” said Alice slowly. Her mind
went back to the days when she and Dora had been
“evened” to one another as equally headstrong in marrying
for love and disregarding orthodoxy. She would be proud
and happy to be “evened” to Dora now, in another respect.
90Meanwhile Herr Martin had produced a case of thimbles,
by whose silvery brightness the boys were so impressed
that they began to doubt whether their quarter would buy
so very many of them after all.
“But how much money have you got?” asked the
jeweller.
“A real quarter,” answered Louis proudly. “I found it
this morning.”
“Oh! found it, did you? Then how do you know but
it belongs to me?”
“You’re in fun,” said the child gravely; “my papa said
it might belong to me.”
“Oh! well, if your papa said so! But doesn’t any of it
belong to George?”
“Yes,” said Louis, “me and George always ’vides everyfing.”
“That’s just about where it is,” said the jeweller,
with a glance at his older customers, who were listening
attentively, “me and George ’vides; George and
me don’t always. But, I say, young uns, you don’t suppose
I can sell you a thimble for twenty-five cents,
do you?”
Louis’ lip quivered. “Can’t you?” he said. “It is for
George’s mother; and Frau Tundt said there was a day
when you’d give a thousand thimbles to call her Anna
Martin.”
“Did Frau Tundt say that?” cried the jeweller, crossing
his arms on the counter and laughing heartily. “Well,
she’s right; so I would, so I would! Ah! she was a fine
girl, and no mistake.”
Still laughing, he selected a very pretty thimble, rapidly
enclosed it in a pink-cottoned box, wrapped that again in
white paper, and gave it to Louis.
“There,” he said, “give that to Frau Anna with a
91Christmas greeting from her old sweetheart. No, I don’t
want your quarter. Keep it to buy seed-cakes.”
“Thank you, sir,” said Louis. “‘A Christmas greeting
from her old sweetheart!’ I won’t forget. But what is
Christmas?” he added.
“Ach! that father of yours, with his free-thinking!
Can you believe it, Mrs. Richards! a man who won’t
let his boy have a Christmas,” cried Herr Martin indignantly.
Alice stooped and kissed the sweet face. “I knew your
mother, my dear, and I will come to see you soon, and tell
you about Christmas. It is a beautiful story.”
Dr. and Mrs. Richards drove home very silently. It was
not often that they had the pleasure of an hour’s shopping
together, and yet this expedition in preparation for
Christmas had had its own bitterness. It had been seven
years since Frederick Richards asked Alice Randolph to
share a future which his pessimism forbade him to gild
with hope; seven years since she had announced her choice
of misery with rather than happiness without him. Which
had she found? There had been love in her lot, plenty of
it; and, though not wealth, yet no touch of “poortith
cauld.” Yet the silence between them was a sad silence;
and once Alice laid her hand on his arm, and said, half
below her breath,—
“Fred, tell me, how do you bear your life, not believing,
or trying to believe, that God knows best, and orders all
for our good?”
“Do you believe that, Alice?” he asked.
“I try,” she said; “oh! indeed I try hard.”
“That’s right,” he said gently; “it is the best comfort
you can find.”
“But it does seem unjust,” she said. “Look at that little
Louis, so strong and active, and then think of”—
92“Well, well,” he answered, “Freddy has his own pleasures.
I don’t know a happier boy.”
“That is true,” she said, with a smile through her tears;
“he is very happy!” and then she sank again into her own
thoughts, and forgot to notice that her question remained
unanswered.
In a few moments they stopped at their own door; and
Alice, flying upstairs to what was still called the nursery,
was greeted by a rapturous shout, and clasped by two little
arms that seemed as if they would never unclose to let
her go again. And Alice, sitting on the floor while she
removed her bonnet, had no mist of tears to dim her
brown eyes, which were so much like Freddy’s own; she
was the bright, merry playfellow, full of life and fun,
and brimming over with wonderful and delightful songs
and stories of all descriptions. Dr. Richards, too, brought
only sunshine into Freddy’s nursery; he took off his
pessimism with his overcoat, or left it bottled in alcohol
on a shelf in his office; so there was really little wonder
that Freddy was happy.
Who can tell just how it happened? Was it mere blind
chance, or the outcome of a taint in the blood, due to some
unknown ancestral sin? Whatever the cause, Alice Richards
had been, as the phrase goes, “unlucky with her children.”
The eldest had died in babyhood: and the boy, with
his great, pathetic brown eyes and laughing, rosy mouth,
would never walk; his little spine was all bent and distorted,
and his lower limbs quite useless. He had suffered
much already in his short four years of life, would
suffer far more as he grew older. Dr. Richards knew this,—knew
it so keenly that that other knowledge, that by
scarce a possibility could Freddy live to be a man, was
almost a relief by contrast. And the child was his father’s
idol. Well might Alice ask how he could bear his life.
93Yet there was plenty of merriment at that little dinner-table.
Freddy was carried down between his father and
John, the doctor’s “man.” There were rings on the sides
of Freddy’s chair through which poles could be passed, and
there were screws to tighten them, so that the transit need
cause no jar to the little frame. John went first, not backward,
for fear of a misstep, but with the poles over his
shoulders; and the doctor came behind, keeping his end of
the poles level with John’s. Freddy wore a little scarlet
wrapper, embroidered with gay flowers, and concealing the
poor shrunken limbs, from which any eye but his mother’s
would have instinctively turned away. He had a small
pale face, with a broad forehead set in rings of brown hair,
large brown eyes, and vividly red lips. Sometimes, too,
there was a bright spot of color on either cheek, and then
one would almost have called him a beautiful child; but
that sort of beauty was not a welcome sight to Dr. Richards.
The child enjoyed going down to dinner as he enjoyed
everything; and beat upon the arms of the chair with his
little thin hands, as he called gleefully, “Look out, mamma,
here comes the ‘Ark of the Covenant!’” which was a name
he had taken from his picture Bible.
Freddy’s greatest pleasure was to hear his mother’s
stories, and she had the gift of finding true ones as interesting
as any fairy tale. One of his favorites soon became
the story of the little boy who had no mamma, and had
never heard of Christmas, such deprivations, in Freddy’s
eyes, that the little boy’s health and activity could not be
accepted as in the remotest degree a compensation.
“We must tell him about Christmas right away, mamma,”
said Freddy, who was old and wise beyond his years. “If
he only had a picture of the Christ-child, now.”
“That’s a good suggestion, Freddy. I’ll make a copy of
yours. I think I can do it before Christmas.”
94“And he can come to my tree, mamma?”
“Just as you like, my darling.”
Freddy’s picture of the Christ-child was one which had
evidently been adapted from Ary Scheffer’s “Christus
Liberator;” but the central figure was that of a smiling
child, whose little arms were outstretched to those haggard
and chained, appealing for deliverance. Around it was
written the angels’ song, “Glory to God in the highest; on
earth peace, good will towards men.” Dr. Richards had
noted with inward bitter amusement the picture and the
motto. “Good will towards men!” and all those hungry,
burdened arms! and only a child to work their liberation!
It was Christianity’s pictured confession of her own futility,
he thought. Meanwhile, it satisfied his wife and child,
who surely needed all the comfort they could get; and
what had he, that was better, to give them? So he held his
peace, or rather that simulation of peace which is found in
silence. Real peace he had none, either to hold or let go.
For, seeing no trace in all the universe of a sheltering,
guiding, and protecting Father’s hand,—holding the world
to be governed by blind, unconscious, irresistible force,—there
were two questions ever present to his mind: one,
“How would my boy endure one day of absolute poverty?”
the other, “If my health should fail, as it may, who will
protect him from this, or any evil?”
Blind chance? Even the old Romans knew better.
Was not Fors Fortuna the goddess of the all-seeing, radiant
dawn?
95
All the world was getting ready for Christmas; there
was no doubt about that. As for South Micklegard, as the
German quarter was usually called, it was absolutely upon
its head with delight. For there is no season of the year
that a German loves better than the winter solstice, the
ancient yule feast of his far-away forbears, the birthday of
the “Golden Child,” as the Veda hath it. Is it indeed the
true birthday of the child Christ Jesus? Who knows!
Nay, oh my brothers! who, with your factions, and the
smoke of your unbrotherly strife rising to heaven, have
marred every scene, every step of that sinless life,—let us
be thankful for that which remains unknown. Birthday
and death-day, His cradle, Golgotha, and the sepulchre
whence rose His living body, the Father keeps hidden in
the holy silence of His own recollection. Therefore, since
with Him is neither past nor future, but an eternal now,
those days are ever present with us. Each morn, each
evening, He is born again, dies again, for us, in us; and
finds in our hearts His Bethlehem, His Calvary, His tomb.
It was Louis’ first Christmas, so far as his own consciousness
was concerned. His mother had indeed set out
his little socks for the Christ-child to fill, when he was but
six months old, and had not yet put on shoes; but Louis
certainly remembered nothing of that. And since Dora’s
death Christmas had been a sad day to Karl Metzerott; a
day which he spent as quietly as possible, avoiding merrymaking,
96and keeping Louis to himself, quite out of hearing
of any mention of the feast or its occasion. But, however
feasible this plan of operations might have hitherto proved,
at five and a half, Louis was not to be so disposed of.
“Papa,” he said, fetching his little stool with an air that
meant business, and seating himself so as to gaze into his
father’s face, with large, serious eyes, “papa, what is
Christmas?”
“Who told you anything about it?” asked the man, a
little uneasily, seeing before him the dilemma of Christmas
gayeties on the one hand, or disappointment to Louis on
the other; both of which he felt equally unwilling to accept.
“It was Herr Martin,” said Louis. “He said you were
a free-thinker, who would let your boy have no Christmas.”
“Your mother was buried on Christmas Day, Louis, and
I do not care, therefore, to laugh and be merry on that day.
But Jeweller Martin may mind his own business,” he
added angrily.
“Then do people laugh and be merry on Christmas?
What is Christmas, papa?”
“A bit of nonsense, Louis, that you and I are too wise
for. Come, I’ll tell you all about it. It’s only an old fairy
tale, anyway, and you like fairy tales.”
“Ja, wohl!” said the child, with brightening eyes. “I
like them so much.”
“Well, they say that once upon a time the world was
very wicked, and the Christ-child came to save it. He was
born on Christmas, and, when he grew up, preached to the
people, and told them to repent and be good; but, instead
of that, the rich men of those days took him and killed
him. That part of the story is true, Louis; but the foolish
part is this. Herr Martin’s little boy, and George, and all
the children about here, believe that the Christ-child is
still alive in some place they call heaven; and that he
97comes every Christmas Eve, and fills their shoes with candy
and toys, and such stuff.”
“Oh!” Louis gave a long sigh. “And he don’t, really?”
he asked wistfully.
“Really? No. How could he? The fathers and
mothers fill the shoes, and then lie about it to the children.”
He paused for a moment, as the vision rose in his
heart of those two little white socks, and his wife’s eyes,
as she looked up at him, smiling, on her knees beside them,
to complain that they were so small that nothing would go
in. “I don’t say but it’s a pretty story,” he added hastily,
“but I’ve never told you a lie yet, Louis.”
“I—I—wish,” said the boy, “I wish it wasn’t a lie,
papa.”
“Ah! so do I, Louis. But, such as the Herr Christ, if
he had come at all on that Christmas Eve, it would have
been to cure your poor mother. He would never have let
her die, if he had been what they say he is.”
Louis made no answer. This reasoning was entirely
beyond him; but he sat very still on his little stool, with
his hands folded, and a lonely, lost look on his sweet face,
that went to Metzerott’s heart.
“Come,” he said, with rough tenderness, “I’ll tell you
something far better than to have your shoes filled by
anybody. Be a little Christ-kind yourself, and carry gifts
to other people.”
He had struck the right chord. Louis’ face beamed at
once.
“I’ve got a quarter,” he said eagerly.
They were soon deep in the discussion of ways and
means; for there were many to receive, and little to give
with; but as the main object was to give Louis pleasure,
and as he knew little of intrinsic values, he would be satisfied
to give, however small the gift.
98“As for the Miss Prices,” said Metzerott, “I’ve got a
Christmas gift planned out for them, Louis; and to-morrow
afternoon” (which was Sunday), “you ask Miss Polly to
dress you in your best, and we’ll go and see about it.”
It proved to be worth seeing about.
The janitor of the Männerchor Club House, who was a
saving man, and had, besides, good work and excellent pay
in a factory in Micklegard, had resolved to try his luck on
a sheep ranch in Texas, the owner of which had lately died,
leaving a widow, who was willing to sell out land, stock,
and fixtures on easy terms. The janitor had enough money
to pay the first instalment, and his and his family’s
expenses to Texas; but the widow wanted him to come on
at once and take charge, as was, indeed, highly necessary
for the welfare of the sheep, and he was bound to the
Männerchor until June, their bargain being for a year at
a time.
Now, the janitor’s salary was a small affair in itself; but
the perquisites included the use of the ground floor of the
club-house as a dwelling. This ground floor had originally
been a store, of tolerable proportions, and had been simply
partitioned off, when the building was bought by the
Männerchor, to suit the new use to which it was to be put.
There was a kitchen in the rear, small but alterable, and
Metzerott had visions of alterations before his mind’s eye.
It will be remembered that at the Kaffee Klatsch, already
described, supper was furnished to the convives at the
modest price of fifteen cents a head. It had been experimentally
proven that this rather more than covered expenses,
even though the viands were ordered ready prepared
from a baker, who of course made his own profit upon
them. At the numerous concerts and balls which took
place in the Hall, the supper cost usually a quarter, this
sum, it was to be inferred, also leaving a margin for profit.
99Now the duties of the janitor might be divided into two
classes; he had to take care of the club-house, and keep it
in order, and also attend to the fires and lights whenever it
was used by the society, or other parties to whom it, or any
part of it, might be rented for an evening. The first of
these functions was usually performed by the janitor’s wife,
while the second, being better suited to a masculine capacity,
the janitor reserved for himself. It seemed, therefore,
to Karl Metzerott’s logical mind, that, as these duties were
already divided, it was not an absolute necessity that they
who performed them should be man and wife; and his plan
was to establish the Prices in the janitor’s quarters with
the care of the house, and also as caterers to the club, by
which, in addition to the business they had already got
together, he thought they could make a very comfortable
living.
As for the janitor’s other duties, Karl had a candidate
for them in the person of Franz Schaefer, the pastor’s eldest
son, now nearly seventeen. Franz, it appeared, was a
musical genius, and was working hard at his violin, under
the care of the Herr Direktor of the Männerchor. The
pastor, however, had no spare dollars wherewith to further
his son’s musical education; and, though the Direktor’s lessons
might be given for the pure love of art, and perhaps
of humanity, at least of such human beings as could detect
the difference between E sharp and F natural, dollars were
required to convey him to the land of his dreams, the summit
of his aspirations,—the Royal Conservatory at Stuttgart.
Meanwhile, the denied wish was bearing good fruits in
the economy and self-denial which were becoming a part of
his nature. He was a clerk in a small drug store at a
smaller salary, and the additional income that Karl’s plan
would secure would set him considerably forward on the
100way to his promised land. Yet the plan was certainly an
innovation; and perhaps Karl would not have been so successful
in introducing it, but that the managers had a difficulty
of their own, which the proposed arrangement met
and satisfied. For houses in Micklegard were rented by
the year; and it was hard, on the spur of the moment, to
find a man, with a family, ready to give up his own domicile,
and take the janitor’s place. And, on the other hand, they
were large-minded men, who, having carved out their own
fortunes, were reluctant to stand in the light of any one
who was trying to rise in the world; so that Karl’s insistence,
combined with the janitor’s eagerness to be off, finally
carried the day, and, on the Sunday afternoon already referred
to, he and Louis returned with a promise from the
managers to give the new plan a trial, at all events.
“Let them have it until the end of the year, that is, till
‘moving day,’” the secretary had said; “then we can see
how it works.”
“Work!” said Sally Price, “of course it’ll work! It
shall work.”
Fortunately, the furniture of their new abode belonged
to the house, having been put in for the departing janitor,
who had taken the position as a fresh and furnitureless
arrival from Germany; so there was nothing requiring an
immediate outlay of capital.
Dr. Richards came in while they were discussing ways
and means, and, after signifying his hearty approval of the
plan in its main features, asked, “But about the balls, Miss
Sally? Of course we know the society itself is composed
of men who are as steady as old Time,” with a roguish
glance at Metzerott, “but at the public balls, you know!
for they do have beer!”
“I know that, and I don’t say I like it,” replied Sally;
“but firstly, I ain’t going to sell it, I can’t control it, and
101therefore I ain’t responsible for it; secondly, they’ll be in
the top of the house and us at the bottom most of the time;
thirdly, if they go beyond the bounds of reason, we can call
on the police; fourthly, ’tain’t no worse for us than it was
for the janitor’s wife, a nice, modest woman as ever I see;
and fifthly, folks that have been through what we have can
put up with ’most anything!”
“After that array of argument I have no more to say,”
said the doctor, laughing. “Well, Miss Sally, I must say
that I think you will fill a long-felt want. You know the
new pottery is to open the first of January, and quite a
number of women would and could get work there if it
were not for their duties at home. Now, if you could give
them home fare at home prices, you see you would benefit
yourselves and them too.”
“How about their children?” asked Polly.
“The big ones would be at school most of the time, and
if you had a crèche for the babies”—
“There’s a vacant house next door to the hall,” said
Metzerott.
“Ah! now we have plans indeed,” laughed the doctor,
“and I wish I had time to talk them over with you; but I
must perform my own special errand. Mr. Metzerott, my
wife wants to borrow your little boy for our Christmas tree.”
Karl’s eyes beamed with pride, yet he hesitated; but Louis’
cheeks were flushed, his eyes large and bright.
“Oh!” he said, “what is a Christmas tree?”
“Now ain’t that a shame! beggin’ your pardon, Mr. Metzerott,”
said Miss Sally. “To think of the true Christian
his mother was, and there’s her boy don’t know nothin’ of
Christmas or Christmas trees.”
“Only, unfortunately for your argument, Miss Sally,
both Christmas and its Tree are pagan originally. The first
was the feast of Yule, kept by our Teutonic ancestors; the
102second is the representative of the great ash-tree Ygdrasil,
symbolizing the heaven and earth. The eagle that soared
above it, watching with sleepless eye all that passed
below,”—
“Well, so He does,” said Miss Sally.
“Pagan or not,” said Metzerott, “I don’t want my boy
to be a Christian.”
“I think you are wrong,” said the doctor thoughtfully;
“not that I believe in Christianity any more than you,
begging pardon of our friends here.”
“Christianity!” said Sally; “well, I ain’t sure I believe
in that myself; but I do believe in Christ.”
“I congratulate you,” said the doctor. “It’s an innocent
superstition, Metzerott; and, in a world of misery like this,
why not let a child believe it, if it add to his happiness?”
“Because it ain’t true,” said the shoemaker sturdily.
“My good friend,” said Dr. Richards, “what is truth?
Things are true relatively, never absolutely. I defy you
to mention a single absolute truth.”
“The sun shines,” said Metzerott, whose Teutonic mind
caught fire at the barest hint of metaphysics.
“How do you know it does?”
“Because I see it.”
“Prove that to a man born blind.”
“A man born blind is like a lunatic, or an idiot, as far
as the sunlight is concerned,” said Karl, after some thought;
“it can’t be proved to him. He can feel it though,” he added.
“Ah! concurrent testimony! But that is only an aggregation
of single testimony, that is of relative truths, and
merely amounts to a high probability, not to an absolute
truth.”
“Well,” said Metzerott, “until you bring me a man with
all his senses complete, and stand him in the sunshine
before me, and have him say it ain’t bright and ain’t warm,
103I think it’s as near to an absolute truth as you are likely
to come.”
“As near, yes, I grant that. But come, suppose I tell
you—having all my senses complete—that to me the
sunshine is dark and cold; what would you say then?”
“I know what I’d like to do,” said Karl Metzerott.
Now, to let the reader into a secret, the doctor had been
all along amusedly aware of the similarity between this
argument and certain others he had, in his student days,
carried on. The reference to personal experience was
therefore intentionally made, and he was much elated to
find the shoemaker take his stand upon doing, instead of
quibbling as to the exact meaning of shining and heat, or
the state of mind a man must be in to experience these.
“Well, what would you do?” he asked.
“I’d wait for the Fourth of July,” said the shoemaker
grimly; “and then I’d stand you out there, before my door,
till you dropped with a sunstroke.”
“Without my hat?” asked the doctor.
Karl nodded, and the two men broke into a roar of
laughter, which effectually settled the question of Louis
and the Christmas Tree; for Karl was too pleased with his
victory to be unrelenting.
“Now there is a man,” said the doctor to himself as he
drove home, “who believes with all his heart that the
sun shines. He proved it, too. If I could meet a man
who believed like that in the Bible! But there is nothing
corresponding to that sunstroke test of his in theology;
and Christians know it. I—yes, really—I almost wish
there were. Pooh! what a fool I am! Get up!” Which
energetic reminder, addressed to his horse, so quickened
that quadruped’s movements as to land the doctor speedily
at his own door.
104
It was easy for little Louis to accept the story of the
Christ-child as a fairy tale; his life was so full of marvels
this Christmas-tide. It was a drop of bitterness, of course,
that George had not been asked to accompany him to
Freddy’s Tree; but, to say the truth, George was not a
particularly refined or attractive-looking child. He was
large for his age, and heavily built; slow of speech and
movement, with whitish hair, pale blue eyes, and features
inchoate, of a modelling seemingly unfinished. There were
not wanting signs and tokens that George might develop
into a fine man; but at the moment he was unattractive,
and Alice had not reached the point of choosing her guests
on the broad ground of a common humanity. Indeed she
was not prevented, either by common humanity or the
further consideration of kinship, from reflecting with a
secret glee, which she was careful not to reveal to her husband,
that the presence of Louis, the shoemaker’s son,
would only be condoned by the remainder of her guests
because he was still—only a baby.
For Alice had bidden, not only the Garyulies and the
Joblillies, but also the Grand Panjandrum himself with the
little round button at top.
“Of course,” said Mrs. Henry Randolph, “you have a
right to ask whom you please to your own house, and the
child is only a baby, too young to presume, at present,” with
awful emphasis; “but I am sorry to see you infected by
105the levelling tendencies of the age. Do you not know that
even in heaven there are distinctions of rank?”
“I don’t know anything about it,” said Alice.
“Why, I’m sure we read of Thrones, Dominions, Principalities,
and Powers.”
“And I suppose the Thrones decline to call on the
Dominions, and the Principalities speak of the Powers as
‘that sort of people,’” said Alice. “Jennie, if I believed
as you do, I’d—well, I’d rather be a heathen.”
“I hope you never may be a heathen, my dear”—
“Oh! come, you’re both right and both wrong. People
who argue always are,” interposed the hearty, jovial voice
of Mr. Randolph. He was a tall, fine-looking man, with
clear brown eyes, remarkably keen, and rather lacking in
tenderness, but of a certain restless quickness as they
swept from one face to another. His features were regular,
and his manner genial, while his laugh was equal to
that immortal one of Scrooge’s nephew. Henry Randolph
was a man of enormous popularity, and so trusted by his
friends that even the knowledge that he had availed himself
of the terms of his father’s will to keep back his
sister’s portion did not shake their faith. He must have
such good reasons, they said.
In truth, his reasons were of the very best. He was a
man who speculated largely, and for the most part successfully;
but, just at the time of Alice’s marriage, his losses
had been so heavy that to resign the control of such a
large amount would have been to him financial ruin, while,
with it at his command, he could in a short time make
good his loss. The temptation to refuse his consent to the
marriage, and thus make the money legally his, was doubled
by his real objection to Dr. Richards as an irreligious man,
whose views upon social and political matters were also
open to exception. He honestly wished his sister to accompany
106the family abroad, as, even if her marriage were not
thereby definitely broken off, it would at least be deferred
sufficiently long to serve his purpose financially.
Now, of all this Frederick Richards was perfectly aware;
that is, he knew—as every one did—of the sudden collapse
of the scheme which crippled Mr. Randolph, and
swallowed whole innumerable smaller fortunes, and, through
some murmur of the reeds such as betrayed King Midas’
secret, learned that Henry Randolph was a loser to a large
amount. But to Alice the doctor said nothing; only, when
the family returned to Micklegard, and the offer was made
to let bygones be bygones, and restore to Alice the fortune
her father had left her, Dr. Richards quietly refused.
Why?
It is hard to make his motives comprehensible to those
who regard wealth as the supreme good.
The grandfather of Henry and Alice Randolph had
made his fortune by means which, even in that day and
generation, were regarded with scorn and horror. He was
a slave-trader; but his only daughter, surrounded by luxury
and educated at a Northern school, never suspected by
what iniquitous means her wealth was acquired. To her,
her father had always been the man he had become after
his runaway marriage with the daughter of an aristocratic
family, and his purchase of an estate in the far South,—handsome,
jovial, and, to her, always tenderly indulgent.
Her marriage to a representative of one of the “old families”
strengthened her belief in herself as one of the
chosen few for whose benefit the world was made and
ordered; and her husband did not behold in the pearls and
rubies upon his bride’s fair neck the blood and tears of
suffering human beings, though somewhat distressfully
aware of the not over-creditable manner in which his
father-in-law had “made his money.” A convenient term
107this of “making money,” by the by. One might call it the
great nineteenth-century petitio principii; for what a man
makes might certainly be considered as his by all social
and moral laws, while that which he merely acquires is
suggestive of all sorts of confusing possibilities. Yet, if
he makes, of what does he make, and whence came his
material? Unless he makes also that, can he be said
really to own the thing finally produced?
All which would have appeared to Henry Randolph very
empty and unprofitable speculation,—mere sound, signifying
nothing. Certainly, if one had accused him of insensibility
to such suffering as he did not actually see, there are
few of us who could afford to cast a stone at him; and he
would have said of himself that to cases of real distress
his heart and purse were always open; yet, to Frederick
Richards’s mind, an invisible, semi-tangible hardness, under
the manufacturer’s generous, cordial exterior, was always
accounted for and excused by his grandfather’s occupation.
That his own Alice had, as he firmly believed, escaped such a
core to her loving heart (like the earth’s inmost hypothetical
solid centre), was a freak of heredity for which he did not
profess to be able to account. Yet, even Alice did not entirely
concur in her husband’s opinion about the fortune, as
was indeed most natural. She yielded to his feeling upon
the matter; but her own was by no means what it would have
been had the fruit of speculation been “lifted” bodily from
a bank vault, or the slave-trader’s chattels been of pure Caucasian
parentage. Also the money would have been in many
ways a convenience, and, in case of “anything happening”
to herself or the doctor, would have given her an ease of
mind in regard to Freddy, which she was by no means able
to derive from the thought of an overruling Providence.
What Henry Randolph thought of his brother-in-law, we
had better not inquire; what he said was this,—
108“Well, it’s his own affair; and if he can afford to despise
such a sum of money, he is better off than I am,” which in
a sense was true, since Dr. Richards had as much as he
wanted.
The amount in question, however, was carefully “left”
to Alice in her brother’s will, he being, according to his
lights, a just man, whenever speculation would allow him;
and, meanwhile, the two families were on studiously cordial
terms, and were assembled on Christmas Eve to hail
the lighting of the tree Ygdrasil.
It was Dr. Richards who told the story before the doors
were opened, with Freddy in his arm-chair beside him,
Frank and Harry Randolph on the floor at his feet, Louis
in the place of honor on his knee, and Pinkie leaning forward
from her father’s arms to listen. Pinkie, alias Rosalie,
alias Pink Rosebud, was a wilful little maiden not three
years old. She had the dark clear skin, brown eyes, and
chestnut curls of the Randolphs, and bore indeed so strong
a resemblance to Freddy, that her brilliant color and strong,
active limbs sent many a pang to his parents’ hearts. But
there was no envy in the pain, and the child was well-nigh
as dear to both as if she had been their own.
The boys were comparatively very unimportant members
of the Randolph household. Mrs. Randolph was what is
called an excellent mother, and brought up her boys very
strictly, and without petting or indulgence. Therefore
they were best described collectively, at least in her presence,
where there was little to distinguish them, except
that Frank had taken a line of his own in being fair and
blue-eyed. For the rest, both were painfully shy, silent,
and awkward, though well-looking and well-dressed.
Little Louis, on the other hand, was perhaps too young
to be shy, or perhaps had lived too freely and happily with
his father to dread the criticism of his elders. At all
109events, as he sat on the doctor’s kind knee, and heard of
the dragon Nidhug and the beautiful Nornas, and the
golden and silver fruit of the great world-tree, there was
nothing in his sparkling eyes, nothing in his sweet, childish
face and neat, becoming dress, to indicate that the Nornas
had been otherwise than kindly disposed at his birth.
Freddy and he had taken to each other at once.
“Can’t you walk one bit?”
“Haven’t you any mamma at all?” they had asked; and
then the fair, rosy face and the pale, dark one had met and
kissed each other.
After the gifts had been distributed and compared, there
was singing of Christmas carols; for all the Randolphs
had fine musical and artistic talent, and the boys forgot
themselves and their mother’s presence more readily in
music than in any other employment or amusement.
Harry, indeed, was the leading soprano of the choir to
which both belonged; and as all gathered around the piano,
where Alice presided, they were a perfect picture of a
happy, united, and religious family. And these are some
of the words that they sang:—
“It came upon the midnight clear,
That glorious song of old,
From angels bending near the earth
To touch their harps of gold.
‘Peace on the earth, good-will to men,
From Heaven’s all-gracious King,’
The world in solemn stillness lay
To hear the angels sing.
But with the woes of sin and strife
The world has suffered long,
Beneath the angel strain have rolled
Two thousand years of wrong;
And man at war with man hears not
The love-song that they bring;
Oh! hush the noise, ye men of strife,
And hear the angels sing.
110And ye, beneath life’s crushing load
Whose forms are bending low,
Who toil along the climbing way
With painful steps and slow,
Look now! for glad and golden hours
Come swiftly on the wing.
Oh, rest beside the weary road,
And hear the angels sing!
For lo! the days are hastening on,
By prophet bards foretold,
When with the ever-circling years
Comes round the age of gold;
When Peace shall over all the earth
Its ancient splendors fling,
And the whole world give back the song
Which now the angels sing.”
“What a tissue of rotten lies Christianity is!” thought
Dr. Richards (who could not sing), leaning in his favorite
attitude upon the mantel-piece, and listening to Henry
Randolph’s fine bass, as it bore up the flute-like notes of
his son. “There is Randolph, now, by a turn of his pen
to-morrow will make ‘life’s crushing load’ heavier, maybe,
to hundreds, and his own pockets heavier at the same time,
and then will square accounts with his conscience by giving
fifty dollars to some charity. Faugh!”
But at this moment an exclamation from Mrs. Randolph
interrupted him. Louis and Pinkie, while the singing was
under way, had got together into a corner, where they were
discovered to be embracing one another in a very pretty
baby fashion.
“But I tisses F’eddy,” observed Pinkie.
“It is very different,” remarked Mrs. Randolph.
“Freddy is your cousin; but this little boy is no relation,
and is besides in quite a different state of life.”
“Fut is state of life?” asked Pinkie. “Is it tause he
tan yun ayound and F’eddy tant?”
111“You’ll understand when you are older, dear,” said her
mother; but whether Pinkie would have been satisfied
with this answer was rendered forever doubtful by the
announcement of the carriage.
“Good-by, child,” said the great lady, patting Louis’
golden head; “I wish you every good fortune that is proper
for you to have. I was your mother’s best friend, if she
had only known it, and would have saved her from the
misery that afterwards, in the righteous Providence of
God, overtook her.”
“What is misery?” asked little Louis, wistfully; “is it
dying? My papa says she died ’cause we was poor, and
the millionnaires wouldn’t ’vide. Are you a millionnaire,
and would you ’vide?”
“Quite a promising young Socialist,” observed Mr. Randolph.
“His father must be a dangerous man.”
But Louis did not hear him; he was listening eagerly to
the lady.
“My dear, life and death are the gift of God. Your
mother broke his laws, and he punished her”—
“Jennie! Jennie! don’t speak so to the child.”
“He should hear it from some one, Alice, and there is
no one else likely to tell him. Heaven knows how kindly
I feel towards poor Dora, but I dare not palliate her sin.
‘Be not unequally yoked together with unbelievers’ are
the words of Scripture, and poor Dora has paid the penalty
for disregarding them; happier so than if she had seen her
sin visited upon others.”
“Jennie, my dear Jennie, indeed the horses will catch
their death; you forget how cold it is,” cried her husband,
in an agony.
Doctor Richards saw them gravely to the door, then returned
to the parlor, where Alice, with white lips, was
restlessly putting chairs in place, and tidying books and
112ornaments; and Louis was standing where he had been
left, with flushed face and clinched baby hands.
“If God killed my mamma,” said Louis, as the doctor
entered, “then I hate God!”
“Hush, Louis,” said the doctor. “I must take you
home, little boy. After all, Alice, it don’t do to mix—states
of life.”
“It would, if people were human,” she said in a stifled
voice.
“Ah!” he said; “but some people are only—millionnaires.”
“Is God a millionnaire?” asked Louis, as they drove
away.
“Mrs. Randolph thinks so,” said the doctor; “but there’s
no such person, Louis, it’s all a myth—that is, a fairy-tale.”
“I fink everyfing is a fairy-tale,” said Louis to himself
with a sigh of relief; “and I’m glad about it, too; for it’s
nice to be a Christ-child, but I don’t want to be God and
kill people.”
When Dr. Richards returned he found Alice waiting for
him in his study. Freddy, she said, had dropped asleep at
once, after the evening’s fatigue.
“I am glad,” said the doctor; “I feared the excitement
might keep him awake.”
“Yes,” she said, and then, suddenly, all the storm within
her broke forth.
“Fred,” she cried, “help me! Is there a God? and is
he so cruel? Would he punish my child for his mother’s
sin?”
“My dear,” he said very gently, “why ask me? you
know my opinion on these matters. And you have no very
high esteem for Mrs. Randolph that her words should have
such weight.”
113“It is my own conscience!” she cried wildly. “Fred, I
will tell you even though it will give you pain. It has
rung in my ears night and day, ‘The sins of the fathers
shall be visited on the children.’”
“Poor little girl,” he said tenderly, stroking her hair.
“I hoped at least, Alice, that your religion made you
happier.”
“My religion! mine! Oh! what is my religion! I
feel like little Louis, Fred, that I hate”—
“Hush!” he said, “you will be sorry presently, when
this excitement has passed away. Go to bed, like a good
girl, and forget it all.”
“If I only could!” she sighed; “but I won’t pray, Fred;
I can’t, to a God of punishment.”
He did not reply, except by a kiss, but, when the door
had closed behind her, smiled a little bitterly.
“The mystery of pain,” he thought, “she said we should
solve it together, hoping all the while to convert me, as I
knew very well. And her solution is, a God of punishment!”
He turned up his reading-lamp and took up the latest
medical treatise, which, though it recommended very harsh
remedies, he did not decline to believe in.
Dr. Richards was a devotee of physical science, not a
philologist, and it therefore did not occur to him that,
etymologically, Punishment is much the same word as Purification.
114
Louis was awake bright and early on that Christmas
morning, though, as applied to the atmospheric conditions
of that particular day, “bright” is a singularly inappropriate
adjective. The snow fell, not merely in flakes, but in
clouds, and whether “the opposite side of the street” was
“over the way,” or in Farther India, was purely a matter
of faith; to the eye it was perfectly invisible.
“I don’t see how you are to get even as far as next
door with those things,” said Metzerott, half in earnest,
looking first at Louis, then at the blinding storm.
“Oh! but, papa, I must take George and Frau Anna
their presents,” cried Louis in dismay.
“I don’t see why you must,” said his father. “Fritz will
be in after his breakfast in a few minutes; he can take
them.”
Louis looked very grave; he turned and took up his
picture of the Christ-child. It was prettily framed, and
the inscription, with its letters of red, blue, and gold,
encircled it like a glory. Alice had used German letters
and the German version.
“Ehre sei Gott in der Höhe, und Friede auf Erden, und den
Menschen ein Wohlgefallen.”
“I could not be a Christ-kind if Fritz took them in,”
he said.
Sally Price, who was busy over the frying-pan, while
115Polly stirred up the bread-sponge for the daily baking,
which, as they had three families to provide for, might
not be omitted, even on Christmas Day,—Sally Price
dropped her iron spoon and held up her hands.
“Well, if I ever did!” she said. “Do you want to be
a Christ-child, you angel?”
“Papa said I might, and Dr. Richards said, last night,
the little boy in the picture looked like me, and I must try
to be like him.”
“Law!” interposed Susan, “I thought the doctor was
one of these infidels.”
“Infidel or not,” said Miss Sally, “he acts like a mighty
good Christian.”
“But talkin’ like that, Sister Sally”—
“Talk! anybody can talk: and infidels often talk louder
than Christians, about imitatin’ the Saviour, and such like.
I s’pose they think nobody can keep ‘em up to it, if they
don’t want to be kep’; while a member of the Church
daren’t say much, for fear of folks sayin’ he has back-slid
if he don’t live up to it.”
“Can’t I go, papa?” asked Louis, to whom the foregoing
had been simply wasted breath.
“Of course, my son. I will carry you myself. We will
show the good church members two more infidels who can
keep up to their word without being kept.”
“It’s just awful to think of that child being brought up
to believe like that,” said Polly as she covered her sponge
and set it away to rise.
“Well, ’tis and ’taint, Polly,” answered Sally thoughtfully.
“First place, he’s one of them children which of such is
the kingdom of Heaven, and the good Lord will take care
of his own; and, second, how better could he be raised
than to want to be a little Christ-child, and ready to cry if
he’s told he can’t?”
116“But he thinks it is all a fairy-tale.”
“As it were,” said Sally. “What’s the difference between
fairy-tale and history, Polly Price, to a baby five
years old?”
“But when he gets older, Aunt Sally”—
“You take my advice, Polly, don’t you never cross a
bridge till you come to it. If the good Lord don’t take
care of him when he gets older, it’ll be time for you to interfere.
Now, ketch hold and rench out Mrs. Rolf’s coffee-pot,
will you? and I’ll pour the coffee into it. And if
them pork chops ain’t done to a turn, I lose my guess.
Cream gravy, too, for a treat for Christmas!”
“Last Christmas,” said Susan, “we had nothing to eat
but the heel of a loaf, so hard we soaked it in water before
we could bite into it.”
Sally stood for a moment with misty eyes; her volubility
was gone on this subject. Then, as a sound of feet stamping
off snow was heard at the door, she said with fervor,
“Good Lord!” and fell to work upon the business in hand.
The next moment Metzerott hurried in with Louis on his
shoulder, and followed by Fritz Rolf, a bright-faced boy of
eight, with much of his mother’s briskness and “faculty.”
“I’ve cleared a path,” said Fritz; “and, if it lasts till I
get back, I’ll get this breakfast in a-hootin’. But I tell
you it’s snowing! Cover everything up warm, Aunt Sally,
or Jacky Frost will stick his nose into it. Coffee, taters,
pork, and hot biscuit! Bully! Ta! ta! see you later.”
“You’re a-goin’ to see me right now,” said Sally dryly.
“S’pose you can open the front door yourself? Not with
that tray in your hands, less’n you want to play the fall of
Troy with it.”
As she opened the front door of the shop carefully, to
exclude as much, or rather admit as little, as possible of
the snowy air, those in the kitchen heard her exclaim, “Dr.
117Richards! if ever I seen a snow image! Your very eyelashes
is white! Jump off and get warm, do!”
“I wasn’t at all sure of my whereabouts, Miss Sally,”
answered the doctor’s voice, “until you spoke. But for my
horse’s better judgment, I should have lost my way a dozen
times—a hundred times—between this and Oak Grove.”
He had sprung from his horse as he spoke, and was
shaking the snow from a blanket strapped military fashion
behind his saddle, wherewith to cover the steaming animal.
“Oak Grove! the land! You ain’t been twelve miles in
this storm?”
“Sent for at midnight,” said the doctor, shaking off
vigorously the snow adhering to his person before he entered
the shop. “Old patient, and a matter of life and
death; so I had to go.”
“Well, I hope it turned out life, to pay you for your
trouble.”
“I think it will be; she is safe for the present, at all
events,” he said, very quietly, but with a smile from under
his fur cap, which Sally never forgot.
Just at this moment a centaur-like figure loomed up
through the snow, and halted at the sound of their voices.
“Is that you, doctor? They told me at your house to
ride out along the road to Oak Grove, and I might meet
you. What luck that I took this street!”
“Mr. Randolph! What has happened?”
“It’s my wife, doctor, my poor wife! I don’t know if
she will be alive when we get there. I would not trust
any one but myself to come for you in this storm.”
“A poor compliment to human nature,” thought Dr.
Richards, “and a bitter commentary on the happiness of
the rich. Metzerott, here, could find twenty to serve him
in such a strait; but they are not hirelings.”
Perhaps twenty self-devoted friends was rather a large
118proportion for even a poor man; but Dr. Richards had
been four hours on the road, and was nearly frozen, so his
exaggeration may be forgiven, especially as he was on
his horse before the reflection had passed through his
mind.
At the first sound of Mr. Randolph’s voice, Sally had
re-opened the shop door, which she had closed behind her,
and called out, “Cup o’ coffee, Polly; be spry!” and as the
doctor was about to ride away, there it was at his elbow,
black, fragrant, and steaming hot. He swallowed it hastily,
though he said afterwards that he could have dallied over
every spoonful, like an old maid over her afternoon tea, so
good it tasted. Then he disappeared with Henry Randolph
into the storm.
The coffee would have been doubly relished had Dr.
Richards known it would be his sole physical support and
sustenance until noon of the same day. He had sent his
tired horse home by a man-servant immediately upon reaching
Mr. Randolph’s; but it was late in the afternoon before
Alice, who had been watching anxiously, saw him walk
wearily up the street towards the house. She had the door
open before he reached it. The snow-storm had ceased, in
consequence of a sudden fall in the temperature, and the
brilliant sunshine on the white garment of Mother Earth,
which the rude, irreverent wind was tossing in huge folds
hither and thither, seemed to trouble the doctor’s eyes; for
Alice noticed that he shaded them with his hand as he
came towards her, and that they had a strained, dazed expression
when he had entered the study, into which, with
many loving words, she tenderly drew him.
“You walked home, dear! How imprudent! I sent
John to ask if you wanted the buggy.”
“I sent him on to Dr. Harrison, who took my rounds for
me to-day—happily, for I am fit for nothing now. One
119of Harrison’s horses is laid up, and the other is not able for
double work such weather as this.”
“It is frightfully cold, and—oh, my darling! what a
condition you are in!”
“Well,” said the doctor philosophically, “when a man
has had snow drifting down the back of his neck and his
boots, and settling everywhere about his person that it
lawfully could settle, for about fourteen hours, and then it
has melted and dried on him, he has a right to be in a
condition.”
“I am afraid he will have a right to be ill if he keeps
up that sort of thing,” said Alice. “But how is poor Jennie?
Henry was in a terrible way about her this morning,
but I have seen her in so many of these attacks”—
“Just so,” said the doctor; “poor soul, I suppose it was
this one coming on that made her so—ah—captious—last
night. I had very little hope of her from the moment
I reached her bedside; but one comfort is that she had
everything done for her that medical science could suggest.
Harrison was with her in less than half an hour after she
was taken, and stayed till I got there.”
“Is she—why, Fred, you talk as if—she can’t be dead!”
“She died about an hour ago, Alice. I would not let
them send you any message, for, knowing how it would
shock you, I wished to bring the news myself.”
Alice made no reply, but stood white and still, her hands
hanging clasped before her, gazing into the fire. She could
find no tear for the unloved sister-in-law, there was no grief
at her heart for the loss of one so antagonistic; but the
shock of her death was all the more sudden and terrible.
For Alice was quite conscious of the crisis in her spiritual
life that had been revealed to her on the preceding night,
to which, as to all crises, physical and psychological, she
had been long unconsciously drawing near.
120In truth, Alice’s religion had never been to her nearly
so real as the love she bore to her husband; there had been
nothing between her and the Invisible, approaching or
corresponding to the unfailing sympathy, the wordless
comprehension and support, she found in him. Her love
was real—her religion an unconscious make-believe; and
reality had conquered.
Upon her realization that the creed she had learned had
grown all unreal to her (that it had never been other than
unreal she was not yet wise enough to know), Mrs. Randolph’s
sudden passing away into the unknown came as a
lightning stroke to her own house of life. Nothing else
could have shown her so clearly the change in her own
creed, as this death, so near herself, yet with no loving
grief to hide the sharp surprise, the sudden vacancy. She
was utterly silent; indeed, what was she to say? the usual
platitudes had become so unutterably meaningless.
“She is better off,”—but Alice knew nothing whatever
about it. “I hope she is happy!” “I trust she died at
peace with God.” “May she rest in peace,”—none of these
phrases would come to her lips. Only there rose before
her mind a sudden sense of the dark unknown into which
that soul had gone out; was it indeed to annihilation?
She turned suddenly, and put out both hands to her husband;
her eyes had a frightened, lost look.
“Fred,” she cried, “what is death? is this life all?
Shall we lose each other utterly one day, you and I? Is
there nothing beyond the grave?”
He took her in his arms, it was all he could do for her
in her sore need.
“I don’t know, my darling,” he said; “if there be, science
has no power to find it. We must only love each other all
the more while we live.”
“But why?” she cried, “what good will that do? it
121will only add to the misery of the one who is left behind.
What is the use of love? or of living? unless we could
die together.”
“There are others,” he said, “whom we can help. We
may live for them.”
“And what claim have they upon us? If there is
nothing beyond the grave, why not make the journey
thither as short as possible, at least for the wretched?
There is Freddy, for example, who has to suffer so much;
if it is right to give him a little morphine to ease his pain
for a while, why would it be wrong to give him enough to
ease it forever?”
“Fortunately, there is no fear of your carrying that
theory into practice,” he said, trying to smile.
“Because I am selfish,” she replied, “and cannot part
with my child sooner than I must. But, Fred, there must
be some truth somewhere; why should we not look for it
together? There are books.”
“That is the hopeless part about it,” he answered; “there
are so many books, and all so positive on their own side of
the question. The theologian will prove to you just as
clearly the whole scheme of salvation, as he calls it, as the
scientist that nothing but matter has any real existence.
For my part, there are two arguments which to me are perfectly
conclusive. I ask nothing further. Whether there
is or is not some sort of Blind Power in the universe, such
as the great First Cause that some scientists are willing to
acknowledge, does not interest me; but of the non-existence
of an all-knowing, all-loving, personal God I am perfectly
convinced for two reasons. First, the existence of
evil in all its forms: sin, sorrow, suffering, and death. I
would not allow such things in a world under my control,
and a God who is less merciful than I is no God at all—for
me.”
122“I remember,” she said softly, “I have always known you
thought like that.”
“But my second reason,” he continued, “is, if possible,
even stronger. Here are you and I—yes, Alice, I too—who
would give our very lives to believe in God and immortality.
How are we to do it? To examine all the
evidence, for and against, would take a lifetime of incessant
study; and even those who have given this—beginning,
too, with far more learning than we possess—have
reached widely different conclusions. Well may the Book
of Job say, ‘Canst thou by searching find out God?’ but
the author, whoever he was, failed to draw the conclusion
that, if there were a God he would not so have hidden
himself.”
“I suppose you are right; at least, I don’t see how to
answer you. But, surely, Fred, there is a great deal in the
Bible about the truth being easy to find. All through the
Old Testament it is the Jews who are turning away from
God, and he who pleads with them to return; and in the
New it says that God has hidden these things from the
wise and prudent, and revealed them unto babes; and that
only those who become as little children can enter into the
kingdom of heaven.”
“That is, only those who crush down the intellect and
believe blindly,” he said bitterly. “I can find no faith on
those terms, Alice; let me meet annihilation, if I must,
with my eyes open.”
For another moment she clung to him, with her face
hidden; then she looked up very pale, but calm.
“I can live without faith,” she said quietly; “but I give
you warning now, that without you and my child I could
not and would not live. If death comes to me first,—well!
if not”—
“You will live as long as there is any one for whom you
123can make the burden of life less heavy,” he said, “and so
will I so far as we can control our own fate. It has been
all the creed I could boast of for many years, Alice, to say,
‘I believe there are those whom I must live to help.’ I
give it to you, now, in return for that of which I have
robbed you; take it for what it is worth.”
“‘I believe there are those whom I must live to help,’”
she repeated slowly. “It is a better creed than poor Jennie’s,
Fred. ‘I believe there are those whom I must live
to help!’” A sudden light came to her eyes, a smile to
her lips. “I will begin with you!” she cried. “Why, how
abominably selfish I am, to keep you here talking theology,
when you are tired to death and half starved, I dare say.”
“My comforts are at least all ready for me,” he answered,
smiling, with a glance at the tempting meal upon the table,
and the coffee-pot, and little dish of fried oysters keeping
hot before the fire.
“I thought you would rather have your lunch here,” she
said. “Will you change your clothes first?”
“They seem to have pretty well dried on me,” he answered,
“but I shall feel better for a hot bath; I am chilled
to the very bone. And, meanwhile, there is some one else,
Alice, love, who will need your care. Your brother asked
to send poor little Pinkie here for a few days, and of course
I had no wish to refuse. You will not mind the trouble, I
know. The carriage will be here in a few moments.”
“Poor little Pinkie!” Alice’s eyes filled with the first
tears that she had shed for Mrs. Randolph. “No, no, she
will not be a trouble; but I must tell Freddy.” She
paused, hesitated, and came back. “What shall I say to
him, Fred? I can’t tell him that his aunt has gone to
heaven. I don’t know that there is such a place.”
“She has gone into the unknown,” he replied; “but that
would be nonsense to Freddy. I do not know what better
124name you can find, my dear, than just heaven. And if you
don’t believe in golden harps and a glassy sea,—well,
neither do you put much faith in the country above the
bean-stalk; yet you tell Freddy about that.”
Alice went away, not quite satisfied, yet seeing no other
course practically open to her than that suggested by her
husband. It was a comfort that Freddy needed not now to
be instructed in the nature or whereabouts of the Celestial
Country. His small imagination took fire at once at the
idea that Aunt Jennie had gone there; and he talked so
eloquently to Pinkie of harps and crowns and angels with
great white wings that, what with his conversation, and
the pride and honor of paying a visit all alone, the little
thing dried her tears for the mother whom she had been
told she was never to see again, and was comforted until
bedtime. But by bedtime Alice’s hands were so full as
to promise her every opportunity to put her new creed into
action.
For Dr. Richards’s hot bath had proved quite ineffectual
to take the chill out of his bones. Alice found him sitting
huddled over the fire, shivering with what he asserted to
be only a nervous chill. He could not eat, but was insatiably
thirsty, and said that his eyes bothered him; he
supposed the snow had dazzled them. She tried vainly to
persuade him to go to bed, until her persuasions were re-enforced
by the positive orders of Dr. Harrison, who happened
to come in. Before morning he was burning with
fever, and tormented with all the worst agonies of inflammatory
rheumatism.
Truly, it seemed that Mrs. Randolph had been right, and
that an avenging God was punishing the faithless for their
disloyalty to him. And yet how had this illness come?
By spending and being spent for others; by rendering good
for the evil rendered unto him. Has not Christ said, “Inasmuch
125as ye did it unto these, ye did it unto me”? Can
he return evil for good?
Only a step of the way can our dull eyes see; and oftentimes
that step is rough and hard, and to us looks very
evil. But the evil shall pass away, the good remaineth.
It was strange what comfort and strength Alice found in
her new creed, meagre though it were in comparison with
the creeds of Christendom.
“I believe there are those whom I must live to help.”
Simple and practical, at least.
Logical? well, no! The human mind is, fortunately,
not supremely logical; fortunately, I say, considering the
readiness wherewith it adopts premises whose sole logical
conclusion would be worse than the Spanish Inquisition, or
the hanging of the Salem witches. Dr. Richards’s creed
had come to his wife backed by the irresistible force of his
life and character.
But neither of them reflected that in the verb, the little
verb must, lay all they professed to deny,—an ordered
universe and an ordering God.
126
Sally Price had parted, in the storm and stress of life,
with most of the superstitions wherewith she began the
world; but there were two upon which she still retained a
firm hold. One related to the new moon, which was to her
a sign and token of good luck if seen over the right shoulder,
or in full face in the open sky; while the left shoulder,
or the obscuring branches of trees, brought, in some shape
or other, misfortune. She always made a wish before she
removed her eyes from the first sight of the new moon,
holding up money, if her pocket happened to contain any
of that commodity; but in this she had less faith, though
she often referred to the fact that, the very last new moon
before Polly’s famous swoon, she, Sally, had shown the
moon a silver dime, and had wished for something to do
whereby they could keep from starving.
The other superstition was that New Year’s Day foretold
the year’s complexion, whether sad or joyful. Not its
atmospheric condition. Sally looked upon the weather as
a matter of too slight importance to be capable of foretelling
anything; but sick or sorry; penniless, cold, and hungry;
busy, happy, rich, and glad,—as New Year’s Day found
her, so, in the main, would she be throughout the year.
They were foolish superstitions enough, I admit; yet
Sally had infused something into them not utterly and
ridiculously preposterous. For if, as she so humbly and
faithfully believed, a Providence watches over the fall of
127the sparrow, why could not the same Providence foretell to
her by the position of the moon and her own impecuniosity,
or the reverse, and also by the events and circumstances of
New Year’s Day, His gracious will concerning her for the
ensuing month or year? It was quite worth His while to
comfort her with a little gleam of hope when help was at
hand, or to give her time to prepare her mind if misfortune
were approaching. And not for the world would she have
waited to get the moon over her right shoulder before she
looked up, or in any other way have tampered with the
omen. It was certainly not her doing that they were to
take possession of their new quarters in Männerchor Hall
on Sylvester-Abend itself, or that the New Year was to
open so brightly with a concert and ball; but it was not
strange, but touching, how persistently she strove that
Susan should be perfectly well by the eventful day.
“If you wasn’t younger than me, Susan Price,” she said,
“I’d say you was in your dotage. Tired! What have you
done to tire you, I’d like to know?”
“That’s just where it is, Sally,” her sister would answer
meekly, “I ain’t done nothin’; and yet I feel’s if I don’t
want to lift a finger, not if the house was afire.”
“Well, don’t lift a finger, then,” Sally would reply.
“There ain’t no call for you to; and when the house
ketches fire, I’ll come and call you.”
The truth was that Susan, who had never possessed
Sally’s vigor, either of mind or body, had been worn out
by the bitterness of the struggle for existence, and had no
strength to rally now that the worst of the battle was over.
Dr. Richards had prescribed tonics—and paid for them
himself—and had shaken his head gravely when he had
left her.
“A total change of air, scene, and idea,” he said privately
to Karl Metzerott, “might possibly put new life into her;
128but I doubt if she have sufficient elasticity of mind or
body to make such a change possible. Set her down in the
middle of Paris or London, and she would mentally carry
Grind and Crushem and her sewing-machine along with
her. She can’t shake them off as her sister has done.”
“Not till she moves to the graveyard,” said Karl grimly;
“that’s the only change possible for her, I suppose.”
“And she will piously believe that an All-Merciful God
has sent her there! Well, poor soul, it’s her only consolation;
I would not rob her of it if I could.”
“Which you couldn’t, doctor. That’s the queerest part
of all the lot of rubbish. Those two women believe that
the All-Merciful God you speak of has watched over them
all their lives, as firmly as I believe you have just written
that prescription. I cannot understand it.”
“Nor I,” said the doctor; “but there are so many things
one cannot understand,” he added, half to himself.
Did it ever occur to him now, as he lay upon his bed of
pain, that an all-merciful, loving Father might be trying—even
then—to teach him the lesson which Susan Price
already had learned,—the lesson he could not understand?
The move on New Year’s Eve brightened up poor Susan
so as to cheer Sally wonderfully. They were busy all day
arranging their new domicile; for they meant to use the
front portion of the former shop as a dining-room, where
those whom they supplied might, if they preferred, take
their meals instead of having them sent home. They had
already had an application from a young German girl who
taught in the public schools, and had neither friends nor
relatives in the city, and from one or two clerks in the
various stores. Metzerott and Frau Anna, for a while at
least, would provide for the conveyance of their own meals,
though the former had plans and designs upon a house that
129stood next to the Hall, whereof he spoke not until the
time should be ripe.
Besides their “moving and unpacking,” as Sally jocularly
called it,—for they had little to move but their three selves,—and
the meals to prepare for their regular customers,
there was the supper to be served at the ball that night, so
it may be imagined that the Prices had their hands full.
Franz Schaefer came around early “to help,” as he said, in
reality to look at Polly in the intervals of his proper business
of attending to the fire and lights. He was now a
tall, somewhat gawky youth of nearly seventeen, with his
father’s reddish hair standing up like a halo around an
honest, open, but ugly countenance, which, lacking the
pastor’s nervous quickness, wore for its most constant expression
a stolid impassibility. Only with his violin upon
his shoulder did his face light up or change; but, with the
soft touch of the electric wood against his cheek, the eyes
grew soft and humid, a half-smile curved the corners of the
rather heavy lips, and a slight color crept into his usually
pale face.
Polly, who was three years his senior, laughed at the
lad’s devotion, and alternately petted and scolded him, like
a mother. Franz submitted; but he had entirely made up
his mind as to his own course.
“I mean to marry her if she will wait until I come back
from Germany,” he said to himself. “If she marries any
one else, I will kill him like a mosquito.”
Certainly, no one suspected such bloodthirsty designs in
the quiet youth who lounged awkwardly against the doorpost
as the members of the Männerchor climbed, laughing
and talking, up the steep winding staircase that led to the
Concert Hall, most of them pausing to chaff “Janitor
Franz,” as they went by. Franz was not good at chaff; he
never could think of anything clever enough to say until
130the occasion was past. Then he thought of a plenty, he
said. Sometimes he confided some of the things he ought
to have said to Polly, who laughed at him undisguisedly.
“If you were a soldier, Franz,” she said, “you’d go
after your ammunition just as the battle was beginning.”
As usual Franz only grinned in reply, but later in the
evening he suddenly exclaimed aloud, “Not if somebody I
can imagine were on the other side.”
Several persons standing by looked at him in surprise;
but Franz did not deign to explain that the imaginary
somebody was Polly’s possible husband.
In truth Franz was not stupid, though the connection
between his mind and tongue did not act as rapidly as
might have been wished. But give him time and he could
think as clearly and plan as well as anybody. And thus
on this Sylvester Night it was beautiful to see how evident
he made it to all men that Polly belonged to him. He
surrounded her with his own family, of whom Tina, recently
married, was his confidant, and highly approved his
choice. The pastor was amused, but unconcerned, as at
something belonging to a distant and improbable future;
and Gretchen, who still held fast her own immunity from
accident, was mildly sarcastic and coolly critical. Polly
did not rebel; she liked the pastor’s family, even to Lottie,
now grown stouter than ever, and apt to drop asleep on
very small provocation. Tina and Polly were fast friends;
and, as for Franz himself, his devotion was too absurd for
any sensible person to consider seriously.
It was the last hour of the old year, and “Damenregiment”
was solemnly proclaimed by the Herr President.
The ladies, he said, who for all the year had been under
the rule of their lords and masters, for that one hour, were
to have full sway. They were to ask, and their partners
were not to refuse, to tread a measure devised for the total
131overthrow of the nobler sex. In the “Männerchor Cotillon”
the dancers stood in a circle as in “Tucker.” In
the midst stood a table and chair, the former bearing
favors and a nightcap. Up to this table each conqueror
waltzed her chosen victim, and, either decorated him with
a favor—in which case he waltzed her away again,—or—put
the nightcap on his head. In which case, he naturally
remained in his place until released by some more gracious
Tänzerin.
Great was the fun and loud the laughter; many an old
score was paid off by a specially unbecoming arrangement
of that yellow tissue-paper cap, with its full white frill
and long floating strings; many a shy old bachelor was
hunted out from his refuge in the gallery, and made, as he
keenly felt, a scorn and hissing in the sight of all men.
Polly thoroughly enjoyed it. She chose the prettiest favor
she could find for Karl Metzerott, who was her first partner,
and who, simply to tease Franz, improved his opportunity
to keep her to himself so long that not a few gossiping
eyebrows went up in consequence. Polly, however, being
filled with compassion at the sight of Franz chained,
Andromeda-like, to that fatal chair (though when duly
capped he rather resembled Medusa), raised him to the
seventh heaven by releasing him.
“It must be nearly twelve,” she said. “Ought not you to
look after that dynamite bomb, or whatever it is, that is to
explode the New Year in upon us?”
Franz grinned; this time his answer was all ready.
“I’ve got nothing to do with that,” he said, “that’s the
president’s business. They would not trust me, anyway;
I’m too young. I know who I’m going to wish a happy
New Year to, Miss Polly, first of anybody here.”
“That’s good,” she said coolly, “who is it?”
“Ah! I won’t tell, or she’d be running off,” said the
132lad; “but if any fellow cuts in ahead of me, I’ll throw
him downstairs. Miss Polly, if I was to kiss her hand,
you know, would she be mad at me?”
“Yes, I think she would,” rejoined Polly. “There are
my aunts, who have come up for the New Year wishes; it
must be near twelve.”
Sally and Susan had been busy in the kitchen over the
supper, all the evening, but at this moment appeared in
the doorway, to see the Old Year out and the New Year
in, smiling and radiant in the new dresses which Frau
Anna had made for them.
“Aunt Susan looks so very pale,” said Polly uneasily,
“I am afraid she has been working too hard. I ought to
have stayed and helped them, but they were both so kind,
and the music sounded so bright and cheering,”—
“There was so little to do,” said Franz, “the supper was
mostly ready”—
At this moment something—perhaps a dynamite bomb,
as Polly had said,—exploded on the stage, and Polly found
her hand suddenly seized and kissed.
“Prosit Neujahr! Miss Polly,” cried Franz; “I hope you
may be as happy as I would like to make you.”
Polly had no time to be angry; indeed she was half
stunned by the “Prosits” and handshakings going on all
around her. But through it all there rang all at once a
shrill, grief-stricken cry.
“Not now, Susan! Oh! not now, when we were goin’ to
be so happy!”
For, amid the laughter and good wishes all around her,
Susan Price had suddenly and quietly fainted away.
133
From the swoon into which she had fallen on that New
Year’s Night Susan Price was slow in reviving. But it was
nothing, she said, when she had at last regained consciousness;
she was only stupid and tired. So the ball went on
undisturbed, the dancers being only too ready to accept any
theory that would not mar their enjoyment. But Sally
went about her work with dry eyes and set lips. It was
all over, she thought, as she rapidly served the ice-cream;
Susan was struck with death, she would never live through
a year that had opened so.
“An’ after all we’ve went through together,” thought
Sally, “to die jest as things is growin’ brighter. Well, the
Lord knows best, and she’ll be took care of up there; but
how I am to live without her I s’pose He knows, but it’s
more than I do. You, Polly,” she added aloud, “you ain’t
got no call to slice that cake so thin. Give the folks the
worth of their money, do. And take a sharper knife to it,
for a good half goes in crumbs, and I despise crumbs.
They are jest clear sinful waste, specially cake crumbs,
that can’t even be fed to the birds.”
“I’ll eat ‘em,” said Heinz Schaefer, who had, with several
other boys of his age, volunteered as waiters for the
new caterer.
“You carry that coffee straight, without spillin’ none of
it, and we’ll talk about cake afterwards,” answered Sally
severely. “Polly,” she continued, “seems to me we’ll
134come out pretty fair on expenses to-night; and by the next
ball we’ll be makin’ our own ices, and do even better. Run
now for just a minute and see how your Aunt Susan is,
that’s a good girl. Laws! what a thing Providence is, to
be sure. To think Dr. Richards should be so ill just at this
minute! But there!” she thought within herself a moment
later, “what call have I got to be talkin’ about Providence
like that? The angel Gabriel himself couldn’t do her no
good ef she’s struck with death.”
A day or two after this, Susan was sitting alone in the
bedroom which was shared by all three. It was scarcely
a luxurious apartment; but there was a rag carpet on the
floor and a fire in the little grate, which was more like luxury
than any of Susan’s surroundings for many years.
There were patchwork cushions, too, lining the great
wooden rocker that gave so grateful a support to her tired
frame; her calico dress was clean and whole, and a soft,
warm shawl was folded round the thin shoulders. Yet
there was no sign of pleasure in Susan’s face, no look of
basking in creature comforts; she was very white and worn,
and from time to time a large tear escaped from under her
closed eyelid, and wandered down over the withered cheek.
A little hand fumbling at the lock, the sound of small
feet upon the floor, made her brush away these tokens of
inward disturbance, and turn with a smile to greet Louis
and his friend and accompanying shadow, George, the
uninteresting.
“Aunt Susan, we’ve come to amuse you a little,” said
Louis half timidly; for there was something beyond his
comprehension in the smile on that white face.
“I’ve come to jest that,” said Susan quietly, without a
shadow of bitterness; “not as I ever was much to brag
about, specially compared with Sally; but now I ain’t even
fit to amuse a child, he has to amuse me.”
135Louis seated himself cross-legged on the floor at her feet,
George imitating him to the letter, and looked up gravely
into her face. “My papa says,” he continued, “that he
hopes you are better, and if you could take a little walk it
would do you good.”
“Nothin’ won’t ever do me no good no more, Louis, not
in this world.”
“And Aunt Sally says,” continued the boy, so anxious
for the accurate transmission of his message as to pass by
this remark, “Aunt Sally says, if you feel strong enough,
you could take a walk with me and George, and if you
don’t, we can ’muse you a little bit.”
“Bless your sweet eyes,” said Susan, “I ain’t strong
enough hardly to walk across this room, Louis, let alone
goin’ out o’ doors.”
Louis pondered over this for a moment pitifully; it was
quite incomprehensible to his childish vigor. Then, his
mind reverting to his own concerns, he brought out, as
most of us do, the subject which lay uppermost.
“I want to ask you, Aunt Susan, how do boys learn to
read?”
Susan laughed. “Same way girls do, I s’pose,” she said.
“I learned out of a spellin’-book. But you must learn your
letters first.”
“What’s letters?” asked the child.
Susan lifted the large Bible that lay on the table beside
her,—a treasure inherited from their mother, to which the
sisters had clung all through their days of destitution. It
opened of itself at the eleventh chapter of Isaiah.
“That’s a letter,” said Susan, pointing to the large capital
that headed the chapter; “that’s A, and A stands for
Anna.”
“Does it, really?” cried Louis, while George grinned
delightedly, and pressed nearer to see for himself.
136“There’s another A,” he went on, glancing down the page,
“and another, and—oh, lots of ‘em! What stands for
George?”
It took some little while to find a G, and L, for Louis was
even more difficult; but by dinner-time the child had
learned the initials of most of his acquaintances, and
Susan’s eyes were bright with pleasurable excitement.
“Why do you want to read so bad, all of a sudden,
Louis?” she asked, during the course of the lesson.
“’Cause Freddy’s papa is sick, and his mamma ain’t got
time to read ’bout the Christ-child to him,” said Louis.
“And if I learned, then I could, you know, Aunt Susan.”
“I guess Freddy’s papa will be either well or dead before
you learn to read,” said Susan thoughtfully; “but you can
try, anyway. When was you there?”
“Yesterday. I’m goin’ again after dinner. Mrs. Richards
says I ’muse Freddy and Miss Pinkie; and I ’muse
you, too, don’t I, Aunt Susan?”
“You’re a real little Christ-child yourself,” said Susan
fondly.
Louis’ little face beamed with quick pleasure. “I didn’t
know I could be a Christ-child ’cept at Christmas,” he said.
“You can be a Christ-child any time, all the year round,”
replied Susan earnestly; “whenever you make any one good
or happy, Louis, that is being like Him.”
“Did He make everybody happy?” asked the child
rather doubtfully, perhaps remembering the gaunt forms in
his Christmas picture, for he added, “Some of their bones
stick out awful.”
“Well, He ain’t never promised to make ‘em fat,” returned
Susan dryly; “but as for happy—! Louis, I’ve
been through a lot, and I know what I’m talkin’ about.
Them that come to Him, He don’t never cast out, you remember
that. He ain’t never forsook me yet, and He ain’t
137a-goin’ to. Ef I begin to doubt Him and fret about not
bein’ of no use no more, then He sends an angel to visit
with me; that’s what He does, Louis!”
“Does He really?” said George, who had listened open-mouthed
to all this conversation.
“Well,” said Susan, laughing, though with the tears in
her eyes, “p’raps I’d oughter said two angels; but, to tell
you the truth, George, I forgot you slick and clean.”
Männerchor Hall stood about midway between Metzerott’s
shop and the residence of Dr. Richards, which stood,
as Mrs. Randolph had often regretfully remarked, in an old
and unfashionable quarter of the town. Louis was therefore
able to find his way thither alone; for, though he was
but five and a half, children younger than he were left
much more to their own guidance, all around him. In fact,
one neighbor of the shoemaker’s, whose six-year-old daughter
was nightly obliged to fetch him home from the corner
saloon, had long ago prophesied that Metzerott would ruin
that boy by over-care, and advised the inculcation of habits
of self-reliance.
But there was no lack of self-reliance about the small
figure in the fur cap and brown overcoat, with mittened
hands rammed tightly into the pockets of the same, that
stepped along so carefully over the icy sidewalks, and
watched so keenly at the crowded crossings for a chance
to get over. There was, indeed, even a tinge of self-importance;
was he not the bearer of knowledge? For the
idea had come to Louis that he could “’vide” the letters
he had learned with Freddy, and that they could learn to
read “togevver;” which plan was found to result admirably,
assisted by a box of alphabetical blocks.
Learning to read was at least a quiet amusement; and
Louis’ visits were found to conduce so greatly to the tranquillity
necessary to Dr. Richards’s comfort as to be promoted
138not only by Alice, but even by Pinkie’s nurse, who
had at first been inclined to consider the shoemaker’s son
no fit playmate for her little charge. Yet Louis could be
noisy enough with George; and was wont to storm in and
out of his father’s shop in a way to rejoice his father’s
heart, it was only that with Freddy, who was a cripple,
and Pinkie, who was a girl, another side of his nature came
into play. Besides, all of Freddy’s noisy toys had been
put away,—drum, pop-gun, and toy locomotive stood
together on a high shelf, with Pinkie’s beloved wheel (or
feel, as she called it) leaning against the closet wall beneath
it; its sharply, irritatingly, jingling little bell silent perforce.
But there remained innumerable books, and the
blocks before named, which were probably somewhat
amazed at finding themselves considered from a literary
rather than an architectural standpoint.
Among the books was a picture Bible for children, which
was not without its influence upon the young minds that
studied it; for, though the letter-press had only begun to
wear a faint look of familiarity to their young eyes, the
pictures were numerous; and most of the stories had been
told or read to Freddy until he knew them by heart.
Pinkie had never in her life been so good, the nurse said,
as when she listened with all her eager little ears to the
story of the Flood, illustrated by the toy Noah’s Ark; or
personated Isaac to Louis’ sacrificial Abraham, while
Freddy, aided by a pair of immense paper horns, represented
the ram caught in the bushes. During Louis’ intervening
absences, Pinkie was her spoilt, mischievous
little self; and disputes between her and Freddy, whose
spinal column predisposed him to fretfulness, and who was
as unaccustomed to contradiction as Pinkie herself, were
distressingly frequent; but when one o’clock brought
Louis, smiling radiantly, and full of some new idea that
139he had picked up, or new word that he had learned from
Susan Price or a street sign, and was eager to teach the
others by means of Freddy’s blocks,—Pinkie’s naughtiness
and wilfulness vanished like a dream, and she became
the most docile little maid that ever invited the judgment
of Solomon, or was slain, as Jephthah’s daughter, among
the hills of Palestine.
Their favorite characters, however, were taken from the
New Testament; and though nurse—a devout Romanist—averred
that “it gave her a turn, to see thim childer
playin’ at bein’ the blessed Mother and the dear Saviour,”
she was too learned in the ways of children, and of Pinkie
in particular, to risk an interruption, when Dr. Richards
lay asleep and the house was holding its breath for fear of
disturbing him. So the precedent was established, and
after that she was powerless to interfere, except at the
expense of a general mutiny.
The rôle of the Christ was always taken by Louis; why,
it seemed difficult to explain, for he was never unwilling
to resign to the others any character to which they specially
inclined. Freddy might be Elijah, fed with cake crumbs
by wingless ravens at an imaginary Cherith, or King Solomon
to Pinkie’s Queen of Sheba; or Pinkie herself might
choose any impersonation she liked, regardless of sex and
size; from Adam or Noah, to Goliath of Gath. But, without
argument or controversy, the part of the Christ invariably
fell to Louis. Perhaps he cared more for it than they
did; perhaps they felt it was less alien to his nature than
to theirs. For indeed the thought of “being a little Christ-child
himself,” which his father had half carelessly planted,
and Susan Price had watered, had—whether by a Great
First Cause or Fors Fortuna—been given increase.
“Would the Christ-child do that?” he sometimes asked.
“How did the Christ-child do?” he would say. And in
140his mornings spent with George, amusing Aunt Susan, or
his afternoons passed in keeping Freddy and Pinkie good
and quiet, he was living out that holy Life which he had
been taught to believe only a fairy-tale.
As Dr. Richards slowly grew better, and again became
alive to sensations other than purely and painfully subjective,—he
found some amusement in watching these
amateur miracle-plays. One afternoon they were in the
full tide of a new story, which he could hardly at first
make out, as he lay on his couch, observing them through
the open door.
Freddy sat alone in the room impersonating ten lepers,
so there was little wonder his father failed to take in the
situation. Then the door opened, and Louis entered, followed
by all the disciples in the person of Pinkie. A blue
broché shawl, belonging to nurse, with a bright gold and
red border, was draped about him in a very tolerable imitation
of the pictures; his head was bare, and his childish face
upturned with so sweet and solemn a look that one might
almost have fancied him indeed on his way to Jerusalem
and Calvary. Then came the cry from Freddy, “Jesus,
Master, have mercy on us!”
Louis stopped, and turned slowly. His whole countenance
changed and softened into tenderness and pity; he
stretched out one hand with a gesture full of authority.
“Go, show yourselves to the priests,” he said.
“Now dey’s gone,” cried Pinkie, who seemed inclined to
add the part of Greek chorus to her other characters,
“now, dey’s all well adain, and here turns one of ‘em,
yunnin, yunnin fasht. Now, Feddy, you tan dowify Dod.”
But just as Freddy began obediently to clap his hands
and shout, “Glory, glory,” Louis, who had stood all the
while motionless, regarding him fixedly, suddenly laid that
small outstretched hand on the arm of his little friend.
141“Stop, Freddy,” he said, still with the same tone of
strange authority, “stop, I’m going to cure you.”
Freddy looked up surprised and half frightened. Alice
rose from her seat by the window, and the nurse quietly
began to put by her sewing as though to be ready for any
emergency, for there was something in the child’s manner
that showed him to be in awful earnest.
“Freddy, arise and walk!”
The childish tones rang through the room like the notes
of a silver flute; there was a pause; Dr. Richards in the
next room raised himself on his elbow to see the better,
Alice made one step forward, and the nurse stood quietly
watching, all unconscious of the tears that followed each
other silently down her cheeks. Even Pinkie was hushed
with expectation, and I think no one would have been at
that moment surprised if the command had been obeyed.
But, alas! the two little hands upon the arms of Freddy’s
chair, the helpless feet concealed by the gay, embroidered
skirt, were powerless to raise or to sustain even so slight a
weight as that small figure. There was an effort, a struggle
perceptible but vain; then Freddy’s voice cried out, “O
Louis, I can’t, I can’t! my legs aren’t strong enough,” and
broke into bitter, childish weeping.
The look of authority and confident power on Louis’
face changed to incredulity, doubt, and blank hopelessness.
His hand fell from Freddy’s shoulder—Freddy, who was
already in his mother’s arms—and he began to unfasten
the shawl draped about him.
“It’s no use,” he said quietly, his manner recalling
vividly to the looker-on in the next room Karl Metzerott’s
stern, self-contained grief at the bedside of his dying wife,—“It’s
no use; I don’t want to be the Christ any more!”
“Den I’ll be bad,” cried Pinkie; and, suddenly lapsing
into one of her naughtiest fits, she threw herself on the
142floor and screamed in a manner that Louis’ composure was
not proof against; the tears rose to his eyes and his breast
heaved.
“I think I’ll go home now,” he said with quivering lip.
“No, no, don’t ye now, alanna,” said nurse hastily, in the
intervals of picking up Pinkie—who made herself very
stiff indeed—from the floor, and assuring her that she
should be sent up to the nursery for the rest of the day, if
she cried and made her poor uncle ill again. “Don’t go
yet, Louis astore, Miss Pinkie’ll never be good without ye.
Stop yer cryin’, all of yez, and I’ll tell ye somethin’ now.”
“A story?” asked Pinkie, breaking off a roar in the
middle, and speaking in a composed and cheerful tone.
“Not a story, darlint, but”—as Pinkie picked up her
roar at the very point where she had dropped it, “somethin’
nice, very nice, that’ll make Louis play with you and Master
Freddy again.”
Freddy, at this, raised his head from his mother’s
shoulder, Louis dried his eyes and drew near, and Pinkie
condescended to put aside her intended “badness,” pending
further developments.
Alice stood erect, very white and still.
“I will leave them all to you, nurse,” she said, “though
it is bitter to feel that any one but his mother can comfort
my boy. But if you can make them happy again, do so; I
cannot; one must say what one really believes to children,
and I do not believe that—any one—could have cured
Freddy any better than Louis did.”
“God help you, ma’am,” said nurse fervently. Then
Alice went away into the next room, sat down beside her
husband, and laid her hand in his.
“You may be wrong about one thing, dearest,” he said
softly. “Harrison was talking to me to-day about a new
kind of treatment he wants to try for Freddy. It won’t
143cure him, that is impossible; but it may help him very materially.
Harrison hopes more from it than I do; but if he
is even able to get about with crutches, that will be something.”
“Will it be painful?” she asked, mother-like.
“A little, perhaps; but you can bear even to see him suffer,
can you not, if it will add to his happiness in the end?”
“If, yes; but hush, what is nurse telling them?”
“Sure, ye don’t think the blessed Saviour came on earth
just to cure sick people, do ye?” asked the mellow Irish
voice. “He did heal the lepers, of course, and He raised
the dead; but what He come for, you childer, was to make
people good. It was just last Sunday our praste was tellin’
us that pain is nothing at all at all, and no more is death,
compared with sin. You childer can’t understand that yet;
but ye know the blessed Jesus died, don’t ye? and in such
pain—why, look here!” and she pulled a crucifix out of
her bosom, and showed it to the children, explaining and
painting so vividly the pain of such a death that Freddy
was ready to cry again, and Pinkie to do battle with His
murderers.
“So ye see,” continued nurse, “that He suffered pain and
death too, but not sin. Nobody ever heard of His doing
wrong; and, as Father McClosky said, that shows which He
thought the worst of. So, though you childer can’t expect
to do miracles like He did, you can help each other to be
good, and that’s what He likes much better.”
“If I was dare,” said Pinkie, “I’d made yose bad mens
yun avay fasht, an’ pull yose nails out and say, ‘Tum down,
dear Saviour!’”
“Sure, there was onct a little bird thought that same,”
said nurse, availing herself of the opening to change the
subject of conversation; and she proceeded to tell them
the legend of the Redbreast, to their great delight.
144“But he didn’t get the nail out,” said Louis rather mournfully,
as the story ended.
“No; but, sure, he got the Saviour’s blood on his breast,
and wears it there to this day, and that was honor enough
for him.”
“Want to shee blood on his bweast,” said Pinkie; so
nurse put down her sewing, and looked for a picture of a
robin, and, by the time she had succeeded, the children were
eager for play again, and Freddy’s wheeled chair became
the Ark of the Covenant, with Pinkie dancing before it as
King David, while Louis and his mouth-harp represented
all the priests and Levites.
That same night Susan Price quietly and peacefully
faded out of life. She had borne sorrow and pain enough;
had she helped any one to be good? It would have been
hard to judge of so blank and colorless a life. She had
never seemed other than a pale reflection of her sister, even
her love and loyalty to whom had been too instinctive and
shadow-like to appear other than a thing of course.
“I’ll try to live without you, Sue,” said Sally, looking
down on the cold, placid face. “I’ll try to live without
you, and, since the Lord has taken you, I s’pose I kin,—now!
But when we was poor and starvin’, Sue, I couldn’t
of, I know I couldn’t; and it’ll be a long day, sister, until I
see you again.”
And this was Susan Price’s sole funeral oration.