Early one spring morning, as I was going about my work, a messenger
arrived, saying my Father wanted me. So I made haste and finished up
all my work, looked over my wardrobe, picked out and packed up such
articles as I thought I should need, and started on my journey, my
guide going on before. We had not traveled far before we came to a
broad, dark river, whose waters at the time were very much swollen. My
guide said, I would have to wait awhile till a ferryboat could come
and take me across; so I sat down on the bank of the river and began
musing. The river, though so dark and swollen, did not look so
dreary, for my guide had given me a telescope, through which I could
look away beyond and see my Father's House, which was illuminated with
glory and light; and the light from that far mansion shone over the
river and the dark valley all around. While I sat there musing, the
boat came, but not for me; there were other friends there, the Father
had sent for before me; but he sent me this comforting message: "I
will never leave thee, nor forsake thee," and my soul answered: "All
the days of my appointed time will I wait till my change comes." (Job
iv., 14.) And so for many days I sat there waiting and musing; again
and again the boat came and went, friend after friend passed over, but
still the message came not for me. At length I began to grow weary and
impatient; to neglect my Father's business; saying my Lord delays his
coming; then came this quiet reproval: "Ye have need of patience, that
after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise."
"For yet a little while and He that is to come will come and will not
tarry." (Heb. ix., 36, 37.) After this gentle reproof, I felt ashamed
and strove to humble myself under the mighty hand of God, and in due
time He did build me up, for my guide advised me to take my telescope
and take another look towards my Father's House. I did so, and the
sight gave me new vigor, for I could see all the surroundings of my
Home. I could see its beautiful gardens, all its choicest fruit and
its sweetest flowers; and flowing through the midst of the garden I
could see the "pure river" of the "Water of Life," which watered and
enlivened every plant that grew in the garden; and on either side of
the river stood the "Tree of life," "which bore twelve manner of
fruit, and yielded her fruit every month, and the leaves of the tree
were good for the healing of the nations;" then there was the sweet
Lilly of the Valley, in its humble innocence sending up its rich
perfume; then the "Rose of Sharon" was there, whose odor filled the
air with sweetness, and the Birds of Paradise were there,—those sweet
little songsters that the Father had brought from the cold, sterile
regions beyond Jordan, and placed in His beautiful garden. They were
busily flitting from branch to branch, warbling forth their sweetest
notes, and making the air resound with their music. Some of them I
thought I almost knew, by the mark of their feathers. As I sat gazing,
the river that before had been so swollen, seemed to subside and
become very narrow, and seemed as if I had nothing to do, but get up
and walk across; but my guide detained me, saying: "If ye be willing
and obedient, ye shall in due time eat the good of the land, but if
disobedient, the sword of the enemy shall devour you."
Being still detained and feeling somewhat weary, "I laid me down and
slept, and awoke again, for the Lord sustained me." On awaking, I
took up my telescope to take another look across, but I only had it
adjusted to my eye, when I again discovered the ferryboat in the
distance. This time I thought surely it was coming for me, and began
to look around and make all things ready for departure; but again I
was doomed to disappointment. The boat came, but not for me this time
either; another friend must go before me, one whom the Father thought
more weak and needy than I. And as He saw me begin to grieve and fret,
He sent me another comforting message, saying: "I will not leave the
comfortless, in the sixth trial; and in the seventh, I will not leave
thee nor forsake thee." Then again my soul replied, I will fear no
evil; in God alone will I put my trust. When I found I had to wait
awhile longer, I thought I would look around on this side of Jordan,
for I had been so anxious to get home to my Father's House, and so
busy looking beyond, that I had not noticed anything on this side so
much; and in the glory of light that beamed across the river, I had
not noticed the poisonous flowers that spread their baneful influence
over all the land, or the muddy, filthy pools, sending up their
miasmatic odors, poisoning the air; and while I was looking, with
shame let me say it, poisonous as were those flowers, noxious as was
the vapor from the pools, I began to be interested in them, and to
seek after them; so much so, that my guide said softly in my ear:
"Watch and pray, lest ye enter into temptation." (Matt. xxvi., 41.)
But I was so engrossed with the flowers, and the whisper came so
softly, that I did not heed it, but kept on going farther away from
the river, losing sight more and more of my Father's House. Again my
guide called after me, but this time in louder tones: "Therefore be ye
also ready, for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of Man
cometh." (Matt. xxvi., 24.) But still, strange as it may seem, and as
ungrateful as it appears after the pleasant view I had had of my
Father's House, and the soothing promises he had given me, such is
perverse human nature, that I paid but little heed, but still wandered
on, plucking flowers, now here, now there, 'till I had gone quite
away; but still my loving Father would not leave me, "for whom the
Lord loveth he chasteneth," and on looking up I saw my guide
approaching with a rod, which, when he came near enough, he laid
heavily about me. Humbled, ashamed and bleeding, he brought me back
and laid me exhausted on the bank, where I lay for many days without
power to move or courage to look up. Although I had been so
disobedient, yet was my guide most assiduous in his attentions and
care of me, saying: "If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as
with sons, for what son is he whom the Father chasteneth not. (Heb.
xii., 70.) And as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth
them that love him, for he knows our frame that we are but dust."
(Ps. clxxxiii, 13.) It sorely repented me, and with the Psalmist I
exclaimed: "My feet were almost gone, my steps were well nigh
slipped." (Ps. lviii, 2) Then I began to cry mightily unto the Lord
for help, and from His temple He heard me, and from His Holy Hill He
sent me succor. And I was comforted by this message: "Before thou
callest I will hear thee, and while thou art yet speaking, I will
answer thee." Being thus comforted and somewhat strengthened, my guide
advised me to take up my telescope again and take another look across
the river. It had been so long since I had looked across, he thought
it would do me good, and so it did; for as I looked the green shores
appeared so pleasant and inviting to me, it made me feel at once like
passing over, and while I was gazing I saw the boat again leave the
shore; this time I thought it would certainly come for me. Again I
gathered up my things making ready to depart, and many friends
gathered around me, mourning and weeping, begging me not to go, but
stay with them; yet I was anxious to be gone. Many were the petitions
that went over to my Father's House to spare me a little longer, that
"they could not do without me;" in this I could not join them. I could
only say: "Lord let thy will be done." Meanwhile the boat came nearer
and nearer, and I lay looking, both hoping and fearing; hoping it was
coming for me, and fearing it was coming for me; for like the apostle
I was in a strait betwixt two: "for me to live is Christ, but to die
is gain." (Phil. vii., 21-23.) And I suppose that the prayers of
tender friends must have prevailed, for when the boat drew nearer, I
found it was not coming for me yet, but I received this message: "Let
Patience have her perfect work that ye may be perfect and entire,
wanting nothing." (James, i., 4.) From this I saw that Patience was to
be my best friend and I tried to take her close to my bosom, and my
heart breathed the prayer: "Lord help me with Patience to do all thy
righteous will concerning me," and, as I sat there, with Patience for
my comforter, I grew calm and composed and began to wonder what had
become of the boat I had seen approaching, when, on looking around, I
saw it had stopped close by an old friend that had been laying there
for a long time; almost ever since I had been there, and, while I
looked, I saw her with a shout spring up and step quickly into the
boat. Oh! with what rapture I gazed; and when the boat struck out from
the shore I could hardly contain myself, I felt I really must go too.
But Patience laid her hand on me, and whispered to me, to take my
telescope and look after them; and, as I looked, the boat sprang from
the shore with great velocity; the river seemed to become narrower,
and the light from my Father's Temple so illuminated it, that the
darkness had all fled away; and, as I gazed, my vision became brighter
and brighter, and my telescope became more powerful, and it seemed, I
might follow the boat with my naked eye, as it sped its way across,
until it neared the other shore; and, as it neared the shore, I saw
the pearly gates of my Father's House fly open, a company came out to
meet her, with songs of welcome, saying: "Come ye, blessed of my
Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of
the world." (Math. xxv., 34.) So they took hold of her and led her in
through the gates; and, as they went through, I could hear the
warbling of the birds amidst the rustling of the leaves, and could see
the waving grass and sweet flowers, and the waters rippling along
their winding way. As I looked, I really thought there were more birds
than I had ever seen before; and I never heard them sing so sweetly.
As I gazed upon the shining ones, I tried to see if I could recognize
any of them; and I thought I could see several whose faces were
familiar to me there, and with whom I had associated; and, while I was
still looking, they led her into the vestry; then I lost sight of her
awhile; but, presently, they brought her forth clothed in white linen,
pure and clean, and a palm of victory was placed in her hand; then I
saw a greater number come to meet her, and they all joined in one
mighty overpowering song, saying: "Salvation to our God, who sitteth
on the throne, and unto the Lamb." (Rev. vii., 10.)
As I heard this, my heart felt like bursting with rapture. O! how I
longed to be there! Just then the pearly gates swung to, and I could
see them no more. When I could see no more within, I thought I would
take a look around and view the holy ground, and "mark well her
bulwarks." So I looked well around her walls, and measured her towers,
which I found to be very strong, so that no enemy could prevail
against them; and her walls were great and high, and I found they lay
four-square and rested on twelve foundations, all of them precious
stones, and on each foundation there was a name written, which, when I
had looked more closely, I found to be the names of the twelve tribes
of the children of Israel; and in each wall I saw there were three
gates, and on the gates I saw the names of the twelve apostles of the
Lamb; and, as I still looked, I saw numbers coming and entering in at
the gates, from all parts of the world, East, West, North, and South;
every gate seemed in use, and with every new arrival there were new
songs of praise. As I still looked, I discovered, that all that went
over, did not enter the pearly gates; but, instead, some were hurled
over a dreadful precipice, which lay just below the wall, and led to a
dark, dreary gulf below, where the voice of their groanings was
dreadful to hear. Then I asked: "Who are these?" And my guide informed
me: "These are they that go away into everlasting punishment, and the
smoke of their torment ascends up forever and ever." And now my guide
thought I had seen quite enough for awhile, and so had better lie down
and rest; musing on these words: "Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard,
neither has it entered the heart of man, the things which God has
prepared for them that love Him."
While wondering what more could be for the child of God, than that
which my eyes had already seen, I fell asleep. When I awoke,
everything looked calm and bright around me; so I thought, with
Patience, I would take a stroll along the banks, and see if there were
any friends there whom I knew; for I saw many had gathered there
unobserved, while I had been so deeply interested in what was going
on, on the other side of the river. As I went around from one to
another, I found several I was acquainted with; some had been waiting
for a long time, others had just arrived. Some were waiting with
patience, others were growing very impatient. To while away the time,
and for mutual encouragement, I sat down, and entered into
conversation with some of them. "For as iron sharpeneth iron, so doth
a man the face of his friend." Some had grown very weary, and one
said: "I would have fainted, unless I had believed, to see the
goodness of the Lord in the land of the living; and now I believe,
that ere long I shall see the King in his beauty, for I have the
promise, that He, that is to come, will come, and will not tarry. And
my Father's command is: Wait on the Lord, be of good courage; and also
the promise: And He shall strengthen thine heart. Wait, I say, on the
Lord."
With this I felt very much encouraged, and felt as if I too could
"Wait on the Lord." Much more encouragement from one and another I
found, till presently I saw one coming up in great haste, saying: "My
Father has just sent for me in great haste, and I must be gone. Have
you seen the boat that takes us across?" I looked up and saw it
coming, and, while waiting for it to come to the shore, I asked her at
what time the messenger came for her. "In the early part of the
evening," she said, just as she had folded away all her work, and
closed up her house, and had sit down, to enjoy a long, quiet evening,
thinking over those texts of warning: "Let your loins be girded about
you, and your lights burning." Another: "Be ye also ready; for in an
hour, when you think not, the Son of man cometh." And said she: Just
while I was musing on these things, there came a knock at the door,
and the messenger came in, saying: "The Master calleth for thee;" so I
left all and made great haste to get here. The boat then came
alongside; she sprang in, and it shot off from the shore like an
arrow. Again I felt as if I could not be left behind; and, feeling
so anxious to go, I almost sprang into the water; for the river looked
so narrow, and I could see the bottom so plain; it seemed as if I
could walk across; but Patience laid hold of me and gently held me
back, saying: "Wait on the Lord, that the trial of your faith being
much more precious than of gold, that perisheth, though it be tried
with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the
appearing of Jesus Christ."
But I still felt so homesick and complaining, that my friend had
almost gained the other side, before I had observed it; so, then, I
thought, if I could not go, I could see across, and with my telescope
I could follow her and see her enter the pearly gates; by this time
she had reached the shore, and I saw a great company come out to meet
her, having harps in their hands; among them were several that I knew,
who had journeyed with us through life, whom I had heard many times
tell their hopes and fears; but, now, they were safely housed in their
Father's mansion, never more to go out. As they came to her they
commenced chanting: "Blessed are they that do his commandments; that
they may have a right to the Tree of Life, and may enter in through
the gates into the City."
As they led her through the gates, I again heard the singing of birds;
it seemed to me, at this time, they sang louder and sweeter than ever.
And amongst them I saw three,[1] that I thought looked more bright
and cheerful than the rest. These kept all the time very near her,
sometimes sitting on her shoulders, sometimes in one place, then
another; but all the time keeping near her, and expressing the utmost
joy. On examining more closely, I found they were some pets that she
had sent to her Father several years before; and now they led her into
the vestry; and, while they were robing her, as the gates were still
ajar, I thought I would look further within. So, by readjusting my
telescope, and increasing its magnifying power, I could see away
beyond the walls; and I discovered there "many mansions," that my
"Elder Brother" had gone many years ago to prepare, for all those that
love him. I thought, "my sister will soon inhabit one of these
mansions," and, how long, ere I too shall inhabit one also; and, in
the anxiety and desire of my soul, I cried: "How long, oh Lord!" Then
my guide whispered, reprovingly: "In patience possess ye your soul."
So, being comforted, I continued my gaze, and, looking further on, I
saw a great and high mountain, which, my guide told me, was Mount
Zion; and a Lamb stood on the mountain, and with him a hundred and
forty and four thousands, having their Father's name written in their
foreheads; and I heard a voice from heaven, as the voice of many
waters, and as the voice of a great thunder; and I heard the voice of
harpers, harping on their harps; and, they sang, as it were, a new
song before the throne. (Rev. xiv., 1-3.) Then I inquired of my guide
who the Lamb was, and who was this great company that was with him;
and he said: "The Lamb is He that was slain from the foundation of the
world, and they, that are with him, are those who follow the Lamb,
withersoever he goeth; these were redeemed from among men, being the
first fruits unto God and the Lamb." As I listened to their music, I
tried to hear what they were singing; and I found they were singing
the "Song of Moses, the servant of God," and the song of the Lamb,
saying: "Great and marvelous are thy ways, Lord God Almighty. Just and
true are thy ways, thou King of Saints. Who shall not fear thee, O
Lord, and glorify thy name, for Thou only art holy; for all nations
shall come and worship before thee, for thy judgments are made
manifest." (Rev. xv., 3, 4.)
I had become so enraptured with this beautiful sight, and so charmed
with the music, that I had quite forgotten my sister; but now I
bethought myself to look for her. I had not looked long, before I
discovered her amidst the company of the just made perfect; and, I
thought, her song was the loudest of any, as she sang: "I have come up
through tribulations, and washed my robes and made them white in the
blood of the Lamb!" Oh, how I longed to be amongst the heavenly
throng; but just then I heard friends calling me on this side, saying:
"Oh, be content to stay with us a little longer; we cannot let you go;
even lying here, we cannot do without you; even this is better than
not have you at all." The little children came winding themselves
around me, begging me to stay. "Oh," they would say, "we do want you
to be back among us; we cannot bear you to leave us." Oh! the power of
human love! How my heart was grieved! I was again in a strait betwixt
two; for, indeed, I felt it better to "depart and be with Christ." But
my Father knew best what he wanted me to do, so He left me the
promise: "Abide in me and I will abide in you; I will not leave you
comfortless; I will come to you." After this I entered into
conversation with my guide, about my friends that had gone over; said
he: "How did you know those friends?" I answered by asking him another
equally important question: "How did you know the Lamb that was slain
from the foundation of the world?" Said he: "I knew Him by the marks
in His hands and side, (John xx., 20), and from what the angels told
us when He was taken up into heaven and a cloud received him out of
sight." "This same Jesus," said they, "which is taken up from you into
heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen him go into
heaven." (Acts i., 9.) Well, said I, that is just how I knew my
friends; by the marks on them. Some men will say: "How are the dead
raised up, and with what body do they come? Thou fool; that which thou
sowest is not quickened, except it die, and that, which thou sowest,
thou sowest not that body that shall be, but are grain; it may chance
of wheat, or of some other grain, but God giveth it a body as it hath
pleased him, and to every seed his own body. There are also
celestial bodies and bodies terrestial; but the glory of the celestial
is one and the glory of the terrestial is another. There is one glory
of the sun and another of the moon, and another glory of the stars;
for one star differeth from another star in glory, so also is the
resurrection of the dead. It is sown a natural body, it is raised a
spiritual body; there is a natural body, and there is a spiritual
body. And so it is written, that the first man, Adam, was made a
living soul, the last Adam was made a quickening spirit. How be it,
that was not first which is spiritual, but that which is natural, and
afterward that which is spiritual. The first man is of earth, earthy,
the second man is the Lord from heaven. As is the earthy, such are
they also that are earthy; and as is the heavenly, such are they also
that are heavenly. And as we have born the image of the earthy, we
shall also bear the image of the heavenly. Now this I say, brethren,
that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; neither doth
corruption inherit incorruption." (1 Cor. xv.) Now this is the way
that I know them. As the Lamb that was slain, took upon him the image
of the earth, earthy, the form of a servant, so do they take upon them
the image of the Lord from heaven; and, as you have shown me the Lamb,
I cannot be mistaken in them, and I think when I look again, I shall
find many more that I have known; for I think I know what kind of
seed they were, and from every seed I look for its own plant. Then
said my guide: "Who else do you think you will find there, besides
your immediate friends?" I answered: "I think I shall see Moses and
Elijah, from the fact that they were seen with my Saviour on the Mount
of Transfiguration; and God is not the God of the dead, but of the
living. And I think I shall see Abraham, because Christ himself says
the rich man saw him with Lazarus in his bosom. And I shall see
Israel, for the Revelator tells me that he saw one hundred and forty
and four thousand of the children there. I shall see Solomon and
David, and Samuel and Paul, and Peter, and so many others that I
cannot now name, all of the one hundred and forty and four thousand of
the tribes of Israel." I felt so rejoiced with the thought of meeting
so many, that I could heartily join with the Poet in saying:
"Give joy or grief, give ease or pain,
Take life or friends away.
But let me find them all again,
In that Eternal day."
For many days more I lay there on the brink, waiting for the boatman;
but still he came not. I began to think Patience was about to desert
me; it seemed to me, I had so nearly lost sight of her, that I could
hardly hear her voice; then I cried unto my Father: "Cast me not away
from thy presence, and take not thy holy spirit from me!" Then came
the message: "Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for him;" this
comforting, though short message, cheered me much, for it seemed to
bring a sweet sense of rest and security with it; and with the
Psalmist I could say: "Thy mercy, O Lord, is in the Heavens, and thy
faithfulness reaches into the clouds; thy righteousness is like the
great mountains; thy judgments are as great deeps; Lord, thou
preservest man and beast; how excellent is thy loving kindness, O God;
therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy
wing; they shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of thy
house, and thou shalt make them drink of the rivers of thy pleasures."
I felt filled with that sweet peace that flows as a river, and enters
in and fills the soul with glory and with God. As the boatman came not
for me yet, I thought I would look around again and see if any new
friends had gathered along the brink; and, while I was looking, I saw
one coming with slow, reluctant step, as if he would rather stay on
this side of Jordan than to cross over; but his guide kept urging him
on with the Father's message: "Come unto me all ye that are weary and
heavy laden, and I will give you rest." "Well," said he, "I am weary
and heavy laden; I have had a tiresome journey through this howling
wilderness, and fain would find rest; but I have become so dirty and
bedabbled through the swamps and quagmires, that I have not a garment
fit to appear before Him in." The guide answered: "All that will
come, may come and partake of the waters of life freely." Then said
he: "I will arise and go to my Father." He brightened up and quickened
his pace; as soon as the guide saw that he was willing to go, he sent
to the servants to bring hither the best robe and put it on him; and,
so neatly clad, and in his right mind, I saw him approach the "bank,"
and seeing he would have to wait some time for the boatman, I entered
into conversation, by asking at what time the Father sent for him; he
said: "Just about noon, just as I had finished up my morning's work,
and thought the hardest of the day was done, and I could in the
afternoon finish those little jobs that I had planned in the morning;
but in the hour, I thought not, the Son of man came." "But what," I
asked, "made you so reluctant to come?" "Oh," said he, "I thought the
Father was angry with me; for it is written: 'God is angry with the
wicked every day;' but I heard another say: 'He that cometh with a
broken and a contrite heart, he will in no wise cast out.' I thought
I would go, for I could only perish anyway, and if I tried to stay
away, I knew I should perish; another said to me:
"A broken heart He'll not despise,
Nor on the contrite sinner frown,
His ear is open to their cries,
He'll quickly send salvation down."
"And He did send salvation; for, when I cried mightily unto the Lord,
He heard me, and from His Holy Hill He sent me help; He took me up
from the mire and clay and dressed me in garments neat and clean, and
has brought me in sight of my heavenly rest! Only this narrow river
lies between, and I shall cross that, for I think I see the boatman
coming now." With a glad shout of triumph he entered the boat and was
gone. I knew the gates would be opened again, so I made haste to
gather up my telescope; and again I saw the shining ones come to meet
and welcome a brother to his eternal rest; and again I heard the glad
shouts of welcome and praise, as they dressed him in clean, white
robes, and put a crown on his head, and led him to the Father, who met
him, and with His own hand wiped all tears from his eyes, telling him,
he should have no more sorrow, nor crying, nor sickness, nor death,
nor go any more out, neither should he thirst any more, and the sun
should not light on him, nor any heat. Oh! What more, I thought, could
I want to make up an eternal rest! Just then my attention was
attracted by the sound of unutterable groanings and crying, and I
looked around to see what it all meant, and I saw close beside me one
lying apparently in great agony. I inquired what could be the matter?
Said he: "Just this morning, quite early, the Master has sent for me,
and here I am; naked and barefooted; without a thing to cover me; I
had a garment all washed in the blood of the Lamb. The Master provided
it for me, but I thought it was too long and straight for me; so I
laid it aside, and now I cannot find it; Oh! help me to look for it!"
By this time others hearing his cries had been attracted to the spot,
and in piteous moans and tears he begged, he entreated them, to assist
in searching for the neglected robe. All this while he lay there
without making an effort to seek for it himself; and, although his
friends searched with much earnestness, they could not find it. They
then besought him to get up and look for it himself; but he could not
be persuaded, and would continue to lie there groaning, and begging
them to continue their search. Meanwhile the boatman was waiting and
urging him to go, till finally he compelled him to go on board, and
the boat pushed off; and immediately the river became so dark and
swollen, that we lost sight of it, and we could see it no more.
Surely, thought I, "The wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is
eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
For many days I lay there, feeling very listless, not caring to look
beyond the river, nor even to look on this side. I was just in the
condition to listen to the voice of the tempter, when he whispered:
"Why stay here any longer? the Lord delays his coming; He might have
come sooner; it is very cruel to be lying in this dreary, loathsome
place so long." And again, with shame I must confess, that after all
the visions of glory I had seen, and all of my Father's goodness to
me, I listened to his wily whispering, till I became almost enraged,
and began to cast about me this way and that, for a way of
deliverance. At one moment I would feel like going back into the
wilderness, in all its filth and quagmires, and the next I would feel
like rushing headlong, uncalled for, into the river; any way, it
seemed to me, to get out of this murky, deathly atmosphere. For
several days I was thus tempted. Oh! those were dreadful days to me! I
sat in sullen silence, and would not look toward my Father's house; I
would not see the light that was beaming across; would not see my
Father's gracious smile; nor would I see His loving hand reached out
to help me. My telescope lay beside me, but I would not take it up.
But, oh! the depth of the wisdom and knowledge of God! "How
unsearchable are His judgments, and His ways past finding out!"
Blessed be His Holy Name. He would not leave me, nor suffer His loving
kindness to be removed from me; but in the midst of deserved wrath He
remembered mercy toward me. On looking up I saw my guide coming near,
saying: "Dost thou well to be angry. Hast thou not received good from
the hands of the Lord, and shalt thou not receive the evil? And if
thou doest well, shalt thou not dwell in the land of the living
forever? For the mercy of the Lord is round about them that put their
trust in Him. Though clouds and darkness may be round about Him, yet
righteousness and judgment are the habitation of His throne." At these
words the tempter left me, and Patience again resumed her seat, and
commenced to soothe and tranquilize my spirit, saying: "Return unto
thy rest, for the Lord has dealt bountifully with thee. Ye, that fear
the Lord, trust in the Lord, for He is your help and your shield. O!
forget not all His mercies." At this I felt very much humbled and
sinsick; and I longed to be free from the power of sin and temptation,
and earnestly I prayed the Father: "Lead me not into temptation, but
deliver me from all evil!" And with the apostle I could exclaim: "Oh!
wretched man that I am! Who shall deliver me from the body of this
death? Oh, that I had the wings of a dove! Then I would fly away and
be at rest." "But then," said Patience, "as you cannot go yet, you had
better take your telescope and look again beyond the river." So I took
it up and began to look around; first on this side, but here, as
usual, I could find no rest or abiding place; nothing but filth and
stench that sickened me; but as soon as I turned my gaze toward my
Father's house, I was struck with the glorious light that fell from
the place; for it seemed to shine with peculiar brightness; and, as
the gates were ajar, I could look full within; but I could see no sun,
nor moon, nor the light of a candle; but the light was glorious, far
surpassing the light of the sun at noon-day. So I looked in wonder, to
see from where it came. My guide said: "There is no need of the sun or
of the moon to shine in it, for the glory of God did lighten it, and
the Lamb is the light thereof. (Rev. xx., 2, 3.) And this is the same
light that has lighted up this valley ever since the time the Lamb
passed through it and fought and conquered the tempter; for it was in
this valley He spent some time, and on this bank He was hard beset;
here was the dreadful conflict; here it was He was hedged in as you
are; here the tempter raged as he never had raged before; and Jordan
swelled and roared, and overflowed her banks; such a time was never
known before, since the world began; but the Lamb gained the victory;
bound the enemy, subdued Jordan, and passed safely over. And all his
followers have to do, is to keep in the light and they need not fear."
Then the prayer arose from my heart: "Oh Lord! help me to walk in the
light of thy countenance; my times are in thy hands; deliver me from
the hands of my enemies; make thy face to shine on thy servant; save
me for thy mercies' sake." Then said my guide: "Be of good cheer."