———She sat, and thought
Of what a sailor suffers.
Cowper.
“The intelligence that was the cause of
old Sir Roger’s death, who might be said
to be conducted from this world to the
next by a blessed euthanasia, (a kind of
passing with a light and lofty step from a
narrow entry to a spacious and glorious apartment,
without ever feeling he trod the
dark and rugged threshold that lies between),
was the signal and pledge to this
ancient family of the restitution of their
faded honours, and fast-declining possessions.
Grants, reversals of fines, restoration
of land and chattels, and offers of
pensions, and provisions, and remunerations,
and all that royal gratitude, in the
effervescence of its enthusiasm, could bestow,
came showering on the Mortimer
family, as fast and faster than fines, confiscations,
and sequestrations, had poured
on them in the reign of the usurper. In
fact, the language of King Charles to the
Mortimers was like that of the Eastern
monarchs to their favourites,—“Ask what
thou wilt, and it shall be granted to thee,
even to the half of my kingdom.” The
Mortimers asked only for their own,—and
being thus more reasonable, both in their
expectations and demands, than most other
applicants at that period, they succeeded
in obtaining what they required.
“Thus Mrs Margaret Mortimer (so unmarried
females were named at the date of
the narrative) was again acknowledged as
the wealthy and noble heiress of the Castle.
Numerous invitations were sent to her to
visit the court, which, though recommended
by letters from divers of the
court-ladies, who had been acquainted,
traditionally at least, with her family, and
enforced by a letter from Catherine of
Braganza, written by her own hand, in
which she acknowledged the obligations of
the king to the house of Mortimer, were
steadily rejected by the high-minded heiress
of its honours and its spirit.—“From
these towers,” said she to Mrs Ann, “my
grandfather led forth his vassals and tenants
in aid of his king,—to these towers
he led what was left of them back, when
the royal cause seemed lost for ever. Here
he lived and died for his sovereign,—and
here will I live and die. And I feel that
I shall do more effectual service to his Majesty,
by residing on my estates, and protecting
my tenants, and repairing,”—she added
with a smile,—“even with my needle, the
rents made in the banners of our house by
many a Puritan’s bullet, than if I flaunted
it in Hyde-Park in my glass coach, or
masqueraded it all night in that of St
James’s, even though I were sure to encounter
the Duchess of Cleveland on one
side, and Louise de Querouaille on the
other,—fitter place for them than me.”—And
so saying, Mrs Margaret Mortimer
resumed her tapestry work. Mrs Ann
looked at her with an eye that spoke volumes,—and
the tear that trembled in it
made the lines more legible.
“After the decided refusal of Mrs Margaret
Mortimer to go to London, the family
resumed their former ancestorial habits
of stately regularity, and decorous
grandeur, such as became a magnificent
and well-ordered household, of which a
noble maiden was the head and president.
But this regularity was without rigour,
and this monotony without apathy—the
minds of these highly fated females were
too familiar with trains of lofty thinking,
and images of noble deeds, to sink into
vacancy, or feel depression from solitude.
I behold them,” said the stranger, “as I
once saw them, seated in a vast irregularly
shaped apartment, wainscotted with oak
richly and quaintly carved, and as black as
ebony—Mrs Ann Mortimer, in a recess
which terminated in an ancient casement
window, the upper panes of which
were gorgeously emblazoned with the arms
of the Mortimers, and some legendary atchievements
of the former heroes of the
family. A book she valued much lay
on her knee, on which she fixed her eyes
intently—the light that came through
the casement chequering its dark lettered
pages with hues of such glorious and fantastic
colouring, that they resembled the
leaves of some splendidly-illuminated missal,
with all its pomp of gold, and azure,
and vermilion.
“At a little distance sat her two grand-nieces,
employed in work, and relieving
their attention to it by conversation, for
which they had ample materials. They
spoke of the poor whom they had visited
and assisted,—of the rewards they had distributed
among the industrious and orderly,—and
of the books which they were
studying; and of which the well-filled
shelves of the library furnished them with
copious and noble stores.
“Sir Roger had been a man of letters
as well as of arms. He had been often
heard to say, that next to a well-stocked
armoury in time of war, was a well-stocked
library in time of peace; and even in the
midst of his latter grievances and privations,
he contrived every year to make an
addition to his own.
“His grand-daughters, well instructed by
him in the French and Latin languages,
had read Mezeray, Thuanus, and Sully.
In English, they had Froissart in the
black-letter translation of Pynson, imprinted
1525. Their poetry, exclusive of
the classics, consisted chiefly of Waller,
Donne, and that constellation of writers
that illuminated the drama in the latter
end of the reign of Elizabeth, and the
commencement of that of James,—Marlow,
and Massinger, and Shirley, and Ford—cum
multis aliis. Fairfax’s translations
had made them familiar with the continental
poets; and Sir Roger had consented
to admit, among his modern collection,
the Latin poems (the only ones then published)
of Milton, for the sake of that in
Quintum Novembris,—for Sir Roger, next
to the fanatics, held the Catholics in utter
abomination.”
“Then he will be damned to all eternity,”
said Aliaga, “and that’s some satisfaction.”
“Thus their retirement was not inelegant,
nor unaccompanied with those
delights at once soothing and elating,
which arise from a judicious mixture of
useful occupation and literary tastes.
“On all they read or conversed of, Mrs
Ann Mortimer was a living comment.
Her conversation, rich in anecdote, and
accurate to minuteness, sometimes rising
to the loftiest strains of eloquence, as she
related “deeds of the days of old,” and often
borrowing the sublimity of inspiration,
as the reminiscences of religion softened
and solemnized the spirit with which she
spake,—like the influence of time on fine
paintings, that consecrates the tints it mellows,
and makes the colours it has half obscured
more precious to the eye of feeling
and of taste, than they were in the glow
of their early beauty,—her conversation
was to her grand-nieces at once history
and poetry.
“The events of English history then
not recorded, had a kind of traditional
history more vivid, if not so faithful as the
records of modern historians, in the memories
of those who had been agents and
sufferers (the terms are probably synonimous)
in those memorable periods.
“There was an entertainment then, banished
by modern dissipation now, but alluded
to by the great poet of that nation,
whom your orthodox and undeniable creed
justly devotes to eternal damnation.
“In winter’s tedious nights sit by the fire,
* * * *
————————and tell the tales
Of woful ages long ago betid;
And send the hearers weeping to their beds.
* * * *
We cited up a thousand heavy times.”
* * * *
“When memory thus becomes the depository
of grief, how faithfully is the
charge kept!—and how much superior are
the touches of one who paints from the
life, and the heart, and the senses,—to
those of one who dips his pen in his ink-stand,
and casts his eye on a heap of musty
parchments, to glean his facts or his
feelings from them! Mrs Ann Mortimer
had much to tell,—and she told it well.
If history was the subject, she could relate
the events of the civil wars—events which
resembled indeed those of all civil wars,
but which derived a peculiar strength of
character, and brilliancy of colouring, from
the hand by which they were sketched.
She told of the time when she rode behind
her brother, Sir Roger, to meet the
King at Shrewsbury; and she almost
echoed the shout uttered in the streets
of that loyal city, when the University
of Oxford sent in its plate to be coined
for the exigences of the royal cause. She
told also, with grave humour, the anecdote
of Queen Henrietta making her
escape with some difficulty from a house
on fire,—and, when her life was scarce secure
from the flames that consumed it,
rushing back among them—to save her
lap-dog!
“But of all her historical anecdotes,
Mrs Ann valued most what she had to
relate of her own family. On the virtue
and valour of her brother Sir Roger, she
dwelt with an unction whose balm imparted
itself to her hearers; and even Elinor, in
spite of the Puritanism of her early principles,
wept as she listened. But when
Mrs Ann told of the King taking shelter
for one night in the Castle, under the protection
only of her mother and herself, to
whom he intrusted his rank and his misfortunes,
(arriving under a disguise),—(Sir
Roger being absent fighting his battles
in Yorkshire)—when she added that
her aged mother, Lady Mortimer, then
seventy-four, after spreading her richest
velvet mantle, lined with fur, as a quilt
for the bed of her persecuted sovereign,
tottered into the armoury, and, presenting
the few servants that followed her with
what arms could be found, adjured them
by brand and blade, by lady’s love, and
their hopes of heaven, to defend her royal
guest. When she related that a band of
fanatics, after robbing a church of all its silver-plate,
and burning the adjacent vicarage,
drunk with their success, had invested
the Castle, and cried aloud for “the
man” to be brought unto them, that he
might be hewed to pieces before the Lord
in Gilgal—and Lady Mortimer had called
on a young French officer in Prince
Rupert’s corps, who, with his men, had
been billetted on the Castle for some days—and
that this youth, but seventeen years
of age, had met two desperate attacks of
the assailants, and twice retired covered
with his own blood and that of the assailants,
whom he had in vain attempted to
repel—and that Lady Mortimer, finding
all was lost, had counselled the royal fugitive
to make his escape,—and furnished
him with the best horse left in Sir Roger’s
stables to effect his flight, while she returned
to the great hall, whose windows
were now shattered by the balls that hissed
and flew round her head, and whose
doors were fast yielding to the crows and
other instruments which a Puritan smith,
who was both chaplain and colonel of the
band, had lent them, and instructed them
in the use of—and how Lady Mortimer fell
on her knees before the young Frenchman,
and adjured him to make good the defence
till King Charles was safe, and free, and far—and
how the young Frenchman had
done all that man could do;—and finally,
when the Castle, after an hour’s obstinate
resistance, yielded to the assault of the fanatics,
he had staggered, covered with
blood, to the foot of the great chair
which that ancient lady had immoveably
occupied, (paralyzed by terror and
exhaustion), and dropping his sword, then
for the first time, exclaimed, “J’ai fait
mon devoir!” and expired at her feet—and
how her mother sat in the same rigour
of attitude, while the fanatics ravaged
through the Castle,—drank half the
wines in the cellar,—thrust their bayonets
through the family-pictures, which they
called the idols of the high-places,—fired
bullets through the wainscot, and converted
half the female servants after their own
way,—and on finding their search after
the King fruitless, in mere wantonness of
mischief, were about to discharge a piece
of ordnance in the hall that must have
shattered it in pieces, while Lady Mortimer
sat torpidly looking on,—till, perceiving
that the piece was accidentally pointed
towards the very door through which
King Charles had passed from the hall,
her recollection seemed suddenly to return,
and starting up and rushing before
the mouth of the piece, exclaimed, “Not
there!—you shall not there!”—and as
she spoke, dropt dead in the hall. When
Mrs Ann told these and other thrilling
tales of the magnanimity, the loyalty,
and the sufferings of her high ancestry,
in a voice that alternately swelled with
energy, and trembled with emotion, and
as she told them, pointed to the spot
where each had happened,—her young
hearers felt a deep stirring of the heart,—a
proud yet mellowed elation that never
yet was felt by the reader of a written history,
though its pages were as legitimate
as any sanctioned by the royal licenser at
Madrid.
“Nor was Mrs Ann Mortimer less qualified
to take an interesting share in their
lighter studies. When Waller’s poetry
was its subject, she could tell of the charms
of his Sacharissa, whom she knew well,—the
Lady Dorothea Sidney, daughter of
the Earl of Leicester,—and compare, with
those of his Amoret, the Lady Sophia
Murray. And in balancing the claims of
these poetical heroines, she gave so accurate
an account of their opposite styles of
beauty,—entered so minutely into the details
of their dress and deportment,—and so
affectingly hinted, with a mysterious sigh,
that there was one then at court whom
Lucius, Lord Falkland, the gallant, the
learned, and the polished, had whispered
was far superior to both,——that her auditors
more than suspected she had herself
been one of the most brilliant stars in that
galaxy whose faded glories were still reflected
in her memory,—and that Mrs
Ann, amid her piety and patriotism, still
blended a fond reminiscence of the gallantries
of that court where her youth had
been spent,—and over which the beauty,
the magnificent taste, and national
gaiete of the ill-fated Henrietta, had
once thrown a light as dazzling as it was
transient. She was listened to by Margaret
and Elinor with equal interest, but
with far different feelings. Margaret,
beautiful, vivacious, haughty, and generous,
and resembling her grandfather and
his sister alike in character and person,
could have listened for ever to narrations
that, while they confirmed her principles,
gave a kind of holiness to the governing
feelings of her heart, and made her enthusiasm
a kind of virtue in her eyes. An
aristocrat in politics, she could not conceive
that public virtue could soar to a
higher pitch than a devoted attachment to
the house of Stuart afforded for its flight;
and her religion had never given her any
disturbance.——Strictly attached to the
Church of England, as her forefathers
had been from its first establishment, she
included in an adherence to this not only
all the graces of religion, but all the virtues
of morality; and she could hardly
conceive how there could be majesty in
the sovereign, or loyalty in the subject, or
valour in man, or virtue in woman, unless
they were comprised within the pale of
the Church of England. These qualities,
with their adjuncts, had been always represented
to her as co-existent with an attachment
to monarchy and Episcopacy,
and vested solely in those heroic characters
of her ancestry, whose lives, and even
deaths, it was a proud delight to their
young descendant to listen to,—while all
the opposite qualities,—all that man can
hate, or woman despise,—had been represented
to her as instinctively resident in
the partizans of republicanism and the
Presbytery. Thus her feelings and her
principles,—her reasoning powers and the
habits of her life, all took one way; and
she was not only unable to make the least
allowance for a divergence from this way,
but utterly unable to conceive that another
existed for those who believed in a God,
or acknowledged human power at all. She
was as much at a loss to conceive how any
good could come out of that Nazareth of
her abhorrence, as an ancient geographer
would have been to have pointed out America
in a classical map.—Such was Margaret.
“Elinor, on the other hand, bred up amid
a clamour of perpetual contention,—for
the house of her mother’s family, in
which her first years had been passed, was,
in the language of the profane of those
times, a scruple-shop, where the godly of
all denominations held their conferences
of contradiction,—had her mind early awakened
to differences of opinion, and opposition
of principle. Accustomed to hear
these differences and oppositions often expressed
with the most unruly vehemence,
she had never, like Margaret, indulged in
a splendid aristocracy of imagination, that
bore every thing before it, and made prosperity
and adversity alike pay tribute to
the pride of its triumph. Since her admission
into the house of her grandfather,
the mind of Elinor had become still more
humble and patient,—more subdued and
self-denied. Compelled to hear the opinions
she was attached to decried, and the
characters she reverenced vilified, she sat
in reflective silence; and, balancing the
opposite extremes which she was destined
to witness, she came to the right conclusion,—that
there must be good on both
sides, however obscured or defaced by passion
and by interest, and that great and
noble qualities must exist in either party,
where so much intellectual power, and so
much physical energy, had been displayed
by both. Nor could she believe that these
clear and mighty spirits would be for ever
opposed to each other in their future destinations,—she
loved to view them as children
who had “fallen out by the way,”
from mistaking the path that led to their
father’s house, but who would yet rejoice
together in the light of his presence, and
smile at the differences that divided them
on their journey.
“In spite of the influence of her early
education, Elinor had learned to appreciate
the advantages of her residence in
her grandfather’s castle. She was fond of
literature and of poetry. She possessed
imagination and enthusiasm,—and these
qualities met with their loveliest indulgence
amid the picturesque and historical
scenery that surrounded the Castle,—the
lofty tales told within its walls, and to
which every stone in them seemed to cry
out in attestation,—and the heroic and
chivalrous characters of its inmates, with
whom the portraits of their high descended
ancestry seemed starting from their
gorgeous frames to converse, as the tale of
their virtues and their valour was told in
their presence. This was a different scene
from that in which she had passed her
childhood. The gloomy and narrow apartments,
divested of all ornament, and
awaking no associations but those of an
awful futurity—the uncouth habits, austere
visages, denunciatory language, and
polemical fury of its inmates or guests,
struck her with a feeling for which she reproached
herself, but did not suppress;
and though she continued a rigid Calvinist
in her creed, and listened whenever
she could to the preaching of the non-conformist
ministers, she had adopted in her
pursuits the literary tastes, and in her
manners the dignified courtesy, that became
the descendant of the Mortimers.
“Elinor’s beauty, though of a style
quite different from that of her cousin,
was yet beauty of the first and finest
character. Margaret’s was luxuriant,
lavish, and triumphant,—every movement
displayed a conscious grace,—every
look demanded homage, and obtained
it the moment it was demanded. Elinor’s
was pale, contemplative, and touching;—her
hair was as black as jet, and the
thousand small curls into which, according
to the fashion of the day, it was
woven, seemed as if every one of them
had been twined by the hand of nature,—they
hung so softly and shadowingly, that
they appeared like a veil dropping over
the features of a nun, till she shook them
back, and there beamed among them an
eye of dark and brilliant light, like a star
amid the deepening shades of twilight.
She wore the rich dress prescribed by the
taste and habits of Mrs Ann, who had
never, even in the hour of extreme adversity,
relaxed in what may be called the
rigour of her aristocratical costume, and
would have thought it little less than a
desecration of the solemnity, had she appeared
at prayers, even though celebrated
(as she loved to term it) in the Castle-hall,
unless arrayed in satins and velvets, that,
like ancient suits of armour, could have
stood alone and erect without the aid of
human inhabitant. There was a soft and
yielding tone in the gently modulated harmony
of Elinor’s form and movements,—a
gracious melancholy in her smile,—a tremulous
sweetness in her voice,—an appeal in
her look, which the heart that refused to
answer could not have living pulse within
its region. No head of Rembrandt’s, amid
its contrasted luxuries of light and shade,—no
form of Guido’s, hovering in exquisite
and speechful undulation between
earth and heaven, could vie with the tint
and character of Elinor’s countenance and
form. There was but one touch to be
added to the picture of her beauty, and
that touch was given by no physical grace,—no
exterior charm. It was borrowed
from a feeling as pure as it was intense,—as
unconscious as it was profound. The
secret fire that lit her eyes with that lambent
glory, while it caused the paleness of
her young cheek,—that preyed on her
heart, while it seemed to her imagination
that she clasped a young cherub in her
arms, like the unfortunate queen of Virgil,—that
fire was a secret even to herself.—She
knew she felt, but knew not what
she felt.
“When first admitted into the Castle,
and treated with sufficient hauteur by her
grandfather and his sister, who could not
forget the mean descent and fanatic principles
of her father’s family, she remembered,
that, amid the appalling grandeur
and austere reserve of her reception, her
cousin, John Sandal, was the only one
who spoke to her in accents of tenderness,
or turned on her an eye that beamed consolation.
She remembered him as the
beautiful and gentle boy who had lightened
all her tasks, and partaken in all her recreations.
“At an early age John Sandal, at his
own request, had been sent to sea, and
had never since visited the Castle. On
the Restoration, the remembered services
of the Mortimer family, and the high
fame of the youth’s courage and ability,
had procured him a distinguished situation
in the navy. John Sandal’s consequence
now rose in the eyes of the family, of
whom he was at first an inmate on toleration
only; and even Mrs Ann Mortimer
began to express some anxiety to hear tidings
of her valiant cousin John. When
she spoke thus, the light of Elinor’s eye
fell on her aunt with as rich a glow as
ever summer sun on an evening landscape;
but she felt, at the same moment,
an oppression,—an indefinable suspension
of thought, of speech, almost of breath,
which was only relieved by the tears
which, when retired from her aunt’s presence,
she indulged in. Soon this feeling
was exchanged for one of deeper and more
agitating interest. The war with the
Dutch broke out, and Captain John Sandal’s
name, in spite of his youth, appeared
conspicuous among those of the officers
appointed to that memorable service.
“Mrs Ann, long accustomed to hear
the names of her family uttered always
in the same breath with the stirring report
of high heroic deeds, felt the elation of
spirit she had experienced in by-gone days,
combined with happier associations, and
more prosperous auguries. Though far
advanced in life, and much declined in
strength, it was observed, that during the
reports of the war, and while she listened
to the accounts of her kinsman’s valour
and fast-advancing eminence, her step became
firm and elastic, her lofty figure dilated
to its youthful height, and a colour
at times visited her cheek, with as rich and
brilliant a tinge as when the first sighs of
love murmured over its young roses. The
high minded Margaret, partaking that
enthusiasm which merged all personal feeling
in the glory of her family and of her
country, heard of the perils to which her
cousin (whom she hardly remembered) was
exposed, only with a haughty confidence
that he would meet them as she felt she
would have met them herself, had she
been, like him, the last male descendant
of the family of Mortimer. Elinor trembled
and wept,—and when alone she prayed
fervently.
“It was observable, however, that the
respectful interest with which she had hitherto
listened to the family legends so
eloquently told by Mrs Ann, was now exchanged
for a restless and unappeaseable
anxiety for tales of the naval heroes who
had dignified the family history. Happily
she found a willing narrator in Mrs Ann,
who had little need to search her memory,
and no occasion to consult her invention,
for splendid stories of those whose home
was the deep, and whose battle-field was
the wild waste ocean. Amid the gallery
richly hung with family portraits, she
pointed out the likeness of many a bold
adventurer, whom the report of the riches
and felicities of the new discovered world
had tempted on speculations sometimes
wild and disastrous, sometimes prosperous
beyond the golden dreams of cupidity.
“How precarious!—how perilous!” murmured
Elinor, shuddering. But when Mrs
Ann told the tale of her uncle, the literary
speculator, the polished scholar, the
brave and gentle of the family, who had
accompanied Sir Walter Raleigh on his
calamitous expedition, and years after died
of grief for his calamitous death, Elinor,
with a start of horror, caught her aunt’s
arm, emphatically extended towards the
portrait, and implored her to desist. The
decorum of the family was so great, that
this liberty could not be taken without an
apology for indisposition;—it was duly
though faintly made, and Elinor retired to
her apartment.
“From February 1665,—from the first
intelligence of De Ruyter’s enterprises,
till the animating period when the Duke
of York was appointed to the command
of the Royal fleet,—all was eager and anticipative
excitement, and eloquent expatiations
on ancient achievements, and presageful
hopes of new honours, on the part
of the heiress of Mortimer and Mrs Ann,
and profound and speechless emotion on
that of Elinor.
“The hour arrived, and an express was
dispatched from London to Mortimer
Castle with intelligence, in which King
Charles, with that splendid courtesy which
half redeemed his vices, announced himself
most deeply interested, inasmuch as
it added to the honours of the loyal family,
whose services he appreciated so highly.
The victory was complete,—and Captain
John Sandal, in the phrase which
the King’s attachment to French manners
and language was beginning to render popular,
had “covered himself with glory.”
Amid the thickest of the fight, in an open
boat, he had carried a message from Lord
Sandwich to the Duke of York, under a
shower of balls, and when older officers
had stoutly declined the perilous errand;
and when, on his return, Opdam the
Dutch Admiral’s ship blew up, amid the
crater of the explosion John Sandal plunged
into the sea, to save the half-drowning,
half-burning wretches who clung
to the fragments that scorched them, or
sunk in the boiling waves; and then,—dismissed
on another fearful errand, flung
himself between the Duke of York and
the ball that struck at one blow the Earl
of Falmouth, Lord Muskerry, and Mr
Boyle, and when they all fell at the same
moment, wiped, with unfaultering hand,
and on bended knee, their brains and gore,
with which the Duke of York was covered
from head to foot. When this was
read by Mrs Ann Mortimer, with many
pauses, caused by sight dim with age, and
diffused with tears,—and when at length,
finishing the long and laborious read detail,
Mrs Ann exclaimed—“He is a hero!”
Elinor tremblingly whispered to herself—“He
is a Christian.”
“The details of such an event forming
a kind of era in a family so sequestered,
imaginative, and heroic, as that of the
Mortimers, the contents of the letter signed
by the King’s own hand were read over
and over again. They formed the theme
of converse at their meals, and the subject
of their study and comment when alone.
Margaret dwelt much on the gallantry of
the action, and half-imagined she saw the
tremendous explosion of Opdam’s ship.
Elinor repeated to herself, “And he
plunged amid the burning wave to save
the lives of the men he had conquered!”
And some months elapsed before the brilliant
vision of glory, and of grateful royalty,
faded from their imagination; and
when it did, like that of Micyllus, it left
honey on the eye-lids of the dreamer.
“From the date of the arrival of this
intelligence, a change had taken place in
the habits and manners of Elinor, so striking
as to become the object of notice to all
but herself. Her health, her rest, and her
imagination, became the prey of indefinable
fantasies. The cherished images of
the past,—the lovely visions of her golden
childhood,—seemed fearfully and insanely
contrasted in her imagination with the
ideas of slaughter and blood,—of decks
strewed with corses,—and of a young and
terrible conqueror bestriding them amid
showers of ball and clouds of fire. Her
very senses reeled between these opposite
impressions. Her reason could not brook
the sudden transition from the smiling and
Cupid-like companion of her childhood, to
the hero of the embattled deep, and of nations
and navies on fire,—garments rolled
in blood,—the thunder of the battle and
the shouting.
“She sat and tried, as well as her wandering
fancy would allow her, to reconcile
the images of that remembered eye, whose
beam rested on her like the dark blue of
a summer heaven swimming in dewy
light,—with the flash that darted from the
burning eye of the conqueror, whose light
was as fatal where it fell as his sword.
She saw him, as he had once sat beside
her, smiling like the first morning in
spring,—and smiled in return. The slender
form, the soft and springy movements,
the kiss of childhood that felt like velvet,
and scented like balm,—was suddenly exchanged
in her dream (for all her thoughts
were dreams) for a fearful figure of one
drenched in blood, and spattered with
brains and gore. And Elinor, half-screaming,
exclaimed, “Is this he whom I
loved?” Thus her mind, vacillating between
contrasts so strongly opposed, began
to feel its moorings give way. She
drifted from rock to rock, and on every
rock she struck a wreck.
“Elinor relinquished her usual meetings
with the family—she sat in her own
apartment all the day, and most of the
evening. It was a lonely turret projecting
so far from the walls of the Castle,
that there were windows, or rather casements,
on three sides. There Elinor sat
to catch the blast, let it blow as it would,
and imagined she heard in its moanings
the cries of drowning seamen. No music
that her lute, or that which Margaret
touched with a more powerful and brilliant
finger, could wean her from this melancholy
indulgence.
“Hush!” she would say to the females
who attended her—“Hush! let me listen
to the blast!—It waves many a banner
spread for victory,—it sighs over many a
head that has been laid low!”
“Her amazement that a being could
be at once so gentle and so ferocious—her
dread that the habits of his life must have
converted the angel of her wilderness into
a brave but brutal seaman, estranged from
the feelings that had rendered the beautiful
boy so indulgent to her errors,—so
propitiatory between her and her proud
relatives,—so aidant in all her amusements,—so
necessary to her very existence.—The
tones of this dreamy life harmonized,
awfully for Elinor, with the sound of the
blast as it shook the turrets of the Castle,
or swept the woods that groaned and bowed
beneath its awful visitings. And this
secluded life, intense feeling, and profound
and heart-rooted secret of her silent passion,
held perhaps fearful and indescribable
alliance with that aberration of mind, that
prostration at once of the heart and the
intellect, that have been found to bring
forth, according as the agents were impelled,
“the savour of life unto life, or of
death unto death.” She had all the intensity
of passion, combined with all the
devotedness of religion; but she knew not
which way to steer, or what gale to follow.
She trembled and shrunk from her doubtful
pilotage, and the rudder was left to the
mercy of the winds and waves. Slender
mercy do those experience who commit
themselves to the tempests of the mental
world—better if they had sunk at once
amid the strife of the dark waters in their
wild and wintry rage; there they would
soon have arrived at the haven where they
would be secure.
“Such was the state of Elinor, when the
arrival of one who had been long a stranger
in the vicinity of the Castle caused a
strong sensation in its inhabitants.
“The widow Sandal, the mother of the
young seaman, who had hitherto lived in
obscurity on the interest of the small fortune
bequeathed her by Sir Roger, (under
the rigid injunction of never visiting the
Castle), suddenly arrived in Shrewsbury,
which was scarce a mile from it, and declared
her intention of fixing her residence
there.
“The affection of her son had showered
on her, with the profusion of a sailor, and
the fondness of a child, all the rewards of
his services—but their glory;—and in comparative
affluence, and honoured and pointed
to as the mother of the young hero
who stood high in royal favour, the widow
of many sorrows took up her abode once
more near the seat of her ancestors.
“At this period, every step taken by the
member of a family was a subject of anxious
and solemn consultation to those who considered
themselves its heads, and there was
a kind of chapter held in Mortimer Castle
on this singular movement of the widow
Sandal. Elinor’s heart beat hard during the
debate—it subsided, however, at the determination,
that the severe sentence of Sir
Roger was not to be extended beyond
his death, and that a descendant of the
house of Mortimer should never live
neglected while almost under the shadow
of its walls.
“The visit was accordingly solemnly
paid, and gratefully received,—there was
much stately courtesy on the part of Mrs
Ann towards her niece, (whom she called
cousin after the old English fashion), and
a due degree of retrospective humility
and decorous dejection on that of the widow.
They parted mutually softened towards,
if not pleased with each other, and
the intercourse thus opened was unremittingly
sustained by Elinor, whose weekly
visits of ceremony soon became the daily
visits of interest and of habit. The object
of the thoughts of both was the theme
of the tongue of but one; and, as is not uncommon,
she who said nothing felt the
most. The details of his exploits, the description
of his person, the fond enumeration
of the promises of his childhood, and
the graces and goodliness of his youth,
were dangerous topics for the listener, to
whom the bare mention of his name caused
an intoxication of the heart, from which
it scarce recovered for hours.
“The frequency of these visits was not
observed to be diminished by a faint rumour,
which the widow seemed to believe,
rather from hope than probability, that
Captain Sandal was about to visit the
neighbourhood of the Castle. It was one
evening in autumn, that Elinor, who had
been prevented during the day from visiting
her aunt, set out attended only by her
maid and her usher. There was a private
path through the park, that opened by a
small door on the verge of the suburbs
where the widow lived. Elinor, on her
arrival, found her aunt from home, and
was informed she had gone to pass the
evening with a friend in Shrewsbury.
Elinor hesitated for a moment, and then
recollecting that this friend was a grave
staid widow of one of Oliver’s knights,
wealthy, however, and well respected, and
a common acquaintance, she resolved to
follow her thither. As she entered the
room, which was spacious, but dimly lit
by an old-fashioned casement window, she
was surprised to see it filled with an unusual
number of persons, some of whom
were seated, but the greater number were
collected in the ample recess of the window,
and among them Elinor saw a figure,
remarkable rather for its height, than its
attitude or pretension,—it was that of a
tall slender boy, about eighteen, with a
beautiful infant in his arms, whom he was
caressing with a tenderness that seemed
rather associated with the retrospective
fondness of brotherhood, than the anticipated
hope of paternity. The mother of
the infant, proud of the notice bestowed on
her child, made, however, the usual incredulous
apology for its troubling him.
“Troubling me!” said the boy, in tones
that made Elinor think it was the first time
she had heard music. “Oh, no—if you
knew how fond I am of children,—how
long it is since I had the delight of pressing
one to my breast—how long it may be
again before”—— and averting his head,
he bowed it over the babe. The room was
very dark, from the increasing shades of
evening, deepened by the effect of the
heavy wainscotting of its walls; but at this
moment, the last bright light of an autumnal
evening, in all its rich and fading
glory, burst on the casement, powering on
every object a golden and purpureal light.
That end of the apartment in which Elinor
sat remained in the deepest shade.
She then distinctly beheld the figure which
her heart seemed to recognize before her
senses. His luxuriant hair, of the richest
brown, (its feathery summits tinged by the
light resembling the halo round some glorified
head), hung, according to the fashion
of the day, in clusters on his bosom, and
half-concealed the face of the infant, as it
lay like a nestling among them.
“His dress was that of a naval officer,—it
was splendidly adorned with lace, and
the superb insignia of a foreign order,
the guerdon of some daring deed; and as
the infant played with these, and then looked
upward, as if to repose its dazzled sight
on the smile of its young protector, Elinor
thought she had never beheld association
and contrast so touchingly united,—it was
like a finely coloured painting, where the
tints are so mellowed and mingled into
each other, that the eye feels no transition
in passing from one brilliant hue to another,
with such exquisite imperceptibility
are they graduated,—it was like a fine
piece of music, where the art of the modulator
prevents your knowing that you pass
from one key to another; so softly are the
intermediate tones of harmony touched,
that the ear knows not where it wanders,
but wherever it wanders, feels its path
is pleasant. The young loveliness of
the infant, almost assimilated to the beauty
of the youthful caresser, and yet contrasted
with the high and heroic air of his figure,
and the adornments of his dress, (splendid
as they were), all emblematic of deeds of
peril and of death, seemed to the imagination
of Elinor like the cherub-angel of
peace reposing on the breast of valour,
and whispering that his toils were done.
She was awoke from her vision by the
voice of the widow.—“Niece, this is your
cousin John Sandal.” Elinor started, and
received the salute of her kinsman, thus
abruptly introduced, with an emotion,
which, if it deprived her of those courtly
graces which ought to have embellished
her reception of the distinguished stranger,
gave her, at least, the more touching ones
of diffidence.
“The forms of the day admitted of, and
even sanctioned, a mode of salutation since
exploded; and as Elinor felt the pressure
of a lip as vermeil as her own, she trembled
to think that that lip had often given
the war-word to beings athirst for human
blood, and that the arm that enfolded her
so tenderly had pointed the weapons
of death with resistless and terrible aim
against bosoms that beat with all the cords
of human affection. She loved her young
kinsman, but she trembled in the arms
of the hero.
“John Sandal sat down by her, and in
a few moments the melody of his tones,
the gentle facility of his manner, the eyes
that smiled when the lips were closed, and
the lips whose smile was more eloquent
in silence than the language of the brightest
eyes, made her gradually feel at ease
with herself—she attempted to converse,
but paused to listen—she tried to look up,
but felt like the worshippers of the sun,
sickening under the blaze she gazed on,—and
averted her eyes that she might see.
There was a mild, inoppressive, but most
seductive light in the dark-blue eyes that
fell so softly on hers, like moon-light floating
over a fine landscape. And there
was a young and eloquent tenderness in
the tones of that voice, which she expected
to have spoken in thunder, that disarmed
and dulcified speech almost to luxury. Elinor
sat, and imbibed poison at every inlet of
the senses, ear, and eye, and touch, for her
kinsman, with a venial, and to her imperceptible
licence, had taken her hand as he
spoke. And he spoke much, but not of war
and blood, of the scenes where he had been
so eminent, and of the events to which his
simple allusion would have given interest
and dignity,—but of his return to his family,
of the delight he felt at again beholding his
mother, and of the hopes that he indulged
of being not an unwelcome visitor at the
Castle. He inquired after Margaret with
affectionate earnestness, and after Mrs Ann
with reverential regard; and in mentioning
the names of these relatives, he spoke
like one whose heart was at home before
his steps, and whose heart could make
every spot where it rested a home to itself
and to others. Elinor could have
listened for ever. The names of the relatives
she loved and revered sounded in her
ears like music, but the advancing night
warned her of the necessity of returning to
the Castle, where the hours were scrupulously
observed; and when John Sandal
offered to attend her home, she had no
longer a motive to delay her departure.
“It had appeared dark in the room
where they were sitting, but it was still
rich and purple twilight in the sky, when
they set out for the Castle.
“Elinor took the path through the park,
and, absorbed in new feelings, was for the
first time insensible of its woodland beauty,
at once gloomy and resplendent, mellowed
by the tints of autumnal colouring, and
glorious with the light of an autumnal evening,—till
she was roused to attention by
the exclamations of her companion, who
appeared rapt into delight at what he beheld.
This sensibility of nature, this fresh
and unworn feeling, in one whom she had
believed hardened by scenes of toil and
terror against the perception of beauty,—whom
her imagination had painted to her
as fitter to cross the Alps, than to luxuriate
in Campania,—touched her deeply. She
attempted to reply, but was unable,—she
remembered how her quick susceptibility
of nature had enabled her to sympathize
with and improve on the admiration expressed
by others, and she wondered at her
silence, for she knew not its cause.
“As they approached the Castle, the
scene became glorious beyond the imagination
of a painter, whose eye has dreamed
of sun-set in foreign climes. The vast
edifice lay buried in shade,—all its varied
and strongly charactered features of tower
and pinnacle, bartizan and battlement,
were melted into one dense and sombrous
mass. The distant hills, with their conical
summits, were still clearly defined in
the dark-blue heaven, and their peaks still
retained a hue of purple so brilliant and
lovely, that it seemed as if the light had
loved to linger there, and, parting, had
left that tint as the promise of a glorious
morning. The woods that surrounded
the Castle stood as dark, and apparently
as solid as itself. Sometimes a gleam like
gold trembled over the tufted foliage of
their summits, and at length, through a
glade which opened among the dark and
massive boles of the ancient trees, one
last rich and gorgeous flood of light burst
in, turned every blade of grass it touched
into emerald for a moment,—paused on its
lovely work—and parted. The effect was
so instantaneous, brilliant, and evanishing,
that Elinor had scarce time for a half uttered
exclamation, as she extended her
arm in the direction where the light had
fallen so brightly and so briefly. She raised
her eyes to her companion, in that full
consciousness of perfect sympathy that
make words seem like counters, compared
to the sterling gold of a heart-minted look.
Her companion had turned towards it
too. He neither uttered exclamation, nor
pointed with finger,—he smiled, and his
countenance was as that of an angel. It
seemed to reflect and answer the last
bright farewell of day, as if friends had
parted smiling at each other. It was not
alone the lips that smiled,—the eyes, the
cheeks, every feature had its share in that
effulgent light that was diffused over his
aspect, and all combined to make that
harmony to the eye, which is often as deliciously
perceptible, as the combination of
the most exquisite voices with the most
perfect modulation, is to the ear. To the
last hour of her mortal existence, that
smile, and the scene where it was uttered,
were engraved on the heart of Elinor. It
announced at once a spirit, that, like the
ancient statue, answered every ray of light
that fell on it with a voice of melody, and
blended the triumph of the glories of nature
with the profound and tender felicities
of the heart. They spoke no more
during the remainder of their walk, but
there was more eloquence in their silence
than in many words. * *
* * * *
“It was almost night before they arrived
at the Castle. Mrs Ann received
her distinguished kinsman with stately
cordiality, and affection mingled with
pride. Margaret welcomed him rather as
the hero than the relative; and John, after
the ceremonies of introduction, turned to
repose himself on the smile of Elinor.
They had arrived just at the time when
the chaplain was about to read the evening
prayers,—a form so strictly adhered to
at the Castle, that not even the arrival
of a stranger was permitted to interfere
with its observance. Elinor watched this
moment with peculiar solicitude;—her
religious feelings were profound, and
amid all the young hero’s vivid display of
the gentlest affections, and purest sensibilities
by which our wretched existence can be
enhanced or beautified, she still dreaded
that religion, the companion of deep
thought and solemn habits, might wander
far for an abode before it settled in the
heart of a sailor. The last doubt passed
from her mind, as she beheld the intense
but silent devotion with which John mingled
in the family rite. There is something
very ennobling in the sight of male
piety. To see that lofty form, that never
bowed to man, bowed to the earth to
God,—to behold the knee, whose joints
would be as adamant under the influence
of mortal force or threat, as flexible as
those of infancy in the presence of the
Almighty,—to see the locked and lifted
hands, to hear the fervent aspiration,
to feel the sound of the mortal weapon
as it drags on the floor beside the kneeling
warrior,—these are things that touch the
senses and the heart at once, and suggest
the awful and affecting image of all physical
energy prostrate before the power of
the Divinity. Elinor watched him even
to the forgetfulness of her own devotions;—and
when his white hands, that
seemed never formed to grasp a weapon of
destruction, were clasped in devotion, and
one of them slightly and occasionally raised
to part the redundant curls that shaded
his face as he knelt, she thought that she
beheld at once angelic strength and angelic
purity.
“When the service concluded, Mrs
Ann, after repeating her solemn welcome
to her nephew, could not help expressing
her satisfaction at the devotion he had
showed; but she mingled with that expression
a kind of incredulity, that men accustomed
to toil and peril could ever have
devotional feelings. John Sandal bowed
to the congratulatory part of Mrs Ann’s
speech, and, resting one hand on his short
sword, and with the other removing the
thick ringlets of his luxuriant hair, he
stood before them a hero in deed, and a
boy in form. A blush overspread his
young features, as he said, in accents at
once emphatic and tremulous, “Dear
Aunt, why should you accuse those of
neglecting the protection of the Almighty
who need it most. They who “go down
to the sea in ships, and occupy their business
in the great waters,” have the best
right to feel, in their hour of peril, “it is
but the wind and the storm fulfilling his
word.” A seaman without a belief and
hope in God, is worse off than a seaman
without chart or pilot.”
“As he spoke with that trembling eloquence
that makes conviction be felt almost
before it is heard, Mrs Ann held out
to him her withered but still snow-white
hand to kiss. Margaret presented hers
also, like a heroine to a feudal knight;
and Elinor turned aside, and wept in delicious
agony. * * *
* * * * *
“When we set ourselves resolutely to
discover perfection in a character, we are
always sure to find it. But Elinor
needed little aid from the pencil of imagination
to colour the object that had
been stamped by an ineffaceable touch upon
her heart. Her kinsman’s character and
temper developed themselves slowly, or
rather were developed by external and accidental
causes; for a diffidence almost feminine
prevented his ever saying much,—and
when he did, himself was the last
theme he touched on. He unfolded himself
like a blowing flower,—the soft and
silken leaves expanded imperceptibly to
the eye, and every day the tints were
deepening, and the scent becoming richer,
till Elinor was dazzled by their lustre, and
inebriated with the fragrance.
“This wish to discover excellencies in
the object we love, and to identify esteem
and passion by seeking the union of moral
beauty and physical grace, is a proof that
love is of a very ennobling character,—that,
however the stream may be troubled
by many things, the source at least is
pure,—and that the heart capable of feeling
it intensely, proves it possesses an
energy that may one day be rewarded by
a brighter object, and a holier flame, than
earth ever afforded, or nature ever could
kindle. * * * *
* * * * *
“Since her son’s arrival, the widow
Sandal had betrayed a marked degree of
anxiety, and a kind of restless precaution
against some invisible evil. She was now
frequently at the Castle. She could not
be blind to the increasing attachment of
John and Elinor,—and her only thought
was how to prevent the possibility of
their union, by which the interest of the
former and her own importance would be
materially affected.
“She had obtained, by indirect means,
a knowledge of the contents of Sir Roger’s
will; and the whole force of a mind which
possessed more of art than of power, and
of a temper which had more passion than
energy, was strained to realize the hopes
it suggested. Sir Roger’s will was singular.
Alienated as he was from his
daughter Sandal, and his younger son the
father of Elinor, by the connexions they
had adopted, it seemed to be the strongest
object of his wishes to unite their descendants,
and invest the wealth and rank of
the house of Mortimer in the last of its representatives.
He had therefore bequeathed
his immense estates to his grand-daughter
Margaret, in the event of her marrying
her kinsman John Sandal;—in the case of
his marrying Elinor, he was entitled to no
more than her fortune of £.5000;—and
the bequest of the greater part of the property
to a distant relative who bore the
name of Mortimer, was to be the consequence
of the non-intermarriage of Sandal
with either of his cousins.
“Mrs Ann Mortimer, anticipating the
effect that this opposition of interest to affection
might produce in the family, had
kept the contents of the will a secret,—but
Mrs Sandal had discovered it by means of
the domestics at the Castle, and her mind
wrought intensely on the discovery. She
was a woman too long familiar with want
and privation to dread any evil but their
continuance, and too ambitious of the remembered
distinctions of her early life,
not to risk any thing that might enable
her to recover them. She felt a personal
feminine jealousy of the high-minded Mrs
Ann, and the noble-hearted beautiful Margaret,
which was unappeasable; and she
hovered round the walls of the Castle like
a departed spirit groaning for its re-admission
to the place from which it had been
driven, and feeling and giving no peace
till its restoration was accomplished.
“When with these feelings was united
the anxiety of maternal ambition for her
son, who might be raised to a noble inheritance,
or sunk to comparative mediocrity
by his choice, the result may be easily
guessed; and the widow Sandal, once determined
on the end, felt little scruple about
the means. Want and envy had
given her an unslakeable appetite for the
restored splendours of her former state;
and false religion had taught her every
shade and penumbra of hypocrisy, every
meanness of artifice, every obliquity of insinuation.
In her varied life she had
known the good, and chosen the evil.
The widow Sandal was now determined
to interpose an insurmountable obstruction
to their union. * * *
* * * * *
“Mrs Ann still flattered herself that
the secret of Sir Roger’s will was suppressed.
She saw the intense and disruptable
feeling that seemed to mark John and
Elinor for each other; and, with a feeling
half-borrowed from magnanimity, half
from romance, (for Mrs Ann had been
fond of the high-toned romances of her
day), she looked forward to the felicity
of their union as being little disturbed by
the loss of land and lordship,—of the immense
revenues,—and the far-descended
titles of the Mortimer family.
“Highly as she prized these distinctions,
dear to every noble mind, she prized
still more highly the union of devoted
hearts and congenial spirits, who, trampling
on the golden apples that were flung
in their path, pressed forward with unremitting
ardour for the prize of felicity.
“The wedding-day of John and Elinor
was fixed,—the bridal clothes were made,—the
noble and numerous friends summoned,—the
Castle hall decorated, the bells of
the parish church ringing out a loud and
merry peal, and the blue-coated serving
men adorned with favours, and employed
in garnishing the wassail bowl, which was
doomed by many a thirsty eye to be often
drained and often replenished. Mrs Ann
herself took with her own hands, from an
ample chest of ebony, a robe of velvet and
satin, which she had worn at the court of
James the First, on the marriage of the
princess Elizabeth with the prince palatine,
of whom the former, to borrow the language
of a contemporary writer, had
“brided and bridled it so well, and indeed
became herself so handsomely,” that Mrs
Ann, as she arrayed herself, thought she
saw the splendid vision of the royal bridal
float before her faded eyes in dim but gorgeous
pageantry once more. The heiress,
too, attired herself splendidly, but it was
observed, that her beautiful cheek was
paler than even that of the bride, and the
smile which held a fixed unjoyous station
on her features all that morning, seemed
more like the effort of resolution than the
expression of felicity. The widow Sandal
had betrayed considerable agitation, and
quitted the Castle at an early hour. The
bridegroom had not yet appeared, and the
company, after having in vain for some
time awaited his arrival, set out for the
church, where they supposed he was impatiently
expecting them.
“The cavalcade was magnificent and
numerous—the dignity and consequence of
the Mortimer family had assembled all
who had aspired to the distinction of their
acquaintance, and such was then the feudal
grandeur attendant on the nuptials of
a high-descended family, that relatives,
however remote in blood or in local distance,
collected for sixty miles in every
direction around the Castle, and presented
a “host of friends, gorgeously arrayed and
attended on that eventful morning.”
“Most of the company, even including
the females, were mounted on horseback,
and this, by apparently increasing the number
of the procession, added to its tumultuous
magnificence. There were some cumbrous
vehicles, misnomed carriages, of a
fashion indescribably inconvenient, but
gorgeously gilded and painted,—and the
Cupids on the pannels had been re-touched
for the occasion. The bride was lifted
on her palfrey by two peers,—Margaret
rode beside her gallantly attended,—and
Mrs Ann, who once more saw nobles contending
for her withered hand, and adjusting
her silken rein, felt the long-faded glories
of her family revive, and led the van
of the pompous procession with as much
dignity of demeanour, and as much glow
of faded beauty, once eminent and resistless,
as if she still followed the gorgeous
nuptial progress of the princess palatine.
They arrived at the church,—the bride,
the relatives, the splendid company, the
minister—all but the bridegroom, were
there. There was a long painful silence.
Several gentlemen of the bridal party rode
rapidly out in every direction in which it
was thought probable to meet him,—the
clergyman stood at the altar, till, weary of
standing, he retired. The crowd from the
neighbouring villages, combined with the
numerous attendants, filled the church-yard.
Their acclamations were incessant,—the
heat and distraction became intolerable,
and Elinor begged for a few moments
to be allowed to retire to the vestry.
“There was a casement window which
opened on the road, and Mrs Ann supported
the bride as she tottered towards
it, attempting to loose her wimple, and
veil of costly lace. As Elinor approached
the casement, the thundering hoofs of a
horse at full speed shook the road. Elinor
looked up mechanically,—the rider was
John Sandal,—he cast a look of horror at
the pale bride, and plunging his desperate
spurs deeper, disappeared in a moment. *
* * * *
“A year after this event, two figures were
seen to walk, or rather wander, almost
every evening, in the neighbourhood of a
small hamlet in a remote part of Yorkshire.
The vicinage was picturesque and
attractive, but these figures seemed to
move amid the scenery like beings, who,
if they still retained eyes for nature, had
lost all heart for it. That wan and attenuated
form, so young, yet so withered,
whose dark eyes emit a fearful light amid
features chill and white as those of a statue,
and the young graces of whose form seem
to have been nipt like those of a lily that
bloomed too soon in spring, and was destroyed
by the frost of the treacherous season,
whose whispers had first invited it to
bud,—that is Elinor Mortimer,—and that
figure that walks beside her, so stiff and
rectangular, that it seems as its motion
was regulated by mechanism, whose sharp
eyes are directed so straight forward, that
they see neither tree on the right hand, or
glade on the left, or heaven above, or earth
beneath, or any thing but a dim vision of
mystic theology for ever before them,
which is aptly reflected in their cold contemplative
light, that is the Puritan maiden
sister of her mother, with whom Elinor
had fixed her residence. Her dress is arranged
with as much precision as if a mathematician
had calculated the angles of
every fold,—every pin’s point knows its
place, and does its duty—the plaits of her
round-eared cap do not permit one hair to
appear on her narrow forehead, and her large
hood, adjusted after the fashion in which it
was worn by the godly sisters, who rode out
to meet Prynne on his return from the pillory,
lends a deeper shade to her rigid features,—a
wretched-looking lacquey is carrying
a huge clasped bible after her, in the
mode in which she remembered to have
seen Lady Lambert and Lady Desborough
march to prayer, attended by their
pages, while she proudly followed in their
train, distinguished as the sister of that
godly man and powerful preacher of the
word, Sandal. From the day of her disappointed
nuptials, Elinor, with that insulted
feeling of maiden pride, which not
even the anguish of her broken heart could
suppress, had felt an unappeaseable anxiety
to quit the scene of her disgrace and her
misfortune. It was vainly opposed by her
aunt and Margaret, who, horror-struck at
the event of those disastrous nuptials, and
wholly unconscious of the cause, had implored
her, with all the energy of affection,
to fix her residence at the Castle, within
whose walls they pledged themselves he who
had abandoned her should never be permitted
to place his foot. Elinor answered the
impassioned importunities, only by eager
and clinging pressures of her cold hands,
and by tears which trembled on her eye-lids,
without the power to fall.—“Nay, stay
with us,” said the kind and noble-hearted
Margaret, “you shall not leave us!” And
she pressed the hands of her kinswoman,
with that cordial touch that gives a welcome
as much to the heart as to the home of
the inviter.—“Dearest cousin,” said Elinor,
answering, for the first time, this affectionate
appeal with a faint and ghastly
smile—“I have so many enemies within
these walls, that I can no longer encounter
them with safety to my life.”—“Enemies!”
repeated Margaret.—“Yes, dearest
cousin—there is not a spot where he trod—not
a prospect on which he has gazed—not
an echo which has repeated the sound
of his voice,—that does not send daggers
through my heart, which those who wish
me to live would not willingly see infixed
any longer.” To the emphatic agony with
which these words were uttered, Margaret
had nothing to reply but with tears; and
Elinor set out on her journey to the relative
of her mother, a rigid Puritan, who
resided in Yorkshire.
“As the carriage was ordered for her
departure, Mrs Ann, supported by her
female attendants, stood on the draw-bridge
to take leave of her niece, with solemn
and affectionate courtesy. Margaret
wept bitterly, and aloud, as she stood at a
casement, and waved her hand to Elinor.
Her aunt never shed a tear, till out of the
presence of the domestics,—but when all
was over,—“she entered into her chamber,
and wept there.”
“When her carriage had driven some
miles from the Castle, a servant on a fleet
horse followed it at full speed with Elinor’s
lute, which had been forgotten,—it
was offered to her, and after viewing it for
some moments with a look in which memory
struggled with grief, she ordered its
strings to be broken on the spot, and proceeded
on her journey.
“The retreat to which Elinor had retired,
did not afford her the tranquillity she expected.
Thus, change of place always deceives
us with the tantalizing hope of relief,
as we toss on the feverish bed of life.
“She went in a faint expectation of the
revival of her religious feelings—she went
to wed, amid the solitude and desert
where she had first known him, the immortal
bridegroom, who would never desert
her as the mortal one had done,—but
she did not find him there—the voice of
God was no longer heard in the garden—either
her religious sensibility had abated,
or those from whom she first received the
impression, had no longer power to renew
it, or perhaps the heart which has exhausted
itself on a mortal object, does not
find its powers soon recruited to meet the
image of celestial beneficence, and exchange
at once the visible for the invisible,—the
felt and present, for the future and
the unknown.
“Elinor returned to the residence of
her mother’s family in the hope of renewing
former images, but she found only
the words that had conveyed those ideas,
and she looked around in vain for the impressions
they had once suggested. When
we thus come to feel that all has been illusion,
even on the most solemn subjects,—that
the future world seems to be deserting
us along with the present, and that
our own hearts, with all their treachery,
have done us no more wrong than the
false impressions which we have received
from our religious instructors, we are like
the deity in the painting of the great Italian
artist, extending one hand to the sun,
and the other to the moon, but touching
neither. Elinor had imagined or hoped,
that the language of her aunt would have
revived her habitual associations—she was
disappointed. It is true no pains were
spared—when Elinor wished to read, she
was furnished amply with the Westminster
Confession, or Prynne’s Histriomastrix; or
if she wished for lighter pages, for the
Belles Lettres of Puritanism, there were
John Bunyan’s Holy War, or the life of
Mr Badman. If she closed the book in
despair at the insensibility of her untouched
heart, she was invited to a godly conference,
where the non-conformist ministers,
who had been, in the language of
the day, extinguished under the Bartholomew
bushel, met to give the precious
word in season to the scattered fold of the
Lord. Elinor knelt and wept too at these
meetings; but, while her form was prostrated
before the Deity, her tears fell for one
whom she dared not name. When, in incontroulable
agony, she sought, like Joseph,
where she might weep unobserved
and unrestrained, and rushed into the narrow
garden that skirted the cottage of her
aunt, and wept there, she was followed by
the quiet, sedate figure, moving at the
rate of an inch in a minute, who offered
her for her consolation, the newly published
and difficultly obtained work of Marshall
on Sanctification.
“Elinor, accustomed too much to that
fatal excitement of the heart, which renders
all other excitement as faint and feeble
as the air of heaven to one who has
been inhaling the potent inebriation of the
strongest perfumes, wondered how this
being, so abstracted, cold, and unearthly,
could tolerate her motionless existence.
She rose at a fixed hour,—at a fixed hour
she prayed,—at a fixed hour received the
godly friends who visited her, and whose
existence was as monotonous and apathetic
as her own,—at a fixed hour she dined,—and
at a fixed hour she prayed again, and
then retired,—yet she prayed without unction,
and fed without appetite, and retired to
rest without the least inclination to sleep.
Her life was mere mechanism, but the
machine was so well wound up, that it appeared
to have some quiet consciousness
and sullen satisfaction in its movements.
“Elinor struggled in vain for the renewal
of this life of cold mediocrity,—she
thirsted for it as one who, in the deserts of
Afric, expiring for want of water, would
wish for the moment to be an inmate of
Lapland, to drink of their eternal snows,—yet
at that moment wonders how its
inhabitants can live among SNOW. She
saw a being far inferior to herself in mental
power,—of feelings that hardly deserved
the name—tranquil, and wondered that
she herself was wretched.—Alas! she
did not know, that the heartless and unimaginative
are those alone who entitle
themselves to the comforts of life, and
who can alone enjoy them. A cold and
sluggish mediocrity in their occupations
or their amusements, is all they require—pleasure
has with them no meaning but
the exemption from actual suffering, nor
do they annex any idea to pain but the
immediate infliction of corporeal suffering,
or of external calamity—the source of
pain or pleasure is never found in their
hearts—while those who have profound
feelings scarce ever look elsewhere for
either. So much the worse for them,—the
being reduced to providing for the necessities
of human life, and being satisfied
when that provision is made, is perhaps
the best condition of human life—beyond
that, all is the dream of insanity, or the
agony of disappointment. Far better the
dull and dusky winter’s day, whose gloom,
if it never abates, never increases,—(and
to which we lift up an eye of listlessness,
in which there is no apprehension of future
and added terrors),—to the glorious
fierceness of the summer’s day, whose sun
sets amid purple and gold,—while, panting
under its parting beams, we see the clouds
collecting in the darkening East, and view
the armies of heaven on their march,
whose thunders are to break our rest, and
whose lightnings may crumble us to ashes.
* * * * *
“Elinor strove hard with her fate,—the
strength of her intellect had been much
developed since her residence at Mortimer
Castle, and there also the energies of her
heart had been developed fatally. How
dreadful is the conflict of superior intellect
and a burning heart, with the perfect mediocrity
of the characters and circumstances
they are generally doomed to live with!
The battering-rams play against wool-bags,—the
lightnings glance on ice, hiss, and
are extinguished. The greater strength we
exhibit, we feel we are more and more
paralyzed by the weakness of our enemies,—our
very energy becomes our bitterest
enemy, as it fights in vain against the impregnable
fortress of total vacuity! It is
in vain we assail a foe who neither
knows our language or uses our weapons.
Elinor gave it up,—yet still she struggled
with her own feelings; and perhaps the
conflict which she now undertook was the
hardest of all. She had received her first
religious impressions under the roof of her
Puritanic aunt, and, true or false, they had
been so vivid, that she was anxious to revive
them. When the heart is robbed of
its first-born, there is nothing it will not
try to adopt. Elinor remembered a very
affecting scene that had occurred in her
childhood, beneath the roof where she now
resided.
“An old non-conformist minister, a very
Saint John for sanctity of life, and simplicity
of manners, had been seized by a
magistrate while giving the word of consolation
to a few of his flock who had met
at the cottage of her aunt.
“The old man had supplicated for a
moment’s delay on the part of the civil
power, and its officers, by an unusual effort
of toleration or of humanity, complied.
Turning to his congregation, who, amid
the tumult of the arrest, had never risen
from their knees, and only changed the
voice of supplication from praying with
their pastor, to praying for him,—he
quoted to them that beautiful passage from
the prophet Malachi, which appears to
give such delightful encouragement to the
spiritual intercourse of Christians,—“Then
they that feared the Lord, spoke often to
one another, and the Lord heard it,” &c.
As he spoke, the old man was dragged
away by some rougher hands, and died
soon after in confinement.
“On the young imagination of Elinor,
this scene was indelibly written. Amid
the magnificence of Mortimer Castle, it
had never been effaced or obscured, and
now she tried to make herself in love with
the sounds and the scene that had so deeply
touched her infant heart.
“Resolute in her purposes, she spared
no pains to excite this reminiscence of religion,—it
was her last resource. Like the
wife of Phineas, she struggled to bear an
heir of the soul, even while she named
him Ichabod,—and felt the glory was departed.
She went to the narrow apartment,—she
seated herself in the very chair
that venerable man occupied when he was
torn from it, and his departure appeared
to her like that of an ascending prophet.
She would then have caught the folds of
his mantle, and mounted with him, even
though his flight had led to prison and to
death. She tried, by repeating his last
words, to produce the same effect they had
once had on her heart, and wept in indescribable
agony at feeling those words had
no meaning now for her. When life and
passion have thus rejected us, the backward
steps we are compelled to tread towards
the path we have wandered from, are ten
thousand times more torturing and arduous
than those we have exhausted in their
pursuit. Hope then supported our hands
every step we took. Remorse and disappointment
scourge us back, and every step
is tinged with tears or with blood; and
well it is for the pilgrim if that blood is
drained from his heart, for then—his pilgrimage
will be sooner terminated. *
* * * * *
“At times Elinor, who had forgotten
neither the language or habits of her former
existence, would speak in a manner
that gave her Puritanic relative hopes that,
according to the language of the times,
“the root of the matter was in her,”—and
when the old lady, in confidence of her returning
orthodoxy, discussed long and
learnedly on the election and perseverance
of the saints, the listener would startle
her by a burst of feeling, that seemed to
her aunt more like the ravings of a demoniac,
than the language of a human
being,—especially one who had from her
youth known the Scriptures. She would
say, “Dearest aunt, I am not insensible of
what you say; from a child, (thanks to
your care), I have known the holy scriptures.
I have felt the power of religion.
At a latter period I have experienced all
the enjoyments of an intellectual existence.
Surrounded by splendour, I have
conversed with enlarged minds,—I have
seen all that life can shew me,—I have
lived with the mean and the rich,—the
spiritual in their poverty, and the worldly-minded
in their grandeur,—I have deeply
drank of the cup which both modes of
existence held to my lip,—and at this
moment I swear to you,—one moment of
heart,—one dream such as once I dreamed,
(and thought I should never awake
from), is worth all the existence that the
earthly-minded lavish on this world, and
those who mystify expend on the next!”—“Unfortunate
wretch! and undone for everlasting!”
cried the terrified Calvinist, lifting
up her hands,—“Cease, cease,” said Elinor
with that dignity which grief alone can
give,—“If I have indeed devoted to an
earthly love that which is due to God
alone, is not my punishment certain in a
future state? Has it not already commenced
here? May not then all reproaches be
spared when we are suffering more than
human enmity can wish us,—when our
very existence is a bitterer reproach to us
than malignity can utter?”—As she spoke,
she added, wiping a cold tear from her
wasted cheek, “My stroke is heavier than
my groaning!”
“At other times she appeared to listen
to the language of the Puritan preachers
(for all were preachers who frequented the
house) with some appearance of attention,
and then, rushing from them without any
conviction but that of despair, exclaimed
in her haste, “All men are liars!” Thus
it fares with those who wish to make an
instant transition from one world to another,—it
is impossible,—the cold wave interposes—for
ever interposes, between the
wilderness and the land of promise—and
we may as soon expect to tread the
threshold which parts life and death without
pain, as to cross the interval which
separates two modes of existence so distinct
as those of passion and religion, without
struggles of the soul inexpressible—without
groanings which cannot be uttered.
“To these struggles there was soon to
be an addition. Letters at this period circulated
very slowly, and were written only
on important occasions. Within a very
short period, Elinor received two letters by
express from Mortimer Castle, written by
her cousin Margaret. The first announced
the arrival of John Sandal at the Castle,—the
second, the death of Mrs Ann,—the
postscriptums of both contained certain
mysterious hints relative to the interruption
of the marriage,—intimations that the
cause was known only to the writer, to
Sandal and to his mother,—and entreaties
that Elinor would return to the Castle,
and partake of the sisterly love with which
Margaret and John Sandal would be glad
to receive her. The letters dropt from her
hand as she received them,—of John Sandal
she had never ceased to think, but she
had never ceased to wish not to think,—and
his name even now gave her a pang which
she could neither utter or suppress, and
which burst forth in an involuntary shriek,
that seemed like the last string that breaks
in the exquisite and too-highly strung instrument
of the human heart.
“Over the account of Mrs Ann’s death,
she lingered with that fearful feeling that
a young adventurer experiences, who sees
a noble vessel set out before him on a
voyage of discovery, and wishes, while lingering
in harbour himself, that he was
already at the shore where it has arrived,
and tasted of its repose, and participated
in its treasures.
“Mrs Ann’s death had not been unworthy
of that life of magnanimity and
high heroic feeling which had marked
every hour of her mortal existence—she
had espoused the cause of the rejected Elinor,
and sworn in the chapel of Mortimer
Castle, while Margaret knelt beside, never
to admit within its walls the deserter of
his betrothed bride.
“On a dim autumnal evening, when Mrs
Ann, with fading sight but undiminished
feeling, was poring over some of Lady
Russel’s letters in manuscript, and, to relieve
her eyes, sometimes glanced on
the manuscript of Nelson’s Fasts and Festivals
of the Church of England,—it was
announced to her that a Cavalier (the servants
well knew the charm of that name
to the ear of the ancient loyalist) had
crossed the draw-bridge, entered the hall,
and was advancing to the apartment where
she sat. “Let him be admitted,” was her
answer, and rising from her chair, which
was so lofty and so spacious, that as she
lifted herself from it to greet the stranger
with a courtly reception, her form appeared
like a spectre rising from an ancient
monument,—she stood facing the entrance—at
that entrance appeared John Sandal.
She bent forwards for a moment, but her
eyes, bright and piercing, still recognized
him in a moment.
“Back!—back!”—exclaimed the stately
ancestress, waving him off with her withered
hand—“Back!—profane not this floor
with another step!”—“Hear me, madam,
for one moment—suffer me to address you,
even on my knees—I pay the homage to
your rank and relationship—misunderstand
it not as an acknowledgement of
guilt on my part!”
“Mrs Ann’s features at this action
underwent a slight contraction—a short
spasmodic affection. “Rise, Sir—rise,”
she said—“and say what you have to say—but
utter it, Sir, at the door whose
threshold you are unworthy to tread.”
“John Sandal rose from his knees, and
pointed instinctively as he rose to the
portrait of Sir Roger Mortimer, to whom
he bore a striking resemblance. Mrs Ann
acknowledged the appeal—she advanced a
few steps on the oaken floor—she stood
erect for a moment, and then, pointing
with a dignity of action which no pencil
could embody to the portrait, seemed to
consider her attitude as a valid and eloquent
answer—it said—he to whose resemblance
you point, and claim protection from, never
like you dishonoured these walls by an act
of baseness—of heartless treachery! Betrayer!—look
to his portrait! Her expression
had in it something of the sublime—the
next moment a strong spasm contracted
her features—she attempted to speak,
but her lips no longer obeyed her—she
seemed to speak, but was not heard even
by herself. She stood for a moment before
John Sandal in that rigid immoveable attitude
that says, “Advance not another
step at your peril—insult not the portraits
of your ancestors—insult not their living
representative, by another step of intrusion!”
As she spoke thus, (for her attitude
spoke), a stronger spasm contracted
her features. She attempted to move—the
same rigid constriction extended to
her limbs; and, waving her prohibitory
arm still, as if in defiance at once of the
approach of death and of her rejected
kinsman, she dropt at his feet. *
* * * * *
“She did not long survive the interview,
nor did she ever recover the use of
speech. Her powerful intellect was, however,
unimpaired; and to the last she expressed
herself most intelligibly by action,
as determined not to hear a word explanatory
of Sandal’s conduct. This explanation
was therefore made to Margaret, who,
though much shocked and agitated at the
first disclosure, seemed afterwards perfectly
reconciled to it. * * *
* * * * *
“Shortly after the receipt of these letters,
Elinor took a sudden, but perhaps
not singular resolution,—she determined to
set out immediately for Mortimer Castle.
It was not her weariness of the withering
life, the αβιωτος βιος she lived at her Puritanic
aunt’s—it was not the wish to enjoy
again the stately and splendid ceremonial
of Mortimer Castle, contrasted with the
frugal fare and monastic rigour of the cottage
in Yorkshire—it was not even the
wish for that change of place that always
flatters us with change of circumstance, as
if we did not carry our own hearts with us
wherever we go, and might not therefore
be sure that an innate and eroding ulcer
must be our companion from the Pole to
the Equator—it was not this, but a whisper
half unheard, yet believed, (just in
proportion as it was inaudible and incredible),
that murmured from the bottom of
her credulous heart, ‘Go—and perhaps’—
“Elinor set out on her journey, and
after having performed it with fewer difficulties
than can be imagined, considering
the state of the roads, and the modes of
travelling in the year 1667 or thereabouts,
she arrived in the vicinity of Mortimer
Castle. It was a scene of reminiscence to
her,—her heart throbbed audibly as the
carriage stopped at a Gothic gate, through
which there was a walk between two rows
of lofty elms. She alighted, and to the
request of the servant who followed her,
that he might be permitted to shew her
the way through a path entangled by
the intersecting roots of the trees, and
dim with twilight, she answered only
by her tears. She waved him off, and
advanced on foot and alone. She remembered,
from the bottom of her soul,
how she had once wandered amid that
very grove with John Sandal—how his
smile had shed a richer light on the
landscape, than even the purple smile of
the dying day-light. She thought of that
smile, and lingered to catch it amid the
rich and burning hues flung by the fading
light on the many-tinted boles of the ancient
trees. The trees were there—and
the light was there—but his smile, that
once eclipsed the sun-light, was there no
longer!
“She advanced alone—the lofty avenue
of trees still retained its magnificent depth
of shade, and gorgeous colouring of trunk
and leaf. She sought among them for
that which she had once felt—and God
and nature alone are conscious of the agony
with which we demand from them the
object which we are conscious was once
consecrated to our hearts, and which we
now require of both in vain! God withholds,—and
Nature denies them!
“As Elinor with trembling steps advanced
towards the Castle, she saw the
funeral scutcheon which Mrs Margaret, in
honour of her grand-aunt, had caused to
be affixed over the principal tower since
her decease, with the same heraldric decorum
as if the last male of the Mortimer
family were extinct. Elinor looked up,
and many thoughts rushed on her heart.—“There
is one departed,” she thought,
“whose mind was always fixed on glorious
thoughts—the most exalted actions of humanity,
or the sublime associations of eternity!
Her noble heart had room but for
two illustrious guests—the love of God,
and the love of her country. They tarried
with her to the last, for they found the
abode worthy of them; and when they
parted, the inmate found the mansion
untenantable any longer—the soul fled
with its glorious visitors to heaven! My
treacherous heart welcomed another inmate,
and how has he repaid its hospitality?—By
leaving the mansion in ruins!”
As she spoke thus, she approached the entrance
of the Castle.
“In the spacious hall she was received
by Margaret Mortimer with the embrace
of rooted affection, and by John
Sandal, who advanced after the first enthusiasm
of meeting was over, with that
calm and brother-like good-will, from
which there was—nothing to be hoped.
There was the same heavenly smile, the
same clasp of the hand, the same tender
and almost feminine expression of anxiety
for her safety—even Margaret herself,
who must have felt, and who did feel
the perils of the long journey, did not
enter into them with that circumstantiality,
or appear to sympathize with them
so vividly, or, when the tale of toil and
travel was told, appear to urge the necessity
of speedy retirement, with such solicitude
as did John Sandal. Elinor, faint
and gasping, grasped the hands of both,
and by an involuntary motion locked both
together. The widow Sandal was present—she
shewed much agitation at the appearance
of Elinor; but when she saw this
extraordinary and spontaneous movement,
it was observed she smiled.
“Soon after, Elinor retired to the apartment
she had formerly occupied. By
the affectionate and delicate prevoyance of
Margaret, the furniture had all been changed—there
was nothing to remind her of
former days, except her heart. She sat for
some time reflecting on her reception, and
hope died within her heart as she thought
of it. The strongest expression of aversion
or disdain would not have been so
withering.
“It is certain that the fiercest passions
may be exchanged for their widest extremes
in a time incredibly short, and by
means the most incalculable. Within the
narrow circle of a day, enemies may embrace,
and lovers may hate,—but, in the
course of centuries, pure complacency and
cordial good-will never can be exalted
into passion. The wretched Elinor felt
this,—and feeling it, knew that all was
lost.
“She had now, for many days, to undergo
the torture of complacent and fraternal
affection from the man she loved,—and
perhaps a keener torture was never
endured. To feel hands that we long to
press to our burning hearts, touch ours
with cool and pulseless tranquillity—to
see eyes in whose light we live, throw on
us a cold but smiling beam, that gives
light, but not fertility, to the parched and
thirsting soil of the heart—to hear the ordinary
language of affectionate civility addressed
to us in tones of the most delicious
suavity—to seek in these expressions an
ulterior meaning, and to find it not——
This—this is an agony which only those
who have felt can conceive!
“Elinor, with an effort that cost her
heart many a pang, mingled in the habits
of the house, which had been greatly
changed since the death of Mrs Ann. The
numerous suitors of the wealthy and noble
heiress, now crowded to the Castle;
and, according to the custom of the times,
they were sumptuously entertained, and
invited to prolong their stay by numerous
banquets.
“On these occasions, John Sandal was
the first to pay distinguished attention to
Elinor. They danced together; and though
her Puritanic education had taught her an
abhorrence of those “devil’s measures,” as
her family was accustomed to term them,
she tried to adapt herself to the gay steps
of the Canaries, and the stately movements
of the Measures—(for the newer
dances had not, even in report, reached
Mortimer Castle)—and her slender and
graceful form needed no other inspiration
than the support of John Sandal’s arms,
(who was himself an exquisite dancer), to
assume all the graces of that delightful
exercise. Even the practised courtiers
applauded her. But, when it was over,
Elinor felt, that had John Sandal been
dancing with a being the most indifferent
to him on earth, his manner would have
been exactly the same. No one could
point with more smiling grace to her
slight deviations from the figure,—no one
could attend her to her seat with more
tender and anxious politeness, and wave
the vast fan of those days over her with
more graceful and assiduous courtesy.
But Elinor felt that these attentions, however
flattering, were offered not by a
lover. * * * *
* * * * *
“Sandal was absent on a visit to some
neighbouring nobleman, and Margaret and
Elinor were one evening completely alone.
Each seemed equally anxious for an explanation,
which neither appeared willing
to begin. Elinor had lingered till twilight
at the casement, from which she
had seen him ride, and lingered still
when to see him was no longer possible.
Her sight was strained to catch a glimpse
of him through the gathering clouds, as
her imagination still toiled to catch a
gleam of that light of the heart, which
now struggled dimly amid clouds of
gloomy and unpierceable mystery. “Elinor,”
said Margaret emphatically, “look
for him no longer,—he never can be
yours!”
“The sudden address, and the imperative
tone of conviction, had upon Elinor
the effect of being addressed by a
supernatural monitor. She was unable
even to ask how the terrible intelligence
that burst on her so decisively, was obtained.
“There is a state of mind in which we
listen thus to a human voice as if it were
an oracle,—and instead of asking an explanation
of the destiny it announces, we
wait submissively for what yet remains to
be told. In this mood, Elinor slowly advanced
from the casement, and asked in a
voice of fearful calmness, “Has he explained
himself perfectly to you?”—“Perfectly.”—“And
there is nothing to expect?”—“Nothing.”—“And you have
heard this from himself—his very self?”—“I
have; and, dear Elinor, let us never
again speak on the subject.”—“Never!”
answered Elinor,—“Never!”
“The veracity and dignity of Margaret’s
character, were inviolable securities
for the truth of what she uttered; and
perhaps that was the very reason why Elinor
tried to shrink most from the conviction.
In a morbid state of heart, we cannot
bear truth—the falsehood that intoxicates
us for a moment, is worth more than
the truth that would disenchant us for life.—I
hate him because he tells me the truth,
is the language natural to the human
mind, from the slave of power to the slave
of passion. * * *
* * * * *
“Other symptoms that could not escape
the notice of the most shallow, struck her
every hour. That devotion of the eye and
heart,—of the language and the look,
that cannot be mistaken,—were all obviously
directed to Margaret. Still Elinor
lingered in the Castle, and said to herself,
while every day she saw and felt what was
passing, “Perhaps.” That is the last word
that quits the lips of those who love. *
* * * * *
“She saw with all her eyes,—she felt to
the bottom of her soul,—the obviously increasing
attachment of John Sandal and
Margaret; yet still she dreamed of interposing
obstacles,—of an explanation.
When passion is deprived of its proper
aliment, there is no telling the food on
which it will prey,—the impossibilities to
which, like a famished garrison, it will
look for its wretched sustenance.
“Elinor had ceased to demand the heart
of the being she was devoted to. She now
lived on his looks. She said to herself,
Let him smile, though not on me, and I
am happy still—wherever the sun-light
falls, the earth must be blessed. Then she
sunk to lower claims. She said, Let me
but be in his presence, and that is enough—let
his smiles and his soul be devoted to
another, one wandering ray may reach me,
and that will be enough!
“Love is a very noble and exalting
sentiment in its first germ and principle.
We never loved without arraying the object
in all the glories of moral as well as
physical perfection, and deriving a kind of
dignity to ourselves from our capacity of
admiring a creature so excellent and dignified;
but this lavish and magnificent
prodigality of the imagination often leaves
the heart a bankrupt. Love in its iron
age of disappointment, becomes very degraded—it
submits to be satisfied with
merely exterior indulgences—a look, a
touch of the hand, though occurring by
accident—a kind word, though uttered almost
unconsciously, suffices for its humble
existence. In its first state, it is like man
before the fall, inhaling the odours of paradise,
and enjoying the communion of
the Deity; in the latter, it is like the same
being toiling amid the briar and the thistle,
barely to maintain a squalid existence
without enjoyment, utility, or loveliness.
* * * * * *
“About this time, her Puritan aunt
made a strong effort to recover Elinor out of
the snare of the enemy. She wrote a long
letter (a great exertion for a woman far
advanced in years, and never in the habits
of epistolary composition) adjuring her
apostate niece to return to the guide of
her youth, and the covenant of her God,—to
take shelter in the everlasting arms
while they were still held out to her,—and
to flee to the city of refuge while its gates
were yet open to receive her. She urged
on her the truth, power, and blessedness of
the system of Calvin, which she termed
the gospel.—She supported and defended
it with all the metaphysical skill, and all
the scriptural knowledge she possessed,—and
the latter was not scanty.—And she
affectingly reminded her, that the hand
that traced these lines, would be unable
ever to repeat the admonition, and would
probably be mouldering into dust while
she was employed in their perusal.
“Elinor wept while she read, but that
was all. She wept from physical emotion,
not from mental conviction; nor is there
such an induration of heart caused by any
other power, as by that of the passion
which seems to soften it most. She answered
the letter, however, and the effort
scarce cost her less than it did her decrepid
and dying relative. She acknowledged
her dereliction of all religious feeling, and
bewailed it—the more, she added with
painful sincerity, because I feel my grief
is not sincere. “Oh, my God!” she continued,
“you who have clothed my heart
with such burning energies—you who
have given to it a power of loving so intense,
so devoted, so concentrated—you
have not given it in vain;—no, in some
happier world, or perhaps even in this,
when this “tyranny is overpast,” you will
fill my heart with an image worthier than
him whom I once believed your image on
earth. The stars, though their light appears
so dim and distant to us, were not
lit by the Almighty hand in vain. Their
glorious light burns for remote and happier
worlds; and the beam of religion that
glows so feebly to eyes almost blind with
earthly tears, may be rekindled when a
broken heart has been my passport to a
place of rest. * * *
* * * * *
“Do not think me, dear aunt, deserted
by all hope of religion, even though I have
lost the sense of it. Was it not said by
unerring lips to a sinner, that her transgressions
were forgiven because she loved
much? And does not this capacity of
love prove that it will one day be more
worthily filled, and more happily employed.
* * * * * *
“Miserable wretch that I am! At this
moment, a voice from the bottom of my
heart asks me “Whom hast thou loved so
much? Was it man or God, that thou
darest to compare thyself with her who
knelt and wept—not before a mortal idol,
but at the feet of an incarnate divinity?”
* * * * * *
“It may yet befall, that the ark which
has floated through the waste of waters
may find its resting-place, and the trembling
inmate debark on the shores of an
unknown but purer world.” * *
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