The reality was something quite different.
She saw, the moment she set foot on land, that both old and young were
unfeignedly happy to see her again. Every face brightened. Every one
whom they met on the way up to the market-place recognised and greeted
her with pleasure. She had not thought of them, but they had thought of
her.
From the house on the market-place they were to go on later in the day
to Krogskogen, with the coasting-steamer. In the interval many of their
relations called, who all expressed great pleasure at seeing them home
again at last. They told what a success Mary's Spanish portrait had
been—in their own town, in Christiania, and then on its tour with other
pictures through the country. The notices—but these she had of course
read? No, she had read no newspapers, except occasionally one published
at the place where they were living. "Do you read no home newspapers?"
"Yes, when Father shows me them." Had not her father, had not Mrs.
Dawes, told her anything? "No." Why, she was famous now throughout the
whole of Norway. For this was the third portrait of her—or was it the
fourth? Anyhow it was the finest. It had been reproduced in the
illustrated newspapers; and also in an English art-magazine, the
Studio. Did she not know that? "No." The young people here were very
proud of her. They had put off their spring picnic and dance until she
came home.
"You are to be fêted!"
"I?"
"The picnic is to be at Marielyst. One steamer goes from here, and
another comes from the places on the opposite side. Jörgen Thiis planned
it all in Paris."
"Jörgen Thiis?"
"Yes. Did he not tell you about it?"
"No."
As soon as the callers left, Mary went to her father, who was unpacking
some of the art treasures which were to remain in town.
"Father, is it the case that you sent my portraits to exhibitions?"
He smiled, and said: "Yes, my child, I did. And they have given pleasure
to many. I was asked to send them. They wrote and asked me each time."
He spoke in such a gentle voice, and Mary thought it so considerate of
him that he had not told her, and had forbidden Mrs. Dawes to
tell—probably Jörgen Thiis too—that she did what she very seldom did,
went up to him and kissed him.
So this was what her father, Mrs. Dawes, and Jörgen Thiis had so often
sat whispering about. This was why the home newspapers had been kept
from her. Everything had been planned—even to the proposal to travel
home at this particular moment! She almost began to like Jörgen Thiis.
When they left for Krogskogen in the afternoon, a crowd of young people
assembled on the pier called: "Au revoir on Sunday!"
Mary was charmed with the view as they sailed along. The short half hour
was spent, as it were, in recognising one old acquaintance after
another. The new, or at least much altered, high road along the coast
was now finished. It looked remarkably well, especially where it cut
across the headlands, often through the rock. At Krogskogen it led, as
before, from the one point across the level to the other, passing close
to the landing-place and directly below the chapel and the churchyard.
And Krogskogen itself—how snugly it lay! She had remembered its
loneliness, but had forgotten how beautiful it was. This calm,
glittering bay with the sea-birds! The ripple yonder where the river
flows in, the level land stretching back between the heights, and these
in their robes of green! Were the trees round the house really no
higher? How nice it looked, the house—long and white, with black window
frames and black foundation wall. From one chimney thick smoke was
rising, in cheerful welcome. She jumped on shore before the others and
ran on in front. A little girl, between eight and ten, who was running
down from the house, stopped when she saw Mary, and rushed back as hard
as she could. But Mary overtook her at the steps. "I've caught you!" she
cried, turning her round. "Who are you?" The fair-haired, smiling
creature was unable to answer. On the steps stood the maids, and one of
them said that the child's name was Nanna, and that she was there to run
errands. "You shall be my little maid!" said Mary, and led her up the
steps. She nodded to each of the women, and felt that they were
disappointed because she hurried on without speaking to them. She was
longing to set foot on the thick carpets, to feel the peculiar light of
the hall about her, to see the huge cupboards and all the pictures and
curios of the Dutch days. And she was longing even more to reach her own
room. The silence of the stairs and of the long, rather dark
passage—never had it played such a game of whispers with her as it did
to-day. She felt it like something soft, half-hidden, confidential and
close. It was still speaking when she reached the door of her room; it
actually kept her from opening the door for a moment.
Ah!—the room lay steeped in sunshine from the open window which looked
over the outbuildings to the ridge. Paler light entered from that
looking on the orchard and the bay below, the water of which glittered
between the trees. Beyond the trees were seen the islands and the open
sea, at this moment pale grey. But from the hill, now in fairest leaf
and flower, the fragrance of spring poured in. The room itself, in its
white purity, lay like a receptacle for it. There everything arranged
itself reverently round the bed, which stood in the middle of the floor.
It was more than a bed for a princess; it was the princess herself;
everything else seemed to do homage to it.
The excursion to Marielyst was in every way a success. But during the
course of it a coolness arose between Mary and Jörgen Thiis.
It happened thus. Jörgen came on board with a tall, strongly-built lady,
the sight of whose broad forehead, kindly eyes, small nose, and
projecting chin brought a slight blush to Mary's cheeks, which she
concealed by rising and asking: "Are you not a sister of Captain Frans
Röy?"
"She is," answered Jörgen Thiis. "For safety's sake we are taking a
doctor with us."
"I am glad to meet you," said Mary. "Of course I have heard your brother
speak of you; he has a great admiration for you."
"So we all have," Jörgen Thiis declared as he left them.
Miss Röy herself had not spoken yet. But her scrutinising eyes expressed
admiration of Mary. Now she seated herself beside her.
"Are you to be at home long?"
"I can't say. Possibly we shall not travel any more; my father is not
strong enough now."
Miss Röy did not speak again for some time; she sat observing. Mary
thought to herself: It is tactful of her not to begin a conversation
about her brother.
The two ladies kept together during the sail. And they also sat beside
each other when dessert was served out of doors at Marielyst and
speeches were made. The success of the entertainment went to Jörgen
Thiis's head. One after another came round to him and drank his health;
he became sentimental, and made a speech. His toast was "the ideal, the
eternal ideal." Fortunate the man to whom it was revealed in his youth!
He bore it in his breast as his inextinguishable guiding lamp on the
path of life! Pale and excited, Jörgen emptied his glass and flung it
away.
This sudden earnestness came so unexpectedly upon the merry company that
they laughed—one and all.
Miss Röy said to Mary: "You met Lieutenant Thiis abroad?"
"Both this winter and last," answered Mary carelessly; she was eating
ice.
A young girl was standing beside them. "He is a curious man, Jörgen
Thiis," said she. "He is so amiable with us; but he is said to be a
perfect tyrant with the soldiers."
Mary turned towards her in surprise. "A tyrant—in what way?"
"They say that he irritates them dreadfully—is exacting and
ill-tempered, and punishes for nothing."
Mary turned her largest eyes upon Margrete Röy.
"Yes, it is true," said the latter indifferently; she, too, was eating
ice.
When, late in the evening, after the dance, they were all trooping down
to the steamer, Mary and Jörgen arm in arm, she said to him: "Is it true
that the soldiers under your command complain of you?"
"It is quite likely that they do, Miss Krog." He laughed.
"Is there anything to laugh about in that?"
"There is certainly nothing to cry about."
He was in a very jovial mood, and would fain have put his arm round her
and danced down to the pier, as many of the others were doing. But Mary
warded him off.
"I was very sorry to hear it," she said.
Then he understood that she was in earnest.
"The fact is, Miss Krog, that Norwegians, generally speaking, don't know
what obedience and discipline are. During the short time we have them
under command, we must teach them."
"Teach them in what way?"
"In small things, of course."
"By plaguing them about small things?"
"Exactly."
"Giving orders for which they see no necessity?"
"Precisely. They must learn to give up reasoning. They must obey. And
what they do, they must do properly; exactly as it should be done."
Mary did not answer. She addressed another couple who now made up to
them, and continued doing so till they all reached the pier.
On board the steamer she noticed that Jörgen Thiis was out of humour.
When they landed, he was not standing at the gangway. Without any
previous arrangement, the whole party accompanied her home to the house
on the market-place. They sang and shouted under the windows until she
came out on the balcony and threw flowers down on them—those she had
brought home with her and any more she could find. Then they dispersed,
laughing and joking.
As they were going off, she looked for Jörgen; he was not there. This
vexed her; she felt that she had rewarded him ill for one of the most
delightful days in her life.
Entertainments, large and small, followed one on the other. But Jörgen
Thiis was absent from them all. He had first gone home to see his
parents, then to Christiania. Mary had never devoted much thought to
Jörgen Thiis, but now that he kept away, she could not help remembering
that she had chiefly him to thank for the happy meeting with the young
people of her own age. And that remarkable toast of his—"fidelity to
the ideal"—at the time he proposed it she had merely thought: How
sentimental Jörgen Thiis can be! Now she thought: Perhaps it was an
allusion to me? She was accustomed to such exaggerations; and she did
not care in the least for Jörgen Thiis. But when she remembered how
deeply in love he had fallen at their first meeting, and how all these
years he had been exactly the same whenever and wherever they met, the
matter assumed a more serious aspect. The gloating, greedy eyes acquired
something almost touching. The fact that he could not bear to be with
her when she was the least displeased with him was another proof of the
strength of his attachment. His saying nothing, but simply staying away,
appealed to her.
One day Mille Falke, the consumptive head-schoolmaster's pretty, gentle
wife, came out to see Mary. She had had a letter from Jörgen Thiis. A
party of ten Christiania people had arranged a trip to the North Cape.
They had taken their berths two months ago; now circumstances prevented
their going. Jörgen Thiis had been asked if he could not take the
tickets and find nine people to accompany him on the glorious
excursion. In the small towns there was more neighbourliness; it was
easier there to make up such a party. Jörgen Thiis declared himself
willing if Mary Krog would agree to go; he knew that in this case he
would have no trouble in finding others.
Mrs. Falke laid the matter before Mary with the soft, feline
persuasiveness which few could resist. Mary had, however, not the
slightest desire either to sit on the deck of a steamer in the midsummer
heat, or to interrupt all that was going on at home—it was much too
pleasant. At the same time she was unwilling to offend Jörgen Thiis
again. She consulted with her father and Mrs. Dawes; she listened once
again to Mrs. Falke—and consented.
Early in July the party assembled at night on board the coasting-steamer
which was to take them to Bergen, the starting-point of the excursion
proper. They were six ladies and four gentlemen. The eldest lady was the
respected principal of the chief girls' school in the town—mother of
one of the gentlemen and former instructress of three of the other
ladies. She was the moral support of the party. Two of its members were
on their honeymoon, and they were teased by the others the whole time.
It was worth doing, for they were quick-witted, both of them, and gave
as good as they got. Then there was a young merchant, who paid attention
to two of the ladies, unable—so it was averred—to make up his mind
which he liked best. The whole party, including the ladies in question,
did their best to assist him in coming to a decision. The very first
night on the coasting-steamer, a schoolmaster was christened "the
forsaken one." All the others, with the exception of the old lady kept
up a constant racket; no one slept. He alone could neither dance nor
sing, and he was incapable of flirting; he could not even be flirted
with, it put him out so terribly. The consequence was that all the
ladies, even Mary, made love to "the forsaken one," simply to enjoy his
misery.
The originator of most of the mischief that went on was Jörgen Thiis;
teasing was his passion. His inventiveness in this domain was not always
free from malice.
At first he himself was unmolested. But in course of time even "the
forsaken one" ventured to attack him. His appetite, his inclination to
tyrannise, and especially his role as Mary's humble servant, were made
subjects of jest. Mary had the Krogs' keen eye for exaggeration in every
shape, so she laughed along with the rest, even when it was at his
submissiveness to her they were laughing. Jörgen was not in the least
disturbed. He ate as much as ever, was as strict as ever in his capacity
of leader, and continued, unmoved, to play the part of Mary's inventive,
ever-ready squire.
The ship had its full complement of passengers, amongst them a number of
foreigners; but Jörgen Thiis's merry party was the centre of attraction.
Nature made such perpetual calls on the passengers' admiration that they
were not in too close and constant contact with each other. It was as if
they were attending some grand performance. One marvel followed the
other. The length of the days, too, had its influence. Each night was
shorter than the last, until there was none at all. They sailed on into
unquenchable, inextinguishable light, and this produced a kind of
intoxication. They drank, they danced, they sang; they were all equally
highly strung. They proposed things which under other circumstances
would have seemed impossible; here they were in keeping with the
wildness of the landscape, the intoxication of the light. One day in a
strong wind Mary lost her hat; two cavaliers jumped overboard after it.
One of them was, of course, Jörgen Thiis. The minds of all were working
at higher pressure than that of every day. Some of them became exhausted
and slept whole days and nights. But most of them held out—at least as
long as they were northward bound—Mary amongst the number.
Jörgen Thiis, with his persistent deference, in the end obliged all of
them to treat Mary more or less as he did himself. Nor did anything
occur the whole time to disturb this position of hers—thanks
principally to her own carefully cultivated reserve of manner.
When they returned to the coasting-steamer, genuine gratitude prompted
her to invite Jörgen Thiis to go home with her to Krogskogen. "I can't
stand such a sudden break-up," she said.
He stayed for some days, delighted with the beauty and comfort of
everything. Such art taste as he possessed lay chiefly in the direction
of knick-knacks; he was devoted to foreign curios, and of these there
was abundance. The rooms and their furniture and decorations were
exactly to his taste. To Mrs. Dawes, who encouraged him to speak freely,
he confided that the comfort and quiet disposed him amorously. He sat
often and long at the piano extemporising; and it was always in an
erotic strain.
He treated Mary with the same deference when they were alone as when
they were in company with others. All the time she had known him he had
not let fall a single word which could be interpreted as a preface to
love-making, no, not even as the preface to a preface. And this she
appreciated.
They wandered together through the woods and the fields. They rowed
together to relations' houses to pay calls. Jörgen had the key to the
bathing-house, where he went before any one else was up, and often again
after their excursions.
Mary herself had become more sociable. Jörgen told her so.
"Yes," answered she. "The Norwegian young people associate with each
other more like brothers and sisters than those of other countries, and
are consequently different—freer, franker. They have infected me."
One morning Jörgen had to go to town, and Mary accompanied him. She
wished to call on Uncle Klaus, his foster-father, whom she had not seen
since she came home.
Klaus was sitting behind a cloud of smoke, like a spider behind its grey
web. He jumped up when he saw Mary enter, declared he was ashamed of
himself, and led her into the big drawing-room. Jörgen had warned her
that he was not likely to be in a good humour; he had been losing money
again. And they had not sat long in the empty, stiff
drawing-room before he began to complain of the times. As was his
habit, he rounded his back and sprawled out his legs, supporting his
elbows on them and pressing the points of his long fingers together.
"Yes, you two are well off, who do nothing but amuse yourselves!"
He possibly thought that this remark demanded some reparation, for his
next was: "I have never seen a handsomer pair!"
Jörgen laughed, but coloured to the roots of his hair. Mary sat unmoved.
Jörgen accompanied her to the house on the market-place; it was quite
near. He did not say a word on the way, and took leave immediately.
Afterwards he sent to let her know that he would be obliged to stay in
town till the evening; then he would cycle out. Mary herself left at the
previously appointed hour.
On her way home in the steamer she revolved the idea: Jörgen Thiis and
herself a pair. No! This she had never contemplated. He was a handsome,
well-bred man, a courteous, pleasant companion, a really gifted
musician. His ability, his tact, were unanimously acknowledged. Even
that which at one time had repelled her so strongly, the sensuality,
which would suddenly leap into his eyes and produce that insufferable
gloating expression—perhaps it was of this underlying quality that all
the rest were cultivated developments? Might it not account for his
appreciation of the perfect in art, in discipline, in language? Still
there remained something unexplained. But it was a matter of
indifference to her what it was. She cast all these reflections aside;
it was no concern of hers.
As she came on board she had noticed a peasant-woman who had once been
their servant; now she went and sat down beside her. The woman was
gratified.
"And how is your father, Miss? I am old now, and I have known many
people in my day, but never a kinder man than Mr. Krog. There's no one
like him."
The affectionate warmth of these words touched Mary. The woman mentioned
one instance after the other of her father's considerateness and
generosity; she was still talking of it when they arrived. At first Mary
felt as if nothing so pleasant as this had happened to her for a long
time. Then she felt afraid. She had actually forgotten how dearly she
herself loved her father, and had left off giving expression to her
affection. Why? Why did she give her time and thoughts to so much else
and not to him, the best and dearest of all?
She hurried up to the house. Although her father was very much of an
invalid now, she had latterly spent hardly any of her time with him.
As she approached she saw Jörgen's bicycle propped against the steps;
she heard him playing. But she hurried past the drawing-room, and went
straight to her father, who was sitting in the office at his desk,
writing. She put her arms round him and kissed him, looked into his kind
eyes and kissed him again. His bewilderment was so comic that she could
not help laughing.
"Yes, you may well look at me, for it is certainly not often I do this.
But all the same you are dearer to me than I can tell." And she kissed
him again.
"My dear child!" he said, and smiled at her assault. He was happy, that
she saw. Into his eyes there gradually crept that curious brightness
which none ever forgot. She thought to herself: I'll do this every day
now, every day!
Jörgen and she had planned a cycling excursion back into the country.
They set off next day. The relation at whose house they stopped that
evening, a military man, was delighted to have a visit from them. They
were persuaded to stay for several days. The young people of the
neighbourhood were summoned; an excursion to a sæter was
arranged—again something quite new to Mary. "I know every country
except my own," said she. She was determined to travel the next year in
Norway; there not much chaperonage would be necessary. With this
prospect in view Jörgen and she rode home, enjoying themselves royally.
As they were propping their bicycles against the house, little Nanna
came rushing out at the door and down the steps. She was crying and did
not see them, as she was looking in the other direction. When Mary
called: "What is the matter?" she stopped and burst out: "Oh, come,
come! I was to go and call people." Up she rushed again to tell that
they were coming, Jörgen after her, Mary behind him—across the hall, up
the stairs, along the passage to the last door on the right. Within, on
the floor, lay Anders Krog, Mrs. Dawes on her knees beside him, weeping
loudly. He was in an apoplectic fit. Jörgen lifted him up, carried him
to his bed, and laid him carefully down. Mary had rushed to telephone
for the doctor.
The doctor was not at home; she tried place after place to find him, a
voice within her all the time crying despairingly: Why had she not been
beside her father when this happened? Immediately after vowing to
herself that she would show him every day how much she loved him, she
had left him! And this very day she had looked forward with pleasure to
being able to travel without him! How had she come to be like this? What
was the matter with her?
As soon as she had found the doctor, she hurried back to her father. He
was now undressed and Jörgen had gone. But Mrs. Dawes sat on a chair
beside the pillow, with a letter in her hand, in the deepest distress.
The moment she saw Mary, she handed her the letter without taking her
eyes from the sick man's face.
It was from a correspondent in America of whom Mary had never heard. It
told that her uncle Hans had lost their money and his own. His mind was
deranged, and probably had been so for a long time. Mary knew that on
the male side of the Krog family it was not uncommon for the old people
to become weak-minded. But she was horrified that her father should not
have exercised any control over affairs. This, too, was a suspicious
sign.
He must have been on his way to Mrs. Dawes with this letter when the
seizure occurred, for the door had been opened and he lay close to it.
Mary read the letter twice, then turned towards Mrs. Dawes, who sat
crying.
"Well, well, Aunt Eva—it has to be borne."
"Borne? borne? What do you mean? The money loss? Who cares for that? But
your father! That man of men—my best friend!"
She watched his closed eyes, weeping all the time, and heaping the best
of names and the highest of praise on him—in English. The words in the
foreign language seemed to belong to an earlier time; Mary knelt by her
father, taking them all in. They told of the days which the two old
people had spent together. Each a lament, each an expression of
gratitude, they recalled his friendly words, his kind looks, his gifts,
his forbearance. They flowed abundant and warm, uttered with the
fearlessness of a good conscience; for Mrs. Dawes had tried, as far as
it lay in her power, to be to him what he was to her. The more precious
the words poured forth in her father's honour over Mary's head, the
poorer did they make her feel. For she had been so little to him. Oh,
how she repented! oh, how she despaired!
Jörgen Thiis appeared outside the door just as she was rising to her
feet. She stooped again, picked up the letter, and was about to give it
to him, when Mrs. Dawes, who had also seen him, asked him to help her to
her room; she must go to bed. "God only knows if I shall ever get up
again! If this is the end with him, it is the end with me too."
Jörgen at once raised the heavy body from the chair and staggered slowly
off, supporting it. In Mrs. Dawes's room he rang for a maid; then he
went back to Mary. She was standing motionless, holding the letter,
which she now handed to him.
He read it carefully and turned pale; for a time he was quite overcome;
Mary went a few steps towards him, but this he did not see.
"This has been the cause of the shock," she said.
"Of course," whispered Jörgen, without looking at her. Presently he left
the room.
Mary remained alone with her father. His sweet, gentle face called to
her; she threw herself down beside him again and sobbed. For him whom
she loved best she had done least. Perhaps only because he never drew
attention to himself?
She did not leave him until the doctor came, and with him the nurse.
Then she went to Mrs. Dawes.
Mrs. Dawes was ill and in despair. Mary tried to comfort her, but she
interrupted passionately: "I have been too well off. I have felt too
secure. Now misfortune is at hand."
Mary started, for the thought had been in her own heart all the time.
"You are losing us both, poor child! And the money too!"
Mary did not like her mentioning the money. Mrs. Dawes felt this and
said:
"You don't understand me, my poor child! It is not your fault, it is
ours. We gave in to you too much. But you behaved so badly if we did
not."
Mary looked up, startled: "I behaved badly?"
"I spoke to your father, child; I spoke to him on the subject often. But
he was so tender-hearted; he always found some excuse."
Jörgen entered with the doctor.
"If any complication arises, Miss Krog, the worst may happen."
"Will he be paralysed?" asked Mrs. Dawes.
The doctor evaded the question; he merely said: "Quiet is all
important."
Silence followed this utterance.
"Miss Krog, I cannot allow you to nurse your father. There ought to be
two trained nurses."
Mary said nothing. Mrs. Dawes began to cry again. "This is a sad change
of days."
The doctor took leave, and was escorted downstairs by Jörgen Thiis. When
Jörgen returned, he asked softly: "Shall I go too—or can I be of any
use?"
"Oh, do not leave us!" wailed Mrs. Dawes.
Jörgen looked at Mary, who said nothing; nor did she look up. She was
weeping silently.
"You know, Miss Krog," said he respectfully, "that there is no one to
whom I would so willingly be of service."
"We know that, we know that!" sobbed Mrs. Dawes.
Mary had raised her head, but, Mrs. Dawes having spoken, she said
nothing.
When she left the room soon afterwards, Jörgen was just opening his
door, which was next to Mary's. He stood for a moment with the door wide
open, so that she saw the packed portmanteau behind him. She stopped.
"You are going?" she said.
"Yes," answered he.
"It will be very quiet here now."
Jörgen expected more, but no more came. Then he said:
"The shooting season begins immediately. I had intended to ask your
father's permission to shoot in his woods."
"If you consider mine sufficient, you have it."
"Thank you, Miss Krog! You will allow me, too, to look in upon you
sometimes, I hope?" He took her hand and bowed deeply over it.
Then he went in to take leave of Mrs. Dawes. With her he stayed ten
minutes at least, coming out just as Mary was crossing the passage to
her father's room.
As she stood by the bed Anders began to move, and opened his eyes. She
knelt down. "Father!"
He seemed to be collecting his thoughts; then he tried to speak, but
could not. She said quickly: "We know, Father; we know everything. Don't
trouble about it! We'll get on beautifully all the same."
Her father's eyes showed that he took in what she said, though slowly.
He tried to lift his hand, and, finding that he could not, looked at her
with an expression of painful surprise; she lay down close to him,
kissed him and wept.
Anders improved, however, with astonishing rapidity. Was it Mary's
presence and untiring attention which helped him? The nurse said that it
was.
Then came a time when, though still indefatigable in her attention to
the two invalids, she learned to manage both house and farm. She took
the accounts and the superintendence into her own hands. It was a task
she enjoyed, for she had the gift of order and management. Mrs. Dawes
was astonished.
No anxiety for the future did Mary display, no regret for the pleasures
of the past. To those who pitied her she said that it was indeed sad
that her father and Mrs. Dawes were ill, but that except for this she
was perfectly contented.
One unusually warm day in the middle of August she had been very busy
since early morning, looking forward all the time to a plunge in the sea
as soon as her work was done.
Between five and six they ran down, Mary and little Nanna. They both
went into the bathing-house, for it was one of Nanna's greatest
pleasures to attend to Mary's beautiful hair; to-day it was to hang
loose. After taking it down, Nanna ran up to the big stone on the ridge,
to keep a look-out on both sides. Mary meant to go into the water with
nothing on, that she might enjoy her bath thoroughly.
She swam out at once to the island. From there she could herself see the
inlet on both sides and the roads. No one anywhere, no danger—therefore
back again!
The sea caressed and upheld her; upon the arms that clove it the sun
played; the land in front lay in the repleteness of a rich aftermath;
sea-birds rocked on the waves, others screamed in the air above Mary's
head. "Imagine that I was afraid of being alone—!" thought she.
When she approached the shore she did not leave the water, but lay on
her back and rested; then took a few strokes and rested again. The beach
looked inviting; she lay down on it in the blazing sun, her head
supported on a stone, her hair floating. Oh, how delicious! But
something suddenly warned her to look up. She could not be troubled.
Yes, she ought to look up to where Nanna was sitting. No, she would not;
Nanna was on the look-out. Yet the suggestion had put an end to her
enjoyment. When she rose to walk along to the bathing-house steps, she
saw behind the big stone—Jörgen Thiis with his gun over his shoulder!
The little girl was standing on the top of the stone motionless, staring
at him as if she were spell-bound.
The blood rushed through Mary's veins in hot waves of fury and loathing.
Is he utterly shameless? Or has he gone out of his mind? To outward
appearance she behaved as if she saw nothing; she plunged into the sea
and swam to the steps, walked calmly up them, and disappeared.
But her breath was coming hard and short, and she was so hot that she
forgot to dry herself, forgot to dress. Hotter and hotter she grew,
until she was positively boiling with rage and desire for vengeance. The
polite Jörgen Thiis had dared to insult her as she had never in her life
been insulted!
Her mind wrestled with the thought of this senseless, dishonourable
surprisal until she became involved in a train of ideas which carried
her away. She was standing again in front of the acrobat's powerful
body; Alice's knowing eyes were upon her. She trembled—then screams
from the child reached her ear. In her excitement she almost screamed
back. What could it mean? There was no window on that side. She dared
not look out at the door, for she was naked. Never had she dressed in
such haste, but for this very reason everything went wrong, and time
passed. She would not appear before Jörgen Thiis half dressed.
Just as she was ready to open, she heard the pitapat of little Nanna's
steps on the bridge from the bank. Mary tore the door open; the child
came rushing in, hid her head in her mistress's dress, and cried and
sobbed so that she could not utter a word.
Mary managed to soothe her, principally by promising that she should be
allowed to dress her hair. Then Nanna told that before she had noticed
anything, Mr. Thiis was standing behind the stone. She had been sitting
singing and had not heard him. He made threatening signs to her. Oh, how
frightened she had been—for he looked so dreadful! oh, so dreadful! The
moment Mary went into the house, he had rushed straight towards it.
"Jörgen Thiis?"
"Then I screamed as loud as I could scream! That stopped him. He
turned and was coming back to me, but I jumped off the stone and ran
into the wood——" Here words failed her; she hid her face in Mary's
skirts again and sobbed.
This was worse than ever! Mary at first felt totally unable to
comprehend.
Then it gradually dawned upon her that Jörgen must be another man than
she took him for—that he had violent passions—that he had the daring
to act with utter recklessness. What if he had come...?
Conscious of her pride and strength, she knew that it would have meant
banishment for ever—impossibly anything else.
On the way home she had to send Nanna on in front, because she herself
felt hardly able to set one foot before the other, so overpowering were
her thoughts.
How could a man control himself in daily intercourse when he was
possessed by such passionate desire? It must have been accumulating for
ages, or he would never have succumbed to this assault upon himself, or
made this assault upon her.
Had he been burning with desire all these years? His homage, his
respect, his unwearying attention—was it all smoke from the
subterranean crater, which had now suddenly ejected red-hot stones and
ashes?
So Jörgen Thiis was dangerous? He did not lose by this in Mary's
estimation; he gained! It was praiseworthy, the compulsion which he had
exercised over himself—from reverence for her. Ought she to be so angry
with him because temptation had set loose the rebellious powers which he
had chained?
All the rest of the day, and even when she was undressing, her mind was
busy with these thoughts. Next morning she determined that a stop must
be put to this. It was a stirring of something which she had suppressed
once before, and which must not be allowed to disturb the new order of
her life. Therefore she applied herself more diligently than ever to her
tasks, and added to their number. She undertook a thorough examination
of her father's books and loose memoranda—of the latter there were far
too many—in order to find out the general state of his affairs. He
must have Norwegian investments, and he could not possibly have spent
all the money that had been sent from America. She was, however, unable
to find what she was looking for. She could not trouble her father, and
Mrs. Dawes knew nothing.
But, close as Mary's application to business was, thoughts of yesterday
managed to insinuate themselves. Jörgen's intention had, of course, been
to bathe, and to come up and call afterwards. After what had happened he
could not do so. Would he ever come again? Would he do so without being
invited? He had effectually damaged his own cause. She heard shots in
the woods near at hand on the following days; and other people mentioned
having heard shooting farther off. But he did not come on the second
day, nor yet on the third, nor on the fourth. Of this she approved.
Her thoughts running much on the woods and the heights, her steps also
took that direction one day before dinner. The sudden change of weather
which is usual in Norway in the second half of August had taken place.
It was cold now; she felt the climb with the north wind playing round
her very refreshing. She chose the ascent a little below the houses; it
was the easiest. She went up quickly, for she was accustomed to the
climb and was longing to be at the top, standing in the wind and
looking out over the stormy sea. Even from the first knoll she had an
enjoyable view of the meadows, where the farm-servants were spreading
out the second crop of hay to dry, of the bay, of the islands, of the
sea, black to-day, and bearing on its breast numbers of sailing vessels
and one or two steamers. Overhead the crows were making a terrible
clamour; a trial was unmistakably going on. She saw one after the other
cleave the air and disappear farther along the ridge, towards the north.
The noise became louder the higher she climbed. She hurried; it might be
possible to save the criminal. A cold shiver of agitation ran through
her. She thought that when she reached the next height she would be
certain to see the birds. Instead she saw, as soon as her head cleared
the ridge, a man lying flat on the ground some distance off to the
north, directly above the house.
It was Jörgen Thiis! Mary promptly lowered her head again; then the joy
of revenge took possession of her, and she mounted quickly,
determinedly. Jörgen saw her, jumped up, looking agitated and ashamed,
pulled off his cap, put it on again, seemed not to know where to look or
to turn. Mary approached slowly, thoroughly enjoying his embarrassment.
While still some distance off she called: "So this is your idea of
sport! Are you shooting our hens to-day?" Then, as she came nearer: "You
have no dog with you? No, of course not; you can shoot hens without a
dog. Or perhaps you have none?"
"Yes; but I am not shooting to-day. I have finished."
This quiet, inoffensive answer, which he gave without daring to look at
her, produced a revulsion of feeling in Mary. No, she would not be
unkind to him! She had heard enough of his uncle's tyranny.
The crows were clamouring louder than ever.
"Listen! They are condemning some poor wretch! I wonder you don't go and
help him."
"Indeed I ought to!" cried Jörgen, happy to escape. He picked up his gun
and ran, she following, up a short ascent and then along a path on the
level. Upon and around two old trees the grey administrators of justice
were raving; there were hundreds of them. But the moment they saw a man
with a gun, they scattered, cawing, in every direction. Their task was
accomplished.
Between two large trees lay an unusually large crow, featherless and
bleeding, in its death struggle. Jörgen was going to take hold of it.
"No, don't touch it!" called Mary, and turned away.
She went straight down again as she had come. Hearing Jörgen follow, she
stopped.
"You will come with me, won't you, and dine?"
He thanked her. They walked on together silently until they came to
where he had been lying. Then he hastily asked:
"How are things going at home?"
She smiled. "Thank you, really well, considering everything."
The smoke from the chimney curled into the air. The roofs with their
glazed blue tiles looked affluently comfortable. The large gardens on
both sides with their gravel walks lay like striped wings outstretched
from the houses. The whole had an air of life, as if it might rise into
the air at any moment.
"Had you been lying long here?" Mary asked unmercifully; she regarded
Jörgen's mood as a species of possession.
He did not answer. She set off on the last, very steep part of the
descent.
"Shall I help you?"
"No, thank you; I have come down here oftener than you."
It was a silent repast. Jörgen always ate slowly, but never had he
eaten so slowly as to-day. Mary despatched each course quickly, and then
sat and watched him, making an occasional remark, which was politely
answered. His eyes, which generally swept over her like waves, ready to
draw her in, had difficulty to-day in rising higher than the plate
before them. Stopping suddenly, he said: "Are you not well?"
"Yes, thank you; but I have had enough."
A quarter of an hour later Jörgen came out of Anders Krog's room. Mary
had just left Mrs. Dawes's, and was opening the door of her own. Jörgen
said:
"It seems to me that your father is much better, Miss Krog."
"Yes, he can speak a little now, and also move his arm a little."
Jörgen evidently did not hear.
"Is this your room?—I have never seen it."
She moved out of the way; he looked, and looked again.
"Won't you go in?"
"May I?"
"Certainly."
He approached the threshold and crossed it slowly, she following. Then
he stood perfectly still, breathing deeply, she at his side. Was the
room hung with lace? He could not collect his impressions ... the bed
and the furniture, white with blue, or blue with white; Cupids on the
ceiling; paintings, amongst them one of her beautiful mother, with
flowers in front of it ... and a fragrance—exhaled not by the flowers
alone, but by Mary herself and her belongings. She was there, beside
him, in her blue dress with the elbow-sleeves. In the midst of this
purity of fragrance and colour he felt ashamed of himself—so ashamed
that he could have rushed out. He could not control his feeling; his
breast heaved; he trembled, and was on the point of bursting into tears.
Then two white arms gleamed, and he heard something said—blue and white
and white and blue, the words also. The door was closed behind him—it
must have been done to conceal his weakness. The two white arms gleamed
again, and he heard distinctly: "Why, Jörgen! Jörgen!" He felt a hand on
his arm, and sank on to a chair. She had really said "Jörgen"—said it
twice. Now she stroked his forehead and smoothed the hair back from it,
with a touch soft as a flower-petal. It loosed something; everything
hard and painful melted under her hand and flowed away, leaving an
indescribable feeling of warmth. She who now bent over him was, in
truth, the first who had helped him since he was a child. He had been
so lonely! There was confidence in him in the touch of her hand. How
undeserved! But how it comforted him! He dreamed that he, too, was good,
was under the control of beneficent powers. The white and the blue
spread a canopy over him. Underneath it these large, sympathetic eyes
drew his soul into theirs. He said apologetically and very low: "I could
not bear it any longer." What it was he had not been able to bear, she
understood, for she immediately moved away.
"Mary!" he whispered. The word fell involuntarily from his lips; he was
thinking aloud. It alarmed him, it alarmed her. She moved farther away;
a confused look came into her eyes; something as it were failed her. He
saw this—and before she could foresee, before he himself knew what he
was doing, he was beside her, embracing her, pressing her close to him.
Excited by the feeling of her body against his, he kissed, kissed,
wherever his lips reached. She bent away from him, now to this side, now
to that, upon which he kissed her neck, round and round. She felt that
she was in danger. She had only one arm free, but with it she pushed him
from her, at the same time bending her body so far back that she was on
the point of falling. This brought him above her; desire awoke, he
would take advantage of the situation. But he had to loosen his right
arm to grasp her with. In doing so he released her left arm; she set it
against his breast with all her strength, and was now able to turn
sidewards and rise to her feet. Their eyes met, fierce and flaming.
Neither spoke. They were breathing short and hard.
"Mary!" screamed some one outside. It was Mrs. Dawes. Mrs. Dawes, who
was supposed to be unable to leave her bed, stood in the passage.
"Mary!" she screamed once again, as if she were about to faint. Both
rushed out. Mrs. Dawes was standing in her night-dress outside her open
door, leaning against the wall. She was in the act of falling when
Jörgen Thiis sprang forward and caught her. One servant after the other
rushed upstairs—even little Nanna came. Jörgen stood supporting Mrs.
Dawes until, with their united strength, they lifted her and carried her
in. She was incapable of setting her foot to the ground again. Her eyes
were closed; whether she was in a faint or not they did not know. She
was a terrible weight. It was all they could do to get her across the
threshold. Then they proceeded slowly towards the bed; but the worst was
to come, the lifting her in. Every time the heavy body reached the edge
of the bed, the legs refused to follow, and down the unfortunate lady
slipped again. She did not help herself in the least, she only groaned;
and before they could get a proper grip, she was on the floor. When they
had once again raised the weighty mass, but not far enough for it to
hold itself in position unsupported, they stood helpless, for they had
no idea how to manœuvre it farther. Nanna burst out laughing and ran
out of the room. Jörgen shot a furious glance after her. This was too
much even for Mary. Three minutes ago she had been engaged in a
desperate struggle—now she was seized with such an inclination to laugh
that she, too, had to run away. She was standing outside with her
handkerchief to her mouth, doubled up with laughter, when the nurse came
out of her father's room; he wished to know what was going on. Mary went
to him. She could hardly tell him for laughing—tell him, that is, about
Mrs. Dawes's position, and Jörgen's and the servants' struggles. Her
father tried to ask why Mrs. Dawes had been in the passage. This stopped
Mary's laughter. One of the maids came from the other room and said that
Mrs. Dawes was now in bed, and that she wished to speak to Miss Krog.
Jörgen was standing at the foot of the bed. Mrs. Dawes lay groaning and
weeping and calling for Mary. No sooner did Mary appear at the door than
she began:
"What was happening to you, child? Sudden terror seized me. What was
going on?"
Mary went up to the bed without looking at Jörgen. She knelt down and
put her arm round her old friend's neck.
"Oh, Aunt Eva!" she said, and laid her head on the old lady's breast.
Presently she began to cry.
"What is it? What is it? What is making you so unhappy?" moaned Mrs.
Dawes, stroking the beautiful hair.
At last Mary looked up. Jörgen Thiis had gone; but she still kept
silence.
"I have never felt like that," began Mrs. Dawes again, "except when
something dreadful was happening."
Mary kept silence.
"Had Jörgen Thiis anything to do with it?"
Mary gave her a look.
"Ah! that is what I feared. But remember, my child, that he has loved
you since the first time he saw you—you, and no one else. That means a
great deal. And never once so much as hinted it to you—has he?"
Mary shook her head.
"It's no small thing, that either. It shows strength of character. He
has served you and he has honoured you—don't be too hard on him. Not
till now, when you are poor, does he dare—but what was it?"
Mary waited a little; then she said:
"First I thought he was ill. Then he suddenly lost his senses."
"Oh, I could tell you something. I too.... Yes, yes, yes!" She seemed
lost in thought. Then she murmured: "Those who go for years...."
But Mary cut her short. "Don't let us talk any more about it," she said,
rising.
"No. Only it is...."
"No more on that subject, please!" repeated Mary, walking to the window.
Standing there she heard Mrs. Dawes say: "You must let me tell you that
he has spoken to me—asked me if he dared offer himself to you. He can
imagine no greater happiness than to help you when we are no longer
able. But he thinks that you are too unapproachable."
Mary made an involuntary movement. Mrs. Dawes saw it.
"Don't be too hard on him, Mary. Do you know, child, that your father
and I think ..."
"Now, Aunt Eva!" Mary turned sharply towards her—not as if she were
angry, but yet in such a manner as to check the words on the old lady's
lips.
Mary remained in the room. She would not risk meeting Jörgen Thiis. When
she was doing some small service for Mrs. Dawes, the latter said: "You
know, child, that Jörgen is to have Uncle Klaus's money?" As Mary did
not answer, she ventured to go on. "And he believes that Uncle Klaus
will help him if he marries." This, too, Mary allowed to pass unnoticed.
When there was no longer any danger, she went to her own room. There she
recalled the scene from beginning to end. Her cheeks burned, but she was
astonished that, dreadful though it had been, she was not really angry.
Just as she was thinking: What will happen next? there was a gentle
knock at the door. Now she felt angry, and inclined to jump up and turn
the key. Presently, however, she said: "Come in!" The door was opened
and closed, but she did not look round from where she sat in her big
chair. Gently, humbly, Jörgen came forward and knelt down on one knee in
front of her, hiding his face with his hands. There was nothing in the
action that offended her. He was strongly agitated. She looked down upon
the handsome head with the soft hair, and her eyes fell on the long,
true musician's fingers. Something refined about him conciliated her.
But a mournful: "Shall I go!" was all that came from him. She waited a
little, then in a low voice answered: "Yes." He let his hands drop,
seized one of hers and pressed his lips to it—long, but reverently;
then rose and left the room.
During the kiss, reverential as it was, a feeling of excitement passed
through Mary, of the same nature as that which, when he kissed and
kissed again, had made her almost faint away. She sat still, long after
he had gone, wondering at this. She once more recalled every particular
of their struggle, and shuddered. "Why am I not angry with him?"
Another knock was heard. It was the maid with a request from Mrs. Dawes
that Mary would come to her.
"You have let him go, child?"
Mrs. Dawes was in real distress. In her agitation she sat up, supporting
herself on one arm. Her cap was awry upon her grey, short hair; the fat
neck was redder than usual, as if she were too hot.
"Why did you let him go?" she repeated.
"It was his own wish."
"How can you say such a thing, child? He has been here complaining. He
would give his life to stay! You don't understand in the least. You do
nothing but reject his advances, and torture him."
She lay down again, in exhaustion and despair. The word "torture"
produced a momentary comic impression on Mary; but she herself had the
feeling that she ought to have spoken to Jörgen before she let him go.
That he was to go, she was quite determined.
On these events followed rather a hard time for them all. A change in
the weather affected Anders Krog unfavourably; he was unable to take
sufficient nourishment, and had more difficulty in speaking. Mary was
much with him; and at these times his eyes rested on her and followed
her so persistently that she almost felt afraid.
Mrs. Dawes sent small notes in to him. She could not give up her
writing, even in bed. He looked long at Mary each time one of these
notes came; so she guessed what they were about.
Mrs. Dawes said to her one day: "You over-estimate your own powers when
you believe that you can live here alone with us."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that, tired as you may be of society in spring, when winter
comes it will exercise its attraction again. You are too much accustomed
to it."
Mary made no answer at the time, but some days later—the weather had
long been bad, and she had not been out—she said to Mrs. Dawes: "You
may be right in believing that the life we have lived all these years
has taken strong hold of me."
"Stronger than you have any idea of, child."
"But what would you have me do? I cannot leave here. Nor do I wish to."
"No. But you could have a change sometimes."
"How?"
"You know quite well what I mean, child. If you married Jörgen, he would
live sometimes here with you, and you sometimes at Stockholm with him."
"A curious married life!"
"I don't believe you can combine the two things in any better way."
"Which two things?"
"What life demands of you and what you are accustomed to."
Mary felt that what Mrs. Dawes had just said expressed her father's
wish. She knew that what gave him most anxiety was her future, and that
a marriage with Jörgen which ensured Uncle Klaus's protection would give
him a feeling of security. It oppressed her to think how little regard
to her father's wishes she had hitherto shown.
These days, with their deliberations, struck her as resembling the
recitative in an opera, the part which connects two important actions.
Now that the season was advancing, she felt like a captive when she
looked out across the bay. When she stood on the hill, watching autumn's
stern entrance in foaming breakers, she knew that it was bringing
imprisonment for the winter. Her spirit stirred in rebellion; she was
accustomed to something so different.
Something in her blood stirred too. Her tranquillity was gone. As a
memory, Jörgen was not repellent. The atmosphere which he brought with
him was actually sympathetic.
That her father had been incapacitated by an apoplectic shock, that
Jörgen had been on the spot when this occurred, that he was her father's
choice—was there not something in this that linked them together? Was
there not fate in it?
To make her appearance at Jörgen's side in Stockholm,[C] and afterwards
to be sent farther afield—could there be a more fitting conclusion to
her life of travel, a better opportunity of turning to advantage all
that she had learned during the course of it?
Uncle Klaus should help them—help them generously. She knew her power
over Uncle Klaus.
"After all, Aunt Eva dear," she said one day when she sat chatting
beside Mrs. Dawes's bed; "I think you may write to Jörgen."
Mary herself was standing on the pier when the steamer came in. It was
Saturday afternoon; all that could do so were leaving town to enjoy the
last days of autumn in the country. The weather was beautiful; in the
south of Norway it can be so till far on in September. Mary was dressed
in blue and carried a blue parasol, which she waved to Jörgen and some
of her girl friends who were standing beside him. All on board moved
towards the gangway to watch the meeting.
Jörgen felt, as soon as he reached her side, that he must be cautious.
He divined that she had come to meet him here in order that their
meeting might not be private.
On the way up to the house they talked of the swallows, which were now
assembling for their departure—of the farm-overseer, who had just shot
a huge eagle—of the writing-board which Mrs. Dawes had had
constructed—of the good aftermath, of the price of fruit and turnips.
In the hall she left him with a short "Excuse me!" and hurried
upstairs. The boy who was carrying Jörgen's portmanteau had followed
them in; Jörgen and he stood still, not knowing where to go. Then Mary
called from above: "This way, please!" Opening the door of the visitors'
room next her own, she told the boy to take the portmanteau in there. To
Jörgen she said: "Shall we go and see Father?" She led the way. The
nurse was not in the room. Probably it was to send her away that Mary
had run up first.
A light kindled in the sick man's eyes as he saw Jörgen enter. As soon
as the door was closed, Mary went up to her father, bent over him, and
said: "Jörgen and I are engaged now, Father."
All the affection and happiness that a human face can express beamed
from Anders Krog's. Smiling, Mary turned towards Jörgen, who, pale and
agitated, was prepared to rush forward and embrace her. But he felt that
though his astonishment, his gratitude, and his adoration were quite
acceptable to her, she desired no such manifestation of them. This did
not detract from his happiness. He met her smiling eyes with an
expression of intense, perfect delight. He pressed the hand which Anders
Krog could move; he looked into his tearful eyes, his own filling. But
no word was spoken until Mary said: "Now we must go to Aunt Eva."
With a feeling of triumph she led the way. He followed, admiring. His
heart was full of many feelings, not least among them admiration of the
magnanimity with which she had forgiven. He thought: Out in the passage
she will turn round, and then ... But she went straight to Mrs. Dawes's
door and knocked.
When Mrs. Dawes saw Jörgen, she clapped her fat hands, tugged at her
cap, and tried to sit up, but could not for excitement. She fell back
again, wept, blessed them, and stretched out her arms. Jörgen allowed
himself to be embraced, but would not kiss her.
As soon as sensible conversation became possible, Mary said: "Don't you
think too, Aunt Eva, that we ought to go and call on Uncle Klaus
to-morrow?"
"Most certainly I do, my child! most certainly! Why should there be any
delay?"
Jörgen was radiant. Mary retired, that the two might have a confidential
talk.
When Jörgen and she met again, he understood that the watchword was:
"Look, but do not touch!" This was hard; but he acknowledged it to be
only just that one who had presumed as he had should be compelled to
control himself. Mary intended to be her own mistress.
In her triumphant mood she was more beautiful than ever. It seemed to
Jörgen an act of grace when she addressed him as "thou." And she
condescended no further. He went on hoping, but she gave no more—not
the whole of that day. He betook himself to the piano and there poured
forth his lament. Mary opened the doors, so that Mrs. Dawes might hear
the music. "Poor boy!" said Mrs. Dawes.
Next day Mary did not come downstairs until it was time to set off on
their expedition to Uncle Klaus's.
"You are la grande dame to-day, and no mistake!" said Jörgen,
inspecting her admiringly. She was in her most elegant Parisian walking
costume. "Is it to make an impression on Uncle Klaus?"
"Partly. But it is Sunday, you know.—Tell me," and she suddenly became
serious; "does Uncle Klaus know about father's misfortune?"
"He knows about his illness, if you mean that."
"No; I mean the cause of it?"
"That I can't say. I came straight from home. I have told nothing—even
at home."
Of this Mary approved. Consequently they were on the pleasantest, most
confidential terms, both during the walk down to the steamer and on
board. There they sat talking in whispers of their wedding, of furlough
for the first month after it, of life in Stockholm, of her visits to him
there, of his visit to Krogskogen at Christmas, of a trip to Christiania
now—in short, there was not a cloud in their sky.
They found Uncle Klaus in his smoke-filled den, where they rather
imagined than saw him. He himself was quite startled when Mary in all
her glory appeared before him. He led them hurriedly into the large,
stiff drawing-room. Even before they were seated, Jörgen said: "We have
come, Uncle, to tell you—"
He got no farther, for Uncle Klaus saw in their radiant faces the news
which they brought.
"My heartiest congratulations!" The tall man bowed, offering a hand to
each. "Yes—every one says that you are the handsomest couple ever seen
in this town. For," he added, "we engaged you to each other long ago."
Hardly were they seated before his face became gloomy. He looked
compassionately at Mary. "But your father, my poor child!"
"Father is much better now," she answered evasively. Uncle Klaus looked
searchingly at her. "But he can never...." He stopped; he was not
capable of putting his thought into words; neither was Mary. They sat
silent.
When they began to speak again, it was of the unusually bad times. It
seemed as if there were to be no end to them. Investments were yielding
no interest, the shipping trade was in a bad way, there were no new
undertakings, money was not forthcoming. Whilst they were talking, Uncle
Klaus looked several times at Jörgen as if he would put more questions
but for his presence. Mary understood, and made a sign to Jörgen, who
rose and asked permission to go, as he had an appointment with some
friends in town. It was, thus, tacitly agreed upon between Mary and him
that she should have a private interview with Uncle Klaus. But what was
it Uncle Klaus wished to speak to her about? She was most curious.
As soon as the door closed behind Jörgen, the old man, with an anxious
look, began: "Is it true, my poor child, that your father has had great
losses in America?"
"He has lost everything," Mary replied.
Klaus jumped up, pale with the shock.
"Lost everything?"
He stared at her, open-mouthed and turning purple. Then exclaiming:
"Good Lord! This is a simple enough explanation of the shock!" began to
march up and down the room as if no one else were present. The wide
trousers twisted themselves round his legs; he waved his long arms.
"He has always been a confiding simpleton! an absolute fool! Fancy
having a fortune like that invested in another man's business and never
looking after it! What a damned—" Here he stopped suddenly and asked in
astonishment: "What do you mean to marry upon—?"
Mary had felt herself mortally insulted long before this question came.
To behave thus in her presence—to speak thus of her father in her
hearing! Nevertheless she answered archly and with her sweetest smile:
"On our expectations from you, Uncle Klaus!"
Klaus's astonishment was beyond all measure. She tried to moderate it
before it found vent; she joked—said in English that she felt
dreadfully sorry for him, as she knew what a poor man he was! But he
paid no more attention to her than a bear to the twitter of birds.
Out it came at last. "It is like that scoundrel Jörgen to speculate upon
me!" Marching up and down again, faster than before, he continued: "Ha,
ha! I might have known it! Whenever anything goes wrong, it is I who
must come to the rescue—and at this moment, too, when I am hardly
earning my bread! I never knew anything so impudent in my life!" He did
not see her, he did not see anything. The rich man was accustomed to
give free vent to his petulance, anger, insolence. "Jörgen
deserves—confound him!—that I should stop the allowance I give him! He
does nothing but ask for more. And now I am to——ha, ha! It's just like
him!"
Mary listened, pale as death. Never before had she been so humiliated;
never had any human being treated her otherwise than with the deference
paid to a privileged person.
But she did not lose her head. "I keep Father's accounts now," she said
coldly; "and I see from them that there is money of his in your hands."
"Yes," said Klaus, without stopping and without looking at Mary; "oh,
yes—two hundred thousand kroner or so. But if you keep the accounts,
you also see that at present these investments hardly yield anything."
"It is not so bad as that," she replied.
"Well—what about them?" asked he, standing still. An idea suddenly
occurred to him: "Has Jörgen asked you to sell out?"
"Jörgen has asked nothing of me," Mary said, and rose to her feet.
As she stood there tall, pale, stately, facing him so bravely, Klaus
felt himself worsted. He could do nothing but stare. When she said: "I
am sorry that I did not know before what kind of man you are!" all his
superiority vanished. He felt stupid and helpless, unable to answer,
unable even to move. He allowed her to go—the very last thing he
intended!
He looked out at the window and saw her sweep past towards the
market-place. What a vision of proud beauty she was!
When, in course of time, Jörgen came to fetch Mary, or rather to stay to
dinner there with her—for he was certain that they would be invited—an
even more violent explosion of wrath awaited him; because now Uncle
Klaus was extremely dissatisfied with himself too.
"Why the devil did you not come alone? You were afraid!—And you wanted
her to sell shares now, when they are worth nothing—like the cursedly
extravagant, reckless fellow you always have been!"
Uncle Klaus was wrong; but Jörgen knew him—knew that he must not
answer. He slunk away and joined Mary at the house in the market-place,
even more wretched than the day when she found him on the ridge, gazing
down into the lost paradise. She herself had been weeping with anger and
disappointment; but there was abundance of elasticity in her; now came
the rebound. Their fall from the triumphant elevation of half-an-hour
ago had been so precipitous that when Jörgen's misery was added as a
finishing touch, the whole became ridiculous. She laughed so heartily,
so exhilaratingly, that even Jörgen was cured. A quarter of an hour
later the two went out to order a good dinner, with champagne. They had
agreed to take a walk whilst it was being prepared. But no sooner did
they feel the delicious fresh air, than Jörgen rushed upstairs again and
telephoned to Krogskogen that they were coming out to dine there. It was
a good two hours' walk by the new coast-road—how they would enjoy it!
They set off at a rapid pace. It was the very weather for walking, this
bright, cool autumn day with the fresh breeze.
The road followed the coast line, rounding all the rocky headlands; they
looked forward to the constant changes—from shore to height, from
height to shore. On the sea, dark blue to-day, sailing ships and columns
of smoke were to be seen, far as the eye could reach. It being Sunday,
there were also pleasure-boats out, some gliding about among the
islands, others venturing out to the open sea.
At their quick pace, the two young people were soon in the outskirts of
the town. They passed a pretty little house in a garden.
"Who lives there?" asked Mary, admiring it.
"Miss Röy, the doctor," answered Jörgen, immediately adding: "Our
annoyance and disappointment made me forget to tell you that I met Frans
Röy in town."
Unconsciously Mary stood still; involuntarily she blushed. "Frans Röy?"
she repeated, looking hard at him—then walked on without waiting for an
answer.
"He is here to inspect the operations at the harbour. You know that
Irgens is dead."
"The engineer? is he dead?"
"They say now that Captain Röy will probably take his place."
"Is it work for a man like him?"
"Many are no doubt asking the same question—asking what brings him
here," laughed Jörgen.
Mary looked at him and he at Mary. Then he went nearer to her. "But now
he comes too late."
He had expected an understanding glance in answer—possibly with a
little happiness in it. She walked on without looking at him, and
without speaking.
They were silent for a long time, walking fast in the refreshing autumn
breeze. At last she turned towards him, with the intention of giving him
a pleasant surprise.
"Do you know, Jörgen, that Father has two hundred thousand kroner
invested in Uncle Klaus's business?"
"He has two hundred and fifty thousand," Jörgen answered.
She was much surprised—in the first place by Jörgen's knowing, in the
second, by the fifty thousand.
"Uncle Klaus himself said two hundred thousand."
"Yes, your father has that sum invested in Uncle's ships and commercial
enterprises. But lately, before he was taken ill, he sent Uncle fifty
thousand more, which he had lying idle."
"How do you know?"
"Uncle told me."
"There is no note of this last sum in father's books."
"No; your father probably did not take the trouble to enter it; he was
not in the habit of doing so. Besides"—here Jörgen paused—"are you in
possession of all your father's business papers?"
Into this subject Mary would not enter; she knew that the question was a
natural one; but how in the world did Jörgen——? Perhaps through Mrs.
Dawes. What he had told her, however, rejoiced her. She stood still;
there was something she wanted to say. But the wind caught up her
skirts, unloosed some of her hair, and blew about her scarf.
"How perfectly lovely you look!" Jörgen exclaimed.
"But Jörgen—then there is nothing in the way!"
"We can marry, you mean?"
"Yes!" and off she started.
"No, dear. The shares are yielding almost nothing just now."
"What does that matter? We'll risk it, Jörgen!" she cried, radiant with
health and courage.
"Without Uncle's consent?" asked Jörgen in a despondent tone.
Mary stood still again. "He would disinherit you?"
Instead of answering directly, Jörgen began mournfully: "I wish you
knew, Mary, what I have had to bear from Uncle, from the day he adopted
me—the things he has demanded of me, the things he has persecuted me
for. To this very day he treats me like a naughty schoolboy. The worst
of his bad temper is vented upon me."
The mixture of unhappiness and bitterness depicted on his face led Mary
involuntarily to exclaim: "Poor Jörgen—now I begin to understand!"
They walked on. She reflected that Jörgen's power of self-control had
been acquired in a hard school; there he had also learned the art of
concealment. She could not but admire his tenacity of purpose. What had
it not accomplished! Think of his music alone! It, however, had been a
great consolation to him. Now she understood his extreme politeness; now
she understood his sentimentality; she understood what had made him so
exacting and severe with those under his command.
She saw that she herself had probably added to his unhappiness. His
long, silent love for her had only been an additional burden; for she
had not given him one encouraging word—very much the reverse! What
wonder that at last it should have become a kind of possession!
"Poor Jörgen!" she said again, and took his hand.
It was the first token of affection she had bestowed upon him. She had
to draw her hand away again immediately to hold down her dress, for a
strong wind was blowing at the point, and a sailing-boat was tacking
just below them. The people in it waved up to them, and they waved back.
How fresh the air was! How brilliantly blue the fjord!
As they were descending towards the bay, Mary asked: "Do you really
believe that Uncle Klaus will disinherit you if we marry?"
"My dear girl, we have nothing to marry on!"
"We can sell these shares," she said undauntedly.
"If we were to sell them at their present price, in order to be able to
marry at once, he would be absolutely certain to cut me off."
But Mary would not give in. "There are our woods."
"It will be several years before there is any timber to fell."
How well informed Jörgen was! How carefully he had thought the whole
thing out!
They had now reached the stretch of level road which led along the shore
to the last headland before Krogskogen. At a farm here there was a surly
old Lapland dog. Mary and he were good friends. He always barked a
little as people came up; probably he did not see well; but as soon as
he scented an acquaintance his tail began to wag.
To-day he was furious.
"Dear me!" exclaimed Mary, "is it you who are making him so angry,
Jörgen?"
Jörgen did not answer, but stooped to pick up a small stone. When the
dog saw this, he scurried off with his tail between his legs to the
shelter of a heap of sticks, and there continued to bark.
"Don't do it!" said Mary, as she saw Jörgen taking aim.
"It will be interesting to see whether or not he retreats in the exact
direction of my aim—if he does, the stone will hit him on the back." As
Jörgen spoke, he pretended to throw. Off rushed the dog. Then he threw,
and the stone landed exactly where he had said. The dog howled.
"You see!" said Jörgen exultingly. "There are not many who can throw
like that, I can tell you."
"Do you shoot equally well?"
"Certainly. What I do, Mary—it isn't much, I know—but I do it fairly
well."
This she was obliged to admit. The dog's distant fury also confirmed the
statement.
As they were taking the short cut up to the house, Jörgen began: "Do you
think we should say anything to Mrs. Dawes or to your father about
this?"
"About Uncle Klaus?"
"Yes. It will only distress them. Can't we say that Uncle Klaus asked us
to wait till spring?"
Mary stood still. Such a line of action was not to her mind. But Jörgen
continued:
"I know Uncle Klaus better than you do. He will repent soon. He will
certainly not give in to us; but he will make a proposal of his
own—probably what I am asking you to say—that we should wait till
spring."
Mary had already discovered how well informed Jörgen was; so she could
not but allow that he was probably better able to judge than she. But
she was unaccustomed to roundabout methods.
"Let me manage it," Jörgen said. "I'll spare the old people a
disappointment."
"But what am I to say, then?" asked Mary.
"What is perfectly true. That Uncle Klaus was delighted to hear of our
engagement; but that as times are so bad just now, we shall be obliged
to wait. And this is really the case."
Mary agreed, the more willingly because she thought it considerate of
Jörgen to wish to spare the old people. For this he received her best
thanks—and her hand again. He kept hold of it until they reached the
house, and even whilst they mounted the steps. He thought to himself:
"This is the pledge of a kiss in the hall. But I'll take ten!"
He opened the door and let Mary pass in first. Nodding brightly to him
as she passed, she made quickly for the stairs and disappeared up them.
He heard her go into her own room.
Carefully as Jörgen chose his words in communicating the result of their
expedition, it was a sad disappointment to the old people. It was
inexplicable to them both, but especially to Mrs. Dawes, who thought the
decision arrived at cruel. Mary was to spend the long winter alone here,
and Jörgen in Stockholm. They might possibly see each other for a few
days at Christmas, but that would be all. Curiously enough, the old
people's disappointment reacted upon Jörgen. He sat moping like a sick
bird, had nothing to say, hardly answered Mrs. Dawes when she spoke to
him, and presently went off to prepare for his departure next morning.
His leave had expired, and he was going direct to Stockholm.
Mary alone was in good spirits. One would have supposed that she had no
concern whatever in the matter. To her the day had, to all appearance,
brought no disappointment. The triumphant mood in which she had been
ever since she graciously proclaimed their engagement in her father's
room, far from having abated, was more pronounced than ever. She went
humming about the rooms and passages, and seemed to have no end of
arrangements to make, as if it were she who was about to take an
important and long journey. At supper she joked and teased until Jörgen
began to have an uncomfortable suspicion that she was making fun of him.
At last he said plainly that he could not understand her. He thought she
ought rather to be sorry for him. She was to remain here in her own
comfortable home, working for those whom she loved, whilst he——. Now
he hated what he was going back to, because it took him away from her!
He repented his exchange into the diplomatic service. He loathed
Stockholm. He knew what an inferior position a young man occupied there
who had no good introductions, and who, in addition to this, was
Norwegian. He was, in short, unhappy, and grumbled freely.
"You who distinguished yourself in the confirmation class, Jörgen, don't
you know that Jacob had to work seven whole years for Rachel?"
"And how many have I not worked for you, Mary?"
"Ah! the reason of that is that you began far too early. It's a bad
habit you have acquired—that of beginning too early."
"Was it possible to see you without...? You are unjust to yourself."
"You had other aims, Jörgen, besides winning me."
"So had that business-man, Jacob. And he had the advantage over me, that
whilst working and waiting he could see Rachel as often as he liked."
"Well, well—he who has waited so many years, Jörgen, can surely wait
half a year longer."
"It is easy for you to talk, you who have never waited—never for
anything!"
Mary was silent.
"But that you should tease me into the bargain, Mary—I who, even when I
am beside you, must exist on such meagre fare!"
"You think you have cause of complaint, Jörgen?"
"Yes, I do."
"You began far too early, remember!" And Mary laughed.
This put Jörgen out, but presently he repeated: "You don't understand
what it means to wait."
"So much I do understand, that it comes easier to those who live on
meagre fare." And she laughed again.
Jörgen was both offended and perplexed. A woman who really cared for him
would hardly have behaved thus on the eve of parting from him for
several months, and with such poor prospects as they had of being able
to marry.
They sat for a short time beside her father, and longer beside Mrs.
Dawes. Jörgen was quiet—hardly spoke. But Mary was gay. Mrs. Dawes
watched them in surprise. Turning to Jörgen, she said: "Poor boy, you
must come here at Christmas!" Mary answered for him: "Aunt Eva, it is
just at Christmas that Stockholm is pleasantest."
Suddenly Mary rose and very unexpectedly said good-night, first to
Jörgen, then to Mrs. Dawes.
"I am tired after the walk, and I must be up early to-morrow to see
Jörgen off."
Jörgen felt that this sudden departure was a piece of deliberate
mischief. She wished to escape saying good-night to him in the passage.
He vowed to revenge himself. He was skilled in the art.
Mrs. Dawes asked if there were any misunderstanding between
them. He said there was none. She did not believe it; he had to
assure her again solemnly that he knew of none. But he could not conceal
that he was out of temper; he could not even bear to sit there any
longer. When he left he found the passage, contrary to custom, dark, and
had to grope his way to his own door. Not till he had lit his lamp and
listened involuntarily for any sound from Mary's room, did it occur to
him that the door-handle had been made noiseless. In the morning it had
creaked—very little; but it certainly had creaked. Never had he been in
such a well-ordered house as this, where the very slightest thing amiss
was instantly put right—even on a Sunday. He could not imagine greater
happiness than to return here when everything should be satisfactorily
arranged, to rest, and to live as long as he chose in the manner which
his ardent desire for the pleasures of the senses pictured.
Therefore patience! He would submit to Mary's caprices now, as he had
submitted to his uncle's before—until his time came!
He was undressing, when the door opened noiselessly, and Mary entered,
in her night-dress—dazzlingly beautiful. She closed the door behind her
and went forward to the lamp. "You shall not wait, Jörgen," said she, as
she extinguished the light.