The following afternoon about six o'clock Marcella came in from her
second round. After a very busy week, work happened to be slack; and she
had been attending one or two cases in and near Brown's Buildings rather
because they were near than because they seriously wanted her. She
looked to see whether there was any letter or telegram from the office
which would have obliged her to go out again. Nothing was to be seen;
and she put down her bag and cloak, childishly glad of the extra hour of
rest.
She was, indeed, pale and worn. The moral struggle which had filled the
past fortnight from end to end had deepened all the grooves and strained
the forces of life; and the path, though glimmering, was not wholly
plain.
A letter lay unfinished in her drawer—if she sent it that night, there
would be little necessity or inducement for Wharton to climb those
stairs on the morrow. Yet, if he held her to it, she must see him.
As the sunset and the dusk crept on she still sat silent and alone, sunk
in a depression which showed itself in every line of the drooping form.
She was degraded in her own eyes. The nature of the impulses which had
led her to give Wharton the hold upon her she had given him had become
plain to her. What lay between them, and the worst impulses that poison
the lives of women, but differences of degree, of expression? After
those wild hours of sensuous revolt, a kind of moral terror was upon
her.
What had worked in her? What was at the root of this vehemence of moral
reaction, this haunting fear of losing for ever the best in
life—self-respect, the comradeship of the good, communion with things
noble and unstained—which had conquered at last the mere woman, the
weakness of vanity and of sex? She hardly knew. Only there was in her a
sort of vague thankfulness for her daily work. It did not seem to be
possible to see one's own life solely under the aspects of selfish
desire while hands and mind were busy with the piteous realities of
sickness and of death. From every act of service—from every contact
with the patience and simplicity of the poor—something had spoken to
her, that divine ineffable something for ever "set in the world," like
beauty, like charm, for the winning of men to itself. "Follow truth!" it
said to her in faint mysterious breathings—"the truth of your own
heart. The sorrow to which it will lead you is the only joy that
remains to you."
Suddenly she looked round her little room with a rush of tenderness. The
windows were open to the evening and the shouts of children playing in
the courtyard came floating up. A bowl of Mellor roses scented the air;
the tray for her simple meal stood ready, and beside it a volume of "The
Divine Comedy," one of her mother's very rare gifts to her, in her
motherless youth—for of late she had turned thirstily to poetry. There
was a great peace and plainness about it all; and, besides, touches of
beauty—tokens of the soul. Her work spoke in it; called to her;
promised comfort and ennobling. She thought with yearning, too, of her
parents; of the autumn holiday she was soon to spend with them. Her
heart went out—sorely—to all the primal claims upon it.
* * * * *
Nevertheless, clear as was the inner resolution, the immediate future
filled her with dread. Her ignorance of herself—her excitable
folly—had given Wharton rights which her conscience admitted. He would
not let her go without a struggle, and she must face it.
As to the incidents which had happened during the fortnight—Louis
Craven's return, and the scandal of the "People's Banking Company"—they
had troubled and distressed her; but it would not be true to say that
they had had any part in shaping her slow determination. Louis Craven
was sore and bitter. She was very sorry for him; and his reports of the
Damesley strikers made her miserable. But she took Wharton's "leaders"
in the Clarion for another equally competent opinion on the same
subject; and told herself that she was no judge. As for the Company
scandal, she had instantly and proudly responded to the appeal of his
letter, and put the matter out of her thoughts, till at least he should
give his own account. So much at any rate she owed to the man who had
stood by her through the Hurd trial. Marcella Boyce would not readily
believe in his dishonour! She did not in fact believe it. In spite of
later misgivings, the impression of his personality, as she had first
conceived it, in the early days at Mellor, was still too strong.
No—rather—she had constantly recollected throughout the day what was
going on in Parliament. These were for him testing and critical hours,
and she felt a wistful sympathy. Let him only rise to his part—take up
his great task.
* * * * *
An imperious knocking on her thin outer door roused her. She went to
open it and saw Anthony Craven,—the perspiration standing on his brow,
his delicate cripple's face white and fierce.
"I want to talk to you," he said without preface. "Have you seen the
afternoon papers?"
"No," she said in astonishment, "I was just going to send for them. What
is wrong?"
He followed her into the sitting-room without speaking; and then he
unfolded the Pall Mall he had in his hand and pointed to a large-print
paragraph on the central page with a shaking hand.
Marcella read:
"EXCITING SCENES IN THE HOUSE.—MEETING OF THE LABOUR MEMBERS.—A
committee of the Labour representatives in Parliament met this afternoon
at 2 o'clock for the purpose of electing a chairman, and appointing
whips to the party, thus constituting a separate parliamentary group.
Much interest was felt in the proceedings, which it was universally
supposed would lead to the appointment of Mr. H. S. Wharton, the member
for West Brookshire, as chairman and leader of the Labour party. The
excitement of the meeting and in the House may be imagined when—after a
short but very cordial and effective speech from Mr. Bennett, the member
for North Whinwick, in support of Mr. Wharton's candidature—Mr.
Wilkins, the miner's member for Derlingham, rose and made a series of
astounding charges against the personal honour of the member for West
Brookshire. Put briefly, they amount to this: that during the recent
strike at Damesley the support of the Clarion newspaper, of which Mr.
Wharton is owner and practically editor, was bought by the employers
in return for certain shares in the new Syndicate; that the money for
these shares—which is put as high as 20,000 l.—had already gone into
Mr. Wharton's private pocket; and that the change of policy on the part
of the Clarion, which led to the collapse of the strike, was thus
entirely due to what the Labour members can only regard under the
circumstances as a bribe of a most disgraceful kind. The effect produced
has been enormous. The debate is still proceeding, and reporters have
been excluded. But I hope to send a fuller account later."
Marcella dropped the paper from her hand.
"What does it mean?" she said to her companion.
"Precisely what it says," replied Anthony, with a nervous impatience he
could not repress. "Now," he added, as his lameness forced him to sit
down, "will you kindly allow me some conversation with you? It was
you—practically—who introduced Louis to that man. You meant well to
Louis, and Mr. Wharton has been your friend. We therefore feel that we
owe you some explanation. For that paragraph"—he pointed to the
paper—"is, substantially—Louis's doing, and mine."
"Yours?" she said mechanically. "But Louis has been going on working
for the paper—I persuaded him."
"I know. It was not we who actually discovered the thing. But we set a
friend to work. Louis has had his suspicions all along. And at last—by
the merest chance—we got the facts."
Then he told the story, staring at her the while with his sparkling
eyes, his thin invalid's fingers fidgeting with his hat. If there was in
truth any idea in his mind that the relations between his companion and
Harry Wharton were more than those of friendship, it did not avail to
make him spare her in the least. He was absorbed in vindictive feeling,
which applied to her also. He might say for form's sake that she had
meant well; but in fact he regarded her at this moment as a sort of
odious Canidia whose one function had been to lure Louis to misfortune.
Cut off himself, by half a score of peculiarities, physical and other,
from love, pleasure, and power, Anthony Craven's whole affections and
ambitions had for years centred in his brother. And now Louis was not
only violently thrown out of employment, but compromised by the
connection with the Clarion; was, moreover, saddled with a wife—and
in debt.
So that his explanation was given with all the edge he could put upon
it. Let her stop him, if she pleased!—but she did not stop him.
The facts were these:
Louis had, indeed, been persuaded by Marcella, for the sake of his wife
and bread and butter, to go on working for the Clarion, as a reviewer.
But his mind was all the time feverishly occupied with the apostasy of
the paper and its causes. Remembering Wharton's sayings and letters
throughout the struggle, he grew less and less able to explain the
incident by the reasons Wharton had himself supplied, and more and more
convinced that there was some mystery behind.
He and Anthony talked the matter over perpetually. One evening Anthony
brought home from a meeting of the Venturists that George Denny, the son
of one of the principal employers in the Damesley trade, whose name he
had mentioned once before in Marcella's ears. Denny was by this time the
candidate for a Labour constituency, an ardent Venturist, and the
laughing-stock of his capitalist family, with whom, however, he was
still on more or less affectionate terms. His father thought him an
incorrigible fool, and his mother wailed over him to her friends. But
they were still glad to see him whenever he would condescend to visit
them; and all friction on money matters was avoided by the fact that
Denny had for long refused to take any pecuniary help from his father,
and was nevertheless supporting himself tolerably by lecturing and
literature.
Denny was admitted into the brothers' debate, and had indeed puzzled
himself a good deal over the matter already. He had taken a lively
interest in the strike, and the articles in the Clarion which led to
its collapse had seemed to him both inexplicable and enraging.
After his talk with the Cravens, he went away, determined to dine at
home on the earliest possible opportunity. He announced himself
accordingly in Hertford Street, was received with open arms, and then
deliberately set himself, at dinner and afterwards, to bait his father
on social and political questions, which, as a rule, were avoided
between them.
Old Denny fell into the trap, lost his temper and self-control
completely, and at a mention of Harry Wharton—skilfully introduced at
the precisely right moment—as an authority on some matter connected
with the current Labour programme, he threw himself back in his chair
with an angry laugh.
"Wharton? Wharton? You quote that fellow to me?"
"Why shouldn't I?" said the son, quietly.
"Because, my good sir,—he's a rogue,—that's all!—a common rogue,
from my point of view even—still more from yours."
"I know that any vile tale you can believe about a Labour leader you do,
father," said George Denny, with dignity.
Whereupon the older man thrust his hand into his coat-pocket, and
drawing out a small leather case, in which he was apt to carry important
papers about with him, extracted from it a list containing names and
figures, and held it with a somewhat tremulous hand under his son's
eyes.
"Read it, sir! and hold your tongue! Last week my friends and I bought
that man—and his precious paper—for a trifle of 20,000 l. or
thereabouts. It paid us to do it, and we did it. I dare say you will
think the preceding questionable. In my eyes it was perfectly
legitimate, a piece of bonne guerre. The man was ruining a whole
industry. Some of us had taken his measure, had found out too—by good
luck!—that he was in sore straits for money—mortgages on the paper,
gambling debts, and a host of other things—discovered a shrewd man to
play him, and made our bid! He rose to it like a gudgeon—gave us no
trouble whatever. I need not say, of course"—he added, looking up at
his son—"that I have shown you that paper in the very strictest
confidence. But it seemed to me it was my duty as a father to warn you
of the nature of some of your associates!"
"I understand," said George Denny, as, after a careful study of the
paper—which contained, for the help of the writer's memory, a list of
the sums paid and founders' shares allotted to the various "promoters"
of the new Syndicate—he restored it to its owner. "Well, I, father,
have this to say in return. I came here to-night in the hope of
getting from you this very information, and in the public interest I
hold myself not only free but bound to make public use of it, at the
earliest possible opportunity!"
The family scene may be imagined. But both threats and blandishments
were entirely lost upon the son. There was in him an idealist obstinacy
which listened to nothing but the cry of a cause, and he declared that
nothing would or should prevent him from carrying the story of the bribe
direct to Nehemiah Wilkins, Wharton's chief rival in the House, and so
saving the country and the Labour party from the disaster and disgrace
of Wharton's leadership. There was no time to lose, the party meeting in
the House was only two days off.
At the end of a long struggle, which exhausted everybody concerned, and
was carried on to a late hour of the night, Denny père, influenced by
a desire to avoid worse things—conscious, too, of the abundant evidence
he possessed of Wharton's acceptance and private use of the money—and,
probably, when it came to the point, not unwilling,—under
compulsion!—to tumble such a hero from his pedestal, actually wrote,
under his son's advice, a letter to Wilkins. It was couched in the most
cautious language, and professed to be written in the interests of
Wharton himself, to put an end "to certain ugly and unfounded rumours
that have been brought to my knowledge." The negotiation itself was
described in the driest business terms. "Mr. Wharton, upon cause shown,
consented to take part in the founding of the Syndicate, and in return
for his assistance, was allotted ten founders' shares in the new
company. The transaction differed in nothing from those of ordinary
business"—a last sentence slily added by the Socialist son, and
innocently accepted by one of the shrewdest of men.
After which Master George Denny scarcely slept, and by nine o'clock next
morning was in a hansom on his way to Wilkins's lodgings in Westminster.
The glee of that black-bearded patriot hardly needs description. He
flung himself on the letter with a delight and relief so exuberant that
George Denny went off to another more phlegmatic member of the
anti-Wharton "cave," with entreaties that an eye should be kept on the
member for Derlingham, lest he should do or disclose anything before the
dramatic moment.
Then he himself spent the next forty-eight hours in ingenious efforts to
put together certain additional information as to the current value of
founders' shares in the new company, the nature and amount of Wharton's
debts, and so on. Thanks to his father's hints he was able in the end
to discover quite enough to furnish forth a supplementary statement. So
that, when the 10th arrived, the day rose upon a group of men
breathlessly awaiting a play within a play—with all their parts
rehearsed, and the prompter ready.
* * * * *
Such in substance, was Anthony's story. So carried away was he by the
excitement and triumph of it, that he soon ceased to notice what its
effect might be upon his pale and quick-breathing companion.
"And now what has happened?" she asked him abruptly, when at last he
paused.
"Why, you saw!" he said in astonishment, pointing to the evening
paper—"at least the beginning of it. Louis is at the House now. I
expect him every moment. He said he would follow me here."
Marcella pressed her hands upon her eyes a moment as though in pain.
Anthony looked at her with a tardy prick of remorse.
"I hear Louis's knock!" he said, springing up. "May I let him in?" And,
without waiting for reply, he hobbled as fast as his crutch would carry
him to the outer door. Louis came in. Marcella rose mechanically. He
paused on the threshold, his short sight trying to make her out in the
dusk. Then his face softened and quivered. He walked forward quickly.
"I know you have something to forgive us," he said, "and that this will
distress you. But we could not give you warning. Everything was so
rapid, and the public interests involved so crushing."
He was flushed with vengeance and victory, but as he approached her his
look was deprecating—almost timid. Only the night before, Anthony for
the first time had suggested to him an idea about her. He did not
believe it—had had no time in truth to think of it in the rush of
events. But now he saw her, the doubt pulled at his heart. Had he indeed
stabbed the hand that had tried to help him?
Anthony touched him impatiently on the arm. "What has happened, Louis? I
have shown Miss Boyce the first news."
"It is all over," said Louis, briefly. "The meeting was breaking up as I
came away. It had lasted nearly five hours. There was a fierce fight, of
course, between Wharton and Wilkins. Then Bennett withdrew his
resolution, refused to be nominated himself—nearly broke down, in fact,
they say; he had always been attached to Wharton, and had set his heart
upon making him leader—and finally, after a long wrangle, Molloy was
appointed chairman of the party."
"Good!" cried Anthony, not able to suppress the note of exultation.
Louis did not speak. He looked at Marcella.
"Did he defend himself?" she asked in a low, sharp voice.
Louis shrugged his shoulders.
"Oh, yes. He spoke—but it did him no good. Everybody agreed that the
speech was curiously ineffective. One would have expected him to do it
better. But he seemed to be knocked over. He said, of course, that he
had satisfied himself, and given proof in the paper, that the strike
could not be maintained, and that being so he was free to join any
syndicate he pleased. But he spoke amid dead silence, and there was a
general groan when he sat down. Oh, it was not this business only!
Wilkins made great play in part of his speech with the Company scandal
too. It is a complete smash all round."
"Which he will never get over?" said Marcella, quickly.
"Not with our men. What he may do elsewhere is another matter. Anthony
has told you how it came out?"
She made a sign of assent. She was sitting erect and cold, her hands
round her knees.
"I did not mean to keep anything from you," he said in a low voice,
bending to her. "I know—you admired him—that he had given you cause.
But—my mind has been on fire—ever since I came back from those
Damesley scenes!"
She offered no reply. Silence fell upon all three for a minute or two;
and in the twilight each could hardly distinguish the others. Every now
and then the passionate tears rose in Marcella's eyes; her heart
contracted. That very night when he spoke to her, when he used all those
big words to her about his future, those great ends for which he had
claimed her woman's help—he had these things in his mind.
"I think," said Louis Craven presently, touching her gently on the
arm—he had tried once in vain to attract her attention—"I think I hear
some one asking for you outside on the landing—Mrs. Hurd seems to be
bringing them in."
As he spoke, Anthony suddenly sprang to his feet, and the outer door
opened.
"Louis!" cried Anthony, "it is he!"
"Are yer at home, miss?" said Minta Hurd, putting in her head; "I can
hardly see, it's so dark. Here's a gentleman wants to see you."
As she spoke, Wharton passed her, and stood—arrested—by the sight of
the three figures. At the same moment Mrs. Hurd lit the gas in the
little passage. The light streamed upon his face, and showed him the
identity of the two men standing beside Marcella.
Never did Marcella forget that apparition—the young grace and power of
the figure—the indefinable note of wreck, of catastrophe—the Lucifer
brightness of the eyes in the set face. She moved forward. Anthony
stopped her.
"Good-night, Miss Boyce!"
She shook hands unconsciously with him and with Louis. The two Cravens
turned to the door. Wharton advanced into the room, and let them pass.
"You have been in a hurry to tell your story!" he said, as Louis walked
by him.
Contemptuous hate breathed from every feature, but he was perfectly
self-controlled.
"Yes—" said Craven, calmly—"Now it is your turn."
The door was no sooner shut than Wharton strode forward and caught her
hand.
"They have told you everything? Ah!—"
His eye fell upon the evening paper. Letting her go, he felt for a chair
and dropped into it. Throwing himself back, his hands behind his head,
he drew a long breath and his eyes closed. For the first time in his
life or hers she saw him weak and spent like other men. Even his nerve
had been worn down by the excitement of these five fighting hours. The
eyes were lined and hollow—the brow contracted; the young roundness of
the cheek was lost in the general pallor and patchiness of the skin; the
lower part of the face seemed to have sharpened and lengthened,—and
over the whole had passed a breath of something aging and withering the
traces of which sent a shiver through Marcella. She sat down near him,
still in her nurse's cloak, one trembling hand upon her lap.
"Will you tell me what made you do this?" she asked, not being able to
think of anything else to say.
He opened his eyes with a start.
In that instant's quiet the scene he had just lived through had been
rushing before him again—the long table in the panelled committee-room,
the keen angry faces gathered about it. Bennett, in his blue tie and
shabby black coat, the clear moist eyes vexed and miserable—Molloy,
small and wiry, business-like in the midst of confusion, cool in the
midst of tumult—and Wilkins, a black, hectoring leviathan, thundering
on the table as he flung his broad Yorkshire across it, or mouthing out
Denny's letter in the midst of the sudden electrical silence of some
thirty amazed and incredulous hearers.
"Spies, yo call us?" with a finger like a dart, threatening the
enemy—"Aye; an' yo're aboot reet! I and my friends—we have been
trackin' and spyin' for weeks past. We knew those men, those starvin'
women and bairns, were bein' sold, but we couldn't prove it. Now
we've come at the how and the why of it! And we'll make it harder for
men like you to sell 'em again! Yo call it infamy?—well, we call it
detection."
Then rattling on the inner ear came the phrases of the attack which
followed on the director of "The People's Banking Association," the
injured innocent of as mean a job, as unsavoury a bit of vulturous
finance, as had cropped into publicity for many a year—and finally the
last dramatic cry:
"But it's noa matter, yo say! Mester Wharton has nobbut played his party
and the workin' man a dirty trick or two—an' yo mun have a gentleman!
Noa—the workin' man isn't fit himself to speak wi' his own enemies i'
th' gate—yo mun have a gentleman!—an' Mester Wharton, he says he'll
tak' the post, an' dea his best for yo—an', remember, yo mun have a
gentleman! Soa now—Yes! or No!—wull yo?—or woan't yo?"
And at that, the precipitation of the great unwieldy form half across
the table towards Wharton's seat—the roar of the speaker's immediate
supporters thrown up against the dead silence of the rest!
As to his own speech—he thought of it with a soreness, a disgust which
penetrated to bones and marrow. He had been too desperately taken by
surprise—had lost his nerve—missed the right tone throughout. Cool
defiance, free self-justification, might have carried him through.
Instead of which—faugh!
All this was the phantom-show of a few seconds' thought. He roused
himself from a miserable reaction of mind and body to attend to
Marcella's question.
"Why did I do it?" he repeated; "why—"
He broke off, pressing both his hands upon his brow. Then he suddenly
sat up and pulled himself together.
"Is that tea?" he said, touching the tray. "Will you give me some?"
Marcella went into the back kitchen and called Minta. While the boiling
water was brought and the tea was made, Wharton sat forward with his
face on his hands and saw nothing. Marcella whispered a word in Minta's
ear as she came in. The woman paused, looked at Wharton, whom she had
not recognised before in the dark—grew pale—and Marcella saw her hands
shaking as she set the tray in order. Wharton knew nothing and thought
nothing of Kurd's widow, but to Marcella the juxtaposition of the two
figures brought a wave of complex emotion.
Wharton forced himself to eat and drink, hardly speaking the while.
Then, when the tremor of sheer exhaustion had to some extent abated, he
suddenly realised who this was that was sitting opposite to him
ministering to him.
She felt his hand—his quick powerful hand—on hers.
"To you I owe the whole truth—let me tell it!"
She drew herself away instinctively—but so softly that he did not
realise it. He threw himself back once more in the chair beside her—one
knee over the other, the curly head so much younger to-night than the
face beneath it supported on his arms, his eyes closed again for
rest—and plunged into the story of the Clarion.
It was admirably told. He had probably so rehearsed it to himself
several times already. He described his action as the result of a double
influence working upon him—the influence of his own debts and
necessities, and the influence of his growing conviction that the
maintenance of the strike had become a blunder, even a misfortune for
the people themselves.
"Then—just as I was at my wit's end, conscious besides that the paper
was on a wrong line, and must somehow be got out of it—came the
overtures from the Syndicate. I knew perfectly well I ought to have
refused them—of course my whole career was risked by listening to
them. But at the same time they gave me assurances that the workpeople
would ultimately gain—they proved to me that I was helping to
extinguish the trade. As to the money—when a great company has to be
launched, the people who help it into being get paid for it—it is
invariable—it happens every day. I like the system no more than you may
do—or Wilkins. But consider. I was in such straits that bankruptcy
lay between me and my political future. Moreover—I had lost nerve,
sleep, balance. I was scarcely master of myself when Pearson first
broached the matter to me—"
"Pearson!" cried Marcella, involuntarily. She recalled the figure of the
solicitor; had heard his name from Frank Leven. She remembered Wharton's
impatient words—"There is a tiresome man wants to speak to me on
business—"
It was then I—that evening! Something sickened her.
Wharton raised himself in his chair and looked at her attentively with
his young haggard eyes. In the faint lamplight she was a pale vision of
the purest and noblest beauty. But the lofty sadness of her face filled
him with a kind of terror. Desire—impotent pain—violent resolve, swept
across him. He had come to her, straight from the scene of his ruin, as
to the last bulwark left him against a world bent on his destruction,
and bare henceforward of all delights.
"Well, what have you to say to me?" he said, suddenly, in a low changed
voice—"as I speak—as I look at you—I see in your face that you
distrust—that you have judged me; those two men, I suppose, have done
their work! Yet from you—you of all people—I might look not only for
justice—but—I will dare say it—for kindness!"
She trembled. She understood that he appealed to the days at Mellor, and
her lips quivered.
"No," she exclaimed, almost timidly—"I try to think the best. I see the
pressure was great."
"And consider, please," he said proudly, "what the reasons were for that
pressure."
She looked at him interrogatively—a sudden softness in her eyes. If at
that moment he had confessed himself fully, if he had thrown himself
upon her in the frank truth of his mixed character—and he could have
done it, with a Rousseau-like completeness—it is difficult to say what
the result of this scene might have been. In the midst of shock and
repulsion, she was filled with pity; and there were moments when she was
more drawn to his defeat and undoing, than she had ever been to his
success.
Yet how question him? To do so, would be to assume a right, which in
turn would imply his rights. She thought of that mention of "gambling
debts," then of his luxurious habits, and extravagant friends. But she
was silent. Only, as she sat there opposite to him, one slim hand
propping the brow, her look invited him.
He thought he saw his advantage.
"You must remember," he said, with the same self-assertive bearing,
"that I have never been a rich man, that my mother spent my father's
savings on a score of public objects, that she and I started a number of
experiments on the estate, that my expenses as a member of Parliament
are very large, and that I spent thousands on building up the Clarion.
I have been ruined by the Clarion, by the cause the Clarion
supported. I got no help from my party—where was it to come from? They
are all poor men. I had to do everything myself, and the struggle has
been more than flesh and blood could bear! This year, often, I have not
known how to move, to breathe, for anxieties of every sort. Then came
the crisis—my work, my usefulness, my career, all threatened. The men
who hated me saw their opportunity. I was a fool and gave it them. And
my enemies have used it—to the bitter end!"
Tone and gesture were equally insistent and strong. What he was saying
to himself was that, with a woman of Marcella's type, one must "bear it
out." This moment of wreck was also with him the first moment of
all-absorbing and desperate desire. To win her—to wrest her from the
Cravens' influence—that had been the cry in his mind throughout his
dazed drive from the House of Commons. Her hand in his—her strength,
her beauty, the romantic reputation that had begun to attach to her, at
his command—and he would have taken the first step to recovery, he
would see his way to right himself.
Ah! but he had missed his chance! Somehow, every word he had been saying
rang false to her. She could have thrown herself as a saving angel on
the side of weakness and disaster which had spoken its proper language,
and with a reckless and confiding truth had appealed to the largeness of
a woman's heart. But this patriot—ruined so nobly—for such
disinterested purposes—left her cold! She began to think even—hating
herself—of the thousands he was supposed to have made in the gambling
over that wretched company—no doubt for the "cause" too!
But before she could say a word he was kneeling beside her.
"Marcella I give me my answer!—I am in trouble and defeat—be a
woman, and come to me!"
He had her hands. She tried to recover them.
"No!" she said, with passionate energy, "that is impossible. I had
written to you before you came, before I had heard a word of this.
Please, please let me go!"
"Not till you explain!"—he said, still holding her, and roused to a
white heat of emotion—"why is it impossible? You said to me once,
with all your heart, that you thanked me, that I had taught you, helped
you. You cannot ignore the bond between us! And you are free. I have a
right to say to you—you thirst to save, to do good—come and save a
man that cries to you!—he confesses to you, freely enough, that he
has made a hideous mistake—help him to redeem it!"
She rose suddenly with all her strength, freeing herself from him, so
that he rose too, and stood glowering and pale.
"When I said that to you," she cried, "I was betraying "—her voice
failed her an instant—"we were both false—to the obligation that
should have held us—restrained us. No! no! I will never be your wife!
We should hurt each other—poison each other!"
Her eyes shone with wild tears. As he stood there before her she was
seized with a piteous sense of contrast—of the irreparable—of what
might have been.
"What do you mean?" he asked her, roughly.
She was silent.
His passion rose.
"Do you remember," he said, approaching her again, "that you have given
me cause to hope? It is those two fanatics that have changed
you—possessed your mind."
She looked at him with a pale dignity.
"My letters must have warned you," she said simply. "If you had come
to-morrow—in prosperity—you would have got the same answer, at once.
To-day—now—I have had weak moments, because—because I did not know
how to add pain to pain. But they are gone—I see my way! I do not love
you—that is the simple, the whole truth—I could not follow you!"
He stared at her an instant in a bitter silence.
"I have been warned,"—he said slowly, but in truth losing control of
himself, "not only by you—and I suppose I understand! You repent last
year. Your own letter said as much. You mean to recover, the ground—the
place you lost. Ah, well!—most natural!—most fitting! When the time
comes—and my bones are less sore—I suppose I shall have my second
congratulations ready! Meanwhile—"
She gave a low cry and burst suddenly into a passion of weeping, turning
her face from him. But when in pale sudden shame he tried to excuse
himself—to appease her—she moved away, with a gesture that overawed
him.
"You have not confessed yourself"—she said, and his look wavered
under the significance of hers—"but you drive me to it. Yes, I
repent!"—her breast heaved, she caught her breath. "I have been trying
to cheat myself these last few weeks—to run away from grief—and the
other night when you asked me—I would have given all I have and am to
feel like any happy girl, who says 'Yes' to her lover. I tried to feel
so. But even then, though I was miserable and reckless, I knew in my
heart—it was impossible! If you suppose—if you like to suppose—that
I—I have hopes or plans—as mean as they would be silly—you must—of
course. But I have given no one any right to think so or say so. Mr.
Wharton—"
Gathering all her self-control, she put out her white hand to him.
"Please—please say good-bye to me. It has been hideous vanity—and
mistake—and wretchedness—our knowing each other—from the beginning.
I am grateful for all you did, I shall always be grateful. I hope—oh!
I hope—that—that you will find a way through this trouble. I don't
want to make it worse by a word. If I could do anything! But I can't.
You must please go. It is late. I wish to call my friend, Mrs. Hurd."
Their eyes met—hers full of a certain stern yet quivering power, his
strained and bloodshot, in his lined young face.
Then, with a violent gesture—as though he swept her out of his path—he
caught up his hat, went to the door, and was gone.
She fell on her chair almost fainting, and sat there for long in the
summer dark, covering her face. But it was not his voice that haunted
her ears.
"You have done me wrong—I pray God you may not do yourself a greater
wrong in the future!"
Again and again, amid the whirl of memory, she pressed the sad
remembered words upon the inward wound and fever—tasting, cherishing
the smart of them. And as her trance of exhaustion and despair gradually
left her, it was as though she crept close to some dim beloved form in
whom her heart knew henceforward the secret and sole companion of its
inmost life.
"You and I—
Why care by what meanders we are here
I' the centre of the labyrinth? Men have died
Trying to find this place which we have found."
Ah! how purely, cleanly beautiful was the autumn sunrise! After her long
hardening to the stale noisomeness of London streets, the taint of
London air, Marcella hung out of her window at Mellor in a thirsty
delight, drinking in the scent of dew and earth and trees, watching the
ways of the birds, pouring forth a soul of yearning and of memory into
the pearly silence of the morning.
High up on the distant hill to the left, beyond the avenue, the pale
apricots and golds of the newly-shorn stubbles caught the mounting
light. The beeches of the avenue were turning fast, and the chestnuts
girdling the church on her right hand were already thin enough to let
the tower show through. That was the bell—the old bell given to the
church by Hampden's friend, John Boyce—striking half-past five; and
close upon it came the call of a pheasant in the avenue. There he was,
fine fellow, with his silly, mincing run, redeemed all at once by the
sudden whirr of towering flight.
To-day Mary Harden and the Rector would be at work in the church, and
to-morrow was to be the Harvest Festival. Was it two years?—or in an
hour or two would she be going with her basket from the Cedar Garden, to
find that figure in the brown shooting-coat standing with the Hardens on
the altar steps?
Alas!—alas!—her head dropped on her hands as she knelt by the open
window. How changed were all the aspects of the world! Three weeks
before, the bell in that little church had tolled for one who, in the
best way and temper of his own generation, had been God's servant and
man's friend—who had been Marcella's friend—and had even, in his last
days, on a word from Edward Hallin, sent her an old man's kindly
farewell.
"Tell her," Lord Maxwell had written with his own hand to Hallin, "she
has taken up a noble work, and will make, I pray God, a noble woman. She
had, I think, a kindly liking for an old man, and she will not disdain
his blessing."
He had died at Geneva, Aldous and Miss Raeburn with him. For instead of
coming home in August, he had grown suddenly worse, and Aldous had gone
out to him. They had brought him to the Court for burial, and the new
Lord Maxwell, leaving his aunt at the Court, had almost immediately
returned to town,—because of Edward Hallin's state of health.
Marcella had seen much of Hallin since he and his sister had come back
to London in the middle of August. Hallin's apparent improvement had
faded within a week or two of his return to his rooms; Aldous was at
Geneva; Miss Hallin was in a panic of alarm; and Marcella found herself
both nurse and friend. Day after day she would go in after her nursing
rounds, share their evening meal, and either write for Hallin, or help
the sister—by the slight extra weight of her professional voice—to
keep him from writing and thinking.
He would not himself admit that he was ill at all, and his whole
energies at the time were devoted to the preparation of a series of
three addresses on the subject of Land Reform, which were to be
delivered in October to the delegates of a large number of working-men's
clubs from all parts of London. So strong was Hallin's position among
working-men reformers, and so beloved had been his personality, that as
soon as his position towards the new land nationalising movement, now
gathering formidable strength among the London working men, had come to
be widely understood, a combined challenge had been sent him by some
half-dozen of the leading Socialist and Radical clubs, asking him to
give three weekly addresses in October to a congress of London
delegates, time to be allowed after the lecture for questions and
debate.
Hallin had accepted the invitation with eagerness, and was throwing an
intensity of labour into the writing of his three lectures which often
seemed to his poor sister to be not only utterly beyond his physical
strength, but to carry with it a note as of a last effort, a farewell
message, such as her devoted affection could ill endure. For all the
time he was struggling with cardiac weakness and brain irritability
which would have overwhelmed any one less accustomed to make his account
with illness, or to balance against feebleness of body a marvellous
discipline of soul.
Lord Maxwell was still alive, and Hallin, in the midst of his work, was
looking anxiously for the daily reports from Aldous, living in his
friend's life almost as much as in his own—handing on the reports, too,
day by day to Marcella, with a manner which had somehow slipped into
expressing a new and sure confidence in her sympathy—when she one
evening found Minta Hurd watching for her at the door with a telegram
from her mother: "Your father suddenly worse. Please come at once." She
arrived at Mellor late that same night.
On the same day Lord Maxwell died. Less than a week later he was buried
in the little Gairsley church. Mr. Boyce was then alarmingly ill, and
Marcella sat in his darkened room or in her own all day, thinking from
time to time of what was passing three miles away—of the great house in
its mourning—of the figures round the grave. Hallin, of course, would
be there. It was a dripping September day, and she passed easily from
moments of passionate yearning and clairvoyance to worry herself about
the damp and the fatigue that Hallin must be facing.
Since then she had heard occasionally from Miss Hallin. Everything was
much as it had been, apparently. Edward was still hard at work, still
ill, still serene. "Aldous"—Miss Hallin could not yet reconcile herself
to the new name—was alone in the Curzon Street house, much occupied and
harassed apparently by the legal business of the succession, by the
election presently to be held in his own constituency, and by the
winding-up of his work at the Home Office. He was to resign his
under-secretaryship; but with the new session and a certain
rearrangement of offices it was probable that he would be brought back
into the Ministry. Meanwhile he was constantly with them; and she
thought that his interest in Edward's work and anxiety about his health
were perhaps both good for him as helping to throw off something of his
own grief and depression.
Whereby it will be noticed that Miss Hallin, like her brother, had by
now come to speak intimately and freely to Marcella of her old lover and
their friend.
Now for some days, however, she had received no letter from either
brother or sister, and she was particularly anxious to hear. For this
was the fourth of October, and on the second he was to have delivered
the first of his addresses. How had the frail prophet sped? She had her
fears. For her weekly "evenings" in Brown's Buildings had shown her a
good deal of the passionate strength of feeling developed during the
past year in connection with this particular propaganda. She doubted
whether the London working man at the present moment was likely to give
even Hallin a fair hearing on the point. However, Louis Craven was to be
there. And he had promised to write even if Susie Hallin could find no
time. Some report ought to reach Mellor by the evening.
Poor Cravens! The young wife, who was expecting a baby, had behaved with
great spirit through the Clarion trouble; and, selling their bits of
furniture to pay their debts, they had gone to lodge near Anthony. Louis
had got some odds and ends of designing and artistic work to do through
his brother's influence; and was writing where he could, here and there.
Marcella had introduced them to the Hallins, and Susie Hallin was taking
a motherly interest in the coming child. Anthony, in his gloomy way, was
doing all he could for them. But the struggle was likely to be a hard
one, and Marcella had recognised of late that in Louis as in Anthony
there were dangerous possibilities of melancholy and eccentricity. Her
heart was often sore over their trouble and her own impotence.
Meantime for some wounds, at any rate, time had brought swift cautery!
Not three days after her final interview with Wharton, while the
catastrophe in the Labour party was still in every one's mouth, and the
air was full of bitter speeches and recriminations, Hallin one evening
laid down his newspaper with a sudden startled gesture, and then pushed
it over to Marcella. There, in the columns devoted to personal news of
various sorts, appeared the announcement:
"A marriage has been arranged between Mr. H.S. Wharfon, M.P. for West
Brookshire, and Lady Selina Farrell, only surviving daughter of Lord
Alresford. The ceremony will probably take place somewhere about Easter
next. Meanwhile Mr. Wharton, whose health has suffered of late from his
exertions in and out of the House, has been ordered to the East for rest
by his medical advisers. He and his friend Sir William Ffolliot start
for French Cochin China in a few days. Their object is to explore the
famous ruined temples of Angkor in Cambodia, and if the season is
favourable they may attempt to ascend the Mekong. Mr. Wharton is paired
for the remainder of the session."
"Did you know anything of this?" said Hallin, with that careful
carelessness in which people dress a dubious question.
"Nothing," she said quietly.
Then an impulse not to be stood against, springing from very mingled
depths of feeling, drove her on. She, too, put down the paper, and
laying her finger-tips together on her knee she said with an odd slight
laugh:
"But I was the last person to know. About a fortnight ago Mr. Wharton
proposed to me."
Hallin sprang from his chair, almost with a shout. "And you refused
him?"
She nodded, and then was angrily aware that, totally against her will or
consent, and for the most foolish and remote reasons, those two eyes of
hers had grown moist.
Hallin went straight over to her.
"Do you mind letting me shake hands with you?" he said, half ashamed of
his outburst, a dancing light of pleasure transforming the thin face.
"There—I am an idiot! We won't say a word more—except about Lady
Selina. Have you seen her?"
"Three or four times."
"What is she like?"
Marcella hesitated.
"Is she fat—and forty?" said Hallin, fervently—she beat him?"
"Not at all. She is very thin—thirty-five, elegant, terribly of her own
opinion—and makes a great parade of 'papa.'"
She looked round at him, unsteadily, but gaily.
"Oh! I see," said Hallin, with disappointment, "she will only take care
he doesn't beat her—which I gather from your manner doesn't matter. And
her politics?"
"Lord Alresford was left out of the Ministry," said Marcella slily. "He
and Lady Selina thought it a pity."
"Alresford—Alresford? Why, of course! He was Lord Privy Seal in their
last Cabinet—a narrow-minded old stick!—did a heap of mischief in the
Lords. Well!"—Hallin pondered a moment—"Wharton will go over!"
Marcella was silent. The tremor of that wrestler's hour had not yet
passed away. The girl could find no words in which to discuss Wharton
himself, this last amazing act, or its future.
As for Hallin, he sat lost in pleasant dreams of a whitewashed Wharton,
comfortably settled at last below the gangway on the Conservative side,
using all the old catch-words in slightly different connections, and
living gaily on his Lady Selina. Fragments from the talk of
Nehemiah—Nehemiah the happy and truculent, that new "scourge of God"
upon the parasites of Labour—of poor Bennett, of Molloy, and of various
others who had found time to drop in upon him since the Labour smash,
kept whirling in his mind. The same prediction he had just made to
Marcella was to be discerned in several of them. He vowed to himself
that he would write to Raeburn that night, congratulate him and the
party on the possibility of so eminent a recruit—and hint another item
of news by the way. She had trusted her confidence to him without any
pledge—an act for which he paid her well thenceforward, in the coin of
a friendship far more intimate, expansive, and delightful than anything
his sincerity had as yet allowed him to show her.
But these London incidents and memories, near as they were in time,
looked many of them strangely remote to Marcella in this morning
silence. When she drew back from the window, after darkening the now
sun-flooded room in a very thorough business-like way, in order that she
might have four or five hours' sleep, there was something symbolic in
the act. She gave back her mind, her self, to the cares, the anxieties,
the remorses of the past three weeks. During the night she had been
sitting up with her father that her mother might rest. Now, as she lay
down, she thought with the sore tension which had lately become habitual
to her, of her father's state, her mother's strange personality, her own
short-comings.
* * * * *
By the middle of the morning she was downstairs again, vigorous and
fresh as ever. Mrs. Boyce's maid was for the moment in charge of the
patient, who was doing well. Mrs. Boyce was writing some household notes
in the drawing-room. Marcella went in search of her.
The bare room, just as it ever was—with its faded antique charm—looked
bright and tempting in the sun. But the cheerfulness of it did but
sharpen the impression of that thin form writing in the window. Mrs.
Boyce looked years older. The figure had shrunk and flattened into that
of an old woman; the hair, which two years before had been still young
and abundant, was now easily concealed under the close white cap she had
adopted very soon after her daughter had left Mellor. The dress was
still exquisitely neat; but plainer and coarser. Only the beautiful
hands and the delicate stateliness of carriage remained—sole relics of
a loveliness which had cost its owner few pangs to part with.
Marcella hovered near her—a little behind her—looking at her from time
to time with a yearning compunction—which Mrs. Boyce seemed to be aware
of, and to avoid.
"Mamma, can't I do those letters for you? I am quite fresh."
"No, thank you. They are just done."
When they were all finished and stamped, Mrs. Boyce made some careful
entries in a very methodical account-book, and then got up, locking the
drawers of her little writing-table behind her.
"We can keep the London nurse another week I think," she said.
"There is no need," said Marcella, quickly. "Emma and I could divide the
nights now and spare you altogether. You see I can sleep at any time."
"Your father seems to prefer Nurse Wenlock," said Mrs. Boyce.
Marcella took the little blow in silence. No doubt it was her due.
During the past two years she had spent two separate months at Mellor;
she had gone away in opposition to her father's wish; and had found
herself on her return more of a stranger to her parents than ever. Mr.
Boyce's illness, involving a steady extension of paralytic weakness,
with occasional acute fits of pain and danger, had made steady though
very gradual progress all the time. But it was not till some days after
her return home that Marcella had realised a tenth part of what her
mother had undergone since the disastrous spring of the murder.
She passed now from the subject of the nurse with a half-timid remark
about "expense."
"Oh! the expense doesn't matter!" said Mrs. Boyce, as she stood absently
before the lately kindled fire, warming her chilled fingers at the
blaze.
"Papa is more at ease in those ways?" Marcella ventured. And kneeling
down beside her mother she gently chafed one of the cold hands.
"There seems to be enough for what is wanted," said Mrs. Boyce, bearing
the charing with patience. "Your father, I believe, has made great
progress this year in freeing the estate. Thank you, my dear. I am not
cold now."
And she gently withdrew her hand.
Marcella, indeed, had already noticed that there were now no weeds on
the garden-paths, that instead of one gardener there were three, that
the old library had been decently patched and restored, that there was
another servant, that William, grown into a very—tolerable footman,
wore a reputable coat, and that a plain but adequate carriage and horse
had met her at the station. Her pity even understood that part of her
father's bitter resentment of his ever-advancing disablement came from
his feeling that here at last—just as death was in sight—he, that
squalid failure, Dick Boyce, was making a success of something.
Presently, as she knelt before the fire, a question escaped her, which,
when it was spoken, she half regretted.
"Has papa been able to do anything for the cottages yet?"
"I don't think so," said Mrs. Boyce, calmly. After a minute's pause she
added, "That will be for your reign, my dear."
Marcella looked up with a sharp thrill of pain.
"Papa is better, mamma, and—and I don't know what you mean. I shall
never reign here without you."
Mrs. Boyce began to fidget with the rings on her thin left hand.
"When Mellor ceases to be your father's it will be yours," she said, not
without a certain sharp decision; "that was settled long ago. I must be
free—and if you are to do anything with this place, you must give your
youth and strength to it. And your father is not better—except for the
moment. Dr. Clarke exactly foretold the course of his illness to me two
years ago, on my urgent request. He may live four months—six, if we can
get him to the South. More is impossible."
There was something ghastly in her dry composure. Marcella caught her
hand again and leant her trembling young cheek against it.
"I could not live here without you, mamma!"
Mrs. Boyce could not for once repress the inner fever which in general
her will controlled so well.
"I hardly think it would matter to you so much, my dear."
Marcella shrank.
"I don't wonder you say that!" she said in a low voice. "Do you think it
was all a mistake, mamma, my going away eighteen months ago—a wrong
act?"
Mrs. Boyce grew restless.
"I judge nobody, my dear!—unless I am obliged. As you know, I am for
liberty—above all"—she spoke with emphasis—"for letting the past
alone. But I imagine you must certainly have learnt to do without us.
Now I ought to go to your father."
But Marcella held her.
"Do you remember in the Purgatorio, mamma, the lines about the loser
in the game: 'When the game of dice breaks up, he who lost lingers
sorrowfully behind, going over the throws, and learning by his grief'?
Do you remember?"
Mrs. Boyce looked down upon her, involuntarily a little curious, a
little nervous, but assenting. It was one of the inconsistencies of her
strange character that she had all her life been a persistent Dante
student. The taste for the most strenuous and passionate of poets had
developed in her happy youth; it had survived through the loneliness of
her middle life. Like everything else personal to herself she never
spoke of it; but the little worn books on her table had been familiar to
Marcella from a child.
"E tristo impara?" repeated Marcella, her voice wavering. "Mamma
"—she laid her face against her mother's dress again—"I have lost more
throws than you think in the last two years. Won't you believe I may
have learnt a little?"
She raised her eyes to her mother's pinched and mask-like face. Mrs.
Boyce's lips moved as though she would have asked a question. But she
did not ask it. She drew, instead, the stealthy breath Marcella knew
well—the breath of one who has measured precisely her own powers of
endurance, and will not risk them for a moment by any digression into
alien fields of emotion.
"Well, but one expects persons like you to learn," she said, with a
light, cold manner, which made the words mere convention. There was
silence an instant; then, probably to release herself, her hand just
touched her daughter's hair. "Now, will you come up in half an hour?
That was twelve striking, and Emma is never quite punctual with his
food."
* * * * *
Marcella went to her father at the hour named. She found him in his
wheeled chair, beside a window opened to the sun, and overlooking the
Cedar Garden. The room in which he sat was the state bedroom of the old
house. It had a marvellous paper of branching trees and parrots and
red-robed Chinamen, in the taste of the morning room downstairs, a
carved four-post bed, a grate adorned with purplish Dutch tiles, an
array of family miniatures over the mantelpiece, and on a neighbouring
wall a rack of old swords and rapiers. The needlework hangings of the
bed were full of holes; the seats of the Chippendale chairs were frayed
or tattered. But, none the less, the inalienable character and dignity
of his sleeping-room were a bitter satisfaction to Richard Boyce, even
in his sickness. After all said and done, he was king here in his
father's and grandfather's place; ruling where they ruled, and—whether
they would or no—dying where they died, with the same family faces to
bear him witness from the walls, and the same vault awaiting him.
When his daughter entered, he turned his head, and his eyes, deep and
black still as ever, but sunk in a yellow relic of a face, showed a
certain agitation. She was disagreeably aware that his thoughts were
much occupied with her; that he was full of grievance towards her, and
would probably before long bring the pathos of his situation as well as
the weight of his dying authority to bear upon her, for purposes she
already suspected with alarm.
"Are you a little easier, papa?" she said, as she came up to him.
"I should think as a nurse you ought to know better, my dear, than to
ask," he said testily. "When a person is in my condition, enquiries of
that sort are a mockery!"
"But one may be in less or more pain," she said gently. "I hoped Dr.
Clarke's treatment yesterday might have given you some relief."
He did not vouchsafe an answer. She took some work and sat down by him.
Mrs. Boyce, who had been tidying a table of food and medicine, came and
asked him if he would be wheeled into another room across the gallery,
which had been arranged as a sitting-room. He shook his head irritably.
"I am not fit for it. Can't you see? And I want to speak to Marcella."
Mrs. Boyce went away. Marcella waited, not without a tremor. She was
sitting in the sun, her head bent over the muslin strings she was
hemming for her nurse's bonnet. The window was wide open; outside, the
leaves under a warm breeze were gently drifting down into the Cedar
Garden, amid a tangled mass of flowers, mostly yellow or purple. To one
side rose the dark layers of the cedars; to the other, the grey front
of the library wing.
Mr. Boyce looked at her with the frown which had now become habitual to
him, moved his lips once or twice without speaking; and at last made his
effort.
"I should think, Marcella, you must often regret by now the step you
took eighteen months ago!"
She grew pale.
"How regret it, papa?" she said, without looking up.
"Why, good God!" he said angrily; "I should think the reasons for regret
are plain enough. You threw over a man who was devoted to you, and could
have given you the finest position in the county, for the most
nonsensical reasons in the world—reasons that by now, I am certain, you
are ashamed of."
He saw her wince, and enjoyed his prerogative of weakness. In his normal
health he would never have dared so to speak to her. But of late, during
long fits of feverish brooding—intensified by her return home—he had
vowed to himself to speak his mind.
"Aren't you ashamed of them?" he repeated, as she was silent.
She looked up.
"I am not ashamed of anything I did to save Hurd, if that is what you
mean, papa."
Mr. Boyce's anger grew.
"Of course you know what everybody said?"
She stooped over her work again, and did not reply.
"It's no good being sullen over it," he said in exasperation; "I'm your
father, and I'm dying. I have a right to question you. It's my duty to
see something settled, if I can, before I go. Is it true that all the
time you were attacking Raeburn about politics and the reprieve, and
what not, you were really behaving as you never ought to have behaved,
with Harry Wharton?"
He gave out the words with sharp emphasis, and, bending towards her, he
laid an emaciated hand upon her arm.
"What use is there, papa, in going back to these things?" she said,
driven to bay, her colour going and coming. "I may have been wrong in a
hundred ways, but you never understood that the real reason for it all
was that—that—I never was in love with Mr. Raeburn."
"Then why did you accept him?" He fell back against his pillows with a
jerk.
"As to that, I will confess my sins readily enough," she said, while her
lip trembled, and he saw the tears spring into her eyes. "I accepted him
for what you just now called his position in the county, though not
quite in that way either."
He was silent a little, then he began again in a voice which gradually
became unsteady from self-pity.
"Well, now look here! I have been thinking about this matter a great
deal—and God knows I've time to think and cause to think, considering
the state I'm in—and I see no reason whatever why I should not
try—before I die—to put this thing straight. That man was head over
ears in love with you, madly in love with you. I used to watch him,
and I know. Of course you offended and distressed him greatly. He could
never have expected such conduct from you or any one else. But he's
not the man to change round easily, or to take up with any one else.
Now, if you regret what you did or the way in which you did it, why
shouldn't I—a dying man may be allowed a little licence I should
think!—give him a hint?"
"Papa!" cried Marcella, dropping her work, and looking at him with a
pale, indignant passion, which a year ago would have quelled him
utterly. But he held up his hand.
"Now just let me finish. It would be no good my doing a thing of this
kind without saying something to you first, because you'd find it out,
and your pride would be the ruin of it. You always had a demoniacal
pride, Marcella, even when you were a tiny child; but if you make up
your mind now to let me tell him you regret what you did—just
that—you'll make him happy, and yourself, for you know very well he's a
man of the highest character—and your poor father, who never did you
much harm anyway!" His voice faltered. "I'd manage it so that there
should be nothing humiliating to you in it whatever. As if there could
be anything humiliating in confessing such a mistake as that; besides,
what is there to be ashamed of? You're no pauper. I've pulled Mellor out
of the mud for you, though you and your mother do give me credit for so
precious little!"
He lay back, trembling with fatigue, yet still staring at her with
glittering eyes, while his hand on the invalid table fixed to the side
of his chair shook piteously. Marcella dreaded the effect the whole
scene might have upon him; but, now they were in the midst of it, both
feeling for herself and prudence for him drove her into the strongest
speech she could devise.
"Papa, if anything of that sort were done, I should take care Mr.
Raeburn knew I had had nothing to do with it—in such a way that it
would be impossible for him to carry it further. Dear papa, don't
think of such a thing any more. Because I treated Mr. Raeburn unjustly
last year, are we now to harass and persecute him? I would sooner
disappear from everybody I know—from you and mamma, from England—and
never be heard of again."
She stopped a moment—struggling for composure—that she might not
excite him too much.
"Besides, it would be absurd! You forget I have seen a good deal of Mr.
Raeburn lately—while I have been with the Winterbournes. He has
entirely given up all thought of me. Even my vanity could see that
plainly enough. His best friends expect him to marry a bright,
fascinating little creature of whom I saw a good deal in James Street—a
Miss Macdonald."
"Miss how—much?" he asked roughly.
She repeated the name, and then dwelt, with a certain amount of
confusion and repetition, upon the probabilities of the matter—half
conscious all the time that she was playing a part, persuading herself
and him of something she was not at all clear about in her own inner
mind—but miserably, passionately determined to go through with it all
the same.
He bore with what she said to him, half disappointed and depressed, yet
also half incredulous. He had always been obstinate, and the approach of
death had emphasised his few salient qualities, as decay had emphasised
the bodily frame. He said to himself stubbornly that he would find some
way yet of testing the matter in spite of her. He would think it out.
Meanwhile, step by step, she brought the conversation to less dangerous
things, and she was finally gliding into some chat about the
Winterbournes when he interrupted her abruptly—
"And that other fellow—Wharton. Your mother tells me you have seen him
in London. Has he been making love to you?"
"Suppose I won't be catechised!" she said gaily, determined to allow no
more tragedy of any kind. "Besides, papa, you can't read your gossip as
good people should. Mr. Wharton's engagement to a certain Lady Selina
Farrell—a distant cousin of the Winterbournes—was announced, in
several papers with great plainness three weeks ago."
At that moment her mother came in, looking anxiously at them both, and
half resentfully at Marcella. Marcella, sore and bruised in every moral
fibre, got up to go.
Something in the involuntary droop of her beautiful head as she left the
room drew her father's eyes after her, and for the time his feeling
towards her softened curiously. Well, she had not made very much of
her life so far! That old strange jealousy of her ability, her beauty,
and her social place, he had once felt so hotly, died away. He wished
her, indeed, to be Lady Maxwell. Yet for the moment there was a certain
balm in the idea that she too—her mother's daughter—with her Merritt
blood—could be unlucky.
Marcella went about all day under a vague sense of impending
trouble—the result, no doubt, of that intolerable threat of her
father's, against which she was, after all, so defenceless.
But whatever it was, it made her all the more nervous and sensitive
about the Hallins; about her one true friend, to whom she was slowly
revealing herself, even without speech; whose spiritual strength had
been guiding and training her; whose physical weakness had drawn to him
the maternal, the spending instincts which her nursing life had so
richly developed.
She strolled down the drive to meet the post. But there were no letters
from London, and she came in, inclined to be angry indeed with Louis
Craven for deserting her, but saying to herself at the same time that
she must have heard if anything had gone wrong.
An hour or so later, just as the October evening was closing in, she was
sitting dreaming over a dim wood-fire in the drawing-room. Her father,
as might have been expected, had been very tired and comatose all day.
Her mother was with him; the London nurse was to sit up, and Marcella
felt herself forlorn and superfluous.
Suddenly, in the silence of the house, she heard the front-door bell
ring. There was a step in the hall—she sprang up—the door opened, and
William, with fluttered emphasis, announced—
"Lord Maxwell!"
In the dusk she could just see his tall form—the short pause as he
perceived her—then her hand was in his, and the paralysing astonishment
of that first instant had disappeared under the grave emotion of his
look.
"Will you excuse me," he said, "for coming at this hour? But I am
afraid you have heard nothing yet of our bad news—and Hallin himself
was anxious I should come and tell you. Miss Hallin could not write, and
Mr. Craven, I was to tell you, had been ill for a week with a chill. You
haven't then seen any account of the lecture in the papers?"
"No; I have looked yesterday and to-day in our paper, but there was
nothing—"
"Some of the Radical papers reported it. I hoped you might have seen it.
But when we got down here this afternoon, and there was nothing from
you, both Miss Hallin and Edward felt sure you had not heard—and I
walked over. It was a most painful, distressing scene, and he—is very
ill."
"But you have brought him to the Court?" she said trembling, lost in the
thought of Hallin, her quick breath coming and going. "He was able to
bear the journey? Will you tell me?—will you sit down?"
He thanked her hurriedly, and took a seat opposite to her, within the
circle of the firelight, so that she saw his deep mourning and the look
of repressed suffering.
"The whole thing was extraordinary—I can hardly now describe it," he
said, holding his hat in his hands and staring into the fire. "It began
excellently. There was a very full room. Bennett was in the chair—and
Edward seemed much as usual. He had been looking desperately ill, but he
declared that he was sleeping better, and that his sister and I coddled
him. Then,—directly he was well started!—I felt somehow that the
audience was very hostile. And he evidently felt it more and more.
There was a good deal of interruption and hardly any cheers—and I saw
after a little—I was sitting not far behind him—that he was
discouraged—that he had lost touch. It was presently clear, indeed,
that the real interest of the meeting lay not in the least in what he
had to say, but in the debate that was to follow. They meant to let him
have his hour—but not a minute more. I watched the men about me, and I
could see them following the clock—thirsting for their turn. Nothing
that he said seemed to penetrate them in the smallest degree. He was
there merely as a ninepin to be knocked over. I never saw a meeting so
possessed with a madness of fanatical conviction—it was amazing!"
He paused, looking sadly before him. She made a little movement, and he
roused himself instantly.
"It was just a few minutes before he was to sit down—I was
thankful!—when suddenly—I heard his voice change. I do not know now
what happened—but I believe he completely lost consciousness of the
scene before him—the sense of strain, of exhaustion, of making no way,
must have snapped something. He began a sort of confession—a reverie in
public—about himself, his life, his thoughts, his prayers, his
hopes—mostly his religious hopes—for the working man, for England—I
never heard anything of the kind from him before—you know his
reserve. It was so intimate—so painful—oh! so painful!"—he drew
himself together with an involuntary shudder—"before this crowd, this
eager hostile crowd which was only pining for him to sit down—to get
out of their way. The men near me began to look at each other and
titter. They wondered what he meant by maundering on like that—'damned
canting stuff'—I heard one man near me call it. I tore off a bit of
paper, and passed a line to Bennett asking him to get hold of Edward, to
stop it. But I think Bennett had rather lost his presence of mind, and I
saw him look back at me and shake his head. Then time was up, and they
began to shout him down."
Marcella made an exclamation of horror. He turned to her.
"I think it was the most tragic scene I ever saw," he said with a
feeling as simple as it was intense. "This crowd so angry and
excited—without a particle of understanding or sympathy—laughing, and
shouting at him—and he in the midst—white as death—talking this
strange nonsense—his voice floating in a high key, quite unlike itself.
At last just as I was getting up to go to him, I saw Bennett rise. But
we were both too late. He fell at our feet!"
Marcella gave an involuntary sob! "What a horror!" she said, "what a
martyrdom!"
"It was just that," he answered in a low voice—"It was a martyrdom. And
when one thinks of the way in which for years past he has held these big
meetings in the hollow of his hand, and now, because he crosses their
passion, their whim,—no kindness!—no patience—nothing but a blind
hostile fury! Yet they thought him a traitor, no doubt. Oh! it was all
a tragedy!"
There was silence an instant. Then he resumed:
"We got him into the back room. Luckily there was a doctor on the
platform. It was heart failure, of course, with brain prostration. We
managed to get him home, and Susie Hallin and I sat up. He was delirious
all night; but yesterday he rallied, and last night he begged us to move
him out of London if we could. So we got two doctors and an invalid
carriage, and by three this afternoon we were all at the Court. My aunt
was ready for him—his sister is there—and a nurse. Clarke was there to
meet him. He thinks he cannot possibly live more than a few
weeks—possibly even a few days. The shock and strain have been
irreparable."
Marcella lay back in her chair, struggling with her grief, her head and
face turned away from him, her eyes hidden by her handkerchief. Then in
some mysterious way she was suddenly conscious that Aldous was no longer
thinking of Hallin, but of her.
"He wants very much to see you," he said, bending towards her; "but I
know that you have yourself serious illness to nurse. Forgive me for not
having enquired after Mr. Boyce. I trust he is better?"
She sat up, red-eyed, but mistress of herself. The tone had been all
gentleness, but to her quivering sense some slight indefinable
change—coldness—had passed into it.
"He is better, thank you—for the present. And my mother does not let
me do very much. We have a nurse too. When shall I come?"
He rose.
"Could you—come to-morrow afternoon? There is to be a consultation of
doctors in the morning, which will tire him. About six?—that was what
he said. He is very weak, but in the day quite conscious and rational.
My aunt begged me to say how glad she would be—"
He paused. An invincible awkwardness took possession of both of them.
She longed to speak to him of his grandfather but could not find the
courage.
When he was gone, she, standing alone in the firelight, gave one
passionate thought to the fact that so—in this tragic way—they had met
again in this room where he had spoken to her his last words as a lover;
and then, steadily, she put everything out of her mind but her
friend—and death.