Wednesday, 24th July.
Off the Scilly Isles, 6 P.M.
When I wrote last Sunday, we put
our pilot on shore, and went down Channel. It soon came on
to blow, and all night was squally and rough. Captain on
deck all night. Monday, I went on deck at eight.
Lovely weather, but the ship pitching as you never saw a ship
pitch—bowsprit under water. By two o’clock a
gale came on; all ordered below. Captain left dinner, and,
about six, a sea struck us on the weather side, and washed a good
many unconsidered trifles overboard, and stove in three windows
on the poop; nurse and four children in fits; Mrs. T— and
babies afloat, but good-humoured as usual. Army-surgeon and
I picked up children and bullied nurse, and helped to bale
cabin. Cuddy window stove in, and we were wetted.
Went to bed at nine; could not undress, it pitched so, and had to
call doctor to help me into cot; slept sound. The gale
continues. My cabin is water-tight as to big splashes, but
damp and dribbling. I am almost ashamed to like such
miseries so much. The forecastle is under water with every
lurch, and the motion quite incredible to one only acquainted
with steamers. If one can sit this ship, which bounds like
a tiger, one should sit a leap over a haystack. Evidently,
I can never be sea-sick; but holding on is hard work, and writing
harder.
Life is thus:—Avery—my cuddy boy—brings tea
for S—, and milk for me, at six. S— turns out;
when she is dressed, I turn out, and sing out for Avery, who
takes down my cot, and brings a bucket of salt water, in which I
wash with vast danger and difficulty; get dressed, and go on deck
at eight. Ladies not allowed there earlier. Breakfast
solidly at nine. Deck again; gossip; pretend to read.
Beer and biscuit at twelve. The faithful Avery brings mine
on deck. Dinner at four. Do a little carpentering in
cabin, all the outfitters’ work having broken loose.
I am now in the captain’s cabin, writing. We have the
wind as ever, dead against us; and as soon as we get unpleasantly
near Scilly, we shall tack and stand back to the French coast,
where we were last night. Three soldiers able to answer
roll-call, all the rest utterly sick; three middies
helpless. Several of crew, ditto. Passengers very
fairly plucky; but only I and one other woman, who never was at
sea before, well. The food on board our ship is good as to
meat, bread, and beer; everything else bad. Port and sherry
of British manufacture, and the water with an incredible
borachio, essence of tar; so that tea and coffee are but
derisive names.
To-day, the air is quite saturated with wet, and I put on my
clothes damp when I dressed, and have felt so ever since. I
am so glad I was not persuaded out of my cot; it is the whole
difference between rest, and holding on for life. No one in
a bunk slept at all on Monday night; but then it blew as heavy a
gale as it can blow, and we had the Cornish coast under our
lee. So we tacked and tumbled all night. The ship
being new, too, has the rigging all wrong; and the confusion and
disorder are beyond description. The ship’s officers
are very good fellows. The mizen is entirely worked by the
‘young gentlemen’; so we never see the sailors, and,
at present, are not allowed to go forward. All lights are
put out at half-past ten, and no food allowed in the cabin; but
the latter article my friend Avery makes light of, and brings me
anything when I am laid up. The young soldier-officers bawl
for him with expletives; but he says, with a snigger, to me,
‘They’ll just wait till their betters, the ladies, is
looked to.’ I will write again some day soon, and
take the chance of meeting a ship; you may be amused by a little
scrawl, though it will probably be very stupid and ill-written,
for it is not easy to see or to guide a pen while I hold on to
the table with both legs and one arm, and am first on my back and
then on my nose. Adieu, till next time. I have had a
good taste of the humours of the Channel.
29th July, 4 Bells, i.e. 2
o’clock, p.m.—When I wrote last, I
thought we had had our share of contrary winds and foul
weather. Ever since, we have beaten about the bay with the
variety of a favourable gale one night for a few hours, and a
dead calm yesterday, in which we almost rolled our masts out of
the ship. However, the sun was hot, and I sat and basked on
deck, and we had morning service. It was a striking sight,
with the sailors seated on oars and buckets, covered with signal
flags, and with their clean frocks and faces. To-day is so
cold that I dare not go on deck, and am writing in my black-hole
of a cabin, in a green light, with the sun blinking through the
waves as they rush over my port and scuttle. The captain is
much vexed at the loss of time. I persist in thinking it a
very pleasant, but utterly lazy life. I sleep a great deal,
but don’t eat much, and my cough has been bad; but,
considering the real hardship of the life—damp, cold, queer
food, and bad drink—I think I am better. When we can
get past Finisterre, I shall do very well, I doubt not.
The children swarm on board, and cry unceasingly. A
passenger-ship is no place for children. Our poor ship will
lose her character by the weather, as she cannot fetch up ten
days’ lost time. But she is evidently a
race-horse. We overhaul everything we see, at a wonderful
rate, and the speed is exciting and pleasant; but the next long
voyage I make, I’ll try for a good wholesome old
‘monthly’ tub, which will roll along on the top of
the water, instead of cutting through it, with the waves curling
in at the cuddy skylights. We tried to signal a barque
yesterday, and send home word ‘all well’; but the
brutes understood nothing but Russian, and excited our
indignation by talking ‘gibberish ‘ to us; which we
resented with true British spirit, as became us.
It is now blowing hard again, and we have just been taken
right aback. Luckily, I had lashed my desk to my
washing-stand, or that would have flown off, as I did off my
chair. I don’t think I shall know what to make of
solid ground under my feet. The rolling and pitching of a
ship of this size, with such tall masts, is quite unlike the
little niggling sort of work on a steamer—it is the
difference between grinding along a bad road in a four-wheeler,
and riding well to hounds in a close country on a good
hunter. I was horribly tired for about five days, but now I
rather like it, and never know whether it blows or not in the
night, I sleep so soundly. The noise is beyond all belief;
the creaking, trampling, shouting, clattering; it is an incessant
storm. We have not yet got our masts quite safe; the new
wire-rigging stretches more than was anticipated (of course), and
our main-topmast is shaky. The crew have very hard work, as
incessant tacking is added to all the extra work incident to a
new ship. On Saturday morning, everybody was shouting for
the carpenter. My cabin was flooded by a leak, and I
superintended the baling and swabbing from my cot, and dressed
sitting on my big box. However, I got the leak stopped and
cabin dried, and no harm done, as I had put everything up off the
floor the night before, suspicious of a dribble which came
in. Then my cot frame was broken by my cuddy boy and I
lurching over against S—’s bunk, in taking it
down. The carpenter has given me his own, and takes my
broken one for himself. Board ship is a famous place for
tempers. Being easily satisfied, I get all I want, and
plenty of attention and kindness; but I cannot prevail on my
cuddy boy to refrain from violent tambourine-playing with a tin
tray just at the ear of a lady who worries him. The young
soldier-officers, too, I hear mentioned as ‘them lazy
gunners’, and they struggle for water and tea in the
morning long after mine has come. We have now been ten days
at sea, and only three on which we could eat without the
‘fiddles’ (transverse pieces of wood to prevent the
dishes from falling off). Smooth water will seem quite
strange to me. I fear the poor people in the forecastle
must be very wet and miserable, as the sea is constantly over it,
not in spray, but in tons of green water.
3d Aug.—We had two days of dead calm, then
one or two of a very light, favourable breeze, and yesterday we
ran 175 miles with the wind right aft. We saw several
ships, which signalled us, but we would not answer, as we had our
spars down for repairs and looked like a wreck, and fancied it
would be a pity to frighten you all with a report to that
effect.
Last night we got all right, and spread out immense
studding-sails. We are now bowling along, wind right aft,
dipping our studding-sail booms into the water at every
roll. The weather is still surprisingly cold, though very
fine, and I have to come below quite early, out of the evening
air. The sun sets before seven o’clock. I still
cough a good deal, and the bad food and drink are trying.
But the life is very enjoyable; and as I have the run of the
charts, and ask all sorts of questions, I get plenty of
amusement. S— is an excellent traveller; no
grumbling, and no gossiping, which, on board a ship like ours, is
a great merit, for there is ad nauseam of both.
Mr. — is writing a charade, in which I have agreed to
take a part, to prevent squabbling. He wanted to start a
daily paper, but the captain wisely forbade it, as it must have
led to personalities and quarrels, and suggested a play
instead. My little white Maltese goat is very well, and
gives plenty of milk, which is a great resource, as the tea and
coffee are abominable. Avery brings it me at six, in a tin
pannikin, and again in the evening. The chief officer is
well-bred and agreeable, and, indeed, all the young gentlemen are
wonderfully good specimens of their class. The captain is a
burly foremast man in manner, with a heart of wax and every
feeling of a gentleman. He was in California,
‘hide droghing’ with Dana, and he says every
line of Two Years before the Mast is true. He went
through it all himself. He says that I am a great help to
him, as a pattern of discipline and punctuality. People are
much inclined to miss meals, and then want things at odd hours,
and make the work quite impossible to the cook and
servants. Of course, I get all I want in double-quick time,
as I try to save my man trouble; and the carpenter leaves my
scuttle open when no one else gets it, quite willing to get up in
his time of sleep to close it, if it comes on to blow. A
maid is really a superfluity on board ship, as the men rather
like being ‘aux petits soins’. The
boatswain came the other day to say that he had a nice carpet and
a good pillow; did I want anything of the sort? He would be
proud that I should use anything of his. You would delight
in Avery, my cuddy man, who is as quick as ‘greased
lightning’, and full of fun. His misery is my want of
appetite, and his efforts to cram me are very droll. The
days seem to slip away, one can’t tell how. I sit on
deck from breakfast at nine, till dinner at four, and then again
till it gets cold, and then to bed. We are now about 100
miles from Madeira, and shall have to run inside it, as we were
thrown so far out of our course by the foul weather.
9th Aug.—Becalmed, under a vertical
sun. Lat. 17°, or thereabouts. We saw Madeira at
a distance like a cloud; since then, we had about four days trade
wind, and then failing or contrary breezes. We have sailed
so near the African shore that we get little good out of the
trades, and suffer much from the African climate. Fancy a
sky like a pale February sky in London, no sun to be seen, and a
heat coming, one can’t tell from whence. To-day, the
sun is vertical and invisible, the sea glassy and heaving.
I have been ill again, and obliged to lie still yesterday and the
day before in the captain’s cabin; to-day in my own, as we
have the ports open, and the maindeck is cooler than the
upper. The men have just been holystoning here, singing
away lustily in chorus. Last night I got leave to sling my
cot under the main hatchway, as my cabin must have killed me from
suffocation when shut up. Most of the men stayed on deck,
but that is dangerous after sunset on this African coast, on
account of the heavy dew and fever. They tell me that the
open sea is quite different; certainly, nothing can look duller
and dimmer than this specimen of the tropics. The few days
of trade wind were beautiful and cold, with sparkling sea, and
fresh air and bright sun; and we galloped along merrily.
We are now close to the Cape de Verd Islands, and shall go
inside them. About lat. 4° N. we expect to catch the
S.E. trade wind, when it will be cold again. In lat.
24°, the day before we entered the tropics, I sat on deck in
a coat and cloak; the heat is quite sudden, and only lasts a week
or so. The sea to-day is littered all round the ship with
our floating rubbish, so we have not moved at all.
I constantly long for you to be here, though I am not sure you
would like the life as well as I do. All your ideas of it
are wrong; the confinement to the poop and the stringent
regulations would bore you. But then, sitting on deck in
fine weather is pleasure enough, without anything else. In
a Queen’s ship, a yacht, or a merchantman with fewer
passengers, it must be a delightful existence.
17th Aug.—Since I wrote last, we got into
the south-west monsoon for one day, and I sat up by the steersman
in intense enjoyment—a bright sun and glittering blue sea;
and we tore along, pitching and tossing the water up like
mad. It was glorious. At night, I was calmly reposing
in my cot, in the middle of the steerage, just behind the main
hatchway, when I heard a crashing of rigging and a violent noise
and confusion on deck. The captain screamed out orders
which informed me that we were in the thick of a
collision—of course I lay still, and waited till the row,
or the ship, went down. I found myself next day looked upon
as no better than a heathen by all the women, because I had been
cool, and declined to get up and make a noise. Presently
the officers came and told me that a big ship had borne down on
us—we were on the starboard tack, and all
right—carried off our flying jib-boom and whisker (the sort
of yard to the bowsprit). The captain says he was never in
such imminent danger in his life, as she threatened to swing
round and to crush into our waist, which would have been certain
destruction. The little dandy soldier-officer behaved
capitally; he turned his men up in no time, and had them all
ready. He said, ‘Why, you know, I must see that my
fellows go down decently.’ S— was as cool as an
icicle, offered me my pea-jacket, &c., which I declined, as
it would be of no use for me to go off in boats, even supposing
there were time, and I preferred going down comfortably in my
cot. Finding she was of no use to me, she took a yelling
maid in custody, and was thought a brute for begging her to hold
her noise. The first lieutenant, who looks on passengers as
odious cargo, has utterly mollified to me since this
adventure. I heard him report to the captain that I was
‘among ’em all, and never sung out, nor asked a
question the while’. This he called
‘beautiful’.
Next day we got light wind S.W. (which ought to be the S.E.
trades), and the weather has been, beyond all description, lovely
ever since. Cool, but soft, sunny and bright—in
short, perfect; only the sky is so pale. Last night the
sunset was a vision of loveliness, a sort of Pompadour paradise;
the sky seemed full of rose-crowned amorini, and the moon
wore a rose-coloured veil of bright pink cloud, all so light, so
airy, so brilliant, and so fleeting, that it was a kind of
intoxication. It is far less grand than northern colour,
but so lovely, so shiny. Then the flying fish skimmed like
silver swallows over the blue water. Such a sight!
Also, I saw a whale spout like a very tiny garden fountain.
The Southern Cross is a delusion, and the tropical moon no better
than a Parisian one, at present. We are now in lat. 31°
about, and have been driven halfway to Rio by this sweet southern
breeze. I have never yet sat on deck without a cloth jacket
or shawl, and the evenings are chilly. I no longer believe
in tropical heat at sea. Even during the calm it was not so
hot as I have often felt it in England—and that, under a
vertical sun. The ship that nearly ran us and herself down,
must have kept no look-out, and refused to answer our hail.
She is supposed to be from Glasgow by her looks. We may
speak a ship and send letters on board; so excuse scrawl and
confusion, it is so difficult to write at all.
30th August.—About 25° S. lat. and
very much to the west. We have had all sorts of
weather—some beautiful, some very rough, but always
contrary winds—and got within 200 miles of the coast of
South America. We now have a milder breeze from the
soft N.E., after a bitter S.W., with Cape pigeons
and mollymawks (a small albatross), not to compare with our
gulls. We had private theatricals last night—ill
acted, but beautifully got up as far as the sailors were
concerned. I did not act, as I did not feel well enough,
but I put a bit for Neptune into the Prologue and made the
boatswain’s mate speak it, to make up for the absence of
any shaving at the Line, which the captain prohibited altogether;
I thought it hard the men should not get their
‘tips’. The boatswain’s mate dressed and
spoke it admirably; and the old carpenter sang a famous comic
song, dressed to perfection as a ploughboy.
I am disappointed in the tropics as to warmth. Our
thermometer stood at 82° one day only, under the vertical
sun, N. of the Line; on the Line at 74°; and at sea it
feels 10° colder than it is. I have never been
hot, except for two days 4° N. of the Line, and now it is
very cold, but it is very invigorating. All day long it
looks and feels like early morning; the sky is pale blue, with
light broken clouds; the sea an inconceivably pure opaque
blue—lapis lazuli, but far brighter. I saw a lovely
dolphin three days ago; his body five feet long (some said more)
is of a fiery blue-green, and his huge tail golden
bronze. I was glad he scorned the bait and escaped the
hook; he was so beautiful. This is the sea from which Venus
rose in her youthful glory. All is young, fresh, serene,
beautiful, and cheerful.
We have not seen a sail for weeks. But the life at sea
makes amends for anything, to my mind. I am never tired of
the calms, and I enjoy a stiff gale like a Mother Carey’s
chicken, so long as I can be on deck or in the captain’s
cabin. Between decks it is very close and suffocating in
rough weather, as all is shut up. We shall be still three
weeks before we reach the Cape; and now the sun sets with a
sudden plunge before six, and the evenings are growing too cold
again for me to go on deck after dinner. As long as I
could, I spent fourteen hours out of the twenty-four in my quiet
corner by the wheel, basking in the tropical sun. Never
again will I believe in the tales of a burning sun; the vertical
sun just kept me warm—no more. In two days we shall
be bitterly cold again.
Immediately after writing the above it began to blow a gale
(favourable, indeed, but more furious than the captain had ever
known in these seas),—about lat. 34° S. and long.
25°. For three days we ran under close-reefed (four
reefs) topsails, before a sea. The gale in the Bay of
Biscay was a little shaking up in a puddle (a dirty one) compared
to that glorious South Atlantic in all its majestic fury.
The intense blue waves, crowned with fantastic crests of bright
emeralds and with the spray blowing about like wild dishevelled
hair, came after us to swallow us up at a mouthful, but took us
up on their backs, and hurried us along as if our ship were a
cork. Then the gale slackened, and we had a dead calm,
during which the waves banged us about frightfully, and our masts
were in much jeopardy. Then a foul wind, S.E., increased
into a gale, lasting five days, during which orders were given in
dumb show, as no one’s voice could be heard; through it we
fought and laboured and dipped under water, and I only had my dry
corner by the wheel, where the kind pleasant little third officer
lashed me tight. It was far more formidable than the first
gale, but less beautiful; and we made so much lee-way that we
lost ten days, and only arrived here yesterday. I recommend
a fortnight’s heavy gale in the South Atlantic as a cure
for a blasé state of mind. It cannot be
described; the sound, the sense of being hurled along without the
smallest regard to ‘this side uppermost’; the beauty
of the whole scene, and the occasional crack and bear-away of
sails and spars; the officer trying to ‘sing out’,
quite in vain, and the boatswain’s whistle scarcely
audible. I remained near the wheel every day for as long as
I could bear it, and was enchanted.
Then the mortal perils of eating, drinking, moving, sitting,
lying; standing can’t be done, even by the sailors, without
holding on. The night of the gale, my cot twice
touched the beams of the ship above me. I asked the captain
if I had dreamt it, but he said it was quite possible; he had
never seen a ship so completely on her beam ends come up all
right, masts and yards all sound.
There is a middy about half M—’s size, a very tiny
ten-year-older, who has been my delight; he is so completely
‘the officer and the gentleman’. My maternal
entrails turned like old Alvarez, when that baby lay out on the
very end of the cross-jack yard to reef, in the gale; it was
quite voluntary, and the other newcomers all declined. I
always called him ‘Mr. —, sir’, and asked his
leave gravely, or, on occasions, his protection and assistance;
and his little dignity was lovely. He is polite to the
ladies, and slightly distant to the passenger-boys, bigger than
himself, whom he orders off dangerous places; ‘Children,
come out of that; you’ll be overboard.’
A few days before landing I caught a bad cold, and kept my
bed. I caught this cold by ‘sleeping with a damp man
in my cabin’, as some one said. During the last gale,
the cabin opposite mine was utterly swamped, and I found the
Irish soldier-servant of a little officer of eighteen in despair;
the poor lad had got ague, and eight inches of water in his bed,
and two feet in the cabin. I looked in and said, ‘He
can’t stay there—carry him into my cabin, and lay him
in the bunk’; which he did, with tears running down his
honest old face. So we got the boy into S—’s
bed, and cured his fever and ague, caught under canvas in Romney
Marsh. Meantime S— had to sleep in a chair and to
undress in the boy’s wet cabin. As a token of
gratitude, he sent me a poodle pup, born on board, very
handsome. The artillery officers were generally
well-behaved; the men, deserters and ruffians, sent out as
drivers. We have had five courts-martial and two floggings
in eight weeks, among seventy men. They were pampered with
food and porter, and would not pull a rope, or get up at six to
air their quarters. The sailors are an excellent set of
men. When we parted, the first lieutenant said to me,
‘Weel, ye’ve a wonderful idee of discipline for a
leddy, I will say. You’ve never been reported but
once, and that was on sick leave, for your light, and all in
order.’
Cape Town, Sept. 18.
We anchored yesterday morning, and Captain J—, the Port
Captain, came off with a most kind letter from Sir Baldwin
Walker, his gig, and a boat and crew for S— and the
baggage. So I was whipped over the ship’s side in a
chair, and have come to a boarding house where the J—s
live. I was tired and dizzy and landsick, and lay down and
went to sleep. After an hour or so I woke, hearing a little
gazouillement, like that of chimney swallows. On
opening my eyes I beheld four demons, ‘sons of the obedient
Jinn’, each bearing an article of furniture, and holding
converse over me in the language of Nephelecoecygia. Why
has no one ever mentioned the curious little soft voices of these
coolies?—you can’t hear them with the naked ear,
three feet off. The most hideous demon (whose complexion
had not only the colour, but the precise metallic lustre of an
ill black-leaded stove) at last chirruped a wish for orders,
which I gave. I asked the pert, active, cockney housemaid
what I ought to pay them, as, being a stranger, they might
overcharge me. Her scorn was sublime, ‘Them nasty
blacks never asks more than their regular charge.’ So
I asked the black-lead demon, who demanded ‘two shilling
each horse in waggon’, and a dollar each ‘coolie
man’. He then glided with fiendish noiselessness
about the room, arranged the furniture to his own taste, and
finally said, ‘Poor missus sick’; then more
chirruping among themselves, and finally a fearful gesture of
incantation, accompanied by ‘God bless poor missus.
Soon well now’. The wrath of the cockney housemaid
became majestic: ‘There, ma’am; you see how saucy
they have grown—a nasty black heathen Mohamedan a blessing
of a white Christian!’
These men are the Auvergnats of Africa. I was assured
that bankers entrust them with large sums in gold, which they
carry some hundred and twenty miles, by unknown tracks, for a
small gratuity. The pretty, graceful Malays are no honester
than ourselves, but are excellent workmen.
To-morrow, my linen will go to a ravine in the giant mountain
at my back, and there be scoured in a clear spring by brown
women, bleached on the mountain top, and carried back all those
long miles on their heads, as it went up.
My landlady is Dutch; the waiter is an Africander, half Dutch,
half Malay, very handsome, and exactly like a French gentleman,
and as civil.
Enter ‘Africander’ lad with a nosegay; only one
flower that I know—heliotrope. The vegetation is
lovely; the freshness of spring and the richness of summer.
The leaves on the trees are in all the beauty of spring.
Mrs. R— brought me a plate of oranges, ‘just
gathered’, as soon as I entered the house—and, oh!
how good they were! better even than the Maltese. They are
going out, and dear now—two a penny, very large and
delicious. I am wild to get out and see the glorious
scenery and the hideous people. To-day the wind has been a
cold south-wester, and I have not been out. My windows look
N. and E. so I get all the sun and warmth. The beauty of
Table Bay is astounding. Fancy the Undercliff in the Isle
of Wight magnified a hundred-fold, with clouds floating halfway
up the mountain. The Hottentot mountains in the distance
have a fantastic jagged outline, which hardly looks real.
The town is like those in the south of Europe; flat roofs, and
all unfinished; roads are simply non-existent. At the doors
sat brown women with black hair that shone like metal, very
handsome; they are Malays, and their men wear conical hats a-top
of turbans, and are the chief artisans. At the end of the
pier sat a Mozambique woman in white drapery and the most
majestic attitude, like a Roman matron; her features large and
strong and harsh, but fine; and her skin blacker than night.
I have got a couple of Cape pigeons (the storm-bird of the
South Atlantic) for J—’s hat. They followed us
several thousand miles, and were hooked for their pains.
The albatrosses did not come within hail.
The little Maltese goat gave a pint of milk night and morning,
and was a great comfort to the cow. She did not like the
land or the grass at first, and is to be thrown out of milk
now. She is much admired and petted by the young
Africander. My room is at least eighteen feet high, and
contains exactly a bedstead, one straw mattrass, one rickety
table, one wash-table, two chairs, and broken looking-glass; no
carpet, and a hiatus of three inches between the floor and the
door, but all very clean; and excellent food. I have not
made a bargain yet, but I dare say I shall stay here.
Friday.—I have just received your letter; where
it has been hiding, I can’t conceive. To-day is cold
and foggy, like a baddish day in June with you; no colder, if so
cold. Still, I did not venture out, the fog rolls so
heavily over the mountain. Well, I must send off this yarn,
which is as interminable as the ‘sinnet’ and
‘foxes’ which I twisted with the mids.