“Dear Leon: Think no more of my letter of yesterday;
it must have crossed yours, which I have just
received. Vexation, and a fit of petty jealousy, made
me write a great deal of nonsense, and I am ashamed of
having covered my paper with so many dreadful words,
mixed up with such childish prevarications; but no—I
am not ashamed; I can only laugh at myself and my
style, and ask you to forgive me. If I had only had a
little patience and waited for your explanations—but
that again is nonsense.—Jealousy and Patience!
Who ever saw the two things combined in one person?
You see there is no end to my absurdities; this proves
that after having been a fool, though only for a day,
a woman cannot recover her natural balance of mind
all at once.
“But now I am recovering mine. An end to recrimination;
I am firmly resolved never again to be irritable
and suspicious and inquisitive—as you say I am.
Your explanations really and entirely satisfy me; their
frankness and fulness impress me strongly—I hardly
know why—and leave no room in my mind for doubt,
but fill my soul with a conviction—how can I express
it? that is in itself a sort of affection, that is its twin
brother and as inseparable from it as—as—I cannot
finish my sentence; but what does it matter?—To
proceed; I was saying that I fully accept your explanation.
A denial would have increased my suspicions;
your confession has removed them. You tell
me that you did love—no, that is not the word, that
you had a fancy, a mere fancy, as a boy—as children
together—for Pepa de Fúcar; that you have known
her since she was little, and that you played together—I
remember you used to tell me something about it in
Madrid, when we first made your acquaintance. It
was she, no doubt, who used to go with you to pick up
the blossoms fallen from the orange-trees—who was
frightened at the rustling made by the silk-worms when
they were feeding, and for whom you used to make
crowns of Marvel of Peru? Yes, you told me many
funny stories of your companion as a child. You and
she used to dye your cheeks with blackberries, and
make paper crowns to wear; you loved to take birds’
nests, and her greatest delight was to pull off her shoes
and stockings and paddle in the streams among the
rushes and water-plants. One day, almost at the same
instant, you fell from a tree and she was bitten by some
reptile. That was Pepa de Fúcar, was it not? You
see I remember very well, and could write your history
quite accurately.
“The truth is that I really did not pay much attention
to those baby stories; but when I saw the girl,
and when they said you were in love with her.—It is
ten days ago and I still feel as if I were being suffocated—as
I did when I first heard it. Believe me; I
felt as if the world were coming to an end, as if time
were standing still—I cannot express the feeling—or
had turned backward and revealed some horrible spot,
some unknown desert where—another unfinished sentence!
To proceed.
“I remember now some more stories of your childish
amusements, which you told me not long ago. How
such trifles cling to our memories! When you were a
boy, and were studying that science of stones of which
I can never see the use; when she—for I think that
again it was Pepa de Fúcar—had left off putting her
feet in the water and staining your cheeks with blackberry
juice or decking herself with your paper crowns,
that you played at being lovers with less innocence than
before, but still—come, I will allow thus much—still
with perfect innocence. She was at some school where
there were a great number of lilac shrubs, and a porter
who undertook to receive and deliver notes. Are you
not astonished at my good memory? I even remember
that porter’s name; it was Escoiquiz.
“Well—enough of ancient history. What you
have just told me, what I did not know till I just now
read your letter (and I repeat that I was not particularly
pleased to hear it) was that two years ago you met
again where the orange-trees blow and the silk-worms
feed and the water flows in the brooks; that you
suffered a slight illusion, so to speak, and at that time
began to feel a sincere affection for her, which grew and
grew until—and here I come to the story—until you
knew me.—Thank you Sir, and I make you a pretty
curtsy, for the string of compliments, polite hints,
protestations, and loving words which here follow.
This shower of praises fills a whole page. Such
pages as these come before us like a face we love,
and this one made me cry with joy. Thanks again,
a thousand thanks. It is all charming, and what you
say of me is much too kind and good. You are worth
a hundred of me.—You live for me? Oh Leon! How
can I do better than believe all these romantic
speeches? My heart opens wide to accept them all. I
am a good catholic and have been brought up to be a
true believer.
“Yes, I will be so foolish—I have read that
blessed page once more. Oh! it is good to be told
that ‘a true, deep, and lofty devotion has blotted out
that fancy and left no trace of it’—very good! ‘the
illusions of childhood rarely last into mature years’ of
course; ‘Your sentiments are sincere, and your intentions
thoroughly honest’—yes no doubt; ‘The voice I
heard, the words that made me feel as if the world had
come to an end, were simply one of those wild suppositions
thrown out at random, to be taken up by malice
and used by her as terrible weapons’—so it is, so it is;
‘Pepa de Fúcar is as indifferent to you at this moment
as any other woman living’—that is perfect, exquisite!
and finally ‘I and I alone’—me and no one else.—What
joy to press my hand closely to my heart while I
think to myself—me, me alone, and no one in the
world but me!
“A potent argument in your favour has just occurred
to me; Pepa de Fúcar is immensely rich and I
am almost poor. However, when one has faith no arguments
are needed, and I have faith in you. Every
one who knows you, says you are a model of uprightness
and noble generosity—a rare thing in these days.
I am as proud as I am flattered. How good God has
been to me in bestowing on me a gift which, by all accounts,
is so seldom found in this world!
“I cannot avoid telling you—though this letter
already seems interminable—the impression that girl
produced on me, even setting aside the rancour I could
not help feeling at first. But now the storm is over; I
can judge her coolly and impartially, and though, when
I heard what you know, I thought she must be perfectly
charming, I see her now in her true light. Every one
talks of her shameful extravagance. It is an insult to
Heaven and humanity! Papa says she spends enough
in clothes in a week to support several families comfortably.
She is elegant, no doubt; but sometimes
very affected—as much as to say: ‘Gentlemen, I
behave in this way that you may all see how rich I am.’
Mamma says, no man would ever think of marrying a
girl who thinks of nothing but displaying the products
of industry. Rothschilds are not to be met with at
every turn, and Pepa de Fúcar is enough to frighten
away her suitors. She is recklessly extravagant and
wilful, full of whims, and very badly brought up, and
will end by falling into the hands of some fortune-hunter.
So Mamma says, and she knows the world;
and I really believe she is right.
“I do not think her so pleasing even as some people
do, nor as I thought her myself, when I was dying of
jealousy. She is too tall and thin to be graceful. It is
impossible to deny that she has a fine complexion, but
one needs a microscope to see her eyes, they are so
small. They say she is very amusing and agreeable,
but this I know nothing about, as I never talked to her,
and never wish to. I have seen her from a distance,
on the sands and in the gallery of the bathing house,
and her manners struck me as decidedly free and easy.
I fancied she looked rather particularly at me; and I
looked at her, intending to convey to her that I did not
care a straw about her. I do not know whether I succeeded.
“She was here three days and I would not go out;
I never cried more in my life. At last she went away;
but the joy I felt in her absence is somewhat clouded
by the knowledge that you and she are in the same
place. All day yesterday I was wishing that there were
some very, very high tower here, from which I could
see what is going on at Iturburua. I would be at the
top with one jump. But indeed I trust your loyalty—and
if you will tell her that you love no one but me, if
she has any affection for you still, and is furious when
she hears it—yes, furious—do let me know; I long
to have that satisfaction.
“We expect you on Monday. Papa says that if
you do not come, you are not a man of your word.
He is very anxious to see you to discuss some question
of politics, for, by his account, there is a perfect plague
of politicians here who utterly disgust him. If they
would but make him a Senator!—and to tell you
the truth, I almost fear for his reason if he does not
attain to that bench of the blessed. He still suffers
from a mania of writing letters to the papers. We
have had some these last few days, and some articles
as well. Mamma, of course, knows them, and they invariably
begin with: “It is greatly to be regretted....”
“He came in to-day quite proud to show me your
new book. He praised it highly and read the opening
sentences aloud to Mamma. It was a most laughable
scene; neither he, nor Mamma, nor I understood a
single word of it; but, in spite of that, we had the
highest opinion of the learning displayed in the book.
You may fancy how much we should understand of an
‘Analysis of the Plutonic rocks in the Columbrete
islands,’ and the interest I should take in quartinary
deposits or in metamorphic or azoic strata. Why, I
find it hard enough to spell the words, and have to
copy them letter for letter. However, the mere fact
that it was you who wrote this mass of mysterious
learning, is enough to give it a charm in my eyes. I
spent a long time poring over your pages, as though I
were trying to learn Greek, and—you will not believe
me, but it is quite true—I read and read, full of admiration
and respect for you who had written them.
Among all those monstrous names too I came on some
which took my fancy in a vague fashion, such as syenite,
variolite, amphibolite. They sound to me like the
endearing names of fairies and cherubs who danced
round you while you were studying the works of God
down in the bowels of the earth.
“You see I have become poetical without intending
it, a thing which is past endurance I admit, and yet this
villainous letter will not get itself finished! But Mamma
is calling me to go out with her; she is dreadfully
bored here. She says it is the most detestable of bathing
places, and that she would rather stay in Madrid
than ever come here again. There is no casino, no
society, no excursions to make, no shops with pretty
things, no company worth looking at—in fact there is
no second Biarritz in the world.
“Leopoldo, too, is bored to death. He says it is
a population of savages, and he cannot understand how
any decent person can like to bathe among the Caffirs—so
he calls the poor Castilians who swarm on the
sands. Gustavo is gone to France, to visit that good
angelic creature Luis Gonzaga, who is very ailing.
Poor little brother! A few days since he sent an Italian
priest to call on us, Don Paoletti by name, a charming
man who talked delightfully. But I want to tell you
everything and really cannot. My paper is coming to
an end, and Mamma is calling me again. Good-bye,
good-bye, good-bye. Do not fail us on Monday, and
we will talk of that—you know what. At night, when
I say my prayers, I pray for you. Now do not put on
that disagreeable face. There is a dark corner in your
soul which I do not at all like. Well, I will say no
more for fear of assuming the airs of a preacher, and
for fear too of anticipating a great work—that sentence
too may remain unfinished. Give my love to Syenite,
Pegmatite and Amphibolite, the only fair beings of
whom I am not jealous, and good-bye. I love you with
all my heart; nay I am simpleton enough to believe all
you tell me, and I expect you on Monday. So till
Monday, farewell. Beware of failing me. If you do,
you will see what you will see!
María.”
CHAPTER II.
LIFE AT A WATERING PLACE.
The
young man who was reading this letter was
walking while he read, up and down an avenue of
tall trees. At one end there was a low building with a
pretentious Greco-Roman façade, from which a
sulphurous smelling vapour came out in tepid gusts,
and at the other, one of those phalansteries in which
Spaniards congregate during the summer carrying with
them into the country all the restrictions, inconveniences,
and unhealthy accessories of a town life. Rough slopes,
covered with grass and mosses, came down close behind
the bath house, as if trying to push it into the
stream below; and the torrent itself, striving to make
up for its smallness by the noise it made—like some
human beings who are Manzanares[A] in size and
Niagaras in noisiness—rushed tumultuously past the
foundation-wall, swearing and muttering obstreperously
that it would carry away the hotel, the promenade and
the drinking-bar; the doctor, the inn-keeper and the
visitors.
[A]
The river on which Madrid stands, which in Summer is almost dried up.
The visitors were limping and coughing in the
avenue, or sitting in various groups on the banks of
turf under the trees. Whole monographs on every
imaginable complaint were being delivered by the sufferers;
elaborate calculations as to digestion, past or to
come; grotesque diagnosis; narratives of sleepless
nights, of spasms, headaches and hiccoughs; inventories
of palpitations; dissertations on the irritability of
the sympathetic nerve; mysterious hypotheses as to the
nervous system, as impenetrably obscure as the arcana
of Isis; observations formulated into aphorisms by optimist
speculators; forebodings of the apprehensive
who thought each cough was a step towards the grave;
hopes from the credulous who believed the waters
might work miracles and bring the dead to life again;
suppressed sighs of these who were in pain; soliloquies
of those who were past curing, and glad laughter of
the convalescents.
No one who has not lived for some few days in the
midst of such a panting and wheezing community—with
its sick folks who look quite well and its healthy
folks who fancy themselves ill; and men who are dying
visibly by inches, eaten up by the diseases of vice—can
form an idea of the dulness and monotony of this
hotel life, which society has rushed into with such extraordinary
unanimity since the invention and extension
of railways, and which scarcely ever affords any of the
pleasures or peaceful rest of the real country.
Nevertheless there is a certain charm to be found in
this invalid community. The constant change of drama;
the beautiful faces which arrive every day followed by
more satellites than a planet; the luxury, the evening
meetings; the delicate ambrosia of gossip, served up
constantly fresh and spicy, never satiating and never
exhausted in spite of the incessant demand; the flirtations
begun or revived; the moral friction, sometimes
against the grain but sometimes delightfully soothing;
the thousand floating ends, as it were, that get tied or
sundered; the little dances; the parties to see this or
that grotto or panorama, or heap of ruins, which every
one has seen a year ago but which must be once more
admired in chorus; the harmless or very venial gambling;
the jokes, the plots, the small intrigues, with which
some members of this little world are so bold as to disturb
the monotony of the common contentment, the
common amusement, the common hygiene—for this
sort of society is eminently a Commonwealth, and its
gaiety and splendour hide a regimen as dreary as that
of a hospital—all these accessories make such colonies
highly attractive, to a certain class of mind at any rate,
and, as it would seem, the commonest. For this reason
the whole Spanish nation resort to such spots, some
with their own money to spend, and some with that of
others; and at the beginning of July, the ‘Governor’
or the money-lender is put under requisition to supply
the funds necessary to the attainment of this great desideratum
of modern life. It would seem that there is
a certain form of dipsomania, a craving to drink of sulphurous
waters; and, to slake that elegant thirst, a man
is willing to become a sort of hydropathic Anacreon.
The young man who was reading the letter was
dressed in deep mourning; having read and folded the
three sheets, he was about to continue his walk, but was
hindered by the approach and greetings of some of his
fellow-visitors. It was now the hour when most of the
patients came out to the spring to drink their quantum,
and take a walk. Disconsolate and pinched were many
of the faces, some old and yellow, others young and
hectic, with forced smiles, clouded by a drawn look of
suffering; and nothing was to be heard by way of conversation
but an incessant flow of questions and answers
as to every phase of illness, and manner of being ill.
But pathological small talk is altogether intolerable,
and so the young man with the letter seemed to think,
being himself on very good terms with Esculapius; for
he turned off as if to leave the grounds. He was
detained, however, by a party of three persons, two of
whom were men of middle age and important appearance;
nay, not without a certain dignity.
“Good-morning Leon,” said the youngest of the
trio in a tone of confidential intimacy. “I saw you just
now from my window, reading the usual three sheets.”
“What! friend Roch, up as early as ever,” cried the
eldest who was also the least good-looking.
“Leon, my good fellow, choicest of souls—won’t
you walk with us this morning?” said the tallest, a consequential
personage, who was walking, as usual,
between the other two, so that they looked as if they
occupied their place on each side of him for purely
ornamental purposes, and to throw his personal and
social dignity into the strongest relief. The young
man in mourning excused himself as best he might.
“I will return within an hour,” he said walking
briskly away. “Au revoir.”
The other three went on along the promenade, and
it will be proper here to give some account of this illustrious
trio which formed, as the reader must understand,
a constellation such as may be seen in Spain at any
hour, in spite of the frequent cloudiness of our climate.
The reader, like the writer, will of course say at once:
We know them—let them pass and disappear. But
then, they never disappear. This constellation never
sets, is never dimmed by the radiance of the sun, never
hidden behind a cloud, never in eclipse. It is always
in the ascendant. Alas! yes, it never fails to shine
with terrible splendour, and at the zenith of social life
in Spain.
Who does not know the Marquis de Fúcar? Flattery
speaks of him as an Oasis of Wealth in the midst
of the desert of universal poverty; he holds the first
place among the stars of the Spanish capital, and is the
very Alpha of the society he moves in.
Who, again, does not know Don Joaquín Onésimo,
that beacon light of Spanish bureaucracy, which burns
so brightly wherever it shows itself, the central glory of
the myriad Onésimos who, under different pretexts, fill
various offices of the State? “Not a family, but an
epidemic,” was said of the Onésimos. But there is no
doubt whatever—Heaven knows—that if this luminary
were to be extinguished, all the precincts of the administration
would remain in darkness, and all social
order, social institutions—nay, society itself, would
revert to primæval chaos. The third side of this triangle
was formed by a polished and well-dressed man, in
whose pallid and languid features all the freshness and
energy of his two and thirty years seemed prematurely
quenched. His manners were insolent, and his whole
aspect gave that impression of exhaustion and fatigue
which is common enough in those who have wasted
their moral strength in politics, their intellect in party
journalism, and their physical vigour in vice. The type
is peculiar to Spain, and to Madrid—nocturnal in its
habits, perfervid, lean; the very incarnation of that
national fever which betrays its burning and devouring
heat in night work over newspapers, in gambling-houses
where the lamps are put out only when the sun
rises, in twilight rendezvous, and in mysterious meetings
in the corridors of theatres, in the corners of cafés
and in Minister’s offices. Such a specimen looks
strangely out of place in this pure clear atmosphere,
under these gigantic trees. It might almost be supposed
that he would feel uncomfortable at such a distance
from the dens of corruption and wickedness, that
there could be no corner in his heart for the glories and
graces of Nature, nor a perception of its beauties in his
dulled eyes, with their red and swollen lids, heavy and
bleared with late hours.
Federico Cimarra—the young man in question—Don
Joaquín Onésimo, who expected ere long to rejoice
in the title of Marqués de Onésimo, and Don
Pedro Fúcar, Marqués de Casa-Fúcar, after having
paced the avenue two or three times, sat down.
CHAPTER III.
IN WHICH THE READER WILL ENJOY HEARING THE
PRAISES LAVISHED BY SPANIARDS ON THEIR
COUNTRY AND COUNTRY-MEN.
“It
is quite clear that Leon is going to be married
to the Marqués de Tellería’s daughter,” said Cimarra.
“She is no great catch, for the marquis is more out at
elbows than an actor during Lent.”
“He has nothing left but the house in the Calle
(street) de la Hortaleza,” added Fúcar indifferently.
“It is a good property—built at the same time as that
of the Marqués de Pontejos; but before long that will
go too. They say they are all a scatterbrained family,
from the marquis down to Polito.”
“But has Tellería really nothing left but his house?”
asked the man of politics with the anxious curiosity of
a creditor appraising an estate.
“Nothing whatever,” repeated Fúcar, with the certainty
of a man perfectly informed on the subject.
“The land at Piedrabuena was sold two months ago
by order of the commissioners. He gave up the houses
and factory at Nules to my brother-in-law as long ago
as last February, and he cannot have any money in the
funds. I know that in June he was borrowing money
at twenty per cent. on Heaven knows what security.
In short, he is a thing of the past.”
“And it was such a great house!” said Onésimo.
“I have heard my father say that in the last century
these Tellerías laid down the law to all Extremadura.
It was the second in point of wealth. For half a century
they took all the taxes and duties of Badajoz.”
Federico Cimarra planted himself in front of the
other two, his legs stretched out like a pair of compasses
and twirling his stick in the air.
“It is really incredible,” he said with a smile, “that
that poor fellow Leon should be about making such a
fool of himself. I am really very fond of him, he is a
great crony of mine; but who would venture to contradict
him? What is the good of trying to argue with
those wooden-headed creatures who call themselves
mathematicians? Did you ever know a single savant
who had a grain of common-sense?”
“Never, never,” cried the marquis, laughing loudly,
as he always did. “And is it true, as I hear, that the
girl is a perfect bigot? It will be a funny thing to see
a full-blown freethinker caught by a little chit with
Paternosters and Avemarias.”
“I do not know whether she is a bigot, but I know
that she is very pretty,” said Cimarra smacking his lips.
“She may be pardoned her sanctimoniousness on the
score of her good looks. But her character is not
formed yet—she is a mere child, and since she has
been in love she has forgotten her piety. The woman
who seems to me to be really on the high road to saintliness
is her mother, who cannot escape the law by
which a dissipated youth ends in a strictly pious old
age! How she has changed! I saw her last week at
Ugoibea, and she is a wreck, a perfect wreck! María,
on the contrary has grown to a goddess. Such a head,
such an air, and such style!”
“There you are right,” said Fúcar with a rather
satirical smile. “María Sudre is worth looking at. I
fancy the mathematician must have lost his bearings
and had his head turned by her bright eyes. I should
not like such a girl for a wife. Very handsome no
doubt, excitable, romantic, reticent—very different
from what she seems—in short I do not like her—I
do not like her.”
“Nonsense,” exclaimed the official slapping his
knee emphatically. “The idea of speaking ill of María
Sudre. I know her well, she is a miracle of goodness—much
the best of the family.”
“Bless me!” said the marquis with a roar of laughter.
“The family is the most perfect family of fools I
know; not excepting Gustavo whom they think such a
prodigy.”
“No, no; the girl is a good girl, a very good girl.”
Onésimo insisted. “I cannot say so much for Leon.
He is one of your new-fangled savants, a product of
the University, the
Atheneum
and the School of Mines,
and I have no confidence in them whatever. A great
deal of German science that the devil only can understand;
obscure theories and preposterous words; an affectation
of despising the whole Spanish nation as a
pack of ignoramuses; a great deal of pride, and above
all that infusion of scepticism which annoys me above
everything. I am not one of those who profess themselves
catholics while they admit theories that contradict
the faith—I am catholic, catholic!” And he
slapped his breast defiantly.
“My dear Sir, be as catholic as you please,” said
Fúcar, laughing less boisterously than usual, nay with a
certain solemnity. “We are all catholics.—But let us
avoid exaggeration. Exaggeration, Sir, is the bane of
the country. Let us put religious beliefs out of court,
not but that they are to be respected, deeply respected.
What I say is that Leon is a man of mark, a man of
very great merit. He is the best specimen the School
of Mines has turned out at all since it was founded.
His enormous talents find no difficulties in any branch
of study; he is as good a botanist as he is a geologist.
As I hear, he is familiar with all the latest discoveries
in Natural History, besides being a capital astronomer.”
“Oh yes!” exclaimed Cimarra, with the patronising
pomposity that ignorance assumes when it is driven to
do justice to learning. “Leon Roch is a first-rate fellow.
He is one of the few good men we have produced
in Spain. We are great friends; we were at
school together. In point of fact he did not distinguish
himself at school, but since then....”
“He does not suit me; I cannot get on with
him....” said Onésimo, with the accent of a man who
refuses to swallow a bitter pill.
“But my dear Onésimo,” said the marquis solemnly,
“there is no need of exaggeration. Exaggeration
is the bane of the country. Because we are catholics
we condemn every man who cultivates natural
science without doing penance for it as a sin; and
they go astray; I admit that they go a little
astray; or very far astray perhaps, from the ways of
Catholicism.—But, after all, what does that matter to
me. The world will go its way. The chief thing is not
to exaggerate. It seems to me that Leon’s chief fault—and
I have known him from childhood, for he and my
daughter played together as children, at Valencia—well
his chief fault is his readiness to sacrifice himself,
his youth, his wealth, and his prospects to a connection
with a reckless and ruined family, who will simply
devour him beyond all rescue.”
“Is he rich?”
“Oh! very rich,” said Fúcar emphatically. “I
knew his father at Valencia—poor Don Pepe, who
died three months ago after spending fifty years in toiling
like a negro. I used to deal with him when he had
a chocolate mill in the Calle de las Barcas. As a matter
of fact, Don Pepe’s chocolate was in high estimation
there. I remember at that time I used to see Leon, a
scrap of a boy, with a dirty face and ragged elbows
studying arithmetic in a corner behind the counter. At
Christmas, Don Pepe sold marchpane (cakes). Indeed
he dealt in such goods till about fifteen years ago, and
it is not thirty since he transferred his business to
Madrid. When he had accumulated some capital he
began to wish to increase it more rapidly. The amount
of money is incalculable that has been made in this
country by manufacturing chocolate out of canary-seed,
out of pine-kernels, out of red ochre, out of everything
rather than out of cocoa. We live in a land of bricks,[B]
and we not only build our houses of them, but we eat
them! Señor Pepe worked hard; at first with his own
hands, then with those of others; finally with a steam
engine. The result being (and the marquis pushed his
hat back to the roots of his hair) that he bought land by
the acre and sold it by the foot; that in ’54 he built a
house in Madrid, that he got the management of the
best lands belonging to the nation, and that by his
command of public funds he added considerably to his
fortune. In short, I should think Leon Roch must be
worth eight or nine millions.”
[B]Ladrillo: cakes of chocolate are also called ladrillos.
“But you have left the choicest bit of the biography
untold,” said Cimarra, seating himself by his friends.
“I mean the intense vanity of the deceased worthy.
In most cases these manufacturers who have enriched
themselves—though they are the bane of the whole
human race—are modest enough, and only care to end
their days in peace, living in humble discomfort, and in
the same narrow circumstances as they were used to,
when they were working for their daily bread. But
poor Don Pepe was quite the contrary, and his weak
point was to be called marquis.”
“Indeed,” said Fúcar gravely, with the air of a man
who felt it his duty to suppress such levity in the young.
“I can assure you Don José Roch was a good-natured
soul, kind and simple in all the relations of life; I knew
him well. He made chocolate of the flower-pots in his
wife’s balcony, or so said the spiteful gossips in the
neighbourhood; but he was a worthy old plodder for
all that, and so wrapped up in his boy that he thought
of nothing else. There was in his mind but one
creature in the world: his son Leon; he was insanely
devoted to him. He regarded every man as his enemy
who did not consider Leon the handsomest, the most
learned, the first and greatest of all men on earth. All
his pride and vanity were centred in being his son’s
father.—We met one evening last year at Aranceles.
I wanted to discuss a sale of cork with him—for he
had a large property in cork-woods—but he would
talk of nothing but his son. It was almost with tears in
his eyes that he said to me: ‘My friend Fúcar, I want
nothing for myself; six feet of earth and a stone at the
top will do for me. My one desire is that Leon should
have some title in this country.—It is the only thing I
wish for.’
“I began to laugh: A Spanish title! Is that all
you ask?—My dear Señor Don José, if you told me
you longed to be handsome or to be young again—but
to be a marquis! Coronets are given away now as
freely as orders, and before long it will be a matter of
pride not to have one. We are fast coming to a time
when if a diploma of rank is sent to us we shall be
ashamed to give a dollar to the porter who brings the
document. Well, you shall be a marquis....”
At these words Fúcar went into one of his fits of
laughing; it began with a shrill chuckle, and ended
with a general contortion of his features and a sort of
convulsive explosion, while he turned very red in the
face. Even when this violent hilarity was over it was
some time before he recovered his natural colour and
his normal aspect of dignified gravity.
“Gentlemen,” said the official, hitherto silent, but
not a little annoyed, perhaps, by a consciousness of his
own craving for the marquisate, “however lavishly
titles may have been distributed, I am not aware that
any have been bestowed on chocolate makers. We
are a long way....”
“Friend Onésimo,” said the marquis with cool
irony, “they are bestowed on all who like to take them.
And if Don Pepe never took the title of Marquis de
Casa-Roch it was only because his son positively refused
to be as ridiculous as the rest of the world. He
is a man of principle.”
“Oh, certainly!” exclaimed Onésimo, who was
always ready to support a time-honoured institution.
“But in general, these learned men who are constantly
manipulating principles in scientific matters lack them
utterly in social questions. There are plenty of instances
here; and I believe it is the same everywhere.
We have seen how they govern when the country is so
unfortunate as to fall into their hands, and they govern
their own homes in the same way. Learned men, take
my word for it, are as great a calamity in private as in
public life. I do not know one who is not a fool—a
perfect and utter fool.”
“You speak figuratively.”
“It is the simple truth.”
“We live in the land of Vice-versa.”
“No exaggeration, no exaggeration pray,” said the
marquis, in the tone of voice he always adopted for
his favourite protest. “We make a sad misuse of words
nowadays and apply them too recklessly. Envy on
one hand, Ignorance on the other—What is the
matter?”
The question was addressed with an expression of
alarm to a servant who was hurrying towards them.
“The Señorita has sent for you, Excellency. She is
very unwell again.”
“I must go, my daughter is in a terrible state to-day!”
said the marquis rising. “You will ask me what
is the matter with her and I can only say I do not
know; I have not the remotest idea. I will go and
see her.”
The two friends watched him depart in silence.
The marquis walked slowly, on account of his obesity,
and his gait reminded one of the stately motion of some
ancient ship or galleon freighted with the rich spoils of
the Indies. He seemed to be carrying on board, as it
were, all the weight of his immense fortune, collected
during twenty years of such unfailing prosperity that
the outer world could only look on and tremble and
wonder.
CHAPTER IV.
MORE CONVERSATION, GIVING US SOME IDEA OF THE SPANISH CHARACTER.
In
front of the grotto where the water-drinkers
swallowed glass after glass, eager to counteract the
oidium in their blood, there was a summer-house. It
was now ten o’clock, the hour when all the visitors
came out to the spring, and a party had gathered in
this pleasant spot, consisting of Don Joaquín Onésimo,
Leon Roch and Federico Cimarra, who was sitting
astride on his chair and making it creak and groan as
he seesawed.
“Do you know Leon what ails Fúcar’s daughter?”
“She left the drawing-room early last evening; she
must be ill.” And having thus spoken Leon sat looking
at the ground.
“But her complaint is a very strange one, as the
marquis says,” added Onésimo. “Consider the symptoms.
As you know, she collects china; last month,
on her way back from Paris, she spent two days at Arcachon,
and the Count de la Reole’s daughters gave
her three pieces of Palissy-ware. They are considered
handsome; to me they are no better than common
crockery. Besides these she brought from Paris eight
specimens of Dresden so fine and delicate you can
hardly feel their weight. Well, Pepa’s whole mind
seemed set on these precious works of art; she talked
of nothing but her china. She took them out to look
at, fifty times a day. And then—this morning she collected
all this rubbish, went up to the topmost room in
the hotel, opened the window and flung them into the
court-yard, where they broke in a thousand pieces.”
Federico looked at Leon who merely said: “Yes,
so I heard.”
“Yesterday evening,” Onésimo went on, “when we
were returning from the Grotto—where, by the way,
there is no more to be seen than in my bed-room—one
of the large pearls dropped out of her earring.
We hunted for it, and at last I found it close to a
stone. I stooped to pick it up, as was natural, but she
was quicker than I was; she set her foot on it and
crushed it, saying: ‘Of what use is it?’—Then, they
say, she tore up some costly laces. But did not
you see her last night in the drawing-room? I could
swear she is out of her mind.” Neither Leon nor Cimarra
made any reply.
“I can tell you one thing,” continued the intelligent
official, “the man who marries the damsel will have
hard work with her. What bringing up! my dear
fellow what training! Her father, who knows the
value of money uncommonly well himself, has never
taught her the difference between a bank-note and a
copper piece. She is a real treasure is the Señorita de
Fúcar! I had heard that she was capricious, extravagant
and had the most preposterous and outrageous
fancies you can imagine. Poor husband—and poor
father! If she were only pretty; but she is not even
that.—She will vex Don Pedro at last.—And no one
listens when I thunder and declaim against these
modern and foreign fashions which have spoiled all the
modesty of our Spanish women—all their christian
humility; their delightful ignorance, their love for a retired
and domestic life, their indifference to luxury,
their sobriety in dress, their neatness and economy.
Only look at the hussies that are the result of
modern civilisation. I quite understand the dread of
matrimony which is spreading among us and which, if
it is not checked, will compel the government to pass
a law for betrothals and a law for marriages and create
a president over bachelors.”
“But, bless me!” cried Cimarra, slapping Leon on
the shoulder. “Here is the man who can tell us all
about Pepa’s eccentricities, for he has known her ever
since they were both children.”
Leon answered coldly:
“Whether Pepa’s attacks or eccentricities consist in
breaking china or destroying her ornaments, it matters
little after all. Her father is rich enough—enormously
rich and richer every day.”
“On the subject,” said the phœnix of the bureaux,
“of the immense wealth of Fúcar, the most
characteristic thing ever said, was spoken by our friend
here, who is a man of epigrams.”
“I? I never said anything, not a word about Don
Pedro,” declared Federico with becoming modesty.
“Nay, nay, biting tongue! Was it not you who
said at Aldearrubia’s house—I heard it myself—apropos
of Fúcar’s vast fortune: ‘We must have a new
formula in political economy: National bankruptcy is
the fount of riches?’”
“But that might be said of so many men,” remarked
Leon.
“Of so very many,” Cimarra hastened to add. “If
Fúcar has amassed a fortune at the expense of the
public treasury—as they say he has?—then I say:
so far as the augmentation of his fortune in dealing
with public moneys is concerned, he is by no means the
only man to whom the remark as to National bankruptcy
applies.”
Onésimo winced; but recovering himself at once he
added:
“I have heard you render a merciless account of
the millions amassed by the marquis, my dear Cimarra.
But a wit is always allowed to find fault. You need
not prevaricate, though I know that at this time you
and your victim are excellent friends. Still, you
described him admirably when you said: ‘He is one
of those men who make money out of solids,
liquids and gases, or—which comes to the same thing—out
of paving-stones, wine for the troops, and gas
for lighting the streets.’ The tobacco he provides by
contract is a particular kind which has the property of
turning bitter in the mouth and the advantage of being
useful as timber; his rice and his beans are equally
unique, the beans are quite famous in
Ceuta;
the convicts
call them Apothecary Fúcar’s sprouting pills.”
“That is talking for talking’s sake,” replied Cimarra.
“In spite of all this I appreciate and esteem the marquis
highly; he is a most worthy man. And which of
us has not, at some time or other, trodden on a neighbour’s
corns?”
“I know quite well that this is all merely in joke.
In this country everything must be sacrificed to a witticism.
It is the way with us Spaniards. We flay a
man alive, and then give him our hand. I am criticising
no one in saying so—we are all alike.”
At this moment the marquis himself entered the
summer-house.
“And Pepa?” asked Leon.
“She is very happy now. She passes from sadness
to merriment with a rapidity that amazes me. She was
crying all the morning; she says she is thinking of her
mother, that she cannot get her mother out of her
mind—I do not understand her. Now she wants to
leave this place, at once, without waiting for me to take
the baths. I did not want to come—I detest the
horrible, inconvenient hotels in this country. As for
my daughter’s freaks and follies! No sooner were we
in France than she took it into her head to come to
Iturburua. I could not help myself—Iturburua, to
Iturburua Papa—What could I do? I am getting
accustomed to this vagabond life, but to tell the truth it
vexes me now just as much to go away as it did to
come—to go without having taken six baths even.
For I do not believe there are any waters to compare
with these in the world.—And then where are we to
go? I have not the remotest idea, for my daughter’s
vagaries make all reasonable plans impossible. I am
hardly allowed time enough to secure a saloon carriage;
Pepa is in as great a hurry to be off as she was to
come. I am to be ready at once, to-day, early to-morrow
at the latest—the mountains oppress her, the
hotel is crushing her, the very sky seems falling on her,
and she hates all the visitors, and it is killing her—suffocating
her....”
While Don Pedro was thus pouring out his paternal
troubles, his three friends sat silent; only Onésimo now
and again murmured a few commonplaces about nervous
irritation, the result, as he stated, of some strange
influences to which the fairer half of humanity are exposed.
The marquis took Cimarra’s arm saying:
“Come, my dear fellow, do me the favour of amusing
Pepa for a short time. At present she is very well
content, but she will be bored to the last degree in a
short time. You know she always laughs at your amusing
notions; she said to me just now: ‘If only Cimarra
would come and whisper a few spiteful things about the
neighbours....’ For we all know you have a special
gift that way. Come my dear fellow; she is alone.—Good-bye
gentlemen; I am carrying off this rascal, for
he is more wanted elsewhere than here.”
Don Joaquín and Leon Roch were left together.
“What do you think of Pepa?” asked Onésimo.
“That she has been very badly brought up.”
“Just so—very badly brought up.—And now I
think of it, tell me: Is it true that you are going to be
married?”
“Yes—my hour is come,” said Leon with a smile.
“To María Sudre?”
“To María Sudre.”
“A very sweet girl—and what a Christian education!
Honestly my good fellow, it is more than a heretic
like you deserves.” He tapped Leon kindly on the
shoulder and the men parted.
CHAPTER V.
ILLUSTRATING ANOTHER TRAIT OF SPANISH CHARACTER.
It
was getting late and the dancing was beginning to
flag. The last whirling couples were gradually disappearing,
as do the last circles of a pool into which a
stone has been dropped die away on the margin; the
conventional embrace which does not offend even the
most coy was finally relaxed, and at length the murderous
pianist, whose ear-splitting music inspired the
dancers, consented to retire. A fair visitor however
took his place and endeavoured to prolong the entertainment
by wringing a doleful Notturno from the
chords of the instrument—the most dreary and dismal
form of second-rate music ever devised. This parade
of lamentation however was happily short, for the
mothers were out of patience and the gay groups of
girls began to move away across the polished floor.
The legs of the chairs creaked and clattered on the
boards; with the babble of young voices mingled a
hollow chorus of coughing, and the fair bevy threaded
their way through the door where their exit was
impeded by a knot of the elderly men—the orators,
lawyers and politicians who were the glory and lustre of
the company at the hotel.
In the next room the clink of the counters as they
changed hands at the card-tables made a noise like that
of false teeth gnashing and chattering. The coughing
and throat clearing increased as the older people followed
the young ones out of the dancing room, and
the little tumult of youthful chatter mingled with the
sad sighing undertone of premature decrepitude which
seems to afflict the flower of the younger generation
spread along the wide corridor, mounted the stairs, and
died away by degrees in the different rooms of the
many-celled phalanstery. An ingenious fancy might
have likened it to a vast organ in which, after every
sound had been roused to symphony, each note, deep
or shrill, sank back into its own pipe again.
In the card-room sat the Marqués de Fúcar, reading
the newspapers. His invariable attitude when engaged
in this patriotic exercise was one of perfect
rigidity; he held the paper almost at arm’s-length, while
a pair of glasses assisted his sight, riding on the tip of
his nose and pinching his nostrils. If he wanted to
look at anything but his paper, he did it over the top of
the glasses or with a furtive glance on each side. He
was very apt to laugh aloud whilst reading, for
he was keenly alive to a joke—more particularly
when the point of it—as is not uncommon in a
newspaper—was not only palpable but envenomed.
Two other gentlemen were also reading, and four or
five were engaged in conversation, lolling at their ease
on the lounges. Federico Cimarra, after walking up
and down two or three times outside, with his hands in
his pockets, came into the card-room at the moment
when the marquis laid down his last newspaper, and
taking his pince-nez off his nose, closed them up and
stowed them away carefully in his waistcoat pocket.
“What a country this is!” exclaimed the great merchant,
his face still beaming with a smile at the last
epigram he had read. “Do you know, Cimarra, what
strikes me? Every one here speaks ill of political men,
of the ministers, of the employés, of Madrid—but I
begin to think that Madrid and the ministers and all the
ruck of politicians—as they call them, are the pick of
the nation. The representatives are bad enough, but
the electors are worse.”
“Then everything is bad together,” said Federico,
with the cold philosophy which is the sarcasm of a worn-out
heart and an atrophied intellect, united to dwell in
a sickly frame. “Equally bad—and nothing to choose
from.”
“And at the bottom of all the mischief is laziness.”
“Laziness! That is as much as to say the national
idiosyncracy—the very Spirit of Spain. Yes I say:
Laziness, thy name is Spain. We have a great deal of
smartness—so I hear; I do not perceive it anywhere.
We are all alike; we hide I believe....”
“Oh! if only we had a government that would give
a spur to industry and labour....”
Cimarra put on a very grave face; it was his way of
making fun of his neighbours.
“Labour!—Why we scarcely know how to weave
homespun cloth; hemp-shoes are fast disappearing;
our home-made water-jars are growing quite scarce and
even our brooms are brought from England.—Still, we
can fall back upon Agriculture; that is the favourite
theory with all these fools. There is not an idiot in the
country who will not talk to you of agriculture. I
should like them to tell me what agriculture you can
have without irrigation, how you can have irrigation
without rivers, or rivers without forests, or forests without
men to plant them and look after them—and how
are you going to get men when there are no crops? It
is a vicious circle from which there is no issue—no
escape! My dear Marquis, it is a matter of race I tell
you.—It is one of the few things which are of the
nature of primary truth: the fatality of inheritance.
We have nothing to rely upon but communism supported
by the Lottery—that is our future. The State
must take the national wealth into its own hands and
distribute it by means of raffles.
“What—you are astonished? But you will live to
see it, take my word for it. Why it is a splendid idea—and
as good a theory as any other. Ask your friend
Don Joaquín Onésimo, who is a beacon-light of knowledge
in such matters, and who, in my opinion, has one
of the best heads that ever thought in Spain.”
“Is he here?” said Fúcar laughing and looking
round. “He should come and hear your theory.”
“He is discussing social science with Don Francisco
Cucúrbitas, an equally great man according to the
Spanish standard. He is one of these men who are
always talking a great deal about administration and
management which simply means expedients. What
would this world become but for expedients! The
Almighty created these gentlemen for the express purpose
of preaching social Quietism; and they might do
worse. My scheme of communism and lotteries will
float, my dear Sir. The taxes will bring the money, the
lotteries will redistribute it.—By Jupiter! Do you
know my friend we might have a very snug little game
here.” And before Fúcar could answer Federico went
to the door to call the men who were still in the next
room; then returning to the marquis, he took a pack
of cards out of his pocket and spread them on the
table; they lay in a curve, overlapping each other, like
an angular serpent.
“Here too!” exclaimed Fúcar with some annoyance.
Cimarra went back to the drawing-room where the
lights were now being put out and presently four other
men came in at his request. Only Leon Roch remained
walking up and down the darkened room. After speaking
a few words to the waiter, Cimarra took the young
man’s arm and walked with him for a few minutes. The
words that passed between them were somewhat sharp;
however, Leon at length went up to his room from
which, in a few minutes he returned.
“Here—vampire!” he said contemptuously to his
friend, filling his hand with gold coin;—and then he
was alone again.
Looking into the card-room he could see the group
in the centre,—six men, some of whom bore names
not unknown to fame among their countrymen. One
or two, to be sure enjoyed not a very enviable reputation;
but there were others too who had gained credit
by their splendid speeches, amply spiced with high-sounding
words on social anarchy and the national vice
of indolence. Of them all the Marqués de Fúcar was
the only one who played for the sake of the game and
shuffled the cards with a frank smile and a jest at each
turn of fortune. Cimarra dealt—he had his hat on,
his brows were knit, his eyes sparkled keenly with an
expression at once alert and absorbed, a solemn look of
divination—or idiocy? His thin lips murmured inarticulate
syllables, which an uninitiated bystander might
have taken for some formula of invocation to call a
spirit up. It was the jargon of the professional gambler
who keeps up a running dialogue with the cards as
they slip through his hands, sometimes growling, sometimes
only breathing hard, as they alternately smile
upon him or mock him with impish grimaces.
The contest with Chance is one of the maddest and
fiercest battles in which the human mind ever engages.
Chance, which is neither more nor less than an incessant
and incalculable contradiction of facts, is never
tired out; we can never meet her face to face, and to
defy her is folly. She is as nimble and supple as a tiger,
she fells and clutches her prey, while her favours—if
by a whim she bestows them—light a flame in her
victim’s soul that consumes him from within. His brain
reels and he raves in dreams like those of the drunkard—for
a vague picture of the Gorgon with whom he is
contending takes possession of him and reduces him to
bestial madness. Fighting in the dark, desperately and
wildly, the gambler is the victim of a hideous incubus;
he finds himself started in an orbit of torturing unrest,
like a stone flung off into measureless space.
And at each deal the marquis would say:
“Gentlemen, it is getting late—it is time to go to
bed. It is good to have a little amusement—but we
must not have too much of a good thing. We must not
exaggerate.”
CHAPTER VI.
PEPA.
Leon Roch
having seen enough, left the house. A
calm mild night invited him to walk along the terrace
where there was not a living soul to be seen, and not a
sound to be heard but the croaking of the toads. After
pacing the avenue to the end and back for the second
time, he thought he discovered a figure at one of the
nearest ground-floor windows. It was in white, a
woman beyond a doubt, whose arm rested on the sill,
above which she was visible as a half-length. Leon
went towards her and perceiving that she did not move,
he went quite near. She might have been carved in
marble but for her black hair and a slight motion of her
hand among the leaves of a plant that grew near.
“Pepa?” he said.
“Yes, Pepa—I have turned romantic and am gazing
at the stars. To be sure, there is not a star to be
seen—but it is all the same.”
“It is a very dark night; I did not recognise you,”
said Leon, putting his hand on the top of the window
railing. “The damp air is not good for you. Why do
you not shut the window? It is of no use to wait for
your father. That rascally Cimarra has got him to
gamble and they are all quite happy—Go indoors.”
“It is so hot inside!”
The night was in fact pitch dark and Leon could
not see the girl’s face; but he could study the tone of
her voice, for the voice is singularly treacherous.
Pepa’s voice quavered. Her head, leaning on one
side, rested against the window-frame. In her hand
she held a flower with a long stem—Leon thought it
was a rose. She kept raising it to her lips and biting
off a petal which she blew off again. Leon noted the
situation and understood that it was the moment to say
something appropriate, but he racked his brain in vain;
he could think of nothing, and so he said nothing.
Both were silent; Leon quiet and motionless, both his
hands resting on the cold iron railing, Pepa pulling out
the rose petals and blowing them away.
“I hear strange stories of your whims and fancies,
Pepa,” he said at last, thinking that he might presently
say something to the point, if he began by saying something
foolish. “You break your china, you tear your
lace....”
“And what a specimen she is!” cried Pepa interrupting
him with a bitter laugh that made Leon shudder.
“The poor lady is never to be seen except in
church! You do not understand!—You seem to
have lost your wits. I am speaking of your future
mother-in-law, the marquesa de Tellería. When I was
stopping at Ugoibea I had a fancy to see her. They
told me all the nonsense she talked about me. The
usual thing—that I am badly brought up, that I am
wildly extravagant, that my manners are too free, and
my style of dress disgusting—yes, disgusting. But the
poor woman herself has been so very different ever
since she began to lose her beauty—Besides, you see,
she cannot live such a worldly life now that she has such
a saintly son—for of course you know that Luis Gonzaga,
your María’s twin brother who is at the college
of the Sacred Heart at Puyóo, is said to be a perfect
angel in a cassock? Why, my dear fellow, you are
going to live in the very courts of Heaven! Your
mother-in-law even wears a hair shirt. You do not believe
me? But I know it—her lovers say so....”
And Pepa blew away a rose petal which fell on Leon’s
forehead.
“Pepa,” he said with some annoyance, “I do not
like to hear any friend of mine speak in that way of a
respectable family....”
“But they may talk of me! They may call me
violent and crazy and I must not say a word. Of
course! Everything I do is ill-manners, wild behaviour,
ignorance, insolence....! Change the subject
then. I am very sorry never to have seen your
future Saint Mary face to face. They say she is very
elegant-looking—she always was. But she goes out
very little at Ugoibea; she and her fool of a mother
only walk out together to get fresh air. They say
they give themselves no end of airs;—however, you
are rich and the marquis—they say he is the only idiot
known who has failed to get a place in the government.”
“Pepa, Pepa, for pity’s sake do not talk so wildly;
you really hurt me deeply with your heedless speeches.”
Pepa pulled at the rose which was now much reduced.
“But you see I am badly brought up,” she retorted
bitterly. “And now people are discovering that I have
no heart, that I am spiteful, rebellious, and capricious....”
“That is not the truth; but you should not behave
so that people cannot believe it.”
“Much I care what people believe. Do I want
any thing they can give me?”
“You are too proud.”
“And they say I shall never find a man of any
sense to marry me!” she went on with the same angry
laugh, which seemed almost convulsive. “As if there
were such a thing as a man of sense. Well, I am not
one of those girls who pretend to be very meek and
goody-goody just to catch a husband; and I can tell
you one thing: I will never marry a learned man—I
loathe a savant. Perfect happiness for a woman consists
in having heaps of money and marrying a fool.”
“I see you are in the mood to talk at random to-night,”
said Leon pleasantly. “But you do not mean
what you say, and your sentiments are better than your
words.”
His eyes had by this time become accustomed to
the darkness, or the night was perhaps a little clearer;
Leon could, at any rate, make out Pepita Fúcar’s face
against the black interior behind her like the dim
blurred outline of an old picture. The whiteness of her
skin, her chestnut hair, the brilliancy of her small eyes,
where in each pupil burned a tiny spark, the pout of her
parted lips and the savage whiteness of her teeth as she
still blew away the rose-petals, above all her petulant
air made her seem almost pretty, though in fact she
was very far from it.
“You might make other people fancy that you were
as wild as you pretend to be,” Leon went on, “but I
know you better. I have known you since we were
children together, and I know you have a good heart.
A good mother would have taught you some things you
sadly lack and have corrected some faults of manner
which make you appear worse than you are; but you
have been neglected as a child and now when you are
growing up your father has suddenly flung you into the
world in a perfect vortex of luxury, folly and riches.
You know, better than I, what a state of confusion
your household is in—even strangers cannot help
reminding you that you are spending at the rate of
three months’ income in a week, while your father is
too entirely absorbed in making money to think of anything
but business. Poor Pepita—so rich and so
lonely! I can quite understand all the vagaries which
the outside public comment on so severely; I can excuse
you—yes, quite excuse you. First you built a
hot-house in the garden; then you had it moved to the
other side—then you gave up your plants and began to
collect china—then bronzes, carvings, old stuffs, what
not, and sold them again for a quarter of what they had
cost you. They say you established a photographer in
your house that he might take views of the garden and
portraits of the horses, and all the time you never
looked into a single book unless it were some silly almanac
or rubbishy novel.
“You are charitable I know, for you are tender-hearted;
but Pepa, in what a foolish way! A woman
comes to you for help to get masses said; you put two
thousand reales into her hand. The same day comes
the widow of a bricklayer who has died of an accident
while at work on your house, and you give her only a
dollar. You have no idea of the magnitude and proportion
of the needs and miseries of the poor.
“Poor Pepita—do not wonder at my speaking to
you so harshly; it is out of a sincere desire for your
good. I speak as your brother might—a brother who
wishes to see you wiser and happier.—I tremble for
you Pepita; I dread lest hard and bitter experience
should teach you, by some awful shock, these realities
of life of which you are still ignorant. It really
troubles me to see you go so far astray—so lonely too
in the midst of your wealth, and to be unable to help
you; for our roads lie apart. But I feel for you
deeply, and if I may speak to you truly I pity you,
yes—I pity you. I admire and esteem you greatly;
I can never forget that we have been play-fellows—nay—why
should we deny it?—that as boy and girl
we had a warmer liking, though a transient one, and
that the outside world imagined we were lovers.—All
this I can never forget. I have always been, and
always shall be your best friend.”
Pepa bit furiously at the stem of the flower, and
snatching off the few remaining leaves she almost spit
them away again. One or two fell on the young man’s
beard. Pepa put her handkerchief to her mouth.
“Bleeding!” exclaimed Leon, seizing the hand that
held it.
“A thorn has pricked my lips,” said Pepa, in such
a choked voice that Leon Roch was startled and
grieved. After a short pause the girl spoke again:
“Do you know,” said she, “that your household
will be a funny one?”
“Why?”
Pepa had clasped her hands to stop the beating of
her heart.
“Because when your brother-in-law, Luis Gonzaga,
who is preparing to be a missionary, begins to preach
on one side, and you begin to utter heresies on the
other, you will be a match for each other. Leon, I tell
you plainly, you are an insufferable prig and your learning
makes me sick.”
“But I happen to know that your real opinion of
me is a more flattering one.”
Pepa leaned out over the balcony and Leon felt her
breath on his face; it seemed to scorch him like a passing
flame.
“A man who has studied nothing but stones is an
idiot,” said Pepa with a bitter accent.
“There I agree with you—Come, dear Pepa, be
friends with a man who has a true and frank regard for
you. Give me your hand.”
Pepa started to her feet.
“Give me your hand and say good-bye. Do you
not feel in your heart that some day you will want me—perhaps
to give you some honest advice, perhaps
even some help, such as mortals must ask of each other
in the shipwrecks of life.”
Pepa angrily flung away the spray she still held,
and it struck Leon on the forehead. He started as if
he had been lashed with a whip.
“I—want you!” she exclaimed. “What conceit!
Upon my word you must have lost your senses. It is
more likely that I shall one day meet a pompous prig
with a simpleton on his arm and ask: ‘Pray who is
this?’—say good-bye?—Good-bye; and whether it
is till to-morrow or for all eternity, it is all the same to
me.”
“As you please,” said Leon putting out his hand.
“Good-bye. You are off to-morrow with your father.
I shall not be going to Madrid at present. We may
not meet for some time.”
Pepa turned away and disappeared in the darkness
of the room; Leon gazed after her but could see
nothing. A faint perfume—as subtle as a dream was
all the trace the Marquesita de Fúcar had left as she
quitted the window.
“Pepa, Pepilla!” he called in a coaxing tone. But
there was no reply, no sound, no sign from the darkness
within. Presently, however, he heard a low sob.
He remained some time calling her name at intervals,
but receiving no answer. Still he heard the sighing,
betraying that in the depths of that blackness lurked a
sorrow.
At last he went away slowly and softly—as
stealthily as a criminal and as gloomily as an assassin.
CHAPTER VII.
TWO MEN AND THEIR SCHEMES IN LIFE.
He
stumbled over a root and at the same time felt
a heavy hand laid on his shoulder, with the words:
“Your money or your life.”
“Leave me in peace,” said Leon shaking off his
friend and walking on.
But Cimarra put his hand through his arm and held
him so that he was forced to spin round on one
foot. Their tottering gait, and their position, arm
in arm, might have led a spectator to fancy that the
pair were tipsy; but this evil suspicion would have
been dissipated by Cimarra’s next speech as he said,
very gravely and with an accent of reproof in his harsh
metallic voice:
“I have had desperate ill-luck! I am distinguishing
myself greatly in Iturburua.”
“Let me be, gamester!” said Leon angrily shaking
the arm his companion was holding. “I am not in the
humour for jesting—and do not intend to lend you any
more money. Has the Marqués de Fúcar left the
table?”
“He is just going to his room. I never saw a man
have such crushing good-luck. This is the way with
the country—to-night I represent the country. Alas!
poor Spain!—Solés has won enormously; since they
made him governor of a province he has had tremendous
luck; his victims are Fontán, X—— and I. But
it is early yet. Leon, go up and fetch some more shot
from the locker.”
Leon did not reply; his mind was disturbed; but
his thoughts were far from the ignoble ideas which agitated
his companion. Instead of going upstairs as
Federico had asked him, he went with him into the
card-room. One of the ‘victims’ was snoring on a
sofa; the other was saying good-night, with a voice
and demeanour that did justice to a diabolical temper;
but he did not hurry himself and wrapped up elaborately,
as a protection against the night air.
The two friends were left alone.
“I shall not play,” said Leon shortly.
Cimarra, knowing Leon Roch’s tenacious nature
resigned himself to his fate, and seating himself by the
table he took up the cards and began turning them
over in his slender and exquisitely-kept hands. A large
ring on his little finger reflected a pale light from the
lamp, by this time burning low, and with his eyes fixed
on the pack, he dealt and shuffled and shuffled and
dealt so as to make an infinite variety of combinations.
The cards seemed plastic in his hands and obedient to
his touch.
“It is not my fault—it is not my fault!” muttered
Leon gloomily from the corner of a sofa on which he
had dropped, evidently much disturbed and agitated.
“What is not your fault?” asked Federico looking
up in amazement. “Something has gone wrong with
you old fellow—where have you been?”
“No—there is nothing the matter with me; I cannot
tell you what has gone wrong. It is a strange sensation,
a kind of remorse—and yet, no, not remorse
for I have done nothing wrong—it is a pain, a regret—But
you would not understand even if I were to explain
it to you; you are a libertine; your feelings are
depraved, your heart is dead, your emotions are all selfish
and sensual.”
“Much obliged I am sure. If I am unworthy of a
friend’s confidence....”
“Friend! you are not my friend.—No friendship
can subsist between us two. Chance made us friends
in childhood, but our natures have made us indifferent
to each other. In that atmosphere of frivolity, of mere
superficial virtue, if not of actual corruption in which
you have your being I can neither move nor breathe.
My poor father’s vanity flung me into its midst; his devotion
to me led him into many follies and illusions.
He—who had made his fortune by the sweat of his
brow in a chocolate factory—wanted to make a fine
gentleman of his son, a finikin and aristocratic creature
such as he pictured in his deluded fancy. ‘Be a marquis,’
said he, ‘enjoy yourself; ride your horses to
death, drive your carriage, make love to other men’s
wives, marry into a noble family. Get into the Ministry,
make a noise in the world, let your name stand at the
head of every list.’—These were not his words, but
that was what he wanted.”
Leon was too excited to sit still and he stood up as
he spoke. There are times when we must give vent to
our thoughts lest they should gather into so heavy a
cloud as to darken the brain with a dense fog of murky
smoke.
“And what is the end of all this?” asked Federico
with some disgust. “Talk no more nonsense, but come
and....”
“I say all this to you because I have made up my
mind to desert. The inhabitants of the social sphere into
which my father insisted on bringing me, I find simply
unendurable. I cannot breathe this air; all my surroundings
depress and weary me—the people I meet,
their actions, their manners, their language—their very
feelings, though they are all well regulated, and in the
very best taste. It positively saddens me to look on at
the extravagant fancies, the capricious or sickly sentiment
which possesses every mind that is not sunk in
selfish indifference.”
“You are energetic in your denunciation,” said
Cimarra, laughing at his friend’s emphatic tirade.
“Something serious has happened to you Leon; you
have had some sudden blow. This evening you were
calm, reasonable, friendly, a little sad perhaps, with the
peevish melancholy of a man who is engaged to be
married and who is eight leagues away from his lady-love—and
then, all of a sudden, I meet you in the
promenade, agitated and excited—you blurt out a few
incoherent words, and I see you are pale, with an expression—how
shall I describe it.—Whom have you
been talking to?” And as he spoke he gazed at him
curiously, but without ceasing to shuffle the cards.
“I have nothing to tell you,” said Leon, already
more composed, “but that as I am tired I will cut the
matter short. I intend henceforth to mould my life on
my own pattern, as the birds build their nests where
their instinct leads them. I have laid my plans with
the calm reason of a practical man—eminently and
strictly practical.”
“Ah—well, I have heard it said that the whole
race of practical men is the veriest set of dolts on the
face of the earth.”
“I have laid my plans,” continued Leon, paying no
heed to his friend’s interruption. “I am going straight
on with it—straight ahead. It will not disappoint me;
I have thought of it a great deal, and have weighed
the pros and cons with the accuracy of a chemist who
weighs the elements of a compound, drop by drop. I
know what my aim is—a lofty and a noble one, tending
to the good of society and of humanity, advantageous
to my prospects as a man, to the health of body
and mind alike.—In a word I am going to be married.”
Federico looked and listened with an expression
of covert amusement.
“And in choosing my wife,” Roch went on—“I
ought not to say choosing for I fell in love like any
fool—but that did not prevent me from realising my
position and calmly and coldly reviewing the character
and qualities of my future wife. It is my duty to marry
her, Federico, distinctly my duty; there I am on firm
ground and that much is beyond a doubt. María captivated
me by her beauty it is true; but that is not all—far
from it. I smothered my passion, I studied her
closely and I found behind that beauty, a mind in no
respect unworthy of it. María’s goodness, her sense,
her modesty, the submissiveness of her intelligence, her
exquisite ignorance of life added to the seriousness of
her tastes and instincts—all made me feel that she was
the wife for me—I will be perfectly frank with you:
her family are not at all to my liking. But what does
that matter? I can separate from my relations. I only
marry my wife and she is delightful—she has feeling
and imagination, and that sweet credulousness which is
the most ductile element in human nature. Her education
has been neglected and she is as ignorant as can
be; but on the other hand, she is free from all false
ideas and frivolous accomplishments, and from
those mischievous habits of mind which corrupt the
judgment and nature of the girls of our day. Do you
not think me a happy man? Do you not see that this
is the very woman I want; that I shall be able to form
my wife’s character, which is the most glorious task a
man can have—form it to my own mind and on my
own image—the highest achievement I can aspire to,
and the only guarantee of a peaceful life.—Do not
you think so?”
“You ask me—a hardened and selfish worldling!”
said Federico ironically. “My dear fellow you are out
of your mind.”
“I ask you as I might ask this bench!” retorted
Leon turning his back contemptuously. “There are
occasions in life when a man feels that he must speak
his thoughts aloud to convince himself of their validity.
It is as if I were talking to myself. You need not answer
me unless you like.—I mean to mould her in my
own way. I do not want a ready-made wife, but a wife
to make. I want a woman with a firm basis of character—strong
feelings and perfect moral rectitude. Any
extensive knowledge of the world, or the absurd teaching
of a girl’s school, would hinder rather than help my
purpose. I should have to pull down too much and to
build on the ruins; I should have to dig deep down to
find a safe foundation for the edifice.”
Federico had risen during this harangue and thrown
down the cards: after walking two or three times round
and about Leon who had not moved; and now, laying
his hand on Roch’s shoulder, he said in a low voice:
“Most worthy and wisest of men, we, the depraved
and ignorant, look into the future as well as you; we
too lay our plans, not indeed mathematically but perhaps
with better hopes of security than you practical
men. We are apt indeed to think of the ass as a practical
animal. We do not condemn matrimony; on the
contrary, we regard it as indispensable to the progress
of society and the improvement of the condition....”
He paused a few moments and then went on—“of the
condition of the individual. You will understand what
I mean. We, to be sure, are not learned and when we
have fallen in love like a schoolboy we do not make an
elaborate analysis of the qualities of the women whom
we choose to be our wives. We do not aspire to
form their character; we take the article ready made,
as God or the devil has wrought it. This marrying
to become a school-master is in the very worst taste.
There is something else to be thought of in these
latter days besides a woman’s character. The inequality
of fortune among human beings, and the
luckless fate to which some are born, the hideous
disparity between a man’s fortune and the ‘material
of war’ which he requires to fight against and for
life—the miserable ‘Struggle for existence’ as the evolutionists
have it—that is what weighs on me—the
scarcity of work to be done in this accursed country,
and the impossibility of making money without having
money.—Do you hear what I say?—All these things
and many others make it necessary to look out for
something besides virtue in our future brides.”
“What?”
Cimarra shook his hands as if he were clinking coin.
“Cash,” he said, “hard cash and ready.” Cimarra
talked the mongrel language of a man of fashion, mixing
the style of an orator with the slang of a gambler,
and quotations in foreign languages with the low
blasphemies of a street boy, which shall not be recorded
here.
“Life,” he went on, “is getting more difficult every
day. It is all very well for rich folks like you to send
moral platitudes flying about the world, and never to
feel a base desire or harbour a thought that is not the
quintessence of the purest ether. However, we need
not exaggerate, as Fúcar is so fond of saying. I maintain
that what sanctimonious fools call filthy lucre may
be a potent element of morality. I, for example....”
“You! And what are you an example of pray?”
“I was going to say that I, if I found myself the
possessor of a fortune, should be a model gentleman,
and might even be known to posterity as the Illustrious
Cimarra. For is it not a matter of course, a phrase
ready coined?—Tom, Dick and Harry are Illustrious
nowadays.”
“Though you may try to conceal it, I see some remains
of shame in you,” said Roch. “Your laxity of
morals is not as great as you try to make the world believe.”
“Everything is relative, as my friend Fontán always
says in jest,” replied Federico shrugging his shoulders.
“You cannot judge off-hand, in that light and easy
way, of a man like me who lives with the rich and is
poor himself. Get that well into your head. I talk to
you with perfect frankness. My projects after all are
as yet merely visions—sketches, my dear fellow. We
shall see—I flatter myself I have made a good beginning.
Time will show. Some day perhaps when you
have quite forgotten me, lost in the bliss of pedagogic
matrimony, you may hear that that reprobate Cimarra
has found a wife. We all have to come to it—sooner
or later. Even a poor devil like me has his schemes
and his philosophy. We are all tortoises together, but
some have more shell to cover them than I have.—Do
not take it into your head that I am indifferent to the
moral graces of my wife—nor that I propose to marry
a monster. I shall have a virtuous wife, my learned
friend, thoroughly respectable, take my word for it, and
a fine family of children and grand-children.”
“Then you have made your choice.”
“I have.—But I must warn you that I make no
great point of personal beauty. I am not like you; I
have a soul above being caught by a pair of fine eyes
and a mouth that time can only spoil. Beauty is only
skin deep. It lasts, as the poet says ‘l’espace d’un
matin.’ But she has a pleasant and attractive expression,
distingué manners, a quantum of dignity, a quantum of
liveliness, wit and even chic—Education? Well
nothing much to speak of, but we do not intend to set
up for Professors. She has a great deal of good in her
with a spice of the devil too; she has wild ways occasionally,
freaks of temper, habits of extravagance....”
Leon turned pale and fixed a gloomy eye on his
companion.
“What do I care if she smashes a lot of rubbishy
plates, or cuts a Murillo into strips, or makes mince-meat
of her lace? There are some things in which no
husband should interfere.”
Leon sat staring dully at the green cloth of the
table on which he had propped his elbows.
“Mercy, how the time goes, man!” he exclaimed
rising abruptly and throwing open the window. “It is
day!”
The white dawn fell into the room and its light fell
on two pale and haggard faces. The dying lamp still
burnt forlorn and dingy; a long sooty flame flared up
the chimney, smelling detestably.
“What a life—by way of recovering one’s health!”
said Leon.
Outside, the sky was gray and rainy, a dismal background
to the gloomy faces of the two men who had
been up all night. Leon stood a few minutes, lost in
that vague meditation which leaves no mark on the
mind in moments of extreme fatigue, a state half-way
between dreaming and suffering, when it is hard to be
sure whether we are sleeping or only enduring. Federico
gazed at his friend who stood the living image of
melancholy; everything about him was black—his
dress, his hair and his beard; his handsome features,
and clear olive skin were marked with dark lines for
want of sleep. His fine forehead, dignified though
charged with painful doubts, might suggest a lowering
and threatening sky where the light of day was hidden
behind a shroud of clouds.
Suddenly he turned to Cimarra and said:
“Well, I wish you luck!”
“I wish I could get a little rest,” said Federico.
“I am simply dying for want of sleep; but I must
start at once with Fúcar.”
“You are going too?”
“Did I not tell you?—Yes, they made a point of
my going with them. We are getting on you see—like
a house on fire!”
Cimarra emphasised his words with a cunning
smile.
“Bon voyage!” said Leon turning his back on him.
At this juncture they heard the rumble of the
Fúcars’ carriage coming up to convey the travellers
to the station of Iparraicea. Federico rushed up
to his room to prepare to start, and for a short time the
hotel was full of the bustle that always accompanies
the arrival or departure of guests—the dragging of
luggage, the chatter of boys and the calling of servants.
Leon did not stir from the card-room, and even when he
heard the voices of Fúcar and his daughter at breakfast
in the dining-room, he did not care to go out and bid
them farewell. In half an hour an omnibus was sent
off, packed with servants and baggage, and the travelling-carriage
followed with the Fúcars and Cimarra.
Leon saw the first vehicle pass close by the window
and before the second could come past he turned away,
put his hands into his pockets and walked to the opposite
corner of the room.
“What need I care?” he muttered to himself. “It
is no fault of mine.”
Then he went out into the hall, where the most
inveterate bathers were beginning to put in an appearance,
in motley deshabille. The bath servants,
with their aprons tucked up, went into the dens where
yawned the marble vats; through the doors came the
noise of the bubbling mineral water and the swish of
the brooms in the baths, with a strong whiff of sulphur.
He loitered down to the avenue and seeing in the distance
the two carriages slowly mounting the hill of Arcaitzac,
he could not help saying to himself with a sigh:
“Alas, for those who have no control over their imagination!”
For a couple of hours he lay down to sleep, and at
nine o’clock took a place in the coach that was starting
for Ugoibea. His whole appearance was altered; he
looked the happiest man on earth.
CHAPTER VIII.
MARÍA EGYPTIACA.
Several
months had passed since that spring
season by the sea; Leon Roch—on the appointed
day, at the appointed hour, and in the appointed
church—had been duly married, without any hindrance
to the fulfilment of the plan he had made. His
soul was full of the calm satisfaction which steals over
it softly and silently like the breath of spring; a peace
which brings refreshment and not intoxication, and
which, as it is innocent of excess, never satiates the
heart, and so leaves no aftertaste of tedium. Leon, as
a philosopher and a student of nature, thought that
nothing could be better and wished for nothing more.
His wife’s beauty had improved wonderfully since her
marriage and in these additional charms the husband
discovered an appropriate tribute paid by nature to an
union so judiciously planned in theory and wrought out
in practice.
“We form a compound being,” he would say,
“each the complement of the other, and it is hard
sometimes to say whether the image produced is mine
or hers, our feelings are so intimately blended.”
María’s affection for him, which at first had been
bashful and cold as that of a well brought up Cupid
who has just had his eyes unbandaged, was soon as ardent
as he could wish. The passion, that at first had
sat shyly behind a blind, soon peeped out, with its
flaming torch, its ambrosial chalice and its chain of
yearning anxieties, choking its victim with the pain of
a too great happiness; so that for some time her husband
forgot his educational schemes, though, in his
more lucid moments, his common-sense reminded him
that it would be needful to put them into practice and
realise the effects of his very superior system. By degrees
he recovered his habitual equanimity and his excited
feelings subsided into the subordinate place which
he had always assigned to them as compared with his
intellect. At last he felt like a man who wakes from a
long dream; he regarded his mind as a wide and
fruitful territory which has been for a time drowned out
by an inundation, and where, as the waters subside, at
first the highest points become visible, then the hills
and at last the plains.
“This will pass away,” he said to himself, “it must.
When the land is clear I will attack the dreaded subject
and begin to mould”—he was fond of this form
of speech—“to mould María’s character. It is of exquisite
clay, but formless—almost formless.”
Leon Roch’s young wife was slightly and elegantly-built,
every part in such perfect proportion that a sculptor
could have hoped for no better model. Her hair
was black and her skin white with very little colour,
giving such refinement to her grave, fervent expression
that all her admirers were her lovers and envied her
husband his happiness. It was not a face of Spanish
type, and the outline of her profile was an uncommon
one in our country, for it was that of the Athenian goddess,
so rare here though occasionally met with, even
in Madrid. Her eyes were large and open, of a sea-blue
colour with changing tawny lights, and their gaze
had a sentimental serenity which might have been
thought insipid among a crowd of black eyes, firing
endless volleys of flashing glances. But María’s looks
gained her the reputation of being proud rather than
stupid, her lips were brilliantly red, her throat slender,
her figure round, and her hands small and “moulded
of soft flesh” like those of Melibea. She spoke in
measured tones with a sort of deliberate plaintiveness
that went to the souls of her hearers; she laughed but
little—so little that it added to her reputation of
pride, and she was so reserved in her friendships that in
fact she had no friends. Even while quite a child she
had always been credited with so much good sense
that her parents themselves regarded her as the
choicest production of their illustrious race, throughout
the whole course of its glorious existence. To this almost
superhuman beauty—this woman, in whose form
and face were combined, as in a perfect æsthetic union,
all the charms of antique sculpture, Leon Roch, after ten
months of a most platonic engagement, found himself
married. Love at first sight had enslaved him: he had
met her and spoken to her at a court ball, when she,
having only recently been presented, was at that wondering
and budding stage when a girl’s beauty still
bears the stamp of innocence and still blushes with the
reflection of the rosy dawn of infancy. Leon fell
in love like a country swain, to his shame be it
whispered, and he was himself astonished to find
that his theodolite and his blow-pipe had turned
to a shepherd’s crook and pipe in his hands. Did
he see anything in his wife beyond her uncommon
beauty? What share had his heart in this dream of
ecstasy? It would be amusing indeed if he, whose
boast it was that he was master of his imagination,
should find that it had fairly run away with him.
María had been brought up on an estate near Avila
by her maternal grandmother, a woman of great tenacity
and determination, who talked a great deal about
her principles without ever defining what they were or
in what they differed from those of her neighbours.
Under the protection of this very superior woman, who,
at the age of sixty, made up her mind to renounce the
vanities of the world for the narrow life of a country
house—fashion and society for the dull solitude of a
desert—and the chronique scandaleuse of Madrid for
the gossip of a village—María learnt her first lessons.
She could read well, write badly and say her creed and
catechism without missing a comma. Beyond a few
notions of grammar and geography, which were infused
by a governess of unusual learning, she knew nothing
else whatever. However, as she grew older, María, as
she turned over the leaves of the books she happened
to meet with, gained some items of knowledge on such
subjects as do not require any very high degree of intellect.
Her companion during these years passed in the
wilderness was her twin brother, Luis Gonzaga. Their
grandmother worshipped them both and called them
“her death sighs,” because she declared that at her
last hour, if they could but stand by her side, she
would be able to lift up her last thoughts to God with
purer devotion.
The two children were inseparable, sharing their
games and their lessons, their bread and cheese at
luncheon, and their grandmother’s caresses. They
would walk arm-in-arm along the horrible lanes of
Avila, and would sit at night, with their heads close together,
to count the stars, which shine more brightly in
that part of the country than anywhere else in the
world. You might have heard them saying: “you
must count on that side and I will count on this—you
are not to come out of your piece of sky into mine—there,
all on this side are mine—we can each have half
the sky.”
“No, no, it is all for you both,” said a clacking
voice from a window behind them. “Now, my pretties,
come in to supper, it is getting late.”
Their only reading in that remote spot consisted in
the Lives of the Saints, and the two children took the
amazing narrative so deeply to heart, with its tales of
suffering, toil, and death, that all they themselves
learned to long for was to be martyrs too; and they
were possessed by the same idea that mastered St.
Theresa in her infancy, when she and her brother discussed
the possibility of travelling all over the infidel
world that they might at last have their heads cut
off.
María and Luisito set out one morning for those
heathen lands, fully determined not to return—not to
stop, till they should fall in with a troop of Moors who
should hew them in pieces. They lay down to sleep
that evening under shelter of a rock, where the God
who protects the innocent softly kissed their baby lips,
and—betrayed them into the hands of the night-patrol,
who recognised the pair and took them home.
That home was in a very remote spot from the rest
of humanity. The parish priest used to call them “the
children of the wilderness” and he would seat them on
his knees to amuse himself with their baby games:
they would stick up their little fingers and call each by
a name, performing a kind of drama with them, known
to the children of most lands: the middle finger is a
friar who comes to the door of a convent and calls in a
big voice, and the third finger answers in a feeble
squeak:
“Rat, tat!”
“Who is there?”
“Your brother, who wants to be let in.” And the
end of the story is that friar Pedro is sent off with a flea
in his ear, the nuns thrashing him with sticks, and he
disappears grumbling.
At this the twins would still laugh with glee at an
age when most children begin to crave for better playthings
than their own fingers; but, as they grew up,
their games lost their primitive simplicity and their
reading and their characters became more serious.
Luis Gonzaga was the delight of his seniors from his
quiet good sense and his incapacity for getting into
mischief; the only fault to be found with him was
his love of solitary wanderings among the rocks, breathing
the keen and bracing air that perpetually fans our
granite ramparts, which look like the ruins of some cyclopean
fortress, or the broken teeth of a giant’s jaws
from which the flesh has long since disappeared. He
delighted in being alone, and his chief ambition was to
be a goat-herd and follow the kids that spring from peak
to peak in that dead and dessicated arcadia; he heeded
neither cold nor heat.
One day he was discovered lying at the foot of a
pine-tree, the solitary specimen of vegetable life within
sight, that stood melancholy, senile and leafless, as
though in dismal warning, like the motto on a tombstone:
“we all must die.” The boy was writing
“something” on a scrap of paper with a black lead
pencil which he frequently moistened by putting in his
mouth. It was the priest who found him, and who
took possession of the manuscript, which consisted of a
number of lines without rhyme or rhythm, devoid alike
of grammar and spelling, which made the worthy man
laugh heartily—for he knew something, if not much,
of the humanities.
“This is neither verse nor prose,” he said.
No, it was neither verse nor prose; but it was
poetry. These were stanzas on the model of verses
from the Bible expressing the feelings of a contemplative
nature. How the priest laughed as he read:
“When the darkness of night falls, the flocks of
Heaven are scattered over the vast blue field and
watched over by the gentle angels.—
“The Lord passed by yesterday in a chariot of
thunder drawn by lightning which cast down hail and
sweated rain; I trembled like a flame in the wind and
my mind was tossed like a pebble carried away by a
flood.
“I am like dried flax that catches fire, and turning
to smoke, rises from the ashes and ascends to Heaven.”
One day their grandmother rose much later than
usual, her face was flushed, her speech slow and
strange, while her eyes glistened like two old metal
buttons that have been rubbed very bright. All the
servants observed to their great consternation that their
mistress talked a great deal of nonsense—not that this
in itself was an alarming novelty—but she repeated
the same thing again and again, without any interval of
better sense. When the priest felt her pulse, the good
lady grasped his arm and throwing a cloak over her
shoulders exclaimed with a wild laugh:
“Let us dance, Señor Cura—come dance with
me!” She dragged him round two or three times and
then suddenly fell senseless.
She only lived long enough to receive Extreme
Unction.
When their grandmother was dead and buried the
twins went home to their parents, who at that time were
in extremely narrow circumstances. The boy was sent
to a seminary and from thence to France, while María,
whose country manners distressed them greatly, was
sent to a college for girls. At the end of two years
she emerged from this retreat with the polish acquired
in such establishments and her mother introduced her
to her circle of friends; a favourable turn in their fortunes
had now given the family of Tellería a chance of
rising from the depths of poverty and obscurity; at
length the marquesa was able to quit the apartments
she so sincerely detested, and for some time the mother
and daughter were to be met constantly in various
fashionable circles. Their names were familiar on the
lips of María’s admirers and to the pens of the fashionable
chronicler; they were on view at the play and out
driving; they disappeared in the Spring to reappear
with revived brilliancy in the Winter season. Then at
last came the longed-for day when María was married.
This match was regarded as a great stroke of fortune
for the whole Tellería family, whose nobility was
not of the highest rank and whose wealth was not such
as to justify any extreme fastidiousness in the selection of
a son-in-law. In spite of all that may be said to the contrary,
the aristocracy of the present day have no blind
reverence for their pedigrees, and if we except half a
dozen names which, besides their historical glory, have
a spotless descent, our nobles do not hesitate to accept
an alliance of which the honours are merely substantial
and to bolster up their pride by the aid of a fine fortune;
thus we see every day damsels of high degree
giving their hands—and giving them willingly—to
nobles of very recent creation; to marquisés all hot
from the mint as it were; to colonial counts, to adventurous
politicians, distinguished officers and even to
the sons of industry. Modern society is blessed with a
short memory; low or inferior birth is soon a buried
part of the buried past. Personal merit in some cases,
and fortune in others, effect the levelling process with
irresistible force, and society progresses with giant steps
towards equality. There is no country in the civilised
world more nearly bereft of a real aristocracy than
Spain; trade, on one hand, which marks every one
plebeian, and the government, on the other, which
makes every one noble, are gradually doing away with it.
The happiness of the two young people was undisturbed
for the first few months, excepting by the shadow
cast over it occasionally by María’s relations. After a
time however Leon began to think that his wife’s
anxious and suspicious affection had lasted longer than
was reasonable. This would not have been alarming
but that it was allied with an iron resistance to some of
her husband’s views and feelings, and it troubled him
greatly to perceive that, without ceasing to be devoted
to him, María showed not the slightest disposition to
yield to his doctrines—not religious doctrines in any
sense, for he respected his wife’s conscience. It was a
puzzling disappointment; hers was not an embryonic
nature, but a formed and stubborn character; not a
flexible wire ready to take and keep the form given to
it by a skilful manipulator, but hard set bronze which
hurt his fingers and never bent under them.
One evening, about a year after their marriage,
they were together in María’s sitting-room; they had
been talking long and affectionately on the conformity
of ideas which alone can form the solid foundation of a
happy marriage; the subject being exhausted, he had
opened a book and was turning over the pages by the
fire, and she had taken her beads to pray. Suddenly
she rose from her knees and coming up to her husband
she laid her hand on his shoulder.
“I have an idea,” she said, fixing her mystical gaze
on his face, and her eyes, with their strange greenish
and tawny lights were curiously soft—perhaps because
they had just been raised to God—“I have an idea
that fills me with pride, Leon!”
Leon read on for a moment, finishing a paragraph,
and then he turned to his wife.
“I will tell you what it is,” she went on. “I, a mere
weak woman, utterly your inferior in many things and
above all in learning, will achieve a triumph which,
you with all your superiority, can never attain.”
Leon took her hand and kissed it three times,
saying: “I am no one’s superior, and your’s, least of
all.”
“But indeed you are; and it is that which adds to
my satisfaction in my purpose.... You, you believe
yourself so strong that your judgment can radically
change my character. I ... I, with only my love that
is stronger than the wisest intellect, propose to conquer
your judgment and mould it after my own image and
likeness. How great a battle and how grand a victory!”
“And how will you set to work?” asked Leon smiling,
as he put his arm round her.
“I hardly know whether to begin quite gently, by
degrees ... or so,” and as she said “so” she violently
snatched the book out of her husband’s hands and
flung it in the fire which was blazing brightly.
“María!” cried Leon, startled and disconcerted, and
he put out his hand to rescue the hapless heretic. But
she clung closely to his arms so as to prevent his moving;
then, kissing his forehead, she went back to her
prie dieu and returned to her devotions. What was
there in his book? What in her prayers?
CHAPTER IX.
THE MARQUESA TELLERÍA.
The
Tellería family occupied the whole of their
house, so Leon Roch, willing that there should be as
large an expanse as possible of the habitable globe
between them, had taken a pretty house at the furthest
east end of the town. There, two years after his marriage,
we may find him.
“Good-morning, Leon.... Alone? Where is Mariquilla?
Ah, at Mass of course; I had half thought of
going too—but now it is too late.... I will go to the
eleven o’clock service at San Prudencio.... But what
is the matter? You are pale. Have you quarrelled?...
I will sit down a while—tell me, what did you give for
those statues? They are lovely. You have certainly
a beautiful collection of bronzes.... But tell me, are
you going to put more books into this study of yours?
It is like the library of Alexandria already. Well! You
are not at all like the young men of the present day.
A silly set of boys. What will become of the world
when the vicious, idle, sickly creatures who are the ornament
of society nowadays are the men of their time, I
do not know! ... However, there is a greater evil still,
for if the young men are frivolous and impudent the old
ones are worse; more vicious, more dissipated, and
more indolent.... But I am forgetting the matter—a
very delicate matter—that I came to speak about, my
dear son. Sit down and listen to me for a minute or
two.”
The marquesa waving a pretty hand and arm
pointed to a seat close by, and Leon, obeying her, prepared
to hear what his mother-in-law had to say.
She was a woman of good figure, who had grown
suddenly old after a prolonged youth and fallen a victim
to those ravages which are severe in proportion as
they are staved off. Nevertheless, certain traces of past
beauty were still visible in the lady’s face; though her
sun was setting behind mists of paint and powder, not
always judiciously or skilfully applied, and it was not a
glorious evening of life. Her tall figure, which had
formerly been dignified, was now bent, as though in anticipation
of her descent into the chill tomb, though the
steel ribs of a pair of stiff stays did what they could to
buttress up the decrepit form. Her eyes, still bright and
black, were the only living sparks in the dilapidated mass;
they, from time to time, glistened with eagerness and
vivacity, reminding one of a flash of true inspiration in
the midst of the academic dulness of archaic and commonplace
ideas. Her hair, which had long since
exchanged its Andalusian blackness for Venetian gold,
had now passed from Venetian gold to a dull and powdery
white. Her complexion, always coarse and sheenless,
was disguised under an artificial texture commingled
with various perfumed chemicals intended to deceive
the spectator, just as in a theatre the painted scenes
simulate the greenery of a glade and even the diaphanous
purity of the sky. The effect, successful to a certain
point in embellishing the withered cheeks of the
faded beauty, failed of its result now and then, because
when she smiled the dead whiteness of the paint gave a
yellow hue to her teeth, though they were still perfectly
sound and even; and she constantly displayed them with
her gracious and condescending smile—an old habit that
would need to be modified if once that double row of
ivory keys should begin to desert, like an army that has
had enough of fighting. She was always well and elegantly
dressed; she talked indefatigably, attempting—sometimes
not without success—to insinuate some
more intelligent formula among the flood of empty
words that usually form the basis of conversation
among such brainless individuals.
“I am listening, Señora,” said Leon.
“I hate circumlocution,” said the lady; “and besides,
María has doubtless spoken to you on the subject.
Your father-in-law is a lost wretch....”
“Nay—that, as it strikes me, is an exaggeration.
The marquis likes amusement.... It is not an uncommon
taste with men who have nothing to do.”
“No, no. It is of no use to try to defend him. His
conduct is indefensible ... and at his age! The strange
thing is that in the prime of life he was a steady and
prudent man, content to stay quietly at home. I assure
you I cannot bear to see him behave like an elderly
boy—that describes him exactly: an elderly boy!
about two years since—just about the time when
you married my daughter—my worthy husband began
to go to the young men’s club; there he met with some
young fellows who turned his head; he took up a new
set of words, and a new style of dress, stayed out at
night, took to gambling ... you must have noticed that
he has grown quite young again; you must have
laughed, if you confess the truth, to see his efforts to
look like a boy among boys. Why, you may see him
any day with some party of dandies, fluttering like a
butterfly about Madrid.—It really is too ridiculous—with
a flower in his button-hole. Only this morning I
spoke to him rather sharply about it. How he is ever
to pay his tailor I do not know for his outlay in dress is
frightful to think of! ... In short, to you, in the strictest
confidence I can say all this: the fact is my husband
spends more money than he has got, or ever will have
as long as he lives. He never was economical, but, on
the other hand, he was not extravagant; he never kept
any kind of accounts but then he never let himself do a
mean thing for the sake of some impossible luxury ...
and who is the victim? I—I, who after having had
always to sacrifice myself, must do so now when my
health is failing and I need care and rest and peace of
mind. Oh! how I envy the mistress of this house, and
how thankfully I would accept a corner here, even the
humblest. My life is one incessant misery. My husband
spends what he has not got; Gustavo is well conducted
and careful it is true, but he has no great
affection for his parents; Leopoldo neither is, nor ever
will be, good for anything, he is a helpless being and
has idle and dissipated habits in spite of all I have done
to prevent his acquiring them. I can only thank God,
who has given me so many trials, for having at the same
time given me such proofs of his mercy; for what
greater pride can a mother have than to be the parent
of two such children as Luis Gonzaga and María?—He,
so devoted to his vocation, and promising, as I am
told, to be a shining light in the church; she, married to
you, happy with you, a pattern with you of perfect and
harmonious union.—But what a pity it is that you
should have no children!” At this point the marquesa,
giving way to her feelings, shed a few tears, which she
promptly dried with her handkerchief before they could
roll down her cheeks. Then she went on with her description
of her woes as a wife and a mother.
She had suffered much, she explained, from her husband’s
levity, and the refractory or venial conduct of
her two eldest sons had necessitated her passing her
youth, and indeed chief part of her life in heroic efforts
to avert the ruin of the family; she had indeed given
up some of her own fortune, which had been considerable;
still she had kept back the larger portion of it, and
she intended to keep it till her husband’s gallantries and
her sons’ extravagance drove her to extremities. She
could not expose herself to a pinched and miserable old
age nor look forward to living on the charity of her
daughter and a rich son-in-law. Her habits, her principles,
and her dignity would not allow her to sacrifice
her whole fortune to the reckless man who had dissipated
the patrimony of the Tellerías on the green tables
of the gaming houses and in the dressing-rooms of
ballet-dancers. If she were only to tell him all the
things she knew!
“Yes, but I will tell you—I can say anything to
you,” she exclaimed, looking at her son-in-law with a
vehement flash. “Are you not my son—the husband
of my child? It is your duty and your right to know
your father’s weakness—I am told that the marquis is
entangled with ... but you must know her, you must
have heard of her ... some woman they call Paca or
Paquilla—no matter which—she is very pretty and
very charming. She ruined the Duke of Florunda of
the little he had left—and would you believe that that
old idiot Agustín, with one foot in the grave!—it is
too pitiable to be angry about, do not you think?”
Leon did not answer.
“What are you thinking of?” she asked.
“That the cardinal virtue in married life is indeed
patience,” he replied.
“Which is as much as to say endurance and fortitude
... but my whole life has been a martyrdom!—and
I could bear everything if my husband’s extravagance
and follies did not threaten to compromise the
honour and good name of the family. But I am terribly
afraid of that.... What do you think? And I
feel very deeply having to tell you that I cannot pay
you the sixty thousand reales that you lent me and that
I was to have repaid you this month.”
“It is of no consequence,” said Leon, wishing to
avoid this delicate subject; “do not let that trouble
you.”
“Not only that I cannot pay you those three thousand
dollars, but that I am in desperate need of three
thousand more.”
“You can have them.”
“What! three thousand more? But it is outrageous—it
is abusing your generosity! It shall be the
last time, for I have quite made up my mind to practise
the narrowest economy in the house—I will give
you a lien on my house at
Corrales
de Arriba.”
“It is quite unnecessary—I assure you....”
“Thanks, a thousand thanks! How good you are,
how dear a son! How can I ever repay you?” cried
the marquesa, evidently agitated by sincere feeling.
“You cannot imagine what a kindness you are doing
me.... But I am always thinking of you, and not
unfrequently I am able to intercept half-way some
cloud that threatens your happiness. Last night I had
quite a quarrel with your wife.”
“With María?”
“Yes, with María: even she has her faults, though
they are only the excessive side of her virtues. You
know that she is very devout—devout to excess; indeed,
at times I have felt that this question of religion
has given rise to some little differences between you.”
Leon sighed.
“To some,” he said, “but nothing serious.”
“Well, you need not speak of your annoyance as a
mere trifle,” said the marquesa, vexed that Leon should
speak lightly of a matter that it suited her to treat as
important. “The poor child is blindly attached to
you: her love for you is the ruling motive of her life,
and your reputation as an atheist is a standing misery
to her. And you know that my daughter’s opinions
are as independent and as indomitable as the beasts of
the desert.” Leon nodded a sad assent.
“You can understand that she sees your lack of religion
with very great pain; that is but natural. We
have instilled a faith in which she will live and die.
But she weeps with despair because you will not go to
prayers every day as she does, will not confess once a
month, will not spend your money on trumpery—it is
really quite absurd! How I lectured her last night—in
short, she vexed me, I got angry, I hammered away
at her as if her stupid little head had been an anvil, and
at last....”
“Well—at last?...”
“At last I convinced her that it was preposterous to
expect men to carry out practices, which, in us, are all
very well, but, in them, would be ridiculous, purely
ridiculous. The men of the present day have something
else to do than to be sitting in church. It seems
to me that María and you—she spending her time in
devotions, and you spending yours at your studies—may
both be very happy. What is the use of discussion?
You do not want to prevent her praying to her
heart’s content. The men of the present day have
their own ideas and it is senseless to try to combat
them. No one need be more religious than I am, but
I have no notion of enquiring into things that I do not
understand. Women are not learned; their part is to
believe, believe, believe.
“That a married couple should quarrel over that
appears to me the height of folly. But do you know
that her ambition is to convert you? To lead you to
abhor your own views and devote yourself to hers—upon
my word I can hardly help laughing when I think
of it. Do you know what she says? That it would be
her highest happiness to burn all those books of yours—what
a sin! So beautifully bound as they are!
Much I should care whether my husband were as regular
at Mass as I am, so long as he loved me and cared
for no one else—jealous of his books! Not I indeed,
such a woman must be a perfect fool!
“You cannot think how strongly I spoke to her; I
told her that you were the best man living—to that
she agreed—I told her that you were far superior to
her—infinitely superior; that all this talk about atheism
is a mere bogey; that though we hear people
speak of atheists there are no atheists—just as we talk
of magicians but there are no magicians. I told her
that she was not to think of such nonsense as trying to
convert you, and that the best thing she could do was
to keep the peace in her home and get rid of her monomania—do
not you think so?—She had better
change her confessor—do not you think so? She
should do as I do. I am extremely religious, I perform
all my devotions with the greatest exactitude, I
give all I can afford to the church, but that is all; do
not you think that María should do the same?”
Leon did not reply; he sat silent and gloomy.
Suddenly he seemed to shake off some depressing idea,
as we wave off a bee that buzzes in our ears, and looking
at his mother-in-law he said:
“I will send you that money to-day.”
“Ah! is that what you were thinking about?” cried
the marquesa and her face shone with satisfaction till it
seemed positively phosphorescent. “Very good; do
so, and I will give you a receipt.... But here I have
stayed chattering, and in your delightful society I forget
that I have business to attend to—heaps of business!
Eleven o’clock! I shall be too late for Mass!”
She bustled up and held out her hand to her son-in-law.
“And Padre Paoletti is to preach.—Good-bye,
I must fly. What shall I say to your wife? I
will tell her to make haste home and that you are very
dull without her.”
CHAPTER X.
THE MARQUIS.
He
was a little man, with delicate and effeminate
features, on which he wore a look of assumed gravity,
at first carefully cultivated, but now as much a matter
of habit as though it had been a cosmetic applied daily
out of a gallipot in his old dandy’s dressing-case. His
eyes, nose and mouth were, like his daughter’s, perfectly
well shaped, but what in her was charming, in him was
ridiculous, and what was beautiful in her, in him was
purely comical; for there is nothing more preposterous
than the face of a pretty woman hung on, like a mask,
to the figure and manners of a pottering old man.
His fashionable dress, his easy demeanour, his refined
and frigid courtesy, which masked a total absence
of kindliness or intelligence, decorated his exterior
as a gorgeous binding covers a book that is
destitute of rational contents. He was not a vicious
man; he was equally incapable of wilful evil or intentional
good; he was a vacuous compound of weakness
and dissipation, corrupt rather from “evil communications”
than from inherent wickedness; one of so
many! a creature so hard to be distinguished from the
rest of his species, since absence of character has reduced
certain groups of the upper classes—as well as
of the lower—with a few notable exceptions, to a common
type which will lack a generic name till the advance
of terminology allows us to speak of them as
“the masses of the upper class.” Still, this empty-headed
and unenlightened mortal had a great command
of words in no respect deficient in meaning, and was
an admired master of all the commonplace of the press
and the law; he added nothing to be sure, but, on the
other hand, he deprived them of nothing. He was, in
short, always prepared with a perfect thesaurus of those
ready-made phrases which to many people form the
Alpha and Omega of learning and wisdom. He was
constantly insisting that “administration rather than
legislation was what was needed;” he was convinced
that “Spain is a nation past all government;” he was
for “upholding the venerable creeds of the past so that
we may once more become a terror to our foes at home
and abroad;” he was convinced that nothing of native
origin could be good for anything; that Spain is a
ruined country, notwithstanding the fertility of her soil;
and at the same time he maintained with punctilious exactitude
the immovable dogmas of Castilian Nobility,
of the Faith abandoned by the modern populace, of the
materialistic tendencies of the age and so forth; he had
a sacred horror of “Utopian dreams”—and anything
he did not at once grasp was to him an Utopian dream.
In short, not a string was wanting to his inexhaustible
fiddle.
“In here as usual, always in this blessed study of
yours, which is as dark and as small as a prior’s cell
and might be a prince’s boudoir for the treasures it contains!...
Here as usual Leon! I never meet you
anywhere. And María? She was with us last evening
... tears and lamentations as usual; her mother
tried to comfort her, and they sat whispering and talking—between
them I suspect, they made things pleasant
for you. They have nothing to think about but
their subscription to the theatres, and the festival-services
at San Prudencio’s; and after Mass they lay their
heads together to talk of the fashions.... But you,
are you ill? You look pale, what is the matter?”
“I?” said Leon, looking at his father-in-law like a
man who suddenly wakes face to face with a stranger,
“what were you saying?”
“That you look ill. We were talking of you last
evening at the Fúcars’. Since Pepa married Cimarra,
poor Don Pedro’s life is a bitter one—Poor Pepa! I
hear dreadful things of Federico ... and what a sweet
child that is of Pepa’s! Have you seen it? Do you
never go there?... Your cigars are first-rate.”
The smoke of their Havanas mingled as it curled
up to the ceiling, and for a minute or two there was
silence in the pretty little room; nothing was to be
heard but the bubbling trickle of the water in the hose
with which the gardener was sprinkling the shrubs outside,
and the twitter of caged birds in a window near,
whose chirruping song sounded like a piping medley of
musical notes trying to agree as to the best way of producing
a Wagnerian symphony. In the study, on a
book-stand as large as a pulpit, a huge geological atlas
lay open, showing the successive ages of the globe.
On the table were flowers, dissected so as to show their
inmost mysteries; insects undergoing autopsy; shells
sawn down the middle, revealing their secret chambers
of enamel and pearl; prints, displaying eggs at the
various stages of incubation; a model in papier-maché
of the human eye of the size of a coconut; and in the
midst of all this paraphernalia stood a microscope, the
lens reflecting a sunbeam on to the marquis’ head
which, being perfectly bald, offered a convenient subject
for the study of craniology.
“So you are studying natural history now?” said
Tellería with an air of condescending tolerance.
“Well, it seems to be the science of the day—the
science of materialism. Much good you are doing the
human race by depriving it of its time-honoured beliefs
and giving it in exchange ... what?—The precious
discovery that we are first cousins to the apes of
Retiro.” And he laughed with childish glee at his own
idea as he cast his eye on the litter of books.
“You know,” he said suddenly, “that I am on the
commission to report on the law concerning vagrants.”
“You will make a brilliant report.”
“It is a delicate matter,” added the marquis, throwing
himself back in his chair so that he sat with his eyes
fixed on the ceiling and his feet in the air. “It is the
question of the day. I have said again and again to
the president of the council: ‘so long as we have no
good vagrancy law legislation is impossible.’ We
must go to the root of the matter, to the foundation of
things, do not you see? It is the immense number of
idle and disreputable souls, the starving and thieving
classes, who count on a revolution to make their harvest,
who are the festering cause of the ferment in
which we live. Sweep away all this low filth and I
will be responsible for social good order.”
“Very true,” said Leon. “Sweep them away—a
clean sweep, that is what is wanted.”
“But the worst of it is that I cannot give as much
time as I could wish to the commission; I am so much
occupied. And that reminds me, Leon, I had some
business to discuss with you.”
He had in fact reached the point which was the object
of his visit; but though he approached the matter
with a degree of anxiety that made his heart beat, he
contrived to conceal his agitation. The man was too
weak not to suffer from such qualms, but too highly artificial
to betray them.
“You are aware that I am one of the directors on
the board of administration of the Bank of Agriculture.
It is a grand national undertaking; our function is to
raise the credit of landed property from the abyss into
which it has sunk.” Such phrases of financial cant were
a frequent garnish to the marquis’ conversation, and he
went on to deliver himself of a variety of novel ideas:
as for instance, that Spain is essentially an agricultural
country; that its territorial wealth cannot be developed
for want of capital; that the capital nevertheless exists—why
should it not?... That all that is needed is to
concentrate it, to secure it, and to redistribute it, so as
to enable it to fertilise—to benefit—to fructify—and
the marquis, having lost his thread, could not finish the
sentence, which he was improvising instead of repeating
by heart. He stopped short. The Bank of Agriculture
was closely connected with a great English company,
“The Spanish Phosphate Company, Limited,” which
was destined to effect a complete transformation in the
country; it was a magnificent scheme. “Funds, subscribers—these
were the two poles of the axis on
which the regeneration of Spain was to turn.” This,
again, was borrowed from the company’s prospectus,
and the marquis wound up his harangue by saying with
apparent indifference: “Well, what do you think of it?
Will you invest some of your capital in our shares.”
“I must save my capital to secure my income,” said
Leon with feigned simplicity.
“What, man!”
And then Leon went on to tell him such plain truths
about certain companies that his father-in-law suddenly
lost the delicate hue that his complexion usually wore
and a deep purple tinge, like mulberry stain, flushed his
cheek and betrayed his indignation. After a short pause,
during which he devoted himself to twirling the waxed
ends of his grizzled moustache till they looked as formidable
as bull-darts, he rose and began to examine the
objects of natural history.
“Well, there is nothing more to be said on the subject,”
he muttered.
He touched and turned over everything, taking up
this thing or that to inspect it more closely and then
peeped through the microscope.
“But I cannot see anything,” he said, with that odd
pride of ignorance that is occasionally to be met with.
“I am no good at all at such things ... thanks....
How much your microscope helps you! Now, do tell
me—can they see the soul with this? Or is it because
they cannot see it that they maintain that it has no existence?”
And before his son-in-law could reply he went close
up to him, and, standing in front of him, looked at him
for a minute or two; then shaking his head he said:
“I cannot help thinking that my poor daughter has
very good reasons for complaining.... I do not mean
that you are not a thorough good fellow, Leon; but
really if you think of it ... she has her beliefs, you
have yours—or, to be accurate, you have none. Your
lack of religion and your contempt for the time-honoured
beliefs of the Spanish People grieve and offend her
deeply. My dear fellow,” he added, laying his hand
on his son-in-law’s head with an affectionate gesture.
“You must remember that the Spanish People are above
everything religious, and you know Leon that we are
not in Germany here—that land of Utopian dreams.”
Leon attempted some explanation. “No, no, to
leave her at liberty is not enough,” Tellería began again
with some vehemence. “You must take some definite
step. You have a reputation for atheism that is really
appalling. I am frank with you, and for my part I
would rather lose my position and my name in the world
than have such a character for atheism as you have
gained. I quite enter into María’s feelings; she is
deeply religious—she and her twin brother were born
to be saints—and in the end she will hold you in horror;
she will fear and detest you, and be unable to live
with you ... and if it comes to that, the fault will be
yours for having expressed yourself so extravagantly in
your works. Of course we all have our leaven, more
or less, of heresy ... that is to say, I have not; I am
orthodox to the bone, I do not meddle with philosophies
... however, we all, even the firmest believers,
fail in our duties and neglect them; but at any rate we
exercise some caution, we have some tact, we keep up
appearances, we remember that we live among an eminently
religious nation and that we must set an example
to the lower classes or they will kick over the traces.
This is not Germany. There is nothing I hate more
than a Utopia. The Spanish People have many faults
but they will never outrage the sentiments which have
formed the foundation of their country’s glory and of
the respect it commands both at home and abroad. To
crown our misfortunes the aristocracy of Castile....”
But the worthy gentleman did not succeed in finishing
his sentence, for Leon interrupted him with some
energy.
For a long time their voices could be heard alternately
even in the distant room where the birds were
singing. María and her brother paused in their conversation
to listen to the parliamentary muttering that
reached them from the study.
“Those tiresome birds do not allow us to hear a
single word,” said the young man. “Listen María, papa
and your lord and master are disputing over something.
What a waste of time!”
“Be quiet, you little plagues,” said María impatiently
to the birds and she tried to hear what was
going on. Presently the curtain over the door was
hastily jerked open and revealed the pointed horns
of the marquis’ moustache and his face, in which solemnity
was now tempered by affability as though nature
had intended it as a living symbol of the eternal and
supreme duplicity of the human species.
“Well, you know,” he said in a bitter-sweet tone
between grave and gay. “I am a hypocrite, and tact
is my profession.... Your amiable wife has told me so
in so many words.... A humbug, a hypocrite—yes,
that is what she calls me....” And he kissed his
daughter. “Do you know I really think Leon is a little
weak in his mind,” he went on. “It is a pity, for he
is such a clever fellow.... Oh! those dreadful birds
will not let one speak.”
“Be quiet you little torments,” said María.
What a wonderful interest they take in the affairs
and disputes of their masters; between the sentences
of the conversation their shrill notes try to drown the
differences of humanity in a flood of rapture.
The party sat talking for some time longer, but the
birds prevented their being overheard, and the reader
must have patience till the birds have ceased singing.
CHAPTER XI.
LEOPOLDO.
One
morning when Leon Roch was sitting at work
in his study he was suddenly interrupted; raising his
eyes and looking in the large mirror that hung over the
chimney opposite to him, he saw a lean, tall figure surmounted
by a death’s-head, on which the grave seemed
to have spared little but the skin; eyes that looked
starting from their sockets, like those of a delirious
creature; a long, thin neck, all red and scarred; a
nose, also purple, finely-cut, though its extreme sharpness
gave it the aspect of a beak and lent the face
a bird-like expression; a meagre crop of yellow hairs
that straggled round the cheeks and chin, forming a
narrow line that irresistibly recalled the band tied round
the face of a dead man; a low forehead, on which his
hat had stamped a livid line, like a streak of blood; a
flat head with the red hair parted into two elegant
wings; a face in short which seemed the transfiguration
or parody of a handsome countenance, the caricature
of the family type; and at the same time he saw a man
with his hands in his pockets, feet like a woman’s of
which the toes were scarcely visible below the loose
trousers that covered them, and a body devoid of
roundness, of modelling or of grace, like a lay figure
made to wear a coat. His dress was a morning suit,
striped from head to foot, with an elegantly-knotted
cravat; a stick that he held in one hand stuck out on
a level with his pocket-hole, and a gorgeous flower
blazed in his breast like the blood-stained handle of an
assassin’s knife. As he caught sight of this personage
Leon exclaimed with frank good-nature:
“Ah! Polito, sit down.... What brought you
here?”
The young man let himself sink into an arm-chair
and stretched his legs with demonstrations of fatigue.
He spoke, and his voice, which one would have expected
to be thin and effeminate, was hoarse and rasping,
a sort of articulate cough or choke, like those
voices which, in the lowest social grade, are formed by
crying out wares in the streets, and which grow harsh
under the influence of the morning air and the nightly
dram. After making some brief remark he paused to
put a lozenge or pill into his mouth.
“I cannot do without my tar,” he said, “not for an
instant.—The moment I stop it I feel as if I were
choking.—And what are you doing, Leon? Always
at your books? How I envy you your peaceful life!—No,
thanks, I dare not smoke, it is quite forbidden.
We must try to conquer these epileptic attacks, just
now I am very well. I am going to Seville do you
know? All the fellows are going away and I cannot
stay here; we are a party of four: Manolo Grandezas,
the Count, Higadillos and I. Higadillos means to do
bull-fighting during the three days of Easter—Why do
not you do something! María would like immensely
to see the fêtes.”
“If she wishes to go I am quite ready to take her.”
“She does not wish to go, and that is the fact,”
said the hoarse-voiced youth. “By-the-bye, my dear
Leon, I hear people say that you and she are very unhappy,
that you do not get on together in the least,
and that your infidelity is a constant torment to my
poor sister. I, of course, laugh at such nonsense. ‘I
tell you he is the best soul living, a thorough gentleman
as you will find.’ That is what I answer, and by Jove,
you know I do not say a thing unless I mean it. Last
night the Rosafrías were saying that they could not imagine—What
simpletons!—They could not imagine
how my sister could have married you. ‘But, ladies,
be reasonable,’ said I, ‘consider....’ It was of no use,
they were utterly out of humour. I heard one lady
whom we all know—I give no names—I heard her
say in so many words: ‘I would rather see my daughter
in her grave than married to a man like that....’
Of course you had plenty of defenders, even of the fair
sex—‘Oh! but he is so clever, such a gentleman!’
But she cast you off by word and gesture.... ‘There
are things that are impossible, quite impossible,’ said
she. At last, I really did not dare put in a word for
you. What I advise, by Jove, is that you should cease
to go to certain houses; you will only expose yourself
to insult or to a snubbing. There is that little Señora
Borellano who speaks of you as the bête noire, still, she
allows that you are very attractive. Pepe Fontán said
a sharp thing apropos of that woman’s aversion for you.
‘It is all vexation,’ she said, ‘because Leon is the only
man she knows who never made love to her.’ You
know she has had an admirer at her heels for this year
past, and Cimarra says she cannot conceal her age.
Poor Federico! They say he has quarrelled with his
wife and his father-in-law—he forged some letters it
would seem. I suppose they will send him to Havana.
What is the time? Eleven! And María is not home
from church? You must allow that it is rather too
much of a good thing. Oh! I know; she and my
mother will have
staid
to chat with Padre Paoletti—an
Italian dyed black, as dark as a negro! By Jove! if
I were married I would not be henpecked, I know. My
wife should go my way or I would know the reason why.
María is as good as gold; but when she has got a
thing into her head!—You may not believe it but I
myself have spoken to her roundly before now for her
nonsense.—Why, my dear fellow, it is intolerable to
have a wife who is perpetually at you with her one
tune: ‘Go and confess: go to communion: go to
Mass.’ By Jove! it is enough to make you go and
shoot yourself! Since you leave her free to go her own
way she ought to know better. You are wrong to take
such folly so much to heart. Look here: I should
never forbid my wife attending four hundred and
twenty-six Masses a day and undergoing penance from
every confessor; but by setting a limit to her spending
my money on processions I would soon cure her of her
fancy. If she tried to talk to me about religious
matters I should say to her: ‘Very good, my child,
just as you please; I quite agree to all you say.’ In
short, we should never quarrel over a dogma more or
less; and meanwhile, my dear Leon, I should amuse
myself to the top of my bent. Why, my good fellow,
on your plan we should go to the devil without having
any fun first; there can be no greater folly! You bury
yourself among your books in this world, to be damned
in the next. For that is what you will come to as well
as I, we are all in the same boat!” And he laughed as
loudly as his short breath would allow.
Then, rising from his seat, and leaning on the table
with both hands, as though his body could not remain
upright without support, he went on:
“Do you know, my dear fellow, that you are going
to lend me four thousand reales?”
Leon opened a drawer; he smiled—why, it is
hard to say, but of all the members of his wife’s family,
this inoffensive creature was the one who filled him with
the deepest pity, for which reason perhaps, he loosened
his purse-strings for him from time to time, not merely
with patience but with a vague kindliness, not to grieve
so hapless and frail a being. Or perhaps Leon approved
of the system of the Vicar of Wakefield who,
when he wanted to rid himself of some importunate
relative, would lend him some money, a coat, or a horse
of no value, “and never,” said he, “did it occur that he
came again to my house to return it to me.”
“Thanks, best of beaux frères!” said the young
man, not attempting to hide the pleasure that every
human being feels at the acquisition of cash; “I will
repay you next month with the rest. Not all at once,
I tell you frankly that I cannot pay it all in a lump,
but in instalments. It is really frightful! If there
were three Easter-tides in the year every Spaniard
would be reduced to beggary. By Jove! it all goes in
charity; the other night those Rosafría girls coaxed me
into giving a thousand reales for the Pope. Now if the
world were properly constituted the Pope would give
to us.—Here, you little villain! Lady Bull, come
here this minute when I call you.”
The last words were addressed to a small dog that
had come into the room at the same time as its master
and that had immediately settled itself into an attitude
of respectful patience. It was an odious little brute, of
the King Charles breed, of the colour of a rat and the
shape of a porcupine, with a monkey’s muzzle between
long dappled ears, and a bloated body feebly supported
on four tiny paws. Towards the end of the conversation,
the creature’s little bell, till then silent, began to
tinkle energetically and Polito found the dog rummaging
among the books that lay piled on the floor.
“Come along, this minute!” said he, taking it up in
his arms.
At this instant they heard a noise of wheels and the
tramp of one of those wonderful Spanish horses which
seem to us as indefatigable as the bronze steed of an
equestrian statue that trots perpetually without ever descending
from its pedestal.
“Ah! there they are!” cried Leopoldo going to the
window. “Higadillos on horseback, the Count in his
break. I told them to come round this way to pick
me up—I am coming, I am coming!”
From where he sat Leon could see the carriage
drawn up by the gate, and the bull-fighter on horseback;
a huge young fellow with his legs swathed and
a voluminous scarf—a supple figure, not wanting in
sculpturesque beauty, crowned with a head of vulgar
Spanish type, of the hue of tobacco, under a wide sombrero.
His horse snorted and pawed, and the count
had his hands full with those in the break, a fiery pair
of a cross-breed between the Bearnais and Andalusian.
Polito was soon seated in the carriage with Lady Bull,
and the jolly party set out down the street, Higadillos
leading the way, and cheered by the jingle of the
horses’ bells. Leon looked after them with some curiosity;
it was a small but significant fragment of contemporary
Spanish history.
CHAPTER XII.
GUSTAVO.
He
looked at him and a friendly smile lighted up
his melancholy face in token of welcome; then they
both gazed out—for they were sitting by the window,
at the fresh and scented verdure of the garden, over
which the showers from the garden hose swept like a
light broom of water, laying the dust, startling the
birds, frightening the butterflies, drowning the insects
and caressing the plants. Skilfully directed by the
gardener, it penetrated the glistening density of the
euonymus shrubs, dashing off the surface of the leaves
in jets of spray sparkling with miniature rainbows.
The garden was a new one, one of those parterres that
are turned out complete by the nurseryman as the furniture
of a house is turned out by the upholsterer;
methodically planted with a tiny wood, lawns, orchards,
rockeries bordered with ivy, and baskets full of sweet-william
and convolvulus. Conifers grew in appropriate
spots, each surrounded by a formal bed in which
rows of petunias crept as if on their knees, before some
lordly araucaria, or the insolent loftiness of a dragon-tree
all spikes and blades. It all looked as if it had
just been taken out of a band-box and was the work of
human industry rather than of nature; still, it was very
pretty, and fresh, and gay, and nothing could be fitter
to divide the road which belonged to all, from the
house which belonged to one only.
After contemplating the scene for some minutes they
sat down to drink their coffee.
“Before I forget it,” said Gustavo, “I want to mention
my disapproval of a virtue in you, which, when not
judiciously exercised, must lead to mischief: I mean
your liberality, which must in the end injure you, as
well as my brother who takes advantage of it. I know
that you have at times given Polito money, and it annoys
me, for he is a ne’er-do-weel of the very worst
type. Now and here, in the strictest confidence, I may
tell you exactly what I feel, and pass impartial judgment
on the various members of my family. If their
conduct puts me to shame it is better to blush openly
than to feel it seething in my blood.”
The speaker was a young man of a very precise and
rather severe expression, a good deal like his father and
his brother, less handsome than María and far from the
ridiculous effeteness of Polito. His face was perhaps a
little hard; at any rate it indicated a firm and self-contained
nature quite exceptional in the family, settled
convictions and a healthy self-respect. He spoke
gravely and his manners were high-bred, free alike from
arrogance and from familiarity, with an equable and
chilling politeness which many persons thought supreme
affectation. Thoroughly honourable and gentlemanly
in all the relations of life, he was also well educated,
though not brilliantly talented.
Neither tall nor short, neither fat nor thin, dressed
in dark colours with a calm eye behind his spectacles,
free from every vice—even smoking—simple in his
tastes and pitiless to the dissipation of others, Gustavo,
eldest son of the Marquis Tellería, was generally spoken
of as the best of the family, as an honour to his rank,
and one of the hopes of the country. It is needless to
add that he was a lawyer. His brother Leopoldo was a
lawyer too; almost all young Spaniards are; but while
Polito hardly knew what a book looked like, Gustavo
studied every day and even found employment under
the protection of one of the most eminent pleaders of
Madrid. He had chosen what may be called the
national career, and having left the university a nobody,
he was now on the high road to becoming somebody.
It should be added that he had a natural gift for oratory.
“To you, my dear Leon,” he went on, “I may confess
that the conduct of every member of my family
causes me many hours of bitter reflection—excepting
of course the angel who is your wife and that other
angel, even more perfect perhaps, who now lives so far
from us. Is it not terrible to see my brother corrupted
by dissipation? Wallowing in the low frivolity which
debases so many individuals—I will not say of our
class, for the disgrace is not ours alone, but of every
class? Desiring to play a part above what our fortune
warrants, he has been led away into insane extravagance,
for his companions are rich and he is not. It
enrages me to see Leopoldo driving carriages and riding
horses which cost more than his whole year’s income;
besides, his ignorance distresses me, and his idleness
makes me desperate. Ah! you were quite right in what
you once said; there is a great deal of truth in your
remark that ‘while there is an aristocracy of nature
among the lowest, there is also a low class among the
aristocracy.’—However, all this is beside the mark; we
will not talk any longer on a subject that is so painful
to my feelings. I have, I think, made it sufficiently
clear that you really ought not to encourage Polito in
his recklessness.”
Leon inserted some remark but Gustavo went on:
“The blame, I admit, lies with my father. Our education
was very desultory. It would be absurd to try to
hide the fact that my mother, much as it costs me to
own it, has never succeeded in weaning herself or in
preserving us from the seductions of the gay world;
she has always lived more out of her home than in it.
To this day—for what is the use of denying what you
know as well as I do?—to this day, when our fortune
is so much impaired, and when, as I believe, the little
that remains will fall into the hands of our creditors, is
it not preposterous that my mother should keep up the
house on a footing which is so far beyond our means?
It is outrageous vanity; and you may take my word,
Leon, when I tell you that I pass hours of anguish in
thinking of it. When I see the expensive entertainments
she gives, the outlay to keep up appearances
while so many—so very many—necessaries are overlooked;
when I note the shameless variety of her
dresses, her constant presence at the theatres, her
anxiety to vie with others who have a great deal more
to spend—when I see all this, Leon, I feel impelled to
renounce the career of which I have dreamed in my
own country, and to go and earn my bread in some
foreign land.”
Leon again put in a word, but his brother-in-law replied
promptly:
“I should be quite willing to go, but what would
you have me do? I cannot give up my prospects when
I am on the eve of success; it is cruel to abandon a
position gained by so many years of hard study. And
indeed, the very fact that I foresee disaster for my family
makes me feel that it is my duty to stand by the wreck.
We must take life as it comes, dreary as it is.
“You can know nothing of this occult disgrace,
Leon; you cannot know what it is to live in a house
where nothing is paid for, from the carpets on the floors
to the bread we eat; nor the shudder that comes over
one at the sound of that recurring knell, the front door
bell, announcing some doleful or insolent creditor come
to claim his dues; you can have no idea of the farces that
have to be played day after day by people whose name
seems a guarantee of respectability and honour; nor
dream of the moments of acute misery that we, in a
more than decent position, endure for want of a sum of
ready money that would not spoil the night’s rest of a
common workman. You who are both rich, and moderate
in your requirements—and that is as good as a double
fortune—cannot conceive of the anxieties of acting
this bitter comedy among scenes of vanity on the
boards of poverty. You—calm and content, with no
passion but for your books, superior to those ambitions
which scare sleep from my pillow, and free from the
slips and reverses which embitter life—you are the
spoilt child of Providence; here in your own house,
never besieged by creditors, never molested by intruders,
in the delightful society of your wife who is a perfect
angel.... Poor María!”
After a brief silence, during which the young lawyer
seemed to be reading something on his brother-in-law’s
forehead, he went on in a bitter tone:
“And yet Leon you have not made her happy!”
Leon answered sharply, and the lawyer retorted
with the brevity and vehemence of a rifle shot; at
length, after a distinct assertion on Leon’s part, he
began again:
“Your first duty was to avoid all scandal and not
to give to the world the spectacle of a household disunited
and made miserable by questions of religion. If
it is your misfortune to be an infidel, you ought to have
hidden the plague spot from your wife, you ought to
have abstained from certain scientific publications of
which you have been guilty. Atheism is hideous under
every aspect, and when it has no sense of decency,
when it does not even blush to show itself, it is most
horrible of all. Deformity of whatever kind should be
veiled, above all that of the soul, so as not to be an
offence to public morality! Never hope to find me
lenient on such a matter. You know what I am; you
know that I never can conceal what I feel strongly. I
esteem you highly, and fully recognise your fine qualities:
your goodness—comparatively speaking—your
quiescent morality—for the virtues and good qualities
of those who deny revealed truth can rank no higher;
I admit that your life is better than that of some who
proclaim themselves believers, that you have all the
cold and immaculate merits of a heathen philosopher,
and that you carry out certain principles on the rational
grounds that it is right to be virtuous, or because the
performance of a duty is always advantageous in the
long run: that you obey your frigid philosophical moral
law just as you pay your taxes and submit to the laws
of health or to the regulations of the police; I grant
that you are one of the best in this mad turmoil of
folly and wickedness; I esteem you—nay I have a
great regard for you; I admire your talents, and in
spite of all this I tell you plainly if I, Leon, if I”—and
he rose, extending his arm, in an apostolic attitude.
“If I had had my sister’s hand to bestow I would
never, never have given it to you. Do you hear?
Never!”
Leon interposed warmly, but Gustavo went on:
“Oh! I loathe and detest hypocrisy as much as you
can. I admit but two alternatives: you are a Catholic
or you are not? In our sacred faith there is no trimming
or compromise. I—I am a Catholic, and as
such I act in every phase of life; I do not carry my
creed on my lips and atheism in my heart; I scorn the
ridicule of the frivolous—I go to Mass, I confess, I
communicate, I fast, I glory in defying the outrages of
the mob that seems to direct public opinion; I face its
cynicism with courage and answer its Voltairian heresies
with the holy dogmas and the authority of the
Church. And these ideas, this strictness of conduct, I
purpose to carry with me into public life. I shall take
it up with all the resolution of a soldier and a martyr,
guided by the Almighty hand that will not leave me defenceless
in the blood-stained arena of human passion.
Though men have dared to let loose the wild beasts of
infidelity and rationalism, be assured that God will not
fail to send among them those who can tame them.
“You need not expect a man who can express himself
so frankly and resolutely on the subject, to show you
any pity, or to join issue with you on any scheme of compromise
which would divide the onus of your differences
equally between you and my sister. No! and a thousand
times no! She is in no respect to blame. The fault is
yours, entirely yours. Truth and falsehood can never
effect a compromise. It is your part to give way, and
she can only remain supreme and triumphant.”
Leon could have replied, but he was weary of his
brother-in-law’s harangue and he turned the conversation
into a channel which he judged would be more attractive
to the young advocate. Gustavo gave up his
didactic vein at once.
“It is true,” he said, “the votes of your tenants at
Cullera have saved me, and I feel sure of success.
Between you and me, in the strictest confidence, I particularly
wish to be returned. It will be the high road
to success for me you see—my career. When a man
has fixed principles and the immovable determination
to defend them against all comers, a public life is an
honourable one. In the times we live in, it is a duty to
fight! Do you not think so? For when all character
is fast sinking into a gutter of corruption, it is well, and
very profitable, to show that one has some character, so
that men may say, ‘this is a man!’ When human reason
and outraged truth insist that there should be some flogging,
is it not a worthy and brilliant achievement to
wield the lash? Christian civilisation is like a noble
forest; it has taken religion centuries to produce it, and
philosophy dreams of destroying it in a single day.
We must stay the hand of these ruthless destroyers.
The civilisation of Christianity cannot be left to perish
at the mercy of a handful of theorists, aided by a mob
of lost wretches who, to escape the stings of conscience,
have suppressed God.” He flourished his large white
hand, brandishing it like a school-master’s ferule; and
as he prepared to depart he added: “My friend—almost
my brother—I have the deepest regard for you,
but when I think of that black spot I am anxious—very,
very anxious. If the plague in your dwelling increases,
beware! You will find me on the side of the victim—my
poor dear sister.—Good-bye.” And he went.
As he watched him depart Leon’s soul sunk within
him, and for some time he felt quite incapable of fixing
his mind on anything.
CHAPTER XIII.
THE LAST ILLUSION.
The
man whom we have seen in the retirement of
his study, disturbed at intervals during many months
by such scenes as we have described, did not, however,
give up his whole time to scientific work. He, like
others, was a wheel in the social machine, attached to
it by his instincts, by his marriage, nay by science
itself; and he was by no means one of those cobweb-spinning
savants of whom we are told in romances that
they are inseparable from their books and their alembics,
and as ignorant of the outer world as they are of
the true mysteries of science. Leon Roch went into
the world, he dressed well, and indeed was not to be
distinguished from the well-clothed multitude which
constitutes the most important, though not the most
picturesque portion of society. He never excused himself
from the methodically dull routine of the life of the
wealthy classes in the Spanish capital and he might be
seen with his wife in the fashionable employment of
“taking a drive”—a pleasure which consists in going
at a fixed hour to a particular avenue and gently jolting
to and fro in single file, one carriage behind another
and close together, at a regular pace, so that the
ladies who lounge in the landaus feel the hot breath of
the horses just behind them, while the quadrupeds,
mistaking the flowers in their bonnets for real ones, try
to make a mouthful of them. He frequented the
theatres, on the delightful system by which the subscribers
share a seat and go in turns, and which has the
advantage of providing them indiscriminately with emotion
or amusement, quite irrespective of their frame of
mind at the time. He invited a select number of
friends to dinner on one day in the week, having asserted
and won his right to choose his guests from
among the best of the few distinguished men of whom
Spain can boast. Nor did he select them by any rule
of creed or opinion, but solely to suit his personal sympathies;
as a consequence his weekly entertainments and
his evening parties gathered together superior men; independent
thinkers, staunch Catholics, politicians of the
epicurean pattern, aristocrats of the most ancient coinage
and nobles all hot and shining from the press, with
men who had risen to social importance by their talents
as omniscient gossips, or by the genuine charm of their
conversation; there too were rising stars from the university—young
men distinguished as professors, or
who shone in the debating societies. Perfect harmony
reigned however, for nothing is so soothing to the temper
as a good dinner, the presence of elegant women,
and the necessity for observing the laws of good breeding.
Though certain individuals, no doubt, detested each
other cordially, the general atmosphere was one of
mutual consideration, and the hours were passed in conversation
always polite, tolerant, instructive and delightful—the
happy product of this friction of various
minds. Art, letters, manners, politics—all were discussed;
there was a little grumbling, of course, a little
scandal; one group would take up some serious question—of
religion, for instance, a theme sure to occur
where two or three men are gathered together, and one
which has a perennial and unfailing interest. This absorbing
subject, which is so constantly discussed, in the
family circle, among students, and in the highest conclave—in
the confessional, in the palace, in the hut—among
friends and among foes—with words in every
human tongue, and sometimes with the roar of cannon—with
the jargon of party-spirit, the formulas of
reason, the slang of flippancy—overtly or in secret;
with ink often, and not seldom with blood—fills the air
with an incessant murmur, that rolls its ceaseless tide
from pole to pole without pause or lull. If our ears
were but a little keener, we might hear the dull unceasing
soliloquy of the ages.
Leon’s outward features were a clear olive complexion,
expressive eyes, black hair and beard; his
moral distinction was his inflexible rectitude and a firm
determination never to deceive. His frank gaze captivated
most people at first sight, but his uprightness of
spirit was not so immediately discernible, since a man’s
conscience does not lie on the surface. The place he held
in the estimation of his acquaintance depended consequently
on their view of things; to some he was an
admirable character, to others a malignant being; and
since his person was beyond question, handsome and
attractive, there were plenty to say of him: “He is a
very good fellow on the surface, but below that he is a
monster of deformity.”
He was not one of those rationalistic bigots—for
there is such a thing—who laugh the faith of others to
scorn, and ridicule their pious fervour; on the contrary,
he respected all who believed—nay he envied some.
He had no spirit of propaganda and desired to convert
no one to his own way of thinking; for though his
studies had brought him great enjoyment, they had also
given him many hours of isolation and bitterness, hence
he had no mania for casting souls afloat from the
blessed isles of the faith, only to see them land on the
cold solitudes of scepticism.
He had begun by devoting himself to the natural
sciences, finding in these the purest delight; then the
study of philosophy had sorely vexed his spirit, and he
finally returned to the pursuit of experimental science
in which he had found terra firma and a familiar country.
While natural history amused him, physiology
fascinated him; he was fond too of astronomy, to which
he was led by his taste for mathematics. “History,”
he would say, “dwarfs us; physiology restores us to
our natural measure; astronomy makes giants of us.”
There was in his spirit a certain aridity, the result of
the small play his imagination had enjoyed in childhood
and youth.
He was born in a room behind a shop, where he had
trotted in and out by the side of his mother, a woman,
coarse and rough by nature, of no breeding or education.
She worked hard, but she could not read. In her
vanity she had set her heart on her son being very precocious
and she firmly believed that he would rise to be
a general, a bishop, or a prime minister. After her
death he had lived for some little time at Valencia with
a maternal uncle, a potter, who had made money and
whose opinions were thus formulated: “Learning is
rubbish. A man who can make a brick is of more use
to the human race than if he could write all the books
that ever were printed.”
After this Leon went through a period of development
utterly devoid of follies or escapades of any kind;
he never fancied himself a dramatic poet; he never
plotted schemes of elopement or duelling; he went
through no moods of melancholy, no agitations as to
the choice of a profession, no ambitious dreams. He
was set to learn mathematics and told to “get on if he
could.” He did get on, it is true, and then he was
launched on an ocean of rocks where he had to struggle
with the petrified waves that bear testimony to the
Plutonic and Neptunian storms that have vexed the
globe; he was thrust head foremost, as it were, into the
bowels of the earth as revealed by deduction or represented
in museums, and told: “All these pebbles,
that look as if they had been gathered out of the roadway,
form a book of marvels; each flint is a letter of it,
and you must learn to read it.”
There he saw the rushing waters, roaring ere yet
there were ears to hear them, and refracting rainbows
ere yet there were eyes to see them; he read the pedigree
of the world in the remains of Bivalves, Crustaceans
and Ophidians, which had left the stamp of
their forms, like the seal set by ancient dynasties to record
the fact of their supremacy; he found plants that
had grown before there were teeth or mills to grind
them, or men to need them; he saw man himself, the
latest product of creation, born when the forests had
succumbed to become store-houses of fuel, before the
seas and rivers had levelled the plains, while thousands
of huge volcanoes were still belching fire and giving
the finishing touches to the crests of the loftiest mountains.
All this he saw and much more.
At a later period, when he had worked hard and
found himself a rich man, when he need no longer be
the slave of science but could be her master, he to
some extent cultivated his imagination. He knew full
well that he could never be an artist; still, he took in
hand the finer chisel which is commonly given to one
of the muses when they are painted on our ceilings;
but his hands, which could so ably wield the lever, were
too clumsy for so delicate an instrument.
“It is quite clear,” said he, “I shall always be a
bumpkin!”
He had succeeded in writing in a fairly good style,
clearly rather than elegantly; he spoke in public very
badly, very badly indeed, though in private conversation
he had a certain eloquence, especially on lofty subjects.
He had a free command of similes and constantly
used them, from the habit, now so largely
adopted by science, of flattering rather than scaring the
ear of the studious public; also because a parabolic
form of speech has in all ages been congenial to
superior natures. It is the instructive homage paid by
Science to Art who in return borrows the radiant lamp
of truth to light her on her glorious path.
This man, to whom it was a matter of absorbing interest
whether one pebble were more or less silurian than
another, and whether a solution crystallised in rhomboids
or in prisms, had from his earliest youth cherished a
dream of ideal life—a quiet and virtuous existence,
soaring on love and study, the two wings of the spirit,
as he used to say in his figurative jargon. The end of
his career of toil was to be the beginning of such a life,
secured by a marriage that should realise his dreams,
and by the growth of a family. This family that he
dreamed of—the one ideal family, the happy circle of
souls that he could call his own—constantly occupied
his thoughts. Could there be a sweeter or a brighter
lot? To see himself united to a wife he adored, loving
and submissive, with a sound understanding and a
heart of inexhaustible goodness to watch the growth of
tiny creatures who might ask him with tears for the
bread of learning—to work upon them by the best
methods for the development of their moral and physical
nature—to live for them, and provide the necessaries
of life for that beloved and ever charming group,
whose crown and centre, the ideal wife, would appear
as the living image of Providence, and the dispenser of
its benefits; now the mother, and now the teacher—clothing
them, feeding them, guiding their first tottering
steps, checking their over-boldness—Ah! for such
a dream it would be worth while to live! His imagination
painted the joys of a rich man, who can taste all
the pleasures of toil without being its slave.... A perfect
life, partly given to study, partly to the cares of a
family; divided in fair proportion between the country
and the town, since in that way nature and society, each
in turn, appears most delightful; a life neither too secluded
nor too public, in a calm retreat—not dull, but
far from the bustle of life, though not inaccessible to a
few select friends.
Yes, this was the goal he must aim at and grasp as
soon as possible, before his span was run in a ceaseless
and giddy whirl. He must find, as quickly as might
be, the woman who was to lay the foundation of this
happiness—a dream, no doubt, but still capable of
being realised. The choice would be difficult. She
must be studious, prudent, and grave; was he himself
qualified to make such a woman happy? Yes, he
could make her happy. Was he not learned, clever,
calm-tempered, judiciously critical, accustomed to analyse
human nature?—And yet—and yet....
CHAPTER XIV.
HUSBAND AND WIFE.
“And
yet I made a mistake.”
This he said to himself one night as he sat alone
with his wife in the silent quietude of his home, at the
hour when the mind wanders in the vague meditation
that is the precursor of dreams, after recalling the facts
of the past day which so lately were living realities and
so soon may become a nightmare. Before him, already
prepared to go to bed, sat the noble and beautiful
Minerva-like figure. Her sea-blue eyes, by some unaccountable
artistic blunder, were fixed on a book of
devotions—one of the popular and commonplace
manuals, full of magniloquent verbiage, and idle subtleties,
devoid alike of piety, of style, of suggestiveness, of
spiritual feeling and of evangelical truth—nothing but
a monotonous jangle of words. But what did it matter?
As she sat, nodding to sleep over this farrago,
María was charming to look upon.
Leon had dropped his evening newspaper—no less
a jangle in its kind, of broken strings, of tuneless bells,
and the vacuous clack of rumour—and was gazing at
his wife, raging inwardly at the hideous mockery of
Fate. He—he who through all his early years had
been absolute master of his fancy, had one day, all unconsciously,
given it the reins, and then, cheated and
betrayed, had allowed himself to be carried away by an
illusion altogether unworthy of so sober a character.
How could he have failed to see that between himself
and this woman there could never be any community
of ideas, nor that sweet union of minds that subsists
even among fools? How could he be thus deluded by
the witchery even of such perfect charms? How had
he overlooked the wall of ice—high, dense, insuperable,
which must stand for ever between them? Why
had he failed to detect that recusant will, that deeply-rooted
standard, that narrowness of purview, that absence
of magnanimity, for all of which there was so
little compensation in an over-wrought religious excitability?
Why had he not foreseen the dulness, the
emptiness of his home—lacking so much that was tender
and attaching, lacking above all the tenderest and
most attaching element of life: mutual confidence?
In a fit of desperate regret he raised his hand to his
brow and clutched it convulsively, as if in malediction
on the uselessness of learning. María did not notice
the gesture, but kept her eyes fixed on her book.
“I fell in love like any idiot,” he thought, looking
at her again, “but how could I help it?—she is
lovely!”
All his efforts to form María’s character had been
vain; at the earliest stage of her married life she had
loved him with more passion than tenderness, but ere
long, without ceasing to love him, she had begun to
regard him as an erring soul—to be pitied but
shunned. Leon had given her all liberty in the exercise
of her religion, and at first she availed herself of it
in moderation; but as he tried by degrees to influence
her mind—not undermining her beliefs, as his detractors
declared—but endeavouring to bring her intelligence
as far as possible into harmony with his own,
she abused the liberty he had granted and gave up
almost all her time to her devotions. Not that she renounced
all worldly pleasures and vanities; on the
contrary, she enjoyed them keenly, though in due moderation.
She went to theatres, except in Lent—she
dressed well, frequented the fashionable promenades,
and gave up part of the year to the excursions and
country visits that became her position and fortune.
She took great care of her personal appearance (for she
liked to be admired by Leon), very little of her household,
and none at all of her husband; the rest of her
time and thoughts she devoted to the various pious
meetings and benevolent dissipations to which she was
carried off by her mother or her friends; in short, she
served in the charmed ranks of fashionable religionism.
“And after all, is it not I who am the recalcitrant
party?” Leon said to himself with crushed resignation.
“Of what can I accuse her? Which of us is the believer?
If I had faith we should be happy—why
have I none?”
Then there was a third phase, during which María’s
devotion to him was as great as ever, though still vehement
rather than tender, and no more sympathetic
than at first. At this time María would attack her husband
with a mixture of human passion and mystic
piety, which did not exclude each other because they
reacted and complemented each other—trying to seduce
him into the path of religion à la mode, faint with
incense, splendid with tapers, gay with flowers,
smoothed with suave sermons and graced with women
of elegance and rank. Her fondest dream was to remain
a bigot without forfeiting the man who had so
completely realised the visions of her girlhood. To
get him to church—that was the hard task she had
set herself.
“Leave me—pray leave me,” Leon would say,
tortured by regret. “Go and pray God for me.”
“But without you half of myself is wanting; I cannot
feel as though I were good throughout, as I want
to be.”
Then she would fly to him, clasp him in her arms
and rest her head against the weary man’s breast, saying,
with a sort of sob: “I love you so much!”
Leon’s persistent refusal to take any part in her
pious practices brought them at length to that chronic
state of misunderstanding, or rather of moral divorce,
in which we have seen them two years after their marriage.
They had ceased to share their ideas or to consult
each other on any opinion or plan; they never enjoyed
that community of pleasures or of trouble which
is the natural marriage of souls; they neither wept together
nor rejoiced together—they did not even
quarrel. They were like those stars which look as if
they were but one, and which in reality are millions of
miles apart. All their friends could see that Leon was
wretched, and suffering deeply though in silence.
“He has set his heart on making his wife a rationalist,”
they said, “and that is as absurd as a sanctimonious
man would be.”
“That is just what I say,” another would reply,
“belief and disbelief are a matter of sex.”
“The fact is that he is desperately in love with
her.”
And this was the truth. Leon was bewitched by
the beauty of his wife, who every day seemed more
lovely and who, without interfering with her pious exercises,
had the art of enhancing it by the luxury and
taste of her dress and the perfect care of her person.
It was equally true of María: she too was desperately
in love; for no earthly consideration would she have
changed the husband with whom fate and the church
had blest her. The void in her heart had been filled
by a perfectly unspiritual passion for his extraordinarily
handsome person. Nor was he indifferent to the homage
paid by the multitude to the lord and master of a
gracious and beautiful wife—on the contrary, he was
extremely proud of it, and the thought that María
could under any conceivable circumstances have belonged
to any other man, even in thought or intention,
maddened him with rage. In short, they were two
divorced beings, so far as mind and feeling were concerned,
though united by the power of beauty, on the
stormy territory of imagination.
It was of this that Leon was meditating at this
hour of the night. At last he came to this bitter reflection:
“The world is governed by words and not by ideas.
Hence we see that a marriage may degenerate into
mere concubinage.”
“Have you done?” he asked his wife, seeing that
she had closed her book and was praying silently
with her eyes shut.
“Have you finished your newspaper?—Give it
me; I want to look at something. The Duchess de
Ojos del Guadiana does not wish to be at the whole
expense of to-morrow’s ceremony. Let me see if it is
announced in the column of services.” Leon looked
and read the column aloud.
“A sermon by Padre Barrios!” exclaimed María
with surprise. “We had asked him to withdraw, because
he is asthmatic and no one can hear him—What
a shame! San Prudencio is getting quite a
name as the place of refuge for all the worst preachers,
and all the scoffers congregate there to laugh at the
chaplain’s stammering and Padre Paoletti’s Italian
accent; it is all the result of certain persons undertaking
to manage the services and not doing it properly.
However, some one will come down upon them and
put their house in order.—No, no; do not put down
the paper; what is the opera to-morrow night?”
“The same again,” said Leon, laying down the
paper and putting his hand on his wife’s arm as she
was about to rise. “Wait, I want to speak to you.”
“And seriously it would seem,” replied María smiling.
“Are you vexed with me? Oh, I know you are
going to scold me. Yes,” she added, curling herself
up on a sofa close to his arm-chair, “you are going to
scold me for spending too much this month.”
“No.”
“Well, I have been rather extravagant, but I will
make up for it by being very economical next month.—I
know, my dear, I have spent more than my allowance.
Let me see—there are three dresses, sixteen
thousand; the triduo, four thousand; the novena which
I ordered, ten thousand; the new hangings in my room—but
that was all your fault, for laughing at the white
angels playing with the blue corn.—Then I have to
add the presents made to the actors who would not
charge anything for the charitable performance; two
watches, two snuff-boxes and two brooches.—But I
will give you the whole account to-morrow.”
“It is not that, I tell you—nothing of the kind.
You may spend as much as you like—you may ruin
me for aught I care, and waste all my substance on
dressmakers, priests, and actors. It is a much graver
matter than your extravagance that I want to discuss,
María: I want to ask you whether you do not think it
high time that the emptiness and misery of our married
life should have an end—that you should recognise
that your excessive devotion to church ceremonies is
almost a form of infidelity, and that by giving up so
much to the cause of piety you are in fact doing an injury
to me and to our common interests?”
“I have told you before,” replied María very
gravely, “that I am prepared to account to God for
my devotions—for good or for evil.—Not to you,
who cannot understand them. Try to do so—be converted
to the faith, and then we can talk about it!”
“Faith! it is you who do not understand. I have
none—I can have none such as you require. Indeed
and if I had, your conduct and your way of carrying
out your religious duties would cure me of it. I may
tell you, once for all, that in your actions and your
fevered excitement about sacred things I see nothing
that becomes a Christian wife. My house is not a
home, and my wife is no more than a beautiful dream,
as remote as she is fair. This, I tell you is not marriage—you
are not my wife nor I your husband.”
“And whose fault is that but yours?” she exclaimed
eagerly. “If harmony and confidence are absent, who
is to blame?—Your atheism, your infidelity, your
separation from the Holy Church! I stand safely
within the pale of matrimony—it is you who are outside.
I call you, I invite you to enter with open arms
and you will not come—Coward!”
And she stretched them to him, but Leon made no
attempt to throw himself into them.
“I should come,” he said, “come with rapture, if I
saw in you the faith which regards religion as the
purest form of love. I should admire and respect your
faith, and only wish that I could share it—but as it is
I do not—I cannot—wish to follow.”
“You are mad, utterly mad! What is it that you
do wish? That I should deny God and the Church,
that I should turn rationalist like you, that I should
read your books full of lies, that I should believe that
we are all apes, that materialism is truth, that Nature is
the only God, or that there is no God—all your
hideous mass of heresies? Happily I have been able
to escape falling into that abyss. I am pious and can
believe all I ought to believe; I worship sincerely and
constantly, for that is the best means of keeping faith
alive and active, and of closing the soul against the entrance
of any false doctrine.—I go to church too
often? I am unreasonably particular in my attention
to the rules of the Church? I am extravagant in the
services I pay for? I listen every day to the Word of
God? I pray night and morning?—This is the old
story—is it not? I know I am looked upon as a
fanatic. Well, there is a reason for everything. Do
you suppose that I should cling so passionately to the
Cross if I had not you for my husband—you—an
atheist; if I were not—as I am—in constant peril of
contamination by your views, and by my daily intercourse
with you, nay, by my very love for you? No—if
you were not so far from devout I should be less so.
If you were a sincere Catholic I should not be a bigot—I
should fulfil the most necessary duties but nothing
more. It is like this Leon—supposing two men are
out together in a small boat on a stormy sea; if both
row with equal strength they will easily reach the
shore; but no—one only lifts his oar, and does not
pull at all. Must not the other work twice as hard or
else they perish? Understand that clearly my dear—one
oar must save us both.”
“That figure of speech is not of your invention,”
said Leon, who knew full well the extent of his wife’s
rhetorical powers. “Whose is it, pray?”
“Whether it is mine or not can be of no importance
to you,” retorted María with contemptuous
asperity. “The important point is that it covers an
indisputable fact. Do you wish me to learn the truth
from your miserable books?”
“No, no—I do not ask that,” said Leon sadly.
“But wicked as I may be—reprobate as you believe
me, do you think I am so bad as to deserve that you
should not accept a single idea from me, and that you
must always conceal and reserve your own, and keep
yourself as far away from me as possible?”
“Nay—I accept your love which I believe to be
sincere, and your respect for my beliefs which I feel to
be honest, and your personal protection—but your
views, your opinions....”
María spoke with such emphasis, and broke off
with such a sparkle of scorn in her eyes with their dazzling,
cat-like gleam, that Leon felt a chill about his
aching heart like the stab of cold steel.
“Nothing that is mine!” he murmured, and his
gaze fell on the ground as though death were his only
hope.
“Nothing that proceeds from your haughty and
erring intellect,” said his wife, giving what she thought
was a decisive thrust. “Nothing that can contaminate
me with your diabolical philosophy.”
There was a pause, and then Leon, with a prolonged
sigh, looked up at her, pale and anxious.
“And who has taught you to say all this?” he
asked.
“That matters not,” replied María, also turning pale
but without losing courage. “I have told you already
that, as a devout Catholic, I do not feel bound to render
an account to an atheist of all the secrets of my
religious conscience or of what regards my devotional
practice. You need only be certain that I am faithful
to you, and that I have never been false to my marriage
vows in act, intention or thought. That is
enough—I fulfil my pledge and duty as a wife and
this is all the confidence you need look for from me.
As for that part of my conscience which concerns God
alone, do not hope to read it—it is a sanctuary into
which you have no right to enter. Do not ask me:
‘Who taught me to say this or that’—You have no
right to an answer.”
“I do not require it,” he said. “I never took it into
my head to be uneasy because my wife went to the
confessional three or four times a year to make a clean
breast of her shortcomings and crave absolution in accordance
with her creed. At the same time the confessional
has its abuses: it asserts its rights to spiritual
control by devious and underhand means, by daily
interference, by constant and secret discussion of
details, fostered on one hand by the scruples of an innocent
soul, and on the other by the prurient curiosity
of a man who has no natural family ties.”
“Indeed!” said María sarcastically. “It would be
better, no doubt, that I should seek rules of conscience
from the spiritual direction of your atheistical friends!
I am sickened as it is, by the flippancy with which
some of them speak of sacred subjects. I have told
you, before now, that the parties in our house were an
ostentatious and scandalous parade of evil principles
and the day will come when I shall resolutely refuse to
countenance them. I do not deny, of course, that
some of your visitors are highly respectable; but others
are not—I know what opinions some of them hold.”
“And who has informed you?” asked Leon eagerly.
“Oh, I don’t know.—All I say is that I am tired
of being civil to them, of concealing my disgust in the
society of men who have written or who have said in
public—or who have neither written nor spoken—but
I know what their opinions are all the same; yes, I
know....”
“Much indeed you know!—But you have pronounced
sentence on our evening meetings, and that
sentence will be followed by others.” And with the
strange but natural revulsion of a dull persistent grief,
that relieves itself by delusive flashes of bitter amusement,
Leon laughed aloud.
“Indeed,” said María, a little abashed. “Your
evenings are a constant vexation. They are very discreditable,
for with all your discussions on politics, or
music, or some invention, or perhaps on history, our
house is a hotbed of atheism.”
“And it would be a hotbed of virtue if we danced
and talked gossip?—No, in my drawing-room no one
has ever discussed atheism nor anything approaching
it. Your pure and childlike conscience may rest
easy! Do not let that distress your happy and innocent
soul, if you believe that you have accomplished
every duty by carrying the external practice of religion
to the verge of folly and by worshipping words, symbols,
dogma and routine with superstitious fervency,
while your spirit lies cold and torpid, devoid of joy or
sorrow, of struggle or of victory, lulled to sleep by the
drone of sermons, the braying of organs, and the rustle
of silken vestments! You believe yourself to be perfection,
and you have not even the grace of a wavering
spirit held firm, of doubts sternly silenced, of temptation
resisted, or of contentment sacrificed. How easy,
how accommodating is the piety of our day! Formerly,
to dedicate yourself to the faith meant the total
renunciation of every pleasure, the abdication of
self-will, hatred of the pomps and vanity of this
world, contempt for riches, luxury and comfort, so as to
cast off the flesh and spiritualise the soul and meditate
more freely on heavenly things; it meant living only the
spiritual life to the highest pitch of rapture, of frenzy
even—the rich emulating the poor, the healthy praying
God for chastening disease, and the clean craving to
be covered with foulness. It was an aberration, no
doubt; but it was a sublime one, for self-sacrifice and
abasement are of all virtues those which least lose their
merit by excess. It was suicide, but it was guiltless
suicide, since it was the very madness of self-abandonment!
While now....” and Leon fixed on his wife a
gaze fired with enthusiasm and scorn—“now the rules
of piety demand constant oblations and a positive competition
in the matter of ostentatious services; still,
every one is dealt with according to his rank, the poor—as
being poor, and the rich as being rich; provided,
that is to say, that they do not refuse to contribute in
due proportion. The devout women of the present
day attend Mass, mortify themselves in comfortable
chairs, pray kneeling upon cushions, and sweep the
dust of the sanctuary with their trains. This only
occupies their mornings; in the evening they are free
to dance, to go to the play, to cover themselves with
jewels and finery, to meet at the tables of the rich—though
they may be Jews or heretics, to display themselves
in promenades, and enhance or improve their
charms to captivate men!—After all, what is the harm?
The devil is in his dotage—he has come to terms—he
is grown old and has forgotten his business!”
“Your jest is a coarse one,” exclaimed María in
some confusion. “According to that I am in mortal
sin because I dress well and go to the theatre.—You
are talking of what you do not understand; you atheists
are the maddest souls that live.”
She was not angry, and to prove it she coaxingly
stroked her husband’s face. “Do you think your eloquence
has brought me to nought, my dearest?” she
went on. “But when you see that I dress carefully
and go to the theatre, you must know that I have got
leave to do it, and so can please myself without staining
my soul. Nay, who has been more anxious to set
me at rest on this point than yourself; for you have
always said that, as a married woman, I have no right
to break the ties that hold me to society.”
“Yes, that is the right thing to say, I know!” said
Leon laughing. “Amuse yourself as much as you can,
so long as....”
“Your reservations are blasphemy—say no more,
foolish man. Sooner or later I shall yet succeed in
proving to you that all your wisdom is mere foolishness!”
“Foolishness?” said Leon, putting his hand under
his wife’s chin—soft, round and delicate.
“Think how I shall laugh at you when, at length,
by the efficacy of my prayers, of my faith, and of my
piety.... You smile? Nay do not smile; some
wonderful cases have been seen—some of the instances
I could tell you of would astonish you.”
“Then do not tell me of them,” said Leon, turning
his wife’s face from side to side, as he still held her
chin between his finger and thumb.
“Yes, cases that seem incredible—cases of wicked
men who have been converted;—and you are not
wicked.”
“Then I have not been denounced as a reprobate
yet? Make yourself easy my dear, all in good time.
Thanks for your friends’ good opinion of me—while
it lasts!”
María threw her arms round him, and clasping his
head to her bosom, kissed his forehead.
“You will come to me yet,” she said, “you will be
a devout Catholic and be one with me in the practice
of my beautiful religion....”
“I!”
“Yes, you. You will come to my arms!—How
happy we may be then—I love you; you know how
I love you!”
And how handsome, how lovely she was! Leon
could not but feel the irresistible charm of such perfect
beauty of face and form—of eyes whose depths seemed
as translucent and as mysterious as the sea when we
peer into the waters to find some lost treasure at the
bottom.
María went across the room and stood in front of a
mirror, raising her hands to let down her hair. The
black tresses fell on her shoulders, which could not in
justice be compared to cold hard marble since they
were of the tenderest texture; but there is Parian flesh,
though mysticism calls it clay, and the Divine Artificer
has used it to form some few human statues which
hardly seem to need a soul to give them life and
beauty.
“She is lovely!” Leon exclaimed, as he sat sunk in
his arm-chair, gazing like a simpleton. “Lovelier every
day!”
After making various little arrangements at the
glass, María went into her alcove. Leon’s head sank
between his hands, and he remained for a long time
lost in thought. He was in a fever. At length he
rose—angry with himself or with some one else. “I
am a fool!” he said. “I wanted a Christian wife and
not a hypocritical odalisque.”
CHAPTER XV.
A MODUS VIVENDI.
He
sat in silence for some little time; suddenly
María gave a loud and terrified cry; he flew to her
alcove and found her sitting up in bed, her eyes fixed,
her arms extended.
“Leon, oh Leon!” she gasped in alarm, “Are you
there—oh, where are you? Ah! Yes—here you
are—Hold me—What a hideous dream!”
Leon soon succeeded in soothing her by recalling
her to waking reality, the best cure for such vagaries of
the fancy.
“I was dreaming—I dreamed I had killed you,
and that from the very bottom of a deep, black hole
you looked up at me, with oh! such a face—And then
you were alive again, but you loved some one else.—I
will not have you love any one else....” and she flung
her arms round her husband’s neck.
“What o’clock is it?” she asked.
“It is late. Go to sleep again; you will have no
more nightmares.”
“And you—are you not going to bed?”
“I am not sleepy.”
“Are you going to sit up all night—What is the
matter? Are you reading?”
“No, I am thinking.”
“What we were talking about?”
“Of that, and of you.”
“That is right. Think over all the truths I told you
and so you will be unconsciously preparing your mind.—Hark!
I hear a bell. Is it a fire?”
They listened. They could hear the barking of
the dogs, which in the suburbs of Madrid, where every
house has a wide and vacant let attached, meet in
dozens to unearth kitchen refuse and rummage in the
gutters; they could hear the distant creak and jangle
of the latest tram-cars, and the faint, steady, metallic
ticking of Leon’s watch in his waistcoat pocket—nothing
else—much less a bell.
“No,” he said, “and it is not the hour for tolling
for prayers.—Go to sleep.”
“I am not sleepy—I cannot sleep,” replied María
turning on her pillow. “I feel that I shall see you
again at the bottom of the pit, staring at me. You
laugh at it—and it is preposterous to dream of seeing
a man lying dead who believes and declares that this
life is the end of all things.”
“Did I ever say such a thing?” exclaimed Leon
with annoyance.
“No—you never said so; but I know that is what
you think—I know it.”
“How do you know it? Who told you so?”
“I know it; I know that is what philosophers think
at the bottom of their souls, and you are one of them.
I do not read your books because I do not understand
them; but some one who does understand them has
read them.”
Leon rose and turned away, deeply provoked and
troubled; he was about to quit the alcove, but suddenly
he came back to his wife’s bedside; he took her hand,
and said in a stern firm voice:
“María, I am going to say a last word—the last.
An idea has just flashed upon my mind which seems to
me to promise salvation—which, if we both accept it and
act upon it, may yet save us from this hell of misery.”
María, overcome by the pathos and solemnity of his
address could say nothing in reply.
“I will explain it in two words.—Happy thought!
I cannot think why it never occurred to me before—:
I will promise to give up my studies and
my evening meetings—the society alike of my books
and of my friends. My library shall be walled-up like
that of Don Quixote; not a word, not an idea, that
can be thought suspicious shall ever be uttered in the
house, not a remark that can be regarded as flippant or
worldly on matters of religion; there shall be no discussions
on history or science—in short, no conversation,
no talk whatever....”
“What a comfort! what happiness!” cried María
raising herself to kiss her husband’s hands. “And you
really and truly promise me this—and will keep your
promise?”
“I solemnly swear it. But do not sing your Te
Deum too soon; you will understand that I do not propose
to make such concessions without requiring some
on your part. I have told you my side of the bargain—now
for yours. I will sacrifice what you ignorantly call
my atheism—though it is an entirely different thing—now
you must sacrifice what you call your piety—doubtful
piety at the best. If we are to understand
each other, you must give up your incessant, interminable
devotions, your weekly confession—always to the
same priest,—and all the scenic accessories to religion.
You may go to Mass on Sundays and Holy Days, and
confess once a year, but without previously selecting
your confessor.”
“Oh! this is too much!” exclaimed María hiding
her face as if in self-pity for the miserable remnant left
to her of her religious dissipations.
“Too much!—you think this too much to ask, silly
child! Well, I will make a compromise: If you reduce
your church-going I will go with you.”
“You will go with me!” she cried starting up in her
bed impulsively. “Is it true?—do you mean it?—No,
you are mocking me.”
“No indeed, I will go with you, on Sundays.”
“Only on Sundays!”
“Only on Sundays.”
“And you will confess, like me, once a year.”
“Oh! as to that....” Leon murmured.
“You will not?”
“No.—You ask too much at once. I am making
an enormous sacrifice, while yours is but a small one.
You are giving up superfluous luxuries to enjoy all that
is necessary and reasonable; you are snatching off the
mask of hypocrisy and bigotry to reveal the true beauty
of a Christian wife. This is not a sacrifice. Mine on
the other hand is the loss of everything;—in laying
my studies and my friendships at your feet, I am cutting
off half of my life that you may trample it in the dust.”
“But still it is not enough,” said María passionately.
“Of what use is it that you should cease to read if
you continue to think—if you still think and always
will think the same? You will go with me to
church as a mere formality; your body will go in,
but your soul will remain outside; and when you see
the sacred Host raised in the hands of the priest, a
feeling of abominable mockery will laugh within you—unless
indeed you are meditating on the insects you
can see with your microscope, and which you believe
to be the cause of thought and sentiment in our souls,
and which I believe to be divine.”
“Your sarcasms cannot touch me,” said her husband.
“I know too well the source of these ignorant
prejudices. I can only pledge myself to honest and
reverent attention.—But I was forgetting another matter.
You will have to quit Madrid; we must go to
live elsewhere. Now take your choice.”
“You ask too much—it is a shame!” cried María
in the voice of a spoilt child. “And what do you offer
in return? A sham of religion, a mask of belief to
cover your infidel’s face! No, Leon; I cannot agree.”
“Then there is no hope for me,” cried Leon burying
his head in his hands. After a few minutes of silent
anguish, he coldly looked up at his wife and went on:
“María, then we must live apart. I cannot endure
this existence. Within a few days it shall be settled.
You can remain in this house or go to your parents,
which ever you prefer; I shall go abroad, never to return—never.”
He rose; his wife, after the manner of fashionable
wives, burst into tears, seizing his hands and pressing
them to her breast.
“We must part?” she sobbed. “But you are mad—cruel....”
María’s love for her husband was as great
as his for her—a gulf, an absolute divorce of their souls
she could bear, but to live apart...!
“My mind is quite made up,” said Leon sadly.
“I agree—I consent to all you propose.”
Long after, when she had been sleeping for some
hours, again Leon heard his wife wake with a cry of
horror.
“I have been dreaming again—a horrible dream.
I was dying and again I saw you—you were caressing
and kissing another woman.—But it is daylight; the
bells are really ringing now.”
The air was in fact full of the discordant jangle and
clang of bells from the towers of the numberless stuccoed
and whitewashed structures which, in Madrid,
boast of the name of churches, and bear witness to the
piety of the natives.
“They are ringing for Matins,” thought María, “I
am dying of sleepiness—I must sleep. It is eight
o’clock and still they ring, still they call me.—But I
cannot go—I have given my word. Heavens! it is
nine! Forgive me—spare me, beloved bells; I cannot
go till Sunday.”
CHAPTER XVI.
IN THE DOG-DAYS.
The
season of exodus and dispersion had arrived.
Madrid was swarming and bustling like an ant-hill,
every one exhausted by the heat and eagerly seeking
money. The price of gold went up as though war were
impending, and transactions in small shares were as
lively as though there were some real increase of business.
Many a family drew the rope that the extravagances of
the past winter had tied round its neck, yet a little
tighter; while others, not owning even a rope to pull,
consoled themselves by singing the praises of the
Madrid Summer, and declaring the charms of its
promenades and its beautiful nights to be far superior
to the solitude and dulness of the country. A summer
at Pinto or Getafe was as bad as a winter at El Escudo
or Pajares!
The Tellerías were among the number of those who
would not for worlds have stayed in town. They too
were off in defiance of all the laws and logic of arithmetic
and economy. The marquesa, however, stretched
out the spring to its utmost span, saying that the heat
was still very endurable and that in the north the
weather was rainy and cold. Leon, having no motive
for deferring his departure, but, on the contrary, every
reason for hastening it, fixed it for the first week in
July. But the day before they started an unexpected
event upset every body’s plans. The sons of the marquis
had long known that their brother, Luis Gonzaga,
was out of health; Gustavo and Leon knew more indeed—they
knew that he was suffering from a painful
and lingering complaint, that scourge of the young,
consumption, which frequently attacks a delicate constitution
or one that has been undermined by dissipation
or study. As the fathers of the seminary where the
young man was living pronounced his malady to be only
at its incipient stage, nothing had been said to his
mother, with the idea that it would come quite soon
enough to her knowledge when, in the course of the
summer, she should go to see her son. But now, suddenly,
like a bolt of wrath from Heaven, came a letter
from the Principal, announcing that Luis Gonzaga’s
disease had assumed an aggravated form and that
“as the young man was anxious to see his family he
would travel to Madrid next day by the express train.”
They were all startled and dismayed at the news
and still more so when, on the following day, the poor
lad appeared, so surely stamped with the marks of
suffering that he looked like a spectre in a priest’s
gown. Though his features were shrunk under the
cold kiss of Death, they had a strong resemblance to
the bright and lovely face of his sister. As has been
said they were twins, and were as much alike as a man
and woman can be, but that the girl, full of health and
vigour, had always had the advantage in strength and
beauty over her brother, who had been frail from infancy.
Delicate and beardless, he had believed himself
destined by Nature for the priesthood and had accepted
his vocation to prayer and devotion. His eyes, which
in form and colour were the very duplicates of María’s
were set in dark circles; he had even in childhood
always had the hectic flush of fever which had lurked
in his veins as though it were part of his temperament,
and now, when the end was drawing near, it was an
internal fire, consuming his existence. The flowing
black robe revealed every angle of his emaciated frame
as he sat or walked; his voice was that of a man
speaking in some deep, invisible airless pit, where the
sound dies away in dull vibrations like the dropping of
hidden waters.
Leaning back in an easy-chair, he responded to the
warm and loving greetings of his family with short sentences,
in which intensity of feeling made up for brevity
of expression, pressing their hands and gazing at them
with tender and hungry eyes. His mother, in utter
despair, could not control her grief, though her lamentations
always ended in schemes for giving her son
change of air—pure, country air—the air of cowsheds,
or for taking him to some health-giving waters.
The first thing decided on was a medical consultation;
the sick man smiled incredulously, but he offered no
opposition; the long habit of obedience in which he
had been so severely trained, gave him strength to endure
to be tormented even in his suffering.
Leon had never yet seen him. When he came in
the marquesa introduced them:
“Here,” she said, “is a brother you do not know.”
“Yes—I know him,” said Luis Gonzaga, placing
his thin, damp, burning hand in Leon’s strong one,
while he fixed on him a steady, piercing gaze for so
long, that his mother, alarmed by his mute examination,
added anxiously:
“You know how good he is?”
“Yes—I know, I know,” and he turned to look at
his sister. “You are leaving Madrid?”
“Nay—how could we go and leave you?” said
María with tears in her eyes.
“But your husband will not like to be detained.”
“We shall stay at home now,” said Leon sitting
down with the group that had gathered round the newcomer.
“María will not wish to part from a brother
whom she has not seen for so long, nor can I wish that
she should.”
“Nor would you like to leave her,” added the marquesa.
“You are a model of kindness and amiability.—Perhaps
we may all go together.”
“When Luis is better,” said Leon. “And meanwhile
we will put off our journey.”
The same, or the following day, Leon found himself
alone with his mother-in-law, and witnessed one of
her most violent fits of grief, expressed in sighs and
lamentations over her miserable fate, and remorseful
protestations of economy and moderation for the future.
The good lady shed a few tears, pressing her son-in-law’s
hand with the fondest display of maternal affection
and endless terms of endearment.
The Tellería family, she explained, were in financial
difficulties; the illness of her youngest son required immediate
and considerable outlay; she really could not
find it in her heart to treat a party of physicians as her
husband treated his back-stairs creditors—his extravagance
indeed was positively scandalous; for her part
she was weary of the life of superficial display which
her husband and sons insisted on keeping up out of
sheer pride, and in spite of all she could say. She was
sick to death of balls and parties, and could only endure
in silence the hidden misery and incessant care
which made a hell of her wretched home. Oh! her
education, her birth, her principles, her best feelings
were all in revolt against the hideous farce; but she
was weak—she was led by her affections, and even
though she found no return, she loved the authors of
her wretchedness—she could not break them of the
habits they had acquired. However, now she was resolved
to be firm and energetic; to put an end to the
malpractices of her household; to check the marquis
in his recklessness; to speak plainly—very plainly—to
her sons, to institute a strict—an excessively strict
régime; to live on their regular income, and to renounce
delusive splendour and ridiculous pretentions in favour
of a respectable sufficiency. Then she sat bathed in
tears, praying God to spare her daughter such woes as
had fallen on her parents’ hearth—a mercy which indeed
He seemed disposed to grant, since he had blessed
her with so exemplary a husband—a wise, a model
husband—a man of a thousand—worthy to be a
saint, if he were so happy as to win the absolution of
the Church.
The same day, or the next, the marquis caught
Leon and shut himself up with him in his study, where
in pathetic accents, he unfolded the tale of his troubles
and drew a picture of his present position with highly
effective touches—grouping the shadows, and giving
relief to the most immediately important feature: the
sickness, namely, of the best and dearest of his children.
This misfortune was the final blow to the house of
Tellería, weak as it was already and tottering to ruin,
though dressed out with tinsel, gilding and useless frippery.
He—the illustrious but unfortunate speaker—must
face a terrible problem, his honour as a public
official and his dignity as the father of a family,
were alike in jeopardy. The hardest thing was that the
fault was not his but his wife’s; she was the instrument
of the filtration—a word he greatly affected—the
constant filtration which was draining away his fortune.—At
the same time he was, he admitted, also to blame;
he had liked to keep up an unnecessarily handsome
appearance, he had owed it to his name, to his party,
to his country—he had counted on the success of
operations in the money-market, on the advancement
and prosperity of his sons. Alas! in vain; he was
deceived and disappointed. He could not wholly exonerate
himself to be sure; he had been weak, foolishly
weak with regard to the reckless luxury in which his
wife had chosen to live; he ought never to have
sanctioned with his presence all the luncheons, tea-drinkings,
balls and routs which, on fixed days of the
week had filled his house with turmoil, and gossip, with
pretentiousness and vanity; he ought to have resisted—to
have protested; no doubt of that. He had not done
so, he had made himself her accomplice; he had been
false to the sound conservative principles which were
the pole-star and beacon of his life. But now he was
determined to stop these abuses, to introduce a radical
reform of his household, to insist on economy, to maintain
domestic order, which was the basis of all virtue,
public or private.
Nor was his son-in-law to suppose that he had discussed
this painful subject with the object of obtaining
any assistance to get him out of his difficulties; no—this
would ill become his dignity, which was extremely
susceptible on such matters—his only purpose was to
let Leon know, once for all, the painful truth, so that
he might use his influence in the family and point out
the abyss that lay at their feet. The illness of his
favourite son was a great grief to him, and he cared for
nothing now in this world; he was the victim of a fatality,
of all the desperate ills that weighed on his ungovernable
country—a poverty-stricken land in spite of its
fertility. How was a man to make headway against the
difficulties of such a state of things? Why, he himself—the
marquis—ought to take sulphur baths for his
rheumatism, but he could not, he did not care to undertake
the journey. Duty kept him in Madrid by the side
of his invalid son and prohibited his spending on himself
the money which was needed to prolong that
precious life—a young man of a thousand, almost a
priest, and quite a saint sent down from heaven!—But
the marquis knew where his duty lay and was prepared
to fulfil it. His rank as a Spanish nobleman required it;
still he craved the advice of a sympathetic and disinterested
friend, who might encourage him with brave words
and help him by spirited example; he needed an upright,
judicious and outspoken man who hated all
shams; he wanted moral support, purely moral support.
“Moral support and nothing more,” he repeated
with a deep sigh, as he wrung Leon’s hand.
If praise, well-merited praise, could have made
Leon vain, he must have been elated when a few days
later his mother-in-law said with an accent of perfect
sincerity:
“It is strange but very certain, my dear son, that a
man may have a warm good heart with a head absolutely
devoid of religious notions.” And when the
marquis added:
“I believe you are the best man alive. You are
good enough to make me believe in a Utopia—and
you know I am not apt to believe in Utopias. I cannot
tell you all I feel when I think of the interest you take
in the credit of the family. You appreciate the fact
that even in the storm and deluge of passions the Family
must be respected! Yes—society is being submerged
in a universal flood, but the Family will float—the
Ark!”
Truth to tell, Leon cared less for the safety of his
wife’s family, which the marquis had so elegantly compared
to that of Noah, than for the melancholy state of
her twin-brother and for María’s distress at seeing how
ill-prepared her parents were to face the sorrow and the
expenses which were gathering round them.
CHAPTER XVII.
DESERTERS.
In
fact the doctors’ verdict was a hopeless one,
though they thought the end was as yet far off, and this
brought some relief and even hope to the anxious
household. Time, whether future or past, is a great
consoler, and a misfortune postponed, like a misfortune
long past, is lost on the vague and distant horizon
behind which lies the wide realm of forgetfulness. The
Tellería family settled down into comparative ease of
mind, and its members by degrees reserved their usual
tone and demeanour. Gustavo was elected and spent
his days in the Congress chamber. His mother, though
she could not entirely throw off the anxiety that weighed
upon her, resumed that sweet expression of bland conformity
to the ways of the world, mixed with a certain
plaintive pietism which implied that she was, on the
whole, resigned to enjoy herself, and the futility of life
filled up a large portion of her time.
One morning Leon found her in a state of bewildered
indecision, contemplating a collection of summer
hats that had come from a shop in a large basket covered
with oil-cloth; there was every variety of headpiece
conceived, month after month, by the ingenuity
of the French mind—birds’ nests buried in ears of
corn and sparkling with beetles, baskets piled up with
tufts of moss, straw platters with wild flowers, round
helmets, formless mats cocked into corners, saucepan-shaped
erections with flat brims trimmed with hummingbirds,
turban hats wreathed with gauze veils, in short
every extravagant and absurd device that a milliner can
create to tempt women to hasten their husbands’ ruin.
The marquesa examined them all, criticising each with
a sharp or a severe remark, as became a woman of superior
taste. Some she tried on before the glass, turning
her head from side to side to judge of the effects of
shape and colour, and at last she put them all back into
the basket:
“I will not take any of them,” she said. “It is
quite possible that we may go to France and then I can
get all I want there, as I have in former years, and
bring home something new, quite new—I will make it
all right with the Aduana (custom-house). Yes it is
quite possible we may go to France; you did not know,
Leon?”
Leon with María and Luis Gonzaga had assisted at
the review of the hats, giving his opinion when it was
asked. The conversation now turned from the fashions
to the custom-house duties. The twins sat silent and
sad, more particularly Luis, who kept his eyes fixed on
the flowers in the garden which was full of rhododendrons
and lovely pink-flowered azaleas.
“You did not know?” the lady repeated. “That
wretched boy Leopoldo is leaving us to-day. He is
off to Biarritz with some other young fellows—friends
of his. I could not prevent him—I explained to him
that as we had all remained at home to be with Luis,
he ought to stay as well. He says that he requires sea-baths
and gave no end of reasons—he is taking advantage
of the convenience of going with the Duke de
Ceriñola
and Count de Garellano who have secured a
saloon carriage.”
On enquiring of a servant for Señor Polito they
learnt that he was breakfasting out, and that he intended
to go straight from his friend’s house to the
station without coming home again. His packing was
done and his trunks locked. This extraordinary proceeding,
proving how much family and filial feeling her
worthless son could boast of, was a deep grief to the
marquesa, who, with all her follies, lacked neither tenderness
nor the sense of right. Leopoldo, she frankly
admitted, had been shamefully ill-brought up—though
by no fault of hers—and was a hardened scapegrace,
impervious to all good feeling, and capable of leaving
his family in the lurch in their hour of greatest need if
he saw a chance of riding a borrowed horse, of driving
a friend’s coach, or riding in a friend’s phaeton, of being
hand and glove with some sprig of the nobility or staking
a few dollars at cards.
The marquis, who had just come into the room in
an elaborate light-coloured spring suit, heard the news
with the utter indifference which some people assume
as the very acme of good taste.
“It is natural,” he said, “boys must amuse themselves.
They will be men all in good time, with the
ties and troubles of a social position and public life,
with rheumatism—for instance here am I, in absolute
need of repairs, and I shall be obliged to have them.
My doctor was quite furious when I told him I could
not get away this summer: ‘What!’ he exclaimed.
‘Señor Marqués! the head of a family ought never to
neglect his health. I condemn you to take baths; it
is a sentence without appeal!’ In short my dears—I
set out to-morrow.”
His wife’s astonishment seemed to be caused by annoyance
and disappointment. All were to be free while
she was to be a slave, harnessed to the dreary round
of a summer in Madrid.
“Our dear Luis,” the marquis went on, stroking his
son’s cheek, “gets better every day; I am not anxious
about him; nothing will do him so much good as rest.
A summer in Madrid with his mother at his side—how
glad I should be to stay with you, but I am most unlucky!—Several
friends have begged me to share their
carriage in the train to-morrow.”
He stopped, finding himself alone with Leon; his
wife and the twins had left the room.
“It is really no fault of mine,” he went on as he walked
up and down the pretty drawing-room, crammed with a
thousand costly trifles of French exportation, tapestry,
porcelain, furniture, and all the expensive magnificence
which fills our houses for lack of the real works of art
which are taken away from their proper place and use,
to be stored in museums by an æsthetic government.—“It
is no fault of mine; you can easily believe that I
go very much against my will. I am truly distressed at
the levity of my two sons who have deserted their
father’s roof just when poor Milagros most needs
their society to cheer her and when Luis is so ill—for
he is very ill, it is of no use to deceive ourselves. I
believe he will go on getting worse; he may get
through the autumn—but the winter.—In any case
the boys have behaved badly, very badly. Leopoldo
is going to-night and Gustavo to-morrow. I should
not have thought it of Gustavo—however, he is going,
he is in love, over head and ears in love. The Marquesa
de San Salomó starts to-morrow for Arcachon,
Paris and le Havre; Gustavo accordingly is going
northwards too and the labels of his luggage are addressed
for le Havre via Arcachon and Paris—a very
nice little journey. The marquesa is very pretty and
elegant, and Gustavo is very attractive—whether all
they say is true! who knows? I don’t believe a word
of it. But there is no doubt that Gustavo’s fiery eloquence
and his fearless and vigorous defence of the
Church made a great sensation in the fashionable world.
The ladies’ seats were filled quite early with pretty faces
under the most elegant hats, and there was a constant
murmur of discussion and approval. And it is certainly
the fact that women are among the staunchest guardians
of the time-honoured creed of our ancestors. Do
you hope to pervert the national conscience, you
atheists? Then you must begin by annihilating the
fairer half of the human race.—The truth is that Gustavo
is an admirable speaker; his fervid language
moves the Chamber and delights the galleries. Then
he has found a congenial subject, a subject that speaks
for itself—that appeals to the feelings, to the heart, to
all that is most sacred and precious in the soul and
which is altogether consonant to the spirit of Castilian
nobility. The Marquis de Fúcar said to me yesterday
with a knowing wink: ‘That young fellow has struck
into the right path’—and I replied: ‘Oh, yes! Gustavo
knows where he is going—and how to get there.’
He is so full of talent that, as my friend Don
Cayetano
Polentinos said to me: ‘He is a perfect manual of
hopes!’ Clever, good-looking, full of eager eloquence.
However, I must own I should have liked to see him
with more family feeling. I leave home because I absolutely
need rest and health; but Gustavo.—Still, I can
understand the attractiveness of such a woman as the
Marquesa de San Salomó.—Yes, yes, I am coming.
(This to a servant who had come in to say that breakfast
was getting cold.) Are you ready for breakfast
Leon? You too will be weighing anchor I suppose....”
The next day Leon went to see off his father-in-law
and Gustavo, who left by the same train though in
different carriages and very different society—both
however with free passes due to the kindness of some
member on the Company’s board.
“I could not possibly put off this journey,” Gustavo
said to his brother-in-law, leading him away to the
least crowded part of the station. “If anything happens
at home you will telegraph to me at once.—Look,
do you see that woman? I expected as much
as soon as I heard that my father was going away.—Do
you see her?”
“Her—who?”
“Paca, Paquira—there she goes....” And
among the crowd, above which surged a mass of
plumed and wreathed hats, with gaudy birds, and blue
and green veils shrouding pretty faces, like clouds,
Leon distinguished a young girl of pleasing appearance
and elegantly dressed, disputing with the guard for two
seats in a carriage.
“And there is my father with two friends who are
getting in with them.—Now, I ask you—what can
such folly lead to in a man who ought to remember his
age and his duties, the state of his household and his
own social position? That mania for remaining young
is the ruin of modern society.—Well, if you do not go
away be as much as you can with my mother and Luis.
My mother has a soft heart and this misfortune has
come upon her like a warning from Heaven—a warning
that she should cease to regard this life as one long
scene of amusement. Will she take the lesson to heart?
I fear not. She has a kind heart but too weak a nature.
I am furious when I see that swindler Leopoldo getting
money out of her. But that is just like her—whatever
he asks for she is ready to give him.—Ah, my father
has got into another compartment; he is in the next
one, with his friends. Well, so long as he saves us
from any public scandal. Good-bye; write to me, or
send a telegram if anything happens. Arcachon,
Hotel Brisset—and then Paris, poste restante.”
CHAPTER XVIII.
THE ASCETIC.
Leon
was not long in discovering that Luis Gonzaga
was out of his element in his father’s house. The
lean, angular figure, wrapped in a black gown with a
cord round the slender waist,—bare-headed, feeble and
drooping, with eyes always fixed on the ground, with a
dull, clammy skin and weak swaying neck that could
hardly support the head above it, with broad, yellow,
transparent hands like little faggots of thin sticks, too
weak for anything but to be folded in prayer—wandered
like an ominous shadow through the drawing-rooms
hung with gaudy papers or tawdry tapestry. It
was a dark and dismal stain on the gilded furniture,
and the oriental and Japanese decorations, in which
the queer figures, like those of a grotesque dream,
seemed to harmonise, though remotely, with that of the
emaciated student. He was always to be seen wandering
and restless, like an imprisoned bird that seeks
some escape; and when he cast an eye on the objects
that environed him it was to select the most uncomfortable
seat in the most obscure corner, where he
might pursue his meditations. Now and again the
servants, when dusting or tidying a room, would come
upon the black and silent form, and pause in their
bustle with a mechanical gesture of reverence, while
Luis would fly to seek some fresh refuge in this desert
of worldly adornment, of profane pictures, of damask
and chintz, of satin and rosewood. The hapless, dying
anchorite, as he fled from one corner to another, hunted
by his own fevered mysticism, would stumble against a
piano, a Chinese screen, a stand supporting a bowl of
gold-fish, a pillowy sofa covered up with brown holland,
or a nude bronze Venus.—He could not understand
this covering up of furniture and uncovering of
statues.
The servants did not trouble themselves about him,
perhaps because he never spoke to them and never
asked for anything out of pure humility; he could endure
hunger and thirst for an incredible length of time,
and knew no vexations, for his spirit, greedy of mortification,
accepted them as a boon. A little lad with a
jacket all covered with buttons, a merry mischievous
face and a closely-cropped head, nimble of foot and
with rough warty hands, was the only person who ever
did anything for him, and that against the young man’s
will. But he would ask him a few questions:
“What is your name?”
“Felipe Centeno.”
“Where do you come from?”
“From Socartes.”
But not much more; the young anchorite kept his
eyes down; the page left him to himself. The other
servants all looked sour and disobliging, like men
doing penance willy-nilly, and condemned to poverty
and abstinence in the midst of luxury and splendour.
The marquesa and María sat for hours with the invalid,
trying to cheer him with trivial chat.
“I do not fear death,” he would say with perfect
truth, “on the contrary, I long for it with all my soul,
as a captive longs for liberty. You do not understand,
for you cling to the world—you do not live that inner
life, you have not broken, as I have, with every
tie of earth.”
His mother listened with a sigh to these seraphic
aspirations, which filled her with grief and admiration
as she reflected how far she was from such heights of
piety. Seclusion and the intense heat had made the
poor lady melancholy and despondent.
One evening when Leon was going home he said
to María:
“It is nothing but a feeling of dignity, or rather a
dread of ‘what people will say,’ that has kept your
mother from following the others in their miserable desertion.
What a hideous world we live in! But since
all the rest have fled we will stay. Your brother is
very ill—he may outlive the summer, but on the other
hand he may flicker out of life when we least expect it.”
The following day the physician declared that the
Tellería’s house, which was in a densely-built quarter,
very sunless and ill-ventilated, was quite an unfit residence
for an invalid; and it was agreed that he should
be removed to Leon’s house, which was in the outskirts
of the city, exposed to fresh breezes and peacefully retired
from all noise and bustle. The sick man made
no difficulties—he never did—and was taken to his
sister’s home. He was settled on the ground floor to
avoid the fatigue of stairs with a bed-room next to
Leon’s study; and the study itself, a large, sunny,
cheerful room, to sit in. But none of these advantages
seemed to strike his attention; to him a palace and the
gloomiest dungeon were alike.
The first day he suffered much from the move and
the pain was so constant and so prolonged that his
mother and sister were much alarmed; he, in the intervals
of the paroxysms, was calm and smiling:
“Why,” he said, “are you uneasy? Why do you
shed tears? I am neither alarmed nor sad, but the
more I suffer the more I rejoice. I assure you that,
seeing death so near at hand, I am full of contentment;
though perhaps it may be that the hope of soon finding
myself free from this corrupt and earthly body has
given rise to some vanity in my soul, or to some other
feeling displeasing in the sight of the Lord. I can only
pray that if indeed I am too proud to be dying, God
will chasten me and condemn me to live yet a little
longer.”
He hardly ever spoke to Leon, for whenever his
brother-in-law went to enquire how he was, or to sit
with him for a while, he always found him engaged in
his endless devotions which he would never shorten or
postpone even on his worst days. They brought him
everything that was choicest and most nourishing to
eat, but he always picked out the worst pieces.
“Not that,” he would say, “I like it too well.”
When they begged him to take this or that remedy
he always refused.
“But if you would rather not take it,” his sister
would say with subtle logic, “mortify yourself by taking
it,” and he would smile and give way.
He received visits from various priests, principally
Frenchmen, with fringes of hair and three-cornered
cocked hats, highly-bred, worldly, soft-tongued, and
they discussed the affairs of the Seminary. There was
a veneer of polish in their conversation with an affected
tone peculiar to certain circles. More rarely there came
grave Spanish priests, who, when they are really good
men, are the most priestly priests in Christendom, true
ministers of God, pious, affable without affectation and
full of sound and healthy wisdom. Luis Gonzaga liked
their company, but he preferred solitude; still, in conversation
he displayed his keen judgment—not devoid
of flavour and wit, his perfect piety which none could
fail to appreciate, and his gift of grave, subtle and impassioned
eloquence. He went every morning in the
carriage, carefully wrapped and watched, to church,
and came back towards evening; on his return, he
meditated for a time on his knees, and would take no
food but when his emaciated frame was fainting for lack
of it, and even in the midst of his scanty meal he
would often be seized with such acute spasms that it
seemed as though his last hour had come. He would
allow no one to help him to dress and undress, nor to
sleep in his room; María pointed out to her husband
that sometimes the bed was undisturbed and he must
have lain on the floor. The padded sofas and chairs,
which the march of industry has placed within the
reach of the most modest household, knew not the
weight of his bones; he commonly sat on a cane stool
without a back and remained there for hours, rigid,
weary and bathed in sweat. When he could no longer
hold himself up, he would push the stool to the wall
and lean his aching shoulders against that, with his head
thrown back, his eyes closed, and his hands clasped—he
looked like a criminal about to be throttled.
He never spoke of his absent brothers or his father;
the person to whom he showed most attachment, and
some confidence was María; Leon he never even
looked at.
He was often tormented by religious scruples and
would sometimes speak of them. If by chance his
mind wandered for a quarter of an hour from the contemplation
of death he was deeply distressed and
blamed himself severely. His ambition was to imitate
exactly, or as nearly as possible, the famous and saintly
child whose name he bore—that angelic spirit that fled
from earth, burnt out by mystical fervours, at the age
of twenty-three, and which during its brief existence
here was a voluntary martyr to every form of mortification,
repressing every natural impulse, and cherishing
the inner life of the spirit, by relentlessly cutting off
and plucking out every thought and feeling that was
foreign to the aim of self-purification and a passionate
yearning for salvation.
Like his Jesuit model, Luis Tellería suffered frightfully
from headaches. Acute neuralgia, which had frequently
attacked him at the Seminary of Puyóo,
tormented him no less at Madrid, scorching his brain
and upsetting his whole frame; his head felt like a
mould filled with molten lead. But through all these
periods of intense suffering, his soul, thrown back on itself,
revelled in the martyrdom and accepted physical
torture with a defiant rapture which bordered on pride,
and a sort of delirious luxury. He never uttered a complaint;
nay, when his brain seemed turned to fiery serpents
he could force his lips to smile. When Saint
Luis Gonzaga suffered thus, his Superior advised him
not to think so much and he would have less pain. His
friends gave his namesake the same advice; but the
young man, rejoiced at the implied comparison, answered:
“You wish me to think less that I may have less
headache, but it would hurt me far more to try not
to think.”
His physician ordered him a variety of soothing
and other medicines. He took them as he was desired
when his mother besought him with prayers and sobs;
but the medicine he preferred was a scourge of leather
with iron spikes which he always carried twisted through
his girdle. His sister often stole on tiptoe to his door
at night, and found him on his knees in front of the
crucifix which he had placed at the foot of his bed.
The Seminary of Puyóo could boast of many saintly
men and many wise ones, some clever and some
worldly, but all agreed to sing the praises of Luis—of
his virtues and of that holy hatred of himself which, notwithstanding
all that is preached in its honour, would
seem to be a somewhat archaic form of piety. Nevertheless,
the very tendency of modern devotion to come
to a compromise with good living and easy sleeping,
makes the resolute abstinence and voluntary martyrdom
of the marquis’ son, all the more praiseworthy. His
fame was great throughout the catholic world and talked
of even in Rome.
He lived habitually in tranquil silence, and in spite
of his sincere affection for his parents, he had fought out
many a desperate battle with himself to keep his mind
from ever dwelling on the thought of them, so that
nothing should alienate his mind from the constant
presence of God which was the sole aim and end of
his hopes and sufferings. His talents were as conspicuous
as his saintliness; he had made rapid progress in
his studies and was so versatile and keen-witted that he
had early mastered philosophy and theology, and could
argue so closely that the most practised debaters were
astonished. But this became a great anxiety to his conscience,
for all these praises jarred on his humility; so,
for fear they should make him vain, he affected stupidity;
to be treated as the lowest and least in his
college was his greatest desire, and it was only by the
peremptory command of the Superior that he consented
to display his talents, but then his convincing logic and
persuasive eloquence drew tears from the most strong-hearted.
He always obeyed his Superior, was exact
in his observance of rules and regulations, and
achieved such perfect command of his senses that at
length he seemed to have lost them; his closed ears and
eyes always fixed on the ground, paid no heed to anything
that went on. He passed other people without
even seeing them; now and then he would take a walk
with his companions, but he observed nothing. He
had registered a vow never to look on the face of a
woman excepting his mother or his sister, and he kept
it with the utmost strictness. By such a system he must
surely keep his spirit pure—almost as pure, as that of
the babe unborn!
When his doctors pronounced his illness incurable,
he declared himself infinitely happy, nay, he rejoiced so
fervently in the idea of suffering much and dying in
torments, that he made a crime even of that joy, and
asked his spiritual director whether he had not in fact
sinned in glorying in the certainty of approaching death,
and if it were not a snare of vanity. When his conscience
was set at rest on this delicate point, he watched
the progress of the disease and aggravated it in secret by
his austerities, and by never following the advice of his
doctors. The decision of the Superior to send him
home when death seemed certainly near, had at first
greatly grieved him; but then a plan formed itself in his
mind that reconciled him to being removed to Madrid,
and to an imprisonment in the splendid rooms which
to him were like a reflection or embodiment of his own
disease, no less horrible, diabolical and revolting.
Thus, in direct contravention of all natural law and
instinct, he encouraged his disease as we cherish a precious
plant; he fed the monster that preyed upon him,
triumphing in the wasting and decay of his miserable
flesh, which he regarded solely as a burden.
“The world,” he would say, “is a foul and narrow
alley in which mankind revels and struggles as in a wild
delirium. We are all condemned to pass through it,
disguised in the loathsome mask of our body. How
happy are they who are soon at the end, and who may
then cast aside the mask, and appear as they are before
God!”
This was the angelic spirit, the enthusiastic and
ecstatic soul, full of faith and contempt for the world,
that was worthy to give our age what, indeed, it still
lacks—a Saint, if the nineteenth century did not seem
inclined, on the contrary, to break the die that coins
saints. To be sure Luis did not work miracles; but
who can tell whether he may not have had the power,
and have concealed it in obedience to his pious habit
of chastening his vanity? Some indeed said that all
this piety was nothing more than a well-acted part;
but this, in fact, was without foundation; those were
nearer the truth who said that sanctity, like chivalry,
has it Quixotes. Luis was pious in good faith; if he
deceived any one it was himself, and he certainly was
magnanimous and heroic. Not one of the young
novices who at that time tried to imitate Saint Luis
Gonzaga—and there was a perfect mania for it among
the aspirants to the priesthood—could compare with
Tellería in the closeness of the copy. Still, no one can
imitate the inimitable, and of what avail is an exact reproduction
of certain acts and words when all that is
most essential is overlooked or ignored?
My readers may perhaps say that this figure is an
anachronism, a reminiscence of the middle ages. But
it is not; it is a sketch of our own day; at the same
time, to see it you must know where to look for it, and
that is not in a fashionable promenade. They do exist,
these seraphic youths, and are the glory of our Church.
The nineteenth century—the richest and most encyclopedic
of the centuries—has produced them as it has
produced every type. Ours is a monstrous synthesis of
all the ages, and who can foresee how far it will go before
it has ceased shuffling and mingling its own inventions
and marvels with the relics and curiosities of the
distant past?
CHAPTER XIX.
THE MARQUESA GOES TO A CONCERT.
Leon’s
house was to the north-east of Madrid, on
one side overlooking the town with its pretty, bright
houses and verdurous gardens, and on the other, miles
of dusty waste. The capital of Spain lies within strict
limits, as laid down by its builders; it does not straggle
and melt away into the country and is not enclosed in
that half agricultural, half urban zone which surrounds
many cities and through which the bustle of the streets
imperceptibly dies away into the silence of the fields.
The medley of dwellings ends abruptly; not a house
has dared to part company and step forth, for fear of
heat, of cold, and of thieves. It reminds us of a vast
caravan settled down for a night’s rest and which will
be raised in the morning to pursue its march without
ever looking back at the place of its encampment.
On the eastern side of the house lay the melancholy
landscape of parti-coloured downs—in winter showing
a prevailing, dingy green tint, in summer yellow, grey
and brown; fields that are never tilled, that are swept
by the winds that dance in the hollows of the hills and
fling clouds of dust in each other’s teeth. Here and
there the dreary monotony is broken by a smoking brick-kiln,
or a lonely and forlorn house which, if it has any
expression, it is that of astonishment at finding itself
there. The brick factory is surrounded by hovels constructed
of straw and mud—architectural efforts which
the house-martin, the mole, and the beaver would laugh
to scorn; and round these huts, that a good kick would
demolish, those eager speculators in nastiness, the scavengers,
busily analyse the morning’s dust-heap, raking
in the mounds of rags, sweepings, paper and other
nameless trash which form the daily refuse of a great
town. A little way off, groups of half-naked brats are
at play, their dirty brown skins scarcely distinguishable
from the soil. They look as if they had just sprung
from a crack in the earth and must vanish there again—graceful,
blaspheming, mischievous creatures, engagingly
and innocently impudent, a combination of
angel and gipsy. Here too, routing away the heaps of
refuse, sneak numbers of mangy dogs—not above
biting your calf if you give them the chance—and
here, in April and May, starveling hens bring out their
broods of chicks and teach them the rudiments of gaining
a living. Here and there is a pool of stagnant
water into which the sky looks down, astonished to see
itself so dingy; black caravans of ants cross the land
in every direction, loaded with tares stolen from some
carelessly sown field. In the mornings the silence of
these barren solitudes is broken by a delightful pastoral
concert—the bleating of the flocks that wander from
Vallehermoso to their pasture at Abroñigal to return in
the evening, when the sweet stillness of the twilight is
disturbed by their low, melancholy tones. Goats too
go by, jumping and butting, and meditative asses for
milking, whose shrill bells are heard at break of day
at the door of the consumptive sufferer, pass calmly by.
This dismal, drouthy, thankless, stubborn landscape,
with its gloomy suggestion of robbery and assassination
and its look as of an abandoned graveyard—this landscape,
which does not invite and yet detains the traveller,
whose yellow stony stare stays his steps and
makes his heart quake with Dantesque terrors—is a
very different scene when night has fallen on it, when
the winds are at peace and a mysterious calm broods
over it all, under the immensity of the starry sky. The
purple arch looks so high and remote that the eye and
mind throb as they gaze upward. The wanderer holds
his breath as he contemplates the glorious firmament
that covers the wide plain of Castile, like a spiritual
life bending above the barrenness of asceticism. In
some lands the beauty of the landscape lies in smiling
meadows, woods and streams, tenderly overshadowed
by fleecy clouds. The views from Madrid must be
sought overhead in the vast space sprinkled with suns
and worlds. From Leon’s house, as evening fell,
might be seen the fiery glow on the horizon reflected
from the setting sun and the pleasing regularity of the
landscape which seems to set no bar to the east—where
the most vital events in the world’s history have
taken place; then the successive lighting up of infinitely
distant suns, as though each one dropped into its place
and burst into flame; the vast vault of the sky, where
some stars seem to be eager to rise while others,
wearied out, sink to rest; the rapid scintillation of
some, which wax and wane; the wondrous fixity of
others which pierce, as it seems, with a single shaft of
light, the immensity of space; the twinkling hesitancy
of some, the solemn, almost stern, steadiness of others,
the grand haze of the milky way—and beneath the
sky the wide unbroken levels of the earth, noiseless,
treeless, streamless, a present image of humanity which
lies dreaming—in sleep or in death—with darkened
senses under the splendours of the midnight heavens.
“María, give me your arm; I want to go into the
garden and look at the sky,” said Luis Gonzaga to his
sister. It was the end of July and the heat was suffocating.
Leon had had a cane seat placed in the
garden so that the invalid might enjoy the evening till
the breeze from the Guadarrama should begin to blow.
The four went out together. The sick man walked a
very little way in front of Leon, and as he went he dilated
with eager eloquence on the beauty of the scene,
on his joy in the approach of death and on the mercies
of God.
During the past month his illness had varied
greatly; there had been days when he was thought to
be dying, and then came days, or even weeks, of such
visible amendment that the marquesa began to entertain
some hopes. The doctors however encouraged no
illusions, but said to Leon, “short of a miracle, he
cannot survive the fall of the leaf.” On this particular
evening he was feeling better, remarkably happy and
alert, and unusually eager and quick of speech, except
when Leon approached him.
As they were all sitting in the garden, they heard
carriage-wheels and immediately after the voices of the
Marquesa de Rioponce and her daughter, who had
come to persuade the Marquesa de Tellería to go with
them to a public concert in the garden of the “Retiro.”
The invitation had already been often repeated, but the
lady had always excused herself on the score of her
son’s serious illness. “Really she could find no enjoyment
in anything; how could she take any pleasure
when her household was in such anxiety? Her friends
she was sure would excuse her, they would not insist
on carrying her off to entertainments and would understand
that she could not—in fact ought not.... She
had sacrificed herself to stay in this furnace to be with
her son, she had submitted to make the move to Leon’s
house, though it was exile—complete exile.... But
her feelings as a mother ... she could not hesitate.
And how could she be seen in public at the gardens
when every one knew that her poor Luis was suffering
so constantly.... He was better no doubt, much
better; you could see it in his face; but in spite of the
improvement she—the miserable, anxious mother—could
not think of amusements and music. To be sure,
her spirits sadly needed cheering, that she knew very
well ... and what more innocent or soothing pleasure
could she have than a little good music?... But she
really could not make up her mind to leave him—not
for a single evening. She was so absorbed and fettered
by her sorrow that she could not escape from its
clutches. Suffering as she was, her very anguish
bound her to the side of her dear invalid.”
Her friend found arguments to combat all this declamation,
for human logic and a woman’s tongue can
find arguments for every circumstance of life.
“It was as clear as day that Luis Gonzaga was
better ... better? Why, out of danger. It was visible
in his brighter looks, his eager gaze, the way he
walked about the garden, and the gay tone of his voice
when he spoke—the marquesa might go out without
the faintest shadow of a doubt and come to the concert.
Why not? Was it not her duty to take care of
her own health? Was she wise to allow herself to be
crushed by groundless anxieties; that high sense of
duty which had kept her by her son’s side demanded
some care of her own health to enable her to continue
to bear her burthen of affectionate solicitude. She
could not be required to make such extravagant sacrifices
to the injury of her own health, and the thorny
crown of abnegation might surely be varied from time
to time by the introduction of some little innocent
flowers.”
This skilful reasoning, seconded by the love of festivity
that seethes in the veins of every native of Madrid,
was too much for the constancy of poor Milagros.
Still she made difficulties: “she did not wish to go,
and besides she must dress, and to get a dress she must
go home.”
“What nonsense. You look very nicely, quite well
dressed as you are, you want nothing more. You have
the art of always looking well whatever you wear, and
this evening you really are charmingly dressed as if you
had guessed that you were going out.”
At last her son’s entreaties persuaded her, really in
spite of herself.
“I will go then, if it is only to please you,” she said
tenderly. Luis pulled two roses from a bush by which
he was standing and gave them to his mother to pin
to her dress.
“I know you like the simplest kind of adornment,”
she said to him with a smile, “and I am only going to
oblige Rosa and to please you. I am of your school,
dear boy; obedience sometimes is doing the thing we
like. Good night.”
“Good night, mother.”
And the carriage rolled away, carrying the marquesa
towards the blaze of gas that lighted up the haze
of city dust and the exhalations of the dog-days.
CHAPTER XX.
THE OLD, OLD DRAMA.
“María
dear, are we alone?” asked Luis pressing
his sister’s hand to his heart.
“No,” said she, looking anxiously at a dark shadow
that came towards them from the other side of the
garden, “here comes.... No,” she added, after
watching it for a minute, “he has turned round; he is
walking up and down.... He does not seem to dare
to join us—he seems to be afraid of you, or, if not
afraid, to feel a respect—a great respect for you. His
conscience cannot be at ease in your presence.”
“Do not talk nonsense. Respect for me, a miserable
sinner! Besides, my dear, men like your husband
respect no one and nothing. In his heart he mocks
and scorns us.”
“No, that he does not, I assure you,” said María
firmly. “I assure you he does not scorn us. Leon
is thoroughly good and he will learn to believe; yes,
he will believe. There, do you see he has turned
again, but he keeps away.”
“He is very sad,” said Luis, gazing at the shadow
slowly wandering up and down like a soul in torment.
“He looks as if some great misfortune had crushed
him; and yet he has health, he is rich, he has this
world’s goods in abundance. Look at me—sick,
dying, bereft of everything, poor and unknown, and yet
I am happy. This evening my soul is full of peace and
contentment—it is as though a strong and tender hand
were lifting it up to heaven.” He put his face quite
close to María’s, looking straight into her eyes and
added: “María, I am dying.”
“For God’s sake do not say that!” she cried in
terror. “You are better, you will get well....”
“I cannot bear to hear these empty platitudes from
your lips; they are all very well for doctors and people
who have no true Christian faith. I am dying, and I
am glad to die. This morning when I was at Mass I
fancied I heard a celestial voice announcing that my
end was near, and from that moment I have felt that
triumphant rapture which still possesses me. All my
thoughts to-day have been of thankfulness and joy;
when they sang the Te Deum I felt such a rapture of
happiness that at last I began to fear lest it should in
fact veil some kind of human pride and be an offence
to God.”
“But you will not die.... You will not die!” said
María caressing his head.
“Ah! your soul, contaminated by the world’s
breath, cannot understand the exquisite joy of dying.
To you the word has no other sense than that given it
in the dictionary and in the conversation of the unrighteous.
Rejoice at my death, child, rejoice as I do,
and thus you may learn to long for your own! Ah!
my dear sister, one, and only one thought mars my
happiness, one single worldly anxiety still links me to
the burden of the flesh. Do you know what it is? Bring
your chair quite close for I cannot raise my voice.”
She did as he desired.
“My great trouble is to know that your precious
soul, the twin of my own, as your body is to mine, remains
in constant danger of being infected by him....
This idea disturbs my last hours on earth, and though
I hope to gain much by entreating the Lord for you,
still I am uneasy.”
“I—infected! with what? You know me very
little, nor the heroism and constancy with which I can
defend my faith, small as it is, humble and dim, a mere
reflection of yours, which is as great and as bright as
the sun. Have no fears for me. I told you before that
there was no danger; I explained to you that, loving
him even as I do, I always preserve a fixed impassable
gulf between us. He wished to bridge the abyss. So
did I, and we made the attempt; but since talking to
you I see that nothing can do it short of a miracle.”
“Well, not a miracle, but a special intervention of
His grace ... and this you ought still to hope for. Ask
it of Him without ceasing, and meanwhile do not
neglect for a day—for an instant—the precious work
of your own salvation. Devote yourself to that, María;
regard your life on earth as a ladder by which to scale
Heaven; cultivate the inner life, strengthen it by unfailing
devotion, arm yourself with patience and crown
yourself with sacrifice, for your situation is a perilous
one. Your liberty is fettered; through a fatal error of
your youth you are bound to a man who will strain
every nerve to drag you out of the only path that leads
to eternal glory. So that you have in fact a double task
before you. Your sorrows will be terrible—you must
sweat blood, drink gall, and suffer those lacerating tortures
of the soul which are more acute than the flames
of the martyr’s stake.... Poor, poor, darling sister!...
When the Fathers of the Seminary sent me home to
Madrid I was miserable. ‘Why,’ said I, ‘will you send
me to that hotbed of sin? Why not let me die here in
peace?’ But I was resigned to obey when a sudden
thought flashed upon me: ‘Rely upon it the Lord has
some good work for you to do there’ ... and I soon
saw what it was. This voice, so soon to be silent to the
world, might yet utter some precious words to the
sweet and innocent soul that the Lord would fain keep
for his own. God knew full well that you were the
being I most love on earth; he formed us as one, and
our feelings, like our faces are intimately kin; we both
had a natural taste for the spiritual life; why, when we
were little enough to play games we would make believe
we were martyrs. Our life together in that dreary
little town laid the foundation on which we each had to
build up a structure of piety. My vocation to the
priesthood preserved me from contact with the world.
You wandered from the path of light into darkness;
and in that darkness, when the eyes of your soul were
blinded, you married ... but whom? I do not condemn
marriage, which is a holy estate, but your choice.
However, the good seed in your soul will fructify in
spite of everything; yes, thrive and fructify.... I, by a
special mercy, have come to die in your arms; I was
sent to you that you might see and hear me.”
“Blessed be God for that,” cried María passionately.
“I thought that in your pious retreat you knew nothing
of what was going on here; I thought you knew
nothing of my husband’s views.”
“We know everything there; I knew his deeds, his
opinions, I had heard of his amiable person and of his
many natural good qualities. I knew too of the vices
that are undermining our wretched family—vices
which between you and me can be no secret. Our poor
father does not lead the life of a Christian gentleman;
our mother is wholly given up to worldly vanities;
Leopoldo is a dissolute rake, sunk in wickedness; and
Gustavo, though he is an energetic defender of the
faith, does it with too much ostentation and more out
of vainglory than from any religious zeal. They all
forget that beauty, human glory, riches, honours and
applause, are at last no more than food for the worms
that eat our bodies, and that whatever pains they spend
on anything that is not a gain to the soul, profits no one
but those same horrible worms ... you alone seem to
me to have some light of holiness and virtue, which shines
conspicuous; but even you, superior as you are to the
others, are not devoid of evil and are in danger of losing
your soul....” As he spoke his voice suddenly
failed him and his words died away in a gurgle, as
though a hand on his throat were strangling him.
“I am suffocating,” he murmured indistinctly,
throwing back his head. “I cannot....” He could
scarcely breathe and he writhed in his seat with pain
and helplessness.
“Leon, Leon!” María called in extreme alarm.
“It is nothing ... do not call,” said Luis with
great difficulty, as he began to recover his breath.
“The hour has come ... it is not far off ... give me
your hand, do not leave me.”
Leon ran to his wife’s assistance.
“It is nothing,” Luis repeated. “There is nothing
to be alarmed about.... I thought I was dying ...
but not yet, no, I have something more to say.”
Then they were all three silent. “It is not wise to
stay out here,” said Leon. “The evening air has been
heated by the day’s sun and it is like a furnace. Shall
we take you to the eastern side, where it is a little
cooler?”
“Yes, and it is better there because we hear less of
the noise of the road and the bustle of the people.”
Luis rose and went a few steps quite briskly, leaning
on his sister’s arm, while Leon followed with
the two seats; but suddenly the invalid lost his footing
and, clinging to María’s arm, tottered like a drunken
man.
“Leon, Leon, for heaven’s sake!”
Held up between them, the hapless youth reached
his seat on the other side of the garden and sat gazing
at the vault of sky that bent over the plain.
“This reminds me,” he said, as he recovered his
breath, “of our beloved wilderness of Avila which was
such a perfect emblem of human life; of that glorious
night landscape, consisting of a bare stretch of land,
and a blazing sky suggesting a sort of mystic tree of
which nothing could be seen but the root and the shining
flowers.... It is the same here—do you see? The
roots in the earth, the flowers in Heaven ... rocks below
and blossoms above—eternal, unfading, and shedding
their promise of everlasting joys.”
Then there was a long silence while nothing was
heard but his painful breathing. His eyes were fixed on
the stars and he seemed to be counting them, as in his
infancy. María was praying speechlessly. Leon took
his brother-in-law’s hand, felt his pulse and laid his
hand on his forehead, watching him carefully for some
time.
“I am quite comfortable,” said Luis without looking
at him.
Leon presently rose and left them; his step rang on
the path with that bell-like clink that sometimes is more
soothing than music. When the faintness of the sound
showed that the master of the house had turned the
corner of the garden, Luis called his sister.
“María,” he murmured without moving.
“What is it dear?”
“Soon, very soon, my soul will escape among those
hosts of stars, which look as though they waited there
to receive triumphant souls ... ah how glad, how
happy I am!... If I could only make you feel how
happy; if I could only make you understand what joy
there is in casting off this weary burthen and soaring
free. Up, away, to the immensity of space made everlastingly
glorious by the rejoicings of the redeemed!...
Away, alone, without casting a glance back at this
miserable earth. Do you see that wondrous vault of
stars? If they, which are so splendid, are not worthy
to be compared with the dust that the blessed tread under
foot, what must those be which crown the head of
the immaculate Mother in the furthest distance, the
supremest height ... where our gaze cannot pierce?”
“For pity’s sake do not talk so much!” said María
anxiously. “Be calm ... you are excited.”
“María, I talk to you as a prisoner might when
awaiting his release and you interrupt me with your
commonplace remarks!—Stupid doctors’ saws.—What
now can the health of my body matter to me? The
life of the merest insect that settles on my face to sting
me is of more value than mine! And how can you
expect me to care for your useless precaution when I
know that to-morrow—yes, dearest to-morrow, after
attending mass, I must bid farewell to this world? I
am sure of it; I hear the same voice that has warned
me of so many things in my secluded life. I cannot
doubt it—it is an announcement from Heaven!—To-morrow,
to-morrow.”
María was speechless with dismay. Her brother’s
face was like that of a dead man who has suddenly recovered
speech and sight; she dared not leave his side
for an instant; his sufferings alarmed her, but his eager
flow of speech fascinated her.
“Listen to my words,” said Luis, holding her
hands, “and mark them, so that they may sound in
your ears throughout the rest of your existence. They
are the last exhortations of your dying but happy
brother; and even if my person lends them no authority
my death will, since there is something of the prophet
in every departing soul. María, I quite admit that you
have already done something towards saving your soul;
that you have started on the right path, carrying out,
besides the devotions which are incumbent on us all,
others of a more special character addressed to the
Blessed Virgin and the Saints; but this is not enough,
my darling sister; nay, it is as nothing so long as
you give up part of your thoughts and time to the vanities
and delusions of the world. The devotions in
vogue, which allow you to frequent theatres and gay
society, to dress with audacious luxury, to drive out
always in a carriage, and to foster your pride and extravagance,
are a mere farce of piety. Reform your
life altogether; flee from the world, avoid gaieties, renounce
splendour, rich clothing, and the elegancies of
life, walk instead of riding, give up the show and comfort ...”
and as he spoke he waved his hand as if to
strike out each item of the catalogue. “Let it be your
aim to be looked down upon,” he went on in his saintly
and poetical vehemence. “To be laughed at, to be
caluminated, to be despised as ridiculous and unsociable,
to be forgotten and rejected by the whole human race.
Have no care for the things of earth, but only for
heavenly things.... We were born together, and as our
bodies have been twins, growing with one growth even
before our birth, so let our souls be as one in the life to
come. We will be twins to all eternity, María. Say,
do you desire this? Do you long to be for ever one
with me in the presence of our Father, can you desire,
as I do, that our righteousness may be as that of one,
and that the praises we shall sing before the throne of
God may sound as one hymn?”
“Yes, yes, I do,” sobbed María, as she flung herself
into her brother’s arms. He was in a state of feverish
exaltation, almost amounting to delirium, and her brain
too was on fire; it was as though she had felt the sweep
of some blazing comet in this critical moment of her
existence.
“Yes,” she continued, and her hot tears fell on the
dying man’s breast. “I long to soar with you, eternally
one with you, to be indeed inseparably your twin,
to save my soul with yours, and to enjoy the same bliss
and glory that you attain to!”
“That is well,” said Luis, “then never forget me.
I must depart; but I leave my hopes, my words with
you. Listen to me,” he went on in sentences broken
by coughing, “your husband, utterly corrupt through
his philosophical speculations and his atheism, will
always be a terrible obstacle to your salvation. You
must surmount these obstacles without failing in the
duties imposed on you by the sacrament of marriage.
A more difficult position I cannot conceive of; still, I
think I can point out to you the right way. None but
a superficial union can ever exist between you; your
souls are parted by the gulf that lies between belief and
infidelity. No true marriage-tie can bind your souls.
Still your faith forbids that you should abhor him.
Love him with that christian charity which the law of
Christ enjoins towards the reprobate; obey him in all
that does not contravene your religious practices, acknowledge
him as your lord and master in all things so
long as you never let his tyrannical atheism enslave
your conscience as a Catholic. Always pay him due
respect, do him no wrong, and pray for him every day—every
hour—not forgetting our parents and brothers,
who also need our intercessions. God has given you
no children; do you not see in this a curse on your
marriage? It is a curse, but at the same time a special
sign of grace so far as you are concerned, since, by
leaving you childless, the Lord plainly shows that he
claims you as wholly his own and signifies his will that
you should dedicate yourself solely to him. Ah! we
poor twins have much to be thankful for.”
“Much, much!” exclaimed María, carried away by
his flood of feeling. “But while you are a saint, I am
a sinner!”
“Nay, you will be as much and more a saint than
I, for you will suffer and strive, and your triumph will
be all the more meritorious. Having no children you
can consecrate yourself entirely to the improvement of
your inner life. By breaking entirely with the world
you can have nothing to fear; and the utter opposition
of your ideas to your husband’s, leaves your conscience
perfectly free. If, in external matters, he plays the
tyrant, you must be his slave; but if he tries to domineer
in matters of opinion, pay no more heed to him
than to the dropping of the rain. If he revenges himself,
suffer in silence; if he smites one cheek, offer the
other; but if by insidious argument or diabolical persuasions
he tries to insinuate any heretical notions, shut
your ears and flee from him in spirit. By yielding
superficial obedience you will preserve your liberty of
thought. If he forbids you to go to church, stay away,
and make up for your absence from public worship by
constant meditation and silent prayer; if on the contrary
he allows you to go, do so as often as possible, and
aim at that exaltation of spirit which may fit you to
receive the Eucharist every day. If he does not seek
your society, do not seek his; if he insists on being
supreme in all your actions, still let me be supreme in
all your thoughts; do all you can for his salvation, but
never for an instant neglect your own. Do not try to
convert him by talking; it will only excite his atheism,
and your best arguments will be your virtues and humility.
Never on any consideration join evening parties,
either in your own house or elsewhere, and make no
friends of either sex; though you cannot make your
home a sanctuary, never permit the slightest scandal;
an orgy or a meeting of infidels will amply justify you
in flying from his roof. And if, after all, some day God
should in his mercy touch the heart of your most
wretched husband, and enlighten his mind—if he
should at length confess the true faith, entreat him at
once to consent to a separation so that you may each
of you retire to a convent and dedicate the remainder
of your lives, apart, to winning heaven.”
“Oh! my dear brother,” cried María beside herself,
“I cannot doubt that God himself speaks to me through
you.”
Luis pressed his sister’s head to his breast. Then
suddenly he gasped for breath, moaning as he threw
his head back. Life seemed fast ebbing in the struggle;
his eyes rolled, till presently he closed them as if
to shut out a blinding light; his breathing was a hoarse
and laboured sobbing.
“Leon, Leon,” María screamed in terror; but all
was silent, not a footstep was to be heard.
“Leon, Leon!... It will pass away,” she added
putting her face close to her brother’s and trying to revive
him by her appeal.
Then she called again and again, but Leon was not
in the garden. She heard no servants, nor any sound
but the noises in the road where the children were at
play, and a party of thieving dogs were prowling about
the gutters. There was not a breath of air to stir the
leaves on the trees; all was so still, with a sort of awe-stricken
peace, that the very stars seemed to María to
twinkle less fitfully than usual, and to gaze down like
anxious eyes. She glanced round her and shuddered at
finding herself so completely alone with her brother
who, to all appearance, was dying. Again she called—nay,
screamed; and at last she heard her husband’s
step coming slowly towards her.
CHAPTER XXI.
A STRUGGLE WITH THE ANGEL.
Our
hero, whom we have found to be almost always
grave and silent in the midst of the events and
personages that surrounded him, performing as it were
a wordless rôle with the weary air of a tired-out actor,
and who hitherto has betrayed but a very small part of
his thoughts and feelings, was this evening more occupied
than usual with his own affairs, and was taking anxious
counsel with himself. When he had moved the invalid
to the eastern side of the garden he had taken a turn
round the house; he could hear the chatter of the servants
in the yard, and the laughter of the girls and
women, who were sitting out in the street to breathe a
little fresh air and carrying on a flirtation with the
coachmen and grooms from next door. The noise disturbed
him, and he went on along the winding path
through the vines; then, seating himself on a bench
facing the north, with his eyes fixed on the sky, he remained
for a long time, his elbow on the back of the
seat, his hand supporting his head, and his limbs
stretched at ease.
He was learned in astronomy, and he longed for
something that might divert his mind from the gnawing
pain that oppressed it. What better respite could he
find than in the contemplation of the unchanging
heavens—the covenant of promise of our high destiny—and
in the regularity and order of their motion—the
emblem of eternity? His saddened spirit flew away
through those shoreless depths as to its native element,
and revelled in the thought of those incomprehensible
distances and unimaginable masses. High in front of
him, solitary, apparently motionless, watching, as it
were, from its sublime immutability the endless circling
of the other stars, he saw the Pole Star, the Alpha of
the great scroll. Round it rolled the Great and Little
Bears, Cassiopeia and the rest, and his eye rested on
Vega, loveliest of the stars, with a mysteriously melancholy,
tearful gaze—a star so beautiful that we long to
grasp it—if only we had an arm 1,000,330 times as long
as that which would enable us to light a cigar at the sun.
To the west sparkled the diamond fires of the Northern
Crown, dancing hand in hand as it were, and always in
pursuit of the glorious Arcturus—one of the grandest
of those distant suns, blazing serenely as if smiling in
proud consciousness of its splendour. It was growing
late and Arcturus was sinking on the horizon; but opposite
rose Pegasus, then the hapless Andromeda,
reaching out towards Perseus with the Gorgon’s Head
in his hand. Capella alone by the shoulder of Auriga,
shedding angry rays like arrows and looking down on
us from a distance of 170 billions of leagues. Its burning
glance takes seventy-two years to reach us. Close
followed the twinkling tangle of the tearful Pleiades, flying
from the hot pursuit of Aldebaran. Leon calculated
how soon Orion would appear, the glory of the heavenly
panorama, and Sirius, before whose splendour minor
fires pale. His eye sought the coy glance of Antares
and the Scorpion’s head and tail; it lingered on the
more conspicuous nebulae, wandered along the Milky
Way, where the Eagle spreads its wings and the Swan
displays its shining cross; he let all this beauty and
glory sink into his soul, reflecting how hard it must be
to the uninitiated to conceive of it as a dense dust of
stars, till at length he was tired of gazing. Something
in the background of his mind seemed to recall him to
earthly cares, and a presentiment of terror; he rose and
went indoors.
Going from one room to another he presently heard
voices; they were those of María and her brother, talking
in the garden, close to the dining-room window.
The subdued broken voice, interrupted by coughing,
sounded in his ear like María’s plaintive muttering and
sighing when she told the beads of her rosary. Going
close to the window he could hear more distinctly, and
though he hated himself for listening, a feeling, something
like the morbid curiosity of a criminal, rooted him
to the spot. His eyes stared horror-stricken on the
couple in the garden and he turned pale as a guilty
man might who hears his doom. The very acuteness
of his indignation made him presently start from the
window and set him wandering about the empty rooms,
every door and window having been left open for air;
his drooping figure was reflected in the mirrors as he
passed, as if they were tossing it from one to another;
the birds that were asleep in their cages fluttered as they
heard him, and the curtains waved aside to admit him
as if he had been some important visitor.
At length he flung himself on a sofa in the library
that was now used as the invalid’s sitting-room, resting
his head in his hands. Now and then he muttered
something to himself, or exclaimed as if he were addressing
some other person. Then he laughed—a laugh of
scorn, of mockery, or more probably of anger—for
anger at its bitterest has its sense of humour—and at
last a phenomenon occurred in his brain which is not
uncommon when wrath and grief meet to work their
will on a man in solitude, darkness, and silence.
With his eyes shut—and this is the strangest part
of it—he saw the room in which he was sitting and
himself just as he sat. Before him stood a queer
Japanese-looking figure, black, definite and distinct
against a background of brilliantly-lighted colours. The
haggard form was seated and as rigid as an inquisitor,
the pallid passive face was pinched and disfigured
by a constant habit of putting on a sour and mystical
expression; the eyes, with greenish lights, were raised
to the ceiling or wandered round the room, gazing with
indifference at the drawings, maps and prints that covered
the walls, or at the matting on the floor.
Leon was asleep—that painful sleep which supervenes
on the acuter paroxysms of a suffering so deep
that it cannot rise to the surface, but makes itself a
channel to the very depths of our being. There was
some one else in the room. Who were the group sitting
there in solemn conclave? These were Arcturus,
Aldebaran, Vega, Capella, Orion, Antares and, glorious
above all, Sirius himself.... In his delirious dream
Leon saw himself start up, raging with fury and courage;
he flung himself on the gaunt dark figure;
without a word of warning he clutched him in his
arms, shrieking: “Viper you have come to rob me of
my last hope! Die....”
The viper fixed on him a gaze of intense anguish,
writhing and groaning in his iron grasp, and his frail
ribs gave way, cracking like a nutshell.
“Who bid you interfere in the government of another
man’s home?” said Leon blind with rage.
“Who gave you a right to rob me of what is my own?
Who are you? Where did you come from, with your
hideous boast and hypocrisy of virtue? Of what avail
is it that you should flay yourself alive if you have no
true spirit of charity?” and the hapless creature, gasping
for breath and helpless with anguish, closed its eyes
in death under his crushing embrace. Leon, mad with
fury, still tightened his clutch; his victim seemed to
fall to pieces in his arms; nothing remained but a black
bundle with shrunken shanks, bony grasping fingers
and a limp body—broken like a cardboard manikin in
the hands of a child....
Then, suddenly, the starry conclave laughed aloud
and vanished, each to his proper place; the lifeless
mass slipped from the murderer’s grasp and was transfigured
before him. Its squalor turned to grandeur, its
feebleness became strength; it rose and grew stately;
a glory crowned its brow, shining wings grew from the
dusty form; he saw it stand before him on bare white
feet unstained by the dust of earth, and lift its muscular
right arm holding a sword of fire. He put his hand to
his girdle—he, too, had a flaming sword and he drew
it forth and waved it with threatening defiance.
“Coward! do you think I fear your blade?”
“Impious wretch! Die!”
And then between them, her beauty illuminated by
the glare of the swords, stood María, lovely and seductive,
her eyes glowing with passion while her lips
affected a peevish hypocrisy.
“Priest!” she cried, “leave him to me! Do you
not see that he is mine—that I love him?”
“Wretch, begone....”
“Oh! what wild raving,” exclaimed Leon, passing
his hand across his forehead which was damp with cold
sweat, and shaking off the hideous vision. Then he
heard his wife’s voice calling him.
That cry: “Leon, Leon!” rang in his ears like a
knell. He rose, and slowly, slowly—grudgingly, almost
revengefully—he went into the garden.
CHAPTER XXII.
CONQUERED BY THE ANGEL.
“It
is nothing, it is over,” murmured Luis as he
saw his brother-in-law coming towards them. “A
sharper attack than usual ... to-morrow....”
Leon stood looking at him but he did not touch
him; silent, gloomy, and oppressed by his recent nightmare,
he dared not trust his own feelings.
“No,” he said to himself, “it is nothing more than
an antipathy which will fade into pity—for the poor
wretch is dying.”
Luis took his sister’s hands and addressed her in his
weak, quavering, broken voice, half-solemn but excited
by the force of the fever that was consuming him:
“The worst danger that awaits you is that you will
be asked to yield to compromises, to arrange matters.
Guard yourself against this snare of the devil. It is a
snare, though it is hidden under roses, my child. Between
faith and unfaith no compromise is possible.
Nay, can you conceive of any between everlasting life
and death? There is no common measure for the
temporal and the eternal. Make no concessions, do
not yield an inch of the firm and lofty ground you now
stand upon. You cannot be religious by halves; if you
are not wholly religious you are not religious at all.
Our Lord requires that the work, to be perfect,
shall be so intimately complete that the abstraction of
a single jot nullifies the whole. Beware, I say, beware
of the snare!... Compromise is the note of the times
we live in, and it has sent more souls to hell than the
crassest infidelity.... But you ... remember me,
think of me. Do not forget that I came here to save
you, to call you into the true path, and to die in your
arms that my presence should be more real to you.
God sent us into the world together and he bids us
meet again at the foot of his throne of glory....
María! María...!”
“Be calm; pray, pray be calm,” said María in desperate
alarm.
Luis opened his eyes and looking up at Leon exclaimed
in bewildered accents: “there is some one
there! María, who is that man?”
“It is Leon—my husband.... Send for the doctor,
do not you think that we ought, Leon? Call the
servants—where are they all...?”
María started up and was going to call some one,
but her brother clung to her arm.
“Do not leave me alone,” he said. “Your husband,
did you say; oh, God, what is this doubt that
torments me? Is it a foolish scruple, like so many
others I have suffered from, or is it a true warning of
conscience? Tell me, who is it...? Leon did you
say?” But neither of them replied and he went on:
“I have offended him? What an idea. I only gave
my sister such advice as my faith required of me. It
was God that spoke through me ... God himself....
It is a mere scruple—and yet even a scruple must be
listened to.... Ah! here is my good Paoletti!” But
his eyes were still fixed on Leon.
“Padre Paoletti, tell me, have I offended him?”
Then after a pause, as though he had heard an answer
he added: “no, no, very true. I cannot have offended
him, and if I have, to-morrow—on my death-bed, I
will ask his forgiveness. Then, too, I will warn her—María
... once more....”
“We must carry him indoors,“ said Leon.
“I will call the servants,” gasped María who could
hardly speak. But the dying man pushed her aside,
as she and Leon were about to lift him.
“Let me be,” he said. “Sit down by me.” María
obeyed, and bent her head over his. “To-morrow,
to-morrow when I have received my Saviour—I
will deliver up my soul ... but how cold it is! It is
snowing, is it not?” his dimmed eyes wandered heavenwards.
“There are no stars to-night,” he murmured
hoarsely. “A dark night before the dawn of glory.
To-morrow—I will ask forgiveness of you all, and fall
asleep in the Lord’s arms—you see I am quite easy
now, quite at rest.... My only fear is that this respite
may prolong my life. Oh! I do not long for
health, I do not want to be better, all I ask is to suffer,
to choke—suffocate—die. The relief I feel now....”
His head fell gently on his sister’s shoulder and lay
there as helplessly as though his neck were broken.
He shut his eyes, his breathing was no more than a
fluttering sigh. He was dying as softly as a bird drops
to sleep.
“It is over,” said Leon bending over him.
María clung to the body and kept it from falling to
the ground, and when the servants came hurrying out
and carried him to his bed, she kissed him passionately
again and again, kneeling by the cold form. Leon,
hardly certain even now that he could be dead, came
to the bedside to feel his pulse and hold a mirror to his
lips; but his wife started to her feet and standing in
front of her husband, with a prohibitory gesture and
eyes flashing with horror and tears, she cried out in a
tone of furious scorn:
“Wretch! would you dare to touch him?”
CHAPTER XXIII.
WEATHER PERMITTING.
The
sky was in a state of anarchy, neither clear nor
overcast, blue and smiling in one quarter, dark and
gloomy in another. The tempest seemed about to do
battle with the fine weather, for they paused looking at
each other from opposite horizons and disputing the
sky inch by inch. The sun, as a neutral party, alternately
shone down upon the earth and hid behind the
clouds, leaving it cold and dark. Notwithstanding the
crowd on the Plaza de Toros did not seem to fear the
result. It was an afternoon like most April or May
days in Madrid, rough and windy, but, on the whole,
inviting rather than repellent; bringing more dust than
rain, and threatening worse than it performed, beyond
drenching wedding parties, blowing up the women’s
skirts and whisking off the men’s hats.
The amphitheatre was crowded but dull. Excepting
for a few minutes occasionally it was all in shadow.
The high structure of iron, painted slate-colour, looked
dingier than ever, its elegant suggestion of manufactured
architecture being little in harmony with the boisterous,
clamorous, inebriate, and debasing character of the
national Spanish festival. The uniformity of dress,
which increases every day to the great loss of æsthetic
effect, would give a public entertainment the aspect of
a solemn congregation or a patriotic meeting, if the
picture were not disturbed by the roar of voices—now
an impatient murmur, now harsh yells of rage, in every
key of passion, pleasure and frenzy, forming the hideous
music of the sanguinary opera of which the libretto is
the struggle in the arena. Coloured handkerchiefs are
fast disappearing; still, a few bright spots of red and
yellow, like gaudy butterflies, here and there relieved
the huge black spot, and the incessant flutter of fans
gave animation to the long rows of men and women.
The uncovered seats on the shady side, especially those
affected by the youth and students of the town, were
closely packed with heads in ranks like the seeds in an
ear of maize. The less crowded places on the sunny
side were occupied by busy knots of press reporters, by
country folks, by a hundred or more of Andalusians, in
manners and dress a grotesque caricature of the torero;
of hardworked artisans, seeking in this wild orgy of excitement
some respite from the dreary round of labour.
The distinguished society of mataderos, butchers,
leather-dressers, tanners, the myrmidons of the slaughterhouse
and purveyors of fodder, seethed like a boiling
pot; and the hubbub, with the fitful ringing of a bell,
sounded like the spasmodic progress of a neighing and
kicking beast. The detestable medley of slang and
dialects rose up like the hissing of some coarse and
malodorous fry as it simmers over the fire. The chula
muttered a hoarse oath as she insolently forced her way
through the crowd, diffusing a mixed perfume of musk
and garlic; and the miserable lout whose natural destiny
it was to clean tripe and bladders, being incapacitated
by nature for any more worthy function in life,
made a speaking-trumpet of his hand to hurl a torrent
of abuse, flavoured with a hot vapour of raw spirits, at
the president’s box, where it would, no doubt, reach
the ears of some official of the Spanish capital—the
governor perhaps, or perhaps the president of the
council.
The front seats of the amphitheatre presented a
more pleasing spectacle; here there were a good many
white mantillas decking pretty heads, on which camellias
as white as milk or as red as blood, bloomed as naturally
as though they had grown there. The ladies of the
demi-monde, with their unmistakable and characteristic
air—a sort of family likeness—their obtrusive elegance
and vulgar assertive beauty, formed a notable
proportion of the long row, elbowing here and there a
woman of still lower morality. Some of these faces
were of wonderful beauty, others mere masks of white
and red, and burnt cork. Respectable families of the
middle classes filed in, led by the father—a merchant
perhaps, or a rising stockbroker, the head of a house of
business, an infantry officer, a retired magistrate, a contractor
for the supply of bacon to the public asylums, a
stage baritone, an attorney, a professor of music—in
short, whatever you choose—and closed by the
youngest child, a little schoolboy. Here and there might
be seen the essentially Spanish figure of a wealthy
woman of the shopkeeping class; showy, generally very
stout, with a certain loftiness as of a Roman matron
grafted on to her florid native smartness; equally
proud of her black eyes and her sparkling rings which
cut into the flesh of her fat fingers; shedding contemptuous
glances on all sides, as much as to convey
that she is a very great lady and very rich, that her
shop, with its stock of ancient furniture, or her butchery,
or her pawnbroker’s parlour, is as good as the Bank of
Spain, and that so long as she lives there will be no
lack of occupation for the horrible gladiators below,
who are loitering round the arena in green and gold, or
crimson and silver, their cruel weapons in their hands
and their spirits high with bold adventure. There is
in the lavish proportions and air of satiety of these
women, in their pretentious and sometimes cynical expression—particularly
when they traffic in human
creatures—an indefinable look of depravity suggesting
Vitellius, Otho, or Heliogabalus; excepting that they are
apt to turn pale when they hear the fatal ‘morituri te
salutant.’
Behind are four long rows of humbler folk, the respectable
class looking down on the disreputable class,
very unpretending persons, plain, pretty, or commonplace.
Above, in the boxes, there are more white
mantillas—some covering grey heads, others framing
the sweetest specimens of youth and beauty; fiery carnations
or starry jasmine in their hair, cheeks like blush
roses, eyes black or blue, with lashes quivering like
butterflies; cherry lips, a glance as fickle as the light
nod of a flower in the wind, and smiles that reveal
teeth like pearls; the all-pervading fan with its wordless
telegraphy in a thousand colours. This forms the bewildering
charm of all large assemblages in Spain—the
same in the boxes of a theatre as in the balconies
over the streets—whenever there is a procession or a
spectacle, or whenever a king makes his entry or takes
his departure to do honour to a brand-new constitution.
There were faces there, withered, and faded, which
betrayed even at a distance the pains that had been
taken to hide their ruin, and others, young and innocent,
that hid behind a fan when the loathsome teasing
of the bull began; there was no lack of splendour—an
atmosphere of elegance seemed to emanate from the
style of dress, the glances, the air with which the
women were pretty or ugly, and pervaded everything
that they wore, from a blossom to the white paint, from
the curl that the breeze fluttered on their temples to the
jewel that rose and fell with every breath, and the glove
that waved as the little hands clapped applause.
There were groups of men too in the boxes, all in
black, with their elbows on the balustrade, and their
hats tilted over their eyes, with nothing vulgarly loud
in their dress, but talking a language savouring equally
of the chamber of deputies and of the bull-ring, a
strange medley of high-flown phrases, witty conceits, and
slang terms full of point and metaphor, suggesting a
mixture of cabbages and roses in a basket of flowers.
The tone of their conversation was one of flippant
scepticism; that of men who had ceased to believe even
in bull-fights, while they directed the fire of their opera-glasses
up and down the rows of ladies and made brutal
comments on not a few of them. Morality and frivolity
were inextricably mixed and fell together on the ear,
just as gold and copper alike slip into the slit in a
poor-box. The same lips pronounced technical criticisms
on the tactics of the arena, and, almost in the
same breath, blighted a reputation.
Among them were legislators and men whose daily
occupation was the issue of decrees and regulations;
some were impoverished aristocrats, some enriched
plebeians, wealthy country proprietors, retired bull-fighters,
elaborately preserved old dandies, here and
there an inquisitive foreigner. But the flower of the
moneyed youth sat below, in the places close behind
the barrier—the favourite seats of the true dilettanti,
where a distinguished company of critical spectators sit
in judgment, including some names famous in the history
of the time; young men who lack neither talent
nor culture, and reporters, who dip their pen in the
blood of the bull, so to speak, to indite a style of prose
which, like the atmosphere of the cheaper boxes, is a
steamy compound of raw garlic, musk, and brandy.
The hero of the fight was a bull called Sacristan, a
huge brute, broadly marked with black, strong, wild,
and well armed. The sound of the Olympian roar that
hailed the fury of the beast’s first onslaught was immediately
succeeded by a dull murmur of dissatisfaction,
and every face—strange to say—was averted,
for across the blood-stained arena swept the spectre of
a horse dragging its bowels, as a kite drags its tail
before it sinks for lack of wind.
The sport went on, though heavy rain-drops were
already falling, and at length, when Higadillos, in scarlet
and gold, with his knife in his iron hand, was inciting
the beast just in front of the president’s box, there
was a general stir throughout the amphitheatre. Every
one got up, some screaming and some grumbling;
there was a universal upturning of heads, pushing of
elbows, and trampling of feet; a tremendous thunderclap
rattled through the air, and at the same instant the
rain came down as though a sluice gate had suddenly
been opened in the clouds; a torrent—a cataract, that
thrashed the earth like whip thongs.
The confusion was frightful. Annoyance and good-humour
vied with each other in curses and jests. The
strongest fairly elbowed their way through the weaker,
the nimblest leaped from seat to seat between the old
and stout, women implored for help, boys howled, the
smart bourgeoise had a head like a sponge and the
men streamed like Tritons. A few here and there,
opened umbrellas which got in each other’s way, their
points hooking and catching like bats’ claws.
In the arena, meanwhile, the dripping fighters went
on with the sport and the bull, startled and drenched,
was in no mood for play. The flood of rain washed
away every trace of the blood and the wretched horses
snorted up the moist air that refreshed them in their
agony. However, it was soon impossible to continue
the fight; the flags were streaming, it was hardly possible
to see across the amphitheatre. The bell of the
tame bull was heard, and the baited beast, following
the sound, was led back into the stable.
The crowd, flying from the rain as if it had been a
fire, collected in the passages which could not contain
them in spite of their great size. Every staircase was
blocked, and as no one cared to leave the place so long
as the torrent continued, the vast circular structure was
more like a huge barrel of soaked sardines than anything
else. Not one more could be wedged in. The women
shook their cloaks, the men cursed the skies, and some
wrangled to get their money back. Cries, laughter,
jokes; feet trodden on; hats shedding little rivulets of
water; sneezing, shivering, coughing.
A party of young men from the barrier seats tried
to force a way up to the boxes.
“Let us get upstairs,” said one, “I think that Leon
is there. He will lend us his carriage and go home
with the minister.”
“And if he is not there we can go with the Fúcars—gentlemen,
if you please—allow me.—Go on Polito,
why are you staying behind?”
“Confound you! don’t you see that I am dying for
want of breath?... and wet to the skin? Wait till I
have put a tar lozenge in my mouth—what a deluge!
what a scene!”
With the greatest difficulty, pushing hard and being
roundly abused, they succeeded in reaching the boxes.
The crush there was equally great for, as the rain fell
obliquely and had flooded the boxes on one side of the
amphitheatre, the occupants had crowded out into the
corridor behind.
“Here is Leon,” cried Polito, going up to a group
that stood round some great man. “I say, Leon, will
you let us have your carriage?”
“Yes, take it, I do not want it.”
“Bravissimo! you are a brick; we can have the
carriage—come on!”
Among the men stood ladies in couples, in groups,
in dozens, waiting for the weather to clear. Up here
every one was in a good-humour, laughing and jesting;
for this class of spectators is not so seriously annoyed
by a delay which to those below is a serious grievance.
Indeed, the unforeseen has greater charms for them
than a programme fulfilled; they have plenty of pleasures
and a surprise or a little check has a certain relish.
After all, the rain is not a serious evil to people who
keep a carriage.
“How will those poor people from the open seats
get on?” said a lady to her companion, as they came
out of their box with an elderly man. “They are
really almost justified in asking for their money back.
They paid to see the bull-fight and not to get drenched.
However, as it was for charity....”
The two ladies stopped to speak to one and another
of their acquaintance.
“What fun! What an excitement! It is quite delightful!
Where are you going now? What, are you
wet?... They are asking for their money back, how
glad Higadillos must have been—he was dying of
fright.... It seems not to be raining so hard now,
but the arena is flooded.... Well, I am going.”
The speaker lightly laid her hand on the arm of a gentleman
who was talking to some others; bankers,
deputies and a minister or two.
“Are you coming to dinner?”
“With pleasure; but now? at once?—I have
burnt my ships—that is to say I have sent away my
carriage.”
“Then come with us,” said the lady taking the arm
that Leon offered. “I have no patience to wait any
longer.”
“But it is still pouring; you will have to wait at
the entrance and the line of carriages will be a long
one.”
“Never mind, let us go.” The other lady followed
on the arm of the old gentleman.
“I thought you were at Suertebella. You told me
that you were not to come back till next week.”
“I came back to-day because Papa wrote to me
that he was to arrive soon with a Frenchman—a
banker—and I had to arrange matters in the house.”
“When I saw you in the box I meant to go round
and speak to you; to ask if you had any news of Federico.”
“I!” exclaimed the lady with surprise and annoyance.
“He does not write to me; he cannot write to
me. I heard from his cousins that he was leaving
Cuba to go—how should I know where he is going;
no where for any good.”
“And the little girl, how is she?”
“I did not bring her with me; I left her there.
Sweet pet, she is not very well, she has been ailing for
some days. When are you coming to see her? I
want to get back again; I should not have been here
now but for Papa.... I cannot bear to leave her. He
is going to have a sort of meeting of bankers at our
house; you know ... about the national loan. Don
Joaquín Onésimo can tell you all about it and I had
better say nothing about it.”—Here she lowered her
voice so as not to be heard by the couple who
were close behind them.—“For he would bore us to
death with the national debt, and taxable property, and
the mortgage of shares. That man is a deluge of administration;
but Papa desired me to be very civil; so
this evening we four will dine together—quite a family
party. I hate ceremony; I am so accustomed to be
alone at Suertebella with my little girl that society tires
me and upsets me.”
The two couples made their way down with considerable
difficulty. The wet and dripping mob
waiting for the rain to cease had no mind to be accommodating
to those happier individuals who had carriages.
“Allow me, gentlemen—would you mind...?”
And at each entreaty they advanced a step or two.
Once down the stairs and safe in the large hall they
drew a breath of relief, as though they had accomplished
a long and difficult journey, though it was full
of people impatiently watching the incessant drip from
the eaves, and putting out their hands to feel whether
the storm were abating. Some ventured forth under
umbrellas, others made a rush for an omnibus. Gentlemen’s
coachmen were on the look-out for their masters,
and Pepa’s took up the two ladies and the two
gentlemen and rolled off, splashing up the mud, down
the broad street which turns out of the Carretera de
Aragón
(Aragón
Street). There it turned into the
court-yard of the Fúcars’ house and drew up under a
covered vestibule—a large alcove with scagliola
columns and two enormous candelabra, shrouded in
linen covers and looking like a couple of Carthusian
friars.
Leaving the great staircase on the left the party went
into the splendid rooms on the ground-floor which
were arranged for daily use; the first-floor rooms—the
most airy, sunniest, pleasant, and by far the most
magnificent, were only opened to the public on great
occasions; thus it is that vanity overrides sanitary considerations.
CHAPTER XXIV.
REMINISCENCES—ANXIETIES.
They
sat down to dinner, as Pepa had said, a party
of four. Happy to find herself with friends so good
and few, the millionaire’s daughter showed her pleasure
frankly but discreetly during the meal, after which they
all went together into the drawing-room where Pepa
received her more intimate acquaintance. There she
had collected various treasures of art and numberless
trifles of French workmanship, adding prettiness to
splendour, and novelty to beauty, all so skilfully arranged
to surprise or delight the eye that the palace of
caprice itself could not be more delightful. They sat
together for some time till the Countess de Vera left to
go to the theatre, Don Joaquín Onésimo offering to
escort her. Then the other two were alone.
On a crimson divan, over which hung a genre picture
representing a squalid party of gypsies with their
asses—fashion attributes a very high value to this class
of work just now, and pays for them their weight
in gold—while not far off, on a pedestal representing
three elephants’ heads, stood a Chinese vase in which
grew a drooping broad-leaved begonia—Pepa and
Leon Roch sat side by side; she very communicative;
he gloomy, and silent.
“It all happened just as I foresaw,” said Pepita.
“Federico, far from improving at Havana, went
from bad to worse. I told papa he would, here he had
got into some absurd and discreditable business, and
there ... well it would seem that distance makes men
reckless. I am ashamed when I think of it; I cannot
get used to the idea that my husband could be guilty of
such dirty work. Why, out there he had to hide and
make his escape, for my father’s correspondents there
would have put him in prison ... when I think that it
was my madness, my idiotic folly, that brought this disgrace
on my father’s house!... All the mischief arose
from that cursed passion for gambling; but who could
control it? It was in his blood—part and parcel of
his being. I assure you,” she added after a pause and
passing her hand across her eyes, “that I have gone
through hours of intense misery and untold struggles;
for there were some things that I could not tell papa,
and at the same time I was forced to apply to him to
get out of the compromising difficulties in which my
husband placed me by his enormous losses. But you
too have suffered, more than enough Señor de Roch. I
do not believe that hearts are made of flesh and blood
as anatomists tell us; they are stone and iron which
cannot be broken, or mine must have been crushed. I
have shed so many tears,” she again wiped her eyes—“that
I think I can have none left to shed if any further
grief befalls me.... But how could I hope to see
the fulfilment of all the fancies and bright dreams of
that bygone time? Ah! reality tames us; we live to
learn. Good heavens! when I think of what I have
gone through for mere appearances!... Indeed Leon,
I have suffered cruelly. This palace, which to others
is a scene of feasting and amusement, to me is full of
sorrows; there is not an object which does not bear the
mark, as it were, of my sighs; there is not a spot of
which I could not say: ‘Here I cried on such a day;
there I thought I should die of grief.’ If I were to try
to tell you all I should never come to an end.” And
Pepita waved her hand to indicate the endlessness of
what she might relate if she were not afraid of boring
her friend.
“No, no, tell me everything. Do I not know the
worst, the really incomprehensible beginning of it all:
your marriage to that rascal Cimarra? That you, with
your morbid imagination—a sort of moral atrophy in
spite of your good heart—should have made such a
mistake I cannot understand; but that your father
should have consented!... To be sure, when his party
came to the front and made Federico a provincial governor,
he seemed for a time to have amended his ways;
he was the model man in office. When he held a high
position in the exchequer no one could have recognised
the old Cimarra in that punctual, almost stoical functionary;
he was so anxious to be thought a judicious
and important personage that it was quite ridiculous,
and I believe your father allowed himself to be taken
in by the masquerade. Besides, your father had dealings
with the exchequer in those days; I heard something
of a loan on the salt tax and a mortgage on salt
mines ... but it was you, Pepa, who were to be given
in pledge and put in the power of that ruffian. I was
not surprised at the trouble that followed, but oh! how
deeply I pitied you. At the time when you married I
was happy; since then ... but you see I know the
worst of your miserable story, and if there is anything
I do not know, lose no time in telling me.”
Pepa laughed; then turning to her friend with a reproachful
air she said:
“But I like your coolness; ‘tell me, tell me,’ you
say? But you tell me nothing. It is not that there is
any lack of interesting chapters in your history—nay,
of grand, not to say poetic passages, but that you are
the most reticent soul alive. You can endure the bitterest
griefs without any one ever knowing it. But I
am very much interested in what goes on in your
house; I know that you and María never meet but at
meals, and that not every day. You see, though you
are so prudent, your mother-in-law is not. She answers
those that ask ... and Polito; he tells tales of what
occurs—and of what does not occur as well.”
Leon sighed. Pepa hid a smile with her fan and
went on:
“You have married into a delightful family!”
There was a long silence during which they both
sat gazing at the flowers in the carpet. In this hushed
and solitary house, where not a sound was to be heard,
a sort of melancholy or sleepiness pervaded the air
which was conducive to meditation. Pepa rose and
paced the room as though she were racking her brain
for some adequate mode of expressing something that
was stirring in her mind and that must be said.
The reader has been told that she was not handsome,
and why should I repeat it. But there is nothing
so bad as to have good in it, nor woman so plain that
she has no detail of beauty. Pepa indeed did not lack
charms, and to some she possessed them in a high degree;
her eyes were effective, small but very bright,
with a sweet and caressing glance. What was most
conspicuous in her was her thick red hair and the dead
whiteness of her skin which gave her the effect of a
statue of alabaster and gold. She was tall and somewhat
bony, but this defect was qualified by her well-proportioned
limbs and the exquisite lightness of her
gait, with an air of gentle confidence that was extremely
captivating. The volubility of her tongue covered a
grave and thoughtful nature; she seemed to have no
pride at all, and her manners, somewhat independent of
etiquette, were most engagingly frank and cordial. Her
caprices and eccentricities were so much changed from
what they were when we first saw her at Iturburua, that
she was hardly like the same woman. Sorrow, that
tames all, had brandished her scourge over Pepita’s
head, and there was little left of her old violence beyond
a rare and transitory echo. She presently returned
to her seat, and for some minutes she silently watched
the intelligent but melancholy countenance of her old
friend. Leon remained lost in thought, like a mathematician
absorbed in the depths of a calculation.
“What are you thinking of?” Pepa suddenly asked.—But
it would fill three chapters to say what Leon was
thinking of at that moment.
“Of nothing,” he said with affected indifference,
“of the miseries and farces of life.”
“You cannot forget your mamma-in-law?” said
Pepa laughing. “Do you never go to her parties? She
began them again with great display when she went out
of mourning for her son Luis Gonzaga, who died just
six months ago, if I remember rightly. I can keep
account of the most important events in your family.
Would you believe it ... her evenings are quite
famous.”
“Oh, I believe it. They will no doubt become
famous.”
“The Count de Vera tells me that she gave a capital
supper the night before last. Do not you think that
your brothers-in-law must have pledged the family
standard for a good round sum? But some people
really do not know what to do with their money!”
They both laughed, but Leon suddenly turned melancholy.
“Change the subject,” he said; “it is a painful
one.”
“Your mother-in-law has found the philosopher’s
stone,” Pepa went on, “you ought to be proud of having
any one in your family who is so clever in that
art!... Well, I heard—servants always have the most
delightful stories, and they tell each other everything—oh!
the most amusing detail ... shall I tell you?”
“No, for pity’s sake.”
“Nonsense, let me tell you.”
“I can guess it: that on the very day of the great
supper there was nothing to eat; that there was a commotion
in the house because some purveyor or confectioner
brought a bill for twenty or thirty dollars ...
oh! I know it all; it is an every day dilemma.”
“But perhaps you do not know of the scandalous
flirtation that the Marquesa de San Salomó carries on
with Gustavo, in his father’s house even. Vera told me
that they were always together, sitting in a corner,
whispering and cooing with an air of mystery and devotion
in the most impudent, the most audacious
way!... So they say, but perhaps it is slander; so
many lies get about.”
“So many!”
“And have you heard of her poet?” Pepa went on
with malicious enjoyment. “Has not the marquis told
you about him? This inspired being whose verses are
all about white doves and lilies of peace, the Christian
home, the glories of Sinai, the Virgins of the Lord,
pious aspirations, the azure empyrean, the spirits of the
deep and the soul of Virtue—this sublime Christian
poet adores your mother-in-law as his Beatrice.” Pepa
could not help laughing. “It is she who inspires him
with all these divine visions and metaphysical raptures.
It is a pity you should not have seen him; he is quite
a character. To talk to him after reading his verses is
like falling from the clouds into a mud heap. You have
not only dramas in your family but farces!”
“Pepita for pity’s sake do not torture me,” said
Leon rising to go. “You know that I can never get
accustomed to certain things which some people do not
mind at all so long as they do not go on in their own
houses. They do not, to be sure, go on in mine; but
still, I see them in that of a man who has a right to call
me his son. It crushes me ... I feel that I cannot live
here, I must leave Madrid, my mind is quite made up;
I must go....”
“Go! where?”
“Anywhere. I must find some excuse.—I can make
one,” he said with prompt determination. “I know
that it is my fate to live in isolation, to have no home,
no family ... well if I must, I must. And what can be
better? A very good thing is solitude....”
“And you will leave Spain?” asked Pepa, trying to
conceal her emotion.
“I do not know even that.”
“Nothing calls you abroad?”
“No ... I shall not leave the country. It might
seem that after all that has happened in my house and
in the isolation in which I live there, I could have no
interest in my home; and yet, if I am far from Madrid
I feel utterly forlorn. I have friends here....”
“Stay, I can suggest a delightful retreat,” said Pepa
eagerly. “Do you know that close to Suertebella there
is a charming little house to let?”
“Close to Suertebella?” muttered Leon, on whose
fancy the plan smiled greatly. “I will think about it;
I will go and see the rooms.”
“There you can devote yourself entirely to study;
no one will interrupt you. It is such a pretty place,
especially just now when the corn fields are all green,
and you should see the poppies! You can look over
our grounds and those of Vista-Alegre, and beyond
that miles of lovely fields with flocks of sheep here and
there. The house is flooded with light and sunshine;
you will see how cheerful it is. Then it is so snug—just
big enough for one person. A splendid sitting-room
for studying in—for fighting it out with your books,
arranging your papers, notes, and names, and thrusting
pins through your miserable insects. You will be so
comfortable there. The people of the house are quiet
respectable folks, and the silence, the stillness, the
peace!...”
Pepa folded her hands devoutly to convey an idea of
the peace she described. “They will not feed you very
well perhaps, but you are not an epicure, and when you
want a good dinner you can come to us. You have
only to go down into the cow-yard, open a door—two
steps....”
“Two steps?” said Leon, pleased by this tempting
description.
“Two steps, and you are in the cow-yard and then
in the little garden where Monina plays.”
“Where Monina plays.”
They had drawn closer together in their eager gestures
as they had become more interested in the
dialogue and their hands met now and then, like birds
that flutter and coo.
“Monina may perhaps make a little noise and disturb
you at your work—but you will forgive her, will
you not?” As she spoke Pepa winked her eyelids to
keep her tears from falling.
“Forgive her! Why Pepa, you may think it lucky
if I do not devour her with kisses.”
“And it is a fortnight since you saw her, you bad
man!”
“I will go to see her to-morrow,” said Leon, his
face as bright now as it had before been gloomy.
“To-morrow; then I am to expect you?” said
Pepa, who was half reclining on the divan so that her
elbow was buried in the pillows.
“Yes, you may expect me; did you say the child
was ailing?” he added with some anxiety.
Pepa was on the point of replying when a servant
hurried into the room who had just arrived tired and
breathless from Suertebella. Pepa gazed at him in horror.
What had happened? A very simple matter.
The little girl had suddenly been taken ill—very ill indeed.
“Good God!” cried Pepa starting from her seat.
“And I here, idling ... amusing myself! I must be off at
once. Order the carriage ... Lola, my cloak ... make
haste! What is the matter? She coughs you say—is
choking?... Has she had a fall? or caught cold. She
got wet in the park. My poor darling. A doctor ...
send at once to Dr. Moreno.”
“I will see to that, go at once,” said Leon, not less
alarmed than the mother.
“She has been in a draught and I told them again
and again to take the greatest care ... but servants
will always give a child everything it cries for....”
“Oh go at once, do not delay. I will see that
Moreno follows you in my carriage as quickly as possible
... and perhaps it will be nothing after all!”
Pepa started, and Leon went in search of the doctor.
We must go no farther in our story without explaining
that Leon Roch visited at the Fúcar’s house as the
friend of the marquis, no less than as a true and loyal
friend of his daughter’s. Theirs was not the only house
in which he was intimate; he went to many in search
of some diversion from his melancholy in pleasant
society and worthy friendships. At the same time it
must be owned that his visits to Pepa had of late been
long ones. Why? Some people would have answered
the question promptly, to his discredit; but their answer
lacks evidence. There had budded in Leon’s soul,
without his dreaming of its strength, a pure and tender
passion of which more will be told presently.
CHAPTER XXV.
MARÍA EGYPTIACA DRESSES IN GREY AND DOES NOT WASH HER HANDS.
After
calling on the doctor, who lived in the house
opposite his own, and imploring him to go at once to
Carabanchel, for which he lent him his carriage, Leon
went home, fully determined to follow him thither as
early as possible next morning. The house was silent
and unlighted; every footstep echoed and every
shadow seemed exaggerated. A sleepy man-servant
opened the door, following him, half-nodding, to his
room.
“You can go,” said his master. “I shall not go to
bed to-night. Is your mistress gone to her room?”
“She was in the oratory till eleven—I will go and
ascertain.”
“No, you need not ask. Who has been here this
evening?”
“The Señora Marquesa de San Joselito, and Doña
Perfecta.”
Leon repeated the names with dull indifference.
“And they went away when prayers were over.”
“Very well, you can go.”
The man went away; but he noticed in Leon
Roch an anxious and absent manner, indicating that
he was absorbed by some ruling idea; still, a servant
cannot offer to console his master or to persuade him
out of his melancholy by demonstrations of affection,
so he went.
Leon was alone, and flinging himself into a seat
with his elbow on a little table and his chin resting on
his hands, his eyes—eyes as black as night—half-closed,
he sat thinking. Of what, God alone knows.
So complete was his abstraction from external things
that he did not hear the soft footfall of a dark form
which entered noiselessly, more like a ghost than a
woman, and came close up to him. It touched him on
the shoulder, and as he turned to look up Leon gave a
cry of alarm. The fact is that there are occasions and
circumstances when our mind is in a state that makes
the simplest events and the most familiar faces seem
strange and terrible.
“You startled me,” he said.
“That is strange! so cool a man, so brave and sensible,
to be frightened at me!” said María in the doleful,
mechanical voice that she had adopted for the last
few months. She was robed in a morning gown of a
dull mouse-grey and of the most exaggerated simplicity
of make; she was pale and looked sallow, but from
want of care rather than from self-mortification; her
neat feet were concealed in a pair of coarse felt slippers,
and her figure revealed neither shape nor grace; her
fine hair hid itself as if ashamed under the folds of a
cap of hideous dimensions.
After looking at him for a minute or two María said
in a hard voice: “well, are you afraid of me?”
“Yes, I am afraid of you,” he replied, taking his
eyes off his wife and looking at the ground.
“What next!” said María, smiling with an expression
of disdainful superiority. “Because I am so ugly?
But, would you believe it, I am delighted to see you
quail before me. It is the privilege of humility that it
can abash the gaze of the proud.” And as she spoke
she seated herself.
Then, either because she detected a look of disgust
on her husband’s face, or because she fancied she did,
she added: “it annoys you that I should disturb you?
So I supposed. That is the very reason why I shall
stay. My duty comes before everything: and my conscience
requires me to ask you what you have been
doing for so long. Leon, your conduct is far from
right. You never were a Christian but you kept up
appearances at any rate; now, you do not even do
that.”
“You do everything in your power to make my
home unendurable,” replied Leon coldly. “Your disgust
at the presence of those friends whom I most care
to see, added to your fancy for filling the house with
people whom I dislike; your constant absence—for
you too go out, and a great deal more than I do—spending
whole days in church; the extraordinary
change in your very nature from being loving and amiable
to harshness and scolding, are additional motives
for my remaining within doors as little as possible.
The house is full of gall and bitterness which weighs
upon my soul as soon as I enter it.”
“Oh! how can you say such abominable things?”
cried María, casting up her eyes to Heaven and clasping
her hands under her chin.
“It is only the truth; I have no art to conceal the
truth. You have made my house a desert cave, cold,
empty, and dark ... and I want light, light!”
María was cowed for an instant by his vehemence,
then, making great efforts to check her tears, she
went on:
“You need not fancy that your violence will wear
out my patience. For some time you have taken to
talking to me as if I were one of the men you argue
with at your club, or debating societies, or whatever
you call them. Light, do you say? Light? Then
you are at last tired of your blindness? What do I
ask better than to show you the light? It is you who
are determined that I shall not—that you will remain
as you are—blind. You refuse to see! To me it
would be the greatest comfort if we could save our
souls together; but you will not ... you will rush on
to destruction. I, so far as I am concerned, to my dying
hour will never cease to say: ‘Leon, Leon, look and
see.... And you laugh? But I am hardened against
your laughter; God grants me such patience that I can
bear to be the victim of your mockery as well as of
your scorn and spite. Laugh as much as you please—laugh
me to scorn! I do not care; nay, I ask it of
you; my one hope, my one desire is to suffer and endure.’”
“Suffer and endure!” exclaimed Leon bitterly.
“That is not my desire, to be sure, but it is my lot.
God has so ordered it that where I looked for peace
and love I find constant war—war to the knife. I
hoped to bear a gentle burden, and a hideous log fell
on to my shoulders, tiring me, galling and wounding
me!”
“And that log am I! Thank you,” cried María
spitefully, unable to swallow the worldly mortification
which struggled with her less genuine mysticism.
“This weary burden is your wife?”
“Yes, it is you. I can only speak plainly. I am
bound to be honest.”
“Then cast it off! Rid yourself of this intolerable
burthen,” she cried with nervous excitement, her
cheeks glowing and her eyes sparkling. “I am a load
on your shoulders and you hesitate to throw me off!
Kill me, kill me at once!—martyrdom is my vocation!”
Leon looked at her scornfully and said very gravely:
“I do not kill—for that.”
“For what then? Nay, you kill for everything.
There are other ways of killing besides blows; grief
kills too.”
“If grief could kill, María, I should by this time be
dead and buried. This infernal torture by a slow fire,
this incessant discussion and recrimination arising from
the radical opposition of our views on the things of the
next world—and indeed of this—are a constant succession
of blows that kill ... aye more surely than steel
or lead! Ah! the misery of two beings, together and
yet apart; of feeling that two souls that ought to be
one are growing further and further asunder, each on
its own side.... For all this I grieve bitterly, bitterly,
child—and then to find a cold and lonely hearth where
the wife I loved once sat—to be isolated and abandoned....”
And Leon, deeply agitated, broke down
and was silent.
“And in this separation,” said María, “who is to
blame but you? You, who by nature are obdurate to
all arguments, blindly obstinate in your atheism and
materialism. What have I done constantly, repeatedly,
but offer terms of peace and union?”
“What can you have to offer but thorns, bitterness
and repulsion? What peace but that of the grave, the
peace of a perfunctory, absurd and debasing formalism.
You have no genuine feelings—nothing but capricious
terrors, horrible stubbornness, a barren and morose
mysticism which excludes all genuine love. Nay, do
not talk to me of peace, you who have turned against
me, doing all you can to vex and gnaw my heart with
the fangs of ferocious fanaticism; to me you are like a
harpy who calls your venom by the name of Faith, and
who have poisoned me with that diabolical secretion.”
“Nay,” cried María with the air of a martyr, “abuse
and insult me as much as you will, but do not attack
my faith; that is blasphemy.”
“It is not blasphemy; I only tell you that you, and
you alone, have made our marriage tie a chain of
bondage. You, María you! When we married you
had your beliefs and I had mine, and my respect for
every man’s conscience is so great that I never thought
of trying to eradicate your faith; I gave you complete
liberty; I never interfered with your devotions, even
when they were so excessive as to mar the happiness of
our home. Then there came a day when you went
mad—I can find no other word to describe the terrific
exaggeration of your bigotry since, six months ago,
here in my garden, your hapless brother died in your
arms. Since then you have not been a woman but a
monster of bitterness and vexatiousness; an incarnation
of the inquisition in the form of a woman. You have
not merely tormented me by ceasing to be in any way
amiable and by your odious assumption of sanctity, but
you have persecuted me with attempts to make of me
too a hypocritical and ridiculous bigot. I have tried
to make you give up your monomania; I have even
tried giving way to some extent to your earnest entreaties;
but you asked too much. It is impossible, utterly
impossible, that I should lend myself to the sanctimonious
farce, when I thought the moment propitious
for acting with determination I have made superhuman
efforts to free you from your own fanaticism, but, as
you know, it has proved impossible. I have fought for
it desperately, have tried every means, every argument
of reason, of affection, of command—all in vain. Your
spirit has succumbed to some irresistible power, and
you live under the dominion of dark influences which I
cannot defy. There are some invisible meshes, inscrutable
ties, bonds that unite and shears that divide, without
my seeing how or when. Against these I am impotent.
María, I am defeated—I acknowledge it. I
can have nothing more to say to you but a sad farewell,
and to remind you that you once loved me—that
we have been for a time happy together. It is a
sad, a very sad, end; it leaves no room for hope!”
María was so impatient to be heard that she hardly
waited for him to cease before she broke in:
“I too have my bill of indictment, and it is a heavy
one. I was brought up in our holy faith and taught to
put my faith into practice in all sincerity and truth. I
married you—I loved you, I believed you to be good,
kind, honourable, and did not understand the hideous
void in your soul; I loved you—and I love you still,
for it is my duty to love and respect you; but I soon
began to see that in loving you I followed the promptings
of a worldly passion, and that my choice was a
fatal mistake; that my soul was in the utmost peril of
contamination; that we could never come to an agreement;
that your learning was of a most pernicious character;
that I, as your wife and influenced by your reprobate
ideas, might fall into the depths and lose my
faith.—I was on my guard. I fully admit that you
were tolerant and lenient, that you did not abuse my
devotions, nor mock at religion as you have done
since. But you cannot deny that there was a certain
amount of contempt in the facilities you granted me;
you had a particular smile when I spoke to you of such
subjects.—However, we got on very well. Then one
day it struck me: ‘I am a fool if I do not convert him.
Why should I not light the lamp of faith in that darkened
soul?’ But you gave me to understand that I was
mad, that all believers were mad; and you smiled—how
you smiled—and with what affectation of good
humour you would laugh at all our sacred dogmas.
‘Let things alone,’ you said, ‘let every man save his
soul in his own way.’ This made me miserable, for
there is but one—if I repeat it a thousand times—there
is but one way of being saved. Then came those
dreadful days, that I can only call my sainted brother’s
Holy Week—the days of agony of that angelic being,
whom God vouchsafed to send to me that he might
direct my steps into the right road—I see that the recollection
of them vexes you. You cannot forget the
bitter humiliation of your spirit in those days when the
mere presence of my brother was a constant ground of
remorse to you.”
Leon made no reply, he did not even look at his
wife. There was something so repellent in her appearance
that it vexed his sight as much as her words revolted
his feelings.
“I too felt remorse or rather deep repentance for
my sins, and an eager desire to grow more like the
angel whose soul, as God had willed, was twin to mine.
I believe I am reserved for a death no less glorious
than his. Celestial fires were lighted in my heart,
ardent but pure—different indeed from my love for
you! What joys I felt, what heavenly strains I heard,
what visions I saw, what glories I dreamed of, what
anxieties I endured, what a craving for sorrow on earth
that I may be happy in heaven! What a longing to
die that I may enjoy, if only a small part of that sacred
peace in which my brother revelled. I have prayed
and longed till my brother has appeared to me, whether
in my dreams or no I know not, radiant with happiness
and beauty, calling me to him, and repeating the exhortations
and warnings he gave me in the last hour of
his life. I never pass a night without hearing his voice
in my ears! You, of course, will not believe in this
ecstasy, you are fast bound in materialism and can see
only with your bodily eyes. Oh! wretched handful of
clay! And this is what the world calls a wise man,
because he has learnt half a dozen facts which cannot
matter to any one. Wretched and miserable man! Still
more miserable if you had no one to intercede for you,
to beseech God for the mercy you do not deserve.”
“Thank you!” said Leon drily; and as his wife
came nearer to him he put out his hand to keep off
the contact of that grey dress. There was something
in the smell of the coarse woollen stuff that sickened
him.
“Your irony will not avail to quell or to shake me,”
exclaimed his wife. “I know that your stubbornness
will yield at last, a voice in my soul tells me so. God
himself tells me so, when I feel myself uplifted by
thoughts of him; the blessed patriarch Saint Joseph
assures me of it—my friend and intercessor, my most
loving, most tender and most pitiful patron,” and she
spoke the canting superlatives with honeyed unction.
“O Lord!” she went on, raising her eyes and crossing
her hands, no longer marked by the refined cleanliness
of former times, “save him, snatch him from the pestilent
and atheistic set among which he has fallen, raise
him up to thy glory and make him abhor these
damnable doctrines!” Then she remained absorbed in
muttered prayer, presently however she laid one hand
on his shoulder, and raising the other with a gesture of
threatening admonition, she went on in a low voice:
“The day will come when you will crave my pardon
on your knees, when you will entreat me with tears to
teach you how to pray; when you will fling yourself,
like me, at the foot of dusty altars caring not that your
hands should be dirty; when you will dress in sackcloth;
live, like me, in perpetual fear of your conscience;
feel that a smile, a glance, a frivolous thought
is a sin; renounce all the joys of the world and find
delight in incessant prayer and unwearied worship, neglecting
all outward things, contemning all care of your
body in perpetual penance. Ah! yes, you must save
your soul; my patron saints cannot do less than grant
me this; they will intercede to God for you, and God
will forgive you and call you to himself, with me for
your guide! What a triumph, what a victory that will
be!”
She took her stand in the middle of the room in a
dramatic attitude, with her hand raised, her eyes fixed,
and her head thrown back, and exclaimed:
“Wretched atheist, I will save you in spite of yourself!”
Leon watched her in silence as she left the room.
Long endurance had made him stoical; she had hammered
so long and so constantly on his heart that it
seemed to have turned to a dead cold anvil. But he let
his fist fall on the arm of his chair with such force that
the very floor trembled. It was as much as to say:
“No more, no more of this!”
CHAPTER XXVI.
THE DEVOURING OGRE—CROUP.
Quite
early in the morning Leon set out in his carriage
for Carabanchel. The air was fresh from the rain
which had not ceased during the night, and every object
was reflected dully in the liquid mud, as in a dirty
mirror. Workmen and carters swearing like gentlemen—the
comparison is commonly made the contrary
way—were wending their way along the roads and
across the bridge, met by muleteers from Fuenlabrada,
and market gardeners from Leganés or Moraleja; while
Madrid, in the dismal dawn, was sending out her
pauper dead, borne on the shoulders of the living, to
San Isidro or Santa María.
After passing the lower village of Carabanchel, Leon
skirted a splendid park lying between the lower and
the higher villages; upper Carabanchel having the advantage
if not actually in point of architecture, at any
rate in situation and outlook.
The demesne of Suertebella is one of those estates
which ample wealth and perseverance have succeeded
in creating in the neighborhood of Madrid, and which
can stand comparison with the more famous grounds of
Vista-Alegre, Montijo and others. There was a noble
growth of elms, acacias, sophoras, with the still rarer
beauty of a wide spread of turf planted with grand sequoias,
Japanese medlars, magnolias and other exotic
trees with huge shrubs of fuchsias, tree ferns, cactus
and araucarias; aviaries full of every variety of wild
and tame fowl; stables in which the horses lived like
gentlemen, cow-houses and poultry-yards. There was
a river running through the estate with a boat on it, a
shooting-gallery, a croquet-ground, a grotto, a pond
stocked with fish, and even a heap of ruins with the inevitable
adjuncts of ivy and moss. The house, though
recently built of brick and stucco was sumptuous
and elegant; especially the interior, where a lavish
hand and experienced taste had collected all the rarest
and costliest luxuries that modern art can produce. All
the rooms were on the ground floor, the sitting-rooms in
a long suite, handsomely decorated. Of course there was
an Arabian divan in the latest fashion, and a Japanese
room, and a Gothic room, and an orthodox Louis XV.
drawing-room. The Marquis Fúcar prided himself on
each being perfectly “in keeping,” and the most beautiful
object in creation would fail to meet his approval
if it had not what he called “character”: “In perfect
character you see,” was his favourite form of praise.
Leon made his way through half a dozen of these
vast empty rooms, dismally draped in silk, like
shrouded princes; their vacant spaciousness made him
think of huge yawning mouths. The carpets—softer
and deeper than the mattresses in some houses—deadened
the sound of his steps; the splendid parcel-gilt
bronzes, still smelling of the packing-case, and the
varnish on the freshly-cleaned pictures reflected every
intrusive ray of light, while the clocks repeated their
tedious monologue, breaking the silence of the cavern-like
rooms. There were historical portraits, frowning
sternly; Poussinesque groups of figures dancing or
playing rustic games on the tapestry; Dead Christs of
jaundiced hue, reposing in the lap of the weeping Virgin;
dozens of bull-fighters and mincing ladies, such
as the modern Spanish school turns out by hundreds to
meet the taste of the amateurs of the day; watercolours
of a rather free and easy character; stalwart
nymphs à la Rubens, and lean studies of racers painted
with as much elaboration as though they were the most
eminent portraits. Graceful vases, little porcelain kittens
grinning over the edge of a jug, and flower stands
supported on the backs of some hideous hippopotamus
or monstrous griffin.
The servants he met, looked full of consternation
and the maids had their eyes red with crying; a few
hasty words put him in possession of the facts. In
front of several pictures of saints, tapers were burning,
and he heard the sound of prayers and sobs.
At last he reached the silent, half-darkened room
which was the centre of all this woe. He approached
very softly as though it were the scene of some event
of transcendental importance to the whole human race.
It was a very tiny, humble drama that was being
enacted there; the death-struggle of a frail insignificant
creature—one of those inappreciably small catastrophes
which make no echo in the world since they snatch
away no great man, no useful woman, though they bring
anguish and terror into a thousand homes. This death
would leave no one widowed or orphaned, would bring
neither ruin, nor wealth, nor change, nor even mourning
on any house; it would be no more than one more victim
added to the hecatomb of little ones through whom
Providence, by snatching them away at the very threshold
of life, wrings the heart of mothers. The human
race must be daily decimated it would seem, to prevent
its overwhelming increase.
Pepa, still dressed as she had been at the bull-fight
had sunk into a chair, her hands folded, her eyes fixed;
her speechless despair terrified all who were with her,
and some who could not control their grief left the
room to cry. She was sitting close to a little bed so
daintily pretty that the fairies themselves could make
nothing more innocently fresh; it was like a little basket
of gilt cane fit to contain the most delicate flowers,
and the white curtains, with their lace and pink ribbands,
were so fine and white that the angels might
have played at hide-and-seek among the folds. Leon
went up to the head of the dying child that lay heavy
and motionless on the pillow; the pillow was covered
with golden curls and wet with tears. Leon himself
was tremulous with apprehension; his heart stood still
with anguish as he looked at Monina—the little face,
pale with suffering, the lips blue, the eyes wide open
and the lashes wet with tears, her throat swollen and
dark from the swelling of the veins—and worst of all
as he heard the plaintive, stertorous groaning which
was neither a cough nor a sigh—hoarse, guttural and
yet sharp, as harsh as the whistle of a pipe in a demon’s
mouth, a horrible, mechanical recurring crow. The
child struggled with suffocation, clutching at her throat
to seek relief, as if she could give a passage to the air
for which her lungs were panting. This agony of an
infant by strangulation with no possibility of relieving
it, while neither science nor a mother’s love can loosen
the invisible cord that is choking the baby throat—the
little neck, generally as white as a lily and now as livid
as a piece of dead flesh; the ebbing of a pure, blameless,
loving, angelical life in the most tragical torments,
with the convulsions of a strangled criminal and the
misery of asphyxia, is one of the most appalling instances
of the inexorable fate which, whether it be for
trial or for punishment, oppresses humanity.
In the clutches of this monster Monina looked from
one to another, at her mother and at the nurses, as if to
implore them to release her from this dreadful thing,
from this undreamed-of punishment—a cruel drama of
Dame Nature! Despair filled every heart; in the face of
this terror no one could shed a tear; through each mind
flashed the sacrilegious thought, like a gleam of infernal
light, that there was—there could be, no God.
Leon knew not what to say, and for a minute or
two his eyes wandered in bewildered horror from the
child to the mother, and noted the most trivial details;
the table covered with medicine bottles, the child’s
playthings scattered on the floor—shabby undressed
dolls, horses without legs and cats without tails—they
looked as forlorn and disconsolate as the human
watchers. When he studied the child’s face and then
looked into that of the doctor who was still standing by
her, Leon augured the worst. Pepa looked up at him
with tearful eyes and said in a low, heart-broken
tone:
“She will die.”
Leon, for the sake of saying something tried to assure
her that it was not certain. In vain.
“There is no hope,” she said, “Moreno says there
is none. That now....” But she could say no more
she covered her face and burst into floods of tears.
This form of suffering was new to Leon, a terrible
and unfamiliar grief that had fallen on him like a bolt
from the skies. He had first seen the child some few
months since, and had found infinite delight in her bewitching
little ways, though this alone perhaps hardly
suffices to account for the acuteness of his pain in seeing
the suffering of a child that was not his, and of a
woman who was not his wife.
The croup, to make it more cruel, has deceptive
intervals each invariably the precursor of a
worse attack. The monster relaxes his grip that
the victim may breathe once more, and know how
precious air is, how sweet is life. After a violent fit of
coughing a spurious amendment is perceptible. Under
the influence of tartar emetic, Monina was able to cough
away some portion of the false membrane that forms
in the windpipe; relieved for the moment, she breathed
more freely, and looked round her brightly; Pepa
leaned forward to rearrange the bed clothes which she
had tossed off in her struggles. When Monina caught
sight of Leon she set up the peevish whimper of a sick
child when it sees any one standing with its mother or
nurse; it is its way of expressing jealousy which is one
of the first sentiments developed in the human breast.
“But my pet, it is Leon.... Do not you want him?
Then he shall go.... Go away, naughty man,” and a
plaintive murmur repeated: “Naughty.”
“Go away, go away. I will punish him.... Spit
it out my pretty.” The little girl did as she was bid;
then her mind seemed to wander. “More, more,” she
said—always a child’s cry when it is pleased or amused.
Then, with her eyes shut, and as if in delirium, she put
her tiny hand out from under the coverlet and waved
it up and down. The infant gesture struck them to the
heart; she was bidding them farewell. Its baby grace
was tragical.
A moment after all the worst symptoms reappeared—the
hard, rasping cough, the suffocation, the agonised
struggle and the shrill, crowing noise. Leon, as
he heard it, felt as if a red-hot needle was piercing his
brain. The child was choking, dying.
Pepa, with a cry of anguish, fell senseless on the
floor.
They carried her to her own room. Leon stayed
with Monina. How many things flashed through his
brain in a minute—in a single minute. He himself
wondered to find that his grief completely filled and
occupied his mind as if the poor little child was all that
the world contained for him to love and care for.
Since his father’s death he had not felt his heart so
strongly drawn to any creature at the moment of death.
He was not even remotely connected with the child’s
parents, and yet he felt as if its death would rob him of
something strangely near and dear. No doubt the
mother and child were to some extent one in the passion
of pity which absorbed his soul to the exclusion of
every other feeling.
On their first acquaintance he and Monina had established
an ardent friendship—not wholly disinterested
to be sure on the child’s part, since it involved frequent
visits to the toy-shop and the confectioner’s—and not
unfrequently he had found himself neglecting a more
important engagement in order to go to the Fúcars’
house to play with Monina. She was so sweet, so merry,
so intelligent, so inquisitive. Her ungrammatical chatter
was so expressive, she made such intelligent remarks,
she was so lively, so graceful, so gentle, so docile! The
friendship had been but brief, but in that short time
Leon had played every game that a man can devise; he
had carried her pick-a-back; had tried to teach her to
speak, to give a penny to a beggar, to forgive when she
was hurt, to pity the poor, to be kind to animals, to
obey her mother, to answer as soon as she was spoken
to, not to cry for nothing. He had grown accustomed
to her winning smile and could not bear to miss it.
How could any one help adoring such a rosy dawn
even though it were veiled in mist? Monina’s real name
was Ramona, after Pepa’s mother, the late Marquesa
de Fúcar. She was two years old and not very like her
mother, for she was very pretty—pink and white, with
eyes of cherubic blue and a sweet round lisping mouth,
slightly built and as restless as a bird. Her chirping
jargon, with every verb made regular, fascinated him;
and when she took a fancy to flit from spot to spot—fluttering
like a butterfly and as busy as a bee, he could
not take his eyes off her. Play brought roses to her
cheeks; she was so overflowing with life that she
laughed when she talked, flew rather than walked, and
her innocent questions and baby comments would
startle him with an innocent logic with which infants so
often confound the wise.
And now, what a terrible change! A single day
had sufficed to transform this bright and guileless being
into a suffering wreck. In a few hours there would be
left on earth of tiny Monina but a fast corrupting mass
from which men must avert their gaze.—The idea was
too hideous; Leon could not resign himself to it. No,
Monina must not die. Without that sweet life he could
not live.
Why?—but he could not tell why; all he knew
was that a fibre, a nerve, an aching cord was tied—nailed,
to his heart, and that Ramona was pulling at it,
to fly away to heaven. Till now the bond had seemed
a mere nothing, a fancy, an amusement; now he felt
that it had struck deep roots which must be torn up
and carry a large part of his heart with them.
All this crossed rapidly through his mind; then he
turned to speak to the doctor. There was no hope;
the child could not live twenty-four hours; the medicine
he had given did not seem to produce the perspiration
and relief which might have opened the door
of hope.
“And is there nothing else to be done?” asked
Leon, as pale as a corpse himself.
“We can try mercurial rubbing.”
Not a minute was wasted; the doctor suggested,
Leon gave orders with fevered haste, and the nurses
and servants executed them with eager promptitude.
Pepa, having recovered her senses, had returned to
her post by the child’s bed, to watch the last flickering
of that precious life, to give her baby, water, kisses,
gentle touches, to listen to her breathing, and gaze into
her dim eyes. Her face betrayed the efforts she was
making in order that her anguish as a mother might not
hinder her usefulness as a nurse; alert, careful, forgetful
of herself and of everything else, her whole soul was
absorbed in covering up the little tossing arms and in
listening to the choking cough, the rattling breath, the
gasping croak, more tragical than any cry—sounding
now like the creak of metal that needs greasing, and
now like a low, shrill whistle, or a musical note in a
dream.
The hours went on—what fearful hours! And yet
the day was too soon gone and it was night! No one
had kept count of the time, not a sound was to be
heard but that of suppressed sobs; all hearts sank under
the pressure of a crushing weight. The whole great
house was full of dismayed grief; and of the odour of
the tapers that were burning before the Virgin and the
Saints. The daughter of the house was dying; she no
longer even put her hands to her throat to “take that
away.” She lay there helpless, worn out, conquered in
the fight; her head was sunk deep in the pillow, and
her little hands, spread motionless, had ceased to twist
the sheet into cords. If only the cruel scourge would
let her die thus. But no; once more its clutch was
relaxed for an instant and Monina again murmured:
“more.”
“She is dreaming of her toys,” whispered Pepa,
pressing her handkerchief to her lips as though to hush
her sobs while her tears ran in streams through her
fingers.
The child still murmured softly, calling Tachana
and Guru, the two children of a neighbour with whom
she was in the habit of playing. Then came another
fit of suffocation so violent that it surely must be the
last. Pepa cried aloud:
“She is dying now ... she is dying.” She flung
herself over the bed, clasping the child in her arms
then, wild with grief, the wretched mother clutched at
her own throat as if she would strangle herself in her
delirium of woe. It was a natural semi-savage gesture, a
primitive instinct of suffering with the sufferer she loved.
They tried to lead her away, but it was impossible
to move her; she clung to the bed.
Leon whispered to the doctor: “why do you not,
as a last resource, try tracheotomy?”
But Moreno Rubio answered in a hollow voice:
“At that age it is tantamount to murder.”
“We must try everything; even murder.”
The two men looked like spectres risen from the
grave to conspire.
“You desire it?”
“Yes—I desire it.”
“We must consult the mother.”
“No—I take the responsibility.”
The physician shrugged his shoulders; then he went
to a table that was hidden by the curtain.
“My darling,” cried Pepa, “why must you die?
Why leave me alone—more lonely than I am? O
Lord God! O Blessed Virgin of Sorrows! Why do
you take my child ... my only child? Monina—Mona....”
She had no suspicion of what Leon and the doctor
were projecting; she did not see that Moreno held in
his hand a blade—a tiny but terrible weapon, more
fatal perhaps than the executioner’s axe.
“Monina, sweet angel, my cherub—open your
eyes, look at me....”
Her grief was growing fierce; the terrible glare of
her wild eyes, her dry, white, quivering lips, the nervous
tension of her hands, all betrayed that intensity of
misery which gives a bereft mother the aspect of a fury.
“Monina! my child, my darling! If you die, I
die; I cannot let you go without me!” And she devoured
her with kisses.
“Pepa,” said Leon, “we are going to make a last
effort ... do not be frightened.”
“She is dead—I tell you she is dead....”
But Monina, as though in reply, turned over suddenly
and with a violent fit of coughing threw out some
more of the suffocating growth; then again she lay
still, though breathing hoarsely.
“She is cold—icy cold!” exclaimed Pepa. “Doctor,
doctor—”
Moreno went at once.
“No, not icy,” said Leon, laying his hand on the
child’s head, “on the contrary—she is moist.”
“Yes, with perspiration,” said the doctor after a
pause.
He felt the baby limbs and his eye, accustomed to
watch the fluctuations of life, were intent on the flickering
of this one which, when it was so nearly extinct,
wavered—though perhaps only for a moment.
“Yes, her skin is moist,” Leon repeated.
“Quite moist!” Pepa echoed with a deep sigh.
Then they were silent; a faint ray of hope had
fallen on them—almost adding a pang—for it was
not possible—no, not possible!
“Keep her well covered,” said the doctor, in the
short imperious tone of a pilot steering a life-boat; and
then, unable to contain himself, he swore a mighty oath.
Six hands covered Monina closely.
Leon and Pepa looked at Moreno. But they dared
ask no questions; it was better to be in suspense,
which is a kind of hope, and the doctor’s face revealed
nothing beyond a reprieve of immediate fear.
“She is still perspiring?”
“Yes.”
“Still?”
“Yes—rather more.”
And they watched the almost imperceptible moisture
on the delicate skin as if the existence of the universe
depended on it.
“But is it not a favourable symptom?” Leon said
at last.
“Favourable, yes. But even....”
“Can we not help nature?“ said Pepa.
“Nature does not require our aid at present.”
“But—is it possible...?”
“I can say nothing, nothing.”
“And it is still going on?”
“Yes, so far....”
“Oh, my darling! She will live....”
Behind the chair on which Pepa was sitting hung a
picture of the Virgin with two tapers burning in front of
it. Pepa started up, flung herself on her knees and
kissed the very ground before it. For a few minutes
she remained sobbing violently with her face buried in
the carpet. Certain that she could not overhear him
Moreno whispered low in Leon’s ear:
“If expectoration continues to any favourable extent
it is possible that she may be saved; but for four
chances in her favour there are ninety-six against her.—So
say nothing to the mother....”
“Four in her favour,” thought Leon, “that is something—and
I feel hopeful ... sure!”
His heart seemed to leap with a mad jubilation.
The life of the whole human race might have been in
the balance. There, under his very eyes, hanging on a
thread—a breath.
Time went on; Pepa had come back to watch and
was walking up and down like a wounded lioness.
She did not want to ask anything; it was enough to
read their faces and note their actions. There was
something new and fresh in the air—the circling of
the universe seemed to have been suddenly reversed.
The two men were visibly anxious, but not downcast.
“What is it?” asked the mother.
“Hope,” said Leon.
“Very little,” muttered Moreno.
Pepa clasped her hands in an ecstasy of thankfulness.
“Nay, do not allow yourself to be too sanguine,”
said the doctor. “The reaction that has set in is not,
so far, sufficient—far from it. It may be a delusive
relief, like the former ones—go and lie down for a
little while.”
“I! lie down; I, rest, when my baby is getting
better?”
“But still....”
“She is perspiring a good deal—a great deal,” exclaimed
the mother, whose excited hopes magnified the
cool moisture into a heavy dew. “God will let her
live, He will give me my treasure.”
She knelt down by the bedside, clasping her hands
close to the child’s little form without daring to touch
her; hardly daring to breathe lest her sighs should disturb
the blessed reaction. Monina was lying comfortably
and her breath came less painfully.
“It is possible? say Doctor....”
“I can say nothing yet....” said the inexorable
physician. “The hope—the chances, are very slight.
We shall see how she goes on.”
“Oh! all will be well; the Blessed Virgin will have
pity on a lonely mother ... Leon what do you think?”
“I, I cannot tell,” replied Leon. “I do not know,
but I feel ... but I dare not, I dare not. Still I feel encouraged
... who can tell ... perhaps....” Pepa could
hardly repress a cry of joy.
“Oh! how can I bear it? She may live! But if
we are deceived, if we are mistaken. Merciful Father!
Blessed Virgin! Why do you let me hope if after all
you rob me of my only treasure—the joy of my life, of
my home, of my soul?” And she wandered vaguely
about like a demented creature, not knowing what to
do.
“Let us pray, let us pray,” she said at length.
“The Virgin has heard me and I will beseech her, entreat
her, till I can see and feel no more. Pray, Leon,
with me—why do you not pray?”
“I too am praying,” replied Leon, bowing his
head.
“You! you? Those who ask in fervent humility
will be heard; but you! How do you pray?”
She seized his arm and dragged him towards the
picture, in her frantic energy her strength was surprising.
“As you will,” said Leon, who was no longer
master of himself; and he never knew how, but he
found himself on his knees, and with eyes raised to
Heaven he exclaimed in piteous accents: “Merciful
God! save her life, she is what I love best.”
A dying child, a despairing mother, a man on his
knees praying after a fashion of his own. It strikes me
that it is folly to write of such commonplace occurrences.
CHAPTER XXVII.
THE MOTHER.
What
a night they passed. Nothing happened, and
yet it was as full of interest as the years of an eventful
life. Pepa was in such a state of nervous excitement
that her brain seemed to be affected; she laughed
while she cried, and her broken sentences, often incoherent
and irrelevant, betrayed that her mind was
tossed between despair and hope. She would sit trembling
like an old woman, and again, flit restlessly about
the room like a child that does not know what it wants.
Monina’s skin was still warm and moist—that
moisture was as a dew from Heaven. The deadly
greyness of her face gave way to a faint pink tinge; it
was a joy to watch the frail flowers of life blossoming
again where, so lately, had been a desert of death.
Her breathing grew easy, and on her silent and
slightly parted lips dawned the sweetest charm of infancy,
a happy smile. It was impossible to look at her
and not to hope; and it was impossible to refuse to
listen to that hope which seemed an inspiration from
Heaven.
The dawn was breaking when Moreno Rubio once
more addressed Pepa:
“I can now pronounce a definite opinion.”
“Yes? My little girl....”
“The child is out of danger,” said the doctor, clasping
the mother’s hand. “This favourable reaction has
saved her. Leon wanted me to try tracheotomy....
But the treasure we thought we had lost is restored to
us.”
Pepa kissed his hands, bathing them in tears.
“It is none of my doing, Señora, but Nature’s,
helped by tartar emetic and the caustic solution ...
nay, Nature’s only; or, to speak truly, God’s. Now it
is time that I should get a little rest.”
And after giving a few instructions he left.
Pepa could not speak; she was dumb with joy;
she knelt down and remained absorbed in prayer for
more than half an hour. Leon sat by the child’s bed,
his head sunk between his hands. Suddenly he heard
a voice close to him; he looked up and saw Pepa.
“What a night you have had,” she said. “Hours
of anxiety—death and then joy! You have no children;
if you had, how happy your children would be!
The interest you have shown in this little one—a
friend’s child only, not related to you....”
“It is an irresistible passion,” he said, “that I cannot
account for; it is a strange folly indeed.”
“A folly! Oh, no! I like you to love my child.
If I were to live for a thousand years, Leon, I should
never forget the hours during which my heart and
brain went through so much suffering; and the last
thing I should forget would be the moment which was
to me the most solemn and critical of all, and the
words I heard and which are stamped on my mind as
if they had been burnt in.”
“I do not know what you are talking about.”
“Nor I, either, I believe,” she answered, leaning
over him. “Joy has turned my brain, I think, I feel a
sort of aberration or bewilderment.... Can it be true
that I have my little one? That this angel is still left
to comfort me in my loneliness?”
She looked at the child and bending over her,
kissed her forehead very softly, so as not to disturb her
sleep. When she looked up again at her friend he
noted a strange light in her eyes.
“You are too much excited,” he said. “You
ought to go to bed and sleep for some time. Poor
little mother! You have gone through a great deal
since the night before last.”
“Yes,” replied Pepa, “a great deal; but not only
now; before that too; I am familiar with misery.”
“Be calm, you are half delirious.”
“And as I was saying,” she went on with an air of
sudden recollection, and a bright smile, “I shall
never forget your words: ‘Spare her life. She is what
I love best in the world.’” Leon looked down.
“But I am glad, so glad, that you are so fond of her,”
said Pepa on the point of crying. “For then I am not
the only creature to love her. You are a good old
friend, a friend of my childhood. I have always
valued you, and now more than ever, when I see what
an interest you take in Monina, a true warm interest.—Leon,
I feel that I must break a silence that is killing
me and tell you a secret that I cannot bear to
keep....”
Her head drooped on Leon’s shoulder; she wept
copiously, and he did not speak. He felt the weight
of her head, the warmth of her breath, and the moisture
of her tears, and he sat silent—stern and self-controlled.
Pepa might have been shedding her tears on
a rock. Suddenly a sense of dignity and modesty
sprang up in Pepa’s soul; she lifted her head, crimson
with blushes and gave a little cry of dismay.
“Pepa,” said Leon, taking her hand in a firm, kind
grasp, “your child is safe. I am going now.”
At this instant they were both startled by hearing a
sweet, silvery voice—an angel’s voice speaking from
Heaven—which said:
“Mamma, Mamma!”
Pepa covered her with kisses. Monina sat up and
began to ask for everything: she wanted meat, and
fish, beef, sugar-plums, bread and butter—all at once,
altogether and a great deal, more, more ... and then
not knowing words enough for her desires, she asked
for ‘things,’ a comprehensive word, representing in a
child’s vocabulary its insatiable desire for possession;
epitomising its instincts of craving and greed.
CHAPTER XXVIII.
THE MARQUIS DE FÚCAR ENJOYS THE SPECIAL FAVOUR OF HEAVEN.
From
this moment Ramona’s illness needed no
special attention, and as soon as its favourable termination
was known in Madrid, the great house was filled
with friends who called to congratulate the mother,
just as they had before called to condole with her and
make enquiries. There are people to whom this is the
whole of life, who spend year after year in congratulating
or condoling, and who would perish for want of
occupation if there were no deaths or christenings, no
carriages and visiting cards.
Leon set out for Madrid when the carriages with
their gaudy coats of arms were beginning to stream into
the park of Suertebella. Even when he had got half
way he turned back to leave a message about some
medicine that he feared might be forgotten, and his
mind was so full of Monina that all day long he was
thinking: “If they let her get up too soon—if they
do not keep her warm enough.... If they put too
much chloral in the cough mixture.... If they let her
eat sweets....”
After settling various matters of business and paying
one or two indispensable visits in the evening, he went
to bed early. He did not see his wife and she took no
steps to see him.
Next morning he set out for Suertebella where a
surprise awaited him; the Marquis de Fúcar had just
arrived there, accompanied by his French friend, the
Baron de Soligny, who, like Fúcar himself, was one of
those banker-princes who go about the world in search
of those tremendous strokes of business which seem
most easy to meet with in bankrupt or impecunious
communities, just as there are certain trees that grow
spontaneously and flourish best on the poorest soil.
They were soon joined by the Marquis Joaquín de
Onésimo whom Fúcar had invited to discuss, without
loss of time, a grand project for a national loan.
Leon found the marquis unusually grave and
thoughtful, with gleams however of good spirits; a
most unaccountable state of affairs, for the most precarious
business never seemed to affect the serenity of
his perfectly artificial exterior. When he spoke of
Monina’s illness and marvellous recovery, Don Pedro,
who was devoted to his little grandchild, was quite
happy; but his eyes fell again and he frowned—he
smiled—then he was solemn; and at length, putting
his arm through Leon’s and taking him aside, he said:
“We must prepare Pepa for some bad news.”
“Bad news?”
“Yes, and I say bad news because.... Well, I
hardly know why. Still, the news of a death, whoever
the victim may be, is in a way bad news.” And the
marquis fumbled in his pockets which were full of
cards, letters and papers, covered with notes in pencil
scribbled in his carriage, in the train, in his office.
“Here is the message. It is a frightful catastrophe—the
wreck of an American steamer between Puerto-Cabello
and Savanilla.... The papers here have not
mentioned it, but my Havana correspondent telegraphs
this.... Do you see? The steam packet City
of Tampico....”
Leon turned pale as he read the message.
“So that Pepa....” he murmured.
“Hush, not a word; she might hear you and she
is quite unprepared. Yes, my daughter is a widow.”
Leon Roch was speechless.
“Between ourselves, and in the strictest confidence,”
Don Pedro went on, putting his mouth close to Leon’s
ear that he might not be overheard, “it is a real mercy
for Pepa, and for me too, in spite of the shock of the
catastrophe. If Federico had returned to Europe he
would have ruined her and me too. A merciful
providence, it would seem, has cut the knot in a sudden
and tragical manner, and released my daughter and
me from the miserable position in which we were
placed by her marriage with that gambling, swindling,
forger. It was a girl’s fancy which cost us all very
dear. Do me the favour to shut that door that we
may talk freely. We must not be overheard.”
Leon did as he was desired.
“You,” he said, “are the proper person to tell
her.”
“There is no help for it; I must confess that I do
not think that Pepa will be heart-broken or even
grieved. It will be a painful shock—not even that
perhaps. Between you and me ...” and he lowered
his voice to a whisper, although the door was shut—“I
believe that Pepa loved her husband as little as it is
possible to love a husband, do you understand? I
cannot help thinking that her feelings towards that
scoundrel of the first water were very nearly akin to
mine, and I never concealed the fact that I hated him—hated
him with all my heart. Pepitinilla will not
shed many tears—By Heaven! Very likely none at
all!”
And the marquis rubbed his hands as he did when
he had concluded a good stroke of business. The very
Exchequer office quaked in the recesses of its empty
vaults when the Marquis de Fúcar rubbed his hands.
“It is a mercy, a real mercy, for her and for me,” he
repeated, as if he were talking to himself, “Providence
has interfered to save us. If that man had come back
to Europe—and he would have come back when he
had spent all his money—Ah! Vampire! You were
not satisfied with fleecing me in Madrid but you must
need get hold of all the moneys in the hands of my
Havana correspondent, you were not content with forging
letters to rob me of the thirty thousand dollars I
had in Ferguson’s house in London, but when we sent
you to Cuba you must try the same trick again. Rascally
gambler! But God can punish, God will not let
a rogue escape!...” and he ground one fist into the
palm of the other hand. Then, as if he had remembered
the duty imposed upon him by human dignity and
christian charity, he added:
“But we must forgive the dead, and I forgive him
with all my heart. His punishment has been terrible.
What awful disasters these fires on American vessels
are! Not a soul was saved on board the City of Tampico
but the cabin boys and one passenger—a mad
Quaker. Federico embarked in her with the intention
of going to Colon, and on to California, the natural
home of adventurers; he had made away with all the
money I had in a house there—how wonderfully
Providence has put a stop to his criminal career! And
then you freethinkers declare that the Almighty is too
great to trouble himself about our miserable little lives!
I tell you he does; I tell you he does! Of course we
must not exaggerate, and I do not pretend to say that
he attends to every trifle when he is asked. But you
see?—my daughter filled the house with tapers when
Monina
was ill and put up prayers to all the saints....
They would have enough to do up there if they attended
to all the mothers whenever a child coughs or
sneezes; but great crimes, great rogues....”
Leon had nothing to say to this interpretation of
the working and ways of Providence.
“Well, well,” the marquis went on. “He disgraced
my name and tormented my little fool of a
daughter. But it is all over; may the earth—the
waters—lie lightly on him.... There is one thing I
never could comprehend, and that will always, always
be a mystery to me....”
“I can guess what,” said Leon quickly. “You
cannot imagine what made Pepa marry Cimarra. She
is kind-hearted, intelligent, and full of feeling; Federico
was always a heartless reprobate; you had only to talk
to him for half an hour to discover what a shallow,
selfish creature he was.”
“Just so. Well, I do not deny that I brought up
Pepa very badly. She is very much altered; her
troubles have done for her what I failed to do. Only
four years ago she was so capricious.... But you can
remember her. Really, but that she has a heart of
gold, my daughter might have been my greatest grief,
I own it.—But then, what a soul she has! What
noble sentiments, and what a depth of tenderness under
the whims and airs that come to the surface.... Mere
bubbles, mere bubbles—I can find no other word—while
her true self is sound and good to the core. I
will tell you one thing that I am as sure of as I am of
the Gospel: if my daughter had but married a good
man, judicious and at the same time attractive, whom
she could have loved without reserve, she would have
been a woman out of a thousand—a model wife and
mother....”
“I am sure of it,” said Leon gloomily.
“And the more I feel it,” Fúcar went on, folding
his arms, “the less can I understand her fancy for
Cimarra; a fancy, I say, for I can think of no other
word. She never even tried to justify herself by the
attraction that a handsome man always has for a
woman, though Cimarra was what you call a good-looking
man....”
“Decidedly.”
“In spite of that I cannot comprehend it, for Pepa
felt no charm, no fascination; in short, her choice
seemed to me a very bad one; however, I could not
oppose her, I had not the strength to oppose her.
That has always been my weak point. When Pepa
was but a baby she used to whip me and I laughed at
it; when she grew to be a woman she wasted a perfect
fortune in trifles, and still I laughed. When Federico
asked for her hand, when I spoke to her about
it and she said she would accept him—well, I did not
feel inclined to laugh; but I consented. What could I
do? At the same time Pepa did not seem to me to be
very much in love; still Federico suited her for a husband.
“In short, on an evil day they were married—I
spent a hundred thousand dollars on the wedding!
What a day! If the whole human race had married
on that day it could not have brought more misfortunes
on my devoted head. My poor child has never had a
happy hour since. She seemed to be consumed by
some mysterious anguish—moral? physical? God
only knows! She was mad after every form of entertainment
and luxury—it is madness. Look at the
girls of the present day; they marry for nothing on
earth but to be free to amuse themselves, to spend
money and whirl giddily through life. Not even
during the honeymoon did I ever see Pepa and her
husband really loving to each other. ‘This is like
having a wooden doll for a husband,’ I said to myself.
Sometimes she was silent, sometimes drunk—I can
find no other word—drunk with banquets, balls, trumpery
novelties, and fine clothes. Every day she must
have something new, and sometimes not all the marvels
of the Arabian Nights would have cheered her melancholy.
Poor foolish child! As for Federico, she
troubled herself no more about him than if he had been
a chair. She treated him as if he were an idiot. Ah!
Leon, my good friend, we live in a strange world. A
vale of mistakes, that is what I call it.”
“I do not deny it; but it is even more a vale of
tears.”
“Just so. Well, as I was saying, I began to be
very anxious about my Pepilla’s health and even her
reason. Happily her child was born, and from that
time I date her regeneration. She ceased to be captious
and extravagant; she devoted herself to the care
of the little girl and gained that balance of mind, that
majestic dignity—I can find no other word—that she
has never lost. It was just at the time when the child
was born that Cimarra showed himself the blackguard
he was. But you know—all Madrid knows the history
of his infamy, his swindling villainy. He shortened my
life by ten years, the scoundrel! How many tears has
my poor girl shed in this very room! How many
times has she begged my pardon for having given me
such a rascally son-in-law! ‘I was mad,’ she would
say, ‘I did not know what I was doing.’ While he
was ruining me, she would kiss me and implore my
forgiveness. ‘We must set one thing against the
other,’ I said.... Well, it is all over! God Almighty
... Providence ... You had better prepare her for the
news.”
“I?”
“Yes, you are clever; now I should not know
what to do but just go in and say: ‘Pepa, your husband
is dead....’ Now you can go in and take up a
newspaper, and say: ‘What a terrible fire at sea!’”
“I? No, not I. Excuse me, I cannot invent a
scene. It is your duty, or that of some member of the
family.”
“My dear fellow, do me the favour. You are such
an old friend.”
At this moment the door opened and Pepa came in
fresh and smiling. Leon Roch felt a thrill at the
sight; she seemed to him more beautiful than he had
ever before thought her, and his heart leaped with joy.
It was a shock of surprise and exquisite pleasure, like
that of a happy memory, or the flash of a new idea in
the mind, filling his soul with brightness. He gazed at
her a moment in silence, seeing her in a haze of glory;
she was transfigured in his sight, and her commonplace
features, by some miracle, had adapted themselves to
the type of the ideal woman.
“You have come at the right moment, Pepinilla.“
“Papa,” she said, “Monina is awake now, come
and see her. How are you, Leon?”
“Stop a moment, child? Leon wants to speak to
you, he wants to read you something—some paper in
which....”
“It is all Don Pedro’s nonsense; I have read
nothing.”
“What a lovely day,” said Pepa, going to the window
through which the sun was shining gloriously,
“look Leon. Do you see a roof there among the
trees? That is the house of which I was speaking.
Do you know Papa that he is looking out for a solitude
where he may retire from the vanities of the world. I
recommended him to look at the little house belonging
to Trompeta, where the priest of Polvoranca lived.”
“It is a pretty place, and not two steps from here.
Do you really want to come to this suburb? Well, my
dear boy, if you want to find a den where you can devote
yourself to gnawing at your books....”
“I hardly know, I am quite undecided,” said Leon,
staring vacantly at the roof which he could just see
among the verdure. “Let us go to see Mona.”
Pepa led the way.
“What is worrying you, my dear fellow?” said
Fúcar to the younger man in a tone of kindly familiarity
and laying his hand on Leon’s shoulder. “I
know of course that your wife—ah, this is the deplorable
result of exaggeration. You have it in a nutshell:
piety is a virtue; but carry it to excess and what is the
consequence? Misery and horrors.”
Then, as they went on, Fúcar leaning on Leon’s arm,
he said in a low voice:
“My poor Ramona was just such another. There
was no bearing it. Still this sort of infidelity—a religious
passion—must be winked at, must be forgiven.
I ask you, what is a man to do in such a case? It is
frightful but irremediable. When a wife is faithful to
her husband there is no reason, no excuse even for a
separation and nevertheless she may be too much for
endurance. I feel for you. I can only repeat what I
said: we live in a vale of mistakes.”
Not long after Leon took his leave. He was so
absorbed in thought that he failed to bow to Don
Joaquín Onésimo who was walking in the park with the
French baron, and discussing the pending loan with the
deep interest that some men feel in a public calamity.
On reaching Madrid he got out of his carriage to walk
home, and he wandered through endless streets and
turnings like a man walking in his sleep, seeing nothing
and hearing nothing but a voice within which said
again and again: “A widow!”
CHAPTER XXIX.
ERUNT DUO IN CARNE UNA.
For
several days Leon did not go to Suertebella
excepting once to leave a complimentary card at the
door. He spent most of his time away from home; he
had given up study and packed all his books into cases.
He frequented clubs and meetings, but his friends found
him taciturn and indifferent alike to gossip, news and
discussion. He talked of a journey without saying
whither, of a long absence; but if he had occasion to
speak on any other subject it was with a bitterness of
sarcasm or invective very unlike his usual serene and
lofty way of viewing the events of life or the persons
with whom he had come in contact.
One night at the beginning of April he went home
soon after eleven. The door was opened by an under-servant.
“Where is Felipe? Why does he not let me in as
usual?” asked the master.
“Felipe is not in the house, Sir.”
“Where is he then?”
“My mistress has dismissed him.”
“What for? Was there anything wrong?”
“She was angry because he would not go to confess,
Sir.”
“You do then?”
“Yes, Señor; once a month. My mistress takes
care of that; if we do not bring home a certificate she
turns us into the street. But Ventura, the coachman,
has a friend who is a sacristan and who can get him as
many as he wants and so he satisfies my mistress who
believes he goes to confess. If it were not for your
Honour, Sir, my wife and me, we should have been off
long ago from this place where so much is expected
and there is never a moment’s peace. When a poor
man has been hard at work all the week and Sunday
afternoon comes round what a terrible thing it is that he
cannot be allowed to go for a walk, but must needs be
packed off to hear a sermon. My wife says she can
stand it no longer! And then look at the scarecrow she
has brought into the house. This morning when she
sent off Felipe she said she should put some one in his
place at once. I thought she would promote my brother
Ramón: but no, she wrote a letter to the priests at San
Prudencio, and before we could turn round, in came a
fellow that looks like a sacristan, fat, red-faced and
clean-shaved, with coat tails down to the ground, a
low-crowned black hat, a sanctimonious, spiteful face
and the manners of neither a man nor a woman. My
mistress told me that I was to take Felipe’s place and
the porter was to take mine and that this new gentleman—Pomares
is his name—was to be the new porter
and a sort of steward and superintendent of the rest
of us.”
“You do not know what you are talking about.
There has never been a steward in my house!”
“Steward. The mistress herself said steward; and the
long-tailed rascal grinned and looked at us with his fishy
squint as much as to say: ‘I’ll send you to the right
about.’ And then he preached us a sermon and looked
as sweet as he knew how, and called us all his brothers
and crossed his hands and declared he loved us all
dearly!”
“Is your mistress in her oratory?” asked Leon.
“I believe she is in her sitting-room.”
Leon went into his wife’s boudoir where he found
her talking with Doña Perfecta, a confidential friend
whom she took with her when she went out at night.
The worthy dueña was startled to see the master of the
house, and having no doubt a subtle intuition that a
scene was impending, she rose and took her leave.
No sooner were they alone than Leon began, without
betraying any annoyance or temper.
“María, is it true that you have dismissed poor
Felipe?”
“Perfectly true.”
“Before turning him out of the house you would
have done well to reflect that I was very fond of the
lad for his attention, his desire to learn, and his thoroughly
good heart which covered a multitude of childish
and provoking faults. I took him from your mother’s
house because whenever he came here, he was in such
ecstasies at the sight of so many books....”
“And in spite of these admirable qualities I was
obliged to discharge him,” said María coldly.
“But why? Did he fail in his duty to you?”
“Yes, shamefully. For a long time I have made
him go to confess. To-day I reproved him for having
omitted last Sunday and the Sunday before, and the
impudent fellow, instead of being penitent, turned upon
me and said in the coolest way: ‘Señora, leave me in
peace; I do not want to have anything to do with your
priests.’”
“Poor Felipe! And in his place,” Leon went on
without betraying his purpose, “you have engaged an
elderly man....”
“Yes, Señor Pomares. I had hoped that you might
come in early this evening that I might speak to you
and have your consent. He is a very superior man, full
of piety and good feeling, who thoroughly understands
his business.”
“I have no doubt of it.”
“And who can do as much work in a day as two or
three of your profligate idlers. He is a perfectly confidential
person and to whom you may entrust your house,
your interests, your most private business without the
smallest hesitation.”
“I should like to see him. Send for him.”
María did so and in about five minutes the weak-eyed,
red-faced dignitary made his appearance, exactly
such as the man-servant had described him. After gazing
at him from head to foot, Leon said very quietly:
“Very good, Señor Pomares. I will give you my
first instructions.”
“What are your wishes, Sir?” said the new steward
in mellifluous tones and arching his eyebrows.
“That you walk out of my house, this instant.”
“Leon!” cried María, seeing with astonishment the
wrath in her husband’s face.
“You have heard me. Take your baggage and be
off without loss of time.”
“The lady—your wife sent for me,” said the old
man with an attempt at firmness, feeling himself strong
in his mistress’s support.
“I am the master of the house, and I order you to
go,” said Leon in a voice that admitted of no reply,
“and I warn you that if you ever set foot within this
house again you will go out not by the door, but by the
window.”
The man made a low bow and vanished.
“Good heavens!” cried María, folding her hands,
“what a shame! To treat such a good, humble, respectable
man in such a way!”
“From this hour,” said Leon looking his wife full
in the face, “understand that everything in this house
is changed. Henceforth I find that I must absolutely
interfere with your proceedings and snatch you, either
with or against your will, from the monstrous course of
life into which you have drifted; I must cure you, as
mad people are cured, by removing you as far as possible
from the influences that have occasioned your madness.
My long suffering has been fatal to us both; but
now my determination, which will border I warn you
on tyranny—and by no fault of mine—is to straighten
somewhat the crooked paths in which you have chosen
to walk.”
“I am resigned to endure,” said María with the
hypocritical unction she had learnt to display. “I will
drink the cup you force to my lips. What is it to be?
What do you require of me? Will you kill me; or is
your cruelty more refined? Will you force me to renounce
the habits of piety that I have formed? Do
you mean to make me abjure my faith?”
“I have no desire that you should abjure your
faith.... No, what I want is something quite different.
Woe is me!”
He turned away as though he really did not know
what he wanted. In point of fact while María was
calm and played the part of the victim to admiration,
Leon was disturbed, and hesitated in his part of executioner.
“I do not wish to have any discussion with you to-night,”
he said. “We have fought too long without
result, but now it strikes me that some definite action
on my part may rescue us from this hideous state of
things. Forgive me if instead of giving you explanations
I threaten you, if instead of arguing I command,
if instead of answering you I say nothing.”
“What do you require? Tell me at once.”
“I am going to leave Madrid.”
“Why? Are you tired of theatres, bull-fights, clubs,
and atheistical meetings? Ah! if you leave this it will
not be to live in a desert but to go to Paris, or London,
or Germany!”
“You forsook and neglected me,” said Leon sadly.
“You avoided me and flung me back upon the frivolities
of society; you, entrenched in your impeccability,
have destroyed all that might have been the joy and
comfort of my life and have made my home the abode
of misery.”
María was speechless.
“Well then,” said Leon with unwonted vehemence.
“I am tired of having no home. I am determined to
have one.”
“And is not this your home? For my part I am
always here,” said María, as coldly as though she spoke
with a mouth full of snow.
“This my home! And what are you? Harsh,
thorny and repellent! Henceforth....”
“You have only to command, and yet you are far
more agitated than I; my resignation gives me self-control,
while with all your haughty tyranny you tremble
and turn pale! In one word Leon, what would you
have?”
“I am going to leave Madrid. That is imperatively
necessary.”
“What is the matter?”
“I do not want ... I cannot stay here; I have no
comfort, no affection in my own house; I have no one
to care for me, since the companion of my life, instead
of surrounding me with gentleness and tenderness and
fondness, has shut herself up in an icy shroud. She, in
the delirium of her exaggerated pietism, and I, in the
gloomy solitude of my scepticism, are not, and can
never be, a sympathetic and happy pair. Some men
might be able to vegetate in this barren, arid atmosphere;
I cannot. My soul cannot be fed with study
only; however, as it can have no other nourishment, it
is forced to be content with that.”
“And why can you not study here?”
“Here!” exclaimed Leon, amazed at the proposal.
“I cannot stay here. I have told you already that I
am going away.”
“I do not understand you?”
“I daresay not; it is quite possible that you do not;
but who will understand me ... who?”
He clasped his hands over his head with a bitter
groan of despair; and María, respecting his anguish,
refrained from making the impertinent remarks she was
accustomed to indulge in on such occasions. At last
she repeated her former suggestion:
“You can study as much as you like here. Let us
live together. You will not interfere with my religious
exercises, nor I with your studies. We shall be two recluses—I
devoted to faith and you to atheism.”
“A beautiful prospect indeed! Nay, what I crave
is not a cell, but a home; I have no contempt for the
joys of life; I ask to enjoy them, in all moderation and
honesty; I do not want a life of fevered exaltation, but
a wholesome and practical life, the only life that leads
to true human virtue, to duties fulfilled, to a free conscience,
to peace and honour. What I want now is
what I looked for when I married you. Do you understand?”
“Yes, I understand. What I do not understand is
why, in order to gain such a home, you must quit
Madrid.”
“You quit it with me.”
“I!”
“Where I go you must go.”
“San Antonio! help me to do my duty!” said
María with sanctimonious resignation. “And where
do you propose to take me?”
“Wherever you please. But when once we are settled
in the place we select for a residence you will
lead a totally different life.”
“How?”
“I shall lay down a plan which you will have to
follow with perfect exactitude. I shall forbid your going
to church on ordinary days; I will not have my house
filled with the crowd of priests and bigots that have
taken this house by storm; I shall weed out your books,
picking out those which are really pious from others that
are mere farrago of horrible nonsense and rhapsody....”
“Go on, pray go on; what more?” said María with
cold sarcasm.
“I have only one thing to add; and that is that
you can take your choice between this and a complete
separation, henceforth for the rest of our lives.”
María turned pale.
“You are cruel! abominable!” she exclaimed.
“Give me time to consider at any rate. All this is to
take place away from Madrid, you say?”
“Yes, quite away. You may choose the place.”
“Come, come, do not drive me crazy with your
preposterous nonsense,” she suddenly said, trying to
make light of it, “nothing shall induce me to leave
Madrid.”
“Then good-bye,” said Leon. “Henceforth you
are mistress of this house. Our separation is an established
fact—not by law, but by my will. To-morrow
my lawyer will call upon you and tell you what allowance
I propose to make you. Now good-bye; in
matters of business there is nothing like decision and
promptitude. It is settled.” And he went towards the
door.
“Wait,” said María following him; but then, as
though she repented of the impulse, she folded her
hands and raised those sea-blue eyes to the ceiling.
“O Lord!—Blessed Virgin!—Luis, my brother!
inspire me rightly; tell me what I ought to do.”
Leon waited; they looked at each other in silence.
Then, yielding to some instinct, he went up to her and
took her hand with tender respect, saying as he did so:
“María, is it possible that I count for nothing in
your memory, in your heart? My name that you bear—my
person as your husband—do these not appeal
to you? Does my presence rouse no feeling in you,
no echo of the past even? Has fanaticism crushed
every faintest thrill of human feeling in your soul—even
pity and charity? Has it extinguished every
glimmer of duty and fitness?”
María covered her eyes with her hands as though
in contemplation of some mental vision. “Answer me
this last question: do you not love me?” María
looked up; her eyes were red but not moist, and she
gave him a cold grudging glance, as we bestow a
penny on a beggar to be rid of him. Then she said in
a dull dry voice:
“Wretched infidel, my God commands me to say:
No.”
Leon turned away without a word and went to his
room. He remained up all night arranging his things
and packing books, clothes and papers. The next
morning he left the house, not without looking back at
it for the last time; it was not merely a home closed
against him; it was hope deceived, an ideal life
blasted and wrecked, like a cathedral that has been destroyed
by an earthquake. There was still a fibre in
his heart that attached him to that cherished ruin, but
he wrenched it out and flung it from him.
CHAPTER XXX.
AN IRRUPTION OF THE BARBARIANS; ALARIC, ATTILA, AND OMAR.
“Now
then, Facunda, make haste, Señor Don
Leon will be in soon from his ride and he will be put
out if his room is not done. Though, Lord knows, he
is never put out! A better man never was born.
‘Good day, Facunda; have you fed your poultry?
And Señor Trompeta, how is he?’—‘Pretty well,
thank you Señor Don Leon!’—And that is all we
have to say to each other. Well, well ... and only
yesterday Trompeta was saying there must be two
hundred books here; more like two thousand! Señor
Don Leon Roch—it is a queer common sort of name—as
common as ours.—Every time he goes to
Madrid, he brings back a whole carriage full of books
and then he makes these pictures. Señor Don Leon, I
wish you would tell me what is the use of them?
They are pretty too. Red and green lines, and spots,
and splashes of every colour. Now if I could only
read I might know all about it, for here, at the edge,
there are letters and words scribbled....
“But come, woman! What are you about Facunda,
gaping and dawdling like a booby? Make
haste and sweep and clear up before the master comes.
Then you can go down to the kitchen and eat the slice
of ham that is frizzling in the pan; and then take a
turn in the sun!”
The speaker was Dame Facunda Trompeta, whose
habit it was to talk to herself whenever she was alone,
addressing herself by name and praising or scolding
herself in turns. Even when she did not actually express
herself in words she did by gesture and grimace.
She was the happy wife of José Trompeta, a worthy
coal merchant of Madrid, who, having made a humble
fortune by his trade, had retired to Carabanchel to
spend the rest of his days in peace. No life could in
fact be more peaceful and quiet than that of these two
childless old folks. They were both easy-tempered
creatures and took affectionate care of each other in
their old age, with a kindly and respectful tenderness
that defied the chill of advancing years. They had
bought the little house of which they occupied the
ground floor, letting the upper part at a fair profit to
some of the swarming families of the city who fled
from the whooping-cough or the measles.
In the beginning of April these rooms had been
taken by a gentleman, who had previously been very
often to the great house of Suertebella and who seemed
to be a man of distinguished education, though he
hardly ever laughed and spoke as rarely as possible.
The room Leon had taken was spacious but bare; it
might have been a prior’s cell, lofty, airy and old-fashioned.
From the windows to the east the trees of
Vista Alegre were visible in the distance, and in the
foreground the park of Suertebella; between this and
the Trompeta’s little court-yard, there was a gate in the
wall, which almost always stood open. To the west
lay the picturesque road through Upper Carabanchel
with the park of La Montija, and the blue undulations
and green levels of a country which, from March till the
beginning of June, is not without a charm of its own.
Out of this large room, which served as drawing-room,
dining-room and study, opened a bed-room and two
other tiny rooms, in one of which his servant slept. A
few articles of furniture brought from Madrid, with
books, geological specimens, prints, maps, an easel with
paints and portfolios, a microscope, some geological
hammers, a simple chemical apparatus for analysis by
evaporation and the blow-pipe, filled the large room.
“There, now your room is ready and you can come
in as soon as you like,” said Facunda dropping into the
student’s arm-chair; “you cannot complain of my
having turned your things topsy-turvy.” For the
worthy woman not only talked to herself, but addressed
remarks to the absent. “And tell me, Señor
Don Leon, if you please, is it true that formerly you
used to go to dine frequently at Suertebella? Though
you now go there very seldom it strikes me that you
admire the Señorita Marquesa more than enough.
She is so rich that her not being handsome does not
matter. You keep away from the great house at
present because she is in mourning. I know, I know
what you fine folks are!...” And Facunda paused,
for she not only addressed her invisible interlocutors
but imagined their answers. It was not a harangue
but a discussion.
“What do you say? I am talking nonsense? Is
it not a fact that you are sweet upon the lady? All
that courting of the child, what does that mean; you
may talk—San Blas! but if you were not a married
man.... However, you fine gentlemen are not so
very particular. Don’t talk to me; I was in service
for twenty years with a countess, and I could tell you
things!... But come, come, Facunda, what are you
doing idling here? Stir about, woman, trot round.
You have not got the puchero on yet.... Hark!
what is that? What a noise, who can it be?”
On the stairs there was a clatter of baby laughter
and the busy patter of little feet. Monina, Tachana and
Guru, after playing in the grounds, had wandered into
the cow-yard and through the gate into the Trompetas’
little plot, and finding themselves there they had set
their hearts on a regular exploration of the house, Monina’s
nurse following in their wake.
We have already made acquaintance with Monina,
but Tachana and Guru are strangers. Tachana, a
young person of three, was the daughter of the bailiff
at Suertebella, Catalina by name, with a sweet little
face and a shy, quiet manner; she was Ramona’s companion
in all her games, and though they quarrelled on
an average three times an hour—not unfrequently
fighting like infant furies—they were the best friends
in the world, and either of them would cry bitterly if
the other were threatened with punishment. It is easy
to understand how, by the process of transformation
that words undergo in baby mouths, Catalina or Catana
had become Tachana, what is less intelligible is how a
boy christened Lorenzo, came to be called Guru;
but so it was, and even stranger travesties of names
have been known. Guru, who was Tachana’s brother,
was nearly six, he was as grave and demure as his
sister, an unusually thoughtful but a fine, handsome
boy, and the pride of his father—with a sweetheart,
and a watch, and a little great coat, and a stick—and
he always spoke of the two younger children as ‘the
girls.’
“Facunda,” said the voice of the nurse from below,
“the locusts are upon you. Mind, they do no mischief.”
They rushed up in a crowd, Monina skipping and
dancing, Tachana walking with much dignity with a
shawl tied round her waist for a train, while Guru gave
himself the airs of the father of a family, warning them
to be careful and well behaved.
“Why here is my little day-star!” cried Facunda,
snatching up Monina and covering her with kisses.
Ramona kicked with all the strength of her little legs,
crying:
“No, no, ugly old woman!”
“Bless her, the darling! You, Catana, don’t get
into mischief or I will be after you.... Lorenzo, let
Monina alone. Naughty boy, what are you doing to
the child? Let her be, poor little thing.”
Monina and Tachana trotted all round the rooms.
They were already tired with playing in the garden, and
their faces were hot and their eyes bright. Monina had
dimples that an angel might have coveted at the corners
of her mouth when she laughed, and Tachana’s dark
curls fell over her forehead so that she had to push them
out of her eyes, which she was constantly blinking as
though the light hurt them. Monina, on the contrary,
kept hers wide open with a keen, restless, investigating
glance, the expression of insatiable curiosity and ambition
which wanted first to examine and then to have
everything that came within her ken.
Facunda told them to be very good and to touch
nothing, and she would have been more precise in her
injunctions but that she heard the voice of the nurse
down-stairs gossiping with Casiana, the wife of one of
the game-keepers. It is within the limits of possibility—happily
an infinitely remote possibility—that the
earth, rebelling against the laws of attraction, might
quit its orbit and perish in flames from dashing against
some other globe; but under no conceivable theory
could it have been possible that Facunda, hearing the
voices of two other women, should resist the attraction
and not run to hear what they were talking about.
Consequently she left the children, creeping silently and
cautiously half way down the stairs. Monina and
Tachana meanwhile had come to a standstill in front
of the table on which lay the geological plates, and
drawings finished or in progress. A smile of triumph,
such as might light up the countenance of the discoverer
of a new world, shone on each little face. What pretty
things! What bright colours! They had no idea of
what the pictures meant, but they admired them none
the less for that; indeed, they were almost like one of
their own works of art, when a kind hand supplied them
with paper and pencils. Guru, who had a paint box,
could certainly have produced works in this style.
These were not mere pictures of babies and houses and
horses; they were a gorgeous blaze of colour and
splendour!
Now it is a well-known fact that when a child sees
a thing it admires, be it what it may, it never takes it
for granted that it is finished. It always wishes to add
some embellishments of its own handiwork. Children
have, no doubt, a loftier ideal of art than their elders,
and from their point of view every work of art will bear
touching up. This was Monina’s opinion, at any
rate, who discovering on the table and close at hand an
ink-stand, dipped her small finger in and drew a broad
black line across the drawing. Enchanted with the
marked effect of the experiment she laughed with glee,
looking round at her companions who laughed too, and
Monina, encouraged by success put her whole little
hand into the ink and daubed the paper from end to
end. The result was sublime. Over the strata, carefully
washed in with various tints, lay heavy black
clouds, charged, it would seem, with thunder and rain.
Tachana was much too dainty to put her fingers into
the ink; on the other hand, she was great at pencil
effects. Happy opportunity! On the table lay a blue
chalk pencil and on a portfolio stand, close by, a fine
geological atlas—a master-piece of German lithography—was
lying open. These delightful gaudy pages
wanted improving; who could doubt it; an industrious
hand might draw a bold line round the margin of each.
What could be better? This was Tachana’s idea and
she was a Raphael in strong lines which she executed
with unhesitating dash.
Guru knew that their efforts might end in a whipping
and he bid the little girls cease their mischief; but
at the same time he felt that it was a grand opportunity
for him—he, who had a paint box, and really knew
how to “do pictures” almost as good as those of Velasquez.
Monina’s was horrid daubing! What was the
meaning of the black blotches and crosses with which
her dirty little fingers had marked the margin of the
print? Appearances might be saved if only he were
to embellish the picture with a house in one corner of
it—a house with two windows like eyes, a chimney at
the top, and a dog in front of the door. No sooner
thought of than done. He selected a red chalk pencil
that there might be no mistaking his work for Monina’s,
he took another plate and began his house. In less
than five minutes he had added a horse with a man
riding on it and smoking a pipe bigger than the house.
Three artists can never work in one studio without
occasional outbreaks of temper. Monina wanted to add
a touch to Guru’s house, and he shoved her off with his
elbow. Monina snatched away the sheet saying: “Mine,
mine!”
Then Tachana echoed the cry: “Mine!”
The plate, which was of folio size, fell off the table,
Tachana and Monina each seized one end and—crash.
The two babies shouted with glee as it tore across and
Monina clapped her inky little paws.
“Oh! you naughty girls, now see what you have
done!” said Guru, turning pale with horror. But
Monina’s only reply was to snatch down another print
and tear a piece out of it. Then she clutched the pencil
from Tachana and across the long lines that she had
so gravely drawn, Monina scribbled a perfect spider’s
net of flourishes, holding the pencil by the middle and
scratching with all her might and main. Guru at last
succeeded in putting a stop to her Vandalic energy, and
threatened to slap her; but the little imp escaped, skipping
about the room and wiping her grimy little fingers
on the silk cushions.
In the course of her peregrinations her eye fell on
the table on which stood the microscope and she stopped
short to stare at it, standing on tiptoe with her
hands on the edge of the table. Then she tried to reach
it exclaiming:
“My! pretty, pretty!” which being interpreted,
meant to convey the idea that she supposed it to be a
new toy and intended for her.
“Look at her! naughty, naughty,” said Guru, “now
she wants the eye-glass.”
And Guru himself, anxious to prove his superior
knowledge, drew the instrument within reach and applied
his right eye to the top of the tube.
“In this glass I can see Paris,” he announced.
Tachana had pulled a chair to the table that she
might see too; but Monina had gotten ahead of her;
she climbed up on the chair, and from thence, on all
fours, on to the table, sending the microscope and the
rest of the apparatus crashing to the floor.
At this moment a man entered the room. The three
little Vandals were turned to stone; Monina on the
table, not in the least abashed but very grave and her
eyes very wide open; Tachana on the chair, her finger
in her mouth and her eyes downcast; Guru looking for
a corner where he might hide himself.
“What have these brats been doing?—San Blas!
What a mess!” cried Facunda, who came in at the
master’s heels.
Leon cast a despairing glance at the torn prints, the
scribbled atlas, the microscope on the floor; that one
glance was enough to reveal the extent of the disaster.
“You little wretches, what have you done?” he exclaimed,
going up to the table. “And you, Facunda,
what were you thinking of to leave them alone here?
What were you about? Listening to gossip no doubt—You
are a worse baby than they are!”
He stamped his feet angrily. Then he heard a piteous
cry from Tachana—a cry from her baby heart.
“Was it you, Monina?” said Leon, looking at the
child with grave displeasure. Monina shook her head
in denial till it seemed as though she would shake it off;
at the same time her conscience no doubt pricked her,
for she looked at her hands like a second Lady Macbeth.
“But it was you ... look at your hands. You little
wretch!”
Monina looked up in his face, imploring mercy;
two large tears rolled down her cheeks, and her face was
puckered up for a whimper when Tachana’s lamentations
suddenly filled the house; she was a perfect Magdalen;
there was nothing for it but to believe in the
sincerity of such noisy repentance.
“There, there,” said Leon, kissing the two little
sinners and taking Monina in his arms, “do not cry
any more. What a pretty pair of hands! What would
Mamma say? Come and wash them—you dirty
little creature!”
“The nurse let them come up alone, that she might
stay down-stairs and gossip and chatter,” said Facunda,
following with the water jug, “I cannot be everywhere
at once; it is all her fault.”
Monina’s hands were washed; then Leon, seating
himself, took a young lady on each knee.
“Look, what a lot of mischief you have done,” he
said, “and Guru, where is Guru?”
Lorenzo had vanished. “He is at the bottom of it
all,” said Facunda. “These poor little dears would
have done no harm if he had not led them into it.”
“Guru, Guru,” cried the two babies in a duet, laying
the burthen of the crime on the shoulders of their
absent accomplice.
“That monkey of a boy! If I catch him here....”
Monina, whose alarm had given place to sauciness,
was pulling Leon’s beard.
“Stop! little lady, you hurt,” he exclaimed.
“Tachana say,” babbled Monina. “Tachana say....”
“Well, what does Tachana say?”
“Tachana say ... you am my papa.”
“No, no,” said Leon, looking at Tachana who was
sucking her fingers. “I am not
your papa.
Take your
hand out of your mouth and tell me why you say I am
your papa.”
Very slowly, and in low tones Tachana made answer:
“My mamma say you am.”
Monina, who was a merry little soul and who when
she had got an idea into her head stuck to it and repeated
it, burst into shouts of laughter, clapping her hands
and kicking with delight as if her feet had a language
of their own, and repeated again twenty or thirty
times:
“You am my papa. You am my papa....”
Facunda turned to leave the room saying to herself:
“Why, it is as clear as day; I did not need the
child to tell me that.”
“Señora Facunda,” said Leon. “The nurse may
leave the children. I will take them home.”
CHAPTER XXXI.
THE CRISIS.
An
hour later Monina and Tachana were playing
on the floor with paper birds and boxes that Leon had
made for them, while he restored order and sorted out
what could be saved from the effects of the invasion.
The noise of an opening door made him look up and
he saw before him his father-in-law, the Marquis de
Tellería. He looked aged, and his face, more lined
and wrinkled than usual, betrayed some nervous tension
or perhaps the neglect of some cosmetic he was accustomed
to use; his eyes, dim with tears or want of sleep,
blinked and twinkled like little lamps that flicker for
want of oil and struggle with a feeble smoky flame.
His dress only remained unchanged and was as precise
and neat as ever; but his voice, formerly bold and decided,
as that of a man who has always something to
say that is worth hearing, was low, timid and deprecatory.
Leon felt greater pity than ever for the old man,
and he offered him a chair.
“I am suffering from fever,” said the marquis, putting
out a hand that Leon might feel his pulse. “For
the last three nights I have not slept at all; and last
night I thought I should have died of exhaustion and
shame.”
Leon asked one or two questions as to the cause of
his distress and sleeplessness.
“I will tell you all about it. From you I can have
no secrets,” said Tellería sighing deeply. “In spite of
all that has happened between you and María—which
I deplore with all my heart—oh! but I still hope to
see you reconciled.... In spite of everything you will
always be a son to me—a dear son.”
So much mellifluous flattery put Leon on his guard.
“Well, dreadful things have been happening. Your
hair will stand on end when you hear it all, my dear
son. But I have a good deal of fever, have I not? My
temperament is so sensitive and nervous, and I cannot
bear these great agitations. God grant you may never
go through in your own house such scenes as have
taken place in ours these last few days! I have come
on purpose to tell you, and you see I do not know how
to begin. I am afraid.... I dare not.”
“I understand it all perfectly,” said Leon, interrupting
this long preamble. “The moment has come when
it is no longer possible to carry on the system of drifting.
Everything in this world must come to an end,
even the dishonest farce of those who live by spending
what they have not got. A day comes when the creditors
are tired of waiting, when the workmen who have
been put off from day to day—upholsterers, tailors,
drapers, purveyors of all kinds—send a cry up to
heaven, and ceasing to ask, proceed to take; ceasing to
grumble, begin to rail.”
“Yes,” said the marquis closing his eyes. “That
day has come. They would not listen to my good
counsel and now the catastrophe has fallen; a hideous
catastrophe, of which it is impossible to foresee the
consequences. In one word, my dear fellow, we are
in danger of having an attachment put upon the
house.... I do not care for the loss of all the fashionable
rubbish that Milagros has collected from half a hundred
shops without paying for it; what I feel is the scandal,
the disgrace! The day before yesterday a dealer who
supplies us with groceries, and who has been to the
house again and again, set up the most terrific hubbub
on the stairs. I heard his torrent of abuse in my study,
and rushed out in a fury, but he retreated into the street
where he continued his harangue. Yesterday the man
we hire the carriage from refused to serve us any more,
and the worst of it is that he wrote me a most insolent
letter.... I will show you....”
“No, no. There is no need,” said Leon, staying the
trembling hand with which the old man was fumbling in
his pockets. “I can imagine what the poor wretch would
say.”
“Yesterday I was summoned before the magistrate;
those rascally shop-keepers—fuel merchants, upholsterers,
and dealers of every degree, had put in above
five and twenty claims against me. It is horrible to
have to talk of such low things; the words seem to burn
my mouth, and my face tingles with shame. Tell me—say
that you pity me.”
“I do indeed,” said Leon moved to sincere commiseration.
“I do not pretend to excuse myself,” the marquis
went on with melodramatic pathos and closing his eyes.
“Every resource is exhausted and every door is closed.
Of our jewels nothing is left—not even the pawnbroker’s
tickets. A money-lender to whom I applied
yesterday, the only one in whom I had the slightest
hope, gave me a very rough reception and showed me
out with speeches that I would rather forget. Oh! it
is dreadful to have to tell you such things, Leon, and I
do not know how I find courage to say them; I go
round and round the treadmill of misery into which I
have been thrust, and still it seems to me that it is all a
lie—that it cannot be I who have to bear such things—I,
Agustín Luciano de Sudre, Marquis de Tellería,
the son of one of the noblest gentlemen of Extremadura
and heir to a name that has been handed down
through centuries with dignity and honour.”
“Yes,” said Leon stiffly, “it might well be a lie!
and the most improbable part of it is that after having
been rescued already, more than once, by generous
hands from this abyss of disgrace and misery, you have
fallen into it again.”
“You are right, but I am weak; and the fault is not
mine alone,” said the marquis as meekly as a schoolboy.
“My wife and my sons have given me a push
that my fall might be the quicker and more certain. If I
were to tell you the worst, the darkest feature of it all—indeed
my dear Leon, my only friend, I must tell you all,
though these are things that a man only tells to the pillow
he sleeps on, and blushes even then. But I have
no secrets from you ... still it is hard, very hard ...
all the blood of the Castilian nobles that flows in my
veins curdles at the thought, and I feel as if an invisible
hand held my lips.”
“But if it is not the aim and object of your visit,
you need say nothing about it.”
“Nay, it has to be said, bitter as it is. You know
that Gustavo has been very intimate for some time with
the Marquesa de San Salomó. Well, Gustavo—but I
do not believe that it was his idea, I believe it was
some cunning suggestion of my wife’s—Milagros—I
hardly know how to speak of it—what words to use
in speaking of the members of my own family. In
short, Pilar de San Salomó gave Gustavo a certain sum
of money, for what purpose I do not know, but a considerable
sum, which my miserable wife, on some
inconceivable pretence, chose to appropriate; they
made their own arrangements; whether there was any
promissory-note or written agreement I did not hear.
But my son, who is a gentleman, finding himself seriously
compromised, had a violent scene with his
mother only last evening about this money, and you
cannot conceive the row there was in the house. Gustavo
and Polito were ready to fight. I had to strain
every nerve to keep peace. At last Gustavo went
off to his own room; I, suspecting something worse,
followed him and found him with a pistol at his head,
about to shoot himself.... Then there was another
scene and a fresh outburst, with the addition, this time,
of his mother’s horror.... Oh, what a night! My
dear fellow, what a dreadful night! To crown all, the
servants, in despair of being paid a farthing, have left the
house after insulting us with a chorus of abuse, calling
us ... But no, there are words which I cannot utter.”
The marquis was quite beside himself; great drops
of sweat stood on his forehead and his breast heaved
like that of a man who has been carrying a terrific
burthen. Leon found no words to break the pause
that ensued. It was Don Agustín who at length collected
his failing strength and, putting on the most
dismal and appealing face that he could command, exclaimed:
“Leon, my son, save me, save me from this depth
of misery! If you do not I shall die ... we shall all
die—save my noble name!”
“How?” asked Leon coldly.
“Do you not see that I am disgraced?”
“Certainly; but I do not see how I am to prevent
it.”
“But could you bear to see your relations begging
their bread?” said his father-in-law, employing a figure
of speech that he thought must prove effective.
“I am quite willing to save my relations from
beggary. But if you expect me to pay the debts
you have incurred by wastefulness, dissipation and
vanity, so that you may be free to begin again and get
into fresh debt, and go on living in the same scandalous
way, I am obliged to say very plainly: No. Not once,
but several times, have I extricated you from a similar
predicament. I have heard endless promises of amendment,
endless schemes of reform; but they have all resulted
in greater extravagance than ever. You, the
marquesa, and Polito have eaten up a good quarter of
my fortune; I can do no more.”
Leon’s resolute energy startled the hapless marquis,
who sat stunned; the bluntness of his son-in-law’s refusal
deprived him for a time of the power of speech;
at last, stammering and hesitating like a man who has
lost count in telling his beads, he managed to speak.
“I am not asking your charity ... that is not in my
nature ... whenever I have appealed to your generosity
... you have had my bond ... and interest.”
“The bond is a mere formality, the interest purely
visionary; I have accepted the hypothesis simply and
solely to give a gift the semblance of a loan. What
security can you give who have neither land, nor
houses, not even a stick that does not belong to
your creditors? What I have done for you has been
anything rather than really generous, Señor; it is a
crime. I have not succoured the needy but sheltered the
vicious!”
“Good God!” cried the marquis quaking with astonishment;
“remember—what you have done for
me—for my sons and my wife was the natural outcome
of your affection for us ... but Leon, for the last time ...
this is the critical moment of my life. The honour of
my house is at stake.”
“Your house has no such thing as honour; it has
had none for a long time past.”
The marquis drew up his effeminate head; his
wrinkled cheeks were purple, and his eyes flashed as
though a sudden light had blazed up in front of him;
it almost seemed as if there might be a grain of dignity
still lurking in the soul of this man, weak as he was, in
mind as in body, a spark of honour urging him on like
a dastardly soldier who, after keeping out of danger in
a battle, tries in the last extremity to escape the taunts
of his comrades by seeking a glorious death. But
Leon’s ascendancy over the poor coward was so great
that he could not find strength to speak and could only
groan, while his head fell again on his breast and he
listened dully to his son-in-law. He was but a dry and
blasted tree, awaiting the fatal axe.
“No honour,” repeated Leon, “unless we give the
word a purely conventional and fictitious sense. True
honour does not consist in repeating a set of formulas
to protect ourselves against weakness and meanness. It
is based on noble deeds, on prudent and respectable
conduct, on domestic honesty and an unbroken word.
Where these do not exist who can talk of honour?
Where everything is falsehood, insolvency, vice and
folly how can there be honour? Since we are here in
strict privacy supposing I remind you of your wife’s
proceedings, of Polito’s, nay of your own?”
The marquis put out a deprecatory hand as if to
implore his son-in-law to do nothing of the kind. But
Leon thought it right to strike home.
“I entreat you,” said Tellería penitently, “not to
go on with your list of grievances. I regret them bitterly;
I do not deny that I have committed follies ...
who has not? It is the way of the world. Now that
I am sinking, Leon, either put out a hand to save me
or leave me to perish; but do not vilify me, do not
make my fate more cruel than it is. Of course I have
no right to appeal so frequently to your generosity.
Still, you must reflect that your circumstances and mine
are widely different. I have children, and you have
not.”
“But ...” Was he going to say: “‘But I may
have some day?’”
The marquis sat for a few minutes looking at the
two little girls playing in the middle of the room.
“Well,” said Leon. “I will make you an allowance
sufficient to enable you to live decently, but this is
all I can do. I have not a gold mine; nor, if I had,
would it ever fill up the gulfs that you open at my feet
from time to time.”
Don Agustín turned pale, and as he sat gazing at
the floor he mumbled with his jaws as though he were
turning over the dry husk of a fruit.
“An allowance!” he muttered. In fact the idea
stuck in his throat, and though common gratitude forbid
his making any overt objection his changed expression
plainly showed that this eleemosynary annuity,
doled out by pity, revolted his pride and embittered his
blood. So complete was his moral obliquity that, while
he felt no degradation to ask a loan on fictitious security,
tantamount in fact to a distinct purpose of never
repaying it, he was wounded to the quick by this offer
of a pension which he called “throwing his bread in his
teeth.” Besides, his selfish pride made him recalcitrant
to any scheme which did not extricate him from his immediate
dilemma. What did he care for living the decent
and respectable life that Leon spoke of? What
does the spendthrift care for the future? His first
anxiety is to avoid scandal at a great crisis, so that,
when it is past, he may go on again with a bold front
and a confident stride along the same road of ruin and
insolvency which was so familiar to him. However,
the marquis had too much respect for propriety and
too much genuine courtesy to allow him to betray his
feelings; on the contrary, he expressed himself grateful
for “the St. Bernard’s mess of pottage”—the pittance
that his son-in-law had offered.
“An allowance,” he said trying to make the best of it,
“you are most liberal; I am grateful for your foresight.
But in point of fact it will not get me out of the scrape.
The ship is wrecked, and your allowance is land in sight
a hundred miles away.”
He could find nothing else to say; but he was paler
than ever, and did not raise his eyes from the ground.
Vexation and disgust had changed his features as if he
were suddenly and miraculously aged. His lips were
pinched between two deep wrinkles, and his moustache,
all unstiffened, stuck out in every direction, as threatening
as a hedgehog’s spines. His cheeks, of a dull and
faded pink, were furrowed and worn, and under his eyes
were deep ridges of puffy white flesh; it almost seemed
as though his neck was leaner and his ears larger and
more transparent, while his temples had taken the yellow
hue of a mortuary taper; he seemed to have fallen
into decrepitude. However, after a few moments of
reflection over his hapless fate, he raised his head, and
forced his lips into a grimace in which a hypocritical
smile hardly concealed the foaming of rage.
“You are, I am sure, most kind and considerate,”
he began. “But if we owe much to you, on your part,
you have ample reason for your good offices. We
cannot be expected to overlook the fact that you have
made our beloved María a miserable woman.”
“That I have made her miserable,” said Leon
quietly.
“Yes, most wretched! though we have kept it quiet
out of consideration for you—too much consideration.
At last our feelings are too much for us and we cannot
sit by in silence when we see that angel’s sufferings. Do
you mean to say that you do not see that the grief of
her separation from you will bring her to the grave?”
There is no creature on earth however insignificant
that does not try to bite or sting when it is trodden under
foot. The marquis, wounded in his pride and
cheated of his wild hopes, had recourse to his sting.
“This is too complicated a question to be discussed
in a hurry. Do you, as her father, demand an explanation
of my action? Because, if so, you have been a
long time thinking of it. María and I parted more than
a month ago.”
“But the fact that I have delayed it need not prevent
my doing so now,” retorted Don Agustín, plucking
up his courage now he thought that he had laid
his hand on one of those weapons which give a coward
the advantage over the most valiant foe. “I am a
father, and a devoted one. There is no name for your
behaviour to María, that angel of goodness! In the
first place you assailed her with your atheism and almost
broke her heart by your materialistic views. Do you
think that the piety of a woman, brought up as she has
been, in the true faith, is not even deserving of respect
when she desires to practice it with all due fervour?
Without beliefs and without faith, do you expect to
govern the world or a family by the laws of an atheistical
Utopia?”
“And what in God’s name do you know about
governing the world, or even a family?” cried Leon,
laughing bitterly at his father-in-law’s solemnity. “When
did you ever know anything about religion? When had
you any beliefs, or faith, or anything of the kind to
boast of?”
“Very true; I am not learned in such matters,” replied
Tellería conscious of his incompetence. “I am
ignorant; but I cherish certain traditions which have
been stamped on my heart from childhood, that I have
never forgotten in spite of my shortcomings; and by
the light of those principles I can declare that you
have behaved atrociously to María, and that by forcing
her to this separation you have trampled on every
sound principle and all that the human conscience holds
most sacred.”
This hackneyed scrap of newspaper bombast exasperated
Leon more perhaps than the speaker’s pretensions
merited. Pale with wrath, he turned upon him at
once:
“Of what good are your moral laws and your interpretation
of the human conscience? A beautiful
thing indeed is your reverence for tradition. Why! I
was such a fool as to endure for four years a life of
mental asphyxia in a world where everything is dogma
and formula! Morality, religion, honour!—Words!
mere words! Wealth even is an empty mockery; the
very laws are mere formula—made brand-new every
day and never obeyed; the whole thing is a miserable
farce—a stage, where the actors are never weary of
cheating each other and the rest of the world in their
lying parts, and making believe to be virtuous, pious, or
noble. This is your model society, worthy to be preserved
intact to all futurity!... No one must lay a
finger on it, or even find fault with it. I, you say have
failed in respect to that herd of hypocrites who succeed
in hiding their depravity from the million, and are
clever enough to pass for creatures with a soul and
conscience—I, who have seen and suffered, and said
nothing, not even in opposition to the aberrations of a
wife, who, though less guilty, is more fanatical than
most—I, you say, have broken the laws of morality!
How and in what respect I ask you?
“Nay, but I will tell you. I have been such a fool
as to yield to the contemptible formulas which in your
world pass for principles; I have looked on in silence
and been content to screen vice and extravagance, supplying
money to a spendthrift father, and wasteful
mother, and libertine sons. I have encouraged dissolute
living, have lent support to every vice—nay even
to crime. These sins I have committed, and I own
them to my shame!”
Provoked at first, and lashing his fury with his own
words, Leon struck the table, threatened his father-in-law
with his fist, till the old man shrank almost to
nothing as he sat through this philippic with his eyes
fixed on a water-jar that stood on the table, wondering
whether it were large enough for him to hide in.
Monina and Tachana, terrified by Leon’s vehemence,
gathered up their paper playthings and, daring
neither to laugh nor to cry, crept silently away into a
corner of the room.
“I only spoke as a father,” said the marquis in so
faint a voice that it might really have come from the
bottom of the vase.
“And I spoke as a man wounded in his tenderest
feelings, a husband exiled from his hearth by a cruel
inquisition, and cast into the loneliness of practical celibacy
by gross fanaticism and heartless bigotry. Those
moral laws of which you talk so much condemn me, I
know, for what they most absurdly call my atheism;
but the true atheist, the hardened materialist, are those
who trick themselves out in borrowed robes to be my
accusers, and who would be just as ready to dress themselves
up as harlequins to dance at a fancy ball. But
though I should scorn to defend myself before them, I
would have them know that I am the victim and not
the executioner, and that I have quite made up my
mind henceforth to defy the censure of hypocrites and
the attacks of detractors. I mean to go my own way;
I know where to find truth and the really immutable
laws. I can scorn dogmas and traditions! It will be
a pleasure to me to show my contempt, not in secret
but publicly, for a tribunal that deserves no veneration,
and a verdict pronounced in accordance with the
clamour of a crowd devoid of all moral sense. Composed
of agitators, hypocrites, rakes, idlers and bigots;
of antiquated fops and decrepit youth, of foolish women
and men who traffic in public moneys and private consciences;
of would-be authorities who are but apes, of
men who would sell everything—even their honour—and
others who would sell themselves, but that no one
will buy them; of worldlings who put on an air of
sanctity—mere bags of rottenness with human faces;
of cowards, sneaks and renegades; of all in short who
would like to constitute the basis of society and who do
not hesitate to insist that all mankind ought to be
moulded after their image and likeness. Well! let them
stay where they are! I will withdraw—I have withdrawn—leaving
my hapless wife behind me, by her desire,
not my own, I can look on from afar at the
edifying spectacle. They understand each other—they
live from day to day, spending what is not their own;
paying for church ceremonies, and encouraging vice;
dividing their inheritance between sacristans and ballet-girls.
Families are either dying out, or perpetuated by
generations of unhealthy descendants; the most serious
facts and laws of life are laughed to scorn; virtue and
true piety are contemned, while they preach in bombastic
rhetoric a scheme of morality of which they are utterly
ignorant and a God whose laws they have not
studied. They, indeed, are atheists, a thousand times
over, who measure the sublime purposes of the Almighty
by the puny standard of their mean and selfish
souls!”
The burning words had parched his lips; he took
the jar from the table and drank some water. His hapless
opponent had shrunk so completely into nothingness
that he had ceased to think of the vase as a conceivable
hiding-place; his eyes now rested on a match-box
as though to say: “How happy should I be if
only I might disappear into that!”
Being a man of the world with a multitude of commonplaces
at his command, even on the most critical
occasions, Tellería was trying to find some words that
might release him from the present dilemma, or at any
rate cover his discomfiture.
“I will not attempt to imitate you,” he began, pulling
himself together and clearing his throat. “I shall
indulge in no violent language. I have appealed to the
laws of morality and to them I still appeal. You have
sinned against my daughter and against society at large
... that is how I feel it, and how I must continue to
speak of it. I go back to the insult you have offered
to María, who is a faithful and blameless wife, and to
the underhand manner of your separation. In short, I
do not believe that it was María’s bigotry that moved
you to it, I strongly suspect ...”
But the marquis did not finish his sentence. Tachana
was heard crying. She and Monina had crept
behind a chair and had been peeping through the bars
in great alarm at the two men who were arguing so
fiercely. Tired at last of this amusement they had begun
to quarrel; Ramona had slapped her companion.
“Whose children are those?” asked the marquis
eagerly, “that red-haired child is Pepa’s, surely?”
“Yes; Monina, come here.”
“Suertebella is here is it not?”
“Quite near.”
“To be sure!” The marquis had an idea—slow
of wit as he was and rarely able to boast of an idea of
his own; for his logic, like his phrases, was borrowed
ready made. He felt a strange light flash through his
murky brain; yes! yes! he had an idea, and nothing
on earth should persuade him to abandon it! He
rose.
“Good-bye,” he said shortly, putting on a face so
solemn as to be quite ludicrous.
“Good-bye,” answered Leon in no way disconcerted.
“We will meet again and renew our discussion of
the laws of morality,” added Don Agustín, “of my
daughter’s position—your desertion—her honour—all
these are very serious matters.” And as he drew
himself up he seemed to grow taller; the match-box,
the water-jar, the chair he sat in, nay, the room itself
seemed too small to hold him.
“Very well, discuss it at once!”
“No. We must be calm, very calm. My daughter
must put herself under the protection of the law. I
shall communicate with my family on the subject. It is
a most serious matter ... my honour....”
“Ah! To be sure; your honour!” said Leon with
a laugh. “Very good; we will try to find it, and
when we have succeeded we can talk about it. Good-bye.”
The marquis departed. Though somewhat crestfallen
at the failure of his application for money, he was
very proud of himself. There was something in his
mind which made him swell as he thought of it; the
stairs, the doorway, were not big enough for him—even
the street, the fields, the whole wide world! It was
the idea which had slipped in hardly visible and expanded
within him, suggesting with miraculous fertility
a thousand accessory possibilities of the most flattering
description, raising him in his own estimation, and lowering
others. How comforting it is to have an idea!
especially when it condones our own sins by showing
us the sins of others, and allows us to say with satisfaction:
“Ah! we are all alike, all alike!”
CHAPTER XXXII.
REASON VERSUS PASSION.
The
following day Leon had visitors; two friends
who gave him some information which, though certainly
interesting, was far from pleasing to him, and he spent
the day in agitations and the night without sleep. Early
in the morning he called Facunda and told her that he
was going away; then an hour later he said to himself:
“No I must stay—I ought to stay.”
In the afternoon he rode out, and on his return sent
a message to Pepa saying that he wished to speak with
her.
Since the day when the news of Cimarra’s death
had reached them, Leon had hardly seen her; a feeling
of delicacy had kept him from repeating his visits to
Suertebella.
Pepa received him in the evening in Monina’s nursery,
where he had seen the little girl suffering and dying.
This evening the saucy baby, lying half-uncovered
on the bed, was rebellious to the law which sends children
to sleep betimes. Kicking and tossing between the
sheets she was chattering to herself, relating scraps of
all the stories she knew, full of fun and impudence; beginning
long speeches that ended in nothing, punishing
her doll after she had fed it, sitting up in bed to bow
like a gentleman, and making a peep-hole with her tiny
fingers to imitate the Baron de Soligny’s eye-glass.
After much ado, between laughter and a pretence of
severity, Pepa succeeded in making her kneel up and
repeat a pater noster with a very bad grace and a great
many yawns. This she followed up with a baby hymn
and, as though this innocent litany had a soporific virtue,
Monina dropped upon the pillow and her eyelids
closed over her unwilling eyes while she was still murmuring
the last words of the verse.
They stood watching her for some time in silence,
and then Leon, bending down to kiss her, said:
“Good-bye, little pet,” in a tremulous voice.
“Why good-bye?” asked Pepa anxiously. “Are
you going away?”
“Yes.”
“You sent word that you wanted to see me?”
“To take leave.”
“Are you not happy here?”
“Immensely happy—but I must not stay.”
“I do not understand; have you made it up with
your wife?”
“No.”
“You are going abroad?”
“Perhaps.”
“Where to?”
“I have not made up my mind.”
“But you will let us know; you will write?”
“Nay; perhaps not even that.”
Pepa looked steadily at the floor.
“It is folly that you and I should talk in riddles and
beat about the bush,” said Leon. “For some months
we have always used vague phrases, as if we had something
to hide. If there is any guilt in our souls it had
better be plainly uttered than hypocritically concealed.
In fact I must speak out.
“After I had so completely lost every dream of domestic
happiness I became a constant visitor at your
house. Perhaps—nay indeed, certainly—I went
there too often. My loneliness, my dulness, my longing
for some of the pleasures of a home life, led me
there in search of that comfort which is as necessary to
the human soul as equilibrium is to the body. I was
perishing of cold; what wonder then that I went where
I found warmth? I began by amusing myself with
Monina, I ended by worshipping her, for I felt not
merely a want but the maddest craving to love and be
loved. It is so easy to win a child’s love. I had a
wild desire to revel in childish things, to lay my heart,
empty and void as it was, at her baby feet for her to
stamp upon it—I do not know how else to express it—but
you will understand. I always fancy you can
read my soul since yours is no secret to me. I feel
as though for a long time we had been acting a
comedy....”
“I never act!” interrupted Pepa.
“No, no, nor I, but listen. I was alone; at home,
in the street, in the turmoil of society everywhere;
always alone except when I was by your side. A
fatality ... nay, I will not give that conventional name
to the consequences of our own errors and want of
foresight.... I will say the situation in which we had
placed ourselves forbid our declaring honestly the feelings
of our hearts. We were both married.”
“Yes,” said Pepa calmly and steadily, as having
often made the same reflection, and said the same
thing to herself, having contemplated the fact many
times and from every possible point of view.
“Now, to be sure, you are free, but I am not. The
situation is not materially altered; but the fact that
you are a widow is maddening me.—I ought not to be
here at this moment—and yet here I am! When I
see you and Monina dressed in black I am filled with
a ferment of sacrilegious passion; I struggle to quell it
and be silent, but you yourself drag me on with irresistible
force and compel me.... Well, there is but
one way of saying it ... to tell you that I love you;
that I have loved you for a long time. I cannot find
courage or words to curse this passion, which in me is
the outcome of my banishment from all happiness, and
in you of ... I don’t know what.”
“It was born with me,” said Pepa under her breath.
“You have told me what my heart knew already....
But to hear you say it ... with your own lips ... here,
to my face.... Here, where only God and I can
hear....”
Her voice failed her and she turned as pale as
death: she could find no utterance for the feelings that
crowded on her soul, but she seized one of Leon’s
hands and kissed it again and again with passionate
tenderness.
“We are in a very difficult position,” he said.
“We must face it together.”
“A difficult position!” repeated Pepa with candid
surprise, as though to her it seemed a very simple
matter.
“Yes, for at this moment we are both the victims
of calumny.”
Pepa shrugged her shoulders as much as to say:
“What do I care for calumny?”
“You will feel with me that I made a great mistake
in coming to live so near you.”
“A mistake! In coming to Carabanchel!” she exclaimed
in an accent that conveyed that if that was a
mistake, then so was the daily rising of the sun.
“Yes, a great mistake. But indeed I, who am regarded
by a good many people as a man of sense, am
always making mistakes in matters of conduct.” Pepa
thought that possible. “My last blunder has given a
pretext to scandal. My poor darling, do you know
that they say in Madrid that within two months of
your husband’s death you have encouraged a lover;
that I am that lover; and that we are living in open
defiance of all decency and morality. Not content
with this they have chosen to invent a piece of retrospective
slander, supporting it by what passes for substantial
evidence.”
“And what is that?”
“Monina is said to be my child.”
For a minute Pepa stood bewildered; but the terrible
charge had made no very deep impression on her
mind. By a rapid and inexplicable process of logic she
said:
“The calumny is so preposterous, so absurd, that
we need not let it distress us.”
“Do you know of any shield against which the
arrows of calumny are shattered?” said Leon. “There
is but one and that is innocence. Our innocence,
Pepa, is not immaculate. The slander that is directed
against us is not without foundation; it is mistaken
only as to the facts. It is false when it asserts that I
am your favoured lover, but it is true when it says that
I love you—it lies when it says that Monina is my
child, but it is true—” Pepa did not let him finish
the sentence.
“But it is true that you love her as if she were!”
she exclaimed with joyous haste.
“Calumny may be wrong as to the facts, but failing
facts she has intentions, desires, hopes to go upon.
Answer me, can you say that we are innocent?”
“No. I, at any rate, am not. The scandal that
has dragged my name in the mud is a just punishment,”
said Pepa sadly. “And if I think of it with
less horror than I ought to feel, it is because there is so
much, so very much to excuse part—most—the
foundation of the report. You are upright, honest,
steadfast—I am not. I have allowed myself to cherish
feelings in my heart in opposition to my duty; I
am a wicked woman, Leon; I do not deserve your
love; I am guilty, and I cannot feel that delicate
horror of calumny you feel.”
“Pepa, Pepa, do not talk so,” said Leon grasping
her hand. “It is not thus that I have seen you,
dreamed of, as, by degrees, you have conquered my
heart and become sovereign of my affections.”
“But if you cannot love me as I am,” she said, her
words almost choked with grief and bitterness, “why
did you not come in time? Oh! if you had come
when I wanted you, you might have found me lofty
and pure! What a high and holy devotion—worthy
of you indeed—you would have found under the
childish follies which were nothing but the mad outbursts
of an oppressed heart and a fevered fancy, if you
had come in time and vouchsafed a loving word to the
wilful girl, mad and foolish as she was, what a treasure
of devotion would have been yours!—it was reserved
for you, and in your hands it would have been refined
and purified. I was a rough ore, apparently of no
value—nay, I might have been a misfortune to the
owner—you thought so? But all I needed was to
fall into hands that were not put out to take me; I was
an instrument that could yield no music excepting in
the hands for which I was born, and without my
natural master all was jangling discord. Do not complain
then if you now find me somewhat wanting in
principles and moral sense. I have suffered much; I
have led a life of constant and fearful struggle with myself,
my life has been passed in utter disharmony with
those I have had to live with; I felt myself scorned and
misunderstood and that has always weighed upon my
soul; it made me unreasonable and perverse and so, by
degrees, I lost that purity of soul which once I cherished
for you—you who would not have it as a gift!
I am not so strict as you are; my conscience is less
sensitive, and I have no courage left for further sacrifices,
for my heart is weary and as full of wounds as a
madman who tries to kill himself. I cannot admit that
the world has the right to require me to torture myself
any more; it has imposed sufferings enough upon me—and
so I dare to ask you too to be less severely strong,
to ignore the moral susceptibilities of society, to make
some concession to feeling, to remain here and see me
every day, to pay me some portion of the debt you owe
me—by loving a little.”
She could not command her voice to the end of her
speech and burst into tears.
“It was my idiotic pride,” said Leon, more ready
to accuse than to defend himself, “that has brought
misery on us both. May the scorn of which you speak
be visited on my own head and all the evil wrought by
my mistake be mine to suffer!”
“Nay, you need no more disasters; you have had
enough to go through! The fault was not all yours.
I had no other merit than that of loving you; I was
wilful, violent and spoilt; I quite understand your
preference for ... her; and she was so handsome; I
was never good-looking.... And now, now after so
many years, you come to me ... and now....” She
could not say it; her brow was contracted with despair,
at length, with a gesture of horror, as if she saw some
terrific vision she said hoarsely: “You have a wife.”
Leon could say nothing in reply to the appalling eloquence
of this fact. He bent his head in silence. “A
wife! handsome, saintly, impeccable!” Pepa went on.
“But even so, have I not triumphed? You have left
her and come to me.” And she looked up radiantly.
“No, no,” said Leon eagerly. “It is she who has
left me. I loved her and did all in my power to prevent
the rupture of the sacred tie that binds us; I have
kept my marriage vows faithfully ... till now, when I
have broken them.”
“And they are better broken!” exclaimed Pepa vehemently.
“Why should you respect the judgment of
fools? Why should the image of your wife come between
you and me?”
“Pepa, my dearest, be calm for pity’s sake; your
wild words alarm me.”
“But I tell you I have no moral sense; I lost it—you
took it with my last hopes. When one is hopeless
is that not the same as being wicked? I have been
wicked ever since that evening when my last hope died
out of me as though it had been my very soul, and
left me rigid and cold—as if really and truly mad.
From that moment I have gone wrong in everything;
I married just as I might have flung myself into the
sea; I married as a substitute for suicide. I did not
know what I was doing, but there was a seed of evil in
me that I actually tried to foster into growth. If only
I had been well educated! but I had no education; I
was a savage, and I loved to display my riches, social
advantages and pinchbeck splendour,—just as the
Caffirs display feathers and beads. And bitter pique
rankled in my heart and made me resolve that I would
give to the least worthy suitor what I had intended for
the most worthy. If I could not have the best I would
take the worst! Do you remember my throwing out my
jewels on the dust-heap? I wanted to do the same with
myself. Of what use was I if no one loved me? How
could I marry a good and worthy man? It would have
been folly ... no, no, I wanted to hate some one—to
hate the man who was nearest to me—whom the world
would call my other half, and the church pronounce my
mate. You see I longed to be wicked! In our rank
of life, you know, when a girl of base instincts craves
for liberty, marriage is a wide and open door. In my
madness I said to myself: ‘I am rich; I will marry a
fool and I shall be free;’ and I never thought of my
poor father. Oh yes, I have been very wicked!
“Well, many a girl has done the same, though not
with such fatal consequences. I married, and every
conceivable misfortune fell upon me and mine ... I was
free—but you were as far off as ever. Your very virtue
enraged me, though it gave me much to think of.
Would you believe that I was quite humiliated by it,
and at times flattered my fancy by dreams of being virtuous
too? God knows what the end might have been!
He saved me by giving me my child. Her birth brought
an interval of peace which till then I had not known;
as Monina grew under my eyes I seemed to become
miraculously gifted with intelligence, prudence, a love
of order, and common-sense. I was a different creature,
I became what I should have been if, instead of the
torments of rejected love, I had lived in peace under
the yoke of your authority.
“Now I am cured of those vagaries which made
me notorious; I am not as good as I ought to be; I do
not fear God as I ought; I cannot feel ready to sacrifice
my feelings to the laws to which I have been a
martyr; I see now that I have been living in a world
of empty dogmas, where fine words are more plentiful
than good deeds, and so I say: ‘I am free, you are
free....’”
“I?”
“Yes, you. For a man is free who breaks his chains.
Did you not say that she had left you?”
“Yes!” A pained and doubting expression came
over Leon’s features.
“No! I see that it is I—always I—who am really
abandoned!” cried Pepa. “Well, so be it!”
“Abandoned, no. But there is a moral impossibility
which neither you nor I can fail to see. As for me, I am
in the most desperate and wretched dilemma that any
man ever had to face.”
Pepa looked straight into his eyes in agonised expectation
of what he might say next.
“I am married; I do not love my wife, nor does
she love me. We are incompatible natures; there is a
gulf between us. We are separated by utter antipathy,
as strong in her as in me. But why did my wife become
alienated from me? She was faithful and virtuous, she
brought no dishonour on my name—if she had I would
have killed her! As it is I cannot kill her—nor divorce
her; even a legal separation is out of the question.
The only crime that has come between us is religion.
Of what do I accuse her? Of being a bigot, a fanatic.
And is that a fault?... Who can decide? Now and
then with shameful sophistry it has occurred to me that
I might accuse her of insanity; horrible thought! And
what right have I to call any excess of pious practices
insane? God alone can read hearts and determine the
boundary line between piety and fanaticism. In my
own soul I can declare that my wife is a fanatic; but I
have no right to accuse her before all the world.”
Leon spoke calmly and judicially as he uttered these
questions and answers. As though he were pleading
and arguing for and against a criminal.
“My wife has sinned against love, which is as much
a law of marriage as fidelity,” he went on. “But she
has done nothing to disgrace me; is there then sufficient
cause for me to pronounce myself free?”
“Yes, if your wife has ceased to love you; she has
annulled the marriage.”
“She has annulled it by her fanatical religion. But
I look into my conscience and say: ‘Am I not as guilty
as she is?’ For if she has a form of fanaticism that impels
her to abhor me, have I not a kindred fanaticism
which makes me abhor her? She holds a scheme of
belief that parts her from me; I too have a scheme of
belief that drives me from her. Am I not perhaps a
bigot too?”
“You, no! It is she, it is she.”
“At the stage which we have reached, which of us
is the more to blame? Fanatical she is, no doubt; but
she has a thoroughly good and upright nature. María
is incapable of a dishonourable action; she is a bigot
and narrow-minded, but she is honest. She does not
love me, but she loves no one else. Am I not perhaps
the guilty one ... I who love another?” He passed his
hand across his aching brow and paused to consider the
desperate case.
“Even if I should decide that I would be free,” he
said at last. “I could marry no one else. I could not
dream of founding another home; neither law nor conscience
would admit of it. I must abide by the consequences
of my errors. I am not, and I never can be,
one of the crowd who acknowledge no law human
or divine; I cannot do as those do who have a
moral code for their public acts but whose private life is
corrupt, whose thoughts are evil. My family, if I had
one would be illegitimate, my children would be bastards
and nameless, we should breathe an atmosphere of disgrace.
Do not suppose that in speaking thus and in
flying from the situation in which we find ourselves, I
am surrendering to the gossip of Madrid; nor even
that, in speaking of the illegitimacy of such ties, I am
bowing to the decisions of the law which is impotent to
decide the right and wrong of this vital question on
moral grounds. I am simply obeying my conscience,
which makes itself heard above all the other voices of
my heart. Appeal to your own conscience....”
Pepa drooped sadly as though she were falling to
the ground, but putting her hand to her head she murmured:
“My conscience is love.”
There was something deeply pathetic in this declaration
from a woman who for long years had been storing
up treasures of affection without knowing on whom to
bestow them and who now saw herself condemned to
lavish them as best she might on the images of a joyless
and fevered fancy.
“But picture to yourself,” said Leon, “all the
odious and disreputable conditions of an illegitimate,
or I would rather say an immoral, family. The children
without a name—the ever-present image of the
absent wife....”
“Do not name her; I tell you not to name her,”
cried Pepa, making an effort not to be too vehement.
“Her mad fanaticism excludes her altogether!”
“But if I am no less fanatical?”
“No, that makes no difference!”
“Well, there is one remedy for the state of mind
from which you and I are doomed to suffer.”
“What is that?”
“Hope.”
“Hope!” murmured Pepa, shaking her head; the
word found a melancholy echo in her brain. “Hope!
that is my fate, there are lives in which hope is a torment
and not a comfort.”
“Look at that little angel,” said Leon, pointing to
Monina who slept in blissful ignorance at the storm
that was rolling over her innocent dreams; “there is
your true conscience. When all this agitation is over
if your bitterness still survives and your sad memories
prompt you to wander from the right path, let your
thoughts dwell upon your child. You will find that act
like a magic charm. A hundred sermons, and all the
logic in the world, could not teach you what you will
learn from one smile of that tiny creature, whose innocence
hardly seems of the earth; and in her eyes you
will read perfect truth.”
“You are right, you are right,” cried Pepa bursting
into tears.
“Her eyes are like a mirror in which if you can read
it rightly you may see something of the future. Think
of your child as grown up, as a woman fifteen years
hence; how could you bear that some malignant
tongue should whisper in her ear shameful tales of her
mother’s disgrace? Think of your feelings if some one
were to say to her: ‘your mother, before she had been
a widow two months, had taken for her lover a married
man, the husband of a faithful wife.’”
“Oh, no!” cried Pepa with a flash of indignation,
“that they shall never say!”
“But they will say so; why not? If they are
ready to say what is not true, why should they not say
what is? You must think of the fateful and inevitable
influence that a parent’s actions have on the children.
There is certain tradition of morality which is a great
protection against disaster and dishonour.”
“I implore you not even to suggest that my child
can ever be anything but innocence itself!” exclaimed
Pepa, drowned in tears.
Then they were both silent; they sat on Ramona’s
bed, arm in arm, with their faces very near together,
wrapped, as it were, in an atmosphere of tenderness
that breathed from them both, gazing in loving contemplation
of the child’s happy slumbers. Deep, very
deep, down in her heart Pepa was thinking: “child of
my body and soul, I can be happy so long as I feel that
you are mine, and fancy that I can bestow you on some
one I can trust.”
Presently they rose from their place side by side and
Pepa seated herself in a dim corner.
“I must be going,” said Leon.
“Already!” said Pepa in dismay and looking up at
him imploringly.
Leon was about to answer when they heard footsteps
and the marquis came into the room; he was in
the habit of coming to bid his daughter good-night
before he retired for the evening. He was surprised to
see Leon, though there was nothing unusual in the
hour for a visit.
“What is the matter? Is Monina ill?”
“No, Papa, she is quite well.”
“Ah. I fancied—” and the marquis kissed his
daughter. “I am glad to see you here,” he said kindly
to Leon.
“I came to say good-bye to Pepa and to you.”
“You are going on a journey? Well, it is the best
thing you can do. And where are you going?”
“I have not made up my mind.”
“And you start....”
“To-morrow.”
“If you go to Paris I will give you a commission.
I will go to your lodgings early in the morning; just
now I am going to bed, I have a headache.”
Leon saw that he must leave at once.
“Good-bye, good-bye,” he said grasping Pepa’s
hands. Their eyes met with a keen glance; she was
disappointed at this abrupt leave-taking. Leon looked
at the sleeping child and then, with calm self-possession,
he went out. He felt a stranger in the suites of
rooms as he passed through them; but the pretty nest
he had just left was so intimately part of his life that he
could hardly forbear from turning back to breathe once
more in that atmosphere of peace and contentment—an
atmosphere full of the delicious sense of home, hallowed
by a woman’s love and a child’s slumbers.
As they parted Don Pedro said:
“I am very uneasy at having heard no details of
Federico’s death.”
Leon made no reply; he went out into the garden.
There, so many remembrances appealed to his affections
that at every step he paused to sigh and dream.
He had reached the avenue that led from the gardens
to the stables when he heard himself called, with a shrill
“hist” that came on his ear as sharp as a dart. He
turned and saw Pepa, wrapped in a shawl with her
head uncovered, coming towards him in breathless
haste. She eagerly grasped his hand.
“I could not bear that we should part like this,”
she said, “it is too hard!”
“It is as it ought to be,” replied Leon greatly disturbed.
“And what does it matter? I shall come in
to-morrow for a moment.”
“For a moment!” cried Pepa in pathetic reproach.
“Think what it is to have given years—long years—as
long as centuries, and to be repaid with moments!”
Leon took both her hands firmly in his.
“My dearest,” he said, “one of us must yield to the
other. I know, and I tell you, that if I allow myself to
be dragged away by you our ruin is complete. Then
let yourself be guided—not dragged away—by me
and save our souls alive.”
“And then—but I know what you will say: Hope!
Every madman has his hobby!” and she smiled, a heart-rending
smile of self-pity that might have drawn tears
from a stone. “Hope! and if I die first?”
“No, no, you will not die ...” Leon murmured,
taking her head between his hands as if she had been a
child and kissing her.
“I am but a helpless thing,” stammered Pepa, who
could hardly command her voice, “you can do what
you will with me; but you are cruel.”
“And you will obey?”
“Nay, you need not ask; I have long obeyed you
in intention. I used to dream that you came to see
me, when you had in fact forgotten my very existence;
that you commanded me to break with every duty, and
I obeyed you with all the force of my will and desires.
This submission was my only joy—a melancholy one!
Do not blame me for the aberrations of a broken heart—I
only tell you that you may see that if I would follow
you to any crime, I shall not refuse to follow you
when you lead me to do right.”
“Where would you have me lead you?” muttered
Leon clasping his brow. “Tell me, if I were
to say ...”
“What?” asked Pepa quickly and catching at his
idea as a bird catches a seed before it can fall to the
ground.
“The idea of flight has passed through your
mind?“
“Oh! every idea in turn has passed through my
mind.”
“So that if I were to say ...”
“If you say ‘come,’ I am ready.“
“Now?”
“This very minute. I would take my baby in my
arms....“
Pepa, vehement in her devotions, looked first at the
house and then in his face; forgetful of every other
consideration, she could think of nothing but the two
beings she loved. Leon was going through a brief but
agonising struggle. He stamped with his foot like the
Warlocks of old when they wanted to call up a familiar
spirit.
“But I must bid you let me go alone, and wait, and
hope,” he said at length, with a firmness that was
almost heroic, and Pepa bowed her head with resignation.
“I say it because I love you—out of a certain
selfishness too, for I cannot bear to destroy a beautiful
dream.”
“I submit,” said Pepa, but the word was hardly
more than a moan, and hiding her face on his breast,
she sobbed aloud. Then she added: “but you will fix
a time. If I were to die before....”
This idea of an early death was fixed in her mind
like a sinister star that nothing could eclipse.
“Yes, I will fix a time. I promise that.”
“And when it comes....”
“When it comes—” echoed Leon who could
hardly breathe; some demon seemed to have flung a
rope round his neck and to be tightening the noose.
“Supposing that God does not open the way....”
“But He will.”
“And if He does not.”
“But He will.”
“But, I say if He does not?”
“You will see He will.”
“Your conviction makes me believe it, but I do not
know why,” said Pepa, turning her head on his shoulder
as though it were a pillow on which she might fall
asleep. “Now, if you want me to go home satisfied,
tell me that you love me very much.” Her eagerness
had taken a childish tone.
“You know it.”
“That you will love me always—always.”
“That in fact I loved you when we played together
and stained our faces with blackberries,” added Leon,
stroking the golden head.
“What days those were!” said Pepa, smiling like a
soul in bliss, “we could talk for hours of those recollections,
taking the words out of each other’s mouth.
Ah! our life then was what life ought to be. Really
life; not these horribly short moments and sudden
changes. If only we might chatter, laugh, remember,
talk nonsense and read each other’s thoughts and
wishes!”
“If we could...!”
“But we must live apart. We have lived apart all
our lives, and yet I feel as if I were saying good-bye
for the first time. You go to an inn and I to a palace.”
“Take care of your child for me.”
“Oh! there is one terrible thought: if it is long
before you come again she will not know you, she will
be afraid of you.”
“She will soon get over that.”
“But are you not coming again to-morrow morning?”
“What for? That we may have another and more
cruel parting? If I were to see you again my courage
might fail me.”
“I will send Monina to see you.”
“Yes, send her,” and Leon coughed.
“Mercy!” exclaimed Pepa anxiously, and turning
up the collar of his coat. “You are catching cold! it
is chilly—take care of yourself ... so—”
“Thank you, my darling; I am cold, I confess.”
“Well, then, we part now?”
“Yes,” said Roch, “now or never.”
The words: “then never!” were on Pepa’s lips, but
she dared not utter them.
“And you will write to me very often, like a good
boy?“
“Yes, every week.”
“Long, long letters?”
“As long and as full as the thoughts of a man that
waits in hope.”
“And where shall I write to you?”
“I will let you know. Let us walk towards the
house; you must not go back alone. We will part
there.”
“Come as far as the door of the museum; I came
out there and can get in again.”
They walked on; Leon with his right arm round
Pepa and holding both her hands in his left.
“It is a dark night,” observed Pepa, with that inexplicable
impulse to speak of trivial things which comes
over us when the mind is fully occupied with a fixed
train of ideas.
“Are you happy?” asked Leon trying to speak
lightly.
“How should I be when you are going away?
And yet I am, glad of all you have said to me. It is a
mixture of pain and gladness. First I say to myself:
‘what joy!’ and then I feel that I shall die of grief.”
“And I feel just the same,” said Leon gloomily.
They were at the door of the museum.
“Good-bye, good-bye,” she said, “remember, you
are mine.”
“Au revoir,” said Leon in a choked voice, and he
kissed her twice. “This one for Monina, and this for
her mother.”
The door opened on a dark staircase; Leon gently
pushed Pepa in and hurried away; she reappeared for
a moment and he waved his hand.
In a few minutes he had reached his lodgings;
crushed with grief he threw himself into his study chair,
not knowing whether to find relief in tears or in dumb
despair. His heart was broken; and yet the deep and
spacious reservoir of sorrow and passion had not yet
poured the whole of its crushing contents on his devoted
head.
END OF VOL. I.
GLORIA.—A novel,
by B. Pérez Galdós, from the Spanish by Clara Bell, in two vols.
Paper, $1.00, Cloth, $1.75.
“B. Pérez Galdós is like a whirlwind, resistless as he sweeps
everything before him, while beneath, the waters of passion foam
and heave and are stirred to their depths. Some chapters of this
novel are absolutely agonizing in their intensity of passion, and
the surge and rush of words bears the reader along breathless and
terrified, till he finds himself almost ready to cry out. In others,
the storm is lulled and the plash of waves is as musical as the
author’s native tongue. In others still, he drones through the
lazy summer day, and the reader goes to sleep. However, the
story as a whole is stormy, and the end tragic; yet we are lost in
wonder at the man who can so charm us.
“It is throughout a terrible impeachment of religious intolerance.
If it had been written for a people possessing the temper
of Englishmen or of Americans we should say that it must mark
an epoch in the political and religious history of the country. Even
written as it is by a Spaniard, and for Spaniards, allowing as we
must for Spanish impulsiveness and grandiloquence, which says a
great deal to express a very little, we cannot but believe that the
work is deeply significant. It is written by a young man and one
who is rapidly rising in power and influence; and when he speaks
it is with a vehement earnestness which thrills one with the conviction
that Spain is awaking. ‘Fresh air,’ cries he, of Spain,
‘open air, free exercise under every wind that blows above or below;
freedom to be dragged and buffeted, helped or hindered, by
all the forces that are abroad. Let her tear off her mendicant’s
hood, her grave-clothes and winding-sheet, and stand forth in the
bracing storms of the century. Spain is like a man who is ill from
sheer apprehension, and cannot stir for blisters, plasters, bandages
and wraps. Away with all this paraphernalia, and the body will
recover its tone and vigor.’ Again: ‘Rebel, rebel, your intelligence
is your strength. Rise, assert yourself; purge your eyes of
the dust which darkens them, and look at truth face to face.’
Strange language this for Spain of the Inquisition, for bigoted,
unprogressive, Catholic Spain. The author goes to the root of
Spanish decadence; he fearlessly exposes her degradation and declares
its cause. All students of Spanish history will find here
much that is interesting besides the story.”—The Yale Literary
Magazine.
William S. Gottsberger, Publisher, New York.
MARIANELA.—By B. Pérez Galdós,
from the Spanish by Clara Bell, in one vol. Paper, 50 cts. Cloth, 90 cts.
“Galdós is not a novelist, in the sense that now attaches to
that much-abused word, but a romancer, pure and simple, as
much so as Hawthorne was, though his intentions are less spiritual,
and his methods more material. Marianela is the story
of a poor, neglected outcast of a girl, an orphan who is tolerated
by a family of miners, as if she were a dog or a cat; who is
fed when the humor takes them and there is any food that can
be spared, and who is looked down upon by everybody; and a
boy Pablo, who is older than she, the son of a well-to-do landed
proprietor, whose misfortune it is (the boy’s, we mean) that
he was born blind. His deprivation of sight is almost supplied
by the eyes of Marianela, who waits upon him, and goes with
him in his daily wanderings about the mining country of Socartes,
until he knows the whole country by heart and can when need
is find his way everywhere alone. As beautiful as she is homely,
he forms an ideal of her looks, based upon her devotion to
him, colored by his sensitive, spiritual nature, and he loves her,
or what he imagines she is, and she returns his love—with fear
and trembling, for ignorant as she is she knows that she is not
what he believes her to be. They love as two children might,
naturally, fervently, entirely. The world contains no woman so
beautiful as she, and he will marry her. The idyl of this young
love is prettily told, with simplicity, freshness, and something
which, if not poetry, is yet poetic. While the course of true love
is running smooth with them (for it does sometimes in spite of
Shakespeare) there appears upon the scene a brother of the chief
engineer of the Socartes mines who is an oculist, and he, after a
careful examination of the blind eyes of Pablo, undertakes to perform
an operation upon them which he thinks may enable the lad
to see. About this time there also comes upon the scene a brother
of Pablo’s father, accompanied by his daughter, who is very beautiful.
The operation is successful, and Pablo is made to see. He
is enchanted with the loveliness of his cousin, and disenchanted of
his ideal of Marianela, who dies heart-broken at the fate which
she knew would be hers if he was permitted to see her as she was.
This is the story of Marianela, which would have grown into a
poetic romance under the creative mind and shaping hand of
Hawthorne, and which, as conceived and managed by Galdós, is
a realistic one of considerable grace and pathos. It possesses the
charm of directness and simplicity of narrative, is written with
great picturesqueness, and is colored throughout with impressions
of Spanish country life.”—The Mail and Express, New York,
Thursday, April 12, 1883.
William S. Gottsberger, Publisher, New York.
TRAFALGAR.—A Tale, by B. Pérez Galdós,
from the Spanish by Clara Bell, in one vol. Paper, 50 cents. Cloth, 90 cents.
“This is the third story by Galdós in this series, and
it is not inferior to those which have preceded it,
although it differs from them in many particulars, as
it does from most European stories with which we are
acquainted, its interest rather depending upon the action
with which it deals than upon the actors therein. To
subordinate men to events is a new practice in art, and if
Galdós had not succeeded we should have said that
success therein was impossible. He has succeeded
doubly, first as a historian, and then as a novelist, for
while the main interest of his story centres in the
great sea-fight which it depicts—the greatest in which
the might of England has figured since her destruction
of the Grand Armada—there is no lack of interest in
the characters of his story, who are sharply individualized,
and painted in strong colors. Don Alonso and his
wife Doña Francisca—a simple-minded but heroic old
sea-captain, and a sharp-minded, shrewish lady, with a
tongue of her own, fairly stand out on the canvas.
Never before have the danger and the doom of battle
been handled with such force as in this spirited and
picturesque tale. It is thoroughly characteristic of the
writer and of his nationality.”—The Mail and Express,
New York.
William S. Gottsberger, Publisher, New York.
THE MARTYR OF GOLGOTHA, by Enrique Pérez Escrich,
from the Spanish by Adèle Josephine Godoy, in two volumes. Price, paper covers, $1.00. Cloth
binding, $1.75.
“There must always be some difference of opinion concerning
the right of the romancer to treat of sacred events and to introduce
sacred personages into his story. Some hold that any attempt
to embody an idea of our Saviour’s character, experiences, sayings
and teachings in the form of fiction must have the effect of lowering
our imaginative ideal, and rendering trivial and commonplace
that which in the real Gospel is spontaneous, inspired and sublime.
But to others an historical novel like the ‘Martyr of Golgotha’
comes like a revelation, opening fresh vistas of thought, filling out
blanks and making clear what had hitherto been vague and unsatisfactory,
quickening insight and sympathy, and actually heightening
the conception of divine traits. The author gives also a wide
survey of the general history of the epoch and shows the various
shaping causes which were influencing the rise and development
of the new religion in Palestine. There is, indeed, an astonishing
vitality and movement throughout the work, and, elaborate though
the plot is, with all varieties and all contrasts of people and conditions,
with constant shiftings of the scene, the story yet moves,
and moves the interest of the reader too, along the rapid current
of events towards the powerful culmination. The writer uses the
Catholic traditions, and in many points interprets the story in a
way which differs altogether from that familiar to Protestants: for
example, making Mary Magdalen the same Mary who was the
sister of Lazarus and Martha, and who sat listening at the Saviour’s
feet. But in general, although there is a free use made of Catholic
legends and traditions, their effort is natural and pleasing. The
romance shows a degree of a southern fervor which is foreign to
English habit, but the flowery, poetic style—although it at first
repels the reader—is so individual, so much a part of the author,
that it is soon accepted as the naive expression of a mind kindled
and carried away by its subject. Spanish literature has of late
given us a variety of novels and romances, all of which are in their
way so good that we must believe that there is a new generation of
writers in Spain who are discarding the worn-out forms and traditions,
and are putting fresh life and energy into works which
will give pleasure to the whole world of readers.”—Philadelphia
American, March 5, 1887.
William S. Gottsberger, Publisher, New York.
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