Laurel felt a dreary kind of pleasure in hearing her husband
ascribe to her the only real happiness of his life. It was some atonement
for all that she had borne, all that she had suffered. Her heart
beat quick and fast beneath her white robe. He went on sadly:
"Never was there a stormier ending to a beautiful, sunny, summer
day, never a sadder waking from a happy dream. And it was all so
swift and sudden. It was like Burns' poem.
"'No pause the dire extremes between,
She made me blest and broke my heart.'"
Ah, yes, Laurel could remember how swift and sudden it had all
been—how like a thunderbolt falling from a clear sky. She sat
there pale and silent, and listened to her own story told by her husband's
lips, and felt a strange, dreary, aching pity for the girl who
had loved and suffered so much quite as if it had been another
woman than herself.
"We came home at last," he said. "My mother was very ill,
and my wife nursed and tended her unweariedly, and with all a
daughter's devotion, until she became convalescent. Then the hour
of my awakening came. It was so swift, so horribly sudden, I
wonder sometimes that it did not kill me."
Ah, she had wondered so often that she, too, had not died beneath
the stroke of that cruel fate. But she made no sign, she only sat
still and looked at the bowed head before her, and listened to his
words.
"The Gordons came down from New York one day quite unexpectedly,
to visit their daughter. I was delighted, Mrs. Lynn, because
I thought it would add to my darling's happiness. I thought
I would surprise her, so I concealed the fact of their arrival, and led
her into their presence full of happiness myself in the prospect of
witnessing her amazement and joy."
Mrs. Lynn held her costly fan before her face a moment. She
did not want him to see the spasms of agony that convulsed her face.
Ah, how bitterly it all rushed over her, the pain, the shame, the
horror of that supreme moment he was now portraying.
"You are smothering a yawn behind your fan," he said. "Does
my story weary you, Mrs. Lynn? It has not developed into a plot
for a novel yet, has it? You see I have been telling it in the plainest
fashion. I have not embellished it like a story-writer. And, besides,
up to the moment of which I have spoken it had not developed any
phases of the tragic. It had only been the simplest, sweetest love
idyl that was ever lived."
"That is perfectly true," she said to herself, with a burning face
and a strangely throbbing heart.
"But in the moment when I led my beautiful wife into the drawing-room
at Eden to meet her parents the dénouement came," said
St. Leon Le Roy. "The tragic element entered my story then. Can
you guess what happened, Mrs. Lynn?"
"Your wife was properly surprised, and glad to see her parents,
I presume," said Mrs. Lynn, with an air of polite interest.
His dark lashes lifted, he gazed at her sadly a moment, then they
fell again.
"No one could guess what did take place," said Mr. Le Roy.
"It was like a romance. You have never written anything stranger
in all your novels, Mrs. Lynn. But you must not expect me to describe
it to you in the language of fiction. Your own imagination
must invest it with all the eloquence it merits. I have been surprised
at many things in my life, Mrs. Lynn, but I was never more surprised,
never more shocked, than I was in the moment when I led
my Beatrix up to her mother. I had expected demonstrations of delighted
affection, I beheld only utter dismay and confusion. Can
you believe it, Mrs. Lynn? My young wife and the Gordons had
never met before in their lives!"
A faint murmur came from her lips, meant to convey surprise.
He accepted it as such, and went on slowly:
"Then it all came out. I had been deceived. I had been made
the victim of a clever conspiracy. Two beautiful, clever girls had
plotted together and the result was this: Beatrix Gordon had never
come to Eden. She had gone away and married her lover, and she
had sent Laurel Vane to us in her place. It was cleverly planned,
as I have said just now, but I have often wondered how Laurel carried
it out, and escaped detection. She was innocent and transparent
as a child. She was frightened always, I know, for when all came
out I could recall many things that pointed to the truth if only I had
not been so blind. But fate helped it on, and made me the husband,
not of Beatrix Gordon, the daughter of the wealthy, well-born publisher,
but of Laurel Vane, the penniless orphan child of an author
who, with the genius of an Edgar Allan Poe, had shared all the
weaknesses of the great poet and died as miserable."
He paused, Laurel wondered if he could hear her heart beating in
the stillness of that place of graves. It sounded so loudly in her
ears, it almost drowned his voice.
It was only by the greatest effort of her pride and will that she
preserved her outward calmness.
"It was a terrible discovery for me to make," he said. "I was
wounded in my love, in my faith, in my pride. Can you imagine
what I did, Mrs. Lynn?"
He had lifted his drooping head, and was looking straight into her
face. She looked back at him steadily, almost scornfully, as she replied:
"You loved her so dearly, and she made you so happy, perhaps I
should not err if I said that you forgave the girl for her sin."
He crushed back something like a groan upon his lips.
"Do you think I should have done so, Mrs. Lynn?" he asked.
"I do not know how to answer you," she said, and her voice
trembled. "From a woman's standpoint, I should answer yes.
But men are unlike women, are they not?—harder, colder, prone to
harsh judgments!"
"Yes, men are harder," he said, and was silent until she broke
the strange stillness with her strange voice.
"Do you love Tennyson, Mr. Le Roy? I do. I think one of the
grandest, most beautiful passages in the book is King Arthur's forgiveness
of Guinevere's terrible sin. Do you remember those words:
"'Lo! I forgive thee, as Eternal God forgives'?"
"Her sin was not like Guinevere's," he said, hastily.
"And therefore the more easily to be forgiven," she said. "Do
you not think that your wife suffered for her sin? And, after all, it
was for love's sake. And women do and dare so much for love's
sake, remember."
"You are speaking as if I did not forgive her," he said. "I had
not told you that yet."
"But I fancied it must be so," she said, "because this is her
grave."
The shot went home. He shivered, and a hollow groan escaped
his lips.
"Would she have died for such a cause?" he asked, and she answered
gravely, and with a touch of sadness.
"Women's hearts have broken for even lighter causes."
To herself she said, mournfully: "I should have died myself if
it had not been for little Laurie's coming. I could not have lived
through these weary years if it had not been for the little child that
loved me!"
"Her heart was broken then," he said, "for I refused to forgive
her, Mrs. Lynn. I was hard and stern and angry. But I never
dreamed what would happen."
"What did she do?" inquired the brilliant novelist, with interest.
"She went away that night, Mrs. Lynn, and all search for her
proved futile and vain. In a few days after a body washed up from
the river—a young, golden-haired woman. They said it was Laurel,
my missing wife. You know the rest. This is her grave."
Laurel looked at the grassy mound with a strange dreary wonder
over the waif whom they had buried there. She wondered what
her name and history had been. "Perhaps as sad as mine," she
sighed to herself.
"This is her grave," he repeated. "Ah, Mrs. Lynn, you have a
glowing, vivid imagination. Can you fancy what I have suffered?
Can you comprehend how the demons of remorse and despair have
pursued me unceasingly?"
"Then you repented when too late?" she said.
"Too late," he echoed, drearily. "Yes, I repented when too
late. Ah, Mrs. Lynn, are there any sadder words than those two in
the English language?"
"Yes, I think so," she replied. "You remember what the poet
Whittier has written?
"'Of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: "It might have been."'"
"'It might have been,'" he repeated. "Ah, yes, I can testify
to all the sadness of those words! Have I not felt it all? Since she
died my life has been one dreary penance, one long regret. Ah,
Mrs. Lynn, if only I had forgiven her—if only I had not driven her
from me by my harshness and cruelty! I was a fool, and blind.
She loved me and made me happy. She sinned through her love,
first, for Beatrix Gordon, then for me. Her story is the saddest, the
most pitiful I ever heard or read. I should have forgiven the child—she
was nothing but a child, and she had not been well taught.
But it was all so sudden, and I was half dazed by the shock. Ah,
well, I have had ample time to repent my haste and madness. The
years have been long and dreary enough without my darling. Every
time I come here to this quiet grave I whisper to the silent dust beneath:
"'Oh, to call back the days that are not!
My eyes were blinded, your words were few,
Do you know the truth now up in heaven,
Laurel, Laurel, tender and true?'"
How the sweet passion and sorrow of the words moved her! He
was sorry for his cruelty, he repented it all. She said to herself that
if she had really been dead in that grave beneath him, she must have
heard those words—they would have thrilled even her dust. Tennyson's
beautiful words came into her mind:
"My dust would hear him and beat
Had it lain for a century dead,
Would start and tremble under his feet
And blossom in purple and red."
He looked up at her sitting there so fair and young, and so like
the dead, and his heart went out to her in passionate adoration. He
cried out, hoarsely, in his deep emotion:
"Mrs. Lynn, what do you think? Have I really sinned beyond
forgiveness? If Laurel could come back from the world of shadows,
do you think she would forgive me for that night?"
"Are you asking me to tell you what I should do in your wife's
place, Mr. Le Roy?" she asked him in a low, strange voice.
"Yes, put yourself in her place," he replied. "Tell me, could
you forgive me and love me again after the coldness with which I
put my wife from me that night?"
"I do not believe I could ever forget or forgive such unkindness,"
she replied.
He looked at her keenly, with a brooding trouble in his eyes.
"Perhaps you do not look at the subject quite as my young wife
would have done," he said, anxiously. "Laurel loved me, Mrs.
Lynn. Do not forget that. Would she not forgive me for love's
sweet sake?"
"No, I do not think she would. Her pride would be stronger
than her love," answered the beautiful woman.
"Laurel was not proud," said St. Leon Le Roy.
"Not when you loved her, not when she was happy," said Mrs.
Lynn. "But can you not fancy the sweetness of even such a nature
as hers turned to gall by wrong and ruth? I repeat it, Mr. Le
Roy, if I were in your Laurel's place, if I could come back after all
those years, I believe I should be as proud and cold as I was gentle
once, I do not believe I could forgive you!"
He sprung up, he held out his arms to her yearningly, his face
transfigured by the yearning passion of his heart.
"Laurel, Laurel, do not speak to me so cruelly, do not judge me
so hardly!" he cried. "Do you think I do not know you, my darling?—that
I have not known you since the moment we met again?
That senseless marble lies when it says my wife is dead! You are
she, you are Laurel Le Roy!"