TERRA INCOGNITA.
"There is one thing more I wish to say to
you, dearest nurse," said Miss Vernon, as she
was dressing to go to Mrs. Storey the morning
after the conversation above recorded; all her
trunks and packages were lying about the
room in desolate disorder, and she was hurrying
to join her cousin at luncheon.
"What is it, agra?"
"Why, that cheque Mr. Winter sent me—Roberts
got me the money for it."
"Misther Roberts is a knowledgeable man."
"But, nurse, this portion of it is for you."
"Oh, blessed Vargin! look at this. Now,
Miss Kate, do you think I'd be afther robbin
ye iv twenty pounds—and I wid a pile iv
notes in the savin's bank, if I could only get
at them."
"That is it, exactly," interrupted Miss Vernon,
hastily, "you must have money, and
though you and I are on those terms, that we
do not keep debtor and creditor accounts, you
know very well, I consider it not only a pleasure,
but a duty, to share with you whatever
I possess, only in this case, I have kept the
lion's share—no more, nurse—you must take
it—I shall think you do not love me if you
refuse."
There was something so urgent in Miss
Vernon's tones, that nurse felt herself compelled
to obey, malgré lui.
"Sure I'll keep them fur ye."
"Do what you will, nurse; but, remember,
though I can, and may have to bear much, I
could not support the idea of your wanting any
thing. One kiss before I go down. How I
wish Georgy would let you come with me to
Bayswater, and stay at home herself."
"She hasn't so much sinse—though I'm
sorry for her, she's in grate throuble entirely
about you going away—faith I begin to make
it out."
Lady Desmond was, as Mrs. O'Toole said, in
great trouble, restless, miserable, capricious;
at one moment pressing Kate to change her
plans, and accompany her to Ireland, at
another, evidently ready to facilitate her departure,
while she hurried her own preparations,
yet showed a disposition to linger within the
charmed precincts where echo sometimes conveyed
a rumour of Lord Effingham's proceedings.
He was still at Cowes, and the Morning Post
of that day gave an account of a dinner given
by him on board his new yacht, "The Meteor,"
to all the celebrities of the R. Y. C.
"That does not look like disappointment,"
thought Lady Desmond, as she read, "time,
and time only can satisfy me of the truth."
She was silent during the repast, of which
Kate strove to partake, and rose at once, on
Miss Vernon suggesting that she had promised
to be with Mrs. Storey at two.
Nurse made her appearance as the cousins
descended to the carriage.
"Once more good-bye, kindest and best,"
said Kate, embracing her, and trying to speak
steadily. "Georgy," she continued, laying her
hand impressively on Lady Desmond's arm,
"I know you love nurse for her own sake.
But, remember, I feel every kindness shown to
her as intended for myself."
"You may trust nurse safely to me," replied
her cousin; and they entered the carriage.
Kate leaned from it as long as nurse remained
in sight, and often, in after days, declared
that the long earnest gaze, with which
she followed the retreating form so dear to her,
impressed itself for ever on her heart, and that
nurse's figure, in her black dress and white
cap, as she stood shading her eyes with her
hand, formed one of those indelible pictures
ever vivid, let unnumbered years roll by,
with which memory is at rare intervals
stamped.
Lady Desmond preserved an almost unbroken
silence until they neared their destination,
and had reached the comparatively quiet
region of the parks, then turning to Kate,
said—
"I suppose Mrs. Storey will not expect me
to go in. I am in no humour for her gossip."
"Of course you need not if you do not like
it; but—"
"Oh, then I see I ought—yes, it will be
more gracious. I would do anything to serve
or please you, my Kate," and she looked at
her mournfully and tenderly.
Miss Vernon's eyes filled with tears; yet
they were not unhappy tears. She was thankful
to bid her cousin adieu in this mood—for
Kate set a great value on last impressions.
The sound of the carriage-wheels brought
a rosy-cheeked, smiling parlor-maid to the
hall-door, while a row of small heads appeared
above the parlor blinds. Then ensued the
lively bustle of lifting down trunks, and carrying
in carpet-bags; and the rosy parlor-maid
ran backwards and forwards, her little airy cap
blown about by the light breeze, quite in a
twitter at being assisted, with much gallantry,
by so distinguished an individual as Lady Desmond's
footman.
"I am sure this is so kind of you, Lady
Desmond; I did not expect the pleasure of
seeing of you. Miss Vernon, my dear, you are
most heartily welcome; the children have been
looking out for you all day—my little Willie
has not forgotten you. You'll take some cake
and wine—do?"
"Thank you, no," said Lady Desmond.
"We have lunched; and I only gave myself
a few moments, in which to say, how do you
do, and good-bye. I start to-morrow for
Ireland, and have much to accomplish before
dinner-time."
"Well, but you will sit down, and let me
thank you for leaving Miss Vernon with us
awhile. My dear," to Kate, "you are not
looking so well—paler and thinner than when
I saw you last—I am sure the air at Hampton
Court is beautiful and healthy. I never enjoyed
anything so much as the day I spent
with your ladyship. I see my Lord Effingham
is in the Isle of Wight. I never met so nice
a man as he is, and as simple as a common
person. I thought," again turning to Kate,
"you would not like to leave England somehow
or other," and she laughed a significant
laugh that raised the blood in quick nervous
blushes to Kate's cheek; she glanced at Lady
Desmond; but her brow was not more overcast
than before, and the entrance of the
children prevented any further remark.
The eldest boy—a fair-haired, bright-eyed
child, just old enough to be shy—stood awhile,
his finger in his mouth, half hiding behind his
nurse-maid's apron, till Kate stretched out her
arms. When, after a moment's hesitation, he
bounded into them, and they were as great
friends as ever.
"Now that I have installed Kate in the
bosom of your family, Mrs. Storey, I must say
good-bye," said Lady Desmond, rising.
Kate put down little Willie, and stood up
with a beating heart.
"You will let me know immediately how
you get over, and make nurse write—give her
my fond love, Georgy."
"I will," said her cousin, who had taken a
very gracious leave of Mrs. Storey. She paused
a moment, and, then folding her arms round
Kate, kissed her with all her old accustomed
warmth, whispering—"Trust me still!" and
rapidly descending the stairs, was out of sight
before Kate could realise that she was really
going.
Miss Vernon turned from the window with
a choking sensation in her throat; the time
was indeed come when she must struggle on
alone.
"So you are very glad to see Miss Vernon
again, Willie?" asked the proud mama,
stroking his curls.
"Yes," lisped Willie, pressing his little
round cheek against Kate's hand, and looking
up in her face with such a bright loving glance,
that she felt irresistibly cheered by it.
"Not more glad than I am to see Willie."
She sat down, and took him into her lap.
"We do not dine till six to-day," said Mrs.
Storey; "you are accustomed to late hours,
and my brother said he would join us—you are
such a favorite with him."
"You must not change your hours for me,"
returned Kate, "I know you generally dine
with the children, and I like dining early."
"You are very good and obliging, I am
sure. You see, Mr. Storey is so late generally—but
to-day he said he would make it a point
to be home early; he is so pleased you are to
be with us."
"I am very glad to hear it," said Kate,
gratified at this cordiality.
"And I expect to hear lots of news," resumed
Mrs. Storey, significantly.
"Indeed, I have none to tell," said Kate.
"Well, well, we shall see. And how do
you think the children looking? Willie has
had a sore throat—we were afraid it might
end in scarletina, &c., &c."
And the good-natured gossip was merged in
the anxious mother, who, encouraged by Kate's
ready attention, poured forth a string of
anecdotes, maternal and domestic, touching
"baby's last tooth," and "Maria's shameful
neglect of her plate and glass."
And Miss Vernon felt a sense of relief in
hearing these natural, simple details, which she
usually voted extremely tiresome; but now,
after the agitations she had passed through,
and the stormy passions she had witnessed,
anything indicative of home, with its calm
atmosphere of repose, and quiet duty, was refreshing
to her.
So instinctively conscious of more than
usual sympathy in her listener, Mrs. Storey
chattered on uninterruptedly until it was almost
time to dress for dinner.
Miss Vernon missed her affectionate motherly
attendant as she arranged her unpretending
toilette for dinner. Not that she was incapable
of waiting on herself; but her dressing-room
had always been the scene of those confidential
conversations in which Mrs. O'Toole's soul
delighted. She pictured to herself her loving
and beloved nurse sitting alone in some room
of the busy, crowded hotel, her arms folded in
her apron, rocking herself to and fro, with no
one near to whom she could speak in the
genuine accents of real sorrow.
"My poor dear nurse, may God comfort
you," murmured Kate; and then, feeling her
fortitude melting away before the picture she
had conjured up, she resolutely turned from it.
"I have no right to damp the spirits of these
friendly people with my melancholy looks."
So she braided her bright hair, and smiled
at her pale cheeks, which had lost the few
roses they began to gather at Hampton Court:
and hearing some one trying to turn the handle
of the door, opened it, and admitted little
Willie, with whom she descended to the drawing-room.
"Well, indeed, my dear, you do not look so
rosy or so bright as I would wish to see you,"
said Mrs. Storey, "not but that you look pretty
always."
"Cela va sans dire," interrupted Kate,
smiling.
"But," resumed Mrs. Storey, "what is the
reason his lordship is gone to the Isle of
Wight?"
"Will you believe me," replied Kate, gravely
and impressively, "when I assure you that I
am equally ignorant of, and unaccountable for,
Lord Effingham's movements."
The gravity of her manner silenced her
loquacious hostess, and immediately after Mr.
Storey entered, accompanied by Langley. The
former greeted Kate with boisterous cordiality,
the latter with sincere though quiet pleasure. It
was an additional trial to her, this meeting
with Langley, whom she had not seen since
her grandfather's death; and the contending
memories which his presence recalled kept her
silent, while he expressed, in his usual shy,
embarrassed manner, his happiness in meeting
her again. He was very taciturn at dinner, but
this passed unnoticed, as the host and hostess
were really a host in themselves, at least in the
talking line.
"I have to thank you for sending me Mr.
Winter's letters so promptly," said Kate, as
they sat near each other at tea. "I am very
anxious for another, but do not know where to
write;—and, Mr. Langley, why did you never
come to see me all the time I was at Hampton
Court?"
Langley coloured.
"I do not know Lady Desmond," he said,
"and you were all too fine and gay for an
obscure artist."
"Gay," repeated Kate, looking at him reproachfully.
"Well, too fine; I should not have felt at
home there."
"I should have been much pleased had you
taken the trouble to pay me a visit, and Hampton
Court would have delighted you; but, of
course, you know it already."
"Yes, I——" began Langley, again reddening,
then interrupting himself abruptly—"If
I really thought you remembered, I was—that
is, I did not think you would notice it."
"Ah! Mr. Langley," said Kate, with a
pensive smile, "you feel guilty, or you would
not hesitate so much."
"Had you there, Bill," cried Mr. Storey,
with an agreeable wink; "the ladies are never
merciful when they catch us tripping." But
Langley deigned no reply.
"I do not think Winter is inclined to come
back," said he to Kate; "he wrote me a few
lines enclosing his last letter to you, in which
he says he should like to remain where he is
until he had drawn the whole country, natural
and architectural, but that Mrs. Winter's absurd
prejudices against grease and fleas would, he
feared, cut short his enjoyment."
"My dear William," cried his sister, raising
her hands and eyes to heaven, "what will Miss
Vernon think of you mentioning such dreadful
low vulgar words. I am sure I am thankful Lady
Desmond's not here—what would she say?"
"I dare say her ladyship is aware that
such an entomological variety exists," returned
Langley, drily.
"Have you been very busy this summer,"
asked Kate, changing the subject in compassion
to her hostess.
"Yes, no—that is, I have been busily idle."
"Sketching, and not finishing," suggested
Miss Vernon. "That was what Mr. Winter
used to call busy idleness."
"You and Miss Vernon must look at my
studio some day," said Langley to his sister;
"I have one or two pretty subjects in progress."
"I shall be delighted," cried Kate. "I am
always happy in a studio, more so than even
in a perfect gallery; besides, a studio always
reminds me of Mr. Winter," she added with
such enthusiasm that her listeners smiled.
"I suppose you used to visit the pictures at
Hampton Court frequently?"
"Yes, yet not as often as I intended—something
always happened to interfere with our
visits—and I am so fond of Vandyke: his men
and women are so noble-looking, one can hardly
associate them with the wretched period in
which they lived; but I suppose his paintings
picture his own mind rather than the individuals
he meant to depict."
"Well, I would rather pay for my own
portrait than another person's," said Mr. Storey;
"and I think Smith has hit off both myself
and Mrs. S. right well."
"Your pictures are certainly very like," said
Miss Vernon politely.
"But the most unmitigated daubs," remarked
Langley.
"I never enjoyed any pictures so much as
those at Hampton Court," remarked Mrs.
Storey. "But then Lord Effingham told me
about them so nicely; he knew them all."
"Lord Effingham—a distinguished cicerone,
Charlotte," remarked her brother. "He was
very well known in the London world some
five or six years ago, though one never heard
much good of him—has he not been abroad for
a long time?"
This question was addressed to Miss Vernon,
in total disregard of Mrs. Storey's energetic
hems and warning frowns when he spoke disparagingly
of the earl.
"He was for some time in Italy—my cousin
knew him there," replied Kate.
"I'm sure he seemed the quietest and most
obliging man I ever met," said Mrs. Storey
eagerly; "and it is just envy because he is
richer and grander than themselves, that makes
people tell ill-natured stories of him."
"I do not fancy Lord Effingham is an
amiable man," said Kate, quietly; "I do not
think I ever saw him do the agreeable so
readily as the day you were with us."
"Hum," said Langley, gravely. "Then
it was you, Charlotte, that kept his lordship on
his P's and Q's.
"Now, Miss Vernon, may we ask you for a
little music?"
"Not this evening, dear Mrs. Storey," said
Kate, deprecatingly, and shaking her head.
"To-morrow as much as you like, but to-night
I feel quite unmusical."
"Well, I dare say you feel low at parting
with Lady Desmond," said Mrs. Storey.
"And nurse," added Kate.
So the evening wore away, and at last Kate
was free to retire to the grateful solitude of her
own room, to gather comfort and support from
"communing with her own heart," and finally
to rest.
The day at Mrs. Storey's was very tranquil
and rather monotonous. The eight o'clock
breakfast was quickly followed by the departure
of Mr. Storey for the city, and the eldest
girl to school. Kate volunteered the task of
inspecting Masters Willie and Bobby at their
studies, thereby affording another hour to
their mamma for the dear delight of the kitchen
and the store-room. Kate saw little of
her hostess before the one o'clock dinner, until
which time she pursued her practising or her
reading, her work or her thoughts uninterruptedly.
Mr. Storey never returned to tea until seven
o'clock, when he was usually ravenous and
inaudible until after the consumption of divers
viands. He often brought home some dapper
city friend, with an evident wish to make his
house agreeable to Miss Vernon, and under
the usual impression entertained by men of his
stamp, that beaux are a necessary of life to
young ladies. This was the only real drawback
in Kate's estimation to her séjour at "Raby
Villas"—the euphonious appellation of Mr.
Storey's abode.
Mrs. Storey too meditated a party—for, with
all her good nature, Kate was a much more
important personage in her estimation, fresh
from the society of earls and countesses—the
crême de la crême—than when she walked
almost daily over to Brompton, with no
attendant save a great dog, and received three
and sixpence a lesson for music.
The letters for which Kate had looked so
anxiously were as usual in cases of anticipation,
disappointing and perplexing; they did not
arrive till the day after that on which they
might have reached; Lady Desmond's ran
thus:—
"Dear Kate,
"Though peculiarly averse to writing, I
feel I must keep my promise to you. We had
a tiresome journey and a rough passage, but
except fatigue, I am well enough; nurse who has
had red eyes ever since she bid you good bye,
desires her love and duty, and says she will not
write this time; she has just been sitting with
me; I was consoling her, at least trying to do
so. This place looks wretched and deserted,
worse than when I was last here. They say
every one is ruined; I wonder I am not; but I
can write no more, my head and heart are both
aching. You shall hear from me when I reach
Castle Desmond,"
"Yours miserably,
"G. D."
At the bottom were some words across which
a few had been hastily drawn once or twice.
Kate easily perceived they were the commencement
of a sentence, "your readiness to," but
some interruption mental or physical had cut
short the fair scribe, and she had changed her
intentions.
To Kate's infinite surprise, for Mrs. O'Toole
was in general a remarkably straightforward
person, a second letter reached her by the midday
mail, directed in a blotted irregular hand
written apparently with a wooden skewer.
"To Miss Vernon at Mr. Storey's,
Bayswater.
"Mee own blessed child," it began, "do'nt
let on a word of this to mortial man; you will be
angry with me for decavin me lady, but I wanted
to write unknown'st, and I'm quite and snug for
the night now, so I thought I'd sthrive to pen
ye a line without a word to any one; the morning
we left London, Saturday, Miss Lewis hears
tell how me Lord Effingham was coming to take
the rooms we wor in next week, and she ups
and tould me lady, and me lady sends for me.
'Nurse,' says she, lookin like a ghost and her
two eyes blazin mad, 'Wor you aware' says
she spakin low, 'that Lord Effingham was
commin,' 'To be sure I was;' says I, 'I heerd it
as well as Miss Lewis,' says I, and then she
turned and bit her lips, and looked like tunther,
'I thought you might have heard it at Hampton
Coort,' ses she. 'Divil a haporth good nor
bad I heard tell of him at the Coort,' says I;
with that she gave a sort of a groan, 'Very
well,' says she, 'of course, what could you
know about him! What's delayin us,' ses she
mighty sharp, 'the carriage immediately Roberts,'
ses she, and there was no mistake she was in
airnest. Now she's been quere since then,
mighty fond of me, an always talkin of you, me
darlint, but some how there's no truth in her eyes,
so jist mind how ye write, an sure me eyes an
me hands is tired, an if ye can read it, do'nt be
angry if I write too free; sure I'd brave even
the cross word from yourself, if I could do ye
good, me own darlin child, there's not an hour
of the day your poor old nurse does'nt be prayin
for you, so God shield ye, and send me the
light of me eyes again safe and sound.
"Your own loving and respectful nurse,
"Nelly O'Toole."
Miss Vernon sat for some time lost in perplexed
thought, she was truly glad to get
nurse's affectionate letter, yet wished she had
not told her that Lord Effingham was in town.
"I must not betray nurse, and yet I should
very much like to write openly to Georgy, her
suspicions are once more all alive," and the indignant
colour rose to Kate's cheek at the idea
of such pertinacious injustice. "I must write
as if regardless of any change in her tone since
we last met, I wish dear nurse had not mentioned
Lord Effingham, I wish I never had heard
his name."
Rousing herself from these fruitless reflections
she called Willie, and knowing of old
what potent consolers fresh air and sunshine
always proved, asked Mrs. Storey's leave to
take him with her to Kensall-green Cemetery
where her grandfather's remains had been interred.
She had not yet visited his grave, and
choose the child's companionship during that
visit of tender duty, as more congenial than any
other. Willie, dancing with joy at the delight
in prospect of a walk with Miss Vernon, was soon
equipped, and the two friends started lovingly
hand in hand.
Their way lay through pleasant fields with a
pretty back-ground of wooded country towards
Harrow, all glowing in the rich light of an
Autumn sun. Kate was quite inattentive to
the pretty talk of her little squire. She was
traversing these fields again with a far different
companion, she was living over again
many autumns all distinctly marked in her
faithful memory; it had always been the gayest
time at Dungar, it had been the brightest period
of her sojourn at A——, dear A, which she
found usurping the place Dungar had formerly
held in her heart. And last autumn though
clouded, was not all gloom; she had then that
beloved grandfather, the nucleus round which,
all her deepest affections, her noblest energies,
her most unfaltering fortitude had ever rallied,
rich in their undying truth. She recalled with
the distinctness of unchanging affection, the incidents,
trifling though they were, which marked
the last days of his life; the gradual progress of
a dejection she could not cheer; the quiet resignation
of earthly hopes; the silent, the gentleness,
the child-like simplicity of the noble spirit
with which she had intimately communed
during her whole life. Oh how vividly it all
came back to her; the placid smile so sad in its
sweetness; the thoughtfulness for others so
marked in his last illness; and it was all over;
never more on earth should she behold him.
Roused at length from her thoughts by the
unwonted silence of poor little Willie who was
discouraged by receiving no answer to his many
questions, she pressed the hand she held kindly
and asked—"does Willie know the way to my
dear grandfather's grave?"
"Oh yes" cried the child eagerly, proud to
be her guide, "Maria used often to take us
there in the summer evenings, and mama sometimes,
we used to see that the flowers were
taken care of, it is such a pleasant walk."
"Do you remember grandpapa" oppressed
with the silent anguish of her own heart.
"I think I do" returned Willie, "He had
such beautiful white hair, and sugar plums
always in his pocket."
Kate smiled, though her tears fell upon the
little hand that lay in hers, as she recognised
this picture.
"Why do you cry, dear Kate?" asked Willie
who was a loving creature, "you are never
naughty."
"I cry," returned Kate, "because I have
not that dear grandpapa to walk with me or to
love me any more." The child seemed baffled
by misfortune so far beyond his comprehension,
but soon renewed the conversation by one
of those innocent questions of the state of the
souls after death, which children propound
almost as soon as they are capable of observing.
"There it is—there it is"—he at length
cried bounding forward to the head of a grave,
separated from the turf around, by a couple of
iron bars supported by small pillars of the same
metal; some heartsease and laurels adorned the
little enclosure; and at the head a block of
marble carved to represent a gothic niche, and
surmounted by the armorial bearings of the
deceased, bore the following inscription:—
SACRED
TO THE MEMORY OF
COLONEL D'ARCY VERNON,
OF DUNGAR,
JUST, GENEROUS, BRAVE, AND TRUE.
THIS STONE IS ERECTED BY A MOURNING RELATIVE,
ONE OF THE MANY WHO OWE HIM AN
UNREQUITABLE DEBT OF GRATITUDE.
This simple, noble epitaph touched and
gratified Miss Vernon's inmost soul. Simply
and fervently she raised her soul to Heaven
in silent prayer; and, at last, soothed and
calmed by the just tribute so gracefully paid to
the departed, she called to Willie, who (soon
wearied of her motionless attitude) had wandered
away.
"I can never feel a shadow of anger against
Georgy again for anything," she thought, as
her eye took in all the advantages of the well-chosen
site—it was in the highest part of the
cemetery; far below, lay the mighty town,
looming indistinct through the cloud and
smoke that shrouded it, like life with its trials,
mean and great all hidden, in their tendencies,
by the mist of human vision—while around
and beyond was the clear blue sky, the balmy
air, and the song of the birds, like the region
of pure joy, and undimmed faith, to which the
wearied spirit had escaped.
"Please 'm, there's a gentleman waiting to
see you in the drawing-room," said the spruce
Maria, one evening about a week after, when
Kate and Mrs. Storey returned from a round of
visits, into which the former had been entrapped.
"Indeed," said Kate, then suddenly recollecting
herself, "I dare say it is Colonel Dashwood."
"Well, my dear, I will go and take off my
bonnet, and, by that time, you will have
finished your secrets."
"I am sure Colonel Dashwood never had a
secret in his life," said Kate, laughing.
She ran hastily up stairs, and found, as she
had anticipated, that gallant officer engaged in
contemplating sundry long ringletted ladies
in a book of beauty, having reduced the geometrical
arrangement of the round table
albums and annuals to great confusion.
"I was just about to give you up in despair,"
cried Colonel Dashwood, advancing to
meet her with great cordiality. "Any commands
for Dublin? I start to-morrow."
"For Dublin!" said Kate. "You astonish
me. How—what is it takes you away so suddenly?"
And she looked earnestly at his
countenance, which wore a bright, hopeful expression,
far different from the last she had
seen there.
"Hampton Court has been insupportable
since your departure," said the Colonel, gaily,
"so I have got three weeks' leave; and, after
some uncertainty how to dispose of myself,
decided on visiting my old haunts in Ireland."
"I am sorry you will just miss Georgina,"
observed Miss Vernon. "She has either left
Dublin for Castle Desmond, or will to-morrow."
"Indeed," cried Colonel Dashwood, evidently
pulled up by this piece of information.
"I was speaking to Effingham, who put me
down here, and he seemed to think she would
remain there some short time."
"It was pure fancy on Lord Effingham's
part," returned Kate, "he is quite ignorant of
her movements."
"So it appears; yet they said at Hampton
Court that this sudden move was merely a preparatory
step to changing Lady Desmond into
the Countess of Effingham."
"How absurd," cried Kate, coloring, "there
never was the least probability of such a finale
to their acquaintance."
"I discovered as much from Effingham's
conversation this morning," said the Colonel,
significantly, "though," he added, laughingly,
"I confess, notwithstanding some experience
on these points, my observation was quite at
fault as to his object in—but," interrupting
himself, "I am growing terribly indiscreet,
Miss Vernon. Effingham was sorry some engagement,
I do not know what, prevented
him from calling upon you to-day—and I
strongly advised him to defer that pleasure."
"I do not wish to see Lord Effingham," said
Kate, gravely.
The Colonel raised his eye-brows, and smiled.
"Tell me, if I miss Lady Desmond in Dublin,
how shall I get on her track? Is there any
shooting or fishing in the neighbourhood—is
Castle Desmond beyond the reach of Bianconi's
cars?—for, if I remember rightly, they are
the most extended ramifications of civilisation
in your splendid country."
The entrance of Mrs. Storey cut short his
enquiries.
"Colonel Dashwood, Mrs. Storey," said Kate,
"you remember Colonel Dashwood perhaps."
"Oh, quite well," replied Mrs. Storey, with
one or two little bobbing curtseys, as she took
the chair handed her by that polite individual.
"I am very sorry Mr. Storey is not at home,
and we might, perhaps, induce the Colonel to
stop dinner with us."
"A thousand thanks, my dear madam; but
I must dine with the Guards to-day, and only
ran down here to ask Miss Vernon's commands
for Ireland."
"Oh, indeed! I did not know you were
Irish."
"Nor am I; but I like good fishing, and
plenty of fun, and both are to be had in Paddy's
land."
"I fear you will not find much of the last
now," said Kate.
"What a pity the Colonel is running away
before the 30th," said Mrs. Storey. "We
have a few friends and a little music, and,
perhaps, you would have joined us," continued
the hospitable little woman who thought how
much Colonel's Dashwood's fine figure and air
distingué would astonish the Bayswater world.
"You had better stay," suggested Kate.
"Ah! unfortunately, it is not in my
power."
"Were you at the Countess of B——'s
grand ball on Friday night, Colonel Dashwood?"
asked Mrs. Storey, anxious to get up
a little fashionable talk, and to show her knowledge
of the great world.
"Lady B——, no! did she give a ball?
I remember her—she is an awful old woman.
I never go to balls in London—they are such
tame correct things—country quarters spoil one
for your regular dazzling scenes."
Kate could not refrain from a smile at the
amazement depicted on Mrs. Storey's countenance
at this sally.
"Talking of balls," resumed Colonel Dashwood,
"reminds me of an indefatigable dancer,
at least, in former years: Fred Egerton; I had
a letter the other day, from him; he does not
seem to have got mine, when he wrote. The
mail is extremely irregular, during all this
skirmishing—he appears to be suffering from
some neglected wound, and is fretting at his
inactivity—he used to be the easiest going
fellow on earth; but Sir John M—— was
telling me the other day, that they hold him
to be one of the smartest officers on our Indian
establishment, at present—he is a capital fellow,
at all events. By-the-bye, he asks where
you and the—." Dashwood stopped short;
"I mean my late friend, Colonel Vernon, are
which shows he had not received any letters or
papers for an immense time."
Kate silently reclined her head, and after
exchanging a few more remarks with Mrs.
Storey, Colonel Dashwood took his leave, promising,
with great earnestness, that should
anything occur to delay his departure, he
would, without fail, make his appearance
among the "expected few friends," on the
30th.
"Good-bye, Miss Vernon," said he, pressing
her hand kindly; "thanks for your carte du
pays; take care of yourself, for I cannot give
a very flourishing account of you to Lady Desmond;
there is more of the beauté fragile in
your appearance, than I like to see. When do
you join your cousin?"
"Oh do not talk of that, Colonel Dashwood,"
interrupted Mrs. Storey. "We cannot
part with Miss Vernon for a long time to
come."
Kate only smiled.
"I wish you all success in your fishing;
only remember the grand characteristic of your
craft is patience."
The Colonel bowed, and was gone.
"What a nice man he is to be sure," cried
Mrs. Storey, as soon as they were tête-à-tête,
"so full of life, but quite different from Lord
Effingham. Those gentleman in the army
have such a gay, off-hand manner."
"Yes, Colonel Dashwood is very much to be
liked—I am very fond of him."
"Lord, my dear, that is a confession."
"Is it," said Kate, laughing.
"What would my lord say to that?" asked
Mrs. Storey.
"Nothing, I should think."
"Two strings to one's bow, are sometimes
as bad as none," remarked Mrs. Storey, oracularly.
"Between two stools, etc., is that your
meaning?" asked Kate, carelessly. "I must
take off my bonnet and shawl and finish the
discussion at tea."
Miss Vernon was glad to have seen Colonel
Dashwood, and heard from him, of Lord
Effingham's presence in London; she could
now, if necessary, mention it to Lady Desmond,
without betraying nurse—but she
trusted it would not be necessary, for his
disinclination to accompany Colonel Dashwood
in his visit, had led her to hope he had accepted
her dismissal as final, and already
begun to forget his engouement. She was glad
too, that Colonel Dashwood was about to follow
her cousin—such a mark of decided preference
from a man, so deservedly esteemed
as the Colonel, might, she thought, soothe her
cousin's mortified spirit; and, perhaps, supply
her with a real and substantial object of affection,
as she woke from the vain dream, that
had proved so bitterly deceitful. "I have heard
dear grandpapa say, hearts were sometimes
caught in the rebound."
And Fred Egerton—she had of late thought
it strange that he had taken no notice whatever
of her sad bereavement—she thought he
would have written, at least, to Winter, for
some particulars of the event; but, resolutely
turning from these thoughts, she fixed her
mind on the probable reasons, why she had
not received a second letter from Lady Desmond;
and finding her imagination less inclined
to traverse the narrow breadth of the
Irish channel, than to devour the wide space
of the Overland route to India—she quitted
the "phantom-peopled" solitude of her chamber,
and joined the children in a game of
"blind-man's buff." Mrs. Storey was grievously
disappointed when, day after day rolled
by, and Miss Vernon, not only never poured
any tender revelation into her sympathising
bosom, but never hinted that there was one to
make. Mrs. Storey was accustomed to give
advice in a number of difficult engagements,
and a young lady, who was not provided with
a lover, or on the look out for one, was a
phenomenon uninteresting to her. Kate was
so unmistakeably true, that she could not accuse
her of the "depth," to which discreet,
and sympathising matrons peculiarly object—so
she had nothing for it, but to conclude Miss
Vernon was too Blue to fall in love. This
compulsory forbearance was, however, amply
rewarded.
The day but one after Colonel Dashwood's
visit, Kate received a letter from Lady Desmond—she
wrote in rather better spirits, still
dated from Dublin—she said she had postponed
her departure another week, and that she
feared very much the state of things about the
Castle, was very deplorable, as the famine was
most severe in that part of the world. The
tone of the letter was more affectionate, yet
there was something of constraint in it, that
jarred upon Kate's feelings painfully; "But,"
she thought, "I will be patient—poor Georgy!
she has suffered so much."
After their early dinner, Miss Vernon sat
down to reply to her cousin's letter, and tell
her of Colonel Dashwood's visit, intending to
mention that Lord Effingham was in town
Mrs. Storey was busy over a large work-basket
filled with small garments, of various sizes;
and both the children, Charlotte, and William,
were playing about the room, often interrupting
the progress of Kate's pen, while occasional
communications from the scene of action
up stairs, where the drawing-room was undergoing
its weekly purification, disturbed the
labours of Mrs. Storey's needle. They were
all assembled in a small, plainly furnished
parlour, used as a common sitting-room.
"Go and look out of the window, like good
children, and let Miss Vernon write in peace,"
said mama, at last, and Kate continued to
write for some moments uninterrupted.
"What a beautiful horse," cried Willie,
after looking over the blinds for a while in
silence.
"How he holds up his head," said his sister;
"and the boy in the pretty little boots is look-at
all the houses."
"They are coming here," shouted Willie,
clapping his hands.
Mrs. Storey rose to look, and reached the
window, just as the diminutive tiger knocked
at the door.
"Law, my dear Miss Vernon, this is some
friend of yours; what a stylish cab," exclaimed
Mrs. Storey, now quite as much absorbed in
contemplating the new arrival, as her children.
"The boy has taken the reins, and—my gracious,
if it is'nt Lord Effingham himself, and
all the furniture out of the drawing-room; and
my work basket! was there ever anything half
so unlucky," and she rushed in helpless perplexity
to hide, at least, the unsightly work-basket
from view, when the door was thrown
open, and the spruce maid, looking unusually
dusty, hastily announced—
"A gentleman for Miss Vernon."
Kate, whose sense of the ridiculous, was too
genuine to be extinguished, even by sincere
vexation at so unwelcome a visit, rose to receive
him with an irrepressible smile, at the
contrast between Mrs. Storey's despairing fuss,
and his calm, unconscious, high-bred entré.
Lord Effingham evidently mistook the source
of that smile, for he responded to it with a
sudden clearing of his clouded brow, and
brightening of the eye.
"I began to fear I should never see you
again, Miss Vernon," was his opening address.
"I drove Dashwood down here a
couple of days ago; but, in compassion to his
evident wish to get rid of me, with praiseworthy
self-denial, I left him to his own devices;
and to-day I find he went to the wrong
house; and I have been some time looking for
the right one—all's well that end's well, however;"
and he bowed, a bow of recognition to
Mrs. Storey.
Kate felt singularly puzzled how to treat
him; it was impossible not to accept his easy
polished manner, and matter-of-course address,
in the same unembarrassed style; yet it provoked
her to find him thus establishing himself
on precisely his former footing, while she
felt herself powerless to prevent it. She strove
by monosyllabic answers, and the utmost coldness,
to convey her distaste for his visits; but
if repulsed by Miss Vernon, he was eminently
successful in charming her hostess. He alluded
once or twice to their pictorial expedition
at Hampton Court, and asked if the
famous painter, Langley, was not a relative of
hers. Mrs. Storey eagerly explained the degree
of consanguinity; and Kate heard, with
no small astonishment, a visit to his studio,
speedily arranged.
"What an amount of annoyance Lord
Effingham must be enduring," she thought;
for poor Mrs. Storey exactly represented a class
of persons, held in devout horror by the fastidious
Earl; it only required a few caresses to
the children to complete Miss Vernon's amazement;
but he did not get quite so far.
"You have not told me anything of Lady
Desmond," said Lord Effingham, turning to
her with consummate assurance. "She is in
Dublin, is she not?"
Kate bowed.
"And Miss Vernon had a letter from her
to-day," added Mrs. Storey, rather scandalised
by Kate's coldness. "I believe she is quite
well."
"So nurse says," replied Miss Vernon.
"That is one of the most remarkable women
I have ever met," observed Lord Effingham, in
precisely the same tone of dignified approbation
he would have used towards a crowned
head.
Mrs. Storey laughed, and said, "she was
quite a character."
The conversation lagged after this; and the
impatient Earl began to weary of the unwonted
exercise of so much self-control; he
was, however, determined to make Miss Vernon
speak.
"You cannot imagine my astonishment, on
my return from Cowes, to find you had flown,"
he said; "Lady Desmond's movements are as
sudden and as well masked as Napoleon's."
"It can hardly be called a masked movement,
considering it had been discussed a fortnight
before en cour pleniere," returned Miss
Vernon; "some intelligence, unexpectedly,
received, induced my cousin to make the
journey more suddenly than she had anticipated."
"I expected as much," said Lord Effingham,
with quiet significance, the insolence of which,
perceptible to her only, called the indignant
blood into Kate's cheek. "But," he continued,
looking steadily at her, "some fairy, or angel
whispered to me that you would not accompany
her, although I am not in the habit of
receiving angelic communications."
"There are two descriptions of angels,"
said Kate, simply.
The remark was irresistible; but it was
hardly uttered before she regretted it; for
Lord Effingham smiled, gaily, as if gratified
that she had deigned to retort. He was now
satisfied he had accomplished as much as one
visit would permit, and rising to depart,
thanked Mrs. Storey for her permission to accompany
them to Langley's studio, and made
his adieux with the same ease that marked
his entré.
"Well, my dear," cried Mrs. Storey, triumphantly,
"you will believe me again! I
think there is no mistake about that. And
how you could treat such an elegant man with
the greatest coldness, I cannot understand.
Had you any quarrel with him? for you were
friendly enough at Hampton Court."
"I have no quarrel with Lord Effingham,
Mrs. Storey," replied Kate, gravely; "but I
dislike him extremely; and I must ask you,
as a favour, that you will not encourage him
to come here. It is very natural that you
should think well of him. I know him better."
"Law! my dear girl," said Mrs. Storey,
eagerly. "Don't be foolish! Earls are not to
be found on every bush. And what is it to
you if he has been a little wild; young men
will be young men; and when he is married,
he will turn over a new leaf. See, how independent
and grand you would be as Countess
of Effingham, going down to dinner before
Lady Desmond herself."
"I know, my dear Mrs. Storey, how well-meant
is your advice; and, believe me, I am
grateful for the interest you take in my prospects;
but do not refuse my request; help me
to avoid Lord Effingham."
"But what shall we do about to-morrow?"
said poor Mrs. Storey, ruefully. She could not
relinquish an Earl without a pang.
"I am sure Mr. Langley will raise some obstacle.
At all events, I will remain in my own
room, and you can act as his cicerone. If this
continues," added Kate, resolutely, "I will
leave London. Indeed, I have wished to speak
to you on this subject before."
"I am sure I shall never forgive Lord
Effingham if he frightens you away, my dear,"
said Mrs. Storey, kindly; and then added, reflectively—"goodness
me! how strange high-life
is!"
This visit of Lord Effingham's was a great
shock to Kate; how was she to clear herself
in Lady Desmond's eyes from the suspicion
that she had consented so readily to remain in
London in order to see her accepted lover more
frequently. Yes! the only remedy was to
mature her crude plans for endeavouring to
obtain employment of some kind out of London—to
dependance she would never return.
Kate's anticipations as to Langley's raising
obstacles to that visit proved correct; he made
his appearance, according to his usual custom,
at tea time.
"Lord Effingham was here this morning,
William—he is very anxious to see your
studio; and I promised to take him with me
to-morrow."
"He does me infinite honour," said Langley.
"But it happens I am going to Windsor
to-morrow, and cannot leave my studio unlocked
even to gratify his lordship."
Kate thought he said this with unusual
acerbity.
"Well, that is unfortunate," cried Mrs.
Storey.
"What a grandee you are growing all at once,
Charlotte," said her husband, facetiously;
"patronising Earls and Colonels—they will
want you at Almacks next. Talking of finery,"
continued Mr. Storey, "I was introduced to
Tom Jorrocks' wife to-day, and promised
you would call upon her—they are in town,
for a few weeks, at ——; here's his card,
Cambridge Terrace."
And Mr. and Mrs. Storey immediately
plunged into the history of Tom Jorrocks and
his wife, and of how rich his mother was, and
what a large fortune he was making, &c., &c.
While Langley and Kate conversed quietly
apart.
"Is Lord Effingham a great lover of painting?"
"I believe so; he certainly understands it."
"It is curious enough; I was walking this
evening with Gailliard, (who, by the way, was
making many enquiries for you,) when Lord
Effingham drove past us in Regent Street.
Gailliard seems to have known a good deal of
him abroad; he gave a curious character of
him." Langley thought for some moments,
and then resumed—"You remember Gailliard?"
"Oh, quite well—I should like to see him
again."
"He has just returned from France, with a
perfect budget of anecdotes, touching the late
Revolution; he is a strange fellow," concluded
Langley, musingly.
"I always wonder that M. Gailliard is not
a man of greater eminence than he is."
"Yes—he has all the ingredients to be a
great writer, a good artist, a leading character,
and yet he seems to have missed everything."
"Perhaps," said Kate, smiling, "he requires
the predominance of some one of these
qualities to decide his character, as the slightly
superior strength of the right hand prevents
the awkwardness of not knowing which to
use."
"Very likely. Do you know, Miss Vernon,
you think a good deal for a young lady!"
"I cannot accept so insulting a compliment,"
said Kate, laughing; and rising, at
Mrs. Storey's request, she went to the piano.
"I want your opinion of this air—it came
back to me in a dream some nights ago. A
poor silly boy at Dungar used to sing it so
sweetly, and I have never heard it since. I rather
think it is a very old air that escaped Moore
and Sir John Stevenson—the Irish words I
never knew; but these I found among poor
Mr. Gilpin's papers—they seem to have been
written not long before his sister's death."
And, after a few arpeggio chords, she sung
as follows:—
"Look afar thro' the gloom, weary heart,
To yon dim and faint revealing,
The glim'ring ray
Of distant day
O'er life's troubled ocean stealing.
It comes with endless joy, sad heart,
A glorious sunburst beaming,
With peace and love
From heaven above,
O'er sin and sorrow streaming.
Soon the dark waters past, sad heart,
Thou'lt rest in thy spirit home,
Where we part no more
From those gone before
Across life's billowy foam.
There no falsehood shall oppress thee,
Nor sorrow's dark'ning gloom,
For free is the soul
That has reached its goal,
In the world beyond the tomb."
"Well, Miss Vernon," remarked Mr. Storey,
"that's quite too melancholy a song for me—the
dismals never suit my book."
"My dear! it is beautiful, and made me
cry, I could not help it!" exclaimed his wife.
"You say the words are original," observed
Langley.
"Yes, I am almost sure they were written
by Mr. Gilpin's sister, who died of consumption
shortly before we went to A——."
"They suit the air remarkably—the song
makes an impression I shall not easily forget
nor your singing of it," added Langley, more
to himself than to Kate.
"Now, Miss Vernon, may I ask for that
march we liked so much, yesterday?" said
Mrs. Storey, and soon afterwards they separated
for the night.
The next morning was most perseveringly
wet, and both Mrs. Storey and Kate agreed that
the most determined picture-maniac would
hardly venture out in such weather.
"But you will see, he will come for all that,"
concluded Mrs. Storey.
"Then you must receive him," said Kate,
"I will not appear."
"Gracious goodness," cried her hostess.
"What shall I say about you?"
"Do not trouble yourself to think—send for
me, and the message I shall return will relieve
you of all responsibility."
"But if he insists on seeing you?"
"He dare not!" said Kate, with a sudden
lighting of the eye, and proud drawing up of
the head that seemed to her good easy friend
like the revelation of some unknown world.
"Well my dear, whatever you like," she said,
meekly.
Mrs. Storey's conjectures proved true, for,
notwithstanding the weather, Lord Effingham
arrived punctually at the time specified.
Kate felt her heart beat a little nervously,
as she watched him walking across the garden,
from the window of the nursery where she had
ensconced herself.
In due course of time, Mrs. Storey's message
reached her.
"Please'm, my missis says, would you be so
good as to step down."
"My compliments, I am particularly engaged,"
said Miss Vernon, quietly.
And soon after, she heard the hall door
open and shut, and the sound of retreating
wheels informed her the enemy was in retreat.
She found Mrs. Storey looking rather
crest-fallen.
"Well, my dear, he is gone—in a very bad
humour, I can tell you—he came in so politely,
and asked if we still intended to go. So I told
him about my brother being from home, he
did not seem to mind it much; but said he
hoped another time we should be more successful;
then he asked for you, and if you
were at home, so I sent for you, and I assure
my dear, I was beginning to feel quite nervous,
for though he smiled and talked, he was looking
very black, as if he was vexed at not
seeing you. When Maria brought back your
message, he turned and looked out of the window
for a minute, then he said, with a very
different kind of smile from what I saw before—'I
should be sorry to interfere with Miss
Vernon's particular engagements, and as I am
very likely interrupting your avocations, I
shall bid you good morning.' I told him I
had nothing in the world to do at that hour of
the day—but he did not seem to hear me
speak, and with a sort of proud bow, he walked
off; and, my dear girl, I am sure you have
mortally offended him; but, for all that, I
think he might have listened when I spoke to
him."
"Yes," said Kate, "he was very rude, and
we must both be out if he comes again, though
I do hope and believe that was a mere threat."
All remembrance of his Lordship's impertinence
was quickly obliterated from Mrs.
Storey's mind, by the rapidly increasing toils
of preparation for "the thirtieth;" it was to be
a quiet musical party—in consideration of Miss
Vernon's mourning—but very recherché. Mrs.
Storey determined the supper should be what
her husband termed a "chief endeavour," the
facetious translation of "chef d'œuvre."
Kate waited till that all-absorbing event
was over, and Mrs. Storey's attention free, before
she took her into her confidence, as regarded
her future plans. She was now most
anxious to do so. Employment, either as a
resident governess, or a companion, was absolutely
necessary. She could not remain much
longer with Mrs. Storey, and to accept money
or protection from Lady Desmond, while her
suspicions remained as keenly alive as they
then were, was impossible. Her cousin's
letters, though expressing a formal wish that
she was happy and comfortable, had not, as
yet, hinted at the future. And, however
firmly Kate might trust to the mercy and
guidance of an over-ruling Providence, the uncertainty
of her prospects kept her in cruel
suspense. If she could but only hear from
Winter, and learn where to direct to him, all
would be well. Then she would turn to
Winter's last letter, and dwell upon the
reality of its tone; for, strange though it be,
there is something so unerring in the instinct
of truth, that mere written expressions, in all
the barrenness of ink and paper, convey the
real, or the unreal unmistakeably. Kate was
always comforted by the perusal of the good
little artist's characteristic epistles; they
placed him before her, in all the uncompromising
sincerity she had tried, and never found wanting.
The day but one after her party, Mrs. Storey
disappointed Kate's intention of asking for a
quiet confidential walk after dinner, by desiring
the parlour maid at breakfast, to—
"Tell cook to have dinner at one precisely,
I must go into town on particular business to-day."
Kate declined her invitation to accompany
her, observing—
"I want a long talk with you, dear Mrs.
Storey, the first time you are at leisure."
She received a ready assent to her proposition,
from her curious hostess, who anticipated a
clearing up of all the mysteries connected with
Lord Effingham.
Kate had not long enjoyed the unwonted
stillness of the house, after Mrs. Storey had
departed for town, and the children for their
afternoon walk, when her attention was
aroused by the sound of voices in the hall, and
the next moment Lord Effingham walked into
the room. Miss Vernon started, and with
difficulty suppressed the exclamation of surprise
which sprang to her lips. She rose from
her seat, and stood silent, while her unwelcome
visitor, advancing towards her, said, with the
species of enforced quiet, which always indicated
that emotion of some kind was struggling
in his breast—
"I do not apologise for this intrusion, Miss
Vernon, for you will, I know, forgive it, when
I tell you how unconquerable is my desire to
speak with you, alone. I have watched your
amiable and intelligent hostess set out for town,
and so made sure of some uninterrupted conversation—you
must not refuse to hear me."
"No, Lord Effingham," said Miss Vernon,
recovering her self-possession, "I, too, am
almost glad, since you will not accept the tacit
expression of my wishes, to have a decisive
interview, we cannot continue on our present
footing."
"The extraordinary fact of your being
domesticated with such people," exclaimed
Lord Effingham, abruptly, "is sufficiently eloquent
of the terms on which you and your
cousin parted—and I must know something
more decisive from your own lips, before I
resign all hopes of you. Speak! Have you
and your cousin separated in consequence of her
insane pride—her absurd fancy about myself?"
"If I could convey the least idea to your
mind," answered Kate, holding down her indignation,
in order to speak with greater
force, "of the repugnance with which I
shrink from such expressions, you would not, I
am sure, offend me by repeating them, Good
Heavens," she continued, "what effect can
you imagine must be produced upon one
woman by such bold, such dishonorable assertions
of another."
"Dishonorable!" cried the Earl, his sallow
cheek flushing for an instant. "You use strong
terms, Miss Vernon."
"Not more strong than just," returned
Kate. "I call it dishonorable, if, rightly or
not, you conceive you have won a place in a
woman's heart, to glance at the secret, even to
your most intimate associate, much more to
make it the subject of scornful remark to that
woman's—"
She stopped, fearful of betraying herself or
her cousin. Lord Effingham supplied the
word—
"Rival you would have said, and you are
right. I can well imagine the scorn, the bitterness
with which she reproached you for all
the crimes of art and dissimulation, of which
you are so incapable. I can fancy the passionate,
unappeaseable suspicions which drove
you—here," he added, after a moment's pause
to glance, with unutterable contempt, round
the homely room in which they sat.
Kate felt that she quailed before the true
picture he had sketched.
"Your eyes are less faithful to your cousin's
cause than your lips—they admit much," continued
Lord Effingham.
"Then what I look I will speak," returned
Kate, with sudden boldness. "Georgina, if she
does care for you, is not a woman to give away
her heart unasked. I have known and loved
her all my life—that she is not indifferent to
you, is, in my eyes, incontrovertible proof that
you endeavoured to win her affections. It is
no disgrace to a woman," continued Kate,
with encreasing boldness, "to give the heart
that seems so ardently sought. No; the truer
the purer—the nobler it is—the more incapable
it is of conceiving the gratuitous treason that
betrays it. I do not see why I should attempt
to conceal the fact that I fear my cousin once
loved you—with you rests the reproach; but
do you suppose that I am so unreal as to trust
you—to believe that a passing admiration could
so change your spirit, as to teach it sympathy
with mine? that your treachery to one woman
would be a guarantee of good faith to another?
No, my Lord! I am made of different stuff.
Do not, for a moment, imagine it is in your
power to cause disunion between two such
tried friends as my cousin and myself—we
know each other's truth—we know it is worth
too much to be lightly cast aside."
She paused; and Lord Effingham, whose
varied colour had settled into deadly paleness,
rose, and paced the room in silence, before replying—
"You are a stern judge, Miss Vernon," he
said, at length, in the deep tone of concentrated
anger. "I little thought the indulgence of a
harmless whim would have been so severely
visited upon me. Listen, fair and rigid exposer
of my follies," he continued, sneeringly.
"The secret of your just severity may be
summed up thus—you do not love me; therefore,
the conduct you so eloquently denounce,
is unextenuated by the softening consideration
that it was you—your own irresistible attractions—that
made me a traitor. Your indifference,
perhaps your pre-occupation, lends a
magnifying power to your moral sense, and I
am condemned; where—circumstances slightly
changed—I might have been cherished. Enough;
I am satisfied there is no chance of my winning
your affections. I will not, therefore, degrade
myself or weary you with vain efforts." He
stopped opposite to her, silently for a minute, his
arms folded, his eyes fixed on her face. "I wish
to God I had known you long ago, Kate—that I
had met you first. How is it, that with rank,
and riches, and power here—" and he touched
his forehead, "all rare gifts—I have so often
missed the road to happiness."
Kate, moved by the tone of despondency
with which this was asked, replied hesitatingly—
"Perhaps—because you never knew where
to look for it."
"And will you not direct me?" said the
Earl, with intense earnestness.
Kate shook her head in silent refusal.
He gazed at her still for an instant, and
then, taking her hand, said—
"In all probability, we shall never meet
again. You have acted in accordance with
your character—I, with mine."
And, turning away, he left the house.
Kate remained lost in thought without
moving from the position in which she had
heard Lord Effingham's parting words; she
could hardly believe that he was really gone—that
he would return no more; but stranger
still, was the impression of regret and compassion
he had left upon her mind. Surely
there were the scattered elements of much
good in his character. What was it that had
so fatally disunited them? The repellent power
of selfishness. He had, as he said, goodly
gifts, rank, and riches, and intellectual power;
but the heart, wherein is the balance which harmonises
the whole, was corrupt and false; but
her sensation was that of relief. One difficulty
was removed; her cousin could not long remain
in ignorance of his final rejection—nay,
in justice to herself, she determined to mention
having seen the Earl for the last time.
"My way is becoming clear," was the
most distinct idea, as she endeavoured to refix
her thoughts upon her book. It was in vain
she read and re-read each page, the words
might be traced by the eye; but the mind was
far too full to admit the sense; and in the
struggle between reverie and attention, Mrs.
Storey returned.
"I am sure I have a thousand apologies to
make, my dear, leaving you all the afternoon
by yourself."
"Indeed, Mrs. Storey, you need not apologise;
besides I have not been alone. Lord
Effingham has been here."
"Oh, indeed," cried Mrs. Storey, eagerly.
"Yes; and I do not think we shall be
troubled with him any more."
"Well, my dear, you know best; but—"
and Mrs. Storey shook her head.
In truth, the kind-hearted little woman was
much attached to Kate, especially since she
had been domesticated with her. She would
gladly have witnessed her "entrée" at court in
the character of the Countess of Effingham, and
still more gladly shone in the reflected lustre
of so brilliant a friend; but if Miss Vernon did
not like him it was very unfortunate.
The next morning brought Kate a letter from
Lady Desmond, and another from nurse. The
former, after commenting on Colonel Dashwood's
sudden appearance in Dublin, and expressing,
more constrainedly and coldly than
usual, her hopes that Kate was happy, &c., &c.,
went on to say, "I am annoyed by a strange
whim of nurse's; she will no doubt tell you all
about it; she is determined on leaving me 'to
see her people;' and as the only solution for
such an amount of family affection, I must
conclude that she is unhappy or uncomfortable
in my establishment—I wish she would condescend
to mention in what particular; but this
is too candid a line of conduct for persons of
her class." Kate felt deeply the acerbity with
which her cousin wrote, and turned anxiously
to nurse's letter for an explanation of the
affair.
"My own blessed darlin'," it began, "I've a
power to tell you; but, first of all, avourneen,
there's yer letter that warmed yer own ould
nurse's heart—my hearty thanks for it, jewil.
You see, there's three weeks of the four I
promised to stay with my lady gone, and I'm
wearyin' to see my sisther's daughter and her
childre that's doin' well in Killeesh; and an
unfortunate vagabone of a boy, my cousin, they
tell me is gone to the bad—so I'm sure, Miss
Kate, jewil, ye'll give me lave to step over, and
if I get a thrifle of work, sure I'll be better
plaised nor to be here doin' nothin', but in
everybody's way, an' my lady different to what
she used to be—not but that she's good; but,
asthore, I don't know how she and you
parted, an' I never feel asy like with her, so
just tell me you'll let me off stoppin' here any
longer."
Kate hardly felt surprise at this intelligence.
She had instinctively expected that nurse would
not remain long with Lady Desmond; yet this
was an increase of anxiety. "I trust she will
not give away all her money," thought Kate,
as she sat down to reply to Lady Desmond's
letter. She expressed her regret at nurse's
determination, urging, however, in extenuation,
that her desire to revisit the scenes of her youth,
and the few relations she had left, was natural
and pardonable. After touching on all the
points in her cousin's letter, she found herself
concluding her own before she had courage to
mention Lord Effingham's name; she therefore
added a short postscript—"I have seen Lord
Effingham for the last time." She next wrote
her assent to nurse's project, recommending
her, however, merely to go on furlough, and
not to break altogether with Lady Desmond.
These letters despatched, she joined her
hostess.
"You remember, I told you yesterday, I
wanted a good long talk with you, Mrs. Storey."
"Yes, dear, and here I am ready for it."
"You are very kind to me, Mrs. Storey."
"La, my love, it's a pleasure to me."
"You know I am very poor," said Kate, not
exactly sure how to get into her subject. "I
told you at Hampton Court that terrible lawsuit
was not concluded, and now it seems it has died
a natural death; so I must try and do something
for myself."
A thundering knock here startled and interrupted
her.
"Goodness, gracious me," cried Mrs. Storey,
"who can that be? A very smart brougham,
my dear, and—let me see—yes—no—it is
young Mrs. Tom Jorrocks. Well, she is very
agreeable, but I wish she had not interrupted
us. Delighted to see you, Mrs. Jorrocks—this
is so kind and friendly," &c., &c.
By Mrs. Tom Jorrocks greetings were exchanged,
and much was said of the delightful
evening she had passed at Raby Villa, of Miss
Vernon's charming music, and the beauty of the
children; then the excitement of town was discussed,
and young Mrs. Tom Jorrocks admitted
that, notwithstanding its pleasures, she should
be glad to be once more quietly settled at Leeds.
"And besides all my own engagements," she
continued, "I am busily employed looking out
for a young lady to be a sort of companion to
my mother-in-law, who is growing rather blind.
She wants some one who will be a cheerful
associate, and read aloud nicely, and be like
a daughter to her; she lives with her daughter,
Mrs. Wilson, but she is so much engaged with
her house and servants and sons, Mrs. Jorrocks
is often lonely."
"I think I know a lady who might suit you,"
said Kate, suddenly captivated with the imaginary
picture of a gentle, lonely old lady who
wanted a daughter's companionship.
"Indeed it would be a great comfort if I
could acquit myself well in the search," said
young Mrs. Jorrocks, with a laugh. "My
mother-in-law is very wealthy, and would not
object to a salary of thirty or forty pounds; she
is rather particular, but very kind."
"If you will allow me to call upon you to-morrow,
I will let you know more particulars."
"I cannot tell the obligation you would
confer upon me should you enable me to get
rid of the affair. Might I ask you to call upon
me to-morrow at twelve? If not too early, I
shall be enchanted to see you."
"At twelve, then, I will be with you," said
Kate, with a smile.
"And now, Mrs. Storey, I must bid you good
morning. My compliments to Mr. Storey.
Good morning Miss Vernon."
"You were surprised. I dare say, at my
sudden interest in Mrs. Jorrocks' researches,"
said Kate to Mrs. Storey, when they were once
more alone.
"Yes—no—that is, do go on and tell me—surely
it can't be yourself?"
"It is indeed for myself I wish to secure
the engagement," returned Miss Vernon. "I
must resume the thread of my discourse, which
Mrs. Jorrocks' entré interrupted. I am sure
you are too thoroughly English not to sympathise
in my wish to earn a livelihood, be it ever
so humble, rather than live in dependence, even
on a generous and affectionate relative like my
cousin; I do not want a large salary, but a home is
indispensable—at least," she added with a sigh,
"a respectable protection—for a home can never
be found among strangers—and this appears to
promise fairly enough."
"Well, my dear, you really take away my
breath! I thought you were never to leave
Lady Desmond! She told me so herself. I
really think you are very foolish. Who would
be so fit a person for you to be companion to as
your own cousin? What does she think? My
goodness! Who would have thought it!"
"Lady Desmond will, no doubt, be very
averse to my plan, but at present I see no
other open to me. I particularly wish not to
join her while she is in Ireland—elsewhere I
may. Indeed, I should at once have offered
myself to Mrs. Jorrocks, but that I thought it
right to consult you first—you might not like
me to do so."
"La, my dear, I only wish you to do what
you think will be for the best; but, dear me,
how astonished Mrs. Tom will be, to be sure!
I always told her how fashionable and rich all
your friends and relations were," said Mrs.
Storey, in a slightly vexed tone.
"If it annoys you in the least, pray tell me,
and I will not say anything more about it—I
should be grieved to vex you," said Kate, with
so much sweetness of tone and manner, that
Mrs. Storey gave her a hearty kiss, and wished
her all success.
"Indeed, dear, you have the right spirit;
and, after all, I dare say you have your own
reasons for leaving Lady Desmond!"
"She is always kind and good," said Kate.
Miss Vernon was truly glad to have this
explanation so well over; and though anxious
as to her future, most thankful for the opening
which so unexpectedly offered.
"I can stay there, at all events, till the
Winters' return. Oh, when will they write!"
The next morning, she started early on her
visit to Mrs. Tom Jorrocks, and pondered, as
she went, on the difference of her feelings now
from those with which she used to seek employment;
formerly, she was full of anxious,
palpitating hope and fear. Hoping to have
good news wherewith to return to grandpapa
and nurse—fearing that she might not succeed;
but both sensations invigorated and spurred
her on. Now it was for herself alone, she was
interested; and she walked calmly, undisturbed
by either hope or fear; she was almost
surprised at the fearless, careless indifference
with which she viewed the future.
"Can it be that I am so much alone! Oh,
if I could but live with nurse! I wonder will
Mr. Winter renew his proposal to take her as
housekeeper when he returns."
These thoughts brought her to Mrs. Jorrocks's
door. She was most cordially received.
The bride was alone; and the first surprise and
exclamations over, matters were speedily arranged.
"I am really ashamed to offer you what my
mother-in-law has limited me to," said young
Mrs. Jorrocks, with some embarrassment.
"You need not mind that," returned Kate;
"I want more a—" she could not desecrate the
word "home," and substituted, "a respectable
residence."
"Well then, I consider you engaged; and
I am sure I shall win golden opinions for sending
down such a companion as yourself," returned
Mrs. Tom, who had become marvellously
familiar and agreeable.
"I had nearly forgotten to ask you where
Mrs. Jorrocks lives—a very necessary question."
"Oh, at Carrington—her son-in-law, Mr.
Wilson, is a cotton broker there."
"Carrington," repeated Kate, colouring
with surprise and emotion.
"Not a very nice place, I grant," said the
bride. "But the Wilsons live in the New
Park, quite away from the town. Have you
ever been there?"
"Yes, once. We used to live at A——,
which is only an hour's drive from Carrington."
"I know; we went over there to look at
the Cathedral, when I was at Carrington. Then,
Miss Vernon, you will be ready to go down
next week? My mother-in-law is very anxious
for some one who will read to her."
"Yes," said Kate, confused by the flood of
memories which welled up from the depths of
her heart, at the sound of these familiar
names.
"Old Mrs. Jorrocks will write and say what
day she expects you. I am sure, I am delighted
to have concluded this business so satisfactorily."
"Then I will wish you good morning."
"Good morning, Miss Vernon, good morning!"
"Dear Mrs. Storey! it is all settled!" cried
Kate, on finding that lady alone. "I am
going to Carrington—where—where—"
A burst of irrepressible tears choked her
voice.
"My dear girl! don't now—there's a love!
here, smell to the salts," exclaimed Mrs.
Storey, in great perplexity; she did not understand
the grateful sympathy of silence on
such occasions.
"I was so happy there—so unutterably
light-hearted! the world was all joy to me—existence
in itself a blessing! And to go
back there now, when some strange spell seems
to have doomed me to utter loneliness!
Grandpapa gone, nurse gone, Georgy, Mr.
Winter, his kind wife, all I was ever linked
with in happy days, far away."
"My love, don't go there; stay a bit longer
with us; you know, if the house was only a
little larger, I would not let you go away for
ever so long; but—"
"Dear friend," said Kate, recovering herself—"I
was surprised into this outburst—do
not mind it—I am quite resolved to go to Mrs.
Jorrocks. Nay, when I have conquered my
foolish weakness, I shall be pleased to be near
my old haunts. I will go to my room and
think—I am always better when I think by
myself."
"Very well, dear, whatever you like."
Long and earnestly did Kate think, and
her thoughts were prayers. She looked steadily
at the past; and, from its trials and blessings,
gathered strength for the future.
And fancy, which is ever so strangely at
variance with the exterior atmosphere of prosperity
or depression, held up a bright picture
of Egerton, standing between her and all
future loneliness, of his manly tenderness, and
simple truth, till she almost fancied she heard
his well known voice speaking to her, those
lovely words of Longfellow's—
"Oh, let thy weary heart rest upon mine,
And it shall faint no more, nor thirst, nor hunger,
But be satisfied and filled with my affection,"
"I am wrong, I am too bold, to let such
thoughts glance across my mind. I will not
let them come again, how weak, how vain they
are! but I can never think of dear grandpapa,
without seeing Colonel Egerton, as it were, beside
him, they are so closely linked in my
heart."
And with sudden decision she rose, bathed
her eyes, and joined Mrs. Storey on a journey
to Bond Street.
As young Mrs. Jorrocks had prophesied,
Kate received a speedy summons from La Belle
Mère. The letter was written in much the
same style of caligraphy, in which a small
"dress-maker" notes down her little account;
the orthography was tolerably correct; but the
composition was rather confused.
"Poor thing," said Miss Vernon, mentally;
"she is probably too blind to write with ease—perhaps
her maid acted as amanuensis. I
hope she is a loveable person. What wonderful
changes I have seen;" and turning to her
desk, she wrote to Mrs. Jorrocks, promising
to be with her on the specified Thursday.
"Dear nurse used to say Thursday was a
lucky day," she said, as she closed the letter.
After some consideration, she determined on
informing nurse and her cousin that she was
tired of London, and going to stay with some
acquaintances she had made through Mrs.
Storey. "There can be no use in unnecessarily
fretting them," she thought. "I am
determined not to go to Georgy till I can trace
a very different tone in her letters; she cannot
help her suspicions, I believe; but I need not
make her more unhappy than she is. How I
wish I could see some newspaper announcement
of Lord Effingham's departure for the
continent!"
But her wish was in vain, Lord Effingham
continued to revolve between London and
Cowes; and Lady Desmond's reply was
strangely commingled with petulance and affection.