Joe Leslie never felt so mean in all his life as when he
approached his house up town on this evening.
He knew he had been playing a miserable part in deceiving his
wife with regard to his smoking, but subterfuge was something
generally foreign to Joe’s nature, and this made it seem
all the worse to him.
Still, he did not sneak along in a cringing way. Never
had he walked more uprightly—for he could look people in
the face now, at least, and was determined to make a clean breast
of it.
Lillian was watching from the parlor window, herself hidden
from view.
She thought she had never seen Joe looked so manly, as when he
walked up to the house, and her heart seemed cold to think that
it may have been the smiles of some rival that brought this look
of pleasure to his face.
Thus
a man may feel mean, and at the same time appear joyous.
When Joe entered the house he saw a light back in the
library.
Straight in that direction he walked.
Lillian was seated there apparently reading—how was he
to know she had hastily flown hither from her lookout?
Joe softly closed the door. Another minute and he stood
before his wife.
“Lillian, my wife, look up.”
Somewhat startled, she did so.
“Why, Joe!”
“I want you to know what a base man you have for a
husband, Lillian.”
“You mean—” she gasped.
“That I have a confession to make, and I am determined
to make it now.”
“A confession, Joseph—” and the little woman
gained her feet.
Her face was white with a sudden fear—she even believed
Joe was about to tell her some terrible truth—that he had
never loved her—perhaps had been married ere he knew
her.
At any rate she was dreadfully alarmed.
“Yes, I have been a villain to treat the best little
woman in all the world so, but this old love was with me long
before I knew you—it had become a part of my very
life. I never knew how strong it was until lately.
God knows I have tried to shake it off, and be faithful to my
promise, but I am weak. I have sinned, Lillian, my wife,
and I stand here humbly to ask if you can ever forgive
me.”
He stood there with bowed head, proud even in his
humility.
“But oh, Joe, to think—that woman—”
and she burst into a torrent of tears.
He seized her hands and took them down from her face.
“Good heavens, Lillian, I forgot that you believed
that. It is no woman—I have never been unfaithful to
you in word or deed—that was not I whom Darrell saw at the
bal masque last night, dear. I am yours, wretched
man that I am, but yours alone, always.”
“But what—I don’t understand—you say
you have sinned and yet that you are innocent. Oh, Joe,
please tell me everything.”
“I would be a base wretch if I did not. Do you
remember making me give a promise before we were married,
Lillian?”
“Not about your cigars, Joe?”
“That’s it,” eagerly; “and for a time
I suffered terrible torments in keeping it to the letter; but
after a while the devil tempted me. He said, ‘You
promised to give up cigars—nothing was said about your
pipe.’ Lillian, like a weak fool I gave in, and daily
almost, for months, I have gone to the house I own in
Twenty-seventh Street, changed my clothes and enjoyed half an
hour’s smoke.
“It was a cruel deception on you, and I have felt like a
sneak in doing it. Thanks to Darrell my eyes have been
opened and I am here to confess all, asking
forgiveness.”
Lillian could hardly believe her ears—she turned a face
illumined upon her husband. “Joe, dear Joe, is this
your dreadful secret?”
“It is,” solemnly.
“You are sure you have told me everything?”
“There is not another thing I have ever kept from you,
my darling.”
“And you love no one else?”
“Not a living soul but my wife.”
“Oh! I am so glad.”
With these words she flew into his arms, and Joe, bending
down, gravely kissed his own.
“You are sure you can forgive me,
dearest?”
“Forgive you—oh, Joe, I shall love tobacco
after this.”
“See, I have brought my pipe here for you to
destroy—I couldn’t quite do it myself, for I’ve
had it many years. But you shall be the
executioner.”
“Not for worlds—if this is the only rival I have
to fear I can share my place in your heart with it. You
shall smoke after dinner, and I myself will fill your
pipe.”
He kissed her fingers tenderly.
“Ah! dearest, what a fool I have been all this while, to
suffer as I have when by confession I might have long since been
absolved. But I am sincere in my resolve to stop
smoking.”
“And I am just as firmly resolved that you shall
not. I am cured of my folly. But for that foolish
prejudice you would never have been led to deceive me.”
They held sweet communion for some little time, and all seemed
as lovely as during the bright days of their courtship.
Then the dinner bell rang.
Together they went down, Joe’s arm around his wife, as
though they were lovers.
After
the meal was over they again sought the library, and chatted.
“Now for your pipe, Joe, dear,” said Lillian.
He protested.
It was of no avail—she was determined that he had
suffered enough—better love with a cigar in the house than
the absence of both.
Few men will condemn Joe’s weakness.
In other respects he could be adamant, but he owned up to
being very fond of a smoke.
So Lillian took his bag of tobacco out of the case which also
held the pipe, filled the bowl and brought it to him.
He kissed her on the spot—what else could he do?
“A match, please, dear, since you insist upon it—I
am out of them.”
“And the holder is also empty—stay, here is a
scrap of paper that will do.”
She took a piece out of the waste basket and, without looking
at it, twisted a lighter.
This she held in the gas jet, and, lighted, brought it over to
Joe, who calmly laid it on his pipe, puffed a few times, and
then, blowing out the flame, knocked the red ashes off the
lighter, laying it on the table for possible use again.
Then
he eyed his wife quizzically.
She was looking at him with a smile.
“I feel like a brute, Lillian, to inflict such a torment
upon you. Say the word, and the whole thing goes
forever.”
“Not I,” she replied; “I never knew how
fragrant the odor was. If you must smoke, my husband, you
shall do it as other gentlemen do, in your own home, but always
smoke the best cigars and few of them.”
This was charming, Joe thought.
He had not been so happy for months.
It often happens that the skies are clearest just before the
worst of storms.
Joe saw no cloud on the horizon.
All the same it was there, and ready to blot out the sunshine
like magic.
It came about in a peculiar way.
Lillian had settled down to read a book she was interested in,
and Joe had his paper.
While he read he mechanically fingered the lighter with the
charred end, and untwisted it.
Finally he looked over his paper at his wife and mused.
How good she was to make his penance so light and how happy he
ought to be in the possession of such a dear little woman.
Evidently Joe had forgotten something.
He found his pipe had gone out during his musing, and taking
hold of the paper she had twisted for him, was about to make a
lighter out of it again, when he received what seemed to be an
electric shock.
A name had caught his eye on the paper. He held it up
closer.
Yes, there could be no mistake—it was a note his wife
had twisted up—by some mistake it had come into his waste
basket.
What was left of it after the burning he read:
“if you can contrive to conceal it from your
husband until then, all will be well. I think I can rely
upon your discretion—everything goes on well, and our
secret is, I believe, safe.
“Faithfully yours,
“Paul
Prescott.”
When poor Joe had taken this in he felt as though he had been
plunged into an icy bath.
The joyous spirit of contentment that had pervaded his whole
being was gone.
Suspicion, jealousy, unrest, came trooping in with renewed
force.
His own late experience should have been a lesson to him, but
it was not.
The
first thing he did was to fold the paper up and put it in his
pocket.
Why he did this he often wondered later on, when the right
course would have been to have handed it to Lillian for
explanation.
He looked at his paper again, but did not see that he had it
upside down.
Thought was busy.
He was trying to convince himself that it was none of his
business anyhow—that he had had his secret and why not
Lillian.
Then again he remembered that she was his wife—what
concerned her concerned him.
At any rate Joe’s sudden happiness was
overcast—clouds had covered the sky.
He began to feel miserable.
As it was not his design that Lillian should see this, he
assumed a cheerfulness he was far from feeling.
The evening passed.
Joe wished to get in a closet at one end of the room, but
found it locked.
“I wonder where the key of this door is. I’m
sure I didn’t take it.”
Accidentally he chanced to look toward Lillian while speaking,
and was almost startled to see the color fly into her face.
“I believe I left it up-stairs, Joe. If you
really want it I might go up and see if I can get it.”
“Oh! no, dear, it doesn’t matter. Another
time will do as well,” he said carelessly.
At the same time, for the life of him he could not help
associating her action with the letter received from Paul
Prescott.
It worried him.
He was diverted from this state by Lillian, who asked about
the clerk, so Joe told all that had been done the night
before—he had spoken of it ere now, but had not given
particulars.
Woman-like she was interested, and declared she loved him
better because of the mercy he had shown for the boy.
Then Lillian retired.
Joe sat there a long time thinking.
Finally he got up and went over to the closet as if to effect
an entrance, trying several of the keys on his bunch but with no
success.
Then he walked up and down.
At times he was dejected and again his face seemed to speak of
sudden passion.
Human nature is a strange thing.
A man enters an omnibus and frowns to hear the growls
of those comfortably settled as they make room for
him—presently another comes in, and his growls at being
forced to squeeze into a smaller compass exceed the rest.
Joe, upstairs, discovered the missing key on the dainty
dresser of his wife’s room—he took it in his hand,
started for the door, stopped, made an impatient gesture, and
returned the key to the place where he found it.
“Suspect her—never,” he muttered, and yet at
the very moment his feelings had gotten beyond his
control—it was pride that kept him from venturing to pry
into her secret and discover what lay hidden in the library
closet.
Thus Joe had won and lost a victory.