IT was inevitable as the refrain of a rondeau
that when Jan said "that's Meg" little Fay
should demand "What nelse?"
Now there was a good deal of "nelse" about
Meg, and she requires some explanation, going
back several years.
Like most Scots, Anthony Ross had been
faithful to his relations whether he felt affection
for them or not; sometimes even when they had
not a thought in common with him and he rather
disliked them than otherwise.
And this was so in the case of one Amelia
Ross, his first cousin, who was head-mistress of
a flourishing and well-established school for
"young ladies," in the Regent's Park district.
She had been a head-mistress for many years,
and was well over fifty when she married a meek,
small, nothingly man who had what Thackeray
calls "a little patent place." And it appeared
that she added the husband to the school in much
the same spirit as she would have increased the
number of chairs in her dining-room, and with
no more appreciable result in her life. On her
marriage she became Mrs. Ross-Morton, and
Mr. Morton went in and out of the front door,
breakfasted and dined at Ribston Hall, caught
his bus at the North Gate and went daily to his
meek little work. It is presumed that he lived
on terms of affectionate intimacy with his wife,
but no one who saw them together could have
gathered this.
Now Anthony Ross disliked his cousin Amelia.
He detested her school, which he considered was
one of the worst examples of a bad old period.
He suspected her of being hard and grasping,
he knew she was dull, and her husband bored
him—not to tears, but to profanity. Yet since
she was his cousin and a hard-working, upright
woman, and since they had played together as
children in Scotland and her father and mother
had been kind to him then, he could never bring
himself to drop Amelia. Not for worlds would
he have allowed Jan or Fay to go to her school,
but he did allow them, or rather he humbly entreated
them, to visit it occasionally when invited
to some function or other. Jan's education
after her mother's death had been the thinnest
scrape sandwiched between many household cares
and much attendance upon her father's whims.
Fay was allowed classes and visiting governesses,
but their father could never bring himself to
spare either of them to the regular discipline of
school, and Cousin Amelia bewailed the desultory
training of Anthony's children.
In 1905, Jan and Fay had been to a party at
Ribston Hall: tea in the garden followed by a
pastoral play. Anthony was sitting in the balcony,
smoking, when the girls came back. He
saw their hansom and ran downstairs to meet
them, as he always did. They were a family who
went in for affectionate greetings.
"Daddie," cried Fay, seizing her father by the
arm, "one of the seven wonders of the world has
happened. We have found an interesting person
at Ribston Hall."
Jan took the other arm. "We can't possibly
tell you all about it under an hour, so we'd better
go and sit in the balcony." And they gently
propelled him towards the staircase.
"Not if you're going to discuss Cousin Amelia,"
Anthony protested. "You have carrying voices,
both of you."
"Cousin Amelia is only incidental," Jan said,
when they were all three seated in the balcony.
"The main theme is concerned with a queer
little pixie creature called Meg Morton. She's
a pupil-governess, and she's sixteen and a half—just
the same age as Fay."
"She doesn't reach up to Jan's elbow," Fay
added, "and she chaperons the girls for music
and singing, and sits in the drawing-class because
the master can't be quite seventy yet."
"She's the wee-est thing you ever saw, and
they dress her in Cousin Amelia's discarded Sunday
frocks."
"That's impossible," Anthony interrupted.
"Amelia is so massive and square; if the girl's
so small she'd look like 'the Marchioness.'"
"She does, she does!" Jan cried delightedly.
"Of course the garments are 'made down,' but
in the most elderly way possible. Daddie, can
you picture a Botticelli angel of sixteen, with
masses of Titian-red hair, clad in a queer plush
garment once worn by Cousin Amelia, that retains
all its ancient frumpiness of line. And it's
not only her appearance that's so quaint, she is
quaint inside."
"We were attracted by her hair," Fay went
on "(You'll go down like a ninepin before that
hair), and we got her in a corner and hemmed
her in and declared it was her duty to attend to
us because we were strangers and shy, and in
three minutes we were friends. Sixteen, Daddie!
And a governess-pupil in Cousin Amelia's school.
She's a niece of the little husband, and Cousin
Amelia is preening herself like anything because
she takes her for nothing and makes her work
like ten people."
"Did the little girl say so?"
"Of course not," Jan answered indignantly,
"but Cousin Amelia did. Oh, how thankful I
am she is your cousin, dear, and once-removed
from us!"
"How many generations will it take to remove
her altogether?" Fay asked. "However," she
added, "if we can have the pixie out and give
her a good time I shan't mind the relationship so
much. We must do something, Daddie. What
shall it be?"
Anthony Ross smoked thoughtfully and said
very little. Perhaps he did not even listen with
marked attention, because he was enjoying his
girls. Just to see them healthy and happy; to
know that they were naturally kind and gay;
to hear them frank and eager and loquacious—sometimes
gave him a sensation of almost physical
pleasure. He was like an idler basking in the
sun, conscious of nothing but just the warmth
and comfort of it.
Whatever those girls wanted they always got.
Anthony's diplomacy was requisitioned and was,
as usual, successful; for, in spite of her disapproval,
Mrs. Ross-Morton could never resist
her cousin's charm. This time the result was
that one Saturday afternoon in the middle of
June little Meg Morton, bearing a battered
leather portmanteau and clad in the most-recently-converted
plush abomination, appeared at
the tall house in St. George's Square to stay over
the week-end.
It was the mid-term holiday, and from the
first moment to the last the visit was one almost
delirious orgy of pleasure to the little pupil-governess.
It was also a revelation.
It would be hard to conceive of anything
odder than the appearance of Meg Morton at
this time. She just touched five feet in height,
and was very slenderly and delicately made,
with absurd, tiny hands and feet. Yet there
was a finish about the thin little body that proclaimed
her fully grown. Her eyes, with their
thick, dark lashes, looked overlarge in the pale
little pointed face; strange eyes and sombre,
with big, bright pupil, and curious dark-blue iris
flecked with brown. Her features were regular,
and her mouth would have been pretty had the
lips not lacked colour. As it was, all the colour
about Meg seemed concentrated in her hair;
red as a flame and rippled as a river under a
fresh breeze. There was so much of it, too, the
little head seemed bowed in apology beneath
its weight.
Yet for the time being Meg forgot to be apologetic
about her hair, for Anthony and his girls
frankly admired it.
These adorable, kind, amusing people actually
admired it, and said so. Hitherto Meg's experience
had been that it was a thing to be slurred
over, like a deformity. If mentioned, it was to
be deprecated. In the strictly Evangelical circles
where hitherto her lot had been cast, they even
tried vainly to explain it away.
She had, of course, heard of artists, but she
never expected to meet any. That sort of thing
lay outside the lives of those who had to make
their living as quickly as possible in beaten
tracks; tracks so well-beaten, in fact, that all
the flowers had been trodden underfoot and
exterminated.
Meg, at sixteen, had received so little from
life that her expectations were of the humblest.
And as she stood before the glass in a pretty
bedroom, fastening her one evening dress (of
shiny black silk that crackled, made with the
narrow V in front affected by Mrs. Ross-Morton),
preparatory to going to the play for the first
time in her life, she could have exclaimed, like the
little old woman of the story, "This be never I!"
Anthony Ross was wholly surprising to Meg.
This handsome, merry gentleman with thick,
brown hair as crinkly as her own; who was
domineered over and palpably adored by these
two, to her, equally amazing girls—seemed so
very, very young to be anybody's father.
He frankly owned to enjoying things.
Now, according to Meg's experience, grown-up
people—elderly people—seldom enjoyed anything;
above all, never alluded to their enjoyment.
Life was a thing to be endured with fortitude,
its sorrows borne with Christian resignation;
its joys, if there were any joys, discreetly slurred
over. Joys were insidious, dangerous things
that might lead to the leaving undone of obvious
duties. To seek joy and insure its being shared
by others, bravely and honestly believing it to
be an excellent thing, was to Meg an entirely
unknown frame of mind.
After the play, in Meg's room the three girls
were brushing their hair together; to be accurate,
Jan was brushing Fay's and Meg admiring
the process.
"Have you any sisters?" Jan asked. She
was always interested in people's relations.
"No," said Meg. "There are, mercifully, only
three of us, my two brothers and me. If there
had been any more I don't know what my poor
little Papa would have done."
"Why do you call him your 'poor little papa'?"
Fay asked curiously.
"Because he is poor—dreadfully—and little,
and very melancholy. He suffers so from depression."
"Why?" asked the downright Jan.
"Partly because he has indigestion, constant
indigestion, and then there's us, and boys are
so expensive, they will grow so. It upsets him
dreadfully."
"But they can't help growing," Fay objected.
"It wouldn't matter so much if they didn't
both do it at once. But you see, there's only a
year between them, and they're just about the
same size. If only one had been smaller, he
could have worn the outgrown things. As it is,
it's always new clothes for both of them. Papa's
are no sort of use, and even the cheapest suits
cost a lot, and boots are perfectly awful."
Meg looked so serious that Fay and Jan, who
were like the lilies of the field, and expected new
and pretty frocks at reasonable intervals as a
matter of course, looked serious too; for the
first time confronted by a problem whose possibility
they had never even considered before.
"He must be pleased with you," Jan said,
encouragingly. "You're not too big."
"Yes, but then I'm not a boy. Papa's clothes
would have made down for me beautifully if
I'd been a boy; as it is, they're no use." Meg
sighed, then added more cheerfully. "But I
cost less in other ways, and several relations
send old clothes to me. They are never too
small."
"Do you like the relations' clothes?" Fay
asked.
"Of course not," said Meg, simply. "They
are generally hideous; but, after all, they cover
me and save expense."
The spoiled daughters of Anthony Ross gazed
at Meg with horror-stricken eyes. To them
this seemed a most tragic state of things.
"Do they all," Fay asked timidly, "wear
such ... rich materials—like Cousin Amelia?"
"They're fond of plush, as a rule, but there's
velveteen as well, and sometimes a cloth dress.
One was mustard-coloured, and embittered my
life for a whole year."
Jan suddenly ceased to brush Fay's hair and
went and sat on the bed beside Meg and put her
arm round her. Fay's pretty face, framed in
fluffy masses of fair hair, was solemn in excess
of sympathy.
"I shouldn't care a bit if only the boys were
through Sandhurst and safely into the Indian
Army—but I do hate them having to go without
nearly everything. Trevor's a King's Cadet,
but they wouldn't give us two cadetships ...
Still," she added, more cheerfully, "it's cheaper
than anything else for a soldier's son."
"Is your father a soldier?" asked Jan.
"Oh, yes, a major in the Westshires; but he
had to leave the Army because of his health, and
his pension is very small, and mother had so
little money. I sometimes think it killed her
trying to do everything on nothing."
"Were you quite small when she died?" Fay
asked in a sympathetic whisper.
"Oh, no; I was nearly twelve, and quite as big
as I am now. Then I kept house while the boys
were at Bedford, but when they went to Sandhurst
poor little Papa thought I'd better get
some education, too, and Uncle John's wife
offered to take me for nothing, so here I am.
Here, it's too wonderful. Who could have
dreamed that Ribston Hall would lead to this?"
And Meg snuggled down in Jan's kind embrace,
her red hair spread around her like a veil.
"Are some of the richly-dressed relations
nice?" Jan asked hopefully.
"I don't know if you'd think them nice—you
seem to expect such a lot from people—but
they're quite kind—only it's a different sort of
kindness from yours here. They don't laugh
and expect you to enjoy yourself, like your father.
My brothers say they are dull ... they call
them—I'm afraid it's very ungrateful—the weariful
rich. But I expect we're weariful to them
too. I suppose poor relations are boring if you're
well-off yourself. But we get pretty tired, too,
when they talk us over."
"But do you mean to say they talk you over
to you?"
"Always," Meg said firmly. "How badly we
manage, how improvident we are, how Papa
ought to rouse himself and I ought to manage
better, and how foolish it is to let the boys go
into the Army instead of banks and things ...
And yet, you know, it hasn't cost much for
Trevor, and once he's in he'll be able to manage,
and Jo said he'd enlist if there was any more
talk of banks, and poor little Papa had to give
in—so there it is."
"How much older are they than you?" Jan
asked.
"Trevor's nineteen and Jo's eighteen, and they
are the greatest darlings in the world. They
always lifted the heavy saucepans for me at
Bedford, and filled the buckets and did the outsides
of the windows, and carried up the coals to
Papa's sitting-room before they went to school
in the morning, and they very seldom grumbled
at my cooking...."
"But where were the servants?" Fay asked
innocently.
Meg laughed. "Oh, we couldn't have any
servants. A woman came in the morning. Papa
dined at his club, and I managed for the boys
and me. But, oh dear, they do eat a lot, and
joints are so dear. Sheep's heads and things
pall if you have them more than once a week.
They're such a mixty sort of meat, so gummy."
"I can cook," Jan announced, then added
humbly, "at least, I've been to classes, but I
don't get much practice. Cook isn't at all fond
of having me messing in her kitchen."
"It isn't the cooking that's so difficult," said
Meg; "it's getting things to cook. It's all very
well for the books to say 'Take' this and that.
My experience is that you can never 'take' anything.
You have to buy every single ingredient,
and there's never anything like enough. We
tried being fruitarians and living on dates and
figs and nuts all squashed together, but it didn't
seem to come a bit cheaper, for the boys were
hungry again directly and said it was hog-wash."
"Was your papa a fruitarian too?" Fay asked.
"Oh, no, he can't play those tricks; he has to
be most careful. He never had his meals with
us. Our meals would have been too rough for
him. I got him breakfast and afternoon tea.
He generally went out for the others."
Jan and Fay looked thoughtful.
Amelia Ross-Morton was a fair judge of character.
When she consented to take her husband's
niece as a governess-pupil she had been dubious
as to the result. She very soon discovered, however,
that the small red-haired girl was absolutely
trustworthy, that she had a power of keeping
order quite disproportionate to her size, that she
got through a perfectly amazing amount of work,
and did whatever she was asked as a matter of
course. Thus she became a valuable factor in
the school, receiving nothing in return save her
food and such clothes as Mrs. Ross-Morton considered
too shabby for her own wear.
At the end of the first year Meg ceased to
receive any lessons. Her day was fully occupied
in teaching the younger and chaperoning the
elder girls. Only one stipulation did she make
at the beginning of each term—that she should
be allowed to accept, on all reasonable occasions,
the invitations of Anthony Ross and his daughters,
and she made this condition with so much
firmness that Anthony's cousin knew better than
to be unreasonably domineering, as was her usual
habit. Moreover, though it was against her
principles to do anything to further the enjoyment
of persons in a subordinate position, she
was, in a way, flattered that Anthony and his
girls should thus single out her "niece by marriage"
and appear to enjoy her society.
Thus it came about that Meg went a good deal
to St. George's Square and nearly always spent
part of each holiday with Fay and Jan wherever
they happened to be.
The queer clothes were kept for wear at Ribston
Hall, and by degrees—although she never
had any money—she became possessed of garments
more suitable to her age and colouring.
Again and again Anthony painted her. She
sat for him with untiring patience and devotion.
She was always entirely at her ease with him,
and prattled away quite simply of the life that
seemed to him so inexpressibly hard and dreary.
Only once had he interfered on her behalf at
Ribston Hall, and then sorely against Meg's will.
She was sitting for him one day, with her veil of
flaming hair spread round her, when she said,
suddenly, "I wonder why it is incorrect to send
invitations by post to people living in the same
town?"
"But it isn't," Anthony objected. "Everybody
does it."
"Not in schools," Meg said firmly. "Mrs.
Ross-Morton will never send invitations to people
living in London through the post—she says it
isn't polite. They must go by hand."
"I never heard such nonsense," Anthony exclaimed
crossly. "If she doesn't send 'em by
post, how does she send them?"
"I take them generally, in the evening, after
school, and deliver them at all the houses. Some
are fairly near, of course—a lot of her friends
live in Regent's Park—but sometimes I have to
go quite a long way by bus. I don't mind that
in summer, when it's light, but in winter it's horrid
going about the lonely roads ... People
speak to one...."
Anthony Ross stepped from behind his easel.
"And what do you do?" he asked.
"I run," Meg said simply, "and I can generally
run much faster than they do ... but it's
a little bit frightening."
"It's infernal," Anthony said furiously. "I
shall speak to Amelia at once. You are never to
do it again."
In vain did Meg plead, almost with tears, that
he would do nothing of the kind. He was roused
and firm.
He did "speak to Amelia." He astonished
that good lady as much as he annoyed her. Nevertheless
Mrs. Ross-Morton used the penny post
for her invitations as long as Meg remained at
Ribston Hall.
At the end of two years Major Morton, who
had removed from Bedford to Cheltenham, wrote
a long, querulous letter to his sister-in-law to the
effect that if—like the majority of girls nowadays—his
daughter chose to spend her life far from
his sheltering care, it was time she earned something.
Mrs. Ross-Morton replied that only now was
Meg beginning to repay all the expense incurred
on her behalf in the way of board, clothing and
tuition; and it was most unreasonable to expect
any salary for quite another year.
Major Morton decided to remove Meg from
Ribston Hall.
Many acrimonious letters passed between her
aunt and her father before this was finally accomplished,
and Meg left "under a cloud."
To her great astonishment, her meek little
uncle appeared at Paddington to see her off.
Just as the train was starting he thrust an envelope
into her hand.
"It hasn't been fair," he almost shouted—for
the train was already beginning to move. "You
worked hard, you deserved some pay ... a
little present ... but please don't mention it
to your aunt ... She is so decided in her
views...."
When Meg opened the envelope she found
three ten-pound notes. She had never seen so
much money before, and burst into tears; but it
was not because of the magnitude of the gift.
She felt she had never properly appreciated her
poor little uncle, and her conscience smote her.
This was at Christmas.
The weariful rich sat in conclave over Meg,
and it was decided that she should in March
go as companion and secretary to a certain Mrs.
Trent slightly known to one of them.
Mrs. Trent was kindly, careless, and quite
generous as regards money. She had grown-up
daughters, and they lived in one of the Home
Counties where there are many country-houses
and plenty of sport. Meg proved to be exceedingly
useful, did whatever she was asked to do,
and a great many things no one had ever done
before. She shared in the fun, and for the first
time since her mother died was not overworked.
Her employer was as keen on every form of
pleasure as her own daughters. She exercised
the very smallest supervision over them and
none at all over the "quite useful" little companion.
Many men came to the easy-going, lavish
house, and Meg, with pretty frocks, abundant
leisure and deliriously prim Ribston-Hallish
manners, came in for her full share of admiration.
It happened that at the end of July Anthony
Ross came up to London in the afternoon to
attend and speak at a dinner in aid of some
artists' charity. He and Jan were staying with
friends at Teddington; Fay, an aunt and the
servants were already at Wren's End—all but
Hannah, the severe Scottish housemaid, who
remained in charge. She was grim and gaunt
and plain, with a thick, black moustache, and
Anthony liked her less than he could have wished.
But she had been Jan's nurse, and was faithful
and trustworthy beyond words. He would never
let Jan go to the country ahead of him, for without
her he always left behind everything most
vital to his happiness, so she was to join him
next day and see that his painting-tackle was
all packed.
The house in St. George's Square was nominally
shut up and shrouded in dust-sheets, but Hannah
had "opened up" the dining-room on Anthony's
behalf, and there he sat and slumbered till she
should choose to bring him some tea.
He was awakened by an opening door and
Hannah's voice announcing, not tea, but:
"Miss Morton to see you, sir."
There seemed a thousand "r's" in both the
Morton and the sir, and Anthony, who felt that
there was something ominous and arresting in
Hannah's voice, was wide-awake before she
could shut the door again.
Sure enough it was Meg, clad in a long grey
dust-cloak and motor bonnet, the grey veil flung
back from a very pale face.
Meg, looking a wispy little shadow of woe.
Anthony came forward with outstretched
hands.
"Meg, my child, what good wind has blown
you here this afternoon? I thought you were
having ever such a gay time down in the country."
But Meg made no effort to grasp the greeting
hands. On the contrary, she moved so that the
whole width of the dining-room table was between
them.
"Wait," she said, "you mustn't shake hands
with me till I tell you what I've done ... perhaps
you won't want to then."
And Anthony saw that she was trembling.
"Come and sit down," he said. "Something's
wrong, I can see. What is it?"
But she stood where she was, looking at him
with large, tragic eyes; laid down a leather
despatch-case she was carrying, and seized the
edge of the table as if for support.
"I'd rather not sit down yet," she said. "Perhaps
when you've heard what I've got to tell
you, you'll never want me to sit down in your
house again ... and yet ... I did pray so
you'd be here ... I knew it was most unlikely
... but I did pray so ... And you are here."
Anthony was puzzled. Meg was not given to
making scenes or going into heroics.
It was evident that something had happened
to shake her out of her usual almost cynical
calm.
"You'd be much better to sit down," he said,
soothingly. "You see, if you stand, so must I,
and it's such an uncomfortable way of talking."
She pulled out a chair and sat down at the
table, took off her gloves, and two absurd small
thumbs appeared above its edge, the knuckles
white and tense with the strength of her grip.
Anthony seated himself in a deep chair beside
the fireplace. He was in shadow. Meg
faced the light, and he was shocked at the appearance
of the little smitten face.
"Now tell me," he said gently, "just as little
or as much as you like."
"This morning," she said hoarsely, "I ran
away with a man ... in a motor-car."
Anthony was certainly startled, but all he said
was, "That being the case, why are you here,
my dear, and what have you done with him?"
"He was married...."
"Have you only just found that out?"
"No, I knew it all along. His wife is hard
and disagreeable and older than he is ... and
he's thirty-five ... and they can't live together,
and she won't divorce him and he can't divorce
her ... and I loved him so much and thought
how beautiful it would be to give up everything
and make it up to him."
"Yes?" said Anthony, for Meg paused as
though unable to go on.
"And it seemed very wonderful and noble to
do this, and I forgot my poor little Papa and
those boys in India, and you and Jan and Fay
and ... I was very mad and very happy ...
till this morning, when we actually went off in
his car."
"But where," Anthony asked in a voice studiously
even and quiet, "are he and his car?"
"I don't know," Meg said hopelessly, "unless
they're still at the place where we had lunch ...
and I don't suppose he'd stay there all this
time...."
Anthony felt a great desire to laugh, but Meg
looked so woebegone and desperately serious
that he restrained the impulse and said very
kindly: "I don't yet understand how, having
embarked upon such an enterprise, you happen
to be here ... alone. Did you quarrel at lunch,
or what?"
"We didn't have lunch," Meg exclaimed with
a sob. "At least, I didn't ... it was the lunch
that did it."
"Did what?"
"Made me realise what I had done, and go
away."
"Meg dear," said Anthony, striving desperately
to keep his voice steady, "was it a very bad
lunch?"
"I don't know," she answered with the utmost
seriousness. "We hadn't begun; we were just
going to, when I noticed his hands, and his nails
were dirty, and they looked horrid, and suddenly
it came over me that if I stayed ... those
hands...."
She let go of the table, put her elbows upon it
and hid her face in her hands.
Anthony made no sound, and presently, still
with hidden face, she went on again:
"And in that minute I saw what I was doing,
and that I could never be the same again, and I
remembered my poor little dyspeptic Papa, and
my dear, dear brothers so far away in India ...
and you and Jan and Fay—all the special people
I pray for every single night and morning—and
I felt that if I didn't get away that minute I
should die...."
"And how did you get away?"
"It was quite simple. There was something
wrong with the car (that's how he got his hands
so dirty), and he'd sent for a mechanic, and just
as we were sitting down to lunch, the waiter said
the motor-man had come ... and he went out
to the garage to speak to him...."
"Yes?" Anthony remarked, for again Meg
paused.
"So I just walked out of the front door. No
one saw me, and the station was across the road,
and I went right in and asked when there was a
train to London, and there was one going in five
minutes; so I took a ticket and came straight
here, for I knew somehow, even if you were all
away, Hannah would let me stay ... just to-night.
I knew she would ..." and Meg began
to sob feebly.
And, as if in response to the mention of her
name, Hannah appeared, bearing a tray with
tea upon it. Hannah was short and square; she
stumped as she walked, and she carried a tray
very high and stately, as though it were a sacrifice.
As she came in Meg rose and hastily moved to
the window, standing there with her back to the
room.
"I thocht," said Hannah, as though challenging
somebody to contradict her, "that Miss
Morton would be the better for an egg to her
tea. She looks just like a bit soap after a hard
day's washing."
"I had no lunch," said a muffled, apologetic
voice from the window.
"Come away, then, and take yer tea," Hannah
said sharply. "Young leddies should have more
sense than go fasting so many hours."
As it was evident that Hannah had no intention
of leaving the room till she saw Meg sitting
at the table, the girl came back and sat
down.
"See that she gets her tea, sir," she said in a
low, admonitory voice to Anthony. "She's
pretty far through."
The tray was set at the end of the table. Anthony
came and sat down behind it.
"I'll pour out," he said, "and until you've
drunk one cup of tea, eaten one piece of bread-and-butter
and one egg, you're not to speak one
word. I will talk."
He tried to, disjointedly and for the most part
nonsense. Meg drank her tea, and to her own
amazement ate up her egg and several pieces of
bread-and-butter with the utmost relish.
As the meal proceeded, Anthony noted that
she grew less haggard. The tears still hung on
her eyelashes, but the eyes themselves were a
thought less tragic.
When Hannah came for the tray she gave a
grunt of satisfaction at the sight of the egg-shell
and the empty plates.
"Now," said Anthony, "we must thresh this
subject out and settle what's to be done. I suppose
you left a message for the Trents. What
did you tell them?"
"Lies," said Meg. "He said we must have a
good start. His yacht was at Southampton.
And I left a note that I'd been suddenly summoned
to Papa, and would write from there.
They'd all gone for a picnic, you know—and it
was arranged I was to have a headache that
morning ... I've got it now with a vengeance
... It seemed rather fun when we were planning
it. Now it all looks so mean and horrid ...
Besides, lots of people saw us in his motor ...
and people always know me again because of
my hair. Everyone knew him ... the whole
county made a fuss of him, and it seemed so
wonderful ... that he should care like that for
me...."
"Doubtless it did," said Anthony drily. "But
we must consider what is to be done now. If you
said you were going to your father, perhaps the
best thing you can do is to go to him, and write
to the Trents from there. I hope you didn't inform
him of your intention?"
"No," she faltered. "I was to write to him
just before we sailed ... But you may be perfectly
sure the Trents will find out ... He will
probably go back there to look for me ... I
expect he is awfully puzzled."
"I expect he is, and I hope," Anthony added
vindictively, "the fellow is terrified out of his
life as well. He ought to be horsewhipped, and
I'd like to do it. A babe like you!"
"No," said Meg, firmly; "there you're wrong.
I'm not a babe ... I knew what I was doing;
but up to to-day it seemed worth it ... I never
seemed to see till to-day how it would hurt other
people. Even if he grew tired of me—and I had
faced that—there would have been some awfully
happy months ... and so long as it was only
me, it didn't seem to matter. And when you've
had rather a mouldy life...."
"It can never be a case of 'only me.' As society
is constituted, other people are always involved."
"Yet there was Marian Evans ... he told
me about her ... she did it, and everyone came
round to think it was very fine of her really. She
wrote, or something, didn't she?"
"She did," said Anthony, "and in several other
respects her case was not at all analogous to
yours. She was a middle-aged woman—you are
a child...."
"Perhaps, but I'm not an ignorant child...."
"Oh, Meg!" Anthony protested.
"I daresay about books and things I am, but
I mean I haven't been wrapped in cotton-wool,
and taken care of all my life, like Jan and Fay
... I know about things. Oh dear, oh dear,
will you forbid Jan ever to speak to me again?"
"Jan!" Anthony repeated. "Jan! Why,
she's the person of all others we want. We'll
do nothing till she's here. Let's get her." And
he pushed back his chair and rushed to the bell.
Meg rushed after him: "You'll let her see me?
You'll let her talk to me? Oh, are you sure?"
The little hands clutched his arm, her ravaged,
wistful face was raised imploringly to his.
Anthony stooped and kissed the little face.
"It's just people like Jan who are put into the
world to straighten things out for the rest of us.
We've wasted three-quarters of an hour already.
Now we'll get her."
"Is she on the telephone?" asked the practical
Meg. "Not far off?"
Jan was quite used to being summoned to her
father in a tremendous hurry. She was back in
St. George's Square before he started for the
dinner. Meg was lying down in one of the dismantled
bedrooms, and when Jan arrived she
went straight to her father in his dressing-room.
She found him on his knees, pursuing a refractory
collar-stud under the wash-stand.
"It's well you've come," he said as he got up.
"I can't fasten my collar or my tie. I've had a
devil of a time. My fingers are all thumbs and
I'm most detestably sticky."
He told Jan about Meg. She fastened his
collar and arranged his tie in the neatest of bows.
Then she kissed him on both cheeks and told
him not to worry.
"How can one refrain from worrying when
the works of the devil and the selfishness of man
are made manifest as they have been to-day?
But for the infinite mercy of God, where would
that poor silly child have been?"
"It's just because the infinite mercy of God
is so much stronger than the works of the devil
or the selfishness of man, that you needn't worry,"
said Jan.
Anthony put his hands on Jan's shoulders and
held her away from him.
"Do you know," he said, "I shall always like
Hannah better after this. In spite of her
moustache and her grimness, that child was
sure Hannah would take her in, whether any
of us were here or not. Now, how did she
know?"
"Because," said Jan, "things are revealed to
babes like Meg that are hidden from men of
the world like you. Hannah is all right—you
don't appreciate Hannah, and you are rather
jealous of her moustache."
Anthony leant forward and kissed his tall
young daughter: "You are a great comfort,
Jan," he said. "How do you do it?"
Jan nodded at him. "It will all straighten
out—don't you worry," she said.
All the same, there was plenty of worry for
everybody. The man, after his fashion, was
very much in love with Meg. He was horribly
alarmed by her sudden and mysterious disappearance.
No one had seen her go, no one had
noticed her.
He got into a panic, and motored back to the
Trents', arriving there just before dinner. Mrs.
Trent, tired and cross after a wet picnic, had, of
course, read Meg's note, thought it very casual
of the girl and was justly incensed.
On finding they knew no more of Meg's movements
than he did himself, the man—one Walter
Brooke—lost his head and confessed the truth
to Mrs. Trent, who was much shocked and not
a little frightened.
Later in the evening she received a telegram
from Jan announcing Meg's whereabouts.
Jan had insisted on this, lest the Trents should
suspect anything and wire to Major Morton.
Mrs. Trent, quite naturally, refused to have
anything further to do with Meg. She talked
of serpents, and was very much upset. She wrote
a dignified letter to Major Morton, explaining
her reasons for Meg's dismissal. She also wrote
to their relative among the weariful rich, through
whom she had heard of Meg.
Meg was more under a cloud than when she
left Ribston Hall.
But for Jan and Anthony she might have gone
under altogether; but they took her down to
Wren's End and kept guard over her. Anthony
Ross dealt faithfully with the man, who went
yachting at once.
Meg recovered her poise, searched the advertisements
of the scholastic papers industriously,
and secured a post in a school for little
boys, as Anthony forced his cousin Amelia to
give her a testimonial.
Here she worked hard and was a great success,
for she could keep order, and that quality, where
small boys are concerned, is much more valuable
than learning. She stayed there for some years,
and then her frail little ill-nourished body gave
out, and she was gravely ill.
When she recovered, she went as English
governess to a rich German family in Bremen.
The arrangement was only for one year, and at
its termination she was free to offer to meet Jan
and her charges.